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hair in a bun on the top of her head. I at once asked
her to sit for me and did a life-sized painting of her
with family photographs in suitable frames on the
table and a telescope. I forget why I put in the
telescope, I think it was a nice colour. Anyway
Roger Fry bought it and it was exhibited at the
London Group. I felt that I was behaving rather
badly, as Sickert had told me not to paint from the
model, but to do drawings and square them up.
He never came to my place so he did not know what
I was doing. I must say I was horribly bored and
I felt dreadfully ill and almost suicidal because of
the climate. I knew nobody at all. I went to
Sickert's rooms at five-thirty every day. He had
two rooms where he worked and we would go out
and I would watch him paint sketches of the river
and Pulteney Bridge. This was very interesting and
the paintings were really beautiful that he did from
his sketches. Afterwards I went back to my lodgings,
had some supper, and went to bed. I never have
been so bored in all my life. About twice a week I
dined with Sickert and his wife at their house; that
was very pleasant. On Sunday, Sickert did not go to
his painting rooms, and I had to spend the week-
end entirely alone. I thought sometimes that death
would be preferable; no one to talk to and feeling
ill and depressed. I stayed at Bath for five weeks.
One day I walked up Lansdowne and peered through
the gates of the Royal School for Officers' Daughters
of the Army. I saw two girls sitting on the grass
and longed to talk to them, I walked up to the
top of the hill and into a cemetery. The cemetery