150 SKETCHES OF GREAT TRUTHS way to Self-dedication, nothing can be shirked. Everything must be faced. You do not unbind yourself by shirking ; but only by taking hold of the cord and untying the knot. If ill-health is your karma and prevents what you feel is complete self-dedication, it is no use kicking against it. Be sure that it comes as a reaction from your past action, and its lesson has to be learnt. How often in life has illness been a great blessing, a time of rest, a time to rebuild, a time of silence, a time of solitude; for illness means a death, and each death of any sort means necessarily a rebirth and follows as the night the day. Self-dedication is a process built up bit by bit slowly, gradually, not complete until it is absolute self-surrender which is another word for self* liberation,, and that means a man made perfect^ deification. It is a hard process, this severing of chains, this cutting of moorings, for if yon have your boat safely tied up even though it be in a stagnant pool and you want to get out of the pool, you do not like to cut the painter, for the boat will then drift into the stream, and where will the stream carry you ? In life, we must cut ourselves adrift and drift for a while alone, unhelped, and watch the stream. While we are drifting, we do not know what we want>