| GAREN^ l\a COMMUTER'S " J22t WIFE cSOu r. \*r / i THE LIBRARY OF THE UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA LOS ANGELES r t BY THE SAME AUTHOR. PEOPLE OF THE WHIRLPOOL. THE WOMAN ERRANT. THE GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE THE GARDEN )F A COMMUTER'S WIFE RDED BY THE GARDENER Tfrfn fork THE MACMILLAN COMPANY 1911 4U rigbn reurvtj THE GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE RECORDED BY THE GARDENER Nefo gorft THE MACMILLAN COMPANY LONDON : MACMILLAN & CO., LTD. I9II All rigbtt reurvtd COPYRIGHT, 1901, BY THE MACMILLAN COMPANY. Set up and electrotyped October, 1901. Reprinted November, 1901 ; March, May, October, igoa; July, Octobei, 1903; March, 1904; March June, 1906 ; June, September, 1908. ; February, 1910 ; January, 1911. Special edition, in paper covers, May, June, twice, 1903. Nortooob $KB« . 8. Gushing & Co. — Berwick A Smith Co. Norwood, Mass., U.S.A. PS 33 V 196 Book belongs* to t^e Commuter CONTENTS I PAGE THE RETURN i II CONCERNING GARDENERS. IN GENERAL . . 26 III CONCERNING GARDENERS. IN PARTICULAR ... 38 IV THE AMERICANIZING OF PETER SCHMIDT ... 53 V A RAINY DAY. MORNING 74 VI A RAINY DAY. AFTERNOON ...... 90 VII A BIRTHDAY BREAKFAST ..,„.,. 105 VIII SETTING THE SUNDIAL 123 vii viii CONTENTS IX PACK CHIEFLY DOMESTIC 141 X WINTER. THE GARDEN OF BOOKS . 166 XI THE TERRIBLE TEMPTATION 192 XII PLANTING 221 XIII JUNE. OLD ROSES WORTH GROWING .... 244 XIV JULY. THE BED OF SWEET ODOURS .... 268 XV AUGUST. A PLEA FOR A WILD LAWN . . . .291 XVI SEPTEMBER. THE COLOURS OF FLOWERS . . .312 XVII THE APOTHEOSIS OF MARTHA CORKLB ... 334 XVIII OCTOBER. THE YEAR'S MIND 347 The Garden of a Commuter's Wife i THE RETURN October 23 (Battle of Leipsic, 1642, according to the Farmers' Almanac. I never could understand the relationship between the astronomy, history, and literature in this volume). To-day I began the plant- ing of my garden. The combination of date and deed may seem strange to those who do not know ; but as gardening is the most exacting as well as the most exciting of outdoor sports, one cannot begin too early in the season, and it is really better to begin the sea- son before. Neither a garden nor a gardener can be made in one year, nor in one generation even. It takes a fine sort of heredity of air and soil and envi- ronment for either; also gardening is the most cheer- ful and satisfactory pursuit for women who love outdoors. Field and forest often hold one at bay. 2 THE GARDEN OF A We may admire, worship, love, but neither advise nor argue with them nor add one cubit to their stature. In a garden one's personality can come forth, stick a finger into Nature's pie, and lend a hand in the mak- ing of it, besides furnishing many of the ingredients. I have been planting crocuses in the grass borders all the morning, stabbing the turf with a pointed spade handle, yclept dibble, and pushing the sturdy little bulbs deep into the wounds. In April there will be a cluster of starry flowers to cover each scar. Fortunately my backbone is largely composed of New England granite, or it would ache. As it is, I am very glad to sit on a great heap of dry leaves under the south wall and write in my garden book while the cart has gone over to the pit by the river to bring back a load of sand for my tulips and hyacinths. A " Boke of the Garden " is a necessity ; otherwise, so kind is memory about disagreeables, one forgets one's mistakes. I am sure that I should have for- gotten a very bad one of mine and have planted my bulbs in the long strip in front of the honeysuckle trellis, but for the finding last night, in an old desk, of one of my schoolgirl journals in which garden items and the sentiments of eighteen were impartially mixed. Under April 20, it said : " Never plant bulbs COMMUTER'S WIFE 3 at the foot of the garden ; the water settles and the mice come out of the wall and eat them or they rot. I've only three hyacinths and four tulips left, but then I didn't plant very many. When I marry I'm going to push all the vegetables over the fence into the field and have nothing but flowers here, and I'm going to buy bulbs and roses by the hundred instead of by sixes. . . . Pocket money doesn't go far for plants when I have to buy gloves out of it to wear to that stupid dancing class and have such very warm hands. Aunt Lot promised that I should join, and I couldn't go back on one of the family. But of course when I'm married I shall be too old for that sort of thing, which will be a great economy besides letting me grub in peace. . . . Aunt Lot says that I shall have changed my mind by then." That was seven years ago, and lo and behold, here I am by the same garden wall, married, but my mind otherwise unchanged, and with bulbs by the hundred, lying in their stout manila bags under the apple tree, waiting to be planted. It seems a lifetime ago, the coming about of it all, yet scarcely longer than the week since our return, so many things have been crowded into it. To begin with, Bluff knew me ! At first I was not sure if the recognition was genuine, for the astute 4 THE GARDEN OF A old setter had won his name in early puppyhood from his self-possession and the calm assurance, un- backed by circumstances, with which he emerged unscathed from fights and other embarrassing situa- tions. The rapid barks that greeted me as I opened the door might have been merely the joy of promised companionship for the October evening ; for though the logs on the study hearth were blazing finely and the lamps were lit, the house seemed strangely silent. I stretched my hands toward the fire instinctively and looked about the familiar room, where the long lines of shelves were never able to hold the flock of books that ran riot over table and mantel-shelf, crowded the inkstand on the desk, and followed their owner to his lounging chair, where they perched on both arms, sometimes forgetting their dignity so far as to fall sprawling to the floor. I looked over my shoulder, expecting every moment to hear footsteps. I was still under the spell of old-world tradition. Bluff drew nearer, trembling with excitement, but the long, ardent sniffs and tail waggings that gradually broke from the usual side-to-side motion into circular sweeps might be merely inquisitive enthusiasm. Finally I heard a step in the hall and went to meet it. A 'maid, wholly strange, handed me my COMMUTER'S WIFE 5 own telegram unopened, saying, " The doctor wasn't looking for you, ma'am, until the eight o'clock train, and he drove over to the hospital a few minutes before this came, saying he'd, be back well before seven." A weight fell upon the buoyant spirits that had hurried me helter skelter from steamer to train, that not a moment might be lost in getting to home and father — perhaps I should say father and home ; but I think that in the far back transmigratory time I must have once been a carrier pigeon, so strong is the homing instinct in me. Evan said that we should be arrested for escaped lunatics, even if we avoided a similar penalty for reckless driving. At the same time he promised the driver an extra dollar if he made the desired train, this being a combination of his inborn English cus- tom of tipping, that makes travel so easy, and a prudent way that Evan has of explaining certain dis- advantages in what one wishes to do at the same time that he is smoothing the way for the doing thereof. All the way from Sandy Hook to the pier, I had thumbed the old yellow time-table, never realiz- ing the changes that two years might have made in it, fastening upon one train after another as petty delays caused each in turn to be impossible. People 6 THE GARDEN OF A crowded about, chattering incessantly of the beauty of the bay and the approach to New York, the returning tourist pausing every few minutes to ask some foreigner how he liked America, then drowning the polite incoherence of the answer by a whirlpool of statistics about the length, breadth, thickness, and cost of the Brooklyn Bridge. I had quite forgotten how very loud we talk hi public and how self-con- scious we are. Very probably, however, I was irri- table; for my heart was leaping on and on to a strip of wild land on a hillside, where pines and forest trees stretch their branches to the sky ; scatter- ing flower beds weave in and out among the shrubs in the southern corner cut into the hillside beneath a bank wall, and half a dozen dogs lie dozing in the sun upon the steps and porch of a rambling low house, where lives my father, the country doctor who carries comfort across the hills to the hard- worked farming people, even as freely as the sun and rain give strength to their crops. Could anything be amiss ? Not for the first time, however, had feet travelled faster than a telegram. No sedate gray horses at the station, no dear gray head hi sight ; so taking the first proffer of a trap, I had fled, leaving Evan to wrestle with the luggage and the local teamster. COMMUTER'S WIFE 7 Presently Bluff ceased his gyrations, and stood watching me, paw raised, tail rigid, quite at a point, while the maid was speaking ; then as I turned to go down the hall, he gave one indescribable cry, so full was it of human expression, made a bound, touched the tip of my nose lightly with his tongue, then ran to a hook beside the tall clock, across whose face the full moon had sailed rhythmically for a hundred years, without ever waning, seized a dusty riding whip that hung there, — my old whip, — dragged it down, and laid it at my feet, while he backed toward the door, his eyes fixed on mine in a very delirium of joy. Yes, Bluff knew me ! It was two years since he had brought me the whip as the regular prelude to a walk, two years since he had heard my voice : many humans forget in that time. Bluff knew me, and was welcoming me home not as a stranger, but as one of his familiar world. Something tightened in my throat. I stooped to hug the old faithful, but he whirled about, and scampered toward the door. I picked up the whip and followed. Outside a mild gray twilight, mingled with the light of the quarter moon, pictured everything with soft outlines. As Bluff leaped down the steps, a pair of j uncos flew from their perch in the honeysuckles, but soon set- tled to rest again. 8 THE GARDEN OF A Where was the dog going? Down between the weigelias and lilacs through the stiff little arbour to the garden, to the great bough apple tree whose trunk was encircled by a seat. Surely Bluff had not forgotten. Then as he saw that I hesitated, he ran to a corner where stepping stones led up the bank to the open fields, gave a short bark and waited for me. " Not to-night, old fellow ; to-morrow we will go there," I said, seating myself by the apple tree. Instantly he thrust his nose into my hand, then curled himself up at my feet. Before me was the garden where I had played all my childhood, until playing had turned into dream- ing. It was unkempt, but it seemed to have more dignity and meaning than the garden of my memory ; the unpruned rosebushes reached out long bare arms, or formed briery tangles according to their kind, the shrubs were massive and well grown, and had the soothing influence of permanence. In a sheltered corner a cluster of chrysanthemums, unharmed by frost, showed their silvery disks, and a single crum- pled pansy looked up from the path where it had found footing. What was that perfume ? Stooping, I separated the cold, damp leaves of a mat of Russian violets that grew from under the seat. Yes, there COMMUTER'S WIFE 9 were a dozen of the flowers themselves, anticipating spring after their hopeful habit. Violets were my mother's flowers, and this was her seat. She went away when I was five years old, but I have not forgotten, and I always called this great apple with its ample branches that furnished nooks alike to me and to the robins and bluebirds, — the Mother Tree. I used to make bouquets and wreaths of my best flowers, and stick them hi the knot-holes or hang them on the branches the particu- lar day in June when father always shut himself into his study, and would not speak even to me. Aunt Lot had said that I was a pagan to make an idol out of a tree and hang flowers on it, and scolded until I cried bitterly. Father, hearing my distress, came out to find the cause, and sat with me under the tree all the afternoon. From that day we under- stood each other, and the study door was never closed between us. Here, too, it was that he told me of his plans for the hospital that now stands over yonder by the town, where he meant to help all women for mother's sake. I only understood his moods gropingly in those days; for the subtle language of the human heart cannot be imagined, but may only be read by those who love and are loved in return, and the other love also came to me through loving father. io THE GARDEN OF A Beside the gift of healing and sympathy with everything living, father had the book madness. Not the disagreeable stuffy kind of mania that Nodier's Theodore died of, simply the hunger for the friendships that books offered him and the desire to keep such boon companions in the best of health and raiment. Woe was upon me even in my baby- hood if I ever ate cookies over the lap of the mean- est volume or cut the leaves of a magazine with anything less smooth than a paper knife ! So it came about that when we took our winter holidays in Boston and New York, we mingled music, theatre, and pictures with many eager hours in a dingy auc- tion room where books were sold, that stood at the meeting of three crossways. It is impossible to word the keen joy we both found within those smoky walls, father in the chase and bringing down the prey, I in retrieving, so to speak. This sport con- sisted in rushing the precious volumes safely past Aunt Lot's custom-house inspection and mixing them with the older residents in the book shelves until their identity was lost. The risk of retrieving varied greatly with the size of the book itself. The "New English Canaan" and Josselyn's " Rarities " were easily pocketed, and they modestly kept the secret of their own value, COMMUTER'S WIFE n but to smuggle in the clumsy bulk of Gerarde's " Herball " in its snuffy sheep cover was an impos- sibility, and father had to suffer from weak muddy coffee for a fortnight. Good coffee was one of his few luxuries, and Aunt Lot knew well how to make her mild wrath felt. Exactly why she grudged father his precious old books I never could discover, possibly because she could not imagine any other point of view than her own, which narrowness she called economy. I very early found, however, that we were not the only buyers obliged to retrieve. Men came to that auction room whose word was law to hundreds of their fellows, and packed away their winnings in mysterious pockets like so many crimes, and I once helped an old thumb-fingered gentleman, who owned a railroad, to stow away a glorious mis- sal illuminated on vellum in a pasteboard box marked " one ream legal cap ! " Since then as a married woman I have mingled with others of my class, and I find that this stupid book grudge among us is a more fatal disease than the book madness of men, and I only hope that some one will discover the bacillus that causes it. I also often wondered why father cared about Aunt Lot's protestations ; such money as he had was his own to spend, but it was doubtless owing to his medical rule 12 THE GARDEN OF A of never reasoning with the unreasonable, and Aunt Lot surely belonged to the latter class, even allowing for her little kindnesses that were set edgewise like thin streaks of lean in overwhelmingly fat bacon. In fact, her very name came from her habit of looking backward instead of forward at all the turn- ing-points of her life and thus missing her best chances, until father had so often quoted " Re- member Lot's wife " to her, that unconsciously she became Aunt Lot to us, though outsiders to this day think her name Charlotte. My book-shelves also shared in the spoils, and each winter saw me more keen for the hunting. In summer I almost forgot books. What need was there for them when I had all outdoors around and above and below me, everything belonging to me through the sight, and telling its own story without the chilly intervention of print? All outdoors and father to take me everywhere! Said the Marquis of Carrabas to Puss in Boots, upon one of the rare occasions when he offered any advice : " We have but little money, but as long as we use our eyes faithfully, everything that they see under the sky is ours." In this way Puss grew up COMMUTER'S WIFE 13 with the idea that all outdoors belonged to her. By the way, did you ever know that the Marquis was really a country doctor, and that Puss was a female child? It was from father's shoulder that I peered into my first woodpecker's hole, receiving a sharp reproof in the nose from the bill of the irate owner. Who could compare printed thoughts to those long drives through the woods to the charcoal-burner's camp, the horseback rides single file along the river path to the sawmill, where a lumberman seemed always to be ill of ague from the dankness of the mill pond? Or the jolting trips in a buckboard over the corduroy road across the marshes to the bar, where the light- house boat waited for us, or yet the tramps in pursuit of plover and woodcock through the bottom lands ? Do not be shocked, kind ladies of the Audubon Society ; we obeyed the game laws, the birds always went to the sick, and I knew no better ; also father was quite proud of me when I shot an old crow on the wing. If you try it, you will understand why ! Then again I would stay for days in my garden, grubbing in the few ragged borders that the vegeta- ble greed of the man of all work and Aunt Lot's 14 THE GARDEN OF A love for spinky foliage beds left me, planning what I should do in the " some day " that always seemed a matter of course to me. The very first thing that I should do in that happy time would be to send away the gardener, and then I would have an iron pot painted red, with red geraniums in it and conch shells to edge the beds, like those in the garden of the grocer's wife, for my taste was then in the Indian war-paint stage. When autumn came and outdoors put on her iron mask to shield herself from cold, I crept back to the study and made friends again with books, and read each new catalogue, lying flat on my face upon an old hair-cloth lounge, with Timperley's "Dictionary of Printing" (which, being lumpy, heavy, and weak in the back, was constantly falling off its shelf) for a reading-desk. Ah ! web of Fate ! it was well that I did not see you weaving the pattern of my life among those pages ; being young, I might have resented you and spoiled the fabric. One day father discovered in a catalogue among some curious medical books a copy of Dodoens's " Herball." This he had long wanted for its absurdly quaint descriptions of the medical properties of plants. It was the English translation made by Henry Lite and printed in London in 1586. It bore the auto- COMMUTER'S WIFE 15 graph and notes of "J. Oldham, chirurgien," and a verse from his pen : — « Reader ! (where Lite is in the Right) Peruse in grateful strain, And where Dodoneus is Erroneus Correct him clear and plain. J. O. 1799." Evidently Oldham had differed so much from the author that his corrections were both clear, plain, and plentiful. Though valuable from father's stand- point, it was a volume safely within the limits of his purse, and the day of its selling he settled back in his chair determined to hold the book against the field. It was a stormy February day, and there were only two or three bidders of the class that buy on general principles, who dropped out after a little, leaving my father's terse bid to be echoed by one other in a dis- tant corner. The price began straightway to climb hand over hand. What would Aunt Lot say ? Finally the hammer fell, and father flushed with victory gave his name as the purchaser ; the voice in the corner did likewise. The seller paused, saying that there was a mistake somewhere, and proceeded