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Harper & "Brothers Tublishers

NEW YORK AND LONDON
1932

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Copyright, 1932, by Arthur James Russell
Printed in the V. S, A.

ELEVENTH PRINTING
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[By Permission}

As the reader turns the -pages of this unusual boo\ he may
be surprised to encounter some remarkable living characters
who tell stories of startling experiences leading to changes' in
their lives.

It should be understood that, however personal the story,
there is no breach of confidence.

Many of these ]ran\ narratives have been told in public
meetings, though never before collected and published in a

All are included by permission.

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CONTENTS

I. THE VOICE FROM THE BLUE I

II. THE THREE TROUBADOURS 10

HI. SEX AND MONEY 23

IV. THE LIFE-CHANGER 39

V. THE FIRST HOUSE-PARTY 54

VI. THE OXFORD GROUP 65

VII. A MOTOR CLUB BLOWS UP 78

VIII. FRANK ACTS 88

LX. RESTITUTION 97

X. THE OXFORD HOUSE-PARTY 112

XI. THE HUMAN ENGINEER 121

xii. A JOURNALIST'S STRANGEST JOURNEY 141

XHI. BILL PICKLE 158

XIV. THE CALVARY MIRACLE 172

XV. GUIDANCE AT WORK 184

XVI, AN IDEAL HOME IQp

XVII. A MODERN WIFE'S ADVENTURE 215

XVIII. THAT KNOTTY MARRIAGE PROBLEM 225

XLX. AN OXFORD PSYCHOLOGIST SPEAKS 236

XX. SPIRITUALISED SCHOLARSHIP 248

XXI. THE STUNG CONSCIENCE 260

XXII. WHAT SIN IS 267

XXIII. THE SPIRIT MOVES 278

XXTV. AS FOR ONE SINNER ONLY 22

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Into the woods my Master went,

Clean for-spent, dean for-spent.
Into the woods my Master came,

For-spent with love and shame.
But the olives they were not blind to Him,
The little grey leaves were T^ind to Him;
The thorn-tree had a mind to Him

When into the woods He came.

Out of the woods my Master went,

And He was well content.
Out of the woods my Master came,

Content with death and shame.
When Death and Shame would woo Him last
From under the trees they drew Him last;
"I was on a tree they slew Him last!

When out of the woods He came.

"A BALLAD OF TREES AND THE MASTER"
quoted from the poems of Sidney Lanier.

Chapter One

THE VOICE FROM THE BLUE

THIS is a book about sinners, for sinners, by quite a big
sinner.

You may not like it. You may even hate it, as some are sure
to do.

You may dislike the theme, for, though it introduces lovely
people, it comes to grips with an unlovely subject. And solves
its riddle.

You may dislike the characters as they are limned in print,
but not in real life. As they are all living, you may encounter
them yourself some day, and discover their excellence. At
least one will live on as an historic figure when this genera-
tion has merged with the ages. Perhaps many.

Meanwhile, none can disprove the contents of this book or
avoid its challenge. The story is true ; the challenge is to you.

From the end of 1923 until the middle of 1926 I was -Liter-
ary Editor of perhaps the most virile and progressive London
daily newspaper. During that period certain events happened
which drew me into the heart of the most astonishing group
of people I shall ever meet. To-day groups of them are
sprinkled about the earth changing the lives of those they
encounter, giving all they possess and asking no return.

They are not an organisation. None can tell their number.
For in their own words: "You can't join; you can't resign;
you are either in or out by the quality of the life you live."

They are probably the most extraordinary association of
Christian adventurers since the first century. It is much too
early yet to forecast their destiny. Their movement, in its
sweep, may take one of two forms : it may become just another
gem or facet of Christendom like those affectionately asso-
ciated with Augustine, Francis, Luther, Wesley, Booth, and
Moody ; or it may speed up the reunion of Christendom, even
Catholic and Protestant. It may revive first-century Christian-
ity in every denomination, expel compromise from the lives of

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nominal Christians, make the Church a true healer of broken
homes, give purpose and direction to purposeless and mis-
guided lives, set aloft a fiery cross in every office, workshop,
and institution, and really start the Christian millennium in
this our twentieth century.

As Literary Editor my job was to provide compelling news-
paper features to engage the public interest and expand our
circulation. In a surprising manner I stumbled on two un-
usual means of achieving my purpose, which I found were
two cardinal practices of the amazing group I was subse-
quently to meet. I called these means Inspiration and Con-
fession. They called them Guidance and Sharing.

It was Saturday, my free day, usually spent in my garden
in Kent. Not that I enjoyed gardening, but it was good exer-
cise and kept me from the race-course, where I had spent many
more exciting and expensive holidays.

I worked on, thinking of nothing in particular. Suddenly a
strange experience came to me. There seemed to be a faint
electrical crackling in the clear air about me. There was posi-
tively nobody else in the garden, but someone or something
spoke to me : a voice that was audible and yet (paradoxically
enough) quite soundless. That seems the only way to express
what I shall always believe was a supernatural experience.

I felt a message impinge on my brain from the air. It
alighted softly like the caress of a leaf or the touch of a gentle
zephyr. It was accompanied by a sense of exaltation both
pleasurable and unforgettable.

As to the message, there was nothing particularly striking
about it, though when translated into action it produced phe-
nomenal results. At this stage I do not clearly remember the
exact phrase that came. I was just told to get twelve novelists
to confess their religious beliefs in our newspaper. Appar-
ently a good idea, but nothing to differentiate it from others
that have come to me and thousands of other people. Only
that queer feeling of its being implanted from without, per-
haps for some specific purpose. And the pleasurable physical
and spiritual reaction which attended it.

Almost immediately afterwards, both the idea and the in-
cident tucked themselves away in the recesses of my mind and
were completely forgotten for several months. Then one day,

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in early September 1924, 1 was asked to provide a good series
for an autumn circulation-raising campaign on which a fairly
large sum of money could be spent in publicity.

I went back to my room and began to think. Then the
memory of that spring day in my garden returned. Intuitively
I knew that here was the right subject ready prepared. It was
fortunate I had forgotten the message until now, the ideal
period of the newspaper year to launch a new series. It would
just catch the public returning from the holidays for the
autumn.

Before then and since, when advocating other ideas, on
which large sums of money had to be risked, I may have felt
trepidation. The arguments for were these; the arguments
against were those. But this time I had a subtle confidence
that some mysterious force supported the proposal and that
nothing could prevent it succeeding. Naturally, psychiatrists
would throw doubts on the supernatural origin of this series,
and ascribe my experience to an emotional disturbance of the
endocrine glands; or to something thrown out by. the subcon-
scious. Let them. But I wish they could make those same
glands work or that same subconscious self get busy when-
ever I am in need of help.

It is comparatively easy to get a good idea accepted, but
far harder to get a company of famous novelists to come in
on i^ sensitive as they are to their own dignity and status,
especially when it means disclosing their private life to the
curious multitude. Ten writers of outstanding eminence, all
well known in England and most of them well known in
America, were intrigued by our extraordinary request and
readily agreed to contribute. They were:

Arnold Bennett. Hugh Walpole.

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Compton Mackenzie.

Henry Arthur Jones. Rebecca West.

Israel Zangwill. E. Philips Oppenheim.

J. D. Beresford. H. de Vere Stacpoole.

I forget why the number of novelist contributors was reduced
from twelve to ten, the figure I had been given, but I remem-
ber the series ended far too soon, although we added one

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article from an anonymous correspondent, a second by Sir
Arthur Conan Doyle, and two extra by the Bishop of London.

Giving "an unknown man" a chance to join up with some
of the best writers in England was a happy idea (suggested
by "The Unknown Warrior") which proved very popular.
Thousands essayed to air their religious views in conjunction
with celebrated novelists. I selected the winning article be-
cause it contained an illuminating reference to a common fail-
ing of our readers and of myself ; and because it was a clear
statement of simple Christian faith that the masses would
understand.

"The gambling instinct," said the Unknown Writer, "so
often perverted and used for unworthy ends, is one of the
most valuable instincts possessed by man, and nowhere does
it find a truer or more complete outlet and fulfilment than in
religion. . . ." The writer continued: "Religion is betting
your life there is a God. I decided to bet my life there was a
God, and more and more as the years go by I find that in so
far as I yield up my will to God and open my heart to His
indwelling, in so far as I try to live out my life in the Christ-
spirit, the experiment works !"

Here, I thought, was something different for our friend the
gambler : the man who was so consistently accused of being in
the wrong praise from the quarter which usually attacked
him. His craze could be used to prove Christianity. God wanted
gamblers. Back God and watch Him win your own Derby.
Perhaps an old idea to some in the Churches, but to the aver-
age gambler it was NEWS.

A born gambler myself, I had indulged the gambling in-
stinct in the City, the casino, on the race-course. Like all gam-
blers, I had my successes. An occasional brief spell of victory,
and then losses. Invariably I ended every gambling bout with
a debit balance, however "inside" the information and I was
often right inside the "inside" however cautious the gamble,
however long or short I went or held on. At last I came to
believe that some little imp of misguidance had been specially
delegated to perch himself at my ear and whisper the wrong
advice whenever I gambled.

Curiously enough, I was shortly to find the gambling in-
stinct strongly in evidence among the group of people I am

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about to describe. They are gamblers all ; gambling recklessly
with their own lives gambling on God.

As only "unknown men" had been asked to contribute the
eleventh article, I was amused to hear a laughing feminine
voice at the end of my telephone announce that she was the
author of the anonymous article we had just published. To
make quite certain, I asked for a specimen of her handwriting.
It corresponded with the written article. I asked her if she
wanted money. She said "No." Further proof. She called
tall, thirtyish, and attractive, she seemed to me. I asked her
who she was. She hesitated. She asked me to promise never
to publish her name ; and I promised.

There are princesses in the movement dealt with in this
book. But without saying that she is a princess, I can state
that her home is an English palace, though she was not living
in it. At the time she was suffering from an apparently incur-
able disease, but had given her life to social work in a London
slum. As her illness kept her indoors for a good part of the
day, I advised her to drop her self-immolation in squalor and
return to the country and sunshine. She laughed at my lack
of understanding, and went back to her social service. Some
years after, she wrote me a letter appreciating the work of the
people described in this book and reminding me of my bad
advice. Instead of going to the country for a sunshine "cure,"
she had worked on in the slum for her Lord and been mar-
vellously restored to health !

She told me she had written her manuscript for "My Reli-
gion" under what she believed to be "direct guidance," al-
though not without trepidation, as she saw the invitation was
only extended to men. But she had written a letter of explana-
tion giving her full name, which somehow escaped my notice.
Her article came to me interred in a high pile of manuscripts,
written on both sides of the paper (sin of sins in journalism).
The opinion was more than once expressed that her contribu-
tion, breathing as it did the spirit of confident faith and loving
understanding of the prodigal mind, was the best of all. I am
sure it did the most good.

Contributors to the "My Religion" series were not ham-
pered by editorial restrictions. They could advocate whatever

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religion they chose. If they had none, they could let their
article explain why, provided there was no blasphemy. Judged
by their writings, they were not a deeply spiritual company.
Some were believing Christians ; some were agnostics ; all were
honest. Compton Mackenzie (a great writer) wrote a strong
plea for Roman Catholicism, and the late Sir Arthur Conan
Doyle for Spiritualism. I enjoyed the article by Hugh Wai-
pole, who revealed himself as the typical son of a bishop. His
article was well liked, as was that by Rebecca West, who wrote
with her usual brilliance. Not one tried to define the word Re-
ligion, but that omission was atoned for by Father Ronald
Knqx, who, because of the interest awakened by this and sub-
sequent religious series, which this one evoked, wrote a book
dealing with the phenomenon of Fleet Street's sudden inter-
est in religion. His title was uncomplimentary, though he was
not unfriendly. It suggested that we were Calibans of Grub
Street. There was no suggestion that we might be practical
mystics.

Father Knox showed us that religion was something which
restrained us from doing what otherwise we might do, just
as conquered people were restrained by their conquerors, foot
on neck, in the bad old days when power was as much a syno-
nym for right as money is to-day.

Many beautiful passages were contained in the articles writ-
ten by these representative novelists describing their religion.
Outstanding among them, like St. Paul's Cathedral, was a
marvellous symphony in prose by that delightful playwright,
Henry Arthur Jones, which is surely destined for immortality.
Its sheer beauty stood out in clear relief as I read the article,
and has haunted me ever since. I turned to my little staff and
read it over for their delectation. Listen to the song behind
the screen of words, the yearning and the heartbeat of a lov-
able Englishman:

Whatever call to wander in strangely haunted spheres
of ether, or fields of asphodel, in new moods of being,
amid new duties and new pleasures; whatever call to
prolong and fulfil its existence my spirit may obey when
it has earned its release from the flesh, it is to this earth
that it turns and returns and passionately clings to-day ;

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this earth that is the mother of all I know and feel, this
earth where I have lived and sinned and suffered and
loved and fought and stumbled and tramped and de-
spaired and laughed and wept and eaten my fill and
drunk deep draughts of pleasure and success and bitter
cups of misery and defeat and shame; this earth whose
dawns and sunsets and variegated pageantries are nicely
suited to my eyes and her harmonies and discords exactly
tuned to my ears; this earth whose biting winds and
angry hailstorms have buffeted me, but whose sunny skies
and blue halcyon days have restored me this very earth,
the only place where my foot finds firm standing, and
where my spirit feels at home.

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and Henry Arthur Jones were
friends ; if otherwise, this article would have made them
friendly. For in it Henry Arthur also declared that no future
state would be intolerable for him if he found Sir Arthur
waiting at the entrance to greet him. In rejoinder Sir Arthur
quoted the "asphodel" passage in a public address and com-
mented : "I have looked upon Henry Arthur Jones as one of
the very first if not the very first prose-writers that we
possess. He has that rare gift of rhythm which marks the
great artist. For this alone his article would be memorable.
There are few living men who can write prose like that."

Praise indeed of one master by another, both of whom have
since "earned release from the flesh."

"My Religion" ran with smoothness from start to finish,
with the staff more excited than I have ever seen journalists
excited by newspaper articles. And this by a simple series on
religion in a street swarming with Pagans.

As for the public, they leapt for it. During 1 a part of the
run the circulation-staff was unable to cope with the demand.
Each morning for a fortnight Young England on its way to
the office scrambled for, almost fought for, bookstall copies
of the morning newspaper giving it something up-to-date in
religion. Arnold Bennett tramped the streets of Liverpool
vainly seeking a newsstand not sold out on the opening day,
the day he led off. Then he returned to his hotel and wrote

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amusingly to the Editor gently lampooning our circulation de-
partment. Yet probably he, too, had not foreseen how vast
could be the public demand for the sharing of religious ex-
periences by celebrated novelists.

Arnold Bennett's opening article gave our church-going
readers a tremendous jolt. And no wonder ! Had he not been
asked to modify his language he would have shocked them
more. He only agreed to his article being modified when I
pleaded that we might harm the baby the newspaper. I said
that our church-going readers would think we were turned
atheist and leave us. He spoke somewhat peevishly about one
whose views counted with us and who might disagree with
our request, and then decided to cut his article slightly, though
reiterating he was doing it against his better judgment.

As it appeared, his self-censored article was the worst attack
on Christianity I have ever seen in a respectable and popular
English newspaper.

"It is curious," said Arnold Bennett, "how bold some very
ordinary statements seem when they are put into print in a
popular newspaper. I do not believe, and never have at any
.time believed, in the divinity of Christ, the Virgin birth, the
immaculate conception; heaven, hell, the immortality of the
soul, the divine inspiration of the Bible."

Quite a comprehensive Cardinal-of-Rheims catalogue of
fearless unbelief. No wonder half England rose up to answer
him, many to disprove his opening statements by his later
admission of a leaning towards a future life. No wonder that
he was vigorously attacked in the religious Press and in the
pulpits all over Great Britain. Yet "the Unknown Man" (who
spoke in the spirit of the characters of this book) was not
among the critics. She understood exactly Arnold Bennett's
attitude, the position he had reached, and the reason why he
could not say more. To attack him, she said, was wrong when
he was so obviously expressing his true opinion. How could
a man who had not been born of the Spirit write otherwise?

The public interest awakened by the unusual feature was
early reflected in the Editor's mail-bag, which must have been
about the largest ever prompted by a straightforward literary
series. The letters were opened, but the staff was too small to
read them thoroughly. They grew into a vast heap on one

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side of my room, into which I occasionally dug for interesting
contributions.

London society was aroused, as never before, by religious
articles in the popular Press. The provinces read widely and
eagerly. Bishops and clergy swung into the debate. A swarm
of novelists had invaded their realm. They had a right and a
desire to be heard on the same all-important subject. The late
Archbishop of Canterbury (Dr. Davidson), reluctant to be
disturbed by newspaper religion, wagged his statesman's head
and elected to make a public reference to the series that every-
body was discussing.

From the first; it had been my intention to give the feature
a definitely pro-Christian bias, and the replies of the bishops,
clergy and religiously-minded readers, as well as some of the
articles, were more, than adequate for that purpose.

The same series was afterwards sold to America, where it
ran in a chain of newspapers, and it was reproduced m book
form both in England and the United States. The theme was
also adapted for America by the publication of a new series
entitled "My Religion" by "Ten American Novelists."

Echoes of the original stir in London are still heard.

Rebecca West wrote in a London journal for writers say-
ing that the author of "My Religion" had shown himself a
journalistic genius. I thought so, too, and wished I could have
given her the author's name. But the mysterious voice that
came to me from the spirit-world had left no name.

What was the reason for the astonishing success of the
series? In the shrewd opinion of the proprietor it was the
emphasis on the word "My" in the title an opinion I was to
hear endorsed again and again when investigating the Oxford
Group and their practice of "Sharing" experiences.

We had induced celebrated writers to confess their religious
convictions, and in soloing had merely re-discovered a simple
truth which religion had learned years ago : there is always a
public eager to hear a man's own story of his search for God,
if haply he might find Him.

For was it not the method by which the early Apostles
spread Christianity through a Pagan world?

Chapter Two

THE THREE TROUBADOURS

1' T WAS January 1931. Seven years had passed since the "My
Religion" feature was released on a surprised public. For
nearly five years I had held the managerial chair of our Sun-
day newspaper, to which I had been promoted possibly as a
cynical reward for success in religion.

In January 1931 ,the newspaper was doing magnificently.
Good features, bright news, bold, original publicity, and the
developing momentum of past efforts had combined to double
our sales, although the depression had descended upon Britain.

Only once during that seven years did I experience a repe-
tition of the supernatural guidance which preceded "My Re-
ligion." But lest it be assumed that we expanded our sales
only by supernatural suggestion, I should say here that after-
wards an idea came to me without supernatural accompani-
ments which gave us a jump of over four hundred thousand
in circulation, settling down into a permanent increase of more
than one hundred thousand.

But the theme of this book is not the "scoops" that certain
newspapers have secured, but the "scoop" that every news-
paper missed.

I was still hankering after another series of the "My Reli-
gion" order to give the circulation of one of our newspapers a
spring flare-up. One Sunday morning I was sitting in a Pres-
byterian church in Orpington, Kent, when the minister, the
Rev. J. M. Fergusson, M.A., subsequently Moderator of the
Presbyterian Church of England, dropped a few complimen-
tary words about a new religious movement emanating from
Oxford University known as the Oxford Group, that he said
was spreading rapidly through various countries, including
South Africa.

A new religious movement spreading out from Oxford
University ! That was the only point in the minister's sermon
I remember. Here was a fresh trail of thought. Several flour-
ishing religious movements had started in this intellectual

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centre of England, as everyone knew. It was about time for
another religious revival of sorts in Britain. The last had come
from Wales. That the new one should emanate from Oxford
was befitting. Oxford would contribute the dignity so essen-
tial to a revival of religion. There was only one institution in
England more suitable as the starting-point when regarded
as news, for Cambridge had never yet produced a real live
revival. One had pleasant memories of visits to both Oxford
and Cambridge, notably as a member of ex-President Roose-
velt's party when "Teddy" was on his world tour, but mostly
I thought of Cambridge as the sports University, and of Ox-
ford as the home of new religions. A reversal of that order
would be interesting news.

I visualised "Oxford's New Religious Movement" with our
columns thrown wide open for the views of every Tom, Dick
and Harry in the land ; yet a wisely-guided feature inculcating
much sound and helpful religious teaching. Vaguely I was
aware I should again be skimming the cream from both
worlds.

But why wait until Monday for the start? That Sunday
evening I telephoned the minister and asked for more par-
ticulars. He told me all he knew on the subject. Not much,
but he believed that the leader, known to his intimates as
"Frank," lived very close to God.

Next day a disappointment. Having sent to our newspaper
library, cynically known as "the Cemetery," for "clippings"
about Frank and his movement, I discovered the Oxford
Group had existed for several years; that it was vaguely
known in Fleet Street, and had been casually referred to in
our own daily newspaper. Then I remembered reading about
the beginnings of the Group in Oxford in newspaper reports
distinctly unfriendly which had repelled me at the time. But
it had escaped my notice that a number of distinguished
Oxford dons had joined in a letter to the Press protesting
against the unfairness of these criticisms. Speaking from
observation of the results, they said newspaper criticisms
distorted the spirit of the work through misunderstanding
and unfounded rumour.

This was a blow ! Not much hope of turning this old stuff
into a successful religious series to awaken England. The

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news had already broken, and strictures had been passed
on the informality of procedure and the emphasis on sin.
Now I understood why several years had elapsed and no
journalist had been enterprising enough to advise his news-
paper to espouse the Oxford Group. Still, I was unwilling
to be put off. There could not be much wrong with the teach-
ing, or it would not be permitted in Oxford University. That
was one strong point in its favour. The four standards of
conduct they advocated constituted a stronger point. They
professed to test all they said and did by the standards of
absolute love to all, absolute purity, absolute unselfishness,
absolute honesty. Surely there was not much wrong with a
movement squaring up to those ideals. Old news though it
was, when judged by Fleet Street's up-to-dateness, I felt
there was a good story somewhere latent in this unusual and
growing movement spreading worldwide from Oxford. And
good circulation as well.

The journalist's thought in a situation of this kind may be,
"If you can't praise, punch." A lady novelist strongly advised
me to attack. But how could one attack a religious movement
which had the tacit approval of Oxford University? More
than one reckless journalist has attacked this movement with-
out understanding its genius, for the attack is always more
interesting copy than the eulogy. There are so many oppor-
tunities for the latter and so few to attack in safety. For the
.English libel law is an ever-present menace. Merely to ridi-
cule a person in print is to invite an expensive law-suit in-
volving big damages. Rarely do newspapers say all they think,
for they may have to pay more than a penny for their
thoughts. An occasional target like the Oxford Group, that
does not shoot back, is sometimes a most welcome discovery.

I had no wish to attack the Oxford Group, for I believed
in Christianity, and a closer study of the "clippings" showed
definitely that the leaders did too, even if they had a new
and perhaps uncomfortable way of putting it over. Moreover,
I believed it necessary and possible to modernise the Chris-
tian appeal, and perhaps "Frank's" unusual methods and
teaching, already making great headway in Oxford, might be
just the way to do it. One must not be blinded, by a little hos-
tility and some ridicule ; they were necessary to any new

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movement, religious or secular, with a chance of winning
through. Luther had lots of it. So had St. Francis. Wesley
had his full share. Booth was ridiculed and pelted. This Group
was in the right tradition of successful religious movements.
And one could not dodge the fact it had a foothold in Ox-
ford, the intellectual and cultural centre of England.

I determined to interview "Frank" without delay. Where
did he live? No one seemed to know. After some difficulty, I
located his quarters at Brown's Hotel, Dover Street, London.

The last time I was at Brown's Hotel I was the guest of a
gentleman racehorse trainer with whom I collaborated in the
writing of some exciting Turf reminiscences. Judging by the
remark of "The Unknown Man" in the "My Religion" series
that faith is natural to the born gambler, my return to
Brown's Hotel to see a man of God instead of a racehorse
trainer was the natural step forward in spiritual growth.

Frank's address at Brown's Hotel puzzled me, for it is a
good hotel, much used by the aristocracy: the best county
families were often to be found there when in town. But
hardly the location, I felt, for a modern Elijah. Yet every
man of God has to be housed somewhere if he elects to live
in the English climate. He cannot deliver his message under
a country hedge to the cows, or spend his energy preaching
to the birds, like St. Francis. No one doubted that the Picca-
dilly area around Brown's Hotel needed more of a spiritual
shake-up than a country village. Moreover, Frank was a
Bishop of Souls, but had no bishop's palace, not even a vicar-
age, only a hotel point of contact with those people described
as "the up and outs," so often overlooked in the life-changing
process, and so useful when changed, whether they be twen-
tieth-century English noblemen or the Roman Emperor Con-
stantine. And Frank was quartered in Brown's Hotel at
specially reasonable terms. Some time afterwards I discovered
that he had often worked day and night among the unprivi-
leged and "down and out," and was ever at home to all men
and with all men, in palace or tenement.

At Brown's Hotel I was told that "Frank" was in South'
America, though three other leaders of the Group were in
London. They accepted my invitation to tea in my office the

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next afternoon. I was anxious to look them over and take
their measurements, and instructed my secretary to use her
feminine powers of quick observation and to make notes
about them in their presence, for they would not suspect her
of doing it. She did.

I have lost her notes, but remember a good point she made
their strangely natural way of mentioning God and Christ,
without that apologetic halting so noticeable with most of us.
My three callers were Garrett Stearly, John Roots (both
clergymen of the Anglican Communion and sons of bishops),
and Charles Haines, a bronzed and athletic young Quaker;
all in mufti.

Three exceedingly likeable young men, smartly dressed and
radiating good feeling, kindliness and self-possession.

Evidently "Frank" knew how to choose men.

We talked for two hours, or perhaps three, and they ex-
plained what their movement stood for. Their talk intrigued
me. They had intelligence, zeal, culture and good looks. I
liked their radiant appearance, their frankness and the way
Garrett Stearly beamed at me through his horn-rimmed spec-
tacles. I liked the well-groomed strength of Charles Haines
and the boyish enthusiasm of John Roots, son of the Bishop
of Hankow. Later I learned that John Roots was a capable
journalist and a brilliant writer. Already their coming had
brought an unusual feeling, a freshness and tranquillity, into
.the rather soiled and sometimes sordid atmosphere of Fleet
Street.

Out of that strange first meeting came the impression that
these men had voluntarily lost the world in order thereby to
change the world. They were the exact opposite of the "go-
getter" type one habitually encountered in business. Though
they were no longer masters of their fate or captains of their
souls, they had a quiet strength, a relentless purpose which
were already bringing astonishing results.

For them nothing was casual. God had a plan. They were
trying to fit in with it. Knowledge of that plan, God's guid-
ance and God's power were available for all who chose to work
in with that plan. This guidance and power transcended every
form of self-determination. God-guidance in God's strength
could be the normal experience of everybody at all times, they

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asserted. When three B.A.'s arrive with the remark that they
were specially guided to accept the invitation one must take
the visit as complimentary, even though doubting their con-
tention.

Many extraordinary callers had come my way in journal-
ism : a man sentenced to death for the most sensational mur-
der in England and reprieved by Winston Churchill ; another,
afterwards hanged for a "good murder" as Fleet Street
would express it; detectives who had caught most of the
notorious murderers of my time; famous statesmen; the
"Man Who Won the War" ; boxing champions and best-
selling novelists; singers and famous players; the World's
Fastest Motorist ; film stars, sporting men, racing men and a
galaxy of forgotten celebrities. Once the Prince of Wales
walked up the stairs and interrogated the commissionaire on
the landing outside my room and was half-way down the
street before he was recognised.

But the radiant Three were the first callers at my office
to claim they had been guided my way by God.

When I asked one of the leaders of the Oxford Group who
was the founder of the movement, he replied with simple
conviction:

"The Holy Spirit"

So that was the amazing claim which had escaped Fleet
Street's attention. Not a man, but the Holy Spirit, had
founded a new religious movement in Oxford University, and
here were three of His representatives.

Either the most blatant piece of post-war blasphemy, or a
movement that might accomplish anything. And worth investi-
gating, even though it was somewhat late in the day. More-
over, I had unearthed a fresh point. And that was NEWS.

There was nothing fanatical about the way the Three Trou-
badours stated their case, which they claimed to be strictly
orthodox. True, point for point, to the New Testament,
though for me a new way of looking at the New Testament.
They regarded it as not so much a set of rulings or argu-
ments by the careful observance of which one acquired a safe
seat in Heaven, but pictures "movies" if you will or reve-

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lations of what was bound to take place in any age, in any
life entirely surrendered to the will of God.

If they were completely surrendered, as the Apostles were
surrendered with Jesus Christ the Master in every area of
their life and inspired others to be likewise surrendered, there
must be kindred results. In Coleridge's illuminating words
quoted by John Roots, they were out to restore commonplace
truths to their first uncommon lustre by translating them into
action. They were making a film of first-century Christianity
by living it. Consequently they are impatient of preaching with-
out practice. Also they stressed witness before argument, my
own method of putting over "My Religion" with the help of
ten novelists.

Nothing new, but a view which should give them favour
with the great army of non-Christians who defend their
pagan living with the time-worn excuse that Christians do
not practise their own preaching (as though confessing an-
other's sin ever excused one's own).

But their point about Witness which they happily called
SHARING was new to me, in so far as it concerned University
men. True I had once inveigled novelists into the witness-ring,
but not necessarily a company of University graduates. They
defined Sharing as meaning two distinct things further
definable as Confession and Witness, one readily passing into
the other.

. The former meant confession to God and also to any per-
son if guided to do so by the Holy Spirit for one's own re-
lease. It might mean talking freely to some Christian man or
woman who could be trusted to keep secrets and to give wise
counsel as well. Confession to one another was advocated by
St. James and practised by the Ephesians during Paul's visit
to Ephesus. It was practised by John Wesley's Holy Club
and "love feasts." Frankness about one's faults was also good
witness to the world, for when Christians confess, Pagans
believe.

The ultimate aim of this Sharing was a right relationship
with God. According to my three visitors, we are in desperate
need of forgiveness ; and in the last resort, whatever aids we
may use to help us to reach it, we must come to the one place
where we stand before God face to face, confess to Him our

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sins, and receive the forgiveness which He so freely gives.
There is no other way to fulness of life, and in our hearts
we know it. Now ideally such confession as this should be
made direct to God without the need of any human assistance,
receiving God's forgiveness then and there; obviously, in fact,
this happens time and time again.

But in practical experience, and just because we are not
ideal, instance after instance could be quoted to show that
there are very many who need the help of Sharing with an-
other, so that they may come directly face to face with God.
For them Sharing is a practical necessity. Only so do they
grasp the reality of their confession, of the God to whom
they confess, and of the forgiveness which He bestows. The
forgiveness itself does not depend upon the Sharing; its ap-
propriation by the individual constantly does.

In practice it was found that confession one to another
in the Scriptural sense was mutually helpful and the only
way to true fellowship. It was one of those fundamental
truths of life, like Christianity itself, never fully grasped
until it was practised. From its earliest days the Christian
Church had been well aware of the value of such confession'.
Wesley and the modern Anglo-Catholic were at one in this,
and in one sense the psycho-analyst, with his splendid tech-
nique based upon exhaustive experiment, was simply bringing
scientific proof to what the Church learned long ago under
the guidance of the Holy Spirit, though she has often for-
gotten to practise the lesson.

The other aspect of this, teaching was Sharing as Witness.
Those who had been spiritually healed themselves had the
necessity laid upon them to hand on the good news to others,
for it was every Christian's obligation "By all means to
save some." The Bishop of Leicester said a propagating Chris-
tian was a normal Christian ; unfortunately to-day the propa-
gating Christian was the abnormal.

Again I was sceptical. Perhaps because there were some
persons I had no particular desire to see in Heaven.

That telling phrase of the Three Troubadours, "God has
a plan for every man's life," came up continually that after-
noon. Somewhere I had seen it stated that when each human

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being was born, the plan of what he could become was made
for him in the next world, and one of his joys or sorrows
when he went there would come from a comparison of his
past with the original plan of his possibilities.

"Not only has God a plan for every life," said one of the
trio, "but when through sin we spoil that plan, God is always
ready with another." This, too, was a new way of looking at
things for me. Unfortunately, most of us refused to follow
the plan when we saw it, or, if unaware of it, to pray for the
plan to be revealed. Our sin of sins, embodying all other sins,
was independence towards God; doubting God's interest in
us, that He had a plan for us, that He would show us the
plan, and that He would help us to carry out the plan which
was the only satisfactory plan for our lives.

Here was strong teaching. There was much that attracted
in the argument. But what about those people for whom there
seemed no clear plan, or one that miscarried before the person
had the chance to ascertain it ? What of the unlucky child
who had not even learned the plan of the street-crossing near
his house and was killed in his happy youth? Was that part
of God's plan for the child? The answer was: It must be
left with God, Who could see more than we.

The New Testament answer, as put positively in the case
of Peter and John, was, "What is that to thee? Follow thou
Me." Nobody could tell what was God's plan for that child
or if it was thwarted by the human will of child or driver.
But death was only an incident, though a terrible incident,
in a life which merely began here and continued "there."

The Three Troubadours positively asserted that those who
attempted to live without God's plan, as revealed by the Holy
Spirit, were as certain to encounter disaster! as those living
under God's daily direction were certain of success. Though
this success must not be measured by the purely material
results of their activities.

My objection to this argument was human nature's chronic
inability to know when it was being guided. To that the Three
offered the answer of two-way prayer: petitions and quiet
listening for the reply, especially in the morning when pre-
paring for the day's work.

They called this early morning listening to God "Quiet

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Time." The Oxford Group believe God spoke to them when
they needed His guidance. I believed it possible that now-
adays, as in days of old, there are men to whom the Lord still
speaks.

But I felt such persons were rare, and that for a group
of men and women to listen-in each morning hoping for a
clear message from God on how to run their day was to
expect a lot more than they would get. My views on this prac-
tice modified considerably as knowledge of the Group in-
creased.

They emphasised that the condition of clear guidance was
complete surrender of everything will, time, possessions,
family, ambitions all to God. Christ had said that if we were
unwilling to surrender everything we most valued we could
not be His disciples. Not that He necessarily took away every-
thing we most liked, or asked us to do everything most dis-
tasteful; often the things we were asked to do were those
we were most fitted to do. Nor was surrender always a hu-
miliating thing. It meant a handing over of our little in return
for God's All-Sufficiency. Each morning we lost our petty,
disordered life to God and found the Real Co-ordinated Life
all through the day. Accepting completely the discipline of
God brought not bondage, but the fullest freedom to do what
we .wished and that was always the Will of God.

I learned that it was a practice of the Group to keep a
guidance-book and record in it those thoughts which came
in periods of quiet listening to God. An Anglican bishop had
quoted a Chinese proverb -in this connection: "The strongest
memory is weaker than the palest ink." The idea was novel,
introducing the technique of the lecture-room into practical
Christianity; interesting as news, but not convincing unless
confirmed by definite results. Otherwise the practice bor-
dered on the comic. Yet bishops were actually keeping guid-
ance-books, and I, too, had received from supernatural sources
(as I supposed) a remarkably successful religious series.

"Through guidance," said the Three.

As our interview developed I elicited news of more inter-
esting aspects of the movement just those unusual human
things a journalist is always seeking, even when investigating

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a spiritual subject. Reaching back into the first century for
their standards of Christian fellowship, they were ready to
scrap any later practices they believed redundant or old-
fashioned, and to substitute the earliest customs or something
that met modern needs. They did much of their work through
house-parties, where the visitors shared their religious ex-
periences and drew close to God.

HOUSE-PARTY RELIGION

was a good head-line, I thought !

Whether intentionally or not, I quickly saw they were
working on the lines of true journalism; for one thing, they
unerringly sensed the value of the very oldest and the very
newest. Yet they were amazingly orthodox, holding some-
times by paradox even the interest of the heterodox. And
so far no journalist had completely uncovered their real
genius. I wondered why.

They were even so orthodox as to believe that everyone,
parson as well as prodigal, must at some time come to him-
self, must experience the forgiveness of God through Jesus
Christ. In short, the Cross was central in their teaching. At
the Cross man reached a turning-point when he decided to
live as God directed and guided instead of according to his
own human standards. Old-fashioned evangelicals called it
conversion, but through misuse that word had for many minds
lost its original potency, and so they preferred the simpler
word "Change." As Hugh Redwood has it: they were out
to change lives on a colossal scale as the one solution of every
ivorld problem.

Those who sought to change others were called "Life-
Changers" instead of evangelists. While they paid tribute to
much that was done by the old-time evangelists, they felt the
new age required different words and perhaps less music to
galvanise the religious interest. They believed that such
phrases as "Are you saved?" were unintelligible to the aver-
age man. That the potency of such phrases vanished with a
dead age. So did I. They also wished to break free from
some of the mass efforts of old-fashioned revivalism. They
had much evidence that men and women could be changed

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effectively without the emotionalism and the noise of a for-
mer day.

In fact, they believed in orthodoxy galvanised into new
life in modern conditions. Just the same old Christianity, but
so intelligently phrased and sensibly though uncompromisingly
presented that it became a fresh challenge to a Pagan world,
still almost as far from God as in the days of the disciples.

As Christianity was again a minority movement, they be-
lieved it was about time for the Church militant to show a
bit of real militancy. My visiting trio made it clear that such
a message as theirs must of necessity be both uncompromising
and challenging, and so convincing that once more the agnostic
would turn to God. They knew opposition would come, and
were ready for it. You could never approve a challenge as
you could approve the minutes of the last meeting. You had
to accept the challenge to go all out for a maximum experi-
ence, of Christ in the manner of the early Apostles, or you
had to dodge it or put it out of the way. That was why a
challenging Christ was crucified. The Oxford Group did not
expect to be crucified, but they did expect to be strenuously
opposed by those who were afraid or unwilling to respond to
the challenge. It was inevitable. They challenged the world
to turn back to God, to cut put sin, to make restitution for
past sins, and to let God take full command of every area of
life, just as the early disciples challenged the world.

Such a challenge must sting consciences. The stung con-
science either surrendered or endeavoured to sting back. Men
under conviction of sin might do anything. This challenge
stung Christians as well as Pagans, parsons as well as prodi-
gals. Christians were challenged to be filled with the Spirit
and overflowing in love towards their fellow-men so as to
change them. Most Christians were unwilling to accompany
Christ in His search for the lost lambs, the normal duty and
privilege of every child of God. Christians mostly preferred
social service to the saving of souls. It was less intimate, more
snobbish, socially more correct. While the Group practised
social service, they felt man's deepest need was not money,
but God, for those who truly sought first the Kingdom of
Heaven had 4!! other necessary things added unto them. That
was their own experience. Men and women were keenly 'hun-

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gry for the true God, who was more ready to manifest Him-
self to them than they to seek Him.

The work of life-changing was never more necessary than
now. Anyone who was pure in the sight of God could become
a life-changer. There was no joy in life so great as leading a
prodigal home to his Heavenly Father, always half-way down
the road to meet him. Men who really had the indwelling
presence of God did not need urging to become life-changers ;
they were naturally so joyous they had to express their joy
in changing others.

Life-changing was contagious. And it was more effective
nowadays than ever before. The greatest piece of social serv-
ice a man could do in his generation was to change a man
into a life-changer. But how"? seeing that Christianity was
again a minority movement. The Group had learned more of
the How than a past generation seemed to know or had the
necessity for knowing. In their Schools of Life they taught
how to avoid saying and doing clumsy things, as Christ also
taught His disciples. And always there was the guiding pres-
ence of the Holy Spirit to assist and overrule the teaching.

The best answer to the How of both sinner and potential
Life-Changer was the Group custom of Sharing. Changed
men might go wrong in trying to change others by argument,
but they were on safe ground in recounting their own experi-
ences as the Apostles recounted theirs. And far more likely
to get good results. Paul's method of founding a church was
to start with the story of his own change. The Group did
the same.

The extraordinary fact was that, in an age when, so far as
I knew, converts to Christianity were practically nil in the
churches, the Oxford Group were continually witnessing men
and women being changed into highly-vitalised Christians.
Some of the changes were real modern miracles: big sinners,
key-men, intellectuals, aristocrats and commoners alike. Not
emotional decisions, as witnessed in some of the old-fashioned
mass-revivals, but decisions taken in quiet heart-to-heart talks
as a result of tactful personal evangelism by educated men
and women courageously accepting, as they did two thousand
years ago, the high challenge to give themselves completely
to the cause of Christ, and telling their own experience of
their indwelling Master.

Chapter Three

SEX AND MONEY

MY THREE TROUBADOURS how announced something
which held for me a still stronger news interest. They
affirmed that most persons parsons and prodigals alike
were facing two cardinal problems for which they possessed
the solution Sex and Money. They sat in the Manager's
room of a great London newspaper and coolly asserted that
to be true. What journalist with his ears wide open for public
interest could help wanting ,to know more?

A tonic band of people who could produce the answer to
those two problems, or even thought they could, need worry
about little else in the matter of news interest. They had the
world waiting.

What were the solutions? Their answers were perturbing,
but not at first convincing. They became both interesting and
convincing later. My visitors recognised the sex-instinct to
be God-given, and while they did not condone any perversion
of thought or word or deed, they knew the real problem was
not one of suppression, but sublimation.
."What exactly do you mean by sublimation?"
It was something which used sex energy for a higher pur-
pose while producing complete satisfaction. Sublimation (ac-
cording to Dr. Hadfield's definition) was the process by which
instinctive emotions -were diverted from their original ends,
and re-directed to purposes satisfying to the individual and
of value to the community.

There was no sex problem, they affirmed, or indeed any
problem, when it was surrendered to God. The desire for sin
disappeared with the will to obey God. Purity was possible
through a cleansing stream of spiritual life which followed a
genuine change. As Christ was real and Christ's Spirit was
real, there was no danger of fulfilling the lusts of the flesh
when walking in the Spirit. This was psychologically ex-
plained as the expulsive power of a new affection.

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Good theological and psychological stuff. But how could
that satisfy sex hunger? I was to* get the answer later.

Then we settled down to discuss the eternal problem of
every household. How did the Group propose to solve the
money problem ? To relieve the anxiety of every housewife,
dreading to open a letter which might be just another bill?
The Three Troubadours smiled their confidence, for they were
solving these problems every day.

"How?"

"By Faith and Prayer."

Was that old stuff the best the new religious movement
spreading out from Oxford had to offer?

They said flatly it was.

But Faith and Prayer did not pay bills.

They differed. They knew what they were talking about, for
thirty or forty in the Group were living on that basis.

"What ! Trust in God and do nothing else ?"

Not at all. Laziness was a sin. The Group taught that God
would guide ,and provide, but God did not guide healthy,
active people to be lazy. Changed men did better work than
before they were changed: they wasted less energy and they
received extra power from the Holy Spirit. Furthermore, the
Group did not urge everyone to live on the Faith and Prayer
basis, though everyone might have to do so at some time.
And I must remember that the Sermon on the Mount was a
practical proposition to-day as always. Still the old Faith, but
Faith in uncompromising action. Here was news once more-
out of dear old Oxford! For a long time I had wanted to
meet a bunch of Christians faithful enough and divinely cou-
rageous enough to believe and live the Sermon on the Mount,
expecting thereby everything needful to be added unto them.

Once, at the request of a millionaire, I evolved the dummy
first issue of a new religious weekly : a paper that was to,
take England by storm because it would offer the solution of
every housewife's main problem how to keep her larder
stocked with life's necessaries.

The Sermon on the Mount was to be the editorial policy.
Week by week we would tell our readers in a variety of
brightly written and up-to-date articles the one simple truth,
that if they would seek first the Kingdom, of God and His.

SEX AND MONEY 25

righteousness all other things would be added unto them;
their houses would stand when winds blew and floods came
-because they were founded on a rock.

There were many other ideas for this new type of religious
journal, but on that foundation the publication would be con-
structed. My millionaire backer asked me to call and expound
my views on the project. Together we paced the Green Park,
with Buckingham Palace on one side and Piccadilly on the
other, and thrashed out the prospects of a new religious paper
millionaire and a practical journalist discussing how we
could sell security to the British public on the strength of
"Seek ye first the Kingdom of God . . . and all these things
shall be added unto you."

"If we can put this paper over as the only comprehensive
solution of the bread-and-butter problem, which it truly is,
we shall have a sensational success," I argued, assured that
anyone who had the courage to try the Sermon on the Mount
would find it astonishingly practical. The millionaire saw the
possibilities. He rather liked the idea. He was impressed with
the title. He flirted with the proposition. Presently he began
to doubt.

"Isn't Christianity really Bolshevism?" he asked.

"Bolshevism grabs other people's possessions. Christ says
give away your own."

Why I said that I don't know. He stopped in amused aston-
ishment, turned full towards me and demanded, "Is that your
answer ?"

I said it was, and thought it true. We continued our dis-
cussion, but the religious journal never materialised. We ex-
amined those already established, and the prospects of an
adventure in religious journalism did not look encouraging.
My proposal was shelved. Perhaps he was right. Yet I was
sure that was about the only type of newspaper which would
thrive on depression. I have still a hankering to found that
new religious journal, which shall bear the title SECURITY.
Unless a wealthy backer comes along soon I may have to
found it on Faith and Prayer.

And now here were three young religious adventurers
bringing me the same thought, telling me that two of them
had lived for a long time on Faith and Prayer without asking

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anyone for money. Confirmation of two convictions : that life
on Faith and Prayer was really possible, and that news inter-
est was plentiful in this Group. I pressed the Faith and Prayer
men for stories of their experiences. How often had they
gone hungry? No, they had never gone hungry, said Gar-
rett Stearly, who added that mine was the typical question
of a newspaper man. John Roots had 1 been reduced to his
last shilling in South Africa, but unexpectedly funds came
unasked from his brother just when the situation was becom-
ing desperate. One of the ladies in the Group, Eleanor Fofde,
had got down to her last penny, but she prayed, and found a
cheque in her mail the next morning.

Doubtless this was the ideal life for a believing Christian
to live, but a little too jumpy for a married man with wife
and children to care for. I preferred a balance in the bank.
Better for the nerves. Even though I had been ready to pro-
duce a newspaper to show the British public how to support
themselves by the Sermon on the Mount. My visitors added
that one could keep a family on Faith and Prayer just as well
as oneself. The principle was the same. Garrett Stearly and
his wife both lived in that way. And of course the immortal
George Muller of Bristol had maintained a vast family some
two thousand strong, three meals a day, and two suits each,
for fifty years, starting with a shilling, and never making a
request for a penny.

"Don't you ever ask for money?" I queried.

Their guidance, said the trio, had been against asking for
money. If anyone asked, he was informed of the basis on
which they lived, and money offered was gratefully accepted.
Those in the Group would sometimes share their needs with
each other, as well as their religious experiences and their
goods, for they were all one great spiritual family. If one
suffered, they all suffered.

The more they talked the more convinced was I there was
something brand new about these men, even though they
claimed nothing more than primitive Christianity. Their
movement might be first century, but it bristled with talking-
points. They were not an organisation, for there was no mem-
bership; not a sect, for they were interdenominational; not

SEX AND MONEY

really a new movement, for they were but a continuation of
early Christian fellowship; not a church, but aiming at an
inner spiritual fellowship in all churches. They settled into
my mind as riot a noun at all. They were a verb, the verb
"to be." An action! Really a life! They were out to end the
twentieth century in the way the first began by living the
life and by telling stories of other persons who were doing
the same. Just as they did in the Acts of the Apostles when
Christianity was first projected across the footlights into the
darkness of a pagan civilisation.

They were also against controversies. "We don't argue,"
said Garrett Stearly, "we leave conviction to the Holy Spirit."

A battalion of M.A/s and B.A.'s, with no desire to argue
the truth of their convictions any more than Christ argued
His case before Pilate, or Paul before Agrippa! I disagreed
with their attitude at sight. But I could see that the Group
practice of not arguing their views might be right, seeing that
'the Holy Spirit gave conviction, even as Christ's silence before.
a Pilate was right. Yet there was a time for speech and a time
for silence about sacred as well as about secular things, and
I preferred argument so long as I had doubts. Silence might
be anything sometimes golden, sometimes gilt, and some-
times guilt.

To say they just accepted the New Testament and lived it,
or tried to, seemed inadequate. My Three Troubadours an-
swered that Christ and Paul thought otherwise. Further, there
was no rigidity about anything they did, as the Holy Spirit
might over-rule and change plans, as Paul was sometimes
over-ruled and re-directed in other directions.

"But how are you going to convince the man who dis-
believes the New Testament?"

I guessed what the answer would be, for it was my own
answer to the sceptic. I had found it in the Gospel of St. John
and in my own religious experience. My three visitors said
that if one honestly tried to carry out the teaching of Scrip-
ture, one knew miraculously of the doctrine whether it was
of God or of man. The Holy Spirit was the Teacher. I be-
lieved that myself. In my spiritual egotism, I thought I was
about the only one left who did, or had practical experience of
"the witness of the Spirit."

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But I was still prepared to argue the reason, of my belief
as best I could: not to remain dumb on a debatable point.
They said it would be better for me to tell my own experience
and let the Holy Spirit argue within the other person, as He
did in the first century. If Christianity is real, that argument
seemed unanswerable.

Their emphasis on knowing through doing intrigued me
considerably. In fact, I once contemplated writing a religious
novel around the title "You shall know," keeping as the solu-
tion of the mystery the plain teaching of Scripture that cer-
titude can be miraculously discovered by obedience to known
truth, which was quite scientific. The Group said that argu-
ments would never save souls. One theological professor said
that the intellectual arguments for God and against God were
about evenly balanced. There was not sufficient margin of
theological proof to galvanise a man into action. He needed
the proof in himself, and the scientific way to get that proof
was to make the experiment. Those who obeyed Christ's
teaching knew miraculously of the doctrine, through the
witness of the Holy Spirit.

It was difficult to make a schoolboy with no use for love
understand that in adolescence he would change his mind;
it was just as difficult to convince an unbeliever that by obedi-
ence to Christ's teaching he would have the proof in himself
that Christ was the Image and the Word of God.

When talking to the late Arnold Bennett about his agnostic
contribution, I suggested that he could easily discover the
truth of Christianity for himself in this simple way if he
chose. I think I said that a fortnight's intensive practice of
the Sermon on the Mount would provide ample proof. "A.B."
gave a start as though a fresh idea had come to him from a
surprising quarter. Then he crooked his forefinger in that
odd way he had and shook it decisively.

"Not for me," he said.

His religion was kindliness.

And now I was discussing the theme again with three mod-
ern young men, who were advocating the same ideas as I, but
leading a movement to convince the world by those same
simple pragmatical means. As they sat in my office that after-
noon, I felt they carried a large measure of proof in their

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faces. With no argument to justify their belief but their own
life, they appeared to have achieved a measure of Christian
certitude and Christian radiance far greater than I, though
I was treated as the expert on this subject by two important
London newspapers.

Again I wondered why. Was it because they had gone all
out to win the great game, or because they had not encoun-
tered such adverse odds ? Perhaps they had found some secret
knack of keeping out of the rough, and always driving straight
down the fairway. If so, what was it? They said, "Absolute
surrender of all areas to God." Had I done this? Evi-
dently not.

One had to be honest in sizing up these fellows sitting in
his room. Regard them as one would saints, adventurers,
fanatics, anachronisms unquestionably they possessed a good
deal more than the ordinary cultured human animal. I had
met crowds of the charming unregenerate type. And through
many unpleasant experiences I had reached the stage of
suspecting everybody until the contrary was proved.

What was there about these fellows which seemed to prove
their claim? The answer must again be News. My Three
Troubadours said it was the natural by-product of true fel-
lowship, which included the most ruthless Sharing. Honest
Sharing among surrendered Christians tended to produce the
Apostolic glow which Christ left on the faces of His disciples.

To retain this glow, the principle of Stewardship must
also faithfully be remembered: stewardship of time, lands,
money, houses, things, family relationships, sex relationships
in fact, of everything possessed. It might mean giving your
time in a Sunday School or helping in your neighbour's gar-
den if he were too ill or too poor to pay for help. It might
mean changing the theme of. your novel or modifying your
attitude towards clothes or food or drink. It might mean sur-
rendering to God the entire royalties of a play or book, as
Hugh Redwood did with his fine story God in the Slums.
A great act of stewardship, for the royalties were consider-
able. The only thing about that book which Hugh Redwood
did not give away was the excellent title, which, he told me,
was the inspiration of a leader in the Salvation Army. God

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in the Shadows, the title of its still better successor, was his
own happy idea.

My visitors explained that stewardship embodied the final
answer to those two materialistic philosophies now holding
sway one, that prosperity is the supreme value of life; and
two, that wealth is necessarily evil and poverty virtuous. The
Gospel taught neither of these philosophies, but that every-
thing belonged to God, who asks His children to handle wisely
His own property according to His wishes and guidance the
true Christian answer to Communism, and one more complete
than mine when I said that "Bolshevism grabs other people's
property, but Christ says give away your own."

The doctrine seemed sound. Again there was nothing new
in theory, only in practice. But what would wife, husband,
children, parents say when they watched the responsible per-
son giving away possessions with the excuse of doing it as
a steward of God? The Group said that one would give under
guidance, and that God was more interested in the needs of
everyone we were interested in than we were, and that was
why the principle of stewardship was necessary. And a
changed man or changed woman would probably have a
changed wife or husband. In any case, one would invite the
other's views.

Pondering these principles, I seemed to be returning to
where I was with that projected new religious journal, only
that journal was to be a consolation to the worried masses of
impecunious England, while this uncompromising Group were
becoming a challenge to myself.

I was certainly getting the hang of what the Oxford Group
were after. First, there was absolute Surrender, bringing
Guidance by the Holy Spirit; then there was Sharing, bring-
ing true Fellowship and shining faces; then Life-Changing,
bringing in God's Kingdom and Joy, in Heaven, in the Sin-
ner, and in the Life-Changer; then Faith and Prayer, bring-
ing all things needful and helping forward God's plan to
provide for everybody; also those four standards of Love,
Honesty, Purity and Unselfishness, on which Christ had never
compromised; and, of course, Restitution. Later I was to
understand perhaps the strongest principle of all Fearless

SEX AND MONEY 3!

Dealing with Sin. Meanwhile, there were two other prin-
ciples easier to swallow Team-work and Loyalty.

Jesus practised team-work, said my callers. He and His
disciples were a team. He sent His representatives out, not
singly, but in twos and threes. After His Ascension the dis-
ciples moved about the Roman Empire in small travelling
groups. They were doing the same. Great movements had
lost their driving force because the principle of team-work
was misunderstood. Founders wanted to gather all power into
their own hands and retain it, oblivious to the truth that the
Spirit bloweth where it listeth. No person can have a mo-
nopoly of the Holy Spirit. At some times men are more
spiritual than at other times. Men grow in grace, but they
decline sometimes in grace. The discipline of team-work irons
out human eccentricities. Truth is presented more adequately
through a team than through one individual. Half a dozen
men recording their religious experiences cause more heart-
searching and conviction than one man giving Christian
advice.

Again reality was put before theory; life-interest before
head-interest. In the language of Fleet Street, News took
precedence of Views.

Then there was the principle of Loyalty. First there must
be supreme loyalty to Jesus Christ, but that involved lesser
loyalties as well. Those who were being used by Jesus Christ
deserved loyal support from those who professed Jesus Christ
a truth welcome enough in theory, though not always so
gladly received in practice. It was a strange phenomenon that
so many professing Christians should be so disloyal to those
trying to live in loyalty to Christ.

Above all, the Group was a Fellowship a first-century
Christian Fellowship controlled by the Holy Spirit. And it
was remarkable how the guidance received by different per-
sons in the Group, when pieced together, made one perfect
pattern, showing that the Master Mind of the Spirit was
actively at work behind the scenes, not of the Group only, but
everywhere that room was made for Him. That exquisite
Fellowship of the Spirit, so often talked about, and so little
understood, was actually being realised. All barriers in such
a fellowship were broken down by loving understanding,

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leading to greater depths of human experience, more happi-
ness and abiding peace than was otherwise obtainable in hu-
man association. That was why their faces shone.

Because the Holy Spirit was the real head of this Fellow-
ship, "Frank" did not arrogate to himself full control When
guided, he would preside at Group meetings. When guided,
he would leave the leadership to another. Sometimes he
would be seen at the back of the room listening to his col-
leagues whom he was training for leadership, occasionally
breaking in with a quick, clarifying phrase when a difficult
question came up. As at Oxford when someone asked the
Group leader if she should confess all her faults to somebody,
"Frank" interpolated, "Not necessarily. But everyone should
be willing to do so if guided by the Holy Spirit." The de-
cision rests with oneself always.

The Group's emphasis on Loyalty brought home to me
one of the faults of my youth when, attending a Church
meeting, I presumed to criticise a minister much older than
myself in none too happy language. The Group said Loyalty
was particularly necessary towards those more experienced
in Christian living. And yet even with this point firmly recog-
nised, they encouraged "checking" faults among themselves,
though the "checking" must always be seemly and expressed
in the spirit of loving fellowship, and not allowed to degen-
erate into the sin of fault-finding. A newcomer to the Chris-
tian experience might see a glaring fault in one long on the
' way. For him outspokenly to condemn the fault before he
had earned the right by loving, solicitous fellowship would be
sheer presumption.

Undue possessiveness o husband towards wife, or wife
towards husband, was condemned by the Group. Either should
be free to do as either felt right, for the marriage relationship
was not between two, but between three. Just as the advent
of a third human being as a competitive factor produced the
Eternal Human Triangle for the wrecking of marriages, so
the advent of the Third, Jesus Christ, into the home, the
non-competitive-guiding factor, requiring each to act towards
the other according to God's standards, produced a new Eter-
nal Triangle which saved marriages from ruin and estab-
lished the ideal human partnership on earth.

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BEX AND MONEY 33

Excellent in theory. But could all this idealism work? It
could and did, the Three asserted. Groups were coming' into
existence in many places, in many countries : England, Scot-i
land, Holland, Germany, India, South Africa, China, EgypU
Switzerland, North and South America. In South Africa itf
had taken on the dimensions of a National movement. As faij
as possible, the Group were making their challenge through!
the Churches, and had the sympathetic interest of the Arch-f
bishops, and other Anglican and Nonconformist church dig-
nitaries. They were urging Christians, congregations and
clergy alike, to expel sin from their midst, as the Apostles
did too, stressing the need to surrender entirely to God, and
to trust His guidance and support in every circumstance and
vicissitude of life. Emphatically were they against being an-
other religious "order" or "cult," "sect" or "organisation."
They wished to be an inner church in all churches, irrespec-
tive of denomination, for the deepening of spiritual life within
Christ's body and for the carrying of Christianity to its logi-
cal, and practical, limits. In fact, a power-house within and
without the churches for encouraging everyone to have a com-
plete experience of Jesus Christ, si
There were Groups meeting in churches, Universities, and \
numerous private homes in many parts of the world. In }
Johannesburg one Group met in a fire-station. By meeting -,
informally anywhere (notjr^dburch hours) they reached peo- \
pie who were interested in religion" but unready to attend {
formal church services. Their house-parties were an exhilara-
tion, an astonishingly successful religious advance whenever
they were held. No attempt was being made to organise the
Groups springing up here, there and everywhere. None would (
be made. Each group was a separate unit linked to the others I
only by the Holy Spirit. Their only organisation was^the gre.at
historic churches.,, These.

""' ~> -.- "

ship Jn, as .. they : ,f elt4ed s Here they found their ^theology: and

" 4 '''''' ' f

tir preaching. There could never" 4 be''''!;'' 'series of Group
churches. If a Group thrived, so much the better for the
churches in the neighbourhood. If the Group died, that was
unfortunate, but only a repetition of what sometimes hap-
pened in early Christianity. ...
Before leaving, my Three Troubadours of God told me

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they had booked a tourist passage on the Europa, sailing the
following day for New York. They had just sufficient money
left to cover extras of the voyage and get them safely back
to their destination. As for the future, they had no fear.
Money would come as it came in the past if they continued
to pray and obey. At my invitation they made a selection
from my book-case, tactfully choosing one of my own stories
and the life-story of George Muller of Bristol. Departing,
they left me a copy of Life-Changers, by Harold Begbie,
which told some remarkable stories of lives transformed
through "Frank's" efforts.

As I returned to my room, one of them dashed back to
invite my wife and myself to their farewell-to-England dinner
that night in the Chinese Restaurant in Piccadilly Circus.
There we received our first lesson in the use of chop-sticks
from members of the Oxford Group who had lived in China
and had learned some of the ways of the Orient. A jolly
meal it was. "God-guided" life-changers joked, told good
stories of their adventures, introduced us to some novel dishes
and gave us an entertaining evening.

With Fleet Street's atmosphere of awareness and suspi-
cion clinging thick about me, I felt I had struck a note of
fellowship an octave higher than normal. Too good to last!
One would soon descend from that ethereal state of Apos-
tolic fellowship into materialism and mutual mistrust. Then
I should discover the snap in the new teaching just where
the catch was hidden. Most men of the world looked for the
catch on the door of the money-box. When the waiter brought
our bill, there was a smart catch. Garrett Stearly grabbed the
bill and paid. So their faith and prayer were strong enough
to provide for two guests as well as for themselves.

