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** My own heart has been so much edified and animated by what I 
have read in the memoirs of persons who have been eminent for wisdom 
and piety, that I cannot bat wish the treasure may be more increased ; 
ftnd I would hope that the world may gather the like valoable fruits 
from the Life I am now attempting." ^DonnRipos. 

'* Whose FAITH follow, considering the end of their conversation.* 

St. Paul. 



J. Conord, Printer. 


pRXrACS -•» 5 

Chaptkr I. — ^Pnliminaiy obsenrations — Lady Maxwell's birfh, pi- 
rentag«, aad •dacatioii--She raonvet to Edinburgh ; to LoBdon— 
Returns to ScotlaAd^Is mairied to Sir Walter Maacwel^De«th of 
Sir Walter and infant son-^he beoomes pemtent^-^one^ponds 
with Mr. Wesley — ^Joins his society — Obtains mercy • - - 9 

Chapter II. — Lady MazweH't lore of retirement— From her jroath 
and elevated rank exposed to temptatipn and danger~Bfilinquishf 
her gs^ aoqiiauiitances — Connection with Lady Glenorchy — ^They 
differ ui religious sentiment, but continue united in affection — ^Ac* 
count of Laiy H« Hope— The manner in which Lady Maxwell 
spent her time— Her lore to the means of grace — Constant dunC 
for full salvation -JO 

Chapter HI. 1768.— Advantages of autobiogn^hy— Lady Max- 
well's diary -- --40 

Chapter IT. 1768.— Lady Maxwell's diary continued - • • 43 

Chapter V. 1770.— Lady Maxwell establishes a school at Edin- 
burgh—Retires to Saughton-hall — ^Has the gospel preached in her 
house — Diary continued .-- 50 

Chapte|i YI. 1771.— Lady Maxwell's diary continued • - - (iO 

Chapter YII. 1772.- Remarks on the duty of £uting— On the ssl- 
CFunent of the Lord's supper— The manner in which it is admi- 
nistered in Sdolhmd— 'Diary contniied * €0 

Chapter VHI. 1778.— -Diaiy oontianed ... • O 

' Chapter IX 1774.— Remaiks on Pi«ndenee— Diary contiHiiad - 93 

> Chapter X. 1775.— Diaiy eMtimoed 109 

I Chapter XI. 1776.— Di«y eontibwd 119 

Chapter XIL 1777.— Diary oontisiMd 139 

Chapter Xllf. 1778.— Diary continued MS 

k Chapter XI V] 1779.— Diary continued - !61 

Chapter XT. 1780.-— Lady Mazwell^s correspondence with Lidy ' 
' ^ Henrietta Hope -. 161 

'Chapter XVL 1781.— Correspondence with Lady Hope-^Miss 
Ritchie — The Hon. Miss Napier— Reflections on temptations — 
Diary continued 184 

Chapter XTH. 1788.— CoRMpondenee with Lady Hope— Diary 
continued 198 

Chapter XYUI. 1783.— Diary and oonespondenoe continued - 904 

CaAPT«R XIZ. 1784.— Diaiy and eorrsipondmct odntinaBd - - 915 


Chaptsr XX. 1785.—Diai7 and correspondence continued • 

Chaptkk XXI. 1786.— Death of the Ladies Hope and Olenorchy— 
Lady Maxwell appointed cxecut^x of the latter— Visits England- 
Meets with the KeT. Alexander Mathei^-Ohamcter of— Coire- 
spondence with him, and the Rey. C. Atmore • - - • - 232 

Craftkk XXIL 1787.— Difference of opinion entertained by Chris- 
tians on the nature and extent of salvation— Lady Maxwell's sen- 
timents on this subject— Attains full salvation— Her views with 
regard to the Trinity— She establishes Sabbath-day 8chools^-Ck»r- 
responds with Miss Ritchie, Mr. Mather, and Mr. Atmore - - 2i4 

Cjllttwm. XXlll. 1788.— Particolais respecting Hope Chapel- 
Lady Maxwell visits Bristol— Forms an intimacy with Mrs« £. 
Johnson— Short account of— Correspondence continued • - 267 

Craptkr XXIY . 1789.— Lady Maxwell's multifarious engagements 
— Diary continued—Again visits Bristol— Meets with many per- 
plci^tses respecting Hope Chapel 280 

Cbaptmi XXV. 1790.^</orresi)ondence resumed with Mr. Mather, 
Mrs. Johnson, and Miss Ritchie— Lady Maxwell visits Carlisle, 
Wigton, and Workington .------- 285 

Chafteb XX VI. 1791.— Death of the Rev. John Wesley— Lady 
Maxwell again visits Bristol — ^Fresh difficulties at Hope Chapel — 
Change in the mode of conducting public worship — Corresponiknce 
continued .---. 294 

Cbaptbb XXVII. 1792. — Diary and correspondence continued • 303 

Chaftbb XXVIII. 1793.— State of thtnation at this period— Spread 
of infidelity— War proclaimed with France — Meetings for prayer 
among Christiana— Diary and correspondence continued • • 310 

CHA.PTBB XXIX. 1794.— Diary and correspondence continued • 319 

Craptsb XXX. 1795.— Diaiy and correspondence continued • 327 

Chaptbb XXXI. 1796.— Diary and odnrespondence continued .^ 334 

Chaptsb XXXII. 1797.— IHazy and oonnspondenee continued - 341 

ChaptCb XXXin. 1798. — ^Diaiy isnd conrespondenoe oontinued - 351 

Cbaptbb XXXIV. 1799. — Diary and eoRespondenee contiBued - 361 

Cbaptbb XXXV. 1800. — Diary and oonrespondenca continued • 36B 

Cbaptbb XXXVI. 1801-d.-*La4y Maxwell's expwitMe attains a 
•greater uniformity — ^Diary continued 376 

Cbaptbb XXXVIL 1804-7.— Diaiy continued - - - - 382 

Cbaptbb XXXVIII. 180&-10.— Lady Maxwell's diaiy concluded 
— ^Her last illness and death— Letter on, by the Hon. Miss Niqpier — 
Inscription on monumental tablet - .... .389 

Lady Maxwell's character ^ - - - - 397 


Elktvv years have nearly elapsed, since the pious writer of 
the following papers exchanged mortality for etenuJ life. It was 
generally known by her intimate friends that she had left to pos- 
terity a record of the gracious dealings of God toward her ; and 
it was sangujinely hoped that this record would soon be given to 
the religious world. These hopes, however, were destined for a 
season to nn4ergo a painful disappointment. Lady Maxwell had 
intrusted her papers to the care of the honourable Miss Napier, 
with a solemn injunction that after her ladyship's decease they 
should be transmitted to on^ of the Wesleyan ministers ; but she 
neither specified any individual, nor fixed on any particular period 
when this obligation should be discharged. Thus a liberty seemed 
to be allowed for the exercise of choice and discretion ; and a 
delay in delivering up the manuscripts was the too natHial con- 
sequence. The /eelings.^ also, were deeply interested in this 
dela3r. Miss N. had long been an inmate in the house of 
her illustrious relative ; had enjoyed the benefit of her pious 
Counsel, holy example, and fervent prayers; and when left to 
lament her loss, felt an almost idolatrous attachment to every 
thing in her possession which had belonged to her departed friend. 
This attachment was frequently assigned to the editor as the 
principal, if not the only reason tor the detention of these papers : 
ibr, though Miss N. readily acknowledged that her ladyship^s 
injunction was, on her part, binding, and determined to obey it ; 
yet she indulged a desire to retain the valuable deposit until ^e 
period of her own dissolution. 

Six years passed away and nothing had, as yet, appeared to 
gratify the ardent expectation of her ladyship's numerous friends, 
when the Rev. W. Atherlon, a gentleman who had been honoured 
with a personal acquaintance, yielding to frequent and earnest 
solicitations, attempted *' A Sketch of the Life and Character of 
Lady Maxwell." This valuable memoir was first published in 
the Methodist Magazine in the latter end of the year 1816. Its 
author, considering he had to lament the want of original docu- 
ments, has certainly delineated the exalted character with great 
fidelity ; and, though he regretted the want of " a master's hand,'* 
has executed his task in a manner highly honourable to himself. 
A great part of this memoir, which, with a few omissions, after- 
ward appeared in a respectable Scottish monthly publication, has 
been introduced into the present work. 

Still more recently, even while the editor was preparing these 
volumes for the press, a work entitled " A Christian Sketch of 
Lady Maxwell," was announced to the public. This, at firsty 


excited in las vfiwi e degree ef exxfUmtt, H# lioped, boweTer, 
that additional information would thus be conomunicated, which 
might enable him to illustrate more fully those manuscripts which 
were then passing under his review ; and he, of coure, eagerly 
procured the work. Happily for him, h^ was already in posses- 
sion of ample materials, or his mortification,^ like that of manv 
others, must have been great. He found this *' Christian Sketch,^ 
though coming before lSie public under the disguised pretension 
of an original' work, little more than s manel^, unfair, and, in 
his estimation, very disingenuous reprint of the memoir to which 
lie has already alluded. 

It was during the editor's residence in Edinburgh that he be- 
came personally acquainted with Miss Napier, and the acquaint? 
ance bad not long been formed before he was requested to visit 
^er, on a sick and dying bed. It was the^ he first learned the 
mature of that engagement injto which she had entered, and ze- 
ee.ived from her repeated assurances that it should be sacredly 
regarded. After a tedious and painful afiUctioq, she was removed 
by death ; and the manuscripts with which she bad been i^tirusted, 
were, by her appointment, presented to the editor in the most 
obliging manner. These included her ladyship's dianr, and th$ 
letters addressed to Lady Hope. For most of the other letters 
he is indebted to the kindness of Mrs. Mortio^er, fonn^ly Miss 
Bitchie, one of her ladyship's correspondents. 

On the nature of Lady Maxwell's writings, it is now unneceeh 
saiy for him to give an opinion ; but he may, perhaps, be indulged 
to state the prihciple by which he has been chiefly guided^ in 
making the present selection. T))fi Piary included » period of 
forty-two years, and extended over two thousand three hjmdre4 
qtiarto pages, closely written ; and the letters in his possession 
amounted to nearly three hundred. The limits to which the pnb- 
Hcation wiu confined, would admit but a very scanty portion of 
the originals ; yet he hoped that, with care, such a selection 
might TO made, as should leave on the reader's mind, the saoxe 
impressions of her ladyship's experience and character, as would 
have been produced by the perusal of tbe whole. To this, witl^ 
him a pimory object, he has paid the most scn^lous attentipn, 
it was also in accordance with this principle, that he determined 
to regulate the arrangement of the papers, as much as possible, 
in strictly chronological order. Besides, as the principle involved 
9f^ endeavour to present her ladyship's character and conduct 
under every shade of difference, the reader's pleasure and profit 
were thus consulted, by securing to the selection the greatest 
possible variety. 

With her ladyship's stvle, the editor has indulged no liberty, 
but such as must be found necessary in all posthumous works* 
which have not received the finishing polish of the author's own 


TliOBffh he wiriwd to «Toid all Qnneeessary ebtrusion of him-* 
•elf on me attention of the reader — a thing quite unpardonable 
while in eompany with Lady Maxwell — ^yet be has, where neces- 
eity or propriety seemed tp demand it, offered a few oecasional 
Mmarks, which he trusts will be found to give an additional in- 
terest to these volumes. 

The benefit to be deriyed from a serious perusal of works like 
the iHresent, has been amply desoribed by pious writers of differ- 
ent denominations; and it certainly augurs well of the present 
•tate of the reli^oas world, that the demand for Christian bio- 
graphy is on the increase. Such writings, indeed, are peculiar]^ 
interesting. They unfc^ to us the secrets of other fa^axts, and 
thtus qaaliiy us to commune more profitable with our own :^« 
" they increase our stock of facts with reg^d to the human mind, 
nnd powerfully promote our advancement in one of the most use- 
ful branchea of knowledge— the knowledge of man :*^ — they 
enable us to trace the sublime march of an immortal and re- 
deemed spirit, through the intricacies and dangers of this land of 
peril, to the kingdom of our heavenly Father : — they evince the 
efficacy of grace — -they publish the triumphs of faith, the pleasures 
of devotion, the truth of the promises, the faithfulness of God : — 
they especially tend to elevate our hopes ; give a higher and bet- 
ter tone to our feelings, and with a sweet constraining influence 
stimulate to high and laudable endeavours. 

These are assuredly desirable objects. Are we not all in 
danger of grovelling too much in the mud and mire of tbis v^orld's 
concerns? Is there not too much reason to fear, that unjust 
and unworthy notions of the efficacy of the atonement, and of the 
believer's privileges, are extensively prevalent 1 Profi^ssors, in 
eeneral, are consequently resting satisfied with comparatively 
h>w and inferior attainnients. Thus many, who ought to mam- 
fest the vigour and stability offaUterSj continue to exhibit all the 
weakness of infancy, or all the inconstancy of youth. These 
Tolomes, it is confidently hoped, will be found calculated, by the 
blessing of God, to inspire more exalted views and expectations; 
and especially aid in the important duties of the closet :-— by 
leading the reader to habits oi self-inspection ; by laying open to 
him the recesses of his own heart ; by enabling him to detect 
the devices of his spiritual adversaries; by teaching him the 
nature and advantages of faith ; and, by encouraging him to ex- 
pect the operation of God the Spirit on his soid : he will thus 
DC prepared for the fervours of devotion, become qualified to 
*' worship God in the Spirit," be determined to follow the Lord 
fully, and go from his private sanctuary strengthened for the dis- 
charge of the varied duties of his high and honourable calling. 

Though Lady Maxwell was decided in her own religious views, 
she cheerfully gave the right hand of fellowship to all who love 
our Lord Jesus Christ. When times and seasons seemed either 


to justify or demand it, she did not hesitate firmly to arow her 
principles : but she was never fond of controversy : — and she 
greatly lamented that Christians should suffer any nonessential 
points of difference to diminish their affection for one another, or 
to destroy that union and co-operation which should ever subsist 
among them. The editor trusts he has been influenced by the 
same spirit : — ^he has fearlessly stated facts, but he wished to 
avoid all contentious dispntation. The religious sentiments of 
her ladyship are now fainy submitted to the candid investigation 
of the relidous public ; and certainly these ean be no farther 
important than as they accord with the infallible standard of 
truth : but for piety to God — ^for benevolence to man — for dead- 
ness to the world — and for her strenuous endeavours to promoie 
the interest of Sion, and the salvation of souls, Lady Maxwell*8 
example may be safely recommended as worthy the imitatioii of 
all who are seeking for glory, immortality, and eternal life. 

Thc Editor. 
Brampton^ Kent, March 6, 1821. 



Prelinunary obaerrtttioiia— Lady Maxwvll't hMti, parentage, and adaea* 
lion— She ramoves to. Edinbursh ; to London— Ratnnia to Scodand— b 

married to Sir Walter Max weU— Death of Sir Walter and infant l._ 
She becomes penitent — Corresponds with Kr. Wesley — ^Joinj his aocie^ 
—Obtains mercy. 

The design of Christianity is to raiM the soul of man to m 
participation of the divine nature. As it came from God, so it 
ieads^ to God. It is a beam, shining forth from the Deity him* 
self, to irradiate that pa^h which conducts to immortal lira. In 
its udaptation to seeare this objeet, we perceive the depths of 
the riches ^both of the wisdom and knowledge of its divine 
Author. It finds man enveloped with darkness, and translates 
him into marvellous light :— *it finds him guilty, and points him to 
the Lamb of God that taketh away the sin of the world :— 4t 
finds him depraved and miserable, and directs him to a fountain 
open forsin and uneleanness. By the evidences of its divinity-* 
the sublimit of its doctrines — the eflScacy of its atonement— the 
purity and benevolence of its preoepts — the energy of its motives 
— and the glory ^f its rewardeh^he understanding is enlightened, 
the judgment convinced, and the noblest affections of the soul 
ealled into exercise. But this divine system demands from man, 
would he enjoy the blessings it offers to communicate, some- 
thing more than mere speculation. It requires, not only his pro- 
fomid attention and admiration, but also his implicit credence 
and cheerful acquiescence ; not only the homage of the under- 
standing, but also the willing sacrifice of the heart It is, when 
lie makes an unreserved surrender of himself to its guidance 
and authority ; when he hastens, as a conscious sinner, to shelter 
himself under the wings of the atonement ; and yields to its 
purifying spirit, that it conducts him onward to the possession 
of certain and unfading bliss. Then it is the gospel comes to 
liim, not *' in word otdy, but also in power, and in the Holy 
Ghost, and in much assurance ;" *' casting down imaginations, 
and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of 
God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience 
of Christ :'' then it is that grace ascends the throne of the 
heart, and there reigns *' tiuroug^ righteousness unto eternal lifis, 
hy Jesus Christ our Lord." He now " worships God in the 
Spirit, rejoioeth in Christ Jesus, and has no confidence in the 


10 Un or LAUT MA3CWBU. 

^ The kingdom of God is not meat tnd driak, Imt nghteons- 
0688, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghoat." The important 
diatinction between a religion merely external and fonnal, and 
that which has its seat in the heart, is rital in its principles, 
and purifying in its tendencies, ^eannot be too frequently nor too 
closely pressed upon the attention. The necessitir of the latter 
should be clearly stated ; its nature and eSdctn should be con- 
stantly held up to view. In the ministry of the Savionr, «nd 
his immediate successors in the sacred o&oef we find a perpe- 
tual recurrence to these topics ; they hold a piominenee which 
eannot be oreriooked but by the most careless obserrers. In 
the succeeding ages of the church, just in proportion as a faith 
working by love and purifying the heart has be^n insisted on, 
genuine Christianity has prsTafled, adoming the life witii the 
Sruits of righteousness, and stretchinigr over tl^ habitation of mor- 
tals a glory and defence. Seenre ponqr of healt, and reeti- 
tude of conduct wUl follow. Make the tree good, and the fruit 
also will be good. On this foundation alone must rest allrataomil 
hopes of a morality at once pure, benevolent, and disinfteresl- 
ed ; and to attain aU these important results tiiere most be a liv- 
ing union with Jesus : — ^'^ Abide in me» and I in. yo«. As the 
branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the viae ; no 
more can ^e, exc^t ye abide in me.^' 

These vital principles of the religion of the Son of €tod, pev^ 
haps, never more successfully nnfold themselves to the atten- 
tion of mankind than when their energies are displayed in the 
actual experience, enjoyinents, and doings of eminent Christians. 
These, while living, are lights to the world, shedding a radiance 
on all within the sphere of their action. Their example is at 
OQce lovely, and powerfully influential ; and, though dead, many 
of them continue to speak. By the pious records they have left 
behind they set forth the power of divine grace, in first sub- 
jugating their own hearts ; and then, in leading them forwaki, 
Irom the joys of conquest, to the possession of an eternal crown. 
Th^y beckon to posterity to follow them as they foUovired Christ. 
By publishing their errors, they warn of danger ; by telHng of 
their conflicts, they snmmon stdl contending champioas to giiii 
on the whole armour of God ; by recording the trophies they 
have won, they unfurl the banners of the cross ; and proclaias, 
as with shouts of triumph, cextain victory to aU who continue 
iaithful unto death. 

On these and other accounts, it is conceived, such reeords of 
the divine goodness should rarely, if ever, be suffered to remain 
in the shades of oblivion. They are as so many monuments^ 
erected to the praise and glory of God ; tk^j are calculated to 
be expensively beneficial to men ; they afford instruction, in one 
of its most pleasing forms, on suJl^ts of the hi^est import to 
every ca n didate for immortality. Indeed the chums of biogimr 

phy hsve long been botb ftk «i>dfti9kMrwledg«d. We follow the 
Atatesipan, the poet, the histomn, the phitoeo]pber, aloog their 
short career of hard-earned fame^ with pectiiar interest, and 
each i|i his place ma;^ teach as some naefiil lesson. Bat, while 
we linger here, onr riews and oor gratifieatioas are all oonfined 
withia the narrow limits of this traasitsry world. Our adbdra- 
tlon may be exeito4 as we gaze on the laurels so noUy won, 
and 80 gratefully entwined : bat little, if any thing, is tan^ us 
that stands immediately eoaneeted with the wellue of the soul 
or with a preparation f<nr a coming eteruty. . And yet, while 
contemplating the illustrioas achievements of the ^ mighty dead," 
we cannot' escape the convictien that all the enjoymeBts and 
gratifications allied to earth axe hastening to an end ; we cannot 
but feel a desire to learn how to seeare joys lasting as our n»> 
ture->-durable as the throne of the BTsaif al. Chrii^iaB biogr»- 
phy, then, has this superior claim upon our attention ; it teaches 
us not only how to Iwb, but ahn keno to die^ not only how to acquire 
the most valuable acquisitions ^r time^ but also how to sdenie 
the endless felicities of eternity. Under these impressions, the 
editor entertains a confident lM>pe that the followiog memorial 
will be read with lasting benefit by many, and thus oltunalely 
redound to the glory of God. 

Lady Maxwells maiden name was Darcy Brisbane. She was 
the youngest daughter of the late Thomas Brisbane, Esq., of 
Brisbane, in the county of Ayr, and parish of Laxgs.* It does 
not appear that there was any thing in Miss D. Brisbane's child- 
hood indicative of her future distinguished eminence in piety. To 
the drawings of the Father, the teachings of the Spirit, and 
4he first influences of grace, she remai^d inattentive ; and, 
during the early years ^c? her life, was an entire stranger to all 
painful apprehensions arising from a consoioasaess of gmk^ 
She was, indeed, from a child distinguished by a feeling, ha« 
mane, and charitable disposition. In after life she would often 
mention the high degree of pleasure which she had enjoyed, even 
at that early period, in relieving the necessities of the poor, and, 
on some occasions, in taking off part of her own clothes to cover * 
the shivering limbs of poor children. This, however, as she was 
accustomed to observe, arose from the mere impulse of gene* 
reus feeling, not being the effect of religious principle. She had 
not as yet any conviction, that a benevolence like this is the im- 
perative duty of every Christian. In those charities she had no 
reference to the glory of Grod : but the sympathies of her nature 
were thus gratified, and therefore she loved to indulge them. 
In the subsequent periods of her history, when her mind was 

* The £uDily of Rriahane is of conftideraUe antiqui^. The j^resent 
descendaoits are in poaseaaion of an elbow chair made of oak, havuig the 
fiunily anna, with the date 1357, carved on the back.— G4»de ihrwtgh 


enUghtbned, and her heart purified throngh obedienee to the truth ; 
this amiable disposition, invigorated by the principles, and guid- 
ed by the precepts of the gospel, will be seen patting forth all 
its energies to diminish, as much as possible, the general mass 
of human wretchedness. 

Miss Brisbane receiTed the first mdiments of an education , 
suited to her prospects in life, under the paternal roof; which 
was afterward matured and completed in that seat of every men- 
tal accomplishment, the city of Kdtnburgh. While she remain- 
ed here, nothing particular occurred which has been recorded ; 
only, that she was remarkable for quickness of mind, a high sense 
of propriety of conduct, and a peculiar elevation of spiiit. * From 
Edinburgh she removed to London, for the purpose of being pre- 
sented at court, and was thus introduced into the first ciicles of 
^ank and fashion . During her stay in London, she lived with Lord 
and Lady Lothian, the marchioness of Lothian being her aunt. 
Her residence in the southern metropolis was, however, but for 
a short season ; the marchioness, wtio was a pious lady, was 
soon called to her regard ; and on this event, Miss B. returned 
to her native land. One circumstance, which occurred while she 
remained in London, and which often afterward -affected her 
mind with wonder and joy, is worthy of being noticed. Being 
then about sixteen years of age, she went down to a small villa 
in the neighbourhood of London which belonged to her uncle* — 
While walking one day in' the gafden, the ganiener, encouraged 
by her serious, interesting appearance, came up to her, and with 
ail humility addressing her, stated the' deep distress of soul un- 
der which he then laboured- in consequence of sin; anid in effect 
inquired, " What must I do to be saved 1" The young lady was 
affected on witnessing his sorrow, and such directions and en- 
couragements were given in the way of reply as were the means, 
under God, of leading the poor inquirer to a knowledge of the 
Saviour. He immediately exchanged the '* spirit of heaviness '* 
for " the garment of praise," and went on his way exulting in 
the God of his salvation. Thus " out of the mouths of babes 
and sucklings God erdaineth strength ;" for this, as Lady M — 
used to observe, happened at a time when she was as ignorant of 
the truth, and of the meaning of the words she had employed, 
as the ground on which she stood. 

Soon aft;er her return from London, she entered into the mar- 
riage state with Sir Walter Maxwell, Bart., ofPoUock.* Thia 
union was much to her mind, and seemed, for a time, to open 
wide fields of worldly enjoyment to her visionary fancy and 

* The immediate ancestor of this ^eat branch [the Maxwells of Pol- 
lock] of the most noble family of Nithsdale was Homenis de MazwelL 
lord of Carlaverock ; who lived in the i^igxis of King Alexander the 2a 
and 3d. He married Maiy, daughter and heiress of Roland de Meanws* 
with whom be got a great accession to his estate in the west of Sontlaad» 

LIVE or LAI>t MAXWStL. 13 

aspiring hopes. But this yision of earthly bliss wu soon ended, 
and appeared shorter than the last watch of the night. In little 
more than two years she was deprired of her husband by death ; 
and in six weeks after, of her son and only chDd ; and thus was 
left a widow at nineteen years of age. This painfnl dispensation 
of Providence, by which the Loid left no rival to dispute his 
claim to the sole empire of her affection, was sanctified by his 
grace to the salvation of her soul. For, finding by experience 
how soon those sources may be dried up, from which misjudg- 
ing mortals calculate on drawing their earthly delights, Darcy 
Lady Maxwell's mind was thence led to seek its rest in God, 
making the Author of her being the fountain of her enjoyment. 
But as she was never known to mention her husband, nor yet her 
child, after their death ; and as her conversion to God was close- 
ly connected with those events, to learn the particulars of that 
important change became a delicate subject of inquiry, and to 
which she would never advert but with reluctance and brevity. 
To her most intimate friend, she has been known to remark m 
one short sentence : "Gorf brought me to himself ly afflictions V 
The following extract from her dianr, as it affectingly alludes to 
those painful privations, and more fully illustrates the early stages 
of her religious experience than any other part of her writings, 
shall be here inserted, though not strictly in chronological order. 
It is dated — 

" Sept. 3, X772. This morning the Lord collected my thoughts, 
and fixed my mind in meditation upon his dealings with me ever 
since I was a child. And O, what abundant matter did I re- 
collect, calculated to excite my wonder, gratitude, and love. 
How has he from my earliest days hedged up my .path. When 
following the dictates of Satan and my own wicked heart, he, 
with a strong hand, yet by degrees, rescued me from the ways 
of the destroyer. lie gradually enlightened my mind, showed 
me the evil of sin, and gave me ardent desires after moral rec- 
titude. Then he caused the sun of prosperity to shine resplen- 

VIZ., the lands or baronies of Meams, Nether Pollock, Drypa, Calder- 
wood, &c., &c. 

Sir Walter Maxwell was the second son of John Maxwell, of Blanar- 
hOl, who, upon the death of Sir John Maxwell of Pollock, succeeded to 
his estate and honours, and was fourth baronet of Pollock. — Vide Douglas* 
BaronoMt p. 45(M52. 

For the ori^, enmdeur, and antiquity of the great and illustrious name 
of Maxwell, vide Douglas* Peerage^ p. 514. 

The editor regrets that he has not been able to ascertain the exact dates 
of either her ladyship's birth or marriage. The records of the church at 
Largs were carefully searched b^ a friend, but no register of these events 
could be met with ; owing, as it is supposed, to a volume of these records 
being either mislaid or lost. Calculating, however, from highly probable 
data, her ladyship appears to have been bom about the year 1742 — ^to havs 
married in 175 h s es me a widow in 1761— and died in 1810^ aged 68. 

14 UVX or ^40T MAXWIXL. 

dent upon me, and gvfe me to taate of what the world calUhi^ 
piness, — the possession of riches, honour, and pleasure. Bat 
he saw I could not bear this, and therefo;re, with a hand gru" 
ciously severe^ tore all from me, until the language of my poor 
heart, almost callous with reiterated strokes of his rod, was^ 
* Fate, drop the cartein ; I can lote no mora.' 

I did not then know that the thoughts of my God toward me, 
even in these dispensations of almost unmingled wo, were 
thoughts of peace, and not of evil. Having thus brought me 
into the wilderness, he spoke comfortably to me ; drew me with 
the cords of love, with the bands of a man ; taught me, as T 
could bear them, the lessons of his grace ; he informed my judg- 
ment, h\jX first affected my heart. Without this, I shoufd have 
gone heavily on, if at all. The passions, under proper regula- 
tions, answer a noble end in religion. All the rational informa- 
tion and conviction the mind of man is capable of receiving, 
would, I think, effect but little without the aid of these warm 
auxiliaries. With me, the Lord made them mutually to assist 
each other ; and by the effectual operations of his Holy Spirit 
upon both, clearly convinced me of my original pollution in con- 
sequence of Adam's sin ; and of my guilt, in consequence of my 
accumulated transgressions; whereby I mustiiave remained for 
ever miserable, without a saving interest in Christ. Yet in this 
wretched state I had little, if any, of those dreadful terrors of 
hell and damnation which many experience. The Lord so tem- 
pered judgment with mercy, that I was rather drawn than driven ; 
and generally was supported and often comforted, with hope/s 
of obtaining all that was necessary for happiness. He gave me 
line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a 
little ; till, at last, having feared God for some years, the Sun of 
righteousness arose upon my soul with healing in his wings. 
He dispelled the cloud, removed condemnation, and for great 
bitterness gave sweet peace ; * the law of the Spirit of life in 
Christ Jesus made me free from the law of sin and death.'— 
And then, O my God, 

*' ' My chains fell, my heart was free, 
I rose, went forth, and followed thee !' ** 

The latter part of this valuable extract anticipates a period in 
Lady Maxwell's experience to which thie reader has not as yet 
been gradually conducted ; some intermediate stages may yet 
be traced. The passage is here adduced chiefly to show that it 
was in the school of painful bereavement she was first taught 
the comparative emptiness of all woiidiy good, and led to seek 
for a felicity at once pure, substantial, and permanent. Thus is 
Providence, in its varied events, rendered subservient to the pur- 
poses of grace, and one of the UdeaoB of sailyation : — ^thus ^i^ 

oar greatest tmia psored to be bat dMgaued blenQii% tod Cmb 

the most deadly bittere in this world are extracted immortal 
aweets. By afflictiona sanctified, the mind is humbled and the 
will bent ; our strong grasp of the world is broken; the Tanity, 
of its enjoyments, and their insufficiency to meet the wants of 
the mind, are fully displayed. By afflictions the heart is ofieii 
soAened, and opened for the admission of truth, and disposed to 
seek a portion above. Seasons of affliction ought, therefore, to 
be improved, both in respect of oorselyes and others— in the 
former, as affording a mean of getting good — and in the latter, 
as furnishing an advaAtageoos season of being useful to othera. 
For not Ladv Maxwell only, but hundreds in the choreh militant, 
and thousands in the choreh triumphant say, '* God brought me 
to himself by afflictions." Not because, in the first instance, 
Grod has not thundered into the soul terrific peals from MounI 
Horeb, shaking the heart like an earthquake ; nor by the melt- 
ing strains of Zion moved the rock to contrition, are we thence 
to question the reality of conviction of sin, nor the genuineness 
of conversion to God. For these afflictions are useful only as 
tbey drive or draw us to that gospel which is full of Christ, and 
hence is " the power of God unto salvation." 

It was while Lady Maxwell remained the child of sorrow, thai 
she became acquainted with that part of the church of Chnsl 
with which she was afierward associated, and of which she re- 
mained a distinguished and useful member until she was united 
to the church of the first-born. The inducing circumstances 
which first led to this union are at present but indistinctly known ; 
a few principal and well known facts may be mentioned. '* The 
ministry of the Rev. John Wesley and of the Rev. George White- 
field was, at that time, generally approved in Scotland, and their 
congregations, wherever they went, were large and respectable* 
The ministers also in connection with the former had attained a 
degree of popularity, and were made the honoured instruments 
in the conversion of many souls. Nor were their acceptance 
and usefulness confined to the lower or middle classes of the 
community ; for ministers of the Establishment and members of 
the university, persons of rank and title, were found mingled in 
their audiences. And it is. probable that some of those pious 
nobles who were among the admirers of Wesley and Whitefield, 
were the instruments of first bringing Lady Maxwell to the Wes- 
ley an chapel." 

But leaving what is only conjectural, it appears certain that 
she became personally acquaint^ with Mr. Wesley in the year 
1764. At this early period a mutual attachment was formed, 
which continued steady and unabated until his spirit returned to 
God ; and in its results, doubtless, tended in a measure to regu- 
late her views, and to guide her determinations throughout the 
M'hole remainder of her life. Oi^ referring tq Mr. Wealey^ 

16 LI^K or L4DV MAItWEU. 

Jounialj we find him preaching' at Edinburgh, Maj 9^th, of the 
above year, and after visiting Elgin, Aberdeen, and other places 
in the north, he returned to the metropolis on the 16th of Jane, 
. and again preached to very large congregations, both on the 
Calton HUl, and in the high-school yard. (Wesley's Works, vol. 
iv, p. 179.) Four days after this, Mr. Wesley wrote to her 
ladyship the following letter, and a regular correspondence now 
commenced. As Mr. Wesley's letters (Wesley's Works, vol. 
vii, p. 15) tend to deveibpe the state of her mind at this period, 
and contain important instruction, there need be no apology for 
the appearance of a few of them in this place. 

^^ Newcastte-upan-Tyne, June 20, V!6i, 
" Will it be a^eeable to my dear Lady Maxwell that I trouble 
her with a letter so soon % And that I write with so little cere- 
mony ^ That I use no compliment, but all plainness of speech \ 
If it be not, you must tell me so, and I shall know better how to 
•peak for the time to come. Indeed it would be unpleasing 
to me to use reserve : the regard I feel for you strongly inclines 
me to -'think aloud,' to tell^you every thought which rises in my 
heart. I think God has taken unusual paind, so to speak, to 
make you a Christian : a Ohristian, in deed, (not in name,) wor- 
shipping God in ^irit and in truth : having in you the mind that 
was in Christ, and walking as Christ also walked. He has 
given you affliction upon affliction ; h6 has used every possible 
means to unhinge your soul from the things of earth, that it 
might fix on him alone. Ifow iar the design of his love has 
succeeded, I could not well judge from a short conversation. 
Your ladyship will therefore give me leave to inquire. Is the 
heaviness you frequently feel merely owing to weakness of body, 
and the loss of near relations ? I will hope it is not. It might, in- 
deed, at first spring from these outward pressures. But did not 
the gracious Spirit of God strike in and take occasion from these 
to convince you of sin, of unbelief, of the want of Christ t And 
is not the want of this one great cause, if not the greatest, of 
your present distress ? If so the greatest danger is, either that 
you should stifle that conviction, not suffering yourself to be con- 
vinced that you are all sin^ the chief of sinners; or, that you 
should heal the wound slightly, that you should rest before you 
know Christ is yours, before his Spirit witnesses with your spirit 
that you are a child of God. My dear lady, be not afraid to 
know yourself; yea, to know yourself as you are known. How 
soon then will you know your Advocate with the Father, Jesus 
Christ the righteous! And why not this day? Why not this 
hour if you feel your want ? I beseech the God iind Father of 
our Lord Jesus Christ to look upon you now ! O give thy ser- 
vant power to believe ; to see and feel how thou hast loved her ! 
Now let her sink down into the arms of thy love, and say unto 
her soul, * I am thy MlvatioA ' 


'* With regard to particular advices, I know not how far your 
ladyship would have me to proceed. I would not be backward to 
do any thing in my power ; and yet I would not obtrude. But 
in any respect you may comiilaand, my dear lady, your ladyship's 
affectionate servant, J. Wesliy." 

The above letter appears to have been written at the request 
of Lady Maxwell. In her reply, she had evidently opened her 
mind to this eminent minister of Christ with frankness and can- 
dour. This produced the following, from which it may be safely 
mferred she had not yet attained redemption in the blood of 
Jesus ; but saw her need, and was seeking for it with increasing 
ardour, though not perhaps in the way of simple faith. 

•• Manchestery July 10, 1764. 

*' My Dear Lady, — ^Till I had the pleasure of receiving yours, 
I was almost in doubt whether you would think it worth your 
while to write or not. So much the more I rejoiced when the 
doubt was removed in so agreeable a manner. I cannot but think 
of you oAen : I seem to see yon just by me, panting after God, 
under the heavy pressure of bodily weakness and faintness, be* 
xeaved of your dearest relatives, convinced that you are a sinner, 
a debtor that has nothing to pay, and just ready to cry out, 

* Jesas, now IVe lost my all, 
Let me cm thy bonom Ull.' 

" Amen, Lord Jesus ! Speak, for thy servant heareth ! Speak 
thyself into her heart ! Lift up the hands that hang down, and 
the feeble knees. Let her see thee full of grace and truth, and 
make her glad with the light of thy countenance ! 

" Do not stop, my dear lady, one moment, becluse you have 
not felt sorrow enough. Your friend above has felt enough 
of it for you ; . . 

* Lamb of God, was ever pain, 
Was ever love like thine.' 

Look, look unto him, and be thou saved ! He is not a God far 
off. He is now hovering over you with eyes of tenderness and 
love ! Only believe. Then he turns your heaviness into jor. 
Do not think you are not humble enough, not contrite enough, 
not earnest enough. You are nothing : but Christ is all. And 
be is yours ! The Lord God write it upon your heart, and take 
you for a habitation of God through the Spirit. 

'* O that you may be ever as dead to the world as you are now. 
I apprehena the greatest danger from that quarter. If you should 
be induced to seek happiness out of Christ, how soon would your 
good desires vanish ! Especially, if you should give way to the 
temptation, to which your person, your youth, and your fortune 
will not fail to expose you. If you escape this snare I trust you 
will be a real Christian, having the power as well as the form 


of rel]fpK>n. I expect you will then have likewise better h/salth 
and spirits : perhaps to-morrow. But 0, take Christ to-day ! I 
lon^ to have you happy in him I Surely few have a more earnest 
desire of your happiness than, my very dear lady, your lady- 
ship's most affectionate servant, J. Weslry.'^ 

The nature and progress of Lady Maxwell's experience may 
be farther gathered from a covenant with God, into which she 
now entered, and afterward renewed at different times during; a 
succession of years. The practice of Covenanting with God 
must be acknowledged to be very ancient, and, as it has a scrip* 
tural warrant, a divine sanction, so its utiUty has frequently beea 
proved both by individuals and collective bodies of Christians. 
That which is here copied is dated August 9th, 1764, and is as 
follows : — 

" I am this day renewing a covenant made with God in Jana« 
ary, 1762, but never written until now. Lord, help me in this 
great work. It is in the view of thy ereat strength alone that t 
am attempting it, being altogether uniS)Ie in myself to vow unto 
thee or to perform. Yet I would, in obedience to thy command, 
lay hold on thy strength, that I may be able to make peace with 
thee ; and, blessed be thy great name, thou hast said that such 
shall make peace with thee. Isa. xxviij 5. If thou. Lord, wilt 
manifest thy dear Son to me, dear up my evidence of my interest 
in him, shed abroad his love at all times in my heart, and let me 
feel him ever drawing me to himself with the cords of love, and 
with the bands of a man, and in times of trial niake his strength 
{>erfect in my weakness, and not desert me in dut v nor in tempta- 
tion ; if thou. Lord, wilt do these great things for me^ then, in 
thy strength, J give myself unto thee, soul, body, and spirit, in 
the bonds of an everlasting covenant never to be forgotten. 
Despairing in myself, I flee to the great refdge set before me, 
Jesus Christ the righteous, desiring to accept of him as my Pro- 
phet, my Priest, ai^ my King. I give up my heart whoUjr to 
him, earnestly praying that he may empty it of sin and vanity, 
and fill it with his mimortal Self, that he at all times may be the 
object of my warmest wishes. . 1 engage. Lord, if thou wilt give 
me thy strength, ever to espouse thy cause and interest in the 
world, however it may be despised ; and to esteem' thy reproach 
more than fine gold. 

* No cross, no suffering I deeUne, • 

Only make my heart all thine !' 

^* But, Lord, if thou dost not that, I shall fall a prey to every 
temptation, and so perish ; for thou knowest the deceitfiilness of 
my heart, and how hardened it is by sin, so that nothing but thy 
love can allure it. But, Lord, as thou art in Christ reconciling 
the world to thyself, I believe that in him thou art pure, univer- 
sal love \ that thy tenderness to those who are seeking thee 


through him is ineonceiyable ; therefore into tiiat oeeaa of mercy 
I desire to plunge myself. O give me strong faith to hty hold 
on those i^ecious promises which thou hast ffiven, for diTine 
teaching, pardon, and sanctification ; and now, Lord, I gire my- 
self and my resolutions into thy hand ; do thou make them good, 
and let none pluck them out of thy hand, that I may be thine in- 
that day when thou makeet up thy jewels. — Signed, Daney 

' The parents of Lady Maxwell were memben of the Esta- 
blished Church of Scotland : a church which, for its approxima- 
tion to Scripture in its constitution ; the leaniing, talents, and 
respectability of its ministors ; the extent of information on reli- 
gious sublects among its members, and the general tone of doe- 
Uine held forth in it, was, in the opinion of W hitofield, aod ti, in 
the opinion of many equally unprejudiced and uninterested, the 
beft NATION A.L establishment in the world. In this church Lady 
Maxwell, had been educated ; in it she received much spiritual 
profit, from the stated labours of many pious and able ministers 
then resident in. Edinburgh ; and continued occasionally to attend 
the ministry of the word, and regularly to communicate with its 
members, to the end of her life.^ fiut she possessed a mind 
superior to party views or party distinctions : her soul was truly 
catholic. She soon began to distinguish between what is merely 
human in the varied modes of religion, and what is divine. To 
its circumstantials she was not indifferent, ^t she attached a 
paramount importance to what is essentiaL These enlarged and 
benevolent views led her to admire true piety wherever she 
found it, whether within or without the precincts of this or that 
particular denomination; and to avail herself of every mean 
rrovidence held out to her for the attainment of this pearl of 
great price. And believing, after mature deliberation, that many 
additional means would be afforded her by forming a closer union 
with that body of Christians in connection with the Rev. John 
Wesley, she about this period became a regular member of his 
society. In doing this, she relinquished no privilege formerly 
enjoyed ; suffered no aba^ment of attachment to the establish- 
ment of her country ; but continued equally to revere and love 
whatever in it was excellent, and still to the utmost of her power 
afforded, " without partiality,'* her countenance and aid for the 
furtherance of true religion in every varied department of the 
Church of Christ. On her informing Mr. Wesley of the im- 
portant step she had taken, he sent her the following seasonable 

" Sept, 22, 1764. 

" My Dear Lady,-^You need be under no manner of appre- 
hension of writing too often to me. The more frequent your 
letters are, the more welcome they will be. When I have not 
heardfromyoufor some time, I begin to be full of fears: lam 

90 Lin or ladt maxwkll* 

afraid either that your bodily weakness inereases, or that you 
desires after God grow cold. I consider you are at present but 
a tender, sickly plant, easily hurt by any rough blast : but I trust 
this will not be so long : for you have a strong helper. And the 
Lord whom you serve, though feebly and imperfectly, will sud- 
denly tH>me to his temple. When, Jjord 1 Are all things ready 
now 1 Here is the sinner : one whose mouth is stopped ; who 
has nothing to pay ; who pleads neither her own harmlesaness, 
nor works, nor good desires, nor sineerity ; but can adopt that 
strange word, 

* I give up every plea beside, 
Lord, I am damn'd ; but thou hast died.' 

He has died ; therefore you shall live, O do not reason against 
him ! Let him take you howl Let him take you just as you 
are, and make you what is acceptable in his sight. 

" It gives me pleasure indeed to hear that God has given you 
resolution to join the society. Undoubtedly ypu will suffer re- 
proach on the account, but it is the reproach of Christ. And you 
will have large amends, when the Spirit of glory and of God 
shall rest upon you. Yet I foresee a danger : at first you will 
be inclined to think that all the members of the society are in 
earnest ; and when you find that same are otherwise, (which will 
always be the case in so large a body uf people,) then prejudice 
may easily steal in, and exceedingly weaken your soul. O be- 
ware of this rock of offence. When you see any thing amiss, 
(upon hearsay you will not readily recdve It,) remember our 
Lord^s word, ' What is that to thee 1 follow thou me.^ And I 
entreat you, do not regard the half Methodists, (if we must use 
the name.) Do not mind them who endeavour to hold Christ in 
one hand and the world in the other. I want you to be all a 
Christian ; such a Christian as the Marquis de Renty, or Gregory 
Lopez was ! Such a one as that saint of God, Jane Cooper ! 
An sweetness, all gentleness, all love ! Methinks you are just 
what she was when I saw her first. I shrink at the thought of 
seeing you what she was when I saw her last.* But why should 
1 1 What is all the pain of one that is glorifying God in the 
fires, with * Father, into thy bands I commend my spirit !' 

" May I not take upon me to give you one advice more ? be 
very wary how yoa contract new acquaintance. All, even sin- 
cere people, will not profit you, I should be pained at your con- 
versing frequently with any but those who are of a deeply serious 
spirit, and who speak closely to the point. You need not con- 
demn them, and yet you may say, * This will not do for me.' 

" May He that loves you richly supply all your wants, and 
answer your enlarged desires ! So prays, my very dear lady, 
" Your affectionate servant, J. Wbslky." 

- * An aUusion to J. O— *s last illneas. She died of the «iii02^pow.— En 


Hex ladyship had jiot, as yet, commenced a regidar diary, bat 
wrote occasionaUy, when ^bout to participate of the supper of 
her Lord. A few extracts from these, with Mr. Wesley's cor- 
respondence, will conduct us to the period when she was enMed 
to believe with her heart unto righteousness ) and, consequently, 
obtained "peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ." 

In March, 1765, she writes : — " In the view of the sacrament 
to-morrow, I feel an inclination, in the strength of God, to renew 
my former engagements to be the Lord's, being in some degree 
convinced that there is no lasting peace but in his favour, and 
no solid happiness but in his friendship ; both of which I desire 
to believe. Blessed Lord, thou art in mercy offering salvation 
to a lost world, for the sake of thy dear Son, through whom alone 
I would presume to covenant with thee. He hath died, O God, 
and that is my only plea ; reject me not, though in myself only 
fit for hell, but accept of me in the Beloved. O Jesus, undertake 
for me ; make me thine in the bond of an everlasting covenant, 
for I give myself unto thee ; incline my heart unto thee and thy 
ways, and O, seal me thine to-morrow at thy own table. I would 
give up my heart to thee, O take it, reign for ever in it, and sub* 
ject all that is in me to thyself. In time of trial stand by me ; 
sustain me in the path of duty, let me not start aside ; fill me 
with love ; and thine, and only thine, in thy strength I promise 
to be. Signed, D. M." 

On the 23d of April of this year, Mr. Wesley again visited 
Edinburgh in his way to Ireland, and had a short interview with 
her ladyship. This afforded mutual satisfaction. He found her 
steadfast, humble, and contrite, but not yet in possession of peace. 
And it would seem, from the following letter, that his discrimi- 
nating eye had detected in this young disciple the remains of a 
legal spirit. Though she herself might be unconscious of it, 
and certainly it was contrary to her creed, yet he feared she waa 
in s<Hne measure depending On her own doings for acceptance 
with God. To this danger he .was ever sensibly alive, and there- 
fore seized an early opportunity to caution her ladyship against 
it, and to urge her to expect 'justifying mercy simply by faith, 
through the atoning merit of an all-sufficient Redeemer. Surely 
none who read the following epistles will continue either to think 
or to insinuate that this venerable minister of the gospel taught 
salvation by the deeds of the law. 

" Londonderry, May 2^ 1765. 

" My Dear Lady^ — ^It is not easy for me to express the satis- 
faction I received in the few hours I lately spent with yon. Be- 
fore I saw you, I had many fears concerning you, lest your con- 
cern for the one thing should be abated, lest your desires should 
be cooled, or your mind a little hurt, by any of the things which 
have lately occurred.* So much the greater was my joy when 

* Mr. Wesley tUudes to the republication of a certain work, which 


■n those feari weie removed : wlien I found the same openness and 
sweetness as before, both in yonr spirit and conrersation, and 
^e same earnestness of desire after the only thing which de« 
serves the whole strength of our afiection. I believe tenderness 
and steadiness are seldom planted by nature in one 6|)irit. Bat 
what is too hard ftr almighty grace t This can give strength and 
softness together. This is able to fill your soul with all firmness, 
as well as with aU gentleness. And hereunto are vou called ; 
for nothing less than all the mind which was in Christ Jesus. 

'* It is with great pleasure that I observed your fixed resolu- 
tion not to rest in any thing short of this. I know not wh^ you 
should : why should you be content with being half a Christian^ 
devoted partly to God and partly to the world, or more properly, 
to the devil ! Nav, but let us be all for God ! He has created 
the whole — our whole body, soul, and spirit, fie that bought 
us has redeemed the whole : and let him take the purchase of 
his blood ! Let him sanctify the whole, that all we have and 
are may be a sacrifice of praise and thanksgivmg ! 

'* I am not afraid of your being satisfied with less than this : 
but I am afraid of your seekiujg it the wrong way. Here is the 
danger, that you should seek it, not by faith, but, as it were by 
the works of the law. See how exactly the aposde speaks : 
you do not seek it directly^ but as it were by works. I fear lest 
this should be your case, which might retard your receiving the 
blessing^. Christ has died for you : he has bought pardon for 
you, why should you not receive it now ? while you have this 
paper in your hand 1 Because you have not done thus or thus % 
See your own wtA'ks ! Because you are not thus and thus ! More 
contrite? More earnest 1 More sincere? See your own ri^fhteous^ 
ness ! O let it all go ! None but Christ ! None but Christ ! And if 
he alone is sufficient — if what he has suffered and done — ^if his 
blood and righteousness are enough, they are nigh thee ; in thy 
fnouth and in thy heart ! See, all things are ready ! Do not wait 
for this or that preparation. For something to bring to God ! 
Bring Christ — ^rather, let him bring you. Bring you home to God ! 
Lord Jesus, take her ! Take her and all her sins ! Take her, as 
she is ! Take her now ! Arise, why tarriest thou ! Wash away 
her sins ! Sprinkle her with thy blood ! L^ her sink down into 
the arms of thy love, and cry out, My Lord and my God ! 

'* Let me hear from you as soon as you can. You do not 
know how great a satisfaction this is to, my dear lad y, . 

" Your ever afifectionate servant, J. Wesley. 

" Be pleased to direct to the New Room, in Dublin." 

«bout this period excited much idle and nnprodtable speculation. In his 
journal he writes, April 23, of this year, **I preached at Dunbar about 
noon, and in the evening at Edinburgh. My coming was quite seasonaUe, 
(though unexpected,) as those bad letters, published in the name of Mr. 
Henrey, and reprinted here by Mr. John Enkine, bad iBide a great dsol 
of TiifAse.**-^Wisley*8 Works, vol. iv» p. 200. 


** Kilkenny, JMy 5, 17B6. 

" My DeAR Lady,— As yours was sent from DaUin to Cork, 
fthd back a|^n hither, I did not receive it till yesterday. I am 
now setting my face again toward England : but I expect to be 
in Dublin till the beginning of next month, and then to cross 
over, so as to be at Manchester (if it please God) about the be* 
ffinning of August. Either at Dublin or at Manchester I hope to 
nave the pleasure of hearing from you. This is indeed a plea- 
sure, as it is to write to you ; though sometimes I do this with 
fear : a fear lest I should give you any pain, as I know the ten-, 
demess of your spirit. I wisn I could be of some service to 
you : that I could encourage you to cast yourself on Him that 
lores you: that is now waiting to pour his peace into your 
heart, to give you an entrance into the holiest by his blood. 
See him, £iee him ! Full of grace and tmth ! Full of grace 
and truth for thee ! I do net doubt but he is gradually work- 
ing ip you : but I want you to experience likewise an inetan* 
taneouB work: then shall the gradual go oh swiftly. Lord, 
speak ! thy servant heareth ! Say thou, * Let there be light!' 
and there shall be light Now let it spring up in your heart ! 

'' It may be. He that doea ail things well has wise reasons, 
though not apparent to us, for working mere gradually in you 
than he has done of late yeax» in most others. It may please 
him to give you the consciousness of his favour, the convicuoa 
that you are accepted through the Beloved, by almost insensible 
degrees, like the dawning of the day^ And it is all one how 
it began, so you but walk in the light. Be this given in an in- 
stant or by degrees, hold it fast. Christ is yours : he hath loved 
vau r he hath given himself for you ! Therefore you shall 
oe holy as he is holy, both in heart and in all manner of con- 

** Give me leave, my dear friend, to add a word likewise con- 
cerning your bodily health. You should in lany wise give your- 
self all the air and exercise that you can. Aim! I should advise 
you, (even though long custom made it difficult, if that were the 
ease,) to sleep as early as possible, never later than ten, in or- 
der to rise as early as health wiH permit. The having good spi- 
rits, so called, or the contrary, very much depends on this. I 
believe medicines will do. you little service : you need only pro- 
per diet, exact regularity, and constant exercise, tvith the bless- 
ing of God. 

** Your speaking or writing was never tedious to me yet ; and 
I am peisusided never will be, Your letters are more and more 
agreeable to, my very dear lady, 

" Your most affectionate servant, 

"J. Wesley." 

August 10th, of this year. Lady Maxwell agaih wrote as fol- 
lows : — " Having, by the kind providence of God, a prospect of 


govag to the sacrament to-morrow, I wonld, in the strength c^ 
the Lard, renew my engagements to be his. He has sustained 
me until now, and still is, 1 trust, drawing me after him. Gra- 
cious God, let me not be disobedient to £e heavenly voice, hut 
with my tdhole heart may I ever seek thee. O Jesus, under- 
take fear me ; to thee 1 would desire to give myself up in time 
and in eternity. Set me as a seal upon thy heart, and let me 
experience ail thy fulness. I again subscribe with my hand 
nnto the Lord, and give myself up; accept of me for Christ^s 
sake, and seal me to-morrow. 

"Dabcy Maxwell.'* 

The latter end of this year Mr. Wesley again addressed her, 
and seems to caution her against some dangers to which he 
kLew her ladyship was exposed. 

''London, Dec, 1, 1765. 

** Mt Dear Last — Perhaps there is scarce any child of man 
that is not at some time a little touched by prejudice, so far at 
least as to be troubled, though not wounded. But it does not 
hurt, unless it fixes upon the mind. It is not strength of under^ 
standing which can prevent this. The heart, which otherwise 
suffers most by it, makes the resistance which only is effectual. 
I cannot easily be prejudiced against any person whom I tender- 
ly love, till that love declines. So long, iherefore, as our affec- 
tion is preserved by watchfulness, and prayer to Him that gave 
it, prejudice must sta.nd at a distance. Amither excellent de- 
fence against it is openness. I admire y<m upon this account. 
You dare (in ^ite of that strange reserve which so prevails in 
North Britain) speak the naked sentiments of your heart. I 
hope my dear friend will never do otherwise. In simplicity and 
godly sincerity, the very reverse of worldly wisdom, have aU 
your conversation in the world. 

" Have you' received a gleam of light from above, a spark of 
fkith? O let it not go. Hold fast, by his grace, that tamest 
of your inheritance. Come just as yon are, and come boldly, 
to the throne of grace. You need not delay. . Even now the 
bowels of Jesus Christ yearn over you. What have you to do 
with tth-morrow T t love you to-day. And how much more 
does he love you ! He 

* Pities still his wandering sheep, 
Longs to bring you to his fold r 

To-day hear his voice, the voice of Him that speaks as never 
man spake : the voice that raises the dead, that calls the things 
which are not as though they were. Hark ! What says he 
now ? ' Fear not ! only believe ! Woman, thy sins are forgiven 
thee : go in peace : thy faith hath made thee whole.' Lideed 
I am, my dear lady, 

" Your ever afieoiionate servant, John Weslet," 


In this state jof miud I^y Maxwell coatiQaed, with little r^f 
riatioQ, during the two following years. She scrapnlously exa- 
mined every step of her propess, and was extremely jealou# lest 
ahe should err. Fear and hope alternately prevailed. Her de- 
sires, however, continued ardent, and her deternttnation to live 
to God remained unaltered. She had likewise become zealous 
in the cause of religion, and was deeply affected when any thing 
occurred calculated to stain its purity, or to lead the unwary to 
question its reality* Something of this nature had happened in 
Edinburgh, which led her ladyship to state the matter to Mr. 
WiiUley. This drew from him the following reply :— 

" Neweastle-upon-Tyn^^ May 6, 1766. 

" My Dear Lady, — ^it was well that I did not hear any thing 
of a trial you lately had, till it was past. You have great reason 
to bless God that this did not ium you out of the way. Yon 
might very easily hive inferred from it that *all these people 
&re alike ;' and thence have' given way to a thousand reasonings, 
which would have brought you into utter darkness. But it is 
plain you are not left to your own weaJmess. You have a strong 
helper. The Lord stands on your right hand, thesefore you are 
not moved. And I make no doubt that he will continae to he^, 
till his arm bring you salvs^ion. But, in tbe meantime, you 
have need of patience ; and the more so, because you have a 
weak body. This, one may expect, will frequentlr press down 
the soul ; especially till you are strong in faith. But how soob 
may that be, seeing it is the gift, yea, and the free gift, of God 1 
Therefore it is never far off* The word is nigh thee ! ' Only 
believe !' Look unto Jesu»4 Be thou saved ! Receive out of 
his fulness grace upon grace ; mercy, and grace to keep mercy. 

'* On the 24th instant I hope to be at Edinburgh, with my 
wife and daughter. But perhaps you will see the ssdvatioB en 
God before you see,, my dear lady, 

" Your ever affectionate jservant, 

"J. Wesmy." 

During the year of 1767, Lady Maxwell appears to have suf- 
fered much from bodily indisposition : thiB might be partly occa- 
sioned by the exercises of her mind ; but her constitution, ever 
since the death of her husband, had been extremely delicate. 
All that is necessary to throw light on her religious progress 
this year will be found in the following letter, and in twoiextracts 
from her papers. These shall be given in the order of their dates. 

*' Norwich, Feb. St, 1767. 

"My Dear Lady,. — ^For a considerable time I was under 
apprehensions that you were in a state of temptation. And as 
I had no other way of helping you, this put me upon commending 
you the more frequently to Him that is able to save yod. 
Yoar last, therefore, was doubly acceptable to me, as it relieved 
me from my feazs coooemipg you, and gave m6 the occaaioia of 



teioicing OY^r one for whom I hare the most sincere and tender 
affection. Sure it is that the grace of God is sufficient for you, 
in tMs and in every trying hour. So you have happily experi- 
enced it to be already : and so, I trust, you wilt experience to 
the end. Bat you must not imagine that you are yet out of the 
reach of temptation : thoughts will be suggested again and again : 
80 that you have still need to be 

* For ever standing on your guard, 
And watching unto prayer.' 

And let my deaririend keep at the utmost distance from tempta- 
tion, and carefully shun all occasions of evil. O it is a good, 
though painful fight ! You find you are not sent a warfare at your 
own cost. You have Him with you, who can have compassion 
on your infirmities ; who remembers you are but dust ; and who, 
at the same time, has all power in heaven and earth, and so is 
able to save you to the uttermost. Exercise, especially as the 
spring comes on, will be of greater service to your health than 
a hundred medicines : and I know not whether it will not be re- 
stored in a larger measure than for many years, when the peau^e 
of God &ces in your heart. Is it far off? Do not think so ! 
His ear is not heavy ! He now hears the cry of your heart ! — > 
Aad will he not answer \ Why not to-day 1 Come, Lord Jesus, 
come quickly!- Your openness obliges roe to be more than 
ever, my dear lady, your affectionate friend and servant, 

John Wesley." 

" March 14, 1767. Hiring a view of going to the Lord^s 
table to-day, though distressed in mind and weak in body, and 
without those comfortable views which! formerly had; yet, 
being convinced that without God I mutl be miserable, and 
knowing that there is no access to him but through the Son of 
his love, I desire, in his strength, to give myself- up to him. 
Lord, make me more wfllmg ; remove what hinders ; make this 
surrender effectual ; and ratify it in heaven, for Christ's sake. O 
give me to profit more by the ordinance than formerly : Lord, 
draw me, and I will run after thee : quicken me, and I will 
call upon thee ; and make me, O Jesus, thine in time and for 
ever. D. M." 

" October. The Lord in mercy having spared me until bow, 
and as he is now giving me another opportunity of going to his 
Son's table, and having been Tcry merciful to me since I was 
last there, I would here record his goodness; take shame 
and confusion to myself for past unfaithfulness, and renew 
my engagements to be his for ever. O God, thou hast been 

food ; to thee be endless praise ! Upon mature deliberation, 
still see it my greatest honour, and desire it as my highest 
privilege^ to be devoted to God ; and therefore, in thy strength, 
O Jehovah, in thy name, O Jesus, I again cheerfully desire- 

s^rm <m lady xjlxwxll* 87 

to f^ve myself to the Lofd, soul, body, and spifit, §n time and 
eternity. O let it be effectual ; and to-morrow, at thy table, 
shine upon me, and give me power to live more to tbee than 
Mtherto, for Christ's sake. B. M." 

And now the day of her redemption drew near. The yisioa 
had tarried, but she had also waited ibr it. She had long gone 
on her way weeping, bearing precious seed; now she retoras, 
bringing her sheaves with her. The horizcm had been dark> and 
at times chearless ; but the oyerhanging cloud of condemnation 
passethaway, being dissipated by the glorious Sun of righteous- 
ness : serrile fear gives place to filial love ; faith lays hold of 
the atonement, and her heart is filled wiUi joy and gladness ;*-• 
or, to speak in Scripture language, a language which nothing 
but barefaced infidelity will attempt either to deride or explain 
away, *\Being justified by faith, ^Ae had peace with God through 
our Lord Jesus Christ," and " rejoiced in hope of the glory of 
God^" This happy change (alluded to in a former extract) she 
has stated in the following eiqilicit and circumstantial manner :-— • 
''April 4, 1768. For some weeks the Lord had more than 
ever given me to see my great wretchedness by nature, and had 
wriUen tekel upon all 1 hwA dane or could do. Thia greatly 

. distressed me ; I knew not which way to turn. My foes were 
increasing, and^ to my apprehensioQ^ my strength weakening. I 
thought God dealt hardly with me ; my carnal mind botfed in 
enmity against him. I was impatient and fretful, — the terrors 
of hell often took hold of me, and the fears of death weire strdng. 

. I sunk down, and a cloud overshadowed me. My reason waa 
utterly unable to assist me ; nay^ I seemed to be denied the use 
of it so as to be able to dfaw any rational conclusion respecting 
ray state. To heighten my distress,^ I was in a sea of tempta- 
tion : it seemed a critical time ; either God must help or I 
perish. In great mercy he did send me some help, by the prayec 
and conversation of one of his servants; who, among other 
things, told me the Lord was humbUng me previous to deliverr 
ance. I -obtained a degree of relief from what he said, and, in. 
the eveningr* was much profited imder his sermon, from Isaiah 
XXXV, 3, ' Strengthen ye the weak hands, and confirm the feeble 
knees.' Two days aftor, Providence brought to my hand The 
Experience of a Good Man. The part I read treated of faith. 
By this means I obtained a view of faith which, in a good mea- 
sure, agreed with another account I had lead a few days before. 
But I could not then receive it ; now I was brought to acquiesce, 
and in 9^ measure led to the exercise described by the writer, 
and determined to wait the i^ue. • I mean, believing in Christ, 
with a degree of persuasion that he would appear in my behalf 
On the following Sabbath I weiit to church, and prayed to God 
that, if what had passed in my soul was from himself, he would 
give me some token oi it.. Mr. Webster l<3ctaxed on Aots 

9S SAVS OOr LADT xAzwnuu 

inri, 17. 1 was dhappointed ; bat dnrinr his aernion firom tke 3l8i 
t^M, ^ BdfeT« on the Lord Jests Christ, end thou riialt be 
inved,* tlie power of God was fneesit, end 1 leeeived s measure 
of fai& I had not fonnerfy poeaessed. I was made to see CHuist 
m entiiely suited to me i my vndenttmiing^ vrili, and €^eciums 
were Wioogfht xignu : I was made wiUing to accept Ghriet with 
lis €tou: to beliere he would giro me oiZ I stood in need of, 
aidd ii0iali what ooneeTiied vie. I was glad for the oonsolatioa, 
aod boM him fast aH day, atill expeotiag a greater manifestatioii. 
in the altenioon Dr. Erskine preai^m from, ^ Ve that lore the 
Lord, hato oyiI.' Among other things, these words came with 
power, * Behold, thoa art made whole; sin no more, lest a 
worse fiiii^ come onto thee.' At ni^t, by i^aosibie reaaooing, 
Satan almost robbed me of aD, bot 1 affain got power to lo^ 
to Jestts, and foond my cure. On Mon&y a^ Tnesday I still 
heid fhst the begimihig of my oenfideiice. On Tuesday night I 
wus ooBSCrained to praise God for his goodness^ for, though io 
company, I found much peace, my anchor being fixed. Wednes- 
day) Thursday, and till Friday everaBg, it cost me hard atrug- 
glk%. I saw mj great wretchedness, fdt my own emptiness, 
and had almost given up my hcdd, concluding I had given way 
10 what had diapleased the Lord. Friday night, the subject 
preached upon was *" Christ manifested in the flesh to take away 
our siiB.' This, through the day, I had been praying to feeL 
Biuring the sermon I Was variooBly- agitated ; now hewing, and 
a«dn driven back, becaaae I -did not leel power to relinquish 
afi ; and still feared I had done wrong ; but before the sermon 
was concluded my mind was cheered, and my hope increaaed ; 
and on coming home, my peace began to flow as a river. I was 
astonished :^-knew not witat to make of it, and viras afraid of 
delusion. Having been so long inured to distress, I started 
back at joy, and thought it coidd not be for me. I again prayed 
to God, that if this happy change was wrought by him, it might 
eOHtinue, and I be enabled to walk wortbv of it ; but if from the 
enemy, it might be taken away ; as I would rather choose sorrow 
ftom himself, than be allowed to deceive myself. Skill it con- 
tinued. I waa afraid to go to rest, lest I shocdd lose the enjoy- 
ment ; and all that day, leanot expraas what I felt. All con- 
demnation was removed, I cooKd not help believing, being eo 
sweetly constramed to it. I whs moch inclined to silence, 
jnuyor, and meditation. A aense of divine love preserved in 
me a cafan oompoanre of spirit ; it seemed all * a sacred «we that 
diares not move.' My heart was made to say, ' I charge you, O 
ye daugfateys of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up nor awake my 
love till lie please.' On the Sabbath following, Mr. Pletiderleith 
leeturOd on Gal. t, 1, ' Stand fast, therefore, in the liberty 
Wherewith Christ has made tis free, and he not entangled again 
«iirflh the y>(te of bondage.' I found it auitafafer and was Ueased, 


He preached on 1 Thesa. iu» 3. I jn^ed to the Lord that h9 
woald again set hu seal to the work, and shew me dearly if hA 
had given me saving faith ; i^id while the auniater was describing 
a true faith, the Lonl, in great condescennon^gave me 4tf Spmt 
to witness with mine that he had bestowed upon me that precious 
gift. , I felt it dear, full, and satiBfaetor jr, &r beyond aU huoum 
evidence. Between sexipons I fmmd my miMl host, and % 
degree of condemnation which tenified me. In the afternooii, 
under Mr. Webster, the Lord again spoke peace to me, and I 
was restored. Monday, Tnesday, and Wednesday, I had pcaeep 
and a measnre of iDve. On Itarsday, at Leith, being the fimb 
day, Mr. Walker preached from Heb. xiii, 9, * It is a good thing 
tibat the heart be establiahed with grace.' Again the Laid wil^ 
oessed to the work, and I was made hapmr ; bnt at night a SMst 
storm was raised, and I was afraid I shonld kwe alL I was 
astonished I could not love God more ; was in misery, and very 
nearly gave up my eonfidence. On Saturday I heard a seRnon 
from Heb. xii, 94 : but I was net t^ livelv. All Uut night t 
had power to believe, but eonid not obtain that gde of heavenly 
aflfections I desired to enjoy. On Sunday morning I wan indie-i 
posed in body, and not much alive in my seal ; but grew betleiv 
and the Lord abundantly blessed my provii^on, though, in the 
act of communicating I was not a little disappointed, as my eXf 
pectatiohs were great : but all day I had sweet peace in heliev- 
infi^. To>day Mr. Johnson * preached from Luke xxi, 4Q» ^ And 
when he was at the place, he sud unto them, Pmy diat ye enter 
not into temptation.* I receiTed it as sent unto me, asd ptt^ 
oeived my danger, my need, and alee my safety, namdy, m 
pnjer and looking to Jesus. O praises, eternal pmieea» he 
ascribed to my God. 

* N^ow I haT« found the ground wherein 

Sure my soul's anchor maj remain : 
The wounds of Jesus for my sin. 

Before the world's fivondatioa slain; 
Whose meroy shaU unshaken stay, 
When heaven and earth are fled away.'" 

♦ The Rev. Messrs. Webster, Erskinc, Plendcrleith, Walker, and 
Johnson were pious and able ministeis in the Established Church of Scot- 
land. They evidently stood Ugh in dke esteem of her ladyship ; and frmn 
tiiem, under God, she received Substantial benefit. How remaxkably appQ * 
site to the state of her mind were the passages spoken from on this event- 
ful oceaaion ! He who sends by whom he will send, can direct his faithful 
servaaU in their selection of subjects, and by their instrumentality com- 
municate seasonable consolation to the soul that seeks him. There is a 
pensive pleasure attending the recoUection of the labours of suoh mem. 
MOur fatters, wheia axe tteyt the prophats, do they life for ever?'* 




Lady Maxwell's Tore of retirement — From her youth and elevated rank 
exposed to temptation and danger — RelinquisHes her gay acquaintances — 
Connection with Lady Glenorenjr — ^They differ in retmous sentiment, bat 
continue united in affection— Account of Lady H. fiope — ^The manner 
in which Lad^ Maxwell spent her time — ^Her love to the means of grace 
—Constant thirst for full salvation. 

From the date of the last extniot Ladj Maxweira diary eom- 
mences ; and little more will be fouad neceseary for a full develope* 
ment of her heart and life, than to follow with attention her own 
oopious and nnreserred statements. By daily self-inspection, by 
a habit of tumhig her eye inward, of watching the movements of 
her affections, of analyzing her feelings, and attending to the biaa 
•f her will; she attained to a power (^discrimination in the im- 

rrtant science of self-knowledge, verv rarely possessed. Hence 
is believed that the enlightened and disceroiog Christian wiU 
£nd, in the following record of her experience, clearness, aeon- 
ncy, and precision. But as her ladyship has only noticed ont- 
ward occurrences, so far as they haa an influence on her mind 
and heart, allusions to different circumstances will be frequently 
met with on which a few explanatiens wiU be deemed desirable. 
The following particulars may be here premised, calciilated to 
throw light on different parts of thediavy and correspondence. 

'* From the tim^Lady Maxwell became a widow, she resided in 
Edinborgh or its vicinity ; from which, however, as will^ be seen, 
she made occMional excursions to the south. But ever after her 
conversion to Grod, retirement from the busy scenes of the world 
was most congenial to heriiabits and pursuits. In the northern 
metropolis she had her daily walks of benevolence, seeking to re- 
lieve misery in all its varied forms : in name and character she 
was well known to an enlarged circle of religious friends ; yet, 
as a person figuring on the stage of the world, or as exercising 
authority in the church, she was not known. Her influence be- 
came great, and her usefulness extensive; but it was silent, 
ffentle, and unobtrusive as the fall of ^e evening dew. Con- 
fined by choice to her native country, from which she seldom 
moved but when business called or health demanded, and then 
but for a short time, she lived in retired privacy, secluded from 
the gay and busy world. Being easy in her temporal eircum- 
stances, select and happy in her acquaintances, her path through 
life was generally even and her sky serene, presenting few, if 
any, of those varieties which are to be found in the lives of the 
principal actors on the stage of this world ; or of those whose 
path is checkered with every variety of light and shade, their 
horizon having experienced every vicissitude between the cloud- 
less noon of prosperity and the starless midnight of adversity. 


Her life bad a iameness, the samenesa oont Glenoichy, obIt aon 
piety, a blessed monotony of being, and gettitt^ soon after, left her 
This ^}1 in some degree account for a paucir^her biographer, 
the following diary which, in the estimation of sdhr^ strong, and 
might otherwise have beeninrested with an additional IcJlieral edn- 
bnt which need not be greatly regretted by those whose pridt$i|rr»- 
Wew in reading is the improvement of the heart. ^«er 

Lady Maxwell was frequently the sabject of severe conflicts ; ^ 
the grand adversary diversifying his mode of attack according to 
her age, experience, and circumstances. When she first entered 
the field of her spiritual warfare she was comparatively bnt a 
stripling ; and from her elevated rank must have been exposed 
to imminent danger. If religion be at all times amiable and at- 
tractive, it is |>ecnliarly so in the youthful disciple. It is here 
that it obtains its noblest conquests. When, throagh its sancti- 
fying influence, we see the ardour and impetuosity of youthful 
passions kept within proper limits, and directed to noble pursuits ; 
the vain blandishments of the world despised that the consola^ 
tions which flow from the cross may be secured ; — when we see 
the rich and honourable in early life, "choosing rather to suf- 
fer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the plea- 
sures of sin for a season,^' we have indeed a convincing proof of 
the efficacy of grace, and are constrained to acknowledge that the 
gospel is "the power of God unto sidyation." It was in the 
spring time of her days that Ladv Maxwell gave her heart 
wholly to God. Being then in the bloom of youth, favoured with 
a person cast in nature's finest mould* possessed of a mind su- 
perior both in its kind and culture, each capable of raising ad- 
miration and commanding esteem ; it is not to be wondered at 
that she had to grapple with temptations from the world, or that, 
in prosecuting her determination to follow Christ, she was daily 
called to deny herself and to take up her cross. The above 
qualities of body and mind procured her also various solicitations 
again to enter into the marriage state ; by which she might have 
formed an alliance with the first families in the empire, and con- 
siderably elevated her rank ; but whether from obedience to the 
apostolic injunction, " Be not unequally yoked together with un- 
believers,'* or on aecount of other reasons which oannot now be 
known, she never, except with regard to one ofiisr, and that for a 
short season, entertained a thought of the kind. As her time and 
her talents, so were her person and affections offSted a willing sa- 
crifice to God : nor can there be a doubt that she ever indulged a 
temptation to revoke the surrender thus willingly made. In the con- 
templation of the divine perfections as displayed in creation, provi- 
dence, and redemption, in th& possession of her God, and in recom- 
mending to others the Redeemer of men, she found all that was ne« 
cessary to give suitable employment to the energies of her mind, and 
to gratify the pure, and elevated, and enlarged desires of her heart. 


^Bat If religion opens a sotnrce of pleasure, at once pure an^ 
varied, rich and inexhanstible, — ^adapted to human society in all 
its varieties, and to human life amid all its vicissitudes, — so it 
likewise presents its difficulties. It has not indeed yet beea 
proved that these are more numerous, or more formidable, than 
those which are met in any other pursuit, whether of knowledge, 
fame, wealth, or pleasure : and generally speaking, the Chris- 
tianas difficulties gradually diminish as he proceeds on hie way. 
As passion is overcome and controlled by grace, — the affections 
deadened to earthly good ; as the will becomes accustomed pla^ 
cidly to submit to, and cheerfully to enter into the will of God, 
and the mind formed to virtuous habits ; as the rugged asperities 
of nature are filed off by the power of the Spirit, and smoothed 
to patience, long suffering, gentleness, and contentmeht, — diffi- 
culties are fotlnd to be duties, and duties are ri^lished with de- 
light ; crosses form crowns, and temporal loss conduces to spi- 
ritual and eternal gain. Thus, as the Christian advances in the 
divine life, and in proportion to his advance his way becomes 
more smooth, the sky of his prospects brightens and extends, and 
the thorns of difficiilty and opposition are deprived of their paii^ 
fill sharpness. 

" Lady Maxwell's religion did noVsubject her to much opposi- 
tion, though its connection with a particular body of Christians 
very early called into exercise her spirit, of sacrifice. She suf- 
fered the loss of many things which had ranked high in her esti- 
mation ; but she accounted them asr dross, for the excellence of 
the knowledge of Christ. It could not be expected that many 
of her own rank would court her society, and among those who 
withdrew themselves were her ew^ly associates, and principal 
friends. Yet losses like these she scarcely felt, and perhaps 
never deplored. There were, however, at that time in Scotland 
sdme^ though ' not many noble,' whose ininds God had illumi- 
nated, and whose hearts his transforming hand had toitched, who 
esteemed vital Christianity their highest honour, and made the 
cross of Christ the supreme object of their glory. Among these 
may be reckoned the late Viscountess Glenorchy. The piety of 
this lady was considerable, her usefulness great, her zeal for or- 
thodoxy standing at a high temperature ; and her attachment to 
Lady Maxwell was strong, sincere, and unaltered, in life and in 
death. And yet, such is the frailty of human nature, this friend- 
ship had its alloy, which occasioned both parties sincere sorrow. 

"Wilhelmina Maxwell,* afterward Lady Glenorchy, was 
youngest daughter of Dr. William Maxwell, Esq., of Preston, 
in Dumfrieshhre, and sister to the countess of Sdtherland. She 

* Dr. William Maxwell died four months before the birth of this daugh- 
ter; and his widow, afterward the venerable Lady J.2va, wishing to perpe 
tuate the name of a husband so dear, called the fatherless child Wilhelmina. 
•^Dr, Oihbon*s Mtm, of Eminently Pious Women, vol. ii, p. 264. 


was'«u-Iy mairied to John, Lord Viscount 6l6Doiohy, onlr son 
of the late earl of Breadalbaae, whose death, soon after, left her 
aTery young widow. * Her understanding (says her biographer, 
the late Rev, Dr. Gillies of Glasgow) was naturally strong, and 
her memory retentivef. Her mind was polished by a liberal edn- 
catioh, and riehly furnished by extensive reading and obserra- 
.tien. Her person was agreeable, her manners engaging, her 
fanc^ brilliant, and attended by a constant flow of good humour.' 
But, though ' jfitted to shine in courts,' being visited by sickness 
in her twenty^third year, e^e apon recovery resolved to prefer 
devotion and utMity to gayety and thoughtlessness ; and faer con* 
duct through life afterward proved that her faith was not fruit- 
lesa of goc^ works. Her private charities wera indeed number- 
iess, and great part of them unknown. To some nunistexs, 
whose congregations were not affluent, she paid regular salaries ; 
to others, occasional donations ; and to many others, stated an- 
nuities. Beside the elegimt chapel ^X Edinburgh, which cost 
about JC6000, and which bears her name, she built and endowed 
a church at StrathfiUac, in Perthshire ; and purchased ehapeis 
.at Matlock, in Der^shire ; ,at Carlisle, at Workington, and ait 
Newton Burhill, in Devonshire ; beside contributing, along with 
Lady Henrietta Hope, to the erection of Hope Chapel at Bristol. 
This excellent lady died 9$, Edinburgh, July 17th, 1786, leaving 
3C5OOO to the Society in Scotland for Propagating Christiaa 
Knowledge ; £5000 for educating young men for the ministry in 
England ; and most of the rest of her fortune, which was consi- 
derable, to other pious and charitable uses.'* Such a remarkft- 
ble similarity in the rank and situation of these two ladies,-^ 
their personal endowments, and mental accomplishments,-— ths 
manner in which a wise Providence had treated them,— and tihe 
.moans which sovereign grace had employed to save them, were 
60 simultaneous as seemed sufficient to draw them together as 
by reciprocal attraction, and blend-* their congenial souls in one. 
"But, although in feeling, affection, and pursuits, they reniai«- 
ed one, the harmony of sentiment was soon broken, and on cer- 
tain subjects they ceased to see eye to eye. The Viscountess 
Glenorchy, for a considerable time, was an intimate friend of the 
Rev. John Wesley, one of his greatest admirers, and regularly- 
attended the ministry of the preachers in connection with him, ib 
the Wesley an chapel in Edinburgh. But on the republicaticm 
of Mr. Hervey's letters,! accompanied by a preface wntten in 
' the true spirit of a dogmatical and angry controvertist, a general 
suspicion was excited against what wsb called the unsoundness 
of Mr. Wesley^s princij^es. It was then that Lady Glenorchy, 
along with some other persons of distinction, began to view w. 
Wesley as a teacher of heterodox opinions^ and under that view 

* Encyclop. Perthen., art. tfaxwell. f See note, p. 21. 


withdrew from him their countenance. They went fartfaov ^^ 
a powerful and determined opposition waa set-up. And it cer- 
tainly cannot now be denied thai i£ that system of doctrines^ 
which has in this country, it is presumed proudly and eJLclusive- 
ly, arrogated to itself the imposing appellation of orthodoxy^ be 
Tight, Mr. Wesley and his adherents iiave all along, eyen from 
the beginning, been decidedly in the wrong, if Calvin and 
Whitefield taught nothing but the infalHbie truth as it is in 
Jesus, a host of most distingmsbed divines, as well as Wesley 
and Fletcher, have erred from thai truth. But these are points 
on which the learned and pious still see cause to differ : there 
are, however, some favourable indications that they are learning 
more and more to avoid tfuestions which |[ender strife, and to 
contend principally for those essentia] docthnes in which ally 
who hold the head, cordially agre^.* 

'^ On these controverted subjects. Lady Maxwell thought for 
herself; and all who know the character and strength of her 
thinking powers, the degree in which her mind was fsmished 
with whatever might aid its natural energies in its search after 
truth ; the calm, the close, the dispassionate way in which she 
applied her mind to investigate any subject of importance ; all 
such persons will not hentate in allowing that she was quite as 
competent to judge and to' decide as any other of her rank ; and 
will believe that she acted conseiestiously, and from eonvietion^ 
in the formation of her r^igious creed. And, notwithstanding* 
she had to subdue the ahnost invincible prejudices of education 
and country, she was led firmfy to believe that the inspired 
volume teaches, in the unsophisticated sense of the terms, that 
* God is loving to every man,^ * and would have ail men saved ;' 
that 'the righteous may turn from his righteousness, and die 
in sin,' and that 'the blood of Jesos Christ cleanseth from 
tdl sin.' But, though she differed in sentiment from Lady 
Glenorchy, and some others of her early reiij^ious acquaintance, 
which at times occasioned painful exercises of muid, there was 

♦ The following remarks, by an eminent Scotch divitie are worthy of 
attention: — - 

•* Is this thing which you call orthodoxy a thing in which mankind arc uni- 
versally agreed, insomuch that it would seem to be entitled to the privilege 
of an axiom, or first principle to be assumed without proof? Quite the re- 
verse. There is nothing about which men have been, and still are, more 
^vided. It has been accounted orthodox divinity in one age, which hath 
been branded as ridiculous fitnaticism in the next. It is at this day deemed 
the perfection of orthodoxy in one country, which in an adjacent country 
is looked upon as damnable heresy. Nay, in the same country hath not 
eveiy sect a standard of their own ? Accordingly, when any person seriously 
uses the word, before we can undentand his meaning, we must know to 
what communion he belong. When that is known, we comprehend it per* 
fectly. By the orthodox, ne means always those who agree in opinion 
with him and his party, and by the heterodox diose who diner from him." — 
CampbriP9 Ltc. on 8y$. Theology^ p. lU. 


no intezTtii^ion of religious fnendBhip, nor the smallest diminu- 
tion of Christian affection. Like the two champions of that day 
in the field of controversy, they went hand in hand, as far as 
they could ; and when they could go no farther, without a dere- 
liction of principle, they kindly agreed to differ. In fact, Lady 
Maxwell occupied such a respectable situation, both for sense 
and piety, that her eloquence and. influence were often highly 
serviceable in defending the doctrines of Mr. Wesley and hiis 
ministers ; and also in removing much bitter prejudice from the 
minds of those persons who either had not, or would not have, 
any other means of learning the 'truth. * With respect to Lady 
Glenorchy, such was the estimate in which she held Lady Max- 
well, that at her death we find her appointing Lady M. her sole 
executrix, and the principal manager of her chapels, both in 
England and Scotland. This appointment, as will be seen, de- 
volved on her ladyship much painful solicitude ; but it also led 
her into an extensive field of usefulness, and furnished her with 
many sources of satisfaction and joy. Her call to this work she 
steadfastly believed was the call of God : and, though she often 
deplored the small success which attended some of these reli- 
gious institutions, with a scrupulous conscientiousness she car- 
ried into effect every tittle of Lady Glenorchy's will. There is, 
however, reason to believe that the anxiety to which she was 
hereby subjected, and the additional labour which it imposed 
upon her, had, in her latter days, an unfavourable effect on .het 
declining health, and in ajf probability tended to accelerate her 
death." ' 

Another of Lady Maxwell's most. intimate friends and cor- 
respondents was Lady Henrietta Hope, third daughter of John, 
earl of Hopetown. This excellent lady was remarkably formed 
for eminence. Her understanding was clear and strong, and her 
judgment sound. By reading, conversation, deep thought, and 
observation, she greatly improved her intellectual powers ; and 
in early Ufe afforded pleasing promise, should she survive to ma- 
ture year«, of being useful and ornamental to society. The ex- 
pectations so fondly entertained by her relatives and friends were 
not disappointed. She manifested the ** nicest moral sense ;" 
possessed a heart formed for friendship ; had a keen sensibility 
of human pain, with an unceasing desire to relieve, or at least 
alleviate, in every possible way, the varied distresses of her fel- 
low creatures. Such an amiable and benevolent disposition 
secured for her the warm attachment of all around where she 
resided. She was indeed beloved by all who had the happiness 
of her acquaintance. This affection, from superiors and inferiors, 
is a circumstance always honourable, and rendered peculiarly so 
in some situations. 

" Yet, though favoured with a mind thus enriched with every 
virtue of the moral character, united to the most lovely disposi- 


lions and engaging manners, it was not till her twenty-fifth year 
that Lady Henrietta Hope began to inquire about the great reali- 
ties of eternity. At that time an impression concerning the 
one thing needful was made upon her mind, which never after 
was effaced. Her own words upon this subject, at that memora- 
ble period, are» ' O to grace bow great a debtor ! Called at Qrsi 
out of nothing ; and, af&r twenty-Sre years* obstinacy and rebel- 
lion, awakened from a state of am, misery, and death, and brought 
to the light of the glorious gospel, to the knowledge of Jesus 
Christ revealed theroin, and (though hf slow degrees, through 
various mazes, manffold tempations, and sundry triah, may 
I not, in all humility, say) to good hopes through grace. How- 
shall I praise the 'riches of that grace which has abounded toward 

'^ Being thus bronght from darkness to light, and her mind 
reliered from anxiety respecting her own state, the language of 
her heart was that of the royai psalmist : ' What shall I render 
mito the Lord V Believing it her duty, and viewing it as her 
privilege, she made an entire dedication of herself, with all she 
had or ever should stand possessed of, to that great and gracious 
Being who had dealt so bountifully with her. Nor did she ever 
breathe a wish to recall the solemn deed ; no, the residue of her 
life, by its uniform tenor, proved the sacrifice not only sincere 
but universal, in so far as her situation would permit." (Gib- 
bon's Mem., vol. ii, p. 260.) * . 

The particular circumstances which, under God, led to this 
important change in Lady Hope, have not been noticed by her 
biographer * l)ut the nature of the correspondence between her 
and Lady Maxwell renders it highly probable that Lady M. was 
the honoured instrument employed by the great Head of the 
church in bringing Lady Hope to a knowledge of God her Sa- 
viour. The former invariably addresses the latter as her " dear 
daughter y"*^ and frequently subscribes herself, " Your affection^ 
ate parent in the gospel. ^^ Between these illustrious individuals 
there existed no jar of sentiment ; but possessing a oneness of 
soul, a congeniality of feeling, they entered cordially info each 
other's views, and greatly assisted each other ia their benevolent 
purposes. Lady Maxwell was, perhaps, more formed for action 
than her pious companion ; she therefore had the principal ma- 
nagement of their varied charities ; but Lady Hope, whose hu- 
mility, " almbst to excess," kept her much from public view, 
was, as it respects advice and pecuniary aid, one of her most 
steady and powerful auxiliaries. Lady Hope evidently consider- 
ed Lady Maxwell as her spiritual adviser, and therefore laid open 
to her, with the most. unreserved freedom, the diversified exer- 
cises of her mind : and in the replies of the latter there will be 
observed a solicitude, a tenderness, and affection truly maternal 
And Christian. So intimate and endeared was this friendship, 

UFE ht LADY MAXVllL. 37 

fhat, for Mv^mt yeard, ftw days were permitted td ehpM without 
some interchange of expressione of motual esteem.* 

Such were two of the illustrious companions of Lady Max- 
well ; but she -had learned also to condescend to persons of low 
estate. She had in Edinburgh other intimate religious friends, 
with whom she used statedly to commune on the deep things of 
God ; and these, th6u|[b eminently pious, were principally select- 
ed from the humUer. walks in life. Her correspondents also 
became numerous ; a few of these will be noticed afterward. 
But the manner in which her ladyship spent her time may be 
here detailed, as tending greatly to illustrate many of her allu- 
sions. \' She had always, especially after the death of Lady 
Grleiiorchy, much business on her hands, and had as much writ- 
ing as might have employed a private secretary : but as she rose 
esLrly, applied herself closely, and did every thing by rule, she 
lived and did much in a rery short time, and was able to despatch 
the whole with her own hand. During the former part of her 
life she rose at four ^'clock, certainly a very un&shionable hoi£r, 
a!hd attended preaching in the Wesleyan chapel at trt, (morn- 
ing preaching being usual at that time,) but at a later period she 
did not rise quite so early. The time between rising and break- 
fast Was spent in devotional exercises. She breakfasted in her 
eaiiier days at seven, afterward at eight o'clock ; after which 
she discharged the duties of the head of a family, in the character 
of a priest, in her own house. From eleven till tw^ve was spent 
in intercession with^God for her friends, the church, and the 
world ; and the intervening time was devoted to reading, writing, 
exercise; and the performance of acts of benevolence to such as 
might require it. She generally retired to her closet before 
dinner, and again as soon after dinner as was at all convenient. 
The evenings, when she was alone, were spent in reading, chiefly 
divinity ; and after an early supper she again, committed her 
family^ into the kind keeping of that great Shepherd who never 
sleeps; and. then, having spent some time in praising the God of 
all her known and unknown mercies, she retired to rest in full 
assurance of eternal salvation, should she never see the light 
of another day. The history of oiie day of her domegtic life 
may be considered as a ' fair specimen of every day, excepting 
the Sabbath, and her more special acts of devotion on eveiy re- 
turning Friday. This day was conscientiously set apart for the 
exercise of abstinence, as she could bear it ; for the duties of 
impartial examination, humiliation, and renewed dedication of 
herself to God : and, in the latter part of her life, it was on this 
day she took a retrospect of the week, in order to record the exer- 
cises of her mind, and to enumerate the blessings she had re- 
ceived during that period. Generally, while thus engaged, she 

* For particulars respecting the death of these two eminent and pi<ML8 
iaidies, see p. "232,. 


had "times of refreshing from the presence Of the Lord," wbi^ 
made any interruption, except from evidenteada to other neces- 
sary duty, irksome and unpleasant. In this manner for the apace 
of nearly fifty years : 

" Her virtues walk*d their [daily] round ; 
Nor made a pause, nor left a roid ; 
And sure the! eternal Master f«md, 
His [various] talents well employ'd.*' 

As she walked with God in her own dwelling, so her heart 
loved the very gates of 21ion ; and she showed this love by at* 
tending the house of the Lord, to the latest period of her life, 
whenever health would permit, ^e regularly attended the 
morning and evening sermon in the Wesleyan chapel on the 
Sabbath day, until declining health limited her attendance to the 
morning in winter. She occasionally went to her parish church, 
(St. Cuthb^t's, or West Kirk,) and constantly on sacramental 
occasions. On the Monday evenings she was present at the 
public prayer meeting in the chapel, afterward attended at the 
band meeting, at which she always spoke with great freedom, 
whether, the individuals present we^e many or few, poor or rich; 
and she always made it a point to speak at every love-feast 
which sh6 attended. When nothing extraordinary, prevented, 
the preachers in Edinburgh visited her ladyship on die Thurs- 
day in every week, on which occasion jshe met in class along 
with the preachers, and such other religious persons as were 
frequently present on those days, for the twofold purpose of 
enjoying the privilege of meeting in class,. and of sharing the 
company and conversation of her ladyship. These were very 
solemn occasions. It was here, in a very peculiar manner, that 
the clearness and extent of her views of divine things appeared, 
and the lustre of the Christian graces shone. Here was per- 
ceived the depth of her humility, the strength of her faith, the 
vigour of her hope, the fervour of her love, and the ardour of 
her zeal. Here it appeared how dead she was to the world, 
how far she was saved from self, atid how entirely she was losing 
herself in the will of God : there was no appearance of ecstatic 
rapture, but a deep serenity of mind, a constancy of peace, and 
an inexpressible fulness of love. The Rev. , Duncan M'Allum, 
who had known her ladyship nearly thirty years, when referring 
to those occasions, observes, ", The place was wont to be filled 
with the presence of God, and we breathed a heavenly atmos- 
phere. Our hearts burned within us, as she talked to us. I 
remember not, in my long pilgrimage, to have enjoyed equal plea- 
sure in the conversation of any Christian as in hers ; and I should 
look backward with regret, if I could not look forward with hope, 
. " Immediately after the meeting, she gave to the preachers, to 
pay into the hands of the respective tree^urers, her usual con- 


ttibutions for the poor, and the support of the gospel ; and then 
proceeded to inquire after the success attending their labours ^ 
the state of religion in each place in the circuit ; how the classes 
in general were attended ) and whether the work of God was 
prosperous in the connexion at large : and in liiese inquiries she 
seldom lost sight of the sick poor of the flock. In company, 
and at table, she gare every subject of oooversatioD a pious and 
profitable turn, that all present might be benefited. And as on 
these occasions some young female relations were frequently 
present, for whose spiritual good she~ was deeply solicitous, she 
particularly suited the topic of conversation to their state and 
feelings ; dweQing most frequently on the pleasantness of religion, 
and the doubtfulness of all piety which was not accompanied 
with a scriptural assurance of aeceptan^ with God." 

From the time Lady Maxwell obtained justifying mercy, she 
deeply felt the necessity of full salvation from sin, while she 
clearly saw that such a salvation is a privilege graciously exhi- 
bited in the gospel of Christ : and as she beheved that the meri- 
torious fountain of the Saviour's, blood was opened, as well for 
all uncieanness of heart and nature, as for guilt on the conscience 
—that divine faithfulness and justice were equally pledged to 
cleanse the believer from all unrighteousness, as to forgive the 
penitent his sins — ^that grace could reign until an end was made 
of iniquity, and the heart fillt^ with the perfect love of God ; so 
it Will be found, that with an ardent, uniform pursuit of soul she 
followed after, that she might be saved as fully as a fallen 
creature, wearing a body of flesh and blood, and dwelling in a 
world of temptation, could be saved ; that her body and soul and 
spirit might be wholly sanctified to God. And as her Christian 
course is pursued, guided by the clew of her own diary and cor- 
respondence, it will be seen that she. attained to a constant 
assurance of sanctifying grace. After this happy period, it will 
appear that her strains of praise rose gradually in the scale to 
notes more exalted and more divine, until her triumphant spirit 
took its flight, to unite with the choirs above in singing praises 
to Him who had loved her, and washed her from her sins in his 
blood. There were, indeed, in her experience, moments of 
mental depression, but not of unbelief; there was a deep con- 
sciousness of shortcoming, but no condemnation on account of 
backsliding. Her religion had its varieties, but these were the 
varieties of advance ; the blade shooting into the stalk, then the 
ear, and the ear gradually receiving ihe golden colouring of 
maturity and ripeness : her inward experience had its changes, 
but these changes were only those of the glorious rising morn, 
which shineth brighter and brighter to the perfect day. 

40 UrS 09 LAȴ.SrAXirXI.Z.. 

CHAPTER III.-.1767. 

Advantages of autobiography — IsblAj Maxwell's dhiry. 

After the preceding observatioiiB, Lady Blaxwell shall be 
chiefly her own biographer. As none but Grod and herself could 
know the varied exercises of her mind and heart, so no pwt but 
her own could haye eter described them. Others might tell of 
what she said, and of w^at she did ; but she will relate what ^e 
thought and what she felt — ^what were the cwisee of her sorrows, 
and from whence arose her joys : she will unfold the motives 
which gave life and .energy to her actions, and describe the 
might by which she Was enaUed to perform them : she will tell 
of her hopes and fears, her inward conflicts and jspiritaal con- 
quests ; and give many an important' lesson to those who are 
j&eeking for "glory, immortality, and eternal life." . 

April 25. All the last week tibe Lord has heen exceedingly 
gracious to me, giving me peace in believing, and at times j^. 

the delightful moments I have experienced ! I have found 
Jesus a mos't satisfying portion ; but havei been humbled before 
God, from a deep conviction of my want of conformity to him. 

1 am ready to think none ever experienced so much of his good- 
ness, who did not feel more of the transforming inflaence of 
grace. I am earnestly desirious to have my heart adcH^ned with 
every ifruit of the Holy Spirit, and my life with every virtue of 
the Christian character, that God may be glorified in me. I 
now see, in a different manner than what I formerly did, that 
all the mercies I enjoy, from'a cup of cold water -to. the £»lvatioa 
of my soul, have been purchased by the Redeemer. This en- 
dears him to me. He is my all in aU. 

July 14. The Lord is still merciful, and though oflen pro- 
voked, has not yet forsaken me. . I still, through mercy, hold 
fast my confidence, though not at all times alike strong. I have 
generally a persuasion that I shall Overcome. The Lord has 
.given me precious promises on which he has caused me to hope ; 
and I daily look for their accomplishment. With the apostle I 
am enabled in some measure to forget, " those things which 
are behind, and reach forth to those things which are before :^' 
and at times am so animated with the hopes of complete victory 
that nothing seems to intimidate: but there are also seasone 
when, through the power of corruption, the strength of tempta- 
tion, and a sense of a thousand evils which still cleave to me, 
I am weighed down, and am ready to sink. But He who is rich 
in mercy knows what I am able to bear, and proportions my 
sufferings to my strength. At present I perceive no object 
worthy my pursuit, but the will of God ; that is indeed precious. 
I earnestly desire to know it, and to walk in it ; but for want of 


S^wer, and at times of inclination, I suffer 'keen attgaish. Lord 
od, perfect what thou hast begui. 

September 16. My seal is restlessly pursuing God, with a 
deep sense of the emptiness of all created good : without much 
sensible enjoyment, but with great desire and expectation : and, 
through mercy, my anchor is fixed, and Jesus in same small 
measure is my^ '^wisdom^ righteousness, sanctification, and 

, Sunday 19. Tp-d«^ the Lord hmnbled me by i^ sight 

and sense of my natural wretchedness ; I was almost a terror to 
myself. At night my distress increased, and my soul was in an 
ajgony. I seemed stripped Of all. I had no doobt of my adop- 
tion, yet the conflict was great ; Satan raged mightily, but the 
Lord sustained me. When I thought of y&diiiff, a secret Toiee 
seemed to encourage me to fight manfully. I was convinced 
that the Lord would not suffer me to be tried above what I was 
able to bear, and I happily foand it so. Jesus drew mgh and 
strengthened me, but rather with sustainmff than with comfort^ 
ing grace. He rebuked Satan, and in-some measure I hope I 
came ofiT victorious ; yet in every situation I see danger. When 
most alive to God, I am most sensiMe of the hinderanees I meet 
with from others, and am prone to grow fVetful and impatient : — 
again, when I obtain victor^ over my enemies, then I feel a 
tendency to spiritual pride, which terrifies me. But must I 
(riacken my pursuit of divine things because of this ? No, I 
endeavour to fly to the blood of sprinkMng, and ery to Jesus. 

October 8. For some days the Lord' has been teaching me 
th^t in nothing am I to seek happiness but m himself :^-to itse 
dther things, but to enjoy^ him. It 'm a difficult lesson. With- 
out much grace and constant watchfulness, how natural is it to 
sink, at least in«a measure, into the creature. O how much has 
the Lord to do in 'me ! May T prove his utmost power to save ! 
I am at a loss how to tell Of his goodness; it is so great, no- 
thing exceeds it hut my unfaithfulness. The pains he is taking 
to make me meet for an^ inheritance among the saints in li^t, is 
asionishingf. I sensibly find him giVing me ^11 the eomfortl can 
bear. When low and depressed, he raises me up ; and when in 
danger of spiritaal pi'ide, he sends something which proves a 
proper ballast. He truly does all things well. What eause 
have I to praise him for all that is past, and to trust hira for aU 
that is to come. 

Nov. 23. Was much hindered in prayer this morning by 
wandering thoughts. This is a besetting evil of mine ; but in 
family prayer, my mind was more composed. I often feel more 
freedom from wanderings when praying with others than when 
alone. Promised myself much profit from visiting a Christian 
friend who is confined by sickqess, especially as at first I found 
it a cross. When with her, I experienced such an insatiable 


desire after Grod — such an aching Toid within— ^ach a keen con- 
Tiction of the emptiness of all created good, as more and more 
convinced me, I shall never enjoy that fulness my soul demands 
but in God. 

** Come, O my God, thyself reveal. 
Fill all this mighty void ; 
Thou only canst my spirit 1^, 
Come, my God, my God !" 

In prayer, I felt, a power and sweetness which fully compen- 
sated me for taking up the cross. In the evening, I enjoyed a 
tranquillity of mind, a s^eet repose in the blood and bosom of 
Jesus. I wished much to pro^t others and myself with pious 
conversation, but ihey seemed determined to trifle. Through 
grace, I did not catch their spirit, though this is not always thq 
ease. When they left me, after some time spent in ministering 
to the sick, I went to prayer, and felt what I am not able to ex- 
press ; such a sinking into God as I hope one day constantly to 
enjoy. All around me seemed God : — eternity was at hand. I 
tasted the good word of God, and felt, the powers of the world to 

Dec. 26. My joy was not so great to-day as usual. It was 
a calm peace, my mind was stayed on God. But toward even- 
ing, being with those who were not deeply serious, a degree of 
trifling and lightness of spirit hurt me, and disturbed that frame 
I should wish always to enjoy ; I mean that state of mind arising 
from a deep^ consciousness of the presence of God. My heart 
was taking an undue complacency in the creature, and this sel- 
dom fails to injure. When I retired, the Lord was exceedingly 
fracious, but this only served to give a pungency to my distress^ 
hall I neyer be able to give God my whole heart ? At times, I 
think I do ; but, being deceitful, it again insensibly departs from 
him. At other times, I see my danger, am on my guard, and 
oTercome. I feel the frowns of the world not near so danger- 
ous as its smiles. How narrow the path that God marks out 
for those who would truly walk with him ; but, though strait, 
it is safe and sweet in proportion. It is only when I step out of 
that I feel distress. 

— — 31. Upon a review of the great goodness of God to me 
in the course of this year, I feel gratitude and love spring up 
even in my hard heart. O how unspeakably gracious has been 
the Father of mercies ? I attempted to spend the evening and 
night in meditation, prayer, and thanksgiving, both in public and 
private, and found it comfortable and strengthening. when 
shall every thought be brought into captivity? 


CHAPTER IV.— 1769. 

Lady Maxwell's diary cofltinucd, 

.Jan. 1, Sunday. I was very early apd late engaged with God 
to-day, but could not obtain that heavenly gfale I wished. The 
want of food and sleep had in some measure stopified my mind* 
bat, in the morning, a sermon from '* Trast ye in the Lord for 
ever,'^ comforted and strengthened me ; and in the afternoon 
another from ^' All sure yours, and ye are Christ^s, and Christ in 
God's,'' excited in my tmart gratitude and love to him who had 
dofte so much for me. In the evenings while at prayer, I felt de- 
sirous of devoting myself wholly to God, and attempted to renew 
the dedication of all my powers to him. O, that it may be 
more effectual than ever, and that through grace I may be en- 
abled ^is year to adorn the go6pett>f God my Saviour in dl 

16. My mind was dull this morning, but the Lord soon 

after quickened me ; drew near and surrounded me with his pre- 
sence ; shone upon my souT, and in his light I clearly saw my 
own state, and spiritual objects in generaL May the Lord make 
me ^ithful to the^ light he impsBrtd ; I have much for which to 
answer. He clearly marks out the narrow path in which he 
would have me to walk ; shows me the most excellent way, but 
hitherto I -have been exceedingly perverse. O Lord, let the 
time past suflSce, and do thou magnify thy mercy above all thy 
name, in continuing to bear with me until I can all things do. 
My soul felt earnestly desirous this day to glorify God ; to em- 
brace every opportunity for doing good which might offer, and 
he graciously afforded me several, which I endeavoured to im- 
prove. . The issue I leave .with him. I find it hardly possible 
te retain the Spirit of God, to preserve, a clear sense of his par- 
doning love alive in my soul, without being constantly employed 
in wfa^t ha» a tendency to glorify him, and to profit my fellow 
creatures. We may retain a fallacious hope that we enjoy the 
remission of sins, but bur souls will not be alive to God ; at least, 
this accords with my experience. In proportion as I grow re- 
miss in attempting to act for God or my neighbour, my spiritual 
senses' flatten, my perception of invisible things becomes dim ; — 
on the other hand, I seldom, if ever, embrace any opportunity 
of doing good, but it brings into my soul, an additional degree of 
strength aad comfort. But, alas ! howdall have I been in learn- 
ing tMs important lesson, and how reluctant am I oflen to reduce 
it to practice. Sometimes overcome by a false modesty ; at 
others, a de^pree of langour, which overspreads my soul, and 
renders me mactive. Against this last evil, I find constant 
watchfulness necessary. 

Feb. 22. Sipce my last date (January 22) grief has obstructed 


my wtUing, and I should scarcely now resume my pen, bnt 
that I find a record of my experience highly profitable. I h^re 
felt, and do still feel much, on account of the death of a dear 
friend. A sword has pierced through my soul in this dispensa-. 
tion ; and yet I have felt snch an acquiescence in the will of God 
fts I cannot easily express. I have great cause to adore his 
eondeseension for the solace I enjoy, horn a conTkiion that mr 
departed friend is happy, — ^unutterably happy. Throngh abovmd-^ 
ing mercy, for some time past I have been on .the stretch Ibr 
God. Eternity has appeared very near. I feel in a good mea- 
sure disunited from ereated things : — ^my spirit pants for erer- 
lasting rest, and struggles into God : my confidence in ha»> par- 
doning mercy grows stronger, and my love to him is on the in- 
evease, with a stronger desire than ever to go hence, and to be 
with Christ, which is far better. Words cannot expcess the ar- 
dent desire which I feel to be entirely devoted to God : to walk 
with him as Enoch ; to cleave to him with Caleb's spirit ; and I 
trust to see the happy day. Yet while I thus write, I iu» the 
subject of keen distress on account of my liUeot depravity ; my 
unprofitableness, unfaithfulness, and ingratitude in the midst of 
such amazing goodness. Lord, help : Lord, foreive ! 

March 14. For some time I have been confined with siekneas. 
How gracious is that God I so feebly serve : he prepared me 
for tliis trial by causing liis consolations to abound in my soul. 
In the former stages of this indisposition my peace flowed as a 
river, and death was not only deprived of his sting, hat even 
seemed to wear a pleasing form. As the disease gained ground 
I was not so lively ; distress of body seldom failsno depress my 
spirits. Aflet suffering awhile, the Lord has graciously raised 
me up again ; may it be to glorify him \ . To-day he ha^ blessed 
me with fervent desires after a higher enjoyment of the divine 

gresence, and has given me an animating view of the land that 
} afar off. my God, hear 4he cries of one on whom tboa 
hast had mercy, and .prepare my heart to r^eive whatever 
Christ has purchased for me : allow me not to rest short of it : — 
put thou a thorn in every -enjoyment, a worm in every gourd, 
that would either prevent my being wholly thine, or in any 
measure retard my progress in the divine life. 

