The §1 mAQL of m the 'DISCOVERY Captain KQliartOcotI THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' VOL. II. THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' BY CAPTAIN ROBERT F. SCOTT C.V.O., R.N. WITH ILLUSTRATIONS AND MAPS IN TWO VOLUMES VOL II. THE COPP, CLARK CO., LIMITED Ifxmiiott MACMILLAN AND CO., LIMITED 1905 (All rights reserved) H Polar- 604292 CONTENTS OF THE SECOND VOLUME CHAPTER XIII JOURNEY TO- THE FARTHEST SOUTH Future Plans Modified by Reconnaissance Journeys — Trip to Cape Crozier — Start of the Southern Journey — Depot ' A ' — Descrip- tion of the Dog Team — Equipment of Sledges — Return of Sup- porting Party — Failure of the Dogs — Relay Work — Dog-driving — Dcg-food— Atmospheric Phenomenon— Cracking of the Sur- face Crust—New Land in Sight— Beautiful Effects produced by Snow-Crystals— Dogs Weakening — Slow Progress — Depot ' B' — The Chasm — Pushing Southward — Increase of Hunger — Further Land — Scurvy Appearing— Cooking Arrangements — Soft Snow — Experiences with the Dogs — Christmas Day and its Good Cheer CHAPTER XIV RETURN FROM THE FAR SOUTH Result of Shortage of Food — Nature of the Coastline — Snow-blind- ness— Approaching the Limit of our Journey — View to the South — New Mountains — Blizzard at our Extreme South — Turning Homeward — Attempt to Reach the Land — The Passing of our Dog Team— Help from our Sail — Difficult Surfaces — Running VI THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' PAGE before a Storm — Finding Depot ' B '— Scurvy Again — Shackleton Becomes 111- The Last of our Dog Team — Bad Light for Steer- ing— Anxious Days — Depot 'A' — Over-eating — The Last Lap — Home Again— Our Welcome 49 CHAPTER XV WHAT HAD HAPPENED DURING OUR ABSENCE IN THE SOUTH Royds' Journey to Cape Crozier — The King's Birthday — Athletic Sports — The Western Journey — Difficulties amongst the Moun- tains— Ascent of the Ferrar Glacier — Approaching the Summit — First Party on the Interior of Victoria Land— Return of Western Party — Summer Thawing — About the Islands to the South-West — Curious Ice Formations — Recovery of the Boats — Preparing for Sea — History of the Relief Expedition — Arrival of the • Morning ' 94 CHAPTER XVI OUR SECOND WINTER Effects of the Strain of the Southern Journey — Communication with the ' Morning'— Change of Weather — Stores Transported — Delays in the Break-up of the Ice — Closing of the Season —De- parture of the ' Morning ' — Making Provision for the Winter — Settling Down— Hockey — Departure of the Sun — Fishing Opera- tions— Record Temperatures — The Electrometer — Midwinter Feast — Our Growing Puppies— Hodgson at Work— The ' Flying Scud'— Return of the Sun — Signs of Summer— Plans for the Future- - General Good Health .120 CHAPTER XVII COMMENCEMENT OF OUR SECOND SLEDGING SEASON Parlies Starting— Away to New Harbour— We Find a Good Road, Establish a Depot, and Return— Sledging in Record Tempera- tures—Experiences in Different Directions— Emperor Penguin Chicks — Eclipse of the Sun— A Great Capture— Preparing for the Western Journey- Ascending Ferrar Glacier— Our Sledges Break Down— Forced to Return— Some Good Marching — Fresh CONTENTS OF THE SECOND VOLUME vii I'AUE Start — More Troubles with the Sledges— A Heavy Loss— Wind from the Summit — The Upper Glacier — A Week in Camp— We Break Away and Reach the Summit— Hard Conditions — Party Divided — Eight Days Onward — An Awe-inspiring Plain — We Turn as the Month Ends 151 CHAPTER XVIII RETURN FROM THE WEST Returning over the Great Plateau — Doubts about Provisions and Oil — Harrowing Effect of Fresh Snowfall — Thick Weather — No Sight of Landmarks — Sudden Descent into Glacier — Escape from a Crevasse — Exploration of North Arm — A Curious Valley — Return to the Ship— Results of other Sledging Efforts — Ferrar's Journey — Barne's Journey — Royds' Journey — Shorter Journeys — Review of Sledging Work 197 CHAPTER XIX ESCAPE FROM THE ICE Indigestion — Arrival at the Sawing Camp — Sawing Operations — Break-up of Sawing Party — The Open Water — Arrival of the Relief Ships — Unwelcome News — Stagnant Condition of the Ice — Depressing Effect— Preparations for Abandoning the 'Dis- covery ' — Ice Breaking Away — Explosions —Anxious Days — Final Break-up of the Ice -Dramatic Approach of the Relief Ships — The Small Fleet Together — Final Explosion — The ' Discovery ' Free 227 CHAPTER XX HOMEWARD BOUND Memorial to our Lost Shipmate — Gale Commences— Ship Driven on Shore — Gloomy Outlook — Sudden Escape — Coaling — Driven North — Departure of 'Morning' — Wood Bay— Trouble with Pumps— Possession Islands— Rudder Disabled — Robertson Bay — Rudder Replaced — Towards Cape North — Heavy Pack — Skirting Pack— 'Terra Nova' Parts Company— Balleny Islands— Over viii THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY TAGE Wilkes' Land— Turning North -The Last Iceberg —Auckland Islands — Reassembly — New Zealand Again — Voyage Homeward — Completion of our Work — Our First Monotony— Home . . 262 GENERAL SURVEY OF OUR OBSERVATIONS ... 300 APPENDIX I Summary of the Geological Observations made during the Cruise of the s.s. 'Discovery,' 1901-1904. By II. T. Ferrar, M.A., F.G.S., Geologist to the National Antarctic Expedition . . 32 j APPENDIX II On the Whales, Seals and Birds of Ross Sea and South Victoria Land. By Edward A. Wilson, M.B., F.Z.S., Zoologist on the National Antarctic Expedition 35: INDEX 375 ILLUSTRATIONS IN THE SECOND VOLUME Christmas Camp amongst the Ice-borne Boulders . Frontispiece Chasm which Prevented us from Reaching the Land Facing p. 62 Looking up from New Harbour .... ,,152 Emperors' Rookery under the Broken Ice-cliff at Cape Crozier ,, 370 Chart of Sledge Journeys from Winter Quar- ters Facing p. 374 CHAPTER XIII JOURNEY TO THE FARTHEST SOUTH Future Plans Modified by Reconnaissance Journeys — Trip to Cape Crozier — Start of the Southern Journey — Depot ' A ' — Description of the Dog Team — Equipment of Sledges — Return of Supporting Party — Failure of the Dogs— Relay Work — Dog-driving — Dog-food — Atmospheric Phenomenon— Cracking of the Surface Crust — New Land in Sight — Beautiful Effects Produced by Snow-crystals— Dogs Weakening —Slow Progress — Depot ' B ' — The Chasm — Pushing Southward — Increase of Hunger — Further Land— Scurvy Appearing — Cooking-arrange- ments— Soft Snow — Experiences with the Dogs — Christmas Day and its Good Cheer. Hold hard the breath and bend up every spirit To his full height. . . . . . . Shew us here That you are worth your breeding, which I doubt not. For there is none so mean or base That have not noble lustre in your eyes. I see you stand like greyhounds in the slips, Straining upon the start. — Shakespeare. Although the gravity of our outbreak of scurvy was not under- rated, and we had been busied in measures for the prevention of its recurrence, it must not be supposed that we had allowed it in any way to interfere with our plans for the future. Our preparations were pushed on as vigorously as though no such cloud had come to overshadow the brightness of our outlook. The general results of the spring journeys had enabled us to lay our plans for the summer with greater definition. Our reconnaissance to the south had indicated that the main party, VOL. II. B 2 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Oct. after leaving the Bluff, would have to travel directly over the snow-plain at a long distance from, and possibly out of sight of, land ; the probability was that no further depots could be established, and hence it was desirable that the party should be supported as far as possible on their route. This theory added another object for our sledging efforts, for if the coast ran sharply to the west after rounding the Bluff it was evidently desirable that we should gain some information concerning it. To meet these requirements it was decided that Barne, with a party of twelve men, should accompany the dog team until the weights were reduced to an amount which the latter could drag without assistance. He was then to return to the ship, and, after a short rest, to start again, with a party of six, and endeavour to follow the coastline west of the Bluff. With such a plan as I have outlined it was hoped that there would be a good chance of solving the mysteries in a southerly direction ; and as soon as this was in train Armitage was to have at his disposal all the resources of men and material in the ship for his attack on the western region. In considering his earlier observations, Armitage had come to the conclusion that it was impossible to force a way through the entrance to New Harbour, where for so many miles he had seemed to see a chaos of ice and morainic material, and he thought his best chance lay in ascending to the foothill plateau, in the neighbourhood of the so-called ' Eskers,' as from this he hoped to rind a pass which would lead him over the main ridge of mountains. In busily preparing for this programme we did not forget the advantage we possessed in the fact that our surfaces and general travelling conditions were likely to improve rather than otherwise as the summer advanced ; we should have little of the sea-ice to cross, and we knew that with our cold summer this would not develop into the same treacherous condition that it does in the North, whilst the surfaces to the south or inland could not possibly grow moist and sludgy. With these conditions we could arrange our movements to take advantage of what we hoped to find the warmest and i902] MODIFICATION OF PLANS 3 finest summer months ; and since there was no chance of the ship being released from the ice until February, there was little object in our sledge parties being back much before that date, while we should travel during the time that the sun was circling at its greatest altitude. As a further result of our reconnaissance journeys, we were now better able to judge of the requirements of each individual party as far as smaller matters of equipment were concerned. It was evident that the western travellers would have to be provided with ice-axes, crampons, ropes, and other necessaries for climbing ; but it seemed that in going to the south we should be safe in omitting these accessories, and in preparing for a journey in which there was no formidable obstruction. As we proposed to begin our journey to the south at the end of October, it can be imagined that, with so many minor details to be attended to, the last weeks of the month were not a slack season for any of us. On Friday, October 24, Royds and his party returned to the ship, having achieved the object of communicating with our ' Record ' post at Cape Crozier. We now had the satis- faction of knowing that we had done all in our power to guide a possible relief ship to our winter quarters ; should she make a diligent search on the northern slopes of Terror, as had been arranged, she would at least have a good prospect of receiving the latest information concerning us. It was also a very great source of satisfaction to find that the party returned in excellent health, for they had left us almost immediately after the outbreak of scurvy, and that they should have come back safe and well went far to show that hard sledging work would not necessarily cause a return of the disease. From our experience of the previous season we had con- cluded that Terror Point, as the eastern extremity of the land mass was called, was an extremely windy region, and the adventures of this party left the matter beyond much doubt. Skirting the large bay south of Erebus to avoid the deeper snow, they had carried fine but cold weather with them on the outward march, and until October 10, when they were B2 4 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Oct. able to make their most advanced camp, ready to proceed over the bare rocks towards the rookery. The nth proved a beautifully calm, bright day, and Royds, having injured his ankle, deputed the task of reaching the ' Record ' to Skelton. The latter left the camp at noon with Evans, and by 6 p.m. returned, having accomplished his errand ; in the bright, clear afternoon he had little difficulty in finding the spot, and came to the conclusion that they must have been within a very short distance of it in their autumn wanderings. On the 1 2th Skelton set out again with two companions, this time intent on photographing the immense ice disturbance caused by the barrier pushing around the land. After taking several photographs he returned, and the homeward route brought him close to the edge of the Crozier cliffs, where they rise with magnificent grandeur and form a frowning precipice more than 8oo feet sheer above the sea ; from this point of vantage he looked down directly on the barrier edge and into the small bay which breaks its outline near the land. Whilst he was admiring the beauty of the scene, his quick eye caught sight of numerous small dots on the sea-ice far below ; it was not long before he decided that they must be Emperor pen- guins. He asked himself what they could be doing here in such numbers, and wondered if it were possible that at last the breeding-place of these mysterious birds had been discovered — it seemed almost too good to be true. Assurance must wait for some future occasion, and in the meanwhile he returned to the camp in no small state of excitement. To-morrow the mystery must be cleared up ; but to-morrow brought the wind, and not a yard- from their tents could the party stir. This was the 13th. On the 14th the weather proved equally bad, save for a short lull, when they were able to prepare a hot meal ; directly afterwards, the blizzard swept down on them again and continued without intermission throughout the 15th, 16th, and 17 th. Before the gale they had built elaborate protecting snow walls to windward of the tents, and these almost proved their undoing; for the never-ceasing drift collected deeper and i9o2] TRIP TO CAPE CROZIER 5 deeper behind these walls, and the occupants of the tents were conscious that the snow was gradually accumulating around them and that they were now powerless to prevent it. It soon reduced the light within to a mere glimmer, and then, becoming heavier and heavier on every fold of canvas, it diminished their interior space to such an extent that all were obliged to lie with their knees bent double. In the end they were practically buried in the heart of a snowdrift; but whilst the stout bamboos bent under the load and still further narrowed the space within, they luckily withstood the strain to the end. It was now only by observing the extreme summit of their tents that the prisoners had any indication of what was happening without. Though in some respects this was a relief, yet for want of space they were unable to cook any food, they could barely turn from side to side, and they suffered a martyrdom from cramp. Their enclosed position brought them comparative warmth, but what advantage they gained in this way was largely discounted by the sodden dampness of articles which had thawed. On the 17 th the snow ceased to drift. The occupants of one tent were able to free themselves after some difficulty, but the other tent had literally to be dug out before its imprisoned members could be got into the open ; whilst the sledges and all that had been left without were buried completely out of sight. The tale of five days spent in the manner which I have described is soon told — Mr. Royds dismisses it in half a page of his report — but I, and I believe the reader may, find that no great effort of imagination is needed to grasp the horrible dis- comforts that it involved ; and yet when this party were recounting their adventures on board the ship, one might have imagined that the incident was all extremely amusing. The hardships had been forgotten, and all that the men seemed to remember was how So-and-so had launched out with the cramp and kicked someone else fair in the middle, or how the occu- pants of one tent had declared that they had been awakened by the snoring of some particular member in the other. It was not until the 18th that the wind ceased, and they 6 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Oct. were able to make shift to dry their equipment and to look out on the scene about them. When they had arrived the whole Ross Sea had been frozen over as far as their eyes could see, and now they gazed on a sheet of open water. Not a scrap of ice remained in sight, except in the bay to which Skelton had directed his footsteps at an early hour ; in this bay the ice still hung, and it was doubtless the permanency of this sheet which had caused the Emperor penguins to adopt it as a breeding-place. For Skelton had not been deceived in his observation : on reaching the sea-ice in this bay, after a stiff climb over the high-pressure ridges, he found again his colony of Emperors, numbering some four hundred, and, to his delight, amongst them several that were nursing chicks. Upon the great interest of this find, and upon the many important notes which were made concerning the colony, both at this time and at a later date, I will not dwell, as these facts are dealt with in the excellent appendix which our zoologist, Dr. Wilson, has contributed to this volume, describing the habits of these extraordinary birds far more clearly than I could hope to do ; I will only testify to the joy which greeted this discovery on board the ship. We had felt that . this penguin was the truest type of our region. All other birds fled north when the severity of winter descended upon us : the Emperor alone was prepared to face the extremest rigours of our climate : and we gathered no small satisfaction from being the first to throw light on the habits of a creature that so far surpasses in hardihood all others of the feathered tribe. Full of their exploits the party started for home on the rcjth, and, as I have said, reached the ship on the 24th. Before the end of the month everything was prepared for the southern journey, instructions for various sledge parties and for the custody of the ship had been given, details of the conduct of affairs had been discussed and rediscussed. Every eventuality seemed to be provided for, and nothing now re- mained but to wait for the date which had been fixed for our departure. 