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The
Discovery of a Grandmother

Glimpses into the Homes and Lives of

Eight Generations of an Ipswich-Paine Family

Gathered together

by
One of the Ninth

for

The Tenth, Eleventh and Twelfth Generations

L'^ci'ia Ko6- / ^_ -.e") Ccivtev

Henry H. Carter

Newtonville, Mass.

1920

jyr KEW YO".K

PI ■" ^^r:ARY
872069

Limited Edition

rSINTED At IHE PLIMPTON PRESS, NOKWOOD, MASS., C. S. A.

TO MY SISTER, EUGENIE HALE PAINE

WITHOUT WHOSE ENCOURAGING INTEREST AND HELP

THESE GLIMPSES WOULD NOT HAVE TAKEN A PERMANENT FORM

AND IN MEMORY OF

OUR PARENTS AND SISTERS AND OF THE HOME

IT IS MY PLEASURE AND PRIVILEGE TO

OFFER THESE FAMILY RECORDS

Cbbibtmas, 1919

THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

She came into the world in 1787.
She came into my life in 1917.

In the summer of 1917 the old home of seventy years, in
Bangor, Maine, was broken up and the furnishings sent to
diverging points. Many of the books, manuscripts, and
pictures were sent to the Bangor pubhc Hbrary, which had
recently lost its all by fire.

In the course of a few weeks one of these was returned to
our family, a small book written over in faint ink. We read
and reread, with almost exciting interest, the pages written in
bygone days, by the Grandmother, Abiel Ware Paine. While
my father had said, "My mother was one of the saints of the
earth," and my mother, "Your father's mother was a remark-
able woman," we never knew her except as to name, and that
only as to the "Paine" and "Ware." Now she is one of my
most cherished possessions.

It soon became my wish that my children and their children
should own her, too, and I conceived the scheme of putting into
permanent form these jottings of hers.

This was my first thought, but when the Auto-Biography of
my father was sent me and a Journal written by him in the
thirties, when he first started his law practice of seventy years
in Bangor, my plans began to broaden. There was my father's
brother. Rev. Timothy Otis Paine of Elmwood, the man,
the scholar, the poet. There was my father's dear and intimate
cousin, Hon. Henry W. Paine of Cambridge, for many years

6 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

one of the leading lawyers of the SuflFolk Bar. Why not tell
the story of the Paine family who were born and who grew
up in the little town of Winslow, on the Kennebec, in the
sight and sound of the famous Tecomet Falls and under the
shadow of old Fort Halifax of French and Indian war-time
fame?

Later, other manuscript books were sent me by other grand-
daughters.

There was the Genealogy written and published by my
father, "The Paine Family, Ipswich Branch." Why not begin
where history began for us, in the 1600's?

The result of this questioning is this volume, whose mission,
I hope, will be to give to every one of the descendants a knowl-
edge of and an interest in the fine qualities that are theirs by
right of inheritance.

It is not a genealogy, but is the result of an effort, so fur as
the material has allowed, to visualize the lives of our early
ancestors, to restore the picture of the Grandmother's life,
and to show by the lives of her children that her influence
"carried on."

LYDIA AUGUST.\ CARTER.

Newtonville, 1918

CONTENTS

PAGE

Pabt I. From England to Winslow 11

Chapter One. From England to Ipswich 13

" Two. From Ipswich to Foxboro 21

" Three. From Foxboro to Winslow 29

Part IT. Winslow. Lemuel and Jane Warren Paine. ... 35

Chapter One. Winslow 38

" Two. Lemuel and Jane Warren Paine 42

Three. Henry W. Paine 52

" Four. Edward Augustus Paine 61

Five. Rachel Paine Pratt 63

Part m. Frederic and Abiel Ware Paine,

"The Grandmother" 65

Chapter One. Frederic and Abiel Ware Paine 67

" Two. The Grandmother's Journals 76

" Three. Stray Leaves 81

Four. The Sketch Book 94

" Five. Daily Thoughts and Occurrences 119

Six. The Recorder 132

" Seven. Some Old Letters 147

Part IV. "The Worthy Portion. The Blessed Children" 155

Chapter One. Cloverside, the Old Homestead 157

" Two. Charles Frederic

Sketch of His Life 159

Thirteen Half Dollars 161

" Three. Benjamin Crowninshield 188

Four. The Daughters 190

8 CONTENTS

PAGE

Part V. Bangor. Albert Ware and Mary Hale Paine.. 195

Chapter One. Early Life from Auto-Biography 198

The Journal 202

Two. The Country under Jackson, 1835-6 204

Three. Bangor in 1835-6 221

" Foim. The Young Man and Lawyer in 1835-6

Aspiration 236

" Five. Extracts from the Auto-Biography

Realization 245

Six. Letters 267

" Seven. Mary Hale Paine 272

Selma Ware Paine. Poems 279

Part VI. Elmwood. Timothy Otis and Agnes Howard

Paine 287

Chapter One. The Home 292

The Mother 301

Two. The Pastor 305

A Sermon 307

Three. The Scholar 311

Four. The Poet 316

" Five. Extracts from a Journal and Letters 320

Sex. Poems of the Segur 326

Part VH. The Patriots of the Family 335

ILLUSTRATIONS

The Grandmother, Abiel Ware Paine, at Sixty-one. . .Frontispiece

Drawn and framed by T. O. Paine
Paine Coat of Arms facing page 16

From water color
Abbey of St. Edmands, Bury St. Edmands. St. Mary's Church 18
Home of William Paine, Gen. I, at Ipswich 22

From wash drawing
Home of William Paine, Gen. V, at Foxboro 28

From drawing by T. O. P.
Home of Lemuel Paine. Gen. VI, at Foxboro. 30

From drawing by T. O. P.
Home of Lemuel Paine, Gen. VI, at Foxboro 32

From photograph
Pen and Ink Sketches by Asa Paine, Gen. VII, at the Age

of Twelve 34-35

From original, 1794

Old Winslow 38

Lemuel Paine, Gen. VII 42

From daguerreotype

Henry W. Paine, Gen. Vni 56

Frederic Paine at Sixty-five, Gen. VII 66

From daguerreotype
Abiel Ware Palne, at Sixty -three 72

From daguerreotype

The Old Church at Winslow 82

Rev. Thomas Adams 82

Facsijiile of Abiel Ware Paine's Sketch Book 94

Timothy's Chamber, at Cloverside 120

From drawing by T. O. P.
Cloverside, the Old Homestead 156

From drawing by T. O. P.

Charles Frederic Paine, Gen. VIII 160

From daguerreotype

10 ILLUSTRATIONS

The Home Lane facing page 170

Albert Ware Paine, at Eightt, Gen. VIII 198

Inscriptio;^ on Lexington Monument 200

Copy by A. W. P. at twelve, facsimile

The Home at 88 Court St 262

His Garden Mine of Health 266

Mart Hale Paine, at Seventy-five 272

Seliu. Ware Paine. Gen. IX 280

Timothy Otis Paine, at TniRTr-EiGHT, Gen. VIH 292

Agnes Howard, at Twenty-two 302

From daguerreotype

The Temple 312

From drawing by T. O. P.

To A Chickadee 326

Facsimile of manuscript of T. O. P. 18-12

PART I. FROM ENGLAND TO WINSLOW

Chapter One. From England to Ipswich

Two. From Ipswich to Foxboro

Three. From Foxboro to Winsiow

Illustrations

Paine Coat of Arms, from water color

Abbey of St. Edmands, Bury St. Edmands, St. Mary's Church
Home of William Paine, Gen. I, at Ipswich, from wash drawing
Home of William Paine, Gen. V, at Foxboro, from drawing by

T. O. P.
Home of Lemuel Paine, Gen. VI, at Foxboro, from drawing by

T. O. P.
Home of Lemuel Paine, Gen. VI, from photograph
Pen and Ink Sketch, by Asa Paine, Gen. VII, at the age of

twelve, from original, 1794
Lemuel Paine, Gen. VII, from daguerreotype
Henry W. Paine, Gen. VIII

CHAPTER ONE

FROM ENGLAND TO IPSWICH.
ANTE-EMIGRATION PERIOD

In 1886 my father, Albert Ware Paine, writes in his auto-
biography:

During the last eight or ten years, I interested myself largely
in hunting up my ancestry and establishing the genealogy
of our family. The work was an arduous one and one where
at the start I had nothing to start with. I knew nothing of
my family back of my own father, the 7iame of his father not
being known. But by perseverance I went my way and what
I at last accomplished is made evident by my published work,
"Paine Family, Ipswich Branch." The family was so little
known that it had no distinctive name and it was left to me to
name it, as I did, "The Ipswich Branch."

Having accomplished so much, I could not bear to have my
labor lost, and so I concluded to perpetuate it by publishing
the work, as I did (1881).

My father being by nature "a digger," when undertaking
any work, was never content not to go back to the very begin-
nings of things. So, in his genealogical researches, while he
started by seeking a more intimate acquaintance with his
immediate ancestors, he ended by going back to the Aryans,
via Scandinavians, etc. He divided his Genealogy into two
parts, the Ante-Emigration and Post-Emigration Periods.
In the latter he felt himself on sure ground, and in the former
he was very hopeful of the accuracy of his conclusions.

Passing over this general history of the human race, I begin
with what he calls "The Family Patronymic."

Part I consists almost entirely of extracts from this Gene-
alogy.

14 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

The Family Patronymic

The patronymic of the family, the surname of "Paine," in
its various forms of spelling, proves beyond a doubt its Norman
origin. In Bardsley's "History of English Surnames" a
minute history of the name is given.

Rollo or Rolf, the Northman, in the 9th century, firmly
established himself in power as Duke of Normandy and be-
came a convert to Christianity, and with his encouragement
and support the doctrines became generally received in the
villages of his dukedom. The people outside of the larger
places still held very generally to the former creeds and re-
sisted tlie innovation. So generally was this the case that to
be a "countryman" came to be merely another name for
unbeliever, so that the same word — "paganus" — came to
represent or express a two-fold meaning. Hence the word
which originally meant a dweller in the country as distinguished
from one in the city, came to be a reproach as expressive of
the idea of an enemy of tlie Christian religion, the two words
"peasant" and "pagan" being used to express a liver in the
country and a disbeliever.

A\lien William the Conqueror passed over to England a
large number of this class of citizens went with him and the
term Pagan spread over the Island.

At about the same time, the habit became prevalent of
using surnames to indicate unity or identity of family con-
nections and this word was very naturally adopted for that
purpose and became one of the most common surnames, lasting
long after its original signification hfid ceased. The name
gradually changed its form from Paganus to Pagan, Pagen,
Payen, Payne and Paine, also Payson, Py.son and others. In
Italy it took the form of "Paganini" or "Pagani." It indicates
only a common Norman descent. Bardsley writes, "At the
close of the Norman dynasty, it had threatened to become one

FROM ENGLAND TO IPSWICH 15

of the most familiar appellations in England and this while
in our dictionaries 'pagan' still represents a state of heathen-
ism, in our directories it has long been converted to the pur-
pose of Christianity and become at the baptismal font a
Christian name."

Hugh de Payne

Following close upon the Norman conquest, in the latter
part of the eleventh century, the Crusades began to rage.
The history of the first, which was composed largely of Nor-
mans imder the leadership of Robert Duke of Normandy, and
which commenced its march in the last year of that century
has a peculiar interest to the Paine race. At the termination
of this crusade, Hugh de Payne remained behind for the pur-
pose of more surely securing its grand results. For long
months he, with others, acted the part of guide for all such
pilgrims as might need aid and conduct to their journey's
end and more particularly from the crossing of the Jordan to
the city of Jerusalem. For this purpose he organized a force
adapted to the occasion and diligently attended to the work.
In company with Godfrey de St. Omer, he instituted an order
known as the "Templars of the Cross," the sole object of which
was to further the great objects of the Crusaders' mission,
by protecting the Holy Places and rendering safe the journey
of all pilgrims to the Holy Shrine. The original organization
embraced only seven others beside themselves. Starting
with this small beginning, the order soon began to extend its
limits and its power until it became the most powerful and
opulent of all organizations. Started in a.d. 1118, it continued
to exist until 1312, when it was abolished by Philip the Fair
and Pope Clement V.

To establish this Hugh de Payen as the progenitor of the
Ipswich Branch of the Paine family, my father gave very care-
ful study, made very careful deductions, and drew his con-

16 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

elusions to his own satisfaction, so that in his mind there
remained very httle doubt of his identity as the ancestor
to whom and to whose father we should turn as being the
first in written history.

In Domesday we read "Edmund, the son of Pagen, holds
of the King and Hugh liolds of him."

Domesday

When William the Conqueror became fully seated in power,
he divided his land largely among the soldiers and followers
from his native state. After this general division, he caused
an inventory and appraisal of the whole kingdom to be made,
taking account not only of the names of the parties occupant
but also of all their estates with the names of the dispossessed
owners, and the higher chiefs or barons under whom they
held. These reports were reduced to order and compiled
under the name of "The Domesday." The original com-
pilation was in 1086 and has been preserved with all the care
of Holy Writ.

Throughout this book there are a large number of in-
stances showing the holdings of Pagen (Payne) in various parts
of England. On this broad Norman plateau, every family of
"Paine" may find his ancestral home, if only he is able to
trace it out.

Coat of Arms

My father turns critically to the Coat of Arms and to the
names of William and Robert which occur so frequently
throughout the early generations, William the Conqueror and
Duke Robert being patrons of the Paynes.

Not that the Coat of Arms was that used by Hugh de Payne,
for he died before these were adopted in England, but that the
assumer was of his lineage, none other having a right to assume
his characteristics, save his heirs, these being as a sacred heir-
loom, their title alone. Some one or two centuries passed

'C LIBp'AfiY

FROM ENGLAND TO IPSWICH 17

before such Coats of Arms were adopted and very shortly after
that we find that of "Leicester and Suffollc Counties" used by
the progenitors of the Ipswich Branch then living at Market
Bosworth in the County of Leicester. Few subjects con-
nected with the early history of a family have more interest
than that of the Coat of Arms adopted by its early founders.
This not only tells of the general character or specific virtues
of the assumer or his progenitors, but furnishes the best and
most reliable evidence of family identity, especially where
direct and positive means of knowledge are wanting.

The Coat of Arms of the Paine family is that which in works
of Heraldry is known as "The Anns "of Payne of Market Bos-
worth, County of Leicester 'and of the County of Suffolk."
The family first settled in Leicester and afterwards removed
to Suffolk from whence the original American ancestor emi-
grated bringing with him for use, this highly prized armorial
ensign.

The illustration given here was taken from a water color.
The colors are: the three "martlets sable," black; the "crest"
or wolf's head, azure; the border and belt, red; the shield,
silver; the "bezants" or coins and "mascles," gold.
In Burke's Encyclopaedia is this description:
" Argent,' on a fesse,^ engrailed,' gules.* Between three
martlets* sable,^ as many mascles,' or,** all within a bordure'

' "Argent," silver, referring to the shield, purity.

^ "Fesse," the belt of the knight.

' "Engrailed," indented or wavy edges, denoting that the honor was ob-
tained with difficulty.

* "Gules," red, referring to the belt, courage.

' "Martlets," birds of a swallow kind without feet, denoting a younger son
having no landed inheritance.

' "Sable," black, denoting antiquity of lineage.

' "Mascles," the three rhombs of lozenge forms in the middle of the belt,
signifying meshes of a net; fishing privileges.

' "Or," gold, goodness.

' "Bordure," an additional honor or mark of cadency distinguishing one
branch from another.

18 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRAXDMOTHER

of the second,' bezantee,'^ crest, a wolf's head erazed,*
azure ■* charged with five bezants,^ salterwise.' "

The Family Lineage

The first definite information of the family is that which is
found in the " Visitation of Suffolk County," a work compiled
in 1561. The family is described in this work as well as by
Gage in his "History of Suffolk County" as resident in Leicester-
shire upon the famous Field of Bosworth where the last great
battle of Roses was fought. The more accurate name is Market
Bosworth, near the central point of the Kingdom, it being one
of the places where Pagen of Domesday had land. The identity
of lineage is made certain by the continued use of the Coat
of Arms by the family at Bosworth and afterwards in Suffolk
County and by the original American families for two gener-
ations after emigration.

Beginning with the history of the family as presented in the
"Visitation," we have

Gen. I Sir Thomas Payne, Knight of Market Bosworth:
14—?

Gen. II Edmund of Bosworth, the youngest son of Sir
Thomas: 1540

Gen. Ill William Payne, the eldest son and heir of Edmund:
15—?

' "Second," of the second color named red.

' "Bezantee," sprinkled with round pieces of gold. Said to indicate the
coins of Byzantium or Constantinople, and that they had been to the Crusades
and ransomed.

' "Erazed," when the head is torn from the body and presenting at the
neck a rough or ragged appearance instead of straight, showing strength as
against skill with sword.

* "Azure," blue, truth and fidelity.

' "Bezants," substantive of bezantee, gold coins.

^ "Salterwise," arranged in the form of a cross, X, signifying Crusade
service .

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FROM ENGLAND TO IPSWICH 19

[He removed to Suffolk County and took up his resi-
dence in Hengrave and is known as Payne of Hen-
grave, a man of much note and importance in his
day, being in the service of Edward Stafford, Duke
of Buckingham, as baiHff of his Manor of Hengrave J

Gen. IV Anthony Paine, Gentleman, son of William of
Hengrave :

[He lived at St. Edmunds Bury, one of the shires
and principal town of Suffolk County and had the
Manor of Newton settled on him by his brother
Henry. He died and was buried at Nowton in
1608.2

Gen. V William Paine, son of Anthony :

[He was baptized at St. Mary's church in 1565 and
lived in Nowton. He inherited or had settled on
him the Manor of Nowton, the same which Henry,
the uncle, had bought of Henry VIII belonging to
the dissolved monastery of St. Edmunds. This
made him Lord of the Manor. The public records
show that William Paine, sometime Lord of the
Manor, was buried, Nov. 21, 1648 and must have
been of the age of 83 years. ]

Pages 51-54 of Paine Genealogy are devoted to statements
in proof of this fact that this William Paine of Nowton is the
father of the William Paine who was born in 1598-9 and who
emigrated to America in 1635. My father closes this part
of his studies with these words:

As already remarked their (William and Robert) father
whosoever he may have been, must have been a grandson of
William Paine of Hengrave who was the first and only person
who introduced the Coat of Arms from Leicester County into
Suffolk and was thus necessarily the great-grandfather of
William and Robert of Ipswich.

20 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

His paternity being thus, presumably, established, we have
an unbroken line of descent from Sir Thomas Payne, Knight of
Market Bosworth about the year 1400 down to the emigration,
with the further presumption in favor of the line extending
back to embrace the Great Templar Hugh de Payne of crusade
fame of the eleventh century and his father the distinguished
"Pagen" of Domesday.

CHAPTER TWO

FROM IPSWICH TO FOXBORO. POST-EMIGRATION
PERIOD OR AMERICAN HISTORY OF THE
FAMILY

Generation I

William Paine was born in Suffolk County, England, in
1598-9, probably in the Parish of Nowton. He was, pre-
sumably, the son of William Paine, Lord of the Manor of that
place. He came to America at the age of 37 years in the
ship Increase, Robert Lee Master, which sailed from London
in April, 1635. There came with him, his wife Ann and five
children, the oldest eleven years and the youngest eight weeks.

They landed at Boston and immediately took up their resi-
dence in Watertown. He formed one of the "earliest list
of the inhabitants" "to whom was allotted a grant of the
Great Dividends to the freeman and all the townsmen there
inhabiting, being 120 in number." To each of them was as-
signed 70 acres. His location was in the neighborhood of the
present grounds of Mt. Auburn, on the "road to the pond,"
present Washington St., about one half mile west of Fresh
Pond.

He soon became known as a large landholder and continued
through life to be a large owner of property.

Having the prestige not only of good birth but of inherited
wealth, with the additional characteristic of integrity and
good judgment, he was soon selected for the performance of
public duties and the holding of important trusts. His an-
cestors in the old country had been persons of distinction and
importance through a succession of generations.

Watertown soon after his settlement there, having become

22 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

surcharged with inhabitants, removals were found necessary
and among those who sought new homes in other places, Wil-
liam Paine was one.

On July 4, 1639, he with his brother Robert procured from
the legislature a grant of land at Ipswich "with leave to settle
a village there." Here he resided for sixteen years aiding
largely in building up the village and town. May 13, 1640
he was admitted freeman and endowed with all the privileges
of citizenship.

His name is found all through Legislative records of the
colony, ever after, during the rest of his life. He was appointed
to establish limits of Northani (Dover) of Hampton and Col-
chester, of "Excetter and Hampton," to settle difficulties at
Hampton, to settle the lines of Dover, Exeter, of Hampton
and Salisbury.

In 1645 he with others was incorporated into a company
known as "Free Adventurers," for the purpose of advancing
the .settlement of Western Massachusetts, a work of great
importance.

This enterprise was mentioned frequently in Legislative
acts, and was liberally endowed. At its beginning, a grant
was made to the Company of a township of land "about 50
miles west of Springfield" near Fort Aurania, on the Hudson
river and afterwards during his life the attention of the Legis-
lature was often favorably called to the enterprise. The
Dutch then held possession of the river and fort, and one of the
last acts of William Paine's life, was to petition the Legislature
to open negotiations with the Dutch government, with a view
to securing the free navigation of the river to New York.

His name is constantly associated with the names of Gov-
ernors Dudley and Winthrop, especially with the younger
Winthrop, in connection with various works of public improve-
ment and enterprise. When a work of importance was to be
done, he seemed to have been the Governor's main support.

THE NEW voF^j.
PUBLIC LIB RAR/

FROM IPSWICH TO FOXBORO 23

He owned five sixths of the old stone dam liuilt at the head
of tide waters in Watertown, a corn mill being first built there
and later a "fulling mill." He was largely interested in the
Lynn Iron Works, the first iron works ever established in
America, known as "Hammersmith"; in the Iron Mine Works
of Braintree, of New Haven, the Sturbridge Black Lead Mines,
originally discovered by the Indians who used the products
to paint their faces. There is evidence that he was interested
in ship building as at the time of his death he was part owner
of five ships. He was an extensive owner of lands, among
other properties being that of Thompson's Island in Boston
Harbor, the present location of the Farm School. This he
gave to his son John at the time of his marriage to Sarah
Parker. The deed that records this, records also an assign-
ment or sale of 1500 pounds of stock of Piscataqua (Ports-
mouth). The records show also ownership of lots in Toi>sfield,
Salem, a mill privilege in Exeter and lands in Boston with
mention of "the houses thereon."

But it was not solely as an extensive owner of property that
William Paine was distinguished. He had important traits
of character which tended to make him a valuable member of
society and to be regarded with high esteem in the community.
He was a sincere professor of religion and eminently a man of
a high moral standard. His property evidently large in amount
was ever treated as a means of advancing the public weal and
it would seem that in his investments he had an eye to that
use of it that would do the most good.

During the last five or six years of his life he was an active
merchant of Boston having a large credit and exercising his
trade on a very extensive scale. Judging from the inventory
of his estate, he must have carried an immense stock of goods
of till conceivable varieties that the wants of a new community
could possibly demand. His credit sheet among the needy
classes was found very extensive and liberal.

24 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

He was in advance of his age in matters of public improve-
ment and enterprise. One of the first objects of his ambition
as a citizen of the "new world" was the advancement of edu-
cation among the common people. He and his brother Robert
were two of the foremost and most active of a small number
of men who, at that early day, took measures to establish and
endow a Free School at Ipswich. This has ever continued to
exist and is doing its work upon the fund which two hundred
and twenty or thirty years ago (about 1660) they provided for
the purpose, the income actually received during 1879 being
$330.

William Paine died Oct. 10, 1660.

In his will he made a becjuest to the school, of a lot of land
known as "Jeffries Neck" at the mouth of the Ipswich river
which he devised to the foeffees of the school to be held inalien-
able, forever, "not to be sold or wasted." Further he made a
donation of 20 pounds to Harvard College, small donations to
the several clergj'men, eight in number, settled over churches
in Boston, Watertown, Ipswich, Sudbury, Chelmsford, and
Rowley. 1500 pounds to his daughter Hannah Appleton's
children, certain sums to his wife and other relatives and all
the remainder to his son John, after providing "that if my
executors shall see just cause for some pious use and necessary
work to give 100 pounds, they shall have power to take it out
of my estate." The will has against his name a seal of wax
with the impression of a "wolf rampant."

The place of burial is not known with certainty, but the
city records of Boston disclose the fact that William Paine's
grave is in the Granary Cemetery and following the directions
given, we find it directly under the back window of the Athe-
naeum building, the stone with the single inscription "Payne"
upon it, forming a part or being wrought into the basement wall
of the building itself. "This, presumably, is the grave of the
original ancestor of the Ipswich Branch, but it may not be so."

FROM IPSWICH TO FOXBORO 25

The uniform spelling of his name not only in his will but in
his correspondence was the same as now used by his family,
"Paine."

Generation II

John Paine, son of William, gen. I, was born in England in
1632, and at the age of three years came to America with his
father, living with him at Watertown and Ipswich. He mar-
ried Sarah Parker in 1659 and took up his residence in Boston.
He continued the various enterprises in which his father was
engaged at death, especially his mills at Watertown, Iron
Works at Lynn, trade at Boston and Portsmouth and that of
the "Free Adventurers" in Western Massachusetts. He was
also interested in business at Ipswich, at Dover and Exeter.
He appears to have been a man of great business capacity and
enterprise.

Just before his father's death, the Legislature had upon
petition, ordered negotiations entered into with the Dutch
government for the purpose of securing the free navigation of
the Hudson river by Fort Aurania and thence to the ocean.
Soon after his father's death John appeared at New York
for that purpose and also to adjust the southern boundary of
the colony. The Dutch having been conquered at home,
they evacuated New York and the English succeeded to the
right of free navigation.

In recognition "of the great pains taken by him" grants of
land were made to him by the Legislature at four different
times amounting to many acres in extent, one of 4000 being
in consideration of "the great services in running out our south-
ern line." The first grant was made on condition "that he
should settle twenty families on the territory and then procure
and maintain a Godly and Orthodox ministry there."

As a wedding gift, Richard Parker, the father of his wife,
had conveyed to him a tract of land of about 700 acres at the

26 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

north end of Prudence Island situated in Narragansett bay
near Providence, R. I. An intimacy had grown up between
Gov. Lovelace of New York and John which led the latter
to aid in the erection of Fort James "at the point of land
formed by the Hudson river and Sound" at or near the spot
now known as "Bowling Green." He advanced the necessary
means out of his own private resources and so far won the favor
of the Governor and the Duke of York afterwards King James
II, that a patent of "confirmation" was made to him by them
of the island named, to be held in fee forever as a Free Manor
by the name of "Sophy Manor." The patent was made
subject to the annual quit-rent of "two barrels of syder and
six couple of capons," this iu August, 1072. The following
week "Paine" was made Governor of the Island for life with
a council to be chosen from the inhabitants. One article was
that of religious freedom. On account of further payments
towards finishing the fort, he was released from the quit-rent
and the island relieved from taxes. The island was thus
held by him in fee and as an absolutely independent state,
the smallest in America, being about six miles long and one
broad. The "patent" and "commission" thus granted are
now on file in manuscript in the Capitol at Albany.

His government and authority were of short continuance.
His grant was alleged to conflict with a previous one made by
the celebrated Indian Chief Canonicus in 1638 to Roger
Williams and Gov. Winthrop and his efforts to exercise author-
ity aroused the spirit of the colony. He was arrested and
thrown into prison, but released on bail. In the Court of
Trials he was indicted under the law of 1658 for unlawfully
attempting to bring in a foreign jurisdiction for "intrusion"
for setting up a new government within the limits of a former
one without due authority. In this emergency he appealed
to the Governor but he had no power to stay the proceedings
and Mr. Paine was put on trial before the jury. He argued

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his own case in writing but it was unavailing and he was found
guilty. Here the matter stopped, he retiring from the con-
flict surrendering his position and claim and nothing further
was done in the matter. The written argument thus offered
and his letter to the Governor stamped with his seal are now
on file among the manu.script documents preserved at the
State Capitol at Albany. The argument is ingenious and
lawyer-like. (For the argument and these documents see
Paine Genealogy.)

He is said to have died at sea in 1675. Apparently, before
his death he was unfortunate in business and lost his property,
but there is no certainty of this. He left no will and no ad-
ministration was taken out on the estate.

Generation HI

William Paine, only son of John, gen. II, was probably
born in Boston. The records give us only his birth in 1664,
March 15; his marriage to Ruth Grover in 1691; his removal
to IMalden where he lived during his manhood; and his death,
April 14, 1741 at the age of 77.

Generation IV

William Paine, oldest son of William Paine, gen. Ill, was
born in Maiden in 1692, married his first wife Tabitha Waite,
1717, and died 1784 at the age of 92 years although tradition
grants him 105 years. "He was a man of great vigor of mind,
strong constitution, obstinate and determined and a devoted
friend of freedom." He moved to Norton after the birth of
four children into that part which later was incorporated into
the town of Mansfield.

An anecdote of him gives a picture of the state of the country
which was new and infested with wild animals.

It is said that hearing in the night a pack of wolves, he
opened the window and fired "his king's arm" into their midst.

28 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

In the morning fourteen dead wolves were found on the prem-
ises. It is not claimed that his one shot killed this number
but that the wounded wolves in their rage added to the number.

In the "Grandmother's Sketch Book" is this entry:

November 16 ISJfS. Anecdote of great, great Grandfather.

One anecdote of the 'former William' is thought to be
worthy a place in this Book. In early life he removed from
Maiden to the town of Norton in Bristol county, Old Colony —
where his children were born. This town is about thirty-five
miles from Boston. At the commencement of the revolution,
when the American army under Gen. Washington was stationed
at Roxbury and tlic royal troops were besieged in the City of
Boston, the old man then on the verge of his ninetieth year
walked in one day from his home in Norton to the American
camp. His erect and venerable form, his hair as white as snow
— his firm step, and clear and heavy voice, attracted general
attention. He was introduced to Gen. Washington and .staff.
'Well ' said the Gen. 'Mr. Paine what brought you here?
What good do you expect to accomplish?' 'Gen.' said the old
man 'I have a number of Grandchildren in your army, and I
have come here to exhort and animate them to be true men —
do their duty and resist at the risk of their lives the oppressor
of their country.'

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Generation V

William Paine oldest son of William, gen. IV, was born in
Maiden in 1720, moved to Foxboro and married Mary Bull
of Foxboro, 1743. He died at the age of 94 in 1810 having
lived with his wife for 67 years.

He was a man of astonishing industry and perseverance,
of great firmness and independence, zealous in religious matters
and loyal to the cause of freedom. With his aged father and
two or three of his sons, he volunteered to march to Boston
at the outbreak of the war. His wife is represented as a " woman
of remarkable strength of mind and body, strong in her friend-
ships, and strong in her prejudices, a very good woman and
very useful in the neighborhood. She was looked up to as
a woman of superior judgment, but somewhat of a tyrant,
of great industry and a great reader. Her personal appearance
was prepossessing and impressive, and her eyes brilliant and
sparkling to the last."

Many stories are told of the husband which go to characterize
him as a member of society. When a bass-viol was introduced
into the choir of the church where he attended he would go out
whenever it was played. "He would not sit still and hear the
fiddle scraped in the house of God." It was related of him that
he once bought a farm while the Continental currency was in
circulation and gave his notes payable in it. When his notes
matured, the bills had become almost worthless. Still he kept
his promise " to the letter " and paid as he agreed. " He eyed the
hand of Providence in the depreciation of the paper money."

30 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

"He did more," writes a correspondent, "with his own hands
to make tlie wilderness blossom as the rose, than any other man
in town." He continued work till within a few days of his
death, at the age of 94.

Generation VI

Lemuel Paine, fourth child and third .son of William
Paine, gen. V, was born in 1748, married Rachel Carpenter
of Foxboro and died in Foxboro in 1794. He .served in the
Revolutionary War.

The most interesting record of him is that of the two un-
married sisters, Jerusha and Hannah Paine.

They died at the ages of 91 and 90. " Though within an
hour's ride of Boston by rail, neither of them ever enjoyed
a sight of the city." "Aunt Jerusha" and "Aunt Hannah"
will never be forgotten during the life of the longest liver of
their day for they were famed for their industry and all Christian
graces.

Generation VH

Four sons of Lemuel, Gen. VI, born in Foxboro :
Lemuel, born 1777, m, Jane Warren of Foxboro, moved to

Winslow, Maine, 1805, and died in 1852.
Otis, born in 1779, time of death not known.
Asa, born 1781, died at 13 years of age, 1794.
Frederic, born 1785, m, Abiel W'are of Wrentham ["the
Grandmother" of this book], moved to Winslow in 1809
and died 1857.
In the Grandmother's "Daily Thoughts" is this entry:
"May 30, 1850. Received a letter from Timothy [her
son] at Foxboro, he is happy and flitting about among the
friends and relatives at a spry rate, over the ancient fields
and woods, looking at the old stumps and ever and anon in to
an old barrel of cast off letters in an humble garret and getting

HOME OF LEMUEL PAINE. FOXBOROUGH
About 1770

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his dinner just where he chances to light. How well cal-
culated for happiness in every state, let it come iphere and how
it icill!"

There were two Paine homes in Foxboro, that of the great-
grandfather, William, gen. V, and that of the grandfather,
Lemuel, gen VI. During the visit mentioned in the note,
Timothy Otis Paine, gen. VIII, made a copy in India ink of
the original sketch of the old house, built either in 1769 or 1770.

Of the home of Lemuel there are two photographs, one
having been taken in 188'i, the other from a sketch by T. O. P.
in 1850, giving a totally different view of the hou.se. Details
are given on the margins. There is the old ell down which the
sons used to slide, there is tlie old well sweej). Foolish Hill in
the distance, the trees, the old buffet, etc.

The "old Aunts" lived for over eighty years in the old house
" and we know that it was ' new ' when Aunt Hannah was seven
years old."

The first recorded notice we have of Otis is the following
covenant, 1797. The father died in 1794.

A ]\Iemorandum of An Agreement Made Between the
W^ Rachel Pain Guardien to Otis Pain & Otis Pain of Fox-
borough on the one part & Samuel W Everett of Dorchester
on the other part. Witncsseth.

That Otis Pain with the free and full Consent of S'^ Guardien
Rachel Pain Covenents and agrees to Live with the S"* Samuel
W Everett as an Apprentice till He Shall arrive to the Age of
twenty one Years. During which time he will Behave Himself
as the Apprentice ought to do.

And the S"^ Samuel W Everett on His part Covenents and
Agrees to Learn the S** Otis Pain the trade of a House Wright
and to Provide him suitable Meat, Drink, Washing and Lodg-
ing for S** Apprentice in sickness and Health during the Term
and Pay all Taxes which may be assessed on the Apprentices,
and in Case the Apprentice shall be sick to pay for Doctiring
to the Amount of thirty dollars and no more if the same shall
be necessary and also to find S** Apprentice suitable Cloathing

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During S** Term and at the expiration of S'' Term to — S"*
Apprentice with one Good Suit of Apparel for all parts of his
body and his other Every Day Cloathing.

To the Performance of, Wee bind our Selves by these
Present, this Eight Day of April 1797.

(Signed) Rachel Paine

Sam'l W Everett.
Witnesses present
(signed)

Lemuel Paine.

Lemuel Paine was the oldest son of Rachel, widow of Lemuel
Paine, gen. VL Two months later Rachel Paine married
Deacon Isaac Pratt of Wrentham. They had a daughter,
Eunice Pratt, who married Willard Plimpton. Also a daughter
Amanda, who is mentioned in the Journals and Letters. Rachel
appears in these as Grandmother Pratt, not as Paine.

Of Otis, Grandmother writes in 1848:

. . . Also your Uncle Lemuel has given me a sketch of
your Uncle Otis which you will like to hear. Otis from his
earliest boyhood, manifested a great mechanical skill and
ingenuity — in his boyhood he was the inventor of several
mechanical tools. He obtained several patents. In 1814,
he left Massachusetts to seek his fortune in the South. He
first went to Maryland to put in operation his machine for
sawing shingles. About a year after his departure a vague
report came to his friends in Mass. that he married soon after
he located himself in Maryland — that his wife bore him twin
sons — that working in the water regulating his patented
mill, he took a violent cold and after an illness of a week,
died. This is all his friends and relatives have heard respect-
ing him since he left his native land.

He was said to have been quite intimately connected with
Robert Fulton in the work of perfecting inventions for the

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application of steam power to machinery. The last that was
ever heard from him was under date of Jan. 1, 1816, when he
speaks of his invention of a "steam battery" which with one
Col. Hatch he "went to Washington with and which met the
approbation of Commodores Decatur, Barney and Perry and
that the celebrated Fulton also a]}i)roved of it, etc. etc."

He exhibited "rare traits" in the line of literature and
published in 1813, a work with title "True and Infernal Friend-
ship" containing 176 pages 12 mo. being a .severe satire in
neat pentameter verse, consisting of an allegory in which the
serpent plays a conspicuous part, overcoming Eve and her
spouse in the garden.

Otis's love of mechanics and working with water crafts
reappears remarkably in his nephew Charles Paine, of whom
we shall read much.

The following letter was written by a nephew of Otis,
Timothy Otis Paine, the fourth son of the Grandmother,
and shows not only the interest the younger generation had in
the uncles but also in the old place at Foxboro.

Elmwood, Mass., Oct. 28, 1877

Bro. Albert

'Parterres' you will find in Otis's poem. My childhood
memory has it that Uncle makes this plural pronounced
par-ter-res. Please inform me by citing one or more lines on
a postal.

The very ground of these i)arterres I rambled over in 1849.
In front is Otis's home. His window looked out upon the
enchanted ground. Eliza's home is on the left and in sight
of the rambles. [A pencil sketch follows.] This sketch is
from my 1849 memory and mu.st be all out of drawing, but in
general it must also be correct. Aunt Hannah walked with
me up the beautiful region back of the house. As she looked
about her and pointed indefinitely around, she said, 'Otis
thought a great deal of this place.' A few trees were scattered
over the ground. A half remembered little brook wandered

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o\-er it. I vividly remember a bright firecoal bird on a tree
never one like it. He would look up and see a beautiful house
which his hands were ornamenting, outside of agreement,
because his bride was to live in it. I found the place of his
shingle mill (of Otis's) and the dam in ruins like his life.

Bro. Timo.

... It is said that an Indian having once killed a deer
on Foolish Hill would never afterwards hunt elsewhere, also
a man losing his way on it, called it Foolish Hill, in vexation.
These two origins of the name were given me by more tlian
one, by father, I think for one.

Uncle Lemuel told me of who would cut trees nearly

off on Foolish Hill all day and near evening cut one at the top
and fell it against the others so that all would go down together
and then shout loud enough to be heard all over Foxboro.
Also of Uncle Asa's climbing a sycamore 100 ft. high, by an
open space, to get at a woodpecker's nest in the top. Uncle
L. lay on his back on the ground for he could not move for fear.

Timo.

The "Uncle Asa" referred to in this letter was the little
son who died at the age of thirteen. I have a pen and ink draw-
ing very similar in character to the samplers of the grand-
mothers of that day.

" Wrote by Asa Paine, at the age of twelve years, Foxborough

1794."
There are many birds of all sizes, the .schoolhouse, the church,
the mansion and various riddles for those inclined to guess
them. Connecting this with the story of the woodpecker's
nest, we can't be far wrong in giving to him a love of nature
and a power with the artist's pen which later came out so
prominently in the Timothy Otis Paine, and like the first Otis,
the second Otis had the power of putting this love into verse.

In the remaining chapters of this book, we shall come into
intimate touch with the other two brothers, Lemuel and Fred-
eric, with their families and with their homes in Winslow in
the "Province of Maine," with Generations VII and VIII.

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PART II. WINSLOW. LEMUEL PAINE.

Chapter One. Winslow

" Two. Lemuel and Jane Warren Paine

" Three. Henry W. Paine

" Four. Edward Augustus Paine.

Five. Rachel Paine Pratt.

Iliustrations

Old Winslow

Lemuel Paine, Gen. VII, from daguerreotype

Henry W. Paine, Gen. VIII

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Throughout the Journals of the Grandmother appears the
name of Lemuel Paine, or, as he is often called. Uncle Paine,
or Uncle Lemuel, also Esq. Paine. As a lecturer on Temper-
ance in a home gathering, he is Uncle Paine; as the leader in
a large donation party, he is the Esq.; and as the friendly
Uncle to whom the absent nephew writes of the affairs of
Bangor, he is Uncle Lemuel.

He was the pioneer of the family, leaving Foxboro, the
home of three generations, to seek his fortune in the Province
of Maine. Attracted, perhaps, as is suggested by his grand-
son, by the splendid waterways, the falls, the streams, the
large rivers which he found at Winslow, he made that place
his home. To this he brought his young wife, Jane Warren,
in 1807, making the whole journey in a sleigh.

Business must have taken him to Winslow in 1802, for there
is a letter written by his brother Otis, April 14, 1802, addressed
to " Lemuel Paine, Winslow, Province Maine." This was in
reply to one received by him, written March 11. Otis wished
boards and shingles.

His younger brother Frederic made a home with him for
a year or two, when he, too, returned to Foxboro, to bring back,
in 1809, a wife, Abiel Ware Paine of Wrentham.

In 1860 Jane Warren Paine, the last of the four to go, died
after a life of fifty-five years in Winslow.

Descendants of both families. Generations IX, X, XI,
still Uve in the old home town. (See genealogical table,
pages 65 and 66.)

CHAPTER ONE
WINSLOW

WiNSLOW is a little town situated on the Kennebec, at its
confluence with the Sebasticook. It was incorporated in 1771
and named for the British General, John Winslow, and included
the country which is now Waterville. In 1754 eleven families
had built their cabins there. It was also in 1754 that Fort
Halifax was built on a point of land between the two rivers,
under the direction of Shirley, the British Governor of Massa-
chusetts.

This fort was one of a hne of forts on the Kennebec built
for the protection of the English against the Indians and
French, but it was never attacked by either party. The
fortifications consisted of five houses and two palisades. One
of the block houses still stands and bears the name of Fort
Halifax.

The first town meeting was held in the Fort, April 26, 1771.

In the original naming of the fort there was some ceremony,
and a complimentary inscription in Latin was placed upon it:

"For the benefit of the Massachusetts Province, William
Shirley, her Governor, under the auspices of the most noble
George Duck, Earl of Halifax, the highly distinguished friend
and patron of the British Provinces, has reared this fortress,
Sept. 3, A.D. 1754."

To the restoration of Fort Halifax with its various buildings,
my uncle, Timothy Otis Paine, gave many months of close
study. Beginning in 1852, he continued his investigations
and his "diggings" during many years. I have the record of
one of these in a letter written by my father to me, in 1891 :

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WINSLOW

This fort was one of a line of forts on the Kennebec built
for the protection of the English against the Indians and
French, but it was never attacked by either party. The
fortifications consisted of five houses and two palisades. One
of the block houses still stands and bears the name of Fort
HaUfax.

The first town meeting was held in the Fort, April 26, 1771.

In the original naming of the fort there was some ceremony,
and a complimentary inscription in Latin was placed upon it:

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llorii/i/r, Suruhiy I'M. Juik' I It/UI .
Mv )>KAi{ (>. Munwv t,h<; pa«t w<T<tk, I Ji;i.v<: .I'j f;).r
'JfviaU'd fro/ri my u>,ii:il \>r,<fi\oi' aw t/) hh/tMu:*: a day to ol,fi<;r
U/;iii j/r()f'-v-,i')n;i,l wirk ;u]') in'lul;"- in .-i lilllc [)riv;i,l<- |)l<-;(.->ijr<;.
\\i-,i.nui!, t.tiut. t.h<: HiHt,on';iJ -'»<i'-ly of A ur/rj :■(),», wen: .-ilirdil, t.o
vihit. Ui'- r<-ffi;>ijiH of '<l'l I'ort \\;i\\1;f/. ut. ijiy fiii,f,iv<r Wi/iHlow,
I ut, (jufi: v,rrjt<- I{;o 'li//iotli/ :ifi'l li'- ;i(, tiwi: ;w'<-|/1''l lli<r
ilij;)IJon anrJ wroU; Jn<; Uiuf, Jxt htiouM of 'oiirv/- atUtiid l.li<;
iiii-<-liiiii. So on VVc'lrKrwJjiy I I'-ft. ii<>tii<- ;iri'i w-nt ov<r to my
j.^'Kj'i oW hor>j(; wlif.rt- Tirno m<-t, i/i': jjikI w<- -.[cril i1j<- <Jay
U,fit:\.h<T. 'J }i«; S*j*,'i«ty, liowfivcr, faii^'l lo "K't it- <:nj/a>^<>
m<rnf., fiiivinj.' wittioijf. luA'ifj: U> u>if v(»hi,JI to (/'(■it.j><jn<; t,Ji<-ir
viHit, a-i <i,n\A:!rn>U>U-<i. Huf. f.fia), 'Ji'l riot, <:hang<T our vi<-w;-„
VV'- •(><-nf !}/<• 'iay mo-.t. of it in vihif.inj^ t.tx: ■nUA-.n-A r'-ut;y'nt: of
t)i<t o)<J fort. ori'J tfnjw ;;r*rw wiw;r f.lian l><rfor<-. 'limo wif.}i liix
-jjafj'r in'Jiili/'-'i a Ion;/ tirnft in 'li;/;/injf up tli<- cirtli an'J t.liijH
\i,<:>.UA \,iirU<)ti'. of t.hft old i-tilu.\,\hhii)>-iil. iUil it. wa« v<rry
'mU:rcM\AUV, and <:ii\<>y:>\>\>- f'n /oyvif tr, t^- tJ)<;r<t wifji on<; who
kn<rw -ni) mij'.li al<oiit, t.h'r old fort, and it.;i Hurroundin;/:-.. I'y
hJH aid v/<- found and vi:iit/:r] tli<- v,<tII from wliioli a)mo>.t I. /'J
y-ar-, a;.'o t.hc ;yjldi':r-. of t.lii- fort dr'v,' tti'ir drinkinj/ wat.<'r,
the «arn<; w<;ll fK;i;i;? now in good ojd<r, i-.ujj/^lying t.Jx- family
and a larg<r rrr'rw of vr'orkrn<-n and ii<iin>:h wit.li tixtir daily HUjijily
of wat>:r, all \>v'iik<A up v/it.}) fix; »a/fi« brirk unJ)arm<-d an/j
undi«t,ijrU;d. Ma,ny o»,h«-r antiqiiitiK^ v/<-r<- fourjd and '•«-
amin'-d with iiiU;r<rf>t.

Ill H<rj)t/'m(»':r, I8f/;i, faOi'rr fn<-t. a <\f\fiiii-iu>u from i.\ii- Main/:
Hij5t/;rif:al S'K.-i/rt.y at. t.h'r fort, and r<-\><>rf.'; U> "Timo" t.fx-
iitU^ntniiiiit, <rv<-nt,>i of t.h<t t.wo <iayH' visit., ,\jKiin h<; --hov/:-, hiit
\uU:T<^n\. ill a l'df,<rr wniU^n Ui iin: in IJKi.'i, The old hl(y;k
hoiji>«j }ia/J Jxi«rn f^ll<-/i till'. Fort if.i«<df, an <rrror whi<;h faUxrr
hit»ten«J f/j 'orrc/rt, throiij^h tfic pre»»,

"InyiUfiUi of U;intJ f,h<; /'V/r<, as thfi f>afxrr» riiitntmnt it,
it i* only lh«; oiilifyni of th/; fort,, wii'u:\i wa)» \in:n.U-A h.\/i>iil

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half a mile distant, on the top of Fort Hill, the present locality
of the Winslow Cemetery, in the midst of whose grass, your
Uncle Timothy by nmch labor at digging found the remnants
of the outlines of the erection and the ashes and coal dust
of the fireplace."

The Church

Second only to the Fort, comes the Ciiurch of Winslow,
for on this Church as a foundation was built the family char-
acter.

On June seventeenth of this year, 1919, was celebrated the
one hundredth anniversary of the organization known at first
as "The Female Society of AVinslow for the Sui)i)ort of the
Gospel." Objection was raised to the adjective "Female"
as being immodest, so it was later changed to "Ladies'."

The annual June meeting has never been omitted. There
was a charter membersliip of seventeen with dues of one dollar.
There are now about sixty members and the dues may be as
small as twenty-five cents.

The founder of this society was the "Grandmother, Abiel
Ware Paine." After her family cares permitted, she became
the President and continued in this office for fourteen years.
This year one of her great-granddaughters, Mrs. Carrie Stratton
Howard, was elected President and her young daughter is a
member.

The building itself was erected in 1796 by the town and the
town meetings were held in a sort of unfinished attic.

Of the illustration, a Winslow cousin writes:

"The Fort is, of course, only a fragment, being a block
house which stood at one corner. The mill was built about
ISli, now gone. The covered bridge must have been built
in "3'2-4 and went down river in Dec. 1901. Mr. Joseph
Eaton owned the bridge antl sold it to the town. His store
is at the left of the bridge and the post-oflice can be seen at
the end of it. The railroad bridge was built, the first wooden
one about ISo'i."

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I fancy that I can see the old homestead through the trees,
on the hill.

In the Journal of T. O. Paine occurs this, written in 1854:
■"There have been three Bridges across the Sebasticook.
The first one was built after and near Oct. 1799. This one
went off in the winter freshet of Feb. 1S07. The next built
181^. went off m the Great Freshet of May •2'J, 1S32. The
3d was built 1834 and is still standing (1854). The first and
second were not covered, the last is covered. The first was
free, the other two toll bridges. Mr. Richard Thomas paid
§600 towards the first. Father says that there was a fourth
bridge, between lSl-2 b ISSi."

CHAPTER TWO

LEMUEL PAINE

Lemuel Paine, gen. VII, oldest son of Lemuel Paine, gen.
VI, was born in Foxboro, Dec. 2, 1777; married Nov. 22,
1805, Jane Thomp.son Warren, the daughter of Judge Warren
of Foxboro and niece of General Joseph Warren of Bunker
Hill fame.

It is a source of great regret that none of his journals and
only a very few of his letters have been preserved, for he was
a man of great ability and of a very unicjue pcr.sonality.

For the following general testimony of his character, we are
indebted to the "Collections of the Maine Historical Society."

The Early La\vi'ers of Lincoln and Kennebec
Counties

Lemuel Paine was contemporary with Mr. Timothy Bou-
telle, the Waterville Atty., but beginning later. He was a
graduate of Brown University in the class of 1803. He was a
native of Massachusetts, read law at Waterville with Mr.,
subsequently General, Ripley and opened an office in Winslow.
For several years he had a successful, though from his location,
not a very extensive practice.

Mr. Paine was possessed of a good intellect and great
purity of moral character. He had a taste for agriculture
and became the owner of a farm which he employed himself in
cultivating. Finding this occupation more agreeable and
congenial to his tastes and disposition than his legal avocations,
he gradually retired from the bar and devoted himself wholly
to his farm, which he never abandoned. He lived to an ad-

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vanced age in the town of his adoption, surrounded and re-
spected by a numerous circle of friends whose good will and
affection he ever enjoyed. He was chosen Elector of President
in 1813.

We would add that Mr. Paine was distinguished as a clas-
sical scholar. After his retirement from the bar he indulged
his taste and employed much of his leisure in reperusing the
Greek and Latin authors which had been his early and formed
his late companions. He continued to cherish his love for the
Greek language which he read with ease and which was to him
a source of great enjoyment as long as his health and life con-
tinued.

I have been told that Uncle Lemuel, while building a stone
wall, conunitted to memory a large part of Homer's Iliad and
Odyssey.

His interest in education is shown by an extract from the
records of Waterville College, now Colby, and by a copy of
his resignation from the Board of that college.

Waterville Aug. 20, 18^9.
Hon. Lemuel Paine,

Dear Sir, — At a meeting of the Board of Trustees of Water-
ville College held at the College Chapel on Tuesday Aug. 7th,
1849, the following resolution offered by the Rev. S. K. Smith
was unanimously adopted; and the Secretary was instructed
to forward to you a copy of the same. Agreeably to said
instruction I have the honor herewith to forward to you a copy
of the resolution.

Resolved; That this Board entertain a high sense of the
value of the protracted and useful services of the Hon. Lemuel
Paine of Winslow, the Hon. William King of Bath and the
Rev. John Haynes of No. Livermore as members of this Board.
They have stood by the College with a laudable zeal in the
days of its weakness and poverty and we congratulate them
on the privilege of seeing the tender shoot which was planted

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years ago, with tears and cost and prayer, now grown to a
fertile tree, diffusing benefits to both church and state, and
blessing a grateful community.

By such labors the friends of letters and religion embalm
their own memory "and their work do follow them."

Respectfully,
Your obd't Sevt.

E. L. Getchell, Secretary.

To the Board of Trustees of WatcrvUle College.

Gentlemen, — The infirmities of age and declining health
admonish me that it is fit that I should vacate a seat at your
board. I therefore tender to you the resignation of my mem-
bership, which I request you accept. I was elected to a seat
at your board in IS'-iT. I sat as a member 1828, since which
time I have been present at e\'ery session of the Board of
Trustees, which can be said of no other member except my
friend the Hon. Mr. Boutelle, to whose vigilance, perseverance
and devotedness to the interests of the institution it owes much
of its prosperity and success. At the time I took my seat at
the board, the affairs of the College were perj)lexed and its
prospects discouraging. It struggled hard with financial em-
barrassment, and our meetings for some years were pro-
tracted, and attended with much anxiety and labour.

In taking leave of you gentlemen it affords me great satis-
faction to contemplate the prosperous condition of the College;
its growth, reputation, and future promise. Long may it
continue to flourish its salutary and benign influence in the
improvement of education and the best interests of our young
and rising State.

With sentiments of great respect and my best wishes for
your individual prosperity and happiness, I am

Your Obd't Servt.

Lemuel P.\ine.

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From Genealogy, A. W. Paine.

Throughout his life he was frequently employed as arbiter
or referee in matters of dispute and never failed as such to
give satisfaction, for his decisions came to be regarded by both
sides as exact justice and hence acquiesced in accordingly.
His wit was proverbial and it was one of his agreeable pastimes
to set it ofl' in rhyme. On one occasion he rendered his decision,
in a case referred to him, all in verse, including a statement of
the case, the argument of counsel and his decision with the
amount of damages and costs. No objection was made to
its acceptance and performance. He often indulged in this
propensity, to express in rhyme his censure of particular acts
and persons.

Copy of lines written in the Court House, 1809

How various are the ways, Oh, Lord!

To humble human pride —
We read recorded in thy word,
And see exemplified.

When Israel's sons too haughty grew.
Thou mad'st them Pharaoh's drudges;

To us more culpable tiian those.
Thou givest fools for judges.

He was ever an active politician of the Old Federal School
and "was never ashamed of his party." Of liberal Christian
views, he gave no one credit for any religious character, further
than it was evidenced by sincere acts of a good life.

On the 19th of July, 1852, he was found lifeless upon a bed
of hay, in the calm sunshine, with a rake by his side and with
no sign of suffering on his face. His wife died in 1860.

They had three children.

Ebenezer Warren, born 1808, died in 1830.
Henry WiUiam, born 1810, died 1893.
Edward Augustus, born 1816, died 1898.

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The following sketch was written at my request by the
Grandson of Lemuel Paine, George Stratton Paine, of Winslow :

In my boyhood, an eccentric wandering tinker called at our
house, two or three times a year: he was not much given to con-
versation, and the only part of it that made a lasting impres-
sion was the brief story of his first courtship. "I didn't marry
the woman I calculated to," he said. "She begged to be ex-
cused and I like a fool excused her."

It was not so with my grandfather Lemuel. He courted
Jane Warren of Foxboro and was rejected because he was
not "an educated or professional man." This seemed to furnish
the necessary stimulus and as he worked at his trade of stone
mason, he studied with open book before him, and fitted
for Brown University, graduating in 1803. He studied law
with Gen. Ripley at Waterville but began practice in Winslow,
living on the farm he purchased of Ripley near Fort Hahfax.
Renewing his suit with Miss W'arren he was now accepted,
tho' it is said that the lady had been heard to express some
surprise at the outcome.

They came to Winslow in 1807, doubtless attracted hither
by letters from one of the Warrens who had preceded them to
the Kennebec Valley and who wrote home glowing accounts
of "this lovely country."

As I was only two or three years old when he died, my
recollection of him is limited to a single incident, his bringing
me a bit of dried fruit as I was being dressed by my father.
He loved the farm, and the summer's work of raising crops and
feeding stock agreed with him and he enjoyed much better
health than in winter when more or less confined to the house.
My other Grandfather William Stratton lived about three
miles further up the Sebasticook. He was a great worker at
lumbering as well as farming, and his irregular meals away from
home impaired his health and he as well as Lemuel suffered
from dyspepsia. My uncle, Robert F. Stratton, says the two

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old men used to get togetlier occasionally in winter and talk
over their troubles, groaning in unison, calculating the chances
of their living another year.

Both Lemuel and his wife were fond of society, and it was
not unusual for them to start in a sleigh for Norridgewock,
thirteen miles away, or other distant points, to spend an even-
ing. We have a mirror which grandmother brought from
Massachusetts in her lap in a sleigh.

He needed the mild stimulus of travel. Occasionally a
voyage by land to Foxboro was ventured and he returned with
a new and interesting stock of ideas.

Their home had been in earlier days a "tavern" and a
wide hall on the ground floor extended the whole length of the
house. The cold north winds played through the cracks at
one end so freely that grandfather, with an apparent inspiration,
in the absence of his wife, battered up the cracks with shingles
on the inside. On her return he pointed with pride to the
achievement, but it seems that it did not strike her as any
addition to the beauty of the place and she proceeded at once
to tear the shingles off, an evident sacrifice of utility to
appearance. — G. S. P.

There is an oration of Lemuel's about thirteen pages in
length, from which I have made short extracts.