May 6. Found, this morning, my soul sweetly conscdous of 
her union with Jesus, and seemed in prayer and meditation to 
be sinking into him. Was tried in a tender point this forenoon, 
bnt found, through grace, power to give up my own will. I 
looked to the Lord, and f<plt that if his will took place, however 
contrary to my own, I should be perfectly satisfied. Being in 
company to-day with some persons who were not serious, I was 
in danger of sinking into lightness of spirit ; and though God 
heard my prayer, and enabled me in a measure to confess him, I 
was not so collected and deeply lierious as I wished. What a 


pmilege to be with tfrose wlio are truly alire to God. How 
dangerous the spirit of the world : though seemingly iilnocent, 
yet, alas, how it unbends the mind, and prevents the full stretch 
of the heart after God. How shall J praise theet O my Lord, 
that I am not obliged to dwell with such triflers ? Great are my 
privileges : may I gratefully enjoy, and diligently improve them 
to thy gjory.* 

1 '- 38. Felt languid this morning, partly owin^ to* the body, 

which- often weighs me down. Each day witnesseth ray ardent 
desires to live more to God than ever ; but, alas ! every return- 
ing night brings the painful convictioi) of a practice which bears 
comparatively but a small proportion to these desires. O when 
shall my life and conversation testify that I dwell in God, and 
God in me ! Lord, fulfil thy promises ! F^lt desirous of doina 
Eomething for God to-day, but had not the opportunities which 1 
expected. Since I came hither, I have made many attempts, 
bat as yet have seen little fruit ; yet so gracious is Iny Jjord, 
that, upon my doing what he convinces^ me is my duty, he affords 
IQ6 comfort, for the most part, independent of success. for a 
heart burning with love .to his name; with zeal for hja, glory; 
and a power eachmomiBnt to do and suffer his wili ! This is my 
highest ambition ; were ten thousand worlds put in competition, 
how would I sparii them from me. At times this week I feJt 
strong touches of the love of God and Christ : happy presages, 
I hope, of the flame to be one day eu&indled in my soul, never to 
be extinguished, but to burn, brighter and brighter until it mingles 
^withthe full blaze of eternalday. If not deceived, I feel my 
i&esires stronger and more abiding for the glory of God ; for an 
enthre devot^ness of heart and life to him ; and also more fer- 
Tent wishes to bring others to the knowledge and love of the 
, >Sftviour. This produces more power to act for God, and to 
eoiifess him, than formerly^ accompanied with a constant fear 
leat I should see him dishonoured by others. Whenever I da 
wee this, it pierces me to the quick; on the cont,rary, when, I 
perceive him acknowledged, jx gives m^ a heartfelt joy. 

June 3. Was not remarkably aJive to-day, but at night en- 
joyed sweet peace. In the course of the day, I found it a.diffi- 
ei^t task to reprove a person who had spoken amiss. A fear 
• ©f giving offence oflen proves a snare. We should desire to 
please aU, so far as we can cohsistently with their edification : 
but when this desire prevents our being faithful to them, it be- 
comes a serious evil ; of which, alas ! I am often guilty. Lord, 
pardon me. 

13. Have been mostly confined by bodDy affliction 

sin(^e l»st date, and during that time my exercises of mind have 
been Tarious. At seasons I wastnost earnestly desirous to be 

• On the 6th of this month. Lady Maxwell left Cdinburi^h to visit soma 
lelativef at a^staace, and did not return until July foUowing. 


devoted to God, and enjoyed the strongest breathing for power 
to do and suffer his will, as my heaven : this while, Jesus was 
precious, and seemed nigh ; bat as I grew worse in body, my 
fears of death became painful. I also feared soma severe and 
perhaps tedious illness was approaching, and felt not fuUy re- 
signed. Christ, in my apprehension, drew near to strengthen 
me ; and ^though by faith I saw him, and did not doubt of my 
interest in him, this did not overcome my fearfulness. This is an 
evil I have long groaned under ; Lord, remove it, and give me 
that faith which 

tain and death defies, 

Most vig'roufl whea the body dies.' 

In the time of sickness, I always appear to myself to lose 
ground : my natural spirits grow very flat, and I seem to sink 
from God. One reason for this may be, my compladnts ar« 
chiefly of a nervous kind. This last illness has doubled my criett 
for entire resignation to the will of God : then ail shall be alike 
welcome ; but as yet I almost tremble at bodily distress, from 
what I have hitherto suffered. O my God, hear my prayer, dis- 
appoint my fears, and enable me in every situation ti> say cor- 
dially, "Thy will be done." 

20. Possessed power to fix the eye of my soul upon 

Jesus; and enjoyed some recoUection of mind, with bu earnest 
desire for more, yet was frequently interrupted. Was convinced I 
had several times through the day spoken more words than were 
necessary. O for an entire vietory over this unruly member. 
Wanderings also distress me : imagination, justly termed the fool 
of the house, is indeed an ungovernable faculty. How unprofita- 
ble the train of thought into which it ofien leads me ! My soul 
longs to have every movement of my mind brought into subjection. 

21. This ha9 been a day of suflTering. O that it may 

b^ for the farther purification of my soul ! The fiery darts of 
the wicked one have been shot at me with fury ; yet, blessed 
be the Author of all my' mercies, he does not suffer the fiercest 
of my foes to rob me of my confidence ; though oflen, through 
anguish of soul, I do not derive that' comfort from it ^hich I 
otherwise might. The manner of Satail is, to darken, or at least 
to divert our eyes from the bright prospect, to fix them on the 
present pressure, which he fails not to make as heavy as infinite 
Wisdom permits. To-day he has sought to prevail by endeavour- 
ing to harass me with apprehensions of coming eyU ; and by 
suggesting that I should not be able tu endure, so as to glorify. 
God ; that his promises would fail ; that he would leave me to 
the power of my enemies ; and that I should dishonour him, dis- 
courage others, and fhll into de^air myself. But when in the 
hottest of the battle I looked up to the Lord, endeavoured to ex- 
amine the ground of my feaxs, and tiiey vanished into smoke. 


A secret persuasion filled my heart that the Saviour would ful 
fil his promises, and that what I now suffered was to prepare 
me for greater things than I had yet seen. Indeed I have ever 
found that " pain is the parent, wo the womb of sound important 
good." A high veneration for the will of God causes me in 
every circumstance to cry earnestly for power to say, " Thy will 
be. done." This I would^constantly prefer to a removal of trials^ 
being fully assured my happiness does not depend on an exemp- 
tion from distress, but in an unlimited resignation to Him who is 
boundless love and infinite wisdoni. He knows, as it respects 
measure, weight, and duration, what " best for each will prove." 

my Ood, strengthen me, for I am weak as helpless infancy! 
Thou, who kno'west my heart ; thou, who canst not be deceived, 
even to thee, in the day of suffering, can I not appeal ? The de- 
sires I have to be wholly devoted to thee, — the sweet morsels 
thou hast enabled me to refuse, that I might accomplish it more 
fully, — ^the inviting enjoyments which lead even many of thy 
own children captive, and which surely of myself I could not 
have withstood, yet oftcner than on(ie have been refused for 
theej — with what I have again and again suffered before I at- 
tained ray present state, are all, I humbly trust, evidences of my 
sincerity. And after ^1, can it be that I should fall short of the 
prize I have in view, entire devotion of heart and life to thee f 
Forbid it, O my God, and do " exceeding abundantly above all I 
can ask or think." 

August 8. The Lord, who is continually loading me with his 
benefits, has twice this day remarkably interfered in my behalf. 
Surely he gives his angels charge concerning his people. 
Though I am poor and needy, he thinketh on me. In the even- 
ing he preserved me from broken bones, to which I was exposed 
by a fall : a few hours after, when walking home from the chapel, 

1 witnessed a most melancholy scene, occasioned by the falling 
in of the North Bridge.* I had passed over this bridge about 
four hours before, and was within less than five minutes of pass- 
ing over it again, when, almost in a moment, the greatest noise I 
ever heard (except on a similar occasion, when I was as remark- 
ably preserved) filled the air. It seemed as if the pillars of 

* The architect of this bridge was Mr. William Myhie, who agreed with 
the town council of Edinburgh to-finish the work for 10,140/. andto uphold 
it for ten years. It was also to have been finished before Martinmas, 1769 ; 
bat, on the 8th of August thAt year, when the work was nearly completed, 
the vaults anid side walls on the south fell down, and nine people were buiried 
in this ruins, and many more hurt. This misfortune was occasioned by 
the foundation having been laid, not upon the solid earth, but upon the 
rubbish of the houses which had long before been built on the north of 
High-street, and which had been thrown out into the hollow to the north- 
-ward. Beside this deficienoy in the foundation, an immense load of earth, 
which had beem laid over the yhxHUi and arches, in order to raise the bridge 
to a pn^r leveU had no doubt contributed to pi-oduce the catastrophe 
above mentioned.— ^Enc. Perth., art, Edin. ^ IT. 


nature w«re giving way. Instantly the cry resounded, — " The 
bridge is falbn." Amazement and fear sat on every coante- 
nance, each one dreading his own loss. The Lord preserved 
me in some measure composed, and my views were cleiar. O 
how precious did I feel Christ to my soul, and eternity appeared 
to open to my view. The sensation of gratitude was so power- 
ful as almost to overcome m^. The interposition of Providence 
was so conspicuous, and I felt so unworthy of it, that I was over- 
whelmed with astonishment; Gratitude and love to God my 
Saviour, who appeared nigh, flowed into my soul so as to render 
me almost unable to spe^ : indeed my thoughts were too big 
for utterance. On the first opportunity, I endeavoured to make 
a new surrender of that life So graciously preserved to him who 
was so well entitled to it. I had often done this before, but here 
was a fresh call. my God, grant that tbis new obligation 
may produce greater devotion of heart and Hfe to thee. 

Sept. 7. Was not well in body, but the Iiord made me joy- 

ful in his house of prayer. Mr. W preached on 1st John 

iii, 2, " Beloved, now are we the sons of God," &c. He en- 
larged on the privileges of God's children^ and mentioned several 
outward marks by which we might examine whether we were 
his people. The Lord made me sweetly sensible of his work 
on my soul. I feel graceful, also, that by ihe witness in my- 
self, he constantly assures me of my interest in his blood,, with- 
out having recourse to these marks : yet these, at the same 
time, are corroborative evidences which cannot be overlooked 
without danger. Was soon afler in company, and, though with 
serious people, and conversing on serious subjects, my spirits 
were hurried. I am often sensible of intemperance both in 
speaking and thinking. Frequently, I suffer inconvenience from 
the latter, when writing. Thought flows so plentifully into my 
mind, that I lose one naif before I can properly arrange the re- 
mainder ; and from this pause sometimes do not write at all. 
The former also is a snare in conversation, Cjausing me to spea]c 
much more than, upon reflection, I perceive I ought to have 
done. What I want is a constant self-recollection : the eye of 
my soul ever fixed upon Christ. Lord, giye ;ne this blessing, 
and enable me to stand perfect and complete in thy whole will ! 

Oct. 13. Since last date (Sept. 9) I have been in continual 
motion, having travelled above five hundred miles in search of 
health to soul and body. I ardently long^ for an increase of 
the divine life, and hoped the journey would contribute toward 
it, as I enjoyed several opportunities of seeing and conversing 
with many happy Christians, and had much to remark of the 
goodness of God to myself. One interposition in my favour I 
hope never to forget. At one particular place he greatly re- 
vived my^sonl, uncommonly strengthened my faith in the pro- 
mises, and opened my mouth to speak for him in a manner &ftt« 

la.FB OF £A]»y MAXWBI'Ii. 4$^ 

knowing mjr Batoral shjmess of temper, nakcB me Mtonished. 
But when be i^ommands, power i« giren to obey. Yet, npon 
a retjFospectJrd view of this joamey, I see much cause to blush 
and be ashamed. I feel as much contrition of heart on account 
of cim, and the total depravity of my nature, as ever I felt in 
my life. niy God, '^ wash my fool heart and make it eleajn.'' 

— ^20. Have been linking deeper in the knowledge of 
myself than formerly. With the prophet of old, I have been 
led from one chamber of imacery to another, and made to mourn 
for the secret abominations therein discovered. Had there not 
been joined to this painful discovery a deep sense of the mercy 
of God ill Christ, my spirit would have failed before him. But, 
while he sits as a refiner's fire upon my soul, he supports me 
by the consolations of his Spirit. In spite of my inward dis- 
tcesSf this last week has been a most comfortable one. The 
word in public proved very strengthening ; the work in my own 
sold sweetly according with it, while the Spirit jof God clearly 
witnessed to both. . I also enjoyed, especially in the Methodist 
chapel under sermons on Tuesday and Thursday night, an inex- 
plicable consciousness of my union with Jesus, a oneness with 
liim that is better felt than expressed. 

Dec. 9. Found more power to-day in reproving sin thaa 
usual. I find it almoist the hardest task I have, ifearinglest peo« 
pie should imagine I. do it from a self-righteous principle; but 
this, unless my heart deceive itie, is certainly not the motive by 
which I am actuated. Nothing could make me do it but the 
strongest conviction of duty, and an ardent desire to do the 
whole will of God. There is, X acknowledge, another motive 
which helps to determine me ; — a desire to hefree from distress, 
and to enjoy comfort. The latter I seldom fail to obtain when I 
t^y ; the former i am sure to feel if I refuse. Yet I am posi- 
tive ike glory of God is with me the most powerful stimulative 
to duty, and has ever been so, since he gave his Spirit to wit- 
ness with my spirit, that I belong to him : but of late this ha9 
aensibly increased. 

^-^- — 29. Have endeavoured to do the will of God to-day, 
but have not had so much comfort in it as usual. Yet I desiro 
to persist, and through grace to press vigorously on, in spite of 
all opposition, that I may at last obtain the glorious prize of un- 
interrupted communion with God here, ana eternal glory here- 
after. Ofl^n does he own my laboq^e^ by comforting, supjport- 
ing, and animating my soul, and by filling me with an insatiable 
desire for power to be entirely devoted to him. The road to 
this, I know, is by endeavouring to be faithful to the light already 
iiiq>arted ; by believing constantly on Christ with a lively faith ; 
A faith always working by love and purifying the heart. Faith, 
genuine faith, is of a v«ry active nature, leading its possessors 
4S0ntinually to desire to be employed for the glory pf God, and 

3 ^ 

50 LIVE OF LAirr maxwell. 

the good of mankind ; and, therefore, they endeavour to em* 
brace every opportunity for either "wliich may offer ; nay, they 
will even seek for opportunities. O how does my heart pant to 
fbel more of the transforming power of grace ! 

31. This being the last day of the year^ I endeavoured 

to spend some special time with God at night, and had the com- 
fort to find, upon exsunination, I had, upon the whole, made some 
small progress in his ways ; especially in zeal for his glory ; in 
power to act for him ; in desires after entire devotion, and also 
in faith and love. O how numberless have his mercies been to 
me in' the course of the last twelve months : how graciously and 
tenderly, and also bountifully, has he dealt with me ! In some 
of his dispensations toward me his mercy has been so great, bis 
love so astonishing, as no language can adequately describe. 
While meditating upon themi I have often been " lost in won- 
der, love, and praise." O my God, what "iam I that thou 
shouldst deal thus with me V What shall! render unto thee ^ 

" Take my body, spirit, soul. 
Only thou possess the whole.** 

Maintain what thou hast wrought in me, and still. keep me 
through faith, until thou hast fulfilled in me all the good pleasure 
of thy goodness. 

CHAPTER v.— 1770. 

Lady "Maxwell establishes a school at Edinburg^Retires to Saughton* 
hall — ^Has.the gospel preached in her house — Diary continued. 

It was on the second of July in this year, that Lady Maxwell 
established a school in Edinburgh for the purpose ofaffording edu- 
cation and Christian instruction to poor children. The necessity 
of impressing the minds of the rising generation with scriptural 
truth was not^ at the period alluded to, so deeply and extensively 
felt as at present. But her ladyship was fully alive to its vast im- 
portance, and her benevolence was not to be confined within the 
limits of common and erery-day charities. As her heart devised 
liberal things, so she was studious to find out new methods of use- 
fulness, and her exertions could only be bounded by her abilities. 
This school was ever after one of the objects of her pious soli- 
citude. Its sole management and superintendence remained 
with herself; but as the benefits flowing from it were seen and 
acknowledged, others came forward with pecuniary aid. Her 
ladyship was particularly careful to admit none as masters but 
men of undoubted piety ; frequently examined the children with 
regard to their improvement in knowledge and serioasness ; and, 
in a great number of cases, she was favoured with pleasiiig indi- 


cations that a truly religions concern had been excited in their 
youthful minds. She has also recorded several instances of per- 
manent good ;^-of persons who afforded, in mature life, decided 
evidence of established piety^ and who gratefully acknowledged 
that their first religious impressions were received at this school.* 
A few, after they had been absent from their native country a 
number of years, returned to offer their kind benefactress their 
tribute of thanks. But all the good that has been, and which 
yet may be done by this institution, will not be fully known nntlf 
the grave gives up its dead. £ach child, uidess dismissed on 
account of improper conduct, went' through a regular course of 
instruction for three years ; and at the expiration of that period 
a Bible was presented, to be their guide and companioii through 
life. At the time of Lady Maxwell's death, eight hundred chil- 
dren had enjoyed all the benefits of this, very laudable charity ; 
and it is still in active operation ; her ladyship having, by her 
will, made provision for its existence so long as time shall last. 
M^ its energies ipever be diminished ! 

ott in her endeavours to *' save souls from' death,'' she did not 
confine herself to the rising* generation. Other barren fields 
needing cultivation soon presented' themselves, and she entered 
upon the work With a pleasing alacrity. Having suflfered much, 
for some time, from bodily indisposition, and hoping that a resi* 
dence in the country. might be beneficial to her health, she re- 
moved for a short period to Sanghton^hall, a venerable mansioa 
at a small distance from Edinburgh. On witnessing among the 
villagers a prevailing carelessness with regard to reUgion, she* 
became deeply interested for their spiritaal welfare. That she' 
might convey to them religious instruction, and if possible awaken 
them from their dangerous slumbers, she opened her house, in 
person, invited them to attend, and engaged different ministers to' 
preach unto them the unsearchable riches of Christ. Many 
gladly flocked to hear, and evidence was afforded that these 
Uibours of love were succeeded by the divine blessing. This,' 
however, to some appeared irregular, and opposition was excited. 
•* Let all things be done decently and in order," is certainly a 
divine injunction ; and there are some individuals who. apjear to 
think that to attempt to promote religion, or even to make any 
allusion to it, except under some consecrated dome, is a viola- 
• tion of this precept. Happily for some of those villagers, Lady 
Maxwell thought differently, brared the opposition, persevered; 
in her benevolent efforts, and had to rejoice in the work of her 
hands. To this practice she steadily adhered through life, when- 
ever edie-wascaued to reside in the country. Were the rich and 
noble of our land to follow her ladyship's example, and give their 
influence and energies to the support and extension of godliness, 
many an ignorant population would enjoy the means of more effi- 
cient iasttttction, and many a poor wanderer would be le4 into 

1^ T,vfw ^9 hA^r njkxwmi4^ 

l}ie w«j of pe«ce* Fr^qawl, aUasioni to these interartiBg pnr- 
ticqlaa* will ocoiur in the couwe of the liUxj. 

Hufuanf 1. Tbk day jdioald haye been flfiTes eepecudSy to 
the liord, being the fir^ of the ^eai ; hat He whe eaimot eir 
«aw m^t to confine me to bed with pain and eickneae* i could 
I^dly fix mj mind on anj stthject fair five minatBa tog^hex; 
pezht^ a chaatieement for fonaex erv3a, and sacely deseired. I 
aee raoie aiad more the propTieW, or nuther aeeeaaity^of makii^ 
religion, our chief busineea whue in the enjoyment of health. 
ECow soon doea disease disorder, at least, paztiallyy the facoltiea. 
of the. mind ;; thereby rendering as nnaUe to draw at times evei^ 
8|iy raiaobal cooclusioa, with regard to the state of osr-soula : 

* ' LimB w!iile joa. lire/ the sacted ^nman cries, 
^* And gire %o God each tnoment as it flies.* " • 

ttow reasonable ; Lord, einable m^ so to do ! 

4. Had this evening the benefit of some hpnrs, eon 

vMSfvtipn with a sensible clergyman:; in the whole course of 
WJM^ I think a catholic and moderate spirit prevaSed., Would, 
we be preserved firom bigotry, how necessary is it to accuston^ 
bnrselves to think and speak en every sabject, especially on reU- 
poo, with a liberal and generons freedom. Contending earnest* 
b^'for ifbnjiamrataJs, whilo we cheerfolly allow others to differ 
from us in doubtful opinxons, taai this withont a diminution of 
bve to them. Unquestionably we shall enjoy the greatest union 
of spirit wUh those whose sentiments are in aQ things similar- ta 
our own ; but we are also bound to love those who dif^ from us, a» 
i^oembers of the same body, as living branches qf the s^one vine, 

O my God, let this heavenly temper prevail in me ; deliver 
Xfie entirely ftom narrowness of spirit, from contracted views, 
and enable me with a pure heart ferveady to love all that 
love the Lord Jeans in truth. I casmot help being entirely of die 
opinion expressed by an. anther I. lately read ; that ^ no daonna- 
B|e error can dwell in a soul united by a living faith to Chri^ ;^ 
bnt, at the same time, I believe the hay and stubble of many fool- 
' ' . opinions, bailt on that good foundation, will be barned in the 

'of the Lord, while the soni that had imbibed them will be sa^ed,. 

f eb. &. This has been a day of moch peace, both alone and: 
wl^en in company. My views were clear, my faith strongs, and 
Jfejsius nig^.; and, on acloee examifiation as to the state of mjr 
aoul, in the view <^ the a^roaching sacrament, I clearly per- 
eeiyed that a great change had nassed upon me, which in< the 
word c^ God is sometimes termed '' a being Vni again,'' some- 
tuaes, " a passing from death unto lii(^,'' andagain, "being trana* 
lated from the kingdom otf Satan into the kingdom of God's dear 
Son," My reasojMi for tht^s jo^gingp are, first, 1 found I had 
l^ee^ Qonvinoed of aiOt wad broo^t into a 9tm of bondage and> 

ism. '^coD^, I hadiieeiieOHfiiiMl of right— maogi, ii%0M^ 
by I had leeeiTed ^wuwr to beHeve oil Christ, and fomd ttn 
Spirit of Ood witncniMng whfa my «iMrit that I was his ehfld : and 
as a canchoTdSLvag prOof that ny &ith was ffesaioe, I loted 1k«t 
it wrought by lore to Qod and naaa, and M 8» to pvrif^ lajr 
lieart. Thirdly, I ish a.ooaitimMl haagerittg and thirstiBg aiUr 
xsghteottsness ; anfent «ttd hahilnal deaures to ba whollj der^Mfl 
to God; together wiA^detp aeaae of &e de^^yily «f iny «#« 

— r-- 13. Heard a pr^etaUe exhorfatieB, tad w^ htim 
eeeanedopento iiiatre^tion^lidioprodC I ataod anased wteii 
I perceive how snuttt a p r o p o rtiflln any ptegxeaa beaia t^ toy graal 
privMeges. Loid^ qaiekea ajr tanlir pac^ ! Whafel(M » it i 
move so akiwly ? If aot deoeiredi 1 am ui a g^reat meaoate dia* 
auited from created things, and my desizecNure boaodlesh vid ia** 
satiable for spiritual hlesshigfeL Lord, ssareh me, aAd see if there 
is yet nndiseoTered any way of iridmdaess in me, whidi, Mke 
the worm in Jonah> goord, preys upon my tpiritoal eonstitntioft 
loid keeps me thus kin. I was grieved to feel a piioneneas U>- 
day to be displeased widi <otliet8. Lord Jesas, thou art ^* mani- 
fested to destroy the works of the deril.'^ O tfaeh, " enter my 
soul, and work withiQ, and ki|l, and make nliye." Destroy eve^ 
evil texnper, unholy passion, and tinmly appetite ; save me from 
wandering l^nghts, and idle words, with every foolish and hnxt- 
fbl desire. Let tiie leaven of thy grace spread, until the whole 
be leavened ; then shaM I he ena^ed to adorn thy g<|spel. 

—— 28. Found myseif much harried with a variety ^■ 
persons and things, iand had little comfort in secret dnti<3s,'wkh 
but small power to gl(»ify Grod in any way, or to remst riiy 4me* 
Bdies. I have felt greatly defective for some d^ys in love to God<; 
in power and composure when engaged in prayer; and ato.a 
ptopeness to impatience, se)f*-will, ahd bitterness of apirit. O 
my God, I am oppressed ; undertake for me : I ardently destit 
entire devotion to thee, but ail iny efforts toward it are nnaisail- 
ing. I seem to row against both wind and tide. O Jesnia, of 
oidthon didst command the windaand waves, and they obeyed 
thee ; do tiiou c|)eak the tempest of my soul into a calm : " iagr 
the rough paths of peevish natnre even,'' and again " qpeii i«^m]r 
breast a little heaven.'^ hn the afternoon, ae who is rit}h in 
mercy, in some measure helped me, and in the evening I fell 
animated and comforted by conversing with a jfeSow traveller^ 
whose sentiments eoncemingthe, thinga both oftimeandetenufty 
ere very similar to jny own : yet notiung can satisfy Init the d^ 
etruction of every thing in me that is contrary to^e will of God, 
Without holiness there cannot be ha|ppiness. Lord, hear nif 
{nrayer ; dry up this corrupt fountain, and nnite me wholly lo 
thyself, that I may glorify thee. 

April 1. At seven heard a leoliire from John i, IB; mldeir 


^ich the eye of my faith was clear as the shining of the sun at 
noonday ; Jesus seemed to stand in the midst, and I knew him 
as the Son of God, and as my Savioar. Anading mystery of 
redeeming love ! But, Lord, lei me sink deeper and deeper every 
day in the experimental knowledge of it. O let me sink into aU 
the depths of hami>le love, and also riae to all the heights of 
Christian confidence ; thns, Lord, though a worm, I shall bring 
glory to thee ; without (strange notion of eoroe) derog^tiqg from 
thy priestly office. O the various devices whereby Satan d&- 
Reives the children of men : not only the wicked into final des- 
micron, but, alas ! the chilclreo of God, whereby they suffer much 
loss, and fall far short of that degree of glory they mig^t have 
brought him here, and of consequence have enjoyeid themselves 
hereafter ; many of them escaping only as with the 4ikio of their 
teeth. Lord, prevent m«, c^se it will be my own ease. . 

S&. This evening I ardency desired to go to the hooss 

of God ; and, upon getting there^ for awhile enjoyed mmch com- 
fort; but it was soon interrupted by bodily indisposition, i 
grieved to find I was so easily incapacitated to serve God ; suid, 
upon coming home, was induced to retire hastily to rest ; not, 
however, without afterward qnestioning the propriety of my con* 
duct in so doing. I have never yet been able to determine, to 
my own satisfaction, the boundary of Christian dnty in this par- 
ticular; how far duty and pri^ege should lead me to resist oc- 
casional and slight indisposition, and persist in attempting to go 
on as if in heaUh. I know I have frequently felt uneasy in my 
mind upon yielding too readily ; and, on the other hand,, have felt 
comfort and obtained relief when I have resisted painful feeling. 
I also know that human nature in general is inclined to self- 
indulgence ; and, therefore, if we err, it is safest to err on the 
other side. 

27. Felt hurt to-day through unwatchfulnees m conver- 
sation, though with the godly. ' I sometimes suffer more when 
with these than when with worldly people : with ^e latter, we 
are always on our guard : withlhe former, suspecting no dangert 
we loosen the reins of watchfulness, and then the enemy, ever 
waiting, easily gains an advantage. I also felt a degree of con- 
demnation on account of not doing more for others. I feel almost 
constantly a painful sense of ihy shortcomings.- Blessed be God, 
I ki^ow we are justified by faith in Christ ; hot then I know also 
it is my privilege to be wholly devoted to God; to be employed 
every moment of my time either for or with him ; and that in 
proportion to the progress I make in the divine life here, the de- 
grees of conformity I gain to his image, so shaU the degree- of 
glory be which I shall enjoy with him hereafter \ What a stimu- 
lative should this prove. It is a poor, starving religion, if it de- 
serves the name at all, that would make us wish ody to escapt 
heUf and just to enter heaoitL. 


May 7. I feel impatient with m5rself, I am sa nnlikci Jesus, 
tnd make so little progress in conformity to him, though sur- 
rounded with precious means. Lord, lay to thy faaod, tfwt only 
can bring salvation ; and, O, let me enter into « fuller rest, sink 
into Christ, dwell in his wounds, be held in his heart, and lean 
on his bosom. O deliver me in heart and affection entirely from 
this scene of folly and sin : enaMe me to maintain a holy in- 
difference to its smiles and frowns. I feel a painful regret that 
I hare done little for God to-day. G deliver me from iiiactivity. 

— -^ 1S|. Endeavoured to spend some hours in the public 
worship of Godwin what is termed by some a watch night. How 
reasonable is it, or rather what a privilege, sometimes to lengthen 
Qut our devotions ; how much for the Christian's comfort and 
profit. How much time does the worldling spend to amasi 
things that perish even in the using ! How many hours will the 
drunkard give to his cups, the pleasure-taker to his amusements : 
and shall not the Christian, whose object is so much mo):e glori- 
ous, be allowed at times also to exceed the usual limits prescribed 
for worshipping God ? " Who ishall prescribe a law to those 
that love T" 

July 2. Many opportunities occurred to-ds^ for the benefit 
of others, which I attempted to use. God, withhold not thy 
blessing. Do thou remarkably bestow it upon the school opened 
in thy name : may many souls be brought to a knowledge of thy- 
self th it. O God, we dedicate it unto thee ; bless it, and it 
shall be blessed. 

0. Enjoyed more life ^nd composure of spirit in morn- 
ing devotion. At ten, went to the house of God, where I was 
both disappointed and grieved. First, by finding the word at- 
tended with no power ; and secondly, by observing the minister 
at much more pains to inculcate* opinions,. \)aaxLXQ enforce the 
necessity of a change of heart, and a life of devotion to God. I 
cannot think that this controversial manner and method of preach- 
ing is the most likely way, either to awaken the unconverted, or 
to stir up Christians to press on for greater degrees of confor- 
mity to the mind and will of Christ. When it is much practised, 
I should be apt to fear the heart is npt deeply impressed with a 
sense of divine things. , 

August 14. Since my last noting in writing the Lord's deal- 
ings with my soul, I have been confined by bodily i^iction ; in 
the eourse of it I experienced much languor upon my animal 
spirits, and also a degree of spiritual stupor. Before I was taken 
ill, I enjoyed much fervour of spirit-; every nerve felt on the 
stretch for God, breathing constantly and ardently after the 
knowledge of his will in all things, and for power to do and 
suffer it. I never had seen it in such an amiable light ; I felt 
willing to sacrifice all in order to attain. But, alas ! how little 
did 1 know myself When he showed me he willed my affile- 


tkm of body and mind, I Bhrank back, unwilling to drink the Mt- 
ter cap. He has again in a measure restored my bqidily health ; 
but still I feel a languor upon my spirits, and am to^my own ap« 
prehension not so much on the stretch for God. I believe this 
is i>arUy owing to my nervous system being greatly debilitated. 

29. Sttughitm-^^all, Was enabled to embrace the op- 
portunities which offered to-day, both for giving and receiving 
profit, and found them comfortable. It seems as my meat and 
drink to act for God. In the evening, I attempted to bring some 
to the knowledge -of Grod, by having the gospel preached to them 
in the house : uiey flocked to hear, and the word seemed to faU 
with power on some. I felt, this attempt to do good attended 
with much inward opposition, but afterward enjoyed much com- 
fort ahd strength of soul. v 

September 6. Felt life and power in family prayer this morn* 
hkg. (^ late the Loud g^ves me more comfort in this duty than 
formerly. He enables me toenter into the 8|>irit of prayer, and 
to feel what I say. It was at first a great cross to pray in my 
family, but now I see it is a great privilege, and would not 
give it up on any account. How often do I kneel cold and 
lifeless, and in a moment he quickens and comforts me. Bless 
the Lord, O mv soul ! 

8. When I take a retrospective view of this day, it 

appears as a blank, because I have done nothing for God; 
though I do not know that I have neglected any opportunity : 
but I long to . be all for him ; continuaUy employed for him. 
Many of the children of God are suj^rised at this language ; 
they think it not necessary to be thus employed ; that the Lord 
does not require it of us. I see it both necessary and a great 
privilege ; I find it quickens my own soul ; and that in propor- 
tion as I am alire myself, I am desirous for the salvation of 
others^. I am firmly persuaded that continually attempting to 
fill up all our time with and for God, ia the way to have our 
peace flow as a river, ^and our righteousness to be as tko waves 
of the sea. Thk I apeak from experience, and think on such 
a subject the strongest arguments may be derived from thence. 
At the same time, i feel fully oonvinced that salvation, from 
beginning to end, is all of grace, I bless God, I feel no desire 
but to build my hopes upon Christ. My heart deceives me much 
if I am what some call an Arminian in that point : though I be- 
lieve most people do Arminius injustice herein. I think it is 
others, not he, who build salvation on a mere moral .plan: but, 
be that as it may, i leave him and all others to stand or fall to 
their own Master ; what I want is, the possession of every bless- 
ing Christ has purchased for siunets. * 

13. Proved to-da^ how unprofitable it is to dispute upon 

the things of G«d. It is seldom attended with sweetness of 
spirit ; and wl»t truth is these against which there is not a {»o»- 

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Bibility of nueing some. objection ? But k this tbe most «xeel- 
lent way? Let as be satisfied |hat we are bom of God, mi 
then we have His promise who cannot lie : ** They shall be 
uught of Ood. '' My tkith, hitherto^ has not stood on the wisdom 
of man, but in the power of Him who eannot err. Upon my 
&Bt taming .to th& Lcnrd, I was soon aware of' the distraction 
'Sod bitterness of s^pirit which |NreTaited among many otherwise 
good people ; owing to the variety of opinions which they had 
respectively embraced. This made ine determine that God, 
and not man, should teach me, I therefore gave myself np to 
him, and entreated that he would, by bis word and Spirit, lead 
me into all truth : not only into those principles absolutely neces- 
sary to be believed ; but also into matters of less consequeno*, 
that ^are most for his glory and the profit of my own sonl. This 
request I o&en repeated, and have since found the benefit of it. 
It hto kept me from holding any man's person in undue admir»- 
tion; and, of consequence, from implicitly following any. What 
had been written by difierent authors oh both sides the question, 
I^ endeavoured to read with caution, and received notfamg but 
upon satisfactory evidence? I find both safety and comfort in 
neither reading books, n<nr conversing with any person, wi^out 
immediate application to the Lord^ that I may receive nothing 
from either, but what is agreeable to his holy wiU. 

October 9. My unfaithfulness yesterday stirred me up to 
attempt greater vigilance to-day, and the Lord gave me opporta- 
Bity and power; and much sweetness and strength, as usual, 
immediately followed my foeble efibrts. O how desirable it ift 
to do the will of God ! I sometimes think being allowed to do 
this is reward enough, though I should not see any of the firnit 
of my labours ; but he is very gracious in condescending to show, 
at times, that my attempts are not always in vain. I do'desii^ 
to glorify him : this by far proves the strongest stimulative to 
duty, and I tbii^ increase^ so as almost to eupersede all other 
motives. For some days past, I have felt the deepest convic- 
tions of ixty. helplessness, and inability to do any thing but as I 
am every moment assisted; and from thence has sprung deep 
gratitude to Grod for the gospel plan of salvatioq. It is well for 
one that I am to be saved by g^raee ; for I am nothing, have no- 
thing, and can dp nothing. The Lord often causes me to dwell 
npon my oWn imperfections, foUies, and miscsdrriages ; makes 
me sensible what a poor, wretched, miserable, comfortless creti- 
ture I should have been, if left ta the efforts of nature ; and this 
makes me admire his bounty and goodness to me. But, notwith- 
standing this, I feel pride ; I am far firom that deep huiriili^ 
which fiows from a thorough knowledge of ourselves. O, how 
dull a disciple I ami how often jAo I need tq be reproved for the 
same foult! O for power m all things, and at all times, to io 
the will of my Ood. I took for this :-» the petfeetim I 

68 UFB or LAl^Y HAZWSLt. 

aim at. It is the highest idea I can ^urm of hafqpinesa ; tlie 
most refined and exalted enjoyineDt of which I have any coo- 
ception ; — ^living: every moment in the spirit of saorifice ; feeling 
my will sweetly flowing with his ! but this the power of divine 
grace alone can effect. My Jesus, what endless praises are due 
to thee, who hast purchased this great salvation ; also to the . 
eternal Spirit who applies it ; and to trace it up to the fountain 
head, to the ever blessed Father, who planned it in the -councils 
of eternity. AU glory, honour^ and praise to the triune ,6od. 

— 22, I seem to-grow worse instead of better. O that I 
might believe this apprehension was occasioned by increasing 
light. I would not flatter myself, I wish to know the worst. 
Show me, L<Hrd, as I can bear it,' the depth, of my depravity ; 
but let me also prove the utmost power of thy transforming 
grace. Wretched as I am, I still thirst for the glory of God 
and the salvation of my fellow creatures ; and would wish, if 
strengthened,, to do or suflfer any thing to procure both. Yet, iB 
spite of this constant ardour, I have continual need to be stirred 
up to greater actirity in the ways of God. I find a propennty 
to sink into a supine spirit : this, I believe, is in part occasioned 
by a weak body, together with a delicate nervous system and a 
natural in^ination to solitude. Yet I think this last is well 
nigh conquered, by a strong desire to do all the good I can 
while in this vale of teareT; though herein lam circumscribed 
within very narrow limits. Were my abilities equal to my do- 
jures, my acts of - beneficence would be diflhsive as the rays of 
the sun, and numerous as the sands upon the seashore. 

Dec. 18th. I bless the Lord lie has increased my commo* 
nion with himself to«day. I found it sweet, yea, seemed drawn 
by divine attraction, to leave the creature, in order to enjoy my 
God by prayer and meditation ; while a sensible communication 
seemed opened between my soul and the invisible world. What 
shall I render unto the Lord for all his goodness ! Alas, how 
inadequate are my returns of gratitude, love^ zeal, or activity. 
I have much cauise to blush and be ashamed, and also to lament 
that my progress in sahctificatibn is so small. In the evening 
read a sernfon on the priyilege of believers, especially in their 
communion with Christ. It pro^red a time of refreshing, a sea- 
son of love ; my views were clear ; my faith, love, and grati- 
tude, were increased ; while the Lord clearly showed roe that all 
this through grace was mine. ^' O wondrous grace, O bounds 
less love !" At night, while reading the noble testimony which 
many of old bdre to the truth,. both by their life and death, my 
soul felt more drawn out than for a long time, for the whole 
salvation of God. I seemed to mount up on the wings of strong 
desire. I had grieved for many weeks for the want of this bless* 
ing. Since the middle of July last, when I was seized with a 
severe illness, I seemed in a great meaisure to lose it : 1 thoi^ht 


I had never fidly rdooyer^d it, yel my enjoyment, as ^o the com^ 
forts of religion, have been greater than they were even then. 
O what cause have I to praise the Lord, that since I earae here, 
hardly a day has passed in which he has not given me a special 
token of his love, together with peace in believing. Indeed, he 
has ^never si^ered me to give up my confidence since the happy 
day he blessed me with it. Once or twice, for a day or two, 
spon afler-i obtained peace, my evidences seemed a little cloud- 
ed, which threw me into a great distress; but the Lord, who 
has abounded in all goodness to v^e, soon returned to me what I 
had lost ; to that these tossings seemed permitted, in order to 
.fix me more solidly On the Rock of ages. '' O what shall I do 
my Saviour to praise !^' 

CHAPTER VI.— 1771. 

Lady Maxwell's diary continued. 

Jan. .16. My communion with Cfod and his dear Son has 
been delightful, for some days past ; to have it without those 
interruptions to which it has hitherto been subject.! Could I re- 
eeive an opinion embraced by many, my distress on this account 
would not be so great— ^which i^, that God withdraws from the 
souls of his people - without any offence givea on their part. 
From the Scriptures, I think it rather appears to be their privi- 
lege to enjoy constant communion with him. In John xiv, 23, 
he seems tp promise it : ^' If a man love me he will keep my 
words ; and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, 
and ihak/e o^r abode with him." In all the places of the Old 
Testament I recollect at present, sin is by God assigned as the 
only cause of punishing his people, or of keeping back from 
%\^em any good thing : but in this, as in all things, I w^ould wish 
to be open to conviction. I desire to bless his hc^y name, that, 
though I feel a difference as it respect&^he degrees of cOmmn- 
nion X enjoy, yet he never takes, from me the witness of his 
blessed Spirit. O what cause for praise; In the evening felt 
access to God in prayer, and power to make my wants known to 

Feb. 11. Heard a profitaUe sermon on Rom. viii, 32. To- 
ward the end, when the minister addressed himself to the chil- 
dren of God, I -felt a sweet consciousness of being one of them. 
This was immediately followed by an anxious, earnest desire, to 
be entirely devoted to him ; and a painful eoavietion of my short- 
coming. I deired to be in secret, that I might pour out my 
heart to God : but when I got by myself, found a want of holy 
violence in prayer. Lord, let me not rest short of being wholly 
given up to thee. I see this at a distance, and how much is 

'60 ±nit i^ LA^ MAXWXlt. 

it to be desired,— loo/Atfl^trtlA God. For serera] days hare 
enjoyed mueh sweetness in the exercise of waiting upon Oo/cL^ 
desiring his will should tidce place, ftbd thfit in all thmg« I should 
be resigned to it. I have many things depending at present ; 
many fears, cares, and trials ; but find some conifort in giring 
them all up to him. I hope he is in some measure weaning me 
from created things. Lord enable me to say, 
" *Tis done, the ereat decisiTe part, 
The world's subdued, and heaven has all myjheart.*' 

" We are chained to this world by strong ties," says a good 
man, " and every sorrow cuts a string, and urges us to rise j" 
therefore I woulcf bless Grod for aU, but most for the severe. He 
did indeed choose me u^ the furnace of affliction. He took a/I, 
and then he getve me all ; for he gave me his dear Son, and 
having him I have all things. Q for a deeper acquaintance with 
him, a closer union and greater conformity. 

March 2. I have been much hurried for some days, and va- 
riously tried ; yet the Lord so comforts and supports me that I 
hardly wish to get out of the fiirnace. I never felt so much 
reconciled to the cross : it is, I find, productive of many good 
effects. It weans us from the world, ircHn self^ softens the heart, 
and breaks the stubborn will ; yet this, only through grace. 1. 
feel a disposition to lie as clay in the hands of my divine Potter. 
I believe when the cross ceaseth to be necessary^ I shall suffer 
no more. Lord, carry on thy work in me ii^ thy own w^ay . En- 
deavoured to embrace the opportunities that offered for the good 
of others these few days past. However unable to effect this, 
my desires are no less than usual, and the Lord still continues 
to own my feeble efforts. 

32. To-d^ I feel unwell in body, bmt I bless the Lord 

for peace of mind, and some commiinion with himself; this sup- 
ports me under the pressure ef various trials. " It is good for a 
man,** says the mournful prophet, *' that he bear the yoke in hia 
youth." I have found il so for years. The medicine was in- 
deed bitter, but since the cure has been in any measure effected 
by it, it is -gref* 'cause of thankfulness. I would still, O toy 
God, desire to be as clay in thy hand, and not give place to oAe . 
murmuring thoug;ht: and if (as I believe it is) for thy glol-y 
would farther desire, with thy servant of oW, to count it all joy 
when I fall into tribulation. Alas, I am far from this ! O my 
God, how much is still to be done in me ; work for the glory, of 
thy great name ; and let, O let me enter into rest, that I may 
praise thee! Have felt at tunes to-day a cloud of grief; not 
darkening, but pressing down my soul. There may be sorrow 
without sin. There is, I think, a degree of this that has its 
foundation in simple nature, which doth not render us culpable 
in the sight of God. Lord, my sighing is not hid from thee ; 
iieith0r sore the eaoses ef it. I commit all to thee ; O let it be 


in weU doing. What, in a great measure, quiets my mind under 
erery event which befalls me, fs, resolving all into either thy ex- 
press or permissive will : and as such, I feel it precious, how- 
ever otherwise afflictive. Yet at times my distress receives a 
punffency, from a thought that frequently passes through my 
mindy viz., that by my sins I constrain God to chastise me. 
Lord, I Would not willingly offend thee ; it causes grief when I 
do.. Alas, that 1 need so often to sorrow on this account. O 
Jesus, how precious art thou to me, who feel I ^ome short in all 
I do, and in many things offend. 

April 13. Found power tlirough grace to thank God, yea, to 
rejoice that I was disliked for Christ's sake ; yet nature seemed 
to think it severe. My sou) was grieved this forenoon with the 
workings of corruption ;'0 for victory. Of late, I have felt a 
painful consciousness of my unprofitableness. I seem to live for 
no good end. Lord, stir me up, and give me power to do some- 
thing for thee ; and do thou enlarge my borders. O let every 
power, faculty, and talent be sanctified and set apart for thee. 
Xhou, Lord, knowest what a grief of soul it is to me, that my 
abilities at present are circumscribed within such narrow limits. 
Had I millions, I would glory in using all to promote thy cause 
in the world. Omake me faithful in the small matter thou hast 
committed to my trust. 

May 4. The Lprd epal^led me to rise early, in order to wait 
on him this morning ; and though I did riot obtain what I want- 
ed, yet I find, in general, my expectation of the blessing is weak- 
ened or strengthened according to my diligence in the use of 
the means of grace which God has appointed. It certainly is 
the rankest enthusiasm to expect any blessing without the use of 
means. May the Lord giv« me that measure of grace which 
, will enable me to work as diligently, in the way pointed out by 
the oracles, of God, as if my acceptance and whole salvation de- 
pended on it ; aiid yet at the «ame time to trust no more to it 
than if I hid not done so. 

June 17. Opportunities occurred to-day for the spiritual and 
temporal good of others, which I attempted to improve ; the 
Lord only can gfve a blessing. Angels themselves, without this, 
would be of no service ; and with it the meanest creature may 
do good. In the evening, obtained power to take up my cross 
and follow the Lord : though it was not succeeded by any par- 
ticular blessing, yet I fiiid every step taken in the unfrequented 
path of self-denial is of use. It strengthens our confidence in 
the pardoning love of God, and weakens the principle of self- 
indulgence, to which we have a strong natural propensity. 

22. Being the fast day before sacrament in Leith, I 

set apart all the forenoon for prayer, reading, meditation, and 
self-examination ; and all the day and night for abstinence : and 
though very dull when I began the work, I have reason to say 


the Lord was gracioiu. He seemed to melt down my he«rt 
under a sense of repeated backslidings (at least partisd ones) 
from himself; showed me the evils that remained in my heart 
and life ; and at the same time showed me the things that were 
freely given me of God. . He gave me strong desires that what- 
ever was amiss might be rectified, and what was lacking might 
be supplied. Upon a retrospective view of my state since last 
at the Lord's table, I have much reason to mourn that instead 
of having gained ground I seem to have lost some. I do not 
find such firmness in taking up my cross, nor such constant self- 
denial as I have experien<^. O my Ood, liave mercy on me, 
and let me not sink from thee : stir me up fbr the^lory of thy 
name. Enjoyed a sweet time in secret prayer to-day, and 
thought I was enabled in faith to plead a promise, forcibly ap- 
plied to my mind some time ago, and which I imagined many 
months since the Lord was about to accomplish: but these fair 
appearances he permitted to be blasted, (perhaps to try my 
faith,) and my expectations grew faint ; though still in a mea- 
sure I believed the promise could not faO, " that it was for an 
appointed time, and in the end would speak.'" I was therefore 
encouraged to wait for it ; and for some days I have been ensk- 
bled to " hope against hope.*' Yesterday, I seemed by faith 
to anticipate its accomplishment, though without any know- 
ledge of the time when "I had fainted, unless I had believed to 
see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living." " Wait 
on the Lord, be of good courage," O my soul, " and he shall 
strengthen tliine heart ; wait, I say, on the Lord." Though 
surrounded with a variety of trials, temptations, and inward con- 
flicts ; with the concurrence of many outward circumstances, 
which have a natural tendency to depress and weigh thee down ; 
yet still trust in thy God, and glorify him in the fires. He has 
delivered, he does deliver, and he ^Vill still deliver. O, what 
good cause have I still to trust in him for all things, when he 
has so clearly revealed his dear Son in me ; and even in my 
deepest distress, whether from within or without, never permits 
me to lose sight of a reconciled God, or of my union with his 
blessed Sort. What an unspeakable blessing : well may this 
support me under every pressure. But how little acquainted 
with the divine life are those who think and say tliat there can 
be no distress of soul where there is a constant sense of an in- 
terest in Christ. I feel the falsity of this assertion. WTiat 
numberless waves of sorrow have gone over my head, even in 
the space of the last twelve months, many of them, indeed, if 
not all, unknown to the world, though many of them were from 
it. I confess in them all the Lord graciously supported me, and 
in many of them he richly comforted me. He caused his con- 
solations 80 to abound, that upon a review I do not think I should 
wish to have been exempted horn any one of them, except those 

my sin and folly brought on me. I eannot think that ^ie eoM 
be either for the glory of God, or the good of my soul. 

Edinburgh^ Newtoym^ Idy 19. Since mjr last date in 
June, I have been variously hindered, and have moved from my 
lodgings to this place, which, in all probability, will be the last 
remove,nill I go. hence to be no more seen. . I trust the Lord 
win give me peace in this plape, and greatly increase me, even 
with all the increase of God. This new Habitation was early 
dedicated t6 God ; the foundation was laid in prayer^ it was cai^ 
ried on apd finished with prayer ; and again, when I came into 
it, it was solemnly devoted to him. Before that he had owned 
it, and in the space of two weeks that I have been in it he ha^i 
]given me sweet intimations of his love, the {nrivilege of many 
prayeis from his servants and people, who also have dedicated 
it to him. O^my God, do thou make it a habitation for thyself 
to dwell in ; let thine eyes be toward it for good, and thine ears 
«pen to the prayers that shall be put up in it. 

— — %l. My spiritual joys have not been so great to-day. My 
time has been much cccupied for the good of others, but I did 
not feel such nearness to God, neither such a clear perception 
of divine obiects as nsual. Is there .to be obtained, while here, 
such a stability in the ways of God, as will render our feelings 
.always alike ?' Ahl no, — the union suWsting between the soul 
ahd body is so close and intimate, and the latter necessarily sub- 
jected to such a great variety of changes from different causes, 
that. these must unavoidably, more or less, affect its immaterial 
companion. One would almost regret that, agreeably to the 
present laws of hpiman nature, we can receive no impressions 
but through the gross medium of matter. What a glorious 
prospect does revelation afford us, when this mortal shall put on 
immortality; "when we shall know even as we are known." 
We shall then at first sight perceive causes and their effects, 
without the tedious process of reasoning.; every faculty of the 
soul wUl be enlarged, made perfect, and commensurate with the 
objects and enjoyments of the heavenly country ; but above all, 
we shall, if truly good, for ever bask in the beams of redeeming 
love. How surprising, that the thoughts of such iMnazing bliss 
do not prov^ a stronger stimulative in our Christian course ! 
Why, my soul, so languid ? why not always praising 1 Lord, 
forgive my dulness; Q' kindle a greater flame of divine love in 
my heart, and let it pever be extinguished, but burn brighter and 
brighter till it mingles with the blaze bf eternal day. 

23. I bless God I have peace, but J do not feel tjie lively 

actings of faith ; that inexpressible sweetness which flows from 
a close communion with God, with which, through superabound-^ 
ing grace, I am often favoured. How many persons, things, and 
places have striven for my heart ; but still, through the agency 
^an uxvisible Power, the scale turns in &tou7 of God and eternal 

04 Livi air iamt m axwsll. 

tkings. I Me, I feel tile Tanity of ftll below ; and yet« how 
often, for a time, am I overcome with those Very things which I 
in my judgment despise. This proves what an overmatch pas- 
sion is for reason ; it proves, also, how far we are fallen from 
that rectitude in which man was at first created ; but, above all, 
it convinces me what a debtor I am to Grod : who, withbnt vio- 
lently controlling my will, has often, by a sweet omnipotence, 
interposed, and, drawn me from many things and persons that 
would have otherwise proved hurtful ; arresting (if I may nee 
the expression) both my judgment and affections; Evermere, 

my Grod, do thou thus guide and overrule my determinations, 
both in beaft and^life, till thy love has made an entire 6onquest» 

August 2. My spiritual joy has in a measure subsided, and 
settled into a calm sweet confidence in God, with a delightful 
consciousness of my union with' Jesus. How far auperior is this 
heartfelt knowledge of God, to the abstracted and metaphysical 
reaaoning of the schools. While our knowledge of divine things 
rests only on this latter evidence, its influence must be very fee- 
ble ; not sufficient to enable us to resist temptation, or <to perse- 
Tere in the path of virtue and true goodness. Found my soid ' 
strengthened and comforted to-day by helpihg others in the good 

'- 6. This has .truly been a sweet day. I have enjoyed 

close communion with the beloved of my soul. Jesas has been 
very near, and as visible to the eye of faith as' ever a material 
object was to the eye of the body. This language, to those who 
are unacquainted with experimental religion, must appear quite 
unintelligible, but " he that believeth hath the witness ^in him- 
self True, indeed, this is an argument for the truth that can 
have weight with none btft those who feel it. O that I Oould 
convey its powerful ejects to the hearts of all. Was a good deal 
hurried through the day, but, having instant access to the tower 
into which the righteous run, I enjoyed much comfort. How 
blessed are those whose God is the Lord. But O, I long to feel 
more of the sanctifying influences of those manifestations of di- 
vine love. How unlike am I to Jesus ! How little of his mind 
do I possess! In the evening, walked out with a Christian 
friend : my heart felt aspiring to God : I saw his name on aU 
around me : the sky was unclouded and serene, — a lively emblem, . 

1 thought, of a soul at peace with its Maker. Endeavoured to 
improve the time by religious conversatiob, and also dared to re- 
prove notorious offenders. Were I to follow my natural indina^ 
tions I should wish never to find fault, but by the silent repre- 
hension of a better conduct. The oracles of God, however, are 
so dear in pointing this out as a duty, and it is so written on my 
heart, that when 1 disobey it brings distress. I am therefore 
constrained to do violence to myself, rather than hurt my own 
ooBsdenoe and grieve |fae Spirit of grace. I confess it reqnizae 

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mncli prudence snd wisdom to detenmne the numner and ih9 
time : a deep consciousness of this often deters me. 

— 7. Alas, I have done liltle ot nothing for God to-day. 
I long to be active as fire for him, and steady as the needle to 
thA pote. I seem at present to lead a useless life. Lord, point 
out my way ; show me if tiiere' is any thing I can do for thee. I 
ffrieve to live as a pieee of live lumber in the world. I hope to 
have yet eoitietiimg to do ; what it is I know not. I trast this 
hope and desire flow not from ostentation, hot gratitade to that 
God who has done so mneh for noe. Had I thousands, I think, 
through gtaoe, I would spend them in propagating the goqpei, » 
Spreading the knowledge of Jeans, ** that blened. name that 
eharnds my fears, and bSs my sorrdws cease.* O wl^t mssie 
is in the sound. Often when I read or hear it, my heart (if I 
may nse the exp^ssion) vibn^tes tike a musical chord when ita 
unison is struck. 

^5. In the evening, tfaongh indiapbaed, felt nmch deaira 

to go to ttie houae of God ; which I did, t>ut waa diaat^inted. 
"i/hc word came with no power, and my joy wa^a litde inter'' 
•Tuptod ftoid a consciousness of unfaithralness. This by aome 
may t>e termed a lagal spirit; yet I can haidly aee it po»> 
aible how a real Christian can convetae wil^ the word of God, 
and alao study his own heart and experience, and ^ot he aeasible 
l^at biei comfort increases or diminishes 'according to his ^oae 
or careless walking with G<od. I do not know that any can ha 
more willing to ascribe the whole of inan'a aalvation to free graee ; 
yet, I confess, I see such a dose eonnectidn between the recep- 
tion of this grace, and a constant att^npttng tcT walk before God 
unto all well pleasing, and a dfligent use of every ordinanoe of 
the Lord's appoinling-^that, to speak ny own experience, I nevcor 
in any measure separate them but I aaffer loas in my aool. Y«ft 
in thia and all other matters, I would speak wfth the greateat 
modesty, conscious of my ignorance ^ and therefore desire never 
to advance my own opinion, either in conversation or writing, 
npon any subjeet, withont wishing, if it be wrong, that I may S» 
convinced of it, either by God or man. 

— ^ — 28. I have cause to remark the goodness of the Lord, 
who haa in i^ome deaaure appeared to me in a mirticfdar tiiai, 
the weight of which in part I still feel and fear. There are aome 
occurrencea in the course of Providence whioh, taken aeparately, 
or only considered in themeelves, aeem of little accoimt, espe- 
cially to the careleaa apectator ; but, when viewed by the eye of 
faith, appear impressed with such remarkable charactera of the 
divine favour and special gooddbss as add greatly to 'ftieir in- 
trinsic value. They then bring with thera a sweet and powerful 
conviction of the interpo^tion of a divine. agency in our behalf. 
In the course of my small experience in the divine litb, I have 
mach to xeeozd of the gbodneaa of the Lord aa maufeatad in thdi 


way. O how far ahort do I come in my retorna for auch a waate 
of love 1 

September 6. Thia morning, while in secret prayer, the Lord 
gave me a clear and strong persuasion that he was about to work 
a great deliverance for me, and seemed to show me in what way ; 
and that, by the accomplishment of a certain event, it was hta 
will to make good the promises powerfully impressed on iny 
mind some years ago. ' The impression continued strong all the 
time I was at prayer. I cried earnestly to him, that if an enemy 
had done this he would rebuke, the adversary, and obliterate the 
remembrance of it, but it still continued. If frohi himself, I felt 
aa clay in the hands of the potter, willing to be moulded as he 
aaw meet ; nay, my natural wiU seemed quite broken, ^md sweetly 
flowed with his. I purposely refrain from mentioning the parti- 
culars of this manifestation tUl the accomplishment of these pro- 
mises proves it to be of the Lord. He has in great mercy 
hitherto 'kept me from being deceived by dreams, visions, revela- 
tions, and aH the train of evils consequent upon giving implicit 
credence to every impression made upon the mind ; many of 
which owe their birth only to the operations of Sata^i, or a heat- 
ed imagination ; and I trust he will atiU keep me. But entirely 
distinct from this wUd fire are the clear intimations which the 
Lord sees proper at times to give his people of what he is about 
to do for them, either in the way of deliverance irom trouble, or 
of particular trials that are about to befall them, where perhaps 
hia glory and the good of th^ir souls are concerned. This is 
entirely agreeable lo the e3:perience of scriptural saints, as clearly 
appears from the account given of Abraham, Joseph, &c;, and 
is corroborated by the testimony of many now living ; among 
whom, if I may mention myself, I would say, poor and undeserv^ 
dug as I am, the Lord has condescended, oftener than once or 
twice, to deal thus with me. O how familiarly does God deal 
with his children. . 

27. I feel an increasing desire to be active for God, 

and a growing zeal for his glory. For aome little time my 
meditations have been mostly confined to this one thing, what 
can I do for the Lord t Alfts, my sphere is small, my circle 
very narrow ; not so my desires : they compass kingdoms, and 
would subdue nations to God« O that my borders were enlarged : 
I partly believe they will. How are our fallen natures dignified 
by being permitted and empowered to love and serve God ; yea, 
in being made partakers of the divine nature ! How unfathom- 
able the depths of redeeming love ! Lord, strengthen and stir 
up thy \iBworthy servant to dcfblare thy loving kindness, to tea- 
tify of thy faithfulness, ye^, to proclaim to all that thou art God ; 
worthy to be praised and had in reverence. Alas, that I meet 
with so few who are like minded. Most think it is enough if 
they save their own soul. Some suppose it is presumption; 

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thaty Uzzelike, they will be smiUen hf the Lord, if th<^ pat 
their hand to the ark. Others (strange imagination!) think, if 
they were to be active in the cause of ChriBt, or show any ^eal 
for the glory of God, it would be to establish their own righteous- 
ness, a budding salvation on a moral plan, and a pretending 
to add something to the finished salvation of Christ. For fear 
of this, they dare not do any thing. They sit down with their 
hands across, and rest satisfied tlutt whatsoever is ord«ined wiU 
eome to pass. Unquestionably, ")uiown to God are ail his 
varies fnan the beginning/' and his work shall be wrought, 
though not by them. They will lose much of the comfort they 
might have enjoyed here, and a great degree of that glory he 
would have gi«en them hereafter. " For as one staj; differeth 
£rom anoth^ star in gloiy, so also is the resurrection of the 
dead.'* O, when shall we see that generous spirit of piety which 
prevailed <iCmong the primitive Christiaas revived t They were 
not satisfied with barely saving llieir own souls ; they used all 
their influence for the good of others and the glory of God ; aU 
they had was devoted to his service. Not from mercenary 
Tiews^ or from supposing they could thereby gain,*etemai life. 
N<^,—-a much more generous motive stimulated their endeavours. 
The love of. Christ constrained them. ^ What a pity that this 
noble incentive to duty, does not opeicate in a more powerful 
manner upon their successors. I am afraid the love of the world 
constrains many of them to a very difierent conduct. .They do 
not enter so deeply into religion as to enjoy the comfort of it ; 
of consequence, they seek happiness in the creature* This takes 
^ir hearts from God, and makes them drive heavily on ia his 
wajTS ; and perhaps, at last, when they ceme to die, they escape 
as with the skin of their teeth. It is hardly possible to express 
the folly of this conduct ; it shows the deep and universal depra- 
vity of human nature ; that men can prefer the husks of this 
world to cemmumon with God. His. will, is, that we should 
walk all the day long with him, Enochlike, eying his gloiy in 
all we do, and consecrating aU we have and are to him. This 
the aposUe terms our reasonable service, but is it not also our 
highest privilege % Lord, let my future conduct show continually 
that I esteem, it such ! Q save me from the errors that are so 
rampant among the professors of Christianity, in precept and 
practice, upon the right hand and the left. From dwelhng too 
much upon the privileges of the gospel to the neglect of its 
precepts ; and also from the leaven of Pharisaism, in supposing 
that the strictest attention I can pay to the duties of religion 
will merit my acceptance with God. May both be kepvin their 
proper place. 

Decemb^ 11. I now take up piy pen to set up my Ebenezer, 
saying, " HitheTto the Lord hath helped me.'' Since my last 
daie, be has appeared wonderfully in my behalf, and given me 


to fiwi it is not in ▼loA to tnut Um. This he has enabled vie 
to do for some time more than nsnal, even when all tlni^ 
seemed to make against me, and I have not been disappointed. 
He has wroeght oat a present deliveraDce for me, not in the 
way I looked for, but in his own way and time, -which is be8t« 
This instance of his seasonaUe goodness has increased myfiuth, 
Oonfirmed my hope, and strengthened my love. O that my 
future life may be wholly devoted to Him who has done so mock 
for me, and who has given me cause to -expect still greyer 
things. This is wholly a iemporal deliverance, but at the saiiM 
time stands -connected in some measure with my profession as 
a disciple of Jesus : and is such a proof to me of die faithfnfaiesa 
and goodness of Ood, as I hope will prove very useful to^me, in 
enabling me to trust in him with an unbounded confidence te 
the future. 

' 19. I found the Beloved of my soul near in mtoniiag 

devotion ; and in the fbrenoon my mind felt sweetly led out in 
heavenly meditations : al} around me seemed Qod. With what 
propriety does the apostle say, ^* To be spiritually minded is Hfb 
and peace." The soul that enjoys commumon with God can 
witness the truth of the assertion. In proportion as this divine 
life prevads, a deadness to the things of time and sense increases, 
the percepUon of heavenly objects grows plearer, the soul sees 
Grod even in outward things, and endeavours to make his gioxy 
the ultimate end of every aotion ; she Consults him' on aM ocea- 
sions, and finds direction in the minutest st^s of life : whatever 
occurs, whether joyous or grievous, is carried to altoine bf 
grace, where a degree of holy fai^iliari^ and nearness is aflowed 
whi<^ is better felt than expressed. There the happy sool^ 
without Any Teserve, pours all her joys and schtov^, her hemes 
and feai^S) vbXo the bosom of a reconciled God and Fathear. If \a 
trial is feared, it is either averted or power is given to bear it 
like a Christian. AU desire of worldly things is lost, except a» 
they stand more immediately or remotely connected with the 
glory of God ; and, even in that case, ail dependence npon an 
arm of flesh for obtaining them is removed. If a babe in Christ 
ean witness the tmth of these things, what do the fathers en* 
joy 1 My God, let me know by happy experience. 

20. Endeavoured to set s|»art this day fbr prayer, ex* 

amination, and.&sting, as far as my constitution would petmit $ 
and I have cause to be thankful I felt a greater degree of heaven* 
ly mindedness than I generally feel on these occasions ; and, if 
my heart did not deoeive me, found reason to conchide I was 
not going back in the divine life. My reasons for thinking so 
were. First, my feeling for some time a greater power to oifiBt 
all my cares on God and to trust in him than usuaL Secondly, 
what follows of course, less dependenoe upon an arm of flesh. 
Thirdly, greater love to Grod, and more power to own him mi 

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Us canae befoie men. Fonitfaly, greater stabfliiy in hi/^ wajra, 
and also moi:e comfort, togethei wiih a growing desize to be 
wholly confomiad, at least 00 te as hamaiiity will permit, to lua 
1»oly will. Bst what cause did I also feel to blosht grieTe, 
and be ashvaed. Lord, rectify what is amiss, supply what is 
lacking, and give not over striving with me, till thy love has 
made an entire conquest, till I am lost aad swallovrod ep in 


Rttnarks oikthe duty of fasting — Oa the sadrament of the Lord's supper-- 
The' manner in which it is administered in Scotland-rBiary continued. 

It was about this period that.Lady Maxwell commenced a prac- 
tice which has been already briefly adverted to, that of setting 
a|)art every Friday for the duties of fasting, self-exaipination, and 
prayer. To these solemn exercises, on this day, she regularly 
and conscientiously attended throughout the remainder of her 
^fe ; /Snd at these seasons she was generally favoored with more 
than ordinary consolation. Kovr. is it to be accounted for, that 
liie duty of fasting is at present so litde regaxded by the gene- 
xality of religious professors ] The fast days of our forefather 
are .nominally retained ; but there is abundant reason to suspect 
t^at the name of tho-^ing isjiearly all that remains of it. is it 
because Christians have adopted a mor^ r^ular and abstemious 
mode of living now, than did those of former times ? Or, be- 
cause some have attached a superstitious importance to this 
mattear, do professors think it may be totally neglected by them 
with impunity ? " Fasting,^' says Jeremy Taylor, '* is a pr(^>^, 
apt, natural, usual expression, and an exercise of repentance ; it 
has some natural and many collateral .advaudtages." ** It is,^' 
observes another di^ibguished divine, " a help to prayer ; par- 
ticularly ^jis^ w^Isbt apa^ large portions of time for ^vate 
prayer, llien especially it is, that God is oflen pleased to lift 
up the souls of his servants . ahove all the things of earth, aji4 
sometimes to raise theijn up, as it were, to the third heavens." 
tt will be seen that Lady Maxwell, in her attei^dance to this 
duty ^ realized in her experience all the advantages h^e described* 

"The light in which her ladyship viewed the communion of. 
the body and blood of her Lord deserves also to be particularly 
noticed. She looked upon this as an act of obedience to a 
solemn, binding command of her Redeemer, given at a time a^d 
under circumstances iso awful and endearing to Christians, as 
should cause it ever to live in their remembrance ; she viewed 
it as forming a bond of unioji among God's faithful followers, as 
bei0g one of the nearest approaches to Deity, and most intimate 


participations of himself; as famishing one of the choicest means 
of grace, in which God seals his children ; she moreover consi- 
dered it as a practical avowal of the Christiati's attachment to 
his Lord, and a public renewal of his covenant engagement. ' For 
her to have learned that the^e were in the world Christian per- 
sons, professing the power of godliness, and declaring tlieir love 
to Christ ; zealous in their attendance on prudential nie^ns of 
grace, yet living in the glaring neglect of this divinely ingHtuted 
ordinance, would have uppeared to her such an anoinaly in re- 
gion as to involve in itself a.palpahle contradiotion. These 
views were in nowise peculiar to herself. This is the light in 
which the Ii0rd*s supper is viewed by every serious person in 
Scotland, while its binding obligation on every Christian is ac- 
knowledged even by the profane. It is there considered as the 
test or sign of church membership ; and how far any kind of 
connection with the Christian church can constitute a methber of 
the universal church of Christ af o^/, without commemorating hia' 
dying love as opportunity may offer, is a question fairly open fblr 
discussion. The stress, likewise, which the ministers north of 
the Tweed lay on a proper observance of the Christian pass- 
over \ explaining its nature, displaying its use, describing the 
qualifications necessary to ^ worthy and profitable participation 
of it, and urging its indispensable obligation-— ail of which at© 
warranted by Scripture, and justified by the importance of the 
ordinance ; have a tendency to awaken general attention, excite 
desire, and dra^ a fhll attendance on those occasions ; and, as' 
great expectations are raised, so spiritual - profiting most fre 
quently ensues. Lady Msawell delightfully embraced every op- 
portunity of this kind, not only at one but at different churches, 
and also at the chapel where her attendance was constant ; and 
generally, if not invariably, she experienced them to be times of 
refreshing from the presence of the Lord. 

In some of the extracts which refer to those seasons, her lady- 
ship will be found expressing her thankfulness for having been 
enabled to remain until the close of the ordinance. To a person' 
unacquainted with the nature of a Scottish sacrament, such allu- 
sions will need explanation. In the populous parishes, and espe-' 
cially in the cities and towns, the number of communicants is 
so great tliat the ftervice is generally continued for several hours. 
Not unfrequently from eleven in the morning until four in the 
afternoon; so that few persons can conveniently remain the, 
whole of the time. The manner also in which the elements of 
bread and wine are distributed, and the lengthened addresses 
from different ministers, tend to protract the service. And 
though, to an uninterested observer, there may often be at least 
the appearance of confusion, yet, from the number of ministers 
present, and the consequent variety of ministerial talents which 
are called into exexoiBe, tedionsnesa it greatly avoided. Ei^ie- 


cially to those, who, as Lady M . was accastomed to do^ " dia* 
ceni the Lord's body, ^' soletndity and devotion reign through the 
whole, and to the end of the ordinance a gracious inflaeoce is 
maintained.* After these remarks her ladyship shall again de* 
tail her own history. 

y ' •■ . 

February 6. ' Since my last date, January 29, the Father. of 
mercies hath visited me with affliction. But jO, how gentle has 
beeii his rod t How much mercy has he mixed in the cup ! I 
have not in any previous affliction enjoyed so much of God. I 
was allowed sweet communion with him, while from the begin-' 
ning I was persuaded there was no death in the cup. Wfaian 
on a sick bed, what friend is like unto God ? Who can support, 
who can comfort like him ? Diseases are his servants, |hey come 
at his command, and as he speaks to the proud waves so ne iioes 
to them, ^'Hitherto shalt thou come, but no farther." Lord, I 
desire to devote, my spared life to thee. O, let all I have and 
am be thine : brace every nerve, invigorate my animal spirits* 
scatter the life of Jesus through every part, and sanctify the 
whole. The Lord hath this -day fully completed what many 
months ago he enabled me to believe h® would do. How great 
is his faith^lness, how great is his condescension to me, even 
to me ! What shall I say ; I feel lost in wonder ; words fifci], they 
cannot express my grateful sensations : — ^and shall 1 not trust 
hiin for what is to come 1 Yes, my God, through thy strength, 
I will believe not one word shall fail of all thou fiast promised. 
What mercies I have experienced siiice the Lord first inclined 
me to seek his face ! I may indeed say, they are more in num- 
ber than the hairs of my head. I have (Committed a few of tham 
to writing for my own benefit, but how many have I omitted, or 
neglected. Lord, write them upon my heart. I blush and am 
ashamed when I think of the poor returns I have made ; of my 
numberless backslidings, repeated miscarriages,vand base ingra- 
titude. I would deeply lament them. O blot them out by blood 
divine, bury them in eternal oblivion, and for thy name's sake 
give me power to walk before thee unto all well-pleasing. I 
have felt for days past constrained to stimulate others to lore 
and serve God. What an active principle is love— may I ever 
feel its sweet influence ! 

8. The preparation before the sacrament in the Cannon- 
gate. The Lord hath dealt bountifully with me to-day ; I can 
truly say, my communion has been with the Father and the Son. 

* It must be acknowledged that at Scottish coimtry sacraments inde- 
corous scenes have occasionally occurred. ** But those persons, however, 
who gather their information of these times from the profane description 
drawn by the licentious author of ' The Holy Fair^' will be prepared to 
£bnn an opinion of puritanical intellect and piety from the buffooneiy of 
Butler in nis Hudibrastic rant." 

^ I 

73 tIFK or &A9T MAXWELL* 

When 1 tnwe in tlie monuog, and began to examine the state 
of my mind, I found God waa with me io ble9s ; and, in secret 
prayer, I was permitted into the presence-chamber, and obtairied 
moat endeazing and hea;rt-ravishing views of God, — as a faithful 
God ; as a promise-making, and promise-keeping God. I haye 
proved him so indeed, and I wiU trust him. I have felt my soul 
to-day ahhorring sin more than ever, and earnestly longing to be 
wholly given up to God. 

10. Snnday* With greater earnestness than ever I de- 

Btred to go to the Lord's table. Arose early in the morning, and 
iqpent a long time in secret, but did not feel remarkably alive till 
within a very little of my going out. I went to prayer, and was 
enabled to plead thQ bleod of Jesus with such prevalence for all 
1 wanted at his taUe, as I never remember before, and it was a 
truly profitable day. My tide of apiritual joy did not run so 
high aa^I have felt it ; but I enjoyed unutterable peace, and felt ' 
flOrroonded wiihthd leve of God my Saviour. It seemed as a 
bulwark unto me. Faith, felt almost lost, if not in sight, at least 
in enjoyment. In my way home at night I was blessed with 
heavenly and heart-comforting meditations of God, and his amaz- 
ing goodness to me. When I arrived, the Lord fed me with the 
manna of his love, and blessed social prayer and Christian con- 
versation. Eternal j^aises to the God of ati grace. 

= 11. I cajmot express the goodness of God to-day; 

words will not convey an, adequate idea of it to others. In th« 
morning felt \fnwell, nature cried, /spare thyself^ but in tbe 
mklst of weakness I longed to go to the church. My body soon 
regained strength, and through the day I was favoured with 
sweet commonioQ with my God and Saviour. At half past ten* 
heard a discourse from " Abide ye in my love.'' The^ words, 
seemed peculiarly addressed to me, ^and the. whole sermon was 
food to my soul suited to my experience. But my soul almost 
trembled lest any enemy should get in. I felt so centred in God, 
that the thoughts of even a partial separation was like death. 
Immediately afler the sermon, went to visit the sick ; still my 
mind was preserved in nerfect peaee, and in great condescen- 
ston he blessed the words spokento the afflicted. I had, soon 
a^r, the prospect of b^ing with those who were ignorant of 
God : this caused me to cry earnestly to him to preserve me 
from injury ; and he heard me in the thing which I feared ; ena- 
bled me to confess him, and all the time to jenjoy delightful com- 
munion with himself. My enjoyments have been very great 
today. I think I have had o. measure of -that perfect love that 
easteth out all slavish fear. Lord, whence is all this good- 
ness to me ! for a grateful heart. Maintain what thou hast 
wrought; I feel dwelling in God. Praises — ^nraises — praises ! 

— '— 20. How shall I describe the deligntful -cpmonmion 
I have enjoyed with God to-day : — ^the permanent rest I hav^ i 

fimnd in Mmt He has dnee mommg eontkiiiafly bratted npoi 
my Bcral, and by a divine e:q>irati<Hi mj soul contbniany bieatked 
back his lore. When I rose in the mpnung, I felt my aoal ra^ 
tiier languid^; bat after breakfast inclined io retirement and aeeret 
prayer. Enjoyed a good tiiae at the throae of grace, aad im- 
mediately aiCer the I^rd drew near, and gave me to feel the ao- 
comjJiahment of a promise made by the Sarionr : '* If a man 
k>ve me, he will keep my words ; and my Father wiU lore him, 
and we will come mato Kim, and ma)ce onr abode wi& him," 
John xiY, S3. To the former pacrt of this scripture I lay no par- 
tnmlar eiaiin, and the latter I only repeat as cenyejring a more 
distinct idea of what, through aboanding| mercy, I hare enjoyed, 
tlum any words I can use. After all, it is moie than I can ex- 
press. ' Lord^ what is man \ What am I Uiat thou shooldst 
deal so familiarly wilh me ! I cannot itow doubt but that the 
Lord has given me to enjoy for some time a snudl measure of 
, that perfect love "which casteth out fear ; a taste of entire devo- 
tion. Lord, increase ^t, and keep it i^J me ; for I fear lest I 
shonld grieve thy Spirit, and thus caase thee to deprive me of 
itf though this fear is subsiding, 4nd I feel mora confirmed. 

21.. After writing the above last night, I e^yed 

such delightful intisrcourse with God before I retired as made 
me regret the necesMty of interrupting it by taking necessary 
rest. On going to bed, so inany comfortable scriptures poured 
in upon my mind, that I, fell aslieiep fiHed with the love of God. 
Yet through the ni^ht I was uncommonly distressed with frig ht- 
fel dreams, and, like Job, scared with viuons. ' In the midst of 
them I happily awoke, and fcmnd mjr joy in God oontinued. In ' 
a few minutes I again fell asleep, and again sufiered simOar dis* 
Cress. To what shall I impute this \ To the power of evil 
spiritsi to the deep corruption of my heart t or to some bodily dis« 
order, which, agreeably to the laws of sympathy, most affect the 
mind 1 s To whatever cause it should be attributed, surely I have 
much reason to be thankM that it wa)i but a di^eam. And 
dreams are but 

interludes which /oiicy inakes : 

Praises to my God, through jhe day I enjoyed communioa 
with him, and a m^^Q^® of that rest in him which I have ex- 
perienced for some weeks. In secret prayer I was allowed ac- 
ces84 and found power to plead that nothing but the pure love of 
God might dweU in my heart. I felt a degree of languor on my 
animal s]^rits, and once or twice in the course of the "day was 
grieved to perceive that my manner and spirit savoured of hasti- 
ness ; especially when roeaking of those who, I thought, were 
acting wrong. I hope I mourned over this, and made a fresh 
application to the blood of sprinkling. When shall these Canaan* 


itesbe driven out of the landl When shall I possess that ia* 
Tincible patience and meekness which no provocation can move ? 

March 11. Recoyered a measure of comfort ^d strength which 
I had lost yesterday by not being sufficiently courageous in reprov- 
ing sin ; but still 1 mourn for my ingratitude to that God who so 
uncommonly loads me with his benefits. The remains of im- 
purity which I still feel are truly an intolerable load ; and especial- 
ly of late, since I have been blessed with so ii^uch nearness and 
delightful communion with God my Saviour. This makes me 
exquisitely sensible to the least touch of sin, sind pauses it to 
produce the most pungent sorrow. Lord, give me all that free- 
dom from' it which thy word holds out as my i»*ivilege. 

Sunday 16. A day much to be remembered, wherein I enjoyed 
communion with my God. His joy was my strength ; whereby 
I was enabled to wait upon him much longer than usual in his 
house of prayer. In going to his table, I sang his praises, feel- 
ing surrounded wiUi his goodness. 'Words fail when I would 
teU how much of his love h& showed me. . I feel immersed in 
the ocean of divine love. Silence must speak that praise I can- 
not utter : the language of immortality alone cafi adequately 
cxprees it. 

April 10. Since the 6th inst. I have ,had another proof that 
the Lord is the hearer and answerer of prayer. Fearing a certain 
trial, I cried to him, and entreated he would make a way for my 
e8caj>e. HIb former goodness in similat cases led me to trust 
in Idm, and I was not disappointed. He. has appeared for me, 
and made me sweetly sensible it was his own .doing. This, as 
at other times, has produced desirable consequencesrr-increase 
of lovej confidence, and desire for more communion with him 
For some days my joy has not. been so great ; my views have 
been clear, yet I have not felt so near; wanderings have fereatly 
harassed me while at prayer. My heart is< also pained, because 
I do not make greater progress in the divine life ; and because 
I do not feel so ardently breathing after God — after my God, my 
alh How great the stupidity which hangs upon my spirit ! All 
heaven adores Thee with a continual flame of love which burns 
up every other desire ; all on earth is, the workmanship of thy 
hands, ftom whom thou justly demandest an unceasing tribute of 
jiraise ; but, especially, how ought the fire of devotion to be con- 
tinually ascending from the altar of a grateful heart in all thy 
children ! those whom thou hast redeemed, whose hearts thoa 
hast set free and made thine by faith in Christ. How loud should 
be their notes of praise,— how warm their Itwe,' — ^how great their 
activity 1 What cause have I to chide my cold heart ! Come, 
Lord, and so fill it with thy pure love, that I may not for a mo- 
ment lose the warmest sense of it. What heights and depths of 
the love of God are attainable in this life ! — ^what constant com- 
munion, wliat uninterrupted peace, what close walking ! Of these 


1 haye enjoyed more for some montlis than before ; bat, O, how 
little in comparison with what I might, and hope to enjoy eren 
here. Not that I believe absolute perfection attainable in thi« 
world ; yet I hope not alwt^ys to be a babe in Christ, bat by degreea 
to attain the strength of a youn^ man, and then the staSUitVf 
vigour, and firmness, of a fkther. This I am wats^nted by the 
word of Grod to expect. 

"Yet, when incited in the flame 

Of love, this shall be all my plea : 
' I, the diief of siimen am. 
But Jesus. died for me," 

By the economy of grace all boasting is, and most be for ever 
excluded. '* Let hun that glorieth,'^ says JehoTah, ** gloiy in 
this, that he onderstandeth and knoVeth me," How jost ! If I 
know myself, I would glory in nothing else. But alas ! how is 
my glorying'^ a manner made void, because I know- eo little of 
Him, — ^haye made such poor returns,— and because the child re-* 
mains so unlike the Parent^ 

" — - — 20. Still my soul feels com:forted' and quickened ; bht 
mind more stayed on God, wanderings in secret fewer, and I 
enjoy nearer access. Met yesterday with a trial I did not ex- 
pect. How often does that come upon us we looked not.lbr ; 
imd how seldom, on the other hand^ do we smart under appre- 
hended eyils. Lord, in this, as in all other things, '^ tl^ will 
be done." 

"No cross, no snlfering Ldedine, • 
OaJy I/»t al] m|r hetai be thine." 

O the superlative happiness of having God our reconciled Father, 
and of being in any measure moulded into his will ! What a con- 
stant stream of comfort flows from this fountain. It blunts the 
edge of every trial, and gives the proper relish of every earthly 
enjoyment; things and persons we then keep in their proper 
place, and God is our chief good while we ** stand fast in the 
Eberty wherewith Christ hath made us free." Indeed, if we be 
" agam entangled with the yoke of bondage," and the love of the 
world prevail in our hearts, the love of God will soon die away, 
and we shall lose our relish for divine things. How necessary 
is it from the moment power is given us to believe on Christy 
with that fsdth which remoyes condemnation and brings peace; 
to have always something fatther in view; to be constantly 
growing in grace, and going on from faith to faith. If we do 
not attend to thus, we shall most assuredly lose ground, and 
again recede. 

30, 1 have found a degree of uneasiness creeping into my 

mind, because some things were not goingf on agreeably to my 
wish. This ought not to be. I ought so to trust in the Lord, 
that my soul might be like Mount Sion, which cannot be moved. 
This naturally leads me to regret the littlenesa of my grace, and 

hvre not oil I wish» not wlia* umi^ (^ii«v OhrialNiiis #1907, yel 
I fasfe nmeh mm Aah Z iOr pv^peiljr iI^wIgN fkact^gj# 

ii«iuBUa of. I find wf wnm»m for jr^oiQiiif ^roznore 400 4» 
gitai and mti^ tkai I wfiodey ttiy tlMHT A* m» shimld otbt 
moTO me. I pereeiye it is a misfortune^ S I nigr Ins f^ffw^ tbe 
expre8tt<m» to be cast in teo soft f^ pmli' 9^7 natoxe is often 
deepl7 afieeted wlu^ 107 sou), oari^iylhft^I part, remains mmioTed^ 
and were it eq;iiall7 snppsvfeed in tit» aaittiialpowersy I shoidd en» 
J07 nmch more finnness than I new de« But this^ with eTer7 

m^WhmlgH^^e,' Osi)9rioi|sdalr^T-^ni|ftfl^nBigtiLoag]iil 
Vlien I^ #Y(Mi /, sliaU ¥9 adiiiitt^a t^ ^eM4 tbe beat^c >i- 
W9* sluiQ i»e HQT Jesus idl fill h|ci splendoiirr^afiail see ^itli- 
ont a veU Hiat CM oCiFhoffejU^nefB^T l^«re so largely partaken^ 
X4mfiiift9e «nd adeiai fili} I Wliat a^oital ean e^ipsress ^ hiq^p* 
ness that real Christians shall then enjp7 1 I must lei^Te it imitai I 
l^Ntfn tbe laag^ge of immettalilf* l^«i$ Oy my heart ought to 
mitH mik lotre te. the Fa^er of m^sn^iefh wbo has inyosted me 
^n^ a legal Me to thm gionons kiagdopii, by revealing his Sob 
in my heart! I weold tSai eyeary momeQt mj eoal glowed with 
MnqpittQ ]oT!e-*-^)i keaTealy ardoiff ! O ^aUTy me lor the 
eiwmaeAt of thait glorious place. 

May 5. Still my God is good, and lias allowed me mn^ of 
his presence to-day, while varkndy empknred for the good of 
my own soul and liiat of odiera. Yet hi the afternoon I had 
^jRoee to lanaent my waant af 1^ ^mter degree of fsitfaialsess to 
the I^rd. He ^ not deprive me of the iMnnfort I enjoyed 
ilBinediately) but by degrees; fooa after, reflecting ^pon my 
iHgvalHadet apd aeeiBg elearly %okaf I aught to have done^ i 
Ipond it diminished^ purely th^e ^ no Sjafe qor c^mfortaUe 

r^ to walk in, biit that of 4ufy. This is a matter of fact, and 
fliid ]^ eonfomed by day7 expei^^vioe. People myay amuse 
tbenw^Tes, if they daze, by thili^g M eaying the eosp^ 
brings such a liber^ with it as invests the children of God untih 
a dieoretipuflKy pow^ to Jo, or to leave ynienef as they choose : 
Im ef oDkO diiag I im moraUy cwtain, if they wo^ld preeenre 
^ehr heaxia right mik (^od, apd their conseiences be properly 
mlbiinedi they will not enjoy onuiterrDpted peace if they take 
the Uherty either to (mt any dn^, or to do those thinga tbe 
Spirit of God j^ndemns, A Ijji^r^ purchased at this expense 
18 the very worst kind of bondage^ How absurd, then, to brand a 
Moaoientioos discharge of doty with the odioas namb of legalUy. 
If we do, we mee^ conse^e^tiy quarrel with idl the j^ohibitionav 
Ittd injnnctiipnfc aud eiihortatioiis, we meet with in the oracle^ 
of l^rotli. If I bM>v any xhmg ef trae libezty> it is to love wij 
Godaadtonroidm Tiue ie the ISterif ef tbe p^speb ««Ki • 

urn w &MIT MiSiniidu 

to walk in iL 
Hay 36. For tbe lani eiglit 4»7« it bui bMB a ieaaon of 

aereieiiiwaidldal; tl^aegeMM^yaMlhe kM^ T« »U 
to m/ auieriiigs, my body wm affietod ; tdi hn tmm^ Imbi fll|f 
laiiidwas flo banaMd, and ao ata[^,IeoMMC is il far Ma 
mintttesoadmoetltta^H 1 •» thttAfal tiriii lial mininphiit wm 
«»t aufibred kng to muiiu Tbe Lotd k nevey iwMrad . 

«»t auflered Jang to muuu Ilia Ajom fa nevey iwMrad joqr 
ipaina, cleaved oiy lipm^ and kieiiiiad fli|«,to «ry Mito lum<: aal 
tho^ I lubd Dot mack eoBikloiit^ yet aadtta^tth I Iblt !!»#««»» 

lastuig anna teoiedy suppwtkw Bn^^yoa^ mie^g^v^ me M 
overcome. He ia a gMckNia €k)d«ted wO) not italfor W^u^ 
drea to be topi|ptod abow. what my iM aMe^ Nta^ be: bw 
onmiaedto ^giTeatnmg^ to bwpaapto: Ibe Levi wtt Waan 
b^ people witb peaee*^ I eaiuiol aet n^ aeal to tbe, tndi ef 
thia pi»o>oiia psenuae : IM ye^ to iaM Mqri I itaM 
» farther degree oCliii^wijtt iega«d to iiiis wiA < 

In aome things I leal a ooaataft^ Ibar (^^^^^ ^ "7 7^ 

mnd a dread ieat t sboald B«ali^ to^ Sasdly teHaal bkUt 
moBsi^mfD to dia aelf^MBO ibbi^^rHviH ka tea atfar aae 
grea^toerr^eitfaBrmjMncmle or ill pvaetieel NiHHbaBill 
thia caao, sioful aa be ia* wooJd aai ; ^ laaa i. na^bitoGM. 

June 36. I bave faben op.too Smob tkfte aad thongbt^ to<4faif 
with temporal thiaaga^ wk^dbi b^ui • UtUe inl^ritptod my. em» 
communion with thei Father of me^iea. O for power ttol aa|^ 
to Zr^ but totMiAt in the Spiril^ I b»v6 now ei^naly giveaf nf 
to the Lord wbait baa ei«coaBed to# wncdt Of my thoHj^ aai 
oonyetaation ,§aK two dajpa paafi. .. I beKevot it la IHni KimaalA 
and theref<^e hope he will aiiaooed iL He^ narrow iK the ^^ftf 
we iure calied to walk 1% would we e^}ay eoaatont eomtfHttioai 
wi^ Godi tebl believe it itonaktonfr wilh evety lawftd aHoap 
tion and ocoiipation in life, llioagh iJegeaBfcrily enjoyed in 
ontward tlnaga, atilH throna^ graoiay.the heart na|jr be at nber^ 
continually to attond to an ladweOing €MU Thia will natocaBy 
Ind UB to watoh in all tbuiga; b«i without a Hmxtmrtk of thin 
reooUeeted, watohfbl apait^ it ia impaaaiWrt to walk doaeiy 
withGod. Ibavebeettm(Oreii^«redkltolylMrwMat.«fngre«tov 
degr^ of tbia, than ftr tome tttoobaislt. WiHiil,!^ ^ 
tally know we may retain in the midal of wndd^ i 
a conatant aenae of tho^ divine preaelMM. 

July 30* (Snadaor.) SkyC bnt little tbroogk ^m ban^t; ioan 
▼ery early ; apent aome hMtfa in.aeeret with toe Lord, and founli 
neoeaa to hii|k Bft how Aafl I eipreto bta goednean to iu$ 
through the day. U wan indeed one of the daya of ttto Son of 
9lan : the watera of the aiiiiotuary Were aa aigre^ rivei^ ; I o6ald 
indeed adopt the laagnageiof St. Jobaiy ** Tmly^^nor fi^nMip is 
with the Father, and with hia Son^ Jeaoa C^triati'* Iii aevenfl 
thinga I had the petitiMia I anked of biik. "^ Tht jo)i^of tkri 


Lord ^vas iny strength,'^ foT I felt no weariness, neithertraBt of 
food ; this not only at the Lord's table^ but also tfarongh the day. 

31. As soon as I awoke tkur momuig, I enjoyed free 

aocess to God ; this continued all day : whezever I went I found 
him ; in public, in private, and in secret. Wlience is this to me, 
that my God should deal so bountifully with an unfaithful, mifruit' 
ful creature. I feel so utterly nnabfe to tell of all his goodness, 
or to express my gratitude ; ail I can say falls so short of what I 
would and ought to say, that it leads me sometimes to ^ve over 
attempting it, and in silence to admire and adore that depth of 
love which I feel, but cannot comjnrefaend. May I go many day« 
in the strength of this nieal. But, O my Gt>d, I do not mean so 
ms ^o receive no more for some' time. No, I want eyery moment 
the ihtercounse open between thee and my soul r that I may be 
constantly drawing out of thy fulness grace f<Mr, grace,* till thou 
shalt receiTe my hai>py spirit home ; and eren then I ^all lire 
only by the continual emanations of ihy lore to my so«^. While 
in this Yale ojf tears, O elicircle me every moment in the arms 
of divine love — there only am I safe. 

30. My i^iritual joy has sensibly abated for some 'days ; 

" yet I will trust in the Lord, and stay myself upon my God." 
Not that I am walking in darkness, only when 1 reflect on the 
deep and close communion I enjoyed with him lately, I now 
seem comparatively at a distance. The bare recalling of the 
happy time to mind has often since ifi a measure renewed it :^ 
'*'Se that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, lie it is 
that loveth me ; und he that loveth- me shaU be loved of my Fa- 
ther ; and I will love him, and will manifest mysdf to him." 
This scripture promises a permanent rest and happiness : there 
is no interruption mentioned as unavoidable. And yet many 
good people, I do not know why, have received it as a proposition 
quite conclusive, that while in this world we must be as unstable 
as water. It is generally said the arguments drawn from expe- 
rience are most satisfactory. Were I to admit this, and argue 
merely from what my experience has hitherto been, - it would 
certainly lead to the' adc^tion of the aboyQ'^opinion. But if the 
generality of Christians live much beneath what the word of 
God describes ais their privileges, must I thence infer it is im- 
possible to live up to them! I cannot think the conclusion 
would be just, especially as I can see no foundation for such an 
opinion in the oracles of truth. Therefore, I would not permit 
their experience to have much influence in detOrmining my 
judgment, concerning the degrees of grace attainable in th^ life. 
The Lord knows I do not here speak as one who has already 
attained, but rather as one who is deeply conscious that as yet 
exceedingly, little is attained. Tet I believe that, in spite of 
the numberless infirmities inseparably connected with flesh and 
blood, God is both aUe and willing to make me ** ifejoioe ever* 


more, pray without ceasing, and in every thing to give thanks." 
At the same time, I believe that no degree of grace ean exempt 
us from being very sensible of a difference at one time from 
another, as it respects the measures of spiritual comfort and joy. 

August 7. (Friday.) From indisposition of body was prevent- 
ed using that degree of abstinence I generally do on this day ; 
not from any superstitions regard to Friday, more than any other 
day; only I find it profitable to set one day apart for more spe^ 
cial acts of dedication. Was sensible of ^n~ increase of life and 
power. In the evening enjoyed much profitable conversation, 
and found a blessing, both in social and secret prayer. Inward 
trials and temptations have been stronger than osaal. What a 
burden xio I still feel the remains of indwelling sin. Lord, give 
me all the liberty \ can enjoy in this life. 

8. Still I groan, being burdened. And yet what a mys- 
tery — ^I every moment, more or less, behold the glory of God in 
the face of Jesus Christ : I never lose sight of a reconciled 
God. O what cause for thanks. What a great siipport must this 
prove under every pressure; unijuestionably it is: yet here 
IS no contradiction. I believe the clearer my views ef divine 
objects are, and the closer my conimunion with God f#, 
the more exquisite i^ill be my sensibility of sin. What grief 
does it give, to feel any thing in me contrary to the God of love. 
How does it cut me to the heart^,^hat I should ever grieve his 
patient and good Spirit. In the evening went to the chapel, and 
heard a sermon ftom " Little children, abide in him; that, when 
he shall appear, we may have confidence, and not be ashamed 
before him at his coming.^' Toward the end of the service, my 
soul felt agonizing with ^desire and expectation for a blessing; 
while singing these lines,— 

" Giie, give me all my soul requires, 
All, an that is in thee :'' 

I felt as if grasping all that heaven could bestow. 

14. This has been a day of sweet serenity and unut- 
terable peace. I feel at a loss to express my enjoyments under 
a sermon at five in the morning. The Lord Was present ; the 
word came with power; I felt surrounded with his goodness, as 
Jerusalem is said to be with mountains. My soul was fed with 
manna and fatness. I felt more firmly persuaded than ever 
that the Lord would not suflfer me to be tempted above what I 
am able. How good to wait upon God : he has been at my right 
hand all day, and my communion with Jesus has been near and 
delightful. What I lament is, that my conformity still remains 
80 comparatively small. O that I could extirpate every foe he 
has in my breast. But, alas! I have no might against this 
great army. It is Kis own work, and. Lord, my eyes are unto 
thee for deliverance. How conJbrtable to know that, though 


iaj enemies are poienit Hs ie wnmp&teat; though they axe 
mighty, H« is cimighty, 

September 34. The lessons I hare beeii learniog for some 
thne past hsTe been. First, To endeaTOor to keep the eye of my 
soni steadily fixed npoQ the Lord Jesus, as the only way to oh- 
tain whateTer I want ; and to be preserved from wanderings and 
VDprofitable reasonings. Secondly , To cry without intermission 
to the Lord for purity, that I may. be more fully qualified to act 
for God. When it will be for thy glory, enlarge my sphere of 
ttsei5ilness7and oootinae my constant desires of doing thy will : O 
let me not lose waj opportunity my present situation afibrds. 
Show ve, Lord, if 1 am catting <^ all ^perfluities, and unne- 
oeesaiy expense in apparel, furmture,- &c., dtc. Surely this is a 
privilege ; yet not esteemed so l^ nature : it loves what is new, 
grand, elegmUt, eiciEitvagattt. I did so as wdl as others, till He 
who is rich in merer opened my eyes, and showed me a more ex- 
cellent way. Yet I mil short. Were salvation by wotks, I should 
be undone : eternal praises to God it is by grace, through £uth. 

For some time death has worn an amiable aspect:^ I have 
almast longed to get away. Nothing checks this desire so much 
as a hope to do something iot God before I die : except this, I 
have nothing to do here. The world to me has lost its charms : 
I see through the veil ; it is too thin to hide the cheat. . In God 
alone is my comfort : Jesiis is the only source of my eonsolatioii. 
I am pained by the rigMeoue, as well as distressed by the wicked. 
The former are so torn by prejudioe,^^ faction, and party spirit :— 
the latter, so awlully dishonour the God I love. Lord, see the 
ways of both, and bieal them. 

October Id. This morning had the clear witness of God's 
Spirit with mine, that I stood accepted through the Beloved. 
This animates and invifforates the soul in all her combats with 
sin, Satan, a^id the. world. Faith is indeed a precmus gift How 
mysterious m its nature, and in its workings ! What a new 
world does it lay open to the eye of a believer ! What glories 
does it display f But, above sul, how inconceivably, yet cer^ 
tainly and sweetly, does it unite the soul to Jesus ; producing a 
rdation and connection much nearer and dearer than any earthly 
one. O Jesus, what constant source of consolation art thoa 
to my soul* 

94. Have been confined by sickness. The rod was 

gentle, but I am . never laid on a sick bed without being con- 
vinced I have not sufficient grace for that situation. Ever since 
the Lord gave me a relish for divine things, I have had a desire 
to be continually employed for him.. When confined I seem to 
be laid aside firom this delightful work, which depresses my mind, 
and often robs me of that degree of comfort I might otherwise 
eigoy. Now surely this is an evil, and bespeaks me defective in 
point of resignation. Yet, so gracious is God* he generally 


knugtt good out of it, by sliinttlcting me to ery note sanwM i tl y 
for Siat measure of grace which shall alike enable m« to be ds- 
▼oted to him in sickDOse as in health, in adversity as in pros- 
perity. In the course of this last illness I kilt at times so ardent 
m prayer for this that it almost seemed more than my feeble 
frame ooald bear. 

Noremher 35. My soul hae been eioeediiiffly — ar i o wful te 
eoine weeks. I think I have not experienoed saeli deep and 
▼aiiegated diistress since I knew the Lord* My inward eonHioli 
have been very severe, I was truly in agony of sonU and many 
outward things concurred to aggravate my aHUction. What adds 
a pungency to my sorrow is &e unusual workmgs of a proud 
hMurt and an unsubdued will ; neither of which is iinlling to stoop 
to the present cross. My whde soul feehl as if in confusitm. 
My Grod« let not the ^iiitfiMl before thee.- O speak this eMtm 
ialo a oaJm. * '. 

" Omnipotent Lord, my Sftviour and King, 
Thy sueconr afford, thy righteoosness bring : 

' Thy pixymiBM iHiid thee oompassioif to bavv. 
Now, DMrletnae find the* almi^tyto save.^ 

— " 30. J now take up my pen to reeord the roerey of my 
God, who has looked upon my affliction, and in some aeaeuze 
vemoved it. In my distress J cried unto the Lord, and he heard 
and delivered me. He calmed the tumult of my ecu], and said 
te the rafliog billows and roaring waves, ** Peace, b« stm.*^ BieHi 
the Lord, Q my soul. 

December 84. Tfarouffh the abounding goodi^Bss of my God, 
my inward conflicts have beeti less severe for this l^st week tfaaa 
for months past ; and I have eiljoyed a measure ^ eqmmuaion 
with the Father aitd the Son^ in company and when idone, in prayet 
and meditation. Yet I have had the pressure of many outward 
thingSf and sometimes fears lest my inward quietnesa was owing 
to want of ardour in the pursuit of divine objecta. I am morally 
oertain that my faith is stronger, my views eleazer, and n^y en- 
joyment of th« sweet Intimationa of the layour of God more 
lively : oalv I think I do not possess that piiaful earnestness of 
spirit which I have experienced^ Lord, let me never rest but 
in the full enjoyment of thyself. 

fhia year is now drawing near to a dose, and I l^el a painfal 
c<mviction that I have made comparatively but email nrogresaiii 
the divine life. that before it ends the Lord would come and 
finish the work begun in me, and (et me enter into the rest of per- 
fect love. Lord, hear the prayer of thy handmaid. 

31. I have repeatedly to-day renewed my euffagemeuti 

to be the Lord's, in time and to all eternity. At nij^t kmd a 
eermon on " Arise, and depart, for this is not your rest.'' Whitei 
attending to it, the Lord shone up(m his work on my aod. My 


intereBt in Jesus was as clear as if written in the ^most legiU* 

" Meridian evidence puts doubt to flight, 
And conquering faitn anticipates the skiea." 

O wherefore is the Deity so kind ! Astonishing beyond astonisli- 
ment ! HeftTcn octr reward above, for heaven enjoyed below ! 

CHAPTER Vin.— 1773. 
Diaiy continued. 

Jan. 1. And is the former jear gtme—'gone, ne^er to be re- 
ealled ! Where is it 1 ^Lost m the ocean of eternity 1 Awibl 
thought ! Not sa the deeds I have done in the course of it : they 
are SiithfuUy recorded in the divine register. O my soul, how 
wouldst thou blush. at the recital, were it not for the. blood of 
Jesus. Blush, did I say 1 alas 1 how confounded wouldst ihoa 
rather be ! In it would be found ten thousand times more than 
enough to condemn thee to all eternity, were it not that Jesus 
stands between the Father's wrath and thee. O '^ Jesus my 
hope, for me offered op," how shall I, — ^iiow can I sufficiently 
praise thee ! I lament the coldness of of my heart. I would it 
were ever burning, seraphlike, with love to thee ; but, alas ! 
how insensible is it to that vast love that ** thee inelined to 
bleed and die for me !'' O for more love ! 

I awoke, afed got up very eariy to begin the year with my 
immortal Friend ; but through affliction of body was prevented 
going to his house, yet the Cord made it a sweet day to me. 

19. For these two weeks past, I have had cause every 

day to bless the Lord for his goodness to me. The additional 
power given me some time ago tb rely on him for the - aocom* 
plishment of his promise still continues ; ' to which is imited a 
measure of faith, love, and zeal for the glory of my God and the 
salvation of others. ^ This last week he has afforded me delight- 
ful communion with himself in secret prayer, meditation, and 
conversation. I also experience that Christ is more and more 

Erecious. I seem to see more than ever the immense value of 
is blood, as a fountain to which I am permitted to have daily 
and hourly recourse, for the removal of fresh-contracted guilt ; 
for continual shortcomings, and for farther degrees of sanctifi- 
cation. O Jesus, in thee is all I want-^but for thee, and my 
interest in thy complete atonement, where should I appear,— or 
haw should I appear ! , Confusion would for ever cover me and 
my best deeds. In thee alone is all my hope and all my comfort. 
^Of late, my heart leaps for joy at the very mention of the name 
'^of Jesus. I can truly say, 

%tW% 09 LADT MAXWBLL. 83 

*' JesQs, thy blood aad ri^hteousoess^ 
My beauty are, my glorious dress." 

how cdrdially does my sooi approve of the whole plan of sal- 
vation ; but stiil I grieve daily for my unfaithfulness, unfhutful- 
ness, unwatchfttlnesa ; these three evils are a source of much 
sorrow to me. . 

— *~ 26. F6r these seven days past I have ' experienced, in 
various ways, the goodness of my God. The means which be 
has most blessed hUs been secret prayer : this I prove a holy 
preservative against the many snares of an evil world. By it I 
am fortified, and in some measure enabled to bear the trials 
which are constajatly occurring' in common life. There is no 
situation in life exempt from trials. To be *^ from things that 
disquiet free^" is incompatible with a state of humanity. To 
suffer so as to glorify God is all we can ask or expect. Some 
weeks ago I found meditation the wajr in which I enjoyed most 
of the presence of the Lbrd ; but he varies this as his wisdom 
sees best. I have felt the pressure of several trials for a long 
time, but have been allowed to cast my burthen on God ; and, 
especially of-late, he has given me an increase of power to trust 
in him. My faith in the promises is also, sensibly strengthened ; 
but still I lack that, degree of it which would enable me to lay 
present hold of them : yet I believe " He that shall come, wiU 
come, and will not tarry." This forenoon I found Christian con- 
versation and prayer truly, blessed. The Beloved of my soul 
drew nigh, and comforted me, and others with me. Severah>p- 
poTtunities also occurred for-the good of others, which the L<»d 
enabled me to embrace ; O that he may bless them. He is very 
gracious in this respect, and aa he knows I am* prone to be dis« 
couraged, he sometimes condescends to letone know that good 
is done by my feeble efforts ; this animates and encourages me 
to renew my attempts. Fseem to be in my element when act- 
ing in any way for God. My soul truly desires to be wh(^y His ; 
but, O, how far am I from this. For spme days I have enjoyed 
a calm abstracted frame of mind-rfree from creatures— cleaving 
to God. 

Feb. 14. ^Friday.) Endeavoured ^to set this day apart, as 
nsnal, for prayer, abstinence, and self-examination. Upon the 
whole it was profitable, though not remarkably joyful. Tllis 
last wieek the Lord Jesus has drawn very near to me, and won<- 
derfiilly manifested his presence ; sO that I have ^seen and con- 
versed with him as a man with his iHend : yet these visits of 
love were but short. O lo have them more abiding ! Were 1 
more holy, I should enjoy mpre of God. It is this, (when wo 
are accepted through the Beloved,) . which capacitates our na- 
ture for the enjoyment of Him. The pure in heart see God. 
My soul desires holiness, but, alas ! how little of it do I possess. 

1 have cause to be thaokM that my evidences pf juBtifielitioa 

8< %W9 OF hJkSV irAXWB&K* 

remain satisfactoiy, bat this is not enough ; I pant for the fnO 
image of God. 