1902] START OF THE SOUTHERN JOURNEY 7 The southern supporting party, as I have said, consisted of Mr. Barne with eleven men ; and as it was expected that at first, at any rate, the dogs would outstrip the men, it was decided that this party should start on October 30, but that the dog team should not leave until a few days later. All were to meet at the depot which I had laid out, and which was now known as Depot ' A.' Accordingly, on October 30, I record : ' The supporting party started this morning, amidst a scene of much enthusiasm ; all hands had a day off, and employed it in helping to drag the sledges for several miles. The sledges carried some decora- tions : Barne's banner floated on the first, the next bore a Union Jack, and another carried a flag with a large device stating " No dogs need apply " ; the reference was obvious. It was an inspiriting sight to see nearly the whole of our small company step out on the march with ringing cheers, and to think that all work of this kind promised to be done as heartily. Later Shackleton had a trial trip with the dogs to get our runners in better order, and the animals started so strongly that they carried away the central trace and started to gallop off ; but luckily they all wanted to go in different directions, and so didn't get far, and, luckily also, there were a few of us about to prevent the worst effect of the inevitable fights.' ' November 2. — . . . We are off at last. By ten this morning the dogs were harnessed and all was ready for a start ; the overcast sky was showing signs of a break in the south. Every soul was gathered on the floe to bid us farewell, and many were prepared to accompany us for the first few miles. A last look was given to our securings, the traces were finally cleared, and away we went amidst the wild cheers of our comrades. The dogs have never been in such form ; despite the heavy load, for the first two miles two men had to sit on the sledges to check them, and even thus it was as much as the rest of us could do to keep up by running alongside. One by one our followers tailed off, and by noon we three were alone with our animals and still breathlessly trying to keep pace with them. Soon after lunch we saw a dark spot far ahead, and 8 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. about 5 p.m. we made this out to be our supporting party ; we caught them up just as they were rounding the corner of White Island, and learnt that they had had very bad weather which had confined them to their tents. Relieving them of some of their loads, we camped, whilst they pushed on to get the advantage of a night march.' ' November 3. — ... At 2 p.m. we came up with Barne's people. They are doing their best, but making very slow progress. The difficulty is the slipperiness of the wind-swept snow, the surface being particularly hard amongst the sastrugi opposite the gullies of the island. They can get no hold with their fur boots, and find their leather ski boots dreadfully cold for the feet ; the result is that they scarcely cover a mile an hour. The only thing is for us to take life easy whilst they go on in the best manner possible; we have relieved them of over 150 lbs. of weight, so that they now only help us to the extent of 500 lbs. I have told Barne to go on quite indepen- dently of us.' In this manner we journeyed slowly to the south outside the White Island, the parties constantly passing and repassing ; it was impossible at this part to keep together, as men and dogs took the march at quite a different pace. To add to the slowness of our journey, the weather proved very unpropitious, for the wind constantly sprang up and obliged us to camp, and we were forced to lie up during the greater part of the 8th and 9th, whilst a heavy blizzard passed over us. On the 9th I wrote : ' The wind still blows with exasperat- ing persistence, though the sun has been peeping out all day ; it adds to the trying nature of this inactivity to watch the sun pass pole after pole of our tent and to know that the support- ing party are cut off from their slow daily progress. We are now south of the Bluff, and cannot be more than eight miles from the depot. To-night the wind is dying ; the cloud mantle on the Bluff has vanished, and for the first time for many days one can catch a view of the western lands. ' On our outward track we have kept rather too close to the White Island, and consequently have had to traverse a good i902] DESCRIPTION OF THE DOG TEAM 9 many undulations; it was curious to watch the supporting party dipping out of sight on what appeared to the eye to be a plain surface. Disturbed by much barking from the dogs, we crawled out of our bags to-night about eleven o'clock, to find, much to our satisfaction, that our supporting party had arrived; they camped close by, and Barne tells me they have had a hard, cold pull up against the wind.' 1 November 10. — Started early this morning, leaving the supporting party quietly slumbering. Had much difficulty in forcing the dogs along in face of a low drift and cutting wind, but managed to make good progress. At one o'clock, sighted the depot and were soon camped beside it, when the wind died away, the sky cleared, and we have again the whole splendid panorama of the northern and western mountains in full view. 1 On the march to-day a small snow petrel suddenly appeared hovering above us, and later it was joined by a second ; these are the first birds we have seen since the departure of the skuas in the autumn, and form a very pleasant reminder of summer. We are left in wonder as to why they should be so far from the sea. We were first apprised of their coming by the conduct of the dogs, and for a moment or two we could not understand why these animals should sud- denly begin to leap about and bark furiously, but their wild dashes soon drew attention to our fluttering visitors. 1 Already it seems to me that the dogs feel the monotony of a long march over the snow more than we do ; they seem easily to get dispirited, and that it is not due to fatigue is shown when they catch a glimpse of anything novel. On see- ing the men ahead they are always eager to get up with them, and even a shadowy ice disturbance or anything unusual will excite their curiosity. To-day, for instance, they required some driving until they caught sight of the depot flag, when they gave tongue loudly and dashed off as though they barely felt the load behind them.' It would perhaps be as well to introduce the reader to our dog team, as they played so important a part in this journey, and before the tale of its ending will have disappeared from io THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. the scene for ever. Their origin and the names by which they had been formerly known are, as I have explained, mysteries which we could not penetrate, but long before the commence- ment of this journey each had learnt to answer to his own title in the following list : — • Nigger,' 'Birdie,' ' Wolfe,' ' Jim>' 'Nell,' ' Vic,' 1 Spud,' 'Blanco,' ' Bismarck, ' Snatcher,' ' Grannie,' ' Kid,' ' FitzCIarence,' ' Lewis,' ' Boss,' ' Stripes,' ' Gus,' * Brownie.' 'Joe,' Each of these dogs had his own peculiar characteristics, and altogether they displayed as great a variety as could well be comprehended in a team of the size ; it can be imagined that what we did not know concerning their individuality we had ample opportunities of learning during the weeks that followed. I have already given some idea of the dignity of character of our leader, ' Nigger.' He was a black dog with some tawny markings, and possessed the most magnificent head and chest, though falling off a little in the hinder quarters. A more perfect sledge dog could scarcely be imagined ; he chose his place naturally as the leader, and if put into any other position would make himself so unpleasant to his neighbours, and generally behave so ill, that he was very quickly shifted. In the happy times before sickness fell on our team, it was a delight to watch ' Nigger ' at his work : he seemed to know the meaning of every move. He would lie still as a graven image till he saw the snow being shovelled from the skirting of the tent, when up he would spring and pace to and fro at his picket, giving out a low throaty bark of welcome as any of us approached, and now and again turning towards his neigh- bours to express his opinion of them in the most bloodthirsty snarl. A few minutes later, as the leading man came to uproot his picket, his keen eye would watch each movement, and a slow wagging of his tail would quite obviously signify approval ; i902] DESCRIPTION OF THE DOG TEAM n then as the word came to start, he would push affectionately against the leader, as much as to say, ' Now, come along,' and brace his powerful chest to the harness. At the evening halt after a long day he would drop straight in his tracks and remain perfectly still with his great head resting on his paws ; other dogs might clamour for food, but ' Nigger ' knew perfectly well that the tent had to be put up first. Afterwards, however, when one of us approached the dog-food, above the howling chorus that arose one could always distinguish the deep bell- like note of the leading dog, and knew that if disturbance was to be avoided, it was well to go to the front end of the trace first. 1 Lewis f was a big, thick-coated, brindled dog, a very powerful but not a consistent puller ; always noisily affectionate and hopelessly clumsy, he would prance at one and generally all but succeed in bowling one over with boisterous affection. He was very popular with everyone, as such a big, blustering, good-natured animal deserved to be. 1 Jim ' was a sleek, lazy, greedy villain, up to all the tricks of the trade ; he could pull splendidly when he chose, but generally preferred to pretend to pull, and at this he was extraordinarily cunning. During the march his eye never left the man with the whip, on whose approach ' Jim ' could be seen panting and labouring as though he felt sure that every- thing depended on his efforts; but a moment or two later, when the danger had passed, the watchful eye would detect Master J Jim ' with a trace that had a very palpable sag in it. Yet with all his faults it was impossible not to retain a certain affection for this fat culprit, who was so constantly getting himself into hot water. The general opinion of ' Spud ' was that he was daft — there was something wanting in the upper storey. In the middle of a long and monotonous march he would suddenly whimper and begin to prance about in his traces ; in dog- language this is a signal that there is something in sight, and it always had an electrical effect on the others, however tired they might be. As a rule they would set off at a trot with 12 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. heads raised to look around and noses sniffing the breeze. It was ' Spud ' alone who gave this signal without any cause, and, curiously enough, the rest never discovered the fraud ; to the end he openly gulled them. On ordinary occasions ' Spud ' would give one the impression of being intensely busy ; he was always stepping over imaginary obstacles, and all his pulling was done in a jerky, irregular fashion. He was a big, strong, black dog, and perhaps the principal sign of his mental incapacity was the ease with which others could rob him of his food. Amongst the team there had been one animal who was conspicuous for his ugliness : with a snubbish nose, a torn ear, an ungainly body, ribs that could be easily counted through a dirty, tattered coat, and uncompromisingly vulgar manners, he was at first an object of derision to all ; and being obviously of the most plebeian origin, he was named ' FitzQarence.' Kindness and good food worked wonders for ' Clarence,' and although he never developed into a thing of beauty or of refined habits, he became a very passable sledge dog. ' Kid ' and c Bismarck ' were the only two dogs of the team that bore an outward resemblance, both being short-legged animals with long, fleecy, black-and-white coats. But the likeness was only superficial. Inwardly they differed much, for whereas Bismarck was counted amongst the lazy eye- servers, • Kid ' was the most indefatigable worker in the team ; from morn to night he would set forth his best effort. The whip was never applied to his panting little form, and when he stopped it was to die from exhaustion. With all our efforts we could never quite tame ' Birdie,' who had evidently been treated with scant respect in his youth. At the ship he would retire into his kennel and growl at all except those who brought him food, and to the end he remained distrustful and suspicious of all attempts to pet him. He was a large, reddish-brown dog, very wolfish in appearance, but a powerful puller when he got to understand what was required of him. Of the rest of the team, c Gus,' ■ Stripes,' ' Snatcher,' and i9o2] DESCRIPTION OF THE DOG TEAM 13 'Vic' were nice, pleasant-mannered dogs, and good average pullers. ' Brownie ' was a very handsome animal, but rather light in build. He was charming as a pet, but less gifted as a sledge-puller, and always appealed to one as being a little too refined and ladylike for the hardest work ; nor did he ever lose a chance of utilising his pleasing appearance and persuasive ways to lighten his afflictions. 'Wolf was the most hopelessly ill-tempered animal; his character seemed to possess no redeeming virtue. Every advance was met with the same sullen, irreconcilable humour, and the whip alone was capable of reducing him to subjection. On the principle that you can lead a horse to the water but you cannot make him drink, ' Wolf ' had evidently decided that we might lead him to the traces but nothing could make him pull ; and, as a consequence, from start to finish no efforts of ours could make him do even a reasonable share of his work. We should have saved ourselves much trouble and annoyance had we left him behind in the first place. To the effort to swell the numbers of our team Bemacchi had sacrificed his own property, ' Joe,' and poor ' Joe ' had a history. He had been born in the Antarctic Regions at Cape Adare ; later in life he had learnt to behave himself with proper decorum in a London drawing-room ; and now he had returned, no doubt much against his will, to finish his career in the land of his birth. He was a very light dog, with a deceptively thick coat; much pulling could not be expected from his weight, and he certainly gave but little. Such was our team as regards the dog element ; but a word may be added about the three of the other sex, whom at first I was very reluctant to take. ' Nell ' was a pretty black animal with a snappish little temper but attractive ways ; ' Blanco,' so called because she ought to have been white, had few attrac- tions, and was of such little use that she was sent back with the supporting party ; and poor ' Grannie ' was old and toothless, but lived and died game on the traces. Whilst the loads for this dog team had been heavy from the start, it had not been proposed to bring them up to full 14 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. weights till after our departure from Depot ? A,' and from that spot we proposed to assist by pulling ourselves ; it may be of some interest, therefore, to note the weights which we actually dragged. The table given on page 15 was one of a number of sheets which I prepared in order that we might know at each place exactly how we stood, and it seemed to simplify matters to draw rough diagrams of the sledges on the margin. The total of 1,850 lbs. was of course a heavy load for our team of nineteen, especially as the team possessed a few animals which were ot little account ; but it must be remembered that we expected to pull ourselves, and that each night, after the first start, would see a reduction of between thirty and forty pounds by the time all creature comforts had been attended to. The load here shown allows for nine weeks only for our own food, and it was in order that we might increase this allowance to thirteen that the supporting party was arranged to accompany us for some part of our journey. On the afternoon of the nth the supporting party hove in sight, and we were soon busily engaged in arranging matters for an early start on the morrow. The 1 2th proved a misty, raw, cold day — not a happy omen for our start — but we got away betimes, and with a cheer set off for the first time on a due south course. The dogs were in such high feather that they quickly caught up the men, and little by little we had to increase their load until they were drawing no less than 2,100 lbs. When we camped for the night we had made n^ miles, and, in the slightly misty weather, already appeared to be lost on the great open plain. I note in my diary : f The feeling at first is somewhat weird ; there is absolutely nothing to break the grey monotone about us, and yet we know that the mist is not thick, but that our isolation comes from the immense expanse of the plain. The excellent pulling of the dogs is likely to modify our plans, and I think of sending half the supports back to-morrow.' ' November 13. — Sights to-day showed us to be nearly up to the 79th parallel, and therefore farther south than anyone has 1902] i jr Weights on Leaving ' A ' Dog-food Tank Sledge . Bamboo . Tomahawk lbs. 400 8 35 4 3 450 4? s — Dog-food .... 400 Tank 8 Sledge 35 Bamboo 3 446 ;'0; Ready provision bag Kit bag .... Spare foot-gear bag . Five biscuit cases Tent .... Ice-axe, shovel, and dog picket Three blouses . Sledge .... Bamboo and straps . 16 20 10 217 29 10 15 35 5 357 Three sleeping-bags . Tank . Contents 9 provision bags Seal-meat Alpine rope All ski on top . Sledge . Bamboo and straps . 45 6 227 70 5 30 35 4 422 Dl Repair bag Instrument box Cooker, Primus, &c. Oil Sledge . Securings The dotted lines show plans of sledges and straps. 12 40 34 60 28 3 177 1,852 16 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. yet been. The announcement of the fact caused great jubilation, and I am extremely glad that there are no fewer than fifteen of us to enjoy this privilege of having broken the record. Shackleton suggested that all should be photo- graphed, whereat the men were much delighted, and we all gathered about the sledges with our flags fluttering over us. Then half our supporting party started to return, bearing the good news of our present success, and the other half stepped out once more on a due south line, with the dogs following. 1 This morning it was very bright and sunny except to the far north, where probably those on board the ship are not en- joying such delightful weather ; behind us only the Bluff showed against a dark background, and that was already grow- ing small in the distance. Away to the west the view was per- fectly clear, and we now know that there is land beyond our western horizon ; it is very distant, and appears in detached masses, but it is evident that the general trend of it is in a more southerly direction than we had supposed. At this great dis- tance it looks to be completely snow-covered; we can only catch the high lights and shadows due to irregularity of shape, and can only say definitely that there must be many lofty mountains. I took a round of bearings with the prismatic compass, and then asked Barne to do the same ; he got different readings, and on trying again myself I got a third result. The observations only differed by a few degrees, but it shows that these compasses are not to be relied upon where the directive force is so small.' The needle of the prismatic compass carries a weighty graduated circle with it ; it therefore bears heavily on the pivot, and the friction produced is sufficient to prevent accuracy of reading where the earth has such small influence on the needle. After this I depended for all bearings on the compass attached to our small theodolite, which possessed a simple light needle and seemed to give greater accuracy. I record this fact, be- cause it was important that we should obtain accurate observa- tions on our extended sledge journeys, and it would be well 1 1902] FAILURE OF THE DOGS 17 that this point should be more carefully considered in future expeditions. On the 13th and 14th we pushed on to the south in spite of thick snowy weather which followed the fine morning of the 13th, and during those two days we managed to add fifteen miles to our southing. On the afternoon of the 14th I record: ' The men go ahead, and when they have got a good start we cheer on our animals, who work hard until they have caught up with them ; in this manner we get over the ground fairly well. The day has been murky and dull with a bad light, and we have come upon a new form of sastrugus : instead of the clean-cut waves about the Bluff, we have heaped-up mounds of snow with steepish edges. Heavily laden as they are, it is difficult work for the dogs when they come across the sudden rises. Now and then the clouds have lifted, showing the horizon line and glimpses of the land to the north, but for the main part the sky and snow-surface have been merged in a terrible sameness of grey, and it has been impossible to see the spot on which one's foot was next to be placed ; falls have been plentiful. The surface itself is getting softer, but the sledges run fairly easily. The dogs were pretty "done" when we camped to-night, but we are feeding them up, and I do not propose to overwork them whilst the load remains as heavy as at present. That we are travelling over a practically level sur- face was evident from our view of the supporting party today; though we were often some distance apart they were always clearly in view, which would not have been the case had there been undulations.' '■November 15.