to put up the book again. I could see that father was going to be stubborn, 16 THE GARDEN OF A and I trembled for the other person. I saw him clearly as he stepped forward, a man of thirty, slightly built and muscular, with a strong face and a pair of steel-gray eyes that could see through a wall. The two men looked each other in the face, the younger gave a quizzical little smile, at me it seemed, waived his claim, and the clatter of selling recom- menced. Afterward as we picked our way downstairs in the dusk, father hugging his Dodoens, Gray Eyes was close in front of us, and during a moment's pause father held out his hand and thanked him for his courtesy. In short, the book of contention became the book of introduction, for they instantly found that they had mutual friends. Before a year was out they discovered in truth that they had almost all tastes in common ; they liked the same breed of books, cigars of the same shape and moisture, country life better than that of the city, and finally they agreed that they both loved me; but in this rivalry it was father who stepped aside and Evan was retriever. Evan was English born, and like many a younger son of that vigorous race preferred free flight to sit- ting underneath in an overcrowded nest, with no more interesting view before him than that of his elder brother's legs. So, after circling the globe, he settled COMMUTER'S WIFE 17 in America to ply his craft of landscape architect, for which the time was ripe, and furnish the newly gen- teel with manor houses, Italian gardens, and pleached alleys all made to measure like a suit of clothes. When we were married, alack ! family matters called Evan to England, so for two years we lived away. One year was spent in travel, the other in a quiet English country home, these two years being divided by an illness of the kind where through sheer weakness one loses gravity, and seems to float through space seeking a footing either in heaven or earth and finding neither. The English life was mildly pleasant ; the country with its myriad touchstones, glorious. The rambling stone house, garden, and pleasance in Somerset that fell to Evan's portion, overflowed with such flowers as would gather pilgrims for miles around any New England village. Jasmine halfway to the eaves, Marechal Neil roses and Gloire de Dijons firm as cabbages, bushes of picotee pinks, begonias, Fuchsias grown to trees, sweet violets carpeting the orchard, and ivy making dignified haste to conceal everything unsightly. Herbaceous beds rioting in colour, and all to be had for the picking and the limited care of an erratic old fellow who had been under-gardener once on a great estate, but was climbing down in the world, i8 THE GARDEN OF A led by rheumatism, the English agriculturist's latter- day companion. In the middle of this garden, opposite my morning seat, was an old stone sundial that had a strange influ- ence upon me. I could watch the shadow creep across its face for hours without tiring ; the half-oblit- erated letters of the legend carved upon it read — "I only mark the sunlit hours." It was a good moral and a pleasant influence to grow strong and readjust oneself under. Domestic life flowed easily with Martha Corkle, Evan's old nurse, for majordomo, and a couple of the well- trained maids that cost so little there. For a few months Evan was boyishly happy. He tramped the country-side over in visiting his old haunts, and the smell of the may and cowslips made his breath come short and the veins in his forehead grow tense with suppressed emotion. Did you know that the men of this race have a passion for flowers and are knit thew and bone with the homing, soil- loving instinct which they call loyalty ? The morning of our wedding day, Evan laid a bunch of bride roses in the branches of the Mother Tree in the garden, so there are three now that understand. The old days cast their spell upon him, days from which time had removed the sting and left only the COMMUTER'S WIFE 19 fragrance. Together we rowed on the deep, narrow river, and in the shadowy cathedral listened to the music that seemed to come from the organ without human intervention; in fact, we discovered each other anew. The newly mated should always go away for a space, among strangers if possible. Readjustment cannot take place in the old nest ; but, after that, all is safe. Then, too, not to go away is not to know the joy of return. After a time Evan grew restless ; his scrap of the family raiment was too small, he must weave his own and mine, and for the worker the looms of England are as crowded as the nests. One September morning we sat by the sundial trying to unravel our " weird " and see clearly what was best. Evan held in his hand the offer from a prosperous manufacturer to lease the place for ten years, and while he brooded on the matter I held my peace. I could not trust myself to speak, though the words were crowding thick and fast to my lips. Two letters were brought out, — one for Evan, and one for me. Two American letters. Evan's was lengthy, the bulk being typewritten, with an en« closed note in a well-known hand. 20 THE GARDEN OF A Mine was in father's odd stenographic characters. Instinctively we drew apart to the ends of the bench to read. Five minutes passed ; I looked at Evan. He was gazing at the sundial and gnawing his mustache, then he looked at me, squared his shoulders, and said, " McVicker writes me to come back, that there is a splendid opening for the work that I like best." Then he waited for me to answer, but in a flash I could see the wish to be and do was in his eyes, that he had no desire to sit still and crumble like a respectable ruin. " My letter is from father," I said, as soon as I could steady my voice. " He begs us to come home" (he who had come in my illness to draw me back to life, left again, and never written or spoken a lonely word before). "Aunt Lot is to marry the Methodist minister next month and devote herself to his eight children ! ' Come back,' he says; 'I am hungry for you. This home is yours from now on, in deed and truth, all the place I need being for myself and books.' " Instantly we were side by side again in the middle of the bench, our hands joined, and both laughing. "Poor Aunt Lot!" said Evan. "What a fate! But she will be no longer bothered by books, COMMUTER'S WIFE 21 oecause he will never have the money to buy any- thing but an almanac, and that species of dissenter moves about too much to carry a library if he had one. But, Barbara, I very much dislike taking or living in another man's house, even if he is your father. Besides, the pity of leaving all this," and he glanced around the garden. "If we only take the part that isn't filled with father and books, we shan't be taking very much," I ventured. Evan laughed, as the recollection of father's pervasion of every nook and corner came back to him. Then I squeezed my hands between his, because Evan is always best content when he is protecting something, and fairly begged him to take me home. "As for a garden," I argued, "we will have a charming one, and we will begin it with your god- mother's fifty pounds that she gave us to buy some- thing ' useful and instructive ' for a wedding present. What could be better ? The use will be beauty and the learning pleasure. I will be the only gardener, and you shall have a buttonhole flower for every week-day and two for Sundays." " And go in and out of town and be a commuter, like the men of that hungry-looking crowd that I 22 THE GARDEN OF A used to see hurrying down the station steps of a morning, with unblacked boots and crumby clothes ? " said Evan, sighing. "If living in the country and working in town is being a commuter, yes," I said boldly; "but there are several kinds of them : those who do it because they think it is cheaper to live in the country (which usually means that they are where their friends do not see what they go without), and those who love the country for its own sake ; and our home will be in the real country, not in a tailor-made suburb. You shall have your breakfast in time, no bundles to carry, no crumbs on your chin, or egg on your mustache, and I will never talk about servants. Oh, Evan! if you only knew" — then the nervous- ness left of my illness mastered me, I broke down, and it was all settled then and there. Presently Evan startled me with, "How about Martha Corkle ! I can't lease her with the place, a widow and all that, don't you know ; a good sort, too, only overset and respectful. Couldn't we take her over, now ? Save you a lot of bother, and she could overlook things — a regular old reliable." I was about to say No emphatically, for I thought that Martha, conventional and rigid, would not be able to overlook in another sense many things in COMMUTER'S WIFE 23 a thoroughly New England home, but Evan asked so little and I so much. Then as I looked up, an idea seized me ; I would carry a talisman from the Old world to the New, and I said, " You may trans- plant Martha Corkle (strictly at your own risk, be it said) if you will also take the sundial." So we four are here! Bluff sprang up sniffing and growled, but only for a minute. Evan was coming down the path peering among the bushes to find me. For a moment we stood silently arm in arm under the Mother Tree, then we heard the rapid trotting of a horse coming down the hill and in at the gate. Before I could shake off the spell of the past two years and realize that I was myself, father came swiftly across the orchard, calling, " Barbara ! my child, where are you ? " and gathered me up in his arms. He had not shed a tear when I went away, but now they rained upon my face, mingled with the late falling leaves of the Mother Tree, while all the pent-up love of those two years was in that one word, Barbara! Mother love is invariably held sacred, as it should be, but why has father love never had its due ? It 24 THE GARDEN OF A may be rarer, though no less deep or unselfish. In fact, as I grow older and see other people's mothers, I think there is less self-consciousness in the father love. Who should know this love so well as I whose mother went away when I was five years old? In those years "Our Father Who art in Heaven " meant my father beside my bed, who soothed me until darkness bore no terrors. To one who has had such a father, unbelief in God is impossible. Bluff could not keep in the background for long, and capered about in such evident comprehension of the whole situation that we were soon laughing, and I told father that though this was the garden of Eden, we were going to reverse the old order. Adam and Eve, instead of being driven out soon after their marriage, had come back from their wed- ding trip to feast upon apples, especially those of the tree of knowledge, and that we were going to turn out the serpent and make it into the most fascinating topsy-turvy garden possible, even the Garden of a Commuter's Wife ! Also that we had imported Martha Corkle, the sundial, and a beauti- ful tall copy of the Pickering Walton's "Angler " ; that we bought the last thing in a little book-shop in Southampton for him. I shall remember that shop a long time, for a smutty-nosed cat fresh from the COMMUTER'S WIFE 25 ash bin insisted upon perching on the shoulder of my smart new coat and rubbing against my face. As we entered the door, all talking at once, there stood Martha Corkle herself, the stains of travel removed, clean, respectful, severe. I knew that she had a headache. Oh! why had she not gone comfortably to bed just that one night? Father ejaculated, " Bless me ! " then shook her cordially by the hand, never noticing that she was shocked ; but in the evening meal and long fireside confidences I again quite forgot her. This will never do ! While I have been day- dreaming they have brought the sand and dumped it in the wrong place ! II CONCERNING GARDENERS (IN GENERAL) October 27. In my childhood's garden of dreams there was no room for a gardener. To me that name meant a being who was the interferer, not the mediator between oneself and mother earth, a man who tyrannized and sulked by turns ; in spring was blatant and self-confident ; in autumn, owing to divers mistakes, usually indignant with the quality of the soil, the slope of the land, the amount of rain, and the date of the coming of frost ; in short, made us feel as if we had combined with nature to bring about his martyrdom, which he bore with something akin to triumph, enveloping himself with a halo of failures. A gardener is of course a necessity to the very rich, — those unfortunates whose possessions have expanded alike beyond their personal control and out of the range of the affections, — to the overbusy, the ignorant, and the irresponsible. These four 26 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE 27 classes may have a distinct yearning to grow flowers, fruits, and vegetables, and yet from the causes named are unable to assume the joyful responsi- bility of so doing. On the other hand, it is not needful personally to wield the spade that turns the soil, or trundle the bar- row that carries the manure. Well-directed brute force does this far more admirably, and digging and dragging make one's pen hand, or thimble finger (according to sex and employment) wretchedly stiff, besides causing a wicked extravagance in the matter of shoes and laundry work. But if one fails to per- vade the planting and training with individuality, then is that garden like the proverbial egg without salt ; and of such overdone, underdone, tasteless embryos there are plenty, and it is not people's fault if there are not more. It is merely because it is difficult to force nature into ungraceful attitudes or inharmonious colourings. " I haven't seen anything like this for years. I've told Tomkins to plant fragrant things, but he says lemon verbena isn't used now, and mignonette makes the border lines uneven, but it doesn't do to thwart one's gardener, you know," was the plaint of Mrs. Jenks-Smith, one of the summer colony on the bluff, when, upon her going into my garden after a profes- 28 THE GARDEN OF A sional visit to father, I hesitatingly offered her a great bunch of rose, apple, and nutmeg geranium, annual wall flower, lemon verbena, mignonette, and lavender sprigs. When mother was here, we never had a real gar- dener. She came from a tranquil, old-time home of simpler days, the last child of all ; and though her miniature makes her very lovely, a flower her- self, father insists that to paint her expression would have been impossible. She brought with her the will and skill of garden craft as well as many plants that modern gardeners ignore, though through their beauty, combined with their persistent permanence, their names are appearing once more in the seed catalogues. The garden helper in her brief time was a cheer- ful man of all work who dug and delved as she guided him, and so much of herself radiated from her nook under the Mother Tree, with its vista down the long walk on either side of which the flowers were planted, and was so wrought into the soil, that it still remains after a lapse of twenty years of more or less motiveless experiment, to give the keynote to the garden of my life. Though I was very young, I remember perfectly the eagerness with which she watched for the seed COMMUTER'S WIFE 29 catalogues, simple, convincing affairs lacking the gaudy colour horrors from which, happily, we seem to be again emerging. When the lists had been duly made and recon- sidered, — for the seed-lists of enthusiasts always have to be cut down and reconstructed, — they were mailed. The second rapture was when the parcels came. Oh, the delicious smell of the manila paper bags that held the bulbs, and the damp, bog moss that wrapped growing roots, in which I remember once finding a cranberry plant with a berry, and thus learning that the red fruit did not grow upon a tree like cherries, as I had thought! These two odours are among my primary memories, not to be forgotten any more than I could forget mother's way of lingering over my name as she pronounced it, the sky light in her eyes, of the purple blue of the fringed gentian, or the expression of father's face when on coming home from a long morning ride he found mother among her flowers ; she would bring him a welcome bit of luncheon and some cooling drink as he rested under the old apple tree while she listened to his report of vari- ous happenings, and I absorbed scraps of food and conversation alike. I never again saw that look in his eyes after 30 THE GARDEN OF A mother went away, but one day its counterpart flashed from Evan's, and then I knew that we loved each other without a spoken word. From that time on, father, with his increasing practice and the hospital to direct, had little time to give to outdoor details. He saw that the horses were always in good condition, for this was often a matter of life or death to some one. He fed his dogs, and clung to them for their silent friend- ship, as he sat in his study with his books, or, with his gun, strode off up through the stubble fields, of an October morning ; and he always liked to • have a posy on his mantel-shelf or writing table. Yes, one thing more : he told Aunt Lot to plan and plant as she pleased, but to make no change in the beds that followed the long walk, and spring and fall he watched the thinning out and resetting that insures the long lives of hardy plants, and let- ting only the most perfect blossoms mature their seed until year by year new colours, fanciful hybrids, appeared in the borders, now a thickly matted flower jungle. Poor Aunt Lot and the man of all work soon disagreed, however ; he was accustomed to have his day's toil planned for him by one who under- stood, and then do it in a methodical manner. COMMUTER'S WIFE 31 Aunt Lot had never before cultivated anything more than a city " dooryard," or controlled any service but that of a broken-spirited maid of the poor relation variety, consequently she was inco- herent and unreasonable in her directions, expect- ing him to sow and reap, so to speak, on the same day. I became fully impressed with this by the time I was six years old, and at this time father, tired of settling differences, engaged a "gardener," thinking it would be easier to hold a man respon- sible than his elder half-sister, who always retreated behind a sort of concrete breastwork composed of reminiscences of his boyish shortcomings, relation- ship, and — tears. Father and Aunt Lot looked upon the gardener from different points of view. Aunt Lot used him alternately as a weapon or a patent of superiority to be worn at village teas; father apologetically, as a housewife accustomed to New England thrift would refer to a housekeeper that she had been forced to employ, through her own incompetence; while I hated the gardener with the uncompromising honest hatred of childhood, because, whether he was called John, Pat, or Peter, he invariably regarded my efforts as things of little account, trod on the shells that I brought from the shore with infinite labour to edge 32 THE GARDEN OF A my bit of flower patchwork, and in spring always dug up my bulbs and hardy roots because it was easier than to dig between them, — a stern fact that sent me outside garden limits to the wild field be- yond the strawberry bed, where I coaxed an intimate friend of mine, an up-country boy named Dan'l, who brought berries to sell, and did odd errands for father, to dig up two long strips one on either side of a grassy cart track that had once led to a hay-field, now reached by another road. Little I then thought that I was locating my garden of dreams. The boy dug sturdily, the soil was black on top and mellow loam beneath — a happy combination, and my flowers throve far better than in the half shady, badly tilled garden bed. I paid Dan'l with a jew's-harp, two old but well pre- served valentines, and a purplish red necktie which Aunt Lot had bought father, but which he had im- mediately concealed under some papers in the little room beyond his office where he kept his instru- ments, and