When returning later to Brown's, I first detected a possible
catch. Garrett Stearly and I were discussing varieties of reli-
gious experience, and I, rather puzzled, mentioned one or two
curiously ecstatic occurrences in my own life, once when
studying the Bible, and several times afterwards, during
periods of crisis. I remember saying that these joyous experi-
ences had ceased with me, and I could not understand the

SEX AND MONEY 35

reason. That gave him an opening which he promptly took.
Was it possible that I was allowing sin to wall me off from
God? Then he quietly hinted that we should need to touch
deeper reaches of fellowship before he could give me any
helpful advice.

"Hello 1" I thought. "Here, then, is the catch in the move-
ment! Here is a man I have known only ten minutes sug-
gesting there is something wrong with my spiritual inside and
wanting me to confess the facts. Quite premature, my lad."
Sharing was all right in theory as outlined to me that after-
noon. It was a very different thing as practice. "Never tell
all you know," was the sage counsel once given me by a
Scottish girl, which I now remembered. I decided on caution.
One never knew. We continued our walk round the block,
while I informed him rather guardedly that I knew of noth-
ing particular in my life which might explain this hiatus in
God-consciousness.

Garrett Stearly gave no expression of relief or belief. On
the contrary, I sensed a mute incredulity in his emanations.
"Which means," I thought, "that you still want me to confess
all my shortcomings to you, a man two-thirds my age. Includ-
ing those occasional slips which, because you would not under-
stand the circumstances, you might harshly label sin." So I
persisted in declaring there was nothing wrong, omitting to
say I was not quite sure about it.

Moreover, there was another reason. I wished to chat with
Frank when he came back from South America on a Chris-
tian-to-Christian basis. There must be none of the penitent-
to-priest attitude about this interview. To disclose a few past
sins to one of his friends might, so far as I then knew, be
putting the unknown Frank in the position of advantage.
Even if my life had not been a hundred per cent, perfection,
it had been lived for many years on a higher level than before,
perhaps higher than that of the average Christian. I felt that
was not mere egotism, but simple truth. As for the slips,
they were explainable and even excusable. Though I was still
not quite sure about them. Anyway, they were no concern of
these young fellows, clean and charming though they were,
or with my thought to link our paper and their movement for
our mutual interest.

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And who was perfect, anyway ? I asked myself. Neverthe-
less, I wanted to put a long period between past imperfec-
tions and my meeting 1 with the legendary Frank, so that if
he did challenge me I could say quite honestly I was living
his kind of life. Of course, I could say so at any time,
whether true or not. In my early days as a journalist I had
told more than one lie to secure a good story. Only lying
was a peccadillo I had long since contrived to master.

During the interval which elapsed before I met Frank I was
also successful in keeping those other graver faults which were
defeating me under control. But you shall hear later how
ineffective this trick of the conscience proved to be.

As Garrett and I walked on and talked on, the sex problem
suddenly reappeared, as it had done in the afternoon. I wanted
a definition of the Group's view about absolute purity.

I had heard it argued that immorality was excusable in
certain circumstances. What of two persons in love with each
other and each unhappily mated to an unfaithful partner?
What about the one who had an erring partner yet disbelieved
in divorce ? What of the scientific contention that certain types
of men and women could never mate, and so must develop
wanderlust if they married the wrong type? Blood tests might
even prove that two persons were absolutely incompatible.
If a person married one of those incompatible types in some
moment of blind love or uncontrolled passion, no amount of
compromise could ever make that marriage a melting success.
Both were doomed to incompatibility for life, since for such
Christianity had still the empty message "Grin and bear it."
To my mind, common sense and human nature joined in revolt
against this inhuman creed.

Garrett Stearly said sex had to be surrendered to God. One
of the test questions of true surrender was: Am I prepared
to let Christ master my sex life entirely?

That, I thought, would be a staggerer for Fleet Street.

He reintroduced the thought of sublimation. He sought to
lift one to a higher plane of thought, to where (he seemed
to think) the freedom of instinct and the restraints of con-
science merged into liberty and complete satisfaction: to a

SEX AND MONEY 37

level in the realm of grace which I did riot believe in, though
it was commonly taught in Christianity.

He told me an amazing story, insisting that it was true, of a
husband and wife whose seemingly insuperable marital prob-
lem .was straightened out by the Group message. The husband
had suffered injury which took sex completely out of his life.
The wife was young, gay and restless. She attended lively,
reckless parties to balance her barren life at home. Their
home-life was about finished when they came under the influ-
ence of the Group. Instead of urging a divorce the natural
thing to do, I thought the Group advised the complete sub-
mission of the problem to God's guidance. This advice was
accepted, and clear guidance came to the wife to accept the
situation, riot resignedly as a sacrifice, but cheerfully as a
means of grace consistent with God's plan. So for her, as well
as for her husband, the problem was entirely removed from
her life. Yet there was no sense of deprivation, for the sex
instinct had been sublimated to a higher level of satisfaction
on which truly happy souls had lived in all ages. Sex dis-
content had vanished through the expulsive power of a higher
affection.

There were several answers I could have given to that story,
for I was very sceptical. I expressed doubts as to her real
happiness.

"She is perfectly happy," affirmed Garrett. "They both

are."

One had no doubts about the husband. This sublimation
idea had solved for him every husband's problem of keeping
a restless wife at home contented. From his standpoint it was
a satisfactory, if selfish, solution. I felt he should have urged
her to seek divorce. That would have breathed the true spirit
of unselfishness.

"She loved him," said Garrett. "God's guidance, her love
and Christian teaching were all against divorce."

"But human nature is still human nature. And a wife craves
for a child."

Those may not have been the exact words, but they convey
the thoughts we expressed or were in our minds. And all the
time the young troubadour refused to be moved from his high
standard. One wondered what would happen to this sex-mad

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world if someone who really believed sublimation was a prac-
tical possibility could preach so simply and convincingly that
others believed it too. The streets of our cities free from
solicitation, from men leering at every passing opportunity.
Women no longer eternally brushing aside the sex-laden over-
tures of men. Genuine friendship between the sexes at last.
Sex wiles eliminated from every social gathering. Ended the
eternal comedy of pursuing men and pursued women.

Of course churches preached sublimation when they men-
tioned sex at all. But I thought few virile persons ever will-
ingly and consistently practised it. This way of treating sex
was all very well for the naturally stoical or weaklings, but
not for red-blooded, vital men and women of the world whom
the Group were out to win. Further, I felt rather sorry for
the lady described by Garrett Stearly, for she must have
settled down to a very bleak sort of married existence.

God's troubadour again disagreed. He was a married man.
He understood the problem. He told further of a lawyer who
had been in the habit of making large fees from divorce cases,
but was now spending more effort privately showing his
clients God's way to settle their quarrels, and with more suc-
cess than he achieved in his divorce court practice.

Bad for legal business, but good for the Kingdom of
Heaven ! And as he was doing God's will instead of his own
will, even if he lost some good fees, he was not injuring his
true interests, since God's will for a man was always the best.
So Garrett argued doggedly. Fine, lofty teaching. Idealistic
and intriguing, and definitely challenging.

I went back to think. How to adapt this extraordinary
Group to a new religious series? If these people were right,
then we were the newspaper to report their activities. So I
thought at that time. I settled down to read Life-Changers,
and to delve deeper into the origins, the arguments and the
case histories of this remarkable movement.

Chapter Four

THE LIFE-CHANGER

FRANK is a unique character. The story of how his own
life was changed, as told by Harold Begbie in Life-
Changers, is an absorbing and inspiring narrative. Frank is a
character who grows on you in a book, in life. After the first
chapter you want to meet him. When you meet him you may
have reason to wish you hadn't. But if you remove the reason
you will find Frank still there and that you have obtained
release from spiritual defeat.

Life-Changers is now in its fourteenth edition. I learned
from the publisher, who was well pleased with the sales, that
the movement is growing strongly. Though I never met Harold
Begbie, the author, I knew him to be a man of fine character
and, from his writings, a clever journalist. He was engaged
by our powerful rival to write a series of articles to answer
our runaway "My Religion" feature.! thought the series dull.
Instead of writing about the new religious movement at Ox-
ford, he contributed a series describing the modern attitude
towards God. I have since thought that our rival had in its
office the best possible answer to "My Religion" and allowed
it to slip through non-recognition. And now, seven years later,
the movement had come my way.

Harold Begbie scored several successes before he wrote
Life-Changers, including (so everyone said) Mirrors of
Downing Street, a collection of piquant sketches of the men
around King George V during the Great War, but hiding his
authorship under the pen-name "A Gentleman with a Duster."
One or two celebrities received a severe "dusting-down,"
possibly not altogether deserved, from the "Gentleman with
a Duster." I knew some of them.

Not so the human founder of the Oxford Group. Begbie,
at Frank's request, masked the name of his hero under the
initials "F. B.," whom he portrayed with a master's skill. "In
appearance," said Begbie, "F. B. is a young-looking man of
middle life, tall, upright, stoutish, clean-shaven, spectacled,

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with that mien of scrupulous shampooed and almost medical
cleanliness or freshness which is so characteristic of the
hygienic American."

He might have added, "Which is so characteristic of every-
one in the Oxford Group," as I discovered later when travel-
ling with a well-dressed team, whose leader ran an appraising
(or critical) eye over every one of us each time we swung
into his orbit.

Frank is still as scrupulous as ever over his appearance.
He has- a tidy mind and dislikes untidiness at all times. "His
carriage and his gestures," said Begbie, "are distinguished by
an invariable alertness. He never droops, he never slouches.
You find him in the small hours of the morning with the same
quickness of eye and the same athletic erectness of body which
seem to bring a breeze into a breakfast-room. Few men so
quiet and restrained exhale a spirit of such contagious well-
being.

"A crisp accent marks his speech, and is richly noticeable
only when he makes use of colloquialisms. The voice is low
but vigorous, with a sincere ring of friendliness and good-
humour the same friendliness and good-humour which are
characteristic of his manners. He strikes one on meeting as a
warm-hearted and very happy man, who can never know what
it is to be either physically tired or mentally bored."

Then the writer strikes the happiest of all descriptions of
Frank. "I am tempted to think," says he, "that if Mr. Pick-
wick had given birth to a son and that son had emigrated to
America in boyhood he would have been not unlike this
amiable and friendly surgeon of souls. Fuller acquaintance of
*F. B.' brings to one's mind the knowledge that in spite of his
boyish cheerfulness he is of the house and lineage of all true
mystics from Plotinus to Tolstoy."

Several odd experiences of my own (as I had mentioi?. ?d
to Garrett Stearly) had induced me to believe that I possess*/
something of the mystical quality; that "My Religion" hat!
come to me in the true mystical way. That made me all the
more anxious to meet him.

Frank was baptised in infancy, and later confirmed, with-
out any special religious experience to make the occasion

THE LIFE-CHANGER 41

particularly memorable. But illuminating 1 crises were to come
in his life from the time when he was training for the minis-
try, ardently desiring to make converts and puzzled at his in-
eptitude, on through humiliating change and mystical enlight-
enment to extraordinary triumphs among surely the most
difficult material of Great Britain the undergraduates of
Oxford and Cambridge.

The first serious crisis came in Frank's life when a fellow-
student at Mount Airy Seminary, Philadelphia, accused him
of ambition. This accusation smote him severely, and he chose
the most difficult quarter of Philadelphia for his initial labours.
The invitation to his first church was not without humour.
It said, "The question of salary must for the time be left
unstateci" Meaning there could be no stated salary, because
all the money collected for the non-existent church was seven-
teen dollars, mostly in pennies. But someone gave a new
corner shop, and this, under Frank's vigorous direction, grew
speedily into the Church of the Good Shepherd. The locality
was residential, but the hierarchy of the place were already
well looked after when Frank arrived, so he decided to pro-
vide for the spiritual requirements of their servants, who had
no shepherd. He set out to collect a congregation by ringing
the door-bells of the big houses and getting into spiritual
communication with the butlers and housemaids, with such
great success that more than one employer remarked to Frank
at dinner that he had to remain friendly with him to keep
the cook.

The Church of the Good Shepherd flourished, and there
grew out from, it a hospice for young men which developed
into a community of hospices spreading through other cities.
After that Frank founded a Settlement House on the lines of
Toynbee Hall, though definitely Christian, which reached
several hundred persons. Frank still gravitates to this house
whenever he returns to America.

Experience with the younger generation at the hospice
taught Frank how to handle the grown-ups ; especially never
to lose his temper, as no one was likely to pick it up. From a
child he learned later never to laugh at other people's faults
("You are just as funny yourself"). Frank's secret of getting

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boys up early on Sunday mornings was not to scold but to
announce there would be pancakes on the table at nine sharp.
After that all were down on time, some before time.

Sometimes boys drawn from the streets went back to the
gutter again, or would disappear for days, perhaps to be found
in the peanut gallery of some cheap theatre waiting for their
stolen show to begin. These prodigals were welcomed home
in New Testament style.

And now Frank had trouble. Both hospice and settlement
were under the same control a committee of clergy and
laity. After five years there came a clash, bringing about the
second big crisis in Frank's life, and leading presently to the
establishment of the Oxford Group movement. The business
committee were strong on balancing the budget, as business
committees always are. Sometimes the budget would not
balance when the young folk were numerous and hungry.
So the Committee requested Frank to reduce the rations. The
spirit of Oliver Twist stirred within Frank, who resented the
order, and nursed ill-will against the six persons who were
dominating him in this respect.

"Here," he frankly admits, "I failed. I said the Committee
were behaving badly. Yet my work had become my idol. All
I should have done was to resign and let it go at that. Right
in my conviction, I was wrong in harbouring ill-will. I left and
came abroad, my health badly affected by overwork. En route
I had the vision of 'Care' in Horace's Ode, following me on
a charger, always just behind. I could almost hear the horses'
hoofs and feel their breath in the back of my neck.

"Traveling through Italy, and other parts of. the Continent,
I found my way back to England, and so up to Keswick,
where a convention was in progress. And there something
happened ! Something for which I shall always be grateful/'

That experience was the miracle which changed Frank's
course of life and started a new religious movement that may
achieve anything. True to tradition, the miracle did not hap-
pen at the big convention, or at some important church service
addressed by a notable preacher. Again the old story of dip-
ping in Jordan instead of the spectacular plunge into Abanah
or Pharpar, rivers of Damascus. Although Frank attended

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church regularly, he was satisfied with a rather slim diet, and
found comfort in a quotation in a recent sermon he had
heard : "They also serve who only stand and wait." His life
had become a big "I" Self at the centre of the picture! The
refined sin which the average person condones while it walls
him off from power.

A tiny village church. A tiny congregation. A special after-
noon meeting. The speaker a woman! No thunder, no light-
ning, no cloud, no supernatural voice, but a simple, straight-
forward, conversational talk to a gathering of about seventeen
persons, including Frank. The woman speaker spoke about the
Cross of Christ, of the sinner and the One who had made
full satisfaction for the sins of the world.

"A doctrine which I knew as a boy," says Frank, "which
my church believed, which I had always been taught and
which that day became a great reality for me. I had entered
the little church with a divided will, nursing pride, selfishness,
ill-will, which prevented me from functioning as a Christian
minister should. The woman's simple talk personalised the
Cross for me that day, and suddenly I had a poignant vision of
the Crucified.

"There was infinite suffering on the face of the Master,
and I realised for the first time the great abyss separating
myself from Him. That was all. But it produced in me a
vibrant feeling, as though a strong current of life had sud-
denly been poured into me, and afterwards a dazed sense of
a great spiritual shaking-up. There was no longer this feeling
of a divided will, no sense of calculation and argument, of
oppression and helplessness; a wave of strong emotion, fol-
lowing the will to surrender, rose up within me from the
depths of an estranged spiritual life, and seemed to lift my
soul from its anchorage of selfishness, bearing it across that
great sundering abyss to the foot of the Cross.

"With this deeper experience of how the love of God in
Christ had bridged the chasm dividing me from Him, and the
new sense of buoyant life that had come, I returned to the
house feeling a powerful urge to share my experience. There-
upon I wrote to the six committee-men in America against
whom I had nursed the ill-will and told them my experience,

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and how at the foot of the Cross I could only think of my own
sin. At the top of each letter I wrote this verse :

When I survey the wondrous Cross
On which the Prince of Glory died,
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride.

.Then I said :

" 'My DEAR FRIEND,

I have nursed ill-will against you. I am sorry. Forgive
me?

, Yours sincerely,

FRANK.'

"I received no written reply. But that apologetic gesture
meant much to me in a new and complete friendliness when
I met them later on. Some of them are now in Heaven and
some more of us are going there soon."

Frank continues : "I was staying with some friends who had
lately been worldlings but had been changed. They had a son
who was not like-minded, a first year man at Cambridge, and
now thoroughly bored with the Convention meetings. The
family were puzzled to know how to interest him in Christi-
anity. He came in to tea, and I began to share my wonderful
experience and tell how a rapturous joy had come in place of
the ill-will I previously harboured with such inhibiting results.
I said that all my old cares had been dropped overboard. The
young man was immediately interested. How had it all hap-
pened ? Would I walk with him round Derwentwater and talk
further about it? I said I would be glad to, for it was a
whole year since anyone had invited me to that kind of a talk.
Before we returned he, too, decided to make the surrender of
his will to Christ's will. He went to church that night, became
a good Christian, and later a successful barrister. And again
I had the joy of winning a man to Christ.

"A further test of this new; experience came to me later
on when I returned home. Attending church on Christmas
morning, whom should I see in front of me but the person
whom I considered to have wronged me most of all. He had a
bald spot on his head, and at one time, whenever I sat facing

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it in committee meetings, I used to think the letter T was
written all over that spot. That morning I forgot even the
bald spot itself, as the true Christmas spirit of peace on earth,
goodwill to all, reigned in my heart. I naturally wished this
former opponent on the Committee a merry Christmas, and
meant it, though as I did so he was looking on the floor as
if seeking a lost pin. But he, too, wished me a merry Christ-
mas, and appreciated the fact that at the Cross I had learnt
the great truth never to be resentful against anybody, includ-
ing committees."

The foregoing story of the change in his life was told me
by Frank himself some time after I read the summarised
version in Begbie's Life-Changers. At first I was not sur-
prised to learn that Frank received no reply to any one of his
letters, for it seemed to me that his religious zeal had out-
distanced his common sense. Perhaps the recipients thought
so too. Or perhaps they still fostered unpleasant memories
of the kind Frank had just torpedoed. But this did not daunt
his unbroken sense of divine .companionship or his conviction

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that he had done the only right thing, though it made him
understand how impossibly hard it was for a proud heart to
enter the Kingdom of Love.

For light and direction had come at last. As Frank puts it,
he had turned the Big "I" of Self on to its beam end thus
[>4) which left him with only a big minus. He saw that
Christ must be the Big "I" to turn that minus back into a
mighty (^), and by continuing the line of Christ the sym-
bol was now the Cross (iji). Frank's suffering mind had
immediately been healed by a decision to submit his will in
future entirely to the Will of God. His crisis was not a crisis
of the emotions, but a crisis of the will. Once the will had
been surrendered, the emotional experience followed. The
will is the root, the emotion the fruit. Frank saw clearly now
that all success demands the whole will at the back of it. A
man cannot be happy in a life of vice so long as he is con-
scious ,of moral scruples ; conversely, he cannot be happy in a
life of virtue so long as he compromises with vice.

Frank now realised that the demand of both worlds is
identical the whole heart! And so realising, he found a great
happiness through the decision to exert his unified will in the

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service of One who proclaimed the reality of the spiritual
world and pronounced the values of materialism illusory. Now
he perfectly understood that what hindered him long ago from
making this decision was sin, which must be completely ex-
cluded from the life of the child of God.

Sin was anything done contrary to the Will of God, as
shown in the New Testament or by direct guidance. There
was no complete catalogue of sins for everybody, since what
was sin to one might not always be sin to another. Sin might
be drunkenness or pride, murder or dishonesty, selfishness
or refusal to love God or one's neighbour, coveting another
man's wife, or loving the husband of another woman. It
might be over-eating or vain boasting, laziness or over-calling
your partner at bridge. It might be wasting money on the
racecourse, at roulette or in a night-club, or refusing to trust
God at all times. It might be high-hatting someone poorly
dressed, lying about the time you left the office, as to what
you owed the butcher or lost at cards. It might be unwilling-
ness to play the Good Samaritan to a broken-down motorist,
or being ashamed to offer your seat to a weary char-woman
on the street car. It might be pride in the pulpit, a desire to
make a hit with the congregation instead of to reveal Christ.
It might be graft or greed, pugnacity or fear, waste or mean-
ness, aversion or perversion. Such sins and all others were
included in the one major sin of independence towards God,
Who should be first, last, and all the time as taught in the
Ten Commandments and the New Testament.

In other words, Frank had undertaken a crusade to be
absolutely for the absolute: to live the maximum life which
all Christians held, but few constantly essayed. To the average
man a decision to let God so deal with sin that He would
accompany him every day everywhere is a terrifying thought.
To Frank it was the only logical step. It was the starting-
point from which Abraham, Paul, Francis, Booth, Muller,
Moody and the other religious leaders all moved forward to
great achievement. To Frank and his friends this uncondi-
tional surrender of everything between them and God meant
the grandest adventure of all time: unquestionably the grand-
est possible adventure in an unadventurous age of dull pov-
erty and depression, unbelief and debasing licence. It meant

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the thrills of a Columbus voyage, pioneering trials in new
countries, risks of going over the top, persistent poverty in
the midst of luxury ,, living hour by hour on faith and prayer
with exposure to ridicule inside and outside the churches,
misunderstanding and ceaseless misrepresentation. It meant
voluntarily facing up to every challenging obstacle that has
lured the boldly aspiring and adventurous to triumph or dis-
aster through all the ages.

Moreover, it meant a relentless crusade to induce other men
and women not only to believe in the possibility of living the
victorious life, but to live it. To found a new community of
saints, always ready to be fools for Christ, always care-less
and care- free in an age of blank and blind materialism. To
call together an interdenominational band of lay friars, Spirit-
guided and controlled, who would roam the world with no
visible means of income, living on God's manna as God's
warriors, while out-living, out-loving, out-laughing all in a
glorious new crusade to redeem the world from the thousand
enticements of sin in a luxury-loving, security-seeking, sen-
sual civilisation.

This Pickwickian life-changer was well aware that he had
undertaken a Herculean job requiring wise slogans and wiser
methods. He pondered long on the problem of the ages : how
to get rid of sin sin in black capitals; sin among Pagans,
sin among Christians. He knew that^sin was everywhere : in
the office, in the factory; in the home, in the pulpit; in the
college, in the theological hall. He must take nobody for
granted, because sin was insidiously pervasive. Sin, which the
preacher opposed perhaps without having mastered. Sin,
which the Pagan took as a pleasant drug, while the Christian
smiled, shrugged, and publicly condemned. There were few
to warn wisely, and fewer still to show both Pagan and Chris-
tian how to overcome.

And, pondering, Frank evolved what he thought was an
answer to the eternal problem of sin, "The degree of our
freedom from sin is the degree of our desire to be free. If
we complain that we are slaves to sin, we are really saying
that we love sin and desire it. Sin can only live in the heart
that does not love goodness with all its strength. Only a feeble-
ness of desire for God enables sin to be a tyrant. It will dis-

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appear as though it had never been immediately one craves
for righteousness wholeheartedly."

Sin happens between the look and the thought. First the
look, then the thought, then the fascination, and then the fall.
But it may be only the fall in thought, Frank argued. And
so, knowing that "blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall
see God," Frank set out on what he believed to be his Spirit-
given task of causing people to hate sin so intensely as to
forsake it, and to love goodness so thoroughly as always to
follow it. Consequently every reasonable opportunity must
be used to expose sin as a loathsome cancer in a person's life,
preventing him from self-fulfilment and from becoming a
miracle-worker. So Frank insists that one should hate sin,
confess sin and forsake sin. Confession has a treble effect:
it raises an obstacle to repetition of the sin, since it may mean
another unpleasant confession ; it is a warning guide to others,
and it produces a sense of release and cleanliness of spirit.
Though the offence is purged by the Cross of Christ.

Further, he believes that wherever reasonably possible one
should not only confess a sin to the person sinned against, but
make restitution. Distasteful though this teaching is, it has
a strong appeal to the highest spirits, aiid has often been used
to change the lives of those confessed to as well as of those
who confessed. For though it was Christ Who forgave, it was
only the convert who could repair the wrong he had done, a
duty as plainly obvious for the changed man as for a bellicose
country that despoiled an inoffensive neighbour.

Here, then, was the reason why Garrett Stearly was sen-
sitive to the possibility of a sin that might be walling me off
from God. If I had admitted such, he might have urged me
to undertake a few missions of confession or restitution. In-
stinctively I disagreed with the doctrine, which seemed to
contain much that was dangerous, particularly to my own self-
esteem. Yet I saw no objection to anyone else making confes-
sion of the sins he had committed or restitution for the wrong
he had done except myself !

And now let Loudon Hamilton, one of Frank's friends and
earliest captures, formerly a master at Eton, and at present
leader of the Oxford Group in Scotland, tell you, as he told
me, the inspiring story of how Frank arrived in Oxford

THE LIFE-CHANGER 49

guided to put his challenging convictions into operation in the
intellectual centre of England. Especially do I recall the way
in which Loudon .expressed his feeling of boredom, with a
tinge of vague curiosity, at being asked to meet "an American
professor from Cambridge." (Frank had spent a short time
in Cambridge at the request of two bishops before coming to
Oxford at the request of a third.) The rest of this chapter is
in Loudon Hamilton's words :

"Care to meet a man from Cambridge?"

This somewhat mystifying request from a Rugger (foot-
ball) -playing Rhodes scholar floated across the quad one sum-
mer evening in 1921. We do have manners, so we said, "Yes."
Our Rhodes athlete brought forward a man of middle size with
manners and clothes that gave no clue to his job, but his eyes
were large and alert. Thus entered Frank to Oxford. There
were no announcements, no advertisements. Yet there began
then in Oxford an influence admittedly more far-reaching
than most of .the organised, patronised, and authorised move-
ments in religion.

One man had entered Oxford carrying a vital message,
himself in tune and touch with God.

We invited him to .attend our Philosophic fortnightly meet-
ing. At first, it was a serious evening in the wrong sense.
The occasion was a philosophic debate we became very pro-
found. Who was it who wittily said that in Oxford we don't
always stop talking when we have finished what we have
to say?

Eleven o'clock came so far Frank had said nothing. Com-
ing from Cambridge, this was unexpected so he had to be
asked. Picture the crowd : ninety per cent, ex-officer under-
graduates, from majors downwards; men with reputations
from the Intelligence Service, from the Navy, veterans of
twenty-one or twenty-two with rows of medals never seen
or referred to; men who have since gone into important posi-
tions in Education, Civil Service, Diplomacy and Empire-
building.

There were the men of influence in college. Most of them
played games or rowed, some really well. On Sunday a few
very few would, go to chapel. Now we were deep in arm-

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chairs and the air was delicious with Dunhills. The moment
Frank began, the atmosphere changed. He picked up some
thread in the discussion and used that to weave his pattern.
He began to tell of changed lives. His language was untheo-
logical. He described the changes in men so like ourselves that
interest was riveted at once.

How else could it have been done? By sermons? By up-
lifting appeals? By philosophic subtleties? All these were
familiar, but here was something new. Or was it new? At
least fresh, and therefore interesting. Somehow our debate
had been forgotten. We went out saying to one another,
"What do you think of this fellow ?" A thing of rare courage
had been done among men accustomed to courage of another
sort. It rather took our breath away, leaving more than a note
of interrogation.

One of the men least likely to respond followed it up. He
suggested we have Frank to breakfast next morning. Prob-
ably, I thought, he would ask us about our souls. That wasn't
done certainly not at breakfast. So we ordered a large quan-
tity of food to keep him busy, a device that was only mod-
erately successful. He began to tell us of a head mistress of
the apparently dowager variety who wanted to know what to
do with a girl who had stolen.

By way of making a disarming reply he turned to her and
said, "When did you steal last?" This story delicately drew
admissions from ourselves that we had been similarly de-
linquent. It suggested a shifted emphasis. Was this where to
begin in the search for truth ? Maybe it was. I had recent and
painful recollections of having gone to New College Com-
memoration Ball without paying for the ticket, and so I de-
cided to send the money. The surprised committee replied by
sending an invitation to the next ball.

A week or two later Frank returned to Oxford with three
Cambridge men to spend the week-end. They came to tell us
what their contact with Frank had meant to them. Yet they
were not speaking about a man. These men were not the type
that one generally associates with religious enthusiasm; one
of them was a leading Cambridge Rugger Blue (football letter-
man), the other two were ex-officers of the cultured, attractive
type. More than that, they seemed to have a radiance, subtle

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yet distinct, in their faces and manners and a good-fellowship
among themselves that were as attractive as they were un-
forced.

That evening in our rooms these men spoke easily, yet
convincingly, of a new power that had come into their lives
to help them with their problems. They immediately captured
the attention of the Oxford men. Granted that it was doing
what was not done I.e., talking about personal religion yet
it was done in a way that could offend no one, but only gain
their confidence and sympathy.

Their words were the words of honest men out to share
something good with anyone who had the sense to receive it.
The Rugger Blue was walking round the quad with an Ox-
ford man on either arm. He seemed to get to know them
better in one evening than we had in two years. There was
something distinctly challenging in the quality of these men's
lives and words.

Following their visit, groups of men would drift together
in the quad and discuss this apparently new thing. Discussion
rapidly changed to a deeper interest, even to astonishment,
when it became known that some of the atheists and agnos-
tics were different. There was abroad in the College an air
of expectancy what was this all about?

The opportunity soon came to find out. Word came of a
suggested house-party in a Cambridge College during the vaca-
tion. It might be interesting to go and see it. A word here of
personal explanation. That intervening month was one of the
most disturbed periods of my life. Plans had gone wrong and
the future was uncertain. I realised that such efforts as I had
made in philosophy to find a basis of life had after all proved
very largely fruitless.

Going from school of thought to school of thought, I had
found each to be a floating island. Already the noise of the
cataract was sounding in my ears. The cataract for me was
the abandonment of all attempt to solve the riddle of the
universe and definitely to accept a cynical materialism as the
only 'solution. We had been caught up in the clouds of philo-
sophic controversy and theoretical finesse; we had become
academic, detached from life, and without any real solution

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for the questions of peace of mind, happiness, and freedom
from the bondage of temptation and sin.

I had been brought up to believe in the Christian message,
and that conviction remained. Yet I had never been able to
find out how Jesus Christ Himself might become a personal
reality in my own life. I naturally shrank from any such
discussion with my friends. Conventional religion had failed ;
so one was thrown back upon a religion of one's own manu-
facture, the product of the code of behaviour commonly ac-
cepted and in certain respects rigidly enforced in a Public
School, the Regular Army, and the 'Varsity.

Yet this self-made religion did not seem to work much
better. There were still things wrong in my life and, more
serious, getting worse. It was this last fact which the Group
compelled me to face. I took refuge in flippancies and cyni-
cism, yet they only intensified the difficulty. What was life
all about, after all ?

At this moment an invitation arrived from Frank to go
to the Cambridge house-party. Providentially also an aunt
sent some money. We had always understood that there was
a University at Cambridge, and it might be rather interesting
to see it. Also, what would Frank and his friends be doing
at a house-party? It was all a little intriguing. We would
have shrunk from anything emotional or sentimental, and we
were bored with the conventional terminology of religion.
The very word "religion" was anathema. Yet there was none
of these things at the house-party.

It was a mixed crowd sinners, happy and unhappy, saints
and would-be saints. They were all men, almost of an age,
but with very different backgrounds and points of view.
Religion would have been the last thing they would ordi-
narily have been willing to discuss or agree upon. We intro-
duced ourselves, laughed very genuinely, and began to enjoy
ourselves. There were some thirty men present. Very soon
we were entirely at ease with each other.

Get the contrast. An older man of a different nationality
was able in an effortless, unassertive sort of way to induce
men hitherto strangers to one another to talk without affecta-
tion or self-consciousness of the things which most deeply
occupied their minds. There was a rare freedom from pose

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or preaching. The language was colloquial. The laughter was
contagious.

It soon became clear that one of two things had to happen
either one remained aloof and left, or else one stayed and
was honest. Both these courses seemed equally disagreeable.
By the last afternoon the necessity to decide was imperative.
Four of us had been playing tennis and tea was just over.
The discomfort of my false position had become intolerable.
I had decided to be honest, with a full conviction that these
men, clean, intelligent, healthy, would never have anything
more to do with me.

Then an absurd longing to confess something dramatic or
heroic; yet that would have been futile. There was only one
thing for it to face the facts. To my astonishment and re-
lief, the others were equally honest. False reserve had gone.
Quite naturally we knelt down and prayed. That was the
turning-point. At last there was a rift in the clouds. The
meeting that evening was memorable.

The new quality of honesty became infectious. It con-
tinued to operate the following term at Oxford. Old friends
began asking the reasons for new changes. A group of six
met one night. A few nights later another six men were in-
vited. Forty-four men actually turned up, and we adjourned
to the Junior Common Room. Four of the men had fortified
themselves before coming and were~slightly tipsy.

The vitriol of their attacks somehow failed to penetrate
the charm and reality of the atmosphere. We were definitely
on the side of the angels. The message had established itself
among us, and to oppose it was not primarily a sin against
God, but a breach of good form. Prayer was offered publicly
from a University pulpit thanking God for the illumination
that had come to Oxford.

Chapter Five

THE FIRST HOUSE-PARTY

THE scene is the Chinese Legation in a South American
country. The speaker is the Chinese Minister, tall, angu-
lar, intellectual. After giving an official dinner, he is on his
feet telling his extraordinary life-story, and of how he risked
his head being carried on a pole down the streets of his native
city (of which he was the Governor) rather than give up
Christianity at the behest of an all-powerful Soviet agent,
just installed to communise his native province. But he had
met Frank before he met the agent. Having imbibed Frank's
message, he informed the communiser that he was quite ready
to have his head taken down the streets of his native city
on a pole, but unready to give up Jesus Christ, his personal
Friend.

What so changed a Chinese Minister, one of the foremost
men in his country, that he risked death rather than alter
his basis of life, and incidentally gave the first house-party
of a new movement that is developing largely through house-
parties? Here is the remarkable story.

Frank was working in the mountains of China when one
day a friend said that, since he was so concerned about
changing people, why did he not try to change a friend of
his. The future Chinese Minister was then described a fine
diplomat and a great lawyer, in the foremost rank of the
profession, and the legal adviser of the former President.

While studying abroad, this lawyer had become a Christian.
On his return he was made a member of the Church Vestry
and Treasurer of the Y.M.C.A. He surmised that it was
because he would meet any debts when the financial year
ended. He knew the church-people were criticising his habits
at the club. But as they failed to meet his deepest needs and
were caustic about some of his practices, he kept to his club
and Mah-Jong.

One day the Chinese diplomat invited Frank to his house
to tea. The host brought cocktails to entertain the foreigner,

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and Frank said "No." A charming tray of cigarettes was
likewise waved away with thanks. But Frank noticed the
lawyer's hands were stained and his nerves in shocking con-
dition through too much nicotine and other things. His hands
shook. The Chinese lawyer-diplomat talked a lot about him-
self and of his vast interests, while Frank thought that here
was another of the poor, poor rich men, and tried to find
some common bond of interest. His roving eye spotted a
tennis-racket, and they had a game. This led the lawyer to
invite Frank to a feast. Frank had long since decided always
to accept an invitation to a Chinese feast. (Long dinners of
thirty or more courses beginning with eggs twenty years old,
"tasting luscious, like cheese/' followed by seaslugs, fish,
fowl, and so on and on and on, until the chrysanthemum
leaves dipped in marvellous sweets arrived.)

With the twenty-year-old eggs tucked safely away and
the knowledge that he could skilfully dip his chopsticks into
the great central dish, Frank began to feel happy. As his host
took a different wine for each course, and as there were
thirty-seven courses, he grew talkative as the evening
advanced.

Frank had no need of his host's offer to send him home
in a chair carried by six coolies; but he accepted. Next morn-
ing's Quiet Time told him to send his new friend an invita-
tion to a return dinner, which was accepted too : just an
English meal of soup, joint, cabbage, sweets, with no wines.
A bishop and an archdeacon were present, and after the meal
some of them began to share their religious experiences for
the spiritual benefit of the visiting lawyer-diplomat. He, how-
ever, held aloof, sitting in one corner and looking like a huge
question-mark.

Frank's story that evening was of an experience when
crossing an American town and feeling impelled to accost a
well-dressed man whom he sensed to be in deep need. Not
being quite certain of the guidance, he decided on a com-
promise test. If the stranger stopped at the next lamp-post
he would speak to him. The man stopped !

The Chinese lawyer-diplomat now grew interested as Frank
told how he went up to the stranger and asked if he was in
need.

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"Of. course I am in need," he said anxiously.

"Then I think God must have sent me to you," said Frank.

"Of course it was God," he said, and told how his mother
was at that moment dying in a near-by hospital. He had come
out for a little fresh air.

Together they walked along with that sense of deep fel-
lowship which comes when God drives one man into another
man's life. Frank shared with the stranger the story of his
own father's and brother's home-going, and how he was con-
vinced of the life beyond the grave.

The stranger said he had heard preachers talk about these
things, but not ordinary people, and was grateful for the
consoling conversation. His seven brothers and sisters were
waiting at the hospital yonder. Would Frank come and cheer
them up? Frank went. The stranger begged him not to leave
the hospital until they had prayed together in the chapel.
Frank agreed.

At Easter there came to him a card, then a wire announcing
the mother's home-going ; and later a letter of deep gratitude.

The lawyer-diplomat was now intrigued. Frank says it is
marvellous how all things fit in when working with God.
At that moment a baby typhoon was raging outside, though
not enough to raise the roofs, and there were sheets of rain.
Frank invited his. guest to stay the night. The visitor pro-
tested that he must go: his wife was waiting for him.

"You've kept your wife waiting many times," hazarded
Frank, and the guest smiled agreement.

Then he pleaded the coolies : they must get home. Frank
said the coolies, too, would be glad to stay, as three had been
eaten by tigers over in the valley recently. But where could
the visitor stay? was the next objection. There was a spare
bed in Frank's room, and the offer was accepted, none too
eagerly. When they entered the bedroom, Frank reached for
his Bible and invited his guest to read his favourite chapter.
Most Christians, according to Frank, try to read the Bible to
other people.

"That is the wrong way. Have them read to you."

The visitor went all through the Old Bible, as he called
the Old Testament, trying to find his favourite chapter, and
failed to find any familiar reading. He went through the New

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Testament with similar bad luck. The second time he went
more cautiously, hoping circumstances would favour him. But
luck was still against him. Then he did what a good many
do tried a lucky dip* The luck still went against him. He
turned up a chapter in the Old Testament full of hard names
and plentifully sprinkled with begats, but did what every
good lawyer always does read it through from beginning to
end. Frank suggested prayer. He replied :

"You pray."

Frank prayed, and they went to sleep. Next morning the
boy brought tea, but the lawyer was unwilling or unable to
wake. The host made many attempts to wake him, but he
was unresponsive. Presently, after a great deal of yawning
and stretching, the Chinese guest opened his eyes and slyly
asked Frank if he thought reading the Bible had put him so
soundly to sleep.

"Perhaps so," grinned the host. "Shall we read another
chapter ?"

"You read."

"I did," says Frank, "and his eyes almost popped out of
his head, though I read only three verses."

The lawyer-diplomat asked for the verses to be read again,
saying they just fitted him. Frank read them again. They
were out of the sixth chapter of the First Epistle to the
Corinthians. The reader may guess what the verses were. At
this stage the lawyer revealed why he did not want to stay
the night. It was because he had not brought his little pill.
His doctor provided him with a pill to put him to sleep and
another to wake him up.

"You are the only one to whom I've told that little secret,"
confessed the visitor, showing that the mask was beginning
to come off.

After breakfast Frank told the boy to bring tea, the Chinese
sign that the guest is now at liberty to depart. But the visitor
was now eager to stay and talk. Frank had a meeting at 10.30
at a friend's house, and the lawyer decided to go with him.
Frank's theme at this meeting was "Having too much of the
good things of life."

"Those words apply to me," said the lawyer.

"That's why you heard them," said Frank.

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"Then you planned the meeting for me?"

"Of course."

Frank believes in saying the right things to people who
come to hear him. The lawyer was now intensely interested
and asked Frank to lunch next day. Should it be English
food or Chinese?

"Chinese," said Frank.

The other said he preferred foreign food, as Chinese was
too rich, though that was not the real reason. Frank's Quiet
Time that morning had solved for him the problem of what
to say to this man in need should they lunch together. The
two things which had come to him were that the lawyer would
be a great force in changing the life of another man, and
that they would pray together before lunch was over. They
had three minutes before lunch for a chat, and during that
time Frank told him what his guidance had been. Whereupon
the lawyer pulled out his notebook and told him that God
had given him more guidance than Frank, for he had written
down the name of the person whom he wanted to help. And
he read out to Frank the name of a big industrialist. They
prayed.

Then came lunch, at which were present the lawyer's Chris-
tian wife, Confucian mother, his children and governesses.
During the lunch the lawyer shared with his wife and family
some of the thoughts which had been in his mind, and said
that when he married he led his wife to believe he was a real
Christian. He had not succeeded in living the life, though
the real hunger to do so was always there. But during the
last few days he had made up his mind that Christ was going
to have the first place in his life. Some of the things he did
not want to do he was going to ask permission to do. One
of these was to be a Chairman of the Religious Work De-
partment to help the Chinese.

His mother was as deeply impressed as his wife, though
she was a Confucian and took her little cruse of olive oil
and incense taper every morning as a votive-offering to the
gods. She, too, became a Christian as a result of that memora-
ble lunch.

The lawyer-diplomat had become a leading figure in China's
Nationalist movement when Frank next met him. At that

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time Frank and his team were helping a great Christian for-
ward movement which added some four hundred members to
the cathedral church of the city, and so astonished the Bishop
that he became Frank's friend and admirer for life, his own
son joining the Oxford Group as one of its leaders. The
novel condition of entry for one cathedral service at this
time was that each Christian brought a non-Christian with
him. An official disregarded this stipulation, thinking himself
privileged, and so was turned away. Instead of feeling in-
dignant, he returned with three "tickets," his only comment
being : "Why didn't you ask me to do this before ?"

The Bishop's observation on this service was that he had
now learned to see that every person in his diocese must be
a force and not a field.

Next there came the first of a long series of house-parties
through which the Oxford Group does much of its work,
held in the country home of this lawyer-diplomat-Governor,
who made a splendid host. Some of the eighty persons at-
tending came from long distances necessitating six days of
travel, and all brought together by the miracle of one changed
Chinese lawyer-diplomat. From that gathering there sprang
the first Chinese missionary society undertaking to man one
of the unoccupied Chinese provinces with Chinese life-
changers supported with Chinese money. And further, before
the Governor departed for his high post as Chinese Minister
abroad, he was instrumental in changing the prominent in-
dustrialist concerning whom he had his first guidance.

Those early days of Frank's in China are still a talking-
point for Christian workers in all parts of the world. The
late Bishop Lewis of China wrote saying the work Frank
and his team did in the Far East had meant more to foreign
and Chinese leadership than any single movement during his
twenty-eight years in China.

1 Everywhere Frank goes he leaves behind him a trail of
converts of all nationalities, which may open up for him a
wider work, as in the case of the boy Victor. Picture the
Hanchenjunga Range of the great Himalayas, white tents of
Abraham hanging in the heavens. Here in this wonderful
country was being held a schoolboys' camp, including many

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who needed help. One of the helpers was a master from a
well-known English public school. He invited Frank to assist
him in the case of one Victor, the real problem of the camp.
Victor refused to attend lectures, preferring to skylark about,
releasing the tent-pegs and making himself happy at others*
expense. The masters had met and decided that Victor must
go home, but they thought he should first have a word with
Frank.

"Have you talked with the boy?" Frank asked.

"No. We've talked about him."

Frank observes that some persons talk about another, but
never with him. He suggested that was the first thing to
have done, and promised he would see the lad at 10.30. The
time came, but no Victor, and at tiffin (the mid-day meal)
the master asked if Frank had had an interesting conversation
with Victor.

"No Victor," said Frank.

"Oh, but he promised me."

"Victor may have said 'yes/ but he meant 'no,' " observed
Frank.

Another appointment was made for 2.30, usually the hot
period of the Indian afternoon when everybody wants to be
asleep under the cooling punkah. Two-thirty came.

"Well, did you have a pleasant chat with Victor?"

The master received the same answer.

"He promised me," repeated the master, which suggested
a rather wooden approach to a boy.

The master then invited Frank to address the meeting that
evening, which he agreed to do, but could not guarantee to
make his address just personal to Victor, as there were so
many other needs requiring to be met in a variety of boys.
That night he spoke in a beautiful little chapel, and in the
middle of the talk in came the master, following an unsuc-
cessful effort to lure Victor away from a boat on the canal
on a liquid moonlight night.

"And who could blame Victor for staying away?" is
Frank's aside as he tells the story.

The master was in dead earnest, for Frank observed him
later praying for Victor and himself and for light on how
best to deal with the errant lad.

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On the following Sunday morning, at about eleven, the
master came running in to Frank, announcing: "I've got
Victor !" Frank must come at once. He went, expecting to find
Victor seated in a chair all ready to be interviewed. Instead
he was shown a little knoll and Victor and another lad playing
a farewell game before leaving on the two-thirty train. How
the master expected Frank to lasso the elusive Victor and
draw him back to the camp he did not know. But he stealthily
approached, for Victor whose conscience was busy about
those dodged interviews was very wary. The boys were
playing with bamboo canes, which they twirled with cart-
wheel effect, requiring much practice and dexterity. As Victor
twirled, Frank's cheery voice rang out :

"Hullo, Victor!"

Victor was completely surprised, and Frank followed up
his advantage. "You do that jolly well, Victor. I wish I could
do it."

"You try," said Victor, quite naturally.

Frank tried unsuccessfully, and Victor enjoyed his con-
fusion. Frank turned to Victor's friend and said :

"Do you mind excusing us ?"

The other lad walked away, looking regretfully back, like
Lot's wife.

Frank and Victor went into a tent, and as they were sit-
ting down Frank said: "I went to a camp once and didn't
like it a bit."

Victor grew brighter. "Were you like that?"

"Yes, of course."

"lam, too."

"What's the reason?"

"I suppose," said Victor, "because there's something wrong
inside. I feel rebellious."

"Was that why you pulled up the tent-pegs ?"

"Yes. I felt I'd be in trouble, and so I didn't want to see
anyone or be bothered with people."

Frank told the boy he understood and hated most things
he hated. They yarned along. Then the boy said he was sorry.

"How much are you sorry? Do you know what remorse
is?"

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"Oh yes, I know. That's sorrow for sin when you go
ahead and do it again."

"Then what do you think you need?"

"Repentance."

"What's that?"

"Oh, that's when a fellow's sorry enough to quit!"

The boy's definitions so impressed Frank that he has used
them ever since. He began to talk to the lad about having
so interesting a companion that he always understood and
so compelling a friend that he never wished to run away
from him.

"I know who that is/' said the boy. "That's Christ I'd
like to be a Christian, but I don't know how."

Frank said he would try to show him. He explained that
his difficulty had begun with the letter "I," which was the
middle letter of sin. "Sin blinds, binds, multiplies, darkens,
deafens, deadens. What we need is faith. When we are per-
fectly willing to forsake sin and, follow Christ, then joy and
release come. What we want to do is to get in touch with
Him and turn our lives over to Him. Where should we go
to do it?"

At once the lad replied :

"There's only one place on our knees."

The lad prayed one of those powerful, simple prayers
which are so quickly heard by Him Who made the eye and
the ear: "O Lord, manage me, for I cannot manage myself."

They rose and talked about development in the Christian

life, Frank insisting that the real way to grow was to help

other people. The lad said he felt as though a big burden had

, vf alien off .him,, a lot of old luggage that was no good had

Dolled away. He wondered why it had not happened before.

The new feeling just suited him, and he must go and tell

his friends.

The master had gone to the railway station, and so Frank
accompanied Victor there. On their way they saw a man
being taken off to prison. As Frank saw the rope binding
him to the red-capped guards, he exclaimed : "Oh, that's a
sad sight ! That man's a slave."

"I was a slave until this morning," volunteered the changed
boy. "Now I'm free."

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"Is that how you feel?"

"Yes, I'm as light as air."

While Victor was buying the ticket, the master came up,
saying he had observed a wonderful change already in the
lad. He looked different. What had happened?

Frank said: "Ask Victor. We believe in keeping con-
fidences."

But what was Victor doing at this moment? As Frank
looked down the platform, his curiosity got the better of him.
Moving down, he saw Victor talking in a friendly way to
the shackled prisoner, who had become communicative.

"What did you say to him ?" asked Frank, as Victor came
up.

"I told him I was sorry about him and that I was like
him once. That I was a slave to sin and a prisoner. I told
him that Paul was a prisoner too, though he was really a
free man. And that he could be a free man. And that I hoped
to see him when he came out to tell him more about it."

Victor had made a quick start.

As the man was hungry from his dusty walk, Victor bought
him a curry and rice, which he gratefully accepted.

Several weeks later Frank was staying with friends in
Victor's home-city and was invited to go for a Sunday after-
noon drive. He said he preferred to stay in the city to see
a young fellow who had experienced a real change. His host
thought it a poor programme for a hot afternoon. Frank went
to the college and asked for Victor, and was elated to find
he was down in the Mohammedan quarter conducting a re-
ligious service. That evening Frank told his host the full
story, and found him so interested that it was difficult to gel
him to bed. He thought it incredible that so great a change
could be wrought in a modern boy. It was like the miracles
of the New Testament over again.

"Why, not try it yourself?" suggested Frank. "People are
hungry for someone to come along and do it."

Next morning Frank went early to breakfast with Victor,
who brought in some of his changed college friends to whom
he had passed on the message.

A few weeks later Frank was in a distant part of the coun-

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try when he encountered a Bishop with whom he was to stay
for a few weeks. The Bishop's first words were:
"I don't need any introduction to you. I've seen Victor!"
Because of Frank's success with Victor, that Bishop in-
vited him to interview an undergraduate at Oxford ; and that
interview, in turn, developed into the Oxford Group
Movement.

Chapter Six

THE OXFORD GROUP

FRANK is at heart a pioneer missionary. A fine linguist,
a happy travel companion, he rarely stays in one coun-
try for a long period* Here, there and everywhere he is being
used to start groups of changed people; then he hurries away
to another town or country, according to the leading of the
Spirit. When first I heard of him he was travelling through
South America ; he knows China like the Chinese ; he is thor-
oughly at home in Germany, the Netherlands, India, America,
Africa, and Australia. He has even penetrated to Iceland,
and knows what many Englishmen do not that Iceland is
not part of the British Empire, but a Danish possession.

Sometimes Frank has been dubbed "a missionary to mis-
sionaries" because of his zeal and love for the Gospel message
and his efforts to help every Christian to achieve maximum
efficiency. When choosing leaders to supervise the Groups in
his absence, Frank frequently shows himself inspired, as with
the leader he left in charge of the Group at Oxford. Ken
Twitchell is a handsome young Princetonian with engaging
manners who suddenly changed, and later took his degree at
Balliol, Oxford. He is one of those charming Americans who
delight Englishmen.

One fine week-end in February I ran down to Oxford to
see Ken Twitchell and the Oxford Group in action. Ken
asked me to dinner, and I found myself in a comfortably-
furnished home occupying a corner site just off the Banbury
Road. For some years Ken and his wife Marian and family
have been living without salary on faith and prayer, which
evidently did not mean they had to reside in a log cabin. For
dinner there was no wine. A glass of water was placed before
me.

"What is the Group teaching about smokes and drinks?"
I asked.

"What do you think?"

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That is the characteristic Group answer. The decision is
left to you. Rigidity over details is unpopular. There are
principles in the Fellowship, but no rigid rules. Throw a
question at the Group and it comes back to you. Here are
certain facts. Interpret them as you think best under God's
guidance. "Do anything God lets you." That is the guiding
theory of the Group, and that gives freedom.

Garrett Stearly was once a slave to cigarette-smoking. For
him it had become a sin which must be surrendered, though
not necessarily by others. Not an easy thing for Garrett. He
won his battle with a struggle.

At another meeting I heard a newcomer ask for a ruling
on liquor. Again the reply:

"What do you think?"

A dark, handsome Englishman said he had been striving
to help some friends addicted to drunkenness. His guidance
was definitely to cut out liquor himself, or how could he hope
to influence them? Unless he was prepared to sacrifice his
own pleasure for their sake, he was not completely inter-
preting the teachings of Christ and His Apostles for which
the Group stood. Again the old teaching that Paul enunciated :
If meats (or drinks for that matter) caused his brother to
offend he would eat (or drink) no more of the offending
food (or drink). Again nothing new in the thought, though
a definite transition from theory to practice. And this in
Oxford University, where nearly everybody smoked and
drank. Here again the -noun had become the verb : the theory
the life. A truth commonplace in Christianity had regained
its old uncommon lustre through translation into action.

Ken Twitchell brought out his car an aged Morris pur-
chased when the open tourer was an English fashion. He
drove me down to Corpus Christi College. It was half-past
eight on Sunday evening. The night was beautiful and cold,
with a full moon riding above the castellated roofs of the
colleges brightly illuminating the great quadrangle of Christ
Church college of the elect, where Frank had made his debut
as we passed under Tom Tower across to the flagged clois-
ters of Corpus Christi. Delicate tracery of college pinnacles
made a network of shadows along our pathway to the well-
trodden stairs leading us to the Chaplain's rooms. I was too

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stirred by the beauty of old Oxford under a full moon to
speculate on what awaited me as we entered. Was this a reli-
gious meeting, a lecture, or a concert? Very like the lecture-
room of the Household Brigade, O.C.B., with the same fine-
looking company of virile young men of the Guardee type
crowding the room, occupying every chair, or sitting, knees
drawn up, on the scanty floor-space. Several sat about the door
as we entered ; others crowded the dais or tucked themselves
into odd corners. A happy, homely meeting. No formality of
clothes or conduct; lounge suits, plus fours, coloured ties;
good feeling, some healthy laughter, though nothing forced,
ribald, or irreverent.

No juvenile Pecksniffs here, but faces that shone. This
Oxford Group Number One Group of a chain of groups
around the world was something very fresh and very mod-
ern. The atmosphere was religious but not sentimental. These
young men were polished and sophisticated. Knowing the
world, they had already elected to know only Christ, by de-
liberate preference. There was a Don or two present. A young
man of twenty-five named Francis Elliston, son of an M.P.,
held open on his knee what I assumed to be his guidance-
book, to which he occasionally referred as he developed his
story.

A couple of chairs were immediately vacated for our bene-
fit, while the room became more crowded as the trickle of
undergraduates continued through the constantly-opening
door. All the same cheery type. No roysterers attempting to
disturb the meeting. I wished there were. Before the meeting
ended we were to hear from one who first came in tipsy
with a bunch of gay spirits, to find, not a new entertainment,
but a new life !

The leader announced that if there were more arrivals we
should have to copy the real-estate people and "move to
larger and more commodious premises." Almost immediately
we were ordered to take up our chairs and descend to a bigger
room below. When the shuffling had subsided, the leader raised
a laugh by giving the limit of accommodation of the new
room. "If we get more than that," he drily added, "we shall
pass the safety factor again. And I would remind you the
blast furnace is immediately below us."

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There we sat in our first meeting of the Oxford Group,
poised above a potential inferno, a Dantesque location for a
new religious movement. Still the undergraduates swarmed in.

The meeting was thrown open for witness on the usual
Group lines. I was doubtful if they would get many of the
undergraduates on their feet. A lad on my left jumped up
and began to address the meeting. He spoke sensibly, with
feeling, while he quietly described his endeavours during the
past week to lead the life lived by the early Christians. His
story gave me a new thrill. One had heard reformed char-
acters telling the old, old story in the market square, fervent
evangelists speaking at revival meetings, old-fashioned ora-
tors in village Bethels, young women volunteering good ad-
vice at Christian Endeavour meetings, and disregarded
tub-thumpers in the parks. But this was different. The simple
story told here in Corpus Christi seemed to make Christianity
more real than before. The life was being lived more earnestly
than I had thought it was being lived anywhere. Though the
voice was the voice of culture, the words were of true humil-
ity. Admissions were made which I had never heard made
in any form of meeting. Young men were revealing their
real selves, though saying nothing that offended good taste.
Modesty, but no false reserve. Young aristocrats of Oxford
were showing a masked world how to be honest by removing
their own masks. They told of their daily fight with sin, indi-
cated some of the sins pride, selfishness, dishonesty, laziness,
unbelief, impurity admitted their slips and showed how,
through the indwelling presence of a living Christ, they were
achieving victory. Public testimony that life in close personal
association with the Holy Spirit in Oxford University was
possible. Here was something that was not done being done:
intimate personal religion talked openly and joyfully by young
men who were happy because they were achieving victory over
sin through walking daily with God. And for years I had
nursed the conviction that if our religion were true then
Christians should lead care-free lives under the constant
guidance of the Holy Spirit. News again!

There was no hesitancy. One undergraduate followed an-
other quickly. Each spoke in the same easy style. Not the
argumentative arrogancy of youth in the debating society.

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but simple, compelling witness to personal experience. Each
had something different to say. Each gave a new facet to
Christian living because he spoke with candour and natural-
ness, and with many unrehearsed human touches, as jour-
nalists say. And as each spoke self-revealing things requiring
courage to say publicly, the interest never flagged.

Some of the incidents narrated were, of course, trivial in
themselves, but to the understanding hearer were important
pointers to new principles animating the lives of the wit-
nesses. These young men had begun to learn what was rarely
taught elsewhere HOW TO LIVE.

A well-grown lad in the far corner was ain organist; he
had learned to apply himself better to lessons through his
surrender to Christ's teaching. Another, a dark-haired lad
with ruddy features, had discovered (if I remember rightly)
that it was selfishness for the Group to hobnob together in
Hall instead of mixing with the others and doing their spare-
time best to bring prodigals back to their Master's Kingdom.

There were no blatant confessions. One tallish lad with
a fine head did gratefully announce that only through con-
tact with the Group had he been able to overcome impurity,
an unusual admission in a religious meeting the first time
I had heard it made. (Though once I had attended Brixton
Parish Church when Dr. Lang, before he became Archbishop
of Canterbury, dealt frankly with sex impurities when preach-
ing to a gathering of men only.) One's sympathies were
immediately evoked by this Oxford boy's frank confession.
It was he who gave me fresh understanding of the word grace
which I had previously heard defined unsatisfactorily as God's
bounty to the undeserving sinner. This lad, telling of victory
over sin, defined grace as God's strength which, to his amaze-
ment, had given him joyous release from his greatest
weakness.

God's grace in action in Oxford University at that mo-
ment ! What would be the effect of that story on newspaper
readers if one dared print it? I could only tell the effect of
that story on myself. I wondered if the same kind of grace
would give me the same kind of victory over another kind of
sin. Then doubts again. Wasn't grace another name for self-

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hypnotism? I had to delve deeper into the movement before
I found out.

The words purity and impurity I heard occasionally at
subsequent Group meetings. Sometimes the word lust. But
though I have attended hundreds of Group meetings, I do
not remember hearing anything in bad taste.

Presently I came to learn that spiritual anniversaries were
a fashion at these meetings. Hardly one passes but someone
rises and announces that just a year ago to-day he decided
to surrender his life to God. Then follows a description of
change from a life of worry, chaos and, discord to one of
peace, order and harmony. A relinquishing of every weighty
burden and confident resting in the Everlasting Amis. A
breathlessly interesting year of working out a new orienta-
tion of life, and striving to bring all thoughts and actions
into accord with the challenging standards of Christ. And
now a grateful testimony to the truth that Christ does change
lives and does keep anyone on His narrow white road who
wills to let Him. These are happy stories of a new and
exuberant way of living, sometimes interspersed with refer-
ences to casual slips followed by remorse, repentance, and re-
surrender of the area damaged by sin. But at the end of the
year a cheerful and humble affirmation of spiritual growth,
conscious progress in the kingdom of fitness which is the
Kingdom of God. And a reiterated gratitude at being freed
from the old life, which had never given real satisfaction.