*— — 35. The aceompyshment of a graoibns pitmiise on 
whieh' God hadjenabled m^ to trtiiit, appeared Very nigh — just 
at hand* I hare looked almost ewery: moment for it, vet when 
attempting to lay hold of it I have fomid a painful inabiJi^ and 
impotence. God oidy: can me power to bdWra so as to enable 
lis to possess any promised blessing. All is from abore — no- 
thing is left for human boastinff. I^rd, I desire it shoakL be so : 
I delight to give thee all the glory. - Q then magnify thy mercy 
above all thy Name. I still feel waaderings in secret, thongfa 
not 80 many as last week, and also fear my communion with 
God has not been so close ibr some days past as usual ; yet I 
thirst to glorify him in every possible way. I feel, in this time 
of almost universal defection, mach drawn ont in desire and 
prayer, to be enabled anfi honoured to confess God ; to bear 
my testimony against the sins of the tknes, by my lips, frcmimy 
heart, and in my life. May Grod give me power so to do. He 
favours me, even 'in my narrow sphere of action, with many 
opportonitiea daily to act for him, and causes me to ddiight in 
being^ so employed. If he accept eb^ mke, it is great conde- 
scension; I ask no other reward. He knows, if I had ail, I 
would, tfarouffh his grace, giveL him all ; bntj alas ! I have nothing. 
What shall rrender unto Him who has done so much for me ! 
Lord, show me, if I can do any thing for thee ; thou ofVen woa^ 
est# by the weakest instruments. Lord, here am I, send me ; 
bot O direct my every step. At present, I am perplexed with 
regard to some temporal affiiirsf and fear to trust my own judg* 
ment, and even thatt>f others, lest 1. should mistake the Lord's 
will concerning me : my G^, cause light to arise. I give up 
all to thee, do thoii guide me in -all things, by thy xonerring coun<» 
se], in the way that shall brmg most glory to thee, profit to 
others and to myself. 

March d. When'^peaking of the Lord's goodness to^ me this 
forenoon, I sensiUy felt the divine life increasing in my sonl<and 
was enabled to believe he will do' great things for me. In the 
same moment my spiritual foes niSde a fresh attack upon me ; 
but I felt, sweetly jresigned to suffer all my God should permit 
them to do; and was forcibly persuaded he would give strength 
according to my day, and MIy perfect what concerns inc. - 1 
often find, when ready Itp be discouraged with outward and iB-» 
ward trials, I anrinstantaneously Hftedupand comforted. Surely 
this most be from my invisible FrieiMl, liio Lover of my soul. 
O that I had a deeper sense of my mercies, and of my infinite 
obligations to Jesus Christ. . That this may be the case, O Lord, 
reveal thyself more folly. 

— Hi These two days enerienced rather a degree of 
languor on my miiid» and ftared lest Lahodd take rest in the 

Lin OT LADY afAXWSI*L« 85 

degree of freedom I had obtained from the fiery darts of iSatan. 
I crt^ onto the Lord to preyent this, for of all etatea I dread a 
iaikeiiarfn one. In the erenitig, went to the honae of God, 
where the enemy tried in an nncommon way to afflict me ; bat 
he oTori^ot hi9 mark* I was for a few rainittea distressed, but 
qnickly.mnfr God came to my r^ef) and poured the consolatimis 
of his Spirit into my son! in an abnndant manner^ How good is 
God ! and how malieioos is Satan ! but he is a chained enemy, 
and those who belieTe in Jesas shall trimi^ over him. 

16. Opportnnities of varkras kinds have crowded 

upon me wherein to act for Grod : with desire I have attempted 
to embrace them, and hare found comfort in it. My soul con- 
stantly thirsts to glorify God, and those are my happiest moments 
which are thus consecrated to him« to be able to fill up all 
my time with and fof him! I hope I am always employed in 
what has either an immediate or remote tenancy to glorify 
faun; though still, alas! how muck time I comparatively trifle 
away. that I could learn to redeem time : Lord, teach me. 
Jesus to-day appeared very xiigh and clear to the eye of faith ; 
but my soul is gneyed for want of more fenrour in secret prayer. 
I do not agonize and wresde Jacoblike, and I am also distressed 
with wanderings. Lord, cure these eyils i 

— !— 29. For the last week have felt much as usual, only 
not so much ^oy, yet my eridences of jnstificatipn are clear, 
through mercy yery clear, and I ateo possess a graiftefnl sense of 
it. , I oonstantfy proye this a great support under distresses mf 
▼arioos kinds. Lord, thy goodness is great to me in this re* 
spect. for equjl clearness in my eyidences for sanotification. 
Of late, I feel p^nfoUy conyincea that I do not pray enough : 
Lord, giye me a ^istt of prayer and supplication. I have taken 
some steps in an i^air which as yet is only in embryo*-a larger 
attempt in the way of doing something for God than I haye as 
yet tried. O that he may succeed it. If my, heart do not de- 
ceiye me, his glory and the good of my fellow creatures are pay 
motiyes : of the two, I find the. former proyes the stronger sti- 
mulatiye. What an honour to be permitted to act for God. 
Lord, thou knowest this is my highest ambitibn. 

April 5. ( Sunday.) In coming home from the house ofGody 
Jesus felt intimately nigh. He seemed as if hoyering oyer me 
with ejlps of tenderness and loye, while the silent language of 
my heart was, *^ I charge yon, ye daughters of JerusiQem, thajt 
ye stir not up, nor awsike my loye till he please^" I constrained 
my Lord to abide with me. I found Hb was aU inail tome; 1 
felt deeply conyinced that nothing but divine love could wean 
us entirely, from the world ; but that a fiibiess of it would efifec- 
tually do this. It is a good so infinitely, superior to any diing 
the world has to offer, that, with an omnipotent sweetness, our 
judgments are^convinced, while our affections axe wholly eapti* 


vated. O to feel it ever thus ! Thift is indeed rery desiraUe ; 
yet the hesurt may be right with God when there is not such an 
overpowering sense of this conviction present to the mind : but 
I am conscious I do not sufficii^ntly advert to this. I am too 
much affected with the alternation of myfngihes ; when I. believe 
it is partly owing either to the body, or the strong effect of power- 
ful temptation. ,( . 

11. I have cause to say the mercies of my God are 

new every morning, yet there are seasons when he more richly 
displays his glory in Jesus Christ : — ^increasing my communion 
with himself, and making his love flow mor^ plentifully into my 
soul. But at all timeSy however tempted or tried, in great con- 
descension, his Spirit bears witness with mine that through the 
Son of his love he is reconciled to me. According to his gra- 
cious promise, he does more, and more establish me herein ; 
especially when most on the stretch for Sanctification : then it is 
the divine witness shines with peculiar brightness. Lord, how 
infinitely am I indebted to thy free grace I. O for a heart con- 
tinually flaming with love to thee. At times a languor ovier- 
spreads the surface of iny soul, which frequently diminishes my 
spiritual joy; but as Jesus Christ, and not joy, is the founda- 
tion of my hope, I am still, through graxse, enabled to hold fast 
my confidence. But this also is the gift of God, and he makes 
me deeply sensible of it ; and that every grain ^of faith, love, 
hope, joy, &c., &c., eomes^rom him, 9xid is maintained by him. 
I hav& nothing but what he gives me ; I am nothing but what he 
makes me ; • and I rejoice ^at it is so. I want more and more to 
lose sight of self and confideTice in myself ^nd to trust in the 
Lord alone. He still continues my ardent desires to promote 
his glory, and affords frequent opportunities in which tcTact for 
him ; >with power cheerfully to embraee them ; and this not itom. 
legal or se^h motives, but from"4ove to my God. 

14. Again this morning my God made his goodness 

to pass before me. When I aw^oke, these words' spontaneously 
flowed from my lips several times :— " Seek the Lord, and his 
strength ; seek his face evermore." When I arose, the curtain 
of mortality seemed drawn aside, and I got a Mount Pisgah view of 
my heavenly inheritafice. My soul appeared to mount up on 
the wings^oCfaith and love,, and beheld all the goed land. By faith 
I saw my God, and sweetly viewed him as my father, with whom 
I should be to all eternity, when a little more time on earth had 
elapsed. I would have gone immediately up to, him, and no 
longer on this side Jordan stopped . How cheerfully could I have 
bid adieu to all below» But, Lord, thy time is best. Quickly 
after this glorious manifestation, lest I should have been exalted 
above measure, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, but 
in it I saw the goodness and wisdom of my God, Yet how 
amazing is human frailty ! I found it brought a degree of heavi- 


ness into my aonl. How easily am I affected. Lord, wholly 
subdue my will. If it were lost in thine, all would be alike. O 
forgive my weakness. Through ihe day, experienced much 
sweetness and liberty in secret ^nd social prayer. When at the 
throne of grace in private, just before dinner, I was favoured 
lyith a smsSi degree of that rich display of future glory I saw in 
the morning) <a&d was made sensible it was for me. Amazing, 
stupendous m^cy ! O the heights and depths of redeeming love ! 

to be lost in the glorious abyss! 

21. For some time after my last date th6 power of the 

enemy was restrained, and I had peac§ in all my borders ; enjoy- 
ing a measure of the'love of my God, and strong faith in Christ : 
but after that Satan was permitted to try and tempt me in a way 

1 have npt felt for some years. I saw the cloven foot, yet could 
not, from the nature of {he temptation, avoid being distressed.' 
After two days thus suffering, the Lord rebuked the adversary, 
and ,there wa6 a calm ; this brought with it a temptation of an- 
other kind, at fear of a Laodicean spirit. O Lord, deliver me 
frfrfn this foe, make and keep me active. Trial succeeds to trial. 
We must endure the pross in one way or another : it is a piece 
of necessary discipline in this state of probation. In all, I want 
from my heart to be able to say continually, " Thy will be done." 
In entire resignation to the divine will lies the true happiness of 
man. But nothing, exeept the all-transformirig power of sove- 
reign grace, can effect this; by nature we are as prone to follow 
our own will as the sparks to fly upward. 

-: — 29. Endeavoured to strengthen the hands of some of the 
Lord's people, who were variously exercised; though I needed 
rather to be comforted myself; but in attempting to assist others 
I am assisted myself. I have often observed that; however dis- 
tressing toy own situation, if an opportunity, offere^J to glorify 
God by doing good to others, especially spiritvial good, my 
own distress was for the time suspended, and I was enabled to 
speak as if going on ray way rejoicing ; but when the occasion 
was over my own distress has frequently returned. Surely this 
also must bfe of God, for by^nature we are prone to sink undBt 
trials, and inclined to complaih when speaking to others. I am 
certain, I can never have good cause to complain of God. If in 
any, or in many ways I am exercised, it*is for some wise end ; 
. and besides, I know I have deserved to suffer much more. I 
have always reasoii, therefore, to speak good of the Lord to 
others, and thereby encourage them to go on in seeking and 
serving him. At times his people may be in heaviness through 
manifcSd temptations^ but never without a needs-be to justify it ; 
and still the ways of wisdom are ways of pleasantness, all her 
pathd are paths of peace. 

May 12. The last week I have endured whaf seemed to my 
weak spirits a great fight of affliction, which still continues, and 


haa to-dav consideTaUy increaaed. I deaire to do and to mSet 
all the win of my God ; bat, though the apint ia wiUingf , the fleah 
ia weak. Never, aince I knew the Lord^ hare I had at the aame 
time aach a complicatioii of triala. What adds greatly to my 
diatreaa ia a want of power to bear them with a becoming firm- 
neaa of mind. For a abort time I poaaeaa this, bat when triala 
preaa hard upon, me I again loae it, and then I aoffer moat 
acutely. Tet I believe that deliverance will come — ihsit all 
diall work for my good— that my Grod doee all thinga weU, and 
that I tAuJl yet have cauae to praiBe him. l" he ao^ace of my 
aool ia often forioualy agitated : but I bleaa the Father of mer- 
ciea, who enablea me, Uiough tempted, to hold Jeaua by faith. 
And thoagh I am encompaaaed with variegated outward, and in- 
ward triaL, my heart constantly thirsts to p[lorify Grod, and he 
enables me to embrace the opportunitiea which occur. 

18. Taking my eye of faith a little this morning off the 

Lord Jesus, and giving way to foolish reasoning, I involved my 
soul in distress. Wlule we steadily look to 'him, all is well, 
and no trial provea too strong : we walk with ease, and wif boat 
fear, over the tempestuous sea of life ; but whenever we look 
down to, the yielding wave we begin to sink* and axe tossed to 
and fro : O to be preserved from such folly. Enjoye<l, this fore- 
noon, the benefit of Christian fellowship, by which my soul waa 
atrengthened. I bless God, amid all my trials I find myelf 
solidly fixed on Jesus as the sure foundation, and my mind ia In 
a meaaure a^ed upon the Lord. 

21. (Friday.) A day in general sJeicred to the interests of 

my own soul and others, and the cause of God. In the forenoon 
enjoyed much time alone, but trials so abounded, and their weight 
so increased, that I seemed pressed down under their load, and 
could see no way of deliverance. I endeavoured, by repeated 
prayer and meditation, to cast all my care on the Lord ; to jus- 
tifjr him in all his dealings with me ; to stir up my soul to trust in 
Him who had hitherto l^n with me in the foe a^d in the water, 
and often delivered me y and I felt a degree of power to stay my 
soul upon him, and akao to hope he would make a W9^ for my 
escape. I enjoy at present^ in spite of the sable curtain which 
seems to be- cast over« all my concerns, a secret hope, almoat a 
persuasion, that the womb of Providence is pregnant with some 
events of great importance to me. May I in every .situation, 
whether prosj^rous or adverse^ be enabled to glorify God, and 
to sufifer all his righteous will. 

June 2. Still £e Lord is conducting me through the fixe and 
throngh the water, though I dare not say he leaves me comfort- 
less. At times the consolations of his Spirit flow sweetly into 
my sool, and my spirit cleaves to God in faith, believing he will 
order all things well. At other times the enemy obti^ns an ad- 
vantage over me, and mustera before me in dread array ^1 my 


presdnl diffienlties; and adds many apiRrebended onea to Hm 
number. He snggeata abo that the Lora deala hardly with me, 
and that fa» promaea wffl perhapv &il. It is thus he aobUy 
works apoB remaining corrdptionf and raises a mighty storm in 
' my sonl, so that I am almost driren to my wits' eod. Nothing 
cKbdls the tamdt bat a freA act of self^edicationf and an ei^ 
deaYour to fix the eye of faith upon the Lord Jesus. I fed more 
nod more that carnal reasoning is an eneovy to the work of God 
in ^e sool, yet to tfaial hare £sen more tempted of late than foe 
ft long timer. There is one good effect I experience from my 
l^esent trying sitoation ; I see more than ever the ralue of the 
Bible, obtain more comfinrt from it, and firom the prayers of the 
saints^ I am still tried at' times with wanderings Hn prayer, with 
impatienee, and self-wttf. I groan to be deliTezed. Foimerly 
a weak body pressed down my soul, bui for some tkno a dis« 
tressed mind has much afiected my body. 

Jidy 1. Sineo the twelfth of Jhne I have had muieh aflictioa 
of body. The Lord ^Mstened me, butl- wan not giren otoi 
onto death. O that the rpdmay answer the gneieos designs of 
my heaTonly Father. In the oonrse of my illness I hii not 
much comfort : at times, the Lord drew nigh, refinesfaed my sob)| 
and composed my spirit; but at otheor seaaons, through the itte»* 
sure of my distnder^ I waa nnaUe to lift. «p my heaort in the e^r 
ereise of nuth aftd prayer ; when I did, the Lm was at my right 
hand. Since I have been raised up^ Ihe Father of mercies has 
allowed me a large measure of the consolations ol his Spirit ; 
yet he permits' me to be exercised with Tarioos trials^ O that in 
a more sensible manner! Mi thmai bringing forth the finite. <^ 
righteottsness ! My privileges are great, Imt still I hare to 
lament my progress is small. Lord, qoickea my^ tardy pace, for 
the -gloiy of thy great name: 

9&. V I haire experienced siatee my last date a sensible 

increase of eoniBiailion with my God, with -a deep consciousness 
of my nnworthinesa in every respect. He has graoioasly kept 
me in the trying hocfr, delivered me fiom giving way^to evil rea* 
soiling and unfodieft allowed me adso mimy sweet seasons in se* 
eret imd social prajWF, and has Uesaed in a measure the means 
of grace. But, O, how onfaithfiil am I, and how unfroitM ! A 
constant sense of my sfaertoomingaiahides with me, though often, 
through the goodneaa of (SMI, wShont condemnation^ yea, some- 
times with a strong sense of ins love. .0 the depths ei divine 
graoe ! What cause have I to say^ 

** Depth of mercy ! emi there be 
Merey still reserved for me ! 
Can ay Ood his wrath forbewr? 
Me» the chief of sianersy spare 7" 

The Lord has in mercy removod some of the trials with which 
I have been so long ezeveiaed; biu baa pennitted othera to auc- 


oeed thdm, the most unexpected. Keep me, keepme, graeioas 
Grod, and nevet let me go. Since last night I felt a degree of 
nnbelief which threatened to make dreadful havoc in my soul ; 
but I cried to my God with strong cries, and he graciouisly inter- 
posed. Who is a God like unto our God, who passes by the 
transgressions of the remnant of his people. But I am vile, I 
abhor niyself. 

August 26. For the last three weeks I have been travelling 
for the benefit of my health. Dimng that period I have .seen 
and experienced much of the goodness of the Lord, and much 
of my own weakness and proneness to depart from the living 
God. Have ^ndured strong temptations and trials, and have not 
been so faithful as I ought to have been ; this has proved & 
source of much and keen distress. Lord, what i^ man! What 
am I ! how wretched, poor, and miserable in myself. Even afler 
all thou hast done for me, how unable to withstand the smallest 
temptation ! Yet, in spite 6f all my unwprthiness, how gra(%ious 
is my God! At times, on the road, heaven itself seemed to be 
open : I might ask what I wotdd. My communion with my God 
was near.and ddightfiil, and my union with Jesus intimate. On re- 
flection, I seemed to have been employed rather in enjoying than 
in hungering after more. This spiritual feast was boqb succeeded 
l^ a flood of temptations and trials, where, alas, I failed : yet 
the Lord did not cast me off, but sweetly melted down my heart 
with a godly sonroW for sin, and poured his love into my soul. 

the goodness of God ! 

18. For the last two weeka I have been tried without 

intermission ; yel have had many delightfid moments, ih which 
my GJ^d has been very near, and my Jesus very precious. . In- 
deed I have it to say, to the glory of free grace, that I every 
moment behold God reconciled, through ^the Son of his love : 
though the degtees of sensible comfort and. nearness to him 
greatly vaty. I often feel such fiery darts^fh^n the enemy x>f 
my soul as almost terrify' me: at other times, future trials are 
represented in such frightful colours tb^t for a short time they 
fearfully unhinge me. In all these distresties, real pr imaginary, 

1 find no cure but in looking simply to Jesus, and cleaving close 
to him ; but then he supports and comforts me; , The Xiord has 
condescended to ^how me, his will in a most astonishing manner^ 
respecting one of my trials. But, alas ! what shall I say ! when 
the Lord has showed me his will I seem not to have power to 
cqmply: all within would oppose it. The struggle is great 
between a strong desire to sacrifice all, and obey my God ; and 
an ardent desire to act so, in all. things, as to secure the appro- 
bation of the thinking and judicious part of mankind. But, Lord,, 
if thou call me to give this up, yeaj to forsake aU and follow 
thee. Abrahamlike, I would cheei^fiiUy obey. 

October 8. Endeavoured to set apart this day entirely for the 


eoncems of my soul, but wis not relieved of 1117 present lo^d ; I 
mean various trials pressing hard upon me. On the eontrary, 
my distress was greatly heightened by those from whom I expect* 
ed help. .0 my God; I desire to say, in the midst uf all, thou 
doest aQ things well. "If I 8ttff<»r, it is surely needful,, and less 
tiian I deserve. O sanctify my troubles, and when thou seest 
meet remove them : only let me not be tried above what I am 
able, neither suffer me. to^ mistake thy will. I commit myself 
and all my concerns into thy hands. O enable me to possess my 
soul in patience, until thou sendest delivisrance. Be not thou a 
God afar off in the day of trouble, but nigh at hand, for thy great 
name's sake. The troubles of my heart are enlarged, O bring 
thou me out of my distresses. Remember thy precious promises. 
Let it not displease thee that I plead them with thee ; I would 
bind thee with the girdle of thy own. faithfulness. How myste- 
rious are the ways of Providence. His paths are in the deep 
waters, his footsteps are not known. He giveth to none, ac- 
count of his matters. Though not permitted to doubt of the 
favour of God, and having,^ besides, many precious promises on 
which to rely, I feel &t present, like Jooafa, as if in. the belly of 
hell : so tempted, so tried, so tossed, so perplexed, so surrounded 
with mountains of difficultiels ! Lord, clothe me with the whole 
Christian armour, that I may be able to withstand in the evil 
day, and having done all to stand. 

November 15. Felt unwell this morning, but was blessed 
in social prayer and Christian conversation. I was greatly ani- 
mated, and all this day my expectations have been great respect- 
ing the accomplishment of some precious promises. I seem to 
have had at times a foretaste of the happiness 1 hope soon to 
enjoy. Surely my God is near, and he will turn again my cap- 
tivity. • I have expected every time I , have gone to prayer that 
he would burst my remaining bonds asunder, and deliver me out 
of the hands of my enemies, that I may henceforward serve him 
in true hotiness, without fear, all the days of my life. Come, 
Lord Jesus, come quickly. . - 

December 18. The Lord has been gracious this week in 
restraining my enemies, and allowing me a measure of commu- 
nion with himself ; in blessing his wmd in reading, and by inclin- 
ing me in every possible way to act for him. He has indeed 
made this s^ very comfortable day. In the nioming I was tried, 
and for a moment I was ready to yield, but quick as lightning 
came the Lord to my assistance. I endeavoured to give the 
cause of the trial to himself; he comforted me, and has removed 
it. , How tenderly doea he deal with his childbren. He also 
to-day strengthened my hands by my helping others in different 
ways, especially in conversation and social prayer. In the 
former, when speaking of the Lord^s second coming, he made me 
toTejoice with joy unspeakable ; and while employed, in the latter, 

I wu made to HMMiiit up on the wingft of fidih ud tove : QoA 
the Father feh benignly nigh. The jof of the LoTd in » peon*' 
liar manner, this week, has been tny atreiigth. I hare «nilked 
up and dovim m iiia name< te|okin^ wt the eoneolation. Be has 
heard my prayers, and answered them, both for myself alid bthsm. 
On Tuesday I asked eaniestily Ine comfortable presenee^-wiien! 
intending to meet with a few ChrMtian fnende for- prayer, aad 
religions eonversation ; and he was nn^eshably cracioos to urn 
all. OhowgoodisGed! But Sitan has Taried hm tenqitaittcms. 
Wheni nmch distressed in body and mind on-many aooonntSy he 
teniqpted me to^^ despondent and unMi^; now that the Lord ii^ 
gracious^ and has enlarged my borders in a spiritual way, hs 
tempts me to seif-^ipproiiition* Bat my seal abhors the^honght : 
the Lord has made me a» feaffiU of this abominatioir as of hell 
itself; nay, more. I hare oried to the Lord figainat it ; I haya 
t^)eatedly fled to the blood of Jesos^ and endeayoored to lie v^rjr 
low before my God, and the force of the temptadenis abated. 

89. For some time the Lord has been exceedui|^ 

ffimcions niito me. Last week he mpde me walk more fam^ 
diately in his presence : appealing to him for 'what I did and left 
undone. My fellowship, m a kw degree, was With tiie TnHSbmi 
and the Son. My love to secret prayer, and power to abide in 
it more than nsnaJ, still continues f and thongh I do not ahraye 
obtain immediate answers, I reap generally the truat'oi it af^eiw 
ward ; by hiding, when with others, a power to keep b^ mind 
stayed upon 6<Mi, to hold eommunion with him, and ahflity to 
eonyeree with profit ; it also keeps me more «en»Ue of hie pre- 
sence wherever I am. He has of late condescended to hiese 
serions conyersation on -rdigions subjects to my own ao«il and 
others ; and also' afforded me many opportnnitiea to act for faijoi, 
by doing good to my fellowereatures. Thisj, I thank Grod, ia 
etill my element; not from any expectation of gaining hear^i by 
it — that I know is thB alone, purchase of the blood c? Jesus, hot 
from a more' noble principle — love to Jeaus^ and a desire to 
glorify God. I would that all I have ai^d am were devoted to 
him. Yesterday the Lord taught me a nsefol lesson. I had 
gone to his house with large expeetations ; and afrer waitinjg' 
upon him in -the use of the meansi without feeling more of hu 
power or love than I had brought with me, I grew dieaatiafied^ 
and felt i fear lest I shoald lose what I already po ss e ss e d ; 
immediately I felt a deep conviction that it was my duty and 
privilege to cleave as close to God when dry and barren^ as 
when full of divine consolation, Tkie, aa if coming from abiwOf 
penetrated to the centre of my heart, and brought wi& it a power 
to comply which ied me to hope it was from God« and it has in 
some measure abode with me until now. 

CHAPTER IX.— 1774. 

S^amurlui on PzoTideace— Di^iy contmned^ 

Dvmjx& several months of the last aod present year, and in- 
deed at different periods of her life, Lady M. appears to have 
been greatly exercised, by being called to pass under dark and 
V&ysterioos dispensations of Providence. She was habitually 
accustomed to adore Jehovah in his government of ^the worldf. 
She firmly believed that every event, small as well as' great, was 
subject to his sovereign management and control ; that the 
operations of his hands extended to all the minute circumstances 
of her life ; 4ind, therefore, gratefully relied upon the consola- 
toiy declaration, " The very hairs of your head are all number- 
ed." This, with her, as we shall have frequent opportunity to 
observe, was not an idle speculation, but a praeticsd principle. 
She, therefore, diligently sought to know the will of God ; not 
only as it related to the interests of her soul, but also to the 
arrangement of her temporal concerns ; by studying his word ; 
by persevering in prayer ; by attending to the in£cations of his 
providence ; and, in short, . by acknowledging him in all her 
ways. Tet, at different seasons, she was permitted to wander 
through a tedious night of providential darkness, before she re- 
ceived the accomplishment of the promise, '* He sfiall direct thy 
paths.'* It is in this way the Lord frecjuently " trieth the right- 
eous,*^ and calls into exercise their patience, their fidelity, their 
fortitude, their resignation. Yet his promise cannot fail ; if 
they endure as seeing Him who is invisible, he will bring them 
forth ^s pure gold. The Christian believer should, therefore, 
never despond ; should never give way, no not for a moment, to 
dishonourable thoughts of God. Though all around be gloomy 
and portentous, though not a single ray of light dart across his 

Sth, yet let him remember that all is under the guidance and 
'ection of that almighty Being who has never once failed to 
deliver his pebple out of all their troubles.* 

* The fbllowin^ judicious and practical remarks on this sublime subject, 
by a Lutheran divme, (vide Sohnii Op., Com. ii. ait. 19, de proyidentia,) 
waerre the. jnost serioQs aktentioB. ^'Prondenee diapiajn the wisdom, 
coodaess, fower, a^d other attributes of God ; we should therefore study 
his perfections in it. The providence of God govenis u» with cool and 
consummate wisdom and goodness ; we should therefore avoid all rash 
censures of it God governs us with uncontrollable power ; we should not 
therefore attempt to resist his government, as if we would provoke tke JLord 
to jealousvi by pretending to be Mtronger than he. God governs by means ; 
we should therefore neither tesavpt him by neglecting to use them, nor vainly 
abuse them to superstitious purposes. God extends his providential care 
over the most nunute objects ; iherefbpe we should avoid anxious solicitude, 
a]^ rely upon him for a supply of all our wants. Since, in providence, 
•n instnunents are to us only what it pleases God to laake theiOr we should 


January 17. Upon a reriew, as usual, of the past year, I 
found it had been a time of great trial from various quarters, and 
also of great consolation. Upon the whole, I had reason to con- 
clude that I had )made some small advances in the divine life : 
but when J considered the privileges which I had enjoyed, I saw 
much cause to be ashamed that I had attained no ^rther. I 
endeavoured to humble myself before the Lord, and to renew my 
covenant engagements to be his : this I found myself heartily 
willing to do, and he made it a profitable time to me. that I 
may, if spared, be more faithful to my gracious God this ensuing 
year ! Shice its commencement I.have experienced his goodness 
in many ways. Mercies and trials have been blended in an un- 
common way. 

March 5. Still; I am kept looking for a deliverance from spi- 
ritual foes, and also from temporal difficulties, that I have not yet 
experienced. My soul pants after a full enjojonent of my God ; 
all things, persons, and places seem empty. that he would 
quickly come ! The attraction from above is powerful, though 
more in desire than in possession; yet the little I do enjoy 
creates such a fervour in my soul for more as admits of little or 
no delay ; such a thirst as nothing but God himself can satisfy. 
In the mi4st of trials and temptations, both outward and inward, 
he keeps me strongly desiring, and feebly attempting, to embrace 
every opportunity that oflfers for glorifying him in every possible^ 
way. And in this h^ is not a barren wilderness to me, but com- 
forts and strengthens my heart. Often, in tender mercy, he 
condescends to let me see he accepts of my desires to serve 
him ; yet my heart is pained I do so little for. him, that 1 love 
him so little, and am so little conformed to him. I have long 
esteemed his will very precious, and in some measure delighted 
in it ; yet, alas, how often does my nature in some things spurn 
at it. Lord, this is my misery, my hell. destroy all rebellion 
in it, with a sweet omnipotence : this, O my God, thy mighty 
arm alone can effect. 

■ 18. I hardly know what to make of my present situation. 
My views of spiritual objects seem clear, my faith pretty strong, 
and my desires after entire devotion ardent : yet I feel, to my 
own apprehension, languid and dull ; have little sensible comfort ; 
not so much power to abide in secret prayer, and many wander- 
ings, both in secret and family prayer. I feel in danger of 

take care never to sacrifice to our own net. However pnident our plans 
may be fonned, and however successfiilly they may be executed, as all 
events depend on G^d, we should pray to him with submission and confi- 
dence. Since providence is the management of God, we should neither 
be proud in prosperity nor distrustful in adversity." Lady Maxwell ap- 
pears to have had these important truths engraven on her heart by the 
finger of God ; and the support which she thus secured to herself during 
seasons of severe trial is strikingly exemplified in very many of the fol* 
lowing extracts. 


repining and growing impatient, because my God delays hia 
coming in that flill and permanent manner he has promised. But 
in spite of all these discouragements as to myself, the Lord is 
enlarging my sphere of usefulness ; increasing greatly my op« 
portunities ; enabling me with' desire to embrace them ; and 
sometimes not only suspends my spiritual distress when acting' 
for him, but also silences my complaints, ^nd gives me freedom 
and power to speak for him. Perhaps he may see it needful to 
keep me low as to spiritual enjoyiHent, lest an abundance of both 
should puff me up. O my God, keep me from spiritual pride, 
that dreadful evil ; — but would not mOre of thy grace humble me 1 
The more I have of thee the more I should loathe myself; the 
more I should see of my own nothingness. O, 6bme then, gra- 
cious God, overpower me with thy love ! swallow u^ my sod in 
thee : nothing less will satisfy. 

April 12. Still He who cannot err, sees meet to suspend the 
accomplishment of precious promises, and to exercise me with 
many outward trials, and inward pressures and conflicts. Surely 
he does all things well.' What I know not now I shall know 
hereafter. The language of Providence in some dispensations 
I cannot understand ; but must believe what is is best, as it must 
be the express or pemdissive will of God. Yet I find, however 
it is with me, as it respects either joy or sorrow, prosperity or 
adversity, I am enabled, in a small degree, to pursue invariably 
the glory of God. I think this is the habitual bent of my soul 1 
though, alas, I come far short, and find much in me to oppose 
the will of God. Yet I aih struggling for deliverance, for full 
conformity to. it. 

May 17. For these last tlffee weeks I have endured a fight of 
afflictions, from almost every quarter. The Lord has showed 
his power in strengthening me to bear them, by enaljling me in 
some measure to cleave to him ; and, in spite of all opposition, 
to believe he would perfect what concerned me.;, that not one 
word should fail of all the things of whidh he had spoken. ThB 
Lord I know can save me in a storm, but constant triils are not 
pleasant to flesh and blood. At times, when seemingly pressed 
out of measure, 1 have. felt a degree of impatience, unbelief, and 
many other evil tempers, which, have been cause of sorrow to 
me ; at other times, I have sensibly felt a present power imparted 
from on high, whereby I have been made as if impregnable. 
My enemies might do their worst, but could not overcome. This 
was indeed comfortable, especially as it was attended with a 
sweet persuasion of victory ; that, if 1 would stand still, I should 
see the salvation of God. , Within these three weeks,! have had 
twice an opportunity of sitting down at the Lord's table ; neither 
of the times was attended with remarkable comfort; but a 
cleaving to God, by strong faith, in the niidst of many trials. 
As it respects some of these, trials, he has, while in prayer an4 


byipff my distreia before bimt clearly pointed out my way, and 
sacceeded ma in it ; others he leaves me yet to grapple witli, bat! 
*aa not ecHnforUess ; for at all times I see him % faith as my God 
in Cluist, though not with the same degree of sensible comfort. 

June 3. Since the 17th of last month it lias been a time of 
variegated trials. God is love, and giveth no unnecessary pain. 
Surely then He who cannot err sees it needful I should be thus 
aev^erely tried. So perverse is hximan nature, even after sove- 
reign grace has in some measure rectified it, that without fre- 
quent painful visitations from the lenient hand of the Father of 
our spirits, we should often go aatray. In spite of all I suffer, 
I feel, when in any degree Iree from the strong influence of 
powerful temptations, a secret persuasion, that I shall not only 
overcome at last, but enjoy even here below a great rest from sin 
and self; that the Lord will bring me info a wealthy place, 
and make me glad according U> the days wherein I have seen 
evil. Hasten, ijord, the hs^y time. For some days I have 
had a great struggle ; have been obliged to fight against princi- 
palities, and powers, and the rulers of darkness ; but, endeavour- 
mg to trust in the faithfulness and mercy of my God, in the face 
of the army of the aliens, I felt mightily strengthened from on high ; 
and was enabled through ffrace to put them to flight. In every 
oombat, I find my only safety lies in cleaving to God, in believ- 
ing resolutely and steadily in the Lprd Jesus, in opposition to aH 
I either feel or fear. 

31. Since the 10th of last month the furnace of temp- 
tation and trial has beeiUiotter ; yet, in the midst of it, I think 
my soul has been panting after God, breathing intensely after all 
the life divine ; though tempted at times to tlunk I was growing 
indiflferent. When attacked . from every quarter by my foes, I 
have at seasons sensibly felt a power from on high resting upon 
me, whereby I was enabled to endure temptation with silence 
of spirit ; but at other times, when they have pressed very hard, 
J have been in danger of |;iving way to hard thoughts of God ; 
instantly I was macU sensible of; my danger, and obtained power 
to stifle them in the birth. I have often felt the Lord peculiarly 
gracious to my own soul when attempting to dp good to others ; 
and, sometimes, upon the bare mention of the niune of Jesus by 
another, he has so sweetly manifested his presence by faith as 
is much better felt than expressed. He greatly encourages me 
to act for him, eveunin the midst of trials, by the present reward 
he bestQws, and he stiU increases my oppprtunities for it, with 
power and inclination to use them. I have of late felt strongly 
tempted to doubt of my interest In Jesus, but endeavoured 
through grace to repel it : then he drew nigh, and gave me re- 
|>eated proofs of his dyin^ love to my soul, and thereby, for the 
time, strengthened my faith ; I was enabled to resist Satan, and 
he fled from me. When the force of the trial abated, and the 

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douilB were scattered, in God^s light I saw tight, and was assured 
1 did believe in Jesus. that these trials, though in the mean- 
time grieyons^ may prove the means of rooting and grounding 
me in the love of God and filling me with all his foluess. 

July 18. The Lord is still continuing his goodness to my soul ; 
ho has for ^ese two weeks given me a greateir degree of com- 
munion with him and 'nearness to him, more power- and sweet- 
ness in secret prayer, and at times a remarkable enjoyment of his 
presence. Especially last Jjbrd's day, in the afternoon, when in 
. his house of prayer, I felt surrounded with his goodness : heaven 
seemed let down into my soul. But I was soon stripped of all, 
and left to fight every inch of ground with my enemies. All I 
could do was to .fly by simple faith to Christ, and entreat he 
would not permit my foes to deprive me of what he bad bestowed. 
I think my prayer was heard, for when the battle was over, I 
felt he had kept >yhat I had committed to him, and I hope I was 
ho loser. . Surely there i»^one lesson the Lord means to teach 
me by these repea^d conflicts and variable frames, viz., that he 
changes not ; that in every state I should be persuaded of it, and 
invariably trust him. Lord, enable me constantly to do this. 

— ^ 34. I have cause to say, "JBlcss the Lord, O my soul, 
and air that is within me bless his holy name." He has indeed 
been gracious to me ; that I could make suitable returns ! 
Since Tuesday, last week, the Lord hasmade much of his good- 
ness to pass before me. He has enabled me^ by faith, to retain 
that degree of additional fellowship and communion with, him- 
self which he gave me two weeks ago ; but it has been by fight- 
ing every inch of ground with my spiritual foes. Satan has tried 
every artifice to rob me of it ; — he has had recourse to pleasure 
and pain, to smiles and frowns ; but, through the tender mercy 
of my God, all his stratagems have failed. My mind is still stayed 
upon God, trusting upon him. He has deeply convinced'me ths^ 
there is no way to retain dny blessing but by simple faith, eleav- 
ing close to Christ ; and flying from eviV reasoning as from the 
face of a serpent. Within these two weeks I have indeed proved 
the truth of this. I have l»een tried various ways, and in all 
found nothing would avail me hut this method ; but this has suc- 
ceeded in the midst of fiery darts, Wanderings, dryness in duties, 
fears of losing what I had attained, and deep piercing convictions 
of unfaithfulness and- unworthinesl Last Lord's day I had an 
opportunity of renewing my engagements, to be his for ever, by 
sitting down at his table, and he made it indeed a time of refresh- 
ing from his presence. I enjoyed swfeet communion with God ; 
salvation was for walls and bulwarks ; ray mind was truly 
stayed upon my God ; and I was enabled to endure as seeing 
Him who is invisible. My meditations of him were sweet, faith 
shone with a meridian brightness aH the day. I cannot express 
what I enjoyed ; I was enoempassed With his favour as with a 



sbield. Yet in the midst of all this, Satan had well nigh depnYed 
me of it ; but I fled to Jesus for help, and he succoured me : 
and this day the Lord made my peace flow as a river, and gave 
me such axiegree of fellowship with himself as I cannot express, 
*' O for a heart to praise my God«" He made me very joyful 
in his house of prayer, while I heard a yery profitable and prac- 
tical discourse by Mr. Erskine, from Joshua xxir, 15, ** But aa 
for me and ray house, we will serye the /Lord.*' 1 found this was 
the resolution of my heart and the lang[6age of my practieer; 
though conscious of continual shortcomings, and many evils. 
From the moment I sat down, in the church, somcf time before 
the service began, 1 enjoyed sweet and strong communion with 
my God. His life and love flowed into my soul. I was made 
to fide upon my high places; and Was fed with the heritage of 
Jacob. Ailerward, fearing my enemies, who are always nigh 
on such occaaions, I cried to the Lord to confirm my soul, aud 
keep me -from sin and Satan; and he graciously heard and 
answered me; While I conversed with others he made my 
mountain to stand strong, and gave me clear views of what he 
had done for me. O my God, what cause have I to say thoa 
art a faithful God, and thy tender mercies are over all thy works ! 
Bless the Lotd, O my soul. 

26. The Lord this day heaped his favours upon me. 

Being called from home in the way of duty, he not only disap- 
pointed my fears, but greatly, exceeded my expectations. How 
great is his goodness. While on the road^ heaven seemed let 
into my soul. J truly experienced, all the day, the accomplish- 
ment of the gracious promise made by bur blessed Lord, John 
xivi 23. Whether silent or S{»eaking, whether in secret prayer 
or reading, whether meditating or employed in ejaculatory 
prayer, it was indeed one of the. days 6f the Son of man. My 
^njoyment of God did hot consist so much in rapturous feeling, 
or ecstatic joy,, as in solid, delightful, deep communion with God 
the Father, and God the Son, through the eternal Spirit. Thin 
diffused through my soul such a heavenly serenity, such a divine 
sweetness and unuiterMe peace, as mocks all Bxpressioo — bur- 
gnage fails. The divine origin of aH this, I think, i^as proved 
by its effects ; which were — ^not confidence in the flesh, nor self- 
exaltingy or approving thoughts ; no— but a consciousness of on- 
worthiness, of unfaithfulness, and weakness ; yet joined with a 
sweet confidence in God ; hanging upon him by constant prater 
and faith, with filial fear of offending him, and a continued sell^ 
examination, and renewing the sense of his presence. my God, 
stablish and strengthen my soul, and keep me in the hollow of 
thine hand, for I am weak^ as helpless infancy. On returning^ 
home, I felt indisposed, but the Lord continued hid goodne^. O 
heavenly Father, succeed the feeble attempts piade to act for 
thee by helping others. 


Ang^t fi. Tbis day, ako, I have to record theloTing kindn 
ness of the Ldid, From morning till night my time was spent 
for God, in acting for the temporal and spiritual benefit of my 
fellow creatures. The Lord made my mountain to stand strong ; 
my fellowship was with the Father and the Son. Though mj 
usual time in secret was much abridged, my God did not suffer 
me to lose by it; but enabled me to ^njoy delightful intercourse 
with himself in sitting down snd rising up, going out and com- 
ing in. *^ O to grace now great a debtor !" I feel much led to 
be instant in prayer that the Lord may confirm my ftoul, and not 
* let any enemy rob me of what he has given me. I trust it is the 
beginning of good things Tand that now the Lord hath begun to 
aceompluh his prouuses, he will not leaye off till he hath done 
ail ioT me of which he has l^pokto. Surisly not one word of his 
shall fail : He is a faithful God. I do not think I am yet pos- 
sessed of all I think included in the blessing of entire devotion ; 
I belieYe I enjoy a measure of it. I am enabled to believe in a, 
fuller abd larger measure than usuaj, and have a more constant 
and deeper communion with God and with his dear Son than 
formerly. My heart more than ever cleaves to the means of 
craee, and I am more blessed in thepi. I have a keener sensi- 
bility of evil ; stronger desires after ^U the f\ilness of God ; and 
a greater reding if| him. From the^e evidences and fruits, I 
conclude the Lo^ has deepened iiis work in my soul. O my 
God, give the clear and abiding witness of thy Spirit, to testify 
unto me what thou bast done f( Give it for aanctification. 
as thou hast given it for ju9tification. 

■ 17. Stiil the Lord continues to bless me, still he ena-. 
bles me to cleave to him by faith, and to believe for the blessing 
lately received, even when muqh of the sensible comfort of it is 
withdrawn. This I think one proof of true faith. When we only, 
believe in consequence of great joy, and lose that belief as soon 
as the joy is. gone, we make comfort the foundation of our faith, 
and not the testimony of the Holy Ghost. Still, however, I must 
believe that true faith is inseparably connected, less or more, 
with love, joy, and peace. The Lord still gives me to feel more 
comfort in morning devotion ; and this forenoon, I enjoyed the 
privilege and fbund the benefit of Christian conversation and so- 
cial prayer. Jnst after, I spent a long tinie in assisting those 
who have set bnt in the good way of God, and proved it of use 
to myself. ^ How closely connected is our duty and interest | 
and herein appears the wisdom and goodness of the Most High. 

Sept. 3. I have not that degree of comfort which I have en 
joyed, neither that clearness respecting the increase of grace 
the Lord gave me of late ; yet I dare not give it up. I fly from 
doubting of what the Lord has done. He has given me so many 

omiaes that I must believe ; but it is a time of temptation, 
d, stand hy moi and let me not give up the beginning of my 


100 LIFIE OF LADT lfAXWEl.1,* 

confidence, as it regards the last blesemg. I have been for some 
days nnbaopy, from a fear of losing through unbelief what the 
Lord has done for me. 

— 17. For seyeral da^s my soul has, I think, been pur- 
suing after mor^ near and mttmate communion with God ; it 
there be any difference, it seems rather increased. Wherever 
I am, this is the Jvibitual desire of my heart ; in compaiison at 
it all other thb^ are as nothing. 1 am kept crying constantly 
to the Lord for it, under discouragements, outward and^ inward ; 
I find the necessity of asserting my liberties in the face of Satan 
and sin. I still can bdieve for the blessing Lately received, in 
a smaU degree; but more from simple fkith than enjoyment. 
Jesus so sweetly manifests bis presence by faith as I cannot 
easily express : he is truly precious to my soul, as the cfaiefest 
of ten thousand. I am uncomfortable if I do not every moment 
find communion with the Father and the Son. I tio in a degree 
experience this, but then it appears in my own ejfes so far short 
of what I expect, and also tlunk included in the blessing of en- 
tire devotion, that I am sometimes in danger of despising the 
day of small things : but affain, when I look to the amazin^pro^ 
mises the Lord has not only made in general in his word, but 
frequently applied with power to my mind, I am greatly encou- 
raged to press on ; to pray always and not faint ; because, **'he 
is faithful who has promised, who also will do it.^^ I have it to 
record, to the glory of my God, that when I attempt to do any 
thing for him, either by speiaking for him in my own house, or 
visiting the sick abroad, he greatly assists me, by increasing my 
communion with himself^ and giving me to feel sweet liberty in 
my own soul. But stiH I feel a degree of darkness and uncertain* 
ty on my mind, with regard to the Lord^s wiQ concerning me in 
some particulars; though for some time 1 have had power to 
stay my soul upon him, and to pray that he wOuld accomplish 
" all the good pleasure of his goodness, and the work of fladtb 
with power.** 1 have felt less sweetness in secret prayer than 
for spme time. 

dl. My communion with my God has been almost vatr 

interrupted for several days : 

** Not a eknid did arise, to dai^ea th» akias. 
Or hide for a moment my Lord from my eyea." . 

I have m>t had much/oy, but sweet peace. The Lord Jesus 
has been unspeakably precious. His name has indeed been as 
ointment poured forth, and my soul has cleaved to him : he is 
truly the desire of my eyes, and the delight of my heart, the 
source of all my consolation. But I know little of him, in com- 
parison of what I might, and hope to do. Many opportunities 
are daJJy offering whereby to glorify God and profit my fellow- 
crestures, which the Lora stiU incmies asd enables me to em- 


braee* I am deeply oonaeioas that of myself I ean ^o nothiDg ; 

but I am fully persuaded that the weakest iostrument in the hand 
of Omnipotence is equal to the most arduous task : and he tome- 
times condescends to show me that my words^ though spoken in 
weakness, do not ^ways fall to the ground. Independently of 
this consideration, I feel constanily desirous to fill up my time 
with and for God : to t^e every opportunity that he gives ms 
lor glorifying him in every possible way. This often makes 
me singular, iand reduces me to the dlss^greeable necessity of 
walking and acting not as others do, which gives offence. 
. People often assign a cause for my conduct, that only exists in 
their own imagination, viz., that I think myself better than 
others. This gives me pain. It is certainly contrary to my 
natural temper to say, ** Stand by, I am holier than thou." But 
I cannot help it, it is a cross, and I must either bear it» or walk 
contrary to the light imparted from on high. 

October 3. In the course of these last eight days, I. have 
been variously tempted suid tried ; but have also experienced the 
Lord^s goodness in many ways* The force of trials and tempta- 
tions ha^, in some measure, impaired my joy ; but I find the 
bitterest ingredient is a fear, that I have been unfaithful : this 
is ^evous to niy souL I ask not freedom from sufferings, but 
O, I ardently desire to be faithfid to God in dU things, and in all 
situations to glorify him. Lord, thy sovereign grace can effect 
this great work in the heart <?f a wonn. O, for the honour of 
thy name, do this thing, and I will praise thee. At times, I 
have enjoyed communion with God, and Jesus has been precious 
to me, but still 1. am defective in watch mg, in wrestling, in 
prayer, in humility, and in every grace. Yet I find it will not 
do to sit down and desppnd : I must be up and be doins^. The 
Lord is still teaching me the important lesson of living by faith, 
and it generally Srings fresh strength and comfort into my soul. 
He shows, me that I stand by faith, that this faith is his giftj 
and that I receive it by looking unto Jesus; by believing in 
him ; and by cleaving to him in spite of all I either ^ar or JeeL 
I also fjnd it of great use to endeavour, — ^in opposition to unbe- 
lief, evil reasoning, and the suggestioqs of Satan,-=-to believe 
resolutely the promises of God ; that he is faithful who hath pro- 
mised, who also will do it. His promise, I find, must be the ob- 
ject of my faith ; this at all tidies, however improbable to rea- 
son the accomplishment ma^ appear: and when I am thus 
attempting to fight the good fight of £uth, he generally sets to 
his seal of approbation by pouring consolation and strength into 
my soul. 

12. I have been taught several important lessons. I 

have been shown the evil and gteat impropriety of lightness of 
spirit, in a religious character ; and made earnestly desirous to 
get entirely freed from it. I have seen the bean^ of being at 

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all Hm^s religiously recollected, and sweetly solemn ; and have 
also gready desired to be so : I have likewise been deeply con- 
vinced of the great sin of speaking «?t7of any one, or even men- 
tiohing, without necessity, what may be true of sisent persons, 
if it is bad ; and have longed to be more tjian ever ^lear herein.* 
I have also seen it is a great deviqe of Satan to hinder me from 
dwelling upon the great things which God has already done for 
me, under the plausible pretext of pressing on for what I have 
not yet attained ; by so doing he prevents a proper eitjoyment of 
what I have already, and of consequence dnninisheth my grati- 
tude to the great Author of »H. " 

■ 27. Was much ^one to-day, yet enjoyed JSttle comfort. 

I was long, employed in secret prayer and reading the Scrip- 
tures ; studying the promises, and praying over them ; looking 
and longing for their accomplishment ; pained with my distance 
from God, and yet unable to get nearer. Yet I endeavoured to 
stir up others to trust in him, and could reason well npon the im- 
mutability of his promises ; but felt little benefit from it my^self. 
I feel, more than ever, called to trust in the promises, but am 
uncommonly tempted with nnbeHef. O what a hydra is this 
foe t Lord, subdue it. I begin to think one fruit&l source of 
distress to me is, a spirit too anxious, too vehement, and too 
restless. I fear, I attach an improper importance to my efforts 
in attempting to go in the good way ; at least, I am beginning to 
suspect there is something of this in the case. I restlessly use 
dutv, and mean after mean, as if the Lord could or would do 
nothing without me. In one s^nse this is true ; hut I fear I 
tncst too much to the use of tneans, to my own feeble eflTorts, and 
do not simply use thein, and yet look above them to their great 
Author. One reason for my thinking thus is, I am perfectly 
uneasy if kept from any ; and if at any time laid aside through 
affliction, and especially if confined to bed, I am ready to con- 
clude all that time is lost ; as if I were not aS safe when suffering 
xthe will of God as when doing it : or aa if the Lord cannot ope- 
rate on pay soul unless I am found in some active duly. Lord, 
if this is really my folly, convince me clearly of it, and cure me 
thoroughly. O may I ever remember that the greatest work of 
an is to believe. 

31. Found nlyself profited to-day by taking up my 

cross. Was also benefited by social prayer, and Christian con- 
verse upon the deep things of Crod ; and by endeavouring to help 

* '* Slander/' says Saurin, ^'is a vice impure in its source, dangerous 
in its effects, general in its influence, irreparable in its consequence ;^ a 
yice that strikes at once three mortal blows ; it wounds him who commits 
It, him against whom it is committed, and' him who sees it committed. It 
li tolerated in society only because jeveiy one has an invineible inclina- 
tion to commit it.'* but this inclixt^ticm, though invincible, when opposed 
by merely human efforts, yields to the power of omnipotent grace.— <S«ii- 
nrCt Serm., vol. iv, p, 134. 


k CliTistiaii friend out of .the mire of temptation, otherwiae 
stronger in the faith than myself. O the faacinating power of 
temptation ! liord, what are the strongest Christians without 
thy continual aid ! Perhaps I stood more in need of the ex* 
hortation than my friend ; bin f find it is much more profitable, 
when I meet with Christians who have many complaints, to 
encourage them to trast in God, to exercise faith and love, thaa 
to join in complaining, by telling them all my particular grieyanees. 
I may have much to bewai], as well as they ; but I haye often 
founa, in enconri^ng others, my own soul, blessiBd, my faith 
strengthened, and lore increased. My soul has been restlessly 
pursuing after God ; t have felt more power to abide in prayer, 
to trust that the tiord will finish his work inmy soul, and accom- 
plish all the good pleasure of his will- in me, and the work of 
faith with power, even though I should, in the coarse of Provi- 
dence, be deprived Tof those helps which I have fonnd peculiarly 
useful. In the view of this to-day, I found I could repose my 
soul on God. Surely no creature, or thing, can be of any use to 
me, but what he makes them ; of consequence, if he remove one, 
he can raise up another. Lord, increase ray trust in thee. 

Noy. 13. * Since my last d«te I have been sorely afflicted in 
body. O that it may bring forth the peaceable fruits of righteous- 
ness. During tfie first day or two of my illness my mirid was 
very langntd ; so that I could hardly put up one petition. The Lord 
in mercy kept off the enemy ; I was more free than usual from in- 
ward conflicts ; but I felt much confusion of thought, owing in 
part, no doubt, to the yiolence of the disorder. I felt much, but 
feared more ; and, in the event o( death, afanost dreaded appear- 
ing before the tribunal of Ood ; while so stupid abd con&sed, I 
forgot that his mighty power could in a moment make me fit for 
it, if it had then been his will to have called me home. What a 
multitude of thoughts, unreasonable and false ones, does unl^elief 
prodiice. How amazingly, also, is the whole frame unhinged, 
when the nerves and spirits are affected ! Were it the wiU of 
my Ood, how desirable would be an exemptioA from these 
afflictions, which deeply affect either. " A man may sustain his 
infirmities, hut a wounded tpirit who can bear 1" This com- 
pletely unmans one ; all our natural fortitikde is lost ; we then 
fear ^here no fear is, and dread a thousand evils that never 
befaU us. Jn short, we turn adepts in self-toimenting : with the 
poet, I would say, 

** All deaths, all tortures, in one pang combined, 
Are gentle, to the torments of tjne mind."' 

When raised from a bed of sickness I felt piercing convictions 
of unfaithfulness, unfruitfulness, unworthiness ; and was ashamed 
to look up to God, I had made so little progress in his ways, 
and vet for years had been surrounded with every spiritual 


advantage ; I felt so little of the mind of Christ. At the i 
time, my views of Jesus as my Qod ia,Dd Saviour were clear ; 
and I was so encompaesed about with precious promises that I 
was kept from sinking. 

— ^ 22. I felt once or twice this morning strongly tempted 
to anger and pride. The Lord quickly showed the danger, and 
I think gave me victory. Yet Satan nearly disturbed . my com- 
fort just after, by suggesting that I had given way in some 
degree ; and, therefore, " I had better give up, at }east, part of 
the happiness I enjoyed, for I had no title to it.'' I saw the 
cloven foot, was aware of his intention, and cried to the Lord to 
rebuke him. I fled also a&esh to -the blood of Jesus, lest I 
might have contracted any guilt ; and, immediately after, my 
God was. indeed gracious — increased my ^ faith and love ; and 
wonderfully opened my mouth, to declare his goodness to my 
soul, before those who feared and loved him. He also enabled 
me to keep up the spirit of religious conversation before others : 
and encouraged me by some persons declaring that they had 
received benefit from my former conversation and attempts to 
help them. How condescending was this to my weakness, but I 
fear I felt too much complacency in it ; for, though 1 went with 
enlarged expectations in the evening to his house of prayer, all 
was unprofitable; and I was much disappointed. Lord, make me 
dead to all approbation but thine^ and surely that will not make 
me high-minded. 

Dec. 3L The last day of this year; O that I were able to 
look back with satisfaction on a year spent wholly for, and to 
God. I can, I think, truly say, this has been my constant aim 
through the whole of it ; but, alas, I have come far short, and 
have reason to say, '* It is of the lord's mercies that I am not 
consumed." O my God, as thou hast brought me to the end of 
anotfier year, accept of my grateful thanks for all the goodness 
thou hast made to pass before me in the course of it. O sanctify 
all the dispensations of thy providence toward me : forgive ' all 
my* sins in heart or life, known ox unknown. O permit aikl en- 
able me, in thy strength, to devote myself afresh unto thee, with 
all I have and am, or ever shall have. 

" Take my body, spirit, soul. 
Only thou possess the wWe." 

Through ' thy grace may I, while I live, only live to thee; and 
when I die, may I die to thee. 


CHAPTER X.— 177$, 
tHnry eodtimied. 

• January 13. This <iay, though nmicfa employed with Grod, I 
was much grieved with hardness of heart and unbelief. My 
heart would still pant ailer full communioD with God ; this only 
can satisfy my soul, but, O my faith is greatly tried by the ao- 
oompUshment of the ^ promises b^g so long delayecL I see, 
both ^m the word of God and the experience of Christians in 
all agea, that this has generally been the ease : they^-hare been 
tried to the uttermost, before the Lord performed what he had 
spoken; especiaUy when he was about to do any great woric^ 
either in them or by them. Yet I am Tery tn^Mtient. Hope 
deferred maketh my heart sick. The trial of my faith is both 
precious and profitable ; bat it is also very painful : aurely the 
blessing will be sweet, and very permanent, when it does com0. 
Through the whole of this day I was tempted to relinquish hope, 
and was ready to aay, I shdf never see the fuMAtneot of the 
fxromises. This was my infirmity, and though the Lord suffered 
me to cry long, yet at last he applied to my mind a eomfortoble 
passage to guiet my fears, and to strengthen my faith : '* And a 
mau &all be as a hiding place hosa the wind, and a covert from 
the tempest : as rivers of water io^ a "dry place ; as the shadow 
of a great rock in a weary land/' Delightful words ; I have 
ofien experienced them true. Jesus hath been very precious to 
me, and clear of the eye of faith. Temporal things were also 
distressing to me. I had cried much to the Loud* and had ob- 
tained no answer, whicli greatly discouraged me.: my hands 
were hanging down, and my knees waxing feeble : out concern- 
'ing this, ^so, his word brought relief: " I have been with the* 
in six troubles, and will not leave thee in the seventh." How 
great is his goodness! O Lord, when wilt thou enable roe to 
make some small return, by loTing thee with aU my heart ? O 
why dost thou keep a poor soul so long at such a painful distance 
from thee ?—« soul that so ardently desires, and so constantly 
pants, for uainteitupted communion with thee; for power to 
walk with thee like Enoch of old. O have compassion on me, 
and bring n^ near. 

-s — ^33. (Sunday.) I have endured much anguish of spirit for 
some time. My heart, has been as it were, wrung within me 
through die cruel power of unbelief; I mean, as it relates to the 
aecomplishment of precious promises. With respect to my 
interest in Jesus, I bless the Father of mercies there is no un- 
eertainty on this subject :. all is clear, and Jesus is in my heart 
the constant hope of glory. But this cannot suffice ; yet it ought, 
1 thiidc, to afford me more comfort than I seem willing to recMve. 
Like the children of Israel, the bondage of coiruption and onbe- 



lief is 80 gaQing, I cannot, throiigfa angaish of spurlt, listen to 
any thing comfortable : Satan, aiso, is permitted to sift me as 
wheat ; hitherto the Lord has prayed for me, else I had ntterly 
failed. Yet, I have cause to sing of mercy, as well as of judg- 
ment. Notwithstanding my variega^ disereases, the Lord hath 
-brought many gracious promises, with peculiar fqree and sweet- 
ness, to my remembrance, both as it concerns oryself and some 
of my near relations. O how thankful ought I to be : but, alas t 
my distress is so great, I fail moch in this deliffhtfbl duty. My 
heart feels more and more emptied <rf things below^ thOT grow 
▼eiy insipid. This ^iiitiAd eircumeision is truly painfol, but I 
beliere very necessary for the soul that would be entffdy de- 
voted to God. I wait for God-nmy sool doth wait; yea, in the 
midst of my distress it pants for him. I eannot Uve at this dis;: 
tance. I would fam hope rest and deliverance are at hand ; 
matters appear to be appvoaching to a crisis. O thai it might 
he now ! — speak. Lord, for thy servant heareth. 

February 1. Eiyoyed precious means of graco to-day, which 
were in a measure profitable. My b^art panted after more of 
God, yet I met with a trial wtocb feAt severe. I was tempted 
to evil tempers ; but enjoyed power to look to Jesus, and was 
delivered : they obtained no place in my heart, l^ neTor so 
clearly, perceived the difference between temptaHonzxiA sin. It 
made Jesus precious to my seul as a strong deliverer. 

4. Found power to abide in -prayer this morning. I felt 

several times as if inwardly warned to expect that, something- 

* painful was*abopt to happen ; but I did not enough regard' the 
secret intimaison ; and» therefore^did not arm «ay self as I on^ht 
to have dooe by prayer. When the trial came, I was hurried 
and unpi#pared, ai)d did not, as usual, cry for the Lord's presence 

^find direction, and I smarted for my folly and unfaithfulness. 
After it wns begun, a horror feemed to «eize my spirit. I then 
feared my foes, and I^ked to the Lord for help. He was gra- 
cions, and Enabled- me to cle&ve to himself, as a girdle to the 
loins of ft man. ' By faith, I saw Him that is invisible,, and my 
Soul felt sweetly and sensibly anchored within the veil. O how 
good is it to have Jesus for our friend in the time of trial, and to 
£nd him near for our assistance ! 

21. For some mornings, as soon as I awoke, my thoughts 

have sprung up to the beloved of my soul ; and he has felt very 
nigh, and my hold of him strong. Lately, t find most power to 

' enjoy communion with God in meditation, in conversing wilii 
others on spiritual subjects, in reading^, and in ejaeolatory prayer. 
Was enabled to-day^ in some measure, to be faithful to God, 
though at the risk of losing the favour of man. Lord, make me 

• more faithftd. Have lately enjoyed more power to feed upon 
•the pronfises ; they are very sweet, and my faith in them rather 
-ineveases. ^ 


• 94. A day of great indisposition of body, and much faint- 
i in my spirit. None iiring have a greater call than I have 
to improre the moments of health* allowed me ; for when sick I 
seem quite laid aside*- O my God, give me power, and grace to 
use that power, tp^ live mnch in the time of health. But I would 
fain live alike to thee in sickness, as when in health. I find it 
more easy to do than to suffer the will of God. In all things 
let Ihy will take p^ace in me. O.Bobdiie all things in me to thy- 
self. Let me delight myself in thee, anB to thee commit all my 

25. The Lord has in mercy raised me up again. O that 
I may be more than ev«r devoted to my God. A degree of lan- 
guor through the day overspread my soul, yet I felt more of the 
spirit of devotion, more desire to call on God, and a greater 
relish for spiritual things. In 'this I differ from many others, for 
most people speak as if they \vere most sericHis when most 
. afilicted v biit^ on the contrary, I feel most alive to God when I 
enjoy the largest measure of health.' 

March 7. For some time, I have enjoyed a nsore intimate 
intercourse and deeper acquaintance with Jesus. Attempting 
frequently to make a full surrender of my heart to him, has 
proved a. most delightful ^exercise ; ^and he haS) on every Auch 
attempt) felt just at hand, and willing to receive it. This has 
been attended with a present reward. But while engaged in 
this delightful exereise to-day, Satan tempted me in an uncom- 
mon manner ; yet that is no reason why I should desist. Out- 
ward trials are rather fewer than usual, and those which remain 
I am enabled to give up to God/ t . 

- — ^ 17. I feel much discouraged with the remains of ^ body of 

r*n and death, with the sins- of my family, and of the. place where 
live. On all these accounts, my hands are hanging down. In* 
deed most things seem to wear a gloomy aspect. As a nation, 
there are wars and rumours of wars ;^-a» a church, we are torn 
by factions, parties, prejudices, and diversities of ophiions among 
those of as who are in any degree serious ^— others, and, alas ! 
the greater part, care for none of these things, but are at ease in 
Zion ; — as indiyiduaU, much carnality, worldly mindedness, and 
insensibility prevail. Will not the Lord be avenged on such a 
nation as this ? What reason have we to fear that the gospel will 
be taken from us, and sent to a people more deserving of it 1 O 
Lord, in the midst of deserved Wrath remember mercy ! 

19. (Sunday.J This morning the Lord turned my capti- 
vity. I had no remarkable joy, but a heavenly sweetness diffused 
through my mind, and all uneasy solicitude was fifed. Yet it 
seemed a different enjoyment from what I experienced last week. 
Jesus then appeared dear to the eye of my faith, as much so as 
any material object could do to the eye of the body ; but noio I 
have no duoh parciciilwr Tiew<i It was a aweet peace in genenJ, 


with an iiK^rease of spiritoa! life. This continned aD the after- 
noon, especially till I went to the table of the Lord. Satan often 
attempted to distarb it, but was not permitted ; though he had 
laid a snare for me of which I was not aware. I fear 1 did not 
altogether escape, but I cried to the Lord, and appealed to him 
that what I had done was in the integrity of my heart, and he 
had mercy on me. There is danger on every hand. I hfid 
many petitions to olfer up to the Lo^ at his table, and I do hope 
they were registered above, and will be answered. Immediately- 
after communicating, I felt a dectease of spiritual enjoyment, 
and my indisposition of body returned : but still I enjoyed, 
through the wholeof the day, a measure of what I received in 
the morning. ' 

April 7. Since my last I have experienced many trials and 
many changes. Sometimes flushed with hopes of speedy deli- 
verance, and then I went on comfortably : at oUier times I have 
sunk down under discouragements, fearing I should have to con- 
tinue long struggling with my enemies; this never fails to 
weaken my hands. My health has been very precarious, and 
this also has tended to depress me. All must enter the kingdom 
through much tribulation : it is ar piece of necessary discipline ; 
it helps to humble, and to keep humble, our naturally prgud hearts. 
Even Jesus learned obedience by the things which he suffered : 
shall I then complain? Lord, I do not, neither dare I ask any 
exemption from suffering ; bat L may entreat for power to be able 
to glorify thee in the firea^ O hear me in this thing, then shall 
I patiently submit to all thy righteous will. Yet, in ^e midst 
of trials, I am not left comfortless'; the Lord still blesses me with 
refreshmg seasons ; but nothing short of continual communion 
with God, and all that freedom from sin which Christ has pur- 
chased, can satisfy me. All this the Lord has promised, and I 
must and will believe his word. 

14. The Lord has given me a little reviving in my 

bondage. His mercy endureth_for ever: he will not always 
chide ; neither tvill he keep hfs anger for ever ; he knows the 
spirit would fail before him, ^nd the soul which he hath made. 
He is my chief good, the constant enjoyment which I desire : — 
yet, amazing, how slow my progress in the pursuit of this eternal, 
supreme Good. Lord, do I not love thee above alii 

" Is there a thing beneath the sun, 

That strives, wilh thee my heart to share ? 

Ah, tear it thence, and reign alone, 
The Lord of every motion there ; 

Tijien shall my heart from earth be free, 

When it has tound repose in thee." 

My God has condescended wonderfully to comfort my distressed 
heart ; to strengthen my Mxh in the promises, and my trust in 
bis mercy and love ; both are in0reased,.O may they continue. 


By the cniel force of my flpiritual adTenariee; by the wiety 
and continuance of outward trials ; and by united and serere in- 
ward conflicts, I was indeed brought rery low, and was driven 
to extremity. I listened too much to the enemy ; looked too 
much at the temptations ; and gave too much heed to carnal rea- 
soning : all of which only tended to increase my distress. But 
my God had mercy on me ; rebuked the enen^, and also gently 
reproved me. O liOrd, I acknowledge the justice of the charge, 
and grieve for it. Do thou give me patience ; for that, as well 
as every good gift, cometh from thee. O bestow it largely upon 
me ; that, in the midst of sufferings, I may glorify thee. Having 
tasted that thou art good, how can I live at this painful distance t — 
my heart so cold, my faith so weak, my love so languid. O 
teach me, thou divine Teacher, the blessed art of every moment 
panting after full eommunion with thee ; and yet without impa- 
tience, never murmuring at thy stay, nor wishing my suflferings 

— ' — 16.- (Sunday) Had many- opportunities to wait on the 
Lord in public, and did it with composure until the evening ; but 
then the enemy endeavoured to distress me. I am, I believe, 
much too prone to judge of my state by my frames and feelings ; 
and thereby, at times, draw false conclusions. I believe, would 
we ascertain the r^ity of our conversion, no inward feelings 
should in general be exclusively depended on : to these should 
be added decisive evidence in our outward conduct. Unques- 
tionably the witness of God's Spirit with our spirit, as mentioned 
in Rom. viii, 16, is more satisfactory than any other single evi- 
dence ; this I have :— ^ut, to prevent mistake in such a mo- 
mentous affair, it is alsO' necessary that we have the outward 
fruit of the self-same Spirit. These together, if properly at- 
tended to, will ascertain clearly what state we are in. Lord, 
thou hast my heart, take it more fully : let it only beat for thee. 
O unfold more of thy saving beauty to my mind :— -break with fhll 
blaze on my enraptured soul. 

21. My God has remarkably appeared hi my behalf, as 

it respects my charity school, about which I was in danger of 
being plunged into difficulties. From continued bad health, the 
teacher had given it up. I had no prospect of another, far less 
of one like-minded f and from this and other circumstances, I 
almost feared that I should be obliged to relinquish my benevo- 
lent plan. AfVer repeated applications to the Lord, by myself 
and others, he enabled me to believe that the school would be 
provided for, and that he would be m^r guide, director, coun- 
sellor, my God, and my all. I was satisfied, though 1 had no 
paartieulsr person in view, only I strongly hoped tiiat he would 
mcline the heart of the present teacher to reihain : accordingly, 
in a few days, he came and told me he could not think of going 
away, and had thezofore lefased a place of more profit and less 


fatigue. Surely this was of God. The good man said there 
seemed to be something very remarkable in it, for after he had 
fully determined to leave theschool, his mind suddenly changed, 
and he felt aa if almost obliged to relinquish his determination. 
The Lord also appears to be opening a way for my assistance, 
^with regard to th& expense attending the school, which has 
greatly increased ; and, in present circumstances, would be mqre 
than I could well afford. Surely he doth all things well. O that 
I could trust him more. 

May 6. Since my last date, the Lord has dedt bountifully with 
me. My time has been unusually devoted to the temporal, but 
much more to the spiritual benefit of others, and it has indeed 
been a precious, season to myself in various ways. O to be 
enabled to improve to the uttermost aH my mercies ! My God, 
teach me this divine art, and let me not, as I have hitherto too 
often done, prove unfruitful. I fee| at a loss where to begin to 
enumerate the mercies of the Lord, manifested to. me wkhin 
these few days. When conversing with others upon the things 
of God, e^eciaHy with those who were just Getting out in reli- 
gious life, my soul has been greatly blessed, n^ eommunion with 
God increased, my views of eternal things made very clear W 
faith, and particularly of God the Father and God the Son. O 
how sweetly has my Jesus manifested his presence, and fixed 
my soul steadily on himself. O that I may never forget it, and 
that these delightful visits from on high may prove more than 
ever of a transforming nature. My God has given me fresh in- 
stances of his faithfulness, which have evidently borne the. stamp 
divine. To him be all the glory. The Lord hath also refreshed 
me much, strengthened my hands, and comforted my heart, by 
eiving me to know that what I have said and written to others 
has not been in vain. Amazing goodness ! How wonderful are 
his ways ! How great his condescension ! Lord, what shall I 
render unto thee ! He can and does choose what instruments he 
pleases :-r-even rams* horns, if the Almighty fiat go forth, shall 
prove suffi^cient to demolish the walls of Jericho. O that he 
would abundantly increase piy usefulness in this respect, for he 
hath set my heart upon glorifying him in this way ! I have en- 
joyed more power and sweetness in secret and family prayer 
than usual, and have been' enabled in a ^egsee to live by faith. 
The Lord has also inclined others to assist me in my labours of 

" O for a heart to praise my God." 

These are but a few of his mercies to a poor worm : but O how 
defective have been my returns : — ^how many have been my fail- 
ings : — ^how continued my shortcomings :— ^how numerous* my 
offences ! O my God, be not strict to mark mine iniquities i 
19, Conversing with a very particular, friend on the 


work of grdce in the soul, and of the cause of God in genezal, 
Jesas diew yeiy nigh, and diffased a heayenly serenity oyer al< 
my soul. How inexplicably ddes faith realize spiritual objects. 
The bodily eye does not perceiye with ^rteater clearness a 
ihaterial object, placed fiill in itsyiew, than the t;Mtv£ facnity of 
the mind, enlightened froni on high, does unseen things. Surely, 
my Lord, it is heay^n when thou art nigh ; and what is hell, bat 
thy total absence? O permit me eyerf moment to feel the 
powerful attraction of thy loye, and let it proye of a strongly 
assimilating nature. I was indeed made to sit in heayenly 
places this eyehiiig; it was also 4i time of refreslung to my 
Christian friend. While I nowivritie, the Father of mercies is 
watering the parched ground with fhiitiul showers : should I 
liye to see to-morroVs sun shine in his brightness, I shall be 
able to perceiye a growth in the {dants aind flowers that adorn 
my little garden : why, then, do I not perceiye a similar i^icrease 
in the garden of my soul, so often watered as it, is with heart- 
reyiying showers of grace. My God, show me, if there be any 
worm at the core, or any little foxes which hinder the growth 
of the tender yine of grace. - If there be, with a hand graciously 
seyere', tear 4;hem henccj though all my nature should keenly 
feel the stroke. The Lord has made outward things of late take 
such a turn as h^ a tendency to increase my inward peace ; 
to strengthen my faith in his promises ; and to increase my trust 
in his goodness and mercy. He has inclined the heart of a 
particular female friend to throw her mite with mine into the 
treasury of heayen : I mean, to unite with me in bearing kalfcf 
the expense of my little charity school. We haye now upward 
of thirty young Cnes, who are hot only taught reading, writing, 
arithmetic, &c., &c., but are also trained up in the fear of Gkni ; 
eyery method being taken to lead them to the saying knowledge 
of him and his Son Jesus Christ. He hath in mercy hitherto 
countenanced this attempt, and has of late giyen me greater 
cause thait eyer to belieye he will bless it more and more. O 
my God, do thou richly recompense with thy heavenly grace the 
souls of thy handmaids, whose hearts thou hast inclined to devote 
their substance to thee ; and do thou enlarge our borders, and 
enable us to go on with increasing zeal in every good word and 

June 9. I cannot, as I would, express all the goodness the 
Lord has made to pass before me for some weeks. It has been 
a time of suffering and enjoyment. I have experienced much of 
my own weakness and helplessness, and also much of the power 
and malice of my spiritusu enemies ; but my time of extremity 
•was the Lord's opportunity, and he manifested his goodness to 
- my soul. Especially on Sunday last, when, almost pressed out 

* The friend aUuded to in this extract i§ Lady HeaiietCa Hppe. . 


of mewore with outward itnd onezpected trials, a storm had 
nearly arisen within. I was ^eatly agitated with fear, lest I 
should lose what the Lord had wrought for me. I was also 
grieved to find the otrength of my own will. I cried tp the Lord, 
and he^ in great meroy, quickly and literally answered my prayer. 
He restored tranquillity to my soul, and gave me that degree of 
sweet fellowship with himself I had before the trial. Imme- 
diately after, my heart felt so melted down with a sense of my 
own unworthiness, and his goodness, as I cannot express. 1 hav^, 
upon the whole, enjoyed rather more communion with my God 
for some time past than usual. When I spend time with others 
for his sake, he is peculiarly gracious, and sweetly manifests his 
presence. My perception of divine objects is very clear ; my 
peace is made to flow a^ a river.; while God, with full and cloud- 
less demonstration, conveys his promised grace .to my soul. O 
Lord, I would record these instances of thy goodness, that I may 
not forget any of thy benefits, and that my trust for future mer- 
cies may be strengthened ; but, above all, that thy name may be 

July 1. The power of temptation has been painful for some 
time.- I have been almost ready, to conclude that I was receding, 
instead of. advancing. I felt as if stripped of all, excepting a 
small grain of faith. By the light of this, I discovered I was 
justified, but I enjoyed little of the comfort of it. I have indeed 
been made sensible that all I enjoy I hold of God. I found I 
could not possess one desire afler him, his ways, or his people, 
unless he bestowed it. 1 have experienced but little fervour in 
prayer, and apparently small, profit from the public means of 
grace. 1 am adso at a loss how to account for this uncomfort- 
able state. Is it, O my God, a punishment from thee for my 
anfaithfulnes9 ; or is it a sinking deeper into self-knowledge? 
Lord* thou knowest ; cause me to know it : I dread thd former ; 
O to be delivered from it. I believe I had also given way to 
a degtee of carnal reasoning. How many are my foes, — when 
shall I ckbtain victory ? To-day, I am beginning to emerge out 
of this sea of temptation. O my God, set my feet upon. a rock, 
and order mv goings. . 

XL Upon the whole, a good day. Found Christ precious 

and near, when strengthening the hands of a distressed disciple ; 
also, in a measure, when employed' in prayer, praise, and Chris- 
tian conversation. In the evening, spent much time with a 
female in conversing with her on the salvation of her soul. O 
how did I wish for the gifl of convincing speech. What comfort 
would it have given me, could I have solidly confuted all her 
objections, and reached her heart with self-evident demonstration. 
But this power belongeth unto God ; yet I know he can blea«, 
and make efifectual the weakest words. that he may do this 
in^he paresent case. * - 


Angast'S. I have gone through much distrew for some days. 
I trust the Lord is deepening his work in mj sooi ; I hope the 
time is at hand when he will bring me into the wealthy place ; 
it is indeed, and has been, through fire and water. My foes are 
now very bitter against me : Satan rages mightily. O that bis 
time may be short. I am not permitted to entertain one donbt 
of my interest in Christ ; yea, I feel my soul every moment 
united to him ; yet so great is the power of temptation, that Sa- 
tan makes even God a teifrorto me, and I am afraid of his judg- 
ments. I have dreaded lest the enemy should drive me away 
irom God. He does drive me from a throne of grace, at least 
often attempts, and makes me ^eel a terror while at it. , My 
anguish of spirit is so gr^at, my unreasonable fears so strong, 1 
can listen to nothing that is comfortable. I am astonished with 
amazement, my natural spirits are like to fail. How long. Lord, 
shall my enemies triumph over me? Myfiesh is wasted off my 
bones, and my spirits are drunk ap ! O Lord, cut short thy work. 
Yet, in the midst of all my distress, I feel eager to grasp at any 
opportunity to glorify God, by dobg good to the souls or bodies 
of my fellow creatures. my God, come to my help, deliver 
my poor soul, and I will praise thee ! 

■ 26. Through mercy, my views of Jesus as my Beloved 
have been clear this last week. As I have rode or walked by 
the way, my meditations of him have b.een sweet. O how 
amazing, then, those unreasonable fears with which I have been 
80 painfully harassed. Surely ,theynra8t be the result of strong 
temptation : or art thou, my God, in this way carrying on thr 
work in my soul ? . I do indeed feel stripped of all self-^ependU 
ence, at least more than usual. I see and feel that I atn nothing, 
yea, worse than n6thing. I feel as if afraid of God, and am ter- 
rified by his judgments. This must certainly, in some measure, 
be owing to that contrariety to a holy God that is stiU to be 
found in me. Is it not a degree of that fear which has torment I 
and which keeps me from delighting in God as I might. A 
thousand nameless fears of^en surround me, and Satan for some 
moments will suggest unworthy thoughts of God, when yet I 
know he is my God. This drinks up my spirits, and prevents, 
at least for the time« all the warm desires of my soul after him. 
I, then fear death, I fear pain,' I fear distress of various kinds ; I 
fear — alas, what fear I not, when thus forcibly driven fronr the 
^centre of all true rest and joy ! It is indeed wormwood and gall. 
O when will it end ! Where, Lord, are the great things which 
thou hast promised : — that entire sanctification ; that constant 
communion with thyself, which thy promises hold out as the pri- 
▼il^pes of thy people ? Surely these promises cannot fail. Is 
this. Lord, the way in which I must be led tp the accomplish- 
ment of them ? If 60, I would fain say, '* Thy wiU be done." 
But, ! it is a thorny path, a rugged road ; it tries every ^rain 


of grac« which thoU bast ciren. Yet I long to g!oriff God.- I 
see emptiness written on all created good : every thing isinsipid 
that does not lead to him. * 

October 35. After travelling upward of five hnndred miles 
for the benefit of my health, the Lord has again brought me 
to my habitation in peace. He is a faithful G^, and has given 
me much cause to speak good of his name. He preserved 
man and beast by the way; yea, wenderfaUy preserved us, 
when exposed to imminent danger, and when others were cut 
off by the same danger and «t the same time. How great is 
his goodnejBs ! — ^He also gave me-ma^ opportunities to attempt, 
in various ways, to lead sinners to the knowledge of himself; 
and- in this delightful, important work, he afi^^ed me great 
encouragement. O my God, bless these feeble attempts, and 
then they shall not be in vain. My God gave me also to taste 
of his love, at different places of worship on the road ; in secret 
and social prayer, and in freqaent conversation with his people. 
Lord, thou art good, though I am unworthy. This, week past, 
since I came home, the Lord has increased my love to him- 
self, my comfort and liberty in secret. piUyer ; and has given 
me to feel Christ unspeakably precious, altogether lovely: My 
heart has gone' out much after him ; my faith has been strong 
in Rim ; and my views clear of him : at the same time, I had 
a pungent sense of my unworthiness, unfruitfulness, and vrant 
of gratitude. This would have greatly depressed me, if the 
Lord had not been so gracious ; but he drew my heart to him- 
self, abstracted it from created objects, and made me partake 
of a supreme good. 

— f- 31. This evening, under a sermon on Abraham^s offer- 
ing up Isaac, Je^us drew nigh, and powerfully manifested his 
presence by faith. Satan attempted to reason me out of this^ 
by endeavouring to persuade me to impute it to a feverish 
imagination, but he did not prevail. What an enemy is he to 
the comforts of faith,— to sfmple believing ! When Ae soul 
gives way in any measure to his subtle arts, it is amazing how 
soon it darkens the mind, and obscures the brightest manifesta- 
tions of divine love. Lord, ever give me that strength of faith 
which wiQ bring cloudless demonstration that it comes from 
above, and may it at all times work by love. Felt often to- 
day strongly tempted to evil tempers, and am not certain that 
I entirely esci^d unhurt. O my God, give me light to discern 
between temptation and sin, Jt is only in thy light that we can, 
in certain cases, distinguish the one from the other. My heart 
is still pained with a want of greater confprmity to my Jesus. 
I long for his image to be wholly impressed on my soul. O 
how little do I know of God, or myself. How small a degree 
of bis love do I possess ! I pine from day to day for more, 
but. still do not attain. I long for secret prayer, yet -often. 


when alon^, T do not fee! power to wrestle for the blessing. I 
may say with the poet, 

" Scarce I begin my sad complaint, 

When all my warmest wishes faint ; 

Hardly I lift mjr weeping eye. 

When all my kindling aiidoan die ; 
. Nor hopes nor iears my bosom move. 

For stm I cannot, cannot love." 

November 13. (Monday after the taum sacrament,) I woald 
record the loving kindness of my God to me on all the days of 
this solemn ordinance. On Saturday he gave me much time 
alone in the forenoon, with some comfort. In the afbemoon 
he carried me to his house of prayer, and it was a time of 
great refreshing from his presence. The subject was a delight- 
ful one : " How Christ communicates his love to the believing 
Boul." Though the manner and some of the expressions of the 
speaker were exceptionable,' I was raised above it, and enjoyed 
sweet commnnion with God thej Father, and God the Son. I 
had no remarkable joy, no rapturous ecstatic enjoyment ; but 
a calm and serene possession of that peace which passeth un- 
derstanding ; a degree of a silent heaven of love, better felt 
than expressed. I siw God by faith, and had a distinct view 
of J«sus as the jsecond person of' the ever blessed Trinity, and 
enjoyed delightftd' union with hhtf. Prom this source alone all 
my hlesings, all my spiritual enjoyments flow. I have generally 
a peculiarly sweet' consciousness of this important fact, which 
answers two valuable purposes ; it makes Jesus unspeakably 
precious to me, and tends to keep me humble — ^to wean me 
from self-righteousness, with its constant attendant, self-confi- 
dence. At seven in the evening heard a sermon in the chapel, 
on " Examine yourselves whether ye be in tlie faith." Here 
also the Lord shone on his work in my soul, and my evidenoes 
were clear and satisfactory. Yet I have felt of late tempted 
not to write or speali of the goodness of the Lord, lest I should 
be in a mistake ; because I do not feel as if these manifestations 
brought with them a proportionate degree of hdiness. O Lord, 
if this is frotn Satan, give me victory over it ; if from thee, 
make me certain of it; and let^me be able to act as thou 
wouldst have me : thou knottest I would not impose a thing 
of naught upon myself, neither would I deceive others. At 
night I endeavoured solemnly to renew my covenant with God, 
and then went to rest as if in the arms of divine love. 

14. The Lord heard my prayer, gave me a measure 

of health, and enabled me to wait upon him in the ordinance 
of the supper. Again he allowed me to' enjoy communion with 
himself and with his dear Son. Not much ^oy, but in a measure 
the accomplishment of Christ's gracious promise, John xiv, 33. 


In myself I felt Tery empty, but looking to Christ by faith, he 
showed where all fulness dwelt, and all far me. O the un- 
searchable riches of Christ ! . , 

15. The last dtty of the feast, and I know not but the 

greatest. Here, also, the Lord disappointed my fears, raised 
me up this moriiing in a measure of health, and again brought 
me to his. house. We had a most excellaot sermon from, ^ The 
joy of the Lord is your strength." I not only heard with com- 
posure, but truly the Lord was with me. I felt a holy fear of 
sin arise in my heart, and a dread lest I should lose what I en- 
joyed. On coming home, my heart was warmed with deep im- 
pressions of -divine love. that they may prove permanent, 
and of a more^ transforming nature than formerly. that I may 
be enabled more than ever to glorify drod, and. adorn his goapc^. 

29. Since Saturday last I have enjoyed-a sensible in- 
crease of faith, love, joy, and peace. Jesus has so surrounded 
me with his presence as words fail me to express. I have been 
enabled to believe in him much more than usual, with a strong 
lively faith. I have had fuller enjoyment of him, and cleaved 
more steadily to him, morning, noon, and night. When I awake 
in the night he is with me ; and in the morning, when I look up, 
I am still with him. I cannot clothe in words what I have 
enjoyed in Christ for some time : he is unspeakably precious ! O 
that blessed name, it scatters my fears, it wanna and enlivens 
my hopes. 1 do love my Jesus 9i little, and ardently long to love 
him more. 0, to be filled with this divine principle.* Lord, thou 
knowest I cannot be satisfied till I awake up after thy likeness. 

Dec. 8. The Lord has dealt bountifully with me since last 
date. He has lately given me to see that I possess more than I 
am always sensible of, and I may add, grateful for. He has 
also ahowed me that I suffer loss, at least in enjoyment, by not 
attending more constantly to what he has already done. for me, 
an^ by dwelling too exclusively upon what I have not yet 
■attained. When the Lord teaches, it. is in a convincing manner : 
I felt the truth and importance of these sacred lessons. Yet, O 
Lord, make ^me more pure in heart, that I may continually see 
thee without one intervening cloud. I have already far more 
than I Reserve ; but when I consider the atoi^ng blood of Jesus 
Christ, and see the infinite value of it, I know it is sufficient to 
purchase every blessing heaven can bestow. The atonement of 
Jesus is my only vlea ; and, therefore, 1 can set no bounds to my 
desires. Blessed J^«b, let thy love, like a strong cord, bind 
my wandering soul to thee. O let me every moment dwell in 
thy wounds, be held in thy heart, and lean, on thy bosom. O 
cause me to heax thy image, and shine in thy borrowed rays ; 
destroy sin, fill with thyself, and shine unto the perfect day. 

26. My God has been unspeakably gracious to me these 

last two weeks. Thursday last, in the night, after a day of in- 


disposition, God the Father and God the Son drew very nigh, 
and sweetly manifested their presence by faith ; just when I was 
bemoaning my want of power to pray, being oppressed with pain. 
I cannot easily ejcpress w^at I felt, bat my communion with 
Father and Son was ieep and sweet. O for a grateful heart. 
This spring tide of spiritual enjoyment continued all next day, 
both when with othev and when ^ alone. Heayen seemed let 
down to eartlu Yesterday, though afflicted with pain and sick- 
ness, I enjoyed almost uninterrupted communion with God, 
wherever I was, or however employed. O how faithful is my 
God. He has given many exceeding great and precious pro- 
mises, and he is now begiffning to accomplish them f alter my 
long waiting, long praying, long expecting, and after hiy many 
Reappointments, and trials, and conflicts. Lord, what, shall I 
render unto thee. My God has indeed done great things for me 
since November last. r*do not know what to say of it, only my 
communion with himself is, since that time, deeper and more 
constant; my views of Jesus more lively ; my power to confess 
him before the world greaters; and my soul in general more con- 
firmed. ^ I have more comfort in secret primer, and my medita- 
tiona on God and his dear Son are more delightfully sweet. 
Ejaculatory prayer is the constant food of my soul, and every 
moment my God is at my right hand. The above, as far as i 
know, is the state of my soul at present, and has been for weeks 
past ; butv Lord, let the witness of thy blessed Spirit clearly 
aseertam to me what thou hast done for me, that I may give al) 
the glory to thee, and take all the comfort thou intendest 1 
should. ^ 

■ ' • 29. This day my peace has flowed as a deep, running, 
and silent river. I have been enabled, through mercy, conti- 
nually to realize the presence of God, which brought a sweet 
solemnity upon my spirit ; and the constant cty of my heart has 
been, O Lord, confirm and establish my soul. I had last night 
an extraordinary dream.* I place no sort of confidence in 

* " Mis. Carter," says the poet Cowper, in a letter to Lady Hesketh, 
•* thinks on the subject of dreams as every body else does, that is to say; 
according to her own experience'. She has had no extraordinary ones, and, 
therefore, accounts them only the ordinary operations of her fancy. Mine 
are of a teztiire that will not suffer me to' ascribe them to so inadequate a 
cause, or to any cause but the operation of an exterior agencv. I have a 
min^, my dear, (and to you I will venture to boast of it,) as tree from su- 
perstition as any man living ; neither do I give heed to dreams in general as 
predictive, though particular dreams I believe ftr he so. Some verv sensible 
persons, and, I suppose, Mrs. X^arter among them, will acknowledge that 
m old times God spake by dreams ; but affirm, with much boldness, that he 
hath since ceased to do ^o. If you ask them why, they answer, because 
be has revealed his will in t^e Scripture, and there is no longer any need 
that he should instructor admonish us by dreams. I grant that, with respect 
to doctrines and precepts, he hath left us in want of nothing ; but has km 
thereby precluded himself in any of the operations of his providence 7 


dreams, bat consider them in general as the wanderings of the 
imagination, nngOYemed by reason ; yet this dream seema 
somewhat remarkable. During sleep, I sof^sed myself in a 
delightful garden, meditating ondivine things, and asking of the 
Lord to confirm my soul in the blessings he had bestowed, and 
that he would give me an eyidence by which I might conclude on 
the certainty of his having accomplished i|i me his gracious pro- 
mises. On looking up to the heavens the sky appeared. remark- 
ably clear and serened Immediately there was seen in th^ 
firmament a ball of fire about the size of the full moon : from 
hence was emitted a stream of liquid flame, which darted down 
on me with a peculiar radiance. This, I was given to under*- 
stand, was the influence of the Holy Spirit, the opNer^tions of 
which were so powerful upon my soul that they sensibly affected 
my body ; and 1 stood in amazement at the powei; and goodness 
of my God. This representation, during sleep, might no doubt 
be occasioned by my prayers and meditations having r^n much 
on the same subiects before I went to rest. I leav^e it with the 
Lord, and would only pray that I may feel the operations of his 
Spirit as powerful upon my soul when awake, as I supposed I 
did when asleep. . / . . 

30. To-day has been much as yesterday ; if any thi^g 

different, my sonl is itiore confirmed in the belief of what the 
Lord hath done for me, though my sensible comfort has not been 
quite so great. A divine Calm has overspread my soul, and a 
secret testimony in my heart seems to say that the Lord has in a 
small measure accomplished in me his promises. But this must 
be much stronger, and the fruit of the Spirit much more abiMi- 
dant, before I can be satisfied. In the evening I heard a ser- 
mon from, ** Said I not unto thee, if thou wouldst believe thou 
flhouldst see the gloi^ of God." The text forcibly struck mo, 
and the whole sermon proved solid and substantial food to mv 

31. A day in which my God made more of his good • 

ness to pass before me than I am able to convey a proper idea . 
of, either by speaking or writing. It ife better felt than expressed. 
I enjoyed a stronger sense than ever of the witness of God's 
Spirit. While in the churchy Jesus appeared clear to the eye 
of faith, as the King in his beauty ; and God the Father seemed 
to bind my heart to himself in a degree I had not formerly expe- 

Stirely not. It is perfectly a different consideration ; and the same need 
there was of his interferencMn this way, there is still, and ev^ must be, 
while man continues blind and fallible, and a creature beset with dangers 
which he can neither foresee nor obiriate. His operations, however, of 
this kind are, I allow, very rare."— Haley's Life of Cowper, 2d edit., 4to, 
vol. i, p. 23». 

For an able disquisition on the interesting phenomena of dreaming, the 
reader is referred to Professor Stewart's filements of the PhilosoiHiy of 
the Human Mind, part i, chap, v, ( 5. 


rienced, and in a manner I cannot express. I felt dwelling in 
the secret place of the Most High. My mind was kept in per- 
fect peace, and sweetly solemnized with holy awe, because so 
surrounded with, and so immediately in, the presence of Jeho- 
vah. my God, what shall I say unto thee t I am lost in 
-wonder, love^ and praise f O confirm my soul ! O keep me hum- 
ble, aild let the great deeps of redeeming love be more than ever 
broken up in my soul. 

CHAPTER XL— 1776. 

Diary continued. 

January 3^ The last year ended on Sunday night ; which I en- 
deavoured tQ spend with God in prayer, and in recalling the bless- 
ings he ha^d bestowed upon me in the coui^e of it. I found 
ahundant cause both for gratitude and humiliation. Many were 
the severe distresses, both of body and mind, under which he 
had supported me, and from which he had graciously delivered 
me. O how richly, how bountifully, "has he dealt with my soul ! 
I qannot express ^1 his goodness since November last. He has 
been accomplishing the great and precious promises which relate 
to the prosperity of my soul ; and he will assuredly perfect what 
lemaineth to be done. Lord, make m^ mofe gratefi:d sihd more 
humble. Let not the foot of spiritual pride come ag&inst me. 
In the beginning of this year I most solemnly and cheerfully de- 
voted myself, with all I have, and am, or ever shall have, to the 
Lord. ^ I trust this was done in his own strength, and in the 
nsone of his beloved Son : and I asked many favours which I 
hope he will not withhold. May I more than ever find him as a 
widl of fire around me, and the glory in the midst ; that I may 
be preserved from my foes. I am very weak, but O that I may 
be enabled to glorify him in soul, and body, and outward estate ; 
and so enjoy him that not one intervening cloud may ever ob- 
scure my path; but light, unsullied light, always shine on me. 
" He that foUoweth me," says the Saviour, " shall not walk in 

15. I have had many precious visits from above lately, 

but I have also had many severe inward conflicts ; at times I felt 
as if in an agony, astonished and sere amazed. I was in hopes 
these severe trials were at an end, at least for a season, and that 
I should enjoy peace in all my borders ; but it appears I must 
still fight on. Lord, thou seest what need I have to be more 
than ever clothed with the divine armour. Let me not turn back 
in the day of battle, but grant me 

" A patient, a victorious mind, 
That life and all things casts behind, 


Springs forth obedienl to thy call : 

A heart which no desire can move. 
But still t* adore, believe, and love ; 

Give me my Lord, my life, my all," 

What has, and does still add to my present aneasihess, is a de- 
gree of uncertainty respecting the true state of my soul. I dare 
not deny or call in question what the Lord has lately done for 
me, in reference to the blessing of entire devotion ; and yet, 
through the force of temptation, I cannot find that satisfactory 
evidence, from the witness and fruits of the Spirit, which I kno^ 
to be the privilege of God's people : — not that I entertain any 
doubt of my acceptance in the Beloved ; but I want to be more - 
clear, as it respects the grace of sanctification. Lord, stand by 
me in fierce temptation's hour, and make me faithful. Keep me 
from grieving tl^ Spirit ; and when this storm is past, may I ex- 
perience more deep and lasting communion with thee. 

16. My God has looked upon my distress, and rebuked" 

the enemy. I now enjoy delightful fellowship with the Father 
and the Son ; — a holy serenity of mind — a divine tranquillity of 
soul. Forbid it, Lord, that I should ever sink from this : O let it 
continually increase. I have indeed beennnade deeply sensible, 
within these last few days, that I have nothing, and am nothing 
but what God ^iakes me, and gives to me : I felt stripped of 
every thing but a power to confide, by naked faith, in Uie pro- 
mises of a faithful God. . I fought and feared till I seemed to 
sink down into a degree of stupidity and indifierence. This was 
very alarming to me, who but a few days before enjoyed com- 
munion with the Father of mercies. O what is man ! How un- 
stable !— Was this great teansition caused by sin ? or was it the 
effect of sore temptation, permitted and sent to try and prove me, 
and by that means to fix me in a. more permanjent possession of 
the blessings bestowed 1 Lord, give me to know this, if it be 
thy will { in .thy light may I ever be able to distinguish between 
temptation and sin. O let me now walk more humbly with thee 
than ever : may 1 watch continually, and every moment prove 
that thou art lov^. 

" Love esoludes the selfish passion, 
Love destroys the carnal mind, 
Love is here my full salvation, 
Love to thee and all mankind." ' 

O my God, fill me with this divine principle : permit me to 
launch far out into the depths of this unfisithomable ocean, which 
neither knows bottom, nor shore. 

26. Waked unwell in body, but, O, my God has been 

good to my soul. I have enjoyed sweet inward rest, a sinking 
into God. I have felt the gracious infiuences of his Spirit visit- 
ing my soul, and, I would fain hope, increasing the fruits of the 
Spirit in me. My heart seemed like a garden, laid open 'to tbo 

LlFB 07 LADY Bf AXW^LL. 121 

Tivifjring and meliorating beams of the son. What the Lord has 
recently given, I find can only be retained by tsonstantly Jiving 
by faith, by constant watchfulness and constant prayer. Lord, 
keep me thus employed. But, after all, it is only thy almighty 
power that can preserve me ; these are only the means appointed 
by thee. O my God, make me more grateful, more active in 
thy cause, and more passive to thy ii^iU. 

27. Still the tender mercies of my God triumph over all 

my unworthiness. ' This also has been a day of sweet resting in 
God.^ I cannot easily express what I have enjoyed. It was not 
a spring tide of sensible fcomfort and strong joy ; but an unutter* 
-able sweet peace and soHd communion with the Father and Son ; 
lind this as much when with Others as when alone. My viewa 
of Jesus, as the King in hiis beauty, have been so clear as I can- 
not clothe in language ; I have been enabled also to confess him 
before men^ which is surely my great honour. O how shall I 
sufficiently praise my God and Saviour I I felt it easy to-day to 
take up my cross. O the powerful influence of divine, love in 
the religious life. O Lord, let all my powers be devotion, and 
all my passions love. 

February 8. In the c<mrse of these eight days I have had ma- 
nifestations of the goodness of my God ; felt a measure of rest- 
ing in him, and a hungering and thirsting after more conununion 
with him, especially in the means of grace. I have felt such 
burning desires after a fuller possession of my beloved Lord as 
I cannot express, while, at the same time, he has felt very nigh 
unto me. I cannot sufficiently praise him, bui he knows I de- 
sire not to breathe but for him ; and to live every moment to him. 
Yet still I have cause to lament that I have so little of the Iruit 
of the Spirit. With vehement longings, I breathe after a great 
increase. I feel reason to grieve I am not more active for Godt 
and more faithful. I have great encouragement to embrace i 
every opportunity which occurs ; for my Go4 condescends to 
bless my feeble attempts, both in writing and speaking to others. 
I still feel a conviction of what the Lord haslately done for me ; 
but, O, it is surely the smallest degree of the blessing of ev^re 
devotion whioh I experience. How far short is it of what I ex- 
pected. The Lord will increase it : but when I consider hoi^ 
sensible for months past he has made me of an increase of 
communion with hunself; how constantly he has permitted me 
to see Jesus as the King in his beauty ; and to feel closer union 
with him, with other outward evidences, I can no longer doubt : 
all these combine to convince my naturally unbelieving and sus- 
picious heart, that the Lord has, in a measure, certainly done 
according to his promise. My business is to hold fast where- 
untq I have attained; and, through grace, daily to increase. 
Lord, help me so to do. 

17. O my God, words M to eiqnress tlMseMsIleelsf 



the goodness thou hast made to pass before m» lhi» day. In 
pdorning deyotion, the Lord felt delightfully near, and drew 
me near to hiinself. While dressing, I found it good and comfort* 
able to meditate on what the Ldrd had done fpi me. All the 
forenoon I was a good deal hurried with outward things/but my 
mind was preserved in peace. Jesus was every moment nigh, 
more conspicuous to the eye of faith than ever. My communioa 
with Father and Son was clear, distinct, and comfortable, in a 
degree, which often amase4 me, considering the many things that 
were continually occurring to draw or drive mo from God. What 
I have enjoyed to-day has been infinitely more than I deserve, 
or ain able to express. I believe I have had a measure of th%. 
witness of God^s Spirit; not only for justification, (this, through 
mercy, has been allowed me for years,) but, also, for the late in- 
crease of grace. Lord, continue and increase it, and make me 
humUe, watchful, uid diligent. ' - 

^ 20. Was rather hurried this morning, and yet composed 

at the same time. The surface of the soul, is often agitated 
when there is solid happiness stnd peace at.the bottom. Jn the 
afternoon and evening my soul was more comfortable, and the 
witness of the Spirit was still stronger for the last increase. At 
night was powerfully drawn to prayer with a Christian friend; 
and, while engaged in it,vl felt what I cannot describe.; such an 
Amazing strength of faith as I had not before > experienced, j 
seemed to have power with God and to prevail It wasias if 
by the eye of faith 1 had ^ seen God on a throne of grace, bid* 
ding me ask what I would, with a promise that it should be given 
to me. O bow I endeavoured to improve the opportunity by 
asking life, spiritual life, for those brought to my recollection, 
and they were numerous. . The fervour of my spirit seemed too 
much for my body — it was a time never to be forgotten. Lord, 
. grant me the petitions I offered up to thee, and accept of n^y 
grateful acknowledgments for thy fich goodness. 

21. I find myself often temptc3 to un watchfulness, and 

to an improper degree of cheerfulness; I want to be more 
sweetly solemnized. In all things I want to walk in the most 
excellent way. I want a greater equality of temper and spirit. 
Sometimes I feel a disposition to silence, and I fear this ia fre- 
quently mistaken : — ^sometimes I speak to others with at least 
the appearance of displeasure ; — sometimes, too quickly ; and — 
tometimes, I speak too much. I wish all these things done 
away, that in all things I may adorn the gospel. 

26, My God has been very good to me this day. 

Though much with others, and even in a crowd, he gave me 
«weet peace and holy liberty of soul. My fears were disap* 
pointed. I had power to realize the presence of the Lord by 
faith, and enjoyed holy composure of spirit. He gave me fx©- 
jqaant 6figmtami^9 for social prAyar, which. W€re comfortable. 

Tet I geoflia&j peiceire, upon examination afterward, how far 
I have comei^ort, I tli^n see how I might have glorified God 
moxie— rthat coBY^raation jaoight have heen more profitable — that 
I should have heen more deeply serious. Jesu^, T fly to thy 
blood : O let me experience moxe of its virtue. Make me more 
holy, more thankful, more faithful, more humble. In the even- 
ing, when my visitants left me, O with what desire I got alone 
to converse with God, bjrprayer and meditation, and J^sus felfe 
liDspeak^ly precious. Truly I do love him, but I pant for 
power to lore him more^-to be lost in love— -to know my every 
action, word, and thought spring from love. 

— ^ — 27. This day, also^ my God has been good. Secret 
' prayer wm swc^et, and my uieditationa on Jesus were delightful 
in going, out and coming in, and u^ views of God clear. The 
Lord seemed in mercy to he convming my soul i|i the grace 
l>estowed ; but still I ^aat stronger evidence, |i larger measure 
pf the fri|it of the Spirit, and a clearer testimony of the witness 
.wkhin ; I hope my splrituftl borders will be greatly enlarged, 
Jesus is peculiarly precious to me ; my heart nnds sweet repose 
in him by faith. I see him now constantly as the l^iog in his 
keaaty: , 

**lBMtiate t&difli spiing I fly, 
V I dnidLy sad yet am ev^r ory.'* 

liord, shall I ever be fully satisfied on this side the grave % Q 
give me more of thyself — occupy all space in me^stamp thy 
£>vely image more fully on me. 

March 10, Sunday. Was unwell in body, but felt drawn out 
to pray for ihe minister, and that I might obtain a blessing by 
him, and of a truth my God answered my prayer for his own 
name's sake. It was a season of refreshing from the presence 
of the Lordl lie manifested himself to me in a wonderful man- 
ner. How precious did I feel Christ ! How gloriously he an- 
reared to the eye of my faith! I cannot express what I fe6. 
could scarcely refrain from speaking out. O my Jesus, what 
a vast unfathomable ocean of unexhausted love art thou ! What 
a heart-reviving prospect had I io-day of living fpr ever with 
Christ — a liappy, an endless eternity. Amazing I Amazing ! 

the depths of the riches of redeeming love ! In the evening 

1 went with enlarged expectation to the dhapel, and there also 
the Lord was gracious to me. I enjqyed a divine composure, a 
•heavenly serenity of sonl, while my communion was with tho 
father and the Son. Truly God is good to Israel. 

13. The Lord in great mercy is enabling me, through 

the kind assistance of others, to supply the wants of his poor 
children more than ever, l^'rom particular causes, I have it not 
j£n my power to give so much of my own money as I could wish j 
aad ne inclines others to give me of th^ir substance for the 

134 tlYX or LADT MAXWELL. 

poor. He knows what a delightfal employment this is to me. 
He Icnows how maeh he has inclined me to draw out my sool ta 
the hungry^ and to satisfy the afflicted soul ; and he- thus grati- 
fies and fulfils the desires he has given. O that he may make 
me faithfiil and wise in the disposfd of such treasure. 

36. Feh rather languid to-day, which distressed me. 

I dread losin||; what the Lord has bestowed, or sinking into a 
Laodicean spirit. I want to be every momefU aU lifi, til love^ 
ever on the stretch Jhr God ; pressing on continually. Oive me. 
Lord, the desire of my heart. I ne^ a more watchful spirit, a 
ffreater silence of spitit, a more constant attention to an indwell- 
tag Crod. These two days I, have fdt as if too outward : Lord, 
deepen thy work in my heart. O' remember thy precious pro- 
mise, " that thy Spirit shall be in me as a well of water spring- 
ing up unto eternal life." At night found Christian cobyersa- 
tion and social prayer yery delightM and profitable ; they diflhsed 
i^ heavenly sensation through my soul. But I cannot rest here. 
O, my God, draw my heart more, closdy to thyself, and possess 
my whole souL 

April 10. Spent much time in the forenoon with a Christian 
irieiKi, and found it truly sweet to speak of Jesus, that delight* 
lul source of all my sacred joy. Just after united, for some 
time, in social prayer with the same person, when I enjoyed a 
Mason not to be forgotten ; heaven seemed let down to earth. 
The sight of heavei^y objects wofi so clear to the eye of my mind 
that foith aeeined lost in sight. Jesus was more intimately ni|[h 
than l^an possibly ejquress ; and, while J wrestled in i»:ayer ior 
hleiiiiiiipgrr to my own soul and others, bodily strength seemed to 
fail tmrough the ardour of my spirit. X even 'lamented the 
weakness of my body, which would not admit <^ my spending 
the whole night in prayer. When I got alone, immediately after 
I went a^in to a throne of grace, and felt much the same. O 
for gratitude, and more power to improve these precious seasons. 
But, in the midst of my happiness, Satan was at hand, aUempt- 
ing to mix my wine with water, by suggesting, " surely some 
dreadful trial is at hand, and your joy then will soon be at an 
end." I had so often experienced Uiis to be the case formerly 
that I did fear it. 

