KULA-KAMINI

away those tears, on me thy glance bestow and let me
thy full-moon face behold. If in a thousand ways I
have erred with thee and caused thee pain, yet, lord-
devoted as thou art, thy forgiveness to me, thy Lord,
thou canst not deny."

A dumb-struck witness to His acts, I gaped! "For-
bear" I broke forth, while His hands I seized and on my
bosom placed. "Thou art the Supremest, the Lord of
all. If Thou dost of me forgiveness seek, can I, Thy
slave in bondage, near Thee ever approach ? Sinner
as I am, lifelong years in my own sins I burn, and to
crown all, Thou seekest forgiveness of me, as though
Thou wert the sinner, not L 0 how could I this
torture beary Such humbleness and lowliness, none
else but Thou could show. With folded hands I pray
to Thee, for once leave this humility which breaks
my heart in twain. Born a weakling, evil propensities
over me strongly hold their sway. Ever in errors fallen.
through my own misdeeds I drifted, till the shore was
now reached. Let me my heart unburthen ; my love
to my Lord was a sham, for in the heart's temple there
was none. 'Full of kindness 0 Lord Thou art'—how
oft like this I've said but it came from the lips, not the
heart, and ever in fear of Thee, my life was spent and
lost. Thou art or art not\ 'life is unreal', 'shall I live
or cease to be\—by doubts and fears like these my
life was swayed and failing to know and worship Thee,
life's brief span is spent. If I had but known before,
that Thou wert my Lord to adore, of supremest virtues
born, would I then have lost my anchor and drifted
from shore to shore ? Or would I have sought for

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