An Oration July 4 a.d. 1807, Waterville

I rise. Gentlemen & fellow Citizens to soHcit your indulgence
and candour while I address you on this interesting and joyful
occasion. The custom of annually celebrating great and
Splendid events has been sanctioned by the authority & practice
of all nations, in all ages of the world.

We have assembled Fellow Citizens on this auspicious
morning to commemorate the 31.st Anniversary of American
Independence, an event the most splendid in the annals of
time and to us productive of the highest consequences.

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The Day which we now celebrate, was not hke tlie present
ushered in with acclamations of joy and tokens of festivity
and gladness; but amid scenes of calamity and peril, our
intrepid Fathers dared to elevate their voice, and proclaim to
an admiring world, that "these United States are and of right
ought to be Free & Independent." . . .

Persevere then Fellow Citizens in cherishing those excellent
institutions which you have planted for the promotion of moral
& religious improvement. Patronize men whose time & talents
are devoted to the useful arts which embellish life. Cultivate
the gentle virtues which adorn and dignify our nature and
greatly ameliorate the condition of Man. Instruct your
children in habits of industry, economy, temperance & justice
& thus form them to become useful to themselves, to their
fellow citizens & to their country.

Above all teach them to govern their conduct by motives
that look beyond the narrow limits of time, to scenes of future
hfe and ages of eternal duration.

A sense of the importance of these duties ought to be oper-
ative on our minds at all times. But there are duties which we
owe our country to be discharged collectively & periodically.
I mean the duties of suffrage. We are bound by the strongest
ties that can bind man to earth to discharge this duty with
integrity & fidelity. . . .

Let us swear by the blood of those illustrious Patriots which
was shed in our country's cause that we will never dishonour
the Principles they died to establish. Inspired with these
sentiments, while other nations bow the knee at the shrine of
despotism and sacrifice their dearest rights to satiate the
rapacity & pride of Kings, we will transmit to posterity not
only the name but the spirit of Independence.

October, 1840, Frederic Paine writes to his son, Albert
Ware Paine, in Bangor, a home letter in which he incloses
some jingles of his brother Lemuel's.

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Window, Oct. 28, 181,0.

Deae Son: . . . Uncle Paine handed me the enclosed
Poetry to be printed, if you think best, but he does not wish
to have his name known. In the new Kennebec Journal,
I expect to see the Production of his Pen, an address from
Satan to the Democratic Party, etc.

Our prospect brightens daily respecting the new election.

As to the State of Maine, we cannot but feel there is no doubt,

but one thing I believe we can feel confident that Harrison will

be President.

F. Paine.

As this "Poetry" shows the political "bent" of the "brother
Lemuel" at the time of the Presidency of Van Buren, I give it
here.

Attention. Van repudiate
Your arrogant pretensions
Reduce your sordid love of power
To reasonable dimensions.

Your despot policy abjure

The people are in motion;

To be deprived of blood bought rights,

They have but little notion.

Following your predecessors steps
In your exalted station.
You've reckless trampled under foot.
The interests of the nation.

No sympathy have thou for those,
Your measures are undoing.
You will not check your mad career —
To stop the impending ruin.

Infatuated as thou art.
Canst thou not feel thy doom?
Dost thou not see the Patriot's host
Have to the rescue come?

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When such men brace their armour on
They will not lay it bye
Until they have the victory won,
They conquer or they die.

Inscribed on thy white palace wall
All good men's fears dispersing —
Read Heaven's immutable decree,
Mene-M Tekel Upharnn.

An address of a Kennebec mechanic to his fellow workmen
in prospect of the November election, for electors of President
and Vice President.

A call of the Genius of Liberty on the laboring Classes in
prospect of the Nov-Election.

Labourers be true to dutie's call —
At next November election —
And help Tip o'er the Despot's twins,
Subtreasury & subjection.

Elect Van Buren president.
You'd surely catch a Tartar
His policy gives homely fare.
Potatoes, soup & water.

Choose Harrison and you will have
A bountiful j)rovider;
Flour bread, roast beef your fare will be,
Tea, coffee & hard cider.

Say to the world, as said your sires

No Despot e'er shall tame us;

Scout Benton's plans & Calhoun's Schemes,

And spurn the miscreant Amos.

The following record is given me by the grandson, George
S. Paine:

Lemuel Paine's wife was Jane Thompson Warren, daughter
of Hon. Ebenezer Warren known as Judge Warren. He built

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the house known as the Warren house between Foxboro and
Mansfield. He died Jan 21, 1824.

The following extract is taken from his funeral sermon
preached by Pitt Clarke, minister of the Gospel in Norton.
Text, 2 Cor. 5:4.

Judge Warren became a member of the State Convention
in 1788. In 1790 he had a commission from Gov. Hancock
to be justice of the peace and three years after he was appointed
Judge of the Court of Common Pleas.

He went forth in defence of his country as a volunteer and
was in arms with two of his brothers in the battle of Lexington.

He was possessed of an extraordinary memory. Judge
Warren was a friend to religion. He had rational and liberal
views of Christianity. He died at the age of 76 and left ten
children to mourn the loss of a beloved parent.

When the contentions and illiberal notions of many in his
own town forbade his continuing harmoniously with them in
their religious society, he united with the congregation in this
place and here steadily attended public worship for the sub-
sequent years of his Ufe.

CHAPTER THREE
HENRY W. PAINE

In presenting his resignation to the Board of Trustees of
Waterville College, in 1849, Lemuel Paine writes, "I was
elected to a seat at your Board in 1827."

From this date through three generations of the Winslow-
Paine families, even up to 1907, in letters and journals old
and new, appear many, many appreciative and loving words
regarding the college which sent so many of them forth into
the world equipped for the world's best work.

The first record we have of Lemuel's son Henry is the follow-
ing bill:

Mt. Henry W. Paine

Walenrille College
May 27, 1828.

To Waterville College Dr.

To one term's tuition $5 . 34

To " " room rent 2 . 00

To " " additional room rent on account of extra expense laid out

in his room 34

To one term's use of library 34

To his proportion of expense for articles used in Chemical Lectures ....

To " " " '■ " monitor and bell-ringer, 15-14 29

To " " " " " repair of damages done to the College

buildings 25

Sweeping entries 17 .\1

$8.73

N.B. This bill is considered now due and if not paid before the expiration of
one month from the beginning of the next term interest will be charged.

The next term will commence on Wednesday the of next, at which

time every student is required to be present at the College and to report himself
to the Officer of his Class on penalty of 25 cents per day, or such other punish-
ment as the Executive Government shall judge proper to inflict.
Received payment of above bill.

A. Briggs, Agent
Watermlle College, May 27, 1828.

The next record we have of him is the letter written while
a student at the Harvard Law School.

HENRY W. PAINE 53

Cambridge, July 12, 1832

Dear Father, — As I am at leisure and as my friend
Appleton is about to return to Waterville, and kindly offers to
charge himself with my letters, I cannot neglect an opportunity
thus favourable for writing you, and for want of something
more entertaining and important, I propose briefly to sketch
the character of my schoolfellows and of others whom chance
has thrown under my observation.

You would very naturally suppose that the members of
the same school, from the circumstances of their being fre-
quently brought into contact by recitations, moot courts and
debates, must be on terms of intimacy with each other. But
such is not the fact with us. Coming as we do from distant
parts of the Union, — with different manners, different habits
of thought and ac<^ion, not to say sectional feelings and local
prejudices, — each possesses a sort of repulsive power which
will not allow others to cross the orbit of his motion : and not
a little time is necessary to a.ssimilate characters in many
respects so unlike. A large majority of the school are natives
of this state and alumni of this University. They look upon
Massachusetts as the modern Delphi and cannot conceive of
any man's being a scholar without a diploma from Harvard.
Of course the sons of Maine, the former attache of Massa-
chusetts, can make no pretensions to literary merit or lay
any claims to the high privileges of their society. But so far
as my limited opportunities will permit me to form an ojjinion
of their scholarship and general character, I must say I have
been not a little disappointed. I had fancied a sort of inspi-
ration in the very name of Harvard and that no man could
walk her consecrated soil without feeling his soul elevated
and his spirit kindled with devotion to science and letters.
I had thought that genius had been quickened and dullness

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awakened by the associations of the place — that the names of
Adams and Otis would incite to emulation and stimulate to
effort. But alas, the same clime gives birth to the lion and
the jackal.

Some of the school, it is true, are men of great promise —
men of vigorous intellects and superior attainments, men
who will distinguish themselves at the bar or in the Senate
or in fine wherever talents and industry can ensure prominence.
But these are by no means many, rare nantes in gurgite vasto.
The great mass of the school may with justice be characterized
as fellows of moderate talents and still more moderate acquire-
ments, as remarkable only for the whiteness of their linen,
the fashionable cut of their whiskers and their sovereign con-
tempt for everybody but themselves. Reared in the lap of
luxury, with high aristocratic notions and in utter ignorance
of men, they are preparing to practice in that profession which
more than any other requires a thorough knowledge of the
world, affable manners and practical sense. If I mistake not,
they will be Init illy qualified for the rough and tumble of
a lawyer's life. With two or three individuals I have be-
come somewhat intimate, — with the mass, I neither am
nor desire to be. This you may think savours of asperity
but what I have written is deliberate and I believe candid
and just.

And now I take leave of my fellow students to introduce
you to my instructors. Of Judge Story I have seen much and
heard still more. And such is the simplicity of his manner,
and the unsuspecting openness of his character, that the most
superficial observer can hardly fail of at once detecting his
excellencies and defects — his strong points and his weaknesses.
. . . By many he is esteemed the most learned judge in the
Union, while the partiality of friendship does not hesitate to
proclaim him the first jurist in the world. As an instructor
he is patient, communicative and indefatigable and if he some-

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times bewilders the student by tlie profession of his learning,
he seldoms fails to impart valuable information.

H. W. Paine.
Then there is this entry in my father's Journal:
Sept. 16, 1835. In Hallowell, I find Mr. Wells chosen
Representative and my cousin Henry W. Paine. At his
promotion and success I must confess my surprise being yet
young, just commencing practice in the place and being a new
citizen. He will, however, I predict, take rather of a high
stand, considering his age and situation, tho he will not be
much of a speaker. He will, probably, make one, two or three
set speeches during the winter, be verj' careful what he says
and when he says it.

The last early record is written from Augusta, Maine.

Senate Chamber, Feb'y, 21, 181,0

Dear Father, — I am here for the purpose of appearing
before the committee on claims, and as they have not yet as-
sembled, and as Eaton offers the opportunity, I thought I
would drop you a line.

I have been here almost every other afternoon for the
session, before the committee on Elections on division and
alteration of counties, on the Judiciary and on claims. I
have appeared before and till I am sick and dis-
gusted. But I nmst get my bread. The house decided the
case of Beal and Dow in my favor. . . .

I have at this moment seen him and a happier face I never
saw. I have taken more pains in this case than I ever did in
any I was ever retained in. It is the only case contested,
gained by the Whigs. Thus far I have never lost a case of
its kind.

I am going to begin next Monday writing the life of General
Harrison for Glasier — to be a book of 130 or 150 pages. I
know nothing about the subject as yet, was engaged yester-

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day. ... It is not a labor of love but a work for reward and
as I work dog cheap, I must work with speed. I will do any-
thing for an honest living. Better be in the tread mill than be

out of it.

AflFectionately yours,

Henry.

Wm. P. Fessenden or E. H. Allen will in all probability be
our ne.xt candidate for Governor. But I don't meddle with
politics, but if either is nominated I shall have to take hold
again. They are fine fellows.

From father's Genealogy I get the following data:

Henry W. Paine, the second son of Lemuel, was born Aug.
30, 1810; graduated at Waterville College in 1830; studied
law in Hallowell and for one year in the Law School at Harvard
University. He practised at Hallowell until 1854 when he
moved to Cambridge and opened an office in Boston. He
was repeatedly offered a seat on the bench of the Supreme
Judicial Court in Maine and the same office was offered to
him in Boston, but he declined all such offers. In 1863, much
against his wishes, he was a candidate of the democratic party
for Governor of Massachusetts but was unsuccessful.

In the April number of the New England Magazine, 1894,
there is an article written by Professor William Matthews
from which I make disconnected jottings:

A great New England Lawyer. Henry W. Paine

. . . He enjoyed a large and lucrative practice in both
State and Federal Courts and especially as Referee and Master
in Chancery, in most difficult and important cases. He was
ever a close student giving a great deal of time to literary and
other studies, was familiar with the best old English authors,
with Burke, Johnson, Goldsmith and Addison, believing that a
man could not become a great lawyer who knew nothing else.

iRAKY

ASTOR. LENOX

HENRY W. PAINE 57

" The air is thin among the apices of the law as on the granite
needles of the Alps. Men must find refreshment and strength
in the quiet valleys at their feet." With his brethren at the
Bar, he held always the friendliest relations. He scorned all
artifices and trickeries and won wealth at the Bar, "not by
his practices, but by his practice."

Few advocates have had more success with juries. The
secret of this lay not only in the cogency, lucidity, and per-
suasiveness of his addresses but in the confidence in his fair-
ness and truthfulness with which he inspired his hearers.
In his addresses to the jury, he sought to enlighten, to clarify,
not to confuse their minds. Ha\^iftg a quick perception and
a firm grasp of the vital points of a case, he confined himself
to these, addressing them with all the force of his mind and
character.

He was keen of wit and (juick at retort but never used the
weapon in a way to wound the feelings of an adversary.

He was one of the lawyers about whom many anecdotes
were told. Being one day saluted by the name of a disrepu-
table lawyer, he told the man who made the blunder who he
was. "Pardon me," said the stranger, "I took you for Mr.

D ." "I excuse you," was the reply, "but I hope the

devil won't make the same mistake."

Once when making an argument in court. Judge Gray inter-
rupted him with the remark, "Mr. Paine, you know that is
not the law." Immediately came the reply, "Please your
honor, that was the law until your honor spoke."

He had an extraordinary memory, so that in the court room
he was able to dispense wholly with notes of testimony and
memoranda of arguments to be used or refuted. It was his
custom to amu.se himself with mathematical problems as he
rode from his home to his office. He could multiply numbers
of five figures each with the greatest ease. He once won a
case in a Maine court involving a question of riparian rights,

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simply by demonstrating to the jury a geometrical problem.
His mind was also retentive of facts of history and biography.

From his nephew George S. Paine comes this family
"Glimpse":

In his early letters home, my uncle, Henry W. Paine, showed
his fondness for the "humanities" by frequent Latin quota-
tions, yet instead of pursuing the study of Ancient languages,
he devoted a part of each day to the solution of mathematical
questions, to keep his mind "fit." There is no doubt that he
neglected one source of mental and physical "fitness" by
ignoring all accepted forms of recreation. It was his boast
that he never entered a theatre, never played a game of chance
and apparently never indulged in any form of regular exercise,
except as above mentioned. And the time came when his
physician told him peremptorily that he must quit work and
go abroad with his wife.

At Stoke Pogis, he said in the hearing of other parties,
"This is where Lord Coke lived." A gentleman in hearing
said, "I beg your pardon, sir, but Lord Coke never lived at
Stoke Pogis." Mr. Paine repeated it with the addition, as
I recall it, that Lord Coke obtained his property there by way
of marriage. A short time afterwards, in the city of London,
the same gentleman aj)proached him and said, handing him
his card, "You were right sir. Lord Coke did live at Stoke
Pogis." Upon inquiry the donor of the card was found to
be one of the leading barristers of London. In later years,
on the occasion of a second visit to Stoke Pogis, Mr. Paine
overheard one of the guides repeating the story of the Yankee
lawyer who outwitted the English barrister.

It is an undoubted fact that our branch of the family lacked
self-esteem. I recall a notable conversation between my
father and his brother which will illustrate this. My uncle
was a very successful real estate lawj-er, with hosts of friends.

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but was subject to occasional deep depression. He admitted
that he had been successful, but said that his achievement
had been so far short of his hopes and aspirations, that he
regarded his life a failure and would not care to live it again.
My father, on the other hand, said that while he had accom-
plished little or nothing of consequence in life, he had enjoyed
it and would be glad to live it over again. These two men had
a deep affection for each other and seemed in their intercourse
more like father and son than brothers. My uncle was the
favorite of his father, while my father seemed to have a stronger
hold on his mother. The former, when he began practice of
the law in Hallowell, assured his father that as long as he lived
he would never leave the state of Maine, and adhered to his
promise, tho' soon after his father's death he removed to Cam-
bridge.

While in Hallowell, he was retained in important matters
before the legislature. In an impeachment case, a report of
certain proceedings appeared in the Kennebec Journal. The
widely known Rufus Choate was employed and F. O. J. Smith,
a somewhat eccentric character. The editor, in commenting
upon it, said of the arguments, that "Paine furnished the
logic, Choate the rhetoric, and Smith the slang." Upon in-
quiry, they found that the man who had written this was a
Mr. J. G. Blaine, not long since from Pennsylvania.

My uncle married, May, 1837, Miss Lucy Coffin, a lady of
rare mental endowments and endearing personality, as well
as one of great beauty. His acquaintance with her began at
Hallowell, when she was visiting the family with whom he
boarded. At the dinner table some one made a remark de-
rogatory to the character of Caleb Cushing, then not so well
known as he was later and Miss Coffin came to his defence in so
spirited and charming a manner that Uncle Henry fell in love
with her on the spot. Mr. Cushing and he were warm friends
and he later gave to Uncle Henry a beautiful gold watch that

60 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

had been presented to him at the time of the Geneva award.
Not needing it, my uncle gave it to my father, but the family,
after the death of Mr. Gushing, finding that it had passed from
my uncle's hands, wished to have it returned, which was done.
I had great hopes of it myself.

There was one child, a daughter, Jeannie Warren Paine.
In Gambridge she was recognized as a thorough and brilliant
student, especially in the languages and science. She was
said by Agassiz to have the brightest mind of any yoiuig woman
he had ever met. She and her mother were both interested
in all philanthropic and charitable movements and were de-
voted members of the P^ir.st Parish Church of Gambridge,
the Unitarian Society of Old Gambridge. In her will, Jeannie
left money to this Ghurch "to form a permanent charity fund."

In Hallowell she and a friend acquired the rudiments of
Greek by hearing a class recite and when the preceptor dis-
covered this fact, he invited them to enter the class with
the young men. This caused some disaffection, as girls had
never been permitted to study Greek at the Academy.

— G. S. P.

The famihes of the two sons, Lemuel and Frederic, grew up
together as one family and the affection between them con-
tinued throughout life. Gousin Henry was a frequent visitor
at our home in Bangor, and until late at night and in the dark,
he and my father would sit talking over the old home and the
new interests they had in common. Gousin Henry never
could understand my father's interest in Genealogy. He would
say, " I cannot understand Albert's interest in this work of look-
ing up his ancestors." He was a very handsome, courteous
man, one whom we were always glad to have with us.

CHAPTER FOUR
EDWARD AUGUSTUS PAINE

The name of "Mr. Edward A. Paine," the third son, we
meet with frequently in the journals and letters. He was
born in Winslow, Nov. 27, 1816, and lived at the old home-
stead engaged in the work of an agriculturist on the large
farm which his father so industriously cultivated during his
life. He died July 14, 1884. Nov. 27, 1848, he married
Sybil Stratton of Winslow.

They had two children, George Stratton and Lucy Coffin.
Lucy died March 17, 1918.

That there was a wedding party on the occasion of the
marriage of Edward A. Paine, we know by the following ac-
count, taken from the Journal of the Grandmother, who was
the aunt of the bridegroom.

Rejoicing in the Lot '■
Nov. 27, 1S4S. Edward A. Paine married to Sybil Stratton

This is a cause of great rejoicing all about the "lot." The
Bridegroom rejoices over the bride, he probably thinks she
will be a help and meet her wants with wisdom.

The Bride rejoices, she is united to a man who has promised
to "sustain her through life and perform towards her all the
duties growing out of the Marriage relation, taking the Word
of God for his rule of action," in the presence of about 80
witnesses.

The Father Paine rejoices, he has always wished for a

daughter and his supposed trials are now greatly relieved by

her pleasant & social society. The Mother Paine rejoices,

' From "The Sketch Book."
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62 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

" old age is coming on apace and now there is one to comfort
her "Isaac" after his Mother's —

Brother Henry rejoices for said he, I am really glad that my
only Brother has become determined to act like other men and
has obtained a virtuous companion. His little Daughter
Jane rejoices to go to the wedding for said she, "I have only
a few Uncles and they dont get married often."

Father Stratton rejoices. He has a large family and ad-
vantageous colonization is convenient.

The Mother Stratton rejoices, she has four daughters and
five sons that can fill all such vacancies. The Brothers Strat-
ton rejoice. They have always been intimate friends and now
"A three-fold cord is not easily broken." The Sisters rejoice,
for said they "He is the cleverest man in Town." So we
neighbors have concluded to take hold and rejoice with them
and say success to the whole Tree in its every branch and
sprout. Officiating Clergy The Rev. Albert Cole.

' From "The Sketch Book."

CHAPTER FIVE
RACHEL PAINE PRATT

Rachel Carpenter was born Jan. 31, 1757 and died Sept.
1828. She married Lemuel Paine, gen. VI, of Fo.xboro. He
died in 1794, and in 1797 she married Dea. Isaac Pratt of
Wrenthani. See page 32 (foot note).

She was the daughter of Dea. Nehemiah Carpenter, the
first settler of Foxboro.

He served in the Revolutionary War, and has a long war
service. Sergeant, 1st Lieut., Lieut, and Capt. Every time
he is listed he has a title, and is in the list of commissioned
officers.

There were two sons, brothers of Rachel, Nehemiah and
Ezra "^^eterans."

Among other old documents is the following letter written
by the mother Rachel to the two Winslow sons, Lemuel and
Frederic Paine.

Foxboromjh Aug. 31st 1822

My dear sons, after much anxiety of mind, I have at length
concluded that my health will not admit of my accepting your
kind and repeated invitations to visit you and I fear that so
long a journey, now attended with so much uncertainty
would be very injurious. I have been as it were in a strait
betwixt two, for I do earnestly desire to see you all, and I
know that I am unable to go, besides there are ties which bind
me here.

Your friends here are all comfortable except Polly Pratt
who is sick of a fever. Perhaps you have been informed of the
sudden death of Shurbal Pratt. He died of a fever last month.
The whole town sensibly feel their loss, but to his friends it is
almost insupportable. He had been married a few months

64 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

and doubtless had as bright a prospect of Hving as we have,
when he was unexpectedly called into the presence of God.
O, my sons, shall we be found ready and waiting for the comeing
of the Son of ^lan. Let it be our first and chief object so to
be, but let us understand it, we shall not be ready unless we
repent and become new creatures in Christ Jesus. That
this may be the case with each one of her dear children, is the
fervent prayer of your Mother. There is nothing new in
Foxborough, nor strange. The Baptist meeting-house is
about finished and ours is so far completed, that we have
with some inconvenience met in it twice. We have a young
minister preaching with us now, an excellent man, we hope
that we shall settle him, his name is Thatcher. Amanda is
well as usual, she is very much engaged in studying. She
recites twice a day to Mr. Thatcher, finds him an excellent
instructor. He is a grandson of Rev. Mr. Thatcher of Attle-
borough. a distant relation of ours. Amanda will not write
until you have answered her letters. Please give my love to
your wives and children and accept the kind love of your
affectionate Mother Rachel Pratt.

P. S. Do write as soon as you receive this. Your uncle
Ezra Carpenter sends his love and would inform you that he
has everything in abundance. All nature seems to groan under
a heavy load of fruit of all kinds. He will not on any account
consent to my going away. W'' Susan C. Pratt is in great
trouble and very earnestly desires Frederic's wife to write
to her, she is deeply afHicted.

Rachel
\_Frederic s wife is the Grandmother.]

PART III. FREDERIC AND ARIEL WARE
PAINE, THE GRANDMOTHER

Chaptei

• One.

Frederic and Abiel Ware Paine.

Two.

The Journals of the Grandmother.

Three.

Stray Leaves.

Four.

The Sketch Book.

Five.

Daily Thoughts.

Six.

The Recorder.

Seven.

Old Letters.
Illustrations

Frederic Paine, Gen. VIL at sixty-five, from daguerreotype.
Abiel Ware Paine, the Grandmother, at sixty three, from

daguerreotype.
The old Church in Winslow.
Rev. Thomas Adams.
Timothy's Chamber, at Cloverside.

Paine

Gen. I William Paine, England — Water-
town — Ipswich 1589-1660

II John Paine, England — Water-
town ~ Ipswich — Boston 1632-1675

III William Paine, Boston? — Maiden.. 1664-1741

IV William Paine, Maiden 1692-1784

V William Paine, Maiden — Foxboro,

m. Mary Bull 1720-1810

# " VI Lemuel Paine, Foxboro, m. Rachel

Carpenter 1748-1794

* " VII Frederic Paine, Foxboro — Wins- ■<■■>■

low, m. Abiel Ware 1785-1857

66 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

** Gen. VIII Charles Frederic — Albert Ware —
Benjamin Crowninshield — Tim-
othy Otis.

Daughters. Caroline Matilda —
Harriet Newell — Charlotte Eliza-
beth — Sarah Jane.

Ware

# Gen. I Robert Ware the Aged, Dedham,

"The Immigrant" ' (?) —1699

II Robert Ware, Dedham — Wrentham 1653-1724

III Robert Ware, Wrentham 1680-1731-2

" IV Timothy Ware, Wrentham, m. Mary

Healy 1715-1794

V Timothy Ware, Wrentham, m. Abiel

Ray." 1746-1798

* " VI Daughter, Abiel Ware, m. Frederic

Paine 1787-1852

VII Charles — Albert — Benjamin —
Timothy, etc.

# Gen. VI Lemuel Paine, Foxboro, m. Rachel

Carpenter 1748-1794

VII Lemuel Paine, Foxboro — Winslow,

m. Jane Warren 1777-1852

" VIII Ebenezer Warren — Henry William
— Frederic Augustus.

' He emigrated before 1642. " He was the progenitor of a long line of moral
teachers."

P^ Z'-

. '^^'^ LIBRARY

IAST^R. LENOX
TILDMn FCLNO -.tiom";

CHAPTER ONE
FREDERIC AND ARIEL WARE PAINE

These two sketches of his parents were written by my father,
the "second son," in 1876, at the request of my mother, who
was very much interested in preserving all family records.

Memorial of Frederic Paine

The following sketches of my parent's lives and character
I have prepared at the request of my wife, the dates and statis-
tics being mainly gathered from the scrap book or Journal
kept by my mother and left to me upon her death.

My father whose name was Frederic Paine was the son of
Lemuel Paine of Foxboro, Mass., and was born on the twenty-
first day of November, a.d. 1785. His parents had six children
four sons and two daughters. A.sa died at the age of 12 years.
All the others lived to be married, my father being the next
to the youngest of the flock. His mother was Rachel Car-
penter of Foxboro.

My father was born in a house which in my boyhood I
once visited, it being a small cottage at a considerable distance
from the public highway, on a stony farm and among a sparse
population. He was early put as an apprentice to the trade
of cooper in his native town. While thus engaged he made
the acquaintance of his wife, my dear mother, then an orphan
girl of Wrentham, an adjoining town. (Orphan according to
the law but her mother was living.) Her name was Abiel
Ware.

Soon afterwards on becoming of age my father joined his
brother Lemuel in a trip to Maine to seek his fortune in a new
home. Lemuel was some 10 years the elder, had been sent

68 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

to College and had also studied for the profession of the Law
and it was probably his design in coming to Maine to practise
in his profession, while my father should work at his trade
and both at the same time carry on their farm. This they
did. They selected a mutual home in Winslow then a border
town on the Kennebec at its confluence with the Sebasticook
River. The town was one which had grown up under the
protection of the Fort Halifax located there at the head of
navigation.

Here they selected a home and both joined in building or
purchasing a house for their mutual occupation. Uncle
Lemuel soon returned to consummate his marriage with his
chosen bride, the daughter of Judge Warren of Foxboro and
at once .settled down for life in the new home thus chcsen.
This was in 1807. My father made a part of his family for
about two years when he went back and married on September
21, 1809, he being then 24 years of age and my mother 22.
The two families lived together until each had two sons when
they had prospered sufficiently to allow of each having a home
of his own. My father then built a new house and moved
into it in 1814 in which he and my mother afterwards con-
tinued to live throughout life and in which both died, being
the house surmounting the depot at Winslow Village. I can
well remember the time, being then only two years of age,
my own birth being on August 16, 1812.

Soon after the removal, my father volunteered and went
to the war, and I can well remember the niglit of his leaving,
altho only two years old. His military life, however was
a short and bloodless one, as the enemy did not make his
appearance and the volunteers soon returned home and peace
came with them.

My parents then settled down for life in their new house and
home, where they continued to live to a good old age and until
death released each of them from the cares of earth.

FREDERIC PAINE 69

My father through his whole Hfe continued the joint occu-
pation of a mechanic at his favourite trade and an agricultur-
aUst on his small but well cultivated farm. Between the two
he was ever busy. The wet and rainy days of summer and
the cold days of winter which ]>revented labor on the ground
ever found him busy and consequently he never spent a useless
hour. His farm and shop absorbed every available hour of
the day, and the long evenings of autumn and winter. And
if at any time a few moments were found while waiting for his
meals or other employment a paper or an account book was
readily accessible to drive away all idea of idleness. He was
never for a moment a loafer in mother's way or out of employ-
ment for himself, but constantly finding some useful work
to engage his attention and his hands. By this constant
industry he ever maintained a comfortable and happy home
for us all and enjoyed a good living. As child after child came
to bless this home to the number of eight in all, there was
found room enough for them to stay in a capacious house as
well as heart of the parents and seats in abundance at a well
supplied table. No demands ever were protested, nor bills
allowed to be unpaid. Indeed want never that I am aware
of made its appearance at our home or board, but prosperity
was our lot.

In looking back from my present standpoint upon my
parents thus situated I am wholly at loss to see how all this
was done except as the result of a firm faith, and a kind
Providence.

Shortly after or during the war, my father was appointed
Post Master of the town and held the place through all
the successive administrations of Madison, Monroe, Adams,
Jackson, and Van Buren until the cheap postage law was
enacted when he resigned his place, against the protestations
of all the town-p»eople. During all the long term of service
he was the devoted servant of the public ever waiting upon

70 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

them with the faithfuhiess of a well tried servant. The facili-
ties which the place gave to his family for reading the papers
of the day were eagerly taken advantage of and probably
did much to engender that love for reading that all the children .
have ever shown in life. flj

My father was a very honest and upright man and was
extensively trusted as such. In town affairs he held for time
out of mind the post of treasurer, so that his election of treasurer
year after year was merely a matter of form, and his word
was ever like his bond.

After the death of my mother January 1''2, 1852, father
lived a solitary life and was at times I doubt not lonely. His
married life had been a long and haj^py one and he had been
blessed in all his ways. His children he had greatly enjoyed
and was happy with them. They had however most of them
gone from him and acquired homes of their own and when
his wife had gone he was necessarily more or less unhappy,
awaiting his time. His life was a finished one and he was
ready at a moment's call to go. Like the passenger whose
business was closed and he waiting for the train, is ready to
step on board, so the good old man having sent forward his
goods, stood ready for the signal. The signal was sounded,
the train approached — he stepped on board and was soon
lost to sight, leaving behind the pleasant memory of his life
filled with good deeds. He died in his own bed calmly and
quietly after a few days' sickness, on March 13, 1857, at the
age of 71 years and 4 months.

His body lies buried in our family burial ground on the old
homestead farm, by the side of my dear mother and his two
children that had passed before him into the spiritual world.

Albert Ware Paine

Bangor, March 26, 1876.

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Of Grandfather, Grandmother writes in terms of great
affection, and of respect and with gratitude for all that lie had
been to her. An Uncle writes:

"Your Grandmother Paine was certainly a remarkable
woman, her influence was great. Your Grandfather, too was
a good man and their influence still exists. . . ."

Among the things which we heard was this story from a
neighbor who was a dealer in cattle. Among his experiences
was the buying of cattle from farmers for shipment to Massa-
chusetts, and one night darkness overtook him and he became
lost. He called at a house to inquire the way to the farm he
wished to reach. This house was that of your Grandfather
Paine, the Winslow home, I suppose. " Why," he said, " I
can't tell you so that you can go in the dark, but I'll go with
you." And this he did, a long distance, miles I think."

G. C., Jefferson, Wise.

Memorial of Abiel Ware P.\ine

Bangor, February 27, 1876

The following Memorial of my dear Mother is penned for
the satisfaction of such as may hereafter come after us and be
interested in the history of our race.

My Mother's maiden name was Abiel Ware; she was the
daughter of Timothy and Abiel Ware, born at Wrentham,
Mass., Dec. 6, 1787. Her father was born Nov. 17, 1746
and died May 150, 1798 at the age of 51 years and 6 months,
my mother being then in her 11th year of age. Her mother's
maiden name was Abiel Ray and she was born Oct. 10, 1748
and died June 12, 1825 at the age of about 77 years. I well
remember her as an object of constant correspondence on my
mother's part and once at least by her long visit at our house.
My mother's parents had ten children, six daughters and four
sons, she being the eighth in the list and the youngest daughter.
She lived to record the death of all the others except her sister

7-2 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

Eunice Hixson. Her own death took place at Winslow in
her dear old home on the 12th day of January ISS^, at the age
of 64 years and 1 month.

Of her brothers and sisters two died in infancy and all the
others lived to be married. Her youngest brother Avery
Sprague Ware graduated at Middlesex College and became a
minister and moved to the West, where he died at the age of
46 years.

Upon the death of her father, my mother was placed under
the care of a guardian in Franklin, R. I., where she spent the
most of her life until her marriage. At the age of 21 years
and nine months she married my father on September 21, 1809,
and immediately went to Winslow to reside, then a frontier
town on the Kennebec River. He had already prepared for
themselves a home at that place in the same house with his
brother Lemuel. In that home they continued for some three
or four years when they removed into a new house erected for
themselves where they ever afterward resided until their
respective deaths, it being the same house that now overlooks
the depot in that village.

In that house, my parents brought up their family of eight
children all of whom arrived at mature years and were married
except only our dear sister Harriet who died at the age of 16
years.'

In the year of 1818 my parents with another couple united
in forming a church at Winslow of the Congregational order
and were then baptized having at the time made a public
"profession of religion" as the phrase is. These four con-
tinued for long years unseparated members of that church,
its leading members, active in all its duties. I can well recol-
lect how at the close of service on the day of their admission
my parents took their three little children up to "the altar"
to receive the ordinance which to their minds was evidence of
our being devoted to the service of the Lord. My mother may

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with truth be said to have been a true Christian not only by
profession hut also by life and practice. It was ever her
especial pleasure to be active in every work which the church
organization or religious principle called her to do. Attend-
ance on church services, promptly and on all occasions, was
regarded not only a duty but the highest pleasure. On all
Convention occasions it was her resolve and her practice to
attend, a volunteer, if not a chosen delegate. For years her
parlor wn.s thrown ojjen for conference meetings, on every
Sabbath e\'ening, and my mother's enjoyment of every such
occasion was without stint or limit. No dusty feet on her
carpet or disarrangement of her furnishing in the room ever
presented any oljjection to the comjilete carrying out of this
custom. Her promptness at meeting was proverbial and her
passing along the street churchwards was the watchword
for all meeting goers to start "as Mrs. Paine is going by."
Those who did not care to sit a few minutes before the exercises
commenced, felt that they might delay a little longer at their
book or toilet.

Living not far from the church as she did, she kept what
might very properly be denominated the "Church Hotel" or
rather "Free Lunch Hotel," her home being the common resort
of "Christians" of the Congregational order and especially
clergymen who happened along that way at any time of the
day or season of the year. To all such the latch string of her
door was always on the outside. Out dwellers of the con-
gregation found in her rooms and at her table a convenient
place for their noonings with something to "stay their
stomachs" for the afternoon services. All were welcome.

She was, however, no sectarian in her religious views and

practice but was of extremely liberal sentiments towards all

other Evangelistic orders. This occasionally brought her into

j trouble with her more bigoted brotherhood by her espousal

of other's causes outside the regular membership and com-

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munion. The most conspicuous instances of this were found
in lier defence of different members of her own household
under the ravages of Swedenborgianism. When she found so
many of these among her own children she began to feel that
tho she would prefer to have them all good orthodox it was not
very bad to l>e a good New Churchman.

My mother was not an educated woman but for one with so
many domestic cares on hand, she read much and was, too,
very proficient with her pen. Every day found her more or
less devoted to both these exercises. Her Diary is a very
interesting work for her children and from it I have gleaned
all the duties here gathered. "Solitude Sweetened" was her
especial vade inccum and almost every day found her perusing
at least one chapter of to her, its sacred contents.

Her household however was never allowed to be neglected
in the least degree. Her children were ever cared for con-
stantly and to have them rise in the world was her great am-
bition. She was a good mother and one whom her children
ever delighted and will delight to honor. Their little bodies
and minds were the constant objects of her care and that care
and interest followed them through life even calling down
blessings on their heads. Through her determination and
resolution, two of her boys received a collegiate education,
both of whom will give credit to her alone for the boon as both
were sent against their own wills and have both since learned
to bless her for her persistency.

Of her children, her dearly beloved Harriet was removed
by death at the early but interesting age of 16, a charming
and lovely girl to whom we were pll unusually attached. She
was a bright and intelligent child with a peculiarly winning
character and we were all deeply in love with her. Her mother
felt during her somewhat prolonged and severe sickness that
she could not give her up. The closing scenes of her life,
however, were so beautiful that all tears were dried up and

ABIEL WARE PAINE 75

mother, as indeed all of us, felt perfectly reconciled to her
removal.

But very different was the sad event of her eldest son's
death by the terrible catastrophe of the Steamer Halifax
explosion. His death she could never be reconciled to, but it
was a sadness to her during all her life afterwards. This
terrible accident occurred on the 23rd day of May, 1848.
In September following, my own severe sickness from which
for weeks death was anticipated, again plunged her into deep
grief, and during three weeks she was a constant watcher for
the fearful news. She lived, however, to see with joy her son
alive and well.

Her own death occurred as already remarked on the 12th
day of January at the age of 64 years and one month and
6 days. Her body is interred in the family burial ground on
the old homestead by the side of her husband and her dear
Charles and Harriet.

After her death her son Timothy took a plaster cast of her
face from which he constructed a very truthful bust from
which photographic impressions are taken, strikingly presenting
the features of her countenance and head in a most exact
manner.

This sketch is prepared at the solicitation of my dear wife.

Albert W. P.^ine

CHAPTER TWO
THE JOURNALS OF THE GRANDMOTHER

It is my wish that these books of the Grandmother shall
tell their own tales, but in some places a word may be needed
for the sake of elearness. (jencrally, the chronology of the
books will be followed, but in a few instances I have brought
together scattered references to events and people, in order
that the connection of thought might be more readily seen,
as for instance, the two or three little stories of "Annah"
and the references to "Timothy's" studies and religious
thoughts.

First comes "Stray Leaves," begun in April 1824 and con-
tinued at intervals to February 26, 1843. These loose pages
are tied into the back of "Daily Thoughts." On the first
page is a Family Tree washed in with browns and greens.

Then follows "The Sketch Hook" sent by my father and
mother, which she began February 26, 1845 and continued to
September, 1848.

In November of that year, 1848, father sent another blank
book which she called "The Recorder of 1849."

" Lord teach my heart to think
And guide my heart to write."

The first date was Januarj-, 1849, the last 1851.

Before beginning The Recorder, she had started another
journal which she called

"A. W. Paine's Book

for

Daily Thoughts and Occurrences.

1848"

THE JOURNALS OF THE GRANDMOTHER 77

The closing date of this is November, 1851, this and The
Recorder running along together, but being quite different in
character. These contain copies of poems and other mis-
cellaneous articles of which she was fond, also copies of pages
of "Stray Leaves."

In regard to the religious views found in these books, a
cousin writes to me, the following words:

"Some of Grandmother's doctrines sound stern, but as they
were interpreted by her loving heart and put into her active
life they breathed only Divine love. It was the great wish
of her heart that her children siiould love God and love each
other. . . .

"The thought that I keep uppermost when thinking of
Grandmother is that she was typical of her time and therefore
a book about her cannot fail to be of value. I do not mean
that every one has had such a Grandmother, but that every one
of our old New England Communities had two or three such
and they always had a formative influence on society. For-
tunately our Grandmother had the talent and inclination to
put her thoughts into writing. To your father belongs the
credit of encouraging her in this." — E. P. B.

As her religion was the keynote of my Grandmother's char-
acter and life, I have taken from its place in the Journal, the
account she gives of the beginnings of her religious experiences
and place it here at the beginning of her writings.^

The Religious exercises of A. W. Paine
1817.
Come and hear all ye who fear God
I will declair what he has done for my soul.

My attention was first awakened to a source of divine things
by means of an exortation given by a pious Sister soon after

1 Transcribed in "Sketch Book" in 1846.

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her conversion to God in the year ISO'S. Some of the questions
she put to me were the following, "Do you know that you have
a soul that will exist after death? That there is a heaven and
hell and unless j'ou repent of your sins and the Lord forgive
you you will be sent to hell and be miserable forever?" These
and other like questions sunk deep into my mind, it was a
subject on which I had ne'er meditated being young and very
thoughtless, besides religion in that society had for a number of
years been little spoken of.

From this time I thought much. On a future state, my
situation appeared deplorable, I was sensible that all of my
life-time I had been sinning against a holy God who was the
seat of all perfection, and that in myself there was no good
thing. I could not view it just, that God should save such
a wretch as I was, I was frequently deprived of sleep, fearing
to close my eyes lest I should open them in hell; not that I
suspected by keejjing awake it would prevent my going there,
but if I were .sent, would go begging for mercy. I continued
under tho.se gloomy apprehensions about six weeks, when on
being at meeting one Sabbath, I was uncommonly distressed
about my situation and prospects for Eternity, it appeared to
me that my sins were so weighty that I was about to sink
into the earth. As I sat meditating with my eyes fixed ujjon
the floor I heard a voice (or seemed to hear) pronounce these
words, "Rejoice and be exceeding glad for great is your re-
ward in heaven." I immediately raised my head (and as I
was afterward informed) with an entire change of countenance,
towards the place from whence the voice seemed to proceed.
No one was speaking, it was just at the time of administering
the Sacrament, all was a profound silence. It instantly oc-
curred to my mind that it was to me, that the promise was
mine, my distress of mind was entirely gone and I had none of
those former fears. On casting my eyes on the Church, but
few can imagine the beauty I there beheld, I had a desire to

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leave my pew and request a seat around the board, with those
who love and fear the Lord.

As I returned home those words came again to mind with
a doubt whether they were in the Bible, I did not know that
they were for at that time I had not read the Bible but little
and that little with great inattention. I made inquiry of my
pious Mother. She told me they were in Matthew 5-12.

I remained only a few days in this happy frame of mind be-
fore I was impressed with these ideas, that what I had experi-
enced was all a delusion — an idle fancy, — that Satan had power
to give light, that the devils believe and tremble and that my
prayers were an abomination to the Lord. But notwithstand-
ing these impressions I at times enjoyed great happiness.

After a few months, the reformation which had been great in
that Society, in a measure subsided and with grief I acknowledge
that I soon began to wander into forbidden paths and by de-
grees was left to join in the follies and vanity of this world.

I shall now pass over fourteen years of my life which is lost,
nay worse than lost as regards spiritual concerns for through
that period I was sinning against a holy God and oftentimes
on the point of denying Him in whom I trusted for salvation.
But blessing and glory and honour be to Him for extending
mercy and long suffering that I was not cut off as a cumberer
of the ground and that he has again called me by his spirit
and given me to hope in his abounding Mercy.

One year ago last February I was by an alarming Providence
brought to realize the vanity of all things here below and the
Lord enabled me to fix in my determination to make my call-
ing and election sure. To obtain this, I endeavoured to for-
sake all company and commence a daily prayer to that God
whom I had offended by my wicked neglect that he would
lead me in the way everlasting, and put me into a right path, —
and also for one whose conversion and eternal happiness was
as near and dear to me as my own soul. These prayers I
trust he has answered and the endeavours blessed.

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I would not limit happiness by saying that I have received
a thousand fold for all the sacrifices made, because there is
nothing to be compaired with the smiles of God's countenance.

Sometime in the beginning of last winter (1816) these words
came with weight into mind "who knoweth if he will return
and repent, and leave a blessing behind him," it appeared
to me that he God would return, but little did I think it would
be accompanyed with so great a blessing as it proved when the
Saviour entered and my Husband was converted in the month
of Feb. last. None but the Lord who made my lieart knoweth
of its rejoicing.

After a few days spent in praising our Redeemer, it came to
my mind that perhaps we were not right and that we were
deceived. With anxiety on the subject I took my Bible with
saying to myself, it is full of precious promise, and it seemed
to fall open at these words which were the first my ej'es lit
U|)on. "A Glorious high throne from the beginning is the
place of our Sanctuary." I exclaimed it is enough and shut
my Bible. Soon after I began to think much of making a
public profession of religion, but it was a subject which ap-
peared of so great importance that I feared that I was not
prepaired, I again had recourse to my good Bible and it opened
to "I beseech thee — sufi'er me to speak unto the people."
I thought that I might be suffered to speak and yet be unfit.
Again I went to my blessed Bible and it opened to these verses,
"Let us go forth therefore unto him without the camp, bearing
his reproach for there have we no continueing City but we seek
one to come. By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of
praise to God continually that is the fruit of our lips giving
thanks to his name."

This my friends, by the assistance and grace of God I am
determined, that for the future I will five for Him who died for
me, and for the purpose I offer myself to this Church with the
hope for your watchful care over and prayers for me, that I
may walk worthy the profession I now desire to make.

CHAPTER THREE

STRAY LEAVES. 1824
Preface

In contemplating on the making of this book I have been
led to many serious reflections; Aitho it is composed of but
a few pages, yet I may not live to fill half of them, the all-
important scenes of Eternity may very soon open to my view
& I realize the worth of that religion which I profess or else
receive the reward of the hypocrite, where hope can never
come. How necessary is self examination that I be not de-
ceived with respect to my soul's salvation. Should my life
be spaired, & if my endeavors are blessed, this little book shall
be an help for proofs to ascertain which side I am on.

I will endeavor to pen down some truths with regard to God's
dealings with me. The subject shall be those which dwell
with peculiar weight on my mind, and which I do not often
make known to any one. I do hope that the Lord will direct
me in all my ways, to glorify Him, and eventually receive me
where the wicked will cease from troubling. Yes, I do find
that my greatest enemies are they of my own house-hold and
that a thorough change in this mortal body is necessary before
I enter on a perfect state. But I shall be satisfied when I
awake with thy likeness, 0 thou great Redeemer.

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Total Depravity
April 1824

I firmly believe in total depravity, I firmly believe that all
go astray as soon as they be born; the first breath of an Infant
is generally attended with a complaint, their first motions are
restless and uneasy, so soon as they begin to act, they begin to
sin, and so soon as they begin to speak, they utter vanity;
when their minds expand they show a dislike to that which is
good by choosing the wrong way. Children are apt to be out
of their element if confined to christian worship and do not
realize the worth of time, the imi)ortance of Eternal things.
I have become confirmed in this belief since having children
of my own. How much I see of this every day but especially
on the Sabbath, what a strong inclination to break the fourth
commandent, how averse to restraint. O how it grieves me
to behold their depravity, I do intend to lead them in the
arms of faith to His throne of grace every day, it may be the
Lord will have mercy upon them and change their hearts and
save their souls from eternal death. They are young but not
too young to die and be miserable if called away in their sins.
It is a subject of continual grief to me, and whilst in a state
of nature I can never be brought to say I am willing they should
be cast off, no it will never be my duty to be so resigned,
for it is not the will of God that they should be lost. Then O
Lord I intreat of Thee to save their souls alive, and begin the
work soon and all the praise shall be given to thy great Name.*

The Sabbath from the child's point of view. Extract from the
Autobiography written by Albert, the second son.

"March m, 1886.

"Like a good boy I was always a good meeting attendant
and was seldom found absent from my seat in church or prayer
meetings of which my parents had many at their house, all

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through the years of my youiig life. I didn't know better th:in
to believe what the minister preached but I ean well remember
how my mind revolted at the diictrines which were usually
held forth from the pulpit and .social meetinjis.

Hence 1 was generally among the (irst to get out of clnircli
into the open air and little of Orthodox doctrine accompanied
me beyond the door ste])s."

On much spcdkinq
"In the multitude of words there waiitelh not .s//(."

This is the reason why I seclude myself so nuicli from .social
society. I would enjoy a degree of .satisfaction for the time
those present and join in vain conversation and trilling aiimse-
ment with apparent ap|)rol)atioti, but all the wliile something
witliin would keep .speakiilg;, these are husks, or wood, hay or
stubble, I rather be at home and alone with my IJible or with
my work and pondering over the ])roniises, then no loss of time,
but now where is the substance, 1 have let it go and .sought
the shadow.

In the company of worhllings, there is no |)lace for me, be-
cause my abilities are not such as to afford them instruction;
and their conversation not such as to afford me jjrofit. Now
since I am convinced of these truths why not stay at home?
Why not strive to be useful to my family and im[)rove my own
mind? I want not the a|)i)lause of any one, but the appro-
bation of a good conscience towaril (iod, a stronger faith and
firmer hope, I desire to .seek after. I want to devote more
time to prayer and meditation, to reading and obeying the
Word, and thus be prepairing for the glorious change I hope
for, which I know not how .soon may come; Lord grant me
this favour, a hope in death.

Thought of a Itevmd
July 4, 182^

The Lord has come very nigh unto this i)lace in a revival
of religion in Vassalboro. How it does rejoice my heart to

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hear the jjood news, it seems to be a satisfactory evidence in
my own breast tliat I am on the Lord's side. If I was an enemy
to God I should not wish liis cause to prosper, I should not
feel this inward delifjht in reviewing his dealings to the guilty
children of men, when in such a conspicuous manner he is
taking them from the )iorril)le pit of sin & depravity.

How j)lain I see tiiat this is the work of the Lord, no human
invention could accomplish it. Paul has i)lanted, Apollos
has watered but it is God only that can give the increase.
A goodly number are already gathered into the Heavenly
fold, and the work is extending and enlarging its progress;
perhaps it will reach Winslow and come even to us, if so what
a change it will accoini)lish in the situation of all things around.
To see the Sabbath hallowed, the sanctuary filled with de-
vout anil true worshipers, listning ever and receiving hearts,
family altars erecting, converts multiplying, sinners making
the all important inijuiries, closet doors open'd to receive the
Saviour, and shut too to pray to their Father who is in secret.
Children crying Hosanna to the son of David. This will i)e
an interesting time when all must be awake and at their post.
Lord hasten it in thy time.

Thanksgivlnci
August, 1824

My heart overflows with thanksgiving, as much as my eyes
with tears, to reflect upon the sight I have just witnessed.
Our rooms were almost filled with attentive listeners to prayer
this Lord's day noon time. Two or three weeks ago it would
have been impossible to collect so many together on such an
occasion, but now they seemed to come with willing hearts.
We doubt that some came for one cause and some for another,
but they came and I trust the Lord will overrule it for good.
Yes, it is evident that God is about to visit this people with an
outpouring from on high. He has already begun a good work.

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There are ten or twelve inquirers and a number more whose
countenances bespeak concern.

O, it is my heart's desire and prayer to God that Israel
might be saved in the midst of these days, and at this very
time. Christians arise and harness yourselves anew for the
race. O, I>ord enable us all to come out from the work and
take a decided stand. May we let out light shine and by our
prayers and intercessions call down blessings upon this people.

A reformation in Winslow ! what a strange thing, no wonder
if some are lead to inquire what these things mean. Well,
I hope that all will be pricked in their hearts and cry mightily,
what shall we do. O that they may be directed to the Lamb
of God who takcth away the sins of the world.

April 1825. Another seed time is approaching, the Husband-
men are prepairing to cast .seed into the earth, in hope of a good
harvest. What an important lesson for tlie Christian. How
ought I to be laying plans for Futurity. The past year has
been a memorable one to me, in many respects. I have been
very powerfully taught tliat one generation passes away and
another takes their ]ilace. In October we were blessed with a
beautiful Son in addition to my other three. In November
we received the imexpected news of Amanda's death, she
was taken in the bloom of life and in the midst of usefulness.
In January, the ex])ected information of my mother's death
arrived. She had lived beyond the common age, for .she was
seventy six years and three months old, her last years were
blessed with the enjoyments of God's people. These things
with the attending circumstances render the last year very
interesting to me. Besides, my temporal blessings have
been uncommonly great, all the wheels seem to move to our
advantage. What shall I say to these things, O Lord ])rei)air
my heart aright, for every dispensation of the Providence.
[The next entry is April 1829.]

I have just been looking over past time. Four years have

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been rolling over their favours since the last date, blessings
too many to be enumerated. The Lord is good and His tender
mercies are over all his work. I dont know how I should bear
affliction, because I was never tryed, but I hope I should
acquiesce.

The first Sabbath in October 18,36. In looking back I find
that three years have passed away since I wrote a page in this
book, which has been devoted to religious exercises. On
page 13 I find this sentence, I dont know how I should bear
affliction because I was never tryed. But now I can say
/ have been tryed antl how have I borne it. Three successive
trials have been laid upon mc, and altho not minuted down at
the time, yet they are all present in my mind. On these
subjects my memory is good.

I well remember the sleepless nights, the gloomy mornings
and hea\'y evenings I have passed through. In each three,
every day witnessed a new blow which seemed to open a new
vein to bleed afresh. But out of them all the Lord has delivered
me, and I am this day happy and in the enjoyment of many
distinguished blessings.

I have been permitted to come to the table of the Lord with
many pleasing anticipations. Our dear Pastor brought to
view the children of the flock, my mind irresistably turned
upon all eight of my own and all out of the Ark of safety.
My heart sunk within me, and I could scarce refrain from
uniteing with David and say Oh Absalom, my Son, my Son
Absalom, but I will look again toward the Holy hill of Zion
where God is.

March, 1837. Today I have been permited to assemble
around the table of our divine Redeemer, to commemorate
his dying love. While sitting in silence I thought of my chil-
dren for their eternal welfare lies nearest my heart. It affords
me unspeakable consolation to reflect that two of them have
experienced a hope of pardoning mercy. This is surely the

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greatest blessing ever bestowed upon me, but yet I am not
contented, I'm not satisfied for there are my sons all out of the
ark of safety, all thoughtless, careless sinners, enemies to God
opposed to his will and negligent of the great salvation. But
I will not despair, but endeavor to bring them to thee for par-
don and acceptance. Dear Jesus wilt thou receive them and
wash them in the fountain open for Judah and Jerusalem.

A Resolution
May IS, 18.37.

I frequently form resolutions and as frequently break them,
but I will endeavor to abide by this one. Last Sabbath our
school was reorganized and I have taken 7 imder my care,
it is a responsible charge, if God does not assist, my labors will
be in vain.

Now I am resolved to pray for them in rotation, one Sabbath
I will converse with one and during the week will pray for
that one, and I hope (not to the neglect of the rest) to keep
that one in mind during the week. The next week I will take
another and so on. It may be that Jesus will hear my petition,
that the Holy spirit will be sent down upon us this year in more
copious effusions than was ever known in Winslow. I wish
all ive teachers would rise and call upon the Lord and take
firm hold upon the promises.

Of Grandmother's "visions," a granddaughter writes:

"As to the "visions" I would surely put in at least one,
for the comfort and pleasure which it might give to such of
her descendants as may inherit her habit of mind. Many of
us have these visions and perhaps no one of us has taken them
too seriously. I mean that we have allowed them to influence
our minds for good but have never let them injure our mental
balance. We have of necessity been too closely tied to material
things to become "visionaries" and are too inherently honest
to claim more for them than is their due. They have helped

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me over many hard places and I am deeply grateful that this
little bit of grandmother was bequeathed to me."

Of her own visions. Grandmother writes, January 1, 1838

It is in the silent watches of the night that I visit heaven,
and converse with former friends, and when I rise in the morn-
ing I feel as tho I had seen them and sometimes I can carry
forward the conversation amidst domestic affairs.

J 'i.sii»iari/ Thoiiglitu
December 2~ , 1837

Twas in the silent hour of night,
And balmy sleep forsook my eyes,
Methought I left this world of sin
And faith conveyed me to the skies.

An open door was before me, or a broad gateway toward
which I directed my steps, as I advanced a beautiful form
appeared at a distance, it drew near, and in a moment I recog-
nized my dear Harriet and with a voice "not earthly" she
advanced "Mother have you come?"

She did not appear as formerly when she returned from
school, tired and fatigued and seat herself in her little low chair,
or throw her weary body upon my bed a few moments. Neither
was she kneeling in prayer and asking pardon for her sins and
that God would bless her brothers with a new heart. No,
not that, but she was arrayed in a pure white flowing robe,
and on her head was a small neat crown lieset with diamonds
too dazzling to fix my eye upon. Something was in her right
hand which as she extended her left to me, she struck upon a
kind of raised platform and with these accompanying words
"another ransomed sinner has arrived" and as quick as thought
the echo flew, it vibrated, and was lost in the broad expanse.
Again she struck a different cord and loud Hallelujahs, glory
& honour, praise & power, was given to God and the Lamb,
Thousands of voices joined and it was like the Sound of many

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Waters, As we walked on a little distance two blessed ones
were coming to meet us, it was my Father & Mother, again
the sound of praise was struck and again heavenly echos re-
peated, — at whatever direction I turned my eyes, countless
multitude of happy beings, all arrayed in glory met my aston-
ished vi.sion.

I asked my Mother if my Sister were here, at which she
raised her hand which contained a shining thing and struck
it upon an Altar on which stood an instrument of nuisic, the
well known sound soon brought my Sister.

We walked about the golden streets
And viewed the glories of the place.