— A beautifully bright, calm morning; the sun shone warmly on our tents, making them most cheerful and comfortable within. To the north the land has become dim, to the west we have the same prospect of distant detached snow-covered ranges, and in all other directions the apparently limitless snow-plain. ' We were very busy this morning making arrangements for our last parting : the loads had to be readjusted, the dog- harness attended to, observations taken, and notes of farewell vol. 11. c 18 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. written. All this was not finished till after noon, when many willing hands helped us to pack up our tent and make all ready for our final start. If former moments of parting have seemed unpropitious, the same cannot be said of to-day ; the sun shone brightly on our last farewells, and whilst behind us we left all in good health and spirits, it is scarcely to be won- dered at that our hopes ran high for the future. We are already beyond the utmost limit to which man has attained : each footstep will be a fresh conquest of the great unknown. Confident in ourselves, confident in our equipment, and con- fident in our dog team, we can but feel elated with the prospect that is before us. \ The day's work has cast a shadow on our highest aspira- tions, however, and already it is evident that if we are to achieve much it will be only by extreme toil, for the dogs have not pulled well to-day; possibly it may be something to do with the surface, which seems to get softer, possibly something to do with the absence of the men in front to cheer them on, and possibly something to do with the temperature, which rose at one time to + 200 and made the heavy pulling very warm work. Whatever the reason may be, by five o'clock we had only covered about three miles, and this is by no means up to expectation. We have decided that if things have not improved in the morning we will take on half the load at a time ; after a few days of this sort of thing the loads will be sufficiently lightened for us to continue in the old way again.' The above extract shows that our troubles were already beginning, but as yet we had no suspicion that they were likely to be as grievous as they soon became. On the following day we attempted once more to start our heavy loads, but after a few yards of struggling the dogs seemed to lose all heart, and many looked round with the most pathetic expression as much as to say we were really expecting too much of them ; there was but one thing to be done — namely, to divide the load into two portions and take on half at a time. This meant, of course, that each mile had to be traversed three times, but as there was no alternative we were forced to start on this tedious form i902] RELAY WORK 19 of advance. With this, even, we should have been content had the dogs shown their former vigour ; but now, for some reason which we could not fathom, they seemed to be losing all their spirit, and they made as much fuss over drawing the half-load as a few days before they had done over the whole one. On November 18 I write: 'A dull day again, but we plodded on in the same monotonous style. Starting at 11 a.m., we pushed on for two and a half miles by our sledge-meter, with half the load, then returned for the second half; the whole operation took about four hours and a half, after which we had lunch and then repeated the same performance. It was n p.m. before we were in our sleeping-bags, and at the end of the march the dogs were practically " done." What can be the cause it is almost impossible to guess. It cannot be wholly the surface, though this is certainly much worse ; not only is it softer, but all day long snow-crystals are falling, and these loose, light crystals enormously increase the friction on the runners ; nor can it be altogether the temperature, for even when it falls very chill there is no sign of improvement in the pace. I fear there must be another reason which is at present beyond us. We gained five miles to-day, but to do it we had to cover fifteen.' These miles to which I refer are geographical, and not statute miles : in all our journeys we calculated in the former unit, for ease of reference to the degrees and minutes of latitude, but it must be explained that there is a considerable difference in these measurements : seven geographical miles are equal to a little more than eight statute. In many cases I have reduced the mileage in this book to the better-known statute mile for the convenience of the reader, but in some of my quotations I leave the original figure unaltered; I think with this explanation it will be clear when either is used. A word may be added concerning the sledge-meter. Our engine-room staff cleverly manufactured these instruments by applying the counter apparatus of some recording blocks to wheels of a certain definite diameter, and thus as one of these C2 20 THE VOYAGE OF THE < DISCOVERY' [Nov. wheels trundled behind the sledge it revolved the mechanism of the counter so as to show the number of yards travelled. As I think I have said, at first we all thought we were walking very long distances through the snow, and when we adopted the sledge-meter and it showed us the chilling truth, many were inclined to be sceptical of its accuracy until it was found that when there was a difference of opinion between the party and the sledge-meter, astronomical observations invariably decided in favour of the latter, so that we were obliged to acknowledge that it was we, and not the sledge-meter, who were going too slowly. After our experience one cannot help thinking that not a few sledging records would have been modified had this truth- telling instrument always been available ; it is to be recom- mended to future expeditions, not only for this reason, but on account of the excellent check it affords to the position of a sledge party for geographical purposes. 1 November 19. — The sun was shining when we started to-day, and the fine snow was falling continuously ; it is a drizzle of tiny crystals, which settle on the sledges and quickly evaporate. The effect on the surface is very bad, and the dogs are growing more and more listless. We could only advance four and three-quarter miles, and that only by hard driving and going longer than we have yet gone. Two of us always pull on the traces whilst the third drives; the latter task is by far the most dreaded. In going to the rear for the second half-load, we always carry an empty sledge, and up to the present, to prevent confusion of the traces, someone has sat on the sledge, but to-day even this appeared to be a per- ceptible drag on our poor animals. ' It is very tiring work. When one goes out in the morn- ing there is now no joyous clamour of welcome ; one or two of the animals have to be roused up out of their nests, then we start in a spiritless fashion. We take our duties in turns ; one of us attaches his harness to the head of the trace, and whilst he pulls he endeavours [to cheer on the flagging team. A second takes the best position, which is to pull alongside the i9o2j DOG-FOOD 21 sledges, in silence ; the third does not pull, but carries the whip and has to use it all too frequently. Thus our weary caravan winds its slow way along until the sledge- meter has reeled off the required distance. When we halt, the dogs drop at once, but when the lightened sledge is attached and we start to wheel them round, they wake up and for the first time display a little energy in trying to fight as they circle about ; but this show of spirit soon fails, though we naturally get back at a brisker pace. Then the second half- load is joined up, and the whole thing has to be done over again. When the dogs sight the advanced load, however, there is a distinct improve- ment ; they know that to get there means rest, and, encouraging this spirit as much as we can, the last half-mile is done almost at a trot. The afternoon march is of the same nature as that of the forenoon, but is made worse by the increased fatigue of our wretched animals. It is all very heart-breaking work. ' This morning we sighted further land to the south-west, and like the rest it appears as a detached fragment. We now see three distinct gaps between the several land masses, and the distance is too great for us to make out any detail of the latter ; to the south and round through east to the north we have still the unbroken snow horizon. ' To-night we have been discussing our position again ; it is evidently going from bad to worse. We have scarcely liked to acknowledge to ourselves that the fish diet is having a permanently bad effect on the dogs, but it looks very much like it ; we saw that it disagreed with them at first, but we have tried to persuade ourselves that the effect is only temporary. It will be a terrible calamity if this is the cause of all our distress, for there is no possible change of diet except to feed the poor things on each other, and yet it is difficult to account in any other way for the fact that whilst they are receiving an ample amount of food they should daily be growing weaker. One of the most trying circumstances in our position is that we are forced to spend hours in our tent which might be devoted to marching ; it is the dogs, and not we, who call the halt each night.' 22 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. Though it was only gradually that we could convince our- selves that the dog-food was at the bottom of our trouble, subsequent events proved it beyond a doubt, and therefore it may be of interest to give some account of that food. Originally, I had intended to take ordinary dog-biscuits for our animals, but in an evil moment I was persuaded by one who had had great experience in dog-driving to take fish. Fish has been used continually in the north for feeding dogs, and the particular article which we ordered was the Norwegian stock- fish such as is split, dried, and exported from that country in great quantities for human food. There is no doubt about the excellent food-value of this fish, and in every way it seemed well adapted to our purpose ; and yet it was this very fish that poisoned our poor animals. It is easy to be wise after the event, and on looking back now one sees the great probability of its suffering deterioration on passage through the Tropics, and, doubtless, had it been designed for human food we should have considered that point ; but, unfortunately for our dogs, this probability escaped our notice, and as there was no outward sign of deterioration it was carried on our sledge journey. As a result the dogs sickened, and in some cases died, from what one can only suppose was a species of scurvy. The lesson to future travellers in the South is obvious, in that they should safe- guard their dogs as surely as they do their men. The dog is such a terrible scavenger that one is apt to overlook this necessity. ''November 21. — This morning the sun was shining in a cloudless sky, and to our surprise we found land extending all along our right ; probably it appears deceptively close owing to the mirage. At any rate, things are growing so bad that we have decided to edge towards it, and have altered our course to S.S.W. All things considered, this seems the best course, as our prospect of reaching a high latitude is steadily melting away. Our method of advance gives us at least the advantage of gauging the level nature of the surface over which we are travelling. To judge by one's feelings on the march, one might i902] PERSONAL DISCOMFORTS 23 be climbing the steepest of hills all day, but the fact that we can always see our advanced or rear sledges from the other end shows that there must be an absence of inequality ; even the man who sits on the returning sledge with his eye not more than three feet above the surface rarely loses sight of these tiny black dots. It is surprising that although a sledge appears as a very minute object at two and a half miles, it can generally be seen clearly against the white background. On dull days, however, I am not sure but that it is a risk to advance them so far.' 1 November 22. — The surface is becoming smoother, with less sastrugi, but the snow covering is, if anything, thicker ; one sinks deeper, and there is no reduction of friction on the sledge runners. After lunch we made a trial to start with full loads ; the dogs made a gallant effort, but could scarcely move the sledges, and we had to proceed as before. With this land ahead we ought to get some variation of the monotony of our present travelling, but there is a fear that the snow may get still softer as we approach it. 1 We are growing very sunburnt, and noses and lips are getting blistered and cracked and extremely sore ; lips are especially painful, as one cannot help licking them on the march, and this makes them worse. With the constant varia- tions of temperature and the necessary application of the hot rim of the pannikin they get no chance to heal ; hazeline cream is in much request at night to deaden the burning. We have also had some trouble with our eyes, though we wear goggles very regularly. Our appetites seem to be increasing by leaps and bounds : it is almost alarming, and the only thing to be looked to on our long marches is the prospect of the next meal.' 1 November 23. — . . . There was a distinct improvement in the surface to-day, with a N.N.E. wind rolling the snow along like fine sand ; in this way the old hard surface crust became exposed in patches, and the sledges drew easily over these. Altogether we have advanced 5! miles, travelling over 15^ miles to do it. We raised the land considerably, and were 24 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. able to see something more of the bold black headland for which we are making.' 1 November 24. — . . . To-day we started a new routine, which eases us and gives a chance for odd jobs to be done. After pushing on the first half-load one of us stops with it, gets up the tent, and prepares for lunch or supper, as the case may be, whilst the other two bring up the second half-load. x The land which appeared to be rising so quickly yesterday was evidently thrown up by mirage ; I fear it is farther off than we thought.' 1 November 25. — Before starting to-day I took a meridian altitude, and to my delight found the latitude to be 8o° i'. All our charts of the Antarctic Regions show a plain white circle beyond the eightieth parallel ; the most imaginative carto- grapher has not dared to cross this limit, and even the meridional lines end at the circle. It has always been our ambition to get inside that white space, and now we are there the space can no longer be a blank ; this compensates for a lot of trouble.' 1 November 26. — Last night we had almost decided to give our poor team a day's rest, and to-day there is a blizzard which has made it necessary. We had warning in the heavy stratus clouds that came over fast from the south yesterday, and still more in Wilson's rheumatism ; this comes on with the greatest regularity before every snowstorm, and he suffers considerably. Up to the present it has been in his knee, but last night it appeared in his foot, and though he ought to have known its significance, he attributed it to the heavy walking. To-day it has passed away with the breaking of the storm, and there can be no longer a doubt that it is due to change of weather, and that he, poor chap, serves as a very effective though unwilling barometer/ ' November 27. — To-day it is beautifully bright, clear, and warm, the temperature up to + 200 ; but, alas ! this morning we found that the dogs seemed to have derived no benefit from their rest. They were all snugly curled up beneath the snow when we went out, but in spite of their long rest we had 1902] SLOW PROGRESS 25 to drag them out of their nests ; some were so cramped that it was several minutes before they could stand. However, we shook some life into them and started with the full load, but very soon we had to change back into our old routine, and, if anything, the march was more trying than ever. It becomes a necessity now to reach the land soon in hopes of making a depot, so our course has been laid to the westward of S.W., and this brings the bold bluff cape on our port bow. I imagine it to be about fifty miles off, but hope it is not so much ; nine hours' work to-day has only given us a bare four miles. 1 It was my turn to drive to-day ; Shackleton led and Wilson pulled at the side. The whole proceedings would have been laughable enough but for the grim sickness that holds so tight a grip on our poor team : Shackleton in front, with harness slung over his shoulder, was bent forward with his whole weight on the trace; in spite of his breathless work, now and again he would raise and half-turn his head in an effort to cheer on the team. " Hi, dogs," " Now then," " Hi lo-lo-lo ..." or any other string of syllables which were supposed to produce an encouraging effect, but which were soon brought to a conclusion by sheer want of breath. Behind him, and obviously deaf to these allurements, shambled the long string of depressed animals, those in rear doing their best to tread in the deep footprints of the leaders, but all by their low-carried heads and trailing tails showing an utter weariness of life. Behind these, again, came myself with the whip, giving forth one long string of threats and occasionally bringing the lash down with a crack on the snow or across the back of some laggard. By this time all the lazy dogs know their names, as well they ought; I should not like to count the number of times I have said, " Ah, you, ' Wolf,' " or " Get on there, ' Jim,' " or " ' Bismarck,' you brute " ; but it is enough to have made me quite hoarse to-night, for each remark has to be produced in a violent manner or else it produces no effect, and things have now got so bad that if the driver ceases his flow of objurgation for a moment there is a slackening of the traces. Some names lend themselves to this style of language 26 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. better than others ; " Boss " can be hissed out with very telling effect, whereas it is hard to make " Brownie " very emphatic. On the opposite side of the leading sledge was Wilson, pulling away in grim silence. We dare not talk on such occasions — the dogs detect the change of tone at once ; they seize upon the least excuse to stop pulling. There are six or eight animals who give little trouble, and these have been placed in the front, so that the others may be more immediately under the lash ; but the loafers are growing rather than diminishing in numbers. This, then, is the manner in which we have proceeded for nine hours to-day — entreaties in front and threats behind — and so we went on yesterday, and so we shall go on to-morrow. It is sickening work, but it is the only way ; we cannot stop, we cannot go back, we must go on, and there is no alternative but to harden our hearts and drive. Luckily, the turn for doing the actual driving only comes once in three days, but even thus it is almost as bad to witness the driving as to have to do it. 'To-night we discussed the possibility of getting some benefit by marching at night ; it was very warm to-day in the sun, and the air temperature was up to + 250.' On the days which followed we gradually made our starting- hour later until we dropped into a regular night-marching routine; we then used to breakfast between 4 and 5 p.m., start marching at 6 p.m., and come to camp somewhere about three or four in the morning. Thus while the sun was at its greatest altitude we were taking our rest, and during the chiller night hours we marched. There were some advantages in this arrangement which scarcely need notice, but it was curious that with it we never quite got rid of the idea that there was something amiss, and it will be seen that it was likely to lead to confusion as to the date of any particular occurrence. Other drawbacks were that we were often obliged to march with the sun in our faces at midnight, and that sometimes the tent was unpleasantly warm during the hours of sleep. ' November 29.