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MMHYBUJEE 

MCTOPMHECKMlTl AJIbMAHAX 

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AH/IPEH BEJIbIM W AHTPOnOCOt&Mfl* 

ny6nHKauHH Rtk. ManbMCTaaa 



B TBopnecTBe AHapea Eeaoro MeMyapHaa npo3a 3aHHMaeT ocoooe MecTO. 
M He TonbKO noroMy, hto, BepoHTHO, nonoBHHy Bcero .iHTepaTypiioto Hacae- 
ana Beaoro cocraBaaioT MeMyapu, ho h noTOMy, mto oaHO yxe pemeHHe bo- 
npoca o npHHannoKH.ocTH roil h/ih hho(S khh™ Benoro k MeMyapaM aaaaeTca 
KjiKJMeBbiM aaa onpeaeaeHna othouichhs k ero TBoptecrBy b ueaoM. PaiyMe- 
eTCH, 6bino 6bi nevMecTHbiM 3aecb nbiTaTbca «peiunTb» itot Bonpoc, aetKO 
MoryiUHfi craTb npeaMeTOM neaoro ooabmoro TOMa (a mokct 6biTb h hc- 
CKO.nbKHx). OxMewy ToabKO, mto kphthkum, HccaeaytomuM Meviyapw Be.no- 
ro, caeaoBaao 6bi npHHHMaTb bo BHHMaHHe He To.ibKO rpananoiHbtH Meiuyap- 
Hbifl uhkji 20-30-x roaoB, ho h ca.vibie pakHHe ero npon3BeaeHHH (tiarafUHbift 
npHMep: ero nepBaa KHHra, ony6anK0BaHnaa b 1902 r. — «Chm(Jjohhh. (Bto 
pas, apaMaxHHecKaa)», KOTopyto caM aBTop xapaKTepsnoBaa TaK: veaynafi- 

Hblfi OTpblBOK, HOHTH npOTOKOHbHaa 3anHCb TOH riOilJIHHHOH, orpovtHOH CHM- 

(J)ohhh, KOTopas nepex<HBaaacb paa MecaueB b 3tom rpay [1901]«) ; . Ilpn- 
CTajibHoe H3yHeHHe TBopwecTBa xroro. Ha nepBbw B3raaa, caMoro Mjnymero- 
ca h npoiHBopeHHBoro XVaO)KHHKa B HCTOPHH pyccKOfi JlHTepaTVpbl noKa>KeT, 
hto Ha caMOM aeae oh 6bia oaHHM H3 ca.vtbix b Heft nocaeaoBaTeabHbix nuca- 
Teaeft: Ha npoTaweHHH 6oaee te.vi TpHauaTH neT oh eoxpaHaa BepnocTb (hv'H- 
aavieHTanbHbiM noaoweHHaM cBoero MHpoco3epuaHH« h npHHUHmiaabHbiM 
HawajiaM cBoeft nojTHKH. 

B nepwoa, HatHHatoiuHftca cpasy me nocae 3aBepuieHns nepBoro «BapH- 
aHTa» «rieTep6ypra», T.e. nocae 1913 r., Bee xyaoxecTBeHHbie npomBeaeHHa 
Eeaoro TaK HaH Hume HenocpeacTBeHHO CBa3aHbi c «MeMyapHbiM M.vinyab- 
com» 2 . TaaBHbiM npoaBaeHHeM 3Toro «HMnyabca» MoryT b nepByio oMepeab 
BHaeTbCH BocnoMHHaHHH o BaoKe, k pa6oTe Haa KOTopbiMH Beabifl npucTynHa 



* Research for this article was supported in part by a grant from the International 
Research & Exchanges Board (IREX), with funds provided by the National Endowment 
for the Humanities and the United States Information Agency. None of these organisa- 
tions is responsible for the views expressed. 

' MATEPHAJI K BHOrPA0HH (HHTHMHblff). liFAflH, 4>.53, on.2, ea. 
xp.3, 3anHcb 3a 4>eBpaab 1901 r. 

2 Cm. cTaTbw I\.<t>nePmiMaHa BELY'S MEMOIRS b kh.: ANDREY BELY. SPIRIT 
OF SYMBOLISM. Ed. John E. Malmstad (Cornell University Press, 1987), c. 216- 241. 



337 



b nepBbie aHH aBrycTa 1921 , nocjie cinepTH nosTa 3 h KOTopwe, noao6Ho Kopaa- 
jioBOMy pH(J)y, pa3pacTajiHCb c roaaMH b MHoroTOMHyio cepHK) MeMyapcm- 
aBTo6Horpa(J)HH. 

BaaancaaB XoaaceBHi, 6yayHH oieBHaueM pa6oTbi Beaoro Haa oahhm H3 
BapnaHTOB 3THX BOcnoMHHaHHH, TaK Ha3biBaeM0fi «6epjiHHCKOft peaaKUHeft» 
«Ha»iaaa BeKa», noapo6HO maoHcwa b peueH3HH Ha KHHry «Me:*ay aByx peBo- 
niouHfl» cjio>KHyK) HCTopHio pa3BHTHH 3thx MeMyapoB: «B 1921 r., TOTwac no- 
cjre cMepTH EaoKa, Eeabifi nponea o nein b neTep6ypre, a noTOM b Mockbc 
BocnoMHHaHHH, HMeBtuHe 6oabmoH ycnex. B pacujnpeHHOM h aonojiHeHHOM 
BHae ohh 6waH Hane^aTaHbi b oahom aribMaHaxe [«CeBepHbie hhh», c6.II, 
1922, c. 133-155, Taioxe b aonoaHeHHOM BHae b «3anHCKax Me4TaTeaeft», 1922, 
M«6, c.5-122]. Flo npne3je b BepnHH Eeabifl BHOBb nepepa6oraji hx aa« wypna- 
na "3nonen" [1922 23, ,Ng)-4], 3ra TpeTbH peaaKima, cnabHO pa3pociiiaacn, 
HaBeaa Ha Mbicab npeBpaxHTb BocnoMHHaHHH o Eaoice b TpexTOMHbie Bocno- 
MHHaHHH 06 snoxe eHMBoaH3Ma Boo6me. Tax B03HHKaa leTBepTaa peaaKiimi 
[tph TOMa «Hawaaa Bexawj /.../' Bnaa, hto KHHra rpo3HT npeBpaTHTbcs b 
noay6e3yMHbiH o6BHHHTeabHbifi axT npoTHB Bcero h Bcex, HeKOTopwe apy3b«, 
b tom HHcae h a, CTapajiHCb HanpaBHTb ero Ha nyTb 6oaee cnpaBeaaHBbix oue- 
hok. Zl-TH 3Toro hyxcho 6wao HacTaHBaTb, MTo6bi oh He ynycxaji H3 BHay, wto 
nniiieT hh b xoeM eaywae He coSctbchhvk) 6Horpa(J>HK), a o6i>eKTHBHbie Bocno- 
MHHaHHH 060 Bcefl inoxe. 3th ycnaHH HaiiiH nponaan aapoM: ecaw b 6epaHH- 
ckoh, HeTBepTofl, He yBHaeBiuefi cBeTa peaaKUHH Seabift eme caep^KHBaaca, 
to, npHexaB b Mockbv h npHCTynHB k naTofi, oh oKOHHaTeabHO cocKoab3Hya 
ot MeMyapoB 06 snexe k aBTo6Horpa<J)HH. Abto6h jrpa<J)HHHOCTb HOBoro Tpy- 
aa cBoero oh aas<e noanepxHya TeM, 4to "Haiaay BeKa" [M., 1933] npeano- 
caaa oco6bifl, paHee He npeanoaaraBtuHHCH tom, "Ha py6e>Ke aByx cToae- 
thh" [M.-Jl., 1930J — BocnoMHHaHHa o aeTCTBe h paHHeM K)HomecTBe» 4 . 

TpeTHfl tom <<mockobckoR peaaKUHn» BocnoMHHaHHH «Me>Kay aByx peBo- 
aiounft», 3aK0H4eHHbi« 23 MapTa 1933 r., no«BHac« ToabKO nocMepTHO, b 
1934 r. (XapaKTepHoe aa« o6mefi HacTpoeHHocTH nocaeaHefi peaaKLMH Me- 
MyapoB Ha3BaHne sioro TOMa — «OMyT» — 6biao 3aMeHeHO H3aaTeateTBOM 
Ha 6oaee «ao«abHoe»: «Me>Kay aByx peBoaionHH».) 

22 ceHTH6p» 1933 r., no CBHaeTeabCTBy ero »<eHbi, K.H. EyraeBofi, Ee- 
abifi Ha^aa pa6oTy Haa weTBepTbiM tomom, uhh, Bbipa>xasicb ero caoBaMH, 
Haa «btopoh MacTbio rpeTbero TOMa». Octpmh npncTyn roaoBHbix 6oaefi b 
Hanaae okth6ph, Koxopwe Bee ycnaHBaaHCb b TeieHHe hoh6p«, Memaa paSoTe. 
K MOMeHTy cBoeft CMepTH, 8 »HBaps 1934 r., Eeabift ycnea aoBecTH H3ao>KeHHe 
CBoefl 6Horpa<}>HH ToabKO ao «HHiiHaeHTa c "lleTep6yproM"», T.e. ao AHBapn 
1912 r., Koraa FLB. CrpyBe 0TKa3aaca nenaiaTb 3aKaianHbiM km h BprocoBbiM 
poMan Ha CTpaHHuax «PyccKOfl MbicaH». B «BBeaeHHH» k stoh nocaeaHefl ia- 
cth BocnoMHHaHHH, ony6aHKOBaHHbix c KyniopaMH b 1937 r., Beawft nHcaa, 
tto KHHra aoa*Ha 6waa oxBaTHTb «BocbMHaeTHe (1910-1918), CB»3aHHoe c 
>KH3HbK) Ha 3anaae h c KpyroM o6i.eKTOB, no-HOBOMy ocBemawmHx ace Bne- 



3 Cm. UHEBHMKOBblE 3AI7HCM AHapen Beaoro, npeaHcaoBHe h ny6^HKauH» 
C.C. TpeHHiuKHHa h A.B. JlanpoBa. — «JlHTepaTypHO' HacaeacTBO», t.92, kh.3, 1982, 
c.788-829. 

* OT nOJjynPABJlbl K HEnPABJlE. — «Bo3po>KaeHHe». 27 Ma* 1938, .N94133. 



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waTneHHH 6biTHH»'. IlepBoe MecTO b xpyry sthx «o6i.eKTOB» aojiiKHa 6bijia, 
6e3ycnoBHO, 3aHHMaTb (})Hrypa Pydonbrjia IllTefiHepa, BCTpena c kotopmm 
6biJia ueHTpa^bHbiM momchtom scefl >kh3hh BeJioro. 

TpynHO CKa3aTb, KaK Ecrtbifl, b 6peaoBbix ycnoBHsix cobctckoh Pocchh 
cepeaHHbi 30-x ronoB, nepeocMbicnHJi 6bi 3Ty BCTpeny h cbokd *H3Hb no 
1916 r. b OKpyweHHH IllTeflHepa, noMHa, hto nocne puna kph3hcob, cBjnaH- 
Hwx c OTHOiueHHeM k IllTeflHepy h ero yweHHio, Ee/ibifi Bce-TaKH ocTaBajicn 
no KOHua >kh3hh BepHbiM h aHTponocorJiHH, h ee ocHOBaTeiiio. B KOHue asaa- 
uaTbix roaOB, b «HcnoBeaH» «rio4eMy a cTaa chmbojihctom», oh nocBHiuaeT 
MHorne CTpaHHUbi CBoeiny «y4HTeJiK>», riHiiieT Sonbuiofi tom BOcnoMHHaHHfi 
o HeM, npeKpacHo noHHMaa, wto ony6iiHKOBaTb 3th paSoTbi npH *h3hh 6yaeT 

COBepiiieHHO HeB03MO>KH0 6 . XOTH B 3THX BOCnOMHHaHHHX Eeabifl yaeaaeT MHO- 

ro MecTa co6cTBeHHbi\i nepe)KHBaHHHM 1912-1916 rr., Bee >Ke hmchho jihm- 
Hocrb IllTeflHepa 3aHHMaeT b hhx ueHTpa/ibHoe Mecxo. B pe3y/ibTaTe 3th no- 
BopoTHbie roabi b >kh3hh Ee.ioro Tax h He 6biuH noapo6HO sarJiHKCHpoBaHbi b 
ero BOcnoMHHaHHdx. FIpaBaa, ao CBoero 0TT>e3na H3 EepaHHa b MocKBy b ok- 
THope 1923 r., Bexibift aoBea 6epnHHCKyio peaaKUHto «Ha4a J ia BeKa» no KOHua 
1912 r. Xoth pyKonwcb, no CBHaeTeiibCTBy XoxiaceBHMa (peueH3HH Ha KHHry 
<<Me>Kay aByx peBO^>ouHfl»), 6buia Ha6paHa k ne4aTn, ucihkom OHa HHKoraa 
He 6bi.ia Hane4aTaHa H3-3a 3aKpbiTH0 H3aaTe;ibCTBa «3noxa». cfcparvieHTb! H3 
nee, onHaKO, noHBHjiHCb KaK b cobctckoB Pocchh («Ap6aT». b >k>ph. «Poc- 
lhh», 1924, ,Vsl(10), c. 34-36), TaK h b SMHrpaHTCKOR npecce («Otkjihkh npe»- 
Hefl MocKBw» b »ypH. «CoBpeMeHHbie 3an«CKH», 1923, kh. XVI, c. 190-209, h 
«Ap6aT» — TaM yue, kh. XVII, c. 156-182) 7 . Ee/ibifi ony6;iHKOBaji tph «r/iaB- 
kh» H3 nocneflHefl (aecHTOfi) raaBbi rpeTbero TOMa Sep.iHHCKoro «Ha4a.ia 
BeKa» bo btopom BbinycKe wypH. «Beceaa», KOTopbifl peaaKTHpOBajica hm co- 
BviecTHO c TopbKKM h XoaaceBH4e.M 8 . Hto 3th «r.naBKH» (1. EcnbriiH, 2. riepe- 
xonHoe BpeMH, 3. Y IllTeflHepa) npHHaaaewaT Kopnycy «Ha4ajia BeKa», noa- 

TBep>KflaeTCH TeM, 4T0 OHH HaeHTH4Hbl (3a HCKUKDHeHHeM He3Ha4HTeiIbHbIX 
CTHJIHCTH4eCKHX H3MeHeHHfl) C TeKCTOM eaHHCTBCHHblX COXpaHHBUIHXCH (J)par- 

MeHTOB 6epriHHCKoro «Ha4ajia BeKa», HaxoamuHxca b coBeTCKHx apxHBax 
(LirAJIM, rnB): tom III, rnaBbi 1, 9 h 10. B nocjieaHHX n«TH «rnaBKax» ae- 
caTOfl rnaBbi (aaT. 1922-1923, aeKa6pb — HHBapb) — «Ee;ibrHfl», «riepexoa- 
Hoe BpeMH», «PyccKHe chmbo/ihctw)), «y IllTeflHepa», «Ea3eab-<l>HUHay- 
IllTyTrapT-BepiiHH» — Eeabifi onwcbiBaeT cbojo «OKKyiibTHyio» Tory k UlTefl- 
Hepy, nepByto BCTpe4y c hhm BecHofl 1912 r. h pemeHHe npHcoeaHHHTbCfl k 



' M3 JlHTEPAT\PHOrO HACflEflCTBA AHJPEX EEJlOrO. BOOIO- 
MHHAHHR, mo.M III, >iacmt> II. — «JlHTepaTypHOe HaciejCTBO", t. 27-28, 1937, 
c.413. 

- KHHra nOHEMY X CTAJI CHMBO/IHCTOM, HanncaHHa» b 1928 r., noHBH- 
nacb b neiaTH TO/ibKO b 1982 (Ann Arbor, «Ardis»); b 3tom >Ke roay Bbiui^H b riapH>Ke 
(«La Presse Libre») BOCriOMHHAHMfl O U1TEHHEPE, saKOHneHHbie a miBape 1929. 
HeKOTopbie oTpbiBKH TaK>Ke 6buin HaneKaTaHW b 6cpjihhckhx raseTax «Hhh» h 
«ronoc Pocchh»; cm.: ANDREJ BELYJ IN BERLIN, 1921-1923. Addenda for a Biblio- 
graphy of His Works. J.E.Malmstad. — «The Andrej Belyj Society Newsletters, 1985, 
J*4, c. 20-29. 

" AmipeA Ee/iutt. H3 BOCnOMHHAHHft. — «Beceaa», 1923, As2, c. 83-127. 

339 



«fle/iy noKTOpa». nocaeaHHH raaBKa, b KOTopofi onHCbiBaeTCH, KaK oh npHHfla 
3to pemeHHe, HHKoraa He neMaTanacb. 

B 1922 r., onHCbiBaH cboh OKKynbTHbie nepe)KHBaHHH b Bpiocceae, b anpe- 
ae 1912 r., Eeabifi nucaji b «Be/ibrHH»: «h h TaK He paccKa3biBaa noiTH 
HHKOMy o cjiyHHBuieMCH b Eproccene, — aecHTb neT; h, npmHaTbca, Moataa 
noTOMy, mto b inoxy <J>aHaTHiecKoro Moero oTHomeHHH k UlTeftHepy nepecKa3 
3thx (J)aKTOB CKoab MHOrHX 3acTaBHa 6bi c cowaaeHHeM noKa^aTb roaoBoft; h 
cwecTb Hac [A.B. h Acio TypreHeBy) — cyinaciueaiuHMH b aymueM cayiae h 
mapJiaTaHaMH — b xyauieM; h KpoMe Toro: MHe Ka3a/iocb, hto ornaujaTb sth 

(J)aKTbI HejTb3H', HO B MHTHMHOM Kp>T>' H paCCKa3bIBaJl 060 BCeM, C HaMH 6bIB- 

iiieM: rieTpoBCKOMy, UlTeftHepy, 3aancy, K.H. BacHabeBoft, HeKOTOpbiM apy- 
thm (He noMHKD kom>'). A Tenepb, wepe3 aecwTb ner, H3 apyroro MopajibHoro 

TOHyca, nepeMeHHBlUHHCS, Tpe3Bblft H He HMdOIUHH HHKaKHX "OKKyjlbTHHe- 
CKHX" BOCnpHHTHH, fl WyBCTByK), HTO fl HO.DKeH nOCTaBHTb nepefl C03HaHHeM 
BCe 3TH (J)aKTbl» 9 . 

B to >Ke BpeMa, napaaneabHO c pa6oToft Haa «Ha4aaoM BeKa» b 1923 r., 
BenbiH «nocTaBH/i nepea co3HaHHeM» h apyrHe (J)aKTbi: oh Hanaji nncaTb 3a- 
MeTKH, nojiyMHBLUHe Ha3BaHHe «MaTepnaa k 6Horpa(J)HH (hhthmhwh), npea- 
Ha3HaweHHbiH nnn mtchhji TOiibKO nocxie c.viepTH aBTopa» (ohh TaKwe 6biaH 
BeJibiM Ha3BaHbi «MaTepHaaoM 6norpa<t>HiecKHM, hhthmhmm))). Cioaa bho- 
CHJiacb aeTaJibHas xaHBa Bceft >kh3hh aBTopa BnaoTb ao aBrycTa 1915 roaa, 
BKjiKJiaH 3nH30zibi, KOTopbie no jiHNHbiM npHHHHaM He MorjiH 6biTb ony6an- 

KOBaHbl (ero pOMaHbl C HHHOfl nCTpOBCKOfl H JlK)60BbK> JlMHTpHeBHOft Bjiok, 

Tan >Ke KaK h ero MyfHTeabHbie oTHOLueHHH c Acefi TypreHeBOH h ee cecTpoft, 
HaTamefl; b hhcto «ceKcyajibHOM» naaHe Eeabifi HHKoraa He nwcaa 6oaee hh- 
THMHoro TeKCTa) 10 . B o6iuhx nepTax «MaTepnaa», b 0TJin4ne ot «HaMaaa Be- 
Ka», hocht 6onee aHeBHHKOBbifl xapaKTep: n3Jio>KeHHe (J)aKTOB pacnoaoweHO 
xpoHoaorHwecKH no MecsiuaM, HHoma aawe no aHHM. Eeabifi oneHb aeTajibHO 
onwcbiBaeT 1880 (aaia powaeHHa) — 1903 roabi, KaK h 1913-1915, b to BpeMH 
KaK nepHoa, oxBaTbiBaioiuHH 1904-1912 rr. (3a HCKaioieHHeM 1906) oh 3anncbi- 
BaeT 6oaee choto (b Haiajie 3anHceft 1904 r. oh OTMenaeT: «BBHay tofo, mto 
c 1904 roaa paa mohx BocnoMHHaHHfi ce6e 3aHeceH b 111 tom "Haiaaa BeKa", 
a 6yay ocTaHaBaHBaTbcs 3aecb jiHiiib raaBHbiM o6pa30M Ha (fcaKTax, He ot- 
MeweHHbix b "Hanajie BeKa"»). TeM He MeHee, m b stoh qacTH «MaTepHaaa» 
Mbi HaxoaHM MHoroe, o qeM EeabiH aoaweH 6bia nHcaTb b TpeTbern TOMe, h 
MHoroe, o MeM oh, HaBepHoe, yMoawaa. 

OcHOBHaa 3aaaia «MaTepHajia» — coxpaHHTb b naMHTH co6biTH», He 
ocMbicasH hx, KaK b «Ha4ajie BeKa». B KOHue pyKonHCH Beawfl nncaa: 

MaTepnaji 3tot 3aHocHJicsi aasi Toro, MTo6bi npH cayiae aaTb Ha 
ocHOBaHHH ero xyao>KecTBeHHoe npoH3BeaeHne (poMaH-aBTo6Ho- 
rpat|)HK)); aBTop 6paa ce6s], KaK o6T.eKT aHajiH3a; ueHTpoM ero aoa- 



9 «Becefla», 1923, ^s2, c._99. 

10 CyuiecTByeT eiue oahh «ia"raiioMHbift» tckct — «PaKypc jiHeBHHKa», ccbuiKM Ha 
KOTopwfi 4acTO BCTpeqaioTca b JIETOPHCH MH3HH H TBOPHECTBA A.SEJIOrO, 
cocTaBjieHHOfi K.H. ByraeBofi (TriB, (J). 60, ea. xp. 107). PyKonwcb «PaKypca» xpaHHTCH 
b UrAXIH h b HacToiriuee speM* He BbiaaeTCH HccneaoBaTe^JiM. 



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WHbi 6mjih 6biTb nepesKHBaHMii 1912-1916 roflOB; aBTop b snoxy 
1913-1914 roaoB 6bin KpafiHe nepeyTOMjieH; y Hero 6wji pan 6ojie3- 
HeHHbix nepe>KHBaHHfl, KOTopwe oh xotcji 3anwcaTb cnepBa TaK, KaK 
ohh npeflHocH/iHCb eMy b 1915 may. Oh Haiaji npoTOKaribHO 3anH- 
cwBaTb 3th nepoKHBaHiM b 1923 roay; ho 3anHcH o6opBaJiHCb Ha 
1915 roae. BBHay Toro, mto nepeJKHBaHHa 3th naHbi 3necb 6e3 xpu- 
muKu aBTopa (aHajiH3 hx, Tpe3Bbift, nojiaceH 6mji hx saBepuiHTb), 

BBHfly HHTHMHOCTH HX H KpaHHeH 6o^e3HeHHOCTH, BBHfly TOI"0, WTO 
3fleCb BCKpMBaKJTCH HHTHMHble CTOpOHbl OTHOUleHHH aBTOpa K KO- 

raa-TO einy 6;ih3khm jijoahm, — 

aBTop cdaem e apxue smu 
6uoepa0uuecKue lanucu nuiub c yc.aosueM, nmo cmanym docmoHHu- 
eM pa6omaiou)ux 6 Apxuee noc/ie CMepmu aemopa. 

BejibiH npozioJDKa^ 3anncH b 1924 r. h BpeMH ot BpeMeHH B03Bpamajic» k hhm 
no 1928 r., Koraa oh hx ocTaBHii OKOHMaxe^bHo, He aoBezw hx no 1916 r., 
Tan h He nocTaBHB nocneziHeH tomkh (b 6yKBajibH0M cMbicne To*e). 

B caMOM «MaTepHa^e» Ee/ibifi Ha3biBaeT nepwoa 1912-1916 rr. «yaHBH- 
TenbHbiM napanoKcoM, 6oraTeHLuefl nHiuefl ans o6mecTBa ncnxHuecKHx hc- 
c/ieaoBaHHH» h npoaoiDKaeT: «Tenepb, oiHpaa ce6«, x Mory BonpouiaTb: 
npHHafl/ie»ajia jih 3Ta *H3Hb Moefi »h3hh?». OTBeTHTb Ha stot Bonpoc Mor 
6w TOJibKO caM Eejibifl, ho, npH3HaTbca, onncaHHe KOHua 1914 r. h oco6eHHO 
Bcero 1915 r. HHorna wHTaeTCH KaK (J>aHTacTHHecKHH pOMan, 3thm HanoMHnaH, 
MO)«eT 6biTb, caMyio laranoHHyio Bemb, HanHcaHHyio Ee/ibiM: «3anHCKH wy- 
aaKa»". Ho b «MaTepHa^e» (b ot/thhhc ot «3ariHCOK MyaaKa», me aBTop bm- 
cTynaeT KaK JleoHHzi JlenuHoft, Ac* kslk Hs/ijih h T.a.) Benbifl, KaK h apyrHe 
/HOflH, roBopHT np«MO ot ce6>t, co6biTHH aaHbi b hhcto xpoHOJiornwecKOM 

nOpHflKe H OH HHKaK He OTpHUaeT aBT06H0rpa(J>H4H0CTH 3THX C06bITHfl. 

(B cBoeM «BMecTo npenHcnoBH*» k «3anwcKaM HyaaKa» Benbifi HacTaHBan Ha 
tom, 4TO «JleoHHfl JlenHHOH — Me AHapeft BenbiH», a b TeKCTe (t.I, c.68) nH- 
can o «3anncKax»: «b BHae noiecTH 3tot CTpaHHbifl flHeBHHK».) npaBflHBocTb 
onHcaHHH aTMociJiepbi, uapameH b soeHHbie roaw b flopHaxe, nonTBepwua- 
eTCH nHCbMaMH Bexioro MBaHOBy-Pa3yMHHKy. B nHCbMe, nocaaHHOM 20 hoh6- 
pH 1915 (no h.ct.) h3 ApjiecreftMa (6aH3 ZIopHaxa) Eeabin HaMeKaa Ha «MyMH- 
TenbHefliiiHe CHTyauHH BHyTpH h bobhc 0[6mecT]Ba, KOTopwe npHxonHTCH 
nepe>KHBaTb», npoao/DKati: «Ha hhx-to, HeMHornx, onnpaeiiibcH Tbi h Heceuib 
MHoroe, ho He OTxonHUJb, noroMy hto 6o.TbuiHHCTBO Haiiinx waeHOB, KaK 
BcaKoe "6o/ibutuHcmeo"; h aawe xy>Ke o6bi4Horo "6o^biuuHcmea", h6o aH- 
TponocotJ)HSi — npo6a chji bojih; h kto He ct3hobhtch nymue, tot bo MHoroM 
CTaHOBHTCa eme xyjice, cocTaBaHH BHeaiHwro KapTHHy "wmeuHepucma" hjih 
"lumeuHepucmKu", 3a KOTopyro no cnpaBezi^HBOCTH Hac pyraioT» 12 . 11 MapTa 
1916 r. (no h. ct.) oh nncaji: 



,: O 3AI1HCKAX WVUAKA, 2 r. (M.-5ep^HH, 1922) cm. cOflepjKaTe^bHyio CTa- 
TbK): A D/AR Y IN STOR Y FORM: «ZAPfSKI CHUDAKA » AND SOME PROBLEMS 
OF BELY'S BIOGRAPHY, John Elsworth. b kh.: ASPECTS OF RUSSIA. 1850-1970. 
POETRY, PROSE AND PUBLIC OPINION. (Letchworth, 1984). 

12 LirAJlH, <t>.1782, on.l, en. xp. 6 (nwcbMa 1915 rona). 



341 



>KH3Hb 3aecb yHbiJias: Bee 6oneio to HepBHbiM nepeyTOMJieHHeM, to 
oflbiiiJKott, to CTpanax) cepaewHbiMH npHnaaKainH; nyuitcu b 3nb3ace 
HamtHaio npocTo He nepeHocHTb. H yexaTb-To HCKyaa. PoviaH moh 
3acTonopHJic«: oneHb MHOro 6bi.no y Mena b jihwhoh >kh3hh 3a6oT, 
oropieHHfl h TH*e^bix nepewHBaHHfl, oieHb MHoro 6w.no h HenpH- 
HTHocTefi Ha noMBe 3JietiiHeH MecTHofl wh3hh. OTHa«HHbie rocnoaa 
(BepHefi rocno)KH hjih npome «cmapbie deebm) HauiH aHTponoco(J)bi; 
5% nopaaOTHbix Jironefi, 1/2% nroiieft laivieHaTejibHbix: npoMHe — 
HHKyaa HeHywHbifi 6ajuiacT, topmo3hiuhh Bee aeno aoKTopa; ncnop- 
thjih Kynoxi Ham «apx6noK>, aeKaneHTCKOK) >KHBonHCbK>»: bmccto 
aHTp[onoco(J)CKOro] HCKyccTBa no.ny4H:iacb aoTouiHOCTb caMoro 3a- 
xynajioro MOjiepHH3Ma; cTonbKO 3aecb TsvKejioro, HynHoro, hto Bw 
h npeziCTaBHTb ceoe He MO>KeTe: bot CKopo 3 Mecaua n-pa HeT; Mbi 
ohhh cpeziH HenpHSTHOCTefl, MenciHOCTeH, «tcthhckhx» cnneTeH: 
pa6oTHHKH (t.c Mo/ioaoKb) eaBa TacKaiOT HorH ot ycTanocTH: y 
Koro 6one3Hb cepaua, kto Bbinwyji ot KO;iOTb6bi no aepeay cyxo- 
/KMjiHe, kto npocTo c/ier: h Bee jto — b «6a3e.ibCK0M» MepTBOM CHe, 
cpeziH K^ay3Hbix h 3noHacTpoeHHbix nepeBymeK. 

HHorna TaKoe OTHaaHHe oxBaTHT, wto npocro no-co6aHbeviy 

«6bimb» XOieTCfl 13 . 

B «MaTepHa;ie» 4HTaTe;ib HaflaeT Bee nonpoSHocTM sthx «HenpHHTHocTeH» 
h «TH>KeJTbix nepe>KHBaHHH», onpeaeneHHe-KOTOpbix caMHM Be/ibiM KaK Tonb- 
ko «cTpaHHbie» — e^Ba .in mo>kho cmiTaTb aaeKBaTHbiM 

y>Ke b 1907 r. b craTbe «Bynymee ncKyccTBa» Bejibifi nncaji o rnaBHOfi 
3a/iaHe nHcaTcnH-CHMBo/iHCTa: «Mbi noiDKHbi 3a6biTb HacTosnuee: mbi noniK- 
Hbi Bee CHOBa nepeco3J33Tb: ana axoro Mbi aojWHbi co3aaTb caMHx ce6« /.../ 

[xyflO>KHHK] ZIOn>KCH CTaTb CBOeft COOCTBeHHOH xynowecTBeHHofi (tjOpMOH"'''. 

CnycTH 6ojiee necHTH jkt, b nepnoa c03aaHHH «3noneH» «h», oh noBTopaeT 
b «HHeEHHKe nHcaTejiHi. cboh ochobhoA TBopiecKHH npHHUHn: «no OTHOiue- 
hhkd k ce6e caMOMy CTaHOBjuocb HaTypaiiHCTOM»' \ «HaTypa/iHcr», nccne- 
aoBaTeab HeBeaoMbix 3eMeab o6peTeHHOfi peajibHociH, «nHon.TaHeTHbiH racT- 
pojiep» CTaHOBHTcs b CBoeM «MaTepHane» 3KCKypcoBouoM He TonbKO no BHe- 

UIHHM C06bITHHM, HO H liO BHyTpeHHHM: nO Co6CTBeHHOM> C03HaHHK) B nOBO- 

poTHbie «aHTponoco(J)CKne roabi» cBoefl kihhii, na3BaHHOfi mm caMHM «6onee 
ooraTOH, weM Bca >KH3Hb "do" h bch >KH3Hb "nocne" (BcoObirnax BHyTpeHHux 

H CTpaHHbIx)» 16 . B 3TOM H 3aKJ1K>4aeTCH XU1S HHTaTeHH BCeo6TjeMJlK31UMfi MH- 

Tepec 3thx nncaHMft h Ba>KHOCTb (a, bo3mo>kho, h onacHocTb) hx ann Tex, kto 
H3yqaeT Bejioro h ero 3noxy. 



'» UrAJlM, (J). 1782, on 1, ea. xp.7 (niicbMa 1916 roaa). 

14 CHMBOJ1H3M, M , 1910, c.453. 

15 UHEBHHK I7HCATEJJfI, aaT. 9 xHBapn 1919 r. — .<3anm.Kn MeMTaTe.aeft». 
1919, jNsl, c.119. 

16 «ABTo6Horpa())HHecKoe nHCbMO» MBaHOBy-Pa3y'MHHKy ot 1-3 MapTa 1927 r. («Ca- 
hiers du monde russe et sovietique», 15, /*l-2, 1974, c.72). TaM *e Be^bifl nMcaji: «Ce- 
MHjieTHe 1912-1918 Mory Ha3BaTb b uenoM: AHmponoco0UH. Ho: b nepBOM terrtbipex- 
nemuu (12-15) 3Ta "aHmponocotfivt" MHe 3ByqHT b Teiuax: "mup", (cm. c^en. CTp.) 



342 



no cefi neHb «MaTepHaji k 6Horpa<j)HH (HHTHMHbifi)», pyxonHCb KOToporc 
xpaHHTca b UrAJIM, tt>.53, on. 2, ea. xp.3, He ony6anKOBaH h n3BecaeH xonbKo 

no CCblJIKaM HJIU OTpblBOMHbIM UHTaTaM B pa60TaX COBeTCKHX h 3ananHbix 

«6eaoBeaoB». 3aecb BnepBbie ny6aHKyK>TCH ucjihkom an. 61 06. — !63 06., 
janHCH o 1913-1915 roaax. OTpbiBKH M3 pyKonncH, KacaiouiHeca nepwoaa ot 
1911 no 1912 rr., npeamecTByioT TeKCTy, Hjo6bi 3apncoBaTb cJioh npoHcxo- 
aamero c BeabiM no 3Toro BpeMeHH. flpHMeiaHRH, rjiaBHWM o6pa30M, hmckjt 
ueiibKj yTOMHHTb, a HHoraa h HcnpaBHTb aaTbi onncbiBaeMbix co6biTHfi (Be- 
awft aoBoabHo nacro MemaeT cTapbift h HOBbift cTHaH). ."iHTepaTypa o Py- 
aoabcfce UlTeftHepe oco6eHHO noMoraa b 3toh pa6oTe, ran KaK nawabift aeHb, 
Ka>Kaa» ero aeicuHH h.ih noapo6HocTb H3 ero *h3hh 3a<pnKCHpoBam.i b ny6- 
TMKauHsx Verlag der Rudolf Steiner (cm., Hanpwuep, Rudolf Steiner. Das lite- 
rarische una ktinsterlische Werk. Eine bibliographische Ubersicht, Dornach, 
1961, c nepeiHeM aaT h MecT Bcex ero aeKiwft). HTo6bi He 3arpoMO*aaTb 
xeKCT npHMenaHHHMH, k HeMy ao6aBaeH HMeHHoft yKa3aTeab H3BecTHbix, Ma- 
lOHTBecTHbix Han BOBce HeH3BecTHbix anu, ynoMHHyTbix b «MaTepnaae». 

B npHao>KeHHH HHTaTeab HaftaeT rmcbMo M.K. Mopo30BOH BeaoMy h 
noapoOHbift (b opHiHHaae 44 aHCTa) otbct eii Beaoio. Bee MaTepwaabi ny6- 
atiKyioTCJi BnepBbie. Abtop npHHOCHT SaaroaapHOCTb BaaaHMHpy THTHHy 3a 
noMoiub b peaaKTHpoBaHHH TeKCTa «MaTepHaaoB». 



TepMaHUH" . "Meoumaifux", 'Mupoean eouHa" . ",4a", MyHHTWibHoe HCKaHHe rap- 
mohhh c aocexie 6;ih3khm MHe apyroM, TaK MHoro aHaiauiHM ana Memi, 3MHJineM 
Kap^oBJHHeM] MeTHepOM; rapMomm pBeTca — 6onee, 6cmee, 6onee; h b 15-om roay 
OTHouieHHd (aas MeHa) HauiH pa3pi>iBaioTCH HaBceraa» (c.78) n «"aHmponoco0un, urn 
jcomepunecKuu nymb" (TeMa nepnoaa 1912-1915)» (c.75). Cm. TaK*e c. 71-73. 



343 



1911 ro.u 

Maii. /.../ 0TT>e3Zi b EoramoGbi' ecTb ccopa c MaMoft, CTpax nepeji 
CTaBiueft MHe ipjcnoft MockboA. Co mhoH H3 Mockbw eneT HaTa- 
ma [TypreHeBa]. 

HiOHb. )KH3Hb b Borojiio6ax. >Khbcm [BMecTe c Acefl TypreHeBoft] b 
OTfleribHOM aoMHKe, BHe rnaBHoro. 06Hapy*HBaeTC»: nepeyTOM- 
neHHe HepBHoe y Ach, pan MeaHyMHiecKHx HB/ieHufi b aomhkc no 
HOHaM. B Ace pa3BHBaeTCs MucmuuuzM h THra k npo6neMaM ny- 

XOBHOft Ky.ribTypbl. /.../ 

MiGAh. FIpHe3*aeT IIouuo. Me.aHVM[n4ecKHej HBjieHHH npoaojiacaioT- 
ch, h 6opK»cb c hhmh; TpeBO>KHoe HacTpoeHHe /.../ 

Aeeycm. TpycTnafl, npeaoTT>e3xiHaj5 JKiUHb b Boro;iK)6ax. Ham ott>- 
e3j c Aceft b MocKBy /.../ 

Cenms6pb. /.../ f!epee3>KaeM c Aeefl b PacropryeBO [noa MocKBofil: 
Me^raeM BtipBaTbca; /.../ 

OKtrinnpb. 'Mwmi, & Pacxopryerst. OttjCj/a 3;uiHca sa rpaHHu>. Me 4- 
ib! c6e>KaTb, Achho: man xumt He.ih3/t. /.../ Xleeer — hct. 
CrpOHy «ne7cpGypr». 

Ho.%6pb. y»acHwe xo.no.aa Ha wit. >Kni"b hcbo3v.o>kho. BBarmjiHCh 
b KBap7Hpy k riomio. TaM — rormefl, HevKmiua, xotou, FlHcaTb 
— bcc Tpy\aneH. BbipyMj-;;? B'iok npucujiKoft .neHer Cocro«3Hne 
v.oe: >:o7b noBecHTbCH. 

HeKaOpb. He Bb<aep>KajiH: 6e»ca;™ m MocKBbi a &o6pobkv, cneiiiHo 
paooTaio Ha.i '<.riemep6ypeoM» Bee re «e rpycrHbie mwctih. 
>KHTb Hejibin. Bo3BpamaeMc« k pow;iec7By b Mockbv. 

FpflHy.7 Moft HHUHfleHT [o npHHTMH «riemep6ypea»] c «Pvcckou 

MbiCAbK»K 

1912 Foa 

Rneapn. IlepBoc HH3ap« BC7pe7H.in H.a KBap7npKe y Hoimo: b 6-om 
Poc70bckom nepeyiiKe, 6nn3 UnioiuHXH; Ka*;e7CH 3a>Krnn e.iOHKy; 
iipwcyTCTBOBajiH: C.H. KaMnHOHH, Acs, Ha7aina, TaHH, Fioliuo, 
a. MHe 07Kpbi.7ca 7exc7, H70 mh npofizieM no/i o6.naKOM, 470 6y- 
aer: sce-7aKH cbct H3 rpflayiuero. /.../ 



1 borojiio6bi — HMeHMe noa JlyuKOM, npHHaajie)KaBiuee 07HHMy A. A. TypreHeBOfl 
B.K. KaMnHOHH h ee Ma7epn C.H. KaMnHOHH. 



344 



.HHBapb 3Toro roaa — cnnoiiiHoe TOM/ieHHe /.../ B TaKOM co- 
ctohhhh c AceK nonaaaeM b KOHite Mecnua b TTeTep6ypr; h noce- 
naeMCH y B.HBaHOBa — Ha «EaujHe». 

0eepa/ib. Becb npoBcaeH y B.HBaHOBa; /.../ 

Mapm. BojBpamaiocb b MocKBy. /.../ co6HpaK)Cb yexaTb 3a rpaHHuy; 
/.../ B caMOM KOHue MapTa Bbie3>KaeM c Acefl 3a rpaHHixy; nocae- 
aHHe hhh Mecsma cBjnaHbi c KentHOM. 

Anpe/ib. npwe3>KaeM b Epiocceab, 3a6oaeBaeM; /.../ cipaHHbie npn- 
K.iK>4eiiH», omHcanHbie b III xo\ie «Hanaaa BeKa». /.../' 

Mau Bcxpena c LUxeftHepoM, npHeia b Bptocceab 3a.mw& z ; /.../ Flo- 
e-3.iKa b Bprorre, noesziKa b LUapae-Pya k a'3cxp3. Moh OT-be3a b 
Bya-Jle-Pya, k a'AabreftviaM. 

Htonb. >K(i3Hb y .I'A-ibreflMOB b Bya-Jle-Pya. /.... 

Mio.ib. OTT>e3.i h? Bya-Jle-Pya. Cxpac6ypr, BnenaT^eHHe or eooopa. 
ripne3;i b MioHxeH, Bcrpena c LUreflHepoM, 3aaKcoM, Floonb- 
MaH-Moii. PiixrepoM. laHHXHH c IUoaaib. Ilpue j:j HaxamH Typre 
hcboh b MiOHxen. Haujii nocemeHwa WxefiHepa. 

Atisycm. Pa6oxa Haa mhctcphhmh. FIocxaHOBKa MHcrepHH [Lllxeft- 

HCpaj, Mi-OHXCHCKMH K>pC <<0 BCJHOCTH MrHOBeHHH).' Orx.e3a Ha- 

TauiH. riepee3zi b l>u3e;ui. 

CehtmiOpb. BaitMhCKHH Kypc «FRanreaHe or MapKa»''. [Ipnexj 
B.llBanoBa e haienh, k naM. PairoBopbi c3aanco.\i; nam oxbexi 
b <t>HHHay [ILlBeftiiapHH]. 

OxrrwOpb. /KinHb b <J>muru\. Moh paOoxa Haa ih'.k.ijmh. ... ' Mean- 

TaiiHH. 

Hoj)6pb. Hcpeeia b JJ.erep.iox (noa LIIxyxrapxoM); paiiOBopu h apy- 
*;6a c 3;lihcom h c riooabMaH-Mon; /..,/ Oii>e3a b Mvohxch Ha 
acKHHH [UiefiHepa'. '.... 30 Hoa6pa npne3>KaeM b BepaKH. 

- K >ro\!> Bp-Mci'H "3.1.1HC c i a:i mlmkhm ii;TeftHepnamieM i' i;po:iaran:iHpoBa.i yie- 
HHf Ui i oflnepa cpe:in mockorckhx chmbo.ihctob: cm. «J1h reps-. rypnoc nac.ieacTBo», 
r.Y2. kh X c.388 

' 20, 22 h 24 asivcia (h.ct.i pli.'ih nociau.-ieHbi b Mmhxchc ipn hj qerbipex «Mys- 
:e-riendramen« LUreftHepa. 25-29, 30 (2 .ieiainn) h 31 aBrycTa (h.ci .! LLhefixep 4HTa,i bo- 
;tM!, .leKUMH '!K-ypca» <Von der Initiation. Von Ewigkeit und Augenhlick. Von Geistes- 
licht und Lcbensdunkel». 

' B baje.ie, or 15 ao 24 cenrsopsi (h.ct.). LUTeflHep iHTan .lecsTb leKUHfl Ha Teviy 
«Das Markus-E\angelium». 

' LLlTeRnep nnTax xeKU.nn b MionxeHe ot 25 jo 28 HO«6p« (h.ct.), OTHacTM Ha reMy 
■Okkulte Untersuchungen Ober das Leben zwischen Tod und neuer Geburt». 



345 



JJexaSpb. )KH3Hb b EepaHHe. .TJeHeacHbie 3aTpyaHeHH«. 3HaiHTeabHbie 
BHyTpeHHHe nepe)KHBaHH$i. 0rbe3a b KeabH Ha UHKa: «nocaaHHH 
anocTOJia riaBJia h BxaraBaT-rHTa» 6 . HoBbift roa BCTpeiaeM b 
KejibHe: nocaeaHas apy*ecTBeHHaa BCTpena c 3aaHC0M h floonb- 
MaH-Moft. 

1913 roa 

Rneapb. 

HoBbifl roa BCTpeTHUH c Acefl b KeabHe, a oTeae St. Paul, npoTHB 
KenbHCKoro co6opa; b stom >Ke orene Mbi >kh^h b aHH, Koraa npoH3o- 
luaa nepBaa Bcxpena Haiua c aoKTopoM IIlTeflHepOM; oomhhtch, Mbi 
BepHyjiHCb c jieKUHH IIlTeflHepa; h — noMHHTca: y Hac BeiepoM cwae- 
,ih: 3j1jihc h nooabMaH-Moft; a noKa3biBaa nooabMaH-Moft moh cxe- 
mu, b KpacKax (MenoBeK-XpaM); Mbi He3aaoaro 3anHcaaHCb Bee b 
o6pa30BaBiueecH A[HTponoco<|)cKoe] 0[6mecTBo], BbiftaH m T[eoco(j)- 
CKoro] 0[6mecTBaj BMecTe c IllTeflHepOM^; noMHHTca, 3TOT nepHoa 
OTnowHacsi BHyTpeHHHMH y3HaHH»MH o XpaMe Te.na; o Kynoae, KaK 
ronoBe; tph «aeH XpaMa: XpaM — noa3eMHbift (ieao); XpaM — coa- 
HeMHbifl (nocTpoeHHbifi Ha cepaue); XpaM kocmhhcckhh (secb Meao- 
BeK); b mohx HMarHHauHax Toro BpeMeHH ecTb MHoroe, hto BbiHBH- 
Jiocb BnocneflCTBHH b naaHe TeTeaHyMa. rioMHHTca b 3th aHH oco6oe 
BnenaTjieHHe npomBena jickuhh UlTeftHepa H3 Kypca, rae oh tobopht 
o MejioBeKe-3Mee (hto 3HanHT aofiTH ao 3MeH). 

Hepe3 HecKoabKO aHeft Mbi BepHyawcb b BepaHH. 

>lHBapb 3Toro roaa (KaK h aeKa6pb npeabiaymero) ctoht MHe noa 
3HaKOM mohx Bee ycHaHBaiomHxc$i MeaHTauHfl h y3HaHHH (BHyTpeH- 
hhx); eme b Hon6pe, b UlTyTrapxe a npHroTOBwa lllTefiHepy hchto 
Bpoae aoxaaaa, c paaoM cxeM o Moeft BHyTpeHHefl pa6oTe h o Tex 
MeflHTauHHX, KOTopbie oh MHe aaa; b MioHxeHe a nepeaaa lllTeftHepy 
3Ty TeTpaab (Ha cBHaaHHH, rae Mbi 6biaH y Hero c nooabMaH-Moft); 
b aeKa6pe UlTeftHep BepHya MHe TeTpaab c paaoM yKaiaHHft (6biao 
aaHTeabHoe CBHaaHHe c hhm); BMecre c TeM oh nepeMeHHa MHe pa6o- 
Ty; HOBbie MeaHTaiiHH Bbi3BaaH bo MHe paa cTpaHHbix coctohhhh 
co3HaHH«; nepeMeHHaocb OTHouieHHe Me*ay chom h 6oapcTBOBaHH- 
eM; b aeica6pe 6biao aBa caynaa co mhoh Bbixo/KaeHHH H3 ce6a (Koraa 
h, He 3acbina«, nyBCTBOBaa, KaK Bbixo>Ky H3 Teaa h Haxowycb b 
acTpaabHOM npocTpaHCTBe); Becb 3tot nepwoa fl 6bia b coctohhhh 



6 28-31 nena6pa 1912 r. h I HHBapH 1913 r. (h.ci,/ UJTefiHep ima/i nsiTb nenund 
«Die Bhagavad Gita und die Paulusbriefew b KejibHe. 

7 AHTponoco(J)CKoe 06iuecTBO, bo rjiaBe c P.UJTeiiHepoM (caM oh HHKoraa ne 6mj: 
HneHOM 06uiecTBa), o6pa30Baj>ocb b HaMaJie ceHTH6ps (h.ct.) 1912 r.; pa-jiOBopw o 
4)opMa;ibHOM ycTpoflcTBe 06iuecTBa npoaojDKanHCb h b aeKa6pe Toro roaa. 



346 



noTpjiceHHH non BnciaT/ieHHeM 3Toro orpoMHoro coSbiTHjj Moefi BHy- 
TpeHHeH >kh3Hh; hhh npoxoaH.nn b wtchhh uhkjiob, a yTpoM, cpeaH 

flHH H BeMepOM B MeaHTaUHHX, KOHUeHTpaUHHX, KOHTeMnnHUHHX. ft HH- 

Taji KpoMe Toro BHHMaTenbHO «/Io6poTOJiio6He» (2 TOMa). 

B HHBape COCTOHJTOCb HOBOe CBHiiaHHe CO lllTeflHepoM, B kotopom 
a npeacTaBHji eMy HOBbie cxeMbi (b KpacKax) h orneTbi o mohx pa6o- 
Tax h nepeaa.i o cxiynaflx BbixowaeHHH H3 ce6a b aeKa6pe h o TpeTbeM 
cnyiae BbixowaeHHH b HHBape (BCKope no B03BpaiueHHK) H3 KeJibHa); 
lilTeflHep CKa3a;i MHe: «Ja, es ist so; es ist schwer zu ertragen, aber man 
muss dulden...». Ho Bce-TaKH: oh ci<a3a.a MHe, hto HeKOTopbie y3Ha- 

HHH MOM O .lyXOBHOfi neHCTBHTeJlbHOCTH npOKaeBpeMeHHbl (OHH n03fl- 

nee no-HOBOMy npoHCHHTca); qh aa.i MHe eme pan >Ka3aHHH BHyTpeH- 
Hero nopnziKa; noMHHTca, hto Mbi c Acefl c Hawajia 13 roaa nepeiujiH 
Ha BereTapnancTBO. 

3a 3toi nepnoa Mbi e;iyujaeM jickuhh b A.O.; Kawnyio neaenio 
HinaeT LUTeHHep neKUHKD no BTopHHtcaM b noMemeHHH O-Ba Ha TeMy: 
«)Ku3Hb He.ioeexa Mexdy CMepmbw u HoewM poJicdenueMiy. b nexaGpe, 
flHBape, $eBpajie h b MapTe oh npo4en ao 12 neKUHfi na 3Ty TeMy 8 ; Becb 
3tot nepnoa cjiyujaio .leKUHH UJTeftHepa (ny6.nn4Hbie) b Architekten- 
haus Ha Wilhelmstrasse, o6pa3ytoujHe to >Ke sui generis xypc (H3 6 JieK- 
uhh) Ha TeMy: nEcmecmeomaHue u dyxoeHa.n «crwa» 9 . BHHMaTe/ib- 
ho wHTaio BbixonamHe «Mitteitungen» O-Ba. 3a 3tot nepnoa pa3 
M.fl. CHBepc (BnocjiexicTBHH a<eHa LLlTeHHepa) npHr/iaiuaeT Hac c 
Acefi Ha Kocjje b KBapTHpy UlTefiHepa; k KocJ)e Bbixo^HT aoKTop, h y 
Hac npoHCXoaHT 3a ctojtom pajroBop o Poxope B3K0He h o B3KOHe 
Bepy.iaMCKOM. Oh ynaibiBaeT Ha to, hto y neKOTopbix cxo.aacTHKOB 
>.THBHTe;ibHaji TOHKOcTb .TonmecKoft cnexynRUHH, yTpaneHHaa b Hauie 
Bpesifl. 

KpoMe Toro: cayaiaio .ickuhh KypTa BaabTepa b A.O. o «J}» we- 
.TOBeKa, a iax>Ke npoc}). BeKKa (ineHa O-Ba) — TaM >Ke. M3 aHTpono- 
cocJ)OB-pyccKHX, npo>KHBaH3inHX b BepnHHe, nacTO BHX<ycb c T.A. Bep- 
reHrproH (cecTpoft E.A. Ba/ibMOHT), c TaHHOH, c nneMHHHHKOM Bep- 
renrpioH, c ceMeficTBOM rionoBbix (mv* My3MKaHT), c ceMeflcTBOM 
BaH-ziep-flaajibc; Bna<ycb h c npHexaBmefi H3 FleTporpaaa k noKTopy 
<J>opcMaH, 3HaKOMJiK)Cb c cecTpofi Wl.fi. CtiBepc — O.fl. CHBepc; H3 
neMeuKHX aHTponocott>OB 3HaKOMJiK3Cb c rpa(J)OM JlepxeHcfcejiba, c 

' 10 .TeMiHfl lUicflHepa na rc-My "Das Leben zwischen dem Tode und der neuen Ge- 
burt im Verhalinis zu den Kosmischen Tatsachen» 6bi.in npnmiTaHbi b Bep.nHHe 5, 20 
Hoaopfl, 3, 10, 22 aeKaops i 922 r . , 7, 14 sfHBaps, i I tjieBpa.ifl, 4 viapTa m 1 aiipe.in 1913 l . 
(ii.ci .). 

" be;ibifi HMeeT b BHay .neKUHM Ha leviy «Naturwissenschaft und Geistesforschung» 
m UMK.ia "Ergebnisse der Geistesforschung», npoHHTaHHbic b kohuc 1912 — Hanane 
1913 i. (n.cr.>. 



347 



3eftJiHHroM, c ap. rgiueM, c Baaaep (MCHBymeft b aoMe aoKTopa), c 
cecTpaMH JleMaH, c Mioaaep, c 6apoHOM h 6apoHeccofi raaaeH (uiBea- 
CKHe aHTponoco(J)bi) h c paaoM apyrnx jihu. 

K KOHuy Mecjma oTKpbiBaeTCH reHepaabHoe co6paHHe BHOBb ot- 
KpbiBiuerocH A.O., npoaoawaiomeecJi 6oaee HeaeaH 10 ; Ha 3to BpeMH 
CHHMaeTCH Architekten haus, rae 3aceaaHH« h jickuhh npoHcxoa»T c 

9 qacoB yTpa ao 3-4-x: Ha 3aceaaHH«x pa3peuiaeTc« p«a aea, a b npo- 
4He nacbi nponcxoaHT pna aoicaaaoB h peqbepaTOB ciexaBiuHxcn nae- 
hob O-Ba; cpeaw aoicaaaoB MHe 3anoMHHjiHCb: aoicaaa ApeHcoHa o 

10 3anoBezwx, aoicaaa fleraay (h3 EpecaaBaa) o 3aKcmax HbfOTOHa b 
aHTponoco(J)cKOM ocBemeHHH, aoicaaa a-pa riaflnepca, aoicaaa a-pa 
YHrepa. Flo BenepaM *e aeKUHH Kypca IIlTeflHepa: «,Mucmepuu Bo- 
cmoKa u 3anada»; a TaiOKe aeKUHH «0 cyiunocmu AHmponocofjiuu» h 
KaKaa-TO apyraa". 

B 3to BpeMH npoHCxoaHT nepenHCKa c Mockboh h FIeTep6yproM: 
aan mockobckhx aHTponocodpoB nniuy noapo6HbiH KOHcneKT aByx no- 
caeaHHx npocayuiaHHbix KypcoB WTefiHepa, nepepa6aTbiBaio 3aHOBO 
Haiajio «.nemep6ypea»; o6Hapya<HBaeTCH Bee ooabmee ottojikhobc- 
HHe ot MocKBbi (ot Mopo30BOft, PaHHHCKoro, MeTHepa, EyaraxoBa); 

H CB»3yK)Cb B nHCbMaX C <J)OpMHpyK>IUHMCH H3aaTe/lbCTBOM «CupuH». 

B HHBape ko MHe 3ae3*aeT b EepaHH H3aaTeab «,Cupuna» M.M. Te- 
peiueHKo (6yayuiHft mhhhctp BpeMeHHoro npaBHTeabCTBa) h Mbi yc- 
aoBaHBaeMCH o tom, hto Mor 6bi a aaTb ana H3aaTeabCTBa «Cw- 
puH». B HHBape *e b BepaHHe BCTpenaiocb c TOBapHiueM aeTCTBa 
M.B. TaHeeBbiM. 

0eepa/ib. 

3tot MecHU npoaoa>KaK> cayuiaTb aeKUHH IIlTeftHepa h BaabTe- 
pa; HaHHHaio nyBCTBOBaTb Bee 6oabiuee h 6oabiuee TaroTeHHe h ato- 
6oBb k M..H. CHBepc; ee ao6poe, BHHMaTeabHoe OTHOiueHHe k HaM 
npOHBaaeTca Bee 6oabiue h 6oabiue; npHe3»aeT b BepaHH K.n. XpH- 
CTO<J)opoBa, c KOTopofl npoHcxoaflT nacTbie bctpchh; HacTynaeT Bec- 
Ha; moh BHyTpeHHHe ynpaacHeHHH npHo6peTaK>T hobmh ottchok: h 
HcnbiTbiBaio HyBCTBo pacTymeft h pa3aHBaiomeHCH aio6BH k M.il. Ch- 
Bepc, k aoKTopy h k ueaoMy paay aHU b HameM O-Be; h He Mbicaio 
ce6e bo3MO>khocth oTopBaTbCH ot aoKTopa; nyBCTByio, hto He Mory 
ot Hero yexaTb xoth 6m noTOMy, hto H3MeHeHH« b Moefl BHyTpeHHeft 



10 FlepBoe reHepa/ibHoe co6paHwe (Generalversammlung) A.O. OTKpbijiocb 2-3 (freB- 
pa^H (h.ct.) 1913 r. 

" Ot 3 no 7 (j>eBpajiH (h.ct.) 1913 r. UlTefiHep mrraji 4 jickuhh H3 Kypca «Die Mys- 
terien des Morgenlandes und des Christentumsw, a TaKwe jickuhh «Von den Anfangen 
anthroposophischer Gesellschaftsentwicklung» h «Von den Lebensbedingungen einer 
anthroposophischen Gesellschaft». 



348 



5KH3HH H pa6oTa, HM aaHHafl MHC Tpe6yK)T nOCTOHHHMX yKa3aHHH 

ot aoKTopa; Meacay tcm: aeHer y mchh hct; Ha hto >KHTb b 6ynymeM 
— HeH3BecTHO, npHxoaHTCJi ayMaTb 06 OTi>e3ae. ft nepe>KHBaK) Myw- 
TenbHoe pa3aBoeHHe h cTpauiHyjo TpeBory, ito npHaeTca MHe yexaTb 
H3 EepjiHHa. BviecTe c tcm A. A. Ejiok cBaTaeT moK poMaH <nUemep- 
6ype» aa« aabMaHaxoB K Ba «Cm/7mh» h iraiueT MHe nHCbMa o tom, hto 
Mo>KeT 6biTb yaacTCH npoBecTH ero qepe3 peaaKiuiOHHbiH cobct (Te- 
pemeHKo, ero cecTpa, B/iok, Pcmh3ob, MBaHOB-Pa3yMHHK, ewe kto- 
to). ft cneuiHo aoKaHHHBaio nepepa6oTKy nepBbix 5-th rjiaB h OTCbi- 
aaio b rieTep6ypr; ecaH poMaH npHHHT, to h o6ecneieH: Mory ocTaTb- 
ch npn IIlTeflHepe h roa, h 6oabine; ecaH we He npHHHT, to — npnaeT- 
ch exaTb b Pocchk); ho y>Ke Mbi c Acefl peiuaeM: b MocKBy He B03Bpa- 
maTbCH hh b KoeM cnyiae, a exaTb k CocJ)hh Hhk. KaMnHOHH, b Bo- 
roafo6bi (noa JlyuK); h TaM nepewaaTb TpyaHbie BpeMeHa. 

B TaKOH HeonpeaeneHHocTH h TOMaiocb Becb tjjeapaab; MOKiiy 
TeM — o6Hapy>KHBaeTCH: b MapTe LUTeftHep 4HTaeT b Taare xypc: 
«BfiuHHue oKKyjibmHoao pa3eumuH na mena» n . Mbi pbcmch b Taary, 
3aKa3biBaeM ce6e 6HaeTbi Ha Kypc b Haaewae, hto «Cupun» npH[Me]T 
«rieTep6ypr», /.../ a «Cupun» mojimht. Mbi HaeM coBeTOBaTbca c 
n-poM IIlTeftHepoM, 4to HaM aeaaTb; oh KaK 6bi 6aarocnoBnaeT Hac 
exaTb b aepeBHK) b cayiae, ecnH aeaa He ycTpoHTCH. 

OanoBpeMeHHo Mbi neperiHCbiBaeMCH c CM. ConoBbeBbiM h c 
TaHefl, cecTpofi Ach, cTaBwefi >kchoh CM. CoaoBbeBa; ohh — b 
MTaaHH, b PHMe; BpamaioTCH b Kpyrax KaToaHiecKHx, bhujitch c 
KapaHHaaoM PaMnoaae, c B.M. HBaHOBbiM, yexaBWHM b MTaawio 113 
rieTep6ypra h weHHBweMca Ha cBoeft naanepHue (B.K. UlBapcaaoH). 

UlTeflHep aaeT MHe HOBbie MeaHTauHH. 

Maptn. 

Hanaao Mecaua npoTeKaeT Bee b toh a<e neonpeaeaeHHocTH: 
aeHbrH npHxoanT k KOHuy, a oTBeTa ot «CupuHa» — hct; b noaHOM 
oTnaHHHH Mbi yKaaabiBaeMC«, ho mto aeaaTb c orpoMHbiM cyHayKOM? 
TauiHTb ero b Boroaio6bi? TyT Mbi peiuaeMCH nocTaBHTb cyHayK Ha 
xpaneHHe b EepaHHe, Kax 3aaor Hawero cKoporo B03BpameHHH k 
IIlTeHHepy: h peuiaio — yMepeTb, h.ih HaflTH cpeacTBa aa« >kh3hh npH 
UlTeftHepe; b TaKOM coctohhhh Mbi yx<e 6epeM GnaeTbi b JlyuK h HaeM 
npomaTbCH c aoKTopoM; oh aacKOBo ycnoKaHBaeT Hac; h tobopht, 
WTo6bi Mbi CTpeMHancb MbicaeHHO BepHyTbCH; h Toraa Bee npenHT- 
ctbhh naayT; h mm — BepHeMca. LUTefiHep MHe Me>Kay npoMHM roBO- 

12 20-29 MapTa 1913 r. (h.ct.) UlTeflHep MHTa.T b Paare Kypc iaecaTb zieKUHfi) «Wel- 
che Bedeutung hat die okkulte Entwicklung des Menschen fur seme Hiillen — physischen 
l.eib, Atherleib, Asiralleib — und sein Selbst?" 



349 



Pht: «3a 3th Mecaubi Bbi Baiueft Me/jHTaTHBHOft pa6oToft h BauiHMH 

OKKy/lbTHblMH y3HaHHHMH 3ajl05KHJlH Ce6e npOIHblH (J)yHflaMeHT flJIfl 

6y/iymero pa3BHTH»; cmotphtc Ha onbxr sthx MecaueB Kan Ha BBeae- 
HHe k TOMy, HTo6bi CTaTb BHyTpn nymu. Koraa bu cHOBa ko mhc 
BepHeTecb, to Mbi npoHHo nopa6oTaeM c BaMH»... Mbi npomaeMC» c 
flOKTopoM, c aHTponococfraMH; h — bot: HaxaHyHe OTi>e3aa nojiynaeM 
TejierpaMMy ot «Cupuna»: «Pomoh — npuHnm» u . A 3to 3HanH.no 
nnn MeHH: eweMecHHHoe nojiyneHHe aBaHca b 300 py6jieft T.e. 11/2-2 ro- 
aa 6e36eziHoro cymecTBOBaHHJi. Mbi — jiHKyeM; ho — Bce-TaKH: pema- 
eM Ha BecHy h xieTo yexaTb b BorojiK>6bi, HTo6bi b Mae-HK)He 6biTb b 
ronbCHHrtfeopce Ha Kypce IIlTeHHepa, a b KOHue hk)jih BepHyTbca b 
MioHxeH Ha Kypc h mhctcphh, 4To6bi npowHo 3a>KHTb npH IllTeflHepe. 

C Taxoto MbicnbK) Mbi ye3»aeM b Eorojiio6bi. 

B Jlymce Hac BCTpenaeT pacnyTHua h MeTejib; no aopore ot Jlyu- 
Ka k Eoro/iK)6aM Hauia nponexKa yB$naeT b rp$i3H; B03HHua ompsraeT 
oziHy jioiiiajib h cKaweT b Eorojno6bi, HTo6bi B.K. KaMnnoHH c pa6oT- 
HHKaMH npHCJianH 3a HaMH noniaaeH; Mbi c Aceft ociaeMCH b no;ie, 
3aHOCHMbie cHeroM h npoHH3MBaeMbie JieflHHbiM bctpom; cnycicaeTCH 
Honb, a H3 BorojiK)6 Hac hhkto He BbipynaeT; acnaeTCH b hohh >KyTKo; 
HaKOHeu 3a HaMH npHe3>KaeT KaMnHOHH; Mbi nepeca>KHBaeMCH h Ta- 
khm o6pa30M eflBa-enBa nonaiiaeM b Borojno6bi y»e HOMbio; 3necb 
HaxoflHM C.H. KaMnHOHH, ee My>Ka, necHHHero TopnaHCKoft bohocth, 
ero noMoiuHHKa, neieU (Bapio, MHiuy), HHHiouiKy; h k HaiueMy Be- 
nHKOMy H3yM^eHHio HaxoflHM HaTamy riouuo c hhhkjujkoh h ManeHb- 
koh aoHKOH, MaineK; Hac ycTpaHBaiOT b Ma,ieHbKOM aomhkc otcto- 
HiueM ot aoMa jiecHH4ero Ha paccTOHHHH 300 uiaroB, rue Mbi h >khbcm 
Becb btot Mecau, noKa aocTpaHBaeTCH Sojibnjoft aom, npenHasHaneH- 
HbiR zijih ceMeflcTBa B.K. 

Ckopo npoe3HOM H3 MTa/iHH b MocKBy npHe3>KaK)T CM. Co- 
ziOBbeB h ero «eHa TaHH, HanoJiHaa Becb hom BeceJibeM h BnenaTjie- 
hhhmh ot UTajiHH. Homhhtch MHe HacTynjieHHe BecHbi h HaiiiH npo- 
ryjiKH c CM. CojiOBbeBbiM b 6oro/iio6cKHX pomax, ocTaTKH cHera, 
ay»H h noflCHe>KHHKH. Ckopo Co/JOBbeBbi ye3»caioT. B KOHue Mecaua 
H3 MocKBbi npne3>KaeT A.M. llouuo. Mbi c Acefl >khbcm b HauieM 
zioMHKe aoBOJibHO 3aMKHyTo: OTHoiueHHH c floimaMH (HaTaiuefl h 
A.M.) KaK-TO cTpaHHo HeaaaHTCJi; nyBCTByeTca KaKoe-To B3aHMHoe 
OTiya<fleHHe, KOToporo npoKae He 6bi/io, Konia HaTauia wnna c HaMH 
b MioHxeHe; Mbi c Aceft nojiaraeM, ito to, hto Hac oTnejiaeT, ecTb 



11 «PoMaH A.Be/ioro OKOHHaTe;ibHO btht, Te^erpa(J)npyio eM>». — «ZlHeBHHK 
A. A. Bjio*;a», 3anncb ot 25 (JJeBpaJiH 1913 r. (ct.ct). Cm. Taioxe OTBeTHoe nncbMO Be- 
zioro B^OKy ot 25 (J>eBpa.TH/10 MapTa 1913 r. (IlEPEnHCKA, c.322). Benbifl yexavi B 
JlyUK 1! MapTa 1913 r. (h.ct.). 



350 



>kh3hi> ripn llJTeftHepe, mhp MeaHTauHfi h HOBbix flyxoBHbix y3HaHHfl: 
o hhx — He paccxa>Keuib; h ohh-to, kzk bhuhm Mbi, o6pa3yK>T BKpyr 
Hac tohho xpyr, OTaeaHfomHfi Hac ot Bcex. 

3tot Mecjiu 3anoMHHjicH MHe b ohhom othoiuchmh: Ach o6t>hbh- 
aa mhc mto b aHTponoco<J)HH OHa OKOHnaTenbHO oco3Hajia cboh nyTb, 
Kax acKeTH3M, mto eft TpyaHO 6biTb MHe >KeHOft, mto Mbi OTHbiHe 6y- 
neM jiHiub 6paTOM h cecTpofl. C rpycTbio a noaMHHHjocb peiueHHio 
Ach. 

Becb MecHU ycnaeHHo paSoTaio Han mecTOft raaBofi «riemep6yp- 
ea»\ nnuiy ee 3aHOBo; HawHHaercfl y mchh nepenHcxa c P.B. MBa- 
HOBbiM o «.riemep6ypee». noayMaio nHCbMa h ot BaoKa h ot 3aaH- 
ca: oi nocaeanero npHxoanT mhoto rmceM; b hhx — hbho yxce 3B\- 
mht Hoxa OTxo>KaeHHR ot A.O.; MaeHbi ero eMy bhuhtch Kapnica- 

TVpHO; 3BVH3T HOTb! HCHOVMeHHH no OTHOUJeHHK) K IllTettHepy; 3TH 

nucbMa 3aawca MHe oneHb MyMHTeabHbi; oco6eHHo MyMHTeabHO 
MHe, mto h rioo.'ibMaH-Moft pa3aejiHeT neaoyMeHHH 3aaHea: 3aaHC, 
rioojibMan-Moft, h h Ach, mhc Ka3aaHCb TecHOft, hhthmhoh aHTpo- 
noco(J)CKOH rpynnoR. Tenepb BHwy: 3Ta rpynna obpeneHa pacnac- 

TbCH. 

Anpe/ib. 

BejBbie3.iH0 cH>Ky b Boroaio6ax; renepb Mbi - \ceft nepeexaan 
b 6ojibiuoH aoM; flouuo c HaTaiuefl nepeexaan ro*;e: Mbi >khbcm He- 
noaaaeKV apyr ot apyra, ho, hpmhhtch, mw oneHb Maao BMecTe: Ha- 
raiua OHeHb yeaHHaeTca ot Hac; Mbi c Aceft aepjKMMca BaaoeM; hho- 
raa 6biBaeM b JlyuKe: TaM 6biBaeM y noaoweHueBbix; h 3ai<aHMHBaio 
6-K) raasy «.riemep6ypeu»: nocae OMeHb Hanpa>KeHHoft h npoHHKHy- 
toh y3HaHbSMH 3HMbi KaKoe-TO nepBHoe yTOMJieHHe. no.nvHaK) nncb- 
Mo ot H.A. BepaaeBa: 3tot no^ieaHHfi npocHT Mens, mto6m h HanH- 
caa LLlTeftHepy Bonpoc, M0*ei an oh npocayiuaTb xypc aeKUHft ero 
b r"eabCHHt(J)opce. He 6yayMH naewoM A.O.; h nHiuy b BepaHH 06 jtom 
M fl. CHBepc; h noavMaio ot Hee pa3peuieHHe ot aoKTopa BepaneBy 
caymaTb aexuHH b FeabCHHrqooDce; nHiuy cooTBeTCTBeHHoe miCbMO 
BepaaeBy; c 'JaaHCOM T0>xe HHTeHCHBHaH nepenHCKa; o"' 3aanca no- 
aywato rmcbMO 3a nwcbMOM, b kotopom oh noaBepraeT O-bo v6hh- 
CTBeHHoft KpHTHKe; yjHaio H3 Mbero-To nHCbMa, mto Bau b MiOHxeHe 
He 6yaeT CTpoHTbca. ho 6yaeT CTpoHTbca b UlBefluapHH Ha 3eMae, 
no>KepTBOBaHHOH O-bv aoKTopoM TpocxaHHueM. Bnepsbie v3Haio o 
tom, mto aoKTop co Cmhtc pa3pa6aTbiBaeT npHHiwnbi nepeaaBaTb 
aBHweHHe b caose. 

HepBbi moh — b y6nftcTBeHHOM coctohhhh; y mchh nponcxoflHT 
oMeHb cTpaHHoe o6i.«CHeHHe c Ilomio; H3 3Toro o6i.HCHeHHH MHe cTa- 
hobhtch HCHbiM, HacKoabKO h nepeyTOMaeH. 



351 



Mau. 

FlepByio nonoBHHy Mecaua mm npoBOflHM b Eorojuo6ax; a Ha- 
6pacbiBaio BHepHe nepByio nonoBHHy 7-ofl rjiaBbi «I7emep6ypea»; 
noMHHTCJi nbiuiHaH xipHpoaa EorojiK>6; MeaHTauHH moh HayT hhtch- 
CHBHett h HHTeHCHBHeft (HOBbie, 06 aHrejiax, apxaHrenax h Hana- 
jiax); Mbi c Acefi roTOBHMca k noe3flKe b rejibCHHr<j)opc; HaTauia 
h riouuo ye3JKaK)T b MocKBy, hto6w H3 MocKBbi ym$ exaTb b <J>hh- 

JIHHflHK). 

Mbi c Acefl TporaeMca b neTep6ypr 14 ; ocTaHaBjiHBaeMCH Ha riyiu- 
khhckoh b rocTHHHue Ka>KeTC« fJa/13-PoM/ib, me HeKoraa >khji riep- 
uob; a nay b «CupuH», rae BCTpeMaiocb c Pa3yMHHKOM BacH/ibeBH- 
weM MBaHOBbiM, KOTopwA paccKa3biBaeT MHe o caoeft no/ieMHKe c 
MepoKKOBCKHMH; Mbi c AceH aenaeM bh3ht Mcpokkobckhm, nonyna- 
eM npHrnameHHe o6eaaTb y hhx; j Mepe>KKOBCKHx BCTpeqaeMCH c 
H.A. BepaneBbiM, npnexaBiuHM H3 Mockbh b rieTep6ypr, HTo6bi 
exaTb b rejibCHHrc})opc Ha Kypc IIlTeftHepa; y mchh npoHcxoaHT cnop 

C MepOKKOBCKHM H o6lHCHeHHe C 0HJIOCO(i)OBbIM 06 aHTponocotJ)HH. 
BHJKycb c Ejiokom. FIpHe3>KaK)T H3 MocKBbi riouuo H B TOT >Ke fleHb 
enyr b TeJibCHHrttiopc c napoxoaoM. 

OTfipaB.THeMCH b re/ibCHHr(J)opc; 0Ka3biBae.Mca b oanoM noeiae c 
BepflHeBtiM h c B.B. BopoaaeBCKHM; 0Ka3biBaeTca: BopoaaeBCKHft 
cTaji hjichom A.O.; h To*;e eaeT Ha Kypc UlTeftHepa; b renbCHHnfcopce 
Mbi BCTpenaeMCs c pnnoM pyccKHx H3 Mockbu h neTep6ypra, npnexa- 
buihm Ha Kypc: H3 FIeTep6ypra npHexajiM Meway npoiHM: O..H. Ch- 
aepc, OopcMaH, JleMaH, E.M. BaewjibeBa (Hepy6nHa ae ra6pHaK), 
H.H. BenouBeTOB, BpiomiOBa, K.H. BacHjibeBa, n.H. BacHJibeB, 
B.H. BacHjibeB, cecTpa BaH-aep-Ilaanbca c My*eM h paa apyrHx; H3 
MocKBbi npHexanH: A.C. IleTpoBCKHH, M.M. Ch30b, HaTaiua riouuo, 
A.M. riouuo, TpHropoBbi, XpHCTO(J)opoBa, MauiKOBueB, B.<t>. Axpa- 

MOBHH, UleHpOK H Zip. 

Ha apyrofi aeHb no npaeiat pyccKHe npHexaBuine BCTpeqawT 
a-pa IIlTeftHepa h M.M. CHBepc Ha B0K3a.rce h noaHocuT km uBeTbi; 
« coo6maK> aoKTopy o tom, mto jictom npHe3>Kaio b MioHxeH: «Bot 

BHflHTO) — rOBOpHT OH MHe — «C npHe3flOM-TO H yCTpOHJIOCb.. .» 

BoabuiHHCTBO pyccKHx ocTaHOBHJiHCb b OTeae <PeHHua, rae ocraHo- 

BHJICH H ZIOKTOp c M..H. 

Co caeayioiuero ahh HaiHHaeTCH Kypc jickuhh (10 neKUHfl): «Ok- 
Ky/ibiriHbie ocHoebi Exaeaeam-rumbi» 15 ; no BenepaM a npoHHTbiBaio 



14 Sejibifl c A. A. TypreHeBoft npHexan b rieTep6ypr 1 1/24 Man (cm. «HHeBHHK Bjio- 
Ka», 3anncb or 11 Man, h nEPEIlHCKA, c.327-328). 

15 UlTeflHep HHTaJi Kypc JieKUHfi (aeB»Tb, He aecjiTb) «Die okkulten Grundlagen der 
Bhagavad Gita» b reJibCHHn)>opce 28-31 Man h 1-5 hk>hh (h.ct.). 



352 



cboh KOHcneKT aeicuHH rpynne mockbhhch; BepaaeB othochtch aBoft- 
ctbchho k cjibiuiHMOMy; EopoaaeBCKHft ace noTpaceH KypcoM. Kpoine 
Kypca a-p npoHHTbiBaeT cneunaabHO pyccKHM aeKUHK) aaa pyccKHx 
b HOMepe «0enHua» (b TpHropoBCKOM); npoHCxoaHT nepBaa BCTpeia 
A.M. ITIouuo c aoKTopoM: A.M. 3anHCbiBaeTca TyT we b naeHbi 06me- 
CTBa. Mbi c Aceft noaynaeM cBHaaHHe (aaHieabHoe) y aoKTopa; a caaio 
eMy OTMeT b cbohx MeaHTaiwax h noaynaio ot Hero yfca3aHHa c ao- 

riOaHHTeabHblMH MeaHTailHHMH; 3anOMHHJlCH MHe qaft y TpHropoBbix 

c aHTponoco4)aMH hcmcukhmh (CHBepc, lllTHHae, rp. KaabKpefiT h 
ap.). CpeziH npnexaBiiiHx c aoKTopoM b reabCHHnfcopc 3anoMHH.incb: 
rp. KaabKpefiT, UIthhac (J)OH-MHpcKaH, a-p rein, 6apoH raaaeH c 

JKeHOfi, Paft(}), KOTOpafl, y3HaBUlH, WTO H 3HaKOM C MepOKKOBCKHMH, 

npocHT MeHa nepeaaTb rwnriHyc npHBeT (ohh Koraa-To BCTpewaaHCb 
b Chuhjihh). BonbiiiHM co6birHeM aaa MeHS 6buio npuHHTHe Hac c~ 
Aceft b E.S. («Esoterische Stunde» — co6paHH« aaa yneHHKOB, npH- 
MeHHtouiHX MeToabi k ce6e ayxoBHoft HayKH; 3aecb Bee yKaiaHna a-pa 
cneuHaabHbi, TexHHHHbi; b «£.5. » aonymeHbi 6biaH He Bee uae- 
Hbi A\0.). 

IIomhhtch aeHb oT^ejaa a-pa; Mbi npoBOwaaH ero Ha BOK3aae; 
a, Acs, HaTaina h riouuo KyniuiH W.H. 6eabix KoaoKoabHHKOB b ao- 
pory eft; oHa npHHaaa 04eHb aacKOBO UBeTbi. 

BepHyaHCb c Aceft b OeTepoypr, rae npo>KHaH necKoabKO aHefi: 
6biaw y Mepe^KOBCKnx, y A.H. 4e6oTapeBCKoft, rae BCTpem'iHCb c 
H.A. BepaseBbiM; o6eaaaH y A. A. BaoKa (Jl.Zl. 6biaa b 0Tbe3ae), bh- 
aeaca, ecan naMaTb He H3MeHaeT, c A. A. Ky6aiiUKofi-nHorryx; ooe- 
aaan c Aceft y TaTbi I~HnnHyc c KapTameBbiM; BHaeaca c P.B. MHa- 

HOBblM. 

riocae Mbi noexaan c Aceft k MaMe, b HeMbHHOBO (noa K/ihhom), 
rae a npHHaaca OTpa6aTbiBaTb cboh KOHcneKT Kypca. 

HfOHb. 

Hanaao HioHa npoBeaH b ZleMbaHOBe, aep>Kaancb oweHb yeaHHeii- 
ho; b napKe BCTpewaancb c TaHeeBbiMH, c K.A. THMHpa3eBbiM; Ma.via 
He ya<Haacb c Aceft; h cKopo Mbi co6paancb h noexaan b ZleaoBO, k 
CoaoBbeBbiM, WTo6bi OTTyaa Hepe3 MocKBy sepnyTbCH b Boroatoobi; 
y MeHa b HeaoBe Bbiuiao cepbe3Hoe croaKHOBeHHe c CM. CoaoBbe- 
BbiM Ha HaeoaorHMecKoft noiBe; 11 Mbi, KpyriHo noroBopHB, paccTa- 
ancb; TaK Mbi coBepuieHHO pa36HTbie nocae reabCHHrcfropca (ccopoio 
c MaMOft h ccopoio c CM. CoaoBbeBbiM) noexaaH Ha HecKoabKO 
aHuib nacoB b Mockb> (c noe3aa Ha noe3a), noBHaaBiuwcb c A.C. rier- 

POBCKHM H M.M. CH30BbIM. 

K cepeaHHe hiohh mm BepHyaHCb b Boroaio6bi (Harama h ITouuo 
ocTaaHCb b MocKBe); b Boroaio6ax we mm BcrpeTHancb c Jl.H. Hep- 



\i MHiiyimii-E 



353 



hoboH (xceHoft 6paTa B.M. HepHOBa), npuexaBiuefl rocTHTb b Boro- 
j«o6bi. Becb 3tot ocTaTOK Meoiua cepbe3HO pa6oTaK> Han 7-oft rna- 
Boft «IJemep6ypea». 

HlO/lb. 

3tot MecHU h xjionony o nojiyneHHH 3arpaHHiHoro nacnopTa; 
b Borojuo6ax cTaHOBHTca acapKO h ayiuHo; C.H. KaMnHOHH eaeT b 
MocKBy; 6orojuo6oBCKoe o-bo cocTaBjiaeM: a, JI.H. HepHOBa, Aca, 
B.K. KaMnHOHH h ero noMomHHK; a ycnjieHHO HHTepecyiocb npo6jie- 
Moft hctophh b CBa3H c flyxoBHofl HayKoft; cocTaBJiaio Ta6jiHUbi, rpa- 
(JiHHecKHe cxeMbi, nnarpaMMbi; OT\ae.nbiBaio 7-yio rnaBy «IJemep6yp- 
ea» h OTnpaBJiaio 6-kd h 7-yio rnaBbi «CupuHy». B kohuc Mecaqa Mbi 
OTnpaBJiaeMca b Mkjhxch. 

Aeeycm. 

Mbi b MioHxene. npHe3>KaeM flHefi 3a aecaTb ao Kypca h npea- 
CTaBneHHft mhctcphh; 6biBaeM y HjibHHOft, ExaTepKHbi AaeKcaHapoB- 
Hbi, y KncejieBbix; 3HaKOMHMca c ccmchctbom ^y6ax, c KeMnepOM, 
c KnceneBbiMH (xyaoacHHKOM h ero hcchoh); H3 Mockbh npHe3»aK)T: 
M.M. Ch30b, M.B. BoaouiHHa, H.H. Ecjioubctob, K).CHaopoB (no3- 
flHee npo<J)eccop), rpnropoBbi, XpHCTocfropoBa; H3 IieTep6ypra — 
E.H. BacHJibeBa, npHe3>KaeT T.T. Tpane3HHKOB, KOTopbift TonbKO ito 
weHHJica, c C.n. PeMH30Bofi (jkchoh nHcaTeaa); npne3>KaeT >KeHa Eo- 
poaaeBCKoro, cecTpa BaH-aep-FIaajibca c MyaceM. Y3HaeM noapo6HO- 
cth o noaroTOBaeHHH 3axjiaaKH «Bau» b .UppHaxe, 06 3bphtmhh h 
06 ocHOBaHHH A.O. b MocKBe b oKTa6pe npeacToamero roaa (ot TpH- 
ropoBbix); y3HaeM nenanbHyK) HOBOCTb: 3jijihc Bbiiuea H3 A.O. 

C cepeflHHbi aBrycTa HaiHHaeTca Kypc IIlTeftHepa «0 Mucmepunx» 
(8 jieKimft); npoHexoaHT nocTaHOBKa Bcex 4-x mhctcphh IIlTettHepa 
Ha cuene 16 ; cpeaH CT»exaBiiiHxca aHTponoco(j)OB — IIIiops. Bo BpeMa 
Kypca b MioHxeH npne3»caeT M.C. IIIarHHaH, oneHb apyacamaa c MeT- 
HepoM; h nepe3 Hee Hana*HBaeTca CMarneHHe othoiuchhh Me*ay 
mhoh h MeTHepoM; c MeTHepoM mm o6MeHHBaeMca nncbMaMH; MeT- 
Hep 30BeT MeHa b JXpeinen nocne Kypca, rae oh whbct. 

06HapyxcHBaeTca, hto b oKTa6pe IIlTefiHep HHTaeT Kypc jickuhh 
b XpHCTHaHHH «nxmoe Eeanee/iue»; Mbi c Acefl peuiaeM OTnpaBHTb- 
ca Ha Kypc, a y* nonyTHo: npoBecTH oceHb rae-HH6yab Ha hopbok- 

CKOM (J)bOPfle. 



16 24-31 aBrycTa 1913 r. (h.ct.) UlTeftnep HHTan socevib jieKUHft Kypca «Die Geheim- 
nisse der Schwelle». 20, 22 h 23 aBrycTa b MiOHxeHe 6bi/iH nocTaBJieHM nocjieaHHe 
nBe H3 qeTwpex «Mysteriendramen» UlTeflHepa. 



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Mbi ycHJieHHO nocnyiuaeM Bee aHTponoco(J)CKHe jickuhh h npea- 
CTaBjieHHH 3BpHTMHHecKHe 17 ; BMecTe c tcm: PHXTep Hac noacTpeuaeT 
npHexaTb b /JopHax Ha pa6oTbi no noerpoflKe «Bau»; y*e HaMeiaeT- 
c«, hto Mbi k BecHe nepeeaeM b flopHax. 

CeHrrm6pb. 

FlepBbie HHCJia ceHT«6pa ana MeHa naMHTHbi asa hjih TpH co6pa- 
hhh E.S., Ha kotopwx mw npncyTCTByeM; aHTponococJ)bi pa3ie3- 
acaioTca H3 MioHxeHa; aoKTop eaeT b JXopmx; mm eaeM b £pe3aeH, 
rae BCTpenaeMCJi c 3.K. MeTHepoM h ero xopoiueft 3Haxo\fOH Jlioa- 
BHr; c hhmh npoBaaHM HecKOJibKO flHeft, ocMaTpHBaeM flpesaeH, npH- 
cyTCTByeM Ha npeacTaBJieHHH «Tpucmana u ff30/ibdbi», apywecra 
npomaeMCH c MeTHepoM h oTnpaBjiaeMca nepe3 BepjiHH b XpHCTHa- 

HHK); HaXOflHM OKOaO XpHCTHaHHH (Ha (frbopae) B JIbHHe BHHJiy h ycH- 

neHHo oTaaeMCH MeaHTaimaM; 3a stot Mecau aejiaio 3HaHHTejibHbie 
ycnexH h kocmhicckhc y3HaHHa (o c<J>epe cTapofl jiyHM, cojiHua, Ca- 
TypHa) oceH«K)T MeHa; Aca Toace uenbiMH ahhmh 3aH«Ta ynpaKHeHHa- 
mh h onoxo ce6a nyBCTByeT; nonyTHO a nepeBoacy otpwbok H3 nep- 
BOfl MHCTepHH a-pa ElTeHHepa. Mbi 6biBaeM HHoraa b XpHCTHaHHH- 

CKOH SIOTKC HJIH MJieHOB, 3HaKOMHMCH KOe C KeM H3 HOpBOKUeB h Me*ay 

npoMHM c (frpay rejibMronaeH, npeaceaaTejibHHuefi XpHCTHaHHCKHfl- 
ckoh jiojkh; npH6jiH3KaeTC« BpeMa Kypca; b HameM naHCHOHe ocTa- 
HaBJiHBaeTca npHexaBiuaa (frpay <J)OH-HHpcKaa h paccica3biBaeT HaM o 
3amiaflKe «Bau» b IIlBeHuapHH 1 '; k KOHuy Mecaua npHe3«aeT b XpH- 

CTHaHHlO flOKTOp. 

nOCneflHHe flHH MeCHUa 3aHHTbI XpHCTHaHHHCKHM KypcoM UlTeft- 

Hepa: «naToe EBaHre/iHe»". BneiaTjieHHe 3Toro Kypca ao roro or- 
POmho, ito Mbi TepaeM rojioBy; h — peuiaeM: Bca Haiua x<H3Hb othm- 
He aojiacHa npHHaaaeacaTb 06mecTBy, o neM mu c Acefl nniiieM a-py 
IUTeftHepy nwcbMO, ho He peiuaeMca ero nepeaaTb b pyKH aoKTopy. 

OKrwi6pb. 

3aKaHHHBaeTca xypc IllTeftHepa; H3 pyccKHx Ha Kypce KpoMe Hac 
jiHuib XpHCTO<J>opoBa aa <E>opcMaH; 3HaicoMHMca 3a 3to BpeMa c Cea- 
aeuKOft, npeaceaaTeabHHueH noabCKofl {frpaKium A.O.; o6eaaeM c 



17 28 aBrycTa (h.ct.), b neHb powneHHJi TeTe, 6bijio nepBoe npeacTaBneHHe Toro, 
ito IllTeflHep b neKUHH Ha3Ban «sichtbare Sprache», wsichtbaren Gesang»: eepumMun 
(Eurythmie). Cm. ero jiexumo, BnepBbie npcimraHHyio 28 aBrycTa, «Eurythmie als 
Impuls for KUnstlerisches Betatigen und Betrachten». 

" 20 ceHTn6pji (h.ct.) 1913 r., b 61/2 nacoB Beiepa, IllTeflHep b conpoBoacaeHHH 
6jih3khx zipysef) 3ano)KHji xpaeyrojibHMfi xaMeni. oyaymero TrreaHyMa b AopHaxe. 

" 1, 2, 3, 5 H 6 OKTJl6pH (H.CT.) IllTeflHep HHTajl B XpHCTHaHHH (Ocjio) naTb neK- 
UHH H3 xypca «Aus der AJcasha-Forschung. Das ftlnfte Evangelium». 



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a-poM TeuieM h c MoaoabiM Mhtmcpom. Mbi coBepmeHHo noTpaceHbi 
KypcoM: nocjie nocaeaHefl aeicimH Kypca k HaM noaxoaHT a-p IJlTefl- 
Hep h cnpaiuHBaer Hac: «Hy hto? Mo«eTe bu npHHaTb b aymy 3tot 
Kypc?» Otbct Ha 3tot Bonpoc y Mena b KapMaHe: riHCbMO, b kotopom 
Mbi OTflaeM IIlTeflnepy Hamy >KH3Hb; bmccto OTBeTa a oTaaio a-py sto 
nncbMO. Jl-p aacKOBO >KMeT pyKH MHe h Ace. 

Ilocne Kypca Mbi npncyTCTByeM Ha E.S. (aBa co6paHHa) h Ha 
ny6aHiHbix aeKUHKx b XpHCTHaHHH. 

Aaaee: Mbi eaeM 3a a-poM b BepreH, b oaHOM noe3ae; bo BpeMa 
nyTH, Koraa noe3a nepeceKaeT aeaHHKH, k HaM c Aceft b BaroH BxoaHT 
M..H. CnBepc h Me>Kay HaMH npoHcxoaHT pa3roBop, KOTopbift peuiaer 
Hamy cyab6y; Mbi c aoKTopoM noeaeM b ZlopHax. C 3Toro MOMeHTa 
ao BecHbi a nepe>KHBaio HeHMOBepHbift B3neT; co6biTHa e>KeaHeBHbie 
npHo6peTaK>T aaa MeHa KaKOfi-TO npoo6pa30BaTeabHbiH cMbica. B Ta- 
kom 03apeHHH npoxoaaT aHH b BepreHe (aeKUHii, ny6aH«iHaa aeKuna, 
E.S.) 20 ; H3 BepreHa 4epe3 XpncTHaHHK) Mbi nonaaaeM c aoKTopoM b 
KoneHrareH 21 , rae npoBoaHM HecKoabKO aHeft (onaTb aeKUHH, ny6aHH- 
Hbie aeKUHH, E.S., Ha kotopwx Tenepb npncyTCTByeT K.n. XpHcro- 
(JjopoBa); Ha oaHOfl H3 aeKUHfl ko MHe noaxoaHT M.R. CHBepc, oieHb 
aacKOBo oepeT MeHa 3a pyxy h tobopht: «ZIoktop iHTaa Bauie rwcb- 
mo; oho o4eHb Ba*Ho; cToab Ba^KHo, 4to caoBaMH Ha Hero aoKTop 
BaM He OTBeTHT: 6eperHTe cBoe 3aopoBbe; b 6yaymeM Bbi MO>KeTe 
MHoro nopa6oTaTb aaa aHTponoco(J)HH». M.fl. aacKOBo raaaHT MHe b 
raa3a. C toh nopw a nyBCTByio coBceM HOBoe OTHomeHHe k aoKTopy 
h k M..H.: HyBCTByio hchto Bpoae cbiHOBaeHHa; nyBCTByio, ito a He 
ToabKO yqeHHK aoKTopa, ho ito a h cwh ero; M..H. c toh nopbi CTaHO- 
bhtch b MoeM BHyTpeHHeM MHpe HeM-TO Bpoae MaTepH: oHa aBaaeTca 
MHe b CHax; b 6oapcTBeHHOM coctohhhh a nacTo cabimy ee b cepaue 
CBoeM; OHa KaK 6bi bo MHe >KHBeT; h HacTaBaaeT MeHa. 

B raKOM B036y>KaeHHOM coctohhhh a eay c Acefl b BepaHH (b oa- 
hom noe3ae c aoKTopoM); 3a o6eaoM, b BaroHe-pecropaHe mu cnaHM 
paaoM c aoKTopoM; M..H. roBopHT co mhoh 06 3naHce, o ero OTna- 
aeHHH, riooabMaH-MoK, KOTopaa no mhchhkj M.R. npe6biBaex b 
ayxe ropabiHH. 

3a HopBe>KCKyio noe3aKy Mbi o^eHb cxoaHMca c K.n. XpucTodpo- 
poBOH, KOTopaa 30BeT Hac >KHTb BMecTe, b naHCHOHe Begg-Klau Ha 
Augsbuigerstrasse, Kyaa Mbi h nepee3a<aeM c BOK3aaa h rae BoaBO- 
paeMca. 



;o 9 okthSph (h.ct.i LUTeflHep iHTaji b BepreHe nyS.iHHHyto ;ieKUHK> «Die Ratse! 
des Lebe,ns», a 10 h II MHTa^, a/m 4.neHOB A.O., aBe neiciiMH «Schilderungen aus der 
geistigen Welt». 

:i 14-15 okth6ph (h.ct.) UlTeiiHep mnan a KoneHrareHe Ha TeMy «Der Christus- 
Impuls im Zeitenwesen und sein Walten im Menschen». 



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fl xoacy no BepjiHHy 03apeHHbiM, He 6yaynH b coctojihhh npHTTH 
b ce6a; HacTynaeT aeHb Moero powaeHHa 27 OKT»6pa: MHe HcnoaHH- 
ctch 33 roaa 22 ; a wyBCTByjo: BcnpacT Moft — OTBeTCTBeHHbiH. B sth 
xihh MHe oneHb MHoro OTKpbiBaeTca bo BHyTpeHHOM nyTH; a ynycb 
rapMOHH3HpoBaTb cboh coctohhhh co3HaHH«; Bapyr: npHe3)KajowaH 

H3 MoCKBbI B riapH>K O.H. AHHeHKOBa C E.A. Ea/IbMOHT npHHOCHT 

H3BecTH5i, mo b MocKBe, b «Mycaeeme» BbixoaHT nacKBHjib Ha 
a-pa, HanHcaHHbiH 3jijihcom. Mbi 6okhm k M..H. CHBepc h cnpaiuHBa- 
eM coBeTa: hto aeaaTb? M..H. no>KHMaeT iuienaMH h tobopht: «Oc- 
TaBbTe». Ho Mbi pemaeM exaTb k 3aancy h nooabMaH-Moft b IIlTyT- 
rapT, HTo6bi HMeTb 06-bacHeHHfl c 3aaHcoM h noTpe6oBaTb y Hero 
o6paTHo uHK^bi aoicropa h TeTpaaKH ero c 3aMeTKaMH a-pa Ha noaax. 
EaeM b UlTyTrapT, oTnpaBaaeMca b Zlerepaox; 3aawc npaneTca ot 
Hac; Mbi HMeer o6i>acHeHHe c nooabMaH-Moft, 3a6HpaeM iiomth Ha- 
CHjibHo TeTpaaKH y 3aaHca; a nepeaaio nooabMan: «EcaH 3aanc ko 
MHe He BbiftaeT chk> MHHyTy, wto6 o6i>acHHTbca, to nycTb 3HaeT: a 
C HHM Ha BOO >KH3Hb pa3pbiBajo bcc..» Oh — He Bbiuicn: C 3TOrO flHH fl 
Bee OTHOineHHR c'3aaHC0M npeKpaTHa. B coBepiueHHOM paccTpoftcTBe 
mm B03BpamaeMc« b EepaHH; OTKyaa a nHiuy b K bo «Mycaeem» o 
cBoeM Bbixoae H3 H3aaTeabCTBa h o npeKpameHHH Bcex OTHouieHHH c 
MeTHepoM 2 '. 

Hox6pb. 

B nepBbix MHcaax Hoa6pa b EepaHH npHe3>KaeT HaTauia h 
A.M. riouuo; ohh ycTpanBaioTca Henoaaaeicy ot Hac, OKoao Motz- 
strasse 24 ; Mbi >Ke b nepBbix HHcaax Hoa6pa eaeM c Aceft b HiopeH- 
ocpr Ha aeKUHH a-pa, 6biBiiiHe b ao*;e, a Taioxe ny6aHHHbie 25 ; 6biaw h 
aa E.S.; b HiopeHGepre BCTpeTHawcb c Tpane3HHK0BbiMH, c rparJ>OM 
JlepxeHtfceaba, c kotopmmh ycTaHOBHancb onenb xopoujHe OTHoiue- 
hmh, h c paaoM apynix naeHOB; rpa<}> JlepxeH<j)eaba o6Hapy>KHBaeT 
ce6a noKaoHHHKOM c{)Haoco(t)Hn BaaaHMHpa CoaoBbeBa; oh MeHTaeT o 
nepeBoaax CoaoBbeBa Ha HeMeiiKHH H3biK h paccnpaiuHBaeT MeHa o 



;; Be.ibifl pojiH.ncH 14 okt«6p» 1880 r., r.e. 26 okth6p» no hobomv cthjtio, b Mo- 
ck Be . 

:1 OcHOBamiev a.m ubixoaa Beaoro hi H3aareabCTaa dBH.nocb neiaTaHHe TpaKTaTa 
J-iaHca V1GILEMUS! C\\., «MycareT», !914). Beabiii HacTaHBaa Ha Kymopax b TeKCTe 
rpaKTaTa, ho ero Tpe6oBaHHs b noaaBaHK>uieM 6oabUiHHcrBe cayMaeB He 6bi.in npHHd- 
ih. Beabifl H3Becina H.TI. KwceaeBa. ceKpeTapn fnaaaeabCTBa, o CBoeM pemeHHH riHCb- 
mom hi HiopH6epra ot 9 Hon6pn (h.ct.) 1913 r. Cm.: «.THTepaTypHOe HacaeacTBO», 
r.92, kh.3. c. 440-441. 

; * BepaiiHCKax KBapTHpa UjTefiHepa Ha Motzstrasse, 17 6biaa b ito BpeMH npaKTH- 
lecKii ueHTpoM A.O. 

:! LLlTefiHep npoBea 8-11 Honopa (h.ct.) b HHDpH6epre. Ha3BaHHe npoiHTaHHbix hm 
raM aeKuiii! ne yxa'jaHO b perHCTpe ero ^ckuhohhoh aeHTeabHOCTH. 



357 



E.H. Tpy6euKOM, Kan QbHaocoqbe; oica3biBaeTCH c Tpy6emcHM oh BCTpe- 
naaca b npe)KHHe roaw; JlepxeH<})eaba b 3th anu npe6biBaHHH b Hk> 
peH6epre aoBoabHO nacTO 6biBaeT y Hac; Mbi BCTpenaeMca en trois: 
a, Tpane3HHKOB, JIepxeH(j)eaba. 

no B03BpaiueHHK) H3 HiopeH6epra n npoaoaacaio ycwaeHHo ay- 
xoBHyio pa6oTy; ho o6Hapy>KHBaeTc« paa TpyaHocTen; MHe npHxo- 

aHTCH CHJIbHO 6opOTbCfl C HyBCTBeHHOH npHpOflOfi; aCKeTH3M MeHH 

aaBHT; h 3Ta 6opb6a HaKaaawBaeT aoBoabHO MpanHbifi OTnenaTOK h 
Ha cocTOHHHe Moero co3HaHHa; oaHaico, c XpwcTHaHHH h npoaoa>xaK> 
>KHTb HCKJiJOHHTenbHo oaHHM: HaaBHraeTca Il-oe npmuecTBHe Xpnc- 
Ta; ko BTopoviy npHUjecTBHjo Haao ce6a roTOBHTb; mm BCTynaeM b no- 
aocy rHraHTCKHX kph3hcob; EBpona HeceTca b nponacTb; Bee, hto He 
6yaeT 03apeH0 XpHCTOBbiM BeaeHHeM 6yaeT pa3pyiueHo; jiK>nu h He 
nofl03peBaK)T, KaKoe BapBapcTBo, oaHnaHHe Hac waeT. 3th MbicaH — 
jieftT-MOTHB KoneHrareHCKofi aeKUHH IllTeHHepa; ho 3th we HOTbi h 
moh ^efiT-MOTHB; c XpHCTHaHHH 3a3Bynaaa aaa MeHfl HOTa XpucTOBa 
ripHuiecTBHa; Xpucmoe Mrnnynbc cma;i eedoM\ b EepreHe y Mens 
6bian yaHBHxenbHbie, Heo6i>acHHMbie nepe>KHBaHHa, CB«3aHHbie c 
BCTpeneH co Xphctom; MHe o6T>acHHaHCb Tenepb anepBbie othctjiubo 
h moh lOHomecKHe, anoKa.THnTHwecKHe nepewHBaHHa 1898 roaa, h 
BnewaTJieHHe ot pa3roBopa c Baaa. ConoBbeBbiM b 1900 roay; h 
ysHaHHA neTa 1902 roaa o tom, hto 2-oe npniuecTBne Hanaaocb. 
f{ ray6oKO B3BOaHOBaH: Bee mhcthhcckhc nepea<HBaHHa Moefl >kh3hh 
cnHTe3HpoBaHbi Tenepb; a o6pea MHCTHKy (OHOiiiecKHx aex; ho 3Ta 
MHCTHKa bo MHe Tenepb ywe He MHCTHKa, He 3KCTa3, a — BepHoe 
BeaeHHe; h BMecTe c tcm: MHe hcho, hto A.O. noaroTOBaaeT b 
teaoBenecTBe HMnyabc Xphctob; Mbi He npocTO aHTponococJ)bi; Mbi — 
XpucmuaHe; Hac HenocpeacTBeHHO BeaeT Xphctoc k CBeTy; poab a-pa 
— orpoMHa: oh ecTb tot, kto noaroTOBaaeT b ayuiax 2-oe npunjecT- 
BHe; ero cB«3b c Xphctom — oco6eHHaa CBa3b; stot HOBbifl o6anK 
aoKTopa ocaenHTeaeH; a 3Hajo, hto He Bee naeHbi A.O. BHaflT aoKTopa 
h noHHMaKiT ero mhcchjo; b o6mecTBe ecTb nocBameHHbie bo BHyT- 
peHHKDio mhcchkd IIlTeHHepa: noaroTOBHTb nyTb npH6anw:aiomeMyca 
XpwcTy; a nyBCTByKD, hto npHHHT b TecHoe aapo nocBauieHHbix; h a 
noHMMaro, hto 3to npHHSTHe He ecTb npHHHTHe caoBOM; a-p IUTefi- 
Hep h M.fl. CHBepc Bee BpeMa oco6chho ynaT MeHa: He caoBaMH, a 
>KecTaMH: o6a BeayT MeHa no CHaM, yHacTBytoT bo Bcex co6biTnax 
Moefi BHyTpeHHefl >kH3hh; a noHHMaio, hto MHe Henero HCKaTb CBHaa- 
hhh y aoKTopa, Koraa a BHyTpeHHe KaK 6bi hphhht b hom aoKTopa; 
a >KHBy b cTpaHHOM 3HaHHH, hto mm c Aceft demu aoKTopa h M.fl., 
>KHBeM b oaHOM ayxoBHOM aoMe; h aocTyn k aoKTopy Bceraa otkpmt; 
ctoht MHe BHyTpeHHe o neM-aH6o BonpocHTb a-pa, KaK a noaynaK) 
ot Hero HenocpeacTBeHHbifl otbct; MHe OTKpbiBaioTca Tenepb caoBa 

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MJieHOB O TOM, 4TO eCTb yieHHKH, KOTOpbie HenOCpeflCTBeHHO CBH3aHbI 

c fl-poM; mm Henero BHaaTbca aa>Ke c hhm, h6o oh b JXyxc nocemaeT 
hx, a ohh ero; TaKHM BHyTpeHae npHH«TbiM a ceRmoe-ceHmbix Hauiero 
^BaJKCHjia a ce6a qiuyiuafo b stot nepHoa; MHe oTKpbiBaexcfl 3Hane- 
HHe_cjiQB_o6 yMeHHJt aiiTaTb OK-Ky/ibTHbie nncbMeHa; sthmh nHCbMe- 

HaMH HB.lHfOTCH MOH nOCTynKH H >KeCTbl MeHH o6cTaK>mnx H nOCBJI- 

meHHbix b XpHCTOBy TaftHy H.ieHOB A.O.: Mbt — 6paTCTBO b 6paTCT- 
Be; mw — noaaHHHbie 33otcpmkh. 

M.fl. CMBepc b ayxoBHOM naaHe OTKpbiBaeTca MHe bo BceW ee 
orpoMHOCTH; OHa Bee zihh h Bee nacbi co mhokd; ona > ; mht MeHa, noce- 
maeT MeHH b cHax; h Koraa a BCTpeiaiocb c Hefl h c aoKTopoM Ha 
coopaHHHX A.O. , to Mens? oxBaTbiBaeT aio6oBb, CTpax h HeaoBKOcTb, 
hto (})H3HMecKHH naaH He cooTBercTByer (})opMe HauiHX BCTpen Ha 
naaHe ayxoBHOM; a HamiHaw noHHMaTb, 4to KaKaa-TO mauna cyme- 
CTByex Me>Kziy MHofl, a-poM n Vl.il.; h aoKTop 6e3 caoB, oahmm hho- 
raa BCK0.ib3b 6poiueHHbiM B3raaaoM Ha .MeHa yKpenaaeT MeHa b stoh 
MbiciH; MHe KaaceTCH, mo a caM He JHato Tawny CBOero ObiTHa, a 
aoKTop npo^ea ee; n jHaet: b GyaymeM, b 6jih3kom co mhoTj npomofi- 
aeT He4TO orpoMHoe; oyaer Haao mhojo comecTBue Cb. Hyxa, nocae 
KOToporo a HeHMOBepno BbipacTy; h toaoc Bowhh 3a3BynnT m Mena; 
a 3roro He 3na»o, a a-p jto JHaei; n oiToro to: b ayxoBHofi aeikT- 
BineabHOCTH a, KaK MoaHH, — ero aiooHMeftujHfi yqeHHK: BC3ae>Ky Ha 
ero naene; ottoio-to Tan hokho atooiiT Mena M.M. ... Bee 3th mmc- 
aH h omyujeKHa HeBepoarno BoaHyKu Mena, — tcm ooace, mto Ha (})n- 
3HMCCK0M '.'.aane hhhio hc cooTBeTCTByeT jtomv; Ha r£n iiiiecKOM riaa- 
hc a amub Hen Bugaeff, «unser Mitglied», He ooaee. Bca npouiaaa 
>KH3Hb, CTaBiuaa Mne Biioane npcupaHnofl, aiiiiib npmoTOBaeHHe k 
KaKOH-TO wpeiBhmafiHofi Miicciin: necb onbir MeanTauHfi h OKKyabT- 
Hbix y,spa>KHeHHM — npeajHepiie, omimefuie nepea HeBepoa thl.im npo- 
acHcaneM coJHaHHH h Mena o>KnaafomnM acHOBHaeHHeM. H-p h M.fl. 
ot Mena vKayT coBepiueHnoro nyin >4cmmecrBa, n6o Ha neM «ayT 
MeHa BeaimafuuHe oiapentia; 6ecco3HareabHo VKopeHaeTca bo MHe 
Mbicab, hto MeHa cojHaTeabHO BeayT k nocBaiueHHto, hto a cneuH- 
aabHO aaa nocBaiueHHa roroBH.vibiH vhchmk; oicioaa y>Kac h 6oa3Hb 
nepea orpoMHbi.M cTpaaaHHeM, no4TH pacnaTweM, k kotopom>' BeayT 
Mena; a, KaK MoaiiH (Jlaiapb) ao.iAeH cnepBa yMepeTb, 4To6bi Ha 
TpeTHii aeiib BOCKpecHVTb: MHe namiHaeT KaiaTbca, mto ko MHe noa- 
KpaawBaeTca KaKaa-TO nocBaTnreabnaa 6oae3Hb (naaynaa an, aeTap- 
rHMecKHfl coh aw), MTO cKopo a naay Ha cboh oap, 6yay yMHpaTb; 
h a-p npoM3BeaeT Haao mhok? onacmio onepauHRi. ft nbiTaiocb nopofl 
b pairoBopax c Acefl HaMeKa.Mii Kacai bca 3 row TeMbi, MHe He acHofl; h 
BH>Ky, hto Aca 4TO-70 3Hae r 060 mhc, o mhcchh, MHe HajHaneHHOfl; 
ho 06 3tom caoBaMH Heab>a roBopwib; h Aca oObaBaaeT MHe, mto6w 

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mm He roBopHJiH apyr c apyroM Ha tcmm Haiunx nyTett; a omymaio, 

HTO B TOHKe CBHlUeHHeHUiett ACH nOKHZtaeT MeHX, OTieflHHJieTCH, 

ycKOjib3aeT; ao chx nop HauiH OKK[yabTHbie] y3HaHH& coBnaaaan; 
c BepreHa mm HaeM nopo3Hb: Aca 6pocaeT mchb; He tobopht HHiero 
o ce6e; h mchh npocHT MoanaTb: a nyBCTByio nepByio rpaHb, pa3ae- 
jijnomyio HauiH nyTH; c 3Toro BpeMeHH rpaHb pocjia; h b roaax Bbipo- 
cjia b HenepecTynaeMyio 6e3aHy Meacay HaMH. 

Hoji6pb 3Toro roaa — pokoboh, *yTKHfl, roaoBOKpyjKHTeabHbift 
aaa mchh Mecau; h BMecTe MyHHTeabHMft; (Jm3HHecKaa Moa o6oaoHKa 
npHTHHyTa k 3eMae, a ayx moh, icaK 6bi Bbiftaa H3 Hee Bee BpeMa na- 
pHT b c(J)epe, rae ero o6cxynaK>T orpoMHbie, kocmhhcckhc, anoKanwn- 
THwecKHe o6pa3M (b 3tot nepnoa bo MHe noaMMaeTca TeMa 6oab- 
moro «.#», o kotopom a BnocaeacTBHH roBopio b «3anHcxax Hyaa- 
Ka»). B 3tot Mecau a nHiuy 8-yio raaBy «flemep6ypea» h snuaor; h 

OTCMJiaK) pyKOnHCb B «ClipUHY>. Hpe3BbIMaHHO MHe TOBOPHT KHH*eH- 

Ka Ko^jihh «Krone der Liebe^. 

B KOHue Mecaua mm eaeM c Aceft b Miohxch Ha aeicuHH a-pa b 
A.O. 27 ; 3aecb Ha oahoh H3 jickuhh Ha TeMy 5-ro EBaHrenHa a-p IUTefi- 
Hep CTaBHT Bapyr aonpoc HneHaM: «HeyHcenH hh y Koro H3 Bac Hex 
ko MHe Bonpoca?» Co6paHHe pacTepaHo; He 3HaK>T, hto cnpocHTb; a 
MHe KaJKeTca, hto a 3Haio, o KaxoM Bonpoce tobopht a-p; h 3hslk>, 
hto 3tot Bonpoc k HeMy ecTb Bonpoc, nocTaBJieHHbift mhoio b mocm 
XpHCTHaHHHCKOM rmcbMe; OTBeT Ha 3tot moh Bonpoc — OTenecKaa 
aK>6oBb a-pa ko MHe, Kaic 6m npeaM36paBiuaa MeHa Ha Kaicon-To MHe 
caMOMy eme HeH3BecTHbifl noaBHr; noMoanaB, a-p CTporo tobopht: 
«Xopouto, — man a u 3anoMHio, unto ceeodnn 3decb hukitio Mewt hu o 
neM ne cnpocu/i...» Hjichm O-Ba — HeaoyMeBaioT; h BMecxe — yapy- 
ieHM: o KaxoM Bonpoce roBopna a-p? M — noneMy oh rHeBaeTca? MHe 
acyTKo: MHe KaweTca, hto a Bee 3Haio; 3Haio h to, Kaicon aoaaceH 6m 

nOaHHTbCH BOnpOC; H 3HaK), HTO BOnpOC 3TOT 6bIJI noaHHT MHOK) B 

XpncTHaHHH, noaTopa Mecaua Ha3aa. Thcb a-pa pokobmm o6pa30M 
aaa MeHfl c6aHKaeT c a-pOM. H a BHyTpeHHe BOCKaHuaio: «KaKaa 
)Ke CBa3b coeaHHaeT Hac?» 



24 Collins, Mabel (1851-1927; nceBAOHHM Mrs. Mabel Cook) — aKrjiKttcKan Teo- 
coiJ)Ka, pea. BMecTe c M-me EjiaBaTCKoft *. «Lucifer», aBTop MHoroqHcneHHbix pa6oT 
Ha Teoco(J)CKMe h onnyjibTHbie TeMbi. Cainan 3HaMeHHTan ee KHiira LIGHT IN THE 
PA TH(]&85) nepeBOAH/iacb Ha Bee eBponeftcxHe H3WKH, b t.i. h Ha pyccKHfl (nep. B.IIh- 
capeBofl). O Heft cm.: BOCnOMHHAHHX O UITEHHEPE Benoro, c. 188-189, 307-310. 
DIE KRONE DER UEBE (LOVE'S CHAPLET). Vom Verf. v. «Licht auf den Weg». 
66 s. (1909). 

27 B KOHue ho»6ph (22-24 h.ct.) UlTeftHep iHxan JieKUHH (owy H3 xypca «Das filnfte 
Evangelium») He b MwHxene, a b IllTyTrapTe. 7 neica6pfl (h.ct.) oh MHTan b MroHxeHe 
ny6/iHMHyK5 jtckuhk), a 8 h 10 fleKa6p« MHTaji ajm ineHOB A.O. nBe .tckuhh H3 UHKjia 
«Das filnfte Evangelium». 

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B MioHxeHe npHcyTCTByio Ha ny6aHMHbix aeKiumx a-pa; h Ha 
E.S. JlepxeHQbeaba oco6eHHO 6jih30k c HaMH; oh npHnnauiaeT MeH» h 
Ac»o OTo6eiiaTb c hhm; noweMy-TO MHe KaweTC«, mto a-py He HpaBHT- 
ch Hauie o6uieHHe c JlepxeH^eabaoM; b MioHxeHe nacTO 6biBaio y Tpa- 
neJHHKOBbix: 3aecb BCTpenajocb c EeaouBeTOBbiM, *HByuxHM b Mbh- 
xeHe, c CHflopoBbi.M, c K)ji3, c JlepxeHcfrejibflOM h c BayapoM; c Bay3- 
poM mw 3HaKOMHMCH; oh npoH3BOflHT Ha MeHfl orpoMHefluiee BrienaT- 
.neHHe. 

K Hana.ay aeKa6pa Mbi B03BpaiuaeMc« b BepaHH h 3aeeb npoaoa- 
»aeM cayuiaTb a-pa no BTopHHKaM, Ha Geisbergstrasse h no neTBep- 
raM (pa3 b aBe neaeaH) b Architekten haus, rae no npHMepy npoiuaoro 
roaa aoKTop MHTaer sui generis uHKa aeKUHfi*". 

MacTo c Acefi Mbi roBopHM, mto HaM oMeHb TpyaHO c HaTauieH h 
riouuo, mto 6yaTo cB»3b c hhmh nopBaaacb. 

Uexaopb. 

ripoao.'i>KaeTCH Bee to >Ke; b HaMaae aeKa6p» Mbi eaeM b LIlTyT- 
rapT Ha .ieKunn a-pa (b no>Ke, ny6aHMHbie h E.S.); b IllTyTrapTe 
npoBoaHM hhcPi 5 h.ih 6 2v . Bcioay Hac eonpoBOwaaeT K.fl. Xphcto- 

$OpOBa H <t>OpCM3H. 

3ror MecHU npoxoaHT b toh we TOHaabHocTn; oaHOBpevieHHo: 
MVMine.ibHbie nepe>KHBaHH» 6opb6bi c cbohmh HeaocTaTKaMH h KaK 
6bi idee fixe, mto Haao ae3Tb Ha KaKHe-To KpyiH, h6o MHe npeacTO- 
mt KaKaa-TO mhcchh; a ycnaenHo noaroTOBTHio a-py otmct o MeaHTa- 

HHHX, pa IBepTblBaiOUIUHCH B aHCBHHK 3CKM30B, WMBOriHCyiOmHX )KH3Hb 

atireabCKHx wepapxHtt Ha ayne, coaHue, CaTypHe b cbshh c MeaoBe- 
kom; jtot MeaoBex — », a HepapxHH — MHe 3B>Maiune o6pa3bi (hmch- 
ho «3eyiuu4ue»); a npH6eraio k Ace, KaK xyao>KHHU.e; h npoiuy ee 
mhc noMOHb; ueabiMH aHRMH pacKpaiiiHBaro h o6pa3bi, mhoh 3apnco- 
HaHHbie (cHMBoabi mohx ayxoBiibix y3HaHHfi); aBa-TpH pncyHKa h no- 
Ka3biBafO HaTame oanavKabi: yBHaeB hx, OHa BOCKaHKHyaa: «Aa!.. 
Bop», — lie noKa3biBaH: cnpHMb 3to!» H yBHaea, mto OHa mcm-to no- 
ip«cena bo MHe, tomho OHa mchh BnepBbie ysnaeaa; h noH«a, mto OHa 
nonjiaa, mto phcvhkh apxaHreaoB He pucyHKH, a KonHH c ayxoBHO 
yipehitoro; >< » TOTMac noH»a, mto OHa noHiiaa, mto h noH»a... 
C" 11 oro BpevteHH crpaHHbie OTHOiueHHH ycTaHaBaHBatOTca Me>Kay 
mhoh ii HaTaujefl: mhc HaminaeT Ka3aTbCH, mto ona KaK 6bi ayxoBHO 
cieaiiT 3a mhoh, noaraaabiBaeT; h HaMHHaeT noHHMaTb bo MHe to, 

» Ho pcmcipy npomviaHHbix UlTeflHepoM -leKuml, oh iHTan Bcero oany jieKUHio b 
'ijhh.ic .ickaopa 1913 i . b BepfiHHc: 4 neKa6pji (h.ct.) ok npoie.n b Architektenhaus fleK- 
H«io na tcm> "Geisieswissenschaft als Lebensgut». 

•"' K:ik v'KaiaHO Bbiuie. be.ibiP nepciiyra-T HjTyrrapT c Miohxchom: B Haiajie aeKa6- 

pn (7-10 H.CT.) lillOftlltp BUCTyilX.1 L' jleKUHBMH B MRMi.xeHe. 

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nero Ach He bhaht: MHe Ka>KeTCH, hto oHa noHHMaeT Tawny, cBH3yn> 
wyio MeHH c a-poM h c M..H. $1 6e3 cjiob nepeKJiHKaiocb c HaTameft; 
nopoft BCTpenaio ee H&aoyMeBaiomHH B3rnna; to OHa hokho no,axo- 
jxut ko MHe c oTTeHKOM yflHB^eHHH h BocTopra nepea mhpom Hyxa, 
MHe oTKpbiBaiomHMCH; to OHa KaK 6bi HaHHHaeT 6opoTbcn co mhokx 
K.n. XpHCTO(J)opoBa KaK 6y.aTo Toace hto-to HaHHHaeT iiohh- 
MaTb; h HHbie H3 HJieHOB O-Ba CTpaHHO noKauiHBaK»TC» Ha MeH»; MHe 
HaHHHaeT Ka3aTbcn, hto 060 MHe, o mohx othoihchhhx k fl-py h k 

M..H. B A.O. HaHHHaKJT UHpKyjlHpOBaTb KaKHe-TO CJiyXH, H HTO BO 

B3rn«fle Ha MeHH mhchhh pacKajibiBaiOTcn; oahh KaK 6w oco6eHHO 
HaHHHaioT nK)6HTb Hac c Aceft h HaMexaTb o KaKHx-TO HaM npeaHa3- 
HaneHHbix cyab6ax; apyrwe c 3aBHCTbK> h HeroaoBaHHeM Ha Hac cmot- 
pHT, KaK 6bi roBopn: «BbicKOHKa, KapbepHCT...» MHe nawe HaHHHaeT 
Ka3aTbca, hto kto-to ponmeT h HeroayeT Ha zi-pa HM.il. 3a c;ia6ocTb 
ko mhc O/iHaHcabi nocne hckuhh a-pa b Jlo»e okojio mch« pa3,aaeTCH 
npe3pHTejibHO-capKacTHHecKoe: «A! Die heilige Familie». H — hcho: 
acejtmoe ceMeucmeo». — AoKTOp, M..H., R. Hao6opoT, 6jiH3KHe k 
zi-py b 6ep^HHCKOH Jioace — Bajuiep, 3eftjiHHr h nBe JleMaH — otho- 

CHTCH K HaM C OC06eHHOH HOKHOCTbK). 

npH6nH>KaeTCH PowiiecTBo; b o6iuecTBe totobht CTapo-repMaH- 
CKHe po>KflecTBeHCKHe MHCTepHH; M..H. h fl-p ye3>KaK>T Ha HecKOJibKO 
flHeft b /lopHax, rae yace aayT pa6oTbi no B03BejieHHK) dpyaaaMeHTa 
h CKeneTa «Bau»; b EepjiHH npHe3HcaeT O.H. AHHeHKOBa h KaK-To 

CTpaHHO CO MHOH TOBOpHT, KaK-TO CTpaHHO norjiHflbiBaeT Ha MeHH; 

h ayMaio: «3HaeT OHa hjih He 3HaeT 060 MHe?» H caM He Mory ce6e 

OTBeTHTb, HTO OHa flOJDKHa 3HaTb 060 MHe; 3TO «HTO» — TaftHa Moefi 

cyflb6bi, cBHsaHHofl c cyflb6oK «Bau». M T.A. EepreHrpiOH Ha mchh 
KOCHTCH (OTHOUieHHH HaiUH — npeBocxojiHbie). 

Flepezi caMbiM Pojkucctbom nepe>KHBaK) TH>KeJibie MHHyTbi H&ao- 

yMeHHH, COMHeHHH; OnHTb HH3MeHHaH HyBCTBeHHOCTb MyHHT MeHH H 

h nyBCTByio, hto nocjie co6mthh, co mhoh 6biBiiiHx, HyBCTBeHHOCTb 
3Ta aojDKHa 6bi oTnacTb ot mchh; M..H. CHBepc HaHHHaeT Ha mchh 
cepaHTbcn: MHe KaaceTCH, hto OHa OTBopanHBaeTCH ot mchh; MHe aym- 
ho h th*ko; Ach MHe roBopHT: «Bopn, — tu h MeHH H3MyHHji: ycno- 
KoflcH, CMHpHCb...» TojibKO HaTauia npoziojwaeT rnwerb Ha mchh 
orpOMHbiMH yaHBjieHHbiMH rna3aMH H TOHHO XOHeT HaMeKHyTb, HTO 
hto-to MHe npeacTOHT. 

Mbi totobhmch k noe3flKe b JlefinuHr Ha Kypc a-pa «Xpucmoc u 
dyxoeHbie Mupw», KOTopbiH aojiHceH HanaTbcn 28 aeKa6pH 30 ; npne3- 



!0 «Christus und die geistige Welt — Von der Suche nach dem heiligen Gral». UlecTb 
jieKUHfl, npoiHTaHHbie UlreflHepoM b JleflnuHre 28-31 aeica6pn 1913 r. (h.ct.) h 1-2 «h- 
BapH 1914 r. (h.ct.) 



362 



acaeT m Mockbm A.C. IleTpoBCXHH, H3 IleTepoypra E.M. Baciuibe- 
Ba c MyxceM; IleTpoBCXHH npHB03HT H3 Mockbm c co6oft A.H. Kh- 
ceneBy. 

Mm BCTpenaeM PoacaecTBO b BepaHHCxoft Jloace: (nzKu.H* a-pa, 
poxcaecTBeHCKHe mhctcphh) h 27-ro ye3xaeM b JleftnuHr. 

B JleflnuHre OKa3HBaeTCJi MHoro pyccwix; Bee iiohth ocraHaB- 
jiHBaioTca b oflHofi rocTHHHue h co6HpaK>TCH b o6meM cajioHe, xo- 
Topwfi CTaHOBHTCx HeM-TO Bpoae pyccKoro wiy6a; homhio TyT: 
Hac, HaTauiy, A.M. riouuo, K.n. XpHercxfropoBy, H.H EeaouBe- 
TOBa, T.T. TpanesHHKOBa, Jl.H. Tpane3HHKOBy, <J>opcMaH, <J>pHa- 
KHHy, FleTpoBCKoro, A.H. KHceneBy, O.H. AHHemcoBy, E.M. BacHJib- 
eBy, B.H. BacHJibeBa, M.B. BoaouiHHy, mojkct 6biTb B.n. TpHro- 
poBa c xceHOft h ap(yrHx). C TpeneTOM roTOBJiiocb k JleftniwrcKOMy 
imwiy; noneMy-TO MHe xaacercH, hto stot iwxa HMeeT Kaicoe-TO 
oco6oe xacaHHe mchh; Bee ahh npoBo>xy b nocTe, MeaHTaiuwx h 
MOJiHTBe; y MeH« cnaraeTca xaxofl-To oco6mh hhh; Tax b H3BecT- 
hmh nac h omymaio noTpe6HOCTb pa3yTbc« h 3aMepeTb; MHe noneMy- 
to xaaceTCH, hto Haao, hto6m Ha a6y y MeH* kto-to npoBeji hohcom 
xpecr; bo MHe oxcHBaeT Tbicjma npHxoTefl; h ce6H omymaio tohho 
6epeMeHHofi xcchiuhhoh, xoTopofi naaaewHT poaHTb MaaaeHua; « 
omymaio, hto stot, poxcaaeMMft mhok> MjiaaeHeu — «/T» 6onbuioe. 
K HaM HanHHaeT 3axaxcHBaTb T.T. Tpane3HHK0B h bccth xaxne-To 
CTpaHHbie pa3roBopbi, tohho npuroTaBaHBaioiiiHe mchs k neMy-TO. 

C 28-ro HanHHaeTCH JlettimHrcxHft xypc; « He Mory onHcaTb ero 
aeflcTBHe Ha mchh; xaxcaafl $pa3a xypca HMeeT ana mchh aBOflHoe 
h TpoftHoe 3HaieHHe; 6yxBajibHo: h nepexcuBaio -xaxcayio aeximio He 
aexuHefl, a nocBHiueHHeM b TaftHbi; co mhoh Bee BpeMJi hto-to aeaa- 
efc«; Bee xaaceTca npoo6pa30M; Tax HanpHMep: Ha oahoh jiexuHH xo 
MHe noaxoflHT 6appHecca raaaeH; h tobopht MHe: «Bm noHHMaeTe 
MeH»: Haao yMeTb npoH3HocHTb BaM H3BecTHue caoBa, He aBHran hh 
ry6aMH, hh ji3Mxom, hh ropTaHbio; Toraa caoBa onycxaiOTcn b cepa- 
ue; h npHo6peTaK)T orpOMHyio CHay!» Cxa3aB 3to, 6ap. raaaeH oto- 
uuia ot Mens; MHe cxa3aaocb: J\&, aa — to cMepTHoe aeflcTBHe, 
xoToporo h xcaxcaaa, oho MHe otxpwto; «cAoea» *e othochtch x 
caoBaM o XpncTe b Moefi MeaHTauHH; h Bee sto HMeeT OTHOiiieHHe xo 
2-My npHiuecTBHK); c toh nopu h 3naa: xoraa MHe Haao 6biao Boopy- 
>XHTbCJi XpHCTOBofl CHaoft, Haao 6wao nocTynaTb Tax, xax cxa3aaa 
6ap. raaaeH; « CTan HenpepuBHo BoopyacaTbca; h eoopyxcemiR sth 

npHBOaHJIH MeHH B TaXOe COCTOHHHe, MTO H B 6oapCTBeHHOM COCTO- 

jjhhh HayMHacH BbixoaHTb H3 ce6« ayxoBHo, a He (J)H3HoaorHHecKH; c 
toh nopbi h noHHa, hto Taxoe BbixoaHTb H3 ce6« 2-m, 6oaee tohxhm 
cnocoGoM (BbixoaHTb — He Bbixoa«, He Bnaaa» b xaTaaencHio); Bbixoa 
H3 ce6« nepBUM, 6oaee rpy6biM, (J)H3HoaorH4ecKHM o6pa30M cTaa 

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BeaoM MHe eme b 1912 roay (b aeKa6pe); Tenepb, nepe3 roa: a HaynHa- 
c« Bbixoay H3 ce6a 2-m cnoco6oM. 

30 aeKa6pa aoKTop HHTaa Ty aeKUHio Kypca, rae roBopHTca 06 
AnojuioHOBOM cBeTc; bo BpeMa caoB a-pa o CBeTe co mhoh npoH3omao 
CTpaHHoe «BjieHHe; Bapyr b 3ajie nepea mohmh raa3aMH, BepHee H3 
mohx raa3 BcnwxHyji cbct, b CBeTe KOToporo Bca 3aaa noviepKjia, 
Hcne3aa H3 raa3; MHe noKa3aaocb, hto copBaaca He to moh nepen, 
He to noTOJiOK 3ajia h oTKpuaocb HenocpeacTBeHHo uapcTBo Zlyxa: 
3TO 6bijio, KaK ecan 6bi npoH3omao CoiuecTBHe Cb. Hyxa; Bee 6biao 

— CBeT, TonbKO cbct; h 3tot cbct — TpeneTaji; ckopo npocTynHJiH H3 
CBeTa: cbct aiocTp, MHe noKa3aBiiiHHca TeMHbiM, KOHTypbi cwaaiimx, 
.aoKTop, CTeHbi; a-p kohhhh; Koraa a aBHHyaca c MecTa, a nonyBCT- 
BOBaa KaK 6w npoaoaaceHHe Moefl roaoBbi Haa CBoeft roaoBOK) MeTpa 
Ha I1/2; h a nyTb He ynaa b snHjiencHio: a cxBaTHaca pyKoio 3a Ack>; 
h Ha HecKOJibKO cexyHfl 3aMep; Koraa a btophhho aBHHyaca, to HBJie- 
HHe Hcne3ao; sto aBaeHHe aaa<e He yaHBHao MeH«; oho 6biao aHuib 
OTpa»eHHe Moero npHnoaHaToro cocToaHHa; a xoaHa b JXyxe: 6bia b 
Ayxe; h MHe Ka3aaocb: HHbie H3 naeHOB O-Ba Towe 6bian b JXyxe. Ry- 
xoBHbie MHpbi KaK 6bi onycTHHHCb Ha Hac; h H3 aeKUHOHHoro 3ajia 
conpoBoacaaaH Hac b HaiiiH KOMHaTbi; Becb aeHb h bck) HOHb aawancb 
ana MeHa ayxoBHbie 03apeHHa, aeftcTBHe aeKUHft Ha HaeHOB 6buio Tax 
cnabHo, hto Kaacaaa aeKuna KOHnaaacb o6MopoKaMH; to h aeao Koro- 
HH6yab BbiHocnaH H3 3aaa: KTo-HH6yab naaaa b o6mopok; oaHawabi 
BbiHecaH h T.T. Tpane3HHKOBa. 

B oaHH H3 3thx aHefi 29 huh 30-ro a BHaea — He 3HaK> hto: coh 
Han npoaoa^eHHe BenepHefl MeaHTauHH; a MeaHTHpoBaa: h Bapyr: 
BHyTpeHHe nepeao mhoh OTKpbiaca paa KOMHaT (He bo CHe); noaBHaca 
a-p b cTpaHHOM, po30BO-KpacHOM oaeaHHH; h caM oh 6bia — po30so- 
KpecT; oh cxBaTHa MeHa h noBaex nepe3 paa KOMHaT (sto 6biao KaK 
6w He bo CHe); TyT HacTynna nepepbiB co3HaHH«, ot KOToporo a 
OHHyaca TOTnac *e; h 3acTaa ce6a KaK 6bi nepea KpyrabiM cToaoM 
(He to aHaaoeM); Ha CToae-aHaaoe CToaaa nauia; h a noHaa, hto 3to 

— Tpaaab; cnpaBa ot MeHa cwaea a-p, caeBa M.fl. Aoktop OTneTaHBo 
cnpocHa MeHa: «TaK Bbi coraacHbi htth Ha 3To?» M a 3acTaa ce6a 
oTBenatoiuHM: «JXa, coraaceH!» H TyT MeabKHyao mhc hto a oTBenaio 

Ha KaKOH-TO BOnpOC, CBa3aHHbIH C POKOBOIO TaflHOK) MHCCHH, MHe 

npeaHa3HaneHHOH: MHe noKa3aaocb, hto a OTaaa cbok) >KH3Hb aeay 
aoKTopa h hto sto aeao Tpe6oBaao ot Mena orpoMHofl, MynHTeabHoft 
»epTBbi: HecocBaTHMoro cTpaaaHHa (mohcct 6biTb, peaabHoro pacna- 
THa Ha KpecTe); a noHaa, hto a, nan Moe 6oapcTBeHHoe «*» Bonpoc 
a-pa npocnaao, ho Bbicmee «#» aaao noaojKHTeabHbift otbct. Toraa 
a-p h M..H. B3aan naiiiy, Tpaaab h KaK 6w noacTaBHan MHe noa ro- 
aoBy; kto-to (Ka*eTca a-p) He to hokhhkom caeaaa KpecTOo6pa3HbiH 

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KaKoft-TO cnanKHfi pa3pe3 Ha MoeM /i6y, He to noMa3aa mchh oaaro- 
aaTHbiM eaeeM, OTnero He to Kanna kpobh co a6a, He to Kanan eaea, 
He to Moe «.<?» KanHyjio b naiuy. b rpaaab; ho 3Ta naiua 6biaa ywe 
He Hameft, a momm cepaueM, a Kana« Sbiaa mohm co3HaHHeM, KaHyB- 
iiihm b cepaue: b mchh cKB03b mchh; h Koraa Kanas KOCHyaacb MauiH, 

TO XpHCTOC COeUHHHJlCH CO MHOH! H H3 MeH», BO MHe, CKB03b MeHH 

6pbi3Hy^H CTpyH aiooBH HecKasaHHOfl h XpncTOBa MMnyabca; tvt h 
npocHyaca: BepHee OHHyac«; h cnpocHJi ce6«: «Hto sto 6biao? Sbui an 
3to coh?» MHe CTaao hcho: Her, He coh, a noaaHHHoe nocBHiueHHe. 

C toh nopbi MHe CTaao Ka3aTbca: co.BepuiHaocb Moe nocBHiueHHe 
b KaKoe-To CBeTnoe pbmapcTBo, hhkcm He ycTaHOBaeHHoe Ha cJ)H3h- 
necKOM naaHe; h BMecTe c TeM: CKoabKO pa3 noTOM mchh TpeBOKHjio: 
«TBoe Bbiciuee "/7" aaao BbicuieMy "#" aoKTopa KaaTBeHHbift o6eT: 
nocny>KHTb KaKOMy-To aeay; h nepeHecTH BbiTeKaioiuHe H3 3Toro 
aeaa cTpamHbie, HeiejiOBenecKHe cTpaaaHHa, a th — npocnaa tbokj 
K.THTBy; h He 3Haeuib, neMy Tbi noKaaaca...» 

31 aexaopH nepea HOBbiM roaoM aeKUHH a-pa 6biaa orpoMHa no 
coaep^aHHio; h onaTb-TaKH: OHa bo MHe pa3birpbiBajiacb HeBepoHT- 
hok) chjToio; h cropaa ot HeBbipa3HMofl .tk)6bh ko XpHCTy, k a-py, k 
M.fl. h ko BceM GpaTbHM h cecTpaM bo XpHCTe b HaiueM o6uiecTBe; 
HeKOTopbie H3 caoB a-pa MHe npo3Bynaan TaK: «Hy bot: Tbi, anKaa 
MacjiHHa, npHBHTa k Eo>KecTBeHHOMy ZlpeBy >Kh3hh: noMHH, mo ch- 
.Tbi CBeTa, cTpyauiHecs HbiHe CKB03b Te6fl He Te6e npHHaaaoKar, a 
Hyxy; h aa He rpemH!» fl noHaa. hto nocBameHHe Moe b pbmapH — 
flyxoBHbifi (J)aKT, h hto b cepaue MoeM poanaca MaaaeHeu; mhc KaK 
po>KeHnue, HaaaewHT ero BbinocHTb bo npeBe BeTxoro co3HaHna mo- 
ero; nepe3 9 MecaueB <cw/?flde«e/y» poaHTca b >KH3Hb. Pa3VMeeTca, 
a 3th CTpaHHbie, HeBepoaTHbie nepe)KHBaHHH CKpbia ot Bcex; ho a Bep- 
Hyacfl c aeKUHH c co3HaHneM, hto Cb. Hyx 3anaT b MoeM BeTxov «.<?»; 
Tenepb sto BeTxoe «*» 6yaeT pacnaaaTbca, h mchh nocTurHeT Kawaa- 
to CTpaHHas, CB«meHHaH 6oae3Hb. 

3a6bia cKa3aTb: nocaeaeKUHH M..H. nponaa CTHxoTBopeHH? Mop- 
reHUJTepHa, KOTopbie mchh nopa3HJiH; MopreHUJTepH, ywe 6oabHoft, 
cuaea b 3aaHHX paaax; a-p cornea c Ka<t>eapbi, nepe3 Becb 3a.i npo- 
mea k MopreHiurepHy h pacueaoBaa ero. MHe noneMy-TO noxa^aaocb, 
hto MopreHUJTepH h a b hcm-to cBH3aHbi apyr c apyroM h c c>ab6a- 
mh ayxoBHoro aBn»<eHHa ( Beaymero k TaflHaM Il-ro ITpHLLiecTBHa. 
Hepe3 aeHb HaH aBa Hac npeacTaBHan apyr apyry: MopremjTepH 
nocMOTpea Ha Mena cbohmh HeBbipajMMbiMH raa3aMH, yabiOHyaca h 
cxasaa: «f{ TaK paa». ToBopHTb eMy y>Ke 6biao TpyaHo: oh — 3aaw- 
xaaca. 

HoBbift roa BCTpeTHaH Mbi, KoaoHH« pyccKHX b JleftnuHre, cBeTao 
h apy>KHo. 



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1914 roa 

Hneapt. 

1-ro HHBapa, KawcrcH, 6biaa aeKiwa IIlTeftHepa, b kotopoh oh 
roBopHT H3yMHTenbHbie BemH o riapcH<t>ajie; onaTb-TaKH, KaK h Bee 
aeKUHH 3Toro Kypca, OHa naaa b C03HaHHe Moe coBepuieHHO oco6eH- 
ho; MHe noKa3aaocb, mto a, oahh a, noHaa caMyio noaonaexy aexuHH; 
Boo6me: a cTaa saMciaTb b ce6e CTpaHHyK) cnoco6HOCTb BnaaaTb b 

COCTOHHHH, BO BpeM3 KOTOpblX BCC HTO HH npOHCXOaHT BOKpyr pa3bl- 

rpbiBaaocb bo MHe KaK uiHtfrp; a BbiHHTbiBaa H3 KajKaoft, cayMaflHO 
cabiuiHMotf (J>pa3bi, 3a Heft cto»iuhh ayxoBHbift CMbica; HeyaHBHTeab- 

HO, HTO B aeKUHBX fl-pa MHe BblHHTblBaJlHCb CMblCJlbl, KOTOpbie npH- 
MO He BblHHMajIHCb H3 TeKCTa. CoCTOHHHe 3TO COnpOBO)KaaaOCb 

oco6biM cocTOHHHeM c{)H3HOJiorHHecKHM: b MHHyTy, Koraa aaa MeHa 
npoacHaaocb Bee, Teao qyBCTBOBaao Hanop KaK 6bi >Kapxoro, c;kh- 
raiomero cBeTa; h — OTKa3biBaaocb cay>KHTb: MHe Ka3aaocb — bot 
o6opBeTCH cepaue; Ha — ynaay; aaa Toro, 4To6bi npHTTH b ce6a, 
a aojDKeH 6bi/r ocTaHaBHHBaTb coBepuuaBiiiHHca bo MHe ayxoBHbift 
npouecc h He aoBoaHTb ao KOHua cbohx ayxoBHbix y3HaHHtt; ecan 6bi 
a ero aoBea ao KOHua, to a ynaa 6bi b npwnaaKe naayveft. 

B 3tot aeHb, ec/iH naMaTb He H3MenaeT MHe, k HaM b rocTHHHuy 
3axoawa Tpane3HHKOB; h roBopna KaK-TO CTpaHHo: oh roBopwa o tom, 
4to b M«p Haer HOBbifl yMHTeab, KOTopuft y3HaeTca no TOMy, mto oh 
6yaeT BHaTHO roBopHTb o 2-om npHiuecTBHH, hto oh KaK 6w yace c 
HaMH; ho eiue He Bbiuiea Ha nponoBeaHHiecKyio apeHy; 3to tot, kto b 
oaHOM H3 npomabix BonaomeHHH 6bia Jesus'oM ben Pandira, Haiaab- 
hhkom HecceftCKoro opaeHa 31 ; o6pamaacb ko MHe, Tpane3HHKOB KaK- 
to CTpaHHo roBopHa o tom, hto Haao aepacaTbca cxpoMHee h THiue; 
a to — B03ropaHTbca mokho; roBopna oh eme o B03MO>KHocTax Ka- 
khx-to 6oae3Hett; h o tom, hto qeaoBewecTBO BCTynaeT b rpoMOByK) 
noaocy >kh3hh; KpoMe Toro: oh BcnoMHHaa, hto TeTe 3aecb, b Jleftn- 
UHre, bo BpeMa CBoefl 6oae3HH noayina nocBameHHe. CaoBa CTpaH- 
ho cnaeTaancb c mohm cocToaHbeM co3HaHHa; MHe oTaaBaaocb: Hy — 
aa; h a, bot, — 3aecb Towe noayiHa cBoe ayxoBHoe nocBameHHe; b 
tom >Ke ropoae, rae h TeTe. Tpane3HHKOB xpoMe Toro roBopHa: 
«3aecb, noa JleflnuHroM poaHHa Hnmue; h 3aecb »e — Mornaa ero; 
BaM Haao 6w noKaoHHTbca ero MorHae». CaoBa sth onaTb-TaKH 



!l B aeflnuHre, 4-5 hoh6pji (h.ct.) 1911 r., UlTeflHep HHtan ^eKUHto (m Kypca «Das 
rosenkreuzerische Christentum») «Jeshu ben Pandira, der Vorbereiter fur ein Verstand- 
nis des Christus-Impu)ses» (ony6;iHKOBaHa b Hopnaxe, 1937 r.). Jeshu ben Pandira 
ynoMHHyt TaK>Ke b neKUHdx H3 Kypca «Das Matthaus-Evangelium» (1910). O ero 3Haie- 
hhh b yieHMH UJTeflHepa cm. kh.. DIE CHRISTOSOPHIE RUDOLF STEINERS, Klaus 
von Steiglitz (Witten-Ruhr, 1955), c.163-165. 



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CTpaHHO OTcma/MCb bo MHe; MHe npeacTaBH/iocb: naaoMHHHecTBo Ha 
MorHay Hwuiue ecTb npomaHHe Moe c mohm npouiabiM, npoiuaHHe co 
CBoero HCTopHefl, b KOTopofl Hnuuie 6bia ana mchh nocaeaHHM Kpyn- 
hwm 3bchom; h — KpoMe Toro: Becb Ho»6pb h aexa6pb eweaHeBHO 
no BenepaM « npoHHTbrnaa aa« Hnume (t.c MbicaeHHO noaaBas Hhu- 
iue MHTaeMoe b ayxoBHbift mhp) «Christentum als mystische Tatsa- 
che» 32 IllTeHHepa (3Ty we KHHry h HHTaa aaa OTua: npH6aH3HTeabHO 
b 3to we BpeMJ?). Mbi c Acefl h Tpane3HHKOBbiM TOTwac we peuJHaH: 
Ha flHHx oTnpaBHMCH k Mornae HHuiue... 

2-ro HHBapfl BenepoM a-p IilTeftHep HHTaa oaHy H3 cbohx aexuHH 
(ywe He KypcoByw); » 6bia npeacnoaHeH TaKofl cHaoH aio6BH k ao«- 
Topy h ko XpHCTy, hto onaTb HacTynHji momcht, Koraa h nyBCTBO- 
Baa, hto 3Toft cHabi nepewHBaHHH He Bbiaep>KHT Moe Teao; h MHe xo- 
Teaocb ynacTb Ha 3eMaio; ryT a-p o6opBaa aeKUHio (caeaaa nepepbiB); 
Bflpyr moh cocea — ToacTbiH, naoTHbift MywHHHa KaMHeM rpoxHyaca 
na MeHfl b anHaencHwecKOM npHnaaKe; Mbi ero noaxBaTHaii c oaHHM 
MywHHHofl (aaHHHooopoabiM, c aaHHHbiMH BoaocaMH, HanoMHHaK)- 
iuhm TpaaHUHOHHoe H3o6paweHne BpeineHH c kocoh; 3Toro MywnnHy 
h Ha3biBaa «BpeM»» — oh BnocaeacTBHH nrpaa poab b Moefi wh3hh); 
npMnaaoHHoro Mbi BbmecaH b coceaHfoio KOMHaTy: y Hero H30 pTa 
uiaa neHa h oh menTaa: «Heil, Heil!» ft yaowna ero Ha noa, pac- 
CTerHya bopothhk, noaaowwa htq-to MHXKoe noa roaoBy h CTaa cMa- 
MHBaTb bhckh npHHeceHHofi BoaoKr, «BpeM«» ceao paaoM h cnaeao 
Moawa; a ft, ctoh Ha KoaeHHX, Bee B03nacfl c npnnaao i iHbiM; t>t ot- 
Bopnaacb aBepb; h Boiuea a-p, CTaa Haa Ha.MH h nocMorpeB Ha iipH- 
naaoMHoro. cKaiaa: «Macht nichts!» On nocMOTpea Ha MeHH KaK-TO 
oco6eHHO npHCTaabHo; h Bbiaiea, — npoaoawaTb HTemie aexuHn; h 
t>'t MHe onflTb CTpaHHO OT03Baaca b ayme Bjraaa a-pa: h npoacHHa- 
ch CMbica Moero nocTynxa; nepeao mhoh aewaa He npiinaaoHHMH, a 
h caM — moh aBoftHHK, Moe nH3iuee «j>», KOTOpoe npuHHao &y\, H 
KOTopoe aoa>Kno Tenepb, aoMHMoe ayxoM, TaK we hot iiacrb h 60- 
aeTb, KaK 3tot nepeao mhoh aewamnfi npunaaoHHbifi. 

C 3T0ft MbicabK) o npeacToameH MHe oneHb THweaofi 6oae3Hii, 
CBH3aHHofl c nocBHineHHeM, xoana h; h nopofl MHe aeaaaocb wvtko; 
Ka3aaocb: «Bot Tbi BepHembCH b BepaiiH; h — Boafl/Kemb Ha oap». 

Ha caeayKjnxHfl aenb, 3-ro, Mbi ornpaBHawcb (a, Aca, Haraiua. 
riouuo, rieTpoBCKHH, Tpane3HHKOB) b Ty aepeByiuKy noa .lettnuHroM, 
rae poanaca Hnmue, rae oh npoBea CBoe aeTCTBO (t>t 6bia npnxoa 
ero OTua, nacTopa HHmue) 3 '; c waaHOCTbto BraaabiBaaoi « b \ia- 



" "Das Chrislentum als mysterischc Taisachf» (bep.niH, 1902); «Das Chrisiennim 
als myslische Tatsache und die Mysterien des Altertums" (^efiimwi, 1910). 

13 HwuLue (1844-1900) noxopoHeH pnaOM c otuom, /iioiepaHCKHM nacropoM. b 
aepeByujKe ROeken noxi JleftnuwroM, rue oh h pojn, ! icn. 



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jieHbKHe acejiTbie aomhujkh aepeByuiKH; Mbi npn6aH3HaHCb k uepKBH 
c Kaaa6HiueM, Hainan Mornay HHiiuie h bo3^o»hjih Ha Hee UBeTbi; 
Koraa a ckhohhji KoaeHH nepea MornaoR ero, co mhoR caynwaocb 
HeHTO CTpaHHoe: MHe noKa3aaocb, hto KOHyc hctophh ot mchh OTBa- 
aHaca; a — BbimeJi H3 hctophh b HaancTopHHecKoe: BpeMH caMO CTaao 
KpyroM; Haa 3thm KpyroM — Kynoa AyxoBHoro Xpavia; h oaHOBpe- 
MfeHHo: 3tot XpaM — Moa roaoBa, <o*» Moe CTaao «.#» («B» 60Jlb- 
uihm); H3 neaoBeica a CTaa HeaoM BeKa; h BMecTe c TeM: a noiyBCT- 

BOBaJI, WTO CO MHOJO BMeCTe H3 HCTOPHH BbllUJia HCTOpHH; HCTOpHH 

— KOHHHaacb; KOHHHJiHCb ee noHHTHbie BpeMeHa; Mbi npopocan b He- 
noH«THoe; h ctohm y rpaHH KoaoccaabHefluiHX, noanTHnecKHX 34 h 
KocMHnecKHx nepeBopoTOB, aoa>KeHCTByK>iuHx b 30-x roaax 3aBep- 

UJHTbCH BTOpbIM IlpHllieCTBHeM, KOTOpOe y)Ke HaiaaOCb B HHAHBHiiy- 
ajlbHblX C03HaHHHX OTaeabHblX niOflefl (H B MOeM C03HaHHH); B Ty 

MHHyTy, Koraa a cToaa nepea rpo6HHueK> Hnmue, MoaHHflHO npo- 
Hecca bo MHe paa Mbicaefi, no3aHee aeriuHx b moh MeTbipe KpH3Hca 
(«Kpu3uc )Ku3hu», «Kpu3uc Mbic/iu», «Kpu3uc Ky/ibmypbi» n «Kpu- 

3UC C03HdHUH») li ; H CaM B 3Ty MHHyTy 6bia CBOHM C06CTBeHHbIM 

kph3hcom, h6o KOHqeHa, pa3pyuieHa moh 6biaaa a<H3Hb, ee npe>KHHe 
HHTepecbi; h bot — a He 3Haio: ieM 6yay 3aBrpa. MHe Ka3aaocb — 
Tpane3HHKOB, Aca, riouuo h HaTama noHHMaiOT, hto nocemeHHe 
rpo6HHjjbi Hnmiie ecTb sui generis o6paa b aHax Moero nocBameHHa: 
ohh 6binH jok-to HecayiaftHO MyTKH h ocTopo>KHb) co mhoR. He no- 
HHMaji HHnero nnnib A.C. IleTpoBCKHH. 

