OLIVER GOLDSMITH'S LIFE AND TIMES.
1758 submit to daylight scrutiny, he would keep within his dirty,
jsllo. naked, unfurnished room, with its single wooden chair and
window bench. And that was Goldsmith's home.

On a certain night in the beginning of November 1758,
his ascent of Break-neck Steps must have had unwonted
gloom. He had learnt the failure of his new hope: the
Coromandel appointment was his no longer. In what way
this mischance so unexpectedly occurred, it would now be
hopeless to enquire. No explanation could be had from
the dying Doctor Milner; none was given by himself; he
always afterwards withheld allusion to it, with even studious
care. It is quite possible, though no authority exists for
the assertion, that doubts may have arisen of his competence
to discharge the duties of the appointment; what followed
a few months later, indeed, will be seen to give warrant for
such a surmise; but even supposing this to have Been the
real motive, there is no ground for suspecting that such a
motive was alleged. The most likely supposition would'
probably be, that failure in getting together means for his
outfit with sufficient promptitude, was made convenient
excuse for transferring the favour to another. That it was
any failure of his own courage at the prospect of so long an
exile, or that he never proposed more by his original scheme
than a foreign flight for two or three years, has no other
or better foundation than the Hodson letter: on which
authority it would also follow, that he remained contented
with what he already possessed, subdued his capricious
wants, and turned to the friends, the esteem, the refined
conversation, and all the conveniences of life, which awaited
him. in Green Arbour Court, with a new and virtuous resolve
of quiet thankfulness.
Alas! far different were the feelings with which he now