— Shortly after four o'clock to-day we observed the most striking atmospheric phenomenon we have i9o2] AN ATMOSPHERIC PHENOMENON 27 yet seen in these regions. We were enveloped in a light, thin stratus cloud of small ice-crystals ; it could not have extended to any height, as the sun was only lightly veiled. From these drifting crystals above, the sun's rays were reflected in such an extraordinary manner that the whole arch of the heavens was traced with circles and lines of brilliant prismatic or white light. The coloured circles of a bright double halo were touched or intersected by one which ran about us parallel to the horizon; above this, again, a gorgeous prismatic ring encircled the zenith ; away from the sun was a white fog-bow, with two bright mock suns where it intersected the horizon circle. The whole effect was almost bewildering, and its beauty is far beyond the descriptive powers of my sledging pencil. We have often seen double halos, fog-bows, mock suns, and even indications of other circles, but we have never been privileged to witness a display that approaches in splen- dour that of to-day. We stopped, whilst Wilson took notes of the artistic composition, and I altitudes and bearings of the various light effects. If it is robbed of some of the beauties of a milder climate, our region has certainly pictures of its own to display.' On our return to the ship I could find no account, in such reference books as we had, of anything to equal this scene, nor have I since heard of its having been witnessed elsewhere. \ November 29 {continued). — Both in the first and second advance to-day we noticed that the points of starting and finishing were in view of one another, but that in travelling between them either end was temporarily lost to sight for a short time. This undoubtedly indicates undulation in the surface, but I should think of slight amount, probably not more than seven or eight feet, the length of the waves being doubtful, as we cannot be certain of the angle at which we are crossing them ; they cannot exceed two miles from crest to crest, and are probably about one. 1 We had rather a scare to-night on its suddenly coming over very thick just as Wilson and I were coupling up the second load to bring it on ; all our food and personal equip- 28 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Nov. ment had been left with Shackleton in the advanced position, and, of course, we could see nothing of it through the haze. We followed the old tracks for some way, until the light got so bad that we repeatedly lost sight of them, when we were obliged to halt and grope round for them. So far we were only in danger of annoying delays, but a little later a brisk breeze sprang up, and to our consternation rapidly drifted up the old tracks ; there was nothing for it but to strike out a fresh course of our own in the direction in which we supposed the camp to lie, which we did, and, getting on as fast as possible, had the satisfaction of sighting the camp in about half an hour. " All's well that ends well," and luckily the fog was not very thick ; but the incident has set us thinking that if very thick weather were to come on, the party away from the camp might be very unpleasantly situated, so in future we shall plant one or two flags as we advance with the first load, and pick them up as we come on with the second.' ' December 2. — We noticed again to-day the cracking of the snow-crust ; sometimes the whole team with the sledges get on an area when it cracks around us as sharply and as loudly as a pistol shot, and this is followed by a long-drawn sigh as the area sinks. When this first happened the dogs were terrified, and sprang forward with tails between their legs and heads screwed round as though the threatened danger was behind ; and, indeed, it gave me rather a shock the first time — it was so unexpected, and the sharp report was followed by a distinct subsidence. Though probably one dropped only an inch or two, there was an instantaneous feeling of insecurity which is not pleasant. Digging down to-night Shackleton found a comparatively hard crust two or three inches under the soft snow surface ; beneath this was an air space of about an inch, then came about a foot of loose snow in large crystals, and then a second crust. There is a good deal that is puzzling about these crusts.' During the following year on our sledge journeys we frequently dug into the snow surface to see what lay below, and though we always found a succession of crusts with soft i9o2j NEW LAND IN SIGHT 29 snow between, the arrangement was very irregular and gave us no very definite information. 1 December 3. — ... Our pemmican bag for this week by an oversight has been slung alongside a tin of paraffin, and is consequently strongly impregnated with the oil ; one can both smell and taste the latter strongly ; it is some proof of the state of our appetites that we really don't much mind ! * We are now sufficiently close to the land to make out some of its details. On our right is a magnificent range of mountains, which we are gradually opening out, and which must therefore run more or less in an east-and-west direction. My rough calculations show them to be at least fifty miles from us, and, if so, their angle of altitude gives a height of over 10,000 feet. The eastern end of this range descends to a high snow-covered plateau, through which arise a number of isolated minor peaks, which I think must be volcanic ; beyond these, again, is a long, rounded, sloping snow-cape, merging into the barrier. These rounded snow-capes are a great feature of the coast ; they can be seen dimly in many places, both north and south of us. They are peculiar as presenting from all points of view a perfectly straight line inclined at a slight angle to the horizon. North of this range the land still seems to run on, but it has that detached appearance, due to great distance, which we noted before, and we can make little of it. The south side of the range seems to descend com- paratively abruptly, and in many cases it is bordered by splendid high cliffs, very dark in colour, though we cannot make out the exact shade. Each cliff has a band of white along its top where the ice-cap ends abruptly ; at this distance it has a rather whimsical resemblance to the sugaring of a Christmas cake. The cliffs and foothills of the high range form the northern limit of what appears to be an enormous strait ; we do not look up this strait, and therefore cannot say what is beyond, but the snow-cape on this side is evidently a great many miles from the high range, and there appears to be nothing between. This near snow-cape seems to be more or less isolated. It is an immense and almost dome-shaped, 3o THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. snow-covered mass ; only quite lately could we see any rock at all, but now a few patches are to be made out towards the summit, and one or two at intervals along the foot. It is for one of these that we have now decided to make, so that we may establish our depot there, but at present rate of going we shall be a long time before we reach it. 'South of this isolated snow-cape, which is by far the nearest point of land to us, we can see a further high moun- tainous country ; but this also is so distant that we can say little of it. One thing seems evident — that the high bluff cape we were making for is not a cape at all, but a curiously bold spur of the lofty mountain ranges, which is high above the level of the coastline, and must be many miles inland. It is difficult to say whether this land is more heavily glaciated than that which we have seen to the north ; on the whole, I think the steeper surfaces seem equally bare. There is a con- solation for the heavier surface and harder labour we are experiencing in the fact that each day the scene gets more interesting and more beautiful. 'To-day, in lighting the Primus, I very stupidly burnt a hole in the tent ; I did not heat the top sufficiently before I began to pump, and a long yellow flame shot up and set light to the canvas. I do not think I should have noticed what had happened at first, but luckily the others were just approaching and rushed forward to prevent further damage. As it was, there was a large hole which poor Shackleton had to make shift to repair during our last lap ; it is not much fun working with a needle in the open at the midnight hours, even though the season happens to be summer.' ' December 4. — After a sunshiny day and with the cooler night hours there comes now a regular fall of snow-crystals. On a calm night there is nothing to indicate the falling crystals save a faint haze around the horizon ; overhead it is quite clear. Suddenly, and apparently from nowhere, a small shimmering body floats gently down in front of one and rests as lightly as thistle-down on the white surface below. If one stoops to examine it, as we have done many times, one finds 1902] BEAUTIFUL SNOW-CRYSTALS 31 that it is a six-pointed feathery star, quite flat and smooth on either side. We find them sometimes as large as a shilling, and at a short distance they might be small hexagonal pieces of glass ; it is only on looking closely that one discovers the intricate and delicate beauty of their design. ' The effect of these en masse is equally wonderful ; they rest in all positions, and therefore receive the sun's rays at all angles, and in breaking them up reflect in turn each colour of the spectrum. As one plods along towards the midnight sun, one's eyes naturally fall on the plain ahead, and one realises that the simile of a gem-strewn carpet could never be more aptly employed than in describing the radiant path of the sun on the snowy surface. It sparkles with a myriad points of brilliant light, comprehensive of every colour the rainbow can show, and is so realistic and near that it often seems one has but to stoop to pick up some glistening jewel. ' We find a difficulty now in gaining even four miles a day; the struggle gets harder and harder. We should not make any progress if we did not pull hard ourselves ; several of the dogs do practically nothing, and none work without an effort. Slowly but surely, however, we are " rising " the land. Our sastrugi to-day, from the recent confused state, have developed into a W.N.W. direction; it looks as though there was a local wind out of the strait.' ' December 5. — At breakfast we decided that our oil is going too fast ; there has been some wastage from the capsizing of the sledge, and at first we were far too careless of the amount we used. When we came to look up dates, there was no doubt that in this respect we have outrun the constable. We started with the idea that a gallon was to last twelve days ; ours have averaged little over ten. As a result we calculate that those which remain must be made to last fourteen. This is a distinct blow, as we shall have to sacrifice our hot luncheon meal and to economise greatly at both the others. We started the new routine to-night, and for lunch ate some frozen seal-meat and our allowance of sugar and biscuit. The new conditions do not smile on us at present, but I suppose we shall get used to them. 32 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. ' The events of the day's march are now becoming so dreary and dispiriting that one longs to forget them when we camp j it is an effort even to record them in a diary. To-night has been worse than usual. Our utmost efforts could not produce more than three miles for the whole march, and it would be impossible to describe how tiring the effort was to gain even this small advance. We have an idea we are rising in level slightly, but it is impossible to say so with certainty. * Shackleton broke the glass of his watch yesterday after- noon ; the watch still goes, but one cannot further rely on it, and I am therefore left with the only accurate time-keeper. It is a nuisance to lose a possible check on future observations, but luckily my watch seems to be a very trustworthy instrument ; its rate on board the ship was excellent, and I have no reason to suppose that it has altered much since we left. My watch was presented to me by Messrs. Smith & Son, of the Strand, and I believe it to be an exceptionally good one, but the important observations which we take ought not to depend on a single watch, and future expeditions should be supplied with a larger number than we carry.' 1 December 6. — ... A dire calamity to-day. When I went outside before breakfast I noticed that " Spud " was absent from his place. I looked round and discovered him lying on the sledge with his head on the open mouth of the seal-meat bag ; one glance at his balloon-like appearance was sufficient to show what had happened. As one contemplated the impossi- bility of repairing the mischief and of making him restore his ill-gotten provender, it was impossible not to laugh ; but the matter is really serious enough : he has made away with quite a week's allowance of our precious seal-meat. How he could have swallowed it all is the wonder, yet, though somewhat sedate and somnolent, he appeared to suffer no particular discomfort from the enormously increased size of his waist. We found of course that he had gnawed through his trace, but the seal-meat bag will be very carefully closed in future. * Whilst we were making preparations for a start last night we were overtaken by a blizzard and had to camp again in a i902] DOGS WEAKENING 33 hurry. The barometer has been falling for two days, and Wilson has had twinges of rheumatism ; the former we took for a sign that we were rising in altitude, but we ought to have been warned by a further drop of two-tenths of an inch whilst we were in camp. The blizzard was ushered in with light flaky snow and an increasing wind, and a quarter of an hour later there was a heavy drift with strong wind. We have been completing our calculations of what is to be left at the depot and what carried on to the south.' ' December 8. — . . . Our poor team are going steadily downhill j six or seven scarcely pull at all, perhaps five or six do some steady work, and the remainder make spasmodic efforts. The lightening of the load is more than counter- balanced by the weakening of the animals, and I can see no time in which we can hope to get the sledges along without pulling ourselves. Of late we have altered our marching arrangements ; we now take the first half-load on for four miles, then return for the other half, eating our cold luncheon on the way back. To-day it took us three and a half hours to get the advance load on, and I who remained with it had to wait another five and a half before the others came back — nine hours' work to gain four miles. ' Before supper we all had a wash and brush-up. We each carry a tooth-brush and a pocket-comb, and there is one cake of soap and one pocket looking-glass amongst the party; we use our tooth-brushes fairly frequently, with snow, but the soap and comb are not often in request, and the looking-glass is principally used to dress our mangled lips. Snow and soap are rather a cold compound, but there is freshness in the glowing reaction, and we should probably use them oftener if the marches were not so tiring. To-night the tent smells of soap and hazeline cream.' ' December 10. — Yesterday we only covered two miles, and to get on the second load at all we had to resort to the igno- minious device of carrying food ahead of the dogs. ' " Snatcher " died yesterday ; others are getting feeble — it is terrible to see them. The coast cannot be more than ten or VOL, 11, d 34 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. twelve miles, but shall we ever reach it ? and in what state shall we be to go on? The dogs have had no hesitation in eating their comrade ; the majority clamoured for his flesh this evening, and neglected their fish in favour of it. There is the chance that this change of diet may save the better animals. ' This evening we were surprised by the visit of a skua gull ; even our poor dogs became excited. We are nearly 1 80 miles from any possible feeding-ground it may have, and it is impossible to say how it found us, but it is curious that it should have come so soon after poor "Snatcher" has been cut up.' 1 December 11. — Last night I had a terrible headache from the hot work in the sun and the closeness of the tent. I couldn't sleep for a long time, though we had the tent open and our bags wide; sleep eventually banished the headache, and I awoke quite fit. The weather has improved, for although still hot a southerly breeze has cooled the air. In covering three and a half miles we have altered several bearings of the land, so that it cannot now be far off. As we travel inward the snow-covered ridges of our cape are blocking out the higher range to the north. 'About 1 a.m. a bank of stratus cloud came rapidly up from the south; it looked white and fleecy towards the sun and a peculiar chocolate-brown as it passed to the northward and disappeared. It must have been travelling very fast and about two or three thousand feet above us ; in an hour we had a completely clear sky. 1 Hunger is beginning to nip us all, and we have many conversations as to the dainties we could devour if they were within reach.' 1 December 14. — We have arrived at a place where I think we can depot our dog-food, and none too soon ; I doubt if we could go on another day as we have been going. We have just completed the worst march we have had, and only managed to advance two miles by the most strenuous exer- tions. The snow grows softer as we approach the land ; the sledge-runners sink from three to four inches, and one's feet ! 1902] SLOW PROGRESS 35 well over the ankles at each step. After going a little over a mile things got so bad that we dropped one sledge and pushed on to bring some leading marks in line. Then Shackleton and I brought up the second half- load with the dogs some- how ; after which, leaving the dogs, we all three started back for the sledge that had been dropped. Its weight was only 250 lbs., yet such was the state of the surface that we could not drag it at the rate of a mile an hour. 'The air temperature has gone up to + 270, and it feels hot and stuffy; the snow surface is +220. It would be difficult to convey an idea of what marching is like under present con- ditions. The heel of the advanced foot is never planted beyond the toe of the other, and of this small gain with each pace, two or three inches are lost by back-slipping as the weight is brought forward. When we come to any particularly soft patch we do little more than mark time. 1 The bearings of our present position are good but distant. To the west we have a conspicuous rocky patch in line with one of three distant peaks, and to the north another small patch in line with a curious scar on the northern range. The back marks in each case are perhaps twenty or thirty miles from us, and, though they will be easy enough to see in clear weather, one cannot hope to recognise them when it is misty. It is for this reason that I propose to-morrow to take our own food, on which our safety depends, closer in to the land, so that there may be no chance of our missing it.' '■December 15 (3.15 a.m.). — As soon as we had lightened our load last night we started steering straight for the rocky patch to the westward. The sky was overcast and the light bad, and after proceeding about a quarter of a mile we found that we were crossing well-marked undulations. Still pushing on, we topped a steep ridge to be fronted by an enormous chasm filled with a chaotic confusion of ice-blocks. It was obvious that we could go no further with the sledges, so we halted and pitched camp, and after eating our meagre lunch set forth to explore. The light was very bad, but we roped ourselves together, and, taking our only ice-axe and the meat- 36 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. chopper, descended cautiously over a steep slope into the rougher ice below. Taking advantage of the snow between the ice-blocks we wended our way amongst them for some distance, now and again stepping on some treacherous spot and finding ourselves suddenly prone with our legs down a crevasse and very little breath left. ' At first we could get some idea of where these bad places lay, but later the light grew so bad that we came on them quite without warning, and our difficulties were much greater, whilst the huge ice-blocks about us swelled to mountainous size in the grey gloom, and it was obvious that we could make no useful observations in such weather. We stumbled our way back with difficulty, and, cutting steps up the slope, at length caught a welcome view of the camp. 