then given me for a doll's sash. The valentines must have signified more to Dan'l than they did to me, for he instantly began to lavish tokens upon me, hickory-nut beads, willow whistles, a home- made fishing rod, and a wreath of thistle puffs for my hat. This ornament I wore for several weeks COMMUTER'S WIFE 33 until one fell day I left the hat hanging in the Mother Tree, and the yellow birds pulled the puffs apart to eat the seeds. But the most treasured gifts were the roots of the old-fashioned flowers that grew in unkempt wealth about his grandmother's garden. I had often been there when father visited the patient old soul, who was lame, and had admired the syringa, snowball, and lilac bushes that almost hid the house from the road, while the cinnamon roses crept out between the palings, and straggled up and down the lonely cross- road as if hungering for news, while in August the white phlox escaping into the grass made a snow- bank between the gate and the porch. As I remember those valentines, — which, by the way, had been given me by our cook, — they were quite startling, and most unsuitable in their gender. One was surmounted by two papier-mache" hearts, and bore the query, " Will you be my wife ? " and the other had a scrap of looking-glass in the centre framed with the words, " In this you see the girl I love." But such a mere detail did not dash Dan'l's ardour, for was he not ten years old, both romantic and chivalrous, and determined to be a soldier ? While I, being eight at the time, and much interested 34 THE GARDEN OF A even then in hospital talk, seriously thought of going to battle with him as a nurse. Circumstances, however, prevented, the chief among them being that there was no war at the time ; father, to whom as a matter of course I confided my plans, declined to go with us as surgeon, and what was the use of a soldier to shoot people and a nurse with ban- dages if there was no one there to cut off legs ? — an amputation being then my idea of the treatment to be given all soldiers, while lastly at this juncture Dan'l left home to work for a grocer at another village. I saw him yesterday in town, delivering goods at the hospital from a neat shiny wagon of his own. Alas for intentions, chivalry, and the daring soldier life ! The flowers of our childhood's friend- ship have been more enduring, however. His last gift was a small rosebush planted in a lard pail to which he had given ventilation by perforating it with small holes. " Granddad brought the bush this came off of from Boston b'fore I was born and it's just bust itself growing, and we've given away lots of cuttings ; but this isn't any cutting, it's a regular year-old plant," he said, as he thrust the pail at me. The plant proved to be a fragrant, clear white rose with handsome dark foliage, the lovely Madame COMMUTER'S WIFE 35 Plantier that was brought over in the thirties and has never been surpassed as a healthy, willing bloomer. Now, even in its leafless state, it is a giant shrub in my tangled-up child border and will hold its place in the garden that is to be as well as mother's beds of hardy flowers. But of the perfunctory, skin- deep work combined of Aunt Lot and the four gar- deners that separates mother's reign from mine, not a trace remains save a few scars on the grassy slope beneath the study windows, that mark the location of some fantastic foliage beds, which as for beauty or fragrance might as well have been made of gay carpet or spotted calico. The ingredients of this class of bed are always the same, though the beds themselves may vary in shape and compounding — coleus in vars, red geraniums, alternanthera, dusty miller, hen and chickens, with salvias or cannas for centrepieces, — all worthy and innocent plants individually, but so hot and stiff when combined, affecting the colour-sensitive like the sight of a stout, short-necked woman walking in the sun with a tight gown and high collar. "You are straying from gardens," murmur the leaves of my " Garden Boke," through which the breeze is rustling and conveniently drying the ink without aid from a blotter. 36 THE GARDEN OF A Ah, yes, but the subject is so broad, and the by-paths so many, that straying is inevitable. Be- sides, I am not exploiting the genuine skilled gar- dener of the main line, the developer of nature's resources, to whom all honour is due. The gardener to whom I take exception should always have his title enclosed in " marks " and is of the tribe that seems to launch itself at the ever-busy and guileless American of moderate means and good taste, who, desiring a garden and having little knowledge of the necessary detail and still less time to learn, hires a " gardener," pays liberally for seed and manure, and from the combination of the three entertains Great Expectations. If the man so hired were really what he pretends to be, all would be well. But the pro- cession marching under the Sign of the Spade is a motley crowd indeed, especially in this land, where a knowledge of country life and its various processes, its pitfalls as well as its potency for good, though increasing daily, has not yet become a part of our national inheritance. As I look out over the hills and think of the people I have known during the past ten years who, for various reasons, have tried this glorious outdoor existence and failed to live it, and judge the cause, it seems to me that one and all they approached it wrongly. COMMUTER'S WIFE 37 The first difficulty is that people often think that by living in the country they can do without the comforts and necessities, lacking which city life would be doubly unbearable. Also they begin with no sort of preparation, either hereditary or acquired. Nature simply despises people who come to her as a last resort and try to squeeze a living from her, or otherwise harry her. She must be wooed under- standingly, like any high-spirited woman, not bullied, for she has a capricious temper, and is at once a spendthrift and an economist. Why, then, should any one expect by a mere " declaration of intention " and a railway journey to conquer the country and learn the secrets of the life it offers, in perhaps a single season ? And why should one expect to lead a satisfactory country life upon a cheap basis that would not maintain life else- where ? "But," again hints my "Boke of the Garden," "what has this tirade to do with gardeners ? " Everything, dear, patient, unresisting confidant, — everything. It is these experimentalists that cause bad service both hi and out of doors, and by putting up with incom- petence, encourage it. Ill CONCERNING GARDENERS (IN PARTICULAR) October 27. To return to the procession of gar- deners who have crossed my path either directly or indirectly, by pouring their woes into father's sympathetic ear, he being a sort of confessor, labour- bureau, and first aid to the mentally and financially, as well as to the physically, injured of a fifteen-mile circuit, comprising open country villages and a fac- tory town, — my knowledge of them is based upon stern fact. The most usual and really least offensive of the group may be found abundantly in England also. They are the old men who have drifted through feebleness to drink, and think that gardening is merely a gentle disturbing of the soil and a tying up of vines in the opposite direction to which they desire to go, like the usual unqualified curate's idea of the ministry. Second to these, are the young men with weak 38 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE 39 lungs for whom outdoor work has been advised, who are naturally depressed and must not be expected to turn over the soil more than half a spade's depth. These we also pity. But we wholly fail to appreciate the services of the next grade — the natural fools, whose relatives steer them into gardening as a fitting occupation. These three classes may be excused as unfortunates not wholly responsible for the dis- appointments they cause. The most trying type of all, however, is the one that I found here on my return, — the know-it-all in- dividual who, after spending a few months in potting cuttings for a florist, and mowing dooryards, adver- tises, " Wanted, a position by a graduate gardener, to take entire charge of a gentleman's place. Can milk." He doesn't say will milk, mind you ! Oh, if unsophisticated folk only realized the tragedy con- centrated in those two words, Can milk ! Once arrived, he assumes the dignity of a profes- sional, and considers himself as far above the mere labourer who cheerfully spits on his hands and wields the spade, as our present housemaid, — a young Irish-American whom father has with diffi- culty coaxed from the factory work that was killing her "to accommodate," and who is betrothed to a factory youth, whom she marries at Christmas, and 40 THE GARDEN OF A whose mother owns "rale" estate, — feels above the usual rank and file of " livin'-out girls." The caste spirit among the American working classes ? Most assuredly, quite as absurd and strictly drawn as among their employers. Neither are we as a family quite what we should be in this housemaid's eyes, I gathered from a conversation that took place between her and Martha Corkle, as we belong to the working class, for do not both father and Evan work for a living ? One learns much in two years of absence from home and country, much that is not realized until the return. Theoretically we are free and equal. In reality we are often bondsmen and not to our real or fancied superiors, but to our servants. Perhaps, however, when we are better educated to command, the fetters will be broken. One thing we must always lack, now that slave days are past, and that is one of the great benefits of ancestry — the hereditary servitor. In the old coun- tries, especially England, that is the inspiration as well as the despair of those who have lived in one of its home gardens and hope ever to equal it here on a similar financial basis — hereditary outdoor labour is as honourable as any profession that descends from father to son. The gardener has probably pottered COMMUTER'S WIFE 41 about the place from the time he was a chubby cheeked boy earning his first thri'penny bit by washing flower-pots, served an apprenticeship of experience, until in old age his trembling fingers can hardly hold the sprays of apricots that he strives to fasten against the wall which alone draws the heat necessary to ripen them. Unconsciously he knows the soil, he knows the spots that the sun warms earliest in spring, he knows the borders that catch the drip of winter rains, in what corners mildew flourishes, and which is the chief resort of the perva- sive earwig, and all the other capabilities and short- comings of the ground intrusted to him, be it large or small, as the physician knows the constitution of a patient that he has tended from birth. But to have this type of servitor, he must be inherited with the garden, and this implies the law of entail. What will you have ? My previous decision about gar- deners in general, and our present incumbent espe- cially, was confirmed by the dumping of that great load of sand in the wrong place at a time when a day's delay in planting the bulbs might have brought frost to lock the ground until spring. You may argue that a few days' delay is a small thing, but that proves that you were not born to the soil. I had said to Chris, the gardener, "Go over to the 42 THE GARDEN OF A river for the sand, and when you return, call me, and I will show you where to spread it." Instead, the man, a Swedish youth, a hospital protege of father's, who was of the class that had once potted endless cuttings in a mechanical way while he thought of everything else than his work, drove in by the lower gate and scattered the sand over two strips that are to be shrubberies, simply because, as he said, in grudging explanation, he " thought nice beds of tulips in stripes would look good dere, and be more best dan vere you dink to put them." The bugle call of revolt has sounded, but in a novel and unusual way ; the commuter's wife arises mentally against the "gardener," instead of vice versa, and his downfall will be swift. It took the rest of the day to sweep up the sand and get another load. Meanwhile, Chris worked in a huff, as if a deep affront had been put upon him. I could see by the hard, caked condition of the soil in the old flower beds, by the long walk, and in the vegetable garden generally, that it had not been deeply and properly stirred all summer. But when I asked him to fork up the ground thoroughly between the roots of some of mother's hardy plants, he replied : — " It is not best. In my country we do not so. COMMUTER'S WIFE 43 Stiff ground on top, he keep out both heat and cold." A similar request to rake a mass of chickweed off a bed, instead of digging it in, brought the rejoinder:— • " It is time wasted. The winter, he will kill it," while every one knows that in most places this weed blooms at intervals in all months but perhaps two, and flourishes mightily. In despair, I went to father and asked him who had given the man directions the eighteen months of his stay, where he came from, who recommended him, and whether he understood that I was to be obeyed ? Father appeared rather embarrassed for a man with surgical nerve, to retain which, perhaps, he has always been an avoider of domestic flurries. Then the end of his nose twitched as it does when he is cornered and wants to laugh, which he finally did as he said : — " Chris was employed by a florist over in town, cut his hand, got blood poisoning, and turned up at the hospital. He seemed intelligent and a great reader. Why, really, Barbara, the first morning he worked here in spring, he stopped me when he was weeding radishes, and asked me if I liked Ibsen, saying he did not, 'because he takes the hope from man.' I'm sure, Bab, that showed discernment. And then, he 44 THE GARDEN OF A really prefers well-printed books to cheap affairs with paper covers, and quite appreciated the green morocco bindings on my Bacon's works. I haven't told you that last winter I secured a copy of that 1753 folio edition, in three volumes, with the Vertue portrait, that I missed through irresolution at the sale, though I could not have it bound until after your Aunt Lot's marriage. " He is all eagerness, too, about a course of read- ing I had planned for him this winter, even hoping for early frost, so that he may begin." "Early frost is one thing he cannot be allowed to have, for I want open ground for a month to come," I said, hardly able to keep my face straight. Dear old dad was terribly in earnest, and so easily imposed upon, and this wretch had keenly scented out his chief foible. It also made my heart ache to think of father's home loneliness during those two years, when he had no one to appreciate his treasures but a gardener. Book collecting up to a certain point is a secretive occu- pation, but something in the pleasure is lacking if there is no chance to display the latest purchase in a nonchalant way to the gaze of some one who knows its value. " He may be discerning," I said, after steadying COMMUTER'S WIFE 45 myself ; " in fact, too much so for our needs, but not in gardening. You weren't thinking of employing him to catalogue your books, I suppose ? " I ventured. Then father laughed heartily to cover a certain confusion that told me plainly that he entertained Quixotic views of Chris's capabilities of education, and stammered : — " My dear, he can write like copper plate ! " " Were the vegetables good last summer ? " I continued frostily. " There seems to be very little over in the root cellar." " No, not very, but — er, you see it was first dry and then wet — quite wet." " Why have the grape vines been allowed to tumble off the arbour and lie on the ground ? " "Chris said the string I bought was poor." "Why isn't the celery banked yet?" "He says the new way is to let it get a touch of frost firi;t." "Is he cheap?" "Barbara, my child, you know I never beat down the price of labour." "Of what use is Chris?" "He has some good points, and — er — we must have some one, for Tim has all he can do to fol- low me about and keep horses and stable in trim." 46 THE GARDEN OF A " Mother was her own gardener, and I want to follow her as closely as I may and yet be quite myself," I said gently. "Then all will be well, indeed," said father, a load seeming to slip from his shoulders, " for after all I believe that I must have let Chris go," he continued, a suspicious twinkle in his eyes, "for he told me yesterday that you do not appreciate him, and that sympathy is more to him than wages. He announced that he can ' go to the big house on the bluff where folks never interfere with the gardener.' Though, come to think of it, his remarks were hardly consistent, for ' letting alone ' is not sympathy, and I believe he mentioned that they offered wages which were really fabulous. " Still, I am afraid you'll be disappointed. You are so eager to block out your garden and plant all those bulbs before frost, and Evan is too busy in getting settled at his work to do more than give you advice. I fear you are undertaking too much, and you will have no time left for enjoyment." "Not a bit, and nothing could suit me better. Now, you dear old father, please pay me every month the wages that you paid Chris and — you shall see — well, either something or nothing. You may not notice the difference at first, but you will COMMUTER'S WIFE 47 soon. Oh, daddy, daddy, I don't believe, after all these years even, you know exactly how I love flowers and all the things that made the old home, which are increased tenfold in the new. Evan does, and that is the wonder of it, and the reason why he is content to take up this life and help to make it surer for me every day. The thought of what it all means for the years to come goes singing through my head even when I'm asleep. I want to do the things, not have them done for me. You know you always preach that babies brought up by servants and led in after dinner are not at all the same things, nor as lovable, as those cuddled and nursed by their mothers. And it's the same way with a garden. " Of course I must have an animated shovel in the person of a useful man, maybe a boy to do weeding in the growing season ; and that reminds me that I must ask Tim if he can't find me a man for to-mor- row. We'll give Chris the rest of his month's wages and let him go, won*t we, dear? for he is as im- possible to gardening as a bump in a shoe to walk- ing. And you need not have qualms, for he has really dismissed himself." " Perhaps there is some one about the hospital I could get," suggested father. "Daddy, dear," I begged, putting both arms 48 THE GARDEN OF A around his neck, and looking him in the eyes until our noses met, a trick of childhood, to fix his atten- tion, "I'm the same Barbara as ever, but my eyes have seen and I've learned a few new things. I will sew for the hospital, grow flowers and vegetables for it, visit it, bring the poor convalescents over here to sit in the sun, grow white flowers for those who never go home, and give it a great deal more of your time than I want to spare, but please, please, let wages be wages, and charity, charity. The two are harder to mix properly than mayonnaise in hot weather. Don't you remember, dearest, what times we have had with the people that you have tried to serve without putting them under obligation, by let- ting them think they were aiding you, while it usu- ally ended, after much discomfort, in our being considered under obligation ? People that were not ill enough for the hospital, and yet needed tinkering. I don't think I was troubled by it at the time, but I observed, and the facts must have stowed themselves away somewhere in my brain ; for since I have been a wife, and the domestic side of me is developing, I partly realize Aunt Lot's dilemmas, and the whole fantastic crowd flit in front of me, exhibiting their infirmities as if in warning. " There was the man with the rheumatism who COMMUTER'S WIFE 49 thought he could care for cows because he had driven a milk wagon. The first thing he did was to dump a load of windfall apples into the corner of the pasture, so that when Black Bess, who was always greedy, came home that night, she did not lead as usual, and her ears hung down and she leaned against the gate, she was so intoxicated from the cider the fermented apples had made in her sto'mach. Then you had to fuss over her all night, and her milk dried up. " Surely you remember the winter that Aunt Lot struggled with the cook who had a lame knee and couldn't go down cellar, and the waitress who had vertigo and couldn't take the dishes down from the top pantry-shelf without dropping them. Then the next cook couldn't even wash her dish-towels, because it hurt her to bend her liver, and when the washing was^ all put out, expected higher wages than if she had been able to do it." "But Tim came to us through the hospital," said father, brightening as he caught at this plank in a whirlpool of disasters, "and surely we could not do without him." "No, Tim is the exception to the rule. In the face of experience even, we should never dream of parting from him or he from us, I firmly believe." 