One of those anniversaries occurred the night of my first
visit to the Oxford Group. A fair-haired, rosy- faced youth,
with horn-rimmed spectacles, speaking with a cheery and even
rollicking reverence, if our Pharisees permit the description,
told a jaunty story of his change from the prodigal life to
one of sanity and serenity. Little more than twenty, he spoke
convincingly, clearly, and well. Youthful hilarity and youthful
sincerity blended in the story he told. Weighing it afterwards,
I wondered whether the hilarity predominated over the sin-
cerity. Next day that doubt was answered when he gave up
his afternoon to my entertainment, taking me for a run in
his car, and then for a long stroll over the breezy hills to
the south-east, amplifying his religious autobiography as he

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went with special reference to his victories over drink and
impurity. As we reached the summit he stopped, swept out
his arm, and proudly named each one of that stirring pano-
rama of spires and domes which is Oxford.

Back in his car he declined an invitation to tea for another
reason which convinced me that he was the genuine Christian
as well as the hilarious convert. He had an engagement with
a young atheist undergraduate, who had invited him to dis-
cuss Christianity, through surprise at being frequently offered
rides in the hilarious one's car when overtaken around the
outskirts of the city.

"Giving Christianity away to another is the best way to
keep it," said Ken Twitchell, looking after the energetic
youngster as he departed once more to cast his life-story at
the feet of unbelief.

But what religious experience could these young fellows
have to share? is the question which the average man wants
answered. By the time a dozen undergraduates had spoken in
that first Group meeting I attended, the question had been
answered for me. Unquestionably these young fellows had
an experience which convinced them, or they would have sat
down confused. Later the Group leader of that evening
(Francis Elliston) told me his own story of his change. He
left school at the age of sixteen to go to Cambridge Univer-
sity, and quickly found that his public-school religion was
unreal to him.

Francis always envied 'bus-conductors and other people
without inhibitions. He had been jealous, for instance, of his
elder brother's ability to play with children, dimly realising
that he ought to live a life that was unself -conscious and
purposeful; and was bitterly antagonistic to a religion that
seemed to offer an ideal without the power to live it. He
was, therefore, ironical at the expense of those who professed
to have it. He found an outlet for his energies in sport, ama-
teur dramatics, and University journalism, but felt there was
no coherence in his life. In the Group he was challenged by
the simplicity of one man, and the peace of his expression.
This man, then a medical student at a London hospital and
now a doctor, asked him if he had ever made the experiment

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of writing down on paper what his life was like judged by
the standards of Jesus Christ.

He sat down to write to his medical student friend out-
lining his attitude towards the accepted moral standards of
society, calling upon psychological arguments to justify the
avoidance of repression. He finished his letter and picked it
up to number the pages. As he did so his eye was caught by
one sentence he had written in which he had said: "I have
always been perfectly frank about my attitude in any
company."

He was suddenly jolted into realising that this was a plain
untruth, and in a whim of accuracy wrote in the margin:
"P.S. This is not true. I have never been frank about this
in any company." He hastily re-read the letter, and by the
time he had finished there were a dozen contradictory post-
scripts. He posted the letter, realising that he was sealing the
death-warrant of his own old life. The journey down to the
office on top of the 'bus next morning brought home to him
the startling truth of the text "Behold I make all things

new."

Since that time, three years ago, he has been realising some-
thing of the freedom of the Franciscan Friars, to whom every
meeting on the road was a spiritual adventure, and he no
longer envies 'bus-conductors.

A smallish, alert, and highly intelligent lad from Sunder-
land told how he came into contact with the Group in October
1930, when he came up to Oxford, after a boyhood of con-
scientious attendance at a Baptist church where he was bap-
tised at the age of fifteen a step the significance of which
he completely failed to realise. He had a shy and nervous
temperament, a keen and absorbing interest in classical schol-
arship, a great love for good music, and an extravagantly
high set of ideals of the kind typified in Ruskin's Sesame and
Lilies. His ideals had been bruised under the rough and tum-
ble of a modern University College, and he took refuge in
an academic and cynical exterior. His religious beliefs failed
to stand the strain of intellectual examination, and with the
opportunity of coming to Oxford he was glad to escape from
a church situation rapidly becoming intolerable, because he
was teaching children things which he had ceased to believe.

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"At Oxford," he says, "I hoped to find an intellectually
satisfying philosophy. On the first day of my first term I met
a South African Rhodes Scholar, who asked me to go along
to a religious meeting, and merely warned me not to be sur-
prised at anything I heard. I was surprised at everything I
heard. My intellectual vanity was tickled by the presence of
a Don as leader, but what interested me most was the inde-
cently radiant happiness of many of those present, and the
conviction with which they spoke of the possibility of a life-
transforming experience of Jesus Christ. Rather bitterly I
wrote to an ancient friend of mine to the effect that I had
met a crowd of people who said they had found Jesus Christ
and signalised their discovery by laughing uproariously and
calling one another by their Christian names. But I went
again. At first I approved of a movement which was turning
Pagans into decent members of society. Then I discovered
that I wanted the power which these people had. Intellectual
difficulties became irrelevant under a growing conviction of
the sins of my own life dishonesty, intellectual snobbery,
pride, a biting tongue, and an uncontrollable temper.

"Finally, I was faced by St. Paul's declaration, 'I deter-
mined not to know anything among you save Jesus Christ
and Him crucified.' Then for the first time the significance of
the Cross came home to me, and I made my surrender. Since
then it has meant a growing sense of release and adventure.
People have become more important than things. Sarcasm,
criticism, and temper have disappeared. I have found that at
the foot of the Cross pride, especially intellectual pride, van-
ishes. I am beginning to learn how to love people who are
temperamentally different from myself. I have discovered an
increasing victory over what have been my chief real prob-
lems conceit and fear. It has involved no loss of intellectual
honesty. The discipline of reading 'Greats' has done nothing
to shake the validity of the conviction I have had of the
friendship of Jesus Christ, a conviction founded not on feel-
ing, but on facts and on faith. In short, Christ is enabling me
for the first time to live, as well as to know."

Listening to such witness, one passed through curiosity to
astonishment, thence into unqualified admiration.

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In his book, Religion and Politics, Stanley Baldwin, former
Prime Minister of England, said: "I confess that I am not
sure, if a Wesley or a St. Francis arose to-day, that to found
a body of preaching- friars would not be the best thing for
the world. . . . To-day the world seems more irreligious than
it has ever been in the Christian era."

Yet here were three-score or more young men a body of
preaching friars about to take their degrees, already dedi-
cated to the life of preaching friars, determined to follow
Christ and proclaim Him wherever they went, as clergymen,
ministers, or laymen, by the simple first-century method of
narrating the story of their own changed lives, and reliance
-on the direction of the Holy Spirit. It will be for the next
1-generation to estimate the results.

At Oxford a luncheon-hour Group meets every day in term
in the Old Library of the University Church of St. Mary.
Another meets every Tuesday afternoon. There is also a
Women's Group. I attended the one held next day, when
Ken Twitchell read a chapter from one of the latest transla-
tions of the New Testament. All the old truths came out of
that translation with freshened force.

Here I had my first practical experience of the Quiet Time,
a first principle of the Group and one of the biggest obstacles
to the newcomer, but a principle on which the Group can
make no compromise. Guidance must come to all those who
surrender to God's will. As Ken Twitchell announced the
Quiet Time the undergraduates fumbled for pencils and
guidance-books and began to "listen in" to God. This was
not simple meditation, which may be concentration on some
aspect of Christ or the Gospel, but something more : a listen-
ing for definite messages applicable to present needs. As they/
were committed to doing God's will, that could be known
for them at any moment of necessity. I

Watching them quietly writing, one was divided by two
opposing thoughts. There was an element of humour inviting
laughter. Surely they were all crazy. Yet the lecture-room
method of note-taking in Quiet Time might be a happy idea.
In theory what could be better? This inspirational method

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had all other forms of communication wireless, aeroplanes,
telegraphs clean beaten. If only it worked!

But who would believe that it worked ? Most certainly not
Fleet Street. Once as a junior reporter I endured some
scoffing for returning from an assignment with the story of
how a sick girl had been miraculously cured by her own
prayers, although I had secured all the facts and interviewed
the girl. She had been ill for many years, had suddenly re-
covered, and of course had the face of an angel. We printed
the story with reservations. And now what would Fleet
Street say to this tale? I knew the answer: "Give us the
thoughts that come in Quiet Time, and if they are startling
enough to convince us we will believe."

There was nothing startling about the thoughts that came:
just such as would come from any young man dedicated to
the Christian life, it then seemed to me. I asked Ken Twitchell
about this and how one could discriminate between what
might be guided thoughts and what were just floating human
thoughts. The Group said the individual was guided by God
both during Quiet Time and throughout the day in the fol-
lowing ways:

Through the Holy Spirit in attentive prayer by means of :

The Scriptures.

The Conscience.

Luminous Thoughts.

Cultivating the Mind of Christ.
Through reading the Bible and prayer.
Through circumstances.
Through reason.
Through Church, Group, or Fellowship.

The conditions for effective guidance were the whole-hearted
giving of oneself to Jesus Christ. The tests are :

Does it go counter to the highest standards of belief that
we already possess ?

Does it contradict the revelations which Christ has al-
ready made in or through the Bible?

Is it absolutely honest, pure, unselfish, loving?

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Does it conflict with our real duties and responsibilities
to others?

If still uncertain, wait and continue in prayer, and con-
sult a trustworthy friend who believes in the guidance
of the Holy Spirit.

Suddenly Ken Twitchell invited me to speak I, the rep-
resentative of a group of newspapers which once cast a slur
on the movement. The undergraduates listened with indul-
gence, without animosity. They smiled when I mentioned my
religious discussions with my vicar at golf ; how I won the
arguments and he won the golf. I tried to make a point of
Father Martindale's, that whatever one thought of long
enough one was sure ultimately to do when the opportunity
came. So if one thought of a sin, one would commit that sin.
If one thought of goodness, one would do right. Then I for-
got Father Martindale's point.

I said I objected to the phrase "Quiet Time," as it sounded
banal, and preferred "Listening in"; and more trivialities I
hoped would be helpful, but which, I sensed afterwards, were
rather old-fashioned stuff with these new-fashioned youths.
Evidently someone had been giving them such intensive train-
ing in vital Christianity as to leave me standing.

Afterwards I felt there was something elusive in the Quiet
Time, and somehow a cleavage between my idea of Chris-
tianity and theirs. Twelve months afterwards I heard from
my younger son at school that the worst part of college life
was the hour for quiet and study. I sympathised with the lad,
three thousand miles away, feeling that he must be suffering
from a family complaint.

Yet in the afternoon of that same day at Oxford I had
my first results from the Quiet Time. We were discussing ,
some difficult problem when Ken said, "Let's try the Quiet/
Time." We drew out slips of paper, relaxed, listened ; I conn
fident there was little in it, that inspiration could not be
organised to solve a business problem any more than to dis-
cover the name of a winning race-horse before the event.
Then, just as we were about to put our papers away, there
suddenly crossed my ordinary, tumbled, human thoughts one

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of another order which seemed to possess a strong luminous
glow, differing sharply from the rest. To describe a particular
thought apart from what it expressed is well-nigh impossible.
But I know that it had colour, shape, feeling, and luminosity.
It told me to do something that I purposely had never done,
had no wish to do and, if I had previously thought of doing,
I should have humanly rejected as useless and absurd. Yet
if the person I was told to see accepted my suggestion, which
I humanly knew he would not, my particular problem at that
time was solved. And perhaps another problem tqo : whether
there was any sense in this amusing method of writing down
your thoughts and kidding yourself they were messages from
God!

The new luminous thought had come so unexpectedly and
with such a peculiar glow of Tightness that I went back to
London and tried it. Within a few minutes of the thought
being transferred to the person in great authority whom it
concerned, he rang me up on the telephone thanking me
profusely (as he had never previously done) for my splendid
help, of which he was taking immediate advantage.

An unpalatable Quiet Time had cleared up one and per-
haps two problems. So there was something in guidance,
after all.

Chapter Seven

A MOTOR CLUB BLOWS UP

E~T us assume the theme of this short story is a. motor club
in an English University, and that three young dare-
devils are at its secret centre, bent on painting the town and
countryside red, doing it so consistently that one of their
number is sent down; that all three plunge heedlessly into all
sorts of scrapes with all sorts of authorities ; are modern dis-
ciples of Don Juan; organisers of illegal motor-races on the
high roads, reckless riders in the Isle of Man Amateur Races ;
and are contemptuous of ordinary sinners because they have
not the abandon to go hell-for-leather in a life of wild revelry.

And let us assume that someone alleged it possible, in these
post-war years of unbelief, to penetrate that centre of profli-
gate undergraduate life and change those three roystering
prodigals into men who listen-in to God for His daily guidance
and spend their lives changing others to their own pattern'
humbly modelled on the pattern of Christ, that these regen-
erated undergraduates had already become effective life-
changers. Would anyone believe this possible in 1932, when
the truths of Christianity are generally regarded as frozen
assets ?

Yet the truth is no less surprising than the assumption.
These things have just happened in an English University,
among the "up-and-outs," not in a slum mission among
"down-and-outs." Because of their marvellous transformation,
the heart was taken out of the wild life in the Carburettor
Club (as we will name it for the purpose of this true story),
the inner ring of a motoring club. 7

If there is still any adventure in modern religion, there is
adventure in this tale as told me by the three chief conspirators
who shall be called Bob, .Rip and Sandy which seems to
be one of the news stories that Fleet Street has missed.

The story begins with Bob, who is a tallish, upstanding,
broad-shouldered young fellow of twenty-two with fair, curly
hair, remarkably fine teeth, a pair of tortoiseshell spectacles,

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and a sphinx-like expression which leaves you wondering if
he is on guard against you or hoping you will stay. He won a
scholarship to Winchester and did amazing things when at
that famous school. He annexed practically all the prizes for
classical research, English literature, German translation, and
a good many seconds as well. He was not a born athlete, but
became one of the synthetic variety, by patient effort and
determination. Good at rowing, at fives, at Winchester Foot-
ball ("Our Game," as Wykehamists call it), he had sufficient
merit to command a majority of what honours .and positions
there were. Of the four hundred and fifty boys at Winchester
there are seventy-six privileged to wear the Scholar's gown.
Five leaders of the school are appointed officers over the
scholars, and over those five officers is the Prefect of Hall.
And the one who becomes Prefect of Hall has to justify that
pre-eminent position by weight of achievement, which Bob
was able to do by dint of effort. Winchester expects that every
scholar will do his duty at the 'Varsity by winning a first in
"Mods" and "Greats."

Bob secured his scholarship into his college, and then his
penchant for study and sports, except motor racing, flopped.
Surfeited with past achievements, he now felt the time had
come to enjoy himself with Sandy and Rip, two gay com-
panions. They founded the Carburettor Club and began to
make things hum. Headquarters were conveniently situated
near to several "pubs," all patronised in turn. That the
Carburettor Club was not proctorially recognised, and was
therefore an illegal institution, mattered little. In the first year
Bob ran three motor-cycles for sport and a small car for
pleasure.

The three went to the Isle of Man and two rode in the
Amateur Road Races there. They had sport, some luck in
their races, and still more merriment between, even to the
extent of taking a public-house piano to pieces before break-
fast. Back in College, Sandy continued to make things merry,
once, by throwing forty empty bottles into the main street, to
the distress of the Dean.

Another exploit was for the three motor musketeers to hire
a lorry and a temperance driver and tour all the public-houses
of the city tasting all that was going, while the townsfolk,

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not unused to odd spectacles, looked on amused. Sandy be-
came so offensive on the ride around that his friends threw
him off. His language passed the Plimsoll line.

The Carburettor Club organised an illegal motor race at
dawn on the high road, though the winner only achieved a
leisurely 68 m.p.h. About this time Winchester's ex-Prefect
of HaU quietly distinguished himself by climbing out of
College down the rain-pipe of an adjacent house, a difficult
but not unprecedented feat, as other undergraduates know
from practical experience. The difference between Bob's get-
away and that of other undergraduates taking the same route
was that he took with him the rain-pipe as well as his free-
dom ! Though not for long ! For a city policeman invited the
ex-head of Winchester to the police-station, where he was
allowed to go, after information as to identity had been
checked by removing his coat for the police to read his name
on the inside tab.

And now the Group began to get busy with the Carburettor
Club; and the Carburettor Club with the Group. The three
motor musketeers had heard that the Group talked openly
about their sins, so Sandy was deputed to go down and tell
them what sin really is, since he was an expert in the subject,
and to break the show. Perhaps the best way to picture Sandy
is to say how he then looked to his pal Bob, who grinned as
he said : "Sandy has a merry peal of laughter chiefly aroused
by any form of iniquity. A moustache, slight and light, a hook
nose, spectacles, somewhat receding forehead, sallowish, a
quick brain that can throw off smart slogans at command, and
good .organising ability." Sandy returned from the Group
meeting saying he had told them a few things they needed
to know, as he was in the habit of telling Deans and other
institutions before he finally left. Of course he still wore his
old tweed cap, broken peak, plenty of oil on top, and his
brown leather waistcoat. But the Group were good shock-
absorbers.

And now Sandy ran into a Springbok (All-South African)
Rugger-player, one of the Group, who began to take him in
hand. He induced Sandy to go down to Crowborough for a
house-party which Frank had arranged there. "The people
knew I was coming," said Sandy, "and I was ushered in by

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Frank with some ceremony, which rather flattered my pride.
That perhaps prevented me from being affected by the meet-
ing. I know I was very disagreeable and obstreperous as usual.
I had tea, and then looked all round for a few girls, and was
rather disappointed at being out of luck. But I took a strong
liking for Frank, and was struck by the kindness in his eye.
I boasted to Frank that my amusements were women and
drink, but I refrained from disclosing that I was secretly lonely
and bitterly unhappy. He didn't seem very shocked, but said
I had to cut them both out. We prayed together, and I went
back changed ! The first person to know the difference was
my landlady. I had come in at three in the morning sober, and
went out next morning still sober."

Sandy's first attempt at witness was a letter to Bob and
Rip, telling them simply what had happened.

The earth ceased revolving for a while when the Carburettor
Club received Sandy's letter saying he had tried running his
own life and failed, and had tried letting Christ run it for
him, and was succeeding; that as he'd tried two lives and
they'd only tried one, he felt it right to tell them which was
better.

"That made us think a bit," said Rip. "We put down our
glasses and began to consider the amazing news. Our star turn
had gone over to the despised enemy. Not having anything
more original to do, we jeered."

Sandy seemed to take that all right, which was rather un-
like him, for he loved to answer back, and had a tongue like a
razor. He merely said, "All right, you come and meet these
chaps and see for yourselves." So Sandy arranged a tea-party
at his house, and eight in the Club decided to go along. When
the Group heard this they sent out a Flying Squad comprising
three of their best shots, and most important backed by a
battery of twenty-five men, solidly praying.

This Flying Squad stopped about a hundred yards from
Sandy's house and held one of their deadly Quiet Times.
Before entering, Ken Twitchell coached his two colleagues
not to mince words, to avoid.pious phraseology, and to talk
in the language that Pagans understand. The eight lambs
inside were unaware what was being prepared for them with-
out. When the three entered, tea was served, and everybody

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was on his best behaviour. At first the Group wanted to know
what the motoring game was like just now, how study was
going, anything but the religious inclinations of the eight. But
after tea all drew round in a circle, when the three broke
into the main business of the evening, with Sandy, ex-ring-
leader of the revellers, the subdued link.

There was not much time to argue, for the Group jumped
straight into their well-proven game of giving evidence. One
began telling his yarn. A compelling story, that was. A par-
son's son, he had lost all his jobs in England, and had been
sent out to Canada, where his progress was equally undis-
tinguished. One night he had come home so tight that he
indulged in a massacre (chopping off the heads) of all the
hens in the chicken-run. That story was hilariously received
by some of the wild men of the road. The speaker now found
the climate of Canada a little too warm; he went south to
New York, between trains gambling all his money on poker,
with the exception of seven dollars. He picked up a job in
New York selling china behind a counter. An English lady
came into the store (a natural contact), and casually asked
him if he had any use for religion, and he replied, "No." She
invited him to Calvary Church, and he went. There at the
famous Thursday night Group he met a yoUng banker who
had been in the depths of degradation and had been re-created
by the power of Christ. But the speaker still thought he was
beyond hope. So he was taken down to the Calvary Mission,
where he heard some amazing stories of changed lives from
men who had been right up to the edge of beyond. One man
told of how he had been turned out of his house sick and ill
and told to go somewhere and die. Looking for a suitable
spot to die in, he was changed at Calvary Mission. This story
at last convinced the parson's son that he could get the victory
over his evil impulses, and that Christ was the real answer
for him.

The former leader of Winchester, listening-in, observed the
sinews standing out strongly on the speaker's brawny neck,
while the story set him thinking hard. So did the way that
another in the team shut his jaw with a snap of decision,
showing that he too knew what life with God was, and in-
tended to go on with it. Then the four standards of the Group

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were brought out and Bob's jaw dropped lower. Despite the
testimony, he frankly did not believe it possible to be abso-
lutely honest, loving, pure and unselfish. He mentioned that
he sometimes did an unselfish action in repairing motor-bikes
broken down on the road, but that was perhaps because he
liked motor-bikes.

."How about mending men?" asked Ken Twitchell.

"I get quite a kick out of mending a motor-cycle," said Bob.

"You'll get a greater kick out of mending men,", prophesied
Ken, hardly foreseeing that Bob would be used to mend a
dozen directly and countless others indirectly before the next
two years went by.

"Then we tried to argue," continues Bob, but after an hour
and a half Bob came back to the evidence. "You cannot get
away from the fact that Sandy's changed."

Followed the Group Sunday evening meetings attended by
the eight, which Rip would noisily interrupt with some
blasphemy.

"At those meetings," continues Bob, "I observed the radi-
ance on Howard Rose's face when he said he was a free man.
And that disturbed me a bit. So I used to draw my chair away
from Rip because he was interrupting so blasphemously. I
began to be ashamed of being near him. Then I noticed that
one of the Group, after rowing two courses on the river,
would be willing to sit up until midnight listening to a man's
troubles. Here was a quality of unselfishness I hadn't seen
before. At a Group tea-party I heard one say that impurity
just slid off when Christ came in. I didn't believe it, I said I
should always have to smoke and drink to hide my feelings
when I became a diplomat. To which one of them replied,
'Suppose you haven't any feelings to hide?'

"The Groups also unceremoniously punctured my senti-
mental theory of free-love and eroticism by saying it might
seem rosy to me, but it looked shabby to them. The next step
came when a leader had guidance to read Masefield's Ever-
lasting Mercy. I took a copy away, and my girl friend and
I read it over five times during the next fortnight. The line:
'And shut out Christ in husks and swine' caught me. Convic-
tion of sin used to come even at the breakfast-table. It got
me tip earlier in the morning, because I found it uncqmfort-

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able to lie in bed and think about the Groups. When I went
into breakfast in the J.C.R. (Junior Common Room) I found
myself grabbing food, instead of looking to see if my neigh-
bour had any, and I felt how fundamentally selfish I was. It
was a shock.

"Then there came a memorable Sunday night when I went
out of the Group with the determination to try the standard
of absolute purity they advocated. On Monday afternoon it
occurred to me to go for a run round the parks with one of
the Group leaders to get back into training. As we ran I deter-
mined to show no sign of distress, bad training, or bad condi-
tion. My theory was that one could get away with fast living
with impunity. That run acted as a bracer, and I decided to
get the impurity, the nicotine, and the drink out of my system.
Then I decided to put God to the test that Monday night. On
the 'bus I prayed and looked up into a grey sky clouded over
and asked whatever Supreme Power there was up there to
come to my aid.

"The power worked that night, and I prayed before I went
to bed. Strange, but I felt conscious that Christ was standing
there. Next morning I had the same sense of Christ being in
my room. I always pictured Christ standing by the lake shore.
Here in College He was standing by me encouraging, strength-
ening. I knew now I had emerged from a gilded cage. That
morning the trees were greener, the skies were bluer, the birds
were singing. The New Testament was alive for me at last.
Afterwards I went for another run, and ran in the power of
the Spirit, definitely faster and with less distress. During that
run I said to my friend, whom I outran : 'I may be in with
you chaps before long' the first hint I had given him,
although I had been taking the side of the Groups at our
shove-halfpenny matches. While others cursed, I said the
Groups were the goods."

Forty personal talks or tea-parties with others in the College
was Bob's programme for the next few amazing weeks. In
consequence a young man training for missionary work
learned how to achieve the kind of results the Groups
achieved. Another training for Orders found release from
moral defeat and a jaundiced outlook on life. Then Bob went
home, and grew much stronger on his new spiritual diet. "I

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witnessed there," he said, "and rather crudely, I fear. I also
made some restitution to an insurance company from whom I
had claimed too heavy damages for a motoring spill. For the
first half of the interview I was uncertain whether I was to be
prosecuted. I was asked why I owned up, and told the manager
that I had invited Christ to run my life. He was a bit stag-
gered and in the end quite friendly, asking me to get in touch
with a nephew of his in the University. He said I must refund
nine pounds instead of the twenty I thought would be de-
manded.

"That evening I had to do a little more restitution. I had
been tutoring a son of a rich man for nine guineas a week
on an out-of-date testimonial, I was guided to tell the man
the truth about this, and stood to lose about thirty pounds
from the act. Instead of losing, I found the man very pleasant,
and. I was re-engaged for that vacation and given twenty-six
pounds towards the Group's South African venture as well."

Within a week Bob was being eagerly sought by a number
of men who wanted his help, and was seeing them up to two
in the morning. Within a month he was on a team of seventy
getting rich experience in action. One of his best friends came
to see him almost immediately after his change and made a
decision. Bob also went to South Africa, while his story went
all round Britain and nearly all round the earth.

The third of the three musketeers of the wheel to surrender
was Rip, who spoke so blithely at the first Group meeting I
attended. Perhaps the best way to picture him, too, is how he
looks to his pals. This is the description that Bob gives of
him. "Rip looks like Harold Lloyd horn-rimmed spectacles,
sandy hair, a fine voice, speaks rather loud through self-
consciousness and so attracts a lot of attention. Could hold
very little beer. His c.c. (cubic capacity) was about a pint.
The rest of us rather looked down on him because he had to
be carried out before we really began to soak. Of medium
height, he can ride a motor-bike well, and is a good jazz
pianist."

And now for Rip's rollicking story of his change. "I went
to 'my first Group," said Rip, "a bit cheerfully primed with
ale, and with a few friends of my own "school of religious

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thought, because I saw that Sandy was sober for long periods
and that something had happened to him. I was an atheist, and
had written a thesis recently upon 'The Impossibility of the
Existence of a Personal Deity/ I heard that some people in
the Group had found freedom from the same elementary
moral problem that had beaten me for the previous six years,
and which I had ceased to regard as defeat.

"I loved arguing with the Group people, but the thing that
struck me was their happiness, friendliness and non-piousity.
I went several times on Sunday evenings, giving as an excuse
to my friends that it was worth it for the thirst I acquired
during two hours of total abstinence in a hot room. But I
wanted the happiness and the purpose in life that these people
had, yet I didn't want to turn religious and give up the way
of spending my evenings I liked.

"I met Frank at Wallingford, and was frightfully tickled
by his good humour. The whole of the Carburettor Club a
tough little gang whose activities were not confined to motor-
ing, though we made use of our cars in the evenings quite
often went up to dine with Frank in London. During dinner
Frank asked me to tell my best story, and I hadn't got one
I could tell at dinner with ladies there, though I was renowned
in a small way for my repertoire. Someone there asked me
why it was I didn't throw in with the Group, and I remember
I answered, 'Because I'm too selfish.' Though that was not
half the story.

"Shortly after that I got Frank's invitation to Edinburgh.
I decided that if the Group were going to play at there being
a God, I was going to add interest to the game by playing at
there being a devil. Hence the letter I wrote to Frank signed,
'Yours, Sin, Ltd., per Rip.' I rode up to Edinburgh on a
motor-bike, but only got as far as Derby when a blizzard
forced me to take to the train, and after an uncomfortable
night trip and landing up at 7 a.m. very irritable, the first
thing that happened was Frank telling me to buy 'Lawng
woollies.' Ugh!

"Then came the first of the big evening meetings. It never
crossed my mind that Frank would ask me to speak. Still less
did it cross the minds of those in the team, who fairly clutched
their chairs in horror when he did. I know I sweated heartily,

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and I forgot what I said, but no one took any notice of it,
anyway. Then I got fed up, bored with everybody else doing a
job and myself not being able to. I wasn't at all convicted of
sin, but I knew that these people were happier than I and
that was the thing I was out for. That aim had to be dropped
before I was in the show for a week or two, when I found it
wasn't all gin and gaspers, so to speak. Anyway, that was the
thing for which I originally made my decision. I walked into
the hotel and found one 'of the team :

" 'Are you doing anything for five minutes ?'

"'No.'

" 'Then come and convert me/

"This was the actual conversation I remember* that quite
clearly. We went upstairs and knelt down by a bed, I feeling
pretty silly. I asked God to come and run my life and tell me
what to do. The first thing that came was to tell this man that
I had been telling a lie consistently ; the second was to wire to
my mother, who knew all about religion but not the best way
to put it across; the third to let my friends know where I
stood; and the fourth to send back two books to the head
man of my school and tell him why I was sending them back,
and I didn't like that sort of thing very much."

With the capitulation of Rip the three motoring musketeers
were again reunited. They are still trying to paint up the town
and countryside. But using white paint instead of red.

And that is the true story of how the Carburettor Club
blew up in A.D. 1930.

Chapter Eight

FRANK ACTS

MAY came, and with it came the legendary Frank, back
from a fruitful tour in South America. Though Ken
Twitchell had warned me the Groups sought no publicity at
the time, for they had only sufficient leaders to cope with the
interest already aroused, he promised me an interview with
Frank immediately on his arrival. One May morning Ken's
voice on the telephone announced that Frank was in London
and would be glad to see me.

I invited both to lunch. Frank's "guidance" was that I call
at Brown's Hotel for afternoon tea. Unsuspectingly I went,
and met for the first time the well-dressed Doctor of Divinity,
human founder of the Oxford Group, who received me with
cordiality and even gaiety. Frank was stoutish, kindly, affable,
and very active. He talked a good deal in that quick, crackling
and not displeasing voice of his. He had experienced a great
time in South America. He had been amazingly conscious of
the presence and guidance of the Holy Spirit during the whole
trip. He had seen a good deal of Bolshevism in South America.
He was still more confident that the world needed the Holy
Spirit's guidance, and not Bolshevism, to put it right. I had
never heard a parson and Frank is a parson express him-
self so freely about the Holy Spirit before. Most parsons
seemed uncertain about Him. Frank paced the room, head and
shoulders thrown back, hands behind him, using similar ges-
tures and showing that awareness and intensity of purpose I
had noticed about Lloyd George when I was introduced to
him in our office. We discussed the religious articles that had
appeared in our newspaper. I explained what was in my mind
about an Oxford Group series, and Frank listened without
interruption until I proposed to invite our readers to express
themselves for or against the movement in a fresh newspaper
discussion.

"Oh, dear no!"

Frank was flatly opposed to the proposition. The Group

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were not seeking publicity ; they were prepared to give infor-
mation if published correctly and the subject treated with
reverence. Newspaper controversies on religion were never
satisfactory. The New Testament was against them. They
aroused interest for a time, but did little real good. People
whose interest had been quickened were left stranded, while
the newspaper went back to its daily task of purveying news.
That sort of publicity was useless for the deeply spiritual
movement to which he was committed. And would do more
harm than good.

Further and here he threw a bomb at me the Holy
Spirit's guidance was against encouraging me to write or
organise the publication of anything about the Oxford Group
until I myself was spiritually ready for the task.

This remarkable Life-Changer had courage. He had made
the most extraordinary suggestion that I had received m
twenty-five years of London journalism; although I remem-
bered making a somewhat similar suggestion to a well-known
celebrity some years before. Frank was turning the tables on
myself, telling me that he felt the Holy Spirit was against my
writing about the Group until I, too, was thoroughly right
spiritually. Did Frank know that journalists never ask outside
permission as to what they shall write about? Evidently not.
Nor did he know or seem to care that for many years I had
been trying to live Christianity, read the Bible most days,
prayed twice or thrice daily (like the Pharisee), was repentant
of occasional sins, and tried to conform to New Testament
teaching as I understood it while endeavouring to pilot myself
and the paper through a daily maze of difficulties. I was an
elder of a church, a treasurer of a church building fund, the
organiser of phenomenally successful features (secular and
religious), and not altogether a stranger to a little persecution,
perhaps for righteousness' sake. And drawing the top salary
on a newspaper which could give Frank's young movement
just the help upward that it seemed to need.

For a time I wondered if Frank's uncomplimentary attitude
was not merely clever charlatanism, an effort to hoodwink me
by quoting the Holy Spirit, to ensure that we only published
what he wanted, irrespective of our honest convictions about
his teaching. At least my doubts about him were as honest as

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his doubts about me. After all, a man knows himself and the
kind of life he is trying to live ; let others say what they may
who are afraid to make the same effort, be their motive natural
aversion, self -justification, jealousy, or common projection.

What could there be in my life which entitled Frank on our
first meeting to say the Holy Spirit was against my touching
the movement? Of course it was a safe guess to make about
anybody. The odds were on the side of the challenger always.
He had got in the first blow. But even if he were right in his
assumption, was he still right in his objection? Ventilation of
a new movement did no harm unless there was harm in it.
Moreover, there were illuminating Scriptural texts concerning
those who had nothing to hide being ready to bring everything
to the light. Our novelists had confessed their religion and
exposed themselves to the criticism of our readers. Arnold
Bennett had endured a heavy barrage of loveless bigotry. If
an unbeliever was ready to write openly at my invitation, why
should Frank object when he knew I was on the side of the
angels as well as he? If Frank really desired sin to be brought
to the light for exposure as the vile cancer it was, how much
more should his new movement be held up to the light for all
to inspect its purity ? And in any case we could do it whether
he liked it or lumped it. The Editor was always the deciding
factor.

Still Frank said "No." He was positive he was guided to
say "No." And recalling that interview in the light of subse-
quent events, /, too, am positive he was right.

Frank was "guided" to say several unexpected things to me
during that afternoon and evening. One thing he said at din-
ner interested me considerably. He had just taken a second
helping of asparagus when I asked him to explain where com-
mon sense ended and guidance began.

"I don't pretend that every detail of my life is guided,"
said Frank. "For instance, I did not have guidance to take that
asparagus. I was hungry, and like asparagus. But if I am
alert for guidance it comes whenever I need it. And so it does
to anybody."

Another of Frank's sayings that afternoon as he walked
about the big red room ticking off four letters of the alphabet;
on his first four fingers was, "P-R-A-Y : Powerful-Radio-

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grams-Always- Yours" one of the many forceful epigrams
he is constantly uttering, just as a pedagogue teaches easily-
remembered short cuts to education.

Another epigram that came later was : "We must work with
the chisel, the hammer and the rivet. Make an opening and
then flatten in the rivet so there shall be no more weakness
at that point." That was Frank's method with me that
afternoon.

Christ was sensitive to the possibility of sin in the Woman
at the Well and to the sins of many others.

But Frank did not ask me for a confession of my sins that
day, though a live journalist might have been willing to relate
a few as the easy price of a good story.

Nevertheless, my own sins came up as we talked, came up
voluntarily, and the way of future victory was shown clearly,
almost before I realised what he was about. Probably my
vanity did it. I was so anxious to tell this unusual evangelist
a few of my own experiences with the supernatural, partly for
enlightenment, perhaps more to let him know that I, too, had
practical experience of the subject, either to impress him or
to disprove his offensive suggestion that I was spiritually un-
ready to translate his movement into journalese.

"You can tell me what you like," said Frank, standing in
the middle of the room, his large head and shoulders thrown
well back, hands again clasped behind him, just like Mr.
Pickwick. I told him first of an ecstatic experience which hap-
pened several years before. I had been studying the New
Testament, a book I had dropped as an encumbrance during
my early years in Fleet Street. Though I had returned to
Christianity, I felt no great compunction in committing one
or two breaches of the teaching, seeing my circumstances were
unusual and I was harming nobody. Closer study of the New
Testament revealed that some of my indulgences were uncom-
promisingly forbidden. Then one day, when there came along
a temptation which usually defeated me, I took a right turn
instead of my usual left incline. It was that same right turn
which resulted in the remarkable experience which I now
described to Frank. I was in my room shortly afterwards,
when I suddenly felt an amazing exaltation, an unspeakable
rapture, accompanied by a delightful glowing sensation

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throughout my left side. The ecstasy of this experience is
untellable. It outshone all human joys just as a searchlight
outshines the light of a candle.

It was daylight; I was fully dressed and quite conscious of
everything about me. But the transport of joy which accom-
panied this beatific experience was so wonderful, so celestial,
so vibrantly effulgent, so transcending anything that happens
as a consequence of the average good deed of the Boy Scout
order, that I sank quite naturally to my knees in an ecstasy of
inspired prayer. And then as this extraordinary trance-state
continued I seemed to be raised out of myself into a sunlit
region where I could observe humanity struggling blindly in
shadow, and lovingly sympathise with all because of the
shadow preventing them from seeing the glorious,, future
which was their destiny and into which I had been-se-' mar-
vellously drawn.

At this time I realised that even joy can be intolerable and
that joy, like pain, when it becomes unendurable ceases to be
borne. No unfortified human being could endure more than
half an hour of that rosy ecstasy. Exactly what happened to
me that day I never quite knew, but I shall always believe the
Creator allowed me to pass a full half-hour on the fringe of
Paradise. And if Heaven is still more glorious, I can under-
stand Paul saying that eye had not seen nor ear heard aught
of what the Lord had prepared for those who love Him. Such
an experience turned the joke about the golden harps of
Heaven into bathos. Later on, when reading a book on English
mysticism by Dean Inge, I saw that this state of trance was
not peculiar to myself, but had been experienced by others,
and described in some of the autobiographies of the mystics.

I may have thought there was something specially worthy
about my attempts at Christianity, as distinct from what
others were doing, to justify this foretaste of Paradise.
Possibly I expected Frank to think so, too, as I told the story
to him that afternoon in Brown's Hotel. He listened interest-
edly and waited ; but made no comment.

Then I described another experience which had come to me
just as surprisingly. But whilst the former gave me half an
hour of such intoxicating joy that no earthly experience could
compare with it, the other scared me out of my wits for the

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ensuing forty-eight hours. And still gives me a shudder when-
ever I look back upon it. This second experience came as a
kind of glorified nightmare. It was midnight one o'clock
summer-time (daylight-saving time). I had been sleeping, /'but
was awakened by a human face at my window. Between that
face and myself was something black and evil. There was no
one else in my room. The human face vanished, but in the
darkness I had a strong sense of the uncanny and the sinister.
My unseen visitor, that had separated me from the vanished
face, if a living entity, and not a black cloud of evil the incu-
bus certainly had no rights in the world of man. He or it
seemed to steal into the room, pervading the atmosphere above
me; then descending to seep itself into my body, an inky
odiousness pervading my left side just as that effulgent visita-
tion had previously done. This second experience, like the
former, lasted approximately for half an hour of wakefulness,
during which time I was helpless to dislodge it-^-a dark shade
saturating me with its blackness, producing all the sensations
of horror, guilt, and severance from God which surely must
be felt by the lost soul. Once again I had no recourse but to
prayer, a series of repetitions of the Lord's Prayer with stress
on deliverance from the evil. At the end of half an hour I felt
my body freed again, though how the incubus departed I
cannot say. It had been ; and then it was not. But the experi-
ence had been so poignantly real that it was some time before I
felt completely at ease when alone, fearing a similar visitation.

But what was it? Was I going mad? Or had I really had
an experience of an evil spirit ? I knew there were many in-
credible stories about them in the Bible which were explained
away as meaning something else. Pondering over this odd
experience, I conceived the idea that probably my visitor had
been sent by someone dabbling in the black arts who had some
unpleasant interest in me. Then later I came across a book by
an English lady of title, The Riding Light, giving experiences
of The Sinisters. Later still, I read a book by Lord Frederic
Hamilton, The Days Before Yesterday, which also contained
some kind of confirmation of my own experience.

When I had finished these two stories of spiritual light and
shade, Frank suggested neither clairvoyant intervention nor

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the Black Art. But he quickly revealed to me what I should
have realised from the first.

"Those two experiences," said he, "relate to the same sin
which God wants cleared out of your life, so that He can
accomplish His plans in you. He may have something for .you
to do which a mortal sin of yours is frustrating."

Light came. Even if the suggestion that God could have
anything special for me to do was more flattering than reason-
able, perhaps one particular sin had produced the opposite
poles of mystical experience I have described. Again, doctors
might suggest active glands following protracted meditation.
Only the second experience happened to be accompanied by
the features of a person whom I had never met, but whom I
did encounter several years later. Which showed pretty clearly
that even if this were not a prophecy, my psyche had managed
to project itself into its own future for several years and pic-
ture one character in a scene who was presently reproduced in
life. Who that character was may be revealed in a subsequent
volume as a kindly and fruitful worker in the Oxford Group
movement.

Frank's voice called me back to earth. He was talking
earnestly, urging me to drive stakes around myself as protec-
tion against further lapses. Mentioning a person whom I had
wronged, he urged me to go and tell that person the facts.
"Never mind if there is another side to the story," he coun-
selled. "You do your part. The other person can confess or
withhold. What is that to you?"

Frank's drive to get me to forsake every form of sin and
to put an unscalable fence between it and me caught me
unawares, although I should have been ready for him after
reading of his tactics. I thought his request was unreasonable,
as I was as much sinned against as sinning, perhaps more.

"Supposing it causes further trouble?" I protested.

And I explained the difficulty.

"I don't urge you to do anything that will hurt anyone." He
paused for guidance. "If you are sure it will, don't do it."

I thought of him at this minute as a kind of silver dynamo,
sympathetic but irresistible.

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And then, of course, Frank suggested the inevitable Quiet
Time. Taking two sheets of notepaper, he handed me one.
We sat down and listened in prayerful silence. I tried to pick
up another of those luminous thoughts. Nothing exceptional
came : quite a lot of ordinary human thoughts, but no lumi-
nous ones. I had no wish to confess my sins to the person
Frank had named, but I wished to see the thing through as
an honest test. Yet my thoughts in that Quiet Time agreed
with what Frank urged, though my wishes did not. I wrote
down my thoughts ; then read them aloud to Frank, who con-
fidently and surprisingly pronounced them to be God-given
thoughts.

"Oh, come," I said to myself. "That's much too strong an
interpretation." How on earth could a few wandering
thoughts, unattended by mystical feeling or luminosity,
scribbled on a sheet of notepaper, be catalogued as God's
thoughts by anyone in his right senses ? Still, I was determined
to see the thing through, being a believer in the pragmatic
method of learning by doing. I had always learned as I earned.
Furthermore, my vanity was touched at being asked to do the
most difficult thing yet, although Frank seemed unaware of it
or entirely unconcerned. Later I told him that it was the most
difficult task to set a man, and he jocularly replied, "Oh, that's
nothing to what you might be asked to do on this basis of
Christian living."

Was I going to do this thing because I was afraid to refuse
a dare? To mask real cowardice? Or because I believed it
might be the right step forward in the Christian life? Or
because I saw a news story behind it? To this day I cannot
distinguish between the four motives. All were there.

During our conversation Ken Twitchell had slipped from
the room at a glance from Frank. I thought his departure was
pre-arranged. I learned afterwards that it was the custom in
the Group to leave one of their members alone with any
interested person when the opportunity offered. Ken Twitchell
now reappeared, and Frank shared his guidance that all three
might dine together, and that later Ken and I might go on to
Harley Street for the Thursday night Group meeting : typical
of this modern evangelist who is never so immersed in the

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present as to forget the future. Frank's reason for staying
away himself was that he had an unfortunate to see whose
need might keep him far into the night.

I said "good-night" to Frank, having voluntarily taken on
the most unattractive assignment of my life.

Chapter Nine

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Speak unto the Children of Israel, when a man or a
woman shall commit any sin that men commit, to do a
trespass against the Lord, and that soul shall be guilty ;

Then they shall confess their sin which they have done :
and he shall make restitution for his guilt in full, and
add unto it the fifth part thereof, and give it unto him
in respect of whom he hath been guilty. Numbers v. 6-7.

Harley Street Group meeting following my first talk
_ with Frank was one of the most impressive gatherings I
have attended: one of those rare occasions when one feels
powerfully conscious of the presence and pressure of the
Holy Spirit.

I had said nothing to Ken Twitchell of what Frank wished
me to do. But there was a look of understanding in his eyes
that evening which showed that he understood; for which I
was grateful. That look, I discovered later, arose from an
experience of his not completely dissimilar from my own.

Before arriving at my office next morning, I made a call
on the person named by Frank and revealed the humiliating
facts. It was not a pleasant interview, and the facts I disclosed
caused no surprise. I was censured for the clumsy way I ex-
pressed myself and the early hour chosen for the task. I had
no sense of spiritual exaltation at doing what I did. But it
was done, and nothing could undo it. And I had driven in
one of those protecting stakes that Frank is so keen upon to
prevent his followers from repeating past errors. Further-
more, I saw that same person later register a spiritual change
which probably would not have happened but for my frank-
ness. I record this as a simple statement of truth.

Frank's practice of sending a person to make reconciliation
or restitution is occasionally criticised by those who recoil
from the high spiritual challenge of the Group. The criticism
may arise as much from self-conviction or cowardice as from

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an honest objection to a hard saying. For unquestionably,
Christ said that before we bring our gifts to the altar we must
first be reconciled to our brother, a difficult saying, but one
perfectly reasonable if Christianity is to realise its lofty ideals,
though restitution should always be under guidance.

Sometimes harm may be occasioned by unwise and "un-
checked" restitution. Nevertheless, the Group do not compro-
mise on the necessity for wise reconciliation and restitution.
Zaccheus told Jesus that if he had taken anything by false
accusation he would restore fourfold as ordered by the Mosaic
Law. But, for instance, how could a man with nothing restore
fourfold what he had stolen ? Why stir up trouble unless you
were in a position to make amends? The answer to these
questions was that each person must decide the thing to do
on his own guidance, checked perhaps by the guidance of
others.

Supposing a person to whom an apology or reparation is
offered behaves badly? Usually he behaves very well, for the
restitutional act has the psychological effect of raising the
other person's ego, putting him in good temper with himself
and with everyone else, including his humbled enemy. But
should he act otherwise (say the Group) his behaviour must
be accepted cheerfully as the natural consequence of wrong-
doing. Nothing is bom without pain; not even a soul born
again.

Everything must be subordinate to this new quality of life,
even if it means the disapproval of others, since the Group
rests in the Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God,
and the constant companionship of the Holy Spirit a bene-
diction which means just what it says and is not a formalism.

Frank does not advise people to do what he is unwilling
to do himself or what he has not found to be of great spiritual
value in practice. Hear one of his own experiences of restitu-
tion as he told it to me in my room at Selwyn College, Cam-
bridge, when I was attending one of his many house^parties.
The Bishops of Norwich and Leicester and the Presiding
Bishop of the Protestant Episcopal Church of America were
there. Another Bishop would arrive the next day who was
present at the Chinese house-party when Frank had his own
sharp taste of restitution. Thus Frank :

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"It was the very first religious house-party I had organised,
and was held at the house of a famous Chinese diplomat in
one of the most beautiful spots in China, a summer resort
where the old Chinese philosophers had their retreats. Its
cragged peaks and sunny valleys were dotted with ruined
pagodas destroyed at the time of the Taiping Rebellion in the
middle of the nineteenth century. Our mountain beauty-spot
overlooked the Yang-tze River, writhing through the valley
below a yellow Chinese dragon.

"I used to go out and sit on the rocks and enjoy the glorious
scenery. For the first two days I had a wonderful sense of
communion, fellowship, joy, and peace. My third day was
uncomfortable. One word kept running through my brain:
'Restore, restore, restore.'

"I tried to brush it aside, but it came again and again. It
referred to an old matter with the railway company. I had
accepted from them some former privileges, but a rider was
introduced and the reduced rates privilege was cancelled. I
argued, with true casuistry, that I had the right to these privi-
leges, owing to my prior claims, now only partly operative.
At the time of the house-party I had hated and forsaken the
wrong-doing, but I had neither confessed it nor restored.
Therein lies the great secret of victory. A great many hate and
forsake, but never go on to the larger victory.

"So my struggle continued. Should I restore, when the
vice-president of the railway, with whom I occasionally dined,
might find out? What would he think? How would I know
what money was involved? How could I own up when so
many people had arrived at a house-party expecting me to
lead them into larger areas of new experience when I must
admit my own dishonesty ? Finally, I compromised by saying
I would write anonymously now that I had found out the
amount.

"I remembered that a check had come in recently to help
me in any way I chose, and this had been forgotten in a
multitude of duties and was adequate for the restitution. But
as I went on to write the letter there was a sense of dissatis-
faction and incompleteness. And so I knew I must do the
costly thing, which meant signing the letter with my own
name, revealing who I was and what I was doing. With it

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came a wonderful relief, but only momentary, for more dis-
quieting guidance came, saying I must share with the house-
party that afternoon. I began to argue. How could I? What
would they think? Could I 'lose face/ as the Chinese would
picturesquely say? 'Losing face' was one of the things not
done in China. But the insistent urge was there: 'Confess,
confess, confess.' I did.

"With the pain of confession came a completer message
that meant victory to many in my audience, composed of peo-
ple of national influence: members of Parliament, a General,
several Bishops, well-known folk from the Foreign and
Chinese communities. As the meeting ended I first doubted
whether I had done the right thing. I had not yet learned that
a confessing Christian is a propagating Christian. A costly
confession may be the price of power. Certain things which
concern the public must be publicly confessed. So many people
have a false fear of confessing things in public which perhaps
they should not confess. God often tests our willingness with-
out asking us to do it.

"At that meeting when I owned up to the sin of dishonesty
there was present a man who had come to that beautiful moun-
tain resort to recover his health. The doctors told him he
needed rest and quiet away from business. As he left he said
that if he were to do the same as Frank he might have to pay
out all the money in his bank. Then what would become of
his wife and family? Fortunately he talked to a friend who
held him to his highest, and suggested that he look into all his
affairs and put everything straight with everybody. The friend
said his health might never be improved until he had put
everything right. The Bible parallel is, 'Which is easier to
say, Thy sins are forgiven, or to say, Arise and take. up thy
bed and walk?' This man made full restoration to all, which
left him with practically an empty bank. Then the miracle hap-
pened. Coincident with his courageous step there arrived a
note from his employers saying that the most important thing
for him was to get well, and enclosing a check for a much
bigger sum than he had paid away.

"Another person present had told a lie in Sweden. That lie
followed her all the way to China, where she had gone to teach
and help the Chinese to be good and not tell lies. Wherever

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she travelled she found that lie turning up. Whenever she tried
to help anyone it burst in with 'You're a liar.' My telling that
simple story of restitution made her realise she must do more
than write anonymous letters owning up, not to a big lie, but
to one that robbed her of the power of being a life-changer.

"There was a third person at that meeting possessing what
is technically known as a dispositional temper. Her husband
brought her to the house-party and suggested she enjoy the
beneficial results while he went off to enjoy himself in his
own way elsewhere. This contrary woman too heard the story,
and it made such an impression on her that she went to her
room and locked her door. Someone was concerned about her
dinner, but I said there was no real need for worry, as the
New Testament enjoined fasting. She did not attend the next
meeting, sending to say she was not well.

"She wanted no breakfast the next morning, as she now had
a slight headache. But at eleven a.m. she left her room radiant
and triumphant, and went off to tell some of her friends with
similar contrary problems of her new-found victory. Another
miracle had come about leading to a procession of such mir-
acles which were performed because I had now learned not
only to hate and forsake, but also to confess and restore !"

When Frank had finished telling me that story, I asked
him, "Would it not be better in the general interest for you
to steal something every five years or so and then repeat the
ceremony of hating, forsaking, confessing and restoring? You
might start many more such processions of restitution."

Frank beamed.

"I learned enough from that first experience to be careful
not to repeat the offence."

Frank has been setting his changed men and women tasks
of restoration ever since he wrote his own difficult series of
six apologetic letters to persons against whom he had borne
grudges following his vital experiences in the Cumberland
church. Because God floods in where there is no sinful ob-
struction to His coming, Frank sets his face against compro-
mise which may also be sinful obstruction. He insists that
converts should not only turn from sin, but take long steps to
prevent recurrences. Voluntary confession and restitution

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bring home the seriousness of wrong-doing more effectively
than any other curative method.

If a man's relations with the other sex are on a wrong basis,
the Group say he should put them right immediately, and the
obvious way to do so is to confess the change in his own life
to the persons concerned. Even if he does not win them for
Christianity, he puts himself on a comprehensible basis with
his former women-friends. His changed demeanour is under-
stood, and not considered a slight. Likewise, women who have
been drawn to Christ are advised to tell why they can no
longer live the old life of irresponsible pleasure. It is all to
the good of the new convert, and possibly to the salvation of
the companion in error.

Some graduates holding University degrees obtained by
cribbing have been counselled by Frank to return to their
College authorities and confess the devastating truth. Or have
gone back voluntarily. One of these, a young giant, who, with
his wife and two wonderful children, has been living on
faith and prayer for some years, told me his own experiences
over a luncheon which he insisted on giving. He said he was
educated at a small, socially prominent college in New Eng-
land, colloquially known as "snooty, snobbish, and high-hat."
The Honours System for examinations was the rule here, and
it was also "the done thing to respect the rule, to be honour-
able and never to crib, although there was none to supervise."

The system was controlled by a Students' Honours Com-
mittee, exercising the powers of a supreme court dealing with
all cases of infraction of rules. If anyone was proved to have
cheated at examinations, there was no option but to fire the
student ; the decision was automatic. Yet out of eight hundred
students only one was sent down (expelled) every other year.
From earliest boyhood the young giant had lived a life of ex-
pediency believing the end always justified the means. The
reasons were laziness and fear of failure. With the Honours
System of no supervision during exams, he saw a splendid
opportunity for indulging his laziness and getting clear away
with it.

At prep school he habitually cheated, knowing he would
not be caught. By substituting cheating for work he had more

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time for enjoyment outside the University. And illicit enjoy-
ment at that. But it meant constantly inventing fresh excuses
for absence from class for those extra outings. One day he
fell on the stairs, and this gave him a new excuse for a free
evening from study. He struck his forehead with a hammer .
hard enough to show a large bruise, which he passed off as
the result of falling downstairs. He claimed to have been in
a stupor when he should have been at lessons, and again was
believed.

He was preparing for his degree when he ran into one of
the Group house-parties, and became convicted of sin, as the
old-fashioned evangelists used to say, and felt he must put
things straight in his own life.

"Did anyone in the Group urge you to do this?" I asked.

"No," he answered, "Iknew my duty very well without
being told."

Tremblingly he asked to see the Dean, feeling so nervous
that he wrote out his own accusation before going in and tried
to read it standing. His knees knocked so much that he had
to sit down.

"It seems a sorry sort of admission," said he dismally, as
he recounted this experience. I felt he was showing consider-
able courage in telling so much, and that I was snowing the
case-hardened indifference of the typical journalist over his
painful recital. I said so.

"And what did the Dean say?" I then asked unrelentingly.

The features of the young giant broke into his habitual
smile.

"The Dean said he was awfully sorry about it," he drawled.
"Not so much for the honour of the University as for my
own sake. He said he appreciated my honesty in volunteering
the information, and omitted to reproach me for what I had
done. At the end he said : 'Since you voluntarily told me this,
and no one else knows about it, we will now turn over a new
page and forget it.' "

This young man is now a Presbyterian minister and a
saint.

"Were you glad or sorry you had seen the Dean?" I next
asked.

"You bet I was mighty glad to get it off my chest. I now

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think it must have been God's special leading to do this. For
not long afterwards several ministers of the intellectual type
spoke critically of the Group at a Convention, when the Dean
of my University stood up, and announced that he was a
Unitarian with no strong leaning towards our teaching, but
impelled to testify to its efficacy, since a number of young men
in his University had come to him voluntarily with apologies
for past misconduct."

Sometimes contact with the Group results in converts going
to their parents to straighten out difficulties that have divided
the home. Sometimes parents go to children and do the same
reuniting thing. Besides seeing the Dean, the young giant had
also been led to write a straightforward letter to his parents,
telling them of how he had been behaving while they paid
high fees for his studies, believing him to be a conscientious
student. As he had always played a role at home, his mother
was convinced he was the angel boy.

His letter home cost more than seeing the Dean. His cour-
age ebbed so low that he waited until a few seconds to
midnight, when the letter-box was cleared ; and then he had
to run his hardest to catch the post.

"And your parents said?"

Again things had gone smoothly for the student-prodigal.

"The same day they received my letter," he said, "I re-
ceived a telegram thanking me for what I had written and
sending me their love."

"So you are out to turn schoolboys into saints?"

"That about says it," he replied.

Still I was unsatisfied.

"You say you were fearful and lazy by nature, when in fact
there was plenty of courage and energy latent in you, which
the Group, with their experience of psychology, knew how
to stir up."

He would not have it. God's strength was made manifest
in his weakness, he asserted. Being in Christ, he was able
to do what he was unable to do otherwise.

"Has anyone ever regretted making such a confession as
yours ?"

I was prepared for another uncompromising "No."

"Only if they subsequently draw away from God. Those

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who keep near Him never regret obedience to His law of
love to all. How can anyone who professes to love God and
his neighbour as himself, as all Christians must do, allow a
wrong he has done to anyone^ to go unrighted ? It would be a
deliberate interference with God's scheme of righteous world-
government as revealed in the Bible."

I probed further.

"Have you looked back into your life and carefully con-
sidered every wrong you have ever done anyone and en-
deavoured to set it right? Or are there still some dents in
your spiritual armour-plate?"

It was a searching question, one which very few persons,
clerical or lay, Christian or Pagan, dare ask themselves. But
he was not to be caught.

"Wherever God has shown me that there was restitution to
be made," he said, with quiet assurance, "there I have made it."

"That is to say, you have seen those in your neighbourhood.
What of those at a distance?"

He declined to admit exceptions. "I have either seen or
written to all who are alive where guidance has come about
them."

Hearing this, spoken not boastingly but hesitatingly, in
answer to some very impertinent probing, I felt a sense of
hopelessness. Such a state of purity and perfection seemed to
be altogether too wonderful for me. Later I heard the Rev.
Cleve Hicks (a former Harvard Chaplain) carry this point of
restitution still further, when telling of a man of sixty-five
confronted with the Group teaching on this subject, who said
it would take him the rest of his life to straighten out all the
crooked things he had done. And Cleve had cheerfully replied
that, as guided, he could not embark on a more useful under-
taking.

About this time I heard a fine young Englishman tell a
story at a Group meeting which coincided with some of the
things told me by the young giant. He had been to Oxford,
but had deliberately kept away from Group influence because
he understood it would prevent him from enjoying himself
to the full. Later drunkenness and foolish squandering of an
allowance from his father's depleted resources became his

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chief difficulties. Not long after that I was with him as he
perused his father's letter just arrived. " 'Your last letter
made very unpleasant reading/ " he read aloud.

."Why?" I asked.

"Because I wrote and told father the truth about my past
life," replied the changed youth. "And now I'm jolly glad I
did."

Sending prodigal sons back to their earthly as well as their
Heavenly Father is a speciality of the Oxford Group.

One is constantly hearing stories of restitution from persons
who have been attracted into the Group, including one from
a very successful minister who preached a sermon which
created a deeper spiritual atmosphere than I had sensed in
a church for many years. He confessed to me that in his
early life he had stolen money, and found it necessary for
his piece of mind to call on the person he had robbed and
confess his sin. That man to-day is one of the most fruitful
Christians in the Group. A relative of mine was so struck
by his sermon that she said to me, "The difference between
that man and most preachers is he's real." When refusing a
knighthood John Galsworthy said, "Literature is its own re-
ward." The testimony of the Oxford Group is that absolute
honesty by anybody is its own reward. George Muller of
Bristol, who stole as a young man, and many another saint
found that a confession or restitution is the gateway to power.

I shall never forget the greeting received by a company of
the Group when we called on the Principal of a High School
in an important town.

"You are the fellows who took formality out of religion
and turned some of my students into honest boys." Or words
to that effect. He said that about twenty-five school-books,
purloined from the Library, had been returned as a conse-
quence of pur last visit to the city.

But what of the bad boy, the ugly duckling, with whom
nobody can deal? Garrett Stearly told me that in South Africa
the Group found such a boy; caned daily at school, moody
and morose at home, his great claim to fame had been winning
the junior swimming championship of his club.

He was bribed by his godfather to attend a Group house-

RESTITUTION IO7

party for the price of a cinema seat. At the party he was
caught off his guard by the friendliness of the people he met,
and soon found himself envying their state of abiding joy.
He decided to try Christianity, though he saw it might be
costly. First of all, there was that swimming championship
he had been six months over age when he won it, but no one
knew. He took his courage and his beloved trophy cup in
his hands and made a clean breast of it to the committee.