'The dogs were more excited than they have been for many a day ; poor things, they must have been quite non- plussed when we suddenly vanished from sight. We can make little out of the chasm so far, except that it quite cuts us off from a nearer approach to the land with our sledges, so that we shall have to depot our own food with the rest of the dog food and trust to fortune to give us clear weather when we return.' ' December 16. — There was bright, clear sunshine when we awoke yesterday afternoon, and we not only had a good view of the chasm, but Shackleton was able to photograph it. It looks like a great rift in the barrier which has been partly filled up with irregular ice-blocks; from our level to the lowest point in the valley may be about a hundred feet, and the peaks of some of the larger blocks rise almost to our level. The rift is perhaps three-quarters of a mile broad opposite to us, but it seems to narrow towards the south, and there is rather~~a suggestion that it ends within a few miles. The general lie of the rift is N.N.W. and S.S.E. j on the other side the surface appears to be level again, and probably it continues so for five or six miles to the land ; however, it is certainly not worth our while to delay to ascertain this fact. In the sunlight the lights and shadows of the ice-blocks are in strong contrast, and i902] DEPOT 'B' 37 where the sun has shone on blue walls, caverns have been melted and icicles hang over glassy, frozen pools. We found some of the icicles still dripping. 'Intent on wasting no more of our precious time, we got back to our depot as quickly as possible, and set about re- arranging the loads, taking stock, and fixing up the depot. Whilst we were thus employed a very chill wind came up from the south, and we did not escape without some frost-bitten fingers ; however, after luncheon we got away and started head to wind and driving snow at n p.m. At midnight I got an altitude which gives the latitude as 80.30, and at 1.30 we camped, as we have decided now to start our marches earlier every day until we get back into day routine. ' As I write I scarcely know how to describe the blessed relief it is to be free from our relay work. For one-and-thirty awful days have we been at it, and whilst I doubt if our human endurance could have stood it much more, I am quite sure the dogs could not. It seems now like a nightmare, which grew more and more terrible towards its end. ' 1 do not like to think of the difference between the state of our party now and as it was before we commenced this dreadful task; it is almost equally painful to think of the gain, for during all this time we have advanced little more than half a degree of latitude, though I calculate we have covered 330 miles (380 statute miles). 1 But it is little use thinking of the past ; the great thing is to make the best of the future. We carry with us provisions for four weeks and an odd day or two, a little dog-food, our camp equipment, and, for clothing, exactly what we stand in. ' At the depot, which I have now called Depot " B," we have left three weeks' provision and a quantity of dog-food. This should tide us over the homeward march, so that the present stock can all be expended before we return to Depot "B "; and all will be well if we can get back within four weeks, and if we have a clear day to find the spot. 'Poor "Vic" was sacrificed to-night for the common good.' 38 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. ''December 17. — We roused out yesterday afternoon at 3 p.m. in very bright sunshine. To our astonishment, a couple of hundred yards behind us lay the end of the chasm which stood between us and the coast ; it gradually narrows to a crevasse, which in places is bridged over with snow, but in others displays a yawning gulf. We must have crossed it within a few feet of such a gulf; our sledge track could be seen quite clearly leading across the bridge. Not suspecting anything of this sort we were quite regardless of danger during our last march, and unconsciously passed within an ace of destruction. It certainly has been a very close shave, as we could scarcely have escaped at the best without broken limbs had we fallen into the hole, and one doesn't like to contemplate broken limbs out here. 'This new light on the chasm seems to show that it is caused by a stream of ice pressing out through the strait to the north against the main mass of the barrier ; this would naturally have such a rending effect on either side of the entrance. We have got the dogs on seven miles to-night ; they need a lot of driving, especially as the surface has become irregular, with wavy undulations. It is almost impossible to make out how these waves run. As the chill of the evening comes on now, a mist arises along the whole coastline and obscures the land; for this reason we are the more anxious to get back into day-marches, and we shall make a much earlier start to-morrow.' ' December 18. — Started at 5 p.m. and finished at midnight. The short hours are to get to earlier marches, but I begin to doubt whether we shall ever be able to work the dogs for much more than eight hours again ; the poor creatures are generally in a healthier state with the fresh food, but all are very weak and thin. With such a load as we now have there would have been no holding them when we left the ship ; as someone said to-day, " If only we could come across some good, fat seals, we could camp for a week and start fair again." It is curious to think that there is possibly not a living thing within two hundred miles of us. Bad as the dog-driving is, however, the i9o2] PUSHING SOUTHWARD 39 fact that each mile is an advance, and has not to be covered three times, is an inexpressible relief. • We are gradually passing from the hungry to the ravenous ; we cannot drag our thoughts from food, and we talk of little else. The worst times are the later hours of the march and the nights ; on the march one sometimes gets almost a sickly feeling from want of food, and the others declare they have an actual gnawing sensation. At night one wakes with the most distressing feeling of emptiness, and then to reflect that there are probably four or five hours more before breakfast is posi- tively dreadful. We have all proved the efficacy of hauling our belts quite tight before we go to sleep, and I have a theory that I am saved some of the worst pangs by my pipe. The others are non-smokers, and, although they do not own it, I often catch a wistful glance directed at my comforting friend ; but, alas ! two pipes a day do not go far, even on such a journey as ours.' 1 December 19. — We are now about ten miles from the land, but even at this distance the foothills cut off our view of the higher mountains behind, save to the north and south. Abreast of us the sky-line is not more than three or four thousand feet high, though we know there are loftier peaks behind. The lower country which we see strongly resembles the coastal land far to the north ; it is a fine scene of a lofty snow-cap, whose smooth rounded outline is broken by the sharper bared peaks, or by the steep disturbing fall of some valley. Here and there local glaciers descend to barrier level ; the coastline itself winds greatly, forming numerous headlands and bays ; we are skirting these and keeping our direct course, a little to the east of south. The coast is fringed with white snow-slopes, glaciers, and broken ice-cascades; but in many places black rocky headlands and precipitous uncovered cliffs serve more clearly to mark its windings. Perhaps one of the most impressive facts is that we see all this above a perfectly level horizon line. Everywhere apparently there is as sharp and definite a line between the land and the level surface of the barrier as exists on an ordinary coastline between land and 4o THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. water. When it becomes at all thick or gloomy the rocks stand out and the white, snowy surfaces recede, giving rise to curious optical illusions. The high, curiously shaped rocky patches seem to be suspended in mid-air j there was one a few days ago, long and flat in shape, which appeared to be so wholly unsupported that it was named " Mahomet's Coffin," but when the weather cleared we could see that the snow about it was really closer than the rock itself. 1 Wilson is the most indefatigable person. When it is fine and clear, at the end of our fatiguing days he will spend two or three hours seated in the door of the tent sketching each detail of the splendid mountainous coast-scene to the west. His sketches are most astonishingly accurate ; I have tested his proportions by actual angular measurement and found them correct. If the fine weather continues we shall at least have a unique record of this coastline. But these long hours in the glare are very bad for the eyes ; we have all suffered a good deal from snow-blindness of late, though we generally march with goggles, but Wilson gets the worst bouts, and I fear it is mainly due to his sketching. * " Wolf " was the victim to-night. I cannot say " poor % Wolf,' " for he has been a thorn in the flesh, and has scarcely pulled a pound the whole journey. We have fifteen dogs left, and have decided to devote our energies to the preservation of the nine best ; we have done nearly eight miles to-day, but at such an expenditure of energy that I am left in doubt as to whether we should not have done better without any dogs at all.' ' December 20. — . . . Poor " Grannie " has been ailing for some time. She dropped to-day. We put her on the sledge, hoping she might recover, and there she breathed her last ; she will last the others three days. It is little wonder that we grow more and more sick of our dog-driving. 1 The sky has been overcast with low stratus cloud, but it is wonderfully clear below ; we have had this sort of weather for some time. One looks aloft and to the east and finds the outlook dull and apparently foggy, when it is surprising to turn i902] HOPELESS CONDITION OF THE DOGS 41 to the west and get a comparatively clear view of all the low- lying rocks and snow- slopes which are now ten or a dozen miles from us. 1 My tobacco supply is at such " low water " that to-day I have been trying tea-leaves : they can be described as nothing less than horrid.' 1 December 21. — We are now crossing a deep bay, but the sky is still overcast and our view obscured ; the surface was particularly heavy to-day, and our poor dogs had an especially bad time. After a few miles we determined to stop and go on at night again, as the heat was very great ; the thermometer showed 2 70, but inside the instrument-box, which is covered with white canvas, it showed 520. There must be an astonish- ing amount of radiation, even with the sun obscured. Starting again at 8 p.m., we found that matters were not improved at all. Very few of the dogs pulled, whilst "Stripes" and " Brownie " were vomiting. Things began to look very hope- less, so we thought it would be wise to see what we could do alone without assistance from our team. We found that on ski we could just move our own sledges, but only just ; on foot, after going for ten minutes, we found we were doing something under a mile an hour, but only with much exertion. After this experiment we camped again, and have been dis- cussing matters. We calculate we were pulling about 170 lbs. per man ; either the surface is extraordinarily bad or we are growing weak. It is no use blinding ourselves to facts : we cannot put any further reliance on the dogs. Any day they might all give out and leave us entirely dependent on our- selves. In such a case, if things were to remain just as they are, we should have about as much as we could do to get home ; on the other hand, will things remain just as they are? It seems reasonable to hope for improvement, we have seen so many changes in the surface ; at any rate, we have discussed this matter out, and I am glad to say that all agree in taking the risk of pushing on. 1 Misfortunes never come singly ; since starting we have always had a regular examination of gums and legs on Sunday 42 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. morning, and at first it seemed to show us to be in a very satisfactory condition of health, but to-night Wilson told me that Shackleton has decidedly angry-looking gums, and that for some time they have been slowly but surely getting worse. He says there is nothing yet to be alarmed at, but he now thought it serious enough to tell me in view of our future plans. We have decided not to tell Shackleton for the present ; it is a matter which must be thought out. Certainly this is a black night, but things must look blacker yet before we decide to turn.' *■ December 22. — . . . This morning we had bright sun- shine and a clear view of the land ; the coastline has receded some way back in a deep bay, beyond which the land rises to the magnificent mountain ranges which evidently form the backbone of the whole continent. There are no longer high snow-covered foothills to intercept our view of the loftier back- ground ; it is as though at this portion of the coast they had been wiped out as a feature of the country, though farther to the south where the coastline again advances they seem to recur. 1 But just here we get an excellent view of the clean-cut mountain range. Abreast of us is the most splendid specimen of a pyramidal mountain ; it raises a sharp apex to a height of nine thousand feet or more, and its precisely carved facets seem to rest on a base of more irregular country, fully four thousand feet below. With its extraordinary uniformity and great altitude it is a wonderfully good landmark. Close to the south of this is an equally lofty table mountain, the top of which is perfectly flat though dipping slightly towards the north; this tabular structure is carried on, less perfectly, in other lofty mountain regions to the south ; we have not seen it so well marked on any part of the coast since the land we discovered south of Cape Washington, which seems to indicate some geological alliance with that part. We can now see also the high land that lies beyond the foothills we have lately been skirting ; it is more irregular in outline, with high snow-ridges between the sharper peaks. To the south one particular 1902] FURTHER LAND 43 conical mountain stands much closer to the coast than the main ranges. It looks to be of great height, but may not be so distant as we imagine ; it will form our principal landmark for the next week. It is noticeable that along all this stretch of coast we can see no deep valley that could contain a glacier from the interior ice-cap (if there is one). ' The beauty of the scene before us is much enhanced when the sun circles low to the south : we get then the most delicate blue shadows and purest tones of pink and violet on the hill- slopes. There is rarely any intensity of shade — the charm lies in the subtlety and delicacy of the colouring and in the clear softness of the distant outline. 1 We have decided to cease using our bacon and to increase the seal allowance, as the former seems the most likely cause of the scurvy symptoms. To Shackleton it was represented as a preventive measure, but I am not sure that he does not smell a rat. The exchange is not quite equal in weight ; we again lose a little. We cannot certainly afford to lose more, as we are already reduced to starvation rations. Our allowance on leaving the ship ran to about i 'q lb. per man per day, but various causes have reduced this. At first we went too heavy on our biscuit ; then we determined to lay by two extra weeks out of eleven ; then " Spud " had his share of the seal-meat bag ; altogether I calculate we are existing on about a pound and a half of food a day ; it is not enough, and hunger is gripping us very tightly. I never knew what it was like before, and I shall not be particularly keen on trying it again. ' Our meals come regularly enough, but they are the poorest stop-gaps, both from want of food and want of fuel. At breakfast now we first make tea — that is to say, we put the tea in long before the water boils, and lift and pour out with the first bubbling. The moment this is over we heap the pemmican and biscuit into the pot and make what we call a " fry " ; it takes much less time than a hoosh. The cook works by the watch, and in twenty minutes from the time it is lighted the Primus lamp is out ; in two or three more the breakfast is finished. Then we serve out luncheon, which consists of a 44 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. small piece of seal-meat, half a biscuit, and eight to ten lumps of sugar. Each of us keeps a small bag which, when it contains the precious luncheon, is stowed away in the warmth of a breast-pocket, where it thaws out during the first march. Absurd as it may sound, it is terribly difficult not to filch from this bag during the hours of the march. We have become absolutely childish in this. We know so perfectly the contents of the bags that one will find oneself arguing that to-day's piece of seal is half an inch longer than yesterday's ; ergo, if one nibbles half an inch off, one will still have the same lunch as yesterday. 1 Supper is of course the best meal ; we then have a hoosh which runs from between three-quarters to a whole pannikin apiece, but even at this we cannot afford to make it thick. Whilst it is being heated in the central cooker, cocoa is made in the outer. The lamp is turned out directly the hoosh boils, usually from twenty-eight to thirty minutes after it has been lighted ; by this time the chill is barely off the contents of the outer cooker, and of course the cocoa is not properly dissolved, but such as it is, it is the only drink we can afford. We have long ceased criticising the quality of our food ; all we clamour for now is something to fill up, but, needless to say, we never get it. Half an hour after supper one seems as hard set as ever. ' My companions get very bad " food dreams " ; in fact, these have become the regular breakfast conversation. It appears to be a sort of nightmare ; they are either sitting at a well-spread table with their arms tied, or they grasp at a dish and it slips out of their hand, or they are in the act of lifting a dainty morsel to their mouth when they fall over a precipice. Whatever the details may be, something interferes at the last moment and they wake. So far, I have not had these dreams myself, but I suppose they will come. 