-^^ — 22. Through mercy this has been a good day ; I was 
carried above aU I both feared and felt while hearing a sermon 
from, " All are yours, and ye are Christ's, and Christ is God's." 
I cannot express what a prepiouatiine I had. On coming out of 
the church, I desired to be dissolved and to be with. Christ. I 
could with ease have bid a final adieu to all below. Immediate- 
ly after, enjoyed much Christian conversation. In the idfier- 
noon, had a call to speak for God which I felt a cross but took 
it up, and truly it was made a season of love. The Lord Jesm 
drew very near as the altogether lovely. 


*^How sweet tad awfal is the plaee. 

ynA Chxist within tlie doon ; 
While everiaaliiig loTe diqilaye 
The chpieest of her ■loies.*' 

^ 24. I have been mereifidly fkroeted with many opporta- 

nities of profiting abroad and at home. Spent mncii time in 
visiting ^e sick, and fonnd it good to be so em^oyed. Mr 
soul was animated and elevated whfle «peaking ^tiie things <n 
God. I felt that if I had a thousand heatts I would have given 
them sjl to him : that if I had been empress of the world, I would 
have esteemed it mj highest honour and richest privilege to 
4ave devoted dU to God. This spirit and tiemper prevailed 
powerfully in my heart, when I was informed a certam person 
had said, '* Had they been Lady Maxwell, they could not have 
given their hearts so soon to God.^^ Out of the abundance of 
my heart my mouth spake, '* O my God, it is owing to thy^ee, 
rich, and overflovnng grcxe^ that ever I. was inclined, or enabled, 
m any measure, to giv& my heart to thee." O possess k whole^ 
and let it evermore glow with love to thee; mar even my fiuse 
shine with thy image. . Make me steady; txsa upon the rock 
of ages. May I prove irwinciMe to aU the power and malice of 
my enemies ; and to Thee undivided glory shall he ascribed. 

May 15. I have been for some lime very unweU in body, bat 
the Lord ^tas been very gracious to my soul. For several days 
I have been attempting to know the wQl of God concerning my 
leaving Edinburgh, for some weeks, for the benefit of mvh^th. 
While meditating and praying on this subject, the following 
Scriptures were brought to my recollection with remaA^le 
povirer and sweetness : '^ And the childrea of Israel took;%heir 
journeys out of the wilderness of Sinai ; and the cloud rested in 
the wilderness of Paran. And they first took theur journey 
according to the commandment of the Lord by the luind ox 
Moses?* — ^ Behold, I send an angel before thee, to keep thee in 
the Way, and to bring thee into the place, which I hav&prepared.'*t 
Precious words 1 ^Qas, " And I will bring. the blind by a way 
which they knew not ; I will l^ad them in paths that they have 
not known ; I wilf make darimess light before them, and crooked 
things straight. These thin^rs will I do to them, and not forsake 
them-'^J From the intiihations of divine Providence also, I 
rest satisfied that it is the Lord's will I shoold go, and I leave 
the issue of it with God. 

May^24. Left Edinburgh, and went to Blacksheils. What a 
precious ^ime ! My God was unto me as a place of broad rivers 
die wh^le of the way. My commnnion with him and his dear 
Son was unspeakably delightful. Embraced the opportunities 
that offered tor the spiritual good of others. Tliis, I always 
find, brings an additionid degree of strength to my soul. 
, « Numbeis z, 12» 13. t Sxodns jqdii. 20. % Isauhzlii, 16. 

I^ vtn 6t tAtit ikAtwttu 

«— -* 95. Set out this morning for Lauder, and dined there. 
Distressing things happened- on the road, hot my mind was 
preserved in peace. At thift place enj^ed mnch sweetness in 
social prayer and Christian conversation. . In the evening came 
to Kelso, much fatigued. Had much profitable conversation by 
the way,, and felt power to realize the presence of God, and had 
comfort in prayer, secret and social. ^ 

-^ — 26. {Kelso, Sunday,) Confined to bed all day with 
indisposition, and unable to fix my mind on divine subjects ; btit' 
yet my God was with me. In the aftOrnboii the Lord driew near, 
lessened my affliction, and increased my comfort. 

— :- 27. Left Kelso, after attempting to do some good, and^ 
dined at a halfrway house. Found it profitable to speak of the- 
•works of God by the way. My communion was sensibly with' 
the f^'at.her and Soii. Disagreeable accidents again occurred, 
but \t^e were preserved, man and beast, and all fear respecting' 
myself was prevented. Hov«r good is God! Iii the evening: 
reached Wooller. Found it very comfortable by the tvay in' 
meditation, conversation, and in attempting to do good to some' 
we met with on the roafd. On coming to this pla6e, having a' 
clergynian with us, we went to the dissenting meeUng hposcl, 
where he gave lis a good sermon. I cannot expresis how pre- 
cious Jesus was to my soul ! how clear to the eye of niiy fdth! 
It was a time to be remembered. Quickly afler, Satan was 
permitied to i^fl me with his temptations and fiery darts : but all 
18 well when God is there. - 

28. Left Wooller this morning. At Moor-house thd 

Lord made muck of his goodness pass before me, especially in. 
social prayer. Language fails to express what was enjoyed by 
myself and those who, united with me. Many opportunities were 
embraced by myself and fellow travellers to do good in variouiT 
ways ;. not, I hope, in vain. O for a heart to praise my God, 
and to remember and improve his goodness ! In the evening 
reached Morpeth, under a sweet gale of heavenly infinences.. 
My heart burned within me while I spoke of the heights and 
depths pf divine love : such an inexpressible sweetne^ disused 
itself through my soul that I cannot convey an adequate idea of 
it to another. God the Father seemed as a pillar of cloud, 
shining bright by the way ; and Jesus felt as if surrounding^^ me 
with tenderness and love. My meditations on both were mex- 
l^ressiUy comfortable. On coming to Morpeth, late in the eten- 
ihg, many difficulties occurred : also precious opportunities of 
attempting spiritual good to o\Jier8, which were cheerfully em- 
braced ; I trust not in vain. 

29. Left Morpeth this moniing, much comforted' witl^ 

the thoughts that good hiadbeen done, and that the Lord had sent 
US to that house against our cfsm inclination for this very purpose. 
We were no sooner on the road thah dangers laid diffioohiea 


earrounded us. I was wonderfally atrengtbeiied to bMr them 
with composure, and to assist others ; and we were gracioasly 
delivered. I was led much oat in prayer to be' made faithful to 
God, and was very sensible' of the danger of being nnfaithful. I 
felt as if moulded into the will of God. Reached Neweattle at 
two o'clock. Spent, repeatedly, some time in prayer concern- 
ing what I feared, and then left all to God. I most record it to 
the honour of his goodness and mercy, be heard and quickly 
answered me ; and, to my great astonishment, did more than I 
could hafe^xpected. O how good is God! Still difficulties 
were in our way, and still, through mercy, we overcame them. 
In the evening we reached Durhain, afker seeing the watchful 
care of God in our preservation ; ^nd here we have stayed till now, 
the 30th. Lady Glenorchy has been very ill, and I have been 
much indisposed. Much of the faithfulness of God I. have ex- 
l^etienced since I came here. Social and secret prayer has been 
mucl^ blessed. Under many discouragements, several opporta«- 
nities have been embraced for the spiritnal good pf others, both 
saints and sinners. Follow them with thy blessing, O God ! 
and make me hilmble and gratefhl ; eontimie thy goodness, and 
in much greater abundance. 

30. *Set out this morning from Durham. -My joys did- 

not abound by the way, but my faith remained the same. Lady 
G. continued w^ak and unwell. At midday reached Harrow- 
on-th'e-hill ; here' her illness increased, and fot the first time I 
felt uneasy about her. I went alone, and endeavoured to cry to 
God : and truly he filled me with comfort. , I never did enjoy 
fixich intimate union, and inexpressible delight in Christ. I felt 
sinl^ing into him. We then pursued our journey, and all my 
anxiety was gone. Through mercy, and with c^nfott, we 
reached Darlington at night Here, as in every place, something 
■was attempted for God. As One opportunity was embraced, an- 
other oftered. O, to be faithful ! Many temptations to inlipatience 
and displeasure with others were c^t in mf way ; bat, through 
mercy, my mind was kept ini peace. Their effect, I found, was 
this, they made me more^ and more to cease from man, and 
cleave closer to God. I felt stimulated to confess him in public, 
letting every other consideration fall to the grouiid. This always 
brintgs comfort and strength. 

June 1. Left Darlington this mornings' and about midday 
reached Northallerton. Here I enjoyed a profitable iime in read- 
ing the Scriptures to Lady G., in speaking from ^em, and in 
social prayer. After dinner, when with others, my mouth was 
wonderfully* open to speak of the mystery of redeeming love, and 
the great privileges of Christians. In the evening we arrived 
at Boroughbridge, after enjoying delightful meditation and con- 
versation on the road. Here I spent much time in secret and 
Mcial prayer, and found it good to- be so employed. About nine 


eWock ftt night, through iieray, reacked Knareshorough, ona- 
eui^ly fatigued in bo4y ; but the Lord was good to my scul. O 
what a week have I enjoyed of divine comforts ! of communiou 
and fellowship with God ! How constantly have I been permitted 
to see. the King, even Jesus, in his beauty, O for a grateful 

June 3- (Sunday.) My joyB have been sensibly abated to-day. 
1 thought I saw the cause^ and my heart was pained within me : 
I could neither enjoy persons nor things. I feared sinking from 
God, and the thought distressed me. I attempted to confess Gpd 
before men, but my own sdul was langnid. O to be faithfiil T 

-^— 7. This morning we left Ejiaresborough, and reached 
York for dinner. Found power, by the way, to speak upon the 
word of God, and light seemed to shine upon it. While at ^is 
place, even when with others, I enjoyed inexpressible comfort 
in my soul ; d^Ugiitful inward liberty. > God was with, me of a 
truth ! At night was severely tried, and felt keenly. . 

8. Visited the sick, and those devoted to God, and came 
to Tadcaster, where we dined. Here Jehovah thundered with 
his mighty voice, and lightnings flashed around with awful gran- 
deur* but Jk could say, t&ough mercy, ^ 

** This awful God is otirs, 
Our Father and our love." 

He exerted his, power, and manifested his goodness, in spacing 
the lives of those who trusted in him. When the storm abated 
I enjoyed much sweetness and liberty at the throne of grace, 
with my companions. At night came to Leeds, much tired: 
we had muoh profitable conversation on the road, and I enjoyed 
comfort, in my soul. 

9. (Sunday.) Whenl arose in the morning, my God and 

Saviour was at my right hand. In secret prayer f had nearness 
of access. Found it good to be in. the house of God, momine, 
aftemoon^and night, and social prayer was, as usual, delightful. 

— ^— 10. Still my fellowship is with God, and with his dear 
Son. Wherever I have been, he has given me power to realize 
his presenpe s^nd to enjoy his love : persons, things, and places 
have led me up to hipi. We viewed the Infirmary and^ Cloth- 
hall, at Leeds ; and the Moravian establishment, at Putse^. I 
was keenly tried and much pained at the latter place : I also 
feared I had not acted and spoken as I i^onld have done ; this 
added to my sonrow. ' I asked of the Lord power and opportunity 
to do what I well knew was iiis will in the present case, and he, 
in mercy, granted both, which satisfied me. At night; we came 
to Halifax, very late, and much fatigued. Hw also trials 
awaited me; my body was afflicted, and my nerves and spirits 
weak, but still my God was good. 

11. This momii^ my indisposition was removed, and I 

tiva or tAiy ifu:wii.i.. 199 

ei^yed lepMted opiwrtunki^of ^fituig, Wth iapablie aiidpri- ■ 
Tmte, whien were not in rain. , Had comibrt ia my tool, wid fcmoA 
conTenation on divine subjects, and social prayer, Imly profitable. 

19. Felt tried witb many ontoward eircmnstancea, and 

knew not how to act; but simply requested of God to direct 
iato kis win. The Lord, in mercy, heard my prayer, disa^pointej^ 
my fears, and gireatly exoeeded my expectations. In the monk 
ing went to Hickmanwhite» where we spent three hoois in the 
Imuse of Ood, and heard two good sermons by different manisters* 
I found it 9, delightful tiine : Christ was unspeakably preoiousi 
and clear to the eye of faith ; he shone with increasing bright- 
ness to my soul, and through the day gave me power to epeak 
closely to. others on experimeiftal reli^on. At night came to 
Rochdale, haxH^ in my mind« 

■ ■ 13. tfnwell iu body, and uneasy, fearing I had griered 
the Spirit of God. What a mercy to have the fountain eref 
opea* This morning came to Manchester. By the way, my 
heart was melted with a sense of the goodness of Qod, oomparei| 
with my own unworthiness, and was amaaed at his mercy and 
tenderness toward me. Was much in company wbiie in tlpe 
place, yet had power in the midst of it to enjoy God, and to aiel 
for him. My soul pants to live mQre to him, to be more holy ii| 
heart and life. Came to Bolton at ^ight. 

« 14. Enjoyed a delightful time in morning, devotion : mjf 

^th was strong ; a loving confidence in my Qed prevailed in 
mr heart. Here, also, endeavoured to be useful to the souli 
of my fellow creatures. Dined at Chorley. Felt power lo 
speak for God by the way, and l^ faith beheld Ged the Fatb^i 
rad God the Son. The Lord, in great tenderness, shows boo 
what I yet lack, i^rhat is amiss, and also enables me to cry for t 
supply, and then graciously bestows it. Lord, thy goodness m 
unsearchable ! O make me grateful, make me faithfiu, make me 
fruitful, for thy name^s sake ! Came to Preston at night. 

— — 15. Dined at Garstufig* Temptation was strong : I 
looked to die Lord, and endeavoured to stay my mind oh CM. 
He weans me more and more ftom created good, and shows mo 
that He only is truly good. Lord, I believe it. Came to Lan* 
easter at night ; was unwell iq, body but comfortaUe in soult wa4 
temptations were abated. 

«-— ^ 16. Sunday. Remained at home all day through indiflk 
position. • Had much profitable conversation on the thing* of 
God, hut not much joy. 

17. This morning my faith was strong, and my views 

elear, but suffered a degree of heaviness tlurough manifold temp- 
tations. O that in all I may glorify God t Came to Kendal at 
night : was very comfortable here ! Christian conversation was 
profitable, and social prayer sweet. ;' Embraced the opportimitiM 
which were presentea for beaefitiag othjNrs. 


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— -— is*. Csjne to Penritli. Here had a good deal of eonrer- 
eation with the landlady on the^sabject of lel^on, and gave her 
some serious books. 

' '■ 19. Dined at Carlisle. Had power to conyerse on the 
things of God, bat was unwell in body. Here e^qyed repeated 
opportunities for social and secret prayer. Found the worsh^ 
of God delightful, especially at the cathedral, during the aftei* 
noon service. I felt the presence of Jehovah, and maude a solemn 
end unreserved surrender of myself to God, and found it very 
delightful. This I repeated at' the inn. Came to Langtown at 
night. By the way the Beloved of my 80«1 was exceedingly 

20. Dined at Langholm. On the' road enjoyed the 

presence of God, with clear views of divine objects, but felt an 
nnusual incapacity, or rather want of inclination^ to converse on 
even my favourite topics. Enjoyed much time for ^aycr, witli 
an increase of power to assist others. ' Cameio HawK^k at night, 
and still the Lord was good. 

— ^ 21. Set out this morning very eaiiy, indisposed in 
body, but better in soul. Found it good to speak on the things 
of God, and to read his word. Breakfasted at v Selkirk. Felt 
pained, on leaving this place, that t had not attempted to do 
more for Go^. Dined at Bankhouse. By the way the Lord 
preserved me in time (>f danger ; but I felt grieved, feaoring I had 
not acted as I ought to have done. O how' narrow is the way 
of entire devotion ! What constant Watchfulness is necessary ! 
At Bankhduse my mouth was opened to speak for God ; my 
hands were strengthened, and my heaxt comforted. In the even* 
ing came to Dalkeith ; stopped a few minutes, but heani me- 
lancholy tidings, which obliged us, though late, to go oh to Edin^ 
burgh. Through metcy knjr mind Was very comfortable, and mj 
God brought me to my habitation in peace, after having expert 
enced much of his goodness. He had also preserved my fiaanily 
during my absence. How great is his faithfulness.* 

July 27. I have for many weeks experienced much of the 
goodness of the Lord. I have wrestled much with Grod; my 
fluttering spirit has fatigued my breast. Jesus has drawn me 
Bweetly on, b6th by the attractions of his be«iuty and by the iur 
Titations of his word. He has been unspeakably precious to me ; 
his name has been as ointment poured mipth; my meditations on 
him have been truly sweet ;~ he has appeared idtogether lovely. 
He also encourages me by his precious promises to press forward. 

- *Th^ editor has been induced to insert the above ext^t, which de- 
scribes the manner i^ which her ladyship invariably travelled ; from a hope 
•that other Christian travellers may be. stimulated by it to follow such an 
excellent example. They might \hus become the honoured instruments dT 
scatotring the seed Of life on many hitherto sterile and uncultivated spels; 
sod, " instsftd of the briter, might ooaie up thtmytlld tves.** 


The following passage, spoken in reference to his church, has 
been frequently and powerfully impressed on my mind. Ought 
I not to Uke encoaragement and comfort from it 1 " The Lord 
' thy God in the midst of thee is mighty ; he will save ; he wiU 
rejoice over thee with joy ; be will rest in his love ; he will joy 
over thee with singing," Zeph. iii, 17. Precious words ! What 
can we desire more T 

Augusi 2. My God has increased my faith, and love^ and 
desire, since last Sabbath, when I had an opportunity to partake 
of the ordinance of the supper. I experienced on that day more 
than I seemed able to enjoy ; yet not a rapturous joy, but strong 
faith, full confidence ; and since then my spiritual borders have 
been, in- a ^maU xoeasure, enlarged. My fellowship with the 
Father and Son is/inore intimate and uninterrupted. I am en- 
abled to realize their presence wjberever I am. , My meditations 
are deli^tfhl, my views clear, and many^ very many opportuni- 
ties are afforded for the spiritual and temporal good of othexcf, 
with power to embrace them. I enjoy an increase also of the 
firuits^f the Spirit. ; 

30. Enjoyed a delightful season while meditating on 

divine things, on the goodness of God to my soul, and on the 
love of Jesus. On riding out soon after, i was exposed to danger; 
and, through the weakness of my nerves, was greatly agitated 
for a few minutes ; but the Father of mercies quieted my fears. 
What a strong passion is fear ! how involuntary ! How poor 
and weak this mortal frame ! To how many pamful feelings is 
the soul, that divine spark, subjected while imprisoned in it, and 
from which no degree oi grace can procure, an exemption. In 
,the evening spent much time in seeking to promote the spiritual 
benefit of some yeung ones, and it was truly a profitable season ; 
made so by the cheering, animating, delightful presence of my 
God and Savioqr. > O how richly does my God repay my feeble 
attempts to glorify hiaf. Jle is liot a hard master ; he rewards 

Sept. 10. I enjoyed many privileges to-day* but firom pain 
and sickness could not improve them as I wished. Yet my God 
was good. I still fear stopping short, and see clearly my works 
are not perfect. This day met with.a most unexpected trial. I 
endeavoured to give it up to the Lord, and was {»:e$erved in 
more peace than I expected. My God, let thy will be done, and 
may I heartily acquiesce ! O for more holiness ! In general, I 
find that ev^ry degree of increase in the grace of GcS is pre- 
ceded by a proportionable degree of humiliation and^ self-abase- 
ment. What cause have I to bp humbled in -the dust ! I need 
to pray always ;. and yet I am not so much as I ought to be in 
this duty. O for a more prevaiUog spirit o[ pra^efi sad mora 
canrttfDt WfllobfalneBa ! 

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19^: The Ixml convinces sie Jj^nX 1 <$anttot retain Ilie 

measure of grace abeady given, without esnthiually pressing tin 
for more. He shows roe how much is yet to be done in me, hbt 
does not permit the sight to "depress me. He, on the contmy, 
encourages me to seek after and expect aU that holiness^which 
Christ tuur purchased for me. * He <£raws me sweetly on by the 
consolations of his Spirit, and by the words of hi^ grace. He 
preseryes, ' and greatly comforts me in the time of trial and 
danger. O how great a privilege is it to have a' God to go to 
in seasons of necessity ! 

October 2. It has beclh a season of severe trial since this day 
week, I have ijfot been so ranch alive to God, nor enjoyed power 
to wrestle in prater, neither that degree of delightful intercourse 
with ray heavenly Father. I have^ been restless and uneasy, 
though perhlips not enough so. I have gone f^ora reauding te 
prayer, frora prayed to reading, and irora that to meditating, but 
still could not £ndwhat I sought-^intunate eonmiunion with God. 
I cannot perceive any particular cauee fbr this change. Faith 
discovered God the Father ; I still saw Jesus as ^eKing in his 
beauty ; and still I could believe and plead the promises ; but T 
did not feel such a degree of spiritual life nor so much cinnfort 
as usual, and my spirit w§s grieved. Surely the Lord has some 
wise end in view by this severe dispensation. O that it may oe 
fully effected in me ! I fear lest I should have grieved the Holy 
Spirit, and thus brought it on myself. Give me, Lord, to see 
this, if it is so. I have- felt very defective in watchfcQness ; but 
alas ! what can we do when the Lord seems at a distance. He 
is our only proper spring of every degree of spiritual obedience : 
all (HIT wellsprings of \i?e are in him. 

6. Nature was conquered this morning', and my heart 

was eoxnfoited ih^secret. I felt a greater degree of spiritual life. 
In the forenoon, at church, enjoyed a sense of divine presence : 
Jesus appeared lovely to the eye of faith. O the power of divine 
love ! My God, gfve me every moment to experience its utmost 
power, its transforming eflScacy. O to be lost in lov^ ! . I have 
been jsensible ^o-day of a greater abstraetion of heart from the 
things ef time and sense,, and a proportionable increase of near- 
ness to heaveply objects : the one is, I believe, a consequence 
of the other. The Lord teaches me more and more the vanity 
of all below the sun. I feel also at times the fiery darts of Satan, 
which makes Christ precious. At present I am veiy sensible 
of the necessity of keeping near to God : it js a dangerous tune 
on m^ny accounts. O to be able to stand steady to the end, firm 
as-a wall of brass, and as an iron pillar strong : unmoved by 
threatening or reward; uniformly good, as a witness for the 
truth. Lord, thi^ is ray ambition. 

21. I have this day a fresh proof of the faithfulness 

of the Most High, and of the certainty of the accompliahment 

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of iAm promises, wBiefa'X w<ral<! her^ record to the glory of Ood 

and ibr the comftirt #f my soDl. Some weeks ago* the person 

^ who tatf gbi my little charity school was taken from me ; and this 

* caused me considerable perplexity. The Lord was entreated to 

. i» proTide another, if the continnance of the school would be for his 

glory^ My mind was impressed with these words, '* Stand stOl, 

and see the salYation of the Lord,*' Exodus xiir, 18. This, 

for a time, removed my fears, but difficulties increasing, they 

ag«in returned. I cried to the Lord, and his word again came 

to my relief : ** He will fulfil the desire of th^m that fear him ; 

he also wil} hear their cry, 9pd will save them," Psalm cxfv, 

•19. This again calmed my .mind, aod when in prayer one day, 

in secret, pleading with the Lord that he would direct me to a 

ropei teacher, there was evidently set before my qpnd a person 
had never seen, but remembered having heard years ago that 
he tanght a school." This intimation myself, and, like 
. Mary, pondered upon it, and at the same time made all proper 
inquiries respecting the person. Others, well qualified, were 
repeatedly applying for 4iie place, but still I thought tbe man thus 
brought to my recollection would certainly be procured. I stUl, 
howev^, proceeded ijautiously, and guar^d against an improper 
haste. I also continue^ to ery to the Lord for direction. After 
a competent'Space of time, atid many inquiries, this very individual 
has ongaged this day to teach the school ; and he appears well 
qualified in all things, to my mind,.that is material ; above all, he 
seems a most serious young man^ and desirous to glorify God, 
by being useful to inomortal aonls. I do not know how he may 
turn out, but feel at present sweetly satisfied that the Lord has 
provided him. What praise is due to a prayer>hearing and a 
prayer-answering God! 

32. Words fiul to express what I have enjoyed of the 

goodness of God to-day. Faith seemed lost in frmtion. My 
views of the Father and the Son appeared to have attained an 
unusual degree of brightness; almost meridian. O what an 
exuberance^ot goodnesehavel b^en permitted to. enjoy ! so much 
so, that my heart began to meditate terror. Satan tempted me 
to think, ^* Surely some giealr distress is at hand." Indeed I have 
often hitherto found tha( the Lord, before any trial or affliction, 
has been uncommonly gracious to me. But why should I anti- 
cipate evil 1 Teach me. Lord, properly to enjoy and improve 
present mercies. I fear I did not improve to the utmost what I 
hiave enjoyed to-day. O to^feel more of the transforming power 
of grace in my heart and. life! I long more holy, more 
like my Jesus, that all my nature may show forth the glories 
of the Lamb. I want/ to drink deeper into his Spirit ; to expe- 
rience a greater oneness with him ; a more intimate union with 
the Sourpe of bliss. O, I would be all divine, as far ais humanity 
will permit ; in otherwords, I wish to enjoy all that conformity 


to mj Lord it is possible to enjoy while in the body. I am still 
favoured with opportunities of attempting to tlo good to others, 
and have much delight in the employment.^ 

November 27. My views of Jesus have been clear, my mind 
fixed on God : much comforted with divine love in conversation 
and pocial prayer. More than ever,^ my God favours me with 
opportunities of acting for him, by doing good in various ways; 
and in mercy he also gives more inclination and power to be 
thus employed. I desire to be fullof good works^ and free fi-em 
all dependence upon them. If my heart does not ^eatly deceive 
me, this is not my temptation : all my^rust is in Jesus : here my 
anchor is fixed. What a stream of constant happiness fiows 
from a union of soul with him \ I do hope that the Lord, agree- 
ably to his promise, is Establishing, strengthening, and settling 
my soul. X have felt for the last twelve months more rooted 
and grounded in loye> and in the wavs of God in general, and 
yet find less confidence in myself. The more God does for me, 
the more do I feel dependent upon htm. My sl^ength consists 
in living by fiuth upon Ciirist. He is my all in all : yet,^ 

" For closer communion I pine, 

I long to reside where thou art." 

O glorious thoughtrthat I shall- dwell to all eternity with him! 
Transporting prospect ! 

December 6; In the course of thesa eight days I have ex- 
perienced much of the goodness of God : have enjoyed much 
sweet- and more uninterrupted communion with him than usual. 
My Jesus has been ever with me, as my King:, glorious, and yet 
so condescendingly gracious, as to constraiti me to love him. 
Often, when his name has been mentioned, as i*saal, I have 
tasted ineffable sweetness . my heart has leaped within me with 
joy that he was mine. vWhat must it be to dwell forever witik 
him, when a small taste of his love here is so delightful 'f O 
what am I, that I should be thus favoured ! Lord, make me 
more gratefiil, more humble, and enaUe me to improve thy good- 
ness more. I am still permitted, at times, to feel particularly 
my own weakness, and what Satan would do; if allowed : this 
makes me dread self-dependence, and enhances in m^ estimation 
the value of the Saviour. I am still, also, deeply sensible of the 
peculiar goodness of the Lord when I attempt any thing for his 
glory, in the Way of assisting others. O how gi^cions is he on 
these occasions.! Birt still, in all I come short, and have much 
cause to be ashamed and humbled. 


CHAPTER XII.— 1777. 
Dkiy conthwed. 

January 1. My God has made bis goodness to pass before 
me this day also. He has sweetly drawn out the desires of my 
heart after himself, and given me by faith to see Him who is 
invisible. O what a substantial good is God to the believing 
soul ; and. when he more sensibly manifests his presence, what 
a heaveh does it produce ! Upotn a review o( the last year, I 
find^ infinite cause to praise my God, who, in the course of it, has 
done more for me than ever. He has accomplished many of his 
precious promises, and given me to ienjoy communion with him- 
self; and to feel a more constant sense of my union with his 
dear Son : and in a more lively and clear manner, he permits 
me to see him continually as the King in his beauty, and tg dwell 
always under the covert of his precious blood. Indeed I am not 
sufiiciently grateful for what has been done for me within these 
last fourteen months; neither am I sufficiently sensible of it: 
and this principally, because I see so muclt more which neces- 
sarily remains to be done, and so much befote me npt yet ob- 
tained. I see how much I stand in need of sinking deeper into 
God, of being more deeply roou^ in his love, and more free from 
wanderings. | cannot bear the thought of vresting short of any 
measure of grace attainable here. Yet how slowly do I move 
in the heavedy road! amazing, indeed,, is my tardy pace. O 
how much more so must it appear in the eye of God, and 
of angels ! : 

— ^ 25. Since the 18th, it has been a time of trial, especial- 
ly by 'sic^ess, which brought a degree of languor upon my spi- 
rit. It generally has this effect upon me, less or more, on which 
account! do not feel so resigned to bodily affliction as is, I be- 
liete, my privilege ; though. I believe a degree of this depres- 
sion of spirit I must experience while in the body. How com- 
fortable the prospect of being an inhabitant of thctt city to all 
eternity, where none ever say they-- are sick. TillthenyO my 
God, enable me to pass the time of my sojourning here, not only 
in thy fear, but in as perfect resignation to all thy dispensations, 
whether joyous or adverse, as humanity will admit. In the 
course of these days past, my faith has been much the same, 
though my Joy was not so great. I have enjoyed a' sweet con- 
sciousness of my union with Jesus ; itty place of defence has 
been the munition of rocks ; I have been fed with the bread of 
life, and the water of life, according to the gracious promises of 
a fai^ul God. I have also had such conununion with the 
Fatlier of «lpirits w to mik» me Wonder that a boly God conld 

196 tin 6W LADT MAXWELt. 

dwell with one that had so little of his image. O how ardently 
has this made me breathe after more holiness ! my heart has 
panted after the largest degrees' of sanetiflcation. I ha^e en- 
joyed some sweet seasons in secret and social prayer, and this 
evening felt my faith for the UeSsing received in November, 
1775, confirmed ; also my expectation of retaining it strength^jp- 
ed. Daily opportunities of doing good are granted me, 'v^ith 
strong desires, and some power to ase them. Bleaied be God 
lor aU his mercies 1 

Febmary 5. In the course pf these eight days, I have fe|t 
varionsly. Have often had sweet views x>f Jesus, and at times 
felt him so nigh, so very dear to the 'Oye of faith, that faith 
seemed lost in sight and enjoyment. I have been constrained 
to speak of him to -others as the chiefest of ten thonsand. What 
ineffable sweetness do I taste when the name of Jesus is men* 
tioned ! an instantaneous heaven springs up in my soiik Bat 
O, how is it, when so highly favoured, that I do not gr6w^moi:e 
Kke my divine Master? Surely -I tlo not improve the glorious 
visit as I ought, else I should gain more conformity to him : my 
soul longs for more of the divine image. I feel ashamed before 
God and man that I am not more holy, considering the advan- 
tages I enjoy. O Lord,'Temove the cause, that the ^ffecft may 
cease ; and make me, ia theKing^s daughter,- all glorious with- 
in; Every day I look to make progress in the divine life ; but 
alas! how are my expectations disappointed i^for in all I do, or 
say, I come short ; yet the Lord bears with me. But shaH it 
be always thus ? I enjoy God in secret prayer, especially in the 
morning;- and I enjoy him in social prayer, ^in conversation, 
meditation, and reading : but how can f^ this be, when I am so 
unlike him ? O to be holy ^as God is holy ; to be meek and low- 
ly as Jesus ; to sink into all the depths of humble Jove, and rise 
to all the heights ai Christian confidence. I may-say with the 

** My earth thou wscter'st from on high 
But make it all a pool ; 
3pnpgup^ O well, leyer cry. 

opring up wiuun my soul 
"With me I know, I feel thou art^ 

But this camiot suffice ; 
Unless thou pliuitest in my hedtt 

A constant paradise.,*' 

This is truly the language of my heart. 

March 26. These last seven weeks I have been serer^ 
afflicted in body, and part of the time no less so in my soul. O 
may my God sanctify the afflictive dispensation. He has pro» 
mised that I shall be brought oat of it as gold seven times jmri* 
fied. In the begimiiiig of this illness, the Lord was eseeeduigly 
gtaeionsi I «oald not express y^uX I enjoyed in the lore of 


JeiHis ; truly God dealt bonntifiiUy with m«. Bnt afterwaid I 
waa leff to feel my own weakness, and to grapple with strong 
temptations. Satan thrust sore at me, one night, when . very 
unwell, so that I was ready to fall and utterly sink. I Qjried to 
the Lord, and he made his word my support. The Lord has 
raiised ihe up, though still weak; but I have been closely 
tempted and tried since, and my spiritual joy is much abated. 1 
do not feel so near to God, nor myriews so clear, neither my 
faith so strong : I feel as if out of my element. My demies 
have been permitted to make great havoc ia my soul, at least to 
my own apprehension ; hut surely the Lord wUl rebuke the ad- 
Tersary, and greatly increase^ me for his own name's sake. I 
feel deeply unworthy of it. O how far back do I feel in the 
divine Ufe, Lord ! restore to me, the joy of thy salvation. O bring 
my soul out of trouble, that I may praise thee ; and cause this 
affliction to bring forth the peaceable fruits of righteousness. 
May 3. In thecoiirse of this lastTortnight I have felt variotsly. 

that I could say I had improvod much ! This I dare not say, 
but think I can with some degree of truth affinn that I have 
hungered and thirsted after it : and if my heart does not deceive 
me, I have sunk deeper into God ; felt more fixed in him as in 
my centre. I have experienced more inward recollection, my 
soul more stayed on God. Jesus has been truly precious; my 
heart has indeed felt him nigh : and he has proved a source of 
sweet consolation to my soul. 

June 1:2. Still I have cause to praise God, who ^eals bounti- 
fully with me : still I am, through mercy, permitted to enjoy 
sweet fellowship with my God and Saviour ; and, in general, am 
kept under the influences of the Holy Spirit : what praise is 
due! Yesterday, and the day before, I felt keen anguish, from a 
feyr that I had grieved the Spirit of God. O how the thought 
puned me ! I cannot say easily what I felt. May almighty 
power and goodness keep me every moment exercised as. my 
Lord would have me ! O to be preserved from every touch of 
blame. If this is possible white in the body, let me, O my God, 
happily prove it. I find it is only by looking to Jesus I can 
either increase or retain what he has bestowed. The Lord does, 

1 think, move than ever, enable me to live by believing in him, 
and looking to. him. My life, in a email degree, is one continued 
looking up to him, dwelling under the covert of his blood, and 
realizing the presence of my God; this spreads a heavenly 
serenity through my mind, uid sweetly solemnizes my spirit. 
The more I live afler this manner, the more fixedness of thought 
I experience, the deeper I sink into God ; but, afler ^1, how 
poor my progress. O for a quicker pace, a swiflter, motion ! Still 

^morning devotion in secret is sweet ; I enjoy ^comfortable access 
to my God, and am enabled to plead the promises, and depend 
upon them as ^* yea and amen'' in Jesus. 


19. Where *hall I begin to praise my God t I am i 

Qished at his goddness when I coneider and feel how unworthy 
I am ; how unprofitable, how uhfaithfhl, how far short in erery 
respect. Yet he condescends still to let me see by faith his nn* 
clouded face; In comparison of fo«ner experience, he: has 
'brought me into a wealthy place ; birt I am mneh short of what I 
expect. He has promised greater things, and I know he is faiths 
fill, and willperform all his promises. If any thing, my comma- 
nion ^th God is increased : O what sweetness do I taste in 
Jesus ! how precious is he ! hoW constant my sense of a vital 
union with him ! — as the branch in the Vine, so do I feel in him.- 
But I long to drink deeper into his Spirit, jrea, to be fiHed with 
the entire fruit of the Spirit. I think he gives me an increasing 
deadness to the world, together with a proportionable degree of 
life in the ways of God. In the midstof the divme oomforts I 
enjoy, Satan tries many, ways to tempt and- distress me. On 
last Lord^s day, thongh confined, my ibpiritnal consolations were 
so great I was strongly tempted to beliere it all a delusion, be^ 
cause they were not of a more transforming ^latnre ; bat Jesu0 
lifts up a standard when the enemy thus pours in. God appeared 
so clear to the eye of faith, it was not possible it conld be a de^ 
ception, and Jesus ehdjie into my sonl with transcendent bright' 
nesst Indeed I have reason to blush I am not more holy ; bat 
I must not deny the goodness of my God because 4>f thu : no, 
rather I must cleave closer to him. 

30. Since my last datej truly God has been good : I 

cannot express what I enjoy in Jesus; I am,throagh amazing 
mercy, privileged to walk with him, and talk' with him, as a 
man with his friend. -I ever feel him nigh, though th6 Uessed 
view is not always attended with the same degree of comfort ;' 
but in general I am made to sit in heavenly places with him, to 
cleave to him by a Uvely faith, to dwell under the covert of his 
blood, and to follow after him. While I now write, my heart 
feels him sweetly nigh, the eye of faith beholds him clear. In a 
small measure, I enjoy the accomplishment of that precious 
promise, Zech. ii, 10. O Lamb of God, was ever love like 
thine ! I still enjoy sweet access to God in secret and social 
prayer ; and prove it very comfortable to talk to others upon the 
concerns of their immortal souls. I frequentlyhave mueh of 
the presence of my Beloved in the great congregations, in difiereat 
places. How great my obligations to free grace ! I do long to 
make suitable return^. O for more love to God, more power to 
live to his glory ! I am not enough on the stretch for God: I do 
liot hold forth the word of life ^constantly in that anua^le light 
that I wish. - 1 am often -pressed down with indisposition of 
body, with weak spirits and neryes. This causes me to appear 
at times as if I were unhappy, which grieves me ; I w^ to 
show to all that real religion can raise human nature above everr 


sorrow. While in the body, I know we must feel; we shall 
suffer from various causes and quarters. My heart is pained 
from day to day, with the dishonour done my God by those that 
know hun not ; and, alas, by too many that profess' a knowledge 
of him. These causes will perhaps more or less remain until I 
join the church triumphant ; the only place and company that 
claim, and possess, an entire freedom from sin. 

16. In the course of these two weeks I hare been more 

tempted, and my spiritaal enjoyments hare not been so great as 
before ; though still I feel deep cause to praise my God. In 
ffeneral I rest in him ; yet at timies I feel uneasy, perhaps partly 
S-om these weaknesses, that are more or less inseparably con- 
nected with humanity, and partly from temptation. ^ I find that 
there is nothing so much tends to compose the mind, and to keep 
it religiously recollected, as a constant sense of the presence of 
God. If at any time, from some of the above causes, I am in 
danger of being unhinged, a look to God, by faith, sets all to 
rights. Immediately sdl the affectionate poiyers of the soul are 
collected, and fixed upon God, as on their proper centre, and a 
heavenly serenity ensues, ft is more than can be expected, 
while in this vale of tears, to know no seasons of weakness. 
May T be enabled every moment to lay as passive clay in the 
hands of my God, and have all the good pleasure of his will take 
place in me. This is sufficient, but indeed my heart pants with 
strong desir^ to feel the utmost power of traujsforming grace. 

August 8. ^ In the course of these eighteen days, I have expe- 
rienced great and frequent vicissitudes of feeling ; sometimes 
Very comfortable, at others, much grieved, dejected, and tempted. 
Upon the Whole, my spiritual enjoyments hate not been so great 
«8 usual, and I have feared sinking from God. Yet he has been 
very gnteious in enabling me to help others, in soul, body, and 
out-v^rard estate. He has favoured me with opportunities of 
strengthening the weak hands, confirming the feeble knees, soft- 
ening the hard heart, and greatly encouraged the people to trust in 
him ; both by prayer,,conver8ation, and letters. This is all his own 
doing, and therefore to hint be all the glory. I have been lately 
unusually led out to wrestle in prayer with God for more of the 
divine life, and to hunffer and thirst after every blessing pur- 
chased for me ; but still I do not advance as I wish — still I feel 
painftilly short of what I would be. I am amazed at my unpro- 
fitableness, unfaithfulness, and unwatchfiilness. O for aU the 
ffrace God is willing to give ; and power to use it all for him. 
When, Lord, when will it be ? I enjoy muoh sweetness in 
pleading the promises in secret and social pr^er; but I cannot 
express how much my heart is pained that I do not love and 
serve God better, that I h^ve not more of the divine ima^e. I 
would be all on fire for God, a flame of love. I would experi- 
ence unbounded confidence in him, unlimited resignation to Mm, 


and hare even my countenance strongly insrked with a deep 
sense of his presence. But alas! I am far from this ; I am not 
so faith#il as Lpught to be to his inward teaching ; I am not all 
aUention to his secret voice ; I am \easily unsettled ; I want a 
greater equality of spirit and temper ; I would be always the 
same ; neither much elated nor depressed; but continually serene, 
humble, and cheerful: I want more silence of spirit, more victory 
over my tongoe, a deeper and more constant consciousness that 
S^ with me, and sees me. I need more of that perfect love 
that oasts out fear ; that degree of it which would enable me to 
cleave alike to God in sickness as in health, in pain as in ease> 
in death a3 in life. How good is God, who bears with me ! and, 
in 'spite of all my. failings, yet sfives me to isee him and his dear 
Son by faith ; . and keeps me constantly sensible of my union with 
him. Within these few days, he has rather increased me ; he 
gives me to see his gracious hand iii what befalls me, and makes 
me to believe he will, according to his promise, be my counsellor 
. in all things. Yet I feel I need patience to wait the aecomplish- 
ment of the prppiise : I am often tempted to impatience, but as 
often cl^ecked immediately. Forgive my haste of unbelief, O 
thou God of love, and enaile me to wait patiently on thee. ^ I_ 
need more patience, I find, also, with my fellow creatures. Q 
Lord, thod seest how much I need an increase of ever3r grace of 
thy Holy Spirit. O bestow it this day, that I may praise thee. 

Sept. 10. I have beenlately variously affected and tried, and 
my comforts not so great. ^ to be always the same ! How 
devoutly to be wished, but I believe not to be expected while ia 
the body ! Yet I may look for that measure of grace which 
shall keep me cleaving to God in all states. O my God, give ms 
this! enable me to glorify thee at all times, and it sufficeth. 
Of late, I have, been strongly tempted in many ways, and I fear 
not faithful. O hpw this mortal body presses dpvm the soul ! 
As it respects attempting to do good, I do not know that there 
is any change, though my attempts are. not always attended with 
the same degree of comfort. I have grieved lately, fearing m^ 
communion with God has been. less. O that he may remove the 
cause and the effect, and accomplish all his promises. I go from 
here to-morrow for bodily health. O that as usual my soul may 
be happy ! may I have much cause to praise him when I return. 

Oct. 6. On Friday last my God brought me hon>e in peace 
to my family, with my healtn better than when I went froni. 
hence. The^ways of my God toward me, in the course of my 
journeying, have been mercy and truth, though I have not en« 
joyed such strong consolations as I generally do. The state of 
my soul has. rather consisted in heart-melting and deep convic- 
tions of my shortcomings, which tended much to humble me be- 
fore God. Yet I felt a desire to do all possible good. At first, felt 
reluctant to this ; but that conquered, my desires and opportuni'- 


ties yfiBTC incTeased ; my eaooimigMBcnt gveat ; and my soal was 
thereby atreDgthened and much comforted. The means in 
which the Lord gave me most of his presence wa^ prayet^ espe* 
eiaUy aocial. I seldom bowed my knee, but my God and Savioiur 
drew nigh. Since I came home, I feel a sensible increase of 
thirsting after righteousness, and of communion with my God ; 
my views are more clear, and my faith stronger. The storm of 
temptation is abated, and succeeded by a sweet caha; my bodily 
heal^ also is better, my nerves and i^irits n^re firm, aM I faiivtf 
found my family and connections well. It is Biercy all ! — ^what 
praise is due 1 

Nor, 3. For these last seventeen days, my God has dealt 
indeed bountifully with me. Close, sweet, deep, and ahnost un- 
interrupted, has been my fellowship with God the Father and 
Son. O what a glorious privilege is communion with God ! it 
is better felt than expressed : it is, as a good man describes it, 
the lively actings of the soul upon God by. faith in holy exercises; 
in which he communicates to us the sense of liis favour and 
acceptance, filling us with joy and peace, and making us abound 
in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost, and shedding 
abroad the sense of his love in our heart. . Amazing goodness 
and condescension ! Astonishing that .sinners should be thus 
favoured ! What in his love do I not possess ? He is with me 
by n^ht and by day ; my last thoughts at night are his, and my 
first in the morning spring forth to him. He unveils the glories 
of eternity to my faith ; the land that is afar off is brought nigh ; 
wherever, I walk, or move, I meet my Jesns, who possesses all 
my, affections. In a small degree, I can say with Dr. Watts, — 

" If leve, that pleasing poweirr can rest 
In heart so hard as mine, 
Come, dearest Saviour, to my breast, 
. ~ ]f or all my love is thine." 

— 02, O that all my powerb might |>raise my God, who 
deals so bountifully with me. StUl I dwell on high. Through 
abounding mercy, I have had many sweet seasons in the course 
of these eight days, in public^, pri^vate, and secret ; in conversa- 
tion, meditation,' reading, hearing, and praying. I have enjoyed 
habitual eommanion wit^ God ; clear views of, and sweet inter* 
course with, my beloved Saviour. He has often (to use the 
language of Scripture) made my soul as the chariots of Amina- 
dab, 9mA oaused me to sit in heavenly places with himself. He 
has shone into my soul in aUhis attractive beauty, and captivated 
my heart, jn general, he now teachei^ me more than ever to 
live continually by faith upon him \ he is my life, my strength, 
my comfort, my all. Yet stDl I am weak, I am only strong in 
his strength, and in his. pure light alone I see %ht. I cannot 

r'aise him as I woald : note, while I write, how sweetly nigh do 
feel him— )iow clear by the eye of the mind do I behold him I 


Jesofi, what bast thou dona for ne ! My sool longs, tOid fire- 
quently attempts, to set fbrth his beauty to others, and, I hope, 
not always in vain. 

27. My God has increased his goodness to me einee 

Sunday last ; I have indeed dwelt ih the secret-place of the Most 
High, and abode under the shadow of the Almighty. My views 
of Jesus have beea brighter than ever, and my int^ereourse by 
faith more intimate and sweet. I am not able in the language 
of mortality to express what I now enjoy in him ; and what un* 
interrupted communipn I am permitted to hold with God the 
Father. Yesterday was indeed one of the days of the Son of 
man ; when meditating upon divine things, and fearing, in the 
view of trials, unfaithfulness to God, the bright glare of eternity 
seemed to obscure, or rather to annihilate, all below the sun. 
Future glory was unfolded to my view. I felt ahoost as an in- 
habitant there, and more than ever lormerly did I feel under the 
powen of the world to come. This was after conversing with 
a Christian friend about two hours on the things of God : bat 
Satan soon suggested, surely more severe trials than ever are 
now at hand ; which was likely to embitter my present heaven, 

1 stalled back, as it were, and' feared to receive more from God. 
Lord, how wonderful are thy dealings with me ! bow good thou 
art in answering my prayers ; for this last was an immediate 
return to my request. 1 asked the Lord, in order to make me 
faithful to him in the time.<^ trial, which I viewed at hand, that 
he would give me to see and feel time swallowed up in eternity, 
that every worldly consideration, such as the fear of man, &c., 
might vanish. 

Dec. 27. Yarious causes have concurred to interrupt n^ 
writing, but I find I have suflfered loss by it. It is indeed a 
good thing to watch constantly over our heart and life, to attend 
diligently to all the Lord^s dealings toward us, and then to record 
them for our benefit : nothing but necessity should make a 
Christian neglect it« For these last four weeks my oomfort has 
not been so great. I have been, greatly tried in body, mind, and 
outward estate ; and the Beloved of my soul has not felt so nigh, 
which made me feel them heavier. My spirits and nerves, also, 
have been affected, and all together conspired to bring me iAto 
heaviness. I have been unusually detained from the publio 
means by affliction of body, and have feared continually lest I 
should get into self-indulgence, which has added to my trials. 
But, according to the wonted goodness of my God, ^though lam 
unworthy, I look to be increased. At time^, I have toou re« 
freshed with a sense of the presence 4)f my God, and Jesus has 
also been with me : but my communion with the Father and the 
Son has not been so -_ near and sweet as. usual. I. have felt .a 
partial distance, and one reason of this has been, I think, a ne- 
cessity of much attention to outward and woxkUy things, ynHh a 

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variely of trials from without aad within. I have been huiii«ed, 
and sometiinesdriYenf and sometimes drawni from steadily look- 
ing to Jesus. 

CHAPTER Xin.— 1778. 

Diary continued. 

Jan. 1. On this first day of the new year, I fed inelktod 

fihay I be enabled) to make-a fresh dedication of myself, with aU 
have and am^ to my Crodt yea, a more ftdl and unreserred 
surrender of myself than ever^ Lord, accept my sacrifice ; O 
may the altar sanctify the gift ! and through thy sovereign gracet 
may I live more to thee, do more for 4hee, and prove more of 
thy sanctifying and saving power. May my communion and £eU 
lowship with thee be sensibly inereased, and continued, if spared 
throdgh this ensuing year. May I be made more faithful to thee« 
to thy cause, to my fellow creatures, and myself. Lord, I wonid 
also, olfer up to thee my family ; be the Grod of it, and enaUe 
me to walk before thee in it, in a perfect manner ; ruling it only 
by giving lig^t, by a deportment becoming the gospel. O how 
defective hitherto ! I would also, O Lord, offer up to thee all 
my relations ; O accept of them, and make them, by faith in 
Jesus, thy children. O let these requests be^iregistered in thy 
book of life, and answer me in the joy of my heart concerniog 
them. V 

I feel a small increase of grace in my soul, more, comfort in 
prayer, more love to God, and the iiery darts of the enemy are 
not so frequent. Upen a review of the last year, I find many 
mercies, spiritual and temporal, for which to be thankful. I have 
l?een favoured with much of the sweet presence of my God, and 
his dear Son : with much inclination and a degree of power, and 
very many opportunities of doing good to the sou)s and bodies of 
my fellow creatures. I give them, Lord, up tolhee ; follow them 
with thy blessing. I have also- been favoured with many de- 
liverances, with regard to soul, body, and outward estate. Lord, 
powerftdly sanctify them to my good. But alas ! I find likewise 
many, very many things to lament; much unfaithfulness, un- 
fruitfulness, ingratitude,' &c., &c. what is man ! By nature 
what a compound of all evil ; and even aflter, by the great; good- 
ness of God, he hath passed from death unto life, O how de- 
fective ! what continual shortcomings ! Lord, thou Jcnovi>€st my 
pen d6es not note these things as words without a meaning, only 
commonplace expressions; no, my heart feels ^& truth of what 
I BOW write, and I most sincerely regret that there should be 
cause for it. Help, Lord, O help thy unworthy servant to love 
^ee more ajid serve thee better. 


' 30. (Pridav.) This has been a precioos day. I hare ex- 

Snrienced much of the goodness of the Lord since Fwrote laj»t. 
ut on Wednesday and Thursday an unusual degree of languor 
overspread my sotd, for which I could not account, an^ I did not 
seem so much alarmed as usual on these occasions ; this also 
grieved me. To-day, in mercy, the Lord revived me ; and at 
night, in his house of prayer, he made much of his goodness to 
pass before me. In meditation before the service began he 
shone upon his work in my soul, led me back to the days of my 
folly and ignorance, and showed me what hel had done for me.; > 
gave me to «njcfy sweet and clear commusibn with the Father 
and Son, and deeply and feelingly convinced me how totally 
ignorant I was pf these great things till he revealed them to me : 
in short, my God led me into a delightful train of meditation 
upon his past goodness to me : and gave me also a present pos- 
session of himself and his dear Son. Immediately after, heard 
a profitable sermon on the last verse pf the 32d ^safm : " Be glad 
in the liOrd, and rejoice, ye righteous : and shout for joy all ye 
that are upright in heart ;" which so corresponded with my 
meditations, and corroborated the truths and views given me 
just before, as was most comfottable : I had cause to prsuse my 
God. . But when shaU I love or serve him as I wish I , 

February 7. Still tiiy Jesus is with me and very precious : he 
hovers over nie with eyes of tenderness and 'love. Are these 
expressions improper ? Are they enthusiastical % Wliat heart but 
must flame with love when Jesus £lls it with his presence I 

"Are passioirs, then, the pagans pf the soul? 
Reason alone baptized, alone ordained, 
To touch things sacred. O for warmer still !*' 

I cried to my God to-day to establish me more, and that -my 
communion with him may be more deep and permanent ; for as 
yet I find it admits of small and painfal interruptions,; I mean, 
as it respects spiritual joy; and is at limes lessened with fears 
of having grieved his Spirit. It is not easy always to <braw the 
line between temptation and sin. I have entreated he would 
shine on his work in my soul, and testify clearly, with meridian 
brightness, what he has done for pe ; that I may give the glory 
to him, and take all the domfort he intends I should. 

March 11. Still outward and inward trials continue. I prove 
the body a cumbrous load ; it affects my soul in many painful 
ways. No Bf^iotion /(»• the present is jojms. What grieves 
me most is that I do not glorify God more in the fures. Yet he 
is good, and, at timei^, gives me a sweet sense of it in prayer, 
reading the Scriptures, and conversation ; and at the name of 
Jesus still a heaven springs up in my soi^. I be^eve many of 
my painful sensations are the effects of bodily complaints, and I 
doubt not many are caused by unfaithfulness. Yet, unprofitabln 

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IB r antj the Lord is g:ood, and gives me many precioos promises 
to sapport and comfort me. Lord, thou art faithful who hast 
promised, who also will do it. O strengthen my faith, and fill 
my heart with a greater power ^of obeying and delighting in thy 
will. Thou hast graciously said, not one wwd shall fail of all 
the good things whereof then hast spoken. Lord, increase my 
power of liring by faith, — enable me to cleave to Christ. I find 
the father and Son, in general, eontinne clear as the objects of 
my foith ; but of late, the degree of joy resulting from that faith 
varies much, though hungering and thirsting after all that God 
is willing- to give. Manifold temptations often cause heaviness, 
and bring snch a languor and inexpressible uneasiness upon me 
as frequently unto for duty; prevents intenseness of spirit whilo 
in it, and often shortens it< May I be taught to improve to the 
utmost every situation. To-day I have been struggling into 6od» 
though witlr little comfort; tpl at night, in meditation, God the 
Father and Son seemed to draw Very nigh. I have cause to 
praise the Lord, who, in spite of the wealness of my bbdy at 
present, in general gives me sweet access to himself. But in 
cvei^ duty, in every grace, in every trialt I see and feel such 
continual shortcomingts, and great defects,.as are truly painful 
and mortifying. G to be revived as the com, to grow as the lily, 
and to cast forth my roots as Lebanon. 

April 7. ' One of the days of the Son of man. I enjoyed much 
of the presence of my God, when with his children m the fore- 
nof^i ; and when walking out with some of them, and talking of 
the things of eternity, ^he Lord drew sensibly and sweetly nigh« 
so that my heart was quickly made as the chariots^ of Amina- 
dab. Soon after an enemy was at band, and I felt keen distress^ 
from a fear that I had done wrong. Satan attempted to pour in 
as a flood, especially when I went to the chapel in the evening. 
I fled to the blood of Jesns, cleaved to hkn strongly by faith, 
and he felt near to help and eomfort me. Yet I could not get 
entirely free from the fear that I had grieved the Spirit of God ; 
this was very bitter. How uninterruptedly sweet would my life - 
be if it were not thut these thoughts f^equenl^y occur y perhaps 
from a real cause, for want of a greater degree of watchfulness. 
At times a word will escape me, that upon strict examination 
afterward I find did not entirely coincidecwith the feelings of my 
heart; then keen anguish ensues; words in common use, but to 
which little if any meaning is attached'. How long is ft bef)hre 
we entirely unlearn every improper thing we have learned in a 
state of nature ; and even when we thidk we have got free of 
them all, how often^ when least expected, do they return. 

— — 19 (Sunday.) Since my last, my soul has been hun- 
gering most vehemently for more hoUness. A thoQsand worlds, 
had I been possessed of ihem, seemed nothing to f^ive in ex* ' 
change, could I have purchased it^ My soul frit at times nmeh 



discouraged with the thoaghts of my poor progress in the ways 
of God ; but often- within these few days in secret orayer, when 
thus grieyed, my Jesus manifested himself sweetly un^) me ; 
shone in all his beauty and goodness, and attracted all the af- 
fectionate powers of my soul. With ten thousand times more 
tenderness and kindness than the dearest earthly friend did he 
strengthen my hands, comfort my heart, and enoonrage me to 
go on. O how does this divine, goedness, endear him to my 
soul ! Yet still I languish and pine, because not altogether like 
him. O for a deeper work of grace ! O for more faithfulness in 
improving what is already bestowed ! To-day, being the Liord^s 
day, I found it a^ great cross to be detained from pubUe worship ; 
but thought it a duty, a^d proved my God nigh at hand in secret 
prayer : liad there a sweet view of being for ever with the Lord ; 
and how delightful was the p^pspect ! 

May 30. From various causes my writing has fj[>een inter- 
rupted for a month. It has been a time of mucU temptatioil and 
trial, in body, mind, and outward situation . O tha^ I could add, 
in alll have been faithful ! Alas, it is not so. AVhen shall my 
complaining be at an end I When shall I love and serve God as 
I wish, and my communion with- him know no interruption V O 
that the time would speedily, commence^ Since my last date 
I have had precious seasons, times of refreshing, many instances 
of the goodness of my God in various ways ; but upon the whole 
I have cause to lament that I have not made that progress I 
might, neither been so faithful as I ought, especially in the time 
of trial. Weakness of nerves and spirits subjects me to painful 
feelings. Yet I have felt the interests of Zion dear to me, and 
a greater spirit of prayer for her prosperity than usual, And the 
welfare of individuals belonging to her. I have been also stirred 
up to appear more in public for the cause of religion — ^I mean by 
using my influence with others in behalf of the peace of Jeru- 
salem ; and have felt comfort in embracing tlie opportunities that 
offered for the spiritual and tempoi-al interests of others. Family 
■ and secret prayer has been sweet, and. when permitted to bear, 
the word preached has at times been profitable. Last night X 
truly proved it so; my communion was with the Father and the 
Son, though still not so near as usual. I have had severe bodi- 
ly illness, and since thst there is s degree of languor I. have not 
conquered, and al&o weakness whereby I am easily affrighted and 
unhinged. O to be strong in the Lord : to enjoy all he can 
bestow, all I can enjoy. 

June 7. (Sunday.) Found it good to wait on God in public. 
This forenoon went to church, through difficulties, but did not 
repent it ; the Lord was with me, and where Jesus is there is 
heaven : O to be every moment thus favoured ! Yet I think it is 
holiness, rather than amifort, which I pant afler. I see the 
beauty of hoiiaiessy how dfesirable tp bare the whole image of 



Gk)d stamped on the soul. Tbift— Mm ia tbo object of my der 
•ire^ the subject of my prayers, my meditotions, my conTorsa* 
tion : how mortifying then do I feel it to have so little of it. 
O my God, attend ante my prayers, hear my cries, and give ma 
the thing I long for; give, me the mind that was in Christ; 
rememb^ thy own word of promise concerning this, upon whick 
thou hast caused me to hope.. In the evening, being obliged to 
be with others, I was grieved to find, upon examination at night* 
conversation had not been so profitaUe as it should have been ; 
my heart was pained : what, need for constant watching. 

*— 21. (Sunday.) This last week, my soul has been long« 
in^ for more of the divine image, desirous of glorifying God, and 
bemg zealous for his interest in the world ; fat promoting of 
which several opportunities have been gi^en me, with power to 
embrace them, which give comfort. I have felt Jesus very pre- 
cious these days past ; at the mention of his name he has fre- 
quently, and instantly manifested his presence, attended with a 
Joy better felt than expressed. I do taste salvation in his name, 
to know him better f to love him more; and to feel greater 
conformity to his image ! I pine for this^ and am pained tfutt 1 do 
not adorn hie gospel more. Upon the whole I do not think my 
communion with God is so constant as it has been. Holy Father, 
discover the cause, and remove it ! It has been, for some time 
past, a season of manifold temptations, which has brought heavi- 
ness. My nerves and spirits have been much affected. The 
complaints under which I have suffered are great enemies to the 
joy of faith. This day, though unwell in body, I have attended 
the house of God morning, nooU) and night : but found little com« * 
fort till the evening, under a sermon from, *^ Return unto thy 
rest, my soul.*' Here my Jesus was benignly nigU ; my views 
of God and his dear Son sweetly clear. This seemed given to 
prepare for more than* one trial, which I soon met with. Hov 
good is God \ 

July 2. Upon the whole, since this day vireek, the Lord has ^ 
increased me ; my views of Jesus are brigh^r, my faith strong- " 
er, and atteinied with m<Mre comfort. The grand secret of the 
Christian life is limn^ byfaUhj ever keeping this divine principle 
lively, and vigorous, and constantly .fixed upon its capital object. 
Without this we draw little supply from Christ ; and since we 
can do nothing without him, how feeble, how uncertain, how in-> 
terrupted must -be our progress. For some time I have lived 
more by faith : the acting^ of it have Jbeen vigorous, and my in- 
most soul has been on the stretch for more holiness. My com-* 
ipunion with the Father of mercies has been greater than for. 
lome weeks past. My sweetest time for secret prayer is early, 
in the mornmg. I also often prove the Lord near in socid* 
orayer. In the morning, when I first open my eyelids, how» 
Mighriiil do I feel it to fly by faith to Jesos ! and contiimally 

t4B UM Ot £Airt JtAllWRXN 

llnroiigii tke^ky, tM <m\y Uf smempt a constant Ihing hy Mth 
npoa\daiii bat kaef^ iU'every pa^rticiilatr thing I do, to look lo film 
§ot strengtii and wkdoin ; and wherever I go, to realize his pre- 
«rnee; snid repeat' my aets <^ self^tedication to birf), opening mj 
Jieait by fait^ to reoeiv-e him af^fesh : attd lit a& tlvese attemptar 
be 'meten a^ my right hand. Yet fbr closer eommomon I pine. 

wkett shadl my longing deaure be satnfied I I still feel it is my 
delight to aei Ibr God, and he girCs me many opportunities to 
cneourage me herein. The h&rd- gave me to know yesterday 
that he had blessed' a odnveraatk)^ 1 had, some years ago, wltnr 
ene of bin own ehUdieR, to* the qmekeaing of l«r soul, and ^e 
laa piospewd greatly since. O to possesa in my own soul aO 
Ibat CM is willing to giye ! Lord, enlarge my holders, 

Aagnst 6. The more I see atid Itnow bfthe wWld the less f 
esteem it, and the more I deMlre to b^ defirered from it ; to^ liTer 
hktifiinrent to ita smilee aifed ftowns. O what yaaity and yexation 
ii the pMtimi of tim^ at least ma^y ef them, that enjoy much 
of what are called its geiRi things. My seal, keep thoa fiee from 
it!' I had an addttional eonyiction of thie to-day, by conversing 
Wkl aa aged disciple, much connected with those in high life. 
In Grbd alone it true happineea t^ be found. My sod feels drawn 
out to be much m secret prayer'; to ^ave mtrch communion 
with God ; and to be faithful to all about me m ererj respect. It 
k a great thing to be altogether a Christian. I pant to be such. 

-*- — i SI. I have had sweet seasons th^se two last weeks* 
Thie publie meMis have been more than usually blessed to me. 
Jesifltf haa been very pecious te me, and near. I do find, vrhere- 
ever I am, the Lord is with me ; agreeable to that spraciona 
nromito, long aince deeply impressed on my heart, ^ liave not 

1 commanded thee t be strong and of good courage; be not 
alhud, neither be thou dismayed^ for the L6rd thy God is with*" 
diee, whithersoever thou goest,*' loshiia i, 9. Upon strict 
examination I f nd the Lord has done more for me than I an» 
always sensible of. Strong temptation sometimeti obscures my 

'light and diminia^iea my joysy and outward trials press upon me ; 
Aese often^anse agitation of spirh and inequality of temper and 
sffedionv which, in a degree, nnhinse and erieve me. All thi» 
may be witbont sin ; yet I ardently long to be freed from it, be* 
eaiise it is very possiue others may mistakeft fbr sin. I want 
m perpetttal serenity of mind. If by this is understood a con- 
tioua! samertesurfjieling, I fear, before I exp^ence it, mortality 
must be put off, I want to prove the utmost power of trans- 
Ibrming grace, whatever that is; O, my God, satisfy my longings 
deaiiea ! I think I anfibr lo^ at least in pc«nt of enjoyment, by^ 
not meditating emmg^ on what God has done for me : an eager 
dbaizB fbr what I have not yet obtained ealriea me away. Jjm^ 
di» thbil rtjgUUOe ill mf in^gtUkriiies^ 

**H9fe all vuiffomm I bvu^ 

Maaago alltibe inrbeeli. 
And goreva every ^prinf:** 

I «Bi <tiU kept iHrageffiag after moopt power te gbvify G<eiL 
liateiy ke has opesed a large field wheietn te attempt it, and 
gives me power to walk in it. May ke sueoeed juj llAlnble^eA* 
deavour^. I ieel a eweet peMasian tkat ke • wiJL 

Sepfeetaiber 14. The firstweekof Sep^iaberlenjo^miiek 
of God ia peklic aad fsiTatef ki meditation, eoovezsatknif and 
aeeret prajrer; wilk maiiyAppoxtamties'Of domg good, wiA 
keatth of body, aad arkeea kanenag after xigkteoQsaeBa. HTkia 

last week my eajoymeat of (&od baa aot beea eo great ; atdifier* 
a^ times my eommaidbn kas .been 4irareaaed, Jeaas kas jbeea 
near aad aweet, aad myiiaart baa paated after ail ike lifeofiGod : 

at Qtber taaaea^ I have not fth so eoaifoTtaUe ; trials hav^ de- 
sreased ws^ miad ; temptatioBB have diatreesed oae. I ibave ha4 
Jceto eoavictioBS of wf abortoomiaga. with moat ardent deairea 

IffiT.^ the grace I eoakL-ieoeive. I am persaaded that I do not 
];«ay ^doagh ; that I do dotwaloh enough ; that I do not aaffi- 
ineady .deoy mrself : and, te some days past, I hare had a aoi^ 
▼ietion that I Jb iwt eb aiaeh as asaal realiie the presence of 
Ood. M y spti^, I think, isiaot eaoagk aoIemniBed, nor my 
ieaiper so efiial aa tt oogkt to be. Barely tiwse things are ilia- 
Ci0cierc«{ that they taa^ be rtfitified^ O ny Gk»d, operate 'pow«r«- 
/uHy in me ; make me after thine own heart. I deeira to be all 
^kMTtodH mthia, to be all for thee^ to give tbee eaoh fiveeiont 
eaom^t as it flies. 

October i. Thst has been, indeed, one of the iivfB of tke Sen 
l»f man.' In secret prayer, ia tke morning, tbe iLord made miitb 
«f kis goedaess to- pa^p before me. How^reeioasdid my Jesua 
fie^l How strongly did he draw my heart and affections to bko- 
•slf ! This deUght&l iaCeroeeiee is better foil than expressed. 
O that it may pvove traasformiBg. In the; forenoon i fodc ap 
my eitws, in «ider to do wbat appeared myduty^ aad was for 
noma' hoars most, uaeommoaly ^ned ; bat my eommonioa with 
the Father aad tiieSon was so constant and sweet, I was ca]> 
ried above all, and was aMited in the midst of these trials, soma 
«f them STaos€^ to endnraee opportonities that efieaed fof ^otip 
fying God. In one point I foiled, which gneved me; though 
net QBtiiely oertun tkat what was adied of te was doty: but 

how naspeafcaUy graeioas was my God ! In my .way- home, 
ench inejiahle sweetness, sueh heavenly views, filled my aoul as 
I.eaanot expieaa. I f<^ asif disaaited from adl below, and aot 
s cloud iateiposed for a moment to hide my Loid from my eyeai 

1 eoeid have bid adieu to all bekiw, and gone to b&.with Christ, 
which would haive been for better. I saw in the forenoon,iin the 
course of the trials I went threi^b, the reason of the uneeBuaoa 
^Bodnese of God in die mDmiag. O how good ialia J 


NoYember 13. A long interral of 4, month and three dayv 
has intervened since I wrote last, in the course of whidh I have 
passed through variegated trials of soul and body ; and have 
much caose to be humbled before God, tiiat when in the furnace 
I d^d not glorify hilm as I ought. I find all past experiences axe 
insufficient in the time of trial, unless the Lord commaiid a Mesa* 
ing with them. I have had a recent proof that no '* affliction for 
the present is joyous,^ but grieyous;" 3ret there are doubtless 
many valuable lessons to be learned from it. I have fiilOre than 
ever been taught my own weakness ; also, the vanity of aU be- 
neath the 8an« Much comfort preceded this illness ; and, in the 
beginning of it, Jesus often cfrew sweetly nigh, whieh gate com- 
fdrt ; but it was not abiding. In the course of my ilbeas all tlie 
powers c^ hell seemed combined to distress me. So screiig waa 
the stream of temptation, that the Lord was a terror to me ; hia 
judgments made me afra>d. I was driven from prayer : mttek 
of my usual relish for divine things forsook me. I felt ahnoat 
driven to despair. The Lord^mly knows what i have suffered. 
O how qukskly should I have been consumed by the fire of tempt- 
ation, had not the Lord said, '' Hitherto shalt thou come, and ne 
farther.^' He also iMiid that he who had showed me great and 
acre troubles would bring-me up again from the depths of the 
earth, and revive, and quicken meV and comfort me on every 
aide. The former he has done; thektter still remaioa to be folly 
accomplished. Since I grew better in. body J have been in a 
etate of great weakness, much harassed at times with that fear 
whith hath torment ; at other times comforted with the presence 
of JesuB. But the sinews of my endeavonrs to do good have felt 
•8 if broken asunder through what I have suffered, and the ardour 
of my )BouI is damped. Yet surely the word ef the Lord must 
ottand. He will accomplish it^ and perfect what concems me. O 
what a. great matter is it to be faithful in th^ time of sore trial 
and temptation I My fears have been increased from my views 
of the state of public affairs; judgments are iianging over ua^ 
end few are sensible of it. Within these two dajra I have beg«a 
to be more active fbrvGod, and my comfort has been greater, mr 
spirits have been better, and my body stronger r surely I may look 
for good daye yet. O to be more' devoted to* the will of God! 
then sufferings Would not eut so deep. 

32. I have been rather languid these nine days pasu 

Still it is a time of trial in various ways. I have not r^ained 
what, to my own apprehension, I loat in my last illness. I think 
my loss haa in some measure been owing to a sinking, in n de» 
gree, from the life of faith ; not cleaving so steadfastly to Christ 
as I ought in the time of distress, and by judging of my -state 
more ty feeliTigs than hyfaUh. The Lord is inereaung my de- 
' sire tO' do good, and enabling me to embrace the opportunitiea 
offered ; but etill my comfort is less : I do sot feel so mveh com* 


tniiiiion with God, neither each a eonstent power to realize hie 
presence, neither such delight in him : still a degree of fear re* 
mains. My hopes haye, as yet, been disappointed, as it respects 
the fruits of my last illness. 

- December 1. Was both profited and most severely tried to- 
day* The- fear of losing a valuable parent was deeply afflicting. 
I fear what I felt was not fully consistent with resignation to the 
will of God : nature was overcome. I knoy^ that " unreproved 
she may drop a tear :'^ but I felt too keenly. I was enabled to 
cry unto the Lord, and he helped roe. For the present be has 
in a measure removed my fears, and filled me with gratitude, but 
my will must flow more deeply with the divine will. 

26. I have been oppressed these last three days, yet no 

trials seam to discourage me from attempting to do good to 
others as opportunities offer. But I lament I do not obtain 
greater victories over my enemies, and make greater progress in 
Sie divine life. Year9 pass .quickly on ; but alas I how little 
improved. This thought .cuts deep Upon a mind desirous of 
being all light, ^ life, all love. Yet, in a small measure, I do 
daily . converse with God by faith and prayer, and daily see 
Jesue as tiie Eling in his beauty. While X now vnrite, I feel him 
precious^ and see him clearly. to be more like him I 

CHAPTER XIV.— 1770. 
Diaxy contniiied. 

January 1. The Lord has-bronght me. to see another year. 
If spared, may I glorify him more than ever, by being more 
faithful, more fruitful, and more active in his cause : this is the 
ardent desire of my soul. On a review of the last year, I have 
cause to say. my God has been truly good : the consolations of 
his Spirit have neither been few nor sniaH. He hath visited his 
unprofitable servant with many refreshing seasons, and often 
delivered from bodily afiiiction ; given me many precious pro- 
mises, and numberless opportunities to promote his glory, by 
attempting to be useful to the bodies and souls of my fellow 
creatures. In all I have come short. I can scarcely perceiTe 
that I have n^ade anjr progress heavenward. When shall my 
complainings cease? to be as holy and. happy as my God 
waits to make me ! Through the course of the year, I think I 
have in general found more profit in reading the Scriptures, 
more comfort in secret prayer, especially early in the morning ; 
and also more power ahd courage to act for God in a public 
way. He has discovered some new methods for this w^ich he 
had not before shown me. May the success of my attempts 
prove that they were from himself, and may he daily enlarge my 

sphere of uBefolnees^. For ^ese last three mouths, I Msk I 
have enjoyed a greater degree of establishmeDt in his 'wajrs; 
yet, excepting some precious visits, without much additional 
comfort. I have also had, during thut period, much perplexity 
about the true state of my soul ; but. whether. this uncertainty 
arises from any loss of grace, or is the result of carnal reasoning, 
I am at present unable to determine. .Shine, Lord, upon thy 
work: gire the \^tness and the fhiit of the Spirit in a mneh 
largfer measure, that in thy light I may see light. ^ 

— 7. A happy day. - Jesus was precious to mj sonl this 
forenoon when froni home. I felt a heavenly serenity -shed 
through my soul ; enjoyed cle^r and distinct actings of ^th upoa 
God and Ufarist, with a power to realize their sacred presence. 
Repeated acts of self-dedication produced confidence and com^ 
fort ; but I neglected some opportunities of doing good. , O how. 
unprofitable ! The Lord, in great mercy and kindness, eondoi- 
scends to eneourage me to go on in his. ways : he enables me 
to rely on his word of promise ; and I believe he will, -in me, 
*^ fulfil all the good pleasure of his goodness, and the work 
of faith with power,'* 2 These, i, ^. This is what I wapt. Be 
it, Lord, as thou hast spoken : haston thy work, that I may glo- 
rify thee. ' ' 

21. Por some days I have been the subject of severe 

bodily affliction, but have enjoyed much comfort in my mind. 
The Lord has dealt tenderly with me. In general my views of 
God and Christ have not onlv been clear, but productive of more 
deep and steady comfort. Within the last^ eight days I have 
been obliged to be much with others ; yet, so gracious has the 
Lord been, that I have been permitted to einjpy delightful fellow- 
'Mp with the Father of my spirit, and with the adorable Re-* 
deemer of my soul. O to enjoy this, and all its blessed efiects, 
to the utmost -possible extent ! Though thus comforted, tompta- 
tions of various kinds,' and some of them very pa^ul, have 
attacked me ; and still I mourn that my conformity to the divine 
image ;is so small and defective. I fear, while I remain in the 
body I shall not cease complaininff. At present I suffer from a 
too great inequality of spirit. I am too easily moved. The 
reverse of this, atjesst in a degree, I believe to be my happy 
privilege. How £ir a constitution naturally weak, rendered ao 
by various causes, may invent all I desire,.is a question I cannot 
easily solve ; or how far>theae variations may exist without any 
mixture of sin, I am also at^a loss fully to determine. May He 
that knoweth all things give me to know, and also to prove, the 
utmost efficacy of divine grace. At present, I feel we^ in 
body, weak in mind, and unable to spend much time at. once in 
any duty; yet I am comfortable. I am very desiro^ to be 
faithful to those around me, both by precept and practice ; but 
am sadly defective. 


.Febni^ 22. Since my lut date I ha?e lUt, U 
ardent desires for more deyotedaeas of heart and life to God. I 
fesir self-indulgeace, and am en the watch against it ; jFot, from 
constant weakness aiid frequent indisposition, I am, I know, ia 
danger, of it. Bat the Lord hath said, '*No weapon formed 
against thee shall ][)rQ8{ker.^ I also fear that worldly eanaocewfi^' 
too many of my tfaonghts,. and hurt my souL - hirij help, me to 
cast my every eare ofi thee. My conversation in my faoiily is 
aot so spiritual as it ought to be. I determine to imftore wt 
this. This night, .when reflecting on past ezperieiicee, I was 
sensible of a growth in grace. My views of God and Ghriit 
are more clear, my peace nK>re constantt my power to aet for 
God greater, but I still live below my privileges. I fear I an 
not improving, to the utmost, my present situation. It has loojg^ 
been a time of great temptaition. O that it may prove- a pturi- 
fying iurnace. 

" ■■ 2jS. Waa often this morning and forenoon at a throne 
of grace, yet could not obtain that intensity of mind and heart I 
! desired. . O. what is man ! Without continued aid from on Jiigh 
be is all weakness, un&ithfulnes^ unprofitableness. How great 
the long suffering of God that bears so long with him ! Whea 
visiting die sick tOrday, found my views of God the Father, and 
Son clear, and my meditations aweet ; all nature seemed to wear 
a smile : ihdeed, the beauties of nature ever 'tend to elevate n^ 
mind, and thus carry it up to its great Author. O to be miHPe 
apiritual! I found to>dayt by attempting to communicate hapja* 
,oe8S to others, I secured, happiness to myself. Surely our Lord*« 
words are strictly and literally tr^e, "U is more bleesed to ffive 
than to reoeive/^ But in all I say, or do, or think, I fail. Holy 
Jesus, I fly to thy atoning Blood for pardon, and to the blessed 
Spirit to sanctify me. Make me as the king^a daughter, all glo- 
rious within. ^ . 

— 27. O how gracious was my God to-day! He gave 
me a delightful prospect of eternity, clear and bright viewa of 
himself and of his dear Son, and a sweet persoaaion of being fimr 
ever with him. I cannot easily express what were my teeBng^ 
on the occasion, but truly ray meditations were very heavenly. 
What a soul-satisfying portion do I find my God and Saviour! 
Ho w infinitely superior to idl the world has to offer ! I rejoicad 
in my heavenly inheritancer This was late at night, and I re- 
gretted that sleep ^ould intenrupt my eaj^mnent. But a litUe 
while, and I shall get rid of mortality. No night shall then 
intervene ; t?iere shdl be one eternal day to sing the praises of 
my God and King ; and I shall do thia without wearineas and 
without fainting. What is man, O Lord, that thou ahouldst 
thus provide for him ? Amaaing love ! " God only knowa the 
love of God.'* It is far above our feeble oompcehenaioa^ 

. .29. Was enabled to rise earlier this moroiiig ihMi 


IM tirx or lai^t maxwell. 

Qsnal, and in vftriotis ways my trast wall in Grod. In the fore* 
noon went to church, and heard with sweet composure ; waa 
preserved from wanderings, and enabled to realize the presence 
of my God and Saviour, and to attend to Iiis word more closely 
than nsnal. On coming home was in a cumfortabfe frame, and 
was desirous to return thanks to the Lord for his goodness. As 
I was entering my closet, the following words came powerfully 
to my mind : "Tne Lord is good ; a strong hold fn the day of 
trouble, and he knoweth them that trust in him.'' This madb 
me feat trouble was at hand, especially when I considered what 
I enjoyed last night; and, as usual, it damped my comfort. I 
prayed to the Lord, that if this was from an enemy he would 
remove it ; but, if from himself, he would enable me to profit 
by this kind and seasonable warnuig. Lord, fit roe for whatever 
thou hast prepared for me, and be nwu glorified in m^r. I would 
give myself to thee, all I have and am. 

March 9. My fears, expressed on the 29th of last month, 
were well founded. Since then Ihaveheeff severely and un- 
expectedly' tried ; but my God has been good, supported me, and 
brought me through. From weakness of spirit and nerves the 
animal frame was more agitated than was needful; but I hope 
this maybe without sin. My severe distresses in early life, 
with a firm beHef of the Christian religion, which quickly fol- 
lowed, and a comfortable persuasion of my interest in the ^]wd 
tidings of the gospel, produced a serenity and solemnity of mind, 
with a sobriety of manners, which have nunre or less abode with 
me ever since ; but lately, from weakness of body, I am sooner 
agitated than formerly. 'This, at times, grieves me, especially 
as those who may perceive it may suppose that it flows from a 
different cause. Do thou, O Lord, strengthen me with strength, 
both in the inward .and outward man, that I may not only appear^ 
but really be, always calm and religiously collected. Teach me, 
heavenly Father, ever to maintain the dignity, the purity , the 
sanctity, of thd Christian character : aided by thy blessed Spirit 
may I daily add to my "faith, courage ; and to courage, know- 
ledge; and to knowledge, teinperance ; and to temperance, pa- 
' tience ; and to patience, godliness ; and to godlmess, brotherly 
kindness ; and to brotherly kindness, charity," 8 Pet. i, 5-7. 
The Lord has enabled me lately to see ihore fully the vanity of 
the worid,- and the emptiness of the creature ; and though nature 
is pained by the discoT'ery, grace enables me to bless the Lord 
for the useful lesson. It increases my desire to know more of 
God, and to derive all my happiness from him, who is a fountain 
ever flowing, and ever fuU. 

It has also been much impressed upon my heart lately, to be 
grateful to the Lord 'for his merciful interposition in behalf of 
this nation, in not pefrmitting the popish bill to pass, as it relates 
to Seotland. May his unmerited goodneM prddiice a pcoper 

. txrm of %ABT iCAiv^ti. 156 

effect on the mrnds of hie people. How inexoQsable mast we 
be if we continue regardless of our own best interests and of his 

?:lury. .His hand has long been hfled up against England, 
reland, and America, bat as yet we will not see. In the pre* 
sent ease, with regard tcT Scotland, how mercifully has the stroke 
been arerted ! Had the penal statutes which are in force against 
the papists been repealiud, and the en^uragement intended by 
the bill given them, in all human probability, the Protestant 
eause would have he^ brovght low, 4nd how fearful must have 
been the consequences ! But our God is merciful to an ungrate- 
ialf insensible people. Othat we were^wise, that we would con- 
sidaa: these things, and act accordingly. 

13. Another day is past, and I am so much nearer 

eternity. that I co<4d say I had got nearer to my Grod ! I 
have felt a ^ater standing alone with God; a willingness to 
seek and find all my happiness in him. I have felt disposed, if 
called, to give up the creature, even Christians hitherto much 
valued. I have also experienced an increase of desire to live 
only to God/; to fill up all my time with and for him, and felt 
sweetly animated to embrace every opportunity that offered for 
doing good. Spent, much time in Christian conversation ; found 
reading profitable, fwd. looking to Jesus sweet. My soul felt 
drawn out with strong desire to adorn the gospel ; to bciiot only 
blameless but exemplary. . Lord, make me so. 

April 11. (Sunday.). Jesua appeared lovdy -to the eye of 
faith this morning, though the^ emanations of his love were but 
faint. Being detained at home in >he forenoon, I wished much 
to improve time in secret with God. I felt groaning for more 
liberty^ had more power to plead in- prayer, and more composure 
than usual. I. endeavoured to lay all my wants, my desires, my 
^opes, and fears, before the Lord : and plead his promises for 
sanctii&cation, which are many and extensive ; but' I want more 
fervour. I attempted to search into the state of my soul, and to 
detect the causes of my* want of prosperity, at least in the degree 
I want it. I seemed ta see many, yet could appeal to the Lord 
that I wished them -all removed. It has for some time been a 
season of trial, and from various quarters. . I have been more 
than ever called upon to live by faith, in opposition to the aspect 
of Providence and the evidence of my owii feelings, which are 
oflen painful; My comfort flows purely from looking to Jesus, 
believing in him, and from feefing my soul united to him. I 
scarcely find any thing, in myself to rejoice in. Whether this is 
owing to the work of giuce not going on in my soul so well as 
formerly, or from my being more delivered from self-confidence 
and self-complacency, I cannot determine. Blessed God, do 
thott discover it. 

36. In the intervals of public worship to-day I had 

svreet meditstiona alone.. I have teu»n to think that I gnere 

155 uvs <m tABT luzirsix. 

tbe Spirit of GM, by not being ntwvfB Mnstbie of, and gnti^ful 
for, what the Lord has done fpr me; and this through an ardent 
desire of more grace. My Tiews of saacUfioation are so higb» 
so extensive, that I sometimes think 1 am scarcely at the 
' threshold of a religious life : i conclude every one has more 
grace than myself ; and feel ashamed to speak of my experience, 
my attainments are so small. ~ Yet, through. the great goodness 
of my Lord, at other times I am constrained to declare what be 
has done for me, and if my bea^ does not deceire me, I simply 
i^ak what I feel. 

May 25. Yaiions have been my hinder^nces since my last 
date; Through necessary intercourse with others my- time m 
secret has been frequently shortened, and my power of realizing 
the presenee of my God and Saviour not so constant; this- cre- 
ated fears that my soul was not so much aliye as usual. The 
fear of death has been mor« prevalent than fojr some time ; and 
for a moment, at different seasons, the fear of God's disf^easuj^ 
has given me ff rest anguish. Satan h^ had recourse to various 
stratagems to disteess my mind ; while my addresses to a throng 
of grace have not been so fervent as formerly, nor my power to 
abide in prayer so great. Within these few days the Lord h«s 
tried me in a tender point, and I am not certain but that nature 
felt more than is consistent with entire resignation. Lord, 
search and try me, and let no foe prevail. Let my will ever 
sweetly ik>w with thine, as soon as discovered. While I men- 
tion my fears and distresses I would not omit mentioning the 
goodness of my God, who has frequehtly given roe,de1igh^l 
seasons, in secret and social prayer, in intercoarse With his 
children, in his house of prayer, and at his table. - ' 

June 6. I find Satan is a great enemy to the use of the pen, 
especially in this Way, and I am not always aware of the tempt- 
ation. Since my last date I am sensibly strengthened, both in 
body and mind. I have obtained greater victories over nature 
than for many months past ; . and have also found the word^ 
preached more profitable. Uppn the whole, my soul is animated 
to run with greater alacrity in the good ways of God. The 
passion of fear has not been so predominant. I have enjoyed 
rather more comfort, with a greater equality of spirit, temper, 
and afl^ction. With desire I have been led to embrace the 
opportunities that offered iii which to do good, bat stiU I am pain- 
filly short of my iwrivileges* When shall I be all I w»h. 

— — «!- 18. I enjoy greater nearness to God, more sensible 
comfort, and, a consideraUe increase of hungering and thirsting 
after righteousness. The word preached has been more profit- 
able, esjpecially a sermon on,'' Blessed are they that hunger and 
thirst aner righteousness, for they shall be filled.'' Here I found 
food peculiarly suked to my spiritaal taste, and heard my own 
•tate .exactly described : it was indeed a preciooa time. I have 

or LMmmuama*. tb% 

«}flo hvmA social prayer sad eonvarastion witb Christtuw acnich 
blessed, but I hare bad likewise much bodily pain. This, with 
me at lesst, generally lessens ^oy, but love and resignation may 
be alwsm the same. ^ I perceive I em but a babe in ssnctifioa- 
tion; O to ezperienoe (he strength and stability of a father in 
Christ. Nothing short of a plenitude -of gospel grace ean satisfy 
me, — ft full and constant enjoyment of Fa&er, Son, and Holy 
Ghost. - 

July 10. I aiti almost at a loss to express with any degree 
of precision what has been the state of my mind for several days. 
I think I have no^been so mnch alive either to pain ot pleasure 
in the dirtne life as I onght to be. Outward triab press hard 
upon me, and, I fear, occupy too mnch of my attention : Satan, I 
find, labottrs Hard to keep me dwelling npon things without, well 
knowing, if he can carry this point, he will effeekially diminish 
my comibrt, and add to the weight of trial* I am in some 
measure aware of this device, but not enough so ; for I find the 
more I am alone with Ood in meditation aiid self-examination, 
the more clearly I see sdid ground for rejoicing, even in the 
midst of many outward and inward trials which cause heaviness. 
I fear sinking from God, losing any thing I have gained : I 
dread a Laodicemn spirit, and >griefe thatl have so litUe of the 
fruits of ri^hteoosness — that I bring so little glory to God. At 
the^sarae tune, I am out of the world in heart and affection, and 
draw no comfort from its follies and vanities, or e,ven from those 
enjoyments which many sensible people suppose essential to 
happiness. My spirit is so moulded that oat of God I can enjoy 
nothing. My views of God and his beloved Son are clear, but 
they seem like objects discerned by tnoonlight ; there is not that 
warmth resulting from the sight that I am accurtoroed to feel. 
To-day, in the view of sitting down at the taUo of the Lord to- 
morrow, my heart ia lamenting my comparative distance from 
the centre of happiness ; struggling into hiAi, and sweetly drawn 
by a powerful magnetic virtue ;. but still I feet afar off. O to get 
near, and to keep there in constant fellowship. 

— ^- 23. Still it is a season of variegated trial from almost 
enrery quarter. Lately the fiery darts of Satan have been keen- 
ly pointed, and seemed to pierce to my inmost soul. At times 
the X»o»rd gives comfort, shines cleariy into my mind, and all my 
distress appears to vanish :-~the slgr is unclouded, and I feel the 
powerful influence of divine love ; but this pleasing change is of 
short duratioUy-a painful transiticm soon ensues ; the clouds gather 
UacknesS, and my enemies renew tfaeii^ attack \^ith redoubled 
violence. Yet my views of God and Christ ore not ohecnred, 
neither the relation I stand in to both uqperceived ; but, from the 
cruel power of temptalaon and weakness, little comfort is derived 
. Irom it. Jesus hath appeared, and applied that pxedous promise, 
^ Ye ttow faaveaoRow, bat I will aee yon again,. and yoarlMut 

168 £Xf« ^T X>ASrr MAXWrnUs. 

• ahsll r^6iee, and your joy- no man taketh fiA>m yon.^' T would 
gladly infer from this that great and good things stiU await me, 
when these days of sorrow shall have passed away. Hasten 
their departure, holy Father, and/ till then grant that I may be 
properly exercised, that I may afterward find ,the peaeeable firoits 
of righteodsness, 

Aagust 2. For the last eight daya th6 stonn of temptation 
has in a measore subsided, and Christ has felt very nigh and 
precious, clear to' the eye of faith. I have also enjoyed more 

■ comfort in family devotion, and in saeret prater early ia the 
morning. I have now for some months been deeply eti^nvinced 
of my poverty ; may I thereby be taught to live more than ever 
by simple faith in Jesus, and then I know he will supply -my every 
need. My heart is pained within me because I am at too great 
a distance from God : all is either an kching void or severe tempt- 
ation, and yet I do not obtain that fervour of spirit I wish. I 
want to cry mightily to God, and to take no rest till he bring me 
out of trouble, I sometimes fear that I have grieved the Holy 
Spirit ; and when I make a* narrow scrutiny, several things ap- 
pear that I thii|k, perhaps, are displeasing to him ; but yet I am 
not certain. In the time- of severe trial we see things oilea 
through a false medium, and I hreque'ntly an^ at a loss on this 
aeconnt. The light of strong faith only can remove suspicions, 
scatter clouds, and give certainty in doubtful and perplexing 
cases. In whatever state I am, opportunities for usefulness are 
eagerly embraced, though sometimes not attended with much 
comfort to myself. Lately fears of death -have passed through 
my mind, and cut keenly as they darted along. The Lord seU 
dom permits them to stay long, but enables^me to fly from these 
nnbeliering thoughts, and to give them :up to himself. Were I 
in the smallest -degree to give way; to them, they would make 
dreadful havoc in my soul. The keenest distress I feel at pre- 
sent is a degree of uncertainty resf>ecting the -will of God con- 
cerning me, both as it regards soul, body, and outward estate. ■■ It 
appears to me as if the Lord 'intended to make some change ; 
and that, by late and present dispensations, he is seeking to wean 
me from the persons, places, anid things that at present surround 
me : this I leave to him, and jonly desire a sanctified use of all ; 
that in all things I may be enabled to give up my own will to 
him. Coold I but glorify him as I desire, O how would this 
sweeten every cup. 

. -^ 20. A few days utter my last date, I was by my divine 

monitor warned of approaching trials, and found these words im- 

. pressed upon my mind : *^ Keep yourself in the love of God." 
Soon after this my spiritual joy gradually abated, and trials in* 

. creased till they seemed to compass me about ;. to~my own appre* 
hension I had daily less power to resist or overcome them. 

« Thia0 hall been my state for two^ weeks, and stiU so coatiniies. 

At times T^miB ^wi oigli sod nmlM qinmi ■• ; lat be Tiaitt 
only as a transient guest. Thoag:h I etideaTOinred to lely fl^ 
the* promises of afaithfal Ood, my faith in them is not so strong 
as to prevent all fear When the aspect of providence appeaxs 
gloomy or discouraging. Yet, after all I have said, when I sit 
down to examine the state of my soul, ( feel I have eommnnion 
with the Father and the Son.' By ftutfa I see both cleaiiy, bnt, 
through the abundance of outward trials and inward conflicts, I 
reap but little sensible com^nt from it. So tnte is it, that, both 
in things spiritual and Datuml, it is not so much what we possess, 
as that ervfoyment of t7 which God only can give, that makes as 
happy. ^ There seems to be a particular language in his dispen- 
sations of providence and grace toward me for some time past, 
which I do not folly understand. My way jse^ms hid, my patK 
intricate : I see not in several cases-whatis the Lord's will con- 
cerning me, and this certainty grealiy adds to my distress. 

September 2. Two weeks more of my time is elapsed, in 
more distress of 'mind, and anguish of spirit, and afflictiop of body, 
than I can easily express. Surely, Lord, thou dost aH things 
well, whatever I feel, whatever I suffer. Day after day I have 
looked for the turning of my captivity, but in Tain : I have thought 
of the promises of a faitfafnl God, and attempted to comfort my- 
self by trasting in. them :^-I have remembered the days that ate 
past, when I had constant communion with the Father and the 
3on, and walked ander the influence of the Holy Spirit : but all 
this only served to show, in more striking colours, the sad re* 
yerse which I now experience.. Yet Gi>d is faithful, his promises 
cannot fail, and I will trust in him. 

'— — 10. Since my last date the Lord has been carrying on 
his work in my soul by severe outward trials, strong spiritual 
temptations, and deep consolation. The fiery, darts of Satan 
have been keenly pointed, and pierced my inmost sonl ; at the 
same, time, I have enjoyed a more delightful interconrse^with- 
God, even when engaged in the necessary duties of life, than for 
some months past. Ihave been made to see the King in his 
beauty, and the land that is afar off. In reading the Scriptures, 
in family and secret prayer, I h^e fmind God at my right hand, 
and Jesus has been to me a friend sticking closer than a brother ; 
but still I look for greyer things than these. 

~- — 29. A precious day, especially in conversing with the - 
peo^e of God. O how delightful did I find Jesus to my soul 
while speaking of his goodness to me; the place. seemed filled 
with his presence. In secret pra3rer, also, the Beloved of my 
soul condescended to visit me with the rich conununications of 
his love, and by his presence isaAe my closet a delightful para- 
dise. I felt surrounded with thCv^Lofd : — ^heaven sprung up in . 
my soul. O could I be thus ev^r: near to the source of bllaa! 
I xegxetted thai the wosloieai of mf bodf abonld demnd rest. 

fiiil, iiapnr etankgRf wImiiI •bifi. seirve «^ Ctod dajF and nighl« 
witiiont iofluig a nngle moment. Till then, ^Qdulgeot Father, 
«trongthen me in body tuod mind, and cause me daily to inorease 
in love to thee, and in communion witii thee. 

November 4. My ezpecience proves that silence of spirit, 
mnd a constant keeping of |h£ heart with all diligence, tend 
greatly to promote eommanion with God. Let God invariably be 
the objeet of onr supreme affection, and we shall fintf this keep- 
ing of the heart easy and delightful . It costs us no trouble to 
think or «p«ak of those whom we love.. The Lord has been 
teaching me some important lessons this week, and he made me 
traly willing to learn them. One respects self-examination. I 
j>en;eive th^ when I desire to know the true state of my squI, 
^nd for that reason attempt to look narrowly into my. heart, I 
•should begin by acting faith upon Christ, and. upon thejtfomises 
made to Mievers through him, in whom they are all " yea and 
■amen.'* This instantly, brings strength and comfort, more or less, 
into the mind, and thereby greatly facilitates the important work ^ 
of self-examination ; it clears our views, and enables us . to see 
light in Grod's light. Formerly, when attempting to try my state, 
if, on looking into my heart, I did not feel strong love and faith, 
I was discouraged^ and thereby gave the enemy an advantage 
over me, and unfitted mysejif for the work in which I was en- 
gaged. May my God teach ts^ wisdom in all things, bless me 
wiSi a teacluible disposition, n quick apprehension, and a power 
to retain for my own profit every lesson thus taught :^1 wi^h 
abo to be qualified to instruct others ; for as I freely receive. I 
would freely give. 

' 13. Much hindered from, my usual retirement through 
intercQune with Christians, but endeavoured to make it profita- 
ble, and found social prayer delightful. The Lord stilt leads me 
forward in different paths of usefulness, and powerfiiUy inclines 
my heart to emptoy every talent to his glory. Through 
mercy, I feel more rooted and grounded in the ways of God, 
and possess more power lo confess him before Uie world. The 
Lord still: gives me proof after {>roof . of the emptiness of crea» 
ture enjoyment^: and of the fulness, ^reality, and happiness of the * 
things of eternity ; he gives iqeh\ao to feel this^ tliereby not only 
enlightening my understanding and convincing my judgment, 
but. also persuading and inclining my will to pursue spiritual and 
eternal Ejects. ^ 

— ** 83. For some days I have experienced that " God is 
love." I think he is deepening my communion with himself, 
showing me how much nearer I may opme to him, and pointing 
it out in different ways so dearly as to make me astonished at 
my own blindness, that would not^iermit me to seelt sooner. I 
•eannot express how precious 1 have found Jesus for a few of the 
kit days; he Jmik pmauttednoie |e oonrerae with him as a man 

tJtn or uicofr xazwsu.. 161 

with his fHend, to see him dearly Vy faith, and to dttjoy vwael 
nnlon and commnnion with him. My life i» now cne ooBtinued 
resting on him. 

December 2. *' God is good, a strong hold in the day of tronbJe, 
and he knoweth them that trust in him." I have been afflioted, 
but it hath been a gentle visitation^ and not attended with that 
languor I generally fed on these occasions. My God has given 
me to know hitii, as a Ood that hearethinrayer. I have been 
convinced of the great privilegfr of drawing nigh to a throne of 
grace, and desired to improve it. I have found it sweet to give 
Ood my last thoughts at night ; in the moratng, also, when I 
awake, O how delightftil to &d my heart apd affections flowing 
spontaneously to my Lord, while he condeseends to manifest his 
presence. Still my God enables me to act for him virith com- 
fort an'd steadiness ; aiid gives me to enjoy him in conversation, 
meditation, reading, singing his praise, &c. O, to be all that 
€rod would have me. ^ - 

20. My spiritual life is sensibly increased, I feel power- 
fully drawn to a throne of grace, and am constrained to abide 
there. While writing to a Christian friend, Jesos was benignly 
nigh : his name was ks ointment poured forth, and my soul clave 
to him. O to enjoy those unsearchable riches that are in him. 
Some days last week I was uncommonly tempted, and felt very 
weak ; my soul shudders at what I then felt and feared. In 
spite of all the Lord hath done for me, how sOon should I fafl, if 
jtot oontinoally upheld by Omnipotence. Blessed be my God, 
who does not permit these dreadful feelings to continue long. 
Holy Father, deliver me from them, that I may serve thee in 
righteousness and true holiness, without fear, dl the days of my 
life. O when shall I be all I desire ; I would be all love, all 
praise, all meekness,^ — in short, I would be a Iwing image of that 
Ood I serve. I would prove, to the utmost power of sovereign 
grace, all that eleyatibn of mind, all that dignity: of sentiment^ 
all that purity of heart, all that sanctity of manners, which true 
religion inspires. Come, O my God,. impart thyself more fully, 
and enable me to love and serve thee with all the strength and 
peffscti^n tiiat the impefftctum of honaoity will admit. . 

CHAPTER XV.— 1780. 

Lady Mazweirs 'correspondence with Lady Henrietta Hope. 

In tracing the Chrislian odnrse of this eminently pious lady, 
we have hitherto derived our information principdly from her 
Diary. After this period, many of her valuable letters, written 
to a few pious friends, have been preserred ; and we shall new 

103 %t9m ov LABY iuaw%hu 

^adly avail ourselves of this auxiliary aid. From ber Diary* 
we have already learned how she eoinxniu(ied with God and her 
own heart : we have seen her steadily advance in fervent piety 
to God, and in extensive and unwearied benevolence to man. 
Her epistolary correspondence will still, in a measure, pursue 
the same delightful themes ; but it will also enlarge the field of 
observation, and give a prominence to different traits in her lady- 
ship's character, which cannot fail to excite admiration. We 
shall thus behold her, in the relation of a spiritual patent,. sym- 
pathizing in the afflictionsr of her amiable and- pious daughter ; 
and with uncommon tenderness and fidelity, striving, to pour into 
her bosom the balm of consolation. We shall see her exempli- 
fying a friendship founded in religious principle, and inyigorated 
and regulated by the spirit of Christianity. And, while she can- 
not but charm by her delightful familiarity of manner and sim- 
plicity of style, she w^ continue to adnunister instruction on a 
variety of interesting points, both of religious e3f:perience and 
religious practice. 

I^y Henrietta Hope is already known to the reader ; and 
the other correspondents of Lady Maxwell shall -be afterward 
noticed. ^ 

I . - ^ 

Jaquary 14,1780. 

Does mj dear daughter auppose I.want. compliments or pro- 
testations I Indeed I do not. With regard to her> and my inter- 
course with her, my eye is single, and my intention pure : I 
wish the prosperity of her soul, and the return which would give 
me most satisfaction would be^ to.khow that my feeble attempts 
to promote it were not in vain. 

If I could, I would remove your every spiritual malady ; how 
much more willing must your God be to soAke you ^l He would 
have you tp be ! I believe you would wtilingly submit to all 
your present painful sensations, did you believe you were just 
m the way the Lord would have you. Your distress, I know, 
is heightened by uneasy fears that your want of prosperity is, 
partly at least, in yourself. Could I point it out, I honestly 
would, whatever pain you might feel from the discovery. As 
far as I know I think you have a tender conscience* and you 
shun doing vidlence to it : but I am not certain that you have 
not what is tetmed a doubting conscience, and this of itself is a 
source, of much distress that the Lord does not mean we should 
feel : but till I know it is so, I will not say any more about it. 
I think you desire and attennpt,. as far as you know it, to do and 
suffer aU the will of God. I believe you have no confidence in 
the flesh ; that you endeavour daily to take up your cross, and 
deny yourself; if so, why do not you eiyoy more comfort 1 Nay, 

^giw ow LAMT uXMyimti,. 168 

why do jm not " rejoice evermore, pray- withoat oeuing', aind 
in every thing give thanks 1" Were I to say what appears to 
me to prevent it, I would tell you : You do not keep your privi- 
lege;^ in view ; of course, you do not live up to th^ii. You live 
more by sense than by faith. When yoA examine your own 
fetate, your conclusions concerning it are too mueh influenced by 
eVil reasoning. You seek holiness, I fear, as it were, by the 
works' of the law, rftther than by simple faith. You dwell too 
much upon your wants j you are not enough thankful for what 
the Lord has alfeady done for you. The h^te of unbelief is not 
enough subdued ; a degree- of murmuring at times takes place 
(than which nothing, makes greater havoc ia the soul) when 
tempted frdm varioua causes to fretfblness. Though you do not 
give way ter it,- yet you do not strive enough against it: you 
rather sink down into a State of despondency and supineness of 
spirit. These, L think, are some of year hinderanees, which, 
together with a weak and sickly body and a variety of trials, 
bring you into 4ieaviness,'^and press down your soiil ; but be of 
Igooa courage, all shall yet he well. I think you suffer loss also 
from want of intercourse, with lively Christians ; and I believe 
not a small degree of your distress is of that kind which proceeds 
not so much from weakness of faith as from scrupulousness of 
conscience ; yet even this is highly useful in its season. But I 
apprehend this distress, will pass away when you obtain more 
faith and love ; when, you are more rooted and grounded in the 
love of CrOd. There are different sUiges, you kmofw, in the 
Christian life :— >the young men are stronger than the babes ; the 
fathers are stronger than the young n^eo. When you anjoy the 
stability of this matured state you will then be beQer enabled to 
^ keep yourself in the love of God," and to overcome the wicked 
one, that you may quickly experience 4his ! 

I hope the Lord nteans to give you your sister's soul, whateyer 
may he the issue of her disorder. 3he is laid upon my mind in 
prayer, and also my dear daughter^ more than ever. Be not too 
much distressed about not being able to abide ia prayer, on your 
knees ; give it up to tl^e Lord : he can soon remove it, or over- 
rule it fop'good, if he permit it to remain. By being so much 
ftboye stairs you will have fewer things to distress you, and less 
iitigue of body, and, I dare say, prevent colds. May you be 
enabled to improve your situation to the utmost! 

Miss N. has given a yery favourable account of me, I see, but 
BO doubt I haye reason to admire the goodness of my God for the 
health he has given me this severe winter. He knows I desire 
to use that, and dl he bestowa on me, for his glory. Had I a 
thousand lives, I would devote them to Him who has given his 
only Son for me, and permits me to feel the sweet attraction of 
his love very strongly. He is, indeed, the spring of all ray joys, 
and comfort of my brightest days. I dwell continually under 

IM i*um Of LAmr nkxwB*^ 

the eovext of his winga, ud fiod it all ny plea for every Ueaeiiif 
I stand in need of. I am still far behind* but through mercy 
kept hungering and thirsting %ft»t all the purchase of his cross. 
Be encouraged, my dear madam, to fight for the prize, O how 
animaiittg tne prospect of dwelling for ever with the Lord, and 
even here enjoying alb that he has dearly bought, and is fredy 
bestowing on his people! And this belongs to you. What 
should discourage you ! and why with Twng thoughts should 
you disquiet yourself? Will, you reed and pray over the 17th 
and following verses of the Ist chapter of Uy» Ephesians ; also, 
from the 16th to the 18th verse of the. last chapter of ditto % I 
think you will ifind benefit from these scriptures. Be thankfol 
that you obtain comfort in reading the Bible. There are wise 
reasons for the Lord^s varying the means he Ueases to us ; . one 
is, that we may idolize none of them* tiiat we may prize them 
all, not knowing which may have the commission to do us good* 
Now, my dear daughter, 1 commit you to Him who 'Scarries 
the lambs ia his bosom, and gently leads those that are with 
young.*' Your affectionate paxent in Him, D. M. 


JvBuary 25, 1780. 

I regret my dear daughter's tilness the, more, from a fear that 
■he may not have all that attention which is needful as matters now 
stand. But I trust the Lord will .make up every want, and with 
his lore sweeten every dispensation.- May you feel him erer 
nigh ! ( think if you would live more by £uth, yon would enjoy 
more comfort. Insisting upon the direct act of faith, especudly 
mhmk barren, dry*, anc tempted, is often of great use ; it 
strengthens the mind, increases confidence in a fardoning Grod^ 
and frequently brings comfort, by breaking the power of tempta^ 
tion : but this is a lessoa the Lord himself alone can enaUe us to 
learn practically, for it is acting contrary to our feelings, our 
fears, the suggestions of Satan, and the reasonings of unbelief. 
The Lord has already ^one much for you, and will perfect in^ial 
concerns you. 