50 THE GARDEN OF A Tim, Tim'thy Saunders, or Crumpled Tim, as he is locally called on account of his curious body, which, owing to a railway smash-up, without being absolutely hump-backed, looks as if a giant had taken him in his hand and literally "crumpled" him up, is a Scotchman, with a keen, not over- suave tongue, a sharp eye, and as honest a heart in his crooked body as ever beat. He has lived with father ever since I was little enough to call him my camel and think that being given a ride on his hunched shoulders was the finest sport in the world. Now, happily for me, Evan and Tim had formed an odd friendship early in our courtship, based on national loyalty, so that neither could do wrong in the eyes of the other. This was providential and promised to make the " commuting " side of the daily life smooth, for Tim will never grumble at the extra horse, or if he has upon occasion to drive Evan to an earlier train than usual; while Evan seems fully prepared to take the blame upon himself instead of scolding Tim if they fail to catch it, which mischance of course may happen. Now, in addition, Martha Corkle, egged on by reasons of family and national pride, had served a good break- fast to the minute of promptness during this, as COMMUTER'S WIFE 51 we call it, "commencement week," so that the rocks of which neighbours are already so kindly warning us, me at home and Evan on the cars, have not appeared in the road. In fact, I've a glimmering idea that it is because we commuters and others hold our servants responsible for bridg- ing certain inconveniences of living instead of ac- knowledging them and bearing the responsibility ourselves, that makes domestic service such a vexed question in America. Personally I do not know of but a single family of all my acquaintances with whom, were I a servant, I would be willing to live, and I'm not yet sure that I would live with myself ; but I shall probably decide this when the anni- versary of my return comes around. In short, at present I feel at perfect liberty to give myself to the garden, body and brain. I think my soul always stays outdoors except at night, when it watches my sleeping body. After a few moments' silence, during which each of us did some thinking, father said, "How would you like a married man with a family as — well, to please you I won't call him a gardener, but a ' general useful ' ? You know there are four or five good living-rooms that were once used, over the carriage-house. Perhaps a married man would have 52 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE more ambition, and certainly more experience, and his wife also might be occasionally useful." "To a married man I have no possible objec- tion, but to having his family on the place, no, if you please. There are doubtless very competent married men and women, but they are rarely mar- ried to each other. Oh, father, do you remember the last time those rooms were occupied? You surely haven't forgotten Peter Schmidt?" " No ; for though he insisted on straight lines, worshipped cabbages, and slighted the flowers, he was the most faithful worker we ever had or ever shall have," he replied, very significantly. " I beg pardon. I should have said, do you remember, Mrs. Peter Schmidt," I hastened to add. At this, father laughed until the tears came to his eyes, though there was a time when it was not considered a laughing matter, and fled to his gig, which Tim was driving around from the stable. I following to bespeak for the next morning the man with the shovel, — who, by the way, is an infinitely superior grade of being to the "man with the hoe," who merely walks slowly along, shuffling his inefficient tool. IV THE AMERICANIZING OF PETER SCHMIDT October 28. Tim promises to furnish an "effee- cient mon" for me, but holds out no hope that it will be by to-morrow, asking at the same time if I prefer a foreigner, an American born, or natural- ized. I replied that it is immaterial which, if the man is capable in addition to being honest and temperate. Chris had the two latter qualifications, but they seemed rather to sap his vitality than to be of any special advantage. Peter Schmidt, dear old fellow, was honest, sober, and capable as well ; but the methods his wife took to transform and coerce his plodding, peasant mind and body into what she considered an American, were the cause of his downfall. As to securing the services of a good native for manual labour, it is quite out of the question in a part of the country where the social centre is a combination of factory and market town. There are men who will " accommodate " for a few days 53 54 THE GARDEN OF A or a week at ploughing, haying, or raking, but to take a regular place for regular pay would be to become the male equivalent of the " livin'-out girl," and socially degrading to one owning a makeshift house and a few acres of land. So, without trade training, the native "chores" about at painting, carpentering, raising a few vegetables, or letting the shingles fall from his roofs and the land run out until the elder children are old enough to work in a factory, when they all move " over town," and some old country peasant, either Celt, Dane, Pole, or Hun, buys the place of the mortgagee, and begins to pull it together on a wholly different plane. It was on the first day of November and my fourteenth birthday that Peter Schmidt and family came to live with us. I was sitting on the pasture fence cracking butternuts, which finger-dyeing occu- pation so absorbed me that I did not hear approach- ing footsteps, and was therefore startled by a voice that asked in slow and inverted sentences, if the " honoured doctor " lived near by. Looking up, I saw a strange procession that halted as the man, its leader, spoke. This man was perhaps forty, though he might have been either older or younger. His bent shoulders and warped legs indicated the former age, while his COMMUTER'S WIFE 55 fresh complexion and wide-open though expression- less clear blue eyes, the latter. He was dressed in typical ill-fitting shabby store clothes, but his stout square boots and cap with a peaked visor were evidently of foreign make. Behind him was a woman a full head taller, thin, long-armed, and bent about the shoulders. She had dark hair and eyes, with the complexion and the flat features which, when they appear in people of the north countries of Europe, give either the appearance of sadness or sulkiness. This woman's expression was compounded of both. She did not speak, but pulled her shawl together and stooped to chide a little tow-haired boy of five or six who was tugging at her hand. Behind the woman in turn followed two girls of ten and twelve, swarthy and flat featured as their mother, like whom they were dressed in a clumsy way that had withal a certain peasant picturesqueness. While I was talking to the man, a small one-horse wagon, of the pattern used by vegetable venders in the town, rounded the corner ; in it were a few very plain articles of household furniture, a large bundle, doubtless containing the family feather bed, and several small parcels neatly tied. This was Peter Schmidt, his family, and posses- 56 THE GARDEN OF A sions, coming by father's directions to be our "gardener." He lived with us eight years before his duties as an American citizen led him to seek the more elevated position offered by a shoeshop. When father told us Peter Schmidt's history, Aunt Lot was stirred with practical pity, and, always eager for any occupation that implied house-cleaning, giving advice, or regulating other people's affairs, instantly began to overturn the attic for old furniture and such garments of ours as might have escaped the general demand of those who, coming to the hospital in rags, had even less to wear on leaving. In a couple of days the living-rooms over the stable were resplendent, owing to a combination of energy on the part of the Schmidt family themselves in whitewashing, scrubbing, and window-washing, in which even the small boy joined, the girls giving deep-drawn " oh's " and " ah's " of admiration. While the following Christmas the whole family came into the hall before breakfast to give us the season's greeting, each laden with a fat wreath made of ground pine, that they had walked two miles to the woods to gather, giving them as tokens of thank- fulness that " we now hass a home," as Mrs. Schmidt said through tears that told of dark days. COMMUTER'S WIFE 57 Father was exultant. Here at last was the gratitude and appreciation that had too seldom crowned his efforts to better his fellows. Little by little, Peter told father of his past. It seemed that since coming to this country sixteen years before, either ill luck or an unseasonable desire to better themselves, which really amounts to the same thing, had kept them on the move. Their very home-leaving had been ill judged, unpropitious, and hurried, that Peter might escape army service which would necessarily delay the early marriage upon which Karen was set, she then being a fellow- worker with him on a milk and cheese farm. Peter? Oh, Peter had at that time evidently looked stoically upon matrimony as an estate not to be entered hurriedly ; he would have preferred to go alone to America, establish himself, and then send for Karen. He already had the responsibility of partially providing for his old mother, a widow who still lived in a couple of rooms by the windmill where his father had worked. As he said, " she was homesick away from the sound of the sails going round," and " I too," he added, " think no sound can be made so fine as when the sails and the wind struggle together and there is much wheat to grind." Peter was a Hollander who loved his country in a 58 THE GARDEN OF A patient, sluggish way, and would have preferred, father thought, to have remained there all his days, army service and all. There are many ways of loving one's country, it seems, as in other loves, the mental and the physical, and his was love of the absolute ground, and had no mental pride or consciousness. He had not the faintest conception of the Netherlands' rise and history ; the Spanish wars were as foreign to him as the deluge ; his pride was not of the country's power in commerce or art. He might have heard mention of the names Rembrandt, van Dyck, Frans Hals, Plantin, but they meant nothing, though he had lived within a few hours' walk of Amsterdam and its wonderful Rix Museum. His plodding mind waded in the rich black soil that the plough turned over, never rising above the bearded barley that grew from it. He found greater beauty in the straight, sluggish canals than in all the rushing, forest-banked rivers in the world. He could not think quickly or hurry, and the soil, was it not always there, at once tangible and immovable, the one thing in which he seemed to have full confidence ? In short, he was peasant to the core, intelligently and contentedly so. What a pity that he should be dragged away and awakened, for of such is the strength of the COMMUTER'S WIFE 59 earth. Surely there is often something sad about ambition. What if the earth that grows the wheat, the bread of the world, should insist that it was a finer destiny to fill the flower pots that hold the plants in a conservatory ? Once in America, the Schmidts had at first worked here and there until money enough was obtained to carry them West to take up a farm hold. This proved a failure, owing to the fact that Peter did not understand the difference of methods, climate, etc., and also lacked means to live while the land was being improved and the first crop gathered. After ten or twelve years of struggling, privation, and chance work for others, they drifted slowly east- ward, eight children having been born to them, of whom, owing to hardship and the fevers of new countries, only four were living. Karen had then worked out by the day in the factory town, taking her baby with her and putting it to sleep in a clothes- basket or any convenient nook, while she washed and scrubbed. At last it also died, and then she broke down completely and went to the hospital, where father found her, and when her weary body was rested and repaired he sent the family out here. 60 THE GARDEN OF A As Peter's work was chiefly with the soil, he was content, the fruit and vegetables throve, the flowers languished. As Aunt Lot kept but one maid, Karen often helped us in emergencies, for a woman likes to have a little pin money. In those days she was always begging to do some little task in return for the many ways in which we aided her, and Aunt Lot took great pains in showing her how to cut and fashion over my clothes for the girls, as I was at least two sizes taller than either. How glad I am that I am fairly tall and quite slender ; it is so con- venient to be able to have a long reach in tying up vines, and then there is so much stooping to be done in gardening, and if one is stout, the flesh must always interfere like an impediment in a door- hinge. During four years, agriculturally speaking, we had a time of peace and prosperity. Peter's ideas as to beauty were not mine, but he was devoted to his children, and the boy, his father's counterpart, was much with him as he worked. The hay was cut and cured as carefully as if the welfare of the nation depended on it. The vegetables were rowed up like soldiers on parade, and the grass edges were faujtless. It was Peter who suggested tilling an unused field and growing potatoes and winter vege- COMMUTER'S WIFE 61 tables to help out the scanty resources of the hospi- tal. Peter was slow, but oh, so reliable ! True, he would insist upon shearing the roses and shrubs out of all identity, like so many cropped heads, and the most awful foliage beds were developed in his reign. But I think, as I now look back, Aunt Lot aided and abetted him. Also two gray drain tiles used as vases and filled with sad lilac petunias appeared like sentinels on either side of the walk from the road to the porch. I protested, but Aunt Lot said that Mrs. Schmidt suggested them and thought them grand, and it might hurt her feelings to remove them. With my new vision I see that was a fatal mis- take ; where service is concerned, when we hesitate to protect our own rights, the dynasty will soon crumble. Father revelled in the man's wholesome enjoyment of the earth, and of the mere planting and tilling. "We need such labourers," he often used to say as he watched Peter at work, — " labourers for the wide field and the great crop ; such men have made the West. Our difficulty is that our Eastern labour is too small and detailed, and we scorn plodding peasant toil. " I must tell Peter the opportunities of his class for new world citizenship." 62 THE GARDEN OF A Alas, how citizenship and the way it is regarded depends on those whose opinions first tinge the vision of the immigrant, as well as upon the calibre of the woman he marries. Sometimes when I think how far wives often unconsciously warp the husband's point of view, and cramp his worldly attitude, it makes me shiver with fear of the responsibility. Father ralked to Peter, good wise talk, and in course of time he took out his naturalization papers. Karen also, who was far more alert than her hus- band, was a perpetual influence goading him to " be American," but for different reasons. She had made a friend in the village, a woman who twenty years before, owing to a pertly pretty face, had married far above her station. In consequence her tongue had been since sharpened on the grind- stone of snubbing until she had become a sort of village firebrand whom few could touch and escape a scorching. This woman was Karen's instructor in the language of liberty which, according to her reading, was anar- chy, and it was from her standpoint and with her precepts that Karen goaded Peter to "be American." In the fifth year a change was perceptible, not yet in the man, but in the woman of the household. Per- haps I should say women, for Marie and Trina (short COMMUTER'S WIFE 63 for Katrina) were fifteen and seventeen — no longer children, but domestic factors. Karen had constantly begged Aunt Lot that when Trina was old enough, she should be taken into the household. So as she was now a well-grown girl, Aunt Lot suggested that the time had come, only to be surprised by the reply, " Trina has no mind to be livin'-out girl ; she wish to get ' edication.' " Aunt Lot was rather nettled at Karen's tone, but father said education was a worthy desire, that he would talk over the matter with the Schmidts, and see what tastes the girls had, and try to advise them as to the best channel. He returned from the interview somewhat per- turbed, finding that Karen's idea of education was purely superficial, being to learn as little as possible of something to get into a store or become a type- writer, anything in short, to escape the stigma of " livin' out," which she in some unaccountable way had come to regard as akin to a crime. While, on talking to the girls, he found that they were of the hopeless, shiftless order, scarcely knowing on which finger to place a thimble, about all they had learned at the local public school being a desire to seem, rather than the industry to be. Then a demon entered the family, or perhaps it 64 THE GARDEN OF A might better be called a microbe, as they came in fashion about that time. It should have been bottled and labelled "The social importance of clothes," a disease as deadly as appendicitis and more prevalent. Karen had, up to this time, lived much to herself, dressing neatly but in the old world simplicity of her class that well suited her ; for those whose gait has been formed by the swinging of the wooden shoes and the shoulders shaped by the milk-yoke, had best beware of high heels and the fantastic fashions descended from the French through the interpreta- tion of a factory town. One day Trina appeared in a new but flimsy coat, the week after one of mine, nicely cleaned and freshened with new collar and cuffs, had been given her ; then Aunt Lot, thinking some accident had befallen the garment, made inquiry. Karen's face took a threatening, sullen expression that quite frightened Aunt Lot, while her black eyes snapped, as she blurted out, " Trina have it slappit at her in school dat her coat vas ole clothes and de cuffs put on to make longer de sleeves. She cry vith shame, and she shall not bear such." Father insisted that Aunt Lot could not have understood and that such nonsense was impossible, but a little later on he was somewhat taken aback COMMUTER'S WIFE 65 by Karen's asking him to have a new front door put to their apartments, because in going in the present door the kitchen was seen in reaching the parlour. Aunt Lot always insisted that father was to blame for yielding the point, but that is neither here nor there. Callers began to drop in at the Schmidts' at all times of day, wash days and all, in direct defiance of