TaK MHe Ka3aaocb b Ty MHHyTy, Koraa a copBaji BeTOHKy naioma 
ot MorHJibi HHUiue (3Ta BeTOiKa h ao chx nop rae-TO xpaHHTca b 
mohx Bemax, b .HopHaxe). TyT noaoiuea k HaM nacTop uepKBH, noBea 
noKa3biBarb uepKOBb h MHoro paccica3biBaa o nacTope HHiniie, koto- 
pbifl To»ce 6bia 3aMeMaTeabH0fl aHHHOCTbK). FIomhhtc» MHe Ha bo3- 
BpaTHOM nyTH ot Mornabi orpoMHoe, KpaCHoe, jaicaTbiBajoiueeca 
coaHue; h onaTb npo3Bynaao: «KoHyc hctophh ot Te6a OTBaanaca: 
hctophh KOH4Haacb!» B 3tot Benep 6biaa nocaeaHaa aeicuHa a-pa, 
KOTopwR MarKO, hioSobho roBopHa o Hnume; h MeHH yaHBHao: «rio- 
ieMy oh roBOpHT o HHUiue? Tohho oh 3HaeT, hto a ceroaHa 6bia Ha 
Mornae Hnuuje...» nepea aeKunefl, y Bxoaa b 3aa MeHa Bapyr ocTa- 
naBaHBaeT ceaott CTapwMOK, nacTop h iaeH Hamero O-Ba, KOToporo 
HeaaBHo nepea TeM MHe npeacTaBHan b BepaHHe, KaK uiKoabHoro 



" C/iobo «no;iHTHHeCKHX» 6bi.no acraBJieHO ncniiHee. 

■" HA UEPEBAJIE. I. KPH3HC XH3HH (U&., «Ajikohoct», 1918); HA nEPE- 
BAJ1E. II. KPH3HC MblCIIH (116, «Ajikohoct», 1918); HA IlEPEBAJIE. III. KPH- 
3HC KVJIbTyPbl (n6, «Ajikohoct, 1920). KPH3MC C03HAHHX ocTaeTca hc- 
ony6jinKOBaHHbiM. riepBue Tpn nacTH uHitna 6u^h nepenenaTaHbi way. 3.M. rp*e6H- 
Ha b 1923 r. 



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TOBapHma Hmime (oh cnaea c HHinue h fleflccoHOM Ha oaHofl iiiKo/ib- 
hoh napTe) 36 , — ocTaHaBJiHBaeT h tobopht: «Ich habe jetst die "Sil- 
berne Taube" gelesen; die ostliche mystik ist schrecklich»... (b 3th ro- 
abi ywe 6wa nepeBeaeH Ha HeMeuKHft «3wk «Cepe6p*Hbiu eo/iy6b» 31 . 

B 3th we ahh, AHeM 6bian h co6paHH« E.S. 

Si noapo6HO Tax ocTaHaBJiHBaiocb Ha ahhx JleflnuHra: ohh ctoht 

B MOHX BOCnOMHHaHHHX, KaK MTO-TO orpoMHoe. 

Koraa mm BepHyaHCb b BepjiHH (iHcaa 5-ro), to MHe Ka3aaocb: 
mw BepHyjiHCb He H3 JleftnuHra, a H3 HeKoero ayxoBHoro MHpa, HHcna- 
m b 6ep^HHCKHe KOMHaTbi; MHe Ka3aaocb, ito nepewHToe Hanpawe- 
HHe Tenepb OTpa3HTca 6oae3Hbio; HecKoabKO aHeft n >khji b OMHnamm: 
«Koraa we h caary». 

EcnH naMHTb He H3MeH«eT, — 6-ro HHBapa a-p MHTaa b aowe 
ncKixnio «0 napcH(Jiajie» 38 . B Heft yKa3biBaaocb, mto b HacToaiuee 

BpeMH B03MOWHbI HOBbie MHCTepHH: COeaHHeHHe MHCTepHH 03HpHCa H 

M3Habi c MHcrepHeft Tpaaaa. MHe Ka3aaocb, ito IleTpoBCKHH aoa- 
x.en oco6eHHo bhhtho paccabimaTb roaoc a-pa; h bot — He paccaw- 
inaji. Ha 3TOfl jickuhh h nonpoiuaaca c IleTpoBCKHM, ye3>KaBiuHM b 
MocKBy. 

noaroTOB.nH.iocb «Generalversammlung», BTopoe no OTaeaeHHio 
ot TeococtwnecKoro O-Ba; oho aoawHo 6biao HanaTbca npH6aH3H- 
TeabHo HHBaps OKoao 20-ro (mowct 6biTb, h HecKoabKO paHee) 39 . 
BpeMfl Me)Kay aefinuHrcKHM xypcovi h reHepaabHbiM co6paHHeM 6biao 
BpeMH CToab we ana mchh HCKatmHTeabHoe, KaK h aefinuHrcKHfi Kypc. 
Kawabift aeHb 3Toro nepwoaa 6bia npeHcnoaHeH aaa mchh Bee hobm- 

MH H HOBblMH y3HaHHHMH: O ayXOBHOM MHpe, O CBOefi HCKaKJHHTeab- 

HOtt cb»3H c a-poM h c M.fl., o co6biTHHX orpoMHoft BawHocTH, noa- 

rOTOBaHBUJHXCH BO BCeM MHpe; H KaK-TO BblXOaHaO, MTO MOH CBH3b c 

a-poM, c o6mecTBOM 0Ka3biBa.nacb b ueriH mhpobmx co6biTHR h6o 
npOBHaeHUHaabHocTb (Jwrypbi a-pa b 3tot nepHoa 6biaa oco6eHHO 
HpKa. f{ He CTaHy KacaTbca Hanfkmee hhthmhmx co6biTHft b Moefl 
ayxoBHoft wh3hh: hx ropa3ao 6oaee TpyaHo o6ao>KHTb caoBaMH, qeM 
nepewHBaHHJi aeftmiHrcKoro UHkaa; CKawy ToabKo: ecaH co6biTHa 
aeftnuHrcKoro Kypca pa3BepHyawcb aaa mchh KaK mhctcphh iiocbh- 

"■ HeftccoH — Paul Deussen (1845-1919), apyr Hwuiue co BpeMemi hx 3HaK0MCTBa 
b rHMHa3HH, aBTop BOcnoMMHaHHR o Hnuuie (ERINNERUNGEN AN FREIDRICH 
NIETZSCHE, .lettnuHr. 1910). 

r DIE SILBERNE TAUBE. Roman. Ubersetzung aus dem russischen von Lully 
Wiebeck (Frankfurt. 1912). 

-'* 6 RHBaps (h.ct.) UlTeflHep HHran 8 BepjiHHe jieKumo in umcia «Aus der Akasha- 
Forschung. Das funfte Evangelium», rae 4>HrypHpyeT TOJiKoaaHHe crnxoTBopHoro po- 
viaHa Bo.ib<t>paMa (]>oh 3uieH6axa «IlapcM(tiajib». 

" BTopoR Generalversammlung der Anthroposophischen Gesellschaft und des Johan- 
nesbau-Vereins npoxoaH/io b Bep/iHHe ot 18 no 20 DHBapn 1914 r. (h.ct.) 



369 



memm mchh b TaftHbi ayxa, to Becb nepHoa ot 6-ro smBapa ao reHe- 
_pajibHoro co6paHH« ctoht b naMHTH, xax 6m sui generis mhctcphh 
MQero nocBHmeHHH b cyab6bi Hauiero ayxoBHoro aBHaceHHa; b 3tot 
nepnoa Taxwe MHe Ka3aaocb, hto a-p h OKpyacaiomHe a-pa 3cotcphkh 
npHOTKpbiBaKiT MHe Tatoy Moero npeawaymero BonaomeHHfr; h sto 
BonaomeHHe, crojib roaoBOKpyacHTeabHoe, CTaHOBHTca nepeao 
mhok), KaK co6jia3H; npHHATb ero, 3HaHHT: o ce6e B030MHHTb; a 
ce6a BcnoMHHaio, KaK 6m 6opK>iuHMca c caMHM a-poM: a-p HaB»3M- 
BaeT MHe — noBepHTb b CBoe BonnomeHHe; a we — He npHHHMaio 
ero*. B cbok) onepeab: renepajibHoe co6paHHe, onaTb-TaKH, — HOBaa 

MHCTepHH: MHCTepHH nOCBHlUeHHH B CTpaaaHHe, MHCTepHH HCepTBbI, 

6e3 kotopoh He MO»eT 6biTb HHKaKoro 6ecKopbiCTHoro cayaceHHa 
Hyxy; h 3th tph MHCTepHH othochtch apyr k apyry, KaK 3 aKTa oaHoft 
MHCTepHH; bot Bee, hto a Mory cKa3aTb 06 stom BpeMeHH; ana 
Toro, hto6m KOHKpeTHO BCKpbiTb cyTb «Mucmepuii», Haao 6bi MHe 
HanncaTb ToacTbift tom, onncaTb aeHb 3a aHeM, BCTpeny 3a BCTpe- 
Hefl, h6o Bee, aa*e MeaKHe co6mthh SToro BpeMeHH, — onpo3pan- 
HeHbr. h caaraioTca b eanHyio uenb co6mthh. FIosTOMy a OTMeny 
niiuib coBepiueHHo BHeuiHHe no oTHomeHHio k aapy Moefi >kh3hh (J)aK- 
Tbi Haiuero 6mthh. 

MHe noMHHTCH paa aeKUHfl a-pa, Meacay npoHHM: aBe ny6aHHHbix 
(oana H3 hhx 6biaa nocBameHa «Mui<e/ib AHdjtcejio» 40 . rioMHHTca 
My3biKaabHO nosTHHeCKHH Benep, Ha kotopom HHTaancb HeMeuKHe 
nepeBoabi PoceTTH h HcnoaHaaca paa My3MKanbHbix HOMepoB; Ha 
3tot Benep M..H. noao3Baaa Hac h pa3BepHyaa HaM c Aceft nnaH 6y- 
aymero TeTeaHyMa h ynacTKOB 3eMjiH, KOTopbie HjieHM O-Ba MoryT 
npHo6pecTH (H3 3eMaH, no>KepTBOBaHHOH TpocxaHHueM). M.fl. noKa- 
3aaa HaM MaaeHbKHfi ynacTOK, okojio 6yaymero «Bau» h npoeKTH- 
pyeMoro aoMHKa a-pa h CKa3aaa, hto 3tot ynacTOK npHHaaxiOKHT 
k nacTH 3eMaH, KOTopyio oHa npHo6peaa b co6cTBeHHocTb; OHa cxa- 
3aaa: «3tot ynacroK a ycTynaio BaM...» TaK b npHHunne mm eme ao 
noHBaeHHa b HopHaxe OKa3ajiHCb b noTeHUHH yace aopHaxuaMH; mm 
pa30HJiH c Aceft, hto ynacTOK 3tot Mbi BnoaHe MO*eM npHo6pecTH. 

B sto BpeMH pa3pa3Haca HHunaeHT EoabTa b O-Be (o hcm aoaro 
paccKa3b(BaTb); 4i h noa 3HaKOM 3Toro HHunaeHTa mm BCTynnjiH b 



* «BonjioiueHne MHKeJib-AHflHce.no (?!?)» — ripHM. A.Bcnoro (BCTaB/i. no3/iHee). 

K 8 HHBapa 1914 r. (h.ct.) LLlTefiHep HHTa/i ny6jiHiHyK) jieKUHio b 6epjiHHCK0M 
Architekten haus: «Michelangelo und seine Zeit vom Gesichtspunkte der Geisteswissen- 
schaftw. 

41 Ee.ibift nHuieT 6o.iee noapoOHO 06 «HHun,neHTe Bo/ibTa» b cbohx BOCflOMHHA- 
HMHX O UITEtiHEPE (IlapH*, 1982), c. 33-34. B 6poiuwpe «Sexualprobleme im Lich- 
te der Natur- und Geisteswissenschaft» (1911) BojibT (Boldt, Ernst) Meiuaji B3rji»iibi 
LUTeflHepa h <t>peflzia Ha npo6neMy no/ia. BnocjieacTBHH, b 20-e roAM, BojibT ony6- 
/lHKOBaii HecKo^bKO KHHr 06 yqeHHM LUTeflHepa. 



370 



reHepajibHoe co6paHHe; onnTb, KaK h b npouiaoM roay, reHepaabHoe 
co6paHHe aanaocb 6oaee HeaeaH; oho 6biao iiojiho aoKaaaaMH, My3bi- 
KajibHbiMH BenepaMH, aeaoBbiMH HHunaeHTaMH, 3aceaaHHHMH rJ)epeH- 
Ha, o6pa30BaHHoro BOKpyr «Bau» (Johannesbau-Verein); mh CTaaH 
H^eHaMH 3Toro (fcepeftHa 42 . 06mee HacTpoeHHe 3Toro BpeMeHH — 
KaKan-To TpeBora, tohho rae-TO, b ray6HHe o6mecTBa, CTaaa bo3- 
HHKaTb onno3HUH» HeKOTopbiM HaiHHaHHHM a-pa; h a nepe>KHBaa 3Ty 
onno3nuHio neo6bmaHHo MynHreabHo; MHe OHa Ka3ajiacb Bbipa^eHH- 
eM apyrofl 6opb6bi: tcmhmx oiacyabTHbix chji BOOpywHBiiiHxcH npo- 
thb BejiHKoro CBeTa H3 rpnaymero; nyBCTBOBaaHCb bhxph KaKOH-TO 
rpaHiiH03HOft KaTacTpot})bi, cryuiaBiueHCH ma ueabiM mhpom; h b 
nacTHocTH: Haa ctpohmmm «Bau». R nepencHBaa KaKHe-To HanaaeHHH 
Ha to CBcnioe, hto >khbo bo MHe: «M/iadeHyy», KOToporo h b ce6e 
BbiHamHBaa c JleflnuHra, CTaaa yrpoaoTb onacHOCTb. ilBa CHa 3anoM- 
HHJiHCb MHe b 3to BpeMH; oflHH coh: h BH>Ky ce6n b nonBajie 3aaHHH, 
KaK 6bi «Bau»: h aoaweH ce6n 38>khbo noxopoHHTb b 3tom noaBaae, 
KaK «epyHdiw?ieuH» cavioro Johannesbau. MHe a<yTKo >KHBOMy ao- 
>KHTbca b Mormiy; ho Ha.uo mhoh ctoht a-p; h naabueM yKa3biBaeT 
Ha HMy: «JIo>KHCb!» M h noKopHO yKaaabiBaiocb. Hpyrofi coh: KaKoe- 
to myMHoe co6paHHe, Ha kotopom mchh 3ayiiiaK)T, riHHaioT HoraMH, 
onaeBbiBaioT 43 ; h — noaxojKy k OKHy; b okhc — Bocxoanmee coaHue, 
KOTopoe h yBnaea nepsbifl H3 Bcex; ho 3to He coaHue, a — Xphctoc 
rpaayiUHH; nyn coaHua naaaer MHe Ha ao6, npoHHuaeT roaoBy h 
onycKaeTCH b cepaue; 3to — Xphctob HMnyabc. 

CpeaH paaa aeKUHH MHe noneMy-TO oco6eHHO 3anoMHHancb: aeK- 
UHH oaHoro BeHCKoro aHTponoco(J)a (3a6bia ($>a\innnK>), aeKUHH 06 
Aab6pexTe Uropepe BeHCKoro xyao>KHHKa BarHepa, aeKUHH aupeKTopa 
3eaaHHra, aeKUHH a-pa Hoaa«, aBTo6Horpa(J)HH a-pa, hm paccKa3aH- 
Haa; h aeKUHH Mnxanaa Bay3pa, KOTopbift 6bia co mhoh oieHb nacKO.a- 
Ha stom coGpaHHH; aeKUHa Bayspa Kacaaacb Xphctob[oh] J1k)6bh; 
bo BpeMH aeKUHH co mhoh npoH30ujao HewTO noao6Hoe nponcujecT- 
bhk3 bo BpeMH aeKUHH 06 AnoaaoHOBOM CBeTe; 6yaTo Hcne3 noToaoK, 
pacKpbiaca moh nepen; cepaue — CTaao nameA; h ayi XpncroBa Co- 
uiecTBHH npoHH3aa mchh. 

no BenepaM a-p HHTaa cboh Kypc aeKUHfl «0 MaxpoKOCMunecKOM 
u MuxpoxocMUuecKOM Mbiiu/ieHUu>i M \ 3tot Kypc noTpac MeHH TeM, 



4: Johannesbau-Verein, nocBHTHBUiufi cboio .lesTejibHOCTb nocTpoiiKe aHTponocoi))- 
CKoro «xpaMa» ((jy/iywero TeTeaHyMa), o6paioBa.ic« 5 (J)eBp. 1913 r. (h.ct.) b Eep;inHe. 

41 Cp. EBaHrejine or Maizes 26.67: «Tor.aa ti.ieBa.in Eviy b .-ume h 3ayma;in Ero; 
npyrHe *e yaapfuin Ero no ,naHHTaM». 

44 B BepnHHe 20-23 smBapo 1914 r. (h.ct.) UlTeflHep HHTaji neTbipe ,ieKunii «Der 
menschliche und der Kosmische Gedanke». CraTbH 3M5J1EMATHKA CMblCflA 
(1909) 6bina ony6nnKOBaHa b kh. Bejioro CHMBOJ1H3M (M., 1910). c.49-143. 



371 



hto hbhjich Kax 6bi ana MeHfl TpaHCKpHnuHeft Moeft «3M6/ieMamuKu 
Cmwc/i<i» Ha aHTponoco<|)CKHft nan. 

Bee co6wthh 3Toro BpeMeHH MHe KaacyTca HeBepoaTHbiMH; h ca- 
Moe Hauie nepeccneHHe c Aceft b Ba3enb, hto6w pa6oTaTb npn «Bau» 
Ka3anocb HaM BaacHOH 3noxofi >KH3HH.ToTHac *e nocjie aGeneralver- 
sammlung» a-p yexan c M..H. b XJopHax, a mm noexajiH Tyaa >Ke nepe3 
HecKOJibKO aHefl; HaTaiua h Flomio aojiacHbi 6biJiH 3a HaMH cneao- 
BaTb. noMHHTCH: mw ABHHy^HCb H3 BepjiHHa 31-ro HHBapa. H yTpoM 
1-ro (fceBpajiH 6hinu b Ba3ejie. 

<Peepaab. 

B nepBbifl *e aeHb npHe3aa b Ea3ejib Aca 6buia b ZIopHaxe, ocmo- 
Tpe/ia CTpoaumftca «Bau» h BepHyjiacb ko MHe H3 JlopHaxa c Phxtc- 

pOM, 3BaBllIHM HaC yCHJieHHO pa60TaTb npH «BCIU». OcTaHOBHJIHCb Mbl 

b «H6tel [zum] Bitren» Ha Aeschenvorstadt; TaK KaK b flopHaxe h b 
ApnecreflMe eme He 6bijio ana Hac noaxoaamHx KOMHaT (mu ycnoBH- 

JIHCb, 1TO IIOJiyMHM KOMHaTbl y E.A. MjIbHHOfl, KOTOpaH HaM KOMHa- 

Tbi cuacT, ho KOMHaT OHa eme He nanynajia). 3 <{)eBpajia a nepBbifl 
pa3 yBHaeJi «Bau», noexaBiiiH b XlopHax; 6buia B03BeaeHa jinuib iacTb 
6eTOHHoro <J)yH,naMeHTa, cxeJieT ctch (aepeBBHHbix); HanHHajiH eme 
B03BOflHTb octob 6yaymero Kynojia; Bee pa6oTbi cocpeaoTonHjiHCb b 
CTOJiHpHHX, b Tpex rpoMaaHbix, aepeBHHHbix capaax, rae nHJiHJiH ne- 
peBO, cnpeccoBbiBanH ero, 3aroTOBJiaa 6yayiuHe tojiiuh ann aepeBHH- 
Horo Ba«HH»; b Te ahh CTOJiapHH «Bau» CHHTanacb nepBoft CTOJiap- 
Heft b IIlBeftuapHH h pa6oTano 3aecb ao 300 ctojihpob; xyao*ecTBeH- 
Hbie pa6oTbi flon>KHbi 6wjiH HanaTbca eme ToabKo nepe3 1 1/2 Mecaua; 
H3 aHTponoco(t)OB, cbexaBiiiHxca aaa pa6oTbi, 6biaa eme TOJibKO He- 
6ojibiuaa rpynna, nejiOBeic 20; 6oabiiiHHCTBO Monoae>KH noKa lepTH/iH 
naaHbi fljia «Bau», pa3pa6aTbiBanH ruiaHbi 6yaymnx apxHTpaBOB, 
hjih pa6oTafiH npH CTcaapHe; iepTe)KHaa noMemajiacb noKa b oahom 
hs 3aaHHft AopHaxa. a KOH-ropa cToaapHH npH «Bau»; b nepBbifl >Ke 
fleHb PHXTep ycTpoHji MeHa npH CToaapHe; moh aojDKHOCTb 3aKjiK>wa- 
nacb b tom, hto 3anHCbiBan b khhi-h HaHHMaBiuHxca Ha pa6oTy cto- 
jiapoB, a TaK>Ke BbicMHTbiB&n 3apa6oTHyio anaTy, a Aca noxa npn- 
CTpoHjiacb npn nepTOKHofl; b 12 nacoB pa6oTaioiuHe-aHTponoco<i>bi 
cxonHJiHCb y fly6ax, KnaBaHH AaeKcaHapoBHbi, rae hx kopmhjih o6e- 
aoM (b ApjiecreftMe); pa6oTanH ot 9 ao 4 (c nepepbiBOM ana o6eaa); 
bot Koro H3 aHTponoco4)OB a noMHio b 3toh ocHOBHoft rpynne: ,Hok- 
top IllTeftHep, M.JL CHBepc; apxHTeKTop «Bau» IIImhat, HHHceHep 
3HrnepT (noTOM CMeHHBiiiHft IIlMHaTa); 3aBeayiomHft cToaapaMH 
JlHXTi^oreJib; Hae3KaioiuHH eaceHeaenbHO H3 IIlTyTrapTa a-p YHrep, 
BenaBLUHH (J)HHaHCOBbiMH pacqeTaMH; Jlnccay, 3aBe^OBaBmHH kohto- 
poK), 3en(J)eJibT, Mofl HenocpezicTBeHHbiH, Tax cKa3aTb, HanaabHHK; 



372 



aaaee — hcptokhhrh: (J)0H-reflne6paHaT, KeMnep, Zly6ax, Acs, 
OpHaKHHa, Jlnsvib; aaaee pacnopn>KaBuinftC5i PnxTep; aajiee ToMac; 
KpoMe Toro: HaxoaHancb b AopHaxe b stoh nepBHHHofl ceMbe aHTpo- 
noco(j)OB: ronnauaeu Jleae6yp, MjibHHa, K.A. Hy6ax, H.H. Eoro- 
HBneHCKaa 45 , paooTafomaa nan MoaeaaMH (rnncoBbiMH) aHraHnaHKa 
M3phoh h xyao>KHHK H.H. KHceJieB; bot Ta rpynna, KOTopyio a 3a- 
CTaa ripn npne3ae b JIopHaxe; iepe3 2-3 hh« k 3toh rpynne npHcoeaH- 
HHjiacb HaTama h A.M. riouuo, nonaBUJHe b nepTOKHyio. 

riepBoe Bpe.viH Kaa<abiH aenb Mbi c Aceft b 8 nacoB OTnpaBaaaHCb 
m Ea3ea« c rpaMOM b ZlopHax h ywe b Hanaae aecHToro 6biaH Ha 
paDOTax; b 12 ^acoB — o6eaaan; b 4 B03BpamanHCb b Ba3e;ib: b 5 huh 
b 6 6bi.nn aoMa: jhh tck.th mohotohho; nocae npa3aHHMHbix, 6ypHbix 
HHBapcKHx jiHefl HacTynH.in oyaHH. 

Ach h HaTaiiia npoiHO ycTpoHJiHCb b hcptokhoh, KaK xyao>KHH- 
Ubi, a y \ieHH CKopo Haqaaiicb neaopa3yMeHHn c 3eH(J>eabTOM (no- 
Moe\iy oh 6bia ne Bno.iHe hhct no C4eTHOH nacTH) h h nepecTaa e3flHTb 
b ,IopHax. ripopaooTa.i h c 3en(})eabTOM okojio aByx Heaeab. 

BeCb 3TOT MeCHU WVBCTByK) Ce6« VTOMaeHHblM H KaK 6bl HeCKOHb- 

ko pa304apoBaHHbivt; Bee Te nepe>KHBaHHH, KOTopbie Tax 6ypHo Ha- 
aeTean na mchh b XpHcrnamiH h pocaH HenpepbiBHO ao 4>eBpa/in, 
ne ocaanancb HHKaKHMH omyTHTe.nbHbiMH nocjieacTBHHMH ann MeHH: 
hh peaamaumi «nocemaeHu.H», hh «6o,ie3Hu», KOTopyio « b ce6e bo- 
o6paina; BCTpenascb b ilopHaxe c a-poM h c M.H., a wyBCTBOBa/i y 

HHX HOTbl HCKOTOpOfl Caep>KaHHOH OTaaaeHHOCTH no OTHOUJeHHHO KO 

MHe; npuxoaiiaocb nacTO Bnaerbca c a-poM TpocxaHHueM h c ero we- 

HOft, sKIIBlIlHMtt B CBOefi BH.IJie OKOJTO «BdU»\ B 3TOH >Ke BHJIJie 5KHJ1 H 

a-p c M.fl. (>>kc nosaHee a-p npno6pea ce6e villa Hansi — noa xoa- 

MOM, H3 KOTOPOM CTpOH.ICfl «BaW); OCOOeHHO TOCKaHBbI 6waH MHe 

jhh viocro cnaeHH» a Baieae; Ach c >Tpa ye3JKaaa b HopHax, a h ocTa- 
BaacH ao\ia; h tockmhbo opoaHJi no yanuaM. 3axoawa b 30oaorHne- 
CKHti caa ii cfteaaa b y6oro\i BereTapnaHCKOM pecropaHHHKe. B 3th 
ami h nanncaa CTHXOTBopeHHe <(CaMOco3HOHue»; b hcm OTpa3Haacb 
rpyetb 3Tiix 3Hefl 4S . 

B 3rc>T wecau Mbi c Aceft aBa pa3a e3anan b BepH no aeay o 
i pa;K ohckom opaKe (Ach pemnaacb BcrynHTb co mhoh b rpaacaaH- 
CKiifl opaK BBtuy roro, mto HaM npeacTOHao aoaro >KHTb b uiBeftuap- 

■" Be.iLift :ipnBO.:nT omecTBo Hmibi boroHB.ieHCKofi x KaK «H.» h KaK «A.» (name 
BttM'o kas i.H.»). MHe ho >,ia.ioi.'b ero >T04HMTb 

4 ' CAMOCOiHAHHE (iMhc CHH;iHct: h Mope, m ropi>i...») BnepBbie 6bino ony6- 
.iHkOBaHO b *ypMa.ie "3aBeTbi» (pea. HBaHOBa-PaiyMHHKa), 1914, J^fe5, 6ei Hama- 
mhs: iaTeM u co. JBE1JA h b CTHXOTBOPEH HHX (EepjiHH. 1923), c MToti: «19I4. 
(JhrBpa.ib. Baie.ibH. AB!orpa<*> cTHxoTBopeHHii HaxoaHTCH cpe.w nuceM 1914 r. Be^oro 
HnaHCBV PaiyvHiiKy (ljr.-VTM, <J).P82, on. 1, ea.xp.5). 



373 



cko& aepeBHe; ecnH 6bi y Hac He oxa3aaocb 6y\iar, aoKa3biBaiomHX, 
hto mw My* h ymena, to KpecTbHHe CTajiH 6w Ha Hac KOCHTbca: y*e 
o6Hapy>KHnocb noao3pHTeabHoe oTHomeHHe k aHTponocotfraM co cto- 
poHbi uiBenuapueB; b ra3eTax pyrajiH hx); 47 pa3 H3 EepHa Mbr 3aexaan 
b TyH; 6onee neM c apyrHMH aHTponoco(j)aMH apyxcnaH mw c Phxtc- 
poM. B KOHue MecHua, nocae MacaeHHHUbi mm noexaan c a-poM Ha ero 
jieKUHH b IIlTyTrapTe, rae o6Hapy*Haocb, hto y O-Ba HeT noHTH ae- 
Her Ha npoaoaaceHHe nocTpottKH «Bau>v, Bee oneHb BoaHOBaaHCb; Ha- 
KOHeu kto-to noa<epTBOBan aeHbrn; b IIlTyTrapTe 6bi.no E.S. H3 
IIlTyTrapTa mm noexajiH b FIi^opureHM (c a-poM we); ho b n^opureft- 
Me Ach npocTyflHuacb h mm ahh Ha tph 3acTpHjiH TaM; b sth ahh 
CKOHHanca no3T MopreHuiTepH; noxopoHbi 6bian noa Ea3eaeM; 3aecb 
co*raH ero npax 48 . 

Mapm. 

BepHyjiHCb Mbr yace He b Ea3eab, a b /IppHax, me chjuih KOMHaTy 
b He6oabuiofl TaBepHe (BpeMeHHyK)); b aeHb B03BpameHHH nonajiH Ha 
nepBbie npo6Hbie xyao*ecTBeHHbie pa6oTbi no o6pa6oTKe KanHTeaeft 
6yaymHX kojiohh; 3 ahh pa6oTaa a-p IllTefiHep caM, Boopy>KHduiHCb 
CTaMecKOK), a Mbi Toanofi OKpywaan ero; oh noaaBaa HaM coBeTbi, 
KaK pa6oTaTb; noTOM pa3o6paa« KartHTeaH KoaoHH h HanaaH hx o6pa- 
6aTbiBaTb; HaM c Acefl aocTaaacb KanHTeab caTypnoBofi KoaoHHM, a 
HaTauie, Ka»eTC«, aocTaaacb JlyHa; k 3TOMy BpeMeHH HaqaacH ycH- 
aeHHbifl cie3a aHTponoco(J)OB; noHBHancb: MHTiep, ero cecTpa, Kaac- 
ceH, 6ap. ^OH-3KKapTii]TeHH, IIlTpayc, Boawtiioreab, JlioaBHr Baft, 
<J)pefiaeHH Mafl; noaBHaHCb llepajibT3, JlHHae, jxhmhk IIlMHaeab; cTa- 
aH ci.e)KaTb[cfl] xyaoacHHKH h pe3HHKH H3 MioHxeHa, CKaHaHHaBHH h 
ToaaaHaHH; 6biaa ywe rpynna ao 70-80 neaoBeK. ripnexaaa KaTwep, 
KyiepoBa, HoHTep, XoabuaefiTep, npnexaaa OopcMaH, rpaij). TaMH- 
abTOH h ap. 6yayuiHe pa6oTHHUbi h pa6oTHHKH; Mbi b 3to BpeMH cnH- 
cbiBaaHCb c MaMoit, KOTopaa co6Hpaaacb npnexaTb k HaM H3 MocKBbi. 



47 B nncbMe (noHT. hit. Basel 25.11.14) k MaTepw Bejiwft nHcaji: «CetiHac Mbi jkhbcm 
b Ea3ejre (Schweiz. Basel. Aeschenvorstadt. "Hotel zum Baren N°25) b aByx cmokhmx 
KOMHaTKax, xoth Ach c yTpa ye3»aeT pa6oTaTb b HopHax; jkhbcm mm 3aecb no cjiow- 
hum npHiHHaM. UlBeBuapuu oneHb kochtch Ha Tex, kto He >KeHaTbi, no WHByT b oahom 
noMemeHHH; TaK KaK HaM npHneTcn )KHTb b HopHaxe aonvo (b oynyiueM), to y Hac no- 
Tpe6ywT noKyMeHTbi H ysnaB. mto Mbi He BeHMaHbi, Hac Bbim.iioT m npeaeaoB UlBeR- 
uapHH (no hxhhm 3aKOHaM); BBaay stoto mm BeH4ae.Mc» rpawaaHCKHM 6paKOM (koto- 
poro HeT b Pocchh h KOTopMti eaHHCTBeHHo 3aKOHeH BnojiHe 3aecb); ho ajiji ?Toro Haao 
6yMarH, omanieHHH h npoiee. rioKa HaeT aeao o HauieM BeHnaHHH, mw He Mo>«eM 
CH»Tb b HopHaxe o6ujee noMemeHHe h jkhbcm b OTeae (b Ba3eae). rioBeHiaeMca mw 
MapTa 15-ro hob. cthji»». (UrAJIH, (|).53, on.l, en. xp.359). 

*• 4-7 MapTa 1914 r (h.ct.) HHTaa aeKUHH b IIlTyTrapTe, a 7 (BenepoM) — 8 MapTa 
b ropofle Pforzheim. XpHCTHaH MopreHuiTepH yMep 31 MapTa 1914 r. b MepaHe. Ero 
npax noxopoHeH b TeTeaHyMe. 



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B 3th aHH, noMHHTCH, b AopHaxe OKa3aac» B.B. BoponaeBCKHH, 
KOTopoMy 3necb He noHpaBHaocb; oh Bee waacaaa yMCTBeHHbix pa3- 
roBopoB, aeGaTOB h cnopoB 06 aHTponoco(J)HH, a Mbi 6binn 3aHHTbi 
r.naBHbiM o6pa30M BonpocaMH TexHHMecKHMH: Kax aepwaTb cTaMecKy, 
KaK pe3aTb no aepeBy; noMHfo, hto nHjiH aowaH, aoporH npeBpaTH- 
ancb b rpsnb; b sth ahh noHBHncH b ZlopHaxe npHBaT-aoueHT CaM- 
cohob, 3HaK0Mbifl E.A. H^bHHOfl, — nacTo 6biBan y Hac; aepwaa oh 
ceOH cTpaHHo: MHoro nun; h HaxoHeu mm npocHaw MabHHy, 4to6w 
oh k Ha.M [He] noHBnHjiCH. B 3th AHH Mbr CT>e3flHJiH c ' Ace'ft b BepH 
b tot >Ke aeHb, b KOTOpbifi 6biaH TaM HaTaiua h FIouiio; h TaM, b 
BepHe, o6BeHMa,iHCb rpawaaHCKHM 6paKOM 49 . 

MvBCTBOBa.n « ce6a Bee BpeMH oneHb CTpaHHo: (J)H3HMecKaH pa- 
ooTa, >TOMHTejibHa» h HenpHBbiMHaH, nijia Bpa3pe3 c mohmh MeaHTa- 
uhhmh; nonoca BHyTpeHHeR cocpeaoToieHHOCTH KOHMHjiacb; b ayuie 
ocxaaacb — 6onb. ft cTaa 3aMenaTb, hto Aca Bee 6oaee h 6ojiee 
iaMbixa.iacb b ceoa, Bee ooaee h 6ojiee yxoawaa b pa6oTy, h Meway 
HaviH cTaao o6pa30BbiBaTbca hchto Bpoae cpeaocTeHHH, noxa eme 
riowTH noaMeTHoro; b roaax 3to cpeaocTeHHe yrayoHaocb; cmnaio, 

WTO IipHWHHbl 3TOTO CpeZIOCTeHHH B HOKeaaHHH Ach BOHTH B 4pe3BM- 
MaflHO OvpHbie H HHTeHCHBHbie nepe>KHBaHHH, KOTOpbie pa3BHaHCb BO 

mhc c Beprena. Hao6opoT: c HaTainefi y mchs cTaan HamynbiBaTbca 
OHeHb CTpanHbie othouichhh; ohh HanaaHCb c aeKaopa 1913 roaa, npo- 
tB\4aan b Jlefinunre; h renepb, b ilopHaxe, BHOBb o6Hapy)KHaHCb, ho 
KaK-TO Heneno ana MeHH; MHe Ka3aaocb, mto Meway HaMH BcribixH- 
naTb ciaaa HCKopna 3poTH3Ma, h hto HaTaiua, b ce6e oco3HaB 

3TV HCKOpKV, CTa.ia BHilHMO OT MeHH CTOpOHHTbCHJ nopofl B Heft Mejlb- 

Kajio aaa<e hto-to Bpa>Kae6Hoe no otholuchhk) ko mhc B stot nepH- 
oa HaTaiua h riouuo aepwaawcb H3oaHpoBaHHo; Mbi hx cpaBHHTeabHO 
\iaao BHaaaH; 6oaee Bcero Mbi o6iuaaHCb c PnxTepoM; oh npHxoaHa k 
naiM b Hauj oTeabMHK «Zum Ochsen», Boawa BenepoM Ha nporyaKH, 
roBopna c HaMH o tom, htoSm Mbi HaBceraa noceanaHCb b AopHaxe 
ripn 6yaymeM «£taw», KynHB jeMaio h nocTpoHB Ha Heft aomhk. UlTefl- 
nep eMy nopynna Bee pa6oTbi no CTexaaM; cTeKaa Haao 6biao n3ro- 
TOBMTb OCo6eHHblM o6pa30M H nOTOM Bbipe3aTb Ha HHX Te pucyHKH, 
KOTopbie PiixTep aoa>KeH 6bia npnroTOBHTb no 3CKH3aM a-pa; oh hho- 
raa npHnocna k Ha.vi 3CKH3bi, ToabKO hto aaHHbie eMy aoKTopoM, h 
npeaaaraa Ace hx pa3pa6oTaTb; Boo6uie oh MeHTaa MeHH, Acjo, Ha- 
Taiuy h riouuo B3«Tb ann pa6oTbi Ha CTeKaax; MacTepcKyfO aan CTe- 
koji, ue.TbiH o6opyaoBaHHbiH homhk, BecbMa cTpaHHofl (J)opMbi, npea- 
iioaaraan cneuiHO BbicTpoHTb npn «Bau»; PnxTep Boana Hac k bo3- 
BoaHMOMy aoMHKy; Mbi Macro c hhm cnaeaH Ha CTpoflKe; h pa3roBa- 

" BeM'iaMHf cociosTocb 23 MapTa (h.ct.) 1914 r. b BepHe. 

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pHBajiH o «flau», o cTeKjiax, o nyTH; eme mm apy*HjiH c roaaaHaueM 
JIeae6ypoM, xotopmK Toace aoaaceH 6bia cocpeaoTOMHTbCH Ha CTex- 
jiax. Ka*eTCH, — b 3th ahh PHXTep Ha necxoabxo aHeft ye3Hcaa b 
riapn^c, HMeTb neperoBopw c $a6pHxoto, aoaaceHCTByiomeH 3aroTO- 
BHTb CTexjia; M«Kay tcm: b 3aaHHH B03Bo.aH.nHCb xynoaa. 

Cxopo BbiHCHH^ocb, mto KOMHaTa Hama Heyao6Ha; mu noayMHaH 
nHCbMO ot MaMbi, H3BemaiomeH Hac, mto ona eaeT b Ea3eab; no pac- 
neTy OHa aoaacna 6biaa npHexaTb Mepe3 4 ahjj; mm CTaan noabicxH- 
BaTb noMemeHHH ana Hee; h ocTaHOBHancb Ha oTene «Zum L6we» b 
ApaecreftMe (Ha naowaaH nepea uepxoBbio); aa h xcTara: Mbi peuiHjiH 
BpeMeHHO nepe6paTbc« [b] «Zum Lowe» no Haiuero nocTOHHHoro 
BoaBopeHHa Ha «Mattweg» b ApaecreftMe (y MabHHoft); noMHK), mto 
h e33Hji b Ea3eab BCTpenaTb MaMy; ho OHa He npnexaaa; Ha apyroft 
aeHb Mbi OTnpaBHJiHCb b Ea3eab b OTeab «Zum Baren», HTo6bi y3HaTb, 
npnexaaa jih MaMa; h HauijiH ee Taiw: npoH30iuaa nyTaHHua; mm nepe- 
cejiHjiH MaMy b ApaecreflM; h TyT ace o6Hapy*HJiocb ee OMeHb Bpaac- 
ae6Hoe oTHOiueHHe k Ace; MaMa npnexaaa mchh cnacaTb ot Moero, 
hko6m, 6e3yMH»; eft xoTeaocb otbc3th mchh b MocKBy; h, xax xa>KeT- 
ch, pasBecTH c Acefi; pa3yMeeTC»: OHa HaTXHyaacb Ha CHJibHeftuiee 
conpoTHBaeHHe — Moe h Achho; Toraa ona bck> BHHy Moero, hko6m, 
OTaaneHHH ot Hee h ot Pocchh B3BajiHjia Ha Acio; BbiacHHaocb b nep- 
Bbie >xe zihh ee npne3aa b JXopuax, mto eft saecb npocTO Henero ae- 
aaTb; KpOMe Toro: /IopHaxoM OHa TsroTHjiacb; c aHTponoco(J>aMH 
(c HeMuaMH) eft 6biao He o MeM roBopHTb; h mm yroBopanHCb, mto 
Bee BMecTe noeaeM b Mjohxch Ha aexuHH a-pa; OTTyaa *e, k nacxe, 
b BeHy Ha xypc a-pa. 

B aHH npe6biBaHHH MaMM b AopHaxe 3HaMHTeabHO noTenaeao; 
3a3eaeHean aepeBba; npoaHBaancb Tenabie aHBHH; mm BoanaH MaMy 
Ha pa6oTy: h OHa aaace B3«aa CTaMecxy; cTaaa npo6oBaTb pa6oTaTb 
Ha Toft xanHTeaH, Ha xoTopofl pa6oTaan mm (Ha Mapce: CaTypH mm 
y*e xoHMHan); eft oMeHb xoTeaocb yBHaeTb a-pa; h xceaaHHe ee ocy- 
mecTBHaocb; bo BpeMH pa6oTbi npHiiiea aoxTop, CTaa o6xoaHTb pa6o- 
TaKDiiiHx h noaaBaTb cobctm; noaouiea x Hauieft xanHTeaH; Ach npea- 
CTaBHaa aoxTopy MaMy; oh OMeHb BHHMaTeabHO Ha ee nocMOTpea h 
6bia OMeHb aacxoB c Heft; noMHHTca, mto oh bjhsi CTaMecxy, h CTaa 
pa6oTaTb Ha cmokhoh xanHTeaH. Baaaep h 6apoHecca iJ)OH-3xxapT- 
uiTeftH 6bian Toxe OMeHb aio6e3Hbi c MaMoft. 

B 3th aHH BnepBMe OTxpbiaacb BHOBb oTCTpoeHHaa KaHmuua, T.e. 
CToaoBan aaa aHTponoco(J)OB; OHa 6biaa nacxopo nocTpoeHa noa 
«.Bau», Ha 3eaeHOM ayry cpeaH bhuichhmx aepeBbeB; mm BnepBbie 
co6paaHCb o6eaaTb b xaHTHHe c MaMoft; npnuiaH cioaa h OTo6eaaaH 
c pa6oTajomHMH aoxTop h Mapna ilxoBaeBHa; aoxTop 6wa xaxoft-To 
ayMe3apHbifl, BeceaMft; oh MHoro CMeHaca 3a o6eaoM. 



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MaMa cTajia BbiCKa3MBaTb acenaHHe BCTyriHTb b MjieHbi A.O., 
CTaBH Hac b 3aTpyziHHTejibHoe nojiojKeHHe; Mbi CMHTaaH ee HeroTOBofl; 
h KpoMe Toro: mm CMHTaxiH, mto OTHomeHHe ee k 06mecTBy HeoTMeT- 
aHBoe. M Mbi cTapa/iHCb OTroBopHTb ee ot 3Toro mara; M«Kay tcm: 

H flOKTOp, H M..H. 6bIHH COraaCHM npHHHTb ee B HaeHbl XOTb CHK> 

a<e MHHyTy. TyT Mbi c Acefi nojiynHJiH nHCbMO ot Achhoh MaTepH, 
C.H. KaMnHOHH; OHa Toace co6Hpaaacb npHexaTb b JlopHax; Mbi aoa- 

JKHbl 6bIJlH ee BCTpeTHTb b BeHe. 

HaflBHra^HCb jickuhh b MiOHxeHe: mm noexajiH b Miohxch BrmTe- 
Pom (h, Ach, MaMa, Haiaiua, Ilouuo); b MiOHxeHe xi-p npoqea 4 neK- 
uhh; xpoMe Toro: 6mjih E.S. i0 . MiOHxeHCKoe npe6biBaHHe He OTne- 
laT.ienocb HHHeM oco6eHHbiM; noMHHTCH HauiH npory/iKH no aHrjiHH- 
CKOMy napny aa pa3roBop c Tpane3HHKOBbiM, npoBoaHBiiiHM weHy b 
Pocchk) h Tenepb co6HpaioinHMCH nepecejiHTbCH b .flopHax; raaBHoe 
Bne«iaT,ieHHe ot MioHxeHa: ywacHaH ccopa Ach c MaMOtt, b KOTopoK 
Ach 6biJia hh b neM He BHHOBaTa, a MaMa 6biJia Bonmoiue Hecnpa- 
BemiHBa k Ace; b Moe OTcyTCTBHe OHa eft HaroBopHaa TaKHx Beuieft, 
mto Ach 6buia BbiHy>KaeHa efl yKa3aTb Ha aBepb; «, kohcmho, npHHH/i 
CTopoHy Ach h peuiHji b BeHe nocejiHTb MaMy OTaeabHO ot Hac, mto- 
6bi H3 BeHbi oTnpaBHTb ee b MocKBy. Ccopa 3Ta npoHioiuaa xax pa3 
b aeHb OT-be3aa b BeHy. 

B TaKOM, KpaftHe yapyweHHOM coctohhhh mm npnexariH b Beny, 
3aBe3/iH MaMy b rocTHHHuy h ocTaHOBHJiHCb b apyroft rocTHHHue c 
MbicribK), mto 6yaeM ee BHaeTb KaK mowho pea<e. 

OcTaBanocb HecicoabKO aHefl ao Hanaaa Kypca; b BeHe Bee UBeao; 
6bina BecHa; Mbi o6majincb qacTo c OopcMaH; iiohbhjkh B.B. Bopo- 
aaeBCKHH, npHexaBiiiHH Ha xypc. Mbi pa3 c hhm OTnpaBHancb b OKpe- 
cthocth BeHbi. FlpHexajiH Henuicnjiepbi (Myw h >KeHa), c kotopmmh 
mm nacTO BHaejiHCb; mm c Acefi MHoro 6poaHHH no BeHe; b caMOM 
KOHue MapTa otkpmjich Kypc aoiaopa (6 neKUHH), nocTpoeHHbifl TaK, 
mto nepBbie aBe aeKUHH 6paaw /.../ «Ex Deo nascimur», BTopbie aBe 
— «/n Christo morimur», aBe nocaeaHHe — «Per Spihtum Sanctum 
reviviscimus»; k 3-beft hckuhh npnexaaa C.H. KaMnHOHH h ocTaHO- 
BHaacb b Toft »e rocTHHHue, rae h Mbi 31 . 

Anpe/ib. 

riacxa naaa Ha nocaeaHioio aeKUHio a-pa. riacxy mm bctpcth/ih 
b BeHe; h noTOM npoBoaHjiH MaMy b MocKBy (OHa npHMHpnaacb c 



50 29-31 viapTa (h.ct.) IIlTeBHep MHTan neicuHH b MiOHxeHe, oTMacTH Ha TeMy «Der 
Chrisms-lmpuls im Z.eitenwesen und sein Waken im Menschen». 

" 6, 8-14 anpejm (h.ct.) UlTefiHep HHTa.T b BeHe aBe ny6/iHHHbie neicuHH h mecTb 
;kkuhh ana q.neHOB A.O. H3 Kypca «lnneres Wesen des Menschen und Leben zurischen 
Tod und neuer Geburt». 14 anpe,™ oh BbicrynH/i Taioxe c pem,K). 



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Aceft); nepea orbe3/joM MaMa HMena CBH/jaHHe c M..H. CHBepc; hok- 
Top npoH3Beji Ha MaMy CHJibHettiiiee BnenaT/ieHHe. 

nocne 0Ti>e3fla MaMbi mh wepe3 neHb yexajiH b npary (h, Ach, 
C.H. KaMnwoHH); no aopore b Flpary mm couiJiHCb 6jiHHce c Ce/jJieu- 
koh, npHexaBiueft c My>KeM Ha bchckhh Kypc h OTcioaa exaBiueft b 
XlopHax, hto6m TaM nocejiHTbca; b Ilpare Mbi npoHCHjiH Bcero /jBa 
ahh h Bee BpeMH /jepacanHCb BMecTe c OopcMaH h CefljieuKoft; b 
Ilpare 6bijiH 2 jickuhh aoKTopa; h E.S. 52 M3 flparH Mbi OTnpaBHJiHCb 
o6paTHO b /IopHax, 3aexaBiiiH npe/jBapHTejibHO b HiopeH6epr. Ec/ih 
naMHTb He H3MeHHeT, aoKTop noexaji onHTb b Miohxch, OTTyaa b 
llapH»; h H3 napH>Ka BepHyncH b ZIopHax. 

BepnyjiHCb Mbi b Hamy HOByio KBapTHpKy b iiBe KOMHaTbi; kom- 
HaTbi c/jaBaraa HaM E.A. MjibHHa; noce/iHJiHCb mh b ApjiecrefiMe 
Ha Mattweg, otctohiuch ot «Bau» aoBO/ibHO aajieKo ([b] 20 MHHyTax 
xoiib6bi) 53 ; Bee b flopHaxe h ApjiecrefiMe UBeno; UBe/iH h6jiohh; h Ky- 
non «Bau» B03Bbima.ncH cpeaH 6ejieiomero UBeTa; nepe3 HecKOJibKO 
aoMHKOB ot Hac noceJiHjicH Tpane3HHKOB, y KOToporo a CTa/i Macro 
6biBaTb, a euie nepe3 HecKOJibKO aomhkob nocejinjiHCb Ilomio, y koto- 
pbix ocTaHOBHjiacb C.H. KaMnHOHH; PHXTep HexoTopoe BpeMH h<hji 
non HaMH, noxa KOHnajiH eMy cTeKonbHyio MacTepcKyio, r/je 6biJio h 
xyao)KecTBeHHoe ero aT&nbe h rae 6bijm Tax>Ke KOMHaTbi, b KOTopbix 
BnocjieacTBHH oh CTaa >KHTb; k 3TOMy BpeMeHH cbexanocb oieHb mho- 
ro aHTponoco(})CKOH mo/io/jokm; ctexajincb h apyrne aHTponoco(J)bi; 
cpeaH hhx k 3TOMy BpeMeHH MHe 3anoMHHJiHCb: 4>oh MyTax, 6paTb« 
cj)OH-MaH, CeflJieuKaH, JXk>6&hck, 6apoHecca <&hthhi-o<J), (J)oh-Hhp- 
CKaH, Mme PaftcJ), noaBHjiHCb b JIopHaxe KanbKpeftT h Ulrnnae. 

Hepe3 HecKOJibKO /jHefi noc/ie Hamero B03BpameHH« H3 riparn 
npnexan h a-p. Ha Bcex KanHTejiHx pa6oTajiH, a aBa orpoMHbix capaa 

y>Ke nOJIHHJIHCb OrpOMHblMH apXHTpaBHblMH (J)OpMaMH; Ha 3THX <J)op- 

Max ewe He pa6oTaan; pyKOBoacTBO Haa apxHTpaBaMH nopynHaH 
neuiKe, fraulein Katscher; oaHaacabi a-p npHiuea b KanHTeabHyio h 
CKa3aji: «Kto xoneT pa6oTaTb Ha apxHTpaBax, Toro npomy caeaoBaTb 
3a mhoh». Bee pa6oTajiH Ha KanHTejiax; h noTOMy-TO 3a aoKTopoM 
noiuaa TOJibKO Ach; oh noaBea ee k rpoMaaHOft, Heo6pa6oTaHHoft 
rjibi6e, 6yayweMy apxHTpaBy Meacay KOJiOHHaMH Mapca; h — yKa3aji 
Ha Hero; TaK Ach, mohcho CKa3aTb, 3aBjia/jejia MapcoM, b3hb mchh 
no/jco6ji«Tb eft b pa6oTe; ckopo k HaM npHcoeaHHHancb HaTama h 
nomio; noHBHjiacb Ha HecxoabKO aHeft M.B. BojiouiHHa; noMoraaa h 
C.H. KaMiiHOHH; Hama rpynna 6biaa nepBOtt rpynnoft, pa6oTaiomeH 
na apxHTpaBax; b ckopom BpeMeHH b apxHTpaBHOM capae noHBHjiocb 



52 16-17 anpejiH IIlTeftHep HHTan nm nexuHH b Ilpare (hx Ha3BaHHx He yKa3aHW b 
perHCTpe npomtTamtbix hm jieiuiHft). 

" Aapec Benoro b 3to BpeMH: Arlesheim (bei Basel). Mattweg 318. 

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MHoro pa6oTaiomHx; nepBoe BpeMH Mbi Smjih nocTaBneHbi b TynHK; 
KaK cnpaBHTbcn c orpoMHOio apxHTpaBHOio (J)opMoft? Kaxwep aaBaaa 
TyMaHHbie yKa3aHH«: «CHecHTe 3Ty bot naocKOCTb Ha CKoabKo-To 
caHTHMeTpoB...» Mbi h choch.ih: CMbicjia, npH3HaTbc«, He bhucjih 
Mbi b Haiueft pa6oTe; ho ueab pa6oTbi Ka3aaacb Ha.M aaaeiea; h — 
noTOM: OTBeTCTBeHHOCTb Beab He ae)Kaaa Ha Hac, a Ha KaTMep; b Ta- 
kom HeonpeaeJieHHOM coctohhhh Mbi pa6oTaaii 2 HeaeaH; aoKTop hc 
noHBjiHjiCH Ha apxHTpaBax; oh 6ojibiue iiohbjth.ich b MacTepcKOfi, rae 
OTpa6aTbiBa^H KanHTeaH; TaM, b KaiiHTeabHofi noHBHawcb ywe, TaK 
CKa3aTb, KBa^HtfiHUHpoBaHHbie pe34HKH: Zly6ax, MHT4ep, IIlTpayc, 
Kevinep, JlioaBHr; Mbi pa6oTaaH c 9 ao 12; b aBeHaauaTb uinu o6e- 
naTb b KaHTHHy, o6eaaaH noa OTKpbiTbiM He6oM 3a cToanxaMH; rpyn- 
na ocHOBHbix pe3HHKOB He cnycKanacb c «Baw», a, TaK CKa3aTb, 
MapuinpoBana; 3to 6bijiH Bee KpenKHe, MycxyjiHCTbie Moaoabie aioaH; 
ohh MHoro myMejiH 3a eaofi, BeceanaHCb, aypawHaiicb; k hum npnco- 
emHHjmch aHTponococJ)cxHe 6apbiiiJHH (Xoabuaefirep, TioHTep, Jw- 
6aHeK, KynepoBa); nocae o6eaa ae>«<aaH BbiTHHyBiuucb b xpaae; b 2 
noflHHMa^HCb k pa6oTe; onaTb pa6oTaaH c 2-x ao 4-x; b 4 ui.th r.HTb 
KO(j)e; okojio iihth: onaTb noaHHMaancb Ha pa6oT\, b 7 b 8-om uj.th c 
pa6oTbi flOMofl. 

CKopo a-p lUTeftHep no BOCKpeceHb»M cian miraTb .leKunn b 
2-om capae aaa apxHTpaBOB; Mbi cayiuaaH ero, ciiaa na aocnax, hci 
aepeBHHHbix o6py6Kax; noflBHawcb k kohu>' anpeaa b HopHaxe: IlJoa.ib 
c aByMH noapyraMH, aMepHKaHKaMH (oaHa — mhctphc Tappiic), no- 
hbhjich HopBe>Keu OaayM, npHexaaa T.A. EepreHrpiOH c naevsHHn- 
kom ra3poM, npnexaa H3 FlapHJKa HHweHep Epa3oab, npiiexaa Hopse- 
jKeu, cTapHK Xepp JleB c AByMfl aonepbMH, npnexaaa mhcc HH.nbc, 
npHexana KnceaeBa, *eHa xyaoacHHKa, nocBHTHBiuaH ce6a myneHiuo 
3bphtmhh; noa ee pyKOBoacTBOM Mbi CTanH 3aHHMaTbCH no BenepaM 
3BpHTMHefi (b Hamefi rpynne OKa3aaHCb: a-p TpocxafiHu, ere >Kena. 
(J)oh MyTax); b KaHTHHe bmccto KyxapoK pa6oTaan: rpacJniHH TaMH.Tb- 
toh, OopcMaH, (tpeftaHHH MHTHep; 6ap. 4>oh 3KKapTLUTeflH npoinBo- 
aHaa onbiTbi c KpacKaMH, a TaK»ce pa6oTaaa Ha apxurpaBax: PnxTep 
pa3pa6aTbiBaa pncyHKH aaa cTeKoa; HaM BbiaaaH HHCTpyMeiiTbi: or- 
poMHbie CTaMecKH h TH»eabie KoaoTyiuKH (nHTHc})yHTOBbie); craMecKH 
HaM OTTaHHBaaa 3abpaM, GbiBiuaa HanaabHHiia KaKoro-TO nerepoyp- 
rcKoro HHCTHTyTa; b Ty nopy b HopHax npnexaaa O.H. AHHeHKOBa. 

3tot nepwoa 6bia OHeHb TpyaeH ana mchh: Bee npoaoa>Ka- 
romeecH OTxo^aeHHe ot mchh Ach h..., KaK MHe CTaao Ka3aibC5i, 
moh Baio6aeHHOcTb b HaTamy, c kotopoh h Bee BpeM« cTpamno 6o- 
poacH; HaM TpyaHO 6biao c HaTaiuen BCTpewaTbCH; B.iK)6aeHHocTb 
b HaTamy 6biaa ann MeHH HacTOfliiiHM yaapoM nocae aeKaopa ii hh- 
Bapji: «KaK?» — ayMaa a — «bmccto nyTH nocBfliueHns, bmccto ay- 



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xoBHbix OTKpoBeHHH, — npocTo caMan 3^eMeHTapHaa Baio6aeH- 
HOCTb?» Nine CTano Ka3aTbc«, mto h nan: nan 6ecnoBopoTHO b rna- 
3ax aoKTopa. C aoKTopoM MHe CTano TpyaHo BCTpeiaTbca; a CTaa 
H36eraTb ero; Kpovie Toro: b sth hmchho 4Hcna BnepBbie b ayme mo- 
efl CTaao 3aKpanbiBaTbCH comhchhc b 6narocTH Tex nyTefl, koto- 
pbiMH BeneT zioktop; h MbicneHHo OKHabiBan aBa roaa, npoBeaeH- 
Hbie c hhm, h noaBoann HTorH Moefl ayxoBHoft pa6oTbi; h — BHaen: b 
nepBbie Mecaubi Moero BXoacaeHHH b aHTponocoqbHfo (Maft — neKa6pb 
1912 roaa h HHBapb — OKT»6pb 1913 roaa) a npoaeaan hchto oieHb 
TpyaHoe ana ce6a: ycyMHHjiCH bo Bcex npe>KHHX nyTHX, cmhphjich 
no... noaiac caMoyHHMHweHHH, pa3opBan H3-3a aoKTopa c panoM 
apy3eR (c MeTHepoM, c 3jijihcom, c CM. CojioBbeBbiM, c PaiHHCKHM, 
c Mopo30Bon h pnaoM apynix jihu), 6pocHJi Pocchk), b KOTopofi a 
Mor Bee BpeMH aeftcTBOBaTb b cBoeft cqbepe, ymea H3 H3aaTenbCTBa 
(«Mycaeema»), 6biTHe KOToporo c4HTan oneHb Ba*HbiM KyjibTyp- 
HbiM aeaoM, Bbiuiea qbaKTHHecKH H3 jiHTeparypbi; KpoMe Toro: noa 
BaHHHHeM pa6oTbi y aoKTopa Ach nepecTaaa 6biTb»^oeH weHOfi, 4to 

npH MOeK HCKJlK34HTenbHOH >KH3HeHHOCTH H nOTpe6HOCTH HMeTb (J)H- 

3H4eckne OTHomeHHa c >KeHmHHOH — 03Ha4aao: Haw HMeTb «pomoh» 
c apyrofl (sto npn Moefl afo6BH k Ace 6biao aaa mchh hcbo3mo>kho), 
hhh — npH6eraTb k npocTHTyTKaM, hto npH mohx aHTponocoqbcKHx 

B033peHHHX H npH HHTeHCHBHOH ayXOBHOH pa6oTe 6biaO TO>Ke HeB03- 

Mo>KHbiM; HTan: KpoMe noTepw poaHHbi, poaHofl cpeaw, aHTepaTyp- 
hoh aeaTeabHOCTH, apy3eft a aoa>KeH 6bia nHiuHTbcn h >kh3hh, T.e. 
aonweH 6bia BonpeKH MoeMy y6e>KaeHHK> CTaTb Ha nyTb acKeTH3Ma; a 
h CTaa Ha 3tot nyTb; ho stot nyTb CTaa MHe «mepH06biM»; a He omy- 
maa mvbctbchhocth, noxa a 6bia My>KeM Ach; ho Koraa a CTaa «ac- 
KemoM» BonpeKH y6e>KneHH>o, to co Bcex ctopoh CTaaH BCTaBaTb 
KUcxymeHun Ce. AHtnoHun»\ o6pa3 >KeHUiHHbi, KaK TaKOBOft CTaa 
npecaeaoBaTb Moe BOo6paa<eHHe (Tax: npHcayra HaTamH, KaTH, 
CTaaa MHe BHyiuaTb HeMHCTbie noMbicabi aeTOM 1913 roaa; b Mioh- 
xeHe Te >Ke noMbicabi MHe BHyiuana ropHHHHaa; Tenepb >Ke — HaTauua 
CTaaa mchh npecaeaoBaTb b cHax); 4To6bi He «nacmb» h no6eaHTb 
wyBCTBeHHocrb h aoa>KeH 6bia ee y6HBaTb ycHaeHHbiMH ynpa>KHeHHH- 
mh; ho ohh npoH3BoaHaH aHiub BpeMeHHyio aHecTe3HK> MyBCTBeHHO- 
cth; naoTb a 6nneBaa: OHa — KopHHaacb noa 6hhom, ho He cmhph- 
aacb; a ycwaHBaa ao3bi MeanTauHH; a MeaHTHpoBaa e»<eaHeBHO 4a- 
caMH b pnae MecaueB; h 3th MeaHTauHH mchh aoBean ao 3KCTa30B, 

BOCTOprOB H TaKHX CTpaHHblX COCTOHHHH C03HaHHH, 4TO BHyTpH HX 

MHe OTKpbiBaancb nyTH nocBHiueHHH, a Koraa a Bbixoana H3 hhx, to 
3th coctohhhh cToaaH nepeao mhoh, KaK coctohhhh 6oae3HeHHbie; h 
h 6bia o6peneH Ha Bee Ty >Ke wyBCTBeHHOCTb; KpoMe Toro: HMeHHO 
3th 3KCTa3bi «noc8AU(eHusi» OTaanwnH ot mchh Ackd (oHa Hcnyraaacb 

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h.\); a Me/Kay TeM, ohh 6binH nopo>KaeHHeM ee nocTynKa co mhok) 
iOTKaia 6biTb MoeH >kchoh); h CTaao 6biTb: b aHTponocd(J)HH « ciaji 
TepaTb Acio, caMoe aoporoe MHe b MHpe cymecTBo; a bmccto Ach 
CTana Ha Bcex nyTax MHe noaBepTbiBaTbca HaTama; moh nyBCTBa k 
HaTauje h nepe>KHBaji 3JibiM HaBa»<aeHHeM; ho noneMy-TO 3aKpaaacb 
Mbic.ib. mo 3to «HaeaxdeHue» noacTpoeHo aoKTopoM; mto HaTama 

— «KvH.<)pu»- 4 . M bot b ay me OTJiarajiocb: «HeT, sto — cjihuikom: 
« Becb orpaojieH aHTponocotJ)Heft: y mchh oTHHTa poaHHa, no33HH, 
apy3bfl, >KH'iKb, cnaBa, acena, othhto noaoaceHHe b >kh3hh». Bmccto 
Bcero i 6o;!TaK)cb 3aecb, b /JopHaxe, Ha no6eryuiKax y Ach, hhkcm 
He 3HaeMbifl, 6oabmHHCTBOM cHMTaeMbift KaKHM-TO unaive Herr Bu- 
gaeff»; MHe CTano Ka3aTbca, hto npH mocm aHTepaTypHOM hmchh, 
npH MoeM B03pacTe, npn Bcex mohx pa6oTax MoraH 6bi 6oabiue mhoh 
HHTepecoBaTbc«.. 

Mto nonynH.i a maMen OTaaHHoro? Te BHyTpeHHHe aocTH>KeHHH, 
KOTopbie npHBe.HH mchh k cTpaHHOMy coctohhhkd nocBflmeHHs: 3a 
naewaMH 6biaH — He3a6biBaeMbie ahh XpHCTHaHHH, BepreHa, EepjiH- 
Ha. JleHniiHra, HMarHHauns «,iK>6uMoao yuenuKa» aoKTopa; ho sto 
6bina nirnib «uMaeuHai4UA»: BHeiiiHe hoktop He Bbio<a3biBaa MHe Toro 
OTHoujeHHH ko MHe {«ucK.aK>uume/ibHoeo»), Ha KOTopoe HaMeKaaH 
.iiiujb Tax MHOfl npoHHTaKHbie ero »ecTbi («ormjoecKue»); BHeuiHe 
zioktop 6bia aaaex, HHoraa — cypoB, xoaoaeH; h noTOM: h cTpauiHo 
KOH4)y3Hnca ero. Ho h 3Ta eaHHCTBeHHaa HMarHHauHH «nymu nocen- 
iueHUR e pbiiiapu» 6biaa copBaHa «HaeajtcdeHueM» c HaTaiuefi; aeay 
aoKTopa h oTaajr boo cbokj >KH3Hb, oTaaa caMoro ce6fl, OTaaa Acio, 
h — bot: B3aMeH x nonymm «nymb nocenineHun»\ ho Tenepb cpbiBaa- 
c« h 3tot «nyntb»; OKa3biBaeTca: a Mor htth 3thm nyTeM nmiib b 
ycaoBHHX HenpepbiBHofl «Medumai4UU», BroHHBiuefi MeHH b siaaabTa- 

UHK); aHLUb BHyTpH MOeH <OK3a/lbmaifUU» MHe OTKDblBaaaCb KapTHHa 

Moero nocBHiueHHJi; ho «3K3a.abmayux» h yTpHpoBKa vynpaoKnenuu^ 
npHBoanjiH MeHH k 6o;ie3HeHHOMy paccTpoflcTBy cepaeMHofl aeHTeab- 
hocth, abixaHHH h noacTyny naayieft; hbho — Teao oTKa3bmaaocb 
c.Ty^HTb jlyxy; ho — ctohjio MHe ocaa6HTb Tevin ayxoBHoft pa6oTbi 

— Hanaaaaa «uyecmeeHHOcmb», aoaro caepjKHBaeMas, — Hanaaaaa 
c yaecHTHpeHHOH chhoh. 3aecb >Ke, Ha B03ayxe. Koraa c yTpa ao 
Benepa Mb! cT>'4aaH nHTHcfryHTOBbiM MoaoTKOM no craMecxe h CKaabi- 
BaaH c TBepaefliiiero ay6a Han 6yKa aepeBHHHbie c.ioh, Koraa pocaH 
MycKyabi, ro — pBaaacb ceTb yTOHneHHbix ayxoBHbix nepoKHBaHHft; 
h «me/io» npocTynaao CKB03b pa3opBaHHbie ynpa>KHeHHH; h — Tpe- 
6oBaao HacTOHHHBO ce6e nHtuH. 

11 KyHapH — BO-iiiie6HKua b riAPCH&AJIE, KOTopa^ npooyeT coona?H"nTb mo- 
.nozioro pbiuapa-repoH Ha ero «nyTH» r nOHCKax cb. fpaans. 



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Tax a cToaa nepea co6ofi h tobophji ce6e: «Kyda hu xuHb, ee3de 
— k/iuh!» IloMeMy »e a He o6paraaca k aoKTopy h [He] nonpocna y 
Hero ayxoBHoro coBeTa? H TyT nyTb BHyTpeHHO 6wji aaa MeHa OTpe- 
3aH. Koraa Mbi npnexaan b Miohxch b Hioae 1912 roaa, to aoKTop 
Hac npHHHMan Kaacayio Heaeaio; oh caM nocTaBHji MeHa b noaoaceHHe 
ayMaTb, mto ycHjieHHO aceaaeT 3aHaTbca mhoh, Rax yMHTeab; h — 
aaaee: Kaacabift Mecan c Hoa6pa ao MapTa b nepwoa 1912-1913 roaoB 
oh npocMaTpHBaJi moh OTMeTbi, noapooHO paccnpaiiiHBaji mchh o mo- 
hx aocTHJKeHHHx; aaaee: 3Ban b reabCHHr<l>opce MeHa pa6oTaTb ay- 
xobho okoho Hero; a HMeji Bee ocHOBaHHa ayMaTb, mto Koraa b 
Hioae 13 roaa B03Bpamaaca k Heviy, mto oh ycHjieHHO 3aflMeTca mhoh, 
KaK yMHTeab; ho c Tex nop a He 6bia y aoKTopa, KaK yneHHK; oxpyaca- 
joiuHe aoKTopa cTaan MHe BHyuiaTb, hto aoKTop 3aHaT «dyxoenbiMu 
ucc/iedoeamiHMun orpoMHoft sa^HOCTH, hto e\iy He Haao MeuiaTb 
npocb6oio oTaenbHbix CBHaaHHft; mto <ocomepu<ieci<ue ypoKU» (E.S.). 
Ha KOTopbix Mbi 6biJiH npHHHTbi b reabCHHr<J)opce 3aMeHHK)T CBHfla- 
hhh, mto Koraa HMeeuib BHyTpeHHioio BCTpeMy c aoKTopoM, to oh 
yMHT yace HHaMe: He BHeniHeft 6eceaojo, a — ayxoBHo; h — aa: Bee 
acecTbi aoKTopa no othoiuchhio ko MHe ot XpHCTHaHHH ao JlopHaxa 
6bian HMeHHO 3toh «yne6ou», rae a aoa*eH 6bia MHTaTb OKKyabT- 
Hbie 3HaKH, KOTopwe oh nepTHa nepeao mhoh b paae mhoh nepe*H- 
Tbix «Mucmepuii», rae OTKpbiBaaocb, mto a — «cmh eo3/iro6/ieHHbiu» 
ero; hmchho b sth Mecaubi MHe 3ByMaao: «Eoxe me6n coxpanu ene- 
uine cnpamueamb doxmopa o moM, tmo oh pucyem neped mo6oio»; 
h a 3Haa: noKa aoKTop caM mchh He npH30BeT Ha bhcujhhh ypox, 
Hejib3fl ao6HBaTbCJi ero bhciuhhm o6pa30M; ecjiH CTaHeuib ao6HBaTb- 
ca cBHflaHHH h pa3roBopa c aoKTopoM, to «o6em MO/iuanuH» 6yaeT 
HapyiueH; h tu He Bbiaepxcniub HcnwTaHHa. TaK a caw ce6e 3axy- 
nopna nyTb k o6i>acHeHHio c aoKTopoM; h — KpoMe Toro: b aTMO- 
c(})epe aopnaxcKOft kh3hh bbho nepeMecTHJica ueHTp >kh3hh; bmccto 
MeaHTauHfl, cBHaaHHfl c aoKTopoM BbicTynHJia BceB03MO)KHaa pa6oTa 
npH «Bau». Bee nun a-p MepTHa naaHbi, coBemanca c apxHTeKTopaMH, 
xyao*HHKaMH, o6xoana pe3HHKOB h T.a. Bca aTMoccfrepa >kh3hh He 
cnoco6cTBOBaaa cBHaaHHio c aoKTopoM; aoKTopa mm BHaean Kaacabifl 
aeHb, npHBbiKaH k HeMy; ho 3th pa3roBopbi, bctpcmh He 3aTparn- 
BaaH aHMHbix hhthmhhx 6ecea, a 3aTparHBaaH HHTepecw nocTpoftKH 
«Bau»: «Bau» aoa*eH 6bia no nepBOHaMaabHOMy naany 6biTb okoh- 
MeH k 0KTa6pio 1914 roaa; aoKTop pa6oTw rHaa; Me*ay TeM pa6oTbi b 
npouecce pa6oTbi pa3pacTaaHCb; 3aaaHHa — caoacHeaH; h y»e coMHe- 
Baancb, mto6w «Bau» 6bia totob ao 1915 roaa. 

MHe 6biao He aerMe ot Bcero 3Toro: 4>H3HMecKaa pa6oTa BbiBeaa 
MeHa H3 ayxoBHofl; o6pa3bi ayxoBHue, MeHa nocemaBuwe, pa36naHCb; 
pa36naacb HMarHHauHa iuieunyuecicoeo nocexutehwiyy, bmccto Hero 



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BbicTynmia HaTaiua: OHa cTaaa HBaaTbca MHe b CHax, npecaeaoBaTb 

MOH MblCJlH; MHe Ka3a^OCb, HTO OHa OTMaHHHO KOKeTHHHaeT CO MHOft, 

pacnaaaa bo MHe nyBCTBeHHocTb; h a yBHaea, kto a 6e33aniHTeH 
ot Hee. 

TyT-TO a ycyMHHaca b nyTH: MHe npHBHaeaca CTpaujHMH coh, 
6yflT0 aoKTOp b o6pa3e KaKoro-ro OTBpaTHTeabHoro cymecTBa pa3pe- 
3an MHe rpyab h cMa3aa pa3pe3 KaKHM-To hhom, OTMero 3aropeaocb 
Moe cepaue; xoraa a npocHyaca, to MHe 3tot coh oTaaaca Tax: aoK- 

TOP C03HaTe/lbHO MHe npHBHa JlK)UH(J)epa, HT06bI HCKyCCTBeHHO BBec- 

th MeHa b ;nouH(j)epHHecKHe nepewHBaHHa (c HaTaiuefl); h a npoTecTo- 
Ban: «.H He kpojihk aaa oKKyabTHneciaix 3KcnepnMeHTOB». Pa3yMe- 
eTca c 3thmh nepe)KHBaHHHMH a CTapaaca 6opoTbca; ho — TiueTHo. 

T>'t-to h Hanajiacb bo mhc oaHa CTpaHHaa HMarHHauHa: Bcioay 
nepeao mhoh BbipacTaeT SapoHecea oboH 3KKapTiuTeHH (xyaoa<HHua, 
jiK)6HMHua ziOKTopa, npo KOTopyK) tobophjih, mto OHa — aeHOBHaa- 
maa); a ee BCTpenaK) Ha nporyjiKax, b xaHTHHe; OHa pa6oTaeT He- 
aaaeKO ot Moero apxHTpaBa; o6opanHBaacb Ha Hee, a BH>Ky ocaeriH- 
TeabHbifl B3raaa ee 3eaeHo-CHHHX raa3; h MHe jbvmht: «OHa HrpaeT 
poab JljouH(J)epa b mhctcphh Moefl xchihh; h 3tot Jivoujfqbep MHe 110- 
Ka3brBaeT Ha HaTamy, KaK Ha IlpeKpacHyto EaeHy, KOTopyjo a aoax<eH 
noxHTHTb...» Heno b tom, mto 3KKapTiuTefiH Hrpaaa JlfoiiHcfrepa b 
4-x MHCTepnax ILlTeHHepa; ee koctkjm ' 6bia — apKO-KpacHbifi; h — 
CTpaHHo: b apKO-KpacHOM KOCTfOMe- pa3ry.THBa;ia OHa no .flopnaxy, 
apKO Bbiaeaaacb Ha 3eaeHofi TpaBe; b neM >Ke pa6oTaaa; h pyKoaTKa 
ee pa6owefl cTaMecKH 6biaa BbiKpaiueHa b apKO-KpacHbifi ubct; b oiih- 
cbiBaeMoe BpeMa BCFoay BbipacTaa ee apKo-KpacHbifl cn/iyjr nepeao 
mhok); h OTOBCK)fly Ha6.nK3aa.nH MeHa ee 3eaeno-cnHne raaia; a 60- 
BaacTHO BaeKca k Heft; mm nonTH He 6bian 3naK0Mt.i, ho MHe Ka)a- 
aocb, 4to OHa npoHH3biBaeT mchb HacKBOJb. M no Mepe toto, KaK 
BbipacTaa ee o6pa3 bo MHe, rac h yMaaaaca coaneMHbifl o6pa3 Mapwii 
^KOBaeBHbi CHBepc; a Ha (JnnnHecKOM naane M..H. cTaaa co mhoh 
xoaoflHa. 

Bo BTopoB noaoBHHe anpeaa (b 20-x HHcaax) a-p LLJTefinep MHTaa 
aeKUHK) b Ba3eae (b 6a3eabCKOH ao>xe) 55 ; aeKuna 6biaa KaKaa-ro 
rpo3Haa: Ka3aaocb, hto a-p npeaocTeperaeT Hac ot Kakux-i o BHVTpen- 
hhx onacHocTefi h Ta>KecTefi, Ha Hac HaBaaHBLUiixca; nopoio ero roaoc 
rpeMea; h mto-to b Hac oh nbiTaaca HcneneaHTb c KopHeM (Toraa 
OTKpbiaacb HeKpacHBaa HCTopHa c oaHHM hopbokucm, KOToporo Ha- 
ujh aaMbi o6i.aBHan acHOBHaamHM h KOToporo npmuaocb yaaanTb ht 

UlTefiHep mh ra;i ;ieKunK> b Baie.Te, a 5 Mao mua.i Ha Teviv «Das 
gen Welt in die physische». B KOHue anpem lllrertnep 6i.i.n b 



" 4 anpe.ia (h.ct.) 
Hereinragen der geistigen 
Eep.iHHe. 



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06mecTBa 3a HeKpacHBbie spoTHHecKHe nocTynKH). Bo BpeMa jickuhh 
b Ba3ene Haa AopHaxoM nponecca yparaH; h capaft Haa apxHTpaBaMH, 
rae Mbi pa6oTaaH, 6bia cjioMaH; Koraa mu BepHyancb b flopnax, mm 
y3HanH, hto capaft c Heaeaio Haao hhhhti>; pa6oTw Haa apxHTpaBa- 
mh kojiohh aaa Goabiuoro Kynoaa npHiiuiocb Ha Heaeaio npexpaTHTb; 
Hac nepeviecTHJiH b apyroft capaft, rae a-p HHTaa HaM aeKUHH; h mu 
crajiH pa6oTaTb Haa apxHTpaBaMH Maaoro Kynoaa; HaTauia Bee Bpe- 
MH, Kax MHe xa3aaocb, B036y*aaaa HapoHHO bo mhc rpeuiHbie MbicaH. 

3KKapTuiTeftH pa6oTaaa b 3TOM capae Haa apxHTpaBOM KoaoH- 
Hbi Mapca (Maaoro Kynoaa); KaTwep He BMeuiHBaaacb b ee pa6oTy, 
cHHTa» 3KKapTuiTeflH onwTHOK) xyaoacHHueft; 3KKapTuiTeftH oaHa*- 
aw noaouiaa ko MHe h b3hb mchh 3a pyKy yBeaa Ha CBoft apxHTpaB, 
aaaa MHe b pyKy cTaMecKy cbok> (c KpacHOK) pyKOHTKOio); h — cKa- 
3aaa: «Pa6oTaftTe co mhok>!» Tpn rhh mu c Heft ueabiMH aHHMH 
pa6oTa,iH; ee KpacHbift cnay3T BbipacTaa 3a Moeft cnHHOft; OHa Bbiay- 
Maaa cTpaHHbift MeToa pa6oTbi; mw c Heft pa6oTaaw oaHHM MoaoT- 
kom h oanoft cTaMecKoft; to OHa aepwaaa CTaMecKy, a mchh 3acTaB- 
aaaa 6HTb no Heft; to Hao6opoT, a aep»aa CTaMecKy, a OHa 6naa 
no Heft; sto noxMiueHHe MeHa c AcHHoro apxHTpaBa 3KKapTniTefiH 
OTo6pa3Haocb b mohx HMarHHauHax, KaK <J)aKT Moero naeHeHHa Jlto- 
un(J)epoM, BHyinaBuiHM MHe rpemHoe nyBCTBO k HaTauie; bcc noBeae- 
HHe 3KKapTuiTeftH b 3to BpeMH no oTHOineHHK) ko MHe MHe Ka3aaocb 
CTpaHHbiM; qepea tph aH« 3KKapTiiiTeflH nopymaa MHe BaaTb or- 
poMHyK) (J)opMy Ha ee apxHTpaBe, a caMa Hcne3aa b cbokj MacTepeKyio; 
KaTHep He BMeuiHBaaacb b pa6oTy 3KKapTuiTeftH, a caMa 3KKapT- 
LUTeftH He BMeuiHBaaacb b mojo pa6oTy; OHa anuib H3peaKa npnxo- 
anaa ato6oBaTbca eio; TaK b 3th aHH a BOo6pa3Ha ce6a CKyabnTopoM; 
c 6e33acTeHHHBoft OTBarofl h c atoTOfl KaKOft-TO 3HeprHefl a BbiceKaa 
orpOMHyio (fropMy; npHe3acaBiiJHe H3 BepaHHa aHTponoco(J)bi co6npa- 
aHCb b KynKH h aK)6oBaaHCb Moeio pa6oTOK>; TaK b HecKoabKO aHeft 
a BbiceK bck) (J)opMy. 

Ho mohm xyaoa<HHiecKHM HaaK)3HaM npHinea KOHeu, Koraa boc- 
KpeceHbe 6biaa HasHaneHa aeKUHH a-pa IllTeftHepa KaK pa3 Ha TeMy: 
«ApxHTpaBbi, aepeBRHHaa cKyabnTypa». Ka(J)eapa aoKTopa 6biaa no- 
cTaBaeHa KaK pa3 y <J)opMbi, mhoh BbiceneHHOft; h a BOo6pa3Ha, hto 
3to — HecnpocTa, hto a-p noKajKeT bccm: «Bot TaK Haao pa6oTaTb». 
KaKOBo »e Sbiao moc pa3onapoBaHHe, Koraa bch aeKUHH a-pa CBeaacb 
k TOMy, KaK He Haao pa6oTaTb; e^ceMHHyTHO oh noBopaiHBaaca k 
BbiceneHHofl mhoA (J)opMe h c KaKHM-TO thcbom yKa3biBaa na Hee: «Bot 
TaK ne nado pa6oTaTb». TyT *e BbiacHHaocb HaM BnepBbie, hto 
(topMbi aoaKHbi 6biTb caoweHbi H3 nepeceneHHH naocKocreft noa yr- 
aaMH (cHCTeMa rpaHHHKOB), hto <J>opMbi, HcceKaeMbie HaMH, 6oaTca 
OKpyraocTefl; Moa *e (fcopMa 6waa cnaooib oKpyraoft. MHe Ka3aaocb: 



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HecnpocTa rpoMHT a-p mok> pa6oTy; oh rpoMHT Becb moh BHyTpeHHHft 
mhp, njieHeHHbifl Jl»ouH(})epoM; » cepaHJica Ha ce6a, Ha a-pa, Ha 3k- 
KapTiiiTeHH, HacHjibCTBeHHO 3aTaiuHBLuyK) MeHH Ha 3tot apxHTpaB H 
npoBOUHpoBaBiuyio mchh Ha pa6oTy, KOTopyio Tax rpoMHa a-p. 

B 3th aHH yexaaa H3 HopHaxa C.H. KaMnHOHH. M.B. BoaouiHHa 
CTana CHJibHO apyacHTb c HHweHepoM 3HrneproM, no3HaKOMH/ia mchh 
c hhm; h c toh nopw HaiHHaiOTCH HauiH nacTbie BCTpeiH h pa3ro- 
Bopbi c 3HrnepT0M; oh OKa3aac» 3aMe4aTe/ibHO y.MHWM, BecbMa Ha- 

HHTaHHblM HeJlOBeKOM: npeKpaCHblft MaTeMaTHK, TaaaHT/IHBblH HH*e- 

Hep, acTpoHOM, acTpoaor h ray6oKHH 3HaTOK hctophhcckoh mhcth- 
kh; oh 6bicTpo BbiaBHHy^cH b pnay CTpoHTeaefl, oTTecHHJi nepBOHa- 
HaiibHoro apxKTCKTopa UlMHaTa h b cyuiHocTH roBopa OaHH pyKOBO- 
aan bccmh HHJKcnepHbiMH h CTpoHTeiTbHbiMH paGoTaMH; oh pa3peniHji 
BecbMa ocTpoyMHo npooaeMy coeaHHeHHH xynoaoB «fla«»; aoKTop 
e»ceflHeBHO HBafljica b ero KOMHaTy npH «Bau» n npociDKHBaa c hhm 
nacaMH; Seceabi c 3Hr;iepT0M MHe 04eHb MHoroe nana. 

Mad. 

AHTponoco(J)CKafl ny6jiHKa npoaon*aeT Bee npH6biBaTb b «Bau»; 
iiohb;ihk)tch aHriinnaHe Cmhtc, My* h »eHa; no«BJiaeTca pyccKHfl 
erHnToaor KojinaKHH M3 JIoHaoHa h npoxoaHTcn oypeft no bccm ap- 
XHTpaBaM; ero 3acTaBJiHK>T cniH6aTb aHiunee aepeBo; oh ciiJH6aeT Bee, 
hto mokct; BnocneacTBHH, roaa.MH CHHTajiHCb c paGoTOK) KoanaKmi; 
Bctoay, rae oh hh paooTaa, oh HanopTHa, cpe3aB H3aHiiiHee; noaB- 
aaioTCH xyao^HHKH IlojinHK (My>K h *eHa) H3 riparH; noHBaaeTCH 
aHniHHCKHH xyaojKHHK (qbaMHaHio 3a6bLi), pacnHCbiBaBLUHfi anocaea- 
ctbhh Kynoa; nosrajiHeTCH H3 IlapHwa riHcaTeab JleBH, aHTponocotJ), 
BnocneacTBHH BbiujeaiiiHH H3 o6iuecTBa; noHBaaeTca mile 3ay3pBeHH, 
npHe3>KaeT 70 jicthhh CTapyxa KHTTeab; HaKOHeu: npHe3H<aeT H3 Mo- 
CKBbi cnepBa A.C. FleTpoBCKHH c roaoBbiM oTnycKOM, HTo6bi pa6o- 
Tarb npn «Bau>y, npne3>KaeT M.M. Chiob (Toa<e — Haaoaro); npn- 
e3»caK)T oneHb MHorwe HHbie aHTponocoqbbi; b ZlopHaxe co6HpaeTC» 
He MeHee 200 aHTponoco<J)OB; bccm Tenepb ecTb MecTO aaa xyao>Ke- 
CTBeHHoH pa6oTbi; MeHee onbiTHbie nocTynaiOT noa pyKOBoacTBo k 
«cneuaM»; Chjob h rieTpoBCKHfi npucTpoHBaioTCH npn apxHTpaBax; 
Tpane3HHKOB, nepeB«3aHHbiH [fciapTyKOM, 6eraeT no nocrpofiKe; oh 
Bee hto-to Mawcr; ropanKa pa6oTbi oxBaTbiBaeT Hac Bcex HacroabKO, 
mo BHyTpeHHHe nepesKHBaHHfl OTCTynaioT nepea 3a6oTaMH aHH; 
yMoaKaeT moh 6yHT npoTHB a-pa LUTeflHepa (h Tenepb co3Haio, mo 
anpeabCKHe nepe>KHBaHHH, b cymHOCTH roBops, 6bian 6yHTOM mohm 
npoTHB nyTH). 

R He noMHK), noweMy caynwaocb TaK, hto Mbi no BOCCTaHOBae- 
hhk) capafl OMyTHawcb Ha apyroM apxHTpaBe; ho KaT^ep noneMy-ro 

13 MiiiiymiiEn 335 



peuiHJia, mto Haao noKa ocTaBHTb HaM apxHTpaB Mapca; OHa npeao- 
CTaBHJia HaM rpoMaaHbift apxHTpaB CaTypHa, Ha kotopom mm BneT- 
BepoM h CTanH pa6oTaTb; apxHTpaB 3tot 6bia H3 6eaoro 6yKa, T.e. 
TBepaeftinero aepeBa; pa6oTaTb Ha HeM 6biao npe3BbinaHHO MynH- 
TejibHo; y mchh Bee aaaoHH npeBparaaHCb b He3a)KHBaK>mHe paHbi; 
CTaMecKa aoMaaacb; CKoabKo pa3 MHe Ka3aaocb, hto sto He aepeBO, 
a KOCTb (ay6 Ka3ajic» npocTO bockom no cpaBHeHHio c 6e/ibiM 6yKOM); 
HecKonbKo flHeft mm ynopHO pa6oTaaH, OTCTynaaw pyKH (no yTpaM h 
He Mor pa3orHyTb ce6e naabubi ot 6ojih), a pa6oTa — He noaBHra- 
Jiacb. 

3th ana OTMeTHHHCb T»>KenbiM HHUHaeHTOM c KaTnep; yace aaB- 
ho cpeziH pe3HHK0B cTajio CKnaflbiBaTbca y6e>KaeHHe, hto KaTnep, 
KOTopofi flOKTop nopynHa apxHTpasbi, He cyMeeT cnpaBHTbca c ot- 
BeTCTBeHHbiM nopyneHHeM; OHa Bee 6oaee h 6oaee pacTepHBaaacb, 
He 6yaynH b coctohhhh H3MepHTb Bee 24 apxHTpaBHbix (J)opMM, hh 
TeM 6oaee kohkpctho caeaHTb, Kax npoBoaHTCH pa6oTa Ha apxH- 
TpaBax; OHa aaBaaa HaM npoTHBopenHBbie yKa3aHH»; BMecTe c TeM 
He no3Bonana pe3MHKaM B3»Tb pa6oTy Ha cbok> oTBeTCTBeHHOCTb; 
KpoMe Toro: ee HeypaBHOBemeHHbift xapaKTep OKa3aac« hctoihhkom 
MHornx Heaopa3yMeHHB; nocTOHHHo BbixoaHaH ccopw Me>Kay Hen h 
rpynnaMH pa6oTaiomHx; h HaKOHeu: OHa, KaK cicyabnTopina, OKa3a- 
aacb MeHee onbiTHOfi, neM mohcho 6biao ayMaTb. y«:e c anpeaa o6Ha- 
py>KHJiacb cHJibHettmaH onnosHUHH aHTponocoifccKOH MoaoaeacH; yica- 
3biBajiH, hto noztJiHHHbie pe3HHKH-xyao>KHHKH, Ha aeae noKa3aBtuHe 
ce6a (oTpa6oTaBuiHe KanHTejiH) cyTb MHTnep, Zty6ax, IllTpayc, KeM- 
nep, (Jjoh reftae6paHaT, Boabqiioreab, JlioaBHr, XoabuaefiTep h apy- 
rHe; hm h cneayeT ae nopynHTb opraHH3anHK> pe3HOft pa6oTbi Ha 
apxHTpaBax; pa6oTaiomaJi Moaoaeacb Bbi6paaa komhcchio; komhcchh 

npOH3Beaa CaMOnHHHMH HHCneKTOpCKHH CMOTp, 06Hapy5KHBIUHH He- 

npoayKTHBHOCTb h 6eccHCTeMHocTb pa6oT, pyKOBoaHMbix KaTnep; 
cocToaaocb co6paHHe, Ha kotopom pa6oTafomHe BMHecaH pe3oaio- 
uhjo TaKoro xapaKTepa: a-p IIlTeftHep nopynna b cymHocTH He KaT- 
nep, a BceM HaM apxHTpaBbi; h caeaoBaTeabHo: mm aoa>KHM 6biTb 
OTBeTCTBeHHbi 3a pa6oTbi; nepeaaraTb OTBeTCTBeHHOCTb Ha oaHy 
KaTnep HecnpaBeaaHBo; 3TO 6biaa qbopMyaa noaroTOBaaeMoft nepe- 
MeHbi BaacTH; h — <J)opMyaa yaaaeHHH KaTnep; npeasapHTeabHo mo- 
noae)Kb cHecnacb c bmcuihm ynpaBJieHHeM no nocTpoftice «Bau» 
h c «Johannesbauverein», bo maBe KOToporo cToaaH TpocxaflHU, 
3HraepT, apxHTeKTop IIImhat, a-p YHrep h nponne; ynpaBaeHne ot- 
BeTHao, nTO npH3HaeT BnoaHe KOHTpoab KoaaerHH pe3nnKOB Haa KaT- 
nep; h — BbicKa3aaocb, nTO Ha 6yHT npoTHB KaTnep oho nocMOT- 
Pht HeflTpaabHO, npeaocTaBaaa HaM pa3pemeHHe Bonpoca o KaTnep; 
Toraa MOJioae*b opraHH30Baaa rpynnbi pa6oTaiomHX Ha apxHTpaBax; 

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KaacaaH rpynna aoa>KHa 6biaa B3HTb ce6e no apxHTpaBy; b Kaxcaofl 
rpynne aoaaceH 6biTb «Gruppenfuhrer», T.e. imuo, OTBeTCTBeHHoe 3a 
apxHTpaB; oho aoawHO H3MepHTb apxHTpaB, H3ynHTb Moaejib, BbiMe- 
pHTb no ochobhoh MoaeaH «Bau», CToameft b UoMe rpocxaflHueB, 

BblHHCriHTb pa3MepbI H nOHHTb, Tfle CKOabKO HaflO CHHTb CaHTHMeT- 

poB aepeBa; h noTOM cocTaBHB naaH pa6oTbi, pacnpeaeaHTb pa6oTy 
MOKuy ynacTHHKaMH rpynnw; TaKHM o6pa30M Ka>Kawfl pyKOBoan- 
Tenb rpynnw 6bui BnojiHe oTBeTCTBeHCH 3a cboh apxHTpaB; o6iuhh 
pyKOBoaHTejib b cyuiHOCTH nwuib KoopaHHHpoBaa pa6oTy rpynn, ho 
He Bxoana b neTa.™ pa6oTbi; TaKHM pyKOBoaHTeaeM 6wa H36paH 
MHTwep, 6paT MHTwep, 3aBeayK>meH KaHTHHoio. KaTnep CTpaujHO 
o6naenacb, >3HaBuiH, hto nepeBopoT coBepujHaca, h hto eft caeayeT 
yflTH c apxHTpaBOB (eft npeaao>KHaH apyryio pa6oTy); 3a KaTiep hh- 
kto He 3acTynnjicH, xpoivie Ach h mchh; Mbi noneMy-TO CTpauiHO 
paTOBajiH 3a Hee; no cymecTBy, Mbi coraauiaaHCb, hto HOBaH opra- 
HH3aun» pa6oTbi pauHOHajibHee npe>KHeH, hto b 3TOH opraHH3au.HH 

— Bbixoa H3 TynHxa, b KOTopbiH Mbi nonaaw; ho Hac B03Mymaaa 
rpyOocTb, c kotopoh cBepranH KaTwep MHTHep, Zly6ax h npoHHe; 
noMHHTCH, no 3T0My noBoay h HMea oneHb pe3Koe o6iHCHeHHe c 
MHTMepoM, nocne KOToporo h cna3aa b KaHTHHe qopeaaHH MHTHep: 
«Bam 6paT BeaeT ce6a hc KaK aHTponocotJ), a KaK npyccKHH Kan- 
pa^... » TeM He MeHee — (})aKT coBepuiHacfl: noHBHancb rpynnbi h hx 
pyKOBOiiMTcnH; Ach 0Ka3aaacb b HHcae pyKOBoaHTeaeft; c toh nopbi 
HaiHHaioTCH ee iiohth e;>KeaHeBHbie nyTeuiecTBHH Ha BHJuiy TpocxaHHu 

— BbiMepHBaTb Moacrib; noMHio Acio b 3th nepHoaw, bchho BWHHcaa- 
KJmefi, c KapaHiiaiiiHKOM b pyne h c 3anncHoio khhjkchkok); Ham ap- 
xHTpaB noKpwaca MaciUTa6aMH, OTMeTKaMH yraeM: 20, 30, 7, 5, T.e. 

20 CaHTHMeTpOB CHHTb, 30 CaHTHMeTpOB CHHTb H T.R. ZlyMatO, HTO 

b oTMecTKy 3a Moe HanaaeHwe MHTnep Bw6paa MeHJi pyKOBoaHTe- 
jieM Ha apxHTpaBe «Benepa», aaB MHe noMouiHHKaMH aByx onbiTHbix 
xyao>KHHU h pe3HHU — KyMepOBy (neniKa) h TiOHTep (HeMKa); MHe 
>Ke cKa3ajiH, hto y mchh ecTb BKyc, a 3to — raaBHoe (Haao 6wao 
no Majiofl rHncoBOH MoaejiH, rae qbopMa owaa b OKpyraocTax, npea- 
CTaBHTb cede 3Ty (J)opMy, cnoweHHyK) rpaHHHKOM T.e. H3 nepeceKa- 
ioujhxch nnocKOCTeft: KoaHHecTBO naocKOCTefl n cnoco6 hx nepece- 
MeHHH 3aBHce.n ot Moeft Q3aHTa3Mn); h npeacTaBHJi ce6e tfcopMy, H3ao- 
>kh.t cboh npeacTaB.ieHHH KynepoBOH h TioHTep, a Koraa aeao aoiuao 
ao n3MepeHH« apxmpaBa h tohhoto pacHHcaeHHH b caHTHMeTpax, to 
h sanyTa/ics; Kynepona h TiOHTep 6bicTpo OTo6paaH y mchh KapaHaa- 

UIHK H KHH)KeHKy H CTajlH lipOH3BOaHTb BblMHCaeHHe 6e3 mchh; MHe 

oco6eHHO opocHaacb KapnKaiypHOCTb Moero noao>KeHHH: 6biTb pyKO- 
BoaHTeaeM oTBercxBeHHofl paooTbi, He 6yay4H hh xyao>KHHKOM npo- 
(J)eccHOHa-iOM, hh pe34HKOM; h n noHfla Toraa, hto Bbioop mchh py- 



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KOBOflHTejieM ecTb HacMeuixa nano mhoh MHTiepa; Toraa a o6Haejica, 
oTKa3a^ca ot apxHTpaBa «BeHepw» h 3aceji y ce6a aoMa aHefi Ha 10. 

3th aecHTb flHett a ynoTpe6H.n Ha noaroTOBKy co6paHHa cthxo- 
TBopeHHfl hjih «CupuHa», a TaK*e: b 3th ahh a HanHcaa HecKOJibKO 
CTHxoTBopeHHfi, MOKfly npoHHM: «OmKpbi/iocb: eecrrtb eecennjmn, 
«B eonnax ao/iomucmoeo XAe6a», «R 3acbinan...» h ap. 56 B sth ahh 
a ne noKa3biBa^c« hh b «Bau», hh b KaHTHHe; c nocneaHefl a nyBCT- 
BOBaJi ce6a b ccope; Aca yxoaHna Ha pa6oTbi oaHa; o6eaan a rnaB- 
hmm o6pa30M y Tpane3HHKOBa; hjih tkc b «Zum L6we». B sth hhh 
fl-p ye3*an b EepjiHH. Bo BpeMa OTbe3aa M..H. CHBepc npHi\nacH/ia 
Hac c Aceft k ce6e Ha waft b HOByio BHjuiy (villa Hansi), b kotopoh no- 
cejiHJiHCb OHa, aoKTop h cfrpenaHH Bamiep; a HHTan M.il. OTpbiBOK H3 
nepeBoaa «Mhctcphh» aoKTopa; h hobwc mhoh HanHcaHHbie cthxo- 
TBopeHHH; OHa MHe CKa3ajia: «B Baumx CTHxax — OTpaweHHe aHrpo- 
noco(J)HH». fl 6bui 3thm oHeHb nonbtueH. 

ripH6jiH3HTeJTbHo k cepeaHHe Maa aomhk PnxTepa y»e 6bi/i ot- 

CTpOeHJ flHeM OTKpblTHa flOMHKa H KaK 6bl erO OCBHUieHHeM H CHHTaiO 

neicuHK) BepHyBiueroca H3 EepjiHHa u-pa UlTeflHepa b stom uommkc 57 ; 
jieKiwa 6btJia Ha Te\iy o whboiihch; Bcex jickuhh cHJibHo 3a.ae.na; bo 
BpeMH Hee pa3pa3HJiacb rpo3a. 

Bo BTopofl nonoBHHe Maa a CHOBa noaB^aiocb Ha apxHTpaBe; h 
3acTaK> Aero, pa6oTaiomeH c HaTamett h c FIouuo BHOBb Ha Mapce: 
CKa3&nocb pauHOHajibHoe pacnpeneneHHe pa6orbi; nepenoweHHe ot- 
BeTCTBeHHOCTH c onHoro pyKOBoaHTena Ha mhoi"hx npHBe/io k 6bicT- 
poMy TeMny pa6oTbi; b cymHocTH OTBeTCTBeHHbi 6bi/iH Bee pa6oTaio- 
tUHe; Aca 6epeT mchh ce6e noMOiuHHKOM; h 3ajiaeT nopuHH pa6oTbi; 
cnepBa a nHiiib noaco6jiaio eft; noTOM Beay caMOCToaTenbHyK) pa6oTy 
y»e Brio/me co3HaTejibHo; uejibiMH flHaMH npoBOflHM Mbi Ha Mapce; 
pa6oTaeM Ha MOCTKax, rpoM03aa Ha moctkh rpyabi amHKOB h BCKa- 
pa6KHBaacb Ha hhx; oco6chho TpyaHa 6biaa nopyMeHHaa MHe Aceft 
pa6oTa BHH3y, noa apxHTpaBOM; HTo6bi pa6oTaTb, a flonweH dhin 
jieib Ha flocnaTOM nony, HaKpbiTbca 6yMarofl h ciuH6aTb aepeBO b ne- 
»aieM no^o*eHHH; noMHHTca, — b sth hhh hoktop IIlTeflHep jihhho 
coBepuiaji o6xoa pa6oTbi pa3, a to h iiBa pa3a b aeHb (o6bmHO, 
iacoB okojio flBeHaauaTH, a ecnH BTopoft pa3, to okojio 4 J/2); oh ocTa- 
HaBnHBanca nepe/a (J)opMOfl, o6MepHBaji ee rjia3aMH h oTMenan ^hmho 



56 O co6paHHH CTHxoTBopeHHfi, noaroTOB^eHHOM BeJibiM ana n3a. «Chphh», cm. 
Moe BCTyruieHHe b I Toine CTHXOTBOPEHHH A.BeJioro (MUnchen, 1984, «Ceniri- 
fuga», 49/1, c. 28-29). Bee tph CTHxoTBopeHMd, noa Ha3BaHn»MH «Mauia BpeMeH», 
«MHcnnpauHH» h «Hyx», nOHBHJiHCb b c6. 3BE3J1A. B 6ep^HHCKOM c6. CTHXOTBO- 
PEHM H ohh aaTHpoBaHu: Mali h HWHb 1914 r. ApnecreftM. 

" OTKpwTHe «Glasatelier», OTMeqeHHoe JieKimefl UlTetiHepa, cocTofi-iocb 17 hiohh 
1914 r. (h.ct.) 



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ymeM, icaic Haao bccth naocKOCTH; HHoraa oh B3ae3aa Ha moctkh, 
Kapa6Kajica Ha hiuhkh, 6paa b pyxy cTaMecicy h aeaaa otmctkh, 3a- 
py6KH h T.fl. Eoaee Bcero oh BCTynaa b pa3roBopw c pyKOBoaHTeaeM 
1 pynnbi; Ace npHiuaocb MHoro HMeTb ae.no c aoKTopovi; OHa npHBbiK- 
Jia k HeMy; h HHoraa, yBHaeBiiiH ero b capae aaa pa6oTaiomHx, noa- 
xoawaa h TauiHjia ero k HauieMy apxHTpaBy, coBeTyncb c hum o pa6o- 
Te. M3 Ach Bbiuina oTaHinaa pyKOBoaHTeabHHua; OHa npexpacHO 
noHHMajia naocKOCTH, jIhhhh, hx KoopaHHaiwio h npeKpacno BbiHHc- 
aaaa, rae CKoabKO Haao cHHTb aepeBa; KpoMe Toro: OHa yMeao h Hac 
BTHrnBana b pa6oTy; sth ahh pa6oTbi Ha Mapce — npeKpacHoe Bpe- 
m«; b Haiu apxHTpaB mh eohtm BaK>6HaHCb; HaTaiua oxa3aaacb TO)Ke 
npeKpacHOfi pa6oTHHuefl; OHa B3«aa ce6e onpeaeaeHHbifl yroa apxw- 
rpaBa h OTpaSarbiBaaa ero c 6oabwoH xyaowecTBeHHOCTbio; n — 
pa6oTa;i neaypHo; MeHee ycneuiHO pa6oTaa riouuo; ho Bee >Ke: Mbi 
oKaiajuicb xopouiHM, cneBuiHMca b paSoTe KoaaeKTHBOM; pa6oTa Hac 
raK yBaeKaaa, hto moh oTHomeHHH c HaTaiueH HCiipaBHancb; Mbi 
oiHocnaHCb BHOBb c aoBepneM apyr k apyry. 

Jo\ia Mbi noHTH He khhh; npHxoanaH k 10 wacaM Ha pa6oTy, b 
12 hucob ooeaaaw, o6biKHOBeHHO Ha B03ayxe; 3a Ham CToaHK, nocTaB- 
aeHHbifl cpean TpaBbi, caaiiancb pyccKHe (BoaowHHa, AHHeHKOBa, Ch- 
(ob. UerpoBCKHH); c nocaeamiMH aByMH Mbi nomai ne BHaaawcb; 06a 
apyvKHaH c yuacTHUKaMH cbohx pa6oMHx KoaaeKTHBOB; nocae o6eaa 
ae;-Kaan b TpaBe, a HHoraa noanHMaawcb Ha «Bau»: o6xoaHaH ero; npH 
Hac Ha orpoMHbix uensx noanHMaan orpoMHbie HacTH KoaoHH; ywe 
orcrpaHBa.'incb nopTaabi; Bbixoanaii M3 oeTOHHbix (fropM Bee HOBbie h 
HOBbie 6eTOHHbie nacxn nepBoro nawa; «Bau», 6biBUJHft, TaK cica- 
laTb, cKeaeTOM bo bhh Hamero npne3aa — o6pacTaa (feopMaMH; BHy- 
rpH ero noHBHancb ocroHHbie KOMHaTbi, nepexoabi, KopHaopbi; Ky- 
noaa 6bian BbiBeaeHbi; nopa>Kaaa Hac aHHHH coeaHHeHHH KynoaoB; 
ho Kynoaa He Obian eiue noKpbiTbi HepenHueio; xaMeHb aa« nepenHUbi 
ewe He 6bia npHBe3eH in HopBernn: oh 0Ka3aac« TeM caMbiM KaMHeM, 
orxeHOK KOToporo Hac c Aceft Koraa-TO nopaiHa Me>Kay XpucTHaHH- 
efl h BepreHOM; k 2 MacaM «Bau» HanoaHaaca mhojkcctbom pa6oHHx, 
ciyKOTHeH MoaoTKOB, roMOHOM roaocoB; pa6oraao 3aecb HecKoabKO 
cot pa6oMHx; paooHHe aeawancb Ha 3 rpyniibi; oaHy rpynny cocTaB- 
aa.iH. raM6yprcKne pa6oMHe; apyryw rpynny HTaabaHUbi; TpeTbefl 
rpynnoft, cavofl HeMHoroiHcaeHHofi, 6bian MecTHbie uiBefluapubi. Oa- 
iio BpeM« paooMne, ne aoroBopMBUincb c kohtopofo, T.e. c JlHccay, 
c .lH\Tc{)oreaeM h ap., ycrponan 3a6acioBKy, npeaiaBHB aaMHHHCT- 
pauHH «Bau» paa TpeooBannfl; b aaMHHHcrpauHH roaoca pa3aeaw- 
aHcb: 3HraepT noBea aiiHHio pa6omi\. nacTanBaa Ha yaoBaeTBopeHHH 
TpeooBaHH^; a-p rpocxaSnu aacTaiiBaa Ha tom, hto Ha Tpe6oBaHH« 
paoomix coraacHTbCH neab3H; c roft nopbi TpocxafiHU a 3HraepT no- 



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ctohhho BejiH 6opb6y apyr c apyroM; 6biaa nap™« rpocxattH- 
ua (6oaee 6yp»ya3Hbie saeMeHTbi cpeaH aHTponoco<J)OB) h 6biJia nap- 
thh 3araepTa (6oJiee paanicaabHbie saeMCHTbi; aHTponocotfecicaH mo- 
aoaejKb); MHe KaxceTCH, hto aoKTop 6wji b to BpeM« 6ojiee c 3Hr- 
nepTOM. 

B ABa iaca mm noaHHManncb Ha pa6oTbi; b 4 iujih nHTb KO(})e; b 
4 1/2 cTaHOBHjiHCb onaTb Ha pa6oTbi, a b 7 cnycicaaHCb k KaHTHHe b 
o>KHaaHHH y>KHHa: y>KHHaaH b 7 1/2. 3to BeiepHee BpeMH MHe oco6eH- 
ho naMHTHo: «Bau» 6hji oco6eHHO KpacHB b BenepHeM ocBemeHHH; 
b 3th nacbi no jiecaM Mbi nacTO Kapa6KanHCb noa xynoji; cyiuecTBO- 
Baao b to BpeMH OTBepcTHe Kynoaa; H3 3Toro otbcpcthh Mbi Bbiae3a- 
jih HapysKy h ctohjih Ha caMOtt BepuiHHe Kynoaa, cmotph Ha paccTH- 
jiaBiuHecH noa HoraMH aaabHHe okpccthocth; 6biaH aaxce CMeabnaKH, 
KOTopbie B3Jie3ajiH Ha Kynoa CHapywH no BepeBOHHbiM jiecTHHiiaM; 
CKopo ynpaBJieHHe «Bau» CTporo 3anpeTHJio 3th rHMHacTHnecKHe 
ynpa)KHeHH«. Hacy b aeBHTOM nHiiib Mbi B03BpamaaHCb c Acett aoMoft; 
npoxoa« no ApaecreftMy, mm 3aicynaaH k BeiepHeMy naio caacTeft h 

npHflH flOMOfi KHn«THJIH Ha CnHpTOBKe Mafl; o6bIKHOBeHHO K 3TOMy 

BpeMeHH Hac Tax CTpauiHO THHyao cnaTb, hto mm eaBa aowwaaaHCb 
MaK» (cKoabKO pa3 Ac« 3acbinaaa, npHKypHyB Ha aHBaHUHKe h h ee He 
Mor HHKax yjKe noaHHTb k qaio); yicaaaMBaHCb b nocTejib h pa3ae- 
Baacb, « o6Hapy>KHBaji Bcioay menKH: wenKH OKa3biBajiHCb b KapMa- 
He, 3a bopotom py6auiKH; aepeBo 6biao — naxynee, CBeacee; b 1 1 nacoB 
Mbi yace norpyxcajiHCb b coh, ito6w Ha apyroft aeHb BOBpeMH nocneTb 
Ha pa6oTy (BeiepHHe h yTpeHHHe MeaHTauHH b sth aHH TpyaHo aa- 

BajlHCb). 

Flo npa3aHHKaM pa6oT He 6biao, ho b Teae nyBCTBOBaaacb 6oab- 
uia« pa36HTOCTb h KaK 6bi pasBHHHeHHOCTb (Bee Teao 6oaeao); o6mk- 
HOBeHHO k HaM Toraa npHXoaHaH b tocth: PHXTep, Jleae6yp, nouuo, 
Tpane3HHKOB nan neTpoBCKHfi; HHoraa Mbi ycTpawBaan nporyaxn b 
OKpecTHOCTH AopHaxa, noaHHMaHCb k CTapbiM pa3BaaHHaM pbiuap- 
ckhx 3aMKOB (Haa «Bau» BOKpyr flopHaxa, b aMiJiHTeaTpe rop ch- 
aeao 3 3aMKa; h HaM Ka3aaocb, mto ohh Bpa>Kae6Ho noKaiuHBaiOT- 
ch Ha «Bau»). 

B sto BpeMH h nepenHCbiBaacH c HeKoeft «Hadeu IIImpaccep», 
HCHBymett b MKwxeHe; «Hadx lllmpaccep» npeaaaraaa MHe nepeBe- 
cth «/7emep6ype» Ha HeMeuKHtt jhmk; BnocaeacTBHH a y3Haa, mo 
Ha Mbicab o nepeBoae ee HaToaKHyaa (Jjpay MopreHiiiTepH (BaoBa 
no3Ta) 38 . 



J * PETERSBURG. Autorisierte Obersetzung aus dem russischen von Nadja Stras- 
ser (Milnchen, Georg Mttller, 1919). 



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HfOHb. 

Bee ycMJiHBatoLUHHCH Te\in pa6oTbi BbiaBHraeT Bonpoc o caawe 
apxHTpaBOB; OKa3biBaeTca, mto HHweHepHbie pa6oTbi no coopywe- 
hhk) «.Johannesbau» Tpe6yK)T, mto6m k H3BecTHOMy cpoKy Bee apxw- 
TpaBbi, Haa KOTopbiMH mm pa6oTaaw b capaax, 6biJiH 6bi noaHHTM 
noil Kyno;i h CBoeBpeMeHHo yKpenaeHbi Meway KoaoHHaMH; nd3TOMy 
3HrjiepT h UJmhat o6tHBa$iK)T KoaaerHH pe3MHK0B, mto nocaeaHHfl 
cpoK caaMH apxHTpaBOB — TaKoe-To MHcao; BbiacHHeTCH, hto Bnocae- 
acTBHH BOJBeiiVTCH ae'ca h oKOHwaTejibHaa 0Taeana apxHTpaBOB HaMH 
ya<e oyaeT npoH3BoaHTbca Ha aecax, noa 6oabiiiHM Kynoaovi; h Bee 
>Ke: HyAHa MHHHMaabHaa OTpa6oTKa apxHTpaBOB b capae; HywHo npe- 
>Kae noaHHTHH npnaarb hm laKOHwenHbiH Bwa (Bee 3to Kacaercs apxH- 
TpaBOB ooabiuoro Kynoaa); cpeaH pe3MHKOB noaHHMaeTca nepenoaox; 
y 6oabiunHCTBa rpynn apxHTpaBbi OKa3biBajOTC« b TaKOM noaoweHHH, 
mto ohh He 6yayT roTOBbi k MOMeHTy HHcneKTopcKoro ocMOTpa (k Ta- 
K0My-T0 MHcay); MHorHe pyKOBoanTean rpynn 3apaHee OTKaibiBaioTCH 
npHBeCTH CBOH apXHTpaBbl K HOjTHOH totobhocth; MM HaxoaHMca B 
TaKOM >xe noao>KeHHn: pa6oTbi yftMa, a cpoK — kopotkhh; TeM He 
MeHee mm aaeM coBepmeHHo 6e3VMHoe o6eujaHHe: k Ha3HaMeHH0My 
cpoKy npiiBecTH Haai apxHTpaB k noanofl 3aK0HMeHH0CTH; h He noMHio 
Mucaa, b KOTopoe mm aoawHbi 6bian caaTb apxHTpaB, ho noMHio, mto 
b cy66ory apxurpaB aoa*eH 6bia 6biTb caaH aaMHHHCTpauHH; o6e- 
mamie caaTb ero mm aae.M b cpeay; caeaoBaTeabHo: Ha.M ocTaeTCH 
.iHoib aBa aH»; Hauin cocean no apxHTpaBy (To/Ke no Mapcy; Bee apxH- 
TpaBbi, KpoMe CaTypHOBa apxH rpaBa — napHbie) peuiHTeabHo oTKa- 
3b!BaK)icH jaKOH^HTb apxHTpaB cboh k cy66oTe; h — CTaao 6biTb: 
on 6yaeT noanwT k Kynoay b He3aKOHweHHOM BHae; ohh cmchdtch Haa 
HaMH, yTBep>Kaafl, mto Mbi aaan coBepiueHHo HeocMbicaeHHoe o6ema- 
Hiie: Bee paBHO ero He BbinonHMTb, noTOMy mto paooTM ewe MHoro 
Ha naineM apxwrpaBe; b rpynne HauiHX coceaefi cuabHbie pa6oTHH- 
Kii (py6Ka Tpe6yeT (})H3HMecKOH cnabi); Havi yKa3bmaeTCH, mto Mbi Bee 
cpaBHHTeabHO caa6ocnabHbi; He roBopa y»e o xyao>KecTBeHHOH 3a- 

KOHMeHHOCTH, y HaC IipOCTO He XBaTHT CHabl, MTOObI Q3H3HMeCKH BM- 

HecTH pa6oTy; Mbi h caMH 3to noHHMaeM, ho He OTCTynaeM ot naa- 
Ha; Mbi GepeM ce6e b noaMory xyaoa<HHKa Po3eH6epra h c MeTBepra 
y>Ke c ceMH mbcob \Tpa Mbi Ha pa6oTe; HHKoraa He 3a6yay 6eiueHoro 
TeNiria padoTbi 3thx nocaeaHHX aByx aHefl; Ham apxHTpaB c ceMH Ma- 
cob yipa ao Bocb.MH MacoB Bewepa 6yKBaabHo Tpemaa noa yaapaMM 
n»Tn MoaoTKOB, yaapHKDujHx no tin™ CTaMecKaM; jaecb npwxoaH- 
aocb Bbipy6aTb HenoMaTbie aepeBHHHbie Maccbi, ravi npHBoaHTb k 
OKOHMaTeabHOfl OTpa6oTKe naocKocTH; 3aecb — aoMepHBaTb; TaM — 
BbipaBHHBaTb qboH; TaM — 3aocTpaTb rpaHH; noMHio, mto MHe c Po- 
3en6eproM npHxoanaocb Bbi6nBaTb aepeBO H3 yraoB: aepeBo 3aecb 



391 



oxa3biBajiocb ccoxluhmch, nepeTBepaeBiiiHM, HanoMHHaioiuHM KOCTb; 
Bflo6aBOK b aepeBo 3aecb 6mjih pa6oHHMH BcaxceHM rB03HH (Bonpe- 
kh 3anpemeHHK>); CTaMecxa HaneTana Ha rB03,ab, kohhhk ee noManca; 
h OHa nocTynana b ToiHJibHio k 3jibpaM; mm 3anacnHCb uejibiM ac- 

COpTHMeHTOM CTaMecox OT orpoMHbix ao ManiOCeHbKHX, KOTOpbie Mbl 

npo3BanH «K03bUAtu ho3kkomu», b oflHOM MecTe npnxoaHJiocb pa6o- 
TaTb nojiyxpyrxioft craMecxofi, b apyroM — naocxofi (b 3aBHCHMOCTH 
ot xapaKTepa pa6oTw h BHeiiiHero BHaa, xoTopbift Haao 6bi.no npn- 
aaTb imockocth); k o6eay mu c6eacanH Jimub k nacy h y*e b 1 1/2 cto- 
hjih onHTb 3a pa6oTon; k xocfre BOBce He cxoaH/w, a pa6oTy xohhh/ih 
He k ceMH, a k BocbMH, npopa6oTaB no 12 nacoB b cyTKH (a Tpya 
6bu: Tflaceji); nopoK? a Bnajiaji npocro b KaKoe-TO oaepeBeHeHHe; pyxa 
OTKa3biBanacb BOBce cny)KHTb; to co mhoh, to c Aceft, to c nouuo 
aeaajiHCb KaKHe-To oco6we npnnaaxH 3jio6hoh pa3apa>KHTeabHocTH 
coBepmeHHo HppaimoHanbHOH (mm noTOM Ha3BanH 3tot poa MycKy- 
nbHO-HepBHott ycTanocTH aapxumpaeHoio /iuxopadKoii>y. MHorne 60- 
neJiH eft nepHoaHnecxH); Hecxojibxo pa3 a 6pocan pa6oTy h ycaa<HBaji- 
ca Ha aepeBHHHMfl o6py6ox b coBepmeHHofl oueneHeaocTH; h noTOM, 
MHHyT nepe3 5, BHOBb npHHHMancH 3a pa6oTy; k xoHuy nepBoro ahh 

BblHCHHJIOCb, HTO B OflHH aeHb paGOTM BCe 3Ke He OXOHHHTbJ yHMJlbie 

h H3MyneHHMe mm BepHynHCb aoMOft. Ha apyroft aeHb, b naTHHuy, c 
iifecTH qacoB yTpa mm y*e 6mjih Bee Ha MecTax; h c tcm ace 6eiueH- 
ctbom CTyna^H cTaMecKaMH, xoth pyxn Gm/ih Tax HaTepTbi, hto npn 
yaapax xoaoTymxn no CTaMecxe npHxoaH/iocb nyTb jih He bcxphxh- 
BaTb ot 6ojih. riHTHHuy npoBejiH Mbt b tom xce 6euieHOM TeMne; h k 
uiecTH nacaM Benepa BbiacHHjiocb, hto mm MO*eM 3axoHHHTb pa6oTy 
npa ycJioBHH, hto HaM aaMHHHCTpaiuDi b BH,ae HCKjiioHeHHH pa3peuiHT 
pa6oTaTb h Hoibio npH CBenax (c HacTynaeHHeM cyMepex 3anpema- 
jiocb BHyTpH MecTa, OTBcaeHHoro nocTpoftKe, 3a»HraTb cbct BBHay 
rpoMaaHoro cxonaeHHa aepeBa, erpyjKex, menox h BBHay cyxoft no- 
roflbi: KypHTb mm c6eranH 3a orpaay, k KaHTHHe); c TpyaoM mm 
ao6HjiHCb pa3peuieHHH; k HaM noaxoanaH rpynnbi aHTponocoqboB h 
o6cy*aaaH, ycneeM mm hjih He ycneeM oxoHHHTb, nyTb jih hc aep- 
7K&JJH napH Ha Hac; TOHHabiuHua 3abpaM, aaMa noHTeHHbix aeT, 3aa- 
BHJia, hto OHa ocTaeTC* npn Hac ao oxoHHaHHa pa6oTM, hto6m to- 
HHTb HaM cTaMecKH; mm pa3ao6bi/iH ce6e cBeHeft; h c HacTynaeHHeM 
cyMepex npn TycxaoM CBeTe (froHapHKOB b Mpaxe orpoMHoro capaa 
npoaojDKajiH pa6oTy; nocaeaHHe wacbi mm y*e 6mjih b nojiHOM H3He- 
MOJKeHHH; yjKe He pa6oTanH, a c xaxofi-TO HCTepHxofi cTaMecxaMH 
h MOJioTxaMH KHaajiHCb Ha orpoMHyK) apxHTpaBHyro (J)opMy; Po3eH- 
6epr oxa3anca xopoiuHM TOBapHmeM; oh noMoran HaM, xax Mor. Ha- 
KOHeu b nepBOM nacy homh mm kohhhjih pa6oTy: o6eiuaHHe mm cuep- 
xca/iH; apxHTpaB 6mji npHBeaeH b nojinyio 3axoHHeHHocTb. 



392 



Ha apyroft aeHb mu npocnann nacoB no Tpex nan h noaBHJincb 
b «Bau» y»e k Benepy; Mbi bhacjih, hto apxHTpaBhi pa6oiHe nepe- 
Be3jiH b «Bau» h HeKOTopbie Ha uen«x 6biJiH y*e npHnoaHJiTbi Ha 
orpoMHyKD BbicoTy nofl Kynoji: HaM CKa3anH, hto yTpoM b capae no- 
hbhjich flOKTop IIlTeftHep h ripuMO HanpaBH^ca k Haiueviy apxHTpaBy; 
oh nonvo ero pa3niH,abiBaa, OTomeJi ot Hero, ceji Ha aepeBHHHbifl 
o6py6oK nepea hhm; h 3aayMHHBo, acnro npoaoJDKaji pa3r^»flbiBaTb 
Haiuy pa6oTy (y»e BnocneacTBHH, xapaKTepH3ya pa6oTy, oh Bbipa3H/i- 
c» o HauieM apxHTpaBe Tax: «3to HaH6oaee hshwho cpa6oTaHHbift 
apxHTpaB cpeziH Bcex apynix». H eiue oh cxa3aji, hto b stom apxw- 
TpaBe Bno/ine 0Tpa3HJicfl TBopqecxHft 3aMbiceji ero). 

TaK 3aKOHiHJicH nepBbift xpynHbift 3Tan b pe3Hofi pa6oTe: apxH- 
TpaBbi 6ojibiuoro xynoaa, hhcjiom 13 6binH Bbipy6jieHbi; h BnepHe 
roTOBbi; Tenepb HaM npeacToa/ia Taxaa >xe pa6oTa OTHocHTcribHO 
apxHTpaBOB Maaoro xynoaa, hhc/iom 10; oaHHHaauaToft 6bina orpoM- 
Haa (J>opMa CHHTe3Hpyioiuafl Bee MOTHBbi apxnTpaBHbix qoopM; oHa 
c6eraaacb k niraHTCKOH neHTarpaMMe, xoTopyio Haaaewaao Bbipe- 
3aTb; HeKOTopoe BpeMfl aaa OTabixa Mbi pa6oTauH b cmokhom capae 
Ha Tax Ha3biBaeMbix (J)OHax, T.e. Ha (frop.viax, KOTopbie coeaHHHaH 
noTOJiOK ot kojiohh k oxpyraoft CTeHe; paSoTa aa« Hac, y>xe onbiTHbix 
pe3HHK0B nocne pa6oTbi Ha apxHTpaBax, 6biaa nycTHUJHafl; Haao 6biao 
CHHMaTb jiHiub BHeiuHHH cnofi aepeBa; TyT BawHa 6bijia He (JiopMa, a 
oco6a« uiTpHxoBKa cTaMecoHHbix cpe30B; xapaKTep iijtphxobkh aaa 
aoKTop; Mbi npo3Ba^H 3Ty ujTpHxoBKy uiTpHxoBKOH «e e/iowy»; k 

3T0My BpeMeHH KpOMe OCHOBHblX pa60THHK0B CbexajIOCb MHO*eCTBO 

BpeMeHHbix rocTefi aHTponoco<J)OB; ohh npnexaaH Ha jieTHHe Mecnubi: 
noHBH/wcb 6epaHHUbi, MKJHxeHuw, uiTyTrapTUbi, BeHuw, rojmawiubi, 
CKaHaHHaBbi, nexH, aHraHHaHe, aiBefluapubi; b ZIopHaxe oxa3biBaaocb 
ywe no 400 aHTponocoqooB; aoxTop IllTeflHep HHTaa Tenepb no cy66o- 
TaM nexuHH b capae; Ha 3th hckuhh npHe3>xajiH Ha aeHb p»a mBeft- 
uapcKHx aHTponoco<t>OB H3 BepHa, JlrouepHa, IJjopHxa h H3 <J)paHuy3- 
ckoh IIlBeHuapHH; Ha cy66oTHHx aexiiHHx npncyTCTBOBaao b capae no 
500 neaoBex. Vij Pocchh Ha no6biBKy npnexaaa T.A. noaneBXTOBa 
h TpHropoBbi (My* h weHa); MHorne H3 npnexaBiUHx pBaawcb k pa- 
ooTe; ho noanycxaTb hx k otbctctbchhoh apxHTpaBHoft pa6oTe 
6biao Hejib3Ji; bot hx h nycxaaH Ha «(j)OHbi»; 3Ta pa6oTa Ha «(f>OHax» 

CHHTajiaCb HaMH OflHHM 6aaOBCTBOM, nOHTH He HyHCHbIM CTpOHTCTlflM 

«Bau» (Bee paBHO 3Ta pa6oTa BnocaeacTBHH 6biaa 3aHOBO nepepa- 
6oTaHa): a pa6oTaioiuHM tocthm Ka3a.nocb, hto ohh HefiCTBHTejibHo 
npHHOCHT noab3y; Mbi ace CMHTaaH, hto pa6oTa 3Ta nocTaBneHa nnn 
yTeuieHHH «eocmeu»; 6bi/io CMeuiHO CMOTpeTb, c KaKOfi BavKHoH mh- 
Hoft CHHMajiH nerKHe cjioh aepeBa CTapyiuxa KajibKpeftT, TpHropoBa 
h apyrHe npne3)KHe. 



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B 3tot nepHoa a-p IIlTeflHep pa3HTeabHO nepeMeHHJi craab cbo- 

HX JieKUHft: BMeCTO TeM MHCTHieCKHX, <J)HaOCO(t>CKHX, XpHCTOJIOrH- 

HecKHX oh 6pan TeMbi ncicaioHHTeabHO xyflo»ecTBeHHbie, HMeJomne 
OTHoiueHHe k TexymHM pa6oTaM; k 3T0My nepnoay othochtch ero 
3aMe4aTe^bHa» aeKUHH 06 opHaMeHTe 59 . Yme OTCTponaacb okojio 
«Bau» flepeBHHHaa KOHTopa, rae noMewaaacb aaMHHHCTpauwa «Bau», 
HHHceHepHaji, nepTOKHaa KOMHaTa h KOMHaTa Moaeaeft; c6oKy b npn- 
CTpoftKe pa6oTajia mhcc Msphoh, aen» inoaenH pa3JiHHHbix (fropM, 
AOJiaceHCTByjoiUHx yicpacHTb «Bau»; BHioy, b noaBaabHOM 6ctohhom 
noMemeHHH pacnoao>KHaacb xyflo»ecTBeHHa« MacTepcKaa, rae pa3pa- 
6aTbiBajiHCb 3CKH3bi aoKTopa aaa pacnHcaHHH Kynoaa; 3aecb 6wjih 
MacTepcKaH 3KKapTiiiTeftH, BoaouiHHoft, IlepaabTS, JlHHae, cynpyroB 
nojuiHK, Baaaep h KjiacceH; 6apoHecca (J)oh 3KKapTiiiTeftH aoaacHa 
6bijia npHroTOBHTb 3CKH3 orpoMHofl roaoBbi MejioBeKa, BeaoMoro k 
nocBHmeHHK); OHa HecKOJibKO pa3 npHBoaHaa mchh b cbok) MacTep- 
cKyio h KonHpoBana moh raa3a; «e/ia3a» aim nocBamaeMoro OHa 
xoTeaa B3«Tb y mchh; sth ceaHcw y 3KKapTuiTeftH cxopo npeBpaTH- 
jiHCb xiJifl MeHH b »HBbie h 3aHHMaTe/ibHbie 6eceabi c Heft; mu MHoro 
roBopajiH o no33HH; OHa HHTajia MHe Bcayx YaaHaa; cxopo OHa 3a- 
apy>KHaa c M.M. Ch30bmm; y Hee TaioKe 6biaa cboh aa6opaTopHHKa, 
rae OHa aeaaaa onbiTbi Haa KpacxaMH, ao6biBaeMbiMH H3 ubctob; 
KpacKH noaynaaHCb HHTepecHbie, ho Hy>KHO 6biao yMeTb hx 3axpen- 
jiHTb; aaa 3Toro Tpe6oBaac« XHMHK-cneiwaaHCT; ero OHa HCKana; 
aeft6-XHMHK «Bau» 6wa a-p IIlMHaeab; bch na6opaTopHaH pa6oTa 
cocpeaoTOHHaacb y Hero; ho 3KKapTuiTeftH BpaacaoBaaa co IIlMHae- 
aeM; eft HenpeMeHHO HyacHa 6biaa cboh aa6opaTopHH; nosTOMy OHa 
cxBaTHaacb 3a TajiaHTJiHBoro Moaoaoro pyccKoro CTyaeHTa, npHexaB- 
uiero H3 TepMaHMH Ha no6biBxy k cecTpe, 3a H.A. MaaHKOBa; oh 6bia 
xhmhk no cneuHaabHOCTH; Ha Hac, aHTponoco(t>OB, oh KocHaca; ho 
3KKapTuiTeftH noneMy-TO eMy HMnoHHpoBaaa; OHa 3a6paaa ero b 
cbok) aa6opaTopHK> h ueabie aHH ohh B03Hancb Haa H3roTOBaeHHeM 
xaKHX-TO BemecTB, HywHbix aaa 3aKpenaeHH» Kpacox; iepe3 Hee Ma- 
aHKOB npHHHa aHTponoco(J)HK) h cTaa naeHOM O-Ba (sto 6biao y*e Me- 
caua TpH cnycTH). 

B 3th aHH a-p IIlTeflHep aaa HaM E.S. Ha E.S. BnepBbie 6biaw 
aonymeHbi HaTaiua h A.M. nouuo. 

Co BTopoft noaoBHHbi hkjhh 6waa pacnpeaeaeHbi pa6oTbi Haa ap- 
xHTpaBaMH Maaoro Kynoaa; Ach 6biaa Ha3HaneHa pyKOBoaHTeabHH- 
ueft Ha apxHTpaBe KDnHTepa (xaeH); oiWTb Hanaaca nepnoa BbiMepH- 
BaHHH h pa3MeTOK; noTOM Mbi npHHHaHCb 3a pa6oTy; KaeH oxasaacH 



59 Bo3moikho, Eejibift HMeeT b Baay uhkji nuTH jiexuHfl «Wege zu einem neuen Baus- 
til», npoHHTaHHbiti b ilopHaxe 7, 17 h 28 hk>h« h 5, 26 mojm 1914 r. (h.ct.). 



394 



oieHb TBepflbiM h HenoK^aaHCTbiM aepeBOM; Mbi npHBbiKan k ay6y, 

H HTo6bI npHBblKHyTb K KJieHy HaaO 6bIJ10 nOTpaTHTb HeCKOJlbKO flHeft 

Ha 03HaKOMJieHHe c tcxhhkoh pa6oTbi; « aeHTeabHO noMoraa Ace; 
HaTama h FIouuo He pa6oTaaH c HaMH: HaTaiua dbina Ha3HaweHa 
pyKOBOflHTe^bHHueH na iipyroM apxHTpaBe (Ka»eTca, — Ha Mapce 
»e); kto c HaMH pa6oTaa b Ty nopy Ha KaeHe — He noMHKX He to JlyHa 
Upexcaep, He to O.H. AHHeHKOBa. Mbi HanaaH CBepxy: pa6oTaan Ha 
aecax, oneHb bmcoko Haa 3eMaefi; Haao 6biao k HaM B36HpaTbc« no 
LuaTKoft neceHKe; phtm ann 6bui Bee tot >Ke; Tan weoKoao 12 qacoB, 
nepea o6eaoM noaBJiHjicH aoKTop h ocMaTpHBan HauiH pa6oTbi, aaBaa 
yKa3aHH«, aeaaa otmctkh yr\neM; HHoraa M.R. CHBepc conpoBOKjia- 
iia ero; oaHa»<abi ohh no«BHancb BTpoeM, c nncaTeaeM JleBH: M.H. 
nono3Bajia mchh h npeacTaBHaa JleBH; JleBH paccbinaaca b aio6e3Ho- 
cthx h CKa3aji, 4to oh MHoro cabiman 060 mhc ZIpyroH pa3 npoH30- 
ujjia 3a6aBHas KapTHHa; yBHaaB aoKTopa h M..H. c cbohx aecoB, a 
TaK CTpeMHTeiibHo BbicyHyncH Bnepea (MHe Hy»<HO 6buio no3BaTb aoK- 
Topa, HTo6bi cnpocHTb ero o KaKofl-TO aeTaaH pa6oTbi), hto noTepaa 
paBHOBecHe h co CTaMecKoft b pyKe h c orpoMHOK) KoaoTyiiiKOH b 
apyroK pyne pyxHya c BbicoKHX aecoB npjiMo noa Horn M.ft. h nyTb 
He cujh6 ee c Hor; OHa CTpauiHO nepenyraaacb; a-p we He o6paTHa 
HHKaKoro BHHMaHHH Ha Moe naaeHHe. 

B 3to BpeMH name h name CTaa noHBaHTbca oxoao Hac PHXTep; 
oh CTaa aoKa3biBaTb, mto HaM caeayeT pa6oTaTb b ero MacTepcKofl 
Haa CTeKaaMH h 6pocHTb pa6oTy Ha apxHTpaBax; ywe 3aica3aHHbie 
CTeKaa npHuian H3 napHwa; ohh 6bian BbiaHTbi H3 pa3HOUBeTHoro, 
ueabHoro CTeKaa (oaHO okho — KpacHoe; asa — chhhx; aBa — po30- 
bwx; aBa — 3eaeHbix; aBa — weaTbix h T.a.); ToaiuHHOio ohh 6waH 
He MeHee atoflMa; Kawaoe okho cocToaao H3 Tpex orpoMHeHuiHx cTe- 
Koa; hx Haao 6biao Bbipe3biBaTb oco6biMH cBepanabHbiMH annapaTa- 
mh, coeaHHeHHbiMH 3aeKTpH4ecKHM npoBoaoM c 6op-MauiHHOK); pa- 
6oTa aoa>KHa 6biaa npoH3BoaHTbc« Ha naoiuaaKax, nepeMemaiowHx- 
ca Ha peabcax, HTo6bi CTeKaa He TpecKaancb ot HarpeBaHHH bo BpeMH 
cBepaeHHH, ohh noaHBaaHCb Bee BpeMH xoaoaHoft cTpyeto Boabi; pa- 
6oTaTb Haao 6biao b KaynyKOBbix 6aaaxoHax h b KaynyKOBbix nep- 
naTKax, HTo6bi He npoMOKHyTb. CnepBa Haao 6biao Ha npo6Hbix Kyc- 
Kax cTexaa yiHTbca TexHHKe BeaeHH« aHHHH no CTeKay, yray6aeHHK> 
hx, cpesaHHjo cTeKoabHbix caoeB; Haao 6biao yMHTbca aepa<aTb anna- 
paT; Koraa oh HaiHHaa aeflcTBOBaTb noa BaHHHHeM saeKTpHHecTBa, 
to Bee Teao coTpacaaocb h pe3eu eweMHHyTHo BbicKaKHBaa H3 pyKH 
h yaapaa no CTeKay: CTeKao — pa36HBaaocb; Haao 6biao cnepBa 
HayHHTbCfl TBepao aepwaTb b pyKe cBepanabHbifl annapaT; pa36wTb 
ueabHoe CTexao — 3HaiHao: yHHHTOWHTb 20,000 cfrpaHKOB (Kawaoe 
CTeKao CTOHao ao 20,000 (fcpaHKOB). Mbi b stot nepnoa HHoraa 3a- 



395 



xoah/ih k PnxTepy h ynpa>KHaaHCb Ha npo6Hbix ocKoaKax ctckoji. 
R cpa3y peiiiHrt, hto 3Ta pa6oTa — He aaa mchh, hto a HHKoraa He 
6yay yvieno aepwaTb cBepaHjibHbift npH6op; h cTaao 6biTb: Henpe- 
MeHHO pa3o6bK) cTeKjio; PHXTep y6e>Kaaa MeHa b npoTHBHOM; npo6a 
CTeicoa y Ach maa yaanneft, ho h eft He oneHb xoTejiocb nepexoaHTb 
b MacTepcxyK) k PwxTepy; pa6oTa Ha apxHTpaBax y Hee uiaa 6aHCTa- 
TejibHo; xaM OHa 6biaa noae3Ha, a 3aecb — Haao 6biao eme BceMy 
3aHOBO yHHTbCH. Tax Bonpoc o CTeKJiax eme Bee BHceJi b B03ayxe; 
Mbi peiiiHaH OTjio)KHTb no oceHH Bonpoc o Hameft cneuHa;iH3auHH no 
cTeKOJibHOMy aeay. 

BinecTe c TeM PnxTep HaM cTaa roBopHTb, hto KpoMe E.S. ecTb 
eme HHTHMHeftiuHe co6paHH« y aoKTopa aaa H36paHHbix naeHOB, no- 
cbhthbiuhx ce6a ayxoBHofl pa6oTe, h hto HaM caeayeT npocHTbca y 
M..H. Ha 3th co6paHH«; Mbi c Aceft OTBenaaH He pa3 PHXTepy, hto 
npocHTbc« Mbi He xothm, h6o He CHHTaeM ce6a aocToftHbiMH nonacTb 
Ha TaKHe co6paHH«; ho PwxTep cica3aa, hto mh npocHTbca o6a3aHbi: 
TaxoBa (J)opMa; hto OTToro oh HaM h tobopht 06 sthx co6paHHax, 
hto mm co3pe;iH aaa Toro, hto6w 6biTb aonymeHHMMH Ha hhx; TO- 
raa Ach OTnpaBHaacb k M.fl. h nocTaBHaa eft npaMO Bonpoc o ao- 
nymeHHH Hac Ha co6paHHa; M..H. cKa3aaa, hto nepeaacT HaiuH caoBa 
AOKTopy; nepe3 HeKOTopoe BpeMH OHa noaxoaHT k HaM h tobopht: 
flOKTop corjiaceH Hac aonycTHTb Ha co6paHHa; ho ohh 6biBaiOT oneHb 
peaico; b AopHaxe, HanpHMep, ohh He npeaBHaaTCa, ho bot b Hanajie 
Hioaa aoKTop eaeT b IIlBeuHio h b ropoae HopnenHHe HHTaeT iiiBeaaM 
Kypc jieKUHft; TaM 6yayT h E.S. h sth 6ojiee hhthmhwc co6paHHa; 
ecnn Mbi xothm nonacTb Ha hhx nocKopee, to mm mojkcm noexaTb 
b IIlBeuHK); mm c Aceft peuiaeM, hto noc/ie ycHaeHHott pa6oTbi Tpex 
MecnueB HaM He Meiuaao 6bi OTaoxHyTb h ocBOKHTbca noe3aKOft; Mbi 
peuiaeM b Hanaae Hioaa aBHHyTbCH b HopnenHH; Tyaa >Ke co6HpaK>Tca 
exaTb: OopcMaH, IleTpoBCKHft, Ch30b h TpHropoBM. 

B nocaeaHHx HHCJiax hkjh» Bee 3auBeTaeT po3aMH: ilopHax h Ap- 
aecreftM npeBpamaiOTca b KaKHe-TO «po308Huxu»; b B03ayxe ctoht 
npHHoe 6jiaroyxaHHe po3; h CTpaHHo: c paciraeTaHHeM sthm c orpoM- 

HOtt HHTeHCHBHOK) CHJIOft npo6y*aaeTCfl BHOBb MOH BJlK>6.neHHOCTb B 

HaTamy, c KOTopoft a y»e He 6opiocb. 

MlO/lb. 

B 3Tofl &Jiio6aeHHOCTH MHoro Tenepb nepe)KHBaio a HHCToro h 
HenocpeacTBeHHoro; ho MHoro HaKpynHBaeTca Boxpyr Hee h 6oab- 
Horo; a ayMaio o tom, hto cyab6a tohho napoHHo OTCTpaHHaa ot 
MeHfl Acio c BepreHa; Bee moh ycHana npoTaHyTbca k Ace h noBe- 
aaTb eft moA BHyTpeHHHtt mhp pa36HBaioTca o Kanyio-TO Kopy aeaaHOft 
xonoaHocTH, paBHoayuiHa; npn nonbiTKax pa36HTb Ha Heft 3Ty BHaH- 



396 



MocTb oTflajieHHa ot mchh, aoxoaauiero ao 6e3yiacTH«, n HaTaaxH- 
Baiocb Ha noHTH Hcnyr; Ach ci>e>KHBaeTC>i; h He to, hto6w y Hac He 
6biao yMHbix HHTepecHbix pa3roBopoB, h He to, ito6w Ach He 3a6oTH- 
aacb 060 MHe; OHa MHe OKa3biBaeT MHoro BHHMaHHH, — ho He TaM 
HMeHHO, rue h Taw cboh Han6oaee orHeHHbie Bonpocbi, cBH3aHHbie c 
nyTeM, c ouiymeHHeM ce6n b aHTponoco<J)HH, ouiymeHHeM b Tattae 
Moero nyTH c aoxTopoM; TyT o6Hapy*HBaeTC« yaHBHTeabHan, h 6m 
CKa3an, xoaoaHOCTb, nepexoanman b acecTOxocTb; h hotom: h HeBoab- 
ho 3aMeHaio, hto h bo bccm 3aBHiuy ot Ach; h He Mbicaio ce6e HeaeaH, 
npoBeaeHHofl 6e3 Hee, a OHa — KaK 6yaTo BOBce He Hy*aaeTCH bo 

MHe; 3TO C03flaeT B HaiUHX OTHOUieHHHX MOK) nOJIHyK) 3aBHCHMOCTb OT 

Hee; Bee HauiH nepeaBHJKeHHH, Becb cTHJib Hamefi kh3hh, o6ycaoBaeH 
ero; He 6bino cayian, iTo6bi OHa MHe ycTynnjia b ieM-HH6yab; sto 
nyBCTBO npHBH3aHHocTH k Hefl TeM 6oaee anneaupyeT k 6oabuiOH 06- 
mHTejibHocTH MOKay HaMH b nocnedneM, b ifenmpoeoM; ho hmchho 
TyT OHa mo^hht, KaK Momna. H b 3toh-to Touxe BMHyxcaeHHoft ot- 
na^eHHocTH ot Hee noHBaneTCH onaTb HaTauia, h h, He aceaaa, Bee 
noBopaHHBaKDCb Ha Hee; BecHofl 3tot noBopoT Ha HaTamy nepexcHBaio 
h, KaK naaeHHe h KaK rpex: h Bee >§cay, mto aoxTop pa3rpoMHT mc- 
hh 3a 3th rpeuiHbie nyBCTBa; ho aoKTop BOBce He o6pauiaeT BHHMa- 
HHH Ha moh cHOiueHHH c HaTameft, a k caMOft HaTauie othochtch c 
Bee 6ojibiueH BHHMaTenbHOCTbio, noaiac aa*e c HeacHocTbio; MHe Ha- 
iHHaeT Ka3aTbca, mto aoKTop oneHb HHTepecyeTCH BHyTpeHHHM mh- 
Pom HaTauiH; TaK PnxTep, b MaerepcKyio KOToporo HHoraa 3axoaHT 
iioKTop h c hhm CHflHT, oaHaacabi npnoeraeT k HaM, h BbinycKaa Kjiy- 
6bi flbiMa H3 Tpy6xH, tobopht: «A y Hamamu — nembipe xpbisia...» 
ft — HeaoyMeBaK). PnxTep — noacHHeT: «CeroaHH ko MHe npuxoaHT 
aoKTop h — roBopHT: «3HaeTe jih, Phxtcp, y Frau Pozzo-to: He flBa 
Kpwna — neTbipe xpbiaa...» (aoxTop HHoraa jik>6ht BbinajiHBaTb rpo- 
TecKH, napaaoKcaabHbie Beiiw; HHoraa oh hh c Toro hh c cero cxa*eT 
TaKyio «duKOcmb», ot kotopoh cnoco6eH Ha 3eMaK> rpnHyTbCH 6wk); 
3tot pa3roBop PHXTepa c aoxTopoM HaTame h apyrae Meaonu ot- 
HomeHHfl aoKTOpa k Heft noBbiuiaioT moh HHTepec k HaTauie; oaHaac- 
aw, Koraa mu c HaTameft iiijih no ayry h BCTperHaH Ha noBopoTe 
aopor aoKTopa, oh oneHb npucTaabHO, h Kax MHe noxa3aaocb, c 
aK>6onbiTCTBOM oraaaea mchh h uotom raa3aMH ocTaHOBHJicji Ha Ha- 
Tauie; MHe noKa3anocb, ito oh ece 3HaeT o mohx nyBCTBax k HaTauie; 
h 3Ha«, — cTpaHHo He ocyxcaaeT mchh. 3to nocTeneHHO yxopeHHio- 
meecH y6e*aeHHe b tom, hto TaHHCTBeHHoe OTaaneHHe ot mchh Ach 
HMeHHo c MOMeHTa Moero ayxoBHoro B3aeTa h CToab *e TaHHCTBeH- 
Hoe noHBaeHHe HaTauiH b MoeM BHyTpeHHeM MHpe b momcht noHBae- 
hhh mchh Ha 3eMae nocae ayxoBHoro CTpaHCTBHH — He caynaeH: b 
HeM — cyab6a, pox; a TyT — paciiBeTaKJT po3bi; a TyT — HaTauia 

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CTpaHHO, HeBepoHTHO xopouieeT h, Kax MHe xa»ceTc», b cbok> oiepeab 

BJIK>6jIHeTCfl B MeHH, 6opeTCfl C CBOHM lyBCTBOMJ ho HenpeoaoaHMa* 

CHjia HamiHatomettcft CTpacTH Meacay HaMH, BcnuxHyBiuax m BHy- 
TpeHHeftmefl nepexaHMKH Hac, — 6pocaeT Hac apyr k apyry; HHKoraa 
He 3a6yay: po30BMft Beiep; mm chahm Ha 6ajiKOHHHKe Ka(J>e (a, Ach, 
TpHropoBM h HaTaiua) b ApaecreftMe; KpyroM — cnaoumbie po3w; 
po3w — Ha flornax, po3bi — Ha ayrax, po3bi — BOKpyr Hac; HaTauia 
bch b 6ejioM, c 6yKeTOM po3 b pyxe; OHa — HeBbipa3HMo xopouia; 
h Hac — THHeT apyr k apyry; Tax bo MHe pa3birpanocb 3to cnaeHHe 
b Ka<}>e; c 3Toro MOMeHTa — a nepecTaa 6opoTbc« c cbohm qyBCTBOM, 
ho fl nepexcHBan ce6n coBepmeHHO HecnacTHbiM h pa36HTbiM. 

B 3th ahh o6Hapy>KHjiocb, hto Ha Mattweg »HTb HaM BceM He- 
yao6Ho: h E.A. HabHHOtt, h HaM c Acefl; E.A. CHflna aaa Hac Bcex 
o6myK) KBapTHpy, b ApjiecrettMe *e, ho y caMott oxpaHHM, Bbixoaa- 
we& na Jiyr, Beayiunfi k «Bau»; b paccTO«HHH 10 MHHyT xoab6bi ot 

CTpOttKH HaXOaHJICH flOMHK, H30nHpOBaHHblft, BeCb B 3ejieHH, y OCTa- 

hobkh TpaMBaa, seaymero b Ea3eab; b 6yaymefi Hauiett KBapTHpe (o 
n«TH KOMHaTax, c xyxHefl) — 2 KOMHaTbi 6pajiH mm, a 3 — E.A. c 6pa- 
tom, H.A. MajiHKOBbiM, ocTaKjmHMCfl b jiopHaxe) — b 6yaywefi Ha- 
uiett KBapTHpe 6buia aBepb, BeaywaH Ha naocKyio Kpuuiy; mm cneuiHO 
nepe6pajiHCb c Mattweg: E.A., Ka)KeTCH, BpeMeHHO nepe6pajiacb k 
cecTpe, k K.A. fly6ax, a mm nepeopaancb noxa b eaHHCTBeHHyio nep- 
aa«myio KOMHaTyuiKy, b KaKOM-To aoMHKe, noKa HaM oTaeaMBaaH 
KBapTHpy; KBapTHpa aoaacHa 6waa 6biTb roTOBa k nepBOMy aBrycTy; 
BBHay nauiero cxoporo orbe3aa b HopnenHH mm He cjihihkom TJiroTH- 
ancb Harnett eaHHCTBeHHofl qepaaiHofl KOMHaTyuixott; Ach ucjimmh 
aHHMH nponaaaaa Ha «Bau», a » c hk>jih npHHaacx 3a coKpameHHe 
«I7emep6yp8a» ann HeMeuKoro H3aaHHH; nepe3 mok> nepeBoaHHuy 
mm aoroBopmiHCb c H3aaTeaeM, TeoproM MioaaepoM. 