In order to our spiritual prosperity, it is of great oonseqnenea 
not only to obtain, but to keep, a clear view of our privileges as 
Christians ; and to fix it in our minds that, as all these bleseings 
are purchased for us hy Christ, the Lord intends that we should 
enjoy them, and is pleased when we plead for them, and are ina- 
portunate. He delights in the prosperity of his people. May 
he soon give you to experience the fulness of gospel promises, 
that' you may '* rejoice evennore, pray without ceasing, and in 
every thing give thanks.^' Yon know what satisfaotion this 
would give to^your parent. 

mwB aw LAmr UJOowmiL. 146 

Throagfa the goodness of my God, my health is much hotter 
than usuai, and my mother aha sister are very tolerahle. Lady 
G. was with me On Saturday: looked well, and was in good 
heahh and sprnts. The disagreeable affair of oar heing examined 

im oath about Miss D ^'s money is to happen yerf soon. May 

the Lord gi^e clearness of thought, power of expression, and 
firmness of mind. Some of the lawyers have objected to admit-, 
tang Lady G. or me as witnesses, as they believe we are as mad 
as Miss 1). I. do not expect wo shall be able, by our evidence, 
to. eonvince them that we are not mad ; but we should wish to 
acquit ourselves in a rational manner. 

Your affectionate parent, D. M. 


Edinbuigh, Feb. 7, 1780. Wednesday jnomiag. 

I intended writing a few 'lines to my dear daughter on Monday, 
bat was prevented by beingobliged to ^ entertain grangers*' the 
whole day ; particulars aboiut iphapi I will communicate when I 
obtain as much leisure as is necessaxy to explain matters. Yes- 
terday I was rather unwell, and was obliged to have company- 
both to dinner and supper j^ The latter I shun as much as po8« 
nble; but I find there is no jgeneral rule but what must ocea- 
Monally admit of an exception. In tdl my God is good, and is 
indeed a strong hold in the day of trial and difficulty. Ho 
strengthens me with strength in the initor man ; and when un- 
common exertions are needful, either as head of a family or as 
a Christian, "he giveth power to the f«nt,-and increases strength 
t* them that have no might." '< Who is a God like unto him !" 
MiB faithfulness is a shield and buckler unto me ; because he 
hath eaused me to set my love upon him, therefore he sets me 
up on high. ** O to grace how great a diebtor!" May my life 
praise himi and may you have more eause than erer to adore 
nis goodness. O trust in him with all your heart, and ^ he will 
be as ajlace of hfoad divers unto you," wide and deep. 

But I must not forget what you noticed in your last letter. 
Great attention is to be paid, not only to the commands but even 
to the incUnations of a pafent. I see many inconveniences at- 
tending either your having a maid or wanting one ; but if the 
tiarticinars you are to mentiom to Lord H-*-n do not give him a 
diffinent view of the mafter, I fhncy you will see it as a doty to 
do what will make him easy, and at the same time to do it in the 
war that will give you least trouble. But here I am interrupted* 
and must conelode. The Lord be your teacher in all thrngs, 
and encompass yon about with his favour as with a shidd. 
Your affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M* 

IM hirm ot LAUT kaxws&Xk 


— .- Februwy 88, 178a ' 

I take the first opportunity, after my fktigue of body and mind 
is over, to thaiik my dear daughter for so kindly interesting her- 
self in what conceded her parent. It is ncfw over, the ne\^- 
married couple left me yesterday forenoon, intending to reach 
Greenlaw at night, Newcastle this night ; and Mr. C. promised 
he would not travel on Sunday, though greatly hurried, but 
would go decently to church. This was a piece of wotk in 
which I little e^^ected to be employed ; but' 1 really think the 
Lard put it into my hand, and stirred me up to a most vigorous 
exertion of body and mind, and gave me ^ wonderful measure of 
health. The part I was to take in it was clearly set before me ; 
and it appeared to ihe that religion would suffer, I mean be un- 
justly blamed, if I refused t«r act; so that what I did, I did for 
the Lord^s sake and for religion^s sake, as well as for the con- 
venience of my relations. 

The Lord saw meet to give me favour in Mr. C.'s eyes, so 
that what I said or did was approved. He was anxious to gain 
my approbation. From a littie conversation with him I clearly 
saw the way tjjat was most likely to gain upon him, (I meat^ in 
order to do good to his soul,) and I took my me^isures accords 
ingly, which sueceeded : so that I saw the. effects Of it before he 
left me; he welcomed sdl 1 said upon religioa. The night be- 
fore hfs marriage I wrote him in a polite and kind wa)r, saying 
what I thought was proper on the occasion, and Ssked his ac- 
ceptance, for a place in his library, of Mi'. Robert Walker'** 
Sermons, elegantly bound; and, when time and eircumsfanees 
would permit, begged a serioua perusal of tbem. You would 
have been pleased with bis answer. 

I cannot easily express what I feel for your kind attention in 
sending^ the Bible. I will give paxtieulars after* Do, my dear 
daughter, take your own prudent.way to let pocnr Lady Ann know 
her danger. There is, I fear, no time to lose ; I do not forget 
her, and you are ever on my mind. May all c(mcef ned be com* 
forted, and obtain the sanctified use of what I fear will soon hap- 
pen. O that you may be upheld ! ' Goodness and mercy wiU 
follow i/<m all the days Of your life, and you will, I believe, dwell 
for ever with the Lord. Bear,' then, with meekness and sweet^ 
ness, the trials of life. I never entertained a thought of giving 
you up : I only regret that I do not do you more good. The 
Lord will, perhaps,- make me moie successful for the time to 
come. If wishes and prayers would do, your soul would .^row- 
as a cedar in Lebanon. Might I offer flay best wishes to Lady 
Ann, though unknown ? Tell her I hope much good is intendfiii 
her by her iUness ; that the LcHfd qImqs to ireMi her Hom thv 


woild, and to give her more sobstantiiit blessings ; that I wish 
her to enjoy the love of the Redeemer, through faith in him, 
which will sweeten all her affliction, and carry her above it with 
a holy fortitude. 

To be ready for the footman, I am writing in a great hurry, 
and forgetting many words. Peace be with you. 

Ever your affectionate parent, D. M. 


Monday, March 13, 1780. 

My dear daughter's letter I intended to have answered on 
Satiurday, but was prevented. I asked Mr. W. for the sermon 
you mentioned, and he seeme4 very willing to let me have it, 
but was afraid he could only give me the heads, as it was not 
written, and Miss G. he believed did not hear it. 

I think the, Lord will make up the loss you will sustain by 
your absence on this solemn and sweet occasion. Dr. S. came 
in on Saturday, when I was at Lady L.'s; I see his hopes are 
small of Lady Ann. May the Lord enable you to act toward 
her so as to cut off all future reflections, and greatly bless your 
attempts for her soul's good. Poor Lady G« is not well. She 
wrote me on Thursday that she was in much trouble and per- 
plexity, and begged an interest in my prayers ; to which I re- 
turned as kind a note as I -could, and requested she would let me 
know; if she had the least desire to see me. She has been 
worse since ; but to-day the return of the message is, that she 
is rather betted I intend to calf before I seal this. I fear she 
is meeting' with' some new troubfe about her affair. May the 
Lord direct and guide her ( She has my prayers and sym- 

May lie shine upon your soul, and give you to cixperience the 
stability and matuHty of a father in Christ. It is your privilege 
to grow in grace ; and, though some sitnations may appear more 
fiivourable than others for this growth, yet we may be morally 
certain that, in every lawful situation, whatever its hinderances, 
or how many soever its difficulties, the grace of God is sufficient 
to enable' us to^inall these heights and depths of conformity 
to the divine image it is his will we should attain. This is a 
comfortable thought. But we may go still farther, and rest 
satisfied that our present situation is what He t^at cannot err 
sees best calculated for our spiritual prosperity. This does not 
imply that we are never to make the least alteration in it. No: 
a good man's ways are ordered by the Lord ; and he appoints 
sometimes a variety of changes for him in the course of his life, 
and what he appoints he means for our good. You seem par- 
ticularly called to live by faith. This is a difficult life, but it 
brings, perhaps, more glory to God than if you walked alvayeJA 


tbe broad li^t of Ins eounteiiance, laving in Ms wiU is Uie • 
great point, whether we have much or Uttle comfort. ^ 

I am pleased with what you write me ^ Lady H. I still hope 
that things will terminate well there. May you be faithfcd. 
Lady L. D.'s death was truly affecting. 

" So pass the shadowy scenes of hfe away." 

All flesh is grass, but how permanent are the blessings which 
Christ has purchase^ for his people ! |{ow durable his love ! 
How sweet ! O what a soul-satisfying portion is lie ! AU fulness 
dwells in him. May you richly prove this. Ever believe me, 
my dear daughter, 

Your affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M.- 

P. S. Margaret Johnston left the school 13th March. Had 
a Bible. Thcmgh not fully taught, y«t very tolerably so. She 
has gone to her uncle in the west, from tlie necessitous circum- 
stances of her parents. . / ^ . 


March 17, 1780. 
I would, he&ae now, as I promised^ have wri^en to my dear 
danghter ; but since Friday se^nnight I have not been so well,^ 
and have had more writing than usual upon my hands. At pre- 
sent I can spare but a few minutes to regret your want of health, 
and to assure you of my best wishes and prayers for your spiritual 
prosperity.. Your situation, I kjww, just now is trying on seve- 
ral accounts : hut you khow who i» with you ; you know where 
your strength lies, and how welcome you are to use it. Then 
fear not ; Only believje. In pro^rtion as yOu do, you yirill love 
and, obey ; and though you are not yet all you would be, sove- 
reign grace can easUiy e^eet it. Despise not the day of small 
thin^f at the same time be determined not to rest short of any 
blessing Christ baa purchased for yoiv Use all the grace yoa 
have^ this is the best way to obtain more. be faithful ! ]^ear 
nothing but sin : desire nothing but God. , Thus fortified, yoa 
shall go on steadily ; thus emptied, you shall be filled with the 
fulness of Him that filleUi all in all. Stagger not at the promises 
through unbelief : be strong in faith ; and do not reason, ^ If 1 
am a child of God, why am I thus]" But, "I am a child. of 
God, therefore whatever is amiss in me shaU be rectified ; what- 
ever is lacking shaU be supplied. In order hereto I am exhorted 
to pray always ^ and never taint." Be firequent and fervent at>a 
throne of grace ; pray as you can, and when you can, and strive 
against every hinderance. . Thus doing, rest assured that the 
Lord, whom you seek, will suddenly come to the temple of your 
heart, and there sit as a refiner, and cleanse the blood he has not 
oleansed. Then shall you feel his sanctifying power in a greater 
meamre than you have hitherto experienced, and sweetly prove 

tiiat perfei^ lore eastetli oat oil feai. O that it migfat be mh»! 
Look for it now ! ' 

When I began this I meant only two qx three lines, intending 
the enclosed to supply my lack of service ; but in ^speaking or 
vriting to you I always find much matter suggested, I trust by 
the Lord himself, ^nd hope that the effects of both will prove 
it BO., You see the goodness of the Lcnrd in the accounts of 

the Alcide — ^what cause for thankfulness ! Lady B , I hear, 

is well. I spent mmch time and used many words yesterday to 
prevent Miss — — going to a ball of Lady W— — ce's, to which 
she had unhappily been engaged. I thought it would hurt her 
character, and be productive of very bad consequences. Before 
she left me she promised faithfully she would send her apology ; 
but this only to you, as it would be a pity that her intentions should 
transpire. This is a bad place, at present, for young people. 

My mother, I have reason to be thankful, is tolerable. All is 
now quiet ; and, upon a retrospective view, though I have much 
eause to remark the goodness of the Lord, I feel equal cause to 
regret that I have riot been more, faithful. Even this evil my 
God generally turns to my advantage, by making it a spur to 

f eater activity and faithfulness against the next opportunity, 
long to live more for God. Of late be has given me iriany 
occasions of acting for him, and it is truly my meat and drink in 
this respect to do his will. O to live for eternity. Eternity ! 
it is an. awful thought ; let us ever keep it in view ; then shall 
•we live as we ought.^ 

I must now cpncliid^^, after saying it some time ago occurred 
to me, that my letters, from being alwajrs on one subject, and 
•written with many interruptions, must certainly be fiill of repe- 
titionsj though you do not say so. . 

May the Lord enable you " to rejoice evermore, to pray •with- 
out ceasing, arid in every thing to give thanks," which will give 
much satisfact^n to, my deat daughter. 

Your affectionate parent in tlie Lord, D. M. 


March 25, 1780. 
How is my dear daughter 1 — ^pressingforward, I hope, in the 
good way, though hinderances strew all her road ? No difficulty, 
no danger, need retard our progress heavenward ; sin only, that 
aQCursed thing, robs us Of our peace, keeps us back, and inter- 
rupts that sweet communion it is our privilege to enjoy •with the 
Father of our spirits. I trust you are kept looking to Jesus, 
and feel power to east all your burthens upon him, and to com- 
mit all your ways to him in well doing. If so he will sustain 
.you, he will not suffer you to be moved^ Lean upon him, live 
Dy him, delight in him — and-he will give you the desure of your 
heart. And what is that ! I know it is conformity to your 


living Head,-*--a power in aH llringB to adorn the gosi>el.. And is 
not this the will of God concerning you ? Undoubtedly it is. 
With what holy boldness theft may you {dead at a throne of 
grace for this self-same thing, and be importunate with Gpd ; 
and though in so doing you may be obliged to wrestle, not only 
against flesh and blood, but also against spiritual wickedness in 
high places, yet be not dismayed ; the Lord says, ** Have not I 
commanded thee \ be strong, be not afraid, for the Lord thy God 
is with thee." Believe me, it is your privilege to say, — 

" I fear no denial, no danger I fear, ' 
Nor start frpm the trial while Jesus i» near." 

And if you cannot plead thus tfolcUy, be not discouraged : though 
often only able to ofifer your feeble petitions with^oanings that 
cannot be uttered, yet these will find acceptance for the dear Re- 
deemer's sake ; he will not cast out the prayer of the desti- 
tute ; God is said to put the tears oT his people into a. bottle. 
What encouragement to those that are of a fearful heart ! Jesus 
says, " Come unto me, all ye that are weary and heavy-laden, 
^nd I will give you rest." He oarries the lambs in his bosom, 
and gently leads those that are'^w;ith young; those who are 
oppressed, tempted, tried, grieved. Wliat can we ask or wish 
more ? Only an increase of faith to believe all the Lord hath 
said. May my dear daughter be blessed with this,, and made to 
rejoice in the free, the full salvation of Jesus. 

I feel him precious, my soul delights itself in him, I find my 
supreme happiness consists in union with him. O what bless- 
ings are consequent upon it. He often permits me to lean upon 
his bosom ; " I taste his love, and cast the world behind," but 
still " for closer communion I pine." " For greater conformity to 
lipi I love my heart breathes ardently. 1 now make no apology 
for touching a little upon the Lord's goodness to my own soul, 
as r have told yom my motive.. 

I spent about three hours with Lady G. oil Thursday ^vening,^ 
when many grievances were talked and prayed over, as usual, 
except one; this I avoided; she is much better. I had an 
agreeable interview this week with a lad who was formerly at 
our school. He left it fully taught, and went to sea, where he 
has been for some time : he came from Dunbar (where his ship 
lies) to see his parent. He reaUy promises well. May the 
Lord own that little seminary more and more. I hope Mr. C. 
was enabled to be profitable, and that you are supported and 
comforted under your fatigues about Lady A. May the Lord 
hear the prayers put up for her, and sweetly draw her heart and 
affections to himself; and be with you on his qv^ day ; so prays, 
my dear daughter, 

Your affectionate parent, 


x.xm or &ADT UAXWKLU vn 


April 16, 1780. 

I intended to write sooner to my dear daoghter, but the kind- 
iieee of Chrietian friends {Nrevented it ; and now I am obliged to 
give a good deal of my time to my little charge^* as I sincerely i 
desire, nnce the Lord has sent her here, that her atay may 
answer some important ends. 

I was pleased to receive a few lines from yoa, but beg yoo. 
will never take up your pen on my account, unless when you caH 
eonTeniently, and when you wish it on ypur own, ae I am fully 
convinced your time is thoroughly occupied at present. Your 
labour of love wiU be sweetened by a belief of your being ^pi* 
ployed agreeably to the will of your heavenly f^ber ; but see 
that you do not lay greater burdens upon yourself than your 
body can bear. Tou have my daily prayers for strength, com- 
fort, and a blessing upon yOur attempts iot the spiritu^ benefit 
of her so particularly committed to your care. May ihe Lord 
perfectly reccmcile you to his holy will in this severe dispensa^ 
tion, and enable ywi cheerfully to give up your dear sister to 
him ; who can not only give her a very gentle dismismon fhnn 
mortality, but put a songof praise into her mouth for the comfort 
of surviving fuends. This he hi entreated to do. May he keep 
your in perfect peaee, and through the abundance of his love raise 
you above every painful sensation. . 

Affliction, more or less, is the lot of all God's people. It is a 
piece of necessary discipline for us while in the bpdy, but if it 
works for us *^ a far more exceeding and eternal weight o£ 
glory," have we any cause to com|4ain ! Especiafiy when, in 
the meantime, we are supported and ofiten comforted. I trust 
*he is teaching ycm many useful lessons in the fornace, so that 
yon shall find c^use to praise him both in time and in eternity. 
It is a great privilege to glorify God in the fires. This favour 
he conrers upon you now : O that you may see it in this light, 
and be enabled to fall in with his gracious designs ; showing to 
all around you that the will of, jfoor God is so precious to you, 
you can sacrifice every thing to it. It is only the power of 
sovereign grace that can efifect this in the human heart. The 
natural m^ oj^oees it with all his might ; but the soul that is 
truly devoted to God, while it keenly feels in the tenderest part, 
enjoys a sacred pleasure. In this costly sacrifice you can say 
with the poet,— 

** As those we love Aeevff we die in part, 
Staring after string is sever'd from toe heaif 

But yon can ako say,— 

** Though duty does not call, 

I love my God with such a love 
"* That I would give him aU.** 

• A nieoe of Lady HazwelTs. 

I9B une or LAinr HAxwmt. 

When 70a find it can he feceirsd, gitemy best wishes to Lady 
Ann, Und tell her she has daily an interest in my feeble petitions 
ibi every Metsiitg^har prmmt ai^^ 

See that yob ptsf some attention to yomrseli; for the L<»d^ 
nte^ and fot hh worlds sake : do n<M b^ y6nr bmrthena afone. 
Jesus in wiRing to bear them ilir yott; nmke ttse of tbis great 
priTUege. Lady G. was with xae on We dtte e dw r» wimi lire bad 
s veiylVee and tnemStyeokrenk^Kifa: 8nd in merto Ibnn a 
fOfpae jQdgfmeat in a matter en which she wished to tatre my 
epittiott, I had to mention a subject onwhi^h Ihaire been sDent for 
•ome time ; bet it was done in a way tiiat gmre both of as maoh 
ksilHdnthaBfiiscwI. To the tender c^ure irf'ottr great High Priest, 
whose connMions fail not, I comintt my ^ar daugliter, and re* 
aaah) Imp sneetionate parent in Jesiis, 


Friday afcemoon, Aprill^I, 17.80. * 

I began a letter to my dear daughter on WednesdaT, but 
oeald not get time to finish it. T^mrsdaybeiiig fast day at 
Leith, I was thereby prevented wnting, and to-day determined 
to s^nd her a few hncs. Miss N. came to me early in thelbre* 
Booa, with the (shall I say) melancholy intimation of yom dear 
sister's dismission from morfsdity. She seemed so al^seted by 
it, I had to koep her a long time with n^. Bat O how nmch 
mercy is mixed ^th this painful dispensation t How literally 
has the Most High answeied die prayers put uptohim foryoiup> 
■elf and the dear saint now in glory. Tour letter, together with 
other k^ircumstances, leaves me no room to donbt of the place tti 
her eternal abode. 

O hew good is God in giTing you strength to go Uiroagh the 
iatigiies of attending a' sick and dying bcMl ; in giving yon 
gifaoe to be faithful to the interests of an immortsd soul ; in 
•ttacfaing her so much to you, and thereby more powerfully 
inclining her to listen to you; utid at last, not only giving you 
Iter sool, but enabling her to leave some evidence of its safe^ 
§or the comfort of surviving friends. May gratitude fill your 
heart, and praise employ your lips. May her aged parent be 
Mpported mider the heavy stroke, and, by the blessing of the 
Moat High, fkid the fruits of righteousness brought forUi by it. 
I feel for Lady B. ; may she enjoy suitable support. 

And now, my dear daughter, suffer maternal tenderness to sug- 
gest a few hints. In your dear sister's afiliction you were ena^ 
bled to manifest Christian fortitude and patience ; mn<^ sweet 
resignation will now be expected from you, — glorify your God 
by showing it. Let all around yon see that your God liveth^ 
and that as He is the object of your euperiative love^ no earthly 
loss can dry up the spring of yoor consoUiioD, or make yoa 

urs or tABY VAxwv^ji. 119^ 

» at bis wdL Id tih^ time of prief we u« ajiC « 
•c^lecC the body ; but 09 these occa^ioiu a propei; attention to it» 
fyt the Lord's ^e. is one proof of resignation to his diviiie <M% 
poealfl^ See thajt yon dwell above, . W^ yon meditate oa yjoiHT: 
deaz: departed aister^ lo<^ not ^wn to tho g^ye;. the ibn^en 
i^iritiialises and elev^ites the 9(foii the latter, 4epresaee, it. aio4 
m^ the spi<]^ O^e stream of earthly comfort is cot o$^e| 
your bM^ BOW apply Ia the fyuuUi^ ; wi n^ty yon mitch, mcw» 
than ever find 4esas ^a. ^notA tk^t sticl^eth closer. li^ ^, 
brother.*^ At present your body and mind are worn 9gt, li^t^ 
fiitigae ^^— impose no le^g ^ zigofoua serf icea. upon either; 
neither be surprised if yon find for a time little streecth jni) tp» 
oM 4Mr power of «tte»tm in the oiher)^ Be mueh ia belieyliig* 
kMk to JTesusy and seleet partwnler and eoi^Me paMigei ii 
Soriptnca for^yoor woMnataom* Thk will (^wtfoi^ and ^^ei^m^ 
the mind, which will be too apt to dwell on 4me theme \f Is/StJn 
its choice. May your pace heavenward be>iuch quickened; 
may the Lord continue his goodness to^ yon, and thereby enable 
you to comfort others : manv eyes will be upon yoa U pzesqnty 
who» I hope^ will reap henem fltW your example. 

From want of tioie to tfaiuk ai)[d write acctirateiy, iioB 1$ 4 
Very coufiise^ and hasty prodqetioa; but flows from a heart de- 
•jrous of conveying comfort to a beloved daughter^ whose sp- 
ritual prosperity is dear to her affectionate parent in Jesus, 

Apijl 26, 1780C 
I doubt net my dear charge finde eow^ as formerly, ths^t he; 
God hath not brought her Inte th^e thorny pailh to ej|ay her; b^|; 
to prove her, tq try her, ai^d to do her geocf^ 

God is. good in ail his dispensations, e<]^HaUy so when, he takee 
as when he givea. Trials aonieti,mea bring ns into heavineea; 
but even then the soul may be prospering. The. re^Greshing 
showers are as needful .for roe health and, growth of! 1^, plant 
as the warm beams of the. inidday aua : and though aa. iiiter^ 
Tening oloud f<Nr a time ma^ prevent, his ehining, ye^ still he 
foee on ; he rans steadily ms i^ppainted circuit, tu Uk;e,iiia|i7i 
mfij the soul, though for a season^ if qeed be, isij^ Ijeavi^ieae, 
and the clouds of option in a degiee obscure the bnght lig)^ 
of Qo^'s eounteaance, yet sheataqds not still, her motion hea» 
venward continues. Thia is a comfortable though^, aql^ we 
^lould qteditate in the dark and cloudy day. I hope 
the Lord wiU bnng y^ou ijiearer to himself by this tml4 tl^ 
your gaiii will be great. May he save you nam all coi4|iess 
of afiectioo, from all djsaipsjtion of miqd, fVom every unneces^ 
nary desire ; and in the pursuit of more of the divine lite, i^ay. 
he gi^e you t^ e^ioy those Ueisisinga ^e ^oM kno9r& ntjitofiTrf 
iheae last I tjnily proye. But X must conelode. 

174 X.I7E or ^ADY MAXWXI.L« 

Both my mother and sister are confined to bed ; I am bless^ 
with wonderful health, and in tender mercy the Lord has pot a 
keener edge than ever upon my spirit to lite whoOy to himself^ 
to watch continually unto prayer, and to pray that I may watch. 
I am also Uessed with a deeo consciousness uf my continual 
shortconungs : — ^how good is God ! When yon can write' easily 
I shall be gla^ to know how you do; My little charge has not 
been weQ, but is better. TKat yon may *^ rejoice evennore, 
pray widiout ceasing, and in every thing giro thadcs/^ is the 
desirO of 

Tour affectionate parent in the Lord,. D. M. 


P. S. Poor Wffliam has been lE these i^ven days. In tiw 
midst of so nmch bodily adfliction in ther fainily, what matter 
of thankfiilBess that I am from health eaabted to mtniiter unto 
aHl . 


April, nw. 

I would have inquired after my dear charge's prosperity be- 
fore now, but my £eiBOLily has increased by the addition of my 
eldest brother and his daughter. This, together with heaa- 
aches, has kept me silent,, though not forgetful of one who is 
often the subject of thought and prayer. May He whom of 
late more than ever I have proved the hearer and answerer 
of prayer, renter the daOy petitions put up for yon by your 
parent in the Lord, and in his own time, which is the best, 
answer them ; then all your s[piritual complaints will be banished. 
God shall be unto you as a place of broad rivers, wide and ^eep, 
and you shall walk with him^ Enochlike : and, as the king^s 
daughter, be all glorious withm. Rest assured this is the wiQ 
of your heavenly Father concerning you ; plead his promises, 
beheve his word, and you i^aH feel it : be of good courage, 
" delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give yon the desire 
of your heart ; commit thy way unto him, and he shall bring it 
to pass.'' I heard a profitable sermon on these words last night : 
and on Wednesday evening one from, " Who h this that comelii 
up from the wilderness, leaning on her Beloved ?" O, if I could 
convey to you the happiness I ez^rienced under it ! The Lord 
was present of a truth ; I sat under his shadow vidth defi^t : his 
ihiit was more than sweet to !ny taste, while he appeared alto- 
gether lovely, and gave me powerfully to feel ^e attractions of 
redeeming love. May you feel him thus nigh, when you read 
of his undeserved kindbiess to your parent. 

But I fear, in your present trying situation, the enemy witt 
whi«»er hard things of God. O believoLhim not, but though you 
should be tried to the uttermost, from without and from within^ 
sliU trust, and believe all is well and wisely ordered ; that though 
** weeping may endure for a night, joy cometh ia the momiBg :** 


t\m yoa are warnmted to beliere, because y<ra lore God, and are 
daily endeayoaring, through faUh in Jesus, to do and suffer all 
his holy wiH : iAxe present dispensation calls for the latter in an 
eminent degree ; may you feel constant resignation, and be ena^ 
bled to say, It is the Lord, let him do what s^emeth him good.'^ 
This temper will glorify him, and increase your owi! comfort, 
and also maJce you more useful to others. I know not whether 
i¥hat I now write suits the present frame of ydur mind ; I shafl 
be glad if it does, and still more so if it alfbrds the smallest 

I took a long airing, on Thursday with Lady G. ; she was 
poorly, both in body and mind ; our intercourse was free and 
sweet. My little niece, seems a fine girl, but will require much 
attention and care. O that I may be faithful and successful. I 
felt reluctant to the charge, from different causet ; but I look 
upton it as a piece of work given me to do by the Lord, and, as 
snch, would sweetly submit. She has been much indidged, and 
mostly brought up with her brothers, which has given a mascu- 
line tincture to her manners, and strength, and self-will ; yet she 
seems inclined to liat^i to me. A gilt Turkey Bible has pro- 
cured me some influence with her ; which I hope will increase ; 
to my daughter I am thus particular. I think you hare been 
of U80 to Mrs. H. , 

May you be strengthened with strength from on high, in body 
and mind, and be kept in perfect peace in the midst of many 
trials, and to-morrow feel the word ,6f your God, spirit and life, 
in private and secret ; and also be blessed with the gift of con- 
vincing speech. So praysy my dear daughter, 

Yoor affectionate parent in tl^ best of bonds, - 

Saturday. D. M. 


Taymouth, Sept. 4, 1780. 

I did not mean to write to you till I heard from you ; but I am 
importuned to do it by this post, that you might apply to Lord 
Hopetown in favour of Mr. x ., for the parish of Bathgate, va- 
cant at present by the death of Mr. W. I make no doubt it is 
engaged already, as he has been in a dying state for s6me time. 
Dr. W. and Dr. H. seem to have it much at heart to provide 
•for Mr. Y. I believe he is a good man, and inight answer very 
well in a small quiet parish. I suppose all the advantage that 
would accrue from an application just now to Lord Hopetown, 
would be an opening for preferment on some future occasion,, if 
he be properly recommended :.I mean by persons not suspected 
' of enthusiasm. 

I should be glad to heat how you made out your journey, and 
how Lady G. has been since. Vou have both enjoyed aU that 


air and exisrcifle can do for^you this aammer ; I hope both wiH 
be benefited by it. 

I move on hei:e in my confined sphere, with little of either ; 
but it is the sphere of present duty, and that makes it pleasant. 
It is a great privilege to be permit^d to smooth, in any degree, 
the pa£ of old age^ to attend the dying bed, and to attempt to 
lessen the distresses of that painful period.' that at last my 
dear parent may have a gentle dismission from mortality, with a 
bright setting sun. 

I have been much distressed with the toothache since you went, 
even to agony ; but cannot express how much o£ the presence oi 
Jesus I enjoyed at the same time ; indeed- it beggars all expres- 
sion, for faith seemed lost in sight^ and hope in full fruition. O 
what a friend does the believer enjoy in Christ ! What cause 
have I to praise him ! ^ . 

"My God, the spring of all my joys, 
The life of my delights ? 
The glory of my brightest da3r8, 
And cbmfbrt of my nights.*' 

Truly I may say so ; but I want more oF his image, more of his 
mind, more ef his Spirit : my heart pants for more power to 
promote his cause, to live to his glory. I make no apology for 
writing thus freely of myself; you ktiow I mean by it to iead 
you to admire ^e BestiWfer, not the enjayer; to increaaO' your 
love to him, and trust in him. But that you may- not suppose 
my joys are without any alloy, I must add, I have endured most 
severe inward conflicts, which even the sensible presence of 
Christ could not remove. Indeed, it made him more precious 
to me ; I found my own weakness, and that without him I ^ould 
have been consumed in a moment by the power and malice of 
my foes. With love to Lady G. and & maternal blessing to 
Lady H. H., I continue, while 9he wishes it, her affectionate 
parent in Jesus, . D. M. 


Tuesday, September 19, 1780. 
I have not been able till now to inform my dear daughter that, 
on Sunday morning, the 17th, between twelve and one^ I lost 
my dear parent.* From indisposition of body, and want of 

* On this mournful occasion. Lady Maxwell made the following entiy 
in her Diaiy :t^ 

" September 27. Words cannot express what I hare gone throudii since 
last date. It has been a time of great outward distress, occasioned l^ the 
death of my much loved and most affectionate parent. Her advanced 
years, and an affliction of some months, might have prepared me for her 
dissolution. In a meaaure I was led to apprehend it, yet \^hen it came it 
was truly painful to endure. My judgment and I hope my will acquiesced ; 


arqier tisc»olleetioii, I bsniiot enter into particalam. Xfy mtm 
has felt keenly ; and though I hope my judgment and will acqui- 
esoed in the dispensatioB^ yet there was a great straggle between 
nature and grace. She, 1 troet, i& with the Wd« 

** Her la&^ishin^ head ift at rest, 
- Its thmiiiiiig and aching are o'er ; 
The quiet, immovaUe breast 
Is heaved py affliction no more : 
l_ The heart is no longer the seat 

Of trouble and torturing pain ; 
It ceases to flutter and beat, 
It never sh^ flatter a^ain." 

These words have passed so often through my mind since 
Sunday, that they have flowed almost unintentionally from my 
own pen. Farewell ! Remember me to Lady G. and believe me. 
Your affectionate psfrent in Jesus, 

■ f ■ Edinburgh,, NoTeniber 4, 1780. 

I foond mr dear daughter's letter last night on coming home. 
i had intenaed going to Glasgow on Wednesday for diflferent 
leaaons, \ftA wins taken ill on Tuesday morning, and confined for 
. «ome days, which. prjBvented. it. 

Could Z with propriety have avoided it, I would not have eome to 
town. this^ winter. There is a sad l^ank in my house, and my 
dear mother^s image is ever present with me. 1 mourn inward- 
ly for her, yet I trust I am resigned to the dispensation that de<- 
ptived me of her. Yes, I think the LcNrd did. well a^d. wisely; 
and I also think I do not grieve his Spirit in feding the loss of 
a moch, loved parent. Praised, be my God, I can believe she 
is with Christ. 

I had much retirement in the country, and I trust good was 
4one to othors. I took Romaine with me, and kept him diligent 
' itt visiting the sick, giving money to the poor, instruction to the 
^orant, distributing books, and exhorting and examining on 
Sunday evening8,*--and you would be jBurprised with his tajents. 
Sometimes wo had seventy or eighty hearers. They show a 

but my feelings revolted. Nature felt keenly ; aftd, what fadded ^fttly to 
my sorrow, she was not able, when near death, to speak to the gloir of 
€^ to triumph over all her doubts and fearS. Yet I eannot doabt of her 
eternal happiness. She sweetly resigned her breath without sigh or groaaa, 

' ' ""' r that sleep 

I oversprea 
: my health has also -suffered; my spirits and nerves have been 
mueh affected. O that I may glorify God under this bereav _ 
tion t I attempt to roll my burthen upon him, and believe he will not 
suffer me to be materially moved^ The surface of my soul is much aa- 
tated, but at bottom are the grounds of safety, comfort, and joy, as usnaL 
The present is a season of neariness through manifold temptations. O 
tttat Imay be brought ont of them all as gold tried in the fiw P' 



wonderfbl desire lo be imtnicted, thons^, I am marj to mj tC» 
there is the most inconceiyaUe i^orsnoe amcNig tfaenr. 

am mach harried this moTniii|r, and hare oidy time t» eagr 
that I hope your soul and body are better* I thiak yon shouM 
come in, unless you see solid reasons against it; if so, you wiU 
not be a loser by your stay. The Lord direct you in all things, 
prays your affectionate parent, ~ D. M. 

r. S. I am better ! Jesus is with job ; yet it is a season of 
temptation of various kinds. 


Edmbargh^ November 15, 1790, 
I wished and intended to write my dear daughter on Tuesday, 
but was prevented &om different causes, which I regret because 
I think she is rather low at present, and I fear temptation is pre- 
vailing. Why are you cast down 1 Why is year sool disquieted 
within youl If you are in heaviness through manifold tempts^ 
tions, you know this is permitted by your heavenly Fatheirfor 
wise purposes : and, by his blessing, I hope it will fwodtice sadu* 
tary effects. _ 

There are two observations made by^ that good mm Halibur* 
ton, which I think are applicable to yoor case, so &r as I know 
it. They are, '^ tha^ we must never judge of our state by what 
we feel in the time of distress and heaviness. That in order ta 
form a just estimate either of ourselves or o&ers, we must ba» 
lance the present grace with' the present temptati&i^^ otherwise 
we shall always undervalue it.'' i ou have lately, I see by your 
letters, had sevejre trials, both, perhaps, outward and inward. 
Now if the grace which was given you enabled yon to sustain 
them without murmuring against God, it was greater, upob th» 
whole, than that which before enabled you to rejoice. I am not 
surprised that these pressures weigh down your soul, and in a 
deg^e darken ^t for the psesent ; and though yon should even 
lor a season lose the direct ^tness of justification, it will not be 
long till the Sun of righteousness break out again and shine bright 
upon our soul — perhaps to-day^ perhaps while you read tiiis ; 
for he is a God at hand, and, not afar off*. Bat take care that 
you do not grieve bis Spirit by indulging gloomy thoughts. 
^' Man was not bom in shades to lie." Arii^, and shake your* 
self from the dust ; what strength you have, use it for God, and 
he will increase it : work your work by times, and in his time 
he will give you a full reward. 

Never be afraid of hurting me by any 4hing you impart to 
me ; always write and speak freely when jyou wish it ; perhaps 
reading the enclosed may animate and comfort you. 
' The liord will, I hope, make up your loss in not getting in on 
this solenm occasion ; it is a precious ordinance. Can the anni^ 


ef time or leeordf of Iptonr produee saeh aa uislaiiee of Ioto I 
Th^ Lord of glory dying (or sinful man ! 

" "O Lamb of God, was ever pain, 

Was ever lovo like thine." 

Lady G. is looking wonderfully ^ell, and is in good spirita. 

I have set a small subscription on foot just novr for my chair- 
man, John Thompson, who has lost his all by fire on Sunday 
last, except the clothes he had on, and bis chair. May I put 
down your name for a small matter 1 — I have been confined 
since Sunday night with a cold, but not to bed. I hope your 
maid tarries with you. With maternal afioction I remain, my 
dear daughter, 

Your parent in the Lord, 


Saturday, November 25, 1780. 

Though feeble and languid from yesterday's affliction in my 
headland stomac)), I wish to write you a few lines, as I see by 
your letter that you are very low. I think, from what you write 
me, it {HTOceeds partly, if not altogether, from your body. No- 
thing so weakens the jbody^ and of course the nerves and spirits, 
as the complaint you mention. I hope by proper care, and the 
blessing of the Most High upon the means used, all will be set 
soon to rights again. I .hope you take light and nourishkig 
things : jellies, strong broths, chocolate, &c., &c. If your 
stomach will digest it, a bit of solid food, with some glasses of 
red port ; if too heavy cold, physicians say that a small portion 
^ of waniL water put to it makes it lighter for a weak stomach, and 
still more nourishing. I am glad you are able to go abroad : take 
care of cold. endeavour to be sweetly resigned to the will of 
your God, whatever aspect it wears ; he means all should work 
for ycmr good.- Do not dwell upon disagreeable events, either 
past or present ; consider how much worse things might be, and 
from thence draw matter of thankfulness. 

Parting with a dear friend, after five months' sweet enjoymenty 
would no doubt try your tender feelings ; but remember how un- 
^xpectedly God bestowed such a long time of comfort, and rather 
thank him for it, than mourn inordinately when separated only 
for 41, time firom your friend ; and do not forget that wherever you 
are the eternal God is your refuge — underneath you are his ever" 
lasting arms. How safe, then, and how privileged ! And though I 
confess the want of a Christian friend to speak to when in trou- 
ble is a great privation, yet you must remember, Jesus is ever 
with you. In all your evictions he is afSicted ; he is a friend 
thatsticketh closer than a brother ; his ear is open to your every 
prayer.; he hears your sighs ; and if it can afibrd you any con- 
solation, remember you have an affectionate parent, within a few 

180 LIF8 or LADV MAXWXLt. 

miles, who wishM to give yon every proof in her power of her 
maternal love. 

Lady G. was with me on Wednesday^ she looked well and in 
good spirits, and much satisfied with her intended jonmey. She 
said she had had a headache for some days ; bat her looks ^id 
not indicate any complaints. I saw her iq the morning after she 
was in the chaise, and she looked well and cheerful; had a fine 
day, and was to be at Selkirk at night, at Longtown- on Friday, 
and Penrith on Saturday; JMr. J. goes that length with her. 
Mrs. N. is just gone, after sitting an hour with me ; she also is 
well and in good spirits. I have just received your letter ; am 
happy to see by it you are better, and I hope that you will wax 
stronger and stronger in body and soul. The guinea was most 
unexpected ; please io return gratefiil respects. -The Lord has 
wonderfully succeeded. my little attempt for the, chairman. 

Your fears are caused by the weak state of your spirits and 
nerves, and also your bad dreams. I am no stranger to either, ^ 
especially distressing dreams. An increase of fai& and love is 
the best recipe. Keep your mind easy ; be not too rigorons in 
your exactions from either mind or body at present. Your path 
of duty, just now, is to suffer the -will of God ; when hfe gives 
you more health aoid strength he will expect you should do it : 
rest satisfied he will never try you above what you are able. 

It is by no means an uncommon temptation to becast down, 
instead of being animated by bright examples of the power of 
God. I myself have formerly felt it; but strive against it. 
And now, my dear daughter, farewell. May the Lord disap- 
point all your fears, and exceed your expectations, prajrs 

Your affectionate parent in Jesus, > - D. M. 


Edinburgh, December 6, 1780. 
I was afraid my dear daughter's silence was owing to her situa^ 
tion being no better than when she wrote before, and am^ sorry to 
see my suspicions have been too just. I have no doubt but all 
is in mercy, and am equally certain that the Lord will not try 
you above what you are able, because he hath said it ; neither 
will he, 1 trust, permit you to bring any reproach upon his holy 
Aame. "Resignation '\& what he chiefiy callfe you to at present, 
withont reasoning upon what is past, present, or to come. Pray 
for a silent spirit. Say not, " Why is it thus ?" But, " Lord, 
what thou wilt, and how thou wilt, only make me sdtogether 
thine." This is what you wish, and this is the wfU of God con- 
cerning you. How often have you prayed for this I and if the 
Lord is taking: his own way to answer your prayers, and carry 
on his work in your soul, should you not be satisfied V At pre* 
tent, I> am persuaded, the 8t«te of your nerves afid spirits is the 

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csOBe Of most of yonr disttess : the fbnner being out of order 
clouds the mind, depresses the spirits, unhingfss th^ whole frame, 
cuts asander the sinews of all active endeavours, either for the 
present woi^ld or futurity, iacapacitates for just reasoning either 
with ourdelves or others, -and often leads to the most Erroneous 
conclusions. On all these ucconnts, there is not only a propri- 
ety in but necessity for avoiding all investigation or examinati<m 
of our spiritual state till the sky clears; and the clouds scatter, 
and the nerves and spirits have recovered their proper tone. 
The Lord, I hope, will bless the means you are using for this 
end. I am sorry you should apprehend that confinement will be 
necessary for montha ; if it is, should not you try a chamber 
horse ? Is not porter too strong for your stomach, without ex- 
ercise t It is for mine. Whatever does not digest creates flatu- 
lency, and greatly increases these panics and unpleasant sensa- 
tions you mention. -Even port wine I find frequently heavy 
upon my stomach. 

Do not grieve the Holy Spirit by a too great attachment to 
the creature. I used to think you quite frOe here. O seek and 
find all your happiness in Godi Be satisfied to have or want 
the creature as he chooses. It is this only that procures the 
truest enjoyment of worldly good. I trust your captivity will 
soon be turned, and a song of praise put in your mouth. All the 
painful feelings you mention I have experienced at different 
times, and have also been favoured with wonderful victories over 
them when I least expected it. I mention this for your en- 
couragement. I have been unwell since I wrote last with 
various complaints ; and to-day much so with a headache. The 
school account has been ready many months, but a point of de- 
licacy prevented my sending it ; and in my last I entirely forgot 
to say that I wished you might do nothing in- money matters but 
what was perfectly convenient. Your clarities, I suppose, have 
been more extensive this last six months than usual, and there- 
fore, I think, the £5 due to the poor at last term may be dispensed 
with, as my last remittance is not all expended. I must con- 
clude, after saying I hope nothing 1 have here aaid will hurt you. 
You never mentioned a Miss S.'s dependent state, that I recol- 
lect. When you can easily write, shall be glad to hear how you 
do. Look every minute for deliverance, and ever believe me, 
Your affectionate parent in Jesus, D. M. 


December 25, 1780. 

I would before now have answered my dear daughter's letter, 

but I have had a cold, which afflicted me a good deal, and has 

confined me these ten days past, part of the time to bed* I 

could only return a verbal message by the serrant yesterday ; 


to-day I am rather better, bat my ey^s have been mueh affected, 
which must be an apology for » short letter. 

I am very much Indebted to you and Lady 6., as are the sta- 
dents, for contributing so cheerfuHy toward their support. I do 
not see I could with any propriety give them vnne, as it is the 
necessaries, not the delitacies oif life, with which I mean to 
supply them, and even that only in order to enable them to pur- 
sue their studies : I shall therefore pay into their stock £l ^. 
which, I think you say, Lady G. valuesi the wine at, and also 
the guinea and half in my hand, and may the Lord bless and 
smile upon the feeble attempt made for. his glory; I do think it 
is a capital charity, and if I were rich would certainly do some- 
thing toward establishing a fund for it.* 

Your complaints of yourself, my dear madam, may be just, 
and they may not : but these feelings seldom hurt 4is if they do 
not degenerate into despondency. If they do, they prove perni- 
cious, because they then weaken our hands, and as it were cat 
asunder the sinews of our endeavours to get free from them ; 
but if they prove a spur to prayer, believing, and activity, they 
answer valuable ends. The most hply, faithful; and fruitful 
Christians have reason to be ashamed before God that they come 
80 far short of what they ought to be, and might be. Even they, 
while in the body, are at times in danger of sinking into supine- 
ness of spirit, and of thu9 becoming slothful. We must not 
cease crying, " Evermore quicken us, Lord,, and we will call 
upon thee ; draw us, and we will ran after thee.^' ^ 

Now that the year is drawing near a clW, may.I ask. How 
stands your book of spiritual accounts I You have had many 
mercies, many helps, many trials ; out of some of the latter you 
have been delivered; others are permitted, for wise ends, to 
reniain. Give no answer to my query unless it suits you : but 
believe my daily prayer ascends for ^our spiritual prosperity, 
and that of your amiable fi;iend. If Lady T. H. is with you, I 
hope she will receive lasting benefit. . I find Baxter profitable. 
Smith's book, I think, may do good : I mean to circulate it 
among my young friends. In some places he is too minute, 
and descends beneath th^ dignity of his subject ; in others he is 
hardly enough guarded, and some readers may find fault. 

But I must have done, after wishing Lady G. and you the 
possession of every blessing the birth of Christ has procured for 
sinners ; and as many returns of the season as shall be for the 
glory of God, the benefit of mankind, and the- profit and comfort 
of your own souls. So prays in sincerity,, my dear madam. 
Your ever affectionate, D. M. 

* This alludes to another of her ladyship's charities. She for many 
years contributed toward the support of some of the pious divinity students, 
in the Uniyersity of Edinbuigh, when she found their circumstances were 
euch as to requize aesi8tance« 

' LX7B 09 LJlDT MAXWBLL. 183 

~ The selection from her ladyship's papers for this year^ shall 
he closed hy the following extracts from her diary :— 

'* December 4. I think my sool has suffered lately from two 
causes. The firsts a want of fall resignalioa to the dispensations 
of Proridence : the second^ too great fears about worldly things : 
this had nearly degenerated into anxiety. I detected the work 
ings of this, evil while in. the house of God. My intention waff 
good : I wished to manage my temporal affairs with discretion, 
that in nothing the gospel might be blamed. But when in any 
thing we exceed, we err. The apostle says, * Be careful for 
nothing : but. in every thing, by prayer and supplication, with 
thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God,* Phil, 
iv, 6. Here is plain duty^ ; that performed, rest there and leave 
aU to God, But how easy to slide into anxiety. This tempta- 
tion assumes the appearance of a laudahle concern about worldly 
things, and is not easily discerned. Holy Father, in all things 
may I be taught of thee ! For some days I have feared that 
I was not so zealous as usual in attempting to do good : I doubt 
not in this my hands hare been weakened by the prevalence of 
the above mentioned temptation. 

** — 35. The Lord is good. He still favours me with de- 
lightful enjoyment orhimself, and gives me to know him asjths 
God who heareth prayer, and who performs all things for me. 
He has wrought out a great deliverance for me, tiiodgh not in 
the way 1 expected and had attempted, and which did succeed 
agreeably to the views and desires I then had : but from several 
causes my views and desires were suddenly changed, while I 
was kept much in prayer for direction from on bigh> and for 
submission to the divine will. Suddenly, matters took a very 
unlooked-for turn, and deliverance was sent me from a very 
unexpected quarter. My views and desires were also made 
entirely to correspond with that mode of deliverance appointed* 
I trust, by Him who cannot err- All who were immediately con- 
cerned were made willing to fall in with my inclinations, though 
contrary to their own interests, in so remarkable a degree, that I 
Concluded, surely this is the Lord's doing. Yet it was so oppo- 
site to what I had thought only a few days before was the wUl 
of God, that it had almost proved a stumbling block. I plead 
earnestly with the Lord that I might be preserved from evil 
reasoning ; and that the enemy might not be permitted to gain 
any advantage over me^ by suggesting that God did not hear 
me, neither direct my steps ; but that I was left to miBtake his 
wiU, and to follow my own unsettled inclinatums. In this respect 
my God has been tender of me ; mv mind has been kept in 

race, free from unbelieving fears, and unprofitable reasonings, 
am perfectly satisfied wiu what has occurred. I have also 
felt a grateful sense of the goodness of my God, and my trust in 
him is hereby atrengthened. I have had sweet but short visits 
from Jesus, and have found him truly precious. 


^^ -**— 30. I have devoted an hour and half for the purpose of 
taking a retrospective view of this year — of the Lord's dealings 
with my soul— -of the mercies received— the returns made^-of 
outward trials and inward conflictiai — of deliverances from them-^ 
and of my progress in the ways of God. Upon an impartial 
inquiry I saw I had received many mercies, had goiie through 
many temptations, and had experienced many deliverances from 
them ; faiad enjoyed a good measure of bodily health, with a 
sensibility of my obligations to God for it, and strong desices to 
improve it to his glory. I have enjoyed, in general, constant 
desires for an increase of grace, for the full accomplishment of 
the promises relative to sanctification,'and these desires have 
been steadily bre^hed forth in prayer, though not always with 
the same degree of frequency and fervour. Through the greater 
part of this year a degree of uncertainty, with. respect to the 
state of my soul, as it relates to the bleeding of sanctification, haa 
frequently perplexed me, and I believe has deprived me of much 
comfort I might otherwise have enjoyed. The use I endeavoured 
to make of this trial was, to cry more earnestly to the Lor4 
for the full accomplishment of the promises : that he would shine 
upon his work in my heart, and give me to see light in his light ; 
that I might give aU the glory to him, while I took the comfit 
to myself I have seen and felt more of the emptiness of the 
creature than formerly, and have had more power steadily to 
confess God than ever. Upon the whole I hope, if any thing, 
I have rather gained ground this year ; though I am deeply con- 
scious that I have l^en very unfaithful, very unfruitful, little 
better than a cumberer of the ground. If my God sees meet to 
spare me another year* O that he may quicken me in his ways ; 
cause me to cleave to him, and to follow him fully as one «f hia 
witnesses for the truth ! May Iro^ever enable me to s^e the Ivay 
ia which he would have me to walk." 

CHAPTER XVI.— 1781. 

Conespondence with Lady Hope — Miss Ritchie — ^TThe Hon. Miss Napier- 
Reflections on temptations — Diary continued. 


Edinburgh, February 14, 1781. 
I WROTB a few hasty lines last night to my dtar daughter : 
having more time tb-day, maternal adSection inclines me to be 
more particular than I could at that time. I trust yvm feel the 
same degree of strength in body and mind that has been gra- 
ciously Slowed for some time. One capital stream of creature 
comfort is now cut off, by tiie v^e ai^NNnttnem of Him that 


eaxmot enr. I know yoa would wish the Mroog carrent of affec- 
tion, which ran in thit channel, now to return to the fountain :. 
and surely ja^t God wills it too. It is the best improvement 
liiat can be made of affliction; and Q, what gainers are those 
who^ thus im{^ove it ! They are wise fen: themselves, ihey are 
wise for others, and they are wise in the estimation of God. In 
order to be thus wise much prayer ifi needful ;. peculiqjrly so in 
these seasons, because the emptiness of created good generally 
then appears in a very clear point of view, and the heart feels 
more disunited from the things of time, more susceptible of 
divine impressions, and more desirous of being closely united to 
what appears a ttAstantial, a lasting good, of which neither our 
own death, nor that of others, can deprive us. From these 
causes, the prayers of the afflicted are more free from worldly 
desires, are offered up with more fervour, and arcyl believe, 
more acceptable to- the Most High, than those that ascend in the 
sunshine of worldly prosperity. , To use a plain simile, the iron 
is hot, and the hammer motdda it more easily than when it is 
eold. May the Lord pour a epirit of prayer upon -my dear 
daughter at this time^ and make her frequent and fervent at a 
throne of grace ; that she may come out of the furnace more 
pure, and sensibly prove her affliction bringing forth the peace- 
al^e fhiits of righteousness. 

There is one device of Satan to which I fear you may be ex- 
posed just now, and linom whieh you may suffer ; and therefore, 
with the freedom of a parent solicitous for your profit aud com- 
Ibrt, I would caution you i^ainst it. Do not dwell upon the 
distressing thought of not having obtained the evidence you 
wished of your &aa father's eternal welfare. This often dimi* 
nisbes the Christian's comfort, grieves the Spint of God, and 
proves a fruitless source of pain. When the thought occurs 
carry it to God, and by prayer entreat him, if agreeable to his 
holy will, to give you that pesrsaasion of your parent's happiness 
that wfll satisfy you ; and if denied, to give you power to leave 
it with himself, who is the Judge of ail the earth, and who wiU 
do right. The Lord, in some eases, gives the former ; and when 
that has been for wise ends denied, bestows the latter ; and may 
lie give you what he sees best for you. 

He loves yon better than you behfftve, aud will make oZ/ work 
for your good : I fear that both your body and mind will sink in 
a degree ; be not surprised at it, nor too rigorous in your exac- 
tions from either. At present yo& are cafied to believe, to love, 
to suffer. When strongery. active service will be expected; but 
not till then. I hope a proper attention will be paud to the body 
for the soul's sake. If you look on me as a parent, see that you 
ase n^ as such, by writing me freely, and tolling, me if in any 
way, except by prayer, I can help you. The etomal God be 
your refoge, and undecneath you be the everhisting arms. 


Lady W.'s sitaatioii calls for much aympathy; her loss is 
S^e(^ ' may the Lord make it up. All will feel less or more. 
This is not their rest ; how happy are those that find rest in 
Christ. When you can easily, I shall be glad to know how yon 
do. According to custom, I have been much interrupted since 
I began this, which must excuse many improprieties. Beliere 
me, my dear daughter, ever 

Your affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M 


Edinbargh, March 27, 1781. 

I thank my dear daughter for her letter which I have just 
received. I was desirous to know how she did, and the more 
so, lest any thing I had said had helped to make the scale pre- 
ponderate in favour of remaining at O. H., and perhaps thereby 
hurt her health. I trust your determination was of God : It ap- 
peared to me from the beginning the most excellent way, (and in 
this path I would ever wish my deaf daughter to walk) even 
without the knowledge of particular circumstances. Those you 
mention in your last do not surprise me, and still more confirm 
my judgment of the propriety of the choice you have made : that 
it is denying yourself 1 doubt not ; but the cup, I hope, wiH be 
sweetened by a sense of the presence of your tjrod, and a con- 
sciousness of having done what you believed most for his glory. 
If the Lord make you useful in healing breaches, or preventing 
their widening, it will afford you more pleasing sensations than 
the Bath joomey could have given you : considering the service 
done to others, beside the claim given you to the blessing pro- 
mised to the peace-makers.- Be not discouraged tiliough you 
cannot pray as you would ; perhaps the Holy Spirit never more 
effectusdly helps our infirmities in this way than when we feel 
as if entirely unable to make known our wants by prayer and 
supplication : still continue to embrace the opportunities offered 
for secret prayer, and the Lord will, in his own time, give the 
spirit of the duty : in the meantime rejoice in the continual and 
prevalent intercession of your great High Priestj who is tenderly 
touched with a feeling of all jrour infirmities. O dwell more 
upon the rich privileges to which you stand entitled in virtue of 
your union with him. AVhat a rich source of sacred consolation 
t^ould this prove to you in your darkest and most disconsolate 
hours— 'though from weakness of body, weakness of faith, re- 
maining corruption, the power of temptation, and the force of 
various trials, the joyous sense of it may not always be your 
portion. Yet Jesus remains invariably the wisdom, the right- 
eousness, the sanctification, and redemption of every believing 
soul. plead your privileges in the face of Satan and sin ; for 
all is yours because ye are* Christ's, and Christ is 'God's. 

But I must now mention the distress of yxrar friend, Mrs. 


Hnnter, and family. The dear little infant was called home this 
morning. She bears it wonderfiilly. It is a Tery severe trial ; 
may the Lord make it np by the increase of communion with 
himself. I mean to see her this afternoon. I saw the child 
some days ago, and gave it my blessing, which felt sweet : I did 
not think its race was to be so short ; but O, how much better is 
it with the Lord than in the body ! How uncertain all worldly 
enjo3rments ! O that both parents may be blessed with that sweet, 
tiiat unutteraUe peace which creature comforts can never be- 
stow. I have had many pains and aches for days past, but feel 
much cause of thankfiilness that I am not confined to bed. Our 
neighbour, Mrs. B., is summoned hence most unexpectedly, in the 
mi^ of affluence, friends, and children, and her husband abroad. 
She had iust-purchased Mr. C.'s house. '^ So pass the shadowy 
scenes of life away !" While we live, may we live to the Lord ; 
when we die, may we die to the Lord ; living or dying, may we 
be the Lord's. 

Wednesday maming. Since writing the above, I have been 
near two hours with Mrs. H. with satisfaction. She is in a 
sweet, resigned spirit, though feeling much. I am indebted for 
the two copies of AUeine, and obliged by your informing me 
about Lady G.^ That the Lord may ever guide you by his 
counsel, and revive you by his grace, is the prayer of, my dear 

Your ever affectionate parent in Jesus, D. M. 


May 16, 1781. 
I hope my dear daughter got well home, and suffered no bad 
effects from her little excursion to town ; and that her mind is 
in Bome measure at peace concerning the subjects of conversa- 
tion then considered. With the freedom of a parent I would 
say, you require tnore fortitude and less feeling, far your own 
quiet and happiness. You have only to ask it, and He who 
*' giveth liberally «nd upbraideth not" will bestow it. He hath 
promised to *' withhold no manner of thing that is good from 
them that walk uprightly." '* Seek," then, '* that you may find ; 
knock, and it shall ^ opened unto you." 

But no degree of grace will exempt you from trials; these 
we must expect while in the body, and should endeavour to hear 
them with a holy fbrtitude and a sweet spirit ; knowings that they 
are permitted for wise purposes, and, through grace, answer 
Talnable ends. Be thankful ; the time hastens on apace when 
Bin and sorrow shall be no more, when all tears lihaU be wiped 
£rom your eyes, and then you shall for ever bask in the beams 
of redeeming love. Amazing thought, that sinners should be 
thus honour^, made thus happy. O the height, the depth of 
divine love! Who can fathom it ! Arise, then, my dear daughtei^ 

and shake yoarself from^ th^ dust of griefs, feaxs, temptotioDSy 
trials, &c., &Gf Pat on youi beautiful gatments, the spotless 
robe of Jesus' righteousness. With this he has clothed you ; 
arayed in this, bold shall }ou appear in the presence of Gpd, aod 
. conquer death, sin, and hell. What, then, should discourage 
you I Surely the high praises of your God should ever be ia 
your mouth. 

No^ being so well as to go abroad) I have not. seen Mrs^ H— « 
since you was with her \ but I hope you convinced her that; jiwt 
objections to her proposal were well founded* 

Enclosed, for the sake of exactness, is the school accoojit. 
Upon looking over my Biblest I am three short pf what ia neces- 
sary for the children that are to leave the echoed at this term. 
Do you incline to send any of yours, if you have any ? if Qot, I 
can easily ^cure them here. 

Since writivg the above, I received your letter, and with 

Pleasure learn by it you were not the worse for being in town oa 
fooday. How good is God ; to him only we are indebted for 
all our mercies ; therefore to him be all the glory. Many thaito 
for the agreeable intelligence about Lady G. I am UMlay mnch. 
afflicted with the headache and toothache, and not able tp be at 
the church ; bat in every situation rejkiain my dear daughtes'a 
affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M. 



May 25, 1781. 

I wrote a few hasty lines to my dear daughter on Tuesday 
morning, since which I had her letter, and was sorry it was not 
in my power to make any return to it by the chaise. Why, my 
dear madam, make any apology for doing what I have repeatedly 
asked yott to do. If writing freely to me will gtve yea any 
reHef, yon know it will give me satisfaction. Do not be afraid 
of aliicting nie ; the Lord will not permit me to feel any more, 
of that than will answer a good purpose. What good do we reap 
from friends, if they do not bear our burthens as well as partake 
of our joys % I sincerely sympathize with you, and dauly en- 
dea.vour to remember you before Hhn who is afflicted in all yens 
afflictions. I wish I could administer comfort to you. I think 
many of your painfnl feelings at present are the resist of powers 
M temptations: The devices of Satan are ikumy and subtle 4 bat 
fear him not ; fly from him, if you cannot resist him steadfiutly 
by faith ; I mean, do not venture to reason with him, bat fly to 
Jesus, and lean upon him as the Bek>ved of your soul, and he 
will give you victory. O that he would smile upon you, so as to 
banish all your fears. 

I found him sweetly near last night, while heariag a sermon 
from» ** Who isJto that eometh up from the wilderness leaning 


upon her BeloTed 1" I wonfd wiBinglf snqwikd my own eoni- 
fort, could I conrey to you what I then felt. But Jesus is as 
liiuch your friend as he is mine .* will he then withhold from 
you any degree of consolation he sees for your good 1 O no : 
look to him by faith, and he will supply your eyery want, and 
prove a friend dearer, injfinitely dearer, than any earthly eom- 
panion* O that while you read these few simple lines, you may 
feel him diffusing a heavenly sweetness throughoot your sou), 
«iid thereby enable you to cast yourself and all your cares«npon 
him, so that for the future you may praise him for all that is 
past, and trust him for all that is to come. Amen and amen. 
j[jord,:hear a<id answer the prayer of thy servant. 

I hope you are mistalcen ^bout the state of your soul : I doubt 
$u>t but you are, in believing that you are an inconvenience in 
the faraUy, and useless. May the Lord direct you in alF things, 
and give you to b^eve tha;t he does. Be not surprised at want 
of hralth at present ; the strong and continued .east wind is bear- 
ing bard upon many mhch stronger than you. As the weather 
grows milder your complaints I hope will lesseq. I know the 
weakness of your body presses down your soul, but all will be 
overruled for good. My affliction was from bile in my stomach, 
which caused eontinoed headaches and sickness : but I am better. 
O for a heart flaming with grateful love to God for all his mer- 
cies ! O for more zeal for his glory, more activity in his cause, 
and more conformity to his will ! I had much satisfaction in 
examining the scholars that left the school at this term. En- 
closed is a note of them, and of those admitted. J am called 
away, and must conclude with my best blessing. Ever my dear 
daughter's affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M. 


Edinburgh, June, 1781. 

Not having it in my power to do more on this occasion for my 
dear d^uighter, I have endeavoured to follow her with my fre- 
quent petitions to the Father of mercies for hBr preservation, 
comfort, and usefulness upon the road ; that she might be brought 
in^peace to her dear friend, after having seen and felt the loving 
kindness of her God and Saviour ; and I hope my feeble prayers 
will be heard in her behalf. What cannot God do for those that 
love and serve him ; and what has not Christ purchased for 
tiiem ! AH, all is theirs. How rich is the charter of believers, 
in virtue of their union with' Jesus ; the blessings of the upper 
and nether spring are theirs ; ample provision is made for their 
every want in time ; and blessitfgs, more than heart can con- 
ceive, are prepared for them in eternity. O ^ho would not 
be a Christian. 

My dear daughter, in spite ^f sin and Satan, triumph in your 
privileges, while yoo, Marylike, lie low at the Redeemer's ftet. 

180 LIFE m hkWl MAXWBU. 

O that he would speak from the mercy seat, and say, " Arise* 
shine, for thy light is come, and the glory of the Lord is risen 
upon thee ;" then all your fetters would fall off, and yon would 
arise, go forth, and follow the Lord with still greater vigour and 
comfort for ever. We know that " light is sown for the right- 
eous, and gladness for the upright in heart ;" and that though 
" many are the afflictions of the righteous, yet the Lord deliver- 
eth him out of them all ;" comfortable words ! The Lord has 
ahrendy made bare his holy arm in your behalf, and brought sal- 
vation to your soul. He hath brought you out of darkness into 
his marvellous light, and registered your name in his book of life. 
O what endless praise is due for these invaluable Uessiogs I And 
what remains, but that you follow on to know more and more 
of the goodness of the Lord ; gain greater and greater degrees 
of conformity, to ihe divine image ; spend and be spent in the 
cause of Him who has done so much for you ; thai at last yon 
may have an abundant entrance ministered unto you into the 
mansions of eternal felicity, where you shall cast your crown at 
the Redeemer's feet, and sing the song of Moses and the Lamb 
for ever and for ever. 

What you say in answer to my invitation satisfies me that 
my apprehension was wrong. It is an agreeable surprise to hear 
that you felt so much pain at parting with me ; I rather thought 
that such regret would have been mostly lost in desire to get 
from O. H., together with the prospect of future happiness in 
meeting with a dear friend. Indeed, from my knowledge of my- 
self, I am not prone to believe any one can be much attached to 
me. The two volumes of letters shall be sent as desired. 

As it respects the young man : from the circumstances you 
mention, I should think it would be well enough to let him have 
the money now; it might probably be of more service at this 
time, when his expense will be great in fitting out for the East 
Indies, than tiiree times the smu afterward, when perhaps he 
may have saved money. It is a suitable occasion for a present, 
and will save you the trouble of putting him in your will : by 
economy,.perhaps, you will make it up, but, if you live and want, 
you can easily borrow, that siim. This is contrary to my gene-, 
ral rules, but these must always admit of exceptions. 

•Since writing the above, I have received your kind letter. 
Thanks to a gracious God for his goodness in canying yon so 
far in safety. I have been prevented writing so soon as you 
wished. I ' hope Mr. M.'s opinion is good, and will satisfy. 
You. will read in the papers of poor Colonel W.'s death. May 
God speak to your heart with sweet power, and raise you above 
all your, fears fU)d weaknesses, and greatly sanctify your inter- 
course with Lady G. and any of his people you may meet with : 
may he also bless the waters to you, by putting heaiiiig virtue into 
them, tkaX you may return to us with a thriving soul- and healthy 

LI7E Of LA0T MAXWlRhU 101 

^ody. All fHends here are well. I joined yon with me yelter- 
day in a collection mad6 by the "Society for Propagating 
Christian Knowledge." We had a ffood sermon by the minister 
of Alloa upon) " The writing was, Jesas of Nazareth, king of 
the Jews." Afterward Mr. and Mrs. W. dined with me. On 
Thursday I had Mr. and 'Mrs. P. ; he preached on Sunday and 
Wednesday evening at Lady G.'s chapel. 

De you not now wish me to conclude ? Surely you may, from 
the Jength of this : I shall expeot to hear soon, with many par- 
ticulars about yourself and Lady G. Peace be with you, my 
dear daughter. 

Your ever affectionate parent in tiie Lord, D. M. 

" ' Jane 22, 1781. 

My dear daughter's letter this forenoon was satisfactory ; the 
hope of another reaching her before she leaves Buxton makes 
me now sit down to write, though very unable. I have been 
exceeding ill since I wrote last, and am brought very low in 
body, though recovering. I have had an unusually severe attack 
of the bilious complaint in my stomach, with some severe symp- 
toms to which I have not been accustomed : these have left me 
very weak, and by it all my schemes of necessary economy are 
defeated. Mr. W. tells me that there is an absolute necessity oi 
my doing something in the way of change of air and exercise. This 
I cannot do till August, if I live' till then; and, even then, you 
know how venr inconvenient it wiU be : but there is no help for 
it ; the Lord, i hope, will overrule all for his glory, and my final 
good; but enough of s^f. Only I must add, that you will, I 
hope, join me in praising a gracious God, who has supported and 
comforted me in this last illness, and given me fresh pro<^s of 
)3^ faithfulness and goodness. 

Many thanks for writing me particularly about Lady G. and 
yourself; give my kindest love to her. O that your soul may 
]»rosper, and your every step be directed to the glory of God, and 
your own good ; and this I as sincerely wish for Lady G. I 
trust that you b6th are getting and doing good. O what is life 
unless we live to God: he only is worthy to be loved and 
served : had we a thousand lives, he deserves them all. 

Many thanks for the kind things my dear danghter iB.ja; I 
cannot doubt but what she says comes from her heart ; yet what 
I wrote her Nvas the genuine sentiment of my mind ; " that the ' 
knowledgie I have of myself makes me hard of belief that any 
I one can be much attached to me." She knows> and I hope be- 
lieves, how much I am interested in every iYanQ^itiB.t concerns 
hcTy and how willingly I would help her in every possible way ; 
yet this is from such a pure, disinterested principle, if I know 
my own heart, as leads me to look for no return, nor to have any 


claim upon her fbr it, even in point of gratitnde of affection. 
But I have exceeded my strength, and must conclude. May the; 
Lord keep you as the apple of his eye, and make vou and your 
amiable friend mutually profitable to, and comfortable wiUi each 
other. So prays, my dear daughter. 

Tour ever affectionate parent in the best of bonds, D. M. 


Edinbui^, July 24, 1781. 

Several things have conspired to prevent my daughter hear- 
ing from me till now, the paiticulars of which I will not take up 
her time in relating. Suffice it to say, it has not been altogether 
bad health. I have had a return of the bilious complaint, but am 
better, only this very sultry weather enervates me much. 

I am pleased to hear that Lady G, is getting better, and hope 
you have had oii/y a threatening of your complaints. It gives 
me satisfaction to hear that you have obtained more full and com- 
fortaUe views of the faithfulness, wisdom, and goodness pf God 
in his dealings with you. This will naturally lead to stronger 
confidence in him;. to. more communion with him; to greater 
seal for his glory, and activity in his ways.^ May he enable you 
to hold fast what he has bestowed, suid daily to increase. 

The word of God and the Christian's daily experience prove 
the proneness of the heart to depart from the chief good, thie 
grand cause of which is unbelief. Our wanderings are just in 

Eroportion to its prevalence. By faith we stand, and our sta- 
ility depends upon the degree of faith we possess. Happy 
those who are blessed with a large measure of this divine princi- 
ple ; they are thereby enabled to cleave steadfastly to Jesus, in 
whom all fulness dwells, and to derive from thence every need- 
ful supply. He is the centre of rest to the believing soul, and 
the only source of comfort. May you fully and experimentaiyy 
prove this. 

I am uncertain whether I shall get any thing done this sum- 
mer — the season is so far advanced, and the weather very hot, 
and my niece still with me ; , but all will be overruled for good. 
Nothing but sin and, folly reign here. At present the town is 
full, and Satan busy. O that the Lord would open the peo- 
ple's eyes, and show them where true happiness is to be found. 
Mrs. H. is much better. My sister returns best respects. Give 
my kindest love to Lady G. ; and accept of the maternal bene- 
diction of 

Your affectionate parent in the Lord, D. M. 



^ , JBdmlnu:^ Ai^pvt 9, 1781. 

What has become of my fnends at Taymooth % I wrote my. 
dear daughter aboat two weeks ago, hat b^^e had do veply ; I 
hope it is not owing to want of health. I saw, by Mrs. H/s 
letter, Lady G. was not so weU as her friends coold wish. Does 
she continue poorly, or ha» change of air been blessed to the 
establishing of her health 1, I loQg to hear ^rticulars of both 
> her and you. 

Hdwever outward things go, I hope you both enjoy the pre- 
sence of your Beloved ; Mat can~ sweeten tl^ bitterest cup. The 
Christianas life is a warfiure at the best ; happy for us, we are not 
called to fight in our own strength. Were this the case we 
should be overcome by the wedcest of our foes, but Jesus is our 
strength as well as our righteoufness ; therefore, thron|rh fjuth 
hi him we "Sue well able to Dvercome our strongest enemies. O 
what a' source of constant consolation does pur union with him 
afford us ; l>ecatt8e he lives we shall live also. He is all in all 
to the believing soul. O rejoice in, and live up to your great 
privilegeis ; then will ydu '♦ r^oice evermore, pray without ceas- 
ing, and in every thiijg give thanks. '* 

I have been a good deal afflicted with rheumatic complaints« 
and a disorder in my stomach and bowels, which affected my 
nerves and spirit?. I wish to welcome all that is i^pointed for 
me, to have no wish but the will of God, to cleave alike to him 
in sickness as in health, in advemty as in prosperity, and in 
death as in life. My sist«r, and niece leave roe to-morrow : l 
hope I shall get to the country the beginning of the week, I 
fa^cy to Saughton-hall ; I am to have a positive answer ab^ot it 
this day. I have made much inquiry about other places, but can 
find no other. I have formerly obtained health in that place { 
and though at present it has the disadvantage of the young wo- 
man dying there, yet I think I can put up with it, by sleeping in 
another room, or perhaps in the s^me; with another bed. The 
painting and plastering necessary to be done in my house re- 
quires, kpy absence for three or n>ur months longef , and there- 
tore $1 house near the town suits me better than one at a di^ 
tance ; and if I find the country answer, I may perhaps winter in 
it : but all future things are dncertain. 

Give my kind love to Lady G. Mrs. H. continues well, and 
all friends much as you left them. Farewell ; may the fullae^ 
liomplishment of every gospel premise he the sweet .expenence 
of my dear .daughter; this will give comfort to her affectionate 
parent i^ the Lord, D. M. 



* Sauglitoii-hall, Nov. U, 1781. 

I would before now have acknowledged the receipt of yooi 
kind letter, dear madam, Vat very soon a^er I received it, J weiit 
frpni home, and was aba^nt a long time. I have been much in- 
disposed for many months, and also in heaviness through fnani- 
fold temptafions; I endured severe inward conflicts; through 
mercy my faith did not bil, bat my joy was much abated. The 
cup I drank 'was indeed bitter ; but thanks, eternal thanks to my' 
God, who stepped in for my relief: he rebuked the adversary, 
and put a song of praiise in my moirth. I now enjoy peace in all 
my borders* ^ The Father and the Son make ^heir continual 
abode wiUi me. Jesua is precious, and I behold him .as the 
King in his beauty : he is ever present with me, aifd whispers 
sweet peace to my soul. Help me to praise him, for t^e deli- 
verance he has wrought out f^K ma; and permit me to entreat 
you to be ^earnest at arthrone of grac^r^hatl may hold fast the 
blessing bestowed-, and reap all the benefit intended by the severe 
dispensation. I feel weak and helpless in myself; but my 
divine Friend is near, in whom is strength, ^ 1 still am far short 
of ^hat I expect to be. I have clxceeding great and preciqua. 
promises for my encouragement; and he who cannot lie hath 
said, not one word shall fail of all the good things whereof he 
hath spoken. I hope your soul ecmtinues to prosper, and that 
you enjoy a measure of bodily health, . Can you meet me at 
eleven o'clock at a throne of grace every moriiing.1 I have it 
much at heart to wrestle in mighty prayer with God, for the ac- 
complishment of the promises he has given, and wish for the 
assistance of my Chrikian friends ; among whom, if f may be 
peimitted, I would willingly reckon Miss Ritchie. 

Praying that the Lord would send herhedth, and a cmre, and 
reveal abundance of peace and truth unto her, X remain her 
affectionate friend, in the best of bonds, . D« Maxwell.*' 


^ I78I. 

Dear Miss NAmsR,— I am obliged to you for letting me know by 
the return ofpost the particulars of your journey to Lainshaw. 
I am soiry it haanot been more agreeable ; but still there is rea* 
son to be- thankful, because it might have been worse, I hope 
by this time tho painful effects o6casioned by the disajgreeaUb 
occurrences you met with on the road are well over : and that' 

' * Miss Ritchie (now NLr^. Monixner) w|ui loo^ an iatiinate friend aiMft 
eolrrespondent of the Itte Rev. John Wesley. At his request, she' first 
wrote to Ladv Maxwell, and an interchange of letters was Kept up for se- 
veral years, though they never enjoyed a personal interview. She has 
survived most other early religious associates ; remains a steady mem* 
ber of the Wesleyap society, and is "rejoicing in hope'of the glory of God. 


mil find yoaipdf kappj with your two amiabk frwnds at .Dona* 
BoliB, where jroK.williuHreiiraeh piecioiwtiiiicif which yoa co«14 
Aot eoiiiiBand,ia the metnMetie. Yoar hott»» 1 doubt not, j^ida 
•odly OQ ; some -^edt in riaing, sone in workings and not a few, 
1 hope, in reading* / 

Ftom the knowledge I hare of your library, I know your 
hooka are mueh calcukted for the improyement of jour mind> 
iU gave me satiafaetion to see the select coUectum yoa poeoess; 
I hope yon wiU reap nmeh benefit from a «6rtou# perneal of 
them* in vain do>we look for h^piness from the thiogd'and 
liereon8^aro<lad us. They may amuee a litUe in the time of 
health and prosperity^ Wt can yield no.aolid comfort in a* dark 
and melaiicholy hpnr. But in erery eitnationthoee hoora we 
spend in conrersing with Grod and.oui^ own heart, willproye 
oon8olaior3r seasons: loo many lire. strangers to. b(^: therefore- 
they are mu^aiie. fiappy thoe^i whose miada are dirinely 
lihmiinated^ to see, and whose wilb are happily determined to; 
ehoose, ihtX better part which shall neyer' be t^en 0ro|n^them«^. 
They possess peace snd joy unspeakable i they rise sttperior, tO; 
alKthe IDs of human li^,.and wkh a holy indifferenee view the, 
anilesand frowns of a rain worlds Fixed upon the Il^ck of 
djre^, they tsmaiii uambved. Every eTept of providences, 
wnether joyoas or adveree, with whieh they are exercised in this 
▼ale of tesrs, v^hj the interrention of a divine agency overroled.^ 
lor their ^ooi<. -In all things th^. wre guided 1^ the unerring 
eoooad of the Most Higlv in time ; and by his grace prepared 
lor evedasting hapinnes^ in-eternity. Happy people! Who 
wedd i^el be » Gkristiatt ? 

I know my yomtg friend desiies> to be ime; tfajerefore, as X 
wish her h^py, I would entreat. her to l>e in ^truest: to spends 
ttmeh time m raiding the saered oimoles\of truth, and in breath*> 
ing fhrvent petitions ta. Heaven, that she may not be peimitted 
•0 rest iiihert (^ a thorongh change of hearty of a vital onion of 
sovl with the Lord JesasChrisC Thisy only this, can la^ a 
serwtnral fohndation for pteacitt peaae, or fatore felicity. Tha 
world/th^ devil, and our own heart oppo^ this great work with 
all their might : -^Mzelbre, it is nset^sary thai we pat forth all 
our strength ; while» at the same thne^ we hvre no dependemte, 
hst on the free mercy of God through a Redeemer. I hope yon 
will take all this m good par^ ss yon know my motive ; and be- 
More toe, dear Mies N^oTf 

To«rre*lfriend,i^c.,&c., &o., ^ P.M.. 

^ . . ,fta9^hlou-haU, Pee«xBber25, 1781. . 

Many, very muiy nn ttie Jprnrers that are put np thiftday to 
liie Hoaierof pi^erbyt^Ohnetieiie beeanae, as iimfSbsfj^, 

10# jjtn aw HAW XAXwncak. 

jvMMr e¥««i totk |iIm«^ je» w« am 0ian ^^ 
lMqfiH»0agd> aa<f Ibeiafogg we «» aafe In rmunidkikig it ; i»tr»«» 
Jeed, av tea natny doy ii* liolixi^ »») waDtoDneaa; tert up |«9qii«r^ 
fvaite, and t R at d a g gfing. O what af> iMmlteie d iMBiefit» aqooia^ 
paiTf »Mi Itm fitmri this anp^ Hov^ 

inairf bar^iMf^ even APT, experkuded! If wy tto d cai ffu r t» jpaoicoa 
tbexa^ We oaanol ; they ar^ mcAw ia niafllMjT tian^^tiMr bains ^ oui^ 
liead. , Otfaat bf etDrKveaWeDmyfaa^einbledlftlBaUfye^^ 
titndie-f api a»y efrcfj feirotnng aiaMW noieaaa oar ycwar-of «» 

. Upon a la c n iB pee tit^ tldvr oftbe patC jear, whsf twee liaire 
we to praise ^r Gad for aptiitiKd and tenapoial menkm^ ' ^dw 

be smy ^i teHl oa at^erranddeUaefed^uaikxii ? Howr naay anarea: 
llaslMr hml^ tWi weielaid itMr wab^r tbe adTetananrfifear 
aeal^y iM^ten beiNXimdia aa a flMf ? How e^flen baa ^liflod i^ 
, a stMidard for us ?. Mow fmffK^ihf baa bcedisappeBiited oar ieara 
add been better tona than ottrea^iatkipaT £bw elten ha» be^ 
TOviTod and eoialortedeiir aoois tnpaUie^ aid pittrate^; and, wbeob 
in perplexitt^, madcr Owr wajr plain' befbie. ua?. Sanely we have 
naeon tomy, '^He heOi. dJMie aH thiaga well:^ haiad«rGad 
that perft w rinet b all thiaga far uow JBbfc wbat retarm bar^ boeor 
made Ibr all Ha^ joofoBRNi of geedaeia? Aba, we bare tod» 
mach eaiDse to lay aor baada apan oiir Ditntbs^ aiid our ttoatba 

Sathedaet; te> biarir ?od W ariiamqdy teretaad 4»taaiibcdat diar 
loDg-snfienng'pBtienc&of'oor God Jii ipanng andv cnaBbncaa of' 
tbe ground.* O that tbe ii nie paal nay eoflfee wfaeieiiMae haye 
ttifM, ^knd corner ao fSir siiartef ifaa Jlof^r t>fG^; tfatoogb 
mee nay we ffy afineah to that aacred Foiailaia opentd/Draa^ 
Wieire may we wasAr and be efean, and may the rmiioa of onxr 
Ur^ be a eontiiitna iooiing^ lt» Jaaa», ani Knog^ by filitb 190a 
Him. Them Enoddike, we sWl walk aweeHy with a«r God^ 
and experience nini^ of Ma ptJajiu. S^let it Jbe, giaeieila 

I iboagbt oof iHend bad (nen qntte atroag^ by te aocoanfa 1 
bteafd ft««n diSb«eal <]a^rt«ai TbaawealnipiaacamfiaiDl^ahai 
hadihe fimt ymraof roy acqaainiaoee «iih bar, when isbe w«a 
iftnmfcballethe«llh than now. 9he «rid v^ Ibea tel it aae* 
to come on in the mcnrmnga. If it does aanowr po i i i i y e getliag 
up aHght pi:eTent it. May the Leid cwder aH wflQ thai concerna 
lier. Giro her my lore lind beet widies. Ton do not 937 Whether 
yonr health ia tolerable. O that yoor aool taay proi^per ; cleave 
to Jesn^, and be strong in htta^ then yon win be Iiyely and happy 
wherever, yoa are. Were yofii hart by tbe qaeetion 1 pot ia ray 
bfctf Iwo^ldnotwillifig^y griefeyau. 

Myhaalttii%tfaMMigii awiay^te^talMraUt; mtlwliaipfaH 

vum Mr ukioTMMSiKnm^u: tB 

«iioe84 — my waiit •£ a caxiiafe loereaMS tlmn. JM I i 
«hiiM, IalK>tti4«eejQ«^ifUa. Aad«ov the God «f Im«M fill 

^mcdyoa; awyiielw si«Wijl»,0MtfMt ]FW,«jid akiiie "vifeli ins 
tauM«f|;rsoe«p«ifiM. Facawell ia 41k LinL 

B««r yoovi wA lAalim, D. llAXvaUi. 

While LMf M«n«dl nethw «p4e»fMring te 
«inlHA l»r afiheted -'fiiead^ Lady IL, 
rtie yeag, fteyiertiy the mljtm ef yeuifiil ii " ^ - 

had Isineed to fMcciee trail theee kaewB .4 
asd ChMiiaii oeftle a oe whieh ^e 
aya itheni- jwaty-hetoriif -thei ewwy tfflirtioa i^ 
£nher«Md,«ha teraatlsr paired that she nagha metive ihe ia» 
tBBdedhcaefit; ^wd herdia«y aJfarde ahaadaat eYidfawfi riw* theee 
pnyeae ereee aae^eeei. .Bheihai elaaneaeijtod eweiela—eea 
af aereie aoafliete ^eith the pawara «f &mhmmu ; hat, at tha 
attnasth of etaaipateat gmee, ahe weet a»a, fiaai aeaqoeriag la 
aaaiiaeri <kmdj adnut m warth yaf Maude, theie eeaffieUi aai 
eonqiieatfl «ei« geaeially avoeeeded hy iweuUar maaifiattilaww 
from Ood, aad ty the pdeseMioa af wa&te thaa oidiauy desreea 
of h^piaeM. Wfaea the Saviour af mea had leeUted mU tha 
wUee of the devii, ^ aagele enae waA auDieteced aato him*^ Her 
diary tx thie year jiavee that ahe axpecieaoed a groviag dead- 
neoe to th^ awild ; adeeyper eonedioueneoe of lier awa iasoflU 
«iency; a Ikaiar. Mliaaee aitaa-Chriit; aad tha aioet iatema 
deairee to delete, hefsel^; aad all abe had, to the ghay ^ God. 
The ftdlowiog e^ltraete will eoa&ria theae remarka : — 

** I>oeeinber d2. ily eneaaeo aftea tfareateo and attempt to 
idlatarb My peace, bat ana aat pewpittad, hacaaoe the Load le- 
lNik0a'tbe»i< -^ I am kej|t very eoaaeioaa a€ aiy. areahweea, iwh&oh 
iuwveato ail iaoQfidaaee m the4eoh,aBd leadbtme to live fay fidth, 
mni eoiMtiialy to ioak »o the Btaiiag jwr^atwaj^h JaaaaisthB 
«Dly Caaadatioa for faeaaot oomfort or fiitBra felicily.' i haaa 
litue of te miad 4hat araotia haa, ia eoa^padaoa with whatia wof 

m(f^ laapiteaf Iwi^atioDoaad 
aaaityafiBia fiMraaofeaaiiig Gad, i feel aooeiUy atiaagthoae 
imhaldaaad^ aad the Lord oftea aukea oqr attemp|B um 
ottaiw» aad iieBifertahle to oifaelll iiaw voaderfitl wae hm 
aaaya; bat alill the path of daty hi aoaie lldaga leaaaioa aaeertaiaL 

^ ». Iatilihaveeaaaeteh]e8aGadfarhifl.goodiieaato 

tae. Siaoa tha 14th, hahlM bleaaMline vnA spkitaat aad 4amr 
|Miral aaercieo. Idaouw to leeoad hU knring Idadaeas, fi«,alaaf 
ahtlMNit thw, hoar paopie 11a I Oo hioe the lively aeaaeof hie gaodi. 
fiaM. I eaatralyaay, my oommaaioB jo with the Father aad 
^nUiiha &b. Hoar ifalifhtfal the pteapaet af hei^g aaoa te 

Ii8 Lirx or ladt haxh^e&u 

•fw with the Loid. wlMut BMWt W tlM fbU ftoition «f that 
heatifio viedoiL 

> (( .; 31; Upon a nTient ef thiit yeaor, thMigh I have lesaoD 

to lament my porogreae has beem amatt/my iroproTeneBl ahneet 
midiaoeniible ; yet, after deaixiag that the Lerd wojdd. aeareh me, 
I have great caQse to eioff of nerey, and to stand smased at the 
goodnese of the Lord. Not only beeanae he hath apared me, 
bu,t for supporting me under many afflictiona/eomfortuig me in 
many diatresses, ddivering me fvom many eerere ii»w8K^ eon- 
iieta, and for lefreshiBg me with the street oonactotione of his 
Holy Spixst. He- baa iSxed me ibeve mj spiiitaal foea^ which 
were at times veady to devour roe ; and M tenfoial distreeaes 
has repiealedly wrought eot deliveranees fos me when I had 
Mason to fear lest I ahoold grieve his Spiiit by taking tea mooh 
thought abent them. I trnat I ean iay he fcaew thaa mr iaten* 
^ona were right; ^bllt I erred in htvin^ toa^Kttle fiuth ; bbA, 
Macthalike, waa cumbered with what I ought lohave cemmitted 
tethe Lord. Othe long saisring of d|vm# jw^ene^. O th« 
depth of redeemmg love. I have eause-ia aav, ^Bieea th# 
Lord, O my aonl^ and all^ that ii within «s blsst Ida helif 

€3oR«^ttid«Dce with Ladgr Hop«— Diaiy ewtfimncL 

Janoaiy II, I78g. 
I RBOuvKD^ my dear dtai^iter^a sole with die enelesed, and 
<weold seoner have aeknowMeed it, but have hardly been able 
M diia day. I had^much hodSy indiapoaition ipHmn^at B — -^ 
and ha¥e aafiered much move auiee; yet m apite ofboih I had 
tto eaase to regret my being theie; having had a rcmarkalde 
"diaptay of the goodness of my 6ed, and aneh a striking proof of 
his being the heaer ef prayer, as led me, in my wajr home, though 
•unweUj-tomagnify the Lord,aad to rejoioe m him as the God 
ioi my sahation : and though, ainee, I have been partly ^otifinet 
-40 body and brought low m body by-^pain and amkneaa, yet a 

isweet akvouar-of it remains on my mind. In tike night aaaaena 
the Lofd made hie word the food of my soul; keeping alMl 
^waking it filled my mind ; aikl to-day, through men^, my pain 
is mueh abated, and I feel much diaposed to abide in prayer for 
myself and friends. The Lord appeared wiling to 'grant aV I 
adied. O the depth of divine knre \ Snrriy if I vrere net te 
praise the Lord, the very stones ef the field might ery out against 
me. I feel weak and he^lesa in sayself, but see an oeeaa of 


love and goodness in God and in Christ, to which I am welcome 
10 bare constant recourse, and ou-t of that fulness to receiye by 
fiuth all I stand in need of. O for power to imprere to the 
utmost the riob priyileges to which, as belieyers, we are entitled^ 
And, O for power to liTe more to God ! I teem as a mere 
dwiirf in religion, swimming upon the surface instead, of sinking 
into all the depths of hnmble loi^^ and rising up to all the life 
of €rod. M^ the Lord mak^ us all more in earnest ! I write 
freely, knowing that neititer matter nor m^twe will be mistaken^ 
May you^ and our ft-iend, experienee a remwkable increase o£ 
every grace of the Holy Spirit, piays , 

^ Yoot aiectionate parent in Jesus, '/ ' B. M. 


S«Qghton4ially Tnday aftemooii, Jan. 25, 1782. 

As it was late before your servant called, I did not like to 
detaiil him, and therefore sent oidy a yerbal retetn to your kind 
inqniries. I write now, hoping you will get this to-morrow. 

I am sorry you should be alone, and that I am confined at 
home, indeed mostly to my chamber, 1 am, through mercy, 
mtich better^ but still feel a soreness in my throat, and haye a 
small degree Ofneough : and the weather, at .present, is' so severe 
that, vn&out some care, I am afraid of longer confinement. 

I cannot^think of your going abroad in this stonny weather : 
.do not risk coming here till it is milder. The Lord, I trust, will 
- be with you, and supply your every want. May you have sweet 
aecess to a throne of graee through the blood of sprinkling ; a 
power to roH your every burden upon the JiOrd, and find him so 
sastaining you as to prevent your being moved : then your hours 
will pass sweetly (>n- May Jesus converse with you : and, as 
Hie Frinoc of lifcj iporease your, life; and, as the Prince of 
peace, cause ybur ptoce to flow as a river. O what blessings 
-are you entitled to, mrough your union with him ! Peace of con- 
ecience, joy inthe Holy Grhost, increase of grace,, perseverance 
therein unto the end ! These are a few of them,' but who can 
tell them all ! Aaad, in eternity, when pain, and sorrow, and siti 
are done away, what pflorious things await you^! dwell on 
these things, that the high praises of your God may continually 
be m yonr mouth, and^ his love in your %e«:t; then will your 
every moment be devoted to him. 

He, in tender love, often tries ^rou. with pains and weakness ; 
bnt the rod is gentle. He metns you to come more purified out 
of every furnace, and, as the burning bush, to flourish uncon- 
Bumed in fire. I am glad 3rou are better both in body and mind. 
Be strong, and the Lord will, strength affoid. Fear is your 
besettiug weakness ; strive against it ; it is very hurtful to the 
eoui* When low, and tempted to distrust, j2v then close to 


JdStts, atid he will eorer you.fVqoi yonr foesv «Bd keep yon as in 
tivB hoH($w of his hand ! Hia tenderness and kindness to his 
peqj^e are more than we cin conceive*^ Jesus^ what in thy 
love possess we not ! Cast all your cares upon him; spread aU 
your wants before him^ and he will guide and .comfort you here, 
and fix you at last in never ending joys, unspe^ble and iuU « 
glory. , . • • ^ 

. I hope Lady G. wiU not he long from you» nor suffer by her 
laboat of lore to the old man. May the Loxd give htm his soul 
for a prey ! May we improre jto the utmost the yearsf months, 
or days, that shall yet be allowed us, and at last have m abmto 
dant entrance mini9tered unto us into fhe eveslaafiiig kingdom of 
our God and Saviour. Till tiien I remiEUtt my dear daughter's 
affectionate parent in the Lord« D. M. 


Mareh 16, 1782. 

From my feelings, both ^ asleep and awake, for some tine 
past I'suspeeted my den* . 4iaug^ter was noi well, either in. 
body or mind, or both'^ and her letter of yest^iday eim&nns my 

What a mercy that all our trials, in soul and body, are under 
the direction of a God of love, the FatiiBr of our beloved ^ 
Saviour, in whom we are^ ^ough abounding mercy, accepted. 
We have reason, then, to tras^all shall be oveixuled for our 
good, however in- the meantiihe painfid, if we are not giviMig 
way to Tiny thing contrary to the world and wjfll of God; Wi5 
■cannot cleave toa closely to Christ, nor believe^ toe firmly upon 
him, nor expect teo' much from him. - *' If our heart condemn us 
not, then have we confidence i»ward Go^.^ But the pi^ralenoe 
of temptntian, as w^ as ^, "will weaken this confidence : and it 
is highly needful, for our own peace, to advert to this circum- 
stance. They err greatly who make either duties et frdmes 
the foundation of their acceptance with God : yet the former is 
indispensably necessary, and the latter is very desirable-4s our 
privilege, and is also evidential of a thriving souL Many of the 
children of God sink into a careless juiA supine spirit by paying 
too little regard to their frames, when, perhaps, th&y odfy dosixjs 
to be; preseirved from building upon ^em: hereby Satan lays 
a snare for them, which ^ey fall into unawares. B^t from this 
my dear daughter, I trust, will be saved, and f^om every other 
a snare of the enemy, and thiis be kept 1^ the. power of God, 
through faith, unto mil salvation. Nervous complaints mneh 
depress the mind. ^ ^ ^ 

I had intended to be oat at this time, but a tiew cold, and the 
[Severity of the weather, have made me unwillingLy give up the 
thoughts of it : from youir ; situation I should be thon^tful 
wheUier it be proper for you either ; this is a very trjriog moath. 


Hay tbe Lord 4iMet3Pwi! m4, wi»t|ier at hme «r dbioMi, uy 
he eahv^ and lefimli jfoii witii 4ke amileB of Jus moauoM 

I have bopea t)iat tbe Lord has heard n^ repeated ezM to 
him jfor a i^poper leacber. When {bare nvwetmie aad health, 
will give y<oii partkttlais. F««r«Mt, all mU he well. Soihspae, 
«». feelievee, ee ptwra, »y ^lear dawghler, 

Y«ur eygr aftwii o iiate j^awu ia Ike Lorf, D. IL 


March 28, 1782. . 
My latst wte sealed and sent to towp before your servant 
called. I see by your ^short letter you are in heavmesa through 
tuanifild teni|>tatioQ8. As to your apprebecttoona about Lady Or. 
f betieve it is a devic^e of Satan to dietresa you, and think yoa 
should strive agaiJiist it.^ But as nothing happens to the ehil- 
drea of God, whether joyous or grievous, but^ from which he 
Means they should leap benefit — it might turn oiit to your sja- 
ritual advantage if vou vf%mM carry it frequently to the Lord, and 
endeayouT to plead earnisstly that the end he has in Tiew, by 
permitting it, may he^ulfy answered. Tliis might be the means 
of your obtaining entire victory, if it be a temptation : and sup- 
posing the worst, still this is the best wij to get the mind Com- 
forted^ fortified, and sweetly reconciled to the divide wilL O 
what cannot the power of grace eflfect in the human heart? It 
Tjan inake us even rejmce. to give up our Isaacs when called to 
it. Believe .this firmly, and then you will so trust in the Lord 
as liot to be afraid of evil tidings ; yoUr heart will be ^xed. We 
should be much aware of anticipating evil, it is fraught ^ith 
many hurtful consequeuces ; it embitters present enjoyments; it 
weakens faith, love, tr«»t; ft grieves the Holy Spirit, nourishes 
unbelief, and leads to discontent. Do you not remember how 
atronglyyou were tempted, some years ago, to believe your 
own death was at hand ! the impression; you said, was strong, 
hut you said afterward that it was only temptation. If we have 
a friend that we can trust, it is of great use to inentioa our 
nemptations ; tjiiis is biieii, by the blessing of the Lord, {nade 
the means of breaking their power. I kooi^r this by expenence. 
May you prove it so at present ! 

'Y'our aiflfectionate parent, . . IX fii. ^ 

The fi;»Uowing extracts from the diary will enable the reader 
i0 form a proper estimate of the state of her ladyship's niind and 
heart ^X the close of this year : — 

'' September 25. In the course of these last two weeks J have 
felt variously. I have, at times, had seasons of refreshing ; 

• A f^ar tbfet her fiieDd was about 40 be jmnovedlij daaib; 

902 Ltm OW IJa>Y' UAXWKVL. 

sweet mboft that Grod is the hesrer of prayer. I have 6ad 
etrongp desires after entire deretedBeBS of heart and file to God ; 
have been drawn out to plead for the full accomplishmeiit of the 
pAomisea in mip--own soul, with macfa lomng^ for that happy time ; 
. and have waited for it with- a degree of fainting', because so long 
. deferred. T have thought, aoreiy the promises of a faiihfid Go3 
eannot fail ;> yet, wherefore is it so long helbre he appears in nvjr 
behalf t I have feared lest I had any aisAil hand in it, and have 
beea grieved because I seem to live to so:}ittle purpose; doing 
80 litUe for God, for others, or for myself. I Imit« hoped that 
erery returning day would make a happy change. I hate 
been happy when, any opportuni^ was pat in mypower of doing 
;.. good,, and rejoiced as one that K>und great spott: though even 
' herein, upon a strict scrutiny, I have been veiy unfaithful. In 
i^iort, I am a mystery ^o myself; and were it not that I have the 
express promise of a faithful vGod> on which to depend fi>r a great 
increasie in my own. soul and for ati enlarged sphere of usejui- 
nesSf 1 should almost despair of thinga being better with me than 
they are at present. But surely the heavens and the earth shall 
. sooner /ail than one word thaft /he'haih spoken fall to the ground. 
Lordy I believe ; help thou my nnbeJief 

^y October 11. Still I have much eaase to say, ^ My leanoeaSy- 
my leanness.' -Yet; I must also ssayf i have much cause to r&- 
Gord the loving j^^indness of the Lord. Since my last date, my 
Tisits from oh high have been more firequent. , I have feh nM>re 
sweetness flowing from a sense of the presenbe of Christ, whs 
has been very near and precious. O were he always thus wiili 
me, heaven, in one sense, ^ould be complete ! He is my all in 
all. The Lord has gyeatly enlarged my sphere of usefulness m 
a way I did not expect ; and at first I felt a degree of reluctance, 
fearing my unfaithfulness : but I am now sweetly reconcfled to 
it, and have cause to praise the Lord, who has strengthened me 
'to do what he called me to, and what I feared. O for a grateful 
Iieart ! He ^ives me also to feel> in Uie present case, that the 
way of duty as the way no;ronly of safety, but of comfort and 
strength. He does all thinj^s well. He has laid his haftd gently 
upon my body, and again removed the rod» and disappointed my 
fears. He li^s also refreshed my spirits by good accounts from 
afar ; from a very par-ticular friend, who, I hope,- has been his 
mouth to roe. Lord, thpu knowest I would- not willingly mistake 
the way m which thou wouldst have me to walk. I look to thee 
to confirm this matter to me, that J may rest assured I am doing 

^) as usual, 
hi' not wifii 
I than uaual* 

I fee) strong desires to live up, to them, to the very utmost ; and 
^ this fbr jhe sake of others, as^ell as myself. Lord» 'da thou 
enable me to betaithfiiL 


" -^ — 36. Still, because mv God is g^ood; t experiettce in a 
meatiuie his loving kindness. In the course of these two weeks 
he has. been gracious to me in various ways ; he has carried me 
tfarongh trials ; strengthened me for doing and suffering his will ; 
^made me feel more profit and comfort &om the word preached 
than for some time before^ given me jto. experience more empti- 
ness in the creature than usual ; and- also made me willing it 
should be so, if he saw meet, provided I might enjoy a proper- 
IJtfHiable fweetnes^in himself. He has strengthened my body to 
undergo more fatigue than usual-, without being hurt by it. He 
has made me also-to feel how good it is for me to make all my 
wants known to him by prayer ; with all my hopes, fears, and 
desires ; for I keep- nothing from myOod. He more and more 
leads me in this way, and I praise him for it. O the privilege 
of prayer ! He also tenderly warns me when danger is near, 
and causes me to c^ to himself. 

. '* Noveknber 9^ I again take up my pen to testify of the good- 
ness df mf God. Since my last date he has given re&esh- 
ing seasons, sometimes in public, sometimes in secret,' and sen- 
sibly assisted me in family duties. He has permitted me to be 
brought into many difSculties, in order to show his power in 
supporting m^ under them, and his goodness in delivering me 
from them. I have met with most unexpected trtajrwithin these 
two we^ks, and .have been driven, in s6me measure, into ex- 
tremity ; but this hath been the Lord^s opportunity. I cried onto 
him, and be kept, my iniod stayed uppn himself. In the midst 
of various trials hd has made me sit calm on tumult's wheel. 
From the comfort I felt, I doubted-trials were at hand : it^proved . 
soj but^I also i»ove(^ the Lord a strong hM in the day of trooUe. 
Nature felt and juffered^ but gnce- sustained the conflict. He 
gave rae to feel composure, serenity, and comfort in his house c^ 
prayer. O tl^at it may be a prelude to greater enjoyments ! But 
he makes me mcHre and more sensible I am nothing, and have 
nothing but what he bestows* and this keeps me dependent 
upon hiohself, for which I praise him. He also still shows me 
wh&t I lack, but surrounds me with promises for all I can stand 
in need of. I will extol thee, O Gud, my King, for ever, and 
ever ^ while I have a being I Will praise my God. 

((.^ 2L Gardiner*S'halL I left Saught&w-hall the 14th, a 

.place where the Jjord permitted me to be tried with great and sore 
inward conflicts, but out of which he also» in u great measure, 
delivered me ; a place wherein -he gave me, in much mercy, to 
know, him times without number as a God that heareth prayer, 
both for myself and others. He also afforded frequent oppor- 
tunities of attempting to do good to others, by having the gospel 
preached in my house, by this distribution of religious tracts 
among the peo|Hev and by conversing with many individuals upon 
the concerns of their immortal souls. Howeveir feeble the 

804 lawE or lady vulxwwbl 

•attempts, if the Lord ghe his Uedsiiig,they shall not be in rain. 
Sangfaton-hall' was a phuse to which I was much attached, but 
when the Lord called me to leaye it he enabled me eheerfolly 
to give it up, a,nd perhaps I may see more clearly af^rward his 
reasons for calling me oat of it: at present, I atn' satisfied 
with my situation. His presenoe cdnstitutes my heaven in every 
place. May he enablcvme to love him more and serve him bet- 
ter in this place than ever I have yet done. Then I shall indeed 
have reason to praise him lor the change. I have much caiuse 
to bless him for carrying me through iiiuch hurry, fatigue, ^rid a 
variety of scenes, without suffering by it ; and for giving me, 
since I came here, health of bddy,. mteroourse ^th his people, 
the privilege of repeatedly entering his house of prayer, and also 
some opportunities j>f acting for hun, thougl^ m^ bpiritual eom- 
forts have net been so great. ' 

"December 19. ([Friday.) Words fail to express my obliga- 
tions -to the Lord. Since Wednesday, last week, I have had 
gracious seasons, both when alone and wb^n with others. When 
Jesus smiles, niy lieaven is begun ; and of iMe he has been pre- 
sent and precious. He is the sacred tource from whence spring 
my chief joys. I long to prove his u^ost salvation, and fulness 
of love ; to be lost in that ocean of love that neither knows hot- 
toib nor shore. • 

" y 22. Thi» also hasbeen a precious daf. My fellowship 

has been with the Father and the Son from morning to night.' 1 
have felt wrapped up in Jesus, and proved him^ ^uch /a sonroe 
of calm repose as I cannot easily express. How poor' and trifling 
does all created good appear when thus highly favoured of God ! 
He in mercy keejja me keenly sensible of my weakness, while 
he lets me feel where my strength lies, and makes me aWare 
of my danger. As i^ respects spiritual pride, my sonl trembles 
at the thought. I fly to the feet of Jesus, and there Ir am aafe.'' 


Diaiy and con«8poDdeQc« eontinued. 

January 3. My God has seen meet to conduct me to the^ 
beginning of a new year, aiid with an unnsuiil measQre of bodiljr 
health. I v^as enabled tp wait upon him in public very late on 
the last night of the last year, and early on tlue first day of this; 
neither of which I had been privileged to do for many years. A 
painful languor has rested on my mind for some little time, f have 
no condemnation, but experience a keen conviction of my want 
of more spiritual life. I see and feel the necessity of drawing 
near to Grod. Indeed he has so moulded my spirit that, if I do 
not enjoy oomfort m him, I eaniiot Aid it in uny ihii^ dse. Long 

•laoe lie inelioed me to Hee frem llie world lest I should be hurt 
by it, and also beeause I had no relish for it ; do that I am thank- 
fbl to say I have no proper source of comfort but in himself. 
When, therefore, I feel at a distance from him, I am all an ach- 
ing YOid, and am entirely out of my element. I also grieye from 
day to day that my sphere of usefulness remains so contracted. 
My desires to act for God are constant and vigorous; and his 
promises for this are many and extensive ; but ** hope deferred 
maketh the heart sick.^* The aspect of providence has long in 
tlHs respect appeared to oppose my wishes and expectations ; 
henee arises my grief: but 1 would chide my unbelief. Surely 
the promises of a faithful Grod shall not, cannot fail. Upon a re- 
view of the last year, I perceive this has been my complaint 
during the whole of it; yet I trust I have been kept thirsting 
after all the life of trod ^ and for the full accomplishment of all the 
precious promises he ^as given in my behalf. Hasten, Lord, 
the happy time. 

-; 22. I have lately been favoured wjth a niore ardent 

^Irit of prayer than almost ever formerly: my whole soul 
se<^med to struggle into Gkid, and to pant keenly after the fhll 
accomplishment of the- promises., I was in great hopes that the 
time to favour me wais come ; fbr I felt as though I could not 
Uve at such a distance from Grod ; Was made astonished and 
ashamed at my past unfaithfulness and unprofitableness, and 
amaxed that the Lord had borne with me so long. For some 
days past this keen edge has been blunted ^ and is succeeded by 
a degree of languor. My constant desire is, for the full enjoy- 
ment Of the blessing of sanctiBcation ; and I would always be at 
a throne of grace ; but when there I lio not enjoy that spirit 
of fervent supplication as lately ; nay, all my kindling ardours 
die away, and I remain uneasy and restless. O to enter into a 
permanent rest, where all is light, life, and power ! O to be all 
praise, all love, and all activity V My desires after more exten- 
sive usefulness continue, and recently the Lord favoured me 
with new opportunities, and afforded me power to embrace them. 
I feel the will 4>f my G6d to be precious, and desire in all things 
to be confoimed to it. 