The swimming coach was aghast. "You've more nerve
than I have, my lad," he could only grunt as the lad walked
out, shorn of glory, but triumphant. Later, with the minister's
permission, he witnessed in his family church after the service,
and promised to restore several pounds that he had once stolen
from the collection plate. A man in the congregation was so
convicted that he sent back five pounds to a department store
in the capital value for goods quietly stolen some years be-
fore. The store sent the money on to the Oxford Group team,
telling them to keep up the good work.

Another convert restored jewellery stolen from the house
of a friend at which he was a guest.

"Was he really a friend?" I queried.

"There are friends and friends," was the laughing reply.
He's a real friend now.

In Asheville, North Carolina, I ran into some more lads
who had been captured by the Group's high challenge. One
of them told the following remarkable story :

"I believe without a doubt that I was the worst pupil ever
in the Asheville Senior High School. That is not only my
opinion, but the teachers' and the Principal's too. I wasn't
mean, but I took a great delight in telling lies and seeing them
through, which took bigger lies to make the little ones seem
true.

"After a year of lying, I began to have enough confidence
in myself to steal. I got money from my parents to buy books,
then kept the money and stole the books. Every day I would
go to school with a troubled mind and not quite satisfied.

"Then one day we had chapel, and the Principal announced
that the Oxford Group were going to speak to us. Well, I
thought, here goes another lecture, and I guess it will ruin our
freedom with the girls for a few weeks. So my buddy and I

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took a back seat and began to amuse ourselves. We carried on
until Frank Bygott, the Englishman, got up and spoke. We
thought his talk 'rawtha funny,' so we listened to him. When
he had finished, we also finished listening. Well, when the
talks were over we all went to our classrooms and forgot
about the Group for awhile.

"After supper, the same day that I had heard the speeches,
my buddy and myself decided to go over to our Sunday-
School league, get a couple of girls after the meeting, and go
for a ride. When we got there whom should we bump into
but Cleve Hicks ! The next night up in Cleve's room we sur-
rendered our lives to Christ.

"Well, I 'took off' and made up with my friends on the lies
I had told them. I humbled myself to the Principal, and in
doing so told him what I had found in life. He was in a
hurry to be about his business, but when he found out that
I had asked Christ to run my life he took time to give me a
lecture on keeping it up. When he had finished I thanked him
and walked out, saying to myself, 'Well, isn't that funny, mak-
ing a friend of somebody I never liked until to-day?'

"He wasn't the only friend I made. I confessed to everyone
I could recall telling a lie to, therefore making friends out of
enemies. And I also took back to the coach of the school
some football equipment I had stolen, and straightened out
affairs with girls. I have also been used to win fellows to
Jesus Christ."

The influence exercised over the typical lad by Cleve Hicks
is one of the many astonishing facets of Group activity. Cleve
told me the story of a Boston boy whom he had known before
he was sent to a Reformatory. The boy's parents, anxious
about their son, wanted Cleve to see him when he was released.
Cleve agreed, making the proviso that the boy come volun-
tarily, as he knew the danger of compulsory religion.

The boy came, and a heart-to-heart talk followed. Not long
afterwards the boy suddenly turned up again, face beaming,
altogether proud of himself; bursting to tell something im-
portant.

"I earned thirteen-fifty this week." (Spoken proudly.)

Cleve has his own methods.

"So?" (Spoken casually.)

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"All gone!" (Defiantly.)
"Yeah!" (Humorously.)

Cleve's casualness merely stimulated the boy to burst out
with the facts. When not stealing motor-cars, the boy and his
pals went in for petty thieving. One particular store in their
neighbourhood often suffered from their depredations. As one
of the young hooligans engaged the salesman's attention, the
others lifted what they could.

"I went back to the store and gave that man five bucks,"
proudly announced the lad.

Another of this young Bostonian's rackets was to break
into an elderly woman's house and damage the property. He
told Cleve:

"I went back to that old woman and asked her if she lived
there two years ago when the house was burgled. She looked
at me scared like, and said 'Yes.' Then I told her I was one
of the fellows who did that, and she looked more scared. Then
I gave her five bucks, and she almost died."

The remaining three dollars and fifty cents of the boy's
earnings that week had gone to another store from which he
had once coolly stolen a portable radio set, carrying it brazenly
out while the music was still playing.

Of course the best story that Cleve tells he forgot to tell me.
When he reads it here he will wonder how I got it, and where.
The Oxford Group were visiting a school in South Africa, at
which Cleve gave a clear presentation of the message to the
whole assembly. Some teachers afterwards were very sceptical,
and one master cynically asked if the Group could do anything
to help them recover school muskets which had been stolen.

"Look here!" exclaimed Cleve. "We are not detectives."
But he added that one never could tell what would happen
when the Spirit of God was working to make men honest.

The boys listened intently to his address, and one of them
at least felt God was giving him another chance. Nothing hap-
pened for several days. Then a boy came and tapped on
Cleve's door.

"Come in," said Cleve cheerily. "What are you here for?"

The boy was nonplussed. "I expected you to do the talking,
sir," he said. "I came to hear what you've got to say."

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"Bless your heart, you heard me in chapel. Now let's hear
you."

For half an hour the boy poured out that heart Cleve had
cheerily blessed. Still he seemed unsatisfied. Then Cleve had
an intuition.

"Do you know anything about some rifles around here?"

"Yes, sir," the boy blurted out. "That's really what I came
for."

And the theft of the muskets was admitted as well as of
many other items belonging to the school and the students.
From being the worst boy he developed into a spiritual force
and influenced strongly for good the lives of seventeen other
boys in that school.

Sometimes people become plus-honest men. One of my best
friends in the Group offered a former employer approximately
a thousand dollars as payment for a thousand hours stolen
when he should have been working, an offer which was re-
fused, though the honesty of purpose was recognised.

These stories of reconciliation and restitution all point to
new principles at work in the lives of persons encountered by
the Group, and are quoted to illustrate "the take off" of the
quality of life which this movement is striving to achieve. For
a long time I felt the Group were erecting far too formidable
barriers in the way of potential Christians ; and were turning
a simple leisurely flat race into a mighty Grand National
Steeplechase, with appalling fences, wide brooks, and sudden
turns to negotiate, which only the courageous few dare at-
tempt, and a tiny minority of them achieve. Those on the
verge of a change-over, I argued, might be driven away by
this unsympathetic and uncompromising teaching.

The Group replied that persons attracted to Christ could
not be driven away by an obvious Christian duty, since Christ
supplied the strength as well as the incentive. Nevertheless, I
had read no story of the disciples running around making
restitution. I thought Christ had said they were clean through
the word He had spoken unto them.

But the disciples may have had nothing to restore, or the
act of restitution was omitted from the story; while the law
of God unquestionably enjoined restitution, and Christ did

RESTITUTION III

say to Zaccheus, "This day is salvation come to thy house,"
when he announced he would fulfil God's law and restore
fourfold.

"Listen to the. guidance of the Holy Spirit," said the Group,
"and you will hear Him saying, 'Be ye reconciled one towards
another.' " I began to listen again. At first not too attentively.

Chapter Ten

THE OXFORD HOUSE-PARTY

AIOUT this time I left the group of newspapers I had served
for eight years and devoted myself to a smaller rival
prior to making a long-overdue visit to America. Once more
I attempted to get Frank's co-operation in a newspaper series
about the Oxford Group.

Frank knew I had taken his advice and seen the third per-
son he had urged me to see. I wondered if he now thought
my own spiritual life sufficiently cleaned up to entrust me with
all the facts of the Oxford Group. Evidently he did, for when
I called him on the trunk wire (long distance) he seemed
quite eager for me to come down to the Oxford house-party
which had just then started and begin work, although the
newspaper I then directed was not so powerful as the one I
had just left.

I went down twice to the 1931 house-party at Oxford, once
to describe the event, the second time to introduce some of
my friends.

My second visit to that twelve-day house-party gave me
further insight into the intensive methods of this consecrated
human engineer. I told Frank I wished my friends to meet
some of the men I already knew in the Group. Frank gave
me to understand he would see to things, although I knew he
was carrying the weight of the whole house-party. Instead of
introducing us to those I knew already, he collected several
other prominent figures in the Group to entertain us : one of
the surprising things that happen when you work with guided
people.

Furthermore, he had reserved a seat for me for lunch at
High Table, Lady Margaret Hall, between himself and a
young man he suspected of having the same problem to
conquer as the one I had revealed to him. And so, instead of
spending a leisurely luncheon-hour making interesting con-
versation in the accepted way of host to guest, Frank whis-

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pered in my ear a point about my neighbour on my left, and
bade me get busy telling the old, old story in the autobio-
graphical way common to the Group and the early Apostles :
so zealous is Frank in setting his friends working for others
by the simple means of narrating one's own experiences with
problems common to both. Mentally I handed Frank the blue
ribbon as an organiser of amateur evangelists.

Having recovered my breath, I turned to my neighbour,
son of a man I knew, whose book publisher had also been my
book publisher, and endeavoured to be helpful. I was not
sanguine of the results. I felt no sense of the Holy Spirit
impelling me to talk, no freedom from natural inhibitions.
Moreover, my neighbour was not at all interested in expurgat-
ing his possible besetting sin, but far more interested in
proving that it was not sin at all my original view. I tried to
quote a text or two from the New Testament which had
changed my opinion, but at that awkward moment could not
remember one correctly.

Then the door swung open, and a member of my own staff,
deputed to work the three colleges with the newspaper contain-
ing my first article on the Group, noisily entered and began
hawking the paper around the lunch-table, to my added
confusion. And this while at Frank's bidding I was try-
ing to cure the soul on my left of sinning the sin he said
was sinless. Another of many incongruous situations in
which one occasionally finds oneself as an enterprising
journalist.

The incongruity developed. I began talking to Loudon
Hamilton, a former Master at Eton, an elegant beau ideal of
the Guards' officer type, who gave me the story of Frank's
advent in Oxford which appears in an earlier chapter. Lunch
ended, and the party dissolved, while we two still talked. The
friends I had brought disappeared ; I hoped they were happy
under Frank's genial guidance. Loudon Hamilton was absorb-
ingly interesting ; more so to me because I have never met a
lay-evangelist who so thoroughly and convincingly in every
respect does not look the part.

I scrutinised his aristocratic features, listened to his aristo-
cratic voice, watched his aristocratic figure, and said to myself,

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"Everything about you makes me discredit you in this unsuit-
able role." And yet Loudon Hamilton is one of the most
completely-surrendered, fully-consecrated men in the Group.
He is a tremendous character. (Read his talk on sin in a later
chapter.) He has undergone the most severe self -discipline,
has given up "absolutely no end of things" ; he is "completely
in the saddle," and allows nothing to stand in the way of his
helping other men. He has learned to believe absolutely in
God, and trusts himself all the time to guidance by the Holy
Spirit.

It was a long time before I understood Frank's attitude to-
wards newspaper publicity. The Press invariably judged by
numbers, and persistently missed the spiritual genius of the
work and his great achievements with individual lives. At first
the newspapers ridiculed, criticised or made a futile attempt
at exposure. Never with anything to expose. The same attacks
from every type of assailant are directed against every deeply
spiritual movement, stimulated by the undoubted fact that
known charlatans are leading quack religious movements both
in England and America. The extraordinary thing about the
attitude of some newspapers is their complete inability to dis-
tinguish between the genuine and the counterfeit.

In rare cases Press criticisms, like individual criticisms, may
be occasioned by the high challenge of the teaching; but
usually that is not so. The Press know there are more scoffers
at, than believers in, a new religious movement, and are gen-r
erally on the side of the majority, until passage of time, public
recognition, and the patronage of the elect have convinced
them of the movement's success. For the Street of Ink is also
the Street of Snobs. Rarely does a newspaper courageously
investigate and accept the risks involved in a daring espousal
of a new religious stirring. Records showed that the work of
Moody in the British Isles had powerful and lasting results
among countless thousands. Yet Moody had his baptism of
Press opposition at the start. His success was all the more
amazing because he arrived in England to find that three
persons who had invited him over had all died during the six
months elapsing between his acceptance and arrival. So

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Moody started his great Crusade in the open air with no
money and no backing.

It was not until after King Edward VII had sent for
the aged William Booth and congratulated him on his work
for the submerged tenth that one dignified English news-
paper would print the word General without quotation
marks.

I heard some of the pioneering experiences of the first
General Booth from his own lips when a guest in his house at
Hadley Wood. The blind and aged warrior emphasised his
points by thumping my knee with his bony hand.

King Edward asked the old General how he got on with
his bishops.

"Sir, they imitate us !" wittily retorted the General, thinking
of the Church Army. A remark which tickled King Edward.
But before that interview had taken place in Buckingham
Palace William Booth had undergone great ridicule and perse-
cution without much support from Fleet Street.

Frank's desire to work through journalists who understood f
his ideals thoroughly and could be trusted not to misrepresent
them was quite understandable in the light of past experience^
Sanity suggested that the best way to help the journalists and
the movement was to change the journalists, if they needed
changing. As we are mostly a hard-boiled fraternity, nobody
is likely to dispute the general need. The percentage of
changed journalists is probably lower than the percentage of
changed publicans.

Though the circulation of the London newspaper in which
I ran the articles on the Oxford Group was small compared
with the vast sale we had built up for the newspaper I had just
left, we did quite well from our advocacy of the new move-
ment. My staff was tiny, and there was no appropriation for
advertising. Yet the circulation jumped immediately, con-
vincing me that had I run the series in a big way with the
great resources to which I had been accustomed it would have
been another outstanding journalistic success, even though
my booming methods might have developed more public
interest than the Group leadership could have coped with at
that time.

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We opened the new series with a banner line on page one
announcing :

REMARKABLE RELIGIOUS HOUSE-PARTY AT

OXFORD

Then under the sub-titles :

"OXFORD'S NEW RELIGIOUS MOVEMENT"

"B.A.s WHO LIVE ON FAITH AND PRAYER"

"FIREBRAND COMMUNIST'S CONVERSION"

I stated that : During the past fortnight there has been taking
place in three of the colleges of Oxford University a gigantic
international house-party that may eventuate in a world-
startling religious revival.

Oxford may be the home of lost political causes ; it is indis-
putably the home of several religious awakenings that have
stirred the five continents. Already the new religious move-
ment centred in this remarkable house-party is awakening the
most somnolent of all sleepers the intellectuals. B.A.'s,
M.A.'s, LL.B/s, M.B.'s, honours men and women in great
number, and many Oxford Dons are to be seen at the meeting-
rooms in the three colleges or strolling together arm-in-arm
on the rose-bordered lawns discussing nothing more intellec-
tual or scientific than "Christ the Wisdom and Power of
God," and the need of daily self-surrender to Him as the
solution of life's riddle.

Yet the house-party is not forbiddingly highbrow. The mid-
brow visitor notices immediately the absence of every sign of
intellectual snobbery; indeed, of every human affectation or
mannerism likely to drive the curious and pagan inquirer hur-
riedly back into his protecting shell. For whatever he first
thinks of the teaching, he has no alternative but to like the
product of the Oxford Groups forming the house-party.

A healthier, livelier, gayer, more courteous and unselfish
band of cultured men and women does not exist. Here at St.
Hugh's, St. Hilda's, Lady Margaret Hall are groups of young
and middle-aged men and women who are taking Christianity
to its logical limits and practising the faith, courage and reck-
lessness of the early Apostles.

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These five hundred or so, drawn from all churches and no
churches, do not stand for a point of view as the price of a
safe seat in Paradise, but for a quality of life. They accept the
New Testament as marching orders for daily activities, inter-
preted and guided by the constant directing presence of the
Holy Spirit. And all unitedly proclaim that Christianity, when
put into unrestricted practice, becomes not the impossible ideal
of popular belief, but the only working basis for a joyous
life.

A new automobile may stop, a race-horse may die, the wire-
less may fade out, and a watch run down. But the Acts of the
Apostles continue; they appear to continue impressively in
many acts of the groups now gathered at Oxford University,
who find in the New Testament the secret of perpetual motion
galvanising any man, any woman, any type, any class, in any
age, into unexpected vitality and startling power.

Oxford's new religious movement is neither Methodist nor
Tractarian; it includes both wings of the Christian religion.
Through a unity in common action, many of divers religious
beliefs, and more of none, have reached an altitude of Chris-
tian experience which may hold the one possible solution for
modern world problems.

The man through whom the movement came into being is
a buoyant, alert, broad-shouldered, vital man of middle age-
one who gives the impression of holding a reservoir of secret
power, which he would explain as "being filled with the
Spirit." He is a single man. I asked him why he had not
married. Frank beamed through and around his spectacles.

"Just because I have never been guided to marry."

Oxford's new religious movement started because Frank
found he was not making converts as the early Christians
made converts. What was the matter with Christianity or with
Frank? He found out, and evolved a technique to put his
discoveries into practice, with such astonishing results that he
seems to be capturing the cream of the world's universities for
vital Christianity.

The Group has the blessing of Anglican and Nonconformist

.Churches. The Bishop of Leicester and Chancellor R. J.

Campbell and Dr. Herbert Gray (Presbyterian) are but three

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of many well-known clerics and ministers visiting the house-
party.

Most of the "cloth" present are in disguise. They conform
to the informal nature of the Oxford Group by wearing mufti,
although there are no rules as to dress or conduct. Visitors
may smoke, drink, do what they like. Yet nobody takes intoxi-
cants, and a visiting lady novelist had the utmost difficulty in
borrowing a match from what seemed literally a matchless
group.

There are probably a thousand groups scattered about the
world to-day, each meeting informally as a little house-party,
where religion can be talked naturally without formality. New
groups are constantly springing up under the Holy Spirit's
guidance. There is one in Harley Street, another in Fleet
Street, and one for prisoners in a British gaol.

Some of the changed lives are so outstandingly interesting
that books containing stories of a few have already become
good sellers. Men and women who have seen little in church
membership suddenly challenged to surrender everything
time, money, ambitions to God and order their lives by Holy
Spirit guidance are constantly capitulating, including those in
the higher walks of life.

But there are picturesque captures mingling with the
scholars, including James Watt, until recently the firebrand
Communist organiser for Fifeshire, a miner, who once lived
on the dole and used it to propagate the principles of
Bolshevism; who admits that when least satisfied with his
own moral code he stifled his conscience by stirring up dis-
affection at open-air meetings, invariably resulting in clashes
with the police. This ex-Communist namesake of the inventor
of the steam-engine, proud of his sandy hair and his new
life, has for months past been living on faith and prayer
: without the dole, while propagating first-century Christianity.

Being a Scot, he decided to move with caution in his new
faith. He carefully tried out all the teachings of the Oxford
Group to see if they worked. Discovering that some lived by
faith, he and two others, feeling guided to do the same, spent
the little money they had in furnishing two rooms in Glasgow.
/ They read the New Testament, prayed, had Quiet Times each
day listening to God, moved among the working-class preach-

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ing vital Christianity, asked for no money, and waited to see
if supplies arrived. Food came, clothes came, money sometimes
came. James Watt reached Oxford with a few shillings, and
spoke in Mansfield College chapel last Sunday to a congrega-
tion of astonished highbrows.

Although it is not the practice of all in the groups to live
on faith nor does the teaching enjoin it there are many at
the house-^party who are actually doing so. At least thirty-five
of them have been living without an assured income for
several years ; some for ten years. All have piquant stories
to tell of their faith being tested to the last penny and the
last minute ; though none has ever gone hungry save through
voluntary fasting. Nor do they ask for money or take collec-
tions. And this is an age of insurances and tumbling dividends.

A woman novelist, pretty but sceptical, challenged one of
those who lived on faith with the accusation :

"You mean you live on others ?"

He quietly replied: "We all live on other people. What
counts is our own contribution to the world. You may work
eight hours a day. Some of us work eighteen with no salary."

Frank has lived on faith for ten years or more. A working
day in his life would appal the average business man. It usually
begins at about 5.30 every morning. From then until 6.30 he
spends, to quote his own words, "one hour of quiet alone with
the living God" to obtain direction for the day. During house-
parties at 7.30 a.m. he attends the first meeting of the Inner
Group, some of whom live on faith, and all act on the principle
of the Holy Spirit's guidance. Plans are received and dis-
cussed, speakers for the day are appointed, and work is al-
lotted. And so on for a full-length day of speaking, guiding,
counselling, until nearly midnight meetings to discuss the
principles of Christian living, others for Bible study ; more for
witness, for converts to announce changed lives and to share
experiences.

Though it is not claimed that every thought received and
expressed is inspired by the Holy Spirit, there are innumer-
able proofs (when the work is reviewed over a period) of
supernatural guidance, the divine leading that might be ex-
pected when a body of men and women meet often together
courageously obedient to any indication of the will of God.

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All are receptive to the Inner~Ypice, which they say is one
voice unfolding through them, though not through them alone
not a five-year plan, but a majestic eternal plan for the
redemption of humanity.

i

The first article so pleased Frank that he posted it to nearly
ten thousand people. His enthusiasm amused me, seeing that
not many weeks before he thought I was not spiritually capable
of writing about the movement. The article was reprinted in
part or in full in several American and English journals. It
was quoted in various pulpits. I constantly heard echoes of it
as I moved about the Western World.

Chapter Eleven

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HOUGH Frank knew everybody and everybody knew
Frank at the house-party he was never in the forefront
of things, and pleasantly evaded my attempts to draw him out
for journalistic purposes. So I began to collect stories about
him from his friends in case he permanently escaped my
attempts to put him "on the spot." Presently I was in posses-
sion of such a sheaf of remarkable stories about him that in
self-defence he had to verify them and modify them with me.
But they still remain remarkable.

At first I liked Frank very much, then not so much, until
I began to understand him thoroughly. Afterwards I dis-
covered my experience was similar to that of many of his
firmest friends.

Ken Twitcheirs brother Han told me that when he first
saw Frank at a Group meeting bustling about, talking gaily
to everybody, he disliked him; yet he is now one of Frank's
best friends and greatest admirers.

The irritation shown against Frank by some was explained
to me by Sam Shoemaker of Calvary Church, New York, who
said, "It is like this. You go to a doctor and he gives you
medicine. You don't like the medicine, but it is none the less
good for you."

Moreover, Frank does not attempt to dominate meetings or
house-parties or people. He uses meetings as means for train-
ing his young men to become leaders and to carry on the work
when he has gone.

"I don't know how you manage to make your parties go so
well without leading them !" exclaimed the Bishop of Norwich
to Frank, when looking admiringly on at the Cambridge house-
party in Selwyn College in April 1932. Frank smiled acknowl-
edgments, but still kept in the background.

While travelling in a railway train in Canada, just before
one of his early visits to China, there came home vividly to

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Frank the recognition that Christianity has a moral backbone.
That moral Bolshevism precedes political Bolshevism. And
that to make Christianity vitally productive he could not afford
to miss making the moral test with persons who consulted
him. To speak with a person about his thought-life is con-
sidered indelicate by the old-fashioned and the mock-modest ;
yet, apparently, the results completely vindicate the practice.
Frank's object is merely to strengthen the man in his weak
spot. He finds it the most effective way of putting religion
over to people who have no faith, only problems.

Frank has had many experiences of the wisdom of taking
nobody for granted. He may be a clergyman, an elder or a
vestryman in a church, a Sunday-school superintendent, and
yet need ruthless moral surgery. Frank declines to accept the
division of the world into two classes saved and unsaved.
Christ was emphatic as to which of these two classes the
professionally religious, and the publicans and sinners most
needed changing, for with scathing irony He said, "I came
not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." Frank
believes the Pharisee is still as much in need of spiritual
attention as the publican. One of the best stories of Frank,
told in this connection, is by H. A. Walter, in Soul-Surgery:

In New York City a University student leader came to
talk with Frank about entering the Christian ministry. He had
just been attending a conference on the ministry at which
brilliant addresses had interested but not convinced him. . . .
Frank answered his questions to the best of his ability, but
still the man seemed unsatisfied. They had finished dinner
with very little accomplished, and Frank then invited him to
his room for further conversation. In time the student opened
a little more and said, "I'll tell you why I couldn't enter the
ministry. I want my own way too much."

"Isn't there anything else?" Frank asked, and the student
said, "No."

Then Frank was told what he should say as suspicion be-
came conviction ; and, leaning forward, he said quite naturally :

"Isn't your trouble . . . ?"

The barrier of pride crumbled away . . . and a new begin-
ning was made on a sure foundation which transformed the

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young man. ... As they were walking together to the Sub-
way, the student said (and it is worth remembering) :

"Frank, I'd have cursed you to-night if you had not got at
my real need."

One of many examples of the wisdom Frank shows in
taking nobody for granted.

Frank was attending a conference for students when he
heard the story of a piece of life-changing work which was
the inspiration of his future. A young fellow of limited means
told how he had worked hard to help a well-to-do freshman
known as Dick (in with a fast set), who was so busy getting
into mischief that he was unable to prepare his lessons.

The speaker rose early and worked through his own les-
sons, and then at 7 a.m. knocked on the door of his prodigal
protege. Naturally Dick was much too tired to wake up; he
sleepily murmured his intention to cut lessons for that morn-
ing. Nevertheless, the student entered, got him dressed, and
so helped him through his preparation that his recitation was
the best he had done for a considerable time. After about
six months of this assistance Dick observed that he would
give the world to be as good a fellow as his friend. To which
he replied:

"Well, so you can."

"But you don't know my problems. I'm a different type
from you."

His friend insisted there were no types who could not live
the life through the power of his Friend Jesus Christ as
Dick, too, found from that time onwards.

Frank heard this story told, and said to himself that if a
poor student could take so much trouble to help another man,
he could surely do the same. Hitherto nobody had told him
how. But he decided that his life's objective must be to win
men, no matter who they were. Immediately he drove a stake
in, vowing to win a man before he got home. He thought this
would be easy, although it had been a long job for the student.

On his way home, Frank was to visit New York, where
he assumed he would have plenty of opportunity. In New
York things began to crowd in on him those things which
are the great enemy keeping us from men so that he forgot

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about his vow until he was on the point of leaving the city.
As he was buying his ticket, he suddenly remembered he had
not won his man. He grew hot and cold and bothered. How
could he go home? He must find one needing changing on
the spot. Frank caught sight of a coloured porter, in a red
cap, looking as fat and shiny as butter. "Here's my man,"
said Frank, and started in, feeling very scared about his first
adventure in life-changing.

"George, are you a Christian?"

"No, bawss," said the darky, startled.

"Then you ought to be a Christian."

"I know, bawss. Other people have told me that. But I don't
know how, bawss. What's more, I'm scared."

Two people scared of the same subject, comments Frank,
Everybody seems scared to talk sanely about religion, which
is why we fail.

"Why are you scared ?" asked Frank, hiding his own fright.

"My brother's coming down the river from Sing-Sing. He's
got religion up there, and I don't know how to handle him."
Frank's own attitude towards George.

"Now, George, you've got to be a Christian," commanded
Frank, not knowing what more to say, or how better to express
himself at that time.

"Yes, bawss, I will."

"Thus ended," says he, "my first crude attempt to bring the
unsearchable riches of Christ to another man. Whether he
became a Christian or not in time to meet his brother coming
.out of prison, or afterwards, I cannot tell. But that day the
ice was broken on a new life-work. Another crisis was passed
which released me for one of the most glorious adventures
that is open to man. It showed me what ordinary men like
myself may be privileged to do in life-changing on a big scale."

What is the secret of Frank's amazing power over himself,
over his colleagues, over everyone who knows him well ? Just
the power of a positive personality, is the first assumption.
Then one discovers that is not so. He is a long way from the
domineering character who carries everyone with him by sheer
force. Pleasant, suave, obliging, eternally merry, active,
strong-willed, if you like. But not an overwhelming force

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breaking down all obstacles by the ruthless drive of the leader
born. Whence, then, the secret of his astonishing power over
others ? He revealed it to me on the afternoon of Easter Day,
during one of his gay chats over tea at Oxford.

I was very busy (Frank began) working eighteen to twenty
hours every day. So busy that I had two telephones in my
bedroom. Still I was dissatisfied with the results. There was
a constant coming and going, but the changes in the lives of
my visitors were inadequate, and not revolutionary enough to
become permanent. So I decided on a radical procedure to
give that hour of the day from five to six in the morning
when the 'phones were unlikely to ring to listen for the Still
Small Voice to inspire and direct.

The only thing that came to me during the first morning
hour of listening to the Living God was three words, really
the same word repeated three times : the nickname of a happy-
go-lucky fellow in the University

"Tutz, Tutz, Tutz."

This young man's grandmother used to call on my mother
and ask if Frank couldn't do something to improve her grand-
son. I had prayed that Tutz would be changed, though until
that time I had not the inclination to cross his track. But that
same morning the first person I met on the green was Tutz,
coming leisurely along, smoking a cigarette and just late for
lectures as usual. My first thought was against speaking to
him just then that I was not sure about my message, as the
word Tutz might just have come to me out of my sub-
conscious self or from the evil one. But there came again the
same insistent message of the morning, "Tutz, Tutz, Tutz."

Knowing I must not evade, I said to Tutz, "Would you
like to have a chat with a football friend of mine who knows
how to put the great truths of life and make them effective
for ordinary people just like ourselves ?"

"Yes," he said, "I'd like to," showing that fine sense of
abandon of the interesting sinner always ready for a new
adventure.

Now Tutz had come from a normal Christian family, had
been confirmed, but the strain of prep school life, and later
the University, had veered him from the straight and narrow.

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He had talent, and did well in Dramatics, in which he always
played the girl's part, and made a great hit with the audience,
for he knew just how to swish his train to create the maximum
comic effect. When the Dramatic Club went on tour, the show
would always conclude with a dance, into which Tutz would
put a lot of kick and go. And when he returned later to their
private car, he would never forget to say his prayers before
going to sleep.

I accompanied him to the football player, and so readily did
my friend understand him, his problems, his open faults and
secret sins, and the divided life that goes with them, his sense
of defeat and unhappiness, that Tutz made a decision to sur-
render his life to Christ, the great Friend of sinners. He gave
himself to God to have and to hold from that time forward
for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, till death. Later
he came to me radiant with his new experience, whereupon
I challenged him: "How about telling your friends the story?"

"Tell my friends ! They'd all laugh."

"But you like the laughter of your friends at the play. The
more laughter you get the more you are pleased."

The thing I like about interesting sinners like Tutz is they
have imagination. Give them a chance to look, and they leap.
He went back to his club, and found all his friends sitting
about the hall waiting for the luncheon-bell to ring. The gay
young Tutz breezed in and announced, "Well, I suppose you
will all laugh when I tell you what I did this morning."

Everyone was most interested. Tutz usually had something
to say that was spicy and amusing. He may have been pulling
the leg of some Don or picking up some good new story.
He simply said :

"Well, I decided to change my life this morning."

Here was news ! They waited eagerly. He must tell them
all about it. They sat on the edge of their chairs listening
breathlessly to the happenings of the morning, and the gong
for lunch clanged unnoticed.

One of the auditors named Bill who had a racing car
with room for someone next him and something in the rumble
seat behind, said, "I'd like to see that football fellow." Tutz
said, "Right. I'll telephone and make an appointment." He

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came on to the constantly; ringing telephone, "Can Bill come
this afternoon?"

"Certainly."

"When?"

"Any time."

Frank continued :

That's the marvellous thing about the busy college men.
They can always make time immediately for something they
really want to do. Bill came to see my friend, and he, too,
found the new power that day and became a changed man,
with Christ as his King and Guide. Later the same day I was
standing with the Chaplain, whom everybody called Bob. His
popularity rested on the short sermons he preached and his
interest in sport, but rarely met men's deepest needs.

Tutz came up with Bill and said to me, "You know Bill's
with me on this." I said, "Bully for you, Bill." Bob the
Chaplain added that it was about time he made a change. Then
Bill rounded on Bob something like this : "We've known each
other a long time, Bob. I used to admire you for your 'Varsity
letter. Then you came up here as our Chaplain and coach and
played around with us, but you'd have let me go straight to
hell for all you cared about my real need."

This indictment of the Chaplain by Bill made me shudder
(says Frank) , as it might very well have been said to me that
I was looking after men's bodies instead of their deepest needs
had I not been listening to God for an hour early that morn-
ing, although only three words came, from which two souls
were reborn in one day. But that day I found the secret of
true education. The Holy Spirit is the Light, the Guide, the
Teacher, the Power. What I am able to do I do through the
power that comes in the early hour of morning quiet, waiting
and watching for the voice of the Living God to break through
the shadows of the night.

There was a sequel to the story of Tutz. Seven years after-
wards I was asked to preach for a Rector, who advised,
"Make it short, so they will come back for the second service
to-night." As I was about to close I felt the Holy Spirit say-
ing to me, "Tell them the story of Tutz. Tell the story of
Tutz." Seven years' experience of the Still Small Voice had

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taught me the necessity of prompt obedience. So I told this
story. The church was large. There was much stained glass,
and the congregation were difficult to see. As I got into the
story I noticed a movement on the left half-way down the
church. At the end of the service who should come up to see
me but Tutz, Mrs. Tutz, Baby Tutz, and Father-in-law Tutz,
all of whom had been in the church without my knowing they
were present.

Tutz had held faithfully on for seven active, fruitful years.
His wife was on his side too. And his father-in-law. And
Baby Tutz would probably be coming along later.

"That went big this morning," announced Tutz, as he came
up to me, adding, "I wouldn't have been teaching a Sunday-
school class in this church but for your accosting me that
morning on the College green."

And somehow, because I had enlarged my theme with the
Tutz story in the morning, the congregation enlarged itself
automatically for Evensong (adds Frank).

Frank learned long ago that he must never scold. To scold
is not to understand. To scold is the negation of the story
of the Prodigal Son. It is the whole question of nagging, he
says, that makes the average home uncomfortable. The home
atmosphere must be lifted above that undesirable, all-pervading
human sin. One way to do that is to remember with Kipling
never to look too good or talk too wise. Frank has developed
the art of looking into the face of a man and reading like a
book the life he is leading. He has developed the sense of
never being shocked.

"I am quite unshockable," he told me.

"Has a man ever confessed murder to you?"

He laughed.

"I knew you were going to ask that. I have been in con-
demned cells, but I think I had better not say whether I have
heard murder confessions. We mustn't be sensational."

I mentioned that a clergyman told me he had listened to con-
fessions of murder by four persons, and I had published these
under his name in a signed article in a British publication.
Had Frank received such a confession? But he still avoided
the question.

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If a murderer confessed he might say, "Tell me all about
it. How did you do it?"

Frank's reluctance to disclose another's secrets is under-
standable. All ministers of the Gospel hear extraordinary
confessions from sinners and treat what they hear as con-
fidential, a practice adhered to in the Group unless the person
who confesses himself makes it public.

Fear of a censorious attitude by the listener often preTents
honest sharing which might end the chaos in many homes
where the ideal life could quite easily be led.

Frank believes it possible for sons and daughters to return
home and frankly disclose the story of their daily life, instead
of contributing to the general conspiracy of secrecy as to the
real doings of the day so common in many homes, secrecy
inspired by an artificial restraint first introduced by the
parents. He knew a mother whose chief hobby was temper-
ance, but all of her children became drunkards. If she had
known better how to get into the lives of her children by
confessing her own weaknesses, instead of warning them so
often against theirs, she might not have driven them all to
drink.

According to Frank, the same judicious practice of sharing
would prevent many sons and daughters from being driven
away from their homes by misunderstanding parents. There
was as much need for prodigal parents to return to their for-
giving sons and daughters who had been driven away by
nagging and the unwillingness to share as for prodigal chil-
dren to return to their earthly parents. Furthermore, there
was too much assumed horror by parents at their children's
repetition of their own early sins. Sex problems would cease
to exist in homes where parents were honest about their own
problems in an effort to help without affectation or censori-
ousness.

Frank learned the necessity of avoiding scolding when help-
ing George through one of his early problems. George was
sixteen, with blue eyes and blonde hair, a slight figure, a blue
suit with long trousers. He was a double orphan. On the day
of his mother's funeral his two sisters were sent to an orphan-

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age and, there being nowhere for George to go, Frank invited
him to his own home.

"I tried to make him feel comfortable with me," said Frank.
"I sat next to him, told him my best stories and tried to make
him interested. That was Tuesday. On the Friday night after
dinner George said he would like to go down-town. I said,
'Yes,' but I knew I had not yet got his confidence. You can
sit at the same table with a person and say a lot of things,
and yet not know him.

"It was a long summer evening. About nine-thirty I looked
'out of the window, and saw young sixteen-year-old George
zig-zagging up the street with the pavement not quite wide
enough for him. I watched him as he tried to get into the
house. He missed the bell, and so no one came, which made
him furious. Then he began to shake the door violently.

"Most people shake the door when they ought to shake
themselves. I felt very unhappy about George as I went to the
door and let him in. ..."

When Frank has reached this point in his story, he usually
asks, What would you do with George? Some suggest a
shower, aspirin, black coffee, soda-water, a scolding. Frank
let George severely alone for a while, after making sure that
he had gone safely to bed, without George knowing he was
looking after him. Nor did Frank go down to breakfast next
morning with George, knowing that if he saw the bloodshot
eye he might say something he would regret later. During
his Quiet Time guidance definitely came that he should go
down to the wholesale millinery store where George worked
and meet him there. He asked the Jewish manager if he could
see George.
"Certainly, sir."

George came up the hall-like corridor, and immediately he
saw Frank his head fell and he blushed, although Frank had
said nothing. Most people, Frank observes, who want to help
others seem to think they must publish abroad their sins. He
asked George what about lunch together.
George said, "Excellent."

They went along to a restaurant with the manager's per-
mission to take a full hour. They started the meal with

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oysters, George as silent as a dam. They came to the fish,
and while picking the bones George said, hesitatingly:

"I was drunk last night."

Frank heard the admission in silence. Presently George
mustered up courage to go a bit further :

"You know it didn't cost me very much/'

Frank again said nothing, but his comment to me on this
excuse was, "There are people who think it mitigates the
offence if the sin is not too expensive."

Presently George said, "You teach a Sunday-school class ?"

"Yes," said Frank, and left it at that.

Frank observes here that most people would think the oc-
casion was now ripe for a pious talk, which would probably
have satisfied their conscience, but not cured George, for his
full confidence had not yet been won.

Finally George said, "I made up my mind last night as I
came up Twentieth Street that if you scolded me I would go
out and do it again."

Most people, according to Frank, are sober enough for
some clear thinking even when drunk. As it was, George
dropped his drink, turned up at Sunday-school next Sunday,
and became a worker with remarkable talents who could do
for boys more than Frank was ever able to do, as he was
nearer their age and had a ready point of contact. In time
George came to be the secretary of a national chain of Bible-
classes organised by a well-known amateur pugilist who be-
longed to one of the old families.

I saw Frank from another angle when discussing him with
Cleve Hicks, a former Chaplain at Harvard.

"Frank is nobody's fool," said Cleve. "And he can deal
trenchantly with anyone if needful."

"Has he dealt trenchantly with you ?" I queried.

Cleve has a merry smile and a jolly, well-upholstered figure.

"We were having a Quiet Time, and I was feeling very
undisciplined," Cleve admitted. "I had a lot of fear of the
future and had been slack about morning devotions. Frank
asked me if I had anything to share among a big Group, and
I said, 'No.' Frank looked straight at me and said, 'Cleve,
you are sleek and unconvincing.' "

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"And what did you tell him he looked like?"

Cleve regarded me sleekly and replied convincingly, "I said
nothing; but I had no fear of him. I knew he was right." '

"On another occasion," continued Cleve, "we were having
a Quiet Time when Frank announced, 'Cleve needs dynamic
change. Hold him lovingly to maximum experience of Christ.
Opposition but great fruitage in years ahead.' "

Cleve was intrigued by this prophecy, and made a note of
it. The prophecy is already being fulfilled.

Frank is a stickler for courtesy and good manners. A young
man attending a house-party in Holland omitted to thank his
host as Frank and the team were leaving. On the way to the
station, Frank discovered the omission, and insisted on the
car being driven back and the host properly thanked. Immedi-
ate restitution !

If any of his young men are leaving England for another
country, he warns them to learn the customs and fit in with
the social code of the land they visit. For these international
house-parties he always endeavours to see that people from
one country are agreeable to those from other countries, and
that everyone is comfortable.

While he is sensitive to unfair criticism of his work, and
has the settled conviction that the Holy Spirit is with him,
he dislikes arguing about the Tightness of his methods of
teaching. He prefers to change his critics, thereby giving them
a personal demonstration of the practicality of liis work. As,
for instance, when a gathering of American, psychiatrists
asked him to come and explain his methods, he used all the
time of the interview endeavouring to turn them into Chris-
tian psychologists like himself.

If he could have been harnessed to any organisation he
would have made a Napoleon of organisers. His Oxford
friends told me that when he arrived at a house-party he
would ask a few questions and immediately gather together
all points in his well-ordered brain, quickly infusing more
life and hilarity into the proceedings. And withal so simply
and so naturally that you were always in danger of overlook-
ing 1 his bigness.

Only after you had left him, and one of his apt sayings

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"We are an organism, not an organisation" or kindly just-
right actions recurred to you would you observe, "Ah, Frank
said that!" Or, "Fancy Frank doing that just at the right
moment !"

Frank insists there is no difference in sin wherever it is
committed. He crystallises the point by saying, "Crows are
black the wide world over" a favourite slogan of the Group.
Immorality in Paris or theft in China is just as sinful as
immorality or theft in England. But when a team was ad-
dressing an audience of negroes in South Africa, the slogan
was changed to, "Grass is green the wide world over."

I asked one of Frank's friends if he had ever seen him
angry. "Only once," he replied. "Frank was addressing a
public meeting, and waxed very angry with those selfish, lazy
persons who wanted their relatives changed to Christians but
were unwilling to do the tackling themselves."

"That's your job," is Frank's uncompromising rejoinder to
most of these petitions. A rejoinder which makes him tem-
porary enemies because of its truth. A young man who con-
fessed that his trouble was sex was given the slogan, "Watch
your eyes." Frank believes that Christ meant what He said
that "every one that looketh on a woman to lust after her
hath committed adultery with her already in his heart/' First
the look, then the thought, then the fascination, then the fall.
But the fall might be a fall in thought. It was better to look
away, to think of other things, and better still to be actively
engaged in changing others, which produced the highest joy
in life.

The number of religious books Frank has given away would
fill a public library. His travelling-cases are packed with
Group publications suitable for different spiritual diseases. He
uses so many that he buys wholesale.

He is a religious colporteur freely distributing samples of
the commodity most needed by everybody. Those who accept
the books usually allow him to pay for them. Occasionally
one more thoughtful will leave him the price.

"Were you guided to leave that?" he crackles.

As you were merely refusing to accept goods for nothing
from one who lives on faith and prayer you reply :

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"Yes."

Though you are not quite sure about it.

A point that his friends stress about Frank is the utter
selflessness of the man, the absolute identification of his own
personality with the intangible development of the Body of
Christ on earth. He is perfectly willing to be out of the pic-
ture, to be humiliated, scandalised, or, if necessary, to assume
and exert all authority. No Group meeting ever goes with
quite the swing and vitality as one run by him. Frank is fear-
ful of putting too great dependence on personalities, and is
out to modify rather than exalt himself or his friends, since
humility is the true Christian characteristic. He believes in
perfect freedom of action even without the money to buy it.
He has been known to take his last penny out of the bank to
help some person whose urgent needs seemed to entitle him
to it. When Frank has no money he prays for it.

When first I met Frank he had been praying for money
to help a man with whom he was sharing his linen.

The money came.

He prayed with the person who brought it. Frank thanked
God, first for telling him the money would come, and then
for sending the money.

He is scrupulously careful not to waste money on anything.
Frank asks guidance for expenditure on postage. Yet without
a qualm he will spend a thousand pounds if he feels he should
do so and if he has the money. He emptied his pockets to help
a team to visit South Africa to found the Groups there.

Sometimes persons who have little or no money, but are
touched by his zeal, express a wish to help him.

For instance, a devoted maidservant in a house in Scotland,
where Frank was staying, told him the only way she could
help him was to wash his linen, which she would be glad to do.

And so every week when Frank is in England his laundry
goes to Scotland and is washed free by "a braw Scotch
lassie."

It is impossible to understand Frank at all unless he is
thought of as always in God's presence, listening for direc-

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tion and accepting power, which he says is the normal way
for a sane human being to live. Frank is an example of the
psychologically mature man, thoroughly integrated round the
highest relationship possible to man. The interesting part of
this is the amazingly practical way his guidance works out.

If a man's life is thoroughly integrated in God, he finds a
dominant purpose in which everything fits. It does not mean
rigidity, but being so flexible as to be responsive to unex-
pected opportunities giving further opportunities to serve
God, whose ways are not men's ways, as Paul found when
he was going his roundabout way to Rome.

Frank is perfectly disciplined. He does not wander volun-
tarily in his spiritual life: he goes direct to the Source all
the time, and expects the Source to come direct to him. What- 4
ever he does he feels must be right, since he is doing what is '
the guided thing for him to do.

Through his constant practice of losing his life daily he
has come to find himself. He awakes in the morning with the
idea that to-day is not his day, but God's day. Losing his
life, he finds it all the time. The result of his discipline is
abounding energy which he is confident comes from the
Holy Spirit. This discipline at the heart of the movement
means complete freedom. The paradox of Christianity.

Frank is a child listening to God and obeying Him im~ \
plicitly, and getting all those around him to do the same. And \
no one will ever understand this movement who does not ac- [
cept this as a working hypothesis, whether he believes it or
not at the start. After a time he begins to see it is true.

As I thought of Frank living this listening-in life, I felt
that it was excellent in theory, but impossible in general prac-
tice. And then the former Master of Selwyn (Dr. Murray)
lent me the notes of one of his lectures on Prayer, in which
I found this paragraph, which gave me a better understanding
of Frank:

"For our life here is not meant to be a monotonous and
lonely tramp on a treadmill. It is meant to be a brisk, an
intelligent and adventurous march onward towards a goal
which, however distant and however dimly discerned, is cer-

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tain because God has appointed it. But it can only become this
in proportion as we hear and respond to the call of God, to
co-operate with Him in the bringing in of His Kingdom. And
when you come to look under the surface of our Lord's teach-
ing on Prayer, you see that it is all directed to secure just
this harmonious and effective co-operation.

"It was, of course, as we learn especially from St. John's
Gospel, just this kind of life that Jesus Himself lived in the
flesh. His meat was to do the will of Him that sent Him, to
finish His work. His whole being was supported by conscious
communion with His Father. His life was brightened by the
consciousness of His Father's approval. He was always watch-
ing for a signal from His Father's hand, so all that He did
was not His own doing, but His Father's. The Spirit of His
Father taught Him what to say."

Frank, following his Master, is always waiting for his
Master's signals.

Everybody associated with Frank, like Frank himself, gets
a new quality out of this basis of life, as well as some pain
the pain of the Cross. Frank gets the disappointments which
come when someone for whom he has an enlarged vision fails
to attain to Olympus. But he is supremely human, and does
not harden himself through another's failure. He is never too
busy to think humanly. He lives more of an objective life
than anyone I know. That is one answer to any who suggest
that he encourages introspection.

He is always thinking of other people. He loves festivals ;
his birthday list is long and growing; he is a great man at
any celebration. He is a dominating character, but does not
believe in domination, for that kills initiative. Meet him and
you may not like him, becausq he does not appreciate you
too much at your present worth, the reason being that he
wants to get you to a higher altitude : more spiritual exercise
and more spiritual air. For, says he, the spirit, like the body,
needs food, air and exercise.

Frank has a way with, him for every occasion. A young
Presbyterian minister told me that when travelling with Frank

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he repeatedly noticed his amazing solicitude for the welfare

of others. He had seen Frank stop suddenly in the midst of

a discussion to inquire if a fire had been placed in somebody's

room, or adequate preparations made for another's arrival or

; departure. When the last Oxford house-party was breaking

; up, I observed Frank stealing round the dinner-table to some

of his friends with fine singing voices arranging a farewell

chorus for the housekeeper at Lady Margaret Hall. Under

Frank's vigorous direction they sang heartily :

For she's a jolly good fellow,
And so say all of us.

Typical of Frank's spontaneous good-will and Tightness of
action.

Once Frank wittily amplified to me his teaching about Shar-
ing by saying, "Love's blind, but the neighbours ain't." We
may think our sins are securely hidden, but directly we begin
to disclose a few, we usually find our neighbour is already
aware of them. If anyone doubts this, try it and see.

Frank has a counterpart of his saying about the neighbours
in the aphorism, "Read men more than books." If we really
want to help men, we must get oftener into their lives than
into the bookshelves. He once asked the late Dr. F. B. Meyer
(of Christ Church, London), a famous saint and a powerful
preacher, how a man could have power in the pulpit.

"By answering on Sundays the questions your congrega-
tions ask you on week-days," was the answer.

That meant he must be getting into the lives of his flock
all the week to know their real needs when Sunday came.

Sam Shoemaker (Rector of Calvary)' told me that when
someone accused Frank of having no interest in the Second
Coming he flashed back :

"Why talk of the Second when so many know nothing of
the First?"

Not that he is less interested in the Second Coming than
other ministers ; he urges men and women to cut out sin and
keep it out; then they know what it means to hope for and
are always ready for the Second Advent.

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"I have never seen a man so completely surrendered to
God as Frank," said Sam Shoemaker. "He is the most dis-
ciplined personality I know. Everything he has is absolutely
given up to God. I have seen him at night seated in his chair
thoroughly done in with his day's untiring labours for God,
pale and utterly exhausted. Then the door opens and in walks
another opportunity for service. Tired though he is, Frank is
on his feet instantly, his face glowing, his merry smile back
again, hand outstretched, his whole being a-quiver for further
effort for his Master, ready to go on right through the night
if he can only help another from shadow into light. He allows
himself to be just carried along without effort on a wave of
the Holy Spirit.

"He never seems to tire. His life is entirely without con-
flict or worry, except when deeply concerned over someone
else's problem. Occasionally he gets pained with sin, and can
deal drastically with insincerity and compromise. He has
amazing patience in the face of the incredible, persistent and
blind stupidity of persons who consult him while unwilling to
take his advice and surrender the sin which prevents them
from fulfilling their destiny.

"Frank is no quitter. He is never through with a man.
They may talk and part. The man may go away interested
but unconvinced, and may forget, but Frank doesn't. The day
may come when that man returns, perhaps prepared to go a
step further. Frank remembers him and patiently endeavours
to help him another step forward."

I asked Sam Shoemaker if Frank never grew tired of the
strain of continuous personal evangelism. Did he never want
to break out and paint the town red ?

Sam laughed at the impossibility. "You bet he doesn't. Why
should he when he is so thoroughly happy? I .have never met
a man quite so merry as Frank. He once signed a cable to
me in a time of the greatest stress 'Yours merrily
Frank.' "

Some of the New York toughs have a too-familiar custom
of walking by your side in the street, thrusting a revolver at
you, and demanding that you "shell out" all your money, in

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the good old Dick Turpin way. I asked several leaders of the
Group what they would do in such a disturbing event. One
or two thought it would be better to pay out than to be shot,
for in New York those fellows stood no nonsense. The pros-
pect of forty or sixty years in Sing-Sing was not encouraging.
Only the fool fought when taken unawares, said my friend
the Spider, who knew all about prisons and gangsters before
he was changed.

I asked Frank what he would do if accosted by a man with
a gun. We were in a London cab making for Bond Street. It
was rather a tickler, I felt, even for Frank, who pondered a
while. Then he said :

"I should invite him to say the Lord's Prayer with me. If
he were an Italian I should ask him to say the Paternoster."

"And suppose he fired?"

Frank gave an enigmatical smile.

"I don't think he would."

Frank likes to think in the plural when organising a life-
changing campaign. He would much sooner take a hundred
life-changers into a city than one or two. Musical-comedy
touring companies, he argues, take fifty or sixty players into
a town. Why should not the Groups do the same?

He foresees the day when an army of five hundred or more
consecrated life-changers may descend on a town or city and
set to work winning it to Christ. "Maximum effort no lone-
wolfing" is his motto.

Though Frank has no money, he also has no worries, and
so when he does go to bed, which may be at any time, he is
asleep as soon as he has turned out the light.

In the morning he is astir with the birds. He came into
my room at Cambridge before seven in pyjamas to wish me
good-morning. His face was hidden behind a foam of shaving-
soap; yet merriment broke through. That morning Frank told
me he not only believed in getting up when the cock crew,
but he believed in crowing as well. He was crowing with joy
that wet April morning. The Lord was so good to him, he
said.

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I watched 'him as he prayed during the seven-thirty Com-
munion service which followed, his eternally happy face lit
with smiles.

Frank is one of those rare human beings who really love
God.

Chapter Twelve

A JOURNALIST'S STRANGEST JOURNEY

THERE were divided opinions in my office as to the new
movement. "I hate it!" affirmed the best writer on my
staff. People only hate what matters most to them. Hatred of
religion is often the beginning of faith. Christ came with
nothing but love in His heart, and succeeded in stirring up
more towering hate than any other man in history.

The time seemed propitious for my long-deferred pilgrim-
age to the New World, and for fuller investigation of the
work of the Group outside my own country. I sent a cable
to Ray Purdy, told him of my projected trip, and asked what
were the chances of covering the expenses of an American,
tour by writing. Back came the answer: "Come on a basis
of faith and prayer. Check your decision with Frank." I wired
Frank in Germany. He advised : "Go in faith and prayer, and
rely on the Holy Spirit's guidance." It all seemed very unreal,
possessing a mixed flavour of sand and sawdust, tasting more
dry than prohibition. Nevertheless, all the more interesting as
journalism in the working out.

Europe was in semi-chaos when I left. My liner might have
been Noah's Ark floating on the Deluge to ground with me
on a new Mount Ararat, the Empire State Building. A pano-
rama of pyramids glided by the porthole admitting me to a
titanic city of confusing right-angles and glittering towers. All
incredibly thrilling.

New thrills produce queer effects. This is what the thrill of
entering New York did to me :

Out of the storm
And the quaking East,
Down the Atlantic bend
To a terraced city,
Lofty, geometric,
Fantastic as the dream
Of a drink-maddened genius.
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City of New York :
Dream-city,
Devil city,

City of Satan and God ;
Gliding by my porthole,
Skyscraper after skyscraper,
Cluster following cluster ;
Tall giants at the Battery,
Elder brothers in their prime,
Then the part-grown children,
Plump infants passing now ;
Here come Father and Mother-
Empire and Chrysler, ;
Monarch of Fifth Avenue
And slim Mistress of Lexington :
Jupiter and Juno
Gazing proudly Down-town,
Excusably admiring
Their grown children,
Sons of an improved race
Of Anaks,
By whose courtesy
I enter
Gratefully
The Promised Land.

For some reason inexplicable, Frank was delighted at this ; he
learnt it off by heart and quoted it often.

One of the Three Troubadours who had come to see me
in my office, Charles Haines, met me at the dock and intro-
duced me to New York. We spent a delightful week-end on
the Woolworth Tower (Prince George had just been up, said
the attendant), the Empire State (too giddy at first to look
over, though on the next ascent I dropped off to sleep on the
eighty-sixth floor in the warm February sun), Coney Island
(America's great Yarmouth), Bear Mountain (no bears), and
the oeautif ul West Point (America's Sandhurst) . And a jolly
day and night at Summit, New Jersey, where John and Alec
Beck and their sister "Marge" gave me a true Western wel-
come as I first entered an American home. So did Grace and
Howland Pell, and Peter ; and Mr. and Mrs. Biscoe, the ideal
married couple.

Later I was hospitably entertained at Bill Wilkes' house in

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Summit. While Bill's pretty wife provided welcome hospital-
ity, Bill sorrowfully offered me much-needed advice on the
sin of selling 1 short. Crowded days followed. Charles Haines
took me to his fine old University, once controlled by the
War President of the United States, and proudly showed me
Princeton from every one of Woodrow Wilson's fourteen
points. John Beck drove me up Broadway the hundred-mile
street to Albany, the State capital. I soon observed that
America uses knives rarely at table, presumably keeping them
for more effective use in the street ; I discovered that Babe
Ruth was a greater national character than Al Capone, that
millionaires walk about with armed body-guards to save them-
selves from kidnapping and torture, that Fifth Avenue is
undoubtedly the finest street in the world, and that New York
made nearly every city I knew seem painfully provincial. I
have seen no more thrilling sight than New York City and
Harbour from Brooklyn Bridge. In Washington I met an
Irishman who affably pointed out the scenes of British
defeats !

Before my first week ended I was invited to take part in
a tour with an Oxford Group team one of those faith-and-
prayer trips, this time to the Southern States. There would
be some hospitality, I was told. My expenses would approxi-
mate a pound a day. And there , would be twenty dollars di-
vided between the five speakers at a meeting in the Orange
Presbytery in North Carolina. Four dollars apiece for a three
weeks' crusade.

The tour attracted ; the work scared ; the pay amused. They
mentioned romantic names like Indiana, Ohio, Kentucky,
Tennessee, Virginia, North Carolina. Haunts of Raleigh, Lin-
coln, Lee, Deerf oot, and Daniel Boone ! But a religious tour.
Travelling with four men who said they had planned the
journey under the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Four men
who lived on faith and prayer. I expected Quiet Times in the
morning, life-changing in the afternoon and evening, con-
fessing a coloured past and praying with people about their
future and mine, perhaps morning, noon and night. Too much
realism for real romance.

We started, four evangelists and a pseudo-evangelist ; three
of them Stiff Wishard (leader), the ubiquitous Cleve Hicks

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and Levering Evans were fully-fledged parsons ; the fourth,
John Beck of Summit, an ex-engineer. No apparent differ-
ence in the mentality of the four. All kindly, cultured, lovable.
None wore clerical clothes and dog-collar as most clergy and
ministers do in England.

One of the most entertaining travel companions, and one
of the most liked and inspiring, was Cleve Hicks. His round,
merry face, all smiles and generosity, is a proof that one can
live on faith and prayer and still be free from all worry, even
with no money in the bank. Cleve looks so youthful that one
assumes he has only just graduated, instead of ten years ago.
Amazingly successful as a personal evangelist, he was most
aptly described to me as "A mischief-maker for God" by the
Rector of Calvary. Cleve's good nature is undiscourageable,
his industry indefatigable, his humour unquenchable, and his
ingenuity for God incredible. And always the merry schoolboy
still rejoicing in tuck (sweets) and English tea at all hours
of the day and night.

At the end of a long day's drive I had gone to bed in a
country home in the mountains of Pennsylvania, and was just
settling into sleep when Cleve's merry face stole round the
door and in a loud, almost guilty whisper, he called :
"A. J., would you like some tea?"

The American way to an Englishman's heart ! He had been
rummaging in the kitchen and found a saucepan and crockery
and teapot. He boiled hot water in the saucepan and brewed
midnight tea in my bedroom. Whatever good thing comes
his way he enjoys with the rollicking zest of his religion;
enjoys it most as a means* for sharing. Cleve would never
have sat lonely in a corner hugging a tuck-basket to himself.
I was descending in the elevator at Calvary House one
afternoon when I again heard that loud, half-guilty whisper:
"A. J., I've found some tea!" The Vestry were in session.
They had just had tea. But there were spare cups and plenty
of surplus cake in the adjoining room. Cleve had discovered
this, and he wanted company to share his good fortune. I
shared while he went upstairs to find another friend, Sciff
Wishard, who came creeping down to participate in the spoils.
I suggested that we three should have confessed our theft, at

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the Group meeting that evening, and was informed that Cleve
had secured permission before he distributed his invitations.

Although Cleve is a successful evangelist, I can never com-
pletely dissociate him from Friar Tuck. The first day I met
him he came bounding down to breakfast, saw a tempting
morsel near his plate, and asked his hostess ("Marge" Beck)
if he could start on it. She smilingly announced that he must
wait until grace had been said. "But can't I say a special grace
now ?" queried the former Harvard Chaplain, unabashed.

We were nearly two hundred miles away by lunch-time,
and hungry with the journey. There were seven of us to
lunch, and a smallish pie came in. Cleve regarded it with
apprehension. "Is that all you've got?" he demanded, while
everybody roared. Sciff's attractive wife produced another
pie, and Cleve was content.

At one Thursday night Group meeting in Calvary I heard
Cleve Hicks tell .the story of how Sam had first intrigued
him with his wonderful narratives of men and women who
had been won for God. To capture men alive for Christ!
That had become his motto. And he is capturing them alive
almost every week. He told of his experiences in South
Africa, of how he had attended a Quiet Time held in the
Cabinet Room of the Government and of the unceasing fun
and adventure and zest of letting God run your life as He
wished to run it. Trusting to God for everything was not a
worrying, but a stimulating thing to do, he proclaimed, adding
that if God let you down you were finished.

"But God never lets you down." Cleve's round, beaming
face and well-nourished body confirmed his words as he
smiled around.

Inseparable from Cleve Hicks is Stiff Wishard, who led
our team round the Southern States.

"To watch that fellow firm up and move forward in dis-
cipline since he came into the Group," says Sam Shoemaker,
"is an inspiration! He has developed a knife-cutting edge
like steel. What a change, he says, from when he used to
stroll negligently about the campus at Princeton as though
he were doing the place a favour to be there."