At a distance was a group of little children. There said my
Mother in that company are your two infant brothers of whom
you have heard me speak while on earth and for the loss of them
you have seen me drop a tear. She spoke to them and as they
raised their eyes in reply, the whole infant choir burst into
one song of praise to their Redeemer. I thought of my brother
Timothy who lived a sinner but died trusting in Jesus and
ventured to ask for him. The answer was returned "yes, he
is here, he trusted in Jesus and He did not forsake him." As
I turned to look towards the place from whence came shouts
of glory, my dear Brother caught my eye. He extended his
hand with joyful exclamation and gratitude for the happy
meeting. I had not seen him on earth after he had entertained
a hope in Christ. I told him that he had come in at the eleventh
hour, "I know it" said he, "I know it but I am made ecjual to
those who have bourn the burden and heat of the day," and
again the heavenly song was repeated.

I once had on earth a favourite Aunt a Beloved Sister of
my Mother. I thought of her and spoke her name. She
stood before me arrayed in glorious form. My eyes surveyed
this happy company of Family friends while my mind returned
to earth to compare numbers and as I stood meditating, a

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rush of tender feelings almost overpowered me. I remembered
one who was my beloved mate and Cousin. In my earliest
childhood we were never so happy as when we were together,
and neither had complete enjoyment without the other. She
languished and died while young and left no evidence of re-
pentance.

I did not dare to ask for her, but my Aunt as tho anticipating
my thoughts, with a heavenly smile pointed to something
which she called a Golden Viol in the hand of a distinguished
personage; "Think you" said she "I have not prayers con-
tained in that which savor of sincerity? Have I not brought
her in the arms of Faith and laid her at Jesus feet?" She
pointed to a company of young Virgins which appeared more
glorious than can be described. One began to make towards
us, and as .she advanced I distinctly heard the.se words. " Re-
pent ye therefore and be converted that your sins may be
blotted out, when the time of refreshing shall come from the
presence of the Lord." It was my beloved Cousin Esther
Grant and as she flung her arms around my waist she asked
if I did not remember the time when on earth we were walking
thus in return from the meeting and conversing on that text
which our dear Minister had been preaching from. The whole
scene rushed forcibly to my mind — "Well," said she "from
that time I lived a life of repentance but I did not make it
manifest, and this was my great sin. That dear minister is
here and I have seen him, and he calls me a star in the crown of
his rejoicing."

I was about to ask many questions, but perchance I cast
my eyes upon my own apparel and thought of Joshua who was
clothed with filthy garments and stood before the Angel. /
was clothed with Flesh, they were Spirits. I turned to go
feeling unworthy of their society and quick as thought I found
myself upon a wearisome bed with a violent head-ache and
a mind full of disappointment.

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Awake or sleep is quite unknown to me,
Yet all these pleasant things my Vision see.

Wliile on my couch at night I lay,
My soul rose upward — far away.
And to my vision, things reveald
Which while on earth remain conceald.

Psalm 31, .32. Blessed be the Lord:

For he hath showed me his marvellous kindness in a strong city.

January 1, 1838. Another year has closed and the morning
of a New Year arrived, and how has it found myself and family.
With regard to the former, in health and surrounded with all
the blessings, heart could wish as relates to temporal things.
But of my family one has gone, dear Harriet, this is her birth-
day, sixteen years. All the children have thought of it and
many tears have fallen. Harriet, dear Harriet I love to speak
your name. Last night I was awake nearly all night endeavor-
ing to fortify my mind for the morning, as no one knows my
heart but God.

December 3, 1838. For a number of weeks past I have been
thinking much about my four sons; all unconverted sinners.
If God should make them all christians this year it would
be marvelous, but he is able, he is willing, it is in his power;
giving does not impoverish him nor withholding enrich him.
where is the blame if they are not all righteous this month?
Not on the Lord, surely, but on themselves and me. I wish
I could be faihtful to God for this month in one thing i.e. in
prayer for Charles, Albert, Benjamin & Timothy. W^ho
knoweth if He will hear and answer. O it seems to me that
then I could depart in peace. The time draws near, only
four weeks, there are four sons to be converted, it is a great
work but it is God's work and he is great, a great Saviour.
How much I desire a part of that faith which Sampson had
when he extended his arm to feel the pillars on which the
house rested.

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Thurfidaij. Last evening our Wednesday evening prayer
meeting was held at Robert Drummonds, only three brethren
present, but it was a blessed meeting. God gave them utter-
ance and a spirit of prayer. There was one brother in Christ
who (it was evident) God made. He has no learning, scanty
natural abilities; he has a poor chance for religious education.
Hut liis prayer and remarks showed that he was taught of God
and that eventually his heavenly Father will give him all
things richly to po.ssess. I should much rather tha*^ any one
of my sons .should be like him with his religion than to be an
earthly monarch without an interest in Christ. O yes far, far
preferable.

Harriet's grave
J nil/, 9, IS.'tl.

Just four years and one niontii since Harriet died. I have
this morning visited her grave, delightful spot! How much
of heaven is contained in that little enclosure, no spot on earth
is so dear to me and how many hours of heavenly meditation

I have had there, none but my Fatlier in Heaven knows.

\Miile I am there I .seldom wish my Harriet back to earth again,
because I view her as she noic Ik, all glorious and completely
happy out of all reach of toil and anxiety, disappointment
and sorrow, and in the full enjoyment of God to all eternity.

A great many roses are in full bloom on and abo7tt her grave,
many more have permitted their leaves to fall off and they
lie in handfuls underneath their stalk. What a lesson for
meditation. I gathered up handfuls and strewed them over
her grave and ere ever I was aware I exclaimed aloud "receive
this dear Harriet as a token of love." Shall I ever forget her?
No! for when my voice is lost in death I shall extend my hand
to clasp hers, being so near her.

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Trust in God
November, 1842.

"0 my soul trust thou only in God for my desire is to him."
These liave been comforting words to me for the last week.
Trust only I have no where else to go only to God. — A favour-
able breeze, a sound eanoe, and a skillful oarsman are nothing
without the help of the Lord, only his kind arm is my hope.
This comfort was given me right from heaven, I did not gather
it from the Bible, for it is not there so recorded. It was delt
out to my agonizing soul at a time when I was about my work
and had no time to examine Holy writ. But it was just the
time when I wanted consolation and I had none to look to
only to God. I have now made up my mind to trust in the
Lord at all times and in all places and also endeavor to wait
patiently for him that when he comes to call for me I may be
found ready and willing to depart.
[Then comes the last record]
Sabbath morn Feb. 26, 18^3.

This is the first Sabbath that Timothy (19 years old) has
spent in the service of God. The second Charlotte has. They
both have surrendered their hearts to the Saviour in their
youth.

CHAPTER FOUR
"SKETCH BOOK"

Preface

In tlie Autumn of 1844 my dear Albert & Mary with the
precious daughter Mary Abby made a visit of a few weeks at
the home-stead. Mary's heaitli and spirits were in somewhat of
a low state, and to divert the mind I read to her a few pages
from my scrap book at which she appeared gratified. — The
circumstance passed away with the every rolling wheel of time,
and on my part was nearly forgotten.

Not so with them for on February 27 I received this valuable
"Blank book" accompanied with the following letter which
hereafter shall be one of my reasons for writing down a few
of my thoughts and feelings on various subjects which come
before the mind. Thus while I live they may be useful to
me and after I am no longer an inhnbitant of earth they will
cherish recollections of one for whom they have ever mani-
fested the most tender regard.

A. W. Paine.

Copy of letter.

Dear Mother, —

We were so much pleased with the specimens
which you read us from the Stray Leaves of your i)ortfolio
that we were desirous of giving them as much permanence as
possible by having them and your future cogitations more
permanently inscribed.

For this purjjose, please accept the accompanying Blank
book which we presume will be agreeable to you, not only as a
more substantial but more convenient vehicle in which to pen
down your future "thoughts."

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When you shall have covered its pages, we shall be very
happy to furnish you with book 2.

Very truly.

Your affectionate Children,
Albert and Mary.
Bangor Fehij 26, 18i5.

Dedication
To my Children
Albert Ware, Mary Jones & their daughter Mary Abby Paine.
To you I dedicate this book with the hope that when Loves
pure flame lies mouldering in the dust, and "one lamp, a
mother's love has gone out" its contents may beguile a few of
your leisure moments while passing through this thorney
maze. And add one feeble testimony to your faith that where-
ever Jesus is there is the happy spirit of departed Mother.

A few thoiiglitf! at the receiving of this book

March 6, 1845.

It was evening and my kind hearted son B stepped

across the floor and handed me this book without note or
comment. I opened it and under its first cover found the
foregoing letter. Read with careful attention then handed
it to my children who were sitting round the stand with a
number of young associates who had called in to spend a social
hour.

Then my mind flew off into the following train of reflections.
Does Albert think I shall live to cover these pages, yet he has
spoken of "Book 2nd." Does he know that I have little
time to write and less matter? It is a pity to spoil such a nice
book with a few vague scribblings and leave it a useless thing.

A few weeks ago I wrote over the last pages of my old manu-
script and was thinking whether it was advisable to pin in
another sheet and now here comes this new bound book, surely
this is something like, New Church Doctrines, I suppose he

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is after my Visionary Thoughts! But if he gets them in this
book, hope he will also get some instruction better calcuUited
to lead his mind to the true Fountain of all good.

This and much more were my musings while sitting in the
midst of Lively social)ility.

The next record being out of place as to time, is confusing,
but as Grandmother inserted it here, I retain her order, con-
necting the beginning of the book with the end. It is addressed
to her son Albert.
December 6 1S4S. My birthday ae 61.

A feio reasons win/ I have sent ihis buuk and additional remarks
In your recent extreme illness and at a time when I had
reason to believe that I should never again hear your voice
eitlier in accents of affection or in form of request, so common
from children to tlieir mother, I pondered over what I had
done or omitted to do not in accordance with your wishes or
the divine will, so far as I had been instructed. One item was
I might have sent you this book for I recollected that a number
of times you had hinted the subject saying you should like
"to look it over a few minutes." So here it conies, but it is
not what it was when I received it from you. .\ltho its exterior
is the same whicli goes to show how carefully it has been
handled, rolled up in a napkin, not so the leithin, for then every
page was as pure as white raiment, but now every leaf bears
the mark of imperfections. May it not be that these scribbles
shall divert attention too much from the more vseful reading.

In looking it over you will find that many originals com-
mence and end on the same page, the reason is this, my times
for writing are exceeding short, besides my head nor heart do
not contain literary enough at a time to cover only a page of

twenty six lines. You will see by the dates that this book

contains a large part of my wTiting for nearly four years,
therefore I do not think it duty to give it exclusively to you,
beside in it is embodied a pretty full Genealogj- of the four

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branches of your Anrestry, Ijeside records and items which
hereafter may be interesting to your brothers & sisters.

Have patience, dear children to read another paragraph
in rekition to the mixed multitude of subjects it contains.
Whenever you find a leisure moment to read and nothing
better at hand, I would advise that you go to the Index for
selection, then you can take such a slice as you please (if it is
there) otherwise you may meet with something akin to a rail-
road disaster for the tears of sorrow and the baubles of vanity
stand side by side.

I cannot close this communication without expressing my
sincere thanks for this Book, for it has been to me a source of
great comfort. Writing is sometimes called a labour but in
this instance not so, with only one exception. In the making
out and arranging the Genealogy of "The Paines" I lay awake
one night till the clock struck fifty two times, but it chanced
to be on a Monday after a hard day's work and I went to bed
before nine o'clock.

In the Recorder, there is a copy of a letter written by Grand-
mother in rhyme to her son Timothy. In closing she says,

"I would also inform you that
Our noble Time piece, useless thing.
Its Pendulum has ceased to swing.
The Artist gone, the ticking ceased,
The weights ne'er move to give release.
The hands ne'er change by heat or cold
To warn us that we are growing old.
The TuUp on its face so gay
Ne'er opens with the light of day.
For lifeless is that visage now
And cold as marble is its brow."
The face with its wooden wheels was given to me in 1886.
It has been restored as a wag-on-the-wall clock and strikes
as it did in 1811, and the hands e'er change by heat and cold.
It was in the old homestead seventy-five years.'

' For photograpli of old clock see cut of " Timoth}''3 Chamber."

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In "Daily Thoughts" she writes,

Feh. 8, 18i9. This morning Charles Paine came in in a
hurry saying, you can send that book to Albert by Uncle Eaton
if you will be quick, the stage is now against the meeting house,
be quick.

Oh ! how I did jump and get it qidrk and with a slightly wrap
up sent it off. Success to the journey and a kind reception.

A Manifestation of God. Sabhatli.
August, 18'-2'2.

The Lord hath magnified himself unto his children as he
doth not unto the World. This truth I have realized of late
in a very singular manner. After hearing a Sermon relative
to the Great Church of Christ I was lead to inquire of my own
heart whether I was one of its members. I thought it was just
as separate from the world as tho it was encircled by a wall of
fire. After examining my own feelings I felt that it was within
bounds. I was walking in the open field with my mind all
enraptured with these meditations, there appeared to me the
most beautiful bed of strawberries that my eyes ever beheld-
It was on my right hand & on my left hand but none in the
path. (For I was then in the patli which lead to the Spring
and where my family go many times in each day for water.)
I stopped suddenly to behold this great sight, this uncommon
appearance. I pondered aloud. It is the Lord. I thought —
The place whereon thou standeth, is holy ground. I did not
pull off my Shoe for fear it would be sin. I shut up my eyes,
then opened them again, to find if I was deceiv'd, but they
were still there, I examined whatever I thought might lead
to a deception, still they appeared real. I put down my hand
(tho not in the attitude of picking for I knew) — For a small

circle round, they vanished 1 moved my hand along,

they also moved. Again I rose up and stood to meditate
and adore. Again I shut up my eyes. I opened them, the

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strawberries had vanished, I turned myself toward the West
and the glory of the Lord shone unspeakably. Again I closed
my eyes — I wiped them, but there were no tears, I did not
feel like crying. I had no fear, neither did I think to ask
even one petition. I looked again, all had vanished but the
whole scene is so indelibly stamped upon my mind, that nothing
but loss of reason will ever banish it from my perfect recol-
lection.

It is the Lord and O what wonder that he should condescend
to look upon me in mercy and place my feet on "holy ground."
In a few hours it will be one week since this extraordinary scene
and all this time I have had but few fears of my eternal wellfare.
I desire to cherish tho.se feelings I had when standing before
God. A solemn awe pervaded my whole soul, but no agitated
fear overcame me and if ever I spent one moment without
sin it was at that time.

What shall I render unto the Lord for all his benefits toward
me? Purge me that I may bring forth more fruit to thy
glory. O Lord my God.

RemitiU-ccnces
Transcribed, 18^5.

When Albert Ware Paine was thirteen years and eight
months old, it was determined by his parents that he should
have a college education. Accordingly in May 1826 his father
went with him to Waterville and placed him in the Academy
which was then taught in the College building. As they left
the house, my eyes & prayers followed hard after them. My
petition was "O lord I beseech Thee make him a Minister of
Jesus Christ," and thus my prayers have been continued till
this day May 13, 1832, but as yet it is like Elijah's petition,
there is no sign nor no answer, perhaps by & bye I shall see a
little cloud upon his brow which will prove to be the weight of
sin discovered and then I shall watch with great anxiety until

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the light of God's countenance shines into his soul and sets
him free.

Transcribed 1845. I do feel that faith revives and my dowTi-
cast spirits are cheered with hope divine. 0, My Father in
Heaven let me see the day when my second son shall go forth
to minister in the name of the Lord. And in the end of Life's
journey give him dying grace and an abundant entrance into
The Heavenly kingdom; and all the glory will forever be to
the great Jehovah.

April 184'J- ^ly mind has been so fluctuating for a few
weeks past that I am perfectly tired of myself. I feel that
"the fountains of the great deep are broken up." As I was
sitting in the sanctuary today, I thought that my mind was
like a tub of rain-water that had stood many days under the
eaves. When a pail of pure water is poured into it how power-
fully it disturbs the sediment and it is all commotion; just so
is my mind, only I am at a loss to know whether the pail of
water thus poured is pure. There is the point with me at
present. How long I shall remain in uncertainty is unknown.
I trust that when I get home to my Heavenly Father, then
I shall understand all about the " resurrection story "' which so
agitates the public mind at this day of restless uneasiness.
Till then I am willing to submit my body and care of my
soul to the great and mighty God.

The Hebrew Language
31 arch 4, ISJfO.

All my dear Saviour's instructions were given in the Hebrew
language. This thought added a double interest to the scene
which took place, last evening. "A step light as an antelope's
the threshold pressed and like a beam of light into the room
entered" Timothy.

With a quick voice he exclaimed "I have commenced the

'By " resurrection story " she probably means the resurrection of man's body
at death.

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study of Hebrew, it took nie about half an hour to learn the
A, B, C-s and I have learned that I must look at the last of
Revelation to find "'In the beginning God created the heavens
and the earth."

There is nothing that comes within my notice that so much

interests me as T advancement in knowledge. He is so

delighted with a new idea. I did not appear to much notice
his remark lest he should perceive the truth of my strong
attachment to him, he is daily throwing out fibres to twine
around my heart.

As he has commenced the study of my Saviour's instructions
in Hebrew so I hope he will continue through life to "search
and look" into his precepts and examples and thereby be
prepared for a seat with all the redeemed at God's right hand
forever.

April, 1845.

For a few days past I have had a kind of feeling which bor-
ders on — I want to take all my children and go to my Heavenly
Father's house. One after another are going out from me in
one and another direction and I feel (|uite lonely. . . .

Timothy is taking flight and going out from me in a different
way; This also has caused me much serious meditation, my
mind has been continually fluctuating for the last few weeks
on account of his change of sentiment, when I get settled down
into a calm repose on the subject I do not know how I shall
stand but hope to feel firmer and more substantial than I now
do. Were it not for his vicir.i on prayer and prayer meetings,
I should feel more resigned but I have given him to God and
shall I ask him back? Rather let me be thankful for the hope
that eventually He will take him to himself.

Wednesday August 20, lSJf5. Today for the first time in
this generation there has a New-Church minister arrived at
Winslow and offered his .services in the pulpit. He came up
from Bath to Hallowell, this morning went on board The

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Water-witch, and reached this house at one o'clock p.m. Rev.
S. F. Dike after he had dined, took seat with Timothy in our
little carriage to notify a meeting at seven, this evening. The
result is known only to God, for my own part I view it as an
important event. No doubt it will make a Stir and cause a
Dust. There are a number of our Society that have been
looking toward the subject of the New-Church doctrine for
some time past, but this appointment is so sudden and the
notice so short, it will avail but little, but enough to make
a talk and fuss.

I intend to submit my part of the concern to my heavenly
Father for I have long ago learned that He knows best how to
govern difficult plans. If God is about to raise up a N. C.
in Winslow how puny my own would be in defense. I look
back twenty seven years ago and remember what he did at
the establishment of this present church for surely it was the
work of the Lord and has been abundantly blessed. I will
therefore in this as at other times Trust in the Lord for Jehovah
is everlasting strength.

Timothy, to his brother Albert in Bangor
Winslow, Sept. 29, 1845.

"P. S. They have at last concluded to let us go from the
Church. The vote has passed; so we are free. May we and
all go together towards that 'Holy Temple.'"

To Albert
Winslow, May 12, 1846.

Sunday before last we had twenty at our meeting, not
counting children, four were from Sebasticook, one of them is
the Methodist's Minister's wife. Carohne and Mrs. Stratton
have asked for a dismission from the Old Church and a ' recom-
mendation' to the New. It made others stare. They were
suspended till July.

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Many things t.ake place worth telhng; one can hardly go
amiss of New-Church Books. Of these by and by.

Timothy.

Jjily 19, 1846. Shall attend the 'Association' at Portland
by the permission of Providence, shall go to Bath on Tuesday;
stop with Mr. Dike with whom I shall go to the Meetings
he has made the arrangement for us. — Shall return, I hope
in good spirits (rather among good Spirits) to my last year's
labor (in College).

We prosper well in Winslow. The New Church is as dear
as ever; we hold regular meetings on Sundays at Brother
Charles's. The sisters have formed a society for aiding in
the advancement of the cause of truth.

T. O. Paine, [to Albert]

June 7, 1848. Wednesday morning. My dear Timothy
has just left home for Boston to attend the anniversary meet-
ing, N. C. Farewell to him, may our Heavenly Father pro-
tect you (was all I could say and that was enough) there is no
one else I wish to give you up to. I feel a sweet confidence
that he will protect and guide and keep and after a term return
him to me again and finally gather us and those into his King-
dom. There will be no farewells.'

The Reception of a letter '
Winslow May 9, 1851.

Oh it does my heart good to hear such information as has
reached my ears today. Timothy is again received into the
church Militant and been permitted to the table of the precious
Saviour of sinners. What joy it gives a mother that her chil-
dren walk in the truth, the true way that leads to glory ever-
lasting at God's right hand, to the blessed employment of

1 See Stray Leaves. Feb. 26, 1843.
* From "The Recorder."

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saints & angels around the throne of the Lamb. Happy
Timothy! happy on earth, happy forever; my lieavenly Father
will never turn him off. — away from his presence into outer
darkness. God could never have given all this light, grace,
love, heavenly communion with himself if he had not designs
of favour on his soul. How bright his path, how radient with
the joy set before him; Bles.sed Son I have no wish to have it
otherwise with thee, than just as it is. The Almighty has led
thee in a good and safe way, thou hast been kept low and nigh
the earth as regards pecuniary means, and if thou hadst fallen
it would have been but a little way.

Dear child, the strong arms of the Gospel are round thee on
every side. Satan is too weak to break over the Eternal
bounds which God has set. Whom tlie Lord loveth, he loveth
to the end. Strive ever to live near the Altar and dont fail
to cast the net on the right side of the Ship. And now, my
heavenly Father I commend liiin unto thee in prosperity or
adversity, in sickness and health, in life or in death, in this
world or the other. Thou Lord art good and thy works are
good forever and glory lie to thy great and holy Name and let
all the people say Amen.

It was the Sabbath day. May the fourth one thousand eight
hundred and fifty one, that a Church was organized in Bangor
of thirteen members under the New Church Discipline by the
Rev. Samuel Dike of Bath, of which Timothy Otis Paine was
one of the number.

In connection with the change in Uncle Timothy's religious
views, the following extract from a letter written by my father
to my mother before marriage may be of interest. From the
fact that there was an interval of five years between his letter
to his home and the "coming out of the church" of the Winslow
brothers and sisters, it would seem as if my father must have
been the first of the family to make the change and that he,
probably, was instrumental in "leading the others away."

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(four days before Marriage)

Bangor, July 5, ISW-
Dear Mary, — I have just finished writing a whole sheet
to sister Carohne. The time of my writing gave me occasion
to write on the subject of going to meeting and on the subject
of the New Church. I suspect they will think me almost a
heathen and a heretic from my talking as I have. I thought
however I might as well as not speak out and let them know
what I believed. I do not know that my parents know of my
staying away from meeting as I do and I presume they will
take it much to heart when they come to learn the truth and
the whole truth. I thought it best to tell them and in my
letter to Caroline I have done so and given my reasons for

the course.

Albert.

Bccollections of Harriet
June 9, 1845.

It is now just eight years since my dear Harriet left this
for the eternal world, and yet the scene is as vivid before my
mind's eye as though it was but one year. It is now three
o'clock P.M. and about the same hour that the family one
after another went to her pillow to receive her last kiss and
pleasant "good-bye."

I had a strong opinion that she would say something worthy
of remembrance and as she was very weak I knelt down that
my ear might catch the soft whisper. I knew but little of
what I was about to witness. All on a sudden she turned her
eyes towards the door and stretched out her hand with a hand
shake as tho she had met a friend and exclaimed "Abby,
Abby," evidentally meaning Abby Eaton who had died a few
weeks before and who was Harriet' a little favourite.

She then for a few moments appeared to be just going, when
all at once she began to sing with such an heavenly voice.
Her notes were truly angelic and the words are contained in
Rev. fifteenth chap. "The Song of Moses & the Lamb."
Her voice died away and we all thought her gone.

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With an audible voice I spoke this word "The glories of
heaven open to her voice." In an instant she opened her eyes
and I said — "My dear Harriet you have come back to earth
again." Her answer was "I sliould not if you had not spoke"

and I thought her eyes seems to liave a reproaching look

I felt it and thought I would not call back again. Again
she swooned away and again we thought her gone, — It was

a number of minutes As (juick as thought she extended

her arm directly upward and with her finger pointing upward
waving her hand around and round exclaimed "good-by."
Her arm drooped — slie was gone. Happy, thrice happy
spirit / would nut call thee back again.

It is Wisdom that a veil is spread over the glories of futurity.

Retirement
August 15, 18Jf5

I desire to live in constant view of death and realize the
uncertainty of life and earthly comforts. I dont know that
I feel afraid to die for I feel an assurance that God will give
me dying grace and a glimpse of that glory which He has
already revealed to me at times when I was not looking for
it. That this may be the case I will ever pray while reason
rules.

A Contest. Predestination and Free Agency

In the summer of 1844 as the sun was lowering in the West,
I thought to go to my dear Harriet's grave where I had so
often held sweet communion with my God. I therefore took
a pail for water as I should pass nigh the Spring, that I might
accomplish a double purpose of allaying the thirst of soul and
body. Passing along in deep meditation I filled my pail and
brought it out to the path which led to the grave and sat it
down, but just as I was about to proceed the thought came
with great force, "if I go and kneel at Harriet's grave I shall

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*
die there." The answer was, ivell I am wilhng to go to God
if he pleases, but the question came up was I ready? Was
I prepaired? Could I leave all behind without returning to
the house? Yes I will go. Then it came to my mind "Thou
shalt not tempt the Lord thy God" and was I willing to go
into Eternity in direct violation of one of God's commands?
I began to consider the consequence relative to my family.
I shall soon be missed in the house, they will look for me in the
closet, I am not there. Knowing that I am in a habit of visit-
ing the grave at this time of day, they will seek me there and
find me dead, by the side of Harriet's grave. What conster-
nation and alarm will run through the family circle, and then
the neighborhood, and at this lonely hour just as all nature is
going to repose, am I willing to cause all this alarm?

I meditated — I reflected — I thought — I half resolved to
go. "Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God" again forced
itself into my mind. —

At length the answer was, I am afraid of God, I fear God, —
He has put it in my power to return to the house if I please.
I took up my pail and set it down in the house because I was
a. free moral agent. But I still think that if I had gone and knelt
at the grave I should have been found there a lifeless corpse. —

The subject needs no comment from me, and I shall only
add, it is one of those great Truths of the great Jehovah which
are too high, too broad and too deep for man to fathom.

Let us all believe, obey, and adore the great and mighty
God over all blessed forever more.

A Jew reflections on the decay of my Bible

Nov. 26, 1820.

When I was about eleven years old, my Father died and
soon after my Mother bought this Bible and presented it to
me, at that time I little thought what it contained. I scarcely
thought it was the word of God and that in it was all that was

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necessary for me to know with regard to my eternal welfare. —
I was only pleased with its binding, its fair print and my childish
disposition was gratified in having such a nice volume in my
own possession. — But now how changed are my views.

In this very Bible I have learned all that I know of God,
it has taught me the way to heaven and how to escape eternal
punishment.

In tliis Bible I have learned to read (I trust) with an under-
standing heart. I have learned that God is a Father to the
Fatherless.

I have found also that the natural heart is at enmity with
God and that I must be horn again. I was distressed and
knew not what to do. It pointed me to Christ but my sins
were so heavy that I could .scarcely raise my head, when in a
sudden I seemed to liear tliese words "Rejoice and be exceeding
glad for great is your reward in Heaven." I flew to the Bible
where I found the words directly from the lips of Him whom my
soul loved. In tliis book I have found what the life of a
Christian ought to be. I can also find that he knoweth our
frame and remembers that we are but dust.

But, alas! alas! how decayed is this precious volume, the
binding is entirely gone, tlie account of the creation of the
World, Adam's fall, the first promise of a Saviour, Noah's
flood, God's first covenant with Abram.

And now the first verse of the first chap is "And Jacob went
on his way, and the Angels of (iod met him." Genesis 32°''
chap. What an imjiortant and comprehensive verse, volumes
might be written from it.

But when I turn to the New Testament, I find it more
changed. Many of St. Paul's epistles gone, James, Peter,
the epistle of John and Jude are not to be found, but what is
more to be lamented is the beautiful book of Revelation entirely
gone. — I sometime look forward to the time when no vestige
of it will remain and say to myself what shall I do for no other

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Bible appears quite equal. In any other I am at a loss to know
where to find the precious promises, on what page or column
they are recorded. At other times I am ready to conclude
it will last as long as I shall stand in need of its instruction,
therefore I am determined to embrace the last verse it now
contains and apply to my own heart and say "But godliness
with contentment is great gain." 1 Timothy 6-6 verse. —

April, 1846.

The foregoing Lament on the prospect of the destruction of
my Bible was made 26 years ago, and for many years last past
I have experienced the sad truth that my Bible has ceased to
be. Occasionally I meet a few pages among the old rubbish
on some secjuestered shelf.

Wherever I meet it, it is saved.

Three Weeks at a Boarding School

January 181)6.

It has been said, but with no good propriety, that a young
lady of nineteen or twenty has "Finished her education."
But it is not true unless at that age death takes her away and
even then it is absurd, improper, there is no finishing to edu-
cation in the Broad, neither in the shorter sense, because there
is nothing perfect under the Sun.

But it is not my object to enlarge on this point it is all plain
to him who will consider.

I am fifty seven years old and have recently been to a Board-
ing School three weeks and altho my board was Gratis, yet I
paid my Tuition. The lessons I took were salutary. I found
myself to be a dull scholar, hard to commit, but the lessons
once learned will be long treasured up and will I hope, be of
perpetual advantage and never failing source for meditation.

To stand or sit in a sick room for three weeks and know that
the patient has been there for months or even years without

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being permitted but seldom to leave it on her feet, to look at
her confined entirely to her Bed unable to scarcely turn herself
or be taken up without injury, entirely dependant on the kind
offices of friends and must even die without their aid, all this
and more, who would not call it a school, who would not call
it taking lessons?

And now I am old I will not depart from it.

Meditation
Sept. 15, 1846.

I want to be submissive to the Divine wil and yet I have a
work to do that must not be neglected, example and precept
must go hand in hand. My work is to do the will of my Father
and it is his will that / take a kind oversight of my own household
and stitdy for their good. They are young and erring, but the
Saviour said " \Yhat is that to thee follow thou me." There-
fore I must abide by the truth and the truth will make me free
indeed. I will trust and not be afraid, relying upon divine
wisdom.

My Uncle Benjamin with his children Daniel, Annah and
Frederic lived in a part of the homestead.

New Year, January 1, 1847.
This morning before I left my lodging I was saluted with
"A Happy New Year, A Happy New Year," from my dear
Uttle Daniel and Annah and accompanyed with an invitation
to dme with them as they said their mother would have a turkey
for dmner. As they spoke they stood in the dining room.
I looked out to see them, they were but half dressed and ap-
peared so sincere and lovely. Blessed Babes! thought I,
who can deny your request. A Happy New Year, a Happy
New Year, was the response, yes, I will come and may you
live to enjoy many happy new years and continue to diffuse
joy and gladness into the New Jerusalem above.

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March 18^8. Calling to Remembrance.

Little Annah and the Peony Buds.

O, Grandmother! just see what I've got! cried Httle Annah
as she came in from the front yard with her hand extended
and in it a peony bud and her countenance beaming with
animation and joy. O, Annah what have you done now? asked
her grandmother with a look of surprise mingled with a frown.
"Wy I've got a whole parcel in my pocket" said she, and she
began to feel for her pockethole. Grandmother offered her
service to unpack when it was found that fen were stored away
in that receptacle. Grandmotlier stood a moment to reflect
whether to severely blame or turn it off with a laugh while the
dear child stood waiting her fate with a kind of mingled con-
fidence with fear. I determined upon the latter thinking that
before another season of Peony buds I should teach her a lesson
far better than an angry one.

She turned her heel in her own natural motion and darted
off to enjoy all the pleasure derived from a clear conscience
and a Grandmother's approbation. Blessed child, thought I,
you shall have your wish from me were it half my kingdom.

She was a precious "bud" but now gone to that land of pure
delight to bloom in eternal day.

Sweet Annah died January 18, 1848 Ae 4 yrs 3 months,
after an illness of 36 hours (extreme suffering) scarlet fever
& canker rash, much lamented by all who ever had knowledge
of her.

Sweet Annah
May 18, 1848.

It is now just four months since my dear Sweet Annah
left us for the eternal world. — Lovely child how well I remem-
ber all her little plays and interesting remarks. How pretty
she would creep round my old rocking chair and be very still
lest she should wake up Grandmother and then that hearty

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laugli, liow it would butuid out as she watched to see me open
my eyes. How precious she was when on Saturday as I was
cooking for the Sabbath, she would come out to help, with her
little rolling-pin and thimble to make holes in the upper pie-
crust and then the doughnuts, what multitudes of little ones
she would make to furnish her own table with "Brother
Danny." Then there was her little tea .set all washed and
put away in perfect order, only the day before she was taken
sick .

How still and pleasant she would come out at meal time
and get under my elbow and look up in my face with such
a heavenly bewildering smile and accept of my invitation
to "sit up and take tea with us."

O, my dear! sweet Annah ! How can I do longer without
seeing and hugging you to my bosom. These sweet kisses
and pleasant remarks, the laughing "good-nights" and "happy
good mornings!" The blessings bestqwed on us the last six
months she was with us and the strong ties which bound us
together. All broken in a few short hours. [Compare with
Total Depravity .']

Mann rig Ble-ts'ingx
Sept. 18, 1847.

I raised my head from my pillow this morning and drew
away the curtains. — Another delightful day my Father has
given me, thought I. The sun had just risen and sent out a
gentle hint that if I wished to run with him through the day I
must leave my bed; the soft beautiful rays reflected upon the
side casement of the window and I would not resist its force.
I listened a moment to ascertain if my husband had performed
his accustomed office of the first half hour and the crackling
of hemlock kindlings assured me the truth.

After putting my coft'ee boiling and prepairing the spider of
meat for four men, my husband brought in a large full pail
of milk from our premium cow, a great favour thought I,

''SKETCH BOOK" 113

how good my Father is. I distributed it into fours not for-
getting my blessed little grandchildren. I had but just com-
pleted this duty when he returned with a fav^our of another
kind, holding in his hand an Elm tree of only a few months
growth which he had taken from his cornfield on the Interval,
a perfect beauty thought I. It was about six inches in height.
I went directly into the fruit yard and planted it just above the
Key -maple and stood a moment to solilocjuize thus — When
this hand is turned to dust and my spirit is with God who gave
it, then may this tree throw out its long and graceful branches
under which may my great grandchildren sport and play with
delight while my happy spirit may look down and thereby
receive an addition to perfect felicity.

After breakfast, reading and prayers which by the way is
no small blessing, a horse and waggon came up to the door and
as I look'd out to see the passengers, found them to be Timothy
& Caroline on their way to the Steamboat, Caro to engage in
a private school for no given time. I went out to give her a
last Farewell and I thought that she never before appeared
to be worth so much. Truly she is a dear blessing sent from
God. May peace and prosperity attend you dear child.

As I returned to the hou.se I thought never did a miser take
more satisfaction in the looking over his gold and silver than
I do with my mind's-eye upon my children.

But then these frequent goings away, these often Farewells
— but then between each there is the happy meeting, the
social rehearsals of blessings and trials and so it will continue,
until we are all gathered into those Heavenly Mansions which
our Father has prepaired for all those who love him.

Finishing a Job
Oct., 1S4S.

My thoughts were called to thin subject by a very trifling
circumstance but it has opened a door for meditation. There

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is more to be considered (or that ought to be considered)
from these two words than most Mothers are aware of.
Mothers who stand at the head — There are many httle ones
looking up and for why? Because the mother's head is far
above to them.

But this finishing of jobs, let us look at it.
The mother commences a job in the kitchen, a lady caller
is in the sitting room (and in every village or town there are
those who have little else to do in the forenoon except to make
calls) waiting to "speak a word" with dear mother. She
leaves her job with orders that one of the girls should finish
it and another perhaps must do such or such a thing. An half
hour or hour perhaps whirls away quick before dinner time.
She returns and finds that the girls are "like unto her." By
this time the meat for dinner must be put down to cooking.
The work presses hard upon her, the girls are off out of sight,
the jobs remain as they were. The fire is getting low, the
beds are not made up in stile, the dusting has not been done if
the sweeping has. The sauce perhaps is brought into the
kitchen but not prepaired for boiling. The breakfast dishes,
it may be, have been washed but not returned to their stated
orderly places. The baby has waked up from its morning
nap and cries hard to be taken, etc. etc. But now I see that
this is more like Unfinished Jobs.

Farewells
May 28, 1848.

Yesterday, my dear Sarah left home for Bangor in company
with Albert for a short visit. Farewell to her. Farewell to him.

As they left the dooryard, I was powerfully reminded that
an horse is a vain thing for safety. He sprung like a flash of
lightening and went off upon the run. May God protect
them was all I could say and all I could do. I thought there
were other things that were vain for safety.

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In 1886, "Timo" writes his brother in Bangor a postal full
of old home reminiscences. "In the lenter (pray not lean to
for us) stood old Bonus who came out of your Latin Grammar.
And how much comes from this lenter? The drives of Bonus;
Dr. Clark's horse; Dr.'s rides — "

Bonus was a very important member of the family from 1820
till his death in 1850. He apjpears in the old family letters
and in these books. There is Uncle Timo's poem and there is
the five-page "Soliloquy" of Grandmother's, written in six
parts, in "Daily Thoughts."

In November, Saturday 16, 1850, is this entry:

Know all people by this page.

This morning the sun rose in a cloud, all around seemed to
be gloomy & dark; why was it? There were some forebodings
of a vacancy being made in the home department. A large
deep hole in the earth had been seen a few days previous, on
the premises, suspicions arose that by & by it would be a
mound underneath which treasures would be hid. The very
thought caused the heart to flutter and doleful feehngs and
many lonesome thoughts passed in quick succession —

Nine o'clock came, — two men were seen wending their
way towards that fatal hole. I looked through a window &
saw Bonus standing upon the brink, I turned around a moment
— then looked again, he could not be seen for he had fallen
Alas, Alas. Bonus is dead.

Farewell good old Bonus, farewell.

Old Mortality. Old Associations
Oct., 1848.

In a book now extant designed as Man's Fortune teller,
or Woman's chance lot, is a verse for every day in the year.
The one for December 6 which is my birthday reads as follows.

Associations magic power.
Before thy mental sight arrays
The joys of many a vanished hour —
The friends, the scenes of other days.

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Nothing is more dear to me than old associations, old friends,
old remembrances, old places & things, old thoughts called up
anew and old stories of old things. There is my Father's
old Rock pasture where we used to go and pick whirtle berrys
and gather chestnuts and just in the edge of the woods were
the dangle berries. And then there was the Down-under the
hill where the grapes grew. Come brother Timothy just
take a pail and go with Olive and me and pull down the vines
for us to pick, now do, will ye? There was the Little-worth
and old ]5og-wall where tlie wine apple-tree was.

Beside all the.sc good things, there was the Side-hill where
we all could roll down and try which could go the farthest.
But the very best of all was the ancient Swing which was
suspended from two great sweet apple-trees call'd grant-
sweeting. O how many glorious times we have all had on
a Moon-light evening when the boys could come and swing
4 at a time.

Dear good old days never to return.

While this page is written in the early pages of the book
it seems in place here.

Tlie old Year
December 31, 184S.

There has never been a year in which I have had .so much
occasion to stand at the Gate of Heaven and look in as the one
just closing.

At the very commencement, even the first week, sickness
came into the family, precious Daniel was brought low with
the scarlet fever and for two days we had reason to fear it would
terminate in death.

Just at that time Benjamin had the canker and was confined
to the house.

Then came that severe blow and sweet Annah lay cold in
death. Early on the morn of January 18 it was said she is

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dead. "Yes Elizabeth we shall have our dear Annah no
more."' She was lively and singing like a bird and in thirty
six hours was dressed for the coffin.

Grief and tears followed until that fatal twenty third of
May when blasted hopes and fond anticipations were buried
together in the grave with my blessed Charles.

"And from these chambers was the entry on the east side
as one goeth into them from the outer court." Ezekiel.

I knew that God was in this dark cloud and that I must
trust in him alone for hel]) and strength, but O how hard it is
to give them up. I shall go to them, they cannot return to
me. — In September and October dear Albert was brought
down by sickness, just upon the edge of the grave, then again
all the tender feelings of my soul were brought forth for him,
days of gloomy fears and nights of wakeful anxiety until it
was said his fever has turned and he is on the mending hand.
Then I thought "O sing unto the Lord a new song."

These signs in the outer court have led me to the inner
chamber and taught a lesson never to be forgotten. The
dealings of God in these things have no doubt been blessings
behind the cloud.

Those more manifest to the senses are more in number
than I can count or than could be reckoned up in order.

Among the latter is that of this book which I do most highly
prize, it has been a source of perpetual comfort to me for
nearly four years, but now alas it is all at an end, so far as
writing is concerned for this is about the last page and quite
the last day of the year and altho I have had the present of a
blank book equal to what this was four years ago, and from
the same author, yet it is quite uncertain whether I shall ever
mar its pages with my pen.

And now farewell, kind solace of many an hour, thou hast
been a friend that sticketh closer than a Brother, but thy
coming fate will be to lie by the side of the old year that is

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just going out and both together be bound in the same bundle
with the Antediluvian pens.

Farewell old year with all thy lights and shadows.

At the close of the book are about thirty pages of copies of
favorite poems and some original verses.
Then this:

All thy pages now are written
All thy subjects now are "yore"
All the comfort thou hast given
All lies dormant as before.

Go and lie with older Sisters
Go and lie in trunk or drawer
Go and lie for want of Listners
Go and lie till whistled for.

CHAPTER FIVE

ABIEL WARE PAINE'S BOOK

FOR

DAILY THOUGHTS & OCCURRENCES

Sabbath evening, June 11, 18Jf8. I have for some time past
been wishing for such a Book as this that I might note down
some common occurrences, that take place from day to day
and from week to week, and thereby record the goodness of
my heavenly Father in one strait-forward line that I may the
better review and understand His dealings and see the con-
nection of one event with another.

Many of them will perhaps appear trifling at first thought
but it is trifles often-timcs that my mind dwells upon, and I
have noticed also that great events frequently grow out of
small things. I intend to be very particular in making dates
of time and place and endeavour to search out causes and try
to understand what the will of the Lord is, so far as my obser-
vation and experience can teach me. These things I trust
will prove helps to me as I pass on the rest of my short journey
through life, and will add much happiness, to my lonely hours,
as now my children are so often going out from me in various
ways, some by death, — some by journey, — others for months
at a time. All these changes give me many hours of leisure
from domestic cares and leave many solitary rooms for retire-
ment and meditation. Sometimes all the chambers are va-
cated and only one 'pet lamb' in the lower bedroom, but I
suppose this is all right and just as it should be, but still it
seems hard to bear, I shall however endeavour to be resigned
to the will of God, and trust all causes and events in his hands

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for time and Eternity, ever holding on to this strong liope that
eventually when all time is no more, and the righteous gather
into the kingdom that my beloved children, and their partners,
and all the dear grand children will be with that happy family
above, to go no more out forever, and there too I shall meet
various dear friends, and family connection, Grand parents,
Parents, brothers. Sisters, Cousins, and many associates, some
more recently made dear by kind Jiearted interchanges of
feelings and sympathetic love. My dear Mrs. Talbot, and
Mrs. Adams, what warm friends and how well they loved the
same dear Savior that I love and desire to serve, and then go
and dwell eternally with Him.

Sahbalh morn, June 18, 184'^. As I entered Timothy's
chamber, the first thing that caught my mental vision was a
full blown rose from his 'Monthly.' O beautiful beauty I
exclaimed and went to call Sarah, she had been before me
to admire its splendor. It was turned directly towards the
window, as tho to look out and admire the face of nature;
no wonder it turned from all the imperfection within, to look
out upon God's handy work, there it stands a perfect model
of a perfect Creature. If Timothy was here how he would
gaze and admire and bless the hand that gave it, but he is not,
he is probably at Boston and his eyes must be refreshed with
other's flowers not his own, other friends minister to his wants
today beside a Mother or a Sister. Stay dear boy untill length
of time has satisfied your anticipations, then return to be met
with joy and gratitude.

Wednesday June 21. Timothy returned from Boston, to
our joy, with improved health, and will continue to practice
in the art of drawing portraits, hope he will succeed and be
prospered in this undertaking.

August Jf. .Vttended a Church meeting, only five members
present, it was no good meeting to me, but it was not for the
want of numbers, but rather for the want of spirituality, for

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good feeling among those who were there. I tliought to
myself that I had rather be alone with my Bible and my
Saviour. It is of no use for me to attend such disputing as-
semblies, it gets my mind off from heavenly things and gets
it on to the failings of Church mcml)ers. We all go astray
there is none that doeth good no not one, antl why should
we sit in Judgment one with the other. My mind has been
exercised for the last ten weeks with the things which relate
to Eternity, time affairs look of little consequence, and they
have taken their stand on hack (jround in my view. Time!
what an empty vapour tis; How fleeting like a shadow. But
Eternity! a vast Eternity how all important that / should be
prepaired for a joyful entrance thereinto.

Axig. 12. My husband has purchased 25 yd copperplate
for bed curtains.

Thit; day, 2Jf, have finished making them and put them up.
They will be very comfortable this winter, thankful.

Aug. 2^. Attended a donation party at Mr. Joseph Woods,
spent an hour very pleasantly. It really does one good to see
people so happy and thankful as they were. Mr. Woods
health is very poor and his wife is a feeble woman. They have
four children too young to earn their living or go out from
home to work, therefore they are to be pityed, and of what use
is sympathy without action. It did my heart good to see the
Ladies come in with their budgets of comfortables. And then
there were a number of shillings in cash, and all with merry
hearts and pleasant sociability. Really, said I, donation
parties are first rate movements.

Wednesday Ocf. 25, 18^8. The great celebration in Boston
when the Cochituate water was let into the City. Splendid.

Thursday, Nov. 16. It is remarkable pleasant weather for
the time of year, warm and flies troublesome; Timothy and
Sarah have gone to take a walk up to Seegar's Brook.'
' See " Poems of the Segur."

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Friday Nov. 24- Took a ride with Husband to Waterville
to see where the railroad was going to pass, also the depo, a
very pleasant ride. Called at Mathew's Book store and pur-
chased a good letter paper pad, 26 cts, first rate, good.

Sat. S5. Timothy has just finished a second portrait of
my dear Charles, it is small size. — perfectly good, it is in a
frame which Charles purchased to place a picture in soon after
Harriet's death. It was her own drawing and given to him
when she was on her death bed, precious children, hope they are
together.

Nov. '28. Timothy has purchased a coat of Mr. West for
4^ dol, think it is good enough for him this winter. How
prudent he is, I prize his disposition in economy, he will get
through life, easy.

Dec. 15, 18^8. This is a warm spring-like day, the snow is
fast leaving the earth and being gathered again into the great
ocean. God's greatness is known by his work.

Dec. 19. We have had warm spring weather for a number
of days, — very little snow on the ground, people are at a loss
to determine which is the most proper to ride in waggons or
sleigh, wet, sloppy.

2i. Ground almost bare of snow — tremendous cold today
all over cast with clouds — everybody goes upon the run, at
night. Extremely cold, very little snow falling.

£5 Christmas day, Mojiday. Getting to be warmer. Went
over to Waterville to purchase a Christmas present for Sarah,
a muff for which my good husband paid 5\ dol to Charles
PhiUips.

27. Very cold — little snow falling — pretty good sleighing.
Mr. Cole has moved into Charles house today. Benj has
helped him all day long.

28. Great snow storm last night, snow knee deep, warm and
pleasant today. Much stirring about, lively. Uncle Paine has
made us a call and read his poetry on Temperance &c&c&c.

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S9. Moderate, cloudy with very little snow falling,
Timothy has moved into the spare bedroom and had a
Sitter, Maria Ellen Paine.

30 Saturday, cloudy all day with a moderate fall of snow,
weather moderate. Sabbath, very blustering, snow drifted,
cold.

Mo7iday {January 1849) 21. In evening had company, got
a late supper and ate with them, went directly to bed, it made
me sick, therefore have been confined away from my work
three days, have now got nearly well by Timothy prescribing
Homeopathy.

'35. Rain, warm. I am able to go about my work again
Thanks.

28. Cold and clear. Sabbath.

Sat. Feb. 3. Much snow on the ground, very windy very
much — The snow blows so that I can scarcely see the
meeting-house. There will be a sparce meeting of the church
today.

March 4, 1849. Sabbath. Communion service in our church,
there were very many brothers & sisters present. Judge Rem-
ington. In evening meeting at Esq Kine. Mr. Redington
enlarged freely on the blessing & satisfaction he enjoyed at
such a prayer meeting and hoped that a "Pillar" might be
reared up here to night, that might be looked at hereafter by
some of us. He then offered prayer and asked the Lord to
let us come right square up to him with our petitions. I think
him an interesting gentleman at a meeting.

Thursday 8. Spent the afternoon & eve at David Gar-
lands, — a Social gathering of elderly friends, many pleasant
remarks went round, among which Mr. Garland said he had
been in "active life constantly for 7 years which called him
away from home and home comforts, but he had made it an
invariable rule that when he passed the Mile-brook bridge he
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him." He was asked which was the greatest to be borne.
In reply advanced the sentiment that both were attended
with important responsibihties.

22. Oh! we have just received tlie blessedest letter from
Timothy, it is enough to do any sort of good to hear his expres-
sions and see his inner man, what a great bundle of life is done
up in so small a body. I am glad he has 'broke away' and
found friends in the open field, success.

March SI, ]8Jf9. Did the greatest, hardest days work I have
done for a long time and was .so tired at night, thought it would
take a week to rest. Beside baking, cleaned out all my gather-
ing of soap grea.se: after a good night's rest feel quite well and
in good spirits. It is cold and windy, the ice is running very
thick out of the river. Norridgewock Bridge has passed by
on its way to the great ocean of bridges and ocean of destruction
of vessels and lives of many jieople.

April 15. Sabbath. Mr. Cole's sermon was remarkable for
length and dryness. Subject Recompense of the reward. It
has been tremendous cold today, every one 'runs.'

May 9. Timothy returned from Gardiner, to our joy,
and gratitude rejoicing. He is well and in good spirits, —
thanks for his pros]ierity for he has taken sixteen Portraits of
humans and two Newfoundland dogs, since the first of March,
for which he has received good pay.

Monday morn. May 21. Sarah has left home; to .school at
Waterville, her father kindly carried her over in the little
carriage with provi.sion enough to last till Wednesday. 0(7
for the light, Books, for the head; Pufs for the mouth; Pre-
serves for the palate; P(V.S' for the appetite. Cookies for the
top in. Butter to smoothe the way, Douyhnuts for variety
sake. Bread to strengthen the heart, A Cloth for her table,
a Towel for her face. Bed cloths for her comfort. Soap
for clensing. Knife & Fork to divide with, Plates to lay
them on, Tumblers for water. A Trunk with clothes, A Bag

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with varieties. An Umbrella to defend the storm, a Desk for
gratification and a number of other things not now to
be named.

June 22. Took a dehghtful ride with my husband out to
a back lot to see our ('alf and carry her some salt, her name is
Lida, one yr. old and is perfect in beauty. With all thine
offerings thou shalt offer Salt.

July 16. Miss Nancy Hill came here from Hallowell on her
way to her father in New Portland. She is exceedingly tall,
weighs 143, her head and face, O, how long they are, and then
her waist, — What a journey from her shoulders down, take
her as a whole, I never saw such a looking female. Her general
appearance in manners is rather pleasant and there is no
shadow of a doubt but she is a very good girl.

Aug. 1. This has been quite an interesting day, at noon-
time a number of gentlemen took dinner with us, they were
surveying a road from the Sebasticook Bridge to Vassalborough
which comes right acru.s-s our lot cutting it into an ugly shape.
Hope that the business of today will up.set that of the surveyors
last week and frustrate their plans, so that we can enjoy our
land and retirement.

Aug. 3. This is fast day appointed by the President of these
United States on account of the prevalence of the cholera in
various places and cities of our land. President Taylor appears
to be a consistent christian, hope he is in heart one.

Oct. 31. 1S49. Have been to carry Miss Sarah Crosby to
the Widow Steevens Crosbys, a very pleasant ride — On my
arrival they appeared to be grateful for her company a few
days. There was an old lady there, by name 'Lernard' sister-
in-law to I\Irs. Crosby, aged 76, this present month. I spoke of
her being nigh the end of her journey on Earth and nigh our
heavenly Father's house. She assented to my remarks and as
I bid her farewell and gave her a kind of explanation of the
word 'farewell" she said that she had ever faired better than

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she deserved and hoped that she should meet with the 'well'
at the end of life.

Nov. 7. This is a real day for Callers. . . . These things
keep one sociable even if there were no Fruit.

Tuesday 27. Attended the famous celebration at Water-
ville of cars coming in our railroad — The greatest number of
people I ever saw at one time.

Jany 25, 1850. Rec. a letter from Albert informing us of
a third daughter "born Thursday 10 inst. at 2 o'clock p.m. A
hale, hearty well formed healthy peaceable little creature
weighing 9 pounds, regular avoirdupois. As to her history
since she has been with her mother, doing well & under the
divine science of Homeopathy she will we trust rise to be in
all good time a young lady of true Swedenborgian school.
We all are much attached to the little innocent."

A pril 2. Tuesday my good husband has left us for Augusta,
Jury man — Think we shall be lonely yet I am gratified with
his going, it will be a rest to liim and on some accounts quite
an advantage. By this means he will be enabled to add a stock
to his intelligence. This morning, he read the 143 Psalm which
ends 'For I am thy servant.'

June 11. Attended the County Conference at Vassal-
boro. . . . Mr. Dunmore .spoke of the Telegraphic wire to
carry the prayers of Christians from Conference meetings,
family altars, and social i)rayer meetings up to heaven and
from thence in answer down to the Missions. Therefore he
says 'pray for me in my ab.sence and God will surely answer
it in my favour.'

June 15. Our Church and society have been labouring
long and hard to make Rev. Albert Cole a life member of the
Maine Missionary society, it is at length accomplished, but we
i.e., husband & / have paid into three contributions, one at the
meeting house, one at County Conference and a collection to
finish off with. Then there is my husband's Annuitv 2 dols and

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then he has advanced 83 cents with a promise of remuneration.
I suppose this is the way to 'call down blessings' ! It surely
is the way to send up property for deposit.

Dec. 31, 1S50, Tuesday. As the Rev. Albert Cole's labours
closed with this people, it was thought to be both pleasant &
advisable to hold a parting picnic at his house. Some few
days previous Mrs. Charles F. Paine recommended it to a
few confidcntials & the cordial approbation soon spread like
'wildfire.' Mr. Cole's 'picnic' was in every mouth even before
the where-withalls were put together. On the 31st day of
December after four o'clock p.m., there was a universal stir in
Winslow, Mr. Cole's friends were putting on their warm gar-
ments and Hoods and turning their faces thitherward, it was
a Boreas cold day but notwithstanding this there were as-
sembled at his house (i.e. Mrs. C. Paine) before seven o'clock
more than one hundred and twenty five of the very cream of
our society (not all the cream, however).

After chatting & chitchatting, passing from one room to
another, & saluteing and receiving salutes till about half
past seven, they were called upon to march round the long
table which stood groaning under its burthen in Mrs. Paine's
dining room, and the room illumined with a large solar lamp
from the meeting house, su.spended directly over the centre of
the table. When it was thought that all had passed round
and got their appetites whetted and the Elders of the company
had again arrived at the table (for they took a circuit through
the other room), they were requested to gather round and
'join in' and those who could not do that must approach as
nigh as might be to the scene of action. A gentle signal was
given and Oh ! how still they were ! Then Mr. Cole would have
asked a blessing were it not that he was swallowed up in grati-
tude to our Heavenly Father, but by & by he got upon the
blessing & received it and he never before appeared so well, so
interesting, I looked at him & thought blessed man. Mrs. C.

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stood nigh his elbo, I looked at her & thought good woman
I so love you.

After the short prayer we all fell upon behavour much as
others do on similar occasions. It was then said that Uncle
Paine would give a speech & offer a resolve, all was silent as
the Sabbath, when the old gentleman brought to view the
closing year, the closing service of Mr. Cole with his people,
spoke of his consistant Christian walk, his faithful minis-
trations as a gospel teacher, his friendly intercour.se with
society & friends, of mankind, and expressed our united feel-
ings in parting with so good a man. Then followed a resolve
which had been previously written & he handed it to Miss
Louise Stratton to read. She advanced with her usual firm
gait to receive it from the old gentleman and read it off with
sufficient confidence. He then remarked that if it met the
cordial approbation of those present he would call for a vote.
It was done and those who could not be seen to raise the hand
by reason of the partition sung out 'Yea' and a copy was
thereby handed to Mr. Cole. After this was done Mr. Cole
addressed the company in words which are not at my command
by reason of their superiority. We all then dispersed to the
various rooms and after a short change of sentiments civilities
and cordialities, the company began to turn their faces towards
their cloaks & hoods, & their horses toward home. Thus
ended a delightful evening & the last with our beloved Pastor.

Some few days before the party convened, Mr. Edward
Paine volunteered his services to the Ladies and went round
and collected a sum of money sufficient to purchase a very
handsome cake and basket & waiter for a present to Mrs. Cole,
the Basket cost 7 dol. waiter one, this basket was set in the
centre of the table directly under the superb lamp on a raised
platform, to make it the more conspicuous and filled with rich
cake from Miss Charlotte Stratton. These two lighted up
a radiance in the oiifer corresponding with the inner man thereby

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adding much to the briliancy of the scene. Then there was
a large loaf of cake made by Mrs. Furber & frosted hke a snow
ball which stood in the vicinity of the centre. This cake was
not cut, Init kei)t for a carrying-away memento for Mrs. Cole.