February 14. I have bad a small revival, but it does not 
pTore lasting. On Monday evening my heart was softened, my 
mind serene, arid a degree of sweetness was diffused throuffhout 
my soul. The following dty thin increased r and the Lord 
showed me clearly the state of my soul, and convinced me that 
^part of my suffering had ariseii from a partial ignorance respect- 
ing it. While I painfhlly thought the work of grace was at a 
stand, the Lord was in faet carrying iibn, though not in that joy- 
cos way I wished ; bat by giving me a genend and constant 
view of the shortness of time and the inftnite value of eternity, 
thcMbymakmg all«ailhly and traoMent thittgs appear very poor 


and little indeed. This is u in^KMrtant lesson^ O that I umf 
team it fully ! then all other things will be easily set right. • 

— — *- 28. Still I have cause to complain ; stUl I am far fretm 
possessing that degree of Mtiritual hfe, which I know to be my 
privilege. Since my last I have enjoyed tastes of the goodness 
of God, but they were too short to satisfy . I have felt a sensible 
increase of hungering after the whole image of God ; the want 
of a full possession of this has pained my. inmost soul.: bat I am 
again in a measure sinking &om this ardour^ and it is s\icceeded 
by a degree of languor which alaime me. «When shall I be all I 
^ish ! Secret prayer is the m^ns from which. I derive the 
greatest benefit at present. I do indeed prove this to J)e a special 
privilege ; I could not live without it, though I do not always 
find comfort in it. I still ardently desire an enlarged sphere of 
usefulness, and find it comfortable to embrace the opportunities 
afiforded me, though alas ! I sAknot so.faitiiful herein as 1 o^ght 
to be. O what great things hath God promised and prepared for 
His children evei^ here ! Why should I come so far short ! 

March 12. I would with gratitude acknowledge the goodness 
of my God, who, for tbe^last tvti> weeks, has given me more 
reason than for some time to conclude that he is carrying on 
his work sovil, and with much &eedom iT<^m painful tempt- 
ation and inward conflicts. He has, with the return tiS spring, 
given me a fresh spring of heavenly afiections ; sweetly aJlnring 
me to hunself, and constraining me to yield up all the afiection 
ate powers of .my heart to him, with whom true joys abound. 
Therel would centre all my happiness ; from that sacred source^ 
I would draw all my consolation. I have been favoured with 
the sweet and sensible presence of my God, esj^cially this last 
week, both in public and privpte, but particularly in secret prayer. 
In the house of God, my views of a happy eierDiiy ^^^^ heen 
truly delightful. For about two l>ours last week, I felt most 
keenly* from a fear that I had grieved the Spirit of God ;- but the 
3uord in mercy removed my distress, and comforted, me. He 
shows nie that my works ar^ not perfect ; clearly sets before nie 
how much more closely I may W9lk with him : bow much lao're 
glory I may bring to him; and if I can judge of the feelinge of 
my heart, 1 should esteem it >my richest privilege to- give him 
each precious moment as it flies, and to prove the utmost pow(» 
of transforming grace. 

• 14. Still my God is good. Last night, in the chapei, 

it was indeed a time of love.. God tlie Father and Son drew 
near ; surrounded me with their peaceful presencOf and filled my 
soul — ^not with rapturous joy, but with a silent heaven of love. 
The divine attraction felt so strong that, Ukfe the .cpneentrated 
rays of the sun, my «very power and faculty seemed united and 
fixed on God. I felt sweetly sinking into hiin^ and enjoyed most 
delightful and extensive viewa of hoUaess. I experieii09 to^di^,. 

ssone bleitted effect of thj» heaveaij VisitoSioii, ui nexetmng 
power to take up my crom, to deny myself, and to follow 11^. 

— ■■ — 26. This Biommg, while I was conyening with^ some 
persons that love God, Jesus drew oear, and filled my sod with 
sarprise* When he Hb nigh, sorrow and care fly far away. 
Throaghont the day he, at different times, appeared to the eye of 
my faith as altogeUier lovely : yet my enemies pashed hard at 
me, and one temptation for some ^ime prevailed. But O, with 
what desire did I <hreathe after pure and perfect love:. that 
Jesus might more fully possess v^y heart, and felt willing to part 
with alt for this, v For some time my hungering and thirsting 
afioK entire devotedness to God have been abundantly increased ; 
yet I have also felt depresseid ^ith a. sense of my unprofitable- 
ness. O tbat the Lord would enlarge my sphere of usefulness. 
I long to fae^tive' for God, a«d useful to my fellow, creatures. 
I have the promiee of a ^ithful God for this ;- batlhe time seems 
long delayed. O that now he would do ka be hath spoken. 

May 23. JCoates, Having obtained help of God, I continue 
to this day, witnessing that he is good; , Since my last date I 
hftve had severe and unexpected trials, but the Lord has brought 
me through. O that I could add, with glory to his name, and 
with profit to my own soul : but, alas I herein I ttm still defect- 
ive^ I have also enjoyed many mercies; O that I could say they 
produced all that warmth of gratitude they were calculated to 
do ; but herein also I greatly fail. In^very many respects I am 
a wonder to myself. When will my ccnoplainings cease ? I am 
weary of them. Wl\en shall I be 2^1 h>v« an4 all praise 1 The 
Lord brqpght me, to this place on the 16th instant, through 
many difficulites : it has heen mostly a season of trial ever since, 
yet. mingled with many mercies* At Gardiner's house, from 
whence. I came, I ^ad much cause to speak of the goodness of 
the Lord ; and here also I expect his tender mercies will follow 
me. O that I may be endued with power to glorify him, how- 
ever it may fare witli me. . . 

Junfs Q. Since my last date, the Lordhas appeared remaxka 
AAy in my behalf, and has wrought out for me a great temporal 
deliverance. Mia :goodness .astonished me ; and his faithfiilness, 
which shone conspioqously in this affair,, confirms my trust in 
him for future mercies .'^but y<^tthis lively sense of hia kindness 
doe.s not prove so lasting as it ought. Q, I much need more 
grace !. For some weeks past I have been harassed with world- 
ly matters, which have- occupied much pf my time, and I fear 
injured my mind ; at least, damped my spiritual ardour. I hope 
the bustle is now nearly over. O that I may a thousand times 
more than ever. centre in God; feel calm tepose in the bosom 
and blood of Jesus,, and be all for Jbhovah. 

13. My soul is made very d^irous of an enlarged 

Lif£ OF i:a^y uxxr^Ehu 

ftpbere of aetion for Ged: tb^ tangiiage of my heart is, What 
Mil I do for Godt IMye cried to liim repeatedly, that he 
would pat some work in mj hand, and I think he has pointed 
out one or two ways wherem I may be of some use to his cause 
and people. He has givelif me strong convictions, since I came 
here, of th^' shortness and uncertainty %f tinie— of the unsatis- 
factory nature of all eublimary good-^f the great propriety of 
using all for him— «nd of my doing as much as possible during 
my short life for his cause. May his graee enable ttie to reduce 
these lessons to practice:' may i enjoy more of his love in my ' 
heart. He has in mercy lately warded me of danger where! 
was not suspecting any ; and -stimulated me to cry to him to be 
preserved from whatever' would grieve his Spirit, or icfthe least 
injure my own soul. 

WhHe Lady Maxwell wais than intensely desiriiig an enlarged 
•I^iere of usefulness fcnr herself, she continued to stimulate her 
mends to ga forward with their works of faith and Jabouxs of 
lo?e. The following letters must not tie omitted :-^ 

■)..-, ' ■ '. '.' 

TO LABT H.')HOl*«. 

Coat^a, June W, 1788. 
I had both my dear daughter's letters; and would halve answer- 
ed the first sooner, but have had people staying in my house 'for 
«ome days, to whom I gave a good deal of my time Jbndly hoping 
it might be of some use to them. ^ Besides!, I have not been 
so well for the MsX two weeks, and on Sunday Mras only out 
about two hours to the West Church, which wae a time of re- 
freshing. Mr. Jones and Mr. Groves were no small addition ; 
both seemed alive„ and in general it appeared to be a good time. 
I hope Mr. G. will be of use at Edinburgh; multitudes attend 
hie preaching. He was with me yesterday, when we had some 
profitable c^nversaiion. -0 that the Lord would give a fresh 
commission to many of his ministering servants; that his word 
may run and have free course, that multitudes may fall down 
under the power of it, and our, God be gloiified, from the r»ing to 
the setting sun^ ^ How desirable is it to be in any way instru- 
mental in promoting this great work. Time is flying, men tire 
dying, and eternity hastens on. This is not oUr rest, w^ must 
not expeet it here; let Us thenbe willing to embrace every in-^ 
convenience the Loid may see meet to lay in our way ; let us 
live as pilgrims,- hastening home to our glorious rest, and en- 
deavouring to take as many with us as we can. We have hitherto 
lived at a poor djring rate, much beneath our privileges ; let the 
time past more than suffiee; let us now arise fmd lay aside every 
weight, look continually to Jesus, and live by iaith Upon himt 
and we shall find wonders done in his. hdy name both Tor 4 
selves and odiers. 


I ata g)2d Lady 6. As jgeitmg better ; I faope th« Leacd faas 
much to do for her, and wtthher, hefyre the takes poeeessioD of 
that inheritance that fadetb not away. With my lo?e, tell her 
I had all her letters, and lost nt> time ib 4oing what^he wished 
me ; but the person she mentioned was gone out of town». not 
to return till this night, when I ^hope td give hidi the infmrma- 
tion she desired ; and on Monday 1 hope to be aUe to give her 
some seeoiiDt of the matter. Mrs. N. is much «b usual, rather 
Mitred up by Mr. G. Scarlet fevers are prevailing in Iowb, and 
a putrid otie at Dunbar; bat when will the inhabitaots karo 
tighteeusnesB ! 

I ^sh I could proiride you with a propi» maid, hut it is a dif- 
ficult matter ; you have my pzayers for it, and if I hear of one, 
will let you know. Prayer can procure every thiu^ that is. for 
our geod: O what cause ofthankfiifaiesa is it that we have a 
gracious God to go to on all oceamona. Um and enj<^ this pri- 
vilege, 'and yoU can never be miserable^ Xeu want more faith ; 
try mightily for it, and stir up the gift of God that<:is in you, and 
ilet not the power of temptation bbeevixeihal eomfortaUe light it 
is the will of God you i^hould walk in, or weaken t^at strength 
of which you are possessed in virtue of your union with the 
Lord of life and glory. Ms^ the Lord set yon free, and keep 
ou 80, and enable you more than ever to spend and be spent in 
' s cause. So prays, my deair daug^toe:, 

- Your affeetionate parent, D. M. 



Cortes, July 8, 1783, 
How is ffity dear daughter since she aitived ai Mofiat ? May 
1 hope better both in body and mind V It » surely a great evu 
to think more highly of ourselves than we ought to think ; but I 
judge it is also a loss not to form a jpo^^ estimate of ourselves. 
ft is the opihion of one of 0nr English poets, that the part we 
acf in liie bears an exact proportion Co the judgment we form of 
ourselves; that we tiever shall attempt any thing great, either 
for God or man, if we think Ve^ meanly of ours^ves. This 
sentiment, thongh it came from the pen of a man that I believe 
had no religion, yet, properly q^nalified, is truth* In one sense 
yfire cannot think too meanly of ourselves, but in another I think 
we may ; and I believe the adversary of souls has a hand in it-«- 
for while he persuades us^at we are so poo: and despicable 
we can do nothing ; he means therd)y to cut asimder the very 
sinews of our active endeansoard for thfe glory of God, and the 
good of our fellow oreaturcs. This is ' a very s%t6tle device of 
Satan ; by it many strong ones are rendered weak and kept 
useless all their days, when by nature and grUce they are formed 
for extensive usefulness. May the Lord dliine into your soul, 
and give you to know the things that are &eely ^ireo yos of 


God, and enable you to tise them oU to his g]oiy,^tfae good of 
your fellow creatutes, and the comfort of joar own eouL I know 
this is the habitual desire of your heart 

Is there any iiray which occurs to your mind for the promoting 
of any or all of these, in which yon cpnld take « more active pari 
tiian you have hitherto done t I think it would be of use^ to yoo. 
' Your nerves and spirits are, I think, >ery weak .at present ; see 
that you. do all yon can in your present ntnation for strengthen- 
ing them. O get free from unnecessary cares, and from taking 
too great a weight of even necessary iXDeB\ Fear nothing; 
neither persons, places, nor things. It is our privilege to have 
but one desire — that is, to please God ;. and but me Jeat^lMi 
we should offend him. Thiii brings much sweet libeny into the 
soul. May you feel it so ! 

I shall tie glad to hear soon £nAn yon, with many partieulars 
about yourself, and our dear friend, and also of Ladv J. Many 
thanks for the bot^ you seat me. I am mu<^ m when you saw 
me. I* wrote Lady 6. last night, but forgot to give her my ad- 
dress. Most people continue my M one, Prtnoess-sireet^ and 
my letters alwajrs eome^ safe. In every jdace and situation.! 
continue, my dear daughter. 

Your afibctionate parent, D. M. 


. GoBtes, Jidy 34, 1788. 

My dear daughter's letter, of the 16th I did not receive till the 
93d, owing to Miss N.'s being out of town. I began to fear that 
either Lady G. or you was not well. Both letters were most 
acceptable and agreeable. By. your desite I i^ite soon. I am 
glad the visits yon mei|ti(Mi «re over, and the hurry and agitation 
occasioned by them subsidiBg. ? would almost s&v it is a great 
mercy when we are hurt by worldly company, (I do not mean 
sinfully so ;) it is a great preservative agcunst mixing too much 
with it, and a loud call to avoid it, as much as. is consistent with 
the wiU of God ^d^our doty. 

I pereeive, by your letter, that you are suffering both in body 
and mind £rom different causes ; some of which have often proved 
a source of distress to yoo. .0 that the Lord would teaph you 
to depend more upon himselfVandto be less attached to the 
creature. Indeed, it is your privilege to be feee and disentangled 
from a2/,-to give them all lip to God, and to leave them there. 
This will secure to you the true enjoyment of tKem ; but this 
victory the power of sovereign grace alone can give, -and it is 
more difficidt to some tempers than others. The more yon 
love God the more easy you/ willed it to trust him with what- 
ever is dearest to you, whether persons or things; and the 
greater degree of eweet liberty yda feel in^your own SOul. 

There is nothing so hurtful to the nervous system a» anxiety; 

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it inreys upon the vitalB, and weakens tbe whole frame ; and, 
what is worse than all, it gnevee il^ Holy Spirit. Bdt I hope 
yon will be made conqueror orer that, and evjery other foe, and 
proTO CrodVutmOBt salvation and fulness of lore : then yon wiU 
find " where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty :'* then 
you will be better able to commit not only your own way, but 
the way of those yfou love,, unto the Lord, and to trust in him 
that he will bring it to pass : then you will see cause to praisie 
him, when he has wrought that work that oansed your needless 
fesafs. 1 feed inclin^ to say^ '^ O thou of little faith, wherefore 
dOett thou deubtt" Wherefiure dost thou fear from day to day, 
for thyself and others, and where is there any just causer for fear 1 
^ The Lokd <xOd Omnipotent reigwtK^ and this (}od is your 
Ood, and the. God of your dear friend, and he wiU be tbe gmde 
^both, even unto death. His &tthfiikiess is a constant abield 
and hneUer to bodi : you; may have aeoess every moment f<Mr 
counsel and direction from him, and you are sbTToimded with his 
promises for time and eternity. Yon have no views in life but to 
glorify God and to enjoy him ; how thei^ can yon entertain one 
&adow of a doubt that tbe Lord will not shine upon your path, 
and lead ydu into his holy will 1 O, my dear madam, see your 
privHeges, and live up to them, and say^ with the poet, — 

" Away, my nnbelieving foKn^ 

■ Fe&r shall ne^more in me have place." 

When the Xiord answers our prayers he xaftmi thwarts our m* 
^inations, and by leading us into all kU holy will he most fre? 
quently crosses ^r own, But^hese are sacrifices he expects 
we will offer up to him. All Lady G.'s exeroises will, I trust, 
ferminate, as you and I could wish, in her own good and that of 
others. ^ You ma^y assist her muchly your prayers, your counsel* 
and your ready and cheerful acquiescence in whatever she has 
reason to believe is the -will of God concerning her. I rejoice 
in the good accounts from London. O that the work of the Lord 
may increase in afii places ; may his kingdom come, and his will 
be done; and may we be pennitted, and honoured, to throw in 
our mite also ; mhy all we have, uid are, be devoted to God. 
How does Lady 1. go on ? Believe me oyer 

Your affectionate parent, ^ D. M. 

The Lord had important work in reversion for his pious hand- 
maid, and he was now gradually preparing her to en^&ge in it 
with all the spiritual^urdour of a primitive Christiaa. The inten* 
flity of desire breathed forth in many of the following extracts, 
and the victorious faithi manifested throughout until she reoeived 
^ the accomplishment of the promises," are truly remarkaUe. 

*' July d7. Since the 13th, I have experienced a small in- 
erease ; a keener edge i|pon my spirit ; a sharper appetite four 

tlU LOT OP ii^mr xAxwmjA* 

•phitaal food ; a greater standing alone with Grod ; a fuUer 
•mptying of created good ; a deepei eonviction of the shortneM 
of time, and tbe awful importance of eternity ; with an increaae 
of k)7e to God, sweetness in dnty, and more 9rdeat desires to be 
wholly employed for him. Still my God continues his goodness 
to me with regard to secret prayea:,.aHowing me Uber^.to ponr 
ont all my heart to him, to oast all my oaros upon him* vid to 
spread all niy wants before htm. How very often do I prove 
him to he a God that heareth prayer. I hare been lately, favoured 
with some preetons instanoes of this ; ^ef his oaTe over me in pro- 
serring mts in the time of dattger,^ and in providing for niy safety 
when I thought sot of it. 

*^;3ept. 12. Upon a strict review of what has ^Hissed within 
•ad without during the last montii, I have caase to record the 
ffoodneiss of my G;od in very many respects ; yet my comlorta 
have run in so W a. channe} that I seem to have bat little . to 
■ay. One thing I most observe, that, if spiritual oonsdations 
have been small, inward conflicts and outward trials have aJs^ 
been few. I have felt a keener edge upon, my spirit, iftrong; 
desires al^er all the life of God, and for po^r to glorify him in 
a more active a^d useful way. He has enabled me te be mueh 
in prayer for the aoObmi^ishment of the promises, though with 
little comfort : yet at times I h%ve been brought into extremitj; 
seeing aU outward Helps failing ; no opening in providence ror 
extensive -nsefdlnesli ; no.immediate answer^, to {wayer in respect 
to this particular. .Beside the removal of those that were help*, 
lul to me by prater and conference, some to Abraham's hosomf 
others turned seemingly aai^e, — all these things appear against 
me, and tend to discourage me ; so that at times r have been 
sorely peri^exed. Yet in the niidst of these triads I have been 
upheld by an almighty power, and still hope not one w6rd shall 
fail of all tl^e good things which God hath promised. Though in 
a greal measure I sttod alone, and have done so fcur some tim^ 
I am enabled to helieve that the Lord 4S Me to make me standi 
and that he will^rlect what concerns me; though destitute of 
various helps which I 'onoe enjoyed. Even so. Amen. 

^^ Octdber 3. Still ray soul is vexed with a partial distance from 
God : still he delays his coming in t^e full accomplishment of 
the promises : stiU the means of grace are comparatively un- 
profitable, and at times I feel the fiery darts of Satan. It is an 
■emptying season. Yet the Lord frequently answers my prayers 
with regard to temporal things,, from which I derive encourage- 
ment; but it is spiritual blessings I long for : a healthful soul 
and a useful life. This God hath promised. And though at 
present a sable clond envjdlope^ me, I will still waii, and hope» 
and believe to the end. O to be all alive to God ; to possess a 
heart flaming with divine love; and^ life shining with every 
grace of the Holy Spirit . For these I would despise orowna 

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ind Qceptm. Lord, gmit ne alll uraat, ibr ChnH^B 9fk»t and 
I will pcaose thee in tiBoe and tfazoogh eternity. 

^ ^iftdy M. ai tbift time Buffered fvmx a degree of unoertaiotj 
respeetibg the work of graee in hei heart. . She had not yet. 
pnbtiely pnofe^aed entire saafietificaHm^ but at times belieTed that 
die enjoyed the blessing : at other seasons she. was perjf^xed 
with *deubtB, and was led to fear that those doubts were ocea^ 
sioiied'by het not hninbly dedaring ^ what Grod bad done for her 
soul." That she might be d^iircnred from this state of uncer- 
tainty she solicited au interest in the prayers of her friends. 

^ . . _. October 18, 1783. 

I wrote dear Miss Ritchie many months ago, and hope it is 
ilot want of healtib, which proTents my havings an juiswer. If 
entirely eoavouent, shoidd be glad to be.ikS8ured of this, by her 
own pen. . . ./ ^ 

Yot some time past a painful degree of uncertainty has rested 
imon my experience. I feel afraid oi drawing any certain con- 
Ottsion Goncexning the present state of my soul: lest, on the one 
hand, I deny i^iiat the Lord has.done for me ; or, on the other, 
presame on what he has not giren. . On this account I suffer a 
good deaLof distress, and feel much inclined, if you will permit 
me, to ask the assistanee of your praycfrs in a particular manner j 
that the Lord would cause his heavenly light to shine bright into 
m eoul^ and thereby scatter eyery^eloud, apd do away all degree 
qf'patitfol dcmbt; that I jnay k^ow the things freely given me 
i>f God, and be enabled to give him the glory, and take ^e 
oomfort to myself. The fiery darts of the enemy 1 feel at times 
Ire^y point^i^ ; you know, I doubt not, the sharp distress these 
oeeasion. I trust all I C^el is in mercy, and. will- be overruled 
for good ; but I lonjB; mneh for deliverance, if agreeable to the 
divine will. The Lord ha» givei^ me exceeding great and pre- 
eioiis promises for all I ean Want, both, for sou|^ body, and pujt- 
ward estate, iik time and through eternity; inany of which he 
has accomplished; but the delay of the rest. often proves a 
souree of the most painful sensations. I long to be fully eata^ 
Uisbed in God^s uttiiost salvation ; to- be firm as. a wall of brass, 
and as an iron pillar strongf.^ . Surely" this is his will concerning 
ine. Bo, then, dear Miss Ritchie, plead earnestly that I may 
stand perfect and complete in it ; and thereby you wiU greatly 
obbge your afifectionate friend in the bonds of the gospel, 

- ^b. Maxwsll. 

Such precaution is highly praiseworthyj and deeerves to he 
imitated by all the people of God. A few more extracts from 
tiie diary ik^I eonduet to t^ end <^ this year :^-^ 


' ** OetoberSd. The Lord hath«|mefti«d in my behalf, and aenl 
me help from his hblyhitt, for which I <kfeire to.faiess him. Last 
Saturday he gave me a littld reviving^ in my bondage ; and on 
tiie sncceedingr Sabbath I felt his power, tasted his goodnei!*, 
and proved his faithfaliiess. While the enemy was attempting . 
to pour in as a flpod ^e lifted ap a staadazd, disarmed Satan of 
his' malicious power, and armed me with dirine strength. In 
spite of all opposition I was etiabied to stand still, and se^ the 
salvation of God. Since then I have enjoyed more comfort, 
more sweetness in prayer, and vigorous desires to be ail for God. 
Immediately before this revival I felt stripped pf o^, exce|tf m 
power to call on the Lord ; and, indeed, my heart and flesh cried 
out for the living God : but this was in the absence of every 
joyous sensation. Truly God is good to Israel, and, though at 
times he may tarry long, he will avenge his own elect whp night 
and day 6ry unto hira. - 

*' November 19. Since my last date I have' bad seasons of trial 
and of consolation. Last week was a time of severe temptation. 
[ scarcely knew to which hand to turn ; yetf in the midst of all, 
through mercy^ I was enabled to cry mightily to God, and he 
has heard and sent me deliverance; x esteniay, while conversing 
with some of his children on religious snbjeelsv he made it a 
season of refreshing from his presence, both to myself and others. 
God, the Father ai^d Son, were clear to the eye of my fintli; 
and all within was peace and serenity. This happy frame eon* 
tinned through the day ; and, to-day, though much teropted^ my^ 
God is sensftly with me. ^- 

" December 3. This has truly been a precious day ; from morn- 
ing to night my peace' has flowed as a river. In conversation, 
the Lord has suggested profitable matter, and given abili^ to 
express it. At times my pen and tongue move fiedy >; at othexa 
I reel a total incapacity, and labour under a painfol stagnation' 
of thought : this convinces me that the power to use eith^ to. 
purpose comes firom the Lord. Indeed ihe farther I go in the 
divine life th% more conscious I am of my entire dependence 
upon God ; and that it is so, affords me peculiar pleasure. He 
is daily teaching me more simplicity of spirit ; makes me'wiHing 
to receive all as his unmerited gift ; and to eaU upon him for 
every thing I need, as I need it; andche snppliea my wani» ac- 
cording to existing exigencies, i perceive I have no stoek^ in 
myself, on which to depend ; every new service demands a^sh 
supply, and my God Is ffood, and sends me grace to help in the 
time of need. Mach of his goodness I have tasted this day, in 
secret and social prayer, in ' oonversatiqn, and in meditation. 
The Lord has also lately removed much bodily indi^wsition. O 
that health, time, talents, wealth, influence, im m^y be naed for 
him. While my God is thus blessing me, the enemy ia very 
busy, varying his temptations, and applying them inoet povef- 


foUr wbere perhaps I am weakest : so that, ihosgh hmpfj in 
God, I have almost trembled for fear of their consequences. 
My only security is in looking to Jesus ; but here I obtain relief. 

2S. This has also been a precious day. My fellowship - 

has been with the Father and Son froin morning to night, l 
have felt wrapped up m Jesus, and found Irim such a source of 
calm repose as I cannot express. ^ How trifling and insignificant 
does all created good appear when I am tfa^is highly favoured: 
of Crod. He in mercy keeps me sensib^le of my weaknese^ 
while he lets me icnow Where lies my strength, and makes me 
aware of roiritnal pride : my soulirembles at the thought of' 
that dreadful evil. I fly to the feet of Jesus^udd there I am 
safe. ' ' 

CHAPTER XIX.--i784. , 

, Diaiy and correspojidence conjtmued. 

January 1. Upon it retrospect of the past year, i>flnd my 
obligations to God are exceedingly great. Many, very many, 
have been the times of refreshing I halve had from him. How 
ttiany my temporal and spiritual deliverances! and O, how 
numerous the answers of prayer with which I have been fiivour- 
ed. My commoQion with heaven has been sensibly increased : 
and, times without number, he has made me senl^ible of the ae« 
complisbment of a promise^, powerfully impressed on my mind 
several years ago, that, when I was converted, I should strengthen 
the brethren. In some temporal alTairs he has most wonderfully 
manifested his goodness in my behalf; and, on many difficult 
occasions, strengthened and enabled me to confess him before 
others. Language fails to express what he has done for me; 
indeed it beggars all expression. I Will ^xtol thee, O God, and 
praise thy name for ever and ever.: while 1- have a being I will 
praise thee. Through the whole of last year I have heen kept 
panting after extensive usefulness j and thai^ilkl when any oppor- 
tunity for doing ^ood was granted me. The Lord has also been 
veiy good to me m restraining the power of the enemy : spiritual 
temptations have neither been so strong nor io numerous as i 
have found theUi in former times. , This I esteem a great merey^ 
for of all suflerings and trials they are the keenest. 

1 1 . (Sunday , ) A day much to be remembered. Through 

difficulties went to Mr. Jones' chapel, where the sacrament was 
to be dispensed. From the mdment I sat down the Lord began 
to bless me, and many things in the sermon were comfortaUe ; 
but on sitting down at the table, my communion with the Fathet 
and Son was sensibly deepened : I had certainly a foretaste ' 


tlie ht9ifim\f gl6ty. How swaet aod near waa my fiellovsbip. 
with ^e Father :, God seemed to surround me with his presence. 
I was pen^itted to fiit up. many petitions for myself and others, 
mA for the church. I h^pe they will be answered. LaDJ|uage 
fails when I would express my grj^titude to the Lord. that 
my life. may express it. . 

February .6. . Since my last date I hare, been comforted, 
and also severely tried.: I have felt the rod of God, whereby 
nature suffered keehljr; but I have also proved the staff of God 
supporting me. He in great o(iercy prepared me for suffering 
by an increase of.fellowsh^ with himself How tenderly does 
he deal with me ! In the time of a moat unexpected trial my 
Jesus drew near, as if he haa said, " Though friends die, I live 
for ever.'' Blessed Lord, that is enough. Yet nature feels, 
animal spirits are weakened, and ^iritual temptations have been 
strong ; but in all my God is good. 

20. I find my mind for, sQme time past enlarged by the 

habitual consideration of eternity. These thoughts tend much 
to rectify the judgment ; and when that is fully instructed the 
passions are easily adjusted. How contracted are our views 
while QQn^ned within the limits of time. Here there are no 
objects in -any degree adequate to the. vast powers and infinite 
desires of an iaamortal soul; but when we contemplate eternity 
what a boundless prospect presents itself! What a full scope 
may we Ihere give to our most extensive views and wishes. 
Theve. all our noly aiiections may roam at lairge, and find abun- 
daat^e of objects perfeQtly suiied in Mnd and duration t^ their 
nature., O my God, in these glorious regions of bliss and peace 
which the gospel brings to light, may I for ever enjoy thee. 

March 4. 1 have felt very variously in the course of these 
lost thirteen days. At times painfully exercised in my mind, 
through the preyaleiiee 6f ^spiritual temptations, and the remains 
of unbelief; these produced keen distress, though, through the 
goodness of God, it was not perniitted to continue long.' On 
Satufday^'last Jesus drew nigh, rebuked the adversary, disap- 
jpointed my fears^ comlbrted iny soul, and gave me a sweet con- 
viction that God was the hearer of prayer, answering the petitions 
I offered up to him. ;But soon after the clouds again gathered, 
and I was distressed. . The enemy renewed his attacks, and, 
»ot perceiving the stratagem, I felt painfuUy fearful that it w^ 
myself which obstructed the accpmplishment of the promises ; 
both those which ^elatib to the i»rosperity of my own soul, and 
those which refer to extensive usefulness. This caused poignant 
sorrow, better felt than expressed. The more so now my whole 
soul is built upon glorifying God, by enjoying him continually 
in my own son], and by being actjive in his cause. But last night 
I felt a street impression on my mind, and from its effects I trust 
it was kook the iiord,.tha^ the delay which causes me at times 


•0 much diBtreas was not of myself, bat of the Lord ; that mat- 
ters were not yet ripe for the fail aecomplishment ; but that the 
Lord would in his own tin^e bring to pass in me, and by me, 
what he has promised. This impression wonderfully calmed my 
mind, removed my painful fears, and led me to trust in the Lord. 
That unpatiencci, which. bordered upon the haste of anbeUef, fled 
Kway ; I was led to see that I was called to wait patiently, and 
calnoLly to hope that what the Lord had said he would do. 

May 12. For the last three weeks I have experienced the 
most intense thirst after an increase of the life of God in my 
Boul, and an enlarged sphere of usefulness. I felt spurred on by 
strong desire, stimulated by the promises of God, and strength- 
ened to plead by the spirit of prayer. Yet as no opening in 
providence appeared for the latter, and little or no answer in 
return to the former, my faith was tried to the uttermost. My 
heart felt ready to break, for t)ie longing it had after God. It 
seemed as if I could not live, except my prayers were heard and 
answered with respect to these two particulars. . At length my 
God, who is rich in mercy, proved it, by condescending to send 
me an answer last Sabbath from his holy habitation. In the 
morning I went to church, where the ordinance of the sapper 
was to be administered. The. words spoken from were, " Mine 
eyes have seen. thy salvation." The text struck me, and I was 
led to expect something good, yet found nothing remarkable from 
the sennon. The enemy was now very bui^, and my mind felt 
uncommonly prone to wander from the point in hand : but if the 
Most High is determined to arise and work, who can hinder? 
At his holy table, to which I went much agitated, all my wan- 
derings ceased, and God spake with power to my soul. He con- 
deacended to unfold to me the seeming mystery of his late dis- 
pensations toward me, both in providence and grace. He told 
me it was to try my faith, an4 to prove whether I would continue 
to follow him through every discouragement, and continue be- 
lieving his promises, although the aspect of providence contra- 
dicted them< He then assured me my faith should prove 
triumphant, even as the faith of the woman of Canaan^ who con- 
tinued to plead for her daughter in spite of every discouragement. 
These gracious words brought amazing strength into my soul ; 
I felt determined, with a divine fortitude, to cleave unto the Lord 
in spite of every opposition ; to hope against hope, and patiently 
to wait upon him till he saw meet to accomplish the promises. 
This heavenly frame continued through the day, and in the 
evening, while in the . house of prayer, my God renewed his 
former kindness : O for a power to retain it. How great is his 
goodness. Surely it is good to wait upon the Lord, and to trust 
in him. But, lest I should be exalted above measure^ the day 
following I 'was confined with severe indisposition of body. On 
Tuesday morning I felt a degree of languor of spirit and oonfu- 



Bion of mind which grieved me. Having to meet with a Cfariflh* 
tian friend or two I prayed much for the presence of the Lord 
to be with us. He heard my cry, and gave me my petition. 
He made me very sensible of the approach of Deity. While I 
sung his praises 1 a reverential consciousness of the divine pre- 
sence rested on and animated my «oul ; God the Father revealed 
himself to me, and that near and clear view of him has continued 
with me ever since. How can I sufficiently praise him ; I find, 
where the Spirit of the Lord is there is liberty. 

-1 28. §ince the 17th the Lord has supported roe under 

many trials, some of them most unexpected, and which pierced 
me to the quick. He has given me to feel much, very much, 
of the insipidity of worldly enjoyment, and caused some creature 
comforts to prove bitterness to n^e. Though these things wrung 
my heart with keen anguish, and brought tears from my eyes, 
yet I found I could, from my inmost soul, bless God for thus 
dealing with me, because salutary purposes were answered by 
the painful, dispensations. I thus get farther from the creature, 
and nearer to God ; convinced he only can make me truly happy. 
Persons, things, and places are in themselves empty cisterns, 
whiclrhold no waters of consolation, but as the Lord pours into 
them. And if I do not rise and keep above them all, they will 
pierce me through with many sorrows. My God does all things 
well. O to be faithful to him! Though thus tried, I have not 
been left comfortless : the Lord has been good. He still gives 
me power to hold fast what he has spoken, in spite of Satan 
and every foe. O that he would come quickly, and do as he 
has said. 

Juiie 27. In the coarse of thesd seventeen days I have not 
experienced any very inaterial change. I have had, at various 
seasons, an increase of the more immediate presence of God, 
and Jesus has sweetly attracted my heart and affections by ap-r 
pearing in his native beauty, shining with the milder beams of his 
mediatorial glory. In him resides the fulness of the Godhead be- 
dily ! Deity in its plenitude of power !. Comfortable, animating 
thought! And Jesus is Inline. Amazing mer6y ! On Sunday week 
I had an opportunity to sit down at the Lord's table, where I felt 
my inmost soul pierced with a sense of his goodness. For 
some days after 1 was kept praying without ceasing, and was in 
hopes the time to favour me was come ; but to this succeeded 
two bitter days of outward and inward trials. On Sunday last, 
through many difficulties, but with strong desire and great ex- 
pectation, I entered the house of God. In the former part of 
the day I was disappointed :- in the latter, He whom my soul 
loveth drew nigh, and 1 was comforted. Yesterday my soul felt 
as if drawn from its centre ; my keen relish for divine things 
was much lessened, and my comft)rt greatly abated ;7et 1 was 
much strengthened to attempt the spiritual benefit of others, by 


Writing, dpenking, and grring away books on divinity. Thes^ 
opportunities of doings good were most Unexpected ; Imt, while 
ihas engaged, the adversary was most assiduous in his attempts 
to distress ; painfnl temptation for some time prevailed, bat by 
prayer and faith he was ewnqaered. 

October 23. In the conrse of these sleven weeks I hare tod 
tniich given way to temptation, by not writing. Satan has re- 
course to many stratagems to preyent it. He knows it is pro- 
fitable, and therefore opposes it. I have much cause to bless 
the Lord for many mercies, spiritual and temporal. Since my 
last date.I have had sweet seasons, many answers to prayers, 
End power to attempt doing good, in a way not tried, except 
twice, since I came here: I mean, having the gospel preached 
at this place once every week. O that- the Lord may smile 
upon my feeble attempt to glorify him, and give success. My 
God has been graciously present at my little meeting on Thurs-: 
day for prayer, praise, and Christian conference ; and in secret 
and social prayer, has shown much kindness, and given unexpected 
opportunities of acting for him at home and abroad, and enabled 
me to exert more power in this way than ever. The issoe I 
leave to him. Upon the whole he has kept my soul in a good 
measure alive to him ; panting after the accomplishment of the 
promises ; and daily looking for his coming, to do in me and by 
me as he has promised. He increases ray (Jesire and power to 
v»e^ my substance in the support of. his servants and cause f 
makes me sensible of my danger as to several evils I might fall 
into ; which causes me to ery to him' against them. Secret 
prayer is more and more profitable and comfortable, and a so- 
lemn sense of eternity stilt rests upon my mind ; with a strong 
desire to improve time for myself and others. At times the Lord 
gives me to feel my weakness ; and how quickly I should be 
swallowed, up by my enemies if tie did not interpose. This night 
the Lord disappointed Qiy fears ; when I looked to him he was 
^t hand to help me. 

December ,8. Since my last date I have had keen inward 
sufferings ; what are termed the buffetings of Satan. Horror« 
at times, has taken hold of me. I felt much, but feared mor6» 
I feared that I had grieved the Spirit of God, and therefore cried 
mightily to him that, if this were from an enemy, he would rebuke 
the adversary, and give freedom from these painful feelings ; 
but, if from himself, they might continue till every end was an- 
swered that was intended by sovereign loVe. On Sunday last 
I longed to go to church, expecting relief ; and in the afternoon 
his servant was a son of consolation. My soul was strengthened 
and comforted by what I heard. But in the. eveniag^at the 
chapel, my distress returned. I felt stripped of all : 1 wished 
to be searched to the bottom, and appealed to the Lord that I 
longed to be all he would have me. Jesas drew sweetly nigh| 

t99 UFB or«|uuBfT HAXiwsxaw 

ud «mnforted me.^ For sbiae mmntm I allev^led to examM 
i^TBelf, Uut ril wa» ib coB^anon. One Ihkig seenied pressed apoa 
my mind, but whether from an enemj I ooold sot say. I gave 
St up to. the Lord, and praved that he ^ould.lead me into his 
will. On Sunday night and Monday, my mind waif burthened : 
I lookcMi and longed fac re^ef in the means afforded me, but was 
dttappointed. On Tuesday afternoon Jlesus aaain drew nigh and 
comforted me ; bat this did not oortmue, and again fear return- 
ed. Time seemed to fly fast, and still little was done. I felt a 
poor trifler with God. On Wednesday I was distressed, feariog 
many things : comfort sprung up in my soul at times, but it dSt 
.not abide. In the course df some years I bare had seTsral 
lUtaeks of this kind ; sometimes muoh w<Hse indeed. that my 
lears may be disappointed, and that tlie Lord would give me the 
thing that 1 long for ; the accomplishment of all the promises he 
has giren for extensive usefUness and prosperity of seal. I 
■m much discouraged for want of this; and also, that the 
fittempts I make to do good seem to proTe abortiTO. When, O 
«iy God, when riiall I hare it to say that thou hast fulfilled the 
deMices of my soul, and given me the thing that I looked for ? 

Such repeated exercises and dehyecances tended greatly to 
analiiy Lach^ Maxwell to give advice, and to administer cons(^ 
iatiim to others when tempted er distressed. Thus she again 
mddiQMed her afflicted, desponding friend : — 


Coatss, Dftcsmber 14, 1794 
I had net time to ans^f^ my dear daoghter's note yester- 
day, but wish tc^day to ask how she does, hearing that many of 
the family have been complaining. In the New Jerusalem none 
•hall say they are sick ; but while here, according to the laws 
ef mortality, we must expect to be oflen pained and distressed 
both in body and mind. j9ut O what comfort does it afford us to 
know that ** we have not a High Priest that cannot be touched 
with a feeling of our infinnities :" on the contrary, in otf buf 
ttffictiotts he is afflicted. 'An earthly friend may and does feel 
ibr us, yet often cannot relieve us ; Jesus, on the contrary, not 
wdy sympathizes with us, but supports, upholds, and\ comforts 
US : and the very moment that deliverance is proper be gives it. 
What a stnhng argument this for entire resignation to every dis- 
ptesation of providence and grace. O may our hearts at all 
times svfeetly acquiesce in all the holy will of God respecting 
eurselves and those with whom we stand elosely connected! 
His smile creates our day : 

** Id darkest shades if Christ appear, 
Our daiviuiigis'besun." 

1 here Mt9, little of this Hi Inter txied for mne days with 
iBTere oiwiiets, tiie fiery duit» •£ the esemy' were keenly point- 
«d. Ib dieoe ^ery tryieg oeaMiis we feel what poor helpleae 
ereatnee we are : how soon we ahoald be utterly deetroved if 
left to grapple with our apiritBal fbee in oar own etrength. O 
Ii0 w precious is m SaTumr thee 1 In tender mercy he drew near* 
lebaked the adv«raary, and-mnSed npon bm. May he enable «s^ 
in erery temptation, to look ^ him and overeome. 

My eoai strongly hroathee alier more of his mind and iiwagn, 
and for power to promote hie eaase and kingdom. I feel but. as 
a babe in him, bnt do long« night and day, for the streqgth of n 
fother. O to possess OTery piirchaaed blessing! 

I long also to hear of the proq^eiity of your souL Yon. har^ 
long walked throng a wjldemess of triak^and temptations. O 
lihat he now wouM hiing yon into a wealthy plaee ! '^PrajT 
without ceasing," and do not faint» though an answmr ia no( 
epeedilv given. The Lord wiU come in his own time, and ror 
huke «be adYonary for yomr sake, and your pa^K shall be. as. 
«< the shinmg light, that ttinslh more and more unto t|M^ perfect 
day." I hope you will receiTO gpod ac<N»unts. ef yovi brothsE. 
Cast all your care npon God ;. and belieye me ever. 

Your afiBotionale pavent in the Lord, D. M. 

She thus concludes the year :— *- 

Dec. 31. I hare been mnoh drawn to secret prayer tp-4i]rf 
nad spent more time in it than usual; avoidii^ eve^ unnecesfi^ 
mrooacion, md eren some that were otherwise, in erder to g^^ 
myself wholly lo prayer and opiri|«al exereiaea. I ha^ foun^ 
sweetness and inward Ubeity; though the adversary wa8jre« 
busy, trying every jnethod to intercept nm. I do aot prove. 3i 
Ae power of 

I power of prayer I wish, but I Imve certainly foit mm» ef it 
tfiis last ei^iteen months than in any former period* I wish, to 
ppay without ceasing. I see tb^ necessitjr of praying alwijFiii 
ad net fointing: but I find hope deferred fat^gaes the miad, an4 
wearies the spirit. Yet I fool, through ffraee, determined to 
pray on till I have it to sayt not one woi4 use fail^ of aH that 
the Lord bu spoken eonoerning me. Up<m a retr<wpect of this 
year, new eome Id an end, I find I kave infinite eapue to praise 
the Lord, much more so than I supposed, when, some days ago^ 
I was consulting only my present foehngs. It is melanchoW to 
think how soon a sense of the Lord's goodness dies away drimi 
the soul, even after the strongest manifestations of his love. 
Lord, what is man, that thou shouldst show kindness to him ! 
How angratefol, insensible, nnfaithftil, and unprofitable. Yet 
still thou art good : but thou knowest whereof he is made, and 
rememberest he is but dust. O, how do I long to feel sovereign 
grace triumplung over all my weakness, ignorance, unbelief, fear, 
yea, every thing that is contrary to the will of my God. Sines 


January, 1783, the Father of inereies has aermi. times appeared 
in my behalf in a remarkable raamier : in pnbUc, privatey and iik 
secret : indeed, times without number, but more especially <m 
three different occasions ; twice at his own table, and once ii» 
Secret. What consolation did he pour into my soul! With 'What 
commanion with himself did he favour me^ immediately before I 
was visited with a severe trial ! Words oannot,^ may silence 
X speak his praise ! Some months after that, bow wonderfully did 
he condescend to explain the dtsp^iBationsof his-providenceand 
irrace toward me, when they were sd mysterious I eould not un- 
derstand them, and had well high sunk in the mire of despond* 
ency : but he took me out of that horrible pit, set ray feet upon 
a rock, and established my goings. Then, was I made to> ride 
upon my high places 6>r months^ till agam^ through the power of' 
temptation, the remains of unbelief, and the Kubtle workings of 
the adversary of sduls, I was driven to extremity. Again Jeho* 
Tah, who *^ sits above the water floods, 'and remaineth King for 
ever," spoke to my soul with divine pow^, and the mountains 
melted .down. He c<mde8cended to tell me what he was doing, 
and what he would do, and how much I was mistaking to 
dealings with me. * Amazing goodness ! O to be humble and 
thankful! here again my^head was lifted op above my foes, 
and I was made to triumph over those who threatened to 
lead mfi captive. When stretched itpon a bed of sickness, 
how did my God disappoint tity fears, and exceed my expecta- 
tions ! My mind, which on th^ distressing occasions, used to 
he painfully languid, and ofteti the seat of inexpressible fears^ 
was refreshed with a sense of the divine presence, and raised 
above the present affliction : and my lips, -which used to b© 
closed in these trying reasons, were opened to speak ther praises 
of Him who dealt so kindly with me. But time would iail to tell 
of all the instances of the goodness of my Grod during the last 
twelve months ; and not to me only, but to others dso with whom 
I stand nearly connected ; to some by the ties of nature, U^ 
others by those of grace. Suffice ii to say that he hath doA9 
an things well : and that eternity alone can bring to li^t, or 
make' sufficiently known, all his goodness to me. i With my soul, 
and aH that is within roe, I desire to bless and magnify his hdly 


** To praise him for all ihat is past, 

And. tiust him for all that's to com^" 


CHAPTER XX.— 1785. 

Di&ry and correspondence continued. 

Janaary 12. Very frequently I have taken np my pen to give 
expression to my complainings ; but now I would indite thanks 
and praises to my God for fes goodness. I entreated him to 
usher in the year with his blessing, and he has granted my re-> 
quest. He is a God of mercy : blessed are all those who put 
their trust in him. He gives me to know more and more that he 
is the Hearer of ptayer. On Sabbath last 1 had an opportunity 
to renew my covenant engagemeot to the Lord, by sitting down 
at his table. While uniting in. prayer with the great congrega- 
tion, the Lord Jesus drew nigh, brought with him unutterable 
peace, and shed a heavenly serenity throughout my soul : this 
increased upon sitting down at the sacred table, and continued 
the whole day. I enjoyed a delightfully spiritual frame wherever 
I weiit, and m whatever I was engaged. The Lord filled my 
hands all day with his work, and my heart with his love. Some 
hours were spent with the sick, in prayer and conversation, and 
in ministering to their. wants in various ways; and the Lord 
countenanced those labours of love. ^ My heart, at times, felt 
almost too full for utterance. 

20. Unwell in body, but comfortable in soul. The 

Lord hfis increased what he so graciously bestowed on Sunday 
week.' I have had a fuller enjoyment and clearer view of my 
God aiid Saviour. It has been almo^ as one unclouded day, and 
the cry of my. heart is, "Ever, Lord, abide thus with me." I 
found my mouth opened to tell, before those who fear his name, 
what he has done for my soul. To*day I have enjoyed many 
privileges, and endeavoured to let others partake . of my enjoy- 
ments, by having the gospel preached to them. Many flock to 
heai^ ; may they understand. The tM>mfoirt I naw enjoy makes 
me dread severe trials ; yet I would not anticipate eviL One, 
in particular, I have cause to fear ; but I leave all to my God, 
'who doth all things well* 

28. Still my fellowship is with the leather and the Son. 

In writing to a Christian friend to-day, on the goodness of God, 
and on the sweetness of the love of Jesus, my heart seemed too 
foil for utterance. This I also experienced immediately after, 
when conversing with a Cliristian. I could not but wonder at 
this barrenness of expression, when divine love so prevailed in 
my heart. It convinced me that both the power and the pro- 
priety of speech are from God, and are given or withheld as he 
sees meet. I long for the eloquence of Cicero, for the persua- 
sive powers oif Demosthenes, when speaking of the things of 
God; yet these, without his blessing, would not produce the 
great and desirable effect at which I aim,— ^is glory, in the con- 


Tersion of smners. I must endearour to be contented with 
meaner talents, and rest satisfied that even these may and wiil 
.effect great things, if divine assistance be afforded. 

Feb. 13. (Sunday.) My God has been unspeakably gracions 
all this day. I was strong, trusting in the Lord. My faith in 
Jesud seemed as a strong cable, fixc^ to an immoYable rock. I 
walked in the light of a Inminous faith, and by his strength and 
light was carried through difficulties with ea^ and ccHnfort. I 
was also privileged with an opportunity of showing fbrtli the death 
of JesQs ; and truly he was with me in his house and by the way. 
In the afternoon found the company of those that were not alive 
to God exceedingly irksome. What a blessing it is always to 
ajBsociate with li^mig souls, 

March 12. Three weeks have elapsed since my last ds^ ; 
▼arious hinderances have been thrown in the way; but I believe 
nothing but absolute necessity should prevent my taking notice 
of God's dealings with me, by conunitting them to paper; as I 
find a lively sense of his goodness is too apt to die away from 
my remembrance. I have not hmt what the Lord bestowed on 
the 9th of January, and ^e Sunday following ; but J do not at 
present enjoy so much sensible contort, I seem to have more 
faith than love^ and would gladly hope that the alteration is 
rather in enjoyment^ than in possession. Last Sunday evening, in 
the chapel, the Lord renewed' his goodness to my soul, but it has 
not proved permanent. I feel this change a great disappoint^ 
ment, as I had hoped the time was come when I should be able 
to ** rejoice evermore, pray without ceasing, and in every thhij^ 
give thanks..^' I have not relinquished all hopes of its termi- 
nating in this mature and permanent experience. I fear lest my 
unfaithfulness should be the cause of any change for the worse. 
His grace can triumph over all my weaJmesses, ignorance, and 
iinb0]ief. I am also^grieved that no effecti^al door is yet opened 
for my more extensive usefulness, according to his promise. 
Still, 1 will hope against hope, because he is faithful, and his 
promises are *' yea and amen." 

April 1. Again, ten days more are expired. How rapidly does 
■time fly ; — ^imperceptibly it steals away. How ardently do I 
desire that my improvement may be in proportion to the con- 
stancy and rapidity of its flight. I have^ still much cause to 
adore and bless my God, as the Hearer of prayer. that every 
fresh proof of his goodness may strengthen my trust for future 
mercies ; and more firmly confinn me in th^ belief that not one 
word which he hath spoken concerning me shall fail of its 
accomplishment. From my deficiency herein, i^rings much 
dis^ess ; my harp is often hung upon the willows, and then m^ 
heart experiences much bitterness. Holy Father, whatever it 
is that causes these depressions, remove it far hence ; and Jet 
me every moment dwell in love, and in God, that God |aay dwell 


in inv. Lately, at times, I am hurt by entering too keenly into 
the subject on which I am conversinir; espeoisdly when it bap- 
pens to be a pairifiil one : this produces too many ^ords, many 
unnecessary ones ; and, for a little, interrupts that calmnese oST 
mind, serenity of son!, and coisseiouenesd^of the presence of 
God, I wish eyery moment to retain ; and which always sweetly 
flblemnizes the spirit. 

May 4; -I am in general kept waiting, as those that wateh for 
the morning, for the appearing of my God in that full display of 
his goodness which he hv^ promised. As yet, my hopes are 
disappointed : but I am thankful I havo not been permitted to 
east away my Confidence. I still believe that ** He that shall 
come, will come, and will not tarry." I have lately been 
favoured with many evident answers to prayer ; n^ extremity 
has been the opportunity for divine mercy to interpose, and often 
very remarkably to disappoint my fears. In secret prayer, the 
Xord frequently renews his loving kindness to my soul ; but I 
long to prove these inanifestations of divine love more trans* 
fbrming. With the psalmist I majr say, "My soul breaketh 
for the longing it hath" for Ml conformity to the divine image^ 
and for power to fill up all my time for and with God. 

^ 27. A time of close triaP from various causes. I have 

been made to feel, not only the emptiness, but the bitterness of 
persons, places, and things. I have been and still am in heavi- 
ness through- manifold temptations. In the midst of all, I am 
much drawn to secret prayer, yet without any particular ret\jms. 
All natqre seems an aching void. O what would the world be 
to me, with all that is admired in it, without the sensible enjoy- 
ment of my God ? A BocHiN indeed ! But, Lord, do thou shine 
gloriously from between the cherubim, into my soul ; — ^then all 
creation smiles, and every object wears a delightful aspect. For 
some time past, my opportunities for doing good have been abun- 
dantly increased ; and with eagerness of desire I have embraced 
them, and felt in my element when so employed. 

June 23. Since my last date the tide of temptation has run as 
high as ever I experienced it since I knew the Lord. It was, 
indeed, high water ; but it did not continue very long ; neither 
had I any remarkable deliverance,— the flood abated liy degrees. 
O for a full rest from the days of adversity ; such at least as this 
state admits, and which the word of God authorizes me to ex- 
pect. Daily I am alternately tossed between hopfe and fear, ex- 
pectation and disappointinent. I wade through the mire of 
perplexity and uncertainty, but still my trust is in the Lord. O 
my God, make me strong in faith. 

. July 26. It has now l:«en for weeks a time of almost constant 
inward suffering, arising chiefly from keen unsatislSed desiree . 
aiYer God. I cannot easily express what has been endured. 
7et many opportunities'to act for God have been affotdedi most 


flHI WWE Of L4»T V4XW«|.t. 

of whidi hare been obeerfoilr mAimoM, Strong dmre 8fl«r 
secret prayer has also been allowed ,me ; vet not followed with 
any remarkable answers. I have straggled hard at a throne of 
grace to trust in the Lord, in spite of every temptation, and 
have often found it good to do so. For some oays past my heart 
has felt ready to break with anguish of spirit from perceiving a 
want of conformity to God, aiMl from a desire to glorify him. 
Lately my desires for this have been so intense that I have been 
sometimes tempted to think they came from aa enemy ^ becanse 
they robbed me of present enjoyment, and sometimes degene- 
rated into impatience. Within these few days the Lord has con- 
descended to show me wherein I err and thereby suffer loss. 
He gives me to see that these desires come from himself; but 
that they must be kept so far within proper limits as not to 
prevent my sense of, and gratitude for, what he has already done 
for me : and that one way to express this gratitude is by a proper 
enjoyment of what he has imparted, and a calm waiting upon 
him by faith for what be has promised, and will in hi^ own time 
perform. In repeatedly attempting this, I have Ibnnd an instan- 
taneous change in my soul for the better. -^ 

.August 18. For some days after tny last date, I enjoyed such 
a degree of freedom from painful temptations as made me fear 
a state of insensibility. I prayed to ti^e XiOrd, and he increased 
my comfort. Some weeks ago, I met with a trial, the last and 
least expected. At first, I felt as if thunderstruck ; but soojb 
recovered from this, and then sunk into a degree of supinehess 
which alarmed me. I had, from the first, given it up to the 
Lord ; entreating that his will might be d^ne in this afiair, and 
that the issue might terminate to his glory and my good. He 
afforded me no particular light, but kept me looking to, and 
depending on himself for direction ; and has given me ibr some 
time an increase of lovei. Jesus has been near, and precious ; 
and the enemy is in some measure chained up. I have, thought, 
perhaps this unexpected event may be one step toward the ao- 
eomplishment of the promises, though I do not see how it can : 
but 1 remember the Lord has. said, " Jle will bring the blind by a 
way they know not. " My soul therefore waits upon the Lord, dis- 
posed to stand still and see his salvation. O that he may make 
Sr plain path for my feet, with respect to this trial. 1 dread 
mistaking his will. He hath promised to be my counsellor. 
Lord, be it to thy handmaid as thou hast spoken. 

31. Through mercy I have enjoyed tranquillity of mind, 

in general, for some time. I have felt not only alive to eternal 
things, but comfortably so ; with some power to lie pjassive in 
the hands of the Lord, and to pour out my soiil with frequency 
and fervour at a throne of grace, which is my resource in all 
situations. A dawn of li^ht, pointing out the path of du^ 
X^q^oti^g the trial ioz|DM^ saentionc^i begins to arisen ana 

X.XXB cr» LAjnr maswcu* Mi 

brings comfort and gratitade along with it. I eaanol caaOy ex- 
press the sweet and ardent desire that fills tey soul, for power 
and opportunity to glorify^ God by active service. I envy those 
who are tbuS highly favoured, and watch as those who wait for 
the morning light ; for the time when I also shall be permitted to 
throw in my mite fo^ the support of that best of all causes^ 
RBLieioN. Lord, hasten the happy time. 

September 4. The Lord enabled me to be es^est in prayer 
lor support and comfort under trials — ^to be brought out of them 
in his own^od time — and to avert those which I dreaded ; and 
now he enables me to witness for him that he is the Hearer of 
nrayer. He has in mercy literally answered my petitions. He 
has removed entirely the heavy trial mentioned above, which so 
perplexed me ; and has also filled .me with gratitude for his 
goodness, in disappointing iny fears. The Lord was peculiarly 
gracious to me last Sabbath. He in an uncommon manner 
strengthened my body, and refreshed my soul. While at tiie 
table, the Lord Jesus, the Master of the feast, drew so very 
nigh that faith seemed swallowed up in enjoyment. I was lost 
in wonder, love, and praise; and was permitted, like John, to 
lean my weary head on the bosom of the Saviour. He gave 
me sweet liberty to make all my wants known to him :*'my hopes, 
my fears, my desires. It was a time to be remembered. O that 
I may never forget it, but be enabled to improve to the utmost 
this gracious visitation, r Jesus has abode with me ever since. 
He carried me through difiiccdtiBs the same day; and next 
morning I needed his presence much, being visited with severe 
bodily pain; my Beloved wa»>; near, and this sweetens every 
dispensation. 6 my God, now carry on the work rapidly, and 
fulfil the desires of my heart. ^^ 

21. Through the abounding mercy of my God I am still 

enabled to bold fast what was bestowed on the 4th instant, 
though it has been at times as if through fire and water. Jesus 
is stUl near, and clear to the eye of my faith. O that he may 
never more depart. My soul is, roord than usual, athirdt for sal- 
vation. For many months my strongest desires and greatest 
expectations were for a larger circle of action ; these last still 
continue^ but now with the addition of the former. I sweetly 
pant to prove the utmost extent of Christ's kingly power in my 
neart. I have much cause to praise him for many blessings, 
both temporal and spiritual. I see his gracious hand at work for 
me in many things, which calls forth my gratitude, and increases 
my trust in him ; but till he has delivered me from all my foes, 
there will be partial departures from him, and a deficiency in 
every grace ; nor shall I be able to make him suitable returns. 

October 5. I have much cause to say, truly God is good to 
the soul that seeks him. He still enables me to hold fast what 
be bestowed the 4th of last month ; and has lately increased it^ 


Last Sunday erening, in the chapel^ God Was peculiarly present ; 
sweetly solemnized my mind, and increased ray communion with 
himself: and on Monday, though necessarily employed in worldly 
matters, he kept me in l^e comfortable enjoyment of what he 
had bestowed. In the evening, when engaged in secret prayer, 
God was very gracions ; my feelings were uncommon : it seemed 
as if the Lord were about to work a greater work in my 
soul than ever ; but in that mom)9nt the adversary so furiously 
assaulted me, that I seemed driven back from the very port of 
bliss. To-day I enjoy calm peace and inward liberty. Prayer 
is my resource on all occasions ; and truly I experience it an 
unspeakable privilege. My God^ permits me to bring all my 
affairs, both great an^ small, to himself: and.condescendstohesr 
and answer my petitions. I hope I* am learning more gOspel 
simplicity, and am taught to look for all I want by faith. For 
many monthti my whole soul has been thirsting after a larger 
sphere of action ; agreeably to the promises of a faithful God. 
For these last few weeks I have been led to plead earnestly for 
more holiness. Lord, give both, that I may praise thee. This 
evening again, in secret -prayer, my gracious Saviour gate me 
80 much uf his delightful presence as seemed to supersede the' 
medium of faith ; it felt as^ if lost in fruition ; I was ready with 
Peter to say, " It is good to be here.'" The storehouse of divine 
mercy appeared open to me, yet I had not power to lay hold on 
all I wanted and desired. ' It seemed rather a time of enjoyment 
than of wrestling. Lord, teach me how to improve to the utmost 
these seasons of love. 

8. This has been a precious day ; unutterable sweetness 

has been diffused through my soul. I have been permitted to 
behold the face of my gracious Saviour, and to enjoy commu- 
nion with my God and Father. Yesterday, my perception of 
divine objects was not so clear ; this was painful, as I feared it 
prognosticated the removal of my comfort, and an overshadow- 
ing of my delightful prospect ; but to-day my God, who is rich 
in mercy, scattered the rising clouds. The Sun of righteousness, 
by the brightness of his shining, dispelled the dreaded gloom, and 
dissipated whatever threatened to intervene and obscure my 
heavenly light. I have been enabled to plead for holiness, for 
every blessing Christ has purchased, and for the witness and the 
fruit of the Spirit. Come, my God, in all thy fulness come! 

We must here pause for a moment, again to introduce to the 
reader the amiable and afHibted Lady Hope. In the autumn of 
this year, she removed to Bristol Hot- Wells ; her health was 
now rapidly declining, and it became painfully evident to her 
affectionate friends that the time of her departure was at hand. 
By this afHiction all the tender sympathies of Lady Maxwell's 
heart were excited ; and with a solicitude truly maternal, sh* 


endeavoured, by consolatory epistles and fervent prayers, so to 
fortify the mind of her " dear daughter," that she might be enabled 
"with Christian confidence tp enter the " valley of the shadow of 
death." The following letters', which it is believed were the last 
shp ever wrote to the dying saint, wilj be read with interest :— 


. • Caatcs, October 26, 1785. 

. "Grace, merey, and peace be multiplied " to my dear daugh- 
ter more abundantly in her present distressing situation. I 
^heard with surprise, from Lady G., of your being much worse 
by the journey to Bristol. I fear the pain of parting with a dear 
friend has made things worse than they Tfould otherwise have 
been. I would have written sooner, to express my maternal 
sympathy with, and anxiety about you, but that I feared, from 
the account I had, it might be improper. This, however, did not 
prevent, but doubled my attention to the use of those means 
whereby I thought 1 could most essentially serve you ; but as 
Lady G., who was with me yesterday, read me part of a letter 
written with your own hand, I thought I would venture a few lines. 

It affords me comfort to think that you have such a good wo- 
man about you as Mrs. S., and I felt my heart cleave to your 
amiable brother, Mr. John, for his kind attention to you. Lady 
G., for my satisfaction, was so good as to read a part of his let- 
ter to her, wherein h& speaks of finding you better than he ex- 
pected ; though I fear the best account that can be given of the 
mresent state of your health is not what your friends would wish. 
but, my dearest daughter, I rejoice that you are in the hands of 
^Him who loves you infinitely better than 1, or any earthly friend, 
can do ; who will make all your bed in your sickness, and smooth 
the pillow of disease ; and who, I trust, will sweeten the bitter 
cup with a comfortable sense of his love. O that he may, in 
the absence of. relations and Christian ^friends, make up your 
every want, disperse every cloud, scatter all your fears ; wipe 
away every tear ; enable you to lejin your weary head, by faith, 
upon his bosom ; and give you liberty to pour all your com- 
plaints there. O.that you may, more than ever^ taste salvation 
IB the name of Jesus ; that dear name, which 

*' Charms our fears, and bids our sorrows cease.''' 

May you prove- the sovereign efficacy of his precious blood in 
cleansing you from all sin, and in filling you with divine peace 
and heavenly tranquillity of mind. May he chain up the ad- 
versary of your soul, and give you peace in all your borders ; 
and, with unbroken resignation, enable you to acquiesce in all 
his blessed will concerning you. All these great things your 
dear Lord can easily work in your soul : if he but speak the 
word the work shall be done; nay, one look from him can 


effect it. O what a comfortable view of thinj^ is this, when m^e 
feel ourselves poor and weak as helpless infancy, and can do 
nothing. The Lord five you to experience it fully. 

How willingly would I endeavour to render you every kind 
attention, could a wish convey me to your bedside. Indeed, 
Lady G* has been so kind as to beg I would go up with her, 
supposing, also, my health might be bettered by it ; but 1 fear 
it would not answer. The season is now far advanced, and set 
in very cold ; and I do not see how I could return alone, and I 
eould not tarry all winter. You may believe what comfort it 
would give me to see you once more in the land of the living. 

Lady G. is wonderfully well ; and how kind has the Lord 
been to her, in delivering her so quickly from that load of diffi- 
cult fmsiness that B. has cansed her so long, and at such a 
critical time. Truly, our God is good to the soul that trusts in 
hiih. She proposes to leave this soon; it is a comfort to me 
that she is to be with you. I received JGIO from her, for the 
school and poor ; your attention is gteat. But 1 am afraid 1 am 
making this too long, forgetting your weakness. 

To the ever watchful care of the Shepherd of Israel^ who 
neither slumbers nor sleeps, I commit my dearest daoghtes , and 
remain her truly affectionate parent in the Lord, t). M. 


Coates, Nov. 7, 1785. 

I sent my dear Lady H. a few lines by post some days ago, 
and hope the fatigue of reading them has not hurt her. Trust- 
ing that this is the case, I take- the opportunity of our dear 
friend^s going to you to write again. I a^l happy to think she 
goes so soon ; if it be the^ Lord^s udll, I hope you will have a 
comfortable winter together, so far as weakness and many com- 
plaints of body on both sides will permit. 

T hope the Lord keeps you as in the hollow of his hand, and 
covers your defenceless head from the'fierce attacks of the ene- 
mjr, in your weakatate. He in mercy often stays his rougk 
wmd in the day of his east wind, knowing what poor, weak, 
helpless creatures we are, and how little we can bear. He is a 
God who delighteth in mercy, and has no pleasure in th^ distress 
of his people. When he afflicts th^m at any time, it is to answer 
some great purpose ; and while he chastises with the one hand, 
he supports with the other ; and in general, on these occasions, 
his consolations are neither few nor small* I trust my dear 
daughter jfinda the best wine has been kept to the last. that 
the heavenly attraction may be strong, so as to raise her supe- 
rior to painful feelings, and to deliver her from that anxiety which 
brings weakness upon the soul. Believing views of Jesus and 
of the infinite merit of his sufferings ard a ground of much solid 
comfort to the distressed Christian. With what holy tbldness 


may these be plead at a throne of grace, and with mneh ao- 
ceptaace, even when the soul, to its own apprehension, is all 
darkness, confusion, and fear ; pressed down with manifold tempta- 
tions. This is a foundation that cannot be sapped, that standeth 
ever strong, immovably fixed in God. ; On this Rock of ages 
my dear daughter is built ; therefore, praises at all times, and in 
every situation, should her glad tongue employ. Behold your 
God^ and be strong. He la^s the foundation of your hope and 
trust in oaths, in promises, m blood. Surely, then, yon should 
stand firm as' the oeaten anvil to the stroke. What should dis^ 
courage you ? Or why, with vexing thoughts at any time, should 
your soul be disquieted ? With a holy fortitude you may look 
forward to death, judgment, and eternity. Though weak and 
poor in yourself, yet, in virtue of your union with the Lord Jesus, 
you may grasp omnipotence, ^nd call it your own. " Who can 
lay any thing to the charge of God's elect V Jesus, your Surety, 
bath answered all the demands that law and justice had against 
you ; fiy, then, to your strong hold in the day of trouble, and you 
m^ defy all the powers of earth and hell.. 

The sacrament was given in Edinburgh last Sunday, in our 
church. Mr. Randal preached a most delightful sCrmon upon 
the love of Jesus to his church, " Who loved his church, and 
gave himself iox it." I was very poorly in body, but tasted his 
love in my soul. On Monday I was hot so well as to be able to 
go abroad ; but my Jesus, on the last day of the fea^t, gave me 
my portion at home. How tenderly does he deal with his people ! 

Miss N. is just come from B., and tells rae Lady C. ^. is a 
good deal better ;. her pulse come down to seventy-six,, and her 
pain much abated ;. and suffers with a sweet q>irit. May Jesus 
make himself fully known to her, and comfort her in the time of 
trouble. Mrs. H. and family are pretty weU. But Lady G. 
will give you all particulars ; therefore I need not take up your 
time and strength. Many thanks for your kind attention in send- 
ing Mrs. Fletcher's letters, &c., &c^ She has indeed suffered 
a great loss in the death of such a husband ; but he was highly 
favoured in his last conflict. Happy those who are safely landed. 
Lady G. insisted upon paying for the small books, though I told 
her you had desired I should. So that I have £l bs. of your 
money : say to what use it should be put. 

I fear the length of this ; do read but a little of it at once. 
May goodness and mercy follow my dear daughter all her days ; 
a large portion of divine love be mixed in every cup, so as to 
conquer every fear ; and at last may she enter the harbour of 
peacse and endless bliss in the full triumph of- faith. So prays 
lier very affectionate friend in Jesus, D. M. 

The affliction and death of friends ai>pear to have excited the 
following seasonable and solenm reflections :— 


"November 17. time, swift of wing, Bow tapid is thy 
£ight ! Blessed be God, who has taught me to pierce beyond 
an hour. Yet what cause have I to mourn that I have not more 
fully improved that important talent. Where, Lord, lies, the 
defect ? I can appeal to thee, O thou Searcher of hearts, that 
it is my constant desire to fill up every moment with something 
valuable. I fear I too much overlook the present, in expecta- 
tion of something more favourable in future. The awftil blanks 
of time are many. How many are numbered with the dead 
during last week ! even among those I knew, either by charac- 
ter or personal acquaintance. But for the joyful prospect of a 
happy eternity, the mutability of all created good would spread 
around our world a black and impenetrable cloud. Blessed be 
God, though all here are shadows, all beyond the grave is ever 
during substance." 

One extract more shall close this year. 

" December 31. I was much disposed this day to spend my 
time with God, to consider my ways, and meditate on the time 
that is past ; met with interruptions, but, being for the profit of 
others, I endeavoured to, be satisfied. " I' asked a token for good 
in the end of this year, as in the foriner one, and my gracious 
God condescended to give it. How many are my mercies ! this 
last year they have been great. My communion with the Father 
and the Son has been uncommonly sweet and near ; and, since 
the 4th of September, almost uninterrupted. In temporal things, 
also, the hand of my God has been very visible. Jle has also 
given me much bodily health ; and, when deprived of the means 
of grace through indisposition, he kept my soul as a watered 
garden ; and gave me, in prayer and meditation, delightful en- 
joyment of himself. Lately, also, my God has opened an unex- 
pected door for usefulness. Surely I bend urrder a load of 
mercies, spiritual and temporal : O for a more graceful lieart. 
How shall I sufHciently praise' my God and Saviour. Comej 
Lord, and assist me to praise thee in higher strains than ever. 
O come, and accomplish in nic thy promises, and all my power^ 
shall be greatly enlarged." 

CHAPTER XXI.--1786. 

Death of the Ladies Hope and Glenorchv — Lady Afaxv(-«II ai)pointed 
executrix of the latter — Visits England — Meets with the Rev. Alexander 
Mather — Character of— Correspooidence with him, and the Rev. O. 

This was an eventful and memorable year in the life of Lady 
Maxwell. That sacred, bond of union, which nothing in Kfe had 


been able to disseyer, was at once broken ap bj the irredstible 
and unrelenting arm of death. On the first of January, Lady 
Henrietta Hope bade adieu to all tfaf pains and disquietudes of 
neortality, and entered into life. She had long langiushed under 
an enfeebled body, and had been called to endure a complication 
of afflictions. While these, sanctified as they were by grace» 
naturally induced her to trim her lamp, and to wait, in an ex* 
pectant attitude, the coming of her Lord ; they also tonded to 
prepare lier Ifriends for the painful bereavement. Lady Glenor-' 
ehy was with her at Bath ; a close and unwearied attendant. It 
was ber honourable employment to watch over the last lingering 
moments of the dying saint, to soothe the bed of death, and to 
witness the flight of her redeemed and triumphant spirit. 

** But after every medieal exertion had proved ineffectual, and 
the medicinal virtue of the wells yielding<no relief, sha meekly 
rendered up her ransomed soul into the hands of her Redeemer. 
Thus died Lady Henrietta Hope, more full of honour than of 
days, leaving behind her a fair copy of every thing praiseworthy 
and of good report. A considerable part of her property she left 
for pious and charitable purposes."* * 

Though Lady Maxwell could not but rejoice to hear that thi 
object of her affectionate solicitude had conquered her last enemy, 
and entered into tlie joy of her Lord, the pang at parting appears 
to have been acute. This is inferred from her expressive 
silence. During this season of suffering she did not venture to 
record her emotions. There is a chasm in her diary of three 
weeks ; a rare ease ; and when she resumed her pen) she did not 
even notice the-painfol occurrence. On some occasions, pro- 
bably, she found that the only way to avoid excessive and inor* 
dinate sorrow was, by laying a powerful restraint upon herself, 
to keep the cause of her distress, as much as possible, absent 
from her mi^d. It has been a matter of surprise to her most 
intimate friends, that she should so carefully shun ail conversa- 
^on relative to the premature loss of her husband and child ; but 
she appears to have been influenced by the above reason. To 
her friend, Miss Ritehie, who had requested from her an account 
of the means by which the Lord brought her to himself, she 
replied) " You ask me to give you the particulars of my awaken- 
ing and conversion ; and how, since, the work of sanctification 
has been carried on. To give you a minute detail of this, would 
carry me beyond the limits of a letter, and lead me to do violence 
to my temper ^ad feelings ; the former by nature shy, and in this 
respect not entirely conquered by grace; the latter Meen and 
tefCder ; easily wounded by recalling past scenes of wo, when 
indeed they were tried to the uttermost." To the request of 
her friend she could not, however, remain entirely silent ; and 
therefore proceeded in her usual laconic way on this subject : — 
* Gibbon's Memoirs of Eminently Pious Women, vol. ii, p. 260. 

834 rxvB ov labt maxwell* 

*' Snffiee it to say, I was chosen in the furnace of affliction. Thtf 
Lord gave me all I desired in this world, then took all from me ; 
but immediately afterward sweetly drew me to himself." That 
Lady Maxwell^s feelings were exquisite on the present occasion 
will be no cause of surprise. While religion moderates and 
refines the sensibilities of oar nature, it, at the same time, im- 
parts a susceptibility which can only be- felt by those who are 
the subjects of its influence. She was deprived of her nearest 
and dearest earthly friend ; one for whom she had entertained 
Uie most cordial and unmixed esteem ; for whose spiritual and 
eternal ^welfare she had exerted her utmost energies ; and one 
who hsid ever been most ready to enter With her ^ into every 
measure calculated to meliorate the moral condition of man», 
They had for years walked to the house of God in company ; one 
in sentiment, and one in heart : 

Nor varied aught 

In public sentence, or in private thought/* 

Now they were separated for a season ; the one to enj<^ hei 
full reward ; while the other remained a few years longer, to 
witness the power of divine grace ; and to prosecute with unde- 
viating fidelity that important work which the great Head of the 
church had in reserve for her. On resuming her pen she wrote 
as follows :— r 

" January 21. For. these last three weeks I have expected 
greater things than it has pleased my God to bestow. He is 
good ; supremely good when he gives, nor less so when he with- 
holds. But I dare not say that he has withheld altogether. 
He has, in mercy, favoured me with several sweet, though short 
visits, since the first of the month. I have, indeed, had some 
exquisitely painful momen;ts, and felt re^dy to sink beneath the 
pressure ; but, by trusting in a faithful God^ he soon raised me 
up, and has restored an intense thirst for all the mind that was 
in Christ. He has given me a desire equally ardent for power 
to bring forth much fruit, even a hundredfold ; and in tender 
mercy has granted me to see, where I least expected any, some 
good effects of my labour. He does, ^ indeed, enable me to 
strengthen and comfort his own children : to him be slU the glory. 
Lord, let a little one become as a thousand : nothing is too hard 
for thee. But what I now principally desire to see, is the con- 
version of sinners. O, my God ! give me many clear, decided 
proofs of this ; many witnesses for thee, brought out of darkness 
into thy marvellous light. O put energy into the words I speak, 
the letters I write, the prayers I offer, for and with others ! and 
do not suffer me to remain in the worl^ comparatively useless : 
while, at the same time, my heart burns with desire to glorify 
thee in every possible way; and while I am encouraged to 


expeet much from thy own faitfaful word of promiie. Come, Lord, 
come quickly, and do as thou bast said." 

When her ladyship wrote the ahove, she appears to have, 
attained her former tranquillity : bat scarcely weie the wounds 
healed, and the tears wiped from the cheek, occasioned by the 
departure of Lady Hope, before Lady Maxwellwas again called 
to the work of sacrifice.^ 

" When sorrows come, they come not single spieji, 
But in battalioni." 

So, at least7 it proved in the present instance. Lady Glenor- 
chy, the next illustrious individual in this threefold union of 
private friendship, and of public worth, " full of plans for the 
glory of God, and good of men^" and busy in the prosecution of 
them, returned from Bath to Edinburgh in the beginning of this 
summer. Her friends observed, with concern, her declining 
state of health. She spoke much to them of death, and of her 
persuasion that, to her, it was near ; and uniformly expressed 
her satisfaction and joy at the prospect. Religion, in her, was 
not the production of gloom, either during the progress of life, 
or in the near views of its tetmination. Almost her last words 
were, "If this be dying, it is the easiest thing imaginable." 
Disease prevailed — and not many hours afterward she expired, 
in the forty-fourth year of her age, at the house of the countess 
of Sutherl(ind, on Monday, the 17th of July; 1786. Of her may 
be said in truth, what with equal propriety cannot be said of 
every departed Christian : " Her path was as the shining light, 
which shineth more and more to the perfect day."* 

On this melancholy occasion. Lady Maxwell ventured to 
record her feelings ; and, in doing this, could not avoid glancing 
at her former loss. On the 21st of this month, four days after 
the demise of her &iend, she expressed herself in the following 
manner : — -" 1 have met with a severe and most unexpected 
trial in the death of a dear Christian friend. How mysterious 
are the ways of God ! But we know the Judge of the whole 
earth must do right. Silence, therefore, becomes his creatures, 
under the darkest and most painful dispensations. In mind and 
body, for the last few days, I have been distressed ; and at times 
overwhelmed with grief and astonislmient : — 

* £?ery sorrow cuts a string, 
And urges us to rise.* 

Yet nothing but sin need hinder my heavenly progress. O 
that my God would now come, and absorb my will in his. May 
he give victory over every spiritual foe, that I may enjoy a 
peaceful habitation in my own soul ; and derive every possible 
improvement from this bereavement. I have now, within these 

* Gibbon*! Memoiis, &c., vol, ii, p. 271. 


BBwen moBlhst lost two jnvaluaUe ChristiaD friends. O to g«l 
nearer to the fountain, now Uie streams are cut off. I believe 
|hat two years ago the Lord gave me warning of what has now 
occurred. The death of these two friends is in some measuie 
explanatory of my experience at that lime; but I expect /ar 
greater Min^x'than have as yet happened to make it fully clear 
to me. At present I would stand still, and see the Lord bring- 
ing about his own purposes, and fulfilling to me his own promises. 
1 wish to be much in prayer ; I greatly need it. The prayer of 
faith ' shuts or opens heaven.' Come, Lord, and fully, turn my 

The Solemn and affecting etents thus brought under review are 
admirably calculated to teach many important and useful lessons : 
it would indeed be trell if the living would Idy them to heart. 
But, though there are few reflections more trite, or more readily 
admitted, than that life is uncertain, and must shortly terminate ;-*— 
that the most delicious sweets of earthly friendship are exceeds 
ingly evanescent ; — ^that all human greatness ' 

" is like u circle iji the water, 

Which never ceasetb to enlarge itself, 

Till, by l»-oad spreading, it dispersie to naught ;" 

yet, alas ! how feeble the influence which these truths appear to 
have on the actual doings of meri in general. This is greatly 
to be lamented. It is thus for want of practically observing 
what is generally known and acknowledged, that the world is 
ruined. The pious Christian^ it is sincerely hoped, will not 
overlook or residily forget one particular which clauns his atten- 
tion — the ardent and steady affection exercised by these excel- 
lent females toward each other. This affection, as we have seen, 
had to struggle with difficulties ; yet it rose superior to them. 
Though these two ladies differed in sentiment t)n some important 
points in theology; though these sentiments, at times, led to 
some collision in their endeavours to do good ; yet, being fully 
convinced that they were both seeking to attain. the same grand 
object, difference of sentiment could not resist the claims of mu- 
tual esteem, or diminish from the unfettered exercise of that 
love which thinketh no evil. On the contrary, these firm friends, 
with Lady Hope as their endeared companion, throughout the 
whole of their religious course, exemplified to the church, and 
to the world, the full force of religious principle ; in cementing 
the genuine members of Christ's mystical body in an indissoluble 
anion ; and held up an example of pure and disinterested affec- 
tion, worthy the imitatioa of the whole religious world. 

Lady Maxwell never yielded to the reveries of ungoverned 
fancy, nor was she the creature of wild and^ undefined impres- 
sions : on the contrary, she ever diligently sought to know the 
win of God, by the legitimate use of every means of grace 
afforded her ; and in cases of perj^exity and' nncertainty she 


UfE OF LA9T lUXWSL|i« §37 

Mood still, and gave herself to prayer. Bot in the conrae of the 
last two years, especially, she had experienced sach an intensity 
of desire for the prosperity of Sion ; and had received in answer 
to prayer so many powerfal and peculiar applications of Scrip- 
tore promises, in reference to this subject, as led her firmly to 
believe that God was. about to enlarge her borders, and to em* 
ploy her in a more extended field of usefulness. She knew not 
the way in which this should be effected ; and frequently ob- 
served that " the aspect of providence seemed to contradict the 
promises ;^' yet she could not be tempted to relinquish her hold 
of these promises ; and now It was a^ut to be done to her ac- 
eording to her faith. The. cold calculators pn what is called a 
lationsd religion, which goes to exclude all immediate operations 
of the Spirit from the heart, may find some difficulty in account- 
ing for it, but it is a fact which- cannot be contradicted : Lady 
Mtexwell had long a persuasion which, in her mind, had all the 
influence of an absolute certainty, that God had some great work 
for her to perform, though no intimations of providence appeared 
to authorize such a persuasion. By the will of Lady Glenorchy 
this prophetic impression received its full accomplishment ; and 
what even to Lady Maxwell appeared mysterious was thus 
clearly explained. She was, as before intimated, constituted the 
sole executrix of her deceased friend ; appointed the principal 
superintendent and manager of her numerous chapels, both in 
Sngland and Scotland ; and became thus invested with the dis- 
posal of important funds, for other religious and charitable pur- 
poses. What were the precise powers with which her ladyship 
was intrusted, is not known to the editor ; but they appear to have 
been extensive and almost unFimited. The following extract 
develops her views and feelings on this interesting occasion : — 
" July 28. Since the 25th the Lord hath dealt wonderfully 
with me. By the death of the dear friend mentioned above, and 
by the overruling providence of Him who is the great Disposer 
of all events, an increase of fortune has devolved upon me. 
This, through the grace and strength of the Most High, I firmly 
purpose to use for the promotion of his glory, by endeavouring 
to proijoote to the utmost his cause and kingdom in the world. 
This is agreeable to the desire of ray deceased friend, and con* 
sonant to her practice while it remained' in her own possession : 
it also accords with the whole bent of my own soul, and with the 
will of that gracious God who has, for these purposes, intrusted 
me with it. With these views, I have this day attempted to 
mske a solemn dedicaXion of myself to him ; with all that he has 
now and formerly given me, or may yet give me ; earnestly im- 
ploring that he would afford me light to discover his will in all 
things neoessary for me to know; and power and inclination 
constantly to comply with it : also much, very much of the wis- 
dom ofihe serpent, with a large proportion of the harmlessness, 


of the dove, happily blended ; so as to enable me to manage all 
my affairs with discretion, that in nothing the gospel may be 
blamed ; that I may, besides, be faithful to Him who hath ap- 
pointed me ; rising superior to the smiles or frowns of mortals. 
Thus, O my God, I have again given myself to thee : let me 
never live to draw the impious breath that would retract the 
deed ; but may I, to the latest moment, prove the happy effects 
of this and many former self-dedications. The -greatest satisfac- 
tion I feel from this bountiful dispensation is its coming to me 
80 evidently^ so strongly marked with the divine signature. 
This was evident, not only, by the powerful impression made on 
my mind by the Spirit of God, as if he had said, ' This comes 
from me^ at the very moment the fil-st intimation of it was 
given by man ; but, also, by its being so very explanatory 
of God's dealings with me, for the last two years. What 
has been very mysterious to me is novo fuUy explained. For 
some days the Lord has been leading me to review my spi- 
ritual experience for a number of years : in which I have been 
enabled to trace so clearly tho wisdom, the beauty, the propriety, 
and the goodness of his dispensations, both of providence and 
grace, as fills me with wonder and gratitude ; and produces in 
me a deep and poweiful 'conviction of his faithfulness: Lan- 
guage entirely fails me when I would express my sense of obli- 
gation^ O that I may ever retain this equally strong. And 
now. Lord, what can thy handmaid say moret O may my 
future life speak thy praise ; and do thon come and accomplish 
the promises given for the prosperity of my soul ; then shall it 
be as a watered garden." 

On the 5th of August, Lady Maxwell wrote as follows :— 
" Many difficulties have occurred connected with the important 
business committed to me ; but I feel encouraged to go on in the 
strength of the Lord ; believing that, as the whole matter ori- 
ginated with himself, he will bring me through all, in a proper 
manner. Indeed, he is bringing me, step by step, through these 
difficulties; and I now see and oonclude, without a doubt, that 
this is the great' blessinor promised me in general, at his owa 
table, in May, 1784. This is that active sphere in his cause 
which he promised me years ago ; but for which he enabled me 
firmly to believe at the time alluded to above. Since then 
through what a variety of painful exercises of mind have I passed ; 
but my faithful God has at last brought matters to a crisis ; yet, 
alas ! it is by the loss of a dear Christian friend. I am kept crying 
to the Lord for wisdom, direction, and light. He affords me sweet 
encouragement to expect all I want ; and he makes his word 
truly profitable to me. He also gives me reason to believe that 
he is carrying on his work in my soul. I can almost believe he 
has imparted the blessing so long sought, perfect love. The be- 
ginnings are but small, and I dare not positively coqclude respectr 


ing^ my state ; but will wait, and expect the Lord to shine upon 
his work. O how graciously has he dealt with me ! How shall 
I sufficiently praise him for his faithfulness and goodness in every 
respect !" 

In this spirit Lady Maxwell entered upon the work assigned 
her ; and, without loss of time, prepared for a journey to England. 
On the 5th of September, she left Edinburgh, and did not return 
until the 18lh of October. She visited most of the places where 
Lady Gleridrchy's chapels were situated ; and made such arrange- 
ments as she deemed best calculated, by the blessing of God, to 
secure religious prosperity. Her diary does not enter into par- 
ticulars ; but several difficulties are alluded to, which beset her 
path : most of these, however, she was enabled to surmount ; 
and, on her return, devoutly thanked God for direction and assist- 
ance. In one respect, at least, her journey proved highly 
advantageous to herself. At York, where her ladyship tarried 
for some time, she met with the Rev. Alexander Mather. 
" Here," shd writes, " I enjoyed many privileges ; especially, in 
conversation and social prayer with that servant of Jesus Christ, 
the Rev. Alexander Mather." An intimate friendship commenced 
between them ; and in her ^subsequent correspondence with this 
eminent minister of the gospel s^e will be found to dpeak without 
reserve. Mr. Mather was, St this time, the superintendent of the 
Wesleyan society in the above city. The following character, 
given of him by his brethren in the ministry, will show that 
Lady Maxwell selected her acquaintance with judgment, and 
knew how to appreciate true excellence : — 

** This venerable man travelled in our connection for forty-two 
years with great success. His usefulness in the church of God 
lor a great part of that time, both as a father to the preachers, 
and as a steady supporter of all the branches of Christian dis- 
cipline, was exceedingly great. Very numerous were his spiritual 
children, whom he instrumentally brought to Jesus Christ and 
salvation ; but his grand forte was, the edifying of believers, and 
building up the church of Christ : here he was always at home. 
He was, we may truly say, a blessing to all among whom he 

" His afflictions during the decline of life were extremely 
painful; but his confidence and comforts corresponded with his 
deep and extensive acquaintance with the things of God. The 
Lord had been unusually propitious to him, in the natural endow- 
ments of both his body and mind. He rose every morning at 
four o'clock, and could labour till nine at night, without apparent 
fatigue, in duties which required the closest application. In con- 
versation and debate, he entered at once into the spirit of the 
business or subject in hand, and could instantly meet an objection 
with an appropriate reply. He was a perfect master of all the 
minuti® of the doctrines and discipline of Methodism. Hereby he 

240 LI^E OF LA]»Y MAXWSIit. 

was enaUed, from a principle of duty aod conscience, to afibid 
Mr. Wesley rery considerable assistance in the superintendence 
of the societies. His wisdom and experience, his courage and 
perseverance, rendered him an invaluable friend to our connec- 
tion, during some late troubles under which it spfiered. He was 
never intimidated through fear of calumny from pursuing those 
plans which he conceived to tend toward the peace and union 
of our societies. His noble soul was elevated above the moment- 
ary opinion of a party. He looked only at the interests and 
glory of the Redeemer's kingdom, and waited for his reward in 
a better world. "*^ 

Lady Maxwell heard Mr^ Mather, the night previous to her 
leaving York, preach in his usual luminous manner, on the im- 
portant subject of faith. She was so forcibly impressed with his 
observations that, on the following day, she wrote to request 
him to favour her with an outline of the discourse. The way 
was thus opened for an epistolary intercourse, which was con- 
tinued with mutual benefit until the growing infirmities of age, 
on the part of Mr. Mather, rendered it impracticable. Tlie foU 
lowing letters will conclude this year : — 


Easingwould, Oct. 18, 1786. 

Rev. Sir, — ^The kind attentions you have paid to my best 
interest since I came to England encourage me to hope that 
you will not refUse the request T now make, if only your nume- 
rous engagements will admit of your compliance. I regret that 
I did not mention it this morning before I left York ; but neces- 
sary attention to pecuniary matters and want of time caused it 
to escape me. The favour I mean to ask of you is this, that 
you would employ your first leisure moments in throwing toother 
a few thoughts on the words you spoke from last night. To save 
you the trouble of much writing, and that I may have the satis- 
faction of receiving your communication in the course of a post, 
you may write as concisely as possible. And as you 'possess the 
pen of a ready scribe, I hope you will not find the task imposed, 
in the least burthensome. I found the subject suitable to my 
state ; but, from the causes above mentioned, was prevented 
reaping all the benefit I desired. 

Accept of my best wishes for yourself, and those you stand 
most closely united to by natural ties. I pray that the highest 
expectations of a fond parent may be fully answered in yont 
hopeful son. His natural and acquired abilities afford you pleas- 
ing prospects ; and if, to these, is superadded the greatest omfi* 

* Minutes of Conference, vol. ii, p. 82. For farther particulars relative 
to the life and labours of -this excellent man, the reader may consult the 
Methodist Magazine, for the year 1780, p. 91, and for the year 1801, p. 112. 


ment of humuD nature, what can you want, to render ydur bap- 
piness as complete as it can be expected in this vale of tears ; 
exce)>t still more of the divine image upon your own soul, and 

St farther success in your endeaTours to promote the cause and 
igdom of your Master, 

That you may be thus highly favoured is the desire of, 
Rev. sir, '' ■ ^ 

Your iaithful) humble servant, D*. Maxweu.. 


- EdinboriBb, December 15, 1786. 

Hk'v* Sir, — I have been much and necessarily occupied with 
temporal concerns, 6ince my return home :.this has abridged my 
lime for work ra which m^ heart is niore engaged, and I have 
thus been prevented returning yoa many and sincere thanks for 
the sermon* I find it truly profitable, and derive benefit from it 
an every repeated perusal. It ineulcatea a lesson which it is 
difKcult to learn, 4ivin^ by faith. All nature oppNOses this : yet 
X am convinced that 1 can only proceed in.the divind life in pro- 
portion as I exercise this heavenly principle. And^such is the 
preiBent state of my mind, that no sermons, no letters, no books, 
UQ conversation, are of any use to me, nor do I reap any com- 
fort from them, except they treat of the life of faith. I have not 
yet the evidence my soul requires, that I ato possessed of full 
salvation. ButHhe Lord is teaching me many iof portant lessons 
necessarily connected with it.^; He so condescends to my weak- 
ness and ignorance as I cannot express. He also makes his 
word in secret a constant eource of comfort and encouragement to 
me. In my pursuit of perfect love, I have often lately felt as if just 
at the |>ort of bliss ; my soul has been filled with a hope fiill of 
iinmortality^ and I have thought the time to favour me was come. 
Yet, 9till, something has prevented me from takinff possession 
of the good land : but I Hope this will not long be the case ; for 
the Lord Qas so mould ed my spirit that nothing can satisfy me, 
but constant communion with, and full conformity to, my God. 

The whole world, without this, appears^ to me an aching void, 
a wilderness of shadows. I suffer keenly from the remains of 
unbelief. Do assist me to hew this Agag in pieces before the 
Lord. It is a great mountain ; yet, had I faith, it would become 
a plain before the great Zerubbabel. That I should remain so 
slow of heart to believe, after all the ^Lord has done for me, and 
all the kindness he is daily showing mcf is truly amazing. I 
realbr feel ashamed ; and, yet I cannot help it. You say I may, 
but I cannot easily believe this. May the Lord show me where 
lies the hinderance, and speedily remove it. 

I should wish for an hour's conversation every day with you 
and Mrs. Mather : but as that cannot be allowed me, permit me 



to ask ab intetest in Voar piikyera : for I can engage in nothing 
Mrith satisfaction f^U this great matter is settled^ Business is a 
bnrtben to ine ; yet I miist attend to it, as so much is committed 
to me. I know the Lord has peculiarly called me to it, and will 
therefore fit me for it ; this is to me a constant source of com- 
fort. Without this conviction I shonlil sink under the load, 
conscious of beng unequal to the task. 

Accept of my good wishes for the prosperity <^ your own sonly 
and for success in the work to which the Lord has trailed you. 
I hop^ Mrs. Mather sees much of the fruit pf her labours. ' Re- 
member me kindly to her, and believe me, Rev. sir, 

Your faithful, humble tiervant, D. maxwbll, . 

P. S. I have this day paid into the hands of lk&..Paw8on, 
£9 Zs» for the pnipose menliotted to you in England. It is the 
m^idow^s mite. I pray it may be blessed. 

^ . Ooates, December 36, 1786. 

Upon recollection I do not i^nd, Rev. sir, that I have any 
thing material to. add to the particulars mentioned to you on 
Thursday, concerning Mrs. Thompson jf but as you e^tpressed 
8 desir^ tq have my thoughts on that subject in writing, I have 
thrown together a tew hasty ones. Being much circumscril>ed in 
point of time. - ' 

I never was in any particular habits of friendship with Mrs. 
T. ; but for some years past being connected with her in church 
fellowship, I had, of course, frequent opportunities of conversing^ 
with her. From the knowledge thus obtained^ I was led to 
regard her as a person^ possessed of sterling worth, rather ^an 
shining talents ;, as one originally cast in a very amiable mould : 
<^eenU& manners; sweet, pacific disposition ; full of benevolence 
and good wiU to ail ; rich in ^ood works ; and of great moral 
rectitude. I am inclined to thmk that her idea^ of religion in 
the^ earlier paart of life were rather crude and indigested, but that 
in more advanced years she obtained a clearer view and more 
experimental knowledge of some of the leading doctrines of Chris- 
tianity ; such as the fall of man and his recovery by Christ. 

When convinced of her original depravity, and the absolute 
necessity of a Saviour to ree^tore to the divine favour and image, 

* The Rev. C. Atmore was. at the penod of this dftte, one of the Wes- 
leyan ministei^ stationed in Edinburgh. Haying obtained help of Ctod, he 
continues to this day ; enjoying the esteem of his brethren and the.affectioa 
of thousands, and is at present the superintendent of the London east cir- 
cuit,— <182l.) 

t Mrs. Thompson wasa pious, steady member of the society, in £din- 
burgh, for many years, .plwill be gratifying to her surviving friends to see 
this snort sketeb of her character hy me penot Lady Maxwefl. 

tIFfi Ol' lA&V KAXWXLL. S43 

«he«et oat in good eanieBt in tke w«jb of God : aor ertr slack- 
ened her pace till called iMMJoie to teceite lier great reward. 
Being reaaarkably constant in her attendance on all the means 
of grace, she qnickfy fnuid that ''the hiUid of the dili^eat 
maketh rich." She soon obtained ^* the knowledge of salrationy 
by the remissMMi of sins ;" and I believe, never -after lost that 
antepast of heaven. 

. Thus happy in her own soul, her heart, deeply dyed with 
generous kindness, expanded iii large and fervent desires that 
multitadfes might share in the superlative felicity whieh sha^ 
enjoyed. This led^ her, as Ohristuui innidenbe directed^ lo be 
instant ill seasoe and otft of sisasdn, to promote, in ^ver^ pos- 
sible way, the spiritu&l interests of her fellpw creatures. 

Toward the olose of life, it seemed good to the great Dispose 
of all events to visit her with various trkds ; more espeoiafiy th^ 
death of two hopeful stas. Here all her maternal idlings weM 
called forth, aad l^eealy exercised ; hni, in the midst of tevere 
Stress, she maintained ti^ deportment worthy the character 
which Iriie sustained. She bore these bere^jjng afflfetlons, not 
with the stoical apathy df the phBosbpher, but with ^e tender 
sensibiHty and noble firmness of the Christian happily blended. 
She kissed the rod that siiiete her, and bowed in sweet .submis- 
sion to the divine will. 

Her mind seemed raised superior to the ftiars of death. She 
rather wished, and sometiaies expressed, a desire for dissolution ; 
and God soon gave h^ the desire of her heart. ^ The ahnighlr 
fiat went forth,-Hiei|th eame commissioned to put ah tod to all 
her safferiBga. During the concluding scene she appeared fdl 
of pemce&i resagHalipn, but spoke little ; the force of disease, in' 
some measure, myinj^ an embargo npon the powers of speech. 
Thus lived and died this exeelleiit woman. She is now where 
the inhabitants say not they are sick. As Christians, It is our 
privilege to leap peraaaeat advantage by every sush providen- 
liid dispensation. 

** For Hi they sidMa, axtd for ui they die.*' 

With good wishes taf: vonir spintual prQ»erity,siid great sao« 
eess in yenr ministerial labours^ I remain, Rev. sir, 
Yonr obliged, hnraUe servant in the bonds of the^ 

944 LirE or l^pt xaxwsu.. 


Biffeience of K^naioii extteiUdaed by Christians on the nature and extent 
of salvation— I^ady MaxweIVs sentiments on &is subjectr— Attains full 

' salvation— Her views with resaxd to the Trinity — She estabHslies Sab- 
bath-dbty schools— Co r responcte wi& Sfiss Ritchie, Mr Mather, and Mr. 

.Atmore. ^ 

Ths Tiews eateitamed by Cfaristiaiis cm the nature and extent 
of gospel aalTatioa must be of the utmost importance. If these 
Me«npQneoiis, their pursuit after it will be more or less retarded. 
And yet it is to be lamented that difference of pentiment ha» 
long obtained o|i this highly momentous subject. . While all the 
MBcere disdples of Jesus insist on the absolute necessity of 
lioiiness m order to find salvation^ they are not agreed with 
3M4pect to the degrees of holiness attainable on earth ; or, ratlier, 
as it reiqpeGts £e time when this holiness ma^ be xeceiYed. 
Some* fiN»n adeep conviction of the entire and radical depravity 
of human nature, and from a consciousness of the numerous im- 
Berfecti<Mis. which attach to as a^ men, have d^ed the possi- 
bUitY of our being delivered from .the remains of the carnal mind 
vatil the article of death ; . or, at least, conceiye that God does, 
for wise and gracious purposes, suffer his peoj>le to struggle 
with tiieir innate corruptions, so long^as they remain in the body ; 
that, though sin is subdued, it is not eradicated ; that, though it 
does not reign, yet it maintains a warfare within, until.mortality 
is swallowed up 4)f life. Others, with views equally correct on 
the deiMth and malignity of human depravity, and equally con^ 
seious <^ unavoidaUe in^zfeetions, conceive that they see 
enough in the Scrigtures to authorize them to expect a full and 
a ^e««nf salvation : not only from the guilt and dominion of 
outward sin, but also from the very renins of corruption in 
their hearts. They see an extent ajid efficacy ascribed to the 
atoning blood, sufficient to wash away all moral- pollution : 
^ Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all 
iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar ]pedple, zealous of 
gooid works :"— "the blood of Jesus Christ, his Son, cleanseth 
us from all sin.^ They are encouraged to expect the entire 
benefit of this renewing and dteansing process, by numerous 
exceeding great and precious promises : *' Then will 1 sprinkle 
cleui water upon you, and ye shall be cleaii ; from all your 
filthiness, and nrom all your idols, will I cleanse you. I will also 
save jou from all your uncleannesses." " If we cenfess our 
sins, he is faithful a.nd just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse 
us f^m an unrighteouitaess.** " Having these promises,'' they 
cleanse themselves "from all filthiness of flesh and spirit, per- 
fecting holiness in th^ear of God." While they pray that God 
would " sanatify them wholly, body, soul, and spirit, and preserve 


&em blameless to the coming of the Jjord Jesus i" theylbeliore 
it to b« their imperioas duty, and their exalted priyileffe, to love 
and serve God with aU their heart, and soul, and mind ; to *' be 
perfect, all their Father, who is in heayen, is perfect.*^ And 
aaving this hope in them, ^-ihej purify themselves, even as he 
is pure.** '* Beholding as in a glass the dory of the Lord, they 
ase changed into the same image from glory to glory as by the 
^Spirit of the Lord.'' Thus they '* increase! with all ute increase 
of God,** until they attain to the ** fuH stature of a perfect man 
k Christ"* 

* As thens i« rtifi afleat much mistalee tad iM « e pre » 6irt ition oa tUa 
inportant kirineli of Christian doctriae and experieaoa, the editor deems il 
expedient to^sabioin the foUowiog eztrMt froca My. Weslej*s " Plain Ae- 
eoont of Christian Perfection." 

" Q. ^Hiat is Christian perfection ? 

** A. The lonng God witii all oqt heart, nundi sovl, and strength. This 
Mttolies that na wvana tempes, none oostiacy to i«re,tettaina in the sool; 
ana that all the thoughts, words, and actiona are^Temed b]r pure lore. 

" Q^ Do you affirm that,this peifectioa excludes all infinnitiea, tgDonnoe« 
and mistake ? 

'* A. I eontiaaaUy affina iiaite the contrary, and always hare done so. 

'* Q. But liow can every thoudit, woid^ luid work be goveoied by pura 
love, and the man be subject at Ine same tmie to ixnoranoe^and mirtake T 
• " A. I aee no contradiction here. * A man maybe filled with nui1» love, 
and still be liable to mistake.' Indeed I do net expect to be freed from 
actual mistakes till this mortal put on inunortality. I belieTe this to be a 
■atoral ODnse<}uence of the soul's dwelling in flesh and blood. For wa 
cannot now tkmk at all, but by the mediation of those bodily organs which 
have auffi»ied equally with the rest of our frame. And hence we cannot 
avoid sometimes tkmking wrong, till this corruptible shall have put on 

" But we may carry this thought farther yeL A mistake in judgment 
B^ay possibly occasion a mistake in practice : for instance, Mr. Ve Renty'a 
mistake touching the nature of mortification, arisiog from prejudice of 
educatioa, occasioned that practical mastakej his wearing an iron |prdle. 
And a thousand such instances there may be, even in those who are m the 
higheat state of grace. Yet, where every word and action springs from 
love, twik a mistake is not properly a am. However, it oannot bear the 
ngour of God's justice, but needs the atoning blood. 

" Q. What was the judgment of all our brethren who met at Bristol, in 
August, 1758, on this headT 

*< A. It w^ expressed in these words: 1. £very one may mistake as 
long as he Uvea. 2. A mistake in opmion may occasion a mutakg in prac- 
tice. 3. £very such mistake ia a transgression of the perfect law. Tnere« 
fore, 4. Every such mistake, were it not for the blood of the atonement^ 
vould expose to eternal damnation. 5. It follows that the most perfect 
have conUnual need of the merits of Christ, even for their actual transgres« 
aions, afid mxy sav for themselves, as well as for their brethren, ' Forgive 
ns our trespasses.* 

" This easily accounts U>t what might otherwise seem to be utterly un- 
aoGoantable, namely, that those who axe not offended when We speak of 
the highest degree of love, yet will not hear of .living without sin. The 
reason is, they know all men are liable to mistake, and that in practice as 
irell as in judgment. But Uiey do not know, or do not observe, that this 
is not sin, tf love H the sole principle of action. 

** Q. But still, if they live without sin, does not this exclude the neoes> 

Th^ tlie latter tentin^eiits vm t|iose f nteitinB^ Irf L9(h[ 
]^axwellf oo t}ii8 important branch of Chri.fl|tiaD doctrine and 
enerience^ has been, already abundantly ijnaniffst. While sh^ 
ftieneyed every particle of good in man flowa tm lam tlHroogh the 
medipm of atoning Htqod, Ae beheld an infinte wmrtb in thai 
iV»em^t, to propure for her the highest possible degrees of 
grace ; and a sufficient efficacy in the grace of God, fuUy to 
transform her into the <iivine image. [ She dtaai pot, therefore, 
Hmit'tbe Ahsughty, or prescrilne any boondariies to the opc^ratioM 
of his grace on the human heart : button the eontiary, from the 
period she obtained justifying^ mercy, she israiiaUy hiuf^ered 
mad thiMed after foil aalTatia&-Ho be Jelireied firom aU upwasd 
tomfption; ttid to be fiOad witii.aB the fidio^ess of GM. Sh* 
had 6ftiein *' ISelt as tf'just at the port iff bliss ;'" and, to continn* 
the fignrey soon after the eonftmeacemei^ of this y carr At «ntere£l 
kto this haven of reyt. Andr-thongh she^ simk 4^«per into self- 
abaaement, became more cempietcly sensible ef her ci^ da- 

sity of m Mediator? At least, is it nbl piain 1l«l dley sUad no loBnei ib 

aesd of Christ in his priestlf fiffiee ? 

** A, Far fttaa it. Kone feef their need of Christ fike these ; noae ao 
entirely depend njpoir him. For Christ does not gir^ Bfe^ to &m' soul 
separate from, bnt m «inl with himself. Hence his wtNnd» mn eqnsffjr trixo 
or all men, in whatsoever state of ipraee they are : < As the braach eannot 
tiear fitiit of itself, except it abide m the vine, no more can ye, exee|>t ye 
ibide In me : without (or sepMvte from) me ye eain do nothing'.' "^ . " 
'■ "In every state we needuhrist in Ae foBbwink re^^ets: i. Whatever 
lirace we receive, it is a free gift from him. 2. We rreeiye it as his par« 
ehsse, merely in consideration of the price he paid. 3. We have this 
craee not merely from Christ, but in him. F»v our petfeetioe is not like' 
that of a tree which flourishes by the sap <|enved from its own tpo/L biit; 
as was said before, like that of a brapch, which, united to the vine, sears 
^ioit ; but, severed from it, is dried up and withered. 4. All our blessingB^' 
teinporal, spiritual, and eternal, depend on his inteieession forx», which is 
one branch of his prie%tly office, whereof therefore v^e have always e^al 
need. '5. The best of men -still need Christ in k^ psiestly office to atone 
for their omissions, theh* shortconna^ (as seime not hnprepeiiy speak,} 
Iheir mistakes In jnd^ent and pnu:tice, and th^ir defects «f various hinds. 
For these are alt deviations from the perfect law, and consequently need 
in atotaement. ' Yet that they are not properiy sins, we apwehl^nd may 
appear from the words of St. Paul, ' He th^ loveth hath AdMled the laW: 
lor love is the fulfilling of the law/ Rem. zm, 10, 12. New mistakes an4 
ifhatever infirmities naturally flow from the eorruptible state of thebs^, 
ale no way contrary to love, nor, therefore, in the Bcnptore sense, sm. 
' "To explain myself a little fkrtbet on this. head. 1 . JiTot on^ nm, fn- 
feriy «o calhdj that is voluntary transgressSotx of a known law, bat Sia 
improperly so called, that is, an involuntarv transgression o^ a divine kw^ 
known or unknown, needs the atoning blood. 2. I believe theirs is ne 
such perfection in this life as excludes these invbluntavy transgressions^ 
which I apprehend to be naturally consequent an the ignoranee and mis- 
takes insepiarable from mortality. 3. ThereftMrenMn»0cr/Mf»onisaphrase 
1 never use, lest I should seem to contradict myself. 4. 1 believe a person 
filled with the love of God is still liahle to these involuntary transgrassiMis. 
5. Such transgressions you may cafi «tn», if you please : I do not, fbi^ the 
reasons above mentioned."— Tv«&;y*« Werlu, vol. vi, pp. 500» 501. 

hirn or la^v nj^vr%hu 347 

peadeAoe on the JSaviour, and continOjed to thirst after arrowing 
mmibrmity .to God, — ye%, after waitisff for the most satisfactory 
eridenc^, both from the wUness and fruit of the Spirit, she waa 
eoBstrained to bear her steady, decided, and consistent testi- 
mony, that the bitter root of sin was destroyed. 