'When we started from the ship we had a sort of idea that we could go as we pleased with regard to food, hauling in automatically if things were going too fast ; but we soon found that this would not do at all — there must be some rigid system 1902] THE NOBLE GAME OF 'SHUT-EYE' 45 of shares. After this we used to take it in turns to divide things into three equal portions j it is not an easy thing to do by eye, and of course the man who made the division felt called upon to make certain that he had the smallest share. It was when we found that this led to all sorts of absurd remon- strances and arguments that Shackleton invented the noble game of " shut-eye," which has solved all our difficulties in this respect. The shares are divided as equally as possible by any- one ; then one of the other two turns his head away, the divider points at a " whack " and says, " Whose is this ? " He of the averted head names the owner, and so on. It is a very simple but very efficacious game, as it leaves the matter entirely to chance. We play it at every meal now as a matter of course, and from practice we do it very speedily; but one cannot help thinking how queer it would appear for a casual onlooker to see three civilised beings employed at it.' 1 December 23. — We have been getting on rather faster than we thought, though we had a suspicion that the sledge-meter was clogging in the very soft snow. Our latitude is now about 8 1 \° S. To-day I had to shift the balance-weight on the theodolite compass needle; the dip must be decreasing rapidly. Theodolite observations are now difficult, as the tripod legs cannot be solidly planted. I find it a good plan to leave it up for the night, as in the morning there is always a little cake of ice under each leg. The surface is so soft that one can push the shaft of the ice-axe down with a finger. ' The dogs of course feel it much, but the leaders have the worst time, for they have to make the foot-prints ; the others step carefully into them, and are saved the trouble of making their own. Several times lately, and especially to-day, the dogs have raised their heads together and sniffed at the breeze ; with a northerly wind one might suppose that their keen scent might detect something, but it is difficult to imagine what they can find in air coming from the south. Shackleton, who always declares that he believes there is either open water or an oasis ahead, says that the dogs merely confirm his opinion. 1 We felt the chill wind in our faces much, owing to their 46 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. very blistered state. We have especial trouble with our nostrils and lips, which are always bare of skin ; all our fingers, too, are in a very chapped, cracked condition. We have to be very economical with our eyes also, after frequent attacks of snow- blindness; all three of us to-day had one eye completely shaded, and could see only by peering with the other through a goggle. But all our ailments together are as nothing beside our hunger, which gets steadily worse day by day.' 'December 24. — Wilson examined us again this morning. I asked him quietly the result, and he said, " A little more." It is trying, but we both agree that it is not time yet to say "Turn." But we have one fact to comfort us to-night — we have passed on to a much harder surface, and though it still holds a layer of an inch or two of feathery snow, beneath that it is comparatively firm, and we are encamped on quite a hard spot; the sastrugt are all from the S.S.E. parallel to the land. If the dogs have not improved, they have not grown much worse during the past day or two ; their relative strength alters a good deal, as the following tale will show : " Stripes " and "Gus" pull next one another; a week ago one had great difficulty in preventing " Stripes " from leaping across and seizing " Gus's " food. He was very cunning about it ; he waited till one's back was turned, and then was over and back in a moment. Time has its revenges: now "Gus" is the stronger, and to-night he leapt across and seized " Stripes's " choicest morsel. At other times they are not bad friends these two ; loser and winner seem to regard this sort of thing as part of the game. After all, it is but "the good old rule, the simple plan," but of course we right matters when we detect such thefts. 1 To-night is Christmas Eve. We have been thinking and talking about the folk at home, and also much about our plans for to-morrow.' 1 December 25, Christmas Day. — . . . For a week we have looked forward to this day with childish delight, and, long before that, we decided that it would be a crime to go to bed hungry on Christmas night ; so the week went in planning a 1902] CHRISTMAS DAY 47 gorgeous feed. Each meal and each item of each meal we discussed and rediscussed. The breakfast was to be a glorious spread ; the Primus was to be kept going ten or even fifteen minutes longer than usual. Lunch for once was to be warm and comforting ; and supper ! — well, supper was to be what supper has been. 1 In fact, we meant this to be a wonderful day, and every- thing has conspired to make it so. 'When we awoke to wish each other "A merry Christmas " the sun was shining warmly through our green canvas roof. We were outside in a twinkling, to find the sky gloriously clear and bright, with not a single cloud in its vast arch. Away to the westward stretched the long line of gleaming coastline ; the sunlight danced and sparkled in the snow beneath our feet, and not a breath of wind disturbed the serenity of the scene. It was a glorious morning, but we did not stay to contemplate it, for we had even more interesting facts to occupy us, and were soon inside the tent sniffing at the savoury steam of the cooking-pot. Then breakfast was ready, and before each of us lay a whole pannikin-full of biscuit and seal-liver, fried in bacon and pemmican fat. It was gone in no time, but this and a large spoonful of jam to follow left a sense of comfort which we had not experienced for weeks, and we started to pack up in a frame of mind that was wholly joyful. ' After this we started on the march, and felt at once the improvement of surface that came to us last night ; so great was it that we found we three alone could draw the sledges, and for once the driver was silent and the whip but rarely applied. The dogs merely walked along with slack traces, and we did not attempt to get more out of them. No doubt an outsider would have thought our procession funereal enough, but to us the relief was inexpressible; and so we trudged on from 11.30 to 4 p.m., when we thoroughly enjoyed our lunch, which con- sisted of hot cocoa and plasmon with a whole biscuit and another spoonful of jam. We were off again at 5.30, and marched on till 8.30, when we camped in warmth and comfort 48 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. and with the additional satisfaction of having covered nearly eleven miles, the longest march we have made for a long time. 'Then we laid ourselves out for supper, reckless of con- sequences, having first had a Christmas wash and brush-up. Redolent of soap, we sat around the cooking-pot, whilst into its boiling contents was poured a double " whack " of every- thing. In the hoosh that followed one could stand one's spoon with ease, and still the Primus hissed on, as once again our cocoa was brought to the boiling-point. Meanwhile I had observed Shackleton ferreting about in his bundle, out of which he presently produced a spare sock, and stowed away in the toe of that sock was a small round object about the size of a cricket ball, which when brought to light, proved to be a noble "plum-pudding." Another dive into his lucky-bag and out came a crumpled piece of artificial holly. Heated in the cocoa, our plum-pudding was soon steaming hot, and stood on the cooker-lid crowned with its decoration. For once we divided food without " shut-eye." * I am writing over my second pipe. The sun is still slowly circling our small tent in a cloudless sky, the air is warm and quiet, all is pleasant without, and within we have a sense of comfort we have not known for many a day; we shall sleep well to-night — no dreams, no tightening of the belt. 1 We have been chattering away gaily, and not once has the conversation turned to food. We have been wondering what Christmas is like in England — possibly very damp, gloomy, and unpleasant, we think ; we have been wondering, too, how our friends picture us. They will guess that we are away on our sledge journey, and will perhaps think of us on plains of snow; but few, I think, will imagine the truth, that for us this has been the reddest of all red-letter days.' 1962] 49 CHAPTER XIV RETURN FROM THE FAR SOUTH Result of Shortage of Food — Nature of the Coastline — Snow-blindness — Approaching the Limit of our Journey — View to the South — New Mountains — Blizzard at our Extreme South — Turning Homeward — Attempt to Reach the Land— The Passing of our Dog Team — Help from our Sail — Difficult Surfaces — Running before a Storm — Finding Depot 'B' — Scurvy Again — Shackleton Becomes 111 — The Last of our Dog Team —Bad Light for Steering — Anxious Days — Depot * A ' — Over- eating— The Last Lap — Home Again— Our Welcome. How many weary steps Ot many weary miles you have o'ergone, Are numbered to the travel of one mile. Shakespeare. * An' we talks about our rations and a lot of other things.' Kipling. Our Christmas Day had proved a delightful break in the otherwise uninterrupted spell of semi-starvation. Some days elapsed before its pleasing effects wore off, and for long it remained green in our memories. We knew by this time that we had cut ourselves too short in the matter of food, but it was too late to alter our arrangements now without curtailing our journey, and we all decided that, sooner than do the latter, we would cheerfully face the pangs that our too meagre fare would cost. Looking back now on the incidents of this journey, the original mistake is evident, and even at the time, apart from the physical distress which it caused us, it is clear that we suspected, what was indeed the case, that we were slowly but VOL. II. E 50 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. surely sapping our energies and reducing ourselves to the condition of our more willing dogs, who, with every desire to throw their weight on the traces, were incapable of doing so. Of course we never sank into the deplorable state of these poor animals, but there is no doubt that from this time on we were gradually wearing out, and the increasing weariness of the homeward marches showed that we were expending our energies at a greater rate than we were able to renew them with our inadequate supply of food, and thus drawing on a capital stock which must obviously have restricted limits. Such a state of affairs is, as I have pointed out elsewhere, a false economy, and the additional weight which we should have carried in taking a proper allowance of food would have amply repaid us on this occasion by the maintenance of our full vigour. A shortage of food has another great disadvantage which we experienced to the full : our exceptionally hungry condition caused our thoughts and conversation to run in a groove from which it was almost impossible to lift them. We knew perfectly well how ridiculous this was, and appreciated that it was likely to increase rather than diminish the evil, but we seemed powerless to prevent it. After supper, and before its pleasing effects had passed, some detachment was possible, and for half an hour or more a desultory conversation would be maintained concerning far-removed subjects ; but it was ludicrous to observe the manner in which remarks gradually crept back to the old channel, and it was odds that before we slept each one of us gave, all over again, a detailed description of what he would now consider an ideal feast. On the march it was even worse ; one's thoughts were reduced to the most trivial details of the one unsatisfying subject. One would find oneself calculating how many foot- steps went to the minute, and how many, therefore, must be paced before lunch; then, with a sinking heart, one would begin to count them, suddenly lose count, and find oneself mentally scanning the contents of the pemmican bag and wondering exactly how much could be allowed for to-night's i902] RECORD-MAKING 51 hoosh. This would lead to the stock of pemmican on board the ship, and a recollection of the gorgeous yellow fat with which it was incorporated ; the ship would recall feasts of seal, thick soup, and thicker porridge, and on one would speed to the recollection of special nights when our fare had been still more bountiful, and on again to all the resources of civilised life ; the farewell dinner at So-and-so, what would it be like if it was spread out here on the barrier ? One remembers declining a particularly succulent dish ; what an extraordinary thing to do ! What a different being one must have been in those days ! And so one's thoughts travelled on from place to place, but always through the one medium of creature comfort. It is natural that a diary kept through these long weeks should have reflected the subject that most fully occupied our thoughts and our conversation, and, as the weakness of the dogs curtailed our marches and left ample time for writing, I find copious allusions to the somewhat distressing circum- stances which attended our experiences in this respect. But it must not be supposed that we were wholly absorbed by this subject ; if there were trials and tribulations in our daily life at this time, there were also compensating circum- stances whose import we fully realised. Day by day, as we journeyed on, we knew we were penetrating farther and farther into the unknown ; each footstep was a gain, and made the result of our labour more solid It would be difficult to describe with what eagerness we studied the slowly revolving sledge-meter, or looked for the calculated results of our obser- vations, while ever before our eyes was the line which we were now drawing on the white space of the Antarctic chart. Day by day, too, though somewhat slowly, there passed on that magnificent panorama of the western land. Rarely a march passed without the disclosure of some new feature, something on which the eye of man had never yet rested ; we should have been poor souls indeed had we not been elated at the privilege of being the first to gaze on these splendid scenes. On December 26 we had another brilliant, calm and 52 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. cloudless day, with a clear view to the west ; the coastal ice-cape again obscured our view of the higher ranges behind, but now it rose to a more considerable altitude, being at least three or four thousand feet above our level ; it undulated in long sweeping curves, with here and there a black jagged outcrop of rock, and elsewhere a steep crevassed fall. Our track had been taking us close to the coast, and as we had skirted along, past pointed snow-capes and rocky headlands, we had gradually blocked out the remarkable tabular and pyramidal mountains which had been abreast of us a week before; behind us also we had left the sharp conical peak which had been our principal landmark for many days. When, far to the north, we had first seen this mountain, we had exaggerated both height and distance, and when things had gone badly with us we had wondered if our fortunes would ever allow us to pass it. On Christmas Day, however, we were abreast of it, and though I calculated its height to be under seven thousand feet, this was no mean altitude for so remark- able a peak. Since in preserving its uniform, sharp, conical appearance, it was still the most salient feature in our view, we dubbed it ' Christmas Mountain ' in honour of the day. We passed within eighteen miles of it, according to my calculations, and by the 26th it was ' abaft the beam.' Whilst still retaining its pointed appearance, it seemed from this new aspect to have assumed a certain resemblance to the higher pyramidal hills of the north. Perhaps the most interesting part of our view just at this time was the coastline itself. We were from eight to ten miles from it, and at such a distance one could see very distinctly in that clear air ; it was comparatively steep all along — that is to say, the undulating ice-cap fell gradually to a height of one or two thousand feet and then abruptly to the barrier level. In a few places this fall was taken by steep but comparatively smooth snow-slopes, in others the snow seemed to pour over in beautiful cascades of immense ice-blocks, and in others, again, the coast was fringed by huge perpendicular cliffs of bare rock. On this day we were abreast of the highest cliffs we had seen, i902] NATURE OF THE COASTLINE 53 and my angles, roughly computed, gave a height of 1,800 feet between their base and the white snow-line on top, and they were so impressive even in the distance that I cannot believe them to have been much under. In many places the rock- face must have been sheer to this great height, for where it fell away a white splash showed where the snow had found lodg- ment. Even at a distance of ten miles these cliffs were magnificent, and how grand they would have appeared had we been able to get close beneath them we could well imagine. In colour they were a rich, deep red, though a little farther to the south this rock was confusingly bedded with a darker, almost black one ; this alternation of black and red occurred along the whole coast south of our position at this time, always in the same irregular fashion, but always with a definite line between the red and the black. At this time we were all under the impression that these rocks were of the same recent volcanic nature as those about the ship, but later on, after my visit to the western hills, I came to doubt this belief. It is possible that if at this time we had known more of the structure of the mainland to the north we should have been able to note points of similarity or difference which threw more light on this southern land, but it is doubtful whether in any case we could have discovered much that was definite at the distance from which we saw it. It can be imagined that as we travelled onward our eyes were most frequently lifted towards the south. It is always bewildering to look along a coastline at such an oblique angle. Shortly before this the south had meant a long succession of dark rock-masses and hazy snow-capes, but during the last few days we had ' risen ' a feature of noticeable distinction, and now we knew that we looked on a lofty mountain whose eastern slopes fell to the long snow-cape which for the present bounded our view. The very gradual unfolding of its details told us that this mass of land was both distant and lofty, and as we approached the limit of safe endeavour we knew that here was an object that we could not hope to reach ; though we might approach 54 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. it by many miles and be able to examine it with care, we should never . know definitely what lay beyond. We felt that it was the most southerly land to which we should be able to apply a name, and we thought that the fine peak which for the present must remain the southerly outpost of all known lands could bear no more fitting title than one derived from the con- tributor whose generous donation had alone made our expedition possible. On the night of the 26th, therefore, we christened this distant peak ' Mount Longstaff,' but it was only on our return to the ship that I was able to fix its position as well beyond the 83rd parallel. From a point of view of further exploration our position on the 26th did not promise great things. On our right lay the high undulating snow-cap and the steep irregular coast- line ; to the south lay a cape, beyond which we could not hope to pass ; and to all appearance these conditions must remain unaltered to the end of our journey. We argued, however, that one never knows what may turn up, and we determined, in spite of the unpromising outlook, to push on to our utmost limit. As events proved, we argued most wisely, for had we turned at this point we should have missed one of the most important features of the whole coastline ; it was only