Hnxoraa He 3a6yay 3th npeaoTbe3aHbie aHH, Koraa mm co6npa- 
ancb b HopienHH; h cnaea aoMa, aim 3axoana b ApaecreflMCKoe KatJ>e 
h ycHaeHHo npaBHa tckct «I7emep6ypea», HHoraa 6pocax pa6oTy 
h oTaaBaHCb mmcjihm o HaTauie; Ha Haul orbe3a » cMOTpea c Ha- 
aeJKaoK), Kax Ha nocaeaHK>K> nonMTKy 3a6MTb HaTauiy (o, k3k 6bia 
6m h CHacTHHB, ecan 6m OHa He HCHaa 3aecb, npn «fla«»!). .ZJhh CTOHan 
6eccoaHeHHbie, ayuiHbie, rpo3Hbie; Ha «Bau» o6Hapy*Haacb TJDKeaaa 

HCTOPHJT. apXHTeKTOp UlMHaT npOH3Bea KaKHe-TO HeBepHbie T8MHHC- 

jieHHH, b pe3yabTaTe kotopmx orpoMHbie (J)opMbi, 3aroTOBaeHHbie 
aafl BaflHHH, naao 6biao cbi3HOBa caeaaTb; h xpoMe Toro: o6HapyxcH- 
ancb KaxHe-TO 3aoynoTpe6aeHHH c nocTaBKoft aepeBa; b cneTa craBH- 
nocb aepeBO nepBoro copTa, a oxasaaocb, hto aaa mhoi-hx, H3roTOB- 
naeMbix aepeBHHHbix <j>opM ana BaHHHH cTaBHaocb aepeBO BToporo 
copTa; npn pa6oTe HaTaaKHBaaHCb Ha rHHabie ysacTKH aepeBa, ko- 

398 



Topbie Haao 6mjio Bbipe3aTb H3 y»ce npHroTOBjieHHwx <J>opM h 3a\ie- 

HHTb HOBblMH, COOTBCTCTBeHHblMH HaCTHMH, 1TO OTHHMaJlO MHOrO 

BpeMeHH; bo BceM bhhhjih apxHTeKTopa IIlMHaTa, oKa3aBiuerocH xpo- 
Me Toro MajioaeHTejibHbiM, HeHaxoaHHBbiM; Hao6opoT: SmviepT cbo- 
hm TanaHTOM, yMeHHeM, bkycom h MaTeMaTHnecKHMH cnocooHOCTH- 
mh Bee 6oaee h 6ojiee BbiaBHraaca b cpeae aopHaxcKHx aHTponoco- 
4>ob. TaKHM o6pa30M, Bee CKnaabiBanocb k TOMy, mto Haao 6wao no 

B03MO)KHOCTH MHrKO OTCTpaHHTb UlMHflTa OT pyKOBOHCTBa HOCTpOH- 

xaMH h oTflaTb 3to pyKOBOflCTBO 3HraepTy; 3tot npouecc cmchw 
npaBJieHHH MyiHTeabHo nep«KHBaac$i ynacTHHicaMH pa6oTbi. 

y*e oTCTpaHBa^HCb tph rpoMaiiHbix nopTajia; h CTeHbi «Bau» 
o6KnaabiBa^HCb rnraHTCKHMH, 3aroTOBjieHHbiMH (JiopMaMH H3 cnaom- 
Horo aMepHKaHCKoro ay6a (pa3pe3aHHoro Ha tohkhc nnaerbi, cnpec- 
coBaHHbie apyr c apyroM, BcaeacTBHe Hero aocTHranacb aepeBHHHan 
Toaina xaKHX yroaHO pa3MepoB); BOKpyr noayxpyra, o6pa30BaHHoro 
6ynyuiHM 3pHTeabHbiM 3ajioM, yBeHnaHHbiM 6ojibuiHM KynoaoM, yxce 
5bi/ia oTCTpoeHa 6eTOHHa« BepaHaa, c KOTopofl oTKpwBaacH aHBHbift 
BHfl Ha oicpecTHOCTH: b HCHyK) noroay OTTyaa hcho 6 bin BHaeH 3nb- 
3ac: TopnajiH rpe6HH Bore3; a Hecxonbxo npaBee Bceraa BHae- 
ancb xoaMbi BaaeHa; h Ka3aaocb, hto hx — pyxott noaaTb; «,Bau», 
o6ao3KeHHbifl eme He OTpa6oTaHHbiMH rnbi6aMH, xa3anca lyaoBHiu- 

HblM JKHBOTHbIM, 3a6pOHHpOBaHHbIM nopTajiaMH H OKOHHblMH <J)Op- 

MaMH; pe3Hyio pa6oTy Ha bhcuihhx CTeHax h nopTaaax mm. KaK-TO 
ynycTHaH H3 BHay; h bot Tenepb o6Hapy»Haocb: HaM *e npnaeTCH 
H3BaHBaTb 3th aepeBHHHbie ropbi raw6. 

K Hanaay hkjjih HanaaH o6xnaabiBaTb xynona hopbokcxhm xaM- 
HeM, npHiueaiiiHM k xoniry hiohh; h Tenepb yace ueabift yqacrox oa- 
Horo H3 KynoaoB aa3ypea b npocxpaHCTBO. 

B 3th aHH H3 HTanHH npnexan k E.A. HnbHHott ee xopouiHtt 3Ha- 
KOMbifl h apyr, counajiHCT-peBoaiouHOHep, Hexoraa cocaaHHWH Ha 
KaTopry, oTTyaa 6«KaBuiHH h xchbluhh sth nocaeaHHe roaw b HTa- 
aHH peneTHTopoM y aeTefi AM(J)HTeaTpoBa — xopouiHtt 3HaKOMbift 
BnKTopa HepHOBa, CaBHHKOBa h npoinx peBoaiouHOHepoB; eMy Haao- 
eaa ycnoxoeHHaa KH3Hb b HTaaHH; oh cabimaa o AopHaxe; h npHexan 
nocMOTpeTb, KaK «HByT h pa6oTaioT aHTponoco<J)bi; 3tot npne3)KHH 
6wa KoHCTaHTHH AnapeeBHH JlHrcxHtt; oh BceM naM oneHb noHpa- 
BHac»; noHpaBHacH ero npHe3a cioaa, HeH3BecTHO 3aMeM, na BeaocH- 
neae, 6e3 rpouia aeHer, 6e3 aeraabHbix aoxyMeHTOB; Haao 6biao ero 
Kax-HH6yab ycTpoHTb; 3HrnepT CTaa xaonoTaTb 3a Hero nepea uiBefl- 
uapcKHMH BnacTHMH, nopyiHacH 3a Hero; h — aaxce: BHec 3aaor; ho 
UnrcKOMy Haao 6biao aocTaTb pa6oTy; oh CTaa npocHTbca pa6oTaTb 
Ha «Bau»; ho 6wao nonoaceHo TBepaoe npaBHao: xyaoMcecTBeHHbie 
pa6oTbi MoraH bccth ToabKO aHTponoco(J)bi; JIhixkhh CTaa npocHTb 

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ce6e nepHOfi pa6oTbi; h aa>Ke: cornacHjica rHyTb 5Kejie30 (6mjih TaKHe 
pa6oTbi, rue Haao 6wjio cor-HyTb mhohccctbo aceae3Hbix nonoc); c 
toh nopw JlHrcKHfl cTa/i npocTbiM pa6oTHHKOM npH «Bau». KpoMe 
Toro: k H.A. EoroaBJieHCKoft (Toace HeaeraabHOft peBoaiouHOHepKe, 
cTaBiuefl aHTponoco4)Kofl) npwexaa ee rpaacaaHCKHfl My>K, Mopaobhh; 
h TO>Ke noMbiiujiH^ BCTynnTb b 06mecTBo h pa6oTaTb no aepeBy; k 
3TOMy BpeMeHH pyccKHX b AopHaxe Ha6paaacb ueaaa rpynna; bot 
Koro no.MHfo M3 pyccxHx: mm c Aceft, HaTama, rioimo, H.A. Boro- 
HBneHCKaa, 3nbpaM (pyccKaa HeMKa), IiHCKOBCKaH (He to JlyTKOBCKaa, 
— tj)aMH^HK» He noMHK)), E.A. HnbHHa, K.A. Jly6ax, ee Myac JXy6ax 
(nojiypyccKHtt, noayiuBeHuapeu — uiBeBuapcKHH noaaaHHMft), KeM- 
nep, oapoHecca <t>HTHHro<J), MopaoBHH, JIhitkhh, H.A. MaaHXOB, 
B.n. TpHropoB, H.A. TpHropoBa, T.A. EepreHrpiOH, T.B. KnceaeBa, 
M.B. BojiouiHHa, O.H. AHHeHKOBa, T.A. IloaHeBKTOBa, Epa3oab, 
A.C. IleTpoBCKHft, M.M. Ch3ob, cJ>opcMaH, O.n. KocTbmeBa, Opaa- 
KHHa, T.T. Tpane3HHKOB; k H/ibHHofi HHoraa npHe3)Ka.n b tocth 
couHajiHCT-peBonfouHOHep PyaHeB. 

HaKOHeu mm c Acefl OTnpaBHiiHCb b HopaHeriHH; BMecTe c HaMH 
noexaaw: TpHropoBbi, <t>opcMaH, neTpoBCKHfi, Ch30b h BoaouiHHa. 

R He noMHK) aeTaaeft nyTH; iiomhk) jiHuib, hto npoe3aoM nepe3 
BepjiHH Hac nopa3naa ywacHaa aTMoc(J)epa ropo,aa; CTOHJia CTpauiHaH 
>Kapa; Ha smuax y aioaefi 6biaa KaKaa-TO rpHMaca tomjichhh h 6peaa; 
e^Ba BbiHecim mm SepaHHCKHfi neHb; h B3aoxHyaH CBo6oaHo jiHiub 
Toraa, Koraa oKa3ajincb Ha Stettiner Bahnhof c 6HjieTOM b xapMaHe; 
noMHio npeKpacHMfl nepee3a no Mopro ot !IlTpanb3yHaa ao MaabMg; 
noTOM mm noMnaaHCb 6eperoM IUbcuhh; TpHropoBM, xaxceTCH, no- 
nyTHO 3aexaaa b CTOKroabM; b aopore BbiacHHaocb, wto b ceHT»6pe 
aoKTop KHTaeT Kypc b 12 neicuHH b MiOHxeHe; h mm, pa3yMeeTC«, Me- 
qTaaH Ha 3tot Kypc. B HopienHHe mm ocTaHOBHHHCb c TpHropoBbiMH 
b oaHOM oTeae; noMHHTca, apyacnaH c hhmh oneHb b sth bhh; mm 
o6paTHan BHHMaHHe Ha to, hto iiiBeacxaa noaHium Bcioay BbipacTaeT 
nepea HaMH; OKa3MBaeTca: uiBeaM 6ojiaHCb pyccKHX uinHOHOB; h no- 
HBjieHHe Hac, pyccKHX, b MaaeHbKOM, BecbMa He nocemaeMOM ropoa- 
Ke, BCTpeBo>KHjio iiiBeacKHX ropoaoBbix; ho mm, npH3HaTbca, He o6pa- 
manH HHKaKoro BHHMaHHH Ha sto; mm o6paTHJiH BHHMaHHe aHuib Ha 
coo6meHHH ra3eT o noKyuieHHH Ha PacnyTHHa. 

Eoaee Bcero 6biaH oxBaieHbi mm nepexcHBaHHHMH HopneriHHCKO- 
ro Kypca, ycTpoeHHoro npn yMacTHH rpa<J>HHH TaMHabTOH, tctkh Ha- 
meH aopHaxcKofl TaMHabTOH; h He noMHio TOHHoro 3araaBHH 3Toro 
Kypca 60 ; ho ero ocHOBHajr Hae«: 3aKOH KapMbi b xpHCTHaHCKOM 



M 12-16 menu (h.ct.) UlreflHep hhtjui b NorrkOping Kypc «Christus und die men- 
scheiche Seele» h jieKUHio «Anthroposophie und Christentum». 



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B3HTHH B CBH3H C Hfleeft HCKyilJieHHH XpHCTOM; flOKTOp yflHBHTejIbHO 

noxa3aji, hto hack xapMbi, nepeBoruiomeHHH h OTBercTBeHHOCTH He 
tojh>ko He npoTHBopeiaT anee Hcxyn.neHHJi, ho npa\io BbiTexaioT H3 
Hee, ecjiH 3Ty H^eio yrjiy6HTb h BbinpgMHTb H3 HenpaBHJibHbix hcto- 
pHwecKHX h xcHTencKHx HcxpHBJieHHH ee; omrrb b BOJiHax Kypca ne- 
pexcHBan a Kax 6bi ommthc ot Bcero rpeiimoro h 3eMHoro, hcm h 06- 
poc b AopHaxe; HaTauia He crosuia Ha mocm ropH30HTe b 3th ahh; c 
Acefl qyBCTBOBan a npHMHpeHHe; h mm rapMOHHiecxH nepexcHBa^H 
Kypc; HHKoraa a He jiio6hji aoKTopa Taxon cmhobhch h 6/iaroaap- 

HOtt JHOGOBbK), KaK B 3TH flHHJ HHKOHia He 6bIJ10 y MeHH Taxofi 6jia- 

roaapHOCTH k 06mecTBy, BKjiKWHBiueMy Hac b cbok) *H3Hb; BOo6me 
Kypc cB«3ajTca ann mchh c nepexcHBaHueM Teana ojiaroaapHocTH, 
noAHHHHoro cMHpeHHfl h jik)6bh; 3Ta jno6oBb KaK 6bi 3ajiHBajia Bee 
Moe cywecTBO, nepenojiHHJia MeHa; h a 3acTaBan ce6a — CHacTJiHBo 
pwflaiomHM, HeH3BecTHO noneMy. 

Hame noBbimeHHoe HacTpoeHHe, BepoaTHo, ooiacHanocb TeM, 

HTO Mbl 6bIJIH npHHHTbl Ha HHTHMHeftlUHe C06paHHH aOKTOpOM, IipO- 

HcxoaHBuiHe 3a ropoaoM, b aoMe cTaporo iuBeacKoro noMeiimxa, 
OKpyaceHHoro napKOM (b ero hmchhh); noMHHTca, hto <I>opcMaH, ko- 

TOpaH TO)Ke fl06HBajiaCb IipHHaTHa Ha 3TH C06paHHH, — npHHHTa, 

oflHaxo, He 6bina; mm c Acefl HyBCTBOBa^H HejiOBKOCTb nepea Ch30- 

BMM H IleTpOBCKHM, KOTOpMX MM BHflejIH Ka*flbIH HCHh H KOTOpbie 

eme npHHHTM He 6mjih. Emjih b HopiCnHHe eme h E.S. H, Ka*eT- 
ca, 6buia ny6jiHiHaa Jiexuiia. Ha xypc H3 Mockbm npnexana h K.n. 
XpHcro(J)opoBa, ito6m TOTiac *e nocjie Kypca yexaTb o6paTHo b 

POCCHK); MM rOBOpmiH C Hefl O TOM, 4TO BepoaTHO yBHflHMCJI CKO- 

po b AopHaxe (oHa co6Hpanacb Haaojiro Tyaa npHexaTb); yBM, mm 

He nOA03peBaAH, HTO CO<5bITH« MHpa, CKOPO BOPBaBUIHeCfl B 3KH3Hb 

xaxqioro H3 Hac, Hac painejiin; 6ojibuie a K.n. XpHCTO<J)opoBOH 
He BH^en (npouuio yace aecaTb ner). nocjie Kypca mm nBHHyjiHCb 
c M.B. o6paTHo c Mbicnbio npoBecTH aeHb-flBa b CaccHHue, Ha 6epe- 
ry Mopa, h pa3o6paTbCK b yejiHHeHHH b BnenaTJieHHax Kypca h hhthm- 
hmx coSpamiH; c HaMH flo ManbMe exajin TpHropoBM, xoTeBiune npo- 
BecTH HecKOJibxo flHefl nofl KoneHrareHOM, hto6m noTOM BepHyTb- 
ca b MocKBy; noMHHTCX MHe ajihhhmh pa3roBop c TpHropoBbiM b no- 
e3ae, BecbMa MeHa yTOMHBiuHft; a ayMan: «Hero 3to oh chjihtcji 
MeHH Bpa3yMJWTb: y MeHa HHbie yHHTeJia, HHbie pyKOBOflHTejm; Henpo- 
iueHHoro BMeuiaTeJibCTBa b moh BHyTpeHHHfi mhp a He noTepmiio hh 
ot Koro...» Mm npocTHjiHCb c TpHropoBbiMH HecKOJibxo cyme, neM 
cjieaoBano. 

He 3a6yay HoiHoro nepee3.ua H3 MajibMe" b IIlTpajib3yHa; Mope 
dhino BejiHXOJienHo; B3omna nyHa: mm caaeJiH BTpoeM (c Bojiouih- 

HOfl) Ha KOpMe H THXO TOBOpHJIH O TaflHaX MHCTepHft; He nOHpaBHJIOCb 



401 



JIHIlIfa OflHO: KaKOft-TO HeJIOBeK C HenpHHTHbIM He3yHTCKHM HHUOM 

Bee noflcajKHBamcH paaoM; h crapajic» paccabtinaTb HauiH cjioBa. 
Beet caeayioiuHH aeHb Mbi npoBejiH b CaccHHue; oKHa Hauinx 

KOMHaT BblXOaHJlH Ha MOpe; MOpe 6bIJ10 HeBbipa3HMOrO, (J)HajlKOBOrO 

UBeTa; b He6e — hh eaHHoro o6aanKa; mm CH.ae.nn Ha 6aaKOHHHKe 

H THXO TOBOPHJIH O TaHHaX 5KH3HH; CTOHJia HeBbipa3HMaa, KaKaH-TO He- 

ecTecTBeHHa« THiiiHHa, HapyniaeMaa ToabKO rayxHM pokotom opy- 
ahh; 3to BflajiH npoHcxoan^H MaHeBpbi repMaHCKoro QoaoTa; pokot 
opy^HH HaM He noHpaBHJica; hto-to yrpoa<aioiuee cabimaaocb b hcm... 

3HaHH J1H Mbi?.. 

Ha caeayiouiHtt aeHb Mbi noexaaw Ha MaaeHbKOM napoxoaHKe Ha 
PioreH; h nocernjiH ApKOHy, MecTO apeBHero caaBHHCKoro noceaKa; 
no cnoBaM a-pa saecb 6bia Henoraa ueHTp caaBHHCKHx mhctcphh, — 
a Hbme — 3aecb ctoht orpoMHbie CToa6bi asm paaHO-aenem; ApKOHa 
bhcht Ha rpoMaaHbix, 6eabix roaoao6bix CKaaax; noa Heft otbccho 
no4Ba o6pbiBaeicH; 3to mccto o6pa3yeT mwc; KpyroM — 3eaeHb; 
rpaHHua apeBHero noceaKa oTMeneHa 3eaeHbiM, HBCTBeHHbiM BaaoM; 
3a hhm — 3ace«HHbie noaa; Mbi 3a6paaHCb Ha caMbift bmcokhh Bbic- 
Tyn Haa MopeM, cenH b TpaBy; w — KaK-TO cTpaHHO 3aMoanaaH; 
tohho aaaeKoe npomaoe o6cTynHno Hac; h TyT nepeao mhoio othct- 
aHBO pa3BepHyac« pna hpkhx h coBepmeHHO HeBepo«THbix o6pa30B, 
HeH3BecTHO OTKyaa iiohbhbliihxch; MHe Ka3aaocb, hto o6pa3bi BCTaaH 
H3 3eMan; bot hto MHe npHBHaeaocb: MHe noKa3aaocb, hto cTpaH- 
Hbie, woryHHe chjim BbipbiBaiOTCH H3 Heap 3eMaH; h 3th CHabi npw- 
Haaae>KaT Koraa-TO 3aecb jkhbiuhm apKOHuaM, HCTpe6aeHHbiM Hop- 
MaHHaMH; ohh, apKOHiibi, — yuian noa 3eMaio; h Hbme, TaM, noa 3eM- 
aeft, 3aBaaeHHbie HacaoeHHHMH no3aHeHineH repMaHCKOH KyabTypbi, 
ohh npoaoawaioT pa3BHBaTb cboh CTpauiHbie noa3eMHbie, ByaKaHH- 
HecKHe CHabi, pBymHeca Hapy*;y, HTo6bi onpoKHHyTb Bee, cmccth 
pa6oTy BeKOB, OTMCTHTb 3a cbok) rH6eab h aaBoft pa3aHTbc« no Eb- 
pone; h noacayuiaa KaK 6m roaoca: «Mbi eme — npnaeM; Mbi — Bep- 
hcmch; Mbi — y>Ke B03BpamaeMCJi: OTMCTHTb 3a Hauiy rH6eab!» M TyT 
KaKaa-To aHKaa CHaa, Hcxoaflmaa H3 Heap 3eMaH, oxBaTHaa mchh, 
Bomaa b MeH«; h — a KaK 6bi BHyTpeHHe cxa3aa to, hto no cyuie- 
CTBy He npHHaaae>Kaao k MHpy Moero co3HaHH«; n — cKa3aa ce6e: 
«Kapma Eeponbi uiMeHumcn: ece nepeeepnemcn eeepx 6hom». W t>'t 
MHe MeabKHyao mccto 6yaymHx cTpaniHbix 6oeB, rae Ha oaHofl cto- 
poHe cpa»<ajiHci. Bbixoaubi H3 Heap 3eMan, BHOBb BonaouieHHbie b 
acH3Hb, a Ha apyroft — npeacTaBHTean apeBHeft, HopMaHHCKon h tcb- 
tohckoh KyabTypbi, KaK 6bi nepeBonaomeHHbie pbinapn; mcctom 6oh 
npeacTaeHaacb — noabiua, JlHTBa (3Haa an «, hto 6oh TyT 3aKHn«T 
y*e nepe3 Mecxii?); h 3th caoBa: «Bce nepeeepnemcn eeepx dnoM» — 
coeaHHHaHCb aaa mchh c noabinefl, JIhtboh, h c o6pa3aMH Bbinnpa- 

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iomHx H3-noa 3eMJiH apeBHHX, HeKoraa 3ary6neHHbix apKOHtieB; Toraa 
a nonbiTaaca co3HaHHeM noHHTb o6yHBume MeHH npeanyBCTBHa; h h 
CKa3aa ce6e: «3to 6yaeT BepoaTHO b aaaeKOM 6yaymeM: nepe3 cto, 
ABecTH neT». JJaaee: a yBHaea, hto noa3eMHbie cnabi BbipBaBiiiHxca 
TeHeft npoiuaoro H3 6yaymero rpo3aT EBpone moiuhwm HauiecTBHeM, 
b kotopom norH6HeT TenepeuiHHft eBponettcKHfl mhp; h TyT BCTaa ne- 

peao MHOft COBepilieHHO OTHeTaHBO CTpaHHbtH, KaK 6bl KaaMblUKHH 

o6pa3; 3to 6wji CTapHK, c octpmmh, npHmypeHHbiMH rna3aMH, c 
6oabiuHMH CKyaaMH, c ceaeHbKOK) 6opoaKoio, cyfyn'wfl, c HecKOJibKo 
npHnoflHaTbiMH nnenaMH; oh 6bia b KaKott-TO boctohhoh uiaane h 
KyTancfl b necTpwfl 6yxapcKHft xaaaT; oh Bnepaa b mchh cboh npoH- 
3HTe^bHbie rjia3a h KaK 6bi roBopna: «H — U3 npomnoeo: ho a eiye 
npudy». M a TyT noHaa, hto o6pa3 3Toro mcthtchh 3a npouiaoe 

CKOpO BOnjIOTHTCfl, HTO OH, 3TOT o6pa3, B HOBOM CBOeM BOnaOUieHHH 

noBeaeT Ha EBpony noaseMHbie cHJibi, HbiHe 3aTHCHyTbie nan 3eMjiK> 
eBponeflCKHM mhpom; oh 6yaeT bhhobhhkom Toro, hto «Kapma Ee- 
poribi u3MeHumcn»\ a npHHHK roaoBOfi k TpaBe; MHe nocabimaaca 
KaK 6bi ryji noa3eMHoro ropoaa, a yBHaea KaK 6bi naomaab; h MHOwe- 
ctbo Hapoay KpHnaiuero h 6bK>inero b 6apa6aHbi; Ha aowe aewaa 3a- 
pe3aHHbift HeKoraa caaBaHCKHft, HepHo6opoabift BHTa3b; Tenepb oh 
OHHyaca, HTo6bi noBecTH H3-noa 3eMaH Ha 6ofl 3th Toanw zihkhx Te- 
Hefl h oTMCTHTb 3a CBoe npomaoe nopyraHHe; h pa3aaaca kphk: «npw- 
BeflHTe 6eaoro kohh...» M — npHBeaH kohh; h 3ape3aHHbitt BHT«3b 
cea Ha kohh h noBen noaKH npoTHB Bcero 3anaaa c BocTOKa Pocchh; 
TyT a omyTHn, hto yTec, Ha kotopom Mbi chahm, KaK 6bi Becb pa3ae- 
TaeTca noa HanopoM chji, npoHH3biBaK>WHX ero; HeBOJibHO a noaHaa 
H3 TpaBbi roaoBy, eaBa noHH.viaa rae a h hto co mhokj; mu Bee TaK «e 
cwaeaH Ha BbicTyne; noa HaMH 6bia oTBecHbifl, KpyToft o6pbiB; c Tpex 
ctopoh 6ea<aao rJmaaKOBoe Mope; Aca h M.B. BoaomHHa cnaeaH pa- 
flOM co mhoh b nojiHOM oueneHeHHH; h, Ka3aaocb, nepe>KHBaaH hto- 
to. — «KaK CTpaHHO, KaK HeBepoaTHO» — BbipBaxiocb y M.B. Boao- 
ujhhoh. — «Jla» — noaTBepxm/ia Aca. Toraa a nonbiTaaca nepeaaTb 
hm MHe HenoHaTHbie o6pa3bi: apeBHero ropoaa, KaaMbiKa, BHTa3a, 
6eaoro KOHa; h chob: «Bce nepeBepHeTca BBepx aHOM...» — «He cnpo- 
cTa: 3to — MecTO apeBHHx caaBaHCKHx nocBameHHH» — CKa3aaa 
M.B. — «Xopou.io 6bi 3aecb, Ha yTece, npoBecTH HOHb» — npeaaowHa 
a. — «Xopoiuo» — coraacHnacb M.B.; ho noTOM Mbi penman, hto, 
noKaayfi, aymue Bcero yexaTb, noTOMy hto HeBecTb hto mokct npH- 
BHaeTbca 3aecb M . 



f! B cbohx BOcnoMHHaHHHX M.B. Ca6aiuHHKOBa-Bo.ioiiiHHa noamepwaaeT pac- 
CKa3 Be.ioro (cm.: DIE CRONE SCHLANGE. Margarita Woloschin, urn 1985 r., 
c.291-292). 



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Mbi — yexa/iH o6paTHO b CaccHHu; h b tot we Benep BbiexajiH 
b BepjiHH; CTOHjia HeBepo»THa» ayxoTa; BepjiHH Ka3a;ic» eme nyno- 
BHuiHeft; Bee jiHua 6bijiH tohho ocKajieHbi, a Konia Mbi npnexajiH Ha 
cjieayiomHft aeHb b Ba3ejib h BepHyjiHCb b AopHax, to HauuiH KaHTHHy 
b cTpamHOM BO/iHeHHH; Bee KpH4anH, cnopHjiH, BbixBaTbiBajiH H3 pyK 
flpyr y apyra BenepHHe BbinycKH ra3eT; Mbi yaHajiH 06 ynbTHMaTyMe 
Abctphh, npeaiHB^eHHOM Cep6HH. 

TaK Heo»HnaHHo b Hameft aopHaxcKoft »h3hh BCTaji npH3paK 

MHpOBOfl BOflHbi; OH Ka3aJlCfl CTOJIb HeBepOHTHblM, HTO Mbi eMy OTKa- 

3biBajiHCb BepHTb: BoftHbi, K0He4H0, He 6yaeT; EBpona He aonycTHT 
BOftHbi; TaK Mbi yTeuiajiH npyr apyra: pyccKHe — HeMiieB, HeMUbi — 
pyccKHx. 

3tH nOCJieflHHe flHH HJOJIH MHe 3anOMHHJIHCb flByMfl C06bITHJIMH: 

nepee3AOM Hac Ha HOByio KBapTHpy k MnbHHOft; xo3hhh IIImhat (ojho- 
(traMHjieu apxHTeKTopa) Ka3ajic» h npHJiHieH, h bokjihb; k MjibHHoft 
nepece^HjicH h K.A. JlnrcKHtt, cHHCKaBiunfl cpcacTBa k >kh3hh b sto 
BpeMH cbohm T«)KenbiM TpyaoM: oh rHyn >Kene3o; BTopoe co6biTHe: 
Bee pe3HHKH cTajiH pa6oTaTb Haa oKOHHbiMH (JiopMaMH; pa6oTa 6bijia 
cjioacHa h TpyaHa; 3th (J>opMbi 6wjih no pa3Mepy pa3a b nonTopa 
6ojibiue apxHTpaBHbix (J)opM; ohh KOHnajincb coeaHHeHHeM c KynojioM; 
Mbi cocTaBHHH HOByio rpynny, kotopoh pyKOBOflHTejieM OKa3ajic$i 
6aBapeu IIlTpayc, BecbMa mhjiwh, cepfleMHbifl h yMHbift wenoBeK; xpo- 
Me lllTpayca Ha Haiuefi (JjopMe MHe jiomhhtch 6ejiOKypa« iiiBcaKa 
(3a6bui (J)aMHnHio), KeMnep h eme kto-to; Mbi c Acen nojiynHJiH jie- 
Byio CTopoHy HaaoKOHHOft (JjopMbi; pa6oTajiH Mbi Ha 6okoboh ctopo- 
He, Ha btopom ot Hanajia OKHe; 6bijiH nocTpoeHbi bwcokhc zieca nan 
60KOB010 Bepaaaoio; Ha jiecax yace nanHHajiHCb iioiimoctkh; c jiecoB 
OTKpbiBa^CH BHfl Ha KaHTHHy, Ha neca h ropw; c6oKy BHaenncb npo- 
CTpaHCTBa noJiefi; b HHbie ahh, Koraa B03ayx 6wn «ceH, oTTyna npo- 
CTyna™ JiHJiOBbie rpe6HH Bore3; ahh ctohjih wapKHe h 6e3o6jiaw- 
Hbie; Mbi OKa3biBajiHCb Ha pa6oTe y>Ke c 9 iacoB yTpa h pa6oTajiH 
ao BocbMoro iaca; nepepbiBOM cnyxtiin jiHiub o6ea, KO(t»e, yjKHH. 

Aeeycm. 

IlepBbie HHcaa 3Toro Mecaua npoTeKaan b 6eiueH0H pa6oTe; c 
TaKOfl HHTeHCHBHOCTbio eme HHKoraa He pa6oTa™, toiho noHHMajiH, 
hto CKopo jiymuHe pa6oMHe chjim ot Hac OT6epyTc«; b pa6oiee Ha- 
CTpoeHHe crajiH BpbiBaTbcx OTOBCKJay TpeBo>KHbie pa3roBopu; Ha ;ie- 
cax noHBjiHjiHCb jihctkh ra3eT; Bee 6pocajiHCb k hhm: «Hto HOBoro?» 
Me^cayHapoiiHoe nonoweHne OMpaiarocb co aha Ha aeHb; 3a o6eaoM 
pa6oTa*omHe co6Hpa^HCb rpynnaMH; noflHHMa^HCb 6ecKOHeMHbie cno- 
pbi o tom, 6yaeT hjih He 6yaeT BoftHa; aoktop xoahji KaKofl-TO pac- 
TepxHHbiH, cyMpanHbift; HHOraa oh noaxoaHJi h MHe Ka3ajiocb KaK-TO 



404 



6ecnoMouiHO cnpauiHBaa: «Hy mto Bbi ayMaeTe? Mto otbctht Bame 
npaBHTe^bCTBo?» Pa3 oh cnpocHJi Hac: «KaK bm ayMaeTe, — b cnyiae 
o6iHB/ieHHH BoflHbi, 6yaeT hjih He 6yaeT b Pocchh peBoaiouHH?» 
Hto6m cnacTHCb ot 3Toro MHororoaocoro aHTponococJKKoro ryna o 
BoftHe Mbi c Aceft c KaKOft-To yaBoeHHOH 3HeprHefl py6HjiH Hauiy 
(JjopMy. Ho noaoweHHe CTaHOBH,iocb Bee donee yrpowaioiuHM; 6biaa 
o6T>HBjieHa b Ba3e;ie nenunn a-pa (b EaseabCKofi aoace) h BCKope no- 
one Hee HHTHMHoe co6paHHe Toro THna, Ha KOTopoe Mbi nonaan a 
UJBeuHH; .leKUHH aoKTopa He 3a6yay; OHa npo3By*aaa HaM, KaK yaap 
rpovia, noTOMy hto b Heft npocKo;ib3Hy/iH TaKHe mmcjih 62 : no-BHaH- 
MOMy, BOHHa — HeoTBpaTHa; HaiueMy hbhjkchhio cneayeT 3anacTHCb 

BCeMH CHJiaMH H BCeM My>KeCTBOM, MT06bI C flOCTOHHCTBOM BMHTH H3 

TH^eneflujHx HcnbiTaHHft, b KOTopbie Hac cTaBHT cyjboa; nepe3 aeHb 
6biao HHTHMHoe co6paHHe («a>KeTCH, — nocaeaHee ixoro THna b >kh3- 
hh 06mecTBa). 

Mbi Bee eme He BepnaH, mo BOHHa 6yaeT; c 6eujeHCTBOM npo- 
aoawaaH Hauiy pa6oTy; He npouino h aecHTH aHeft c Haiaaa Hauieft 
pa6oTbi Haa okohhoh (})opmoh, a y>Ke (fropMa 6biaa cuabHO nponBHHy- 
Ta; c ocooeHHOH HpocTbio py6HnHCb LUTpayc h Kevinep; iiJBeaKa Toace 
He OTCTaBaaa. M bot: noMHfo 3oaoTeK>uiHH Benep, CKaoHHfOiueecH k 
ropH30HTy coaHue; Mbi nccae KO(}>e c oco6biM caM03a6BeHHeM pa6o- 
TaaH; Bflpyr Ha aecax npoH30iuao BoaHeHHe; kto-to k HaM noa6ewaa 
c ra3eTHbiM hhctkom; LUrpayc npoTHHyaca 3a hhm; npoqea u, o6ep- 
HyBUJHCb, cKa3a/i HaM: «Bce — kohmcho: BOHHa o6i>HBaeHa!» Mbi ony- 
CTHan mojiotkh h Moana noraaaeaH apyr Ha apyra; noTOM LUTpayc c 
rpycTHoft yabi6KOK3 Ha mchh nocMOTpea h cKa3aa: «Hy, Herr Bugaeff, 
bot Mbi c BaMH h CTajiH BparaMH...» $i BMecTO OTeeTa npoTHHya eMy 
pyKy, KOTopyio oh KpenKO nowaa; k ywHHy Mbi cnycrHancb b iohth- 
Hy; TaM uapH.no aHxopaaoiHoe B036ya<aeHHe, ho hh oahoh (fcaabiuH- 
BOH HOTbl HMnepHaaH3Ma H UJOBHHH3Ma h He Mor noaMeTHTb (luobh- 
hh3M BcnbixHya no3>Ke); nepBoe H3BecTHe o BOftHe, Hao6opoT, bm- 
3Baao b Hac Bcex a<eaaHHe cxBaTHTbCH eme Kpenwe ia «Bau», 3a aoic- 
Topa, apyr 3a apyra. B TaKOM coctohhhh mm pa30iuaHCb aoMofl; 
BCTaBaa Bonpoc, ito HaM aeaaTb: ocTaBaTbca aH b ZlopHaxe, hhh ye3- 
»aTb b Pocchk); stot Bonpoc mm b tot we Bciep o6cy>KaaaH c Haaa- 
uieft h riouuo; ho — Kyaa yeaeuib: TepMaHHa — OTpe3aHa; ocTaeTca 
o6xoaHbift nyTb: aH6o wepe3 AHraHto, aH6o nepei TpeuHK); ayMa- 
nocb: yaa4HO FIoaHeBKTOBa 3a HecKoabKO aHeft ao o6tHBaeHHJi boKhm 
ycnena npocxoiHTb b Pocchkd Hepe3 TepMaHHio; BMecTe c TeM Hac Bee 



^ UlTeftHep mhtu.t cboio noc/ieaHioKj ,ieKUHK> ao o6i>iiB.ieHiia BoflHbi 26 hkj.th b 
jlopnaxe, He b Baieae (nocae 2 micha 1914 r. b Baieae Boo6iue He GbLio jieKunR). B 4 Ma- 
ca ana !9 moan/l aBrycTa 1914 r. TepMaHMH o6iHBHaa soflHy Pocchh. 



405 



yBepjum: BOiiHa He mokct npoajiHTbca 6ojiee iuecTH Heaejib; EBpona 
He BbiaepacHT Hanpfl»eHH»; nepe3 mecTb Heaejib Bee 6yaeT kohhcho; 
CTano 6wTb: jiynme sto BpeMH nepeacaaTb b flopHaxe. 

B aeHb o6i«BJieHHH BOfiHbi, no Hero, hjih AHeM no3flHee (He noM- 
hio) Kaxoio-TO Gypeio iiohbhjich b JJopHaxe MaKC Bojiouihh, sanBHB- 
uiHfl, hto oh eflBa ycneji npocxoHHTb b IllBeHuapHio nepe3 Abctphk) h 
renepb hbjihctch nocneflHHM hcimctum acHBOTHbiM, KOTopoe b ahh 
eBponeflcKoro noTona aojdkho 6biTb iiphhhto b KOBHer «Bau»; TaK 
oh 3a>KH/i b Hauiefl aopHaxcKOfi rpynne; cKopo ero mojkho 6biJio bh- 
aeTb BoopyaceHHbiM mojiotkom h HayiuHM Ha pa6oTy: oh cTan nne- 
hom O-Ba. 

B nepBbie >Ke ahh nocne o6t.hbjichh« bohhw mu 3aMeTHJiH bo 
BceM nepeMeHy; xo3hhh Ham, IIImhat, 0Ka3aBiUHflCH HeMixeM, CTaji 
B03MyTHTenbH0 OTHOCHtbca k HaM; b ApnecreftMe h b JJopHaxe, Ha- 
xoflfliuHXCH Ha rpaHHue 3jib3aca h BaaeHa Hanajiacb naHHKa; rpaHHUbi 
LUBefluapcKHe He yicpenjieHbi; bohcko — He mo6hjih30B3ho; HapyuieHHe 
6ejibrHHCKoro HefiTpaaHTeTa nopa3Hjio, KaK rpoMOM, uiBefluapueB; 
roBopHjiocb, hto HeMHHyeMo: jih6o 4ipaHuy3bi, jih6o HeMUbi nepeft- 
ayT rpaHHuy UlBeftuapHH, HTo6bi o6xoaHbiM ABHHceHHeM npopBaTbcn: 
nepBbie — b EaaeH; BTopbie — k Ecnwfcopy; ziopora Tex h apyrnx npo- 
xoflHT npHMO nepe3 Hac; ec/iH cioaa BopByTCH <J)paHuy3bi, to bch Me- 
CTHOcTb 3Ta 6yneT o6cTpeji>ma H3 BaaeHa THwejibiMH opyaHHMH, 
npw 3tom noKa3biBa^H Ha uenb EaaeHCKHX bmcot, otctohwhx ot Hac 
b HecKOJibKHx KHnoMeTpax; h — roBopHjiH: bch 3Ta rpjiaa — b nyuixax; 
ot AopHaxa h ApjiecreflMa He ocTaHeTCH h c/ieaoB; Bee 6yaeT cmhtcho 

OpyflHHMH; Mbl HHCKO/IbKO He flyMajIH O TOM, HaCKOJIbKO Haui aoM 

HaxoflHTCH noa o6cTpejioM 6aaeHCKHx nymeK; ho Mbi ayMaaH o 
«Bau»: yuejieeT jih «Bau»'! JKhtchh aepeByuieic pacnpocTpaHHJiH He- 
BepoHTHyio naHHKy; ohh cneumo 3axynanH npHnacw, yTBcpacaaH, hto 
CKopo 6yaeT rojion, hto IIlBefiuapHH oTpe3aHa ot npoayicTOB h hto 
Ha Bee BpeMH BofiHbi Haao 3anacTHCb npoBHaHTOM; THHcejiyjo KapTHHy 
npeacTaBJiana co6ofi Mo6HjiH3aiiHH; neTBepTb HaceneHHH Ba3eji« h 
oKpecTHOCTeft Ea3ejifl — HeMeuKHe noaaaHHbie; My»bH MHowecTBa 
ceMeflcTB iiuih b nepByK) onepe/ib Ha BOHHy; ohh exajiH mo6hjih30- 
BaTbCH b npH6a3enbCKHH noceJiOK Jloppax, ctohbuihh Ha rpaHHue 
lIlBenuapHH (b BaaeHe), B03Bpam&nHCb OTTyaa rpycTHbie: ohh iujih 
Ha BOHHy; eme 6o/iee rpycTHyio KapTHHy npeacTaBJinjia co6oft CTpofl- 
Ka, OTTyna Bee HeMeuKHe pa6oHHe ujjih HeMe/uieHHO Ha BOttHy; h HauiH 
jiynuiHe CHjibi, HauiH pe3HHKH — Bojib(J)K)rejib, Taftep, MHTHep, UlTpa- 
yc 3a6HpajiHCb Towe; MHorne CTapajiHCb 6oapHTbCfl, c BecenbiMH 
uiyTKawH npomajiHCb ohh c HaMH; ho noa 3thmh ujyTKaMH nyBCTBO- 
Bajiacb rpycTb; 6pa;iH h UlMKaenn; UlTpayca 6pajiH 6paTOM MHnocep- 
a»n h oh cneuiHO sanncbiBaji y Hac pyccKHe cxiOBa Ha CJiynafl, ecnn 



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6bi ero 0-rnpaBHJin Ha BOCTOiHbift cJjpoHT h eMy npHiujiocb HMeTb 
aeao c pyccKHMH paHeHbiMH; H3 pyccKHX nona hhkto He 6bia b3«t; 
noa yrpoiOK) 6bia oanH Bpaio.ib, wepe3 2 Mec$ma 3a6paHHbin h ot- 
npaBHBiuHrica OTSbiBaTb BoeHHyjo caya<6y bo OpaHUHio. 

y Bcex OTnpaB^aiouiHXCH Ha BOHHy n noziMeTHJi oany HepTy: 
ray6oKyio rpycTb, noBTopsio: o iuoBHHH3Me He 6biao h noMHHy b 

3TH aHH. 

HecMOTpa Ha cyeTy nepBbix aHefi BOHHbi Mbi yaBQHan c Acefi Ha- 
oiy pa6oTy Ha oKOHHbix cfiopMax; h 3to nyBCTBO noBbimeHHOH pa6oTbi 
oxBaTHao Bcex npHcyTCTBVfomux; Mbi co3HaBanH: aymune pa6o4He 
cn.Tbi yxoanan ot Hac; h b 6yaymeM npeacTona OTauB My>KHHH h 6a- 
pbiiueHb; no3TOMy Mbi, HeMHorne My>KHHHbi, oco6eHHO CTapaawcb py- 
DHTbca Ha OKOHHbix (J)opMax; FleTpoBCKHH h Cioob pa6oTaaH c HeBe- 
Pohthoh HHTeHCHBHOCTbK); noHBH.icH co CTaMecKOK) b pyxe Ha aecax 
h Tpane3HHK0B; c Toro BpevieHH oh cTaa 3anpaBCKHM py6aKofl no 
cBoero OTT,e3aa b Pocchk) (b 1917 roay); HaTauia b 3th hhh cneuHa- 
ainnpoBaaacb y PHxrepa Ha ubcthom cTeKae; Ka>KeTC«, OHa pa6oTaaa 
Ha KpacHOM CTeKjie; ero pa36naa h xoawaa coBepmeHHO noaaBaeHHaa 
h yapvHeHHaH (a, mojkct 6biTb, ?to caynnaocb h no3aHee). B Te hhh 
b .HopHaxe BbipacTaeT Kax-TO (Jwrypa noKOflHOH UlTHHae; Bcioay OHa 
OKa3biBaeTCH pacnopaaHTeabHuueH, Bcex noaaepa<HBaeT h yMHO BMe- 
uiHBaeTCJi bo Bee BuyrpeHHHe aeaa «Bau». 

Mepe3 HecKoabKO aHeft nocae oGtHBaeHHSi BOHHbi, — noMHK), Mbi 
OKOHHnan paooTy paHee cpoKa (naca b 4); h cnycKaaHCb co ctpohkh, 
npiicayuJHBaHCb k CTpaHHOMy HBaeHHio: k rpoMy (KopoTKOMy h ray- 
xoMy) 6e3 Tyn; 3ByKH HcxoaHaH co CTopoHbi 3ab3aca, TaM aaab Ka3a- 
.nacb b aerKofl TeMHOfl abiMKe; noa coooio Mbi yBHaeaw CTOHinero 
na aopore aoKTopa; oh — Towe npHcayuiHBaacH k rpoMy; mto-to 
oceHHao Hac, Mbi noranaean apyr Ha apyra h HHiero He CKa3aaH 
apyr apyry; aoKrop Hac ocTaHOBHa: «H6rem sie?» — cnpocHa oh 
Hac. — «Ja, Herr Doctor». — «Das ist Kanonendonner» — cxa3aa oh; 
h Mbi BTpoeM cTonan h cMOTpeaH b aaab, no HanpaBaeHHio k 3ab- 
3acy; Tenepb oKa3biBaaocb, 4to, mowct 6biTb, aerKaa, TeMHaa abiMKa 

y ropHJOHTa — OpyaHHHblH ablM. 3t0 BTOp>KeHHe 3ByKOB BOHHbi B 

Hauiy MiipHyro aoaHHy noKa3aaocb MHe 6e3yMHeM; ao 3roro MOMeHTa 
Mne ayMaaocb: «BoftHa — rae-TO TaM». A OHa — npwaBHHyaacb k 
naM; Kaiaaocb, — mm oxBaneHbi eio. Bcio aopory ao aoMy Mbi npn> 
cayuiHBaaHCb k ycHaHBaioiueHCH KaHOHaae; ApaecreftM 6bia oxBaneH 
naiiHKOio; Ha yawuax CToaaH KyqKH h B036y>KaeHHo o6cy»<aaan noao- 
/KeHwe Bemefl; aoMa Mbi y3HaaH, 4to c})paHuy3bi BopBaawcb b 3ab3ac 
h B3«aH Mioabray3eH; 6oh Tenepb npoHcxoana y JJioHKHpxa, otcto- 
fliuero ot Hac BecbMa HeaaaeKo. 



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Ha cjieayiomHtt aeHb ApnecreftM, flopHax h aaace cTpoftKa 6bijiH 
oxBaneHbi HacToameK) naHHKoio; BbiacHHjiocb BoeHHoe nojio*eHHe; 
<J)paHuy3CKHft Kopnyc, 3aHHBUiHfi .Hkjhkhpx, 6bin bh6ht H3 Hero, ot- 
pe3aH ot apMHH h npwnepT k caMOMy Ba3ejiK>; oh oKpyaceH co Bcex 

CTOPOH HeMeUKHMH BOfiCKaMH; (j)paHliy30B BHfleJIH B npH6a3eJlbCKOM 

nocejiKe S.Louis; h — aBCTBOBaao, hto 3TOMy-erpe3aHHOMy xopnycy 
ocrraeTCH hjih cjio*HTb opy5KHe, h;ih nepeftTH uiBeftuapcKyio rpaHH- 
uy, coBepuieHHO HeyKpeaneHHyio h 6e3 bohck, 3aHHTb Ba3enb h htth 
Hamefi noporoK) (Ba3e^b-ApjiecreftM-flopHax), HTo6bi 3anaaHee npoft- 
th k Bejib(J)opy; b ra3eTax ctohjih 3arojiOBKH: «Eou nod Ea3eneM»; 
KaHOHana rpevtena; B/iacTH H3BecTHjm HacejieHHe, hto b cnynae Ha- 
pyuieHHa HeflTpajiHTeTa Bee TpaMBafiHoe h »eJie3Hoaopo)KHoe coo6- 
meHHe npeKpamaeTCH; »eJie3Hbie aoporn h TpaMBaH aojDKHbi 6wjih 
3BaKyHpoBaTb Ka3eHHoe HMyuuecTBO; HtHTeJiaM ace npeanaraaocb cna- 
caTbCfl b ropbi, o6cTynaBuiHe /lopnax h ApjiecreftM, nepe3 BbicoTbi 
TeMneHa, HaBHcaBuiHe Haa «Bau»; tobophjih, hto Ha TeMneHe no- 
aBHJiacb THHce/iafl apTHjuiepna uiBeftuapueB; orcioaa HaHHeTca uiBeft- 
uapCKoe conpoTHBneHHe; bch me TeppHTopHa ao TeMneHa (ilopHax, 
ApjiecreftM, 3uj) aoji>KHa 6biTb 3BaKyHpoBaHa npw nepBbix 3ByKax Ha- 
6aTa; Mbi y3Ha^H, hto 3HmepT, KaK HHaceHep, 6bi/i cneiiiHO Bbi3BaH 
MHHHpoBaTb uiBeftuapcKyio rpaHHuy; Jly6ax, KaK uiBefiuapcKHft noa- 
aaHHbifi, 6hin cneuiHo Mo6njiH30BaH; IIlBefluapHa o6i«BHjia mo6hjih- 

3aUHK). 

Becb stot aeHb Ka3aaca HaM npocTO 6peaoM; Ha yjiHuax rojio- 
chjih uiBeHuapKH h hcmkh; H3 capaeB BbiKaTbiBa/iHCb tctiokkh, Ha 
hhx CKJiaflbiBanocb HMymecTBO, HTo6bi Bee sto TauiHTb b ropbi b cay- 
nae Heo6xoaHMOCTH; iiomhio, hto a 6bia no KaxoMy-To aeay b stot 
aeHb b 06ep-£lopHaxe; h iiomhio, hto Kaxaa-TO KOCTaaBaa aceHiuHHa 
coBepuieHHO 6eccMbicjieHHO BonHJia: «4>paHuy3bi — TpaBBT Koaoaubi 
c Boaoft» (oneBHAHO 3th cayxn pacnycKajiHCb HeMixaMH); b KaHTHHe 
rocnoacTBOBajia Ta xce cyTOJiOKa; Tyaa c6e»caaHCb Bee cTapbie aHTpo- 
noco<J)CKHe tctkh, pacTpeBoaceHHwe cbohmh xo3aeBaMH; CToaa rmrcT; 
nepeaaBaaca mh(J) 06 OTpaBaeHHbix Koaoauax; HaKoneu, cpean stoh 
ao36y>KfleHHOH Tonnw iiohbhjich TpocxaftHu; h noHTH npHKpHKHya Ha 
TeTOK cJiOBaMH: «Bbi HaxoaHTecb Ha uiBefluapcKOfi TeppHTopHH h Ha- 
xoaHTecb noa 3aKOHaMH stoh TeppHTopHH: HHTaaH J1H Bbl O TOM, 
hto kto ceeT naHHKy, tot noaBepraeTca cypoBoft otbctctbchhocth?)) 
Okphk TpocxaHHua HecKOJibKO CMHpna tctok; cxopo cpeaH Hac noa- 
BHJica aoKTop; oh pacxa»HBaji cpeaH ctojihkob h ycnoKaHBaji tctok, 
ho 6bin rpycTeH; a KaHOHaaa rpeviena; noaoaceHHe ocTaBaaocb HeBbi- 
acHeHHWM; hhkto b stot aeHb He pa6oTaji Ha cTpottKe; k Benepy HaM 

06l.«BHJIH, HT06bI Mbi Ha HOHb npHTOTOBHaH flOpOWHbie CyMOHKH, 

npHroTOBHaH aoKyMeHTbi, aeHbrn h caMoe Heo6xoaHMoe b aopory; 



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ecjiH hoimo 6yaeT Ha6aT, to mu aojDKHM 6mjih Bee co6paTbc» b xaH- 
THHy h OTTyaa BMecTe c aoxTOpOM aBHHyTbca b ropbi; BenepoM mm 
ctohjih Ha Hauieft xpbiuie h npHcayniHBaaHCb k Bee ycHJiHBaioiuettCH 
xaHOHaae; CTexaa apeoesxaaH b OKHax; ojwa CTopoHa He6a 6biaa 
noaepHyTa OTieTaHBOfl abiMxoio: roBopHjiocb, hto 3to — nyuieiHWlt 
xibiM; mu nmiH iaft Ha naocxoft xpbiuie; xaxceTCH, b tocthx y Hac 
6bijia AHHeHKOBa. 

CnanH *e He pa3aeBa«cb b Ty HOib. 

Ha cneayiomHH aem> HacejieHne Hecxoabxo ycnoKOHJiocb; no«BH- 
nHCb b oxpecTHOCTH nepBbie OTpHflbi uiBeftuapcKHx bohck; ohh pacno- 
noxcHjiHCb b noasix; b ApaecreftMe coaaaTbi 3aHsuiH 3aaHHe aeTCxoft 
uixoaw; noHBHHHCb Bcioay jiomaaH; coaaaTbi hx mhcthjih cxpeoHHua- 
mh; 3a6Hji 6apa6aH; co Bcex ctopoh IIlBefluapnH rHanH b Haui yroa 
BoflCKa; xaHOHaaa k Benepy cTHXJia. 

A Ha apyroe yTpo y3Haan mu, hto HenocpeacTBeHHan onacHocTb 
npouuia; <t>paHuy3CKHft xopnyc, npHwaTwft HeMuaMH k Ea3eaio, npo- 
pBanca h coeaHHHacx c (t>paHuy3cxHMH BoftcxaMH; nymeiHbift rpoM 
rayxo ryaeji y*e b ray6HHe ropH30HTa; iiohbhjich c rpammbi 3ht- 
jiepT h CKa3aji, vto rpaHHua MHHHpoBaHa h hto onacHocTb Hapyuie- 
hhh HeflTpaaHTeTa npouiaa. Mu yxe 3HaaH, hto ot Hac Henocpea- 
CTBeHHO rpaHHua 3ab3aca HaxoaHTCH b 15-th KHaoMerpax. 

B 6aHxcaituiHe aHH mu onHTb noHBHJiHCb na necax h c npe)KHefi 
3HeprHeft npHH$uiHCb 3a pa6oTy; MHe aocraaocb BbipaBHHBaTb caerxa 
BbirHyTyio naocxocrb, coeaHronomyio oxoHHyio (J)opMy c xynoaoM, a 
noTOM nepettTH k HH3y okohhoh (J)opMbi h npoH3BoaHTb to *e paBHe- 
HHe; Ha coceaHeft $opMe pa6oTana O.H. AHHeHKOBa; h k Beiepy 
mu, crew Ha aocxax h 03Hpa« OKpecTHOCTH, mhpho pa3roBapHBanH 
o co6biTH«x Hauieft xh3hh; noroaa ctojuui npetcpacHan; Beqepa 6uaH 
npo3paHHbi; HHoraa JiHiub rayxoio yrpo3ofl BpbiBaaacb b THuiHHy ot- 
aaaeHHaji xaHOHaaa; B3otta« Biiuie «Bau» na bmcotm, Beayuwe x 
TeMneHy, roBopjrr, no BeiepaM moxho 6uao BHaeTb mpanHeabHbie 
oroHbKH; h 6a3eafccxa« ny6aHxa npHe3xcaaa BeiepoM Ha hhx cmot- 
peTb; co Bcex ctopoh Hantaan BOficxa; Boftcxa ctohjth Ha nocToe h 
b ApjiecrettMe, h b Aopnaxe; nopoio no yannaM Apaecre&Ma h no 
aopore mhmo «Bau» npoxoanjiH HecxoiwaeMbie BepeHHUbi uiBettuap- 
cxofi nexoTbi; Ha ayrax 3a AopHaxoM no HanpaBaeHHio x 3jib3accxoH 
rpaiume 6bian paccTaBjieHbi nyuiKH; Bcioay mojkho 6uao BHaeTb or- 
paabi uiBeftuapcxHX xaBaaepHCTOB c bucokhmh, 6eabiMH cyjiTaHaMH; 
b aonHHe Mexcay «Bau» h Apaecre&MOM Hecxoabxo MecsmeB 6bian 
paccTaBJieHbi noB03KH h (frypw BoeHHO-TeaerpaiJmoro napxa; Bcioay 
aeTajiH coaaaTbi BeaocHneaHcru, pa3B03» npHxa3bi; a Haa «Bau», 
Ha rpeoHHCTbix BbicoTax TeMneHa, b paccrosiHHH nonyiacoBoro noai- 
eMa b ropbi, 6waa paccTaBaeHa Txxceaati apTHJUiepna; h OTTyaa, c 

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rop, onycKa»cb k JHopHaxy no BenepaM, BajiHjiH TOJinu caoaaT-apTHJi- 
JiepHCTOB, — mhmo KaHTHHbi, rae Mbi co6HpajiHCb k yjKHHy; BenepaMH 
Ha yjiHuax ApnecrefiMa pa3ryjiHBajiH TOJinbi cojiaaT, 3aaeBaa npoxo- 
>khx aeBymeK; cjiobom, — mm OKa3ajiHCb b caMOM ueHTpe bochhoh no- 

JlOCbi; B 3TH flHH B npHCyTCTBHH flOKTOpa HaiUH flOKTOpiUH (<J>pHnKH- 

Ha, KocTbmeBa h apyrHe) yiHjiH Bcex >KejiaiomHX .a&naTb nepeBH3KH; 
Mbi cnepBa KOCHjiHCb Ha cojiaaT c ynHBjieHHeM 03HpaiouiHx «Bau» h 
TojinjmiHxcH y 3aropoaoK npocTpaHCTBa, OTBeaeHHoro nocTpottKaM; 
3flecb 6bijiH rpyxibi menoK h JierKoro, BocnjiaMeHjnoineroca MaTepna- 
jia; conaaTbi a<e Bciony pa36pacbiBajin oKypKH; ot oahoA HCKpbi npH 
Taxofi cyuiH Mor BcnbixHyTb noacap; noaTOMy, — My>KHHHbi-pe3HHKH, 
Mbi co6pajiHCb Ha cneunajibHoe co6paHHe b KaHTHHy h o6cy>Kna.nH 
Mepw k oxpaHeHHio «Bau» Ha cjiynafl noacapa, h an« npeaoTBpa- 

IlieHHH BCeX B03MO>KHbIX XyjTHraHCKHX BblXOflOK; nOMHHTCH, HTO OieHb 

MHoro opaTopcTBOBan h KHnHTHnca CTapHK BerejiHH; Ha co6paHHH 
6biJio pemeHo: He ynoBOJibCTBOBaTbCH CTopo>KeM, oxpaHjnomnM 
«Bau», ho pa3aejiHTb Bee My»cxoe HaceneHHe aHTponococJ)CKoe 
Ha cooTBeTCTByromHe CMeHbi, nejioBeK no 10 ann oxpaHbi «Buu» no 
HonaM, a TaK5Ke BbicTaBHTb AHeBHyio aHTponoco(J)CKyK) oxpaHy k nByM 
BxoaaM Ha nocTpofiice (okojio BHJinbi TpocxaHHua), a TaK>Ke co CTopo- 

Hbl KaHTHHbi. BblJl Bbl6paH KOMeHflaHT (H 3a6bIJI, KTO hmchho); 

«Bau» 6biji ocMOTpeH co CTpaTerHMecKofi tohkh 3peHHa, b cnyiae 
HanazieHHH Ha Hero HOMbK) xyjiHraHOB; ycTaHOBHJiHCb BaxThi; Ka>K,ayK> 

HOHb H3BeCTHOe KOJTHHeCTBO My)K1HH HOHCBaHH B «BjU» («KeflHeBHO 

cnncoK «eaxmepoe» 6mji BbiBemeH b KaHTHHe); b 8 nacoB napTHH Bax- 
TepoB HB^Hjiacb Ha «Bau» a ae*ypHJia TaM no 6 wacoB yTpa, — nac, 
b KOTopbifi noflBjifljiHCb pa6oiHe; b napTHH BaxTepoB HMenocb He- 
CKOJibKO peBonbBepoB; HaiajibHHK napTHH npe6biBa.n b KOHTope, oko- 
jio Tejie<J)OHa; napTHH ace pa36HBa/iacb Ha nBe cmchw; noKa oziHa cMe- 
Ha cnajia, apyraa cMeHa paccbina/iacb no pa3HbiM cTopoHaM npo- 
CTpaHCTBa, 3aHHMaeMoro ctpochhhmh; oahh ctopo>k xoaun no BepaH- 
ae «5au», osHpaa okpccthocth; apyroft, c (JjOHapeM o6xoahji 6ec- 
KOHeHHO 6ojibuiHe npocTpaHCTBa «Bau» BHyTpH T.e. jia6npHHT kom- 
HaT noflBanbHoro 3Ta>Ka, rae noMemajwcb xyno*;ecTBeHHbie MacTep- 
CKHe; nepexoflbi, Kopnaopbi h KOMHaTbi nepBoro 3Taa<a, 6yflymne 
KyjiHCbi, rae ctohjih neKopanHH k 4-m mhctcphhm aoKTopa, ujKatfrbi 
c KOCTioMaMH, 6yTa<J)opHeii h HHCTpyMeHTaMH, o6xohhji BTOpOH 
3Ta>K, T.e. cueHy h 3pHTejibHbift 3aji, KOMHaTbi 6oKOBbix nopTajioB, 
noflHHMajica Ha jieca k 6ojibmoMy h MajioMy xynojiy; TpeTHfl BaxTep 
o6xoflHji npocTpaHCTBa capaeB, MacTepcKHX, rue xpaHHJica pan Ma- 
hjhh h /lepeBHHHbix (Jiopm; HeTBepTbifl BaxTep ctopojkhji Ty nacTb ot- 
ropo*eHHoro npocTpaHCTBa, KOTopoe HaiHHajiocb ot aoMa Tpoc- 
xaflHua, uino mhmo noMHica PnxTepa h npHBOHH.no k npaBOMy, ceBep- 

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Hoiny nopTany; naTbitt BaxTep npe6biBan Ha 6ojibuiOM oxropo>KeHHOM 
npocTpaHCTBe 3a capaHMH, r\ne 6binn cBajieHbi rpoMaaHbie rmpaMHabi 
aepeBHHHbix menoK, KOTopbiMH BnocneacTBHH Mbi oTanjiHBajiH bchd 
3HMy HaiuH nenypxH; y BaxTepoB 6biJiH cbhctkh; aamabiH aeHb Bbi- 
6HpaaH CBOfi naponb h ji03yHr; aHTponococJKKaH Mo/ioaeacb bhoch- 
na b 3th BaxTbi HeHTO Bpoae Hrpbi b cojiaaTbi; He 3a6yay nepBOft 
BaxTbi: b Heft 6bi.no TaK MHoro (fcaHTacTHHecKoro; h cHacn Ha rpoMaa- 
hoh rope menoK b npocTpaHCTBe 3a capaHMH; nepeao mhoh nyHOft 
Jia3ypejiH h (J)oc(J)ope/iH flBa rpoMaanbix Kynona (a 3a6biji CKa3aTb, 
hto Kynona y>Ke k TOMy BpeMeHH 6buiH o6no>KeHbi KaMHeM, OTpawa- 
rouiHM UBeT aTMOcc})epbi: conHeHHbiM hhcm ohh Sbi.iH ,ia3ypHo-3ejie- 

HblMH, B TyMaHHbie flHH — TeMHO-CBHHUOBblMH; Ha Jiy'He — ({)OC(J)OpH- 

MecKHMH); 6biJia nyaHaa jicthhh HOHb; cnaTb 6bi.no hcbo3mo>kho; h 
Koraa Hauia napTHH OTfleacypHJia, to, pa3yMeerca, Mbi He nouuiH 
cnarb, a bck) HOHb, co6paBUJHCb KynKon, nporoBopH/in, He aaBaa 
noKOH hh TpocxaHHuaM, hh PHXTepy; hohh 6binn MHpHbi; BaxTepbi 

npOH3BOflH/lH UiyM Ha BCK5 OKpeCTHOCTb; n03T0My KOJIHHeCTBO HX 

CTa^H 6bicTp6 coKpamaTb: c aecaTH ao naTH; c n«TH ao aByx; iiByx 
BaxTepoB H3 aHTponoco<J)OB npH TpexbeM, T.e. npn nocToaHHOM 
CTopo>Ke, OKa3anocb Bno;me nocTaTOHHO ana oxpaHbi «,Bau»; aeHHbie 
BaxTbi, oco6eHHO no npa3aHHKaM, Ka3ajiHCb donee ueaecoo6pa3Hbi.MH, 
noTOMy hto HanjibiB conaaT h hx npa3aHaa unpKyaauHa 6bina He- 
npepbiBHa okojio «2taw»; nocTOHHHo noaxonHjiH Kywn coaaaT 11 npo- 
CHan, HTo6bi hm noKa3aaH cTpofiKy; pa3 nyTb 6bijro He npoHaoiuen 
HHUHaeHT Ha 3toh noHBe, KOTopbift MHe npniuaocb caynaHHO npeaoT- 
BpaTHTb; a TonbKO hto 6mji b KaHTHHe, rue nocae paooT ponaacb 
aHTponoco(J)CKa« ny6aHKa; cioaa npHmea aoKTop (co BpeMeHH o6b«B- 

JieHHH BOHHbl OH HaCTO CTaa nOHBilHTbCH B KaHTHHe) H C KeM-TO 

pa3roBapnBan; 3aneM-T0 a noiuea Ha cTpoflKy h y Bxoaa 3acTaa cae- 
ayiomyK) KapTHHy: Tonna coaaaT, neaoBeK ao CTa, HacTofiHHBo npo- 
CHjra noKa3aTb «.Bau», a refiae6paHaT, ctohbhihh Ha BaxTe y Bxoaa, 
KaTeropHnecKH oTKa3bmaa h KaK MHe Ka3aaocb b pe3Kofi (J>opMe; eoa- 
aaTbi ace Tpe6oBaaH BnycKa h y>Ke HanaaH HannpaTb Ha 3aropaa.Ky; 
KO^HHecTBO hx Bee npH6biBaao, h a noayMaa, hto ecaii He npHHHTb 

TOTHaC )Ke Mepbl K /IHKBHflaUHH HHUHfleHTa, Bbl3BaHHOrO 6eCTaKTHO- 

CTbK) reHae6paHiiTa, to Toana HacHjibHO BopseTca; nosroMy a Becb- 
Ma peiuHTejibHO oTCTpaHHa reHae6paHaTa h pacnaxHyB Kaainny ne- 
pea conaaTaMH, cKa3aa hm: «rio3Ka/iyHCTa, — ToabKo noao».7iHTe 
MHHyTKy: » no30By weaoBeKa, KOTopbifi Bac npoBeaeT no cTpoHKe». 
H yBHae/i, hto refiae6paHflT B03MyTH.aca mohm caMOHHHCTBOM h 
CTaa nepeiHTb, ho — no3aHo: Toana y»e BpbiBaaacb b npocTpan- 
ctbo ctpohkh; h eme pa3 KpHKHyn efl: «Ein Moment», a caM co Bcex 
nor 6pocHacji bhh3, — no aopore b KaHTHHy, k aoKTopy; aoKTop, 



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3aBHaeB MeHH, 6erymero co Bcex Hor, 6bicTpo noiueji ko MHe HaBCTpe- 
ny co cnoBaMH: «Was ist geschehen?» H, 3anbixaBuiHCb, o6t.»chhji 
eMy 6bicxpo, hto Haao HeMeaaeHHO nocnaTb Koro-HH6yab conpoBO>K- 
aaTb coaaaT, kto 6bi 6bia c hhmh aio6e3Hee, a to mokct npoH30H- 
th HHUHfleHT, MoryiuHH b 6yaymeM npHBecTH k nenaabHbiM nocaea- 
ctbhhm; a-p cpa3y noHaa, b neM aeao, h, no6aaroaapHB mcha 3a 
«caMoynpaecmeo» , 6bicTpo nomea caM k Toane coaaaT, aactcoBO 
3aroBopHji c hhmh h noBeji hx noKa3biBaTb Bee aeTaan nocTpoftKH; 
oh aoaro BOflHn hx, BOflHn no aecaM, o6i.flCHHn (J)opMbi; Mbi c reftfle- 
6paHaTOM conpoBO>KflajiH ero; coaaaTbi, KOTopbie cnepBa 6biiiH bo3- 
6y>KfleHbi ynopcTBOM refiae6paHaTa, CKopo npocHHJiH, Bean ce6a noa- 
nepKHyTO octopo>kho, He KypH/iH, BocxnmajiHCb «Bau»; 6biao hto-to 
neTCKoe b 3toh Toane, c pa3HHyTbiMH pTaMH cMOTpamefi Ha rHraHT- 

CKHe KOaOHHbl H OTOBCKJfly npOTHrHBaJOlUeH TOJIOBbl K noKTopy; OHH 

yuiJiH iiOBonbHbie; Toraa peujHjiH, hto 2 pa3a b nenemo b onpeaeaeH- 
Hbie nacbi Bee »<eaaiomHe MoryT ocviaTpHBaTb «Bau» noa pyKOBoa- 

CTBOM aHTponOCO(J)OB; B 3TH Hacbl C06HpajlHCb KyHH coaaaT H HX BO- 

hhjih; HeonHOKpaTHO Boana a; «Bau» npoH3BoaHa CHjibHettiuee Bne- 
qaTaeHHe na coaaaTCKyio ny6aHKy; h 3Ta ny6aHKa aep>Kaaa ce6« c 

6oablIIHM TaKTOM. TaK C KBapTHpyiOUIHMH B OKpeCTHOCTHX BOHCKaMH 

ycTaHOBHHHCb npeKpacHefliuHe OTHomeHHa. AHTponoco<})bi xBaanan 
MeHa 3a Moe «caMoynpaecmeov>, b nepByfo MHHyTy cToab pa3apa- 
wHBuiee reHne6paHaTa. 

Koraa nepBoe B036y>KaeHHe, BbnBaHHoe bohhoh, yaeraocb b 
HameM aopHaxcKOM 6biTe h cTaan aoxoaHTb h3bccthh c <J)poHTa o 
aeHCTBHHx HeMueB b EeabrHH, o pa3pyiueHHH jkhjihiu, o6cTpeae co- 
6opoB, to HanajiH pa3ropaTbc» cTpacTH b HauueH aopHaxcKoft rpynne; 
pyccKHt B03MyuiaaHCb nocTynKaMH hcmucb, a HeMUbi, onbjmeHHbie 
CBoett npeccofl, HaxoaHan 3thm nocTynKaM onpaBaaHHe; Ha stoh non- 
Be npoHcxoanjiH HenpepbiBHbie Bee KpenHymne cnopbi, HanaBuiHe y>Ke 
nepexoaHTb b ccopw; HeMUbi tohho c6ecHancb; oco6eHHO — HceHiuH- 
hw; HaM, pyccKHM, ohh HanajiH aoica3biBaTb, hto aa« Hac, pyccKHX, 
BbiroflHee, HTo6bi no6eaHaa TepMaHHa, hto KopeHb bohhw — AHr- 
jihh; Hac, KaK pyccKHX, kohchho TaKHe peiH ray6oKO B03MymaaH h 
Mbi BbiflBHraiiH npoTHB HeMueB tot apryMeHT, hto ohh, npeacTaBH- 
TenH «Ich-Bewusstsein», aoa>KHbi 6bi BoccTaTb npoTHB y*acoB boh- 
Hbi, a ohh hx onpaBabiBaiOT; Ha 3to caeaoBaan OTBeTbi, hto «Not 
hatt keine gebot»; 3to oco6chho B03Mymaao mchh, h a HanHHaa 
yKa3biBaTb, hto He aHTponoco<})aM onpaBabiBaTb HacnabCTBeHHbiH 3a- 
xBaT BeabrHH; npncyTCTByioiuHe npH cnopax sthx noa«KH, Ceaaeu- 
Kaa, ee My>K, xyaoa<HHK, npHexaBiuHft HeaaBHO b AopHax, noaaepwn- 
Baan MeHfi; Toraa HeMUbi CTaaH mchh yBepaTb, hto bo MHe aeftCTBy- 
eT caMbitt saeMeHTapHbifl 6HoaorHHecKHft ihobhhh3m, hto bch Pocchh 



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OTpaBJieHa caaBHHO<i)HabCTBOM h yMeHHeM flaHHJieBCKoro; a aoxoaHa 
ao 6eaoro KaaeHHa h Kpnnaa, hto 3to HeBepHO, hto 3to — aocywHfi 
BbiMbice/i; ho HeMUbi 6biaH y6e>KaeHbi, hto Herr Bugaeff noaaaaca 
rpy6oMy moBHHH3My; MeHa ace 6oaee Bcero 6ecHao to o6cTO*rreab- 

CTBO, HTO HeMUbi BHflfl «CyUOK» U10BHHH3Ma BO MHe, He BHaaT «6pe6- 

ho» cBoero co6cTBeHHoro aTaBH3Ma. MaaHKOB, Bojiouihh, Ahhchko- 
Ba, riouuo npHHHMajiH ynacTHe b 3thx cnopax; Ach *;e c nopa3HTeab- 

HOH flJlfl MeHfl XOaOaHOCTbK) OTHOCH^aCb K C.IOBaM HeMlieB, MeHa 

CTOJib B03MymaBUJHM; y;we b KaHTHHe hbctbchho OTMeTHawcb HauH- 
OHanbHbie ctojthkh; HeMUbi aepwaaHCb bmcctc noaaKH — bmcctc 
pyccKHe — BMecTe, aHraHnaHe — BMecTe; npe>Kae He Sbiao 3Toro 
pa3flejieHH« Ha HauHH b KaHTHHe; Tenepb oho Hanaaocb; h oho — 
yray6aaaocb. 

TpH HHUHaeHTa, CBHUeTe-TbCTByKJUJHe O HeMeUKOH 6eCTaKTHOCTH, 

coBepiueHHO B36ecHjiH MeH«; ozihh iaK/ifOia^Cfl b tom, hto noHTeHHaa 
KpoTKaa b o6biHHoe Bpe.MH cTapyuiKa-He.viica, KOTopyro a atoGwa Been 
aymoft h KOTopaa npe>Kfle OTannaaacb aHTponoco(J)CKOH Bbiaep>KKOH, 
oaHawabi npo6eraa mhmo MeHfl, c paaocTHOft aoBepHHBOCTbK) MHe 
6pocHna, 3a6biB, hto a pyccKHft: «HaniH uenneaHHbi JieTa/iH Haa Fla- 
pH*eM», Ha hto a, CBHpeno HaxMypHBLUHCb, eft OTpe3aa: «)KaaeK), 
hto b BapBapcTBe BOflHbi norH6HeT Notre-Dame!» OHa noKpacHeaa 
h CKa3ana MHe: «Ax, npocTHTe Herr Bugaeff; fl 3a6bina, hto Bbi — 
pyccKHH». Si eft HHHero He oTBeTHa, noayMaa: « B xiaHHOM caynae a 
roBopio He KaK pyccKHft, a KaK, xoth 6bi, HeMeuKHft naccH<J)HCT». 
B apyroft pa3 h npHuiea b coBepiueHHoe 6eiueHCTBO, y3HaBLUH, hto npn 
Bojiouihhoh ojhh H3 HaniHx, Tynoft h rpy6bift Ma.Tbift, 6pocHJi TaxyK) 
{})pa3y: «]7oudy na eouny ydueamb 3/nux pyccKux ceuneu». Si oraacna 
3TOT (J)aKT B KaHTHHe H KpHHa.T ny6aHHHo: «rioKa>KHTe-Ka MHe 3T>' 
rpy6yio CBHHbfo: a noKawy eMy, KaK ocKop6aaTb pyccKHX aaM». 
«CeuHbx» aeftCTBHTe.ibHO Hcnyrajiacb MeHa; h o6xoanaa npH BCTpe- 
nax; TpeTHft hhuhucht 3aKaK>HaJica b caeayiomeM: b KaHTHHe cTa/iH 
npoaaBaTb b noab3y KpacHoro KpecTa KaKyto-TO HeMeuKyio uiobhhh- 

CTHHeCKyKD 6pOLUK)py; MeHfl B03My'THaO, HTO B HeftTpaJIbHOM MecTe, 

rae BCTpenajiHCb pyccKHe, (J>paHuy3bi, aHraHnaHe. noaaKH, aBCTpnft- 
Ubi h HeMUbi, npoaaiOTca 6ponnopbi, nponaraHanpyiouiHe HeMeiiKyto 
BoeHuiHHy; a noaouiea k CToaiixy, b3hji 6poniK>py, nponea ee 3arjia- 
BHe h iiiBbipny.1 ee o6paTHo aBCTpnftcKOMy aHTponoco(J)y c c/iOBaMH: 
«yflHBaflKjcb, hto 3aecb, b HeftTpaabHOM MecTe, b A.O., BeaeTCfl 
HeMeuKaa arHTauHa». ABCTpneu 3ao6HO noKocnaca Ha mchh; ho 6po- 
imopa 6biaa HeMeaaeHHO y6paHa. 

Si aeftcTBOBaa TaK co3HaTeabHo, h6o a xoTea ao6HTbca oaHoro: 
HTo6bi o BoftHe nan BOBce He roBopnaocb, Han roBopHaocb b ayxe 
noaaHHHoro naccH(J)H3Ma; Mofi naccH(J)H3M 6bia HaaHuo — b (JiaKTe 



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Moeft OKeflHeBHofl pa6oTbi BMecTe c HeMuaMH-pe3HHKaMH; h npoaoa- 
*an 0Tpa6aTWBaTb Hamy okohhyio <J)opMy, nocTynHBiuyio b 6e30T- 
BeTCTBfcHHoe pacnopH«eHHe Ach nocne OT"be3aa IIlTpayca Ha BOftHy; 
c HeMuaMH h oxpaHHa «Bau», c HevmaviH npHHHMan ynacTHe b 
Bbipa6oTKe aeTaaeft *h3hh npn «Bau»; h \ior Tpe6oBaTb ot hhx 

6paTCKOft AeJIHICaTHOCTH no OTHOUieHHKJ K HaM, pyCCKHM, BO HMD 

aoKTopa, «Bau» h aHTponoco(jmH; mu, pyccKHe, 6bian OTOpBaHbi 
b 3tot MHr ot Pocchh, a ohh HaxoflHjiHCb Ha rpaHHue TepMaHHH; H 
MorjiH Kaacayto MHHyTy no *eaaHHK> BepHyTbCH Ha poaHHy; mchh 
yaHBJiH^o, hto 3Toro Ach He noHHMaeT: Moe noBeaeHHe — npocTo 
sjieMeHTapnoe noaaepacaHHe nyscTBa co6cTBeHHoro aocTOHHCTBa, 
He no3BOJiJiK3mero, hto6m Te6e HacTynann Ha Horn; Ach ynpeicajia 
mchh b moBHHH3Me, He yBa»ana bo MHe pyccKoro h, icaic MHe Ka3aaocb, 
yHH»ca^acb ao coraacHH c hcmcukhmh 6peaHHMH; b 3th jhh h cnabHO 
CTpaaaa ot co3HaHHH, hto Ach aymeBHo h ayxoBHO npeaaaa Pocchkj 
npyccKOMy MH;iHTapH3My; sto 6wao He Tax, kohciho; ho BbixoaHao, 
hto — TaK, pa3 OHa otkpobchho xceaaaa Pocchh nopaxceHHH. 

/JoKTop b sth ahh yexaa b TepMaHHio 63 ; M..H. CnBepc Hac npn- 
raamaaa Ha nan; h 3a naeM BbicKa3biBanacb 3a TepMaHHio; MHe 
3to cBHaaHHe ocraBH/io ropbKHH cnea; h yBHaea, hto h ona 3apa3H- 
aacb npyccKHM MHJiHTapH3MOM (flOKTop aepacaacn no othouichhio k 
BceM HauHHM c 6e3yKopH3HeHHofl KoppeKTHOCTbio, ho h noao3peBaa, 
hto h oh b rny6HHe aymH 3aaeT o6iu,hm yrapoM). Moe noaoaceHHe 
b ZIopHaxe cTaHOBHaocb HecTepnHMO-MynHTeabHbiM: h TOCKOBaa no 
Pocchh, HeHaBHaea He caMHx HeMiteB, a OTBpaTHTejibHbifi HaaeT 1110- 

BHHH3Ma Ha HHXJ H CTpaaaa, HTO MeHH TaK He nOHHMaiOT, CHHTaiOT 

luobhhhctom; CTpaaaa 3a Ack> h ot Ach; k 3TOMy MynHTeabHOMy 
coctohhhk) npncoeaHHHaHCb cTpaHHbie nocTynKH HaTauiH (ao chx 
nop He 3HaK>, npaB an h, hah sto Bee npHrpe3Haocb: Haiauia Bnocaea- 
ctbhh yBepaaa, hto npHrpe3Hnocb; ho h CH/ibHO coMHeBaiocb, hto6m 
3to 6biao Tax); HaTauia 6yKBanbH0 Hanaaaaa Ha mchh b Te aHH co 
cbohm oneHb HH3MeHHbiM KOKeTCTBOM, yMeao, paccHHTaHHO pacTpaB- 
anfouiHM mok) nyBCTBeHHOCTb, KOTopaH noa BHHHHHeM 3Toro Hanaae- 
hhh Bapyr CHOBa BcnwxHyaa bo MHe; h 6opoacn c Heio, KaK Mor, 
a o»a tomho HapoHHo: nonBaaaacb y Hac Kawabift Benep h OTnanHHo 
KOKeTHHnaaa co mhoh; h cnpauiHBaa ce6a: «Hey>KeaH Ach He bhbht 
npoHcxoanmero? He mojkct 6biTb: BHaHT, ho — paBHoayuina. Eft HeT 
aeaa ao mohx nepewHBaHHft; OHa — 6pocHaa mchh Ha npoH3Boa cyab- 
6w». M h snaaaa b MpanHyio yrpfOMocTb h b 3aMKHyTOCTb. 



*' UlTeflHep npoBeji KOHeu aBrycTa h nepBbie aBe He.ae.rcH ceHTH6pn (h.ct.) b Tep- 
MaHMH h b Abctphh. C 26 ceHTsiopa ao I OKT»6pd oh on»Tb HHT3JT .ieicu.HH b rep- 

M3HHH. 



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BeiepaMH, BepHyBiuncb nocne pa6oTbi, a MyBCTBOBaji xojioh h 
OAHHoqecTBo; Ach 3aMbiKa.nacb b ce6a, a a Bbixcxami b o6myio KyxoHb- 
Ky (Hauiy h MnbHHOft) h npHcyrcTBOBaji npn c6opHuie pyccKHx; 3a 
y*HHOM y H.ibHHOfl co6HpaJiHCb: H.A. MaxiHKOB, K.A. JlHiXKHft (>kh- 
buihh c HaMH), K.A. J3y6ax; Macro 3a6erajin: OpmiKHHa, Mophobhh, 
OHTHHro^), BoroHBneHCKan h KocTbmeBa, h noaHHMajiHCb HecKOHia- 
eMbie pa3roBopbi; a rpoMH/i iuobhhh3M aHTponococfrOB; bo BpeMa 3thx 
pasroBopoB a 6,ih3ko couievica c K.A. J7nrcKHM. 

HHoriia Ha Hamy nonoBHHy c Acefl 3axoaHjiH: fleTpoBCKHfl, Ch- 
30B Mjib Tpane3HHKOB; CTajiH 3axoaHTb CeaneuKHe; KacTO ObiBajw: 
O.H. AHHeHKOBa h Bojioujhh, npHHOCHBumft cboh 3CKH3bi; qaiue Bce- 

TO 6bIBa/!H riOUUO. M 3TO 6bl/10 HCT04HHKOM MOHX MVHeHHtt; H He Bbl- 

hochji Ack) h HaTamy BMecTe; MHe Ka3ajrocb, hto o6e ohh, 3aBJia- 
jeBiuH haw/iaa no,ioBiiHofi Moefi nyiun, mMyiHBajin ayuiy. 
Tax Mpa^HO OKOHmi.ica aBrycT. 

(UpodonxceHue c/ieOyem) 

nPMJlOMEHHE 
niiPEflMCKA C M.K. MOP030BOM 



Xoth Be.Tbifi ,ihmho noiHaKOMMJicfl c MaprapHToR Khphji.iobhoA (1873- 
1958), weHofi inBeciHoro (J)a6pnKaHTa h KO.i.ieKUHOHepa M.A. MopoioBa, 
;iHUib BecHofl 1905 r., yB/ieneHHt' ero Mopo30Bofi othochtch k 1901 r., Koraa 
on BHne/i ee Ha mockobckhx yjimiax h 3aTeM «BCTpe4a/icfl c Heft rna3aMH» Ha 
CHMiJjOHHiecKHx KOHiiepTax. C jToro BpeMeHH OHa CTaHOBHTCM anpecaroM 
.THpHKo-poManTHMecKHx nuceM Be/ioro. OHa — h repoHHH «BTopo(i CHM(j)0- 
hmh» Be.aoro, h noil HMenevi «Hane>Kaa JlbBOBHa 3apnna» OHa iJiHrypHpyeT 
b noj.Me «FIepBoe cBH,iaHne« (1921). C 1905 r. Be.Tbifi iioctohhho 6biBan y Hee 
b rocrHx h 4acTo npHCVTL'TBOBa.T h yiacTBOBaji Ha 3acenaHHH.x Mockobckoto 
pe.i)irnoiHO-(})H.TOco(})CKoro o6mecTBa, KOTopwe nponcxo.an.nn b ee mockob- 
ckom ijo.Me. B Tpy^Hbie momchtw CBoefl >kh3hh BeJiwfi no/iynaji ot Hee ni- 
Bt'CTHyKi MopajibHym nomiep>KKy, a b Hawajie iiecaTbix roaoB h <t>HHaHCOByK> 
no.MOUib ot ee H3iiare;ibCTBa «n>"i'b». OHa, KaK h iipyrHe MocKOBCKHe apysbs 
Be:ioro, iiojo6ho C.H. By;iraKOBy, oofljiacb, ito «nacTynaeT HacioHiuaa 
oes.iHa — UlTeflHepw (A. A. B.iok h AHapeii Be/ibifi. nEPEIUiCKA, c.295). 
B KOiiue 1912 r. Be.ibm «tluctho opocajicn... c o6"bHCHHTe;ibHbiMH HHCbMaMH, 
mto HHiero He inMeHH.iocb: k MeTHepy, Knce;ieBy, PamiHCKOMy, MopojoBofl, 
Kpaxry» (nOHEMV % CTAJ1 CMMBOJ1MCTOM, c.84). Oh nanHcaji Mopo- 
iOBOft nHTb n.TKHHbix iiHceM b 3tot nepHon, o6t>hchhh CBoe peweHne M H3.ia- 
rax coaep>KaHiie .iCKimft IilTeRHepa. B Haiane 1913 r. oh eft OTnpaBHJi ny6.iH- 
Kyevioe HH>Ke nncbMO, Koxopoe aaTHpyeTcsi 6epnnHCKHM (12.1.13) h mockob- 
ckhm (3.1.13) ujreMiie.iRMH h OTBewaeT Ha nncbMO M.K. Mopo3OB0H (6e3 aa- 
rbi), npHBOAMMoe TyT *e (HTAJ1H, (}).25, KapT.20, en. xp.12): 



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[xoHeu 1912 roaa] 

JJoporoft h MHJibifl apyr EopHC HHxoaaeBHn! 

rionyiHJia chk> MHHyTy Bame rmcbMo h nmiiy! A BaM nncaaa 
ABa>Kiibi 3a 3to BpeMH h xax BwjHo Bbi mohx nHceM He nonynmiH. 3to 
h HeyflHBHTenbHO, t.k. He ycneeiiib onoMHHTbca, xax Bw yneTaeTe b 
apyroe mccto, noTOMy ceftnac nnuiy He OTxaaaMBaa, a to Bm Toro h 
raaan xyaa-HH6yab ynopxHeTe! JloporoH moh h mhjimh apyr, 6aaro- 
aapio 6ecKOHeHHO 3a BaiiiH rmcbMa, a hx xpaHK) (xax Boo6me Bee Ba- 
uih nHCbMa) h nacTO nepenHTbiBaK). CnacH6o 3a hhx! OneHb oneHb 
npomy Bac, npoaoawaftTe MHe nncaTb, MHe Tax Hy*HO 3HaTb hto Bbi 
h Kax! FIpe>xae Bcero yMoaajo Bac He ayMaTb hto co mhoh Hyxna no- 
jieMHxa, noTOMy BaiiJH nncbMa a h He noHHMaio xax noaeMHxy, a 
Been aymoft cjiymaio Bauiy ropanyio penb o6pameHHyio nepe3 mchh ko 
BceM! Cayuiaio h bccmh cnaaMH ayuiH xony npHcaymaTbca He x cao- 
BaM, He x TeopeTHHecxoMy CMbicay, He aa>xe k pejiHrH03HbiM yTBepaK- 
aeHHaM, a k TOMy «o neM Bee 3to» h «k qeMy oho BeaeT»! FIoBepbTe, 
hto a ray6oxo 3aHHTepecoBaHa IIlTeftHepoM, aaa 3Toro MHe aocTaTO- 
hho Toro, hto Bbi houijih x Heiny, noBepHJiH eMy h OTaaancb e\iy! 
Kax h hto, xaxoBbi ero TeopHH, xaxoB oh xax yneHbitt, xax (Jmaococt) — 
a He 3Haio, He \iory cyaHTb, ho 3to aaa Moefi ayuiH h He Tax BaacHo! 
XoTeaocb 6w, caymaa Bac, caeaHTb h BHaeTb naoa «aeaa UlTeflHe- 
pa»! CaMOfl ray6HHoft ayuiH a 3aaaio ce6e eonpocbi, sto eonpocbi 
Toabxo. ZU pa3Be b cyujHOCTH Bee mm momccm b caMOft ray6HHe jkh3hh 
3aaaBaTb HTo-HH6yab xpoMe BonpocoB! rnaBHbift moh Bonpoc — 3to 
oxxynbTH3M? He to hto * He npHHHMaio CMbicaa oxxyjibTH3Ma h 3Ha- 
qeHHH ero. Hao6opoT, a yBepeHa, hto mm cjihujxom Mano 3HaeM Bee 
nyaccHoe, hto noxa aaa Hac TafiHa h hto mm aoa»CHM hath x TOMy 
hto6m pacxpbisaTb 3Ty TaftHy b Hac h xpyroM Hac. Bee aeao He b uean, 
a b cpeacTBax. Tax bot moh Bonpoc, xotopmh a He xpHTHHecxn xo- 
noaHo ce6e 3aaaio, He ocyacaaio nero-To, xax Bm noao3peBaeTe, a 
npocTo cnpauiHBaKj h co CTpaxoM h, xaiocb, HeaoBepHeM.' IlpHBMxaa 
BepHTb apxoMy coaHuy, a HOHb xoth h MaHHT, ho Bor 3HaeT xaxaa 
TaM HeHHCTb jkhbct! A TyT He Bee Ha cojiHue, HHane noneMy TattHoe? 
5i 3Haio, hto caMa >KH3Hb TattHa h nyTH ee TaHHCTBeHHM, ho 3to TattHa 
MHpoBaa h xpaHHTeabHHiia ee uepxoBb h hto 6m TaM hh 6biao, naoxo 
an, xopomo an, ho cpeacTBa h ueaH acHM, t.x. onnpaioTca Ha Bce- 
HeaoBenecxHH, oobeKTHBHbift onbiT! fl 3Haio TaM, hto Bpynaro ce6H, 
cbok) bojuo He aHHHott, oTaeabHott, npoH3BoabHOft Boae, a neMy-ro 
o6meMy, ocHOBaHHOMy Ha aoaroM hctophhccxom onbiTe. BnaHTe xa- 
xaa a TpycHxa! 5i bot h 03Hpaiocb co CTpaxoM, hto Bm BpynaeTe cbok> 
Boaio h cHabi cmde/ibHou cydbeKmuenou Boae, xoth h reHHaabKOfl 
MoweT 6biTb. IloTOM OHeHb BoaHyeT mchh Bonpoc o tom xax bo3mo>x- 

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Hbi ocTaBaacb b MHpe, b 6paice, s 6opb6e, b KyjibType ace 3th OKKyjib- 
THHecKHe ynpa^cHCHHH? XBaTHT jih chji HenoBenecKHX? MHe hcho, 

HTO OTKa3aBUIHCb OT 5KH3HH, yfiflfl B MOHaCTbipb H nOflHHHJHOCb CTap- 

uy h noa ero pyKOBOflCTBOM HanHHaio pa3BHBaTb b ce6e BHyTpeHHHe 
CHnbi! Ho ocTaBancb b >kh3hh, He aocTaTOHHa jih caivia 5KH3HeHHan 
6opb6a, caina >KH3Hb, Tpyn, nocTOHHHoe jiHiueHHe, HeooxonHMOCTb 
aaBaTb ap>thm, Jiio6HTb npyrax! Aaft Bor, hto6m XBaTano chjt h Ha 
3to, a TyT Haao OTaaBaTb chjih Ha nonHHHeHHe OTne/ibHOH jihhhocth 
h TpaTHTb hx Ha TpyaHbie ynpaacHeHHa, He nyTeM >KH3HeHHoro Tpyaa 
Ha CBoeM nocTy, a nyTeM OTjjaHH ce6a (xoth h BpeMeHHofi) b naccHB- 
Hoe coctohhhc AoporoH, paan XpncTa He cepziHTecb, noftMHTe, hto 
He aaiwa c cy/iTaHOM tobopht c BaMH, a ayma moh oSpamaeTca co 
cbohm coMHCHbeM. ft ot Been ayiiiH cnacTjiHBa, hto ecTb Ha cBeTe Ta- 
xaa cu/ia KaK UlTefiHep, ho a my6oKO rpymy h 6oiocb, hto 3Ta CHjia 
BMecTO Toro 4To6bi nozibiMaTb b aymax chjim h noxmepacHBaTb hx 
Ha *H3HeHHOM nyTH h He OTpbiBaTb ot hx >KH3HeHHoro nejia, BMeCTO 
Toro cocpeaoTOHHBaeT hx. okojio ce6a h yrny6jiaeT b CBoe HeH3BecT- 

HOe! HTO )KC 3T0, MOHaCTbipb? ECJTH fla, TO 3TO MHe nOHHTHO, XOTH H 

He no CHnain 6bino 6bi. A ecnH HeT, to a 6oiocb 3Toro HeBeaoMoro, 
HOHHoro! Hto TaM b 3toh tcmhotc coKpbiTO? Bbipaxcaio BaM ceou 
CTpax! ft BaM Bepro, hto Bbi cBeTJibitt, Bepio h hto IIlTeteep cBeTJibift 
h roBopHT h nyMaeT o cbctjiom, ho nymu ero? 3HaeT jih oh caM Kyaa 
ohh BeayT? Hoporofi nnuiHTe hto Bbi? Hto Ach? JXonro jih Bbi eme 
6yzteTe TaM? ft 3Haio, hto Bbi BepHeTecb ctona Ha Bam 3KH3HeHHbifi 
nyTb, 3Haio. hto Bbi dnn Heeo BceM ceftnac KepTByeTe! Xphctoc c 
BaMH, 

Baiua M.Mopo3QBa. 



[HHBapb 1913 r., EepjiHH] 

C HoBbiM ToaoM! 

Mnjiaa, ponHaa, 
MaprapHTa KHpHjuioBHa, 

ripocrHTe jih Bbi MHe 3to CTpaHHoe, HenpHHecaHHoe nacbMO, 
Hanajio KOToporo h Bbmyn, h6o oho o co6biTHax, y>Ke MHHyBiuHX, o 
MocKBe, o BopnaHbe, h r.a. ft cnepBa Hanaji BaM o6biKHOBeHHoe nwcb- 
mo Ha oSbiKHOBeHHofl 6yMare, ho ee ne xb3thjio. ft npo/jojiacHJi npo- 
cto Ha nncTax. Bbiuuio oho Hecypa3H0 h o6pbiBOHHO (b npoMOKyTKe 
ero — aejia h noe3flKa b KejibH). M bot 3aKaHHHBaa nncbMO, nnuiy 
HOBoe k HeMy Hanajio. 

14 MHHyBUIEE a\-i 



TpoMaflHoe cnacH6o 3a jiacKOBoe h xopomee Bame rmcbMo: oho 
MeHH ray6oKo 3aTpoHyao h npeacae Bcero 3axoTeaocb BaM 6e3MepHO 
MHoro cKa3aTb. 

51 xoTeji cpa3y, b oahom nHCbMe OTBeTHTb BaM Ha Bee BaiiiH bo- 
npocbi, ho oaHH Bonpoc, Bonpoc 06 «OKKy/ib[mu]3Me» pa3pocca b ue- 
nyio CHCTe.vry OTBexa. 

HTaK, MHjiaa, xopomaa MaprapHTa KHpnaaoBHa: noxa h aHiiib 
noKa3biBaio BaM nacnopT oTHomeHHH Moero k npecaoByTOMy «ok- 
Ky/ibmu3My». W aHiiib b caeayioiueM nHCbMe KOCHycb apyrnx BaMH 
3aTpoHyTbix BonpocoB (0 ceeme, xpucmuancmee, cmapuax h T.a.). 
Ho, HTo6bi nHcaTb He b nycTOTy, h npoaoa^y amo ceoe nucbMO JiHiiib 
nocae nonyneHHH ot Bac OTBeTa. 

MHJiaH, He nyraftTecb pa3MepOB nncbMa h npoHTHTe ero BHHMa- 
TeJibHo. Hanaao ero (o nepeaparax c Mockboh) h BbiHyji. 

riHiuy, ponHaH, TaK noapo6Ho, h6o Bee sto 6oabHOfi nyHKT moh. 
Tax Tpe3BO, thxo, HopManbHo CHaHiiib y ce6n b yray h hhkom>' He 
Memaeuib, a k Te6e HacHJibHo BpbiBaioTCH He3aopoBbie CTpyn 6oaT0B- 
hh h cyeTbi. 

Bot noneMy h cTaa ocTopoaceH h, Karocb, noanac noao3pnTeaeH: 

pHfl HHUHfleHTOB BOKpyr MeHH H flpy3efl — HHUHaeHTOB B3aopHbIX, 

pa3ayBaeMbix b «co6bimuA» — H3MyMHa mchh 3a sth 8 MecaueB. 

OTcioaa h Moe nHCbMO k BaM*. 

Hy, He CTaHy mpeeo/iHenunx: 6yay noapo6Ho BaM OTBenaTb 
Ha xopomee, aacKOBoe, CBeTaoe riHCbMO. 

Mnjiaa, xopomaa: TaKofi Tenabifi ayn HaeT ot Baiuero nncbMa; h 
Tax MHe aerKo h cbctjio OTBenaTb Ha BauiH comhchhh o floKTope (Bep- 
HeB o ero acne): ToabKO TyT Beab MoryT 6biTb coMHeHHa; aeao He b 
aHHHOCTHX, a b ycTpeMaeHHH nyTH; ecTb nu OKKy/ibmu3M IlyTb? He 
3Hajo: h Beab oneHb xoaoaHO OTHouiycb k TepMHHaM. Koraa tobopht 
«OKKyAbmu3.w» to pa3yMeK)T npeacae Bcero oKKyabTHMecKyio nHTe- 
paTypy XIX cToaeTHH (btopoh noaoBHHbi) T.e. cohhhchhh TaaaHTan- 
Bbix h HeTaaaHTaHBbix chhkpcthctob, cMemaBLUHX BoeaHHy Bee hc- 
TopHHecKHe naMHTHHKH «Geheimwissenschaft»; o6biKHOBeHHO TaKHe 
KHHrn Bee uiapaaTaHCKoro ayxa: nHUjyiune Han pacciHTbiBaioT Ha 
aerKOBepbe, hjih caMH hh a3a He cMbicaaT b tom, o hcm nHiuyT, h.ih 
ayMaioT, mto CMbicaHT, ormpaHCb Ha pyaHMeHTapHbie, Hepa3pa6o- 
TaHHbie cnoco6HocTH cBoeB ayniH, oTKpbiBajouiHe hm xoe-umo H3 Ha- 
nHcaHHoro (b TepMHHoaorHH LUTeftHepa aymiiHe H3 hhx o6aaaaioT 
HMarHHauneft T.e. acTpaabHbiM HCHOBHaeHHeM: ho 3Ta HMarnHauHH 



' B opHrHHaie sra qacTb nHCbMa (ot «riHiijy poaHafl...» ao «k BaM>») 3aMepKHyxa 
KpecT-HaKpecT. Bo^bLUHHCTBO Bcero TeiccTa nncbMa HanncaHO 3e.1eHM.MH h.ih Kpa- 

CHblMH qepHHJiaMH. 



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ecTb HCHOBHfleHHe CKB03b rycToft ryMaH cy6ieKTHBH3Ma, CMemaioiue- 
ro KOHTypw noa^HHHOfl npaBaw). IlosTOMy aa>Ke ny-sume npeflCTaBH- 
TenH coBp. 0KKynbTH3Ma 6ecco3HaTenbHbie luapnaTaHbi (cMeuiHBafl 
HHUHBHnyanbHo y3HaHHoe b acTpajibHOM nnaHe c hctophhcckhmh 
CBHaeTenbCTBaMH mhcthkh h t.h.). TaKHX necTHbix uiapnaTaHOB 
<owa/io» (Stfanislas] Guaita, d'Alveydre); najiee HnyT y»<e hbho uiapjia- 
TaHbi Bpoae Eliphfas], Levi, Ilanioca. M ohh aoMHHHpyioT. OKKyjib- 
TH3M TaKoro poaa k «Geheimwissenschaft» othochtcs rax, KaK HaH- 
MeHOBaHHe npotfieccopa nepHofi h 6enofl Marnn (cmqtph npejicTaB- 
neHbH b uupKax) He HMeeT HHnero o6mero c BbicoKo-noieTHbiM yHH- 
BepcHTeTCKHM 3BaHHeM «npo(j)eccop»... 

JlroaH, Ma.io 3HaKOMbie c cyTbio npo6.ieMbi (c npHHUHnaMH Taft- 
hoh HayKH) cMeniHBaiOT docmoeepnocmb TafiHOH HayKH c uiapjiaTa- 
HH3MOM. Bbi noHHMaeTe, KOHeHHo, 4to «das ist nicht der Falh otho- 
CHTejlbHO mchh. 3to BO-nepBbix. 

Bo-BTopbix: non «oKxy/ibmu3MOM» pa3yMeK)T to oco6oe TeneHHe 
15-ro, 16-ro h 17-ro cTO/ieTHfl, KOTopoe noponHJio c o/ihoh CTopoHbi 
HOByK) (J)H^OCO(J)HK), HOByK) HayKy, HOByK) mhcthkv. «OKKy/ibmucmbt» 
3to Te, kto ctohji Ha py6e>Ke Meatfly HaiueH 3pofi h cpeziHeBeKOBOH 

CXO.aaCTHKOH. 3T0 Te, KTO P0HHHJ1H BO HM« MUCmUKU H HQyKU 3HaMH 

oyHTa npoTHB «aorMaTH3Ma» b KaBbmKax Phmckoh UepKBH, npoTH- 
Bonojiara» hhthmhoc noHH.MaHHe peJiwrHH (3coTepH3M, OKKyribTH3M) 
cpeztHeBeKOBbio h hhkbh3huhh, ho KOTopbie BepmiH b mqsuk) Haym a b 
HayHHOcmb .waeuu. TaK hx onpeaciflioT noBepxHOCTHO KynbTypHbie 
nioiw «eeKa ceeo». HivieHa hx (JwrypHpyioT bo bchkom yne6HHKe hcto- 
Phh Hoeou 0u/ioco$uu b Ka4ecTBe npeamecTBeHHHKOB npoepecca h 
yu8Ujiu3ayuu Bexa 3acTo«. fl Ha30By TOJibKO cneayioiuHe HMeHa: 
A66aT TpHTrefiM, Arpnuna HeTecreflMCKHH (aBTop ^Occulta Philo- 
sophia», y6e5KfleHHeHiiiHH OKKynbTHCT), ero yneHHK HoraH Beflep 
(yneHbift Bpaw, nepBbifl HacTaHBaBUJHH Ha tom, hto eedbMoecmeo 
ecTb ncHxonaTOJiorHnecKaH 6one3Hb), TeocJ)pacT BoM6acT riapa- 
uenbc, TeHpHX KyHpaT, HHKOJiaft <J>jiaMMe.nb, KHpxep, <Pmonn h j.a. 
(Onioaa, KyHpaT, KHpxep, riapauenbc — po3eHKpefluepbi)*. Henoiu- 



• Cm. «KoMMeHTapHH» k CHMBO.lHJMy (M., 1910), c.460: «...KaK HHTepe- 
cyioT Hac h mhcthkh 6oaee ncoaHero BpeMemi, oTHOCfliuHeca k 3noxe Bo3po)KaeHHH h 
nociie nee: PeflxaHH, riHKO-ae-MnpaHaoaa, a66aT TpHTreflM, yteHHKaMH KOToporo «bh- 
.THCb asa raKHx hmchh, KaK ArpHnna c ero nocaeaoBaTeaeM HoaHHOM BeflepoM h 
Teo(J)pacT Bovi6acT flapaueabc, craBLUHfl b ckopom Bpe.vieHH SHaMeHeM ray6oKO 
HHTepecHoro h aocene He OT>jeT.nHBO nomrroro, ho bo bchkom cayfae r/iy6oKoro 
aBH>KeHHa, OTnpbicKH KOToporo paiBHBaioTOi h b HaujH aHH; b to BpeMH KaK aHHHJi 
ArpHnnbi npeceKaeTca BCKope, aHHHS Ilapaueabca BeTBHTCH; BO-nepBbix, ynoM«HeM 
(j)OH-BoaeHuiTeHHa (1528-1577) (" Onomasticum Paracelsicum" , "De lapide Philosopho- 
rum"); aaaee noHBiisnoTcn coMHHeHHd BaH-TeahMOHTa (1577-1644); noHBa»eTC» C0"jHHe- 
HHe TeHpnxa KyHpaTa H3 JleflnuHra "eepnoeo jicenuxa meocotfuu"; (cm. caea. CTp.) 



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jioe noHHMamie Zl>KopaaHO EpyHO 3acTaBjiHeT ero 6e3 comhchha othc- 
cth k 3TOMy ace pnay HMeH. OanaHra 3thx OKKynbTHCTOB HenpoH3BO- 
jibHO nepexoflHT k otiwm ecTecTB03HaHHfl. HanpHMep HbJOTOH: ero 
«cu/ia» ecTb KOHeHHO cqualitas occulta^. ToBopio uihpoko — h Hmo- 

TOH OKKy^bTHCT: BCe HblOTOHHaHCKHe TeopHH B <t>H3HKe HenpOH3BOJIb- 
HO MHCTHIHbl. 

OTHomeHHe k HCTopHMecKOMy OKKynbTH3My hbohko: ero ciHTaioT 
(6ojibiiiHHCTBo) npenTeneft hoboh spw ozihh, h ero pecTaBpHpyioT 
apyrne: cohhhchhh KyHpaTa, riapauenbca nepeH3aaK)T b HaiuH ann, 
BHflHT 3aecb cMbiKyeMbie «e/iy6uHbi». 06pa3Ho roBops, OTHOiueHHe k 
OKKy^bTH3My 3Toro po,aa jih6o «/iu6epa/2bnoe», jih6o «deKadenm- 
CKOe»; y BHHiiejib6aHfla «nu6epa/ibHoe» , y hco-mhcthkob Haiiinx anePi 
4acTO aeKaaeHTCKoe (CTpHH,a6epr, TioHCMaHc a t.h.). 

Hh to, hh apyroe HenpaBHJibHO. 

Ec/ih ecTb ito-/ih6o ueHHoe b Ty.MaHHbix 3\i6neMax KyHpaTa hjih 
ArpHnnbi, Tax sto BOBce He to, ito b hhx BHflHbi 3a4aTKH (fcHJiocoqo- 

CKHX KOHUenUHfl, BtlOCneflCTBHH pa3BepHyBU!HXCH B JTeH6HHUe, CnHHO- 

3e, XleKapTe; eme MeHee 3th nncaTejiH — o6i>eKT CTH/iH3auHH Mbicnw 
HaiuHx flHett (ohh hh cbipan eoenoiiHa iinn no3HHeHiuero 6^K>aa (J)H^o- 
co(J)hh, hh fleKaaeHTCKaa Koponm tepHoeo x,ie6a* nocjie «AHaHaca»). 
JlymiiHe HMeHa hx (Flapauejibc, KyHpaT, <J>Jnoaa, Knpxep) — po3eH- 
KpeHuepbi, T.e. jhozih, npHHaanoKaBiuHe k tnaunoMy 6pamcmey, b ko- 
topom KyjibTHBHpoBaflocb 3HaHHe, HeaocTynHoe hhhm: 3HaHHe noa- 

JlHHHOrO CTpoeHHH HejIOBeKa, ero CBH3H C KOCMOCOM (CBH3H He TOJIbKO 

Mopa^bHOft, ho h aHaTOMH4ecKO-(J)H3HOJiorHHecKOH); KHHrn 3Tott rpyn- 
nw nioneVi 6bijiH imuib bhcluhmm Bbipa>KeHHeM Toro, hto b hhthmhom 
CMbicjie c/iOBa HeBbipa3HM0 aioBaMH, KaK HeiTo pea/ibHo-onbimHoe, 
docmoeepnoe; Beflb (J)H3HiecKHH, xhmhhcckhh onbiT b HayKe Bbipa- 
3HM b onHcaHHH h cyMMHpoBaH b tfropMyjie. OnbiT npeano/iaraeT oca- 
3aeMbifl o6i.eKT. 06i>eKT xhmhh — BemecTBO, 6HOJiorHH — jkhbothwh 



yieHhifl, Ka66anHCT h ajrxHMHic, KynpaT H3aaeT tom cBoero "Amphitheatrum'a"; 
ito npon3BeaeHHe rpynnwpyeT Boxpyr ce6» BHjjHyto rpynny mhcthxob: IL'BeflrxapaTa, 
HpeHHH (Irenaeus Agnostus), Mnxaaiia Maflepa, Po6epTa <t>jiyaaa {"Macro el Micro- 
cosmus", "Tractatus Theologo-Philosophicus in libros ires distributus"); jTa rpynna 
npeeMCTBeHHo npoaoajxaeTCH b BHae opaeHa ao B-ropoft nonoBHHbi XVIII seKa, xoraa 
b ynoMiwyTOM TeieHHH npoHCXOflHT pacKOa /.../ b Kcmue we XIX h b Hanajie XX-ro Te- 
neHHe, ocHOBaTejieM Koroporo HBHJiHCb TptrrreftM, ArpHrma h riapauenbc, BcnbiXHBaeT 
3aeCb h t3m: h b coiHHeHHHX no hctopmh mhcthkh, OT'iacTH aawe B TeneHHH, HMeHye- 
mom "cum80/iu3mom"». Cm. TaKJKe: «CpeaH BbiaaioiuHxcH ajixHMHKOB npoiuaoro mm 
aoa>KHbi OTineTHTb PafiMOHaa J\K>nnan (XIII Bena), HHKoaaa <t>aaMe^si (XIV Beica), 
Bepwrapaa H3 riHibi, TeabBeuHH, BaH-TejibMOHTa (XVII BeKa), TeHpHxa KyHpaTa, 
Mocntt>a KHpxBerepa h apyrHX» (TaM we, c.490). O MHorHx H3 hhx cm. kh. AJ1XHMHH 
KAK 0EHOMEH CPEUHEBEKOBOH Ky/lbTyPbl, B.J1. Pa6HHOBH4a (M., i979). 
* OnpeaeneHHe Ce3aHHa CM. IHyKHHbiM. (flpHM. Be.ioro). 



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opraHH3M. 06i.eKT OKKyjjbTH3Ma To*e pea/ibHo BHfleHHbifi h oc»3ae- 
Mbift o6t>eKm, ho o6i>eKm HHoro nop»,aKa: 4>aKT, B3HTbift ne moAbKO 
Ha (J)H3HMecK0M njiaHe. KaK Me noaoftTH k 3TOMy qbaKTy? 

Ho 4to ecTb o6bmHbifi qbaKT? EcTecTB03HaHHe npe)Kiie ciHTa- 
jiocb c (J)aKTaMH b rpy6eHLueM h npHMH THBHefliueM CMbicne: <J>aKT ecTb 
to, hto a ocsoajo, HanpHMep, o6bi4HbiM 3peHHeM; ho ecjiH 6bi ecTecT- 
B03HanHe ocTaHOBH^ocb Ha 3toh cTaflHH, to ero h He 6bino 6bi b Ha- 
ujeM CMbic/ie ciOBa. Bbi 3HaeTe, wto 6hojioihh 6a3npyeTC« Ha mhkpo- 
CKonH4ecKHx HccjiezioBaHHHx: &aKtnbi H3 >kh3hh K/iemowK newaT b 
ocHOBe coBpeMeHHOfl 6nonorHH, a cavia KJieTOHKa He eudua npocrribiM 
3penueM\ h Tax nnn (JmKTa 6hojiofhh, h/ih o6i>eKTa ee HyweH mukpo- 
cxon, a ana acTpoHOMHH menecKon, T.e. npu6op, uHcmpyMenm; hh- 

CTpyMeHT CTaHOBHTCH MOKIiy oSTjCKTOM H HCIlOBeKOM. H eCJIH 6bl KTO- 

HH6yab cTa^a coMHeBaTbCH b cymecTBOBaHHH KJieroiKH, roro no 3ac/iy- 
raM 6bi ocvteHJiH. 

3aMeTbTe: nonyjiapHoe noHHMaHHe MHpa, ocHOBaHHoe Ha <t>aKTax 
npHHHMaeTCH HaMH Ha Bepy, h6o myieHHe odhexma ecTecTB03H3HHH 
BeaeTca CTonb TOHHafluiHMH cneuHanHCTaMH, mo 3aroBopH ohh c Ha- 
MH Ha hx TexHuqecKOM »3biKe, Mbi ycnbima/ni 6bi a6pahada6py: BbiBO/i 
HayKH cjiOBecHbift ecTb Bcerjia nonyjmpH jauwa nero-TO HenonyjiapHO- 
i o; b HayKe ecTb cBoero poaa aeneHHe Ha K/iapu3M (3K30TepH3M) h ok- 
KynbTH3M (3C0TepH3M), KnapucmunHC nonyj!«pHoe H3no>KeHHe Toro, 
mto ecTb cymHOCTb 3ByKa, h oKKyxbmwi b stom cMbiefie «TeopH« cny- 
xoBbix omyuieHHft» Te^bMrojibua. nowHTaftTe TejibMronbua, h Bbi 
HHiero He noftMeTe, a Bbi Bce-TaKH Tenbivirojibixy eepume, h6o 3HaeTe, 
hto rejibMrojibu npoeepxeM, ho... TaKHM *e cneuwajiHCTOM, KaK oh. 
BHzieji jih kto-jih6o, KaK aBe nacTHubi Boaopoaa coc;ihhhk>tch c 4ac- 
THixeio KHcnopoaa? HeT. Ho B03bMHTe cooTBeTCTBeHHbie nopuHH h 
npoBeflHTe onbiT: Bbi nonyiHTe Boay (to ecTb 2 Boaopona + 1 khcjio- 
pofl). M Bbi cKa>KeTe: flOKa3aTenbCTBO neeuduMOMy ecTb npoH3BeaeH- 
Hbift mhok) onbiT c TaKHMH-TO pesyjibTaTaviH. 

Ho ;mh npoH3BeaeHHH onbiTa Hyacen npH6op. 

To *e h b Geheimwissenschaft (TafiHofi HayKe). Kto noKaweT MHe 
hto 3(})HpHoe Teno ecTb? Hhkto He aoKayner, h6o He aoKa3yeMO b xh- 
mhh cyiuecTBOBaHHe aTOMa, ho npH3HaHHe ero Heo6xoaHMo, pa3 HMe- 
iot MecTO TaKHe-TO onbiTbi. npoH3BenHTe MopaabHo Mbicjib b TaKHx- 

TO yCJIOBHHX, COCpeflOTOHbTeCb TaK-TO H TaKOH-TO UHKJ1 HBJieHHH 

BaM 6yaeT otkpmt; h no cyMMe hb^chhh Bbi npH3HaeTe, ito cymecT- 
BOBaHHe 3(|)HpHO-aTOMHMecKoro CTpoeHHH Mojra, KOToporo rpyobiM 
yn^OTHeHHeM hbjihctcs M03r (J)H3HqecKHfl, ecTb CTOiib mc Heo5xoflH- 
Maa rHnoTe3a, B03BeaeHHa» b aorMy, KaKOBofl aB^HeTca doeMa o cy- 
mecTBOBaHHH 3<t>HpHoro Tena. Bbi cKawete, noneMy hmchho TaKHe-TO 
b npHHUHne cnynaiomHecH qoeHOMeHbi cyTb B3biBaK3T k 3tJ)HpHOMy 



421 



Teny, a He k neMy 6bi hh 6i>ijio apyroMy. Ho sto Bonpoc, Ha kotopmh 
cneifua/iucm «TaftHOH HayKH» otbctht: «Hto6w cyzwTb o npaBH^bHo- 
cth rHnoTe3bi, B03BefleHHott b doe.\ty, Haao yBHaeTb, KaK rHnoTe3a 3Ta 
ecTecTBeHHO BbipacTaeT b Bac, xax o6teflHHeHHe onbiTHbix aaHHbix, a 
onbiTHbix aaHHbix an* cyacaeHHH y Bac HeT. Run H3yneHHH xhmhh Hy- 
>KeH pna npu6opoe». Bbi cnpocHTe: «r,ae xe (j)a6pHKa npH6opoB nnn 
3moeo* poaa onbiTOB?» BaM otbctht: «<Da6pHKy ann H3roTOBJieHHH 
npn6opoB Hy5KHO nocTpoHTb BaM caMHM no hmcfoiuhmch imaHaM npH 
coaeHCTBHH apxHTCKTopa, h Konia (|ia6pHKa oyaeT nocTpoeHa, Toma 
6ynyx npH6opbi h npn6opbi TOinefiiuHe». Bbi cKa5KCTe: «ila, ho ecjiH 
npu6op ann H3yneHHH ecTb Tax cica3aTb MopajibHo-<J)H3Ho;iorHHecKoe 
oiHiueHHe h cocpeaoToiHBaHHe ce6a xaK-TO h TaK-TO, to 3to Bo-nep- 

BblX — HHflHBHflyajlbHblH CaM0rHIIH03, BO-BTOpblX nyTb, KOTOpblft 3a- 

KpbiT una Bcex». H BaM otbctht: «Ho ocTaBaacb Ha CTporo-HaynHOH 
nOHBC Bbi He MOKeTC CTpOHTb, hc HMen daHHbix; hto6m TaK CKasaTb, 
Haao hto-jih6o 3Hamb ^axmuuecKu: o6iHCHHTe-Ka KpecTbHHHHy, hto 
Ha cojiHue OTKpbiT 6bLi cnepBa MeTanji reaHH, h KpecTbHHHH Bac 3a- 
CMeeT». JJaace TOHHaftuiHe mhcthkh, He Hcnpo6oBaBuiHe peajibHO- 
0KK>7ibTH0fl yHe6bi, cyTb TaKHe KpecTwrne, ocnapHBaiomHe h caMyio 

B03M05KH0CTb OTKpblTHH ee/lUX Ha COJIHUe, KOI"fla OTKpblTHe 3TO 4>aK- 

THHecKH yjKe coeepuiunocb daeno* . Bo-BTopbix, cneiwajiHCT BaM cKa- 
*eT: «B npHHUHne da, ho b pea/ibHOCTH hct: aajieico He bchkhh cnoco- 
6eH okohmhb 8 KJiaccoB rHMHa3HH, 4 Kypca MaTeMaTHHecKoro (Jjaicy/ib- 
TeTa, caaBiiiH MarHCTepcKHft 3K3aMeH y6enHTbCH oc«3aTenbHO b npa- 
BH^bHOCTH CKyjibnTypHoft nenKH (J)Hryp 4 H3MepeHHH b TpexMepHOM 
npocxpaHCTBe (TaKOBa b Bbiciueft MaTeMaTHKe cxyjibnTypa $Hryp no 
BettepuiTpacce — CBoero poaa MaTeMaTHnecKHft OKKyjibTH3M); to, hto 

Mbl BepHM, HTO 3TO B03MOHCHO, OCHOBaHO He Ha HaUJeM 3HaHHH, a Ha 

AOBepHH k cneituaAucmy» . Ecjih MexaHHHecicoe ycBoeHHe BepuiHH 3Ha- 
hhh Tpe6yeT aajieico He MexaHHHecKOft ycHAHHBOCTH, to bo CKOJibKO 
pa3 cnooKHee, denuxamHee, moHbiue npn6opw 0KKyjibTH3Ma, poct op- 
raHOB 3<J)HpHoro h acTpajibHoro 3peHHH, HaxoaamHxcH y Hac b 3ana- 

TOHHOM COCTOHHHH (aHaTOMHH H (J)H3HOJ!OrHH 3THX OpraHOB pa3pa6o- 

Tana b TeopHH h nposepaeMa Ha npaKTHKe: opraHbi 3th — ubctkh jio- 
Toca — b MecTa Ji6a, ropTaHH, cepaua, cojiHeHHoro cnjieTeHHH h r.a. 
cemaHbi c onpeae/ieHHbiMH £octh3kchhhmh OKKy;ibTH3Ma). Ko Bceft 
cjiohchocth mexHimecxoeo aocTHHceHHH aojihcho npHcoeziHHHTb caMO- 
o6jiaaaHHe, MyacecTBO, aep3HOBeHHe, p«khm, oco6bie MenHTauHH h 
hto rjiaBHoe: nocTeneHHoe OHHiueHHe MopanbHoe h nyw. noKoft [h] aa- 
»ce (hto Ba>KHee MHororo) KOHTponb h 3THKa Mbic/ien h nyBCTB, h6o 
Mbicjib .peajibHefliuee H3 peajibHoro; h ancrapMOHHH Mbicneft, cxoah- 



* riOflMepKHyTO KpaCHWMH HCpHHJiaMH. 

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maa c pyx npo(J)aHy, CTaHOBHTca bohcthhy cepuoii Kuc/iomou aaa 
Heo<J)HTa b ero nepBbix, po6khx iuarax. Hto sto ace ne meopun, a 
BHHTbi h OTae^bHbie nacTH OKKyjibTimecKHx MUKpocKonoe h menecKo- 
noe, 3to Mbi 3HaeM yace no ce6e. 5 MecHueB npeddeepim npueomoeu- 
me/ibHoeo K/iacca yne6bi MHe noKa3ajiH peajibHO, hto o6i>eKmbi ok- 
Ky^bTH3Ma cTO/ib ace oc«3aTe^bHbi, Kax o6i>eKTb] HayHHoro nccaeao- 
BaHHH; b 5 npoBeneHHbix npH AoKTope MecHuax Mbi y3HajiH docmo- 

eepHO TO, HTO BO BCK) )KH3Hb He 3HaBajIHJ y3Haj!H H TO, HTO mpe3- 

eocntb, Konmponb w npoeepxa OTrpaHHHHBaiOT crporo 3th o6aacTH 
ot cy6ieKTHBHoro (Hy, hto CKaweiiib BaM, ecan Bm CKaaceTe, hto 
aypbi HeT, Koraa n euxcy* aypy, h Koraa OHa 3oaoT23, to 3to He MHe 
Ka^ceTCH, a Ka*eTCH eceM oduHaKoeo kto aypbi bhaht; a Koraa OHa 

CUHJW, TO OHa CUHJUt flHH A, B, C, D H T.fl.)- 

Bee 3to nHiuy BaM h Tan npocTpaHHO, HTo6bi HaMeTHTb caeay- 
lomHe nono>KeHHfl: Hanaro ecTecTBeHHoro pa3rpaHHHeHH« Me)Kay ok- 
KynbmHbiM h HeoKKy/ibmnbiM yace aeaoiT b ecTecTBeHHOM nopanKe 
Bemeft, e nauieu nayne, b npouecce HapacTaHHH caoacHOCTefi no Me- 
pe yray6aeHH« b npnpoay Bemetl: TaM rae no3Tbi, mhcthkh, 6ecco3- 
HaTe^bHbie npoBHaubi BOCKJiHuaioT «Mbicjib H3peneHHa« ecTb ao>Kb», 
TaM rae H3MepHBaiomHe o6biHHbiM cnoco6oM OKeaHHHecKyio ray6HHy 
noaco3HaTejibHoro h Haaco3HaTeabHoro roBop«T (adecb Kotmaemcx 
nom u3Mepenim», t&u 0KKyabTH3M He OTnaHBaacb nepea xaocoM noa- 
co3HaTeabHoro h He ocaenaaacb ot coaHenHoro 6aecKa Haaco3HaTeab- 
Horo mpe360 H3bicKHBaeT cnoco6bi H3yneHH« h (J)HKcauHH b (fropMyae 
neu3peueHHoeo. M (J)HKCHpoBaHHaa (fropMyaa, KpacHopeHHBaa aaa to- 
ro, kto MemoduHHO a nerriKO, 6e3 aonoeoKpyoiceHUH, cxoaHT b ray6HHy 
HaH BocxoaHT b BbicoTy, aa« MHCTHKa ToabKO, nosTa HaH o6biHHoro 
(j)Haoco(J)a 6yaeT a6paxada6poio, xax 6biaa 6bi a6pai<ada6poio aa« 
rpenecKoro (j)Haoco(j)a-(J)H3HKa cToab acHaa aaa coepe.weHHoeo 0u3una 
cjjopMyaa: pv = p v (1 + ax). «Hto sto 3a p, v, a, t?» BocKaHKHya 
6bi rpenecKHfl (fnaoco(t). — «HpaBHTCH BaM hjth He HpaBHTca, ho sto 
— TaK: sto — cHMBoaHHecKoe Bbipa>KeHHe 3aKOHa Iliapaa h BoHaa, 
npoBepjieMoe onbiTOM»... Tax oTBCTHa 6bi (})H3HK-yHeHbiH. 

FIoHMHTe: aeaeHHe Ha cxpbimoe h nenoe — aeaeHHe, KOTopoe Bac 
LUOKHpyeT, ecTb aeaeHHe ocHOBaHHoe He Ha >KeaaHHH cnpHTaTb, a Ha 
HeB03M0>KH0CTH aoKa3aTb Toane, oTpHuafomefi to mum apyroe 5e3 
npoBepKH. Ho aeao He b tom, hto OKKyabTHCTbi np»nyT npoBepKy; 
aeao b tom, hto ycaoBHH npoBepaeMocTH TpeoyioT 3aecb ot >KeaaK> 
mero npoBepHTb noaHoro H3MeHeHHH cbohx npHBbineK h o6biHHbix 
cxoaacTHHecKHx npeaB3HTocTeft, T.e. noaHofl o6t>ckthbhocth cno- 
KOHHoro HenoaeMHHecKoro 3peHHH h H3roTOBaeHHH npu6opa. npea- 



noflHepxHyro KpacHbiMH nepHHjiaMH 

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CTaBbTe ce6e MejioBeKa, a6cojiK)THo He Bepamero b to, hto npn kphth- 
necKOft TevinepaType eemecmeo npaMO, mi-hobchho h3 *HaKoro co- 
ctohhha nepexo/WT b ra30o6pa3Hoe (o6wHHWfl onbiT, noKa3biBaeMbiH 
CTyaeHTaM ecTecTBeHHHKaM nepBoro Kypca); npocfceccop <J)H3hkh ro- 
bopht TaKOMy HeBepyromeMy: «% BaM Mory 3to aoica3aTb He Ha cao- 
Bax, a Ha onbiTe». HeBepyioiuHft: «Xopomo, noicaacHTe: nofiaeMTe b 
KyxHK), a aaM BaM BOjibi, BCKHn»THTe ee TaK, HTo6bi napa He iiijio h 
ito6m Boaa MrHOBeHHO Hcne3Jia H3 KacTpioaH». npo<J)eccop 4>h3hkh: 
■«R BaM He Mory 3to 3aecb noica3aTb: MHe Hy>KeH npn6op». HeBepyio- 
iuhh: «KaKofl TaKoft npH6op: cnoBa o npH6ope, ccbiaica Ha oTcyTcx- 
BHe ycjiOBHH onbiTa yBepTKa». ripo<|)eccop $h3hkh: «5\ c BaMH cno- 
pHTb 6eccHjieH, npnxoaHTe ko MHe 3aBTpa b jia6opaTopHK)». Ha apy- 
rofl aeHb b na6opaTopHH npo(J)eccop o6iacHaeT: «BHaHTe stot Kpo- 
meMHbiH cocyaHK: 3aecb 3anaaHa acnaKOCTb b npocTpaHCTBe, rae pa3- 
peHceH B03ayx; cocyaHK HaxoaHTca b ycaoBHax Heo6bmaftHoro aaB- 
aeHHa; Tenepb a Harpeto ao cooTBeTCTBeHHofl TeMnepaTypw h cpa3y 
KHflKOCTb npeBpaTHTca b ra3». HeBepyioiuHft: «^a, ho cocyaHK Maa 
h He BHaHuib, hto npoH3oftaeT TaM; aaaee, cocyaHK Baui HaxoaHTca 
b CHCTeMe CTeK^HHHbix cocyaoB h ero Heab3a B3aTb h noanecTH k 
raa3aM». ripo(J)eccop: «He 6ecnoKOHTecb: caabTe cioaa — a HanpaB- 
aio ayn H3 Boauie6Horo <J)OHapa Ha cocya h OTpa^y ero Ha 3KpaHe b 
yBeaHHeHHOM BHae: BHaHTe? Bot cocya: bot 3Ta nepTa Ha 3KpaHe 
ecTb rpaHHua «hakocth... ft Harpea — bhahtc, rpanHua MrHOBeHHO 
Hcne3aa...» HeBepyjoiunfl: «3to Bee KaKHe-HH6yab <J)OKycbi. R Tpe6o- 
Baa oc»3aeMOCTH: bmccto 3Toro Bbi cocyaHK ot mchh cnpaTaaH noa 
CTeKaHHHbift KoanaK; a raa3aMH He BHaea, KaK acnaKOCTb MrHOBeHHO 
nepemaa b ra3: a BHaea anuib, KaK Ha 3KpaHe MrHOBeHHO Hcne3aa nep- 
Ta; noneM a 3Ha»o, hto TaM npoH3omao b cocyaHKe...» llpo^eccop: 
«R BaM noKa3aa peaabHbifl onbiT, HayHHO o6cTaBaeHHbrft; ho bu onbiT 
HaxoaHTe He peaabHbiM: npocTHTe — a noaaraa, hto bm npouiaH 

I"HMHa3H4eCKHH KypC <j!H3HKH; OKa3bIBaeTCa, Bbi He 3HaeTe, HTO eCTb 

onbiT. rioaHTe, noyiHTecb, a noxa a Ha Bee BauiH B03pa»eHHa 6yay 
OTBenaTb BaM MoanaHneM». HeBepyiomHtt: «3to He otbct: bu npo- 
cto npaieTe aoKa3aTeabCTBo; «BHoe aeaaeTe TattHbiM, hto6 Mopo- 
HHTb aKJaeft. J\& oho h noHaTHo: rae BHaaHO Ha 3eMae, htoGm »<Ha- 
Koe MrHOBeHHO nepexoaHao 6bi b ra30o6pa3Hoe: 6yab 3to Tax ATaaH- 
THHecKHH oxeaH Mor 6bi MrHOBeHHO Hcne3HyTb...» npo(J)eccop: «Byab 
B03MO>KHOCTb caM OKeaH saicaiOHHTb b cHCTeMy noaoOHbix cocyaoB, 
c hhm npoH3omao 6bi to *;e, hto c stoh KaneabKoft HcnaKOCTH. B 
npHHUHne OKeaH MO»eT MrHOBeHHO Hcne3HyTb». HeBepyKJumft: 
«IIIapaaTaH bu: bu roBopHTe epyHay; (k oKpyacaiomHM) rocnoaa — 
npo<t>eccopa MoponaT Hapoa: 6HTb hx» (aaaee npoHcxoaHT ynHBep- 
cHTeTCKHft norpoM). ConocTaBbTe npeauiecTByromHe moh caoBa o 



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mauHOu Hayne c 3tok> cueHOio h BaM CTaHeT acHa moh Mbiciib. JXe- 
jiaio TpaHCKpHiiuHio 3 roro pa3roBopa: Adenm mauHoii naym: «3<J>Hp- 
Hoe Tejio ecTb». FIpo(})aH: «Oho Heaoica3yeMO». AaenT: «H3BHHHTe, 
oho AOKa3yeMO». ripotfraH: «AoKa3yeMOCTb b onwTe». AaenT: «3<Jm- 
pHoe Te^o aoKa3yeMO Ha onbimen. nposfcaH: «IioKa>KHTe MHe ero Ha 
onbiTe». AaenT: « /Jjih 3Toro Hy>KHO, 4to6w nenecrrxKU ziomoca moM- 
mo b Bac 3aapo*ajiH, a aa« 3Toro HyacHO, HTo6bi Bbi bom TaKofl-TO 
o6pa3 »h3hh, Hy>KHO OMHiueHne Bauiero Tena h He TOJibKO 4>H3HHecKO- 
ro, ho h 3<J)HpHoro, ho h acTpaabHoro: Hy*HO MopanbHoe CTpeMJie- 
HHe, coneTaeMoe c tcm-to h TeM: 3to h ecxb Ta jia6opaTOpHH, b 
KoropoH y6e>KflaeTecb Bbi b cymecTBOBaHHH 3(})[HpHoro] Tejia...» 
Ilpo(J)aH: «H xoHy TOTnac *e». AaenT: «T.e. Bbi xothtc rpy6biMH 
cpeacTBaMH, pa3pyuiaiomMMH 3aopoBbe h 3THicy, yaoBaeTBopHTb cBoe 
jiro6onbiTCTBo; h3bhhhtc h He Mory Bac yaoBaeTBopHTb: sto 6biJio 
6bi KonaoBCTBOM, a c kohaobctbom, iHnH030M h nopa6omeHHeM bo- 
m oKKyabTH3M He hmcct o6mero...» FIpotfraH: «Xopomo, « coraa- 

CeH yMHTbCfl...» 

FIpoxoaHT roa. 

AaenT: «Bbi BiiaHTe mo-mo u mo-mo, bu HcnbiTbiBaeTe npn 3tom 
mo-mo u mo-mo. y Bac Gmjih TaKHe-TO h TaKHe-TO MopaabHbie nepe- 
>KHBaHHfl. Boxieao 3/iecb, 3aecb h 3aecb: nocjie nero Bbi cTaaH <J)H3h- 
necKHMH rna3aMH BHaeib moKoe-mo HCTeieHHe». npotfraH: «CoBep- 
iueHHO BepHO, OTKyna bw 3to 3HaeTe?» AaenT: «CTpaHHbiH Bonpoc: 

H 3HaKD, H60 3TO BCS eCTb npOCTO 3HaHHe (J)H3HOHOrHH, 3HaHHe (J)H3H- 

oaorHiecKofi 3aBHCHMOCTH tt>H3H4ecKoro Tejia ot 3(J)HpHoro. Hayica 
npencKa3biBaeT 3aTMeHna, oKKynbTHCT yqeHHKy paccKa3biBaeT to, hto 
3TOMy nocjieaHeMy KaweTCH cy6T>eKTHBHeHiHHM cy6beKTHBHeftuiero b 
ce6e... HcTeneHHfl TaKoro-TO UBeTa?» yieHHic: «He coBceM Taicoro- 
to». AaenT: «Cra.no 6biTb Bbi caeaajiH TaKyio-TO ouiH6Ky, bu He TaK 
aeaaan MeaHTaiuno b 3tom-to MecTe». Ilpo(J)aH: «fl aeaaji mo-mo». 
AaenT: «He coBceM to. Haao aeaaTb to-to h to-to. IlpHxoaHTe ko 
MHe iepe3 Mec«u: roraa Mbi aBHHeMCH aaaee». npo<j)aH: «fl no3Bo;no 
HanoMHHTb BaM, qro roa Ha3aa Bbi CKa3ajiH, hto h yBH>Ky 3(J)HpHoe 
Teno, a h yBHaea a yjHan 6ecKOHeiHO MHoroe, ho cobccm apyroe: 
mo-mo h mo-mo». Aaeirr: «no3BOJibTe: mo-mo ecTb cjia6oe BHaeHHe 
Baiuero 3(})HpHoro M03ra». ripot^aH: «.H ce6e He TaK npeacTaBjiHa». 
AaenT: «Bbi ceoe npe.acTaB.iHJiH HeBepH0». Ilpo(J)aH: «A neM Bbi aoxa- 
>KeTe, hto 3th menenun 3(J)npHbie?» AaenT: «il aoKaacy sto ToabKO 
Toraa, Koraa y Bac 6yaer mo-mo h mo-mo, Koraa od^exm BauiHx onw- 
tob oopHcyerca tohho». FIpotfcaH: «R He xony 6onbiue *aaTb». 
AaenT: «Bbi xothtc boohhhd yGeaHTbca b aocTOBepHOCTH onbiTHoro 
npHHUHna, He HMea eme onbiTHbix aaHHbix; coraacHTecb: TpyaHO b 
(J)H3HKe aoxa3aTb KHHeTH4ecKyio Teopnio ra30B TOMy, kto ToabKO 

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Bcero h 3HaeT, hto Teaa, norpy^eHHbie b BO/iy, TepaioT Bee, paBHbifi 
o6i>eMy BbiTeeHeHHoft >kh,okocth: y Bac HeT TepneHHH npoao.n>KaTb 
yneHHe». YneHHK: «il BaM He BepK): Bbi iuapaaTaH». A,aenT: «f{ c Ba- 
mh 3aroBopio jiHiiib Toraa, Koraa Bbi okohmhtc cpeaHK)K> uiKoay ok- 
KynbTH3Ma...» 

FIpoxoflHT 2 Mecflua h... npo<J>aH neiaTaeT: «Pa3o6/taueHue mau- 
Hoti HayKU», b kotopoh iioKa3biBaeT, kslk oh nocTHr MeToabi oKKy.ib- 
TH3Ma h npHiuea k BbiBoay, ito OKKynbmmM — caMorHn[H03]*. 

M jHOflH BeKa cero BocKiiHuaioT: «BHflHTe, bhahtc: Mbi Bceraa ro- 

B0PHHH...» 

Bot noHeMy co3aaaacb ecTecTBeHHO Ta CTeHa, KOTopaH OTaea«eT 
maunyio nayny ot npocmo nayKu. H>KopflaHo BpyHO 6bia co>K»eH 
Ha KocTpe (J)H3HMecKOM 3a to, hto 6bia Bnepean Bexa. Taiwan Hayxa 
ocTaeTCH eceeda enepedu: h noTOMy-TO ee yaea — Kocrep cMexa bo- 
Kpyr Hee. Ho rpaHHua Me>Kfly Heft h npocTO HayKofi nocTOHHHO nepe- 
ABHraeTCJi; rpaHHua 3Ta H3MeH«eTC» b 3aBHCHMOCTH ot sooxh, HauHH, 
nepHoaa BpeMeHH. nocaeaHHa rjiy6HHa Geheimwessinschaft roaoBo- 
KpyacHTcnbHO onacHa d/vt c/ia6bix {dunaMum, noae3Hbifl ToabKo b py- 
Kax MopaAbHopa3eumoeo MeftcTepa, h rH6eabHbift, Koraa nonaaaeT b 
pyKH moeapuma: dunaMum cpeacTBO B3pbiBaTb rpaHHTbi 3aropa>KH- 
BaiomHe ny-rb; b pyxax y moeapuufeu AHHaMHT cpeacTBO B3pbiBaTb 
aioaeH... ZIocTaHbCH maunoe 3nanue b pyKH MopaabHo HeTBepaoro 
o6mecTBa — oho pa3opBaao 6bi h MeaoBeiecTBO, h 3cmhoh map); a 
OKpaHHbi Geheimwissenschaft, norpaHHiHbie c >KH3HbK>, nocroHHHO 

MeHHIOT CBOH KOHTypbi; TaK OCHOBbI COBpeMeHHOH HayKH, TeopHH Bpa- 

meHHH njiaHeT, o6T>eaHHHiomaH BoenHHy h nToaeMeeBy cHCTeviy, h ch- 
CTeMy KonepHHKa, 6buiH aocTOHHueM Geheimwissenschaft, KOTopaa 
co3HaTejibHO cnepBa nycTHaa b o6opoT CHCTeMy nToaeMea, a noroM 
CHCTeMy KonepHHKa; SbiBuiee maunbiM cmano nenbiM; o6paTHO H3- 
neneHHe MopajibHo 3$HpHbiM tokom 6buio BOBce He raftHbiM: 6biaw 

MeflHUHHCKHe HHCTHTyTbl M8Hbie, [yWHBUIHe] * * H3JieMHBaTb naao>Ke- 
HHeM pyK. OflHO BpeMH (He Tenepb) 3TH npHMHTHBHO-HBHbie 3HaHH« 

OTOiiijiH b o6jiaerb TaflHoro (rpaHHua nepeaBHHyaacb 3aecb b oopaT- 
Hyjo CTopoHy). 3th nepeaBH/KeHHH rpaHHU MOKay kbhbim 3naHneM 
(3eMjia — map), TaK CKa3aTb HBHbiM (cKyabnTvpHafl cfropMyaa Befiep- 
mTpacce), TaK CKa3aTb TafiHbivi (npo6aeMbi HsyneHHfl aeflcTBMH mwc- 
aefi Ha paccTOHHHH) h npocTO TafiHbiM 1) o6ycaoBaeHbi MopaabHofi 
HeaHcuHnaHHHpoBaHHocTbio cpeaHero HeaoBeKa 2) cojaaHbi, KaK 
orpaaa aaa 6aara cpeaHero neaoBeKa 3) 3th nepeaBH>KeHHH rpaHnu 
coBepmawTca bo hms cnaceHHH vieaoBe^ecTBa paan TaKTH4ecKnx ue- 



y Bejioro: «caMOi'HnTOM». 
y Eenoro: «jieiHBiiiHe». 



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jiefl. H aaace: nepBbie 3Tanbi maiinozo, HaMenaeMbie b xyjibType mhc- 
tcphh, TaKHce mchhiotcji bo hmh cpeflHeviy ne/ioBexy HeaocTynHwx 
6narHx uejieft; Tax: mhctcphh Hhahh cyTb xyni>Typa 3<J>HpHoro TeJia, 
ErHnTa — KyjibTypa acTpajibHoro T&na; mhctcphh xpncTHaHCTBa — 
xyjibTypa lenoBeiecKoro «.JIr> h t.o,. 

rioemopxK): rpaHHuw OTaejunoiime nehoe ot maunoeo ecTecT- 
BeHHbi, a He HacHJibCTBeHHbi h o6ycjioBneHbi 3hohu€m, Mydpocmbio h 
ceemoM, a He xaocoM, tsmoh HeH3BecTHOCTH h sxcTa30M. 

Bw nHineTe: «r.naBHbiH moh Bonpoc — 3to oxxyjibTH3M? Bee 
ae.no b uejiH, a b cpeacTBax... Tax bot Mofi aonpoc, xoTopbift h 
He xpHTHiecxH xoaoaHo ce6e 3aaaio, He ocymaaio Hero- to, a npocTo 
cnpauiHBaio h co CTpaxoM h, xaiocb, HeaoBepHeM! npHBbmxa BepHTb 
jtpxoMy coiiHuy, a HOHb xoth h MaHHT, ho Bor 3HaeT, xaxaa TaM 
HenHCTb 5KHBex! A TyT He Bee Ha cojiHue, HHane noieMy TaHTca?» 

fl HaaeKJCb, hto BbiineHanHcaHHoe mhoh ecTb otbct Ha cnoBa, 
noneMy He ece Ha co/iHite. 

HTax, hto ecTb cojihuc? r\ia3 Ham, oujynbiBaiomHH cojiHue, hjih 
HCHBOTBopHoe fleflCTBHe Tenaa cojmeHHbix nynefi — Tenaa XpHCTOBa. 
npe*ae Bcero npo6aeMa t o men/ie h ceeme. Cbct CBeTy po3Hb: cbct 
aea«Hofl chokhoh paBHHHbi, xoraa cojiHue 3a ooaaxaMH ecTb ceem 
6e3 Tenjia ho coaHeHHbifi. Tenjio MoaHTBbi HHcycoBOfl, npoH3HOCH- 
moh b TeMHofi xoMHaTe h <i>H3HHecKH aaxce omyTHMofl, xax Tenjio b 
rpyaH h b cepaue ecTb metiAO 6e3 <J)H3HHecxoro cBeTa. 

HTax, hto ecTb CBeT? Hto ecTb men/iol Hto ecTb cbct 6e3 Ten- 
jia? Hto ecTb men/io 6e3 ceemal Hto ecTb ceem u men/iol • 

riocTapaiocb noapo6HO oTBeTHTb no xpafineMy pa3yMeHHK>, ho 
cnepBa OTBeny, xax « oTHOinycb x caoBy «OKKy/ibmu3M». 



MHJiaH, nocjie HeaeabHoro nepepbiBa B03Bpamaiocb x nncbMy (b 
cepeflHHe aoxHT KeabHcxHft xypc floxTopa «Exaeaeam-ruma u no- 
cnaHun anocmona riae/ia»): HTax caoBO noKKy/tbmu3M» He BojmyeT 

MeHH, He CBH3bIBaeT: 3TO He «OKKy/lbmU3M» 3aCTaBHJl mchh, 6pochb 

Bee, cecTb y Hor /JoxTopa noxopHbiM yneHHXOM; ho h oxxyjibTH3M He 
to, hto Bw ce6e npeacTaBaaeTe: 3to He xaxoe-HH6yab BOJixoBaHHe, 
ynpaTbiBaHHe TaftHM, a H3BecTHbift no3HaBaTeabHO-npaxTHHecxHH 
nyTb o6cTaBjieHHbiH onbiTaMH h o6yneHHeM, xax eatKOH uayKa; pa3- 
HHua Meacay tohhoh Hayxofl h oxxyjibTH3MOM Ta, hto 6aaroaapH 
oco6um ycjioBHHM npaxcHca o6z>eKm TafiHott HayxH (oxxyjibTH3Ma) 
6e3rpaHHHHO aeanxaTHee h caoacHee HoxeaH bc«xhh apyroft o6i>eKT 
ecTecTBCHHofl HayxH; noTOMy h npocfceccopa 3Toft HayxH oneHb, oneHb 
peaxn; h MeTO^bi ecTecTB03HaHHH c hx MHxpocxonaMH h TenecxonaMH 

COCTaBaiHOT HeHTO HOCOpOOKbe no CpaBHeHHK) C .Ue/IHXaTHblMH H nyB- 



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CTBHTeJlbHblMH «npu6opa.\1U» OKK[yjlbTHOH] HayKH (npH6opbI 3TH, 

TaK Ha3WB[aeMbie] ueembi Aomoca, cyTb opraHbi Haiuero donee toh- 
Koro Tejia h hx Mbi aoawHbi copraHH30BaTb npeaBapHTeabHO oco- 
6biMH npneMaMH, aaBaeMbiMH yMHTeaeM). «TauHcw» HayKa — Ha3Ba- 
HHe HCTopHwecKoe, xpaanuHOHHoe; «maiiHbiMu» HayxaMH npoKae cmh- 

TajlHCb H MaTeMaTHKa, H (J.H3HKa, H 3HaHHe 3JieKTpHMeCTBa. Bb! 3Ha- 

eTe, hto cyTb HayKH He b TepMHHe: $u3ukoio npe>Kae HaibiBaan h 
HayKH, cocTaBJi$noume Hbme npeaMeT 300JiornH, tJ)H3Ho^orHH; a co- 
BpeMeHHaa (J)H3HKa CKopee He cJ)H3HKa, a duHOMUka; coBpeMCHHas 
Ouo/ioeuH CKopee eucmo.aoeux h 3M6puo/ioeujj; ho Mbi roaopHM 0u3it- 
Ka, 30o.aoeuM, coxpanaa 3a HayKofi CMecTHBiuHflca ywe hctophmcckhh 

ee TepMHH; TaKHM >KC HCTOpHHeCKHM TepMHHOM HBJIHeTCH OKKVib- 

mu3M, h6o OKKynbtnucmbi Bpoae KyHpaTa, TejibMOHTa, riapauenbca 
6biJiH He TOJibKO HCTopHnecKHMH npeaTenaMH HOBOH HayKH H HOBOfl 
(J)hjioco(})hh, ho h B_na.ae.nH MHorHMH 3HaHH»MH hhcto npaKTHHecKoro, 
aeftcTBeHHoro nojHaHHH: T.e. 6bia momcht, Koraa nepeaoBbie reH.H. 
HejiOBenecTBa b CMbicrie TeopeTHnecKoro MbimaeHHs 6biJiH eme KpoMe 
Toro coeflHHeHbi b maiiHoe dpamcmeo (po3eHKpeHuepcTBo); OKKynb- 
THCTaMH 6buiH Te, kto coeaHHj.au 3HaHHe o npnpoae BHeiUHeH CO 
3HaHHeM o npnpoae ayiiw; nocaeayKDiuuft pa3pbiB Me)Kziy jmu.uu 3hq- 
hurmu B CHJiy paaa cao>KHbix, Heo6xoaHMbix hctophhcckhx vcjiobhh 
h co3aaji HCKyccTBeHHoe aeaeHHe Ha mauHoe 3HaHHe h xenoe 3HaHne; 
npoTHBonojiojKeHMe Me:*ay TeM h hhum cMeuiHO. 

OpoTHBononoweHHe sto ycHaeHHO pa3ayBaeTc;. Hocopoea.wu ot 
HayKH h ujap/iaTaHaMH ot OKKyjibTH3Ma. OKxy/ibmit3M ecmb HayKa: h 
oh He npHHeTca; Ha unKJiax .UpKTopa coo6maK>TCfl noumu ho nnomadu 
(npn 500 ayaHTopHn) bcihh OKKyjibTHeftuiero nopaaKa; He 3a6yabre: 
3th 500 neaoBeK (hohth naomaab) coctoht nacTbio H3 aioaeH, koto- 
pbie caMH coctojit b yieHHMecTBe y ZIoKTopa, nacTbio npHHUHriHaab- 
ho He npeay6e:*aeHb. npoTHB «Geheimwissenschaft»; nacTbio sto npo- 
cto He 6oaTaHBbie aioaH; maima TyT ToabKO b tom, hto aeKUHH J\o- 
KTopa H3T>HTbi H3 ny6aHHHoro o6nxoaa h H3aaHbi Ha npaBax pyKonH- 
cefl; ho 3to Ha tom 3Ke ocHOBaHHH, Ha KaKOM pe/ifueuo3HoJ-0u/i[oco- 
0CKoe] O-eo He co6HpaeTca b Mock. Xyao;*ecTBeHHOM Kpy»Ke. Co- 
Bp[eMeHHoe] O-bo HacToabKO norpjnao b npeapaccyaKax, hto coo6- 
maTb eviy hchto, Tpe6yiom.ee aaa BocnpnaTHa h eme MopaabHoft pa- 
6otw Haa co6op h npoBepaeMoe aHuib Ha aHHHOM onbue, — coo6- 

UiaTb 3TO, 3HaHHT BOHCTHHy KOIUyHCTBOBaTb. flOKTOp ot Toanw He 

npaneTca: Ka«abre aBe Heaean b BepaKHe oh He ToabKO HHTaeT ny6- 
aHHHyio aexuHK), ho h npocTpaHHO OTBenaeT c Kacfreapbi Ha Bee npea- 
ao)K^HHbie Bonpocw. AocTyn k OKxynbmmMy otkpwt: Hy>KHa ToabKO 
ao6paa Boaa h annHas HHHUHaTHBa; h aaaee: mepneuue e padome h 
aoBepHe, mto TepneaHBO h 6e3ycneuiHo BeaeHHaa pa6oTa b oahh aeHb 



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aacT cboh naoabi. H TaK HeTepneaHBOCTb, neaoBepue, OTcyTCTBHe 

flo6pOfl BOaH H aHHHOH aKTHBHOft HHHUHaTHBbI CO CTOpOHbl KpHTHKOB 

Geheimwissenschaft mojkct nopoaHTb BnewaTaeHHe, hto TaBHaa HayKa 
aaa wero-TO ynpnmbieaemcn noa cnya. «OKKy.ibmu3M» b cMbicae Ba- 
niero nwcbMa He cyiuecTByeT. 