country custom, and we often noticed that Peter, instead of sitting down to a hot meal, carried his dinner outside and ate it alone in one of the sheds, or, in warm weather, under a tree. Next I discovered that the callers were people for whom Karen was doing cheap dressmaking in order to obtain more money to "live like Americans." Lace curtains appeared in the windows in due course, and before long a parlour organ was bought and squeezed in at the new front door, though not one of the family could as much as whistle a tune. Peter worked steadily on, growing more silent day by day, and clinging closer to the companionship of the little boy, who was merry as ever. Once father asked Peter the cause of the change in his home life and if he was content. But he only looked from right to left like a dumb animal in pain, and did not answer. One October night, shortly after this, as 66 THE GARDEN OF A father was fastening his horse in the stable he heard loud talking in shrill feminine accents. The voice said in English, the home language now having been dropped as an undesirable reminder of the past, " Veil, if you don't tink I keeps tings right and cooks to suit, den I can do vitout you altogeder. I vill take the childrens avay and keep bourders, and I can do many oder tings and have no need of you. Dis besides, I vill see to it you shall send no more of your vages to dat old voman who liked not me. Let oder peoples keep her." The " old woman " was Peter's mother, to whom he sent the tiny stipend that kept her from being a public charge. Karen somehow did manage to stop the next remittances, and later it was rumoured about by a fellow-countryman that the mother had died in the Dutch equivalent of the Poor House. Then Peter staid outdoors except absolutely at night, scarcely tasting his cold, unpalatable food, and the crisis came rapidly. In a few days, owing to an emergency, Aunt Lot asked Mrs. Schmidt to do a little washing for pay, of course, as usual. She was always paid as if she had been a wholly outside worker. The response was a curt refusal owing to the fact that she was making Trina a new dress for "a big dance over COMMUTER'S WIFE 67 town," but under her breath Aunt Lot averred she heard her say, " I'm no servant. Peter, he a fool to vork for the doctor, but I'm not hired, too." Aunt Lot did not tell father of this, for.it was quite enough to take up things said aloud, that could not be passed as unheard. Mrs. Schmidt, though unconsciously, at last took the fatal step and threw aside the protection of caste to assume social responsibility by giving a party far beyond her means, or rather, the Misses Schmidt gave it. " Socials " and dances were of frequent occurrence in the fall and winter months among the foreign farming element, but none of this class were asked, being now scorned by Karen as " pisans, vit no ambishun." Classmates of both sexes from the public school and the Lutheran Sunday-school were alone chosen for this function which Karen's evil genius argued would place the girls on a footing in the local country society. Marie was now em- ployed in a flashy millinery store in the town where her wages, called by her "salary," barely paid for her shoes and her car fare. Of course the firebrand who had for the past two years guided the family affairs was mistress of ceremonies. People came to and fro, and I found myself almost avoiding going about the garden, for 68 THE GARDEN OF A fear of appearing intrusive, so completely we were enthralled, and so uncomfortable had the condition of affairs become. That very morning Tim had given a roundabout warning that if his stable precincts were daily interfered with by the Schmidt women there was no use in his trying to do his work. During the afternoon there was much hammer- ing at the stable, to which Aunt Lot called father's attention, but he merely laughed, and said he sup- posed they were decorating. We wondered ; for the rooms, though comfortable and ample for dwell- ing purposes, were hardly suitable for a ball. But when he returned at midnight, after a long drive across the hills in a pouring rain that had set in at dark, and discovered there was no place where he could get under cover, he was angry indeed. The vehicles from the carriage house were standing out under the trees, carelessly covered from the wet, while a somewhat dreary and spiritless dance was going on in that building to the music of harp and fiddle, the participants being chiefly an undesirable class of factory hands, asked because others had declined, and a few young people of the neighbourhood who, evidently having come from a kindly schoolmate feeling, looked conscious and out of place. Father rang the stable bell for COMMUTER'S WIFE 69 Tim with a clang that startled us even in the house, and when Tim ran out, white and scared, pointed to the horse and chaise, and strode in with the rare stern look on his face. For an hour father and Aunt Lot talked, recall- ing the various omissions that had finally culmi- nated into absolute defiance, and decided justly that whatever influence had changed the once crouch- ing, humble woman, she certainly now completely dominated the man. That they could no longer live on the place was decided then and there, but father argued that if work and residence were sepa- rated, all might yet be well. Aunt Lot thought differently, and yet she too pitied Peter, who, though helpless to throw off the present condition, was personally a valuable servant. Father decided that in the morning he would have a talk with Peter, and he went to bed dreading the ordeal more than the severest surgical operation. His temperament was not to wound except to the better heal. In this case the result seemed dubious, and to inflict or allow needless pain was a crime in his eyes. We had not finished breakfast before Aunt Lot was very unnecessarily reminding father of the duty before him and of everything he must say, 70 THE GARDEN OF A when a knock sounded at the front door. This almost immediately opened, and in walked Peter, followed by his wife. Father afterward said that he thought at first they had come to make some explanation, but a glance told me otherwise. Peter had evidently been slowly and persistently worked up to a terrible still-white heat which almost made him believe himself wronged, and Karen, her eyes glistening, and her head darting forward from her bent shoulders like a flat-headed adder, kept goading him, allowing him no time for thought or retreat, though his frank wording of the grievance was not what she would have had it. "Ve move avay," he gasped without preamble and looking at no one. " Not much people came to de barty, and my girls have it slappit at dem dat dey are no better dan pigs to live in vit a stable. Yes, ve move avay to-morrow, mein Gott, to-day even." Father replied quietly, looking only at Peter, that it was exactly the thing he was about to propose, and that Peter might take a few days to rearrange his affairs before continuing the fall ploughing. " Ploughing ! Ploughing iss it ? " shrieked Karen, stung to added fury by being completely ignored, and COMMUTER'S WIFE 71 by the fact that the failure of her social hopes had been openly confessed. " He vorks no more and he ploughs no more for you. No more vill he be a servant to any man, nor vill I. He is American citizen already, next month he vote. But for you are ritsh " (what a hiss she put into the word !) " he can have as much say in dis place as you ! " Yes, and you tread us down ; you make us to live in a stable and bring disgrace on my girls, so they be slappit at, and dat vomans dere " (pointing her finger at poor trembling Aunt Lot) " she tink I'm a servant vomans too, and last week even she dare ask me to do a vash. " But dere are folks so much ritsher dan you dat you are nobody. You tink you can keep down de pcor in stables like dey do in de ole country, but you canno: — .annot, mein Gott. Peter, he vill vork in a shop and be no more livin'-out mans, to shame his girls." Then she shook her bony fist almost under Aunt Lot's nose as father stepped between. How they went out none of us knew. My next recol- lection was seeing father go to his medicine closet, pour whiskey into a glass with a trembling hand, and without adding water hold it to Aunt Lot's lips, and as she took a sip and choked feebly, he swallowed the rest, went into his office and closed the door, 72 THE GARDEN OF A while she began to cry softly, saying between sniffs : — " So — many — years — furniture — clothes — milk, vegetables — took — care — of — them — measles — whooping-cough — that good carpet good as new — that front door — never will — we never will trust anybody again ! " But of course we shall, you know ! Thus Peter Schmidt passed from the open fields to the shoeshop. On election day father saw him at the polls. In the evening when driving in the moonlight past some land that Peter had ploughed deep and left in great furrows for the frost to sweeten, father saw a strange object on the ground. Stopping, he crossed the road to see if it was some creature or merely a shadow. It was Peter stretched in a fresh furrow, his head buried in his arms, his whole body shaken by sobs, while crouching trembling by the wall was the little boy. Report reached us that late the same night Peter, mingling with his new comrades of the shop, was half urged, half forced to drink with them to honour his first vote. The rank liquor was strange to him, he became deeply drunk, and half led, half dragged, he was left upon his doorstep. COMMUTER'S WIFE 73 This is why the living-rooms at the stable have remained unoccupied and why I prefer that they shall be so unless, well, unless Crumpled Tim takes a bride. Yes, I know, I suppose that I shall yet be disap- pointed in Tim after all these years, and that his queer nubby feet will prove to be cloven. But if Sisyphus was so persistent in rolling a stone up hill, why shouldn't we be equally patient in keeping our opinion of human nature on the up grade ? V A RAINY DAY MORNING October 31 (morning). Three days' delay, but Chris has gone, and October wearing goloshes is quietly plodding down the road to the rhythmical patter of steady rain. Tim has secured a " general useful " with a round, cheerful countenance and an excellent personal ref- erence from the next town. In fact, Bertie the newcomer, in addition to knowing which end of the shovel belongs in his hand and which in the ground, professes to be able to mend tools and tinker about in a truly encouraging fashion, having in fact brought a well-equipped tool chest with him. Even now on the day of his advent, I can hear him pound- ing away in the little tool house that holds the garden necessities, after the manner of a thrifty man who uses rainy days for tool-mending and such- like work. It is very necessary that the "general useful" 74 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE 75 should be able to use hammer, saw, and glass cutter, as well as rake and spade, or the commuter in whose garden he digs will be buried by an autum- nal leaf fall of small bills, more deeply than were the babes in the wood by the well-intentioned robins. Chris the literary seems to have massacred the old garden implements and cremated their remains, for of whole tools there are next to none, while the usual array of halt and maimed are likewise missing, so that Evan has ordered a fresh supply, all of which I must list in the special part of my garden book that treats of his godmother's wedding gift of fifty pounds for something " useful and instructive " and what we did with it, so that we may judge, when the account is closed, if the conditions have been com- plied with. Bertie is now cleaning out a jumble of broken flower pots, old seeds, and boxes holding odds and ends of Paris green, hellebore, and various other compounds that bring death to bugs and sneezing to humans; and he is also going to whitewash the walls of the little building. One comfort about Evan is that he not only knows exactly what he wishes done, but is able to leave directions in such a form that they cannot possibly be misunderstood. 76 THE GARDEN OF A When -you live in the country and your husband goes daily to town, you will soon recognize this trait as akin to genius. Already I can see the complete tool house in my mind's eye from simply hearing Evan's directions to Bertie. There are to be racks for holding pots graded according to size ; wooden pegs across which the various rakes, hoes, etc., can be laid ; hooks for the water-pots and grass edging shears; corner shelves for holding the measuring line (to be used for vegetables, only I shan't allow it in the flower garden), twine, trowel, weeders, while under these is room for the two lawn-mowers, the wide for gen- eral use, the narrow for borders. On the opposite side a wide shelf either for potting, cutting, or to hold the flower jars when I'm filling them for the house, and above the shelf, hung between leather loops (made of an old rein) pruning-shears, flower scissors, a hammer, a saw, and a bag of assorted nails and tacks are hung like articles in a dressing- case. Bertie JB a Dane, quite familiar with the Eng- lish words necessary for asking and receiving direc- tions, but fortunately not with those used either in lengthy discussions or literary dialogues. Evan suggests that we now have all the human COMMUTER'S WIFE 77 material on the place necessary for spontaneous combustion, or a race riot, and really it is an inter- national mixture, much like the general population and compounded by circumstances alone. Tim, driver and stabjeman, Scotch and violently of the Dissenting Church. Bertie, Danish, general useful, religion probably lacking. Martha Corkle, cook pro tern., awaiting develop- ments, English, aggressively of the Established Church. Delia, waitress and office maid, Irish- American, violently Roman Catholic. Elizabeth (cook until Martha's advent), laundry and dairymaid pro tern., native and Methodist. Martha Corkle, before whom the necessity of tolerance of religious opinion and race was men- tioned, came to me this morning, full of dignity and responsibility, and said, " Mrs. Evan " (she never accords me my last name, that honour belonging to the portly mother of ten and wife of our elder brother, the .vicar), " I hope that you do not think I shall demean myself by taking notice of opinions held in my kitchen or outside ; that is unless things are disrespected which are my vitals, though of course it would 78 THE GARDEN OF A serve better for authority if they " (servants, not vitals) "were all of the Church and came in to prayers every morning as they used when I served at the rectory. Then a word at all was a word against the family as much as me, Mrs. Evan. Not that I holds you responsible, ma'am, not at all, and I feel for you, ma'am, for what can be done in a place where there is no tenantry to be brought up to ser- vice, and all the help comes from different places and reared on disagreeing victuals, as it were? It all seems as wild-like to me as Australia, where my brother Joe bides, savin' the lack of those jumpin' kangaroos, and I'm always expectin' them. No, Mrs. Evan, on my word, I shan't contend except for vitals, and no disrespect intended, ma'am." How steadily it rains ! a wholesome fall storm that the ground absorbs. Certainly gardening makes one conscious of the great variety of ways in which the work of moistening the soil is done. To some people all rains are alike. In the city I have never heard any distinction made except that of a storm or a shower. I well remember being ill one spring at the planting season and listening to the rain as I lay in bed. I asked a town-bred maid whom we COMMUTER'S WIFE 79 chanced to have, what sort of rain it was. She looked blankly at me, then out of the window as if hardly comprehending my meaning and replied, "Just plain rain, miss, there isn't any thunder." A countrywoman would have said either a grow- ing, a cold, a washout, a spring filling, or a smart rain, according to the facts. I am sitting in the long, unsealed attic that is lighted with a dormer window at either end. A comfortable open-fronted wood stove glows away by the chimney that fills the centre of the loft. This has been my playroom ever since I left the nursery and those far-away mother arms slipped from about me. Now that I've come back I think that I appreciate its privacy more than ever, and keep it for a playroom still. Why may not grown- ups have playrooms where they can throw off con- ventionalities and restraint, be silly or only idle, and romp either mentally or physically as they please ? The garden of course is the best place for these wild moods in seasonable weather, but even then one needs an indoor retreat, a place to lie flat on an old, unhurtable sofa, and think alter- nately of everything and nothing, well out of the reach of sudden callers. What odious things callers are ! I love my friends 8o THE GARDEN OF A dearly, but friends never call. They simply flit in, knowing the times and seasons when you are at liberty, or being mistaken and scenting anything out of joint, they pat the dogs, pick up a book to borrow, a flower to smell, and flit out again, as if that alone was the object of their visit, leaving you comfortable and unembarrassed. Or, finding that all is well, they draw off gloves, unpin hat, and stay to luncheon without forcing you through the responsi- bility of asking them, a relief when you are dubi- ous of the meal. Unless people have this tact they can never really be called friends or safely asked to come freely within the sacred home precincts. A country doctor's daughter, like a minister's wife, has many curious experiences in this respect, and my time of trial has arrived. In truth the two days' gap in my gardening op- erations has been filled to overflowing with callers, well-intentioned folk who would be friends if they but knew how, people of many grades, all kindly eager to welcome me home, and advise and ask questions varied with remarks about Aunt Lot's marriage and queries as to whether I didn't think father had aged during my absence. I had intended giving a sort of parish high tea a little later on, bracing myself to answer questions COMMUTER'S WIFE 81 en masse, fortified by a fine new gown and Evan to share both admiration and criticism. Not that we exactly enjoy this sort of thing. We should much prefer saving up and giving them a musical after- noon, Evan even perhaps being coaxed to play the violin himself. But when you wish to entertain people, you must give them what they, not what you like, and what that is remains to be discovered. However, this festival is still before me, while the questions and advice have set me to thinking and make me quite reconciled to spending this rainy day in the comfortable fastness of the attic. Before I went away Aunt Lot represented the family, but now one and all, patients and neigh- bours, recognize me as mistress of the house, and are prepared to hold me socially responsible. This is a great change for the young person who, three years ago, never could be prevailed upon to take a table at the annual fair or to make cake for the monthly sale upon the proceeds of which the subsistence of one of the three village ministers depended. I have been freely reminded of what a good cake maker Aunt Lot was, and I'm trembling lest Martha Corkle's confections should fall below her standard, as I've promised three loaves, a pan of cookies, 82 THE GARDEN OF A and a braised ham for next week's harvest-home supper, and they must be faultless, for the supper is for the hospital. A school friend of my mother's, a very charming woman, but rather a borrower of trouble, raised a more serious point by saying that, glad as she was to see me back, she hoped that I had not used undue influence to take Evan from his native land, as she thought such experiments dangerous and against the nature of things. I'm afraid that my answer was rather heated. It is not against nature for the female to have the say as far as possible in choosing the location of the home. I am American to my finger-tips, though I fully recognize the fascination and protective atmosphere of old world tradition, but as the old proverb says, "Every bird finds its own nest charming." Now, as a matter of course, all birds'-nests are not equally well located or built. The oriole weaves a sky cradle moated by the free air, the cuckoo throws together a few sticks in a bush — each to her taste. The only bird despised and scorned of all is the outcast, the cowbird, to whom, having none of her own, all nests are equal and a matter of indifference. The only being so despised is the songster without a nest to uphold. COMMUTER'S WIFE 83 My nest is America, Evan's England, and the interweaving of the two makes the most logical com- bination possible. But why should I expect Evan to move his building materials overseas to join mine instead of the reverse ? Because of a fact in the law, also of the joyous republic of Birdland, to which I would call the attention of all conscientious women with foreign husbands. // is the female who always chooses the nesting site. 