one more instance of the happening of the unexpected. In spite of the comforting nature of our Christmas festivi- ties, worry was never long absent from what was now becoming rather a forlorn party, as the following extract shows : ' December 26. — . . . Poor Wilson has had an attack of snow-blindness, in comparison with which our former attacks may be considered as nothing ; we were forced to camp early on account of it, and during the whole afternoon he has been writhing in horrible agony. It is distressing enough to see, knowing that one can do nothing to help. Cocaine has only a very temporary effect, and in the end seems to make matters worse. I have never seen an eye so terribly bloodshot and inflamed as that which is causing the trouble, and the inflam- mation has spread to the eyelid. He describes the worst part as an almost intolerable stabbing and burning of the eyeball ; i9o2] NEW MOUNTAINS 55 it is the nearest approach to illness we have had, and one can only hope that it is not going to remain serious. ' Shackleton did butcher to-night, and " Brownie " was victim. Poor little dog ! his life has been very careworn of late, and it is probably a happy release.' ''December 27. — Late last night Wilson got some sleep, and this morning he was better ; all day he has been pulling along- side the sledges with his eyes completely covered. It is tiresome enough to see our snowy world through the slit of a goggle, but to march blindfolded with an empty stomach for long hours touches a pitch of monotony which I shall be glad to avoid. We covered a good ten miles to-day by sledge- meter, though I think that instrument is clogging and showing short measure. The dogs have done little, but they have all walked, except "Stripes," who broke down and had to be carried on the sledge ; he was quite limp when I picked him up, and his thick coat poorly hides the fact that he is nothing but skin and bone. Yesterday I noticed that we were ap- proaching what appeared to be a deeper bay than usual, and this afternoon this opening developed in the most interesting manner. ' On the near side is a bold, rocky, snow-covered cape, and all day we have been drawing abreast of this ; as we rapidly altered its bearing this afternoon it seemed to roll back like some vast sliding gate, and gradually there stood revealed one of the most glorious mountain scenes we have yet witnessed. Walking opposite to Wilson I was trying to keep him posted with regard to the changes, and I think my reports of this part must have sounded curious. It was with some excitement I noticed that new mountain ridges were appearing as high as anything we had seen to the north, but, to my surprise, as we advanced the ridges grew still higher, as no doubt did my tones. Then, instead of a downward turn in the distant out- line came a steep upward line ; Pelion was heaped on Ossa, and it can be imagined that we pressed the pace to see what would happen next, till the end came in a gloriously sharp double peak crowned with a few flecks of cirrus cloud. 56 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. 1 We can no longer call this opening a bay ; it runs for many miles in to the foot of the great range, and is more in the nature of an inlet. But all our thoughts in camp to-night turn to this splendid twin-peaked mountain, which, even in such a lofty country, seems as a giant among pigmies. We all agree that from Sabine to the south the grandest eminences cannot compare in dignity with this monster. We have decided that at last we have found something which is fitting to bear the name of him whom we must always the most delight to honour, and " Mount Markham " it shall be called in memory of the father of the expedition.' ' December 28. — Sights to-day put us well over the 82nd parallel (82.11 S.). We have almost shot our bolt. If the weather holds fine to-morrow, we intend to drop our sledges at the midday halt and push on as far as possible on ski. We stopped early this afternoon in order to take photographs and make sketches. Wilson, in spite of his recent experiences, refuses to give in ; whatever is left unsketched, and however his eyes may suffer, this last part must be done. 'It is a glorious evening, and fortune could not have provided us with a more perfect view of our surroundings. We are looking up a broad, deep inlet or strait which stretches away to the south-west for thirty or forty miles before it reaches its boundary of cliff and snow-slope. Beyond, rising fold on fold, are the great neVe fields that clothe the distant range ; against the pale blue sky the outline of the mountain ridge rises and falls over numerous peaks till, with a sharp turn upward, it culminates in the lofty summit of Mount Markham. To the north it descends again, to be lost behind the bluff extremity of the near cape. It seems more than likely that the vast inlet before us takes a sharp turn to the right beyond the cape and in front of the mountains, and we hope to determine this fact to-morrow. ' The eastern foothills of the high range form the southern limit of the strait ; they are fringed with high cliffs and steep snow-slopes, and even at this distance we can see that some of the rocks are of the deep-red colour, whilst others are black. i9o2] VIEW TO THE SOUTH 57 Between the high range and the barrier there must lie immense undulating snow-plateaux covering the lesser foothills, which seem rather to increase in height to the left until they fall sharply to the barrier level almost due south of us. 1 To the eastward of this, again, we get our view to the farthest south, and we have been studying it again and again to gather fresh information with the changing bearings of the sun. Mount Longstaff we calculate as 10,000 feet. It is formed by the meeting of two long and comparatively regular slopes ; that to the east stretches out into the barrier and ends in a long snow-cape which bears about S. 14 E. ; that to the west is lost behind the nearer foothills, but now fresh features have developed about these slopes. Over the western ridge can be seen two new peaks which must lie considerably to the south of the mountain, and, more interesting still, beyond the eastern cape we catch a glimpse of an extended coastline ; the land is thrown up by mirage and appears in small white patches against a pale sky. We know well this appearance of a snow-covered country ; it is the normal view in these regions of a very distant lofty land, and it indicates with certainty that a mountainous country continues beyond Mount Longstaff for nearly fifty miles. The direction of the extreme land thrown up in this manner is S. 17 E., and hence we can now say with certainty that the coastline after passing Mount Longstaft continues in this direction for at least a degree of latitude. Of course one can- not add that the level barrier surface likewise continues, as one's view of it is limited to a very narrow horizon ; but anyone who had travelled over it as we have done, and who now, like us, could gaze on these distant lands beyond its level margin, could have little doubt that it does so. 1 It is fortunate to have had such glorious weather to give us a clear view of this magnificent scene, for very soon now we must be turning, and though we may advance a few miles we cannot hope to add largely to our store of information.' 'It has been a busy evening, what with taking angles, sketching, and attending to our camp duties, but hours so full 58 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. of interest have passed rapidly ; and now the sun is well to the south, and from all the coast is rising the thin night mist ex- actly as it does after a hot day in England, so we are preparing to settle down in our sleeping-bags, in the hope that to-morrow may prove equally fine. ' A great relief comes to us in this distant spot at finding that our slight change of diet is already giving a beneficial result; late to-night we had another examination of our scurvy symptoms, and there is now no doubt that they are lessening.' 1 December 29. — Instead of our proposed advance we have spent the day in our tent, whilst a strong southerly blizzard has raged without. It is very trying to the patience, and to-night, though the wind has dropped, the old well-known sheet of stratus cloud is closing over us, and there is every prospect of another spell of overcast weather which will obscure the land. This afternoon for the third time we have seen the heavens traced with bands and circles of prismatic light, and, if any- thing, the phenomenon has been more complicated than before ; it was a very beautiful sight. ' Only occasionally to-day have we caught glimpses of the land, and it is not inspiriting to lie hour after hour in a sleeping- bag, chill and hungry, and with the knowledge that one is so far from the region of plenty.' 1 December 30. — We got up at six this morning, to find a thick fog and nothing in sight ; to leave the camp was out of the question, so we packed up our traps and started to march to the S.S.W. This brought us directly towards the mouth of the strait, and after an hour we found ourselves travelling over a disturbed surface with numerous cracks which seemed to radiate from the cape we were rounding. After stumbling on for some time, the disturbance became so great that we were obliged to camp. If the fates are kind and give us another view of the land, we are far enough advanced now to see the inner recesses of our strait. ' After our modest lunch Wilson and I started off on ski to the S.S.W. We lost sight of the camp almost immediately, i9o2] OUR SOUTHERLY LIMIT 59 and were left with only our tracks to guide us back to it, but we pushed on for perhaps a mile or more in hopes that the weather would clear ; then, as there was no sign of this, and we could see little more than a hundred yards, we realised there might be considerable risk and could be no advantage in proceeding, and so turned and retraced our footsteps to the camp. 1 This camp we have now decided must be our last, for we have less than a fortnight's provision to take us back to Depot " B," and with the dogs in their present state it would be im- possible to make forced marches ; we have, therefore, reached our southerly limit. Observations give it as between 82.16 S. and 82.17 S. l if this compares poorly with our hopes and expectations on leaving the ship, it is a more favourable result than we anticipated when those hopes were first blighted by the failure of the dog team. 1 Whilst one cannot help a deep sense of disappointment in reflecting on the " might have been " had our team remained in good health, one cannot but remember that even as it is we have made a greater advance towards a pole of the earth than has ever yet been achieved by a sledge party. ' We feel a little inclined to grumble at the thick weather that surrounds us ; it has a depressing effect, and in our state of hunger we feel the cold though the temperature is + 150 ; but we must not forget that we had great luck in the fine weather which gave us such a clear view of the land two days ago.' 1 December 31. — As we rose this morning the sun was still obscured by low stratus cloud, which rapidly rolled away, however; first the headlands and then the mountains stood out, and we could see that we had achieved our object of yesterday in opening out the inlet ; but in this direction the cloud continued to hang persistently, so that it was to little purpose that we had obtained such a position. We could see now that the inlet certainly turned to the north of west ; on either side the irregular outlines of the mountains were clear against a blue sky, and, descending gradually towards the level, 60 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. left a broad gap between, but low in this gap hung the tanta- lising bank of fog, screening all that lay beyond. By turning towards the strait we had partly obscured our clear view of Mount Longstaff and quite cut off the miraged images of the more distant land, but we had approached the high cliffs which formed the southern limit of the strait, and in the morning sun could clearly see the irregular distribution of red and black rock in the steep cliff faces. 'In hope that the fog-bank to the west would clear, we proceeded with our packing in a leisurely manner, and when all was ready, turned our faces homewards. It was significant of the terrible condition of our team that the turn produced no excitement. It appears to make no difference to them now in which direction they bend their weary footsteps; it almost seems that most of them guess how poor a chance they have of ever seeing the ship again. And so we started our home- ward march, slowly at first, and then more briskly as we realised that all chance of a clearance over the strait was gone. ' In the flood of sunlight which now illumined the snow about us, we were able to see something of the vast ice upheavals caused by the outflow of ice from the strait ; pushing around the cape, it is raised in undulations which seem to run parallel to the land. We directed our course towards the cape with the hopes of getting to the land, but were obliged to keep outwards to avoid the worst disturbances ; this brought us obliquely across the undulation, and as we travelled onward they rose in height and became ridged and broken on the summit. Now, too, we came upon numerous crevasses which appeared to extend radially from the cape, and these, with the cracks and ridges, formed a network of obstruction across our path through which we were forced to take a very winding course. 'We extended our march until we had passed the worst of this disturbance, and by that time we were well to the north of the cape and abreast of one of the curious rocky groins that occur at intervals along the coast. This showed samples of both the red and the black rock, which seem to constitute the 1902] ATTEMPT TO REACH THE LAND 61 geological structure of the whole coast, and we decided to pitch our camp and make an excursion to the land on our ski. By the time that we had swallowed our luncheon the clouds had rolled away, leaving us in the same brilliant sunshine that we have enjoyed so frequently of late, and in which even at a distance of five or six miles every detail of the high groin could be distinctly seen. 'Not knowing what adventures we might encounter, we thought it wise to provide ourselves with a second luncheon, which we safely stowed in our breast-pockets, and taking our ice-axe and Alpine rope, we set out for the shore. It looked deceptively near, nor was it until we had marched for nearly an hour without making any marked difference in its appearance that we realised we were in for a long job. 'By this time we were again crossing long undulations which increased in height as we advanced ; soon from the summits of the waves we could see signs of greater disturbances ahead, and at five o'clock we found ourselves at the edge of a chasm resembling that which had prevented us from reaching the shore farther to the north. This was not an encouraging spectacle, but on the opposite side, a mile or so away, we could see that a gentle slope led to the rocks, and that once across this disturbance we should have no difficulty in proceeding. On the near side the spaces between the ice-blocks had been much drifted up with snow, so that we found no great difficulty in descending or in starting our climb amongst the ice-blocks ; but as we advanced the snow became lighter and the climbing steeper. We could get no hold with our finneskoes on the harder places, and in the softer we sank knee-deep, whilst the lightly-bridged crevasses became more difficult to avoid, and once or twice we were only saved from a bad fall by the fact of being roped together. Constantly after circling a large block with difficulty we found in front of us some unclimbable place, and were obliged to retrace our steps and try in some new direction; but we now knew that we must be approaching the opposite side, and so we struggled on. 'At length, however, when we thought our troubles must 62 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Dec. surely be ending, we cut steps around a sharp corner to find the opposite bank of the chasm close to us, but instead of the rough slopes by which we had descended, we found here a steep, overhanging face of ice, towering some fifty feet above us. To climb this face was obviously impossible, and we were reluctantly forced to confess that all our trouble had been in vain. It was a great disappointment, as we had confidently hoped to get some rock specimens from this far south land, and now I do not see that we shall have a chance to do so. 1 Before starting our homeward climb we sat down to rest, and, of course, someone mentioned the provisions — it was to-morrow's lunch that we carried — and someone else added that it would be absurd to take it back to the camp. Then the temptation became too great j though we knew it was wrong, our famished condition swept us away, and in five minutes not a remnant remained. After this we started our return climb, and at ten o'clock we reached the camp pretty well " done." 'There can be little doubt, I think, that the chasm we have seen to-day is caused by the ice pushing out of the southern strait against the barrier, and possibly it may end a little farther to the north, but I could not see any signs of its ending ; the blocks of ice within seem to have been split off from the sloping ice- foot — in fact, we saw some in the process of being broken away — and the fact that there is so much less snow towards the land seems to show that the inner ones are of more recent origin. The ice-foot is fed by the ice-cap on the hills above, which at this part flows over in a steep cascade. I do not see that we can make another attempt to reach the land before we get back to Depot " B " ; in fact, we shall have none too easy a task in doing that alone. We shall have to average more than seven miles a day, and the dogs are now practically useless ; but, what is worse, I cannot help feeling that we ourselves are not so strong as we were. Our walk to-day has tired us more than it ought. 1 To-night Shackleton upset the hoosh pot. There was an awful moment when we thought some of it was going to run h Y*> i902] THE PASSING OF OUR DOG TEAM 63 away on to the snow ; luckily it all remained on our waterproof floorcloth, and by the time we had done scraping I do not think that any was wasted.' 'Jamiary 1, 1903. — We have opened the new year with a march which is likely to be a sample of those which will follow for many a day to come. The state of our dog team is now quite pitiable; with a very few exceptions they cannot pretend to pull ; at the start of the march some have to be lifted on to their feet and held up for a minute or two before their limbs become stiff enough to support them. Poor " Spud " fell in his tracks to-day ; we carried him for a long way on the sledge, and then tried him once more, but he fell again, and had to be carried for the rest of the journey tucked away inside the canvas tank. Towards the end of our day's march it has always been possible to get a semblance of spirit into our poor animals by saying, "Up for supper." They learnt early what the words meant, and it has generally been "Spud" who gave the first responsive whimper. This afternoon it was most pathetic ; the cheering shout for the last half-mile was raised as usual, but there was no response, until suddenly from the interior of the sledge- tank came the muffled ghost of a whimper. It was "Spud's" last effort : on halting we carried him back to his place, but in an hour he was dead. 'The whole team are in a truly lamentable condition ; " Gus " and " Bismarck " are tottering ; " Lewis " and " Birdie " may fail any moment ; " Jim " is probably the strongest — he had reserves of fat to draw on, and has been a great thief; " Nigger " is something of a mystery : he is weak, but not reduced to the same straits as the others, and seems capable of surprising efforts. 