At one end of tiie table there was seen a willow basket con-
taining half a bushel of parched corn which resembled the snow
drift without, ^'arious kinds of puffs as white as a cup, some
of them filled with very dark preserve, some with bright red,
& other with honey looking jelly. At each end of the table
there stood a rich plum cake, handsomely frosted, but it was
sliced up through .some misunderstanding which deducted
somewhat from its importance. These cakes were provided by
Mrs. Esq. Paine & Mrs. Joseph Eaton. Doughnuts were
profusely interspersed as commonplace articles with one
exception, a large plate full attracted notice and an incjuiry
as how they could be made to so much resemble a small branch
of a tree, each nut was composed of many branches about as
long as a pipe stem and shot out in various directions, still
adhering to each other. This was brought by Miss Helen
Smiley. Cookies, & cream biscuit & cheese filled up the
vacancies, and two handsome plates of preserved apples &
cream with a delicious flavour. Then the large, or rather
plates of large apples, and great Pitchers of Water made up
the amount. . . .

One other thing.

Miss Susan Hinds of Benton presented to Mrs. Cole a splen-
did crystalized Basket for a centre table. This was handed
round through all the rooms drawing forth questions & remarks
of various descriptions & imports.

After they were all dispersed and gone to their homes, several
little presents were found left for Mr. Cole which were both
acceptable as considered as proofs of affection & esteem. . . .

Thus closed the year of 1850 with the society of Winslow,
and now we are without a pastor or any one to take the lead

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in our religious meetings; and his place and that of his wife
is vacated to the grief of many of his friends.

Thurfulay. Janij. 16, ISol. The last week a few ladies have
contributed and bought a very nice rich Bay state Shawl
& presented to Mrs. Pettee. It is just the right color for a lady
of her age, brown with a dark brown border. Price 8 dol. there
was 25 cts. left which was given her to cheer her good heart.
Oh ! how mucli .sweeter it is to give than receive. When she
sits in the Sanctuary listning to a good .sermon, how warm
her heart and body will be. Dear good Sister.

1851. June 20. Friday evening went to Waterville to hear
an address from Dr. Babcock and others on Subject Sabbath
School. Dr. Babcock is a remarkable man to speak before an
audience on any subject, more especially this that engages
the greatest and warmest affection of his noble heart. . . .
Last evening he came into our house with Uncle Paine, spent
an hour more agreeably tlian I can express i.e. to my own
gratification; he is .surely a noble work of (iod. When he
went out and took my hand for the last time, I told him that
I called such visits, clusters of grapes from Canaan, at which
he laughed and gave my own a good shake.

June 2k, 5th, Ijili. Attended a Conference at Yarmouth,
the longest meeting I ever attended, greatest number of minis-
ters and the greatest amount of substantial speeches from
substantial Gospel men. Prof. Stowe, Tucker, Babcock, Hayes,
Clark and various others who are in the same road and only
a little behind them.

We had a good putting up place & were made quite welcome
which gave a sort of Spice to our enjoyment, name Asa Wins-
low. Pleasant ride in the cars, to and from, good company,
good weather. The first Preacher Dr. Stowe, i.e. the confer-
ence sermon, text Matthew 6, 10. Thy Kingdom come.
He is a remarkable man in speaking.

Oct. 8. Oh Dear Mercy! ! ! what lots & lots of company

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we have liad for the last few days; Mr. Shepley. his wife &
four children, Mr. Barry & wife going to and from Bath, Miss
Gay and Mary Worcester, three brothers to dine while bringing
over Mr. Shepley 's goods, — some callers on various causes.
— well, by and by I shall get where the weary are at rest.

Been over to Waterville to the Fair, but saw nothing that
particularly attracted notice, all was confusion and wild uproar,
glad to get into this my own pleasant chamber again, hope
that soon shall have time to write to my dear children.

Oct. 11, 1851. Forty eight meals of victuals in six days
prepaired for company. Dont wonder I'm tired this Saturday

night.

Nov. 5, 6. Spent the better part of two days in writing to
Mr. and Mrs. Cole at Sanford, giving them a sketch of minis-
terial affairs since they left in January. They are worthy
friends and I love to do them honor, if my poor abilities are
an honor.

The regular Journal closes here. In the back of the book
are various records of plantings of trees and shrubs.
Grandmother died Jan. 1852.

CHAPTER SIX
THE RECORDER FOR

WINSLOW

MAINE

Lord teach my heart to think
And guide my hand to write.

Win alow, April 15th 18^9
Dedication
To my
Dear Father & Mother

and beloved brothers.
Timothy & Avery S. Ware all now in heaven
I would affectionately dedicate this book.

Believing as I do that hereafter when all the Redeemed of the
Lord are gathered into his kingdom, that family circles will be
reunited with additional bonds of love, for love never dies,
and as we pass along through the vista of Eternity, we shall
have occasional rehersals of Earth scenes and changes — our
pleasures and our pains, and the events which are now clothed
in darkness will then be light and plain to our angelic vision.
For such-like causes we shall have a new song continually>
that of praise to the great Jehovah.

I remain as before

your daughter and Sister

Abiel Ware Paine.

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Introduction

It was nigh the commencement of the year 1849 that I
finished a book which I called a "Sketch Book," it was about
the size of this present one and contained 150 pages. That
was given me by my second Son, Albert four years previous.
At the time of receiving it, I thought it was a pity to spoil its
fair pages with a few of my vain scribblings as probably I
should not live to write it through therefore was unwilling to
commence. After much consideration, I concluded to let
my pen have its rein, and in four years every page was talkitive.
Albert had anticipated such an event and in November 1849
he sent to me (by the hand of Timothy) this very 7iice rich
book. I have had the .same feelings over again, but have
determined on this, that if he is willing to invest a share of
his Capital in such an enteri)rise, I am not only willing but very
thankful to embrace this favour with gratitude and shall

repair to it as to the other old friend who is now in A

possession.

I dont know what will take place worthy of record but this
one thing I do know, that my life is passing along very swiftly
and if I can catch a few scattered thoughts and clap them on
paper, they will afterward be a satisfaction to look over in my
leisure moments. Therefore trusting in an overruling Provi-
dence shall minute a few thoughts at the commencement of
this year.

The first record is that of the death of her son Charles of
which she writes so many times. Then a page each on the
following subjects: January 1849-February. A Church meet-
ing, The Departure of Timothy in the stage. Receiving and
writing letters, Sunday reading a reminiscence of her mother's
reading. The Bible a Fountain, The Grandson Charles, Bible
readings and meditations, A poem and writings of Timothy's,
State Conference at Bath.

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Sabbath April S {lS-i9). This morning at our family reading
my Lot chanced to be from 161 to 1C8 verses of 119 psalm.
In doing which I was carried to heaven by the way of my
Mother for she is there, therefore whenever I think of her I
am under the necessity of going thither.

It was for this cause, for 165 verse was one that she often
quoted as having received it as her own.

When I was quite a little child and my Mother would have
a friendly call from some pious sister she would sometimes
speak the state of her mind and this verse would be repeated
'Great peace have they which love thy law; and nothing shall
offend them.' She would then speak of the peace she enjoyed
and with what ease and composure she could overlook faults
and foiables among her neighbors. Then she would add
' Let him who is without sin, cast the first stone.'

^Yell do I remember very many precepts — sentences —
admonitions — which fell from her lips, but to me they were
then only as a stone thrown against the wall. She neglected
to press them home upon my heart, that they might have
a firmer lodgment in my soul;

Some of them I remember still and have tried to practice
upon. Multitudes are lost and gone.

Maternal Grandparents

Robert Ray born April 1718.
Mary Richardson August 1720 Married 1742.
Their children

Abiel born October 10, 1748
etc. etc. to the number of eight.

Timothy Ware married Abiel Ray 1769

Abiel Ware born Dec. 6, 1787, married Frederic Paine
"names of their partners" Sept. 21, 1809.

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April 23rd 18^8, Memorable for Winslmv

On Saturday April g'J precisely at four o'clock p.m. the first
Steam boat was launched that was ever built in town. Owners,
Railroad Company, Friend Lang and (my own) Charles F.
Paine. This makes me grateful for the prosperity attending
the labours and calculations of my beloved boy. His begin-
nings were small but God has prospered him and given him
reason to rejoice and praise his greiit and holy name for all the
distinguished favours heaped upon him.

But my prayer shall be that he may not be turned off with
temporal prosperity only. May he have a true heart to wor-
ship God and have respect to his commandments. May my
Heavenly Father grant unto him forgiveness of sins and accept-
ance with him in the great day of accounts. May he be gathered
in with all the ransomed of the Lord to go no more out forever,
to join with that great company round about the throne who
constantly sing the song of Moses and the Lamb, saying "Great
and marvellous are thy works, Lord God Almighty, just and
true are thy ways, thou King of saints. — Who shall not fear
thee? O Lord for only thou art holy." Revel. 15-34.
[A marginal note.]

"Written just one month before that dreadful event." '

Retrospect
July 22, 1849.

There are but few out-door excursions that give me so much
real comfort as a walk among the trees and shrubbery of my
own dear husband's lot, and to take occasional views of the
new shoots and families of plants scattered ever & anon about
the yard and adjacent fields. Here I see one but just making
its appearance among the grass and only a few weeks old.
A stake is soon brought and put down by its side to designate

' See sketch of Charles, p. 159.

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the almost imperceptible jjlant. There I see one of a more
mature a{?e that speaks for itself that it is one year old. And
yet another that has known the snows of two winters.

That little enclosure of Barberry bushes. Oh how splendid
they look just at this time, how luxuriant and bourn down with
their rich fruits. Fourteen years ago as we were trav'ling in
Massachusetts my husband stopped his carriage that I might
alight and gather the seed from which they sprung. Ever
since that time they have been our constant care — our yearly
care for every year we have rejoiced over their progress.

And the noble grape vine, the seeds from which it sprung
were gathered on the same journey. What a cooling shade it
throws around, how refreshing it would be to a weary trav'ler.
What a beautiful 'vine wreath lot' dear Daniel made last year
under its wide spreading branches, what comfort we all took
in going to see it and listening to his artless explanation of all
its parts and conveniences.

Also there are three crab apple trees as straight as a i)lumb-
line not beneath our notice, They too were brought from the
west at that memorable visit in the year 1835 and were
seeds —

Charlotte's oil-nut tree which she transplanted in the year
1844 and then was only a few inches high, it stands at the foot
of the drain so that she should have rich oil nuts, as she said.
It is now 7 feet high and has four branches, i.e. three shooting
out and one pointing uj), tho.se out are about 4 feet long. It is
perfect in beauty and has received its pruning from Timothy,
as also the crab apples.

Then there is the high up shag bark which husband brought
in his pocket from Foxboro in the year 1820. Its height is
about my measurement. And what shall I say of the Maple
nigh my chamber window, in the year 1844 it was nothing but
a whip-stick, — now its top is far above the top of the
chamber window. Various kinds of plum trees throw their

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cooling shade to make the scenery more inviting. And the
bower over the front yard gate is made of Timothy's that was
a seed the same year that he was born — Sarah's too that
is nigh the front door and of her own age; then there is the
great Birch, the Fir, tiie Horsechestnut, the Key maple —
and what shall I say more of all the out-door beauties that
have been reared with so much care and watched over with con-
tinued watching.

Other plants I have that are not of this fold, them also I
must bring and spread out before the mind.

They are the in-door plants that require constant and un-
remitting attention; of them I have a number remaining and
some gone out from us not to return. Twenty-.seven years
ago on the first day of January one made its appearance and
fell into my hands; it was a tender bud of promise. — fragile
shoot, — a winter i)lant, therefore it required unwearied
attention. All possible care was taken, and by tlie kind hand
of our Covenant-keeping God, it prospered, it grew strong —
it flourished, — such was my dear Harriet and for fifteen years
her kind influence was felt wherever her name was known.
But Alas! Alas! my bud of promise, — my fragile flower, —
my winter plant in a few short days of pain & anguish yielded
to the conqueror death. We laid her in yonder pleasant yard,
all that of her was mortal. But her happy spirit winged its
way to the pure reagion of bliss, with the song of Moses and
the Lamb failing on her tongue. And then there was that
bright forget-me-not in a china vase, who that saw her can
ever forget sweet Annah, — precious granddaughter. For
four short years she threw around her such a vast number of
fibres that they proved as a cable to bind her to every heart.
How bright her flitting life on Earth, then soared away to
join the blessed company more congenial to her soul.

But how can pen and ink draw a picture of a large field —
from which a noble tree standing in its centre has so recently

138 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

been removed. Far hack in time memory, even more than
thirty seven years ago, there appeared a slender stalk, the
first to promise ancestral fruit, it was hailed with delight and
nursed with care, not a day was it suffered to remain without
a beacon by its side to designate its place, thereby an eye
might l)e kept upon it.

It grew, it thrived and soon sent its long extending branches.
Early it took deep root and became able to bear adverse winds
and the snows of winter. By & by little scions began to spring
up and beneath its shade was getting to be a garden of flowers
by its kind influences. Other plants in its vicinity received
of its richness, the circle grew larger and broader thus, and thus
upward & onward till it had reached the height of radiation.

Who ever saw a more delightful morn than this? No youth-
ful company of May-day worshipers, no grave age with all
their i)reparedness for the reagion of bliss, could wish for an
Earthly morning superior. See all nature around just going
forth from night's repose, inhaling bright visions for the day.
In the midst of all this (and more) look at that splendid wheel
as it makes its steady revolves causing midtitudes to rejoice.
Stop a moment and learn caune and effect and with me admire
that invaluable sight bearing away that idol of my heart,
and that youthful one standing on yonder bow. How plain
to my view these two objects distinctly seen from all the rest.
Why is it so? God knoweth.

Hark! listen! what is that stunning sound so much like thun-
der, surely it has struck some object, it may be some valuable
life is taken, some family with circle broken into —

Yonder arises a dense fog, a heavy mist is spreading over a
space — Draw a little nigher and again learn caiiae and
effect. O, I see a dreadful wreck, — mangled bodies lieing, —
heart stricken groans proceeding from it as the life was going
out of day tenements.

In the midst of confusion & alarm a youthful one, not now

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standing on yonder bow but witli his hands clenched around
a shaft and with only strength enough to keep his head above
water. He is taken up senseless and laid upon a bed on shore;
thanks to the great Preserver.

The scene is heart-rending, I close my eyes and endeavor
to look away. Endeavors are vain. I open them on that
large field where stood that noble tree in its centre. It lies
prostrate upon the Earth, never more to be reared up. The
flower garden is left, but every leaf and bud and flower is
hanging its head toward the earth, and the fountains of the
great deep seem to be broken up, the garden is left to scorch-
ing rays of the Sun without its cooling shade, or its broad pro-
tecting limbs to screen it from the ills of life. . . .

Uncle Charles was the inventor of the boiler used on this
steamer Halifax. When he died. Grandmother lay on her bed
for three days, lamenting the fate of her son, as he had not on
this earth joined the elect. After that time she aroused her-
self with, " He has never chosen bad company here and he
will not there." She arose and went about her work happy.

Half past nine, Monday. May 23, 1850. This very day
two years ago, this very hour, and the half hour, two years
ago and that beautiful Steam Boat Halifax the delight of many
hearts left the wharf at Waterville and glided majestically
down the Kennebec bearing on its bosom my own, my dear
Charles — Silently and softly it floated along adding joy and
happiness to the Master thereof. How intent was his mind
on the great undertaking and grateful for its accomplishment.

Hope nerved his arm, and promise of encouragement gave
strength and vigor to the inner man. — This was his happiest
morning, all other mornings for a year past had been planning
and expectation buoyed up by an assurance that 'now my dear
family will reap the reward of my labour and we shall all
rejoice together in this achievement.'

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Multitudes of pleasant thoughts rushed into mind while
on the downward current. Never was there a more delightful
morning, all nature promised favours, the very world around
was clothed in beauty, the river never before seemed to flow
so softly, the Sun even shed such a mild ray that all the shadows
cast forth a splendid appearance. The Air was sweet and
invigorating and all nature sent forth a gentle hue of love
and happiness.

Two hours later and the Boat nears the Dam and the head of
the lock. A little expression of anxiety plays over the counte-
nance of the "Guide," a little knitting of his heavy brow as
the gate is raised and he begins to lower down into the Lock.
No object now diverts liis mind from his treasure, all the cere-
monies are past and about to be ushered out into the broad
river, again, wlien all of a sudden the mandate goes forth from
the high and holy One "Come unto me and I will give you
rest" —

These have been a few of my reflections this day. The
thoughts of him have been more to me today than ever which
have caused tlie trembling hand so apparent in these few
lines.

Sept. 15, 1S50. It was an uneven morning and to my mind
everything took a wrong road. The re.st of the family did not
seem to be wandering over Wood Hay, and Stubble, but my
way was hedged up that I could not travel smoothly. I
passed into my bed-room and on my bed, lay my good old
Bible. I took it up with this thought running through my
mind, I'll see if this will tell me what the matter is. At the
very same moment it opened and my eye first lit upon these
words. "Take my yoke upon you, & learn of me; for I am
meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your soul."
Matt. 11 29.

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It was enough, I shut the Bible and went out to practise
there upon. —

How good the "Word" is and far

above all Price.

Thy Word is pure;

Therefore thy servent loveth it. — Psalm 119, 140.

-SVp/. '23d. 1850.

Died in Winslow Saturday Sept. ^21 18.50.

at half past two morning, Mrs. Ruth Wood ae 75.

"There is a bright house just before me."
and she raised her emaciated arm, pointing upward and her
countenance beaming with love divine.

"That's a bright hou.se" repeated the aged sister as she
pressed my hand and listened to the remark. They need no
candle there ; — All is bright & glorious there, and / shall
soon be there was her reply no more trials, — no more tears, —
no more anxieties; there are all the dear friends gone before,
and the dear Saviour.

Such were a few of the last expressions uttered and the
scene on earth closed; the happy spirit winged its way to the
reagion of Eternal glory. How calm her exit. We found
the pulse had ceased their motion, the breath had assumed
a change, her lips which before had been closely shut, parted
and we knew that the messenger of death had arrived, that the
conveying angels were performing their part in the great work
of man's salvation.

God was at the top of the Ladder. — The land of Canaan
was in full view. — Jordan's stream was narrowing. — the
Canaanites were fleeing, — the wilderness was all on the back-
ground. — Egypt was out of sight and long since been forgot-
ten, — Jerusalem with all its magnificance began to appear.
The City of the great King was at a short distance Solomon's
temple and the great retinue that served there-about far
exceeded the fame, the wisdom and the prosperity of reports

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wliich had come to the ears of the queen of Sheba, and she
said the one half liad not been told. Ezckiel's house was so
spacious that naught but an Eternity of time would give space
to an introduction. "Israel is redeemed out of all his troubles."
Did she think of hunger, two men were seen bearing between
them clusters of the grapes of Canaan, and the superb dishes
of milk & honey were in i)rofusion. Was she thir.sty? There
was the water of tlie river of life flowing out, and it was said
come and drink. Did she think of being naked and wish for
clothing? Distributing angels were ready at hand and white
robes were given to every one and crowns for the head. Did
she say I am tired of life's scenes on earth, the answer was
come unto me and I will give you rest.

Did .she remember the low jjlace she had occupied on earth,
it was answered, come up higher. Did she ask for an interview
with beloved friends gone before, she was told to wait a little
for they were on advance ground. — Such were some of the
thoughts that occupyed the mind for the first few moments
after the spirit had fled and the clay tenement lay before us
then it was said "let us pray." We all knelt down by the
Well of Water and endeavoured to make our camels kneel
also and then commended ourselves to God most wise —

"There is a bright house before me."

What an impressive sentence, how it nerved my very soul
it is not a Scripture phrase, but purely original. A bright
house, — Worcester says "Bright" is shining — full of light —
reflecting light — resplendant — illustrious — how full of mean-
ing & comprehensive is the word, — 'House' a shelter from the
heat & storm — and rude blast of winter, a habitation of peace
for life's liappj' .scenes, and an encompassing wall to protect
from danger, is a House.

A bright house, may my memory ever retain the sentence.

Jaytnary 4, 1851. I stood near a pleasant river, and as I

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watched its blue waves curling to the breeze & listened to
its gentle murmurs, a, lulling influence came round me.

One by one my senses closed on all externals, — the air
seemed set in motion by the fanning of soft wings and raising
my eyes I saw descending borne on clouds a bright winged
company whose low sweet strains and gentle converse revealed
their heavenly Mission.

Softly down they came, and as I traced each si)irit form
one seemed familiar in whose lineaments I saw a dear com-
panion of my childhood; one who early went to rest. — She
gave a sweet smile of recognition that inspired me with con-
fidence to speak and ask tho' tremblingly, whence she had
come, and wherefore God had sent them. ■ — In tones of melody
she told me they had come direct from God at his command to
minister to trembling spirits in their disembodiment and bear
them disenrobed unfettered up to his holy courts. — It was
her peculiar Mission thus to introduce a spirit of a much loved
Brother and this errand done to hasten with him back to minis-
ter to a comj)any of mourning ones that should ere the setting
of our Earthly Sun assemble in the home left desolate. It was
hers thus to pour in the Oil upon the Mother's bleeding heart
once torn for her — now rent afresh — and rent as ne'er before,
— thus to apply a balm of spirit strength from Him who "all
our sorrows bore" to her the bosom friend whose wound tho'
healed must leave a scar.

Others there were smitten by the same stroke to whom that
ministering band bore balm and Oil, whose pain that balm and
Oil alone could cure.

Still we talked on and their sweet looks of love and sympathy
made my heart burn within me.

But hark! ! a stunning crash that almost called my senses
back to earth burst on me, — All the shining wings were
fluttering, — A faint sound of groans and dim sight of mangled
limbs came to my mind, but plainer far I saw the struggling

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of strong spirits with mortality while angelic forms hovered
round administering strengthening influences. Soon I beheld
that angelic Sister fold its wings around a new born spirit and
breathing tones of sweet assurance bear it gently up, up till
I could see no more.

Another and another followed clasping its treasure till I
was left alone.

Sad thoughts were stealing over me and I wept that the
fetters of mortality excluded me from angel-joys and angel-
companionship when again they came swelling the strains-
" Glory to God and Hallelujah to the Lamb." With just one
smile on me, they plumed their shining wings anon and part,
ing took their separate course to hearts & home-circles
broken —

Again I stood alone and gradually from my senses broke
away the mist.

The fields arose again before me, the pleasant river too,
but oh! heart-rending scene, over its bosom, scattered here &
there with mangled bloody forms, lay a black wreck. Then
I knew there were the forms of those whose spirits I had just
seen bourn to God. And I rejoiced that every stricken desolate
bleeding heart was ministered to by Angels, and that there
was balm in store for every wound.

Transcribed, Feb. 4, 1851
from the original.

Fad Day. April 10th. 1851.
Perfect Purity

When a saint first enters the reagion of bliss, it will be with
joy unspeakable and full of glory but yet how far short of IMoses
and Miriam. The Book of knowledge is just opened to the
angehc vision and the unfolding mystery that adorns the first
page excites to an advance which at every step calls forth new

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expressions of holy joy and praise and the eternal song is begun
never to terminate —

I have treasured up in my memory a sentence of an old
friend of mine (Grandsire Craggin) speaking of eminent gifts,
he made this remark "Well," said he "If I can just get my feet
within heaven's door, I shall be just as happy as my limited
capacity will allow and that will be enough to satisfy me."

I cant say that I have the same view of the supposed case,
for I often think that I shall want to push my way "till I can
catch a view of my dear Harriet and sweet Annah, for I desire
to be 'bound in the same bundle with them.' "

Thursday May 22 1851. My dear Charlotte was married
to George Sumner Leavitt by Rev. S. Gay of Bridgewater Mass.

Dear child I never saw her look so beautiful and appear to
be worth so much as on the day of her marriage. Indeed she
was never worth so much before for she is one of those blossoms
which grow brighter & richer as the Sun rises and shines upon
it. May she live many year to be an ornament to the society
in which she moves; and as now a "new family is formed"
may she be assisted to diffuse light, joy and happiness in her
household and be found among Solomon's virtuous women,
having Strength and honor for her clothing, and rejoice in time
to come. Think that George will find her to be a help-meet
indeed in truth and have reason to feel that he has chosen a
good half.

Throughout the book are many poems written by Uncle
Timothy when in Bangor, one on Thomas Hill, another on
Harlow St., etc. There are many favorite bits of poetry
copied and sermons showing Grandmother's tastes and in-
terests. There are also transcriptions from earlier books of
hers.

The last date that is surely hers is October, 1851. Another
hand adds some notes and the following Obituary.

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Obituary of Mrs. Abiel Ware Paine

Died in Winslow, Me. Jany 12th 1852, Mrs. Abiel Ware
Paine, wife of Mr. Frederic Paine, aged 64.

Mrs. Paine was born in Wrentham, Mass., Dec 6, 1787;
married Sept 1809; moved to Winslow in what was then the
Province of Maine where she resided till her death. She was
the mother of four sons and four daughters, one son and one
daughter have died.

She entertained hope at the age of 15 years, made a public
confession of religion, Nov. 1, 1818 at the commencement of
Congregational Church in Winslow. Herself and husband
with two others composed the whole number at that time.
She ever felt a deep interest in the prosperity of the Redeemer's
kingdom, at home and abroad. She ever welcomed to her
house the ministers of Christ as many now living can testify,
whilst many more whom she entertained have gone to their
reward. In her death not only her family but the Church
& Society have sustained the loss of a warm friend.

CHAPTER SEVEN

SOME OLD LETTERS

I CANNOT close these records of Grandmother without re-
ferring to one incident in her hfe. Unless in one or two places
one can read between the lines, as I fancy I can, there is no
allusion in her Journals to the "feud" existing for several
years between the wives of the two Foxboro-Winslow brothers,
Lemuel and Frederic. We had heard this mentioned as a
tradition, but now there is no one to tell the tale as it should
be told. There are references to it in two old letters from
which I give extracts, the one written in i^S'^; by Henry W.
Paine to his Cousin Albert in Bangor; the other by Grand-
mother herself to her son Albert, written in 1S4S.

"Hallowell, Aug. 25 18U-
Dear Cousin,

The family estrangement you advert to has been to me as
it evidently is to you, matter of deep regret. While we were
boys at home the most perfect intimacy existed between the
families — it is painful to find on our return that all intercourse
is suspended. I feel this the more keenly because I have
received personally no cause of affront. The relations between
your family and myself were always of the most friendly
character. Towards your father and his children I still enter-
tain the feelings which become a near relative — feelings which
I am happy to believe are fully reciprocated. May it never
be otherwise.

You seem to think it in my power "tantes componere
litcs" but in this opinion I think you wrong. Both parties
believe themselves to have been deeply and wantonly injured.
Mutual confidence and mutual respect are gone, I fear forever.

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Family feuds are proverbially bitter and incurable. Time
may soothe the irritated feelings of the parties and enable
them to view the unfortunate affair in its true light. I am
afraid that the interposition of third parties (however good the
intentions) instead of effecting a reconciliation would tend to
widen the breach.

It is not necessary for me to express my opinion as to who is
chargeable with the first offense. It would be most surprising
if to the eye of a disinterested observer either party had been
entirely without fault. I claim not for my motiier exemption
from the frailties and infirmities of human nature, nor do I
mean to incriminate your motlicr whom I am glad to believe
you dearly love and res])ect. I would not if I could diminish
in a single iota the filial affection and veneration which j-ou
are bound to cherish towards her. I know for I feel how strong
are the cords which bind a son to his mother. . . .

Had your mother asked an explanation .she would have
found that her suspicions were groundless and that the stories
in circulation did not originate where she supposed.

But I will not rake ojien the embers of this controversy,
I would rather smother them. . . .

Write often — give my love to your wife and believe as
ever

Your affectionate Cousin & sincere well-wisher

H. W. Paine.

Winslou\ May S. lflJ,.3.

My dear Children. (Albert & Mary). . . .

But to be short and comprehensive in my remarks on family
affairs, I vouchsafe to say that there was never a season in
which we enjoyed more real happiness than during the past
winter and it has been derived principally from the fact that
"the Lord has visited his people."

In the Autunm and early part of Winter, God was pleased

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to grant us a revival of religion and the Church seemed to feel
that it was time to arise and call upon God who has all the good
gifts in his own hand. In February we began to enjoy all the
blessings of a reformation but knowing your mind as I do,
I am convinced that very particulars will not be interesting,
therefore I shall only name some of its fruits. — Your kind
hearts formally did and I believe ever will rejoice in that which
is substantially good and of this kind is the fruit above re-
ferred to.

Many hard and adamant hearts which were opposed to
God's holy and righteous law, have become recipients of his
grace and are now humble followers of Jesus. Perhaps you
would like to know who they are, I will mention only a few. . . .
Timothy and Charlotte Paine, and I could go on with the list
until it would exceed twenty and then as many more that
attend the inquiry meeting, but the very thought that the
subject does not interest you with deep feeling has again caused
a tear to fall upon both of the glasses of my Spectacles & truly
I must stop and take them off. Timothy wishes me to say,
he is getting along well with his studies, very well, read Cicero
nearly through, commenced reviewing Eclogues, also he is
delighted with Greek study. In addition to his own infor-
mation I would say I do feel not a little anxiety on account
of his clo.se application to study, early & late, through the day
and evening, his eyes are on his books, study at home p.m.
until half past eight morning, then to the Institute to recite
his well-committed lesson. If you should spend twenty four
hours in this house, you would not wonder that Timothy does
not write you a letter. We dont put any dependence on him for
a pail of water, even. Altho he frequently goes to the Pump
for it, he gets his whole supply for drink without suffering it
to come through the spout of a Tea kettle. For a year past
he has slept on nothing better than a straw bed, he seldom
knows what he eats and does actually forget whether he has

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eaten his appointed meal or not. He is in the habit of standing
at the Bureau while studying, but as the Air-tight affects his
head and free breath, we find him in various parts of the house,
sometimes a kind of platform cobbled up over the sink and
if his lessons are Cicero's orations or Aesops Fables that I used
to read in Webster's old spelling book, he studys loud and this
calls my mind to by-gone days. I have fears that I am placing
my hopes too strong upon him. . . .

I must once more bring to view the reformation so as to
inform you ihaf recoucilation has been effected between Aunt
Paine and self. We are now on calling terms and shall soon
visit. Your Uncle has made many calls, opens his mind freely
and meets a kind response. As we pass & repass to meeting
he embraces the opportunity to extend his hand with the
hearty "How do you do Aunt Paine."

Do give us the response that you will endeavour to seek
the Lord and his salvation. I should be glad to write more,
you can easily perceive reasons for a close.

A. W. Paine.

" JflH. 1 ISlfl. [to Albert and Mary]
My dear Children,

It is New Years day & I scarcely need tell had our dear
Harriet been living it would have been her birthday, many
tender recollections have come into memory since I rose this
morning, early my eyes turned towards the little enclosure
that contains all that is mortal. Her graceful form, her slender
and delicate appearance & impressive eyes, all and much more,
rushed involuntarily to mind and it was not without much
effort that I got away from earth and followed her up to heaven
'through liquid telescope of tears.' But enough of this, verj-
many days of clouds and sunshine will alternately beam upon
your path before you can by experience know the pangs of such
a separation. . . .

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"Friday 4 o'clock. All faces begin to be turned toward Mr.
Jos. Eaton's, a great party this eve about 100 invited, even
Bonus is being put in requisition to go for Caroline. Your
father and self have an invitation, but do not accept. I am
afraid you will be impatient for the articles that Benjamin
will bring you, but we have been so busy. Been getting up
wood the most of the time for 3 weeks, Jos. Wood to cut
in the woods. Have a large pile at the door, wish he could
haul a load to you.

"With true affection,

"I remain A. W. Paine."

"Saturday morn. The splendid party has passt and the time
is flying after the years before the flood, and now it remains
as Doct. Chace said on a former like-occasion "each one must
return to live upon his own resources." There were about 100,
many from Watervillc, Benj. Tim. & Carol."

To Caroline

Mch 6/46

"I was very thankful when Tim informed me how good
Ann is. Give my love to her and tell her that by the side of
her "Patience tree" she must plant one of perseverance, good
resolutions well performed and a variety of other useful per-
formances and dont forget to thank her Heavenly Father for
all good received from his kind hand. Hope she will be con-
tented and happy.

"Tim thinks that he has left his old shoes, please bring."

From Frederic Paine to his son Albert

Winslow, Me. May 10, ISIfS.
Dear son.

I had seated myself to write you, at the time that Timothy's
letter arrived. He was at Waterville, did not come home until
noon. After perusing the letter he wished me to say that

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he had made up his mind not to study the Testament he had
sent for. Your caution is very good, respecting his studying
too hard. He is very industrious.

As to the freshet in this phice we iiave been very highly
favoured, aUhowjh very high, we had to Ferry from the
House to the shop. Grass looks well, the farmers have begun
farming.

So far as it respects worldly concerns; but what are tem-
poral compared to spiritual things. My mind has of late been
more directed to things not seen than for years past. When
we view this short life compared to that which is to come, the
honours & riches of the world vanish in a moment. Much
reason I have to rejoice in the goodness of God, in bestowing
the riches and blessings on some of my children,^ Timothy,
Charlotte & Sarah as we hojie — could you visit us you would
witness a great change in them. Timothy takes an active
part in meetings, in exortation & prayer and he speaks to the
point, commands great attention. The girls appear very dif-
ferent, pleasant and are agreeable. Charlotte appears much
like Harriet, sometimes it almost seems she has returned. We
ought to make it our first concern to prepare to leave this world
of sorrow for that rest that remains for the people of God.
Charles & Benjamin remain as yet opposed to the only way
provided for their Salvation. Could I feel that you were build-
ing on the Lord Jesus Christ as your only hope, I could rejoice,
but I do fear you are deceived. My earnest prayer is that
you will carefully examine the subject in such a manner as at
last you may not be wanting, but be prepared with your Dear
Consort for happiness unspeakable and full of glorj'. There
has been a great change in this place, the work has been still
and solemn.

I remain your affectionate Father,

F. Paine.
Ages 18-16-13.

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July 17; ISU-
(Waterville, nmv Colby)
Dear Brother Albert.

Things happen on the College premises — President
Sheldon in front of his house spreading hay with both feet and
both ends of the pitch-fork at the same time upon the full run,
ha, ha, ha. One of the students has mown a place in front of
S. C. about a rod long and given it up for the day. We set
out seventy trees last fall which are now thriving well. Across
the road three or four acres of corn & beans planted by the
students look pretty good. The great locust tree in front of
my windows is in a green state making a beautiful shade for
the disputants. We get along very peaceably. President
& faculty give good satisfaction, are very familiar with the
Students. I have got almost through my first j'ear in College.
It has been the shortest year of my life and I may say with truth
the most pleasant one. Our examination will take place in
about two weeks. But I do not fear to have it come much.
The sitting on the seats so long is the worst part of all. Albert,
I cannot be thankful enough to you for inducing me to take
the course which I am now pursuing. As it was by your in-
fluence that I am here.

Timothy.

Timothy to Albert

Wi7islow, Maine July 19, 181,6.

. . . They are doing strange things in Waterville College, ex-
pelled one of my classmates for blowing a horn Fourth of July,
and one of the class below me; if they are not taken back, I
do not know what will take place. The Sons of Temperance
had a fine time on the Fourth, there were about four hundred
of us. I belong to the Ticonic Division No. 13; there are
140 members enrolled.

I have made a very important change in my diet; eat no
meat, not even a fowl, veal or lamb and am of course as far

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from eating -pork as light is from darkness; no butter not even
on my potato and bread; no milk; nothing that has any poison
in it, but bread made of flour or meal and milk; (I wished
to have it mixed with water) eat potato clear with vegetables
of all kinds (when I can get them), beans cooked clear with a
very little molasses (no butter); but custards, pies and sweet
cakes of evenj kind. I not only do not desire but do not like to
see them. I use the shower bath very early in the morning
and that too, every morning and when it is warm weather,
at evening also. The result of all is that my countenence is
more healthy, body much stronger and mind far more clear
and glad. Can use a rake as well and as strong as any one.
You may see that I am pretty strong from the fact that the
walk of 47 miles (rode 3 miles) gave me no trouble. I have been
thus particular from the fact that you and my other dear friends
at Bangor have spoken so often about my health. So you will
pardon the frequent use of "I." I send you my first printed
piece, "Paine 's Patent Hay Press."

In reference to Uncle Timothy's food and baths, the follow-
ing bit may be of interest to those of the family who have the
family trait.

Aunt Charlotte used to say " my mother used to tell us girls
that our little finicky notions came farther back than from the
Wares. It was the Rays who were fussy about everything that
concerned food or cleanliness."

My father said " I expect to eat my peck of dirt but what
I object to is the eating it all at once."

For Ray Genealogy see page 134.

PART IV. "THE WORTHY PORTION.
THE BLESSED CHILDREN"

Chapter one Cloverside, the Old Homestead.
" two Charles Frederic

Sketch by his brother Albert.

Thirteen Half Dollars.
" three Benjamin Crowninshield,
" four The Daughters.

Illustrations

Cloverside, The Old Homestead.

Charles Frederic Paine, gen VIII, from daguerreotype.

The Home Lane.

From " Sketch Book." 1845.

Frederic Paine born Nov, 21st 1785.
Abiel Ware born Dec 6, 1787.
Married Sept 21, 1809.

The Worthy Portion of
Frederic & Abiel Paine.
Blessed Children.

Charles Frederic born .June 18 1810

Albert Ware Aug 16 1812

Benjamin Crowninshield March 10 1815

Caroline Matilda Nov 2, 1817

Harriet Newell Jan 1 1822

Timothy Otis Oct 1 1824

Charlotte Elizabeth Feb 13 1827

Sarah Jane Jan 10 1830

Harriet's happy death, June, 1837
aged fifteen ye, five months, nine days.

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CHAPTER ONE
CLOVERSIDE, THE OLD HOMESTEAD

When ninety-two years old, my father writes to a Winslow
cousin, in response to an invitation to visit him:

Bangor, 1904-
Geo. S. Paine Esq. . ■■

My dear Cousin, — I hope I" shall be able at least by Com-
mencement day to visit my old home and enjoy the promised
ride around town which you so kindly promised. I sincerely
hope I may at least once more view the scenes of my youthful
days for which I entertain such lively and loving remembrance.
There is no place on earth that so completely absorbs my
soul's earthly life as dear old Winslow.

With kind regards to your wife and sister as well as yourself,
I am and remain,

Your affectionate Cousin,
ALBERT W. PAINE.

In 1883 Uncle Timothy made a drawing of the old homestead
sending copies of it to his brothers and sisters. From his
brother Benjamin, ten years his senior, came this immediate
response :

Winslow Homestead 31 e. Sunday eve, Nov. ll/S3.
More than kind brother T'O. — One thing we would like
to know how under the sun, moon, and stars you have com-
pleted so perfect a picture of the place as it was, is more than
any person living can tell. You surely nmst have visited the
spot many times for the years gone by, and the question conies
how did you come and go so many times and no one see you

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with pen and paper taking so many measures and angles &c.
It surely was not done while the Sun or Moon or Stars were
shining, but you must have done it when all was still and
dark and before light, taken wings for your pleasant home.

— B.C. P."

This bit of "reminiscencing" was written on a postal by
"Timo" to his brother Albert in Bangor, in 1886, just after
the death of the brother Benjamin and when the house was
being dismantled.

Postal

Sheephouse, barn floor, overhead scaffold, "lenter," hen-
house, barnshed hogpen, cornhouse, woodhouse, open part,
set-kettle-room, sink room, kitchen sitting room, keeping-
room, up-stairs, skylight, downstairs, dark bedroom, front-
entry, up to the spring, down to the brook, down to the river,
over the brook, the ham house, the oilnut trees, in the post-
office, the bridge, P^aton's store. I am doing a great deal of
nothing. Next year shall I l)e hard at work again?

What does it mean that our memories retain such a mass of
simple things wrap])ed up in homely words.' How long would
it take you to write out all that you could say on each word on
my list?

In the "lenter" (pray not leanto for us) stood old Bonus
who came out of your Latin Grammar; and how much comes
from this lenter? The drives of Bonus; Dr. Chase's horse;
Dr"s rides — I want to see old home when I die; to ramble
through it with father and mother, Hatty and you — Prema-
ture youth seems to be coming on fast. No roguish sister will
put a potato in my stocking now.

Timo.
Elmwood, Mass. Dec. 22, 188G.

CHAPTER TWO
CHARLES FREDERIC PAINE

This sketch of the oldest son was written by his brother,
Albert, in 187G.

Charles F. Paine
My brother Charles Frederic Paine was born at Winslow,
County of Kennebec, Maine, on June 18, 1810. As a scholar
at school he was a good Mathematician and had in boyhood
a remarkably active and business character and inventive
genius. Our father being a mechanic, Charles early acquired
the knowledge and use of tools and was always making some
piece of ingenious mechanical work. Sleds, wagons, carts,
houses, machinery, mills and other work were constantly
exhibited as new fruits of his skill and industry. In later life
he invented a hay press which was patented under his name
and which has ever since had a high reputation and extensive
use, not only in his own neighborhood but in other states and
on the cotton growing plantations of the South. His taste
early led him to indulge in the various arts of water craft nature,
water mills, water wheels and in river navigation and among the
very earliest of his mechanical employments was the making of
miniature boats, canoes and ships and afterwards those of a
larger class for the accommodation of business. Living on the
margin of two rivers which had their confluence by our home,
a very favourable opportunity was afforded for the cultivation
of his taste in this direction and for its practice in useful ways.
So that quite early in his more mature life he engaged in the
business of navigation upon the Kennebec between Waterville
and his native town at the one extreme and the towns or cities

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below as far as Bath at tlie other. This indeed became the
business of his life, carried on for many years by means of the
large flat boats, then well known to the region. This being at
a time long before Railroads were even thought of in that region
or even indeed any where, these boats afforded the only means
of conveyance for all freights or merchandi.se from the head
of ship navigation at Augusta to all towns and villages further
North upon the waters of the Kennebec. Hence the species
of navigation was a very important one and a severe com-
petition existed for its profits.

In the year 1847 the erection of the Dam at Augusta by which
the waters were made to flow back as far as to Waterville,
cau.sed a new era in the business of the River. Steamboat
navigation thus became practicable and Charles was among,
if not ihe very first to take advantage of the new facilities which
it aftorded. \Yith the aid of others he at once commenced
the construction of a steamer which was finished in the early
part of the succeeding year. To it he gave the name of " Hali-
fax" after that of the Fort which had its location in the town
of Win.slow. The vessel was launched from his "Shipyard"
and got ready for service and a trial trip made to Hallowell
on the 22nd day of May, returning at evening. On the next
day he started upon her regular course, as a freight and pas-
senger line, a small excursion party including three of his own
children having taken pa.ssage with him. In passing through
the lock in the dam at Augusta the boiler exploded and he with
six others was instantly killed. His remains were brought
home where thej' lie deposited in our little family cemetery
where lie the precious remains of our dear sister and parents.

The tragical death of her son caused to his mother an intense
and lasting grief from which she never freed herself. Her
scrap book often bore testimony to its violence and it ever
after was her constant theme of thouglit and anxiety for his
fa mil V.

CHARLES FREDERIC PAINE

LlBtxnKY

ASTOR,

LENOX

CHARLES FREDERIC PAINE 161

This short sketch of my dear Brother I have very hastily
dra\\^l up at the request of my dear wife.

Albert W. Paine.
March 19, 1S76.

In 1834 at the age of 24 years, Charles was married to Miss
Esther Loring the daughter of Dea. Loring of Norridgewock
and three sons and four daughters were the result of the union.

THIRTEEN HALF DOLLARS

In 1849, about two years after the violent death of her
oldest son. Grandmother began a .series of twenty letters to
his son Charles, the oldest grandchild. The first entry is Sept.
16, the last Aug. 1851, with intervals of perhaps some days and
then again of some months.

These were written in the fullness of a grief stricken heart.
The same purpose runs through them all, the underlying
thought being that the son should know and love the character
of the father so tragically taken from life.

The blank book was without doubt made by her as were the
account books she mentions making for the son Charles.
"The J ream of paper" was cut into half-leaves which were
sewed together with a coarse linen thread and bound in a cover
of the old marbled j)aper.

The penmanship is often elegant in appearance and the
signatures and addres.ses often decorated with scrolls, lines or
dots. (See Frontispiece.)

Dedication

To my dear grandboy Charles Paine,

I would lovingly dedicate a few lines of information regard-
ing the early history of his excellent father who by a sudden
and unexpected Providence was removed from this to the
ETERNAL world May 23, 1848. Before his death you were

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too young to think iiuicli or make inquiries about your father's
boyhood; or how and what he did at the early age of com-
mencing in Hfe. You only learned some little incidents rela-
tive to his mechanical genius, his love of watercraft and
economy in "taking care of the cents" and he ever remember-
ing that fifty of them make a half dollar and that a half dollar
was a "jjretty large piece of silver." You remember that
your grandmother told you that when your father had col-
lected thirteen half dollars he commenced trade — began to do
business for himself with that capital stock, and that he had
kept working upo7i it and with it up to the day and hour of
his death.

But as the town Church bell summons to the house of wor-
ship, I will lay down my ])en and go with the confident hojie
that after list'ning to words from my respected pastor, I shall
be better prepaired to continue my narration in the spirit of
the gospel.

Yours in love,

A. W. Paine.

Sabbaih morn

Sept. 16th, ISJtO.

Sept 19th, 1849
Letter Id

To my oldest grandchild
On closing my dedication, a preparedness for writing in the
spirit of the gospel was hoped for; and while list'ning to it, the
preacher brought the following sentiment to view. That,
however nmch knowledge we possess, ability to communicate,
or gift for instruction, of what use if we kept it all locked up
in our store-houses.* of what avail to others? This thought is
quite seasonable to me considering the subject which for a
few previous days had occupy 'd my mind. So here I am
seated in my happy chamber with all the conveniences for
writing, and a heart devoted to that employment when I can

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feel that I am about to contribute a morsel of food to the
mind of any friend, and how much more now that I am about
to give a few items of information and may be instruction to
one who since the death of his worthy father, has fallen into
my affection with a two-fokl weight, thereby in a measure
filling u]) the void, and narrowing the breach so recently made
in the death of my oldest Son, your father.

If I attempt a sketch of his early history for you I must, of
course begin with his beginning and say that he fell into my arms
as many other first-born sons do, a precious bud of promise.

In writing the following narrative for you, my dear boy,
you must not cxi)ect dates of time nor age at their occurrence
nothing was further from my mind than that they should ever
be repeated with any particular interest, and if at all remem-
bered, they would only be related as little incidents to gratify
a childish freak, or to the calling up of Maternal fondness.

And here I would say that perhaps no place in my com-
munication will be more proper than this to recommend to
you and your Sisters the keeping of a journal, or Sketch-book
to which you can repair whenever anything of consequence
comes up before the mind; or any either kind or adverse Provi-
dence overtakes you. or the members of the family who are
so closely knit together by the bonds of love and sympathy:
more especially since that fatal twenty third of May. If
you should conclude to comjjly with my wish, I would say let
your book be such as you can purchase at a book-store for
about fifty cents, and when it is all covered over with your little
records, it will be the richest fifty cents that you possess, more
especially if your life should be spent much away from home
and as you are the oldest of the seven it would be a rich gift
to the home-brood, and how much more so to the lonely mother.
Be very particular to make dates of time, the day, the month
and year &c. &c.

Sept. 20. It is forty years this day since I changed my

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name b.y inheritance to that of Paine, and tliroiigh all this
time the Lord has been my ^nide 'ii,V guard and sustainer. In
Him I shall continue to trust my hojje that eventually all my
dear family and those precious grandchildren, will at last be
gathered into his peaceful fold, never more to be separated;
so now I must lay down my pen, leave my chamber and assist
in taking care of dear little Frederic who came into this world
twenty days ago but now it appears is about to leave, he is my
thirteenth grandchild.

Farewell for the present.

Letter '2nd

Sept. 23 184H

Childhood and youth are vanity. So said a wise man, truly;
therefore I shall omit many incidents relative to your father's
extreme childhood and only say that the inexperience of his
mother was the cause of his receiving very many falls and hair-
breadth escapes, such as, from the bed, the table, from the win-
dow, out at the door and down stairs, but thanks to the great
Presence, none of these ever deprived him of an excellent mem-
ory, which will be the first subject I shall treat upon.

During the winter after he was two years old, his lot was to
sleep in the trucket-bed in the same room where we spent the
evening, and it was the usual practise of his father to put
C[uestions to him, after his face and hands had been washed
and put into bed. Those questions for the most part related
to the Officers in the United States, beginning with the Presi-
dent, Vice President, Secretary and so on down to those favours
issuing from the Ca])ital. Then the Governors of the different
states and those holding high office under them, more particu-
larly Massachusetts & Maine which at that time composed
one state. Then the home county of Kennebec would be
brought up to view with its great men at the head of affairs.
Next our own town, selectmen, town clerk, treasurer and so
on and down to the Post-master's assistant? "My papa."

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Perhaps you think this (jiiite ;i tedious lesson for a cliild
not yet three years old, hut not so indeed, it was not every
night that he performed the pleasant task; then it might have
been a burthen. Besides you must consider that the lesson
was not so very long as might be supposed, for your grandfather
was not of a slow speech and a slow tongue, neither did he
train his children so, but more like the pen of a ready writer.

And here I would mention the first cent that your father
ever worked to earn, it was for carrying a little jug of drink,
and a tin pail of luncheon to your grandfather at work on the
Interval back of Uncle Lemuel's barn. He was unwilling to
go so far alone, but the promise of a cent on his return inspired
his courage, and it proved a source of lasting consolation to
him. Altho he picked together many cents to put into his
'Box' yet none of them were so valuable as the earned one.

Adieu,
for the present.

I am monarch of all I survey.
My right there is none to dispute.
— Crusoe.
Letter 3rd

October 1S49
My dear Grandson.

Perhaps you will ask why the title of this book is "The
thirteen half dollars," or a few 'Items in the life of my father',
you may say that you understand the latter but the former
is kept hidden. Have patience, dear child, it will explain
itself by & by, besides I have already touched the subject in
the conclusion of my last letter, i.e. the 'earned cent.' I
will now tell you where he put it. It was in the Autumn of
the same year spoken of in my last, that my own dear mother
made me a visit of a few months, from New Hampshire. In
this time she knit two money-purses, one for each of the two

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little boj's, i.e. Charles & Albert; Charles' was of various colors,
and in that respect like Joseph's coat of old, for you must
know that your father was somewhat of a favourite, besides
he was the oldest boy. Now I really think that Albert's was
the handsomest, but it was all buff color. Charles' was the
very same you have now in your possession; look at it and see
if it is green, red, black and white. I have not forgotten how
his countenance brightened up when he came down in the
morning and received in re])ly to his question 'yes, the purse
is done.' His box was brought and the contents put in, they
were all black cents for he used to say they were 'just as good
as any & better because they filled his box quicker.' But
altho his purse was small yet it was not full, and he set about
devising ways and means to fill it up, this was .soon accom-
plished and when it began to run over, he laid the jilan to give
six or twelve cents to his father and receive in return a silver
piece. We will now leave him for a time filling his purse and
give a sketch of the situation round your grandfather's house; for
it was this same season that we moved into it from Uncle Lems'.

This sketch has much to do with your father's early life,
for there is scarce a foot of land belonging to the home lot
but what his 'early feet have trod.'

When I commenced this letter, I intended to have given this
view, hence the two lines of "Crusoe" at its head, but the other
matter has crowded it out and I shall take it for my next.

Yours in love.

A view of the scenery around the home-stead 36 years ago.
Letter Mh

October 23, 1S49.
My dear Grandchild.

It was a very large old decay 'd White-Oak stump about
three rods from the front door, just on the brow of the hill,
that was the centre of all out-door sports for your father for
a number of years, even down to the time within your aunt

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Caroline's remembrance, for she said 'well do I remember
the good run I used to have from the front door down to the
old stump to see & enjoy all the pleasures it afforded.'

Here with his hatchet, his hoe, his jacknife & various other
tools he would make all sorts of things, together with a house,
a box, or pig-pen which could be easily dug out of the famous
edifice; and what ever was lacking to make all complete would
be obtained from his fathers shop, the back pasture or from
his mother's kitchen, and it really became a proverb whenever
anything was missing, to guess it was down at the old stump.
From that point and all along where the Orchard is now,
and so on to the Interval, was also brush and swamps.

There was one small spot that had been cleared up, and
previously there had been a patch of Rye, this was where the
house stands, and so round the pump and where the garden
and out-building now are.

Now you have a pretty full description of the scenery,
and I trust you will readily believe my remark in letter 3d,
i.e. scarce a foot of land but what his 'early feet have trod.'

This is a pretty long letter, and my hand is getting to be
cold, therefore shall say good morning

to my dear boy.

A. W. Paine.

Letter 5th

November 17lh, 18-1,9

My dear grandchild.

As my last letter was a ground scene of our lot, thin is intended
as a kind of history of by-gone days; yet the object will be to
show your father in a prominent place as is the design of this
entire book.

In the year 1814 your grandfather was appointed Post-
Master, where upon the Post office was moved up into the
front entry. You will perhaps smile at the idea of the Post
office moved into the entry, but so it was, as I shall make plain.

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At that time our house was quite unfinished with the ex-
ception of the sitting room and bed room directly out of that.
A rough partition separated the Entry from the North room
and it was somewhat larger than it now is, into this the Post
office was moved which consisted of the following articles i.e.
a huge old fashioned desk, — but stop, let me consider this
statement, it surely was not old fashioned, I presume there
was none such before it, neitlier has there one come after it.
On the top of this stood a row of pigeon holes as they were
call'd — better had they been call'd hawks nests, for those
days were 'war-time' and very- much more was thought and
done about Mail than now. No sooner than your grandfather
had got all the papers and letters arranged in the said pigeon
holes, than the town's people would flock in to devour with
imabated thirst.

These two departments stood upon a kind of frame-work
resembling a cloth horse, and they three one on the top of the
other occupy 'd a prominent place in the entrj-.

There was one other thing to make all complete, it was a
long broad board painted white with large capital letters of
black, read POST OFJTCE, this was screwed up just under
the eaves of the liouse on the North corner and might be read
at the main road.

After all the.se things were arranged, your father received an
appointment, or had an office given him which was the first
he ever had the honor of filling, but ivell do I remember that
he filled it in with fidelity. It was that of "Watcher" or
"Reporter," his duty devolved upon him four times per week,
[four years old].

It was to "watch and see" when the Mail Stage was coming
from Augusta, or when it was far off' on the Point, from Water-
ville, he must run and report to his father that he might be
ready to receive it. When it was Winter your grandfather
would throw on a handful of shavings and a parcel of dry wood

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on to the fire, for you must know that he worked at his trade
in one of the unfinished rooms, and in the Summer he must
be called from the farm and get ready to wait upon the Mail.
In those days the mail was brought in two and sometimes three
bags like meal-bags. They were empty 'd upon the sitting-
room floor. Each package taken up separately and if read
"Winslow" laid aside, if not returned to the 'bag.' This
occupy 'd about fifteen minutes; this gave the Passengers time
to come in to the hou.se and talk about 'war' a few minutes, —
these were social times, if not of the most i)leasant nature.

The following item, you must consider as taking place within
a few years next after the last mentioned time, but without
any ]iarticular date, as that has partially escaped my memory,
but the acis are all plain to my mind's eye.

Your father was in the habit of spending his winter evenings
in drawing but his accommodations were not as young people
have now, but rather consisted first of a huge pair of Bellows
that had formally lived in my father's family, and in ancient
time had been painted red, I say lived in for what could avoid
life, that was capable of containing and sending forth so much
breath at one pressure? Their being once red made the chalk
marks appear the brighter, therefore the more valuable. These
with his little chair and a basket of shavins by his side, made
him the Master of happiness for an hour or two before going
to bed, and nothing was more common than to find them, the
bellows, in the morning drest in a new garb. This drawing
would vary according as the scenes met his eye during the day;
carriages of various kinds, from a Stage down to a wheel-
barrow, farming tools, house frames, well sweeps and wicker-
work corn-cribs &.&....

The method ice took to get him to School, the winter after he
teas four years old

The School was taught in the house where Mr. Ayer now
lives and your father thought it a great way to go alone, there-

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fore his mother would go with him about half way down the
lane and then in walking slowly back again get to the house
about the same time that he got to the main road, in which
time he would look back a number of times to see if 1 was in
sight, then I would go in and stand at the front door where
he could see me till he had passed the 'Tavern' then I would
go to the back door and by wav'ing a white cloth he could
ascertain that I was there and so feel that he had company all
the way to the school door. But notwithstanding all this he
nibbled the cuff of his great coat nearly off because he was
'lonesome' as he said.

I now bid you adieu for the present, with the renewed as-
surance of continued love and affection

from your Grandmother.

Letter 6th

Dec 11, 18^9
So now I shall tell you how your father's ingenuity mani-
fested itself in the making of a Grist-mill when he was about
six years old. I cannot give a very definite descrij)tion of its
parts, but will speak of four or five prominent ones and you
must conjecture the rest. The frame-work were crotched
sticks driven into the ground, which probably he cut with his
hatchet & jacknife from the brush pasture on the West, before
spoken of and which was a perpetual consolation to him. But
to the Grist-mill. There was turning of a crank, a wheel with
floats attached thereto somewhat like those in a steam boat.
This process was so fixed as to hit the hopper and cause the
meal to run out on to a board set slanting to convey it into a
trough on the ground. The whole establishment might have
been co\'ered over with a bushel basket. It was erected very
nigh the front door and was such a good model that passen-
gers from the stage would recognize it at once as being a
Grist-mill.