'Nature rules that the loca- tion of the home is of more vital importance to her whose life is of the home, and nests are also usually located in the region of the best food supply — there- fore America ! Some of my guests expressed curiosity as to what I should do for amusement in such a quiet place, as if I had not been able to amuse myself in years gone, and I foolishly unfolded to them in part my garden hopes, which they straightway translated according to their different temperaments to mean everything from an Italian garden with terraces, statues, a fountain, and clipped green walls to a market garden wherein Evan was to raise cabbages and afterward peddle them for a living. This last notion went the rounds from the Village Gossip via 84 THE GARDEN OF A the Village Liar to the Emporium, from whence it was freely distributed up the road, and finally found its way to Evan on the cars. The Emporium is not a shop, as you might think, but a very genteel middle- aged widow of comfortable means whose house stands directly at the head of the village street, so that people taking the road that branches on the right toward the town, or on the left that goes up through the farming region, must equally pass her door. Thus, being in a position to hear and collect news, she is also conveniently located for its dis- tribution and constitutes herself local news agent, an occupation she greatly enjoys, and quite safely, as she keeps her own skirts clear by never guaran- teeing her wares and always premising a bit of gos- sip by, " I don't know if it's true, but they do say,'* etc., etc. I knew exactly what sort of flowers I meant to have, though I had not as yet quite formulated their grouping so as to explain it glibly to strangers. I want a purely American garden, which may be interpreted as anything and everything that will grow in our sparkling but capricious climate; also everything is to be in plenty — no single plants, but great masses and jungles of flowers without bare ground showing between. COMMUTER'S WIFE 85 Evan has sketched me a rough map of the garden, showing how the ground could be utilized to the best advantage without changing its characteristics, which were those that best harmonized with the house. This, without being an antique, is of that respectable no-period style of the forties, when we began to forsake good, foreign models, and grope for ourselves — a style that is best summed up in the words Early American. Strange to say, his plan does not satisfy me. It is the dearest, sunniest, homiest house in the world, and yet to turn the acre of ground that immediately surrounds it into the copy of an Italian, Dutch, or old English garden would be like enclosing it in a practical joke so cruel as to wound its most sacred sensibilities. Quite like prof- fering Uncle Sam himself a cardinal's hat and cloak for daily use, or forcing him to wear his own beaver with the uniform of a French field marshal. " What is an American garden ? I never heard of such a thing," asked Mrs. Jenks-Smith, the good- natured chatelaine of the new show place, The Bluffs, on the river-bank, to which Chris has transferred his talent. I told her that I used the term in relation to my bit of garden ground framed in the hillside woods, of which it had originally been a part; that it was to be itself, and not distorted into a feeble 86 THE GARDEN OF A imitation of the classic gardens of other days and times ; that I would not have it tricked out with the wearisome, formal, tartlike beds that caused Bacon to groan, even if the cost did not make such a thing impossible for commuters of moderate means. The last reason was within her comprehension. " I know such things are very expensive," she continued, with a sigh. " You wouldn't believe what our Italian garden cost, with digging out and filling in. My dear, we had to fill up thirteen feet deep in one spot, and piping the water for the pools, and after that the engine to run the fountain, and the electric plant to light up at night. For of course the trees are so young yet that there's no shade, and it's perfectly impossible to go out there in the daytime. And it was so thoughtless too in our landscapist, this season he had yellow flowers that close at night put in one of the most conspic- uous places, and so some of the best effects are spoiled. " I think I shall have to coax your husband next season to fit us up with a list of night-blooming things. I suppose he'd be reasonable to a neighbour. By the way, my dear, has it occurred to you what a grand advertisement for him it would be to have a good showy Italian garden on this hillside and his name and COMMUTER'S WIFE 87 business address on a rustic sign just below ? It can be seen a mile off from the cars. " Garden wouldn't match the house ? Neither did ours, but we put on a whole new outside all stucco, you know, and the Prince who visited us last summer said he only had to close his eyes to think himself in Italy." Verily, of such trials as these are calls composed ; and I have to keep my temper and not say a word of what rises to my lips, but she would not have understood if I had, poor soul, and so I let her clatter on. " Not but all those old flowers that you've had growing for ages down yonder have come in fash- ion again. Yes, isn't it strange they're quite in the swing, and those hollyhock roots that are scat- tered everywhere would cost a lot if you tried to replace them. "Why, child, nature and all that stuff that you and the doctor always thought so much about and spent so much time over has come right in since you've been away. There is a princess or a duchess or somebody (anyway her name's in an almanac — a patent medicine, I suppose, but I don't remember what she took it for), and she lives in Germany and is named Elizabeth, and she's written a book about 88 THE GARDEN OF A her garden, and it made such things the rage. I read it all through, thinking I'd get a great many swagger points, but I didn't, that is, not on gar- dening; but she was so chic, just did everything she wanted to and never got rattled, and her house ran itself, except giving out the sausages, and she only looked at them. Her husband didn't count for much more than furniture, for he liked cab- bages and wouldn't dance, so how could he? But the children were so useful — always said some- thing bright at the right time. But then, she had an unusual bringing-up and said her prayers in French while her mother went to parties, so you'd expect she'd be different. " Now you'll be right in it and not thought so queer as once. And as for birds, bird study's all the rage. I've stopped wearing feathers anyway until the excitement dies down. We've stopped driving birds out of the fruit, and put up boxes to draw them. They won't come in them, though, because your father says the rooms aren't separate and the openings draw a draft through. Though I call that going a little too far, as if birds that fly all day in the air can't stand a draft at night. In the spring when we return here I'm going to have a bird class, and a professor to take us out and point out the birds. COMMUTER'S WIFE 89 "It's awfully nice, my dear, much easier than giving a garden party, no trouble, no fuss, man- aged like a Cook's tour in Europe. He tells you everything you ought to see, so you don't have to think, you know. I went once this year across the river where I was visiting. There were twenty ladies in such becoming outing costumes, and such a delicious lunch, served quite in the woods, my dear. When we were eating we saw a quail ! Yes, with its feathers on and all. Did you ever know anything so appropriate ? "We learned two other birds besides, — a blue Jane, and the other was a red-eyed virago" [vireo]. " I remembered the name as so appropriate because the bird sang or scolded, I don't know which you would call it, all the time we were lunching." As I think of that well-meaning, awful woman I nearly choke, and it is a relief to hear Delia creaking upstairs with my luncheon, which, as father has gone across country on a consultation, I am going to have spread on the window seat as of old when it rained and I was housed. VI A RAINY DAY AFTERNOON October 31 (afternoon). I have already declared that I am about to try the joyous uncertainty of an American Garden. I desire the most flowers at the least cost, as befits the frugal wife of a commuter. Flowers for the table, flowers to go to town with Evan and whisper home to him as he sits in his office. Flowers for village brides, for the children, and for church festivals, and flowers to make the silent journeys from the hospital, that some must take, less dreary for those who follow them. I know what I may expect and what I must not. I do not seek to duplicate Kew Garden on the side lawn, or to start an elaborate scheme and en- deavour to copy in a few years what has taken gen- erations of old-world growth to produce ; for like the copy of an old master the imitation garden must lack the freedom of touch of the original, and before time has mellowed it, the unrest that is in a sense 90 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE 91 one of our moulding forces will have pushed the mimic garden into other hands before it is even ripe. But any one may have an American garden, and it is such as these alone that from their simplicity and the love born of their making may be kept from gen- eration to generation. However simple this garden of mine is to be, I must see its shaping before I begin even to plant my bulbs, or confusion will be my portion. A little mis- take now may mean a year's delay. O my Garden of Dreams ! do not vanish when I am ready to embody you. This morning father gave me mother's garden journal from the little trunk under the eaves. To-night is Hallow-e'en ! Who knows but if I sit here and look out over the leafless garden that was, that a vision of the new will come from between the morocco covers ? This quiet rain is very soothing to my impatience, and the little splashes that drop from the eaves to the piazza, roof below with first a single and then a double drip, as the gutter is more or less full, seem to say, Wait, wait, wait, Patience, patience, patience, in a coaxing way. A fair amount of damp and rain is rather good for 92 THE GARDEN OF A me, otherwise my spirits keep so volatile that they would often lead my body a sad chase if it were always sunny weather. In spite of the delay in planting, this day is a perfect boon, ministering to me in the same degree as does fresh air, a drink of water, or sleep at other times. It is also a pleasure to be in the attic again. One may marry and leave, and life seems wholly changed, but a room remains the same, year in and year out. The furniture consists of a hammock, divers trunks and chests, one an odd little affair from which the journals came, covered with the mottled skin of the hah* seal, the key to which father wears on his chain, an ample and antique haircloth lounge, two shabby but hospitable chairs, a cupboard, and an old library table that makes up in drawers and pigeonholes for what it lacks in varnish. At first the drawers are obstinate and decline to open. Here in one are papers of seeds and, of all things, a string of Dan'l's hickory-nut beads with my initial cut on the biggest or king bead, as we used to call it. Truly, I am growing old ! There is a peculiar odour in this attic on rainy days that is as much a part of it as the smell of the hickory logs in the stove, the familiar furniture, COMMUTER'S WIFE 93 and the view from the window. During the past two years when I have closed my eyes, led by memory I have gone from room to room of the ram- bling house, and trodden every inch of the home soil from the path beneath the Mother Tree in the garden to the farther side of the field toward the bars where the wild apple blossoms make a rosy wall. When I arrived at the attic, the room and the odour always came together, — the pungent, waxy smell of wasps ! To-day, in addition to wasps and wood smoke, a third tincture is added, — wet dogs ! Bluff is here as a matter of course, and owing to his long hair and affectionate disposition, his fragrance is the most in evidence of the five. It has been very amusing to watch Bluff, for his perturbation of mind as to whether he should follow father or me is singular. The first week he bounced wildly hither and thither as if he had lost his wits, not being able to decide what to do ; but during the past few days he has adhered to an evidently thought-out plan of following the Stanhope in the morning and staying with me in the afternoon, that is, unless I then go out also, in which case he continues to follow until he begins to lag, and we stop and pull him into the gig, where he lies 94 THE GARDEN OF A blissfully content at my feet, occasionally giving my shoes a furtive and affectionate lick as he used to the birds he retrieved. Pat, the wire-haired terrier, was a six-weeks puppy when I went away. He had been given to father by a dog breeder in the next village, in an outburst of gratitude for a little bit of deft surgery that he had done in the goodness of his heart for a pet dog which the man loved with the intensity that some rough natures feel for dumb animals. There was no veterinary surgeon in the neighbourhood, and father was always willing to aid animals where his knowledge was applicable, re- gardless of professional criticism, thcugh he would not accept fees for such services. The natural result had been that there was never a dearth of animals about the place. I have always counted from one to half a dozen dogs at my heels since babyhood, and it was invariably a small dog with a blanket pinned on shawl fashion that rode in my little carriage instead of the orthodox doll. It was not to be expected that Pat should re- member me, and in truth he did not. Bluff, how- ever, had evidently told him all the facts of the case and impressed him in my favour ; for he is now COMMUTER'S WIFE 95 continually sneaking away from Tim, with whom he has always lived at the stable, and nosing me out. Then when I am found, he stands with his body drawn backward, one ear cocked and the other lopping over, a grin on his homely, hairy face, as with a sort of twinkle of the eye he gives a few short barks, as much as to say, "Did you think you could hide from such a thing as a red-haired Irish terrier by the name of Pat?" He is a respecter of dog law, however, and never ventures to lie on my feet when Bluff is by. Senior- ity rules in dog-land, where the oldest resident, be he great or small, strong or feeble, quarrelsome or easy- going, is King and the final authority on matters of etiquette. No one disputes his rule, that is, no full- grown dog of gentlemanly instincts ; of course the gambols of puppies do not count. Sedate old dogs always tolerate them, sometimes administering a very mild cuff when awakened from after-dinner naps by having their ears chewed by the restless pups. But quite as often they sit blinking and gratified with the antics, wearing very much the same expression as a big human whose hair is pulled and mouth pried open by a rollicking pink-fisted baby. Bluff's field companion, Lark, though only half his age, is lying almost under the stove ; his soft white 96 THE GARDEN OF A coat lightly touched with black is in a sad condition being thickly matted with burrs. He forgot himself last evening and his dignity as a bird-dog, to go out with some farmers and their clever mongrel curs with whom he was acquainted, on a coon hunt. The poor fellow didn't even get a sniff at the coon, but brought home half the burrs and sticktights this side of the charcoal camp, mak- ing a nice bit of work for me ; for as soon as he is rested, I must get him in shape again with the aid of an oily comb. Then Tim can wash him, but Tim is too rough with a comb. You mustn't lunge at the silky coat of a beautiful Gordon setter with the same vigorous swish that is used to curry a horse. The last two dogs of the group are twins, young fox hounds of something under a year, and full of promise. They have good bone, and are coated in white and tan with a shading of black that brings out their points. Their drooping ears are well set, and their eyes of lustrous softness seem to follow every movement that I make. This is their first visit to the attic and its rainy-day comfort, so they are lying humbly on the outside of the stove circle as befits newcomers. They belong to Evan and me, having been sent to welcome us on our return by a countryman of his in COMMUTER'S WIFE 97 a southern state who keeps quite a pack and does cross-country hunting. Such fox hunting as we have in the back country here is an annual combina- tion of sport and dire necessity. When the red foxes of the heavily brushed lowlands that divide the hills grow aggressive with keen autumn appetite and haunt the chicken yards, then the sporting farmers and a few others who have energy and good legs and lungs set out with dogs and guns, drive to the point nearest the holes, tie up, then take to their feet ; and when the dogs, a mixture of rabbit dogs, coon curs, and a half dozen real hounds, have started the fox, the men join the chase afoot, finally shooting the fox when it is cornered. I'm afraid that it will be a long time before Evan can be brought to this style of hunting ; for shooting a fox is a crime in England, where it is considered more sportsmanlike to let the dogs rend it. But in this rough and tumble region of rock ledges and gullies, cross-country riding is an impossibility, and so we take the shortest cut to the end to. rid our- selves, or at least keep down the prowlers. The Humane Society once urged father to introduce the custom of trapping instead, as it expressed it, of " teaching one animal to chase another " ; but some- how it was very unpopular, the foxes wouldn't be 98 THE GARDEN OF A caught, and all that the people accomplished was to catch each other's dogs, who went hunting on their own account. Be this as it may, Bugle and Tally-ho have become intelligent members of the family in a short time, and made their first trip up two flights of stairs in a very creditable manner without undue bumping. How they will go down is another matter. If they hesi- tate, Bluff will probably push them, for he gave both Lark and Pat their first lessons in stair climbing. The clouds are breaking away, and I think my mind is also clearing as regards my garden. I will let it keep its inheritance. The Mother Tree shall be its keynote. From these two windows I gain not only a bird's- eye view of the stretch of our own land, once a farm lying a little aside the top of one of a series of slop- ing hills, but also its relation to the surrounding country. The house stands higher than the road, from which it is divided by some great elms, clusters of shrubs, and a bit of grass. This bank is kept from falling into the road by a wall, the stones of which are hidden by a tangle of honeysuckle. At the north