1774] To tJie Hon. Henry Seymour Conway 55
through Berlin, should have no joy like avoiding him—like
one of our countrymen, who changed horses at Paris, and
asked what the name of that town was. All the other
civilities you have received I am perfectly happy in. The
Germans are certainly a civil, well-meaning people, and,
I believe, one of the least corrupted nations in Europe.
I don't think them very agreeable; but who do I think
are so ? A great many Frenchwomen, some Englishmen,
and a few Englishwomen; exceedingly few Frenchmen.
Italian women are the grossest, vulgarest of the sex. If
an Italian man has a grain of sense, he is a buffoon. So
much for Europe!

I have already told you, and so must Lady Ailesbury,
that my courage fails me, and I dare not meet you at Paris.
As the period is arrived when the gout used to come, it is
never a moment out of my head. Such a suffering, such
a helpless condition as I was in for five months and a half,
two years ago, makes me tremble from head to fool I
should die at once if seized in a French, inn; or what, if
possible, would be worse, at Paris, where I must admit
everybody—I, who you know can hardly bear to see even
you when I am ill, and who shut up myself here, and
would not let Lord and Lady Hertford come near me—r-
I, who have my room washed though in bed, how could
I bear French dirt ? In short, I, who am so capricious, and
whom you are pleased to call a philosopher, I suppose
because I have given up everything but my own will—how
could I keep my temper, who have no way of keeping my
temper but by keeping it out of everybody's way! No»
I must give up the satisfaction of being with you at Paris.
I have just learnt to give up my pleasures, but I cannot
give up my pains, which such selfish people as I, who have
suffered much, grow to compose into a system that they are
partial to, because it is their own. I must make myself