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Letter 7th

January 1850
In letter third of this narrative we left your father filling
his purse; we will now take a peep into it and see how much
it contains. Perhaps you will guess it is full by this time, for
that was a number of years ago, but not so indeed, why? Look,
there are only four cjuarters of a dollar and about twenty black
cents & when he has got twenty five he will give it to his father
and receive another silver quarter; that was the way he worked
it for a number of years, but the reason why it did not increase
faster was this; he was never taught the principles of a miser
to hoard up all his money to be looked at & counted over &
over. No! not that! but was instructed to lay out his money
for such things as would make life more pleasant in himself
or contribute in some way to the happiness or welfare of others,
thus he purchased all his own tools to work with and here I
would say that he made for himself a kind of model work
bench nigh his father's and endeavoured to have it furnished
with various tools like unto his; and for the lack of the harder
material, he could whittle them out of wood; all his Jacknives
which in a few years amounted to quite a number, for we used
to say that the brushes & the brook were very good places to
hide knives, occasionally a pound of nails, Spelling books, slate
& pencil, also little books that pleased his fancy etc. These
things kept the contents of his purse low, and at the same time
made him happy. . . . With these good principles linked
together with the thoughts of my dear Son, I must lay down
my pen until the climate of my chamber is more congenial
with that of my heart.

Letter 8th

March 20 1850
The design of this letter will be to speak of your father's
temperament of mind and conduct relating to him as school-
boy — at meeting — among the neighbors and in his mother's

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kitchen, in the hist mentioned of wliich, his mild demeanor
and unaffected kindness shone with peculiar prominence. He
seemed to deliglit in taking a kind of fraternal care of those
coming after him.

No sooner than his two brothers (Albert & Benjamin) were
old enough to go to school than his unwearied attention was
turned toward them from home quite to the school, and then
again on their return warding off all danger. But his joy
and usefulness was redoubled when an accession of a sister
was added. By that time he had become old enough to make
for hiuLself a Waggon & Sled for the purjjose of hauling her
out abroad. Each of these vehicles had a box attached with the
back somewhat higher than the sides, so that he could "run
down the hill and through the gate, over the snow-bank and
yet be safe." —

In Winter he would bring the Sled into the kitchen to re-
ceive the "precious charge" of a Sister that mother might fix
her in & tuck her up and having learned the lesson in the
kitchen, would practise upon it at the school-house and be
able to say at his return, "there is Sis just as I found her."

It was not as a superior scholar, that your father shone the
brightest of the twain, no — he was seldom heard to speak of
being at the head of the spelling-class or of making special
attainments in any of the common branches in the district
school and that was the only school he ever attended. But in
one particular he was superior i.e. in manly deportment while
at school and among his playmates and if all boys were like unto
him we should not see .so many broken windows and whittled
seats and flying snow-balls in & about our school-houses as at
the present day.

His attention to meeting, is to be my next subject and this
I cannot well perform without giving you a sketch of Church
history as it was in W^inslow in those days.

At that time there was no Church nor Congregational serv-

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ices, but there were a few individuals who would hke to be
united with that Sect. In the Spring of 1818 the Massachu-
setts Missionary Society sent a missionary to Vassalboro by
name Rev. Thomas Adams. Maine at that time was a part
of Massachusetts and called "The District of Maine." Very
soon after his arrival, Dea Talbot called upon him to let him
know our state, and invite him to visit us, accordingly in
July he came to our house and he was the first Congregational
Minister that ever had passed our threshold. I well remember
the day, it was a very hot one and your Grandfather was getting
hay just over the brook. Mr. Adams rapt at the front door,
I met him — he told his name and added "I have come to see
how you do." He walked in with an elastic step, passed
directly across the room and laid a bimdle of Tracts on the
Bureau, making the enquiry 'are you well supplied with such
reading? read those and then circulate them among your
neighbours.' In a few moments your grandfather joined us
and we enjoyed a kind of 'angel visit.' He was young,
but his heart was warm in the cause of Christ, blessed
man, I have loved him from that moment to this and 'Love
never dies.'

I have, my dear boy been thus particular l)ecau.se that was
the first planning ever made in Winslow for the gathering of a
Church; In due time and after all preliminary steps necessary
for such an accomplishment, on Sabbath day, November 1st
1818, a number of the Vassalboro Church came to Winslow
to receive us as a branch church with them, for they belonged
to Hallowell church at that time.

Mr. Adams text on that occasion was Ecclesiastes 5 chap, 5
verse 'Better is it that thou shouldest not vow, than that thou
shouldest vow and not pay.' After sermon, Mrs. Talbot and
myself received the ordinance of baptism and as I was the
oldest, I received it first, then with our husbands we were
admitted to the church agreeable to the Congregational form.

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The sacrament was then administered, and a number from
other churches communed with us.

In the afternoon, Mr. Adams text was Luke 17 chap 21
" Behold the Kingdom of God is within you." Then the
children were given up in baptism i.e. Charles Fred', Albert
Ware, ]?enjamin Crowniinshield, Caroline Matilda Paine,
and Mary Talljot; thus closed a delightful day of heavenly
enjoyment, the first of the kind ever in Winslow.

One circumstance I must not omit mentioning that of Mr.
Adams Ordination at Vassalboro August 26, of the same year,
otherwise he would not have been (jualified for such perfor-
mances. "Stutly to .show thyself approved unto God, a work-
man that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the
word of truth." By the Rev. J. Cogswell.

Here I would just mention that your father was the first
child baptized into this church, as also the first that ever
received it from Mr. Adams' hand. You will see it was only
about nine weeks after his ordination.

When these things had passed by, and knowing that my
Charles was a thoughtful, meditative boy, now eight years
old, I thought to ex])lain to liini what these things meant, ac-
cordingly and at suitable times I told him how it was, and the
way in which to bring up children in the nurture and admonition
of the Lord. How far those lectures had their restraining quali-
ties remains yet to be known. From these days and onward
no one could excel his apparent love for meetings.

We had preaching in this place only every fourth Sabbath,
on the other Sabbaths, he would go with his father to Water-
ville, to Clinton or to Vassalboro which was nine miles with
greatest cheerfulness and many has been the time when he
would fix off in a cold November or December breeze or the
scorching Sun in July in an oj)en Waggon to attend meeting
and without making a word of objection.

To confirm this I will relate one little anecdote. At a time

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when I had so many domestic cares as to prevent my making
all the boys new Caps that week, I said on Sabbath morning
Charles dear. You cant go to meeting today for I had not time
to finish your Cap, at which he looked up with his own peculiar
look and said "why! ma'am I always take my cap off when I go
into meeting." He went and as he came into the meeting
house a few moments after mc, I noticed that he clapped
his cap under his arm. ... As we had preaching only once
in four weeks it was not always convenient to attend meeting
every Sabbath and on those days, his time and attention
would be wholly occupy 'd within the house with his books,
his pen or pencil and slate or in taking care of the Baby of
which we were never destitute.

Explanatory Note. When I first thought of writing
these letters to you, I had in view only a few prominent items
which in the recital would be gratifying in which the thirteen
half dollars held a conspicuous place, I therefore gave a name
to the work corresponding with my intention but as I took
my pen under the direction of a kind Providence I was carried
back and set down at the threshold of a mother's first respon-
sibility.

I have been led to admire the good hand of my Father in
the bringing up of many distinct recollections which had so
'ong lain dormant. Aside from this I have been encouraged
by warm friends to proceed with particulars however minute.
Hope you will keep up good courage and be assured that the
thirteen half dollars will be handed out by & by with interest.

Yours in love
as before, A. W. Paine.

Letter 9th

April 3rd IS 50
In these days when our heavenly Father is showering down
so many blessings upon us, meetings and sabbath schools stand

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so iiigli together that we can scarcely approach one without
rubbing against the other and as my hut was the first, so this
will be the other.

Our first Sabbath school was collected in the summer of 1819
by the advice and assistance of Rev. Thomas Adams and in
accordance with your grandfather's views & cooperation, l)ut
as there were at that time only two male members in the Church,
and one of them lived four miles from the meeting house,
the whole care fell upon your grandfather both as Teacher
& Superintendent. Somewhat of aid was given by Mr. George
W Osborne of Waterville, and after a while from Students of
the Charity school, from which institution has sprung up all
those College buildings, so rich and convenient for the requi-
sition of knowledge, and the great amount of .science within
its walls which is like unto the River upon whose bank it stands.

The manner of conducting Sab School was different from
what it now is, the7i the pupils were obliged to commit to
memory — but stop — obliged to commit conveys a wrong
idea, rather they had the privilege of committing to memory
as great a number of verses in the Testament as they pleased,
thus the number committed was governed by circumstances,
i.e. their age, — their ability or their home privilege, which
last mentioned has very much to do with the prosperity of
the Sabbath .school.

Some of the children would repeat fluently l!25 verses,
others some 100 or 80 — 50 or 10. Then a few general remarks
from the Minister or Superintendant & closing with singing.

Your father's rule was to look over his lesson for the next
Sabbath, on Sunday after meeting and by a little assistance
from his mother get the Story. Then by talking about it and
asking questions during the week he would get very correct
ideas about it. So nigh as I can remember his common rule
was about 25 verses which I still think is better than a very
great number.

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After a few years it was concluded that the school should
take the book of James and go through with it on close exami-
nation and it was only a few years ago that your father told me
he could repeat the whole of that book with a very little prompt-
ing, and in my mind there remains not a doubt that those
heavenly principles so well calculated to aid and direct a young
man through life were his peculiar treasure.

Blessed Sabbath School, would that all children loved it as
well as my owti dear Charles used to do.

One circumstance relating to him as he appeared among the
neighbors when he went on errands, I will here bring to view
which will go to prove a sentiment often expresst to me. Being
in company one day with a number of mothers, the subject
as usual came up respecting our children when one of the
company remarked to me as follows. "I never saw such a boy
as your Charles, when he comes to my house he raps at the
door — comes in — takes off his cap and makes a bow — then
he does his errand — gets his answer, makes his bow — puts
on his cap and goes out, I never saw such a boy."

This was a common testimony from friends and shall ever
remain a truth that in going out on business, he was correct,
cjuick and punctual to a letter.

There is quite a snow-storm without and it is getting dark,
sufficient to say good night.

Letter 10th

April 27th 1850
You will see by this date that it is a number of days since
I laid down my pen. The reason is, I came to a place where
I was in a strait betwixt two, having a desire to write many
things unto you. But upon consideration have thought that
it would be too much like the "Pie" that was made of almost
nothing, and yet quite palatable by reason of the "much spice."
I shall therefore pass over many little incidents now brought
out and made plain to my mind's eye which would add much

178 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

to the nuviher of these LETTERS without materially enrich-
ing this work. I will however touch upon a few things which
will go to show his ability & tact to divert the minds of the
young group counting up under his eye, and thereby prove
two truths, first, the train of mechanism in which his mind was
continually led and second his turning it to enhance his useful-
ness while confined within the bounds of the house & dooryard.

Of the Saw mill which made its appearance only a few feet
from the door, I shall say but little as it was but just capable
of sawing a Potato or soft Apple, but of father's Turnpike
roads of which he cast up many I will give you a short de-
scription.

An unexpected event calls me down stairs and I must lay
down my pen and dismiss all thoughts of Turnpike roads until
a future day, then hope to be able to beguile a few of your mo-
ments with gone by scenes connected with your dear father's
youthful amusements and recreations. Till then know me to

be your affec

friend A. W. Paine.

Letter 11th

May 1st, 1850
Dear Boy,

The subjects of Turnpike which is to compose a part of this
letter has long since been to a great extent superseded by
Rail-road so that it is too far on the back ground for your
personal knowledge, but I intend that my short sketch shall
enlighten you somewhat thereon. This "enlightening," you
must gather from an evening's amusement of which your father
would act the part of "Principal" and thus divert the attention
of a whole brood of children through a long evening.

Directly after the supper table was cleared off, the question
would come up — "let us play Turnpike." Accordingly one
of the first movements would be to make sufficient money
for the evening. This was done by taking a piece of stout

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paper doubled many times and held very tight between the
pairs of tongs and held in the fire untill they burned round,
then these were distributed to the traveling community among
which mother received a share, for no one might pass that
evening without money.

The next thing done was cast up the road, this was by draw-
ing two heavy chalk marks length ways of the kitchen, far
enough apart to admit a foot passenger or carriage, or man on
horseback. The carriage was a little chair with a baby tied
thereon, the man on horseback a boy riding stride a stick.

Then there was the Toll gate which was made with a chair
on each side the road, and the broom laid across from one to
the other.

The next arrangement was to put all the moveables into that
end of the room where the doors were that led into the bedroom
— entry — sink room but especially the cupboard. Then all
the people were cooped ujj into the vacated part which was
much the smallest and the Toll gatherer would take his seat
on a stool nigh the gate, that the little chairs might be left for
riders.

All these things done — then commenced the hour of action
when every body wanted something that was in the other
part of the world, and it would often happen that even the baby
would wake and want mother's care or seem to have a premo-
nition that it could have a ride in the Turn pike.

Perhaps you will wonder how it was that your father under-
stood all these aflfairs? In reply I would say that your grand-
parents had traveled much in Massachusetts where there were
many such roads, and on our return had related many such
like historys, that our children at home might in some small
degree partake of the like happenings.

This relation will go to prove the remark in former letters
i.e. unaffected kindness — peculiar prominences etc. etc.

P. S. As all my writing moments are in a great measure

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mixed in with household duties, it is only by scraps & hits
that I pen any thing. It is now half past eleven of the clock,
and altho this is a ven^ short letter, shall abruptly say Fare-
well until a time in the day more convenient for retirement;
in the intermediate time, hope to select a better pen, for really
this is a very poor wornout thin<; and powerfully reminds me
of the decay of life's scenes and enjoyments.

Yours in love.
Grandmother.

Lcller IM

Mail 1'^' 1850
To my ever dear grandson.

The other day in looking over some stray leaves of an old
Manuscript I found the following which I have thought proper
to copy. It is dated 18'-2;5. "I have just parted with my dear
Charles to go on a visit to the West and altho I have four
children left, yet there is a great vacancy, for he is my first
born, consequently my dear beloved." ... In my last letter
we left my dear boy just entering the door of his Uncle Timothy
Ware's at Boston. His arrival was expected for altho the
letter tax was eighteen and three quarter cents, yet it never
retarded our correspondence with relatives & friends and in
these goosequill days, when as yet a steel pen had never entered
the heart of a Keimebecer, and the great foolscap paper which
would contain a volume, all the people at the West could know
about our plans.

Now while he is rejoicing at Boston we will turn aside as
it were and take a look into his Trunk and see the result of
the last Winter's work so far as relates to this journey. And
by the way I would say it is a hair trunk with brass nails marked
C. P. and now it stands in my Chamber occupied by your
third Sister Esther Matilda Paine.

The contents of the trunk together with what he had on.
First there were two full suits of clothes, all new with the

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exception of the dress coat which was made of his father's
wedding coat and cost 23 dollars. It was made all over again
and "just as good as new." Better — a good quantity of
under clothes. Stockings, Handkerchiefs of various kinds.
Hats, boots, shoes and gloves, most certainly he had gloves. —
Then in the right hand corner snug down at the bottom lay
a little package of money which his father let him have and in
a pocket under his arm the Purse of which you have had a
description containing about four dollars of his own picking
together.

Then there was a memorandum of every article which he had
with him that he might know to pick them together when
he returned. One other thing which he carried in his vest
pocket, was a perpetual advantage to him. It was a Direc-
tory, but at this day of improvements and new names it might
be called a "Pathfinder." It contained the names of all the
relatives that he would visit, and on which side they were
connected, whether on father's or mother's.

I will give you one specimen, which will go to show how
it read, and how it proved, quoting the language as it there
stood i.e. "When you have made your visit at your Uncle
Timothy Ware's ask him to put you into a Stage that runs from
Boston to Providence, when you liave rode about three hours
the Driver will probably sing out " Walpole-Half-way house,"
and in about a minute his four or six horse stage will whirl
up into the door-yard of Polly's Tavern; here you must pay
your "Fare" which will be just one dollar, then pass directly
across the street to a large two-story house; that will be your
Uncle Harry Partridge's and his wife is your father's Sister."
This is "how it read" and the following is how it proved.
On the same day that Charles went from Boston to Walpole,
his grandmother chanced to be with her daughter Mrs. Part-
ridge and was looking out at the W'indow as the Stage came
up. "There " said she " is a youngster jumped out of the Stage,

182 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

he has whirled round upon his heel and darted off toward our
door, wonder who it is? He looks like a student." She met
him at the door and he looked up with a pleasant smile and
said "My name is Charles Paine, Frederic Paine's son of
Winslow." How he was received need not be told. This fact
I learned from his grandmother.

Exiract from a letter from Charles F. Paine

Foxboro July 4 1823
Dear Parents.

I have now been to most of the places where I was to
visit, — Have not been homesick since I left home but enjoyed my
time well, have set no time to return, grandmother will come
with me when I do, — I want to see my brother & sister, tell
Albert to write me a letter. I am at ]\Ir. James Paines and can
hear the cannon guns from Franklin it being Independant day.

"Mr. Paine is hoeing his corn the second time.
P. S. I have been to Mr. Pratts where Charles F. Paine,
pa'pa learned his trade, and to Dr. Paul Metcalf at the same
time; I have been to Dea Pratts and found it a lonesome
place to me.

The long contemplated visit now closed up and he returned
home August the third as you will see by an extract on the
second page of this letter. His grandmother and cousin
Angeline Partridge came with him and resided with us one
year. Angeline was about nine years old. . . . And now I
have finished the history of the "Visit at the West." . . .
This whole story reminds me of a mustard-seed pent up in a
glass bottle, but by reason of much warmth the bottle has
exploded, the seed has burst its calyx and now assumes a tree
which for a few days past has stood out on the foregromid of
my heart. ... I have had a number of sittings for this letter,
but am determined to not have another.

'Love never dies,' therefore believe me as ever,

A. W. Paine.

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Letter Uth
To my grand Boy. Window, May 30 1850

Presuming that hy this time you have wearied through
my hist letter, I shall endeavour to commence this where that
left off and say that at your father's return from the West he
found that your grandfather had made an agreement with a
Mail-contractor (Mr. Peter Oilman) to carry the Mail from
Winslow to Fairfax (now Albion) thirteen miles twice a week.
This agreement was made in view of its heing carried by your
father at his return. Accordingly about the first week he went
in company with your grandfather that he might learn where
the Post Offices were and the way and the how to manage
affairs connected with the rout. At that time we owned two
good horses & a waggon which was very much given up to the
care of your father. As a compensation of his own labour he
was to have the amount of all the errands & passengers on the
rout and whatever business he could do not to interfere with the
United States law i.e. punctuality in his arrivals at each end of
the way; keeping this in view he always had his waggon and
horse in good trim & 'fre.sh.'

To favour the principle his mother never failed to have his
good warm breakfast with hot coffee in .season for him to start
off at or before the appointed moment which was four o'clock
morning, this in Winter was no small sacrifice for a boy thir-
teen years old, to fix out in a December snow storm taking his
Shovel to dig through the drifts then there was the cold and
chilling winds of March & April and not unfrequently hoisted
up in a waggon; and then to economize he used to carry his
dinner, for his return was not till afternoon.

One other thing to be considered, those days were not times
of Buffalo robes for men to wear, one to put over or round him
was all that he had or expected. Then there was the heat of
Summer with its scorching Sun, together with thunder and
lightning which seldom if ever retarded his progress.

184 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

Your father followed the business of carrying the Mail
nearly four years constantly, i.e. from Aug 18*23 to May 1827
and in tho.se years of patient endurance I dont remember to
have ever heard him comj^lain of his lot, but was the same then
when in his teens, as in after life when a Man & father, patience
and endurance were ever prominent characteristics through
his life.

"Every several gate was of one pearl."

I have said that the avails of Mail rout relative to errands
passengers & business were to be your father's fee for his own
advantage, therefore your inquiring mind will wish to know
something about the success he met with in this branch of
labour. This will lead me right into the thirteen half dollars
which shall be the subject of my next communication, till
then as ever yours, A. W. Paine.

Letter 15th

Winslow June 2nd, 1850
In comi)liance with my encouragement I avail myself a few
moments this jjleasant second day of June to tell you about the

Mail Rout
that your father performed, and the success he met with.
So soon as he commenced (and as nearly as I can recollect)
about the first trip he had some little errand to do for a neighbor,
this reminded his mother that a book would be necessary to
minute down such little affairs as would come under his care
so that his mind might not be burthened and thereby prevent
his observations on the way, or if he pleased to admire the
works of nature and be led (it might be) up to nature's God.
Aside from this advantage it would be carrying out the prin-
cipal of punctuality in the performance of small affairs with
neighbors as well as United States in general, for you must
know that he was put under oath to the United States law
by the holding up of the hand & bow of assent to be faithful
n the performance of the duty herein devolving. — This book

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was a sheet of ])aper doubled so as to number sixteen pages and
entitled "A memorandum book for errands." These errands
were of various kinds & shapes and the amount of pay of neces-
sity must be submitted to your father's good judgment, not-
withstanding this he seldom omitted bringing the subject before
us at his return and we were ever pleased with his conscientious
scruples. His prices were from fourpence-halfpenny to twenty
or perhaps twenty five cents. Occasionally he would have a
passenger and this carries my mind back to the first lady
passenger.

Application was made the evening liefore, which might if
necessary have given him an opportunity to study his lesson
for the next day, but be that as it may, I presume that he
had never before waited upon a lady with better grace and his
reward was about two shillings.

All these little bits of money were carefully put into that
same Purse, and after a few months he chanced to think that
he would get his money into half dollars, accordingly whenever
he got fifty cents, he would give it to your grandfather and
receive a silver half dollar. Thus commenced, or rather thus
progresst the subject that has called forth so many remarks
in your father's history, that of "The thirteen half dollars."

In the Autumn of the next year (\Sii) Deacon George Rigby
who owned a tannery about half a mile from Albion Post Office,
furnished your father with money to buy hides and bring them
to him, for which he allowed him a small compensation per
hundred. This he could well do and not infringe upon his
obligations for that was the end of the rout for him and ample
time was granted to refresh the horse and rest before starting
for home. He continued this for sometliing more than one year,
during all this time he practised exchanging his little bits of
money for silver half dollars, but yet they did not increase very
fast in number for he still purchased many things for his own
gratification & comfort, such as Boots, Skates, Books etc. etc.

186 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

About the beginning of November, 182,5 the 'Plan' came into
his mind that he would buy hides for himself so far as his means
would allow, and all the rest he would continue to carry for
the before stipulated premium. Accordingly one day he came
down stairs with elastic step and presented himself before his
mother with that same money purse and held it up, before my
face and said "doesn't that look good?' It was full of half
dollars lying one flat upon the other and the Purse was just
about full (you know it is a small one) and being a knit one
it sat tight round the money. I answered him out of the truth
of my heart. — "Well" said lie "I am going to buy hides for my
self and a neighbor has killed an ox and I am going to night
to get the hide and pay for it out of these half dollars and when
I have carried it to the Deacon I shall have nearly half a dollar
more and then I can buy two hides and so on and I think that
will be a good plan."

With his mother's consent and blessing he darted off to per-
form his new scheme which worked very well. This was ever
considered as the commencement of business for himself, for
it was of his own planning and his own executing.

In my next letter I shall tell you how I went to your Mother
the other day, when you were down the river and to your father's
Chest where his papers were and among them found many
old account books, some of which were of my own make, but
I shall not wait till another letter to tell you how I was obliged
to look through my tears when my mind was carried back to
the making of those books and the putting of them into the
hand of your dear father with this petition to my heavenly
Father. Let no unjust charge ever be entered upon these pure
leaves, to stain the character of my dear boy.

The glorious Sun has set in
the West, and it is now much darker
without than within the heart
of your affectionate.

Grandmother.

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There are five more letters. In these the grandmother
reviews the various steps in the business hfe of the son.

"As I have now put you into the narrow lane of your father's
prosperity, I shall lay down my pen and tonight when the
great Architect of the Universe draws around us the curtains
of His care, and all nature is reposing in silence, I will endeavour
to recollect the time & the business that your industrious father
stepped into after laying aside the Mail & buying hides."

June U, 1850

His life with boats began at this period, from the running of
boats for others to the building of them for himself, first small
and then large. One invention succeeded another. There
was the water wheel "which he calculated would work well,
in the mode of raising & lowering tide & current water wheels
with the rise and fall of the water." Then came his marriage
and the changing of the homestead so as to admit a second
family. Grandmother embraces this opportunity to instil
the principles of a true marriage into the grandson.

"This, my dear child, is one of the greatest changes which
takes place in a young man's life, altho often entered into in
a thoughtless careless manner without sufficiently counting
the cost of such a step, and in doing which many, very many
couple are disappointed and their happiness impeded through
life. But on the other hand if the subject is well digested and
maturely planned and wisely chosen, it affords the recipient
the greatest enjoyment of any other institution in the world.
But my object is not to write on matrimony, but to tell you how
your modest father made his mind known to his mother on
this subject."

The last of this series of letters which she began Sept., 1849,
is dated August 19th, 1851. It ends abruptly and is without
signature. The Grandmother lived only five months longer.

CHAPTER THREE

BENJAMIN CROWNINSHIELD PAINE

Uncle Benjamin, tlie third son, appears in the books as
"my kind hearted my nohle hearted son" and the mother longs
for him to "enter the fold."

May 1838
Deutoronomy 33, 1^2: "And of Benjamin he said The be-
loved of the Lord shall cover him all the day long and he shall
dwell between his shoulders." God grant that this may be the
happy lot of my dear son

Benjamin C. Paine. '

In 1842 he married Elizabeth Hayden and together they
lived in the old homestead for forty-three years.

Their three children, the Annah, Frederic and Daniel of
these ])ages, died either in early childhood or young manhood.

In May 1885, there came to his brother Albert this touch-
ing note:

1885, Homestead, Thursday 11 a.m.

Homestead do I call it and no Elizabeth on this side to
nurse and care for me.

But she is in the better world no more to suffer.
Breathed her last at 7 this morn, funeral at 2 p.m. Saturday.
But my head is heavy to write.

Truly B. C. Paine.

In the summer of 1886 his brother Timothy in Elmwood
awoke about five o'clock and saw his brother Benjamin lying
on his bed in Winslow, in the well known chamber. At the
foot of the bed was "Elizabeth" beckoning to him with the
words "Come Benjy."

Uncle T aroused his wife that .she might bear witness to the

' Stray Leaves.

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BENJAMIN CROWNINSIIIELD PAINE 189

account of the wondrous vision and began to pack his bag.
Later in the forenoon came the word of the death of Benjamin.
I think that nothing had been known of any illness.

He was 71 years of age which was the age of both his father
and his brother Timothy at the time of their deaths.

"Home was to him the most beautiful spot on earth and he
tried to make it a delightful spot not only to the members of
his own family but to all others. He saw the work all around
him to be done for others and was glad and willing to do it.
He could and did get outside himself and could think and
plan for others. He loved his church and was generally there.
He could not be shut up within the walls of one home or one
church or one place of business but was interested in the pros-
perity of them all." {From "Waterville Mail," July 1886)

Dear Uncle Benjamin! How I wish it were in my power to
to give even a faint idea of his keen, shrewd and homely wit,
unsurpassed by that of any other whom I ever met. We were
very, very fond of him and of dear Aunt Elizabeth.

In those early days of railroading, the only dividend given
to the stockholders of the Maine Central was a free ride to them
and to their families, on the occasion of the annual meeting
in Waterville.

Some of us always took advantage of this opportunity to
visit the old place, where the .same hearty welcome was given
us as we were wont to give to them in Bangor. I had one
long happy summer there rambling about the fields and lead-
ing their lives with them. It was the custom of Uncle Ben-
jamin to send us about Thanksgiving time a big box full of
the nuts from the oft-mentioned "oil-nut" tree.

The little hou.se stands on the top of the hill, a landmark to
us as we travel back and forth between Bangor and Boston.
The station is at its foot, but the greeting he ever gave us as
the train stopped at it, is gone —

My Father, the second son, and Uncle Timothy, the fourth
son, we shall follow into the homes of their choice.

CHAPTER FOUR

THE DAUGHTERS OF FREDERIC AND ARIEL
WARE PAINE

Caroline the oldest, married late in life, Dr. Preserved B.
Mills of Bangor. Of her, her mother writes, "I should think
that Caroline would be tired of study, study, study!" There
are records of various schools in which she taught, but appar-
ently not for any great length of time. For a pastime she
wrote short articles and poems for the papers of the day,
often giving very i)leasing little touches to the incidents about
her. She died in 1898.

Of Harriet, the second daughter, there is little left to be
written. Her name was a household name with us, and
throughout his long life my father never ceased to speak of her
in terms of the very greatest affection. His own early letters
are almost as full of the subject of her death as are Grand-
mother's Journals. Her parting gift to him was her Bible,
which he preserved with the greatest care.

Charlotte whose marriage to Mr. George Sumner Leavitt
is mentioned a few pages back, died in 1882. She went back
to the old home i)lace, Foxboro, where she lived for many years.

Sarah, the youngest of the family, married Mr. George Cope-
land of Bridgewater and moved later to Jefferson, Wisconsin.
She died in 1908.

Of her he writes:

"Your Aunt Sarah was always interested in all the children
with whom she came in contact and she was Lady Bountiful
to many, some of whom had no possible claim upon her except-
ing their own worthlessness. She used to tell me of the family
of dolls which she used to play with before she began mothering
the neighboring children, until she was about twenty years of
age. These she kept up stairs in the detached building at the

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DAUGHTERS OF FREDERIC AND ARIEL PAINE 191

Winslow home used for storage. Tliese were not all of the same
family — not even of the same social scale. There were prince
and pauper, as well as bourgeois and they were dressed in
various degrees of elegance and squalor."

That she was sent to hoarding school, we know by Grand-
mother's enumeration of the articles that went with her.

Four of the cliildren, two sons and two daughters, became
devoted to the New-Church and the mother lived to feel that
"it was well with them."

As I came very little in personal touch with the aunts, my
cousin Edith Paine Benedict has written for me a few intimate
"Glimpses" into the lives of "The Daughters."

The Daughters

I find that my chief apology for this little volume lies in the
fact that we can hardly have too many truthful and detailed
records of the old-fashioned "father and mother home," upon
which our country is founded.

No one can study the faces of Frederic and Abiel Paine and
find it possible to separate them in his mind. The life that
they lived was one life. Together they reared eight children to
reverence their Maker and to .seek above all things to do His will.

Each respected the other. The wife was honored by her hus-
band and recognized as queen of the home, and the husband
was honored by his faithful wife.

It was no accident of fate that made each one of the four sons
a model husband and father. Three of them selected wives
who were never robust in bodily health and had always to be
tenderly cherished, but each was a companion and helpmate.

I am certain that no one of these eight children could for a
moment consider a marriage that was not founded upon mutual
love and respect.

Only one of the daughters was to know the blessing of mother-
hood. Little Harriet died at fifteen. Caroline married late

192 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

in life and Saraii was also childless. Only Charlotte had the
fully rounded life with which her mother had been blessed and
yet each one of these girls gave proof of the blessed heritage
that had Ijeen hers.

I remember Aimt Sarah as a merry playmate and the maker
of nearly all of my toys. Her hands had made my big rag doll
Lizzie with her whole wardrobe, and Aunt never came to see
me without bringing new paper dolls. These she actually
played with as if she had been herself a child. All her life
she made friends with as many children as she could gather in.
Our village Christmas tree bore a paper doll for every little girl in
Joppa. She saved bits of silk, lace and shiny paper for her little
friends and taught them how to make wonderful things.

She hated to sew although she could do it beautifully but she
loved to make "drawn-in rugs." I remember a wonderful one
with a central design of a bush on which grew all sorts of flowers
of imbelievable .shapes and colors. "They are not meant to
be natural, they don't have to be natural," she defended herself,
"that's one great advantage of a drawn-in rug." She made a
little table bib for her pet cat and also a cape and bonnet.
She was always bubbling over with happiness and fun.

She was not jiretty — perhaps no one ever called her so —
but she was the daintiest of little ladies. Her shoes were
no. 1 and I dare not say what gloves she wore. There was
never a speck of dust or dirt in any corner of her hou.se.

Even the youngest of her child friends must obey her rules —
such as stepping from rug to rug to preserve the polished
brightness of her ])umpkin-yellow kitchen floor and picking
up the tiniest thread or scrap or crumb that one had drojjped.
But she made a bright little game of it all. No one loved her
less for her little ways.

She was always fond of writing and in her girlhood her
brother Timothy had greatlj' enjoyed her little verses and
encouraged her to write them, but she soon gave it up and

DAUGHTERS OF FREDERIC AND ARIEL PAINE 193

contented herself with sliort articles printed in daily or weekly
papers, usually in regard to the care and training of children.
Sarah and her hushantl were ideal comrades. Their table
was always covered with the best magazines and papers as
well as with good books. A whole book could be written of
their quiet influence for good throughout their long and happy
life together. Every one whom they knew came under the
sphere of their influence.

Aunt Charlotte was in many ways very like her sister Sarah.
The two were always very intimate. Charlotte was nearly
as tiny and quite as dainty as Sarah but was also very pretty
with the brightest of dark brown eyes.

She would have enjoyed a family of daughters but had only
her four sons. How she managed it no one could ever under-
stand, but each one of tlio.se four l)oys helped his mother with
the housework as a matter of course. They seemed as much
interested as herself in neatness and order and yet each was
a hearty, natural, manly boy.

Remembering my father's stories of the way in which he
worked with his mother in dairy and kitchen, I am sure that
Charlotte was carrying on her mother's traditions. The labor
next at hand was work to be done and all necessary work was
equally honorable.

The time gained by her household methods was given by
Charlotte Leavitt to the community in which she hved. Every
worn out garment was carefully ripped and pressed and made
over into garments or quilts for poor people and for overworked
mothers. The whole village was deeply bereaved when she
died.

My father being so very much yoimger than his brothers
was a great favorite with his sisters. He was close to Charlotte
and Sarah in age and had been a very intimate companion.
His sister Caroline, eight years older, had a strong big-sister

104 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

love for him and all three felt deeply hurt when after securing
his beloved Agues he seemed inclined to forget that he had any
sisters at all. Mother sympathized with the sisters but her
eyes would not allow her to write letters and therefore it became
my task, as soon as I learned to write, to keep up correspondence
with my aunts. With Aunt Caro and Aunt Sarah I therefore
grew to feel very intimate. Aunt Sarah had lived only a mile
or two from my home until she moved to Wisconsin when I
was thirteen years old. Aunt Caro I could dimly remember
from a visit made in Winslow when I was four years old, but we
were drawn together by our love for writing. She had the
sense of belonging to the public and of owing the world a
share of all her thoughts and feelings which came to her mind,
a sense which .seems to have impelled so many of us to "take
pen in hand." But (like most of us) she, having taken pen
in hand, had really not ciuile enough to say. At any rate the
world did not seem eager to listen.

Perhaps it is only one manifestation of the creative impulse
which every human being must have in order to really live.

If Aunt Caro had met her true knight in her girlhood she
might have become a very happy useful wife and mother, but
she had not the sunny disposition or the saving sense of humor
with which her younger sisters had been blessed. She fed too
much upon her own fancies and had not the faculty of forgetting
self in work for others, and so I always think of her with a cer-
tain tender pity and am glad to find from these blessed journals
that Caroline's mother appreciated her worth and had taken
comfort in her eldest daughter.

E. P. B.

In closing this part of my work, I am not saying good-by
to the Grandmother whom I discovered and with whom I have
lived this twelvemonth, for her influence and her presence will
follow the two sons to the new homes and we shall meet her
at many crossings and by-paths.

PART V. BANGOR. ALBERT WARE PAINE

"My Second Son."
Chapter One From Boyhood through College.
The Journal — Aspiration.
Two The Country under Jackson, 1835-6.
Three Bangor in 1835-6.

Four The Young man and Lawyer in 1835-6.
Five Extracts from Auto-Biography — Realization.
Six Letters.
Seven Mary Hale Paine — Selma Ware Paine.

The Country under Jackson in 1835-6
Slavery Bank Charter

French War Deposit Bill

Texas — Mexico — Indians Pres. Election.

J. Q. Adams

Bangor in 1835-6

The City

Amusements

Clubs, Associations, etc.

Churches

The Young ]\Lan in 1835-6

The Lawyer in 1835-C

The Auto-Biography

Law Reform

Religious Experience

The Author

A general Review of work accomplished.

Illustrations

Albert Ware Paine, at 80, gen VIII

Inscription on monument at Lexington, from copy by A. W. P.

at age of twelve, facsimile.
The Home, 88 Court St —

His Garden Mine of Health

Mary Hale Paine, at 75
Selma Ware Paine, gen IX

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-IXTRODUCTORV"

For material for "Glimpses" into the home and life of my
father there are the "Journal," the "Auto-Biography hurriedly
written," the various publications of his and the many public
notices of his work for the commimity.

The Journal was begun when he was yet but twenty-two
years old, Aug. 1835 and continued to Aug 31 1836. With the
exception of two interruptions, the one caused by a visit to
his beloved home, and the other by a visitation of "scarlet
fever and the canker rash" of two weeks duration, there are
daily entries, some of which consist of but a single word "ditto"
while others cover two and three pages of his 250-page book.
In this we see his surroundings, the conditions of the country,
the city, and his home; we see his guiding princii)les, his in-
terests and his as])irations.

In the Auto-Biography, we see these principles consistently
carried out in his long life; these interests increased in number
and strength and the asj)irations realized to a greater extent
than even he could have anticipated. At the earnest request
of his daughters, in 1886, he began the Auto-Biography, just
fifty years after the close of the Journal, and he continued
from time to time to add a bit here and to bring up to date
there, the stage of the develoj)ments of his efforts to reform
the statutes of court, state and country.

His interests in these reforms remained with him to the end
and he frequently sent letters to Washington, where he had
many friends in Congress and in the Senate, and to Augusta.

His last book was published just after he left us, at the age
of 95 years. It was the "History of Mt. Hope," written at the
request of the Mt. Hope Corporation. Among other records in
the Journal will be seen that of the dedication of this Cemetery
and of the sale of the lots.

As I can find no words that will so well serve as an introduction
to his life, as a poem written by my sister Selma, I insert it here,
and will leave the telling of his life story to his own words.

Dear Father's Eightieth Birthday
Four score, four score ! The darling years

I love them every one.
From that which kissed his baby face
To that which crowns it with the grace

Of eighty summers' sun ;
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And strengthens it witli eighty times

A winter's bracing cold.
How faint the traces of the care,
The labor and the sorrow there

The Psalmist has foretold.

"What is the mystery," they ask,

" Why does he not grow old.''"
And speak of temperance, a heart
Of happy cheer and so a part, —

A little part is told.

They say with nature hand in hand

He gained her ])ristine wealth.
In that he balanced legal toil
With loving labor on the soil.

His garden mine of health.

But still the master mystery

The words do not define
For that which drives the shadows hence
Is his abiding confidence

In Providence Divine.

If sorrow rises in his cup.

He knows it should be quaffed.
He drinks it, names it not, forgets
And, ho])ing unaliated, sets

His lips to sweeter draught.

Sustaining still his happy home,

And turning eager glance
On thoughts and deeds of humankind
He helps with word and pen and mind

And joys in man's advance.

So lightening life for all around

By humor's happy play,
And working daily as in youth
And following his idea of truth

He goes his blessed way. — S. W. P.

August 16, 1892.

CHAPTER ONE
FROM BOYHOOD THROUGH COLLEGE

From Auto- Biography

Mt early life through boyhood had of course nothing to
distingush it from that of the great mass of boys of the same
age and time. My early education was that of the common
summer and winter country school, kept in that little school
house still standing (1886) opposite the Village meeting House
on the bank of the Kennebec. There I learned to cipher,
read, and write and gain some smattering of grammar, the
ordinary country .school course.

I became quite a proficient in the arithmetic line and was
always happy to work out its puzzling sums. Indeed all
through my early educational course mathematics was my
favourite study. I was what they called in those times in
school a good scholar and generally gained the good will of
my instructors.

In other respects than my school exercises I spent my boy-
hood as most boys did working in my father's mechanic shop
with the idea of sometime becoming a mechanic myself and at
other times, but rather unwillingly, on the farm which my
father owned and cultivated. Planting and hoeing, haying
and harvesting were pursued in their season but never with any
great love or zeal. It was rather a necessity than a love for
such employment that prompted me to duty. Hence I very
naturally earned the reputation of being a lazy boy and gladly
would I impose any duty off upon one of the other boys of the

family.

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A sister of his told me that when he was asked to do some
httle thing about the house or farm, his invariable response
was "Cant Benjy do it?"

My parents were a very loving pair and exceedingly indul-
gent to their children and both of them were of a character which
would lead them to do a chore or work themselves rather than
impose it upon one of their unwilling children. Never had
children kinder or more affectionate and lenient parents, hence
their memory has ever l)een held dear by us all and always
will be. Such a fact as bodily punishment or chastisement
hardly ever was practised upon their errant boys or girls.
We had a happy home and one we all have ever enjoyed to
visit. ... ■' '

In my boyhood days there existed no children's books so
that the advantages whick the present generation of children
enjoy were not known to us. A few religious tracts or leaflets
were all there was of child literature and as these were fully
im{)regnated with good orthodoxy such as we heard preached
from the pulpit, they did not afford a very great luxury in the
way of reading. Hence we had not the means now afforded
for general information adapted to the j^outhful mind. Fortu-
nately my father was postmaster of the town during the whole
period of my boyhood and youth from a time anterior to or
soon after my birth until some years after I entered my jiro-
fession. We were thus afforded a good opportunity for reading
such publications as came to our office. This gave us a love
for that pursuit and as one result all my parent's children have
ever had a passion for reading if not for study.

While a boy a child's paper was invented and began to be
published, it was of the religious order, of course, but con-
tained interesting matter for the young. Mother became a
subscriber and so we had the benefits of the issue. This was
the Youth's Companion, a paper which has been published
ever since some three score years without growing old or show-

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ing any signs of age. It was published at the office of the
Boston Recorder, a paper which my parents took all their
lives after their marriage.

This and the Missionarj' Herald were my dear Mother's
meat and drink as it were, for she was deeply interested in
all the subjects which they patronized.

How well can I recollect the historj- and the scenes and the
persons which these publications embraced. The Owhyhee
Mission, as it was first established, how it did interest her all
the way up to the island becoming a nation to be represented
as such under the denomination of "The Sandwich Islands."
Then there was a boy in college the son of the editor who used
to ■nTJte poetrj- for the poet's comer of his father's newspajjer.
The boy afterwards became a man famed as Nathaniel P.
WiUis. And then there was Harriet Newell the distinguished
missionary and Christian to whose memorj' she dedicated one
of her own daughters. [The Harriet of the "Journals."]

During all these years nothing that I now think of occurred
to make my life different from other boys, but we hved along
during the first decade with httle to note save that we were
happy boys and girls li\-ing in a happy home.

During the T\"inter of 18'-25-6 when I was past my 13th year,
our village school was taught by Abraham Sanborn then a
sophomore in Water\nlle College. I of course attended his
school and was a good scholar, I suppose, esp)ecially in arith-
metic, in his estimation. He was during the winter a frequent
caller at our house and very naturally talked with mother
about her boys. Albert, he thought, ought to go to c-ollege
and so completely did he pos.sess her mind with that idea that
the ensuing spring was not allowed to pass before this boy
was sent off unwiUingly to study the Latin Grammar.

After two years study I entered college at Commencement of
1828 and continued until \SZi.

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College, never having in heart been able to reeognize "Colby
University" as her real name. My feeling probably being the
same with that of a good sensible boy whose mother chooses
to change her name by a second marriage.

My four years were very industriously employed, it being
my determination never to be absent from recitation. And
this resolution was so well kept that during my entire term
there was but one exception. I was present at every reci-
tation of my class except the one which occurred during the
funeral services of my cousin E. Warren Paine, which of course
I had to attend. As connected with this college history I
well remember the progress of improvements about the college
grounds. There were then only two college buildings, the
North and the South, the former only finished in part. The
grounds wild and uncultivated, few trees and nothing orna-
mental. The triangle in front of the South College and the
path to the road was the work mainly of our little class in our
Sophomore year. The semicircular plat at the North College
and the i)ath thence was wholly the work of our class in our
Junior year, all the sods, just as they now exist (1886), having
been laid by the same iiands, the fingers of whic'h (quoad unuiii)
now hold the pen which indites these lines. The large willows
which ornament the path from South College to the River
were planted as little whip sticks in my Senior year, 1832, but
not in any part by me. I hail nothing to do with it.

During my college life it fell to my good luck to be selected
to ring the College bell, by means of which emj)loyment I was
able to satisfy my college term bills. And after my freshman
year I found schools to teach, the receipts of which paid for my
clothing, and by boarding at home I5 miles away I was thus able
to fill my mother's resolve that I should have a college edu-
cation.

Out of college and ready for something the great problem
was next presented, What next.'

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THE JOURNAL INTRODUCTORY

"The Next."

Bangor, Maine. Avg l'2th 1S35. I have long been convinced
of the utility of keeping a journal or common place book and
aware of its importance but never till this evening have I
persuaded myself to overcome the reluctance which I have ever
felt to undertake the work and to buy a book in part fulfilment
of the task. Having overcome at length that reluctance and
now commenced, I now form the resolution to persevere if
life shall last until I shall at least fill the blank pages of
this book. The advantages resulting from this course and the
practise of writing daily in some form are mainly two. First
it gives a more ready manner of committing our thoughts to
paper, improves our style and gives a conunand of language.
Secondly, it serves as a memorandum book of the future, the
present and the past which may often be useful as a book of
reference and afford pleasure in the review as being a short
history of whatever has happened which has in any consider-
able degree affected us.

Man's life is filled up with a great variety of events and
continually changing scenes, many of these afford instruction
and others are productive of profit as well as instruction and
pleasure. It is too, of much importance to one in business
especially since the various incidents and acts of life are so
closely connected with each other, to keep along with a history
of these various incidents to which he may refer — and this
is the object of such an undertaking as I have now commenced.

I have now as it were just commenced life. Tho in years
almost advanced to middle age (ii years) my pupilage has just
expired and I have just entered upon the more active business
of the world. For nine years have I been preparing myself
for this situation and for so manv vears been accustomed to a

THE JOURNAL INTRODUCTORY 203

continual series of expense and expenditures. And now I
liope I shall reap, in some small degree at least, some benefit
from the long course of study and labor.

I have now been engaged in the practise of the law about
two months. My business thus far has been less than from
existing circumstances I had reason to expect. The dullness
of times for lawyers in general and the absence of my partner,
myself a stranger in the land, must be principally I suspect the
cause of my disappointment. ... As I wish to keep a short
memorandum of the more important events of my past history,
no better place do I know of than here, in the first part of
this my first journal.

I commenced my preparatory studies for college. May 22'd
1825, under the instruction of T. P. Ropes at Waterville College.
At the age of 16 on the 26th day of August 1828, I entered
college of which I continued a member until the 14th April
1832 when I left and commenced the study of the law with
T. Rice Esq. of Winslow, May 4, 1832. With him I studied
until March 4 '34 when I commenced with Sam'l Wells of
Hallowell with whom I finished my studies and was admitted
in this city to practise with the high and dignified title of Atty.
May 1835. On the tenth day of June 1835, I entered into
partnership with my present partner Theo P. Chandler. And
here I am now all alone while he is on a journey to Kentucky.
Our business is rather limited and thus far not very lucrative.
... I hope, however, for an increase and have Httle doubt
we shall have it before long, if not before at least when he re-
turns.

CHAPTER TWO
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Slavery

Aug. 17, 1835. The most exciting to{)ic of tlie present day
in our republic seems to be that of slavery, a subject which now
is awakening the attention of every one at the South as well
as at the North. The public mind is fearfully aroused and an
alarming degree of excitement prevails. The direct cause of
it is the late active and misguided exertions of the abolitioni.sts
of the North. This class of our citizens tho influenced un-
doubtedly by the strictest notions of right and morality seem
entirely regardless of the consequences of their rash and im-
prudent acts and determined to go forward in the wild .scheme
of immediate emancipation disregarding entirely the nature
of their undertaking, the character of man and adaptation of
means which will directly not only injure their cause and
counteract their efforts for the promotion of the desired end,
but such means as will alienate the southern from the northern
part of the union and lead if not to mutual war, at least to a
separation of interest and feeling and thus sever one of the
strongest ties whicli have thus far kept us together.

Large quantities of incendiary publications have lately been
sent into the southern states by them and the slave holders have
determined that such things shall not be longer permitted,
at least with impunity. The post office has been violated and
these publications removed and burned. The P. ^I. G. has
been addressed by the Charleston P. M. and he has returned
a singular equivocal document which amounts to a license to

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THE COUNTRY UNDER JACKSON 18:55-6 205

do what he pleases either to destroy or distribute these in-
cendiary papers which are thus accunuilating in the office.
The consequence will be that the Department is no longer in-
dependent, but the power is usurped by its head of stopping
whatever he thinks of dangerous tendency. Surely the power
given and assumed in this singular document is one of an
alarming kind and should be frowned upon by every citizen.
What will be the issue of the present exasperated state of the
public mind we cannot predict, but if the abolitionists do not
abate somewhat of their zeal and impudence we have reason
to fear that evil may come.

Aug. 29th 1835. This evening a large portion of the citizens
of this city met agreeably to a previous call by about 200 to
take into consideration and to express their opinion on the
subject of slavery and the causes which have i)roduced it.
The abolitionists of the North assisted by a Mr. Thompson
from Scotland have of late been making great exertions in-
creasing their efforts and means of enlightening the public
mind as they call it, but in reality of effecting their desired
end and sending their prints and publications into all parts of
the union. Many of them have been sent to the South and
not infrequently been found in the hands of the slaves. The
consequence has been to excite in them an insurrectionary
spirit and of course in the masters a spirit of resentment and
anger. Meetings have been called at the South to take the
matter into consideration. The result has been addresses
and resolutions made up with entreaties and threats, now ask-
ing us to desist from these violent measures, to regard our
constitutional rights and urging us as we regard their lives,
their happiness and the union to respect their claims and
privileges as their own exclusively, and now warning us by
threats to beware how we interfere with their domestic policy
and relations. . . .

These proceedings have given rise to an excitement such as

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has hardly existed since the formation of our govt. The
South declares emphatically that a crisis has arrived and
something must be done. The North must desist from inter-
ference with the slave question of which they, the South, have
by right sole cognisance. Meetings have been called in most
of the large towns of New England to denounce the action of
the abolitionists and to express to the people of the slave
holding states their determination to preserve the constitutional
rights of the various portions of our common country in
accordance with the expressed wish of their southern fellow
citizens. . . .

This .subject of slavery may ])e one of the exciting topics
which may help in our overthrow, one of the rocks on which our
bark may yet split. I am however of opinion that the present
state of things will turn out for good and that its tendency is
the ultimate removal of this stain, this darkest stain from our
national escutcheon. Man, and especially an American is of
such a disposition as not to be conquered in such a context
by threats, they only make him more fierce and less conquer-
able while at the same time he is so avaricious as not to be
overcome by kindness or to be induced to give up his wealth
and means of gain by any acts of persuasion of argument
alone. . . . Thus the zeal of the abolitionists, the moderation
of their opponents and the respect of the slave holders them-
selves are I trust all working together for good and will ulti-
mately effect what is so much desired. Thus in the natural
world it is the heat of the sun, the showers and dews of heaven
and the other genial influences of nature that causes vegetation
to increase, ripen and produce its fruit. All these must be,
however, combined to preserve life, let any one be suspended
and death is the result. While the existence of one would wither
and burn, that of the other would cause the plant to moulder
and rot. And as nature has arranged all things aright, so do
I believe all things are so conducted by an over ruling Provi-

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dence that the present state of tilings in our country is so far
from being of a lamentable character as to be promotive of
the great and necessary end of general emancipation.

Sept. 4, 1S35. The "Friends of the Union" or in other
words the "Anti-Abolitionists" met again this evening by
adjournment from the SSth ult. A preamble and resolutions
denouncing their opponents and establishing their claims to the
name they have assumed were adopted after discussion. What
was the precise nature of them I am unable to say, not having
been present, having been detained by a meeting of the "Cui
Bono."

Sept. 8, 1835. This is Anniversary week. We, of course,
are blessed this week with a great number of literary, religious
and moral performances. We have had this p.m. a lecture
from Mr. Greeley (undoubtedly, Mr. Horace Greeley) agent
of the Colonization society, on the appropriate subject of
slavery. He was followed by Rev. Mr. Wilson a colored
gentleman from Liberia where he has been for some time past
resident. He was a free negro in the South and being de-
sirous of fixing a residence in some congenial place he set out
from the place of his birth in search thereof. The South he
surely could not longer inhabit, that was the place he wished to
escape from. He visited the North and soon found it was no
place for him. Equality which alone makes freedom what its
name imports, was far from existing there so far as to embrace
the black man. He visited the West and the prospect was no
better. He then went to that land of boasted privileges to
the negro, St. Domingo, but soon found that no place for him.
Then he proceeded to Liberia and there he found a home,
the appropriate home of those whose forefathers were dragged
from her shores into American slavery. Here he found every-
thing desirable just as he wished. Having remained there
about a year, he has now returned to take his family resolving
to spend the remainder of his life in that desirable country.

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His description of the colony was very flattering and such if
true as ought to make every man rejoice and every man a
colonizationist. In my opinion the Liberia colony holds out the
only means to effect the abolition of slavery among us peace-
ably. The abolitionist may effect the object by the destruction
of our country, its institutions and its privileges but the only
practible means of accomi)lishing the object amicably, peace-
ably and without civil war and bloodshed, is I believe thro the
intervention mediate or immediate of the colonization plan.
In the evening attended the anniversary of the llhet. Soc.
of the institution. Address by Rev. M. Bloomfield on "Intel-
lectual Qualifications of the Minister of the Gospel."

Sept. 10, 1S.15. Attended this evening a lecture on As-
tronomy by Mr. Wilbur in which he sjwke more particularly
of the Comets and especially the Hally Comet which is more
perceptible by the aid of glasses.

Returning from there I called in ujwn the Colonization
Meeting. This was called at the suggestion of Mr. Greeley
and was addressed by him, the Rev. Mr. Wilson and other
gentlemen of the i)lace. Resolutions ajjprobatory of the object
of the society were passed and also that an effort be made to
increase its funds in this city and to revive the old society.

French War '

Oct. 26, 1835.

One of the most exciting subjects of the present day is the
probability of a French war. The indemnity bill pas.sed the
French chambers cumbered with a proviso that an acknowledg-
ment or rather retraction of the obnoxious parts of the Presi-
dent's last message to Congress should be made, previous to
the money being paid over. Our President is too jealous of our
high character as a nation to humble it by any act of his and
hence keeps aloof from any mean action or dishonorable re-

1 See Pres. Messages, vol III, page iiJ.

THE COUNTRY UNDER JACKSON 1835-6 SOD

cantation. What is said is said, is his motto. Water spilled
on the ground can not be gathered up. His language in effect
is pay us without any of your reserv^ations what you acknowl-
edge our due, or prepare to pay us in the honorable style which
nations have established in such cases. While the Frenchman
by his words and louder speaking actions, says no recantation,
no cash, our republican and high notioned president responds
''as you like", " tis your play next — and we follow." What
will be the consequence remains to be seen. A sensation is
produced at the Tuilleeris and Washington, rumours are rife
with warry words and fighting French. Curiosity and trade
are now excited to learn the issue. The French in case of a
rupture have at present decided advantage over us as we are
far from being ready for a war. While their navy is far before
ours in number we have an immense number of merchantmen,
oilmen and traders in all quarters of the globe, on every sea
and in almost every river with nothing but the Star Spangled
Banner for a protection. Tho this is enough in all times of
peace yet the French privateers would find little resistance
from it, but would make an easy and general conquest. May
God avert so dire a calamity as a French war but the greater
calamity of a disgraced flag.

Nov. 16, 1835. The French question continues to excite a
very deej) interest in all parts of the union and too an interest
which daily increases. Affairs have arrived at such a crisis
that the apprehension of a war has become general and it indeed
seems now to be inevitable. The Globe the organ of the Ad-
ministration and which speaks its will, is by its communications
preparing the public mind for the worst event and distinctly
intimates that our Government has done all it will. The
French on their part seem equally determined and resolved
not to pay without the required explanation being given.
Such being the state of parties the President's message is
looked for with great eagerness as it will contain the views of

210 TEE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

the Executive upon which depends wholly the question of peace
or war. The present state of the French Govt, renders it very
probable that the Executive dept will make no effort to save the
country from a war, as that is the only event which can for a
time secure to Louis Philipe his power and throne. The at-
tention of his subjects must be diverted from his domestic
relations and actions in order to preserve his peace and unless
something of the kind is done his power will shortly be at an
end. He will not then make any effort to conciliate our gov-
ernment, but desirous of some event to attract and absorb the
attention of his subjects he will rather hasten on the crisis.
On the other side, our President will be equally averse to any
measure which may in the least compromise our honor or
reputation. The result mud then be inevitably war with
France.

Nor. 19, 1835. The time having almost arrived for the
meeting of Congress much speculation is indulged in, in respect
to the character of tlie President's Message which will be
delivered at its opening. . . .

These subjects of interest are many and important in addition
to such as usually exist. Among the number the most inter-
esting is the subject of our French relations. The Texican
and Mexican difficulties have considerable importance. The
subject of slavery as it exists here will probably receive some
attention. The surplus revenue may be touched upon, tho
if a French war is the result of the present difficulties, that
is a subject which will not very imperiously force itself upon the
attention of Congress or the Government. [See Deposit
Bill.]

Dec. 9th. 1SS5. Tid Bits — The President's message is now
probably making rai)id progress, thro the various parts of the
United States, with almo.st the rapidity of the wind. It is
expected here by day after tomorrow.