Heab3H >Ke Beab b caMOM aeae onbiTno paooTaTb b aaoopaTopnn 
co cTyaeHTOM, npeaaaraiouiHM npo4>eccopy Bonpoc: «IloHeMy aTo.M- 
Hbifl Bee cepbi 32, a He 331 >> ripoifceccop Ha 3To otbctht: «Ottoi-o, 
4to 32: 3to (J)aKT, a He pa3MbiujaeHne: n HHCKOJibKo He BHHOBaT, hto 
Baiue weaaHHe, nTo6bi sec aTOMa cepw 6bin =34 no cpaBHeHwo c 
BoaopoaoM, He ocymecTBHMo, n6o Bee cepw =32; h 3to TaK; BaM sto 

MO>KeT HpaBHTbCH H He HpaBHTbCH; MHe TOJKe MO)Kei 3TO He HpaBHTb- 

c«, ho (fiaKm ocmaemen 0akmoM». 

BcnoMHHaio, KaK Henoraa rp[HropHH] Aa[eKceeBim] PamiHCKHft 
komv-to rosopHa: «noie.viy 16 aenecTKOB y Taxoro-To UBetKa JIoto- 
ca, a MO*;eT 6bub 18?» Bonpoc Tp. Aa. PaHHHCKoro ecTb tot we bo- 
npoc CTyaeHTa. Hoktop Ha 3tot Bonpoc aHLUb otbctht: «fl He bhho- 
BaT, hto TaKofi-TO opraH acTpa/ibHoro Teaa TaK-TO nocTpoeH: enpo- 
CHTe 06 stom y Focnoaa Eora: h He Tocnoab Bor, ho h H3ynaa aHaTO- 
mhhd acTp. Teaa; h He a ozihh, a Bee JWHaBiune cmiTaaiicb c TaKOio-TO 
aHaTOMHHecKofl tj)opMoR, a He 3aaKoft». floHMHTe: B03pa>KeHHH, no- 
ao6Hbie npHBeaeHHOMy, OTCKaKHBaK)T ot maunou hovku, KaK aocywee 
cxoaacTHqecKOe H3Mbiuiaenne OTCKaKHBaeT ot (fiaxma, una KaK ropo.x 

OT CTeHbl... 

Tenepb, Koraa h Mbi c Acefi ctohm y npeaaBepua onwTHoft wacTH 
Geheimwissenschaft, HeBbipa3HMo cMeaiHbi HHbie TeopeTHnecKHe 
onpoBep>KeHHfl noaoweHHfi UoKTopa; HanpuMep: b H3bccthom MecTe 
oh roBopHT: «TaKOB (J)aKT, npOBepaeMbifl (nyTb npoBepKH ocTaeTca 

OTKpbITbIM)». A Ha (J)aKT B03pa>KaK)T: «COBMeCTHMO J1H 3T0 yM03pe- 

HHe c KaHOHOM opToaoKcaabHOfi uepKBH?» 3aecb onpoBepweHne JIok- 
Topa yM03pemieM aaa MeHH y*;e celiac npoc'TO cviexoTBopno a Ha- 
noMHHaeT B03pa»ceHHe coBpeMeHHHKOB HHKoaaK) KonepmiKy: «Cob- 
MecTHMo aw c aocTOHHCTBOM CaaBbi Bo/KHefi, H36paBmefi 3eMaio 
ueHTpoM BceaeHHOft, hto 3eMa«, ueHTp BceaeHnofl, 6eraeT BOKpyr 
eoaHua?» Bbi noHHMaeTe, hto HccaeaoBamia KonepbnKa hh y\iaanK>T 
CaaBy Bo>khjo, hh hbho aoKa3biBa»OT ee, moo HccaeaoBaHHH 3th h hc- 
caeaoBaHHH C/iaew Eojtcueu Hecon3MepHMbi: MeToabi HecoH3MepHMbi. 
Mbi 3to 3HaeM Tenepb xopomo o KonepHHKe; ho to we Haao cKa3aTb 

H 06 OKKyabTH3MC 

OKKyabTH3M no3umueeH, a He cnexyvixmueeH h oh hh 3aaeBaeT 
peanrHBD, hh ctpoht ee; npocTo 0KKyabTH3M HecoH3MepHM c me/ie- 
OAoeueii; cBH3b nmo 0KKyabTH3Ma c dn.n neeo — 3to y*ce MeTatj)H3HKa 
ZloKTopa IilTeftHepa; b Mema0u3UKe cBoefi oh (})iiaoco(J), KaK bchkhh 



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apyrofl; npaBaa, oh ctpoht moct: ot OKKyjibTH3Ma, KaK HayKH, k 

MeTa(t>H3HKe H <J)H/IOCO(t)HH HCTOPHH, OT 3THX nOC/ieflHHX K MHCTHKe, H 

ot 3TOfl nocneaHeft k penHrHH h o6paTHO. Ho moct ctpohji h Bji. 
Co/iOBbeB. 

rioftMHTe: Ha3BaTb LIlTeftHepa OKKyjibTHCTOM mojkho: C[epre«] 
H[HKonaeBHHa] ByaraKOBa mo>kho Ha3BaTb nonumuKo-3KOHOMOM, 
\ieHji — ecmecmeoucnbimamesieM, AocToescKoro — unxeHepoM, 
HHunie — npotpeccopoM fyvmonotmi; ho cMbicn aeflTenbHocTH 
C.H. BynraKOBa — pe;iHrH03HO-(J)H^oco(})CKaH aeHTeabHOCTb, numb 
KOCBeHHO OTpa^KawuiaHCH Ha cneuHaabHocTH C.H. (noJiHTHHecKaH 

3KOHOMHH); CMblCJI aeflTejlbHOCTH ZlocToeBCKoro — pe^HrH03HO*- 

xynowecTBeHHbift; h — kto h? ft Mory nncaTb cTaTbH, cthxh, poMa- 
Hbi, KpHTHKy; ho Mory 6biTb h ecTecTBeHHHKOM (Koraa-TO nncaji pe- 
tJ>epaTbi no tJ)H3HKe h 30ojioi~hh). ft h ceftnac Mory B3»Tb h HanncaTb 
CTarbio: «0 nepHOfl[HwecKOH] cHCTeMe 3JieMeHTOB». Kto h? Teor- 
patj)? Xhmhk? nosT? Kphthk? Ee/uieTpHCT? Hoktop IIlTeftHep: yie- 
hhk TeKKenfl h npeKpacHo ocBeaoMJieH o nocne,aHHx HaynHbix OTKpbi- 
thhx; Kpoine Toro: aBa roaa oh nHcaa b ra3eTax peueH3HH Ha khh™ 
nosTOB h Ha TeaTp; cneuwajibHOCTb ero — Geheimwissenschaft, ho 
oh HMeeT nuaMeHHwe pejiHrH03Hbie-(t)HJioco<i)CKHe y6e5K,aeHHH. 

Hbine a ynycb y HoKTopa UlTeftHepa npeaMeTy ero cneiwajibHo- 
cth: h yqeHHK ero b Geheimwissenschaft, KaK 6biji n yneHHKOM npotj). 
AHynHHa h nHcaa nocnejiHeMy co^HHeHHe 06 «Oepaeax»**. H nocKo- 
abKy «0u3uuecKax eeoepa0im» He n3MeHHjia hh KanjiH moh pejiHrH03- 
Hbie, scTeTHHecKHe y6e»iieHHfl, nocTOUbKy Geheimwissenschaft, KaK 
6bi a hh oTnaBancH eft, ocTaBJineT moh cHMnaTHH a aHTHnaTHH b apy- 
thx c<i>epax 3HaHH« h mhcjih; ho Te npHoopeTeHHH b ihcto onbiTHOM 
nyTH, KaKHe MoryT aa» MeHH BCTpeTHTbca, kohchho MoryT B/iHTbCH 
h b moh (J)HJioco(})CKo-3CTeTHqecKHe Bsraaabi, noao6HO TOMy, KaK jiks- 
6oBb k ecTecrB03HaHHK> OTpa3HJiacb (HaaeKDCb ko 6aary) b TBopnecT- 
Be r"ere («H36upame/ibHoe cpodcmeo», «TeopuH ifeemoe», «rio3BO- 
HoiHaH TeopHH nepena» h T.a.). Mwkho hh CKa3aTb: ecTecTB03HaHHe 
nopa6oTHno bo/ik> TfiTe? He CKa3aTb s\n HaoGopoT: OKa3aiio bociih- 
TaTeabHoe 3HaneHHe. 

rioftMHTe: OKKyjibTH3M aaa MeHa cpeacTBo, KaK h aa« AoKTopa 
cpeacTBo. JIoktop — OKKyjibTHCT; ho h — penHrH03Hbift nponoBea- 
hhk, h mhcthk, noao6HO TOMy KaK C.H. ByaraKOB hojihthko-skohom; 
ho penHrH03HOCTb C.H. peTpocneKTHBHo npeaoMHjia ero nojiHTHne- 



■ B KOHue .iHCTa pyKofl Ee.ioro HanwcaHo: «(npoaoji)KeHHe b apyroM KOHBepTe)». 
Ha c;iefly>omeM 3a hhm .nHCTe HanwcaHo: «(npoflOJD«eHHe)». 

** Bejibiti nHcan cBoe KaHjmaaTcicoe coinHeHne «06 OBparax» npoij). Hmhtphki 
HiiKOJiaeBHMy AHyiHHy. Cm. HA PYEEWE JJByX CTOJIETHH (M.-Jl., 1931), 
c.452-460. 



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CKHe B3n«mbi, xax npejxae noAumimecKM jkohomim BJiHHjia Ha nyTb, 
Ha TOHyc noflxo*aeHHH k pejiHrH03HOtt npo6jieMe Boo6me; Tax ok- 
KyAbmu3M floKTopa OKa3feiBan bjihhhhc Ha monyc ero xacaHHfl npo- 
6neMbi pejiHrH03HOtt; h o6paTHo: xpHCTHaHCxaa nponoBeab XloxTopa 
OTpa*aeTC« HWHe Ha B3rji«aax ero o 3aaaiax h ueaax Geheimwissen- 
schaft. OKKyjibTH3M h pejiHrHH b toh ace Mepe conpHKacaeMbi, xax 
conpHxacaeMa pejiHrHH c BonpocaMH nojiHTHnecKofl skohomhh: co- 
npuKacaeMbi, ho He cMeuiHBaeMw. H Moe aoBepne k JloxTopy b c(J>epe 
Geheimwissenschaft conpnxacaeMo c mohm BocToproM no OTHouie- 
hhk) ero MHCTHiecKOH h peJiHrH03Hofi mhcchh: conpHKacaeMbi, ho He 
CMeuiHBaeMbi: b o6aacTH Geheimwissenschaft x ynycb y JIoxTopa; b 
o6nacT«x mhcthkh, pejiHrHH, a Bocropraiocb, corjiauiaiocb, cnopio, 
cpaBHHBaio cbok) TOHKy 3peHH« c ero, 6epy ito MHe Haao, h T.a. Ave- 
nue h jno6oBHoe aoBepne, Geheimwissenschaft h HHflHBHflyajibHaa 
MHCTHxa ZIoKTopa He CMeiuHBaK)TCii b aymax ero yuenuKoe; ceo6oda 
jiHHHoro noiHHa, CBo6oaa mwcjih, othouichhh k ZIoxTopy 6e3rpa- 

HHHHblJ HHHUHaTHBa aHHHafl, TBOp>ieCTBO JIHIHOe JIHUIb OKpbIJIHK>TCH 

y floKTopa: kto stoto He noHHMaeT, tot HHMero He noHHMaeT hh b 
ZloKTope, hh b yneHunecmee y AoxTopa. 

Te hjih HHbie MeToabi okk. pa6oTbi MHe HyxHbi: h floxTop, aaBan 
MHe yxasaHHj} ynoao6jiHeTc» npo<}>eccopy, aaiomeMy yxa3aHHfl yntmi- 
xy, BeaymeMy caMOCTOHTejibHyio pa6oTy no xhmhh: npoifceccop mo- 
*eT aaTb, Kax onbiTHeftujHH, cobct, Tax-TO 3arn6aTb cTexaHHHyio 
Tpy6oMxy, Tax-To BbinapHBaTb jkhaxocth: ho sth yxa3aHH« TexHHne- 
cxHe, He BJiHmoiuHe na Bbi6op h poa pa6oTbi. Hh o xaxoM MOHacTbipe, 
hh o xaxoft OTflane bojih He MO»eT 6biTb penn; ecan h — 3eMjia, Ha 
xoTopoft pacTyT nBeTbi, to a — 3eMjia — Mory npocHTb xHMHMecxoro 
yao6peHHa; Te hjih HHbie cobctw HoxTopa xacaioTca o xapaxTepe 
yao6peHHH 3Cmjih: a ito Ha stoh 3eMae pacTeT: UBeTbi hjih nepTono- 

JIOXH, 3TO y»e OT MeH» aHHHO 3aBHCHT. 

BauiH cnoBa 06 OTaane bo;ih BnojiHe noHaTHbi, h6o ohh ecTecT- 
BeHHO B03HHxaK)T b TyMaHe MoexoBexoro, npeflB3«Toro, XHMepHHe- 
cxoro, yMcmeeHHoeo u mo/ibKo yMcmeeHHoeo npeacTaBaeHHa o ZI,ok- 
Tope h ero nyTH. CaeayeT jinnib pa3 .hhhho yBHaeTb AoxTopa hjih pa3 
noroBopHTb c hhm, 4To6bi noHHTb 6ecnoneeHHOcmb h cxo/iacmun- 

HOCmb MHeHHH, 6yaTO flCJIO flOKTOpa — MOHaCTbipb, a He CTpOHTejIb- 

ctbo hoboh, penueuo3HOu xyjibTypw, a nyTb k JJoxTopy — OTaana 

BOnH, BMeCTO yBejlHHeHHH TBOpneCXOH He3aBHCHMOCTH. 

ila bot BaM: «Hh oahh yMHTejib 3COTepH3Ma, aaBaa sth npaBH/ia 

(T.C MeflHTaUHH, XOHIieHTpaUHH, XOHTeMnjlHUHH), He HMeeT B BHfly 

nocpeacTBOM hhx rocnoacTBOBaTb Haa aioabMH. Hhkto He ueHHT h He 
oxpaHaeT HenoBenecxyio caMOCToaTeabHOCTb, xaK ynHTeaa oxxyabTH- 
3Ma... OpaeH, o6HHMaK>mHfi Bcex nocBameHHbix, oxpyaceH ctchoh... 



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Ecjih we nocBHiueHHbift BbicTynHT H3 3aMKHyToro npocTpaHCTBa Ha- 
py>Ky h BOftneT b o6iueHHe c aioabMH, Toraa mm Hero bxoaht b cway 
TperHfl cTporHtt 3aKOH: «Ha6/iK)dau 3a xcutcdbiM meouM deucmeueM 
«... cnoeoM, man, umo6bi nepe3 me6n hu oduh nenoeeK He ucnbimbt- 
ea.i daenenue na ceo6odnoe peuienue ceoeu eomi»... («I7ymb x IJo- 
cemneHUK)» pycc. nep. ctp.64) h aaaee: «Kto y6eaHTCH, hto ynHTeab 
3COTepH3Ma npoHHKHyr hmchho raKHM HacTpoeHHeM, tot He oyaeT 
onacaTbca 3a cbokd caMOCTOHTejibHOCTb, Koraa nocaeayeT npaKTHne- 
ckhm npaBH-iaM, KOTopbie eMy npeaaaraK>TCH» (TaM we, CTp.64). 
y6eaHJicfi an a, hto 3to rax? Cjihuikom ySeaHaca, h6o ctuiuikom bh- 
aen afoaefi BOKpyr, TpareaHH KOTopbix He b tom, hto ZIoktop CBH3bi- 
BaeT bojik), a b tom, hto hc 6epeT HacTOHMHBo npeaaaraeMOft bohh h 
yKJiOHJieTca B.iHHTb Ha to hjih HHoe peuieHHe. 

A hto ZIoktop lllTeflHep — nocBameHHWH, to 3to TaK we MHe hc- 
ho, KaK Hanp. to, hto Hnuiue He Qeidapnocmb. 3to y>K — no3BoabTe 
MHe 3Hamb: whbx b 6bimy oKpyweHHH JloKTopa Mbi npHBWKiiH npo- 
cto CMOTpeTb Ha maxue tfianmbi aoKa33TeabCTBa 3Toro, hto npH.xo- 
hhtch ycn.TeHHo 3aepaoKdamb ceou ycma MOJinaHHeM aa6bi He npo- 
c;ibJTb aawe nepea oaHwafiuuHMH apy3b»MH aryHOM. BenbMbi, yneHH- 
kh HoKTopa, Haxo/iHMCH nozi HenpepbiBHbiM aowaeM nenenuu, hj 
KOTopbix Kawaoe e Mupe ceM cohjih 6bi 3a nyao: u eom mo, mv.o mm 
moahum 06 3moM , aa6bi Hac He Ha3BaaH aryHaMH h aa6bi TeHb map- 
.naTaHH3Ma ot HauiHX coo6meHHft He naaa Ha HoKTopa LUTettHepa 
(n6o aawe Bbi MHe He noBepHUH 6bi, ecjiH 6bi h BaM paccjca3aa Bee 
peajibHO-HyaecHoe, 6biBiiiee c HaMH 3a 3th 8 MecaueB) — 3to bot 
ebiHyxcdeHHoe MOAHdHue, TarocTHoe (h6o tvt Heab3« roBopHTb, a Ha- 
ao BMecTe eudemb a ocx3amb, T.e. npHHTH k .HoKTopy) h HBaHeTca 
TeM ydueiinmmuM (JjaKTOM, hto yneHHxa HoKTopa UlTeftHepa mwkho 
o6jiHBaTb rpajioM aoKaiaTeabHeftuiHx paccywaeHHfl o tom, hto uiTeft- 
nepbHHCTBo cxonacTHKa, hto oho OTBepraeT 6aaroaaTb, hto oho — 
6e3 TBopnecTBa, cxeMaTHHHo: yneHHK HoKTopa IUreflHepa, ecan oh 
pea.ibHbiu yneHHK, a He ToabKO naen ero O-Ba, — yneHHK /loKTopa 
UlTeftHepa 6yaeT cuaeTb h Moana yabi6aTbcn: cjibima yMcmeoeanuH 
oh 6yaeT BcnoMHHaTb nepejicumbie (fiaxmbr, h bmccto bchkoi"o B03pa- 
weHHH cxaweT: «I"IoexaaH 6bi Bbi caMH k HoKTopy, a iiotom h noro- 

BOpHM». 

HecooTBeTCTBHe khhwhoh kphthkh h ziocywero pasrjiaroabCTBo- 
BaHHH no noBoay HanenaTaHHbix ero KHHr c peaabHO nepewHTbiM h 
6aaroflaTHO nyaecHbiM — bot rny6oKHK HenepecTynaeMbifi poB Mew- 
ay yneHHKOM AoKTopa h HeyneHHKOM. 

Bbnpoc o tom, 3HaeT nn /Ioktop, Kyaa BeaeT oh (Baui Bonpoc) 
ecTb b cyuiHOCTH Bonpoc o tom: nocBHiueHHbift nu JHoktop? 



432 



R TyT He Mory y6e*aaTb hjih pa3y6«K,aaTb, a Bbi He MOKeTe hh 
BepHTb, hh He BepHTb. fl Mory jiHuib CBHfleTejibCTBOBaTbr«^7a, — oh 
noceMUfeHHbiu». H KaK BcxKoe peajibHoe cBHfleTejibCTBo, cBH/wxejib- 
ctbo Moe 6yfleT tckctom H3 nooiaHHH Eb. HoaHHa: «0 moM, nmo eu- 
de/iu, tmo ocnsanu pyxaMu ceouMu». 

IlpoTHBHHKH .ZJoKTopa Bee To^bxo roBopuT, a yieHHKH ero MOJI- 
4aT, ho: «eudfim u ocx3aiom». Ottoi-o-to BeiHoe HeaoyMeHHe cnop- 
iuhkob: hm xaxceTCfl, mto ohh b jiock yjioacHJiH iiiTeflHepbHHCTBO, a 
yneHHK ZIoKTopa (bh.idjt ohh) rjia30M He MoprneT. Tor^a cjiopiimkh 
roBopHT: «IIlTeHHepbHHCTBO rH6ejibHo oTpaacaeTCH Ha caMOCTOHTejib- 
hocth, nopa6oiuaeT bojiio h Mbicjn>». Ohh He nofl03peBaK>T, hto He 
b uiTettHepbHH-«CTBe» aejio, a b /mhhocth nocexuteHHoeo. Hoktop 
IIlTettHep Tax *e aaneK ot HapncoBaHHoro o6pa3a ero, BCTaiomero co 
cjiob oneBHaueB, cjiynaftHo conpHKOCHyBiiiHXCH c hhm, KHHr hjih pac- 
cyataeHHR, KaK Monpea/ibcKuu Co6op, okojio KOToporo, dim xomopo- 

20 npOXCHJIH Mbl 10 aHett B XOJIOflHOH KOMHaTe, OT OTKpblTOK, H30- 

6pa*aiomHX co6op, KOTopwe mm nocbijiajiH b MocKBy. MHe He Hpa- 

BHTCH OTKpblTKa, CKa»CeT T.A. PaiHHCkHH; MHe HC HpaBHTCH caM 

co6op, CKa*eT 3[mhjihh] KfapnoBHi] MeTHep; B03pa*eHHe Tp. AJiex- 
ceeBHiy: Ha OTKpbiTKe jiohcho pacnojioaceHbi KpacKH; B03pa>KeHHe 
3.K. MeTHepy: Bbi yBHfl&nH BHeiiiHOCTb co6opa, a BHeiiiHOCTb — apa6- 
CKaji; h bw npouuiH mhmo; BHyTpeHHOCTb Me co6opa — ocnenHTenb- 
Hax BH3aHTHftcKaa MOsaHKa. 

MoHpeajibCKHfl co6op — Aoktop; otkpmtkh co6opa — Hanena- 
TaHHbie KHHrH h aa»e... uhkhw (aonycTHM); BHeiiiHOCTb co6opa — 
ZIoktop UlTefiHep Ha ny6jiHiHbix jickuhhx h npn mhmojicthom 06- 
meHHH. 

Tenepb B03bMHTe hctophio HCKyccTB h Bw yBHflHTe: MOHpeajib- 
ckhh co6op 3HaMeHHT CBoett BHyTpeHHOCTbio: BHyTpn ero — nymuca 
euzaHtnuucKan M03auxa Mupa. BHyTpeHHOCTb uiTeftHepbjmcTBa, ero 

CBHUieHHafl M03aHKa eCTb rjiy60KOXpHCTHaHCKHH, KaTaCTpO(J>HHeCKHH 

cmmcji caMofl jiHiHocTH floKTopa; meocotfiw JJoKtnopa — apa6cKaa 
BHeiiiHOCTb xpHCTHaHCKoro co6opa (KCTaTH: floKTop Bee nopBaji c 
meoco0ueu: BOCTOHHyio MyapocTb oh Ha3Ba^ 3acoxinefi cmokobhh- 
ueft); a Geheimwissenschaft — HCKaaceHHbie oTKpbiTKH co6opa. 



Bot BHflHTe cKO^bKo, poaHajj; h Bee no noBoay oaHoro criOBa: 
«OKKy/ibmu3M». H 3to Bee am Toro, HTo6bi BaM CTajio hcho, KaK 
aeHb, ito h He xony hh npeyB&nHiHBaTb 3HaieHHH stoh o6jiacTH 3Ha- 
hhh, hh cMeuiHBaTb oKxyjibTH3Ma c pejiHrHefi; hh, TeM 6ojiee, npeyMa- 
jiHTb o6i>eKTHBHoro 3HaieHHH ajiH Ky^bTypbi 6yaymero hcthhhmx 
4>opM 3toh HayKH. fleftcTBHTexibHo: ecjiH OKKyjibTH3M ecTb HayKa, 

15 MHiiyBiiiEE 433 



T.e. ec/iH oh onHpaeTca Ha onbim, Kaic HayHHaa cHCTeMaTHKa 3Toro 
oribiTa, ero 3HaneHHe rpoMaaHO. J\nn npo<J)aHOB h TeopeTHHecKH cy- 
ahiuhx 06 OKKyjibTH3Me ero BOBce He cymecTByeT; ana Hac, yneHHKOB 
ZIoKTopa, oh — ecTb (h Ha oTpHuaHHe (J)aKTa ero cymecTBOBaHHH Mbi, 
yneHHKH /IoKTopa, 3aHBa«eM: npnxoaHTe k /JoKTopy, noacHBHTe c Ha- 
mh, b Harnett pa6oneH aTMoc(J)epe — Taic CKa3aTb b aa6opaTopHH — 
h Bonpoc aa« Bac caM co6ok> peuiHTCH); a pa3 oh ecTb, — ecTb, KaK 
Hayxa, to rpoMaaHoe 3HaneHHe ero ann aHaTOMHH, <{>H3HoaorHH neao- 
BenecKoro Teaa (xoth 6bi) rpoMaaHO: xenepb MUKpo6uo/ioeux h 6ax- 
mepuo/ioeivt roBopjiT HaM o aeHTeabHOCTH MHKpoopraHH3MOB h o po- 
jih hx b >kh3hh (J)H3HMecKoro opraHH3Ma; 6opb6a 6oae3Hefi nepeHo- 
chtch k 6opb6e c HCTOHHHKaMH 6oae3HH: nyTeM peryjiHpoBaHHH ae- 

HTeJIbHOCTH MHKpOOpraHH3MOB B Teae MeHHHKOB C03flaeT MeiTy o 

bo3mo»hocth yaaHHeHHH HeaoBenecKoro B03pacTa. Tenepb nepeHe- 
ceM pacniHpeHHbiH b 6aKTepHoaorHH AHana30H MeaHUHHbi Ha noHBy 
OKKy^bTH3Ma; conocTaBHM yneHne 0KKyjibTH3Ma, ocHOBaHHoe Ha 
onbime, hto caMbifl <J)H3H4ecKHH opraHH3M ecTb ynaoTHeHHoe sae- 

MCHTHOe TeJIO, HTO <t)H3HHeCKOMy Cepaiiy COOTBeTCTByeT 3{J)HpHOe, H 

hto CBH3b Me>Kfly TeM h apyrHM TaKaa »<e, KaK Mea<ay Boaoft h naa- 
BajouiHM b Heft H3 Hee BbiKpHCTaaaH30BanHbiM k>'ckom abaa, hto 
pa6oTa« Haa 3<J)HpHbiM tcjiom, co3HaTeabHO ynpaBjiHH h opraHH30- 
BbiBaa nocaeaHee mm npe3 opraHH3auHKi nocaeaHero npH6aH>KaeMCH 
no HHOMy h k (J)H3HHecK0My — noHMHTe CBH3b Tea, noflMHTe, HTO 
aHaTOMHH h q3H3HoaorHfl noaaHHHoro TeaecHO-MHorococTaBHoro ne- 
aoBeKa 3HanHTejibHo oTaHnaeTCH ot Tex o6pbiBKOB (J)H3HoaorHH h 
aHaTOMHH, KOTopbie ycTaHOBHMbi, npn aHanH3e BHaHMoro Teaa (J)H3H- 
necKoro, h Bbi Ha 3tom aHiub noaoweHHH coraacHTecb; h cKa)KeTe: 
«FIpH ycaoBHH cymecTBOBaHHJi 3<})HpHoro Teaa, sto sHaneHHe oKKyab- 

TH3Ma, KaK 3HQHUA /lUUib* , 6e3MepHO» . Ho flJlH yHeHHKa OK[KynbT- 

hoh] iiiKonbi cymecT&OBaHHe 3Q3[HpHoro] Teaa (aawe aan mchh) ecTb 
He ToabKo aoKa3aHHbift, ho u auhho npoeepenHbiu <J)aKT: caeaoBa- 
TeabHO ycnoenocmb cymecTBOBaHHH npeBpamaeTca aaH mchh b Hayn- 
Hyio HCTHHy; caeaoBaTeabHO — poab OKKyabTH3Ma, KaK HayKH 6yay- 
mero — b 6yaymeM npeBocxoaHT aaa mchh Bee cMeabie chw, KaKHMH 
6bi HBHaHCb aa« neaoBeKa XV CToaeTHa aocTH«eHHa ecTecTB03Ha- 
hhh XIX cToaeTHH. M3o6pa>KaK) rpacJjHnecKH coothoiuchmh Tea; 06b- 
eKTHBHO, b npocTpaHCTBeHHOM oTHoiueHHH Ka»aoe Teao 6oaee hh>kc 
ae>Kamero: ecan «a» <J)H3H4ecKHft neaoBeK, to «b» sqbHp- 

Hbift: ;'f?t ft /I «c» — acTpaabHbift: f,^\ 

m b # HT - a - 

_«• x m 

* 06jiacTb Bepu h peiiHrH03Hbifl momcht h noKa ami npocTOTM HCK.nicmaio H3 
OKxynbTH3Ma. (flpHMeMaHHn Eejioro). 



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ApxHTpaB Ha« ^eTBepToii h nflToii xaroHHaMH 6o;ibiiioro Kynana 

b nepBOM TeTeaHyMe. HanpaBo: Kanirre/ib c mothbom «Mapc»; 

Ha^eBo: Kanirre/ib c mothbom «MepKypm"i». 




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AHflpefl Ee/ibift. Phcvhok Ach TypreHeRoii (1909). 



3th BbicuiHe Tejia, Tax cica3aTb TopiamHe H3 (JjH3HijecKoro, npoHH3W- 
Baa me/io (j)H3HKecKoe h npoHuuaa apyr apyra, othochtch apyr k apy- 
ry, Kax zied k aode, eoda k eodnn. napy, nap k eajy h r.a. h cocTaBJiH- 
K3T OKpyjKeHHe HejioBeKa, T.e. ero aypy (BHanyK) npH H3BecTHbix ynpa- 
)KHeHHHx); ho b3hb HanpHMep cepuue, mm mojkcm, npHHHMaa bo bhh- 
MaHHe npHHUHn npoHH3biBaHHfl oxmoro Terra apyrHM bmccto cymecT- 
Byiomeft aHaTOMHHecKOH cxeMbi: CO <j)H3HMecKoe cepaue 

aaTb CJieayKJiuyio cxeMy: 

acTpa/ibHoe 

3(J)HpHOe 



cJ)H3HHecKoe cepaue 



BHflHTe: bch cxervia mchhctch: MeToabi MeziHUHHbi 6yflymero (HbiHe 
eme 3apoflbimH oK[KyjibTHOH] MeaHUHHbi) jjenHKaTHee h TOHbiue. Ec- 

JIH >Ke npHHHTb BO BHHMaHHe, HTO HeM Bblllie BOCXOflHM Mbl ot Tejia 

k Terry, TeM 6onee KpoBHa cB«3b Me*ay npupodHo-3aKOHHbiM h 

MOpa/lbHO-HdCmpOeHHblM, BOnpOC O CBH3H yCJlOJKHHTCH. OKKy.lbTH3M 

paccMaTpHBaeT no/uiHHHoe «#», KaK MOHaay, Jiewamyio Ha rpaHHue 
Me>K,ay moHKou me/iecnocmbio h hhctwm ayxoM; Bee, hto HHa<e n, 
ayiueBHo, h aajiee: aymeBHO-TejiecHo; h HaKOHeu Te/iecHo; Bbiiue — 
HaaHHaHBH/iya^bHaH cthxhh ayxa b nenoBeKe h mhp aHrexibCKHx Hepap- 
xhh b ero OKpy>KeHHH. Ho ayajiH3M Me>Kay TenecHbiM h nyxoBHbiM b 
«>7» nponaaaeT: «>7» — He pa3flBoeHO. 

TaKOBa cxeMa: ctfcepa HanHHAHBHayajibHoro 

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;cj)epa «>7» 
cc£>epa AyiueBHoro 

C(})epa TOHKOH Te/ieCHOCTH 

h;ih TcriecHoft jjyiueBHOCTH 



■ '- J Te.no 

Mhokd paccTaBneHbi 6yKBbi: 
«a» <})H3HHecKoe TeJio 

«b» 3(})HpHOe TejlO, TCTIO BOdTOMHHaHHH (StJwpHbrft M03T nodnuH- 

Hbiu opean MbiiunenuH, a $u3uuecKuu M03e rpy6eHuiHH HHCTpyMeHi) 
«c» acTpajibHoe Teno — reno nyecmea (h6o ca.Mbie jjieMen- 

TapHbie qyBCTBa ecTb Bee eme Te.iecHaH MaTepHajibHOCTb) 

«d» me.no mnc/iu (h6o h o6bmHa« Mbicrib ecTb sui generis MaxepH- 

ajiH3auHa) 

«e» noanHHHoe n h r.a. 



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BHflHTe: «/7» npHnoflHHTo Haa tcjiom, Mbicabio, HyBCTBOM; aaace 

MblCJlfe JIHIUb Te/ieCHOCTt; H npHHXB BO BHHMaHHe npOHHUaeMOCTb 

Tea apyr apyroM, Mbi aa» HopM&ribnoft OKKyabTHoft pa6oTbi aoawHbi 
ana TeaecHoro eoomuo Ha6aioaeHHH Haa o6i>eKTaMH OKKyjibTH3Ma 
pa6oTaTb yace b o6aacTH MopaabHoro oiHiueHHH ce6»; TaKaa Mopajib 
— Mopaab OKKy^bTH3Ma — ecTb aawe eiue He Mopaab, a npocTo th- 
rHeHa; h eft rpom ueHa, ho ec/iH TaKOft MopajiH epout ifeHa, 3to 
He 3HaHHT eiue, hto 3a npeaeaaMH oKKyabTH3Ma, KaK HayKH, HeT mo- 
pajiH, hto OKKy^bTH3M aMopaaeH: Hayxa hh MopaabHa, hh aviopaabHa 
b cMbic/ie BbicoKOft HejioBenecKofl Mopaan; oKKyjibTH3M ZloKTopa 
nuHnyio jmuKy hh3boaht c BbicoKoro nbeaecTaaa Mopa/iu no noHHTHH 
eueueHbi h Mep npeaocTopowHOCTH (He Kypn Haa 6ohkoh c nopoxoM, 

He ynnOTHHft MblCaH >KH3HeHHbIMH MblC/IHMH H T.fl.) flHH TOrO, HTo6bl 

b MeTac{)H3HKe h penmuu npHHHTb KaK Mopaab 6e3rpaHHHHyjo 6oxce- 
cmeeHHyio /uo6oeb. 

BocriHTaHHe *e b ce6e MOHacTbipcKoft, aHHHO-3roHCTH4ecKOft 
MopaaH, KaK uejiH, /Ioktop ocy>KflaeT: bot hto /Ioktop tobopht npo 
maxyK) Mopa/ib, Mopaab B3«TyK>, KaK uoea: «JIh3HM, HayiHHe HCKaio- 
HHTe^bHo nyTeM uoeu, 6biTb mojkct h HaxoaaT b ce6e aymeBHoe Ten- 
no, ho ohh ywe He yMeiOT nepeaaTb CBoero Tenaa apyrHM; 6aecK h 
BejiHKOJienHe MHpa nnn hhx racHeT; mhp OTBaaHBaeTca ot hhx; ohh 
ocTaroTCH b caMHx ce6e: TaKOBa ynaerb MHornx coBpevteHHbix uoeu- 
cmoe; ropawe co6ofl, sfohcthhcckh 3aMKHyTbie b cbohx BocTOprax, 

OHH CKHTaK3TCJJ cpeflH HaC KaKHMH-TO 6aeaHMMH TeHHMH, HenOHHTbie 

HHKeM. He noHHMaKjuiHe HHKoro». (M3 Ke/ibHCKoro Kypca). 

Henero roBopHTb, hto caM /Ioktop — noaHoe BonaoiueHHe npo- 
THBonono>KHoro: c yTpa ao Benepa c aroabMH, aecflTb jieT pa3pbiBae- 
Mbift Ha nacTH, eayiuHfl c aeKUHH Ha Kypc, c Kypca Ha aeKUHH), cnmuHfi 
b noe3iie, aecaTb JieT o6i>e3>KaK)mHH EBpony: ao bot xoth 6w nocaea- 
hh« KycoK BHeiiJHeft aenTeJTbHOCTH /JoKTopa. Aeeycm: nniueT HOByro 

MHCTepHK), CTaBHT BCe TpH MMCTepHH (Ka>Kflblft fleHb HBe peneTHUHH, B 
npOMOKyTKe 3TOrO BpeMeHH: pun HHTHMHblX CBHaaHHH; HOHbK) nHUJeT 

h /3TO Meway HaMH/ hbjihctch b CHax yneHHKaM); c 17 aBrycTa mh- 
cTepHH. C 20 asrycTa Kypc neKUHft «0 nocB«meHHH». CeHiwtdpb. T\o- 
cae MfOHxeHCKoro UHKaa 10 aHeft pa6oTaeT b MioHxeHe, 3a 3to BpeMH 
npHHHMaeT 260 neaoBeK, H3 kotopwx Kaacabifl eMy HeceT noc/iednee. 
C cepeaHHbi ceHT»6p» Kypc b Ba3eae; b Ba3e;ie 150 CBHaaHHfl; nocae 
ABe H&nejiH oTflbixa; h aajiee: KHraeT ny6jiH4Hbie h hhthmhwc jickuhh 
b JlyraHO, b MnnaHe. OKrrvidpb. Pa3pa)KaeTCfl hctoph» c Be3aHT, 
ceKpeTapcKHe o6h33hhocth; eaeT Ha ickuhh b npoMe>KyTKe b Jleftn- 
UHr h ravi6ypr. HHTaeT nepe3 iiBe Heae^H aeKUHH b ao>Ke h 4epe3 aBe 
HeaeaH ny6aH4Hbie b Bepawne, npaBHT KoppeKTypy HOBoro H3aaHHH 
Geheimwissenschaft, nporaaTbrnaeT paa KHHr (h6o 3a BceM caeaHT 

436 



jihiho), opraHH3yeT «AHmponoco0unecKoe 06ufecmeo». Hoxdpb: 
JleKijHH b Eep/iHHe, MajieHbKHH Kypc b Mtonxene (Ha CBHaaHHH y /Iok- 
Topa BeHHO TOJina >K/iymHX npHeMa: no 20-30 icnoBeK acayT nacaMH). 
M onHTb: nexuHH b EepjiHHe. JJeKadpb: pan jickuhh b EepjiHHe. Ph/j 
jieKUHH b IllBeKuapHH: LUopnx, BepH, HeBiiiaTenb h ewe b KaKHX-TO 
uiBeftuapcKHx ropo/iax; jictht k PowaecTBy b BepnHH, rae onHTb-Ta- 
kh )KayT: ny6/iHHHaji jickuhh, HHTHMHaa /ickixhh b jioace, po>K/j.ecTBeH- 
cxa» jiexuHH b jio>Ke, HaxoHeu npasziHHMHaH jickuhh b /io>Ke ana oahho- 
ko ce6a 3a rpaHHueft MyBCTByiomHx HHOCTpaHueB-Teoco(t)OB (ann Hac 
b tom HHcne). M TOTHac »e KenbHCKHH Kypc (5 JieKUHH h 2 ny6jiH4- 
Hbix). Biepa HOHbio Mbi npnexanH noTpaceHHbie KypcoM (mu pa36HTbi 
jiHiiib cnyuiaa floKTopa), a y» 3aBTpa — JieKUHH b noa<e, wepe3 3 ana 
ny6/iHHHaH JieKUHH «Muccuh Pa$a3/iM»; a ywe He/je/m 4epe3 ziBe-Tpn 
HOBaa noe3flKa HoKTopa: b HettnuHr, b Beny, b pun aBerpHHCKHx 
ropoflKOB h oTTyaa b IIlTyTrapT; Ha HeMeuKOfl riacxe, Ka*eTc«, ho- 
Bbift 6onbiuoH Kypc b AMCTepaaMe, noTOM b Phmc, h t./j. 

Bot OTpbiBOK (3a HecKO/ibKO MecaueB) o6mecTBeHHoft aeHTenb- 
hocth AoKTopa; a Be/jb Tax XIoktop — 10 jieT. 3a sto BpeMH npoHTe- 

Hbl COTHH ny6HHHHbIX JieKUHft, XieCflTKH TblCHH npOUIJlH HHTHMHblX 
CBHJjaHHH H JieCHTKH HHTHMHeHHIHX, rOHOBOKpy)KHTejlbHbIX KypCOB. 

Bo BpeMH nncaHHH MHcrepHH b MiOHxeHe JIoktqp no/imopa Ateanfa 
0aKmimecKu we UMe/i epeMenu cnamb. ripn 3tom: 6bicTpbiH, i"h6khh, 
MOJioMcaBbiH, o6mHTe/ibHbiH, BecejibiK; Ha nexuHHx ronoc rpeMHT; b 
rna3ax maKou /iK>6eu k nejiOBeKy h hh y Koro, HHKorna He BHflan: Ha 
Poa<.aecTBe oh Tax roBopHJi o jik>6bh, wto HaM c Acefl, eudaeiuuM 
eudbi npocTO, no-My>KHUKH-no-flypauKH, xoTe/iocb peeemb ot xopo- 
mero, xopomero nyBCTBa. FIpHHHMaji cothh Jiro/jeft, Ka*floro OTnyc- 
KaeT noTpaceHHoro, pa/jocTHoro: BOKpyr 3Toro HejioBexa nocTonHHo 
BoaoBopoT H3MeH«iomeHCH MejiOBenecKOH cy,ab6bi: 6jiy/iHHKH, rpem- 
hhkh pbiaaiOT h KaioTca; yMHbie yMa/iaioTCfl h roBop«T «<imo \iyd- 
pocmb eem ceso», He6ojibmoH, o6H«eHHbift cyab6oH nenoBeK okoao 
AoKTopa HaHHHaer pacTH. 

A Bbi, MHjiaH, o KaKOft-TO TaM KaTaKOM6e, h rHepaTH3Me: JXov.- 
top He noTOMy ana mcha euepo0aHm, hto b ero KHHrax mo>kho bm- 
HHTaTb «ecT Myaporo bc/ihhhh, a noTOMy oh ana mchh ymunenb, ito 

BCeK) >KH3HbK> CBOefi OH TOJIbKO H fle/iaeT, 4T0 OMblBaeT 6onbHbie H 

ycTanbie Horn yneHHKOB. 

A y Hac b MocKBe, noKypHBaa, 3a iaeM 3aHHMaK>TCH tcm, mto 
He noHHMaa, He bh/jh, He 3Ha» 3Toro nejioBeKa, poKaaroT yMCTBeH- 
Hyro KaHHTeab, He HMeiomyjo HHwero o6mero c .Hoktopom. He yaHBH- 
TenbHo: yneHHKH JIoKTopa IIlTeftHepa, cayiuas MHorae «}>MHbie» 
paccyjKaeHHH o «Ko6bi rHepo(J)aHTHMecKOH /jeHTejibHOCTH ZIoKTopa, 
TonbKO MOJinaT: ecjiH 6bi noHHJiH hctoihhk Toro paBHO/jyuiHH, c Ka- 



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khm rieTpoBCKHfl HanpHMep cjiyuiaeT penn o «iumeiiHepu3Me» h npe- 
cnoKOftHo ce6e mojihht, noTarHBaH naft, to efl-Bory, CMyTHJiHCb 6bi. 

Beflb y MeH« peflKaa cnoco6HOCTb: nncaTb nncbMO b 40 CTpaHHU 
o6T>acHHiomee o ZIoKTope to, 4to ana yneHHKOB /JoKTopa ecTb caMo 
co6oft pa3yMeioiueecH. 

H6o caMo co6ofl pa3yMeeTC«: «OKKyjibTH3M» £loKTopa ero «no- 
cemyeHHOcmbv h «Mydpocmb», oceemneubi u coepentbi dnn nac eeo 
MupcKou dexme/ibHocntbK), caMOomeepxeHueM u 6e3MepHou, xpucmu- 
ohckou AK)6oebK> k ne/ioeexy. 

MHoroo6pa3Hee 3Toro qejioBeica a He 3Haio: b npoMOKyTKax 
MOKiiy eceM BaacHbiM oh — bo3htch c iieTbMH, BbiKanbiBaeT h cTaBHT 
KpecTbHHCKoe npocnaBneHHe PowflecTBeHCKoft 3Be3flbi no o6pa3y 

KpeCTbHHCKHX MHCTepHH BeHTpHH, 3aHHMaeTCfl J1HHHO cMeuieHHeM 

KpacoK, HHTaeT ernneTCKHe rnepornHtJibi, H3o6peTaeT KaKHe-TO HOBbie 
KpacKH, npeKpacHO 3HaeT hctophio jkhbohhch; no ero MeToay rae-TO 
nocTpoeHa MejibHHua c hobojo chctcmoh BpameHba KOJiec. Aoktop 
IIlTeftHep: MaTeMaTHK, ecTecTBOHcnbiTaTejib, 3HaTOK reTe, jiK)6HTenb 

HOBa^HCa, JIHHHO 3HaKOMblft C HeMeUKHMH n03TaMH-MOflepHHCTaMH, 

6biBiiJHH 3HaTOK TeaTpa, 6biBUJHH BocnHTaTe^b (BocnHTaji uduoma: 
Tenepb «uduom» Ka>KeTca pa3yMHbifl nejiOBeK); KpoMe Toro, oh aaeT 
yica3aHHfl /JoKTopy nafinepcy (yneHHKy), KaK nojib30BaTbca MeToaaMH 

OKKy/IbTHOft MeflHUHHbl, JIHHHO 3HaeT UeJie6Hbie CBOHCTBa pacTeHHfl. 

A bot H3 06/iacTH aHeK/jOTHqecKoro: aim oahoh H3 nocTaBJieHHbix 
MHCTepHft HyacHa 6bijia KapTHHa: Kpacxa He y/jaBajiacb xyao>KHHKy; 
npeacTaBbTe: b 2 iaca HanHcaji KapTHHy — caM: h co cueHbi, H3flanH, 
OHa Bbirjia/je/ia npeHHTepecHo; Ha peneTHLwax — caM 3aBepTbiBaji 
cKjiaaKH KOCTH3MOB. no/ryMafiTe: a Tamy AoKTopy TO/icTbie TeTpa/jH 
cbohx cxeM, h Aca — TO»e, 3juihc — TO»e: Ka>Kflbift HeceT eMy cboc 

Ra. noflMHTe »ce poaHaa: ocTaBJiaa b cTopoHe Bee Bonpocbi ok- 
Ky/ibmu3Ma, nocexuieHwi, Atydpocmu, mm Bce-TaKH ocTaeMCH c ny- 
aoM: c /JoKmopoM HlmeunepoM. Hnnero npeicpacHee, cojiHeHHee, 
ropHnee, SHeprnHHee, pa/jocTHee ZIoKTopa IIlTefiHepa a He 3Haio. 

Efl-Bory, He npeyBejiHiHBaa: oh — caM paaocTHbifl, BceBaoxHo- 

BJHHOIUHH CBeT. 



PoflHaa, xopomaa: Beab Moe nncbMO cymee 6e3o6pa3He; h npn 
tom 3aMeTbTe: Bee oho oTBenaeT jiHiiib Ha oahh Bam Bonpoc: «Hto 
Tanoe 0KKy^bTH3M». Otbct: «oKKy/ibmu3M — He nymb», ho floKTop 
IIlTeHHdp nyTb, h6o ero yneHHe o 3HaneHHH Geheimwissenschaft jiwiiib 
nepBoe nepHcfrepHHecicoe ero oKpyaceHHe. 

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B ieM ero TTymb, sto 6yaeT npeaMeT caeayiomero Moero nncbMa. 
A Tenepb OTBeTbTe: yaoBaeTBopeHbi an Bli mohmh caoBaMH o HaiueM 
OTHouieHHH k oKKyjibTH3My. fi xony, HTo6bi HauiH nHCbMa apyr apyry 
6biJin neflTenbHbi b CMbicae B3aHMHoro noHHMaHHH apyr apyra. 

HTan; moh Te3HCbi: 1) OKKyjibTH3M — He nyTb. 

2) OKKyjibTH3M — HayKa. 

3) H. IllTettHep He TOJIbKO OKKyabTHCT. 

OcnapHBaflTe! 

O TOM, HTO OH H KTO OH, H 6yay nHCaTb BnOC^eflCTBHH, KaK H o 

tom, hto ecTb ceem, mbMa, co/iHye, men/io (t.c o apyroM nocraBjieH- 
hom BaMH Bonpoce). 

FIoKa we h OTBeTH^ Ha nepBbifl. 



Tenepb aeaoBaa nacTb. 

BH>Ky Bac, poaHaa: h BH>Ky — Bbi roBopHTe: «B.H. yBaeKaeTCH. 
ZIoktop lllTeHHep aa« Hero KaKoe-TO nyao». Ho Beab bot: He TpyaHO 
noBepHTb, hto TaKoe MHoroo6pa3He h cojiHeiHOCTb, KaK JJoktop, 
onHcaHHbifl mhoh, njieHHeT; ho TpyaHO noBepHTb, hto JJoktop, orm- 
canHbifl mhoh b MHoroo6pa3HH cbohx nporfB.ieHHH, ecTb SaeaHan cxe- 
Ma noaaHHHoro XIoKTopa. Ecjih Bbi noBepHTe, hto sto TaK, to BaM 
6yaeT noHHTHo HecKOJibKO upoHunecxoe MormaHHe yneHHKOB UoKTopa 
MejiaHxo^HHecKoro TeMnepaMeHTa npH kphthkc KHHr hjih aeaHHfi 
HoKTopa; h Bbi noftMeTe moh xoaepHnecKHfi BOCTOpr npn onHcaHHH 
iloKTopa h bck) mok) aocaay, hto paaocTb Moefi Bepw b uydo, Ha3bi- 
BaeMoe ZIoktopom, He pa3aea«K)T ano6HMbie jinuib no neeedenuK), 
T.e. caynafiHO... 



Mnaa«, poaHan MaprapHTa KHpHaaoBHa: h xoTea nncaTb 06 oa- 
hom acne: o tom, noneMy TaK aoaro a He upeacTaBaaK) «riymu» pa- 
6otoh*. CKa3aTb BHeiiiHe 06 3tom He xony; xony BaM onncaTb noapo- 
6ho, KaK Mbi wHBeM H30 p.h% b aeHb, KaK ydaeM, KaK MHoro pa6oTa- 
eM, hto6w peanbHO nonyBCTBOBaaH Bbi, hto moh onpasaaHHa h h3bh- 
neHHH b CToab aoaroft Mea-THTeabHoc™ He yBepTKa. a coBepuieHHo 
pea.ibHbi. Ho... onHTb oTopBaacs ot nHCbMa (Ha HecKoabKo aHeft: h 



* Bejibit) o6eiua.n HanHcaTb MOHorpa(()Hw 06 A. A, <I>eTe ajih cepHH «PyccKHe 
MbicjinTejiH», npeanpHHMTof) Hiaare^bCTBOM «PIyTb», h no/iyMHJi aBaHc 3a Hee. 3a- 
TeM oh HaMepHBajic» HanwcaTb KHMry o H.<t>. <l>eflopoBe. Hh ra, hh npyraa HiieH He 
6bijiH peajiHjOBaHbi. 



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rmiiiy 3to nHCbMO OTpbiBoiHO, aBe HeaeJiH); MHJiaa, o ce6e h eme o 
/JoKTope, o panocTH Moefl, o pa6oTe «fJymu» no3BOJibTe no apyroro 
pasa. 

A to pHCKyio pacnHcaTbCH, h nwcbMO — eme 3acTpjmeT Ha He- 
aesiK). 

Bw ncmojiHTe Beflb nncaTb BaM h Bnpexib Tax HepoBHO, MHoro, 
o6pbiBOHHo... Beab aa? 



no3apaBnHeM Bac c Acefl c pyccKHM Hobum Foaom. /Ke/iaeM 
CBeTa, paaocTH h cnacTbH. M v.noro ooapocTH. 

Hy XpHcxoc c BaMH 
OcTarocb rny6oKOJiio6HiuHfi Bac 
BopHc ByraeB 



PEfHCTP BCTPEMAlOIUMXCfl B TEKCTE HMEH* 



fl'AJlbrEHMbl — n'AjifcrefiM Obep, SapoH (D'Alheim, Pierre, 1862-1922), 
(J)paHuy3CKHfl *ypHajiHCT h poinaHHCT, opraHH3aTop (cobmcctho c *eHoft h c 
neBHiieft A.B. TapaceBHH) «floMa necHH» b MocKBe b 1908 r. Ero weHa, MapHH 
AnexceeBHa OneHHHa-fl'AjibrefiM (1869-1970), BbiflaiomaHCH KaMepHaa neBH- 
ua, 6bijia TeTKOfl Ach TypreHeBOfl. Eenbift oieHb bmcoko ueHHji ee BbicTyn- 
jieHHa: cm. ero CTaTbH T1EBMUA. — «Mhp HCKyccTBa», 1902, Msll, h OKHO 
B EYUyuiEE (OJlEHHHA-WAJlbrEHM). — «Becw», 1904, Mel2. O HeM cm. 
HA HAJIO BEKA . 

AM<t>MTEATPOB, AjieKcaanp BaneHTHHOBHw (1862-1938), npcnaHK, upaMa- 
Typr. Yviep b HTajiHH. 

AHHEHKOBA, Ojibra HmcojiaeBHa — cm. npHM. Ha c.17 stoio TOMa. 
APEHCOH (Arenson, Adolf, 1855-1936), My3biicaHT, Hanncaji My3biKy k no- 
CTaHOBKe MHCTepHfi ILTeflHepa. Cm. RSL, 111, 81-82 h Bill. 



' B perHCTp bouijih TOJibKO HMeHa nau, o KOTopbix yaajioci HaflTH KaKne-TO CBeaeHHH 
(b tom qHCjie ynoMHHaHHH b BOCnOMHHAHMHX O UITEMHEPE Eejioro — aaaee 
cokp. Bill). B Tex cjiyiaax, Korna ecTb npHMenaHHe b caMOM TeKCTe, <J>aMn;iHH 3necb He 
noBTop»K)Tc«. ripw ynoMHHaHHH BHAHbix aHTponococfcoB h iame Bcero OTCbi,naK> k apy- 
thm HCTOiHHKaM, niaBHbiM o6pa30M k AByM TOMaM (II h III): VIER B1LDBANDE ZU 
RUDOLF STE1NERS LEBENSGANG. Band II. Das Wirken Rudolf Steiners von 1890- 
1907. Weimar und Berlin (1975); Band III. Das Wirken Rudolf Steiners 1907 bis 1917, 
(Novalis Verlag, 1980), — rue ecTb coaepwaTejibHbie 6Horpa<J>H>jecKne oqepicH h 6h6jiho- 
rpa<J)KH (aajiee coKpaiu. RSL). 



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AXPAMOBHM (nceBn.: AuiMapHH), BHToaba cfcpaHueBHH (yM. ok. 1930), jih- 
TepaTop, KoppeKTop ma. «MycareT», BbinoaHHBiiJHft TaM h ceicpeTapcKHe 
o6n3aHHOCTH; BnocjieacTBHH aenTeab cobctckoh KHHeMaTorpa<j)HH. O HeM cm. 

MExny hbyx pebojuouhR, c.374 h 4ii. 

EAJIbMOHT, EicaTepHHa AneKceeBHa — cm. npHM. Ha c.31 3Toro TOMa. 
BAY3P (Bauer, Michael, 1871-1929), oahh H3 nepBbix yjeHHKOB IUTeftHepa, 
aKTHBHbifl neHTeub aHTponoco<t>cKoro hbh^chmh, aBTop peaHrH03HO-<i>H.no- 
co(J)ckhx h neaaronmecKHx coiHHeHHft. Em> nocBHiueHO cthx. Beaoro «Peib 
tboh — npopowecKHe B3pbiBbi» («KoponeBHa h pbiuapn»). Cm. BUI, RSL, 
93-94, h kh. MICHAEL BAUER — E1N BURGER BEIDER WELTEN, Margare- 
ta Morgenstern (2-e H3a. Stuttgart, 1965) 

BE3AHT (Besant, Annie, 1847-1933) — anra, nHcaTeabHHua k o6mecTBeHHbifl 
aeareab (Fabian Society, Secular Society/, oaHa H3 anaepoB Teococt>cKoro O-Ba 
(Adyar), c 190" — ero npeaceaaTeab. 

BEKK (Beckh. Hermann, 1875-1937). npofji. oepxiHHCKoro yH-Ta, cneuHaaHCT 
no caHCKDHTy i» THOeTCKOMy S3., no penHrHHM Mh3hm Cm.: RSL, 11' 96. 
BEPrtHTPlOH (Bergengriin, TaTbswa AaeKceeBHa) — cecTpa E.A Baab- 
moht Cm BlU 

BEPZlflEB, HdKo.iafl AaeKcaHapoBim (1874-1948), cm. BUI. Pe3K0 ocy*aaa 
aHTponoco(J)HK? b CTaxbe TUnbl PEUHrH03HOft MblCJIH B POCCHH. 
- «PycCKa« Mbic.ibw. 1916, .Noli, h b kh. CMbIC.1 TBOP1ECTBA (1916). 
Cm. Tai»Ke: «H.A. BepaaeB 06 AHTponoco<t>HH. ilBa nncbMa [1912 r .': Ahu- 
peio BenoMy» — «HoBbifi >KypHaa.>, 1979, .Nsl37. 

B.IOK, AaeKcaHar AaeKcaHapoBHH (1880-1921) B3aHMOOTHouieHHB Beaoro 
h BaoKa b nepHoa 1911-1915 rr aymiie Bcero OTpaweHbi b hx TIEPEnHCKE. 
BOJ1BT (Boldt, Ernst) — o noaeMHKe b A.O. BOKpyr ero kh. SEXUALPROB- 
LEME IM LICHTE DER SA TUR USD GEISTES WISSENSCHAFT (Leipzig, 1911). 
Cm.: BUI, c 33-34. Oh raKwe aBTop: RUDOLF STEINER, EIN KAMPFER SEI- 
SER ZE1T (Miinchen, 1921) h VON LUTHER BIS STEINER; EIN DEUTSCHER 
KULTURPROBLEM (Munchen, 1921). 

BOPOHAEBCKHH, BaaepHaH BaaepHaHOBHi ( 1 876/9?/- 1 923), ropHbifl hh- 
>KeHep, no3T, npHHaaae>KaBLUHfi k OKpy>KeHHici B.MaaHOBa, TsiroTeBiiiHft k aH- 
rpoiioco4)HH h c6aH3HBiiiHftcH b Be.ibiM Ha 3TOfl nowBe b 1910-e rr. Boctop- 
*eHHbifl noHHTaTeab H.<t>. <t>eaopoBa (cm.: TIAMHTM HO. 0EUOPOBA b 
eio da. VEJJHHEHHblH HOJ1. BTopaa KHHra cthxob. M., «MycareT», 1914, 
..10-11). Ero wena: MaprapHTa AHapeeBHa (ypowa. KHjneBa). 
BPA30/Ib, AaeKcanap — pyccKHft HHweHep; ynoMHHyT b BUI. 
BVTAEBA, AaeKcaHapa ilMHTpHeBHa (1858-1922, ypowa. EropoBa) — cm. 
kM) nHce.M AHapen Beaoro k Marepn», ny6a. Cil. BopoHHHa. — FIAMflT- 
HHKH KVTlhTVPbL HOBblE OTRPUTHfi. E>KeroaHHK, 1986 (Jl., 1987), 
c. 64-76. 

ByjlTAKOB, CepreH HHKoaaeBHq (1871-1944) — skohomhct, (JiHaocotfc, pe- 
am H03Hbifl aesTeab. ywacTHHK c6. BEXli . B 1918 pyKonoaoiKeH b xpaMe MabH 
OobiaeHHoro. BbicaaH hj Cobctckoh Pocchh nocae apecTa b KpbiMy 1 HHBapa 
1923 ripoctieccop aorManiKH b CB.-CeprHeBCKOfl aKaaeMHH b riapHwe. 



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BArHEP (BeHCKHfl xyao>KHHK) — ynOM«HyT b Bill. CpeflH apyrnx «aHTpono- 
coij)OB-BarHepoB»: GUnther Wagner (1842-1930), KpynHwfl <t>a6pHKaHT {RSL, 
III, 95 h Bill) h Otto Wagner, cexpeTapb 3mhjih MonbTa. 

BAJIJIEP (Waller, Mieta [Maria Elisabeth], 1883-1954) — ynacTHHua nocTa- 
hobok MHCTepHfl IIlTeHHepa, 6jih3khh apyr <J>oh CHBepc h IIlTettHepa, y koto- 
pwx oHa *H/ia no 6paxa c ainepHKaHCKHM xyaowHHKOM William Scott-Pyle. 
Cm. RSL, III, 82 h BUI. Ee cecTpa — Oaa (Oda). 

BAJIbTEP (Walther, Kurt, 1874-1940), hhhobhhk tji. noHTaMTa, aKTHBHbift 

nponaraHUHCT aHTponoco(j)HH b BepnHHe, c 1904 — yneHHK IIlTeflHepa. Cm. 

BUI, c. 197-200 h RSL, III, 95. Ero weHa: Knapa (Clara, ypomn. Selling, 1875- 

1961). 

BAH-HEP-riAAJlbC (Van der Paals, Leopold, 1884-1966) — My3MKaHT. Cm. 

BUI, h RSL, III, 89. Ero aoib: Lea. 

BACMJlbEBbl — cm. npHM. Ha c. 17 h 22 3Toro TOMa. 

BACHJlbEBA, EnH3aBeTa HBaHOBna (ypoaca. JlMHTpHeBa, 1887-1928) — o 

Heft cm. BOCnOMHHAHHH O MEPYEHHE HE rABPHAK M.Bo/iouiHHa. — 

«HoBbift >KypHan», J*fel51, 1983. 

BErEJIHH (Wegelin, Hermann) — ynoMHHyT b BUI. 

BOJIOIUHH, MaKCHMHJiHaH AaexcaHapoBHii (1877-1932), nosT h xyao>KHHK, 

npHMblKaBIIIHfl K CHMBOJIHCTaM. O HeM cm.: «^OM-My3efl M.A. BojlOIllHHa. 

HeH3aaHHbift oiepK AHapen Eeaoro o M.Bojioiiihho), ny6ji. CFpemraiKHHa 

h A.JIaBpOBa. — «3Be3aa», 1977. >fe5. 

BOJIOLUMHA: cm. Ca6auiHHKOBa. 

BOJIbOIOrEJIb (Wolffhiigel, Max, 1880-1963), xyaoacHHK, cjcyaMiTop, npe- 

noaaBan b Bajibaop<j)CKOH uikojic Cm. BUI. 

TAHEP (ra3p) (Geier, Heinz) — ruieMHHHHK T.A.BepreHrpiOH, ynoMsmyT 

bBUI. 

TAMMJIbTOH (Hamilton, Lilian) — ynoMsmyTa b BUI. 

TAHHA (yMepjia b 1923 r.) — 6H6nnoTeKaprua npn FeTeaHyMe, ynoMjwyTa 

bBUI. 

TAPPHC (Harris, Lilla) — *H.ia b .flopHaxe BMecTe c Illojuib h neBHiiefl Garcia 

Ricardo. YnoMHHyTa b BUI. 

TEHilEBPAH/IT, (J)oh (von Heydebrand, W.S.) — xyaowHHK, ynoMHHyT b 

BUI, xax h ero cecTpa, Caroline von Heydebrand (1886-1938), neaaror. 

TEJIbMrOHflEH (Helm-Hoyden) ynoMjwyTa b BUI. 

rELU (hjih Pom) (Gosch, Heinrich) — ymeji H3 A.O. nocne >KeHHTb6bi IIlTett- 
Hepa Ha (Jioh CHBepc. YnoM«HyT b BUI. 

rHnnHyC, («TaTa»), TaTbSHa HHKoaaeBHa (1877-1957) — xyaowHHua, ce- 
CTpa 3.H. rwnnHyc. O Heft cm. npeaHCJiOBHe k ny6n. C.C. rpeiHuiKHHa h 
A.B. JlaBpoBa «A.A. Ejiok. FlHCbMa k T.H. THnnHyo). — «E»eroflHHK py- 
KonHCHoro OTaeaa UJl Ha 1978 roa» (Jl., 1980). 

TPHrOPOBbl, Bopnc flaBJiOBHH h Haae5Kaa A(J)aHacbeBHa — cm. np«M. Ha 
c.14 h 15 3Toro TOMa. 



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TPOCXAftHLJ, fl-p. (Grosheintz, Dr. Emil; 1867, Paris - 1946, Dornach), sy6- 

Hoft Bpan. Cm. BUI h RSL, III, 98. Ero aceHa: Hsjijih ((Nelly, ypojKfl. Laval, 

1875-1955). 

flPEKCJIEP (Drexler, Luna) — ynoMHHyTa b BUI. 

flYBAX, ceMeftcTBO — Dubach, Oswald (1884-1950), CKyjibTop; ero aceHa — 

KjiaBflHH A^eKcaHflpoBHa (1876-1961), cecrpa E.A. HjibHHOft h H.A. ManH- 

KOBa. YnoMflHyTW b BUI. ilpyrne flyoaxH: Annemarie Donath-Dubach (1895- 

1972); Helene Dubach. 

HKJEAHEK (Djubanek, Ella; yM. 1944) — 3BpHTMHCTKa, ynoMimyTa b BUI. 

3EHJlMHr (hjih 3enjiHHr) (Selling, Wilhelm, 1869-1960) — o HeM cm. BUI, 

c. 192-197; ero *eHa: uiBeaKa Karin, ypoaca. Flack (1880-1958). Ero cecTpa 

Kaapa Bbiinaa 3aMy»c 3a Kypxa BaabTepa. O hhx cm. RSL, III, 95-96. 

3EH4>EJIbT (Seefeld, Wilhelm, 1883-1954) — ynoMHHyT b BUI. 

HBAHOB, BawecaaB Hb3hobhh (1866-1949) — nosT, (Jmaoaor, TeopeTHK chm- 

B0/iH3Ma. Eeabift xapaKTepnsoBaa hx OTHOuieHHjr Kaic «cao>KHbie, 3anyTaH- 

Hbie... b KOTopux MOMeHT HpKOfl spocxH nepeaoBancH c MOMeHTOM cepaen- 

Hefluiefl h«khocth» (HAWAJJO BEKA, c.474). 

HBAHOB, Pa3yMHHK BacmibeBHH (1878-1946) — kphthk, ny6aHUHCT, hcto- 

Phk jiHTepaTypbi. OaHH H3 opraHtoaTopoB mn.. «Chphh». O HeM h A.EeaoM 

cm. ny6a. A.B. JIaBpoBa «PyKonncHbift apxHB A.Eeaoro b IlymKHHCKOM ZIo- 

Me». — «E*eroaHHK P.O. n.fl. Ha 1978 r.» (Jl., 1980). 

MJlbMHA, EKaTepHHa AaexcaHapoBHa — cm. npHM. Ha c.36 3-roro TOMa. 

KAJlbKPEHT, rp. (von Kalckreuth, Pauline, Grafin, 1856-1929) — noapo6HO 

o Hefl cm. RSL, II, 158-159 » BUI, c. 164-166. 

KAMI1HOHH, BnaaHMHp KoHCTaHTHHOBHW — othhm A. A. TypreHeBofl. Ero 

*eHa: Co(j)hh HmcojiaeBHa — MaTb A. A. TypreHeBofl. Cm. «Lettres d'Andrej 

Belyj a la famille d'Asja», ny6a. Georges Nivat, «Cahiers du monde russe et 

sovietique», 18, 1-2, 1977. 

KAPTA1I1EB, Ahtoh BaaaHMHpoBHH (1875-1960) — hctophk uepKBH, npoij). 

neTep6yprcKofi HyxoBHofi aicaaeMHH, aKTHBHbitt mjich PtPO. Ilocae <J)eBp. 

peBo.iwiiHH — mhhhctp BepoHcnoBeaaHHft BpeMeHHoro npaBHTeabCTBa. 3mh- 

rpHpoBan b 1919. BHorpa<J>HiecKHe MaTepHaxiM o HeM cm. b «BecTHHKe 

P.C.X.H.», 1960. A&58-59. 

KATHEP, (Kacer, Manja), — cm. BUI. 

KEMflEP (Kemper, Karl; 1881, XapbKOB — 1957, Ba3enb), xyaoacHwc, 3aHn- 

m&,ich apxHTeKrypofl b EepaHHe. Abtop kh. DER BAV. Studien zur Archite- 

ktur und Plastik des ersten Goetheanum) Stuttgart, 1966. TaM we 6Horpa- 

<J)HMecKHfl "dtepK o HeM. Cm. BUI h RSL, 111, 100-101. 

KHCE/IEBbI — HHKonafi, xyaowHHK. Ero >KeHa: TaTbHHa (1881, BapmaBa — 
1970. ApjiecreflM), BHaHaa 3BpHTMHCTKa (cm. ee kh.: Tatiana Kisseleff. AUS 
DER EURYTHMIE-ARBEIT, Basel, 1965). O Hefl cm. RSL, III, 88-89. 06a ohh 
ynoMHHyTbi b BUI. He nyTaTb c HmcoaaeM rieTpoBHMeM KHceaeBbiM (1884- 
1965), «apronaBTOM», ceKpeTapeM peaaKUHH H3a. «MycareT». 

KHTTE/lb (Kittel, Elisabeth), ynoMHHyra b BUI. 



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KJ1ACCEH (Clason, Louise, 1873-1954, flopHax) — cm. RSL, III, 102 h BUI. 

KOJiriAKHM (Kolpaktchy, Gregoire, p. 1886) — erHm-o/ior, nepeBea KHHry 
MEPTBblX Ha HeMeuKHfl h <J>paHuy3CKHft (hmkh. YnoM«HyT b BUI. 

KyBJlHUKAfl-riHOTTyX, AaeiccaHapa AHapeeBHa (1860-1923, ypo*a. Ee- 
KeTOBa; no nepBOMy 6paxy Eaoic) — MaTb A. A. 5/iOKa, aeTCKaa nHcaTenbHHua 
h nepesoaiHua. Beawft coctojui c Heft b aaHTeabHofi nepenHCKe. 

KYHEPOBA (Kucerova, Ivana) — ynoM«HyTa b BUI. 

J1EBM (Levy, Eugene) — nepeBozmHK UlTeflHepa Ha <})paHuy3CKHH jbmk, aBTop 
QUELQUES REFLEXIONS SUR "L 'INITIATION" DE RUDOLF STEINER (Paris, 
1910); MME BESANT ET LA CRISE DE LA SOCIETE THEOSOPHIQUE (Pa- 
ris, 1913). 
JTE/JEByp (Ledeboer, Francois, 1884-1932) — xyaowHHK, ynoMHHyT b BUI. 

J1EMAH, cecTpw: Berta Lehman (1884-1967; no Mywy Reebstein), ceKpeTap- 
uia (J)oh CHBepc; Helene (1886-1953). 06e ynoMHHyTbi b 3aBemaHHH UlTefl- 
Hepa h b BUI. 

JlEPXEHOEJIBfl, rpa<J> (von und zu Lerhenfeld-Kofering, Otto, Graf, 1868- 
1938), 6asapcKMH aeHTeab A.O., c 1914 pa6oxaa BMecTe co UlTeftHepoM Haa 
cocTaB/ieHHeM DREIGLIEDERUNG DES SOZIALEN ORGANISMUS. d>HHaHcn- 
poBaa H3flaHHe Bn. CoaoBbeBa na HeMemcoM «3. b nepeBoae 4>oh BaxaHo (5 to- 
mob). O HeM cm. BUI, c. 167-170 h RSL, III, 83-84. 

JlHrCKHM, KoHCTaHTHH AHapeeBHH — b 3aHBaeHHH KaTaHHHy ot 27 aBrycTa 
1931 r. Ee/ibifi rmcaa o HeM: «...c MOMeHra peBoarouHH [oh] 6pocaeT paSoTy 

[B flopHaXe], HB/ISeTCH B PoCCHK), CTaHOBHTCH MaeHOM KoMMyHHCTHMeCKOH 

napTHH c 1918 ro.ua, BeaeT BHaHyio pa6oTy b JleHHHrpaacKOM OTaeae Ynpas- 
aeHHH; h ao CMepTH ocTaeTca BepHbiM cobctckhm pa6oTHHKOM (KOHcya b Bap- 
niaBe, Tokho, A(J)HHax). — «HoBbiH »cypHaa», 1976, >fel24, c.157). Oh yMep b 
KOHue xiBaxiuaTbix roaoB. B BUI ynoMHHyT xax «J1.». 

J1HJU1B (Lille, Harald, yM. 1920) — ynoM»HyT b BUI. 

JIHHflE (Linde, Hermann, 1863-1923, JlopHax) — xyao>KHHK, pa6oTaa Haa 

pocnHCbK) Boabiuoro Kynoaa nepBoro TeTeaHyMa. OaHH H3 anpeKTopoB «Jo- 

hannesbau-Verein». Ero weHa: Marie Hagens. O HeM cm. BUI, RSL, III, 84-85. 

JIHCCAy (Lissau, Robert) — ynoMHHyT b BUI. 

JIHXT<t>OrEJIB (Liedvogel, Heinrich, 1881-1974) — HHaceHep h apxHTeKTop, 

ynoMHHyT b BUI. B A.O. 6bia TaioKe Carl Liedvogel. Beawft He aaeT hmchh, 

npHBoaa ToabKO (fcaMHaHio. 

JlKDflBHr (Ludwig) — «xopoma» 3HaKOMa« Mei-Hepa H3 J3pe3aeHa». B BUI He 

ynoMHHaeTCH, 3aTO TaM ynoMMHae-rca hcmcukhh no3T Carl Ludwig, y6HT Ha 

BoflHe b 1916 r. 

<DOH-MAtt (von May, Walo, 1879-1928). 

MAJ1HKOB, H.A. — 6paT E.A. HabHHofl, «M» b BUI, c. 280-281. 

MAIUJtOBUEB, HHKoaafl TeoprHeBHW (1887-1962) — HCKyccTBOBea, aBTop 
CTaTefl no HCKyccTBy, nenaTaBLUHxcH b «PyccKOfl MbicaH», «AnoaaoHe», xpa- 
HHTeab b TpeTbaKOBCKOfl raaaepee. 



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MEPE5KKOBCKHE: Amhtphh CepreeBHq (1865-1941), 3HHaH;ia HmcoJiaeB- 

Ha HinnHyc (1869-1945) — 06 hx BCTpene co IIlTefiHepoM cm. BUI, c.72. 

METHEP, 3mhjihh KapnoBHH (1872-1936) — My3biKOBea (riHcaji noo. nceBfl. 

«Bo^b(J)HHr»), cTapoiHfl 6paT KOMno3HTopa HHKO/iaH KapnoBHsa MeTHepa 

(1879-1951), MHoro/ieTHHfl apyr EeJioro. Oahh H3 yHpeaHTe^efi h pyKOBOflH- 

Tenb H3a. «MycareT», peaaKTop wypH. «Tpyabi h hhh» (1912-1914, 1916). 06 

oxjia>KXieHMH OTHomeHHft MeTHepa h Be/ioro, HawaBiueMcs c MOMeHTa hx co- 

TpyaHHiecTBa b «MycareTe», cm. MEXOjy HByx PEBOJJJOUHfi, UEPEnHC- 

KA BjioKa h Benoro h CTaTbio A.A. EJIOK MEMJjy «MyCArETOM» H «CH- 

PHHOM». (IlHCbMa k 3.K. MeTHepy). riy6ji. H.A. <UpyMKHHOH h Jl.C. <J>jiefi- 

uiMP.Ha. — «Ejiokobckhh c6opHHK», II (TapTy, 1972). 

MMTMEP (Mitscher): Kathe (1892-1940, flopHax) h ee 6paTbH — Fritz 

(1886-1915) h Heinrich (yvi. 1917). O hhx cm. RSL, III, 89-90 h BUI. 

MOPrEHUlTEPH (Morgenstern, Christian, 1871-1914), HeMeuKHft no3T, 

KOTopoMy nocB»meHbi nepBoe h nocnenHee cthxotbopchhh c6. 3BE3J1A. O HeM 

h ero weHe (Margareta) cm. BUI h RSL, III, 96-98. Cm. TaKtte AHaPEd BE- 

Jlblti H KPHCTHAH MOPrEHUlTEPH. — A.B. JlaBpOB. CPABHHTEJlbHOE 

HiyHEHHE J1HTEPA Typ (Jl . , 1 976) . 

MOP030BA, MaprapMTa KwpHn/iOBHa — cm. npHM. Ha c.415 3-roro TOMa. 

M3PMOH (Maryon, Louise Edith, 1872-1924, HopHax) — cm. o Heft BUI, h 

RSL, III, 102. 

HEHUJEJ1J1EPBI (Neuscheller) — Leopold (1885-1976) h Lucia (1888-1962), 

06a ynoMHHyrbi b BUI. 

HO/1JIB, a-p. (Noll, Dr. Ludwig, 1872-1930), jihmhwh Bpaw LLlTeflHepa, pa6o- 

Taji b K/iHHHKe b ApjiecreflMe. 

nAMnEPC, n-p. (Peipers, Dr. Felix, 1873-1944, ApjiecreflM) — Bpaw, oahh H3 

HHpeKTopoB «Johannesbau-Verein». O HeM cm. BUI h RSL, III, 82-83. Ero 

cecTpa: Cecile (1882-1951), CKyjibnTop. 

I1EPAJIBT3 (Peralte, Lotus) — ynoMHHyTa b BUI. 

riEPUOB, rieTp rieTpoBHW (1868-1947) — no3T, kphthk, ny6jiHUHCT. O HeM 

cm. «ApxnB n.n. riepuOBa» A.B. JlaBposa b «E»eroziHHKe P.O. n.H. Ha 1973 

r.»(Jl., 1976). 

FIETPOBCKMH, A/ienceH CepreeBHM — cm. npHM. Ha c.30 3Toro TOMa. 

nOJl/IflK (Pollak-Karlin, Richard, p. 1867) — ynoMHHyT b BUI. Ero »eHa: 

Hilda Kotanyi-Pollak. 

nOOJIbMAH-MOH (Polman-Mooy, J.), rojuiaHUKa, HjieH 6epjiHHCKOfi 

no»H T.O. h A.O. Cm. BUI, c. 143-144. 

nOLIUO, AjreKcaHiip MHxafijioBHM (1882-1941), iophct, peaaKTop wypH. 

CHMBO/iHCTCKoro ymioHa «CeBepHoe Chhhho). My>K H.A. TypreHeBOfi. EMy 

nocBHiueHO HecKo.ibKO cthx. b c6. 3BE3HA. yMep b SMHrpauHH. Cm. BUI, 

c.286-288. 

PAMO (Reif, Martha, ypowa. Busse), ynoMjiHyTa b BUI. 

PAMMHCKMH, TpHropHH AneKceeBHH (1853/97/1939) — 4JieH pcaaKUHH 
<(BonpocoB (J)HjToco(})hh h ncHxo/iorHH», npe,nce,aaTe.ib MocKOBCKoro (Jjhjio- 



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coc&cKoro o6mecTBa hm. Ba. CoaoBbeBa, peaaicrop H3n. «riyTb». Cm. HAHA- 
JIO BEKA h MEXCny JJBYX PEBOniOUHit. Ero *eHa: TaTbHHa AHaToabeBHa 
(ypo>Kfl. MaMOHTOBa, 1863-1920). 

PEMM30B, AaeKcefi MnxaftjiOBHH (1877-1957) h ero *eHa Cepa<J)HMa IlaB- 
noBHa (ypo*a. ZIoBreaao, 1876-1943). 

PMXTEP (Rychter, Tadeusz, poa. 1873) — o HeM cm. BUI. Ero *eHa: Bronisla- 
va (ypo*a. Janowska, poa. 1868), xyaoacHHija. 

P03EHBEPr (Rosenberg, Kurt Hermann, poa. 1884) — cm. BUI, c. 287-288. 

PYHHEB, BaflHM Bhktopobhw (1879-1940) — c.-p., ropoacKofl roaoBa Mo- 
ckbu b 1917. HjieH peaicoaaerHH «CoBpeMeHHbix 3anHC0K» (FlapH*). O HeM 
cm. nncbMO M.UBeTaeBott k A.TecKOBofl ot 11 aeKa6pn 1933: «...HenoHHMa- 
HHe MeHH, no3Ta, — HHTaTeaeM, Ha caMOM *e acne: peaaKTopoM, a hmchho 
/.../ b CoBp. 3an. — PyaHeBbiM, no npo<J)eccHH — BpanoM, no npH3BaHHK> 
noaHTHKOM, no Heaopa3yMeHHio — peaaKTopoM (NB! aHTepaTypHoro OTae- 
aa)». — nHCbMA K A.TECKOBOff . ripara, 1969, c.106. 

CABAIUHHKOBA-BOJIOIIIMHA — cm. npHM. Ha c.24 3Toro Toina. 

CE/UIEUKHE: Franciszek Wincenty Siedlecki (1867-1934), noabCKHft xyaow- 
hhk h rpa(J)HK CHMBoaHCTCKoro HanpaBaeHHa. B 1914-1919 pa6oTaa Haa OKHa- 
mh aaa nepBoro FeTeaHyMa. Ero weHa: Wiga S. O hhx cm. BUI. 

CHBEPC, (Jioh (von Sivers), MapH» ^KOBueBHa — cm. npHM. Ha c.26 3Toro 
TOMa. rincbMa Be.ioro k Heft cm. b: «The Andrej Belyj Society Newsletter)), 
1987, _Ne6 h b «Bei!rage zur Rudolf Steiner Gesamtausgabe. Andrej Belyj und 
Rudolf Steiner. Briefe und Dokumente», >fe89/90 (Dornach, Michaeli, 1985). 

CHBEPC, <J)oh, O.ibra JlKOBaeBHa (yM. 1917) — cecTpa M.fl. (J>oh CHBepc 
Ee 6paTbH: BaaaHMHp, James, Friedrich Wilhelm. 

CM30B, Mnxana MBaHOBHM — cm. npHM. Ha c.27 3Toro TOMa. 

CMHTC (Maier-Smits, Lory Eleonore) h ee My*: Alfred Maier. O hhx cm. 
RSL, 111, 87. 

COJIOBBEB, BaaaHMHp CepreeBHH (1853-1900), 4>Haoco<t>, OKa3aBiiiHft rpo- 
MaaHoe Bnn«HHe Ha Moaoaoro Beaoro. Kax nncaa Beabift b cthx. «XpHCTHa- 
Hy MopreHuiTepH>» (1918): «Ot Hnuuie — tw, ot CoaoBbeBa — h / Mw b 
UlTeftHepe nepeKpecTHaHCb o6a /.../ AHTponoco(J)HH, BaaaHMHp CoaoBbeB / 
M <J>pHapHx Hnuuie — CBjnaHbi: OTHbme. ,» (c6. 3BE3HA). 

COJIOBBEB, Ceprefl MnxaftaoBHw (1885-1942) — naeMHHHHK ({waocotba, no- 
3T, kphthk h nepeBoawHK, My* TaTbHHbi AaeKceeBHbi TypreHeBoft, cecTpw 
Ach. OaHH H3 caMbix 6aH3KHx BeaoMy aioaeft. C 1913 (?) — cBHtueHHHK. Cm. 
o HeM: «MaTepHaau k 6Horpa<j>HH CM. CoaoBbeBa» h «M3 BOcnoMHHaHHfl ce- 
CTpw MapHH» b kh. CM. CoaoBbeBa >KH3Hb H TBOPHECKAX 3BOJ1IOJJHS 
BIIAUHMHPA COflOBbEBA (Bpwcceab, 1977). 

TEPEIUEHKO, Mnxana HBaHOBHi (1886-1956) — <<hhobhhk npn anpeKTope 
HMneparopcKHx TeaTpoB, Baaaeaeu (cobmcctho c cecTpaMH) H3a-Ba «Ch- 
PHh». Mhhhctp (J)HHaHCOB h mhhhctp HHOcxpaHHbix flea BpeMeHHoro npaBH- 
TeabCTBa. 



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TMMMPfl3EB, Kjimmchthh ApKaabeBHM (1843-1920) — 6oTaHHK-(|)H3HOJior, 

ropsHHH nponaraH/iHCT yieHHH ZlapBHHa. ripocj). MocKOBCKoro yH-Ta. ywHTe/ib 

Beaoro b Haiaue 1900-x roaoB. Cm. BOcnoMHHaHHH Beaoro (HA PYEE>f(E 

JBYX CTOflETMM h HAHA.HO BEKA) h BUJ, c. 98-99. 

TPAnE3HMKOB, TpwJioH reoprweBim — cm. npHM. Ha c.27 3Toro TOMa. 

Ero »eHa: .lK>6oBb HcaaKOBHa. 

TPYBEUKOM, EBreHHfi HHKoaaeBHq (1863-1920) — MaaaaJHfi 6paT kh. 

C.H. Tpy6euKoro, npotjj. (J)Haoco(J)Hn npaBa, aBTop kh. MMPOC03EPHAHME 

B.C. COHOBbEBA, 2 tt. (M., ma. «riyTb», 1913). 

TYPrEHEBA, AHHa AaeKceeBHa («Aca») (1890-1966, ApaecrefiM) — xyao>K- 

HHua, nepBao *eHa Beaoro. Cm. ee craTbto AHilPEM EEJlblli H PVHOJlb® 

U1TEMHEP — «MocTbi», 1968, .N913-14, h kh. ER1SSERUSGES AS RUDOLF 

STEI.\ER LSD DIE ARBEIT AM ERSTES GOETHE AM \i (Sluttgart, 1972). Cm. 

BUJ h RSL, 111. 99-100. 

TYPrEHEBA. Haiaawi AaeKceeBHa (1886-1942) — cecipa Ach, *eHa A.M. 

nouuo. Cm. ee GTBET H.A. EEP3XEBY DO nOBOJY 4HTPOHOCO0HM . — 

«n>Tb», 1930, -Vs25 (aeKaopb) h N.A.Turgenieff-Pozzo ZWOl.F JAHRE DER 

ARBEIT AM GOETHEASVM (Dornach, 1942). 

TV'PrEHEBA, TaTbHHa AaeKceeBHa ( 1896-1966) — cecrpa Ach, weHa Ceprea 
ConoBbeBa, pa6oraaa b .iHTepaiypHOM M>3ee. 

YHTEP, a-p (Unger, Dr. Carl, 1878-1929) — (j)a6pnKanT. (twaoeotj), ohhh m 

ocHOBaTeneH LUTyTrapTCKOfi .io>kh A.O., waeH coBera Johannesbau-Verein. 

O HeM cm. BUI h RSL, 111, 93. 

<t>AJiyM (Fadum, Francke) — ynoMHHVT b BUI. 

OMJ10CO<t>OB, Hmhtphh BiiaaHMHpoBHH (1872-1940) — aHTepaTypHbifi KpH- 

thk h ny6;inuHCT, 6jih3khh apyr 3.H. THnnHyc h U..C. Mepe>KKOBCKoro. 

OPHUKHHA (Fridkin, Henriette, 1879-1943) — ynoMHHVTa b BUJ. 

XOJ1BIJJ1EMTEP (Holzleitner) — ynovisiHyTa b BUI. 

MEEOTAPEBCKA.H, AaeKcaHapa HiiKoaaesHa (1869-1925) — nepeBOimnua, 

kphthk, cecTpa >KeHa <J>.Coaory6a, 6.ih3khh apyr B.HBaHOBa h ero eeMbH. 

WEPHOB, BHKrop MnxafiaoBHw (1873-1952) — oaHH in ocHOBaTeaefi napTHH 

c.-p., ee TeopeTHK, mhhhctp 3eM.neae.iHH bo BpeMeiiHOM npaBHTe.ibCTBe. 

HMJlbC, miicc — ynoMswvTa b BUJ 

MMPCKAfl, (J) oh (von Tschirsehky, Gertrud) — ynoManjia b BUJ (<t>0H-«H»). 

UiArMHMH, MapH3TTaCepreeBHa(1888-1982)— cm. HinnceM BeaoroKHefi, 

onyfia. b ee MeMyapax HESIOBEK 1/ BPEMfl. — «HoBb;fi Mnp». 1973, S°b. 

IUBAPCA.10H, Bepa Kohc i aHTHHOBHa (1890-1920), rperbH x<eHa Bhm. Haa- 

HOB3. 

UJEHPOK — BepoHTHo, Cepreft BaaanMnpoBH4 (1893-1918), cryneHT-(J)Hao- 
aor, cbiH B.ia.inMupa HBaHOBHwa LUeHpoKa (1853-1910;, ncropnKa .iHTepaTy 
pbi, cneuna.THCTa no H3y4eHHK3 roroaa (<<ripn.xoanr Hoc — no Bone poxa 
Oh, Bbi npejcraBbre, — 6e3 HIeHpoKa!» — TJEPBOE CBMHAHHE). Oh ynoMH- 
hvt b kh. ME)KJY HBVX PEBO.lfOUHH KaK qaen pMTMHWec'Koro Kpy>KKa npH 
H3a. «MycareT». (c.353, 393). 



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UlMMflEJlb (Schmiedel, Oskar, 1887-1959) — ynoMjmyT b BUI. 
UIMH/JT (Schmid-Curtius, Dr. Carl, 1884-1931) — cm. BUI h RSL, III, 92. 
UlOJIJlb (Scholl, Mathilde, 1869-1941, HopHax) — cm. BUI h RSL, III, 95. 
IIITEHHEP, PynojibcJ) — cm. npHM. Ha c.10 3Toro TOMa. FlHCbMa Benoro k He- 
My ony6ji. b «Beitrage zu Rudolf Steiner Gesamtausgabe. Andrej Belyj und 
Rudolf Steiner. Briefe und Dokumente», JV°89/90 (Dornach, Michaeli, 1985). 
IIITHH/IE (Stindc, Sophie, 1853-1915) — anpeKTop HeMeuKoft ceKunn A.O., 
«nacTbipb no6pbifl» iiBH*eHHH, no cuoBaM Be/ioro. MHoro o Hen b BUI. Cm. 
TaKwe RSL, II, 159. B nncbMe k HBaH0By-Pa3yMHmcy ot 20 hoh6ph 1915 r. (no 
HOBOMy cthjiio) Eenbift nncan: «...npHmiio H3BecTne, hto CKOHnajiacb oflHa H3 
pyKOBOflHTeiibHHu Haniero o6inecTBa: IIlTHHae [yMepjia 17 hoh6p«]. H box, 
nocjie KOHMHHb! ee, h Mory cKa3aTb, hto y MeHH 6bino OTHOineHHe k Hefi, hv «aK 
... k JIbBy ToncTOMy, KaK ... k CTapuy; OHa bch 6biJia thdom cenmou xpucmu 
aHCKoii yeodHui(bi» (UTAUM, $.1782, on.l, en.xp.6). 
IUTPAYC (Strauss, Hans, 1883-1946) — xyaoacHHK, ynoMHHVTbifi b BUI 
IIIIOP3 (IIlK)pe) (Schure, Edouard, 1841-1929) — <J>paHuy3CKHfi OKKvnbTHc:, 
ineH napn>KCKoro «Teoco<}WHecKoro 06urecTBa BocTOKa h 3anana», 3axeM 
npHBep>KeHeu aHTponococt>HH h paHHHH coTpyaHHK UIxenHepa, Koroporo ne 
peBoami h o kotopom MHoro nnca/i. Abtop cepHH nbec-MHCTepHfl nozi Ha3Ba- 
HHeMif THEATRE DE LAME (1900-1905). 

3KKAPTIUTEHH, 6apoHecca (von Eckhardtstein, Imme, 1871-1930, HopHaxi 
— xyaoKHHua, paSoTana Han KocxioMaMH h neKopauneH k mk>hxchckoh no- 
CTaHOBKe MHCTepnfi lUTefiHepa. Cm. o Hen BUI h RSL, III, 84 
3J1J1HC (HacT. $aMHxiHH: Ko6bi.iHHCKHH, JleB JlbBOBHq, 1879-1947) — noir h 

TeOpeTHK CHMBOJlH3Ma, nepeBOUKHK H KpHTHK. C.M. HAHA.TO BEKA. ME>Kjy 

UBVX PEBOJ1IOUHH. BUI. Cm. TaK>Ke cxaTbio C.C. rpewmnKHHa h A.B. .laa- 

poBa 3J1J1HC — nO'JT-CMMBOnHCT, TEOPETHK H KPHTHK. — «XXV Tep- 

ueHOBCKHe MTeHHH. JlHTepaTypoBeaeHHe. Kpaxxoe coaep>KaHne aoK.nazioB», 

Jl., 1972. 

3JlbPAM (Ellram, Berta) — ynoMsmyxa b BUI. 

3HrJIEPT (Englert, Josef) — cm. BUI h RSL, III, 101. 

IOJ1M (K)ii3) (Uehli, Ernst, 1875-1959) — aKTHBHbiH ynacTHHK Ba,ib.iop(t)0KOH 

LUKonbi, rue npeno.iaBa-x ncxopmo HCKvccxBa. O He\i cm. BUI. 



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CeHrmdpb. 

npoaojiacaeTCH Ta *e cTpaHHaa KH3Hb. Mw HaiHHaeM npHBbi- 
KaTb k 6wTy BoeHHoro BpeMeHH; h c Acefl pa6oTaio Ha bhciiihhx cre- 
Hax (okojio Bxoaa b npaBbift nopTaji); ho b o6meM h Mano 6biBaio b 
«Bau»; 6onee cHHcy aoMa; KOHueHTpHpyioTcfl moh CTpaHHbie OTHOiue- 
hhh c HaTameft; a nacTo 6biBaio y Hee; h MeHcay HaMH KpeimeT apyac- 
6a; ctoht Tennbie 30JioTbie ahh; a-p ye3*aeT b TepMaHHio; MapHX 
^KOBJieBHa no cy66oTaM HHTaeT HaM Kypc: «Mhcchh OTflejibHbix Ha- 
poaoB». FIo-npe»CHeMy xoacy na BaxTbi; oneHb MHoro 3aHHMaiocb cxe- 
MaMH h pacKpacKoio hx; ko MHe nacTO npaxoflHT MaxcHMmniaH Bo- 
jioihhh, 3HaKOMHTc« c mohmh cxeMaMH h yqHT pacTHpaTb KpacKH; no- 
HBJiaeTCH b AopHaxe (J>pay IloojibMaH-MoH, 6biBaeT y Hac; o6Hapy- 
^CHBaeTcn Hauie HecornacHe bo B3nume Ha a-pa IIlTeftHepa; oxa3biBa- 
eTCH, hto OHa c 3jijihcom nocejianacb rae-TO noa Ea3eneM; 06a ohh 
yexa^H hs TepMaHHH; k KOHuy Meaiua MHe oco6eHHO tjh-octho, Hey- 

KJTHO; H HaiHHaK) nHCaTb flHeBHHK, H3 KOTOpOrO BnOCJieflCTBHH Bbl- 

iueji MaTepHan mohx kph3hcob. 

HaiHHaeT BbiacHHTbCH Moe nojioaceHHe MaTepHaribHoe: «Chphh» 

HaXOflHT B03MO)KHOCTb HeCMOTpH Ha BOHHy nocbuiaTb MHe aeHbrH 3a 

npeanojioMceHHoe H3#aHHe mohx co^hhchbh. 



• npoflOJi^eHHe pyiconHCH A.Eenoro MATEPMAJJ K EHOrPAVHH (MHTHM- 
HblPl). Haiajio ny6nH K auHH cm. b: MMHyBUIEE, T.6, c.337-448. 



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norofla nopTHTca; HacTynaeT TyMaHHaH h aoacanHBaa oceHb; Ha 
cepaue rpycTHo; CTpacTb k HaTame ycH/WBaeTca: a npoKJiHHato cBoe 
qyBCTBo k HaTame, Mynaiocb yrpbneHHeM cobccth; co mhokd npoHC- 
xoflHT cTpauiHwft cepaenHbitt npHnaaoic; a ayMaio, hto 3to — aw-HHa; 
MeHH HaHHHaeT aenHTb OpHaKHHa; BbiacHaeTca, hto sto cepaenHbitt 
HeBpo3. 

OKimdpb. 

riepBaH nonoBHHa OKTa6pa npoxoaHT noa 3HaKOM Bee noBTopaio- 
ujHxca cepaeHHO-HepBHbix npnnaaKOB, MynHTeabHbix nepeKHBaHHtt, 
CB«3aHHbix c HaTaiuefl, pa3roBopoB o BoflHe h BnenaTJieHHa ot aeicuHfl 
BepHyBiiieroca H3 TepMaHHH a-pa IIlTettHepa, xoTopbifi npoHHTbrnaeT 
HaM o KynbTypax OpaHUHH, MTajiHH, Ahfjihh, TepMaHHH, Pocchh*; 
oh cTapaeTCfl roBopHTb noao>KHTeabHo o Kaacaott H3 KyjibTyp; h sth 

JieKUHH BHOCHT 3HaHHTeJIbHOe yMHpOTBOpeHHe B HaCTpOeHHe pa3J!HHH0 

HauHOHanbHbix rpynn, coeaHHeHHbix BOKpyr «Bau». IUobhhhcthhc- 
cicaa JinxopaaKa b Harnett cpeae HaHHHaeT oc;ia6eBaTb; a CHOBa Bbinoa- 
3aK) Ha «Bau»; Aca ycHjieHHO HaHHHaeT pa6oTy Ha CTeiuiax b pnxTe- 
Pobckom zioMHKe, npoaoaacaa cbokj pa6oTy Ha aepeBe; OHa noKHaaeT 
MeHa Ha ueabie oth; ueabiMH aHaMH a pa6oTaio y ce6a: nnuiy cxeMbi, 
roTOBaio OTHeTbi a-py h pa3pa6aTbiBaio TeMy «Kpu3uca xu3huy> BHe- 
pHe. Flo BenepaM oneHb nacTO y Hac 6biBaK»T CeaaeuKHe (Myac h we- 
Ha); ohh cnnbHo HacTpoeHbi npoTHB HeMueB; oco6eHHo oh; y Hac 6w- 

BaiOT: CH30B, FleTpOBCKHH, BOJIOIUHH, IloimO, <tpHflKHHa, O.H. Ah- 

HeHKOBa h flpyrne; BenepaMH b KyxHe Harnett co6HpaK)Tca Bee o6HTa- 
TexiH Harnett KBapTHpw (a, Aca, E.A. HjibHHa, H.A. MajiHKOB, K.A. 
UnrcKHfl) h npoHcxoflaT aaHHHefluiHe pa3roBopbi o BottHe, Pocchh h 
TepMaHHH, 06 aHTponoco<|)HH, o aoKTope; k HaM b KyxHK) oneHb nacTO 
3axoaaT: K.A. Zly6ax, H.H. EoroaBJieHcicaa, OpHflKHHa, 6ap. <Dhthh- 
roqi, neTpoBCKHtt, KocTbineBa, npHcoeaHHaacb k pa3roBopy; o6pa3y- 
eTca cBoero poaa Kjiy6; Acio yTOMaaioT 3th «Kjry6Hbie» pa3roBopbi; 
OHa yaaaaeTca k ce6e; M«Kay Hero h E.A. MjibHHOtt HaMenaeTca HeKO- 
Topoe oxjiaacaeHHe. 

noane Hanpa*eHHettuiett aeTHeft h oceHHefl pa6oTbi npn «Bau» 
HacTynaeT HexoTopoe 3aTHiube b pa6oTe (y pa6oTaiomHX OKa3biBaeT- 
ca nepeyTOMJieHHe); BHyTpn OTCTpaHBaeMoro 3ajia B03aBHraK)T Jieca; 
nepea sthm aeca 6biaH CHaTbi; h mm yBHaeaH apxHTpaBbi, Haa koto- 
pbiMH mw pa6oTajiH aeTOM — noa KynoaoM; a-P Hac, pe3HHKOB, co- 



* 3-6 okt«6p« (h.ct.) b JTppHaxe IllTefiHep iHTaji JieKUHH H3 Kypca «Okkultes Lesen 
ond Okkultes Horen». 7 okth6ph oh qnT&n TaM ace Ha TeMy «Unsere Toten». 7, 10, 12, 
18, 19, 24, 25 OKT«6p(i oh HHTaji neicuHH «Der Dornacher Bau als Wahrzeichen geschi- 
chtlichen Werdens und Kiinstlerischer Umwandlungs-impulsew. 10 h 20 ceHTH6pn (h.ct.) 
b HopHaxe oh MHiaii JieKUHH «Uber Volksseelen und die Nationalitatsidee». 



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6pan h aan xapaKTepHCTHKy Kaxaott apxHTpaBHoft (fropMM, yxa3aB Ha 
Ae<})eKTbi paGoTbi; HaMH oTpa6oTaHHbift apxHTpaB (Mapca) oh XBa- 
jihji; Korzia aeca 6binH nocTaBJieHbi, mm aojixHbi (SbiJiH npHHATbcsi 
BHOBb 3a pa6oTy: oxaejiMBaTb Hcmucmo apxHTpaBbi noa KynojioM. 
3Ta pa6oTa h naqaaacb c hoh6p». B OKT«6pe O.H. AHHeHKOBa BHe3an- 
ho yexana b Pocchio. 

B TeneHHe okth6ph Meoma mm aBaxcaM 6mhh y aoKTopa, Ha ero 
Villa «Hansiv>; oh iiphhhji mchh h Acki, KaK yHeHHKOB; % npnuiea k He- 
My c uenott namcoio pacKpauieHHbix cxeM, KOTopbie roTOBHji eMy b Te- 
HeHne Bceft 3hmm 13-14 roaa h occhh; a-p oiem. xBannji mchh 3a cxe- 
Mbi, Boo6we 6biji HeBepoHTHo kpotok h ao6p, nofl6oapHJi MeHH, ynu- 
Sajica h i obopm^ npo Moe cepaue, ito oho — coBepuieHHO 3aopOBo; 
hto moh cepaeuHbie npnnaflKH ecTb noxa3aTejib He opraHHiecicoH 6o- 
jie3HH, a BHyTpeHHero pa3BHTHH; apyroft pa3 Hac c Aceft no3BajiH k 
a-py h M.R. nHTb nafl h yacHHaTb; aoKTop h Ha stot pa3 6wji xpafiHe 
jiio6e3eH co mhok>; mw npocnaeaH y Hero uenbift Beiep; h paccica3MBaa 
o Pocchh, o Mepe^KOBCKHx; a-P npHHec k cToay rpaBiopbi KyHpaTa h 

06t>HCHKJI HeKOTOpbie H3 hhx*. 

B 3tot Mecau caynnaocb HecnacTHe: bo3 c Kaaabio, HanpaBa&B- 
uihhcs b «Bau», onpoKHHyjicH, 3anaBHB pe6eHKa, cbiHa oaHoft aHTpo- 

nOCO(J)KH, B TOT CaMblft MOMeHT, KOr^a fl-p HHTajl HaM JieKUHK). 

Me)Kay tcm: cpeaa Hac cxanH noHBJiHTbCH (Jmrypbi b qepHbix iuia- 
TbHx; 3to 6bmH MaTepn, cecTpw h /kchw y*e y6HTbix Ha BOHHe; no- 
HBHJiaci. bch b qepHOM >KeHa oropoflHHKa (aHTponoco<tbi pa3BejiH Ha 
CKjione «Bau» cboh co6ctbchhmh oropoa); noHBHaacb bch b qepHOM 
Freulein von Heidebrandt (BnooneacTBHH yHHTeabHHua Baabaop$CKOfi 
uiKo^bi); BOttHa 6ecuiyMH0 uiHbipHjia cpean Hac; to h aeao Mo6naH3a- 
UHefl BbipbiBajiHCb pa6oTHMKH npH «/ta«»: tot exan b TepMaHHio, 
3tot — bo 4>paHUHK»; yexaa JlHXT(|>orejib, cTan Hcie3aTb a-p YHrep, 
pa6oTaBUiHfl b IIlTyTrapTe no Mo6HjiH3aimH npoMbimaeHHOCTH; B3«- 
hh HH>KeHepa Epasojia (na (J>paHuy3CKHtt (ppoht); BoflHa HanoMHHana 
o ce6e nyuieiHMMH nepeKaiaMH, rayxo pa3aaBaBiiiHMHCH c ropH30H- 
xa. F c «a/iHocTbK) 3aHHTbiBajicH ra3exaMH: HaqasuiHecfl ycnexa pyc- 
ckhx, B3«xHe JlbBOBa, MCH» Kpaftne B036ywaa™; h h yflHBjiHJiCH paB- 
HoayiuHio Ach k bohhc; Boo6me: paBHOaymne, xoaoaHOCTb Ach mchh 
yrHerajiH; pacxo>KaeHHe Hauie c Hett, crojib yray6HBiiieecH b roaax h 
npHBezuuee k pa3pbiay, chjimio noanepiCHynocb b xy hmchho oceHb. 

HHoraa, cosepuieHHo yapyieHHbifl, h OTnpaBaHnca b Ea3e/ib; h 
HauHHaji raw chpotjihbo 6poaHTb no yjiHuaM, b xoaoaHOM oceHHeM 

* Khnnrath, Heinrich (ok. 1560- 1605) -- HeineiiKHB ajixHMHK, aBTop kh. «Amphi- 
theatrum sapietiae aeternae solius verae, christiano-kabalistium, divino-magicum, nee 
non physico-chymicum, tertriunum, cathoiicons (1609). KHHra nepeBOAHJiaci. Ha 4ipaH- 

uyjtkiifi. HeMeuKMft h ap. natiKi!. 



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TyMane, gecuejibHO 3a6Hpajic« b «Kuho». H Tyno co3epuaji Mcnoapa- 
mm h (]>HnbMbi c <i>poHTa; KaKoe-To rHeTymee qyBCTBO npecjieaoBaHHH 
oxBaTbiBano MeH«; MHe Ka3ajiocb: 3a mhokj kto-to cneaHT; oflHa*flbi 
nonoftux k OKHy y ce6a aoMa h pacceaHHo Br/mabiBaHCb b 3aoKOHHbiH 
TyMaH, h yBHfl&n McnoBeKa c ceaoft 6opoaoft, ocTaHOBHBuieroca nepea 
HauiHM okhom; oh 3aMeTHji mchh 3a okohhmm ctckhom, exn,aHO yjiu6- 
Hyjica h noflMHrHBaH iiokjiohhjich; noTOM oh, He oGopanHBaacb, no- 
mea b TyMaH; b ero yjibi6Ke, b khbkc 6bino hto-to Hexopoiuee; toiho 
oh noflMHrHBaji MHe Ha moh ayuieBHbie comhchhh; 3to no»BjieHHe He- 
H3BecTHoro nejioBexa BOcnpHHHJi a, KaK 3HaK KaKoro-TO HaaBHraBiue- 
roca Ha MeHfl HecnacTHH. 

Hox6pb. 

B nepBbix HHcaax HO«6pa HaTauia riomio noayiHaa Heo*HaaHHO 
nHCbMo ot MeTHepa; oh OKa3aacH b UiopHxe; BoftHa 3acTHrjia ero b 
TepMaHHH; He 3Haio, KaKHM nyTeM oh BbiKapa6icajiCH H3 TepMaHHH; b 
Pocchk) oh He 3axoTeji BepHyTbca h Bbi6paa mcctom >KHTeabCTBa Heft- 
TpajibHyKj UlBettuapHio; c MeTHepoM coeaHH*uiH Hac Bcex cTapHHHbie 
OTHOuieHHH; MeHH oco6eHHO coeaHHHna apy*6a 1901-191 1 roaoB, cob- 
MecTHaa pa6oTa b «Mycaeeme» h — BCTpena c Mhhohoboh; pa3i>eaH- 
H»jia ccopa c «MycaeemoM» (no noBoay 3ji^hcobckoh 6poiuiopbi «Vi- 
gilemus»); xihiho h pa3opBaa c hhm Bee c oceHH 1913 roaa. HaTaiua, 
noayiHB nncbMO MeTHepa, 0T03Baaacb ropnio Ha 3to rracbMo; oHa 
CKa3ajia: «Eay b UtopHx k 3MHnHK> KapaoBHqy». BepHynacb OHa H3 
UiopHxa B036y>KfleHHaH h paaocTHaa ot BCTpeiH c MeTHepoM; OHa 
CTaaa Meacay mhokj h hhm, KaK npHMHpHTenbHHua; ckopo MeTHep 
npnexaa k nomio (b Komie kohuob — ko bccm HaM); n, Ch3ob, FleT- 

POBCKHH, ACH — BCTpeTHJIHCb apy>KeJIK)6HO C HHMJ OH Ka3aJICH OHeHb 
MHJIbIM, XOTH H CK0H(j)y5KeHHbIM, IipH3HaBaHCb, HTO HM HailHCaHa KHH- 

ra npoTHB aoKTopa, hmchho: npoTHB ocBemeHwa UlTeftHepoM TeTe- 
aHCTBa*. Si 3a»BHJi, hto mu He (JmHarHKH h hto ecjiH noHaao6HTca, 
mm OTBeTHM nenaTHO »e Ha ero KHHry h 3Ta Hama HaeoaorHiecKaH 
nojieMHKa He noMemaeT HauiHM JiHHHbiM othoiuchhhm. Becb HOM6pb h 
aeKa6pb OKpameH nacTbiMH noflBaeHHJiMH H3 UropHxa MeTHepa; Mbi 
BCTpeiajiHCb mhpojik>6hbo h Beceao; MHoro cnopH/in aoKiope, Bcno- 
MHHajiH npoiuabie roabi, o6iuhx apy3eft: MeTHep MHoro HaM paccKa- 
3biBaa 06 3aance h frau IloojibMaH, jkhbiiihx noa Ba3ejieM (c 3ji- 
jihcom h He BCTpeiajicfl); h mu ynHBjianHCb, hto Bonefi cyab6bi b nac 
mhpoboh BOHHbi Mbi, TpH 6biBUiHx copeaaKTopa «Mycaeema» oKa3a- 



* MeTHep 3.K. PA3MbIIUJIEHHJl O rETE. Knuea I. Pai6op en/indoe P.Ulmeu- 
nepa e cemu c eonpoca/nu KpumuifMMa, cuMeo/iu3Ma u oKKy/ibmit3Ma. M., «Myca- 
reT», 1914, 525 c. 



412 



jihci. b oahom nyHKTe noiTH (IJiopHx ot Ba3ejui b paccToaHHH aByx ia- 
cob e3flbi)*. Mexcay TeM: H3 Mocxbm HaM npncjiajiH KHHry MeTHepa h 
h npHHHJicfl cTapaTenbHo ee H3yiaTb; mch« noTpsc toh khhi-h: xcejii- 
Hbift, 3Jioft, HanaaaTejibHwA; x Btinen, hto nepBax KHHra b Pocchh o 
AOKTope IIlTeftHepe pncyeT aoxTopa b yxacHOM, HCxaJKeHHOM BHfle; h 
h noHjui, qTO ocTaB^ATb TaKyio KHHry 6e3 OTBeTa Heiu>3Ji; n nocTaBWi 

3TO Ha BHfl CH30By, IleTpOBCKOMy, BOJIOUIHHOH; rOBOPHJI, HTO X 6blJl 

6w CHacTjiHB He nncaTb OTBeTa MeTHepy, earn 6w KTo-HH6yab (Ha- 
npHMep — Ch30b) b3hjich 3a otbct; ho hhkto He b3hjicji; h a nomui, 
hto OTBeT npHfleTCH nncaTb MHe; h nocoBeTOBajicx c Mapueft £kob- 
jieBHOtt (noMHio, hto 6biJi Ha Villa «Hansi» no 3TOMy noBoay); M.R. 
coBeTOBajia MHe B3HTbcn 3a otbct; ho B3HTbca 3a otbct 6wjio oco6eH- 
ho TpyflHo: « HHKorna He niTyflHpoBan ecTecTBeHHO-HayMHbix cohhhc- 
hhh y TeTe; Boo6me He 6wji tCthctom (MeTHep *e 6hji CTapHHHbifi 
tCthct); KpoMe Toro: h He hhtsji KHHr aoxTopa o TeTe, hh — bboqh- 
TenbHbix cTaTett k TfiTeBy TexcTy. C HO»6p$i h pa3no6biBaio Bee, Ha- 
nncaHHoe aoxTopoM o T6tc, pa3Ao6biBaio tomu KiopuiHepoBcxoro 
H3flaHH« «Naturwissenschaftliche Schriften» rere**; npmuiMaiocb 
H3yiaTb TeTeB tcxct, npHMenaHHH aoxTopa, BBOAHTejibHbie CTaTbH h 
ero XHHrn, nocB&iueHHbie TeTe***; Me*ay TeM, MeTHep Haao mhoio 
nocMeHBaeTC«: «TlHuiHTe, nnuiHTe: bw MoaceTe co mhoh nojieMH3upo- 
BaTb B CMblCJie onpoBep>KeHHH mohx aHTponoco(t>CKHx 3XCXypC0B, HO 
jiynue He xacattTecb Moero noHHMaHHx T€Te; npcaynpeHcaaio Bac, — 
BaM He cnpaBHTbc«». Mexny TeM no Mepe Moero yrny6neHHH b tcxct 
rfrre h Bee ripHMeqaHHx aoxTopa, no Mepe cjiHHeHHH 3Toro MaTepHaJia 
c Bbicxa3biBaHHeM MeTHepa, MHe BbiHCHJieTCH, «rro MeTHep npn xpn- 
THxe uiTeftHepoBcxoro reTeaHCTBa He HcnojibsoBan 6ojiee 3 /4 MaTepna- 
na, HanncaHHoro aoxTopoM o TfiTe; nerxoMbicneHHOCTb KHHrH MeTHe- 
pa MeHH HavHuaeT npocTO noTpacaTb. BMecTe c TeM nepeao mhoio 
pa3BepTbiBaeTc« BnepBbie rpaHflH03Ha» xapTHHa mhpom eme He noHH- 
Toro TCTeBa ecTecTB03HaHH«; h eme 6onee MeHH noTpacaeT yrny6- 



* Cp. b nucbMe MaTepH ot 8 Aexa6pa / 25 Hon6pii 1914 r.: «CTpaHHan cyxu>6a: b 
AByxvacoBOM paccTOHHHH ot Hac (b LliopHxe) 4 MecHua xcwi h jkhbct 3.K. MeTHep, 3a- 
rHaHHwfi ctoan H3 TepMaHHH; h mm sToro He 3HanH; h oh 3Toro He 3Haji; Heaenn non- 
Topw TOMy Hasan mm y3HanH 3to. Harauia e3nana k HeMy; b 3to BocxpeceHbe oh npne- 
atr k HaM b rocTH; 3jijihc we xcHBeT b BepHe. CTpaHHo: b sto poxoBoe BpeMx Becb 6mb- 
uihh Mycaeem cynb6oK> 0Ka3ajic« 3arHaH b ohho MecTo: 3njinc, MeTHep, », IleTpoB- 
CKHfi, CH30B. Tojibxo KHceneB OKa3ajicn b Pocchh». (UrAJlH, (J).53, on.l, ea.xp.359). 
' GOETHES NATURWISSENSCHAFTLICHE SCHRIFTEN. Von Rudolf Steiner 
mil Einleitungen, Fussnoten und ErlUuterungen im Text herausgegeben», 4 TOMa, 1883- 
1897, H3fl. Joseph KUrschner. 

••* Cm., HanpHMep, ero GRUNDLINIEN EINER ERKENNTNISTHEORIE DER 
GOETHESCHEN WELTANSCHAUUNG... (1886) h GOETHES WELTANSCHAU- 
UNG (1897). 



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Toro rfrreBa ecTecTB03HaHHH; h eme 6ojiee Mem noTpxcaeT yrjiy6- 
jieHHoe B3OTHe r&tt ooktooom; « Hamtnaio BnepBue noHHMaTb reTe- 
aHCKHe kophh aHTponoco(J)HH h ynHpaiocb b npooneMbi «<t>Hnoco<t>HH 
AHTponoco<t)HH». Becb Ho«6pb h aejca6pb npoxoa«T b rjiy6oxoM no- 
3HaBaTejibHOM BocTopre nepca hoboh, pa3BepTbiBaiomettcH nepcao 
mhok} xapTHHoio: rHoceojyorHHecKofl npaBOTbi ikhhuhh UlTeflHepa; 
moh Mucjib Hanp«*eHHO, ycHjieHHO pa6oTaeT: « nepeiHTbiBaio KHHrH 
AOKTopa: «RHtsel der Philosophies «Philosophie der Freiheit», aWah- 
rheit und Wissenschqft*, «Grundlinien der Erkenntnistheorie der Goe- 
theschen Weltanschauung*, h apyrHe*. BpeMeBHo KHHra Meroepa ot- 
CTynaeT Ha BTOpofl ruiaH; h yauieHHO pa3pa6aTbiBaK> cboh co6ctbch- 
hmh noaxofl k (J)hjioco(J)hh aHTponoco(J)HH, k reTeaHCTBy, k reTeaHCTBy 
UlTeflHepa h nepcuo mhoio HaiHHaeT BbipHCOBbiBaTbc* cB«3Haji xapTH- 
Ha B033peHHfi; ho & 3Haio, hto 3Ty xapTHHy B033peHHH ft noBepHy Ha 
MeTHepa, xax TapaH. 

IlpH BCTpenax c MeTHepoM ft qyBCTByio HexoTopyio HejioBKocrb, 
h6o ft 3Haio, hto ft OTTanHBaK) CH/u>Hoe opyxcHe npoTHB Hero; o Moefl 
6yaymefl KHHre mm c hhm nocMeHBaeMca; oh uiyxHT: «riHuiHTe, rai- 
uiHTe!» Ho b 3tom Tone B3awMHofl uiyTjiHBocTH qyBCTByeTCft Hanpa- 

JKeHHe H OTCyTCTBHe B3aHMHOrO flOBepHH; OTHOUieHHfl HatUH OCTaiOTCft 

jiHiiib BHeiuHe apyxcecKHMH; « omymaio, hto Hauia flpy*6a c hhm no- 
aopBana h hto ue xBaTaeT jmuib BHemnero noBoaa k TOMy, ito6m OHa 
pyxHyjia OKOHMaTenbHo. Meacfly tcm: MeTHep xax-TO npoTHHyT x aH- 
Tponoco<J>aM b stot nepHoa; oh yaHBJiHeTCH HauieMy npasHJibHOMy 
oTHomeHHK) k BOHHe (HenpHftTHio ee) h k «cok>3hukom»; mu BeaeM c 
hhm nojirHe, <J)Hnoco<J)cKHe pa3roBopw, boahm Ha «Bau», co6HpaeMCft 
naxce ero no3HaKOMHTb c UlTeflHepoM. 

SI BHOBb HaHHHaro pa6oTaTb npn «Bau», noa xynonoM, Ha apxn- 
TpaBax; mm «Ha*iucmo» 0Tpa6aTbiBaeM $opMbi, oTpa6oTaHHbie ne- 
tom (Ham «Mapc»); xaxceTCH, b 3tot Mecftii 3aKaH«mBaK)TCH BnepHe 
TpH orpoMHbix aepeBHHHbix (fcopMbi Haa TpeMH nopTanaMH; Ha rnsa- 
hom nopTane pa6oTaeT rnaBHbiM o6pa30M rpynna HeMueB; Ha npasoM 
nopTajie pa6oTaeT Ch30b; na jicbom rpynna, cocTOHiuaft H3 IleTpoB- 
cKoro, Tpane3HHKOBa, HoHTep, Xo/ibujieHTep h KyqepoBOft. Acji 
MHoro yaexifteT BpeMeHH pa6oTe Ha erexnax; h npmiexHO 3aHHMaeTCft 
3BpHTMHett noa. pyxoBoacTBOM KHcejieBOft, cTaBiueH Tenepb y«urrenb- 
HHuett 3bphtmhh b flopHaxe; b ee rpynne MHe noMHftTCM, KpoMe Ach: 
HaTaina, EoroHBjieHCKaft, Tpoocc, Aft3eHTpeft, ase 6apbiuiHH Jlte h 
flpyrHe. C Acefi npoaojiacaeTCft Moe pacxoxaemie. C HaTameii y MeHft 

CTHJlb BJIK)6jieHHOH flpyxc6bi. 



• DIE RATSEL DER PH1LOSOPHIE. 2 rr. (1914); DIE PHILOSOPHIE DER 
FREIHEIT(im); WAHRHEITUND iVISSENSCHAFT (1894); GRUNDLINIEN... — 
cm. Bbiuie. 



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3-iot MecHU MHe ropa3ao Jienie: pa6ona Ha apxHTpaBe h cepi,e3- 
Hwe noaHaBaTejibHbie nepe*HBaHH« (H3yMemie FfcTe h 4»uioco<i>HH 
IllTettHepa) oxxarHBaiox Moe BHHMaHHe ot MHorofro] THHcenoro, qTO 
wHBeT b Moeft ayiue. 

MopnoBHH ye3*aex b Pocchio; Bojiouihh HaiHHaex xaroTHTbCJi 
ZlopHaxoM, ero thhct b IlapHw; oh pa3pa6aTbiBaeT npoeKT 6yflymett 
3aH3BecH, aojDKeHCTByiomeH OTaejiHTb CTeHy ot 3pHTenbHoro 3ana 
np« «Bau». 

nexa6pb. 

B zseKa6pe HanHnaex KaK 6yaTo Kpermyxb CTHJib aopHaxcKofl *H3- 
hm HotHHoro BpeMeHH; moan npHcnoca6jiHBaK)XCH k BoftHe; mw yace 
enojiHe npHBbiKaeM k pacKBapxnpoBaHHbiM BOttcxaM b ilopHaxe h Ap- 
:i;viefiMe, npHBi.iKac-M k «KeflHeBHOH KaHOHaae, cjimiuhoh c rpaHHUbi; 
aairejiH Ap.iecretiMa a AopHaxa ycnoKaHBaKJTOj: HeftTparrHxeT IIlBefl- 
uapHH ne 6>iieT HapyiueH; Mo6HjiH3HpoBaHHbie uiBeftuapubi, HauiH 
4'ickw, nona;iHKiTCH cpew Hac onjiTb; aHTponoco<l)KH HaMHHaiOT pa3- 
BisBaib ciioto ae«xe;ii.HocTb; noOTHMaeror HHxeHCHBHoexb paSox; Ha- 
HHiiawTca peneTHUHH 3BpHTMHHecKOft rpynnbi, co6HpaiomeHCfl k Pojk- 
jecTBy i'ocraBHib b oaHOM H3 JiecoiiHJibHbix capaeB, ocBo6o»fleHHOM 
ot Minium UTO.i»pHbie paSoxw 3aKOHneHbi) h npeBpameHHOM b no- 
croHHHyKj ayainoputo, — 3BpHXMHwecKHe HOMepa; b capae ctpohtch 
noaHyM, noHB.iHK)Tc« cKavibH una 3pHTeneft h 3aHaBec; pyccKHe b cbok> 
o-iepeab roToB»T zt-py pojKflecxBeHCKHft HOMep: upocjiaBJieHHe 3Be3- 
/iw; xop h 3BpHTMH4ecKHe ttmrypbi, >KHBonHcyioiuHe poJKflecTBeHCKoe: 
«XpHctoc po>KaaeTC»»; npHroxoB/uiexcH orpoMHan 6yMa*HaH (fropMa 
3Be)ijbi (HiHyxpH jawa<eHHa«), Ha 6ojilihoh najiice; npoacxomix cneB- 
km xopa m peneTHUHH 3bphtmhctok; bch rpynna yHacxHHKOB — pyc- 
ckhc; 8 xope npHHajiH y^acrHe Me»ay npoiMM Tpane3HHK0B, ManH- 
kob, JlHrcKHft, CinoB, KcMnep, rioiiuo; b sbphtmhhcckoh rpynne: 
Ach, Harauia, EoroflBjieHcicaH, OpuaKHHa, KHccneBa, BojiouiMHa; mw 
c Acefi saao/iro no pojKflecTBa ao6biBaeM eJiomcy; h npHBOacy H3 Ba- 
3eAH pa3noo6pa3Hbie enoHHbfe yicpaiiieHHH (uiapu h cepe6p«Hyio xaHH- 
Te.ab); saaoiiro no powflccxBa Hama KOMHaTa npn6paHa h yicpauieHa 
enKofl, 

S\ npoaojiwaio ynopHefluie TaHHMaxbca rexe h KOMMeHxapHBMH k 
Fere noKTopa; h bcc 6ojiee yflHBJi«K>cb TOMy, hto bch KHHra MexHepa 
nocTpoeHa Ha pa3Koc khhui UIxeftHepa «Goethes Weltanschauung^, 
HBJiHiomeHcs jiHiiib BHeiiiHeft 3Kcno3HiweH ero B3rjiHfla, BHyTpeHHe 
o6ocHoaaHHoro orpoMHbiM kojihhcctbom aeTajibHeKuiHX KOMMeHTa- 

pHeB, flJIHHHeflUlHMH BBOaHTeJIbHWMH CTaTbHMH (BBOflHTejlbHafl CTa- 

TbH k reTeBOfl 6HOJiorHH onHa — npeBbiiuaeT pa3MepaMH Bee «Goeth- 
es Weltanschauung*; h BbiziBHraK? MexHepy Bonpoc, KaK oh Mor He 

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03HaK0MHTbc« c TaKHM ueHHbiM MaTepH&noM; MeTHep OTBeqaeT ner- 
KOMbicjrenHO, hto oh 3to caenan co3HaTejibHo; bo MHe KpenHeT peuie- 
iwe He nomaflHTb ero b CBoeft KHHre — tcm 6ojiee, hto a HaTuxaiocb 
b ero KHHre Ha paa rpy6e!tiuHx npoMaxoB h oTHocHT&nbHO noHHMaHHa 
TeTe; TaK, oh npeBpaTHO TomcyeT naevo y TeTe, rpy6efliiie CMeiUHBaeT 
yneHHe o npoTOTHne c yneHHeM o npoTO(J>eHOMeHe; Bee 3to a peuiaio 
oTMeTHTb b CBoefl KHHre, T.e. peuiaio He Tojibxo o6opoH*Tb rfrnnM 
IIlTeliHepa ot ero HacxoKOB, ho h yHHHTOHCHTb MeTHepoBO noHHMaHHe 
TeTe; 3Haio, hto 3Toro MeTHep MHe He npocTHT HHKoraa; TeM Tpya- 
Hee MHe c hhm apyacecKH BCTpenaTbcx; tohho npeflnyBCTBya moh Ha- 
MepeHHH, MeTHep MHe Heo/iHoicpaTHO tobopht: «EcAu eta e KHuee 3a- 
mpoHeme Moe eemeaHcmeo, mo uMeume e eudy, nmo etacmynum e Mo- 
cxee ho mok> 3au4umy Mean AneKcaHdpoem H/ibUH» (Bnoc/ieacTBHH 
npo(J>eccop); oh MHoro MHe tobopht o CBoeft apy*6e c HnbHHbiM; h 
xax 6yflTO aaace yrpowaeT HnbHHbiM; Bee sto jmiiib pa33KHraeT bo 
MHe na<J)oc k aTaxe ochobhux MHpoB033pHTejibHbix TBepabiHb MeT- 
Hepa. 

Meacay tcm: mm b MeTHepe 3aMenaeM aBHoe nono6peHHe; h aaxce 
hotu aocaabi Ha ce6a 3a to, hto oh npeameBpeMeHHO BbinycTwi b 
CBeT cbok) KHHry; b ero TOHe MejibKaiOT conyBCTBeHHbie hotw no ot- 
HoiueHHio k aoKTopy; mw BbixnonaTbiBaeM pa3peuieHHe eMy noceraTb 
oflHy H3 jieKiiHit aoKTopa; nocne jickuhh a noaBoacy ero k aoKTopy h 
3HaK0Mnio c hhm; aoktop, KOTopbifl 3HaeT, hto MeTHep BbinycTHji 
KHHry npoTHB Hero, tcm He MeHee oneHb jno6e3eH c MeTHepoM; noM- 
HHTCD, ohh o6MeHHBaK>TCfl KaKOK>-To (j>pa3oft o BeprcoHe; MeTHep bo 
BpeMfl 3Toro KpaTKoro pa3roBopa MHe KaaceTca pacTepaHHMM h CMy- 

IIieHHblM, KaK npOBHHHBIUHHCX IUKOJIbHHK. 

MeTHep name Bcero 6biBaeT y HaTauiH riouuo h M.B. Bokoiuh- 
Hofi (Ca6auiHHKOBOH); c HaTauiefl oh hbho apyacHT; h bo MHe iioahh- 
MaeTCH cMyTHaa peBHocTb k MeTHepy (MHoro aeT cnycTH, yace b Bep- 
amie, b 1923 roay, HaTauia, OTpHiiaa cbok) BHHy, T.e. kokctctbo co 
mhoh, MHe npH3Hajiacb, hto b Ty nopy OHa nio6Haa MeTHepa, — CTa- 
jio 6biTb: moh peBHocTb HMejia noHBy); 6aH»e BraaawBaacb b MeTHe- 
pa, a BHJKy, hto oh pa3HTejibHo H3MeHnncH: nocTapea, cTaa BHyTpeH- 
He yrpK)M; hckphctmh 6aecK ero peneft noKpbiaca KaKHM-TO yrpKJMbiM 
HaneTOM; oh HeonHOKpaTHO 3axBnaa, hto CTaHOBHTca 3aB3«TbiM no- 
kjiohhhkom TeopHH Qpeftaa h K)Hra, hto «ncuxoaHaau3» b Hero npa- 
mo BnHcaH; stot «0peudu3M» OTTanKHBaeT peuiHTejibHO ot mchh 
MeTHepa; a BocnpHHHMaio 3th yBneneHHa MeTHepa BpaxaeoHo. BMe- 
CTe c TeM, a yaHBJixiocb hckotopmm «8HympeHHUM 3hohuhm» MeTHe- 
pa, COOTBeTCTByiOUlHM MOHM ny3HOHUHM», nOJiyHeHHblM H3 onuTa 

MeaHTauHfl, xoTopbift a pa3BHji b ce6e 3a 1912, 1913 h 1914 roau; 
MeTHep MHe HaMeKaeT, hto h y Hero ecTb hchto, BnojiHe cootbctct- 

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3yiomee Me/urramiH; « nojiaraio, hto 3to cTapwe McaHxauHH Mhhu- 
JioBott, AaHHbie HaM eme b 1909 roay. BnocneaerBHH, kto-to MHe CKa- 
3&n, hto MeTHep b to BpeMx 6wn 6jih3ok c npeacTaBHTenaMH icaKoft- 
to jihhhh nepcHflCKoro 0KKyjibTH3Ma; HjieHw oflHoro oiucynbTHoro 06- 
mecTBa (Ha3BaHHe 3a6bm), npoBoaaume b %H3Hb 3Ty jihhhio, 6mjih b 
UiopHxe; HaBepHoe, MeTHep c hhmh o6mancn; KpoMe Toro: oh b to 
BpeMH 6wn 6jih30k c 3jmhcom h c Frau noo/ibMaH-Mofl, okojio koto- 
poft BHTajia Bceraa «OKKy/ibmHM» aTMOc$epa. KaK 6bi to hh 6bijio, 
MeTHep b 3Ty snoxy MHe KaaceTca KaKHM-To «node/wdbieameneM» 6m- 
Ta Harnett kh3hh; h y MeHH oTKJiaabiBaeTca HeKOTopoe onaceHHe, KaK 
6w s b «dpyxcecKux» pa3roBopax c hhm He CKa3aji 6w iero-HH6yab 
JiHiuHero; 3to OTHouieHHe k Meraepy bo MHe yKpenxmeTCH, M.B. Bo- 
aoiUHHa, b npe*HHe roflbi BecbMa apyHCHBiuaa c MeTHepoM (b Ty no- 
py OHa Apy*HJia c 3HrnepTOM, (J>aKTHHecKH CTpoHTeJieM «Bau», h 
TJ\ Tpane3HHKOB, c kotopwm c Komja 1914 roaa y mchh HanajiH cmia- 
abiBaTbCH oneHb TecHbie othouichhji; oaHOBpeMeHHo: a CTaa Bee 6o.raee 
h 6ojiee 3axoflHTb k TaTbKHe AraeKceeBHe EepreHrpioH, nepecejiHBUieft- 
ch H3 EepjiHHa b flopHax; T.A. BHfl&na Moe Bee pacTymee oaHHOHecr- 
bo h HyTKofl aymofi noHHMajia, KaK MHe tjdkcjio b £opHaxe; OHa ro- 

BOptUia MHe, HTO UeHHT MOIO CKpOMHOCTb, HTO BHflHT, KaK H 3aflbIXa- 

iocb cpeflH BHeuiHHX h BHyTpeHHHx «H&w//ee»; ona HaMeKana MHe, hto 

BHflHT, KaK ACH OTXOflHT OT MeHH, 6pOCa» MeHH B OflHHOHeCTBO; TOBO- 

pHna, hto He conyBCTByeT Ace; MHe Ka3anocb, — OHa noHHMaeT, hto 
s BerynHji b nonocy THrnaHiuHX HcnbiTaHHfi ayum; sto ace MHe roBO- 
Phjt h Tpane3HHKOB. TaK b 6eceaax c Tpan[e3HHKOB]biM h c T.A. Eep- 
reHrpioH nepnaji a HeKOTopyro MopanbHyio cHjiy; h KpoMe Toro: b 3thx 
6eceaax h BbixoaHJi H3 toh rycTOii aTM0c4)epbi «TypreHeBmHHbi», b 
KOTopyio norpyacajiH mchh no-pa3HOMy cecTpw nTypeeneebiyy, T.e. 
HaTaiua h Ach, xaxcaaH no-CBoeMy; Tpane3HHKOB KaK 6bi MHe roBO- 
pHJi: «ByflbTe cao6oflHbi h He3aBHCHMbi: He bhchtc aymeBHO Ha Ahhb 
A^eKceeBHe: OHa — HeaoBeK xojioaHbia h caepacaHHbift; bw pa3o6be- 
Tecb o ee xojioa». A y T.A. EepreHrpioH npopwBajiHCb hotw hhcto 
xceHCKoro pa3apa>KeHHH Ha HaTauiy h Ack>; OHa KaK 6bi roBopHjia 
MHe: «Be3o6pa3He, — BaMH BepTHT "deetOHKu", KOTopbie yMCTBeHHO 
h MopanbHO ctoat ropa3/io hhjkc Bac: stab bw — nncaTenb, He3ayp»a- 
Haa jiHHHOCTb; a sac Bauia "Acm" xoneT aepacaTb noa 6auiMaKOM». 
y Hee npopbiBanHCb hotm hbhoh aocaabi Ha A.M. rioimo; ona roso- 
pnjia: «AneKcaHflp MHxaftjioBHH c cbohm KyjibTOM "Hamaiuu", — 
npocTO cMeuioH; yMHbiit, HHTepecHbifl H&noBeK, a BbinuwHT KaKoro-To 
"(fiunuo/ibKoto"; 3Ta "Hamauia" hm BepTHT KaK xoneT...» 

B Ty nopy 6eceabi c Tpane3HHKOBbiM h c EepreHrpioH aaBajiH MHe 
MHoroe; b 3thx 6eceaax BnepBbie HaMeTHjiacb MHe mom 6yaymaa 3MaH- 
CHnauHH ot «Hamaiuu» h «Acu», KOHHHBiuaaca CBepweHHe.M HaBceraa 

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vmamapcKOzo uea» Moeft ayuiH (poa TypreHeBwx — TarapcKoro npo- 

HCXOXAeHHJl). 

Hap&ziy c 3thm b 3to BpeMH ocymecTBjiHeTCJi moh otpwb ot apy- 
roro «/fea», ot nra M..H. CHBepc, CTaBiuefi «a-p IIlTeftHep»; 3to 
«ueo» aanaocb roa; bc« orpoMHOCTb MapHH .HKOBaeBHbi OTKpbiaacb 
MHe c BepreHa, T.e. c okt«6pji 1913 roaa; c 3Toro BpeMeHH x nonyB- 
CTBOBan, hto MOKny HaMM B03HHiuia oco6aa, HenepeaaBaeMaH cB»3b; 
M.SL. CTajia raa&TbCfl b mohx CHax, b mohx MeaHTauHflx; OHa Bceraa 
CTOiuia b ueHTpe Moeft ayum; a cnpauiHBan cobctob y o6pa3a ee, bo3- 
HHKaBiuero H3 mohx MeaHTauHti; h 3tot o6pa3 noicasbiBaa MHe ocae- 
nHToibHbie ayxoBHbie ropH30HTbi, THroTeHbe k kotopmm noacTern- 
Bano mok) ayxoBHyio pa6oTy; OHa iioctojihho CTOJUia b ueHTpe Moeft 
ayuiH h xax 6w yKa3biBana MHe Ha B03MoxcHbie aocTHHceHHa; h h 6po- 
caaca Ha 3th TBepabiHH ayxa; ho HyBCTBya, hto MHe hx He oaoaeTb, 
n yaBaHBaji, yHeTBepaa, yaecHTepjia ayxoBHbie ynpa*HeHHH, hto6w, 

Tax CKa3aTb, HOaBHHTHTb CBOH (aCTpaJIbHOe, 3(J)HpHOe H (J)H3HHeCKOe) 

Tana no rapMOHHH hx c mhpom ayxa; nepHoa ot okt«6ph 1913 roaa ao 
noflBJieHH» b JJopHaxe 6biji aa« mchji nepnoaoM cnaouiHoft MeaHTa- 
uhh; h ayxoBHO BHaea to, ito aewaao Bbiuie Memi; h qyBCTBOBaa ce6a 
npHnoflHSTbiM Haa caMHM co6ok>; h h 3Haa, «ito 3Ta npnnoaHHTocTb 
ecTb «0KKyabTHan» noMomb, nocbiaaeMan MHe Mapnefi flKOBaeBHott, 
KOTopyio a 6oroTBopHa; OHa CTaaa aaa MeHH oaho BpeM« bccm: cecT- 
pofl, MaTepbio, apyroM h cHMBoaoM Co(J>hh; ee aeftTMOTHB b ayme 
Bbi3biBaa bo MHe 3ByK, onaoTHneMbiH cnoBaMH: 
«Ch«h *e, yKa3biBaft nyTb, 

Bean k HeaocrynHOMy cnacTbio 

Toro, kto nmexabi He 3Haa. 

H cepaue yTOHeT b BOCTopre 

FIpH BHae Te5H...»* 
PaayMeeTCR b 3tom MHe HenoHKTHOM o6oroTBopeHHH M.R. He 3Byna- 
ae HOTbi «Bafo6aeHHOCTH»; h Bee *e: o6pa3 ee 6wa una mchh chmbo- 
aoM CocJmh; HHoraa ?tot o6pa3 MHe roBopna: «Bot Tenepb h Te6« 
ocTasaHK): onHpaftcn Ha OKKyabTHyK) noMomb, KOTopyio h Te6eaaaa 
h yxce 6e3 mchh aepacncb Ha ayxoBHOfi BbicoTe...» H o6pa3 MeHH noKH- 
aaa; h h b mohx nepexcHBEHHHx ayxoBHoft BbicoTbi lyscTBOBaa ce6* 
toiho Bbi6pouieHHbiM c asponaana; « HeMeaaeHHO naaaa, pa36HBaacb 
06 ycaoBHn )kh3hh b HyBCTBeHHOM Teae; h HanHHaa 6HneBaTb 3to Te- 



* Bejibift npHBOflHT jth CTpoKH b «6epjiHHCKOft penaiuiHH» HA VAJIA BEKA: «/.../ 
h — h oTflancH BecHe, He xax b npouuioM roay; noabiMajioi cTapHHHuft jno6HMbift mo- 
thb: [iiHTaTa]. H Koraa-TO npocH^ 3Ty necHio ncrb Ahhy BacmibeBHy; h bot Tenepb 3Ty 
necHK) nponena n'A.ibre(4M Ha BeceHHeM xoHuepTe...». Bejiufl miTHpyeT noc/iexiHHe 
HeTbipe ctdokh b HA HASIE BEKA (c.403) h nepBbie Tp H b MEJKHyjJByXPEBOJJK)- 
U.HH (c.367) — b cBfHH c a'AnbreftM, ho He Ha3MBaii h« aBTopa cjiob, hh KOMno3HTopa. 

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no, 6opoTbc« c co6oft, a Te.no, xax xonb 6ea yzixbi, BJieioio mchh Tyaa, 
rae Ha mchh HananajiH jiK>uH<i)epHHecKHe h apHMaHHnecxHe Hcxycbi; 
h — naaan; h Toraa o6pa3 flyxoBHbift M..H. rnaaeji Ha mchh c yxopH3- 
hok), a Ha (J)H3HMecKOM nnaHe MapHH JSxoBJieBHa CTaHOBHJiacb no ot- 
HomeHHio ko MHe HenpHflTHoit, Bpa»fle6Hoft; Tax Ha <J)H3HHecKOM iura- 
He Me*ay Havm HaHHH&nHCb pa3MOJiBKH h cnopu 6e3 cjiob; noTOM — 
nacTynajio npHMHpeHHe: M..H., h HyBCTBOBaji, onHTb aaBana MHe 
cbok) noMOiub; h Ha xpbuibflx 3toh nojuoiuH h BHOBb HyBCTBOBaji ce6a 
B03HeceHHWM b «mup dyxav> no ... cneayromero naaeHHH. 

B 3thx «ccopax» h «npuMupeHtvix», «83nemax» h «nadeHivix» 
npoTemia ana mchh bch 3HMa h BecHa 1913-1914 toaob. H ce6n nonyB- 
cTBOBan k oceHH 1914 rofla coBepmeHHo 4>H3HHecxH H3MyneHHbiM, xo- 

TH H HyBCTBOBaji, HTO flyXOBHO 3a 3TOT nepHOfl H y3Han CTOJIb MHoro 
HCTHH, HTO C 3THMH «HCTHHaMH» H 6bl MOr npOJKHTb He OflHO, a MHO- 

ro BonjiomeHHH. Kajxabifi B3JieT nocne na/jeHHa 6wji bmciuhm B3Jie- 
tom; ho xaacaoe cjieayromee naaeHHe 6bijio eme 6o/iee yacacHbiM; 
opaMaa jihhhh pasBHTHH cTajia 3Hr3aroo6pa3HOft As/\/ '< b pe3ynb- 
raTe pocTa flHana30Ha naaeHHft h B3JieTOB b ayuie CTano oxcHBaTb Bee 
6o/ibuiee pa3flBoeHHe; c nera 1914 roaa, xonia h BJiro6HJicfl b HaTaiuy, 
bo MHe npoH30iuen BHyrpeHHe xax 6bi pa3pwB «fl» Ha JiBa «J7»; xcH3Hb 
Bbicuiero «.#» bo MHe y6HBajia Moe <J)H3KHecxoe 3/iopoBbe; Tpe6oBaHHX 
3Toro 3flopoBb« xax 6bi BbinepKHBajiH H3 Mens 5kh3hl ayxa bo mhc 
HaxoHeu, nocjie/jHHH xoh<J)/ihxt jx&yx 6opk>iuhxch «-#» bo MHe okoh- 

HHJICH MOHM CHJIbHeftlHHM CepfleHHbIM npHnaflXOM, BO BpeMH KOTOpO- 
rO H HyBCTBOBaji HHCTO (J)H3HOJIOrHHeCXH, HTO «HCHTO» BbipBailOCb H3 

Moero cepaua, $H3HHecxH pa36nB ero; h — yHecjiocb, noxHHyB mchh, 
b ziyxoBHyro BbicoTy; h nepOKHBan 3tot BbipbiB Bbicuiero «J7» H3 mc- 
hh, xaK CBOK) flyXOBHyKJ CMepTb; )KH3Hb MCflHTaTHBHaH 3aTOpM03H- 

jiacb bo mhc: McnHTauHH bo MHe, xoraa h ee Hanparaji ao npe>KHeH ch- 
Jibi, Bbi3biBajia JiHuib cepaeHHbiH npHnaaox, bo BpeMH xoToporo mchh 
oxBaTbiBan cTpax cMepra; h 3tot cTpax flHXTOBara MHe 3aMcojieHHe 
Bcero pHTMa /jymeBHOH pa6oTw; 3aMeaneHHe sxe pHTMa B3pbiBano 

BO MHe POCT HHCTO (|>H3HHeCXHX nOTpe6HOCTeft; HyBCTBeHHOCTb c He- 

no6eaHMOH chjioh BCTaBana bo MHe; a kokctctbo HaxauiH npHTara- 
Bano 3Ty HyBCTBeHHOCTb x Hett. JXo cepaeHHbix npHnaaxoB h c Hero 60- 
ponca; ho Mbicjib, hto caMas 3Ta 6opb6a Bbi3Bana cepaenHbie npHiian- 
xh, Bbiaepnyjia H3-nofl hot caMyK) noHBy 6opb6bi; h h, ynaBuiHfi b cBoe 
Teno, BHeuiHe 6pomeHHbift Acefl, Bcero chjiokj ayiueBHoro 3poTH3Ma 
xax 6m npHJiennjiCH x HaTaiue; h caMyio rpeuiHOCTb noao6Horo «npu- 
nenneHUHy> h npHnoaHHn, xax hchto HopMajibHoe; Ha M.^. h nocMaT- 
pHBan c 03opcTBOM «6yHTa»; «ccopa» c Hero Bena mchh He x «npuMU- 
penuio», xax npe*ae, a x BHyTpeHHeMy HacTynjieHHio Ha Hee: OTHOiue- 

HHe X Heft Bbipa3HJIOCb BO MHe CBOeo6pa3HbIM HyBCTBOM, xoTopoe H 

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Hec b CBoeft ayuie, KaK «03opcmeo». fla, a craji no OTHomemno k 
M.R. «o3ophukom» h «6yHmapeM»; oita cnepBa cepaunacb Ha Memi, 
noTOM xaK 6w MaxHyjia Ha mchh pyKoil; a 3Han, hto rae-To OTHome- 
Hue ee ko mhc ocranocb HeH3MeHHbiM, hto ona BepHT, <ito 3aTjrayB- 
oihhck bo MHe koh(J)iihkt cBeTa c TbMofi okohhhtch no6eaoft CBeTa, 
ho hto Ha BpeMX 3toh nepenyTaHHOCTH pa3flBoeHHbix nojioBHHOK ay- 
iuh Moeft OHa BHyTpeHHO noKHaaer MeHa; KaK b BepxHHx c$epax co- 
3HaKKJi Moero b npeabiayujHft nepHoa »auia M..H., TaK nocne okth6p* 
b HH3uinx c$epax co3HaKHH Moero 3a»HJi o6pa3 «Hamautu». HHoraa 
h BcnoMHHaji c tockok) o ayxoBHbix c$epax, Menu noKHHyBHiHx; h th- 
xcejioe HeaoyMeHHe mlr «kpoxom» cbohm >khjio bo MHe; a yaHBajuioi, 
hto cepaeHHyio 6one3Hb mok) (npoayKT 6opb6bi CocJwh c HaTaiueft) 
aoKTop Ha3biBan uiaroM Bnepea; caMbift jiacKoabia, cepaeHHbifi toh 
aoKTopa no OTHOiueHHio ko MHe (a oh b 3tot nepnoa caiibHO ko MHe 
noao6pea), Bbi3biBaa bo MHe rpycTHoe HeaoyMeHHe; h ce6e roBopHji: 
«Hjih flOKTop He noHHMaeT, hto nponcxoaHT bo MHe? rioHCMy ace oh 
Ha3WBaer " Vorschrift' "om to, hto h b ce6e Hecy, KaK naaeHHe?» Cjio- 
bom: nyBCTBOBaji ce6« nHineHHbiM noHBbi, tjwsHHecKH ocjia6eBiiiHM, 
ayxoBHO yracuiHM, norepflBiuHM kphtcphh Meacay 3jiom h ao6poM; a 

yCJIOEHH BOeHHOtt SCH3HH H rpOXOT MHpOBOtt BOfiHbl, CJIblUIHMblft C 

rpamiubi 3jib3aca, 6mji bhcuihhm Bbipaa<6HHeM KaTacTpo^bi, nepexn- 
toh mhoio: KaTacxpo(J)oft nyTH. Chobom: ecjiH 1913 roa b co3HaHHH 

OJKHBaeT CTpeMHTeabHbIM, H3yMHTejlbHbIM B3JICTOM BBepx, HeCOOT- 

BeTCTByioumM mohm ayxoBHbiM ycmiHHM h npunHcaHHbiM mhoio aefl- 
ctbhk) Bo>KHeft 6aaroaaTH h mojiktbchhoh noMomn aoKTopa h Ma- 
Phh JIxoBaeBHbi, to aHHHH Moeit >km3hh ot 4>eBpajiH 1914 roaa ao 
okth6ph (1914-ro ace) ecTb jihhhh cTpeMHTeabHoro naaeHHH; b okts6- 
pe tojihok naaeHHX 3Toro Bbipasanca cepaenHott 6ojie3HbK>; b aeKaSpe 
a xax 6bi naHHHaio CBbiKaTbcs c CBoeft ynacTbfo: c 6e36aaroaaTHoa, 
caenoa h rnyxoft, norpjumeft b co6aa3Hbi xcH3Hbio Moeft; h aa*e: no 
OTHonieHHio ko Bceft npe)KHeft jihhhh, jihhhh MapHH ilKOBjieBHbi, a 
omyinaa CBoero poaa 6yHT; h CTpaHHo: Bee aHTponoco<J>bi, BHyTpeHHe 
CBH3aHHbie c M.R., b MoeM co3HaHHH BCTaioT nepeao mhoh, KaK Bpa- 
ra; » ouJtymaio Kpyr jnoaeft, kotopmmh aHpnxHpyeT M.fl.; 3tot Kpyr 
moaeft BocnpHHHMaio x, KaK «deop» M.A.; b Ahtp. O-Be BnepBbie 
Memi TaroTHT mhoh omymaeMag v-npudeopuan amMOC0epa», koto- 
pofl h o6i>XBaHK> BofiHy; h roBopio ce6e: «3, aa 3to — EafipeHT». Moe 
noaoxceHHe npn stom aBope h omymaio, KaK nono*eHHe HHuuie npH 
BarHepe; aoKTopa a He npHpaBHHBaio k Bamepy, ho M.^. h npnpaB- 
HHBaio k «BaHpeurny»; MHorwe H3 ee npoHBaeHHH MHe KaxcyTca — 
<t>anbuiHBO-npHnoflH»TbiMH; a HaHHHaio ee KpHTKKOBaTb, nepeiHTbi- 
Baio coHHHeHHe Hmnue «Baenep e Eaupeume» h o6paiuaio apryMeH- 
tw HHinue npoTHB BarHepa b apryMeHTbi npOTHB MapHH ^kobjicb- 

420 



Hbl**, H MyBCTByK), HTO JlHUa, KOTOPWMH pyKOBOflHT M.5I. (PHXTep, 

Baaaep, Mhthcp, KjiacceH h paa apyrnx) noBopa<iHBaiOTCfl ko MHe 
BpaxaeoHo; h c yaHBjieHHeM Buxcy, mto HaTauia h Ach (ocooemio 
«Aca») Toace BHyTpeHHe Kax 6m npHHsiTbi b stot npnaBOpHbift urraT; 

H B 3TOM CMWCJie HaXOflJITCH B apyrOH JIHHHH aHTpOnOCO<J)HH, KOTO- 

pyio h Ha3biBaio <naHmponoco0ue6 doeMammecKofov, bo MHe nponc- 
xoflHT Kpax Bcett «aHmponoco<ficKOu doeMw»\ h BnepBbie caaraeTca 
HOBtifl onepK «aHmponocoifiuu», KaK nyTb CBo6oabi h KpHTHiuuMa; 
moh ycHjieHHbie 3aHHTH» FeTe h reTH3MOM aoKTopa yKpenjiHKJT bo 
MHe 3Ty HOByio KOHiiemiHio aHTponoco<|)HH; earn ao cefl nopu n men 
noa 3HaxoM MHpoomymeHHH «oKKy/ibmu3Ma», to Tenept a ctok) noa 
3HaKOM MHpoomymeHHH HHcroro «jioeu3Ma»; a omymaio b ce6e Hosoe 
no3HaBaTeni>Hoe BoenpnaTHe aHTponoco$HH, KaK nepexoa H3 cpeaHe- 

BeKOBbH B 3nOXy B03pO>KfleHHR; MHe BnepBbie CTaHOBHTCa 5J1H3KKM 

«peHeccaHC» h bch snoxa HTajifaaHCKoro B03po»;aeHHa; h Ha stoh hoh- 
bc y Hac B03HHKaK)T o>KHBJieHHbie 6eceabi c T.V, Tpane3KHKOBMM, 
3HaTOKOM 3noxH «peHeccaHca»; oh yKpenaaeT bo MHe HHTepec k «pe- 
HeccaHcyr> h Ha stoh noiBe KpenneT Hame o6meHHe c hhm. Bee 3to b 
ce6e a Ha3biBaio «ceepjiceHueM uea M.M.», T.e. CBepaceHHeM cpeaHese- 
KOBoro, OKKyjibTMHecKH-norMaTHiecKoro nra aHTponococimti, B03rna- 
BnjieMoro M..H., h poacaeHHeM b ayme cboGootoh, reTeaHCKH oti>opM- 
jieHHOH aHTponoco^)HH; 3aH«THH ycHaeHHbie reTeaHCTBOM h fynnoco- 
(Jmeft aHTponoco^HH onaoaoTBopHJiH bo MHe BnepBbie no3HasaTejib- 
HbiH noaxoa k aHTponoco(J)cKOH aoKTpnae; n KaK 6w nepe3KHBaio yna- 
aoK b ce6e «OKtcy/ibmHoeo» nyra, T.e. aHTponocofJwH, KaK nyrw *H3- 
hh; h oflHOBpeMCHHo; nepexcHBato peHeccanc b ce6e aHTponocosJ)CKOH 
4)iinococt>HH; h «racTO cnpauiHBato: «Ecjih n MHpoBOsspHTenbHo oxpen, 
to — KaKOio uchok)? UeHoio naaeHHa CBoero...» TaK Ha py6e*e hobo- 
ro 1915 roaa a ctoio b tjdkkom KpH3Hce. 

ripH6nH3HTenbH0 b sto BpeMH b KH3HH aoKTopa npoH3ouino co- 
6wTHe: oh o6BeHnanc« rpa»aaHCKHM SpaxoM c Mapneft .Hkobjicb- 
hoh**; erne aeroM 1914 roaa M.iL, OTBeaa oaaaacabi Hac c Acett b 
CTopoHy, cnpamHBana, hto mbi npeanpHHHJiH nnn rpa»caaHCKoro 6pa- 
Ka (Ham rpaacaaHCKHfl 6paK nponsomea b BepHe, b MapTe 1914-ro ro- 



• RICHARD WAGNER IN BAYREUTH nomnn&ch 10 hkwisi 1876 r. BcKope no- 
cjtc ony6nHKOBaHHH nposarHepoBCKoro 3cce Hnxmie noexarc b BaftpettT hs otkpmthc Te- 
aTpa, cneiraajibHo nocxpoeHHoro a?i» noeraHOBKH «onep-apaM» Barnepa (13 aBrycTa 
h.ct.). Ben aTMoaJiepa EaftpeftTa OTTajiKHBana (fcanococfca; paspuB ero flpy»c6t.i c Bar- 
HepoM h KOHeu nomiOHeHHs ero My3uxe BnepBbie OTpasuncH b b kh. MENSCHLICHES, 
ALLZUMENSCHLICHES: EIN BUCH FUR FREIE GEISTER (1878). CaMoe peaxoe 
ero HananeHHe Ha Barnepa — DER FALL WAGNER (1888). 