Sciff is tall and handsome and greatly generous. I heard
him tell the story of his contact with an Anglo-Catholic

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clergyman in America which had some remarkable results. At
one house-party he overheard this clergyman saying to an-
other clergyman: "These fellows are getting after the clergy."

Sciff leaned forward and asked if some of them didn't need
getting after.

"What do you .mean?"

"I'm a clergyman and I needed getting after."

The clergyman suggested a talk. They spent most of two
days discussing the principles of the Group. Then one morn-
ing the clergyman was trying to steal away quietly when
Sciff Wishard encountered him and urged him to stay longer.
The clergyman stayed against his inclination. He became a
good deal rattled as several others spoke to him. Cleve Hicks
asked him to come and read the Bible with him.

"No, I won't," he snapped.

"Well, do you mind if I pray with you?"

"Yes, I do!" (Another snap.)

But the upshot was he returned home changed, .where,
through persecution and misunderstanding and loneliness, has
been started a work which has changed many lives- in the
town. For several months the Anglo-Catholic, the Methodist,
and the Presbyterian ministers there have been holding weekly
meetings to share their experiences and needs and sins. And
the outcome of this new fellowship was a Group dinner for
two hundred and fifty persons of the three churches, with
the same number unable to secure seats. The clergyman said
he was none the less an Anglo-Catholic, but his encounter
with the Group had made a Presbyterian tolerable !

Both John Beck and Levering Evans had good stories to
tell of their experiences, were convincing speakers, and lived
the life. Never have I met such a quartet of happy travel-
companions.

I soon found that the best way to discover North America
was to travel south! Our first halt was at the Birmingham
School for Girls, a lovely blue-and-white institution nestling
in an aerie of the Alleghenies, where a Group had been estab-
lished. The staff entertained us, and we talked quite freely,
shared our experiences, and continued on our way next morn-

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ing in brilliant autumn sunshine, I still feeling a sort of tame
wolf in sheep's clothing.

There was then such a gulf between my colleagues' stand-
point and my own. They claimed to have surrendered their
wills to God, and always to seek His guidance. I believed in
Christ, and thought perhaps I had been led to America. But
I wasn't so sure about it as they seemed to be about our
trip, for instance. The first favourable thing about them was
their unanimity of mind; they never squabbled. Once I sur-
prised one taking another aside to discuss something dividing
them, and the tiff was over immediately. They had to act
thus because the Group say, "Sin is that which keeps a man
from God or from his fellow-men."

At Wooster, Ohio, we explored the Presbyterian College,
and then, in terrific heat, took the fiat, curveless road to In-
diana. Presently we arrived in Indianapolis. Here we were
welcomed by the First Presbyterian Church of the city, and
entertained most hospitably by Sciff Wishard's parents and
brother William, who figure prominently in the medical life
of America.

I heard some amazing stories of the early settlers from
Sciff Wishard's venerable father. Though over eighty, he had
just performed an operation with the sure touch of a surgeon
half his age. A movie was taken of this notable performance.

One of his grandfathers, said Mr. Wishard senior, had
been chased in a canoe by Red Indians and shot. His body
fell in the Ohio River at Pittsburgh (then called "Fort Pitt"),
and the Indians swam out to get his scalp. A beautiful collie
dog plunged in to protect his master's body, and was also killed
before the Indians secured the scalp. Those were the days
when men were men.

But the story he told of another grandfather and his sister
was still more thrilling. As boy and girl, both under ten years
old, with their mother and a baby, they had left Scotland to
join their father in New York. They were aboard a sailing-
ship which took the usual three months to cross the Atlantic.
The hardships of that journey were so great that mother and
infant died on the voyage. At last land was sighted, and
brother and sister were put ashore, but they could see no

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sign of their father. The girl began to weep, and the inevitable
elderly stranger inquired the reason. They explained.

"Did you say you were to meet your father in New York?"
asked the elderly inquirer.

They were sure of it.

"But this is Philadelphia," announced the stranger.

Their skipper, mistakenly or purposely, had deposited them
at the first port he touched and made off.

There were no telegraphs in those pioneering days, and
all efforts to trace the father were unsuccessful. So were the
efforts of the father to trace the children. The elderly stranger
adopted the pair and they grew up. The Revolutionary War
broke out and the young man enlisted, went through un-
scathed, and was being demobilised at Pittsburgh when one of
the officers called him into his room and asked if his name
was McGohan.

The young soldier regarded the officer intently. Then,
"Father !" he impulsively exclaimed.

His great-grandson was my host at Indianapolis.

It was while we were staying 1 in Indianapolis that things
began to happen which made me personally a little uncom-
fortable. The Presbyterian minister invited us to take his
pulpit in the evening and talk frankly to his congregation on
a frank subject. Not about our journey, nor the principles of
the Oxford Group (on which I could have put up a possible
talk), but our personal experience of Jesus Christ. Though
I had sat judicially by and heard this being done by Oxford
undergraduates, I had no great desire to do likewise. All right
. perhaps for our travelling and practised foursome. Probably
they liked it. But something unusual for the pen in the
pentagon. Twenty-five years before I had spoken in a church
pulpit. During the years that followed I had been everywhere
but in a pulpit.

Nevertheless, during that time I had undergone a remark-
able religious experience which the Group would describe as
an experience of Jesus Christ. And as others were standing
up telling about their experiences, I could see no honest
reason for dodging a possibly Christian duty. So I told the
story .of how before I went to Fleet Street I had been inter-

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ested in Christianity, but, in the mistaken belief that I could
do better as a journalist without it, I had let what I held slip
overboard. Later I found myself beaten at three salient points
my private life, my pocket, my ambition. At one period
these points converged into a crisis. In adversity, I sought
consolation and also something to still an intolerable and fre-
quently recurring ache of the spirit. That spiritual ache had
been more or less constant throughout life, asserting itself at
the most unexpected moments when confronted with pano-
ramic beauty, watching an emotional scene in a play, reading
great literature, or when breaking the higher laws of the
Universe. Afterwards I came to know it was the natural long-
ing of the finite for the Infinite, since man's true environment
is God.

At this time I was a "confirmed unbeliever," arguing that
my brain had come to me before the Bible, and as my brain
could not honestly accept the Bible, I felt I was behaving
quite sensibly in disparaging religion. Then one day I thought
I would read the Bible again. Just as literature. But with a
mind quite open to be convinced if I read anything convinc-
ing. Critically I read through the Gospel of St. John, not
knowing then that some theologians have their doubts about
this non-Synoptic writer. What superb journalism was that
simple and solemn opening! "In the beginning was the Word,
and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. . . .
All things were made by Him; and without Him was not
anything made that was made. . . . He was in the world and
the world was made by Him and the world knew Him not."
Who in modern Fleet Street could open a story of such
magnitude better than the simple Hebrew fisherman? Yet
when I had finished reading the whole Gospel, I concluded
that St. John was an unconvincing witness, a poor recorder
the gaps in his narrative would. make a cub reporter blush
and an undeveloped poet. His testimony confirmed my un-
belief. But I read St. John again as a fisherman-poet. How
far I progressed in my second reading I do not remember,
but I do know that at one stage, in some surprising manner,
his words suddenly sprang to life!

A bright incandescent light seemed to have been turned on
in my brain. It lit up every doubt-darkened corner, com-

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pletely driving away all the grim shadows of unbelief that
had haunted me for years. A bright white light soothing,
cleansing, convincing. Possibly, I thought, a ray of the same
light that shone about Saul on the road to Damascus. Besides
dispelling, illogically perhaps, the cynicism and scepticism of
years, it had a positively physical effect. There was a certain
explosiveness about its manifestation which produced the same
soothing result as when menthol is rubbed into an aching
forehead. Once before I had felt a similar light bursting in
my brain, giving unexpected relief from a long-continued
worry, accompanied by the feeling that all was well, that
some unseen power was watching understandingly, and al-
though I had been breaking God's laws, the benevolent Un-
seen perfectly understood, sympathised, but completely
disapproved.

Having those two experiences in mind, I was naturally
interested to read the following in a New York evening
newspaper when I returned from the tour with the Oxford
Group team.

"Readers who follow John Masefield will find a little essay
bound up in covers called Poetry. It was originally an address,
and can be read in a quarter of an hour. In it Mr. Masefield
defines poetry as an inner illumination, a certain ecstasy of
understanding, a flash which comes when the poet communes
with the source of all life outside of himself, the supreme
being of the Universe. After describing Shakespeare, Dante,
^Eschylus, and Homer, Mr. Masefield writes :

"'Brave, proud, gentle and blind alike had access to
an illumination which came within their beings, as sun-
light comes within the sea.

" 'I believe that this illumination exists externally and
that all may know it in some measure, by effort or
through grace. . . . Those who deny it can never have
felt it. It is so intense that, compared with it, no other
sensation seems to exist or to be real. It is so bright
that all else seems to be shadow. It is so penetrating that
in it the littlest things, the grain of sand, the flower of a
weed, or the plume upon a moth's wing, are evidences of
the depth and beauty and unity of life/ "

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The writer in the New York World Telegram who quoted
this made the sceptical comment: "Such definitions interest
me chiefly for the manner in which they are spoken. They
do not convince me. If Mr. Masefield adheres to this type
of mysticism, well and good, but he does not alarm anyone
by declaring that 'those who deny it can never have felt it/
That is the usual excuse of a devoted priesthood when its
arcana are challenged. Mr. Masefield's definition is the es-
sence of a beautiful dream and nothing more."

But I know better. What England's Poet Laureate said of
the illumination that flashes within our beings as sunlight
comes within the sea, so bright that all else seems shadow,
so intense that compared with it no other sensation seems to
exist, or to be real, had flashed in me on two memorable
occasions.

The life of that world, said John Masefield, was all ecstasy
of understanding; all that instant perception and lasting rap-
ture which we knew as poetry. Not as poetry did I touch the
life of that world, but as consolation and conviction in a
religious quest when reading the Gospel according to St.
John. That flash from the world of divine order and beauty
the Kingdom of Heaven told me convincingly, what I cannot
prove to anybody else who does not pick up the same flash,
that the Beloved Disciple had really walked and talked with
the Son of God.

That was the true story of my experience I told when ad-
dressing the congregation of that Group Meeting in Indianap-
olis. The others told their stories, all different, all convincing,
and sat down, each of us following the simple practice of the
early disciples, who publicly witnessed to their own experi-
ences and left the work of conviction to the Holy Spirit. After
the service we were surrounded by members of the congrega-
tion, who expressed deep interest in what we had said to
them, re-emphasising the Group contention that an audience
is always awaiting those who will tell the simple truth about
themselves for the spreading of Christ's Kingdom. Yet I
somehow felt more pleased that persons had been ready to
listen to me than to hear about Christ's Kingdom. When the
devil enters the pulpit his name is Vanity.

Social visits in Indianapolis further showed how deep

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was the interest of the individual in personal, rather than
formal, religion, when men and women preachers and elders,
instead of standing on a self-erected pedestal of virtue, are
prepared to tell the truth about themselves as Paul did, so that
others, hungry for peace and serenity in a jaded world of
pagans, seeing themselves in another's mirror, may also be
inspired to develop along the lines of their true destiny.

True, a delightful Society leader petulantly expressed regret
when one of our party took off his mask and admitted having
once cribbed at a college exam, although he had since made
restitution. Yet she was swift to add that we possessed a
quality of tranquillity, unlike many of her guests, that we did
not fidget, and that we were enviably united.

On the way we were continually hearing echoes of the
changed lives resulting from activities of the Groups in the
South. When driving me across Indianapolis, a captain of the
National Guard, with no special use for religion, was most
enthusiastic about the work done by the Group when they
swept through Louisville in the spring.

The Southern States had been opened in the previous year
through the initial activities of Levering Evans, grandson of
Joshua Levering one of the four in my team. Levering went
down to Louisville, made contacts there with strategic people;
and then Ray Purdy and a small band of fervent men and
women in the Group followed to prepare the way for a still
bigger effort. This is how the editor of a local newspaper
caustically described the situation in Louisville about that
time:

In the spring of 1931, Louisville was nursing wounds
that cut deep, fatally in some cases, and from which few
were exempt. Men and women of all degrees and stations,,
.white and coloured, had about reached the uttermost
depths of disillusion and were tumbling down the last
rungs of the ladder of their descent. Their morale was
worse than shattered, their reserves of courage as dis-
sipated as their reserves of cash. They believed, in the
successive, cumulative blows which assailed their well-
being and bruised their self-esteem, that, granted all men
were fools and some of them knaves, none were so foolish.

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and few as rascally as those who, with no profit to them-
selves, had led them into the morass and left them there.
Seeking a way out, craving leadership, avid of plans of
betterment concrete and not empty, all they encountered
were the snarling conflict of ambitions, of angers, of
rancour unappeased. A personal feud had ruined great
institutions, closed banks, precipitated a general bank-
ruptcy. And still its fury raged careless of all save only
the satisfaction of a private vengeance.

The guidance came to the Oxford Group that a strong
team should be sent into Louisville, where the conditions were
symptomatic of the national emergency. Invitations to join
the team were sent to a good many people, one to myself in
England. According to Sam Shoemaker:

Ninety of them came. They ranged from wealthy society
people to tradesmen and students. There was a Scots-
woman who had run for Parliament at home and who
had travelled to America for this series of meetings ; and
an Oxford student. There was a distinguished minister,
; f or many years a missionary in China. There was a young
married couple from Rhode Island whose lives and home
had been completely changed by the message three years
before. There was a young Episcopal clergyman who had
a perfect genius for winning the confidence of boys and
helping them to understand how Christ could aid them
with their problems. There was a New York woman
with a European title whose whole existence had been
re-made through finding that an old friend of her husband
had been brought to Christ through the Group.

Pentecost saw no motlier crowd in its human composi-
tion, and they met with one accord in one place. Each had
somewhere arrived at a, decision for Jesus Christ in sur-
render, carried through the early stages of learning to
live by guidance from God, helped to win others for
Christ, and learned the price and the necessity of full
sharing fellowship with like-minded Christians. This
means that there were ninety people ready to function
as a phalanx under God's Holy Spirit. There was a human
leader (Ray Purely), but he could not possibly have
carried the details of all the hours in the day of all the
workers who were there. Yet there was not a single bit
of individual sharpshooting ; we worked almost like one

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person, because unity was there at the beginning. Noise-
lessly the members of this group slipped into town by
train and car. A church sexton in New York took several
in his car and witnessed with great power in the meet-
ings. Some were quartered with families ; some stayed in
hotels. There were daily groups for special interests : one
for business men, one for women, one for girls, one for
boys, one for younger married women, and one for
ministers; each was led by someone belonging to his
particular group. There was daily Bible study. In the
evenings we gathered for a united meeting. This began
with 300 and ended with 2,500. The theme was not
preaching nor exhorting, but simple individual witness to
what Christ had done. As a result family tangles were
unsnarled, personal problems were solved, hundreds of
people found a new power in Christ ; the level of con-
fidence in that city, depressed by the business slump, was
enormously lifted.

A wonderful atmosphere remained behind when this Group
of ninety, mostly lay evangelists, left the stricken city. It per-
sisted during our own visit as a flying team, for Louisville,
Kentucky, was our next stop.

News of our arrival spread quickly. Brown's Hotel placed
a meeting-room at our free disposal. The Women's Prayer
Committee of the Presbyterian Church (a strong organisa-
tion), meeting again that morning after vacation, turned
themselves into an impromptu Group meeting. There were
many interesting witnessings from men and women whose
lives had been changed in the spring. A social leader of the
city was one of the most telling speakers. Once set on having
a good time, she was now leading a Group.

We were offered true Southern hospitality at Louisville,
beginning with a wonderful first evening picnic at Nitti
Yuma, on the foothills above the Ohio River, and continuing
until the last morning. That first picnic is unforgettable. Dusk
is approaching as we arrive. We plunge into a large open-
air swimming-pool and reduce our temperatures from torrid
to temperate.

As we come merrily out, we observe the picnic preparing:
a welcome camp-fire, under maple trees and mock-oranges,
at which is grilling a vast joint cut from the side of an ox;

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sandwiches are prepared; corn is cooked on the cob; pies
arrive in plenty and variety. And meanwhile the red sun
curves down a mulberry sky behind the Ohio, while above
him, so new as to be but faintly visible, is a baby moon, thin
and crinkled at the edges, a pale papoose trailing his Red
Indian father to his happy hunting-grounds across the river,
where real Red Indians used to disport not a hundred years
ago.

Southern stories, Southern games around the camp-fire,
with benzine flares in the trees, and perhaps rattlers in the
undergrowth, and always the ghosts of Red Indians stealing
around, harmlessly lifting our scalps.

On again. We moved so fast, and covered so many towns
and meetings in such hectic temperatures, that we felt our-
selves a sort of Halley's Comet almost responsible for the
baby heat-wave accompanying us. Everywhere we were re-
ceived with double warmth, and our message was heard with
kindly interest. At one important co-educational institution,
Berea College, where students earn their education by manual
labour, we were invited to address the staff, and the silence
was so pronounced that Cleve Hicks, who led the meeting,
and others in the team, felt the message had misfired, espe-
cially when he said: "We are just playing a little game of
truth among ourselves."

Only when the meeting broke up, and we were conversing
with the head and members of his staff, did we appreciate
the depth of interest awakened by our simple attempt to re-
vive a first-century Christian fellowship in a modern
civilisation.

Before reaching Berea, we halted at Danville, and received
a hearty greeting from, the President of the college there.
Then a thrilling drive through Southern Kentucky, with its
memories of Daniel Boone, past a replica of the old fortress
against Indians at Harrodsburg, thence through the famed
Cumberland Gap into Tennessee, shaving a corner from Vir-
ginia as we dropped into North Carolina to stop at Ashe-
ville, the "City of the Skies," which is really the old English
watering-place of Bath (and Beau Nash) planned on a more
majestic scale.

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At Asheville again we were on the trail blazed by the
Oxford Group. A picked team had visited this town in the
previous autumn, and another in the spring, and found much
the same conditions existing as in Louisville. The arrival of
the first team was dramatic, as it synchronised with the sui-
cide of the mayor and the closing down of banks. The results
were not so astonishing as in Kentucky, but were again
extraordinarily interesting, especially among people in key
positions.

We assembled at Battery Park Hotel, the highest point in
the basin, ringed with fine mountains, dominated by the Peak
of Pisgah. And here we effected a junction with another
team from Washington, which included the Revs. Norman
Schwab, Howard Blake, Al Campbell (Al Capone, we called
him), and Mr. Eugene Scheele.

Doctor Elias, of the Methodist Church, welcomed us to
Asheville. The City Group, meeting the same evening in the
hotel, provided an occasion for sharing spiritual experiences.
The witnessing was impressive; the joy of religion and zeal
for evangelism were abundantly manifest.

Stiff Wishard and I spoke on the radio to North Carolina
the next morning, which was Sunday, and in the evening
there was a large Group meeting in Trinity Episcopal Church,
followed by informal conversations which continued until late.
A feature of this gathering was the presence of lads who had
previously come under the influence of the Group, and espe-
cially of Cleve Hicks, and were continuing steadfast.

Asheville to Jonesboro, in North Carolina, to an experience
different, but none the less delightful. Jonesboro is a village
on the by-way, in the centre of cotton-fields. It has a white
Presbyterian church, old, stately, Colonial, which had not
housed'the Presbyter}?- for half a century, and was then being
used for the annual two-days' Assembly, presided over by
the Moderator. Outside, under the trees, was a long, im-
provised table of wire-netting on which I dozed in the torrid
heat.

The meetings inside began early, and continued until late
in the evening. At lunch-time the open-air table under the
trees was loaded with cold delicacies, not forgetting the fried
chicken of the South. The pent-up hospitality of half a cen-

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tury seemed to concentrate itself on that loaded table. Under
two near-by trees a pair of water-tubs provided a constant
stream of ice-water for the thirsty assembly. The cotton was
white in the fields around; the community was eager for the
message ; two astonishing days were passed among the kindest
Christian folk, in a shade temperature topping a century.

And now the party divided, one Group returning to New
York, the other, including the writer, continuing, with the
Rev. Howard Blake in charge, to Washington, where we met
the Group in, the capital, heard how they had passed their
vacation, and their cplans for the winter. Here a Group hostel
is being capably run by a wonderful lady, the mother of the
Rev. Howard Blake. Here, too, a successful house-party was
held in May, 1932, with Frank in charge of a visiting team
from England.

The next Sunday, a two hours' run over to Baltimore,
where the reconstructed team gave witness in a Baptist church,
after which the pastor impressively asked what would be the
verdict on the power of Christianity of any fair-minded jury
who had heard us.

Half-way through the tour I complained that life of such
spiritual intensity as we led was too strenuous for an ordinary
journalist.

"Don't worry, you are just being stretched," I was told.

Perhaps he was right. We returned to New York I to
meditate on the unusual experience, and still only three-parts
convinced, though I had seen, in a number of States in the
Union, groups of changed men and women who were living
new and happy lives. And most of these had been educated
in the Universities, men and women with brains trained to
test the things they saw and heard.

Chapter Thirteen
BILL PICKLE

DURING my American travels with the Group I was con-
stantly hearing the comic name Bill Pickle in relation to
some marvellous work that Frank had done at Pennsylvania
State College, following his vital experience in a Cumberland
church.

I intended to run over to the College to meet the famous
Bill Pickle, but was prevented by circumstances. So I induced
Frank to tell me the whole story in his own inimitable way
with the fullest details, for it is something of a spiritual
classic. A rollicking story, it captivates all sorts Pagans as
well as Christians. Frank started and established the Group in
Oxford by telling a series of stories such as this and inspiring
others to do the same. Frank is a born raconteur. His aim is
to inculcate principle while keeping his narrative as bright
and human as possible. Principle with interest.

One of the forces in the religious world, John R. Mott,
invited Frank to take charge of the religious education in
Penn State at the time when there was a difference between
the staff and the students, who did not seem to understand
each other. The atmosphere was antagonistic, suggestive of
those student strikes which have since developed in many
parts of the world Bucharest, Santiago, Germany, China,
America. The life of the students reflected the godlessness of
the place. There was a great deal of drinking. There were
nineteen drinking-parties in progress on the night of Frank's
arrival; so much drink was consumed that the proverbial
battleship might have been floated on it.

The man who supplied the drink is the hero of the story,
boasting the priceless name of Bill Pickle, a bootlegger, em-
ployed by a local doctor by day and by the students by night.
Frank used to see Bill's stealthy figure sneaking about the
spiral staircases leading to the students' rooms at all hours
of dark nights a Deadwood Dick in University life. At these

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times, of course, all the faculty were in bed; only Bill and
the students were awake and merry.

Bill is the son of a Colonel. He has a strong, stocky figure,
a terrible walrus moustache, and looks a roaring pirate. Bill
soon knew of Frank's arrival, and expressed immediate dis-
like of him. He published abroad his desire to knife Frank,
but usually darted into a side-alley when there was a chance
of an encounter.

Frank surveyed his difficult new job. To turn this College
Godwards here was the problem. The solution, if he could
find it, would be a .miracle.

He sought direction, and the names of three men came
to him. Later these three proved to be the strategic points
in changing that College. They were : .

(1) Bill Pickle the bootlegger.

(2) A cultured and popular graduate student possessing

every physical grace and charm.

(3) The College Bean, a frank agnostic, whose wife was

an earnest Christian.

The graduate student brought a letter of introduction to
Frank which disclosed that he was the son of a Supreme
Court judge and grandson of a State Governor. He seemed
to be clever, but dissatisfied. Frank felt that this handsome
and influential youth should be approached with intelligent
restraint and nonchalant reserve.

They became friendly. The student frequently visited
Frank's house, and showed his fondness for the Southern
cooking, including the inevitable fried chicken and "beaten"
biscuits for breakfast.

Often they would ride together, but for a long time Frank
said nothing about the things that meant most to him. Mean-
while the student was getting more interested and pleased
with the atmosphere that Frank radiated. One sleety day,
when the streets were slippery with ice, and the rain was
frozen on the telegraph wires, the student came into his room
and said, "Let's ride."

Frank said, "All right," although concerned for the horses'
legs, feeling they could not possibly venture out.

For fifteen miles they walked their horses in the cold, biting

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wind, and then settled into a hostelry for a good dinner,
followed by much hot coffee over the fire. The driving wind
had made them drowsy; they retired and would soon have
been asleep, had the coffee not begun to act. Frank heard
the clock strike eleven, twelve, one, two, when his friend said :

"Are you asleep?"

"No."

"Would you like to talk?"

"Yes. What about?"

"Will you tell me what Christ means to you?'*

At last Frank's chance had come. He had played his cards
right. They talked on and on for several hours, when finally
the student said : "I'm not going to be a Christian."

"Who asked you?" rejoined Frank.

"You didn't. I know you're much too prudent to push
religion down anyone's throat."

Then Frank asked him what he believed.

"Confucius," came the unusual answer.

"Wonderful !" said Frank, deciding to humour him. "Tell
me about Confucius?"

Frank says his friend did not seem to know much on that
subject. But Frank had been to China, and knew that Con-
fucius said he could tell people how to be righteous, but he
hadn't the power to make them righteous. Moreover, he had
been to Confucius' grave, and been entertained at tea by the
seventy-sixth descendant of the Chinese sage and seen the
seventy-seventh descendant on the day when he had to wear
four coats because of the cold. But Frank's principle is "Argu-
ment is not profitable, but possession is."

"So I said to him: 'Try your Confucianism on a chicken-
thief, who is a friend of mine, his wife and five children, and
see how it works.' "

The student agreed. He gave money to the chicken-thief's
wife, who washed herself thin over the wash-tub ; more money
to keep the eldest daughter off the streets; paid for picnics
for Elizabeth, Robert and Danny the dwarf, a town delivery-
boy. (Recently Frank was at Danny's grave. "He died a
beautiful Christian.")

The student spoke to the chicken-thief himself, but to no
purpose. This worthy soon found himself in jail for catching

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chickens by the neat method of pressing a sponge soaked in
chloroform under their beaks, and whisking them noiselessly
away when stupefied. He was accompanied by one of his sons,
who worked with him. And for two months the student
worked with the family, read to them, gave them money and
treats, and tried to behave as their true Confucian friend.

At the end of that time he came to Frank in utter despair
and said, "I give it up. The more I give them the more they
want."

"The reason being," says Frank, "that he was trying to
solve the whole problem of social service without Christ, and
treating the immediate surface conditions without touching
the root cause."

And now the Confucian said he was willing to try Frank's
plan.

"What is my .plan?"

"I suppose you pray about it?"

So Frank suggested that, since he had been unsuccessful 1
with the chicken-thief, now in prison, they try praying for
Bill Pickle the bootlegger, who was free and very much alive.

The student readily agreed.

"Very well, you pray," said Frank, still believing in getting
other people to do the praying whenever possible.

The student prayed: "Oh God, if there be a God, help us
to change Bill Pickle, Mrs. Pickle, and all the little Pickles."
An unorthodox prayer. But this unorthodox prayer soon
brought an answer.

The next day was a holiday, and Bill went away to play
baseball with a team which he managed. That evening the
Confucian and Frank were on their way to dine with the
Chinese Minister when, passing through the town, they saw
Bill celebrating the victory of his team by challenging every-
body to fight. He had consumed much liquor.

"There's Bill !" whispered the Confucian.

"I see him," said Frank, as though having no time to waste.

The student protested : "We've been praying for him. Now
let's do something."

"All right. You do it."

"No chance! You do it."

When Frank reaches this point in the story he injects a

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little principle by asking, What would you do in this situa-
tion? Here was the problem of the wife and the drunken
husband. He once asked this question of a Chinese friend,
who said, "Approach him from his blind side."

Fearing that the muscular Bill would regard him as the
Heaven-sent answer to his challenge to fight, and that, pos-
sessing a good-sized nose, he might lose the round, Frank
approached Bill from his blind side, putting a firm hand on
his biceps as a measure of protection. What should he do-
next? The thought flashed: "Give him the deepest message
you've got."

"I looked him straight in the eye," says Frank, "and whis-
pered, 'Bill, we've been praying for you.' "

To his surprise, Bill melted. The fight went clean out of
him. Tears came. He pointed to a church. "See that church
over there?"

"Yes, Bill."

"I was there when the corner-stone was laid. There's a
penny of mine under it." There seemed to come before Bill
at that instant a memory of his home and his early associa-
tions through the perspective of his ill-spent years. "Do you
know, I had a good mother and used to be happy once ?"

Frank was glad to hear it, followed up his advantage and
introduced the Confucian.

"Here's my friend. He's praying for you too."

"That's decent of him. He's a gentleman." Whereupon
Bill invited them both to call on him at any time at his house
on the hill, which a student wag, adapting the name of a
famous preserve, had appropriately christened "Heinz
Heights."

"Any time's no time, Bill," said Frank, pressing his ad-
vantage further. "Make it some time."

"Then come next Thursday night at seven."

As no real duties in life conflict, according to Frank, the
Jiwo went on to their dinner with the Chinese Minister.
~"~ Thursday night came, and the two went up to see Bill in
his unpainted house on the top of "Heinz Heights." Anticipat-
ing them, Bill had also anticipated his customary Saturday
shave by a few days. When they arrived, all the neighbours
(invisible themselves) were out gazing at the visitors through

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the fences, assured they had come to change the redoubtable
Bill, who was now ill at ease, as most people are when they
think another has come to convert them. But as they talked
of little besides the weather, and said nothing about religion,
Bill lost his self -consciousness, and they parted good friends.
The bootlegger was able to go straight out and boast to his
neighbours that they hadn't changed him. Nevertheless, Bill's
spiritual appetite was whetted. He developed a deep hunger
for fellowship with the two friends who were praying for
him.

Bill knew a good deal about many things besides liquor, and
all there was to be known about horses. One day the Con-
fucian took him to see a horse-show on the college grounds.
They spent all the afternoon talking horses, and Bill voted
it to be his best afternoon ever. To think that a young
gentleman should spend all the afternoon with him talking
about horses !

Meanwhile a remarkable change was being effected in the
young Confucian. Bill's new attitude suggested to him that
God was really answering prayer, and so when he prayed he
left out the proviso "if there be a God" from his invocation.
The following Sunday a Bishop arrived at Penn State and
nine hundred students turned up to hear him. During the
meeting he inquired of Frank if he should ask the students
to make a decision. Had the Bishop asked him outside, he
would have said, "Decidedly not, as a State School, it is not
a Christian institution." In those days Frank's idea of the
Holy Spirit was limited to a kind of five-by-eight picture,
and he did not expect Him to be very active at a meeting
addressed so formally. Nevertheless, the Bishop went ahead,
and the unexpected happened. After the usual tense silence,
the first person on his feet to announce the surrender of his
life to Christ was the young Confucian. As he was the most
popular man in the College, this created a stir, and one
could feel the whispered surprise circulating round the build-
ing as his example was followed by eighty others.

Frank's comment on this situation is that a great many
people would feel this was the end of a successful meeting.
That was where the old evangelism sometimes collapsed. The
changed student came to Frank after that meeting and said

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he didn't know anything about the Bible, prayer or winning
people. What suggestion had he to make ?

"We will spend the summer together," replied Frank.

So they went riding through the great national parks of
America, a peripatetic school of Christian development. On
the way home they stopped at New York, where Frank bought
a fine new beaver hat, unusually expensive for him. He was
wearing this magnificent hat on the night of his return when
he met Bill Pickle, who immediately showed that he liked the
hat as much as its owner did. Instead of greeting Frank and
inquiring as to how he had spent the summer holiday, Bill
walked silently and admiringly round him.

"Where did you get that hat?" he demanded.

'Smiling, Frank told him.

"How much did you pay for it ?"

Ashamed, Frank told him.

Bill observed that he could keep his family for a week on
the price of that hat, adding that he would do anything for
one like it.

Frank was on the spot for the opportunity. "The hat's
yours, Bill, on one condition."

"What's that?"

Bill waited, breathless.

"That you go with me and a few others to a big student
convention at Toronto."

Of course Bill was delighted to do that. He would go at
once and get leave of absence.

"There you are, Bill," said Frank, handing him the prize.

Bill strutted away with the coveted hat on his head.

Next morning Frank saw Bill in his doorway.

"Can't go," said Bill dismally.

"Too bad! Why's that?"

"Nothing to put my clothes in," said Bill sheepishly. Evi-
dently this was one of the noes that meant yes.

Frank offered Bill a bag, which he refused, saying the
people on the hill would see to that.

Presently the Dean arrived and said, "I hear you are going
to take Bill to Toronto?"

"Yes," said Frank, not knowing what frame of mind the
Dean was in, and thinking he would be regarded as not a fool

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for Christ's sake, but merely foolish. But the Dean was in
favour. Bill's daughter was a maid in his house, where, said
the Dean, his wife did the praying for the family. This
excursion of Bill's he believed to be in answer to his wife's
prayers. He thought a miracle was impending. As he left,
the Dean asked, "Who's going to pay for the journey?"

"I shall," said Frank.

But the Dean insisted on paying. "Do you think the other
fellows will object to Bill in the team ?"

Frank thought not, and the next morning the party of
nineteen (including Bill) left for Toronto. Bill's wife and
most of his twelve children were at the station in full war-
paint to see him off. The occasion was impressive. So was
Bill's attire. He wore the beaver hat, leggings, and a stock-tie
which made Frank think of a poodle's legs crossed. He car-
ried a little cheap bag made of alligator skin containing the
few articles he needed for the journey.

What were Bill's motives in going to Toronto? asked
Frank. Of course, one motive was the hat. Then he had heard
that the liquor was good in Toronto. The trip was another
attraction. And the good-fellowship. All natural reasons.
There was a fifth reason which Frank discovered later. Bill
was longing for a fur overcoat to match the beaver hat, and
somehow expecting that to come his way in Toronto.

Frank tried to make Bill feel at home on the first stage of
the railway journey, and suggested that he must have some-
thing to eat. For some odd reason, Bill seemed against food,
and told Frank not to be extravagant when he saw him taking
a cup of coffee and a bun. Bill was planning how to get a
drink when they arrived at the first junction. His eager eye
looked over the party of seventeen, at last alighting on one to
whom Bill used to sell liquor.

"There's Bonehead," thought Bill. "I know he's thirsty."

When Bill saw Frank was busy with the tickets, he decided
to follow Bonehead. The latter, true to Bill's surmise, made
straight for the swinging doors. He saw there was a bar only
and no dining-room, the place he really sought.

"This is no place for us," said Bonehead.

Bill thought exactly the opposite, and said so. But Bone-
head resisted and through that resistance, said Bill later, he

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laid the foundation-stone of Bill's Christian life. For if Bill
had taken one drink, he would have required many others to
quench that particular train thirst he had developed. He con-
sumed a heavy lunch, and the party started safely on their
way again, the bootlegger now firmly convinced that it was
no use planning for himself, because everybody had their eyes
on him. Here Frank comments that "Bill's awakened con-
science was at work."

The evening meal was served in the dining car, and one
of the party, a former agnostic, suggested to Frank that he
thank God for the food.

"All right. Go ahead," said Frank.

Here Bill suddenly intervened.

"What's the matter this time, Bill?"

"That fellow" pointing to the former agnostic "has
spoiled my dinner."

At first Frank thought he meant the coloured waiter, but
Bill insisted that it was the man who had said grace. He
didn't bargain for that sort of thing on a College party. It
recalled his early home and it took away his appetite.

Bill jibbed again later when they reached Niagara Falls
and he found they were going to spend the night in a tem-
perance hotel! Of all places! The bootlegger was told that
it would be less expensive, but he shrewdly doubted. How
could a hotel-keeper make his place pay without a bar? He
must get his expenses somehow. Besides, what would his
fellow-bootleggers say if they heard he had slept in a tem-
perance hotel ?

Frank humoured him, took him up to his room and showed
him how to operate a folding-bed, of which he was also chary
at first.

"Now, do you want a bath?"

The bootlegger's walrus moustache supported the glare in
his eyes.

"What! In the winter-time?"

"Why not?"

"Do you want me to catch my death-cold ?"

"No, Bill."

"Don't you know we sew up down our way in November
and don't unsew again until March?"

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Still a little suspicious of the folding-bed, Bill tucked him-
self in for the night, when Frank, coming in again, told him
he had forgotten something. Bill searched under his pillow for
his watch and money and then demanded, "What?"

"Prayers."

"I can't do them things."

"You come out and I'll help you."

Weak in this form of exercise through long disuse, and
suffering from temporary ague, the bootlegger came out of
his folding-bed and knelt down in his night-shirt.

"You begin," said Bill.

"Our Father," began Frank.

"Our Father," followed Bill.

"Who art in Heaven," continued Frank.

"Who art in Heaven," continued Bill, and then stopped his
mentor with, "I used to know that."

"All right. Go ahead."

"No, you go ahead. I'll follow after."

And so they went through the Lord's Prayer, after which
Bill re-entered his folding-bed sighing hugely as though to
say, "It's hard work living with these Christians."

Next morning they started again for Toronto. The porter
was carrying the luggage when Frank saw the bags of the
ex-Confucian plastered with labels of the Niagara Falls Tem-
perance Hotel. There were at least five of them on the handle,
and crowds elsewhere. The student had been one of Bill's
best customers ; he turned to Frank and asked if he had done
that. Frank said, "No," and smiled. Bill was playing 'possum
grandly. Presently Bill owned up. They had reached a point
of contact when Bill felt so much at ease that he could play
with them. The first wall which separated Bill from the classes
was breaking down.

They had settled themselves in a Toronto hotel when the
time came for the first meeting of the convention, but Bill
didn't think he would go.

"What are you going to do?"

Bill thought he'd like to go and look at the fur shops. Per-
haps he could find something to match the hat. The additional
motive that had brought Bill to Toronto was now clearly re-
vealed. Frank said Bill must go to the meeting, cajoling him

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with the news that the Governor-General and six thousand
people would be present. Bill replied that the Governor came
sometimes to Pennsylvania State College, and he wasn't any
more interested in him than he in Bill. Presently he agreed,
on condition they sat in the rear seat. Arrived in the hall,
Bill showed no signs of interest in the meeting save to count
the number of people present. Not unlike a great many
churchgoers, who prefer to figure out the profits of the week
while waiting for the service to end, says Frank.

But Bill's attention was quickly arrested when the second
speaker came along, a coloured man, who, according to Bill,
was so black that charcoal would make a white mark on him !
All the time he was speaking, Bill was nodding in agreement
or registering violent disagreement, to the amusement of
everyone around him. But Bill was blissfully unmindful of
anyone save the coloured man, who was hitting him between
the eyes with every shot. Afterwards he accused Frank of
taking him there specially to hear the coloured man, and of
telling the speaker about him. Nevertheless, he rather liked
that sort of speaker. A Group meeting held later in their
hotel added to Bill's reviving interest in religion, especially
the story told by a football player of how a foster-child had
disowned his foster-parents, which somehow greatly moved
the bootlegger. When this man had finished, Bill jumped up
like a shot from a gun, as Frank puts it, and announced that
he wanted to say something.

"Go ahead, Bill. It's a free country," observed Frank, not
knowing what on earth Bill would do next. Speaking with
great solemnity, Bill announced :

"I'm an old man of sixty-two, and I've decided to change
my life. I have grandchildren, and I can't bear to think of
them turning on their grandfather like that foster-child I've
just been hearing about, because all my life I've been dis-
obedient to my Heavenly Father."

After that outburst Bill went out of the room, beckoning
Frank to follow him. "For what?" asks Frank. Bill desired
his help in writing a letter to his wife and son, as he wanted
them to know at once of his determination to change his life.

From that time onwards Bill developed amazingly. He be-
came one of the great figures of the Convention : one of those

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miracles which make conventions occasionally interesting and
memorable.

After a strenuous week they returned to the College, but
when they reached the junction were met by a liquor mission-
ary supported by a pair of Bill's old-time friends, two quart
bottles of liquor. Bill's old associates, finding it impossible to
believe that he had changed his way of life (for the news had
flared through the town)., had brought two bottles of the
choicest for his benefit. As Frank saw the tempter surrep-
titiously handing Bill the bottle, his heart wobbled. As Bill
let it slip through his fingers, he gave a great sigh of relief.
It smashed on the pavement. The next attempt was more
subtle. The liquor missionary unstoppered the second bottle
and held it under Bill's nose so that he could savour the old
familiar bouquet. This time Bill gave a swift tap on the mis-
sionary's wrist, and again a bottle of the best was smashed to
smithereens.

Bill's change and Bill's resistance to the tempter were the
talk of the town for a long time to come. Would this aston-
ishing miracle last? Even the clergy weren't enthusiastic in
believing that it would. One told Frank that he did not want
Bill in his church.

"Don't worry," said Frank. "He likes a church where he
can take part and talk back if necessary and say an occasional
Amen or Hallelujah."

On the next Monday, which Bill was to spend with Frank,
he came in looking very aggrieved.

"Heard what's happened?" he growled.

Frank tried to wave the question aside, for gossip had
already brought a whisper of trouble.

"They won't have me in church," stormed Bill.

Frank felt he had been stabbed. Now surely Bill would
not be able to hold out.

"Don't worry, Bill," he soothed, thinking hard.

"I'm not," said Bill, and then suddenly announced : "We've
got a church of our own all planned. We want you to take
charge of it."

Here Bill produced a list of nineteen men, mostly his old
bootlegger friends, whom he had already collected under his
new Christian banner. They were to be the nucleus of a new

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church to meet in the old porter's lodge. Frank is still in
possession of that treasured list. Before consenting to be the
minister, Frank said that Bill must find out from the others
what they wanted him to speak about.

"Don't worry," said Bill. "We've thought of that!"

"Well, what is it?"

"The Apostles' Creed."

Of all subjects for a bootlegger to choose !

And so, Saturday night after Saturday night, Frank met
with Bill the bootlegger and his old associates, one of whom
was once so accomplished a swearer that one could almost
smell the sulphur. Saturday night was chosen to avoid conflict
with church services. Everything went well with the Apostles'
Creed talks until Frank came to the part about Christ going
down into Hell, at which Bill jumped up and suddenly in-
terposed :

"I've believed everything so far, but that's too much."

Apparently the preacher had overstepped himself. For a
time Frank and Bill cogitated on a way out, until at last Frank
said :

"Well, how do you explain it?"

"I don't know," said Bill, "I guess He went down there
to clean things up."

That answer satisfied everybody. Peace again. They pro-
ceeded. But the upshot of those Saturday nights was that all
attending eventually became forces in the Church life of the
district, including Bill, who grew into a good Weskyan
Methodist, and occasionally turns up at one of Frank's house-
parties to confirm all the details as Frank narrates the true
story of the change in Bill Pickle the Bootlegger.

The miracle of Bill's changed life, and the changed lives
of his family and friends which followed, became a standing
witness to the Professors and the graduates who were in the
habit of returning yearly to celebrate the liquor they once
received in the college from the hands of Bill. But Bill now
refused to grace their parties if they had liquor. As they pre-
ferred an interesting character, even to the exclusion of the
liquor, they fell in with Bill's new ideas, and so Bill appeared
and told his old-time stories with a new zest and a new re-
straint, on a new plane.

BILL PICKLE

Bill still treasures the hat which he earned at Toronto, and
though he has retired from work he is over eighty he still
remembers the mighty movement of the Spirit of God which
spread throughout the college and other colleges that season
when he was changed.

Not only were Bill Pickle and the Confucian and the Dean,
the three strategic points of that College, transformed through
personal evangelism, but before Frank left there were over
twelve hundred men in voluntary Bible-study. Thus, after \
three years' work, it was no longer good form to have drink- \
ing-parties. Athletics improved and there were winning teams, j
The scholarship, too, improved, and a new relation between \
Faculty and students changed the old-time factional spirit
of the campus.

The change in Bill's family life was equally marvellous.

"What a dinner Bill's wife used to cook for the reformed
bootlegger and their children !" exclaims Frank.

Most significant fact of all was the improvement in the
college discipline. So radical was the change that the salary
of an extra disciplinary Dean was saved, and Bill, the ex-
bootlegger who knew everybody, was given a seat on certain
disciplinary committees for maintaining order I

Chapter Fourteen

THE CALVARY MIRACLE

I HAD heard from Garrett Stearly and read so much about
Calvary Church and its dynamic Rector (the Rev. Samuel
M. Shoemaker, Jr.) that I was eager to see what both were
like. I knew that Sam Shoemaker was one of Frank's early
captures in China, and that after he had come to Calvary he
had begun to make things hum in the middle of Manhattan.
I knew that he had started a running spiritual fire in the lives
of an ever-increasing number of people drawn from all parts
of New York and environs, who had discovered that a work-
able religion was being preached in practical sincerity in Cal-
vary; that God did not always stand aside and watch, but
really entered churches and human beings, and guided and
helped all those who had the wisdom and courage to fulfil
His conditions ; that in the first two years of Sam's ministry
the congregation had increased by about two hundred per
cent, although the Rector protests that he is not out to fill
churches, but to fill people.

My attention was first directed to the old brownstone church
of Calvary at the inter-section of Fourth Avenue and 2ist
Street by a smallish cross hanging low over the pavement,
illuminated by white bulbs. The church is large and darkening
with age, perfectly merging in the faded grandeur of
Gramercy Park, once the fashionable quarter, but now flanked
by smart apartment-houses.

As in all Gothic churches, there are high pillars. The pews
are a deep brown, and comfortably crowded on Sunday morn-
ings when the Rector is preaching. I have seen over three
hundred at Holy Communion after Matins.

In the stained-glass windows there are a few figures, and
more are coming from Cardinal Newman's old church at
Littlemore near Oxford. The chancel is smallish and friendly,
flanked on the north by a tiny chapel and on the south by a
baptismal font of white marble. The man who designed the
organ had a fine eye for symmetry, as the array of gilded

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pipes over the chapel and the font is exceptionally pleasing.
The altar is small and plain ; there is a life-size statue of
Christ in white shepherd's robe, hands outstretched, as though
beckoning all to come unto Him.

A ruby-red cross in the stained window above the white
figure of Christ gives the chancel a picturesque dignity. As
the fine old organ peals, the mixed choir emerges from the
vestry, led by the women choristers, wearing becoming skull-
caps of black velvet and -white surplices. Black cassocks are
worn under their surplices by the men. The choir moves pro-
cessionally towards the entrance and then up the central aisle
to the choir-stalls, with the clergy following in vestments and
Princeton hoods of black and orange. Although the church is
mellow and darkening with age, save at the altar, the congre-
gation is invariably bright and friendly, always ready to be
helpful.

Some great sermons, preached in the pulpit of Calvary
Church, have circulated throughout the world. Sam is one
of those powerful and convincing preachers who doesn't
know it. He is still mystified as to what constitutes a suc-
cessful preacher in New York. He names some who have
come to the city with great reputations, but the congregations
have faded away. Others have sprung up and preached the
usual discourses with nothing remarkable about them, and
their churches have been crowded.

The Rector of Calvary prepares his sermon carefully, and
then spends a couple of hours on Sunday morning finally
familiarising himself with it. He knows that the pulpit is not
the only place of inspiration. I have heard him preach many
good sermons on striking themes. The one on "Ye serve the
Lord Christ" was particularly notable, and so was the one on
"The Modern Prophet" ; and a third on "The Surrender of
Saul." The sermon that made the deepest impression when
I was around Calvary was entitled "The Romance of Real
Religion." That sermon is still discussed, especially by a
young Oxonian who was inspired to a changed life while
listening. ,

It was some weeks before I met Sam Shoemaker, for he
was on holiday when I arrived. It was longer before I saw

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Sam full face. Whenever I looked at him squarely my gaze
was irresistibly drawn straight to those magnetic eyes of his,
those eyes that are always bright and twinkling merrily, one
or other closing ever and anon in that impish wink one comes
to love and respect.

Sam very definitely gives the lie to the saying about distance
lending enchantment. From a distance he is just another
curly-haired Southerner: medium height, fair-haired, getting
on towards middle age and pleasingly plump. In other words,
not particularly uncommon. In the pulpit, omitting for the
moment his sermons, there is nothing remarkably magnetic
about him to whet one's curiosity. His delivery, though con-
vincing, is undramatic, and he rattled out his words clearly,
like silver bullets from a machine-gun. Get near to Sam and
you at once feel his magnetic personality. His happy faith
and contentedness so permeate the atmosphere that you feel
it unnecessary for Hoover to declare the depression officially
at an end.

So cheery is he that you might be tempted to take liberties
with his time and convictions were you unaware that he works
about fourteen hours a day, most days, although he occasion-
ally takes a gallop in the country or plays a game of deck
tennis on the roof of Calvary House for town exercise.

Sam calls all those round him by their Christian names
the Calvary custom and everybody calls him Sam, with one
exception, another Frank, who is butler and general factotum
of Calvary House. Frank supervises the workers who wait
on the rest of the staff. He is a happy product of Calvary
Mission, an Irishman who has lost much of his hair and none
of his humour. For five days and nights he was unconscious
in a speak-easy after a bout of drinking, and came to the end
of things. The speak-easy attendant when he ultimately woke
up suggested Calvary Mission. Calvary Mission reclaimed
Frank, who is now a leader there. Frank keeps his Quiet
Times regularly in the mornings, reclaims down-and-outs at
night, and attends to multitudinous duties at Calvary House
both day and night.

Frank is one of the happiest men I know and is a Calvary
miracle. He dotes on Sam Shoemaker, his employer, but
somehow cannot bring himself to practise the Group custom

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of calling everybody by their Christian names. He addresses
his chief as "Mr. Shoemaker."

Sam pulls him up. "Don't call me Mr. Shoemaker, Frank.
Call me Sam."

"Yes, Mr. Shoemaker," says Frank politely, and incurably
disobedient.

Good-natured and kindly though Sam is, he has a strong
presence and a force of .personality which is suggested by a
powerful jaw. It was that jaw which figuratively slipped out
of joint on the occasion of Sam's first meeting with the real
Frank. Sam was born in the Chesapeake country, and once,
sitting in his great family pew, listened to the stories of great
heroism, of violent men changed and restored, told by an
evangelist working among the iron mountaineers of the far
South, and vowed one day himself to become a pioneer of
Christ.

Later, after studying at a well-known University, he came
to Europe during the War, but was confident he had been
unable to touch one man vitally all that summer.

On to China to the important centre there maintained by
his University, where he was impressed by the wonderful
machinery, but depressed by the feeble output of changed
men. All the workers assured him that he was doing won-
derful things, but he did not believe them, although the school,
the library, the classes, and the gymnasium were crowded with
young Chinese.

About this time Frank arrived, accompanied by his tonic
band committed to changing lives. Frank was indicated to
Sam as the man who was doing what Christian workers were
talking about. Sam looked at Frank and disliked his associa-
tions. But stories of Frank's startling achievements with
men were continually recounted to Sam, who began to speak
to Frank, finding him a person worth knowing. One day he
drew Frank aside and made the dangerous suggestion that he
tackle a young Chinese in whom Sam was interested, giving
Frank the opening for his habitual reply :

"Why don't you do that?"

He added, "And if you haven't got anything to give him
what's the matter ?"

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Sam was not merely offended, he was infuriated. He went
away in a towering rage. When he cooled down he realised
that Frank had merely spoken the truth.

Sam brooded over the talk. What use was he ? Must he go
on in this life as a powerless worker with nothing to give
for ever? So he went back to the man who had challenged
him and had the matter out. He told Frank both his tempta-
tions and his sins. Once these came startlingly into the open,
the position was quite clear to him. He had no overflow of
power, because there was no inflow, as sin was damming him
off from God. Sam's attempt to introduce intellectual diffi-
culties had no more influence with Frank than similar attempts
by a long line of changed predecessors. Sam says that might
have seemed a source of weakness to some, but the fact re-
mains that Frank was right.

Frank asked Sam a bold question. What good was he ? He
was selfishly allowing sin to exclude him from vital conscious-
ness of God and to make him spiritually impotent. The chal-
lenge was irresistible. Sam knew that if he took the plunge
of absolute surrender it would mean a very different life for
him than he intended. Instead of continuing to take a decora-
tive and patronising interest in religion, the association of a
cultured young man with a University scheme for social wel-
fare, it meant the real mission-field everywhere for life.

"That night," said Sam afterwards, "my sins rose straight
before me like tombstones. They must all be cleared away.
I saw this was a matter for my will rather than my intellect.
I asked myself if I was willing, and then I thought how
ridiculous I was ever to think of opposing my pigmy will to
the will of God."

Frank had won Sam. He surrendered, experiencing no loss
of nervous energy, but sensible only of a great calm, that he
had jumped a fence which for a long time he had refused to
take. That night as he lay in bed there came to him a dis-
tinct voice that said, There is no work of Mine for him who
is not wholly Mine.

"Those luminous words," says Sam, "were different from
all other words I had ever heard. And they revealed to me
what I believe to be the central truth of religion."

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Which really meant that in some supernatural way there
had been repeated in Sam the discovery made by Frank years
before, that the demand of both God and Satan is identical
the whole heart. From then onwards Sam became one of
the men who swung around Frank, and whom he describes
as "The gayest I know fellows who have found something
worth finding. We never meet but we have a good time. This
is far from the professional mirth of some religious people:
it is the laughter of men who really know there is a way out
for the world and are doing their best to show it to others."

I heard that laughter ripple forth as Sam and I recently
encountered three of those young men outside Calvary House.
Sam made a jolly, provocative remark. They made a jolly,
mutinous reply. I told him his remark would have demoralised
any regiment of soldiers. But it merely increased the good
feeling among them.

Sam's favourite Biblical quotation is "If any man will to
do His will he shall know of the doctrine." Those in the
Group who have experienced this mighty change claim to
speak not of what they think or hope, but of what they know.
They have a unified personality transcending all difficulties,
giving miraculous assurance.

That Calvary Church is deeply interested in helping and
changing the individual is witnessed by the amazingly friendly
gatherings after service at the church door, where Sam and
his staff greet everybody, and where there is an interchange
of friendly greetings among the congregation rarely seen in
these modern days of formal worship.

Sam's congregation and staff are taught that aloofness may
sometimes be sinfulness, especially when other people are in
need, as they mostly are, of spiritual help. Sam and his staff
teach that everyone should have a real experience, a maximum
experience of God, which means we are to have the same
transformation as sent the Apostles out after Pentecost to
turn the world upside down.

With the arrival of Sam, Calvary soon became the most
cheerful and perhaps the most spiritual church in New York
a congregation of earnest, happy people who had found the
meaning to life.

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It was from Frank, who taught him so much about real
religion, that Sam learned never to mistake sympathy with
the teaching for a genuine experience of Christ a common
error with many; and that he should be all the time em-
phasising the need for change or conversion, for full sur-
render issuing in guidance, and for every grown child of
God to found an ever-widening family of his own spiritual
children. From the same source he learned how to uncover
the real facts in people's lives, so helping them to peace and
serenity and to becoming workers of moral miracles in others.
Sam teaches his staff and congregation this essential art, in
his sermons, in the Group meetings, and in a special confer-
ence held annually, known as the School of Life.

At the start he found the going not so easy. One wealthy
old lady, having listened disapprovingly to a sermon by Sam
on personal evangelism, stumped down the aisle saying she
did not want to hear any more about changed men; she
wanted the Gospel. She expressed her indignation at this
"new" doctrine, and declared that nobody should drive her
from her family church. For a time she stayed away, and
then she came back beaming, ready to carry out the "new"
teaching. She had been talking the matter over with a min-
isterial relative who was on Sam's side and had persuaded
her to change her view. Which goes to show how disturbing
can be the doctrine to those who love to sit at ease in Zion.

The charming wife of the choir-master, Mrs. Bland, was
one of the earliest to adopt the new basis of Christian living
as taught by the new Rector. She had held out for some time,
and her husband held out longer. He remonstrated strongly,
objecting to "this Church Army business." It was over-doing
religion and losing them all their Pagan friends. But he, too,
capitulated.

One Sunday evening, soon after my arrival in New York,
I heard the choir-master (Mr. John Bland) make an an-
nouncement from the chancel to the congregation, which the
Rector described as the best sermon ever preached in Calvary.
He was speaking on his twenty-fifth anniversary as choir-
master, and speaking from his heart. He recalled the days

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when he first came to the church, when one of the near-by
hotels was known as the "Church Inn" because the choir
were so frequently to be seen inside drinking. Then came
changes, in pulpit, congregation and choir.

"My greatest ambition," said the choir-master, "was to be
at the top of my profession, and in my -effort I developed a
lot of envy and intolerance for many musicians. I envied them
because they had much more money for their choirs and were
better paid than I. Intolerant, I felt they were teaching sing-
ing without the necessary groundwork and study. When my
friend the present Rector came to Calvary I was restless and
uneasy. Always being devoted to the Church in a conservative
way, I felt that I was a good Christian. However, I soon
came to see, from his life and the way he was helping men
and women to a vital experience of Christ, that my Christian
life was more or less dead. I was not helping a soul except
by my music. When I fully realised my weakness, I went to
my Rector and told him my many shortcomings and sins. I
made up my mind, by the help of God, to overcome my envy,
intolerance, drinking, and gambling; and ever since that time
I have had freedom, radiance, and am learning the joy of
living."

I have never heard such a remarkable statement as that
from the choir-master of a parish church. But many another
Rector will agree that his own choir-master would be all the
better for such a performance.

One evening at Calvary I saw an astonishing sight for an
Episcopalian church. Calvary has a rescue mission run by a
remarkable superintendent named Harry Hadley. That eve-
ning Harry had brought up with him a hundred or two men
rescued by the mission from the streets of New York. In-
stead of a sermon these men were invited to stand in their
pews and tell what contact with Christ had meant to them.
If ever one was conscious of the Holy Spirit in a church
service it was at that extraordinary Evensong.

There was no waiting. Men popped up one after the other
from all points of the front rows of pews and rattled out
their life-stories. The pathetic tales they told of broken homes

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mended, of drunkenness cured, of victory over vice, of the
new reign of love in lives and homes previously disordered,
divided, discordant, would have melted the heart of the most
complacent modern Pharisee.

And at the end the invitation was given to others to come
forward to the altar and dedicate their lives to the service
of Christ, the Mender of men. Most unique of all there
were responses. In an Episcopalian church! They walked
boldly to the altar, and kneeling there dedicated their lives to
God as though they were at Holy Communion. All done in
simple reverence.

One of the men changed at the mission was known as "The
Spider." He had served a number of terms in prison, but is
now an ardent life-changer and a radiant saint.

I spent an interesting evening exploring Chinatown and
the Bowery under his genial guidance. He showed me many
reminders of the old saloon days, including a hostelry that
was once known as "The Bucket of Blood," because its pa-
trons, before starting their quarrels, would knock off the
edge of their glasses to make them sharper for the fray.

As we passed, "The Spider" pointed out to me the under-
taker who specialised in free funerals for gangsters.

The story of every live church is the story of a continuous
war for spirituality. There has been no compromise in
Calvary.

No one pretends that the devil never enters Calvary, though
the combined effort to exclude him seems to be maintained at
the highest intensity humanly possible. Some of Sam's cap-
tures hold well for a few years and then drift away. Christ
had the same experience. So did Paul "Demas hath forsaken
me." Triey are good sprinters, but unwilling to stay the course.
Why do they go ?

"Sin !" That is the inevitable answer. A person resolutely
fighting sin gets the maximum help at Calvary. When he
willingly yields to sin and desires to continue in sin he finds
Calvary a particularly uncomfortable place to visit. He is in
the wrong environment.

Meanwhile, the congregations continue to be large, and

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fresh faces are constantly seen at Calvary Church, which is
becoming a power-house for spirituality spreading through
other churches in America and Europe. The number of Eng-
lishmen seen in Calvary Church is a perpetual surprise.

Sam traces the fruitage of his ministry back to that night
fourteen years ago when, following a heart-to-heart talk with
the man he once avoided, but who read him off like a page
of print, he decided to "let go" of self and allow God to run
his life.

"How long from that conversation until you began to get
results?" I asked Sam.

He slapped his knee enthusiastically. "Bless my soul, I
started immediately. I saw Frank on Saturday, and my first
convert, the one I had spoken to Frank about, came along on
the Sunday afternoon. After that I was busy with one or
two fellows almost every day, and frequently there were
changes."

Sam smiled reminiscently as he recalled how much the
work of Frank and his Group had meant to foreign and
Chinese leadership during that fruitful period.

"But those were great days in China," he said. "Real con-
verts were being made because we were out to obey God
rather than men who had made the commandment of no
effect through their tradition. About this time IT read William
James' Varieties of Religious Experience, and saw what he
was arguing being actually fulfilled in the lives of Chinese
turning to Christianity."

"What is the greatest mistake made by evangelists?" I
asked Sam.

The Rector of Calvary Church was very emphatic: "The
neglect to intrigue the man's imagination before moving in on
his will." Sam said the same thing again with more American
snap : "Lure is more effective than logic. I am never worried
about a man who seems interested, who cannot leave us alone
although he does not announce his decision. That is where
some of the old-timers fell down. They started to cudgel their
wits and prove their theology before they had caught the
interest by their own type of life or by stories of those who
were living the life."