Jan. 25, 1836. . . . Special Message. . . . This long ex-

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pected, looked for message has at length made its appearance
and is of such a character as to disappoint every one. On the
one hand it is milder than some imagined in not recommending
war or what is the same, and on the other more violent than
for various reasons might have been exj)ectcd.

Feb. Jfth, 18:iG. Rumours of the proposed mediation of Eng-
land to settle our difficulties with tlie French are current at
the present time at the Capitol and thro the country. A ship
of war (English) has arrived at Newport lately which is the
bearer of despatches from the English Govt, containing the
proposed mediation. If these rumors turn out to be true and
the good offices of the English are accepted, we may expect no
further difficulty from this long vexed question.

Feb. 6th, 1836. Peace — News of the acceptance by our gov-
ernment of the proposed mediation of the English Govt, arrived
in this city this evening. Despatches have been forwarded to
the two govts, of France and G. Britain containing information
of the acceptance. . . .

Feb. IG. 1836. News has today arrived of the reception
of the President's Message at London. The impression made
by it there is favorable and produced a favorable effect on the
stocks.

Feb. IS, 1836. Further advices from France rec'd today
bring the cheering intelligence of the acceptance by that gov't
of the President's message as a full and complete explanation,
such as required and of the arrival of a messenger to our govern-
ment charged with the information that the French are ready
to pay over the amount of the first instalment due under the
treaty of 1831. As there is no doubt of the truth of this in-
formation the French question may now he considered as finally
and definitively settled. The reception of the Special Message
by the French may be rather unpleasant to them but as their
action on the subject already can not be ascribed to anything
contained in that message it will probably not affect their

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action, especially not after the reception of the 2'd special
message sent by the President to Congress. This success of our
citizens in th.us gaining their long sought rights can not other-
wise than render very popular the administration under which
it has been effected and make the name of Andrew Jackson
no less popular and famous than even that of Washington and
Jefferson. How nmch credit he deserves in thus having this
perplexing question settled during his reig7i is doubtful as much
of the difficulty from which he has apparently extricated the
country is of his own making and nought but the proper action of
other branches of gov't has kept him from plunging the country
into war and thus perhaps into the danger of losing our ease.

May IHIh. 1S30. French Indemnity. — At length this per-
plexing question which has been agitated for 20 years and
which in its turn has fearfully agitated the country for a few
years past causing if not wars at least rumors of wars, has
been brought to a happy and final i.ssue by the actual payment
of the stipulated sum. . . . This act will undoubtedly redound
infinitely to the credit and honor of him under whose adminis-
tration it has been affected and have no little influence in
handing his name down to posterity as one of the greatest
American patriots and statesmen and as entitled to a part in
the front rank of her sons of renown and worth. Probably
under the administration of such a man as his predecessor the
object would not have been effected. But then it has been
a combination of circumstances which has produced the result
rather than the existence of any single fact or the action of
any single man, or body of men. The true cause of the
success of the measure must be found not in the head-long
precipitancy and persevering energj' of the President of the
people. It has been a combination of many circumstances, the
energy of the Executive, the moderation of the legislature and
the promptness of the people which has undoubtedly effected
the desirable result.

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Texas and Mexico
Nov. 18, 1S35

One of the many interesting topics of daily news at the
present time among us is the contest which is now going on
between the inhabitants of Texas and its parent country,
Mexico. Texas has hitely declared itself independent of its
former government and the consequence has already been a
war which is now raging thro 'out that country. Two or three
battles have been fought which have resulted favorably to the
independents or insurgents. An appeal has been made by
them to their brethren of the United States and they have
received some succor from this quarter. The expediency or
right of the people of our States thus to interfere is however
doubtful. The latter is however less so as our laws expressly
prohibit any such interference against any nation with whom
we are at peace. We can but hope that the efforts of these
friends of liberty will be successful in their present attempt
against the force and oppression of their rulers. It is, however,
worthy of our consideration whether we ought to interfere
and thus give to the Mexican a just cause for war against us.

Not that indeed that we have aught to fear from a war with
that nation but we ought so to demean ourselves with every
other people weak or strong as to gain their affection and
regard as an honest and friendly nation.

April 27, 1836. Among the items of news at the present
day which possess any particular interest is the Texan war
which is at present time carried on with a great deal of vigor
and courage by both parties. To me it has always apjjeared
an unwise act for the Texans small as they are to take the
part which they have seen fit to take, for it is almost fighting
against hope when so great disparity exists between the com-
batants as there does in this case. On the one part, a small and
weak band with comparatively few means, while on the other
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bear against these asserters of liberty. What will be tlie
issue is to be sure doubtful the the chances seem much against
the Texans. A crisis is probably near at hand and then we
shall know.'

May 0, 1S,36. War seems to be the order of the day in
America. Tlie Texans and Mexicans are now contending arm
to arm in bloody contest, one for freedom, the other for do-
minion and a continuation of power. In our own country,
Florida is laid waste thro its whole length and breadth by a
savage warfare. Arkansas is, too, now witnessing the massacre
of the whites by the ruthless Indian. The Comanche, the
Greek and the various other tribes which are found upon our
frontiers are all rising and a .savage war seems to impend
from everv' (juarter. Surely the signs of the times are ominous.
Rumor, too, proclaims that Mexico is preparing to attack us
and that Santa Anna is already at the head of a band ap-
proaching with hostile intent towards our borders. How this
rumor will prove is doubtful tho too good reason exists to
doubt seriously the truth of the report.

Indiuit Warfare
May 33, 1836, Monday.

The present is surely a fearful time for our brethren of the
South and West. A general Indian War seems about breaking
which threatens to be one of extermination, at least .so far as
it extends. The failure of the past campaign on the part of
our army seems to ha\"e given the enemy new courage and
they now seem determined to carry the war into the verj-
houses and beds of their enemies. A general rising of all
the Southern and Western Indians has either taken place or
is apprehended. Very many of the tribes are now already
in the field carrying on their fearful work of death and exter-
mination. Something immediate nmst be done or the people

' Pres. Messages, vol. Ill, pages 237-265.

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of the South will suffer severely. Time alone ean decide
what will be done or what will he the result of the war.'

June 3rd 1836. The Texan news which arrived some days
since and which excited so much suspicion and doubt as to its
truth seems now to be abundantly confirmed, .so that no doubt
now remains that Santa Anna with his army and principal offi-
cers have been taken and Texas thus gained her independence.
Such bcins the case it rec[uires no little prudence and care on
the i)art of our j^'overnnicnt as to what is the proper course to
pursue in relation to the new State. On the one hand as the
inhabitants have declared and fought for those very privileges
which are the foundation of our government, ought we not to
immediately recognize them as an independent people entitled
to all the privileges of a free and separate State, and on the
other hand as we are on terms of friendship and comity with
the parent country of Mexico, ought we not to regard the
rights to dominion over the Texans as sacred and such as should
be exempt from our interference. . . . Situated as we are in
respect to both ])arties it recjuires much sagacity and prudence
to fix upon projjer measures to be adopted. As however we
pretend not to interfere in the domestic policy of any other
nation it may well be asked whether we are bound when a
free and sovereign people cast themselves upon our notice,
to ask how they became so or how they have been differently
situated in times past. Are we bound to look into the various
steps either of negotiation or of force which may have brought
about the result, or rather to presume, whatever we may in-
dividually know to the contrary, that the separation had been
amicably or justly effected and to adapt our measures con-
formably to such an innocent presumption.

Aug. 6th, 1836. Saturday Eve. Quite an important move-
ment has lately taken place by our govt, or our military force
which will undoubtedly result in a most im]jortant if not hazard-
' See vot III of Pres. Messages, pages 227-228ff.

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ous issue. I refer to the invasion by our army under the
command of Gen Gaines of the Mexican territory. This act
as yet bears no evidence of an authorized one tho undoubtedly
authority was given by superior powers. What will be the
result of this act of aggression is of course as yet uncertain
tho we have serious cause for fear and apprehension that a war
with our neighbor Mexico will be the consequence. May such
a result be ])revented and all evil effects be averted. Sure
I am that the act will meet the disapprobation of all northern
men, at least, and as I hope of all parts of the country. Rea-
sons may however appear hereafter to justify this action, but
I can not as yet imagine what they can be.

J. Q. Adams

Feb. 21, 1836. Considerable sparring has lately taken place
in Congress of a nature differing in a great measure from any
thing which has ever before taken place in Congress. The
debate was occasioned by a disrespectful allusion by the Presi-
dent in his message to the action of the Senate last Winter
on the appropriation bill which appropriated $3,000,000 for
purposes of a National defence and Mr. Webster in the Senate
taking a favorable opportunity ably defended that body from
what he considered the unjust imputation and threw the
whole blame of the loss of the bill upon the House, interspersing
remarks of man-worship which prevailed at the time and with
severe censures upon the conduct of those who so phantly
bend their wills to that of the Executive. No one in the
Senate seeing fit to defend the conduct of the House in dero-
gation of its own dignity and right action, Mr. Adams (J. Q.)
rose in his place in the House and after having introduced
a suitable resolution proceeded in a lengthy and able speech
to take up the gauntlet thrown down by the able Senator and
to defend that branch of which he was and is a member upon
what he considered unjust charges preferred against it by his

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former friend of tlie upper house. It was the ablest effort
ever made by him and called forth what no other effort ever
did in either hall of Congress, a burst of applause and hissing.
Cheers were given from all parts and for the first time in our
history, our commons adopted the mode of proceeding so com-
mon in that of our mother country and cries of approval and
disapprobation were heard all around.

SuflSce it to say Mr. A. effected, or at least, made show of an-
other great political evolution — denounced his former friends,
announced his adherence to tlie executive which he had so ar-
dently before labored to defeat and overthrow and completed his
somerset which he has been for a few months past endeavoring
to turn. The boisterous debate continued for a number of days
and is not yet closed. A debate which will be long remembered
as one of an important and most interesting character.

I'elo of Charier
March 4ih, 1836.

This day consummates the victory of our President over
the Monster Bank in the war of extermination which he has for
six years past been carrying on. It is, however, but such a
victory as death gains over the un.seemly caterpillar, a victory
which is but an introduction of the conquered into a more
beautiful, profitable and lasting existence. It is the natal
day of the bank tho the day to which the combatants in the
six years war have continually looked forward as doomed to
be its mortal one. Today she puts off the trammels and body
which she has worn for a period at the sufferance of the General
Govt and puts on the irresponsible and more lucrative as well
as more lasting one presented by an inferior jurisdiction.
The day would probably have been in some manner noticed on
account of the event which has thus signalized it, was not this
event in so close a contrast with one of such a contrary char-
acter and tendency. As it is the ■present has probably passed
in the same style as other days unless it is rendered rather melan-

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choly to the conqueror and joyful to the conquered and these
respective and reversed states of feehng produced corresponding
modes of action. As much as I have desired the recliarter
of the U. S. Bank or rather the charter of some other national
Banking institution and tho I am glad of the success which
has attended the application of the institution to state liber-
ality, still I much regret many features of the bill thus giving
it new life and woulil that they had been stricken out from their
charter. The most obnoxious feature I believe is the want
of a supervisatory power in the Legislature. As it is I see no
check to the Bank becoming an institution of the most corrupt
and oppressive character which a power of supervision would
have entirely prevented. Another objection is the long period
of its chartered existence, 30 years. In an institution of this
kind wielding so much influence by vast capital and extensive
loans over the currency and over the politics of the country,
in an institution so liable to perversions as are monied ones
of this kind and especially when a power of supervision and
correction does not exist, as in this is wanting, the incorporat-
ing power can not be too careful in so granting their favors as
to make the institution dejiendent in a measure upon its own
good acts for its existence and hence to provide for a frecjuent
recurrence of the power granted into the hands of the grantor.
Such a course not only has a tendency to restrain the cor-
poration from any illegal or unpopular acts into which it might
otherwise be led, liut also would serve as a safeguard against
all those other evils which come to attend all great monied
institutions. Such corporations ought always to be guarded
with a jealous eye and watched with greatest vigilance and
care. And most of all ought they not to be made independent
of the people especially for such term of time as will serve to
take away the idea of responsibility to the people or remove
those restraints which have a dire tendency to keep them
within proper bounds by a subserviancy to their own interest.

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They ouglit to be so regulated that their own interest shall be
the public's.

Deposit Bill

Bangor June 29, 1836

A very important event has just taken place at the Capitol
and one which I, for myself little expected. I refer to the pas-
sage thro l)C)th houses of Congress and the approval by the
President of the Deposit Bill so called which provides for the
distribution of the surplus revenue. This has been an exciting
subject and caused a great deal of discussion in all i)arts of the
country as well as at the Capitol. Contrary to the expectations
of almost everyone it pas.sed both Houses by very great majori-
ties and was sent to the President with the knowledge on the
part of every one that it was decidedly averse to his wishes.
Altho the sentiment has often been advanced that the Presi-
dent would not dare to veto the bill I have still continued to
believe that he who has never shrunk from responsibility and
always persisted in having his own will in everything, would
even dare to follow his inclinations in this respect and refuse
his signature to the bill. The majority however in each house
has proved too strong in this instance and I believe his approval
has been efl'ected solely from the fact thai he knew the bill
would be one of the laws in spite of him and he had better keep
on the right and safe side. It is fully evident, however, that
his approval was forced and he would gladly have avoided it.
At least so intimates the official Globe and so voted the Gen-
eral's particular friends. The expediency of this measure
may perhaps be well doubted, many being the arguments which
can be advanced on each side. — As the money was on hand,
however, this disposition perhaps was the best that could be
made and some disposition was necessary. The next great
question is what shall the States do with it. Ay here's the rub.
The Legislature will spend half in settling the question. '
1 See Pres. Messages, vol. Ill, page 239.

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July S 1836. Among' the memorable events which have of
late seemed to give character to the age is the death of the
venerable Ex-President, Madison. And what is somewhat
remarkable he too finished his course almost in sight of that
day which gave birth to his country (died June 28). It is a
fact very remarkable, apparently providential that three of his
predecessors paid their last debt to nature on that memorable
day and he too had advanced so near that it might well be said
it was already in siglit. One Ex-President now only remains,
tho another will probably soon be added to the number.

Presidential election

Aug. 22, 1836. These are jiarty times and parties are be-
ginning to buckle on their armor for the coming battle. Im-
portant elections are close at hand among which are those of all
our State and County officers and President and V. P. of the
U. S. As yet everything has gone on quietly and calmly and
indeed as yet everj^thing continues to wear the same pacific
aspects. What I like best at the present political era is the
application by the democrats of their loudly proclaimed prin-
ciple of rotation in office. Heretofore this principle has been
exercised only when political opponents were the objects.
Now however the principle seems to be acted upon at home and
the loud cries of tho.se who are suffering under its application
show full plainly that with them their loud professions meant
nothing more than that such rotation should be known or prac-
tised as in its revolution should pass them or hoist them higher.
A fig for such professions and glad am I to see the long praised
doctrine made to apply with force where it is most professed
and too I think where it is most needed. Glad am I to see the
sincerity of the dominant party tested by that best of all tests,
personal experience. (Martin Van Buren was V. P. and
became President after Jackson.)

CHAPTER THREE
BANGOR IN 1835-1836

Aug. H, 1835. Oh ! Oh ! The mud. This is emphatically the
city of mud and clay and in this respect probably no city or town
in the country can vie with it. A dew is almost enough to
render our streets slippery and a shower enough to make them
impassable for aught that is neat or has a regard to his personal
appearance so far at least as respects his pedal parts. The
streets of the city are now undergoing a complete reform.
A system of graduation has been commenced which from the
present prospects bids fair to be thorough. The true demo-
cratic leveling principle is adopted, the low places are exalted
and the high places brought down or in other words the hill
fills the hollows adjacent. And too this system is carried out
apparently without any regard to consequences or without
consulting in the least the intent or wishes of the hvers on the
way side. While the process leaves some houses elevated some
8 or 10 feet above the ordinary and former height and leaving
the cellar wall bare and exposed, other houses find their lower
rooms suddenly converted into cellars and their houses hoisted
in the Irish method, one story lower. Some houses are actually
left in this unpleasant situation and access can be had to the
doors before ascended to some 3 or 6 feet, now, only by a
flight of descending stairs of some 10 or 15 steps. Bangor house
is elevated some 6 or 7 feet while City Hall is buried almost
up to the windows. Much opposition is made to this measure
as one imprudently and unnecessarily undertaken — but time
will show their improvements wisely planned and executed.
At least so I predict. We hope that as soon as the graduating

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system shall he tompleted a side-walk policy will he adopted
which shall in a measure, at least supersede the necessity of
wading over shoes in mud as is now too truly the case. At
present no side walks can he said to exist here, the only ones
which can hear that name heing what a few persons have laid
down hefore their own doors, and which of course are con-
tinually interrupted by perhaps the intervening land of another
and less accommodating proprietor. Whilst the workmen
are engaged on the roads they are peculiarly muddy especially
after a shower. And this is what we have heen enjoying thro
the day. Oh! for a side walk.

From an old letter written to his Uncle Lemuel in IVin.sloiv

"Aug. 10th 1S35
"One house I observed was sjink almost a wliole story and
another is to be rai.sed about 14 or Ki feet from the level of the
way — $50,000 are appropriated this year to road purposes
which when exj)cnded will, I trust leave the city little less like
the ostrich ])roud of her jjlumcs but ashamed of her feet."

Aug. 19, ISJ'). One of the principal characteristics of the
people of the present day especially in our own state appears
to he a spirit of speculation, a spirit which appears to be general
and to ])ervade every class and almost every member of each
class. The members of the Clerical as well as of the legal and
medical professions, the trader, mechanic and farmer and
too the hostler and logman and perhaps the loafer all seem not
only infused with the same all pervading sentiment, hut all
seem if not equally, at least in some degree successful. . . >
The effect of this state of things has been peculiarly seen in
this city and has been such as to raise the citizens to a con-
dition in the good things of this life perhai)s above tho.se of any
other place in New England. . . . The consequence of this
great amount of wealth and the rapid increase of it has been
to make those who have thus on a sudden accunmlated for-

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tunes to be liberal tlierewith in works of public improvement,
utility and ornament. To this cause is probably owing very
much of the spirit of improvement, now going on displaying
itself in the erection of elegant and commodious public and
private edifices, in the amendment and opening of streets
and avenues and in fine in every thing which serves to adorn
and honor the city.

^cpi. 17. 1SS5. Today has been sold tiic lot of land in the
Corner of Hammond and Central Streets, now covered by a
Tavern stand with stables and the usual accompaniments
thereof. The removal of these large wooden buildings of too
such dangerous kind and the replacing them with brick stores
has long been a desideratum with all the business part of the
city. The owner has, however, held on in hopes to get more
for his property till it has increased in value from 8 or 10,000
dollars to 80,000 at which price it is bonded. The obligor has
sold at the aggregate at auction of $7^2,000.

Sept. 22d, 1835. A short view of the present state of the
city I have thought might be very interesting some years
hence, especially if it continues to increase as it has already, for
years to come. A very few years have advanced this place
from a small country village to be one of the most thriving
places in New England, from a place of so little note that people
of places almost adjacent could hardly fix its locality, to a city
of distinction scarcely less than the largest in our Union.
From a population of only \ii\ in 18'20 and of aSOS in 18:50,
a population which ranked it in size the 17tli town in the State,
it has now become 2d only to Portland and fast rising to be
rival even of that population as it is already in trade, bustle
and activity. Its present number of inhabitants is about
7500. There are now in the city five houses of public worship,
one just commencing and three contemplated to be built
this or next season. There are six houses of public entertain-
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but hardly deserve the name. Two daily and four weekly
papers with a Magazine are published. Six banks and an
institution for Savings and one Insurance ofHce are found
among our monied institutions. The Theological Seminary
has now a large brick tenement and a wooden one, other build-
ings for its accommodation are contemplated. There are now
2 Profs, and about 25 students.

Other public buildings here are the Court house, gaol and
city hall. This latter is the old Court house and is a small
concern and but for the newness of our city a disgrace to it.

There are at present two steam packets which run semi-
weekly to Boston and also a number of regular packets between
the same places. The streets of the city are now undergoing
a thorough repair, the leveling or cutting down system having
been now but a short time connnenced and under way. There
are two bridges across the Kenduskeag in the main village and
one about a half mile up and another is going over - Such
is a bird's eye view of the city of Bangor. A very few years
will I venture to predict very materially vary the scene. The
park has just been laid out and fenced but as yet no buildings
are built upon or around it. Mt. Pleasant has also been laid out
into building spots but are yet wholly unoccupied. Thomas's
Hill has been street-ified and lot-ified and there that rests.
All these parts of the city it is predicted will shortly be taken
up and buildings will soon be erected in various parts of each.
While I can hardly say I disbelieve the fact, I must say I believe
there is reason at least to doubt.

Nov. 23. 1835. . . . The winter of the city has truly come.
We are now shut out from the commercial world and have
intercourse with it only over 13 miles of snow road. Our
trucks are now our ships manned with truckmen for their
sailors, with reins for her rudder and keep, with horses for
winds, hills and hollows for tides, harnesses for rigging, and
wheels and shafts for the hull and a long road and snow for

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the ocean itself. So then good luck on a thanksgiving ride
and success to Bangor winter-shipping.

Sept. 23d, 1835. Today has been the day of military training
and of course we liad the motley crew of ragamuffins parading
the streets, this afternoon serving as an apology for a regular
militia, but a most meagre one it is. Of all the folly and tom-
foolery which meets our eyes from one end of the year to the
other, this foolish military display seems to me to be the
greatest. It seems to be an occasion when the law compels a
man to stultify and render himself ridiculous.

July IS, 1836. We have today had a touch in the M Court
of the military law or rather of an application of law to the
military system. . . . The militia law is however capable of
being quibbled upon about as much I believe as all other laws
together and no one certainly can afford so many points to
raise.

Muster

But oh! the Militia .sy.stem, one exclaims, is the bulwark
of our liberties and it is upon this we have to depend for the
existence and perpetuity of our republican government and free
institutions. If these are to be saved by such means surely
we are doomed to descend very low. Our country and we have
got to debase ourselves exceedingly. I want no better answer
to such an apologist than a glimpse with him who uses these
arguments, at this burlesque of that system which in our
country is at best but a mimickry and a foolish display. I
was duly notified to appear among the rest in the throng but
chose not to be found in such small business. I am willing
now and then to act foolish and probably do, but to behave
so extremely ridiculous as to be a militia man one must, and
to do it, too, openly, publicly and before the eyes of all men,
this is too much, as Crockett says "I cant go it." I am also
duly notified to appear on the 25th inst at Orono for a muster,
but shall undoubtedly be found among the missing men. The

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consequence of this course is to subject myself to a prosecution
— I shall, if it comes, exercise a bit of my trade and try them.
So go ahead. . . .

Seft. 25th. . . . Let there be a depot of arms provided
by the general government in every state and at every con-
venient and advisatory station. Let these be kept in good
repair and well provided with ammunition and the accoutre-
ments of war, ready at call for any emergency. Let us then
have such a military system as our war department has now
the charge of, a military school, such as we have to raise up
ofhcers, then when occasion calls and invasion happens or the
enemy threaten, let the people be called in to take up the arms
provided for them and we should see such men as our revolu-
tionary fathers were, rising up and becoming victorious, ten
to one I believe we should be more sure of success than we
should now. . . .

Nov. 121h, 1835. From what has been disclo.sed in evidence
in many land cases which from time to time originated here of
late, it appears that on the 5th day of March a.d. 1801 the legis-
lature of Mass. at the solicitation of the inhabitants of Bangor
passed a resolve granting lots of 100 acres each to all who were
actual settlers prior to the 1st July 1784 on payment of $8.45
and to all who were settlers between that time and Feby 17,
1798 similar lots on payment of $100. In conformity with
this resolve such lots were afterwards assigned and most or all
of the land on which the city now stands, was thus appropri-
ated, the lots being one mile in length generally and extending
back from the river and of course 50 rods in width on the river
and stream. Under these grants all or almost all the present
proprietors hold. As land became more and mere valuable these
large lots were cut up into smaller and these too continually
subdivided till they have arrived in the process of subdivision
to their present scanty dimensions. Very many plans embrac-
ing larger or smaller portions of the city have been made, and

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to these reference has almost uiivariably lieen made in con-
veyances of property liere. These ha\'e frequently been very
indefinite and uncertain and hence have given rise to dispute
and litigation. In other cases land has been bounded by perish-
able monuments as stumps and stakes or by moveable ones
as stones all of which have long since disajjpeared and hence
a new source of litigation to settle the location of the monu-
ments. From all causes titles here are now quite uncertain
and fluctuating and no man can look upon his as certain till
a law suit has settled it or the mantle of the peaceful statute
of limitations is thrown over it.

Juhj 2'2d, 1836. Today have taken place the exercises of
the consecration of the cemetery which the shower of yester-
day prevented from being proceeded with according to previous
arrangement. After the performances of the consecration,
lots were sold at public .sale at the minimum price of $30 per
lot, choice of lots being bid for. The lots sold at high price
and beyond expectation. If the same enthusiasm continues
which at present pervades the citizens in respect to this enter-
prise there is little doubt that Mt. Hope will be all that the
plans will admit of its being, a beautiful place. [Later father
was treasurer for 50 years. 3

Aug. 11, 183G. Today has been opened the Globe Bank and
commenced operation. This is the ninth bank now in operation
in this city each with a capital of .$100,000, making almost
$1,000,000 of banking capital in the place. Notwithstanding
this amount the supply is not half equal to the demand for
bank accommodations and business men are obliged to go to
various parts of the state to procure loans. . . . Bank charters
here are in fact but little more than private monopoly, bestow-
ing favors only upon those who have the direction of them.
Railroad to Oldtown

Sept. 19th, 1835. A new improvement for this place has
been just commenced here and one too which bids fair to be of

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great public utility and importance to the city and community.
I refer to the rail road to Oldtown. As yet there are no roads
of the kind I believe in the state. This is the first that has
commenced. Considering the much that is doing in almost
every other state in the Union to expedite travel and accom-
modate the traveling community by means of railroads and
canals it is surprising that the State of Maine during all the
time to the present has not exerted herself in the same way
and gone on with her sisters in like works of public improve-
ment. ... I venture to predict that this railroad which the
present week has been commenced will be followed by many
others till within ten years we may travel thro the state from
this city to Boston by land steam carriages. I should not be
surprised if in 1845, Maine would embrace 500 miles of rail
road.

Nov. 2Jtth, 1836. This day may with truth be said to form
an era in the history of our State. Today has the first Rail
road car been put in motion by steam. Today witnessed the
completion of the first rail road in our Commonwealth. The
Bangor and Piscataquis Canal and Rail road Company have
done the first work of the kind and in persuance of their plan
have presented us vdth a Road to Oldtown. The cars have
today made the first trip.

The road was a perfectly level and straight road, so that when
bicycles were first introduced it was a boulevard for them.

Amusements
Aug. 8, 1836.

New sources of attraction seem to be continually coming
upon us and thrusting themselves upon our notice and their
hands into our pockets. Not onlj' is Sutton cheating us of our
money and of the right use of our senses, by his magical illusions
and Poyen (Mons) collecting his halves by magnetic influence
and Mons. Schafler by his French dialect but at length the
famous O'Connell of tatooed appearance and East Indian

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memory throws in his claim to be heard in the distribution of
our surj)lus revenue, then to cap the climax the boxing Ottignon
offered himself to the amateurs of the sparring world as ready
to receive his fifty cents per head from every one who is fool
enough to pay that sum to see another man knock his neighbor
down in a scientific way.

Aug. 27, 1836. This evening for the first time a theatre has
been presented to the good people of Bangor. This edifice
has just been completed and playing is to commence on Mon-
day evening next. This evening ad captandum display was
made of the beauties of the place, preparatory to its dedication
on the opening evening. . . .

Aug. 29, 1836. This evening the city has been honored with
its first regular theatrical exhibition. The theatre opens with
the play "She stoops to Conquer," with an after piece or two.

There were concerts, for June 6, 1836, he writes:

"Tonight have I so far broken in upon the monotonous
routine of my life as to have attended a concert of music, and
paid my quarter for the privilege. I must however acknowl-
edge that music has not such charms for me as it has for many,
perhaps the greater portion of mankind."

Then there was the Fair gotten up by the ladies for the
object of building a "Female Orphan Asylum" and for this
the public went to the Bangor House Hall. The system of
conducting this did not appeal to the young man.

"The system which is pursued there, a system of the most
perfect shaving and cutting, of keeping all money which may
be handed them without returning what subtraction would
easily and readily dictate, all have a train of evil which it would
be well to avoid. It is giving to the "fair" too much license,
I think, to cheat the other portion of creation. Then too, it
is such perfect boy's play that nothing but the fashionableness
of the thing would, I believe, continue in vogue such an institu-

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tion among those who pretend to call themselves gentlemen and
ladies."

There was the reception to Daniel Webster.

Sept. 28, 1835. We have had the privilege not only of seeing
Mr. Webster but of hearing him also. Agreeably to previous
arrangements a public dinner was given him today at the Bangor
House. Upon a sentiment being given him, he stepped from
the hall on to the piazza or sidewalk in front of the house and
addressed the people, concluding with a sentiment — theme
"Civil Liberty." Then turning to the chairman (Mr. Kent)
thro him addressed the crowd upon his favourite topic, the
constitution, a topic the discussion of which more than any
other has raised him to his present high standing in the eyes
of the world.

Sept. 29, 1835. The functions of the eye and ear have not
alone been exercised towards Mr. Webster, but the sense of
touch has been gratified by an acquaintance with this great
man. We all went last evening to his levee and were intro-
duced to him. . . .

Club.s and Associations

Among the records of Bangor affairs, are those of attendance
at various clubs and associations. There was the

"Cui Bono, an association of ladies and gentlemen whose ob-
ject is mutual improvement which is effected by weekly meet-
ings together, reading an original dissertation on some literary
or scientific subject and conversation and discussion on the
subject of the lecture or dissertation read."

There was the "Union Female Ed Soc, a society lately
organized whose object is the education of young indigent
female children between the ages of 4 & 12." [Mostly "Irish
emigrants. "3

There was a lecture from "the agent of the American Edu-
cation Society, the object of which was to show the course of

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conduct we ought to pursue towards members of other religious
denominations and sects."

There was the "Soc of Inquiry, a society composed of mem-
bers of the Theological Seminary in this city."

Then there was the Seminary itself with its lectures antl
meetings, its anniversaries and its appeal to city and state
for an endowment fund of $100,000, an appeal which led to
subscriptions amounting to over $80,000, but which were never
all collected.

Then the Lyceum wliich seemed very dear to the young man's
heart regarding which he was forced to make this entry, March
1st, 1836.

"I have tonight attended to the last services due to the
Lyceum, witnessed its expiring agonies and heard its dying
groans. We have now the melancholy satisfaction of saying
that a Lyceum cannot exist in Bangor and that there is not
sufficient literary spirit pervading the city to warrant the
attempt. It ought certainly to be told in shame but such is
the fact."

Then last came the meetings of the Temperance organi-
zations.

Temperance

Feb. 23, 1836.

This day being fixed upon for simultaneous Meetings of the
Temperance Societies thro "out the U. S., the two societies in
this city met in the afternoon at which time an address was
delivered and also in the evening when speeches were made by
several individuals on various subjects connected with the
temperance reformation.

After the meeting had finished its business the President
announced 100 members as having joined during the evening.
The friends of the cause in this city are at present making
efforts to establish a Temperance House and for this purpose
have opened books for stock to the amount of $20,000, the sum
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have already been taken and the remainder will probably
find a proprietor. We shall on the 22d May next, we hope
and trust to have the pleasure to announce to the public that
Bangor has one place, at least, where a traveler and abider may
have to lay his head and eat his meals without meeting the
offensive breath of rum drinkers or brandy bottles et omne
genus. "That this hope was probably realized we see by this
entry of July It, 1836."

"Among the visitors at present to our city is Chancellor Kent
of New York. He arrived in town two or three days since and
took up lodgings at the Franklin Temperance House."

March 15ih, 1836. Tonight I have engaged to deliver a
Temp, address before our Association. This subject in truth
has become so hacknied I know not what or how to write.
I shall as I must, try, however, and whatever my lucubrations
result in shall be brought forth to the audience which may
on that occasion be called together.

July 19, 1836. I have this evening made an effort to deliver
a temperance address before the Temperance Association
of this city. After cutting down the address in length some
10 or 15 minutes, I proceeded to the house where I found it filled
almost to overflowing with gentlemen and ladies of the city.
Most excellent music was engaged for the occasion so that so
far as that part of the performances went, the exercises passed
off well. As to the address, being a party interested I am not
of course a competent witness to testify. Being aware of the
hackneyed nature of the subject and the almost thread bare
materials of which such addresses must of necessity be com-
posed, it was my desire and effort to strike out a new path or
at least one which had not been before trodden by the same
kind of vehicle. I consequently filled up an address by a solilo-
quy put into the mouth of the ruler of the empire of Tartarus
and a dialogue which took place between him and one of his
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prospects of the temperance cause. Many of the points which
the cause admitted of were in their turn passed in review, tho
the greater part of the address was appropriated to the dis-
cussion of two points upon which great diversity of sentiment
seems at present to prevail in the temperance community.
I mean the expediency of legal enactments prohibitory of the
trade in ardent spirits and of introducing "cider and all other
intoxicating drinks" into the temperance pledge, with ardent
spirits and wine, as proscribed articles of use and traffic. On
both these points I am and was aware that I was rather in the
minority, at least of those who were willing to proscribe wine.
And not only so, the society before whom the address was
delivered had adopted a pledge embracing that prohibitory
clause. I do not know but that I was wrong in thus taking
ground against the society to which I belong and whose organ
I might on the occasion be presumed to be, in thus attempting
to disprove the pledge or a part of it which they have adopted,
but then I was selected to speak my own sentiments and not
those of others, as I made myself believe. Some dissatis-
faction undoubtedly will be felt at the promulgation of such
doctrines, but then as they are in accordance with my sober
convictions and my experience with human nature, I repent not
the stand which I took. What will be the result I must wait
to know.

Churches

Sunday, Sept. 13, 1835.
There are meetings held here by four religious protestant
denominations, Congregationalists, Baptists, Methodists and
Unitarians. A Cathohc meeting is held weekly here tho
they have as yet no church or public house of worship. The
signs of the times indicate a change in this respect and that
we shall have all the religious variety of older and larger places.
Thus far all the minds of the people have been too much en-
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nity. They are now, however, awakening and beginning to
act. The Episcopahans are already at work on a splendid
Church for Worship. The Universalists are too at work and
will probably before long proceed in a like undertaking. In
addition to the.se denominations, members of various others
are found among us too few and weak to show themselves in
the erection of i)ublic places of worship or perhaps indeed in
any particular organization. Among these are found a few
devoted followers of the doctrines of Emanuel Swedenborg.
They are as yet few and scarcely noticed as such. . . . This
doctrine I believe is destined to become extensively adopted
and believed, not .so much perhaps by sudden changes and
departures from the other societies and creeds but by a silent
change unobserved as it advances in its progress towards
universal reception.

Oct. 2S, 1835. ... I also find the Unitarians are at work
and the foundation of their church is laid and ready for super-
structure which I understand is to be of granite. The church
is intended to be the largest in the state and from what I
can judge from seeing its foundation I should suppose such
must be the ca.se

New Church

Bangor, Maine. Sunday, July 10, 1836.

I have for a number of months past been a gradual receiver
of the doctrines of the New Church, till one by one they have
almost unconsciously to me, become incorporated as a part of
my religious belief. It has, however, been entirely without any
effort on my part and hence am I more confident of their truth.
I at first opi)osed them as the doctrines of an imposter or en-
thusiast and commenced reading merely from curiosity. But
doctrines which address themselves with so much force to the
understanding and reason have so entirely and imperceptibly
convinced me of their truth and of the falsity of my precon-

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ceived notions that I find myself almost insensibly impressed
with the strongest conviction that the doctrines are what they
are represented to be by their propagator and as such entitled
to full credence.

Tho I have from youth been continually under the instruction
and influence of orthodox doctrines and had them instilled into
my mind from earliest infancy as the only true creed, still I
have always felt a reluctance to giving my assent to them
containing as they do, as they have appeared to me, wrong
notions of our future state and erroneous views of nature,
character and attributes of Deity. . . .

Aug. 21, 1836, Surtdaij. We have this evening for the first
time in this place had a meeting of the receivers of the doc-
trines of the New Church for purposes connected with the
reception of the doctrines. . . . There are now in the city
10 or 1*2 known receivers or readers of the truths imparted by
Swedenborg. . . .

The Journal, written continuously, ends with the entry
Nov. 24th 1836. The next is June 12, 1837, after his return
from the death bed of the sister Harriet, so frequently men-
tioned by the Grandmother. Then the last.

July 15, 1838. This has been truly an era amongst us.
Today for the first time public services of the New Church
have been performed in this city. The Rev. H. A. Worcester
having occasion to visit Houlton, on his way afforded us the
pleasure of a visit and the privilege of attendance on public
worship on the Sabbath. The meeting was held in Smith's
Academy which was filled with a very highly respectable
audience.

CHAPTER FOLTR
TEE YOUNG MAN AND LAWYER IN 1835-6

Aspiration

Ang. 27, 1835. Much of our time is lost from a want of
method in its disposition and from absence of rules in its dis-
tribution. Hence it is of the utmost importance especially
in a business man to have fixed rules in regard to the disposal
of his time, and the arrangement of his business affairs. How
much time is lost from a loss to know to what next to turn our
attention when one thing is disposed of and too, how much
more from the delays and hindrances occasioned by a want
of order and regularity in ones affairs, from a want of proper
arrangement in books and papers and whatever else regards
our business. Regularity and order are almost necessarily
accompanied by despatch while a want of them is almost neces-
sarily accompanied by delay, mistakes and confusion. I have
thought a compliance with a few established rules such as the
following would be advantageous and greatly promote ones
facility of doing business resulting from a proper disposition
of time and labor.

1 1st — Divide the day into certain parts and assign to each
])art its appropriate duty and let this arrangement be strictly
complied with so far as business will allow.

2 2d — Always attend to business when it offers itself, not
put it off or delay it when it can be as well done noic. We
shall thus please those who offer it to us, accomplish more
and give ourselves more time for other pursuits.

3 3d — Never delay business for friends. It is a false modesty
and an imprudent respect which causes us to neglect that
which is the calling of our life, to chat with a caller or a
friend, a mere collateral affair.

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4 4th — When business and pleasure interfere choose the
former. This is a natural consequence of the preceding
one. Consider the occupation we have chosen the prin-
ciple, all other as pleasurable affairs merely ornamental or
expletives.

5 5th — Keep a complete file of papers and in such an order
that every paper shall have its appropriate place. "A
place for everything and everything in its place."

Sept. 3d, 1835. "Evil spirits work best during a storm"
observes the worthy Antonia Agapida and the experience of the
world and society proves the as.sertion. It is when there is the
greatest confusion and tumult that evil to the greatest extent
prevails, when the greatest excitement, the most corruption,
fraud, and deception, when the greatest and loudest talk the
least reason and most error. It is in the calm that good spirits
have their influence, in gentle intercourse and moderate action
that reason's dictates are heeded, when the mind is so far from
being hurried tempestuously onward, it has time to deliberate
and choose when calm reason is not restrained and dri\'en out
of its course but has its full sway. It is in such a time when the
calm serenity of a sunny day prevails, when every step is heeded
and taken with deliberate care, that right action is the con-
sequence, that good spirits seem to rule. But on the other
hand when the turbid and tempestuous darkness of the storm
prevails, when society is convulsed with intestine commotions,
and hurry and bustle take the place of cool deliberation and
calm reflection, then it is that error is imbibed, wrong action
the consequence, and when evil genii may with truth be said
to bear rule.

Oct. U, 1835. Rec'd a letter this evening informing me of
the return of my parents from the Western tour, on Friday
last. They have been gone about 7 weeks, having visited in
the remotest corner of Vt and from there as far as Plymouth
& the Cape in Massachusetts. I am really glad to hear of
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anxiety similar to what I should feel were I there. And never
do I feel so confident that things will go right as when the
masters are present.

Oct. 20, 1SJ5. My old coat! Yes, my old coat! It is one
of the evils which poverty has obliged me to commit; a mis-
fortune which the old jade has compelled me to encounter,
to he prudent in the external appendages of my body corporate,
or in other words to avoid tailor's bills and hence to wear clothes
which perhaps others in my situation would cast aside or be
ashamed to wear. But poverty like fate compels us to do many
tilings which our wills are averse to and do not keep company.
Such has been the case with me. Being not of a very foppish
disposition and somewhat inclined to bend to the weight of
circumstances and do what I must do, I have been rather in-
clined to look upon this appendage as a leetle too good to dis-
pense with and have hence worn it until it has, I find, attracted
in some considerable degree the attention of many by its pecu-
liar tints of faded claret. I am or have l)een too freciuently
reminded that some other color would do as well and hence
I am obliged nolens, volens to give it up.

So good bye old coat; thou hast served well tho thou hast
turned somewhat in thy colors. Good bye, a truce to you till
some son of Israel's fated race may take thee to his embrace.

Dec. 15, 18S5. For a few days past I have recreated myself
occasionally by solving a proposition in Algebra. This is a
study with which I am much pleased and was in College
my favorite study. The study of mathematics has a tendency,
I think, to enable its student to abstract his mind and to apply
it with more success to any particular object. Hence the
study is advantageous highly to one engaged in the pursuit of
the law or any abstruse science.

Feb. 25th, 1836. I yesterday commenced an idea for the
purpose of relating a bit of my experience but my subject then
soon unconsciously assumed a form which I little thought of

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when I commenced, and an importance which forbid my
modesty from introducing my name under the same date.
I was as I am now going to say that since I have commenced
practise, I have frequently been placed in situations in respect
to business which was put upon me to transact, and which I
could not with honor or profit reject, which in an entire state
of freedom I would have gladly avoided and deemed myself
incapable of supplying. Placed in such circumstances and
aware of but one course to pursue, I have ever as yet i)ursued
that course (so far as I can judge) with satisfaction both to my
client and myself. This has been particularly the case with
many writings of various kinds which I have been frecjuently
called upon to make since commencing my practise here.
Drafting was entirely a new business with me and hence I
could not but strongly distrust my own abilities in executing
professional business of this kind. I have however never
shrunk from any business of the kind as yet, but have uniformly
undertaken and performed it, whether to the satisfaction of
my client or not I know not. But this I know, I have succeeded
far better than I could have imagined and derived great benefit
from being frequently placed in circumstances of quandary
and doubt.

March 10, 1SS6. Today, if I reckon correctly, another of
my brothers (Benjamin) finished the days of his minority and
approaches upon the years of his majority. So we one by one
leave the care of our parents and begin world for ourselves.
This finishes the first class of boys and three of my father's
family are emancipated. Really time flies fast. Tis but a day
it seems since we three were boys at play upon the grass or
were called in perhaps to rock the cradle of an infant sister now
almost arrived at womanhood, since we together sported by the
brook which ran thro our paternal domain, dammed its falling
waters or sailed the tiny boat; since acting the miniature
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storehouses and made our infant speculations in fictitious
lumber, buttons or apple. But a day seems to have elapsed
since meeting with our neighboring boys, we took delight in
flying our kite and prancing our horses on the green or engaged
ourselves in the more active sports of "playing ball" or "goal."
But now how changed. From boyhood and youth we have
arrived to manhood and exchanged the sports of youth for
the similar labors of middle age. We are however now but
boys of larger growth as we were then men of younger growth.
We now but engage in the same occupations and take but the
same precautions that we then did, we engage with no greater
ardor and pursue with no greater tenacity our object than then.
The only difference is we, now dependent upon our efforts,
turn our labors to the account of supporting ourselves.

July 11, 1836. Again am I about to be turned out to seek
a new dwelling abode. . . . But I want to live with one
who feels an interest in my welfare and will act the friend
and host from other motives than that of cash and who is now
and then willing to do a favor without required pay. Life is
not half worth living for, if ones treatment is to be squared by
his purse. ... I care not so much for my maw or my palate.
I am content with simple fare and can sit down to a table
without variety and rise contented. I can sleep on straw and
rise without complaint, but to be met with cool neglect or with
bought smiles and favors, this is not sincere friendship and I
can not bear; away with it.

July 23d, 1836. I can not make up my mind as to the proper
and best mode of spending and disposing of my time. So
much to be done I hardly know when or in what order to do it.
On the one hand is an infinite number of books cumbering the
law library which a lawj'er must read and which I am desirous
of becoming acquainted with and to do so requires not only
the time but undivided attention of the student. But then
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or a law student. He must know more. And to make him
that more ten thousand works of every class, rank and kind
of writing are pre.sented. Now what is to be read of all this
mass. For there is indeed no class of literature of which he
ought to be ignorant, not even excepting the fashionable liter-
ature of the day as embraced in works of fiction, imagination,
travels and voyages and wonderful achievements and narrow
escapes from nature, from savage beasts or still more savage
men.

What a wide field there is open to the student for selection
and too how diligent and industrious does it become him to
be, yea must he be to become what the profession of law re-
quires him to be. And when all this is taken into contem-
plation, at the same time that the thought of a large portion
of the time being taken up in business, and that continual
interruption renders the remaining portion of the time far less
available, rises in his mind. Surely it is almost enough to
make one despair, as having engaged in a business of which
he can not become master, as having entered a grove from which
he can never emerge.

The Law Business

Aug. 13, 1835. This day is somewhat notable as being the
first time on which since commencing practi.se I have rec'd
anything for that incorporeal part of a lawyer's ware, advice.
It is not the first sin of the kind I am aware of, for my memory
is burdened with the consciousness of having been guilty of the
absurdity of taxing a client fifty cents for a like article of legal
merchandise during my apprenticeship.

Sept. 2d, 1835. Today for the first time I had something to
do in court besides making motions. Two actions for trial
came on, one for Plff. and the other for the Deft, both of
which are gained.

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sufBciently profitable to afford me much change over and
above my expenses. . . .

I have patience however to continue without complaint, hop-
ing for better times and more lucrative business. . . .

Oct. 5, 1SS5. . . . Little things I am aware trouble me,
much, perhaps too much and hence if aught goes wrong in
practise, any blunder is made to the prejudice of a client, I
generally feel sensitive and blamable, a feeling which ever
strongly tends to diminish the pleasure of a young practitioner,
is I am aware strongly felt at present by myself and hence
an additional source of uneasiness.

Oct. 10, 1835. Today for the first time have I argued a case
to the jury and to my great sorrow have been unsuccessful.
I was on the defence. . . . Tho this part or performance is
one which has often haunted my mind as requiring a great
share of fortitude and firmness, yet when the occasion ofi'ered
I cared and thought no more of it than of any other performance
in which I have frequently engaged. There is indeed nothing
trying in the attempt to address a jury or public assembly
and nothing to be much dreaded or feared. We have only
to forget that any one else is attending or listening to us and
all goes off well. I have now fairly broken the ice and am
"in for it."

Oct. 17th. 1S35. Calls for cash arise from every quarter
and too with an earnestness which requires immediate satis-
faction. These frequent calls almost make me despair, some-
times, especially when I look at the other side of my ledger
which finds hard times in keeping up with its neighbor on the
right. In view of the result I should perhaps be melancholy
did I not practise upon the rule of "hope for the best " and were
I not determined to bear whatever may happen with as much
fortitude as possible. I find it an excellent rule to turn every-
thing to one's advantage and if any thing happens the ex-
pediency of which docs not readily appear when viewed in

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respect to ourselves and wliieli is not as we would have it.
consider it as working for our advantage and designed for our
good.

Jan 18 18SG. Health gaining gradually, able to get out.
[After scarlet fever.] Blues disappearing, weather mild, pov-
erty staring, money none, wants pressing, I here pushing
along slowly.

May 9, ISSG. Law business begins now to be considerable
lively and pretty good compared with what it has been. . . .
I have but little fear that I shall ultimately succeed here and
wait with patience the coming of the day when —

June 8 1836. The court still in session and consequently
myself quite busy — Little leisure to study as the most of the
business of the office devolves upon me.

Ang. 9, 1836. At this term of the court my first law argu-
ment will appear before the court tho it will not of course
appear in my name. The argument is in the case of Bussey
and Page, Adm. The action trover for the conversion of tim-
ber cut by the Defts intestate upon land mortgages to the
Plff in part bonded by PIff to the intestate.

June 21i., 1836. I have today been making some examination
as to the right to sustain an action against the city for damages
occasioned in digging down and filling up the streets in further-
ance of the leveling system which has been adopted for a year
past by our city authorities. The face of the earth is so uneven
within the settled jwrtion of the city that the leveling process
has greatly injured many buildings and in some cases almost
totally destroyed them. While some are left elevated some ten
or more feet above the plane of the street and thus exposing
the whole wall of the house, others are buried to the windows
or even deeper. — Such being the case and the reform continu-
ing still to go on, it has become quite a serious question with
many what can be done in such cases and we have been
frequently appealed to for advice in the premises. Today I

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have spent some time in the search for cases and am convinced
at least that the claim- for damages is a doubtful one tho I
should judge an equitable one — In Mass and N. Y. decisions
are against the right to recover such damages but in a case
in England lately, similar to this the claim has been held good
and this decision Justice Story thinks entitled to superior
credit over the American authorities. Cheap as it is going to
law at present, I should at least deem the cause sufficiently
good to risk a suit. — and think I shall so advise. That the
decisions of Massachusetts are not good law I think is very
clear and have little doubt they will be so pronounced by
American authorities at .some future day, tho it is quite doubt-
ful whether our court would have sufficient independence to
over rule the decision of so respectable a court as that of Mass
or New York.

CHAPTER FIVE
''THE AUTO-BIOGRAPHY HURRIEDLY WRITTEN"

Realization. Law Reform

But chief among the acts of my life has been my inter-
ference with Statute Law. I early began to find fault with the
Laws of my own state as found on her Statute Book.

My first effort was the year after my admi.ssion to the Bar,
when I found that altho I then had already two cases to argue
before the Law Court, I could not be allowed to do so for three
years, as an atty. in the Court of Common Pleas could not
practise as Councellor until after 3 years in the Municipal
Court below and then by paying a new fee of $30.

I started out in the work of reform and during the two
subsequent sessions of the Legislature procured an act to be
passed doing away with the wrong. . . . After that at Law
terms I was able to appear before the full Court and argue
my causes in propria persoyia. And so the law has ever since
stood and will forever stand.

My next effort was to cause the law to be enacted for the
protection of private burial grounds. The idea was suggested
to my mind by our having selected a private cemetery for our
family at Winslow on our old homestead upon the death of our
dear Harriet. On looking over the law I found that the ground
might be even attached and set ofl^ on Ex'on or go to heirs
who might have no regard for the grounds and thus a sacrilege
be legally perpetuated. The result was that I procured the
enactment of the law for the protection of private burial grounds,
by the Legislature of 1839.

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Another act of importance which (in connection with a non-
professional friend) I caused to be enacted was that now em-
bodied in the 11. S. Chap 36, Sect. 37, on Corporations. As
the law had stood for all years in our State, all members of
Corporations were made liable for its debts to double the amt.
of their stock, that is the amt. subscribed and then for just
as much more. So the law stood until after our Railroad
was perfected to Waterville. The Co. failed and we were called
upon to "double up." Many suits were commenced and I
found myself and our city liable to a very large amount. In
company with my friend J. W. Veazie we started out on the
work of reforming this deformity, one which lay at the very
foundation of all evil by preventing all future success in the
way of public improvement. We went to work with zeal and
before the Legislature rose we effected our object and the
state was thus relieved of the greatest incubus which lay upon
it, fatal to all future advance in enterprise in the way of public
improvements, and especially of rail-roads. I thus became
the originator of the law that has ever since freed from taxation
the stocks of all corporations, incorporated under the laws of
Maine, the corporations being taxed instead of the stock-
holders.

After entering upon the duties of Bank and Insurance Ex-
aminer, I found that I had nothing to govern me in my work.
There was no law regulating the business either of Insurance
or of Savings Banks. How great a deficiency this was in our
Code I at once resolved, and set myself about the work of
reform. I made the subject one of a great deal of study and
investigation and at the first Session of the Legislature after
my appointment I was ready with my drafts on both subjects.

My Savings Bank law at once met the support of the Bank
Committee but was violently opposed by members, one of the
committee joining in the opposition. Encouraged by the

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support thus offered I stood firm and before the legishiture
rose I had the pleasure of seeing my Act passed and become a
haw with scarcely a word of alteration.

In my Insurance Law I was not so fortunate at first. After
a hard fight all winter, the matter was voted down, no single
person coming to my support and the Committee reported
adversely. Nothing discouraged I tried it again the second
winter and week after week I appeared before the Committee.
I stood all alone until Gov. Williams gave a half sui)port,
the first and only word of favor during all the two years. This
however ended the fight and the Committee put an end to all
further discussion by voting an unanimous report of my law,
subject to such slight changes as a Committee consisting of
myself and two opposition agents might make. These were
very .slight and the Bill was enacted substantially as I had
drawn it except the taxation .section. That, as I before stated,
was struck out but found favor afterwards.

Clo.sely connected with the main Insurance Law were several
others. Among these was the Act now in force providing
for Fire Inciuests. A law had been enacted on the subject
but was too imperfect and ineffective to be of any practical use.

While engaged in the business of Insurance I found a great
evil existing in our Law and by the Bankruptcy Law of the
U. S. whereby Life Policies of Bankrupts were treated as their
property and subject to be administered upon as such. This
I regarded as a great evil and I determined to have it changed.
Being then a member of the Ins. Convention, I accordingly
introduced an order and procured its passage to represent to
Congress the propriety of exempting Life policies from the
effect of Bankruptcy. Congress took the subject in hand
and adopted the law so far as to exempt everything, including
Life policies which the state law exempted from attachment.
This answered for Maine, for I had already seen to that in my
law already enacted. So that my object was thus effected so

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far as Maine was concerned and many were the cases which
afterwards occurred when blessings were the result to the
poor bankrupt's family.

But the ]>rincipal and perhaps most important of all the
improvements made by my efforts in the way of law reform,
before committees and the Legislature is that of the Statute
allowing a person accused of crime to testify as witness on
his own behalf on trial. Up to that time this right was no
where enjoyed nor had even been except for a few months
in Conn where a Statute had been passed which the Court
construed gave that right. As soon as the Court had so de-
cided the Stat, was repealed at once, leaving the right no
where existant.

I had resolved on amending the practise and accordingly
persuaded my old student A. G. Lebroke, then a newly elected
member of the House of Rep. to introduce the measure. At my
earnest solicitation he consented to do so and acted accord-
ingly. This was in Jany 1859. As the result a law was passed
allowing such parties to testify in certain small affairs such as
assault, assault and battery, trespass, etc. This was a good
entering wedge and gave me encouragement. This I followed
up and for five successive years caused the matter to be brought
before the Legislature until success crowned my efforts by the
enactment of the law of 1864.

Following up my success at home I commenced work in
Mass and by some 3 or 4 communications to the Boston Daily
Advertiser called attention to the subject. The articles had
the desired effect and the last was the means of accomplishing
the desired object. This last was the report which I wrote of a
trial of a poor negro barber of our own city who in darkness
of night had killed a big Irishman and the fact of his doing so
was patent tho done secretly. The poor little negro was put on

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trial and by his own testimony alone, his innocence of murder
by killing in self defence so fully established, as to ensure his
instantaneous acquittal. The report which I made was so
conclusive an argument in favor of the law, that the Leg. at
once adopted it at the motion of J. Q. Adams. Happening to
be in Boston on the day of its introduction I called on Mr.
Adams at the State House and at his request wrote out the law.
This was before its introduction. During the same days ses-
sion he introduced it and procured its passage and it thus
became the law of Mass.

Its subsequent success was astonishing, having like wild
fire gone over the union and back to Congress and is now
almost everywhere practised among English speaking people
and with some modification in France.

I more than half suspect that I have had much to do with
certain Post Office improvements in the law regulating the
Department. The law for a few years after the introduction
of postal cards was such that no postal could be forwarded to
the owner who had left town as letters might. The only favor
in this line was that a new postage stamp must be affixed.
Unlike the treatment which letters reed which might follow
the person addressed all over the Union, postal cards could
not be so forwarded.

Another defect in the P. O. service I found in the case of
postal boxes the contents of which were retiuired to be carried
to the P. O. and there mailed. I thought of the conversion
of the plan of letting the train P. M. open the box and take
out the letters thus facilitating the forwarding of them. Being
at Washington in 1876 during the session of Congress I applied
to the Ch. of the Post Office Committee to have the proper
amendment made, but he dissented and would do nothing.
Soon after a Committee was appointed by Congress to revise
the P. O. laws when I took advantage of the opportunity and

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addressed the Com. on the subject. Both recommendations
were adopted and are now the law of the Department. Whether
it was my recommendation that effected it I can not say how-
ever, but I suspect my suggestions were the real cause of the
enactment.

Filius NulUus

Since the foregoing was written I have during the session
of 1887 procured the enactment of the very important statute
regulating the descent of estates to and from illegitimates and
the amendment of the Divorce law of our State. This un-
fortunate class of our citizens are everywhere treated with
ignominy and cruelty as the children of nobody, filius nullius,
and that without any fault of theirs. In my practise I had
met with cases of great hardship and I resolved to do away
with the ignominy and after a great deal of care I wrote out
the law and then went before the Leg. and procured its enact-
ment.

Voting by Proxy

The subject of "Voting by Proxy" at Public Elections is
now my hobby and so long as I shall live to have the power to
work I propose to push the matter until success crowns my
efforts. It is a great improvement on the present system and
can not I believe fail of ultimate success. I have already
had it presented to the Legislature for enactment, of course
without success and have caused it to be noticed several times
by the public press. The measure is slowly gaining favor and
is bound at last to succeed. Once in practise in a single state
it will pass like wild fire to all. . . .

Jury System.

Another scheme or project which I should like to engage in

effecting if my life should continue is the reformation of the

Jury System, in the trial of Civil causes. I have long regarded

the present system of twelve men drawn heterogeneously from

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the masses for the trial of causes in court as a gross hbel
on the cause of justice and a most bunghng as well as un-
safe mode of arriving at the true merits of any cause. . . .