1 This afternoon a southerly breeze sprang up, and we improvised a sail out of our tent floorcloth ; it makes an excellent spread of canvas. Some time ago I fixed up our bamboo mast as a permanency by stepping it in the runner and binding it with wire to one of the standards. On this we hoisted our sail, spreading it with two bamboo ski-poles. This 64 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' Qad. evening we saw the last of Mount Markham, and Mount Long- staff is already growing small in the distance.' iJa?iuary 3. — We are not finding our homeward march so easy as we expected, and we are not clearing a large margin over the distances which are actually necessary for each day; it is plain that if there are blizzards now we must go on right through them. But to-day we have done rather better than before. This morning there was a hot sun, which brought the snow-surface nearly up to freezing-point, and we found the sledge drew easily. This afternoon there was a fresh breeze, when we got a great deal of help from our sail. The dogs have not pulled throughout the day — we do not expect it of them now — and this afternoon Shackleton was ahead dragging on those who could not walk. Wilson was carrying their long trace in rear to prevent it getting foul of the sledges, whilst I was employed in keeping the latter straight before the wind and in helping them over the rough places ; the sail did most of the pulling. We have only two sledges left now, as we find this is sufficient to carry our much-lightened load. 'To walk eight or nine miles in a day does not sound much of a task for even a tired dog, yet it is too much for ours, and they are dropping daily. Yesterday poor little " Nell " fell on the march, tried to rise, and fell again, looking round with a most pathetic expression. She was carried till the night, but this morning was as bad as ever, and at lunch- time was put out of her misery. This afternoon, shortly after starting, "Gus" fell, quite played out. and just before our halt, to our greater grief, " Kid " caved in. One could almost weep over this last case ; he has pulled like a Trojan through- out, and his stout little heart bore him up till his legs failed beneath him, and he fell never to rise again. ■ It is useless to carry all this dog-food, so we have decided to serve it out freely, and the seven animals that remain are now lying about quite replete ; at any rate, poor things, they will not die of starvation. 1 Save for a glimpse of the sun this morning, a high stratus cloud has hung over us all day. We see the land, but not i9o3] A NEW EXPERIENCE 65 very clearly j we are inside our course in passing down the coast, and about ten miles from the remarkable cliffs we then noticed. To the north-west we recognise well-known land- marks. In spite of our troubles we managed to keep going for seven hours to-day, but we feel that this is the utmost that we can do at present owing to our poor team.' 1 January 6. — This morning saw us start off in overcast weather, but with a high temperature making very wet snow, and in consequence a comparatively easy surface. By lunch- time it had commenced to snow in large flakes, and the temperature had risen to + 33° by the sling thermometer ; this is the first time the air-temperature has been above freezing ; the snow falling on us or on the sledges immediately melted, so that the effect was precisely the same as a shower of rain ; and it was ludicrous to see us trying to push things into holes and corners where they would not get sopping wet. We wore our gaberdine blouses this afternoon, and they had the appear- ance and the effect of mackintoshes. All this is a strangely new experience to us, and certainly one would never have dreamt that an umbrella might be a desirable thing on the Great Barrier. This wave of heat with thick foggy snow came from the south with a fairish breeze. ' We have been trying once or twice lately to go on ski as the snow is very soft and we sink deeply, but we find that we cannot put the same weight on the traces as we do on foot. On the whole our ski so far have been of little value. They have saved us labour on the rare occasions on which we have not had to pull, such as when we returned for the second load at our relay work ; but the labour thus saved is a doubtful compensation for the extra weight which they add to the load. Another thing to be remembered is that one gets used to plodding, even in heavy snow, and, though it is very tiring at first, one's capacity for performance on foot ought not to be judged until one is thoroughly accustomed to the work. ' We have passed our old track once or twice lately ; it is partly obliterated but much clearer than I expected to find it after the recent winds. We made sail again this afternoon, VOL. II. F 66 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Jan. and the dogs, which have now become only a hindrance, were hitched on behind the sledges — a very striking example of the cart before the horse. " Boss " fell, and was put on the sledge.' iJa?iuary 7. — We have had a very warm and uncommonly pleasant day. The temperature at noon rose to 340 and the snow surface was just on the melting-point, a condition that is excellent for the sledge-runners. We dropped all the dogs out of the traces and pulled steadily ourselves for seven hours, covering ten good miles by sledge-meter. " Boss," when we left, turned back to the old camp ; later he was seen following, but he has not turned up to-night, though supper-hour is long past. The rest of the animals walked pretty steadily alongside the sledges. It is a queer ending for our team; I do not suppose they will ever go into harness again, unless it is to help them along. ' But who could describe the relief this is to us ? No more cheering and dragging in front, no more shouting and yelling behind, no more clearing of tangled traces, no more dismal stoppages, and no more whip. All day we have been steadily plodding on with the one purpose of covering the miles by our own unaided efforts, and one feels that one would sooner have ten such days than one with the harrowing necessity of driving a worn-out dog team. For the first time we were able to con- verse freely on the march, and in consequence the time passed much more rapidly. ' We have seen little of the land of late, though occasion- ally our landmarks show up. The sun has been flickering in and out all day. Much cloud hangs above the coast ; this afternoon it developed into masses of rolled cumulus which clung about the higher peaks like rolls of cotton wool. It is the first time we have seen these to the south, and they are pleasantly reminiscent of milder climates ; they would certainly appear to have some connection with the wave of heat that is passing over us. ' We have been arguing to-night that if we can only get to the depot in good time we can afford to have an extra feed, a 1903] DIFFICULT SURFACES 67 sort of revival of Christmas Day j at present we have gained a day on our allowance. We are positively ravenous, but this thought is sending us to bed in a much happier frame of mind.' '■January 8. — Truly our travelling is full of surprises. Last night we had a mild snow-storm depositing flaky crystals, but none of us guessed what the result would be. This morning the air temperature had fallen to 220, the snow surface was 2 30, and below the upper layer 260 ; after breakfast the fog gradually cleared, the sun came out, and a brisk northerly breeze sprang up. We got into our harness in good time, and, lo ! and behold, found we could scarcely move the sledges. We scraped the runners and tried again without any difference ; somewhat alarmed, we buckled to with all our energy, and after three hours of the hardest work succeeded in advancing one mile and a quarter ; then we camped to discuss the matter. It was evident that the surface had completely changed : last night we could have dragged double our present load with ease ; this morning each step was a severe strain, we were constantly brought to a standstill and had to break the sledges away with a jerk. As the wind came up, the loose snow settled into little sandy heaps, and seemed actually to grip at the runners. We have decided to remain in camp until the surface changes, but the question one cannot help asking is, Will it change ? I suppose it is bound to come right, but we have less than a week's provisions and are at least fifty miles from the depot. Consequently the prospect of a daily rate of one mile and a quarter does not smile on us — in fact, we are none of us very cheerful to-night ; and to add to his discomfort poor Shackleton has another bad attack of snow- blindness. 1 We got a clear view of the land this afternoon, and I was able to get an excellent round of angles. We are opposite the high pyramidal and tabular mountains once more, and get a good idea of the general loftiness of the country. ' " Birdie " remained behind at the camp this morning, but came on later ; " Boss " has never rejoined — he must have F 2 68 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' [Jan. sunk like the rest from sheer exhaustion, but with no one by to give him the last merciful quietus ; " Joe " was sacrificed for the common good to-night. It is fortunate that numbers will not permit these massacres to continue much longer; yet, after all, one cannot help being struck with the extraordinary and merciful lack of intelligence that these beasts display in such tragic moments. We have had the most impressive examples of this. 1 When a decree has gone forth against any poor wretch, it has been our custom to lead him some way to the rear of the sledges and there, of course, to put an end to him as painlessly as possible. As the intended victim has been led away, the rest of the team have known at once what is going to happen, and as far as their feeble state has allowed they have raised the same chorus of barks as they used to do when they knew that we were going to fetch their food. Of course the cause is precisely the same ; they know in some way that this means food. But the astonishing fact is that the victim himself has never known : he has always followed willingly with his tail wagging, evidently under the impression that he is going to be taken to the place where the food comes from, nor, until the last, has he ever shown the least suspicion of his end. 1 Thus we have seen an animal howling with joy at seeing his comrade led to the slaughter, and the next night going on the same road himself with every sign of pleasure ; it has a distinctly pathetic side, but it is good to know clearly that they have not the intelligence to anticipate their fate. ! I have used the pronoun " we " above, but I must confess that I personally have taken no part in the slaughter ; it is a moral cowardice of which I am heartily ashamed, and I know perfectly well that my companions hate the whole thing as much as I do. At the first this horrid duty was performed by Wilson, because it was tacitly agreed that he would be by far the most expert ; and later, when I was perfectly capable of taking a share, I suppose I must have shrunk from it so obviously that he, with his usual self-sacrifice, volunteered to do the whole thing throughout. And so it has been arranged, 1903] RUNNING BEFORE A STORM 69 and I occupy the somewhat unenviable position of allowing someone else to do my share of the dirty work.' 1 January 9. —Late last night I was awakened by a flapping of wings, and found a solitary skua gull hovering round the camp. One cannot guess how the creature can have spotted us, especially as we had a northerly wind yesterday ; but what- ever has brought him, it is cheering to see a sign of life once more, as it is more than a month since we saw the last. It was anxious work trying the surface this morning, and we hurried over the breakfast to get into harness. We found the pulling hard work, but very much better than yesterday, and in the afternoon we were able to set our sail again. We have made a fairly good march, but now, unfortunately, cannot tell the exact distance covered, as this morning we found that the sledge- meter had refused duty. An examination showed that one of the cog-wheels had dropped off, so we detached the counter mechanism and abandoned the rest ; it has done us good service, and we shall miss its exact record of our work. 1 Our four remaining dogs roam around the sledges all day, sometimes lying down for a spell, but never dropping far be- hind. { Nigger ' and ' Jim ' are moderately well, but ' Birdie ' and 'Lewis' are very weak and emaciated. Poor 'Nigger' seems rather lost out of harness ; he will sometimes get close to our traces and march along as though he was still doing his share of the pulling.' * January 10. — We started this morning at 8.25, with a moderately bright outlook and the land clear ; the surface was a trifle better than yesterday, but with no helping wind we found it heavy enough until at eleven o'clock a high stratus cloud drifted up from the south and plunged us into gloom. With this the temperature rose and the surface improved as if by magic, and for the last hour before lunch we were able to step out briskly. Soon after this the wind came, and as we started our afternoon march it became evident that a blizzard was beginning. It is the first time we have marched in a blizzard, and though it has been very trying work, it has given us several extra miles, 70 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY' (Jan. 'Almost immediately after lunch the sledges began to out- run us, and soon we were obliged to reef our sail, and even with reduced canvas the mast was bending like a whip. The great difficulties were to keep the course and to run the sledges straight. At first we tried to steer by the direction of the wind, and only discovered how wildly we were going by the sail suddenly flying flat aback on either tack. The air was so thick with driving snow that one could not see more than twenty or thirty yards, and against the grey background it was impossible to see the direction in which the snow was driving. After this we tried steering by compass; Shackleton and Wilson pushed on before the wind, whilst I rested the compass in the snow, and when the needle had steadied directed them by shouting ; then as they were disappearing in the gloom, I had to pick up the compass and fly after them. It can be imagined how tiring this sort of thing was to all concerned. At length I made up my mind that we could only hope to hold an approximate course, and getting Shackleton well ahead of me, I observed the manner in which the snow was drifting against his back, and for the remainder of the day I directed him according to this rough guide. 'As it was evident that, although we were not steering straight, we were covering the ground quickly, we decided to go on for two hours extra and take every advantage we could from the wind. It was as much as we could do to hold out for this time, and when at length the halt was called we were all thoroughly exhausted. We had difficulty in getting our tent up in the heavy gale that was now blowing, and, as luck would have it, our wretched Primus lamp chose this occasion to refuse work, so that it was late before we could prepare our hot meal. ' The march has been the most tiring we have done ; we are more or less used to steady plodding, but to-day we have sometimes had to run, sometimes to pull forward, sometimes backward, and sometimes sideways, and always with our senses keenly on the alert and our muscles strung up for instant action. Wilson and I are very much ' done,' though only to igo3] SHORT OF FOOD 71 the extent that needs a night's rest ; but Shackleton is a good deal worse, I think, and I am not feeling happy about his condition. 1 We could very rarely spare our attention for the dogs to- day. Poor ' Birdie ' gave out early, and was carried on the sledge ; as to-night he could not stand, we have had to give up hope of saving him, and he has breathed his last. ' Nigger ' and ' Jim ' have kept up well, but ' Lewis ' has only done so with great difficulty, and has sometimes dropped a long way behind. ' We cannot now be far from our depot, but then we do not exactly know where we are ; there is not many days' food left, and if this thick weather continues we shall possibly not be able to find it.' - January n. — The surface has been truly awful to-day; with the wind swelling our sail and our united efforts we could scarcely budge the sledges. Nothing could be seen ; not a sign of land ; cold snow was driving at our backs, and it was most difficult to steer anything like a straight course. At noon the sun peeped out for a few minutes, and I got an altitude which gives the latitude as 80.44 S. ; to-night, therefore, we cannot be more than ten or twelve miles from the depot. 1 Our loads are ridiculously light, and that we should be making such heavy weather of them is very discouraging. It may be because we are overdone, but I cannot help thinking that the surface is getting consistently worse ; and with no know- ledge of our climate we have certain dismal forebodings that a snowy season has set in, which may be a regular thing at this time of year. With no sight of landmarks and nothing about one but the unchanging grey it is impossible to avoid a sense of being lost ; never before have we entirely lost sight of the land for more than twenty-four consecutive hours, and looking at the diminished food- bag we are obliged to realise that we are running things very close. However, it is no use meeting troubles half-way ; the only thing now is to push on all we can. ' We are not very comfortable in our camping equipment, 72 THE VOYAGE OF THE 'DISCOVERY5 Qan. as everything is wet through — clothes, sleeping-bags, and tent- gear. The canvas tanks and covers of the sledges are shrunk and sodden ; the snow was melted as it drifted against one side of our sail to-day, and from the other hung long icicles. ' " Lewis " dropped farther and farther astern this morning, and as he has not come up to-night I fear we shall not see him again. '•January 12. — This morning as we breakfasted there was just a glimpse of landmarks, but before we could properly recognise them the pall of cloud descended once more ; we saw enough to show us that we cannot be very far from the depot. Thanks to a good southerly breeze we have done a good march, and with the help of another latitude sight I calculate the depot must be within a very few miles, but the continuance of this thick weather naturally damps our spirits. 'There is no doubt we are approaching a very critical time. The depot is a very small spot on a very big ocean of snow ; with luck one might see it at a mile and a half or two miles, and fortune may direct our course within this radius of it ; but, on the other hand, it is impossible not to contemplate the ease with which such a small spot can be missed. In a blizzard we should certainly miss it ; of course we must stop to search when we know we have passed its latitude, but the low tide in the provision-tank shows that the search cannot be prolonged for any time, though we still have the two dogs to fall back on if the worst comes to the worst. The annoying thing is that one good clear sight of the land would solve all our difficulties. ' For a long time we have been discussing the possible advantage of stripping the German silver off the sledge- runners. Once off it cannot be replaced, and therefore to strip them is a serious step ; the only way in which we have been able to guess the relative merits of the wood and metal runners is by contrasting the sledges and the ski, and it has always seemed to us that the latter are as likely to clog as the former, but the differing conditions of their use make the i9o3] FINDING DEPOT