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"Do you ever get the modern Nicodemus calling on you by
night?"
"That we do."

It occurred to me that sometimes people were driven away
in anger by the bold challenge put up by the Group. I asked
Sam about it. He saw I was expecting a story of muscular
Christianity in action, and he roared.

"No, I don't remember any untoward incident of that kind,"
he said. "We are never offensive. Besides, people understand
that when we talk about men's sins we are being impersonal,
just as a doctor is impersonal who puts his finger on the spot
that produces the pain.

"But wait a minute ! I did see one man go off in a temper
in a worse temper than I was in when I had my first talk
with Frank. He was an elderly crewman. He went white and
then red as I suggested his trouble, and refused to stay longer.
But came back ten days later, said he was in a terrible mess,
admitted that my diagnosis had been right, and asked me to
help him."

"Have you ever known anyone let down who was trying to
live on faith and prayer?"

I was thinking of the stories Sir Philip Gibbs had told me
of children he saw dying from hunger in Russia, and of mis-
sionary tales of men dropping dead in China from the same
cause.

"Never!" exclaimed Sam. "What I have noticed is that
God comes in just in the nick of time. I have seen Him try
a man's faith right up to the last minute, and then I have
wanted to laugh when I saw the situation clear instantly just
when most desperate. Strange indeed the effect on our risible
faculties of seeing God silently at work, always providing
while guiding."

"And now for the best piece of advice that Frank ever
gave you?"

The Rector of Calvary seemed to have his answer ready.

"Once I asked Frank what book I should read to prepare
for special work. He told me to prepare myself, as I was the
great problem. He simply meant that I must learn to disci-

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pline myself: to make sure that everything was right and
clean between myself, my neighbours and God."

Which is the same story that everyone has to tell who en-
counters Frank, the man who takes nobody for granted, be
he parson or prodigal. And the measure of Frank's success
with either can be tested by the shine on the countenance.

Sam's face shone.

Chapter Fifteen

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WERE the Oxford Group right?
Is their teaching the teaching the world really needs ?

It was taking me much longer to make up my mind than
it took me to discover that the movement contained a fine
news story.

Unquestionably the Oxford Group arouse more initial in-
terest than any other religious movement at work to-day in
the world. Mention religion in the average drawing-room, and
people freeze or else begin to talk airily on their own religious
theories, which is usually miles away from the belief and
practice of their fathers. But the discussion soon peters out,
as it leads nowhere.

Yet introduce the subject of the Oxford Group, begin to
tell some of the changes that have occurred in your own life
through doing as they do, and you will assuredly get a hearing.
Even if you have no story of your own to tell, you will find a
ready-made audience listening eagerly to the principles of the
Group if they are clearly propounded.

One night in New York I was taken to dine in a speak-
easy. The last spare table was in the centre of the gay room.
Waiters were stumbling about our table most of the evening
in their efforts to meet the demands of the crowded restau-
rant. Seated as we were behind doors locked and barred
against police raids, drink flowing freely, smartly dressed
women and their escorts chattering gaily, there was an ar-
tificial freedom and even friendliness about the atmosphere
not often sensed in public restaurants.

Our table settled down to enjoy itself when someone sud-
denly -introduced the subject of the Oxford Group, told of
how they had recaptured some of the lost radiance of the
Christian religion, had learnt the art of fellowship, of living
and working together, sharing their experiences and their
troubles, losing their own aches through absolute and con-
tinued honesty, first with themselves and then with their

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associates. He spoke of a new spirit in their daily life, and
their absolute surrender of everything, including their money,
their fears, their sins, their time, to God. They even realised
there was a difference between doing God's work and God's
will, so asked God what was His will, and received an answer.
He told stories which re-created in men's minds the fact of
their own spiritual needs.

Our waiters continued their bustling, slowed down, then
disappeared. A party at the table opposite rose and left.
Others followed. But the talk at our centre table went merrily
on, still entirely devoted to the Oxford Group and its in-
sistence on Christianity proving itself to anyone who would
try it whole-heartedly'instead of half-heartedly.

Presently all the tables but ours were vacated; the room
swiftly emptied. And still the one last table in the centre of
the speakeasy was debating the Oxford Group and a return
to first-century Christianity. And when the party rose, the
last to leave the place, it was to be greeted with an extra
charge per head, not for over-staying the time limit in a
speakeasy, but because we had forgotten to order drinks !

That is the kind of interest the Oxford Group invariably
awakens at the start. When those who are first interested
begin to realise what the teaching means in their own lives
if they consent to its demand, then some opposition arises.
Some hold back because of its teaching about confessing faults
one to another, not realising that, as Loudon Hamilton says,
"There are few aches like the ache of working in a group
of people who do not know each other, after working in a
group of people who do. I believe that real fellowship in a
group of people is the most challenging lack to-day in the
whole realm of Christian living.

"We need to recapture the genius of fellowship. It is not
enough to manage to get on together. We must learn the
secret of living and working together. The price of that is
absolute and continued honesty, first with ourselves and then
with other people. We must be willing to share not only our
time, our homes, our money, but to take down the mask and
reveal our moral and spiritual struggles. There can be no
enduring team-work unless the members of the team do know
each other as far as possible. We must learn to weld the team

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at the centre so that there are no barriers between each other,
nor any reservations about each other which have not been
thoroughly aired."

That was the greatest stumbling-block to my understanding
of the Oxford Group for nearly a year. At one time I had
been in the habit of freely disclosing my thoughts on all sub-
jects to anybody in social conversation. After a time I found
that reacted adversely on me. Then I went to the other ex-
treme, and became intensely secretive, with occasional out-
bursts of garrulity over something that could not positively
injure me. And then I passed through a long, long period of
worry and strain. Not perceiving that I was in the world for
a purpose which may not have been for my immediate benefit,
I resented the strain imposed, a strain which might have been
lessened had I realised that the goal of life is not comfort
but character, not pleasure but perfection ; that we are here
being perfected for a place in God's perfect state.

During this period I had a conversation with one of the
Group leaders, who inquired if I had ever made a complete
confession to another man. I resented the inquiry on the spot.
I felt that if he were God-guided, as he claimed to be, that
was the last question he would ask of me. Had he not read
the story of Job, who, passing through difficulties not of his
own creation, had then to battle with blind, well-meaning
friends who were doing their worst to prove to him how
blameworthy he was? Furthermore, confession was dead
against the practice of my own Church, except confession to
God, and I had done that a number of times. I did not then
fully realise that he was not interested in my past for his
own curiosity, but for my benefit, because he knew there was
seldom real release apart from confession. He argued that
many persons had walled themselves off from God through
an unwillingness to share their difficulties with their fellows.
I told him that I had once been argued into believing that
adult baptism was absolutely essential. Having once under-
gone that experience, I felt I was none the better after bap-
tism than before. Concentration on one aspect of Christian
teaching, whether it was baptism or Holy Communion or
confession, threw the Christian life out of balance.

Already I had told Frank one or two regrettable things

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about my past, which were over, apologised for and forgiven.
That was good enough. I felt no better for the performance,
and I felt no encouragement to delve deeper into my past in
the hope of getting this elusive radiance and peace they were
so keen for. Besides, I had experienced some of that joy
they claimed to possess ; on more than one occasion. Perhaps
I had been vouchsafed a greater measure of God's Spirit
than some in the Group.

"But are you winning. people?"

Confound Cleve Hicks for his insistence ! I wasn't. And I
knew that it was by their fruits true Christians were known.
One thought he had let his light shine a bit sometimes. Surely
that was enough. Again that relentless query about winning
people. Cleve said it was 1 only when he had gone to a man
he had offended made a deliberate sacrifice of time to do it
that he made his first capture. Well, I had done that. But I
still saw no necessity for full Sharing. I preferred to wait,
to qualify. I had other reservations.

One by one these reservations disappeared, though the ob-
jection to Sharing persisted. Instead of waning, it grew as
my travels with the team extended. But the Sharing went on
all round me. It was a change from mixing with people who
were always boasting of their achievement in business or in
journalism or in advertising, of beating the otfier fellow with
a good story, by an extra advertisement, or at the fifteenth
hole; or hearing the bad qualities of a mutual friend thor-
oughly exposed, as so many good sportsmen are eager to do.

Furthermore, there was always the discomfort that I had
a few more things up my own sleeve I could confess at a
pinch. And always the consciousness that of late I had felt
no certainty in my religion; none of the inner rapture which
flows from the Holy Spirit. At one time, long before I met
the Group, that was an oft-recurring experience, especially
when things were most difficult.

These spiritual experiences were not always identical. Some-
times one felt as though a golden fountain were playing
within. Before the white light flashed as I read the Gospel of
St. John, I had been conscious of an intolerable ache which
I thought no human joy could extinguish. Afterwards this
sense of a golden fountain playing extinguished the ache and

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gave marvellous assurance of the doctrine. Still it was a long
time before I came to see a link between this physico-spiritual
experience this apparent witness of the. Spirit and the
mystic words of Jesus to the woman at the well : "The water
that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing
up unto everlasting life."

At other times this sense of a sweet fountain playing gave
place to a mystic burning and glowing equally ecstatic, mark-
ing a step forward in the Christian path and making ex-
plicable those intimate words of the disciples after seeing the
risen Christ on the road to Emmaus : "Did not our hearts burn
within us as He talked with us by the way?'*

Another spiritual experience which came to me I have not
seen described in Scripture. Occasionally one seemed to feel
a golden wire, of gossamer fineness, strung across one's body,
which picked up a celestial melody. I had that experience when
. describing the principles of the Group in the Toronto drawing-
room of a well-known Canadian minister, Dr. Powell, gifted
with the grand manner. And once before I felt it when, throw-
ing aside my many objections, I frankly shared some of the
unhappiest defeats in my life with a friend in the Group.
'So, although I had experienced no noticeable quickening from
baptism or Holy Communion, I did get almost immediately a
renewed sense of the Holy Spirit's burning and glowing in-
dwelling after I had frankly shared, even though there was
still more co discuss and I was still pursuing a cautious
Scottish policy of not putting all my sins into one basket.
Not that anyone's experience can be exactly like another's,
since we may have a different spiritual pitch, and those of my
type evidently require far more encouragement to seek first
and last the Kingdom of God.

Many receive the Spirit's witness at Confirmation, Con-
version, Holy Communion, Baptism, and some, as I now know
by experience, when Sharing.

"He who consistently refuses to share will never under-
stand. But let such a man begin to share, and he will dis-
cover for himself a comradeship which manifests the power
of Christ with .compelling reality. . . . There is a hunger for
fellowship with God and man, and there are many who have

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found that hunger satisfied in themselves and in others along
this double road of confession and witness."

I had almost as much bother with the principle of Guid-
ance. Once or twice I found the principle work out satisfac-
torily in practice; but for a time I could make little or no
headway with it. Being in a Group of persons who were ready
to sit down at any odd moment and write the thoughts which
came as they prayed to. God was disturbing and frequently
embarrassing. One day a member of the Group asked me to
lunch, and later announced that he had been guided to write
me a check of ten pounds. Whereupon he produced his check-
book and was about to hand me the money. Here was a man
living on faith and prayer, and maintaining a wife and two
children from the same source, offering me some of the
balance.

My friend returned the check to his pocket. Was his guid-
ance right or wrong ? The answer is that his overture gave me
a chance of revealing something I was more in need of than
money, which I could never have revealed but for what he did.
It set up a chain of astonishing consequences which may be
endless.

Before I met the Group I was walking down Whitehall
when I was suddenly told by something inside^to send money
to two children in New Zealand. I obeyed, and the needed
money arrived six weeks later, just before the death of their
widowed mother, whose sudden illness I could not have
foreseen.

Another experience of luminous Guidance came soon after
I met Frank, when his insistence on setting his friends to
work to build a spiritual family was still challenging me. Did
he not know that religion was much too sacred a subject for
talking about to everybody? One might be casting pearls
before swine. Frank knew all that, said we should be guided
in our life-changing efforts, but we must remember that noth-
,jng was too sacred that helps men.

The name of a once-successful professional man had been
on my mind very often of late. It occurred to me that here
was an excellent chance to help a difficult case. I determined
to try Frank's advice and see this man, though uncertain

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where he was to be found. Our last meeting was in Lincoln's
Inn, not far from High Holborn. Some months before, I had
met him in another part of the town. So I prayed about him,
listened for guidance, half-expecting to get another such lu-
minous thought as came to me at Oxford. The word that was
pressed into my mind at that moment was "Temple," but
there was not much luminosity about it.

Strolling up Fleet Street, I waited at the top of Middle
Temple Lane, wondering if I should encounter the man I
had in mind, convinced that I had no earthly chance of seeing
him there at that haphazard moment. It was about one o'clock
in the afternoon. For half an hour I watched Londoners pass
and repass me while I was apostrophising myself as: "You
great big stiff to stand here in the middle of London ex-
pecting to meet someone with whom you have no appointment,
who does not work here, and whom you have only seen at this
spot once in your life."

But reassuring thoughts came. "If there is anything in this
guidance business of Frank's and his human engineering, as
there seemed to be once before, it is surely up to Providence
to make this test work, since I am honestly endeavouring 1 to
find out the truth while assisting someone probably in great
need."

I waited another ten minutes. In normal circumstances I
should then have strolled into Lincoln's Inn Fields for exer-
cise or gone somewhere to lunch, as there was no need for my
return to the office for some time. Just as I was about to
move away, there came to me a sudden flash,- distinctly lu-
minous, identical in shape and feeling with the Oxford flash,
and entirely different from my ordinary human thoughts. The
message of this sudden luminous thought was commanding
.. and urgent.

"Now go straight back to your office."
/ But why ? I had no wish or need to go back just then. Yet
I turned and went down the street, and as I swung into the
side road leading to my office the man I had been seeking
simultaneously turned in with me. Side by side we walked up
the alley together.

I was surprised, and yet not really surprised. I felt that
just had to happen. To say the least, it was an amazing co-

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incidence. Feeling rather excited, I asked my friend if he was
looking for me or thinking about me. Perhaps telepathy had
something to do with our meeting. He said, "No." He had
been trying to keep an appointment with a man outside the
Temple the word I had got in guidance at the opposite
entrance to where I stood waiting for him. I had met him
before in Fleet Street, and so my encounter may have been
coincidence. Nevertheless, it was most remarkable that I met
him at a time and place. revealed to me by a luminous thought
while trying out a new theory.

But for that sudden flash I should have been somewhere
else and should not have met him that day. Again I felt that
Frank's "guidance" was not altogether eye-wash.

I saw a good deal of my friend during the next week, but
I'm afraid my further efforts with him must have been sin-
gularly unguided, for I detected no evidence of a great trans-
formation in his life. Nor, probably, did he in mine.

Was that guidance or coincidence? Apart from the con-
viction it gave me, I can trace no beneficial result. I described
this incident to one of the men in the Group, who reminded
me that the art of .changing men's lives was not necessarily
an art to be practised at the same speed as getting a good
news story. With the former there was need of infinite tact
and patience, a willingness to lay yourself alongside another
man, regarding him not as a duty, but lovingly as an oppor-
tunity ; to be ready to devote an hour, a day, a year, a lifetime,
to his redemption, if so guided. The rush methods of jour-
nalism might be applied to the Kingdom of God, sometimes
with satisfactory results, but not always ; and it was probable
I was more in a hurry for results than God. I must regard
every failure as an opportunity for success ; every punch I
received must be negotiated as spiritual jujitsu. Every blow,
every failure, every misadventure must be a lesson for a fur-
ther advance. As Christ accepted the wrath of the world in
Gethsemane, we must be prepared to receive everything that
came our way and re-direct the impact for the good of the
Kingdom and our self -development.

After that, guidance became a desultory sort of affair with
me. Occasionally I would try to keep a regular morning

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period for direction, and sometimes I would receive clear ideas
as to what ought to be done. But the main idea that I needed,
the next big thing to take in hand, persistently evaded me in
organised guidance. I watched the Group ' listening to God.
At first I felt the women seemed more susceptible to clear
leading than the men; some of the experienced ladies in the
Group seemed to take almost every action on the guided prin-
ciple. One night in Calvary I asked a newcomer to make her-
self known to another lady, Mrs. Lee Vrooman (wife of the
Dean of International College, Smyrna), on the other side of
the room, while I carried on a conversation. She arrived just
as Mrs. Lee Vrooman was quietly listening for special guid-
ance on what to do. That contact brought remarkable results.
But still no special guidance for me. I seemed to have slipped
into a lonely rut.

At one Calvary meeting I encountered Dr. Philip Marshall
Brown, Professor of International Law at Princeton Uni-
versity. I reminded him of how I had stormed his cab when
he was leaving Oxford and shared his compartment on the
journey to London.

Inspired by the Group teaching about reconciliation, he had
called on his neighbour and settled a difference which had
kept them apart for a year. But what was the Professor's
experience of guidance? I wanted to know. The Professor is
a commanding figure physically and intellectually. He has a
fine head and a clear, powerful brain. No, he was not accus-
tomed to receiving specially luminous thoughts distinguished
from other thoughts, but he was quite confident he received
guided thoughts. In fact, he had settled into the Quiet Time
habit at any time as well as every morning. Only the other
day someone had called on him for help over a problem, and
together they had listened to God for guidance. Afterwards
he read over those thoughts received in that consecrated half-
hour and he was quite confident his thoughts had been guided,

I was waiting for special guidance in my next big step.
Still none came. I grew restive and a little sceptical of the
guidance theory, which I criticised to Cleve Hicks. Cleve said
he understood my view. When first he saw people in Quiet
Time he thought they were "crazy."

"Let's try a Quiet Time now," said the imperturbable

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Cleve. We tried. I with the same results. He read out to me
his own guidance, and he gave me his paper. He will be sur-
prised to discover it in a book "For Sinners Only." Here is
what he wrote :

They went every one of them with their faces straight
forward, as the spirit was to go they went, they turned
not as they went. (Ezek. i. 12.)

Trust in the living God and He will give thee thy
heart's desire.

God does guide even to the picking of texts. Trust Him
in all things.

Tell mother you are sorry for your remarks about . . .
(Cleve's mother Hied shortly after).

Commit thy ways unto the Lord and He will direct
thy path.

Talk to Ray Purdy about this feeling of defeatism and
things being snarled up. God will direct it. Beware of
cheap optimism.

Take a college by storm.

Be more generous towards those who differ from you.

A. J.'s future is in God's hands the good is soon lost
when the best is not aimed at.

Get to the bottom of sin and the way God delivers
'from all the lures of the evil one. Be of good cheer.
I have overcome the world. Pray that you be not dis-
turbed.

Constant prayer. A much deeper prayer life. A new
trip south is right. Pray for money for it.

Face and name your sins and commit them to God.

There is no urging in love. It is a free response to a
measureless love, that meets every need.

A. J.'s time in America will be richly used. Learn to
take burdens off one another. Let God do it. Where we
deeply care there is no strain.

Whatever one may think of this piece of sample guidance,
there can be no two opinions of the quality of life lived by
the man who wrote it.

Nevertheless, I still had some doubts about the guidance
question and the possibility of being able to turn on guidance
at any time. Perhaps because I had not yet conquered all the
sins that were defeating me. As I waited I began to grow

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careless, and before I realised what was happening I had
slipped a long way from the Source of guidance. Feeling re-
morseful, highly self-critical and definitely repentant, I asked
for leading again, not feeling very confident as to getting
more guidance, since its coming had been so desultory and
unsatisfactory, and the quality of my spiritual life was so low.

Then, suddenly a flash came to show me how this book
was to be written, followed by another giving me the title.
The real purpose of my visit to America now came out with
great clearness. "That checks. It rings a bell," was the opin-
ion expressed, immediately I began to tell others what was in
my mind. The urge had come not as a strong luminous thought
or a soundless whisper in the atmosphere, but as sudden
pressure on the spirit.

And now I had one day left to decide which of three beck-
oning finger-posts to obey. My investigations of the Oxford
Group were practically complete, my story written. I was
free to resume materialism once more. Should I follow one
finger-post down to Florida, the second to new enterprise in
the British Isles, or the third (the most enticing) into a prom-
ising field just miraculously opened in the middle of Man-
hattan? At last I gave up the attempt to solve the problem
and threw it back on the Group principle of guidance for one
final day.

"Don't touch it. Don't touch it. Don't touch it."

There was nothing uncertain about the way those three
warning words buzzed in my ear, like a field of grasshoppers.
Loudly they whirred and definitely they warned warned me
not to touch an enterprise which would have taken me back
to England during the next few days. Following that guid-
ance, I made investigations and found snags in the offer I
was about to accept. That meant good-bye to England for
awhile. The choice now lay between a skyscraper in Man-
hattan and a sojourn in the Millionaires' Paradise around
Palm Beach. Guidance again, but no shrill warnings. Yet
guidance to leave both Florida and Manhattan severely alone.

But come, this was absurd ! One couldn't throw away every-
thing. Besides, this was now the last day of decision. Unless
positive guidance came I was going to act without it. Slowly

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and meditatively back to the hotel. Here a surprise : an urgent
cable from London. Would I catch the next fast boat to Ox-
ford? Signed "Frank."

So guidance had come again ! Perhaps just the guidance I
needed. It gave me the opportunity to make a few more in-
quiries which I had vaguely felt were necessary to complete
my investigations of the Oxford Group.

A murky crossing in mid-March. Welcomed back in
Brown's Hotel by Frank, whom I found entertaining new-
comers to the Group brought in by the articles I had written
in the summer.

With them was "Sherry" Day, whom I had come to regard
as Frank's shadow and complement, sometimes following just
behind and oft-times going before and preparing the way for
a house-party in some corner of the world where the Group
was starting.

The Rev. Sherwood Day is now a Presbyterian minister.
He was a divinity student when he first came to know Frank
at Hartford Seminary Foundation, Connecticut, many years
ago. Since then he has accompanied Frank on most of his
world tours. Once Tasked Sam Shoemaker to name the finest
Christian in the Group.

Sam directed a merry eye at me.

"If you mean the saintliest, the answer must be Sherry
Day. He's an amazingly saintly fellow. I'll give you an ex-
ample. We were travelling in India and proposing to go out
for the evening, but unable to find a servant. All our shoes
were dirty. Presently we noticed that Sherry Day had silently
disappeared. Later he returned just as silently. When we
went to our rooms we all found our shoes cleaned seven
pairs of them. I said to Frank : 'Who cleaned these shoes ?'

"Frank grinned cryptically. 'Don't you know?'

"That/' said Sam, "is the type of man Frank has around
him."

Sherry Day was imitating Christ, Who washed the feet of
His disciples. Practical Christianity this.

On three of the five occasions I have seen Sherry Day,
he was just in the act of catching a liner for England, for

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America, for somewhere; on the fourth and fifth occasions
he was busy helping someone in need. He is always ready to
do something for somebody, and something useful rather than
spectacular, although willing to go to the ends of the world
on faith and prayer.

"What a fellowship it is !" as Sherry is always saying.

Sherry knows instinctively what to do with a team in any
emergency, for he is completely selfless and surrendered.

"The most trustworthy man I know," says Frank.

When Sherry first met Frank he was finding the control
of evil thoughts a hard daily fight. The harder he fought the
more he was conquered. Frank showed him that when the
imagination and will are in conflict the imagination wins;
that the imagination must be centred on God, goodness, and
on helping other people, so that all the evil steam can be con-
densed into a happy, useful and satisfied life.

"Instead of getting tense in temptation nowadays," said
Sherry to me, "I find myself able to make a long nose at the
devil. It was not a trick I learned, but the simple truth that
Christ, working through the absolutely surrendered soul, en-
ables him to overcome his own weaknesses by helping others
who are also struggling with temptations."

Sherry finds that Frank always jumps ahead of him in
development, for he is the natural leader. But Sherry has a
wonderful facility for enunciating the principles which Frank
formulates. He explained to me how the principle of Sharing
came to receive such a prominent place in the Group teaching.

"We were a travelling team in China, where we found that
two of us would sometimes get together and secretly vent
something we disliked about another. (It is notorious that
some Christians cannot work together.) To end that kind of
thing we decided that we should share with the person con-
cerned rather than with another the dislike we felt. Then not
only did we share our own faults whenever they stuck their
heads up, but we sought guidance to end our quarrels and
cement the team into the ideal fellowship. Although Frank
had worked out all the principles of the Group before he left
the Church of the Good Shepherd, it required crises such as
these to put them into joint action. And they have worked
splendidly."

GUIDANCE AT WORK

Sherry says that ten years with Frank has made it possible
to exchange his old divided will for a new and undivided way
of life that has brought him far more pleasure than he be-
lieved possible. One of his typical prayers is, "Make me tired
from intercession and service, and not from defensive
fighting."

He has been present or near to Frank in all parts of the
world when men have been in the act of making the great
change from self to God. "There must be thousands of such
captures," he says. "Of course some of these may later get
spiritual colic, as Frank describes it, and slip away for awhile,
perhaps to return when they feel better just as a child might
do. It is such difficult and patient work, changing men and
keeping them changed. I have seen Frank shaking with the
pain of it. Few people realise how serious and difficult is the
task of creating apostles, which was the life-work of Christ,
Few are born without effort and much pain. There must
always be a Peter who denies at first, and a James and John
who want to sit on the right hand and left hand in the best
seats in the Kingdom ; and a Judas or two to come along
only to betray."

When Sherry Day was a divinity student at Hartford, he
was walking down the main street with Frank when they
encountered two drunken men.

"You take one and I'll take the other," said Frank to
Sherry, starting to collar his man and to take him home.

Sherry was unready and unwilling for the task. He thought
the cure for a drunk was aspirin or coffee, a cold shower
and bed.

"I watched Frank do what I felt I couldn't do," he told
me. "He took his man home, and next day, when he was in
the midst of a. meeting, Frank had one of his irresistible
impulses to go out into the street, where he found his drunken
man again, now perfectly sober. Frank has the guided habit
of turning up unexpectedly just when he is wanted. He put
his man on the right road that day while showing me how
inefficient I was in my own job. I felt like a young man who
had gone into medicine but was unable to do the simplest
medical work in an emergency. Frank explained to me that
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helpless in such an emergency. That if I had real love for men
I should be willing to share with them my temptations, my
secret thoughts, to put myself alongside them, work with them
and for them. He said that every man could test the reality
of his religion by finding out if he was ready to make sac-
rifices for others. He gave me an early chance to make the
test, and I found I did not want to go to China when he
invited me to go there with him. The truth is, I shrank from
Frank's too effective methods, wanting to live a selfish life.
I definitely did not want to get into the lives of others, for
I knew it meant being out in the cold winds, among the strays ;
hard work and considerable pain."

"But you went?"

"Yes."

"And results followed?"

"Yes. The first vital talk I had was with a man tied up by
the same problems I now knew how to avoid. So I shared my
own experience with him. As a consequence there were now
two men to help in changing sinners where previously there

was one."

"And who is the most difficult person you have ever tried
to change?"

Sherry's mind wandered back along the line of changed
men who have fallen to Frank and himself, and presently he
said : "The most difficult man is the one so encrusted with his
sins that he has lost the sense of conviction."

It was late when Sherry and I had finished talking and he
retired to bed. The next morning he was up at dawn, and
once again off on an ocean liner to a guided destination a
house-party at Briarcliff Lodge on the Hudson.

Chapter Sixteen

AN IDEAL HOME

A TRAIN journey with Frank to Oxford is just as exhila-
rating as any other experience with this vital personality. .
Watch him sailing to the booking-office, marshalling the port-
manteaux, directing the porters (who take to him immedi-
ately), directing everybody, choosing his meal in a third-class
dining-saloon the night after he has been living in a Royal
Palace.

Spend a week with him at Oxford while he co-operates in
running Ken Twitchell's ideal home; "God's house," Frank
calls it. The establishment has been run on faith and prayer
for some years, though not without many days when the
future was not clear but awaited with confident faith like a
November fog. But the house goes believingly on. Money
comes in, just enough to keep going. And always a stream of
visitors to entertain as though there were a regular income
or an overloaded banking account.

When Frank enters he seems to bring with him a breeze of
the Spirit. He is religious quicksilver each day of a seven-
day week. The shouts, the tempers, the pique, the postures,
the vanity, the overdone censure and the overdone praise
these concomitants of dictatorship are missing when Frank
is on the job he gets his work done a little quicker, and
sometimes a good deal more efficiently, without these infirmi-
ties of the unsurrendered great.

Only by surrounding himself with men and women living
the same kind of life could so much work be got through in
so short a space of time. Every post brings a mail gathered
from the ends of the earth.

One would think The Group House at Oxford was the
centre of an international religious correspondence course
only there is no charge. News of the spiritual travail of much
of the world pours in through the letter-box, and is faithfully
dealt with in short, crisp answers, confidential and stimulating.
Not answers tepidly charged with good advice, but dynamic

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messages inspiring the recipient to action in some reciprocally
beneficial manner. Perhaps a message to a young man recently
in the Group and suffering from one of those periods of colic
or growing pains to which all of us are susceptible. Frank's
reply may perhaps encourage a little more honest sharing at
home, thus getting straight to the root of his probable trouble.
Always the letter is a mixture of stiff challenge and good-
fellowship.

One of the stiffest letters Frank permitted himself to write
was to some persons who were refusing to support him in
a certain courageous action for the help of someone in need.
Frank said their refusal to extend the help where greatly
needed might involve them in a crop of cares they did not
foresee at the moment. But it was a friendly warning, never-
theless, free from pique and resentment. Never does Frank
mince matters where his correspondents show blindness or
compromise. If the man is living an undisciplined life, he tells
him so in plain words. Fearless dealing with sin all the time.
Honesty demands it. Spiritual growth is impossible without it.

Fifty or sixty letters a day are nothing to Frank. One night
last year in Geneva, following a wearing evening meeting, he
returned to 'his hotel and found the correspondence piling up
from all quarters of the world. All through the night until
6.30 a.m. he dictated to Ken Twitchell. One of those letters
brought about a change in the life of a nobleman, who subse-
quently opened up the Group work in Hungary. After such
a strenuous day, Frank admits to his mind being tired, that
he cannot think so quickly as at the start, but he is still a
human dynamo.

All the time Frank is handling his correspondence he is
listening for guidance as to the requirements of others in the
house. His facility for anticipating a human need before the
person concerned is aware of that need or before he can be
approached or called to the spot is uncanny. I have been
working alone in my room. Suddenly I have found myself
stuck in an aspect of Group work I could not understand. I
have looked up arid found Frank just entering.

"I was guided to come up and see you," he says.

At first you wonder if this is not just coincidence. But
these coincidences continued to happen with me, and anybody

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who knows Frank says just the same thing. His hurried rush
from a camp-fire meeting to a near-by tent where a man was
in agonies with appendicitis, unknown to another human
being, attracted Ray Purdy to Frank. Sherry Day is never
tired of telling that other story of Frank dashing into the
street without warning to encounter the drunken man of the
previous night. All his associates know so many examples of
Frank's uncanny habit that they have ceased to be surprised.
They know that he will always appear at the right time or
else get in touch by telegram, telephone or cable.

Like the proverbial busy man, he is the person always to
find time for extra work. Knowing that the real solution of
his own problems demands, as its natural sequence, the solving
of other people's, his mind is always engaged on this altruistic
duty. He may be in the kitchen thanking the servants for the
way they have speeded up the work proceeding through the
whole house, or be sending daffodils to some neglected person
down the street, preparing Easter cards or Christmas cards,
or saying just the right word to help his hostess put the self-
conscious new arrival at ease the first evening. He thinks of
everybody and everything. When he comes to stay, he comes
not to be entertained, but to entertain. His wide figure, wide
shoulders, wide forehead, wide smile, provide a leaning-post
wide enough to support all comers.

Frank rarely acts alone, but always with the idea of train-
ing others. He is the natural pedagogue, often teaching with-
out permitting others to know they are being taught. A visitor
sat in his Group meetings for several days watching him in
action, listening as he asked first one and then another how
he would handle some new problem that arose. Though he
may not always have gone round the circle, the visitor noticed
with every query that one man's opinion was invariably asked.
Presumably it was because his advice was so good. That was
the visitor's first thought, but Frank did not defer to him
more than to the rest. At the end of the second day the visitor
sensed what was in Frank's mind this man was to be left
in charge of the Group at Oxford when Ken Twitchell was
away in America.

Frank's secretaries are all Group leaders ; he feels this must
be so considering the highly confidential nature of his work

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and the necessity of preparing others to carry on when he is
taken away. It is also better so, for he does not necessarily
give the final word after he has collected opinions. All through
the day he is putting the important matters up to the guidance
of the Group in their Quiet Times. When there is uncertainty,
a further period of Quiet is called for, and then unanimity
is inevitable.

Theoretically, if this guidance is really the Holy Spirit,
there should be immediate unanimity. But there are obvious
reasons why this cannot always be. Guidance must be thought
of as not mechanical, but as becoming clear through reason,
evidence, and luminous thinking. God speaks to us in all the
^ays of our human understanding. No man or group of men
is infallible, but a group of people each individually seeking
-God's will and closely united together is most likely to receive
the clearest consistent guidance. Often God reveals only one
;step at a time. Sometimes we have to go ahead on what seems
probably right instead of acting on certainty. Guidance ulti-
mately rests on a basis of faith, and if we act sincerely on
what God gives us, He never lets us down, say the Group.
"All things work together for good to them that love God,"
is the guiding slogan.

There is a constant coming and going at The Group House.
I was writing in my room when a tall, blue-eyed youth from
South Africa, now a "fresher" at Cambridge, breezed in.
This young lad began to tell me his quaint experience with
the Groups in his native country. His elder brother had come
home one evening to urge his parents to come down to
Muizenburg and see what a Group meeting was like.

"I hadn't the slightest notion of what it was all about,"
said the young undergraduate, as he lounged before my fire.
"I didn't even know it was going to be a religious meeting.
But I went down just to see what was on. I was a college
boy, and naturally interested in what my bigger brother was
about. The Group crowd seemed rather happy, and gave me
a welcome, which I thought was rather decent for University
men. So I stayed on to their meeting, when they began to
talk about something which I felt was right and really wanted.
Hitherto I had thought religion was rather dull, but the Group

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seemed to have a new way of looking at things, which was
not morbid, though very personal. But I wasn't quite prepared
for, this or what was about to follow.

"After several had told their stories, I was astounded to
see my elder brother get up and begin to tell his own experi-
ence. To hear one who had always dominated his brothers and
sisters stand up in a public meeting and talk so frankly about
the change which had come into his life was to set my knees
knocking together. I felt it meant I should have to do the
same thing, unless I was careful.

"Well, I wasn't so careful. For I spoke to a happy-looking
fellow after the meeting, who told me that Christ was the
centre of his life. Nobody had talked like that to me before.
It made me think. I could see he was thoroughly happy.
After that I had a chat with my brother, and discussed pretty
frankly some of the things in my life which I had not liked
to discuss before. That helped me tremendously. Then I saw
Cleve Hicks, and with him I made my surrender to God. With
that a new power came to me, accompanied by a great peace
and joy; though there was nothing emotional about it."

"What about your parents?" I asked, knowing that the
undergraduate's father was a prominent King's Counsel in
Cape Town.

"Oh, they seemed quite pleased about it. Especially, Dad
was. We all went home, and my elder brother and I had
Quiet Times together, and also took part in the School Group
at Diocesan College where we both were. Then my younger
brother became interested, and next my younger sister all
four of us. It made quite a difference in the home. There
was much less scrapping than formerly, which so surprised
my father that he decided to come in too. The thing which
caused him the most astonishment was the sight of all four
of us dashing off one evening to get his spectacles when he
asked for them this, instead of our being asked several
times to go, and each passing the buck to one of the others.
So all four of us children, and father as well, now had Quiet
' Times together in the same house. Father is very enthusiastic.
When the car hadn't arrived at the station on time to meet
him, instead of losing his temper he spent the waiting period
witnessing to a porter."

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"What other change occurred in your home-life?"

The undergraduate mused on the pleasant South African
home thousands of miles away, for which he was slightly
homesick.

"It put us all on a different relationship, of course. We
found that most of us had to cut out some selfishness which
we had nourished. That made life much happier for every-
body. We had Group meetings every Sunday, and the fellows
who came in about that time are still holding strongly."

News that this young man's father had associated himself
with the Oxford Group speedily became known in the South
African Bar. One day he was addressing a High Court Judge
in Cape Town when he used the phrase^ "Now, my lord, to
be perfectly honest . . ." Whereupon the Judge jocularly
interpolated, "Come, Mr. B , no Oxford Group here."

The Chaplain of Downing College, Cambridge, was another
to arrive that day. He had been suddenly whisked up from
Cornwall to rearrange plans for an April house-party in his
University town, a party which he ran magnificently. A tall,
slim, athletic figure with the lightest blue eyes, he had once
distinguished himself as Captain of Boats at Wadham College,
Oxford. The Rev. Nick Wade placed the invitations to the
forthcoming house-party on my table, stretched his long legs
before my fire and became ruminative. He had some very
poignant recollections of his first meeting with Frank, which
was as far back as 1922, when he was attending a house-party
of Oxford men at Keswick. "One evening Frank came in to
supper and prayer. After supper twenty of us sat round in a
circle to hear him, and two of us subsequently came into the
Group the Rev. Howard Rose and myself."

"Tell A. J. that story of 'Rose, Rose, Rose/ and 'Wade,
Wade, Wade,' " Frank had advised, when I was being intro-
duced to the Chaplain.

Nick Wade (perfect name for an Ethel M. Dell hero)
told me the yarn.

"I had listened to Frank's stories of changed lives typical
stories of Frank's," said he, "and next morning awoke feeling
rather rebellious. I felt there was something in religion and
that I hadn't yet got it, and that perhaps Frank could ex-
plain. I went out and, oddly enough, found myself walking

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down a cul-de-sac, running parallel with the road I meant to
take. Exactly how I got into that I don't remember. Just then
Frank came unexpectedly out of a house and hailed me. It
seemed rather queer when he said he was just coming to see
me that I should have unconsciously come out of my way to
see him. I told him this. Whereupon Frank opened his note-
book and showed me the entry :
"'Wade, Wade, Wade; Rose, Rose, Rose.'
"I said: 'Why did you write that down?'
"Frank replied that in his early Quiet Time he had heard
two names Wade and Rose.

"That," said the Chaplain, "was the first time I realised
how an ordinary man' could be in close touch with God. So
we had a great talk, which opened to me a whole new vista
of practical adventure and possibility which before had been
just theoretical and theological. Very little followed immedi-
ately, but soon there came a new realisation of the challenge
of Christ to live so close to Him that He could guide and
control my life all the time and use me in the lives of others.
"A few years later I travelled round the world with Frank
and a small company, including Loudon Hamilton, Sherry
Day, and Sam Shoemaker, seeing a cross-section of life in
the Near, Middle and Far East. We mixed with missionaries,
and people who had no use for missionaries. The discipline
of that travelling team and my experiences during that year
abroad with Frank, together with the vision it brought of the
need of the modern world for Christ, led to my decision to
prepare for ordination. That year with Frank was amazing.
Barriers in my departmentalised life were broken down every-
where, and I was taught how to be willing to do anything
the Spirit of God wanted and how to do it. I found that Frank
thinks of everything, always with the object of extending
God's Kingdom. A whole new quality of life became pos-
sible through the principle of guidance. I found that if one
is ready to pay the price, there really comes a power to
diagnose the trouble and provide the cure in one's own life
and in other lives all the time.

"More and more I came to understand how everything
centres round an experience of Jesus Christ, so real, so vivid,
so great, that it dominates the whole life. It is a dynamic rela-

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tionship that issues in power. Since then I am continually
finding that people, even conventional Christians, keep so
many areas from Christ's control that they live merely a
departmentalised life. My contact with Frank swept me to a
higher level, where nothing now was either secular or re-
ligious, but everything spiritual and real. This life gets you
more and more. I was asked to come up here from Cornwall
quite suddenly, and I had no wish to come. But here I am.
I know the only right thing to do is what God tells me to do."

Nick Wade is a popular Chaplain. He is priceless as the
host at a big house-party; that he feels a sense of divine
guidance and power in the details of his daily routine can be
seen by anyone with half a blind eye who observes his earnest
face and radiant manner. Lunching with the Chaplain o'f
Downing means not a formal talk about generalities, but a
heart-to-heart talk about the deepest needs of a man's life,
those needs which the English gentleman is so expert in
hiding from his closest friends.

Later on I had a chat with the Rev. Howard Rose, who
is of the Donald Hankey-Woodbine Willie type, and well
worth a detour to meet at his Vicarage in London, or to hear
preach in Christ Church in the same accessible thoroughfare.

Howard Rose is slight, tallish, with a wiry, athletic figure,
ready to carry on alone without a curate for sometimes twenty
hours a day. He has a domed head, a ruddy complexion, and
the happiest of dispositions, with a completely disciplined
character, which makes you ready to give him your confidence.

It was Howard's experiences during the War which de-
cided him to give up business and enter the ministry. In one
instance he was the recipient of special guidance which saved
the lives of himself and the whole company;

Howard was leading his company out of the front-line
trenches back through dangerous terrain under a rain of
'shell-fire to rest billets when he approached a fork in the
road. Both arms of the fork led to the billets, but the one to
the right was better marching, further away from the enemy's
guns, and in every obvious way the more desirable.

Howard wavered between the two roads he knew nothing
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trusting for an immediate answer. The answer flashed back
clearly :

"Take the left"

The sergeant-major was astounded to see the commander
taking the worst road, and protested. The men, too, began,
grousing, but followed. Everybody was sullenly convinced the
captain was wrong, for the enemy shells were now falling
nearer than before. Suddenly there came a fresh salvo of
shelling, and then the other road to their right, at the exact
spot where they would have been marching, was blown
shapeless.

Seeing this, the men's feelings changed instantly, as was
shown later when Howard addressed them before the dismiss.
He said he felt they should know the real reason why he
marched left instead of right against everybody's better judg-
ment, including his own. Ten of his company (including some
of the N.C.O.'s) afterwards wanted to know more about
religion, and, thinking they could catch it by being confirmed,
approached the Brigade Padre for this purpose. Says Howard :
"The Brigade Padre was one of the very best, and had
already won a Military Cross and Bar for conspicuous brav-
ery. Knowing what I stood for, he put up to me that I should
prepare my own men for Confirmation. At first I was taken
aback, and told him I was not a padre, but just a soldier.
'True,' he said. 'But you are also a soldier of Jesus Christ.
Tell them simply what He means to you.' Accordingly, at
my next opportunity, when the battalion was out at rest, my
Confirmation class was begun. It comprised a sergeant, a
lance-corporal, and eight privates. We met some dozen times,
and these talks have since formed the basis of my Confirma-
tion talks as an ordained parson. They had to be practical
and real to meet the circumstances and needs of active service,
and so probably got across better than the classes I had my-
self attended as a boy. My candidates were duly confirmed
by Bishop Gwynne, Assistant Chaplain-General, and one now
deeply interested in the Groups, and it did seem to make a
very real difference, not only to them, but to the whole
battalion."

These incidents and innumerable talks with officers and
men finally led Howard into the ministry.

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"It was just after my ordination," he says, "that I met
Frank for the first time, and was deeply impressed not only
with his quality of life, but with his emphasis on the need
of unhurried quiet in the early morning. Twice Frank visited
me in my parish in Sussex, leaving an unmistakable influence
on my life, and after the second occasion I determined at
whatever cost to keep an unhurried quiet time daily. The
change in one's effectiveness was instantaneous, and shortly
afterwards I was called to Oxford as a chaplain on the Pas-
torate ministering to undergraduates. It was here that I found
no way so effective as that advocated by the Group in dealing
with students.

"In my six years in Oxford over one thousand students,
both men and women, came of their own accord for personal
talks. Many of them had deep needs which I knew I could
not have met had I not had my own needs met by Frank
or someone else. Each term several hundred men and women
came into our home. It became the centre of the activity of
the Group in Oxford, and in 1928 it was my privilege to
lead the first team to South Africa, from which date I have
been wholly identified with the work."

Howard's congregation has trebled during his first six
months as Vicar.

During my stay at The Group House, Oxford, I had ample
chances of observing Frank's love of festivities. His delight
in making Easter Day happy for everybody was thoroughly
infectious. Easter cards from him appeared on plates and
desks, a fine Easter lily from somebody was ushered into the
drawing-room, Easter eggs for the Twitchell Tots were
secreted in, behind and under the chairs. Frank can play with
children and make them as thoroughly at ease as he makes
the grown-ups. He waxed merry at my amazement in finding
the number around the table for the special Easter Day lunch
was thirteen ! No such thing as superstition in the Oxford
Group. I whispered to Garrett Stearly to sit in the middle
of the train that afternoon, as he and Nan (his ideal wife)
left for Wolverhampton just in case of accidents. The table
were incredulous that anyone could be so sensitive to the
figure thirteen. Then Marian (Mrs. Twitchell) unconcernedly

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announced that she was born on the thirteenth of the month.
One felt more certain that something would happen to that
train to Wolverhampton. This was just tempting fate. The
next day the Group came together and fixed the date for a
luncheon to Editors, calmly deciding on April I3th!

Presumably, the reason why there was no accident to the
Wolverhampton train was because some worse fate was de-
veloping for these daring people who hurled their defiance
at the skies of superstition. I had piquant memories of buying
stocks on the morning of a certain November I3th, to see
them crash on the afternoon of the same unlucky day. Later
I called on the broker for tea at his private address. He lived
at Number 13. On a subsequent February I3th I saw stocks
I had just sold short go soaring to the clouds, leaving me
more broke than usual. One Friday, December I3th, I signed
the lease for some new business premises. Three serious
operations followed immediately afterwards, which held up
the business for a long time, to say nothing of a complexity
of further misfortunes ending in the great depression. And
while I was finishing this chapter the thirteenth President of
France was assassinated. The Group of thirteen sitting round
Mrs. Twitchell's table smiled complacently at superstition. I
was not so confident. The telephone bell rang. A message
came through from Europe inviting Frank to be the guest of
a celebrity over the week-end. That was the answer to this
Number 13 recklessness. His boat would go down like the
White Ship. But Frank returned smiling the next week. And
I have still to discover what ill-luck was brewing and went
astray. A new moon peeped at us through the glass of the
railway compartment on our way to Cambridge just after. But
tragedy still held aloof.

The Twitchell Tots Skippy and Baby Anne aged four
and two, take their place with the family and guests at the
Group dining-table, which says a lot for "Madi," a young
Swiss Quakeress, in whose charge they are. The Twitchell
Tots have not yet begun their official Quiet Times, although
they are unconsciously practising them. Their shouts for
Daddy and Mummy to come "say prayers with them" is evi-
dence that religion will come naturally without the coercive
methods which did so much harm in a past generation. Skippy

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is a tall, serious boy, with a fair complexion, fine dark lashes,
a kindly nature and the promise of a poet. Baby Anne has
a wide forehead, lots of brains behind it, much coquetry and
a face full of mischief.

There is one point of exact similarity between all four
Ken, Marian, Skippy, Baby Anne. Each has a pair of fine
dark brown eyes. All appear to have been made from one
model, a prize brown eye, multiplied eight times into a brown-
eyed family octagon.

To see the family at work in The Group House, one would
hardly suspect the discipline which underlies its happy free-
dom. All are in the world yet not of it. Marian and Nan
disprove the contention that two women in one house do
not agree long. Sharing is again the explanation. Watch these
two, used to the gay social round, imparting a rarer gaiety
to the work of The Group House, so obviously enjoying their
life of faith and prayer and surrender to God.

One morning at breakfast Nan read a letter from Miss
Round, the Wightman Cup tennis-player. I asked her what
Miss Round was doing in the Group. Oh, Nan had met her
at a house-party up in the Midlands, from which the tennis
celebrity went home deeply impressed. As was well known,
Miss Round had a strong religious background. Her mother
asked her what the meeting was like "Goody-goody ?" "No,
the real thing!" So the tennis celebrity had become a wit-
nessing enthusiast for the Group basis of life.

Donald MacKay blew in one day from South Africa.
Donald is a merry fellow. Having once overstayed his leave
as a soldier, he gave this cheeky explanation to his Colonel:
"I've had a damn good time, and am ready to pay for it."
He paid lightly ! He had done all sorts of he-man jobs on
the veldt. Once he lived in a forest hut. The mice came and
ate his food. One day they disappeared. Relief for a fort-
night. Then he encountered a large cobra outside his hut and
tried to kill it. The cobra ran into his hut and was killed as
it entered a hole where it had lived inside the hut for a
fortnight, protecting him from mice. One of his jobs was
driving wild horses from Rhodesia down into the Transvaal
to save the pound-a-head railway fare. He is the kind of man
to do the right thing when the extraordinary happens, as he

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did in the middle of the night when his mob of wild horses
were stampeded by a pair of undimmed headlights. He has
a delightful fund of hunting stories. He told me a quaint in-
cident connected with one of the Group meetings in South
Africa. A young student had owned up to stealing money for
cigarettes, whereupon the negro servant promptly and unex-
pectedly confessed to having stolen the cigarettes his young
master had bought with the stolen money!

But his best yarn is the tale of how he tried to dodge
Loudon Hamilton in Pretoria back in 1929 ; how he went to
his first house-party a camp on the veldt ostensibly to give
his dog a swim, but really to find an answer to life's riddle;
how he found it, and has since become a troubadour for God
on three continents.

When the 1931 house-party at Oxford ended, we were all
invited to the University Church of St. Mary to witness the
pretty wedding of two experienced leaders Bill Browne and
Polly Fox. There were ten bridesmaids. I described that cere-
mony under a banner headline

"FAITH AND PRAYER WEDDING AT OXFORD."

Frank had given an address, in which he said the wedding
was a challenge to a world of materialism, for they would be
trusting to God only for their sustenance while they sought
to extend His Kingdom. Polly and Bill were now frequent
callers at The Group House. I asked them how they fared
in married life on faith and prayer. Amazingly well! Once
they got down to just enough for the next breakfast. Then
a little money had come in by post from a working girl in
the North who had been helped by them. A clergyman had
heard of the incident, and had sent along a couple of pounds.
From then onwards the faith and prayer life had continued
to work out; always the cruse of oil, rarely an abundance.
Subsequently Bill Browne took charge of a house-party at
Matlock, which he ran with outstanding ability. Patrick is the
name of their baby son.

Ray Purdy and Elsa Purdy were among those constantly
cording and going to and from The Group House while I was
staying there. Both radiant as ever, both ready to come for-
ward and lead or efface themselves as usual, both doing good

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work which nobody heard anything about until perhaps a
year or so after, when someone, telling the story of his or her
life-change, would announce, "And then I met Ray Purdy."
It was like saying, "And then came the War." The inevitable
had happened. They were now off to South Africa, where
Ray was to take charge of a big church in Pretoria. They
sailed on Friday the thirteenth!

Here in The Group House I met again a lady who has
done so much for Calvary Church and the Group Movement
in America and Europe. Olive Jones has silver hair, a clear
brain, a sense of humour, a vein of sentiment, a voice in a
thousand, and a heart of gold. Yet she has been a stern
disciplinarian, and, as such, was given the charge of special
schools in New York State, where she did more for delin-
quent boys than any person in America. At one time she was
on sixty-four public committees, was elected President of the
National Education Association, and is nationally regarded as
an authority in her field.

One Saturday afternoon I drove Olive out from Oxford
to Pangbourne a picturesque river-drive, to a tumbling weir
(bubbles of a drowned past!), then on to Reading. Ken lent
me his fifty-thousand-mile-old Morris for the drive. She went
beautifully, but the engine had the knack of stopping when
the car stopped at busy points en route, to the annoyance of
everybody but Olive. Even when I took the wrong turning
and the car stopped without power on the edge of the river,
Olive gazed placidly on, careless of potential tragedy.

Adventures and misadventures, but the old Morris held
out. I had one eye on the road, one eye on the Thames, one
ear for the engine and one ear for the remarkable story that
Olive had to tell. Though once a church member, Olive had
long given up her belief in religion, in the Bible, in God, but
still retained her faith in a future life. Her mother became
stricken with paralysis, and just before she died was always
calling Olive's name, though never able to make her under-
stand. As her mother died, her paralysed arms raised suddenly
and a beatific expression came into her face, which convinced
Olive that she had glimpsed the world beyond. Olive pon-
dered over the mystery of what her dying mother had wished
to tell her. At that time Olive's educational theory was just

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ethical teaching, habit formation, and pre-vocational training,
aided by medical and social service. She believed that if a
person was shown what was the right thing to do, he would
do it, provided economic pressure did not prevent him. Her
work flourished, but she was dissatisfied. A study of the
after-career of her boys revealed seventy-nine per cent, living
useful, respected lives which meant great acclaim for her.
But twenty-one per cent, were on the road to prison
social menaces at best. Her dissatisfaction grew. A movement
for week-day religious education of unchurched children had
now started among New York teachers, Catholic and Prot-
estant, working separately, but in absolute harmony. Olive
began to think of this as a device to help her with that way-
ward twenty-one per cent. She agreed to help in the publicity
side of the work, in which she specialised. This took her to
see some of the class-work first hand. One day a small boy
looked up into her face and asked,
"What church do you go to?"

The unconscious emphasis on you made hef feel a hypo-
crite. She could not say, None. As an evasive answer she gave
the church in which she had been confirmed. To save her face
(for she had always been honest with children), she now
decided to join a church. She saw an advertisement of Calvary
in a street car, and went to hear Sam Shoemaker preach.
Greatly attracted by the practical sincerity of the sermons and
the cordiality of the people, she decided to join. She saw Sam,
who urged her to attend the Thursday night Group meeting,
but she evaded. A lady who knew Olive by reputation in
women's organisations, a member of the Group, took her out
to dinner and told her of her own changed life, which made
Olive determined to find God for herself, as she was con-
vinced she was hearing truth in spiritual things at last. So
Olive called on Ray and Mrs. Purdy at their apartment
where, as frequently happens another definite surrender to
God was made.

The capture of Olive was an important event in the life of
Calvary Church. Here was a God-sent organiser arriving just
at the time when a forward movement was in progress. Olive
took over the direction of Calvary House, and ran the activi-
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learned and developed during many years spent in powerful
political organisations. The morning Quiet Time which she
established in Calvary House became a period for gathering
together the strings of the work and getting and giving gen-
eral direction for the rest of the day. Then came the Geneva
house-party, requiring Olive's attendance in Europe, and later
her presence in Oxford.

That drive with Olive to Pangbourne and then on to Read-
ing was a spiritual feast. One always believed there were
many women in the world who lived very near to God. A
conversation with Olive proves she is one of them. As we
were coming down the hill to Magdalen College on our return
journey, Olive was telling me of a recent mystical experience.
She was one of a party of fifteen (all in the Group) who
were attending communion service. As all went to the altar
rail, Olive found herself at the end of the line. Fourteen
knelt, and then the verger's hand went out, and Olive had to
wait. Just at that moment of separation from the rest she was
vividly conscious of Christ's presence close beside her, kindly,
sympathetic, and completely understanding.

A true mystical experience.

One last story from the dinner-table at The Group House
deserves a place at the top of a news column. A woman had
been divorced, and was living on a settlement paid regularly
by her re-married husband under a Court order. The woman
was changed through the Group, and she began to get guid-
ance. This included the leading to write to her divorced
husband and decline any more payments from him, as she had
been just as guilty as he over the divorce. A courageous step,
for it meant looking to God for her maintenance, for she
had no other source of income.

Some other husbands would probably like their ex-wives
to encounter the Group.

Chapter Seventeen

A MODERN WIFE'S ADVENTURE

WIVES, like husbands, are sometimes fed up with the
humdrum of domesticity and decide to cut away for a
good time seeing the world.

At dinner in a Southern home I picked up the first details
of a priceless story of one of these wives' encounters with
Frank, full of humour and practical evangelism. The heroine
Lady W. was remarkably intelligent, a short-story writer,
attractively but largely built. Had she been a size smaller she
might have filled the bill as a film star. Despite her propor-
tions, she had personality to make her a favourite in company
and wit to retain that favouritism. She lived in the East Indies,
but, wanting rest and change, decided to leave her husband
for a six months' holiday.

As she went on the boat some wag warned her to beware
of a religious fanatic who was on board. But the chief
steward placed Frank and her next each other at the mate's
table, she being unaware who her neighbour was. Frank's
other neighbour was an Admiral's wife, who stared with dis-
approval at Lady W., and was surprised that a man like Frank
should talk with a person of her type. How could he help it
when she was his neighbour at table, he asked. Frank told me
the story complete. Here it is:

"Lady W. and I chatted together. She talked about her
ski-ing experiences in the mountains, and I about some of
my travels. I noticed that she always came in a little late for
dinner, wearing some marvellous creation or other. She was
a genial, happy companion and a great favourite with the
men in the smoking-room. When we entered port, the Ad-
miral's wife and party went ashore and left me to see the
town by myself. As I was seated in the lobby of a hotel I
saw Lady W. and a young man I had noticed on the boat
arrive together. What should I do? Ask them to tea, or watch
them wander into the Palm Room? Suppose the Admiral
and his wife came in and saw me entertaining her bete noir?

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An intuitive prompting made me ask them to tea. The young
man eagerly accepted, for, as I discovered later, he had no
money, and regarded me as a merciful Providence.

"During tea I mentioned I was taking a drive, and in-
vited them to join me in the back seat and see the sights.
I sat in with the driver, who was called Bunty. I told him all
the interesting things I could think of, and he told me about
the sights. I asked about his family, and Bunty mentioned his
twins. And as I spoke I always heard an undertone behind
repeating what I was saying:

" 'Bunty has twins, and he's asking their names.' "

Frank decided to pass back more and more information as
it came along. Each time he looked round, the couple seemed
to be progressively friendly. Before the tour ended the pair
behind were receiving far more information (and interrup-
tion) than they expected or desired.

Frank continues :

"We arrived back at the pier, and my passengers alighted,
while I made some calls. As I returned to the pier I saw my
friends, who overheard my farewell conversation with the
driver. Bunty flatly refused to take any money for the drive,
saying he had rarely been treated like a human being by his
fares, and he was grateful for the ride with me. Lady W.
and her friend looked on, more astonished at me than ever.
I waved good-bye to Bunty, sent messages to the twins, and
went aboard."

To Frank's surprise, Lady W. came aboard again, for she
had intended to stay ashore for a long holiday. He now ob-
served an under-current of worry about his table-mate, and
discovered that she had not received her last monthly remit-
tance from her husband, and no reply had come to her cable
of inquiry. So she had quickly cancelled her plans and decided
to return home on the same ship.

Frank continues :

"As the steamer receded from the shore I found myself
singing on a happy, moonlight evening. Lady W. asked me if
I knew what I was singing. I said, 'No,' and she announced
it was a hymn. She turned to her companion. 'Why, he doesn't
even know he's singing a hymn!' Soon Lady W. failed to
appear at meals, so I thought I would now let her know

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something about myself and sent her down a book to read.
Some days later we met on the companion-way. She looked
at me startled.

" 'My God! Are you that man?'

"'What man?'

" 'That man in Life-Changers?

"I said I was, and she said I was just the sort of man she
had been looking for all her life. Her family had always
taught her the Bible, and lately she had reminders that one
could not be happy without it. A friend of hers had jumped
out of a window after a merry party in one of the night-
clubs and killed herself. She wanted to talk more to me about
the Bible, and proposed to get out a copy from her mother's
old box in her trunk, which she had not read for a long time.
Did I mind her getting some of her smoke-room friends along
to listen? Of course I had no objection to that, and so we
sat in one corner of the deck, and she volunteered to read
the Bible to us, which she knew well enough to choose the
fifty-first Psalm. Thus began aboard a little group of which
Lady W. was the natural leader.

"Her sudden interest in the Bible introduced a good deal
of excitement on the ship, as previously she had been none
too careful what she said and did, and some women passed
her by on the other side. A real battle came for her later,
when she felt she must correct the wrong impression she had
made and the things she had said. One day she came rushing
up to me saying, 'I can't go and tell these people how wrong
I was. What will they think of me?'

"I said she had told the original stories to raise a laugh,
and that she was now big enough to risk their laughing again.
Moreover, I thought they would be silenced and secretly chal-
lenged, though perhaps they would pass it off lightly. She
said she could not do this without prayer.

" 'All right,' I said. 'Let's have prayer, then.' "

"She made her decision during that prayer, and presently
courageously did what she had declared was impossible.

"It brought an amazing response. Another woman writer
with whom she shared asked if she could use that incident
in her next magazine story. Lady W. readily agreed. The

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woman asked why she did that, and was told the power o
Christ.

"'So that must be the power I need/ said the authoress,
adding, 'I have not seen enough in Christianity before to
inspire me to try to get that power.' She complimented Lady
W. on her courage.