** IIlTeflHep coneTancH rpaxuiaHCKHM 6paxoM c M.H. CHBepc 24 nexa6pn 1914 r. 
(h.ct.) b HopHaxe. 



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Aa); 0Ka3biBaeTc«, efl HyxcHbi 6buiH sth CBeaeHHK ana 6paxa c aokto- 
POm; stot 6pax, kohchho, 6bin ihcto ayxoBHbift; M.JI., MHoroneT- 
HHft ceKpeTapb aoxTopa, o6HTaaa b KBaprape aoKTopa; b EepjiHHe 

3TO He BbI3bIBaaO HapeKaHHH; HO COBMeCTHafl )KH3Hb flOKTOpa C M..H. 

Ha BHjuie «Hansi» b AopHaxe Bbi3biBaaa HapeicaHHji co cTopoHbi uiBeft- 
uapcKHx MemaH. Hto6w 3aTKHyTb rjioTKy sthm MemaHaM, aoKTop h 
M..H. o6BeHHajiHCb; Tevt He MeHee, stot «6/wk», mothbu KOToporo 
acHbi ana Bcex Mano-MaribcKH co3HaT&nbHbix aHTponococfcoB, BbnBaji 
HeroaoBaHHe b uenofi nacTH 06mecTBa, no npeHMymecTBy b cpeae 
Toro KapHKaTypHoro h «quasi»-OKKyjibTHoro sjieMCHTa, kotopwh mh 
Ha3bmajiH «memKOMU»; «OKKysibrrwbie memiat», He jiiooHBiiiHe M.JL, 
3auiHnenH Ha stot 6paK; c toh nopbi b JJopHaxe cTann rHe3AHTbai 
BCHKHe cnneTHH no aapecy M.il., pacnpocTpaHaeMwe TeTKaMH; pa3y- 
MeeTCH K 3THM «UiUnOM» MW OTHOCHJIHCb c HeroaoBaHHeM; h «6yH~ 
myfi» BHyTpeHHe npoTHB M.fi.., BHeuiHe a Bceraa npHaepacHBaacjr 
unapmuu M.fl.», — npoTHB «memoK», ee HeHaBHaeBiiiHx 3a 6nn30CTb 
ee k aoKTopy; npniHHa HeHaBHCtH, KaK o6Hapy*Hjiocb sto no3aHee, 
— He3aopoBaa, «MucmuuecKOft e/iK>6/ieHHOcmb» b aoKTopa 3HHoro 
KOJiHHecTsa «memoK», ycTpoHBiuHx oceHbio 1915 roaa HacTosmHft 
6yHT npoTHB aee; M.%. co CMexoM Ha3biBaxta 3tot 6yHT «6yHmoM 
eedbM»; k BnocaeacTBHH o6Hapy»ceHHbiM BeabMaM, HanaBuiHM pa3BH- 
BaTb aTMOc<J)epy cnneTCH b ZlopHaxe yace c Konua 1914 roaa, caeayeT 
OTHecTH: Madame Pafttj) (H3 BeHbi), IIlTpayc (h3 MioHxeHa), IIInpeH- 
reab, MaaaM (}>oh HHpcKyK) h pun apyrHX tctok; IIlTpayc, <J>oh Hnp- 
CKa« co cKaHaaaoM BbiaeTeaH H3 06mecTBa b Komie 1915 roaa bo Bpe- 
Mfl Toro nepHoaa, kotopmh a Ha3biBaio «ee/tuKOu hucitikoio aeeueewx 

KOHtOUieH». 

Bee nocaeaHee Bpevm nepea PoacaecTBOM Ach ycHjieHHo 3aHHMa- 
aacb pa6oTOH Haa cTemiaMH noa pyKOBQacTBOM PHXTepa; pa6oTa sra 
6uaa oneHb thhccjioh; rpoviaaHbie CTeKaa Haao 6biao Bbipe3WBaTb 
oco6wm CBepjiHabHWM annapaTOM, oneHb TsaceabiM, h coeaHHCHHbiM 
c 6op-MauiHHOK); annapaT, noa aeftcTBHeM saeKTpHHecKoro Toxa Ha- 
inan BepreTbCH; h Haao 6wao c cnaoft aepacaTb ero b pyxax, hto6w 
oh ne BbipBaacH h ne pa36na CTeKaa, cTOHBiuero SacHocnoBHbix aeHer; 
KpoMe Toro: CTeKno, nocTaBneHHoe nepneHaHKyaapHO, Haxoannocb 
noa noTOKOM xoaoaHOH Boaw, oxaajKaasineft Haxaa CTexaa; Boaa 
pa36pbi3rHBaaacb bo Bee ctopohm; pa6oTaBiiiHe HaaeBaaH ryTTanep- 
leByK) oaeacay h ryTTanepneBbie nepiaTKH, hto6w He npoMOKHyrb; 
neasmaH soaa xoaoanna pyKH, cKpeaceTaHHe CBepaHJibHoro annapaia 
no cTeiciiy pa3apa»aao HepBbi; <J)H3HHecKH-T5i»ceaaH, OTBeTCTBeHHan, 
pa3apa»caK)iiiafl HepBbi pa6oTa! flepea caMMM PoacaecTBOM Ac* npo- 
MOKj'ia oaHa>Kabi HacKB03b bo BpeMx stoh pa6oT«; h bmccto Toro, 
iTo6bi nocyiuHTbCH, OHa mokpoh ace OTnpaBHaacb Ha peneTHUHio sb- 

422 



Phtmhh b xonoflHoe xaMeHHoe noMeiueHHe «Bau»\ nocjieamie ahh ne- 
pea PoxtaecTBOM ona y*e xoaa/ia npocTyweHHOft. 

BcTpena PoacaecTBa npoH30iuna b capae, npncnocooaeHHOM jvw 
neKUHit h 3bphtmhh; cbexanocb mhohccctbo Hapoay; Bee aaMw 6mjih 
b 6ejibix njiaTbax; npHexaji h MeTHep, KOTopoMy mh BbixjionoTajiH 
pa3peineHHe npncyTCTBOBaTb Ha HauieM npasaHHKe; CHanaaa coctoh- 
nacb aexuHH aoxTopa, oneHb MpaHHax (oh roBopan o co6wthkx boh- 
hm); noTOM 3axraH enxy; aHTponococfccxHH xop HcnonH»a poacflecT- 
BeHCKHe necHH; nocjie npoiuaa 3bphtmhh; npocnasaeHHe «3ee3dbi» 
(xop h 3BpHTMHn), HcnojiHeHHoe pyccKoio rpynnoft, HMOIO orpoMHbitt 
ycnex cpean HeMueB h oieHb noHpaBHjiocb aoxTopy. Ach h HaTaoia b 
oeawx njiaTbJix 6mjih oqeHb xopouiH; CTapwe qyBCTBHTeabHwe hcmkh 
Ha3biBajiH hx: «Zwei Angelein». 3to npo3BHiue c toh nopbi yxopeHH- 
jiocb 3a hhmh. M.B. BonoiiiHHa Toace 6waa HeaypHa b sbphtmhh. Kh- 
ceneBa ncnoaHHJia HOMep coao — cTHxoTBopeHHe aoxTopa: «Die Son- 
ne schaue Um Mitterniichtige Stunde»*. MeTHep 6wa — MHrxHft, yMH- 
poTBopeHHbifl, aaxce xax 6w no6e>xaeHHWH aoxTopoM. 

Ho xoraa mw BepnyjiHCb aoMOfl, o6HapyjKHaocb, ito y Ach *ap 
ao 40 rpaaycoB; neianbHO 3a«rnH mw poacaecTBeHcxyio eaxy; Ha cne- 
nyiouiHft neHb CBajiHjiCH b cHjibHeftuieM 6poHXHTe h a; 6ecnoMowHO 
nponeacajiH mw c Aceft b nocTeanx Bee npa3aHHKH; nepes aeHb o6Hapy- 
XHJiocb, hto h HaTaiua, h rioimo — Toace JieacaT b opoHXHTax (b Aop- 
Haxe OTKpwjiacb cHJibHefiiuafl 3nHaeMH» 6pohxhtob); psa poacaecT- 
eeHCKHx co6paHHfl h jiexuHH aoKTopa b AopHaxe h b Saseae mw npo- 
nycTHJin; MeTHep 6wji Ha HeKOTOpwx H3 3thx aexuHft; nocae oh yexaa 
k cede b LUopHx. 

TaK BHyTpCHHHft pa3rpOM, KOTOpbIM OTMeTHJlCSI 3TOT TflJKeablH 

roa, OKOHHHacH h BHeuiHHM pa3rpoMOM; mw neTBepo — «, Acs, Hara- 
uia h A.M. rioimo — CBA3aHHbie TSMceaefluiHMH aKTOMMH othouichh- 
xmh Becb 1915 roa, BCTperanH stot roa Ha oape 6oae3HH. Hac aesn- 
aa 4>pHaxHHa (aoKTop MeaHiwHw), aHTponoco«J>cKHM MeToaoM, koto- 
pwfi oHa npHMeHjtaa k cbohm nauneHTaM (ona b CBoefl npaxTHxe no- 
ctokhho coBeTOBaaacb c aoKTopoM); ae«jeHHe 3tg saKaionaaocb b hs- 
rHaHHH 6oae3HH HCKyccTBeHHbiM Bbi3biBaHKeM HcnapHHw; «ac oxyTW- 

BajlH MOKPWMH, rOpjIIHMH npOCTWHHMH, 3aKyrbIBajIH OHeHJiaMH; H 

3acTaBaaaH aeacaTb Tax ao 1 x n «iaca. .H y*e k HOBOMy roay cnpaBHa- 
ch c 6oae3HbK»; ho 6oae3Hb Ach 3aT«Hyaacb eaaoaro; eme b $eBpajie 
OHa eaBa xoanaa; a npHnoaHHTaa TeMneparypa aanaacb y Hee ao ca- 
Moro neTa. 

* npHBOOHTca nepBbie use ctpokh (cnerica Benwvi HCKa*eHHbie: y Hero «in» BMe- 
cto «ura») CTHXOTBopeHHJi 1906 r. WINTERSONNENWENDE 'm c6. cthxob OlTeJtHe- 
pa WAHRSPRUCHWORTE. 

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1915 rofl 

JlHeapb. 

Becb HHBapb nepe>KHBaK> a KpaflHe noaaBJieHHoe HacTpoeHHe; 3a- 
THHyBmaMca 6ojie3Hb Ach BHyuiaeT MHe cepbe3Hoe onaceHHe; y Hee — 
CTpaumaa cna6ocrb h eaceaHeBHO k Beiepy — xcap; TeM He MeHee: Ha 
jieKUHHx flOKTopa OHa 6biBaeT; HHOraa ana 3Toro npnxonHTca BbinH- 
cbiBaTb H3 Ea3en« axHnaxc (no Te;ie(i>OHy); HaTauia Toace oneHb ocna6- 
jieHa 6pohxhtom; HaTauia h riouuo Tenepb 0Ka3biBaK)TCH b ilopHaxe, 
b Heyao6HOM noMemeHHH; OpHflKHHa pexoMeHayeT Ace ycHJieHHoe nH- 
TaHHe; 3a pa3Hoo6pa3HbiMH nnmeBbiMH npoayKTaMH a 2 pa3a b nejxe- 

J1K) OTnpaBJIHIOCb B Ba3eJIb; HHBapb CTOHT XOJIOflHMH H CHOKHblft; 

o6Hapy*HBaeTCH, hto b Hamnx KOMHaTax Bcioay — xonoaHbift ckbo3- 
ksik; CKOJibKo He TonH KOMHaTbi, ohh — BbiCTywHBaiOTCH; noMemeHHe 
OKa3biBaeTCH b Bbicuieft cTeneHH HeyioTHMM; Hajio xiyMaTb o npHHcxa- 
hhh apyroro o6HTanHina; oTHouieHHe k HaM E.A. MnbHHOH nopTHTca; 
OHa 3aHBjmeT, hto HauiH KOMHaTbi eft HyacHbi; Meacny hck> h Acefi 
ycTaHaBJiHBaioTCH anoxHe otholuchhh; MHe npnxoflHTca npHHCKHBa-rb 
apyroe noMemeHHe; b ApnecreftMe h b ,Zl[opHa]xe oSHapyxcHBaexca 
M&no KOMHaT; HaKoneu MHe yKa3biBaK>T noMemeHHe, KOTopoe aojt*- 
ho ocBo6onHTbca k nepBOMy <J>eBpajno; 3to — /iomhk, ctohiuhh Ha 
nepeKpecTKe ztopor, BeaymHx H3 ApuecreftMa b 06ep-HopHax h H3 
HH»CHero flopnaxa k «Bau»; npe*ae, hah x «Bau», a hc 3aMeHan bo- 
bcc 3Toro flOMHKa; oh npaTajica b a6jioHeBbix aepeBbax; 3tot aomhk 
— H30^HpoBaH; ero OKpyacaeT 3ejieHb; oh ctoht xaK pa3 npoTHB Villa 
«Hansi», npHHaajioKaiuefl aoKTopy (oKHa b oKHa); btopoh 3Ta* ao- 
MHKa caaeTca; b neM 3 KOMHaTbi, Kopnaop h HHCTaa yao6Haa Kyxna 
c Teppacofl, oTKpbiBaKjmeft bha ml 3ejieHb, aomhk noKTopa, xojim h 
«Bauv>; BJiaaeiiHua aoMHica MHjiaa CTapyuiKa, Frau Thomann, o-raaeT 
ero naM 3a cpaBHHxejibHo aemeByio ueHy; y Hee zma Hac OKa3MBaeTca 
npHxoaaiuaa npHcnyra, KOTopaa c 9 ao 12-th nonxna HaM y6npaTb 
KOMHaTbi. MbiTb nocyay h 3aroTOBJiaTb qTo-HH6yab ann y*HHa; c o6e- 
flOM mw ycTpaHBaeMCH c KaHTHHon; HaM 6epyTCH aocTaBjiHTb o6ea H3 
KaHTHHbi, HaxojiHineftca b paccToaHHH 7-MHHyTHott xoab6w ao qomh- 
xa; «Bau» 05ca3biBaeTca ot nac b paccToaHHH xoab6w He Sojiee 3-4-5 
MHHyT, T.e. — paflOM; mchh CMyiuaeT ™uib to, hto aomhk mojkct 
oxasaTbca cupuM h xonoaHbiM; ho Frau Thomann yica3biBaeT, hto b 
3-x KOMHaTax HMefOTcs aae Tennwx nenKH; h hto mohcho Bceraa HMeTb 
3anacbi 6pHKeTOB. Bee sto ycnoKaHBaeT mchh. R cHHMaio noMemeHHe; 
h c HeTepneHHeM oacHaaio momcht, icoraa moxcho noKHHyTb HeyioT- 
Hoe noMemeHHe Mjimihoh; b sto BpeMa noaBjiaeTca b flopHaxe ceMefi- 
ctbo BaH-aep-riaajibca H3 EepjiHHa; c BaH-aep-riaaiibcoM mw ywe 
BCTpena^HCb b EepjiHHe; Tenepb sto 3HaKOMCTBo B03o6HOBJiaeTca; 



424 



h nepexoflHT cxopo b apy»c6y; BaH-aep-Ilaajibc HawHaeT qacTO 6m- 
BaTb y Hac; noHBjineTCfl k 3TOMy BpeMeHH 3 A[opHa]xe h MnxaHJi Ba- 
yap, 6jiHXcaHHiHH yqeHHK aoKTopa, oneHb 3aMenaTeJibHbiH aHTpono- 
cotj), oflHH H3 3-x rnaB Hamero O&uecTBa; oh 6oneH Ty6epxyjie30M; 
3a hhm yxaxcHBaeT Frau Morgenstern, BflOBa noKottHoro nosTa; OHa 
nocejiHercx c EayspoM b oahoh KBapTHpe; Eayap cnepBa cHHMaer 
BepxHHii 3Ta» flOMa, b kotopom HCHBeT Tpane3HHKOB; c 3TOft nopbi 
ycTaHaBjiHBaeTCfl qacroe nocemeHHe Bayspa Tpane3HHKOBbiM; y Tpa- 
ne3HHKOBa nocejmeTca A.C. nerpoBCKHft; oh TO*e bhahtcji c Eays- 
Pom; c BayspoM 6jiH3ica h M.B. Ca6aniHHKOBa; ram Eaysp b A[opHa]xe 
oneHb CKopo CTaHOBHTCH ecTecTBeHHWM naTpOHOM pyccKHx; c Bay- 
spoM ycTaHaBjiHBaiOTCH y mchh c aHBapa Mecxita oieHb xopouiHe 
OTHouieHHa; h cTpaHHo: hcm 6o;iee « BHyTpeHHe oxaajuiiocb ot 
M.JI. IHTeftHep, TeM 6onee jxnn mchh BbipacTaeT 3HaqeHHe Eayapa, icaic 
CBoero pofla ayxoBHoro pyKOBOflHTejia, ecTecTBeHHO BbipacTaiomero 
BCJiea 3a aoKTOpoM*. npH6nH3HTejibH0 b 3to aee BpeM« b AopHax 
npnesjKaeT a-p rem, mojioaoh $HJiocoit> h apxHTeKTop, MeiTaioiuHH 
HanHcaTb KHHry no 4>hjioco4>hh aHTponococJwH; 3to oneHb KyjibTyp- 
HbiH qejioBex; oh HanHnaeT qacTo 3axonHTb ko MHe; mh c hhm rynaeM 
no 0KpecTH0CT«M h paccy>KflaeM npo6neMax reTeaHCTBa. R Tenepb 
npHCTaiibHO pa36Hpaio KHHry MeTHepa h totobjho 3ckh3u ana nep- 
Bbix rjiaB Moee otbcthoh khhi-h. FIoHBJieHHeM BaH-aep-Ilaajibca, a-pa 
reuia h Eayspa, poctom apy*6w c Tpane3HHKOBbiM h T.A. EepreH- 
rpioH oTMeneHO ajih mchh Haiano 1915 roaa. 

K 3TOMy BpeMeHH b napnac yesacaer MaKCHMHJinaH Bojiouihh; 

K.A. JiHrCKHH 3HaKOMHTCfl C flOKTOpOM H TOTOB BCTynHTb B A.O. 

Moh xopouine OTHOiueHHH c noc/ieziHHM — yKopeHHKjTCH. MeTHep hc- 
qe3aeT c Hamero ropH30HTa; oh chart b UiopHxe; h He noKa3biBaeTC* 
b mopnajxe. 

<Peepaab. 

FlepBoro <J)eBpajia mm nepeGnpaeMcx c Acefl b HOBoe noMemeHHe, 
k Frau Thomann h KyBCTByeM ce6a 3Aecb BHeuiHe HeaypHo; KOMHaTbi 

OKa3bIBaK)TCH yiOTHblMH H TenJtblMH; Ha 3HMy Mbl COCpeflOTOHHBaeM- 

ch b flByx KOMHaTax, oTflejieHHbix KopH/iopoM ot TpeTbefl; 3Ty Tpe- 
Tbio caaeM mm aMepHKamce, mhcc Hnjibc — Ha BpeMH**; 3^ecb, b 3thx 



* nosaHee, b cthx. MHXAHJIV BAY3Py (1918?, BnepBue ony6jiHKOBaHO b c6. 
KOPOJ1EBHA M PblljAPff, 1919), Eejibift nncsui: «Me»cTep 3itxapT Hamero crojie- 
thh, — / Domhio Tii H3 ApjiecretlMa b ZlopHax / Mhmo Hac d rooHHy jiHxojierb)| / 
npwxojmn, cwioHHCb b UBCTax h b TepHax... / TIomhio nepnaMyTpoBue Tpasu, / Kynon 
xcHoraaBMR, sejiHiaBult, / Po30Bwe B03ayxH 3jib3aca, / flymeiHwe bspmbm... m 
3nb3aca» (cTpocJibi II-III). 

•* 13 4>eBpajui (h.ct.) Benwfl nocjian cboA HOBbifl anpec b nncbMe MaTepH: Schweiz, 
Dornach (bei Basel). Kanton Solo t hum. Haus Thomann (Baumalerei). Cm. cjiea. crp. 



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AByx KOMHaTax, KaK-TO no-HOBOMy KOHueHTpHpyeTca Hama KH3Hb c 
Aceft, KOTopaa MeaaeHHo HanHHaeT nonpaBaaTbca; a norpyaceH c yTpa 
h no Beiepa b mok> pa6oTy: nnmy KHHry npoTHB MeTHepa, cocTaBaaio 
perHCTp no pa3JiH<iHi>iM BonpocaM MeToaoaorHH h TeopHH 3HaHHa H3 
KOMMeHTapHeB k TeTeBy TeKCTy aoKTopa h H3 Bcex ero BbicKa3biBa- 
hhh o rgTe; y MeHa y*e HMeeTca orpoMHbift MaTepnaa npoTHB MeT- 
Hepa; CBfl3bIBa« pa3JIHMHbie BbICKa3bIBaHHH flOKTOpa BOeflHHO, H BblHH- 
MaiO H3 3THX BbICKa3bIBaHHH OpHrHHajlbHeHIUHe MblCHH; TaKofl *e 

perHCTp a cocTaBjiHK) k KHHre MeTHepa; BOopyaceHHbift 3thmh pern- 
CTpaMH, a HamiHaio nwcaTb; Tax HanHCMBaeTca BBoaHTeabHaa maBa; 
HanHCbmaeTCH nocaeaHaa rjiaBa, KOTopyio a BnocaeacTBHH Ha3Baa 
«npiMOJiceHue k KHuee», ho KOTopaa no nepBOHanaabHOMy 3aaaHHK> 
flojiacna 6bina cTaTb aapoM KHHrn; HanHCMBaeTca maBa, pa36Hpaio- 
maa MeTOflonorHK) h TeopHK) 3HaHHa y MeTHepa h UlTettHepa*; oaHo- 
BpeMeHHo: a ycHneHHO pa6oTan) Haa ycBoeHHeM cbctoboh TeopHH 
TeTe h H3y4aK> peTynib k Heft IIlTeftHepa; pa6oTaio a 6e3 ycTaan — 
6yKBanbHo c yTpa ao hohh; pa6oTaK) ao aByx iacoB hohh; h nociie 
He Mory 3acHyTb; nocTeneHHo a 3a6o;ieBaio 6eccoHHueft, KOTopaa anw- 
Tca Becb <t>eBpajib, MapT, anpejib h KOTopaa cTpauiHo H3MyiHBaeT 
moh HepBbi. Bo BpeMa stoh pa6oTbi a MexanHiecKH HaxajiHBaio neib; 
TeMnepaTypa b Haiiinx KOMHaTax B3aeTaeT ao 20 rpaaycoB. HHoraa, 
H3MyneHHbiH 6eccoHHHueft h M03roBWM nepeyTOMaeHHeM a ye35Kaio 
b Ba3eab; h neiaabHO 6po*y no cwpbiM h nenaabHbiM yanuaM Ba3e- 
aa; oaHa>Kabi a 6wa b Ba3eae c Aceft; xoraa mm c Heft BcmpaiuaaHcb 
b flopHax b TpaMBae, to a 3a\ieTHa, mto paaoM co mhoh cHaeaa koct- 
aaBaa, CTpauiHo 6e3o6pa3Haa h KpHBo6oicaa HceHiuHHa c <J)oc<i)opHHe- 



TaM oh, b nacTHOCTH, nucan: «ripocTH MeHx, ito h TaK nojiro He nHcaji; He nncan s no- 
TOMy, iTo CTpauiHo ycTaBan: y Mewi 6ujia HH(|my3Hua, a y Ach HHitmyaHiia c 6pohxh- 
tom, nepexoflduiHM b BocnanenHe; x nonpaBHJicd b Heflemo, a Acs 11 fljHefl nexcana h 
Mecrni nocne Toro, ieaK BCTana, 6ujia Ha nojroweHHH 6ojibHoft; /.../ KpoMe Toro: c <J)eB- 
pajm HOBoro cthjis mu nepeexajiH; Ackj, 6ojn>HyK>, Haao 6ujio nepeB03HTb (c BemaMH h 
npo4HM). TojibKO Tenepb onpaBnseMca 06a ot ycTarocTH sthx MecaueB. /.../ riepeexa- 
jih mw npexpacHo; y Hac 2 mhjiux thxhx KOMHaTbi, Kopnziop, nyxHH, 3-b« KOMHaTa, 
KOTopyio mu caajiH OflHOfi aHr/iHMaHKe (aHTponoco<J>Ke) h Teppaca c bhhom Ha Bau. Mu 
npHMO nofl Bau (oneHb 6jt»3ko); yTpoM k HaM Ha 3 naca npKxoaHT npHcnyra; b 12 '/2 
npHHOCHT o6ea H3 KaumuHbi. Bau non 6okom. M xpoMe Toro: mu cocchh c Aokto- 
poM /.../» (UrAJlH, $.53, on.l, ea.xp.359). 

* KHHra PynOJIbQ UITEftHEP H rETE B MHPOB033PEHHH COBPEMEH- 
HOCTH. OTBeT 3mhjihk> MeTHepy Ha ero nepBufl tom «Pa3MuuuieHHH o reTe», c 
3nHrpa(|>0M: «)KneM cHHcxonHTenbHo-nonynapHoro OTBeTa. 3mhjihh MeTHep», 
Bbiuuia b MocKBe (H3A. «HyxoBHOe 3HaHHe») b 1917 r. Ee coaepxcaHHe: rn. nepBas: BBe- 
aeHHe; rn. BTopan: PyaojibiJ) IllTefiHep b Kpyre Hauinx B033peHHfl; rn. TpeTbH: CBeTo- 
Bafl TeopHH TfiTe h PyaonbiJ) IIlTeflHep; rji. MeTBepraji: MeTOiioiiorHa Pynonbfaa UlTefl- 
Hepa; rn. nuTas: CBeTOBax TeopHH TeTe b MOHO-flyonjiiopanbHbix 3M6neMax; rn. iue- 
CTaii: PyaojibiJ) UlTeflHep h — KaHT, reTe, Terejib, njiaTOH, one*, onuT, opraHHica, 

MHP BHeiUHHfi, MHP BHyTpeHHHH (IlpHJIOWeHHe). 

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ckh ropHiuHMH, 6e3yMHbiMH rna3aMH h c xpacHMM iupaMOM Ha uiee; 
oHa cuaena co mhoh parom; h MHe xa3anocb, hto OHa c ocoGemibiM 
BHHMaHHeM norjiaflbiBana Ha MeH«; hto-to 6biJio OTiaaHHo-TKyTKoe 
b ee qepHOM, TomeM, kphbo6okom CHJiysTe; MHe crano He no ce6e, ho 
a no6opon ce6a, HHiero He cxa3aB Ace. OTMeiaio stot $axT, noTOMy 
hto mepnax xeHUfUHa» noaBHJiacb BnocjieacTBHH nepeao mhok> 
onsTb b ropa3flo 6ojiee CTpaumoH h wyTxofi aTMOC(})epe. 

B 3tot *e Mecau, bo BpeMa MyMHTenbHoft oeceoHHHHM, BbmaH- 
hoh nepeyTOMneHHeM, MeHa cTann nocemaTb 3poTH«recKHe xouiMapbi: 
a qyBCTBOBaji, icaic hcbh^hmo ko MHe noaBJiaerca HaTama h 30BeT Me- 
Ha 3a co6oft na KaKHe-TO CTpauiHbie uiaGauiH; cJiaaocTpacTHe bo MHe 
pa3birpuBanocb no xpaftHOCTH; coBepuieHHO o6e3yMeB, a cTan cepbe3- 
ho MeHTaTb 06 o6jiaaaHHH HaTauieft h CTpeMHnca b mocm rpeiimoM 
nyBCTBe npH3HaTbca Ace; ho <PpHAKHHa, jieiHBUiaa Acio, nocTOHHHO 
npe,aynpe)icflana MeHa: «He rosopHTe c Ahhoh AnexceeBHOft hh o ieM 
cepbe3HOM: 3to mo*ct 0Tpa3HTbc» Ha xane ee 6one3HH». H a MOimaji 
o cbohx nepe>KHBaHHax HaTauiH, OKHAaa BbnaopoBJieHHa Ach; 3aTa- 
HyBiuaaca 6o;ie3Hb Ach MeHa xpafiHe ynpynana; Beab a jik>6hji ee Bceio 
rny6HHOK> CBoeft ayuin; h npH3HaBartca ce6e, hto CTpacTb k HaTame, 
npHHHMaiomaa <J>opMbi coBepuieHHO nyflOBHiuHoro HyBCTBeHHoro BJie- 
neHHa, ecTb 3naa 6ojie3Hb; h tcm He MeHee: a lyBCTBOBan, — 6ojie3Hb 
cjihihkom 3anymeHa; a He Mory y*e BbipBaTbca; 3Ta 6ojie3Hb, ocjiohc- 
HaBuiaaca hohhmmh HeBHflHMbiMH noaBJieHHaMH HaTauiH oxojio Me- 
Ha, npmiajia CTOJib cepbe3Hbie (fropMbi, hto a CTan noporo Boo6pa- 
5KaTb, 6yflTo HaTama — cyxxy6, nocemaiomHH MeHa; h tcm He MeHee, 
— a BjieKca k HaTame, a Bee xotcji ocTaTbca c Heio c rna3y Ha rna3; 
ho — HaTama, HcxaBiuaa co mhojo o6meHH« h tete a tSte 3Ty oceHb, 
Tyx napoiHo cTana ycK0Jib3aTb ot BcaKoro o6bacHeHHa; a He Mor Hatt- 
th noBona ocTaTbca c Heio c rna3y Ha rna3; mm c Hero BCTpenanHCb 
hjih b KaHTHHe, hjih Ha «Bau», hjih npH Ace, hjih npn A.M. Ilouao; 
HHonia OHa, Kax 6w 3a ciihhok> hx, KoxeTHHHajia co mhoio acecTaMH; 
h — HHKoraa He xoxeTHHiana cnoBaMH; b cnoBax OHa CTana, Hao6o- 
poT, oneHb cnepacaHHa co mhoh; oneHb nacTo 6wBano: OHa yxoanjia 
ot nac BeiepoM, h Toraa HOibK> ona noaBjiajiacb oxojio Moero H3ro- 
jioBba, Kax cyKKy6; h 3Bana MeHa Ha xcyTxne, CTpauiHbie uiaGauin; 
caMbifi o6pa3 HaTauiH aBHJica ana MeHa ojinueTBopeHHeM mepHoii, 
deMOHutecKou OKemifUHbi». 

% 5KHJI B CTpaHHOM, TpeBOWHOM HaCTpoeHHH, OKeflHeBHO OJKHflaa 

KaKHX-TO HecnacTHH; o/jHawflbi, 3a6biBuiHCb noa yTpo, a npocHynca 
Kax 6w ot Hexoero snexTpHHecxoro yaapa h noHyBCTBOB&n, ito cH*y 
na nocTejiH h xpHiuiio Ha bcio KOMHaTy; 3to 6mji npunaaox yayim>a; 
ho MHe xa3anocb, hto xaxaa-TO nuepHcm xceHutwan, hcbhahmo npn- 
JibHyBiiiH ko MHe, BunHBaeT, xax BaMnHp, mok) xpoBb; a cockohhji c 

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nocT&nH h nooexcaa 6yaHTb Acio; ho o6iHCHHTb eft moh nepeacHBaHH* 
CTpaxa He cyMea. 

B 3to BpeMfl k HaM CTana nacro 3a6eraTb T.A. BepreHrpiOH, bcji 
KaxaH-To BCTpeBoaceHHaa; b ee caoBax pa3aasaaHCb HeBHKTHbie HaMe- 
kh Ha to, mto HaM BceM yrpo*aiOT cHjibHefiuiHe oKKyjibTHbie Hana- 
aeHH*, hto mw 3flecb, OKoao «Bau», KaK 6w b CBoero poaa TpaHiueax, 
o6cTpeJiHBaeMbie acrpaabHbiMH CHapaaaMH, nocbiaaeMbiMH bccmh 
HepHWMH OKKyjibTHcraMH; neHTMOTHB ee CJIOB KaK 6bl roBopHji MHe H 
Ace: «/Jep)KHTecb, cHjibHenuiHe TeMHbie HanaaeHHg Ha Bac hmciot Me- 
cto». HHoraa b ee cnoBax 3BynaaH HaMexH Ha to, ito ee caoBa o nana- 
denwtx Ha Hac uepnbix Maeoe He ee aniiib cy6i>eKTHBHoe MHeHHe, ho 
ito 3th cjiOBa hcxoaht H3 onwTa noflJiHHHo BHyTpeHHHx aHTponoco- 

(J)OB, 06HTaK)IUHX B flopHaxej H CJI0B3 3TH COBnajiajlH CO CTpaHHbIM, 

BecbMa TpeBOiKHbiM coctohhhcm Moeft ayuiH. 

OflHaa<flbi Ac« BHaeaa coh, kotopmh ee crpaHHO nopa3HJi h b3bo- 
jiHOBaji: OHa BHaeaa, ito oHa npoHHKJia bo CHe b KaKoe-TO 3anpexHoe 
MecTO, rue rHe3aHTCH sparn, Hanaaaioiiwe Ha Hac h HacbiaaiomHe Ha 
Hac flymeBHbift mopok; Bparn oxasaancb HecKOJibKHMH cTpauiHWMH 
xeHimiHaMH, c KOTopbiMH OHa BCTynHJia b oKKyjibTHbiii 6oh; bo Bpe- 
mji 3Toro 6oa c Heft pHAOM noKBHncx Tpane3HHKOB # , h cpaxcancH npo- 
thb TeMHbix acemimH; coh stot mchh nopa3Hji; oh coBnaaaa c mohm 
HacTpoeHHeM; Beab HaTama, hjih o6opoTeHb, npHHXBuiHtt bha HaTa- 
uiH, Hanaaaa csoeft cTpauraoft lyBCTBeHHOCTbio Ha mchh no HonaM. 
B stot ace aeHb, hjih Ha apyroft aeHb BeiepoM, k HaM npniuea Tpane3- 
hhkob; h paccKa3aji cboH coh; h stot coh coBnaa co chom Ach. Oh — 
TO*e bo CHe 6opoaca c tcmhumh *eHiuHHaMH. «Aa, — cxa3aji oh, 
OTpaxHBas nenea narmpocbi, — 6biao y»e HecKoabKo caynaeB 3aecb b 
AopHaxe, Koraa b acTpaae BHaean sthx *eHiuHH; no-BHaHMOMy, rae- 
to ohh ecTb; ho aeao He hhx: a b KaKOM-TO tohctom, CTpaiuHOM Myac- 

HHHe, KOTOpbltt pyKOBOaHT HMH». He 3HaiO, KaKOM My)KMHHe TOBO- 

pna Tpane3HHKOB: BHaea aH oh ero bo CHe, nan HTO-aH6o o HeM caw- 
uiaa ot apyrHx, npoH3BoaHBuiHx ayxoBHoe HccaeaoBaHHe; 6oabine mm 
c Acefi HHHero ot Hero He MoraH ao6HTbcs; ho BneiaTaeHHe BCTa- 
Baao: mw OKpyaceHbi KoabiiOM TaftHbix cHa, Hanaaaioiimx b acTpaae 
Ha Hac; caMoe *yTKoe 6wao to, hto Ha <J>H3HHecKOM naaHe Heab3» 
6uao 3auiHTHTbca ot sthx acTpaabHbix HanaaeHHtt; TaK co3aaaocb bo 
MHe npeacTaBaeHHe o tom, hto h mo« a6paxaaa6pa c HaTauieft — 
pe3yabTaT nopnH Hac, iyTb an He raasa; 3tot nephbiu ena3 o6ihc- 
hjuih BepreHrpKJH h Tpane3HHKOB HaBowaeHHeM TeMHbix oKKyabTHc- 
tob, pa6oTaioiiiHx Haa TeM, hto6m BHyTpeHHe aeMopaaH3HpoBaTb 
CTpoHTeaett «Bau»; He aapoM eiue npeacae, b 6biTHOCTb Haiuy b Mkjh- 
xeHe, IIlTHHae npeaynpeacaaaa, hto b .ZJopHaxe 6yaeT oneHb TpyaHo; 
Tenepb 3th TpyaHocTH ooiacHflaHCb oKKyjibTHbiMH HanaaeHmiMH; 



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nepeaaBajui, hto hto-to b stom poae roBopHa HeaaBHQ h aoKTop. 
MHe ayMaaocb: «Hto *e aoKTop He 3aiimmaeT Ha c? Hto *e oh moji- 
hht?» H flOKTop rem, Taxott panocTHwfi b nepBbie ahh CBoero npe- 
6biBaHHH b .flopHaxe, noHBanacH b HauieM aoMHice xMypwft h cxcobho 
OTtirHeHHbiH KaKoio-TO flyMoft; HHoraa h oh 3aBoaHa pa3roBopu c Ha- 

MH KaKHX-TO HaBOXaeHHHX; HO TOBOpHJI OH HaMeKaMH: qyBCTBOBa- 

aocb, — oh hto-to CKpwBaeT ot Hac. YcTaHOBHJicji oobinaft, hto 
flOKTop HHTan HaM aexiwH no cy66oTaM (BenepoM) h no BOCKpeceHb- 
hm (yTpoM ot 10 ao 12-th); oaHaacabi nocne JiexiwH aoKTopa, Koraa 
h npoxoflHJi mhmo Hero, oh He3aMeTHO noaoniea ko MHe, noTpenaa 
MeHH no naeny h cxa3an c aaacofi: «Nun, Herr Bugaeff, man muss doch 
mut haben: es macht nichts...» SI noayMaa: «0 neM tobopht aoKTop? 
CTano 6wTb, — aeiicTBHTejibHO ecTb npHHHHa fljia CTpaxa...» 

3xa cTpaHHaa TpeBora, BHyTpeHHe coTpncaBiuaH MeHH, ycHjiHBa- 

JiaCb MOHMH ynopHWMH MHOrOHaCOBblMH yMCTBeHHblMH 3aHHTHHMH, 

oflOJieBaBuien 6eccoHHiiefl, Been o6cTaHOBKofl 3aTHniBaiomeHCH boh- 
Hbi; no HOHaM a c tockokj npHcayuiHBaaca k rpoMbixaBiiiHM opyaHHM 
Ha 3ana^HOM (jjpoHTe; noroaa CToaaa yHbiaaa, HenepeHOCHaa; nocne 
CHera aeaaaacb caaxoTb h cwpocTb; TyMaH HaBHcaa 6ecnpocBeTHott, 
cbhhuoboh neneHoft; HaM cTaHOBHnocb nyuiHO h tccho b aByx KOMHaT- 
Kax; h mm peniHjiH He caaBaTb Ha caeayiomHtt Mecau Hauiy TpeTbio 

KOMHaTy MHCC HHJIbC. 

OflHa>Kflbi b $eBpaae noHBHnca y Hac 3.K. MeTHep, npHexaBUiHH 
H3 IJiopHxa; a eMy HHTaa otpwbkh H3 BBoanTeabHoft rnaBbi, HanncaH- 
hoh npoTHB Hero; oh xoxoTaa Haa mohmh kjmophcthhcckhmh Bbina- 
aaMH h cKa3an: <nJX&, aa, — HanncaHO BecbMa TauaHTJiHBO h xaecT- 
ko; ho — nocMOTpHM, hto Bbi HanHiueTe npoTHB MeHH no cymecTBy». 
H noayMaa: «JIaaHO, aaaHO, — HanHcaHHoe TojibKo ubctohkh; icaK-To 
tw 6yaenib CMeaTbca, Koraa aeno aoftaeT ao aroaoic». A 3thx «jtao- 
6ok» b BHae HeonpoBepjKHMbix apryMeHTOB, cBHaeTeabCTByiomHx o 
ero jierKOMbicaHH, 6wao y MeHa b pa6oneM nopT<J)eae cicoabico yroa- 
ho; ohh aHuib eme ne nocTynnaH b oKOHHaTeabHyio o6pa6oTKy. 

Aca Becb 3tot Mecau BcaeacTBHH caa6ocTH He xoanaa Ha pa6oTy; 
a >Ke -6ua norpyxceH b nucaHHe Moett khhi-h; mm noHTH He 6biBaaH Ha 
«Bau»; cB«3b c «Bau» noaaepacHBanacb ToabKO Ha neKUHHX aoKTopa; 
Hac nocemaaH Tpane3HHKOB, PnxTep, CeaaeuxHe, rieTpoBCKHH, Ch- 
30b. )KHan Mbi 3tot Mecau yeaHHeHHo h 3aMKHyTo; HHoraa Ha MeHH 
Hanaaaaa Taicaa Tocxa no Pocchh, hto h npH3HaBaaca Ace, hto MeHH 
cnabHo THHeT yexaTb. Ach Ha sto OTBenaaa c orpoMHWM pa3apaxce- 
hhcm: «Hy hto >k, ye3»caH, ho h ocraHycb 3aecb...» Si, kohchho, He 
Mor ao6poBonbHo 6pocHTb Ackj; h noKopaaca eft; ho h ayMaa c TpeBO- 
roio: «Koraa xe kohhhtch sto Hame OTCHKHBamie h ao nero oho Hac 
aoBeaeT?»... 



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Mapm. 

3aecb noiixoHcy k onHcaHHio CTpaHHefluiHx co6biTHft, pa3pe3aB- 
ujhx tohho mojihhh h 6e3 Toro HenpHranaHyio >KH3Hb Toro BpeMeHH; 
BnpoHeM 3nHTeT «cmpaHHeuiuuu», «cmpaHHeuuia.<t», «cmpaHHeuutee» 
flOJiaceH co6oft HcnecTpHTb Bee CTpammbi 3anHCbiBaeMoro xoaa >kh3hh 
siioxh 1912-1916 roaoB; Bee 3aecb — «CTpaHHeHiiiee»; caMan moh 
>KH3Hb Toro BpeMeHH — yaHBHTenbHbift napaaoKc, 6oraTefiuiaH nHtua 
aa« o6mecTBa ncHximecKHx HccaeaoBaHHfl; bot Beab Tenepb He CKa>Ky, 
hto6 moh 5KH3Hb aocTaBaaaa MHe MaTepHaji pa3Hbix «cmpctHHOcmeu»; 
c 1917 h ao 1924 roaa Tax Maao MHe >KH3Hb aocTaBaneT noBoaoB k 
CKJiOHeHHK) npnaaraTeabHoro «cmpctHHbiu» bo Bcex naaewax; moh 
wH3Hb HacTOHmero BpeMeHH — TpyaHan, HanpnaceHHaH, noaHan Bce- 

B03MO)KHblX 3a60T, HHTepeCOB; HO C06bITHH 3TOH 5KH3HH HHCKOabKO 

He CTpaHHbi; Meacay reM nepnoa ot 1912 roaa ao 1917-ro ouenb cmpa- 

HeH\ CTOHT npeaO MHOK) OH, KaK MU3Hb e XU3HU\ H 3Ta MU3Hb 8 3KU3HU 

HMena CBoe poacaeHHe, poct h CMepTb; xenepb, 03HpaHCb, ce6n h 
Mory BonpouiaTb: npHHaaae)Kaaa an 3Ta >KH3Hb Moeft >kh3Hh? Man 
kto-to, bo MHe noceaHBuiHCb, H3*Ha ce6H h MeHH 6e3B03BpaTHo no- 
KHHya? EcaH 6bi a npocaeana po>KaeHHe 3Toro ««e*mo», KOTopbift 
npocyHyBiiiHCb b moh opraHbi BoenpHHTHH hmh Bocnoab30BaacH, no- 
ranaea Ha aeftcTBHTeabnocTb, b Heft yBHaea Bee b «cmpaHHOM» CBeTe, 
ocTaBHa b ayuie cboh «cmpaHHbie» 3ariHCH h H3aeTea H3 mchh, — ec- 
aH 6 h npocaeana po*aeHHe bo MHe 3Toro «HeKmo», to, noaoayft, 
He Mor 6w h (J)HKCHpOBaTb 1912 roa, KaK roa Hanaaa «cmpawibix» 
npoHcmecTBHft b Moeft >kh3hh; «cmpctHHOcmu» 3Toro roaa no>KaayH 
aauib pa3pa3Hancb b «npecmpaHHOcmu»; «cmpaHHocmu» HaiaaHCb co 
mhoh paHbuie; noacaayft snoxa hx OTKpbiBaeTcn c 1909-ro roaa, a He c 
1912-ro. M Toraa nepHoa ocTpaHHeHHH aaHxcn aoabiue: oh 3axBaTbi- 
BaeT snoxy c 1909 roaa ao 1917-ro; ho Toraa snoxa 3Ta coBnaaaer c 
roaaMH BCTpeiH c Aceft TypreHeBOft; He b >kh3hh an c Heft «ocmpan- 
HeHun»'] TaK a oaHO BpeMH h cKaoHeH 6bia ayMaxb. ZJeftcTBHTeabHo: 
Ach neaoBeK «cmpaHHbiu» bo Bcex OTHomeHHHX ao aHTponocotjwH 
noaBepaceHHbift bchkhm MeanyMHiecKHM BaHHHHHM (Tax, BCTynaeHHe 

B >KH3Hb C Heft aafl MCHH 03HaMeHOBbIBaaOCb BCeB03MO)KHbIMH HBae- 

hhhmh — BnaoTb ao cnnpHTHHecKHX cTyKOB); ho BranabiBancb eme 
npHCTaabHee, h ycTaHaBaHBaio, 4T0 caMoe noHBaeHHe b Moeft >kh3hh 
3toh «cmpaHHOu» weHmHHbi noaroTOBHaocb «,ocmpaHHeHueM» Moeft 
cyab6bi h mohmh nepe«HBaHHHMH Ha py6e>Ke mok 1908 h 1909 roaa- 
MH; b Ty nopy h 3HanHTeabHO «nocmpaHHen»\ h pe3yabTaTOM «,cmpctH- 
HOcmeu» mohx y»e HBaeHHe nepeao mhoS «cmpctHHOu» Ach. Co6ct- 
BeHHo roBopn, «cmpaHHbiu» nepnoa OTKpbiacn c6aH*eHHeM c AhhoS 
Pyaoab(J)OBHOft MHHuaoBoft, mchh 3apa3HBiueft cbohmh po3eHKpeft- 
uepcKHMH MenTaHHHMH; h 6bi Ha3Baa 3tot nepnoa norpyweHHeM b 

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«0KKy/ibmu3M». B caMOM aene: 1909 roa oTxpbiBaercg aim mchh: 
c6jiH»eHHeM c Mhhiuioboh, mtchhcm oxxyjibTHHecxHx KHHr, 3aHflTH- 
hmh acTponorneit; h H3 Bcero 3Toro, xax H3 TyMaHa 3apx, npocTynaeT 
Ac«; Ham nyTb c Aceft HaiHHaeTCJi HcxaHHeM (.(enympeHHeeo nymu», 
TOMneHHeM cpeaH npocTO ioiumepamypnou cpedw», yrJiy6n«eTca co- 
6biTH«MH b Epioccejie 1912 roaa, BCTpenett c IIlTeftHepoM, noe3AxaMH 
BCJiea 3a hhm; h noxBjieHHeM b XlopHaxe; KCTaTH cxa3aTb: jiexiiHH 
IIlTeftHepa anoxn 1912-1916 roaoB niaBHbiM o6pa30M jiexiwH Ha ox- 
xyjibTHbie TeMbi h tcmm scoTepHiecxHe. rio3flHee caMoe pacmnpeHHe 
aHTponoco(J)HH cBJoaHo c nepeMeHOK) xpyra TeM jiexiiHH IIlTeftHepa: 
BCTynaiOT reMbi neaarorHiecxHe, o6mecTBeHHbie, djHjiocoifrcKHe, caMa 

aHTponOCO<J)HJI TepHeT CBOH XOHUeHTpHpOBaHHbltt, OKKyJlbTHHeCKHtt 

npHBKyc. 

HTax, noHHTHO, hto 3nHTeT «cmpaHHbiu», «cmpaHHM», «cmpaH- 
Hoe» necrpHT 3th BocnoMHHaHHH, xax 3Haiox onpeaeneHHOft TOHanb- 

HOCTH, OTKpbIBaK»mHft HOTHyiO CTpOHXy; BCJJ TOHaJlbHOCTb TOflHH 

6bijia «cmpaHH<vt» an* mchji. nocjieayiomHe peBOJiiouHOHHbie roau 
npoTeKajiH noa snaxoM apyroft TOHanbHocTH b 3toh [cjiobo Hepa36. 
— FIy6n.] TOHajibHocTH BOcnoMHHaiuui o npeflwayiuHX roamiax, o 
<.<.cmpaHHbix» roflHHax mnnimcb My3bixajibHbiM (J>ohom peBoniouHOH- 
Hoft aeflcTBHTejibHOCTH; b Hefl oxxyjibTHaa «deucmeumeAbHocmb» 
pacTBopnnacb; h 3Byqajia, xax My3biKa'; b 3tot nocjieayioinHft nepn- 
oa Moett ayuie cTan oco6eHHO bhhtch IIlyMaH; moh Bonpoc o roaax 
«cmpaHHOUv> wh3hh Moeft, He nonynax OTBeTa, xax 6bi pacTBopHJi- 
ca b rjiyGHHHeiiiueM H3KHBaHHH My3bixH IIIyMaHa. CoHaTa, nocBHiueH- 
Haa Rnape Bhx, «Kpeuc/iepuaHa», «0aHnw3Un», «In der Nacht» h 
apyrne npoH3B&aeHHH IIIyMaHa* CTajiH an* mchh ^ioShmchiuhmh, mo- 
umu b iiojihom cMbicne cnoBa; ot Bcex «cmpaHHbix» neT bo vme ocTa- 
jiacb, eocene hchbct He^oyMeHHaa Me/ianxo/iivt. 

HTax, noaie 3Toro pa3i>HCHeHHa, B03Bpamaiocb x xpaTXOMy onH- 
caHHio )kh3hh Moefi Toro BpeMeHH: NiapT Mecau Becb 6 bin noBHT an* 
MeHH (tinfipoM TKyTxofl tocxh h HefloyMeHHH, cBH3aHHbix c nepoKHBa- 
HHeM mohx oTHomeHHH x HaTaiue h x Ace, x aox-ropy IIlTeftHepy, x 
aHTponoco<J)HH xia>Ke; mhcc HH;ibc ot Hac nepeexana; ocBo6oflHjiacb 

TpeTbH XOMHaTa, B XOTOPOH Mbl yCTpOHJIH OflHOBpeMeHHO: H MOK) 

npHeMHyro, h xa6HHeT; b Ty nopy * ycHJieHHO 3aHHMajic« pa3pa6oT- 



* Cp. BOCIIOMHHAHHH O UITEftHEPE: «TaK 6e3yMHe Be^HKoro UlyMaHa 
BM3Byminoci> [Bbi3By4HBajiocb] 3aaonro b npexpacHux 3ByKax "Hh jlep HaxT", "<J>aH- 
TasHH", coHaTM, nocBsuteHHott Knape Bhk, h b "flHXTep JlH6e"» (c.225). Kjiapa Bhk 
(Clara Wieck, 1819-1896, >neHa IIIyMaHa c 1840 r.) — eft nocBaweHa coHaTa Jfel, 
op.ll (1832-35). «Kreisleriana», op.16 (1838); «Phantasie», op.17 (1836-38); «In der 
Nacht» («Phantasiestttcke», op. 12, J>&5, 18327-37). O 3HaieHHH IIIyMaHa ank Bejioro 
cm. npHMCJ. Ha c.644 nETEPBYPrA (M., i981). 

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kok> CBoeft KHHrH; nwcanacb rnaBa: «CeemoeaH meopun reme»; oHa 
aaBanacb MHe oco6eHHo TpyaHo; HywHo 6biao nponycTHTb Mepe3 ce6a 
06a TOMa rgTe; tom TeopHH h tom «Geschichte der Farbenlehre»; aa- 
aee Haao 6wjio cbccth k eaHHCTBy cjioacHeftiuHft KOMMeHTapHft aoKTo- 
pa; h bhhtho H3Jio)KHTb KHHry aoKTopa «Goethes Weltanschauung* 
CKB03b npH3My cocTaBiueroca npeacTaBaeHHa: nCeemoeaa meopun e 
ceeme aHmponoco<f)uu». IIomhhtch, hto y MeHa BCTaBaa paa coMHe- 

HHfl no nOBOfly MHOrHX BOnpOCOB, CBa3aHHblX C reTH3MOMJ COMHeHHa 

cboh a BbicKa3WBaji aoKTopy reiuy; h oh nocwabHo MHe oTBeqaa Ha 
moh Bonpocw; ho MeHH aaaexo He Bee yaoBaeTBopaao; h a cTaji cnpa- 
UIHBaTb, C KeM H3 reTHCTOB-aHTponoco(J)OB MHe MuHCHO dhino 6bl 
BCTpeTHTbca; MHe yKa3ajiH Ha Illoaab, KaK Ha xopomyio reTHCTKy; OHa 
JKHjia b ApjiecreftMe c aByMa noapyraMH aMepHKaHKaMH (ULIojuib 
Koraa-TO BCTpeTnaa Hac npn BCTynaeHHH HameM b A.O.; oHa 3aHH- 
Majiacb c HaTamett h Aceft HeMeuKHM a3biKOM); noMHio, KaK a OTnpa- 
BHJica k Illojuib, npHroTOBHB eft Bopox BonpocoB; ho nocne aByx-Tpex 
BonpocoB, nocTaBjieHHbix eft, a BnojiHe y6eanaca, mo OHa HeKOMne- 
TeHTHa, h Ha (J>Haoco<J)CKHe npo6neMbi moh OHa He otbctht MHe hh- 
Koraa; OHa ToabKo xopomaa naieTHHua no BsoaHTeabHbiM CTaTbflM 
IUTefiHepa k TeTeBy TeKCTy. OHa otkpobchho CKasaaa MHe: «noro- 
BopHTe c a-poM IIlTeHHepoM». He homhio, KaK a HCKaji cBHaaHHa c 
IllTeftHepoM, ho BCKope *e oho cocroaaocb; h Obijio aaHTeabHo; a-p 
BecbMa BHHMaTeabHO Bbicaymaa mok> KOHuenzjHio cbctoboh TeopHH, 
BXOflHa b aeTaan, OTBenaa Ha moh Bonpocw, cB«3aHHbie c .QeKapTOM 
H Hmotohom; Mbi roBopnaH o hoboh TeopHH CTpoeHHfl MarepHH; 
a-p peKOMenaoBaa MHe coihhchhh <jM3HKa IlaaHKa; a coBepmeHHo 
nopa3Ha CBoeio ocBeaoMaeHHOCTbio b xoae pa3BHTHa ecTecTBeHHO- 
HayHHbix BonpocoB nocaeaHero BpeMeHH; Mea<ay nponHM: oh MHe cKa- 
3aa, mto o6iuaa aHHHfl Moefi iioshuhh B3aTa BepHo: «# npexde, — 3a- 
MeTHa oh, — xomen damb 0u/ioeog5cKoe o6ocnoeaHue anmponoco- 
0uu, a nomoM omenexcH e dpyeyio cmopony; 0unoco0ueu anmpono- 
cotpuu mqao xmo UHmepecoeancn; pazyMeemcx eceM npo6neMaM, ia- 
mpaeueaeMbiM Ha nypcax moux, mookho 6bino 6bi damb (fiu/iocofficxoe 
o6ocHoeaHue...» 

Beceaa c aoktopom no3HaBaTeabHO yaoBaeTBopHJia MeHa BecbMa; 
060 MHe h o cTpaHHbix cocToaHHHX co3HaHHH Moero Mbi He roBopHaH; 
a MHe 6wno cKBepHo: yMCTBeHHoe nepeyTOMaeHwe cKa3biBaaocb 6ec- 
cohhhuch; cepaeHHbiH HeBpo3 CKa3aaca yayuibeM; HHoraa a hohth He 
Mor roBopHTb; 6oa3Hb o saopoBbe Ach o6ocTpaaacb (BenepaMH npo- 
aoajKaaacb noBbiuieHHaa TeMnepaTypa y Heft); oTHomeHHa k HaTauie, 
npHHKBUiHe <J>opMy 6oae3HeHHoro 3poTH3Ma, MeHa yapynaaw (npHMe- 
uiHBaaHCb npnnaaKH pcbhocth k MeTHepy); oTHomeHHa c riouuo npw- 
h«jih HaTaHyTbift xapaKTep; a crapaaca OTBae^bca ot HaTaiun, h 

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Torna CTpacTb moh k Heft pa3paa<ajiacb npunadxaMu nyecmeeHHOcmu 
Boo6me; h cran HcnbiTMBaTb nyBCTBeHHOcTb k xeHmune Boo6me; b 
3to BpeMa MHorHe xceHmHHbi, nonaaaBiiiHecH MHe, B036y>KflajiH bo 
MHe qyBCTBeHHocTb; h h HcnwTbiBaji nyBCTBO cmbida, hto h, aHTpo- 
nocoij), He yMero no6opoTb b ce6e 3toh lyBCTBeHHOCTH. 3th npHnaa- 

KH HyBCTBeHHOCTH COnpOBOHCflajIHCb OIUyilieHHeM rOHeHHfl H HaBWK- 

aeHHH; MHe HanHHano Ka3aTbcn, hto kto-to o6pa30M weHiiiHHbi (to 
o6pa30M HaTauiH, to nepBOfl BCTpeiHoft) npecneayeT MeH». rioaro- 
TOBnjuiocb HeHTO Bpoae MaHHH npecneflOBaHHH. OneHb noMH«Tc« MHe 
moh nyTeuiecTBHH b Ea3enb; h 6ecuejibHbie, oahhokhc 6/iy>KflaHHH no 
yjiHuaM, b cbipoM TyMaHe; no-npe>KHeMy h 3a6Hpa/ica b KHHeMaTO- 
rpa(fr; h cohho npocH*HBa^ nepea pa3BepHyTOft nariopaMoft KapTHH. 
3th noe3flKH b Ea3enb ocTaBJiHjiH b ayme KaKoft-TO MyTHbifi caea; 
MHe noneMy-TO aeaaaocb b Ba3ejie acyTico; h Bce-TaKH: % cTaji nac- 
to ye3»aTb b Ba3ejib, hto6h xoth Ha aeHb oTopBaTbCH ot cHa«Hett 

WH3HH. 

noMHHTca, hto chmbojiom Moeft cyflb6w CTan MHe o6pa3 aiope- 
poBCKott rpaBropbi: «Pbiifapb u CMepmb»; 3Ta rpaBiopa BHcena Han 
mohm pa6oHHM KpecnoM; h noaoary BmaabiBaacH b rpaBiopy; OHa 
Ka3anacb MHe Bemefi: h KaK 6bi roBopHn ce6e: «3to th MpanHbift pw- 
uapb, noexaBuiHH b CMepTb». HHoraa B03HHKaji b co3HaHHH MoeM 06- 
pa3 pokoboh nepHofl *eHWHHbi; h h nopoio c6aH»can ee c o6pa30M Ha- 
Tauin; name *e MHe Ka3aaocb, hto HaTama anuib npoBoaHHK stoh 
xceHiuHHbi; hto KaKcm-mo nepHan JKenufUHa ecTb — sto MHe name h 
name Ka3aaocb: h ona-To ry6HT mchh, B036y>KaaH bo MHe nyBCTBeH- 

HOCTb K TKeHUIHHe B006lUC 

B sto BpeMH noa xojimom, Ha kotopom ctohji «Bau», 6bijio ot- 
CTpoeHO 6eTOHHoe OTonaeHHe BecbMa CTpaHHoB (JjopMbi; oho HanoMH- 
Hano flHKoe cymecTBO c poraToft roaoBoio; pora — pa3BeTBJi»jiHCb; 
sto 6buiH — Tpy6bi; OTonaeHHe coeaHH$uiocb c «Bau» noa3eMHbiM 
KopHflopoM; 6buio JKyTKO Ha BaxTax cnycxaTbCH b sto OTonaeHHe 
nofl3eMHbiM xoaom; OTOiuieHHe 6biBajio 3anepTo; bmhth H3 Hero — 
3HanHJio: npoflTH KopHiiopoM; oxBaTbiBano nyBCTBo: Bapyr sthm ko- 

PHflOpOM npOftfleT KTO-HH6yflb. 

y*e CToaaa BecHa: mm BbiCTaBHaH OKHa; rpoM opyawfl cabiuiaacsi 
CH^bHee; h KaK-TO oco6chho Mynwa mchh. Kax-To y Hac cocToaaocb 
Moe HTeHHe oaHofi H3 rjiaB KHHrH npoTHB MeTHepa; npncyTCTBOBajiH: 
HaTauia, A.M. riouuo, IleTpoBCKHH, CH30B, Tpane3HHKOB. Ch3ob 
6bia CMymeH pe3KOCTbK> Moero TOHa; cxopo oh noexan b UiopHx; h 
aoa*HO 6biTb paccica3aa MeTHepy o mohx HanaaKax Ha Hero, noTOMy 
hto b ZlopHaxe noHBHJica MeTHep, KaKofl-To pa3apa*eHHbitt h 3jioh; 
oh npHiuea ko MHe c CH30BbiM h c nepBbix we cjiob Hanan hbho npnaH- 
paTbCH ko MHe; penb sauijia o Hameft 6binoft aeHTe/ibHOCTH b «Mycaee- 

16—873 433 



Te». H CKa3aji, hto b HHUHaeHTe co mhoh «Mycaeemy> 6bia HenpaB; 
oh — BcnbuiHJi; Toraa Aca oiqkohho noBTopHaa moh caoBa: «Ua, Bce- 
TaKH "Mycaeem" 6bia HenpaB». B oTBeT Ha sto co ctopohw MeTHepa 
nocaeaoBaa B3pbiB aHKoro KpHKa; oh bwckohhii h3 Haiuero aoMa, He 
npocTHBUJHCb; Ch3ob no6e*aa 3a hhm; BnocaeacTBHH MeTHep cica3an 
Ilomio: «KoHeiHo, a noropanHaca: MHe oneHb rpycTHO, hto a He H3BH- 
HHaca nepea Ahhoh AaeKceeBHOH». HecKOJibKO aHeft a acaaa, hto oh 
npHiujier H3BHHHTejibHoe nncbMo Ace; oh ero He npncjiaji; Toraa a no- 
caaa eviy KopoTKyio, cnoKoftHyio 3anHCKy, b kotopoh npooui ero He 
6biBaTb y Hac h He aapecoBaTbca ko MHe nncbMaMH, noxa oh Haxo- 
ahtch b coctohhhh, He MorymeM Hac rapaHTHpoBaTb ot noao6Hbix 
BcnbimeK. 

TaK o6opeanucb naeceeda mou omHoiuenun c MemnepoM, 6bie- 
utue neKoeda cmonb 6au3kumu (c 1902 roaa ao 1911-ro). 

B 3to me BpeMH a oneHb Taweao BocnpHHaa oflHy H3 aeKUHH 
a-pa IIlTeflHepa, b kotopoh oh tobophji npoTHB «cum60/iu3mci», npn- 
neM noa «cum80/iu3mom» a-p pa3yMea «asi/ieeopu3M»; MHe noKa3a- 
aocb, hto Bbinaa stot 6bia BbinaaoM npoTHB Moeft KHHrn «CuMeo- 
jiu3m», KOTopyKD a Koraa-To noaHec MapHH flKOBJieBHe; no oKOHna- 
hhk) /ieKUHH a BCKOHHa h rpoMKO cKa3aa (nyTb an He BCKpHHaa): «Mbi, 
CHMBojiHCTbi, roaa TBepanaH, hto Me)Kay chmbojiom h aaaeropHeft 
ancTaHUHH rpoMaflHbix pa3MepoB: noa CHMBoaH3MOM mm pa3yMeeM 
HeHTo apyroe...» H a aeMOHCTpaTHBHo y6e>Kaa c aeKUHH; mok> bciim- 
uiKy 3aMeTHaH Mapna flKOBaeBHa h rpa<})HHa KaabKpettT, cnaeBinaa 
3a Moeft cnHHott; Koraa a y6e>Kaa, oHa CKa3ana Ace: «3to — HHHero: 
3to 6apoMeTp naaaeT; Koraa naaaeT 6apoMeTp, co mhoh 6biBaioT 
TaKHe )Ke BcnbiuiKH...» A Mapna JlKOBjieBHa, BCTpeTHBiiiHCb co mhoh 
nepe3 HecKonbKO aHett, ynbi6aacb, CKa3aaa: «H cawiiiaaa, hto bm cep- 
aHHHCb Ha aoKTopa 3a ero caoBa o cHMBoaH3Me; TaK Beab oh tobophji 

He O CHMBOJIH3Me B BailJeM CMblCae, a O TOM CHMBOJIH3Me, KOTOpblH 

HMea MecTO b TepMaHHH». 

Boo6me a omymaio ce6a KpaiiHe HepBHbiM b 3Tot nepnoa; h hc- 
nbiTbiBaio orpoMHyjo TOCKy no Pocchh; oaHa*abi Chsob MHe tobopht 
(3to 6wao Ha nopTaae): «3Haenib, Eopa, ZlopHax — He ana Hac, pyc- 
ckhx: cioaa mojkho 6yaeT BnocaeacTBHH npnexaTb Ha Kypc h npoBec- 
th HecKonbKO npa3aHHHHbix aHeft; ho >KHTb Bceraa — hct h hct!» 

B 3TO BpeMM CH30B H IleTpOBCKHH CTajlH 3aayMbiBaTbca O TOM, HTO 

nopa hm aBHraTbca b Pocchk); Ch30b yexaa b Hanaae Mas, c Oopc- 
MaH (neTep6ypa<aHKOK)); IleTpoBCKoro a npoBo»can b hiohc 

/lopHaxcxaa aTMoofrepa cTaHOBHaacb MHe nopofi nonepenb rop- 
aa; ayx aorMaTH3Ma h raynoro neaaHTH3Ma MHO*ecTBa «memoK», 
pacceaHBuiHxca b ApaecreiiMe, MeHa pa3apa»aa; oco6eHHo pa3apa- 
acaaH cnaeTHH, pacnpocTpanaeMbie «TeTKaMH»; a roBopna ce6e, hto 



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bot y*e 3 roaa KaK a Bpamaiocb cpean aHTponoco(j>OB; h b KOHue koh- 
uob a «He y3HdH»; moh MopaabHbie ycTpeMaeHHa, moh jiHTepaTypHbie 
Tpyflbi a6cojuoTHO HHKoro He HHTepecyioT, a cnoKHeftuiHe aymeBHbie 
nepe>KHBaHHH moh — «Hyab»; KaK 6bia a ana Bceft stoh Maccbi «unser 
lieber naive Herr Bugaieff», TaK h ocTajica; Kpoiwe Toro: a cTaa 3aMe- 
iaTb, ito HeKOTopb/e H3 HaiiiHx iJieHOB toiho KOcaTca Ha MeHa; Meac- 
ay MHOK3 h hmh 6yaTO npo6eraeT mepHan KouiKa»; TaK, 3HraepT, 
npeacae TaKofl BHHMaTeabHbift ko mhc CTaa aBHO MeHa cTopoHHTbca; 
oxaaaean moh OTHomeHHa c Phxtcpom; CeaaeuKHe To*e HenpHa3- 
HeHHO oraaabraaaH MeHa; Bajuiep h Mhthcp BbiKa3biBajiH xoaoa- 
HocTb; KjiacceH h SKKapTiiiTeftH — Toace; xoaoaoK b othoiuchkh k 
ce6e a noaMenaa h y Uloaab. Kto oco6chho MeHa He jik>6hji, TaK 3to 
— Boab$paM (npeaceaaTeabHHua JleftnuHrcKoro oTaeaeHHa, b to Bpe- 
Ma KHBiiiaa b flopnaxe: ee aowb 3aHHMaaacb ycepaHo 3bphtmhch); 
name a BHaeaca c a-poM TeuieM, othochbiuhmch k HaM c 6oabiuoio 
CHMnaTHeft; 6an*e cxoanaHCb mu c My*eM h *eHOK> rioaaaK (06a 3a- 
HHMa^HCb 5KHBonHCbK>); FIoaaaK 6wji HHTepeceH MOK^y npOHHM TeM, 
mto eme ao aHTponoco<J)HH roabi uiea mhcthhcckhm nyTeM h HMea 
«CTHrMaTbi». B 3to BpeMa noaBHancb b AopHaxe My>K h aceHa CTpa- 
kouj (h3 BeHbi); OHa 6biaa xyao>KHHua, a oh — HHweHep, HHTepecoBa- 
BuiHfica ecTecTB03HaHHeM (BnocaeacTBHH C'TpaKOiu CTaa npenoaaBa- 
TeaeM Baabaop(})CKOH uiKoabi)*. 06a y Hac 6biBaaH. 

Eoaee c6aH*anHCb Mbi c BaH-aep-FIaaabCOM, kotopwh noaBaaa- 
ca y Hac name h name. M BbmepTHaca pyccKHH Kpy>KOK, c kotopwm 
BCTpenaancb mu iiohth nocToaHHo: MabHHa, Xly6ax, OpnaKHHa, H.A. 
MaaHKOB, K.A. JlnrcKHH, CTaBuiHH aHTponoco(J)OM h ycepaHO pa6o- 
TaBiiJHH Haa CTeKaaMH b MacTepcKOft PnxTepa. (T.A. EepreHrpioH 
h T.r. Tpane3HHK0B 6bian mohmh oco6eHHbiMH aHMHbiMH apy3baMH b 
to BpeMa.) KaaceTca, b to caMoe BpeMa k Tpane3HHKOBy Hanaa Ha- 
e3)KaTb Mhx. rieTp. Kphcth H3 JIo3aHHbi, rae oh acna BMecTe c JlyHa- 
napcKHMH; oh c HHTepecoM paccnpauiHBaa o nocTpottKe «Bau» h 6paa 
ot Tpane3HHKOBa khhi-h aoKTopa (KOTopwe, Ka>KeTca, eMy nepeBO- 
ana JlyHanapcKHH); k HabHHofi CTaa H3 Bepna npne3>KaTb TaBpoHCKHH 
({{)Haoco(j)-Kor3HHaHeu h couHaa-peBoaiouHGHep); MabHHa no3HaKO- 
MHaa ero co mhoh; oh oaHa^abi aBHaca ko MHe h nonpocna MeHa pac- 
CKa3aTb eMy ocHOBbi TeopHH 3HaHHa UlTeftHepa; ero BoaHan Ha «Bau» 
h xoTean HcnpocHTb pa3peiueHHe Ha aeKUHio aoKTopa. Ho BnycK no- 
ctopohhhx 6bia oieHb CTpor; TaBpoHCKoro He nycraan; oh oieHb o6h- 
aeaca; h, KaweTca, nepecTaa noaBaaTbca b flopnaxe. HaTauia b sto 
BpeMa ycnaeHHO 3aHHMaaacb y PHXTepa b MacTepcKOft Ha cTeKaax; 



* O BajibnopijjCKOft ujKone cm. npwueiaHHe k BocnoMHHaHHHM M.H. SCeMny*- 
hmkoboR o Mockobckom AHTponoco<J)CKOM 06iuecTBe (MHHYBUIEE, t.6, c.46). 



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eft nopyMHJiH KpacHoe cTewio, Ha kotopom aoaxcHa 6biaa 6biTb Bbipe- 
3aHa orpoMHax roaoBa <mocemt4aeMoeo», caeaaHHaK c Ha6pocKa a-pa 
3KKapTuiTeftH (noMHHTCH, Koraa 3KKapTiiiTeftH pa6oTajia Haa pncyH- 
kom cbohm, OHa pHcoBaaa «e/ict3a» c Memi); b rpynne pe3«MKOB no CTe- 
Kiy, crpynnHpoBaHHbix b aoMHKe PHXTepa, noMHio: 6paTbeB $oh- 
Maft, CeaaemcHx, JlHrcicoro, JIeae6ypa (c kotopwm mm msuio cTa- 
an BHflaTbCH); ckopo k 3TOfl rpynne npncoeaHHHaacb MoaoaeHbicafl 
xyaoacHHua <J)oh-Opt, cTaBinan b 16-m roay HeBecTOK) JIeae6ypa, a 
noTOM Bbiuiefliuas 3aMy* 3a JlHrcxoro (yace nocae Moero orbe3fla). 
B 3to BpeM« HanajiHCb HHTeHCHBHbie pa6oTbi xyaoxcHHKOB no 
noaroTOBKe k pacicpacKe xynoaoB «Bau». M.B. Ca6auiHHKOBa pa6oTa- 
na Haii KapTHHoft «EeunemcKoeo nocenufemwyy, riepaabTS pa3pa6a- 
TbiBana oahh h3 mothbob 6oabiuoro Kynojia; JlHHae h I~Ioaa«KH (My* 
h *eHa) pa6oTajiH Haa 3CKH3aMH Maaoro Kynojia; Ace nopynnji Phx- 
Tep pa3pa6oTaTb oahh H3 mothbob aaa CTeicaa. K TOMy BpeMeHH 
a-p BbijienHJi rojioBy Xpncra, a aHrannaHKa Msphoh c 3Tott MoaeaH 
pa3pa6aTbiBana orpoMHyio CTaTyio XpHCTa (H3 njiacTHjiHHa); CTaTyK 
BnocneacTBHH aoa>KHa 6waa 6biTb Bbipe3aHa H3 aepeBa. 

Anpe/ib. 

npH6jiH»canacb nacxa; HanaaHCb ycnaeHHbie peneTHium supHT- 
MHMecKHX HOMepoB, aoaweHCTByiomHx (J)HrypHpoBaTb Ha nacxajibHOM 
npa3aHecTBe: Ach h HaTauia npHHHMajiH aeHTeabHoe yqacrae b pe- 
neTHUHHx; cTpacTHyio Heaeaio n npocTo 3aawxaacH ot tockh, ot 
m'/thocth, ot KaKoft-To 3arp«3HeHHOCTH aTMoc(J>epbi Boicpyr; b aoBep- 
iueHHe Bcero MeHfl BoaHOBaa h Mynna o6o3Ha4HBinHHCH npopbiB 3a- 
naaHoro (fcpoHTa; «, KaK nacwjmcT, xoTea 6bi, hto6m BOftHa BOBce 
OKOHinaacb; h oKOHHHJiacb BHHHbK); h totob 6wa aaace Ha to, hto6 
CTaTb Ha TOHKy 3peHHH nopaaceHnecTBa, npH ycaoBHH, hto OKpyacaio- 
mne Hac HeMUbi-aHTponoco(t)bi CTaHyT Ha Taicyio *e Tomcy 3peHH«; ho 
BHaeTb aoBoabCTBo sthx HeMueB tcm, hto Hauin coaaaTbi rH6HyT, 
lyBCTBOBaTb caMoyBepeHHoe noTHpaHHe pyx y Te6n 3a cithhoh, — hct: 
Ha sto a 6bia HecoraaceH. 

KpoMe Toro: aTMoctfrepa, crycTHBinajtCH Haa Haineft KoaoHHeft, 
6waa npocTo ywacHa; BnocaeacTBHH 3HraepT npH3HaBaac>i M.B. Ca- 
6auiHHKOBOH, BcnoMHHaa 06 stom BpeMeHH: «Toraa, aeftcTBHTeabHO, 
b ilopHaxe naxao KaKHM-TO K03aoM». (Pa3yMea oh K03aa uia6auia.) 
HeMy npHnncaTb 3Ty cTpaHHyro aTMOC(J)epy, He 3HaK>. rioMHK) JiHiub, 
4to nacxaabHaa aeKUHH a-pa 6waa nenaabHa; h Bepnyacn c aeicuHH h 
BCTpeTHa OTiaHHHeM nacxaabHyK) HOib*. 



* Ha riacxe, 4 anpejw (h.ct.), UlTeflHep iHTaji JieKumo «Drei Faustgestalten». 
B tot we aeHb Dbixia nepBaa jBpHTMimecicaH nocTaHOBKa «nacxajibHO(i cueHM» m <PA- 
yCTA. 



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Cxopo aoKTop h MapHH ^KOBJieBHa yexajiH b repMaHHio, — Heae- 
jih Ha ABe*; b aoMHKe aoKTopa npoaciraajia oaHa Baxmep. 

Bot TyT-To h npoH30iuen co mhoio He3a6biBaeMbift no CTpaHHo- 
cth (oiwTb 3to cjiobo!) cjiynafl; » BHyTpeHHe b nocjiewHfl pa3 pa3o- 
pBaji Bee c HaTauiett; h TOTqac noqyBCTBOBan okojio ce6« «u»e-To *yT- 
Koe npHcyTCTBHe; cocTOHHbe co3HaHHa Moero, HCTomeHHoro y*e 
aByxMecjiHHofi c jihiuhhm 6eccoHHHueft, 6hjio yxcacHo: ahcm k cnan 
HaxBy (co6biTHfl *h3hh npoTexanH b KaxoM-To ciuiouihom TyMaHe); 
a HOHbK) He Mor coMKHyTb rna3 no 3apH, 3a6biBaxcb cnerxa Ha pac- 

CBeTC 

H bot (noMHHTca, sto 6bijio b neTBepr, Ha cpOMHHoft Heflene) oa- 
Haxcflbi, Haxofl«cb b TaKOM cohhom coctoahhh, h b3hji 6yMary h ne- 
poM CTan uapanaTb xaKHe-TO 3aKopK>4KH; H3 3aicopio<ieK cjioxcHJiocb 
flo yxcaca xcyTKoe, xceHcxoe jihiio; b nunc 6bijia neqaTb caTaHH3Ma; 
h noxa3an Ace 3TO jump; h OHa oTCTpaHHjia ero ot ce6x, cxa3aB: 
«4>y, Kaxax ranocTb!» A hoimo npoH30uuio co mhoh cne/jyiomee: n, 
no oiftbiKHOBeHHio, He cnan; h tomhjicji; Ach cnajia; cbct b Moeft kom- 
HaTe 6mji 3axcxceH; Bnpyr, itjiotho npHTBopeHHaa flBepb, Beayman b 
KopHAopmiK, caMa co6oli pacTBopmiacb; b o6biMHbix ycnoBHHx OHa He 
Morjia pacTBopHTbcx; a bckoihji c nocTejiH h npHTBopiui ee; ho eflBa 
a ner, Kax nBepb on«Tb pacTBopHJiacb; h qyBCTBOBan, ito hto-to He- 
BHflHMoe (BepHett, kto-to neeuduMcm) Hanojnuuio KOMHaTy; h noiyB- 
CTBOBaji, — kto-to CTpaniHbift ctoht y Moero H3ronoBbH; BepHefl, 
— kto-to cmpauiHOH, noTOMy hto 6mjio hbho, hto sto — cmpaiuHcw 
xeumuHa; h bckohhji c noerejiH, pa36ynHji Acio, paccxa3an eft o snuie- 
hhh c ABepbio; Aoi He o6paTHJia Ha sto bhhm3hh«; h 3acHyjia. X, no 

06bIKH0BeHHK), npOBeJI HOHb B 6eCCOHHHUC 

Ha aie/jyiomee yTpo mchji oxBarana TJDKejiaa Tocxa; h toiho 
HeBHflHMaH CHJia BbiTXHyna H3 flOMy; coBepuieHHO 6e3BOjibHO h cran 

6pOflHTb no OKpeCTHOCTHM, He nOMHIO, KaK OHyTHJICH y TpaMBaflHOtt 

ocTaHOBKH b Hhxchcm XlopHaxe; He 3naio noieMy HeoauinaHHO jum 
ce6jr cen b TpaMBofl h yBH/jeji, hto eay b Easejib: «3a«ieM?» — nony- 
Manocb MHe; b ApjiecrettMe b TpaMBafi cena onHa H3 aMepHKaHOK; 
Illojuib ee npoBoacana Ha cranium; MHe noKa3anocb, hto UlojiJib no- 
CMOTpena Ha mchh oco6eHHo 3Ha<iHTejibHO. OiyTHBiiiHCb b Ea3ejie, » 
6ecnejibHo 3a6po/jnji no yjumaM; ocTaHOBiuicx y aoMHKa 3pa3Ma, 
noiueji o6paTHO, 3a6pen b KaKofl-TO HeyiOTHbitt h MpaiHbiH KHHevia- 
Torpa4>; noneMy-To MHe noKa3anocb, hto pmia 3a w 3a mhoh chaht 
4)pay floojibMaH-Mott; ho x He Brnwencx: x aawe He 3Haio, noneMy 
MHe 3to noKa3ajiocb: bhucji na » ee, iwh npHCHWiocb, «ito Buaeji, — 
He 3Haio; n 6biJi toiho b TpaHce; noMHHTca, okojio MeH* 6mjih cbo- 



15-23 anpens (h.ct.) IOrettHep npoBen b EepjiHHe, rae oh MHTan cepmo jienudl. 

437 



6oflHbie MecTa; ito noKa3biBauiH Ha aicpaiie, He BHaea; Bapyr, bo Bpe- 
mh npe^CTaBJieHHH, pa3aBHHyaacb lepnaa 3aHaBecxa h xceHCKoe cyiue- 
ctbo, Bee b nepHOM, cTpaHHOft, uiMbiraiouieii noxoaKOio npxMo na- 
npaBHnocb ko MHe, cejio paaoM co mhoh, xoth noiTH Becb pan 6wa 
nycTofl; cymecTBo npH»caaocb ko MHe; a He 3Haio, noneMy a He oto- 
aBHHyaca: pyKH h hoi-h moh oueneHejiH, a lepHaa aceHWHHa npoaoa- 
waaa ko MHe npH*HMaTbca, OTqero MHe aeaaaocb xcyTKo; yxcac MeHa 
oxBaTHJi, a h He Mor aBHHyTbca; TaK cnaeaH mm b nycTOM noHTH paay, 
CTpaHHo npH)KaTbie apyr k apyry; b aHTpaKTe BcnwxHya cbct; a cae- 
jian nonbiTKy B3raaHyTb b jihuo CTpaHHoft coceaKH, ho OHa KaK-To 
raflKO noBepHynacb ko MHe cnHHOft; a MeabKOM yBHaea HenpHaTHO- 
cTpaHHbie nepTbi ee jmua h KaK 6yaTo KpacHbift mpaM Ha xyaott toh- 
koh uiee; cbct norac h qepHaa weHuiHHa onaTb npMxcaaacb ko MHe; 
MeHH oxBaTHno OTBpameHHe; npeoaoaeBaa TH>KecTb, CKOBaBiuyio pyKH 
h Horn, a noflHHJiCH c MecTa, B3raaHyB b jihuo cBoeft coceaKH; bo TbMe 
HeHCHo a yBHaaa 6e3o6pa3Hbie nepTbi ee; OHa onjiTb noBepHyjia ot 
MeHa jihuo; a 6pochjich npoib H3 «Kuho»; b cTpaxe, HanojiHeHHWtt 
tohho TyManoM, a ceji b TpaMBafi, yHOCHCb b ,/JopHax; KaK bo CHe no 

flOPOre 3anOMHHJlHCb JIHUa MHe HeCKOJlbKHX H3 HaiUHX; nOMHHTCH, HTO 

Koraa a 6e*aji H3 HHJKHero ,/J.opHaxa k HaM, Ha xoaMe, MHe Ka3aaocb, 
MeHH kto-to npecaeayeT; a nyBCTBOBaa BHyTpeHHHfi 3anpeT roBopHTb 
c Aceft o HenoHJiTHOM aaa mchh npoHciuecTBHH b «KUHeMamoepa<fie». 
EflBa a npHiueji aoMoft (Ach He 6biao aoMa) — cTyK b aBepb: «He- 
rein...» Bxoaht IUoaab; a yaHBHaca ee noaBJieHHio; o6mhho OHa hh- 
Koraa He 6biBana y Hac; jihuo lllo/uib MeHa nopa3Hjio onaTb, KaK h Ha 
CTaHUHH b ApnecreHMe; OHa CMOTpeaa Ha MeHa c HanpaxceHHbiM bhh- 
MaHHeM; h tohho B3raaaoM HcnbiTbiBajia; OHa cnpocnjia, npHiuypHB 
raa3a, tohho OHa 3Haaa 06 oxBaTHBiuett mch« anxopaaKe, — nocaea- 
ctbhh BCTpeiH b KHHeMaTorpa<}>e: «Hy, KaK bm ce6a nyBCTByeTe?..» 
H npHHy>KfleHHO OTBeTHa: «Aa HHHero...» IllonJib c HeaoBepHeM Ha 
MeHa nocMOTpeaa; h c HeonpeaeaeHHbiM Bbipa^eHHeM cKa3aaa: «Hy, 
bot h xopouio». OHa sepHyaa MHe B3aTbift y MeHa tomhk TeTe. MHe 
noKa3ajiocb, hto ee noaBaeHHe y Hac ToabKO npeaaor — nocMOTpeTb 
Ha MeHa; a noayMaa: «Jlaa nero eft Haao 3HaTb Moe caMOHyBCTBHe?..» 
FIoMHHTca, — c TaaceaoH rpycTbio, noa Benep, a Bbiuiea Ha ayr nepea 
HauiHM aoMHKOM; BCTpeTHa HaTauiy; y Hee 6biaH b pyKax uBeTbi; y 
MeHa BbipBaaocb hto-to ropbKoe; a CKa3aa: «Hy bot, HanHHaeTca 
BecHa, a a TyT, tohho ckot 6eccaoBecHbift...» rioneMy a 3T0 CKa3an, 
He 3HaK). rioMHHTca, KaK b TyMane: BCTpeTHa HabHHy c npnexaBiuHM 

K He& TaBpOHCKHM. 

Ha apyroft aeHb, b cy66oTy, MeHa oxBaTHaa TpeBora, nepexoaa- 
maa b CTpax nepea hcm-to HeyMoaHMbiM, hto aoaacHO cTpacTHCb co 
mhoh; c yTpa Aca oTnpaBHaacb b aoMHK PnxTepa pa6oTaTb Ha ctck- 



438 



nax; h ocrajicH oahh b Tpex nycTwx KOMHaTax; h mchh onuTb oxBanui 
crpax; ft Bumen Ha 6ajixoHHHx h 6pociui B3ni«a Ha aopory, npoxoaHB- 
myio mhmo flOMHKa aoKTopa; aopora B&na b KaHTHHy; x yBHaea 6apo- 
Heccy 4>HTHHro<t>» 6bierpo uiefluiyio k KaHTHHe; 3Ty <&HTHHro(t> h He 
jhoShji; OHa xa3ajiacb MHe CTpaHHO 6one3HeHHott, MeaHyMHHHoft, no- 
pott aaxce noA03pHTejibHOit; 6bi/iH momchtm, icoraa MHe xa3ajiocb, 
hto OHa — «iunuoM<a» H3 TeMHbix OKKyjibTHiecKHx o6mecTB, noao- 
cjiaHHax k HaM; OAHaxcAbi 3ra <I>HTHHro<i> roBOpmia co mhoh o xaxoM- 
to oKKyjibTHsecKOM o6iuecTBe «Ma3daucmoe», ynacTHHxoB KOToporo 
OHa 3Hana; 3th «Ma3daucmw» AeftCTBOBanH BHyTpeHHHM HacHJiHeM 
Haa Bonefl nenoBexa; h bot MHe noxa3ajiocb, hto caMa OHa «Ma3da- 
ucntKa» h hto OHa MHe neM-TO yrpoacaeT; hto OHa TpeTca cpenH Hac, 
pacceHBan aypHyio aTMocifrepy Boxpyr. HTax: a yBHnen meauiyio <I>h- 
THHroij) (ee 3BanH «cmpuxKOU» b pyccxoM xpyxcxe); c Heft pjiaoM 
xpoMajio OTBpaTHTejibHettmee acyTxoe cymecTBo b nepHOM: 3to 6bina 
kpHBOOOxaa, crpauiHaa, xyaaa xceHimiHa; a He BHaeji hcho jinua 3Tofi 
KemuHHbi; ho b noxoaxe h b Hcecrax ee 6mjio hto-to yrpoxcaioiuee, 
caTaHHHCKoe; h 6yaTO BeaoMoe MHe H3 xouiMapoB; tohho cymecTBo 
H3 MHpa TottH H Bpettreji« BonnoTHJiocb b stot cojraeHHbiH aeHb; o,n- 
ho MrHOBeHHe MHe noxa3anocb, hto «^phoh xcemyuHav, xoBbuixB- 
uiau 3a <X>HTHHro<J) h hto-to efl OTBpaTHTenbHO paccKa3biBaBiuax, 6m- 
jia mom BiepauiHJw coceaxa no xHHeMaTorpa<i>y; h TyT, HeH3BecTHO 
noieMy, moh CTpax npeBpaTHJica b naHHnecxHtt yacac; ho h cicasaa 
ce6e: «B3aop, Haao 6biTb Tpe3BbiM: sto — cjiynattHoe coBnaaeHHe...» 
TeM He MeHee, — MHe CTano He no ce6e; a nonyBCTBOBan, hto He Mory 

CnOKOHHO OCTaBaTbCH B KOMHaTax; « B3JU1 TOMHK TeTe H OTnpaBHJICH 

ryjMTb; He 3Haio noneMy, mchh c HeyaepacHMOio chjioio noTjmy.no b 
aoMHK PHXTepa; PnxTep BCTpeTHa mchh xax-TO oco6chho; oh B3rjiH- 
Hyji na MeHH c xaxoio-To Bemeio, ncnuTyiomeio yjibi6xoli h onem. cep- 
aeHHO noTpenan no njieny: «HHHero, He Haao 6oHTbc»: Haao 6biTb 
My*ecTBeHHbiM!» fl — B3aporHya: MHe noxa3anocb, hto b tohc Phx- 
Tepa ecTb hto-to npHroTaBjiHBaioiuee mchh x noTpaceHHio, KOTopoe 

AOJDKHO BOT-BOT HaflO MHOH pa3pa3HTbC»; PHXTep rOBOpHa CO MHOtt 

Tax, xax roBopHT onepaTop c TeM, xoro oh co6HpaeTca onepapoBaTb; 
x HaM npHcoeflHHHJiacb Ac»; PnxTep cxa3an HaM onenb BjiacTHo: «Hy 
Tenepb nottaeMTe 3a mhoh: si BaM — noxa)xy xoe-HTO...» B3«ji mchh 
3a pyxy h Tax xce BJiacTHO buboi h3 aoMHxa; c HaMH mna Ac»; » Bee 
BpeMx coo6paxaji, cjiynaflHa hjih He aiynafiHa cTpaHHaa HHTOHauHn 
PHXTepa; ho h nprabix no npexcHHM BCTpenaM c PHXTepoM BHaeTb b 
HeM xaxoe-TO flBOttHoe cymecTBo; to sto 6bin npocTott, Beceawfl 6a- 
jiaryp, to — 6yflTo Beaajoiiwtt hto-to, nocBsmeHHbifl bo hto-to; Tax 
— b ahh Moefl BHyTpeHHett mhctcphh Ha 6epJiHHCKOM reHepajibHOM 
co6paHHH 1914 roaa oh tohho 3Haa co6uthh BHyTpeHHett xh3hh mo- 

439 



eft; b mohx HMarHHauHflx oh Bceraa Hrpaji oneHb cTpaHHyio poab: bbo- 
anmero MeHH b KaKHe-To BHyTpeHHHe o6p«aw Moett ayuin; b ero hhto- 
HauHH, b *ecTax ero npo«Baaaocb Toraa hchto pHTyajibHoe; h Hejib- 

3H 6biaO peiUHTb, C03HaeT SlH OH TO, HTO erO JKeCTbl BbimHflHT pHTy- 
ajlbHblMH JKeCTaMH, WlH 3TO COBepiIieHHO HenpOH3BOJIbHO B HeM. Ty 
)Ke HOTy flBOHCTBeHHOrO OTHOIIieHHH K fleflCTBHTe^bHOCTH fl nOflMeTHJl 

b HeM b MOMeHTe, Koraa oh, b3«b MeHH 3a pyicy, noBea H3 CBoero ao- 
MHKa k oTonaeHHK); noMemeHHe oTonaeHHH, HMeiomee bha cTpaHHO- 
ro poraToro cymecTBa, Ha3biBaaH mm, aHTponocottibi, ycaoBHO «Apu- 
ManoM», noTOMy hto b o6mefi KOHuenuHH naaHa «Bau» OTonneHHe 
6biao HMeHHO apHMaHHnecKHM HanaaoM b «Bau»; Ach iiJJia 3a HaMH; 
PHXTep npnsea Hac bo BHyTpeHHee noMemeHHe OTonaeHHH; cnycTHaca 
c HaMH bhh3; h CKa3aa TeM »e CTpamibiM o6p«aoBbiM roaocoM: «Mbi 
Tenepb — b Heapax ApHMaHa: bot Kaic mojkct neaoBeic nacTb!» R CTaa 
BHyTpeHHe npncayuiHBaTbCH k caoBaM PHXTepa. Oh *e, CHOBa B3HB 
MeHa 3a pyny, noBea noa3eMHbiM KopnaopoM, coeaHHmomHM «Apu- 
MOHa» c TeTeaHyMOM; 3to uiecTBHe Hac tpohx BBepx k TeTeaHyMy no 
noa3eMHOMy KopHaopy HanoMHHaao MHe KaKoft-TO o6p«a; nonaB 
BHyTpb TeTeaHyMa, mm CTaan noaHHMaTbcn no aecaM — BBepx, k 
Kynoay; PwxTep npoaoa>Kan aepacaTb mchji 3a pyicy; cTaB noa Kyno- 
aoM, oh cKa3aa: «Tax nocae naaeHHH MO»eT neaoBeic BBepx noaHH- 

TbCH...» 

${ 6bia oxBaneH BHyTpeHHHM BoaHeHHeM; MHe Ka3aaocb, hto 
PnxTep roBopHT co6mthhx Moefi BHyTpeHHeH >kh3hh... Mbi Tpoe no- 
CToaaH noa KynoaoM. PnxTep onHTb MHe cxa3aa: «He Haao 6o«Tb- 
ch...» H noBea bhh3; h cnoxoftHO waaa, hto 6yaeT aaabme; PHXTep 
BbiBea Hac Ha BepaHay, OKpy^aBuiyro TeTeaHyM; BHH3y, noa BepaH- 
aofi, yBHaea h ceMHaecHTHaeTHK>K> cTapymxy KHTTeab, pa3roBapHBa- 
lomyio c ceMnaecHTHaeTHHM cTapHHKOM BarHepoM, HauiHM naeHOM, 
npHexaBiiiHM ToabKO hto H3 repMaHHH; « ero eme He BHaea h o6pa- 
aoBaacn eMy; h KHTTeab, h BarHepa h aio6Ha; ohh CTOHaH y orpaaw 
TeTeaHyMa, oTKyaa cnycxaaacb aopora b KaHTHHy, pa3roBapHBaaH, 
noraaabiBaaH Ha TeTeaHyM; h tohho noaacHaaan Koro-To; PnxTep 
noBea Hac k hhm; yBHaeB, hto Mbi HaeM, ohh noinaH bhh3, HaM npea- 
uiecTBya. PnxTep 3HaHHTeabHO Ha MeHH nocMOTpea; h MHe noKa3a- 
aocb noa aeftcTBHeM ero B3ranaa, hto MeHH BeayT bhh3, tohho noa 
KOHBoeM, coctohuihm h3 PnxTepa h aByx caMbix CTapbix H OHeHb HTH- 
Mbix naeHOB 06mecTBa. «Hto 3to 3HanHT» — MoaHHea MeabKHyao bo 
MHe; y kohtopm, mhmo kotopoh mu npoinan, cTOHao HecKoabKO 
naeHOB 06mecTBa, othochbujhxch, Ka»eTCH, ko MHe HenpHH3HeHHo; 
Koraa Mbi npoxoanaH mhmo hhx, MHe noKa3aaocb, hto ohh KpHKHyaH 
hto-to HenpH«3HeHHoe no MoeMy aapecy; Bee 3to nponiao, KaK bo 
chc B KyHKe cTonaa 3oHHeHKaap. 

440 



Cnycxaacb k KaHTHHe, a BHaen, hto Ha nycToft aaBonxe chaht 
Banjiep; h tohho noa*HaaeT Hac; yBHaeB Hac, OHa co Bcex hot 6pocH- 
nacb k xaHTHHe, tohho npeaynpeacaaa Koro-TO, Haxoa&meroca BHyTpn 
xaHTHHbi o HameM noaBJieHHH. «Kyaa OHa?» — MenbXHyjio bo mhc 
Rax bo CHe noMHio, hto mm c Aceft 3aHaaH MecTO 3a nycTbiM ctojih- 
kom CHapy*H (6wji nac KO<J)e); c HaMH can, xaweTca, KeMnep; Aca 
npHHecaa xo(J>e ce6e h MHe; He iiomhk), xyaa aeBaaca PHXTep; xoraa 
a yace xoHnaa Kocfre, a yBHaen (J)pefljieHH MnTHep, bckj b nepHOM; OHa 
noaxoaHJia k HaM k3khmh-to TopwecTBeHHWMH uiaraMH; 3a Hett mna 
Ta caMaa yacacHaa, xpHBo6oxaa acemHHHa b nepHOM npHXpaMWBaio- 
meio noxoaxoio; ee jihuo 6wjio MepTBeHHO 6neaHO, orpoMHbie ry6w 
pacnnbiBanHCb b uHHHHHO-Mep3KOH yabi6xe b to BpeMa xax 3Jibie, 
ocnenHTejibHO $oc(J)opHHecKHe rna3a npoHH3MBaaH mchh, xax s/ie- 
XTpHHecTBOM; MHTiep noflBena xo MHe yoxacnoe cymecTBo h, BCTaB 
Meacay Heio h mhok> b pnTyajibHOft (xax noxa3anocb MHe) nose, 3HaHH- 
TenbHo nomHflbiBajia to Ha MeHa, to Ha weHiuHHy b nepHOM h cnpo- 
CHna: «He 3HaeTe jih bm, rae 6apOHecca cpHTHHroij): bot 3Ta aaMa ee 
HiueT». H TyT MHe CTaro hcho, hto xpoMaa xceHUfuna e nepHOM c 
yacacHbiM jihuom, OTBpaTHTenbHO yabi6aiomaaca MHe, 6bina TeM ca- 
mwm cymecTBOM, xoTopyio a BHaea nac Ha3aa, Haymefi c 6apoHeccofl 
<I>HTHHro(J) x xaHTHHe; a npHBCTaa h otbcthji, hto He 3Hato rae <&h- 
thhixxJ). MHTHep 6pocHaa: «Kax Hcaaxo». H npoH3HTenbHO nocMOT- 
peaa Ha MeHa; a xpnBo6oxaa Menutuna e nepnoM noBepHyaa cBoe an- 
no; h TyT Ha Tomefi mee ee a yBHaea xpoBaBbitt uipaM, — tot caMbitt 
xpoBaBUH uipaM, xoTopbift a yBHaea b «Kuho»; 3to 6buia yacacHaa 
BHepanmaa moh coceaxa no «Kuho»; TyT MeHa oxBarana apoacb, 
CTpax, HeaoyMeHHe, hohth yacac; a MHTnep, 3HaHHTenbHO yjiw6HyB- 
uiHCb MHe, OTouijia; nepHoe «cyiuecmeo» ceno Ha naBonxy, Hancxocb 
ot Hac, OTBpaTHTenbHO yabi6aacb h ocaenHTenbHO GnHcraa Ha MeHa 
cbohmh 3eneHWMH, (frocQbopHHecxHMH, He to 6e3yMHbiMH, He to caTa- 
hhhckhmh raa3aMH; a He 3Haio, hto bo MHe noaHajiocb; TyT a yBHaea 
6erymyio xo MHe c xojiMa HaTamy; HaTama Toace 6biaa bch b hcphom; 
MHe noxa3ajiocb, hto nepHaa acemuHHa Morjia 6w 6biTb npoTHBoo6- 
pa30M Hamauiu; ecan 6bi HaTama 6biaa ypoaaHBa ao nocaeaHHx 
npeaeaoB, ecjiH 6bi OHa cTaaa BeabMOH h ynacTBOBaaa 6bi b nepHbix 
iua6aiiiax, to jihuo ee Morno 6w npHo6pecTH 3tot oTBpaTHTejibHbift 
OTnenaTox... Si BCTan h He cnwuia noa co6ofl Hor nomen BBepx ot 
xaHTHHbi: HaTama TBepao cxasana: «%. noflay c to6oh». H b cjioaax 
ee MHe nonyaHjiocb onaTb hto-to pnTyanbHoe. Tohho OHa b MHHyTy 
Moefl 6pomeHHOCTH h CMepTenbHoro ywaca oxa3anacb paaoM co 
mhoio; Aca ace HHHero He BHaena, HHHero He noHHMana, hto nponcxo- 
aHT. Iloxa Mbi noaHHMajiHCb xBepxy, HaTama MHe roBopnna hcbhht- 
Hoe o tom, hto oxojio TeTeaHyMa bhacjih xaxHx-TO coMHHTenbHbix 



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jHoaeft, hto roTOBHTca OKKyabTHoe HanaaeHHe Ha Bcex Hac, hto kto- 
to y Bxana b TeTeaHyM BHaea 3Meio, hto Bee hcm-to BCTpeBoaceHbi h 
nepenyraHti h hto k BxoaaM, BeaymHM Ha CTpoftxy, c ceroaHHiUHero 
AHH npHCTaBneHa cTpa*a, hto y Bcex 6e3 hckjikjhchha naeHOB npn 
Bxoae b TeTeaHyM 6yayT cnpauiHBaTb naeHCKHe 6HaeTbi; h eaBa cay- 
uiaji HaTamy, noTpaceHHbifi noHBjieHHein nepeao mhoh o6pa3a nepHOfi 
>KeHLUHHbi; noroaa XMypuaacb; nomfincn BeTep: oh CBHCTaa h noaBbi- 
Baji, KpyTH nbiabio; b mocm ace co3HaHbe BepTeaocb: «rae n npeacae 
BHaea 3to cTpauiHoe jihuo h KpacHbift uipaM Ha mee?..» H Bapyr — 
BcnoMHHJiocb: b (jieBpaae Mbi c Aceft B03BpamajiHCb b TpaMBae H3 
Ba3ejiH b JJopHax; paaoM co mhokj CHaeaa 3Ta KOCTaHBaa, 6e3o6pa3- 
Haa, 6aeaHaa KaK MepTBeu, KpHBo6oKa« aceHiuHHa c KpacHbiM uipa- 
mom Ha uiee; h cyMacuieauiHMH, (J)oc<t)opHHecKHMH raa3aMH noKauiH- 
Bajiacb Ha mchh; a Koraa n npniuea aoMoft, to MHe 6pocHaocb b raa3a 
HenpoH3BOJibHo HapHcoBaHHoe CTpauiHoe aceHCKoe jihuo, HaKaHyHe 
BCTpenH b KUHeMamoepatfe; 3to jihuo raaaeao Ha MeHH c Kjionxa 
6y\iarH h cTpaHHo HanoMHHajio auuo HepHoft »eHm,HHbi; BcnoMHHji h 
npoHcuiecTBHe c aBepbio: aBepb oTBopwaacb caiwa co6oh h b KOMHaTy 
mok) bouijio >KeHCKoe, HeBHjjHMoe cymecTBO, HanoaHJW ayuiy CTpa- 
xom. TyT a nyTb He BcxpHnaa ot yacaca. KaK? Moh KOUiMap Bonao- 
thjich? y»cacHafl HeaoTbiKOMKa noayHHaa naoTb h KpoBb, cTaaa npe- 
CJieayrouiHM mchh AByHorHM cymecTBOM? CnepBa a owyTHa hcbhah- 
Moe npHcyTCTBHe KaKofl-ro uepHoii xeHUtuHbi, cyKKy6a, b mohx nepe- 
^HBaHHJix npHHHMaBuiero hhoh pa3 Bua HaTauin; noTOM Ach h Tpa- 

ne3HHKOB CTajIH B CHaX GopOTbCH C KaKHMH-TO HepHblMH )KeHUIHHaMH; 

noTOM 3aroBopHJiH o HeBH/jHMbix oKKyjibTHbix Bparax, HanaaaBuiux 
Ha Hac; HaxoHeu a b hckom TpaHce BonjioTHji Ha 6yMare caTaHHHCKyio 
acemuHHy; oHa, HeBHaHMaa, Bouina ko MHe hohmo, otbophb aBepb; 
HaKOHeu OHa, hhkothhto, noaceaa ko MHe b KHHeMaTorpa<t»e, ko MHe 
npH*HMajiacb; h HaKOHeu noaBHaacb b KaHTHHe, KaK 6w npeacTaBaeH- 
Haa MHe MHTHep. 

Koraa Bee 3to BCTaao npeao mhoh, mchh oxBaTHa Taxofl yacac, 
hto a, noMHHTca, BCKpHKHya Bcayx. Hto sto 3HanHao? CyiuecTBo 
acTpaabHoro MHpa BCTaao nepeao mhojo? Kto oho? EcTb an 3to moB 
aBoftHHK? Han — HaTauiHH sbohhhk? Han — crpa>K nopora? Ecan 
nocaeaHee, to 3HanHT BCTpena co CTpaxceM nopora npoucxoaHT Ha 
$H3HHecKOM naaHe? HeT, stoto He 6biBaeT! 3to canuiKOM y*acHo! 
fla, b anue HeH3BecTHofl nepnou xcemifUHbi BonaoTHaocb Bee caMoe 
raaKoe, noaaoe, HH3MeHHoe, hto Mcnao b mocm co3HaHHH h 6ecco3Ha- 
hhh„h bot sto Bee KaK onaeyxa MHe 6pouieHo b amio; a nonyBCTBO- 
Baa, HcnbiTbiBaa aeaeHaiuHfl cTpax, raaaHBocTb h oauoBpeMeHHo He- 
HaBHCTb k 3/nou JiceHujUHe; h KaK 6w KeaaHHe ee yHHHTOHCHTb; ho 
a nyBCTBOBaa BMecTe c TeM, hto raa3a stoh xceHiuHHbi rpo3Han 

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MHe crapoaaBHeio gpocrbio h xax 6m aceaaHneM b cbokj onepeab ymi- 
qToxcHTb MeH«; cTajio «cho, hto (t>H3HHecxoe BonaomeHHe mohx TeM- 

HOT H CKBepH B BHfle IlOHBHBIlierOCH CpeflH Hauieft KOJIOHHH OTBpaTH- 

TOibHoro cymecTBa 6yaeT Bcioay noflBaflTboi nepeao mhoio, ancxpe- 
AHTHpoBaTb MeHH, BbiflyMbiBaTb Ha MeHH He6unHUbi; h b stom cmmc- 
Jie Moe BiepaniHee cHaemie c Heft b «Kuho» (rae oHa npnxHMaaacb 
ko MHe, a h He npoTHBHaca eft b xaxoM-TO TpaHce) OHa noBepHeT 
npoTHB MeHH, pacnpocTpaHHH npo mch« raaocTH; hto npoH30iiiao co 
mhoio tjt, » 0TKa3HBaiocb nepeaaTb. Yace BepHyaacb Ach H3 xaHTH- 
hw, a * omen b yxcace, 6opMona hto-to HeBHHTHoe (h nyBCTBOBaa, 
hto Ack) a He Mory noxa nocBHTHTb b Moe HecnacTHe). 

npcacTOJUio BenepoM ijtth Ha aexiuno a-pa YHrepa 06 aHTpono- 
co$ckoh Mopanu, a « 3Haa, hto on*m> yBHxeyeb c... ho c KeM? C cyMa- 
ciueaiueft, ho — xax noxBHaacb OHa cpeaH Hac? C cbohm bhachhcm?.. 
H BMecTe c TeM: h 3Haio, hto aoaxceH npeoaoaeTb cboh yacac; h — 
noltTH Ha jiexiuiio; hjih — 6e«aTb HaBceraa, xyaa rjma rnwsn, m 
JlopHaxa. 

M h nomea: hto MHe ctoiuio sto, bhaht oahh Bor. 

Y Bxoaa b capaft, rae HHTaancb jiexuHH, 3HraepT BecbMa cyxo MHe 
coo6miui, hto Haao HMeTb naeHCKHft 6HJieT; xaxeTcn, Ach nouuia 3a 
GwieTaMH, a « ocTaacjt b xaxoM-TO raynoM noaoxceHHH cuaeTb oxoao 
capan Ha jiaBonxe; h bot, k yacacy MoeMy, h yBHaea — to caMoe, nero 
6ojLnc«: yxcacHoe xpHBo6oxoe cymecTBO Beaa 3a pyxy BBepx H3 xaH- 
thhh HapJWHO oaeTaa rpa&HHg KaabxpeftT; npoxoa* mhmo MeHH c 
Hepnou xceHUfUHOU, OHa 3HanHTeabHO noxjioHHJiacb MHe; MHe noxa3a- 
aoa>, hto BeaeHHe yxcacnou HeanaKOMKu Ha aexiwH o6cTaBaeHo, toh- 
ho o6pa3 eeedeHivt nopTa b aHTponococfrcxHH xpaM; xeHutuna, npo- 
xoa« mhmo MeHH, 6aecHyaa Ha MeHH raa3aMH h onHTb Ha iiihpokhx, 
xchbothmx ry6ax stoto MepTBo6eaoro anua noHBHaacb OTBpaTHTeab- 
Hax yabi6xa. CaynHaocb Tax, hto mm c Aceft npouiaH b noMemeHHe 
aaa aexuHH Bcaea 3a Heio; npoxoa*, a noxaoHHacH 3HaxoMott uiBeaxe 
(aHTponoco<t)Ke); ho uiBeaxa, o6mhho aio6e3HaH co mhoio BnaoTb ao 
3aHCKHBaHH«, flep3xo nocMOTpeaa Ha MeHH, aeMOHCTpaTHBHO aepHyB 
roaoBy b CTopoHy h He otbcthb na noxaoH; h yBHaea, hto HHwe H3 
HaeHOB xax 6w ctopohhtch mchh; a b ayuie oTaaaocb: «Ara, — bot 
yxce Hanaao aeftcTBHH xaxott-To HeBeaoMoft MHe xaeBeTbi Ha mchh co 
ctopohh noRBHBiuerocfl oTBpaTHTeabHoro co3aaHH«...» B neM 3a- 
KaKJHaercJi 3Ta xaeBeTa, « He 3Haio, ho 3Haio, hto OHa — yxcacHa aan 
MeHH (MHe npeacTaBHaocb, hto HeBeaoMan nepuasi xeHinuna Moraa 
paccxa3aTb 060 MHe raaocTH no noBoay HenoHHTHoro Moero noBeae- 
hhh b «Kuho», Koraa h, 6yaTO b rHnH03e 3acTbiBiuHH, He Mor oTcecTb 
ot Hee, xoraa OHa npHxcaaacb ko MHe); caMbiM yxcacHbiM 6uao to, 
hto nepmut xeHUfuna, — <J)H3HHecKoe BonaoweHHe Bcex cxBepH Moefl 

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ayiUH bo Bcex mohx BonaomeHHax; h bot Tenepb 3th HeBbmocHMbie 
aa« MeHH cavioro cKBepHbi Bee paccMaTpHBajoT. 

B noMemeHHH aaa htchhh aeicuHH b nepBOM paay, nocepeaHHe, 
nepea scTpaaoio YHrepa 6biao nocTaBaeHO HapoHHo npHHeceHHoe, 
KaK 6bi noneTHoe Kpecno: h Tyaa, b sto Kpecno, ycaaHaH xenufUHy e 
uepHOM; a paccMaTpHBaa sto, xaic nopyraHHe ce6e; h CTpaaaa 6e3Mep- 
ho; Baaaep h Mhthcp cnaeaH c6oKy; o6e onycmriH roaoBbi b pyKH; 
h He raaaean Ha mchh; a nyBCTBOBaa, hto o6e conepe*HBaioT moh 
CTpaaaHHH; Aca cnaeaa paaoM co mhoh h Huneeo ne 3aMeva/ia; h ace 
He Mor, pa3yMeeTC«, hh y Koro cnpocHTb, hto sto 3a aceHiuHHa noa- 
BHjiacb cpeflH Hac; HaKOHeu, MHe MoraH oTBeTHTb: «0 kom bw cnpa- 
uiHBaeTe?» .H yKa3aji 6w Ha «wee»; h MHe otbcthjih 6bi: « /Ja raM hh- 
Koro h HeT». fleftcTBHTe^bHo: HecxoabKO aHeft a ayMaa, hto npocTO 
couiea c yjvia h hto «cymecmeov>, noBepraiomee MeHa b naHHHecKHH 
y»ac, moh rajuiiouHHauHH. 

JJoKTop YHrep HHTaa b 3tot Benep o TeocofccKofi Mopaan; xax 
Haao He oTaeabiBaTbca ot apHMaHHnecKoro Hanaaa b ce6e, ho ero 
BHyTpeHHe nepenaaBaaTb b ce6e; nonyTHO oh KOCHyaca Toro (J>aKTa b 
XCH3HH nocTpoftKH, hto OKOHHeHO noMeweHHe ana oTonaeHHa «Bau», 
TaK Ha3bIBaeMblfi «ApUMClHY>, HTO 3TO chmboji Toro, hto Mbl bkjikjhh- 

jih b ce6a apHMaHHnecKHx cymecTB h aoaacHbi Tenepb hccth hx b ce6e, 
nepepa6aTbiBaa; cjiOBa ero aBOHancb bo MHe; MHe Ka3ariocb, hto ero 
HaMex Ha BBeaeHHe «apuMammecKux cun» b Hauie 06mecTBo h «.eeede- 
Hue» Top»cecTBeHHoe KaabKpeftT «nepHOu xeHU(UMbi» b noMemeHbe 
fljia JieKUHft — co6wTHa oaHoro nopaaica; h BMecTe c TeM, — Kaxoio- 
to He3aeuiHeK) aorHKoft a aoraaMBaaca, hto a — bhhobhhk B'BeaeHHa 
utepHou aceHUfUHM» b Haiuy cpeay; nocae aexuHH a-p YHrep, koto- 
pbift Bceraa 6bia aaaex ot MeHa, noaouiea ko MHe h c cepbe3HOK) 
rpycTbio, aaace c KaKHM-To BHyTpeHHHM B3aoxoM cnpocna MeHa, npn- 
HHMaK) an a caoBa ero neKUHM; a CKa3aa: «npHHHMaio». rioacaa MHe 
pyxy; h CKa3aa: «H oneHb paa». flBHyio noaaepacicy b 3tot Benep a 
HcnwTaa co cTopoHbi Eayspa h MopreHiiiTepH; h oh, h oHa 6bian co 
MHoft oneHb He>KHbi; 3Ta noaaepacica co ctopohw YHrepa, Eayspa, 
MopreHiiiTepH h omymaeMaa BHyTpeHHe noaaepxuca Baaaep — 6waH 
npHHHHoft Toro, hto a Mor BbiHecTH hbho Bpa*ae6Hbie B3raaaw 
6oabuiHHCTBa Haiunx naeHOB; h raaBHoe: Mor bwhccth npncyTCTBHe 
«uepnou xceHUfUHbi» Ha aexuHH, ee Harawe yabi6KH h 3abie B3raaabi, 
6pocaeMbie Ha mchh. 

Ha caeayiomHft aeHb, BocKpeceHbe, onaTb BenepoM 6waa aexiuia 
YHrepa; onaTb a c y*acoM noTamnaca Ha BCTpeny c unepHou xceH- 
u(UHou», He 6yaynn b cocToaHHH noHaTb, hto Bee sto 3HaHHT. 

3th flBa aHa HacToabKo caoMHan MeHa, hto bck> caeayiomyio He- 
aeaio a 6bia hbho 6oaeH. 



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Bcio nocneflyjowyio Heaeaio a omyman noaHyio HeB03MO>KHOCTb 
noHBHTbCH Ha CTpoftxe; a roBopna ce6e: «riepea noaHOK) a6paxaaa6- 
pott cyab6bi, nepea yxcacoM 6e3 Ha3BaHHa He OTCTynna th; tm, My- 
>KecTBeHHO npeoaoaeBaa OTBpameHbe h CTpax, noaBHaca Ha aexiwax, 
oxcHaaa HeBeaoMoro no3opa. AoBOJibHo: Tenepb th HMeeuib Mopaab- 
Hoe npaBO 3acecTb y ce6a Ha aoMy». Bcio nocaeaytomyio Heaearo a 
noTpacaaca HenowimHocmbK) BbicTynaeHHa nepeao mhoh CTpaHHofl 
KeHiuHHbi; oTKyaa OHa noaBHaaca Ha 4>H3H4ecxoM naane h kto OHa, Ha 
3to He Mor a oTBeTHTb ce6e; no«ieMy OHa BbicTynnaa nepeao mhok> 
Tax HMeHHO, Kax BwcTynnaa, noneMy Bee ee c tohkh 3peHHa BHeuiHefl 
BnoaHe HenoHHTHbie xcecTbi (b khho, b KaHTHHe, Ha aexiuui Ynrepa) 
BnoaHe rapMOHHpoBaaH co cMyTHefiuiHMH ot Bcex TaHMbiMH mohmh 
nepexcHBaHbflMH, 3Toro He Mor a noHHTb; h a CTaa paccyacaaTb: 3to 
XBaeHHe BbicTynaeHHa nepeao mhoh Moefl KapMbi; Tenepb Bbipajxe- 
HHe «co3peBaHHe xapMM» noayHHao aaa mchh hobmh CMbica: noao6- 
ho TOMy Kax b co3HaHHH Moev nepnan xeHUfUHd caoiKHaacb BHyTpH 
mohx co6cTBeHHbix nepe*HBaHHH (nepexcHBaHHft HH3iuero «#») h no- 
tom Kax 6w BbicTynwaa H3 mchji caMoro, Tax tohho, xax ayHa Hexoraa 
OTaeanaacb ot opraHH3Ma 3eMan, — Tax xaxcaoe xcHTeflcxoe nepe*H- 
BaHHe, ecan 6w mu Moran npocaeaHTb 3apo>xaeHHe ero oxom ayxoB- 
Hott HayxH, cxaaawBaeTCH cnepBa BHyTpH Hauiero MopaabHoro MHpa; 
Tenepb, ropbXHM onwTOM a y3Haa, hto Taxoe co3peeaHue KapMbi h 
hto Taxoe BbicTynaeHHe ee H3HyTpH bo BHe; ho o6iacHeHHe CTpaHHo- 
ro co6biTH« o6iuhmh o6cy>xaeHHHMH o xapMe He yaoBaeTBopaao Me- 
hh; a xoTea 6oaee ero xoHxpeTH3HpoBaTb; h noHHMaa, hto 3to aBae- 
HHe cB«3aHO c nepe>KHBaHHeM nopora; BMecTe c TeM, xeHUfUHa CToa- 
aa nepeao mhoh oaHOBpeMeHHo h xax aBOHHHx Moero HH3inero «.#»; 
CTaao 6wTb: 3Ta xeHiiiHHa hhhto HHoe, xax moh «aBottHHx»; Toraa 
— xax oGiflCHHTb ee 6Horpa<t)HKt? Beab OHa rae-To poanaacb, HMeaa 
xaxyio-To cbok> KH3Hb npe*ae neM BbiCTynHTb nepeao mhoh b TaxoM 
ywacHOM aaa MeHa BHae; B-TpeTbHx: MHe npeacTasaaaacb «o«a» oa- 
HOBpeMeHHo: to aBofiHHxoM HaTauiH, to ee npoTHBOo6pa30M. HeM 
xe OHa 6biaa b caMOM aeae? Man Bee, neM OHa aBaaaacb MHe, moh 
cy6i>exTHBHbie HaaK>3HH; nan me, HaxoHeij, ee h hct bobcc: OHa moh 
raaaiouHHauHa (Hecxoabxo aHefi nocae CTpaHHofl BCTpenn a Tax hmch- 
ho ayMaa); b TaxoM caynae a couiea c yMa. Ho noneMy >xe nacTb nae- 
hob nauiero 06mecTBa Havana Ha mchh xocHTbca, a SxxapTuiTeftH h 
uiBeaxa nepecTaan aaxce co mhoh xaaHaTbca; CTaao 6biTb, «o«a» — 
ecTb; h OHa pacnpocTpaHaeT 060 MHe xaxHe-TO mchh noponamHe cay- 
xh; TyT oxBaTbiBaao mchh npocTO 6euieHCTBo; 3a hto OHa nopoHHT 
MeHH? Beab OHa xce caMa Beaa ce6a CTpaHHo co mhoh b «kuho»; h xax 
onpoBeprayTb xaeBeTy Ha ce6a, xoraa He 3Haeuib, xaxoro OHa poaa; 
ecaH 6u o6paTHaHCb xo MHe npaMO h cnpocHan: «IlpaBaa an, hto bm 



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to-to h to-to?», to mohcho 6bijio 6w onpoBeprHyTb; nymue Aaxce 
npH3HaTbc« b coBepuieHHOM npecTynneHHH, eaiH 6bi Taxoe 6buio co- 
BepiueHo, neM 3Ta ABycMbiaieHHan HeonpeaeneHHocTb, sth B3rnflflbi, 
nojiHbie yKopH3Hbi h aaxe 6pe3rjiHBocTH; h qyBCTBOBaji, «rro MeHH b 
06mecTBe HHbie H3 hjichob CKHTaroT nyTb jih He npecTymiHKOM, xoth 
h He 3Han, b ieM Moe npecTyrmeHHe; 6biTb onoponeHHbiM » otbct 
Ha moh mydoiaftiiiHtt nopbiB, 3acTaBHBiiiHH MeHH 6pocHTb Pocchk), 
rne Bee MeHH 3HajiH h MHorne mo6H/iH, — hct: sto cjihuikom yxacHo! 
Ho MeHH He o6bmhh;ih hh b hcm: Menu monwo o6xodwiu. TyT noflHH- 
Manacb HOBan aoraaxa tuih o6i>HCHeHHH 6biBiuero: sto KaKax-mo tep- 
Hcm Mazw 3/ibix OKKyjibTHCTOB, npoHHKUinx b Hauie 06mecTBo; Haao 
6w noaHHTb TpeBory h yxa3aTb BceM Ha ABycMbicjieHHoe no[Be]fleHHe 
iicyiyecmeav (Tax h Ha3biBan npo ce6n mok> erpauiHyio He3HaxoMxy); 
c apyrott CTopoHbi: 3HaHHTejibHwe npeflynpe*AeHHH PHXTepa («we 
6oumecb»), xaxofi-TO o6pnfl, Hepe3 xotopmh oh MeHH npoBoanji mo 
BCTpeiH c acyiyecmeoMYf, HaMeKH Ulojuib, HaMexH jiexuHH YHrepa o 
tom, 4to mu BBenH b cbok) cpeay apHMaHwiecxHe cymecTBa, hbho 
aoKa3biBajiH, wvo ecTb rpynna ijichob, 3HaBuiHX hto-to 060 MHe h o 
BoenpHHTHH MoeM «uepHoii 3KeHU4UHbi»; CTano 6biTb, — ziyMaji h, — 
3to BCTpena ecTb aeflcTBHTejibHo BCTpena, npoAHXTOBaHHan TaftHaMH 
ayxoBHoro 3HamiH; b TaxoM cjiynae Haao BoopyjxnTbCH MyxcecTBOM h 
TepneHHeM: acaaTb ayxoBHo-HayHHoro pa3pemeHHx sthx nepaKHBa- 
hhh; cxaacy otkpobchho: nepexcHBaHHH 3thx flHett 6mjih caMbiMH th- 
KejiMMH nepe^cHBaHHHMH Moeft kh3hh; cxaxcy eme: ayuia moh hciim- 
TbiBana Bee sth ahh xaxott cTpax, o cymecTBOBaHHH KOToporo h aaxce 
He noao3peBaji; ho e/iBa h ce6n HacTpanB&n Ha Heo6xoaHMOCTH Tep- 
nejiHBO Bee 3to nepe>KHTb b ce6e, xax b ayuie BCTaBana aoraaxa: «A He 

nOflCTpOeH J1H HapOHHO BeCb 3TOT HHUHfleHT C tepHOU XCeHU4UHOIo7» 

B TaxoM cjiynae — ayMan h — b HameM 06mecTBe bmccto iio,hjihhhoh 
MHCTepHH (JwrypHpyeT 6yTa<t>opHH 3acTpamHBaHHH Tex, Hbio caMOCTO- 
HTenbHOCTb Haao cnoMHTb bo ito 6w to hh crano! TyT H BcnoMHHaji 
Bee to CBemoe, ito 6wjio mhoh nepe*HTO y aoKTopa; h roBopmi ce- 
6e: «HeT: 3to He Tax: ecjiH 6w, HanpHMep, npoBeaeHHe PHXTepOM 
MeHH iepe3 "ApuAtan" x xynojiy h CBeaeHHe x xaHTHHe, rne xcaajia 
"ona", 6bi.no noacTpoeHo paHee, to 3a mhoh 6m paHee npHuniH ot 
PHXTepa; Beab caM ace h x HeMy npHiuen». H — nanee: Benb hhkto He 
Mor 3HaTb, hto h eay b Ea3enb h 3afiay b Taxoe-TO «Kuho»... H — aa- 
jiee: «Beflb He MorjiH xce noacTpoHTb, «iTo6bi h HaxaHyHe BcrpeHH na- 
pucoBan y ce6« na hhctc SyMarH ee hhuo»... Bee o&bHCHHMue Bepcim, 
KOTopwe h ctpohji b zihh c^e^yiouiHe 3a BCTpenefi, — pa36HBanHCb, 
ocTaBanocb oano o6i>HCHeHHe: cTpaHHoe co6biTHe, nepexcHBaeMoe 

MHOK), HMeeT OTHOUieHHe X flyXOBHOH flettCTBHTejlbHOCTH; H CTano 

6biTb: ot 3Tott fleficTBHTenbHocTH He y6e5KHiub; CTano 6biTb: Haao 



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ocrasaTbcx Ha CBoeM MecTe h TepnenHBO npeB03MoraTb CTpax, He- 
roaoBaHHe, Tocxy, raanHBOCTb. 

Ho OAHoro x He Mor: ocraBaTbcx b 3axynopeHHOM MonnaHHH; 
Beflb Kaxnuft cjieayioiuHft MHr Ha#o 6wjio oxunaTb caMbix HeoxcH- 
aaHHbix h yxacHbix anx Menx nponojuKeHHft «uM4udeHma»; Hano bo- 
BpeMx npeaynpeaHTb Koro-JiH6o H3 6hh3Khx; Koro? Pa3yMeeTcx Acio, 
caMoro 6jiH3xoro MHe nenoBexa. Ho xax HapoHHO, Acx 6bma cna6a 
h 4>paaKHHa MHe 3anpeTHJia hcm-jih6o ee TpeBoacHTb; x co3HaBan, 
hto npHo6max Acio MoeMy yacacHOMy MHpy, He o6oftneiubcx h 6e3 
pa3roBopa o HaTauie; a Bee sto Morno 6onbHO yuiH6HTb Acio h yrny- 
6HTb b Heft ee 6one3Hb, noBecTH n.o «Haxomicu». 

R nOIIiejT K OpHAKHHOft H HMejI C Heft flJIHHHOe 06lXCHeHHe, B KO- 

topom npH3Hanc« eft, hto MHe hcooxoahmo HMeTb cepbe3Hbift pa3ro- 
Bop c Aceft. 4>pHiiKHHa OTBenana yxnoHHHBo; MHe nonynHJiocb, hto 
OHa HeMTO 3HaeT 060 MHe (Bern* OHa 6biJia npHXTenbHHueft OHTHHrotJ), 
a 4>HTHHro4> Boannacb c «cyu4ecmeoM»); nonyTHO x K&noBancx <I>pHfl- 
KHHoft Ha 6eccoHHHiiy, Ha nepexcHBamix cTpaxa, Ha yMCTBeHHoe nepe- 
yTOMJieHHe h Ha Tocxy no Pocchh; 4>pHnxHHa cnyiuana MeHx BHHMa- 
TenbHO, roBopHJia co MHoft cepbe3Ho; mm nouuiH ot Hee no oqhor no- 
pore (OHa mjia b «Bau», a x men flOMOfl); HeB3Hanaft x noBepHyncx h 
noftMan Ha nnue. (Pphakhhor nyxaBO-xHTpyio ynbi6xy, 6pomeHHyio 
MHe b cnHHy: «OnxTb, — nonyMan a, — tot ace cMeuiox; 3H8hht h 
OHa hto-to 3HaeT, hto 3HaioT Bee 060 MHe: Tonbxo x HHnero He 
3HaK>...» M x peiiiHJi — cxopee, cxopeft Bee paccxa3aTb Ace: xaxoio 
yroaHO ueHOio o6nernHTb cboio ayuiy. Ach He 6bino aoMa: OHa 6bina 
Ha «Bau»; x cran MonHTbcx, hto6m pa3roBop 3tot o6nernHn MeHx, 
hto6w Bor noMor HaM BceM. fl OTxpwn EBaHrejme, 3aranaBuiH, cxa- 
3aTb hjih He cxa3aTb Bee: Buuino — cmiamb. fl — npHHxn peuieHHe: 
H Korna x [npmixn] peuieHHe, x MrHOBeHHO nonyBCTBOBan, hto bcx 
aTMOccfrepa Boxpyr mchx HanojiHH/iacb k3khmh-to yrpoacaioiuHMH MHe 
3MexMH; h ohh Bee o6paTHjiH Ha MeHx ronoBbi h 3ainHnejiH; h 3tot 
uiHn raacHji: «He CMefl roBopHTb, — mohhh, mojihh, mojihh...» B 3to 
MrHOBeHHe x ycnuuian othctjihbo bhcuihhm cnyxoM, xax b npocTpaH- 
CTBe KOMHaTbi pa3najiocb xBCTBeHHoe uiHneHHe; ho nyiua OTBeTHna 
Ha uiHneHHe: «A Bee paBHO Bce-Bce-Bce paccxaacy Ace..» H uiHneHHe 
o6opBanocb; h — 3Men pacnanncb. HecoMHeHHO, TyT x HaTXHyncx 
Ha rajunouHHauHio cnyxa. 

R CTan JxaaTb Acio. 

Bot ona OTBopHjia flBepb. Cpa3y noHxna OHa, hto x b cTpaumoM 
BOjiHeHHH; ona jiacxoBO ynuGHynacb MHe; x ycannn ee Ha AHBaH, CTan 
nepen Heft Ha xojieHH h, 3anpxTaB ronoBy b ee xoneHxx, HecBX3HbiMH, 
npepuBaroiuHMHcx <J)pa3aMH Bee paccxa3an eft; OHa pobho HHHero He 
noHHMana: «Tbi paccxa3biBaeuib xaxofi-TO cyM6yp? Kaxax aceHuuma? 



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KaKoe KuhoI Hto 3a B3flop». Bhhkhyb BHHMaTejibHee, OHa CTana 
yTBep*flaTb, hto HMKaxoro «cyufecmea» HeT b 06mecTBe, a xceHmH- 
Ha, nojiceBuiaa ko MHe b «Kuho», 6biJia BepoHTHO npocTHTyrxa; h 
ee cMeuuaji c xeM-HH6yab H3 hjichob; h stot B3flop Haao cxopeft jih- 
KBHAHpoBai-b: «Bce 3to tboh HMarHHaiWH» — npH6aBHjia OHa. Bnpo- 
ieM OHa OTHecnacb ko MHe c kpotkhm ynacTHeM xax k 6o;ibHOMy; h eft 
Bee paccxa3an o HaTaiue, npocn ee 3auuiTHTb MeHH ot xoxeTCraa Ha- 
TaiuH, npocn ee yexaTb co mhoh H3 AopHaxa h xoHHHTb Myxy Hamero 
npe6biBaHH* 3flea>; k MoeMy H3yMJieHHK> OHa c orpoMHOfi nerxocTbio 
OTHecnacb k mohm cnoBaM o HaTaiue: «IlpocTo Bee o HaTaiue Te6e 
npHBHfle/iocb: ecnH Te6e HHTepecHO arpaTb b to, hto tw Bjno6jieH b 
HaTaiuy, Hy noaHocH eft uBeTbi, hto jih» — OTBeTHna OHa, yjibi6aacb 
MHe h mm* mchh no ronoBe. OHa TyT ace CTajia ynopHO 3amHiuaTb 
HaTamy: «HaTauia cecTpa moh h h 3Haio ee Jiyniue Te6n: Bee, hto 
tm roBopHiiib o KOKeTCTBe ee, — BbiayMxa TBoero 6ojibHbro BOo6pa- 
3KeHHH...» 3th cjiosa oflHOBpeMeHHo h ycnoxoHjiH, h oi-ophhjih MeHH; 
ycnoKOHjiH, — noTOMy hto Ach nerxo Bbiflepjxana 3tot THacejibifi ajih 
MeHH pa3roBop, xax 6w otbchh ero ot ce6n h He BnycTHB ero b rny- 
6HHy CBoero co3HaHH»; BMecTe c tcm: jierxocTb, c xoTopoft OHa npea- 
jiojKHJia MHe «y6/ie>cambcx» HaTaiueft, -He cooTBeTCTBOBana hh MoeMy 
cepbe3HOMy B3rjiHfly Ha mok> *H3Hb c Acefl, hh na rjiy6HHy Moett 60- 
jie3HH b OTHouieHHH k HaTaiue. fl noxa3ajT Ace Ha eanepeHy Moefl 
ayum, npeajioxHji efl coBMecTHbiMH yauiHHMH onepnpoBaTb 3Ty raH- 
rpeHy; a BMecro 3Toro OHa xnaana MeHH ot ce6n — onnTb-Taxn x Ha- 
Taiue. BnocneflCTBHH h paccMaTpHBaji sto jierxoe OTHotueHHe Ach k 
mohm cnoBaM, xax oxoHnaTejibHO aaHHyio MHe eio ucarte blanche» 
yBjiexaTbcn HaTameio. «Ecjih 6 OHa cepbe3HO jno6Hjia MeHH, — tobo- 
pmi h ce6e, — OHa noHHJia 6bi TparHHHOCTb Hamero nojioxceHHH h co- 
rnacHiiacb 6bi Ha mow npocbGy yexaTb c Heio H3 Aopnaxa, hto6m ue 
HMeTb HaTaiuy bchho nepea ma3aMH...» 

M Bce-Taxn: h o6JierHHJi cbokd ayuiy b pa3roBOpe c Aceft. OHa yro- 
Bopnjia MeHH. noflTH c Heft Ha jiexuHio (HbH 6buia sto jiexiwH, He noM- 
hk)); MHe 6bmo jierxo yace c Aceft BMecTe nepeMoraTb y)xac Moero no- 
jiojxeHHfl; h eft yxa3an Ha <ncyufecmeo», oxa3aBuieecsi To*e Ha nexuHH. 
«HenpunmHoe, 6o/te3HeHHoe cyutecmeov — cxa3ana Ach. 3th cnoBa 
Ach 6biJiH nojiTBepjKfleHHeM ajm MeHH Toro (fraxTa, hto «uepH<vt jkxh- 
ufuna» aeftcTBHTejibHO cyiuecTByeT, a He ecTb nnoa Moero BooGpaxce- 
hhh. Hepe3 ABa ahh, xoraa y Hac 6una Harauia, Ach cxa3ana MHe: 
«A TBoe "cyutecmeo" Ha3biBaeTCH maK-mo (OHa Ha3B&na cfraMHjiHio, 
xoTopyio h imoxo noMHio, — He to "Knecht", He to «Schwarz", xa- 
aceTCH — "Schwarz"); OHa npuexana H3 LUopwxa, BeaeT ce6n oneHb 
CTpaHHo h no-BH^HMOMy OHa — HepBHO 6onbHaH; c Heio b UiopHxe 
BoaHJiacb 4>HTHHroi)>; ee hhkto 6jih3XO He 3HaeT*, OHa Tenepb Hjieu 

448 



tumiero 06mecTBa h noceanaacb b AopHaxe... Eopa b caMOM aene ay- 
MaeT, — cxa3ajia oHa c yabi6xoio HaTauie, — hto 3t& "Schwarz" xa- 
Koe-To He MaTepHajimoBaHHoe, acTpajibHoe cymecTBo...» — «Bpp! 
— OT03Banacb HaTauia. — R ee HeMnoro BHaeaa: OHa — cTpaHHaa, 
cTpauiHas h 3aaa: roBop«T, hto OHa oieHb aacHBa...>vBoabiue » MHie- 
ro Me paccnpaiiiHBan: a He BepHa HHxoraa 4>HTHHro4>; Meacay tcm: 
TonbKO 4>HTHHro<t)> caMa MeaHyMHHHaa h 6oabHaa, 3HaeT ee; hhkto 
apyrott He 3HaeT... H oiwTb, — Bepcna mo» o tom, hto H3 xaxnx-To 
TeMHux OKKynbTHbix o6mecTB b Hauiy cpeay bboaht uinHOHOB h ihiih- 
ohok — yKopeHiuiacb BO MHC 

floxTop Bee He npHe3xcan: a onHTb CTaji H3peaxa npocoBbiBaTb- 
ch Ha CTpoHxy; nacTb HauiHx ijichob npoaoaacaaa Ha MeH» xocHTbca; 
ho Hauia pa6onaa Moaoaexcb (reHae6paHaT, KeMnep, Baft, JlioaBHr, 
Ctiotch, KynepoBa, XoabiiaeftTep, HoHTep, 3fl3eHnpeflcbi h p«a apy- 
rax) oTHOCHJiacb ko MHe xopouio; «cyu4ecmeo» KaK-To cTyuieBajiocb; 
Ha jiexuHfl n «ee» Baaea, CHaamyio rae-TO b 3aaHHx paaax. 

ft CTaji onpaBjiflTbcx ot CBoero yxcaca; b sto BpeMa a MHoro mo- 
jiHJica h b ayuie Moeft HanHHaaocb xaxoe-To OHHiueHHe; b xoHite anpe- 
aa noaBHaca aoxTop h MapHa JIicoBaeBHa; 06a 6bi;iH ko MHe aacxo- 
bw, — pacuBejiH UBeTbi; adaoHH noxpuancb ubctom; noroaa CToaaa 
nyaHaa. 

Pa3 nocae aexiwH aoxTopa, xoraa a cToaa y Bbixoaa h *aaa Ack>, 
nepeao mhoh, b Toane naeHOB Bbimao Moe «cyu4ecmeo», Taxoe *e 
MepTBeHHo-6neaHoe h Taxoe ace CTpauiHoe; oho iiijio noa pyxy co 
CBoeio noapyroio, noaBHBiueftca 3a Heio Bcaea b HaiueM 06mecTBe 
(noapyra 6bina to*c b nepHOM); npoxoaa mhmo MeHa, OHa Bbipa3H- 
TenbHO TOjixHyna cboio noapyry aoxTeM h raa3aMH yxa3aaa Ha MeHa. 
3tot xcecT MHe HanoMHHa, hto hhhto no cyiuecTBy He pa3iacHeHO 
ana MeHa bo Been stoh TeMHofl hctophh; ho a yxce hmcfi MyacecTBO 
TepnejiHBO *aaTb pa3peuieHHa Bcefl stoh 3araaxH. 

B cxopoM BpeMeHH HnbHHa npHHecna HaM c Acefi TeTpaaxy — 
KOHcnexT oahoh H3 HHTHMHbix aexuHH aoxTopa; OHa cxa3ana co 3Ha- 
4HTejibHbiM BHflOM MHe h Ace: «BaM 3TO HenpeMeHHO Haao npo- 
MecTb...» no TOHy, c xoTopwM OHa nepeaaBaaa TeTpaaxy, a noHJin, 
hto TeTpaaxa MHe nocaaHa ot MapHH £xoBaeBHbi. B aexiuui oriHCbi- 
BaaHCb tph BCTpeiH co CTpa*eM Ilopora; nepBaa HMeeT TexHHnecxoe 
Ha3BaHHe: «BcTpena co CMepTbio h c aHreaHHecxHM cymecTBOM»; 
BTopaa — «Bcmpeta co JIbeoM»; h TpeTba: «BcTpena c ApaxoHOM». 
OnHcaHHe BTopoft BCTpe«w MeHa noTpacao; 3aecb CTpa* asaaeTca 
JlbeoAt: xax 6yaTO aeB npoHHxaeT b npocTpaHCTBO, rae Tbi 3aMKHyT; 
oh 6pocaeTca Ha Te6a, a th aoaaceH 6e36o»HeHHO ero npnpyMHTb; 
«nee» — cyutecmeo xceHCKoe; Bcrpeia co abBOM HMeeT bub BCTpe^H 
co cmpaiuHbiM xencKUM cyutecmeoM. 

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C TpeneroM cxBaTwicH h 3a 3Ty nexuHio: OHa BnojiHe ooihchji- 
jia MHe co6mthh, mhor tojuko ito nepewHTbie: «Haao 6opoTbc« co 
jibBOM, — roBopHJi x ce6c, — Haao ero yKpoTHTb»; Ha neKUHHx aox- 
Topa « He 6ea o3opcTBa cTapajica bcT penaTbcJi c nepHou aceHutuHou; 
h tyt cran saMeiaTb, hto OHa xax 6m ycKonb3aeT ot Memi. H no 
HexoTopoH CTeneHH ycnoxoHjioi: lyBCTBOBanocb, mto ycnoxoemie 
3to BpevieHHoe; CMyTHan TpeBora npoaojixana KHTb b Moett nyuie (« 
3Haji, — «/iee» eme BoccTaHeT Ha mchh): 6yaeT nepeacHTo eme hto-to 
ocTpoe, CTpaHHoe h cTpaumoe; 3th nepexcHBaHmi h HacTHniH Mean b 
KOHue JieTa. 

rioxa aaBanacb OTcpoixa. 

B 3to BpeMH h noJiyMHn nHCbMO ot HBaHOBa-Pa3yMHHKa; oh xoe- 
hto cnpauiHBan mchjc o mohx jiHTepaTypHbix pa6oTax; nncbMO ero 
6bino npoHHKHyTO TennoTOio h npHSHaHHeM mohx jiHTepaTypHux 3a- 
cjiyr; oho noxa3ajiocb MHe, tomho HanncaHHbiM H3 apyroro MHpa, rae 
MeH» noMHHT, ;ik>6»t h ueHHT; 3aecb, b AopHaxe, hhkto Mean He jik>- 
6hji xax nHcaTejiH; MHorne [Ha] Memi xocmiHcb, HeH3BecTHo 3a hto; 
a 6bui oxpyaceH CTpauiHUMH, MHe HenoHHTHbiMH 3HaxaMH cyab6bi. 
M MHe oriHTb 3axoTenocb 6exaTb ot Bceft aopHaxcxoft a6paxaAa6pbi, 
nopoft CTonb ocxop6HTenbHO jxnn mchh 3ByHaiueft. 

Mau. 

Man 3Toro ro.ua ctoht nepe.no mhojo xaxoft-TO uBeTyuiHH; h b 
HeM 3By»iHT HOTa OTflwxa; nponaaaeT 6eccoHHHua, HCie3aeT oabiuiKa; 
a qyBCTByio ce6a cnoxoftHo h jierne; mm c Aceft, xax 6bi ycnoBHBUiHCb, 
He roBopHM o HaTauie; Haxauia nacTO noHB/iaeTcn y nac: h Tencpb 
cmotpk) ropa3zio npome Ha moh OTHOiueHHa x HaTauie; MHe xaxceTCH, 
ito He H36eraTb HaTauiy x aonxtH, a HCxaTb c Heft BCTpen, hto6w 
b 3thx BCTpenax H3»Hnacb moh Mpa<mafl CTpacTb x Heft, y Hac c Ha- 
Tauieft Bo/iBopHeTCH 6onee flpyr x apyry flOBepiHBbift cTHJib oTHOiue- 
hhA; mm npeanpHHHMaeM nporynxn b oxpecTHOCTH flopHaxa, HanpH- 
Mep, no HanpaBneHHK) x AHremuTeflHy, 3a 3ui; b 3thx nporynxax, 
ycTpaHBaeMbix o6biKHOBeHHO no BocxpeceHbsiM, npmutMaiOT ynacTHe 
xpOMe Hac neTMpex to PnxTep, to A.C. FleTpoBcxHH, to TT. Tpa- 

ne3HHXOB, C KOTOPMM MM MHOrO TOBOpHM Ha TeMbI HTaJIbXHCKOrO 

HexyecTBa. MHe ctbhobhtch yiOTHo c IlomiaMH; ohh nepecenjHOTc* b 
Miuiyio BHJiJiy, Heaajiexo ot TpaMBaftHoro TpaxTa; Banna Ha3MBaeT- 
c« «Sans Souci»; h aeftcTBHTejibHo: mto-to b HaTauie 3Toft BecHoft 
nofljiHHHo Becenoe h 6e33a6oTHoe. 

B Mae flOKTop npo<nrrbiBaeT HHTepecHeftuiyio nexuHio o BTopott 
nacTH 4>aycTa; Ha nowyMe npeacraBjuiiOT cueHy, OTXpbiBaiomyio 
BTopyio qacTb h KOHqaiomyK>c» /uihhhmm mohojiotom 4>aycTa, xoto- 
poro nrpaeT Bannep; no noBony nocneweft $pa3M «Infarbig Abglanz 

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haben wir das Leben» aoxTop tobopht oiem, nrytSoxoMbicneHHbie 
cnoBa*; Ac* oimtb HammaeT pa6oTaTb Ha «Bau», BeiepaMH *e ynpa- 

JKHJieTCH B 3BPHTMHH H npOflOJUKaeT pa3BHBaTb CBOft 3CKH3 flJM CTe- 

xoji; b 3tom 3CKM3e HapHCOBaHbi <iepena; y Hac norajvieTCJi lepen, 
HyxcHbift Ace, xax MOAaib. 

HaTauia, pa36HB xpacHoe creimo b MacTepcKott PHXTepa, 6onee 
He pa6oTaeT y Hero; Ac* ace Macro 6biBaeT b stoh MacTepcxoft; onxTb 
y Hac qacTo no«BjmeTCH Phxtcp, xoTopbift xc&nyeTc* Ha CeaneiiXHx, 
MeuiaiomHX eMy pa3BepHyTb xyaoxcecTBeHHyio pa6oTy; aoxTop nopy- 
hhji eMy CTemia; oh Bbimicaii H3 IlonbuiH Ceaneuxoro, xax onbiraoro 
pa6oTHHKa, BBen ero b cbok> MacTepcxyio; a Tenepb bot CeaneuKHH 
BeneT BCHiecime hhtphi-h npoTHB PHXTepa h MeuiaeT eMy pa6oTaTb; 
PnxTep Bbicxa3biBaeT hsm onaceHHe, mto ero cxopo npnsoByT ot6m- 
BaTb BoflHy; oh 6pocht nopyneHHyio eMy aoxTopoM cTexonbHyio Mac- 
Tepcxyio; h Bceio pa6oToio 6yaeT 3anpaBJUiTb CeaneuKHfl, KOTopoMy 
oh, PHXTep, He BepHT,* nosTOMy oh npocHT Acio pa3peuiHTb eMy xoaa- 
TattcTBOBaTb nepea aoktopom o tom, ito6m OHa crana 3aBeayK>weft 
pa6oTaMH no CTexny; Ac« OTroBapHBaeTca OTcyTCTBHeM onuTHocTH, 
ho PnxTep HacTaHBaeT, yTBepxaaa, mto oh 6yaeT yBepeH b stom cny- 
nae 3a to, mto 3ckh3M aoKTopa k erexjiaM 6ypyr pa3pa6aTbiBaTbcx 
b tom HMeHHO HanpaBJieHHH, xaxoro xoneT aoxTop; CeaneuxHft *e, 

KOTOpblfl MHHT Ce6* BettHKHM XyAOXHHKOM, He o6«3aHHbIM CJieflOBaTb 

3cxH3aM aoKTopa, 3ary6HT Becb cTHJib CTexoji; b onacemixx PHXTepa 
6mjio MHoro npaBAbi; ohh noaTBepAHjiHCb BnocneacTBHH; ho Ach Bce- 
TaxH ymioHjuiacb ot oTBeTCTBeHHocTH pyxoBOHHTb cTexnaMH; Me*ay 
tcm: CeflJieuKHH y3Han o neperoBopax PHXTepa c Aceft; c toh nopu oh 
h ero xeHa (pyxoBOflHTejibHHua nonbcxott (frpaxuHH A.O.) CHJibHO 

He B3JIK>6HJIH MeHH H ACK) (OHH OKa3aJIHCb HaTypaMH MenOHHblMH H 

MCTHTenbHbiMH); oflHajKflbi mu c Acefl HaneTejiH Ha HenpHJimHult 
cxaHflaji, pa3pa3HBuiHftcH y PHXTepa b MacTepcxoft Mexay Ceaneu- 
xott h PHXTepoM; Ceaneuxax, 3acTaB PHXTepa y ce6« Ha cTexne no- 
xa3biBaiomHM Ace mto-to, noBeJia ce6» nenpHjiHHHo h rpy6o: PnxTep 
BcnujiHJi h HaroBopHJi eft mhoto flep30CTefl; (fropManbHo oh 6mji He- 
npaB, ho de facto npaB, h6o oh BOCCTaBan npoTHB Bcett jihhhh noBe- 
nenm Cejuiemcott y Hero b MacTepcxoft; a 3Ta jihhhh 3axmo<iajiacb b 
ceTH HHTpnr npoTHB PHXTepa. 3tot HHiumeHT b MacTepcxoft TxxceJio 
pa3birpancn; CeanerjKHe o6bhhhjih PHXTepa b rpy6ocTH nepea MapH- 
eft AxoBJieBHoft; PnxTep Hac Ha3Ban cBHaeTejixMH HHiwaeHTa; Mapim 



* 22 Max (h.ct.) UlTeftHep tHTaji b XlopHaxe newano in muuia «Faust, der stre- 
bende Mensch». Buna TaKxce Hcno;meHa rax HaauBaeMax «Ariel-Szene», o-ncpbiaaio- 
ma* BTopofl aKT. Bejiufl cnenca HacaxcaeT noc/ie/wwio 4>pa3y m MOHOJiora 4>aycra: 
«Am farbigen Abglanz haben wir das Leben». 