a driveway to the stable makes the division from a strip of woodland from which the underbrush has been COMMUTER'S WIFE 99 trimmed. This wood straggles in a half circle toward west and south, out into a hillside pasture. Back of the house is the vegetable garden plotted in neat squares, edged with fruit bushes and trees, on the farther side of which lie the long tangled beds of mother's hardy flowers. These beds start at the Mother Tree at the north- west corner. On the right the higher ground makes a sort of wall, against which honeysuckle has been let to run wild. On the left the ground is level. The walk falls gently with the curve of the land until it stops abruptly at what was once a strawberry bed, but is now a flat bit of grass perhaps fifty feet square, beyond which is the wild land, only broken by the old cart track and a meandering cowpath that threads through hemlocks, birches, and cedars to a disused bar gate. Behind the apple tree, screening it from the stable, is a stiff arbour made picturesque by sturdy climbing roses that have been long unpruned. One thing is certain, the hardy beds are in a charming spot, with a high background on one side for the taller plants, and open a lovely vista from the seat under the tree and down over the fields. This much shall remain, — the great clumps of herbaceous flowers transplanted, thinned out and alcoved by ioo THE GARDEN OF A shrubs making a sort of cloister walk from the past through the present to the future. How everything material and spiritual, if it is well rounded, groups itself into the mystic three. Past, present, and future. God, nature, man. Father, mother, child. Ah, it is shaping, my Garden of Dreams! The eye of the garden shall be the sundial, that bit from Evan's past blending with mine. Though I dislike a set straight garden above all things, Evan says that a bit of formality often clari- fies wildness and gives it focus, so some beds of summer flowers around the sundial, with grass left between for paths, will make a restful break in the view. Beyond, we might continue a plant-edged walk in the wake of the cowpath quite down to the old bars, and turn them into a stile. However I must not plan too fast, but leave beyond the dial to Evan. That is the future part of the dream. Mother wrote in her garden journal, now open in my lap, during the first year of her marriage, " David has had a seat made under the sweet apple tree and a walk running from it to the strawberry bed. I shall plant my flowers on either side both for con- venience and to frame path and view as well. If I may plant ten or fifteen feet every year, I shall be COMMUTER'S WIFE 101 content, for the garden should be a pleasure, not a burden." Dear mother barely reached the strawberries in those five years, but in spite of godmother's fifty pounds I too must be careful about expansion; for, as Evan says, it isn't the first outlay of strength or money that will upset us, but the fixed charges, while father jokingly adds that the cause of much physical and all mental disease is " biting off more than one can chew." How I shall have to set my teeth and quell my garden appetite ! The garden will be so much more lovable continued as it began. New things and places are so terribly lonely. Fortunately, after all, there is but one suitable spot hereabout for a garden, and that is where it now is. How blessed I am in having the responsibility and temptation of choice removed from me ! I might break loose and be ruined by visionary schemes. Heredities may be horrible ghoulish things if they are bad, but when good, surely nothing can equal them. Imagine how terrifying it would be if we had to decide the beginnings of things for ourselves : as to what race we should belong, what sex, and all that, instead of placidly coming out of unconsciousness to find it all arranged ! Then suppose falling in love and going away with one's husband were not a 102 THE GARDEN OF A custom all over the world, how strange it would be! It is growing dusky in among the rafters, but the Garden of Dreams is every moment growing more distinct to my waking vision. To-night Evan must put it all down on paper for me, so that I shall not forget or make mistakes. What is that noise ? Really, I can imagine that I see strange shapes mov- ing among the rafters. The dogs are all alert. — Ah ! only the telephone bell in the hall. Evan has just called me to say that he has arranged to stay at home all day to-morrow! We have agreed not to use the long-distance line except for emergencies, such as his being unex- pectedly detained in town over night, for it is so expensive. But he knew how I have been longing to have him here for a week day, so that we might realize everything again, and decide the garden plan, and he would not keep me waiting to know of it for even an hour. It is quite dark now when he comes home, so we carry a flash lantern when he takes his after-dinner cigar walk, that we may neither run into trees nor fall into the new violet frame while we tell of the COMMUTER'S WIFE 103 day's work. Oh, the joy of the telling, when every commonest detail means so muchl Really, I must be careful what I say, or rather sing, in the presence of these dogs; for a moment ago I gave vent to my feelings of joy in a bit of a song that was between a cheer and a yodel, and those two hounds first raised their heads and bayed as if it was night, and the full moon shining in their kennel, then dashed about the attic at full cry. Next Lark took it up. Bluff tried to copy until he choked, and Pat yelped. Delia the waitress immediately appeared with a white, scared face, out of breath from running up- stairs, saying that in the old country such keening always meant death. Hardly had she disappeared when Martha Corkle the decorous, knocked, begged pardon, but the sound of the hounds had given her such a turn she'd nearly dropped the soup kettle, and it made her feel more settled and at home than anything since she came. From that moment Bugle and Tally-ho never lacked food, but, on the other hand, any dog mischief that was done in Delia's precinct was laid to their charge. 104 GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE Tim is coming up the road with the great wagon and two big boxes, one long and one square. What can they be? The sundial, of course. Pedestal and top. For though it left before we did, being freight, it was delayed. To-morrow Evan will be here, and we will have a festival and set the dial ; that is, if we can agree upon the place, and it is good weather. Ah, there is a red streak in the west, and it is widening. It is almost train time. I will drive down for Evan myself, and tell him that our talisman has come. VII A BIRTHDAY BREAKFAST November i. Why has no one written a November rhapsody with plenty of lilt and swing ? The poets who are moved at all by this month seem only stirred to lamentation, giving us year end and " melancholy days " remarks, thereby showing that theory is stronger than observation among the rhym- ing brotherhood, or else that they have chronic indi- gestion and no gardens to stimulate them. Of course I do not know what November might mean to some one living away from his kind without love, in a cheerless house, lacking adequate means of heating or light, with no bath tub, and a well low from summer droughts, the sort of being whose intel- ligence dries away in autumn like the leaves, and whose breath of life merely nickers half dormant until the spring sun forces it to quicken in spite of itself. The strange part of it is that so many city folk asso- ciate this state of woodchuck existence with the real 105 io6 THE GARDEN OF A country life, whereas the intelligent country life, if it is lived and not merely toyed with in an amateurish manner, is a full, sparkling, strenuous course, calling for a more inventive brain and greater activity than that of the city in proportion as its satisfaction is greater. The difference is that in the city at best one lives the life of others, the life of the shop, the street, the crowd, while in the country one must live one's own life. A selfish, warped, narrow life, some say ? Doubtless it might he ; but if one has a home to keep, a husband weaving his web daily to and fro, and a country doctor, vibrating with sympathies of many lives, for a father, the pulse can never beat slow nor the heart grow cold. I am daily realizing that it is a liberal education of both heart and head simply to be Evan's wife and my father's daughter. Father's private means, though small comparatively, enable him to keep abreast of outside affairs and the newest methods of his profes- sion, so that he can do the best possible for his poorest patient, regardless of fees or criticism, thus carrying comfort and hope miles beyond the usual limited circuit when controlled by mere pay. The saying that " shoemaker's children lack shoes " is simply a criticism of the relations between the children and their cobbler parent. The parental COMMUTER'S WIFE 107 attitude toward his trade evidently was not such as to make it interesting in his children's eyes, otherwise they would not only have thought shoes desirable,, but have learned to make them. Father's attitude toward his profession has always made it seem to me like the highest expression of the religion of humanity. To do the highest duty amid the scenes in which his life is set frorn lonely farm to the hovels of factory and brick-yard workers in the town, the healer of the body must also at need become the soother and strengthener of the soul. Was it not this revelation of spiritualized humanity that the Master preached and practised when he cleansed the lepers, bade Lazarus come forth, and comforted the dying thief with the positive promise of things beyond ? I think also that a certain knowledge of the processes of natural law, so that the facts of it come to one unconsciously and as a matter of course, pre- vents many shocks and jars that would otherwise meet a woman on entering the world that lies out- side of the protecting doors of home. While a knowledge of the evil of breaking these laws as seen by the results, even in one little hospital, must make one's relations to the race more sane and sound. Surely the country life is not as wholly com- 108 THE GARDEN OF A pounded of vegetation as the city dweller imagines. The cockney who thinks that he has summed up the essence of torpidity when he speaks of people who "vegetate in the country," simply illustrates his own ignorance and that he does not even know the life history of a turnip. For, taking the term literally, few things live more hurried and pushing lives than vegetables. Vegetables are chiefly articles upon which the very life of the world depends; they do a great deal of work, and do it in private — a method of which most people have no conception, as not to live in public is to them the equivalent of death. Also to be a successful vegetable requires great energy ; for not only must it work hard during the growing season, keeping its health and digestion in order often on scanty and variable rations, but it must provide, either by seed or the storing up in bulb, tuber, or rootstock, enough strength to insure its further existence. To return to November and its praise; mine is conclusive, being both material and sentimental, and stated in a few words. To-day has been one of the happiest days of my life, and it is November COMMUTER'S WIFE 109 first. True, Aunt Lot surprised us by coming in by the evening train, Reverend Jabez being now located at Centreville, thirty miles off, to get some winter flannels that she left packed away and offer me advice as to household management. But she has not damaged the day, for father has kindly lured her into his study; she merely acted as a sort of nightcap under whose influence, together with the result of an entire day out of doors, Evan and I crept somnolently into our den to sit in the big armchair in front of the wood fire, and whisper about things that could be perfectly well spoken aloud; but to make people tiptoe and whisper is Aunt Lot's effect upon every one. " Why are we sitting here, instead of entertaining your Aunt Lot?" Evan asked contentedly, without making any effort to move. "Because we are rude and perfectly frank heathens. We don't care to see her, for she wasn't nice about our being married, and so we do not pretend we do. We do not care a bit because the roof of the parson- age pantry leaked and spoiled her season's jam and jelly; we don't care that the 'four youngest' are badly disciplined and a trial; instead, we feel very sorry for them. "Then she is sure to have speeches to make no THE GARDEN OF A about my duty to you, quite forgetting that in her wrath two years ago she summed you up as ' one of those foreign adventurers.' Yet I suppose I must go in," I said dubiously. But I didn't go. Evan said it would be undutiful to him. I wonder if she and the Reverend Jabez ever sit in the same chair in front of the fire ! Evan says they probably have an oil stove, and of course no one would care to sit by that ! The day began for me at half past six o'clock. Not that I got up then. I merely roused suffi- ciently to go over to the window-seat and see if the weather promised well. It has been an opalescent day. When I looked out this morning, the opal was dull with barely a flush; everything was a mysterious pearly gray. Season, location, time, equally veiled by the fog that remained to tell of yesterday's downpour. One thing, however, this fog surely indicated, — that the weather was still mild, as a cold northwest wind would have swept the world dry, while the first thing that the window revealed would have been the top of the bare gray maples that bound us on COMMUTER'S WIFE in the lower side of the hill. The silence was com- plete, not even the plash of a drop of water or a ripple in the sea of fog. Suddenly the sun, only clear of the horizon, burned solidly through the mist, a fire opal whose glints of green, scarlet, yellow, and purple were caught by every leafless twig and woven in a filmy tissue that covered the grass. All day yesterday a flock of despondent robins took shelter in the honeysuckles of the porch and in the hemlock hedge. The old birds were silent, the young males, however, occasionally giving a call or trying a few notes, as it were, to cheer them- selves; but it was a sad autumnal sound with a sort of pibroch wail to it. This morning however, they were all darting about across the lawn, and one, close above the window, confided to my ear quite four bars of an advance spring song. How we are all more or less creatures of Sun, Shadow, and Imagination, impressed or depressed by weather! As the musical robin flew to join his mates, I remembered that it was to be a holiday with Evan at home, and the consequent agreement to disagree between Exact Time and Breakfast, so I curled up comfortably in bed again, not intend- 112 THE GARDEN OF A ing to doze, but merely realize the luxurious state of things. This enjoyment of an occasional late breakfast is one of the joys of the commuter and his wife which is denied the blase beings who always breakfast in winter at eight or nine. As for spring and summer mornings, who but a cripple could lie in bed ? In spite of my intention I fell asleep, for the next thing I remember, the tall clock down in the hall whirred and struck eight times, accompanied by the baying with which the hounds always answered its warning when within earshot. Evan was missing, while strange noises on the piazza at the back of the house whetted my naturally rampant curiosity, and made me dress in a very incoherent fashion and hurry downstairs. Where was Evan ? Father was at the breakfast table. Delia fluttered about in a conscious way, and as I entered the room, Evan dodged in at the opposite side through a long window, looking quite guilty and with marks of the soil on the knees of his knicker- bockers, his feet, and hands : the latter he hid in the pockets of his coat. Then as I glanced at the table almost covered with flowers, I realized that it was my birthday, and that somebody had taken a long drive to the greenhouse in town while I was still sleeping, COMMUTER'S WIFE 113 and somebody else had a present that he was trying to conceal. "Which am I to sit by for these?" I said, as I turned from the flowers to the two men, who looked expectant. " Oh, I didn't go over on purpose, dear child," said father, quite innocently, drawing me down for his twenty-five kisses. "I often make my trip to the hospital early to take them unawares. It is well, you know, sometimes. Yes, to be sure, this is rather ear- lier than usual, but then, daughter, I wanted to have a longer day with my children at home." Meanwhile Delia brought in the coffee biggin and lit the lamp (I make the coffee, Martha being too thoroughly steeped in English tea making to compass the mystery). Still Evan did not sit down, but fidg- eted about by the window. Seeking the cause, I too looked out, and there on the piazza, was what at a glance seemed to be the stock in trade of a nurseryman, all arranged sys- tematically. There were bags of bulbs, rows of prickly though leafless roses with their roots tied in balls of moss, topless herbaceous plants, only iden- tifiable by their labels ; a line of well-grown shrubs leaned against the house, their roots, also, protected with moss, while in the walk, quite safe and sound, 114 THE GARDEN OF A reposed the sundial. Evan had not only unpacked and sorted the modest supply of things I had ordered, but supplemented them by those which he knew we should need, and being slow of growth ought to be planted without delay. Father and Evan are never so handsome or happy as when they have planned a surprise for me, and as they are doing this almost every day, you can easily judge of the personal appearance and temper of my two lovers without further description. In order to give each his due I pushed over three chairs close together on one side of the table, and sat in the middle one myself. When the second part of the breakfast should have appeared, a lull occurred, unnoticed at first, there was so much to talk about. However, as we all wished to go out, after a reasonable time I rang for Delia, who had disappeared, and told her to serve the steak. She opened her mouth to speak, changed her mind, and went into the pantry, where I heard whispering. In a moment Martha Corkle appeared in the doorway, her hands clasped over a faultless white apron, her bosom heaving. A shocked expression jarred her countenance as she saw us all in a bunch on one side of the table COMMUTER'S WIFE 115 as if blown there by a storm. I must acknowledge that we were not behaving in a conventional British breakfast manner. Evan had stuck roses in my hair, and I had put one in every buttonhole of his velveteen coat, which he wore over a sweater, while a single bud was tucked over father's nearest ear — a fact of which he was blissfully unconscious, as he gave Martha the kindly and fraternal smile with which he invariably greeted her over the top of his paper, having refrained from handshaking since the night of our arrival. " The steak is gone, Mrs. Evan, stole and gone, ma'am, by what ways it isn't for me to say. It was as fine a cut as ever I've handled, leastwise in this 'ouse. Two and a quarter in weight, without the end that I always trims off for the soup stock, Mrs. Evan. It was there when I cast my eye through the ice-chest after last night's dinner; this mornin' it was gone." " Could the dogs have helped themselves to it ? " suggested Evan, chuckling at Martha's perturbation. " You might have taken it out without thinking and left it on the table, you know," he said to her. " I remember once long ago that you rowed a lot about my taking a cold fowl and a ham shank to make a feast for some boating chaps, and my Ii6 THE GARDEN OF A mother reminded you that we ate them the day before in a pie ! " " Mr. Evan, a sober woman doesn't so mistake herself twict. That was when I was but fresh widowed and my prospects gone, and I