"And now, as an amazing result, the ship was almost
turned into a religious house-party. It became quite easy and
natural to talk about the things in life that mattered. Every-
body began to be interested. The change from the average
gossip of a liner was amazing. Lady W. easily became the
centre of the talk; and her arresting and compelling per-
sonality and originality of expression of the great and eternal
truths sobered and challenged the ship's company.

"When we arrived at the port, everybody was interested to
see if her husband would be at the dock to meet her. One of
those most interested was the Admiral's wife, who had now
become so devoted that she kissed Lady W. on both cheeks
and expressed the hope that they would meet again, and
meant it. So different from the average, 'Hope I see you
again/ which secretly means, 'Hope I don't/" says Frank,
and continues :

"Lady W.'s husband was there ready for her. His reply
to her cable had gone astray. Because of her new experience
she was most grateful for that Providential mishap. Lady W.
immediately witnessed to him, and told him of her new power
in life, and he seemed quite glad to hear it, and sardonically
hoped it would do her good, as a husband would say. She
also witnessed to her friends at the night-club. Later she came
to New York, and rang me up the first day, took tea with
me and then went with me down to Calvary, where she reg-
istered a further decision to serve the Lord Christ.

"Early one morning I was called to the house of a well-
known singer who was planning suicide as the easiest way out
of her troubles. She was something like Lady W. in appear-
ance, came from the same town, and in answer to my ques-
tion, exclaimed that she had known her at school. I told her
about Lady W.'s remarkable experience, and asked if she
would care to talk with her. She asked:

" 'Do you think she has the solution of my problem ?'

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" 'I do,' I answered.

"I telephoned Lady W., and she gladly went down to see
her with the good news that Jesus Christ still suits, saves
(from suicide) and satisfies.

"Now what of Lady W/s husband? Well, he came home
from a long leave in the East to see his aged father, whom
he had not met for seven years. Then Lady W. and he came
to England for a house-party. The first evening I was walking
up and down by the quad trying to tell her husband how
natural it was to live with God, when a telegraph messenger
came dashing up and handed him a wire.

" 'My father's passed on !' he exclaimed, and then, as I
tried to comfort him. as we paced round the quad, he said,
'I'm just at the place where God has sent me' for the help I
need at this time, for I can't stand alone face to face with the
great eternal realities. I have no adequate solution for the
problem/ Would I lead him to the source of power?

"Quite naturally, as we walked up and down, he expressed
his gratitude to One who makes eternal plans for bringing
men home. Under the stars that night he yielded his life to
Christ, telling me how the silent influence of his helpmate,
Lady W., had made a great impression on him. How he had
tested her at every point, and her new life squared with the
principles of her Master.

"They did not go home immediately, but stayed on, as he
wished to be established in the faith. He told me later the joy
of his mother at hearing that he, too, was serving the One
who had been the joy and guide of her loved one through the
valley. The time came when husband and wife sailed for their
Far Eastern home, taking with them an orphan child to bring
up as their son, in another home re-made with Jesus Christ
the unseen Guest and silent Listener to every conversation."

Lady W.'s correspondence since that trip makes interesting
reading. "My word! I'm learning such a lot," she writes to
Frank. "I'm just beginning to get a glimpse of what you
have had to face in your years of work. I'll say that I was an
easy mark to a great many that you have come- in contact
with. A woman friend has just been staying with me, who,
as women go down here, is one of the exceptions for the

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better. But many times while she is talking I hear myself
speaking, as of yore, and want to cry out, 'It's all so useless
to look at things in that way. Get the light of Christ on it.'
... I used to think that the personal Cross was a sort of
illusion . . . but I see there is an individual Cross for each,
the true carrying of which is its own blessing."

She tells gaily of a return trip to a night-club : "I felt it
all such a pity and waste of time. ... The attitudes of some
of the dancers and some of the clothes worn made me feel
again my old wanton self, made up to a forced prettiness,
with clothes far too extravagant, and the ego dominating
every move. It was how / looked, how / dressed, how /
danced; and my partner only came into the picture in the
degree to which he was a compliment to me. I must admit,
too, that the Cabaret did amuse the flesh, while the spirit was
grieved over the poor souls jigging and dancing their lives
away.

"Don't think by this that I've got into a pessimistic mood
or that I am always looking at things through blue glasses.
Far from it, but I feel how small any momentary pleasure
or amusement on this earth is compared to that which is
waiting . . . and the mass of souls blinded by the tinsel and
hating to give it up simply appals me. . . . We're so stupid,
some of us. As for me, I've fought about every step of my
surrender after I made it, and now I think it about time I
gave in entirely . . . but to-morrow I may be fighting to hold
out on some silly selfish point."

The old life peeps out again later: "When it came to hang-
ing your picture, my husband was all for a prominent place,
while I was for a bit of shadows. The shadows won, for as
I have to live here daily, I said that I did not want Frank's
picture to be always looking at me as though searching for
hidden sins."

She tells of the discovery that she must give up telling lies.
"Golly ! Don't I remember that polite lie I told to the Purdya
last summer. . . . Well, I'd rather have told all my shady
past than confess that lie, but I had to, or cease to get guid-
ance. . . . You know I do miss the house-parties, even here I
feel the fellowship of the Groups. . . . Really, I'm so happy
I can't express it. ... I'm learning such a lot, in patience

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and much-needed discipline. My days are now mapped out
like a time-table. But it's great fun. . . . My hope is to teach
my son to listen to God as soon as he can pray."

Another echo of the voyage:

"I'm trying to get in touch with the young student in Aus-
tralia who told me on the boat that you were a religious
fanatic and to keep from religious topics when talking to you.
A letter I had a short time ago from a friend there says he
was in a fair way to commit suicide due to failing in an exam
for the third time."

I have listened to many other bizarre life-stories told by
women in the Groups.

"Kitty" was a picturesque figure as she rode hatless and
erect along the streets of Oxford, her bicycle in tow of her
pet terrier, lively and vivacious as herself; a, happy under-
graduette at whom nearly every passing youth darted an ad-
miring glance. "Kitty's" story is as vivacious as herself. It
was not until her third year at Oxford that she came into
touch with the Groups, in 1930.

"For nine terms," she says, "I had been free from the re-
stricting influence of a quiet home in the north of England,
living merely from day to day, restlessly rushing from one
pleasure to another, trying everything once, spending my time
with gangs of care-free, idle undergraduates, in a ceaseless
round of gay parties. I was drugging myself with continual
cigarettes, drinking far too much, keeping far too late hours.
My academic work was practically nil.

"I took no part in the social life of my own college, where
I was cordially detested, taking most of my meals out, and
preferring the society of my men friends to that of the
women students. And the men I chose to associate with were
a tough crowd. Some of the cocktail parties to which they
took me were pretty bad. Flattered by the attentions they
paid me, I lived their pace, and rapidly became notorious.
By the time I met the Groups I was well on the way to the
dogs.

"What first attracted me about the Groups was the peace
and happiness I saw in the faces of the people I met. Peace
was unknown in my life at that time to me it stood for

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dullness and boredom. I got my happiness by living at top
speed, with the maximum of movement, and it startled and
fascinated me to find these people obviously enjoying peace.
And when I was with them something of that peace seemed
to enter me, and I had a foretaste of what the life in Christ
could be.

"But the pull of the old ways was strong, and it was nine
months after my first experience of the Group before I made
a surrender to Jesus Christ. The change which followed was
extraordinary. I was able to break with the old habits, I no
longer had the restless craving for excitement which had
dragged me from one thrill to another instead I had a
peace which was anything but dull. It brought with it abun-
dant life, a life packed with incident and glamour, a life
given over to God for the fulfilment of His purpose.

"Since then I have been living in Oxford, among all my
old haunts, with the old cronies within reach, but the new
life God has given me so far surpasses the old, and the
power of Christ has been so strong that nothing has availed
to turn me back from the path in which He has set my feet."

At Oxford I ran into a remarkable lady from South
Africa who has developed a wonderful flair for life-chang-
ing. Jessie Sheffield is the daughter of a pioneer South
African statesman, Sir John Fraser. Brought up in the
orthodox manner Church, Sunday School, family prayers
in plenty religion became a frightful bugbear to her. She
had a horrible fear of God. Jesus Christ was a myth.

She started married life with tremendous illusions, only
to discover that her husband and she were so much alike
they could not hope to agree. She drank deeply the cup of
pleasure. She controlled large tea-rooms in Johannesburg
which became famed throughout South Africa. By her busi-
ness ability they were raised from insignificance to great
success. Her husband and she parted. When on a visit to
England, she went to a church in St. John's Wood. The
sermon convinced her she was losing the reality of life, and
she began her search for God. She felt there was nobody
with whom she could share her need. She went home, and
was a professional violin-player in a cinema when the Group

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arrived. At that time she was down and out physically, men-
tally, spiritually, completely disillusioned, thinking there was
nothing in life. Then Garrett and Nan Stearly came to
stay with her. She saw in their lives a quality she never
thought to see on earth, and it took her to her first house-
party.

Jessie is now a modern miracle, and a modern miracle-
worker.

One Group meeting I attended was at Mrs. Northcroft's
in the fashionable medical quarter of London, where every
house provides one or more distinguished specialists, with
consulting-rooms. There have been many miracles of medi-
cine in Harley Street, but apparently other miracles, none
the less real and startling, have also been happening quietly
in this street of professional respectability during the past
eighteen months miracles in which doctors as well as other
professional men and women have figured privately as pa-
tients instead of professionally as specialists.

Quite a sensation was caused at one of these meetings
by a Jewess, who told a simple, straightforward story of her
conversion to Christianity through the influence of the Ox-
ford Group. There was good-humoured laughter as she
described some of her special weaknesses, including ungov-
ernable temper. In her tantrums she would throw books
about the room and be generally unpleasant to everyone. "A
veritable whole-hogger," her friends declared. She naively
admitted that her decision to attend a Group house-party,
on the invitation of a college friend whose room she shared,
was only taken because she wished to demonstrate her ability
to drive a new car. At this remarkable house-party it was
in South Africa she heard educated Christians sharing
their experiences, and began to feel very uncomfortable
about her own life, though she still refused to follow their
example during the next six months.

Pride was her chief trouble, and fear of friends' opinions.
Ultimately, she yielded pride and fear and herself, and next
day obtained great joy through a definite experience of the
Holy Spirit. Her Pentecost!

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lous life-change which she had experienced. She described
her unsatisfactory search for lasting enjoyment in studios,
in literature, in art galleries, in sport. Sometimes she enjoyed
herself very much. Yet always, at the end, a terrible aching
feeling of "What is it all for?" and the old longing for
something eternally elusive which she later discovered to be
just peace through freedom from sin and the indwelling
presence of the Holy Spirit.

The visit to an Oxford Group house-party was under-
taken partly as a joke; certainly she did not put peas in her
shoes or go there with the mentality of the old-time pilgrim.
She was embarrassed to hear talks on sin at the house-party.
She felt very annoyed about this, while very miserable. Any-
way, what business had they to talk about her sins? What
about their own? Furthermore, she was an artist. To be a
good artist she must see all sides of life live life as every-
body lived it. Otherwise how could she express herself
through her art? The principles of the Group were all very
well for other people; but not for her special case. Then
light came. She saw she must be honest with herself, willing
to make her life conform to the pattern of the New Testa-
ment, and discovered Christ's Spirit could help her express
herself through art, while sin had no longer dominion over
her.

Many other simple convincing life-stories by educated,
unemotional though happy people; most of them young, all
of them ready to testify to an altitude of Christian experi-
ence through readiness to surrender their own wills to God's
Will. And all told openly in a Harley Street drawing-room
in an age of frank materialism and cynical unbelief.

Each week more miracles. New testimonies by new visi-
tors to changed lives. Young men and young women, middle-
aged men and women, the last word in modern culture, some
bearing well-known names, county folk, professional men,
stenographers, students, foreigners, all meeting together in
perfect fellowship with no class distinctions, because all
sought to live, and be led, by the Holy Spirit of God.

Chapter Eighteen

THAT KNOTTY MARRIAGE PROBLEM

genius of the Oxford Group movement is that it
seems to get at the fundamental problem in every life
and offers the real cure. It does not profess to cure human
bodies, although human bodies have been cured through the
Group message. But it gets at the root cause of the disordered
life, removes it, and then joyfully observes that life straight-
ening out into happy contentment irrespective of the size or
character of the problem.

Of course, the real solution of the marriage problem is the
guided engagement. The Group believe that falling in love is
not one of man's rights, but one of God's privileges, that
where He allows, it spells happiness. Where He does not
approve, it is a fatal mistake. God has his choice for a man.
To marry another is to look for trouble. But most people
to-day marry on any and every other basis than God's will
affinity, proximity, femininity, personality, affability, sociabil-
ity, financial ability, and almost every other ability on God's
earth. And they find trouble waiting just round the corner.

I asked one happily married man in the Group : "How did
you happen to marry Anne ?"

"Guidance," was the answer.

This was a new one for me. I knew we had got beyond
the stage where parents decided the question for their off-
spring. But my idea of pre-nuptial bliss was catch-as-catch-
can.

"You mean you fell in love, and then God told you to go
ahead?"

"No, there was more to it than that. I had known Anne
for some time," he explained. "I knew she was the kind of
person I wanted to marry. But one day during a Quiet Time
on a railway these thoughts came to me: 'Would you like
to marry Anne?' 'Yes/ I answered, 'if You think it's aH
right.' 'Well, then, why don't you go ahead and try?' came

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the clear but whimsical answer. I made up my mind I would.
But before I committed myself I checked it with my friends,
as people in the Group are wisely accustomed to do. Their
guidance confirmed my own. Take the chance, and see what
comes of it. I did . . .We were engaged before the week
was out, and it has been glorious ever since."

That is the Group secret of marriage, where romance never
fades.

One of the most tragic problems the Group encountered,
and one now being smoothed out, is that of a woman gradu-
ate who met her husband when he was in business studying
for the Church. It was a love-match, but something happened
during their married life to produce what became an insoluble
problem. The woman accepted his offer of marriage while he
was studying for the Church on condition that she continue
her own profession as a doctor, for which she had a great
natural aptitude and love.

It was several years before she agreed to marry, fearing
that children and the duties of a clergyman's wife would pre-
vent her carrying on. He silenced her fears by saying he
would engage a housekeeper.

They married, and the husband made no attempt to inter-
fere with her work until he became a clergyman. By now she
had successfully developed a flair for children's diseases, and
established herself as the specialist in the city where she
practised. Her husband was appointed to a church in the same
city and, being an eloquent preacher, became as well known
and successful in his own sphere as she in hers. Then trouble
began. Undoubtedly the preacher became jealous of his wife's
professional fame, as some husbands are apt to be, as some
wives are apt sometimes to be jealous of their husband's suc-
cess. The congregation grew, and the clergyman wished his
wife to do some entertaining and to take over the usual duties
of a clergyman's wife, which she did to prevent a scandal in
the Church.

He failed to fulfil the promise of providing the help of a
housekeeper. Naturally the wife began to fret over the situa-
tion. She tried to carry on, though the work was becoming
too much ; but as there were no children for some years, she
just managed.

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During the next seven years four children arrived, rather
too close together for the comfort of her home. Their coming
definitely ended her practice as a doctor. She had thought
over her situation, and decided to face her duty as a wife
and mother and put it before her opportunity as the best
children's specialist in the city. Then she tried to talk over
her great renunciation with her husband, not so much for
help, but for sympathy and a loving understanding of her
situation. Here he failed heir utterly, jumping to the conclu-
sion that she preferred her career and wanted to break away
from him. About this time a girl was born.

Her husband's inability to give her the sympathy she
needed in her most crucial moment preyed on her mind. She
did her duty for another sixteen years, striving not to think
of the sacrifice she had made, but brooding on his failure to
supply the sympathy she craved. Those around her had not
the faintest idea of the struggle that was going on in her own
mind, though she had been such a great loss to her profession.
Her husband had now developed into a power in the city. She
supported him in every way, for the two were very much
sought after. Then he died suddenly !

After the funeral it was discovered that he had made bad
investments not only of his savings, but also of her money,
which, under the law at that time, he had a perfect right to
do, though there was no moral sanction. So she held no resent-
ment about that. At the time her eldest child was just about!
finishing law school and the youngest in a kindergarten. She
had to do something to maintain them. Her mind flew back to
her old work. She began to make inquiries, and discovered
that medicine had progressed so far that she was now hope-
lessly behind the times, and inadequate for the work, although
her degree still held good.

She did what she could, taking any opening that offered.
She was at one time a nurse in a doctor's office, a medical
assistant at a nursery ; she took boarders ; she had a wonder-
ful voice and she sang in public. Though resourceful and
energetic, she was increasingly unhappy. She became an auto-
matic worker, always doing something in her own house; and
all the time there was the remembrance her husband had
blocked her own career, refused her sympathy, and wasted

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her talents on common jobs. A very natural frame of mind
for the best of persons to be in after such an experience of
matrimonial joys. But these thoughts, travelling ceaselessly
along one line of nerve energy, were making a fissure in the
track which could only be repaired when the thoughts .were
excluded.

Then, through the Group, God loomed as a reality. She had
many talks with one of the women leaders Olive Jones. She
said that before her husband died she had lost all her faith
and was going through the forms of religion with no convic-
tion. She began to pray and ask God's help. She was afraid
of going insane through all her troubles. It took the kindly
Group leader a long time to get her to the place where she
was prepared to surrender her terrible and natural resentment
against her husband, which was eating into her brain and
destroying the working of her mental processes through too
long concentration on one subject. Finally she made the com-
plete surrender of that old resentment. She told the whole
story to her son, who joined her in the new life of release
that came.

After she had realised that her great sin was Unf orgiveness,
she began to think of Restitution, which was now impossible.
There was now a danger of this, too, getting on her mind,
for she felt at first that she had committed an unpardonable
sin. Perhaps her attitude of mind had caused her husband's
death. But the Group leader, quoting help previously obtained
from Frank, said that since she would have been willing to
make restitution if she could, then to continue in remorse
was hopelessly wrong and itself a sin. Her brain is now be-
coming 1 normal again, through the release from her old
resentment.

In the foregoing story God's will was only sought, and so.
the solution was only reached, after the husband's death. In
the story that follows it was reached much earlier. Here the
woman was only a law student when she gave up her studies
to marry a professional man. She was extraordinarily ignorant
of the facts of marriage. She developed an overwhelming
hatred of everything to do with sex. Yet she gave birth to
nearly a dozen children.

THAT KNOTTY MARRIAGE PROBLEM 22$

There was no respite. Two years was the longest space
dividing one from the next. Before the youngest child was
born, her husband began- to be called to duties away from
home, and she naturally found herself praying for more pe-
riods of such loneliness. Her experiences reacted on her
nerves, her temper and her character, and she became well
known as a disagreeable person. But everybody was sorry for
him. She hated her life and had thoughts of suicide. Two or
three times her health broke down and she was in a nursing-
home for nervous prostration. Several times she tried to talk
to her husband, but only succeeded in hurting him, for he
was very much in love with her.

As the children grew older, she realised she could not bring
them up in that atmosphere. She joined women's organisa-
tions and became interested in welfare work. Then she met
someone who knew her as a girl interested in law, who advised
her to study again. She did so for several years without her
husband's knowledge. All her old thirst and hunger for pro-
fessional work came back. Presently she told .her husband
that she had decided to be a lawyer. He said she must be
insane and unfit to be a mother. If she continued with such a
purpose he would take her children away from her. . . .So
she gave up the idea for a while, and the home life became
worse. The husband continued his own professional work.

Trouble came in adolescence with some of the children.
The mother had another breakdown. The doctors told her
husband the wife must be allowed to go ahead with anything
that would give her relief from her mental troubles, or she
would become insane. He grudgingly consented. Then the
Group leader came into the gloomy picture. Her husband re-
ceived an invitation to a house-party and was intrigued, but
rather scornful at first. He thought it was a new and possibly
competitive form of religion.

He told his wife about the house-party, and she became
curious and went. She asked one of the speakers to talk with
her, and he introduced her to a leader, who had already had
a similar experience. They had a long Quiet Time together,
and it came to the wife that she must just share the whole
story with her husband ... a terribly painful performance
and a great shock to the man who had not understood until

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then. It ended in both offering their lives to God, and they
are rebuilding their home on understanding lines of simple
Sharing. The wife has become a lawyer, and is practising law
with the whole-hearted assistance of her husband.

But what of people who marry when madly in love and
fall out of it, developing more and more incompatibility as
their lives unfold? Here is the example) and the answer in
her own words :

"My husband was an airman in France when we married.
We saw each other at intervals during the War, and those
intervals were naturally not spent in arguing and petty quar-
rels when death walked side by side with us. We each gave
all our love to the other without criticism or blame, and each
was everything to the other, and God was away in the back-
ground, existing for us as a benevolent Father Christmas who
had to be constantly reminded of presents due and rushed to
for assistance when we spilt the milk. Our real Gods were
each other and ourselves.

"After the War, with a husband reduced to 'C 3' with
nerves and strain and a nervous baby girl and no houses ob-
tainable there was more need for bravery and no glamour
in being brave. It is very much harder to realise the illness
of a person whose nerves have collapsed than it is to realise
his bad temper, irritability, lack of control, and constant de-
pression. Our Godless love did not stand the strain, and after
two years studying farming, and an outdoor life in South
Africa, my husband's nerves were strong again and mine had
collapsed. Now I became resentful and self-loving, full of
good purpose and bad thoughts, devoting myself to my family
from pride in doing my duty. There was, however, little love
for anyone but myself. I was full of self-pity for my illness
and for the lack of what I considered the proper appreciation
of my sterling qualities. I was ill, and in this state for the
next seven years. I had an ungoverned temper with those
under my authority, punishing the children severely for a
small fault when the servant whom I could not afford to lose
had angered me.

"My husband and I kept up a successful pretence of affec-
tion to the outside world, but we had no unity of soul or

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mind. To get away from this mental disharmony, we filled
our free time with entertainment and visits to friends. If we
had an evening together at home, I felt it was too good an
opportunity to miss for telling my husband how unselfish I
was, how misunderstood, and how badly he disappointed me,
with well-illustrated instances and occasions. I grieved that
our evenings at home were never happy. I always felt I kept
a brave heart under my trials and never showed my real feel-
ings. Of course I could not smile much, and usually wore an
expression of disappointment. It was a great grief to me that
I should be so ill-used and misunderstood when I was always
doing things for others (and hating them) and when I was
always in the right too !

"Life was without future or hope, with no religion in our
home. I could only feel I must carry on my brave fight and
I should be appreciated in Heaven, and Jack would see how
good I was. But I felt it was a losing 1 fight, and told my
husband that I should have to leave him when I was forty.
I had decided that the. rest of my life should be spent in the
slums, working for the poor, where I might be appreciated.

"At a friend's suggestion, my husband and I went to hear
the Oxford Group. We heard Frank and many others. We
were frankly critical, and I got into 'low gear' to take it all
in. Jack got into 'top,' and in three days had shared honestly
his old life with one of the leaders in the Group and given
his all to Christ. I was rather put out. With all my belief
in God, I expected to get there first ! But when my husband
shared all his life with me, telling me all he had kept from
me, I felt I must do the same, and I had more to tell than he
and more to be forgiven. We left the old selves behind and
surrendered all we possessed to Him who gave it to us. Our
love for each other was renewed and deepened. .

"We began to keep Quiet Times with God each morning
on waking, and taught our two children to do the same. We
asked God for Guidance and prayed for strength to carry out
that Guidance.

"We began to treat our children with honesty and openness
saying we were sorry for any unwarranted irritation and
bad temper, and encouraging them to speak openly to us. The

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result was that when we shared sorrow for irritation, they
shared sorrows for causing it.

"One morning my small son rushed into my room saying :
'I want to share; I've been reading instead of having my
bath, and I'll have it now and be very quick I am sharing
it with you now so you won't get cross and have to share
that you are sorry/

"I shared the difficulties I had experienced when I was a
little girl with my small girl, and she shared things, told in
an ugly way, that I had no idea she knew, and I was able to
give her a new and happier picture of life. The result was
that instead of her usual reserve, she showed an outpouring
of love and affection to her Dad and to me that she had never
shown before."

One of the happiest married men I know is Ken Twitchell.
He gave me this recipe, which deserves to be in every home :

"The most disillusioned crowd is the younger married set.
I believe their disillusionment is so great because they had
hoped for so much from marriage, and found so little. Two
people meet. They fall in love. They marry and look forward
to blissful happiness. They believe their personal love is
strong enough to bind them together in unity for ever. But
after a bit, sometimes even on the wedding trip, a mood of
disappointment settles down. Nothing is said. Both make up
their minds that it is just getting used to marriage. That
'married look' begins to appear.

"Many things lie behind it. Human love expects to give,
but it expects to get as well. When it fails to get what it
expects, it is hurt, and ceases to give with its first gracious
glow. We have ideals and hopes for the other person which
we have not yet surrendered to Christ. We rather cling on to
them and demand them. We expect a certain sympathy, a
lightness of touch, a marital tonic, a romantic quality. We
expect a combination of Sir Galahad and Prince Charming.
We are hurt that it is not forthcoming.

"Another difficulty turns up when we find that in marriage
there is the problem of adjusting conflicting human wills. T
want this.' She wants that. Two difficulties often arise. One
person superimposes his will on the other. He, or she, is a

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slightly more dominant person. And so he, or she, takes life
and initiative out of the other person's hands. What happens?
We all know the family where one person always must buy
the tickets and arrange all plans, where father lays down the
law, or voices a 'final opinion' at the dinner-table. The rest
relapse into moody silence.

"But that is not the end. Tears, nerves, resentments, with
their real cause unrealised, begin to appear. There is bred a
sense of injustice, of rights being disregarded. It is the at-
mosphere that makes the children determine to leave home as
soon as they are able. And not only that, but it isolates the
dominating person and leaves him in a ghastly loneliness.

"For there is this other side of the picture the submerged
personality. It is just as much a sin to give way to a domi-
nating personality as it is to dominate. It is a sin to have a
martyr complex, always to give in and let the other rule,
excusing it by saying, 'But, you see, he's my husband.' Or,
'You see, she's my wife.' Usually it's done because it is easier.
Yet not the other person's will, but God's Will must come
first.

"The answer for this conflict of wills is to find a third will
in which both can agree with enthusiasm. That third will is
God's Will. Sin in marriage is often simply failure to find
God's Will and to persist in a human giving or taking. Guided
living is the answer.

"Another source of disaster is possessiveness in marriage:
wanting the other person for what that person can mean to
ourselves. Such possessiveness results in jealousy of outside
interests, or other people, who may threaten to rob us of the
undivided attention of the person we want for ourselves. We
need to surrender our husband or our wife. The other person
cannot be first. Jesus Christ must be first. On that basis
jealousy and fear disappear, resentment of intruders in the
guise of work or friends of either sex melts away.

"Human love fails because in the last resort we cannot really
give ourselves to another human person. Where love burns
strongly it passionately craves to pour itself out for the other,
to mingle its own life with the other. But no matter how deep
its yearning, it finds itself chained within the walls of indi-
viduality. God has so fashioned us. The only person we can

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give ourselves completely to is Himself, to Him body, soul
and spirit can be yielded in glad abandon. And human love
finds its passionate yearning each to be lost in the other ful-
filled when each is lost in God, and in Him finds the other.
Only in the divine love that is born from above does human
love find its consummation and its utmost bliss.

"Vital Christianity has the real answer for marriage. It is
Christ the Lord of the Household. He must enter into every
relationship. On this basis the first romance and idealism of
an engagement are retained. They are not an illusion of the
past, but a reality maintained only on that high level where
marriage is regarded as a team of two living for Christ.
Marriage must always turn outwards into the lives of others,
seeking to lead them to the same joy. It is a sacrament that
must always be shared.

"This team-work for Christ demands an open transparency
between husband and wife, with no hidden reservations about
each other. Most people are lone wolves by nature, and they
need a regular time of Sharing each day, when all the silly
little irritations, the jealousies, the suspicions which skim the
cream from matrimony can be laughed away.

"In this kind of team-work the stronger develops the
weaker, each holds the other to the highest. We make the
other a leader. We don't decide for the other person: we let
him or her decide. The stronger may be able to do the job
better, but it. may be God's Will to develop the weaker by
giving him or her the opportunity. This requires a daily
patience and self-sacrifice. It requires knowing when to be
silent, when not to bring up problems, when to laugh the
other person out of problems.

"Of course, there is the physical relationship. Most divorce
court cases begin id the failure to find a guided adjustment
here. There is need for instruction and preparation, for
knowledge of the facts. We must explode the fallacy that
marriage is the end of all physical problems. It is meant to
be a spiritual unity of which the physical is the symbol. There
is always the danger of the physical becoming paramount
an end sought for its own sake. But the physical relationship
is a sacrament. Someone once said that the acid test of love

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is that people can pass through that sacrament with unim-
paired reverence for each other.

"God-control is the best birth-control. Here in God-control
is found an over-ruling power that lifts human passion into
its perfect consummation.

"So long as people marry for trivial reasons" (concludes
Ken Twitchell) "they will be divorced for trivial reasons. But
those whom God has joined are caught up in the divine love,
where human love finds its glorious fulfilment."

Chapter "Nineteen

AN OXFORD PSYCHOLOGIST SPEAKS

DURING my travels with the Oxford Group, weighing care-
fully and critically what was said, watching carefully
and critically what was done, I was often wondering what
was the real opinion of Senior Oxford (faculty and adminis-
tration) on this remarkable movement spreading outwards
from their midst. As a journalist I felt confident in my esti-
mation of its news value. I felt, too, that I could appraise the
movement spiritually with the spiritual ; for I had sought and
found God. But I was an amateur in the psychological and
theological aspects of the message.

Therefore I decided to probe a well-known figure in Senior
Oxford who is entitled to speak authoritatively on the Group
Movement. He is Canon L. W. Grensted, one of the foremost
scholars and psychologists in the 'Church of England, Oriel
Professor of the Philosophy of the Christian Religion, the
Bampton Lecturer of 1930, a member of the Archbishop's
Committee on Doctrine and on Spiritual Healing, and Canon
of Liverpool.

Canon Grensted has one of those fine, massive heads that
we admire, while not eager for the burden of carrying it
around. I passed an enjoyable afternoon and evening catechis-
ing him. It was a rich experience. The Professor has a fine,
dry humour, a wry, sympathetic smile, a way of saying deep
things with simple clearness, together with an engaging and
boyish self-consciousness which takes occasional liberties with
his great intellectuality. I asked some very pointed questions
requiring a definite yea or nay, and he gave me the definite
answers. Some of them he pondered over, for the Professor's
mind is so large that it requires a lot of weighty evidence to
incline it even slightly to one side.

I asked him why he had associated himself with the move-
ment, and he replied that no Christian could stand aside and
not be interested in it. At the start it was arousing unfair

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opposition, that irresistibly drew him towards it to see fair
play.

"And what do you see in it ?"

"An immense amount of hope for the whole spiritual life
of the world. Without committing myself to any details
only to principles I see plenty of essential things that I
need for my own spiritual life."

This was a very sweeping committal for a professor of
philosophy.

"Are those in the Groups balanced and really sane?" I next
asked him.

"The right answer to that," said he, "is that the leaders
and those in responsible touch are undoubtedly balanced and
sane. Moreover, some who have come into touch, who were
obviously not so well balanced as they should have been, have
become much better balanced. The people who move about
in the teams do learn discretion and tact and trustworthiness.
I suppose there are exceptions, as in the churches. But there
are no more unbalanced persons in the movement than in
the churches. In fact, not so many."

I had heard it suggested there were dangers in the move-
ment. So I asked him bluntly: "Is the Oxford Group
dangerous ?"

"Oh, frightfully!" He spoke with irony. "It might upset
the world, as Christianity did at first, for its possibilities are
simply enormous. I find the greatest encouragement in its
vitality. It shows a new and infinite power of adventure. It is
a real inspiration to see this new creative work, suggesting to
us once more those stirring stories in the Acts of the
Apostles."

That was all very well. But rash things might be said at
the meetings which would spoil the movement. When young
folk pf culture get up and witness, they know what to say
and what to leave out. But when this movement becomes
general and the unlettered begin to witness frankly in the
Groups; "Suppose they blurt out something shocking."

The massive head wagged humorously.

"And suppose they do ? It wouldn't do much harm. For
the fact is you can say anything you like that's true, provided
you say it carefully and in the right way. And don't forget

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that human problems are being shared all the time in a great
many places.

"A mothers' welfare meeting would positively shock a
Group meeting. So would much of the talk in modern drawing-
rooms. A meeting of a Vigilance Committee is much more
explicit. In the Press and in many public places problems are
openly discussed without the answers to them being supplied.
There is the danger. The Group touches lightly upon the prob-
lems and stresses the answers. It is always the answer that
matters.

"Moreover, there is a Group check in team-work. As a
rule, people don't share frequently in public until they have
shared privately with the team. And in practice the unlet-
tered if there are any left are just as tactful as the highly
educated in their public utterances. All classes have joined in
the Sharing practised by the Group. I know of homes where
the maids are helping in Group leadership. In the factories of
St. Helens, Lancashire, there are Group meetings every day
for Quiet and Sharing. And these are working with the same
success that attends Groups run by University men."

I butted in :

"Yet things may be said which will be misunderstood. The
scoffing mind is always alert."

The Professor was not sure that ridicule mattered very
much at all, as it was based on misunderstanding. What mat-
tered far more was the danger of not Sharing. The life shut
in on itself fell into disaster. The danger of Sharing could
never be so great as the danger of bottling up. This led to
all kinds of tragedies including suicide and murder. As there
were many recent examples.

"Sharing is a positive good," emphasised the Professor.
"It is the real answer to so many problems. For it is almost
impossible for a person to see his real problems straight unless
he has an outside view on them, and he can only get that by
Sharing. And whether done in a movement like this or else-
where and Sharing is not confined to the Oxford Group
it must be beneficial. Sharing has been neglected far too much
by the modern Church. But," he broke off, "there is a long
theological history behind that statement. And we are now
in the phase when great reticence is general. That was not

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always so. There were times when so many excesses were
committed in the opposite direction that the regularisation
of the ministry became necessary. Though we haven't got
anywhere near to that in the Group, and I don't think there
is any possibility of our doing so."

"When might we reach that stage if ever ?" .

"Only when a wide range of people come to be unbalanced
emotionally, as happened in revivals of a certain type whose
basis was emotion, and not the new birth through a changed
will. Of course, any sudden change must have an emotional
effect, the consequence of a re-grouping of impulses. We ex-
plain it in this way. When the ego makes a response to any-
thing to which it can respond, that response is the will the
self in action. The emotion arises with the response. What
takes place is really the formation of a new sentiment, of
which the best example is the sentiment of love. There is
then a whole new readjustment of impulses, now turned into
the service of a new object. Changed sentiment around per-
sonal relations or the love of God cannot possibly happen
without some emotion. The really serious thing is that people
so seldom feel any emotion about the love of God, as they do
about other mundane sentiments like their breakfast, fresh
air, their dog, their car, their position in life, their being highly
respectable which fits in with saying their prayers and
church-going, but not necessarily with putting God first. Then
when something like the Group comes along and suggests
that God be put first, in the right place, and people find their
disordered sentiments threatened God first they naturally
begin to feel annoyed."

"But can the tenets of the Oxford Group be said to answer
every human problem?"

The Professor weighed this sweeping question carefully. "I
do think," he said, "that the general principles of the Group
are generally applicable. There are certain persons who need
specialised help, and there is serious danger if anybody
thought this teaching could work by rule of thumb. And so
the Group train leaders who can deal with difficult people,
just as is done elsewhere. The Group change men. They
know that if you try to solve a conflict by effort from within,
you never solve it. But if you try to solve it by a higher

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Power from without you always solve it, though the solution
may not necessarily be what you or others expect."
"Then what is the real difference of the movement?"
"It is positive in all essentials," replied the Professor. "It
has positive methods of helping people, woefully absent from
so many modern books which ventilate the difficulties of the
times. Why write futile, emotional, impatient books unless
you can offer a cure? In a movement of this kind you see
something being done, and if the Churches are not taking
the lead, the duty of the movement is not to criticise, but to
awaken them by action. As it is doing."

"What about the effect of the movement on scholarship?"

"There is always the danger that a certain type of man may

become obsessed with religious work. Team-work is again the

proper check. But, so far as I can see, the scholarship results

are entirely to the good."

One of the points stressed by the Group, which often sends
men sorrowfully away, is Restitution. I asked the Canon what
he had to say on this prickly point.

"Restitution," he said with emphasis, "should only be made
under guidance with a view to helping the people concerned.
Don't make restitution for your own amusement. There are
people in the world who are spiritual Pharisees, making resti-
tution for the sake of working off an emotional complex. I
have heard of men going round confessing they had com-
mitted murders which had never been committed. Which is
absurd. In a Group a man may ask guidance from other mem-
bers of the team, but in principle he must himself decide.
The old books on casuistry are full of debatable cases of
restitution. The man who through the Groups gave himself
up recently to the Oxford police because he had committed
a number of thefts, undoubtedly did the right thing. The rule
in these matters of difficulty is to get at the real motive. And
there must always be willingness to make restitution; though
some kinds of restitution cannot be made. Being hanged for
murder isn't restitution. You don't restore the life. A Bishop
has recently been perplexed, he tells me, because somebody
has written to him from South Africa, following contact with
the Groups, to restore something stolen. But the Bishop has

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not been able to estimate what was taken or to give the
inquirer correct leading as to what he should restore. Never-
theless, the Bible teaches restitution. The Church teaches
restitution. And restitution should be made whenever possible
with a view to helping the persons concerned."

I knew that the. Canon, like the Bishop of Leicester and
the Bishop of Hankow, and other Church dignitaries, kept his
own guidance-book, a practice often criticised by those outside.

"Is note-book guidance an advance on memory-guidance?"
I asked the Canon, expecting him to be a little gun-shy.

But he was prepared stoutly to defend the practice.

"I find that carrying a guidance-book saves a tremendous
amount of tinie, for it fixes a great many fugitive ideas, some
of which may be genuine guidance and may be lost if they
go unrecorded. Unless you take all means of securing what
comes into your mind when trying to get guidance, all the
resistances there are in human nature will rise up and block
the most important things," he warned. "Behind that lies an
important psychological principle. Forgetting is actually neces-
sary to ordered thinking. We forget irrelevant or unwanted
things so that all we know shall not crowd into our conscious-
ness and interfere with the direct line of our thinking upon
the matter in mind at the moment. Forgetting is a positive
help to thinking clearly and acting straight. If we remem-
bered everything, our lives would be just a muddle.

"When guidance comes, it may be distasteful or even dan-
gerous to our self-esteem, and so would be thrust on one
side by forgetfulness unless we take steps to prevent it. For
a long time I had felt I should give up smoking, which was
not good for me, but I shouldn't have done it unless I had
written it down in guidance. Hitherto I had just forgotten it
or shelved it. Smoking is a habit in itself neither good nor
bad, but for my own life I found the discipline of not smoking
carried with it a piece of God's grace large enough to give .me
victory over much more deeply ingrained habits of self-
indulgence. And this I believe has been the experience of
many men in the Groups. I'm not saying that everybody
should give up smoking. Of course, also, it may be carried
to excess and become physically injurious and wasteful of

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the money we hold in stewardship. Each person must da what
he honestly feels God tells him."

The massive head inclined towards me as we probed deeper
the matter of guidance.

"Of course, nobody pretends that all one's thoughts are
guidance. There is no knack about it. Guidance often comes
in the form of good impulses the work of the Holy Spirit
in human life. I get strong and certain guidance about some
things, and then some guidance which is not so clear. Often
I get guidance on how best to handle people who come to me
for advice in trouble. Yet the guidance that comes to one
person is not very different from what comes to anyone else.
It is simple and elemental. If one compared guidance-books,
there would not be much difference, save that each contains
things applicable to the person who wrote it for the time it
was written.

"Guidance is often getting a new sanction for what we
know already. Once it came to me in guidance to take a cer-
tain text, 'Go into the City and it shall be shown you what
you must do' a text I had no wish to preach on, but I did,
and three persons came to me afterwards to thank me for the
special help which they had received. I often get guidance to
speak on a subject that I have not prepared and to abandon
the prepared subject. I always follow such guidance. A great
advantage of guidance is that with it you have to make only
one decision on one subject, whereas otherwise you might
make twenty. For a while guidance may differ in a group of
several persons, but eventually it is clearly shown that no
real duties in life conflict. Which shows that the leading is
part of the plan of God."

The Canon continued: "I was once worrying as to which
I should do: go a long journey by car or by train. After a
long time wasted in weighing the pros and cons, guidance
came suddenly through with the message: 'Don't be a fool,
go by car.' If I had trusted my guidance instead of my rea-
soning powers, I should have been told not to be a fool much
earlier."

The Canon was convinced that willingness to do the Will
of God was the measure of a man's true understanding of His
Will, and that in team life could be found dependable con-

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firmation or correction of individual guidance. A unified
Group of surrendered people would be more sensitive to the
Spirit's full plan than would the individual.

I thought of those occasional luminous flashes that had
come to me in various parts of the world at various times.

"Do you get both guidance and super-guidance?" I asked
him.

He shook his head. While not discrediting my experience
of super-guidance, the Canon could not claim luminous
flashes of outstanding intensity.

"You think everybody needs this guidance ?"

"Unquestionably. Especially those who ascend in the world.
As men climb "to more important jobs, they find the difficulty
of preserving a sense of proportion becomes far greater. By
constantly referring their work back to God, it does put them
into proportion for all sorts of situations, and helps them to
adjust $ie difficulties of others. One does not like to make
claims for oneself, but in so far as I have been able to make
spiritual progress, it has been largely through the insight
which has come from these Quiet Times of listening to God.
More marked, perhaps, in my case has been the progress that
has followed through little definite acts of decision for Christ.
Some of these things have been very small, with not much
meaning to them except that they have meant a personal loy-
alty. When those little impulses came, I knew they meant
definite landmarks (what the Group calls driving in stakes)."

I was pressing the Bampton Lecturer to tell me more of
what his association with the Group had meant to his own
spiritual life when Frank observed that Canon Grensted was
already a prepared instrument when they met. Their associa-
tion had heightened and deepened the spiritual experience of
both. Without Canon Grensted's insight and knowledge, the
Group might have encountered great misunderstandings,
which would have seriously prejudiced progress when diffi-
culties presented themselves. He was a sure guide, and
brought a wealth of experience that matched what was the
best in the Groups.

"It wouldn't be true for me to say/' said the Canon, "that
I owe anything like my whole religious experience to the
Oxford Group, for most of it was lived before I came into

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touch with them. But I have seen the help and power that
have come into other people's lives through the Group and
the great possibilities which may come from Sharing, although
I have not progressed very far myself in that direction.

"But the things relevant are these. I came to know the
movement here seven years ago. In those days the difficulty
of knowing men and of doing real work as a College Chap-
lain, as opposed to my official job, were the things that wor-
ried me. I knew that people needed help, but I could rarely
get near them, for I didn't know how it was to be done. My
contact with the Group has multiplied many times over my
contacts with individuals whom I have been seeing through
the Group on things that matter to them. Until then they had
not come to me, because I wasn't getting that note in my
preaching which made them want to talk to me. Of course,
I had got a certain amount of interest before, but that has
been a great deal heightened and deepened by these past seven
years.

"What I have now come to see is that the keynote of
preaching is in something personally felt and experienced,
and that the moment it becomes official it is dead. This does
not mean that theology is untrue, but that it has no life unless
it is related to personal experience. This new impulse of per-
sonal experience in preaching came to me from contact with
the Group. My sermons may not be so good as before, but
they seem to produce more results.

"I remember preaching one under guidance at the last
house-party at Mansfield College of which this distich was
the theme :

Watching God's terrible and fiery finger
Shrivel the falsehood from the Souls of Men.

In that sermon I was thinking of the tremendous majesty of
God at work not only in the Group, but everywhere."

Wondering how many more words of wisdom I should be
able to extract, I urged him on, and the Canon continued :

"More and more I am coming to realise the impossibility of
there being any finality in one's religious development. The
idea that at any one point in life one knows the whole gospel
and is ready to preach it seems pitifully inadequate. Trying

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to work with the Group, I find myself continually being
brought back to simple religious experience often to the
simple religious experience I was missing because I was get-
ting too sophisticated. In my early Group experience I missed
a lot because I was too much the Court of Appeal. When I
ceased to be that and worked with a small team I found quite
a new experience. It brought home the importance of ordi-
nary and simple things. I found that I was getting friendship
and fellowship with a degree of naturalness and sincerity I
had seldom found elsewhere.'*

One of the other Group leaders told me that he had seen a
meeting of ministers dissolve into a meeting, of men just
because the Canon had shared his own true experiences. In
actual fact, crows are black the whole world over.

"Again and again," the Canon went on, "I have seen the
intense need of the clergy for that real freedom which Shar-
ing can produce. The clergy are often very lonely, and a great
many disastrous things occur in life because of loneliness."

The Oxford Group are enthusiastic over the new zest in
life which the fellowship produces. With all barriers broken
down there follow a naturalness, a trust, a freedom, an aban-
don, which are neither offensive nor presumptuous. I asked
the Canon about this. He, too, was enthusiastic :

"The fellowship provided by the team helps you to face the
world and bear the world," he said. "Nothing but God can
help you to read and understand and endure a newspaper. I
was with a team of the Oxford Group at St. Helens, where
I observed a real world not the unreal world of the news-
papers placed before the people. Only Christ can en-
able one to see the real world. Only Christ can produce
this kind of fellowship which is part of it. As Canon of
Liverpool I invited eight vitalised youngsters to come up from
Oxford to confer with some of the clergy as to the possibility
of the work. Our sample team met with various little groups
and developed certain interesting contacts. We had with us
John Watt of Edinburgh a highly converted parson who
was perfectly admirable. The others, with one exception, were
about to be ordained in the Church of England. Preparatory
work had been done at Liverpool by Basil Yates, a recent
convert, who once thought he was an agnostic, but was per-

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haps mistaken. While a lecturer in philosophy he had become
an enthusiast for the Group. He and I (and some of the
others) had had doubts of one another. At our first Quiet
Time we said so, and our difference of outlook simply dis-
appeared. The team was welded into a unity in a matter of
minutes. We had the guidance we wanted. Good work was
done and good preparation was made for the St. Helens mis-
sion which successfully followed.

"It was at this time I first began to take down notes of
my own guidance, and it was this consistent note-taking by
everybody that helped to cement the work of the team. And
it was in Liverpool where my first piece of written guidance
came that about stopping smoking. I may get guidance to
start smoking again some day. But I doubt it. None has come
so far.

"The important thing about that sample team was that a
body of people of different ages and outlook found they could
work within a common purpose, not muddled by their emo-
tions. The great difficulty in life is that we are all mixed up
with so many purposes, not all Christian, and owe a kind of
loyalty to a variety of people. But it was shown in our team
that there is a possibility of personal relationship of a high
and rare quality of which most people are unaware.

"Of course we work together in our ordinary life, but on
much too low a level. We accept the people we meet as decent
folk. We work with them and like them, and leave it at that.
But it is not satisfactory. And our production is not satis-
factory. Some people are left outside, while the work of the
world as a whole is pretty badly done. The Oxford Group
takes all comers, shows them how to live the highest life,
knits them, together in an efficient unity, and elevates them
into a fellowship resembling the pattern made by Christ with
the Twelve Apostles."

Canon Grensted now holds a regular Tuesday afternoon
service for the Oxford Group in the University Church of
St. Mary. It is purposely a simple service of worship, and is
not confused with other elements practically a service of
meditation, rest and quiet. There is very little preaching. The
institution is important, as, for a good many people, it means
the realisation of worship in a life resting completely on God.

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The service is meeting the needs of the Group, by whom it
is gratefully accepted.

Canon Grensted goes to St. Mary's some time before the
service is due to begin, for a time of Quiet. Usually there
are some forty or fifty worshippers. They begin with a hymn
and remain standing for a brief silence. Then a passage of
Scripture is read, followed by a ten-minute talk. Then the
congregation sit or kneel, as they choose, for five minutes or
more of silence. There follows another hymn, and then an
act of worship of some kind. During most of the service
and this is an important point the Canon turns his back to
the people, to stress the impression that the whole service is
directed towards God. All who attend speak of the quiet,
refreshing quality of the service, which builds and sustains
them for the work in hand and inspires them for greater
work ahead.

Chapter Twenty

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THE number of persons ready to back a promising religious
venture is scarcely less than the number ready to support
a racing certainty. And the motive which inspires the big
crowd may be the same in each case "What can I get out
of it?"

When there is no inducement of earthly gain apparent or
underlying a new movement Godwards, we usually find "Not
many wise, not many mighty, but the weak things of this
world are chosen to confound the wise."

The wise often stand aside not because there is nothing to
gain, but because there is a lot to lose by identification with
a new untested religious movement. Like Gamaliel, they are
unwilling to oppose what may be a work of God, but also like
him are unwilling to espouse it openly until confident of no
prejudice to themselves through public identification. Some
believe in associating without affiliating appropriating the
kudos and avoiding the kicks. They circle about the fringes
of the Oxford Group enjoying the company of the people
within, whom they like and admire to a point just short of
emulation, but persist in addressing them as "You" instead
of "We." Timid souls these, both clerical and lay ; vacillating
souls some, who may have previously been identified with
movements from which the Spirit of God was absent, and
profess a reluctance to take the wrong step again ; some are
convinced, but just afraid, fearing to "let go" and trust them-
selves to God because to them God is too small or too feeble
to eompensate for the surrender of cherished self-interest,
some point of pride, social popularity, ridicule, or even a little
delicately administered persecution, common properties of the
Cross in all ages.

There are scholars in Oxford of this order hesitating,
waiting for the very new to become the very correct. But the
chief complaint against scholarship at Oxford, like the com-
plaint against scholarship elsewhere, is of its aloofness, even

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divorcement from life. When the Oxford Group began to
make its first stirrings in the University it was not as a new
philosophy, but as a new life. What would the theological
dons say to it? Would scholarship identify itself with the
new abundant Holy-Spirit-directed life that it proclaimed?
In the days of the Wesleyan Revival, a don at one Oxford
College said rather querulously that all his younger colleagues
were no sooner elected than they proclaimed themselves
Methodists.

One Sunday evening not so long ago the Chaplain of Cor-
pus Christi an intellectual College unexpectedly revived the
old Magdalen College custom in his own chapel in regard to
the newly-formed Group Movement. He quietly interpolated a
few phrases into his sermon which caused very little immedi-
ate comment and were unreported in any newspaper the next
morning. Nevertheless, they were startlingly significant, since
they were made openly in presence of both senior and junior
members of the College, and therefore amounted to a formal
public espousal of the new religious movement by an Oxford
Don in the performance of his official duties.

Pausing in the main thread of his sermon, the Chaplain
announced that he had been convicted of not being quite hon-
est with his colleagues. Through fear of what they might
think of him, he had withheld the declaration of his complete
identification with the Oxford Group movement. He then
mentioned his friendship with Frank, through whom he had
come to a deeper experience of the Christian life than previ-
ously, and learned the necessity of absolute surrender to God
as the directing force of his entire life. Thence he had come
to understand that to reach a state where guidance was all
in all he must be obedient all the time, in spirit before guid-
ance was given, in act when it was received and through the
entire process of fulfilment.

The setting of this little scene, which may live in the his-
tory of the Oxford Group movement, is worth visualising.
Corpus Christi College Chapel, hiding itself and its alliterative
name in the far corner of the Front Quadrangle, might be
described as "The Concealed Chapel of Oxford." The building
is smallish, sixteenth century, with much fine dark panelling
obscuring some of the windows and darkening the friendly

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Gothic interior. There is a pulpit, but that is obsolete. The
Chaplain preaches from the chancel steps, which is no hin-
drance, for he is tall, and does not use those sermon notes so
embarrassingly difficult to hide. The immediate results from
the Chaplain's announcement were a new release in his own
life, consciousness of more power in his work through sur-
render of his unwillingness to identify, and an interesting
conversation with one of his own undergraduates. Neverthe-
less, the step he had taken that day was a forerunner of other
acts of identification by Oxford Dons.

His own act was particularly significant, because one of the
youngest members of the Theological Faculty had come into
the open and officially identified himself for life with the
new evangelism, then and still exercising the minds of many
in the University. For the Chaplain of Corpus Christi was the
Rev. Julian P. Thornton-Duesbery, a scholar with Three
Firsts to his credit in the Oxford examinations "Mods,"
"Greats," and "Theology."

His kindly eyes of deep blue, quiet dignity of personality,
and his great intellectual powers are the first points you ob-
serve about him, points reproduced from two wonderful
parents who provided him with the ideal home life and up-
bringing. His father was a bishop the Bishop of Sodor and
Man and his mother a gifted mission-worker in Manchester
at the time they met. Both parents were consecrated to the
life in Christ, and they constantly maintained the true Chris-
tian atmosphere about him, although, as he says, "I did not
always realise what it meant."

-Before becoming the Bishop of Sodor and Man, Julian's
father had laboured in Barrow-in-Furness, Islington, Leyton
(where his principal parish work was done), and then in a
fashionable church in Marylebone, London.

Growing up in this inspirational environment, Julian did
not wait until his first encounter with the Group to answer
the Master's call. "What I look upon as the decisive moment
in my own conversion," he told me, "came at Keswick through
Bishop Taylor-Smith, before I knew anything of the Oxford
Group movement. And it came through the concrete dealing
with the known fact of sin as focussed in one particular sin
in my own life. From my own powerlessness to overcome

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that sin I was led on to seek power from the Powerful One
whom I knew only in theory as Jesus Christ. Of the divine
validity of that experience I have no doubt. This decisive
moment was followed by some authentic marks of rebirth
the discovery of the Bible as a new book, a new experience
of prayer, and the beginnings of a message for my friends.
Both then, and still more afterwards, I had considerable in-
tellectual acquaintance with soteriology. But it was not until
nearly eight years later, during a Group house-party in Scot-
land, that a bitter realisation of sin as a betrayal of divine
love and trust in my ministry led me to a personal apprehen-
sion of what Christ had done on Calvary for me. . . . From
which it would seem that you cannot hasten an act of God."

In amplifying to me what he meant by the regeneration
which was made possible for him through the atoning work
of Christ, and his views on surrender of self to God, the
Chaplain of Corpus Christi gave me this, as a favourite quo-
tation from E. F. Scott's Kingdom of God in the New Testa-
ment: ". . . It belongs to the essence of the message that
everything depends on one great decision. The one thing neces-
sary is to surrender oneself to the will of God, and all else
will follow of its own accord. The will that has become one
with God's will can henceforth be trusted to take the right
path in all those moral complexities which had to be carefully
mapped out under the old law."

The future Chaplain of Corpus Christi had now learned
that the cost to God of forgiveness, "the Cross planted in
time on Calvary, and the Cross set for all eternity in His
Heart, may or may not be realised by the penitent, but in
any case the cry of the prodigal is answered by the Father,
and when the door has been opened the Lord comes in to
sup. We may trust Him by His Spirit to guide the new dis-
ciple into all truth in His own time and way."

He is confident that guidance comes whenever necessary,
and that it must be followed without compromise and irre-
spective of personal desires. Presently he came to see how
Christian experience often gives back what we think it may
take away. His real desire in life at this time was to be a
Don and teach the classics. He went back to his school and
began to teach Latin and Greek, preparing to become a school-

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master, returning to Wyclifre Hall to be ordained. There he
was to be tried out before going back to his old school, but
instead was asked to join the staff of Wycliffe' Hall to teach
theology only, and not his favourite classics. For some time
he was undecided what to do, to return or stay, his inclination
being to return to his school to teach classics, his wish to do
the right thing irrespective of his desires. Unable to settle
down to his work until a decision was reached, he wandered
down the Woodstock Road praying for guidance, until he
came to St. Philip's and St. James* Church. His speed for
this walk was typical of scholastic progress a mile an hour.
He crawled and cogitated. Returning to his school meant run-
ning into temptations which were better avoided. The pay
offered at the school was higher, but that did not matter.
Then definite guidance came with sudden clearness that he
must stay where he was and surrender his desire to be a Don
and teach the classics. Some time after this there followed
the offer of a Fellowship and the Chaplaincy of Corpus
Christi with tutorial work an offer which would not have
come to him had he returned to his school.

As a University Don he found that contact 'with Frank
had shown him how to teach a new evangelism which would
satisfy both intellectuals and non-intellectuals. While not
shirking a genuine intellectual difficulty, he knew how to get
down to the needs of all, whether really intellectual or merely
masked under the cloak of intellectual problems. "When teach-
ing men who are going to be parsons," he told me, "I find
that my association with the Group gives me an increasingly
clearer vision of the relationship to life of my subject. All
the time I am cpnscious that it is not mere scholarship, but
the only possible life I am teaching. Of course, lots of persons
discovered this before I did, and lots failed to discover it.
But it is a discovery which everyone must make before he
can be of real use. And that does not involve any belittling of
real painstaking and exact scholarship, for the genius of Ox-
ford education is a wide grasp of general principle combined
with the discipline of exact attention to precise detail. The
one real temptation of the college tutor is to think of pupils
in terms of the grading they will achieve. While just as keen
as ever that they get Firsts, and so reflect credit on the college

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and my teaching-, I am able to look beyond and feel more con-
cerned that after they have taken schools (final examinations)
which is only the means to an end they shall be physically,
mentally, spiritually whole when they get into their life-work:
in fact, the complete man. Any man who passes through Ox-
ford should leave equipped to face any problem that may turn
up in his life, irrespective of where he lives and how. But
it is only during the last three or four years that I have seen
how to teach this all-round knowledge, and have realised how
everyone gets up against personal problems, with many of
which he is unable to deal through lack of training for their
coming. Not that the Group exclusively help in these matters,
for the Principal of Wycliffe Hall and some others I know
see the same need, and give wise preparation for meeting
personal problems."

The Chaplain of Corpus Christi caused quite a stir at one
of the public Group meetings in Oxford at the end of the
Easter Term in 1932. Suddenly called to speak at this meet-
ing, he announced that he was a parson and a Don, one of
the class apostrophised by Mr. Belloc as "remote and ineffec-
tual." After quoting the old lady who was pleased with her
new minister because the learned man was six days invisible
and the seventh incomprehensible, he startled the assembly
by saying that if one were a Don and a parson of that type
he was at the same time two distinct kinds of parasite a
phrase which enlarged into newspaper headlines the next day.
He also stressed the necessity for a Don and a parson to
justify his existence by results just in the same way that the
member of any other calling justified himself by results, and
declared that if, as a parson, he did not know he had the
answer in Christ to every human problem, including one in
Oxford that he had encountered a few days ago for which
there was no human solution whatsoever he would resign
his Fellowship and leave the University.

Another startling view that the Chaplain of Corpus recently
expressed is likely to be rehearsed a good many times in the
future. He is not convinced that the days of persecution for
Christ's sake perhaps martyrdom are yet ended, even in the
more enlightened countries, possibly in England. He expressed
to me his feeling that Oxford was now in for a time of open

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war (perhaps with pens only) more bitter than the city had
experienced for a considerable span. Never had the gulf be-
tween secularism and Christianity stretched so wide as at
present in the University, now experiencing the full effects
of the change of sixty years ago, when it was decreed that all
Fellows need no .longer be in Holy Orders. Though he was
not anxious to see the old order reinstituted, he felt disquieted
to observe that nowadays the Fellow who was in Holy Orders
was the exception. "All the same," he said, "we have still
many earnest Christians among the lay heads of Colleges,
and whatever conflicts may lie ahead of us, I am convinced
that Christianity at Oxford is stronger and more vital to-day
than at any time in the last eighty years."

The association of a true scholar in touch with life and
not swamped with scholarship, who is prepared publicly to
maintain the implications of his own spiritual experience,
means much for the new evangelism in Oxford. A young
man under thirty, his remarkable lectures on the Christian
doctrine of God are woven out of deep experience as well as
from theory through deep thinking. Even though not all of
his pupils follow his precepts, his "God-guided" life is an
inspiration in an age when modern scholarship knows so
little of the Holy Spirit from personal experience.

Julian Thornton-Duesbery has an unruffled composure him-
self for every occasion. To see him conduct a meeting of
Senior Oxford, reply to comments, the subtle catch, the
straightforward disavowal, in quiet, scholarly accents, laugh-
ing with his critic against himself as readily as turning the
laugh, and to hear his own laughter, midway between a roar
and a growl, is an entertainment. He has a quick and cheery
answer for everyone, unerringly locating the exact spot.

Julian's work on Tuesday afternoons in training leaders
has enabled the movement to expand at greater speed, and
his Bible-study classes at house-parties have been invaluable.
It was largely through him (supplementing the work of pio-
neers already on the field), when travelling with a party of
students from Wycliffe Hall last year, that the work opened
in Egypt, Palestine and the Near East.

"Fellowship with the Group," he says, "has kept the highest
steadily before my eyes, and when I have failed, I have been

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enabled to realise it pretty quickly. I am coming more and
more to realise the worth of fellowship and the price of hav-
ing it honest sharing also to realise that two are better than
one, that it is the team and not the individual which has the
better chance of success ; and that is a good thing for a scep-
tical individualist like me to learn."