Lady Ma3(weU's experience from this time, to use her own 
expression, eyidenUy " ran in a deeper channel." She had for 
y^eara f* walked with God,". but now her walk became more in- 
timate and fiimiliar. -She had long felt " the powers of the world 
to come ;*' after this, she frequently felt as iS* on the borders of 
immortality, holding oonyer^e with its heavenly inhabitants. 
Her &ith beeame so yigorous as, in a great measure, to draw 
aside the yeil of sensible things ; and enabled her to contemplate 
with a steady eye invisible and eternal realities. While an in- 
describable emptiness appeared impreased on all terrestrial ob- 
jects, "the whole affectionate powers, of her soul" were con- 
centrated and fixed on Jehoyah. To promote the glory of Crod, 
to extol the riches of his graccy to exalt the Sayiour, to recom- 
mend redeeming love; to seek Uie salvation of souls^ was, espe- 
cially from this period, her only and delightful emplojrment. 
This was the element in which she lived, anid moved, and 
breathed. And though still conscious of her own nothingnesa 
imd weakness,— though still the subject of temptation, called to 
wrestle with principalities and powers, and the rulers of the 
darkness of this world, — ^yet her' spiritual enjoyments became 
more deep, solid, constant; her jfromei less subject to jQuctua- 
tson. -The pious and judicious will not, therefore, be either sur- 
mised or discouraged if they find, in her subsequent ejraertence, 
an acquaintance and familiari^ with the deep things of God not 
common to the generality of Christianar. 

Her views respecting the sacred ^d sublime doctrine of the 
Tnmty, deserve particularly to be examined with modesty and 
cmuHon. ^ She considered that the revelation which God has 
made of himself to man must needs be very partial ; sufficient, 
however, for every practical and saving purpose ; that no re- 
realed truth is of a merely speculative nature, but that every one 
}s designed to produce a practical influence on our mina and 
epn4uct, on our duties or privileges. The doctrine of three dis- 
tinct divine subsistences in the one indivisible God, is a revealed 
truth, and on the anthcnaty of that revelation the Christian be- 
lieves it : but in her view, and in her experience, this grand 
truth was not merely believed but knaum. The revelation of 
the doctrine is not for speculation ; its direct influence on con- 
duct is not easy to see ; then it must wear an important aspect 
on the Christian's privileges." Ilius her ladyship thought ; and 
believed that she received divine manifestations from each per- 
son in the ever blessed Trinity ; and enjoyed a distinct commu- 
nion with the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost ; frequently quoting, 


ad confirmatory of her views and feelings, a passage which often 
afforded her peculiar consolation. '* He that ^ath my command- 
ments and keepeth them, he it is that loveth, me; and he that 
loveth me shall he loved of my Father ; and I will love him, and 
will manifest myself to him." " If a man love me he will keep 
my woris : and my Father will love him, and we will cooie unto 
him, and make our abode with him," John iv, 31, 23. 

At first these glorious manifestations of Deity excited her sur- 
prise, and were even accompanied with a sacred awe, amounting 
almost to dread. She knew not how to'account for them, and 
feared lest her apprehensions^ andleelings might lead her astiray. 
She therefore long pondered these things in her heart, aad re- 
mained silent ; but becoming more satisfied of the reality of her 
experience, she ventured to open her mind to a few of her pious 
and spiritual advisers. ' What were the sentiments of Mr. Ma? 
ther on this interesting subject is not known : but in July of thk 
year Mr. Wesley wrote to her ladyship atf follows : — > 

" After Miss Roe, first, and then Miss Ritchie, had given me 
so particular an account of that br^c^ of their experience, I ex- 
amined, one by one, the members of the select society m Lou-, 
don on that head. But I found very few, not above nine or. ten, 
who had any conception of it. I think 4here are three or four 
in Dublin who likewise speak clearly dnd seripturajly of having 
had such a manifestation of the several persons in the ever 
blessed Trinity. Formerly I thought this was^ the experienee 
of all those that were perfi^cted in love. Butloim liow clearly 
convinced that it is not. "^Only a few of these are faroured with 
it. It was indeed a wonderful instance of divine mercy that, at 
a time when you were so encumbered with the afiairs of tbia 
world, you should have so much larger a taste of the powers of 
the world to come." In a subsequent letter, he says.*^ — ^**Mr. 
Charles Perronet was the first person I was acquainted with who 
Was favoureid with the same experience as the Marquis de 
Renty, with regard to the ever blessed Trinity,* I have', as yet, 

*^he Marqais de ReAtvilescended from one of tlie most noble houses 
of Artois. He w«b the only son of Charles de Rentv, aiMl -was bom in the 
year 16H, at Beny, in Lower Normandy. In early lifej the reading of 
" Kempis on the Imitation of Christ," made a powerful impression on his 
mind ; and, by the blessing of Gted, inducted him to seek the one thing need- 
ful, the salvation of his sonl. At the age of ^enty-two he married. J^iss- 
bcth de Balsac, daughter of the Count of Graville. When he had reached 
the a£e of twenty-seven it pleased God to touch his heart more powermlly, 
and this time he marked as the beginning of his entire change and perfect 
consecration to the service of God. From this period he became alniraing 
and shining light, adorning in all things the doctrine >of God h» Saviour. 
But his race was short ■: he died at Pans, on the 24th of April, 1649, in the 
thirty-eighth yewr of his age. The passage in his Life to which Mr. W. 
alludes abovcf is as follows : — " I bear in me ordinarily an experimental 
verity and a plenitude of the most holy Trinity, which elevates me to a 
simple view of God ; and with that I do all that his providence enjoins am, 


found Iwt very fei^. instances ; so thai it is not (as. I was at first 
apt to suppose) the oonunoa privilege of all that are * perfect ifi 

The above quotations sufficientljr show that thes^ peculiar seii» 
liments w^re, at tlie time alluded to, entertained only by few Uk- 
dividuals ; and it is believed such experience is at present rarely- 
heard of. Christians will doubtless form different opinions on 
this.sul^ect. Some, probably with an unbecoming temerity, apA 
without hesitation, Wilt proscribe the whole of it as undisguised 
mysticism :-*others will mipute it to a misguiding imagination :•— 
many will conclude that wliat was peculiar might arise from the 
mind dwelling particularly on the diilerent parts of the divine 
economy, in the work of human redemption. Odiers again will 
vefer it to th^ difiicij^lty of clothing in mortal language the pure 
and sublime emoyments of " a soul in commerce with her God :^ 
while a few, from a correspondence of feeling and enjoyment, 
may find no difficulty in receiving, without any qualification, the 
testimony of such persons as De Renty, Perronet, and MaxwelL 
All, however, will do well to remember that it is a subject, not 
of speculation, but of experience. This jnay tend to throw 
around our decisions the chastenings of a becoming modes^ : it 
may lead to the humble inquiry, ,How far am I qualified, to de- 
cide at all t> It may even tend to suspend the judgment, and to 
save from the fplly of hastjr dogmatism, until we have attained 
to the i^ame entire devo^tedoess to God as had been attained by 
the pious lady whose testimony we are at present canvassing. 
And all will do well to remark, that her Is^yship only deem^ 
those manifestations of mercy valuable, in proportion as thej 
tended to transforin her into tl^ divine, likeness. Besides, what- 
ever may be the opinions entertained on this subject, we shall not 
err if we still say with Mr. Wesley, when writing to one of the 
above pious individuals, ^ There is nothing better, in heaven or 
earth,' than' iove f There cannot be, unless there were something 
higher than the God of love. So that we see distinctly what we 
have to aim at. We see the prize, and the way to it. Here is 
the height, here is the depth of Christian experience ! * God is 
love : and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and Grod in 
him.' " 

net resardlfig aiiy thing for th«ir gr^tness or Httleness, bat only the order 
<if God, and the Klonr uey may render him.*' See an extract of Uie Life 
of M. de Renty, by Mr. Wesley. 

* Wesley's "Works, vol. vii, p. 26L 27; 

" He," says Jeremy Taylor, " who n>es about to speak of. the mystexy 
of the Trim^, and does it by words and names of man*s invention, talklni 
of essences and existences, nyi^taaes and personalities, priorities in co> 
equalities, and unity in pluralities, may amuse himself, and build a taher^ 
nacle in his head, and talk of somethmg, he knows not what : butthegoeid 
man, who feeU the pofwer of the Fathbk ; to whom the Son is become 
mhi»m, gtmcHfieatian^ and r^leowf iwm ^ and in whose heart th# Qrixtr i$ 


Lady Maxwell's benevolence ^Iso continued to expand in pro- 
portion to her piety : her faith and works still walked hand in hand. 
Though she had, by the wise providence ^of God, recently en- 
tered upon a new and extensive field of labour, which was likely 
to occasion much solicitude, and to afford ample scope for the 
exercise of all her powers; she was still on the look-out for fresh 
schemes of usefulness, for new methods of doing good. She 
had for years thankfully witnessed the gracious e&cts produced 
by' the religious instruction of children, fostered by her mat- 
temal care in her own charity school; and was thus weD pre- 
pared to hail and welcome the dawn of a new mid glorious era^ 
which had already begun to shed its light and influence, and to 
dispel the darkness which for generations had fatally Jsrooded 
around the habitations of the British poor* About five or six 
years previous to this period, the immortal RAiksrs had coin-j- 
menced his benevolent operations in the city of Gloucester ; his 
example and success had in a measure housed the attention of 
the humane and pious, and Sunday-school establishments were 
gradually rising up in England to adorn and exalt our countty, 
and to carry the tidings of salvation and' the blessings bf Chrisi 
tianity into the most humble dwelling of the most obscure ham- 
let in our land. 

The first intelligence of these important and salutary efforts 
would doubtless be received by her ladyship with Joyful emo- 
tion ; and while others were hesitating and pei-plexing themselves 
with doubtful conjectures, she hastened to class herself with the 
most zealous and active patrons of Sabbath-day schools. " It 
does not appear that any thing in this, way had as yet been 
attempted in Scotland ; and the majority, even aniong the well 
disposed, were for some time inplined to think that the regular 

Mfud abroad ; this man, though he understands nothing of what is Tmintelli- 
giblc, yet he aloiie tndy uHderstmids the Gbristittn. doctrine of the Trinity.? 

The editor koows np auihor wko has written on this sublipie doctrine 
with such an immediate reference to the experience and privileges of be- 
lievers as Dr. John Owen, in his valuable work, entitled, " ^Commu- 
WION with God the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, (each Pvrbok dis- 
tkicdy) mLovB, Grace, and Co if sola Tioir."* And he would earnestly 
recommend to his pious reader, especially if called to minister in the sanc- 
tuary, a diligent and serious perusal of this devout and able treatise. It is 
presumed that he would tlien feel less difficulty in admitting any pecu* 
liarity in phraseology^ or strength of expression, he may meet with m the 
present volume. This justly celebrated writer, after having enlarged on 
the nature of communion in general, proceeds, with his usual abiUty, to 
show " that the saints have distinct communion with ^he Father, and 
tiie Son, and the Holy Spirit, (that is, distinctly with the Father, and 
distinctly with the SoN.^and distinctly with the Holy Spirit,) and in 
what the peculiar appropriation of this aistinct cbannunion unto the several 
persons doth consist.^' 

Those who would prefer a judiciou^ abridgmelit of this work, freed from 
tiie peculiarities of the author's creed, may meet with it in the " Christiaa 
Library," vol. x, p. 409, 4tc. 

taWM <HF- LA9Y KAXWELL. 251 

parochial sehools^ established in the sonthem parts of that en- 
lightened country, superseded the necessity of any other means 
for the instruction of the rising generation. So far as a com- 
mon education, or a mere abi}ity to read, is concerned, this might 
be truiB ; but still the chief, the essential object, aimed at by 
Sabbnth schools, was wanting — the seriousand solemn inculcation - 
of religious principle, arid of religious precept. Lady Maan^ell 
and other pious associates perceived that,^ as it respected the 
observance of the Sabbath, and the more direct business of reli- 
gious instruction, the children of Scotland, like those of the 
sister Jcingdom, t^ere entirely left to the care of their parents ; 
niuhitudes of whom, indifferent to the welfare of their own 
souls, felt no solicitude for th« salvation of their offspring. Gom- 
roiseratiifg the case of these unfortunate youth, Lady Maxwell 
promptly determined to establish sev^al Sabbath scnools under 
herown immediate patronage; and applied to her correspondents 
in Englaiid for such inforjnation as might help to gaide her in the 
prosecution of her pious purpose. 

This spark of benevolence being once elicited soon burst into a 
holy Hame ; and,^ in the c<Mirsex)f this year, the friends of reli- 
gion- in Edinburgh formed the pious resolution of collecting to- 
gether, on the evening of each returning Sabbath, as many of 
the children pf the poor as possible, for the express purpose of 
imparting^ to th^m religious knowledge. This institution is still 
in active and very extensive operation. Its friends and sup- 
porters bad for a season to struggle against the influence of pre- 
judice ; but, happily for the poor children of North Britain, these 
prejudices, in general, have long since been subdiied. Patient 
and persevering, though noiseless activity in this labour of love, 
by dififereilt denominations of Christians, has finally succeeded 
and, instead t)f having still to. encounter a cold and doubting op- 
position, they now see the religious instruction of youth by Sab- 
bath schools resorted to^ from their own metropolis to the re- 
motest comers of the land. But we ought never to forget how 
much we are indebted to those pious individuals who ^first, almost 
solitary and alone, broke up the fallow ground ; and, in spite of 
the snhenncss of indifference, tlie scowl of suspicion, and the 
sneer of contempt, continued to sow the good seed : — they la- 
houred, and toe have entered into their labours.* 

But Lady Maxwell shall again spea)i for herself. 

♦ In order to revive and encourage the numerous schools already in exist- 
ence, and to accelerate the formation of others throughout the country, 
an instittttioja denominated "The Sabbath-School Union for Sgot- 
LANU," wa« established at Edinburgh, . in the beginning of 18 J 6; In less 
tiian a yedr after its commencement the committee had the pleasure of re- 
porting, that 324 8<^ool8, containing 22,827 children, ^ere already embraced 
under their bond of union. The'editor has not in his possession a lat^r 
report, bat believes that the field of operation has h^een greatly enlarged!. 



^ CoateSt Januaiy 5, 1787. . 

I unite with jou in praising our gracious God, who deals so 
bountifully with you in sickness An^ in health! How great ii 
his goodnesa! It is also matter of thankfulness, that he has e&* 
larged your sphere of usefulness. How high the honour^ how * 
rich the privilege, to live and act for God^ " My soul doth 
magnify the Lord, and my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Sa^ 
viour." He hath lately increased my fellowship with' heaven i 
time seems with me almost swallowed up in eternity. In me* 
ditation I dwell much in that unhoundid space. How contracts- 
ed are ouk views while confined within the limits of time ; h^e 
Uiere .are no objects in ^ny degree adequate to the vast desirea 
of an immortal soul; but, viewing eternity, what a bound less pro8<» 
pect appears, what a full scope may we there give to our nwst 
extensive wishes. There all our holy affections may Toam at 
large, and find abundance of objects perfectly suited in kind and ^ 
duration to their nature. , . 

The Lcnrd has taught i)ae many important lessons within the^e * 
six months, and I feel very desirous of leamingievery thing he 
would have me to know. Every new acquisition of divine and 
experimental knowledge lead^ to fresh discoveries oif my igno-> 
ranee. Though the Lord deals thus kindly wiUi me I have not 
that degree of evidence which perfectly satis^es me that the 
work of sanctification is fully wrought in my soul ; yet I think 
it increases. And what matter of prajse is it that now, when I 
am obliged to be so much more than ever formerly occupied in 
temporal aflfair^, my mind is not deranged ^y them ; that still 
the whole bent of my soul is to Gfod.. The more he gives me of 
the world, the more clearly he- makes me see its emptiness ;— r 
it recedes, it disappears, it lessens in my view. A cpnsiderable 
part of Lady G.^s fortune is by her appropriated to di&i^ent pur- 
poses, which gives me much to dq ; bu^ I see it as Jthe work the . 
Lord has assigned me, and I engage on this. account the more 
heartily in it ; but I have much need of the prayers of God's 
people for a large increase of-^ heavenly wisdom. I doubt not 
you will continue to bear me and my burthens before the Lord ; 
and do entreat him, that all his will in this affair may take plsce ; 
that his counsel may staifd. 

fuid that these benevolent efforts are ^till continued with unabated vigour 
and increasing success. 

From the recent important suggestions and jMwerful reasonings of that 
eminent philanthropist and divine, the Rev. Dr. Chalmers, maytve not 
hope that a host of new operators, and new energies, will be ciuled into 
action ; and that the ultimate object of diffusing religious light and infla- 
once throughout the whole mass of the rising generation, wiU, at lea^ be 
greatly accelerated t — Vide the ChrUtwn and Cwk Bowomyjif Uarg« TViOM* 

z^: JS^ 


It gave nte pain to be so near yon in Oetobef list, and not to 
see you ; but it was necessanly so. I fonad it good to mingle 
with the excellent Ones (^ the earth at that time. When called 
in proyidsnce to be again in the south I hope to enjoy the priTi- 
lege of, yi»iting your peaceful habitation. that every revolv- 
ing season may meet us pressing on in the heavenly road; 
' ripeninff apace for eternity ; .filling up the few remaining mo- 
ments K>r and with our God ! And at last, may an abundant en- 
trance be administjered uoto us. May we enter the heavenly port 
in full sail. , D. Maxwell. 


Coates, January 16, 1787. 

I am much indebted to you, Rev. sir, for your kind attention to 
mv best iAterests ; but infinitely more so to your dear Lord and 
Master, who has dealt very bountifully with me since my last to 
you. Some little time ago the Lord Jesus visited my soul in a 
most delightful manner, when joining with a Christian friend in 
prayer, praise, &c. I feel a poveHy of expression when I attempt 
to say what I enjoyed at that time : words cannot convey an 
adequate idea of it. JeSqs sweetly attracted my heart,, and 
arrested all the affectionate powers of my soul.. He appeared 
in his native beauty, shining with the milder beams of his media- 
torial glory. In the evening of the same day,; while hearing a 
sermon preached in niy own Ijouse, God the Father, in solemn 
majesty, drew near. I felt sensibly the approach of Deity : 
I seemed filled with a heaven of silent love and sacred awe. 
Since dien my fellowship had been uninterruptedly with the 
Father and with the Son. In secret prayer and meditation, I 
am permitted to converse with my God and Saviour, as a man 
with his firiehd; nay, even when engaged in Worldly business, 
this heavenly intercourse is not suspended. What is man that 
God should deal tims wondei^l^ with him! I write thus 
particularly to you, because I know both Mrs. Mather and you 
"were much interested in my 8{Hritoal prosperity. My unbelief is 
now almost conquered : but still I feel led to cry mightily to the 
Lord, that he may give me still stronger evidence of ike work 
being wrought. Satan says it is only an increase of conatmunion 
with heaven; therefore, i plead for^the most unequwoecd marks 
Qi safyciificati&n,^. In the mOantime my enjoyment is great; 
w>t /ecstatic jey, but peace, divine peace, . flowing as a river, 
'Constantly supplied by belieyiilg views of the Father and Son. 

Thus far I had written yesterday, when necessary avocations 
called me away. To-day I resume my pen, and with it the 
delightful theme of redeeming love. I feel pressed in spirit 
to testify anew of the loving kindness of the Lord. He fed . 
me last night and this morning on angel's fbod. I waa per- * 
mitted to come very n<3ar, even to the ioolstool ai his throne, 


and to ask what I would. I seemed to Imre power to |irevai} 
with God. Whatever unbelief may afterward suggeat, I oei«- 
tainly, at present, through superabounding mercy, dweU in love, 
and in God, and God in me. Yet stiil I thirst for more : 

■" Insatiate, lo the spring I fly, 
I drink, and yet am ever dry." • 

But still I have no rapturous joy ; np, it is the calm "serenity 
of a summer's day without a cloud, that fills, yea, overflows 
my soul. O to Jesus how infinitely indebted. I hope Mrs. 
Mather and you will assist me with your prayers that the Lord 
may confirm aiid establish my soul : that he may maintain what 
he has wrought for me, and not to suffer any enemy whj^ever to 
rob me of it, I cannot help remarking how weU timed the 
goodness of the Lord is ; how peculiarly suited is this sensible 
increase to the situation I have been in for many months ; im- 
merged in temporal business, which as yet is enveloped in 
confusion and difficulty, sufficient to dissipate the mind alto- 
gether, at least the mind of a female. Through mercy, upon 
the whole, I have been kept calm on tumult's, wb^l ; enabled 
to commit all to Him who rules in heaven and earth : only 
Bsking that hi)s will may take place, >nd all Aw counsel stand. 
I hope matters are at last drawing toward . a crisis.. I now 
wait the ultimatum of Dociprs' C&mmong, This^ as the der- 
nier resort, must determine upon which unll administration is 
to be granted. Wishing you and your wife every, spiritual 
blessing,' I remain, Rev. sir, . 

Your obliged, faithful, humble servant in ,the Lord, 

' , p.' Maxwell. 


Febniai^.2, 1787.: 
Since my last the Lord has again made bare his holy, arm in 
my behalf. , - 

" Where shallmy wondering soul besin to tell 
His love, immense, unsearchable :" 
"All my words are faint. 
Celestial love <ao eloquence can paint." 

Suffice it to say, the Lord has kindled such a flame of divine love 
in my heart as I trust will never be extinguished, but bufn 
hrighter and brighter till it mingles with the blaze of eternal day. 
To confirm my soul in the ijrace given, my God again came 
down in solemn majesty. This sacred grandeur peculiarly 
marks, of late, my intercourse with the Father. My soul sensibly 
felt his solemn approach ; and said, without a voice, God is here-, 
, Soon after, the powrers of darkness, if not commissioned, were 
permitted to level all their envenomed darts against rae, and I 
sustained a hot engagement for many hoiurs : but felt determined. 

-^^ •■Jrf'*^^-- ._J^- 

UFE 09 I,ADY KAZWSI£. . 95i 

through gnUse, not to yield a hair's breads to the enemy, nor t# 
rest satisfied without a decided viciory. This, throagh super* 
abounding mercy, I obtained.' The following day, being Sunday, 
I took the sacrament at the Octagon, wbere I enjoy^ nothing 
very remarkable ; but in my way home to Coates, the Lord 
Jesus drew near ; not in the overwhelming greatness of sove- 
reign majesty, or the dazzling brightness of unveiled glory ; no, 
it was Deity elothed with the robes of mediatorial glory that, 
with an irresistible {fraction, absorbed the afiectionate powers 
of my sOulv He condescended to converse with his creature, 
and permitted me to speak to him a^ a man with his friend. 

" No more can be in mortal sounds express'd. 
But vast eternity shall tell the rest." 

It a taste of divine love be thus -'transporting, what ecstacies 
mui$t the hai^y soul enjoy when permitted to drink its fill at 
those streams that flow from the throne -of God for ev^r. . Some 
hours after, when conversing with a friend, iay condescendinff 
Lord again came nigh, and drew my heart from earth away, and 
ail created good. But great ks w^ere these two glorious inter- 
views, they were small compared with a third I was favoured 
with that same night. When musing alene on the goodness of God, 
Jesus caihe to me, with such a fulness of light, of love, of hea- 
ven, ais well nigh overwhelmed my ravished soul. The inter- 
course was so near, so heavenly, I really began to think the 
period was at hand when my connection with mortality would be 
-dissolved. Surely I was much awake to the life of heaven- 
born ispirits ; surely I tasted aJl the joy of angels. My happy 
soul cried out, 

"O love divine, all love excelling, 

Joy of heaven, to earth come down." 

It was immediately suggested that tvhat I most needed was 
greater degrees of conformity to the divine Image : I then ear- 
nestly plead that my ^[racious Lord would bestow this upon 
me.. In these repeated ihterviews with heaven, though admitted 
into communion with the trluiie Deity, I experienced no ecstatic 
trcmsport of joy, but a cairn delighting in- all the silent heaven 
of divine love. How unspeakably great my obligations to sove- 
Ttagn graee ! My eommunion and fellowship is at some times, 
to wiy apprehension, more peculiarly with the Father, at othdr 
times with the Son, as two distinct persons of the Trinity, 
though the jsame in substance. My j)erception of the persanality 
of the Holy Ghost is not so clear. I seem to know him best as 
a divine agent for the Father and the 8on, if I may so speak. 
Is this scriptural experience ? I write- thus particulatly to you, 
because I find your letters peculiarly useful to me, as I did your- 
eohversadon^when in the south ; and- 1 wish to use evBry help 


te tlie est^lishment of my soul. I dread siakiiig in imy nnea- 
mne. from that degree of-BpiriUial life I now enjoy. Nature 
would impose ailenoe, bat graee forbids the prohibition. I there* 
fore endeayour to do yiolence in this iteapett to my natoral tem- 
per ; and speak of the goodness of tlie Lord to my soul, as 
Christian prudence directs ; but my present situation admits of ^ 
few opportunities. 

I rejoice to hear that the work of the Lord prospers in your 
hands, and that Mrs. W. is made a hiqipy partaker of ^^ pure 
loye of God.' I pray that many witnesses of it may be raised 
up : with you, with us, and in eyexy part of the Lord's yineyard. 
I belieye 1 stand alone here, which calls for ffreat ^prace, and a 
yery clear work, both as to the witness and the fruit. I do hope 
all the features of the new creature are drawn upon my sout, but 
many retouches of the diyine pencil will be necessary to perfeetr 
the work. The work appears to me as yet small, thpugh ripen^r 
ing into maturity ; therefore, I feel a little shy to say much 
about h. I should sooner belieye your aocount of the matter^ 
if I c(ld not think you yiewed it through a parlial medium. I 
return grateful thanks for your kind attention, and Mrs. Mather^s ; 
and am, Rey. idr. 

Your nrnch obliged humble servant in Jesus, 

D. Maxwell. 

TO THE asy. a1 MATHER. 

. Coates, M«rch 11, 1787. 
I know you wish to hear of the prosperity of my sQiil, and I am 
thankful I can say, the Lord still continues to do me good. He 
keeps me constantly looking to him for the continuance of his 
fayonr,^ and ah increase of grace. God ^the Fathei: has again 
condescended to yisit my soul, (after a pretty severe struggle 
with the powers of darkness :) that moment there was a heavenly 
calm diffused through my mind ; peace was proclaimed in all my 
borders, and a loving, sacred awe seized all my powers, though 
the manifestation was not so remarkable as the . preoeding, one. 
Since then God the Son, a^o, has deigned to visit his. devoted 
creature, and with him comes a heaven of love. He draws near, 
and with an irresistible divine sweetness attracts all the affec-> 
tionate powers of my soul ; as sensibly as the loadstone does the 
steel. My intercourse with the second person of the glorious 
Trinity produeeth sensations different than when called to stand 
in the* immediate presence of God the Father. -The former is 
attended with inexpressible delight and divine sweetness ; heaven 
Ms every comer of Uiq soul : the latter is preceded by^ and 
brings with it a deep, solenm sense of majesty ; a holy, reverential 
awe rests upon my mind : the creatare sinks into nothing before 
lis great Qreator. Yet this is so tempered with diriiie lore aa 


to exclude every degree' of dread. O the height and depth of 
redeeming love ; the line of our reason is by far too short to 
fathom it : bat as ** the hart panteth for the water brooks, so 
panteth my souF' to prove its utmost extent. Prayer is now my 
chief employ. I "would be every moment conversing with my 
God; but a variety of necessary avocations prevent this : yet 1 
must confess, for the glory of my gracions God, that, when 
called to tak^ up the cross of secular ajSairs, he is unspeakably 
good to me. lie not only carries me through it, but comforts 
me in it. 

In the course of his holy providence I am still called to wade 
through deep waters in reference to my great temporal affair. I 
am oUiged to dispute, at least to defend, every inch of ground 
against those who are disposed to take every advantage that the 
precipitant departure of my deceased friend can give: but, 
through mercy, it moves me not. J have been obliged to tread 
the tedious round of the English courts of law, which has ab- 
sorbed much time and much money ; and when matters were 
almost brought to a Crisis there, and I fondly hiu>ed all cause of 
litigation was at an end, fresh grounds of dispute are breaking 
up in Scotland. But I am nowise discouraged ; the work is the 
Lord^s,attd I leave it with him. At the same time I feel strength- 
ened, both in body and mind, to take every step necessary on my 
part. Duty is ours ; events are the Lord's. He is with me, 
and I believe my opposers shall not prevail. 

I have removed to another house, in which I have erected an 
altar unto the Lord; and for the first time had the gospel preached 
in it on iThursday last, to as many as would attend. Do assist 
me by your prayers, that many may J)e convinced, converted, and 
sanctified throughout. After what I have written, you will think 
ine unreasonable if I say I still ^lead for ferther evidence : but 
it really is so ; I look for that strong witness that will bear me 
out in avowing before all that sin is destroyed iii my soul. I 
am shy to disclose this to any at present. Is this the will of 
God ? Or is it the remains of natural timidity 1 God Has cer- 
tainly wrought a change ; but how far it goes is another point. 
I write freely to you in hopes of profiting by the answers. I 
hope to hear that Mrs. Mather is quite well ags^n, and that you 
and she are abundant in successful labonrs for the Lord. I re- 
main. Rev. sir. 

Your obliged seinrant and friend in Jesus, D. Maxwell. 


April 17, nS7, 

Since I wrote you last, outward and inward trials have in- 
creased. The tide of spiritual temptations has run so high, and 
the infernal, powers have so harassed me, I began to fear I 
should be overcome ; yet through mercy I have stood, though 


258 tiFs .QV laut maxwell. 

only by faith, exclusive 0/ j<fy. The former ■ seemed sensibly 
strengthened, that I might eiidare temptation, and by it I was 
enabled to cleaye stead&stly to Jesus ; to trust in the Lord Je- 
hovah, in whom I found was everlasting strength. This was 
my only refuge, and I fled to it, and there abode, in spite of all I 
feared or felt that was painful. Had I given wav to evil rev 
Boning in the smallest degree, I found I should have plunged 
myself to utter darkness and misery. It is, on these very trjring 
oconions, hard work to resist it; so strong is the propensity of 
the human mind to oall to our aid, in religious matters, what we 
find so necessary for direction in worldl v affairs : but reason, 
though enlightened,.! find, is utterly unable to extricate us 6u( 
of the fascinating power of temptation, and the labyrinths of 
perplexity into which temptation often Involves the soul. But 
what it could not do, because of weakness, I found effected by 
the mighty power of ^simple faith. I looked to Jesus as my only 
hope, and Uiough I did not obtain immediate relief, yet the 
happy.consequences soon proved the propriety of the expedient. 
Jesus drew nigh, and brought with him a heaven of peace and 
love. The powers of hell, and their dark suggestions, before 
him fied away : and as one whom his mother comforteth, so he 
comforted my soul ; and has most graciously^sondescended again 
and again to repeat these heavenly visits : that they may 
prove of a transforming nature, iiy soul bre^ithes ardently after 
positive holiness. I Snd that I cannot rest satti^fied with any 
partial attainment in the divine life ; and great is my encourage- 
ment to press on for all that Christ has purchased, that God is 
willing to bestow, or I am able to receive. Thb goodness of 
the Lord is a strong stimulative, and a deep copsciousneai of 
my spiritual poverty prompts me forward. I do indeed feel 
poor and needy, though the Lord deals bountifully with me. 
Yesterday (the Lord^s day) he made his goodness to pass before 
me in a remarkable manner, while attending public worship. My 
former visitations from on high were either frontGpd the Father 
alone,. or from God the. Son alone, or from both together ; on 
this happy oocasion, it was from God the Father, God the Son, 
and God the Holy Ghost. I was favoured with a clear view of 
the Trinity, which I never had before ; and enjoyed fellowship 
with a triune God. This filled my soul with a solemp awe and 
heavenly sweetness. I was in the spirit on the Lord*s day, and 
felt my mind fixed in deep contemplation upon that glorious, in- 
comprehensible object, the ever blessed Trinity. HiUierto I 
have been led to view the Holy Ghost chielly as an agent, now I 
behold him distinctly as the third person of the Trinity. Ihave, 
^ my own soul, an experimental proof of the truth of this doc- 
trine, but find human language perfectly insufficient for speaking, 
or writing, intelligibly upon the subject. £temity alone can 
nnfold the sacred mystery ; but, in the mean^mO, what we 

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may and do coippEeliead of it is repJete with comfort to the 
Christian. . . 

I stole a little time yesterday from business to write you, but 
could not finish my letter ; and this morning, I find fresh cause to 
repeat the wondrous tale of God's goodness to my soul. My 
Jesus is with me to-day in a peculiar manner ; shining sweetly 
upon my mind as altogether lovely. Surely his love is better 
than wme. I have Been delightfully let mto him, in secret 
prayer ; and, asking in faith, hare receiyed out of his fulness. 
" O lore divine, all lore excelling !** 

Still I am faroured with a clear and distinct perception of the 
three sacred Persons. - Assist me^ with your prayers, that I may 
improve to the utmost the goodness of my GckI. 

I have been insensibly led, for months past, to speak and write 
with unusual freedom^o you : I trust some good end is to be 
answered by it. Can you inform me where a letter will find Mr. 
Wesley jUst now ? or do you know if he intends being in Scot- 
land this summer ? Will you be so good as to send me the rules 
of some of the best-regulated Sunday sehools, with the form of 
advertisement previous to their being opened, and also the amount 
of the teachers' Claries. Th6 people of Scotland are not fond 
of them, but I m^an to give them a trial. Poor children, in gene- 
ral, have greater opportunities for being taught through the week 
Here than in England ; but, as our manufactories increase, these 
yinltof course lessen. Shall I make an apology for taking up so 
much of your timet^ With good wishes for yourself, Mrs. 
Mather^ and your amiable son, I irematn. Rev. sir, 
' Your faithful, humbly servant in Christian bonds, 

D. Maxwbll. 


May 14, 1787. 

Yodrlast letter. Rev. sir, is replete with printable matter; and 
<if a kind to which I am not aqeustbmed from the generality of my 
Christian correspondents ; yet of that nature which suits me bet- 
ter than any other, and which, properly guarded, might be of great 
utility to the church of Christ. At present, it seems hid from 
the eyes of many worthy teachers in it^ and valuable nlembent 
of it. Is not this a 6uffioient reason why you, who so thoroughly 
understand the matter, should not remain silent — should not hide 
your talent in a napkin—but, wi^b all the ability God has given 
you, endeavour to remtrodttce^. this important doctrine mto the 
Christian worid % It would be doinff an essential service to the 
church of Christ. Do consider and weigh the matter well. I 
would gladly hope a greater end than the profit of my soul is to 
be answered l^ what you have already vmtten me upon the 
jsubject. That my natural and constiHUimal shyness is so coin 


quered in writing to you I must resolve into the "will of God for 
wise ends. But I will now change my subject frona doctrine to 
experience, gud mention the loving kindness' of the Lord ; who - 
not only disappoints my fears, but exceeds my expectations. 

Since the memorable period already mentioned to you, my 
experience has consisted chiefly of a calm, sweet, uninterrupted 
feUowship with Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Till yesterday 
I felt a sensible increase of nearness to Jesus, which brought . 
more love and a still clearer view of him. Help me to praise 
Him who deals so bountifully with mfe. ' Howrichi how precious 
his kindness to me for months past ! Perhaps, without such a 
degree of it, I should have sun^ int^^the mire of secular afiair?; 
in which I am still in some measure immersed ; but I enjoy a 
nearer prospect of emerging^th^ for som^ time past. , I believe 
duty will c^l me to different parts. of England this summer. I 
shaU be glad to know where Providence casts your lot. It is a 
great source of satisfaction to^ me that the reins of providential 
government are continually in the. hands of our God; it pce- 
cludes anxiety and murmuring. Under such wise administrsr 
tion, there can be no just ground of c6mplai|it. . In order to re- 
concile this with the liberty of the creature (for man nmst be a 
free agent, else he cannot be accountable) I have supposed tha 
freedom of action was the privilege of man, hntihe amseguencei 
of these actions the peculiar prerogative of theiMost High : and 
having the absolute disposal of ih^e^ he is, with great {propriety, 
styled the moral Governor of the world. But, to. waive this 
digression, I would return to a ^till more delightful subiept-^l 
mean divine love. I believe humble love is the highest, choicest 
gift of Heaven. This I prefer to every thing else, and think no 
discovery, no manifestation whatever, can do me any i^ood, but 
as it proves a meians of confirming or increasing this holy, hea- 
venly principle. I would be filled with this humble lov.e. I' still 
fed someth^ug wanting in my experience — ^I mean a clearer wit- 
ness from die Spirit of the work of sanctification ; I should then 
with more freedom sp^ak explicitly of it. Surely He who hath 
done so much for itie will not withhold this. ^ O that he may 
enable me to sink into all ^e depth? of humble love, and rise to 
all the heights of Christian cosfi^dence. . 

I shall be much obliged to you for a particular account of the 
best, managed Sunday schools : and am, Rev. sir. 

Your faithful, humble servant in the Lord, B, Ma^xwell. ' 


June 21, 1787. 
I feel constrained once more to resume my pen, for the pleas- 
ing employment of making mention of the loving kindneas of 
Him whose goodness you have so long experienced. Last time 

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I wrote you, I studionsly avoided j)iofe88ing any thing concern- 
iiig the witness of the Spirit for sanctification, as I did not en- 
joy, at l^ast, according to the judgment I had formed of it. That 
the Lord had condescended to increase my communion with hea- 
Ten, I could not deny ;— that he had given me wonderful dis- 

flays of his greatness, and power, and majesty, as God the 
^ather, was also certain ,^ — thai he had made Jesus, in all his 
mediatorial glory, in bright effulgence, oflen pass before me, and 
converse with me, was likewise matter of fact; — and that he 
had^ shown me, by faith, the' personality of the Holy Ghost, and 
in 'some measure ei^plained that oneness of substance, equality 
of power and giory, that exists in the sacred Three, I was as 
morally certain as of my own existence : but to believe that sin 
~ was cil done away, I had not evidence sufficient to convince me ; 
<ir, if it bottom there was a secret hope it might be so, yet I had 
iio freedom to declare it to others. In this uncertain state I 
continued for some months, pleading earnestly with the Lord 
for that degree of evidence which would effectually banish every 
shadow of doubt. I cannot enumerate the numberless ways and 
means a gracfous God took to conquer the remains of un{)elief. 
Eternity alone can unfold the mystery of \i\b matchless good- 
ness to me. Suffice it to say that, last week, I felt increasing 
power to yield to the motions of the Spirit, which have since 
ripened into a divine testimony ; and t can no longer doubt that 
the bitter root k destroy edi In some small measure the fruit, 
BS well as the Spirit, <^oncurs in witnessing this to my soul. I 
know you will join me in praising Him^who has. dealt thus 
bountifully vdth me. I feel deeply conscious of my weakness, 
but no propensity to discouragement. I trust it will prove* happy 
pteservative against those evils to which I may be now chiefly 
exposed. Did my time or yours permit, I could say much 
more, but I am obliged to conclude. I would only add, that now 
the liord has matte an entire conquest of a heart that has long 
wished to yield to him, but which has been prevented by listen- 
ing to an enemy. I hope it will for ever remain in the hands of 
the right owner : and not only continue emptied of evil, but be 
also fiUed with all the communicable fulness of Jehovah. In 
Haste, your faithful, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 

P. S. My Sunday school was opened, last Loi-d's day, con- 
taining thirty-one scholars. Pray for its prosperity. I have 
taken measures for opening another about twenty-five miles 
south of Edinburgh, under the inspection of Mr. Boyd, from 

TO MISS ritchib; 
• ' Coates, June 26, 1787. 

. Pi^AR Mias RrrcHii:, — ^As you have kindly taken an interest 
in my spirituml concerns for some years, I feel a calII to inform 


you of the great goodness of the {jord to my soul for sogie montba 
past. Indeed, it is more than human language can express. Since 
January last, he has been sensibly increasing my little stock ; 
not only making wonderful discoveries to me of the glory of God 
the Father, Go3 the Son, and God the Holy Ghost, as distinct 
persons, yet the same in substance, equal in power and glory ; bat 
also allowing me such nearness to, and deep communion with 
the sacred Three, as was at t^mes ajmost too much for the clay 
tenement, and seemed in a groat measure to break off^y coTm^e^ 
tion with mortality. O the heavenly, the inexpressibly delight* 
fnl interviews with the Lord Jesus with which I have often 
been lately indulged. I cannot convey any adequate idea of 
them ; perhaps your own experience will much better inform 
you. At times the solemn grandeur of heavenly majesty was 
sweetly tempered and softened by redeeming love^ At other 
seasons I have been called to stand in the presence of the .most 
high God himself: then sacred awe filled mv 80ul,iind all a3round . 
seemed filled with the presence of Jehovah ; I {^It as if I stood 
on holy ground. At other times, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost 
have so surrounded me as made me, to prove, in the full extent 
of the Words, the " overwhelming power of saving grace." This, 
last manifestation was in April last, when partaking of the Lord's 
supper, and continued for many weeks ; a measure of it I still 
f njoy. Numberless have been the gracious visits I have been 
favoured with since then, but still I was. not satisfied : tlie Spi- 
rit did not witness the destruction of sin, and without it I could 
not rest : yet 1 felt very thankful for what the Lord has dona 
fbr me. I had often a secret hope that 1 had received the blesa>- 
ing, but durst not say so to others; and the enemy did all in his 
power to prevent me. At times the whole powers of darkness 
seemed let loose upon me, and then I ^went through the most 
painful exercises of mind, yet felt as if strengthened to endure ^ 
greater agony. But He who is rich in mercy did not permit these 
severe conflicts to last long : in due time he rebuked the adver- 
sary, and poured the healing balm of his love into my soul; 
Again I went on my way rejoicing, wrestling in prayer ror that 
degree of unequivocal evidence of sanctification which would 
fully satisfy both myself and others. The Lord us^d various 
nieans to conquer th^ last remains of unbelief. For some days 
I felt him powerfully and s^etly at work upon my soul. I oV 
tained increasing power to yield to the motions of the Spirit, and 
in a very short time they terminated in a clear witness. This,, 
through mercy, has abode with me ever since. I can now no 
longer doubt that the bitter root is destroyed. A small measure 
of the fimit concurs in bearing this testimony. . How shall I -suf- 
ficiently praise Him who has dealt thus wonderfully with me; 
and so seasonably timed these great and glorious diflopLays of his 
love and power when I was necessarily so thorougmy occupied 

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with secular affairs as might have proved ver^ detrimeota! to 
my soul. O the height and depth of redeeming love ! What 
angel tongue can tell. Did my time permit, I could hare ftaid 
much more, hut husiness calls. In haste, with Christian lore, 

D. Maxwjbll. 


Coatet , July 25, 1787. 
Having hinted in forixier leUers that the Lord did' not witness 
by his Spirit ta the work of satictification which he had wrought 
in my soul, his goodness i^ow constrains me to say this is no 
longer the case. He shihes now with 'meridian brightness upon 
his own work. There, in his light, I see light, and feel fidi 
liberty to testify that the bitter root is destrpyed. How shall I * 
sufficientlv praise Him who has dealt thus graciously with me. 
The wonderful displays of ihe power, glory, And goodness of 
Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, which I have enjoyed since the 
cfbmmeno^ment of this year, though matter of unspeakable thank- 
fiilness, could in nowise satisfy while a doubt remained that the 
Canaanites were not wholly driven out of the land. For this I 
besought the Lord, with a de^ee of importunity his own Spirit 
, besiM)wed ; therefore he ^heard the pr'^yer, and, for the sake of 
Jesus, gave me the desire of my heart. I am now brought into 
the wealthy place ; kept in t&e immediate presence of J^ovah; 
privileged to see the King in his beauty, with the land that is 
afar off; enjoying the continual abode of his Spirit; surrounded^ 
with the peaceint presenoe of Father, Son,iuid Holy Ghost, and 
have, in a small measure, the depths of the Godhead made 
known to mel But over all his glory my God has created a 
defence, by giving me deeply to feel that 1 <m/y sUnd hy^faiih* 
I rejoice 'with trembling swei^tly tempered with that perfect love 
that casteth out fear. Through the tender merey of my G^^ 
thus emptied of evil, I look forward, and enjoy the soul-animat* 
ihg prospect of being filled with all the oommnnieable fukeas of 
Jehovah. You will, I, know, cordially join with me in aStf&aig 
up the willing tribute of praise so justly duer to our God^ who 
has at last made an entire conquest of a. heart that has long 
wished "io prove his utmost salvation «nd fulness of love. But 
business calls, and I must' answer. The Lord has fatUy con- 
vinced me that the work is Ms; he has reserved it .for m6| 
brought me to it^ and gives nie to believe (howevet, in one sense, 
unequal to the task) he wiB carry me through it, onfalamable in 
his sight, and irreprovable before max\. It is the doing of the 
Lord, and may well be marvelloaB in my sight. That you may 
feel a growing power to glorify and ^oy your God; that! 
may ^ stand fast in the liberty wherewith Cfarisi hath imule me 
free,** 4nd hourly add to my littlei stock— he active and zealous. 


fidthful and fhiitful : — let us, with a holy importunity, night and 
day, wrestle with the Hearer of prayer, and he will answer us, 
for ourselves, and for the prosperity of his Zion Permit me 
also to recommend to your eameiit prayers my youngest brother, 
who lies dangerously ill, and, I fear, not prepiared for the great 
change. Believe me, dear Miss Ritchie, with Christian love, 
Your fellow traveUer to the New Jerusalem, , 

D. Maxwbll. 


September 7, 1787. 
Rev. Sib, — I intended sooner to thank you for your attention 
in sending the rules for the Sunday schools : but have laeen 
much and necessarily occupied in that business the Lord has 
committed to 910. But O, what cause of thankfulness, that, with 
Martha's careful hands, he also gives me Mary's loving" heart. 
I still have fresh, yea, daily cause to tell of the loving kindness 
of the Lord. He continues his goodness, he repeats the remark- 
able manifestations of his love, as flowing froqi the sacred Three ; 
distinctly discovered by faith as separate persons, yet inez- 
plicRbly united. My soul is abundantly more established in the 
grace given than when I last wrote you. I iiow enjoy the 
constant, dare I say, the fuU abode of the Spirit! Perhaps that 
is goin^ too far : X would rather err on the safe side. Yet Tfeel 
liberty to say, Father, Son, and Holy GAo^r continually encamp 
around me : and 

** Not a cloud does arise to dai^en the skies, 
Or hide, for a moment, the Lord, from my eyes.** 

Wherever I move. I meet the object of my love, I left Scotland 
on Tuesday last : and have since been in constant motion ; daily 
conversing with different persons, and engaged in various busi- 
ness : yet,- through the abundant goodness^? my God, my mind 
is not in the least deranged by these diversifled scenes. " O 
wondrous power of sovereign grace !" : r' 

I am Iflad to find by letters from Mr. Wesley and Dr. Coke, 
at Guernsey ,^ that the prospect opens so fair and extensive for 
the spread of the gospel in the West India islands.. May the 
time speedily commence when all the kingdoms of this world 
shall become the kingdoms of our God and his Christ. Within 
these few months I have opened three Sunday^ schools, upon the 
plan yon sent me : two iiTEn^land, and one in Scotland. May 
the Lord succeed every attempt to promote his cause in tho 
world. With Christian gopd wishes to Mrs. Mather and your- 
8elf.t I remain, Rev, sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant, and friend in Jesus, 

IX Maxweix. 


TO ram ebt. o. athobb, olamiow. 

Coates, October 10, 1787. 
I am pleased to see by your letter that your gracious God is 
owning your iaboant and comforting yoar own soul. Shall I coft- 
gratulate you upon a complete victory over all your inward 
roes 1 Are the Canaanites wholly driven out of the land 1 If 
so, I would say, Hail, happy soul ! whose heart is now a quiet 

" Where only CKria* is heard to speak, 
Where Jesus reigns alone.** 

If Otherwise, permit me to say, O rest not till thus blessed! 
Cry earnestly to God, and the Lord, whom ye seek, will sud- 
denly come to his temple, never more to depart. 

I am a witness of his faithfulness and pow«\ I proved a 
mighty exertion of both in my little excursion to the south ; 
when, in the diversified scenes I went through, all the powees 
of action both of body and mind were called forth, and kept on 
the stretch sometimes from moriiing until night. Yet, throuffh 
the tender mercy ef my God, my mind was preserved nnifor^y 
stayed upon himself; my fellbwebip, without interruption, was 
with the Father and the Son ; and my evidence for sanctification 
strone as a cable fixed to an immovable rock, and bright as the 
sun shining at noonday ! This was the Lord^s doing, and truly 
wonderful in my eyes. What shall I, what can I render unto 
the Lord for all his goodness ! O may my future life speak his 
praise, and evince my gratitude* 

Since I came home Sie Lord has been very gracious. While 
I now write I feel a sweet sense of the presence of God. I 
thus write, hot to make known my own attainments, but for the 
encouragement of others, and to the glory ai the Giver of every 
good and perfect gift. 

When God is at work, either among a people or in the heart 
of an individual, the adversary of souls is peculiarly at work 
also : a belief of the former shotdd prevent discouragement, and 
a fear of th^ latter stir Up to much prayer ! O the power of 
faithful ptayer ! I live by prayer. May you prove its sovereign 
eiiicacy in every difficult ease, and find the apostle's request tor 
the Colossians (chap, i, 9, 10) answered in your own soul. I 
am pleased to hear that Mrs. Atmore's sphiere of usefulness is 
enlarged, and her soul happy. 

Enclosed is the widow^s mite toward liquidating the debt 
incurred by erecting gaJleries. We go on much as usudi in 
Edinburgh. More fife is much want^. May the Lord nour 
out his Spirit ! then the barren wilderness shad become a uruit- 
ful field. 

Repeated interruptions, ^ec., oblige me to conclude. Ptaying 


for peace and protpdTity among 3n>i]r people, and the continuancr 
of both in your own and Mrs. Atmore's soul, I am, Rer. sir, 

Your faithful, humble servant in Christ, D. Maxwell. 

P. S. I have many demaiids,.yet, if firnds aie>low» add another 
guinea, and I will repay it. 


December 1 , 1787. 
What has become of Mr. Mather, my profitable correspondent! 
I should suppose my last has never come to hand, as it is now 
about two months since I wrote, and have had no reply. In my 
letter I mentioned a small excursion I had made into England 
upon business ; but I went no farther than Workington, in Cum- 
berland, and of consequence had little profitable intercourse with 
Christians ; yet experienced much, Very much, of the delightful 
and gracious presence of my God, even in that barren clime. I 
find his mercy sweetens every toil, makes every region please ; 
and since I came home, the Lord has wonderfully exerted his 
omnipotent power in cairyiBg me over mountains of difficulties 
in my important engagement, and through pretty severe exer- 
eises of mind : in both I proved my God a present help, a strong 
hold in the day of trouble. Often, after these trying seasons, he, 
as it were, rends the iieavens and comes down ; appears in ma- 
jesty divine ; puts my foes to flight, and drowns all my fears and 
painful feelings in the ocean of redeeming love. At other times, 
'When, perhaps for. honrs, I have been necessarily engaged in 
secular affairs, a fear has arisen, lest by so doing I should sink 

' from that happy state into which I have been brought : then, 
quick as lightning, Jeans appears himself; comes down as rain 
upon the mown. grass; makes my soul as the chariots of Ami- 
nadab ; and strengthens me to leap over a wall, or to overcome 
a troop. Sometimes, when meditating upon what the Lord has 
done for me, or when hearing the word preached, the sacred 
Three draw near as distinct persons, and yet, to my view and 
apprehension, one, in a manner inexplicable. I much wish to 
improve these gracious visitations to the utmost. My aoul, night 

• and day, feeds upon the word of God in secret, which, with 
prayw, is the means from which I reap most profit. You see 
how freely I still vmte, having given you an abstract of the 
Lord's deaiiags with me for months past. 

I believe, if the Lord will, I shall be obliged to go to Bristol some 
time in the end of January, or beginning of February, upon 
Lady Glenorchy's chapel basiness. it is to be opened about that 
time. This is a new ooncem, and I feel a little awkward in it ; 
but, being called to it, I must endeavour to go through with it aa 
the Lord shall assist. There is a depth in providence in this 
dispensattoa I have not yet been able to fathom. I find the line. 


both of reason and faith, too short to get to the bottom of it ; but 
X leave it to the Lord, and only wish to fulfil his Will in it. With 
my best wishes to Mn. Mather, I remain, Rev. sir, 

Yoiir faithful, humble servant, D. Majcwsll. 

ence co«tmii6<l' 

CHAPTER XXra.— 1788. 



FtotieQlan re^ectiAc Hm Chapel— Lady Maxwell visits Bristol^ 
FiBmis an intimate with Mis. £. Jobasoa — Short account < 

Land had been parchased, by the joint benevolence of the 
Ladies Glenorcby and Hope, on which to erect a chapel at the 
Hot Wells, near Bristol. These ladies had frequently visited 
this place ; not to unite in the frivolities of fashionable life, but 
«olely to seek for benefit from the long famed salubrity of its 
waters. They had witnessed the dissipation and folly which 
reigned triumphant throughout all ranks, with sincere regret; 
and lamented the want of an awakening and spiritual ministry, 
and the paucity of places for the pubMc worship of God, at a 
situation were hundreds annually resort who particularly need 
the consolations of the gospel. Influenced by these impressions, 
they determined on the erection of a chapel ; but before they 
could accomplish their pious design they were both called to ttie 
joy of their Lord. By the appointment of Lady Glenorchy it 
hecame the duty of Lady Maxwell to carry this design into efl^ect. 
After all the arrangements which could he made by means of 
letters, she hastened to the spot, personaUy to examine into 
every particular connected with the business, and to adopt mea- 
sures best calculated to secure the objects aimed at by her de- 
parted friends. She left Edinburgh on the 11th of October iu 
this year, and after inspecting the various chapels under her 
care, which lay on her road, arrived at Bristol on the 27th. She 
entered into the concern under much discouragement, but with 
confidence that as the cause was the Lord^s he would favour her 
with all necessary and seasonable assistance. She had to en- 
counter many and great difficulties, but was enabled to surmount 
them : though she has not either in her diary or correspondence 
stated particulars. The chapel, however, was ultimately erect- 
ed, and being desirous to perpetuate the memory of her " dear 
daughter,^^ she named it " nope Chapel.^' This chapel, as will 
be seen, afterward became to her ladyship a source of painful 
solicitude : but, had we materials, it would be away f¥om the 
object of this work to enter into any lengthened detail of its 
history. In her diazy she has recorded several acts of kindness 
shown her by many Christian friends while at Bristol ; repeated 
pleasing intervi«wB with Mr. Wesley ; and the close intimacy 


wMch she fanned with Mrs. Elizabetfa Johnson, a maiden lady, 
at whose ho^se she for swne time resided. 

This pious female was defseende^ from an ancient and noble 
fiunily. Her great grandfather was son to Counsellor Johnson, 
who was wpointed master of the, rolls to King Charles the 
Seeond. llie residence of her father was at Chippenham, Wilt* 
shire. She was the youngest of four children, one son and three 
daughters, and was Som in June, 1721. From her infancy she 
femd God, but did not obtain an esqierimenial knowledge of 
salTtttioD, by the remijssion of sin through faith in the atoung 
blood, until near the close of the year 1744. Sooa after this, she 
nnited herself to Mr. Wesley's society in Bristol, and was one 
of the fiiBt fruits of the extraordinary work of God, the light of 
which was then just dawning on (he world. For above half a 
century she continued a steady, pious, consistent, and actire 
member, adorning in all 1thin|;s the gospel of God her Saviour. 
During the greatest part of this period she resided with her eldest 
sister, Mrs. Mary Johnson, a lady of similar spirit, and they had 
one heart and one way. Like Lady Maxwell, her benevolence 
was bounded only by her abilities. In the earlier part of her 
religious life, she also, with Lady Maxwell, regretted her want 
of means to gratify the generous wishes of her heart ; but, by the 
death of relatives, she received repeated accessions to her pro- 
perty ; all of which she cheerfaHy devoted to the cause of God, 
and to the wants of the necessitous. In one instance twelve 
hundred pounds came into her possession, purposely to be dis- 
tributed among the poor ; and this labour of leve was fUthfulN 
performed, and with delight and satisfaction, by her own hana. 
She died as she had Jived, exulting through the blood of the Cross. 
About three o'clock on the morning of her death she endeavour* 
ed to repeat the apostle's trium^aat exclamation, ''I have 
fought^' — ^but here her breath failed, and. weakness forbade her 
iinii^iing the blessed sentence, the import of which her heart 
experienced. About four, she cried out, " Come — Lord—came 
^-^ome^"" and a little afler, ** Lord," with which word she sunk 
into the arms of her Hedeemer. " Thus,'* says her biographer, 
*' on the 18th of December, 1798, a few minutes before five in 
the momme, afler near fifty-Jive years^ close walk with God, 
Elizabeth Johnson obtained the summit of her wishes ; the 
answer of her prayers ; the end of her faith ; the final salvation 
of her soul ; and, as a ripe shock of corn, ^as ^thered into the 
heavenly gamer in the seventy-eigfuh year of her age. Her 
remains were interred on the 37th, in the family vault at Lay- 
cock, in Wfltshire." Many of the following letters will be 
found addreaeed to this eminent saint. 

Having completed her work fbr the present at Bristol, Lady 
Maxwell again beat her course homeward. On her way she 
yisited her friend and correspondent, Mr. Mather, at WakefiekU 


and arrived in safety at Edinburgh on the 8th of Norember. 
SevetBS of the auheequent epiiUee refer to the above pertieolmrs, 
and will sufficiently show what was the state of her ladyship** 
mind and heart in the^ eiidst ef these nmlti&rions engagements. 
And i% will be seen that, while she was fsulbfally mseharginf 
the duties whieh devolved «pbn her in thai pert of the Lord*s 
vineyaid committed to her care, she was cheered and eneonraged 
bv hearing of the spread of the gospel and the extension of the 
Redeemer'e kingdMU in diffbrent parts of the worid. 


Janvuury 5, 1788. 

For the comfort of your own soul» Rev. sir» and the good of 
ofhei's,! wiaih to give yon a more aecuracte aeoeunt of tiie Lord's 
work in different places, as oommnnicated to me by two Chris- 
tian friends in England, than I did yesterday. My inipnnatioB 
from HnU mns thns :-— '^ The work of the Ixnrd is grea% deep- 
ened in many hearts, in lllis place lately. Five of our friends, 
within this last six weeks, a:re clearly brought into full liberty. 
They snnply and freely testify thai ^the bk)od of Jesus Christ 
eleanseth froih sll sin.* Sevml are aUdrst for purity of heart, 
and I trust a cloud of witnesses wiH be ralscld up here, whose lives 
and humble^ Uiottgh open profession, will evhice to all who know 
them that they are redeemed from sin.** Thus far my friend at 
Hull. Boltrniy-^-^^ The Lord aeems to be going out of his com- 
mon way to alann and convert the children of men. Here eight 
returned thanks ibr pardon one Sabbath day : and seventeen 
young women belonging to the Sunday school were jqstified 
very lately. Many more have recently been brought in; some 
fay oeing alarmed by visicms in the night, and odi»s by seeing 
the distress of seme who were crying mr pardon.'* 

Mr. P. Cox, at Brunswick, writes, " Great news from Zion. 
Never was there so great a work in America, no, nor in any 
part of England, accorainr to aU the accounts in Mr. Wesley^ 
Journals, as w now in Brunswick and Sussex circuits. At 
many of our preaching places, we cannot meet the classes, ^ 
account of the cries of me distressed. -> Sometimes fifty in a day 
are truly converted te the living God. On the 96th and STtk 
of July our quarterly meeting for Brunswick was held at Maw- 
iMirgh chapel, and on the 8Sth and S9th, for -Sussex circuit, at 
Jones* chapel. It was thought, at the least eompotalion, that 
during these four days there were between two and three hun- 
dred savingly brought to GM. It is impossible for us to ascer- 
tain the numbers exaody ; however, such a sight I never behdd 
before. The penitents lar in rows on the ground, crying for 
mercy at the hand of God ; many of whom were the principal 
gentry of the country, and several of Dr. Cox*8 chief oppoaeas 
whm. he bore his testimony against the slave trade.** 


Mr. Dickens writes fiom New-York» '* Aogost 97, 1787. I 
have very extraord'mary thii^s to eommaiiieate. The L^r^ hath 
made bare bis holy arm in Virginia. It looks like tfte dawn of 
the miUennium. I have reoeired the most mathentic inteUigenco 
that since oar last conference seToral bnndrsds bare been con- 
verted in Brnnswick and Sussex cixcoits ; and about Bmnswiok. 
sBTen tbensand sonls are.'nnder deep ootiviotiom - The work is 
a]so very extraordinary in some parts of North Carolina, espe^ 
cially at and near Virginia, where the congregations on the Sab- 
bath day consist of many thousands, and many. of the greatest 
perseoutors are stmck aown as dead. Surely this is the arm 
tf Omnipotence." ■ , ■ 

■' Some parts of this account w«e transmitted to us. before, but 
tkey wilL bear a repetition. that the recital of tbem might 
wsrm, by Uie blessing ^of the Most High, the oiany cold beazts 
to be foimd in par nonbem c^mes. Yet, sorely^ our God was 
with ns of a truth yesterday^ and I feel him equally gracious to- 
day. - Let us improve the fnTpurable season, and wrestle for 
greater things.. In a peouKar manner, I believe he waits to do 
us good at present. May yon qnickly prove and openly testi^ 
that '* the blood of Jesus Christ cleans^ irom all. sin." I hope 
Blrs. Atmore also is athirst for ibis great blessing. J am, Jtev, sir» 
Your faithful, huaaUe.seryaBt, 

D. Maxwell. 

TO TBS nrr. alixandbb matbek. 

Jasoary 18, 1788. 
: Through die abounding goodness of my 6od, I am still con* 
strained to testify of bis loting kindness to my soul. The penury 
of mortal language prevents my doing justice to the grand and 
delightfttl subject : eternity alone can unfold the wondrous tale ! 
O wfaat heights, and depths of redeeming love have I experienced 
amoe the commencement of 1787; aira yet I. seem to have but 
lasted of the cup of bliss. The pleasing, the delightful retro- 
spect affords ample matter for wonder, love, and praise. I hav« 
sometimes, lately, endeavoured to measure back by contempla^ 
tion the various steps whereby the Lord has led me, and caused 
his love to abound toward me, for these last twelve months; but 
my thoughts have often been recalled, and absorbed in present 
enjoyment. Shall I say with Kempis,' *' The Lord sees I am yet 
weak in love, therefore he visits me often. '^ If I do, surely I 
must add, if this Is a mark of weakness, let me never be without 
h. Solomon's inquiry, " Will God in very deed dwell with. man 
on the earth V* I can from sweet experience quickly answer,-— 
he will,— he does ; for i dwell in love, and in €rod, and God in 
me. What shall I say to these things % It is the Lord's doingr* 
and is truly marvellous in my eyes. O may my life, together 

LIFE or LADY maxwell/ 271 

with ray pen and lips, proclaim his goodness, and- speak his 

His Spirit still witnesses to the work of sanctification ; bat I 
daily prove that I only stand by faith. If at any time a doubt 
passea through my mind, it is not permitted to rest there. The 
Lord has again recourse, I may say, to signs and wonders, to 
confirm my, faith. Then succeeds a sweet sinking into God : 
yea, into the Godhead^s " deepest sea ;" and soon my soul breaks 
out in strong desire for all that God can give. 

I see the full assurance of hope* as something superior to 
what I now enjoy : and am Ted to press after it. You haye 
walked over all this ground, I doubt not ; and can therefore point 
ontthe straight road to a traveller, who wishes to get quickly «n, 
and to carry many with her. I do feel liberty, and endeavour, 
when Christian prudence permits, to speak and write upon the 
delightful theme that now engrosses my best thoughts ; although 
a variety of perplexing business sets a seal upon a large portion 
pf my time. But divine love will not be kept under ; it will rise 
above every sorraw, every care, every fear, yea, every creature. 
It cannot rest short of God, its centre. 0, how excellent a thingf 
is love ! May it fill your soul and mine. 

My journey to Bristol is delayed till April, by the' dilatory 
proceedings of the architect of the chapel at the Hot Wells : you 
will not regret this. I am in a measure delivered from slavii^ 
fear, else I should shrink from the triails I may expect there. 
God has made me as certain as of my own existence that he has 
placed me where I now stand ; I therefore depend upon him for 
wisdom, strength, &c., &c. I feel as a little child in the busi- 
ness, perfectly unequal to the task : but I am aware it is the 
divine appointment and blessing alone that can give power and 
success to any instrument. 

I wish to hear that Mrs. Mather is quite well aff^ain. She 
must not leave us for a long time yet. O that the Lord would 
raise up many witnesses blessed with her experience. May your 
bow abide in full strength, and the success of your labours in- 
crease' with your years. I wish I had rhetoric sufficient to per- 
suade you to take up your pen in the defence and support of a 
-doctrine that seems at present too much neglected. Do think 
of it, and oblige, Hev. sir, 

Your faithful, humble servant ^i Jesus, 

D. Maxwell. 


Coates, March 11, 1788. 
Because He who is rich in mercy still gives the continued 
grace, I can. Rev. sir, : answer your inquiry in the affirmative. 

* See note, p. 382. 


** My soul doth magoify the Jiord, and my spirit rejoiceth in God 
my Saviour." I have oeen, by the wise appointment of nnerrin? 
wisdom, afflicted in body, more so than for months, and still I 
am far from being well ; hence I am miich confined. In the 
former part- of my illness I lay, as it were, becalmed in the 
boBom-of love ; but, in the latter part of it, the adversary was 
permitted to try evety graiii of grace. I was sifted as wheat : 
it was truly an emptying time. Yet X stood, because the ever- 
lasting arms were underneath me; and soon my God said, "it 
is enough." He rebuked the adversary, and the din of war 
ceased. I had peace in all my borders ; yea, it flowed as a river. 
God the. Father and Son came down as at the beginning, encir- 
cled me in the arms of redeeming love, and potcred a flood of 
noon-day evidence into my soul for sanctification. Assist me to 
praise Him who deals thus tenderly and bountifally with me. 

Yesterday my cup overflowed. I was called to see ah old ac- 
quaintance, Lady J . M'Kensy : she was just upon the wing, 
ready to take her flight into the invisible world. In my wvlj to 
town, O how exquisite was my enjoyment! — Slanguage fails. to 
express it.. Heaven seemed let down to earth. Jesus was 
intimately nigh, shining in all his mediatorial fflory, with beams 
of sacred light.^ When I came to my friend, f found her iri the 
fill! triumph of faith, exulting in her God . * The curtain of mor- 
tality seemed drawn aside, and the glories of the eternal world 
were displayed. The terror of kings, and the king of terrors, 
was disarmed of all his terrors, and changed into a messenger, 
not only of peace, but of joy. It was truly a memorable season ; 
for awhile we forgot almost that we were in the body. O, what 
has Jesus done fur the sinful progeny of Adam I How far do 
the heights and depths of redeeming love exceed the grasp of our 
limited capacities ! May we prove its utmost extent. 

My sou! springs forth in eager pursuit of what I have hot yet 
attained. I do feel that God is ^ 

" th» spring of all iny joys. 

The life of my delights ; 
The glory of my brightest days, 
And comfort of my xiights.^ 

Will you permit me to ask. Why are you so long, before you 
enter the promised land ? You know the way : <i// things are 
ready. Let not the sweets of earthly comforts retard your pro- 
gress. I should be glad if you could inform me in your next that 
both Mrs. Atmore and yourself are the happy inhabitants of that 
good land. It is, indeed, 

" Favour*d with God's peculiar smile ; 
' ' With every blessing blest." 

I feel for Dumfries : — ^hinderances strew all the way ; but God 
reigneth, DalkeiUi also wears a sombre ^appearance. I rejoice 

liirs or LABT XAXWSLt. 97$ 

to think that th» Lord can and hath promised to make a way for 
his ohareh even in the wilderness, and streams in the desert. 
fBat business of rarions kinds ealls, and I must answer. 

With wishes for your spiritual prosperity, aod also Mrs. Ai* 
nore's, I am, Rer. ^cr, 

Your faithful, humble serTaat, D. MazwcXiL. 


April 9, 1788. 
Believing, Rev. sir,diat yon desire the prosperity of my sonly 
I IM sweetly constrained, for my own profit as weU as your 
•attsfaetion, to inform yen that, through the tender mercy of 
Him whose compassion faileth not, my soul is comfortably alire 
to God : still tasting his good word, and feeling the powers of 
the world to come. I am kept sweetly under the influence of 
dirine truth, and favoured with many precious yisits from on 
liigh ; When the Deity deigns to converse with his creature, and 
to shine with peculiar brightness upon the work of sanctification 
in my soul. While thus 

** Lost in the high «njdvment of his lov^. 
What glorious xnerUl can my envy move V* 

But this high and exquisite enjoyment is not my cofUtatU allow- 
ance : t?iat is rather a calm, silent, sweet sinking into God. Yet 
I feel but a babe in perfect love. - However, there is much rea^ 
son for thankfulness ; the work, so far as I hare experienced it, 
is clear: and the babe is daily panting for the fnaiutity and 
stability <»f a father, and is much encouraged to press on, by the 
lender dealings of a God of love, who wonderfully bears with 
many weiiknesses. 

The veil; that covers unseen- things frcnn mortal eyes grows 
more transparent. I get clearer views of the eternal world ; of 
the happiness of its blessed inhabitants. Yet, though thus highly 
favoured, I seem in one sense to sink daily in my own eyes ; 
while. in another I^ rise higher. I daily need to wash in the 
blood of Jesus ; and prove it very strengthening and comfortable 
frequently, by faith, to plunge, as it were, into that sacred foun- 
tain ; and renew the dedication of myself, with all I have and am, 
or ever shall have, to my God. He accepts the sacrifice! How 
great the condescension ! 

I believe nothing short of what the Lord has done for me 
would have proved sufficient for the very difficult task he has 
assigned me. I have such a mult^ilicity of things and persons 
to deal with, and attend to, and daily new trials arise ; so that 
often all the strengdi <^ mj body, with the whole powers of my 
mind, is called into exercise, and every grain of my grace m 
tiied. I hare to fight eyery inch of giocmd, not only witfaoiilv 

274 tin 07 LAOT MAZWXtL. 

bat flomatimes wiiMo, when tlie powers of darkooM axo permil- 

ted, for wise ends, to molest me. Then I feel drivea up to a 
corner ; all human help fails, and I prove, in a peculiar manner, 
that I stand by faith : and even in that wa;^, only by the migh^ 
exertions of divine power in my behalf. F&r the time, udth 
seems stripped of all its iTuits,and but for the direct ac^ where- 
by, in spite of men and devils I keep my hold of Christ, I should 
utterly fail ; but, in general, these very trying seasons of inward 
distress are short ; my God soon rebukes the adversary, and 
hrmgs me again into the ^wealthy place, and I dw^ within the 
Teil. How shall I suffieiently praise. him ibr all hi* goodness I 
But how liule do I know of it, and of that depth of. love thete 
is in all his dispensations toward me. The very narrow liniits 
of ipy capacity keep me blind to mnch of it ruw: but^ when in 
eternity, if I should be permitted |o look into the recorda of tune, 
I shall know it better. What wisdom, what beauty, what good- 
ness, shall I then discover in all his dealing with me ! I am lost 
in the thought, but must not porsoe it, having no minre time to 
write, and perhaps you as little to read. 

I hope Mrs. Mather is now well, and that you and she are 
advancing sweetly in the heavenly road, and carrying many with 
you, who shall be for a crown of joy and rejoicing in the day of 
the Lord. I see one of the ancient pillars of the building haa 

f'ven way, though it haa of late years sustained no great weiffht. 
hope Uie fabric .wiU not feel any remarkable shock by its fa)I. 
Could you not be persiiaded to ^pend a season in the lajid of your 
nativity, for the good of its inhabitants ? Wishing Mrs. Mather 
and you the fullest, possession of every new-covenant blessing, 
I remain, Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, . D. Maxwell. 


June 27, 17S8. 

I should perhaps, for my own sake, Rev. sir, have sooner 

. answered your last profitable letter, but I have now so many 

necessary and valuable claims upon my time, that I' cannot do 

the things I would : however, I embrace a few leisure moments 

to ask suter you and Mrs. Mather ; and to say, I still prove that 

*' God is lave.^^ In saying this, I say all. How much doea 

. this include 1 — ^More than words can express. 

Upon a retrospect of the last twelve months, I find infinite 
cause for praise and thanksgiving. I then received the clear 
witness for satisfaction ; and since then, O what wonders of 
mercy has the Lord shown to me ! Too many to recapitulate, 
however pleasing the recital would be.. But, I trust, a lively 
sense of them will never be erased &om my grateful hear(. 
Since I last wrote ybu, I have had some remarksUe disco* 

▼eries of the lote, power, and goodness of Him who delighteth 
in the prosperity of his children. The invisible world hath been 
brought very nigh, with its blessed inhabitants. There seemed 
but a step between me and eternal glory. My God and Sariour 
felt just at hand. O what hath Jesus purchased for his people ! 
Even in this vale of tears how great their enjoyment ! What 
shall the full fruition of God be^ when death is swallowed up of 

** Svy ye who best can tell, ye toos of li|^t. 
Angels, for ye enjoy it," . 

and continually behold his face without a veil. This was a 
memorable season. I pray that it may produce gracious and 
permanent effects. - 

Since then I have had various trials, and numberless proofs 
of the power and love of God, in supporting me under, and car- 
rying me through them : more especially lately in a very capital 
one; much more than suflBcient to have entirely overset me : and 
yet, by the good hand of my God upon me, I have been so car- 
ried above it, as not to feel one murmuring, or even desponding 
thought. Surely *' aB things are possible to him that believeth.'* 
Assist me to praise Him who deals so bountifully with me. 
And bear with me while I give you another instance of the 
SBtonishing goodness of the God whom we love. 

On Wednesday last, I felt for' some hours keen anguish of 
' spirit, from a fear of having grieved the Holy Spirit. As a 
Christian, perhaps, you know the nature of this distress better 
than I can describe it ; if so, jrou well know that it is severe. 
Thus fearing, and thus feeling, how was my soul filled with 
astonishment and love, when, joining in prayer with a Christian 
friend or two, God the , Father came down in solemn majesty, 
banished all my fears, and scattered all my grief. He shone 
clear to the eye of faitl?, and has abode thus with me, even me, 
evtir since. About three minutes after this gracious visitation, 
the Lord Jesus drew nigh, as a distmct person, clearly manifest- 
ing himself as the second person of the holy Trinity. Prayers 
were then turned into praises! How grateful, how holy, how 
humble, ouffht I to be ! I deeply feel my shortcomings ; but duty 
calls, and I must leave this delightful theme. 

May vou sink deeper than I have ever yet done into the ocean 
' of redeeminff love. It will yet be six weeks before I can get to 
England. With Christiaii remembrance to your valuable part- 
ner, I remain. Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 

9W ttrs or la]>t haxws&x*. 


Bristol, Sept. 8, 1788. 

Ret. Sir,^— Not baring it in my power to see you in my way 
hither, I hare it at heart to meet yon and Mrs. Mather in my 
return to Scotland. I see you are appointed for Wakefield^: I 
will therefore endeaTonr, if the Lord will, to call on you there 
about four weeks hence. I cannot ix on any time absolutely, my 
hands ue so full here ; but I give you this hint, that you may, 
if you cata, be at or near Wakefield near about that time. 

A gracious God brought me here the 28th of last month. 
Being obliged to stop^ at Carlisle and Workington, I was about 
seventeen days between Edinburgh and this place, — in the course 
of which I had, through mercy, many rich displays of the wis- 
dom, power, and goodness of a God of love ; much delightful 
fellowship with the sacred Three ; and irresistible evidence of the 
work of sanctification. But I bad, also, at times, to grapple with 
the powers of darkness. . I do not know that I ever formerly 
found the fiery darts bf Satan so keenly pointed. They seemed 
to pierce, even to the dividing asunder the joints and marrow ; 
but, being strengthened to endure temptation, I quickly received 
the crown of present victory, and went on my way rejoicing. 

I believe you can enter fully into the trying peculiarity of my 
situation in this^ place, without any explanation on my part. In- 
deed, I almost feared to enter into the cloud : but He who knows 
the human heart knew I only wished to do his will, exclusive 
of every other consideration ; and he has therefore mercifully 
disappointed my apprehensions. I have been privileged wRh 
much intercourse with Mr. Wesley in public and private, and 
with some precious souls in his connection ; and also with the 
most kind reception, and every possible assistance, from those 
with whom I was called to. have much intercourse respecting 
the business I came to transact. They expressed a high respect 
for Mr. Wesley, and behaved with Christian cordiality whep they 
found him with me ; which is matter of thankfulness. 

I know you will be pleased to hear that the Lord is unspeak- 
ably gracious to my sOul. Words can convey but a faint idea 
of what I enjoyed yesterday, both in public and private. God 
the Father came down in all the splendour of Deity, in solemn 
grandeur. The Majesty of heaven condescended tA fill the 
place in which I sat (a private room with a choice friend) with 
his presence, and my heart with his love, and has thus abode 
with me ever since. I felt constrained to speak to the lady that 
was with me, and she also seemed fall of God. About an hour 
after, when the name of Jesus was mentioned, he also conde- 
scended to visit me in a remarkable manner ; shone ffloriously 
forth as the second person of the blessed Tnni^. He md indeed 
appetx ae altogether lorely, and ^onqnerad all ay afayaeaa aad 

taeitnrnity. How good i» the Lovd ! If I add to all this, faia 
great kindneas in carrying me through many difficult matters — 
much perplexed business, which he only could teach me how 
to manage — how infinitely am I indebted ! Do help me to praise 

I win liot now make any apology for such a large discourse 
on the chapter of self; haying formerly explained myself on that 
head, I think you will not mistake me. With kind remem- 
brance to Mrs. Mather, I remain, Rer.. sir. 

Your obliged servant in the Lord, D. Maxwell. 


October, 1788. 

I remember with satisfaction. Rev. sir, the short interview I 
had with you and Mrs. Mather at Wakefield. It was refreshing 
and animating. There is a peculiarity in my outward situation, 
and also in part of my experience, into which not many seem 
fitted to enter. On this account, I do not receive much benefit 
from the generality even of the Methodists. Indeed I do not 
find liberty to attempt an explanation to many of them. Yon 
are one of the very few who seem to uncjlerstand me thoroughly 
as to place, experience, views, &c. Therefore the Lord, through 
this medium, often conveys to me comfort, strength, instruction, 
&c., for which I feel thankful. Could I repay you in kind, I 
would quickly extinguish the debt. 

By the good hand of my God upon me I arrived safely at home, 
though not till the 8th, just in time to partake of the gospel feast : 
which proved indeed a feast of love, a season of refreshing from 
the presence of the Lord. With much sacred delight, and strong 
grateful sensations, I devoted afresh my spared life to His honour 
and glory who first gave it to me, and who has ever since kindly 
preserved it. 

Words fail to inform you how much of his goodness my God 
has made to pass before me, since I left Bristol. I still feel aii 
amating poverty in human language, when I would speak of the 
deep things of God. This, I suppose, will always be the case. 
However, suffice it to say, oh the road, the sacred Three com- 
passed me about : I felt surrounded with the divine presence : 
my communion with Father, Son, and Holy Ghost was truly 
delightftil. No ecstatic joy, bu,t a divine serenity ; a heaven 
of sflent love ; a sinking into God. This last expression I am 
peculiarly partial tp,hecau8e, to, my own apprehension at least, 
It conveys such a literal idea of the enjoyment I experience on 
these peculiarly happy seasons* Thus wonderfully aided, I 
passed equally ont through things painful and pleasant. By divine 
permission, vrith respect to outward things, the former prevailed 
at dififennt ^aee^. I had' soma xemirkably tnimttiog tad. 


refreshing intereoarse with Christians 4 more especially at Leects, 
Rippon, Darlington, and Alnwick. My mouth was wonderfully 
opened to declare what God had done for my soul : and on every 
such occasion I received a testimony from on high, yea, the most 
unequivocal evidence, that the effort I made were peculiarly 
acceptable to Him for whose sake they were made. 

Since I came home, thoilgh a very large proportion ^of my time 
hajs been necessarily filled up with business, I have been highly 
favoured with the presence of the ever blessed Trinity; with 
sweet foretastes of future glory; and Mount-Pisgah views of the 
heavenly Canaan': so that! hesitate not to say the Lord is deep- 
ening his work in my souT. 

I do feel I stand in God, and cannot be confined to one party. 
. My soul feels too much enlarged to admit of any exclusive 
charter. I consider real Christians, of every denomination, as 
a part of the great family of God ; as such, I would do them all 
the good I can, and take all the profit from them they can gire 
me. Perhaps this extensive, unfettered view is necessary for 
' the situation in which I am placed. But do not mistake me. I 
am at no loss where to rest the preference : there I am perfectly 
decided. My experiencey as well as judgment secures this, ft 
is not necessary to say, I hope, I am quite safe in writing th^s 
freely to you. • 

Were 1 not almost ashamed of having said so much on the 
chapter of self, I should add, I have, of late, experienced uncom*- 
mon emptying seasons. These began some time before I lefl 
Bristol, and afterward increased. I felt quite broken down be- 
fore the Lord — ashamed and confounded beyonijl expression, at 
the poor, wretched manner in which I had conducted the work 
at Bristol. I did, indeed, sink into the dust before the face of 
Jehovah, and lay very low at his feet, imploring pardon, (with- 
out one grain of condemnation, in the coinmon acceptation of the 
word,) because I had come so sadly short in what, at his com- 
mand, I had attempted. Soon afler, I received an increase. 
how good is our God ! 

I shall be pleased to hear that Mrs. Mather continues better, 
and that the work of God prospers in your hands aiid soul. The 
pray^ers of both will be esteemed a privilege by. Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, D. Maxwell. 


. Noveinbcr 2, 1788. 
'* Gold is tried in fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of 
adversity," for sdch wise ends, and salutary purposes, as fully 
justify the divine procedure, and richly repay the sufferer. I hope 
Mr. Mather^s happy experience bears testimony to this tratn. 
I jBhall be glad (o hear that he is restored to former health and 

Lin OF hAiyt KAjtwsti. I79 

usefulness, and that his path of dtUy is so clearly maTked as to 
supersede the necessity of listening to any one for direction. I 
believe the soul that walks closely with God, will in most, if not 
in every case, have the line drawn for him by unerring Wisdom. 
Attending continually to an indwelling God, we hear the small, 
still voice, saying, '* This is the way, walk ye in it.** 

I now begin to believe that ihe Lord's very gracious dealings 
'With me are intended for higher purposes than merely the com- 
fort of my own soul ; and, therefore, do more frequently and 
explicitly than ever, endeavour to tell those that fear God what 
he has done, for me; if, peradventore, the simple recital may be 
in the smallest degree profitable to them ; though herein Satan 
'Withstands me greatly. Yet, upon ever^ proper occasion, I en- 
deavour, m weakness, to offer it up as a sacrifice to my God 
(with a single eye to his glory) upon that altar which alone can 
sanctify the gift. I feel more than ever cabled to wrestle in 
mighty prayer for the prosperity of Zipn ; more especially for 
some paurtieular souls : and this morning, I think I obtained /<ztYA 
for one, together with the strongest hopes for many, who all so 
pressed upon me, so crowded before me, while in secret before 
the Lord, that a necessity' was laid upon me, by the Hearer of 
prayer himself, to be importunate for them : but for all, one 
blessing only was in view, — entire sanctification ; or what we 
. sometimes call Christian perfection. 

This important doctrine of our holy religion, more especially 
.as it relates to experience, now almost wholly occnpies my mind ; 
at least, all the time I can spare from business, &c., &c. : and I 
really think the Lord has prepared a people here for entering 
the good land. O that he would bring them in ! Assist them 
by your prayers. The injurious bar of unbelief prevents their 
taking immediate possession, not, seeing clearly it is by simple 
faith alone« 

How shall I sufficiently praise the Lord that I am still a 
happy inhabitant of that delightful land ? Still struggling to 
scale the mount of holiest love, I have gained some steps, but 
feel restless to reach the summit. My God is to me as a place 
of broad rivers, wide and deep. I rest in him ; I dwell in him. 
Sinking into hun, I lose myself; and prove a life of fellowship 
with Deity so divinely sweet, I wbuld not relinquish it for a 
thousand worlds. It is, indeed, a narrow path ; but love levels 
. every mountain — ^makes all easy. 

" lore diyine/how sweet thou art !** 

When 1 look back, I rejoice to see what 1 am saved from : 
when I look forward, it is all pure expanse of unbounded love. 
Surely the heaven of heavens is love. 

May you, more than ever, find this divine principle overflow- 
ing your soul ; sweetening every bitter cup ; making every bur- 


then ligbt. But I am called away, and most conclude by saying 
I would hope your remaining years will be peculiarly devoted to 
the interests of Christian perfection; promoting it by every 
possible means ; and may the liord succeed your every attempt, 
prays, Rev. sir, 
Your obliged, humble servant in Jesus, D. Maxwell. 


Lady Maxwell's nmHifariovt engagements — X>iaxy continued^— Again viaiu 
Bristol — ^Meets with many perplexities respec^ting Hope CIuipeL 

La^y Maxwell^s engagements during, this year were so nu- 
inerous and important, that she had but little leisure left fbr 
firiendly correspondence. The care of many of the chuVches 
now devolved upon her ; and the constant attention which these 
demanded, nearly absorbed the whole of her time. To one of 
her friends she thus apologizes for long silence : — " I have often 
wished, and intended to write you,, but have been prevented. 
Though the pen is neceltoarily and almost constantly in my handj 
even to the injury of my health, I oan seldom enjoy the privi- 
lege of writing to a Christian friend. My peculiar situation 
deprives me of many privileges. How, then, can J sufficiently . 
adore the goodness, and admire the power, that, while thus 
situated, keep my soul alive to. divine things.^' But though she 
was thus obliged to remit all avoidable correspondence, she con- 
tinued her diary nearly with as much frequency and fulness as 
ever. To this, therefore; we shall, for this year, again have 
recourse. And surely it must be encouraging to every faithful 
and laborious servant of Jesus to observe, in the experience of 
this eminent saint, such a remarkable accomplishment of that 
precious 'promise : — " My grace is sufficient for thee, for my 
strength is made perfect tn weakness." 

January 35. Still I have cause to sing of mercy. My God 
is still gracious in secret and public, opens my mouth in his cause, 
and makes my pen move swiftly upon the delightful theme. 
He enables me to devise liberal things fox my fellow creatures, 
and draws out my soul to the stranger, the ignorant, and the poor ; 
and enables me to go od my way rejoicing. The trials which 
he permits, he supports me under, and deUvers me from ; fre- 
quently disappointing my fears. But I f^el ashamed I do not 
make greater progress ;-that my love is so cold ; that I come so 
continually short. Yet my God bears with me in ^ the most 
tender manner. the height and depth of redeeming love ! 
Still the Bible is a source of unconmion comfort and profit to me, 
and still I have sweet timet of refreshing in Mcret prayer. 

LIFE OF LAJ>T UkXWltLh* 981: 

Pafaniurjr 7. Iimamerable opportdnitiM are new ^ren ma 
for promoting the temporal and spiritual good of my fellow 
creatares. I am not permitted to reason, and thereby weaken 
my own hands, by considering how inadequate the instrument to 
the arduous task of producing permanent good. Duty is mine ; 
eventTKte the Lord^s. Still I walk in the light of a luminous 
faith for sanctification : thoti^h in a much lower decree than 
many highly favoured ones; but I am sweetly invited daily to 
come up higher^ 

33. Had a sweet, though short visit from on high this 

day ; a precious touch of the love of Jesuis. Hearing from the 
pulpit yesterday of the too common evil of the Christian falling 
from his first love, I was led to examine my own experience on 
this point; and, after a review of the years which have elapsed 
since I first knew the pardoning love of God, I find, if my 
Iwart doeS; not deceive me, reason to conclude I have not lost 
my first love ; yet have much cause to lament that I have not 
made greater progress in the Christian faith ; and, also, to admire 
the long-suffering patience of a gracious God and his tender 
dealings with me. O for a heart and life to praise him as I 
would and ouffht. 

April 11. 1 feel ashamed that, though time passes quickly 
away, I do little to purpose in the course of it. I feel at 
times deeply humbled on this account, even when the Lord is 
gracious. . O my God, strengthen my hands herein ; make me 
as active, and as zesdous, and as useful, as humanity and my 
particular eituation will admit. I would fain crowd as much 
work as possible into my little span of life. Lord, let not the 
ghost of murdered or wasted time haunt me on a deathbed. 

15. Much with others ; might have been more spiritaal 

in mv conversation. Had many temporal things to mention'; 
hot, though the «nd was good, I erred in the time spent in them. 
In general, I find it best to carry all my matters to a throne of 
grace, and to obtain direction from the Source of wisdom : yet, I 
must confess the Lord often teaches me through the medium of 
the creature. I cannot, therefore, condemn the measure, but 
only wish to have the line drawn for me by Him with whom is 
the residoe of the Spirit. I felt humUed for my mistakes,. and 
shortcomings ; yet the Lord was good, and showed me the more 
exeellent way. O that henceforward I may walk in it, and 
always find'rest to my soul. 

May 30. O what cause to ' praise redeemme mercy. My 
communion with God the Father and Son has been, in a very 
peculiar manner, inexpressibly delightful. I have been strengtli- 
ened by it, both in body and mind ; and carried through much 
trying and perplexed businesi^ with ease.. When the enemy 
would have poured in, his temptation found no place in me : in 
the same moment I found myself lifted up, God himself wa« at 


" My soul doth magoilV the Jiord, and my spirit rejoiceth in God 
my Saviour." I have oeen, hy the wise appointment of unerring 
wisdom, afflicted in body, more so than for months, and stlQ I 
am far from being well ; hence I am miich confined. In the 
former part- of my illness I lay, as it were, becalmed in the 
bosom of love ; but, in the latter part of it, the adversary was 
permitted to try every grain of grace. I was sifted as wheat : 
it was truly an emptying time. Yet X stoodj because the ever- 
lasting arms were underneath me; and soon my God said, ''it 
is enough." He rebuked the adversary, and the din of war 
ceased. I had peace in aU my borders ; yea, it flowed as a river. 
God the, Father and Son came down as at the beginning, encir- 
cled me in the arms of redeeming love, and poured a flood of 
noon-day evidence into my soul for sanctification. Assist me to 
jpraise Him who deals thus tenderly and bountifully with me. 

Yesterday my cup overflowed. I was called to see an old ac- 
quaintance, Lady J. M^Kensy : she was just upon the wing, 
ready to take her flight into the invisible world. In liiy way to 
town, O how exquisite was my enjoyment! — Slanguage fails to 
express it., Heaven seemed let down to earth. Jesus was 
intimately nigh, shining in all his mediatorial glory, with beams 
of sacred light.^ When I came to nly friend, I found her irk the 
full triumph of faith, exulting in her God. The curtain of mor- 
tality seemed drawn aside, and the glories of the eternal world 
were displayed. The. terror of kings, and the king of terrors, 
was disarmed of all his terrors, and changed into a messenger, 
not only of peace, but of joy. It was truly a memorable season ; 
for awhile we forgot almost that we were in the body. O, what 
has Jesus done for the sinful progeny of Adam ! How far do 
the heights and depths of redeeming love exceed the grasp of our 
limited capacities ! May we prove its utmost extent. 

My soul springs forth in eager pursuit of what I have not y^t 
attained. I do feel that God is ' > 

" ^thfr spring of all tnyjoyB, 

The life of my delighto ; 
The ^lory of my brightest days, 
And comfort of my nights. 

Will you permit me to ask. Why are you so long, before you 
enter the promised land 1 You know the way : all things orv 
ready. Let not the sweets of earthly comforts retard your pro- 
gress. I should be glad if yon could inform me in your next that 
both Mrs. Atmore and yourself are the happy inhabitants of that 
good land. It is, indeed, 

" Favour*d with Ood*s peculiar smile ; 
• With every blessing blest.'* 

I feel for Dumfries : — ^hinderances strew all the way ; but God 
rtignetk, Dalkeith also wears a sombre appearaace. I zejoiea 


lo think that th« Lord can and bath promised to make a way for 
hiB ohnreh even in the wilderitese, and streams in the deeert. 
fBat business of variotts kinds caU«, and I most answer. 

With wishes for your spiritual prosperity, aod also Mr*. Air 
more's, I am, Rev. Qtr, 

- Ymtr faithful, humble servant, D. Mazwsll. 


April 9, 1788. 

Believing, Rev. sir, that yon desire the prosperity of my soul, 
I fyei sweetly eonstrained, for my own profit as well as your 
eatisfaetion, to inform you that, throng-h the tender mercy of 
Him whose compassion faileth not, my soul is comfortably alive 
to God : still tasting his good woid, and feeling the powers of 
the world to ebme. I am kept sweetly nnder the influence of 
divine truth, and favoured with many precious visits from on 
liigh ; when the Deity deigns to converse with his creature, and 
to shine with peculiar brightness upon the work of sanctification 
in my soul. While thus 

** Lost in the high enjoyment of his bv^, 
What glorious moztal can my envy move V* 

But this high and exquisite enloyment is not my constant allow- 
ance : that is rather a calm, silent, sweet sinking into God. Yet 
I feel but a babe in perfect love. However, there is much rea- 
son for thankftilness ; the work, so far as I have experienced it, 
is clear : and the babe is daily panting for the maturity and 
stability ^f a father, and is much encouraged to press on, 1^ the 
lender deatinga of a Grod of love, who wonderfully bears with 
many weaknesses. 

The veil ^ that covers unseen, things from mortal eyes grows 
more transpai^nt. I get clearer views of the eternal worm ;. of 
the happiness of ite blessed inhabitants. Yet, though thus highly 
favoured, t seem in one sense to sink daily in my own eyes ; 
while. in another I^ rise higher. I daily need to wash in the 
blood of Jesus ; and prove it very strengthening and comfortaUe 
frequently, by faith, to plunge, as it were, into that sacred foun- 
tain ; and renew the dedication of myself, with all I have and am, 
or ever shall have, to my God. He accepts the sacrifice! How 
great the condescension! 

I believe nothing short of what the Lord has done for me 
would have proved sufficient for the very difficult task he has 
assigned me. I have snch a multiplicity of things and persona 
to deal with," and attend to, and dail^ new trials arise ; so that 
ohen all the stren^^ of my body, with the whole powers of my 
mind, is eallcd into exercise, and every grain of^mv gtace is 
tdisiL I hare to fight ertry inch of grouid, not only without, 

274 LI7B or LADT MAXWStL. 

bat fioxstftimes within, when tbe p<»wws of daikiMMt an perm^ 
ted, for wise ends, to molest me. Then I feel driven up to a 
corner ; all human help fails, and I prove, in ik^pectdiar mannerf 
that I stand by faith : and even in that wa^, only by the m^htr 
exertions of divine power in my behalf. Far the time, faith 
seems stripped of all its fruits, and but for the direct act, where- 
by, in spite of men and devils I keep my held of Christ, I shoidd 
utterly fail ; but, in general, these very trying seasons of inward 
distress are short ; my God soon rebukes the .adversary, and 
brings me again into the wealthy place, and I dwell within the 
veil. How shall I sufficiently praise- him for all hi* goodness I 
But how little do I know of it, and of that depth of. love these 
is in all his dispensations toward me. The very narrow liniits 
of ipy capacity keep me blind to moch of it now: but, when in 
eternity, if I should be permitted |o loi^ into the records of time, 
I shall know it better. What wisdom, what beauty, what good- 
ness, shall I then discover in all his dealing with me !' I am lost 
in the thought, but must not pursue it, having no mmre time to 
write, and perhaps you as little to read. 

I hope Mrs. Mather is now well, and that you and she are 

advancing sweetly in the heavenly road, and carrying many with 

you, who shall be for a crown of joy and r^oicing in the day of 

. ^e Lord. I see one of the ancient -pillars of the building haa 

f'ven way, though it has of late years sustained no great weight, 
hope the fabric wiU not feel any remarkal^le shock by its fa]l. 
Could you not be persuaded to ppend a season in.the lana of your 
nativity, for the good of its inhabitants ? Wishing Mrs. Mather 
and you the fullest, possession of every new-covenant blessixigy 
I remain, Rev, sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, . D. Maxwell. 


June 27, 1788. 

I should perhaps, for my own sake, Rev. sir, have sooner 

. answered your last profitable letter, but I have now so many 

necessary and valuable claims upon my time, that I' cannot do 

the things I would : however,.! embrace a few leisure moments 

to ask sater you and Mrs. Mather ; and to say, I still prove that 

" God is love^ In saying this, I say all. How ^nuch does 

. this include !r— More than words can express. 

Upon a retrospect of the last twelve months, I find infinite 
cause for praise and thanksgiving. I then received the clear 
witness for satisfaction ; and since then, O what wonders of 
mercy has the Lord shown to me ! Too many to recapitulate, 
however pleasing the recital would be. . But, I trust, a lively 
sense of them will never be erased from my grateful liear(. 
Since I last wrote ybu, I bave had some remarkable disco- 

&lf8 «V LAM UAtVtmX. W% 

series of the love, power, and goodness of Him who delighteth 
in the prosperity of his children. The invisible world hath been 
brought very nigh, with its blessed inhabitants. There seemed 
but a step between me and eternal glory. My God and Saviour 
felt just at hand. O what hath Jesus purchased for his people ! 
Even in this vale of tears haw great their enjoyment ! What 
ehalf the fall Cruition of God be^ when death is swallowed up of 

** Sfliy ye who best cssn tell, ye sod* of light. 
Angels, for ye enjoy it," . 

and continually behold his face without a veil. This was a 
memorable season. I pray that it may produce gracious and 
permanent effects. - ' 

Since then I have had various trials, and nnmberless proofs 
of the power and love of God, in supporting me under, and car- 
rying me through them : more especially lately in a very capital 
one; much more than sufficient to have entirely overset me : and 
yet, by the good hand of my God upon me, I have been so car- 
ried above it, as not to feel one murmuring, or even desponding 

' thought. Surely ** all things are possible to him that believeth.^ 
Assist m.e to praise Him who deals so bountifully with me. 
And bear with me wliile t give you another instance of the 
astonishing goodness of the God whom we love. 

On Wednesday last, I felt for' some hours keen angnish of 

' spirit, from a fear of having grieved the Holy Spirit. As a 
Christian, perhaps, you know the nature of this distress better 
than I can describe it ; if so, jrou well know that it is severe. 
Thus fearing, and thus feeling, how was my soul filled with 
astonishment and love, when, joining in prayer with a Christian 
friend or two, God the , Father came down in solemn majesty, 
banished all my fears, and scattered all ray grief. He shone 
clear to the eye of faitb, and has abode thus with me, even me, 
evyr since. About three minutes after this gracious visitation, 
the Lord Jesus drew nigh, as a distfnct person, clearly manifest- 
ing himself as the second person of the holy Trinity. Prayers 
were then turned into praises! How grateful, how holy, how 
humble, ought I to be ! I deeply feel my shortcomings ; but duty 
calls, and I must leave this delightful theme. 
May you sink deeper than T have ever yet done into the ocean 

' of redeeminff love. It will yet be six weeks before I can get to 
England. With Christian remembrance to your valuable part- 
ner, I remain. Rev. sir. 

Your obliged, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 

9W Ltrs or iju>t haxwux*. 


Bristol, Sept. 8, 1788. 

Ret. SiB,^^Not having it in my power to see you in my way 
kitlier, I have it at heart to meet yoa and Mrs. Mather in my 
return to Scotland. I see you are appointed for Wakefield": I 
will therefore endeaTOur, if the Lord will; to call on you there 
about four weeks hence. I cannot fix on any time absolutely, my 
hands are so full here ; but I give you this hint, that you may, 
if you cata, be at or near Wakefield near about that time. 

A gracious God brought me here the 28th of jast mootfa. 
Being obliged to stop^ at Carlisle and Workington, I was about 
seventeen days between Edinburgh and this place, — in the course 
of which I had, through mercy, many rich displays of the wis- 
dom, power, and goodness of a God of love ; much delightful 
fellowship with the sacred Three ; and irresistible evidence of the 
work of sanctification. But I bad, also, at times, to grapple with 
the powers of darkness. . I do not know that I ever formerly 
found the fiery darts of Satan so keenly pointed. They seemed 
to pierce, even to the dividing asunder the joints and milrrow ; 
but, being strengthened to endure temptation, I quickly received 
the crown of present victory, and went on my way rejoicing. 

I believe you can enter fully into the trying peculiarity of my 
situation in thir place, without any explanation on my part. In- 
deed, I almost feared to ientier into the cloud : but He who knows 
the human heart knew I only wished to do his will, exclusive 
of every other consideration ; and he has therefore mercifully 
disappointed my apprehensions. I have b^en privileged wRh 
much intercourse with Mr. Wesley in vublic and private, and 
with some precious souls in his connection ; and also with the 
most kind reception, and every possible assistance, from those 
with whom I was called to have much intercourse respecting 
the business I came to transact. They expressed a high respect 
for Mr. Wesley, and behaved with Christian cordiality whep they 
found him with me ; which is matter of thankfulness. 

I know you will be pleased to hear that the Lord is unspeak- 
ably gracious to my sOul. Words can convey but a faint idea 
of what I enjoyed yesterday, both in public and private. God 
the Father came down in all the splendour of Deity, in solemn 
grandeur. The Majesty of heaven condescended ta fill the 

Elace in which I sat (a private room with a choice friend) with 
is presence, and my heart with his love, and has thus abode 
with me ever since. I felt constrained to speak to the lady that 
was with me, and she also seemed full of God. About an hoar 
after, when the name of Jesus was mentioned, he also conde- 
seended to visit me in a remarkable manner ; shone gloriously 
forth as the second person of the blessed Trini^. He md indeed 
appMur 9M iltog«thar lot«ly, lod «oiiqiiin«d ill Biy abysMf tad 


taeitnrntty. How good i» the Lovd ! If I add to all tbia, faia 
great kindneaa in carrying me through many difficult roattera — 
much perplexed busineaa, which he only could teach me how 
to manage — ^how infinitely am I indebted ! Do help me to praiae 

I win liot now make any apology for such a large diaeourse 
on the chapter of serf; haying formerly explained myself on that 
head, I think you will not mistake me. ^With lund remem- 
brance to Mrs, Mather, I remain, Rer. sir, 

Your obliged servant in the Lord, D. Maxwell. 


October, 1788. 

I remember with satisfaction. Rev. sir, the short interview I 
had with you and Mrs. Mather at Wakefield. It was refreshing 
and animating. There is a peculiarity in my outward situation, 
and also in part of my experience, into which not many seem 
fitted to enter. On this account, I do not receive much benefit 
from the generality even of the Methodists. Indeed I do not 
find liberty to attempt an explanation to many of them. You 
are one of the very few who seem to uncjlerstand me thoroughly 
as to place, experience, views, &c. Therefore the Lord, through 
this medium, often conveys to me comfort, strength, instruction. 
&c., for which I feel thankful. Could I repay you in kind, I 
would quickly extinguish the debt. 

By the good hand of my God upon me I arrived safely at home, 
though not till the 8th, just in time to partake of the gospel feast : 
which proved indeed a feast of love, a season of refreshing from 
the presence of the Lord. With much sacred delight, and strong 
grateful sensations, I devoted afresh my spared life to His honour 
and glory who first gave it to me, and who has ever since kindly 
preserved it. 

Words fail to inform you how much of his goodness my God 
has made to pass before me, since I left Bristol. I stOl feel an 
amating poverty in human language, when I would speak of the 
deep things of God. This, I suppose, will always be the case. 
However, suffice it to say, oh the road, the sacred Three com- 
jjassed me about : I felt surrounded with the divine presence : 
my communion with Father, Son, and Holy Ghost was truly 
delightfnl. No ecstatic joy, buj a divine serenity; a heaven 
of silent love; a sinking into God. This last expression I am 
peculiarly partial tp,i)ecau8e, to^my own apprehension at least, 
It conveys such a literal idea of the enjoyment I experience on 
these peculiarly bappy seasons* Thus wonderfully aided, I 
passed equally on, through things painful and pleasant. By divine 
permission, vrith respect to outward things, the fbrmer prevailed 
at diffennt placet. I had' some xemirkably tnimatiDg tad 

Sn LxrK or LAi>ir xaxvsll. 

refreshing intercoarse with Christians; more especially at Leeds, 
Rippon, Darlington, and Alnwick. My mouth was wonderfully 
opened to declare what God had done for my soul : and on every 
such occasion I reeeived a testimony from on high, yea, the most 
unequivocal evidence, that the efior^ I made were peculiarly 
acceptable to Him for whose sake they were made. 

Since I came home, thoilgh a very large proportion.of my time 
hajs been necessarily filled up with business, I have been highly 
favoured with the presence of the ever blessed Trinity ; with 
sweet foretastes of future glory ; and Mount-Pisgah views of the 
heavenly Canaan*: so that I hesitate not to say the Lord is deep- 
ening his work in my sour. 

I do feel I stand in God, and cannot be confined to one party. 
. My soul feels too much enlarged to admit of any exclusive 
charter. I consider real Christians, of every denomination, as 
a part of the great family of God ; as such, I would do them all 
the good I can, and take all the profit from them they can gire 
me. Perhaps this extensive, unfettered view is necessary for 
' the situation in which I am placed. But do not mistake me. I 
am at no loss where to rest the preference : there I am perfectly 
decided. My experience^ as well as judgment^ secures this, ft 
is not necessary to say, I hope, I am quite safe in writing thhs 
freely to you. 

Were 1 not almost ashamed of having said so much on the 
chapter of self, I should add, I have, of late, experienced uncom- 
mon emptying seasons. These began some time before I \^^ 
Bristol, and afterward increased. I felt quite broken down be- 
fore the Lord — ashamed and confounded beyonijl expression, at 
the poor, wretched manner in which I had conducted the work 
at Bristol. I did, indeed, sink into the dust before the face of 
Jehovah, and lAy very low at his feet, imploring pardon, (with- 
out one grain of condemnation, in the common acceptation of the 
word,) because I had come so sadly short in what, at his com- 
mand, I had attempted. Soon after, I received an increase. O 
how good is our God ! 

I shaU be pleased to hear that Mrs. Mather continues better, 
and that the work of God prospers in your hands and soul. The 
pr^ers of both will be esteemed a privilege by. Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, D. Maxwell. 


