I did, and though I learned a lot from the experience, I no longer do.
Yeah, what you described sounded familiar. I took a brain and meditation class a learned tons about it too. Really interesting how it can effect our minds.
To me the most interesting part was witnessing how much goes on in my head that I'm unaware of most of the time.
So you dissociate from subversive feelings, that doesn't change how stupid you were. I'd rather keep the regret and just try and experience similar situations in which I don't screw up the part I screwed up in the first place. Build your confidence back up, and realize that one time was an error, but that doesn't mean you're bad at that one thing.
Why is feeling embarrassed/regretful about your past actions a prerequisite for changing your future actions?
Nooooooo its so acute now do not listen to fala...fel...sa...u..r -_-
My shower times are always filled with self-loathing thoughts about an ex-gf. It drives me crazy, but god I love my long skin-scalding showers.
So I was actually taken aback by this post. I'm one of those people that is never embarrassed of anything in public and enjoy being able to commit what other people consider "embarrassing " openly in public. However, there are a small, insignificant number of embarrassing things, that I could probably count on one or two hands, which I only recall when taking a shower. And yes, my response is exactly the same.
I once was out with a girl and tried to hook up with another girl the same night. The one I was out with wasn't going anywhere, and I could tell she wasn't into me much, so here I start texting B to meet up.
Where is B?
Two booths over in the bar.
Still makes me really twitch and say fuck.
This hits me nonstop for the entire duration of feeling the effects of marijuana, which is why I don't smoke pot.
And these things I recall are things that every witness will remember for the rest of their lives. They're not silly, little moments of lapsed judgement, but moments of completely unacceptable behaviour by nearly universal standards.
I'm morally absent, and weed likes to preach right and wrong to me.
I'm not bashing grass, but stating that it doesn't have the same happy effect on me that most people enjoy.
The same thing happens to me! Thats why I can't smoke anymore either it's like one big shamefest in my mind.
In first grade there was this girl who had the same name as me and it infuriated me. I have a younger sister who would copy EVERY thing I did, so this girl, who was a few months younger than me, became my enemy. But no matter what I did she still liked me and wanted to be my friend. One day she showed up at school with the same shoes as me (Rugrats shoes that were purple with Angelica on them). That was the last straw. I was so mad. I was so mad I pushed her at recess and treated her like dirt the rest of the school year.
for_kicks, if you're out there, I'm sorry. It's seriously been like 17 years and I have no childhood memory that is as vivid as that day. I was as bratty and selfish as my favorite character Angelica and I am sorry.
The memory of that book/cover was hidden in the depths of my conscience for probably close to a decade, until I just saw that link. Thanks for the nostalgia
You are forgiven.
I think this is natural. I do the same thing.
I twitch my head and start apologizing under my breath, damn you shame!
In the first grade I once called a girl I liked Becca. Her name was Beth. It wasn't Beth, it just looked like her.
These are the things that keep me up at night.
how is this a confession?
This isn't a confession, it is something everyone does.
Someone in another thread was accusing Confession Bear of turning into DAE, and I sorta dismissed it.
But after seeing this post I'm starting to agree.
I know a lot of people who don't do this. They're some of my friends, and I've asked them if its normal and they seem to think it's not. They get embarrassed at times, sure. But they don't loose sleep of stuff that happened 10+ years ago. Or they are all playing a joke on me to make me feel insane.
Nope, I don't. May just be because my memory sucks though.
Like the one time I remembered that, when I was a kid (a little more than 10 years ago), I put a welding rod into an electric socket... It was my luck I have chosen the neutral wire. And now I'm a electrician. If only my workmates would know... that's embarrassing...
When I was about 8 years old I tried to wire an old car stereo into the house outlet before I understood about AC-DC and different voltages. I used set of test leads off a multimeter and plugged them into the hot and ground connections on the car radio harness and then shoved the other ends of the leads into the wall outlet. My cousin was watching TV in the room and all the sudden there was a large pop and the TV turned off. I was embarrassed and tried to act like I didn't do anything, even though there was melted wires and carpet at my feet. God I felt so stupid, it was even worse I had an audience. Luckily I didn't die.
how is this a confession?