Another scheme now (July 1888) before Congress have I
been active in introducing and promoting, to amend the Con-
stitution of the U. S. in the matter of Presidential Elections.
I found out by reading the Constitution one day, some two
years ago, that there was no provision of law to meet the con-
tingency of a President Elect dying before his inauguration.
By a communication in the Boston Herald I called attention to
it and then sent copies of the article to various members of
Congress and Senators and to the Pres. Cleveland. Every
person acknowledged the favor and thanked me. Amend-
ments to meet the want were proposed to the Act then on its
passage, but they were voted down. Indeetl the defect could
not properly be provided for by statute. The matter is now
before a Committee of the Senate who are neglectful of it but
will ultimately see that the proper amendment is adopted.

18S9. I have made further efforts by letters recently pub-
lished in the Boston Daily Advertiser and N. Y. Independent
calling attention to the subject and these have been duly
commented on by the Press favorably in different parts of the
U.S.

1904- The matter has since been twice considered by the
Senate on motion of Senator Hoar. At first the subject was
brought before the Senate on the 4th day of May 1898 and was
discussed principally as to the form of the amendment, and was
as the amendment was made to read, finally adopted by the
Senate by unanimous vote as reported in the Congressional
Record of 55th Congress, voted May 4, 1898, pages 5056 to
5062. The House took no action and the matter of course
passed over. The House, however, received the act as passed
by the Senate and on May 5, 1898 referred it to the Judiciary
Committee who failed to make any report.

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At a Subsequent Session, the subject was again presented
to the Senate by Senator Hoar who after having made a few
remarks on the subject cited the argument as presented by
me and begged to be permitted to read the same which he was
permitted to do and the proffered Act was thereupon unani-
mously adopted. The House, however, neglected to consider
the matter and so the proper amendment fails thus far to be
adopted and awaits future action. The proposed amend-
ment was defective and needed an important amendment.

Mr. Hoar having since died an important question remains
for the future to .settle and ([uere, who shall be the man to
prosecute the case. The propriety and the necessity for the
suggested remedy to be adopted is admitted by all and we
await further action of Congress.

Among the files of father's letters are many bearing on
this subject, written by Congressmen and Senators. I have
selected five to give here.

In 1888, Senator Hoar wrote a long letter to Rep. Boutelle,
on this subject. His stand at that time is shown in these
extracts.

My de.\r Sir, — I have read the two letters from Hon.
Albert W. Paine of the Penobscot Bar, which you enclose.
They relate to a very interesting subject. The Committee
on Privileges and Elections considered it verj' fully when the
bill to regulate the presidential succession was framed. I
consulted not only the members of the Committee but other
Senators and all were of opinion that it was not practicable to
make any provision for the subject either by legislation or by
amendment to the Constitution. . . . The prevailing opinion
of those whom we consulted was that the necessity supposed
by Mr. Paine did not exist. Those who think it does exist
agree that the danger is now confined to a very short period
of time. ... It is quite likely that before many years pass
there will be an amendment of the Constitution changing in

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some respect the method of the election of the President and
Vice President. Whenever that shall happen there ought to
be and probably will be a clear provision for this case.

I am, yours faithfully,

Geo. F. Hoar.
To Hon. C. A. Boutelle

House of Representatives.

That further consideration changed Senator Hoar's opinion
is shown in this letter to my father.

Committee on the Judiciary, United States Senate,
Washington, D. C.

Worcester, Mass. Nov. SS, 1899.
My dear Mr. Paine, — I am much obliged to you for your
letter and for the enclosed letter which, however, I had already
seen and read with interest. If one influential man in the
House of Representatives will take hold of the matter I can
take care of it in the Senate. But I am naturally somewhat
tired of getting valuable measures through the Senate, with a
good deal of labor and pains, and then having them get no
attention whatever in the House. Now you are entirely right
in your opinion as to the gravity of the situation and the need
of a remedy by Constitutional amendment. I should think
your Congressman, Mr. Boutelle, who is a very vigorous man
of great influence might be made to see the importance of the
matter. If some member of the House of Representatives
would take the initiative so that he would get whatever credit
belongs to the introduction and successful accomplishment of
an important measure, I shall be very glad to see after the
thing in the Senate. I have got too old to care much about
the pride and glory of such things.

I am, with high regard,

faithfully yours,
Albert W. Paine Esq. Geo. F. Hoar.

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There are several other letters from him, the last is dated
Dec. 1901.

Worcester, Mass, Dec. 23, 1901.
My dear Mr. Paine: I have received at Worcester today
your letter in regard to the Constitutional Amendment.

Your suggestions on the suljject have always been exceed-
ingly wise, and I shall be glad to give this communication full
attention. I hope the proper Constitutional Amendment will
be reported by the Committee on privileges and Elections
promptly.

I am, with high regard, faithfully yours,

Geo. F. Hoar.
Albert W. Paine, Esq.,
Bangor, Maine.
There are several letters from Senator Frye.

Washington D. C, January, 18, /98
Mr. Albert W. Paine,
Bangor, Alainc.

My dear Sir, — It is impossible for you to intrude upon
me. I have such a profound respect for your opinions that I
am always pleased to hear from you. I shall present your
Constitutional Amendment this morning and have it referred
to the Judiciary Committee, together with your reasons for
its adoption. I am.

Yours very truly,

Wm P Frye

United States Senate
Hon. Albert W. Paine,
Bangor, Maine.
My de-\r Mr. Paine, — I have yours of March 5. The
Chairman of the Judiciary committee appointed a sub-com-
mittee on your Constitutional amendment. I repeatedly called
their attention to the great importance of the matter, but about

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the only reply I could get was that we had gotten along for
over a hundred years and, as this short session was so taken
up, they did not think it best to report the amendment favor-
ably. They all admitted that the charges you made were
true and that great danger exists. I called their attention to
the fact that Senator Hoar was very warmly in favor of your
amendment, but it did no good. I think if an amendment is
proposed very early in the next session that it may receive
favorable consideration."

I am very glad that you are still in good health, and that
your life is spared.

Sincerely,

Wm. Frye.
Wa.sliington, D. C, March 8, 1907.

I have selected two other letters written by two of our
prominent Maine men. This one I like to give as one of many,
showing the friendly esteem in which my father was held in
Maine, the State:

Senate Chamber, January 2, 190Jf.

My dear Mr. Paine, — Your letter of the last of the year
has just been received. You will, I hope and believe, live for
years in both enjoyment and usefulness.

There is no such record in Maine as yours for eminent
service at the Bar and in the business world, where good lawyers
give so much of direction to business.

All the good wishes of the season go with this letter, and

I hope I shall keep writing them at the beginning of many years

in the future. Sincerely yours,

Eugene Hale.

Hon. Albert W. Paine.

The other I give because of its historical interest. Father
had evidently written to Mr. Reed regarding his famous ruling
of the "quorum."

1 But before the "next session," father had gone.

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Speaker's Room,
House of Representatives,
Washington. D. C. 19 Fehy, 1890.
Bro. Paine, — I am glad to have such approval from the
regions of pure law. Your argument cannot be answered.
Nevertheless you can hardly appreciate what a shock it was
to old traditions and to use and wont it was, to count a man
as here simply because he was here. But the world do move
and with mighty little jar after all.

Sincerely yours,
A. W. Paine Esq. T. B. Reed.

Religious Experience

In a sketch of one's life such as this is, it would be a great
defect to pass over what is usually called ones religious experi-
ence or sentiment.

I have already alluded to the fact of my parent's orthodox
belief and religious views and practice. They were good old
fashioned Congregationalists and with one other married couple
formed the entire church. ... As to myself I could never find
any pleasure in the contemplation of the Orthodox creed and
Catechism. I always had the feeling when a boy that its
teachings made anything of the future rather than what I would
have for a heaven and as I heard the preaching of hell fire and
eternal torments and the doctrine of election and predestination
and all that system of absurdities I used to wish that God was
as good as I was & such things would not be. My mind and
heart rebelled against the whole creed and all the pulpit utter-
ances of the kind and the hope was ever fresh in my mind
that at some time I should find something that I could love to
believe. INIy boy days and college years pas.sed without the
sight however and I was fast inclining to infidelity when during
the last year of ray professional studies at Hallowell in June,
1834 I made the acquaintance of the doctrines of the New

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Church as given to the world through the agency of Sweden-
borg. I was but a day in their reception.

They so strongly commended themselves to mj^ reason, to
my intellect, to my heart and brain, the whole world and all
its parts physical natural mental, moral, and spiritual and so
full of the most convincing evidence that I could no more help
believing than I could the fact of my existence. So I have
ever been and shall ever be, both in this life and the future a
full believer of the truths, the glorious truths of the New
Dispensation. They are to me the great comforter of my life,
my support and foundation. When the time comes as soon
I expect it, I go with firm faith and undoubting trust to that
other state which is as real and certain as is this I now live and
enjoy. It is for my family alone that I have any regrets or
any reluctance at going.

Our life here is like the College life of youth, a mere state

of preparation for tlie future after graduation. Successive

states only in each case, the one the conse(|uence of the other,

following it at once and affected in each case by the state which

precedes. \^1886r\

A nfhor

In addition to other work of which mention has been made
I have had more or less to do in the way of using the public
press as author or contributor. I have always from my
admission to the Bar been more or less a scribbler.

My first published article was a letter from Bangor published
in the Philadelphia Gazette, written at the request of the Editor
in Nov. 1835 giving an account of our City. From that time
forward I have been an almost constant correspondent for the
Boston Daily Advertiser for all the 50 years past. During the
Aroostook War I was the only correspondent and my letters
were very extensively published all over the country and
some went to England. [A complete file of these papers was
given to the Bangor Public Library in 1017.]

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Contributions on different subjects to our Dailies in Bangor
and to the Advertiser have been frequent and numerous gener-
ally over the signature of A. W. P. Occasional Magazine
articles and two for the Maine Historical Society have also
appeared. The Territorial History of Bangor and Vicinity
was one of the contributions thus proffered which has since
been printed forming a small volume of much interest.

As Bank and Insurance Examiner I made two annual Re-
ports containing not only the statistics of the Dept. but large
amounts of information of an historical or instructive char-
acter connected with the subject such as the history of Savings
Banks and the general principles controlling and governing
them as well as other subjects.

During the three subsequent years of my Insurance Com-
missionership my three annual Reports contained in like
manner a large amount of information of a like character
touching the subject of Insurance of different kinds. I have
been pleased to find that the doctrines which I adopted
have ever since been held to by my successors and by the
Legislature.

As Tax Commissioner my Report on Taxes generally re-
ceived wide favor and general adoption.

As a member of the Insurance Convention at its origin,
I assumed the role of an active member and its two large
volumes of proceedings bear evidence to the work done
there by me, to perfect the system of Insurance practise
in its various departments of Life, Fire, Accident and
Marine.

During the last eight or ten years I interested myself largely
in hunting up my ancestry and establishing the genealogj' of
our family. The work was an arduous one and one where
at the start I had nothing to start with. I knew nothing of
my family, back of my owti father the name of his father not
being known. But by perseverance I went on my way and

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what I at last accomplished is made evident by my published
work, "Paine Genealogy, I])swich Branch." The family was
so little known that it had no distinctive name and it was left
to me to name it as I did, "The Ipswich Branch."

Having accomplished so much I could not bear to have my
labor lost and .so concluded to perpetuate it by publishing the
work as I did. This is all I have to say about it. The Book
tells the rest. The book was published in 1881.

More recently I have published "The New Philosophy"
which is a work intended as the book shows to be an intro-
ductory work of what I call the new system of philosophy or
system that is bound to take the place of the old or anticjuated
system that is in many respects and especially in matters of a
mental character so utterly defective and unreasonable, illogi-
cal and absurd. . . . Published in 1884.

Sept. 31, 1892. I have recently had the curiosity to review
the acts of my profession or rather my professional life more
especially so far as relates to doings in Court.

In reviewing the scenery I find that I have had trials before
every Judge of the Court of Common Pleas and District Court
during their whole existence from the organization of the
State. Also before every Judge of the Supreme Judicial Court
who held office after my admission which embraces every Judge
of that Court since the State of Maine was a separate State
except Judge Parris, Preble and Mellen. But I have tried
cases with the last two having had several cases against Preble
and one with Mellen. All but Parris have I thus been familiar
with in practise.

In addition to these I have tried cases before every Circuit
Court Judge of the U. S. for First Circuit except the present
one, also before every District Judge of the U. S. for Maine
District including Judges Story, Woodbury, Curtis, Clifford,
Lowell, Ware, Fox and Webb.

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In looking over my Law Dockets I find on them more or less
cases at every Law term since I was admitted beginning with
1836 and continuing to 189^2 (4) or 59 consecutive yearly law
terms with one exception and that in all I have had some 525
cases for Law argument before S. J. C, some more than 300
being reported in the Maine Reports making about 3 vols out
of the whole 83 vols of the Law Reports of Maine.

Besides the cases already mentioned I have also argued
three cases before the Supreme Court of the U. S. at Washing-
ton and more or less cases in the Courts of Mass., N. H. and
Minn. In New Hampshire I succeeded in procuring a decision
which had been rendered more than 50 years before and con-
stantly receiving the practise and support of the people and
the Court ever since, to be overruled and annulled. It was a
case involving the title under the tax law of X. H. It involved
the title of almost the whole township which was thus saved
to my client (Coe). It was a hard work but I succeeded
having procured the assent of a majority of the Court.

In one of the S. C. of U. S. cases which was that of Moor
and Veazie the question was finally established settling the
extent of the U. S. jurisdiction over the rivers, a matter that
had never before been fixed. The law was thus for the first
time decided to be that the jurisdiction of the \j. S. government
over the navigation of Rivers extended to the farthest navigable
point from the ocean and no farther without any regard to the
flowing of the tide.

Among the pleasant duties performed I had the pleasure of
representing my State in the Insurance Convention which
brought me in contact and acquaintance with very many dis-
tinguished men of other states and thus helped make life
happy.

On another occasion I was sent to Fredericton, X. B. to
represent my State before the Legislature there with reference
to certain water rights where certain proposed improvements or

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interference with the waters of the St. John and other streams
interfered with the use of the same waters in our State. I was
successful in procuring the arrangement desired but the matter
never amounted to anything as the whole scheme was aban-
doned by the Province.

On another occasion I was ajjpointed by the Governor of
Maine under a resolve of our Legislature suggested by myself
just before, to procure from Mass. Leg. the various documents
and records pertaining to the lands in Maine, then in the Land
Office of that state at Boston. In this I was successful having
procured from the Committee a favourable report and from the
Legislature a Resolve granting the desired gift.

After being thus successful another Ex appointment sent me
to Boston to explore and find out and receive the documents
sought for. A day or two of vigilant work through the various
rooms of the State House and its closets resulted in my obtain-
ing almost the entire body of all the papers and records, maps,
and documents desired, some of the most important being
found thrown into the waste closets of the Capitol, covered
with dirt and ready to go with the next spring cleaning into the
brush heap of the dumping ground.

One who visits the Land Office of Maine and sees how ele-
gantly and conveniently are now arranged the whole history
of our public lands, its maps and plans, field notes and deeds
of conveyance and other material may gain some idea of the
great value of the work thus done.

The reason of my appt was the oft repeated idea that for
years I had suggested to our Land Agent that these records
should be thus secured. How little do people in general know
of the value of such old records and papers and oh ! how few
care to know anything al)out them. It is well that now and
then there is one exception. I am glad to be one.

Dec. 1, 1904. During the last twelve years which have

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expired since my last date I have still continued to live, having
recently celebrated ray 93d birthday. Tho during the last
two years I have been more or less at times afflicted with disease
in addition to my defect in hearing I still regard myself as a
member of the Bar and in professional practise which has been
continuous since May 1835 thus making me the oldest lawyer
in continuous practise in the United States as my reputation
exists, being now in my 70th year of practise. I now daily
(generally) visit my office and pay my rent for same tho
I find comparatively little to do. How long I shall continue
to do .so depends upon the gift of Providence in the prolonga-
tion of life.

During ths time above stated my dear Wife left her earthly
home for the better home of eternity on the 12th day of April
1901 after some sixty-one years of happy companionship on
earth. That we shall soon meet each other again to enjoy an
eternity of fellow.ship is and affords a complete compensation
for the brief deprivation of mental connection on earth.

I have recently dissolved my connection with several cor-
porations after a long .service in each, by resignation as follows,
— on account of my deafness and age.

As Librarian of Penobscot Bar after 60 years service I re-
signed in 1899 and at same time I also resigned the office of
Treasurer which I had held for 50 years.

A few weeks ago I also resigned the office of President of
the Bar after about twenty years service as such.

In consideration of my services as approved, the Bar did me
the honor of having my portrait painted and hung upon the
wall of the Bar Library in our new Court House. Appropriate
services were performed, including those on my resignation,
reports of which were duly published in the city papers.

As Treasurer of Mt. Hope Cemetery Corporation I served
for the period of 50 years, when I declined the proffered election
for another year. Appropriate resolutions were passed by the

THE NEW YORK
PUBLIC LIBRARY

ASTOR, LEN'OX

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Corporation with a vote appropriating $100 per aiinuiu as a
gift for the consideration of the services which I iiad performed
during the half century of its favor. The appropriation being
for the years of my hfe.

Last year after some 20 or 30 years service as President of
the Maine Telegraph Company I declined a reelection when a
vote of thanks and gift of $100 was passed, my position as
Director of the Co. ever since its organization some 60 years
ago being also repeated for the coming year. On account of my
age and accompanying defects from deafness I regarded it as
rather a duty to free myself from the responsibilities of the
several offices thus surrendered arid declined.

During all the years of my residence in my home on Court
St. being about 55 years, I have constantly, every year, person-
ally performed the work of cultivating my garden almost every
item of work from the planting of the seed until the gathering
in of the crop having been performed by my own hands. The
work has been the source of great interest and happiness to me,
as I have all the while enjoyed the work and realized the benefit
bestowed thereby on my bodily health and strength.

I have just now within a few days commenced a new effort to
influence Congress to enact a statute pledging the good faith
and power of our Government to grant to the Phillippine Islands
their independence as soon as in the opinion of Congress they
are fitted for such privilege. I have accordingly published in
the Boston Daily Advertiser and in our Daily papers an article
on the subject and sent copies thereof to President Roosevelt
and different members of Congress. What will be the result
remains to be seen.

Father died Dec. 3, 1907, three years after this last entry.
His interests in the various activities of the world and in the
various reforms remained with him to the end.

He was able to do a great deal of good in the world because
he was ever ready to take the initiative in any new movement

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that appealed to him and because he was also ready to take
the full responsibility for its accomplishment.

For many years it had been father's duty and privilege, as
President of the Penobscot Bar, to give the memorial addresses
before its members; it had now come his turn to be honored.

Mr. Franklin A. Wilson, one of father's most esteemed friends,
succeeded him as President. It is a pleasure to me to give
extracts from his address, Jan. 25, 1908.

May it please your Honor:

The sad yet not distasteful duty has been imposed upon me
as president of the Penobscot Bar in succession to the Hon
Albert W. Paine, to call the attention of the court officially
to the fact so well known to your honor already, that on the
third day of December last Brother Paine died at his residence
in this city at the age of more than 95 years having been born
on the 16th day of August 1812, and having been admitted
to this bar on May 28, 1835, thus having covered over 72 years
of professional connection with the bar of this county. Truly
a wonderful record if it was a record of honest, conscientious
professional work.

How then has our deceased brother impressed himself
upon his professional brethren. If we were compelled to rely
upon memory, few contemporaries are alive to tell the tale,
but for three-score years and ten, volumes of law reports issued
annually bear evidence of the immense amount of labor per-
formed by Brother Paine and of the varied learning displayed
by him in the conduct of his cases. I am not sure that he
ever engaged in trials upon the criminal side of the court,
but upon the civil side every department of legal practice
seemed to have enlisted his aid. He always believed implicitly
in the justice of his cause and in the integrity of his client and
so gave all his powers unreservedly to his vindication. It was
customary to say amongst the lawyers that Brother Paine was
lucky, but the truth was that indomitable industry and a

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sound mind in a sound body brought him chents and secured
success for himself in legal contests.

As have so many other men, a very few of whom are now
at the Bar, I passed a portion of the time devoted to legal
studies prior to admission to the Bar in Brother Paine's office
as a student.

That was in the year 1854-5. Brother Paine was then in
the prime of his manhood, and every hour of his business day
was absorbed by the best class of clients, both individuals and
corporations. I wondered how he could do the work he did
and maintain his splendid condition of health and came to the
conclusion that temperate habits, combined with the physical
exercise of caring personally for his large garden and grounds,
conduced to good health and appetite, yet freedom from worry
was the chief cause of his physical and mental health. He
dropped his professional cares at the office and carried to his
home and his family, and his garden a body and brain open to
the influences of social recreation and healthy rest.

The records of our Public Library would disclose the fact
that he was a most constant reader of the best of general liter-
ature, whilst his private library was well selected and extensive.
He early became interested in the life, experience and teaching
of Emmanuel Swedenborg, and to the last day of his life de-
rived the keenest enjoyment from the contemplation of the
spiritual tenets of the sect known generally as the Church of the
New Jerusalem. . . .

There was nothing of the meteoric about Brother Paine's
professional practice, whether before the courts or juries.
He never called to his aid the blare of trumpets or the beating
of drums, but aimed to know the law, to array the facts and
to make the plainest possible statement of his case, hoping
to convince the intelligence and reason of the tribunal before
which he appeared. ...

After a half century of the practice of law, experience

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teaches me that if I were a htigant in search of counsel, I should
not choose a so-called "genius" who "ties his chariot to a
star" but rather the counsellor who knows the law and has the
power of imparting it clearly and concisely to the court or
jury, quite regardless of the galleries and who possesses integrity
of character in the circles in which he moves unimpeached and
unimpeachable. Such a one will be of the greatest assistance
to courts and juries in elucidating the truth and promoting
justice, the worthy objects for which courts exist, and will
achieve success.

We place brother Paine in this category. By common
consent he was an honest, honorable man, an upright member
of society, a model head of a family, a loyal citizen of this
Republic, of simple tastes and high ideals. We do well to
study his life and emulate his virtues. Thus shall the good
that he accomplished in almost a century of activity be per-
petuated long after his passage to another sphere of action.

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CHAPTER SIX
LETTERS

Bangor, Sunday, P.M., Aug. 2, 1885.

The weeks fly by so rapidly that I can hardly keep the run
of them, much less to gather up anything by the way to send
to another. The history of the day is with me the history of
my life and in the one you have the other and no detail hardly
is necessary. The days history is .shortly told in the eating of
breakfast, dinner and supper, two or three hours in the garden,
7 hours sleep and 9 hours professional work. There you have
it save as a little reading of the daily news and a few trifles
come in as condiments to season the dish.

My garden enjoyment daily increases as the crops are matur-
ing and their rapid growth exhibits itself. Never was I aware
of such rapid progress made in all kinds of vegetation. My
pole beans are almost passing off from the tops of the highest
poles and are now starting off for Sirius or the Sun. How near
they will come to their mark I dont know. If they keep on as
they have thus far, they will be nearer to it a good deal than
when they started. . . .

Bangor, Sunday, P.M. Sept. 3, 1890.
My dear G.,— I have just been informed that my to-days
letter must be sent to the Isle of Shoals where you propose
to find yourself on Tuesday next. Do you know where you
are going or in what State of the Union you propose to make
your stay? The mention of the name reminds me of so mi-
portant a matter in the history of Maine's criminal practice
that I cannot help mentioning it and thus at the same time

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hclj) fill my slieet and your interest in your visit. When
Gen. Plaisted, my old student, was Attorney General of the
State, a murder was committed on one of the Islands constitut-
ing the group and the defence set up was that the locality of
the crime was in X. H. and the Court in Maine had no juris-
diction of the trial. This j)ut the General to his wit's end
to prove that the place where the crime was committed was in
Maine. The matter was one of very much importance, it
never having been known where the line between the two
States passed after leaving the mouth of the River between
Portsmouth and Berwick. On the one side it was alleged and
proved to a certain extent that it passed out to sea to the
right and the other to the left of the spot. The Genl spent a
vast deal of time and ingenuity in proving his side of the case,
that the island was in Maine and thus gained his case. Please
find out what State you propo.se to visit.

I submitted the itroblem to Mr. Leighton, the long-time
owner and landlord of the islands. His reply was this.

"Since this trial, this Island (the Appledore) has paid taxes
in Maine, prior to that time it belonged nowhere, paid no
taxes. The Star Island is a part of the town of Rye, New
Hampshire."

During the Revolutionary War, the Lsles of Shoals, occupy-
ing a position of great economic importance on account of their
domination of the cod fisheries in Ipswich Bay, were able to
accumulate considerable wealth by catering to both sides as
opportunity arose. The sentiment of the Lslands was very
friendly to England, so that after the war they were, to a large
extent, left to themselves and more or less forgotten by the
people of the mainland.

Bangor, July 6, 1902, Sunday P.M.

My DEAR G., — W'ere it not that the habit of writing you

every Sabbath has become so imperative for its continuance,

the present would be allowed to pass without a repetition of the

foolish custom, for I have nothing to say worth the Govern-

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ment imposition of the 2 cent postage stamp to communicate.
But the Spirit says "write" and "obey your old experience" —
and so I obey, tho I have nothing to say.

The week past, tho of no importance to your especial friends
here, has been a vastly important one in a public view. Con-
gress has bid us good bye, much to my joy, as having freed
us and myself in particular, of the grave duty of keeping close
watch of its important and, in many items, its very foolish
work. I feel much relieved of a very grave duty which for
seven months has been imposed upon me by the daily i^erusals
of its proceedings. But the President has very markedly
in many respects taken its place and, to the extent of an almost
daily reading of his speeches, the grave importance of which
imposes the duty of these being read and adjudged.

Roosevelt is truly a distinguished man and one who is prov-
ing himself a person of great importance in the government
of his country's best interests. He is truly a very important
personage and has if ever, very seldom found himself equalled
by any of his predecessors. I find myself bound to read his
frequent speeches and as often find myself informed of the true
sentiment to be adopted in the consideration of the country's
best interest in the decision of the many very important schemes
now prevailing respecting the action of the Country. Cuba and
the Phillipines, Porto Rico and the Danish West Indies,
The Isthmian Canal and Irrigation propositions, Trusts and
Tariffs, and Presidential succession, Bryanism and Clevelandist
doctrines and the hundred other minor schemes and subjects
of Presidential and Government importance, all have so much
importance, as coming within the presidential scope that a
citizen's duty seems imposed upon us for consideration and the
President Roosevelt keeps us all fully informed on the subject.
I am glad to be relieved of Congressional consideration of all
these and other subjects.

We are having one of the brightest of Summer days, the sun

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being out, shining in ail its glory of brightness. But our sum-
mer has been so indulgent of its rains that all at once in the
brightness of sunshine the usual daily shower is beginning to
impose itself on our Sabbath enjoyment. Many are the
victims that are umbrella-ized not.

In spite of my having nothing to say, you will notice that
I have covered my usual slieet with ink, for which you will give
me due credit and pardon, with love from

Burn it. P^P^-

From father's last letter written ten days before he went
from us.

Bangor, Sunday P.M., Nov. 24, 1907
My dear G., In taking my pen to perform my accustomed
Sabbath day duty in your favor, I am entirely at loss to know
how to do it. I have no news to send you and nothing else
of any importance wortli the ink that I am wasting in letting
you know it. During the past week our city & the world
about us & our dear family are in about the statu quo that we
were in during the last Sunday.

Personally my experience in various particulars is adding
daily to the knowledge of the fact that I am an old man, &
constantly growing older, as one Sabbath takes the place of
its predecessor in time. . . . During the past week I have
finished the garden work usually devolving on gardeners to
perform & all things of that character seem to be well done.
Professionally I find much to do to repel the anxiety which
our Minnesota neighbors are .seeking to impose on us & more
or less of each of the passing days finds me employed in the
endeavor to meet some of the many points which the facts
of the law governing the same present. . . . How shall
Minnesota law & facts be treated in the Maine Court of an
entirely different character & especially when the Minnesota
Law & facts are of such a peculiar character. But for an old

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man so nearly a centenarian in age to have imposed upon him
the duty of managing cases of so nmch importance is a fact
but httle known in the professional world. . . .

I am very frequently personally troubled with certain char-
acteristic namesakes of the Pai7ie connection, one of which is
now being inflicted on my side.

With love from

your dear old

Pap.\. —

Death at Ninety Five
To Father

How he bereaves and blesses who has gone
From lofty height of useful years as thine,
Believing death to be but parting line

Between the uses here and farther on;

And joying still in living here or yon;

Who, wise and simple, faithful and benign,
Beholds the past and seeming ill combine

In greater good that is forever won !

As one who climbs the mountain top can see
A larger lighter view than they below.
Yet turns and smiles its meaning from above.

Thus "climbing life" on earth it was with thee.
Dear father, climbing still, now, even so.
Smile back on us, bereft, thy strength and love!

Selma W. Paine

CHAPTER SEVEN
MARY HALE PAINE

My mother, Mary Jones (Hale) Paine, was born in North
Yarmouth, Maine, May 8th, 1816. She was the daughter of
Captain John and Mary Jones Hale who was the daughter
of Dr. David Jones Jr. of revolutionary history, in turn the
son of Dr. David Jones Sr., of Abington, Mass. (formerly
of Weymouth), whose colonial history embraces resolves in
committee against the oppressive acts of the British Parlia-
ment.

On the Hale side, she was the direct descendant of Rev.
John Hale, the early pastor of the church in Beverly, Mass.
who had so much to do in dispelling the Salem witchcraft
delusion.

An accusation was brought against his wife, "whose dis-
tinguished virtues had won for her a reputation which super-
stition could not sully nor shake." "This broke the spell by
which they had held the minds of the whole colony."

My father mentions as a curious coincidence the fact that
one of the Ipswich Paines, Robert, was the foreman of the
impeaching grand Jury, although probably not one of the
active prosecutors. The two, John Hale and Robert Paine
were both ministers of the same faith, residing in the same
neighborhood and both graduates of Harvard University, in
college together for three years.

Her childhood was passed in Portland and her young girlhood
in Foxcroft. Here came my father to make legal calls and
soon to make social calls on this Miss Hale. Between the two
there was a strong tie in a common ititerest in the New Church
to which my mother had been led by her friends the Chand-
lers, one of whom was the partner of father. They were mar-

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ried on the 9th day of July 1840, by Rev. Henry Worcester,
a New Church clergj-man of Hallowell.

In 1847, they moved into the home on Court St., in Bangor,
where they lived for the rest of their lives and where the un-
married daughters lived until 1917 when there was only one
left.

The life of my parents together continued for nearly sixty-
one years, they having celebrated by gatherings of friends,
both the silver and golden wedding anniversaries.

My mother died after a lingering illness of four years.

A little son was born to them but did not stay, but four
daughters came to form a quiet and happy home.

As an invalid her life was lived almost wholly within the
four walls of the house and in- thg'gafdAi, secluded from public
gaze by hedges and trees. She lived for us, thought and
worked for us far beyond her strength, was ever a companion
in our pleasures and interests as well as . a guide in our edu-
cation and in our higher life. The plans for us were hers, but
the father was ever ready to help in their execution,
^"f To my father's love and appreciation for the good in liter-
ature, she added a great love for art and music, being herself
a proficient pianist.

Ever Listening

by ]VL\RY J. Paine

Listening, listening, ever listening

For the quiet breathing near;
For the gentle Voice saying
" I am here."

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We have the letters written by father and mother to each
other before their marriage in 1840. While there are many
interesting bits of family news and happenings, the bulk of
the letters is made up of an interchange of thought given them
by the new religious teachings that had come into the lives of
both of them, to father first. I give some extracts from the
long, closely written four-page letters. The first one written
by Mary Hale to Albert Paine, was in April, 18.S9, about five
months before their engagement. This begins —

Foxcroft.

Mh. Paine, — It is a sweet hour in which to begin a cor-
respondence, the sun of the natural world has just illumined
my pen with his mild and clear light e'er he departed for the
night. Not the smallest shadowy cloud intercepted his rays,
and may we not hope that the sun of the spiritual world will
shine upon the interchange of thought and feeling and will give
light and heat from his own pure source?

And now as I look from the window one bright star comes
forth, it speaks and it says, the sun has but left us to darkness,
to appear more bright and gloriously in the morning, but I
must stop for my natural eyes want natural light. An artificial
light is provided and I will now tell you how very much obliged
I am for your prompt compliance with my wishes in sending
the books, few things and perhaps nothing besides could have
given me so much pleasure. . . .

Mary J. Hale.

[no address] Sebec, June 9th, 1839

I will devote a part of the afternoon in writing to you.

I do not think it will be desecrating the Sabbath and I am quite

sure it will be of more use to me than to attend the meeting here.

I suppose you will be surprised to receive a letter from me dated

at Sebec. I have taken a school here, and I am very happy

in endeavoring to perform the duties of it.

Is not the Providence of God a delightful subject on which

we may dwell? It seems strange that we can ever repine, ever

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be unhappy, while the Lord watches over us, a Being infinite
in love, in wisdom. From childhood, I have seen that what
were considered afflictions, were real blessings and am quite
sure that I have been thought either heartless or "very nervous"
when I have almost rejoiced at those things about which so
many mourned. Please excuse me for saying so much about
myself, I should not presume to do so were you not of the N.
Chh. It is a pleasure to be able to express my feelings and
I fear I shall weary you. The truth is that here all that I love
most is as a sealed book and it is very much so in Foxcroft
except to Miss Everett. I feel that were I to express my own
peculiar ideas here, at present, they would be profaned and
it seemed to me a week since that I could not remain another
day in this place. I am quite surrounded with strong Ortho-
doxy, board in the family with the minister, they do not realize
yet, how widely I differ from them, but they will soon feel it
more, for I was on the point of telling Mr. Sewall, the minister,
today, that he might take away my sabbath school class for
I could not teach them what he wished to be taught from their
lesson. I did not tell him today, but expect I shall be obliged
to soon, and I only dread the argument he will want to have.

I said the Providence of God was a peculiarly delightful
subject to me but I am not reconciled to being so alone, it seems
as if I could not breathe freely. I am like a child whose parents
have found it necessary to place in confinement, he cries and
knocks about to get release but when he finds his feeble efforts
of no avail, he sits down quietly and waits until his parent shall
think it proper to open the door. So I think it is, and will be
with me. I am very sure that I shall be permitted to inhale
the pure air of Heaven just so soon as my kind Parent sees
that it is best for me. Strange then thinking so, that I should
be in the least disposed to repine. I am not willing to wait
but I expect to be before long. Thank you for mentioning
your sister Harriet, I love to hear about her. The doctrines of

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the N Chh are certainly full of consolation to those who mourn
for departed friends.

M. J. Hale.

Foxcrnfi, April lOtli ISJ/O.

My dear Friend. ... I have been thinking today and
in fact I have frequently thought of it before, how little I have
ever thought of your external. I have sometimes endeavoured
to remember hoio you looked, to bring your jjerson before my
mind, but I have scarcely ever been able to do this with any
tolerable degree of distinctness. When it has seemed to me
that I could .see clcurly the internal and spiritual man, I have
hardly known a feature of your face. Perhaps this arises
in -part from our having written so much and seen each other
so little, but whatever the cause, I would not have it otherwise.

I did commence the Psalms at the time I propo.sed and I
hoped you were pursuing the same order, though I was not
sure, of this until the reception of your last letter, it is pleasant
to think you arc reading the same portion with myself. Last
evening I read the sixteenth Psalm, did you?

Mary.

From Albert W . Paine to Mary J. Hale

Bangor, Me. 15 July, 1839
... I am glad to hear that you enjoy yourself as well as
you do in your present situation for I can not help thinking
it a very lonesome one — to one thoroughly imbued with
NChh. doctrines, no one can be lonesome in this world. And
this, I have often thought, is a consideration which of itself is
worth a world of fortunes for one's earthly happiness. How
completely do these doctrines, if really received in their true
spirit, dispell all feelings of disquietude, anxiety and care and
make one contented with his lot whatever it may be. On the
one hand the believer is fully assured that he is under the
special guidance and protection of a holy and all wise God
not subject to the fluctuations and accidents of blind fate

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and that whatever happens to him, if he is in order himself,
is for his good; and on tlie other liand he is continually con-
firmed in the pleasing and consoling belief that however he may
be in respect to worldly friends and companions, he is still
surrounded with a higher and holier order of beings and exist-
ence. Now under such a belief, do accidents and mishaps
(as they appear externally) assume the character of good
and wise providence. It is however, important for us in order
to a proper reception of the divine influences to give ourselves
up to a proper state of instruction and guidance and make
u.se of all those means which are given us in the word and in
nature, to introduce us into a state of orderly reception and
action. We are not to sit listlessly down and say the Lord
reigneth, and he will guide us aright. We are to enlighten
our consciences and minds by all those aids given us. I cannot
help believing that I every day become more and more con-
firmed in the internal belief that we are under such a special
providence in all things and that we have no need of de-
spondency and gloom or discontent and uneasiness in relation
to our worldly state and condition — I think I become con-
tinually more fully convinced that things do go right and that
we shall be provided for not only according to our deserts but
far above them. And is it necessary to say that entertaining
such a belief I think I daily grow more happy and enjoy the
world the more. A. W. P.

Bangor, Febij 25 181,0
My dear Friend, Our Court has today blown its last blast
and we are again at liberty. Our school is dismissed and we
are beginning to enjoy the pleasures of another vacation.
On the whole, however, I have enjoyed this Court much and
have found little to regret or to complain of in its progress
towards adjournment. I have got along much better than I
feared and with all success and good luck that I could have

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asked for. The practice of law in Court is becoming every
term more and more pleasant and at the same time less per-
plexing and troublesome. And need I say that this becomes
so in proportion as the rules of law and practice are made
subservient to the true rules of order by which we should be
governed. The whole world is strangely out of joint and
disordered and no where is the disease more evident than
in the practice of law and in the disclosures to which it
leads. It is then a noble place to exercise ones ingenuity as
well as honesty in putting these rules into active practice and
due execution.

Your Albert.

Bangor, May 28, 18W
My dear Friend.

I have just returned from a lovely evening walk which I
have been taking all alone thro the beautiful field. The
delightful character of the weather, together with all the
beauties of nature which are now put forth in the greatest
splendor, renders a ramble at such a time as this, one of peculiar
interest and value. How can one help feeling himself elevated
towards a communion with Him who is the author of what is
everywhere meeting him, when he goes abroad on such a lovely
day and how can his soul fail to receive a kindly influence of
light and love as he breathes in the refreshing and enlivening
air of the pure heaven about him? The man must be bad
indeed who, on such an evening as this, does not feel himself
spiritually better for the natural influences around him.

Albert.

[It was always father's custom to take a late Sunday after-
noon walk.]

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SELMA WARE PAINE

My sister Selma Ware Paine died in the winter of 1917,
after a short illness. She had great strength of intellect and
an unusually keen appreciation of all that was beautiful in
the world of nature, art, music and literature. Hers was a
gifted nature, one of rare beauty of character with the spiritual
side predominant.

■ I have written much of father's interest in the New-Church
teachings. With him these were a matter of intellect, a sure
belief, and his whole life was guided by them. With her,
these teachings became spiritualized and she breathed them in
her poems and in her life. She never allowed her very frail
body to limit her service for others. Her own happiness
depended upon her ability to .show .some delicate attention to
others, especially to tho.se in sorrow and sickness, as well as
to those in health and happiness.

Could I select one word that would represent the strongest
element in her character it would be loyalty. She was loyal
to things, loyal to friends, loyal to her home, loyal to her family
and above all loyal to her church, but her keenness of appre-
ciation for all that was beautiful must be emphasized.

When a mere child she began expressing herself in rhyme
and was called u])on to write ver.ses for many a celebration,
public and private, and never a family festival but brought
with it offerings from her pen.

She passed nearly three years in Europe, studying music
and the languages, afterwards adding to the latter during her
life at home. She was one of the first to feel the power of
Peer Gynt and to translate parts of it from the Danish. One
of her latest treasures was a small, quaintly illustrated Bible
written for our Penobscot Indians in their own language. Of
this she made a very careful study.

Perhaps her greatest delight was in the study of Dante and
this delight she shared with others, for she was an inspiring
teacher to her friends, giving them many new thoughts by her
interpretations of the Divine Comedy. "Terza Rima" shows
her study of the construction of this work. For finish she
considered it her best poem.

In 1907 we published a small volume of her poems "Fugitive
Verses. "

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POEMS
TERZA RIMA

Thou, Terza Rima, never art completed.
No circled sonnet thou, in one compounding
Thy sense and music duly mixed and meted,

Within itself, itself so sweetly rounding.
Thou rather art a jeweled chain. Behind thee
Thou ever, though in concord so abounding,

Dost leave a waiting link of rhyme to bind thee;
And whereso'er thy lovely way may wander,
Before, there waits another link to find thee.

O, Terza Rima, happily I ponder

How truly thus our tale of life thou chimest
It, too, awaits completed rhyming yonder

As time into eternity thou rhymest.

RONDEL

Translation from "De Charles D'Orleans"

The weather now has laid aside
Its coat of wind and cold and rain;
Has clothed itself with robes again
Embroidered and in sunshine dyed.
No beast or bird that has not tried
In its own tongue to sing or plain;
The weather now has laid aside
Its coat of wind and cold and rain.
The fountain, brook and river wide
To wear a livery are fain
Of silver drops and jewelled train.
Each man in new attire has vied.
The weather now has laid aside
Its coat of wind and cold and rain.

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TO THE WOOD PEWEE

{Who began to sing his Autumn song in June.)
Oh, gentle prophet of the year's dedine.

Why mark so soon the shortening of the days?

The blooming Summer yet has maiden ways
And, see, her cheek is roseleaf, fair and fine.
Her breath is fragrant with the flowering vine,

Her voice is full and firm with chorused lays.

Why then your sweet untimely warning raise,
Your autumn strain with summer song combine?
And yet an added harmony you bring.

There is a message in your inu.sic laid.

Could summer song its full perfection reach
Without a tone from Autumn and from Spring?

Of present, past and future, life is made
And what is perfect has a touch of each.

SWEET PEA
As if you were only alight.
With pinions of pink and of white
Outspread for aerial flight,

Sweet Pea !
As if, when you found you were tied
And freedom to fly was denied,
Your longing in fragrance you sighed

To be free.
Yet always alert for a spring
And buoyant with hope that a swing
At last might unloosen your wing.

Sweet Pea.
And such was a life that I knew;
As longing and buoyant it grew,
As fettered and fragrant as you.

Sweet Pea!

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AN EVENING FANCY

When heaven holds Orion forth
No belted hunter it appears;

It is an instrument of light

That leads the music of the spheres.

From Rigel to Betelgeuse strung
Across the gleaming central three,

My fancy draws the shining chords
Too far away for us to see.

And thence the sweetest numbers swell
That tune the circling nights and years.

But all too grand the mighty strain
To enter in at mortal ears.

OLD BOOKS

A thresher prime is father Time,
When harvest loads his wain

He beats the hollow husks aside.
And hoards the golden grain.

A winnower is father Time,

The chaff he blows away.
The sweetened seed he treasures up

For many a year and day.

Oh, very wise is father Time,

His flail is tried and true!
I love the garnered pile of books

He's winnowed through and through.

SELMA WARE PAINE 283

TO A VERY HAPPY CHILD

Oh, happy baby boy.

In verse could you express
One half your perfect joy.

Your radiant happiness,
All poems ever made

By any bard of old
Beside that verse of yours

Would be but poor and cold.

Oh, happy baby boy,

If you could put in songs
One half the perfect joy

That to your smile belongs,
The masters of the world,

From Palestrina down
Would to your melodies

Award the victor's crown.

Could singer take a draft

From out that well of joy
You drink from every day.

Oh, happy little boy.
And could he, also, be

Endued with highest power
To sing it truly — then —

Aye, in that very hour
The listening world would lie.

Enraptured, at his feet.
Holding breath to hear

A strain so heavenly sweet.

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RANDOM THOUGHTS

The body's role;
To ser\e the soul.
If it usurp and master -
■SMiat disaster:

If the soil of the sou] is fallow and fit.
The suitable seed will be wafted to it.

A grief did Youth }>etide.

He rent his garments, weeping sore
And laid him in the dust and cried

" I never shall l>e happy more."

A sorrow came to .\ge,

He slowly bowed his stricken head
As do the winds when temi>est rage,

"This, too, will pass away," he said.

•JUST EXOrOH

Between Too Little and Too Much
Just Enough suspended swings

If we give it Vjut a touch
Lightly backward, forward springs.

Yet, undaunted by rebuff,
Hop)e is always trj'ing still
To catch and hold the Just Enough
And believes at last she will.

SELMA WARE PAINE 2S5

SQUIBS
THE DIFFERENCE

Tbere was a man, there was a man

Who hated meddling so.
He saw his neighbor's house burn down.
And closer drew his dressing gown

Ar.a 'et the building go.

There was a man. there was a man

Who always lent a hand.
WhateV.r his neighbor did. he'd try
To have a finger in the pie.

They drove him from the land.

An old Diogenes remarked

The differenoe to hit
Twixt meddling when you do no good
And bravely helping when you should.

Requires a pretty wit.

THE TE.\SIXG TYR.A.NT

I cannot clip the wings of fancy.

So she flutters where she will;
Brings me tales of fair Elysium,

And I listen, listen still.

Till my soul arises; "Fancy,

Wli.^t you tell me is not true."
"I never said it wa*," she chuckles,

And is off to pastures new.

She will come again, — I know her, —

Sweetly l\-ing a* before.
And my soul will sit and scorn me

Wliile I listen as of yore.

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LIGHTNESS OF HEART

Lightness of Heart! Lightness of Heart!
^^'hy have you left me, Lightness of Heart?
In the morning of Ufe we were seldom apart,
You and I, Lightness of Heart.
But now I must call you and bid you to stay,
And often I call when you do not obey.
Why do you leave me. Lightness of Heart.'

Then Lightness of Heart, pirouetting, replies;

"I am merrj' and thoughtless. I cannot abide

The dull afternoon and the evening tide

With its thronging of thoughts for the future and past^

With its loving and longing for all that will last.

There's a Gladness of Spirit, serene and more wise,

Who is friendly to sunset and stars in the skies;

I am fair, but they say she is fairer than I.

Call her. I dance to the sunrise. Good-bye."

"Oh, Lightness of Heart!" — I sigh —

And turn to the beautiful sunset. "Good-bve."

PART VI. ELIMWGOD. TIMOTHY OTIS
AND AGNES HOWARD PAINE

Chapter One The Home

The Mother
Chapter Two The Pastor

A Sermon
Chapter Three The Scholar
Chapter Four The Poet

Chapter Five Extracts from Journal and Letters
Chapter Six Poems of the Segur.

Illustrations

Timothy Otis Paine at 38.

Agnes Howard (Paine) at 22, from daguerreotype

The Temple, from drawing by T. O. P.

To the Chickadee, from manuscript of T. O. P., facsimile.

THE ^'•i''"'' '■'^^'^

pUBLlcllBRARY

• ASTOP, LENOX

INTRODUCTORY

For Ihe interpretation of my father's inner cliaracter, liis
interests and his aims, we have the Journal written in his
youth. For that of his brother Timothy, "My Fourth Son,"
we have tlie Journals of his mother. From the pages of these,
we can picture tlie details of his inner and of his outer life,
from birth to the age of twenty-seven. There seems to be a
particularly close bond between the mother and this son.
In 1824 his birth is recorded, the only one of the eight. "In
October we were blessed with a beautiful Son in addition
to my other three."

She gives us glimpses of him in his studies, in the beginnings
of Hebrew. We see him in his social life, in his rambles through
the fields in search of precious things; we see him at work on
his portraits of man and animal. We see the rose in his cham-
ber window. We have many glimpses into his poetical nature.
Then we find recorded in 1843, "This is the first Sabbath that
Timothy has spent in the service of God." The one longing
of her heart that her "sons might be converted and redeemed
from sin" was realized in him. Later in 1851 she rejoices in
his entrance into the New-Church, and although the special
theology does not follow in the lines of hers, still she is happy.

Very interesting letters passed between my sister Selma and
my uncle Timothy. After his death she sent a few extracts
from them to Rev. Theodore F. Wright, President of the New-
Church Theological School at Cambridge. These he published
in the New-Church Messenger with an introduction of his own.
As this introduction shows such an appreciative recognition
of the character of Uncle Timothy's varied genius, I place it
first in this, his part.

Rev. T. O. Paine, LL.D., was a man of marked genius.
Those who remember his intensely bright eyes and the quick-
ness of his thoughts and actions will class him among the few
people whom they have known to whom the term "genius"
seems applicable. From his eager, impressionable boyhood
all the way through his long and honored life, he was unlike
the average man. His mind seemed always to leap to its

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conclusions. While others were laboriously studying obscure
inscriptions, for instance, he was at once informed of their
meaning. It may not be known to our readers that he began
life as a sculptor, but such was the fact. He was always deeply
interested in ancient languages, and was at home in several
of them. He chose Hebrew at first, he once said, because no
one seemed to care for it, and he felt that he might make
the study of it useful to others. When the doctrines of the
New-Church came to his knowledge, they met his every want,
and his active mind rejoiced in them as affording him constant
instruction. He was especially fond of selecting from Sweden-
borg sentences of great significance and of repeating them
wherever he went. The power of a passage seemed to pene-
trate every fibre of his being, and he could scarcely sit still
and speak calmly about it.

When his mind was attracted to the study of the sacred
structures, the ark and the temple, he found what was for
him an ideal object of study. He possessed remarkable ac-
curacy as a draughtsman, and in making drawings of the
buildings, used measures of the utmost nicety. He may be
said to have been more powerful with his pencil than with his
pen, for his drawings never left the student in doubt as to the
least particular of his meaning, while his conciseness in writing
sometimes obscured his meaning, to less perceptive minds.

He spent more than thirty years as the pastor of a rural
congregation, preaching on Sundays all the year and sending
forth his sympathy to every one who needed it. He loved his
people, and they loved him. Toward them he was never
censorious, and they did not stoop to criticise the eccentricities
of genius, but viewed with proper pride his eminence in his
chosen studies.

It was not of the order of Dr. Paine's mind to make long
arguments. It may be said without disrespect that he could
not do so. His thoughts came forth like flashes of light. His

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first words contained the gist of what followed. To his in-
tuition truth presented itself immediately, and without a
long process of induction. His sermons therefore often con-
tained sentences of marked significance, and they were always
brief and pointed.

How strongly his affections were fixed upon his family and
flock was well known to all, and his kindliness was never known
to fail. He loved to write little notes of friendship and to
put in one pearl of thought, as may be seen in the extracts
sent by a near relative and constant correspondent, in the
belief that they might serve in some degree to give to others
a share in his swift and incisive utterances.

T. F. Wright.

CHAPTER ONE

THE HOME

1859-1864

These Glimpses into the Home, into the life of the Mother
and of the Father as Pastor, as well as the two short sketches
of the Artist and the Student, were written at my request
by the oldest daughter, Edith Paine Benedict.

It may seem strange to judge a man by the recollections
of his little child, but I have always felt that I knew my father
better during the first seven years of my life than through the
years that followed.

My mother was a beautiful princess — a fairy queen — a
wise and true counselor who was always right. He had taught
me to see her with his eyes.

He himself was but a faulty human being. His judgments
were hasty and must often be forgiven but mother lived so
close to our Heavenly Father that she always knew the truth.
All this came to me through childish intuition from his mind.

Father almost never admitted that he had judged hastily.
He never apologized to us in words. It was his aim to be for
us a true guide and a noble example but he was very temper-
amental. His voice was like sweet music. So was mother's.
Loud high tones caused him almost physical pain. So when
he was disturbed by sounds of childish altercation the child
with the loudest and most insistent tones and who uttered the
most picturesque denunciations was the one instinctively
pounced upon and sternly rebuked. That child was almost
always myself. As a matter of fact I was often in the right.
I loved my little brother far too well to be mean or selfish to
him. Mother always understood and with a few gentle words

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would lead Howard to stop teasing me or to play nicely.
Then father would come through the room again and lay his
hand on my head with the words "Edie is a good little girl."
I was not at all flattered, but I was instantly comforted. I
knew that I was not a good little girl. Father only meant
that he was sorry.

My earliest memory reaches back to the summer of 1859
when I was twenty-six months old. Mother has told me that
then occurred my only sickness.

I lay in father's arms by the open window in our sitting
room. It was in the night and the room was almost dark.
He offered me milk from a tin cup but I could take but one
sip for I was very sick, although I did not know it. I only
knew that father's arms felt much better than my crib and that
I did not like to be alone.

After a time his eyes closed and his head fell forward, then
he opened them with a start. This happened several times
till the thought came to me (though perhaps not in words),
"Father wants to go to bed and go to sleep." Then I thought
that I would close my eyes and pretend to be asleep so that he
would lay me down. Next I wondered if it would be wrong
and whether it were better to pretend, so that Father could
go to bed, or to keep my eyes open for the mere sake of being
honest. Probably kind nature settled the question by bringing
real sleep.

Do parents of the present day succeed in awakening con-
science at such an early age? Perhaps so — I have never been
sure, but mine surely taught us when mere babies that our
loving Heavenly Father watched over us at all times and that
the one thing He cared most about is that we should do what
is right.

Our home was in the little village of Elmwood which was
then called Joppa, my father being the pastor of the single
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stood quite closely along the shaded streets, each with its
neat door yard in front and apple trees in the rear. In those
days each yard was surrounded by a substantial fence and
entered through a latched gate. Ours, however, had also
a graveled driveway and a small piazza. There were four or
five large, square houses whose yards were bordered with
hedges of evergreen. There were several families of culture
and refinement whose homes breathed the air of other-world-
liness common to New Church households of that generation
but there was absolutely no aristocracy in the little village.
We were all taught from infancy to feel respect and considera-
tion for everyone. Character was the only criterion, and even
that was not rigidly applied. We never heard sharp or unkind
criticism of any kind. Riches and poverty were terras found
only in books. The words meant nothing to us. Intemper-
ance was probably very common in the village but was almost
never forced upon our notice.

Our home was a refuge and fortress. No one ever entered
its door without knocking. Callers were to be expected only
between the hours of three and five. Nothing interrupted
the regularity of our lives.

We were out of doors at six o'clock each morning, our glad
new day begun. We played almost without hindrance or
obstruction all the long forenoon. The neighbor's children
came over freely and we never stopped to wonder why we
so seldom returned their visits. Neither were we conscious
of the study window which overlooked our garden and play-
ground, except to be vaguely glad that father was so near.
Our yard was the best in the village and all the children knew
it. The man who brought our wood was given extra money
to unload it in such a way as to make a safe, strong pile in the
yard which might serve us as a mountain, a ship, or a fort at
will. We might set our little ladder at the foot of the apple
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allowed to run about on the woodshed roof, for a ladder stood
always ready. We might make mud cakes with plantain seeds
for raisins and our collection of broken crockery was respected.

After dinner there was another nice long play. My mother
has often told me that she never in her life heard a child of
hers ask "what shall I do?" I cannot remember a day of my
life that was long enough for the things I had planned.

But at three o'clock came the inevitable washing and brush-
ing and "getting ready" for afternoon. My dark print was
changed for a light French calico with tiny flowers dotted over
it and I sat in my little blue round-about chair and learned my
lessons and did my stint of sewing — never patchwork but
some useful garment — for my doll or baby sister, while Howard
whittled with his jackknife which he was allowed to do at the
age of four or five.

Our sitting room had a little fireplace down whose chimney
Santa Claus used to come on Christmas night and a closet in
which our toys were kept, for the room was our only nursery.
Three times a day we put our playthings back in the closet
and Bridget moved out the table (under which on rainy days
and afternoons we always played), removed its woolen cover,
replaced it with one of white damask and the place became a
dining room. A blind staircase led to father's study, a pleasant
east chamber with sloping walls. It was a treat to visit the
little place for the window was filled with choice flowering
plants, the homes of the fairies. One lived in the little monthly
rose bush, another in the tiny orange tree. Under the window,
in our back yard was a tiny box-bordered garden, filled with
polyanthus, ladies delights and all old fashioned posies. This
looked much more beautiful when seen from above. So did
the wood pile and the orchard. Near the garden stood an
arbor covered with jessamine which had been built for mother
and in which she sat for hours on summer days while father
read aloud from beautiful books. We children seldom listened

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to the reading but we loved to watch our mother's face while
father read. It was very good fun to read to mother for she
always laughed delightedly at all the funny parts and was
breathlessly excited in the tragic places, deeply serious, with
tears in her eyes when the book called them forth. And so we
knew long before we could read for ourselves that the world
of books is real and wonderful.

For years mother had not been able to use her eyes for
reading or sewing but her father had read aloud to her for
hours each day and she had been accustomed from childhood
to commit to memory beautiful poems. These she repeated
to us in her low sweet voice while I was busy with my daily
sewing. Some of the poems were only little rhymes and songs
for childhood and all through the day there were delightful bits
of Mother Goose, but the regular sewing hour was usually made
wonderful by the magic pictures from Marmion, Lady of the
Lake, The Prisoner of Chilian or best of all Young Lochinvar.

Father was likely at any time to come down from his study
and give us whatever was in his own mind at the time. It
might be the grand Bible poetry, like the Song of Deborah
or quite often half a dozen verses from Tarn O'Shanter or a
scrap from Wordsworth or a grand strain from Homer in the
Greek which he would translate for us afterward. We were
familiar with Ulysses and his wanderings as well as with Robin-
son Crusoe and the Arabian Nights.