"There are plenty of scholars of Church History who know
all that in the abstract (says Sam Shoemaker in Twice-Born
Ministers) , yet who concretely never get away from their own
inveterate individualism or learn to merge their own experi-
ence and activity with others whose knowledge and experience
will challenge and perhaps modify their own. It is much easier
to study St. Francis' movement than it is to throw oneself
into a contemporary movement which is in its initial stages,
whose final outcome is not certain, and which tests the faith
of its participants all the time. One need hardly say that self-
identification with a modern movement which raises real issues
and challenges so much in contemporary religious activity is
harder for such a man . . . than for almost any type. The
intellectual of all men finds it most distasteful to lose him-
self in a movement where the intuitional emphasis is deep and
to become one of a functioning group bent on definite
evangelism."

The Chaplain of Corpus feels that the Group movement is
making a real contribution to the Christian life of this gen-
eration, challenging all to a more vital witness for their Lord.
It touches men whom ordinary pastoral methods do not reach,
particularly the "hearty" type. The free and unconventional
and intensely sincere atmosphere of the Groups he finds ac-
ceptable to the modern mind, with its frank facing of every
problem as opposed to the "Hush-hush" methods of the past.

He believes that the challenge to a full surrender to Jesus
Christ, the insistence upon discipline, especially the "Morning
Watch" or "Quiet Time," is in accord with all that is best in
our ' ecclesiastical history and heritage, and that men and
women to-day are hungry for the unification of life which
acceptance of these standards always brings. Nothing can be
more definite in its committal or stirring in its outspokenness
than his recent challenge to a gathering of fellow-Church-
men:

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"Whatever we may think of the Oxford Group, it has
thrown a challenge to the Christian Church. Time and again,
half humorously, half pathetically, clergy, both Anglo-Catholic
and Evangelical, have said to me there must have been some-
thing very wrong with the Church if the Group had to arise.
And I am afraid that is profoundly true. The Group has no
new method, no new theology; it comes with the old good
news of Jesus mighty to save; and it flings the challenge to
the Church that professes His name to experience that saving
grace afresh, individually and corporately, and so go out to
battle with the world. We are moving forward from a long
period of trench warfare out into an open war of movement.
Christianity and Secularism stand face to face. The battle is
being joined all along the line, even in placid, respectable,
academic Oxford. There is no room for compromise. The
only vital people in the world to-day are those who are right
out for God or right out against Him."

The voice of the new evangelism to-day in Oxford.

To find out everything about the Oxford Group when
Frank knows your credentials is an easy matter, but try to
get at the core of a changed life for unscrupulous journalistic
ends, and see how difficult things become. The Oxford Group
know how to protect their spiritual secrets just as well as
the Christians in the Catacombs knew how to protect theirs.
But once convince Frank of your bona^fides, and: he becomes
a kind of spiritual impresario rea,dy to produce any informa-
tion you may be in need of, or any interesting character whose
experience seems to coincide with your requirements.

The door flew open and Frank's arms flew wide as he
introduced one of his outstanding men of Eton and New
College a man who prefers to call himself the Introducer.
He is another six-footer, for the University atmosphere is
stabbed with praying giants.

"Here's a young man who will look well in your dental
chair," laughs Frank, and another Oxford rowing-man' takes
the place just vacated. Some men are born saints, some die
saints, some do neither. The first look of the newcomer told
me he was born a saint. What on earth does a man with that
pale, ascetic face, dark hair, rich voice and earnest manner

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want with the Group an institution that attracts sinners
only ? He is the kind of man whom you know at once will
start life as the over-worked secretary of a missionary society
and lose it in a Boxer or Bolshevist rebellion when he is the
youngest missionary bishop in the Far East.

The Introducer was once, in fact, the secretary to an influ-
ential religious organisation, so I asked him why he of all
persons wanted to come into the Group. His story was re-
vealing.

"Just because my own personal life was wrong," he ad-
mitted.

You look at him and feel certain he is lying, only he is a
born saint, and never does those things. He had been seeking
to meet the intellectual requirements of people without meet-
ing their need for redemption. There was a lack of power
and a great absence of joy and peace in his own life.

"Before I met the Group," he confessed, "I did not know
just how to put those things right. W. E. S. Holland, the
well-known missionary, told me one day the Group were
touching a type of person we were unable to get near. That
annoyed me, for I knew our society was doing a good work.
Then two things occurred which gave me a jolt. We had a
committee of seven in our society, and one of the first persons
to be changed was Francis Goulding, who seemed to radiate
a wonderful new life. That made me wonder. About two
weeks later, Julian Thornton-Duesbery, also a senior member
of the committee, came to me transformed. Instead of being
shy and negative, he had now a missionary love of men. He
said he had been in touch with the Group, and that made me
wonder again. For I felt I had failed. Another incident oc-
curred just after which seemed to prove my conviction. I
went to Henley with a New College Eight. When I entered
the bedroom at night with the other tough crowd I hadn't the
courage to kneel down and pray. That was the test of my
Christianity which I failed to pass. Two nights went by
before I produced the necessary courage. That was how far
my preaching had taken me. When I should have been the
happiest of witnessing Christians."

The saint in my chair paused :

"Then my father died suddenly, and I now realised I had

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been depending upon his faith more than my own. I was
facing ordination in pursuance of my father's wish, and went
to Oxford, where I came into touch with Ken Twitchell, who
showed me I had not fully surrendered my life. All sorts of
doors were still left open to the world. Fear was one of them.
I had two sets of friends, a lot of worry, loved smoking,
loved self-indulgence. These and other unsurrendered things
I did surrender, asking for grace to give me power over my
temptations, and joy of victory and ability to help with the
lives of others. I started with the Group, and during the last
two years passed from content to discontentment with self,
feeling a constantly increasing need for God. Of course I
have had wonderful times, especially in the campaigns in Edin-
burgh and St. Helens.

"I realise now only too clearly that self-satisfaction and
contentment are the gates to a religion of conventionality, to
a religion which has no message for others, to a religion which
lacks joy and which begets a worried, fretful mind. Only he
whose will is continually broken in the valley of humiliation
can experience the joy of victory in Christ. 'We are so apt/
as somebody has written, to drift into 'the genteel inanity of
a conventional religion which neither satisfies us, nor helps
our friends, nor glorifies God.'

"Surely in all religious work of the future we must stress
more heavily these two facts the necessity for a continual
sense of need which can only find its answer in a fuller and
more complete surrender to Jesus Christ, and secondly, the
power and guidance of the Holy Spirit in the facts of life."

"Do you get guidance ?" I asked him.

"Yes. During Quiet Times I have a sense of God being in
my head and understanding, whereas previously I thought my
own unconsecrated thoughts. Now I feel myself really seeking
Him to use my thoughts. There have resulted an utter dis-
satisfaction with the merely good and a passionate longing
through discipline for the working of the best. And such love
for God that I have a tremendous love for men, and never
like to leave them in a state of spiritual mediocrity. Of course,
I have slipped, but the Group never let me relapse. They hold
me up. They give me a passion for winning souls which is
one means for the sublimation of passion."

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"And have you made progress?"

"God alone knows that. All I know is that my vision has
been clarified in certain directions. Once I used to take a man
along to Group meetings when I was bent on helping him.
Now I try to turn him to Christ, which seems like progress.
Anyway, that is now my real aim in life to bring my friends
to Christ as St. Andrew brought his brother and the boy
with the barley loaves. St. Andrew was the Introducer, and
I wish to be the Introducer too." >.

Chapter Twenty-One

THE STUNG CONSCIENCE

IF THE Bible contained a comprehensive list of Bewares as
well as Beatitudes we should probably find in it "Beware
of the Stung Conscience."

The thought was expressed in several parts of the Acts of
the Apostles, though not in epigrammatic form. When they
heard this they were pricked (or cut) to the heart. The first ref-
erence is followed by the news that three thousand souls were
added to the Church. The second time Gamaliel stood up and
warned the Assembly that if the movement was of God they
might be found to be fighting against Him. On the third
occasion, the crowd silenced their stung consciences by the
stoning of Stephen.

There may be several motives animating the critic of the
true Christian or of a deeply spiritual movement: fear, mis-
understanding, deliberate wrong-headedness, hate or envy and
other powerful elements that move humanity to action. But
the stung conscience is usually the first cause. Humanity is
so full of sensitive complexes that explode when touched by
look, word or deed sometimes by the very presence of a
pure character whose challenging life is taken as silent judg-
ment on the critic.

I have seen more than one instance of this kind, especially
when an earnest Christian encounters one who has back-
slidden. An attempt is made to ease the stung conscience by
fastening on the weak spots in the other, man or movement.
Such persons often project their own failings to the other
person, blindly believing the other is the sinner.

Canon Grensted told me the story of two temperate ladies
who indulged in champagne for the first time. Presently one
of them leaned over to the other and exclaimed :

"You're drunk ! You've got two noses."

"That," said the Bampton Lecturer, "was just a clear case
of projection. Drunk herself, she was accusing the other per-
son. Another example of projection is the common one of a

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man losing his temper and immediately blaming the other for
losing his, while the crowd looks amusedly on.

"A prude is a person defending an inner conflict by being
censorious of another's conduct. Christians are criticised more
than sinners by Pagans because sinners do not sting con-
sciences.

"Unfortunately, a Christian is so often pitifully trying to
defend himself against this projection that he develops a cen-
sorious attitude himself. He should disregard such criticism
remembering with Browning:

With me, faith means perpetual unbelief

Kept quiet like the snake 'neath Michael's foot

Who stands calm just because he feels it writhe.

"Not that all critics attack openly," says Canon Grensted.
"Every psychologist knows the patient who agrees with every-
thing he says so as to avoid trouble. But it is only super-
ficial agreement. There are also many who talk about other
persons' problems so often that they prove thereby they have
similar unsolved problems of their own. The real key to the
criticism made of the Group's uncompromising activities is
in the emotions stimulated when attention is directed to any
problem by particular words.

"Some people try to solve the world's problems by silence,
and by shutting their eyes to them. Then when something
breaks through with sufficient emotional vigour they blow up.
A man may threaten to do something drastic because sex has
been mentioned at a Group meeting, though he rarely carries
out his threat. Perhaps he has been living in a fantasy world
where there is no sex, or is projecting* some moral offence
of his own in criticism of the Group. When the war broke
out in Austria, some old ladies shut themselves in their house
and declined to have anything further to do with the outside
world. For them there was no war. But some of us know
there was -a little scrap in progress about that time."

The accuracy of Canon Grensted's diagnosis is indicated in
the stories of attacks made on Christianity in the early cen-
turies.

According to Tacitus, the early Christians were universally
hated on account of "the abominable deeds of which they

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were guilty and their hatred of the human race. The execu-
tion of their leader gave a temporary check to the pestilent
superstition. But it broke out afresh, and extended to Rome,
where everything that is vile and scandalous accumulates."

Another complaint against the Christians was that they
despised the temples as dead houses, scorned the gods and
mocked sacred things. Gatherings of Christians for prayer and
worship were looked upon as secret societies, and popular
imagination ran riot in surmising what transpired ... the
practice of the kiss of peace suggested divers abominations
to the impure mind of the masses. The celebration of the
Lord's Supper and the holding of love feasts were capable
of various interpretations.

Early Christians were said to be a people "who skulk and
shun the light of day. It was a common charge against them
that they separated themselves from the rest of mankind.
. . . Many persecutions were popular outbreaks, and revealed
the deep hatred which the people felt towards the Christians.
We can see from the Acts that the preaching of the Gospel
interfered with vested interests and provoked violent opposi-
tion. The fortune-tellers at Philippi and the silversmiths at
Ephesus had no difficulty in creating riot, but they were care-
ful to conceal their true motive. . . . But what roused the
hatred of all classes most was the seemingly supercilious aloof-
ness from the life of society of the followers of Christ."

And the chief opposition to the Oxford Group still comes
not from people who are blind to sin, but from those whose
consciences are stung. One day a man came to a house-party
and opposed the work on psychological grounds. It was dan-
gerous, he said. Two weeks later he was forced to leave the
town because of his own misconduct. Of course, the teaching
was dangerous to the life he lived.

An Oxford graduate stood up at one house-party and told
the Group they were a psychological fraud, and sat down.
Nobody took much notice, and the meeting proceeded on its
own serene way. After the meeting he said he proposed to
leave the house-party (such sometimes do). Garrett Stearly
made what he thought was a guided contact, and in conver-
sation the next afternoon the man faced for the first time -a

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f \

marriage problem in his own life. Later he stood up and ad-
mitted he was the fraud; riot the Group.

There are "letting-down parties" at some house-parties:
people who get together and say things privately in criticism
of the work. Usually there are several stung consciences
among them. Before the house-party ends the letting-down
parties usually become the "bucking-up" parties. Two chil-
dren had attended an Oxford Group meeting and returned
home different. They were behaving so magnificently that
their father grew suspicious. What had they got hold of?
He came to a house-party to see if everything was O.K.
Silent at most of the meetings, he liked to get away to one
of these "letting-down" parties. But one day he got the better
of his stung conscience and privately shared his real prob-
lems embezzlement and adultery.

How two sides of a person's nature will work on the ques-
tion of honesty was shown at one house-party. Ken Twitch-
ell tells of a girl attending a gathering who saw her own prob-
lems challenged by the Group, and attempted to turn the edge
of the challenge by intellectual arguments. Some well-meaning
but misguided of the pious attempted to answer her abstruse
questions about the existence of God, but there were others
who got nearer the trouble. She left the first day, and went
away saying she was through with the Group. Arrived home,
she enlarged on their stupidity, confessed all their sins, includ-
ing some not there, and found all her family in agreement.
Then she began to change. The more her family agreed and
took the point of view she had just propounded, the more she
excused the Group she had just derided. Finally, she found
herself hotly defending. So she returned to the house-party
and accepted the Group's basis of life.

One who came to a house-party was a middle-aged business
man, secretary of a Chamber of Commerce, proudly orthodox,
boa'stful of his Bible Class. A few of the boys in his class
were changed through contact with the Group, which intro-
duced a most disturbing element into the aggressively ortho-
dox life of their teacher. He stood up at one Group meeting,
waved a Bible and dramatically announced : "I believe in this
Book from cover to cover. I came to this house-party to see

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if the Group is orthodox, for I have a nose for orthodoxy.
My life is based on it." The Group believed much more than
he ; they not only believed but lived the life.

With some difficulty he was induced to stay. Though he
wanted to nose out their orthodoxy, he required only one
whiff. He found the honesty of the Group increasingly pain-
ful. But one night he sat up until morning with a Group-
leader cogitating on this new honesty. In the Quiet Time next
morning he openly confessed to his false piety, and that he
now saw his life had to be re-made. Most of all, he had been
convinced that he was "just a big gas-bag." Though he could
talk religion for hours, he had never been honest at home.
He had superimposed his will on his son, who had left home,
and on other people, asking them to do what he was not doing
himself.

He called together the Chamber of 'Commerce and made
restitution. He asked them to attend at his place of business
to hear of certain matters of personal moment. He openly
admitted his false aggressiveness and his garrulous piousity.
Some who came were impressed and associated with the
Group; but some criticised. This same man also toured the
town making restitution to a number of people whom he had
treated wrongly. His estranged son was seen, and a better
relationship followed. A new unity came to his family through
the children being allowed to develop their own initiative
without paternal browbeating.

A young critic, a Scot, who came to the meetings, opposed
himself to the teaching, alleging that he was concerned about
the unequal distribution of wealth, the truth of which state-
ment he subsequently proved by admitting that he was in
the habit of ringing up the wrong change on his employer's
cash register.

When the Gospel is preached in the Holy Spirit it either
convicts or enrages. A middle-aged professional man, forceful
but suave, had been very successful in business, and was about
to retire to a comfortable life of golf. He heard, when on
holiday, of the Groups coming to his city, and being the son
of a minister, he considered he knew all about that sort of
thing. When he came back he found all the men in his club

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talking about the Oxford Group. He immediately telephoned
to his most Pagan friend and invited himself to dinner. But
the meal was only half over when his host, too, began to talk
about the Oxford Group. He packed off as soon after dinner
as he conveniently could and went home disgusted. Soon
afterwards he had a business appointment in a distant city,
where he had a talk with one of the shrewdest magnates there.
Thoroughly on his guard against this clever man of the world
that he should not be cheated, he->was taken aback to be thus
addressed:

"Mr. Browne, I've been in touch with the Oxford Group.
And I want to own up to you I've over-reached you twice
in a business deal."

This was a staggerer ! But the minister's son held out man-
fully. A week later he went to another city, where he hoped
to have a pleasant afternoon with a charming young lady,
motoring in his car. To-day she was not so affable or re-
sponsive as usual. In the middle of their drive the girl pro-
duced a note from a friend who had just joined the Group
and was urging her to do the same. This further blow from
close-home completely punctured him for the day. His eve-
ning was spoiled, and not improved by the girl's suggestion
that the Oxford Group were running a house-party near at
hand. He determined to go and prove they were absolute
charlatans; he would expose them thoroughly. He arrived,
barely managing to get a spare room among the cheery crowd.
He was entertained by a bright young Englishwoman and sent
to the first meeting mollified by her charm. He heard a sophis-
ticated Scotsman, a typical man of the world, -with close-
cropped moustache and military bearing, stand up and witness
in the semi-humorous, nonchalant manner that the world
understands.

In the language of the smoking-room, Loudon Hamilton,
told how Christ had turned him from a waster into a worker
for Himself. The visitor writhed under the honesty of this
worldling who had become as wise as a serpent and as harm-
less as a dove for Christ. Disliking the man such is the phe-
nomenon of conviction he was irresistibly drawn to the
speaker. For hours they talked, and ultimately he found that

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same new life for himself. He now knew who was the real
charlatan.

If you ask people to make radical changes in their lives
and they don't obey, they must pick holes in you. As Canon
Grensted has it : "When something like the Group comes along
and suggests that God be put in the first place always, instead
of the tenth, and people find their disordered sentiments
threatened, they naturally begin to feel annoyed."

The Gospel preached in the Holy Spirit either convicts or
enrages. The Stung Conscience tries to Sting.

Chapter Twenty-Two
WHAT SIN is

Ai THIS is a book for sinners, and as most sinners, myself
included, are rather hazy about what sin is, it seems
opportune to supply the answer in this chapter.

An Irish Rector told me that a: famous preacher delivered
a fine sermon on sin to a village flock, and was afterwards
embarrassed to be told, "Sure, your riv'rence we didn't even
know the manin' of sin until you came here."

After one of the meetings at the last Cambridge house-
party Frank burst into my room, exclaiming : "You should
have heard Loudon Hamilton's talk on Sin. Fine! Great!
Never heard anything so revealing. That's what you should
get for your book."

I inveigled Loudon into my room and induced him to go
through his notes and give me the gist of his talk. He looked
thoroughly at home with his subject, as his Highland figure
lolled magnificently before my April fire. Loudon has a fine
head, dark brown hair, eyes and moustache, a strong voice
and a witty, paradoxical turn of phrase. That day at a reli-
gious house-party in Selwyn College he wore a white
sweater, a bright leather belt, navy blue shorts and (below
bare knees) a pair of stockings that were "red like crimson"
the sin colour! A picturesquely powerful figure suggesting
anything but his old role of the master at Eton. He told me
they were the colours of the London Scottish Rugger Club,
of which he had been a member.

Loudon began to give me this illuminating Group view of
Sin:

Many people don't believe in sin, but they still live in it.
We are indebted, it would seem, to Bertrand Russell, with
some assistance from Mr. Huxley, for doing away with sin.
Unfortunately, they have not been able to do away with
temptation. I wish they had. But the fact is that men and

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women, are still tempted, even intellectual people. And sin is
what happens when we give way to temptation.

"If you were to write my epitaph," said a friend to Dr.
Alexander Whyte of Edinburgh, "you would say: He had
every virtue but a sense of sin."

A small sense of sin means a small Christ. It is, moreover,
necessary to be definite about sin and thoroughly honest with
ourselves. Much of our efforts to deal with the wrong things
in our lives is vitiated because we are too vague about them.
We speak of forgiveness of sin in the abstract without getting
deliverance from specific sins in the particular.

Sin is a force. It may be likened to a mathematician. It
adds to a man's troubles, subtracts from his energies, multi-
plies his aches and pains, divides his mind, takes interest from
his work, discounts his chances of success, and squares his
conscience.

Sin does four things to us. First of all, it blinds. While
motoring in Switzerland we ran into mist. After some time
the mist cleared, and to our surprise there appeared gigantic
peaks in the sunshine almost overhead. We had thought we
were high up. Actually we discovered we were on a very low
level indeed. Similarly in the spiritual realm, we are befogged
by sin and unaware of our real position in relation to Christ.

Secondly, sin binds. We are bound by fears, chiefly of
other people of their opinions about us of the future, of
our money and health, and a hundred other things.

Thirdly, sin multiplies. The lesson of the first chapter of
James is that man is beguiled and lured by his own desire.
Desire conceives and breeds sin while sin matures and gives
birth to Death.

When we tell one lie we have to tell a number of lies as
a rule to cover it up. Hence we have Christ's emphasis on
being faithful in that which is least. An Alpine mountaineer
knows that one false step is enough in certain places to pre-
cipitate an avalanche. Many of us have taken that false step,
congratulating ourselves that an avalanche will not ensue;
and when it has, we have made futile attempts to stop it
half-way down the hill, with the inevitable result of disaster.

Fourthly, sin deadens and deafens. A hot cinder put on
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cheek would cause us sharp pain. The temperature of the
cinder has not changed, but only our sensitiveness to it. By
repetition and habit many of us have lost the sense of the
sinfulness of certain things in our lives. We need to be made
sensitive again. Sin has deafened us so that we cannot hear
the voice of God. It is sometimes convenient to be deaf. Many
of us have even become hardened to church services, and by
repetition are dulled to the simplest truths.

The best definition of sin that"~we have is that sin is any-
thing in my life which keeps me from God and from other
people. Note that it is something in my life, and not in the
other person's. Most of us like to confess other people's sins
and not our own. But the first need is ourselves, and not the
other person. We can't change others until we ourselves are
changed.

Let us get rid of false distinctions right away. Most of us
make an easy distinction between big sins and little ones.
No such distinction exists in the Bible. Paul uncompromis-
ingly states that all unrighteousness is sin. Sometimes we may
excuse sin because it is occasional ; we say, it is all right oc-
casionally to get drunk. Then is it all right occasionally to
commit a murder? The problem of most of us is not the open
sin, but the secret; not the sin that makes us uncomfortable,
but the comfortable sins. We must cease dealing with symp-
toms and get down to root causes and motives.

Christianity has a moral backbone. And let us take for con-
venience four of the simple moral standards that we see in
Christ's own life honesty, purity, unselfishness and love.
Those standards are absolute. No one has ever yet proved He
compromised on any one of those four. Let us take them one
by one and see how we measure up to His standard.

HONESTY

A child once gave a definition of an abstract noun as the
name for anything which didn't exist, like truth or honesty.
Take the matter of the tongue. Sins of the tongue are myriad.
First is mis-statement or misrepresentation, by exaggerating
or minimising or giving a false emphasis, usually to our own
glory. Secondly come concealment and dishonest silences.

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Thirdly, we evade by the simple device of polite lying and
false excuses. We call them by more comfortable names. We
call sin failure, or amiable weakness, and ascribe it to tem-
perament or our characteristics. We appeal to heredity and
environment. We say it runs in the family, and tacitly excuse
it on that score. Let the sin have an intellectual name and it
becomes quite respectable. It is "so correct" to call a thing
"inferiority complex," when it is really a very simple but
deadly form of pride. Fourthly, there is criticism, of which
we will have more to say, and negative discussion about people
or their work. Fifthly, it is easy to slip into double-dealing:
saying one thing to a person and another {King about him
behind his back.

Then in the matter of stealing, some of us travel first-class
on trains with a third-class ticket or travel further on a tram
than our ticket allows. I have myself entered a football ground
by the cheap entrance and have gone under the ropes to the
more expensive section. Shortly after meeting the Group I
had to send the money for a dance-ticket for which I had not
paid. We sometimes borrow books and other things and some-
how forget to give them back. Will you go to your library
shelves and look through your books and see if you have any
you ought to return? A friend once said she could tell a lie,
but she could not write one ; so she got her secretary to make
out her income-tax return for her. When the B.B.C. (British
Broadcasting Company), announced they would have an in-
spection to stop wireless pirates, over ten thousand new
licences were taken out during the few days before the inspec-
tion began.

There are sins of attitude often sins of pretence, pose
and affectation. How common is the business of wearing a
mask and trying to make an impression on others, the anxiety
to appear better with the deliberate concealment of things
that are unfavourable to ourselves. Indeed, we often defend
the flaws in ourselves by criticising them most bitterly in
others. Feeling socially inferior, we may affect an Oxford or
a Cambridge accent, though Heaven knows why we should
want to do that. Or we are like a chameleon taking our colour

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from the crowd we are with. We are one thing at home.
We can be religious if necessary with our pious relatives, and
we can be hard-boiled at a Rugger or rowing dinner. We can
be sentimental and romantic with our dancing-partners, anx-
ious to display what we fondly imagine to be the nice side of
our natures. We must be honest about our motives, which are
always apt to get mixed even in the best-regulated religions.
Another form of dishonest attitude is that of patronage of
a movement like the Group movement. It amounts to this. We
are approving of a thing we won't pay the price of doing
ourselves. The Group doesn't seek patronage, is not much
concerned about approval, and is not content with parallelism.
("We are running on similar lines.") It is not that the Group
is one method and the others have other methods. Either we
are living the maximum experience of Christ or not.

PURITY

Feather-dusters are not sufficient for purity, nor is it good
enough to squirt a little rose-water into the atmosphere and
hope for the best. There was once a negro preacher who
wouldn't dare preach about chicken-stealing because all his
folk were doing it most of the time and he did it himself
occasionally. What we need is a rotary street broom to clean
things up. Equally bad is the pharisaic sin of being com-
fortably blind or wilfully ignorant or unhealthily inquisitive
about these matters. Parents very often live in a fool's para-
dise about the needs of their children. It is easier to live and
deal superficially with people. But what would we think of a
doctor who refused to make a drastic diagnosis of' the disease
from which we are suffering ? What if he refused to deal with
certain types of cases in his wards ? Christ's standard of moral
purity began with the eye and the thought. How would you
feel if your thought-life at certain times were suddenly
thrown upon a screen in the view of a mixed assembly?

We may need to deal with the tongue and the touch. For
many of us our history is this the look, the thought, the
fascination of the thought and then the fall. And, further,
with regard to our relationships with the other sex there may
be fellowship, but there must never be familiarity.

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LOVE

Thomas Carlyle, after hearing a local minister preach on
love, said that he had been like a flea struggling in a tar-
barrel. Love is a vast subject. The Bible tells us that hate is
equivalent to murder. The one is as bad as the other. Is
there anyone for whom you still cherish feelings of dislike,
resentment and lack of forgiveness? The issue is fairly
serious.

The sins against love are common with the tongue. Suppose
we read the third chapter of James before our next tea-party.
Let us deal with gossip. So live that you can sell your parrot
to the town gossip with an easy mind. Most of us need to
buy a padlock for our tongues and to throw away the key.

Criticism often hides much ill-will. Remember we criticise
in others what's wrong in ourselves. The Pharisees condemned
the woman taken in adultery and tried to get Christ to con-
demn her too. But He was free of the sin. They showed by
their action they were not. Christ condemned the sin, but
saved the sinner. "Neither do I condemn thee. Go and sin no
more." Remember we reveal ourselves by our criticisms, our
prejudices, our silences, and our nervousness. Criticism is the
sin par excellence of Christian workers. Only say about others
what you say to them. Is Christ the silent listener to all your
conversation? We cannot help others if we laugh at them.

Jealousy is devastating to peace of mind and spiritual
power. So are snobbery and .superiority, whether social, in-
tellectual or spiritual. Snobbery may take the form of liking
to be known as one who goes a lot among the poor. We may
thank God we are not as other men are, and so do they.

Intolerance of other people's points of view or of their
weaknesses can be an equally devastating form of lovelessness.

And there is reserve. We say some things are too sacred,
when the real truth, is we are too selfish. Most of us are in
the grip of a false reserve. I used to pride myself on my
reserve until I found my reserve was really pride. False re-
serve makes us rigid, separates us from others, gives them a
false impression of what we really are, and, worst of all,
prevents us from helping them or entering sympathetically or
intelligently into their difficulties.

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Temper cuts across love. Have you apologised for the last
time you lost your temper with anyone, with a member of
your own family, a bus conductor or a railway clerk?

The sin of Fear is a sin against love. Perfect love casteth
out fear. Most of us are afraid of others and consequently
don't help them.

UNSELFISHNESS

Finally, let us take the difference between ourselves and
Christ as regards our conduct, our attitudes, manner, judg-
ments and feelings towards others.

Self Let us make a list of the different forms in which
self operates in our lives. Archbishop Temple has said, "Your
problems are mixed up with the things you love most and
which count most to you." Self-love shows itself in the love
of praise and popularity and social success. Often we stand
on what we are pleased to call our dignity. In fact, our dignity
is so well stood on that there's really not much left. We dread
almost more than anything to make a fool of ourselves. We
develop what we are pleased to call sensitiveness, but which
we can better call touchiness. Then self-pity creeps in. We
feel inferior, we positively hug failure and point to previous
defeats as evidence of our limitations. Or we may develop a
martyr complex with all its false heroics. We say we "can
stand anything." The truth is we may stand anything, but
we don't change anything. Then self-importance often gives
rise to jealousy and makes us run on our position and repu-
tation, though inwardly defeated. We develop "self-respect."
That usually means ninety per cent, self and ten per cent,
respect. We ask for special treatment like Naaman the Syrian,
or we enjoy being interesting invalids. But the times are so
urgent that there is no place for the interesting invalid in the
front-line trench. He ought to be shot at dawn.

Again, self-interest about money or. possessions shows it-
self by being unwilling to lend them or give them, being fussy
about them, spending too much time thinking about them,
suffering from an exaggerated carefulness about our own
things. It makes us preoccupied and worried with our own
affairs. We become penny wise and pound foolish. We
painstakingly practise "the economy that leadeth to poverty."

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We only believe in Matthew vi. 33 so long as the stock
market is sound. This constant self-interest leads to nerves
and irritation. How often is the root cause of nerves just sin !

Another form of self-seeking is the ambition that disre-
gards the interest of others and is not overscrupulous about
its methods of obtaining its objects. The prophet replies with
direct simplicity, "Seekest thou great things for thyself ; seek
them not."

Self-consciousness reveals a life and habits of mind that
are still rotating around the axis ego. In most of us there is
the instinct for self-display showing itself in love of atten-
tion and in the willingness to do our best as first string, but
not being ready for the same effort when less credit will
come our way. Such self -consciousness often appears in
clothes and manners and in the subjects of our conversation.

One of the commonest forms of self is self-indulgence.
There is self-indulgence in food and physical comforts. But
we also indulge it when we are lazy, or we procrastinate, and
are unpunctual. We say we'll put off until to-morrow the
thing we can do the day after I Some things we do in the
sweet by-and-by which need to be done in the nasty now and
now. We indulge ourselves by airing our prejudices about
people, airing our likes and dislikes in matters of books, food,
furniture, and furnishings generally; and we are tremen-
dously taken up with whether a thing or a person appeals to
us or not. We often regulate our behaviour accordingly, and
have no hesitation in even being rude to people we may not
like or whom we consider socially inferior. Often we give
way to moods when we become, as a lady said of her debu-
tante daughter, expensive to keep and difficult to live with.
Some of us are extravagant in money, sentimental about our
friends, whether of the other sex or the same sex, and vin-
dictive when we. are crossed.

Then, again, there is self-centredness. Most of us are born
rotating on the axis ego, and continue to do so until the end
of our lives, often at an increasing rate. One result of that
is that we are never able to keep friends for any length of
time. It not only loses us friends, but often keeps us from
bothering to make them. A girl once told us she had a private
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when her mind was not otherwise occupied she would set
the film in motion and delight to watch scene follow scene,
now romantic, now tragic, now pathetic, now sentimental, now
heroic, in each and all of which she herself was the central
figure. It finally culminated in the imaginary scene in which
her own deepest desires were fully gratified with curtains and
sofa covers of the right colour and the husband with hair to
match. All of us have our day-dreams in one form, or an-
other. Though not necessarily wrong in themselves, so far as
they are centred in sel-f -interest they are wrong.

And now for one of the biggest monsters of the self
self-will. We simply want our own way, and will not yield.
The results of it are as obvious as they are disastrous. It
brings friction with others and tiredness for ourselves. It is
one form of pride. We do no team-work, we cannot fit in.
We learn no diagnosis, and are consequently useless to the
people and the situations around us. With our self-will un-
checked we become precipitate in action, unguided in decisions,
demanding in our efforts and impatient of restraint or ad-
vice. It is the most prolific source of quarrels in families. The
objects obtained are always unsatisfying, and the result is
that we crave more indulgence in the vain hope of more
satisfaction. The final indictment against self-will is written
by the prophet, "We have turned every one to his own way."
It is also, if we only knew it, incredibly stupid. We often
mistake obstinacy for strength of mind.

It is extraordinary how prolific our minds are in finding
reasons for our own failures which we endeavour to make
satisfactory to ourselves and, if possible, to others. It is the
well-known art, self-justification. When corrected, we seek to
justify. And with that dislike of correction in ourselves goes
a love of correcting others. Nothing alienates the hearts of
people more quickly than that.

Then there is the very common business of being self-
opinionated. We do love our own opinion about a thing. We
are very ready to assert it. We are confident it is right. We
resent disagreement, even though we may know little about
the subject. It makes us seek to impose our point of view,
instead of sharing a quality of life. And there is the sin of
the pet point of view. We allow ourselves to be so much

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absorbed by our own that we never see anyone's else. It is
like Nero fiddling a little tune of his own while the horror
of a burning Rome is all around him.

Again, there is self-sufficiency, which makes us feel no
need of other help. This results from too small a conception
of Christ and His demands, and too large a conception of our
own capacities.

The last self we will deal with is the final atheism of self-
effort. We do God's work, but not His will. It is our choice,
in our way, on our strength. It leads immediately to a false
objective, in self -chosen service. We do not God's best, but
a good of our own. The results which ought to accompany
the working of the Holy Spirit are manifestly absent. We
are all the more eager, therefore, to achieve success in the
objects we ourselves have chosen. That, again, leads to a
false activity to cover up an inward sense of dissatisfaction,
futility and frustration, which haunts all of us at times, when
our lives are run on self-effort.

This same self -effort makes us "Divided Personalities."
One Church-worker before she met the Group had two dis-
tinct sets of friends the officially religious people and her
unofficial Pagan friends. There was no question in her mind
which set appealed to her the more. We can run an organisa-
tion on self-effort, but so can the devil. We don't change
lives ; the devil does. And an awful coldness settles on a
church or any religious body when it is run as an organisa-
tion. A minister told us that he felt each Sunday as if he
were performing a solo on a spiritual ice-rink.

On the basis of self-effort we begin to departmentalise.
We say, "My job is so and so. It is somebody else's job to
change lives." That distinction is thoroughly false. Either we
have measles or we haven't! If we have measles, we give it
away to everybody; if we haven't, nobody will get it.

Finally, self-effort makes us take refuge in a fool-proof
theology. We develop a point of view instead of living a
quality of life. This draws us on to preach things which are
beyond our experience, and are therefore unreal or even
distasteful. We become wooden and rigid and falsely pious.
We develop a false sense of duty, and live in the grip of .
secondary things, instead of being at the command of other

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people. We begin to run on principle and technique, and not
on the Holy Spirit's guidance. Our prayer-life is spasmodic.
We do the jobs within the reach of our capacity, and only
think of asking God's help when the limit of our capacity
has been reached. We use God like the Fire Brigade, and only
call Him in in a crisis. We ask Him to control only part of
our lives, instead of being Lord and Master of all.

These are some of the world's alternatives to a Christ-
centred and Christ-controlled life. Let- us recognise in these
sins what we really seek. We_ seek compensation for our de-
feat and for our lack of Christ. We take to substitutes for
power. We need anodynes to stop the pain and discomfort,
and to help us forget. We play with alternatives to facing
Christ. We adopt camouflage to cover up our defeats and to
hide from one another.

"Oh, wad some power the giftie gie us,
To see oursels as ithers see us!"

Chapter Twenty-Three

THE SPIRIT MOVES

sees both sides of a subject, right through a man,
"""* and all round the earth.

Ten years ago he was thinking in terms of a spiritual
awakening in many countries, which is now beginning to be
manifest. When a man begins to think big like that, he nat-
urally looks round for a big backer. Frank could have had a
big backer for life if he had stayed in an honourable and
comfortable life-job that was offered him. He waved that
away, and set out to initiate a world-awakening backed only
by infinite faith and prayer.

Coupled with his world vision was the friendship of a
handful of young men two English, two American Uni-
versity graduates who had been changed and with training
might become pioneers of a world awakening. The travelling
five were Sherry Day, Sam Shoemaker, Loudon Hamilton,
Nick Wade, and Frank. They were away a year. They
visited many distant lands, passing leisurely through Europe,
Egypt, India (where Frank had done an amazing work some
years before) , China (where Frank's last visit was still talked
about), Australia, America and home again.

When five friends travel together in close proximity for
twelve months, their friendship may break under the strain
before the tour is over; it would probably have broken on
this tour had Frank not evolved the principle of Sharing.
The tour ended, and the five parted better friends than when
they started, and are still in the closest friendship after ten
years.

The tour meant a stretching of vision and a discipline that
have since made them compelling leaders. Nick Wade re-
turned and became Chaplain of Downing College, Cambridge,
and leader of the work in the University. Sam Shoemaker
went to New York and set Calvary Church alight. Loudon
Hamilton went to Oxford, then to South Africa where he did
amazing national work for a whole year, and then on to Ediri-

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burgh where he started the work moving strongly among the
Scots, Frank and Sherry are here, there and everywhere,
watching developments and opening new fields of Group work
in all corners of the earth in Iceland, in South America, in
Geneva, wherever the Spirit leads them.

The South African work of the Groups is one of the most
amazing adventures, for which that world tour was a splendid
preparation. It really began, says Garrett Stearly, when two
Rhodes scholars, a Rugger enthusiast, probably the hand-
somest man in the Oxford Group, aiming at a brilliant medi-
cal career, and a boxing blue, both from South Africa,
condescendingly attended one meeting.

No sack-cloth and ashes here, no pious psalm-singing. But
a breeze and a gaiety and a sureness of direction which out-
lived, outlaughed, outloved their own crowd. They were
fascinated, then nettled by its challenge, and finally went all
out for this highest quality of life they had ever seen.

This new altitude of living was too good to keep to them-
selves. What of their University friends back home in South
Africa ? The two Rhodes men began to dream dreams of their
homeland captured to the same fascinating life.

Always men of action, they collected a team of six Oxford
men, including Howard Rose, and one Hollander, like-minded
with themselves ; and the next long vacation set out for South
Africa, trusting God for funds, and the power to capture a
nation. Foolhardy venture ; but the foolishness of men is often
the wisdom of God.

They sought no publicity, no large mass meetings. Their
first move in Africa was a two weeks' camp with ten men
from Rhodes University College. A small beginning, but
these ten were leaders in every walk of University life, and
at the end of the two weeks each of those men had found a
never-to-be-forgotten spiritual adventure. They brought this
new life to the University. News of it .spread up and down
the land, opening for the team of seven men opportunities
everywhere. They went to the capital, Pretoria. A leading
minister was convicted and captivated by their uncompromis-
ing gospel. They went to Stellenbosch, centre of Afrikaans
culture and of anti-British sentiment. The Stellenbosch
Rugger Team, heartiest in the country, listened entranced to

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this news from Oxford. The president of Stellenbosch's
Atheist Club was convinced, and has since gone into mission
work for the black peoples.

But time was short. The team had to return from its long
vacation. Loudon alone stayed on to prepare the way for a
larger team the following year.

In the summers of 1929-30 teams of first nineteen and then
twenty-three Oxford Group people sailed for South Africa
business and professional men and women, students, privileged
and unprivileged. House-parties were held in all the large
cities throughout the Union. The seven Oxford men had lit
a torch. By now the veldt was on fire. Their vision and their
courage had not been foolishness. It was a modern romance
of God's miracle-working power.

What happens in such a romance ? In 1928 seven men sailed
unknown and unheralded into the horseshoe bay of Cape
Town, the Tavern of the Seas nestling at the foot of the
awe-inspiring Table Mountain. Two years later the team of
twenty-three, at a civic reception in the City Hall, was wel-
comed by the Mayor, who said, "I have long been thinking that
our religion was in need of a bit of gingering I believe the
ginger has arrived."

What caused this amazing awakening? Not oratory, not
publicity, not organisation, not dramatic appeals. The teams
had nothing of this sort. They were plain men and women,
but they had found in Christ a quality of life which enabled
the ordinary man to do the extraordinary thing. Life-chang-
ing miracles in individual lives was their secret and their goal.

At Kimberley, the world's diamond centre, the Oxford
Group team met in the sporting hotel in' town. There came
to it, thinking it was some new club, the city engineer, an
acid atheist, notorious for his hard drinking and fast liv-
ing. He found a charming company in evening dress. The
engineer settled in for a top-hole evening of good stories, the
latest from Oxford. A giant Scotsman, with clipped mous-
tache, carefully tailored clothes, and the air of a man of the
world, began to talk. He told how Christ had changed his
life. The engineer was shocked beyond measure' at this per-
fectly natural mention of Jesus Christ in a social gathering.
"Horribly bad form," he whispered to the man next him.

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Later, soft drinks appeared. "A rotten show," he said to his
friend as they went home late that night. But he could not
forget that broad-shouldered Scotsman and the quiet challenge
of his words. They met next day for a motor drive, and the
engineer found a new life. His change startled the town. He
made a habit of dropping in on the padre for what he called
a "spot" of prayer. In his office, once blue with expletives, it
was no longer bad form to talk of the issues that change
men's lives.

But this new leaven throughout the nation is not confined
to any one class. While lunching at a well-known Cape Town
hotel, a member of . the team noticed that his waiter was
extraordinarily happy and attentive, and remarked about it to
him. "Well, you see, sir, I belong to the Oxford Group," was
the reply ; and between the courses the whole story came out.
Gambling and drink had done their usual service in breaking
up his home and propelling him out of a job into the gutter.
Then a fellow-lounger had facetiously suggested to him,
"Why don't you see So-and-so," mentioning a well-known
and popular K.C. "He belongs to the Oxford Group; you
ought to get a soft 'hand-out' from him." With some dexterity
he made his way into the K.C.'s office, and put his case before
him. The barrister not only got him a waiter's job, but gave
him an experience of Christ, on the basis of which this man
was building a reunited and happy home. And at the end of
the meal the waiter whispered with a wink "I'm out to win
the head waiter." That's the sequence. Across all social classes,
into the most unexpected corners, goes the witness of Christ.
One of the most surprising places into which the Group
found its way was a fire-brigade in the world's gold city of
Johannesburg. Six years before, a fireman with a shock of
red hair and a temper to match, had married a tempera-
mental young woman, musician to her finger-tips. His pas-
sion was gambling, and hers the stage. Incompatible from the
word "go," they had separated. The Group came along. The
wife discovered its contagious quality, and returned to her
husband in Johannesburg. At her request he went to a Group,
with much inward ridiculing. He came away convinced, and
began to witness in his fire-station. The test came when they
began to call him "softie," and say that he had lost his man-

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hood; for his temper and his physique had made him the
fear-inspiring leader of the brigade. One day an inferior in
the firehouse dared to censure him for some mistakes. He
felt a blaze of fury burn within. He prayed to Christ. The
fury went. He realised that to serve Christ he must be willing
to take criticism smiling, and replied, "You're right," and
thanked him. The inferior was staggered. "I would rather he
had knocked me flat," he was heard to murmur. And now
that hot-headed fireman and his wife have a weekly Group
in their home, which the firemen and their wives attend, al-
ways praying that the firebell will not ring during the meeting.

A new shaft of light was thrown on Africa's problem of
Church unity when, at a house-party, people of all denomina-
tions and all shades of belief lived together for ten days in
such perfect unity that a sister of an Anglo-Catholic Com-
munity, who attended throughout, wrote of it : "We lived on
so high an altitude of Christian experience that we completely
lost all sense of our differences." This spirit is in many
quarters initiating a new working co-operation between the
various denominations.

In the pressing problem of black and white antagonism it
was significant that one of the best negro minds in South
Africa, Max Yergan, once told Frank that South Africa had
sufficient personal religion, and needed no more. Two years
later he spoke enthusiastically to Sam Shoemaker of the aston-
ishing racial results.

Still more striking is the fact that fast-living ranch-owners
are being turned into life-changers working among their own
native employees. No professional missionary appeal has so
convincingly staggered the heathen black man as the simple
about-face of their once-careless "big boss."

Not only a new spirit between black and white, but a new
fellowship between English and Dutch is apparent. Because
of the Groups many Dutch are learning English and many
English learning Dutch voluntarily. This new cordiality of
feeling was epitomised at a house-party in Bloemfontein,
when three hundred Dutch and English stood up and took
this vow inspired by the inscription on the Christ of the
Andes: "Sooner shall this limitless veldt pass away, sooner
shall this endless sunshine cease than we Afrikans and Eng-

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lish-speaking South Africans shall break the peace which we
swear here at the feet of Christ the Redeemer."

South Africa was an amazing romance, but I was more
eager to discover what the Group would do in an anti-Chris-
tian country. Then I heard of another exploit which came
about through contact with the remarkable Loudon Hamilton.
Three Oxford undergraduates met him, committed their lives
to Christ, and decided to invest their future in missionary
work in Persia. They went out singly to Stuart Memorial Col-
lege, Isfahan, an educational mission for Persians, Armenians
and Jews. Each of these races by traditional custom regarded
the other two as the veriest refuse ; so here, if anywhere, the
Group message had a chance to prove its potency.

The three Oxford men set to work quietly changing lives,
finding the crows the same glossy black as they were in Ox-
ford. A Persian lad of such low character that all regarded
him as hopeless was winning other students within the first
six months, Armenians and Jews as well. Ancient hatreds
began to melt. A team of four, an Anglo-Saxon, a Persian, a
Jew, and an Irishman, set out to help a lonely missionary
station. By honestly sharing and surrendering to Christ their
race prejudices, they welded themselves into such a glowing
unity of power that eight others were drawn in to form a
modern Apostolic band. Their impact on the mission-station
was so great that a group of Moslems was changed, and the
days of isolated work were ended for the lonely missionary.

I asked one of these men on furlough in England just
how he got his convictions across to a Persian. He told me
the story of The Three Tailors. A man at the College brought
along a Persian neighbour to the Oxford man with the cryptic
remark: "Hosham has a sense of sin. Help him to get over
it."

This was a complaint rarely known in that corner of the
world. But for Hosham it became the jumping-off place into
a radiant life. Some months later Hosham's partner Mehdi
turned up.

"Hosham has a new joy. I want it."

In these lands where Christianity is not good form, people
may make most direct and disturbing demands.

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"Very, well, Christ meets you at the point of your greatest
need," was the reply. "Let's begin with your sins."

"I haven't any," he said.

"Glad to hear that. But I found I had when I began with
honesty. Are you always honest?"

Mehdi grinned and added confidentially. "What do you
expect ? Don't you know I'm a tailor ?"

"Yes, but Jesus Christ demands absolute honesty. Go away
and think about it."

Six weeks later he returned. "I've decided to try, but I
can't do it," he announced, as though no interval had broken
the conversation.

"Why not give the whole of your life to Christ ? Then He
will give you the power."

This he did, and his wife became his comrade instead of
his chattel. His neighbours were astonished at him. Within
the month a third partner in the same tailoring house, a Jew,
joined in. They witnessed radiantly in the bazaar though they
incurred thereby the risk of being stabbed to death.

But The Three Tailors are alive and witnessing intrepidly.

Wherever Frank and his friends travelled in their round-
the-world tour ten years ago Groups have since sprung up.
They passed through Egypt. Last year a Group house-party
was held at the foot of the Pyramids on the edge of the
desert. "From the house," says Ken Twitchell, "the desert
appeared to be a huge wall of sand, with the Pyramids stand-
ing high above the valley. There was an after-glow of purple
on the rolling hills of sand and stone, while above a full
moon looked down on three thousand miles' stretch of desert
a stirring sight, heightened by the thought that so many
of the great religious leaders had desert experiences."

The daughter of one of the most influential Cairo families
witnessed at a large Group in a family drawing-room, where
she told simply and naturally of the experience of Christ
that had come to her at the Oxford house-party in the sum-
mer. She is now one of a group of several girls who are
beginning to change the rather worldly and bored upper strata
of Cairo's society.

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A young man, a University Don, came along and said he
had been trying to help students under his charge, and was
not able to do it. He needed help himself. He surrendered,
and began to live under God's guidance. A week later, when
going to luncheon with the Head of the University, the young
Don said, "Last night so many of my students came up to
my room to talk to me that I had to send some away and
tell them to come back later. And I was able to give more
help to those men that night than I had been able to offer any
man in three years."

A dignitary of the Church told of a complete revolution in
his life during the past few days. The head of a business
said he had realised that for him surrender to God meant a
restitution of wrongly-appropriated money fifty pounds had
been unfairly added to an invoice and he wrote a letter ex-
plaining what he had done and included a chequ^ for the
amount. This house-party also brought about a change in the
life of his son, and the two are now working as a team.

There came to the house-party a leader of a large group
of Egyptians who declared they must have this basis of life
for their own work. A whole day was spent at Helwan with
forty leaders of young Egypt, who showed the greatest in-
terest in the new evangelism.

"You were used of God to do a world of good while here,"
writes a correspondent of the Cairo Groups, which have now
come into vital being.

"Echoes of the day continue to come in. Stories of real
blessing in the lives of men. Three house-parties are being
planned as a result of that wonderful day in the country.
Two of us passed on your message to our Moslem Group,
all of whom agreed to keep their Quiet Time each morning
and evening and to report the results. ... I feel this is a
way of approach to Moslems for us and a way of approach
for Moslems to Christ that has great possibilities."

The direct approach to Christ in experience is better than
the human level of arguments.

The successful development of the work in Cairo was part
of a spiritual pilgrimage from Constantinople right down
through the Holy Land where an atheist was changed

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back to Egypt. The team comprised Professor and Mrs. Alex-
ander Smith, Ken Twitchell, his wife Marian, and his mother.

Ken told me a wonderful story of the work in Zurich,
where two psychiatrists sent along a very difficult patient to
a house-party, and one of the team was used to relate this
person to Jesus Christ, so that his fundamental needs began
to be met. A few days later he testified to his new experience
in the house-party in the presence of the two astonished
psychiatrists. As a result of his witness one of these two men
became convicted of the need in his own life and later fol-
lowed his patient's example.

When I heard the Group talk of South Africa and Egypt,
I became restive. News that would sell a newspaper was usu-
ally news about England. When Mrs. Alexander Whyte pro-
posed that the Group go to Geneva to introduce a challenging
spiritual leaven into the Disarmament atmosphere, I was still
more indifferent. Only a few old fogeys were interested in
Geneva, I thought, but Frank's guidance was that the Group
should go there, and Frank's guidance has a queer knack of
being right.

The Oxford Group entered Geneva last January, and
achieved definite results among individuals variously placed
in Geneva society results that will become more apparent as
the leaven begins to penetrate the fear, criticism and con-
tempt which certain sections of the city seem to have for
the others. The Group cut clean across the social life, the
national differences and differences of language which are
keeping the national representatives in water-tight compart-
ments.

With the following declaration of its principles, the Oxford
Group announced its arrival in Geneva:

In this time of distress peoples and nations are eagerly
awaiting, not more plans, but power ; not machinery, but
men.

The modern world disillusioned, chaotic, feverish
demands a solution adequate to its disorder.

The international problems of to-day are, at bottom,
personal problems.

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Men must be changed if problems are to be solved.

Peace in the world can only spring from peace in the
hearts of men.

A dynamic experience of God's free spirit is the an-
swer to regional antagonism, economic depression, racial
conflict, and international strife.

God-control is our primary need.

For years the Group had included in its life men and
women of international affairs. To these it was a truth strik-
ingly clear, that whoever held the secret of changing indi-
viduals, also held the secret of changing nations. It was a
truism that the change of men's hearts would decide the direc-
tion of men's policy. And they looked ahead to the day when
the wind of the Spirit would blow the Group to the great
centre of international life.

Those who knew the facts saw the need. Great as had been
the ideal of the League, even its enthusiastic supporters de-
plored the failure to realise that ideal. With all the good
work that Geneva had accomplished, idealism without God
was not enough. Until two people joined together in marriage
learn to care more about God than about themselves, or each
other, there is no real solution to their problems. Until all the
members of a family make this vital discovery, self-interest
blocks the best unity of their home. And so it is with nations.
Until the welfare of the whole family of nations comes to
them more strongly than their own self-interest alone, until
they learn that he who would save his life shall lose it, self-
interest rides high in international politics. And behind the
veil of pious pronouncements and resolutions, the blind policy
of self-interest pulls the reins of secret diplomacy.

Geneva leaves out God, and plugs along. But it is weary
with its plugging. Many men came hoping to find a city of
love, and they found a city of loneliness. They came to find
in Geneva, at last, the peace where the nations had fellowship
together. They found instead the rivalry and jealousy they
had left behind. They came, many of them at great personal
sacrifice, to throw themselves into the work of building a new
world. But they found that the issuing of reports did not
rouse the world into great redemptive action.

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Men must be changed if problems are to be solved.

Into this city of disillusionment, of idealism and cynicism,
the Group came with a simple, personal message. There was
no organisation to be set up, no conference to be held, no
funds to be collected. There were no resolutions to be passed.
Meetings of refreshing simplicity and friendliness were held
in the midst of preparations for the Disarmament Conference.
Personal problems were dealt with and the solution was indi-
cated. Lives began to respond, and, turning to God, were
changed.

Members of the Secretariat, heads of international organisa-
tions, Genevese business men, and their families, came into
the release of the new life and the romance of the work. At
a service in one of the churches of the city, the lady who
had been chosen to represent the women's organisations before
the Disarmament Conference spoke of the fresh experience
of Christ which had come into her life, and told of her con-
viction that .only as men and women were entirely surrendered
to God could they bring positive results out of their work at
Geneva. At the same service one of the heads of an inter-
national organisation testified to the new honesty and joy
that had come to him and to his family, and were now major
characteristics of their family life. Others, of different ages
and various groups, gave evidence of the new adventure
begun.

The team for the house-party had been drawn from many
countries, and presented what the Head of an Oxford col-
lege, in speaking of the Group, had described as "a travelling
League of Nations." To give their maximum message to the
city a service was held in the historic Cathedral of St. Pierre,
where, from the pulpit which still held the chair of John
Calvin, that message was delivered. A Justice from Germany,
an Admiral from England, a Doctor of Divinity from
America, a Baron from Holland, a Prebendary of an English
Cathedral, all gave what God had given them to say, to the
hundreds gathered below them, Geneva and Oxford, the two
great homes of religious life and learning, linked together by
their common King.

Marvellous work was done among the women in Geneva.

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The message began to raise the feeling of depression and put
new hope in place of despair, and God in place of an ob-
structed human will, and defeated intelligence.

One outstanding result was the case of a journalist well
known in 'France, in the Far East and in America. She writes
signed articles dealing with the politics being worked out in
Geneva, and these are broadcast over France. The whole tone
of her brilliant writings has been cynical, disclosing the gen-
eral atmosphere found in Geneva, where so often the routine
work is carried on while waiting for the roof to fall in.

This woman writer came to her first Group meeting with
no belief in what the Group were doing, only to get copy for
her articles. Also to get material for what she thought was a
new effort to sustain the Christ-myth by a group of English
and Americans whose self-interest she strongly suspected. She
meant definitely to 'discover the secret of that self-interest
and expose it. Instead, she became convinced of its sincerity
and reality. She began to attend regularly to get convincing
evidence of what was, offered, and soon showed that she, too,
was personally as much in need as anybody. She talked to
several people after the meeting, and next day saw Olive
Jones. Following that talk there came an upheaval in her
life. She called it a revolution.

Her life had been one long series of tragedies, including
alienation from her own family and her husband's family as
well. She lost her husband during the War. Gradually she
had resumed her writing, but with a strong tone of cynicism
and despair. God was denied. A bitter sense of life's injustice
was the chief motive governing her life. When she faced her
sins the restitution to be made appalled her. But as one by
one she put things right, each act brought its own terrific
struggle of surrender, but also, renewed peace and joy. Finally
she faced the more difficult issue her feeling about her lost
husband and the causes which led to his death. She changed
her attitude towards national relations and politics, the chief
themes of her writing. This meant surrendering into God's
hands all her work, for there was now the possibility that her
new views would be unacceptable. Her influence in three coun-
tries is tremendous, and though she still continues her writing,

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it is in a totally different vein. She regularly attends meetings
of the newly-formed women's group in Geneva.

As I reached the last page of this book there sat by me
at dinner the vicar of a small English village, who told me
some of his experiences in putting Group principles into
operation in his parish. He had gone back from a house-party
and apologised to his choir for showing irritability towards
them, and afterwards he had advised his congregation not to
come to Easter Communion until they had first put things
straight with their neighbours, as he had done with the choir.
Consequently, Group principles are being freely discussed in
the village public-house, while children in the church Sunday
School listen-in to God during service. Anglo-Catholics and
Evangelicals meet together in the Rector's drawing-room and
share. And the bells in the belfry, the oldest six-bell set in
the country, which have been ringing over the shire since
Queen Elizabeth, are pealing to a new spirit of peace and
goodwill in his parish.

So much for one English village. What of the towns and
cities ? Group house-parties and city campaigns are being held
so frequently in various parts of Britain that as soon as one
ends another is about to begin elsewhere. Men who specially
need changing, those men unable to conquer the drink habit,
people with tangled matrimonial troubles, the man who is
"broke," and the rich man suffering from ennui, join the com-
pany of consecrated sinners, as well as an infinite variety of
religious folk who seek a new fellowship of the Spirit.

The movement is growing rapidly in England. Within a
year or two it may have spread throughout the country. It
must grow, for it holds the answer to life's riddle, and makes
Christianity intelligible to the man in the street.

"These little groups," writes James Douglas, "are spread-
ing all over the world. . . . They are proliferating cells. They
have no churches, no organisation. They are vitalising all the
creeds and all the sects.

"Nobody knows how many of these spiritual groups are
in existence. There are no statistics. . . . The process of per-
meation is going on under the surface of life. The Churches
are aware of the silent religious revolution which is being

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wrought. They are sympathetic. . , . The great renewal of
the human spirit for which the world is waiting is gathering
force secretly and silently. It may before long put new life
into the dying forms of religion. It may do for the twentieth
century what Wesley did for the eighteenth century. Who
knows ?"

All round the earth there are bursts of Holy Spirit flame.
The new world revival is surely at hand, and coming to us
in the same way that Christianity first burst on a Pagan world
when Spirit-illed men, accused of being full of new wine,
went everywhere witnessing to their experience of a risen
Lord.

Chapter Twenty-Four

AS FOR ONE SINNER ONLY

THE story of what I saw and did in the Oxford Group
is finished. There only remains to be told what the Ox-
ford Group saw and did in me.

Unquestionably Frank and his friends showed me the secret
of victory over certain personal problems by which I had been
frequently defeated problems which were casting a shadow
between myself and the God I thought I knew, and which
I assumed were too difficult and deep-rooted ever to be con-
quered completely.

Had I not discussed those problems frankly with the
Oxford Group, as I had never been encouraged to discuss
them frankly before, I should probably never have realised
the literal truth of Wesley's line: "He breaks the power of
cancelled sin."

The Oxford Group showed me in practice what I knew in
precept : that "the heart must be at leisure from itself" ; that
to share is better than to preach; to lose is really to find; to
"let go" is to be held secure; to surrender all is to possess
all things.

That the Holy Spirit is still quick and powerful, and
sharper than a two-edged sword. That God still owns this
world and still controls it, although He has let it out to all
sorts of husbandmen. That God will guide and does guide His
children, not sometimes, but all times when they are sur-
rendered to His guiding will. That it is safer to gamble on
the unsearchable riches than to trust in bank balances.

By really living the life around me, the Oxford Group took
me a great step forward in the secret of living. By continuous
daily demonstration they showed me that the only true social
life is the Fellowship of the Spirit the social life of eternity,
And that, since God often comes to us through His children,
to be unfriendly to another is to recede from God.

Even when the Group irritated me by holding me up to

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my own highest ideals, I could find for them no worse
expletives than those used by dear old Balaam:

"How shall I curse whom God hath not cursed? . . . Let
me die the death of the righteous, and let my last end be
like his."

THE END

Russell,

For sinners only

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