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.HKOBJieBHa BU3Bana Hac k ce6e. Mm cTapaancb 6biTb o6i>eKTHBHbiMH; 
h Bce-TaKH: npnuiaocb roBopHTb b 3aiuHTy 6eaHoro PHXTepa, koto- 
poro o6bhhwih Bee, Hammafl c rpocxattHueB; 3Toro Ceaaeuxne HaM 

OIWTb-TaKH He MOrjIH npOCTHTb. 

B 3to BpeMX b AopHaxe noaBuncs 4>paHuy3CKHH aHTDonococfr Jle- 
bh, apyr IUiops; oh BceM HHTepecoBaaca; h MHoroe eMy ipe3Bbmatt- 
ho He HpaBmiocb b JJopHaxe; oaHawaM, o6eaa* c HaMH b xaHTHHe, 
oh rpoMKO c no^HepKHBaHHeM cxa3aa MHe: «Beab bm h3bccthmh iih- 
caTenb, KOToporo khhi-h uchhtch b Pocchh, — CHaHTe 3aecb b Taxoe 
OTBeTCTBeHHoe BpeM»; aaa 3Toro Hyacno 6oabiuoe caMonoacepTBOBa- 
hhc..» ripn 3tom oh norajiaen Ha CHaamero paaoM a-pa YHrepa, xax 
6w 6poca» eMy ynpex b tom, hto ko MHe HeaocTaToiHO BHHMaTeab- 
Hbi 3AeuiHHe aHTponoco(t>bi; YHrep, xotopmh aeftcTBHTeabHO HHXoraa 
He yaocTOHBan mchh pa3roBopa, c xaxHM-TO yTpnpoBaHHMM aerxo- 
MbicnHeM sacBHCTen; JleBH nocMOTpea Ha Hero c xbhum pa3apaxceHH- 
eMHC eme 6oabiueft noaiepxHyTOfi aK)6e3H0CTbK> o6paTHJic« ko mhc 
BcKope JleBH noHBHaca y Hac, npocnaea Beiep h Bee CTapaaca y3HaTb 
Moe MHeHHe o noBeaeHHH HeMueB-aHTponococfroB no oTHomeHHio k 
pyccKHM, a Taxxce CTapaacH y3HaTb Hauie MHeHHe o bohhc; yBw, b 
cjioBax JleBH 6bi/io MHoro cnpaBeaaHBoro: bo MHoroM HeMUbi cpbiBa- 
ancb b TaKTe no othouichhio k naM, pyccKHM, BeauiHM ce6a 6e3yxo- 
pH3HeHHO b TpyaHbix ycjioBHxx MeacayHapoaHoro noaoxceHHH; Ha sto 
HeMUbi oTBenanH aaaexo He c TeM TaxTOM; 3Ta 6ecTaxTHQCTb bm3m- 
Bana bo MHe b3pmbm HeroaoBaHHH; ho h MHoroe npomaa hhmm HeM- 
uaM BBHfly aencTBHTenbHott cepaeiHOCTH npoaBjmeMott no othouic- 
hhio k HaM b HHoe BpeMfl; a HexoTopue H3 HauiHX c oco6oft jik)6obhk) 
OTHOCHjiHCb x pyccKHM (xax-xo IIlTHHae, Baysp, MopreHuiTepH, Kaab- 
KpeflT, MHTHep, KHTTeab h pun, apyrnx ann); 3Toro Bcero Heab3« 6m- 
ao o6i)icHHTb JleBH, BHaeBiueMy b HeMuax 6pocaK>m.yiocJi rpy6oBa- 
TOCTb h He BHaeBiueMy BHyTpeHHe xopouiero OTHomeHHa x HaM HeM- 
imb; xpoMe Toro: JleBH aax Hac 6bia Hyxou, caynattHo 3aaeTeBiiiHH 
H3 FlapHxa, a c mhoi-hmh H3 aopnaxueB mm, xax roBopHT, acbenu 
mpu nyda co/tu»; pa6oTaaH naeno b naeio Haa HauiHM aio6HMbiM 
«Bau», ero cTopownaH, BHaean MHoro npexpacHoro h MHoro ropb- 
xoro; no3TOMy * 6bia c JleBH oco6eHHO ocTopoaceH; oh *aaa, hto h 
6yay pyraTb HeMueB, a h CTapaacH 6biTb yMepeHHMM; h oTMaaHHBaa- 
ch ot ero caoB; cxopo JleBH nepecraa noflBa«Tbc« Ha «Bau»; npo Hero 
roBOpHan, ito oh 6yHTyeT; cxopo oh Hcne3, a noTOM h ymea H3 O6- 
mecTBa, BMecTe c IIIiops oobhhhh aHTponoco(J)OB b HeMeuxoM uiobh- 
HH3Me, hto 6biao ray6oxoH HenpaBaoio. Bcxope nosiBHaHCb 3a rpaHH- 
uerf cayxH «aHTaHTHCTcxoro» HCTOiHHxa o xaxux-To pyccxHx penera- 
Tax, npeaaTeaax CBoefl cTpaHbi, cHasuuHx b AopHaxe h no3a6biBiiiHx 
Pocchio; nncbMa noao6Horo xapaxTepa npHCbiaaaucb H3 AHraHH h 

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OpaHUHH aopHaxcKHM aHTponoco<J>aM, uHpxynHpya qepe3 rpaHHuy, 
rae nucbMa nepjiiocTpHpoBajiHCb KOHTppa3Beaxoio; bo $paHuy3cicott 
IllBefluapHH 3th cnyxH nepcaaBajiHCb; poena xaxaa-TO TeMHaa cimeT- 
hh (yxce BHe 06mecTBa) o tom, mto b AopHaxe BbipaiuHBatOTca npe- 
aaTenn cbohx cTpaH (Mexay npowHM: to *e roBopHAocb b EepjiHHe 
o HeMuax, ocTaBuiHxcH b Aopiiaxe); roBopHAOCb, hto 3aecb chaht 
xaxoft-To pyccKHfl, 3a6uBiuHft cBoe OTeiecTBO, KOToporo ae HeMUbi 
co6HpaK>TCH Hcnonb30BaTb ana HeMeuxott nponaratuibi b Pocchh; 
6oiocb, hto 3thm «peHeeamoM» b noflJibix cnAeTHax oxa3biBajica a; 
h 6oK>cb, hto JleBH, KOTopoMy a He yroaHji CBoefi caepwaHHOcTbio, 
nocTapancfl bo OpamjHH Menu nepHHTb; MHe xasaaocb, hto HHbie H3 

nOJIHKOB, 6bIBUIHX B flopHaXe, 6bIJIH B KOHTaKTe C 3THMH aaHrnaH- 

mucmcKUMUY) cnAeTHaMH; He coMHeBaiocb, hto CeaaeuxHe nocTapa- 
jiHCb Hac c Acett Ha3WBaTb peHeraTaMH. 

Bee 3th cnyxH o AopHaxe h HenoHaTHMfi $axT o6meHHa bo Bpe- 
m« BOHHbi npeacTaBHTejieft boioioiuhx CTpaH co3aaBaAH o Hac jiereH- 
aw; b TepMaHHH KocHjiHCb Ha He\meB-aHTponoco(J)OB; bo OpaHUHH 
h Ahtahh yTBep*Aajiocb, hto IIlTeflHep — HeMerncHft areHT, pa6o- 
TaiouiHH b IIlBeftuapHH nyTb ah He no nopyieHHio HeMeuxoro uiTa6a, 
a ero yneHHXH nyTb ah He uinHOHbi; BepHAH h HHbie H3 lUBefiuapueB 
3thm HeAenwM 6acHHM, pacnpocrpaHfleMbiM o Hac; Ha Hac, pa3yMe- 
erca, o6paTHAa BHHMaHHe xoHTppa3Beaxa Bcex CTpaH; HecoMHeHHO, 
hto b Hamy cpeay 3aTecbiBajiHCb h cmiuhkh, BnAOTb ao uiBeftuapcKHx 
cbiuiHKOB; HMeHHO b Mae o6Hapy»HAHCb nepBbie npH3HaxH Toro, hto 
3a HaMH cAeAHT; b woHe ace a BnepBbie CTaji 3aMenaTb caeacxy 3a 

C06oft AHHHO. 

B Mae Mecflue a c oco6eHHbiM xcapoM npnnaAca 3a oxoHHaTenb- 
Hyio o6pa6oTKy h nepenncxy Moeft khhi-h, KOTopyio a 03arAaBHA Tax: 
«PyAOAb<}) UlTeftHep h TfiTe b MHpoBcmpeHHH coBpeMeHHocTH». 
Pa6oTa HaAa^HBajiacb; a OTaeAbiBaa CTHAb h oneHb yBnexaAca aeTa- 

AHMH TeKCTa. HfiHh o6bIKHOBeHHO npOXOAHA Tax: Mbl BCTaBaAH nacoB 

b 9; b 10 Acfl 6bma ya<e Ha «Bau», a a caanaca 3a riHCbMeHHbift ctoa; h 
pa6oTaA ao o6eaa; k o6eay B03Bpamajiacb Aca, HHoraa c BaH-aep- 
riaajibcoM, KOTopbiH craa pa6oTaTb noa MaabiM KynoAOM, Haa apxn- 
TpaBOM K)nHTepa, noa pyxoBoacTBOM Ach; mh o6eaaAH (o6ea npHHo- 
chah H3 KaHTHHbi) Ha Teppace, xoTopaa BbixoAHaa b h6aohh, 3aHaBe- 
iuHBaBuine Hac; cKB03b 3eAeHb BHaeAca npoTHB Hac aomhk aoxTopa; 
h oneHb nacTO Mbi BHaeaH aoxTopa, B03Bpaiuaiomeroca co ctpohxh 
k ce6e; mm jkhah ot aoxTopa b TaxoM 6ah3kom paccToaHHH, hto na- 
cto cAbiuiaAH roAOca ero h M.R. H3 otxpwtmx oxoh bhaaw «.Hansi»; 
nocAe o6eaa Ach inaa ao Bewepa b «Bau»; a *e pa6oTaA nacoB ao 
4 - 4 V2; noTOM a men ah6o b xaHTHHy, rae Aca nnaa xocfre, ycajKHBaa- 
ca 3a left-HHGyab ctoahk h pa3roBapHBan c nacox c TeM hah apyrHM; 

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rjih xce x men 3a noxynxaMH b ApjiecrefiM, B03Bpamanca h npnro- 
tobjijui yjKHH anx ce6a h Ach; x yvieji npHroTOBJurrb xcapeHbift xap- 
TO$ejib c TOMaTaMH, MaKapoHM-cnarerni; oco6eHHO MHe yaaBanca 
canaT. Emjio Beceno noaacHaaTb Acio h MeiTa-rb 06 y*HHe; o6mxho- 
BeHHO k BenepHeMy qaio XTO-HH6yflb laxojum (lauie Bcero Tpane3- 
hhkob); HHorfla 6biB&n aoxTop rem; BeiepoM mu npoBoxcajm Tpane3- 
HHKOBa hjih reuia; x oneHb nomo6iui sth nporyjiKH nepea chom. 

K KOHuy Maa x cTan 3aMenaTb, mto c a-poM remeM tbophtch mto- 
to HenaoHoe; oh cran oneHb yrpiovi h xMyp; cTajiH nopaxcaTb mchh 
HexoTopbie H3 ero BonpocoB; oh xax 6m c ocTopoxcHOCTbio Hamynbi- 
Ban Moe CBHToe cbhtwx, npeaaaraji MHe CTpaHHbie Bonpocu o MoeM 
OTHOiueHHH k aoxTopy, k <uieHaM 06iuecTBa; x CTaa 3aMeqaTb, hto 
oh 6yflTo HtaeT ot mchh xaxux-TO *aao6 ua aoxTopa h HeaoyMeHHH, 
CBxaaHHbix c mohm nyTeM; caM oh He Bbicxa3biBancji; hotom, y6eaHB- 
uiHCb, hto ot mchh He ycjibiuiHuib xano6 Ha AOKTopa (a HeaoyMeHH* 
moh b CB»3H c npooaeMOft «nymu» Bee poom, hoshx hhcthhkthbho 
3axpbiBaji ot reuia), oh cran pexe 6biBaTb y Hac. Cxopo x Baoay CTan 
ero BCTpenaTb c cfepettneRH UlnpeHrejib, xoTopaa HHKoraa He 6bijia 
MHe CHMnaTHKHa h Koxopaa aepxcajia ce6a «oKKVAbmHOuy> Tencoft; 
xotji x 3Haji, hto ee CHHTaiOT daneKO yutediueU b 330TepHHecxHx cjiu- 
hx Haiuero 06mecTBa, y mchh He 6bino aoBepna k Heft: Bee b Heft MHe 
xa3aaocb HapoHHTbiM h npHnoflHflTbiM; h yaHBJiajica stoh pacTymen 
Ha rjia3ax y Bcex apy*6e a-pa reuia, TOHKoro (Jwjiococfra, c «.OKxy- 
Abrmoti» h (J)aHaTHHecKH HacTpoeHHoft TeTKoft; reuia mh BCTpenanH 
ua nporynxax c IIInpeHrerib; BMecTe ohh caaarn b xaHTHHe, o hcm-to 
ynopHO h flOJiro pa3roBapHBaa; ot Hac rem CTan OTxoaHTb: CTan cy- 
me KnaHHTbCH HaM. 

MtOHb. 

Ecjih Maft 191 5 roaa BcnoMHHaeTca MHe oa3HcoM noxoa cpean 
BepeHHUbi MpaiHbix MeomeB, b xoTopyio BCTymtrca moh xcH3Hb, [to b 
Hione] on»Tb Boxpyr MeH» HaHHHaeTca HeBHJiTHua, Hepa36epHxa, cyM- 
6yp; aaxih b cepaue pacTeT TpeBora; h 3Ta TpeBora cxaaabiBaeToi H3 
OHeHb MHornx o6cTOHTenbCTB; BO-nepBbix: HanHHaeTca paa nopaxce- 
hhh Ha pyccxHX 4>poHTax; Haiua apMH* OTCTynaeT; oOHapyacHBaeTca 
noJiHbift xpax rocyaapcTBeHHOtt CHCTeMbi Pocchh; h y*e hcho MHe, 

HTO BOHHa OKOHHHTC* DeBOJUOUHeft; BCe 3TO BOJIHyeT MeH«; MHe xoneT- 
CH 6bITb B POCCHH B 3TH OTBeTCTBeHHbie MOMeHTM', BHyTpeHHe X 

HaqHHaio cxjioHOTbca x Tonxe 3peHHa «.nopa3KeHitee»; ho 3to cxaoHe- 
HHe ctoht MHe aojiroft BHyTpeHHett 6opb6u; jierxocTb, c kotodoh Ha- 
Tama h Acs ctoht 3a nopaacemie Pocchh, nopoft mchh B03MymaeT; 
MHe 3to xaxceTCg BOBce He BbicTpaaaHHMM yoexaemieM b tom, hto 
peBoniomu HeoGxomiMa Pocchh, a BjiH»HHeM Ha hhx HeMeuxoH cpe- 

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aw; a b 3-roft cpcae xejiamie BimeTb Pocchio pa36HTott BbiTexaeT H3 
ecTecTBeHHbix, mhcto xchbothmx anneTHTOB; « nyBCTByio b Bonpoce o 
BOflHe CBoe pacxoJKfleHHe co bccmh; h c pyccxHMH, h c HeviuaMH; bo- 
BTopbix: n qyBCTByio, mto b HaiueM 06mecTBe Ha3peBaeT mto-to He- 
jiaoHoe; oiwTb noaHHMaeTca pott xaxax-TO cTpaHHux ciuiereH; uiyiuy- 
KaioTca, hto cpeflH Hac ecTb ijieHu 06mecTBa, BecbMa noao3pHTeJO>- 
ho ce6a Beayume b MopanbHOM othouichhh; ohh iio3bojihk)t ce6e xa- 
KHe-TO CKBepHbie nocTynxH b Ea3e/ie; uiBefluapuw HasuBaioT aHTpo- 
nocotJioB (JiapHceaMH h paccxa3biBaioT o HenpmiH<iHOM noBeaeHHH aH- 
Tponoco<t>OB BHe ApnecreflMa h flopnaxa; HexoTopue H3 tctok HaqH- 
HaioT Tpe6oBaTb, hto6m 3a noBezieHHeM MyxwHH aHTponoco$OB cne- 
ahjih; HaMHHaioT mto-to iuenTaTb npo Cefljieuxoro; h MHe xaaceTcs, 
mto b MeM-TO noao3peBaioT MeiM. B neM? H He HyBCTByio 3a co6oft hh- 
xaxoft BHHbi, a MOKfly TeM oiuiTb MHorne <uieHbi OGmecTBa Ha MeH« 
xochtch; npH BCTpenax c «cyu4ecmeoM» « BHxcy, hto «cyufecmeo» 
onaTb HarjieeT b othouichhh ko MHe; «oho» noflBjiaeTca Tenepb b 
06iuecTBe y*e HecxojibXHX cbohx nonpyr, /joBOJibHo coMHHT&nbHoro 
Bnaa; h 3th noapyrH cmotpht c HacMeiuxoio Ha mchh; bo MHe cmiaflbi- 
BaeTOi y6exczieHHe, hto CMyTHoe o6BHHeHHe mchh (y mchh sa cnHHOfi) 
b xaxHX-TO CKBepHbix nocTynxax HMeeT hctohhhkom xneBeTy Ha mchh 
Tolt rpynnbi jihu., c xoTopofi BCTynHjio b oGmeHHe «cyu4ecmeo»; 
oiuiTb BucTynaeT co Bceio ch/ioio HppaimoHajibHocTb ee norajieHHJi 
nepeao mhok>; B-TpeTbHx: n HanHHaio hbctbchho 3aMeiaTb, mto Hexo- 
Topwe H3 HjieHOB Hauiero 06mecTBa HaiHHaioT 3a mhoh cne/jHTb; 
npH3HaxH stoh cjiokkh a no/TMenaio Bciofly Tax: a 3aMe<iaio, mto (J)oh- 
MyTax, poacTBeHHHK rpocxaflHua, tioctojihho BepTHTCX okojio Hauie- 
ro flOMHKa; pa3 a ero 3acTan okojio Hauiero AOMHxa, pacnpauiHBaio- 
wero o neM-TO mok> xo3aftxy, Frau Thomann; yBH/jeB mchh, oh toi- 
ho cxoH(i>y3Hjica h 6wcTpo OTOiueji; a noneMy-To 6mji yBepeH, hto 
oh paccnpauiHBan xo3aftxy o MoeM BpeManpenpoBox/jeHHH; naxoHeu: 
bchkhh pa3, Korjia a oTtipaBjianca b Ea3e/ib, MHe nonaaanca (win b 
TpaMe, HiiH b MecTe TpaMBattHofi ocTaHOBKH, hjih Ha y/iHuax Ea3ejia) 
Bee tot *e 6/iohahh b jiHJioBOM rajicryxe; 3Toro 6/iOHflHHa a cran 
BCTpenaTb h Ha jiexuHax aoxTopa (oh oxa3anca nneHOM 6a3enbCKOH 
jiowh); MHe cTano HenepeHOCHO thjkcjio ot 3toh oieacxH. «3aieM 
cjiwwt, — ayMaji a, — pa3Be a npecTynHHX xaxoH?» H bo MHe CTajia 
ctoiaawBaTbcji aora^Ka, wto 3Ta cnexcxa ecTb pe3yjibTaT xaxofl-ro 
KJieBeTu Ha Menu, pacnpocTpaHHeMOH «cyufecmeoM» h rpynnoft jihu, 
BecbMa coMHHTe^bHux, c xoTopuMH 8 BCTpeia/i «cyiqecmeo»; Bee 
3th nHita 6ujih He aopHaxubi, a npHe3»caiomHe H3 Uiopuxa. 

B 3TO BpeMR A.C. nerpoBCKHtt ye3*an b Pocchio; % noexan ero 
npoBonHTb b BepH; h oniiTb: Ha CTaHUHH BCTpeTH/ic» c 4>oH-MyTaxoM; 
npoBO^HB rieTpoBCKoro, n ocTajicH Ha Ae6apxaaepe 6epHCKoro BOX3a- 

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na; h onaTb-xaKH: b BepHe a BCTpeTHaca c (boH-MyTaxoM; 3Ta bto- 
pHHHaa BCTpena OKOHHaTeabHO y6emuia MeHa, hto b HameM O-Be ycTa- 
HOBJieH cmck: 3a mhok> caeaaT; a 6uji yBepeH, hto 3to BbicaexcHBamie 
MeHfl He HfleT ot aoKTopa h M.R., a ot KaKoft-To rpynnw HaiiiHx «uie- 
hob, MeHH b neM-TO noao3peBaK>meft; sto a ayMan b BaroHe, Bcmpa- 
maacb H3 BepHa b Ea3&nb; Ha 6a3eabcxoM BOK3aae MHe CHOBa nonaaca 
Ma rna3a 6e36opoabifl 6hohahh b ^hjiobom raacTyxe, KOToporo a Bce- 
raa BHflen Ha aexuiiax a-pa; h onaTb BCTaa o6HaHeHiiiHft Bonpoc: 
«3aneM ohh 3a mhoio caeaaT? Hto a caeaaa Taicoro npecTynHoro?» 
Bo Bcex npoaBJieHHax cbohx a craa BOBce CKOBaH. 

MOH flOraflKH O TOM, HTO 3a MHOK) CJieflflT, noaTBepanaHCb oa- 

Haacflbi HaMeKaMH aoxTopa Ha jickuhh; aoxTop HaMexan Ha to, hto 
HeKOTopwx H3 yBaixaeMbix HauiHx mjichob pacnpocTpaHaioT Bor BecTb 
KaKHe cnyxH; oh Ha3biBaa sth cayxn 6e3yMHeM; oh npocHji He ceaTb 
cnneTeH, rpOMHji Tex, xoTopwe ot Henero aeaaTb 3aHHMaK>Tca noa- 
rjiaawBaHHeM; oh roBopna 06 onacHOCTH 6oaTOBHH; Beab mm, aHTpo- 
noco<J)bi, *HBeM cpeflH MemaH no ayxy, oTHOcamHxca c HeaoBepneM 
k aHTponococfmM; h 6oaTOBHa c 3thmh MemaHaMH-o BHyTpeHHHx ae- 
aax 06mecTBa h 06 OTaejibHbix naeHax 06mecTBa rpo3HT 6oabiiiHMH 
HenpHaTHOCTaMH h sthm nneHaM, aa h BceMy 06mecTBy; oh npeay- 
npexcaaa, hto mh jkhbcm xax 6m cpean cTexaaHHbix ctch; h xaKabiH 
Ham uiar o6cae*eH; no3TOMy Bcaxaa 6oaTOBH« apyr apyre o6pyuiH- 
BaeTca Ha 06mecTBo; h — Bee TiueTHo: tohho BHyTpn 06mecTBa 3a- 
6un BynxaH cnaeTeH; Bee xoaHJiH, noao3pHTeabHo o3Hpaacb h He Bepa 
apyr apyry. 

KpoMe Toro: nepeaaBaaH, hto Hecxoabxo pa3 oxoao «Betu» BHae- 
an nporynHBaiomHMca H3BecTHoro 6a3ejibCKoro cuiuHxa, xoTopbift 
noaBaaeTca Toabxo TaM, rae coBepuiaeTca KpynHoe npecTynaeHHe; 
nepeaaBaaocb, hto oxoao «Bau» noaBHaocb MHoro cmiuhkob; oa- 
Ha^cabi, Bbtflaa Ha 6anxoH, a yBHaea neaoBexa, cHaaiuero Hancxocb ot 
Haniero aoMa Ha aaBonxe; oh caeaHa 3a HauiHM aoMOM; a b cbok> one- 
peab Hanaa 3a hhm caeaHTb; h OKOHHaTeabHO y6eaHaca, hto sto — 
cbiuuiK; aaBOHKa, Haxoaamaaca Hancxocb Hauiero aoMa, 6biaa Bceraa 
3aH«Ta Tenepb; Bceraa Ha Heft KTo-HH6yab CHaen h CMOTpea Ha Ham 
aoMHK; a CTaa OTMenaTb aa*e cMeHy oHepeaeii. flBHoe aeao: 3a HaMH 
caeanaH; cxopo a y6eaHaca, hto cneanaH ;ihhho 3a mhoh; Baoay 
MHe CTaa noaBepTbiBaTbca 6pK>HeT b xoTenxe c He6ojibiiiHMH nepHbi- 
mh ycHKaMH; a ero BHaeJi b Ba3eae; oh rynaa na nepexpecTxe aopor 
b AopHaxe; oh HHKoraa He raaaea Ha Menu; xoraa a npoxoana mhmo, 
oh OTBopaHHBanca; KpoMe Toro: a CTan 3aMenaTb, hto b hhxhhh 
3Ta* k Frau Thomann CTaa 3axaxcHBaTb Kaxoft-To npocroaioaHH 
uiBeHuapeu; a cabiiuaa y ce6a b KOMHaTe noa HoraMH ero ropTaHHbiit, 
HacToftHHBbiH, BbicnpaiuHBaiomHii roaoc; Frau Thomann b neM-TO ero 



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pa3y6e»cflana Bceraa (sto cjiwmajiocb b HHTOHauHH ee ronocaK b boc- 
KJiHuaHHxx, floneTaBiiiHx no mchm: «Aber nein...» Ho ropTaHHbift ro- 
jioc Ha Hee npHKpHKHBaji, k neMy-To ee ckjiohjui, nero-TO ot Hee no- 
6HBanc«; MHe Bceraa nenanocb HenpHHTHO h acyTKO ot 3totc> ronoca; 
Ka3anot HenpHSTeH 3axoxcHft uiBeftuapeu; Koraa h npoxoziHji mhmo He- 
ro h Frau Thomann, to 3Ta nocneansm nenajiacb co mhoh oco6eHHO 
jito6e3Hoii, tohho cTbiflHjiacb nepeao mhoh, a iuBeftuapeu c xcanHbiM 
;iio6onbiTCTBOM BrjiaabiBanca b MeHa; HaxoHen a CTan 3aMenaTb, 
hto Hauia npHCJiyra, aBjiaBiuaaca no yTpaM, c xaKHM-To oco6eHHWM 
jiK)6onbiTCTBOM BrjiHflbiBaeTCJj b MeHH h nopoft npennaraeT MHe 
cTpaHHbie Bonpocbi, tohho efl hto-to HapaccKa3ann 060 MHe; h 
Tenepb, npHHHB k CBcneHHio HbH-To HHCTpyxuHH, OHa npHrjiJWWBa- 

eTCH KO BCeM MOHM JKeCTaM. 

HTax: a Ha6nioflaji, Tax cKa3aTb, tph pona pa3Hbix onrynwBaHHft 
cBoefl nepcoHbi; Bo-nepBbix, co ctopohh «cyufecmea» h rpynnw jihu, 
c KOTopwMH a Biwen «cyu4ecmeo»; sto omynwBaHbe mchh xa3anocb 
MHe caMbiM HenpHXTHbiM, h6o oho 6biJio caMoe HppauHOHajibHoe; b 
MoeM omymeHHH 3Ta cjieacxa CBH3WBanacb c BwenexcHBaHHeM MeHH xa- 

KHX-TO TeMHblX OKKyJlbTHCTOB, KOTOpbie HMeJIH UinHOHOB B HailieM 

06wecTBe; BTopyio cjieacxy a othochji k cneacxe mchh co ctopohw 
rpynnw HauiHx hjichob, b hcm-to mchh nono3peBaBiuHx ((J>OH-MyTax, 
6noHaHH b jihjiobom rajicTyKe, conpoBO*flaBiiiHH MeHH b Ea3ene) h 
Bee JKejiaBuiHX mchh noflMaTb c nojiHHHWM (b neM aojijkho 6wjio 3a- 
KJHonaTbCH sto «no/iunHoe», h He 3Haji); a y6e*flanca, hto y MeHH b 
06mecTBe ecTb BparH, h a He Mor noHHTb, hto co6ctbchho roBopn ohh 
HMeioT npOTHB MeHa; Bbipocno ;ih hx npeny6e*neHHe H3 HeBenoMoft 
MHe xjieBeTw Ha Mena «cyufecmea»; b TaxoM cjiynae sto — npoBoxa- 
uhh TeMHbix chjt, MeHH ry6aiuHx BHyTpH Hauiero 06mecTBa (hctoh- 
hhk *e chu HaxoflHncH — BHe 06mecTBa); hjih we — nyMan h — npo- 
cto ecTb rpynna mohx BparoB, He noHHMaiomHx noGporo'OTHOiueHHa 
ko MHe aoxTopa h 3aBHAyiomHX MHe: ohh, bcpohtho, CTapanncb 
cxoMnpoMeTHpoBaTb MeHa nepea aoktopom; MHe xa3ajiocb, hto b 
ueHTpe stoh rpynnw CToajia Bo/ib<J>paM; npoTHB mchh arHTHpoBann 
(tioH-Hnpcxaa h IIlTpayc, xax npoTHB «Ato6uMifa» MapHH flxoBjieB- 
hw, KOTopyio ohh HeHaBHflejiH; k hhm npHcoeflHHHJiHCb CeflJiewHe; 
h 3Ta HHTpnra cnneTajiacb c onepHeHHeM mchh H3 4>paHUHH JleBH, 
BwcTaBJiHBuiHM MeHH peHeraTOM CBoeft CTpaHbi; TpeTba *e cjiexcxa, 
npeacTaBHTejieM xoTopofl 6bui 6pK)HeT b xoTejixe, 3axa»HBaioiiiHH 
k Thomann noao3pHTejibHWH uiBeftuapeu h areHT ero, Hauia npncjiy- 
ra, — TpeTbH anoxica He HMe/ia hctohhhkom hh «OKKyAbmucmoev>, 
hh hjichob Hamero 06mecTBa, a npHcoeaHHHjiacb H3BHe: h nyMan, 
hto 3to 6bina cjieMcxa iuBeftuapcxoro yronoBHoro po3wcxa; h h onaTb 
He noHHMajr, b neM mchh o6bhhhk)t; /iHuib ropa3flo no3ZiHee a y6e- 



457 



awicn, ito 3to 6wjia, BepoaTHO, «KOHmppa3eedKa» oohoh H3 aep- 
xcaB «anmaHmbi». 

riopoft 3th tph cjiokkh npeflCTaBJiJuiHCb MHe pa3aejibHMMH; no- 
pott ohh an* MeHH cnHBajiHCb b oflHy; hctohhhk *e aieacxH y6eran B 
rnyooxHe h CTpaiiiHbie, MHe HeBcaoMbie anacrbi umeMHoeo ifapcmea». 

Tax hjih HHane: nojioaceHHe Moe xa3anocb MHe He3aBH0HbiM; 
noftaeiiib Ha «Bau» — TaM, xax HeaoTbixoMxa, MejibKaeT «uepHtut 
3KeHU4um», kochtch Ha Te6x MHorae <meHbi; Haeuib ryjurrb no oxpecT- 
hocthm, h Te6fl BCTpenaeT to 4>OH-MyTax, to noA03pHTejibHMH uiBeft- 
uapeu; noeaeuib b Ea3ejib — HaTbixaeuibca to Ha onoiuHHa b jihjio- 
bom rajieryxe, to Ha 6ptOHeTa b xoTejixe; CHflHiiib AOMa, non. noraMH 
tbohmh ryflHT noao3pHTeju>HMH uiBefluapeu, 3arjiaabiBaeT b tbok> 
KOMHaTy to Frau Thomann, to npHCJiyra. 

Tax, b HK>He a ce6a no<iyBCTBOBaji 3aTpaBjieHHbiM 3BepeM; a 3a- 
xnioranca y ce6« b xoMHaTe h aaace He jik>6wi noa&naTbca Ha 6anxo- 
He: Beflb c JiaBomcH Hancxocb Ha Te6a ycraBJiajica jno6onbiTHbift 
B3rji>m. 

Bee sto a nbiTancft Bbicxa3aTb Ace, ho HaTXHyjica Ha ee HenoHH- 
MaHHe; OHa — HHiero He Bnaena. JlHuib no3/iHee oHa noHajia, mto 
cjiexcxa — 6ujia: h b 3tom a 6wji npaB. 

Tax b yrpioMOM nepeMoraHHH.cuuiHKOB npoTex ana MeHa HK>Hb. 

3a sto BpeMH a okohhhji cbojo KHHry; xax-TO pa3 mm onaTb 6bijiH 
npHrjiauieHbi x aoxTopy, h a pa3BHBaji eMy cboh B3niaabi, CBH3aHHbie 
c HanncaHHOH khhkho; aoxTop 6mji oneHb mhji, caM xojqhji noxynaTb 
xny6HHKy, HTo6bi yrocTHTb Hac x naio; oh HHTaji HaM BCJiyx cthxo- 
TBopeHHe TeTe «R&stein»', xoTopoe b 6jiH»aitmee BocxpeceHbe aoji- 
xcHa 6ujia HcnojiHHTb Aca (b Ty nopy xaxcaoe BocxpeceHbe HcnojiHa- 
jiacb HOBax SBpHTMHHecKaK nporpaMMa); xcTaTH: xaxHe-TO cimeTHH- 
um HauuiH b HcnoJiHeHHH Ach h KHceJieBOH hto-to 3poTHHecxoe; 
CTanu xoflHTb HenpHHTHbie cjiOBa o tom, ito aoxTop h M..H. yaenaioT 

CJIHIIIKOM 60JIbIU0e BHHMaHHe 3BPHTMHH; flOXTOP OnflTb Ha ny6nHHHOH 

jiexiuui rpoMH/i «cn/ientHUKoe» h «cn/iemHuif». 

Boo6me b ero nocjieaHHX jiexiwax CTanu pa3aaBaTbca xaxue-TO 
yrpo3bi no aapecy hcbhahmoh, noanojibHofi onno3HiniH, — Ha stot 
pa3 yjxe npOTHB aoxTopa h MapHH HxoBJieBHbi; nyBCTBOBanocb, mto 
Bee 3aabixaK)TCH b aTMOC(J)epe HaaBHraiomeHca na Hauiy kojiohhk) 
rpo3bi; 3Ta rpo3a pa3pa3H/iacb exopo noTOM b tom hbjichhh, xoto- 
poe M.H. oxapaxTepH30Bajia, xax «6>ww eedbM». 

C xoHua Mecaua a HanHHato npeoaaneBaTb HacTpoeHHe roHeHHH 
h ripecjieaoBaHHa; no oxoHiaHHio KHHrH a CT&n pa6oTaTb xaxcabift 



* Eejiwfl, BepodTHo, HMeeT b BHiiy H3BecTHoe cTHXOTBopeHHe 1771 r.: «HeidenrOs- 
lein» c pe&peHOM: «R6slein, Roslein, Roslein rot / Roslein auf der Heiden». 



458 



.aeHb noa MajibiM xynojiOM hm hhctobohd oTAejixoio Haiuero apxHTpa- 
Ba «JOnumepa»; h TaM, noa KynoJiOM, cpejw mwioh, xpenxoft, 330- 
poBOfi aHTponoco(J)CKott MonoaoKH x 3a6uBaio ayuiHyio HHTpnry BHy- 
tph 06mecTBa h HenpnxTHbie ao3opu iiiiihkob soxpyr Hauiero ao\ia. 

HlO/lb*. 

HiOJIb He BHOCHT KaKHX-HH6yflb OObXCHeHHH B CHTyaUHK) Moett 

3KH3hh; peMHHrTOHHpyeTcx TeKCT Moeft KHHrH; npoaojixaercx pa6o- 
Ta b «Bau»; npoaojiacaioTcx aBycMbicJiemibie oTHomeHHX c HaTa- 
uieft; x, MaxHyB pyxofi Ha Heo6biiHOCTb hx, aoGHBaiocb jiHiiib oflHoro: 
AOBecTH hx flo KOHua. IloMHHTCJi, hto k 3TOMy BpeMeHH noflnepHBa- 
iotcx MHe qacTbie pa3ronopbi moh c T.I\ Tpane3HHKOBbiM, — 060 
MHe, 06 06mecTBe, o mohx OTHomeHHXx c HaTameft h c Acefl; b hcm 
Haxoxcy h ecjiH He ooixcHHTenx, to xoTb ycnoxoHT&jix; o rjiaBHbix 
nyTaHHuax Moero co3Hamix mu c hhm mojiihm; k rjiaBHbiM nyTaHH- 
uaM x OTHouiy: Heo6ixcHHMax MHe caMOMy maunon 6nH3ocTb moh c 

flOKTOpOM H MapHeH £xOBJieBHOH, H3 XOTOpOH BblTeKaeT KapMHHe- 

cxax poJib mox B 06mecTBe (anx xapMbi 06mecTBa); h OTCiona: oco6o 
THJKKHe GpeMeHa, xoTopue B3BajiHBaioTcx Ha moh njienH: x He to 06- 
peHeHHbifl, He to yBeHnaHHbift; x oaHOBpeMeHHO HeBepoxTHO bo3bcjih- 
neH npH6jiH»eHHeM Menx k TaitaaM nocBXiiieHHx; ho 3Ta B03BenHHeH- 
HOCTb h CTaHOBHTCH HCTOHHHKOM coBepuieHHO oco6oro poaa Hana- 
aemiH Ha MeHH: 1) tcmhoh chjim, 2) tcmhwx oxxyjibTHCTOB, 3) Tex H3 
HjieHOB Hauiero 06uiecTBa, xoTopbie, He noHHMax Moett pojih npn aox- 
Tope, He noHHMaioT mchh, H3Bpamax Bee moh nocTynxn; xpoMe Toro: 

BO MHe CaMOM npOHCXOflHT CXBaTKa CBeTJIblX CHJI C TeMHblMH; h Bee 

Ha noiBe stoh Moeft npoBHaeHunanbHOH pojih npn «aene ^oxTopa»; 
Ha 3toh noHBe h pa3BepTbiBaeTcx cepnx cTpaHHbix cHTyaimtt b Moeft 

XCH3HH BIUIOTb flO... HaTaiUH, BIUIOTb flO flefiCTBHTejlbHO CTpaHHWX 

coBnaaeHHH h coneTaHHX sthx coBnaaeHHH: BHyTpeHHHx co6biTHft jkh- 

3HH C HX BHeiUHHMH BbipaXeHHXMH B BHfle BCTpeH C JIK)flbMH H pa3rO- 

bopob HecnpocTa, pncyioiuHX Boxpyr mchh b MHe aanHOM MHpe bto- 
poft xaxoH-TO MHp; OTHomeHHe Me*ay bhcuihhm 6mtom aopHaxcxoft 

5KH3HH TOrO BpeMeHH CO BCeMH CJiyHaftHOCTHMH 3TOrO 6bITa H 6bITOM 

mohx HMarHHauHH (a mojkct 6biTb — HHcnHpauHfl) Taxoro *e, xaxoBO 
OTHomeHHe Mwxay TexcTOM vMedhoeo BcadHuxa», npoHHTaHHWM 
npocTO, h TeM jxe tcxctom, npbiHTaHHbiM no kphboh xecTa pht- 
Ma**; BHeuiHHlt tcxct — BHeuiHHe 3HaxH 6biTa xch3hh; xpraax — moh 



* 3necb BejibiH nepeiueji b pyKonncn Ha hobyio op$orpa<])Hio. 
*• B HKDHe 1917 r. Benwfl pa6oTan Han «phtmhhcckhm xccctom IlyiiiKHHa» h Han 
«pa36opoM kphboh "MeflHoro BcaaHHica"» (PAKKYPC JJHEBHHKA). 2 won* oh >jh- 
Tan b TH(J)^Hce netaimo «PHTMHwecKHfi xcecT "MtaHoro BcaaHHxa"». (Cm. cnea. CTp.) 



459 



BHyTpemuift mhp, b kotopom a 3anenaTaH H o kotopom HHnero He 
Mory cfca3aTi>; a ocrpaHHeHHe pe/ibe<i>a 6uTa BHyTpeHHHMH HManuia- 
UHflMH, a MoxceT 6biTb, HHcnHpauHHMH — to CTpaHHoe Hecnpocma, He 
atytauHO, KOTopoe a npoHHTWBaio H3 6yaTo 6m cjiynaftHoro y3opa 
co6mthh, pa3BepTbiBaK>iueroc» bokpjt mchh, rae h pa3roBopu, h 
BCTpe^H, h HBJieHHH npHpoabi, h nepexHBaHHfl apyrHX jiiofleH — 6yflTO 

OTBeTbl MHe H3BHe Ha pHTMbl MOeft BHyTpeHHefl XCH3HH; 3Ta >KH3Hb 

H3JiyMaeT ot flOKTopa ko MHe h H3 mch« KaKHe-TO chjim, no;io6Hbie 
cujiaM MarHHTa h y*e no pHTMaM sthx chji tkctch XH3Hb AopHaxa, 
rae, onHTb-TaKH, moan, coGmthx nono6Hbi xejie3HbiM onHJixaM, 
pacnonaraeMbiM b y3opbi chjiobmx jihhhh Moero 6e3o6pa3Horo 
BHyTpeHHero MHpa. CTpaHHoe, H3MyHHBaiomee coctohhhc: nyBCTBO- 
BaTb ce6a BceM h hhhcm h xoziHTb xax 6bi b HacmibHo HaaeTOM BeHue 
nocBHmeHHH, kotopmh, He y3HaHHbift apyrHMH, BbinuwHT npocTO 

UiyTOBCKHM KOJIIiaKOM. 

B pa3roBopax c Tpane3HHKOBHM mchh BojmyeT bot hto: mu c 
hhm tohho HapoHHO H36eraeM KacaTbca Moero onenaTaHHoro MOJina- 
HHeM 3aeentHoeo, maunoeo; ho nocKOjibKy oho-to h ecTb ueHTp chji, 
H3JieTaiomHx H3 mchh h BOKpyr mchh KOH^iHrypHpyroiuHX mcjiohh 
o6bmHoro «pa3roBopHHKa», BCTpenn, poMaHbi onepeaHOH npHS3HH 
h HenpH«3HH, nocTo^bKO b pa3roBope 06 stom eneuineM 6bime oh 
— OTpaaceHHe BHyTpeHHero, nocTOJibicy h KacaHHg stoto BHyTpeHHe- 
ro CKB03b BHeuiHee Tpane3HHKOBbiM mchh nopaacaeT yaHBHTenbHOio 
pHTMHMHOCTbio; co3,aaeTca BnenaTjieHHe, hto Tpane3HHKOB hto-to 

3HaeT O MOHX COCTOHHHHX, 3HaeT ttXO, O MeM Hejlb3« TOBOPHTb, xax 

h aoKTop; h roBopa o eneiuneM, bhoiihhm jhmkom cuM8onu3upyem 
BHyTpeHHeMy. Mu tobophm o tom, hto h CTpauiHO nwjioK, hto Haao 
npoiue oTHOCHTbCH k nyTaHHue c HaTameft; Tpane3HHKOB coBeTyeT 
MHe nocTynHTb b 3tom cnynae — TaK-To, a b tom — Tax-To. A Ha 

CaMOM flejie Mbl TOBOPHM UHOCKa30HUHMU MOeM yflHBHTejlbHOM, 

CTpaHHOM, He to CBHiueHHOM, He to yxcacHOM nojio*eHHH b cyflb6ax 
de/ia AoKTopa h Bcero ayxoBHoro aBH*eHH». CTpaHHbie pa3roBopu! 
MeHH THHeT k Tpane3HHKOBy c 3Toro BpeMeHH oco6chho: b pa3ro- 
Bopax c hhm H3AaneKa, o6hhhk3mh npoTHrHBaeTca ot Hero ko MHe 

CK803HOU CMblC/i; OH B HHX BCTaeT MHe, KaK 3arOBOpiUHK KaKOH- 

to TaftHofi KynxH flpy3eft, BbmBHraioiimx mok> KaH/waaTypy b jcaicoM- 
to bcjihkom OKKy^bTHOM acne, k KOTopoMy h npe,a-H36paH H B KOTO- 
POM pyKOBOHHM; 3Ta mauHax xyHKa — Aoktop, Mapna .HKOBJieBHa, 
PHXTep, Eaysp, Bee 6ojiee npoTxrHBaroiuHHCH ko MHe, Co(J)Hfl IIIthh- 
ae,' Tpane3HHKOB nocBHiueH b Kaxoe-To fleno, k KOTopoMy x npH3BaH; 



3Ta pa6oTa jiwkht b ocHOBe ero khh™ PMTM KAK flHAJIEKTHKA M «MEflHbIfi 
BCAMHHK» (M., 1929). 

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h ce6a omymaio neaoBeKOM, H3 jik>6bh k aoKTopy aaBiHHM cornacne 
Ha cTpaumo pHCKOBaHHbift h onacHwfl aKT, noao6HbiK 6pocaHHK> 6om- 

6bl BO HTO-TO, CMblCJI Hero MHe He HCeHJ H3 CB06oabI H AOBepHH k ao- 

KTopy h o6peKaio ce6« na onbiT HewcHoro aeftcTBHH; h BcaeacTBHe 3to- 

rOH — H30JlHpOBaH, KaK H30JlHpOBaH 6om6uCITI OT UK peBOJHOUHOH- 

Hofi napTHH*; /Ioktop, Eaysp, IIlTHHae h apyrne, TattHO jiio6h mch», 
BbiHyacaeHbi H3 KOHcnnpauHH He npoTHrHBaTb MHe hcho pyKH h ae- 

JiaTb BHfl, HTO OHH He 3HaK)T, KTO H, C06cTBeHHO nOTOMy, MTO Tfle-TO 

h yxce y3HaH: BparH 3a mhoio cneam; h nopyqeHHbift MHe axm copBeTCH 
c TH6ejibHbiMH nocjieflCTBHHMH una mchh, «Bau», aeaa aoKTopa; 
Tpane3HHKOB mauno nocnaH ko MHe ot mchh aK>6HiuHx jhoach, KaK 
HanpaBJiHiomHH HHCTpyKTop. % omymajo ce6» sui generis KaaaeBbiM; 
n omymaio JHoKTopa, IIlTHHae, Eayspa sui generis «1JK»; a omymaio 
npH ce6e Tpane3HHKOBa sui generis CaBHHKOBbiM npH KaasieBe, CTa- 
b»uihm ero c 6om6oh Tyaa, rae HazuioKHT 6oM6y 6pocHTb**; rae 3to 
6yaeT, Koraa, — MHe HeH3BecrHo; ho 6oM6a MHe 6yaeT aaHa h h no- 
cTaBJieH: ee 6pocHTb. 

TaK cepHH pa3roBopoB c Tpane3HHKOBbiM, cepHH HHocKa3aHHH o 
6oM6e; Mbi tomho 06a b MacKax; Ha HeM MacKa jno6HTenH peHeccaHca; 
oh roBopHT MHe 06 3noxe Bo3po>KaeHH$i, o MeflHHH, o WHBonHCH, o 
TepMaHe TpHMMe, HanncaBiueM KHHry Ha TeMy nMuKe/ib-AndMe- 
/io»***; oh cjihhikom HacTo, cnHiuKOM oco6eHHO, c noanepKOM roBO- 
Pht o «MHKenb-AHa»ejio»; h a B3aparHBaK>: dmo — napo/ib o 6oM6e. 
Beab b HMarHHauHax 1914 roaa (Ha jickuhh /JoKTopa b EepaHHe o 
MHKenb-AHa>Keno) MHe noKa3ajiocb, hto /Joktop cTapaeTCH MHe aaTb 
noHHTb, hto a nepeBonjiomeHHe ero****. H c y»cacoM stot «6ped» ot- 
Bepr, KaK aoKHyio HMarHHaiwio. Tenepb, nepe3 noaTopa roaa, b 
cTpaHHOM o6ocTpeHHH qyabdbi, b cTpaHHOM omymeHHH, hto MHe He- 
hto nopyneHO, on«Tb noHBaaeTCH TeMa «MuKe/ib-And3icejio»: c noa- 
nepKOM; hto-to noanepKHBaeT MHe 060 MHe *e, na stot pa3 — Tpa- 



* Cp. nojioweHHe TeppopHCTa HyflKHHa b TJETEPByprE; una: «TBop>iecTBo Moe 
— 6oM6a, KOTopyw a 6pocaio; *H3Hb, BHe mchh jiewamaH, — 6oM6a, 6pouieHHas b Me- 
hh» (HCKYCCTBO, 1908. — APAEECKM. M., 1911, c.216), hjih «Be.inqafluiH» xyao- 
>khhk EBponu, HHUiue, 6pocaeT b Hac cboio 6om6y — "3apaTycTpy"» (TPATE- 
aMH TBOPHECTBA. UOCTOEBCKHM H TOJ1CTOH., M., 1911, c.13). 

•• KanaeB, HBaH njia-roHOBHM (1877-1905), c.-p., HJieH BO nCP. 4.02.1905 y6HJi 
MocKOBCKoro reHepaji-ry6epHaTopa Ben. kh. Ceprea A.rieKcaH,apoBHia. rioBemeH. 

CaBHHKOB, Bopnc Bhktopobhh (1879-1925), oahh H3 pyKOBOHHTejiefl BoeBoK 
OpraHH3auHH nCP. 

*•* Grimm, Hermann (1828-1901) — LEBEN MICHELANGELO'S (1860; MHoro ne- 
peH3aaHHfi, K}6n;iefiHoe ma. 1899-1900). 

**•* 8 stHBapa (h.ct.) 1914 r. b EepjiHHe UlTeflHep HHTa^ jieKUHW «Michelangelo und 
seine Zeit vom Gesichtspunkte der Geisteswissenschaft» (H3 Kypca «Geisteswissenschaft 
als Lebensgut», 1913-1914). 



461 



ne3HHKOB, He noaospeBaiomHH, tmo oh 3aaeBaeT bo MHe; Tax — bo 
BceM: b pa3roBope o Meaonax 6uTa hm 3aaeBaioTCA He MeaoHH 3Toro 
6wTa, a mauHbi Moeu dyiuu; h Hac BaeneT apyr ko apyry, xax 3aroBop- 
iiihkob; ho 3to BaeneHHe h uiwfrp HHOcxa3aHH& mok HaMH, npoHcxo- 
nHT noa 4>opMOK) npocTo 3axoaoB Tpane3HHxoBa k HaM Ha naiuxy 
>iaio; h noa rjiopMoio HauiHX c hhm nporynox BenepoM, nocjie pa6oTW, 

no AOpHaXCKHM OKpeCTHOCTJIM. 

Ee3yxopH3HeHHO oaeTbift, b cepoft nape, b aHr/wftcKOH MHrxoft 
luaane, b jihhobom raacTyxe, noMaxHBan CBoefl nanxoil, Tpane3HHKOB 
BOflHT MeHH no noajiM h pa3BHBaeT MHe mucjih o peHeccaHce hjih ype- 
30HHBaeT: «rioTHuie, roay6HHx: He o6pamaflTe BHHMaHHH hh Ha hto... 
Aep*HTecb My*ecTBeHHo... Cmotphtc Ha BeuiH npome... EcaH HaTa- 
uia Tax y* Heo6xoaHMa BaM, on«Tb roBopio: cmotphtc npome.. .» 
HHorna >xe oh tobopht: «Bbi 6m yexann Ha BpeMx OTCioaa: noe3*aft- 
Te b ropbi aim b Uiophx... Pa3BnexHTecb... H noTOM, cxHHyB c ce6« 

3Ty HepBHOCTb, B03BpaiUaHTeCb CK)fla». 

A MHe sto ero udepxumecb MyxecmeeHHO» OTaaeTCH, xax: «fla, 
aa, aa: 6om6o 6yaeT aaHa; Bbi CBepuiHTe smo: h&uih cyab6w 3aecb — 
caMa HeeepoHttiHocmb; h bw, h h — mm maaaexa npHuian, aanexo 
yftaeM: Bee CTaao ckbo3Hwm. HHTafiTe uiH<J>pbi He6ecHofl cyab6bi, Bac 
o6cTaBiueH MaaeHbXHMH 6yaTO 6bi ap»3raMH kh3hh». Tax Ham pa3- 
roBop c Tpane3HHKOBbiM aa« MeH« pa3roBop CKB03b caoBa b myda, 
rae «CHMBoaw He tobopht, ho KHBaioT 6e3 caoB»*. A neaaab c «Mu- 
Ke/ib-AHdxce/io» anuib HaMex Ha to, hto eMy BeaoMo: noa Macxofi 
aHHHOCTH «Eopuca HuKo/iaeeuHa» no BpeMemi npHTanaocb nenmo co- 
eceM UHoe. 

Si He bo BceM noHHMaio Tpane3HHxoBa, ho MHe hcho, hto oh Bxaa- 
awBaeT b HCHbie c BHay caoBa tcmhwh 6e3aoHHbiH CMbica, — h 
hto nocaaH cTOHTb npn MHe b 3th CTpauiHbie poxoBbie aa« mchh Me- 
cxubi. Bee name xo MHe, xax 6w H3-3a naena Tpane3HHxoBa, npo- 
coBbiBaeTCH aHx Mnxawaa Eay3pa, xotopwh rae-TO mchh *aeT x ce6e 
h H3aaaH mauHO noMoeaem. 

Zlpy*ecTBeHHbiH OTTeHOx nexoToporo CTapmHHCTBa b Tpane3- 
HHKOBe MHe noHHTeH h ero bhciuhhm noaoxeHHeM; oh — eapannt pyc- 
exott rpynnbi b AopHaxe h Bbi6paH b cobct cmapiuux, codHpatonxHftcsi 
b /lopHaxe npH JloxTope. Koraa maa penb 06 H36paHHH cpeaH pyeexnx 



* Cp. nOHEMy X CTAJl CHMBOJIHCTOM... 1928 r.: «Chmbojim He roBopsr, 
a KHBaioT» (Ann Arbor, 1982. c.35). 3aecb Be/ibifl, no Bceft bcpohthocth, nepe4>pa3H- 
pyer O TIPHPOUE CJJOBA MaimejibUjTaMa (BnepBbie ony6n. b 1922 r., nepeneiaTaHO 
b c6. O T1033HH, 1928): «Bot ftyxia npHBoaHT npo(t>eccHOHaju>HMH chmbojihsm. Boc- 
npHXTHe neMopajiHSOBaHo. Himero Hac-roaiuero, nojiJiHHHoro. CTpauiHUtt KOHTpeaaHC 
"cooTBercTBHfl", KHBaioiuHx apyr Ha apyra. BeiHoe noaMHrHBaHHe. /.../ Hhkto h« 
xoieT 6biTb caMHM co6oB» (CJIOBO H KyjlbTYPA. M., 1987, c.65). 



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rapaHTa, to Co<J)h$i IIlTHnae npeonoxHJia Ace, hto6m pyccxHe H36pa- 
jih MeHfi, ho Ac«, He noroBopHB co mhoh, OTxa3ana; kohchho, — h » 
OTKa3ajicfl 6m (He MHe b tom aymeBHOM CMHTeHbe, b xaxoM » Haxo- 
ahjicji, rapaHTCTBOBaTb), ho Bee we cHMnTOMaTHHHO, xaK o6pama- 

JIHCb CO MHOH 6jIH3KHe: He TOJlbKO He CHHT3JIHCb, He TOJIbKO He COBe- 

TOBajiHCb, ho HrHopHpoBajm h b 3MnHpHMecxHx cJiynajix h(H3hh o6pa- 
majiHCb, Kax c HeoaymeBJieHHbiM npeaMeTOM; y riouuo BOflBopmiocb 
TaKoe OTHomeHHe ko MHe: «Eopx» — 3to to, hto hc cf ?eeT HMeTb 
CBoero MHeHHJi; oh — «.Haiu»: hto xothm, to h caejiaeM c hhm. 
A y Ach 3to aoxouhjio y*e ao othouichhh ko MHe KaK... k mytf/ie, ko- 
Topoft to uiBbipjHOTCH, KOTopyio [to] hocht; Ach MeHH BO BHeUlHeM 
6biTe HocHjia, Kax Ty<JwiK>. R sto bhacji h MHe sto 6buio rjiy6oKo 6e3- 
pa3nHKHO, noTOMy hto b «/T» h 6mji CBo6oueH h Taxne nycTHKH, KaK 
BHeuiHee HomeHHe MeHH Ha Achhoh «noee», He 3aHHMa/iH. 

Ho Tpane3HHKOB, nacTbio h EeprenrpioH nocTOHHHo HaMexariH 
MHe na 6ecnapaoHHoe co mhoh oGxoxcueHHe co cTopoHbi cecTep Typ- 
reHeBbix h OTMacTH riouuo, pa3BHBaBiiieM Hpe3MepHyio pa3BH3H0CTb 
Ha noHBe poactbchhocth. 

Tan b Tpane3HHKOBe HaMeqanacb napTHH npy3ett jihhho MeHH, ho 
He Ach, HaTauiH, riouuo (Eaysp, MaaaM MopreHiUTepH, BepreH- 
rpjoH); h 6bijia napTHH TypreHeBbix «par excellence»; h nyBCTBOBan 
b Heft MapHjo ^KOBaeBHy, xoTopan tohho b otbct Ha Moe HexoTO- 
poe pa30HapoBaHHe b Heft, OTBeTHJia noanepxHyTbiM noxpoBHTenbCT- 
bom (noKpoBHTenbCTBOM «« nui<yMHe»), KOTopan OHa OKa3biBajia Ace: 
nocneflHioK) Bee 6anee h 6ojiee o6jiacxHBana; Ach nonana b rpyn- 
ny SBpHTMHCTOK, nocTOHHHo peneTHpoBaBuiHx npH aoKTope; 6wt ee 
>kh3hh Bee 6ojiee cjiHBajicn c 6biTOM cmyduu; a 3To 6mji 6mt MapHH 

.HxOBJieBHbl, pHflOM C KOTOpoft nOCTOHHHO nOHBJIHJICH flOKTOp; H, OT- 

pe3aHHbift ot 3Toro 6biTa, Bee 6onee N oTpe3MBancH h ot MapHH £kob- 
neBHbi h nepe3 Tpane3HHKOBa Bee 6ojiee npope3btBancH k aTMoccfeepe 
Eayspa, xoTopan Benjia MHe b jihuo h, Tax cxasaTb, oxpaHHjia MeHH 
ot CTpauiHbix MucmuuecKux roueHHH co ctopohw. 

3th nocneaHHe He npexpaiuajwcb BOBce, to ocna6eBaH, to — 
BcnbixHBax: OTCicaa h oTTyaa noa pa3HbiMH (fropMaMH; oichm pa3Hbix 
(J)opM cjieacex oTKpbiBan BKpyr ce6ji; caMoe TnrocTHoe 6biJio to, hto 
hctohhhk cjieacex MHe 6mji HenceH; earn 6w MeHH oxpyxcajiH npocTO 

UinHKH pyCCKOft, aHTaHTHCTCKOft H UIBeHUapCKOR KOHTppa3BeflOK, h 

6mji 6bi cnoKoeH Tax *e, xax b kohchhom, cnoxoeH nejioBex, OTMa- 
xHBajomHftca ot Myx; ho h nono3peB&n npecncaoBaHHn ot epaeoe; 
h BHflen HHTb 3Toro npecneaoBaHHH, THHyBiuyiocH b Heapa Hauiero 06- 
mecTBa h yxce U3 neeo MeHH aonexaBuiero; 3to 6mjio CTpauiHee Bce- 
ro: ayMaTb, hto 3aMXHyTocTb 06mecTBa npo6HTa TaftHbiMH BxoaaMH 

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h BbixoaaMH b Hero h h3 Hero BparoB aeaa aoieropa: caMbift «Bau» 
BHflenc» mhc yace MHHHpoBaHHMM Hepnoto Cunoto. 

MHoraa omymeHHe peanbHoro npecaeaoBaHHH jihhho mchh ao- 
CTHrajio TaKOfl hhtchchbhocth, hto h KaTacTpo(J)HHecKH nyrancn: 
a oiuymaa camaHUHcxyio 3/io6y, oncyaa-To HanpaBJieHHyio npHMO Ha 
MeHH (y*e aaace He Ha aoKTopa); h 3Ta CHJia, pe^ymaa, Kaic hohc, boh- 
3ajiacb b MeHH, KaK H05K, HHoraa HeoMCHziaHHO 6e3 Toro, kto h ayMaa 
o Hefl. He 3a6yay aByx 3nH3oaoB, 6biBuiHx co mhoh, Ka*eTCH, b hiojic 

OaHH 3nH3oa: oaHaacabi, *apjcoio hoimo, nacoB b 11, h noiuea 
noryjiHTb; HHKoro He 6biao; h CTaa Kpy*HTb no nycTbiM h 6e3Jiioa- 
hwm /topoJKKaM, o6ca»eHHbiM aepeBb»MH, Toro KBaapaTa, kotopwh 
o6pa30Bajic« ueymay ApaecreflMOM, BepxHHM JIopHaxoM, Hhhchhm 

JlopHaXOM H TpaMBaftHblM TpaKTOMJ KBaapaT 6bIJl Ha CK^OHe xoaMa. 

KaK cennac noMHio: THxaa, jiyHHan HOMb — hh ayum; npoxoaa mhmo 

flOMHKa, CMOKHOrO C BHJl^OH flOKTOpa (HaHCKOCb OT Hac), — aOMHKa, 

b kotopom o6HTaji xmo-mo, kto ynacTBOBaji b cae>KKe, Ha mchh nax- 
Hya 3HaKOMbifl, 3noB BeTepoK, KOTopbiH MHe 6biJi xopomo H3BeCTeH: 
BeTepoK HeHaBHCTH; ho h, npHBbiKuiHH k HeHaBHCTH, H3nyHaeMOfl 
Ha MeHH 1) BecbMa MHoroHHcjieHHofl, aHTponoco(J)CKoft napTHeft 
(c Bojib(J)paM, MnpcKott, IIlTpayc, uiBeaKofi, 3KKapTUJTeHH, pjiaoM 
«,0paHiiy3CKUxv> uiBeftuapueB, OHTHHro<t), «cyu4ecmeoM» 3ay3pBeflH h 
T.fl.), 2) KaKHMH-TO HeBeflOMbiMH MHe HepHbiMH OKKyjibTHCTaMH, npo- 
*HBaBiuHMH b flopHaxe, 3) npocTO o6biBaTejiHMH ApjiecrettMa h flop- 
Haxa, KeM-TO HaycbxaHHbiMH npoTHB Moeft aa« hhx 6e3pa3aHKHoft 
(J)Hrypbi, 4) areHTaMH «aHmaHmbi» h T.a. — npHBbiKuiHH k Henaeu- 
cmu, h He o6paTH/i bhhm3hhj? Ha 3to nepe>KHBaHHe h men or aoMa 
cpeflH KycTOB; iiomhhtch, — TeHb mod nepepe3aaa ocaenHTeabHyio 
aopo*Ky. Bapyr, Kax ho>k, BcaanacH b ayiuy CTpax; h cepaae — noa- 
npwrHyjio: 

— «Ohh nwK me6n HenaBHaaT, hto cnoco6Hbi y6HTb: ohh — y6b- 
jot; (fropTeab c cyiuecmeoM — oTpa>KeHa aoktopom: He BbiropeJio! 
Ilyme 3a 3to ohh Te6a HeHaBHfl«T». 

H TyT *e MenbKHyno: 

— «Tw — oflHH: b oaHy H3 TaKHx MHHyT, Koraa th 3aTep«emb- 
ch b necy hjih cpeflH KycTOB, pyxa npeaareaa Te6« npHKOHiHT hojicom 
e cnuHy». 

H TOTnac OT03Bajiocb: 

— «B cymHOCTH, ecan 6bi Te6» y6naH 3aecb HanaaeHHeM H3-3a 
xycTOB, — hhkto He cMor 6bi npHTTH Ha noMomb; tboh KpHK pa3aaa- 
ca'6w cpean MepTBoro CHa. floxa npH6eryT, y6Hftubi ckpokjtch». 

OmymeHHe, hto y6uuya yoK 3decb, mo, MoaceT 6biTb, oh bw- 
CMaTpHBaeT, 6wao ao TaKofl CTeneHH othctjihbo, hto » 6wctpo no- 
mea aoMOft, h Bee BpeMH conpoBoxcaaao omymeHHe: HeHaBHaxmaa 

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Te6a cmia KpaaeTca paaoM, BoopyaceHHaa 4>H3H<iecKHM h/ih oKKy^bT- 

HblM HO»OM. 

Ctw^ho co3HaTbca, hto a eziBa nomen no aouy. omymeHHe cmpa- 
xa 6biJio peajibHo; h iiijio He H3 MeHa, a Ha MeHa: toiho Menu odenu e 
cmpax. 

— «Mto c to6oh» — cnpocH/ia MeHa Aca. 

— «HHHero». 

nepe»CHBaHH» 3TOH hohhoh nporyjiKH a ckpmji ot Hee: OHa — cjie- 
na, OHa — He BepHT, hto 3a mhoio cjieaaT: a HHKOMy He Mory nepe- 
aaTb 3to coBepmeHHO peajibHoe BocnpHHTHe ce6a naponno odemoeo 
3 yxac; MeHa hm noKpbiBajiH H3BHe, KaK TepaKJia on?xnoVi hm y6HTO- 
ro Hecca; oaoKna npHpocrajia h npoeaanacb CKB03b Koacy b cepnue: 
h cepaue exaao CTpaxovi; a nyra^ca, Tax cKa3aTb, MexaHHnecKH. 

Menu nyeanu, lacmaennn zapanee omcmynumb om moeo, k ue- 
My MeHH npedna3Hauu/iu (3Ta Mbicnb y*e pa3birpbiBanacb bo MHe HMa- 

THHaTHBHO, KaK CTOnblTKa riOHHTb npHKHHy CTOJIb OIUyTHMOH HeHa- 

bhcth). 

Zlpyrofl cjiynaii. 

Ta ace raxaa, Htonbcxaa, ;iyHHaa Hoib (BepoaTHO, h btopoh cny- 
naft c/iyjujicsi b Te »e imn); *apa; oKHa h ^Bepb Ha Teppacy OTKpbiTbi; 
Mbi oaHH c Acefl; Aca piicyeT Moaenb ana ctckoji: MenoM Ha tepHoft 
6yMare. ft Bbiiueji Ha Teppacy; ceji non JiyHoft; b aoMHKe aoKTopa Tein- 
HOTa. Cxopo b Moe co3HaHHe BopBanca iuyM h rBajiT KaKofi-TO noao- 

3pHTe/IbHOH KyHKH HOpHaXCKHX «MyMUK08» OT 3/1030 flOMHKa, TOp- 

HaBuiero HancKocb: Ta\i no BeiepaM co6Hpajiacb KynKa; OTTyaa — 
rajiaeiiH; neKOTopoe BpeMa a He o6paman HHKaKoro BHHMaHHa Ha 
raaiiT, noKa rpoMKHe bckphkh He cTajiH 6HTbca o 6apa6aHHyK> nepe- 
noHKy: 

— «Mbi eMy noKa*eM... Oh ayMaeT, hto...» h aajibiiie HeacHb. 

ft — Hyjlb BHHM3HHa. 

— «3aBen ce6e Mepen h cmotpht Ha Hero: xaxa — raMJieT.'» — 
coBepuieHHo othctjihbo rapKan 3jiok ropTaHHbifl ronoc; h — yrpoxca- 
joiuhh B3pbiB no a/ipecy Koro-To. 

ft — coo6paa<aK>: nepen-jo y Hac; Aca xtaBHo npHHecjia uepen ajia 
MoneJiH CBoeft (Ha pncyHKe ijoKTopa — paa «epenoB); nepen ctohii b, 
MoeM Ka6HHeTe y cTonoiKH uhkjiob aoKTopa, paaoM c uBeTaMH. He- 
coMHeHHo: Bee neTaj™ Hamefi >kh3Hh nepe.aaBa.nHCb KOMy c/iedyem 
noao3pHTenbHOK) npHcnyroro, npHxo^HBineH y6HpaTb HaujH KOMHa- 
Tbi, aopHaxcKOH KpecTbaHKOfl. MHe CTano acHO, o KaKOM nepene ro- 
BopaT; roBopamHe He 3HaK)T, mto nepen He moh, a Achh; oh ctoht 
b Moeft KOMHaTe: «oh», «raM/iem» — a. ft, BHyTpeHHe B3/iporHyB, 
CTaji BHaTHo BTarHBaTb b ce6a yrpoacaBDiuHe bbikphkh: rpo3HHH xoMy- 
mo, 3a nmo-mo; 3a mto, — a He noHHMan, ho noHa/i, ito «oh» — a; 

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h — noHJui, mto MeHK npeKpacHO bhaht ch.ohiij.hm Ha Teppace, h6o h 
ocBemeH jrynoH; h Haponno no MoeMy adpecy 6pocaioT yrpo3w. 
Qzwa (J)pa3a oco6eHHo rpoMKo pa3pe3ana THUiHHy hohh: 

— «Ecjih Tax, to — ero mojkho h 3acTpejiHTb». 
H — 3Jioft, ropTaHHwtt b3phb rojiocoB. 

Hto 3to Taxoe «ecAu mate, mo», — pa3yMeeTC«, h He noHHMan; 

HO H nOHHJl, HTO «e?0» — OTHOCHTCH KO MHC OHeBHflHO 3Ta 3JiaJI, 

Tynan Kymca HaTpaBJieHa kcm-to npoTHB MeHx; h cTano 6biTb: y MeHa 
3a cnHHoft kto-to pacnpocTpaH»eT 060 MHe Taxne Beuw, 3a KOTopwe 
uiBeftuapcKHe MyjKHKH y6HBaK>T. R oziHOBpeMeHHO h HcnyrancH, h He- 
CKOJibKO ycnoKOHjica. ycnoKOunex: kto rpo3HT Bcnyx yrpo30tt 3acm- 
pe/ia, HHKoraa He 3acmpe/ium; crano 6biTb: Men* owtmb odeeaiom e 
empax. Ho » Hcnyranca: naa&na ycnoxaHBaioiuaa mchh BepcHH o tom, 
hto npecAedoeanuH — njioa Moeft <J)aHTa3HH; h 6e3o6H/j.Hoe, Hevioe 
cymecTBo, «cmamucm» b 06mecTBe, ao KpaftHocTH BexcjiHBbift co 
BceMH uiBeftuapuaMH, — hh b kom He Mor B036yjjHTb HeHaBHCTH, 
3acTaBnj«omeH MHe KpHnaTb, hto mchh 3aerpe;iHT; crano 6biTb: Mewt 
nodo3peeaau e ueM-mo yxcacHOM; He b tom jih, mto h ujiihoh? Ho — 
no3BonbTe: a Mor b ux npeacTaBjieHHH 6biTb iutiuohom HeMiieB npo- 
THB aHmanmbi, mnuoHOM aHTaHTbi npoTHB HeMueB, — IIlBeftuapHK 
npn ieM »e? Eyjjb a flawe iutiuohom, 3th MemaHe, c hx «xama c Kpaio» 
— He MorjiH 6w KpHHaTb TaKHe BemM 060 MHe. CTano 6biTb: MeHH 

o6bHH»K>T — B MeM »e? B y6HHCTBe, — HTO HH? B H3HaCHJIOBaHHH, — 

mto jih? Ho >KH3Hb moh HaBHjjy: xpoMe «Bau» a HKrae He 6biBaK>, Bee 
nponee BpeMfl enwy aoMa, Kaacabifi moh Mac b pane, MecaueB npoTeican 
Ha BHfly paxia nioatPi h xo3hHkh Thomann: noe3AKH b Ea3ejib (pas b 
MecHu) 3a Heo6xoaHMbiMH noKynxaMH orpaHHHHBanHCb mohm 6jiy)K- 
aaHHeM no Mara3HHaM aByx nto/JiHbix y/iHu h npoaojDKairacb He 6onee 
OTyx-Tpex nacoB; a Bee nponee BpeMfl npoTeKano nepe/i rna3aMH xo- 
3hRkh, Ach, aHTponoco<})OB; bot y)K, mojkho CKa3aTb, bo BHeuiHeM 
6biTy a oKun ua enasax y ecex. 

Cmano 6bimb: nyeatom. 

Bee 3to BHxpeM npoHecjrocb, Koraa a npHcnyuiHBanca k nora- 
hwm rojiocaM xyHKH. H — He BCTan: npo/mnacaji CH/jeTb b toh »e 
no3e... TaMJieTa. Ho xoT&nocb rmaicaTb: «3a hto?» 

BcTaa h Bouieji b xiom: 

— «Hto c to6oh» — cnpocHjia Aca. 

— «HHHero». 

— «TbI hto-to CKpbiBaeuib>>. 

— «HeT: cKa5KH, — noneMy b HauiHX OKHax chhtw 3aHaBecKH 
ceroflH»?» 

— «Opay ToMaH ann nero-To hx cTamHJia: CKa3ajia, mto BbiMHc- 
THTb Haao, a Beab TonbKo mto mhcthjih». 



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— «Taic!» 

— «y nee 6mji BHHOBaTbifl bhh, Koraa oHa roBopmia o tom, hto 
3aHaBecKH ceroana Haao cnaTb: He CMOTpena b rjia3a». 

— «Tax!» 

R — noaoiuea k oKHy, hto6m ocMOTpeTb aepeBo noa okhom (mm 
5khjih bo btopom 3Ta»ce); icax pa3 Ha ypoBHe Moefl cnaabHH yao6Heft- 
uiHfl cyx, Ha kotopom mo*ho npoBecTH HOHb: MHe y*e 6mjio acHO, 
hto 3toh HOHbio a 6yay cnaTb noa okom nio6onbiTHoro Ha6j?K>aaTe- 
aa, c yao6cTBOM npHMOCTHBiuerocjt Ha cyicy; um ana nero-To Hy*HO 
yBunerb interier Harnett xch3hh c Aceft: ToMaH npuK030Ho CHHTb 3a- 
HaBecKH; ee CMymeHHe b tom, hto OHa — aoaacHa; h 6e3 Toro «cmapy- 
xe», BHjmuieH Kuuiy OBenbio 6e3o6HaHOCTb, HaaoeaH npHCTaBaHba 
tunuKoe, paccnpr^UHBaBiuHX o Hac. 

Hy, — hto >«.: 6yay o6t>cktom pa3raaaa. 

— «Tm 6m, Aca, 3aHaBecHna cboh OKHa Ha HOHb». 

— «3aneM?» 

— «TaK aynmew. 

— «A Tbl?» 

— «Hy, — H HCT». 

H — noayMaaocb: mhjiocth npocHM, pa3raaabiBafiTe! B 3tom 
BbnoBe h npe3peHHH k Ha6/iK>da/ne/i?o H3 OKHa CKa3aaaa> 3JiocTb; a b 
ayiue KpHHajio: 

— «3a HTO MeHH yHH5KaK)T!» 

B3pwB ropTaHHbix roaocoB pa3aaaca b oTKpbiToe okho: TaM, Ha- 
HCKOCb, npoflOJiacajia ropjiaHHTb noraHaa Kynica. 

Ace a, pa3yMeeTca, HHHero he cKa3aji: a jiHiub Hacroaa, hto6m 
OHa 3aHaBecHJia OKHa b CBoeft KOMHaTe; caM tkc co cnonoucmeueM 
U3 eopdocmu noacTaBHa ce6a noa 3/tou raa3 H3 OKHa; noMHHTca: b 

3Ty HOHb H HHTaJl B nOCTeJIH KaKOH-TO TOJICTblH TOM: «HcTOpHH MO- 

HamecKHX opaeHOB». R HHTaji o BpaTCTBe Mncyca; h — ayMaa: He 6e3 
«6pamcmea» sto Moe aeacaHHe noa raa30M. 

riepea TeM, kak 3aracHTb CBeny, a xoTea BCKOHHTb h, noa6e»aB k 
OKHy, ero pacnaxHyTb, cnyrHyB cudxufeeo Ha aepeBe; ho xoTeaoct 
cnaTb; noayMaaocb: «riycTb ero raa3eeT». 

FIpe3peHHe k e/ta3y 6biao CToab CHJibHO, hto oh aaace MHe He 
Memaa. 

06i.HCHaaocb MHe nyBCTBO 3a HecicojibKo aHeft nepea sthm, koi aa 
noKa3ajiocb, hto 3a mhokj kto-to KpaaeTca b KycTax; xmo-rno, Bepo- 
aTHO, Kpaaca; y MeHa yaHBHTeabHo pa3BHTO KO»<Hoe omymeHHe eiueu 
h «e/ia3a»; h Tex, h jmom a omymaio 6e30uiH6oHHO. 

H ayMaa: «Ohh nycTHaH BOHCTHHy CHJibHbie cpeacTBa Hanyra; 
nyeaiom ebicmpe/iOM». M TyT *e OTaaBaaocb: ecan 6bi ohu h aocTHr- 
nit CBoefl uean h 6bia 6w a donyzau, to — Bee >Ke: a BbiHyjKaeH 6bi 

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6bin BecTH ce6a Tax, KaK a Beay, h6o a ace ne smio moeo, om neeo ohu 
Menu omnyeueaiom; HHKaicoro 3MnHpHHecKoro nocTynica a He coBep- 
maji h He HaMepeBaKJCb coBepiuHTb; Hemii axm, 6om6o, o kotopoh 
noflMHrHBaeT Tpane3HHKOB, He ecTb sMnnpHHecKoe KaK-HH6yab KBa- 
nH(J)HUHpyeMoe aeftcTBHe; sto Moe «da» — CBeTy, XpHCTy, aeay 
AOKTopa; 3to moh BepHOCTb cHMBony HoaHHOBOft jik>6bh, ocymecT- 
BaaeMaa cuMeo/iuuecKu ace b bcphocth TeTeaHyMy, b oco6om *ecTe 
pa6oTW nop. MaabiM KyncwiOM, b BaxTax; h 3To — Moe JiiOToe ««em»: 
BOHHe HapoaoB. 

MHe HHoraa HanHHaao Ka3aTbca, hto cu/ia MedumamueHou Mbic- 
nu Moeu o dene doxmopa ecTb Men, yoKe dyxoeno pa3nutuu\ b Mbicaax 
a 6bio no Bpary; h bot, ace/iaa Bbi6HTb H3 rojioBbi Moeft 3tot Men 
Mbicnu Moeii, enuxtouteu na cydb6bi 06utecmea, BottHbi, aaace cyab- 
6bi Pocchh, «ohu» h yrpoacaiOT MHe CMepTbK). 

Ho TyT a HeyMonHM: a totob aa>Ke... nacTb... noa HoacaMH 
y6Httu, aeflcTBHTenbHbiMH, a He TOJibKO Hoa<aMH-H3biKaMH, h3bhihhmh 
MeHH y MeHH 3a ciihhoio. 

BnocjieacTBHH, b 1920 roay, b Pocchh, MHe paccKa3biBaa Jlnr- 
ckhh, KaK c aepeBa 'mrnaabiBajiH k HeMy b KOMHaTy; h KaK oh, no- 
aoftaa k oKHy, HaicpbiJi iunHKa: uinHK, cnpbirayB c aepeBa, nycTHaca b 
6ercTBO. 

B 3th ahh npoH30iuea pa3roBop Meacay mhokj h riouuo, Kor- 
aa mw B^BoeM npoBoaHaH BpeMa Ha eaxme npH «Bau». riouuo cxa- 
3an MHe: 

— «Eopa, — Haao 6epeib aeBoneK» — «deeo<iKOMU» Ha3MBaa 
oh HaTauiy h Ack) — «KaKOft-TO aypHOH raa3 hx rna3HT». 

— «A HTO?» 

M TyT riouuo CTaji MHe paccKa3biBaTb o paae cbohx Ha6juoaeHHH 
Haa oKpecTHocTbio BHnnbi «Sans Souci», rae riouuo »Hnn; bmhchh- 
jiocb, hto KaKHe-TO BecbMa noao3pHTeabHbie He3HaKOMUbi Kpy«HJiH 
BOKpyr, HHTepecyacb HaTauiefl; no caoBaM riouuo Bbixoauno, hto 
sto He npocTbie uinHKH, a noHHiue. MHe OTaaaocb cjihuikom 3HaKo- 
Moe h TaHMoe: 

— «OhuI» 

Hiojib OKaHMHBajicn He TOjibKO yHbmo, ho h TpeBO^Ho; TpeBora 
nepexoflHJia b rycTofl Mpax! 

PnxTepa 6pajiu Ha BoflHy; oh c rpycTbio npomaaca c HaMH h Bee 
npHCTaBaa k Ace, HTo6bi OHa coraacnaacb npHHHTb 3aBeaoBaHHe CTe- 
KoabHoft MacTepcKoft H3 pyK b pyKH, noTOMy hto CeaneuKHft, Bbinn- 
caHHwfl PnxTepoM, Boo6pa3Hn ce6a reHHeM h KaaeHHT pncyHKH aoK- 
Topa; KpoMe Toro: CeaaeuKHft no ero cjioBaM OKa3aaca noao3pHTenb- 
hwm HHTpHraHOM. Aoktop He MO*eT BMeuiaTbCH h ne donycmuntb 
CeaaeuKoro ao 3aBeaoBaHHa; H3 HaMeKOB PnxTepa Bbixoanao, 6yaTo 



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flOKTop HHHero He HMeeT npoTHB Toro, mto Ach B03bMeTCH 3a 3aBe- 
aoBaHHe. 

Ack) nyranH hhtphth, OTBeTCTBeHHOCTb h HeonwTHocTb ee: 3a 
CeflJieuKHMH — Bee npaBa: CTapuiHHCTBO ner, hmh «xydoncHUKa» 
CeftiieuKoro, caH «npedcedame/ibHuifbi no/ibCKoii ceKifuu» ero weHbi; 
h noflaep*HBaji Acio b peuieHHH He 6paTbca 3a CTewia. PHXTep 
c Aocaaofi Maxaji pyxaMH: 

— «nycT«KH: fleno HaeT cnaceHHH pncyHKOB aoKTopa; b Bauieft 
HeonMTHOCTH BaM noMoryT A iuua» — Tax 3Ban oh ee — « b cymHOCTH 
6yaeT 3aBeflOBaTb Becb kojijickthb, a bw nHuib <J)opMajibHO B03rnaB- 
nxTb: aaao He n&Tb CezuieuKHM MacTepcKofi». 

Ach Bee *e oTxasanacb. 

C rpycTbio npomarracb c PHxrepoM: Bbi6biBan m Hameft (j>ajraH- 
th «dpye», 3aTainHBiiiHH Hac aoaa; «dpy3b*» — Bbi6biBajiH; «epaeu» 
— KaK HapoiHo — CTHrHBanHCb: H3 (JipaHuy3CKoft IIlBeftuapHH, H3 Tep- 
MaHHu! Haa ilopHaxoM HOCHjiHCb TynH. rionHTHHecKoe nojioHceHHe 
Hanpxranocb; npopwB pyccxoro (J>poHTa, 6ercTBO pyccKHX, nouHbifl 
pa3rpoM apMHH acyTbio OTflaBanca b Moeft jryme, h6o h npoaojiHcari 
roBopHTb «wem» boHhc; h 3to Moe «Hem» tohho nporaTbiBanocb 
KeM-To; c poctom pyccKHX nopaaceHHH poena nenaeucmb, 6pocaeMa« 
Ha MeHH H3 rjia3 uiBeHuapo-<i>paHu.y3CKOH napTHH; KjieBpeTW JleBH h 
IIlK)p3, pacnpocTpaHHBiiiHe cnneTHH o tom, mto b /JopHaxe Bbipaum- 
BaeTCH pyccKHfl, npeaaTejib CBoero oTenecTBa, iuhmphjih no HopHa- 
xy; He ocMejiHBaacb otkpmto BbiCTynaTb npoTHB aoKTopa, uiHnenH 
«.zepMaHO0UAbcmeo» MapHH ^KOBJieBHbi; BbixoflHjio: 6jiHacaHuiHtt k 
aoKTopy HenoBtK pa3BoaHT b JJopHaxe «u4/iuoHoe»; «iunuoH» — 
h, xoahji, KaK onjieBaHHtift; caMan moh j«o6oBb k AOKTopy yjinnajia 
MeHH, KaK pyccKoro, b rjia3ax hhmx... anrnponoco^oe (?.'). Ebi/ra 
TaKHe! CpeflH hhx — <J>HTHHro<}), «cyufecmeo», on«Tb noHarxieBiuee, 
CeaneincHe, y3HaBHiHe o HaMepeHHH PnxTepa OTxiaTb Ace MacTepcKyK) 
h B^BOHHe B03HeHaBHfleBiiiHe Hac 3a 3to, 3ay3pBeftH h pw HaexaBiiiHx 
(J)paHuy3CKHx uiBeftuapuen. 

Ho cTpaHHo; c poctom «yi/omou» HenaBHCTH ko MHe co ctopohw 
aHTponocoifroB-aHttWHmHCTMoa yBenHHHBanacb h HeHaBHCTb ko MHe h 
««eMi/e«»-uioBHHHCTOB; b «HeMei4Koii» napTHH Bojib<i>paM, HnpcxaH 
h apyrHe HeHaBHaejiH MeHH, KaK «pyccxoeo», KOToporo 6anyeT aok- 
Top, h (omo pyccxM, frau Doktor». 

npoTHB nocjieflHett y*e HaMHHajica OTKpbiTbitt 6yHT; h aoktop, 
OTpaxan ero, Bee rpo3Hee h rpo3Hee rpeMen Ha Jieximax. 

JlonHyjIO HeCKOJIbKO rpH3HbIX HCTOpHft, BCKpblBajICH 3MeHHblfl KO- 
MOK CII/ieTeH; BMHCHHJIOCb OTKpblTO, 1TO IIInpeHre^b, COeflHHHBIIIHCb 

c TfiuieM, o6t>hbhhh aoKTopa nyTb He qepHbiM MaroM; ywe ohh Bbim- 
jih H3 O-Ba, ho hchjih b flopHaxe h ceflJiH b HeM, cpeaH aHTponoco^oB 

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h HeaHTponoco(J)OB rycrbie, TeMHbie JiereHflbi. HapcxaH, UlTpayc h 
6pa3HJiHHCxa* HeMKa (3a6bi.fi $aMHJiHio) otxpmto noBejiH xaMnamiio 
npoTHB flOKTopa. CaMH rpocxaftHUbi aepxcanHCb ot « Villa Hansi» b 
ctopohc 

OTOBCKDfly, xax KopmyHu Ha naaaiib, cbe3>xajiHCb xpumuKaHbi, 
npHexaBuiHe KOHTpojiHpoBaTb «cmpaHHbie» aeftcTBHJi aopHaxcxoro 
CoBCTa, paGoTaBiuero c aoxtopom, h yjinnaTb «JJopHaxcKyio ceo- 
/iOHb» (Tax Ha3biBaiiH rpynny cTpoHTenefi) b 6oreMe, pacnyTHOCTH, 
xoTopofl... He 6biJio. 

Co3flaBajiocb Bne<iaTJieHHe: Han Eay3poM, aoxTopoM, Mapneft 

^KOBJieBHOH, IIlTHHfle H MOJIOfle*bK), KOTOpyK) nOJIK)6HJl JIOXTOp, co- 

6Hpancfl «Cyd». 

BcTaBana CTpaHHa« xapTHHa. £oxTopa He CMe™ TporaTb, ho 
HeMou ponom. HenoHHMaHHx ero fleftcTBHft oxpyacan ero; Mapnio 
^xoB^eBHy oxpy>xaro xaribuo H3 umnamcil otkpwtoh x^eBeTbi, b 
xoTopoft HeMeiiKHe cyMacuieauiHe tctxh, xaHaHflaTXH Ha ee mccto 
npH aoxTope (TaxHX oxa3ajiocb Bnpyr /jcchtkh) noaaBaiiH pyxy an- 
maHmucmcKou napTHH, otxpwto HaawBaiomefi ee qyTb ;ih He npeaa- 
TenbHHiten; x 3TOMy npHcoeflHHH^HCb CTpaHHbie ncuxuuecKue saoone- 
BaHHH cpeflH 6e3pa6oTHwx 6e3aenbHHu, oxpy^aBiunx «Bau» h MeiuaB- 
uihx HaM; CKa3MBanacb HbH-To TeMHaa npoBoxaiuui. 

Becb 3tot BHyTpeHHHH ad, bckpubuihhch b 06mecTBe, 6bi/i 06- 
jioxceH uinnxaMH Bcex xoHTp-pa3Beaox h tcmhmx chji, qbH areHTbi 
CHflejiH b 06mecTBe, cpean Hac, cya hocw bo Bee XBapTHpw; npona- 
aajiH «i4UK/ibi» co CTOJia; He3yHTbi BbixpaflbiBajiH MaTepnarabi hh- 
thmhmx JieKUHtt HyTb jih He H3 3anepTbix cyHayxoB. 

B STofi «o6cmaHoeKe» aoxtop o6i>5ibhji, hto k TaxoMy-To qncny 
aBrycTa Manbiu Kynon aojDKCH 6biTb caaH HHaceHepy 3HrjiepTy. 3b- 
Phtmhctxh cneuiHO peneTHpoBajiH 3axjno«iHTenbHyio cueny hs 4>ayc- 
Ta, HeHaBHflHMbie poeM SecHOBaTbix TeTox, 3aBH,aoBaBiiiHx hm h pac- 

npOCTpaHHBIUHX O HHX THyCHbie cnjieTHH. 

Tax yxcacHo xoHnancH mojib: asrycT He npeaBeiuan HHHero xopo- 
iuero: hh b xaxoM othouichhh. 

B Hiojie * caan aoxTopy mok> pyxonHCb; oHa nocTymma Ha ero 
npocMOTp. 

MapHx .HxoBJieBHa, bctpcthb mchh nepea aomom h nporyjiH- 
Bajicb co mhok) no iiopoxcxe, co crpaHHofl ycMeuixoft cxa3ana: «ila, 
— pa3JiaraeTC» jiHHHajt >KH3Hb». 

MHe OTflanocb: nBaiua nwm&i x(H3Hb». 

r H dyiua pBaHyjiacb b npoTecTe: «OHa tohho H3fleBaeTc« Hano 
mhok>». 

Eyayra o6mecTBeHHO 3a nee npoTHB xneBeT, Ha Hee bosboahmmx, 
jihhho s Ha Bcex napax yxoaan ot Hee; 6biaoro eocmopxeHHoeo ot- 

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HouieHHs He 6ujio h noMHHy; h Bee 6onee h 6ojiee mchh TaHyno k 
Eayjpy. 

R BHflexi, mto Ach y*e npocTo b xaxoM-TO rHrmoTHHecxoM noa- 
MHHeHHH y M.R.; 3to noflHHHeHHe 6e3B03BpaTHO OTpwBano mchh ot 
Ach; k Eayjpy nocjieflHHH OTHocHJiacb xojioaho. 

Tpane3HHKOB MHe cxa3aji: «AHHa AnexceeBHa, — yaHBHTCJibHO 
xonoflHan HaTypa». 

T.A. BepreHrpioH B03Mymanacb, rjiHflg Ha mchh: <<Beflb bm *e b 
Pocchh — hmh: bo hto Bac npeepamunu 3flecb». OHa pa3y\iena otho- 
meHHe MHorHx HeMueB ko MHe, xax k «eaxmepy» ByraeBy, h tot $axT, 
hto b cyiiwocTH «deeuoHKa» (Ach) mchh paccMaTpHBaeT, xax Tyijwiio 
cbok), KOTopyio hjih HaaeBaioT, hjih cTaBHT... ce6e noa nocrejib. 

— «Bw BUKa3anH yflHBHTejibHyio cxpoMHocTb, rpaHHHamyio c ca- 
MoyHH4H5KeHHeM. Bbi aocTOHHbi orpoMHoro yBa*eHH«». 

Ho mchh... ne yeaxcaau; CKopeii, — npe3upanu: h noMa, h Ha 

XOJIMe, H B KaHTHHe KO MHe CKOpefl OTHOCHJIHCb npe3pHTejn>Ho. 

O tom, hto h Hanncan TpyaHeftmyio KHHry b 3aiHHTy aoxTopa h 
npoH3Bea rHraHTcxyio pa6oTy Han TexcTaMH, He TOJibxo He roBopanH, 
ho Hao6opoT: 6yaTo HapoiHo 3aMajiHHBajiH, HTo6bi... He... B03rop- 

OTJICH. 

y* xaxan TaM ropaocTb, xoraa... rpo3HJiH... npucmpenumb, kok 
codaKy. 



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Editorial board: Jean Bonamour, Elda Garetto, John Malms tad, 
Richard Pipes, Marc Raeff, Dmitri Segal 

Editor: Vladimir Alloy 



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MCTOPMHECKM^I A/lbMAHAX 

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OTKPblTOE OBLUECTBO 
OEHUKC 

MOCKBA 
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AH£PEft EEJlblft M AHTPOnOCCXDHfl* 

FIy6nHKauHa .II.Hc.MajibMCTa.aa 



Aeeycm 1915 eoda. 

5i noa6Hpaiocb k TpyaHefiiueMy MOMeHTy: aBrycT 1915 rona, no- 
>Kajiyfl, ocTpHe Moett xch3hh, ho — ocTpne TparHHecicoe; no BceM 
aaHHbiM co3HaHHH 3aiuiK>HaK>: BCTpena co CmpaoKeM nopoea y mchh 
6bina. Ho ecjiH 6biJia, to 6bijia b nepHOfle ot JleHramra ao orbe3fla 
b Pocchio b 1916 rofly. B hhthmhoh jickuhh aoKTopa BCTpena c no- 
poeoM (c ManbiM noporoM) HMeeT 3 KyjibMHHauHOHHbie tohkh: nep- 
Ba» — BCTpeia c aHrenbCKHM cymecTBOM h nepe*HBaHHe CMepTH; 
HecoMHeHHo: ecmpena, ecxtH 6bina, to 6bina ot XpHCTHaHHH no JXop- 
Haxa; nepe*HBaHHe cinepTH, ecjiH 6buio, to oceHbio 1914 rona, Korna 
b npnnanicax HeBpo3a a yMupa/i; c Jleftniwra noflKpaawBajiocb co3Ha- 
HHe, hto Mory 3a6ojieTb h yMepeTb; 3to cnynunocb c Komia ceHTH6pj» 
1914-ro h fljiHJiocb Becb oKT»6pb. BTopott aKT nopora noKTop Ha3bi- 
BaeT ecmpeneu co /ibeoM, Kaic co CTpauiHofl xcemmiHOH, KOTopyio 
HyacHO noKopumb, KOTopaa rpo3HT rH6enbK>. Ecrra Taxan BCTpeia 6w- 
jia, to OHa 6buia b anpejie 1915 rona; h nnmiacb Bee BpeMfl. 

TpeTHtt MOMeHT nopora aoKTop HaswBaeT BCTpeneft cflpaicoHOM, 
Koraa noHBjiaeTCH ey6xufuu epae; y*e Teina epaea cTOjma Hano mhoh 
Becb Mafl, HK)Hb, Hiojib. B aBrycTe 1915 rona Bee, hto h omyman, KaK 
epaxecKoe, — coenHHHJiocb win mchh b oahh apKHfl, ocTpbili momcht, 
cnneTHCb b mu0, icaic 6m pasBepHyTbifi nepeno mhokd; h sto pa3birpa- 
jiocb b aeeycme. Ho BMecTe c tcm: h Bee CBeTjiwe mh™ nocBHmeHHH, 



• OKOHnaHHe pyKonHCH A.Bejioro MATEPHASI K EHOrPA0HH (HHTHM- 
Hblft). Hanaro h npoaojixcemie ny6jiHKamm cm. b iuecTOM h boci>mom TOMax 
«MHHyBiuero». 



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MepuaBiUHe MHe b 13 h 14-om roaax (XpHCTHaHHx-EepreH-JleitnuHr- 

BepJlHH) C HX MHffraMH, MblCJIHMH, nepOKHBaHbJlMH, CHaMH, COeflHHH- 

jiHCb b HOByio eapuaifUKt TeMbi nocBHmeHHa; b nora6ejibHbie nnx mc- 
hh MHHyTw Qnecnyji hpkhh cbct Haao mhokj; oh-to h cnac MeH* ot 
rH6enH. 

Heo6bmaiiHafl TpyflHOCTb xocHyTbca MHe aBrycTa 1915 roaa b 

TOM, HTO rOBOpfl O flHHX 5KH3HH, fl BHXCy KaXCflblH fleHb OKpailieHHbIM 

He CBeTOM hjih TbMofl, a Kax 6bi BHxcy ero b npoTHBopeHHBefluiHX, Bce- 
raa noTpxcaioumx Bcnbiiuxax cBera a TbMbi, yxaca h paflocTH, HH30- 
cth h Bbicoxoro 6jiaropoacTBa; «.#» ctoht nep&ao mhok> Becb aBrycT 
AByjiHKo: HH3iuee <cs» o6HaxeHO no caMbix rHycHbix KopHeft cbohx; 
Bbiciuee «.#» noMHMO Bcero cBepmaeT HexHft axT b HeKoeM chmbojih- 
necKOM aeftCTBHH. To, hto ctohjio, xaK aojir («MHe Hano ceeptuumb»), 
b aBrycTe h ceepuiun; ho caMoe cTpaHHoe, nyraiomee mchh, b tom, hto 
h He 3Haio, hto h CBepuiHJi: a cBepmaji HexHft nocTynox, KOTopbifl 
pa3birpbiBancs( b mohx rny6HHax Tax: a b chmbojihhccxom o6paae 
cnaMbiBaio rnapy bohhh; a y6HBaio caMoro apaxoHa bohhu, una Ty 
rocyaapcTBeHHocTb, xoTopaa BW3Bana BofiHy co bccmh ee mnHxaMH, 
co BceMH ee tcmhmmh TaftHbiMH opraHH3auH»MH bo hmh 2-ro ripH- 
uiecTBHH h HeBeaoMbix MHe 4>opM jikj6bh h 6paTCTBa HapoflOB; ot 
npaBHJibHoro BbinojraeHHa o6paaa 3aBHCHT caMaa cyab6a mhpoboh 
HCTOpHH, h6o o6p«fl — cBeTJio MarHMecKHfl o6pjw. TeMHbie chjim b 
Ahh o6pana o6cTynaioT mchh, hto6m nory6HTb: ohh pa6oTaiOT Haa 
TeM, hto6m o6paa cBepuieH He 6mji; jiioTa hx HeHaBHCTb; oxojio mchh 
pbimeT Bpar, hto6 yHHHTOHCHTb; nepeao mhoh pa3Bep3aK>Tca Bee 6e3- 

flHM, HO H 3aKpWT OT TbMbi KOJIbUOM CBeTJIMX CHJIJ flOKTOp MCHH Ha- 

kpmji cbohm pbiuapcKHM ruiawoM h aan MHe Men; ot jiio6oh oiijioiii- 

HOCTH C MOeft CTOpOHbl H CO CTOpOHbl OXpaHHJOLUJHX MeHH H MOry HO- 

rn6HyTb h npaxoM paccbineTca a jihhhh hctophm to, neMy b aaHHbiit 
3Tan cBepuiHTbCH 6oamho. 

Tax 3to Bee pa3birpbiBaeTca bo MHe b aBrycTe. 

y*ac Moit b tom, hto a He 3HaK), npaBHjibHO jih a nponeji MUC- 
cuio, MHe nopyneHHyK); Taxne mhcchh He aaiOT b cjiOBax, ho aaioT b 
3HaKax, xoTopwe Haao He TOJibxo yBHfleTb, ho h nponecTb; He TOJibxo 
nponecTb, ho h nocTynnTb coo6pa3HO c npoHTeHHbiM b pHTMe h b 
TaxTe; TyT y*e anenjiMpyeuib He x HMarHHaium, a x HHcnnpauHH; 
h nocxo/ibxy npoHTeHHe HHcimpauHH 3aBHCHT ot npaBHJibHoro h3»ch- 
BaHHH xapMHHecxHX MOMeHTOB, to nap/ma noaB/iaeTca nepea to6oh 
Tax, hto OHa B HexoeM HHcnnpaTHBHOM ueHTpe iinacTHHHa, xax bock; 
OHa nocnyuiHO BWJienHT Te6e TBoe 6yaywee b nojiHOM cootbctctbhh 
c npoB&neHHbiM to6oh nocTynxoM; ecjin oh b purwxe, 6yaymee — 
pa3birpaeT b Te6e stot phtm; ecjiH b pHTMe ae4>eKT, — oh c *eJie3Hoft 

Heo6xOflHMOCTbK) BblHBHTCfl B 6yayiUHX TOflHHaX h b jihhhom, h b co- 



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unanbHOM. HaxoHeu: nocicoabKy caMbie KapTHHw KapMw npouiaou h 
3Tofl, KapMbi nocmynKa, npaBHJibHO npoHTeHHoro, cnneTeHbi y3JiOM b 
peiuawmeM MOMeHTe *h3hh, Tax cica3aTb, nepeBajibHOM, — yBHfleH- 
Hbift y3ea b nHKe ueaoro ecTb CTpaac nopora. 

Bch cHTyauH« Moefl hch3hh b aBrycTe 1915 roaa TaKOBa, hto OHa 
npoiHTbiBaeMa MHe H3 1928 roaa, KaK CHTyauHH nepeBajibHoro noflb- 
eMa ot ymeaHfl npoiiuibix jieT nepe3 naocicoropbH 6jiH»cattuiHX, npe3 

KPH3K rOflHH 1912-1915, K MOMeHTy, 3a KOTOPWM — OdpbIB B HeH3BeCT- 
HOCTb, H6o HeH3BeCTHOCTb BWHBHTCH H3BeCTHOCTbK) JIHUlb B aaHHHOH 

BepeHHue 6yaymHx JieT; ho 3to 6yaymee b ahh nocmynKa — b tbo- 
hx pyicax: Te6e 6pomeHW KapMoio bohokh, kotopwmh th ynpaBJiaeuib 

KOHHMH 5KH3HH. 

Bee 3TO pa3birpwBajiocb b nepe*HBaHHHX c Moryneft, Heno6eaH- 
moh cHjioft b ahh aBrycTa 1915 roaa; nepe*HBaHHH 3acnoHHJiH a6cT- 
paKTHO npoHHTbiBaeMbie nncbMeHa; Bee nponHTWBaaocb b 6e366pa3- 

HWX, HHCnHpaTHBHWX pHTMaXJ H TOTHaC »Ce CTa[HO]BHJIOCb o6pa3aMU, 

ho He o6pa3aMH $aHTa3HH, a o6pa3aMH Tax-To nepea to6oh cTOHiuefl 
CHTyauHH BHeuiHHx co6wthh, H3 KOTopwx Kaacaoe, He pa3puBaH BHe- 
uiHeH npH«mHHOCTH, ctohjio nepea to6oh CBoeio rpoMaflHOK) ray6n- 
hok). rionbiTaiocb nepeaaTb sto omymeHHe Tax: tw Hrpaeuib b uiax- 
MaTbi c CH^bHbiM HrpoKOM; nepea to6ok> uiaxMaTHaa aocKa; caenaan 
max TBoeMy Kopojiio; ot 6jiHJKaHiiiHX aByx-Tpex xoaob 3aBHCHT: npe- 
BpaTHTCH nu max TBoeMy Kopoaio b Mam hhh, Hao6opoT, tw, BWBep- 
HyBmHCb, yBHflHmb npowiax npOTHBHHKa h b cboio onepeab caeaaeuib 
eMy MaT; o6pa3 CHTyauHH (J)Hryp apico OTnenaTJieeTca nepea to6ok>. 
Tenepb npeacTaBb, hto uepox b uiaxMaTw — Kopojib, ctohiuhh Ha 
maxMaTHOfl aocice, Ha KOTOporo HanaaH co Bcex ctopoh; sto jihh- 
HOCTb Bopnca Byraesa b aopnaxcKofi CHTyauHH c TaKHMH-TO Tpare- 
aHHMH h c TaKofl-To MHCCHefl coiraaabHoft, — HanpHMep: b MaaoM 
Kynoae «remeaHyMa» b TaKOfl-TO aeHb npoH3BecTH CTaMecKOft 6op03- 
ay Ha apxHTpase; ot npaBHJibHoro HaH HenpaBHabHoro npoBeaeHHfl 
6opo3abi 3aBHCHT no6eaa nan rH6eab Bcero nHoanHoea 3danuji», 
KOTopoe jiHuib cHMBoa Syaymeft KynbTypw hkjSbh b 6paTCTBe neao- 
BenecTBa; Beab npaBHabHaa 6opo3aa, ecan OHa cbctho MarHHHa, — 
no6eaa; ecaH 6opo3aa HenpaBHabHa, rH6eab — KyabType h rH6eab 
Te6e. H bot Te6« noa pyxy nyraioT KapTHHoio yacacHeainHx Hanaae- 
hhh Ha Te6«, yrpoacaiomHx Te6e CMepTwo; tw — ({wrypa KOpoaa, 
KOTopoviy caeaaaH wax; hto6w BWBepHyTbCH, tw aoaaceH 3a6wTb 
cboio aHHHOCTb, npeoaoaeTb cTpax, yBHaeTb ce6$i aepeBHHHofi <})Hry- 
poK> BHe ce6«, bwhth h3 (Jwrypw h cTaTb BHe ee anmb maxMaTHWM 
HrpoKOM: tboh cyab6a, cyab6a 6yaymero, flopHaxa, MHpoBaa BottHa, 
«remeaHyM», aa*e caM aoKTop b hcm, — (JwrypicH, He 6oaee: (Jmry- 
Pkh, kotopwmh tw 3amHmaefflbCJi: 6eawe; a yacacw, BparH, — aHuib 

411 



HepHbie neuiKH, nepHan aaina h qepHwft Koporib, HanaaaiomHe Ha Te6«; 
Tw OTpa3Hiub hx jiHuib npeacTaBjieHHeM, hto ohh aepeBHHHwe (Jmryp- 

KH Ha HiaXMaTHOH flOCKC 

Tax 6bi a swpa3HJi omyweHHe ce6» b aeeycme b ami Moero xoda, 
o6ayMbiBaHHe KOToporo — He mwcjih, a nocrynKH, npoBeaeHHwe b 
jKecTe to6oh ycjiwuiaHHoro pHTMa; a nepea sthm o6ayMWBaHHeM h 
3acTaio ce6a b coctohhhh co3HaHHH yacaca: Ha Te6a HanaaaeT nepHbiu 
xoponb CBoefl nepHou daMou h npoHHMH (JmrypaMH: nepHbwu o(J)Hu,e- 
paMH h paflOM nephbix neuieK. Tbi — o6cTaH nepnbiMu, a aoKTOp He 
3amnmaeT: OTCTynHjica; tw aoaxceH 3amHTHTbCH caivi, h6o cydb6a 
tboh Te6e OTaaHa b pyKH. 

C anpenx no aBrycTa a BHaea onpeaeaeHHO xoa nepnou daMbi Ha 
MeHfl, ho He 6wno KapTHHbi, Bflpyr OTKpwBiueftcs b aBrycTe, b Hanaae 
ero: xapTHHa 3Ta: nepHcm da\ta h nepnbie neuiKU (HanpHMep, 3HHoro 
poaa mnHKH) He cBH3WBanHCb eme c Taicofi: OTHeTaHBOCTbio b nepnyto 
napmuto, KOTopyio Tbi JiHuib npeanoaaran, ho He ao KOHua BHaea. 
Bapyr 3a nepnou daMou h neuiKaMH nonBHacH pun oneHb KpynHWX 
hobux <Jmryp: octmuepw, Typw, kohh; h Bee — nepnbie; h 3a bccmh 
hhmh Ha ropH30HTe noHBHncH: caM nephbiu xopo/ib. 

Oco3HaHHe, hto sto nHmb napmuH tuaxMam, — Bwxoa H3 HecTep- 
nHMOro noJioaceHHfl h co3HaHHe, hto ecjiH tw Tax He OTHeceiubca ko 
BceMy poK) yacacoB, to tw norH6Heuib; Taic hhcthhkt caMocoxpaHe- 
hhh floJi*eH Te6e noacxa3aTb; rae-TO tw 3HaeiHb, hto caMwfl mh<J> o 
napmuu uiaxMam anuib cnacHTeabHwfi noxpoB Haa 6e3flHOft aeftcTBH- 

TejlbHOCTH; HO nOKpOB 3T0T H eCTb TBOft KOBep-caMOJieT: npojieTeTb 

Haa co6cTBeHHott rH6ejibio h rH6eJibio CBeTjioro aeaa, KaK Haa... 
napmueu e uiaxMambi c kcm-to. B stom roaoBOKpyacHTeabHOM B3Jie- 

Te Hafl JIHMHOCTbK) HJIH BWHyHCfleHHOM B3JieTe Haa «eu6Hyu4UM», — 

nepBoe omymeHHe noMoum; b MHHyTbi 6e3yMHwx aeficTBHft, npoaHK- 
TOBaHHbix yxcacoM, BHyTpn hhx Te6e bckpoiotch h ocaenHTeabHwe 
MOMeHTW noMoufu, OTpaacaiomHe ot Te6« rH6eab; b cxBaTKax hx h 
npoTeneT tboh chmbojihhcckhh, KapMHHecKHH aKT, rae aboRhhk, 
CTpaxc Ilopora, Bparn h apy3b«-oxpaHHTeaH h 6yayT aeftcTBOBaTb 
b HcecTHKyjHmHOHHwx (J)Hrypax HMarHHauHH, Tax cxa3aTb, BnncaH- 
hwx b caMoe o6cTaHHe aopHaxcKoro 6wTa no nocaeaHHx nycTHKOB 
3Toro 6wTa. 

Oco3HaHHe napTHH (cxBaTOK nepnux c 6e/ibiMu) — BTopan nojio- 
BHHa aBrycTa, oxpaiueHHax: 1) OKOHHaHHeM pa6oT noa MajiwM Kyno- 
noti, 2) nocTaHOBKOio nocaeaHefi cueHW «<Paycma», b kotopoh onn- 
caHO, Kax anee/ibi, BwpBaB «0aycma» H3 KorTeft cMepTH, npHHecjiH 
ero b He6o, 3) B3pwB cKaHaaaoB b flopHaxe h Hanaao hhctkh aBrneBbix 
KOHiomeH. IlepBax nojiOBHHa aBrycTa — ahkhA yacac ot co3HaHHx, 



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hto tw — nonf6; th — b KorTax HopTa; Te6e — HeT cnaceHHa; h bot 
yace noaBHJiHCb BOKpyr Te6a y6Hftubi, ry6HTenH, KaeBeTHHKH, onaeBbi- 
BaiomHe h 3aymaiomHe Te6a. 

06pa3HO roBOpa: b nepBOft noaoBHHe aBrycTa, a, acaaicaa aepe- 
BHHHafl (JmrypKa 6enozo xopoaa, nocTaBjieHHaa Ha uiaxMaTHofl aocice 
pyKofl Koro-To (He aoicropa jih?) omyTHji max h MaT ce6e: HrpoK 
npoTHBHOfl napTHH — y6Hji MeHa; He 6biao aaace omymeHHH, hto 
3to max Kopojiio; 6biao omymeHHe: Mam, mam, Mam — BonpeKH BceM 
ycHJiHHM; h noHTH Bonjib Ha Toro, kto mhoh HrpaeT: «Mto ace 3to 
oh npQHrpaji mchh!» 

Bee to, hto a roBopio, ecTb, Tax CKa3aTb, jiHiiib BHyTpeHHHft (J)oh, 
Ha kotopom MHe BH^ejiHCb: 1) UMaeunaifuu Moero co3HaHHa, 2) aeft- 
CTBHTejibHbie tfaicmbi, cmwcji kotopmx, 3dpaebtii CMbicn, MHe h no 
CHK3 nopy HenoHHTen; h a Bbmy>KaeH hx HHTaTb b chmbojihhcckom 
CMbicne, HTo6w ohh He BbirjiaaenH cnaouiHoio a6paKaaa6poK). 

A6paKaaa6pa, ho reHHaabHaa — Taic onpeaeann 6bi a Kjiy6oK 
npoTHBopenHH, KOTopuH Bocpbiaca Ha aHe, hjih BepHeft b 6e3dne Moefi 
ayuiH. Ho b 3toh 6e3aHe, Haa kotopoh HMarHHauHH naean MHe moh 
Koeep-caMonem, a pa3aHHaio aBe rpynnbi aBneHHH He dymeenbix; a 
pa3JiHHaio to, hto b TeneHHe 12 aeT cToajio nepeao mhoio, KaK KapTH- 
Ha BOcnoMHHaHHH, Koraa a aymeBHo Bbijie3 H3 a6paicaaa6pbi, OKa3aa- 
ca y»e 3a npeaenoM ee, — BHe AopHaxa, aoKTopa, Eayspa, «cyme- 
cmea», nepHbix (jwryp, Ach, HaTaiiiH h nponnx nepcoHaaceH mohx 
nyTaHHbix mh(J)ob; cKB03b hhx b 12-jicthh mohx Tpe3Bbix ayxoBHO- 
HayHHbix ayM 06 aBrycTe 1915 roaa BbinenaTaaocb 1) 6biao H3>KHBa- 
HHe npouiJioft KapMbi, 2) 6bijia BCTpena c CTpaaceM nopora, 3) 6biJia 
noBoneHa KapMa Bcex 6yaymHx jieT, BKJiioHaiomaa KH3Hb b Pocchh, 
«nem» JXopnaxy, pa3pbiB c Aceft h t.jx. 

CKB03b ayuieBHyK) a6paKaaa6py 6bina npoaepHyTa MbicJib or- 
poMHaa: Mbicjib ayxoBHbix mhcJ)ob; ayuieBHaa a6paicaaa6pa 6biaa abi- 

MOM MOeft flyiUeBHOCTH, HeH3>KHTOCTH, B MOMeHT, KOrfla MO/lHbeH 

ynano hchto b raa3a moh H3 c(j)epbi Jlyxa, h6o rjia3a moh b sth mm 

HHOH pa3 6bIBajlH MOaHbaMH, BblXBaTblBaiOIUHMHCa H3 MeHa H MHe 

03apaBuiHMH mo, k neMy y MeHa eme He 6biao pa3yMeHHa: n eu- 
de/i h Koe b neM nocmyna/i Myapee, HeM 3to Bee OTaaBajiocb MHe b 
CMaTeHHOM paccyaKe. 

M — KpoMe Bcero: ayuieBHaa a6paicaaa6pa Beab cTponaacb Ha 
4>aKTax SMnnpHHecKOH, BHeuiHeft aettCTBHTeibHOCTH, KOTopyio a pa3- 
raaabiBaa npHCTaabHo; h hhcto BHeuiHe a aynme BHaea b 3th poko- 
Bbie aHH; a 6wa Ha6aioaaTeabHee, neM o6biHHo; Bca Moa nncaTeab- 
CKaa Ha6aioaaTenbHocTb 6biaa Mo6HJiH3HpoBaHa. 

KpoMe Toro: 6biaH o6i>eKTHBHbie (JmicTbi, OTpnuaTb KOTopwe npn 
BceM weaaHHH Heab3a, h6o ohh — aH6o (J)aKTbi hctophh BOftHbi, an6o 



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4>aKTM HCTOpHH «A.O.». B aBrycTe coGmthh BOCTOHHoro (JjpoHTa 
noiu/m BOHCTHHy 6eiueHbiM TeMnoM; hcmcukhh $doht Heccs Brny6b 
Pocchh; pyccKHe OTCTynajiH b naHH<iecKOM 6ecnop«aKe: naaaan — 
BapuiaBa, HBaHropoa, Bpecr; co nun Ha netib xcaanH naaeHH« Mhh- 
cKa; cynb6bi Pocchh bhcchh Ha BOJiocxe: BbixoaHTb H3 bohhm, peTH- 
poBaTb apMHH Brny6b crpaHu, npecetb HacTymieHHe HevmeB? Ilo3fl- 
Hee cTa6iuiH3HpoBancH boctohhwh (Jjpoht; b aBrycTe oh coBepiueHHo 
pacnjiaBHJica; xa3ajiocb, hto Pocchh H3 bohhu Bbi6biaa; h pyccKHe, 

H HeMUbl He MOrjIH He 6bITb B3BHHHCHHWMH 3THM yCKOpeHHeM BOeH- 

Horo TeMna; nocxojibKO TeMa eounbt BnneTeHa b moh HMarHHauHH 
aBrycTa, a OTMenaK) sth (trnxTu; b caMOM acne: He h *e BwayMan, 
hto 6tiji pa3rpoM HMnepaTopcKoa apMHH. M He a BbiayMaji, hto hmch- 
ho b 3tot nepHoa HacTpoeHne cojiOTypHCKHX BJiacreH 6buio k HaM, 
aHTponoco^aM, pe3Ko OTpHuarejibHoe*; noa aaB/ieHHeM awnaHmbi, 
TpeGyiomeH, hto6m pa6oTbi b «Bau» 6hin» ocTaHOBjieHbi, b cono- 
TypHCKOM coBeTe ae6aTHpoBanca Bonpoc o 3axpbiTHH pa6oT h BbicbiJi- 
Ke aHTponocoi})OB; 3 ronoca noTOM oxasanocb 3a BMCbinxy Hac npo- 
thb 3 ronocoB npoTHB, Haiue aopnaxcKoe 6biTHe BHceno Ha BOJiocxe, 
h6o BwayMbiBajiHCb anmaHmou jiereHUbi o tom, hto HecnpocTa rae3- 

aO HCMeUKKX UinHKOB nOil (j)OpMOH HX yHaCTHJI B «A.O.» npHIOTHHOCb 

psmoM c 3anaaHbiM 4>pohtom (b IS KHJiOMeTpax); aHrjiHHCxax mhccha 
b fiepHe aenajia p«a npeacTaBaeHHft no STOMy noBoay b UlBettuapcxHfi 
Coio3HbiH CoBeT. 3to — TO>xe (J>aKT, a He HMarHHaiwa; pa3yMeeTC«: 

Mbl BCe BOJIHOBajIHCb TaKHMH (J>aKTaMH. 

H — TO»e (JiaKT hctophhcckhh b >kh3hh «A.O.» Mmchho b aBry- 
CTe Mecjiue bckpmjicji thohhhk MHornx 6yHTOB, 6ojie3Hefi, HeHopManb- 
HocTefi, no 3Toro b Mecxuax h aaxe b roAax HapbiBaBiiiHft b MoanaHHH; 
cioiia bxoaht: pa36op pjiaa oxxyjibTHbix 3a6oneBaHHH h hhuhachtob 
Ha 3toh noHBe, BnaoTb no noao3peHHx 6ojibHbiMH «memKOMu» He- 
KOTopux H3 Monoaexu b psae raaocTett, KOTopux He 6ujio; 6wno 
BcxpwTO, hto InpcxaH, IIlTpayc h 6pa3HjiHaHcxaK HeMxa ynpeflHnH 
HeHTO Bpoae cmckhoto 6iopo, cocTO«mero H3 TaxHx *e aymeBHO- 
6onbHbix, ncHxonaTO/iorHHecKHx cymecTB, 3aHHMaBiiiHxcji noarjwabi- 
saHHHMH h pacnpocTpaHeHHHMH mieBeT Ha HexoTopbix (cjiynafl c »ce- 
hhxom mile JISb) H3 aHTponocoqboB, aawe cpeaH aopHaxcxux MemaH, 
HenpHnacTHWX 06mecTBy; 3th nocjieaHHe co cjiob anniponocoffioK 
pa3£yB&jra xaeaeTbi m Taimuui hx k xaTOflHxaM, HeHaaHaeauiHM Hac 
h hhc&buihiw, nTo «Mj>copHy>o Kyny* (<*B«u») Haao paapyiiiiiTb; cpeaH 
nocnearfHx aeflcTBObajiH weayHTbi; HejynTbi HasoaHMJiH UlaeftuapHK) 
b 3th ahh; h aaxce caMbift nepHbift nana, xapaHHan JleaoxoacxHH, H3- 
6paa CBoefi pe3HaeHUHeft IIlBettuapHio b sto speMx; hockok He3yiiTOB 



* UopHax-ApjrecreflM HaxonHTcx b uiBeAnapcKOM KaHTOHe Solothurn. 
414 



Ha Hac b Te arm, — (fraKT, KaK h npne3a b £opHax nojibCKoro OKKyjib- 
THCTa JlioTOcnaBCKoro b Te »e ahh, He npHHHToro iloKropoM; JIioto- 
cnaBCKHH, npHHaaneHcaBiiiHH k KaKOMy-TO TeMHOMy oKKyjibTHOMy 
o6mecTBy, pwcKaji no Ropiiaxy h name BHaajicH c Ce&neuxHM; non- 
Top ace roBopHJi Ha jickuhhx — b Te »e ana, hto HaM Haao aep*aTbCH, 
noTOMy hto mw na eudy; mm — MHiueHb ana o6cTpejia Hac bccmh 

TattHWMH, HepHblMU 6paTCTBaMH, CpeflH KOTOpblX HHbie — OieHb H 

oqeHb MorymecTBeHHbi (He sthm jih o6cTpejiOM o6t>hchhm B3puB ok- 
KynbTHbix <anudeMuu» cpeaH aHTponocoqSoB). OTMe<t'aiof {fiaicm cjiob 
aoKTopa, noTOMy hto moh nymeBHbie bociiphiithh 3Toro BpeMeHH 
noxiHbi owymeHHeM OKKyjibTHbix npecneaoBaHHfi. 

He BbiayMKa moh h pe3Kaa aTaxa co ctopohw HecKOJibKHx 6ojib- 
Hbix «memoK» MapHH ilKOBJieBHbi, h6o 3to pa306j1aHH.no paccneao- 
BaHHe oco6oft komhcchh aHTponoco(|)OB b cewm6pe h 0Krm6pe (bo 
BpeMH pa36opa HHUH/ieHTOB); (jjaKT h to o6cTo«Te.nbCTBo, wto cie3- 
xcaBiiiHeca b GojibiuoM KOJinnecTBe b aBrycTe H3 Jlo3aHHbi h )KeHeBbi 
aHTponococJibi-aHTaHTHCTbi, pa3iipa*eHHbie ycnexaMH HeMueB, o6bh- 

HHJIH HCMeUKHX HJieHOB, pa6oTaBIUHX B /JopHaXe, B IUOBHHH3Me, H 

o6bhhh^h pyccKHX, flpyacHBiunx c HeMuaMH, b npeaaTeJibCTBe CBoero 
OTenecTBa (TyT BjieTaJio oco6eHHO mhc, KaK «/iio6uMuy» M.H.: TaKa» 
cn^eTHH xoflHJia); He BbiayMKa h orpoMHaa aeKJiapauHH a-pa Teuia 
(b 200 peMHHrT[oHOBCKHx] CTpaHHu), nocjiaHHan «A.O. » h o6bhhhb 
iuaa «AO.» h aoKTopa b psae «OKxyAbmHbix» tcmhwx fleHHHfi h b 

TOM, HTO flOKTOp CBOflHT C yMa, o6e3JIHHHBaeT BOHK) H T.fl.J IipHBO- 

ahjich cjiynaH co lllnpeHrejib, KaK HKo6bi o6MaHyTOft aoktopom. 3tot 
200-CTpaHHHHbiH (JiojiHaHT H3ynajiH h b p*iae co6paHHii o6cy>KaanH: 
KaK pearnpoBaTb Ha nocTynoK Teuia h lllnpeHrejib, npoaoji>KaBiiiHX 
»HTb b ZlopHaxe h daxe o6maTbca c phaom hjichob: rem h IIInpeH- 
rejib HMejiH pHfl TafiHbix coo6iuhhkob cpean Hac. 

COBepUieHHO 06ieKTHBHbIM (JjaKTOM 6bIJ10 H TO 06cT0HTejlbCTB0, 

hto b aBrycTe-ceHT«6pe 1915 roaa Becb 6biT aopHaxcKHX aHTpono- 
co(J)OB 6bui o6/io>KeH KonbuoM tunuoHoe Bcex CTpaH h hx Konmp- 
pa3eedKOMU, o neM OTKpbiTO HaMeKaJiH aoKTop h M.JL; MHorne b 
aBrycTe 15 roaa eme He 3HajiH b HaHBHOCTH, no KaKofl cmenemt imo 
max (h ace, c Mas, anpejiH nocTOHHHO noflHepKHBan Ace, hto 3a HaMH 
ycTaHOBjieHa cjie»Ka); BnocneacTBHH, Koraa mchh yace He 6bmo b ,Hop- 
Haxe, 3mu ffiaxmbi 6bi/iu momo ycmaHoenenbi. 

<J>aKT HecoMHeHHbifi: aoKTop b asrycTe xoah/i cpeaH Hac Mpanneu 
mynu; MpanHocTb, CTpaaaHne h noaasjieHHOCTb KaKHM-To cTpauiHbiM 
3HaHHeM 6pocajiHCb b rna3a; h Mbi xoahjih, noaaBaeHHwe 3toh ero 
MpaHHocTbio; <J>aKT: couiarocb Ha CBHaeTenefl. 

HaKOHeu, — (JmKT, HTO K flHflM oKOHnaHHH Manoro Kynona h k 
nocTaHOBKe «<I>aycTa» 6wji npHyponeH pna aejioBbix co6paHHfl; HeKoe 

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(jjaKTHiecKoe zempaAbHoe codpanue hmcjio mccto (ero Henb3fl 6biao 
o6iHBHTb ny6jiHHHO BBHny eoiiHbi: BOJoiomHe no 3aKOHy He moivih 
OTKpbiTO, ny6nHiHO 3aceaaTb BMecre); Ha sto co6paHHe hbhjtch pna 
fleneraTOB, HacTpoeHHbift cnjieTHHMH o Hac BecbMa Bpa*ae6HO, c 
uejibK) npoH3BecTH peBH3HK) jiopHaxcKHM aejiaM h 6biTy; kocbchho 
3Ta peBH3HH OTHoennacb k peBH3HH npe3HaHyvia: YHrepa, Bay3pa, 
M..H. IHTeiiHep; c npe3HAHyMOM 6wji cojiHaapeH aoKTop b Te ahh; 
KOCBeHHo: peeuweanu doKtnopa (6mjio TafiHoe HeaoBepne... u k ne- 
My), peBH30BajiH ero axoSbi noTBopcTBO MonoaeacH: aopHaxcKHft 
coBeT, npe3HflHyM 06inecTBa, aoKTop h aopHaxcKaa MOJioaeacb, — 
cocTaBHHJiH b aBrycTe MeHbuiHHCTBo: 6ojibiuHHCTBO — eapaumbi no*, 
OTOBCKwy ciexaBiiiHecH (H3 Ohhjihhahh, Abctphh, HopBerHH, IIlBe- 
uhh, Annum, rojixtaHflHH, TepMaHHH h T.a.); OHH CMOTpeJIH KOCO na 

HOC, AOpHaXUeBJ H 3THM: HenpOH3BOJIbHO KOCHJIHCb H Ha flOKTOpa. 

CoeflHHHTe Bee 3to bmcctc; h npeacTaBbTe, rpaaanna sthx He- 
npHHTHOCTefl, Ha3peBaBiuaH b Meoiuax (HHbie — b roaax), Tax cxa- 
3aTb, noa uiyMOK, e aeeycme, Kamacmpoffiimecm pa3pa3u/iacb zpoM- 
ko, KaK HeicaH aonHyBinaa Haa xojimom 6oM6a, — hmchho b npa3a- 
HHHHbie ahh: caann HaMH, pa6oTHHKaMH, Maaoro Kynoaa, pe3b6a ko- 
Toporo, no aoKTopy, HMejia orpoMHoe h CHMBOJiKHecxoe, n OKKyjibT- 
Hoe 3HaneHHe, «6o OHa roBopHjia o cynb6ax npomjibix, HacroameH 
h 6yaymHx KyjibTyp; b cb«3h HacTOHiuefl, repMaHCKOft, c 6yaymeft, 
cnaBHHCKoft, KyjibTypoio, peumnacb cyab6a 6yaymero. MamwH Kynoa 
b apxHTpaBHbix cnneTeHHHx h ebipancan smy cen3b\ caana Kynona 
e aeeycme BOJiHjiacb aoKTopoM, KaK pumMunecKuu xecm MOMenma: 
e maxou-mo dem, e maicou-mo nac Bee pa6oTbi aon>KHbi 6wjih koh- 
qHTbCH; Kynoa — caaBaaoi; Mbi — cxoannH c Hero, riepea caaiefi 
pa3birpbiBanacb mhctcphh «<Paycm», 

B 3TH no aoKTopy 6o/ibU4ue dnu b cyab6ax 06mecTBa h «reTe- 
aHyMa», — e do/ibiuue dnu, coBnaaaiomHe c 6oAbiuuMU 6hhmu hc- 
tophh BOflHbi Meacay Poccueft h repMaHHefl, h Aonny/ia 6om6q raao- 
CTeft: BHH3y noa KynoaoM. 

Ho b 3th 5Ke aHH Mw, cxpoHTeJiH Maaoro Kynojia, — Bee — 
Bflpyr oco3HajiH, TaK cKa3aTb, npoBHaeHUHanbHocTb Hanieft pe3b6w: 
h chmbojih3m pHTMHHecxoro >KecTa HaUIHX CTaMeCOK; B npOTHBO- 
Bec BceMy ranKOMy, hto HaMHHaaocb y*e noa KonoHHaMH XpaMa, b 
3ajie XpaMa (cn/ieTHH, KjieBeTw, 6opb6a napTHft), mw noaHHMaaHCb 
no jiecaM k Kynoay Haa BceM eadKUM, b npa3aHHHHbix KoeriOMax, 
3aKaHHHBa« cen3b Kynbmyp: npouuibix c 6yaymHMH. 

H — TO*e <t>aKT, a — He BbiMwcea: aoKTop noaaraji b aHHHHX 
CB«3eH KyjibTyp oco6eHHo Ba*HOK) Ty cBH3b, KOTOpaH coBnaaajia co 
CBfl3bK> KyjibTyp aaHHoro HcropHqecKoro MOMeHTa; apxHTpaB etoa 
b MaaoM Kynone 6wa apxHTpaBOM repMaHCKOft KyabTypw, a c hhm 



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pjmoM HaxoflHiuHficH apxHTpaB K/iena, Ha kotopom pa6oTajiH mw c 
Acett, H3o6paHcaji apxHTpaB cjiaBHHCKOH KyjibTypw; h *e pa6oTaji y 
Toro KycKa KJieHa, rae oh b jihhhh opHaMeHTa nepexoaHji b ew, h h 
npe^iyBCTBOBaji, hto npoMe*yTOHHbie uitphxh, KOTopue naxiaioT Ha 
jihhhk) o6ohx apxHTpaBOB, cyacaeHO MHe npoBecTH: sth uitphxh — 
cnaaica KyjibTyp cjiaBHHCKOH c repMaHCKoft, cnattKa — HacTOHiuero 
HCTopHiecKoro MOMenma, b kotopom hmchho 3th KyjibTypbi Ha <Jm3H- 
necKOM nnaHe KaTacTpoqbHHecKH cuiH6jiHCb, — uitphxh cyab6u, MHe 
nocnaHHbie. Haa 6om6oh pa3opBaBiuHxcfl Mep30CTett, b oScTaHHH Ka- 
TacTpotJ), Ha <J)OHe Ba*Horo HCTopHnecKoro MOMeHTa x noji>KeH 6bin 
coeflHHHTb to, hto pa3pwBa^H Ha lacTH Bee: eonpeKu eceM — no 
BOJie oozia MeHH nocbiJiaBuiero aoKTopa. 

Bot TOHKa nepeceneHHH asy\ bhhthu (ayxoBHoft h 4)H3HHecKoft) c 
HeBHHTHueK) Moefi jihhhocth, b 3to BpeMH nepeTpaceHHOH h nepenojr- 
HeHHOH caMopa3pwBaMH. 

Bee to, hto h 3flecb roBopw, 3arpyHTOBbiBaeT jiHuib (})oh, Ha 

KOTOpblfl H XOHy nOCTaBHTb HeCKOJlbKO nepe»HBaHHH, CTOJlb pokobwx 

fljis MeHH b stom MecHue*. 

ABrycT b .HopHaxe h rpo3eH, h aymew, b 15 rojiy rpo30Baa ay- 
xoTa KaK Hejib3a jiyume cooTBeTCTBOBaiia rpo30BOMy oytuuxamuo bch- 
khx TpareflHH, aojiaceHCTBOBaBiUHx pa3pa3HTbca nan cyab6aMH ot- 
aeJibHwx jifoaeft, HejioBenecKHX othouichhh, «remec>HyMOM», aHTpo- 
noco<})CKHM 06mecTBOM, FepMaHHeH, PoccHefl. Bee xoahjih, tohho 
npHCJiyiuHBaacb k neMy-To; Mew jnoflbMH, Bnepa apyacHBiuHMH, 
BCTaBana TeHb HeaoBepHH apyr k apyry h hhhcm He MOTHBHpoBaHHoro 
Heao6po>Ke^aTejibCTBa; HHKoraa He 6mjio cTO/ibKO nycTbix ccop, hhk- 
neMHbix cnneTeH, jxavxt npocTO... rjiyiibix, HeTaKTHHHbix nocTynKOB; 
aMepHKaHKa, mhcc HHUbc, Bapyr ojrypeB, e3flHJia no Ea3ejno h noKy- 
nana 3a cneT cbohx 3HaKOMbix HeHyacHbie Beiun, KOTopwe h nocbmana 
hm k hx yacacy; HaKOHeu, ona 6buia HOHbio noflMana aHTponoco(}>cKH- 
mh BaxTepaMH c nonunnbiM (b noMemeHHH «Bau» HOHbio Hejib3« 6bijio 
ocTaBaTbCH); c Benepa OHa npHTajiacb b «Bau», a HOHbio TaftKOM ot 
BaxTbi OTflaBanacb MucmunecKUM nepoKHBaHHHM; cTanH pacnpocT- 
paHHTbca cjiyxH, mto y aHTponoco<j)OB cymecTByeT o6biHaft o6Ha»aTb- 
ca, noTOMy hto flBe noHTeHHoro B03pacTa tctkh B3flyManH b necKy 
OTflaBaTbCH cojiHeHHbiM BOJiHaM, h b KOCTioMe npaMaTepH Ebh 6binn 
HaKpbiTbi aopHaxcKHMH My>KHKaMH; noao3pHTeJtbHO Ben ce6a b Ba3e- 
jie naH CexiJieuKHH h no 3TOMy noBoay pacnpocTpaHHjiHCb cnneTHH: 
o 6e3HpaBCTBeHHOM noBeneHHH aHTponoco<J)OB... Ha CTopoHe; Kaicyio- 
to rnynocTb BbiKHHyn mhjiwB (JniHjMiHaeu, Jlnnnh; cynpyrn flojuiflK 



* HaiHHaa c 3Toro MecTa, xapaKTep noiepica MenaeTca, mo HaBOUHT Ha mwcjii. 
o tom, 4to 3Ta qacTb pyKonHCH nncajiacb no3flHee. 

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noBejiH HeflocroftHyio HHTpHry npoTHB 6apoHeccw 3KKapTiiiTeftH, 06- 
bhhhh ee b npoH3BOjie, HeyMeHHH bccth xyaoweerBeHHyjo MacTepcKyw 
h nyTb jih He b pacTpaTe; a-p YHrep o6o3Baa noHTeHHyjo T.A. Bep- 
reHrpKJH aypofi; unmeaH aohocmhkh Ha Hac c Acefl, ito mm apywnan 
c «peMeeamoM» aoKTopoM TeuieM, KOTopuft 3acHWHBaacn y Hac ao 
2-x nacoB hohh; weHHX 6apbiuiHH HeB 6bia o6bhhch b pacnymeHHOCTH 
no flOHOcy noaraaabiBaBiiieH 3a hhm H3 KycTOB tctkh; oh o6bhhhjich 
b coBpameHHH aeBHu; aeao aomao ao aoKTopa; o co6aa3HeHHH aeBHu 
aHTponoco<J)aMH ryaeaH aopHaxcKHe okpccthocth; h npn nonbiTKe 
paccaeaoBaTb, OTKyaa cayxH nomaa, o6napywHBaaocb: npHHHHa 
cnaeTeH — Moaoaoft neaoBeK; Koraa we pacnaeaH komok cnaeTeH, 
to oKa3aaocb, eaHHCTBeHHbiH KopeHb nopoqamnx cayxoB — (jmicr n o- 
ueaya wchhxom CBoeii HeBecTbi (cBaab6a 6waa Ha3HaieHa oceHbio); 
OTeu HeBecTbi, noHTeHHbifl CTapHK JleB, B36eiueHHbiH KaeBeTOfi Ha 
weHHxa aoiepn, 3a6paB weHHxa h aonepeft, b HeroaoBaHHH yexaa H3 
ZlopHaxa. 

He nepenHcaHTb MeaKHx, raynwx, pa3ayBaeMbix ao «yxaca» 
HHunaeHTHKOB, KOTopbiMH Bapyr npoujBeaH nepBbie aHH aBrycTa h ko- 
Topbie BMecTe c cepbe3HbiMu HHiwaeHTaMH h hcbmhochmo THweabiM 
({iohom o6mero noaowemiH nopmunu eo3dyx flopHaxa; HHoraa Ka3a- 
aocb, hto abiuiHiiib MHa3MaMH; k 3TOMy npHcoeaHHHaucb anHaeMHH 
CTpauiHbix chob h MaHHH npecaeaoBaHHH, KOTopoft cTpaaaa 3HaiH- 
TeabHbifl °7o Hauiett KoaoHHH: c aBrycTa ao... HO«6pfl-aeKa6p«; 3Hr- 
aepT BnocaeacTBHH npH3HaBaac5i M.B. BoaoiuHHoft, BcnoMHHaH aHH 
aBrycTa: «M«e Ka3a/iocb, nmo naxnem cepou u ko3/iom». A 3HraepT 
6bia po30BomeKHM, Tpe3BbiM, BecbMa He (JiaHTacTHHHO Bbira«a«- 
iuhm... HacToamHM MywHKOM: c KpenKOft Boaeio CTpoHTeaa h 6e3 

BCHKOft MHCTHieCKOft HapOHHTOCTH. 

R noTOMy BcnoMHHaio 3th caoBa 3HraepTa, hto hmchho b 3th 
aHH eoHb cepou u ko3/iom CTaaa MHe oTpaBaaTb awxaHHe; h a 6e3 
BHaHMofl npHHHHbi onHTb 3a6oaea npHCTynaMH 1) CTpaxa, 2) 6yHTa, 
3) aHKHx 4)aHTa3HH, 4) noHTH raaaioiuiHauHH cpean 6eaa aHH, noa- 
CTynw KOTopbix HcnbiTbmaa h b vaont eme. 

Ha»iaaocb 3to c B3pbiBa Bbi3biBaiomHX wecTOB 6e3 caoB HaTauiH, 
noBeamefl npocTO aTaKy Ha mchh BecbMa rpy6biM h KaK MHe Ka3aaocb 

yWaCHO UHHHHHbIM KOKeTCTBOM, 6epea»IUHM HyBCTBeHHOCTb; Bee 

ycnaHH moh He noaaaTbca Ha ee npHraameHHH oTHecTHCb k Heft, KaK... 
k... npocTHTyTKe, b MoeM Boo6pa»ceHHH pa36HBaaHCb eio; OHa yMeaa 
aTaKOBaTb MeHH, He CTeCHHHCb npncyTCTBHeM Ach, tohho HapoiHO 
He BHaamefl ee noBeaeHHa; BnpoieM h to cKa3aTb: noBeaeHHe HaTa- 
uiH b ee OTKpoBeHHbix wecTax 6uao Bceraa 3aapanHpoBaHO hotoh 
cecTpHHCKH-TOBapHmecKoro «sans facon», KOTopoe OHa 3aBeaa Mew 
HaMH: nyTb iuyTKoft, nyTb HacMeuiKofl h rpy6oBaTbiM «co cboumu ne 

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i4epeMOHJtmat»; ho sto h 6mjio yTOHieHHofi npoBOKaiweft mchm, h6o 
3thm ««e uepeMOHJimcH» ona 3H&na, hto 6e3Haica3aHHO 6epeaHT moh 
QojibHbie eio ace nonTopa roaa HeycTaHHO pacTpaBimeMbie paHbi. 

fl. pBaHyncH k Ace, xaK k nocneamMy npH6excHiuy; h nonpocHn 
ee HacTOttiHBo o6paTHTb BHHMaHHe Ha HaTamy, npHH«Tb Mepw k 

TOMy, HT06bI MeHH OCB060flHTb OT nOCTOUHHOTO ee npHCyTCTBH«, Ha 

hto Ach pacxoxoTanacb: «AapH ett xoTb UBeTbi, hto jih?» H nonpo- 
CHJia MeHH o HaTauie He roBopHTb c Heft; KpoMe Toro: OHa oTKa3a- 
nacb npHHHMaTb Mepbi k h3o^huhh Hac apyr ot apyra. fl 6e3 cjiob 
o6pamajicfl k aoKTopy; ho aoKTop, KaK HapoHHO, aeaaa bha, hto amo 
eeo He Kacaemcn. R 6pochjich k Tpane3HHKOBy h nojiynan otbct: «JX& 
rjiHflHTe npome Ha BemH!» 51 3Haji, hto FIouuo — He My* HaTaum; 
Mw c Aceft aaBHo He 6bian MyaceM h aceHoft. H b MoeM noay6peay 
BcnwxHyjia accouHauHJi: «Bce caeaaHO Tax, hto HaTama ha, — cy*- 
aeHW apyr apyry; 3to — KapMa; 6opoTbca TyT Hejib3»». KpoMe Toro: 
HaTama H36eraaa pa3roBopa co mhoh babocm, MHe 6poca« oanoBpe- 
MeHHO HaMeKH, hto pa3roBop 6yaeT nocae Toro KaK... 3tno cjiynHTca; 
MHe CTano Ka3aTbCH, hto OHa noacTpeKaeT mchh k TOMy, hto6w a ee... 
awl, kok MyjKHuna; 83m/i Hacu/itnol M aaxce noaTpyHHBana: Haa mo- 
efi TpycocTbKD... ee 83nmb\ 

3Ta HaBH3HHBa« Hflea yKpennaaacb HaBoacaeHHeM hohh; ji 3Haji 
y*e, cam c HaTauieft h Aceft BenepOM, y Hac, ecjiH HaTama maxcm, 
KaxoH OHa HHoraa yMeeT 6biTb, mm HOHbio ee KaK 6w npHxo.ua BHe 
Tena, Koraa OHa, b Moefl hohhoh 6eccoHHHue aenaaacb HanaaaioiUHM 
Ha MeHH cyKKy6oM\ h b sthx npHneTax ee ho noMe/ie 6biao hto-to 
CToab yacacHoe, aeMOHCKoe, — hto h, xoth h 6wji naccHBHOfi ctodo- 
HOtt sthx HanaaeHHH, h tcm He MeHee nyBCTBOBan Ha ayuie KaKoft-TO 

TH5KKHH rpeX. 

B 3tom, btopom JiHKe CBoeM, HaTama b HHbie MHHyTbi BHaenacb 
MHe TeM, neM Bbimaaeaa mepnan xceHUfUHa», KOTopaa npoaoawana, 
KaK jieTynan Mbiuib, umbipHTb Ha xanMe; CTonao MHe OTaaTbC* npa- 
naaKy cTpacTH k HaTauie, KaK 3Ta, MHe HeBeaoMaa xeniuuHa, tohho 
b oTBeT Ha moh nepe»HBaHHH, raaaena Ha mchh c Haraeiomeft yjiw6- 
Koft, CBepKa« cbohmh 3eaeHbiMH, KaK MOJiHbH, yrpoMcaiomHMH rjia3a- 
mh: nee npu6nuoKancH ko MHe, co6upcmcb Menu nonymantb; crpaHHee 
Bcero: 3Ta MaaaM «UIeapy» (tslk KaaceTca) c HeaBycMbicaeHHott Ha- 
raocTbib.nepeBoaHaa rna3a c mchh Ha HaTauiy; h aa»ce: Ha aeKiawx, 
b raoacKHx poax, 0Ka3biBaaacb c Heft paaoM; noaKpaBiuHCb k Heft, 
OHa noBopaHHBaaacb Ha MeHH h cbohmh ywacHbiMH, KpoBaBbiMH, 
ToacTbiMH, KaK y BaMnnpa, ry6aMH KpHBHaa npeoTBpaTHTeabHO. 

MeHH *e 6Haa jiHxopaaKa raanHBocTH, y*aca h rHeBa; oaHa^caw 
« yBHaea, KaK nocne aeKimH aoKTopa, noaKpaBiuHCb k HaTauie, nep- 
HdH npuaHnaa k Heft, a Ta cTOHaa, ranaeaa Ha noanyM h 6yaT0 He 

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3aMenajia 3Toro 6onee neM CTpaHHoro noBeaeHHa; BOJiHa apocra, ne- 
pecHJTHB cTpax h oTBpameHHe, noaHajiacb bo MHe: MHe Ka3anocb, hto 
nepHaa «e/ia3um» HaTamy; a 6wcTpo noaomeji k hhm h 6yKBanbHO 
njienaMH cnnxHyji c HaTauiH «nepHyK)», He o6pamaa BHHMaHHa Ha to, 
kok 3tno ebienndum; Moe njieno ynuio, Kaic MHe noKa3ajiocb, bo hto-to 
OTBpaTHTejibHoe cTyaeHHCTO-MHrKoe, 6eccHjibHoe; MaaaM «Ul8apy» 
ciujieriHynacb c HaTauiH, MarKO CKaiHynacb c Hee; h onycTHB njienH, 
He nnaaa na MeHa, 3aKOBbi.na.na nponb (Benb OHa — «xpoMOHOJia<a»\). 

JXo chx nop He Mory o6tacHHTb ce6e Toro, KaK 3Ta HcemuHHa 
ocMeJiHjiacb hh c Toro hh c cero npHJKaTbca k HaTaiue, KaK HaTauia 
3Toro He ycjibimajia nnvi, ycnwuiaB, He pearHpoBajia, KaK a Mor c He- 
nonycTHMofl rpy6ocTbio noaoftTH h uiH6aHyTb nnenoM He3naKOMyK) 
aaMy; KaK, HaKOHeu, sto BonHiomee HapyineHHe Bcex npHnHHHfi cuecjia 
«MadaM» IIlBapu. riepe>KHBaHHa MoryT 6biTb cy6ieKTHBHbi; ho 0ok- 
mbi ocTaiOTca (fiaKmciMu. 

R hx — He noHHMaio! 

B 3TH *e flHH, B COOTBeTCTBHH C B3pbIB0M HCBHHTHU C HaTailiefi 

h c o6HarneHHeM BHOBb b Hione-Hione 6bijio npHTHxuiero «cyutecmea», 
noHBHJiHCb h nepnbie: bo Bcex BHaax; Ha nporynKe b #opHaxe a ctoji 
BCTpeiaTb HeBbipa3HMbix yponoB, tohho Bbi6eraBiiiHx H3 Bcex KycTOB 
npn BHfle MeHa, htoGm npofiTHCb no nopoacKe — MHe HaBCTpeny; no- 
neMy a, khbh nonTopa rona b ^opHaxe, He 3aMenan, hto oh HaceneH 
yponaMH, MOHCTpaMH b ayxe Bocxa? Hx h He 6bino; ohh hchc3jih no- 
tom; b aBrycTe .HopHax nepenonminca yponaMH, H3 kotopwx Ka>KflbiH 
— pennaHiiiee aBJieHHe; noaBJianacb nynoBHinHO pacnyxmaa Merepa b 
6opoflaBKax c TaKHMH MaHepaMH, hto mojkho 6bmo ayMaTb: ona — 
He TOJibKo coflep»caTenbHHua ny6jiHHHoro aoMa, ho... TaK cKa3aTb 
«ttampoH» Bcex Ha cBeTe nydjmiHbix aomob; oanaxabi, b Te ahh, 
a ee BCTpeTHn Ha 6a3enbCKOM >Kene3HOflopo)KHOM BOK3ajie, Kyaa a no- 
naji c noKynKaMH h rae b oacHaaHHH noe3fla xmn Haft; OHa ycejiacb ne- 
pea mohm ctouhkom c HenpHjiHHHott aeBHueft, HaMa3aHHofl noa aHre- 
na; Tperaft c hhmh cHaea... tot caMbifl naeH 6a3enbCKoft no>KH b jih- 
hobom rancTyKe, KOTopuft c HioHa BCioay MHe nonaaaaca BHe AopHa- 
xa, tohho caeaa 3a mhok> (hto oh mien, HBCTBOBaao ero noaBaeHHe 
Ha neKunax aoKTopa b cTOJiapHe); Bee Tpoe apy»ecKH 6eceaoBanH: 
HapoHHTO apy*ecKH, tohho 3thm 6pocaa MHe Bbi30B. JlpyrHM H3 3a- 

nOMHHBUIHXCa MOHCTpOB TeX flHeft — HflHOTHHHOrO BHaa npbmiaBbifi 

Maawfl, BbiHOCHBuiHHca MHe HaBCTpeny h npn Bnae MeHa pa3pwBa- 
buihh 6e33y6ne CBoero rHHJioro pTa; 6bino hto-to OTBpaTHTejibHoe 
b stom HaHOTe; ctojmo MHe nporyaaTbca no XIopHaxy, oh — TyT KaK 
Tyr: jieTHT HaBCTpeny. TpeTHft mohctp, MHe 3anoMHHBuiHftca, — 

yjKaCHblft CTapHK C CH30-nHJIOBbIM THraHTCKHM, HeHOpMaJlbHO yTOJl- 
UieHHblM HOCOM, CKpiOHeHHblH, 06pOCUIHH CeflHHaMH, C MajieHbKHMH 



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3J1WMH Ka6aHbHMH, bhh3 ycTpeMjieHHbiMH h MopraiomHMH ce6e b yew 
rna3KaMH; cainoe CTpaniHoe, hto oh Heccn BnpHnpfcDKKy, He maun Ha 
MeHH, mhmo MeHH; h — HacTo BbmeTaji H3-3a KycTOB, y noBopoTa 
aopoweK. MeTBepTWH yxac — rnraHTCKHH toucthk, c ycHinaMH, co- 
cymHft orpoMHyro cnrapy h eio aeaaiomHH aBH*eHHH; yBHaeB MeHH, 
CHrapa ero HanHHaaa npwraTb bo pTy BBepx h bhh3; hto CHe 3HaHHjio, 

— He 3Haio; ho h noHHMaji, hto acecT cnrapbi othochhch ko mhc 

«Mhioeo eufe yxacoe 6biea/io», — BepHee: Bee sth MOHCTpbi bw- 
CbinanH Ha aopoacKH /JopHaxa h ApaecreiiMa b nepBOft noaoBHHe aB- 
rycTa, KaK >Ka6w h nepBH... nocae aoa<aH; k KOHuy aBrycTa Bee ohh 

— 6eccaeaHO noianm. 