well re- member how it turned me about. It was twenty years — " " Yes, but now — and the meat, that is the ques- tion. Cook us some eggs, and we'll track the steak later." " Mr. Evan, sir, I can't deal with eggs until I'm cleared of that steak." Then, lowering her voice, " I do think that terrier, Pat, is the likeliest to have ate it, though Delia says it was those hinnercent 'ounds." Mrs. Corkle spoke with unusual correct- ness for one of her class, only lapsing when under great excitement. "Mrs. Evan, ma'am, in my 'umble opinion, Pat is the only one of the dogs tricky enough to make way with meat and dish besides, " she added, as a convincing argument. "The dish!" I cried. "No dog would take the dish." " Yes, Mrs. Evan, the dish is gone, a plate of one of the old kitchen set, of whom there's but few left, with a blue picture drawn out on it" COMMUTER'S WIFE 117 " Steak gone, plate, picture ? " queried father, sud- denly emerging from behind his paper and dropping it, while a flush struggling with a half guilty, half confused expression crossed his face. "Well, Barbara, that is, you see — the fact is — I took that steak last night, and forgot to replace it. I've been visiting that poor Baker woman who is so run down and has a cough. You know her, Barbara ; she used to sew here sometimes — but born a lady, and with the sensitiveness of one. She needs meat. Cheap slops and medicine won't build her up ; but she is too poor to buy it, and it would offend her if I offered her money or ordered meat direct from the butcher. " Last night as I was going out I looked in the ice- chest for some little knick-knack that I could carry her as a home product, you know — quite a different thing, I take it, from food purchased on purpose. The steak was exactly the thing she needed, — would last her three days ; and that old blue plate she was sure to recognize as ours, so I took them to- gether, and forgot to mention it or buy another steak. You see, my dear, you understand ? " Of course / did, of course Martha Corkle did not ; but appreciating a man's property rights in his own ice-chest and contents, she retreated, technically if n8 THE GARDEN OF A not entirely satisfied, and sent us in irreproachable poached eggs, and the dish of toasted bacon that to- gether with kidneys always makes us forget her shortcomings in coffee, and the awful duck-on-a-rock bread she perpetrates. This bread is of the consis- tency of clay, and is called a " cottage loaf." You can't slice it ; the native whittles it up with his knife as one does a pencil. At present we live on toast, the basis supplied by an itinerant baker. Later, I shall doubtless get up my courage to ask her to take lessons of Mrs. Mullins, an old ex-cook. The commuter's wife should have a hen rampant as her coat of arms, and adopt it as her patron saint. I swear daily gratitude to this commonplace and song- less bird, — for, given eggs, my household need not go breakfastless either to town or to hospital. Both father and Evan are not only satisfied but eager ,for eggs at breakfast and other odd times. They may be cooked in any of a dozen ways, or at a pinch not cooked at all, but shaken up in a deft way with a few other ingredients. If a man regards eggs seri- ously, there is no need for him to run to the train breakfastless, leaving wife or maids in a state of ex- haustion, one having stayed awake half the night to wake the other. A late unsavory breakfast is never pardonable, for fruit needs no cooking, and good cof« COMMUTER'S WIFE 119 fee, a cereal, hot toast, and eggs " a 1'infinity " can be as well gathered together in half an hour as in half a day. You see, a country doctor's daughter has a good chance to learn the ways of ministering to the physical needs of a man who must always be well fed, though often not lengthily. The bacon and eggs had scarcely disappeared and father had begged a third cup of coffee in honour of my birthday, when there was a vigorous scratching at the back door. I had been wondering all the time what had become of the dogs, who usually were the first to take their places either under the table or beside the chairs of their favourites. I could hear Tim outside, admonishing them and evidently trying to chide them into order, which was instantly departed from the moment the door opened. They entered like rockets with a flash of colour. Lark, Pat, and the hounds ran to me with every symptom of joy, Bluff alone crawling under the table with an evident desire to hide. Each dog had a red ribbon tied around his neck, from which hung a large pasteboard heart, bearing a birthday greet- ing and a quotation, something of the penny valen- tine order, appropriate to, if somewhat derisive of, gardening. One by one, much to the relief of the dogs, I 120 THE GARDEN OF A gathered in the trophies. Stringing them on my arm as I used to the hoops of wonderful paper flowers that were used as favours at the dancing class cotillons that vexed my youthful spirits. I called Bluff to yield his ribbon, but he would not come out. Father commanded him in an unmistakable voice, and then he crawled grovelling to his feet, as if in abject terror, the cardboard heart chewed to pulp, in his effort to get rid of it. " I believe he thinks the dangling thing some sort of a punishment for an unknown crime," said father. "Once when he was a year or two old, I tied a quail about his neck to punish him for eating some game he should have retrieved, and I believe the old fellow remembers it. Untie the ribbon, Bar- bara, and see what he will do." The moment the bow was loosened, I tossed the whole necklet across the room, out of sight. Bluff sat up still trembling and looked about, then with two joyful barks, gave me his usual caress, the veriest scrap of a lick on the nose, and with self- respect restored, began to coax for toast. By this time the sun was shining bright and strong above the maples, and the air blowing through the door that the dogs had burst open was COMMUTER'S WIFE 121 full of unexpected softness. Father and Evan dis- appeared each to his lair, to return simultaneously armed with pipe and tobacco pouch, which prom- ised me two outdoor companions. For these beloved men instinctively avoid saturating the indoor air with pipe smoke, knowing without a word from me that a woman of sensitive organization has the nose of a hunting-dog. Then we three strolled down toward the long walk to take the first step toward capturing the Garden of Dreams, that I might live my life in it. A song sparrow sang merrily, a bluebird purled away from the Mother Tree, the soft bright air bore the fragrance of Russian violets, and a bit of the tangle was gay with the hardy pompon chrys- anthemums, tawny, red, yellow, pink, and white. My heart beat joyously, for love held me by either hand, and before me there was work to be done, and work is life. Still it is the first day of November! Fie upon you, melancholy autumn poets! VIII SETTING THE SUNDIAL November i (continued}. Last night I told Evan my plan of turning the old strawberry bed into a bit of formal garden, and he agreed that it would be a natural resting place for the eye in its journey from the seat under the apple tree down the walk and across the fields. He emended the somewhat crooked design that I had traced on a slate found in the attic desk, and made me a fascinating water-colour sketch in which the strawberry bed appeared as a small level lawn in the centre of which stood the sundial acting as the hub to a large, wheel-shaped flower bed, or rather, group of beds, as the wide spokes, each of a different but harmonizing colour, were separated by narrow grass walks. A similar walk circled the spokes and was bounded in turn by a circular bed that might be called the tire of the wheel, and divided the grass walk into four in order that one might get to the centre GARDEN OF A COMMUTER'S WIFE 123 without walking through the outer bed. Four grace- ful wing-shaped beds filled the corners of the grass plot, which by actual measurement proved to be forty feet square. This plateau was on three sides enough higher than the surrounding ground to allow an arbitrary grass slope of two feet, with a couple of steps where the long walk joined it. Without suggesting what plants should be used, — that is to be settled on some dreary day in midwinter when the first seed catalogue appears, bringing its tantalizing mirage of possibilities, — Evan washed in a colour scheme that he knew would satisfy my rather savage taste, and make this formal bit a blaze of light without the aid of a single "foliage plant." For it is really astonishing how few colours are inharmonious when they are profusely massed and have green for a background. One thing we decided about my Garden of the Sun, as Evan calls this formal bit, because it stands out in the open entirely without shelter. It is to contain only the perishable summer flowers, really flowers of the sun, and fit companions of the sun- dial. Gorgeous blossoms that come into being in June after the hardy roses have vanished, and glow and blaze until they fairly bloom themselves to death, before the frost touches them. 124 THE GARDEN OF A Of these flowers some are annuals, and others tender perennials or so-called florists' flowers that it is always a mistake to mix with bulbs or hardy perennials, for in the early season they are over- powered, and in their turn choke the hardier plants, exhausting the goodness from the soil by their rank growth. As for the spring bulbs, I do not like them in set beds, each of a kind, and arranged in stripes or figures, any more than I do the formal beds of foli- age plants. Grown in this way, as soon as the bulbs are out of bloom they must be replaced, or the space will look ragged and unsightly. This does away with the natural seasons of the garden. I think that one of the greatest charms of nature to women is that she is, like ourselves, a creature of moods, phases, seasons, and not always equally radiant. Her wild garden has its spring, summer, autumn, and winter seasons, one waxing as another wanes. I think the cultivated garden should follow the wild plan, and while it must yield flowers in some part during the whole growing season, it ought not to be coerced and stuffed like pate geese and every bed expected to be in full bloom at all times. Besides, this constant pulling up and replanting entails labour not within the power of the com- COMMUTER'S WIFE 125 muter's wife, who, if she is wise, plans as far as possible for the permanent, so if she is obliged to neglect her flowers for a time, garden baldness will not result. Evan says that if gardening is to be my relaxa- tion and a pleasure, I must pursue it, but be very careful that it does not get the upper hand and pur- sue me, for he has seen this turning of tables not only cause the downfall of many gardens, but of country homes as well. If, a few days ago, Cris had put the sand where he was directed, I should have planted my bulbs in the wrong place. During the delay Evan discovered that the grassy stretch outside the study and win- dows of our den, where father tramps to and fro and smokes when he is thinking, looked bare, and some- thing was needed to shield the foundation of the house. This is a dry and sheltered nook, and an ideal location for bulbs, if they are planted well forward of the path and drip-line of the eaves. Evan has marked out two curving beds that follow the line of the path that goes to the rear door, and I am mass- ing all my bulbs in them, — daffodils, narcissus, hya- 126 THE GARDEN OF A cinths, tall late tulips, the golden banded auratum, pure white madonna (candidum), and pink and crim- son spotted Japan lilies. I shall plant them in groups, not rows, according to height rather than colour, so that by scattering some portulacca seed in June, the ground will be covered beneath the tall stalks of the later flowers, and we shall have colour under the windows from April until October. There are no plants more healthy, sturdily brilliant in bloom, and unlikely to disappoint than the bulb tribe. These are the only two flower beds to be allowed out of strict garden limits, as we have decided that all the other decorations grouped about the house must be tufts of eulalia, various shrubs, and groups of scillas, daffodils, peonies, and iris set in the grass. The older shrubs we have in plenty, great masses of lilacs, syringas, and snowballs filling every corner and overarching the walk. Our ancestors were aided by their usual common sense regarding economy of labour, when they gath- ered their little home gardens in a corner, often fenc- ing them in from the rest of the land. Here the flowers could be considered as a whole, be loved, tended, watered, and protected from insect enemies without waste of energy. Upon this same principle I must collect my flower COMMUTER'S WIFE 127 family under one roof, so to speak, keeping them in such order that I may not only enjoy them freely, but minister easily to their needs quite out of the range of highway criticism. Not that I object to being seen weeding, watering, tying, and insectiding in a perspiring and collarless condition, but I do not wish to be pounced upon by every patient that calls and be expected to take them into my sanctuary, there to prowl and despoil me of garden privacy or flowers after the custom of the idly curious. It is something of a responsibility of course to be one's own gardener, but an infinite satisfaction withal to feel that the making and even the marring is within one's own grasp. That is, as far as things agricultu- ral are ever within the power of a mere human. For as a humbling and God-fearing occupation, none can exceed the gardener's. Mother Earth has ways of trying and proving the temper or lack of it that can- not be surpassed for variety. As I look back over the years that I have watched garden processes, and sown and gathered my little crop of flowers, it seems that I should now know enough to keep clear of cultural sins both of omis- sion and commission. Yet when I realize all the things that are uncontrollable, I turn pagan and am inclined to make a series of shrubby grottos to har- 128 THE GARDEN OF A hour the deities of Sun, Rain, and Seasonable Weather, so that I may secretly propitiate them with offerings. It was a woman gardener who said feel- ingly, " Paul may plant, but if Apollos declines to water, what can one do about it?" In these days, however, all well-conducted dwell- ers in the country have artesian wells and wind- mills, and are thereby able, up to a certain point, by means of a diamond spray sprinkler, to sneeze in the face of so important a person as even Apollos himself. Of course we have one of these wells, both for outdoor convenience and because father has been trying for many years to convince the community that neighbourliness does not require them to drink each other's drainage. This they do inevitably on the village and river side of the hills, where wells and cesspools alternate with great regularity. Surely the country life is the healthiest in the world, other- wise the rank and file of people who live it would never survive the liberties they take with them- selves ! This morning when father, Evan, and I, fol- lowed by Tim and Bertie, arrived at the garden a COMMUTER'S WIFE 129 further surprise was ambushed behind the rose arbour, in the shape of two men from the florist over in town of whom father had bought my birthday flowers. " You see, Barbara," said Evan, shaking hands with himself behind his back, a manner he has of expressing satisfaction, " people always call in extra help at a ' house-raisin',' so I thought that I would do the same at this ' garden digging ' ; for if your beds are shaped now, you can in your mind's eye plant and replant, until when spring comes every- thing will be decided to your satisfaction." I laughed aloud and clapped my hands at this new outbreak of one of Evan's strong traits ; for the dear fellow had only a few moments before warned me that I could expect to do very little until spring, at the very time that he was providing men with stakes, measures, and lines to lay out the garden without delay. Making a noise when I am pleased is another of my savage traits. Animals do it; the dogs bay with pleasure when invited for an unexpected walk. When good luck came to Toomai of the Elephants, he sat out in the night and thumped a tom-tom in pure joy. Civilization is mostly silent in happiness, feeling doubtless that at least feigned indifference 130 THE GARDEN OF A is expected of it. I often wonder whether we gain or lose by being civilized. It is so much less com- plicated to be a savage. The next consideration was the location of the sundial, for a hole must be dug and a rough founda- tion of stones, rubble, and cement laid before it could be set. Fortunately the strawberry bed had been care- fully levelled in its youth ; the ashes used as a top dressing, drawing white clover to fill the place of the departed berries, promised very respectable turf, that by a careful weeding out in spring and raking in of fresh seed would serve quite well. After Evan had driven the central stake Bertie set to work with his shovel, advised and admonished by Tim, whose dialect Scotch must have seemed a weird language to his Danish ears. Meanwhile Evan and I strolled up and down the long walk rather perplexed how to proceed, while father surrounded by dogs watched us from his seat under the tree, and the two extras stood at " rest arms." The borders, about six feet in width, were a hope- less jungle of hardy plants interspersed at intervals COMMUTER'S WIFE 131 with shrubs and tall bushes of the older roses such as Magna Charta and Jacqueminot. Some of these met over the path and partly barred the way. At this season of course the hardy plants could be dis- tinguished only by their leaves, and being herba- ceous, any night a hard frost might destroy even this clue. There was a broad band of hollyhocks too well placed against the honeysuckle bank to be dis- turbed, straggling helter-skelter were foxgloves, Canterbury bells, larkspurs, phloxes, sweet William, columbines, white anemone Japonica still in bloom in company with monkshood, hardy coreopsis, even- ing primroses, honesty, and sunflowers, while the autumnal growth of white, yellow, and red day and tiger lilies and scarlet oriental poppies was distinguishable. After several turns up and down in a brown study, Evan threw back his head and cried : " I have it ! I will have the men grub up all these plants with the exception of the roses and shrubs and put them on the walk, work over the beds thoroughly, and dig in good old manure from that heap in the field. Then the plants can be reset neither in a jungle nor in stiff lines, but in groups of a kind between the shrubs, which really, when 132 THE GARDEN OF A properly trimmed, will make a series of alcoves to break the awkwardness of straight lines. Some shrubs are too old and must come out or be re- placed, and others, like the great syringas, lilacs, and snowballs, can be allowed to meet over the walk and may be cut out to form natural arches. This I will manage myself. What do you think of my scheme, Madam Commuter ? Doesn't it keep the old and yet put it in a tangible, workable shape without breaking any of the canons and laws of my craft ? " I said that it was charming and suited me exactly, but did not add that it was precisely what I myself had planned yesterday in the attic and sketched on the reverse side of the old slate. It is a great mis- take to collapse the lovable little self-conceits of men, for they are of a wholly different quality from egotism. Besides, to have told Evan that his plan was "piper's news" or that "great minds think alike" would have deprived him of the pleasure of pleasing me. Poor Aunt Lot had this fatal quality of forestalling surprises and caused me to lode up the characteristic for future avoidance in my brain cabinet. Then Evan called the men, and the digging and sorting began. It will take them at least a whole OREAT SYHINCA BUSHES MEET OVBR THE WALK