Father always took us seriously. He respected our individu-
alities. We were never forced to make embarrassing confes-
sions or exploited for the entertainment of friends and our
property rights were held as sacred as those of our grown-up
neighbors. If father had taken one of my books or toys with-
out permission I am sure that I would have been surprised and
yet he felt that he had a perfect right before presenting us with a
book to paste together a pair of leaves, blot out a probably most
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never knew that our favourite book of verse contained a pic-
ture of a heathen woman casting her plump baby to the croco-
diles or that another showed a cat with a bird in her mouth.

When we were very tiny it was father who saw to it that we
were out of doors on a part of each fine day.

We had a sled called Reindeer upon which he tied us wrapped
in warm quilts and took us for delightful rides and coasts.
Or he would sink a tub in the snow of the back yard, put a
bit of carpet in the bottom and give us each a big iron spoon
with which we could dig in the beautiful snow until hands
and feet were chilled. Then he would patiently take us into
the house, warm our feet by the cheery fireplace and let us go
out again and again.

In warm weather there were v,'onderful walks with father
in the woods and fields by "Apple Tree Pond" over "Moss
Hill" and by "Cleft Rock" to "Rocking Horse Woods."
The other names were father's but this last was given by How-
ard after he had climbed a fallen tree, shaped roughly like
a horse with lifted head and found that it would rock most
wonderfully. In warm summer weather mother came too and
sat in some charming spot while father and we children wan-
dered in search of treasures to bring to her.

During these early years mother was so delicate and weak
in body that I have often seen her faint away. But for her
husband's loving care she might have been an invalid or would
have died leaving us still tiny children. But he realized that
freed from household toil, she had strength to be a perfect
wife and mother. So there was always Bridget in the kitchen,
an adoring and faithful Bridget whose love and respect for her
kind, cheery, happy-hearted mistress knew no bounds.

By the time that I was ten years old mother had grown so
strong she could "do her own work " like the other village ladies-

I cannot remember the time when father's home in Winslow
did not seem real to us. We visited it when I was barely four

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years old and Howard less than three and father would never
let us forget it. Clover Brook with its tiny fishes which we had
fed with crumbs of bread, the little room in which he had slept
throughout his boyhood, the beautiful rolling hills where grew
wild strawberries were often in our thoughts. The many
little poems he wrote about them were often recited at first
to his own little children. I think now that the spirit of our
grandmother was never far away.

Heaven was very near us for it was there that our baby
sister Miriam lived. I remember the day when father took me
on his knee and told me that the angels were upstairs in the
spare room taking little Miriam to live with them in Heaven.
I wanted to run upstairs and see the angels but he held me close
and told about the beautiful place called Heaven with its
flowers and lambs and its other little babies. We had loved
to hold our faces close and let baby sister stroke our cheeks so
I asked, "Will Minnie's pats be very gentle on the little Heaven
children?" Father shed no tears for Miriam; he thought it
would be wrong. It would have been better for my mother
if she might have wept, but she never did, even when we
talked about the baby, as we did every day. I never forgot
her and she never .seemed far away.

When I was seven years old we moved to a hou.se shut in
closely behind the church and divided from the woods and
fields by .several village streets. My brother Howard played
almost wholly with the village boys who in those days scorned
to play with girls. The next year he began at his urgent re-
quest to go to school. After a lonely heartbroken year I
followed him, a sober little citizen of the workaday world, —
no longer a dweller in Paradise.

For the younger children the new home was the only one and
father gave it a beauty of its own with flowers, fruits and
grapevines. It was the birthplace of Bertha and Herbert.

E. P. B.

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The Artist

There may be no one now living who can tell about father's
artist days, he avoided the subject. It was not because it was
a time of poverty — he would not have minded that if it had
not been also a time of disillusions. He told me once that he
found nearly all the youn<j artists whom he met were corrupt
in their lives and in their imaginations and that he concluded
that the moral influence of the study of art could not be good
and so burned all his beautiful drawings which had been stud-
ies from classic sculpture, and decided to enter the ministry.
But his reverence for the work of great artists nuist have re-
mained with him intact, for he .several times during my child-
hood took me with him to the Athenaeum where he often
went to study and while at work he let me wander freely among
the plaster casts and marbles which then had their home on
Beacon Hill.

He probably saw by my rapt expression that they taught
me nothing but good and he would sometimes come and give
me a few words of explanation, the story of Laocoon, the
legend of Romulus and Remus. He would call my attention
to the beautiful lines of a crouching figure. I am afraid he
felt afterwards that it had been wasted time for I could not
put what I felt into words and yet the memory of those
times has been priceless. They comprise almost all the art-
instruction that I ever had but have been sufficient to lead
me to love only the best in art. I never filled my house with
monstrosities even in the awful "eighties."

E. P. B.

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The Student

I have always heard my father say that during the civil
war, he had had no heart to study. That was the reason he
spent so much time educating his children. That was why he
chiseled inscriptions on rocks and wrote so many poems and
studied literature. All these things were as a relief from the
strain of preparing each week a sermon which would help
the suffering parents of the village during those cruel years.

After the war was over and his children were established in
the public schools, he gave more and more time to study and
research. Every year he bought expensive books. He had
a table and steel rulers made to order for the drawings. He
often arose at four o'clock and had two hours work in his study
before the family life had begun. On such days, he would
come to breakfast filled with enthusiasm for his latest discovery
or achievement. He always believed that what he was doing
was of great importance and we all took it for granted that it
must be so, and yet I fear, he had but little satisfying sympathy
except from mother.

I was married at the age of twenty-one and in all the years
that followed, my home visits were infrequent and my little
children always tlie center of attraction. That is why I wanted
to leave this chapter to Bertha who lived with him until she
was twenty-nine years old, when the family was small and
father found his household more at leisure to listen appreci-
atively to his discoveries and to his poems.

E. P. B.

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Agnes Howard, The Mother

Father was married on his thirty-second birthday, Oct. 14,
1856. The officiating minister was my grandfather, Adonis
Howard. His wife had died early in their married life, leaving
him two children, Agnes, aged three, and Herbert, two years
younger. When the following year little Herbert followed his
mother, Grandfather was for a long time a brokenhearted man.
He felt that he could not live many years and so gave up the
study of medicine and became a New Church Minister. My
mother was a little Boston heiress, as fortunes were considered
in those days. Her maternal grandfather had left her fifty
thousand dollars. Adonis Howard would not touch a cent of
this money for himself and preached in a little country church,
but he boarded little Agnes in one of the good New Church
families on Beacon Hill and sent her to the excellent New
Church school there. Rev. James Reed was her schoolmate
for the last few years of lier stay, being about three years old
when he entered it.

Her first home was in Myrtle Street. Agnes was brought up
with a strictness that seems to us like severity. She was a
merry little creature bubbling over with fun and mischief.
Once at the age of four or five she cut off her eyebrows and
lashes (which she could ill spare), and was condemned to eat all
her meals in soHtude until they grew again. This seemed to
her an endless time for she was a sociable little creature. One
morning when she was eating her solitary breakfast, Mr.
Harrington Carter came into the dining room on purpose to
see her. He had a big breezy, cheery way with him and he
had in his hand a little pile of "gift books" made for children.
They had gay little covers of shiny paper, all different and he
scattered them in a rich shower over the table cloth. The

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little tot already knew how to read and the fairy gift taught
her what a refuge and delight books may be.

She lived a part of the time on Mt. Vernon Street and once
in Louisburg Square. Best of all for several summers with her
grandmother Holman in Joy Street.

In summer she had delightful vacations with her aunt,
Mrs. Whiting, in East Bridgewater or with Deacon William
Harris in the same town.

She often saw her father and had a most adoring love for
him, but as he was very deaf and somewhat absent minded and
also perhaps rather afraid of growing too much attached to her,
he noticed her so little that she grew to fancy that he did not
love her. Her dearest wish was that he should marry again
and live in a little white cottage with green blinds and that she
should have "ever so many little brothers and sisters."

She clung to the liope that when she was sixteen he
would let her keep house for him, but he preferred always
to board.

When she was sixteen she spent a year or two in Gardner,
Maine, and while there taught the little village school. I am
quite sure that her father lived with her at the time and boarded
at the same place. At any rate there was a N. C. convention
there, when she was seventeen, and it was there that she first
met father. She had recently had her head shaved, in the
hope of making her hair thicker and it had grown out in childish
little curls all over her head.

Father thought her the most beautiful and wonderful little
creature in the whole world. As for her, alas ! she saw nothing
interesting in the bashful country boy of nineteen and when
his ho.stess asked her to walk in the garden and try to entertain
him, it seemed a heavy task. She must have managed very
well for she was a graceful little lady with simple manners and
a kind heart. She admitted after the interview that he seemed
a very good boy but I'm afraid she forgot all about him. But

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A?TOR. LENOX

AGNES HOWARD, THE MOTHER ;]()3

as for poor Timothy the vision never left him. He clung to
it through twelve discouraging years. When mother lost
nearly all of her property through the treachery of her Grand-
father's partner, the matter was of no interest to him, her
lover. When her eyes failed, so that she lived for a year in a
dark room, he must have been filled with grief and sympathy
for her sake but was only the more anxious to make her his
wife. One could hardly blame her father for standing guard
over his poor afflicted child. They were then boarding together
in a delightful and congenial home, that of her Uncle, Oliver
Holman, in Medford. His wife Charlotte was more like a
big sister than an aunt to Agnes and the four sweet little
children were like brothers and sisters

Other people have told me tliat mother had very many
suitors, some of them exceedingly eligible, and Grandfather
must have chosen that if she were to leave him at all it would
better be to go to a comfortable and well-appointed home
such as she had all her life enjoyed. Her rare visits from the
shabby artist, T. O. P., were met with little favor and the
touching poems which he sometimes sent to her either directly
or through some friend did not appeal to the mind of the
future father-in-law, although they finally began to affect the
lady for whom they were written. After six years she was
sure that she loved him very much, but she had so much
respect for her father's judgment and felt herself such a
very poor bargain either for a rising young artist or later
for a young country minister, that the lovers were separated
for six years more.

One summer they all met very often in the country, for
Mr. Paine had accepted a call to Joppa Village and Mr. Whit-
ing's home was only two miles distant.

One day when father was leaving, he asked an important
question which mother answered with "Perhaps" and Grand-
father remarked "a great deal may be included in that word,

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perhaps." Father instantly understood that the paternal
blessing was ready to be had for the asking. In less than an
hour the lovers were engaged. In six months more they were
married and Grandfather could hardly have loved his own
son Herbert more than he loved his son Timothy during the
rest of his life. In fact he regretted very bitterly that he had
made him wait so long. Yet mother always felt that it had
been for the best.

E. P. B.

CHAPTER TWO
THE PASTOR

Father's day began early — often at sunrise on a Summer
morning and he remained in his study ahnost constantly
till midday. But after a little doze on his study lounge, he
usually spent a part of each afternoon in making short neigh-
borly calls among the village homes.

I do not think that he thought of these as "pastoral calls."
He went because he loved to go. He felt the need of com-
panionship. He was interested in every life that was lived in
Elmwood and was helpful in a thousand little ways. He would
offer to regulate a clock that would not go or to adjust a stove
pipe that leaked. But the topics that he chose for conver-
sation were seldom of commonplace things. He never dwelt
on sordid cares. His own life was lifted above such things and
he took it for granted that his neighbors would rather speak
of the things of the Spirit or hear some new truth that he had
discovered in his study. All of his own gaining was for the
sake of giving.

Perhaps few pastors would assume that feeble Mrs. Blank
who had spent all the morning over her kitchen stove and
whose afternoon was devoted to mending, whose whole life
had been lived in that little village and whose only education
had been gained in its small school, would enjoy a new trans-
lation of an old Egyptian prayer, or an interpretation of a
chapter in Ezekiel. But father was right. She did enjoy it.
It gave her something new to think about. His language was
so simple that she felt that she understood it all and had a
delightful sense of being not as ignorant as she had supposed
herself to be.

Father's voice! Father's eyes! His was a presence good

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to remember! Perhaps even if he had spoken in Hebrew or
in Syriac his visits would have brought a measure of blessing.

He never called the villagers his people — as if they belonged
to him. He felt rather that he belonged to them. We chil-
dren felt in no way distinguished by being in the minister's
family, but we knew that for Father's and Mother's sakes
everyone was very kind to us.

Father's democratic spirit carried him to extremes. He
found something to admire in every one and would never
allow a word of unkind criticism in his presence.

When I was quite a small child I heard a man severely
rating an ab.sent neighbor as a "miserable shiftless drunkard"
(doubtless a true bill) but Father's resjionse given with his
own eager enthusiasm was, "I never knew a man who could

spread manure as evenly or as thoroughly as Mr. C . I

always hire him to do it for me in the spring." Thereafter
I felt a certain respect for Mr. C as an artist — of sorts.

Because he so persistently refused to see evil, many people
have told me that Father believed every one in Elmwood to be
a saint. This was not at all the case, as many an old time
sinner could testify. He was very clear-cut and uncom-
promising in his advice to those who had done evil but
he taught them to accept God's forgiveness and to "go and
sin no more."

It was his effort to create a village atmosphere of courage
and good-will, in which the morally weak might thrive and
grow strong. Lives have been broken and also redeemed in
Elmwood.

I think that even after a quarter of a century some of the
influence of that forty-years' pastorate of peacemaking must
yet remain. E. P. B.

Mr. Albert G. Boyden, the principal of the Bridgewater
Normal School, advised his students to listen to the sermons
of Rev. T. O. Paine for their pure Anglo-Saxon.

THE PASTOR 307

A Sermon by Rev. T. 0. Paine.

"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest." Matt, xi: 28.

If we come and receive rest from Him, we can impart rest
to others. One way of coming to the Lord is to come to others :
for He is with those who are about us; and when we come to
them, we come where He is, and come to Him. We come to
each other, not merely by making ourselves personally present,
but when we bring our spirits into sympathy with each other.
We come unto each other and at the same time to Him, when
we have His spirit within us. All in heaven are filled with His
spirit; for they have their Father's name written in their
foreheads. Whatever of His love they have is Himself in them;
and whatever of truth they have is Himself in them; and what-
ever of life they have is Himself in them; for they live and
move in Him, that is, in His life and love and in the light of His
countenance.

It is entirely possible for us to be, in our measure, like tho.se
who have left us and are now in heaven. It is quite possible
for us to live and move in a degree of His life and love and
light, and so, possible to be, in our degree, as angels. When
we are as they, we shall be likenesses of Him, and shall be to
each other somewhat as He is to us: for there are two rills of
life from Him to each one of us. One rill flows into our inmost
souls directly from Him; and the other rill flows into us from
Him through others. These two rills start from Him as one, but
branch off when they come to us. He has two ways of reach-
ing us; one, with His' right hand, and one with His left. With
His right hand he reaches directly; with His left, he reaches us
through those who are about us. He has two ways of watch-
ing over us: He watches over us directly Himself, and He watches
over us through others, by imparting to them a love of watch-
ing similar to His own love of watching. He has two ways of

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hearing our prayers: one way is by hearing us in heaven His
dwelhngplace ; and for the other way, He tries to open our own
ears to the cries of those who need help in body and in soul.
And so He has two ways of coming to us; in one of His ways
He walks upon the sea, when our souls are in trouble, and
calms that sea when the waves thereof arise about our spirits.
In another of His ways he fills another with His spirit; lightens
the footsteps of the nurse, man, woman, or child; screens the
light from the sick face; and brings peace and rest to all the
house; and herein is it true, that He has two commandments
for us, that while we' love Him, we should love each other also.
Hereby we shall know that we are His disciples, if we come
to Him and come to each other also. And by this also others will
take knowledge of us that we have been with Him, if they can
come to us for a part of their needed help while they come to
Him for another part of it. Even while He was yet with us on
earth, the people came to the disciples for the same things that
they came to Him for; and through the disciples who wrought
in His name they received divine aid; and before he left the
world He committed unto us His disciples powers similar to His
own. By this he showed that we ought to be such that others
can come to us as we come to Him. Here is a new direction
which we are to give our lives. His Ufe all comes this way;
and while we never cease from directing the rill of our own
life so that it shall flow back to Him, we are to fall into the
great current of His life flowing forth to others. Our lives can
become such as to invite the confidence of others. While He
was with us His life was such that it invited approach. We are
His disciples, and are members of His kingdom which is not of
this world, only so far as we bring into our lives what He brought
into His. We cannot do as well as He did, because we have so
little to work with, and because we are such poor creatures in
ourselves. But we can make good use of what He gives us and
we shall grow better with practice.

THE PASTOR ;50<)

Good-will to others often prevails in our hearts when it is
not expressed to them: hut the good-will becomes better-
will as soon as we express it. The angels at Rethlehem
were heard singing good-will to men; and their good-will
grew warmer as they gave it expression in song. Our
streets would be tilled with new light, if good-will were more
fully expressed, even, than now. Even our own good ways
can be improved. Each one of us can do just as much as
another. Above all things else let sincerity abound, that
each one of us may fully enjoy the good words of our lips. If
our words are good and true they come from Him who is the
truth and is good; and when we speak truly and in His spirit,
then it is His spirit which breathes upon us, and, through us,
upon each other. Each one of us may be a half-way-house
between another and Him — between some other .one and
heaven; a shady rock by the wayside; and a place of rest in
the day. We need the sound of the human voice, as well as
the thought in secret. He does not depend wholly upon our
coming all the way directly to Him. He sends out horses of
fire and chariots of fire to bring us into heaven. He sends
messengers before His face to prepare his way before Him.
He sends into the highways and hedges and compels us to
come in unto His feast: sends forth messengers who are men,
as we are.

We cannot only help one another to Him, but can come
between, and make the way difficult. We can sadden those
about us. In this we do not suffer the little children to
come unto Him: we offend the little ones. The little children
of the mind are those tender thoughts and affections which
make us children of God and lead us to Him. We may so
speak and do as to hurt these little ones which believe in Him.
If we can hinder, so can we help. We should so live, that,
while we are seeking to come ourselves unto Him, we should
help others on their way also. We can find many little rough

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places which we can bridge over. It is easier to see the Lamb
of God which taketh away the sins of the world, when some
one stands near us and points towards Him. It is easier to
believe that there is such a Lamb, and that He is near, when
we hear His voice tlirough a messenger, and see His life and
spirit breathed into the homely duties of employments and
home.

Many have gone from us; and when we think of them and
come to them, we seem to come to Him also: for it is His
will that they should be where He is. What could He have
thought of effecting when He made .so great a promise and so
broad! What was He going to do with all the world, if all the
world had come unto Him? for all the world have times of labor-
ing and of being heavy laden. He is not going to take away
all labor and lading, but is going to give us rest, as He promises.
If we would be like Him we shall turn away from no one ;
shall be patient with the unjust and those who do wrong; shall
be planning how we can lighten others' burdens: we shall be
patient with ourselves also; be merciful to ourselves as He is
merciful to us — be hopeful and waiting until death. We
cannot be greater than our Master, but we can be as He, and
be servants. We cannot give rest, but can do what will bring
rest. And in yet this also we can be like Him, that we can
will to do good where we can not do it. He employs children
to help his children, and to help them come to Him.

And the Spirit and the Bride say Come. And let him that
heareth say Ccme. And let him that is athirst Come. And
the only way in which we can say Come, to others, is to go
on silently and patiently, doing whatsoever our hands can find
to do, making our narrow footpath seem pleasant and inviting
to those who see not its thorns but only the hopeful promise
of harvest.

CHAPTER THREE
THE SCHOLAR

In the Journals of Grandmother, we find the source of in-
spiration for Uncle Timothy's Bible study, especially of that
part which came to he his life study, as will be seen in these
extracts taken from "The Sketch Book."

The Middle Bar
March 1846.

Today as I was reading; the Bible by course, my hap was to
fall upon that part which gives a description of the Taber-
nacle which Moses made by the command of God while in the
wilderness, contained in 25, 26, 27 chap, of Exodus. I was
delighted and entertained even to a charm. To contemplate
its richness, its beauty and splendor, the minute exactness
with which all the directions were given.

"And the Lord si)ake unto Moses saying"

"And look that thou make them after their pattern which was
showed thee in the mount." How awe struck Moses must
have been to receive such a command from the most high God.
"And Moses went into the midst of the cloud and got him up
into the mount," and there Jehovah spake with him. I never
read it when it appeared so solemn before. It is all a reality.

As I was reading, meditating and admiring its hidden truths
which to me are yet unrevealed I came to the twenty eight
verse of the twenty six chapter which reads thus. "And the
Middle bar in the midst of the board shall reach from end to
end." I stopped suddenly to inquire what that could mean.
At the very first glance it was evident that it meant something
which to me was never explained. To my mind it is evident

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tliat it refers in some way to the Saviour, at least I can conceive
it to he so and this circumstance revives my soul with hope
that e'er long I shall arrive at that happy land where all dark-
ness dispels and the true light shines upon every verse of my
blessed Bible.

Sudden Lm pulse
18^7

I have just finished the reading of the last eight chapters of
Ezekiel "The descriiilion of the Tcini)le." It was all dark to
me, I had no understanding thereunto. It grieved me much
but 1 groped my way through like one with no eyes knowing
that I ought not to pass it in reading by course. When I came
to the last verse, a sudden impulse pervaded my soul and all
was explained to my entire satisfaction, I was happy and
resigned.

Ezekiel 48 chap. 35 verse.

And the name of the City from that shall be —

The LORD is there.

The Sketches of The Scholar and of The Poet were written
for me by the youngest daughter, Bertha.

The Scholar

My father's interest in the form of the Temple built by
Solomon was first aroused by his mother, who often read aloud
to him those chapters in Ezekiel wherein the measures of the
Temple are given. The seventh verse of the forty-third chap-
ter especially aroused her wonder : —

"And there was an enlarging and a winding about still
upward to the side chambers; for the winding about of the
house went still upward round about the house; therefore the
breadth of the house was still upward and so increased from
the lowest chambers to the highest by the midst."

One Sabbath afternoon, December twenty-sixth, eighteen
hundred and fifty-two, father first made a sketch of the Temple

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in his Journal, representing the overhanging galleries supported
by pillars. This was at his home in Winslow.

The work then begun was eontinued after his marriage and
removal to Elmwood. He made a jjrofound study of the Books
of Ezekiel and Kings in the Hebrew and Greek Scriptures, and
other Oriental languages; also studying perspective. For five
years he worked with increasing enthusiasm, and in 1861 a
book was published by George Phinney of Boston, containing
twenty-one plates of sixty-six figures accurately copied by the
lithographers from careful drawings made by the author,
giving the form of the Ark of Noah, the Tabernacle, First
Temple, House of the King or House of the Forest of Lebanon,
idolatrous High Places, the City on tlie Mountain (Rev. xxi),
the oblation of the Holy Portion; and the last Temple. Four
of the plates were colored, three of the Tabernacle and one
of the high priest.

In his introduction, the author .says:

"The Hou.se of Jehovah, built by Shelomoh, commonly
called Solomon, was .seen in vision by Ezekiel and the Angel
fourteen years after its destruction, Ezek. xl: 1.

"The first particulars of a description of the Temple are
given in the first Book of Kings, a few more are added in the
Second Book of Kings and in Jeremiah. The parts wanting
in these three are given in Ezekiel and nowhere else in the world.
It is as if the writer of the Kings and Jeremiah and Ezekiel
had examined each what the other had written and then each
supplied what the other had omitted. Thus, in Kings many
inside measures of the hou.se are given but no outside ones;
while in Ezekiel the outside measures are supplied, together
with .some inside measures which were omitted in Kings;
and when all the measures are put together, they perfectly
agree, and make one house.

"In general it is a truth which will be established by a hun-
dred examples that parts which are fully described in Kings are

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only mentioned in Ezekiel and tliose which are only mentioned
in Kings are fully described in Ezekiel. Finally, both Ezekiel
and Kings often describe the same forms, as the holy of holies
and the nave, giving the same dimensions with other partic-
ulars in common.

"Accordingly Exodus is the only authority on the Taber-
nacle, the description there being given by Moses who saw it
in Heaven on Sinai; Josephus knew no more about it than any
man at our day, aside from the description in Exodus.

"Kings, Jeremiah and Ezekiel are the only authorities on
the first Temple; Josephus never saw it. But Josephus was
the eye-witness in respect to the last Temple and he is here
the only authority noticed in this work."

After the books of this edition were sold, the author began
on a second edition and to work out details more fully, studied
the Chaldee, Syrian, Samaritan, Septuagint, Coptic and Itala
(N. Africa) Scriptures, Josephus, Talmud and the Rabbis.
With infinite patience and enthusiasm new drawings were made
with a fine pen and India ink, under a microscope. \et such
was his care that in twenty-five years of his work, no plate
was marred.

In 1886 Houghton, Mifflin and Co. published this second edi-
tion of Solomon's Temple and Capitol, Ark of the Flood and
Tabernacle or "The Holy Houses" with forty-two full-page
plates and one hundred and twenty text cuts, these being photo-
graphic reproductions of the original drawings made by the
author. Like the subject of which it treated, the book was
massive and dignified. The pages were fourteen and a half
by eleven and a half inches, with gilt edges and with large
type: made especially for the purpose. The work has been
submitted to architects and civil-engineers who said it could be
buUt. In the original description the temple is called the
House of Jehovah and the House, not Solomon's Temple.
The Holy Houses include the Ark of the Flood, the Sanctuary

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of Sinai, or Tabernacle, the House of Jehovah or Temple,
the House of the King or Capitol, together with all the square
and rectangular portions of city, suburbs and land round
about the temple, called the Holj^ Enclosure, the Holy Oblation,
for the Prince, for the Priests, for the Levites, the possession of
the city, the suburbs of the city of Jehovah Shaminoh, "The
Lord is there" and the holy city of the Revelation.

In 1869 my father began the study and reading of the hiero-
glyphic texts of Egypt, in search of new materials; he also
obtained old and rare texts from the Bodleian Librarj\ Oxford,
Astor Library, New York, tiie Public Library and Athenaeum
of Boston, and the Library of Harvard University, Cambridge.
He deciphered many hieroglyphic inscriptions in the Museum
of Fine Arts, Boston, and delivered lectures on the meaning
of the hieroglyphics. He proved that the ancient Egyptians
had a belief in the immediate resurrection of the spirit and
continuance of life in the spiritual world.

His poem on "The Wheat of Amenti" illustrates this teach-
ing. He dehvered an illustrated lecture on Hieroglyphics at
Andover Theological School before an audience whose faces
were "lighted with the hope of immortality."

In addition to his pastoral duties, father was Professor of
Hebrew, Greek, and Latin in the New Church Theological
School, until 1884, when he retired on account of ill health
and was given the title of Professor Emeritus.

In 1886 he sent a paper to the Victorian Institute of Great
Britain on his work on the Temple.

Bertha Paine.

CHAPTER FOUR
THE POET

In writing to a dear old friend. Rev. Joseph Worcester of
San Francisco, father says: "I have composed poems since
about 1840, when I was sixteen years old; have worked very
hard and steadily, hoping to make a small volume of songs,
ballads, idyls, etc., almost all homely, simple farmer and
forest things; but all having one end in view, without every-
where putting the end into words, — the end of making simple
life seem lovable and good to live."

And again, writing to Mr. J. E. Mills of Quincy, Cal., he
writes: "Since about 1843, I have been trying to write a vol-
ume of poems that shall be i)eaceful and good to read in good
moods; little bits on little things, close about those who have
no money to spare for journeys, trying to bring down sweet life
into poor homes, longer poems also, but with the same end
in view. I much love poor things and try to make others
love them more, the ninety and nine are well off."

To his wife he writes this "little bit":

The Waters of the Meadow

The water on the meadow's breast
Is moving slowly, as I look;
She cannot yet be called a brook
But water seeking rest —
Her level and her rest.

She is not seeking greater height,
But willingly is moving slow
And going where the ground is low;

And yet her face is bright —

Her face is calm and bright.

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To his daughter Isabel, in her marriage service, he writes,

Sweet Memories

I think sweet memories will not die,

I5ut live and die not ever.

I think the hearts sweet memories tie

Will bounden be forever.

I think sweet memories will awake

That long have slept and slumbered.

I think the longest night will break

In dawn, and joys unnumbered.

It was his aim to do for New England what Burns did for
Scotland. "It is best to keep in open sympathy with nature,"
he writes, "because nature is a child always at peace." He
bids us "Come, take an interest in simple things. See how
much work He puts in all He makes."

In some respects there is a resemblance between the poets.
Both were born amid rural surroundings, and not far removed
from grand scenery, high hills, spreading fields and rushing
rivers. Both felt and lived intensely — their dark eyes glowed
with the fire of genius, \\lienever their natures were deeply
stirred the feelings found expression in poetic form. Burns
had his "Bonny Doon " and father his "Segur's Brook." To
him this was the insjjiration of his earlier poems. The Segur
is a woodland brook in Winslow, named for Sergeant Segur
of Fort Halifax, who made a bridge across it. The Indianized
name of the brook is "Segagus." It was surrounded with
"shaws" or open woods and coppices which clothe its sloping
banks; with natural walks carpeted with short green grass,
and here and there beds of fragrant wild flowers and violets,
or "braes."

"Nature always is in tune,
Nature always hath a rune,"

"Nature is renewed every instant out of heaven, and if all
good things in Nature are in order, why are not Nature bits
of song good for us to love?"

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He was a close student of Nature. When in college he made
a book of pressed specimens of all the wild flowers of Maine,
each analyzed and marked with its botanical name. He could
imitate the call of the birds so perfectly that they answered
him. In his poem the adjectives are scientificallj^ as well as
poetically descriptive, and are carefully chosen.

Within his sinii)]cst poem lies an inner meaning, often sug-
gested in the closing lines, as in that of "The Swallow."

"Dost come down from a heaven serene.
Into a |)lace dark and unclean,
Think'st thou? Then thou canst lead the way
For thy young brood up back into the day."

The getting rciuly of the soul for heaven is imaged in the
changes of the trees in autiunn.

"Nature dresses her children best
Just before they fall to their rest."

His love j)oems were inspired by the meeting with his first
and only love, my mother.

"Separation stern and strong
Had filled an age of love with tears."

For some years before her nuirriage, mother lived at Med-
ford, on the banks of the Mystic River, often alluded to in his
poems.

l?oth his teachings and his life liore witness to the sacredness
of marriage love.

In the leisure moments of the last ten years of his life, father
wrote many poems, some of which revived memories of his old
home in IMaine. He wandered by the banks of the Matsfield
River in Elmwood as in the days of his early youth and com-
posed songs which he wrote in a tiny leather bound volume,
carried in his pocket. A pile of logs with a cedar post for back
served as his rustic seat while the poems were written with the
same extreme care that characterized his drawings.

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His friends recall with delight the iiuisical, rhythmical read-
ing of these gems of song, in his mellow voice. The long poem
" Measure " was written for the Golden Wedding of his life-long
friend Samuel Darling, the maker of the steel rule that measured
1/1000 of an inch. These rules were used in the drawings of
the "Holy Houses."

"The Lost Sheep," written to he sung to the tune of "Rock
of Ages," was written near the close of life when the way began
to seem long. For the last few months after his resignation
of the pastorate in Elmwood he suffered much in body and
mind. As he lay in pain on his coucli, he was heard to repeat
those words of triumphant anguish in Isaiah: — "Who is
this that Cometh from Edom with dyed garments from Hozrah?
This that is glorious in his ajjparcl traA'cling in the greatness
of His strength. I that speak in righteousness, mighty to
save."

He entered the other life December 6, 1895.

He had prejiared in a clear roimd Iiand, a manuscTii)t of his
poems, containing two hundred pages with notes, under the
title of "The Songs of the Segur." One long poem "The
Woodlanders" was verified by letters from a friend who had
known the life of tlie lumber cainj)s in Maine.

The poems were never published as prepared and indexed
by him, but after his death .selections were made from them l)y
his niece Selma Ware Paine, who wrote a charming preface,
describing his threefold life as pastor, scholar and ar<'heologist,
and poet. The volume was edited by my mother and pub-
lished under the title, "Selections from The Poems of Timothy
Otis Paine."

Bertha Paine.

CHAPTER FIVE
EXTRACTS FROM JOURNAL AND LETTERS

Journal 1S5'2.

Be thankful that you can do as well as you can; this will
enable you to do better.

A dew drop on a pine tree Fort Hill, Sept. 16 1852. Standing
up (morning 7 o'clock) it was brilliant blue. stoo])ing yellow;
sitting, red; each color exceedingly brilliant. The drop was
between me and the sun. These are the simple colors of which
all others are derivatives.

Remarks on poetry. 1 That words should be used in their
primitive sense. 2 That poetry should be but little adjective
e.g. 'On the roof the sound of rain,' you know just what that
sound is — the adjective is already in your mind, then why
expre.ss it? And more, that adjective is more perfect that any
word can e.r press, but the words 'sound of rain' suggest it fully
— as fully as you know what that sound is. Of the first re-
mark, the primitive sense is generally the physical one, hence
its meaning is felt soonest and deepest. The expression, the
sun shines is clear; we learned the meaning of the expression
in infancy and consequently its meaning is felt the soonest
and deepest. Phoebus was heard in later years and of the
sun, and must be translated into sun before we can feel it
at all. In poetry I would use the word sun when speaking
of the sun, and Phoebus when speaking of that ancient
divinity.

The sun shined from the East; and 'shined' instead of 'shone'
for although 'shone' is not the same as 'shown,' still it sounds

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EXTRACTS FROM JOURNAL AND LETTERS 321

like it and hence does not suggest 'shine' so forcibly as 'shined.'
The sound 'shon' suggests 'sho,' while the sound 'shined'
suggests 'shin.'

Bluebirds, robins, sparrows, Winslow, March '20, 1853.
Phoebe or pewee Apl 2, frogs 6 large red butterfly 3: wood
thrushes Apl 17. Barnswallows 22; in great numbers all at
once and fill the l)arn. May 13. Bobolinkhorns May 3, 13
and cherry l)irds May 24, on blo.ssoniing trees. A yellow bird
is lining her nest with the white blows of the dandelion. This
bird fastens her nest very firmly to the limbs .so that it will
stay over winter; the tree sparrow on the contrary does not
confine her nest at all so that it generally blows off in the
first strong wind. She does better to build in a bush or grape-
vine.

Flowers order of coming: Apl 20, bloodroot, hepatica, May
flower (epigea refens) lurzula compestris, blue violets two
kinds, not the common large ones and the white violet, also
adders tongue and venuspride, saxifrage. All these are in full
bloom May 3 in the valley of Segur's brook, but they appeared
in the order which I named. Dandelions have blossomed all
at once, today everywhere, May 13, Horseplum trees in full
bloom this warm morning (shower in the morning) Buttercups
all at once (warm) June 5. Lilacs in their prime May 30 fading
June 5, first blossoms May 20; As a general rule flowers have
one week (7 days) of prime, each side of this week there are a
few blows only.

Sparrows — tree and ground — line their nests with hair;
robins with withered blades of grass; barn swallows with
feathers.

There is no bird so choice as the blue bird; A single pair
build in a hollow log or post or in a small box near a house but
that pair will not allow any other blue birds to come near their
home but will fight all day and renew the fight the next day
until the intruders are driven off. They are entirely faithful

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to each other and do not mingle with other birds. It requires
a long time for their young to fly after they are hatched.

Ground sparrows nest in a thornbush, the top of the bush
having the appearance of being the continuation of the mound
near.

So)i(j

Now Dingley's field is white with snow,
In flocks the snowbirds chirping go;
Their little feet around the weeds
Have patted down the snow for seeds;
At night they'll fly to Dunbar's wood
And cedar trees are shelter good.

If as much rain was falling as there seems to be in a shower,
the ground would be flooded. 1) Each drop looks like a stream.
Compare a carriage wheel in motion. 2) Besides the drops
are much further apart than they seem to be for we see all
the stream-drops within a considerable distance. Similar
remarks apply to falling snow. Looking directly up into the
storm, the drops and flakes lose the appearance of streams and
white lines, although from the 2d cause above mentioned there
seem to be more drops and flakes than there really are. Ex-
amine the air within a few feet of you and the truth will be
evident.

Do not say bitter things, there is not .so much nourishment
in a bitter apple as there is in a sweet one.

The Lord. He is perfect and was complete from eternity,
but He did not do all things at once and complete all things at
once. He created first of all the material universe and placed
man on its earths and then commenced a heaven from them.
He sustains the Universe created and thus perpetually creates
it anew. Among all the things which He did successively.
He created Him.self into the Universe which He had before
created. He did this to save man, and that He might be every-
where fully.

EXTRACTS FROM JOURNAL AND LETTERS '.m

The faith of the New Church, universal is this; Jesus of
Nazareth transfigured and glorified is the only God of the
Universe. The knowledge of this doctrine is the pearl of great
price. By Father understand the Divine Soul and by Son
understand the Divine Human Body and the Trinity can be
understood. It is usual in the Word to give a general view
first and then to resume, often and to give particulars.

Extracts from letters written to his niece, Selma Ware Paine.

I have not seen the article, but I suppose your words in-
dicate the nature of the new reading. It is my opinion that
when they touch the letter of the Scriptures, they pull out all
the fastenings of a train of cars at high speed and let the whole
train go to crash. The old original sense is always best. That
sense is the massive, unflinchable gravel-bed; the imbedded
ties; the steel rails; the solid cars; the omnipotent engine;
the noble, wi.se, faithful engineer, whose motto ever is, stick to
the machine. You come to the desired haven with this.
Tender and loving interpretation is the oil at every joint —
every joint unbreakable, but beautifully jilaying in oil. Let
the solid work alone. The Scriptures in their rugged letter are
a cube, always right side up. You set the fire to where I blaze
at once.

Oliver Wendell Holmes has just made himself dearer than
ever in "Over the Tea-Cups," but he is naughty to write this
libel; — "My friend I hope you will not write in verse. When
you write in prose you say what you mean. When you write
in rhyme, you say what you must." —

If I could find one single line that does not say exactly what
I mean, I would toil over that line five years till I made it say
what I mean — work over it ever and again, all the rest of my

life. I am in mo.st thorough earnest. But B .says "Holmes

is in fun." But I will allow nobodj' to be in fun about poems.
Poems begin where prose ends.

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A poem is rich according as it is filled with truth; not dead
fact but truth that is alive and full of tender warmth. What
say you? But busy all-day work is the best press for best
wine.

You know my way of working — a plodding, beating, bang-
ing, chipping, fitting, toiling, bothering, tiring everybody out
— kind of way. Please fill out the list.

Plymouth is the new town or city of Massachusetts. The
resurrection of her oldness is tiie vigorous soul of her newness.
Plymouth is the most beautiful thing we have to show.

I never knew a neglected road or street to lie idle. It goes
to work like a child to get beautiful things together. Every-
thing bears a flower. I heard the word "frame" sung by the
choir, and almost laughed with delight. It is a sweet old word
for "mood of the spirit"; and a heavenly frame of mind. A
small flower is precious if we are in the right frame of mind.

The profane name, "Solomon's Temple." It was the Lord's
Temple. I am doing all I can. —

Think of me as among the lilies, for I am working right under
them; and drawing the final figures of my last work; final,
that is press — figures. They are more beautiful than any-
thing that I have ever prepared, — for the press hitherto.
Among the hieroglyphic drawings is a large picture of a white
lily, and out of the lily is written in most ancient hieroglyphic
text; "I am the pure lily that springeth up in the meadows
of God." He who speaks is a meritful youth who once lived
on earth and passed upward before the days of Abraham.

Every pillar of Egypt was crowned with a lily either in bud
or in bloom.

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Oct. SO, 1895. [Uncle Timothy died Dec 6, 1895.]
"A little piece with seven "ests" in it.

Getting Ready

Nature dresses her children best

Just before they fall to their rest ;

Puts on every beautiful vest

Ere they pass to the fields of the blest;

Every fruit is fairest drest.

Every leaf is beautifulest.

S files exception, however, to the superlative of "beautiful"
in the form of "beautifulest." I think, dear, that you will
quite agree with me that "most beautiful" and "lieautifulest"
do not make the same impression on the mind. When on
choice and rare o(ra.siO«.s you im.ih to wrap up in one word all
that it can be made to hold, you must begin with that word
and hold upon it as long as you can. You begin with beautiful
and "beauti" — expresses the leading thought. The "ful"
adds fulness to that. Then "est" gives the idea of the highest
of that. But "most" in "most beautiful" steals away some-
thing by coming too soon. You dwell on two words. In
"beautifulest" you begin, go on and end with the thought of
the beautiful. It is the closing word of the little song of the
soul and was intended to gather up the whole soul of the lay
into its one single self. Each syllable should be pronounced
slowly. What think you? Do I think too nicely?

Good evening.

Wordsworth teaches us — tells us — that it is enough if the
reader likes anything he has written — It is of little moment
who the readers may be. You see I am trying to find out
whether I shall have any readers.

CHAPTER SIX
POEMS OF THE SEGUR

To my Uncle Timothy, his jjoems meant more than did the
Temple Studies; his whole heart was in them. The following
extracts are taken from letters written to my cousin Bertha,
by Prof. George Herbert Palmer.

What a beautiful gift you have sent me! I had never seen
these poems before. But when I opened the little parcel this
morning and began to read, I was so fascinated that I read
the book from cover to cover and with increasing delight.
"The Woodlanders, " "Measure," and the bird poems especially
pleased me, but everywhere I found the keen eye, the tender
heart, and the venturesome phrase. Poetry so fresh, direct
and unconventional is unusual. I .shall do my best to make
the precious little volume known.

I hear beautiful accounts of the life of Mr. Paine, which
make me wonder less at his remarkable verses. These have
the originality and innocent directness of the best poetry of
the English William Blake.

All I get from him exhibits the .same traits — an elevated
and unworldly mind, keen observation, vigor of language and
a disposition to come at things directly without intervening
tradition. This inner veracity gives to my mind its chief
value to his work.

Indeed it makes it unique. I know no other among our
American authors who has been able to commune as freshly
with facts and to state what he has seen with so sweet a sim-
plicity. His range is not large, and neither man nor nature
is to his mind complex or problematic. But what he sees he

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sees as if no one had ever seen it before, and it is uttered in
words that are entirely his and with a tender airy grace which
makes a kind of springtime pervade all his pages. It is amusing
that publishers thought the book was "not literature." Yet
they were perhaps right. It stands so outside the manners
and customs of ordinary writers that I doubt if the public
would purchase. All the more important shall I consider it
to call the attention of those who are capable of appreciation
to the exquisitely chosen selections which you have kindly
sent me.

SEGUR'S BROOK

8egvr always sweet and good,
Tumbling through the piny wood
When the snow is melting fast
And the coldest days are past!
Thou art never to be gone
But to stay and live right on.
Thou art never to be gray
But to live in youth for aye;
Summer sun and winter snow
Find my Segur always so.

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THE MYSTIC

The violet blows by Mystic side
When all the leaves are tender,

And on her fells, a day in June,
The honeysuckle slender.

The violet blooms in Segur Dell,
And there I wander early

To guess if honeysuckles blow
By one I love so dearly.

The common ocean gathers in
The Mystic and the Segur,

And where the stormy petrel flits
Unites their waters eager.

They rise in mist, they fall in rain,
In dew and sunny showers.

And glide as one in Segur Dell
Beneath the spreading bowers.

But little lioj)e is there for me
That I may meet the maiden

Who looked at me and spoke to me
Then left me lone and laden.

FREE AND LOOSE

I will sing where I light
And alight where I may.

As the birds in their flight
That go singing away.

Not a foot of the ground
Do I own, not a hand;

I go trespassing round

For the flowers of the land;

Not to pick anything.

But to see them in bloom

And to hear the birds sing
Where there's plenty of room.

POEMS OF THE SEGUR 329

TO THE BLUEBIRD

Oh dearest birds that ever sang,
That ever sang and made a nest.

Ye bluebirds, flying round in pairs,
I love you, faithful bluebirds, best.

From early spring to autumn snow
In hollow post or rail ye build;

Or, on the corner of the barn

Your little box with straw is filled.

Oft, going for the pastured cow,

I've turned me to the old stump fence

To see your blue eggs in a root

Of if the young had fluttered thence.

Ye turtle doves of northern homes.
Of northern homes on either hand,

Your simple note, so soft and deep.
Will soon be heard out o'er the land.

HOME LAKE

I'm like a fish of the ocean.

This rustling autumn day,
Remembering with emotion

The lake of infancy,
Where now the painter, October,

Oft looks and turns to me.
With face upraised and sober

From her palate in the tree;
And up the river of childhood

My thoughtful way I take.
And up the streams of the wildwood

And back into the lake.

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ROBIN SONG

The robin sings at dimmy dawn.

At any time all day.

And when the twilight cometh on

You hear the robin-lay.

All while the robin is awake.

With time for leisure wing.

He'll sit and sing for singing's sake,

Nor sigh if he can sing.

And when a grief is over past

He'll seek the topmost bough

And sing as he would sing his last.

As he is singing now.

To-day he loves the sunny sun.

To-morrow loves the rain.

In autumn loves the winter run,

And loves the spring again.

He tliinketh not if he may die,

Or mourneth the unknown,

But feels the moment going by

And maketh it his own.

THE RAINBOW IN THE SPRAY

Another present from Heaven,

Another perfect day;
Like a dew that covers the dryness.

Like a rainbow in a spray.
And this is all of my lifetime.

And this my only day
That I need to think of or care for.

With its rainbow in the spray.

POEMS TO THE SEGUR 331

MEASURE '

'Tis measure leads straight on to perfect fit;

And perfect fit is i)erfect perfectness.

Who marks the j)erfect rule helps read the stars.

The slightest fault on earth is great in heaven;

The line that deviates will never reach

The targe where Truth, the Revelator, stands,

'Tis accuracy of guidance and of aim

That swings the planets of the universe

In wavy lines without one accident.

'Tis perfectness of work makes silence reign

Among the myriad stars. ....

Our .souls, like planets, know not where to go.

But follow on in floating, curving lines.

Now up, now down, to left, to right, but on;

Our safety certain only as we yield.

But as we yield, the Great Astronomer

Of souls, with joyous calculation, .sees

The peaceful patli through which he can us lead.

Our path is holy ground. By step and step

Is meted all our way. .....

But who shall find the measures I have lost —
The measures of a man? The length and breadth
And height must eciual be. Length is a line,
A hair, a viewless thread. The largest plane
Is but a surface that no thickness hath:
The length and breadth and height alone, a cube.
We must all measures have, and equal ones.
The sculptor measures in the marble block
And finds a man. The architect will .seek,
With rule exact, and find a living shaft.
But oh what sculptor, architect, .shall .search
With line and reed, and beat away the chips.
And find a worshiper, or living stone.
To fit in somewhere in the holy fane!
1 This poem unifies the scholar and the poet as well as the minister.

332 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

THE WOODLANDERS

A Lament over them

Ho, come, stand with heads uncovered
And hear the story told growing old !
How men went to war as to pleasure
As they go to seaside and mountain!
How died they like flowers of the summer
That appear for a day and are gone!

I saw, out of Maine's pine forest.
The wood-camp crew on dead heavy tread :
Not marching from schoolhouse to common,
From common to schoolhouse returning.
But forward and onward and southward
To the banks of Potomac away.

Old mates crossing o'er at Fairfield
The Kennc'oec's ])rou(l wave, to the grave
High travelling, musket to shoulder;
I saw them in columns unsorted.
In ranks like the tips of the i)ine tops.
Short and tall arm to arm, friend to friend.

Oh men, share my aching sorrow.

Bow down with grief profound to the ground.

They never marched back again homeward;

They died on Virginia's borders;

The boughs of their bunks from the hemlock
Shed their leaves and dried up and decayed.

No more. Went they on and onward.

I heard the cannon sound; and the ground
Was alway in opening her bosom
And folding them mustered from battle.
And off were their wraiths to the wildwood.

Their freed manes were back in old home.

POEMS OF THE SEGUR 333

Even now, when the snow is going,
And logs are hauled no more to the shore.
And axes no longer all talking.
Their shades wander down over State St.
And into the city of Bangor
With the sturdy old step])ing of yore.

Like beeves, free of yoke and loosened.
Together keep they still down the hill,

Along by the Bridge of Keiiduskeag,

To Elder's, the Alleyway ('ellar.

And eat of the meal they had promised
Far away in the fields of the South.

THE EVENING rillMROSE

The primrose l)looms at eventide.

And, where I go, the highway side

It lights up with its yellow blow:

What else it does I do not know. —

Except, all day, with dust of road

The leaves are gray, and, until blowed.

The bud is gray, with slight perfume,

Till eve unfolds a clean sweet bloom.

It grows there in the short green grass

Between where foot and carriage pass:

Where wheels might crush it, should one ride.

And the horse startled sheer aside.

It sprang up there, and there hath grown

And made the narrow green its own:

Chose not a place by nature fair.

But made one so by growing there.

And when the August days are hot

It quitteth not the chosen spot.

But there at evening may be found

Because the root is deej) in ground.

I often pick one for my wife;
'Tis so much like her own dear life
To stay right here where she but must
And be a flower though there be dust.

334 TEE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

THE LOST SHEEP

Hear, Good Shepherd, liear my cry;
Lost among the hills am L
Leave, for me, the ninety-nine;
Find me, find, and make me thine.
In the mountains, strayed from thee,
Come, O come, and seek for me.

Where the wilderness is dry
Seek for me before I die.
Where the mountain-side is steep
And ravines are dark and deep.
Where thou hearest one low moan
Seek me starvinf;, lost and lone.

Lay me on thy shoulders, lay,
Weak and weary of my way.
All my strength in wandering spent,
Take, and bear me to thy tent.
Let me hear thine own dear voice,
And thy friends, with thee, rejoice.

[Written at the close of life. 3

PART VII. THE PATRIOTS OF
THE FAMILY

1775-1812-1846-1861-1914

THE PATRIOTS OF THE FAMILY

One of the great-granddaughters, Mrs. Carrie Stratton
Howard, was the Organizing Regent of the P'ort Hahfax Chap-
ter of the D. A. R. in Winslow. In cordial response to my
request, she has given me the Patriotic Records of the Family.

Colonial Dameb
The Colonial Dames of America is a society composed of
women who are descended in a direct line froln an ancestor
who rendered distinguished services in the colonies prior to
1776. He must have been an officer in the Colonial Army,
a member of the Colonial Legislature, a deputy Governor or
Governor, or a member of the Governor's Council. I feel
very sure the descendants of \Yilliam Paine and of his .son
John Paine are eligible.

1775-1783

In the War of the American Revolution, we have three an-
cestors. Timothy Ware, the father of Abiel Ware Paine,
was a private and served at Lexington, April 11, 1775. He
served on a secret expedition from Sei)tember 25, to October
30, 1777; from July 26 to August 26, 1778. Lemuel, the
father of Frederic, Abiel's husband, was a private in Capt.
Theophilus Lyons Co., enlisted March 1, 1778. The company
marched to Castle Island. He was discharged April 5, 1778.

Both of these records have been certified and are on file in
Memorial Continental Hall, at Washington, D. C.

Nehemiah Carpenter, the father of Rachel, wife of Lemuel
Paine, was at the first alarm, marched from Foxboro to Con-
cord, on the 19th of April, 1775. He served at three other
times always as an officer. He had two sons "Veterans,"
Nehemiah and Ezra.

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338 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

1812-1815

My father writes that his father Frederic Paine (this in
1814) "volunteered and went to the war" but that "his mih-
tary hfe, however was a short and bloodless one as the enemy
did not make his appearance and the volunteers soon returned
home and peace came."

Grandmother, in one of her letters, written o/ 1814, mentions
the "time of war."

18JtG-18^8
Charles Frederic Paine, the oldest son of Frederic Paine,
was drafted for the Mexican War in 1846-7, but was never
called.

1861-1865

Charles Frederic Paine had two sons who served for a short
time in the Civil War. Otis Frederic, at the age of twenty-
one, enlisted, July 15, 1864 and was nmstered out November
30, 1864. William Loring, at the age of eighteen, enlisted
May 1864 and was mustered out Aug. 5, 1864.

C. S. H.

191it-1918

In the great World War just brought to an end, it seems
invidious to mention a few as patriots, when all were patriots.
Those too young or too old to go to active service across the
water, found work for money, hands and brains at home.

There are those in the family who had the privilege of being
in close touch with the great strife.

The first record of service is written for me by Edward W.
Paine, M. D., son of George S. Paine of Winslow and Great-
grandson of Lemuel Paine.

Before America cast her lot in with the Allies, there were
several organizations in France financed by Americans doing
what they could for the cause. One of the most active of these
was the American Ambulance, which maintained an ambulance
service on the French Front and in addition supported a large
hospital at Neuilly-sur-Seine just outside of Paris.

TEE PATRIOTS OF THE FAMILY 339

When I decided to ofTer my services, it was to the American
Ambulance that I made appHcation, and early in July, 1916,
I found myself on board the French Line Boat, "Rochambeau"
en route for the scene of action. On landing in France I had
expected to go at once to the liospital at Neiiiily, but instead
was sent to a smaller hospital at Juilly, a town about twenty-
five miles East of Paris. This hospital was entirely financed
by Mrs. Harry Payne Whitney. It provided accommodations
for some three hundred wounded and was later on taken over
by our government.

The town of Juilly where the hospital was situated was
on the very edge of the Marne battlefield and French and
German graves dotted the landscape everywhere.

The hospital occupied most of a very old and at one time
rather famous school building. No less a celebrity than
Jerome Bonaparte attended school here, and the bed in which
his brother Napoleon rested for a few hours is still in active
service.

We received our wounded from the front by train or ambu-
lance and when we had done what we could for them returned
them to the front again, or to their homes. I worked here
nine months; towards the last of my stay I was granted a
two weeks leave to study at Dr. Carrel's hospital at Compiegne.
Here Dr. Carrel and his associates, through the Rockefeller
Foundation, were able to study and perfect a technique for
the treatment of war wounds that was one of the most brilliant
achievements of the war.

In February, I received an ofi'er from an English organization,
the "Croix Rouge Frangaise," having a temporary' hospital at
Arc-en-Barrois, an interesting little town in the Haute Marne.
The French government through the courtesy of the Due de
Penthievre had turned over to them the Duke's hunting lodge,
a tremendous stone Chateau situated in a beautiful park and
surrounded by one of the most extensive forests in France.

340 THE DISCOVERY OF A GRANDMOTHER

Here I spent twelve pleasant months, very busy but with time
to enjoy the lovely climate of this little visited section of
France.

Both this and the Juilly hospital were far enough back from
the front to be out of range of shell fire and the sound of guns
came to us only as distant thunder.

In March, 1918, I underwent a surgical operation in the hope
that I would then be eligible for a commission in our own
army, but was rejected and returned to America in 1918.

Edw.\rd W. Paine, M.D.
May 8, 1919. Winslow, Maine.

The second record was written for me by Edith Paine Bene-
dict, several of whose children served in France.

Florence Benedict Hedin sailed for France in March, 1914,
as her husband had been appointed head of the "Eagle Paris
Bureau," 53 rue Cambon. They made this suite of rooms a
social center for wounded soldiers throughout the entire war
and did much to keep New York friends in touch with Brook-
lyn soldiers.

Florence also worked with Mr. and Mrs. Ernest Shurtleff
in the relief work, begun almost at the very opening of the war.
They worked especially for blind artists and musicians thrown
out of employment by the war, and later for the refugees.
Florence was in charge of the layette department, distributing
baby clothes to needy mothers.

After the armistice, Mr. Hedin was one of the reporters at
the Peace Conference, representing the "Universal Press."

Miriam Benedict had finished her training and become a
graduate nurse in May 1916. She joined a "Harvard Unit,"
saihng Aug. 1916 and served as nurse in a British Army camp
at Camiers, France, from Sep. 1916 to March 1917, Hospital
22. The following summer, she entered a Red Cross Hospital

THE PATRIOTS OF THE FAMILY 341

in Paris which was later taken over by the government. She
then united with the U. S. Army and served until the close of
the war. Military Hospital No. 2, 6me Piccini, Paris.

Rev. H. Hawthorne Benedict tried repeatedly to join the
army but was rejected for defective hearing. In September,
1918, however, he was accepted by the Y. M. C. A., took a
training course at Springfield, and sailed in December. He had
charge of a Y. M. C. A. foyer du Soldat at Cazean, Gironde,
France. His work was for French Aviators. In August,
he was transferred to Warsaw and has signed for six months
in Poland to establish, with others, Y. M. C. A. huts.

There were other grandsons of Timothy Otis Paine who
had a part in the war, the sons of the daughter Isabel of
Cincinnati.

Ernest H. Grant, a Chemical Engineer, was in the service
of the U.S. at Washington throughout the war.

Richard E. Grant was in active service in France during
the last year, as a private of the 29th division.

Otis Paine Grant joined the navy, served as an officer in a
training camp but did not go to France.

E. P. B.

My aim in beginning this work was to give to my A-m the
records of the family, but a most unexpected result has come
to me. The Grandmother brought with her other discoveries
scarcely less precious than was the first.

There is my uncle, "My oldest Son," whom I never knew
and who now seems a part of my past and of my present.
There is "My Fourth Son," whom I ever knew and whom I
had ever wondered at, but who now with these "Ghmpses"
into his intimate home relations, seems a new discoverj';
and there are my four cousins who have helped make these
records possible.

Then there is my father, "My Second Son," whom I thought
I knew and for whom we all had the greatest regard and af-
fection, but whose early life, with its strong interests and
aspirations, was an unopened book until the Journal revealed
him to us.

But perhaps the most surprising Discovery these Glimpses
have brought to me is that of the close kinship in thought and
expression existing between my sister Selma Ware Paine and
my Grandmother, Abiel Ware Paine.

It is my pleasure to close this book of mine with the clos-
ing words of my father in his Genealogy.

"This book is respectfully presented to the many members
of the family and others interested, with the hope that its
perusal may afford, at least, a passing pleasure, if not a per-
manent benefit to them from knowing who were their fathers
whose blood now flows in their veins, and whose spirit con-
trols or influences their lives. At the same time, the writer
cannot hesitate to express the sentiment that all members of
the line may justly realize as applicable to them, the truth of
the adage with which this history begins,

'The Glory of the Children are their Fathers.'"

L. A. C.

1919

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