3th nepubie neuiKH, npHcoeaHHeHHbie k uinHKaM, k caeay uinu- 
Koe h k nepnou daMe b nepubix dwix, HaBHcaBUiHx Haa bccmh HaMH 
h oco6eHHo Haao mhoh, 6binH nniiib 6opaK>poM k nepHOMy (J)OHy, ko- 
Topbifl CKopo npeacTaa npeao mhok> bo bccm Bemwmt, KaK pa3Bep- 
HyToe noKpbiBauo, roTOBoe nacTb Ha MeHH h OKyTaTb mchh; neuiKH 
ROKa3biBami, hto ecTb uepHcm napTHH b Hrpe co mhoh, una nayne c 
Hauieu napmueti, nrpoKOM KOTopoft h CHHTaa aoKTopa; oh xoaaa, KaK 
b Boay onymeHHbifl cpeaH Hac; ero BHa — apynna; oh BHaoM noKa3bi- 
Baa tohho, hto 06 yacacHbix muhcix, noaBeaeHHbix noa «remeaHyM» 
h noa Bee ero aeao, oh 3HaeT, ho — roBopHTb He mokct. 

3to 6biao oaHHM H3 mothbob, noHeviy h He pemaacn o6paTHTb- 
ch k HeMy H3 nepnom mohx BocnpHHTHii: e\iy He ao MeHH, aa*e He 
ao Hac; oh OTpaacaeT KaKHe-HH6yab HeBepoHTHbie yxcacbi, o kotopmx 
roBopHTb HeB03MO»cHo; h BcnoMHHaHCb ero caoBa b IIIbcuhh, cKa3aH- 
Hbie b 3aMKe, rae h noaynna nocBHineHHe b M.E.: «EcaH 6bi OKKyab- 
thct cKa3aa Bcayx CTpaniHbix Bemax, KOTopwe BeaoMbi eMy, hhkto 
6w He Bbiaep>Kaa: ecTb Benin, ynoMHHaHHe o KOTopwx cnoco6HO pa30- 
pBaTb 3eMaK»>. 

i{ ayMaa: nemno b 3tom poae npn6aH3Haocb; moh nepe*HBa- 
hhh h HaGaioaeHHH — Ha6aioaeHHe cuMnmoMoe, ToabKo cuMnmoMoe, 
noa KOTopbiMH — bhiuhh y)Kac. 

B 3to BpeMH Ach ce6e 3aKa3aaa 6eayK) cyKOHHyio HaKHaKy k 
npa3aHHiHbiM aHHM, HaKpbiBaBuiyio ee c naen ao 3eMaH; HaKnaKa Bbi- 
ranaeaa 6eabiM pbinapcKHM naauiOM; h noranabiBaa Ha Hee; h ayMaa: 
« r J,o nero stot naam He cooTBeTCTByeT hcthhc Haiuero noaoaceHHH!» 
R h He noao3peBaa, hto b HMarHHauHnx, KOTopbie MHe CKopo noa- 
ctpoiotch, 6e/ibiu n/iauf, KOTopbifl oKaaceTCH y mchh Ha pyxax, 6yaeT 
MHe cHMBoaoM nocbiaaeMoft 3amHTbi h noMoinH. 

K pnay booiphhthh npHcoeaHHHaocb eme oaHo: b Moeft 6eccoH- 
HHue Ha noHBe HeBpo3a, tockh h M03roBoro nepeyTOMaeHHH (h Beab 
npoaeaaa rnraHTCKyio pa6oTy Haa TeKCTaMH aoKTopa, TeTe, MeTHe- 
pa h Hanncaa KHHry b 400 CTpaHHii) npncoeaHHHnocb noraHoe boc- 



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npHHTHe: npHMo noa noaoM Moeft nocTejin — TaM, me b nepBOM 3Ta- 
»e y cTapyuiKH ToMaH 6biaa nycmaa KOMHama, b KOTopyio CTajiH 
nocjieflHee BpeMH 3axoaHTb KaKHe-To HeH3BecTHbie MemaHe h b koto- 
poft BpeMeHaMH kto-to HeH3BecTHbifi CTan HoneBaTb, — np»MO noa 

nOJIOM H3 nyCTOfl KOMHaTbl HaHHHajlH flOHOCHTbCH CTpaHHbie 3ByKH; 

kto-to npnxoaHa; noa Moett roaoBOft pa3aaBaaHCb: uienoT Myaccicoro 
ronoca, noTOM B03HX, h 3arjiymeHHbie aceHCKHe ctohm; Hy, caoBOM: 
MHe xa3ajiocb — kto-to HacnaoBaa acemimHy; bo3hh aanaacb nacaMH, 
CKB03b Hee pa3aaBaaHCb HBHbie ctohw aceHcicoro cymecTBa; Kaicyio-TO 
JKeHiuHHy nacaMH MynHan; h BCKaKHBaji c nocTeaH h He 3Haji, hto 
MHe nemTb; pa3aaHc« ece amo rpoMie, a HMe/i 6w npaBO pa36yaHTb 

ACIO, CnyCTHTbCH B HH3KHHH 3Ta>K H CaMOMy yaOCTOBepHTbCH, B HeM 

>Ke aeao; ho CMecb H3 noraHbix h CTpauiHbix 3ByxoB noa Moefl roao- 
boh 6waa Ha toh rpaHHue, KOTopyio nepecTynHTb h 6ojmca: «Hto ec- 
hh — KajKeTCH? M a ocTaHycb b aypaicax». 

HOHHbie 3ByKH, npHCOeflHHeHHbie K aHeBHbIM BOCnpHHTHHM, k 

HaTauie, cymecTBy, Ha <J)OHe XlopHaxa, Ha <J)OHe eceeo npoueeo, ao- 

KaHblBajlH MeHH, BbipblBaH COH; OTHOCHTeJlbHO 3THX 3ByKOB H He 3Hajl 
TOHHO: OTHOCHMbI JIH OHH K paCCTpOHCTBy CJiyxa HJIH K fleftCTBHTejlb- 
HOCTH. 

Kax-TO pa3 a 3a\ieTHji y cTapyxn ToMaH aeBOHKy neT 12-th, c 

lepHWMH, KaK CMOXIb BOaOCaMH, 60Jie3HeHHO-OCTpbIMH rjia3aMH, 06- 

BeaeHHbiMH chhcboh, h cMepTeabHO 6aeaHyio. fleBOHKa noaBaaaacb 
nacTO, H a He 3Haa, OTKyaa OHa B3«aacb: mohcct 6biTb, CTapyxa To- 
MaH ee B3HJia b aoM (Haiua KBapTHpa 6buia c oTaeabHbiM xoaoM Ha- 
Bepx h h HHKoraa He 3Haa, Koraa toctht cbiHbi ToMaH, npHe3«aBWHe 
OTKyaa-TO, Koraa hx hct). Ho noHBJieHHe CTpaHHOft, uepuou acbomkh 
KaK-To accouHHpoBajiocb b MoeM co3HaHHH co Bceio rpaaauHeft uep- 
Hbix 3HaKOB; HBjieHHH uepnoeo Kpana MHoroo6pa3Hbi 6bijiH; h OTMena- 
jiHCb mhoh MexaHHHecKH: OTMeTHiiib h 3a6yaeuib, ho Bee xce OTMeTH- 
nocb: «ZleBOHKa 3Ta... k xyay». 

OaHa^flbi HOHbK), Koraa o6biHHbie ctohw h B3aoxH, coeanHeH- 
Hbie c B03Hefl noa Moeft roaoBOft, 6bian oco6eHHO HacToftiHBbi, — 
yacacHafl Mbicab pe3Hyaa mchh: «Hey»ceaH 3Ta aeBOHKa, k ToMaH, Kax 
5yaTo ee B3HBixiaH b aoM, npnxoa HCH3BecTHoro HOHbio...» — chobom: 
/*acHoe, raaKoe noao3peHHe MeabKHyao b roaoBe, hto ToMaH npoaa- 
rr aeBOHKy Kaicoft-HH6yab ckothhc; n TOTiac oTBeprHya Mbicab: To- 
MaH Ka3aaacb necTHOft CTapyxofl; ayMaTb maK o Heft rHycHo: ho Mbicab 
— 3acTp«aa. 

OaHa»abi KaxceTca Ach cnpocnaa: «Kto 3Ta aeBomca?» 
* — «ft B3«aa ee, noiTH oth«b y poaHTeaeft, KOTopwe aeBOHKy 
HCTjnaaH; OHa noKa — TyT». Hto-to b tohc ToMaH, o6whho hphmom, 
5wao HencKpeHHo; ho ji He cMea HHHero ayMaTb. 

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OflHaacabi, Koraa a men Ha «Baur> h cnycKanca c necTHHUbi, y 
Bbixoaa a HaTKHyjicH Ha Hauiy BecbMa noao3pHTejibHyio iipHcjiyry, 
HHorna Kyaa-To HCHe3aBinyjo h iiotom onaTb noaBJiaBiuyioca y Hac, Ha 
ToMaH h eme Koro-To (He noMHio xoro); npncnyra HeHCKpeHHO o6hh- 
Mana aeBomcy, KOTopyio tohho HapoHHO nocTaBHJiH (oHa cToana b 
HCKyccTBeHHOfl no3e); Koraa a npoxozuui mhmo, npncnyra 6pocHJia 
rpoMKO b npocTpaHCTBO, tohho HapoHHo: 

«Das Kind». 

Hto — «das Kind?» H — noneMy? IlpoHecJiacb JieTynaa accouH- 
aiuia: h cB«3ajiacb c eme oahhm CTpaHHbiM Ha6niofleHHeM flHett: b 
xopouiHe CBeTnbie MHHyTbi MHe nonaaanHCh MaaeHbKHe 6&rcoKypbie 
aera; h o6pa3 pe6em<a, Kax chmboji ayxa b Hac, MeHa yTeuiaji; a b 
TeMHbie MHHyTbi noHBjiHJiHCb KaKHe-TO nepHbie, HenpHaTHbie, tohho 

fle<i>eKTHBHbie fleTH, H OHH CBa3bIBaJIHCb MOHM C03HaHHeM C B03M05K- 
HblMH flyXOBHblMH HCKa>KeHHaMH. 

C asrycTa b KaHTHHe, rae mu nHjiH KO(J)e, noaBHJiocb HecKOJibKO 
HenpHHTHbix, ae<t)eKTHBHbix pe6aTHiueK BMecTe c npHexaBuiHMH H3 
(})paHuy3CKOH IllBeftuapHH HueHaMH; ohh KaK-TO CKBepHO KpHBHJiHCb 
cpeflH Hac; h MHe OTMeTHJiocb: «Aa, — oflHa H3 3hhmx nepT tepnoeo 
xpana, KOTopbift kcm-to o6nnbHO ceeTca nepca mohmh rjia3aMH». 
Tenepb, ayMaa Haa cTpaHHtiM B03rnacoM: «Das Kind», a noayMaji: 
noaBJieHHe HenpHHTHofi, 6neflHOH nepHOtt acbohkh y (J>pay ToMaH — 
aBneHHe 3Toro nopaflKa. 

He noMHK) Kor^a, b 3to t jih aeHb, Ha apyrofi jth, — ho a nponeji 
b 6a3eJibCKoft ra3eTe: b OKpecTHOCTax flopHaxa coBepmeHO npecTyn- 
jieHHe; HaitaeH Tpyn H3HacH^OBaHHOH acbohkh; nojiHHHH pa3bicKH- 
BaeT Heroaaa. 

HoHbio, Koraa onaTb noa Moefl tojioboio Hananacb B03Ha — 
Biipyr Bee hcptohkh mohx Ha6nioaeHHH Haa ToMaH, npHcnyrott, aeBOH- 
koh, noao3pHTenbHbiMH B3rjiaaaMH, KOTopwe npoBoacajiH MeHa, Ha- 
KOHeu HppauHOHajibHbiMH npHnaflKaMH CTpaxa, h yrpo3aMH, MHe no- 
cwjiaBiuHMHca KynKoio My»HKOB c hx «ec/iu max, mo — mookho u 3a- 
cmpenumb», — Bee 3to mojihhchocho cjioacHJiocb b xHMepy: HiiryT 
HeH3BecTHoro y6Hfiuy-HacHjibHHKa, cKpbiBiuero cneflbi npecTynneHHa, 
o kotopom a h He nofl03peBan (a — pewo HHTan 6a3ejibCKHe ra3eTbi); 
a OKa3anca b HHcne noao3peBaeMbix, hjih, jiymiie CKa3aTb, «ohu», ry- 
6amHe, 6pochjih Ha MeHa TeHb noao3peHHa; h TyT ace OTBeTHJiocb: 
hto 3a HejrenHua; Beab Ka>K,abiH moh uiar npoTexan noa rjia3aMH. 
Ho He Mbicab o nofl03peHHH pe3Hyjia MeHa, a to, hto a xoacy b menu, 
6poiueHHOH Ha MeHa tcmh, kto bmhijih ry6HTb flOKTopa, TeTeaHyM, 
kto 6poch^h Ha MeHa ncyutecmeo», kto npeBpaTHjiH HaTaiuy b Me- 
AHyMa nepHbix chji, kto yceajiH mow aopory MOHCTpaMH. Bee mho- 
xcecTBO Heo6i.acHHMbix, (J)aKTHHecKHX, rHeTyuiHX Ha6jnoaeHHH aByx- 

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Tpex nocn&aHHx MecaueB mfhobchho coeaHHHjiocb b HeBepoaTHOM 
MH^e, Bee »e ahko o6i>acHaiomeM MHe HeoGtacHHMbie, ho Tpe3BO 
Ha6jiiOfleHHbie mc/iohh, — h ronoBa moh 3aKpy>KHjiacb; a 6wji oxBaneH 
yacacoM; a noHan, ito MHe He cnpaBHTbca c poeM pa3HopoaHbix Ha- 
naaeHHtt, hhhcm He CBa3aHHbix; uepnbie neiuKH, nepHbiii Kpan, nep- 
Hbie nepe»HBaHHa, nepncm aaMa, — H3BHe, H3HyTpH — npHpe3WBajiH 
MeHa; eaHHCTBeHHO, hto a Moe 6u npoTHBonocTaBHTb 3TOMy poio — 
ayuieBHaa CHaa h HHCTOTa; ho a cHHTaji, ito b HaBOJKaeHHH c HaTa- 
Hieft, ot cTpacTH k KOTopott a cropaji b 3th flHH, h mto 6e3yMHoe pe- 
uieHHe — «6ydb nmo 6ydem MeoKdy homu» jihuihjih MeHa nocaeaHeft 
TBepnbiHH; KaMeHb, Ha kotopom a cToan Haa 6e3flHOH — Moa yBepeH- 
HOCTb b nymu JJyxa, — 3tot KaMeHb 6bin BbmyT H3-noa Hor mohx. 
R noHaji: Mam, Mam h Mam] 

FIOMHHTCa, — yTpOM a BblCKOHHJl H3 IIOCTeJlH, KaK BCTpenaHHbifi; 

nocMOTpeji Ha CBoe Teao h yBHaea y ce6a Ha Hore: neTKOe, CHHe-icpac- 
hoc Kpyraoe naTHbiuiKO, KOToporo He 6buio; h yace b nojiHOM 6e3y- 
mhh, 6e30 BcaKoft JiorHKH, He a cica3aa, a 3Jio6HbiH roaoc, iy>KOH, 
bo MHe pa3flajica: 

— «OTMeTKa abaBOjia: th y Hero bo BJiacTH». 
npeflCTaBHJiocb: mhok> nrpaan, MeHa npoHrpaan! 

H Tor/ia-TO Ha ropH30HTe co3HaHHa nepeao mhok> othctjihbo 
BCTaji Hepubiii Kopo/ib, ApuMOH, Tenepb cbochd nepcoHoio Ha MeHa 
HacTynaBuiHH: lepHbie neuiKH, <J)Hrypbi, caMa Hepnax daMa, — Bee 
OTCTynHJio: CKB03b Bee a yBHaea oahh hhk. 

ApHMaH h a, 6ponieHHbie apyr Ha apyra; a — 6e3opy*Hbift, 
He 3HaiomHH neM OTpa3HTb HanaaeHHe; oh — BOopy^eHHbift CMepTe- 
jibHbiM KonbeM, He aaioiuHM nomaabi; Konbe HanpaBaeHo; a -r- bo Bjia- 
cth; a caM yace He Mory ce6a 3amHTHTb; ecjw ot MeHa ue ompa^nm, 
a — yMep, a to, ot nero a yMpy — HeBaacHo: ot oKKyjibTHofi jih 60- 
jie3HH, ot KjieBeTbi an, ot npocToro ab Hoaca b cnHHy, — y6HftcTBO 
6yaeT: He ceroaHa TaK 3aBTpa; h rjiaBHoe: Hejib3a HHKOMy hh b neM 
npH3HaTbca; npH3Haflca a xoTa 6 Ace, OHa cica3aaa 6w: «Tbi comea 
c yMa». 

Ho a He lyBCTBOBaji ce6a cyMacineauiHM, xoTa 6bi b pocTe Toro 
caMoo6jiaaaHHa, KOTopoe a BbiKa3biBaji bhcujhhm o6pa30M; hhkto, 
aa>Ke Aca, He BHaea MeHa b y>Kace; a Bbiraaaea Tpe3Bee, cnoKoftHee 
aaace; Taxoe cnoKoficTBHe nejxb OKa3biBaK>T o6peneHHbie Ha paccTpea: 
nepea paccTpeaoM; TOMaeHHe HeonpeaeaeHHOCTH — KOHHHaocb; b 
cepaue oTaaaocb: 

— «Hy bot h npeKpacHo: ayMafl 06 oaHOM, — MyacecTBeHHo 
BcfpeTHTb yaap, naaaiomHH Ha tbok) hhhcm He 3amHmeHHyio rpyab». 

rioMHHTca: a BCKOHHa h Bbiiuea Ha ay»caftKy; k HaiueMy aoMy ot- 
Kyaa-TO npH6e)Kaa rpoMaaHbift, tohkhh, THrpoBbifi, TeMHO-oaHBKO- 



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Bbifi flor h BecbMa HenpHHTHO MeTanca nep&ao mhok), qepTa KpyrH h 
hto-to BbiHroxHBaH; .aora 3Toro HHrae He 6bino npeacae; c toh nopbi 
oh H3peaKa noaBjiajica nepeao mhoh: Bceraa b caMyro jKyTKyio MHHy- 
Ty, accouHHpyacb c o6pa30M nopTa, npHHaBiuero bha nyaejia. 

CTpaHHo: accomiauHH 3Ta Bbi3Bajia bo MHe o6pa3 <t>aycma, koto- 
pbitt npoaaji ayuiy nopTy; kopt npHXOflHji 3a ayinoft, ho aHrejibi ot- 
6hjih Oaycma; OaycT cjibiuiaji MOJiHTBy: «Christ ist erstanden»*. 
06pa3 OaycTa He pa3 mhoio accouHHpoBanca c co6ok3; moh oTHome- 
hhh c HaTauieft h Acefi neM-To HanoMHHajiH othouichhh OaycTa k 
TpeTxeH h EjieHe; kto EjieHa, kto TpeTxeH — He 3Haji; h He 3Han 
aa*e, b levi aHajiorHa; ho — aHajiorna 6bina. ft, KaK h <l>aycT, — naB- 
uihh Myapeu; JleMypbi h Me4>HCTO<i)ejib MeHa okpvkhjih; ho Bejib ecTb 
aHrejibi, BbiHecmHe ayuiy OaycTa, h ecTb FlaTep CepaiJwKyc, onpy- 
»eHHbift hhcthmh MJia^eHuaMH. H BcnoMHHJi: Aca h HaTaina b mh- 
ctcphh «&ayan» B03rjiaBnaioT aBa paaa aHrejiOB, Hecymnx OaycTa 
b uapcTBo ayxa; caMaa nocTaHOBKa b TeMe cnaceHHa <t>aycTa cBa3a- 
nacb c CHTyauHeH Toro, hto pa3birpbiBajiocb b ayiue Moen; KaK a He 
noHHJi: MHr HepHofi mhctcphh, pa3birpbiBaiomHHca bo MHe, h nocTa- 
HOBKa MHCTepHH cnaceHHa OaycTa, kotopoh aonacHbi 6buiH OTKpbiTb- 
ca BaacHbie ,hhh, — oaho h to >Ke; noaJiHHHoe xo*aeHHe ayum no 
MbiTapcTBaM 3aecb h OTpa»eHHe 3Toro Ha cueHe, KaK cnaceHHe H3 
MbiTapcTB, ecTb eaHHCTBeHHaji cnacHTenbHaa cojiOMHHKa, 3a KOTopyio 
ocTaBa^ocb cxBaTHTbca; h a — cxBaTHJica. 

BcKope nocne 3Toro, pa36Hpaa aho cyHnyKa CBoero, a HaTKHyjica 
Ha cBepToneK; pa3BepHyn h yBHaen: o6pa30K Cb. Cepa<}>HMa, o koto- 
Pom a 3a6bi;i h KOTopwii nyTeuiecTBOBa^ co mhoh c 12-ro roaa**; 
CTpaHHo: MHe noflKHHynca Cb. Cepatt)HM, a b mhctcphh aoktop npn- 
aaBan oco6oe 3HaneHHe IlaTepy CepatJiHKycy; <I>aycT h Cepa<J)HKyc, 
a h Cepai})HM: BcnoMHHJTHCb 1901-1903 roabi, Koraa a uojiro h >KapKo 
MonHjica cBaTOMy. H noBecnji o6pa30K y ce6a Haa nocTcnbio. 

H KapKo noMonnjica CBaTOMy: cTajio jierne. 

C toh nopbi a KaK-To ocoSeHHo HHTepecyiocb noaroTOBjiaeMOH 
MHCTepHeft «<Paycm»; h ckopo nonyiaio npaBO Ha nocemeHHe pe- 



* B nepBOii iacTH reTeBCKoro 0AYCTA repoft cnbiuiHT xop aHrejiOB, noioiuHH 
«Christ ist erstanden!» («Xphctoc BOCKpece!», ct.736) no -roro, KaK oh nponaeT cboso 
aywy qopTy-Me<J)ncTO(t)enK), KOTopbiii BnepBbie noHBuaeTCsi b BH/ie nepHoro nyuenst. 
Uanbuie b TeKCTe Ecrctift onHctiBaeT KOHeu BTopoft iacTH .apaiwbi-MHcrepHH — cna- 
ceHHe <I>aycTa. 

** ripenoflo6HbiH Cepa4)HM CapoBCKHfl (1760-1833) — cTapeu-nycTbiHHOKHTejib h 

3aTBOpHHK, npOCJiaBHBUIHHCH KaK BCUHHaHLUHH nOflBH)KHHK. C HaHajia CTOJieTHH, KO- 

raa AjieKcefl IleTpoBCKHH noaapHJi BejioMy h KHHry o nein h o6pa30K cBHToro, — my- 
6oko hthm BenbiM. noapo6Hee — b Moeft CTaTbe o MecTe Cb. CepaiJiHMa b >kh3hh 
h TBopiecTBe Bejioro (b nenatH). 



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neTHUHft nojj pyKOBoacTBOM aorropa*; o6pa30K, penexHUHH «0ayc- 

ma», MOH MOHHTBbl, HTeHHe EBaHre^HH — BCe 3TO K 10-bIM MHCaaM 

aBrycTa bxoaht b aymy mok> HaaoKaoft Ha noMouib. 

Ho HananeHHH Ha mchh He ocaa6eBaK)T, a ycHaHBaioTCH, BeayTca 
co Bcex (JwiaHroB — cpa3y; MpawHeeT bochhwh 4>oh, Mpa4HeeT 6wt 
ZlopHaxa, yHamaroTca ccopbi, cKaHaaaw, 6e3yMHa, ho... toiho c ot- 
laHHHa cKB03b 3to Bee npo6HBafOTca repoHHecKHe HOTbi caMonowepT- 

BOBaHHH, pa60TbI H OTBeTCTBeHHOCTH CO CTOpOHbl HaC, pe3HHKOB 

Kynojia, Koxopbie, noaHHBuiHCb Ha aeca, 3a6biBaK)T Bee TeMHoe, neM 
mh oicpy>KeHbi b nadpoce pa6oTbi, a CHH3y, H3 capaeB, aKKOMnaHHpya 
pa6oTe, name pa3aaioTca KpacHBbie, TparHnecKHe 3Byxn HanHcaHHofl 
CTroTeHOM My3biKH k «&aycmy», KOTopyio peneTHpyeT HMnpoBH3H- 
poBaHHbiB opKecTp. TaK b BepeHHue nepHbix aHeft, KOTopbiMH ot- 

KpblJlCH aBryCT, IlOHBnjHOTCH BCnbHHKH CTpaHHblX HaflOKfl Ha nOHTH 

«Wydo», aon>KeHCTByK>mee aHKBHanpoBaTb 3no; ana mchh a<e 3Ta 
Haae»aa Ha «.tydo» ecTb Haae»aa: mojihtboio Cepa(j)HMa, noMombio 
ceemabix h MeaHTaTHBHbiM iTeHHeM BhGhhh, h cyMeio, 6biTb mojkct, 
npopBaTb poKOBoe Koabuo TbMW, KOTopoe o6cTynHao mchh. 

B 3thx aHHX MHe ot BpeMeHH ao BpeMeHH CTaa nonaaaTbca 
aoKTop h, MHHys Bee to TeMHoe, b neM a Haxoanaca, oh CTaa 3aroBa- 
pMBaTb o Moefl KHHre, KOTopyio b peMHHrTOHe a nepeaaa M..H. IIlTeft- 
Hep. BcTpeTHBUiHCb co MHOfl, oh cica3aa: «Bck) KHHry TpyaHO nepe- 
BecTH mhc ho Ha30BHTe Te rnaBbi, KOTopbie bw cHHTaeTe HaH6oaee 
HanHcaHHbiMH ot ce6a, HTo6bi MHe nepeBcra hx». ft Ha3Baa ase rna- 
Bbi, b KOTopbix a 6bia MeHee yBepeH, noTOMy <ito b hhx <J)opMyaHpo- 
Baaacb <{)Haoco<i)Hfl aHTponoco<J)HH opwrHHanbHO, h b KOTopbix HaH6o- 
aee cBH3biBaaHCb qeTbipe MOHO-ayonaK>panbHbix, MHpoB033pHTe/ib- 
Hbix ycTaHOBKH: 1) yqeHHe aoKTopa o 12 MHpoB033peHHax, 2) yieHHe 
TeTe o 9 Kpyrax o6i>acHeHHa, 3) eBeTOBaa Teopna b ee (J)H3H4ecKOM, 
xHMHHecKOM, (J)H3HonorHHecKOM acneKTe h acneKTe cy6i>eKTHBHoro 
3peHH«, 4) naea rpaaauHH, mo», BbinyTaa mhok> H3 «3M6aeMaTHKH 
CMbicaa»**. fl yxa3aa aoKTopy, ito b nepByio oiepeab a xoTea 6bi, 
iTo6bi eMy nepeBean raaBy «Ceemoean meopun reme e Mono-dyo- 
n/itopcuibHbix 3M6/ieMax»; bo-btophx: He BnoaHe yBepeH b tom, kto 



* «3BpHTMHHecKa«» nocTaHOBKa nocneimefi cueHW (TaK Ha3biBaeMoe «B03HeceHHe 
<I>aycTa» — «Fausts Himmelfahrt») H3 BTopofi nacTH TpareaHH coc-rosuiacb 15 aBrycTa 
(h.ct.) 1915 r. b flopHaxe non pyKOBoacTBOM IIlTeftHepa. 14-16, 28 aBrycTa oh iHTa/i 
neKUHH H3 UHKna «Faust, der strebende Mensch». Cm. TaKuce «Eurythmie und Faust- 
Szenen» b kh. Ach TypreHeBoK ERINNERUNGEN AN RUDOLF STEINER UND DIE 
ARBEIT AM ERSTEN GOETHEANUM (Stuttgart, 1972), c.66-69. 

** MMee-rcH b BHay cTaTb» Senoro 3MBJIEMA THKA CMblCJIA. TIpednocbiAKu k 
meopuu cuMeo/iU3Ma. (1909) — BnepBwe ony6jiHKOBaHa b kh. CHMBOJIH3M (M., 
«MycareT», 1910), c.49-143. 



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moh ycTaHOBKa npo6jieMW co3HaHHH bo BBeaeHHH tohho coraacoBa- 
aacb c ero yneHHeM o co3HaHHH. «Hy bot h npeKpacHo, — cxasaa oh, 

— Opay flOKTop 6yaeT MHe nepeBoaHTb sth raaBbi». Hepe3 aHefi 
njtTb, npn BCTpene c aoKTopoM, oh onaTb noaomea ko MHe c apy*e- 
ckoh jiio6oBbio; h, tohho npocHHB aacKoft, npo6opMOTan 6acKOM: 
«3HaeTe neM mw 3aHHMaeMCH c 4>pay aoKTop no BenepaM? Mm HHTa- 
eM Bauiy cBeTOByK) TeopHio. 4>pay aoKTop HHiero He noHHMaeT, a a 

— noHHMaio h pacTOJiKOBbiBaK) eft Bauiy Mbicjib». H — noraaaea apy- 
*ecKH Ha MeHH. ft — npocnaa. Toraa oh, aoTpoHyBuiHCb ao nyroBH- 
ubi Moero nHflwaxa, KOHtjMaeHUHaabHbiM noa6oapoM cKa3aa MHe: 
«Bania cBeTOBaa Teopna oneHb xopoma!» 

He noMHK), no KaKOMy noBoay (6bian an mw b aoMHKe aoKTopa 
hjih 3to 6wao Ha xoJiMe, He 3Haio), ho a paccKa3aa aoKTopy coh, ko- 

TOPWH H BHiiejI B 3TH flHH H KOTOpblH nOpa3Ha MeH»: COH 3aKJIK>- 

naaca b caeayiomeM: a BH*y ce6a cnopaujHM c MeraepoM o KHHre 
ero npoTHB aoxTopa; mbi chjihm 3a ctojiom; a — pa36Hji MeTHepa; 
oh — noKpacHeji ot KOH(J)y3a nepea cbohm otuom, KapaoM IleTpo- 
BHMeM, pa3ryjiHBaK>mHM y CTOJia, BHHMaTeabHO cjiyinaiomHM moh 
aoBoabi h o6aacKHBaiomHM MeHH npeicpacHMMH raa3aMH; cTpaHHo, 
hto Kapa FleTpoBHH, — cobccm apyrofi: npeKpacHbift, 6e36opoabifi, 
b cTapoMoaHOM KOCTKjMe; a He yaHBa«iocb, hto «oTeu» MeTHepa 
CTaa hhwm; h aaace MeabKaeT: h CHHTaio ero KapaoM IleTpoBHHeM, 
noTOMy hto oh — «omei(». Ilpocbinaiocb, — h TyT ToabKo noHHMato, 
hto 3to 6wa TfiTe, coineaniHH c oaHoro H3 nopTpeTOB, c Moero n\o6n- 
Moro. 3tot coh a h paccKa3an aoxTopy; aoKTop nocMOTpea Ha MeHH 
c ayicaBOH yabi6K0H h cKa3aa: «A 3Haemenu, umo 3Hauum "r&me" no- 
HeMeifKu? 3mo Hapuifame/ibHoe c/ioeo; u 3H<mutn oho: npueMHbiu 
omeif!» Tan CKa3aB, aoKTop npHmypnaca. 

3tH BCTpeHH C aOKTOpOM, ero HCKaiOHHTeabHO HeflCHblH toh ko 

MHe, MeHH ycnoKaHBaan; ero noTpacaiomaa MpaHHocTb He othoch- 
aacb ko MHe; oh MeHa sbho Bbiaeaaa, Bofiaa b ayaHTopHio, otwckh- 
Baa raa3aMH h eae 3aMeTHO 6pocaa nepe3 roaoBbi ero OKpyacaBinHX 
anjaeft to khbkh, to aHuib MHe 3aMeTHbie yaw6KH; ho Bee 3to BHHMa- 
HHe Ha aioaflx ko MHe 6biao... tohho yKpaaKOfi; tohho oh xoTea, 
hto6m aioaH He BHaeaH ero pa3roBopa 6e3 caoB co mhoio; h 6oab- 
uihhctbo He BHaean; HHbie eudenu; h yBHaaB, He Bee noHHMaan, hto 
3acTaBaaao aoKTopa b stot nepnoa noa6aapHBaTb mchh; oh 3Haa o 
HeBepoHTHbix aHHHbix TpareaHax Moeft xch3hh (ckopo sto o6Hapy»(H- 
aocb); oh 3Haa, hto MeHa mepnemb ne Mozym... H3-3a Hero; oh 3Haa, 
hto a pa3opBaa H3-3a Hero c 6aH3KHMH (Kax Saanc, MeTHep)*; oh 



* Cp. «aBTo6Horpa4>HMecKoe imchMow HBaHOBy-PaiyMHHicy: «b nepHone 1912-1915 
ot npouijioro — MexaHtmecKH aabopMHpyeTcji: ne0opMHpyK)TC)i othouchhh: co BceM 
"MycaeemoM", T.e. c MeTHepoM, rierpoBCKHM, KHceneBUM, (cm. cnea. crp.) 

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iHTaji mok) KHHry h fleficTBHTenbHO paaoBanca, hto a KHHry HanHcan; 
paaoBa/ia ero KponoT^HBaa Moa pa6oTa Haa noacTpoHHbiM ero neTH- 
tom k TeTeBbiM TexcTaM; oh BHaen, hto H3 3Toro neTHTa a, cono- 
cTaBjieHHeM tckctob, H3BJieKaa HOBbie TeopHH. Tax pa3 oh rpoMKO 3a- 
hbh/1 Ha nexuHH: «3HaeTe /ih, hto Be,m> y mchh ecTb Teopna o6iacHe- 
hhh». M npn 3tom MeTHyji Bsrjiaa c Katjjeapbi Ha MeHa; a y MeHa cepa- 
ue 3a6Haocb ot yaoBoabCTBwa: 3Ty ero meopu/o a H3B/ieK H3 cono- 
cTaBneHHH noacTpoHHoro neTHTa, H3 3-x, 5-th, \0-cmpomu, pa36po- 
caHHbix noa TeTe Ha npoTaa<eHHH neTbipex ToncTbix tomob (pa6oTa 
y6HttcTBeHHaa perHCTpa KOMMeHTapHeB: no BonpocaM); conocTaBHB 
UHTaTbi, a BbiHyn mok hhx rHe3aamyioca cTpoftHyio meopufo o6hac- 
neHu.H, npHHaaJie>KaBiuyK> oTnacTH h MHe b tom oTHOiueHHH, hto 
cavi-TO flOKTop o Hefl He roBopHn HHrne, KaK He roBopHJi oh o MHoeoM, 
hto oh HaM nonapHJi b MaTepHaaax cbohx tckctob, yKa3biBaa, hto 
HaM caMHM Haao yvieTb uieAenamb H3 aHTponococJ)HH to, o neM oh 
ewe He ycnen cxa3aTb. Koe-HTo, BMecTe c meopueu o6-b.HcneHUH, a 
H3B/ieK H3 KOHTeKCTOB Moero perHCTpa. B3rnaa, 6poiueHHbiH Ha mchh, 
oTHocnnca ko MHe, k Moefl pa6oTe H3B.neHeHHfl eeo meopuu o6bncne- 

HUM, O KOTOpOH, 6bITb MO>KeT, H OH He nOa03peBaa H Ha Ba>KHOCTb 

kotopoh a eMy b ero npoHTeHHH Moefl pa6oTbi yKa3aii. TaKaa annpo- 
6aiiHa «eeo» Teopnn 6bina MHe noTOMy paaocTHa, hto OHa annpodu- 
poeana MHe pan apyrux oneHb CMeawx ana MeHa BbiBoaoB, h6o a, 
OTpajKaa MeTHepa, 6bin BbiHy>KfleH oTpawaTb ero nocToaHHbiM H3- 
BaeneHHeM H3 MaTepnaaoB no eemu3My no/ioxceHuit, UlTeHHepoM He 
nnaT(J)opMHpoBaHHbix; ycbiHOBnaa Haiuy c hhm Teopnjo o6^acHeHHa h 
Ha3biBaa ee cBoefi c noanepKHBaHHeM, hto apyrne He 3HaioT, hto 3Ta 
meopujt ecmb y Hero, h6o oh o Heft He roBopHJi HHrae, oh, TaK cKa- 
3aTb, npHBHBa^ moh noaxoa k aHTponoco<J)HH k cBoeMy; Ha MHoroe a 
6bi He ocMe^HBajica BnocaezicTBHH, ec/w 6bi He noayHH/i ot aoKTopa 
caHKimfi no-ceoeMy roBopwTb 06 aHTponocoqiHH; 3to no-ceoeMy Mbi- 
cnHTb, no-ceoeMy nocTynaTb MHe Hya<Ho 6buio ocoSeHHo b Te ahh* 



Ch30bwm; noTOM — c PaiHHCKHM; noTOM — c CM. Co/ioBbeBbiM; to *e — c Mopo- 
30BOS, BynraKOBbiM, EepaaeBbiM h t.r.; to we — c MaMOfi; to >xe — co Bceft Mock- 
boh; noTOM — h co Bcefi PoccHeftw («Cahiers du monde russe et sovietique», 15, >fel-2, 
1974, c.70). 

* O6 3T0fl KHHre BeJibift BnocJieflCTBHH nnca;i: «nnmy KHHry b 1915 roay "Pydo/ibtfi 
UlmeuHep u rente"; ho — KaKast *e sto KHHra; OHa — OTpaweHHe MeTHepa; h OHa 
ceMUHapuit » utmyduyM no BonpocaM aHTponocoiJ)CKoro eemu3Ma » aHTponoco(}>CKOH 
Memoduxe. 

H oneHb jihhho ueHio 3Ty KHHry: OHa, no-MOeMy, spKa, HanHcaHa KpenKHM «3biKOM; 
ho — Benb sto >Ke ^yi^OBHu^HbIH "KeHTaBp": "no/ieMUKo-eHoceonoeo-atfropucMO-noiuc- 
mo-" He yMew 3aKOHHHTb: "-.norna" mto jih, "-iIiohhji" ^h? M OHa — xapaKTepna: OHa 
— " ' nped30Mbice/i" k HeHcnojiHeHHbiM ewe pa6oTaM, kotopmx HeHcnonHeHHOcTb My- 
iht MeH»». (wCahiers du monde russe et sovietique», 15, Msl-2, 1974, c.73). 



428 



Tax, He3aMeTHbiM noa6oapoM, aoKTop mchh npnynaa k Baaae- 
hhkj MeuoM h b tom CTpaHHOM xecme nocmynKd, o kotopom — HH>Ke. 

noBTop«JO, — HHbie nepexBaTWBa/iH cmnb othoiuchhh aoKTOpa 
ko mhc TaK CKa3aTb, no aopore; h jihhhs ero >KecTa ko MHe nopoft 
BopoBajiacb apyrHMH: o6HK>XHBaaacb h o6cy>Kaaaacb y mchh 3a crm- 
hok>; TaKHe moan, xaK IIlTHHae, KaabKpefiT, Eaysp, Baaaep noHH- 
MajiH h pa3aea«aH OTHomeHHe aoKTOpa ko MHe; ho TaKHe 6binH ean- 
HHuaMH; npoHHe ace — HHnero He noHHManH; 6oabiiiHHCTBO cHHTaao, 

HTO H BTHpaJOCb B aOBepHe, KaK TeMHblH npOXBOCT, - OHH BHaejIH MeHfl 

MojmajiHHbiM, TaauiHM HenTO xyamee. no MoeMy aapecy pa3 6bijia 
nymeHa cTpeaa, hto a «[Hepa36. — npecTynHHK?] Verbrecher». B neM 
moh npecmynHocmb, KOTopyK) ynymuun aoKTop, — He 3HaK). Ebian 
h ao6po*ejiaTenH — H3 cmadnoeo uyecmea: pa3 aoKTop MHe yabi6- 
Hyjica, Haao... 3aHCKHBaTb bo mhc 3th nocaeaHHe othoch^h CHMna- 
thk) aoKTopa ko MHe 3a »Ko6bi «npocmeyKocmb» HenpHTjnaTeabHo- 
orpaHHqeHHOtt HaTypw; aa» sthx h 6bia hcito Bpoae «iopodueoeo» 
(onHTb-TaKH 6e3 bhcihhhx noBoaoBl). 

KaK 6w to hh 6biao, noa6oap aoKTOpa mchh, KOMnjiHMeHTbi 3a 
KHHry h nepeaaHHbie MHe c/iOBa 060 MHe, hto h ae moHKo Mbic/iro, 

CHMBOJIHieCKH 6bIJlH KJIOHKOM nOMOIUH, 3a KOTOpyJO fl CTaJl uenjiHTb- 

c>i b yacacax aHefi mohx, KOTopbie — npoaoawaaHCb h o KOTopbix He 
naiiiy, h6o b onHcaHHH Heab3« o6T>HTb Heo6bHTHoro, a aHH aBrycTa 

no HaCbimeHHOCTH KOHTpaCTaMH BOHCTHHy HeOXBaTHbl b onncaHHH. 

R CTaa lame ayMaTb o QbaycTOBCKOH HaType CBoefi, nocemaa pe- 
neTHUHH cueHbi cnaceHHH <I>aycTa ot HopTa: h CTaa nepeaaraTb h Ha 
ce6a TexcT HcecTHKyaauHH aHreaoB, npHHeciunx ayuiy OaycTa: «Kto 
BeiHO noaBHaceH b ycunuHX, Toro Mbi mojkcm ocBo6oaHTb»*. «B ycu- 
/iuhx» — noHHMajiocb mhokj: b ycnaHax ce6a cnacTH; «oceo6odumb» 

— noHHMajiocb mhoh: ocBo6oaHTb ce6» ot ceTeft TbMbi; a 3th ceTH 
Bee ocTpee omymaaHCb mhoh nocjie mhtob «Hadeoicdbi» Ha peneTHUH- 
«x, nan b pa6oTe noa KynoaoM; ToabKo 3a6biBa» ce6« b co3epuaHHH 
3BpHTMHH OaycTa hhh b pa6oTe Ha o6mee aeao, « He omywaa Hana- 
aaTeabHbix omecTOHeHHbix yaapoB Ha ce6a. 

3th yaapw to noaBaaancb 3HaKaMH, to BpbiBaancb HaTamett b 
moh BHyTpeHHHtt MHp, to CToaan noraHO-cTpaiiiHbiMH 3ByKaMH no 
HonaM, to noaiepKHBaancb xaKHMH-TO y>KHMxaMH HecKpuBaeMoii 
3ao6bi, KOTopofl MeHa o6aHBaaH HHbie H3 HauiHx naenoB, on«Tb-TaKH, 

— He 3Haio 3a hto; ecan 6w He 6biao KaKoft-TO cnaeTHH 060 MHe, 
Han ecan 6bi a 3a6ay>Kaaaca b tom, hto mchh HeHaBHanT h BHyTpn 
«A.O.», to bot HecKoabKO (J)aKTOB H3 6ecKOHeHHOft BepeHHUbi: 3k- 



* Cm., b nocneflHefl cueHe TpareflHH: «Wer immer strebend sich bemilht / Den Kdn- 
nen wir erlOsen». 



429 



KapTurreftH, Koraa-TO MeHa TaiiiHBinaa k ce6e pa6oTaTb, noMTH ne- 
6e3HBiiiafl, 3a3WBaBUiafl k ce6e b MacTepcKyio pncoBaTb moh «ydueu- 
me/ibHbie» ma3a fljia 3CKH3a k KpacHOMy ueHTpa/tbHOMy CTeiaiy, H30- 
6pa»aBineMy ronoBy nocBamaeMoro b HejioBexa, MHTaBiuaa MHe cth- 
xh, — Bapyr, 6e3 eaHHoro noBoaa, He TOJibKO H3MeHHJiacb ko MHe, 
ho nepecTajia OTBeiaTb Ha nox/ioH MHe; a eft noKjioHH/ica, OHa we, 
3aao«HB pyKH 3a cnHHy, 3jto h npe3pHTejibHo pacxoxoTaaacb MHe b 
jihuo; cTpaHHo H3MeHHjiacb onaTb ko MHe jie6e3HBiuaa HeKoraa uiBea- 
Ka, noTOM He KJiaHaBtuaaca, noTOM HecKonbKo pa3 KJiaHaBtuaaca yHH- 
aceHHO (a — He OTBenan); Koraa me a cTaji eft OTBewaTb Ha noKJioHbi, 

OHa B 3TH flHH, KaK H 3KKapTUJTeHH, Ha nOK/IOH MOH cTaaa 3aBOpaWH- 

BaTb ronoBy; Bojib(J)paM, c kotopoh a ne 6bin 3HaKOM, ho KOTopaa c 
JleftnuHra npeKpacHO 3Hajia, kto a, npn BCTpeHax co mhoh ot 3jiocth 
nepeaeprHBajia cBoe jihuo, jihuo Merepbi; Tax we oTHOCH/incb Hnp- 
cxaa, IllTpayc h HeKoraa no c/iaaocTH HewHaa PaflcJ); e/jBa KJiaHajincb 
CeaneuKHe; Boo6me: 6ojibuiHHCTBO cmupiuux tnemoK H3 KaTeropHH 
«KpeanoHOCui4» h «CmosioHOcuu» to^ho no yroBopy e/iBa KjiaHa- 
jwcb; h npoBoacajiH capKacTHiecKHM B3rjia.aoM; b HHbie /jhh naTHMH- 
HyTHbitt npoxo/j ot Haiuero noMHKa Ha Xojim, npoxoa no CTpoflKe 
no cnacHTe^bHbix jiecoB Ha MaJibifi Kyno/i, 6biJi MHe npoxoaoM cKB03b 
CTpoH HeHaBHCTH, HenoH«THo kocwx B3rjianoB, no/jrjia/ioB, uiHna b 
cnHHy; MHe b HHbie oth 4yTb He aenajiocb /aypno ot Bcero, hto a 
Ha6^K»flaji no CBoeMy aapecy. He 6yab mohx mojthtb Cepa<j)HMy h 
HTeHHfl EBaHrexiHH, a 6bi He BbiHec 3Toro He3acny>KeHHoro no3opa, 
KOTopuM noKpbijiH MeHH 3a nmo-mo; a He roBopto o wnHKax, koto- 
pwe TopnanH y aoMa; 3th «jnyxu» ywe noiTH He aocawaaaH; ho npo- 
xofl k xojiMy no aopowKe, Ha kotopoh CKanjiHBa^Hcb cothh HaexaB- 
uihx «h}>okux» aHTponocoi})OB, rae bchho ctohjih KymcH, 6oaTaa h 
uiymyKaacb, 6biji npoxoaoM CKB03b MeHa HenaBHaauiHH cTpoft; oco- 
6eHHO 3anoMHHnacb MHe OTBpaTHTeabnaa 6pK)HeTKa c 3eaeHbiM, xy- 
flWM, 3JibiM hhuom Merepbi; 3to 6biaa ceerpa ymeamero H3 «A.O.» 
aoKTopa Tenia; OHa OTKa3anacb ot 6paTa, ho npnexaaa Hacnex H3 
BepnHHa BMecTe c pa3HioxHBaTejiaMH mto-to npoHioxaTb; h «hk>x» ee 
b neM-TO yTKHyn b Mena; 3Ta apaHb ywe He TOJibKo He OTBenaaa Ha 
noioiOH (a He 3Haa ee), ho B3rjiaaaMH, aKTHBHMMH wecTaMH Bbipawaa 
jiKJTyK) HeHaBHCTb k Ace h HaTauie, no oTHouieHHK) ko MHe Bbipa^ca- 
jia y*e aa»ce He 3JiocTb, a raanHBocTb; 3ia apaHb, yBHflaB MeHa, H3- 
aajiH Hecjiacb, HTo6bi nonacTbca HaBCTpeny MHe, BCTaTb nepeao mhoh, 

MT06bI Ha JIHUe CBOeM Bbipa3HTb... TOIlIHOTy, TOHHO a 6bIJl... noMott- 

HOfi aMOH, a He hcjiobckom; pa3 OHa /.../ OTHeTJiHBO, rpoMKO, c 
HenpHCToflHbiM acecTOM cnJiK)Hyaa, Koraa a npoxoaHJi mhmo Hee; hto 
3TOT njieBOK othochjich xo MHe, a He Mor coMHeBaTbca; a — B3flpor- 
Hyji, tohho nneBOK nonan MHe b hhuo: TaK 6wn oh KpacHopeiHB. 



430 



Bw npcacTaBbTe Moe noaoweHHe: ecaH 6bi He sioaabTHpoBaHHaa 
MeaHTauHH Haa TeMaMH onneecmun, 3aymeHUH, mepnoeoed eeHya, ko- 
topwmh a noaaepwHBaa b ce6e My>KecTBO TopnaTb Ha monnx c yTpa 
ao Benepa, — a 6bi CBaaHaca b HepBHOfl 6oae3HH; MHe Ka3ajiocb, 
hto cthxh moh, HanHcaHHbie b 1903 roay, npoBHaeHUHaabHo otmc- 
tvuih Moe 6yaymee: 6yayniee b ZIopHaxe, rae Kawabift nepBbifi BCTpen- 
Hbifl roaaaHaeu, HeMeu, HopBeweu una ewe kto, ToabKo noTOMy hto 
a h oh b ohhom MHoroTbicHHHOM KOJijieKTHBe, 6yaeT HMeTb npaBo 
ocKopSjiHTb MeHa, ho Tan, hto a we CMory OTBenaTb Ha ocKopSaeHHe: 
aoKa>KHTe-Ka, hto aeBHua cnarcmyaa no MoeMy aapecy, a He Tax bo- 
o6me, xoth... HeMeuKHe aeBHiibi Tax rpoMKo He xapKaioT npH cnaeBe, 
aa h BOo6me He xapicaiOT, a o6THpaic>T pot naaTKOM; TyT »e MeHH 
onaeBaaH: naeBaaH b ayniy, b amio, h a nuueeo He Mor H3MeHHTb: 
ocTaBajiocb 6e>KaTb, ho 3to 03Hanaao 6bi: c6e»aTb ot mwcjih hmchho 
b 3TH aHH SbiTb npH MaaoM Kynoae, o neM — hh*c OcTaBajiocb 
yTeuiaTbca cTHxaMH, mhoh HanncaHHbiMH 1 1 neT Ha3aa: 

BeaHTe MeHH 

Ha KpecTHbie MyKH*. 

CpeflH 3Tofl HeMOft naHTOMHMbi pacnaeBa mcha 3a... BepHocTb noao- 
JKeHHOMy peuieHbio yMHoacaaHCb h >KecTbi OKKyabTHbix yrpo3, o koto- 
pbix a roBopHJi Bbime; wecTbi 3thx yrpo3 oco6eHHO TpyaHo 3apnco- 
BaTb b qbaKTax, MeHH o6cTaBaBiuHx; ho bot oahh, HanpHMep: cpean 

MaCCbl Cie3HOBIIJHXCfl K flejIOBblM flHHM 6bIJlH KaKHe-TO bo Bcex OTHO- 

uieHHax noao3pHTejibHbie (J)Hrypbi, kotopwx hhkto H3 aopHaxueB He 
3HaJi, ho KOTopbie ede-mo 6wjih naeHaMH; cpeaH stoh [Maccu] Bbiae- 
aaaca oco6eHHO oaHH; xyaoft, KaK rjiHCTa, 3eaeHbifi, c MaaeHbKOft 
K03befl 6opoflKOH, c coBepuieHHO cyMacmeauiHMH raa3aMH h c Henpw- 
HTHbiM thkom aepraioiueroca aHua, c pa3i>HTHHMH Ha6oK CBeaeHHoro 
b HepBHoft 3eBOTe pTa; oh Bbiraaaea He to HaHOTHHecKHM ypoaoM, 
He to HepBHbiM 6oxibHbiM, He to OTT>HBjieHHbiM Mep3aBueM, cnoco6- 
HbiM h orpa6HTb, h 3ape3aTb; a cpa3y w.t o6paraa Ha Hero BHHMa- 
HHe: «OTKyaa... 3tot?» Oh 6bin b pendant k nepHoft weHiuHHe: Ta 

)Ke 3aOCTb, JIlOTOCTb, HCTepHKa, Jl»HBOCTb; h npH 3TOM: B HHbie MH- 

HyTbi oh aeaaaca noxo*HM Ha K03aoHororo nopTa, ahko npH6e»aB- 
uiero c ma6auia; y»e oahh BHa ero — eud MOHcmpa: bo MHe Bbi3bi- 
Baji B3apor; aeaaaocb cTbiaHO, hto manue — aHTponococj)bi; ho He 
3T0 ero aeaaao y»acHbiM aaa mchh, a to, hto oh TaK h Bawn b MeHa: 
co CMecbK) HccTynaeHHOro aio6onbiTCTBa, 3aocTH, HeBbipa3HMoft Har- 
aocTH, oh He to hto npecaeaoBaa MeHa, a BTbiKaa b MeHa cboH B3raaa 



* 3aKJiK)HHTenbHbie ctpomkh CTHXOTBopeHHH MAHHfl (1903), ony6jiHKOBaHO b 
c6. 30/IOTO B /IA3YPM (M., 1904), c.239. 



431 



b cnHHy; stot B3raaa h y3HaBan cnHHOft: no MypaunoM; a o6epTbiBaji- 

CH H BHfleJI H3flajIH, HTO MOHCTp CTOHT, BJIHnHyB B MeHfl B3rafliIOM, 

OTyneno-K03JiHHbiM h jhotmm ot cBepiuaeMoro b 3Ty MHHyTy «^y^fl- 
3fl»; oh MeHH «.ena3umv, 3a sthm aejioM ero h npHBoaoiaiH b /JopHax; 
caMoe yacacHoe, hto oh aa>Ke He HeHaBHaea MeHfl: oh 6biji HCtcyccTBeH- 
ho cocTaBjieHHbifl hoptom, hjih KeM-TO, annapaT: aBa ayaa nyaeMe- 

TOB MHe B CnHHy — WapHTb B MeHfl nyjIHMH, He HM OTJIHTblMHJ TaKOB 

6mji 3tot B3rjiaa, 6pomeHHHH yKpaflKoio Ha MeHH; a Koraa a jiobhji 
ero c nonHMHbiM, oh aenaa BHa, hto y Hero thk; jihuo ero aepraaocb 
b cTopoHy, Kax y ayuieBHO-6oabHoro; asa pa3a oh Hanaa Ha MeHa, 
pa3iHB cbok) nacTb h 3acTbiB b stom yrpoxcaiomeM ocKajie; 5KecT 
03HanaJi: «Bot a xaK Te6a: om-om, — h HHMero He ocTaHeTca!» npH- 
apaTbca *e Hejib3H 6bino: sto b HepBHOM THKe cBoaHaacb neaiocTb. 

HyBCTBo yjKaca h raaaHBOCTH, kotopok) a 6bui oxBaneH npn sthx 
HacKOKax npHTameHHoro npoTHB MeHfl y>Ke npocTO MexanunecKoeo 
annapama, a He neaoBeica, 6wjih HeHMOBepHbi; ho Bee npeoaoaeBaao 
npe3peHHe Moe: TaKHM noajibiM npneMOM yrpo>KaTb; pa3 aaace a no- 
uien Ha Hero, a oh CMyTHnca, 3aaepraacH; h nocneuiHa yftTH. 

BnocjieacTBHH, nepe3 2 Mecaua, o ceM rocnoaHHe, OKa3aBineMca 
AOKTopoM, a y3Haji bot ito: ero HaKpbijiH c noaHiHbiM; oh npoH3- 
BOflHji a6opT caMWM OTBpaTHTejibHbiM cnoco6oM h 6bin b 24 naca H3- 
rHaH H3 06mecTBa. 

^yMaio, mto sto eme 6bmo MeHbuiHM: a ero HaKpbiji 3a 2 HeaeaH 
ao H3rHaHH« Ha tom, kto oh KpajicH 3a mhoh h MajiHKOBbiM no 6e3- 
aioaHbiM yjiHuaM, Koraa MaaHKOB 3aBeji MeHa b Ba3ejie k aByM pyc- 
ckhm CTyaeHTaM 3c-3paM, 3aBe;iOBaBiiiHM pyccKoro 6h6jihotchkoh: 
oh 6biji eme h npocTO (Jmaep. 

HeM 6bui oh eme, Han neM mob 6bimb: He 3Haio; b sth ahh qepHbie 
6paTCTBa h hhth pa3Beaoic nepenjiejiHCb b MoeM BoenpnaTHH. fla, — 
Ka>KeTc»: oh 6bia kopotko 3HaKOM c MaaaM UlBapu. 

Kyaa 6bi a hh men: b KaHTHHy, Ha nporyaxy, Ha cTpofiicy, MHe 
ycTpaHBann aocroftHbie BCTpeiH 3apaaoM 3Jio6bi h (foeTHpoBanH onae- 
BaHHeM. JleMypbi noacTynaan ko MHe, ocnapHBaa cboh npaBa naa 
Moeio ayuioio y CBeTjiwx chji*. 

Ho ctohjio MHe noflHHTbCH Ha aeca, — bcc KOHHajiocb: cpean 
MoaoaeacH, pa6oTaiomeH noa KynojioM, He 6wjio hh oaHoro noao3pH- 
TejibHoro jiHua; TaM rocnoacTBOBaaa yaHBHTejibHO iHCTaa aTMoc<}>e- 
pa; Bee, Kax Ha noa6op, 6waH cboh: TOBapHiiM, aa*e 6paTb« h cecT- 
pbi; h noMHHTca: Bee 6bian yapynenbi KacxaaoM thhjih, 6biBmHM noa 
hx HoraMH: BHH3y (Mbi *e pa6oTaaH HaBepxy, — Bbime Bcero). 



JleMypw — 6ecbi (die Lemuren), Bbi3BaHHbie Me<l>HCTO(t>eJieM, hto6m norydHTb 



<I>aycTa (b Kornje BTopoft iacTH TpareflHH). 
432 



B 3TH flHH 6bIJia CTpaHHaH COJIH/iapHOCTb H HenOBTOpHMbl'* phtm 

pa6oTbi, nepemeaniHH k aHHM caaqw Kynoaa b phtm bco6o 6epe>KHO- 
ro h nyTKoro OTHomeHHH apyr k apyry. 

CBeTnbifl Kpyr CTpoHTeaen Kynona mchh noaaepacHBaa: h aep- 
>KancH He co6oio caMHM, a — KpyroM, KoaaeKTHBOM, «mm», Bapyr- 
CTaBiiiHM Bcex Hac npeBbiLuaBiiiHM «H». 

K cepeaHHe aBrycTa mchh TpeBoaoniHe HOHHbie 3ByKH cTaaH no- 

KpblBaTbCH flpyrHM THXHM, M$irKO-My3bIKaabHbIM 3ByK0M, TOHHO 3By- 

kom TOHiafimeH CBHpean Han KaKoft-TO oco6chho My3biKaabHOfi uh- 
Kaaw; b yrjiOBa-rocTHx Moero co3HaHHH, npHBbiKinero b Te ahh cbh- 
3biBaTb HecBH3yeMoe h aeaaTb o6o6iueHHH yxe He no HeaocTaTon- 
HbiM, a no eoece nedocmamonHbiM npH3Hai<aM, OTMenaeTca MHe cB«3b 
Tpane3HHKOBa h mchh no HOHain ycnoKaHBaioiuero 3ByKa; cBjnb moh 
c Tpane3HHKOBbiM, b cbokj onepeab, 6biaa cTpaHHoio CBsnbio mchh h 
co UlTHHae, Maaarn MopreHiuTepH h EayspoM; noflBaeHHe Tpane3HH- 
KOBa y Hac MHe Bbiraaaeao noHBaeHHeM 3Toro KBapTeTa aioaeft b 
Te aHH; oh — npeacTaBHTeab rpynnbi, MHe noMoraromnx; b ero bo- 
npocax h caoBax, aapecoBaHHbix k Ace h aawe k HaTauie b mocm npn- 
cyTCTBHH, h paccabiiiiHBan hchto ropnaHHecKH-pHTyaabHoe; tohho oh 
eme h HOTapnyc, 3aKaioHaK}uiHH aoBepeHHocTb Ha hto-to h npn 3a- 
KaK)neHHH ee CTaBHiuufi mho, Ace h HaTame paa BonpocoB: «Coraa- 
CHbi an?» «npH3biBaK) Bac b CBHaeTeaH». IlpHHeM coaep>KaHHe hx h 
Moero coraacHH Ha hto-to b paccyaoHHOM cMbicae MHe 6bino ray6oKO 
HeacHo; ho b wecTe hcho: «ripH3biBaK> Bac b cBHaeTeaH» — o3Hanaao: 
«Oh 6epeTc« ot Bac aan HeKoero aKTa». «CoraacHbi aH?» — b phtmc 
o6pamaaocb ko bccm HaM. Tohho cocTaBaaacn HeKHfl aKT, noao6Hbifi 
Kynae-npoaawe HaH cBHaeTeabCTBy, hto h, hh k neMy He npHHywaae- 
Mbift, 6epy Ha ce6« HeKyio <.<muccuk>»; noHBaeHHH Tpane3HHKOBa y 
Hac HMeaH 2 cMbicaa aan mchh: 1) cocTaBaeHHe KaK 6bi HeKoeft 6yMarH 
o Moeft 6yaymHOCTH, 2) aHHHan noMOim. MHe ot ce6» h ot rpynnbi 
aroaeft, Bbiiue ero ctohiuhx. 

CTpaHHo: HMeHHO b 3th aHH MHe CTaao hcho, hto Hani nyTb c 
Aceft oTHbme pa3opBaH; mm, ocTaBancb b ayxoBHOH 6aH3ocTH, Ha ny- 
thx >kh3hh pa3BeaeHbi He ToabKO KaK My*: h >KeHa, ho h KaK napa, 
npoxoanmaH no >kh3hh; b 3th aHH omymeHHe 6biao oco6eHHO hpko; 
cKopo oho 3a6biaocb; oho CTaao aeftcTBHTeabHOCTbio 1) b MHr Moero 
OTi>e3aa b Pocchio, 2) b MHr Moeft bctpchh c K.H. b Mockbc 3) b MHr 
Moefl BCTpeHH c Acefl b 1921 roay*. BcnoMHHaio Tenepb, hto Tpane3- 



* 12 hmjw 1916 r. 6bin ooHapoaoBaH BbicoiaHiiJHH yKa3 o «npH3MBe paTHHKOB 
I h II pa3pswoB», corjiacHO KOTopoMy Benwfl 6biji npH3BaH Ha BoeHHyio oiy>ic6y. Corjia- 
cho pyKonHCH «)Kh3hh 6e3 Ach» (rBJI, <J). 25, Kap-r.31, ea.xp.l), oh yexan H3 HopHaxa 
16 aBrycTa (h.ct.), a 3 ceHTH6pa npHexaji b rieTporpaa. BcKope nocne sToro oh 3HaKO- 
mhtch b MocKBe c «K.H.», T.e. c KjiaBflwefl HHKOJiaeBHoft BacHJibeBofi: (cm. cjiea. ctp.) 



433 



hhkob b me uMeHHo 6hu cmoHA neped Aceu c eonpocoM 060 mhc, h 
3a hhm — Eaysp. 

Hto KacaeTca no noMoum MHe, to xpoMe MopajibHoro iioctohh- 
Horo nofl6oapa, BbipaacaBHieroca b nyTb uiyTOHHOM TOHe («HHHero, 
HHiero, — aepHCHTecb: HHiero He noaenaeuib, Taic — Haao»), h 3aMe- 
thji CTpaHHoe HBjieHHe; nocjie yxoaa Tpane3HHKOBa pa3 TOTiac ace 
pa3flajica CTyK 06 yrjioBoft wejio6 Haiuero aoMa: CTyK najiKott; noM- 

HHTCJJ, H, BblCyHyBUlHCb H3 OKHa, yBHfleJI B JiyHHOH HOMH TOJlbKO HTO 

6biBiuero y Hac h onaTb onyTHBiueroca y aoMa Tpane3HHKOBa; yBHaaB 

MeHH, OH HeCKOJIbKO CMyTHJICH H CTajI 06l.HCHJlTb MOTHB CBOerO B03- 

BpameHHH k HauieMy aoMy; a, npH3HaTbca, He noMHio 3Toro o6bacHe- 
hhh; oho noKa3ajiocb mhc Hey6eflHTejibHbiM. B co3HaHHH ctohjio: 3a- 
neM Tpane3HHKOB B03Bpamanca k AOMy? He oh jth CTynaji b *eno6? 
M OTaajiocb: oh. Jinn qero? Ho MHoro acecTOB Tpane3HHKOBa b Te 
uhh a He noHHMaji; a noHaji: oh 3to-to TattHO aenaeT ana MeHa; h 
3TO — k noMouiH. B 3Ty »e HOHb y flOMa, okojio »eJio6a h pa3aanca 
My3biKajibHbiH 3ByK. C toh nopbi no HOiaM HHoraa pa3aaBanHCb Mar- 
KHe My3biKajibHbie 3ByKH; HHoraa hm npeamecTBOBaa: CTyK najiKH 
»ceno6. B ayuie HppauHOHaabHo oTaaBanocb: «3to npHxoaHT Tpane3- 
hhkob nocTyqaTb. Oh — HeiTO Bpoae 6bijioro HOMHoro CTopo>Ka: ot- 
nyrHBaeT ot MeHa CTpaxH». H Jiexcaji b nocTenH, npHCJiyuiHBaacb k 
My3biKajibHOMy 3ByKy; MHe aejiaaocb jierKo, tohho a cjiyuiaji 3ByKH 
BeTxoBeHa; b okhc CToana 3Be3fla; a thxo 3acbinan. 

H He cnaa no yTpa Bee jieTO. Tenepb coh CTaa cjieTaTb ko mhc 
MeJKay chom h 6oapcTBOBaHHeM aejiajincb cocToaHHa co mhoh. 
R KaK 6bi cboGohho JieT&n b KaKHx-TO npocTpaHCTBax; h — 03Hpaji 
OKpecTHOCTH; pas a HaTKHyjica Ha KaKoe-To lepHoe, 3Jioe cymecTBo; 
oho 6pocHJiocb Ha MeHH, ho a OTnyrHyji ero: r omnyeuea/i eeo ne om 
ce6n, a om naiueeo de/ia; oho — 6bino — Bpar. 

B apyroH pa3, He 3acbinaa, a co3HaHHeM yxHyji b coh 6e3 nepe- 
pwBa co3HaHHa; 6bino Tax: Bapyr tohho y MeHa pacKpwjiHCb naTKH h 



«c 1916 roaa KjiaBans HHKo.iaeBHa aeJiaeTca MHe 6jih3Koh b pa6oTe "mockobckou 
epynnm" [A.O.]; b 1917 roay — ewe "6/iuxe", a b 1918 rony npoHcxoiiHT Haiua BCTpe- 
na c Heti; h nepBOH H3 Bcex efi yMeio ece-ece-ece paccica3aTb o roaax 12-15-mx» («Abto- 
6Horpa(J)HHecKoe nHCbMo» Bejioro P.B. HBaHOBy-Pa3yMHHKy, «Cahiers du monde russe 
et sovietique», 15, Jfel-2, 1974, c.78). 

B rwcbMe k MaTepH ot 29 aeKa6psi 1921 roaa, H3 BepjiHHa, Bejiwfl nHcaji: «BHae.n 
ii-pa IIlTeflHepa h Aero. ripeacTaBb: nepBbift HenoBeic, KOToporo n BCTpeTHJi b EepjiHHe, 
6wjia Ac»; OHa c aoKTopoiu npoexaaa H3 lIlBeftuapHH nepe3 EepjiHH b XpHCTHaHHio, h 
— o6paTHo: naBaTb 3BpHTMHMecKHe npeacTaBJieHHs; mu npoBejw c Heft 4 ana; h Ha B03- 
BpaTHOM nyTH OHa ocTanacb 4 nun b EepjiHHe. B o6meM — He CKaacy, 4To6bi Ac« nopa- 
iiOBajia MeHd; OHa npeBpaTHJiacb b Kaxyio-TO MOHameHKy, He >Kejia>oiiiyK> HHiero 3HaTb, 
KpoMe cbohx iiyxoBHbix HcxaHHH». (UrAJIH, $.53, on.l, ea.xp.359). OKOHqaTenbHbiB 
pa3pbiB Bejioro c A. A. TypreHeBOfl npoH3omea b BepaHHe b anpeJie 1922 r. 



434 



a KaK Boaa H3 OTBepcTHa nepe3 naTKH BbicKOHHa H3 ce6a h CBo6oano 
noHeccH no iuBefluapcKHM JiaHama(J)TaM; 6bia aeHb — bot a, HeBHaH- 
Mbifl, Hecycb Ha [Hepa36.] aopory; no aopore noB03Ka, 3anpa*eHHaa 
6eaoft JiouiaiibK); b noB03Ke uiBeftuapeu; a aeqy npaMO Ha aoniaab, 

HO CB060flHO npOCBHCTblBaK) CKB03b Hee H Hecycb fla^bUJe, K KaKOH-TO 

uean; HaKOHeu a npoHecca b KaKofl-To ropoa h b hcm HHKopnopHpo- 
BaHHbiH, ho He b CBoe o6jiHHHe, aoaro pa3bicKHBaK) KaKyio-TO aaMy 
Baoab Majibix ynmeK; HaKOHeu — Bcxo*y Ha KpbiJibuo, 3bohk>, bxo- 
*y; MeHH BCTpeiaeT aaMa (a Mor 6bi ee onHcaTb no MeabiaHiuHx noa- 
Po6hoctch); no-BHUHMOMy, sto Kanaa-To oieHb KpynHaa oKKyjibTH- 
CTKa, Beaymaa orpoMHyio HHTpHry npoTHB aoKTopa: a ee BbicaeaHa h 
noceTHji; OHa aoBepiHBO MHe pa3T>acHaeT cboh naaHbi; a — Bbicay- 
uiHBato, BbiBeawBaio, 4To6bt hx coo6njHTb aoKTopy; oTKpbiBaeTca 
aioTaa ee HeHaBHCTb k HeMy; OHa ayMaeT, mo a — cboh; Kaacayio 
MHHyry OHa npn cbohx oieHb 6ojibiuHx oKicyabTHbix cnoco6HocTax 

MO>KeT MeHa HaKpblTb C noaHHHbIM H TyT >Ke yHHHTO>KHTb; ho — eft 

HeBaoMeK; moh 5KecTbi cKpbiBaroT MeHa; b stom yvieHHH hccth mh- 
mhkh cKa3bmaeTca mpeuupoeKa 3thx nocaeaHHx, yacacHbix MecaueB; 
a noHHMaK), hto Moe noBeaeHHe — 3KcnepHMeHT b npaBHaax yace 
coBepuieHHo OKKyabTHoro noBeaeHHa: yvieHHe b acTpajibHOM MHpe 
HaiuynaTb Bpara; h, npH6jiH3HBaiHCb k HeMy, ocTaTbca hm neoT- 

KpblTblM. 

TyT a npocHyjica c lyBCTBOM, mto He Bee b stom cHe «co«»; y 
MeHa 6wjio wyBCTBo BepHO HcnojiHeHHoro nopyieHHa. 

MHe ayMaeTca, hto dcma oaHa H3 HeMHorHx KpynHeftuiHx ok- 
KyabTHCTOK-Teococ})OK npn Be3aHT, wHBymaa b TepMaHHH; b KaKOM 
ropoae a ee noceTHji, He 3Haw; ropoaoK 6bin HeBeaHK. 

B apyroM ncne-ue cne» 3Toro nepwoaa a hto-to HanyTaa, aamH- 
maa TeTeaHyM, b pe3yabTaTe nero ApHMaH BcnbixHya b hcm; ApHMaH 
6bia noacapoM; h a BHaea o6pa3 ero BCTaBiiiHfl H3 abiMKa Haa naaMe^ 
HeM npoaHToro nero-TO Ha 6ctohhom noay; oh 6bia b nepcnacKOM 
oaeaHHH, BbicoKoK manKe c >Ke3aoM h aaHHHofi ceaofi 6opoaoft; oh 
CBo6oaHO Hecca c abiMaMH h naaMeHaMH no 6eTOHHbiM KopwaopaM 
noa3eMHoro 3Tawa cpeaH cyeTHiunxca b ywace aHTponocoqiOB; h 
kto-to cKa3aa MHe: «3to — Bauia onaoujHOCTb». FIojKap H3oaHpo- 
Baan; Bbixoanao, hto a <jyTb-4yTb 6biao He cnaana «reTeaHyM». 

TaKoro poaa CHbi qacTO nocemaan MeHa bo BTopofl noaoBHHe 
aBrycTa; h a MHoroMy b hhx ynnaca. 

B 3th aHH noaBaeHHe oaHoro anua b jIopHaxe ocraHOBHao oco- 
6oe BHHMaHHe; noaBHaca tot hmchho crpaHHbiH aHTponococJ) — Moa- 
HaaHBbifl, c aaHHHofl 6eaoKypoH 6opoaofi h c aaHHHbiMH BoaocaMH, 
KOTopwH coeaHHHaca co mhoh b oaHOM MoeM nocTynxe, Ka3aBiueMca 
MHe nocTynKOM orpoMHOfl cHMBoaHiecKoft BawHOCTH; b JlefinuHre, 



435 



b ahh Ka3aBiiiHecji MHe jihhmh «Moeeo noc6HuteHUH», Koraa a yBHaen 

(j)H3HHeCKHMH TJTa3aMH «He6UdllMblU C6em» H KOrfla B 3TH MHHyTbl 

Bbixoaa H3 ce6a (})H3HHecKH MHe Ka3anocb, hto a ynaay b snHJiencHH, 
bo BpeMH jickuhh MHe Ha pyKH ynan snHjienTHK; mw ero bwhccjih co 
CTpaHHbiM 6^ohzihhom; a paccTerHBaa oaeacay Ha snnaenTHKe, oh 
KpHHan «HcueJieHHe», a 6eaoKypbiH Sopoaai CHaea nepeao mhok> b 
rjiy6oKOM h 6e3ynacTHOM MoanaHHH; h noneMy-TO HanoMHHji MHe epe- 
mh c kocou, hjih — pok; 3nHnenTHK, naBUiHH MHe b pyKH, Ka3aaca 
MHe naBiuen MHe b pyKH cyab6oH Moero HH3iuero «#», Koropoe a 
aoaaceH BonoHHTb no >kh3hh c ero 6ojie3Hbio; hjih ace: a aoa>KeH npn- 
HHTb KaKyio-To 6ojie3Hb nocBfliueHHs; MHe Ka3ajiocb, hto 6eccTpacT- 
ho cHflHiuHH aHTponocotJ), «epeMn», noHHMan cbok) pojib, KaK yiacT- 
HHKa HeKoero aKTa mhctcphh Moefl >kh3hh; eMy 6biao ner 45; y Hero 
6biji BHfl «3Hd>ou4eeo»; ryr Bomea aoKTop h nocMOTpea Ha Hac Tpo- 
hx, Ha MeHH, noaaepacHBaBiuero roaoBy npnnaaoHHOMy, pacnpocTep- 
TOMy Ha nony b coceaHeft c ayaHTopneft nycTofl KOMHaTe, h Ha «epe- 
mx», cHfleBiuee HenoaBH>KHo Haa HaMH; aoKTop cTporo, Beme o6Me- 
pna raa3aMH Hac, cKa3aa «HHnero»; h — Bbimea. 

FIOTOM H BCnOMHHa/l CBHaeTeaa MOerO peilieHHH B3aTb b ce6a 

6one3Hb 3Toro leaoBeKa, KOTopbifi — Kopiameeca b Myicax nocBa- 
meHHe «JJ»; ho a ero 6oabiue HHrae He BHaea; He BHaea — «do» 3Toro 
cayiaa, He BHaea h noc/ie; a 3Haa b anno cothh aHTponoco<J)OB; a 
3Haa Bcex CKonbKO-HH6yflb BbiaaiomHxca HneHOB; Moe «epeM#» hmctio 
oneHb 3HaHHTejibHbiH bha; h r/iaBHoe: mw c hhm 6biaH ynacTHHKH b 
orpoMHOM aaa mchu aKTe BbiHeceHHa 6oabHoro Ha ce6e; oh — Hcqe3, 
HHrae He noaBaaacb. 

H bot oh no«BHjicfl b flHH, Koraa a HaxoaHaca b rny6HHe Moefl 
6one3HH, b flHflx pemeHHH cyubdbi; a 6bia TeM HMeHHO npnnaaoHHbiM 
6onbHbiM, b KOToporo BuenHHHCb h TamamHe ero b 6e3aHy nepTH, h 
3abie, KycaiomHe CTpacTH (moh cTpacTb k HaTauie), a «o«», naBuiHH 
MHe b pyKH h pa3/mpaeMbiH, KopnaiuHftca b npeacMepTHOM npnnaaKe, 
Bee >Ke BHaea «CBaTbiHK>» h dopMOTaji, KaK tot 6ojibHOH: «Heil» 
(«HcueneHHe»). 

FIoHB^eHHe Ha aeKunax aoKTopa h b KaHTHHe 3Toro neaoBeKa, 
KOToporo a npo3Baji «.epeMm>, HanoMHHaao MHe: «Tbi caM b Jleftn- 

UHre nOBOJIH^ B3aTb B pyKH CBOH POK, CBOK) 6ojie3Hb; H TaUIHTb 

ee Ha ce6e. Hy h — Tamn». — «Hy h TamH. H, BpeM«, noaBHjiocb 
b flHHx poKa nepea to6ok); a Hay c to6oh: noMHHiub h tw, KaK mm 
bojiokjih tboh Ta^ejibiH pok; Tbi 3aabixajica noa Ta^ecTbK) ynaBiuero 
ce6a caMoro b "^T"; a Te6e noMora^. fla 6yaeT noMombio Moe no- 
aBjieHHe cioaa nepea to6oh, b ahh npHHaTHa to6oh CBoefl KapMbi»*. 



* Cp. «aBTo6Horpa(i>M4ecKoe nHCbMO» MBaHOBy-Pa3yMHHKy: (cm. cnea. erp.) 
436 



CTpaHHo: c.TaKHM BemHM, noMHauiHM ece BbipaaceHHeM oh no- 
raaawBaa Ha MeHH cbohmh rjiy6oKHMH, ymhwmh raa3aMH, cum Ha 
jieKUHH, Han npoxoaa mhmo mchh. Pa3 a BCTaa h HapoiHO npomeaca 
pa3a flBa nepea hhm: 3to — 03Hataao: «.H — npneMaio TBoe noaBae- 
HHe»; b Te aHH y MeHH 6biJi aap jkcctob; kto-to npHKa3biBaa MHe 
caeaaTb to hjih apyroe, Heo6i>HCHHMoe HHKaK; a aeaaa h Ha6aioaaa: 
OTBeTHbie pHTMbi; nacTo a noaynaa TOTnac OTBerabiH onecr o6cTa- 
hhh; Tax h ABHJKeHHaMH, noBopoTaMH, Bbi6opoM aopoa<eK aan npo- 
xoaa, onepeaceHHeM anu nponycKaHHeM mhmo ce6n tex hjih hhwx 
jiioaeH, cnaeTeHHbix b acecTbi, pHTMy cTaBHa Bonpocw h noaynaa 
BHHTHbie OTBeTHbie »cecTHKyaflUHOHHbie (J)pa3bi. )KecT Moero npoxoaa 
2 pa3a mhmo «epeMenu» 6bia tofo a:)6yKOK5 aaa HeMbix, kotopoh a 
b Te aHH ynHaca; k MoeMy H3yMaeHHK>: 3aayMHHBoe «BpeMH», o6biHHO 
cepbe3Hoe h HapoiHTO He raaaaiuee Ha MeHH, c/iuuikom He raaaH- 
mee, ho hbho noMHamee, — OTKpoBeHHO ycMexHyaocb h, KaK 6bi noa- 
MHTHyB, KHBHyao MHe lyTb-nyTb, — onnpaacb pyxaMH Ha naaKy h no- 
xpbiBaa pyKH cboh aaHHHoio, 6eaoKypoK> 6opoaoio. KoHeino, hhkto 
He yBHaea stoh Hauieft nepeKannKH o JleftnuHre, kpomc. Mapnn Rylo- 
BaeBHbi, CTOHBUien nepea HaMH: oHa CTporo nocMOTpeaa na mchh, KaK 
6bj roBopa: «Bbi 3to hto? HrpaeTe c cyab6oft? A 3to — cepbe3Ho». 

B CBH3H c cydb6ou h BpeMeneM b sth j\na BCTaao pemeHbe: moh 
cyab6a. — yexaTb; c Aceft nyTb — kohhch (CTpaHHo, 3to nyBCTBO aep- 
waaocb aHuib aHefi 10; noTOM ero 3a6bia); HaTama MHe — Myxa; h 
yeay b Pocchio, ocTaBHB Bee: He sto an MHe noacKa3bmaeT BCTaBiuee 
nepeao mhoh «epeMA», ycMexHyBuieeca Ha Moe npeaao)KeHHe h aaaee 

BOaOHHTb C HHM «^0», TH5KK0 6oabHOrO: BOaOHHTb B POCCHK). 

B stom cMbicae y MeHa 6bia pa3roBop c Acett h c Ilomio, oneHb 
cepbe3Hbifl, OKoao 3aMKa BHp3eK, Haa «Bau»; ho noimo CKa3aa: 
«HeT, BopH, Te6e ye3a<aTb Heiero». W 3HaiHTeabHO nocMOTpea: h 
npHHaa stot B3raaa: «BbiTb Te6e c HaTauiett». rioHaa oaHo: nepurriM 
yexaTb Tenepb, ho Koraa co6biTHH >kh3hh caMH noBeayT b Pocchio. 

TaK b Te aHH 6bia mht peujHTeabHoro noBopoTa: B3rana Ha Poc- 
chio; h — 3HaHHe: a TaM 6yay; BMecTe c TeM a noHaa: «Mbi c "epe- 
MeneM" 6yaeM "ero" BoaoiHTb eme HeKOTopoe BpeMa 3aecb». 



«flo aBneHHM, Bcnbixa — coh He cow. cxopee bmxoa m ce6a b KaKOfl-To vepme, rue 
BcrpeTHJi JIOKTopa, KOTopoviy Moe Bbicuiee "J?" nano KaK 6u Ha kto-to o6eT (HH3mee 
' V Heaopaccjibiiuajio), h HenocpeacTBeHHo nocjie o6pma npoiuaHHH, Ha jieKUHH aok- 
Topa MHe b pyKH cBajiHJicn inunenmux, KOToporo Bbwec x h KOToporo npHBOAHji b 
co3HaHHe, npnieM 6mjio hcho: "3nuAenmuK" — 3to tot "H'\ kotophh ot npHH»Toro 

peiUeHHH MOHM BblCUIHM "Jf" BCK) nOC/ICayjOUiyiO KH3Hb 6y.HeT HeCTH BenHHaflujHe 

CTpaAaHHsiw. Cm. TaKJKe npnMeiaHHe Benoro k pncyHKy b nncbMe: «3nHJienTHK naaaeT 
MHe b pyKH, T.e. "H" caM naaaio ce6e b pyKH: Hecy KapMy» («Cahiers du raonde russe 
et sovietique», 15, J*l-2, 1974, c.72). 



437 



Bo3Bpamaxcb aoMOft c riomio, mm, Hy kohchho, Ha oahhokoh 
aopo»Ke BCTpeTHJiH «epeMft»; oho, npoxoaa, nocMOTpeao cepbe3Ho 
Ha MeH«; cTpaHHo: «oho», nocne Moero noaxoaa k HeMy, bchkhh pa3 
npH BCTpene aaBaao noHaTb, hto «oho» — oTKJiHKHyjiocb; u — udem 

CO MHOIO. 

Ka*eTCH b stot *e aeHb, jc, BCTpeTHBuincb c Mapneft flKOB/ieB- 
hoh, nporyaHBaaca c Hen nepea « Villa Hansi» h Heo>KHaaHHo aaa ce- 
6a CTaji eft roBOpHTb, hto xotcji 6w b 3toh kh3hh 3apHCOBaTb nopT- 
peT aoKTopa; h, mohcct 6biTb, b (feopMe poMaHa-aBTo6Horpa(J>HH; TyT 
>Ke, Ha JiyacafiKe, npoHecancb nepBbie a6pncbi toA cepHH KHHr, koto- 
pwe a xoTeji 03arjiaBHTb «Mox xu3Hb» («KomuK JIemaee», «3anucKu 
HydaKa», «KpeiyeHbiu Kumaeif», nHanano BeKa», «BocnoMHHaHHa o 
AOKTope» cyTb pa3Hbie 3CKH3Hbie npo6bi nepa onepTHTb 3to Henoa- 
cnyflHoe 3aaaHHe)*. 

M.R. cKa3ana aoBepnHBo: 

— «Hto ace, — nonpo6yflTe: Tenepb Haao cmctio aeftcTBOBaTb». 

B 3TOT «e, HJIH B 6jlH»<aHIIIHH, aeHb, B CBH3H C npHCJiyUIHBaHHCM 

k pHTMy «6pe\feHU», b cbh3H c pacTymeft hotoh npn6aH5KeHHa Kap- 
Mbi, a, He yexaBiiiHH b Pocchho, noHan, hto momcht «HeKoeeo ai<ma» 
npH6jiH)KaeTCH; h BcnoMHnaca aeftnuHrcKHH Bbixoa H3 ce6a nepea 

CHOM, HO He B COH, a B KapTHHbl KOMHaT, no KOTOpbIM MeHH BaeK aoK- 

Top; a jiHiiib Ha MHr 3a6biaca h TOTnac onHyaca 3a ctojiom, nepea 
nameA Me*ay aoKTopoM hMI ZIoktop cnpauiHBaa mcha: «Coraac- 
Hbi hh bw Ha 3to?» — Ha hto, a He 3Haa; h a ycawuiaa cboh roaoc, — 
THXHfi, KaK 6w b noay3a6biTbe: «CoraaceH». MHoro a ayviaa noTOM: 
«Ha hto ace a aaa coraacHe?» «HeKuu aKtn» cToaa b aHax JleftnuHra; 
noTOM CTymeBaaca; Tenepb oh — BcnbixHya onaTb: HaBa3HHBaa TeMa 
pHTMa, Kax HeKoefl HHcnnpauHH («.J\onyu.tH, aoa>KeH»), Beab h 6waa 
TeMoft aHen; Tenepb-To MHe aaayT hchto onacHoe, KaK «6oM6a», b 
pyKH; h a pyKaMH hchto coBepmy; 06 stom-to npHxoana cnpauiHBaTb 



* B rmcbMe, nocjiaHHOM 20 hoh6p» 1915 r. (h.ct.) H3 Ap/iecreflMa P.B. MBaHOBy- 
Pa3yMHHKy, Beaut) nHcan: «Tenepb we cH*y Haa 3-befi nacTbio "Tpu/ioeuu", KOTopaa 
pa3pacTaeTc» ywacHo h rpo3KT 6biTb TpexTOMHeM. Ha3MBaeTcn OHa "Moh xu3Hb": 
nepBbift tom — "JleTCTBO, OTponecTBO h lOHocTb". PlepBasi HacTb TOMa KaK h ABe apy- 
rae lac™ b cymnocTH caMOCTOHTeabHbi; ee KOHiy qepe3 2-2 >/2 Mecima; OHa Ha3biBaeTcn 
"Komux Jlemaee" (roflbi MaaneHiecTBa); /.../ Pa6oTa MeHH KpafiKe HHTepecyeT: MHe 
MenTaeTCH (fcopMa, rae ")Ku3Hb JJaeuda KonnepfpuAbda" B3«Ta no "BuAbeeAbMy Meu- 
cmepy", a 3tot nocaeaHHft nepecaweH b co6mthh xch3kh ayuieBHofl; npHxonHTCH iep- 
naTb MaTepnaji pasyMeeTca H3 CBoefl >kh3hh, ho He 6Horpa(J>H<iecKH: T.e. cooctbchho 
OTBeTHTb ce6e: "KaK Tbi CTaa TaKHM, KaKOB ™ ecTb", T.e. caM0C03HaHHeM 35-neTHero 
aaTb pejibeij) cbohm M/iaxieHMecKHM 6e30TMeTHbiM bojihchhxm, ocBo6oaHTb 3th BOJiHe- 
HHsi ot Bcero HaHOCHOro h noKa3axb, KaK ndpo MejioBeiea ecTecTBeHHO pa3BHBaeTcs H3 
ce6)i it caMO H3 ce6a b CTpeMjieHHH k nonoacHTenbHbiM ycToxM >kh3hh npHxoflHT iepe3 
pna HcxycoB k... ayxoBHott HayKe /.../ h aeTCKaH necHa ayum, npeBpameHHaa b opKecT- 
poBaHHyio chmiJjohhio, ecTb Ham nyTb» (LirAJlH, $-1782, on.l, ea.xp.6). 



438 



HOTapHyc-Tpane3HHKOB; Ha sto HaMeKaeT h «epeAui», noHBHBiueecH 
nepeao mhoh, KaK h b hhh JlettnuHra; yace HeKaa CTpaHHaa MHayKUHH 
o coaep)KaHHH «aKma» 6waa npH aBepax. 

B caeayiowHX ahhx MOft «ai<m» oco3Haaca (06 3tom hhjkc). 

3aecb jiHiiib cKaacy. MeHH MoryT cnpocHTb, Kaxow Jiormcofi h 
CB5T3biBan aioaeft, mcjiohh 6wTa, nepeKHBaHHsi, TaK, hto CBX3b oct- 
paHHfljia MHe peabe4> 6wTa h b 3tom 6biTy, He napymaa 3aKOHOB ero, 
peBoniouHHH3HpoBajia caMoe coaep*aHHe b phtmhhcckhx >KecTax h 

CHMBOJIHHeCKHX o6p»flaX, npOH3BOflHMbIX MHOtt OTMeTJIHBO, BHJITHO, 

HHoraa aep30CTHO, ho — Tax, hto noa nocTynKH moh Heab3« 6wjio 
noflKonaTbCH co CTopoHbi, h6o hx KaK 6bi h He 6mjio (a ohh 6wjih duxo 
CMe/ibi, 3a hto mch« Bpam h co6HpajiHCb y6HTb — TaK OTziaBajiocb 
b HMarHHauHax)? Ha stot Bonpoc OTBeny: h BcayiUHBaaca b 3ByK pht- 
Ma, b HHcnHpauHto; h k cepeaHHe aBrycTa onyx yTOHHHaca; a c yTpa 
pacxpbiBaji «Eu6auk>»\ h bchkhh OTKpbiTbift tckct bhhtho OTBenan Ha 
nocTaBJieHHbiH Bonpoc o me/ne purrma; H3 Hero h yace 3Haa: Hero b 
CMbicae pHTMa MHe aep>KaTbCH ceroaHH; h B3«b 3to nmo, KaK TeMy 
HHH, bo Bcex BCTpenax, co6biTHHx h pa3roBopax h BCTpenaa numb 
BapHauHH meMbi; hx y3HaBaji h nocTynan coo6pa3HO npaBHjiaM KaKO- 
to-to My3biKajibHo-3COTepHHecKoro KOHTpanyHKTa; b o6biHHofl jiorH- 
Ke yn^OTHeHHH KOHTpanyHKTa Ka3aaHCb 6bi 6peaoM, a b OTBeTax 
pHTMa MHe H3BHe 6pea nonynaji ray6oHaftuiee ocMbicaeHHe; Becb bo- 

npOC 6bIJl O TOM, HT06bI flyXOBHblft CMblCJI 6bIH npOHTeH, ayXOBHblft 

OTBeT Ha Hero b wecTax aaH; ho xcecTbi He aoaacHbi 6wjih 3auenji«Tb- 
ch 3a 6biT, MejioHH o6bineHHOft hch3hh; 3auenHCb, h — hjih tw coh- 
aeuib c yMa, hjih caynHTca hchto HenonpaBHMoe aaa Te6a, b pe3yab- 
TaTe nero tm 6yaeuib BparaMH noftMan c nojiHHHbiM. 

Tax a Hec «6oM6y» Moero 3HaHH» cpeaH poeB aioaeft, MorymHX 
MeHH TOJiKHyTb h BbnBaTb B3pbiB; Hec k HeKoeMy «aKmy», CMbica 
KOToporo ypa3yMeBajic« b OTaenbHbix «afanax» HeuMaeuHamuenou 
jiorHKH, BCHKaa ouiH6Ka b kotopwx nojiWHa 6biaa onaoTHeTb: Moe/o 
auhhou cydb6ou. 

K nocTaHOBKe mhctcphh «&aycm» h totobhjich c bojihchhcm, 
KaK 6yaTO hto-to ot Moefi cyab6bi pemaaocb b Heft; 3aKJHOHHTejib- 
Haa cueHa pHcyeT cnaceHHe OaycTa, a h Beab Bee npeamecTByiomHe 
flHH nepexcHBaa rHraHTCKoe pa3aBoeHHe co3HaHH»; moh ayma 6biJia 
pa3opBaHa nonoaaM: CBeTaaa ee nacTb 6wjia KaK 6bi BbixBaneHa My- 
Koft H3 Tena h oTKyaa-TO H3aaan ra«aeaa, KaK apyraa ee nojiOBHHa, 
o6cTaHHa« TbMoft, — ao6HBajiacb; TaK nacTb ayiun cTaaa Bbiuie ce6a 
— BHe ce6n: OHa yHHaacb 6wTb 6eccTpacTHbiM HrpoKOM b napTHH 
«6e/ibix» npoTHB <mepHbix»; apyraa ee nacTb cTaaa aepeBHHHOft <Jm- 
rypKofl KopoaH, KOTopoft caeaaan max h MaT. 

439 



OTCK>,aa MbicjiH o ABOHHoft ayme; CB»3b b hhx c <J>aycTOM; flOKTOp 
OaycT — (Jmrypa peHeccaHca, 6opiomaaca co cpeaHeBeKOBbeM; moh 
peHeccaHC 6bui — b BbipbiBe H3 Bcex TpaaHimft; HecnpocTa MHe Tpa- 
ne3HHKOB roBopHji o peHeccaHce b Te ahh; «cpedHeeeKoebe», «eedb- 
Mbi», «mbMa» — 6mt Tex cnoeB «A.O. », KOTopbie 6biaw oxBaMeHbt 
yxe CKaHflajioM. R omyiuaa cBoe npaBo Ha xaKOH-To 6yHT; ho b neM 
3aKnK)Hanacb Moa, TaK CKa3aTb, zieea/ibHocmb b 6yHTe, 3to CTajio 
MHe npoacHHTbCH BnocaeacTBHH; h npoacHaaocb c 16-ro ao 21-ro ro- 
aa: y»e b Pocchh, b aeaTeabHOCTH, b no3HUHH Moefi OHjioco<t>HH Kyjib- 
Typbi; b 1915 may 3a 5 aeT ao aeaTeabHOCTH b BoabHoft <t>Haoc[ocJ)- 
ckoh] AccouHauHH a 6bin yace, Tax CKa3aTb, «8o/ib(f)u.ieii» ao «Bo/tb- 
$u/ibi»*; h TaKOBbiM 6poflHji b 06mecTBe; MeHa noHHMajiH OTaeab- 
Hbie ayuiH: ho eme He 6biao, raK CKa3aTb, xapTHH BoabHOCTH aaa 
3Toro noHHMaHHa; 0Ha Bbipa6aTbiBaaacb b coujiaabHbix KpH3Hcax, b 
KOTopbie «A.O.» 6biao cTpeMHTenbHo 6pomeHo; b caMOM 06mecTBe 
yace inea 6oh aByx Hanaa; c oahhm 6bia aoKTop; c apyrHM — «o6me- 
CTBeHHoe MHeHHe»; Haao 6bino b stom o6uuecTBeHHOM mhchhh npo- 
6HTb 6peiiib. 

${ Hec b ce6e OaycTa, 6opauieroca co BceMH «BaeHepaMU», 6ay>K- 
AaromHMH cpean Hac**. 

IloBTopHK): HHKoraa o6pa3bi apaMbi «&aycm» He cToaaH TaK 
6jih3KO k Moefi ayiue, KaK b sth aHH; tohho TeTe MHe BnepBbie ot- 
Kpbiaca; ToabKO hto nepea TeM oh MHe OTKpbiaca b cbohx ecTecT- 
BeHHo-HayiHbix aoMbicaax; Tenepb OTKpbiaca h KaK xyao>KHHK. H aoK- 
Top noHBaaeTCH b sth aHH nepeao mhoh; h a cawuiy ero «da» 3TOMy 
MoeMy yBaeneHHK) TeTe. 

JXo chx nop a 3apHcoBbiBaa (j)aKTbi Moero co3HaHH«, copTHpya hx 
no rpynnaM: 1) aHHHaa >KH3Hb, 2) Mbicab o «CBepxaHiHOM», 3) no- 
Momb, 4) nanaaeHHH, 5) CTpaHHbie coBiiaaeHHa h TeMa «Cydb6bi» h 
T.a. 3th rpynnbi aBaeHHft pa3birpbmanHCb oaHOBpeMeHHo; Bee, mto a 
CHarocb 3apHcoBaTb, BHxpeHocno npoHocnaocb Ha npoTaweHHH KaKHx- 
HH6yab 10 aHe8: h Ka^cabitt aeHb cocToaa H3 paaa BHxpeBbix momch- 
tob: BHxpb- cBeTa; wepe3 lac: Biixpb norH6eabHoft TbMbi; iepe3 nac: 
BbicoKaa npHnoaHHTOCTb Haa co6oh h npeHcnoaHeHHocTb >KepTBeH- 
HOCTbK); nepe3 nac: ropeHHe hh3ujhx hvbctb; hotom — ropeHb h 6yHT; 
noTOM: noTOK aK>6BH k aoKTopy, k Ace, k HaTauie, k Bay3py. M 
Becb 3tot 6ypHO-npoTHBopeHHBbiH pofi Hecca b npocTpaHCTBe 24-x 
nacoB; HeyaHBHTeabHO, mto Koraa KOHiaaca aeHb, MHe Ka3aaocb, 



* Cm. CTarbK) Scnoro BOTlbHAH 0HJIOCO&CKAH ACCOUHAUMR. — «Ho- 
Ba« PyccKaa KHHra», 1922/1 (HHBapb), c.32-33. Taioxe h ero nOHEMY ft CTAJl CMM- 
BOJTPfCTOM... (Ann Arbor, 1982), c. 109-1 10. 

** BarHep — «yMeHwft ceKpeTapb» <I>aycTa, onnueTBopeHHe «aKaneMHMecKoro ca- 
MoaoBOJibcTBa», nojwaji npoTHBonojro*HocTb bchho HuiyweMy <I>aycTy. 



440 



hto roa OTaeaaeT MeHH ot Toro, hto 6biao Bnepa; ho HacTynano yTpo: 
h HanHHanacb TaKaa »e 6ypn. R CTaa nepe>KHBaTb tckct: «floBaeeT 
aHeBH 3Jio6a ero»*. Ho «doe/ieem» ctohjio nepea aymoii He icaic 
6e33a6oTHOCTb, a KaK neperpy)KeHHOCTb orpoMHOCTHMH 3a6oT oa- 
Horo flHH. 

Xoth a aepacaaca ckpomho, h Ha c{w3HHecKOM njiaHe He aeaaa 
HHKaKHX rjiynocTeft (Bee ycHjina 6bijiH HanpaBJieHbi k TOMy, hto6w 
Ka3aTbCH, kok ece), oanaKO nepeacHBaHHa moh Bee ace oTneiaTjieBa- 
jiHCb, BepoaTHo, h Ha mock bhciiihocth; no3aHee y*e BoaoiiiHHa Ha- 
pncoBaaa Haui c Acefl nopTpeT**; c Hero Ha MeHH nocMOTpen hckto, 
BecbMa cTpaHHbift: jih6o cyMacmeaiHHft, jih6o nocBamaeMbift; He co- 
MHeBaKjcb, hto 3tot nopTpeT 6bui (J>aHTa3HeH Bojioiiihhoh; ho He 
coMHeBatocb h b tom: hto «$aHma3UA» ee bo MHe oTMeTHna hto-to 
ot cyTH mohx ToraauiHHx nepexcHBaHHfl; tot, kto xoahji no ^JopHaxy 
b 1915 roay, b aBrycTe, 6bin He B.H. ByraeB 16 roaa b Pocchh; oh He 
6biji aa*e «tydaKOM» mohx «3anucoK WydaKa»***; «nyaaK» — 3to 
ByraeB jieTa 1916 roaa, T.e. tot, b kom ao HeKOTOpoft cTeneHH yracaH 

y»Ce, 3apOCJIH Cn0C06H0CTH K TeM BOCIipHHTHHM, KOTOpbre HMeJIH Me- 

cto b aBrycTe 1915 roaa. 

Ilo3TOMy BecbMa ecTecTBeHHo: moh bhb ocTaHaBJiHBaa MHornx, 
MeHH He 3HaBuiHx b Te aHH; MHe nepeaaBaaH, hto a Bbimaacy neM-mo 
B3BoaHOBaHHbiM, cMHTeHHbiM, Kax 6bi noTepHBuiHM ce6a; B TOM, hto 
MeHH cnpauiHBaaH «aa hto c BaMH?», a BH»y no6eay Haa co6ofl: ecaH 
6w xoTb neTBepTb aeftcTBHTeabHO nepe»HBaeMoro oTKpuaacb cnpa- 
iiiHBaiomHM, ohh cKasanH 6bi: «Bot qeaoBeK couiea c yMa». 

Hhkto 3Toro He cxa3aa. 



* MaT<t>. 6.34. 

** nopTpeT («Doppelbildnis Andrej Bjelyi mit seiner Frau Assja Turgenjew. 1915/ 
16») hhcjihtch non HOMepoM 24 b KaTanore pa6oT M.B. Ca6amHmcoBoft, noMeweHHOiu b 
kh. MARGARITA WOLOSCMN. LEBEN UND fVERK (Stuttgart, 1982). B CBoefl aB- 
-ro6Horpaij>HH DIE GRVNE SCHLANGE (H3a. 1985 r.) Ca6auiHHKOBa-BojiouiHHa nH- 
meT: «Im Jahre 1916 wurde Andrej Bjelyi einberufen. Vor seiner Abreise hatte ich ein 
Doppelbildnis von ihm und seiner Frau gemacht, so wie sie oft Hand in Hand — gleich 
zwei Gestalten auf den agyptischen Grabern — einem Vortrag lauschten. Einige Tage nach 
seiner Abreise erblickte Rudolf Steiner das Bild in meinem Atelier und sagte: «Wie schade, 
daB er abgereist ist; eben war er auf dem Wege, gewissermafien das Gleichgewicht zu er- 
langen.». «Aber», widersprach ich ihm, «er ist doch mit Ru Bland so verbunden; muB er 
nicht diese kritische Zeit mit seinem Volke zusammen erleben? Er wird da anthroposo- 
phisch arbeiten konnen». «In RuBland wird man nur Chaos und Fegefeuer erleben kon- 
nen. Es werden dort vielleicht noch Ingenieure gebraucht». (c. 296-297). 

*** B »HBape-(J>eBpajie 1918 r. Benbift aenan «iepHOBbie Ha6pocKH» 3A/IMCOK Vy- 
MAKA . Oh ycHJieHHO pa6oTaji Haa hhmh BecHofl (MapT-anpenb) Toro ace roaa, a b okth- 
6pe nepeaenan HanucaHHOe. Oh npoflonwan pa6ory b H0»6pe, a 3aKOH4Hji KHHry /iHuib 
b KOHue fleKa6pa 1921 r. b EepnHHe. 3ATIHCKM HVJ1AKA bwuiiih b AByx TOMax B 
1922 r. (MocKBa-BepnHH, «rejiHKOH»). 



441 



CoBepuieHHO hcho, hto a nepexcHB&n «Mucmepuio», onay H3 one- 
peflHbix «Mucmepuu», KOTopwft CTaBHJi nepeao mhoh moh nyn. b 
flyxoBHOft HayKe; Taicoio «Mucmepueu» 6mjio nyTeuiecTBHe b CKaH.un- 
HaBHK), noTOM — BpeMa ot JlefinixHra ao reHepaabHoro co6paHH« b 
1914 roay; h HaxoHeu: BepiuHHofi <.<Mucmepuii», odHHMaBiuefi anpeab- 
oKTH6pb 15 roaa, 6biJi aBrycT; n noaxoana k xapaHHaabHofi Tonxe 
3toh MHCTepHH; h 3Han: Henmo CBepiiiHTCfl b ahh, oTxpbiBaeMbie no- 
cTaHOBKoft Mucmepuu «0aycm». 

Bot eme mothb, noneMy h npncTaabHO cxBaTHjica 3a nocTaHOBKy: 
h b o6pa3ax ee CTapanca nponecTb 3hoku nepexcHBamiH cbohx; xax b 
apeBHHX MHCTepHHX ErHnTa nocBfimaeMbift o6ynaacji rHeporaH<J)HHe- 
cxoMy nncbMy, Tax Hecxoabxo nucbMen CTaBHJi nepeao mhok) aoxTop 
nocjieflHeio cueHofl «0aycma»; OTcioaa HecaynafiHOCTb mohx [noceme- 
hhh] peneTHimfi «0aycma»; MHe Haao 6wjio npncraabHO pa3ynHTb Bee 
3HaKH nncbMeH; Tax: HecaynafiHO, hto flBa p«aa «anee/ioe», cn/ieTeH- 
hwx rHpjiHHflaMH po3 h BbiHOCfliiiHx Ha cueHy H3o6pa»eHHH <i>aycTa b 
«xyxoabHOM coctohhhh», ot6htoi-o y HopTa, B03rjiaBjutnH flBe ayuiH, 
MHe oco6o 6jiH3KHe, M«xay kotopmmh h b nHHHOfl xch3hh pa3opBan- 
c«; bo rjiaBe oflHoro pjtaa, JieBoro, maa Acfl, xax xop3r pjwa; bo rnaBe 
apyroro, npaBoro, — HaTaiua. 3th pnabi aHreaoB «cnaca/iu» 3>ayc- 
Ta; xapaKTepHO, hto sbphtmhctkh, HcnojiHHBiime sthx aHrejiOB, xo- 
poiuo OTHOCHJiHCb ko MHe; xop ace H3 «cmdpiuux aHee/ioe», noanep- 
KHBaiomHH HeaocTaTKH OaycTa, HcnojiHHjiH Te H3 ineHOB, cpeaH xo- 
Topwx rocnoacTBOB&no caepacaHHoe hjih nopHuaTeabHoe OTHomeHHe 
ko MHe; Tax: caMH ynacTHHKH H3o6pa)xaeMOH mhctcphh h b xh3Hh 
CToajiH nepedo mhou Tax, Kax ohh 6bian nocTaBjieHbi nepedo mhou 
Ha cueHe. 

TaK pa3rji«fl peneTHUHft eme ao nocTaHOBKH mchh y6eaHn b non- 
hom cooTBeTCTBHH o6pa30B <I>aycTa c phtmbmh nepexcHBaHHH Mucme- 
puu Moeu 3KU3HU. TojibKO MHe 6bi.no hcho, hto o6pa3bi, npoxoaHBiime 
Ha cueHe, He 3nuepa&, npeauiecTByioiuHH meiccmy, a KOMeHHOx koh- 
uoexa npoHcxoflHuuero co mhoh; to, hto co mhoh TonbKO hto npon- 
30UIJ10 b yjxace oiuymeHHJi, hto h nora6 6e3B03BpaTHO, h noTOM, hto 
npoHCHHJiocb Haaeacaoio Ha noMomb, — oho-to h noMorano MHe npo- 
necTb b «0aycme» to, hto mhok> b hhmx ycaoBHHX He 6wjio 6w npo- 
HHTaHo: HH-Kor-aa! 

Ho BMecTe c TeM: b oaHOM nyHKTe pa3pemeHHoe Ha cueHe, xax 
cnaceHHe 0aycma, b co6biTH«x Moeft kh3hh eme He 6wao pa3pemeHo; 
men aioTbift 6ofl can TbMw h CBeTa 3a Moe CBo6oaHoe, caMoco3Haio- 
iuee, c Taxofl Myxofi b ayx poxcaaeMoe «>7»; h 3TOMy «^T» Mor 6wTb 
HaHeceH yaap b aio6yK) MHHyTy; b 3tom cMbicae 0aKtn cnacemm <l>a- 
ycTa 6wa MHe ynoBaHHeM, hto h npo6aeMa Moefl >kh3hh pa3peuiHTCH 
b xaxoe-TO «da»; BMecTe c tcm: h noaaraa, hto caMaa HOTa cnaceHHa 



442 



<I>aycTa — noMoujb aoKTopa MHe: chmbojihhcckhm 3H8kom; ho nyB- 
CTBOBajiocb, mto b cnynae HeyMeHHH onepeTbCH Ha 3HaK, niTypM 3jiwx 
chji MeHa okohhhtch Moefl norH6enbio. 

B tom-to h TpeneT mhctcphh, hto onacHOCTH, nepexcHBaeMbie 
b hhx, 6yayiH noaaHbi b chmbojihhcckom xcecre, coeepiueHHO peanb- 
Hbi, a ne un/teeopuHHbi; to, hto ceroaHH yBHaeaocb chmbojiom h 

HTO BbI3BajIO CHMBOJI OTBeTHblH, 3aBTpa BblHBHTCfl BOIUlOmeHHeM B 

)KH3Hb; h nocKonbKy b 3th flHH bch *H3Hb moh, 6e3 ocTaTKa, pacnaa- 
BHnacb b chmboji, KaK BOCKOBaa (}>HrypKa, — Bee KpacHopenHBO rjiacH- 

JIO, HTO 3aBTpa 3TOT TCKyHHH CHMBOJiaMH bock OTBepaeeT b HenjiaBH- 

Myio h KOCHyio cyab6y 3Kene3Hbtx o6cmojtme/ibcme, b kotopwx a 6yay 
*HTb roflw. 

OTCioaa — TpeneT moh nepea co6mthhmh Tex aHeft — b Te oth: h 
TpeneT k mhctcphh «@aycm», 3TOMy rneporjiH^HHecKOMy o6o3Ha- 
neHHK) nero-To, co mhoh npoHcxozwmeMy. 

A CO MHOH npOflOJDKajIH CTpHCblBaTbCH (jWKTbl, He nOflBOflHMbie 

hh noa KaKyio KaTeropmo; H3MeHH/iocb JiHiiib k aHK> nocTaHOBKH mh- 
ctcphh BOT HTO: BCe TO, HTO 6eCnOp»aOHHO BpblBajIOCb BO BHeiUHIOIO 
TKaHb HCH3HH BCnblUIKOH CBeTa HJIH TbMbI, pHTMH3HpOBaJIOCb B flBe 

TeMbi: Bee nepHbie hbjichhji apxHTeKTOHHHecKH cBjnanHCb MOKay co- 
6ott h npoxoflHjiH b BapnaiiHitx TeMbi; ho h cBeTJibie hbjichhji M«Kay 
co6oio cxBaTHjiHCb; 3Ta CBH3b pa3HOpoaHwx cnepBa HanaaeHHH b op- 
raHH30BaHHyio CHCTeMy HanaaeHHfi CKa3biBajiacb b tom, hto h CTan 
BHfleTb, TaK cKa3aTb, reoMerpH3M pa3aHHHbix HanaaaT&nbHbix tohck: 
ohh pHCOBanH (Jmrypbi; KaK tph tohkh cBH3yeMbi b TpeyrojibHHKe, 
a neTbipe — b KBaapaTe, nepeceneHHOM KpecTOM, TaK h rpaaauHH 
H3 Tpex, qeTbipex HanaaeHHft, hjih rpynna H3 mpex, nembipex MHe 
TeMHbix aroaeft pa3BHBajia pa3Hbie HanaaaTeabHbie xoaw, aHaaorHH- 
Hbie pa3HWM CBOHCTBaM <j)Hryp, nocTpoeHHbix Ha pa3Hbix nncaax to- 
nex; oneHb cTpaHHo: a eraa hmchho b 3th ahh BHfleTb noHBjieHHe ne- 
peao mhok) yxe He oahoh (Jmrypbi, a rpynnbi hx. TaK, HeaaBHO eme: 
Bbiftfleuib Ha Tepaccy, yBHflHuib: chaht mnHK; nottaeiiib no aopoxcxe, 
Te6e HaBCTpeny Sokht — mohctp; noeaeuib b Ba3ejib, a Ha BOK3ajie 
Te6fl kto yxce acaeT H3 npncTaBneHHbix k ca«KKe; Tenepb cobccm TaK, 
KaK b HanaaeHHH Ha Kopojia uiaxMaTHofl napTHH ynacTByeT rpynna 
(Jinryp (JinrypHO o6craioiiiaH Kopoaa o6aaBoft, h h CTan 3aMenaTb KaK 
6bi o6jiaBbi Ha ce6«. TaK: naenib no aopoacKe, — 3a to6oh caeayeT 
«coe/wdamau», Te6e HaBCTpeny 6«kht mohctp, a b sto BpeMx H3aanH 
c6oxy noKa3biBaeTc« Te6a HeHaBaaxiuHH aHTponoco<J>; hto o6mero 
Me*ay uinHKOM, o6biBaTeaeM-ypoaoM h aHTponoco<J)OM? Ohh — He 
3HaiOT apyr apyra, a Meacay TeM b phtmc bctpchh hx HanaaeHHfl na 
Mens, pa3HopoaHbix, b tom *e momchtc BpeMeHH, ohh — mpoMa; 
ohh — nepubiu mpeyeo/ibHUK, H3 KOToporo y*e TpyaHee BWBepHyTb- 

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ca; HyjKHa MraoBeHHaa, MoaHHeHOCHaa HHcnnpauHH, hto6m TOTnac 
HafiTHCb h 3HaTb, rae 3aviefljiHTb mar, rae CBepHyTb, KOMy noftTH 
HaBCTpeny — co B3raaaoM, 6poiueHHbiM Ha Hero, hjih, Hao6opoT, 6e3 
B3raaaa; TaKHX (JmrypHbix HanaaeHHH Ha MeHa 6biao CTOjibKo b Te 

flHH, HTO H y>Ke He HMeJO HHKaKOH B03MOHCHOCTH HX nepeMHCJIHTb, 

Kan (J)aKTbi, noTOMy hto a aoaaceH y>Ke OTMenaTb hx rpynny, hx «co»- 
4>aKTbi, rae OTaeabHbift (j)aKT yaeTynHBaeTca, h rae Bee BHHMaHHe 
ycTpeMneHo Ha HeyaoBHMefimee «Co» b HeyaoBHMeftuieM, mojihhc- 
hochom *ecTe. Jlerxo noMHHTb nepBbifl rpn6 b aecy, ho hct HHKaKoft 
bo3mo>khocth 3anoMHHTb rpH6bi b tph6hom MecTe; non3aeuib h Mexa- 
HHnecKH co6Hpaeuib hx; TaK h a: MHorne 4>aKTbi rpynn (tmrypHbix Ha- 
naaeHHH b Tex jxhxx a 3a6biBaa, h6o a TaK CKa3aTb Bpy6aaca b hhx; 
xcecTHKynauHH Moa 6biaa MaxaHHeM «Mena» h Tyaa h cioaa; ywe aaB- 
ho a He o6pamaa BHHMaHHa Ha oTaeabHbie anna, a Ha aaHauia^T (J>h- 
rypw, cocTaBneHHofl H3 hhx. 

Oco6eHHo 3anoMHHJiacb MHe oaHa (Jwrypa, KaK nepBbifi rpn6, mhoh 
OTMeieHHbifl, h KaK nocTOHHHO caaraBiuaaca; h Ha3biBaa 3tot Hana- 
aaTenbHbifl xoa nepHbiM mpeyeo/ibHUKOM, cocTaBjieHHbiM H3 aioaeft. 

FIpeflCTaBbTe: Bbi HaeTe Ha ay>KaftKe; Bnepean Bac 6«kht mohctp, 
oflHH H3 Tex, KOTopwe y>Ke necnpocma BaM nonaaaaHCb HaBCTpeny, a 
3a hhm HfleT napa oaeTbix b nepHoe 3Jibix HeHaBHaamnx «memoK», H3 
HHCJia BeflbM, c 6aeaHbiMH jiHuaMH, h ecT Bac rna3aMH; Haymaa Ha- 
BCTpeiy rpynna o6pa3yeT TpeyrojibHHK, BepuiHHa KOToporo — cTapHK 
c CH30-nHJiOBO-6arpoBbiM hocom h Ka6aHbMH rna3KaMH; npeacae oh 
oflHH, Kax Ka6aH, Bbi6eraji Ha Bac, Bac nbipaTb OKKyabTHbiM kjiwkom; 
Tenepb oh noaKpenaeH napofi 3a hhm Haymnx tctok; cobccm KaK b 
HiaxMaTax, rae Ha oaHy (Jwrypy HanaaaioT tph cpa3y! 

M bot 3tot wpHbiu mpeyeo/ibHUK cTan cjiaraTbca nepeao mhoh 
BCKUiy b caMbix pa3HopoziHbix coieTaHHHX h b caMbix pa3Hoo6pa3Hbix 
aBH)KeHH«x; He noMHio phtmob aBHHceHHfi, — ho, k npHMepy: HaBCT- 
peny HaeT IIlTettHep h B3raaa ero ao6p, — ho: Bapyr no 6okoboh ao- 
po>KKe Hanepepe3 jictht nepHbifi TpeyroabHHK, cTpeMflCb pa3pe3aTb 
nonojiaM jihhhio B3raaaa ot MeHa k IllTeftHepy; ecjiH oh cKopeft mchh 
aocTHrHeT nepeKpecTKa aopor, noMomb, MHe nocaaHHaa aoKTopoM, 
aeftcTBHeM nepHbix chji 6yaeT OTpe3aHa; TaKT noacKa3biBaeT, hto 
Haao MHe hjih IllTeftHepy ynpeaHTb pa3pe3: nocneTb k nepeKpecTKy; 
ho 6e»aTb, cjiomh roaoBy, — Henb3x, h6o Heab3a HapyuiHTb «6bimv> 
o6biaeHHOro noBeaeHHa; hto npeanpHH»Tb, — noacKa*eT phtm, ho 
oh 6yaeT b HaaHHHH, ecaH Tbi b aHe yKpenaeH-pHTMOM. JX&nes: h, 
CKajKeM, aocTHr nepeKpecTKa, — no6eaa b stoh MHHyTe Ha CTopoHe 
3amHmaiomeft mchh napran, ho... aoKTop, He aoftaa ao mchh, noBep- 
Hyaca h yxoaHT; a o6epTbiBaK>cb h BHwy, hto 3a mhoh roHHTca HOBaa 
nepHaa napa, raa3a b cnHHy mcha; Bapyr H3 6oKOBOft aopo>KKH 3a 



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mhojo BbixoaHT ryjiaiomHH no rjopHaxy Eaysp, OTpe3aa MeHa ot Tex, 
kto 3a MHofl; a nay 3amHmeHHbift cnepeflH aoktopom, a C3aflH Eays- 
poM. OnaTb, KaK h b maxMaTax: HTo6bi 3amHTHTb ({wrypy ot flByx 
Ha Hee HanaaaiomHx (Jwryp, ABHraeTca eft Ha noMouib HOBaa tfiHrypa: 
b BHzie... Eayspa. 

Bot sth-to (Jmrypbi HanaaeHHH h noMomeft b pHTMe hx OTpaace- 
hhh, b pHTMe cxBaTOK apyr c apyroM hx, h o6cTajiH MeHa b #hh no- 
CTaHOBKH MHCTepHH «@aycm»: mo>kho CKa3aTb, hto a BocnpHHH- 
Maji caMbift y3op moneVi, MeHa o6cTaiomHx b cTpaHHofl cxBaTKe sb- 

H KaKO-pHTMHtt, BTarHBaiOIUefi H MeHa B 3BpHTMHHeCKyK> »eCTHKyjlfl- 

UHOHHyK) nepe6e>KKy; b 3th ahh a noHaji, hto Taxoe TeKynaa c moji- 
HHeHOCHOK) 6bicTpoTOH npencTaBJiaeMOCTb, nepexoaamaa b npeanpH- 

HMHHBOCTb. 

B HHbie ahh a ce6a noMHK) KaHaTHbiM njiacyHOM, 6anaHCHpyK> 
uiHM Haa 6e3aHOft; TaK b cxBaTKe eocmopea h yMaca cKJiaabiBajiocb 
HeBOJibHoe yiiHBJieHHe nepea jioBKotTbio HHbix hhkcm He BHflHMbix 
aKpo6aTHKecKHx npbi*KOB; hx BHaeji hoktop, 3HaKaMH rna3 CTaBa ot- 
MeTKH MHe; HeH3>KHTOCTb Moa Hanarajia Ha sto yaHBjieHHe (Jmep «ca- 
Mo.nio6oBaHHa»; a Ha3biBan ce6a «o«»; h HHoraa stot «oh» bo MHe 
CToan nepeao mhoh KaK 6bi c 6onbinoH GyKBoft, 3a hto He pa3 MHe 
BJieTajio — hot cyflb6w, h ot aoKTopa. 

flyMaro, hto stot oTTeHOK caMOJiioSoBaHHa h nHTaji nyTaHHuy 
mohx OTHouieHHH c HaTaiuefl — b HOTe, hto cynb6oH OHa MHe cy>Kjie- 
Ha; cyab6a Moa — coBepmeHHO HCKjiiOHHTejibHa; h OTHomeHHa c 6jih- 

3KHMH — TaK >Ke HCKJHOHHTeJIbHbl, KaK HCKJTiOHHTeJIbHa MOa pOJIb npH 

aoKTope h «remeaHyMe». KpoMe Toro, MHe, 0Tpa3HBiueMy cTOJibKO 
yaapoB, bo3mo>kho 3aBoeBaTb y cy«b6bi npaBO h Ha to, b neM OTKa- 

3aHO MHOrHM. 

3to ayMan a y»e nocne, k Hanajiy 16-ro roaa; noKa ace a ynnnca 
ompaxcamb; h aaace: HaHocHTb yziapbi. 

Hto 6opb6a BOKpyr MeHa cBa3aHa c Moeft <wuccueu» b aejie no- 
KTopa, — MHe Ka3ajiocb b Te jxhh ycTaHOBJieHHbiM (fcaKTOM; Beflb 
uijia aTaKa Ha aoKTopa; HanHHajiacb BonHa e>KeflHeBHbix CKaH.aa.rioB, 
pa36HpaTenbCTB, tbjkS h HananeHHfl H3BHe Ha Bcex Hac; hto Hana- 
aeHHa 3th 6binH yacacHbi, aBCTByeT H3 BH/ia noKTopa; TonbKO Ha pe- 
neTHUHax uBe.n oh yjibi6KOH; b nponne »e nacbi oh hmcti nopoft npo- 
cto pa3flaBneHHbiH bhu. 

KaK-TO pa3 oh Hanyraji MeHa; a Bbiuien Ha Ham 6ajiKOHHHK, Bbixo- 

flHBIHHH Ha BKHJiy flOKTOpa, H B3ApOrHyjl, yBHflaBUJHH, HTO HOKTOP B 

pa3BeBaiomeMca ciopTyKy, hh3ko onycTHB rcnoBy, cepflHTbift, pa36H- 
thh h 6jTeflHbiH, He 6«kht, a yparaHHO HeceTca, tohho y6eraa ot 
koto-to, hjih TOJibKO hto no/iynHB BecTb 06 y>KacHOfl, HenonpaBH- 
Mofl 6efle, KOTopyio Hejib3a 0Tpa3HTb; MHe oh noKa3ajica EeHeflHK- 

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tom, y KOToporo ApHMaH noracHJi 3peHHe*; n ocTaHOBunca; oh He ot- 
nep KajiHTKH bhjijim, a copBaji ee, npoHecca no cBoeMy caaHKy; oahhm 
npbi>KKOM BnpurHyB Ha Kpbijibuo (iepe3 3 CTyneHbKH), oh >uionHyji 
Ha bckj oKpecTHocrb BXOflHoio flBepbio; TOTnac pa3flancH apyroft 
xjion (bo btopom 3Ta»e) H3 bhjijim; a 3Han, hto xaonHyna OTepb ero 
pa6onero Ka6HHeTa. 

Si ctohji h ayMaji: «C neM oh 3axaonHyjiCH? Kaxoft hobmh yjKac 
yrpoacaeT HaM?» 

Hto hto-to o6ocTpjuiocb win Bcero «A.O.», cTaJio jicho yace k 
KOHuy Mecflua, icoraa caM flOKTop nocTaBHJi Bonpoc o tom, hto npH 
TaxoM pa3Bane co3HaHH» y hjtchob Haao nocTaBHTb 3HaK Bonpoca Haa 
caMofi nocTpOHKoft: He jiynine jih pa3bexaTbCH? «A.O.» b TaKOM BHzie 

— HeMblCJIHMO. 

3tot-to Kpax Hac Bcex h bhacjich MHe b sth ahh no6eaott mieBeT, 
nymeHHbix npoTHB Hac meMHbiMu cu/xomu. PacTep»HHOCTb aoKTopa, 
6erymero c xonMa, mchh B3BOJiHOBajia. 

M KaJKeTCH: B 3th flHH MeHH B3BOJlHOBaJl OflHH (J)aKT, OTHOCHIUHH- 

c« y»ce TOJibKO ko mhc KaK-TO nocne KO({)e b KaHTHHe h BCTan h nouien 
no nwjibHOH flopore, orH6aK)meft xojim h nepeceKajomeft Hamy aopo- 
ry; Heaaaeico ot KaHTHHbi, TaM, rae k aopore nonxoflun BepxHHH flop- 
Hax, ctohjih, oacHflaa hbho Koro-To, Tpw ToncTeflmnx He to Merepw, 
He to riapKH, He to Mamepu mhctcphh OaycTa; tph tojictojihumx, 
TOjicT03aflbix, TOJicTorpyawx 6a6nmH c yacacHO MpanHbiMH ot jho6o- 
nbiTCTBa h cypoBocTH 6aeflHOCH3WMH KaKHMH-TO jiHuaMH, b orpoM- 
Hbix TpaypHbix nepHbix ujnanax h b nepHbix njiaTbax; MHe noKa3anocb: 
ohh 6bijiH b rny6oHaflmeM Tpaype; Koraa a noflxojuin k hhm, kto-to, 
c hhmh 6biBUiHH, noKa3aa Ha MeH«, khbkom rojiOBbi c acecTOM, Mory- 
iuhm 03HanaTb: 

— «3tot!» 

— «Bot oh». 

A mojkct 6biTb b KecTe 6biJi Bonpoc: 

— «He 3TOT JIH?» 

— He oh jih?» 

M tph nepHbix 6a6HiuH cypoBO h cocpeaoToneHHO BnHJiHCb b mchh 
rna3aMH; hh 3ByKa He npoH3HecjiH, ornaflbiBaa mchh c Hor no rojiOBbi, 
KaK 6yflTO OT HX y3HaHHH HUH Hey3HaHHH MeHH 3aBHcejia moh hjih 
hx >KH3Hb; Koraa >Ke a BnojiHe npH6jiH3HjicH k hhm, oflHa H3 hhx nyTb 
KHBHyjia tojioboh; h 3tot khbok Mor 03HanaTb: «3anoMHU/iu» una. 



* EeHeflwcT (Benedictus) — repoft «ncHOBHneu», Myapeu h ayxoBHbiB bohceu. mhc- 
TepHft UlTeflHepa. B neTBepTOH nbece («Der Seelen erwachen») TerpanorHH, ApHMaH 
6opeTca c hhm 3a cynb6w ero yqemiKOB h npo6yeT «TyMaHHTb» ero nap. B KOHue nbecbi 
ApHMaH no6e)KaeH, Koraa BeHeaHKT «BHflHT» ero cymHOCTb. 



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«ydocmoeepunucb», hjih »e: «Hy TaK, Tenepb MO*eM htth: uejib 
Hama aocTHrHyTa». 

H TOTMac Bee tph noBepHyjiHCb h MeaJieHHO non/ibi/in Ha3aa, b 
BepxHHft AopHax, oTKyaa ohh Bbin/ibiJiH k aopore — CToaTb h acaaTb 
MeHH, aoji>KeHCTBOBaBiiiero npofiTH; Tax MHe oro3Bajiocb noaBjieHHe 
hx; ohh HcnojiHH/iH CBOM3 mhcchkj: yBH/jexiH MeHH; h Tenepb B03Bpa- 
ujajiHCb k ce6e. 

He 6bino b hx B3r\naflax 3jiocth, ho yacacHaa MpaiHocrb h cocpe- 
aoToneHHOCTb, — y6eziHTbca: «Tot hjih He tot». 

MHoro pa3 a ayu&n b 6eccoHHbix mohx Honax, hto 3HaiHJio sto 
CToaHHe npn aopore Tpex nepHbix MaTpoH, cypoBO owHaaBuiHx MeHa; 
h pa3Hbie rHnoTe3w cToajiH BnnoTb no... caMbix y«acHbix, cB»3aHHbix 
c noao3peHHeM MeHa b npecTyn/ieHHH, MHe HeBeuoMOM: TaK rnaaaT 
Ha HCKniOHHTenbHbix Mep3aBueB, hjih o6peHeHHbix, hjih Ha qyaeca 
npHpoflbi, noKa3biBaeMbie b KyHCTKaMepe; ho noTOM, He npoHHuaa 
3aBecbi, kotopoh zihh OKyTaHW ana MeHa, a cTapajica hx npowecTb b 

HX CHMBOJlHMeCKOM JKeCTC 

B ahh ,H,opHaxa ohh CToa/in b naMHTH, KaK noacTeperaiomHe 
3phhhh; Tenepb, OTaejieHHbift 12-neTHeM ot hhx, a CKopee ckjiohch 
npowecTb noaBneHHe hx nepea co6oft, KaK... caMHx raHHCTBeHHbix 
«Mamepeu», npeSbiBaiomHx b ueHxpe 3eMJin: k hhm cxooht <t>aycT 

H OTCHJfla OH BblHOCHT HaCTb CUJlbl, KOTOpOH MefJjHCTOtfreJIb He MOJKeT 
HH4T0 npOTHBOnOCTaBHTb*. 

3pHHHH zibiiiiajiH 6bi HeyracHMOK) 3jio6ok>: 3th »e 6bijiH ywacHO 
cypoBbi, cocpcaoToneHHo MpanHbi h flHKO ynopHbi b pa3rjiaae mchh; 
HeHaBHCTH a He BHaea; ho noKa a noaxoaHji k hhm, a acaaji: bot-bot 
3Ta apaa HeHaBHCTb BcnbixHeT; ohh y3HaK>T bo MHe jiHuib... «npe- 
cmynMKa»; h ot 3Toro a norH6Hy. Mhh ohh 6buiH caMoft cyab6ofi b 
jiHue Tpex FlapoK? Ho «Mamepu», npHHHBuiHe <I>aycTa, 6wjih h... 
cy/jb6oH OaycTa. 

B 3th flHH Ha jieKunax, peneTHUHHx Aca cTa/ia xoaHTb b cbocm 
6ejiOM njiame; Ha Heft 6bina cTona** H3 TyHHccKoft majiH, cjiojkch- 
hoh H3 HemyeK cepe6pa; OHa CBepKaaa cepe6paHoft wemyeft H3-noa 
6ejiofl CBoefl MaHTHH; name Bcero MaHTHio Hec a, KaK hckhh njiam; 
Koraa Mbi uijih c Heft, Hac Bee oraaabiBajiH; CTpaHHo, hto b MHHyTbi, 
Koraa a Haxoanjica noa o6cTpejiOM HanaaaiomHx i\na3, njiaw 6po- 
caaca MHe Ha pyxn; hjih aawe noaBjia.ica nepeao mhoh, Koraa Ach 
He 6bino co mhoh; TaK noMHio: nepea MHCTepHeft «<I>aycT», Koraa Aca 



* &AVCT, BTopas nacTb, nepBbift aKT, nHTan cueHa («Finstere galerie»), ctpokh 
6173-6306. Ciuioft, aaHHoft eiuy «MaTepHMH» (die Mutter) <l>aycT BbnMBaeT EneHy h 
riapnca. 

** Ot ^aTHHCKoro stola — *eHCKoe ruiaTbe, aiajib. 



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6buia 3a cueHofl, a a cnaen b nepBbix paaax, CToana yacacHaa ayxoTa; 
Ha^BHrajiacb qepHaa Tyna; 3noBeme rpeMen rpoM; jinua CHaauinx ne- 
pea cueHOH Ka3anHCb 3eneHbiMH, 3aabixaiomHMHca; Ha MeHa KocHjiHCb 
MHorne co 3Jio6ofi; Bee epaeu, Tax CKa3aTb, PbijiH Mo6HJiH3HpoBaHbi; 
umbipana nepHax... MaaaM IIlBapu. 

Bapyr, — 3HaKOMbie MypatuKH no6e>KanH no 3aTbiJiKy; a o6ep- 
Hynca h yBHflen: y Bxoaa b 3an ctoht tot noao3pHTenbHbift «doKmop» 
(ckopo nporHaHHbitt), kotophh b MoeM BoenpHHTHH 6bin annapamoM 
ana BbiKHUbiBaHHH ny/ib npoTHB MeHH; oh aepranca jihuom h KaaceTca 
pa3HHyji cboh nepeKOiueHHbiH pot; ornanen MeHH 3eneHOBaTbiMH rna3- 
KaMH; h TyT oh oTKpbinca MHe b cBoeft ponH flHeft ao aHa: a — yMep- 
uiHH <J>aycr; xoiina neMypoB MeHH o6cTynHna; oh >Ke — caM nopT, 
Tpe6yK)mHfl Moeft ayuin: Becb sua <.<noeaHifa» roBopHji: 

— «Tbi — b Moeft BjiacTH. - HHKaKaa cnna Te6a He cnaceT». 

Bee 3to pe3Hyno mchh b to MTHOBeHHe; ho, o6pbiBaa jihhhio 
B3rnanoB ot noraHua ko MHe h mchh k HeMy b B03ayxe MeTHynocb 
hto-to 6enoe, 3aKpbiBaa mchh ot Hero; h a ycnbiiuan ronoc, KaaceTca 
MaaaM 3H3eHnpefic (a mojkct 6biTb h hct), — rojioc koto-to h3 Tex, 
kto cepaeHHO ko MHe othochjich h kto pa6oTan BMecTe Ha ManoM 
Kynone: 

— «Xepp ByraeB, 3to — BaM'.» 

M nnam Ach 0Ka3anca y MeHa b pyKe, — nnam, 6/iaroe aefiCTBHe 
KOToporo a omyman He pa3; a noHyBCTBOBan npHTeKaiouiyio cany h, 
npHHHMaa nnam, MaxHyn hm c BbnoBOM b 3eneHyio MacKy Moero «Me- 
(JwcTO(t)ena»; a yBHaen, hto nHuo ero 3aKopiHnocb, tohho OTaepHyB- 
iiiHCb ot njiama; h oh TOTnac Hcne3; b aBepax ero yace He 6buio. 

.HBepH 3aTBOpHJlHCb; HaiajlHCb 3ByKH My3bIKajlbH0H HHTpOflyKUHH 

3>aycTa, conpoBO>KaaeMbie MonHbaMH H3 okoh noaonieauiefl rpo3bi. 

Bee 3to npoH30iujio bo MrHOBeHHe oxa: MypaniKH, o6opoT, ma3a 
b rna3a, nnam mok HaMH, como — eaM», moh B3Max nnamoM b «e^o» 
rna3a, ero Hcie3H0BeHHe, 3ByKH My3biKH, MOJiHbH, 3axpbiTHe asepH. 

H — aoKTop, yca>KHBaK)uiHHca b nepBOM paay. 

TaK MHr Hanana mhctcphh cnaceHHa 3>aycTa coBnan c mhtom Ha- 
naneHHa Ha MeHa Toro, kto 6bin MHe b 3thx aHax chmbojiom MopTa. 

BnocneacTBHH BbiacHHjrocb: Aca, oGneKaacb b Hapaa aHrena h 
He 3Haa, Kyaa aeTb nbiniHbiH nnam, npoenna 3a KynncaMH nepeaaTb 
MHe ero b napTep; HanoMmo: Aca B03rnaBnana oaHH H3 asyx paaoB 
aHrenoB, OT6HBmHX <t>aycTa ot qopTa h npHHOcamHX ero b o6HTenb, 
rae crroanH tph rHepo<J>aHTa: naTep 3KCTaTHKyc, naTep ripo^yHayc 
h naTep «Cepa<fiui<yc», MHe ya<e cBa3aBLUHHca c Cepa<})HMOM b npeabi- 
aymHx aHax; Cepa4)HKyc 6bin Becb 6enbift; oh cToan b ueHTpe Tpe- 
yrdnbHHKa, o6pa30BaHHoro TpeMa naTepaMH: b rny6nHe cueHbi, noce- 
peaHHe ee. 



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C 3Toro MOMeHTa MHe oncpbijiocb: Aca ann Toro cinHJia stot 
njiaw, »iTo6bi HocHTb ubct Moero CBjrroro, Cepa<j)HMa, okojio mchh; 
OHa b 6jiH»cafiiiiHx ahhx BHaenacb MHe KaK 6w opyaceHocueM mohm; 

H OHa HHCTHHKTHBHO C BejIHKOJienHbIM TaKTOM 3Ty pOJlb BMAepXH- 

Bajia. 

Pa3yMeeTc», a eft hh 3ByKOM He Bbipa3Hji, hto h b Heft noaMeTHJi: 
06 3mux eeufax mm ne eoeopunu dpye c dpyeoM. /.../* 



npnno)KEHnn 

I 

AHflpefi Bejibifi 
KACAHHfl K TEOCOOMH 

1896 eod: HHTaji KHHrn BjiaBaacKoft h HHTepecoBajica cBeaeHHjiMH o 
Teoco(J)HH[ecKOM] 0[6mecT]Be. 

1897 eod: MHTaji A/uiaHa Kapfl3Ka, yB/iexajiCH OTpwaKaMH H3 nYnaHU- 
iuad» h boctoihoS mhcthkoh; OTCfoaa noui/10 yBjieneHHe 6yiWH3MOM 
h IIIoneHrayspoM. CTaTbn ConoBbeBa (BceB.) npoTHB TeocoiJwH («Bo- 
npocbi $Hnoc[o(J)HH] h ncHxoji[orHH]»), a rjiaBHoe IIIoneHraysp Haaon- 

TO OTBJieKJIH OT TeOCO(J)HH. 

1901 eod: 3HaicoMCTBO c ToHHapoBOfl, cnopbi h HHTepec k TeocotJwH 
BHOBb npo6y»aaeTCJi; oTHOiueHHe yBa>KHTe.ribHoe, ho pe3KO-nojieMH- 
MecKoe; HHTepecyiocb khhi-oh CHHHeTa, Mhaom; HHTaio khh™ Be3aHT 
(« Vers le Temple», «La Sagesse antiques h t.a.), nacKa^n, Jlefl6HTepa 
(«HeeuduMbie noMoufHUKu», «Acmpa/ibHbiu IJ/jaH», «Ceem Ha ny- 
mu», «ro/ioc Ee3Mo/iewt», «Le son dans la Nature» h t.a.) ho ueHT- 
panbHbift HHTepec k HHiuiie h 6nH30CTb k iio3huhh Mepe*KOBCKoro. 
TpeHecKaH MHijioJTorHJi 60/iee HHTepecyeT. 



* 3necb KOHiaeTca h pyxonHCb, h noBecTBOBaHne, bo3mo>kho no npiwHHaM, yno- 
MHHyTUM EejiuM b «aBTo6Horpa<i>HHecKOM nucbMe» HBaHOBy-Pa3>MHHKy: «h ecjiH 
" nocanuieHue" HMeeT cboh "npoo6pa3bi", KOTOpwe cyTb "nocejimumejtbHbie momch- 
ntbi", "MOMenmoM MOMetimoe" seen *H3HH — CTpaHHbift nepHoa, o6HHMaioiiiHH Heae- 
jih tph, b npyroM cTpaHHOM nepuone, o6HHMaiomeM pan MecaueB. O MOMeume a hh- 
iero He Mory cica3aTb; h o nepHoae, Koraa xoiy ciea3aTb, HaMHHaio jieneraTb; ho h 
MOMenm, h nepuod, noxcaTca c 1915 soda ao 1927 eoda b mchh nepMaHeHTHOfl naMxmbio 
b nepMaHeHTHbix nonbiricax qTO-JiH6o nponecTb; h BMHHTbiBae-rc*; h 6yaeT bm<ihtm- 
BaTbco, noTOMy >jto MaTepH&n — HeHcnepnaeM» («Cahiers du monde russe et sovifti- 
que», 15, Nel-2, 1974, c.72). 

16—874 449 



1902 eod: HHTaio Uliope «Le drame musical», «Les Grands Unites». 
ribiTaiocb HHTaTb KHHry <J>y/ibe o rinaTOHe (KaweTCH HeHHTepecHoft). 
OceHbio 6biBaio b Kpyacice KoxMaHCKOft, rae cnopio ynopHO c riHcape- 
Boft; BbiHOiuy nojiHoe pa3onapoBaHHe b Teocoqiax. npoao/iHcaio cno- 

PHTb JIHUIb C BaTIOIUKOBblM. 

1903 eod: YB/ieKaiocb Bji. ConoBbeBbiM: TeoccxJWH, xaK ABHweHHio, 
npoTHBono/iaraio xp[HCTHaHCKyio] Teoco<J>Hio b CMbioie Bn. CojiOBbe- 
Ba; HHTepecyiocb rHOCTHKaMH, Cepa(J)HMOM CapoBCKHM, HHTaio Hcaa- 
xa CHpHHHHHa, TOJiKOBaHHe AnoicajiHiiCHca 06epJi3Ha, L'Apocalipse 
expliqu4 CB&aeH6opra, npo6yio HHTaTb BpoHCKoro. Co3peBaeT koh- 
uenuHH meypeuu. Teypeuio h cum60au3m npoTHBonojiaraio peuiH- 
TenbHO TeococJwH. 

1904 eod: MHTepec k meocotfuu nepexoxiHT b xoJiOAHO-Bpa>Kfle6Hoe 
OTHOiueHHe. Hm» IllTeflHepa BnepBbie HanHHaeT noBTOpHTbCH b Mock- 
Be. KaweTca, b stom roay HHTaio «Mucmepuu Xpucmuancmeav . HH- 
Taio MaKca Mionjiepa. H onaTb HHTepecyiocb 6yaaH3MOM. 

7905 eod: He HHTepecyiocb Teococjmefi, ho 3axBaTbiBaK)T CTaHCbi 
IIIaHnapa. Arapia. H CTaHCbi KHHrH «Dzian». B MocKBe MHoro tobo- 
paT o ropueaniue. EjiH30CTb k Teoco<i)HH npoHBJiaeTCH OflHaKO b or- 
Pomhom HHTepece k SneecuHCKUM MucmepuHM. HHTepecyiocb &yi<a- 
poM, HHTaio Lacroix h 3HaKOMJiiocb c JiHTepaTypoft, KacaiomencH 
MHCTepHfi. HHTaio KHHry Tpy6euKoro «JIoeoc». HHTepecyiocb mhcth- 

KOH flO-COKpaTOBCKOH <J)HnOCO(J)HH H Op<J)H3MOM. 

1906 eod: OTBepraio npeano^ceHHe onymaTb IIlTeflHepa. 

1907 eod: C orpoMHbiM HHTepecoM HHTaio b FlapHwe fleflcceHa «0u- 
/ioco0uA ynaHuiuad» (6ojibiuaH KHHra). Cnopio c BajibMOHTOM o Teo- 

CO(J)HH. BblXOil K MHCTHKe BH>Ky Hepe3 {J)HJ10CO({)HK) H o6iiyMbIBaK) KOH- 

uenuHio cHMBonH3Ma. 

1908 eod: C oceHH CTpauiHO HHTepecyiocb BHOBb TeocotJweH, HHTaio 
CTaTbH Be3aHT, HHTaK) Teoco0[cKUu] BecmuuK. Eojibiuofi HHTepec k 
TepMeTH3My h O. MHoro paccnpaiuHBaro o AoKTope. Cjibiiuy hh- 
THMHbift vortrag h npoHHKaiocb rpoMaziHbiM yBa»eHHeM k iJoKTopy. 
HanHHaio noceuiaTb jickuhh SpTejia b TeocoqbcKOM Kpy>KKe h npHHH- 
Maio ropHnee ynacTHe b npeHHMx. B kohuc rona 6ojie3Hb, 6ojibuioe 
pa3flyMbe h oxna>KfleHHe k yneHHio Mepe>KKOBCKoro. 

1909 eod: Ych^chho HHTaio khhth no mhcthkc; yBjieicaiocb BHOBb Tep- 
MeTH3MOM h Hmy O (Bo6poKa). BnH30CTb c Mhhixjioboh, Bflnecjia- 
bo^i [HBaHOBbiM], tcoco<})ckhh Kpy>KOK. HanHHaio HHTaTb «Doctrine 
secrite», A'AjibBeftapa, 3jiH(J>aca JIsbh, Ilanioca, Tio3HTa h t.h. Ejih- 
30CTb c BHnecjiaBOM h Mhhujioboh. 



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1910 eod: Ctoht noa 3HaKOM O. FlepBbie M&aHTauHH (ckopo ocTa- 

BHJl). ripOIUaHHe C AHHOft Pya[OHb(j)OBHOft MHHOrcOBOftJ. KoJTJieKTHB. 

I 1911 eod: A^pmca. Mfei c Acefi tobophm o Mockobckom. JleTHHe 4>eHO- 

MeHbi; B3aHMHbifl HHTepec k Teoco(J)HH h JloKTopy y ACH H MeHH. 

1912 eod: OeHOMeHbi b Epiocce/ie, noe3.mca b Ke/ibH, uhkjiw 45 cjibi- 
maHHbix jieKUHfl. C hiojih 1912 roaa pa6ora ZloKTopy. rioe3flKa. 

(rBJl, (J)OHa 25, KapT.31, ezi.xp.2, pyx. 6e3 aaTbi). 



nPHMEHAHMfl 



CjieflyiOIUHft OTpblBOK H3 «KOMMeHTapHeB» K CTaTbHM, C06paHHblM B KH. 

CHMBOJIH3M, xopomo noKa3bmaeT crreneHb 3HaKOMCTBa Bcnoro c Teoco<J)H- 
eft k 1909 roay: 

H3 KHHr, othochluhxch k 3aTpoHyTOMy Bonpocy, HajOBeM Me>KZiy 
npoiHM cjieiiyroiuHe: 

Fabre d'Olivet. La Langue hibraique restitute. 1815. 

" " Histoire philosophique du genre humaih. 

" Vers dore"s de Pythagore. 

Lenorman. Histoire de la Magie. 
Maury. La magie et I'astrotogie. 
Eliphas Levi. Dogmes et rites de la haute magie. 

" " Histoire de la Magie. 
Saint-Iver d'Alveydre. Mission des souverains. 

" " Mission des Juifs. 

H.P. Blavatsky. Isis Unveiled. (I h II v.). 

" " La doctrine secrHe. (I-II1 v.). 

Louis Menard. Hermis Trismigiste. 
Kiesewetter. Geschichte des Occultismus. 

Mw KacaeMCH 3aecb ;wiiJb HexoTopbix khht; khhfm JlenopMaHa 
h KmeBeTTepa hocht ocBejj.oMHTeJibHbifi xapaKTep. Khhth BnaBaT- 
CKofl npeflcraBJiHKJT co6oft necTpyio CMecb yaHBHTejibHbix o6o6me- 
HHft, b KOTopbix cnyTaHHocTb, (J)aHTacTHKa h ncwiac HeocTopowHoe 
o6pameHHe c UHTaTaviH cnop»T c TanaHTOM h ocTpoft npoHHuaT&nb- 
hoctmo. JlHTepaTypa, KacaiomascH TaflHbix 3HaHnfl, Heo6o3pHMa. 
Mbi pa3fle/i«eM 3/iecb nepBOHCTO<jHmcn (KaK-To «3oxap», cokhhchhh 
MaftMOHHaa h T.n.) ot KOMriHjmuHH, HCTOjiKOBaHHfi h np. 

OTfle^bHO ctoht pa3pocuia»ca HbiHe TeococfrcKaa /wTepaTypa: 
cioaa othochm mm comhhchhh A.Be3aHT, lllrope, riacKann, Jl3fl6HT- 
Tepa, MHfla, P.lUTefiHepa, FapTMaHa, CHHHeTa h ap. 



451 



H3 wypHanoB, nocBaiueHHbix BonpocaM Teoco<J)HH, yKaxceM: «The- 
osophisi», «Revue thiosophique», «Lotus-journal», «Annales Thio- 
sophiquesn, «Adyar Bulletin*, «Theosophical Review», «Isis», «The- 
osophy in Indian, «Neue Lotosbluthen», «Bolletino delta Sezion Ita- 
liana», a y Hac «BecmnuK Teoco0uu» (c.624). 

CaMH 3TH «KOMMCHTapHH», paBHO KaK h «KacaHHa K TeOCO(l)HH», 3a- 

cny>KHBaK>T o6i>eMHCTofl craTbH. MHe 3aecb npaneTca, rnaBHbiM o6pa30M, 
cocpextoTOHHTbCJi TOJibKo Ha BbiacHeHHH Ha3BaHHbix KHHr h aBTopoB. (K coaca- 
jieHmo, HHoraa hcbo3mo>kho aaTb HHifeopMauHio o pyccKHX nepeB&aax: a\ie- 
pHKaHCKHe 6h6^hotckh no BnojiHe noHaTHMM npHHHHaM He oneHb crpeMH- 
jiHCb k co6HpaHHK> nepeBoaOB TaKHx tckctob Ha pyccKHfl h3wk; ho h EenbiH 
hx HHTan, rjiaBHUM o6pa30M, no-(J)paHuy3CKH hjih no-HeMeuKH). B Tex cjiyna- 
ax, Koraa b 3tom ecTb Heo6xoflHMOCTb, a flo6aBjiKK> CBeaeHHa, noflTBepacaa- 

KJUIHe HJ1H BblHCHHIOmHe TOT HJIH HHOH (j)aKT H 3aHMCTB0BaHHbie H3 «MaTepH- 

ana k 6Horpa<JwH (HHTHMHoro)» h apyrnx hctohhhkob, hjih OTCbiJiaio k boc- 
noMHHaHHHM cavioro Benoro. Mhoh He oroBapHBaeTca «KyjibTypHbifi mhhh- 
\iyM», T.e. oTHomeHHe Benoro k LLIoneHrayapy, Hnuiue, MepeacicoBCKOMy h 
T.a., o kotopom oh HeoiiHOKpaTHO h no,apo6Ho nncan bo Bcex cbohx Meiny- 
apax. O HeKOTopbix Beuuax («Arapia», o «ropHBaHme») a noKa HHnero He mo- 
ry xto6aBHTb. 

YcnoBHbie coxpameHHa, npHHaTbie b npHMeqaHHax: All — «aBTo6Horpa- 
(j)HwecKoe nHCbMO» HBaH0By-Pa3yMHHKy («Cahiers du monde russe et sovte- 
tique», 15, JVel-2, 1974); BE — «BocnoMHHaHHa o Bjioko). — «3nonea», 
Jfel-4, 1922-23; KC — «KoMMeHTapHH» b kh. CMMBOJ1H3M (M., 1910); 
«MaTepHan» — «MaTepHan k SnorpacfcHH (hhthmhwh)» (UrAJlH, (J). 53, 
on.2, ea.xp.3); HB — HAHATIO BEKA (M., 1933); «nepenHCKa» — A.A. 
EJIOK H AHflPEH BEJlblM. nEPETlHCKA (M., 1940). 

1896 

«...HaMenaeTca orpoMHbifl HyTpaHofl HHTepec k npo6jieviaM <J)hjioco<J)hh; 
y*e TaflKOM ot nanw 3a6Hpaiocb k HeMy b Ka6HHeT h HHTaio nocTynHbie Moe- 
My noHHMaHHK) (J)HJioco<i>CKHe KHHrn, «Bonpocbi 0uaoco0uu u ncuxo/ioeuu»; 
HanHHaioT HHTepecoBaTb npo6jieMbi rHnH0TH3Ma, cnHpHTH3Ma h 0KKyjibTH3- 
Ma; npoH3BonaT noTpacaromee BnenaTJieHHe «OmpbieKU U3 ynaHuuiad» h 
«Tao» Hao-/l3bi [nepnozi no neTa]. /.../ ripoHHTbiBato KHHry BnaBaacKofl «H3 
neufep u de6ped MndocmaHan h coBepuieHHO eio yBjieicaiocb. HaiHHaio ycH- 
jichho HHTepecoBaTbca TeococJwnecKHM o6mecTBOM. TyT 3a6ojieBaio (Bocna- 
jieHHe jiencHx). BbnaopoBJieHHe cBB3aH0 ana MeHa c cHjibHHM npoHBJieHHeM 
MHCTHHecKOft *h3hh. S{ HaiHHaio HCKaTb JiHTepaTypy no TaftHbiM HayxaM; 
npowHTbiBaio «ro/iy6bie ropbi» EjiaBaacKOit [OceHb]» («MaTepHaji»; cp. Taic- 
3Ke All, c. 59-60). 

EnaeamcKOH (y Bejioro name Bcero HenpaBHJibHO «EjiaBaflCKaa»), EneHa 
IleTpoBHa (ypo*fl. TaH, 1831-1891) — pyccKaa ocHOBaTejibHHiia, BMecTe c 
aMepHKaHCKHM aflBOKaTOM Col. Henry S. Olcott, Teoco<t>cicoro 06mecTBa b 



452 



Hbw-HopKe (oceHbK) 1875 r.). OHa (Madame Helene Blavatsky) Hanncajia no- 
aHrjiHficKii pna cohhhchhh no oKKyjibTHbiM BonpocaM. Ee khhth H3 TIEUIEP 
H JJEEPEM MHJJOCTAHA. TlucbMa «a poduny Padda-Eau (M., 1883) hTO- 
JIYEblE rOPbl [T.e. 3ArAnOHHblE TIJIEMEHA HA «rOJIYEbIX TO- 
PAX», 1893) 6bijiH HanucaHbi ann wypHana «PyccKHfi Bccthhk». Ohh 6bijin 
nepeBeaeHbi Ha aHrn., <J)paHu., HeMeuKHfl h up. H3MKH. Ee hmh iacTo BCTpe- 
waeTca b KC (461, 486, 491-492, 494-495, 505, 619, 621, 623-624). 



1897 

Annan Kapd3K (Allan Kardec; HacT. fyaMnnusi: Rivail, Hippolyte Leon 
Denizard, 1803-1869) — ocHOBaTe.ib (j)paHuy3CKoro cnnpnTH3Ma, aBTop pana 
KHHr no cnn P HTH3My: LE LIVRE DES ESPRITS CONTENANT LES PRIN- 
CIPES DE LA DOCTRINE SPIRITE etc. (Paris, 1857); PHILOSOPHIE 
SPIRITUALISTE. LE LIVRE DES ESPRITS etc. (Paris, 1860); LE SPIRI- 
TISME A SA PLUS SIMPLE EXPRESSION etc. (Paris, 1862, b pyccKOM 
nepeBoae: CTIMPHTM3M B CAMOM TIPOCTOM ETO BblPAKEHHM. 
KpawiKoe o6wcHemje yneHu.n dyxoe u ux npone/ieHU.H . (Heftnu.nr, 1864). 

«Ompbi6Ku U3 ynaHuiuad», c snHrpatfcoM H3 LLIoneHrayspa, b nepeBone 
Bepw J3*ohctoh, noHBHnHCb b wypH. «Bonpocbi <t>Hjiocoei>HH h ncHxojiorHH», 
1896, kh.1(31) (aHBapb), c.1-34. 

CmambH «Hto TaKoe aoKTpHHa TeocottwwecKoro 06mecTBa» BceBOJioaa 
CepreeBHwa CojioBbeBa (1849-1903), 6paTa (jjanococfca, 6bma HanewaTaHa b 
TpeTbeft KHHre (Matt) wypn. «Bonpocbi <j>H.noco(l)HH h ncHxojiorHH» ja 1893 r. 
(c. 41-68 [BTopan narHHauHa]). B 1892 r . oh newaTan cepHK) CTaTen-BOcnoMHHa- 
hhh o BnaBaTCKofl b BOCbMH BbinycKax (<t>eBpajib-Maft, ceHTs6pb-aeKa6pb) 
*ypH. «PyccKHft BecTHHK». B 1893 ohh 6bi/iH BwnymeHbi oTae/ibHbiM H3,aa- 
HHeM b IleTep6ypre: «COBPEMEHHAH )KPML\A M3MJJbI». Moe 3hokom- 
cmeo c E.Tl. EnaeamcKOu u meocotfimecKUM oditfecmeoM. ^CypHa/ibHaa ny6- 
JiHKauHH Bbi3Bana 6ypHbifl npoTecT cecTpw EjiaBaTCKOH, Bepw flaB/ioBHbi 
»enHXOBCKOft: E.Tl. BJIABATCKAX M COBPEMEHHblM )KPEU HCTH- 
Hbl. (Cn6, 1893). 

«...ho caMoe rnaBHoe co6biTHe Moeii BHyTpeHHefl >kh3hh, sto — aa*e He 
(J)Hjioco4>CKoe OTKpoBeHHe, a oTKpbiTHe, Tax cKa3aTb, nyTH *h3hh, kotopwm 
MHe cTajia (twjioco(J)H5i IIloneHrayapa. Ha tom llloneHrayspa h erne HaTKHyncH 
b MocKBe, b Ka6HHeTe oTua; sto 6bui nepBbifl tom "Mup kok eo/iM u npedcma- 
eneHue". YBHaeB, hto 3nHrpa(J) k 3TOMy TOMy BOCXBajiaeT BeaaHxy, cTo/ib 
mhoh jno6HMyKi, peiuaro, hto sto HMeHHO to, hto MHe Hy*Ho; /.../ Moe He- 
aaBHee THroTeHHe k BOCTOKy, k B&aaHTe h k Teoco4)HH, Moe yBjieneHHe ;iHTe- 
paTypoti o cnHpHTH3Me onHTb-TaKH o6i>5icHeHO MHe; b LUoneHrayspe BH*y a 
coeaHHeHHe BOCTOKa h 3anaaa; 3aneM tcocoijjhh, 6yaflH3M, Hhuhh, Koraa Bee 
ikhhocth BOCTOKa BjiHTbi b 3anaa lIJoneHray3poM» [HK)jib-ceHT«6pb] («Ma- 
TepHaji»). 



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1901 

«...Haao eaenaTb MHpoB033pHTeabHbie BbiBoaw H3 HaKonHBUiHxca MaTe- 
pnajiOB MHCTHHecKoro onbiTa; 3to — aeno 6yaywero. /.../ 3to BpeMsi [HioHb] 
onaTb-TaKH MHe oTMeTH/iocb OKeHb HHTepecHoio BCTpeweio c BepHyamettcs H3 
(lapHwa, rae OHa *Haa MHoro aeT, Ahhoh CepreeBHOfl ToHwapoBOH; A.C. 
ToHMapoBa (H3 ceMbH «nyuiKHHCKHx» ToHMapoBbix) 6wna oaHa H3 nepBbix 
3MaHCHnHpoBaHHbix pyccKHx *eHiiiHH; naBHHe pa3roBopw ee c nanoft npo6y- 
zihjih b Hefl HHTepec k (JwjiococtwH; OHa OKOHHHJia b CBoe BpeMH Cop6oHHy h 
CTajia nepBbiM udoKmopoM 0u/ioco(j)uu» (H3 pyccKHx wemuHH); c toh nopw 
OHa roflbi >KHna HCKaioHHTeabHO HHTepecaMH (JwaocoqbHH, ncHxojiorHH, 6yay- 
4H hhhho 3HaKOMa c Phui3, EyTpy h LUapKo; OHa noTOM bch yuiaa b HHTepecw 
3KcnepHMeHTanbHOH ncHxojiorHH, H3y4ajia KHHrH no rnnHOTH3My; BMecTe c 
TeM OHa nepBan H3 pyccKHx B30iuaa Ha BepuiHHy MoH6aaHa; /.../ BnocaeacT- 
bhh OHa aoaro 3aHHMaaacb npo6aeMaMH sctcthkh; HecKOJibKO aeT OHa 6e3- 
Bwe3flHO *Haa b flapHwe, a Tenepb Bapyr BepHyaacb b MocKBy — y6e5KaeH- 
HefluieH meocodJKOK), jih4ho 3HaKOMOfi c Ahhh Be3aHT, Jlea6HTepoM h nacxa- 
jieM (napH>KCKHM TeocoqboM); b 3tot nepnoa OHa 6biB2ma y Hac nonTH Kawawft 
aeHb, pa3roBapHBaa c nanofi h niaBHbiM o6pa30M co mhok) o TeocoeJwH h 
CHa6)Kaa nany h mchh 6pouiK>pKaMn Be3aHT h nacKaaa. /.../ A.C. ToHiapoBa 
CTajia hbho MHe nponoBeaoBaTb reocoqbHK) m BocxBaaaTb EaaBaacKyw /../ c 
OAHofl ctopohw a c waflHocrbK) BbicnpauiHBaa y A.C. ToHwapoBOH aeTanH 
noKTpHHbi, bo MHoroM c Hefl coraauiaacb (b npo6aeMe 3coTepH3Ma, yieHHJi o 
CTpoeHHH neiioBeKa, b rH03Hce); c apyroft ctopohw pe3K0 OTTajiKHBaaca ot 
hot 6yaaH3Ma h BocTOKa, bhxih 3necb onacHoe yron/ieHHe xpncTHaHCKoro 3co- 
TepH3Ma b o6meBOCTOMHOM; /.../ MHe Hy>KHa v,xpucmuancKcm meoco<f>UH», a 
He BOCTOWHaa» («MaTepHaji»). Cm. TaK>Ke «ceHT»6pb» b «MaTepHaae»: «...c 
3Toro Mecsua b HameM aoMe nacTo noHBaHeTCH riaB. Hhk. EanoniKOB (BHy- 
weK nosTa) h aBoiopoaHbifl 6paT A.C. roHnapoBofi; mw npocH«nBaeM c hhm 
iaonrHMH Be4epaMH h pa3roBapHBaeM o TeococfcHH, c KOTopofl » ywe HeaypHO 
3HaKOM no KHHraM Be3aHT h JIea6HTepa; oh MHe paccKa3WBaeT o Mnae, o 3jio- 
6ax aHH Teocoqb. O-Ba; h pa3a 2 b Heaeaio 6biBaio y A.C. roHiapoBOft, c koto- 
poft Bee 6onee h 6oaee CBfnbiBaioT mchh HOTbi BHyTpeHHero pa3BHTHn; «fjymb 
nocexuteHunvi cTaHOBHTca 30bom ayuin: CHjibHeflniHe Bne4aTneHHx npoH3BO- 
aHT «.Ceem na nymu»; h Bee to, 4to MHe paccKa3biBaeT ToHHapoBa, KaK kom- 
MeHTapHH k BxaraBaT-rwTe». 

Cp. TaK>Ke HB, 56-58, h AFT, 60: «riocepeanHe *e 4eTbipHaauaTHaeTH» 
1895-1908, HMeHHO b aByx roaax, BepHee b roae, cao>KeHHOM H3 BTopoft noao- 
bhhw 1901 roaa h nepBofl noaoBHHbi 1902 roaa jKHBettuiaJi BCTpe4a c Teoco<J)- 
koh roHHapoeou, yMHeflmefl, o6pa30BaHHefluiefl, 6apbiuiHefl, "doxmopoM" 
tJ)Haoco(J)HH, b sto BpeM« noHBUBuieftcH b MocKBe h y4peaHBmefi nepBbifi Kpy- 
>kok b MocKBe; noTOM OHa yexaaa, ocTaBHB cBoero aBowpoaHoro 6paTa, Ba- 
TKJiiJKOBa; b stot nepHoa onaTb 4HTaio: riacKaaa, Be3aHT h T.a. Ho Teoco(J)H- 
4ecKHe HHTepecw He npeBaaHpyroT; ohh — BHyTpn xpHCTHaHCKHX». 

EanvouiKoe, riaBea HHKoaaeBH4 (1864 - ok. 1930) — oanH H3 «aproHaB- 

TOB», HCTOpHK H TeOCOtJ). /leflTeabHblfl COTpyaHHK *. «BeCTHHK Teoco<J)HH», 

aBTop KHHr: 330TEPH3M PEJWrHM (CFI6, 1911), riEPEBOnjlOWEHHE 
454 



(CI16, \9\7>), nYTb RyXOBHOrO n03HAHHX (Cm, 1913), BnepBbie no- 
hbhbiuhxch b «BecTHHKe Teoco<l>HH». Ero nepeBoa (c aHrjiHflCKoro) H3 CBETA 
HA TIYTM HanenaTaH b nepBOM c6opHHKe «CBo6oaHas coBecTb» (1906), 
c. 140-152. Oh h «6eaHbifl pbiuapb» (HB, 55 h caea.) h wyaaic «6e3BpcneH, 6aa- 
ropoaeH, ho y30K» (HB, 55). 

CuHHem (Sinnett, Alfred Percy, 1840-1921) — aHraHHCKHft Teocotf), co- 
TpyiiHHK E.n. BnaBaTCKOH h OjiKOTTa, c kotopmmh oh no3HaicoMHaca b Hh- 
aHH, rae oh jkhji MHoro jieT. Ero KHHrH THE OCCULT WORLD (London, 
1881; LE MONDE OCCULTE, HYPNOTISME TRANSCENDANT EN ORI- 
ENT, Paris, 1887; Eenbift, HaBepHoe, HMeeT b BHay 3Ty HaiuyMeBiuyio KHHry) h 
ESOTERIC BUDDHISM (London, 1883; LE BUDDHISME ESOTERIQUE, 
OU POSITIVISME HINDOU, Paris, 1890; (fcpaHu. nepeeoa ynoMjmyT b KC, 
461) MHoro cnoco6cTBOBajiH pacnpocrpaHeHHio Teoeo<j)CKOH HaeoaorHH h b 
Mhahh, h Ha 3anaae. Oh TaK*e Hanncaa oziHy H3 nepBbix KHur o E/iaBaTCKoft: 
INCIDENTS IN THE LIFE OF MADAME BLA VATSKY (London, 1886). 

A/«d(Mead, George Robert Stow, 1863-1933) — aHraHHCKHft Teocotj), nm- 
Hwfl cenpeTapb E.n. EaaBaTCKOH, cneuHaancT no hctophh paHHero xpnc"THaH- 
CTBa h rHOCTHUH3Ma. Flocjie cBoero yxoaa H3 Teocot|>cKoio 06meci Ba b 1908 r. 
ocHOBan Quest Society. Eeabifi b nncbMe ot 1(14) 1912 r. Eaoicy Ha3Baa ero 
«yneHbiM (JmaoaoroM Teoco<})OM» («nepenHCKa», 293). 

Be3anm (Besant, Annie, 1847-1933) — aHr/iMflcKaji nncaTenwiHua h o6me- 
CTBeHHbift aeHTeub (Fabian Society, Secular Society), oaHa H3 jinaepoB TeocotJ)- 
CKoro 06mecTBa (Adyar) h c 1907 r. — ero npeaceaaTeab. CpeaH MHo»cecTBa 
ee pa6oT HeT KHHrH, Ha3BaHHoft «Vers le Temple». Ee KHHia THE ANCIENT 
WISDOM. AN OUTLINE OF THEOSOPHICAL TEACHINGS (London, 
1897; LA SAGESSE ANTIQUE, Paris, 1899) 6biaa nepeBeaena Ha pyccKwfl 
«3biK EneHOfi IlHcapeBOH (JlPEBHUfl MYUPOCTb. Ouepx meocoffiu-iecmx 
yuenuu. (CFI6, 1913 [B-ropoe H3aaHHe]), h Benbift uHTHpyeT itot nepesoa b 
KC, 495, 498-500. 

TlacKonb (Pascal, Dr. Theophile, 1860-1909) — (JipaHityiCKHft OKKyjibTHcr 
h Teoco*, aBTop ABC DE LA THEOSOPHIE (Paris, 1897); LA REINCAR- 
NATION etc. (Paris, 1895) h ap. KHHr. Hanwcaa npeaHcaoBHe k cj)paHuy3CKOMy 
nepeBoay KHHrH BesaHT DEA TH — AND AFTER? (London, 1893; LA MORT 
ET I'AU-DELA, Paris, 1896). 

JIed6umep (Leadbeater, Charles Webster, 1847-1934) — aHraHHCKHft cbm- 

UieHHHK, CHHBUIHH CaH. AKTHBHblH flCHTejIb Teoco<J)CKoro 06mecTBa H 6jlH- 

>KafluiHH coTpyaHHK Be3aHT. C<J>epoft ero oco6oro HHTepeca 6wjio HCHOBHae- 
HHe (clairvoyance). B 1906 r. pa3pa3Hnca cKaHaaa b cbh3h c roMoceKcyaabHw- 
mh npHCTpacTHMH Jlefl6HTepa h ero 3acTaBHan yiiTH H3 Teoco<J)CKoro 06uie- 
CTBa; npHHHTHe ero o6paTHO b 1908 r. no HacroHHHK) Be3aHT BbBBaao Mac- 
coBbift Bbixoa H3 OGuiecTBa h ero paocoji. 

B nepe^He «nHcaHHfl» Jlea6HTepa, npHBoaHMOM BenwM, uapHT nojiHaa 
nyTaHHua OTHOCHTenbHO npHHaaneacHOCTH Toro hhh HHoro TeKCTa aBTopy 
hjih npHBeaeHHe HecymecTByioiiiHX saraaBHti. CBETHA nYTH (LIGHT ON 

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THE PA TH. A Treatise written for the personal use of those who are ignorant 
of the Eastern Wisdom, etc., 1885) npHHaaaoKHT aHrjiHsamce Mabel Collins 
(1851-1927). KHHra 6biaa oco6eHHO 4THMa IllTeHHepoM h EeabiM (cm. ynoMH- 
HaHHH o Hefl b kh. Kznovo BOCnOMHHAHHH O WTEPlHEPE). rOJIOC 
BE3MOJIBHH [u dpyeue u36paHHbie ompbWKU U3 «Kmieu 30/iombix npaeu/i»] 
(VOICE OF THE SILENCE. Being chosen fragments from the «Book of the 
Golden Preceptsn, 1889; HeM. nep., Leipzig, 1893) npHHaaaeacHT nepy E.n. 
E/iaBaTCKofl. CBET HA FIYTH HBjmeTCH nepBofi otkpwto tcococJjckoh khh- 
roft, H3flaHHOfl b Pocchh (b KOHue 1905 r.), b nepeBoae Teoco(J)KH E.<I>. IlHcape- 
boh (cm. TaioKe npHM. o BanoiiiKOBe). C stoh KHHrn IlHcapeBa Haiaaa CHCTe- 
MaTHHecKyio ny6nHKaiiHio Teoco(t>CKOH aHTepaTypu b Pocchh, raaBHbiM o6pa- 
30M BbinymeHHOH ee H3aaTeabCTBOM «JloTyc» (Kaayra). riocae 1917 r. IlHca- 
peBa npoaojmaaa cboio aesiTeabHOCTb b 3MHrpauHH. 

KHHrii JleaSHTepa: HEBHUMMblE nOMOUIHMKH (INVISIBLE HEL- 
PERS, London, 1899; LES AIDES INVISIBLE, Paris, 1902; HEBMJJMMhIE 
nOMOlUHHKH H HEBHJJHMblH MHP, Kaayra, 1909); ACTPAJIbHblM 
WIAH (THE ASTRAL PLANE, London, 1895; LE PLAN ASTRAL, Paris, 
1899). 

LE SON DANS LA NATURE He cywecTByex; ecTb ero we L'OCCUL- 
TISME DANS LA NATURE (entretiens d'Adyar) (nepeBoa: THEOSOPHI- 
CAL TALKS AT ADYAR, London, 1910), Bbimenmaa b napHwe To/ibKo b 
1911-1913. 

Cp. TaioKe ero KPATKHM OIEPK TEOCO0HH (Ka/iyra, 1911; nepe- 
boa: AN OUTLINE OF THEOSOPHY, London, 1902). 



1902 

Ulmpe (Schure, Edouard, 1841-1929) — (i>paHuy3CKHH OKKyjibTHCT, mien 
napH>KCKoro «Teoco(t>HiecKoro OSmecTBa BocTOKa h 3anaaa». 3aTeM npHBep- 
H<eHeu aHTponoco<J)HH h paHHHfl coTpyaHHK P.IllTeHHepa, o kotopom oh nn~ 
can h pa6oxbi KOToporo nepeBoaHa. Hanncaa cepHio nbec-MHCTepHfl noa Ha- 
3BaHHeM LE THEATRE DEL'AME( 1900-1905). CpeaH ero KHHr: LE DRAME 
MUSICAL, 2 tt. (Paris, 1875 h HecKoabKO nepepa6. H3a.) h LES GRANDS 
INITIES [He Unites!]. Esquisse de I'histoire secrete des religions (Paris, 1889; 
MHoro nepema.). Cm. KC, 462: «B nonbiTKe npeoaoaeTb BbiaBHHyTyio Hhu- 
me npo6neMy aBTop conpHKacaeTcn HHoraa c 3.IIIiope ("Le drame musi- 
fo/")», u KC, 623: «LLIiope b CBoeM coiHHeHHH "Les Grands Inities" nonyaa- 
pinnpyeT B3rn«abi <t>a6pa a'OaHBbe h a'AabBefiapa; oh nHineT...». 

0ynbe (Fouillee, Alfred, 1838-1912) — LA PHILOSOPHIE DE PLATON, 
2 tt. (Paris, 1869; mhoto nepema.). Cm. KC, 474: «Aab(J)pea 4>yabe — eMy 
npHHaaae>KHT p«a cohhhchhh noatac HHTepecHbix, noatac caa6wx, cpean ko- 
Topwx oTMeTHM ero coiHHeHHfl o KaHTe h FlaaTOHe /.../ <t>yabe npHcyma we- 

HCHOCTb H3aO*eHH« H c6HB4HB0CTb B TepMHHOaOrHH». 

«...B 3th >Ke ahh [ceHTH6pb-OKT«6pb] a HaHHHaK) nocernaTb nepBbifl Teo- 
co<J)ckhH Kpy>KOK, co6HpaK>iunflcfl y KoxMaHCKOft npu 6nH>KaHuieM yqacTHH 



456 



EaTKHiiKOBa (A.C. ToHiapoBa — yexajia b FlapHw); 3aecb 3HaKOMJiK)cb Me*- 
ay npoKHM c IlHcapeBOH h M.B. Ca6aiiiHHK0B0H, Toraa — K)hok> aeByuiKoH; 
"Teocotfbi" OTTajiKHBaioT ineH» ot ce6a; h a npepbmaK) nocemeHHe Kpy»Ka, 
ho c BaTioniKOBbiM — npoaojiwaio apy>KHTb, xoTa HecKOJibKo noflCMeHBaiocb 
Haa Teoco(J)Heft» («MaTepHaa»). 



1903 

«...HHTepecyiocb rHOCTHKaMH h T.a.». B «MarepHajie» MTeHHe 6ojibUiHH- 
CTBa H3 Ha3BaHHbix 3aecb aBTopoB OTHeceHo k oceHH 1901 roaa. HanpHMep: 
«fl norpywaiocb b TOjiKOBaHHa AnoKaanncHca (Meway npoMHM 06epaeHa), 
HHTaK) Koe-4To H3 tomob CBeaeH6opra "L'Apocalypse explique"» (ceHT»6pb 
1901 r.); hjih: «H nepemeji k HTeHHio b My3ee otuob UepKBn; h rnaBHoe — k 
H3yqeHHK3 TBopeHHH HcaaKa CHpnaHHHa, oeraBaaBLUHx b ayuie Moeft CHUbHeft- 
tuee BnenaTneHHO) (ceHTa6pb 1901 r.); hjih: «A.C. rieTpoBCKHH noaKiiaabiBa- 
eT jieTonncb Cepa<j>HMO-aHBeeBCKoro MOHacTbipa; h c stoh nopbi 3Ta KHHra 
CTaHOBHTCH Moeft HacTonbHOK) KHHroK); o6pa3 Cepa(J)HMa, Becb hhh mojihtb 
ero, o*HBaeT b ayme Moefl; c toh nopbi a HanHHaio MoaHTbca CepaiJ)HMy; h 
MHe KasKeTca, hto Oh — TafiHO Beaex Mena; o6pa3 CepaiJwMa, KaK hcbhahmo- 
ro noMOiuHHKa, BbiTecHaeT bo MHe o6pa3 noKoflHoro Bji. CojioBbeBa; a Becb 
*HBy ^HBeeBbiM /.../». Cp. AP, 60: «Bo btopom noayroaHH 1902 roaa ycn- 
aeHHO iHTaio Bee o cb. CepaiJwiMe; h wpe3 onwT "M0/?um8", ycTaHOB/ieHHbix 
Cepa(J)HMOM, BnepBbie BHyTpn mojihtb HMeio y3HaHHe o tom, hto no3aHee ot- 
KpoeTca, Kax "HMny/ibc Xpucma"». 

McaaK Cupuhhuh (hjih Chphh), yinep b KOHue VII b. O pyccKHx nepeBoaax 
ero coHHHeHHH cm. IiyTH PYCCKOrO EOrOCJIOBHH r.4>jiopoBCKoro 
(napH>K, 1937; 2-e ma. 1981), c.392. 

06ep/i3H (Auberlen, Carl August, 1824-1864) — hcmcukhh 6orocjioB. Cpe- 
w ero KHHr: DER PROPHET DANIEL UND DIE OFFENBARUNG JOHA- 
NNIS IN IHREM GEGESEITIGEN VERHALTNIS, etc. (Basel, 1854); DIE 
G6TTLICHE OFFENBARUNG, 2 tt. (Basel, 1861-64). UlTeftHep nacTo uhth- 
pyeT ero comhhchhh. 

Ceeden6ope (Swedenborg, Emanuel, 1688-1772) — L'APOCALYPSE 
EXPLIQUE SELON LE SENS SPIRITUEL, etc., traduit du latin, 7 tt. (1855- 
59) [APOCALYPSIS EXPLICATA SECUNDUM SENSUM SPIRITUALEM, 
etc. 1875J. 

Bpohckuu (Hoene-Wronski, Jozef -Maria, 1778-1853) — ilojibCKHH MaTe- 
MaTHK h oKKynbTHCT (PROGRAMME DU COURS DE PHILOSOPHIE TRA- 
NSCEDANTALE, Paris, 1811; PHILOSOPHIE DE I'INFINI, etc., Paris, 
1814; PHILOSOPHIE ABSOLUE DE I'HISTOIRE, OU GENESE DE I'HU- 
MANITE, 2 tt., Paris, 1852); aBTop MHorHx KHHr Ha MeccHancKHe tcmm. 

B «MaTepHajie» 3a aBrycT 1903 r. EejibiH nHiueT: «...a HaMepeBatocb npo- 
necTb b MocKBe ny6jiHHHyio aeKUHio "Cum8o/iu3m, kok Mupoeo33penue" , h 
o6ayMbiBaro ee coaepacaHHe; b 3tom Mecaue a nHmy cTaTbK) "O meypeuu" aaa 



457 



"Hoeoeo flymu" [1903, JVs4] h oTcwjiaio b peaKaiiHio (a mohcct 6biTb, nuuiy 
3Ty cTaTbio MecHueM paHbtue)». Cm. TaKwe CTaTbK) CHMBOHH3M, KAK 
MHPOnOHHMAHHE. — «Mnp McKyccTBa», 1904, J\fe5. Ranee b «MaTepHa- 
jie» 3a 0KT«6pb 1903 r. MHTaeM: «" 'ApeoHuembi" ce6« ouxymajiH He TOJibKO 

CHMBOJIHCTaMH, HO CHMBOJIHCTaMH npaKTHKaMH, TeypraMH. /.../ B03HHKiia 

nonbiTxa: aaTb couHajrbHoe BbipaweHHe HHjjHBHziyajibHbiM nepewHBaHHJiM ot- 
ae^bHbix jiwuck; h — HaflneHo 6bi.no mhoh cjiobo: h 3to cjiobo — "MHcre- 

PHH". Mb! — CTpeMH/IHCb K "MUCmepitu", K TBOpieCTBy JKH3HH, K KOHKpeTHO- 

My nepeBopoTy; /.../ si [o(J>opmjihji cTpeMjieHHe k aeficTBHio] b co3HaNHH sui 
generis hum "3.aee3UHCKux Mucmepuu" Hamero BpeMeHH». 



1904 

UlTeftnep (Steiner, Rudolf, 1861-1925) — ocHOBare/ib aHTponoco(J)HH. 
Ero kh. DAS CHRISTENTUM ALS MYSTISCHE TATSACHE UND DIE 
MYSTERIEN DES ALTERTUMS Bbimna b BepjiHHe b 1902 r. B KC, 462 Ee- 
jibifi OTMeMaeT (}ipaHuy3CKHH nepeBoa UJwpe (LE MYSTERE CHRETIEN ET 
LES MYSTERES ANTIQUES), BbiuieawHH b HapHwe b 1908 r. 

B nwcbMe ot 1(14) 1912 r. EnoKy Eeabul nHcan: «Ecjih B3«Tb cnHcoMeK 
KHHr, BbinycKaeMbix TeococtmnecKHM oGukctbom, rae Hapaay c nepaaMH Bpo- 
ae "Ceem ho nymu", " Bxaeaead-rumoiT 1 ' , nonyjispHbiMH, HHoraa HHTepec- 
HbiMH, ho HeBbicoKoro noaeTa KHM>KeKKaMH Be3aHT h Jlea6HTepa, yneHbiM- 
(JmaojioroM Teoco(J)OM Mhjiom h np., nonaaaioTcsi h khh>kkh P.IIlTeHHepa (Ha 
pyccKOM H3WKe MMeroTCH "Flymb k noceniyeHUto" h "t&eococjma" — o6e He 
HHTepecHbi anst Hac c to6ok>); npoHTH 3th khh>kkh, CKaaceuib HeBOHbHO: "HnH 
3To psflOBOfi reococfrcKHfi ruicarenh, aim sto c03HarenbHbiH neaaror, mhcchh 
KOToporo pacTOJiKarb cnsKKy HeMetiKHx 'memyuieh', npHKpbiBatouiHH cboh 

3HaHHH o6aiCTeOCO(J)CKHMH TpK)H3MaMH, HJ1H 3T0 3CTeTHHeCKH 6e3BK>'CHblH 

HejioBeK". Ho, cKa3aB TaK, 3aayMaeuibC«: HHbie MecTa KHHr ckbo3«t orpoMHofl 
6jiH3ocTbio (TaK cpeaH nycTbiHH 6biBaeT HHoraa 3a6pomeH eaBa 3aMeTHbifi 
npejiecTHbiH uBeToneK). 

HecKonbKO neT TOMy Ha3aa h npone/i ero KHHry "Mucmepuu xpucmuaH- 
cmea u Mucmepuu dpeeHocmu" M, npoiTH, cxaia/i ce6e: "Bom cxytHbiu ue/10- 
een" . CKa3an h 3a6bin. Toraa UlTeftHep BnepBbie noHBHaca Ha Teoco<t>cKOM ro- 
pH30HTe; c hhm MeHH no3naKOMHJi HeKorzia n.H. EaTiouiKOB (noMHHmb — 
CMeuiHOH KenoBeMeK c orpoMHbiM hocom: He to rpy3HHCKnft KHsneK, He to hh- 
nyccKHfl cB3Touia)...» («nepenHCKa», 293). 

Mton/iep (Muller, Friedrich Max, 1823-1900) — - hcmchkhh aHTponoaor, 
hctophk penHrHH, nepeBoawHK HHflHHCKOH peaHrH03HOH nHTepaTypw (ynA- 
HHUIAUbl). Abtop THEOSOPH1E ODER PSYCHOLOGISCHE RELIGI- 
ON (Leipzig, 1895) h MHorHX KHHr 06 HHaHHCKofi penmiiu. Cm. KC, 461: «k 
3TOMy Bonpocy [peaHrH03Horo TBopwecTBa] othochtch MHoroHHCJieHHbie h 
MaaoroBopHuiHe comhhchhh M.MK)jinepa»; TaM *e, 462: «ynoMHHa« MaKca 
Mionjiepa, a pa3yMero b aaHHOM cnyiae ero 6eccHCTeMHyK), yMy HHnero He 
roBop«myio, ho BecbMa "noumehHyio" KHHry: «IIlecmb cucmeM undyccKOu 
0u/ioco0uu" (ecTb pyccKHH riepeBOji); ecjiH cpaBHHTb 3Ty KHHry c KHHraMH 



4S8 



fleflcceHa [cm. HH>Ke], to o6Hapy>KHTCfl Hecoraacne bo B3raaaax Ha Boctok Me- 
xny o6ohmh yqeHbiMH; b to Bpevis KaK M.MK)juiep obmgotm CBoero npo(J)ec- 
copcKoro BeJiHMHH noMTH TpeTHpyeT npo6jieMbi, kotopmmh 3aHHMaeTC», — 
fleflcceH c orpoMHWM npoHHKHOBeHHeM bboaht Hac b noHHMaHHe cyuiHoc- 
th MeTOjia MbiuineHHH y MyapeuoB Hhhhh». Cm. TaioKe: KC, 542, 573, 586, 
608,621. 



1905 

CmaHCbi Ulaunapa — no Bcett bhuhmocth, «IIIaHnapa» — onHCKa, Beauft 
Mor HMeTb b BHfly UlaHKapa (una IUaHKapanapbH, koh. VIII-XI bb.): 3HaMeHH- 

TblH HHaHHCKHH (JwaOCOCj), pe(J)OpMaTOP HHiiyH3Ma, OZ1HH H3 IViaBHMX ynHTe- 

aeft h nponoBenHHKOB (JHiaocoiJicKOH niKojibi BeaaHTa. TeococfccKafl jiHTepa- 
Typa «acTO u«TnpyeT ero cokhhchhh (raaBHbie — KOMMeHTapHH Ha HHaHHCKHe 
penHrH03Hbie TeKCTbi). HaftTH cpeaH ero pa6oT ynoMHHaeMbie EeabiM «CTa- 
hcm» He yaaaocb. 

CmaHCbi KHueu «Dzian» — no cBHneTcribCTBy E.n. EaaBaTCKOfi, ee KHHra 
THE SECRET DOCTRINE [cm. hhjkc] ocHOBWBaeTCH Ha mhcthmcckhx apeB- 
hhx TeKCTax «Stanzas of Dzyan» («Stances de Dzyan»). (Ho chx nop 3th TeK- 
ctw HHKOMy He yaaaocb o6Hapy>KHTb). Ohh ueaHKOM HanenaTaHbi b 1-m t. 
THE SECRET DOCTRINE h 6buiH BbinymeHbi oTaeabHbiM H3aaHHeM (1892; 
MHoro H3fl.). B KC, 491 Eeaiift nHiueT: «EnaBaTcKafl npHBoaHT b nepBOM 
TOMe ''Doctrine Secrete" aeBHTb KOCMoroHHHecKHx cTaHcoB H3 HeH3BecTHofi 
(J)HjionoraM khhfh "Uimn". Becb nepBbifl tom coctoht H3 KOMMeHTapHH k 
3thm CTaHcaM». TaM we, 491-492, Eeabift H3jiaraeT coaepwaHHe sthx CTaHcoB. 

0yxap (Foucart, Paul-Francois, 1836-1926) — LES GRANDS MYSTERES 
d'ELEUSIS (Paris, 1900). Eeabift oTMenaeT ero b KC, 458 b cnncxe HayMHOtt 
jiHTepaTypw no 3J7cbchhckhm mhctcphhm («K 6oaee no3aHHM HccaeaoBaHHHM 
caeayeT othccth pa6oTW <t>yKapa»). TaM we oh nHiueT: «...hto we KacaeTca 
ao EaeB3HHCKHx MHCTepnH, to Bee aaHHbie, Ha KOTopbix onnpaeMCH mm, cMy- 
thw, ho BbiBoa, HanpaiuHBaroiuHHCH caM C06010 noeae H3yneHHH Bonpoca o 
MHCTepwax, — oaHH: b MHCTepnax He npenoaaBaaocb 3coTepHMecKoft aoKT- 
pHHbi, ho TBopnecKH aoKTpHHa nepewHBaaacb /.../. EaeB3HHCKHe mhctcphh, 
no MHeHHK) B.HsaHOBa h apyrnx, whboh h aencTBeHHbift (J>OKyc KyabTypHoft 
WH3HH TpeuHH; /.../ rpenecKHsi KynbTypa, Hayna h (J)h.ioco<J>hh npeaonpeae- 
aeHbi TBopnecKHM npHMaTOM». Cm. TaKwe KC, 521-523. ' 

Lacroix Paul (1806-1884) — <J)paHiry3CKnn poMaHHCT, 6H6aHorpa<t> h no- 
nya«pn3aTop, HanHcaBinHfi Heo6o3pnMoe KoaHnecTBO pa6oT no hctophh an- 
TepaTypw h no hctophh cpeaHeBeKOBbH, XVII-XVIII bb. (hm HanncaHo aa«e 
HecKoabKO KHHr no hctophh Pocchh, KaK HanpHMep, 6Horpa<l>HH HHKoaas I, 
HsaaHHe nnceM Madame de Krudener). Ony6aHKOBaa MHoroHHcaeHHwe pa6o- 
tw Ha oKKyabTHbie TeMbi noa nceBaoHHMOM «le bibliophile Jacob», «P.L. 
Jacob, bibliophile»). CpeaH hhx: CURIOSITES DES SCIENCES OCCULTES 
(Paris, 1862); CURIOSITES INFERNALES (Paris, 1886); HISTOIRE DES 
MYSTIFICATEURS ET DES MYSTIFIES, 3 tt. (Bruxelles, 1856-1858) h T.a. 



459 



B o6uieM KaT&nore HauHOHaabHOH EH6aHOTeKH (Paris, 1925) tojh>ko ero pa- 

60Tbl 3aHMMaH3T 35 CTpaHHU. 

Tpy6euKou, KH«3b Ceprefi HHKoaaeBHi (1862-1905) — penm-HcnHbifl (Jjh- 
jioco(J), nocaeaoBaTeab Bji. CoaoBbeBa, peaaxTop >k. «Bonpocbi (J>nnoco(})HH 
h ncHxanornH», npo(J>eccop MocKOBCKoro yH-Ta. y Hero Beabin cayuiaa aeK- 

uhh. mehhe o norocE b Ero hctopmh, oh/iocoqcko-hcto- 

PHVECKOE MCCHEJIOBAHME. tom nepBwtt (M., 1900); co6p. com., t.IV 
(1906). KHHra oTMCMaeTca b KC, 625. 

B KC npHMe^aHHe k <J)yHaaMeHTajibHofi ciaTbe 3METIEMATHKA 
CMblCUA necTpuT ynoMHHaHHHMH o ao-coKpaTOBCKOfl (JwaococjjHH (AHaKca- 
rop, AHaKCHMaHflp, AHaxcHMeH. FepaKJiHT, IleMOKpHT, 3eHOH, IlapMeHHa, 
nHcfcarop, 3MrieaoKa h ap.) (KC, 490-91, 495-97). 06 opcj)H3Me cm. KC, 522- 
23, 596. Cm. TaK*ce BB («3none«», N»4, 68): «npOT«rnBaiOTC« cbsoh Meway 
MHofl h HnneHnepoM, KaHyBiDHM b (fruaocoijKKHe npo6aeMbi, HamynbiBaio- 
uiHM orpoMHbie, ho eiue caMowy neacHbie mhcjih o rHOCTHKax, 06 op(J>H<ie- 
ckhx THMHax, o KyvibTax TeKaTbi h o npo6aeMax mhctcphh: h noa BaHHHbeM 
HnaeHaepa HaiHHaio noHHTbmaTb Koe-KaKyro aHTepaTypy, 3aTparMBaK>wyio 
3th npeaMeTbr. npomiTbiBaio HccaeaoBdHHe HoBocaacKoro "06 opfiunecxux 
euMHax"; h Jlo6eK, 4>yKap, Poae, BpyrMan Tenepb HaiHHaiOT bo MHe iobo- 
PHTb» (kohcu 1907 r.). 

1906 

B nHCbMe ot 1(14) 1912 r. Eaony Beawfl nwueT: «Ho Bee 3to BHHMaHHe 
Moe 6biao KaKHM-TO caynaftHbiM: homhio b MioHxeHe, b pokoboh aan MeH« 
1906 roa, a cayHafiHO BCTpermi TaM MHHuaoBy, c kotopoh 6bia easa 3HaKOM; 
OHa 3Baaa MeHa Toraa noceTHTb aexuHK) IllreHHepa: » npo3eBaa Beiep h, ko- 
HewHO, Ha aeKUHK) He nowea: MHHuaoBa b to BpeMH 6waa 6aH3Kofi ero yne- 
HHueK). no B03BpameHHK> b Pocchk) Maine h lame npHxoanaH bccth o UItch- 
Hepe: to tot, to apyraa B03BpamaaHCb H3 TepMaHHH, noaoHeHHbie hm. B 
MocKBe rae-To noa 6okom c CHMBoaH3MOM npnioTHaocb Kanoe-TO CTpaHHO- 
Heaenoe rHe3ao uiTefiHepHaHOK h uiTefiHepbSHHeB. Flo MocKBe npoxoanan Bee 
Maine KaKHe-ro caMbie nocneduue ceedenun o npeaMeTax bwcokhx; b acTpaab- 
hoh aTMOC(J)epe MocKBbi acTpaabHbie ra3erwHKH npoaaBaan "BeuepHue npu- 
noxeHua Jlemonuceu Mupa" . TaM 6wan h cnaeTHH o peBoaiounn, h cnaeTHH 
o CHMBoaH3Me, h cnaeTHH o KoHue Mupa. B MocKBe 3aBeaHCb "Jlemonucu 
Mupa" . "Jlemonucu Mupa" H3aaBaaHCb b acTpaabHofi THnorpa(}>HH mockob- 
ckoh ceKHHH ujTeHHepoBCKHX "memyuteK". 3th npnaoH<eHHa sceraa 6uao hh- 
TepecHo HHTaTb (UlTefiHep He BHHoaaT TyT)». («riepenHCKa», 294). 



1907 

Heuccen (Deussen, Paul, 1845-1919) — HeMeuKHfl (Jwaococji h <twao- 
aor, MHoro nHcaBUiHfl 06 HHaHttcKOH peanrHH, peaaKTop KpHTHHecxoro H3aa- 
hhh IlloneHray3pa, 14 tt. (Miohxch, 1911). y Beaoro nepBOHanaabHO 6biao 



460 



«0u/ioco0un Bedamnbiv), 3aTeM «BedaHmbir> 3aiepKHyT0 h BnHcaHo: «Yna- 
Huiuad». Cpean ero KHHr: SECHZIG UPANISHADS DES VEDA, Aus dem 
Sanskrit ubersetzt und mit Einleitungen und Anmerkungen (Leipzig, 1897); 
DAS SYSTEM DES VEDANTA, etc. (Leipzig, 1883); DIE GEHEIMLEHRE 
DES VEDA. Ausgewahlte Texte der Upanishad's (Leipzig, 1907). IlepBbie ast 
KHHrH ynoMHHaioTCH b KC, 462, ran we KaK ero [ALLGEMEINE] GESCHI- 
CHTEDER PHILOSOPH1E, etc. 2 tt. (Leipzig, 1894-1917); <PH]10CO<t>Hfl 
ynAHMUlAJJ cocraBjiHeT 2-k» iacTb nepBOro TOMa stoh hctophh <J}hjioco- 
4)hh. «K coHHHeHHHM, 3aTparHBaioiUHM Bonpocw pe^HrMO3H0ro TBopwecTBa, 
Meway npowHM othochmm npewae Bcero commhchho fleftcceHa: bc/ihkhh He- 
MeuKHfl opHeHTOJior 6aecTame ocBemaex BeaaHTH3M b cBere cnoJKHoro aepe- 
Ba 6paMaHH3Ma...» (KC, 461). O Hein cm. TaioKe npHM. k M-Mio/inepy (Bbiiue). 



1908 

B nncbMe ot 1(14) Mas 1912 r. H3 Eptocccna Ee/ibift nHcaa EjioKy: 
«HecKOJibxo JieT cnycTa a anbiuia.n b oahom Kpy*Ke HTeHHe peMHHrTO- 
HHpoBaHHOfi neKUHH KaKoro-TO TeococJicKoro aBTopa; /ickuhh 6bwa raaBofi 
330TepHqecKoro Kypca; KpywoK 6wji KpywoK H36paHHbix. H npeacTaBb: roxio- 
Ba y Menu 3aKpy>KHr!acb ot 6ypH cBeTa, ot mo/thhh KaKoro-TO acHOBHaeHba; 
h Bee HanHcaHHoe 6bijio KaKHM-To HaniHM, poaHWM. Koraa a cnpocnn, kto 
aBTop, MHe cKa3a^H: "IIImeuHep" (BnoaneacTBHH 3tot otpwbok a BCTpeTHn 
b cKyHHoM h pa36aB^eHHOM Bunt b ero KHHre "Geheimwissenschaft"...) 

OflHH h tot we nenoBeK, rmcaBumft a-na HeMeuKHX TeTyiueK, HanHcaa h 
BeutH, KOTopwe He CHHHHCb Bji. CoxiOBbeBy. C Tex nop hmh PyaojiMba UItch- 
Hepa npo3By4aao HHase. B to Bpeivm a 6w/i Bpar TeococJwH (mockobckhc xeo- 
cotfrbi c riaBHOM HHKoneBHMeM [sic! Bejibift ouih6owho npHnHcbiBaeT M.A. 3p- 
Te/iK> hmh OTHecTBO 11. H. EaTiouiKOBa] 3pTenein h rocnowoft IlHcapeBofl bo 
niaBe Ha6HJiH MHe ocKOMHHy: ocaacTHJiH Haaoaro Teoco<J>Hio KaKoro-xo thh- 
JioBaTOio naTOKOfl — b Teoco(J)CKHX aOMax npHaHn&rw ot c/iaaocTH Kpecaa 
k inoeMy ctopTyKy, a pyica OKHMaaacb b lcy/iax). B to BpeMa a He xoTeji HHKOMy 
npH3HaBaTbca, kto UlTefiHep ray6oKO Bomea b mok> ayuiy, h6o IIlTeftHep 6bin 
b MoeM npeacTaBJieHHH 3aypaaHeHiiiHM TeocoiJjoM. Ho c toh caMott nopw a 
CTapancH KaK-TO yicpaaKOK> (ot ce6» h apyrux) aocTaBaTb hhthmhwc neKuuu 
UlTeftHepa dm HeMHoeux; sto 6bijia Bceraa scceHUHa, HacToeHHaa Ha 3Be3aax 
h ropHOM Bosayxe: H3 ohhoh KannH TaKoii scceHUHH, pa3BeneHHOH BeapoM bo- 
aw, h coctoat KHHrn UlTeftHepa, npeaHa3HaieHHbie aaa mnpoKoro itchhh. 
H cran, rae mowho, co6npaTb o IIlTeflHepe cBeaeHba: h bot hto y3Han; a 
y3Han, hto UlTeHHep cTan bo rjtaBe Teoco<t»CKoro aBHjKeHHa, pe(J)opMHpyiouue- 
ro caMoe Teoco(J>[CKoe] ABHaceHHe; oH-jie nepeBOflHT undyu3M u 6paManu3M 
o<t)HUHaribHOH Teoco{J)HH Ha HOBbift a3bik, BbiaBHraa CpeaHHe Bena h po3eH- 
KpefluepcKHe hcthhu; c^obom, Teoco<J>Hio axceHryHpyer b xpHCTHaHCTBe oh, 
KOTopoMy npHaaeT oco6bifl pwuapcKHH My>KecTBeHHbiH OTtieiaTOK; mto b Te- 
oc[oicKOM) 06[mecT]Be Ha Hero xocaTca, hto 3a hhm Bcioay cjieayeT skct- 
peHHbift noe3fl repMaHCKHX merhyuieK. M T.a. TeHaeHuna UlTefiHepa noKa3a- 
nacb MHe CHMnaTHHHofl (KOHKpeTH3HpoBaTb Teoco(J>H»o): TeopeTHqecKH a ce6e 
Toraa Buaeaua UlTeftHepa H3 nneaaw tcococJjckhx aeaTeaefl». 



461 



B An, 60 HaxoziHM: «Ha Hcxoae 2-ro ceMHaeTHH HaaoeaaiOT KaHT, Phk- 
KepT, KoreH; c oceHH 1908 roaa HcnoaTHuiKa onuTb "MTaKK Be3aHT, Mxia, 
Jlea6HTepa, nocemaio Kpy>KOK Teoco<t>0B, MHeaapar "Doctrine Secrite"; waa- 
ho iHTaro; on«Tb 6oae3Hb, kph3hc; " ' uMaeunaifun" nocB«meHHbix; c6an>KeHHe 
c Mhhu^oboAw. Cm. TaK>Ke «MaTepHaa»: «K.n. XpHCToifcopoBa MHe aapHT 
r T3dcffirie Secrete" EaaBaacKoft; yray6a»iK>cb b CTaHcw £[3HaH» (ceHT«6pb), 
h «HaiHHaio nocemaTb TeococJicKHH Kpy»OK K.n. Xphcto(J>opoboh» (ok- 
T»6pb). 

Xpucmotfopoea, KaeonaTpa rieTpoBHa — no cBHaeTeabCTBy «MaTepHa- 
na», HBeHanuaTHneTHHfl Bopa ByraeB no3HaKOMnnca c Heft b Haiaae 1893, b 
tot nepnoa, Koraa ee cbiHOBbH BxoanaH b ero «aeTcicoe o6mecTBO». Oh nacTO 
6biBan y Hee oceHbto 1904 r. h no3flHee. B CTaTbe AHJJPEH BEJIbIM M PY- 
HOJIb® IHTEHHEP («MocTbi», 1968, N°13-14, c.239) Ach TypreHeBa nnuieT, 
hto b 1909 r. Benbifi ot Hee BnepBbie nonyHH/i <J>oTorpa<JwK> UlTeftHepa. O no- 
3HHHX oTHoiueHHsix Eejioro c «HcTepHHHoft XpncTO(l)opoBoft» («MaTepHa/i») 
cm. OTpbtBKH H3 «MaTepHana» (1913-15), BKHKmeHHbie b HacTOnwyio nySjimca- 
uhio. 27 nnceM XpHCTO<j)opoBOH h 3 OTKpbiTKH ee k BeaoMy 3a 1903-1910, 
1917 xpaHHTCH b TEH, $.25, KapT.24, ea.xp.26. YMepna b Pocchh b 1934 roay. 

3pme/ib, MHxann AneKcaHapoBHy — hctophk, Teoco<l), oaHH W3 «apro- 
HaBTOB». CbiH nHcaTenH A.M. 3pTena. Benbifi aaeT ero nopTpeT b HB, 63-75: 
«...n BpeaeH h He6aaropoaeH, ho iuhpok... ao y>xaca» (HB, 55); BCTpewa co 
«c^aaKHM 3pTeaeM» — «Kaacc H3yieHHJi mapnaTaHH3Ma» (HB, 74). Oh *e 
repoft owepKa Eeaoro BEJWKMH JirYH. — «V'Tpo Pocchh», 1910, Ms247, 
12 ceHTH6pa. 

«MaTepnaji» (aeKa6pb): «Oxaa>KaeHHe c MepewKOBCKHMH. B KOHue Me- 
caua c6aH«eHHe c Mhhujioboh. Moe 3a6oneBaHHe; CTpaHHbie nepeacHBaHHH 
/.../». Cm. TaK»e TlOHEMy X CTAJ1 CHMBOJ1HCTOM (1982): «Mepe>K- 
kobckhh MeHst npeHMymecTBeHHo BoaHyeT b 1901 h 1902 roaax, b nepHoa 
MaKCHMaabHoro noabeMa CBoero aapoBaHHH /.../ B 1908 roay b rwcbMe k Me- 
pe)KKOBcKOMy oTMOKeBbiBaiocb ot nero. Ho yace, b npHHUHne, c 1906 roaa c 
yTonHefi o co6ophom HHaHBHayaainMe noKOHteHO» (49-50). 



1909 

B «MaTepHaae» HaxoaHM: «CKaHaaa [b FIeTep6ypre] b KpyjKKe Ha aexuHH 
B.HaaHOBa. Orbe3a b Eo6poBxy [HMeHHe PawHHCKHx b TBepcKott ry6.] k A[h- 
He] A[aeKceeBHe] PaiHHCKofl [cecTpe TpHropHH PaqHHCKoro] [HHBapb]. )KH3Hb 
b Bo6poBKe /.../ ycHaeHHOe wTeHHe KHHr no OKKyabTH3My h acTpoaorHH [<t>eB- 
paab]. )KHBy b Bo6poBKe: cocTaBaaio ropocKon [MapT]». 

LA DOCTRINE SECRETE, etc. [THE SECRET DOCTRINE, London, 
1888] E.n. BaaBaTCKOfi BnepBbie Bbiuwa b riapHHce b 1899 r. (t.I: Evolution 
cosmique. Stances de Dzyan; t.II: Evolution du symbolisme. Science occulte et 
science moderne). B KC, KOTopbie Beabiti cocTaBHa b Hoa6pe 1909, oh nn- 
iueT: «fl pexoMeHaoBaa 6w ana 3toh uenn orpoMHOH coiHHeHHe BaaBaTCKOH 



462 



"Doctrine secrite", b kotopom Hapaay c 6onbuiHM kojihhcctbom BOBce He 
ocBemeHHoro MaTepnana mu BCTpeiaeMcs c aparoueHHWMH wepTo«icaMH, bbo- 
jlfliUHMH Hac b noHHMaHHe penHrH03Horo TBopnecTBa» (461). Cm. Tajoice KC, 
491,621,624. 

d'AAbeeudp (Saint-Yves d'Alveydre, marquis Joseph-Alexandre, 1842- 
1909) — 4>paHuy3CKHft OKKyjibTHCT, aBTop «MOHyMeHTajibHoro C0HHHeHH«» 
(KC, 622) MISSION DES JUIFS (Paris, 1884), iiHTHpyeMoro b KC, 622-623. 

Jlseu, 3/iu&ac (Levi, Eliphas, HacT. hms: Constant, abbe Alphonse-Louis, 
1810-1875) — (J>paHuy3CKHft cBHiueHHHK h OKKyjibTHCT. B KC, 624 Eeribift ot- 
MeiaeT ero DOGME ET RIRUEL DE LA HAUTE MAGIE, 2 rr. (Paris, 1856) 
h HISTOIRE DE LA MAGIE, avec une exposition claire et precise de ses pro- 
ce~d£s, de ses rites et de ses mystires (Paris, 1860). CpeaH apyrnx ero KHHr: 
PHILOSOPHIE OCCULTE, Ire serie (Paris, 1862) h 2e serie (Paris, 1865); 
LE GRAND ARCANE, OU I'OCCULTISME DEVOILE (Paris, 1898). 

Flanioc (Papus; HacT. hmh: Encausse, Dr. Gerard, 1865-1916) — (j>paHuy3- 
ckhh OKKynbTHCT, «Mar», rHrtHOTH3ep, yneHHK a'AjibBettapa, pea. wypHaaoB 
«l'Initiation» (1888-1910), «Le Voile d'Isis» (1890-1898) h ap. CaMbift H3BecT- 
Hwfl nonyn»pH3aTop «repMeTHwecKnx hoktphh». B nepnoa 1901-06 6bia He- 
CKOJibKo pa3 b Pocchh, rae 6bia npHHHT HHKOjiaeM II. CpeaH ero MHoronHC- 
aeHHbix KHHr h Spowjop: BIBLIOGRAPHIE METHODIQUE DE LA SCI- 
ENCE OCCULTE, etc. (Paris, 1892); CLEF ABSOLUE DE LA SCIENCE 
OCCULTE (Paris, 1889); LES DOCTRINES THEOSOPHIQUES (Paris, 
1889); L'OCCULTISME CONTEMPORAIN (Louis Lucas, Wronski, Eliphas 
Levi, Saint-Yves d'Alveydre, Mme Blavatsky) (Paris, 1887) h T.a. Ero TRAITE 
ELEMENTAIRE DE SCIENCE OCCULTE, etc. (Paris, 1888) H3aaH b pyc- 
ckom nepeBoae b 1904 r. 

rKJduma (Guaita, Stanislas de, 1860-1897) — <JjpaHiry3CKHfl OKKyjibTHCT, 
ocHOBaT&nb «Ordre Kabbalistique de la Rose-Croix». B KC, 497 Genu ft OTMe- 
MaeT ero LE SERPENT DE LA GENESE, 1897, T.e. ESSAIS DE SCIENCE 
MAUDITES (Paris, 1886) h 1890-97: I. Au seuil du mystere; II: Le Serpent de 
la Genese, premiere septaine: le Temple de Satan; III. Le serpent de la Genese, 
deuxieme septaine: la Clef de la magie noire. Cm. TaioKe: ROSA MYSTICA 
(Paris, 1885). 

B nHCbMe k Eaoicy ot 1(14).05. 1912 Ee/ibift nncaji o 1909 r.: «C 1909 ro- 
aa, icoraa « y3HaJi, xajc 6aH3Ko npoxoiiHT hhhhji IIlTefiHepa ot Bcero Toro, hto 
CTano ana mchh "CeemoM Ha nymu", » noBepHyncs k HeMy c rjiy6oKHM 6naro- 
roBeHHeM. ft noHsui, hto to, hto scoTepHnecKH ann mchh "VaeMbiu Ceem", 
to CBer h nnn IllTettHepa: » y3Haji, mto oh whbct e comom ceeme, a Bee ero ae- 
no — Bee ujTeHHepbaHCTBO — Heo6xoaKMoe TepMaHHH, ecTb neaarorHKa, 
npHroTOBHTenbHbifl Kaacc, 6e3 KOToporo Heab3H noaottTH hh k HeMy; b to Bpe- 
m», KaK IllTettHep ynoao6jr«eM nyuiKHHCKofi noaMe, aeno IIlTeflHepa — a36y- 
Ka (He nayuueiuucb mimamb eoo6ufe, He/ibin mtmamb TlywKUHa). H bot, 3Ha», 
kto oh h hto oh, ii He npHcoeaHHHncK k iUTeflHepbHHCTBy, k 0T6necKy 0T6nec- 
xa CBeTa, h6o He OT6jiecKOB OT6necKa *aaa h ce6e, a... xoth 6m OTOJiecica. 



463 



IIlTettHepMHCTBO — oflHo; HeMHorne oKpyacaiomHe IIlTettHepa cpeaH co- 
TeH nojuioHH^KOB h yieHHKOB — apyroe; caM UlTefiHep — Tpe-rbe. JI y*e 
3Han, hto H3 Bcex pa3flaK>iuHxcH roaocoB b Eapone, KOTopwe aoajKHO aoBHTb 
h HaM, enHHCTBeHHbifl h BayKHeftuiHfi — ero rojioc. Ho h xcaaa dpyeoeo zoao- 
ca. H o IllTettHepe a Monnan». 

Ilepexoa EeJioro k «ayxoBHott HayKe» IIlTeftHepa b stot nepHoa, Bepojrr- 
ho, o6i,8CHsieT ero cypoBoe cy*aeHHe o Teoco<tmH b KC: «CymecTByiomaa 
Teoco(|)HH Kax TeweHHe, BOCKpeiueHHoe h nponaraHflHpoBaHHoe EaaBaTCKott, 
He HMeeT npHMoro othouichhji k HameMy npeacTaB/ieHHro o TeococJwH tcaic 
ziHciiHnjiHHe, flOJDKeHCTByiomefl cymecTBOBaTb; cymecTByiomaji Teoco<J)Hfl 
npeHe6peraer kphthkoR McroaoB: h ot Toro MHorHe ueHHbie nojioweHH» co- 
BpeMeHHOfl Teoco(J>HH He hmctot 3a co6ofi HHKaxott no3HaBaTejibnoi) uchho- 
cth; CTpeMJieHHe k cHHTe3y HayKH, (J>hjioco<1)hh h pennrHH 6e3 MeToaonorHie- 
ckoH kphthkh o6peKaeT coBpeMeHHyro Teoco<t)Hio Ha nonHoe 6ecnnoaHe; co- 
BpeMeHHaa Teococjwji HHTepecHa nHiub nocroabKy, nocicojibKy OHa BOCKpemaeT 
HHTepec k 3a6biTbiM b apeBHOCTH ueHHbiM MHpocosepuaHHaM; HaM HHTepeceH 
BOBce He cHHTe3 MHpoco3epuaHHft, a caMbie MHpoco3epuaHHH» (505). 



1909-1910 

B kh. nOHEMY X CTAJJ CMMBOJJffCTOM (63-64) Eeawft riHiueT 06 
3tom nepHoae: «H Bceueao OTaaiocb cbohm hhthmhchiuhm nepeacHBaHH- 
hm: HTeHHio 3COTepHiecicoft ^HTepaTypw, MeiTaivi 06 "OPflEHE", Berpeie c 
Mhhluioboh, npHxofl»mefl k HaM co caoBaMH o 6paTCTBe Po3w h KpecTa 
h c coeuiaHHeM 6wTb nocpeaHHuett Me*ay TecHbiM xpyxKOM apy3ett h 
"yHHTenjiMH". Ilo-HOBOMy noflHHMaioTCH bo MHe ayMw scefl >KH3HH: o 
KOMMyHe, o 6paTCKOM onwTe». 

rioa 3HaKOM 3toh ayMbi o «KOMMyHe» h npoH30uuio c6nH»ceHHe Be/ioro c 
B.H. HBaHOBbiM h A. P. MhhujioboH b 1909-10 rr. BepflHeB aaeT caeayiomHfl 
nopTpeT MhhwioboK b cBoeft aBTo6Horpa<J)HH CAMOIJ03HAHME (IlapH*, 
1983): «3to 6u/ia HeKpacHBaa nojiHao xceHiuHHa, c BbinyneHHbiMH ma3aMH, 
B Hett 6bino HeKOTopoe cxoactbo c E/iaBaTCKoft. BHeuiHOCTb 6biaa CKopee 
OTTaiiKHBaiomaj). Y Hee 6buiH -rojibKO KpacHBbie pyxn (« Bceraa o6pamaxi 
BHHMaHHe Ha pyKH). MHHiuioBa 6bi/ia yMHaa weHiuHHa, no-cBoeMy oaapeHHaa, 
h o6naaaaa 6om>uiHM HcxyccTBOM b noaxoae k ayuiaM, 3Hajia, Kax c mm 
pa3roBapHBaTb. ft. BocnpHHHMan bjihahhc MHHiuioBoii Kax coBepuieHHO ot- 
pHiiaTenbHoe h aaxce aeMOHunecxoe. C Hett y MeH« 6bi.no cB«3aHo crpaHHoe 
BHaeHHe. nocae ee npHe3aa b MocKBy bot hto npoH3oiuao co mhoB. K ae*aa 
b cBoefi KOMHaTe, Ha KpOBaTH, b coctohhhh noaycHa; a hcho BHaea KOMHaTy, b 
yray npoTHB mchji 6waa HKOHa h ropeaa aaMnaaxa, a oieHb cocpeaoToneHHo 
CMOTpen b stot yron h Bflpyr, noa o6pa30M, yBHaea BbipHCOBaBiiieecH jihuo 
MHHonoBOtl, BbipaxceHHe nHiia ee 6mjio ysxacHoe, Kax 6bi oaep>KHMoe TeMHOtt 
CHaoll; h oieHb cocpeaoT04eHHo CMOTpea Ha Hee h ayxoBHWM ycHjmeM 3a- 
£TaBHa 3to BHaeHHe Hcie3HyTb, cTpauiHoe mimo pacTauno. rioTOM )K., ko- 
Topaa o6naaaeT 6oabuiofi nyBCTBHTeabHocTbio, BHaeaa ee b (fcopMe 3MeH, 



464 



c KOTopofl MHe npHxoaHaocb 6opoTbc»!. MHHiyiOBa wyBCTBOBana Moe Bpaacae- 
6Hoe k Heft oTHoiueHHe h xoTeaa ero npeoaoaeTb. 3to npHBeao k TOMy, hto 
b caeayiouiee aeTO ona Ha aBa ahh 3aexajia k HaM b aepeBHio, b XapbKOBCKyjo 
ry6epHHio, no aopore b KpwM. Pa3roBopw c Heft 6biaH HHTepecHbi. Ho eft 
He yaanocb cKJioHHTb mchh Ha cbokj cTopoHy» (221-222). 

Beabift no3HaKOMHJica c MhhujioboH b 1901 r., ho hx «BCTpena» npoH30- 
iiiaa ToabKO b Mae 1909 r. («MaTepHaJi»). Eeabift MHoro nHiueT o Heft h 06 hx 
6jih3octh b cbohx MeMyapax (BE, «3noneH», Ne4, 142-144, 149, 153-154, 167, 
175-180; MEJKJjy JJBYX PEBOJlfOUHfi, 355-362) h pe3WMHpyeT hctophio 
hx OTHOiueHHfl b 3tot nepnoa b kh. IJOWEMy R CTAJI CMMBOJIMCTOM 
(68-69; onewaTKa «1904» nonpaBaeHa Ha «1910»): 

«B TpeTbeM TOMe "HAMAJ1A BEKA" h noapo6HO onncaa caynaft c Mhh- 
iyiOBofi; ee nocpeaHHnecTBO Me»ay hhthmhmm KpyacKOM h yHHTeastMH, 
aon*eHCTBOBaBuiHMH cpean Hac no«BHTbc«, npeBpaTHaocb b xpoHHiecnoe 
cocTOHHHe o>KHaaHH«, bo BpeMH KOToporo Ha HaiiiHx raa3ax HapyuiHaocb 
paBHOBecue Mhhotioboh; ee nepBOHanaabHbie ueHHbie yKa3aHH« h ypoxu 
(no3aHee o6Hapy*Hnocb, hto sth ypoKH — MaTepnaa xypcoB UlTeflnepa) Bee 
6oaee h 6oaee oTyinaHHBaaHCb KaKHMH-To He to 6peaoBbiMH 4>aHTa3H«iMH, He 

TO KycKaMH CTpaiUHOfl aeHCTBHTeabHOCTH, TaHMOH eio, ho BpbiBaBiueftoi ne- 

pe3 Hee b Hauie cosHaHHe h sacTaBaHBiueft mchh h MeTHepa name h Maine 
CTaBHTb Bonpoc o noaaHHHOcTH Toro "BPATCTBA", KOToporo npeacTa- 
BHTeabHHuefl fraaaaacb OHa; ee 6oae3Hb h 6eccHane pocaH He no aHHM, a no 
qacaM; b o6paTHOft nponopiwoHaabHocTH c Bee nbiuiHeBuieft "4>AHTACTM- 
KOH" ee coo6iaeHHfl BbiHBasancb cTpaHHocTH ee noBeaeHHH, onpaBawBaeMbie 
aHiiib 6oae3Hbio; a — "OHM", cTomuwe 3a Heft, b o6aaKax ee 6peaa Bee 6oaee 
h 6oaee HCKa*aaHCb; HaKOHeu: cTaHOBHaocb hchwm, hto ee 6eccHaHe nepea 
hhumh H3 yMCTBeHHbix 3aTefl BsinecaaBa HBaHOBa, KOToporo OHa npoBoan- 
aa b "CO-BPATA" HaM, BbiaBHraaH Bonpoc: kto *e noaaHHHbift HHcnnpaTop 
ee: HeH3BecTHbift yHHTeab huh BonecaaB MBaHOB? HBaHOB 6bia ueHHbiM 
coTpyaHHKOM h yMHbiM HeaoBexoM; ho » He Mor 3a6wTb ero aBycMbicaeHHoft 
po/iH b HeaaBHeM mhcthhcckom aHapxH3Me; arm MeHa bo MHoroM HBaHOB 6wa 
KaioiuHMCH rpeuiHHKOM, He 6oaee: Becb *e 3C0TepH3M ero 6wa aaa mchh aHiub 
6oaee HaH MeHee yaaHHOtt HMnpoBH3auHeft Haa MaTepnaaoM hhthmhwx aeic- 
uhh IIlTeftHepa, Macro cy6i.eKTHBHpoBaHHbix ero aHHHbiMH aoMbicaaMH); b 
pa3pe3e "BPATCTBA" B.HBaHOB Bhimsmnca Bee 6oaee h 6oaee KaK Hywott. 
HaKOHeu CTaHOBHaocb cTpaHHbiM: noneMy Bee cBeTaoe b Mhhluioboh cnaeTa- 
aocb co IIlTeflHepoM, ot KOToporo OHa b 6oae3HeHHOM 6peay KaK-To CTpaHHO 
yuiaa, a Bee TeMHoe h cMyTHTeabHoe oTaaBaao TeMH, k KOMy OHa npHiuaa h c 
KeM xoTeaa Hac c6aH3HTb. 

Moh coMHeHHa b ayxe 6paTCTBa, b B.MBaHOBe h b MmmaoBofl noa BaH«- 
HHeM pnaa *H3HeHHbix caynaeB aocTHran MaxcHMyMa BecHoft 1910 roaa, ko- 
raa h peuina TBepao efl sto 3aHBHTb. 

BcKope nocae 3Toro OHa CTpaHHO Hcne3aa: 6eccaeaHo Hcne3aa; Hcne3HO- 
BeHHe 3to, pa3yMeeTc», He cnoco6cTBOBaao aoBepHJO k ee MH<j>y o "P03E H 
KPECTE"». 



465 



CTaflHH pa3BHTH« 3THX OTHOUieHHH H HX CyiUHOCTb MeTKO H3JiaraK)TCH 

TonbKo b «KiaTepHajie»: 

1909 

Hon6pb — MHHiwoBa: ee <J>aHTa3HH. /.../ 
JJexa6pb — MeflHTauHH, aaHHbie Mhhiltoboh. 

1910 

Rneapb — BcTpenH c Mhhutioboh. B Konue aHBapa oTbesa b FleTep- 
6ypr k HBaHOBy. 

<Peepaab — )Khby b KBapTHpe y HBaHOBa /.../ rjiaBHoe — KOHTpa- 
nymcT pa3roBopoB Ha TeMy o 6paTCTBe c MHHtmoBoft h apyrHMH 
nonxoflsiUHMH k Heft 1) a + MHHimoBa, 2) a h HBaHOB (o Tevie Po- 
3bi h KpecTa), 3) a h MHHimoBa + HBaHOB, — Ham vMucrmmecKuu 
mpeyeo/ibHUK», b kotopmh a BcyHyT HacHJibHO c MHHiwoBoft, /.../ 

4) MHHiyioBa + HBaHOB + a + MeTHep, npHexaBiuHfi b rieTep6ypr 
h floroBapHBaromHftcH c MBaHOBWM; ero flpy*6a c Ca6amHHKOBoft, 

5) MeTHep + a — o Mhhujioboh, HBaHOBe, Ca6auiHHKOBoft, 6) Moe 
ycmiHe npHCMOTpeTbcji k 6yaymeMy KomieKTHBy H3 0, HaMeieHHoviy 

HBaHOBbIM /.../ BOT CJ10>KHblfi KOHTpanyHKT OTHOUieHHH, B KOTO- 

poM a He Mory hh MopanbHO htaumucb, hh McnHTaTHBHO pa6oTaTb 
(MHHunoBa aajia HOBbie MenHTauHH), hh pa3o6paTbca B BepcHH Mhh- 
iuioboh 06 ywrejiax, hh pa3o6parbca b OTHOiueHHax Mhhotioboh k 
HBaHOBy /.../. 

Mapm — OTbe3fl Mhhluioboh b Mockby nocne 6ypHbix h Tawejibix 
cueH MOKfly Heft h HBaHoBbiM. Hauia *H3Hb c BaqecnaBOM HBaHO- 
bwm b o6cy>KfleHHH «6pamcmeay> /.../ a Bee 6o.nee H3MyMHBaiocb h 
b c e 

6ojiee coMHeBarocb b 6paTCTBe. /.../ Eay b MocKBy. KoHeu Mecaua 
nojiHMfi 6pea h Hepa36epHxa. 

Anperib — /.../ ayma — npoxoflHoft abop /.../ TyT /.../ cnaaKHH 
3pTejib h HCTepHMHaa XpHCTocfcopoBa; a — .nonHyn: Ha BeiepHHice y 

XpHCTO<J)OpOBOH MOfi OTKpblTblfl 6yHT npOTHB HBaHOBa h Mhhluio- 
boh. /.../ Mecau KOHHaeTca /.../ pa3rpoMOM «6pamcmear> /.../ 
Mail — Pan <J)aKTOB c Mkhujioboh, HCMepnbiBaiomnx Moe TepneHHe; 
yexana b rieTep6ypr h mojiiht, a b Mockbc ot aaHHofi eft Mepe3 Mena 
MenHTauHH cnyiaeTCH HepBHoe 3a6ojieBaHHe. /.../ MHHunoBa Tpe6y- 
eT, >iTo6bi a b Mae exan b HTannio, b Acch3h, xyzia non>Ken npH- 
exaTb HBaHOB; TaM [b] Acch3h at, aojDKHa npoHsoflTH Hama BCTpe- 
ia c po3eHKpeftuepaMH h «nocBaiueHHe»; ho a, H3MyHeHHbift ywe roa 
A/iauiHMca 6e3 pa3peuieHna mh(J>om, npHHHMaioiuHM Bee 6onee 3jto- 
Beme-(J)aKTHCTHHecKHft xapaKTep, nocjie coBeTa c MeTHepoM, peiuaK) 
0TKa3aTb[ca] ot avecmun exaTb b HTaxiHio; A.C. [rierpoBCKHft] Be- 
3eT 3to pemeHHe Mhhutioboh b nexep6ypr /.../ Ha ayiue — non- 
Hoe H&aoyMeHHe h nojiHoe onycTomeHHe /.../. 
Mioub — A.C. IleTpoBCKHft cooSaiaeT MHe, <jto eaeT b UlBeftuapHto, 
b BepH, Ha Kypc IIlTeftHepa /.../. 

466 



Aeeycm — [b Jlyuxe] pemeHHe o nyTH c Acefi 6ecnoBOpOTHO. HaTa- 
uia [TypreHeBa] ynpexaeT, hto 3thm peiueHHeM a Kan 6bi nepecTynaio 
iepe3 «KonneKTHB»; h6o a H3-3a Ach He noexaa b Acch3h. R aoxa- 
3biBa>o, hto He noexaji oTToro, hto y MeHH HeT Bepw ywe b «MH<t)» 
Mhhiuioboh; oHa — noaopBaHa paaoM HeneTXHx nocTynKOB. /.../ 
C HexoTopbiM HefloyMeHHeM eay b MocKBy, rae c MecTa b Kapbep cBa- 
/iHBaeTCH Taxceaaa npo6aeMa «HCHe3HOBeHHa» Mhhuhoboh, c koto- 
pofl Heaenio mu bo3hmch c M.H. Ohobmm. OHa — Hcwe3aeT, aaB 
MHe xoabuo h jicnyHr h o6emaa, hto Kmo-mo k HaM npHeaeT b ceHTH- 
6pe 11 roaa. /.../ C TawenbiM HeaoyMeHHeM b ayuie o Mhhiuioboh 
h hoboh o6y3e iOKdamb Koeo-mor> [eay b AeMbaHOBo] /.../. 

OKrm6pb — /.../ 3coTepHHecKHe co6paHH» Harnett «naTepxH» c Moa- 
naHHeM (fl, MeTHep, Ch30b, KnceaeB, rieTpoBCKHfi), KOTopbie, xa- 
>xeTca, b o6y3y BceM, ho bo hmh npnxoaa «Koeo-mo» ana <c4eeo-mo» 
(«6ped» HCHe3HyBiueH MHHuaoBoft eio HaBH3aH HaM b nacaeacTBO, 
TaK CKa3aTb). 

Hon6pb — /.../ npocTO ebipbie H3 MocxBbi. 

06 Hcne3HOBeHHH MHHuaoBOH cm. y EepaaeBa: «OneHb CTpaHHO 6wao ee 
HCHe3HOBeHHe. M3 KpwMa OHa BepHyaacb b MocKBy. Hepe3 Hecxoabxo flHefl 
nocae B03BpameHHa OHa Bbiiuaa c npHHTeabHHueH, y xoTopofi ocTaHOBHaacb, 
Ha Ky3HeuKHH Moct. ripHaTeabHHua noBepHyaa b oany cTopoHy, OHa b apy- 
ryio. OHa 6oabiue He B03Bpamaaacb h Hcne3aa HaBceraa. 3to eme 6oaee cno- 
co6cTBOBaao ee TaHHCTBeHHofl penyTauHH. Moaoawe aioan, bo BceM cxaoH- 
Hbie BHaeTb aBneHHa oxxyabTHoro xapaxTepa, rosopHnH to, hto OHa cxpbi- 
aacb Ha 3anaae, b xaToaHnecxoM MOHacTbipe, CBH3aHHOM c po3eHxpeHuepaMH; 
to, hto OHa noKOHHHaa c co6ofl, noTOMy hto 6waa ocyacaeHa UlTettHepoM 
3a naoxoe HcnoaHeHHe ero nopyneHHH. Taxwe aHua, Kax MHHuaoBa, Moran 
HMeTb BaHaHHe numb b aTM0C(J)epe xyabTypHoft 3HHTbi Toro BpeMeHH, npo- 

HHKHyTOfl OKKyabTHblMH HaCTpOeHHaMH H HCKaHHaMH» (222). 

Kax oaHa H3 nepBbix pyccxnx yneHHii IIlTeHHepa OHa MHoro cnoco6cTBO- 
Bana pacnpocTpaneHHio ero Haett b Tex xpyrax, b xoTopbix cocpeaoTaHHBa- 
aacb xyabTypHaa >KH3Hb Mockbm h IleTepoypra. OHa nepeBeaa ero kh. THE- 
OSOPHIE (1904) Ha pyccxHft (TEOCO<t>HX> CI16, 1910). IiHCbMa UlTeftHepa 
k Heft HanenaTaHbt b «Zur Geschichte und aus den Inhalten der ersten Abtei- 
lung der Esoterischen Schule 1904-1914» (Dornach, 1984). 



1911 

«C caMoro Hauiero nyTeuiecTBHa b A<t»PHxy [nepBbie neTbipe Mecaua 
1911 r. 6uaH npoBeaeHbi b TyHHce, ErHnTe, IlaaecTHHe] c HaMH (mhoh h 
Acefi) 6biBaau 3apHHtibi 6yayuieft MoaHHH; h BHaa aapHHuw, mm aaxe He 
npeanyBCTBOBaaH MoaHHH [IUTeftHepa]» («riepenHCKa», 313). 

Cm. «1911 roa» b TexcTe ochobhoh ny6aHxau«H H3 «MaTepHaaa». 



467 



1912 

«IIlTettHep — repott anonen HauieH» («nepenHCKa», 293). «B anpene-Mae 
1912 roaa co6biTHH BHyTpeHHett xch3hh HeoacitaaHHo npHBoaHT mchh k jiHqHoit 
BCTpewe c P.UlTeftHepoM; ho 3Ta BCTpena BeaeT k Moeviy npHcoeflHHeHHio k 
"flEJiy" IllTeflHepa, b kotopom ajih Menu npcmcHHeTCH cneayiomHfl 3Tan mo- 
ero xce nyTH» (IlOVEMy H CTAJJ CHMBOJIHCTOM, 80). Cm. «1912 roa» 
b TeKCTe ochobhoh ny6jiHKauHH H3 «MaTepHajia», «riepenHCKa» (295-300) h 
M3 BOCnOMHHAHHti («Beceaa», 1923, JSs2). 



II 
JXBA nHCbMA K.n. XPHCTOOXDPOBOH 

1 

[oceHb 1908 r.] 

floporaa, rjTy6oKoyBawaeMaH KjieonaTpa IleTpoBHa, 
R BaM aaBHO h noapo6Ho otbcthji eme b nepBwfl pa3: ho o6a pa- 
3a Bama npncnyra ymjia TOTnac »e, He aaB bo3mo>khocth eft nepeaaTb 
nncbMo; h o6a pa3a oneHb oropHHnca, noTOMy hto HyBCTBOBan, hto 
Haflo nepeaaTb cymecTBeHHoe. 

Cxaacy BKpaTue: moh cnoBa o o.noKoe» He ecTb yxop tcocoiJwh, 
a *exiaHHe BbicjiyiuaTb, hto cKa»yT, hto otbctht Ha Moe comhchhc b 
npaee nponoeedu b HacToamee BpeMH — b /ihh, Kor\aa MHorHe HMeio- 

WHe, HTO CKa3aTb, CTHCKHBaiOT 3y6bl B MOJIHaHHH... 

Bot h TonbKo: oTTeHKa yxopa b mohx cjioBax He 6buio bobcc 

He Mory 6biTb y Bac ceroflHH. B HByx MecTax mchh xcayT 1) Bh- 

HecnaB [HBaHOB] o6hahtc«, ecnH He npnay Ha ero JieKUHio, 2) [Hhko- 

jiafl KapjiOBH<i] MeTHep o6hahtch, ecjiH He npHfly Ha ero KOHuepT. 

ripHfleTCH o6HfleTb oaHoro H3 aByx. 



CTpaHHO, hto Bee o6H)KajOTCJi: h BOBce HanpHMep He o6HwaK)Cb, 
Koraa MeHH He nocemaiOT Ha jickuhh; a bot noaHTe: 3Haio, yBepeH 
(o6a Tpe6yioT, HTo6bi 6mji Ha jickuhh h KOHuepTe), hto oShahtch. 

y*acHO xony Bac BHfleTb, 

rjiy6oKonjo6HMa« KjieonaTpa FleTpoBHa. 

Xphctoc c Bavin! 

BopHC ByraeB. 



468 



II 

[oceHb 1908 r.] 

MHoroyBaacaeMaa h aoporaa KjieonaTpa IleTpoBHa, 
Si oieHb H3BHHHiocb nepea BaMH, ho a aoaaceH Bbipa3HTb Bauie- 
My Kpy>KKy Moe KpaftHee pa3apa«eHHe. 

1) Aji. Cepr. IleTpoBCKHH BOBce He ayMaa y Bac 6biTb; oh 3HaeT 
noa/iHHHbix mhcthkob (BeMe, CBeneH6opra, 3oxapa), h hmohhcui ko- 
uia» MnxaHJia AaeiccaHapoBHHa [3pTeaa] BOBce eMy He HHTepecHa. 

2) CtHTaH A.C. IleTpoBCKoro o^hhm h3 6;iH>KaHUJHX cbohx apy- 
3eH, a He Mory paBoaynmo nepeHecTH maicoe o6pameHHe k MoeMy no- 
cpeacTBy ot HMeHH Bauiero Kpy>KKa. fl 6ojibine 6biBaTb y Bac He mo- 
ry; aoaweH 3aMeTHTb, hto 3a Bee BpeMa mohx noceweHHH a He Bbmec 
ot Mhx. AneKc. Huteeo noeoeo, TaK »ito BOBce He 3Haio, aim iero aon- 
>KeH 6mji a npHxoaHTb; Bee sto ywe a 3Haji ao mohx nocemeHHH 6ecea. 

OcTarocb HCKpeHHe JiK>6awHH Bac h npeaaHHbifi 

BopHc ByraeB. 

P.S. FlepeaaHTe BauiHM, kto TaKHM ot6opom (oTpHuaTenbHbiM 
OTHomeHHeM k noflJiHHHbiM MHCTHKaM h Heo6bmaftHo aerKHM npHHa- 

THeM «BOCTOp)KeHHbIX» flaM) OHH KOHeHHO CKOPO ypOHBT TeOCO(J)HlO B 
POCCHH. 



06a nHCbvta, xpaHamHeca b TEJl, (J). 25, Kap-r.30, e.a.xp.21, 6e3 aaTbi. jja- 
THpyfOTca Ha ocHOBe «KacaHHfl k Teoco<i>HH» (1908 roa: «HaiHHaK> nocewaTb 
jieKUHH SpTena b Teoco(J)CKOM Kpy>KKe...») h «MaTepHajia k 6Horpa<J>HH (hh- 
THMHoro)»: «HaiHHaio nocemaTb Kpy>KOK K.n. XpncTO(J)opoBOfi» (0KTa6pb). 
O Hefl h o M.A. 3pTene cm. npHMeMaHHH k «KacaHHHM k Teoco(J)HH» (1908). 



Ill 

CJlblUIAHHblE JIEKUHH no TEOCO<t>HH B HEMEU.KOH CEKUMM 

1912 roa 

Mail (3). floKTop: «0 xpaviax, KaK BbipaweHHH KyjibTypHbix 3nox». 5-ro Maa 
(Ke^bHcxaa nowa). floKTop: «Xphctoc h XX BeK». 5-ro Maa (Ke/ibH. ny6jmi- 
Haa). floKTop: «0 KaneH,aape» (icejibHcicaa noma). 

Hio/ib (15). K)ji3: «0 CTHXHax» (MioHxeH. Jlowa). Kins: «0 CTHXHax», npo- 
.aojiaceHHe (MioHxeH. Hoaca). IIlTHHae: «06 3noxax» (no floKTopy. Mjohxch. 
Jloaca). 3nsmc (1 1): «EBaHrejiHe ot MoaHHa» (no floKTopy. MioHxeH). riyjib- 
MaH: «0 weTbipex apxaHrenax» (MioHxeH). 



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Aeeycm (16). floKTop: «Chobo no noBOfly cviepTH MaTepH CHBepc». floK- 
Top: MHCTepHH «y BpaT nocBHuieHHH». XloKTop: MncTepHH «OHHiueHHe». 
JloKTop: MHCTepH« «CTpa>K nopora». llliope: «MHCTepH« EneB3Hca». J\p. 
YHrep: «0 MHCTepHH "Y BpaT nocBmueHH«"». flp. YHrep: «0 MHcrepHH 
"OHHiueHHe"». ZloKTop: Kypc «0 nocBJimeHHH»: «6 mhctcphh IIIiope». «0 
nocB«meHHH». «0 MopanbHOM OHHiueHHH». «Pa6oTa b 3^>hph[om] h acTp[anb- 
hom] nnaHe». «0 JIioiUKJjepe h ApHManew. «0 tom, ito 3a noporoM». 3awiio- 
qeHHe. ny6nH«Ma» jieKuHH (Miohxch. Howa). lllonnb: «0 MHCTepnax ap. 
IIlTettHepa». 

CeHnvt6pb (15). Hoktop: Kypc «EBaHrenHe ot MapKa»: «0 xapaKTepe nepe- 
BonnoiueHHH nocne ronro<J)bi». «0 Bh6jihh». «KpecTHTejib». «Byaaa h Co- 
KpaT». «KpHiuHa». «flpaMaTHMecKHft MOHonor». «Ha Bone, Ha ropax, b ao- 
My...». «npeo6pa>KeHHe». «V'MeHHKn He noH«nH». 3amiK>ieHHe. floKTop: «0 
renbflepnHHO) (Ea3enb). floKrop: ny6jtMiHa« neKiuw. Eayap: «0 rerene» 
(Ea)enb). JleHxapT: «0 rejibaepjiHHe» (Ea3enb). .Hoktop: Hy6nuHHan nexUHfl. 

Hon6pb (6). nynbMaH: «0 po3eHKpeHuepcKOM ji03yHre» (lUTy-rrapT). riynb- 
MaH: «OroHb, Bosnyx, Boaa, 3eMn«» (IllTyTrapT). ^oktop: «ripaB,na nyxoBHo- 
ro onbira» (MioHxeH). JJoKTop: «Oiiih6kh ayxoBHoro onwTa» (MioHxeH). 
ZloKTop: «Me>Kfly CMepTbio h hobhm powneHHeM» (MioHxeH). «Me*ay cinep- 
TbK)...», npoaon)KeHHe (Mkjhxch). 

JJeKa6pb (13). floKTop: «Me>Kfly CMepTbK>...», npononw. (BepnHH). floKTop: 
«Pe3ynbTaTbi nyx[oBHoro] onwTa» (BepnHH). floKTop: «Me«ny cMepTbK>...», 
npoflon*. (BepjiHH). floKTop: «EcTecTB03HaHHe h nyxfoBHbiH] onwT» (Bep- 
nHH). Ulonjib: «Xphctob HMny^bc» (BepnHH). /Ioktop: «Po*aecTBeHCKafl. 
XpHCTHaH Po3eHKpeflu». floicrop: k Kypcy «BxaraBaTrHTa h IlocnaHHH an. 
riaBjia»: «0 nio6BH» (BepnHH). «Beaw, Mora, CaMKb«» (KenbH). «XapaxTe- 
pHCTHKa CaMKbH» (KenbH). «BxaraBaTrHTa» (KejibH). «0 3MeeBOM coctoh- 
hhh» (KenbH). JloKTop: «0 HoBajiHce» (KenbH). YHrep: «AHTponoco<{>HMec- 
Koe 06mecTBo» (KenbH). 

HToro 3a 1912 ron Bbicnyuian nexuHH 68. 



1913 ron 

flheapb (10). J3oktop: «nocnaHH» anocTona naBna» (KenbH, k Kypcy). JXov.- 
Top: «npaBfla ayx[oBHoro] onbiTa» (KenbH). floKTop: «Oiiih6kh nyx[oBHoro] 
onbiTa» (KenbH). XloKTop: «Meway cviepTbK) h hobhm po>KneHHeM» (nponon- 
5KeHHe) (BepnHH). ZloKTop: «J1kob BeMe» (BepnHH). JIoktop: «0 B03pacTax» 
(BepnHH). floKTop: «repMaH TpHMM» (BepnHH). ZloKTop: «Mhcchh Pa<J)a3na» 
(BepnHH). BanbTep: «0 Ha3HaweHHH MbiuuneHHa» (BepnHH). BanbTep: «E«an- 
eeAue om Mapxa ZloKTopa LIlTeHHepa» (BepnHH). 

<Peepa/ib (19). floKTop: floxnan Ha reHepanbHOM co6paHHH (BepnHH). JIoKTop: 
Kypc: «CymHOCTb aHTponoco(J)HH». «MHCTepHH BOCTOKa h 3anan.a» (4 nex- 
Uhh) (BepnHH). XIoktop: «Cica30HHbie cthxh b cBeTe nyxfoBHOft] HayKH» (Bep- 
nHH). flOKTop: «JleoHapno na Bhhhh Ha noBopoTe k HOBOMy BpeMeHH» (Bep- 
nHH). floKTop: «0 (J)opMax xpaMa» (BepnHH). floxTop: «BHorpa(J)H»i» (Bep- 



470 



jihh). floKTop: 3aKnioHHTenbHoe caoBO npn 3aKpwTHH AHTponoco(J)CKoro cbe- 
3aa (EepaHH). floKTop: «0 (J>aKTax HayKH h 06 OTHoiueHHH k hhm». 3enHrep: 
«0 3oxape». riaftnepc: «napcH<J>aab b cBeTe ecTecTB03HaHH»». He 3Haio (J>a- 
mhjthh: «0 MexaHHxe h aHTponoco(J)[cKOM] HMiryabce». KaKofl-TO nacTOp: 
«06 aHTponoco({)HH». .IIoktop: «Me*ay chom h hobmm po>KfleHHeM». ApeH- 
coh: RoKiian o TBoptecKOM OTHoiueHHH k aaHHbiM OK[KynbTHott] HayKH. Bajib- 
Tep: «0 %». 

Mapm (2). Aoktop: JleKLwa b aowe (EepaHH). floKTop: ny6jiHKHaa jickuhh. 

(rBJl, 4>-25, KapT.31, ea.xp.2, pyK. 6e3 aaTbi) 



CBH/IAHHfl C flOKTOPOM 

1912 roa 

l-oe ceudanue. 7-ro Man — KejibH. 

Pa3roBop uiea o <J)eHOMeHax b Epiocceae, KaK 6biTb; 06 O; o mocm otho- 
uieHHH k A[HHe] P[yaonb(J)oBHe MHHiinoBOfl]; o bo3mo»hocth hjih HeB03MO>K- 
HOCTH yiHTbCfl y floKTopa. 

2-oe ceudaHue. 20 wojih — Mkdhxch. 

Pa3roBop 06 AHHe PyaoabcjiOBHe. ZloKTop aaa MeaHTaumo HaM. MioHxeH. 

3-be ceudanue. 24 hiojih. 

Pa3roBop (oMeHb noapo6Hbifi) o MoeM raison d'etre, o Pocchh, Ba. Coao- 
BbeBe; oneHb noapo6Hoe H3/io>KeHHe Bcero 6biBiuero c Ahhoh PyaoawJioBHOH. 
floKTop npH6aBHn MeaHTauHto. 

4-oe ceudaHue. 31 Hjoaa. 

OT4eT flOKTopy o cBoefl pa6oTe; npeacTaBHa cxeMy; H3ao>KHaH CTpaHHoe 
npoHcuiecTBHe 29-oro hiohh. JIoktop H3 mohx nepTeweft aaa MHe 3aaawy; npH- 
6aBHn k HMeiomeflcd MeaHTaiwH eme. Miohxch. 

5-oe ceudanue. 24 ceHT«6pH. 

nonpo6Hbifi orweT JHoKTopy o xoae pa6oTbi. Oao6peHHe floKTopa. IlpH- 
coeaHHna k 3 MeaHTauHJiM qeTBepTyio. H 3aaaa pa6oTy. Ba3enb. 

6-oe ceudanue. 29 hoh6p«. 

riepeaanH .Hoicropy HauiH TeTpaan h noaywHan no hoboh MeaHTauHH. 
MioHxeH. 

7-oe ceudanue. 13 aeica6pH. 

BepaHH. CymHOCTb pa3roBOpa KOHcneKTHBHO 3anncaHa y MeHH. 



471 



1913 rofl 

8-oe ceudanue. 15 (JjeBpana. 

KpaTKoe. Pa3roBop o noe3,mce b Pocchio h 06 Ace. floirrop npHco&UHHHJi 

HeHTO K MeflHTaUHH. [BepjiHH] 

Mafl — CBHaaHHe h pa3roBop c afoKToJpoM b re^bcnHr<J)opce. 

OKT«6pb — Pa3rOBOp C HOKTOPOM H nHCbMO eMy B XpHCTHaHHH. 

OKT«6pb — Moft pajroBop c M.H. CHBepc b KoneHrareHe. 

OKTH6pb — Achh pa3roBop c M.H. b BepjiHHe. 

OKT«6pb — Ham pa3i~OBop 3a naeM y HoKTopa b BepjiHHe. 



1914 rofl 

HHBapb — Ham pairoBop c M.fl. b JlevinuHre. 

»HBapb — Ham pa3rcmop h M.H. b BepjiHHe. 

<l>eBpajib — Achh pa3roBop c M.H. b ZlopHaxe. 

MiOHb — Achh pa3roBop c M..H. b ZIopHaxe. 

Mionb — Ham pa3roBop c M..H. h floKTopoM b Hopa-HenHHre. 

Ho«6pb — Ham pa3roBop c jJofcropoM b HopHaxe (fl[oKTo]p aaji Me.aH- 
TauHH). I 

1915 roa f 

Mail — Ham pa3roBop c Hoktopom o KHHre Moefl. JlopHax. 5 

Mionb — 2-oR pa3[OBop o KHHre y Horropa b flopHaxe. | 

CeHT«6pb — Pa3roaop Ach c JIoktopom 060 MHe h HaTame. flopHax. | 

OKT«6pb — Pa3rc»Bop c XIoktopom y Hac. flopHax. 1 

/IeKa6pb — Moh pa3rcmop c aoktopom o HaTame. Zlopnax. % 

1916 roa 

MioJib — Pa3roBop c MapHefl flKOBJieBHofi b «Bau» b JJopHaxe. 

ABrycT — Pa3roBop c .Hoktopom h iaft y Hero en quatre (h, Ach, HaTama, 
nouuo). 

(rBJl, $.25, KapT.31, ea.xp.2; pyx. 6e3 aaTbi. 
Eenbifi npHBOAHT aaTBi no HOBOMy cthjiio.) 



4/2 



OKKYJlbTHblE riEPE)KMBAHMfl 

[1912 roa] 

Anpe/ib — B Hai&ne anpejifl o6uihh coh c Aceft. Cepea[HHa] anpejia — nepBaa 
BCTpena. KoHeu anpena — BTopaa BCTpena. 

Mau — rioe3flKa b KenbH. <J>eHOMeH bo Bpe\m HTeHHH aHeBHHKa c Sjijihcom 
(npHxoa ZIoKTopa). 18 Mas — ireeTbi (cfreHOMeH). 

Mio/ib — Hawajio (ifeeHOMeH npn pa3roBope o Jlion.[H(j>epe] h ApnMaHe). Hana- 
no — Coh o floicrope (noMor). 20-we MHcna — *eHOMeH co mhoh h HB/ieHita c 
Mbiuibio. 20 — HeB(eponTHoe?] npncyTCTBHe Ha Starnberger See [noa Micmxe- 
hom] {» h 3nnnc). 

Aeeycm — HaMajio. OroHb Ich. CepeawHa (coh 06 3<J>[hphom] Teae). 

Oicnvi6pb — Becb OKTa6pb paa MeaKHx (feeHOMeHOB. 

JJeKa6pb — rioJiyBbixowfleHHe. Coh o BbixoiKaeHHH (coh He coh: otpmbkh h3 
npom/ibix HHKapHaunH). BwxowaeHHe (kohcu aeKa6pa). 

[1913 roa] 

flneapb — Bbixo>KaeHHe (30 aHBapa h.ct.). 

(rBJl, (J). 25, KapT.31, ea.xp.2; pyx. 6e3 aaTbi; 
cm. M3 BOCnOMHHAHHH. — «Beceaa», 1923, N°2) 



IV 

PACnPEflEJlEHME 3AH«THM 

B PyCCKOM AHTPOnOCO<DMMECKOM OBIUECTBE 

B 1918-1919 r. 

I. EitceHedenbHO 

1 . 06uiHe co6paHn« ana wneHOB 06mecTBa — no BTopHHKaM. 

2. KpywoK jbphtmhh — no nHTHHUaM. 

3. BcTynHTeabHMfi KpyacoK M.B. Ca6auiHHKOBOfl — no BOCKpeceHbaM. 

4. BcTynHTeabHbiH Kpy>KOK B.n. TpHropoBa — no cy66oTaM. 

5. KpywoK B.n. TpHropoBa no nyTH nocBaiueHHa — no leTBepraM. 

II. JJea paia e Mecxii 

5. [sic!] KpywoK no H3y<ieHHK) MHCTepHfl — no naTHHuaM. 

6. XpHCTHaHCKHH Kpy>KOK — no HHTHHUaM. 

7. Kpy»OK no H3yweHHK) «<t>H/iococt)HH CBo6oaw» M.n. CTO/iapoBa — no 
noHeaeabHHKaM. 

473 



III. OduH pa3 e Meant 

8. JlexiiHH E.H. EyraeBa — no noHcn&nbHHKaM. 

9. AHTponoco4>H4ecKHe Bewepa an* hjichob 06iuecTBa — no noHeaenb- 

HHKaM. 

10. My3UKajibHbie Beiepa — no cpenaM. 

JleKituu E.H. Byeaeea npednoaoxeubi no c/iedyioufuM dtuw: nepBa* JieKimg 
— 14 OKT»6p«; BTopan jieKinw — 11 Hon6pa; TpeTba neKinw — 9 aeKa6pa. 

My>3biKanbHbie eeiepa npednonoxenbi no caedyioiyuM dwut: nepBbifl Bewep 
(Eax) — b cpcay 16 okthopk; BTopoft Benep (IHyoepT — «ripeKpacHa« MenbHH- 
4Hxa») — 13 Ho«6p«; TpeTHfl Beiep (IIIySepT — «3hmhhh aopora») — 11 ae- 
Ka6p«. 

(rEJl, <t>.25, KapT.31, ea.xp.31; pyx. 6e3 aaTbi) 



nPOEKT PACnHCAHHfl TOflA 

[3AH.HTHfi AHTPOnOCO*CKOrO OEIUECTBA] 

[1918 roa] 

CEHTHEPb 

20 nxTHHua: OTKpuTHe co6paHHfl A.O. 

22 BocKpeceHHe: BcTynHTejibHbift KpyxoK M.B. Bojiouihhoh c 5-th. 

23 noHeaenbHHK. 

24 btophhk: Co6paHHe A.O. HTeHHe Kypca: «fleTH XpncTa h aerm JliouH^e- 

pa». nepBaj) jieKiuui. Pobho b 7 qacoB. 

25 cpeaa. 

26 neTBepr: BcTynHTenbHwtt KpyxoK E.n. TpHropoBa b 7 1/2 tacoB. 

27 iMTHHiia: «KpywoK MncTepHH» b 7 1/2 wacoB. 

28 cy66oTa: 3bphtmh» b 7 wacoB. 

29 BocxpeceHHe: BcTyn. KpyxoK M.B. Bojiouihhoh. 

30 noHeaenbHHK: Co6paHHe A.O. Eecena, Kacaromaacn aHTponoco$cKHx TeM, 

o6uieHHe ineHOB Ha aHTponocoqbcime TeMbi; BCTyiuieHHe k 6eceae E.H. 
EyraeBa: «HauiH mmcjih, Hanm lyBCTBa, Haiua bojm h Hauia aHTponocoqV 
CKaa pa6oTa b TeieymeM nonyroflHH». Pobho b 6 iacoB. 

OKTHBPb 

1 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. HTeHHe Kypca. BTopaa jieKinwi. 

2 cpeaa. 

3 weTBepr: BcTyn. xpyxcoK E.n. rpnropoBa. B 7 1/2 HacoB. 

4 imTHHua: «XpHCTHaHCKHft Kpyxcox». B 5 1/2 nacoB. 

5 cy66oTa: 3bphtmh« b 7 tacoB. 

6 BocicpeceHHe: BcTyn. xpyxcox M.B. Bojiouihhoh c 5-th. 

7 noHeaejibHHK: Kpyacox M.n. CTOiwpoBa no «<Dhjioco(J)hh Cbo6oai>i». 

474 



8 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. HTeHHe Kypca. 3b« aeKUHa. Pobho b 7 nacoB. 

9 cpeaa. 

10 weTBepr: BcTyn. KpyacoK B.n. TpHropoBa. B 7 1/2 iacoB. 

11 iwTHHua: «Kpy*OK MHCTepHfl». B 7 1/2 nacoB. 

12 cy66oTa: 3bphtmhh b 7 <iacOB. 

13 BOCKpeceHHe: BcTyn. KpyacoK M.B. Bojioujhhoh. C 5-th. 

14 noHeae/ibHHK: JleKUH»-6eceaa B.H. ByraeBa: «0 hchbohochom pyibe eBpo- 

neftcKofl KyjibTypw». Pobho b 6 nacoB. Bxoa aaa Bcex jKeaaiouuix. LJeHa 
2 py6na 50 won. 

15 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. 4a« neKUHfl xypca. B 7 wacOB. 

16 cpeaa: My3biKaabHO-BOKajibHbiH Beiep, nocBameHHbiH Ce6acTHaHy Baxy. 

Bxoa ana qaeHOB 06mecTBa, naeHOB BCTyn. Kpy*Ka c tocthmh. UeHa 
2 p. 50 Kon. 

17 weTBepr: BcTyn. KpywoK E.n. rpnropoBa. 7 1/2 wacoB. 

18 iMTHHua: «XpHCTHaHCKHfi KpyKOK». 5 1/2 wacoB. 

19 cy660Ta: 3bphtmhh. 7 iacoB. 

20 BOCKpeceHHe: BcTyn. Kpy*OK M.B. Bohoiuhhoh. 5 iacoB. 

21 nOHeaenbHHK: KpywoK M.n. CroasipoBa no «<I>hjioco(J)hh CBo6oaw». 

22 btophhk: Co6paHHe naeHOB A.O. 5a« aexuHH Kypca. 7 nacoB. 

23 cpeaa. 

24 neTBepr: BcTyn. KpywoK B.n. TpHropoBa. 7 1/2 nacoB. 

25 iMTHHiia: «Kpy»coK MHCTepHft». 7 1/2 qacoB. 

26 cy66oTa: 3bphtmhh. 7 nacoB. 

27 BOCKpeceHHe: KpyjKOK M.B. Bojioihhhoh. 5 wacoB. 

28 noHeaeabHHK: Mhthmhoc co6paHHe laeHOB 06mecTBa, Kacafomeecs aHTpo- 

noco(t>CKHx TeM. BcTynaeHHe-6eceaa M.B. Bojioluhhoh: «0 KaaeHaape 
aoKTopa UlTettHepa, o Haiunx aHTponoco(J)CKHx 3aaanax b cbjhh c phtmom 
BpevieHH: 0KT«6pb». Xopomo 6bi, hto6w 6buiH 6eceaw Ha TeMbi npoHH- 
TaHHbix xieKUHfl co cxeMaMH. 

29 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. 6an aeKUHH Kypca. 

30 cpeaa. 

31 neTBepr: BcTyn. KpywoK E.FI. TpHropoBa. 7 1/2 iacoB. 

HOHBPb 

1 nHTHHua: «XpHCTHaHCKHfl Kpy*OK». 5 nacoB. 

2 cy66oTa: Sbphtmhh. 7 nacoB. 

3 BOCKpeceHHe: BcTyn. KpyacoK M.B. BoaouiHHOft. 5 iacoB. 

4 nOHeaenbHHK: KpyacoK M.n. Croa«poBa «<J>Haoco<j)Ha CBo6oaw». 

5 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. 7a« aeKUHa Kypca. 

6 cpeaa. 

7 neTBepr: BcTyn. KpyacoK B.n. TpHropoBa. 7 1/2 wacOB. 

8 nxTHHua: «Kpy*OK MHcrepHH». 7 iacoB. 

9 cy66oTa: 3bphtmh». 7 nacoB. 

10 BOCKpeceHHe: BcTyn. KpyacoK M.B. BoaoiiiHHOH. 5 nacOB. 

11 noHeaeabHHK: JleKiuifl B.H. ByraeBa: «0 KopoHe /ik>6bh h MHCTepHH CMep- 

th b aHTponoco<J)CKOM paCKpbITHH». 

475 



12 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. 8aa newum Kypca. 

13 cpena: MysbiKanbHO-BOKanbHbift Beiep, nocB. IIIy6epTy. Uhkji neceH «Die 

schone Mullerin» b HcnojiHeHHH A.B. Ch3oboh. 

14 qeTBepr: BcTyn. Kpy*OK B.n. TpHropoBa. 7 1/2 nacoB. 

15 nHTHHua: «XpncTHaHCKHH Kpy*OK». 5 nacoB. 

16 cy66oTa: 3bphtmh». 7 wacoB. 

17 BOCKpeceHHe: BcTyn. Kpy»<OK M.B. Bojioujhhoh. 5 qacoB. 

18 noHenejibHHK: Kpy»OK M.T1. CTOjmpoBa «<t>HJioco<l)HJi CBo6oflM». 

19 btophhk: Co6paHHe OSmecTBa. 9aa jieKiwa Kypca. 7 KacoB. 
/.../ 

22 nsiTHHua: «Kpy*OK Mhctcphhw. 7 1/2 nacoB. 

26 btophhk: Co6paHHe 06mecTBa. lOaa jickuhh Kypca. 7 qacoB. 



IIEKABPb 



I BOCKpeceHHe: JleKuna K.H. BacKJibeaoft: «KapMa». 
/.../ 

3 btophhk: laa neKUHH Kypca «MHCTepHH BocTOKa h 3anaaa». 7 iacoB. 

/.../ 

6 iwTHHua: «Kpy»coK Mhctcphh». 7 1/2 nacoB. 

9 noHenenbHHK: JleKUHH B.H. ByraeBa (AHapea Bejioro): [CTpaHHHK] [OrpaH- 

CTBHe h ero Tern. KaK 3Tan nocBsmeHHH:] «3HMHee crpaHCTBHe, ho<h>: 
nonyHOKHoe cojiHue KynbTypw». IJeHa 2 1/2 py6jiett. fljw Bcex. 

10 btophhk: JleKuna Kypca «Mhctcphh BocTOKa h 3anana». 2a« jieKUHH Kypca. 

II cpcaa: My3biKanbHO-BOKajibHbifi Benep, hocb. IIIy6epTy: Ukkji «Winterrei- 

se» b HcnojiHeHHH A.B. Ch30boh. UeHa 2 1/2 py6jiefl. 
/.../ 

17 btophhk: Kypc «Mhctcphh BocTOKa h 3anaaa». 7 iacoB. (3b« xieKUHn). 
/.../ 
20 naTHHua: «KpyacoK MHCTepHfi». 

24 btophhk: «Mhctcphh BocTOKa h 3anaaa». 4a« /ickuhh. 

/.../ 

27 nxTHHiia: «Kpy*OK MHCTepHtt». 

/.../ 

(rBJl, (J).25, KapT.31, ea.xp.17; pyK. 6e3 aaTbi) 



476 



riHCbMO BOPMCy nABJlOBHHY TPMrOPOBy 

1 okth6p» 1921 

Zloporoii BopHC riaBJioBHH, 

Cxopo, BepoflTHO, yBHAHMCH; 6biji y MeHH Bji. Bjt. 3flcHep, eayiuHfl b 
MocKBy; npoH3BeJi 4pe3BbmaftHO CTpaHHoe Bneiai-jieHHe; a aaaeK ot KaKofl 6bi 
hh 6wao xapaKTepHCTHKH ero jihhhocth; mowct owrb oh npeKpacHbift ie.no- 
bck; ho TO^bKo: nocae ero yxoaa Ha MeHH Hanaji uhkji pa3ayMb>i; h bot hto 
OTjiojKHJiocb b co3HaHHH; h noHyBCTBOBaji Heo6xoziHMOCTb npeziynpeflHTb Bac: 
6ydbme c hum ocmopoxHbi, He noaaBaa eMy BHaa; M0*eT 6biTb oh TOJibKo 
icrioBeK MeanyMHiecKHft, ho... Bee *e. 

KcTaTH: oh no3HaKOMHjica co mhoh; npumea ko MHe Bpoae KaK nocaaHeu 
ot Bac. npeflynpewaaio Bac, mo a HHHero He npocHJi ero nepeaaTb BaM. Ec- 
nn 6w oh He sapeKOMeHaoBaaca, KaK HeiTo MHe HMeiomHH coo6iuHTb H3 Mo- 
ckbu, h 6bi He cTaji ero BbicayuiHBaTb. 

OroBapHBarocb: a HHHero He HMeio npoTHB Hero; ho 6biBaeT, q-ro h ayw- 
iiiHe siww 6biBatoT MeaHyinaMH. 

IlHCbMo yHHHT0>KbTe. Oh Ha3biBaeT ce6a apyroM He6biiueBa; octopo>kho 
HaMeKHHTe Ha ocTopowHOCTb: Tpane3H[HK0By], rieTp[oBCKOMy], Ka[aBaHH] 
HHKfoaaeBHe], xota HaM Henero yraHBa-rb, ho c^hujkom jiK>6onwTHbie aioan, 
npeHcnoaHeHHbie aBaHTiop, Bceiaa BbUbiBaior onaceHHe h cnep>KaHHocTb. 

(LirAJlM, $.52, on. 3, NslO) 

[IlHCbMo 6e3 noanHCH. Aapec Ha KOHBepTe: KyapHHCKaa CaaoBaa 6, kb. 2 (c 
■jepHoro xoaa) nnn: PyMHHueBCKHH My3efl. EH6jinoTeKa. Bepe OcKapoBHe 
Ahhchmoboh ana nepeaaMH B.n. rpnropoBy. CneuiHoe] 



VI 
M3 «CEBE HA nAMETb»* 

1915 sod 

226-229. /JeKa6pb — «KaHT h lUTeftHep». flaa Kpy>KKa pyccKHX aHxponoco- 
4)ob. JJopHax. 



* riojiHoe Ha3BaHne aoKyMeHTa (Ha 19 /wcTax, 6. a.): CEEE HA TlAMHTb. Tlepe- 
<teHb npouumanHbix peffiepamoe, ny6autHbix neKUuu, 6eced (ho 3acedamt.HX), onnOHupo- 
eamiu, npedcedameAbcmeoeaHuii u ynacmuii (aKmuenbix) e 3acedamiAX u m.d. c 1899 do 
1932 eoda. ABTorpa<i> HaxoaHTca b UrAJIM, ij}.53 (A.Eejibift), on.l, ea.xp.96. OTTyaa 

B3XTU TOJlbKO JieKUHH H T.fl., KaCaKJlUHeCH aHTpOnOCO(J)HH H TeM, C Heft CBJI3aHHbIX, MH- 

TaHHbie b aHTponoco4>cKHX Kpyrax. HyMepaumi (qacro oiuH6oHHaa) b nepeiHe npHHaa- 
aewHT BeaoMy. riponycKH o6o3HaqaioTCH «/.../». 



477 



1916 eod 



230-233. flHBapb 
234-237. <J>eBparib 
242. CeHT«6pb 
251. Aeica6pb 



258. MapT 

265. Anpejib 

266. Matt 

267. Maa 

270. CeHTH6pb 

272. OKTH6pb 

273. Hoa6pb 

276-277. fleKa6pb 



— «KaHT h IIlTettHep». flna Kpy>KKa pyccKHx aHTponoco- 
(J)ob. flopHax. 

— «KaHT h IllTeflHep» [h t.a.} 

— Beceaa o TeTeaHyMe. B Mockobckom A.O. 

— yqacTHe b 6eceae ana HHTep{ecyiomHxc»] aHTponoco- 
(j)Heft b Mock. A.O. 

1917 eod 

— «0 CMbicne no3HaHH«». HHTaio y CM. ConoBbeBa. 
CeprneB riocaa. 

— YnacTHe b AHcnyTe nocjie neKUHH M.n. CrojwpoBa 
«Mhp flyxa». MocKBa 

— ynacTHe b 6eceae c HHTepec. A.O. (b noMememiH 06- 
mecTBa). MocKBa 

— «0 pHTMHiecKott kphboh». flotuiafl y TpHropoBbix. 
MocKBa 

— HTeHHe b ny6jiHHHOft aHTpon. 6eceae. rioMemeHHe 
TpHropoBbix. MocKBa. 

— HTeHHe «rnocconajiHH» b aHTponoc. KpyacKe. MocKBa 

— YwacTHe b 6eceae b A.O. rioMemeHHe O-Ba. MocKBa 

— «Mhp ayxa». Kypc npoHHTaHHbifl ana JKejiaiomnx 
(opraHH3osaH A.O.). MocKBa 

1918 eod 



— ripoaonaceHHe Kypca «Mhp flyxa». 

— «Cbct H3 rp«flymero». JleKUHH, opramooB. A.O. Mo- 
cKBa 

— Eeceaa ot A.O. (c HHTepecyiomHMHCH). MocKBa 



278-284, 295 [sic!] 
9i. HBapb-<t>eBpanb 
276. ilHBapb HJIH 
(J)eBpajib 

300. MapT 

3noxa om uio/tH do dem6pn e Anrnpon. O-ee. 
Pa6oTa b AHTponoco(t>cKOM 06mecTBe. 

316-319. Hiojib — «KpywoK MHCTepHfl». Pa6oTa Haa nepBOtt MHCTepHefl 
IIlTeftHepa, y epam nocentyeHUfi, b cbsuh c ceMHHapneM 
no aHTponoco<t>CKOMy MaTepnany, oneHb MHoro flaBiuaa; 
OTMenaio, noTOMy mto npHxoflnnocb eomoeuntbCH k co- 
6paHHHM Kpyxcxa; ynacTHHKH: M.B. CaGauiHHKOBa, K.H. 
BacHjibeaa, M.n. Ctoji«pob, a. MocKBa 



478 



320-323. ABrycT 
324. CeHT«6pb 
325-326. OKT«6pb 
327-329. Hofl6pb 
330-333. fleKa6pb 

334. ABrycT 

335. CeHT«6pb 

336. CeHT«6pb 

337. CeHTa6pb 

338. OKTn6pb 

339. OKT«6pb 

340. Hoa6pb 

341. ,HeKa6pb 



— «Kpy>KOK MMCTepHfl». 

— «Kpy>KOK Mhctcphh». 

— «Kpy*oK MncrepHfi». 

— «Kpy>KOK MMCTepHfl». 

— «Kpy)KOK MncTepHfl». 

— Pflfl opraHH3au. 3ace,aaHHH HHMimaTHBHoro aHTpo- 
noc. Kpy»Ka. MocKBa 

— 3aceaaHHH HHHUHaTHBHoro Kpy>KKa A.O. MocKBa 

— «0 MHoroo6pa3MH aHrponoccxfrcKHx nyTefi». B aHT- 
pon. KpyacKe Ca6auiHHKOBofl. MocKBa . 

— «MHpOBbie MblCJIH, WyBCTBO H B0J1H». J\l\fi MJTeHOB 

A.O. MocKBa 

— YuacTHe b 6eceae aHTponoco({>OB c HHTepecyiouiHMH- 
ch A.O. MocKBa 

— «0 >khbohochom HMny/ibce eBponeflcKOft Ky/ibTypbi». 
JlemxuH asm nHTepecyfomnxc«, b noMemeHHH Aht. O-Ba. 
MocKBa 

— «0 KopoHe jik>6bh h MncTepHH cMepTH». JleKUHd an* 
MHTepecyiomHxca, b noMem. Ahtp. O-Ba. MocKBa 

— «3nMHee cTpaHCTBHe h ncmyHoiHoe cojihuok JleK- 
un» ana HHTepec, b noinem. Ahtp. O-Ba. MocKBa 

(b KOHue rozia 6e3yMHOe nepeyTovuieHwe) 



1919 eod 



453-454. MHBapt. 

455-456. <teBpanb 
457-458. MapT 
459-460. Anpejib 
461-462. ABrycT 

463-464. CeHT»6pb 
465. ilHBapb 

466-467. He iiomhio 
Mecoua 

468. ABrycT 

469. MaK 



Pa6oma e Awnponoc. O-ee 

— «Kpy>KOK MHcrepHfl». AHTponoco<J)CKHH ceMHHapHfl 
pa36opa MHcrepHH «V' BpaT nocBHiueHHH» IilTeflHepa. 
AHTp. O-bo. MocKBa 

— «Kpy>KOK MHCTepHH». 

— «Kpy>KOK MHCTepHfi». 

— «KpywoK MHCTepHfi». 

— «Kpy*oK MHCTepHfiw. CeMMnapHfl pa36opa 2-ofi mh- 
CTepHH IilTeflHepa. MocKBa. 

— «Kpy>KOK MHCTepnfl». 

— BbicTynneHHe Ha 3aceaaHHH Ahtpoii. O-Ba. HoBoroa- 
Hee. MocKBa 

— Eec&aa Ha 3aceaaHHH H/ieHOB CoBeTa AHTponococJ)- 
CKoro O-Ba. MocKBa 

— BbicTynjieHwe Ha 3aceiiaHnn Ahtp. O-Ba (HHUttaeur c 
Ch30bum). MocKBa 

— JleKUHH no AHTponoco(J)HH ana HHTepecyiouuHxcH. 
KapaieB 



479 



470-471. HiOHb 

473-474. CeHT»6pb 

475-478. OKT«6pb 
479-482. Hoa6p b 
483-486. ZleKa6pb 



— JleKUHH no AHTponococJ)HH nnn HHTepecyromHxcH. 
KapaieB 

— <(AHTponoco(J)HH». Kypc ana HHTepecyioiuHxcjt npH 
AHTponocoijiCKOM 06wecTBe. MocKBa 

— «AHTponocoiJ)HH». 

— «AHTponoco<j)HH». 

— «AHTponoco({)HH». 



1920 eod 



572. Matt 15 



573. Matt 22 

574. HiOHb 2 

575. HiOHb 5 

576. MiOHb 12 

577. HiOHb 19 

578. HwHb 23 

579. HroHb 25 

580. HiOHb 30 



625. Hwjib 15 

626. Hto^b 21 

627. ABrycT 

628. ABrycT 25 

629. CeHT«6pb 

630. OKT»6pb 16 

631. OKTH6pb 19 

632. Hoa6pb 3 

633. Ho«6pb 13 

634. Hon6pb 25 

635. Hon6pb 27 



— «AHTponoco<J)HH, KaK nyTb caMono3HaHH«». Kypc 
jieKUHfl npn B[ojibHOft] <J>[hjioco(})ckoh] A[ccouHauHH]. 
FIeTep6ypr. 

— «AHTponoco(j)HH...» 

— «AHTponoco4>Ha...» 

— «AHTponocotJ)HH...» 

— «AHTponoco<iiHfl...» 

— «AHTponoco(j)HH...» 

— «AHTponoco<t)HH...» 

— «AHTponoco<J)Hsi...» 

— «AHTponoco({)HH...» 



Pa6oma dnn AHmponocotficKoeo 06ufecmea 

— «KyjibTypbi h pacw». JleKuna b Ahtp. 06mecTBe. 
MocKBa 

— «KynbTypa h hctophh». Heicmm b Ahtp. 06mecT- 
Be. MocKBa 

— yqacTHe b ziHcnyTe nocne jickuhh CTOJiapoBa ot 
A.O. [Ha Teviy «Xjre6 >kh3hh», b noMeuieHHH «,HBopua 
McKyccTB»]. MocKBa 

— ny6ni«Ha« /ieioiHJi b nojiHT. My3ee «KpH3HC co3Ha- 
hhh h JleB Tojictoh». MocKBa 

— nySnHHHaji jickuhh b IlojiHTexH. My3ee «J3bc cthxhh 

B COBpeMeHHOM XpHCTHaHCTBO). MocKBa 

— «Cbct h TbMa». JleKUHH ot A.O., b noMemeHHH 
«flBopua HcKyccTB». MocKBa 

— «HejioBeK h HenoBeiecTBo». JIckuhh ot A.O., TaM 
*e. 

— «AHTponoco<J)HH». JleKUHH ot A.O., TaM *e. 

— «Pyaojib(j) IIlTettHep». JIckuhh ot A.O., TaM 3kc 

— «HoaHHOBO 3aaHHe». JIckuhh ot A.O., TaM >Ke. 

— «Mh(J) Harnett wh3hh». ny6jiHHHaH jickuhh b ayziHTo- 
PHH IlojiHTexH. My3en. ripeHHH. MocKBa 



480 



635. Aexa6pb 9 



636. 0KT«6pb- 
AeKa6pb 



— npeflceaaTenbCTByio Ha 6eceae M.n. CronHpoBa 
ot A.O., b noMem. «H&. Hck.». YqacTByjo b npeHHax. 
MocKBa 

— IlpHHHMaio ywacTHe Ha hhthmhmx coopaHHwc kjichob 
CoBera A.O. (He noMHio Ha CKOJibKHx). MocKBa 



1921 eod 



653. MapT 

654. MapT 

655. MapT 

656. Anp&iib 

657. CeHTH6pb 

658. CeHT»6pb 

659. Hiojib 

660. ABrycT 

661. CeHTa6pb 

662. OKT»6pb 

663. OKT«6pb 

664. OKTH6pb 

IlaMnmb moh ocna6ena, u Moxem 6birm> e nepenne ecmb oiuuSm (nponycm, 
unu neeepnan orriMemKa Mecxyee) 

688. Hiojib 



Pa6oma e Anrnpon. 06uiecmee 

— «AHTpOIIOCO(pHH H XpHCTHaHCTBO». JleKIfflfl B A.O. 

MocKBa 

— Co6eceflOBaHHe h fipeHHH b rpynne aHTpon. no oTae- 
jieHHK) ot TpHropoBa. MocKBa 

— ZIe6aTbi b 6yiiymeH Ahtp. rpynne «JloMOHOcoBa» 
no oTfleneHHM. MocKBa 

— riHiny aoKJian b MocKBy o nporpaMMe pa6oT JIomo- 
hocobckoh Tpynnw. IleTep6ypr 

— flpeHHH b HHHUHaT. aape JIom. rpynnw. MocKBa 

— CeMHHapnfl no «Kaic aocTHrHyTb» b hhhu. aape 
JIom. Tpynnw. MocKBa 

— CeMHHapHtt b neTep6. rpynne aHTp. y Ca6auiHHKO- 
boh. Eeceaa. neTep6ypr 

— CeMHHapHft b IleTep6. rpynne aHTp. y Ca6auiHHK0- 
boh. Beceaa. FleTepoypr 

— Eeceaa b JIomoh. rpynne A.O. no «KaK aocTHr- 
HyTb». MocKBa 

— OpraHH3au. 6ecena c TpHropoBbiM b JIom. rpynne. 
ripeHHH. MocKBa 

— CeMHHapHft no «KaK aocTHrHyTb» b JIom. rpynne. 
Eeceaa. MocKBa 

— Eeceaa b JIomoh. rpynne no «KaK aocTHrHyTb». 
MocKBa 



/.../ 



727. Anpenb 
17—874 



— IlpeHHH Ha TeMy «AHTponoco<J>HH» (hhthmhoc 3ace- 
aaHHe [B.O.A.] y mchh). IleTep6ypr 



1922 eod 
«06 aHTponoco4)HH» b «J_IoMe HcKyccTB». EepnHH 

481 



728. Anperib 

746. Mafl 

/.../ 

749. <J>eBpajib 



773. MapT 



779. flHBapb 

795. 4>eB.26 

796. <DeB.27 

813. HioHb 

/.../ 

834-836. Ho«6pb 

837-839. fleKa6pb 

/.../ 



— BbicTyimeHHe Ha TeMy «3bphtmhh», Tain ace. 

— Mofl noKiiaa «AHTponoco(l>Hfl b npo6^eMe KyjibTy- 
pbi». B.O.A. BepjiHH 

— Beceaa y «Ckh(J)ob» (o npHrjiameHHH UlTeftHepa). 
BepjiHH. 



1923 eod 

— MTeHHe Moero OTBeTa JleJtaeraHry h 6eceaa no 3to- 
My noBOny (y ropbKoro)*. CapoB 

1924 eod 

— «0 MHpOBblX MblCJlHX, HyBCTBaX, BOJIO). /Jpy3bHM. 

MocKBa 

— Beceaa Ha TeMy «npo6jieMa KyjibTypbi». C HHTepecy- 

K3LUHMHCH. KueB 

— Becena Ha TeMy «<t>Hnoco(J)Hfl ayxa». C HHTepecyn)- 

UIHMHCfl. KneB 

— «KoMno3HUHH EBaHrejiHH». HTeHHe y BojiouiHHa. 
KoKTe6enb 

— KpywoK no MHpoco3epuaHHK>. ripeHna. MocKBa 

— Kpy>KOK no MHpoco3epuaHHio. ripeHHH. MocKBa 



1925 eod 



852. AnpeJib 

853. Anpe/ib 

860. Hiojib 
870. fleica6pb 



— BocnoMHHaHHH o lilTefiHepe. flpy3bflM. MocKBa 

— BocnoMHHaHHH o IilTefiHepe. y HexoBa. MocKBa 

— Eecena Ha TeMy jjyx. KyjibTypbi. y CTOJiapoBa. 06h- 
panoBKa 

— Beceaa Ha TeMy «CpeflHeBeKOBa» cxonacTHKa». C 
apy3b«MH. MocKBa 



* HMeercH B BHfly: AHflpeB Bejibift. AHTPOnOCO&HX H H-P rAHC HE(l3E- 
rAHr. — «Beceaa», 1923/2 (monb-aBrycT), c. 378-392; naTHpcmaHo: Tapu6ypr, 26 Mag 
23 rona. Otbct Benoro Ha CTaTbio Jleft3eraHra 06 aHTponoco<))HH ony6;iHKOBaH b nep- 
bom HOMepe «Beceflbi», c. 236-263. 



482 



871. fleKa6pb 
872-875. OKT«6pb 



— HTeHHe Ha TeMy «HTeHHe IlaBJia 06 onpaBaaHHH Be- 
poio». MocKBa 

— «Mctopjw cTaHoaneHHx caMOC03H[aioiueft] ayuiH». 
Kypc neKiwft no hctophh KyjibTypw. y M.A. HexoBa. 
Mociraa 



876-877. flmapb 
878-879. OeBpajib 
880-881. MapT 
882-883. Anpejib 
884. 4>eBpanb 

885-886. Matt 
887. Matt 

888-890. HwHb 

893. Hiohi, 

894. Ho*6pb 

895-896. fleica6pb 



1926 eod 

— «HCTOPHH CTaHOBJieHHJI H T.fl.» 

— «HCTOpH» CTaHOBJieHHJI... » 

— «HCT0PH« CTaHOB^eHHS...» 

— «HCTOpHH CTaHOBJieHRX...» 

— CeMHHapHfl h 6ece/ja c pa3rnxAOM hctophh. cxeM. 
71py3faHM. MocKBa 

— «0 ayuie caMoco3HaK>meft». Aowiaa. JleHHHrpaa 

— FlpeHHH Ha aoKJiaae EBreHHH HBaHOBa «06 EBaHre- 
jihh HoaHHa». y Kan/iyH. JleHHHrpan 

— HTeHHe H3 Moeft KHHrn «McTopH« cTaHOBjieHH*». y 
C.r. CnaccKOtt. JlcHHHrpaii 

— Beceaa c flpy3«iMH y BejiHicaHOBott. JleHHHrpaa 

— HTeHHe H3 khhi-h «BocnoMHHaHHs o IIlTeftHepew. Mo- 

CKBa 

— HTeHHe «3 KHHrH «BocnoMHHaHH« o IIlTettHepe». Mo- 

CKBa 



897. «HBapb 

903. MapT 

904. MapT 

905. MapT 

906. MapT 



1927 eod 

— «IIlTettHep, KaK xpHCTHaHHH». flpy3b«M. MocKBa 

— Eeceaa Ha Teiny o BHyTpeHHeM BHHMaHHH. y HexoBa. 
MocKBa 

— HTeHHe «hhthmhoA pyiconHCH». y HexoBa. MocKBa 

— Beceaa o OaHTOMe h 5-om EBaHrenHH. fljm apysefl. 
MocKBa 

— HTeHHe «hhthmhoh pyKonHCH». y HexoBa. MocKBa 



921. Anpenb 

922. CeHTn6pb 

923. CeHT«6pb 29 



1928 eod 



— «npHHiwn pHTMa». floioiaa apy3MiM. Mocraa 

— Eeceaa c apy3wiMH Ha TeMy «0 MaTepnajuoMe h ana- 
nCKTHKO). MocKBa 

— Eeceaa Ha TeMy «riaMJiTb, KaK Met HHTejuieKTa». 
MocKBa 



17* 



483 



VII 

H3 wMATEPHAJlOB K EMOrPAfl>HH»: 
OTPfelBKH KPATKHX 3AnHCEft M OTPblBOK H3 flHEBHHKA 4 



OceHb [1918 eodaj 

yiacTsyK) b aHTponoc. KpyKKax: Kpy*OK «Co3h<ihux», «KpyxOK no 
u3yneHUH3 Mucmepuu», «HHUituamu8Hbiu xpyxoK» (ana pa6oT O-Ba). 

KopoTKoe BpeMH cnyacy b PyccKOM ApxHBe, noMouiHHKoM apxHBHCTa, 
OTKa3biBarocb ot npocfreccypbi; 3aHHMa>ocb naneorpa<t>Heft; cnyacy y npo$. 
ApaameBa: pa36Hpaio 6y\iarH ApxHBa BopoHOKCKofi Cyae6H0ft IlanaTW. 

OceHbK) nHtuy «Kpu3uc KyAbmypbi»; onHOBpeMeHHO aonHCMBaio h nepe- 
pa6aTbiBaio «3anucm Hydaxan. 

HHTaro b aHTp. O-Be jieKium: «0 xuoohochom UMny/ibce eeponeucK. 
Ky/ibtnypbiY), «BeHey JlK>6eu», «3uMHee CmpaHcmeue»; HHTaio OTKpbiTyio 
jieKUHK) b FIpojieT-KynbTe: «CmuxoeedeHue». 

OflHOBpeineHHo: c oceHH nocTynaio Ha cny>K6y b «riponem-Ky/ibm»: moh 
(tyHKUHH a) KOHcyjibTaHT no npo6jieMaM (J)opMbi; b) pyKOBoaHTenb sthx npo6- 
neM b ceMHHapHHX jimrep. cryaHH; c) neKTop: iHTajo Kypc no phtmhkc; d) me- 
HHe nocTynaiomHX pyKonnceH; e) npHeM b nponem-Ky/ibtn h 6eceaa c HaiHHa- 

IOIUHMH aBTOpaMH. 

nocTynaio Ha cny*6y b Teo-HapKOMnpocca k O.fl. KaMeHeBoft: a) ineH 
KonneraH OTaena; b) 3aBeayK>wH# Hay4HO-TeopeTHHecjcofi cexuMcfl (cbcpx- 
cpoiHaH cny>K6a): opraHH3auH« nnaHa pa6oT, 3acenaHHH, co3biB coTpyaHH- 
kob, pacnpeaen. 3aHHTHfl; h — nponee; b wacTHOCTH: MHe npHHaaneacnT pyico- 
BoacTBO npH Bbipa6oTKe nnaHa «.Teampa/ibHoeo yHueepcumeman h cocTaBne- 
HHe nporpaMMbi npenoaaBaHHa Teop. KypcoB (np03KT npouien CKB03b Hap- 
KOMnpocc). Ckopo noKHaaio OTaen (no CBoefi Bone). 

IlepeyTOMneHHe. 

1919 eod 

1) Kypc b IlponeTKynbTe: <nTeopun Xyd. Cnoea» (ao iwaa). 2) y Macrae b 
acypHane «ropH». 3) y Macrae b opramnaiiHH vAxadeMuu <J>u/iocofficKOU» (6y- 
aymeH — «BonbHo-<J>Hnoc.-AccouHau.HH»). 

ynacTHe b «CoK>3e Flucame/ieu» h b noaroTOBKe k opraHH3auHH JiHTep. 
OTaena npH HapKOMnpocce (Bbi6pan rpynnoft nHcaTeneft h no3TOB npeaceaa- 
TeneM 6yaymero «JIumo», kotopmh bo3hhk iepe3 1 1/2 nHiub coBceM b apyroM 
Bnae; c apyrHMH ynacTHHicaMH). 

C secHbi ao oceHn: 3aHOBO nepepa6oTKa h pacuinpeHHe hobwm MaTepH- 
anoM aByx tomob «IJymeebie 3aMemKu». 



' CoxpaHeHbi Bee oco6eHHOCTH TeKCTa Bejioro, TaKHe xax HenocneaoBaTeJibHOCTb b 
HanHcaHHH HaiBaHHfl, HHoraa ycTapeBuiaa op<t>orpa(J>Hsi, coKpaiueHxx, no/mepKHBaHHS 
(BbiaeneHbi xypcueoM) h T.a. 



484 



YwacTHe b 3aceaaHHJix h 6eceaax, opramnyeMbix vJJaopifOM HcKyccme». 

Jlexioui b ABopne Hckycctb: «Ky/ibmypa Hcmopuun. 

YciuieHHoe HTeHHe JiHTepaTypw, nocBaiueHHOft peHeccaHcy. 

OceHbio: KOH<j>jiHKT c rpHropoBWMH H CH30BUM H3-3a MeTOaa BeaeHHJI 
3aH»THfl b Ahtp. O-Be, KOToporo h CTan tneHOM CoBeTa (c 1917 roaa); on- 
no3HUH« 6yaymeft rpynnw hmchh «JloMOHOCoea» TpHropoBUM. 

KopoTKoe BpeMH 3aBeayio xypcaMH «JJeopi(a HcKyccme»; npHraauieH b 
KOJiJiermo Gyaymero «JIumo», ho — oTKa3ajic». 

C ceHTJi6p5i flo MapTa 1919-1920 roaoB cnyncy b «Omdeae Oxpanw I7a- 
MHttiH. CmapuHM»; no nopyneHHio OTaeaa co6Hpaio MaTepnaabi no hctophh 
peBoniou. KOjineiuiHH bo OpamuiH (anoxn Beji. PeB.); npoHHTMBaio orpoMHoe 
KOJiwecTBo cneu. KHHr no kojuickuhjim; my^iaio hctophio (J>p. KyjibTypbi h 
«Ben. <Pp. PeeoAH3i4UK>v> (Tsh, JKopec, Kapaeftjib, Oaap, h ap., ra3eTa «Mo- 
niteur» 3a 1792-1794 roaa: ot aockh ao aockh) h T.a. Coonpaio rpyay MaTepn- 
aaa, KOTopbift hokht He Hcnonb30BaHHbift; 3to KponoTJiHBoe co6HpaHHe ot- 
HHMaeT Bee BpeMH. 

HnTaio Kypc JieiauiH b aHTp. O-Be: «IJyntb caMono3HaHUH». 

Jl/a 3Toro BpeMeHH npoa. «KpyxcoK H3yteHim Mucmepuu» c 1918 roaa. 
CoTpyflHHMaio b «3anucKax Meimam&neu» (cTaTbH). 

1920 eod 

Hanano roaa: 1) npHHHMaio ynacTHe b opraH. vAnadeMuu JJyx. Kynbmy- 
pw»; HHTaio TaM 2 jickuhh. 2) HnTaio 6 jickuhh b «JJ,eopite Hacyccmen: «Ky/ib- 
mypa Mbiaiu». 

Xnonony 06 OTbe3ae 3arpaHHuy. 

riepee3xcaio b JleHHHrpaa; 3aecb Bee BpeMn oneHb KHnynafl aeHTenbHocTb 
no opraHH3aqHH 6ecea, jickuhh, mhthhi-ob (ny6jiHHHbix) «Bo/ibHo-0u/ioc- 
Accoi4uaifuu», a raioKe no opraHjnauHH 3aKpuTbix KypcoB accounauHH (sui 
generis yHHBepcHTeTa); coctoio qjieuoM coBeTa h npeaceaaTeneM Accoima- 
uhh. 3aecb HHTaio jickuhh: «<1>hjioco<J)hh KynbTypbi», «JJee To/icmou u uoea», 
«Bemxuu u Hoeuu 3aeem», [Beay 3aceaaHH»], yqacTByio b 6eceaax, b «Coee- 
me» h npoHHTHBaH) aBa xypca jickuhh: «Ky/ibmypa Mbicnu», «AHmponoco- 
(fiiM, kqk nymb caMono3HaHun». 

KpoMe Toro: HHTaio icypc jieKUHfl b cTyann «JJomo HcKyccme» (jichhh- 
rpaacKoro) «/7poo"/je/ww pumMa». 

HnTaio OTaeabHbie jickuhh b «JJoMe Hcicyccme», b aeHHHrpaacKOM «IIpo- 
AemKyjibme». 

npHHHMaio ynacTHe b Bbipa6oTKe nnana 3aH«THH Ha oceHHeM ceMecTpe 
nHHcmumyma Mueoeo Cnoean, Kyaa * npnraauieH b npenoaaBaTejin (ynacTHe 
He cocTOJinocb 3a OTbe3aoM b Mockby). 

npHHHMaio ynacTHe b Bbipa6oTKe imam nHHcmumyma Teamp. 3hohuu», 
Kyaa mchh Bbi6pajiH npeacea. HaynHo-Teop. cckuhh (HHCTHTyT — He otkpm- 
jich). 

n«Tb MecxueB — ciuiouiHax jieKUHOHHaa h opraHH3auHOHHaa pa6ora. 

YesjKaK) b MocKBy b Hione; 3aecb: b «JJeopife HcKyccme» npHHHMaio yna- 
cTHe b opraHH3aiiHH Apxeoji. Oraeaa, KOToporo 3aBeayioiunM n Ha3HaneH; 

485 



npHHHM. ynacTHe b CoBeTe «JJeopi4a» h b 6H6aHOTeHHwx aeaax. HHTaio nex- 
uhh b nHTep. CTyflHH; ynacTByio b p«ae ny6a. 6ecea «JJeopita». 

Ocem>K> nHiuy flBe KHHrH: «Kpu3uc Co3HaHun» (pyKoimcb HeHanenaTaHa), 
«JIee ToAcmou u Ky/ibmypa» (HeHanenaTaHa). 

C hoh6p« ao KOHua aeica6pH nnuiy «ripecTynneHHe HHKoaaa JleTaeBa» 
(nepHOBHK, 4 6ojii>iuhx rnaBbi). 

HHTaio Kypc aeioiHH b jiHTep. OyaHH «JIumo»: «.PumMUKa» (pa3 b He- 
aeaio); HHTaio b aHTponoco<$)CKOM Kpy*Ke; HHTaio aexuHH bo vjje. Mck.»: 
1) «AHmpono/ioeux» 2) «Ceem u TbMa» 3) «AHmponoco0UH» 4) «.PydoAbfi 
IIlmeuHep» 5) hHoohhooo 3danue>r, h ny6a. aexuHH b nonHT. My3ee «Mu(jJ 
Haiueu xu3hu», «EeaHeeAucmbi», «flee ToAcmou». 

riaaaio — yuiH6: otbo3«t b 6oabHHiiy, rae Haxoacycb ao MapTa 1921 roaa. 

1921 eod 

B KOHue 4>eBpaaH paa JiHTep. BbicTynaeHHft (npHMo H3 6oabHHUbi); aeK- 
UHH-Benep b «JloMe nenaTH». 

Eay b JleHHHrpaa: onsm> opraHH3au. pa6oTa b <(BoAbHO-0uA.-Acc.»: yna- 
CTHe b aeicuHax, 6eceaax, MHTHHrax; opraHH3auHH noaoTaeaoB B.O.A.; Be- 
ay noaoTaea «cuM80AU3Ma»: e>KeHeaeabHbie 3aceaaHHH, noica3aT. BbiCTynae- 
hhh: HHTaio 2 aeicuHH, ycTpoeHHbie noaoTaeaoM: «Cum6oau3m», «Cum60- 
AU3M u meopun 3hcihux». Ha o6iueM 3aceaaHHH B.O.A. HHTaio aeicuHio: «0 
MaxcuManu3Me» . 

KpoMe Toro: nocTynaio b JleH. Ota. «HapKOMundeAa» iiomoiuhhkom 6h- 
6aHOTeKapa: moh 3aHHTHa: ynacTHe b opraHH3auHH oTaeaoB 6H6aHOTeKH, 
pa3MeTKa KHHr no aecHTHHHoB cncTeMe h T.a.; c cepeaHHu hiohh noaynaio ot- 
nycK; 3to — moh nocaeaHHH «CAyxc6a»... 

ynacTByio b «3armcKax MeHTaTeaeft». 

rinuiy nosMy «Jlepeoe Ceudanuen. 

OTaeabiBaio k nenaTH nepByio raaBy (H3 4x) «npecmynneHu.H Hukoaoh 
JJemaeea», 3HanHTeabHO yBeaHHHB ee; OHa h Bbixoa. noa 3thm HaiBamieM b 
«3an. Memn.» (npoHHfl MaTepnaa — He Hcnoab30BaH mhoh). 

OceHbio yMHpaeT BaoK. 

HHTaio o BnoKe b 3x 3aceaaHH«x (oTKpbiTbix) B.O.A.; b Iom «[Jo33uh 
Eaoko»; b 2x apyrnx — «,BocnoMunaHuji» (cTeHorpaMMa Hanen. b «3an. 
Mewi. »). 

HanHHaio nncaTb «BocnoMUHaHUH o EAOKe». 

ye3*aio b MocKBy xaonoTaTb 06 OTi>e3ae. 

3aecb, cpean npeabOTi>e3aHbix xaonoT npHHHM. yn. b opraHH3auHH Mock. 
OTaea. «BoAb(fiuAbi» (Bw6paH ero npeacea., KaK npeaceaaTeab «BoAb<fiu- 
Abi»). HHTaio aeKUHio npH otkpwthh noaoTaeaa: «J]ocmoeecKUU» . YnacT- 
Byio b ny6a. 3acea.: «CKU0bi o EAOKer> (IllTeHH6epr, HBaH.-Pa3., h, Mcth- 
caaBCKHfl, h ap.)- 

B 0KTfl6pe yesacaio 3arpaHHuy. 

B Kobho HHTaio 3 aeKUHH: 2 — o caoBe b otkpmtom 3acea. O-Ba JIhtob- 
ckhx XyaoxcHHKOB; h oaHy — b kobchckom TeaTpe «0 Jlbee ToAcmoM». 

C KOHua HO)i6pfl ao KOHua okth6ph 23 roaa — b BepaHHe. 



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B KOHue roaa opraHH3yio SepjumcKHH omen «BonbH.-*HJi.-Accou.» 
(npeflceaaTeiib). 

ripHHHMaio yn. b opraHH3aiwH 6epjiHHCKoro «JJomo HcKyccmen (<uieH co- 
BeTa). 

1922 eod 

Becb rofl nniuy «BocnoMUHaHun o E/ioxe» («3none»» NN l-4bifl). 

IlHuiy KHHry cthxob «Tlocne pa3/iyKU». 

nepepa6aTWBaio k HOBOMy H3fl. poMaH «TJemep6ype»; nepemaaio paa 
KHHr. CoTpyflHHHajo b acypHane «Coep. 3anucKu», b ra3eTe «ro/ioc Poccuu» 
h b *ypHajie npo($>. .HmeHKo «[Hoea* Pyccxan] Kmiea». 

PcaaKTHpyio jiHTep. xy,n. acypnan «3nonex». npHHHMajo ae«T. ynacTHe b 
Bewepax h 6eceaax, ycTpamaeMbix «Eepn. JJomom Hcxyccmen. HHTaio b hou 
ny6jiHHHyio jieKUHio Ha TeMy — KaaceTCH: «0 dyxe xu3hu e Poccuu». 

Tlmuy cTaTbio nnn scypHaua «Der Kommende Tag» «Anthroposophie 
und Russlandn. 

IlHuiy 6pouiiopy an* «3noxu»: «Moe Mupoco3epitaHue» (ocTanacb HeHa- 
nenaTaHHOH); noaroTOBjiio k vunaHHio co6paHHe «H36paHHbix cmuxomeo- 
penuu». 

JlHiiiy TeKCT B033saHHH rpynnw pyccKO-HeMeuKHx xynoxHHKOB o noMomH 
rojioaaHsiuHM b Pocchh, a Taxace TeiccT aapeca TeprapaTy TaynTMaHy ot pyc- 
ckhx iwcaTejieft (no noBoay todnnsn). HHTaio jiwcuhk) b B.<P.A. Ha Teiwy: 
«PumM Kyntmypn. C oceHH 1922 roaa ynaciByio b «Kny6e nucame/ieu». 

1923 eod 

C RHBapn flo hiojih cTapaTejibHettuie nepepa6aTbiBato luaTepnaji «Bocno- 
MUHamn o E/ioxe» b 3 TOMa «Hanaaa Bexa» (HeHanenaTaHbi: 75 neH. jihctob). 
[IlHUjy b ra3eTe «/?««».*] IlpHHHMaio ynacTHe b opramoauHH xypHana «Ee- 
ceda» (c M.ropbKHM); coTpyaHHiaio b «Eecede». 

B KOHiie okth6ph B03Bpamaiocb b Mockby. 

KoHeu roaa ycHneHHO pa6oTaio Haa MaTepHaxiOM BepcHcJwKauHH y Enoiea; 
co6Hpaio MaTepHan no phtmhkc «TpexaonbHHKOB» (MaTepnan rae-TO 3aTe- 
Pjuich). 

1924 eod 

HHTaK) ny6jiHiHbie jickuhh b Mockbc: «CmpaHa meHeu», «I1o33uh Eao- 
ko»; noBTopjiio hx b JleHHHrpaae; noTOM jickuhio o Bnoxe noBTopmo b Kne- 
Be; b KneBe *c HHTaio ny6n. nexuHio: nPunut xu3hu u coepeMeHHOcmb» (bw- 
uma 6poiuK>poit b «JIeHeu3e»); noBTopmo nexuHio o Ejioice b O-Be )Kene3HO- 
flopo)«HHKOB; HHTaio He6oji. xpyjKKy juo6HTejiefl Bnoxa 3 zieioiHH 06 o6pa3- 
hwx MHqbax y Enow, HHTaio aoicnaa o phtmhkc EnoKa b Kpyacxe no3TOB. 

CoTpyflHHHaio b *ypHane «Pocchui». 



<t>pa3a rycTo 3aiepitHyTa b pyxonHCH. 

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IlepepaSaTbiBaio «17emep6ype» e dpcuay «ru6enb cenamopmy, ynacTByio 
b opraH. 6eceaax pe>KHCcypi>i MxaTa 2ro, KacaioumxcH cthjih nocraHOBKH 
apaMbi. 

HHTaio oceHbK> 24 ro.ua neKiiHio Ha TeMy: «Xyd. udeonoeun E/ioican. 

riHiuy cTaTbio: nBocnoMunaHux o Epiocoge». 

B KOHue roaa HaiHHaio nHcaTb poMaH «MocKea». 

1925 eod 

HHTaio jieKiwio b «AxadeMuu Xydox. HayK» Ha TeMy: «IJyutKUH u Mbi». 

rinuiy CTaTbio: «M.O. repuiemoun . 

Becezibi c apTHCTaMH «.Mxama» 2ro. 

JleKUHH b KneBe (nKoMMyHucmunecKuu Uom Hcxyccmean) — Ha TeMbi: 
«Ky/ibtnypa C/ioea», «IIo33um IJyutKUHa». JieKuna b TeaTpanbHOfl CTyflHH 
«rieTpyiiiKa»: «nyiuKUH». Becejja Ha TeMy: «npo6neMa c/ioea». 

flo okth6ph ynopHO pa6oTaio Han poMaHOM «Mocxe«» h 3aKaHHHBaio ero 
(25 new. jihctob). 

OKT«6pb — npHHHM. ynacTHe b peneTHimnx «.Mxamar> 2ro.: nlJemep- 
6ype» HaeT b H0«6pe. 

riepepa6aTbiBaio «riene/i» asm «Kpyea» (H3aaHHe — oTKnajibiBaeTCH, KaK 
Bee an* MeHH b nepHOfl 1923-1926 roaw). 

1926 eod 

riHiuy an* ce6n caMoro coHHHeHHe 1) nMcmopun cmanoeneHun comoco- 
3HaK>meu dymu e nnmu noc/iednux cmo/iemuxx». CoiHHeHHe BiepHe 3aK0Hie- 
ho: CKnanbiBaio ero b nHCbMeHHbifi ctoji. 

2) riHiuy B4epHe KHHry BOcnoMHHaHHfl o UlTeflHepe. 

3) nepe.ae.naji lbifl tom «Mockbw» b apaMy. 

1927 eod 

riHiuy ycHjieHHO «Ahcbhhk». IlepepaSaTbiBaio (an* cnnpariH) apaMy 
«Mocicea»; ycHjieHHO pa6oTaio jieTOM Haa phtmom; oceHbio h 3hmoh nnuiy 
KHHry: «Phtm KaK npo6jieMa h "MedHwu BcadmtK"». Kypc o cnoBe b TeaT- 
pe Meflepxonbfla. 

K 27 roay: iHTaio flBe ny6nHHH. neKUHH b TnijwiHce h oany b th^m. «Abo- 
pue HcKyccTB». HHTaio pe<j)epaT o pHTMe y Hhkhthhoh h pe(J>epaT o Chmbo- 
jiH3Me b «XloMe ripocBemeHHH». riHiuy KHHry: «Phtmh4cckhh acecT h "Med- 
Hbiu BcadHUK"» (oKTH6pb-fleKa6pb). 

B 1928 may: 1) riHiuy KHHry «KaBKa3CKHe BneHaTJieHHH» («HBapb-(J)eB- 
panb). 2) riHiuy «rio4eMy * cran chmbojihctom» (MapT-anpejib). riHiuy CTa- 
Tbio «0 npuHyune purrwa». 3) riHiuy oiepx «ApMeHUH» (HiOHb, CaHxepn). 
4) 3anHCbiBaio b v.JjHeeHUK» YHHBepcHTeTCKHe BocnoMHHaHHa h mhcjih o 
Ka^JKopax (KanxopM, Hionb-aBrycT). 

[.flanee cneayer aCnucoK HanucaHHoeo (HenojiHbift)»] 

(UTAJIH, d>.53, on.l, en.xp.98) 
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