. November 2, 1788. 
'* Gold is tried in fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of 
adversity," for sdch wise ends, and salutary purposes, as fully 
justify the divine procedure, and richly repay the sufferer. I hope 
Mr. Mather^s happy experience bears testimony to this troth. 
I shall be glad (o hear that he is restored to former health and 

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usefulness, and that his path of duty is so clearly maTked as to 
supersede the necessity of listening to any one for direction. I 
believe the soul that walks closely with God, wjll in most, if not 
in every case, have the line drawn for him by unerring Wisdom. 
Attending continually to an indwelling God, we hear the small, 
still voice, saying, '* This is the way, walk ye in it.** 

I now begin to believe that the Lord's very gracious dealings 
'With me are intended for higher purposes than merely the com- 
fort of my own socd; and, therefore, do more frequently and 
explicitly than ever, endeavour to tell those that fear God what 
he has done for me ; if, peradventnre, the simple recital may be 
in the smallest degree profitable to them ; though herein Satan 
"Withstands me greatly. Yet, upon every proper occasion, I en- 
deavour^ in weakness, to ofier it up as a sacrifice to my God 
(with a single eye to his glory) upon that altar which alone can 
sanctify the gift. I feel more than ever called to wrestle in 
mighty prayer for the prosperity of Zion ; more especially for 
some particular souls : and this morning, I think I obtained jfat^ 
for one, together with the sU'ongest hoj>es for many, who all so 
pressed upon^e, so crowded before me, while in secret before 
the Lord, that a necessity was laid upon me, by the Hearer of 
prayer himself, to be imporjUmate for them; but for all, one 
ciessing only was in view^ — entire sanctification ; or what we 

•. sometimes call Christian perfection. 

This important doctrine of our holy religion, more especially 

.as it relates to experience, now almost wholly occupies my mind ; 
at least, all the time I can spare from business, &c., &c. : and I 
really think the Lord has prepared a people here for entering 
the good land. that he would bring them in ! Assist them 
by your prayers. The injurious bar of unbelief prevents their 
taking immediate possession, not, seeing clearly it is by simple 
faith alone. 

How shall T sufficiently praise the Lord that I am still a 
happy inhabitant of that delightful land t Still struggling to 
scale the mount of holiest love, I have gained some steps, but 
feel restless to reach the summit. My God is to me as a place 
of broad rivers, wide and deep. I rest in liim; I dwell in him. 
Sinking into him, I lose myself; and prove a life of fellowship 
with Deity so divinely sweet, I wbuld not relinquish it for a 
thousand worlds. It is, indeed,' a narrow path ; but love levels 

. every mountain — ^makes all easy. 

** lore divine, how sweet thou ert !'* 

When 1 look back, I rejoice to see what 1 am saved from : 
when I look forward* it is all pure expanse of unbounded love. 
Surely the heaven of heavens is love. 

May you, more than ever, find this divine principle overflow- 
ing your soul ; sweetening every bitter cup ; making ercrv bur* 


bat sometimes within, wfaeil tbe powers of darkiMMt an permit- 
ted, for wise ends, to mdest me. Then I feel driven up to a 
corner ; all human help fails, and I prove, in a peculiar manner^ 
that I stand by faith : and even in that wa^, only by the migfahr 
exertions of divine power. in my behalf. For the time, faith 
seems stripped of all its fruits, and but for the direct act, where- 
by, in spite of men and devils I keep my held of Christ, I should 
utterly fail ; but, in general, these very trying seasons of inward 
distress are short; my Qod soon rebukes the adversary, and 
brings me again into the wealthy place, and IdweU within the 
reil. How shall I suffieieittly praise- him ibr all his goodness I 
But how little do I know of it, and of that depth of- love th«fe 
is in all his dispensations toward me. The very nanow liniits 
of ipy capacity keep me blind to moch of it now: but, when in 
eternity, if I should be permitted |o look into tiie records ef time, 
I shall know it better. What wisdom, what beauty, what good- 
ness, shall I then discover in aU his dealing with me ! I am lost 
in the thought, but must not porsoe it^ havi|ig no more time to 
write, and perhaps you as little to read. 

I hope Mrs. Mather is now well, and that you and she are 

advancing sweetly in the heavenly road, and carrying many with 

you, who shall be for a crown of joy and rejoicing in the day of 

. the Lord, I see one of the ancient -pillars of tl^ building has 

f'ven way, though it has of late years sustained no great weight, 
hope the fabric wiU not feel any remarkal^le sliock by its fa]l. 
Could you not be persuaded to ftpend a season in.the lajsd of your 
nativity, for the good of its inhabitants ? Wishing Mrs. Mather 
and you the fullest, possession of every new-covenant blessing, 
I remain, Rev, sir. 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, . D. Maxweli.. 


^ime 27, 1788.' 

I should perhaps, for my own sake, Rev. sir, have sooner 

. answered your last profitable letter, but I have now so many 

necessary and valuable claims upon my time, that I' cannot 4o 

the things I would : however, I embrace a few leisure moments 

to ask sSter you and Mrs. Mather ; and to say, I still prove that 

" God is love^ In saying this, I say all. How >much does 

. this include \ — ^More than words can express. 

Upon a retrospect of the last twelve months, I find infinite 
cause for praise and thanksgiving. I then received the clear 
witness fpr satisfaction ; and since then, O what wonders of 
mercy has the Lord shown to me ! Too many to recapitulate, 
however pleasing the recital would be. . But, I trust, a lively 
sense of them will never be erased from my grateful heart. 
Since I last wrote ydu, I have had some remarkable disco- 

▼eries of the love, power, and goodaeas of Him who delighteth 
in the prosperity of his children. The invisible world hath been 
brought very nigh, with its blessed inhabitants. There seemed 
but a step between me and eternal glory. My God and Saviour 
felt just at hand. O what hath Jesus purchased for his people ! 
Evei^ in this vale of tears how great their enjoyment ! What 
•hair the full fraitioa of God be^ when death is swallowed up of 

** Say je who best can tell, ye sons of light, 
Angels, for ye enjoy it,'* . 

and continually hehold his face without a veil. This was a 
memorable season. I pray that it may produce gracious and 
permanent effects. - 

Since then I have had various trials, and numberless proofs 
of the power and love of God, in supporting me under, and car- 
rying me through them : more especially lately in a very capital 
one; much more than sufficient to have entirely overset me : and 
yet, by the good hand of my God upon me, I have been so car- 
ried above it, as not to feel one murmuring, or even desponding 

' thought. Surely " all things are possible to him that believeth.'* 
Assist me to praise Him who deals so bountifully with me. 
And bear with me while I give you another instance of the 
astonishing goodness of the God whom we love. 

On Wednesday last, I ftjlt for 'some hours keen anguish of 

' spirit, from a fear^ of having grieved the Holy Spirit. As a 
Christian, perhaps, you know the nature of this distress better 
than I can describe it ; if so, jrou well know that it is severe. 
Thus fearing, and thus feeling, how was my soul filled with 
astonishment and love, when, joining in prayer with a Christian 
friend or twp, God the . Father came down in solemn majesty, 
banished all my fears, and scattered all my grief He shone 
clear to the eye of faith, and has abode thus with me, even me, 
evur since. About three minutes after this gracious visitation, 
the Lord Jesus drew nigh, as a distmct person, clearly manifest- 
ing himself as the second person of the holy Trinity. Prayers 
were then turned into praises! How grateful, how holy, how 
humble, ought I to be ! I deeply feel my shortcomings ; but duty 
calls, and I must leave this delightful theme. 
May you sink deeper than I have ever yet done into the ocean 

' of redecminff love. It will yet be six weeks before I can get to 
England. With Christian remembrance to your valuable part- 
ner, I remain. Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 


' Bristol, Sept.. 8, 1788. 

Ret. Sib,'— Not haTiog it in my power to see you in my way 
hither, I have it at heart to meet yoa and Mrs. Mather io my 
return to Scotland. I see tou are appointed for Wakefield": I 
will therefore endeaTOur, if the Lord will, to call on yon there 
aboat four weeks hence. I cannot fix on any time absolutely , my 
hands ure so full here ; but I grt^ you this hint, that you may, 
if you caai, be at or near Wakefield near about that time. 

A e^racious God brought me here the 2.8th of last month. 
Being obliged to stop^ at Carlisle and Workington, I was about 
seventeen days between Edinburgh and this place, — in the course 
of which I had, through mercy, many rich displays of the wis- 
dom, power, and gomlness of a God of love ; much delightful 
fellowship with the sacred Three ; and irresistible evidence of the 
work of sanctification. But I had, also, at times, to grapple with 
the powers of darkness. . I do not know that I ever formerly 
found the fiery darts of Satan so keenly pointed. They seemed 
to pierce, even to the dividing asunder the joints and marrow ; 
but, being strengthened to endure temptation, I quickly received 
the crown of -present victory, and went on my way rejoicing. 

I believe you can enter fully into the trying peculiarity of my 
situation in thir place, without any explanation on my part. In- 
deed, I almost feared to enter into the cloud : but He who knows 
the human heart knew I only wished to do his will, exclusive 
of every other consideration ; and he has therefore mercifully 
disappointed my apprehensions. I have b^en privileged with 
much intercourse with Mr. Wesley in public and private, and 
with some precious souls in his connection ; and also with the 
most kind reception, and every possible assistance, from those 
with whom I was called to. have much intercourse respecting 
the business I came to transact. They expressed a high respect 
for Mr. Wesley, and behaved with Christian cordiality whep they 
found him with me ; which is matter of thankfulness. 

I know you will be pleased to hear that the Lord is unspeak- 
ably gracious to my sOul. Words can convey but a faint idea 
of what I enjoyed yesterday, both in public and private. God 
the Father came down in all the splendour of Deity, in solemn 
grandeur. The Majesty of heaven condescended ttfi fill the 
place in which I sat (a private room with a choice friend) with 
his presence, and my heart with his love, and has thus abode 
with me ever since. I felt constrained to spetJc to the lady that 
was with me, and she also seemed full of God. About an hoar 
after, when the name of Jesus was mentioned, he also conde- 
scended to visit me in a remarkable manner ; shone ffloriously 
forth as the second person of the blessed Trinitv. fie <ud indeed 
•ppett B8 altogtther lorely, ud eonqiimd idl my abyaaM and 

taeitarnity. How good i» the Lord ! If I add to stl this, hi* 
great kindness in carrying me through many difficult matters— 
much perplexed business, which he only could teach me how 
to manage — ^bow infinitely am I indebted ! Do help me to praise 

I win liot now make any apology for such a large discourse 
on the chapter of self; having formerly explained myself on that 
head, I think you will not mistake me. With kind remem- 
brance to Mrs. Mather, I remain, Rev. sir. 

Your obliged servant in the Lord) D. Maxwell. 


October, 1788. 

I remember with satisfaction. Rev. sir, the short interview I 
had with you and Mrs. Mather at Wakefield. It was refreshing 
and animating. .There is a peculiarity in my outward situation, 
and also in part of my experience, into which not many seem 
fitted to enter. On this account, I do not receive much benefit 
firbm the generality even of the Methodists. Indeed I do not 
find liberty to attempt an explanation to many of them. Ton 
are one of the very few who seem to understand me thoroughly 
as to plMe, experience i views, &c. Therefore the Lord, through 
this medium, often conveys to me comfort, strength, instruction, 
&c., for which I feel thankful. Coiild I repay you in kind, I 
would quickly extinguish the debt. 

By the good hand of my God upon me I arrived safely at home, 
though not till the 8th, Justin time to partake of the gospel feast : 
whicn proved indeed a feast of love, a season of refreshing from 
the presence of the Lord. With much sacred delight, and strong 
grateful sensations, I devoted afresh my spared life to His honour 
and glory who first gave it to me, and who has ever since kindly 
preserved it. 

Words fail to inform yon how much of his goodness my God 
has made to pass before me, since I left Bristol. I still feel an 
amacing poverty in human language, when I would speak of the 
deep things of God. This, I suppose, will always be the case. 
However, suffice it to say, on the road, the sacred Three com- 
passed me about : I felt surrounded with the divine presence : 
my communion with Father, Son, and Holy Ghost was truly 
delightfttl. No ecstatic joy, bujt a divine serenity ; a heaven 
of silent love ; a sinking into God. This last expression I am 
peculiarly partial to,1)ecatt8e, to, my own apprehension at least, 
It conveys such a literal idea of the enjoyment I experience on 
these peculiarly happy seasons. Thils wonderfully aided, I 
passed equally on, through things painful and pleasant. By divine 
permission, with respect to outward things, the fbrmer prevailed 
at dififerent plaoef. I had^ some remarkably animating tad 


refresTiing intercourse with Christians 4 more especially at LeeJs, 
Rippon, Darlington, and Alnwick. My mouth was wonderfully 
opened to declare what God had done for my soul : and on every 
such occasion I received a testimony from on high, yea, the most 
unequivocal evidence, that the effort I made were peculiarly 
acceptable to Him for whose sake they were made. 

Since I came home, thoiigh a very large proportion .of my time 
has been necessarily filled up with business, I have been highly 
favoured with the presence of the ever blessed Trinity ; with 
sweet foretastes of future glory ; and Mount-Pisgah views of the 
heavenly Canaan*: so that I hesitate not to say the Lord is deep- 
ening his work in my sour. 

I do feel I stand in God, and cannot be confined to one party. 
. My soul feels too much enlarged to admit of any exclusive 
charter. I consider real Christians, of every denomination, as 
a part of the great family of God ; as such, I would do them all 
the good I can, and take all the profit from them they can give 
me. Perhaps this extensive, unfettered view is necessary for 
■ the situation in which I am placed. But do not mistake me. 1 
am at no loss where to rest the preference : there I am perfectly 
decided. My experiencey as well as judgment, secures this. It 
is not necessary to say, I hope, I am quite safe in writing thlis 
freely to you. 

Were I not almost ashamed of having said so much on the 
chapter of self, I should add, I have, of late, experienced uncom- 
mon emptying seasons. These began some time before I led 
Bristol, and afterward increased. I felt quite broken down be- 
fore the Lord — ashamed and ooilfounded beyoniJ expression, at 
the poor, wretched manner in which I had conducted the work 
at Bristol. I did, indeed, sink into the dust before the face of 
Jehovah, and lay very low at his feet, imploring pardon, (with- 
out one grain of condemnation, in the common acceptation of the 
word,) because I had come so sadly short in what, at his coni- 
mand, I had attempted. Soon after, I received an increase. O 
how good is our God ! 

I shall be pleased to hear that Mrs. Mather continues better, 
and that the work of God prospers in your hands and soul. The 
pr^ers of both will be esteemed a privilege by, Rev. sir. 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, D. Maxwell. 


- November 2, 1788. 
'* Gold is tried in fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of 
adversity," for sdch wise ends, and salutary purposes, as fully 
iustifV the divine procedure, and richly repay the sufferer. I hope 
Mr. Mather's happy experience bears testimony to this truth. 
I shall be ghtd to hear that he is restored to former health and 

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usefulness, and that his path of diUy is so clearly marked as to 
«upersede the. necessity of listening to any one for direction. I 
believe the soul that walks closely with God, will in most, if not 
in every case, have the line drawn for him by unerring Wisdom. 
Attending continually to an indwelling God, we hear the small, 
still voice, saying, '*This is the way, walk ye in it.** 

I now begin to believe that the Lord^s very gracious dealings 
with me are intended for higher purposes than merely the com- 
fort of my own soul; and, therefore, do niore frequently and 
explicitly than ever, endeavour to tell those that fear God what 
he has done for me; if, peradventare, tjie simple recital may be 
in the smallest degree profitable to them ; though herein Satan 
ivithstands me greatly. Yet, upon everf proper occasion, I en- 
deavour, in weakness, to offer it up as a sacrifice to my God 
(with a single eye to his glory) upon that altar which alone can 
sanctify the gift. I feel more than ever cabled to wrestle in 
mighty prayer for the prosperity of Zipn ; more especially for 
some particular souls : and this morning, I think I obtained /ai^ 
for one, together A^ith the strongest hopes for many, who all so 
pressed upon me, so crowded before me, while in secret before 
the Lord, that a necessity was laid upon me, by the Hearer of 
prayer himself, to be importunate for them: but for a//, one 
hUssiiig only was in view j— entire sanctiiication ; or what we 
. sometimes call Christian perfection, 

This important doctrine of our holy religion, more especially 
.as it relates to experience, now almost wholly occupies my mind ; 
at least, all the time I can spare from business, &c., &c. : and I 
really think the Lord has prepared a people here for entering 
the good land. that he would bring them in ! Assist them 
by your prayers. The injurious bar of unbelief prevents their 
taking immediate possession, not seeing clearly it is by simple 
faith alone« 

How shall t sufficiently praise the Lord that I ana still a 
happy inhabitant of that delightful land ? Still struggling to 
scale the mount of holiest love, I have gained some steps, but 
feel xestless to reach the summit. My God is to me as a place 
of broad rivers, wide and deep. I rest in him ; I dwell in him. 
Sinking into him, I lose myself; and prove a life of fellowship 
with Deity so divinely sweet, I wbuld not relinquish it for a 
thousand worlds. It is, indeed, a narrow path ; but love levels 
every mountain — ^makes all easy. 

" O love divine, how sweet thou art !** 

When 1 look back, I rejoice to see what I am saved from : 
when I look forward, it is all pure expanse of unbounded love. 
Surely the heaven of heavens is love. 

May you, more than ever, find this divine principle overflow- 
ing your soul ; sweetening every bitter cup ; making everv bor- 


" My soul doth magnify the Jjord, and my spirit rejoiceth in God 
my Saviour." I have neen, by the wise appointment of unerring 
Wisdom, afflicted in body, more so than for months, and still I 
am far from being well ; hence I am much confined. In the 
former part- of my illness I lay, as it were, becalmed in the 
bosom of love ; but, in the latter part of it, the adversary was 
permitted to try evety graiii of grace. I was sifted as wheat : 
it was truly an emptying time, x et Z stood, because the ever- 
lasting arms were underneath me ; and soon my God said, ^ It 
is enough." He rebuked the adversary, and the din of war 
ceased. I had peace in all my borders ; yea, it flowed as a river. 
God the. Father and Son came down as at the beginning, encir- 
cled me in the arms of redeeming love, and poured a flood of 
noon-day evidence into my soul for sanctification. Assist me to 
praise Him who deals thus tenderly and bountifully with me. 

Yesterday my cup overflowed. I was called to see ah old ac- 
quaintance, Lady J. M^Kensy : she was just upon the wing, 
ready to take her flight into the invisible world. In my way to 
town, O how exquisite was my enjoyment! — language fails. to 
express it., Heaven seemed let down to earth. Jesus was 
intimately nigh, shining in all his mediatorial glory, with beams 
of sacred light.^ When I came to my friend, I found her it the 
full triumph of faith, exulting in her God. The curtain of mor- 
tality seemed drawn aside, and the glories of the eternal world 
were displayed. The. terror of. kings, and the king of terrors, 
was disarmed of all his terrors, and changed into a messenger, 
not only of peace, but of joy. It was truly a memorable season ; 
for awhile we forgot almost that we were in the body. O, what 
has Jesus done for the sinful progeny of Adam ! How far do 
the heights and depths of redeeming love exceed the grasp of our 
limited capacities ! May we prove its utmost extent. 

My soul springs forth in eager pursuit of what I have not yet 
attained. I do feel that God is ' 

" th» spring of all my joys. 

The liie of my delighu ; 
The glory of my brightest days, 
And comfort of my nights." 

Will you permit me to ask, Wliy are you so long, before you 
enter the promised land ? You know the way : all things are 
ready. Let not the sweets of earthly comforts retard your pro- 
gress. I should he glad if yon could inform me in your next that 
both Mrs. Atmore and yourself are the happy inhabitants of that 
good land. It is, indeed, 

*' Favour'd with God*s peculiar smile ; 
' With every blessing blest.** 

I feel fbr Dumfries : — hinderances strew aU the way ; bat God 
reigneth. Dalkeith also wears a tfom^« appearance. I xejoico 

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to think that tho Lord can and hath promised to make a way for 
his ohnreh even in the wildemese, and etreame in the desert. 
rBat business of variovs kinds ealls, and I must answer. 

With wishes for your spiritual prosperity, and also Mr*. Ait* 
more's, I am, Rev. Qtr, 

Your fiuthful, humble serrant, D. Maxwell. 


Aprils, 1788. 

Believing, Rev. sir, that you desire the prosperity of my sooly 
I fM sweetly eonstrained, for my own profit as well as your 
•atbfaetioD, to inform yOu that, through the tender mercy oi 
Him whose compassion faileth not, my soul is comfortably alive 
to God : still tasting- his good woid, and fooling the powers of 
the world to come. I am kept sweetly under the influence of 
divine truth, and favoured with many precious visits from on 
liigh ; when the Deity deigns to converse with his creature, and 
to shine with peculiar brightness upon the work of sanctification 
in my soul. While thus 

** Lost in the high «nj6vment of his lov^, 
What glorious moitaf can my envy move ?** 

But this high and exquisite enjoyment is not my constant allow- 
ance : that is rather a calm, Silent, sweet sinking into God. Yet 
I feel but a babe in perfect love. ' However, there is much rea- 
son for thankfulness ; the work, so far as I have experienced it« 
is clear: and the babe is daily panting for the maturity and 
stability ^f a father, and is much encouraged to press on, if the 
lender dealings of a God of love, who wondenully bears with 
many weaknesses. 

The veil: that covers unseen things from mortal eyes ffrows 
more transpaifMit. I get dearer views of the eternal worM ; of 
the hi^piness of its blessed inhabitants. Yet, though thus highly 
. favoured, t seem in one sense to sink daUy in my own eyes ; 
while. in another I^ rise higher. I daily need to wash in the 
blood of Jesus ; and prove it very strengthening and comfortaUe 
frequently, by faith, to plon^, aa it were, into that sacred foun- 
tain ; and renew the dedication of myself, with all I have and am, 
or ever shall have, to my God. He accepts the sacrifice! How 
great the condescension ! 

I believe nothing short of what the Lord has done for me 
would have proved sufficient for the very difficult task ha hss 
assigned me. I have such a multiplicity of things and persons 
to £al with, and attend to, and daily new trials arise ; so that 
often all the strength of mj body, with the whole nowers of my 
mind, is caUed into exneise, and every grain of mr grace is 
tried. I hare to fight erery inch of gxoand, not only witfaoai, 

274 tI7B 07 tAOT MAXWXtL. 

but sometimes wichio, wfaeH tbe powers of dsrkoaMt aze permit- 
ted, for wise ends, to mdest me. Then I feel driveB up to a 
corner ; all human help fails, and I prove, in a peculiar manner^ 
that I stand by faith : and even in that wa^, only by the migh^ 
exertions of divine power ia my behalf. For the timej faith 
seems stripped of all its fruits, and but for the direct act^ where- 
by, in spite of men and devils I keep my hold of Christ, I should 
utterly fail ; but, in general, these very trying seasons of inwiud 
distress are short ; my Qod soon rebukes the adversaryi and 
brings me again into the viFoalthy plaee, and I dwell within the 
reil. How shall I auffieiently praise, him for all lu« gpodness ! 
But how little do I know of it, asid of that depth of- lore theie 
is in all his dispensations toward me. The very narrow liniits 
of ipy capacity keep me blind to moch of it now: but, when in 
eternity, if I should be permitted |o look into the records of time, 
I shall know it better. What wisdom, what beauty, what good- 
ness, shall I then discover in all his dealing with me ! I am lost 
in the thought, but must not pursue It, having no m<»re time to 
write, and perhaps you as little to read. 

I hope Mrs. Mather is now w:ell, and that you and she are 

advancing sweetly in the heavenly road, and carrying many with 

you, who shall be for a crown of joy and rejoicing in the day of 

. the Lord. I see one of the ancient pillars of ti^ building haa 

f'ven way* though it has of late years sustained no great weight, 
hope the fabric wiU not feel any remarkable shock by its fa]l. 
Could you not be persuaded to ^pend a season in. the land of your 
nativity, for the good of its inhabitants ? Wishing Mrs. Mather 
and you the fullest, possession of every new-covenant blessings 
I remain, Rev. sir, 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christy . D. Maxwell. 


^une 27, 1788. 

I should perhaps, for my own sake, Rev. sir, have sooner 
answered your last profitable letter, but I have now so many 
neoessary and valuable claims upon my time, that I cannot do 
the things I would : however, I embrace a few leisure moments 
to ask suter you and Mrs. Mather ; and to say, I still prove that 
" God is love,'*'* In saying this, I say all. How -much doea 
this include 1 — ^More than words can express. 

Upon a retrospect of the last twelve months, I find infinite 
cause for praise and thanksgiving. I then received the clear 
witness for satisfaction ; and since then^ O what wonders of 
mercy has the Lord shown to me ! Too many to recapitulate, 
however pleasing the recital would be. . But, I trust, a lively 
sense of them will never be erased from my grateful bear(. 

Since X last wrote you, I iiave had some remarkable disco- 

▼eries of the lot'e, power, and goodaeas of Him who delighteth 
in the prosperity of his children. The invisible world hath been 
brought very nigh, with its blessed inhabitants. There seemed 
but a step between me and eternal glory. My God and Saviour 
felt just at hand. O what hath Jesus puirchased for his people ! 
Evei^ in this vale of tears haw great their enjoyment ! What 
ahalrthe fall fruition of God be^ when death is swallowed up of 

** Say je who bfest can tell, ye sons of light, 
Angels, for ye enjoy it,'* ■ 

and continually behold his face without a veil. This was a 
memorable season. I pray that it may produce gracious and 
permanent effects. - 

Since then I have had various trials, and numberless proofs 
of the power and love of God, in supporting me under, and car- 
rying me through them : more especially lately in a very capital 
one; much more than sufficient to have entirely overset me : and 
yet, by the good hand of my God upon me, I have been so car- 
ried above it, as not to feel one murmuring, or even desponding 

' thought. Surely " aO things are possible to him that believeth.'* 
Assist me to praise Him who deals so bountifully with me. 
And bear with me while I give you another instance of the 
astonishing goodness of the God whom we love. 

On Wednesday last, I felt for' some hours keen anguish of 

'spirit, from a fear of having grieved the Holy Spirit. As a 
Christian, perhaps, you know the nature of this distress better 
than I can describe it; if so, jrou well know that it is severe. 
Thus fearing, and thus feeling, how was my soul filled with 
astonishment and love, when, joining in prayer with a Christian 
friend or twp, God the . Father came down in solemn majesty, 
banished all my fears, and scattered all my grief He shone 
clear to the eye of faith, and has abode thus with me, even me, 
evur since. About three minutes after this gracious visitation, 
the Lord Jesus drew nigh, as a distmct person, clearly manifest- 
ing himself as the second person of the holy Trinity. Prayers 
were then turned into praises! How grateful, how holy, how 
humble, ought I to be ! I deeply feel my shortcomings ; but duty 
calls, and I must leave thi^ delightful theme. 
May vou sink deeper than I have ever yet done into the ocean 

' of redeeming love. It will yet be six weeks before I can get to 
England. With Christian remembrance to your valuable part- 
ner, I remain. Rev. sir. 

Your obliged, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 

MB ifirs or hAx>Y vazws&x.. 


Bristol, Sept, 8, 1788. 

Ret. Sir,'— Not hayitig it in my power to see you in my way 
hither, I haye it at heart to meet yoa ind Mrs. Mather in my 
return to Scotland. I see you are appointed for Wakefield": I 
will therefore endeaTOur, if the Lord will, to call on you there 
about four weeks hence. I cannot fix on any time absolutely^ ray 
hands are so full here ; but I grit^e you this hint, that you may, 
if you cia3a, be at or near Wakefield near about that time. 

A gracious God brought me here the 28th of jast month. 
Being obliged to stop^ at Carlisle and Workington, I was about 
seventeen days between Edinburgh and this plaice, — in the course 
of which I had, through mercy, many rich displays of the wis- 
dom, power, and goodness of a God of love ; much delightful 
fellowship with the sacred Three ; and irresistible evidence of the 
work of sanctification. But I had, also, at times, to grapple with 
the powers of darkness. . I do not know that I ever formerly 
found the fiery darts of Satan so keenly j)ointe4. They seemed 
to pierce, even to the dividing asunder the joints and marrow ; 
but, being strengthened to endure temptation, I quickly received 
the crown of -present victory, and went on my way rejoicing. 

I believe you can enter fully into the trying peculiarity of my 
situation in thir place, without any explanation on my part. In- 
deed, I almost feared to entier into the cloud : but He who knows 
the human heart knew I only wished to do his wUlf exclusive 
of every other consideration ; and he has therefore mercifully 
disappointed my apprehensions. I have b^en privileged wilh 
much intercourse with Mr. Wesley in public and private, and 
with some precious souls in his connection ; and also with the 
most kind reception, and every possible assistance, from those 
with whom I was called to have much intercourse respecting 
the business I came to transact. They expre^^sed a high respect 
for Mr. Wesley, and behaved with Christian cordiality when they 
found him with me ; which is matter of thankfulness. 

I know you will be pleased to hear that the Lord is unspeak- 
ably gracious to my soul. Words can convey but a faint idea 
of what I enjoyed yesterday, both in public and private. God 
the Father came down in all the splendour of Deity, in solemn 
grandeur. The Majesty of heaven condescended tsi fill the 
place in which I sat (a private room with a choice friend) with 
his presence, and my heart with his love, and has thus abode 
with me ever since. I felt constrained to speak to the lady that 
was with me, and she also seemed full of God. About an hour 
after, when the name of Jesus was mentioned, he also conde- 
scended to visit me in a remarkable manner ; shone gloriously 
forth as the second person of the blessed Tnnitv. fie did indeed 
Rppttt R8 altog«th«r lorely, tad oonqnmd ill my abyaaM tad 


taeitarnity. How good i» the Lord ! If I add to all this, his 
great kindness in canning me through many difficult matters — 
much perplexed business, which he only could teach me how 
to manage — ^how infinitely am I indebted ! Do help me to praise 

I win not now make any apology for such a large discourse 
on the chapter of self; having formerly explained myself on that 
head, I think you will not mistake me. With lund remem- 
brance to Mrs. Mather, I remain, Rev. sir, 

Your obliged servant in the Lord» D. Maxwell. 


October, 1788. 

I remember with satisfaction, Rev. sir, the short interview I 
had with you and Mrs. Mather at Wakefield. It was refreshing 
and animating. There is a peculiarity in my outward situation, 
and also in part of my experience, into which not many seem 
fitted to enter. On this account, I do not receive much benefit 
firbm the generality even of the Methodists. Indeed I do not 
find liberty to attempt an explanation to many of them. Tou 
are one of the very few who seem to understand me thoroughly 
as to place, experience, views, &c. Therefore the Lord, through 
this medium, often conveys to me comfort^ strength, instruction, 
&c., for which I feel thankful. Could I repay you in kind, I 
would quickly extinguish the debt. 

By the good hand of my God upon me I arrived safely at home, 
though not till the. 8th, just in time to partake of the gospel feast : 
whicn proved indeed a feast of love, a season of refreshing from 
the presence of the Lord. With much sacred delight, and strong 
grateful sensations, I devoted afresh my spared life to His honour 
and glory who first gave it to me, and who has ever since kindly 
preserved it. 

Words fail to inform you how much of his goodness my God 
has made to pass before me, since I left Bristol. I still ^el ah 
amating poverty in human language, when I would speak of the 
deep things of God. This, I suppose, will always be the case. 
However, suffice it to say, oh the road, the sacred Three com- 
passed me about : I felt surrounded with the divine presence : 
my communion with Father, Son, and Holy Ghost was truly 
delightfiil. No ecstatic joy, bujt a divine serenity ; a heaven 
of silent love ; a sinking into God. This last expression I am 
peculiarly partial to, because, to, my own apprehension at least, 
It conveys such a literal idea of the enjoyment I experience on 
these ^culiarly liappy seasons. Thus wonderfully aided, I 
passed equally on, through things painful and pleasant. By divine 
permission, with respect to outward things, the dinner prevailed 
at dififbrent plaoef. I had' soma remtrkaUy animating tad 

VilS LiPK or LADir ukxwztu 

refresTiing intercourse with Christians^ more especially at LeeJs, 
Rippon, Darlington, and Alnwick. M^ mouth was wonderfully 
opened to declare what God had done for my soul : and on every 
such occasion I received a testimony from on high, yea, the most 
unequivocal evidence, that the efforts I made were peculiarly 
acceptable to Him for whose sake they were made. 

Since I came home, thoilgh a very large proportion .of my time 
has been necessarily filled up with business, I have been highly 
favoured with the presence of the ever blessed Trinity ; with 
sweet foretastes of future glory ; and Mount-Pisgah views of the 
heavenly Canaan': so that I hesitate not to say the Lord is deep- 
ening his work in my souT. 

I do feel I stand in God, and eannot be confined to one party. 
. My soul feels too much enlarged to admit of any exclusive 
charter. I consider real Christians, of evefy denomination, as 
a part of the great family of God ; as such, I would do them all 
the good I can, and take all the profit from them they can gi^e 
me. Perhaps this extensive, unfettered view is necessary for 
' the situation in which I am placed. But do not mistake me. I 
am at no loss where to rest the preference : there I am perfectly 
decided. My experience^ as well as judpnent^ secures this. It 
is not necessary to say, I hope, I am quite safe in writing thlis 
freely to you. 

Were I not almost ashamed, of having said so much on the 
chapter of self, I should add, I have, of late, experienced uncom* 
mon emptying seasons. These began some time before I left 
Bristol, and aflerward increased, i felt quite broken down be- 
fore the Lord — ashamed and confounded beyoniJ expression, at 
the poor, wretched manner in which I had conducted the work 
at Bristol. I did, indeed, sink into the dust before the face of 
Jehovah, and lay very low at his feet, imploring pardon, (with- 
out one grain of condemnation, in the coinmon acceptation of the 
word,) because I had come so sadly short in what, at his com- 
mand, I had attempted. Soon after, I received an increase. O 
how good is our God I 

I shall be pleased to hear that Mrs. Mather continues better, 
and that the work of Gdd prospers in your hands and soul. The 
pr^ers of both will be esteemed a privilege by, Rev. sir. 

Your obliged, humble servant in Christ, D. Maxwell. 


November 2, 1788. 
"Gold is tried in fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of 
adversity," for sdch wise ends, and salutary purposes, as fully 
iustifV the divine procedure, and richly repay the sufferer. I hope 
Mr. Mather's happy experience bears testimony to this troth. 
I shall be ghtd to hear that he is restored to former health and 

LIFE oft ULDt MAXWXli« ^ 

usefulness, and that his path of diUy is so clearly marked as to 
supersede the; necessity of listening to any one for direction. I 
believe the soul that walks closely with God, will in most, if not 
in every case, have the line drawn for him by unerring Wisdom. 
Attending continually to an indwelling God, we hear the small, 
still voice, saying, ^* This is the way, walk ye in it.*' 

I now begin to believe that the Lord^s very gracious dealings 
with me are intended for higher purposes than merely the com- 
fort of ihy own soul; and, therefore, do more frequently and 
explicitly than ever, endeavour to tell those that fear God what 
hie has done for me; if, peradventure, the simple recital may be 
in the smallest degree profitable to them ; though herein Satan 
Withstands me greatly. Yet, upon every proper occasion, I en- 
deavour, in weakness, to offer it up as a sacrifice to my God 
(with a single eye to his glory) upon that altar which alone can 
sanctify the gift. I feel more than ever cabled to wrestle in 
mighty prayer for the prosperity of Zion ; more especially for 
some particular souls : and this morning, I think I obtained /aiVA 
for one, together with the strongest hopes for many, who all so 
pressed upon me, so crowded before me, while in secret before 
the Lord, that a necessity' was laid upon me, by the Hearer of 
prayer himself, to be importunate for them: but for a//, one 
hUssif^ only was in view^ — entire sanctification ; or what we 

. sometimes call Christian perfection. 

This important doctrine of our holy religion, more especially 

.as it relates to experience, now almost wholly occupies my mind; 
at least, all the time I can spare from business, &c., &c. : and I 
really think the Lord has prepared a people here for entering 
the good land. that he would bring them in ! Assist them 
by your prayers. The injurious bar of unbelief prevents their 
taking immediate possession, not seeing clearly it is by simple 
faith alone. 

How shall r sufficiently praise the Lord that I ana stUl a 
happy inhabitant of that delightful land ? Still struggling to 
scale the mount of holiest love, I have gained some steps, but 
feel restless to reach the summit. My God is to me as a place 
of broad rivers, wide and deep. I rest in him ; I dwell in him. 
Sinking into him, I lose myself; and prove a life of fellowship 
with Deity so divinely sweet, I wbuld not relinquish it for a 
thousand worlds. It is, indeed, a narrow path ; but love levels 

. every mountain — ^makes all easy. 

•* O love divine, how sweet thou art !** 

When I look back, I rejoice to see what \ am saved from : 
when I look forward, it is all pure expanse of unbounded love. 
Surely the heaven of heavens is love. 

May you, more than ever, |ind this divine principle overflow- 
ing your soul ; sweetening every bitter cup ; making everv bor- 

Sk)4 Lire OF X40T MipewxLt. 

•mile of HeaV«n ; and of a truth, my expeotstioiM were greatly 
exceeded. Early on Sunday mornings the fiiat day of this year|. 
1 had a most wonderftd display of the love and power of a^triune 
God. This continued for many hours in its full strenj^th, «nd| 
in a degree, for several da^^t was a most memorable se^tL — 
I proved the " overwhelming power of saving grace." I would 
here attempt to give the great outlines; for no human pen.oan, 
describe all I felt and saw. Early on Sunday mora]|]g,.in secret 
prayer, God Nthe Father and Son drew very nigh. A sepse of 
the divine presence so penetrated my inmost soul as. to arrest the 
whole powers of my mind, in deep and solemn attention., A 
spirit of supplication was then poured upon me for myself and 
others; whUe I felt so surrounded with Deity; so let into Jehor 
vah, as no woi^ds can express. It seemed as if I might ask what 
I would, both for myself and others, with confidence that it 
should be done for me. This glorious and solenm interview con* 
tinued till half past ten. t then went to chapel j when it was 
greatly inct^ased^ The eternal world lejt y&c^ nigh ; I seemed^ 
bylaith come to' Mount Sioii, the heavenly Jerusalem. My 
spirit felt mingling With its blessed inhabitants, while the sacrxo 
Three felt^ as it were, encamping around me. It was glory ail — 
past expression ! I' -seemed to sink deeper into the boundless 
ocean of pure love. This did not appear to me a solitary 
blessing, but in a measure diffused through the whole congrega- 
tion assembled for the purpose of, showing forth the djring love 
of Jejsus. . I hive learned tliat many were peculiarly ble^eed aft 
the time. O my God, ^hat can i say to these things f It is 
mercy, pure unbounded mercy. Enable me to improve these 
precious seasons to t^e uttermost. O Jesus, keep the loving eye 
of my faith steadily upon thyself; cover my defenceless head 
with the shadow of thy wing ; then shall I be safe.— 

— ^^20. Since the 13th I have experienced the goodness of 
the Lord : the languor then complained of has been in ai measure 
removed. . On the mprning of the 16th, my God strongly im- 
pressed upon my heart the following words : ** The Lord is with 
me as a mighty, terrible one; therefore my persecutors shall 
stumble, and they shall not prevaU: they shall be greatly 
ashamed ; for they shall not prosper ; their ev^lasting confiiaioB 
shall never be forgotten. But; O Lord of hosts, that triest die 
righteous, and seest the reins and the heart, let me see thy ven« 
geance on them ; for unto thee have I opened my cause. Sing 
unto the Lord, praise ye the Lord; for ho hath delivered the 
soul of the poor from the hand of evil doers," Jer. xx, 11«-13. 
Immediat^y after, the following passage seemed to pierce my 
Inmost soul : " Watch ye, therefore, and pray always, that ye 
may be accounted worthy to escape all these ihings that shall 
come to pass, and to stand before the Sdnpf man," Luke xzi, 
36, It is^ not easy to say what ray fselings were on this 


8ion ; the words solemnized my mind, and increased my desire 
and power to pray and watch. They have frequently recurred 
to my remembrance since, awakening in me a godly jealousy lest 
I should offi^nd^ O how good is the Lord to his poor creature, 
who, in the midst of many weaknesses, desires to love him with 
all her heart. With what wisdom^ and tenderness was the word 
of admonition administered ! first strengthening and comforting 
niT soul, by telling me he was with me ; and then warning me 
of danger, by pointing me to the best preserratiyes against it. 
Bless the Lord, O my soul. 

May 20. Since my last date, I hare gone through a hot iumace 
of bodily and ^menisu distress. At times my God and Saviour 
drew tiigh, and often disappointed my iears ; but my disorder 
deeply Meeting m^ neryes aild spirits^ I suffered keenly. I now 
learned the propriety and necessity of those scriptures which 
were applied to my mind before the commencement of this great 
affliction. Alas ! fear chilled my soul,' and in a measure sunk 
me from God : at least from that degree of sweet commnnion 
with the Fiither and Son with which I had been favoured for four 
or ^we years. Words can fain^y express what I have suffered. 
O that all may be sanctified to the utmost, and he succeeded by 
love- so matured as to exclude all dot^t and fear. In many 
thinp, duriuff ray illness, I saw the hand of God, and had cause 
to bless him tor his tender dealings : but still the powers of datk* 
ness were permitted, to harass me greatly ; and I did not, as I 
ought, glorify my God in the midst of the fires. One lesson my 
God has been teaching me all along — the virtue, the necessity 
of simple faith ; that by faith, and not jey, I must live. He 
has, in a measure, often enabled me so strongly to act faith on 
Jesus, fbr sanctification, even in the absence of comfort^ as dif- 
fused' a heaven of sweetness through my soul, and brought with 
it the powerful witness for purity. The Lord has also been 
teaching me to die to all self-complacency. He hath showed 
me much of my weakness, nothingness, poverty, and emptiness ; 
and, at the same time, how simple faith brings divine life into 
the soul. Within these few days, he has begun to repeat former 
manifi98tations of love, but they are g^enerally succeeded by 
temptation. ' Though restored in a measure, it is as yet a state 
of spiritual weakness, but I fervently desire an increase of every 
grace. • 

June 32. During the kst fortnight, I have been travelling for 
the benefit of my health, and have cause to say the end has been 
in some measure answered. Many opportunities have offered for 
the spirituad and temporal benefit of others : O that an effectual 
blessing may follow these efforts. The Lord graciously interposed 
intinies of danger on the road. In mercy he brought me nome 
on the 20th, and enabled me to testify of his goodness to my soul 
when with his children. His dealings with me for some time 


past have lieeii widely different from foj^mei: times I he seems to 
call me now especiaJly to live by faith, and to listen to the 
Tarioi» teachings of his Spirit. that Imay profit by all, and 
be enabled to glorify my God under every varied dispensation^ 

August 24. I ^have been again visited with bodily affliction, 
but my God dealt tenderly with me while it continued, and has 
in mercy removed 'it. ,1 wooid^ observe, with gratitude, that 
while it remained the tide of lE^iritual temptations ran in a low 
channel. I had m(»e comfort, more liberty at a throne of grace, 
and felt powerfully the witness for sanctification. The Lord 
teaches me that it is by simple faith (done that I csm either 
obtain, retain, or increase, with regard to any gospel blessing ; 
and this mode of proceeding' he condescends to own. I see it ia 
owing to the mighty power of God, that I have been enabled to 
stand, in any measure, in the midst of floods 6f temptations 
which have recently prevailed. Bat O, I want, to s^e greater 
things — ^to get faster on^-*-to obtain more powerful renewals of 
former blessings. Hasten, Lord) the happy time. 

October 20;^ I have lately known both the sweets of deep 
Oommunion widi the Father and Son, and .also the depths of 
temptation : may both answer valuable purposes. On Monday 
last, in the evening, when, in secret prayer, I was most unex- 
pectedly fayonred with a richer manifestation of the love of God 
than for many months before. The Father and Son broke in 
upon my soul with sweet surprise, which filled me with speech- 
less awe. ^A deep sense of Deity surrounded^ and pierced my 
inmost soul. I could hardly credU my own feelings, or converse 
with mortals all that evening. This happy visitation continued 
for several days ; but lest I should be exalted above measure, a 
messe^er of Satan was permitted to bu^et me for a short sea- 
son. This I felt exceedingly painful, .and it gradually lessened 
my joys. The wormwood and gall of seyere temptations are 
very bitter, after such heights of spiritual enjoyments : but I 
believe they are very common. The - Lord make me faithful in 
every situation. My prayer was for much of that conquering 
faith which pain, and fear, and death defies ; for the spirit of 
power, that I might stand unmoved; sink deeper into self- 
knowledge, and rise higher in divine wisdom and love. 

December 7. How shall I record the loving kindness oi my 
gracious God ! How sufficiently praise him ! On Monday even- 
ing, while hearing a discourse from, ^' Grow in grace," it was 
inwardly suggested, and surely from on high, ^* You ^oiUd lift 
up your heart in prayer to God for his presence and blessing 
upon his people." ' Being enabled immediately to comply with 
the, heavenly exhortaUbn, through abounding mercy, I quickly 
cauffht the answering of returning grace. In a moment, God 
the Father, and Son, drew very nigh, and the place seemed filled 
with the divine presence, and with it my inmost soul felt deeply 


penetrated. The heavenly attia^tion was strong, and the inter* 
course open: the love of (Jod flowed in copious streams into my 
breast, and I trust the blessifig was general. Since then I have tasted celestial aweetness, and' have rejoiced as a 
daughter of Zion, because of an indwelling God. Yet, though 
faith in some measure feels lost in fruition, the direct witneu tor 
sanctification is not So distinct. My enjoyment consists chiefly 
of delightful fellowship with the Father and the Son; and a con- 
tinual sense of their presence, without, almost, a thought either 
of justification or sanctification. I trust a flame is kin<&ed in my 
breast that shall never be extinguished. I have had, as is gene- 
rally the case, when so highly favoured, furious attacks from the 
adversary of souls : these have affected deeply, but not robbed 
me of my heavenly guests. I asked a token for good before the 
ei^d of the year; and O, how graciously has God granted my 


January 24, 1792. 

I long t6 know what has become of my valuable correspondent, 
who has been how sDent for many months. Perhaps the cause 
of this originates in myself: I believe I stand indebted to him 
for one letter. But as he knows that'necessary attention to the 
work committed to me sets a seal upon a very large portion 
of my time, might he not sometinies give me two for one \ A 
few minutes of his valuable time,, spent in accelerating the mo- 
tion of a soul toward its c6ntre^ that has many things to retard 
its progress, would not, it is hoped, be a ficuitless service to 
either. - 

I hope that " I deeper sink, and higher rise." I have never 
known so much of the nature of simple faiths or its unspeakable 
value, as since I tasted of the pure love of God. Plying this 
oar, I mean the direct act of faith, in stripping times, how is ray 
soul upheld in the midst of temptations : ' at one time so subtle 
it requires superior light to discover the cloven foot ; at another, 
80 furious I am obliged to suspend, as far as possible, the power « 
of thought, in order to reject the injections of the adversary. 
Who can speak the value of simple faith ? Without it, how 
soon should I become weak as others. Surely my God does 
all things well and wisely : for if, with, the mariner, I am per- 
mitted to go down sometimes into the deeps, it is only to be^ 
brought up again' to see the wonderful works of the Lord. Can' 
any have greater cause to praise him t - T mean not to insinuate 
that I have more grace than others ; but that my situation, from 
particular circumstances^ requires much divine teaching, much 
comfort, much tenderness, superior attention, mnch direction ; 
and all this a God of love vouchsafes me, and in a way that 


keeps me dependent upon hknselfy deeply sensible to whom I 
am mdebted. 

I am dail^r aiming at all the perfection of nature and gnMsd 
that a probatipnary state of comparative imperfection will admit ; 
but have the dis^y mortification to find I am far shorty though 
not wufe of the mark. Do yon approve of this distinction ? I 
mean (lest yon should mistake me) not out of the right road^ 

I shall be glad to dear that you are making ra^ pdogresa 
keavenw^ni ; and also favoured with maph' success in your 
ministerial laboinrs : and I am, Rev. sir, 

Your faithful, hu^ible servant in Jesus, D. Maxwell. 

^ - TO Bliss aiTCHIS. 

January 24, t192. 
When I received dear Miss Ritchie's kind letter, I was at th4. 
Hot Wells, Bristol^ in a very poor state of health : partly owing to 
great and continual exertions both of body and voiiiid. I felt a 
little of our dear Lord's sufienngs when he said, ^^The z6ad of 
thine house hath eaten me up." Such was the weakness of my 
animal frame at that time, that even the pleadng and very pro- 
fitable seasons I enjoyed frequently, with Christians in Bristol^ 
were too much for me* They were, indeed, precious o|>portii- 
nities. The Lord was with us of a truth. I hope ever to retain 
a grateful ^ense of his goodness at that time, both to myself and 
others. I have not yet regained ray usual health'; b^t, blessed 
be a God of love, the scale. of blessings greatly preponderates 
in my soul. I ahi still permitted to walk in the liberty of the 
gospel ; to enjoy delightful fellowship with the Father and the 
Son : a holy familiarity with Jehovah ; at times so near, so 
solemn, and faith so realizing the sacred presence, that mortal 
language would in vain attempt to express what is seen< what is 
felt : and, in short, what ffasses between the Majesty of heaven 
and dust and ashes, upon these very solemn and very important 
occasions. Suffice it to say, it is gloi^ all, and all divine. As 
far as I understand the mind of the Lord, these sacred interviews 
are granted for the spiritual benefit of others, as well as myself. 
* There is generally a remarkable spirit of prayer and supplication 
poured upon me for the prosperity; of the Lord^s people; and I 
am so permitted to plead for them, so let into Jehovah^ so made 
to see by faith Him that is invisible, as I can nowise express. 
Blessed be the Lord for a capacity to enjoy it ! At other times, 
my intercourse is, in a. peculiar manner, with God the Son : then 
the grandeur of majesty is absorbed in piire love. I sink down 
into a boundless ocean of perfect love. O that I may improve 
to the uttermost these great privileges. 

My situation, firom various causes, ^requires much of the pre- 
sence of God — much divine teaching, support, and comfort ; and, 


in tender merey, be bestows it. But joa ihust not conchide that 
I have a perpetual sunshine. No j I have sifting times, wben 
etery grain of grace i^ tri^d : diversified temptations prerid), 
and divine comforts ruii in a lour efaaanel. Tlvese are cbasms 
which the Lord shows mel must endeavour to fill up with fitiih 
and prayer. He sensibly strengthens hie to endure ; and thus 
kept, I soon emerge^ I humbly hope,, with some advantage : with 
fresh proofs of the Lord^s goodness; with deeper convictions 
of my own weakness ; and with clearer views of the suitability 
of Jesus in fill his mediatorial characters. - How good, how ten- 
der, is our God^ Surely, as one whom his m6ther cemfcHrteth, 
so doth he deal with us. And it is no small mercy that we are 
not permitted to rest in present attainments. Perhaps this is 
one end that is answered by these ch^mges we sometimes expe- 
rience for the worse,,according to ourown l&pprehension ; though 
I believe it is oply an alteration in point of enjoyment, not of pos^^ 
session: for I have found a degree of danger, of slnidng down 
too much into the ecstatic sweets of present eqjoyment, When my 
soul was in its zenjih of fellowship with the triune God. It would 
be very flesirable to. feel the soul every moment ascending with 
an even flame; but I am doubtful whether the animal frame, in 
its present state, can adtjdit pi this. - 

Sorely, ** It doth not yet a^ppear what we shall be :"'it is 
enough to know that, when Christ shall '* appearj we shall be 
like him." Hall, auspicious momt Till then, let us press on, 
and, with unabating vigour^ nobly struggle through every diffi-* 
culty. '* And yet a little while, and He that ^ball c6me, will 

. I enter into deJUr Miss Ritchie^s tender and acute feelings, 
when taking a retrospect of the great loss she has sustained, by 
the departure of a justly dear and invaluable friend — perhaps, 
the most costly «acriiice she ever offered, up to Him who claims 
and possessed all her heart. I have been uncommonly carried 
above almost every painful though^ and feeling, since Mr.. Wesley 
lefVour world, by being allowed one invariable and delightful 
view of him, as worshipping before 4he throne. This keeps me 
perfectly alive to the "full value of his character; softens and 
sweetly melts my heart; and will, I trust; accelerate ray motion 
heavenvirard. His death, I believe, has been made a blessing 
to many, by him whose prerogative it is to extract good from 
seeming evil. 

As .1 cannot always command iny time, part of this was writ- 
ten some days ago. Since then! have had a most precious 
view of a triune Ueity, which still remains with me, more clear 
than formerly. What an immense treasure is here opened to 
the Christian by simple faith. In diversified distress, <how sooth- 
ing in our best times : what a splendid thought, to be surrounded 
with the sacred.Trinity ! "It is mystery all !" The line of 

310 1AWK or LADt KAXWXU- 

reasoa is too short to fathom the depth of his Jore : oar underw 
standing too lioiited to conceive properly of its dignity. 

But my paper admonishes me that I must have done. I>o 
you follow out the glorious theme^ and enlarge upon it in ysnxf 
next ; which I h<^ to be able to answer sooner than I have done 
your last. '^ ' -^ D; Maxwblx- 

CHAPTER XXVm.-.i793. 

State of the nation at this period— Spread pf infidelity— War proclaimed 
with France — Meeting* for prayer among Christians — ^^Diary and corre- 
spondence continued. 

BiroRB we proceed to farther extracts from her ladyship's 
writings, it may be proper briefly to advert to the state of the 
natimt at this period,- in order- to iHustrate inaay of her subse- 
quent allusions. This, indeed, will tend to show, in awful con- 
trast, the influence of infidel cmd irreligious principles, when 
compared with the genuine tendency of the gospel of Christ, as 
displayed in these volumes. * To those conversant with the 
history of Europe, jt will be readily remembered that the most 
fearful convulsions were, at thid time, threatening to shak^ the 
very basis of all civil, political, and ecclesiastical establishments. 
The horrid principles maintained by the atheistical and infidel 
philosophers of France had already-spread anarchy, devastation, 
and misery throughout eyery rank and order of her vast popula- 
tion. By the levelling influence of these degraded and degrad- 
ing principles, all their religious houses had been suppressed — 
the property of the clergy conflscated^-the clergy themselved 
deprived of all tjieir judiciary functions — ^and the very plate of 
their churches concerted into currency. JTaving thrown down 
the altar, they proceeded, with the most infatuated violence, to 
farther outrage ; and, under the specious pretence of liberty and 
equality, abolished all titular distinction and feudal rights ;* and 
declared the kingly" authority to be extinct. Having farther 
endeavoured to eradicate from >their minds all sense of moral 
responsibility and all apprehensions of a coming eternity— with- 
out law, and consequently without control, they indulged, with- 
out remorse, the most savage and brutal passions; and stood 
forth before the astonished gaze of the world, a nation of lawless 
banditti. Beside a number of dreadful massacres at Paris, and 
elsewhere, in the course of the preceding year, the destructive 
guillotine was^ invented ; and France was now covered with 

♦ On the 25th of August3792, the archives of the order of St. Esprit, 
and the titles of nobility, enrolled in the convent of the Great Aiigustinea 
at Paris, with all the registered proofs of nobilitv, amounting to nearly 60O 
huge folios, were publicly bumed-ih the Plaot Vmdorke,. 


scafibMo, on which an immense qnantityof Mood was shed. To 
this blind and infuriated rage, during the present year, Louis 
XYI. first, and afterward Marie Antoinette, of Anstria, his 
bereaved widow, fell a sacrifi.ce. And, as if determined to carry 
their blasphemy to the most awfnl degree of daring, and, if pos* 
sible, dethrone Jehovah himself j on the seventh of the ensuing 
December, the public exercise of the national religion -was for- 
bidden, and the worship of reason i liberty, and other imaginary 
deities, established in its stead.* 

Happy would it have been For Britain had the operation ^of 
these detestable principles been confined to the other side of the 
channel. *^ But the infernal leaveA which had^ more or less, 
diffused itself through every nation of Europe, was, at this 
period, banefully tainting the minds and morals of multitudes in 
our own happy country* Thre infamous Paine, and his coadju- 
tors, zealous in the service of infidelity, had given* circulation to. 
an astonishing number of volumes ^nd pamphlets ; and addre^ing 
themselves, in artful language, to the passions and -prejudices of 

* " The only instance in which infidels of any description have possess- 
ed the supreme power and government of. a country, and have attempted 
to dispose of human happfness according to their own doetnne» and wisnes, 
is that of France^ sttice the beginning of. thesrevolution. If we consider 
this govenimbnt as establiehed over a nation educated^ for a^es to the be- 
lief 8^ ol)edience of many doctriixes of Christianity, ia,nd retaining, as to a 
great majority of the people, thfe habits formed by that education, the state 
of that nation will evince, beyond a question, that all which I have said 
fon th& dreadful tendency of infidelity] i« tme w^hout . exaggeration. 
France^ during this period, has been a theatre of crimes, which, after all 
preceding perpetrations, have excited in the. mind of. eveiy spectator, 
amazement and itqrror. The miseries suffered by that single jjation have 
changed ^ the histories^ of the preceding sufferings of mankind into idle 
tales, and have been enhanced and multiplied) without a precedent, with- 
out number, andVithout name. The kingdom appeared to be changed intq 
one great prison-; the inhabitants converted into felona, and the common 
doom of man computed for the violence of the sword and the bayonet, the 
sucking boat ai\d the. guillotine. To contemplative men it seemed for a 
season as if the knell of the whole nation was tolled, and the world sum- 
moned to its funeral. Within the-short time of ten years, not less than 
three millions of human beings are supposed to have perished in that single 
country, by the' influence of atheism." Were such principles universally 
prevalent, "^ appgtite would change every man into a swinCf and passion into 
a tiger. Right would neither be acknowledged, nor be felt, nor exist. What- 
ever was coveted would be sought and obtained, if it could be done with 
safety. Whatever was hated would, 'SO far a» safety would permit, be 
hunted and destroyed. To deceive, to fraud, to betray, to maim, to torture, 
and to butcher, would be the common employment, and the common sport. 
The dearest and most venerable relations would be violated by incestuous 
pollution ; and children, such of them I mean as were jiofr C]|St under a 
hedge, thrown into the sea, or dashed against thp stones, would grow up 
-without a home, without a parent, without a friend. The world would 
become one vast den ; one immeasarable sty ;,and the swine and the wolf 
-would be degraded^ by a comparison with its inhabitants.' May God 
preserve Britain from -the influence of sUch infernal principles."-* Fidtf 
Jhmght*s Theology Explainedt <fc., roL i, p. 61, 

312 tIFB OF IiA]»y MAXWSU./ 

the lower orders in soeiely, too ^ell succeeded in their diaboli- 
cal purposes. Symptoos of insubordinatiou Were manifestedin 
different parts of the country, — apprehensions of insurrection 
created alanm,-— and the people of Britain, reflecting on the horrid . 
outrages which had recently occurred on the continent,, feh as 
if under the tremour of a general panic.. 

In addition to these affecting particulars, at the commence- 
ment of this yedr war was procliumed between England and 
France, and the nation was involved in all the calamities of ^a. 
long and fearftilly bloody contest. Great, commercial distress 
became almost universal ; and a fuA tide of b^nki^uptcy setting 
in, swept away the independence and comfort of many a happy 
family. For several of the following years, our island was 
menaced by its foreign enemies ; formidaole preparations were 
made for invading its shcH^es ; and the public mind was thus long 
kept in a fearfully perturbed and agitated state. 

Lady Maxwell, in common with other pious persons, recog- 
nized in^aU this the righteous go? ernment of Goal She viewed 
these csdamities as indications of his just displeasure. She 
lamented the aboundings of infidelity and ungodliness ; atid, 
contrasting these with the religious privileges which England 
enjoyed, she could not but fear the .most alarming consequences. 
Under thesa apprehe^ions, «he believed^ that the salvation pf 
oar guilty land depended solely on the mercy and seasonable^ 
interposition of a gracious Godj and that it y^as the duty of 
Christians to seek for this mercy, by a general humiliation, and 
by fervent . prayer; She therefore endeavoured to excite the 
pious, of different denominations in Edinburgh, to meet frequently 
together, in their respective places of worship, for these express 
purposes; that, by prevailing intercession, every impending 
judgment might be averted. In this labour of true Christian 
patriotism, she was successful, and meetings for prayer were 
established in different places throughout Uie city. She also 
endeavoured to stimulate her correspondents, in distant parts, to 
engage in the same important duty ; and about this time a spirit 
of solemn intercession was diffused throughout the country. ^ .To 
the man who' discards the Scriptures, and to the mere nominal 
professor, who considers not the blessings ainnexed to faithful 
prayer, all this may appear ^as useless and unavailing } but the 
man who believes his Bible, and lives in the habit of prayer, 
will, at all times, under similar circumstances, place more depend- 
ence on the prayers of the faithful, than in the skiU of our com- 
manders — ^the number and valour of our armies — ^thevastness of 
our resources'-or even in 4he wooden walls of Great Britain. 
** The battle is not to the strong." " Thus saith the Lord, Let 
not the wise man ^lory iii his wisdom, neither let the mighty 
man glory in his might ; — ^let npt the rich man glory in his riches. 
But let him that gloriethj glory in this, that he understandeth 

and kodweth me, that I am the Lord whieh exeieise loTing 
kuidness, Judgment, and righteousness in the earth.'* ''Pnt 
not your trust in princes, for vain is the help of man." After 
these rmmrks we shall again reenr to the diary. 

Mareh 15. I have lately been favoured with repeated oppor- 
tunities of showings forth the dying lore of Jesus. The last of 
tihem I found a sacred time; the place, a sacied spot ; the work, 
a sacred emidojrment. Deity felt nigh : yet no remarkable joy 
attended the diTine presence. Theselast two weeks I hare been 
looking for, and hastening to & more filll enjoyment of perfect 
lore. I look to be ** filled,'' (as the liord hath promised) " with 
the knowledge of hia will; in all wisdom and spiritual under* 
standing ; that I may walk before him unto all pleasing." O bow 
ardently do I desire this ! It is only by faith, I know, that I can 
attain ; but here I am often foiled, and day after day passes on 
with very littleprogress. These last days I have, through assist- 
ance from above, got through some important business. I see 
the hand of^tbe Lord in it, ami endeaTOur to give him the glory : 
but ^t is better blessings which I covet, and which be hath pro- 
mised. Come, Lord, nrom above, fill and overflow my soul with 
tl^ pure love, and remove whatever hinders its full course. 

April 19. Still I have to record the loving kindness of the 
Lord ; yet not in that degree I long for. I would be thine, O 
Lord ! I would, thou knowest, be altof ether thine. Come, then, 
holy. God, and work more powerfully m me, and by me. Give a 
stronger testimony from thy Spirit, for the work wrought in me. 
My fai^>piest moments are when I believe it, and simply live by 
faith : but from this point. Lam drawn makiy times by the subtle 
devices of the adver»azy and the multifmious business in which 
I am engaged^ yet all with a view to duty. Lord, increase my 
fidth. I found, this week, the word preached from, ** Walk be- 
fore me, and be thou perfect," blessed to me. But my expe- 
rience is so far short of my desires as proves sometimes matter 
of grief : yet when I consider my unprofitableness and unfaith- 
fiilness, I have cause to be thankful for a grain of grace. Yes- 
terday a national fast : I felt something of the spirit of the oc- 
casion. I was truly desirous of mourning for a guilty nation, and 
for myself; and felt humbled on my own account. This day I 
felt disposed to lie low before God, yet to plead for great things, 
because Jesus hath purchased them for all that believe and ol^y 
him. I would be all life, light, love, power. O Lord, is any thing 
too hard for thee ! 

May 31. Prince*str€eL The Lord has in mercy heard my 
requests, for he has turned my captivity, .and put a song of 
praise in my mouth. ** O to grace how great a debtor." Since 
&e 17th instant my God has done much for me. He has pro- 
vided my present habitation as^ a .temporaEy provisioa till the 

^4 um- or %AVi. M^Mmm $ a m 

house I haiFe t«kea fo? some yecn, if spaxed^ be te^ for nie. 
I literally knew not where to lay my Head ; but 1 looked, nobo 
the Lord, and he heard and answered. O that L laay glorify 
him ! In the many diffioolties attending my doable reoMMral, he 
hath supported ; and, since I came here, has oatdone my expecta- 
tions) both as to health of body and mind. I am a wondetv aolo 
myself: bat it is the doing of the Lord, and truly- BMrvelloas in- 
my eyes. He gave me repeated tokens for good before I l«ft- 
my last house. According to my desires he sent his miiuster* 
ing servants rc|>eatedly ; and much prayer was offisred up : and 
hi^e, also, I have eiyoyed that privilege, time a^r time. In the 
course of these eight days the Lord has been with us of a truth, 
and made it a refteshing time. Beyond my hopee^ he carried 
me from here several miles on Sunday last, to commemorate the 
dying love of Jesus ; and truly he made a memorable tioie. 
My God shone upon his work in my soul, and gieatly Inightened 
my evidences for perfect love. Jesus made himself known afresh 
to me in the breaking of bread ; and when I tasted tka cup, %. 
divine sensation seemed to overspread my soul, and even affeeS 
my body. I seemed surrounded with the heavenly host. Satan 
niAde a bold push to disturb my heaven of indescnbabje enjoy- 
ment ; but a stroke of omnipotence drove him &r away. Wheel' 
can I render unto the Lord f(»r his goodness I ^ 

August d3. Still I have to record the loving kindness of tin 
Iford, whiohr though much greater than I deserve, is still ^ur 
short of my desires. On Sunday last^ in publie, I found my soul. 
sonsibly strengthened and confirmed in the waye of God ; my 
heart lifted up, and encouraged to press mi with respect to 
sanctification) notwithstanding the poorness of my progress and 
attainments. The moment I allow one thought that would en- 
courage a doubt of the vrork, I feel like a city without gates ; 
without defence against the adversary ; as a ship without its rud- 
der ; yea, so feeble that the weakest blast wouki overset me. 
On the contrary, every direct act of faith for the blessing ie in- 
stantly followed with strength of soul, serenity of mind, and a 
sweet testimony from on high to the work wrought. Yea, I feel 
as a garrison well fortified ; able, through faith in Jesus, to tnnt 
the enemy from the gate. But I want a stronger evidencerfrom 
the fruit of the Spirit, as a corroborating witness. Give it, O 
Lord, for thy name's sake. I feel a deep'^oonseionsness of my 
weakness, ignorance, un&ithfulness, unfrmtfulness, which is 
sometimes discouraging. 

October 11. (Friday.) Of a truth my God has dealt bounti- 
fully with me since my last. I ventured to ask a token for good 
before I left my temporary habitation in Edinbargh, and he in 
n^ueh mercy granted my desire repeatedly. Monday evening, in . 
public, God the Father and Son drew sensibly nigh, and favoured 
me .W3th sweet fellowship, and opened my mouth ]to praise hJHSw 

Rb oM (Hily peximtM mer to d^ll iipiHi tlte sweet siiliject of 
faift peit kindness to me at tlte time, in ray own mind, but eon'- 
iftrained niie to tell tkotfe thst Ioto him #hat he has done for nrjr' 
«Hi1. Aad on Tiieaday, O how gfraciondy did my heavenly 
P^thet deal with me while eoHTetsing with a minister of Christ ; 
he opened his liberal hand, and gare largely to both ; it was a: 
menioraBle time. O how good is (Sod to^ the soids that seek 
kim. Yet, in the erendig, temptation prev^ed, and my soul 
was griered : but still my GtMi eontinued his kindness. I felt 
tK^araed, and fled afresh to the MOod of sprinkling. Wedneei« 
day was a day 'df trial and rariegated temptation : I endearoared 
to flee into my strong hold, that the Lord might lift up a standard. 
In the erening, eame to n^ new habitation, {Rosemmmt^ which.- 
I trust 4he L^d has prorided for me. It is most certain he 
^Woold not permit me to go to mnother I had in view, and wished 
to have. He so evidendr diiawed me that it wonld be contrary 
td his will, I wae obliged to desist. Siifee the time Ifixed on' 
IJhis place, (fti<m^ at first he made every mountain of difficulty 
wk^ into a mole h31,) it has been a sottrce of trouble and vexa- 
tion, but smce I came to it, he has made it a sweet h^itation. * 
Tasked a maik of his favour, and in mei-cy, the morning after I 
oime herSj he granted iny revest repeatodly, both in secret * 
prayer and in reading the Scripttures* He has indeed given me 
pfrecions seasons; delightful commimion with heaven; ineffable' 
sweetness diffused throiigh mr soul; divine peace and comfort 
in private, family, and secret duties. Surely^ ** where the Spirit 
of the Lord is, there is liberty." CH^e temptation which I had 
long labonred nnder, he seems entirely to have removed. O that 
Imay be humble, and thankful, and enabled to improve to the 
uttermost the Ibving kindness i)f the Lord. O that it xdaj in« 
crease. Still I see the ne^eBsHltf of living ^y faith ; especially 
for sanetific^tion. 

November 1. Since the 11th of October words wonld fail to 
tell of l^e goodness of the Loid,' in public and private^ at home 
and abroad, in the house, and by the way ; not in exemption /r<>7n * 
temptation ; no,' but in support and comfort under it, and in de* 
liverances from it ; in repeated manifestations of his love and ' 
pewer; in sweet fellowship with the Father and the Son. At 
one tune, while enduring a flood ef temptation, Jehovah drew so 
nigh, appeared saclear to the eye of faith, so penetrated my soul 
.vith a sense of his mresence, as might well excite my Wonder, 
love, and praise. He so confounded the powers of darkness, so 
sensibly UfWd up a standard, as made all within confess a pre- 
sent Gk>d ; and lie has tiius rixide wKh me ever dnce, though - 
not always with the same degree of love, joy, or freedom from ' 
temptation, yet so as often made me involuntarily exprese these 
Wtnrds, ** Bteseed are the pore in heart, for they shall see God.'' 
Ifttkevie«r of toeivittf home lbr'&w«€^ot tw#iaiidtrav«lttxig''- 

8t6 Uffft 09 LMMkH |IAXWM«if. 

for iMdtli, I Mnmthr Mked a %ol»n iox food, and^s tomie^ 
■eended to gire it. mw I had called aoy family together to xe- 
quest, his bleaaing upon those that went, and those that were ta 
xemain. He piesenred man and beast, canned thiooffh difficd* 

ties, diaanpoiiited fears, gave eoarage to .smn him and his cause 
in different parts^ a&d with diffisreat denooBinations : andfkvoored 
me with numberless oppertttnities for attempting the a^ritnal 
and temporal good of my fellow cieatmea, and eave power to 
embrace them. The issue is left with Him who Knows the end 
firom the banning, and who can make the feeblest means effec- 
tMl for the greatest ends. And now, in^ tender meroy, he hath , 
brought me homey having infinite eapse to say, not only that he 
is the Hearer of prayer, but ^lat *' God is love.'' Bat I fed 
much cause to regret that I come so far short in . all : that I do 
not make greater progress when so highly favoured. O Lord, 
remove tiie cause, that the efieot may cease. My soul longs finr 
greater nearness to God : for mofo power to glorify and enjoy 
him ; for more extensive usefulness ; tor more ,Kdioess ; a clearer* 
witness for the enjoyment of that pure love M^at easts oot fear t 
and for more power to live by faith. 

Dec. 92. (Friday.) Still my God continues and inereases hie 
kindness to a creatui^ unworthy of it. On Thursday, the 14th, h» 
emidescended to give me a sweet manifestation of the holy 
Trinity ; and a very clear perception of the pers^Mlity of the 
blessed Spirit : n^e so than for a long time past. This view 
of the whole Godbe^ was attended with a divine sweetness, and 
haa been continued ever since, so thati have felt surrounded with 
Deity : and the testimony of the Spirit for sanetification has at 
times been peculiarly ^lear ; more especialljr just after conversing^ 
with a minister upon the subiect, and simply eacpressing my 
ideas of it, both as a doctrine, and as ei^eriencea in a small 
measure in my own soul, through the great goodness of my God, 
and for theMie of his adorable Son. O that I may be made 
fiuthful, and enabled to {Nresa on for every degree of it attainaUe 
in the body. Last evening the Lord shone peculiarly dear upon 
his work in Mineral, and save me some comfortable hope that I 
was not standing still, as ! feared. This was after many ap^ 
oations to the Hearer of pra3rer to %aicken my pace ; and ailer 
manjT times lamenting my shortcomings, and fearing I wao 
soaking no progress. O that I oould love and serve, a thousand 
times more, my gracious and compassionate hesvenly Father. 
Lord, increase my ability ; increase my faith. I feel a giowii^r 
sewie of the littleness of all earthly things, and the solemn 
weight and importance of thoscf belonging to eternity : also, of 
the uncertainty and shortness of time» and the great neeessity of 
improving it; and feel strongly drawn to fill up every precious 
moment with something valuable, I have much cause to praise 
the Lord (o^mmo VMoaes, Ritual and tee^tonl; and among^ 

•llwnfairalaxferneaiai* ofhesMitiiieeleaiiietoIloMnioaiit 
Ihui for a lonff time betee. O tei I tuj vm it for Him wli^ 
gives it Trmy he is the Grod tlist perfinmeUian tiuus for mei 
«iid my 4n»t is noC is sn «na of flesh, bnC in tiimseff, wko so 
often disappoiiits my ftaxs. I look 4iaX he will osnse me to 
ond this year, oad beg^ the ooor ose, wMi mock of the dirine 


Janoaiy 10, 1703. 
I take the opportonity of m hwnk to. send a lew Hues to my 
friend, whose last was most aeo^taUe. I tmst our gxaeione 
€rod still continues his kind and most seasonable si^port in the 
midst of Ysriotts distressing eircwnstaaees ; and thereby enables 
you not only to stand in the evil day, but to glory inyonr intoai* 
ties, that the power of the adoraUe Savionr may rest npon yoa ; 
that his love may fill and overflow yoor soaL 

" O knre, how eheeriag it thy imy ! . 
All p«n b«feie thy pwttaco flies.* 

I am pleased with yoor aeeoaats of Mrs. 6. ; I hope my let- 
isr to her, cndoecd m mf last to you, came safe to hand. I 
feel mnck liberty in pleading th^t yon, and those who' Join with 
yon, may be enable to wrestle m mighty prayer ; and seem to 
anticipate yoor victoiy. I rejoice Aat you are returned to your 
place again ; this wig strengthen the hands of many, and conficm 
their feeble knees, who might otherwise haYe been tnrned out 
of the way. And O how pteas^g to God to seo his idear chil*. 
dxen steadfast and immoyable in trying times ; especially those 
ivho hare been long in the way, and who haye borne the heat 
and burtken of the day. To pt4r^t thii, Satan has had recourse 
to these painful tempCations you mention ; hoping thereby to ta 
nU year attention upon your own soul, and so lessen your sphere 
of usefelness. Bat blessed be our cempassionaie High Priest, 
who hath ceunteraoted all his malieiotts designs against yoti, and 
pnt a song of praise in your mouth. 

I haye much oinse to Jpuse a CM of kye for his kindness to 
me since I wrote last. Sweet and repeated haye been the pre- 
eioos manifestations of his loye; oi Father, Son, and Holy 
Ghost : sometimes together, and at others dUtinct communica- 
tions of graee, fiom each sacred person. Since last week, in the 
olass meeling, I seem to haye anchered ms^esentMy within the 
veiL The eye of my soul has been inyariably fixed upon Jehth- 
vah^ and his eye most sennbly &Kei on me. I surely have this 
eyidence of purity :"/<{o#«0Ooif.'* Tetl,haye not, I think, 
each a stiong testimony of the Spirit as I sometimes haye had, 
when my views of God w^re not so clear. At times, I haye 
very humbling yiews of sHf^ and should sink very low, but for 
that fiiith that lealuwe nnseen things, and shows ode where I 

^B0 %nm Mr ^jay MAximLt. 

jlCami. Peilu^ Aasa «xeiein« of asad, that «» enp^ mm «f 
Mlf in «Tefy shspe, aj« preparatoty to gteatar and defl|»T «i- 
jtoaneea into the depths of Deity. 

. ^* /.«fo di»M olene^ These wonie, one day lately, oaoe Teiy 
«eaeQnahly to my mind, as bet^ the ease with €M*a Israel ef 

Aid. when tried with raciotia temflataoas, a«d, aa^iw ethers, that 
of standing alone. I seem to hare none with me. IhaTO indeed 
a lonely path ; bnt, Uessed be my heavenly Father, I have the 
sacred Three with me. 'l!lf|r -heart ^»mds with desire for more 
of God, and for greater osefiilness to his people. I would mpre 
than erer ffll np every momeht with, and for God. Assist me. 
toy fHend : Olet ns pray dwa^jnt and never faint. The state ctf 
fablio afiairs tries ine much: 1 fly nnfo my €M, and cry that he 
%oald yet continue onr glorioos privflegea. Bnt I mast fhiisH. 
May he eentimitfly siitrottiid yen, and n^ ton as in the hollow 
«f hie liattds, prays • '^ 

Toor friend in Jesoe, B. Mazwxxx. 


Dear Mis. Johneen's letter^ wiitteii in the spirit, was, I hop«, 
peruBjSdin iu I feel both imy need end the tahie of a suritnai 
^end. IToer detenDieation 1 wi^ ever to dbidehy : *^ To hare 
BO fellowship with any » bnt in the 9pirit.^ O may tiiat .HoIt 
$pirit knit onr thankful hearts more oksely to oar livmr Hea£ 
the sacred source of calm lepese. AH the deaiings of the Lonl 
with me, for the laat twelve moBlhs pae^ have been vsry4e$& 
Imnjif^ing. Many, very many stitppug seasons I have hra, 
which seem to discover, moie and more, the denth of the fall. 1 
have indeed nothing whereof tp boast, nothing bnt wimt I hhM 
ll^eived. I am made truly eonecions erf my poverty and h«1p« 
Isssness; this keeps me, perhape, more aeesible of my defenSU 
^Bce tiian I should otherwise be, and cieetee abd keepe np aaoh 
ft honoring and thirsting after laisger measures of the divioBUf% 
after God and the possession of all his oommnnicable folneas, ae 
X cannot expreea It mightily endears a Saviour to me t his 
anitabiUty I so deeply ^, thait my whole soul rests en him. 
4^d4ed to this, is the sf^atment, or ait least peBnussuHi, hy Him 
who cannot err, oi every possible modifiostion of temptaftkmi 
inrith/i view, I doobt not, to promote the great and sahitary par* 
pose of drawing me more and mo«e 4Hit of self, and sinking me 
deeper and deeper into Deity, tUl lost in the .boundless ocean of 
lofe. But my receipts are so fhr short of my vsot desires, that 
perhaps I am not always 80tha|jcful> or sb sensible, as I evglit to 
he, of^ what I have.already receiyed. My God is stDl most sram* 
t>ly enforcing the necessity of Uv|ag by simple faith; and indeed 
it is never &tter with ine than when I do^ every act brings in 
fn inoiea«e' Bitf the oombhvsd pomraoT daik asis mamaolf 


-vppoBB this mode of liying. I trust mj gracious tiod wHl gird 
jae a fuller deliverance. Assist me with your prayers till I ob- 
tain. I have at times such glorious views of sinking into Jeho- 
vah, and of what, he is able to do for ine, as I cannot explain ; of 
-such holy aeamess to and fellowship with Jesus as is pleasin|r 
to experience: more, especially when considered as foretastes 
of what sbaJl be shortly my permanent experience. The Scrip- 
tores do po help, so strengtnen and comifort, in all my^rarioua 
wtuations of sool, as is matter of gre^t thankfulness. Forgive 
this minute detail. 

I bless the Lord, who deals not only tenderly, but bountifully 
with you ; and will, w> doubt, in every case show you the most 
••xcellent way. He calls at present for a costly sacrifice, which 
70U will doubtless offer freely upon that altar which sanctifies 

I am pleased to hear that Mrs. G. still stands, and I hope vdu 
will remember me to her. Tell her, from me, that she is called, 
in a peculiar manner, in these toit trying times, to stand firm, 
as a wall of brass, and as an iron piflar strong,, in every difficulty. 
And thus, having endured temptation, she i^siU inherit the bless- 
ings annexed to the promises. I hope you will have wisdom 
given you from above; more and more be enabled to glorify your 
God, though in the fires ; and increase daily in usefiilness to his 
^eburch and people. 

I see that your present situation b both critical and difficult, 
•nd I endeavour to hold it up to your God daily,, who has fitted 
you foT it ; and who will make you more than conqueror, throug^h 
the blood of the Lamb. -Go, then, thou servant of God, in his 
strength, and thy God will be with thee ; and level every moun- 
tain, and raise every valley. He has given a large sphere of use- 
inlness at this time, but Satan will dispute every inch of ground : 
yet fear nqt ; he shall fall like Dagon before the axk ; only be 
thon vMy courageous for the Lord thy God. Forgive the iiber^ 
of thus writing, but I feel pressed in spirit to do it. Remem 
bar the weakness of the writer, and believe me, 

Your friend in the best bonds, D. MAXWicLL. 


Piary and corretpondencia emltiBaed. 

January 3. The year 1793 is fled — ^it is numbered^ and 
tetumed to Him who gave it. Tell me, O my soul, what report 
has it carried with it as to thee % . Could it say that it was thy 
eonstant desire and attempt to improve it for eternity ? for the 
glory of God, the good of thy feUow creatures, and thy own best 
interest? What s^ I say ! O my God, if my heart do not 


deceiye me, in a veTV low degree this has been the case. In aj] 
I have failed, but still at all this I have aimed.^ Upon a retro- 
spect, I find much cause to thank my God for mercies more in 
number than the hairs of my head, spiritual and temporal : for 

Srecious manifestations of divine love and power ; for Tarioas 
iscoveries of the wiU of God ; various teachings of the Holy 
Spirit, more especially respecting faith as to sanctification; and 
for much countenance in my attempt to live by faith ; for many 
remarkable and speedy returns to prayer for myself and others ; 
for many interpositions in my behalf in troublesome cases and 
perplexing business ; for clear discoveries of the sacred Trinity-^ 
of the personality of the Holy Ghost ; for much sweet fellowship 
with the Father and the Son ; for some little success in my 
feeble attempts to promote the spiritual good of others, espe- 
cially Christians ; for power to maKe many exertions, above my 
own strength, both in speaking, acting, and writing ; for assist- 
ance in pecuniary matters, whereby I could more- largely help 
others, &c., &c. . When all these mercies, O my God, my 
wonderinff soul surveys, what humble, gratefiil love should fiU 
my heart! 

March 7. Of a truth my God has been good to me since the 
S8th of February. Oh Sunday, I partook of the supper of the 
Lord, and, upon the whole, the Lord was good to me ; thon^ 
not so much in the way of joy. On Monday evening, in public, 
the Lord, Jesus surprised me with a glorious visit. With the 
Father, also, I had fellowship ; but the precious manifestation 
was in a more^peculiar manner With the Son. For a long time 
past, my intercourse has been more sensibly with' Jehovah hun- 
self, yet through the medium of the Son : there is no other way 
of access to the Father. O how altogether lovely did Jesoa 
appear! How inexpressibly sweet his love! 'Words fail to ex- 
nress either ; but his presence, I may say, constitutes my heaven. 
In private, the same night, this go<k]ness was repeated: and 
through the week my Gc3 seemed to bring and keep me near to 
himself; underneath and around were sprean the eveilastifig arms. 
But I feel sdrprised and ^eved that I am not more remarksUy 
changed into the divine image by those frequent and delightful 
manifestations of his love. O my God, roll away my reproach 
in this respect ! and enable me, to the utmost, to take the mould 
divine — for the glory of thy name, the profit of my feUow crea- 
tures, and the comfort of my own soul. O let every interme- 
diate space be filled up with an increase of every grace of th* 
Holy Spirit ! Fears^ as to public affairs, have increased, and yet 
liberty to plead with God concerning them continues. Lord God 
Omnipotent, arise and work for our safety ; and O take not the 
gospel from us ; permit us not to fall into cruel hands ! Send a 
spirit of reformation and conversion plentifully down upon ns, 
and stir up thy children to prayer. 

JblffiK 99 LAW nSXWWL. WO. 

April II. The goodneae of my CM eontiams^ ^irtlii the ad^ 
tion of a keener edge on my spirit, to increase with all the 
increiuse of the Lord. On last Sabhal^^ a song of praise w» pat 
in my month. I felt zejoiciag ia my God in soeul p^yer and 
Christiaa conference. On Monday Jehorah felt very nigh jail 
day ; yet t was exercised with paiii&d temptations all. the whil^. 
On Wednesday evenings it was a sweet time in piiblic ; mad on 
Thursday* a^ home, my God disappoiotied my fearsv and optaed 
Vfj roottth to tellof his goodness to those that fear him. O he!# 
gracious ia he tp an 4iawortiiy creatmre ! In Uie course of these 
uist eight days, he has given me many opportunities of acting 
lor hi^i, which is the, delight of my soui. O that he may blese 
my feeble efforts for his dear Son^s sake. Many of my requestsi 
<^.Iate, he has answered, and giTes me liberty to. {^ad for ail I 
want. He has repeatedly refiK^hed my soul, and strengthened 
my hands, by hearing of the success of the gosp^ in Tarieus 
parts, and a^ongyariotts deriotninations, abroad and at home. 
O that a litUe one may become. a thousajid. , These accomits, is 
our present awful situation, are peculiarly gmtifying. I have 
also been refreshed by hearing of the steadfastness and prospe" 
rity of individuals whose spiritual welfare I have at, heart, espe- 
cially ministers. My God still continues to teach me the useful 
lesson of living by faith, particularly as to sanetification; but it 
is a difficult lesson. In all I come short. Help me, holy Father; 
to press on v^ith reuewed vigour ; increase my faith ; filH y^a, fill 
with faith and with the Holy Ghost. 

May 23. Yet again I am permitted to reader thanks to my 
God for his goodness, in allowing me. to enter his,eates m* 
gently, and also to prove, it good to be there :. in conimitittg me ' 
m private by. his word and his ^Spirit ; disappointing my leare 
repeatedly, and strengthening me for what he qall^ for from 
me. He still teaches me the necessity of living by faith, and 
gives me to feel, in a^ measure, the happy effects of it, by its 
sweetly solemnizing my mind ; it brings power into my 8oul)t% 
with comfort and sensible evidence of his work ia me» more 
especially as it respecte holiness. O who can tell the value of 
^ith ! — liord, increase it and a power to live by it. I j^ I 
need more patience with myself. I am- ashamed and grieved 
that I make so little, if any progress. These last eight days nqr 
, mind has been pained on this accpunt. I pome so very fiurahorC 
of what I would be, and may be. Lord, remove the, cause* ^d 
let the effects cease, O refresh my soul with a ceaselpssshp^ffi^ 
of thy grace J I pant to live more, to thee ;. to feel a mere ^t^^ 
union with Deity ; to stronger and more constant testiqioBf 
of thy Spirit* both from the witness and fruit of what thoi^ haist 
done for me and in me. I want every moment to be found i^ 
the work of faith, the labour of love, and the patience of h<^; 

'3» Uf8 <« LAW XASWI^I.. 

and to ezperienoe a greater equality of spint, temper, and 

Jaite 13. Again I am called to make known the loving kind« 
ness of the Lord to his dust and ashes, and likewise to testify of 
my own shortcomings in all things. In general, since the 6tb; 
I have been favotnred with much sweet fellowship with God the 
Father. This I have proved a source of delightfiil enjoyment, 
in the midst of varioas things that had a tendency to unhinge, t 
have had some stripping seasons. Felt poverty of spirit, and 
also proved the good efifects of ^t, and of endeavouring to live by 
simple faith on the^e trying occasions. How pleasing to the 
Lord, and how much countenai'iced by hirai On Monday last, 
especially in the evening, I feh much v^ighed down from & 
sense of unfruitfulness and unfaithfulness, though surrounded 
with many privileges that should produce every degree of spi- 
ritual prosperity. While I mused and mourned, Ged the Father 
and Son drew remarkably near, gave a glorious view and like- 
wise a taste of that nearness to, and full union with, Deity y that 
is my privilege and bis will concerning me : that state of soul 

<* Not a cloud doth- «rise to .darken the skies. 
Or hide for a moment the Lord' from. my.eyea." ^ 

la Bh(^, it felt the most simple and also the mo^t pure state of 
enjoyment that language can describe. O to feel it every mo- 

July 4. Since the 27th of June, I have enjoyed much near- 
ness to the Father and sweet believing views of his work in my 
soul. I have also had severe and furious attacks from the 
powers of darknesss ; much "weakness of body, with various try- 
ing exercises of mind ; yet can truly say in straits my God has 
been a present aid; disappmnting my fears, and sometimes 
exceeding my expectations ; perfecting his strength in my weak- 
ness, according to his promise ; enabling me to strengtheh the 
brethren; and to enjoy the privilege of the communion of saints ; 
preserving in seasons of danger, and giving opportunities for 
serving the interests of my fellow creatures, both spiritual and 
temporal* But I have much cause to grieve for not profiting 
more ; for not making greater progress in the good way ; for not 
bringing more glory to God ; more, profit and comfoit'ta others. 
Truly I feel I am an unprofitable servsint. The Lord is God^ not 
man; therefore he bears. with me. O, my God, must I always 
make my moan ! hasten the time when thou shalt greatly 
enlarge my capacity to love, serve, and glorify thee. 

August 7. Since the 25th of July, it has been a time of close 
trial, both in body and mind. The fiery darts of the adversary 
have been very keenly pointed. Weakness of nerves and spirits 
luw added to my painful feelings, and by all these things my 



lyous aensalioDs bate been rery .eeDcibly deoreMed. Fttthr in 
iesus has been my only resource, with sweet views of God the 
Father, at times ; who has set before me Ihe msny deUTerances 
he has wrought for me in times past : and He who hath been 
with me in six troubles will not forsake me in the seventh. Yet 
still I am distressed, vl feel my spiritual poverty. L^ord, nnder- 
take for me ; and yet let me see thy loving kindnese in the land 
of the living. Fill with that £uth which 

" — '• — pain aiid death defies, 
Most ng'roug when the- body dies." 

Hezekiah's message fropa the prophet who, by divine command, 
desired him to set his hoiiiBe in order, for he mnitt die, is often 
impressed on, my mind. O that I may live to Qbd while I live, 
and die to God when. I die.^ . . 

October 24. Yesterday I returned from a journey south for 
health. ^ I have cause to praise the Lord, m^ healer, who gave 
much .freedom fr^m bodily complaints while trom home ; preser* 
v^tion-.of man and beast; deliverance in danger; oAen disap- 
pointed my fears ; gave sweet visits from on high ; communioB 
of saints ; heariog the gospel prieaehed ; many opportunities for 
^he spiritual and temporal good of my fellow creatures ; supplied 
my temporal wants, and brought me home in peace. He pre- 
served all I Jeil behind; and disappmnted the evil designs of others 
against me in my absence. If they really meant evO, they were 
returning evil for good : in either case I would wish them well. 
The few (rials I met with on the load, I was supported under; 
and soon, by prayer, delivered from. Since my return, the enemy 
has attempted in various ways to disturb my peace; but mine 
eyes are upon the Lord, and my daily cry is for more faith ; and 
pQwer, every moment, to conquer through it ; with more of the 
fruit of the Spirit and a clear testimony, by the witness of it, for 
sanctiiication. I find it difficult to live every moment by faith ; 
yet, without this, I cannot Continually realize the presence of God, 
and be all attention constantly to an indwelling Deity. T have 
been long learning this important, lesson : but how little my 
progress, ^nd how condescending my God, who still continues 
to teach me, and to bear with me ! His goodness is inexprev 
Bible. The keen force of Satanic temptation, of late, has borne 
hard npon me. to be iilled with, that pure, perfect love that 
casteth out all fear ! ; 

November 28. Since last date, my God has dealt so bounti- 
fully with me, and I feel so much of my own unwortfainess and 
uni^thfttlness, that I am not only lost in wonder, love, and 

f raise, but also in confusion. I loathe myself when thus my God 
see. He has condescended to allow me much sweet communion 
with himself and with his dear Son ; more especially since last 
Sabbath morning. I desired to meet my God, and troljrl wm 

uffe or tAtt MArvrsif.. 

not disappointed. JeTiorsh drew so remtbrkably ntgh» as to arrest, 
as it were, not only the powers of my mind^but also of tey body. 
The former was fixed in deej^ attention; with a penetrating 
eonsciousness of the divine presence : the latter felt as alniost 
immoTable, white an indescrilMible sf)iemnity and sweet serenity 
overspread my mind. The Lord shone upon his word and my 
soul. In his light I saw light. I found Jehovah is the pillar 
npon which my soul rests: his hame, the strong^ tower into 
which I run, and find safety and comfort. O that his goodness 
may be improved to the utmost, and returned in living, boly.obe^ 
dience. Since that time I have had lasting eotnmunion with 
him, though far shOrt of what I Want. The day following, he 
made my cap to run over, partly from a prospect of increanng 
usefulness, and partly by the countenance lie gave upon its open- 
ing, by inclining others to unite in the attempt. O that the 
event may show it is of God. 

December 13. Still, through mercy, I can record the good- 
ness of my God. On Sunday last, in pablic^ from a sermon on, 
** This is the will of God, even your yanctificat^i^ I enjoyed 
a preeiotts time* The Lord shone on his work in my sonl,' and, 
by the aid of the Holy Spirit, I could clearly trace the eflects 
of sanctification^ both on the superior faculties of the soul, the 
understandings the will, conscience, and memory ; and also on 
the inferior faculties, the passions : including loye^ hatred, grief, 
Joy* ^<Bar, desire, &c., &c. ; likewise the appetites. I never re- 
member to have had more evidence from the fruit of the Spirit 
than on this memorable oecasion : so true isU, that we can only 
see light in God^s light, or know the things freely given us of 


Febraary 5, 1T94. 
Having the favour of a frank .for Mrs. C^ I gladly embrace 
the opportunity to acknowledge the receipt of dear Mrs. John- 
son's valuable letter, dated December 13, 1793. The contents 
of your letters are peculiarly suited to my spiritual appetite; I 
bless our gracious God, who deals so tenderly, so bountifnUy 
with you. I think you may say, though poor' and feeble yourself, 

** My Lord is all the world to me, 
And all my soul is love/* 

tet OS praise him ibr his unspeakable kindness. 

Since my last> he has given i^e sweet communion with him- 
self and his dear Son, through the Spirit^ and increases it, draw- 
ing me nearer to Deityt The enemy has withstood me greatly ; 
bat my Crod lifts up a staiidard,, and is near- to me. I hope, in a 
sBuUL reeteuwii I ni^r wf ^^nihJ^e Ren^,^' I eany about witk 


me an evperiment&l Terity and," sometimes, " a plenituda of tlie 
pesence of the sacred Tnnity.'* I do not kiiow whether in my 
last I mentioned that my God, some time ago, cendeseended to 
give me a glorious view of the holy Three., which has continued 
«Tet since. O that while permitted to gaze at this grand object, 
I may be a thousand times more than ever changed into the 
divine image. This is my a^rdent desire^ that every manifestation 
may prove of an 4issimU€tting nature ; that, as far as humanity will 
admit, I may be all light, all. life, all love, all deep humility. O 
what a soul-transporting thought, in'the mi^st of present weakness, 
ignoljance, and many hiimiliatihg circumstances', that yet a little 
while and we shall drop this vile body, and be all like God ; and 
dwell for ever with him,^ and with our adorable Jesus ; and bask 
in the bright beams of redeeming love. When millions of mil- 
lions' of years shall be past and gone, stil^ one vast eternity 
will he before us. Amazing, that dust and ashes should be 
thus honoured ; it is mystery all !^ It is mercy boundless ! 
Well, let the' thoughts af such astonishing bliss support and even 
raise us above every present pressure. 

« In the midst of aU this ^eat kindness, my G^ h^th given me 
lately a constant sense of my shortcomings,^ of my spiritual 
poverty :. this deeply pervades mv whole soul ; it is past expres- 
sion. My only relief is in flying by faith to Jesus ; there I bathe 
me in- his bleeding side, and clothe tne With his righteous robe, 
to cover my naked soul ; and endeavour to believe tfi faith brings 
in more love, &c. ; tUl his Spirit sets his seal to the work 
'viTonght in me, notwithstanding my conscious- emptiness i and 
thus I am strengthened by getting out of self, . 

My heart is so enlarged to the poor, especially the Lord'e 
poor, that I a.m in danger of making myself poor. I find the 
more I ant found in this labour of love, the more the Lord finds 
out ways and opportunities for it; and sometimes catises others, 
even the most, uidikely, to assist me. ' O it is a sweet work, to 
be eyes to the tilind^feet to the iame, &e, I should rather say, 
O il is sweet to act for my God ; to give to the Lord, through 
the medium of his own poor precious people. 

My mind is much tried as to public affairs. A wonderful 
spirit of prayer seems poured upon me, that our country, our 
gt)spel, &c., &c., may be preserved. I enjoy liberty in pleading 
that we may not be given un into the hands of our enemies ; but 
have no promise as yet. I tremble for the ark. How do yon 
feel with -regard to these matters ? Has Mr. H. arrived 1 The 
young man at Hope Chapel is doing well ; things look better. 

I have ventured to write freely to some of the preachers re- 
specting the present appearances among them ; which they for« 
give, and tell me tiiat the Lord is still doing great things in dif- 
ferent places. Write me soon, and re&e& ray heart, and 
stnngtheB my lund»; by prayer is aecxet^jud iiiyow buds sad 

.396. ttn or labt x^xwblz.. 

dMMt. Mtiifiil pnyer, what may not be done fay it. An 
inoreate of eTorv ftpihtpal blessing be your portion, prays 
Your friend in Jesus, D. MaxwblZi. 

TO MRS. joHirsov. 

^osemoimt, June 17, 1794. 

Deer Mrs. Johnson is upon-my mind daily at a throne of grace, 
hut . still an embargo has been laid lipon my pen. What a 
mercy is the mutual benefit, by the exchange of a letter now and 
then, when our almighty Friend graciously permits. O, who is 
a God like unto our God ? Since I wrote last, I have experi- 
enced much of the divine goodness-^much indsseribabiy sweet 
nearness to and sinking into Jehovah : holy fMlowship with the 
Father and the Son,- which sinks self into nothing. My God is 
ever with me ; O how condescending ; I can neitber express nor 
explain it, but it is well known to my friend. With all this, I 
am kept little and poor in my own eyes ; experience many strip- 
ping seasons and spring .tides of painful temptations from the 
powers of darkness. I belieye these enlarge my -receptive pow- 
ers ; for frequently, soon after, there is such an influx of Deity, 
such glorious displays of iiiture ^loiy, as fill with wonder, and 
love> and silent adoration. I find the truth of these wor<ib, 
*^ Israel shall dwell a!on&" 1 meet with few that .understand 
my language-; and if they did, L often find that, words cannot con- 
vey an adequate idea of the work and ways of the Lcard) in these 
inner and higher walks of the Christian life. And yet I seem 
so far short of what the Lord often shows me is myi^rivilege, in 
point of enjoyment and conformity to the divine image, that Ifeel 
ashamed ; and grieve because my progress. i» so small. Help 
me to get forward. I sometimes think that the abstract of my 
life is a continual passhig through the veil of outward things, ai^ 
gasping to live more folly in God. I am kept in perpetual pur- 
suit of higher attainments, that I may he capacitated to bring 
more glory to God, as well as to enjoy him more. How cleady 
is the g^and prize set before me 1 Almost every morning my 
soul is. fired and filled with a holy ambition, for the full posses- 
sion of every purchased and promised blessing ; but still I do 
not> attain : restless, resigned, I wait for it. I long now to find 
words sufficiently plain to convince you how poor, how un- 
worthy, how unfruitful J am. The Lord knows it, and I feel it; 
yet cannot properly describe it ; bat beg you will ^o me the jus- 
tice to believe it. 

I still feel much On account of public affairs ; what adds to 
my suflfering is, the most piercing convictions of the astonishing 
long suffering, patience, and goodness of the Lord. This pene- 
trates my inmost soul, makes me blush and be ashamed to en- 
treat fi» our guilty land. I so feel the weight of the imqnity of 


1M all: and bare aadi Tiews of bia conaummate "wiadoin, aod 
boundless love, that I am silent before him ; and sink into hia 
will. Yet, again, when I take a view of the distress of my fel- 
low countrymen; what we are exposed to^ what variegated 
misery, &c., I ,again open my mouth, and plea4 much.* Prayer 
ia poured forth in public, and private, and secret ; great the ex* 
ertions for the spread Qf the gospel at hoiae and abroad ; and tha 
Lord is greatly reviving bis work in some parts of England. 
These things lead me to think he will not make an utter end of 
us : but chastise us in a measure. 

I was led very remarkably to the appointing aa hour of prayer, 
every morning, from seven to eight, to entreat the Lord for 
mercy, in the present painful crisis of church . and state ; I pro- 
posed it also to many, both clergy and private Christians, high 
and low ; and thpy have most cordially engaged with me, to meet 
at a throne of grace in our several apartments. The Lord has 
given much liberty hitherto to several. Will Mrs. Johnson give 
us the aid.of her prayers, and mention it to some of her p]:-ecioua 
fellow pilgrims ? 

How does the XiOrd^s W(»rk prosper in your bands ? Is peace 
yet res^red to contending partiea \ We have aweet times here 
m the select band> and in the class which meets in my house* 
Q bow fully does Jehovah reveal hlmaelf in the latter ! 

If J'can procure time, I will enclose a few linea to Miss R. : 
if not, tell her I will write her the first opportunity. . This loiijf 
epistle requires an apology. I forgot to aay that my daily peti- 
tions ascend that all: your corporeu powers and mental faculties 
may be continued in vigour, till you are called hence. Believe 
me, with Christian regard, 

Your fellow pilgrim, &c., D.Maxwsll. 

CHAPTElt XXX;— 1796. 
Diary and correspondence continued. ~ 

Jan. S. On a retrospect of the last year, I find much cause 
to aay God has dealt well and kindly with me. My receipts of 
mercy have been many ; for soul, body, and outward estate. At 
times, the intermediate space has been checkered with various 
triala : yet eftill I have been supported under them, and often 
delivered from them. My heart has been enlarged towaird the 
poor in general, and to the household of faith more particularly ; 
and my powers of supply have been increased. In the course of 
the year I have been much tried with one particularly painful 
exercise, which has seemed rather to weaken than strenjfth^n my 
hands ; but has been permitted for good reasons. The Lord baa 
* The habeas cciyos at wia suapendad at this tiass in Englsad. 

328 LifS Of LA9Y UAXWVkt. 

more sensibly thait usasl owne^ my attempts for hit glofy and 
the good of my fellow creatures. Agreeably to my request^ he 
gave me a token for good on the last day of the year ; but Uie 
Irst day^ was ushered in with more unexpected trials. May all 
be blessed ! I am again called to rejoice on account of the great 
success of the gospel, more, especially in Ireland. Lord, con- 
tinue and increase it, and in many plaees ! 

March 13. (Friday.). Still I hare to acknowledge the receipt 
of mercies, spiritual and temporal. On Sabbath last, I found it 
eood to wait on God in public. From the text. Revelation iir, 3, 3, 
I was led to examine if I had lest ground : if I had fallen from 
my first lore. In the presence of the Searcher of hearts, I 
found liberty to conclude I had not ; on the contrary, my lore 
was^more matured ; my knowledge of God, and of the things of 
God, sensibly increased ; my nearness to Deity greater ; the 
manifestations of his love and po\^r more frequent ; and my 
power to confess and act fo^ him, his cause, and people, sencabt|r 
increased. But still I felt cause to lament that I had not been 
more faithful, more fruitful,, and also to admire the long'suiferihg 
patience of my God toward me. Found Christian fellowship un 
last Sabbath strengthening, and still more so on Tuesday erei^ing- ; 
and, on Thursday morning, the communion of saints was, of a 
truth, most refreshing. JehoTah appeared dear to the eye of 
faith, and his presence was most sensibly experienced by those 

S resent. I felt increasing power to mention his great and con- 
escending kindness to me,- to those that feared his name. I 
Uess him, he is daily' teaching me lessons of faith and love, and 
helping me to improve them to the utmost. He gives me many 
swe^t proofs that he is the Hearer of prayer, and in many ia* 
stances disappoints my fears, and gives many opportunities of 
acting, for him, both by more immediately promoting his cause 
and more remotely assisting his people. 

April 3. (Friday.) Through the tender mercy of my God I 
have continued to enjoy a nCeasqre of the blessing bestowed on 
Monday week. On Sunday last, in the morning, in public, the 
Lord comforted me by his smiles and presence during a lecture 
from the S^th, 30th, and 3 Ist verses of the 11th chapter of He- 
brews, especially the 3Ist. He also gave me comfortable season* 
in secret prayer. Having several difficult services and duties to 
perform in the course of the past eight days, I was enabled to 
trust in the Lord, and he helped me, and brought me through 
them all : thongh not so as to please my self y yet so as to gain the 
acceptance of those for whom they were designed. I may aay^ 
in some sense, with the psalmist, thi^ough my God I leap over 
walls, and overcome troops. He gives me to se$ znifeel how 
feeble and weak I am; how inadequate to any exertion; add 
yet, he brings me through many difficulties : and, had I stronger 
* rlihoiiidaMgieaierthiBfilhttillitae. L«pd,iBGmsemy 


faith ! This kst week he hts given me a most unexpeeied op- 
portunity of serving his cause : O that he taaj sensibly counte- 
nance the attempt t Hare been more tempted for some dajrs 
past than usual, fVom a quarter that pains me. I see the cloven 
foot : give, Lord, the victory, and thine sfaidi be the gk^ ! I 
am too outward, I have need to pray to be more constantly and 
religiously recollected ; more attentive to an indwelling God ; 
every moment realising his presence. my 6od, do . these 
things for me, that I may glonfy thee more ; may profit others, 
and enjoy more constant commnnion with Deity in my own soul. 
Still prospects are gloomy respecting public affairs, but since 
last date I have had the comfort of a spirit of piayer. Meetings 
for prayer are prevailing in many parts, of Amerioa, amoi^ 
various denominations, who are all heartily oniting in sopi^i- 
cating a throne of grace for meiey in these troablesome and 
nerilous times; also in Edinburgh, Glasgow, &e , &c. The 
tx>rd hear and answer in mercy ! 

June S6. He that is rich in mercy hath dealt with a bountir 
fbl hand toward me since last date. On Saturday last, in the 
morning, while by the way, m^ Jesus- felt delightfully nigh ; my 
views of him, and my lelation to him, dear. In the evening 
when in social prayer JehoVah seemed to fill the plaoe with his 
presence. In a moment I felt wrapped up in Deity ! all around 
was God ! and all within confessed h^ nearness ! I enjoy^ much 
sweet liberty in pleading with him. On Sabbath, enjoyed the 

Srivilege of his bouse, and afterward the communion of saints, 
^n Monday, when with others, in an unexpected moment, again 
JehoTah broke in upon my soul, and I felt swallowed up ia a 
penetrating sense of the divine presence ; lost in wonder. O that 
these frequent manifestations may answer gieat purposes ! My 
soul breathes for this, and for their ccmtinuance ! at least, for a 
permanent power to endure, every moment, as seeing the Invi- 
sible : Ibr uninterrupted fellowship with the saored Three, so far 
as fallen nature will permit. On Thursday, was fiBivoured wiUi 
greater privileges than were expected, which also required greater 
exertion than usual ; but my God carried me through, though 
not with so much comfort as on som'b similar occasions. But if 
he is glorified, and his creatures profited, f am satisfied. Upon 
the whole I hope I get nearer to God : but have muoh to bear 
from my^lf. My soul thirsts for a more enlarged sj^ere of 
usefulness, and greater faithfulness in that I move in at present. 
I want stronger evidences of sanctification both from the fruit 
and witness of the Spirit: and more equality of spirit, temper, 
and affection. 

28. Friday and Saturday last were days of unusual lan- 
guor. I felt unable for any vigorous exertion, either of faith or 
works ; and was pained thereby and humbled. In these trying 
seasons I avoid all esamintiHon and reasoning* The Utter 1 

180 Lira or IiAbv maxwsll. 

hsre been oraeli freedl from, since I tasted the pove ]ot« of God. 
I proTe the frequent actings of simple faith the most profitajble 
exercise of mind at these times. On Sunday a happy change 
took place. I was in a Tery peculiar degree in the spirit on £e 
Lord's day, and tasted largely of the good word of God, and fe)t 
in the most lively manner the powers of the world to come, from 
the time I entered the house of God. The words of the second 
hymn led me involuntarily to self-examination, when the Lord 
seemed to bring to my reraembrahce the whde of his dealings 
with me in the work of conTcrsion. He showed mo that I had 
not rested in the drawings of the Father, but followed with % 
heart sincere while under them; clearly pointed out the time, 
snd plaee, when he first gave me a sense of his forgiving love ; 
and afterward made me a happy partaker of his pore lore.. Not 
that these memorable seasons had ever been forgotten by me; 
no, while memory lasts they will erer be deei4y engraven on it ; 
but I found this a corroborating eridenoe of the truth of the 
Lord's work in my soul ; more especially from the beginning oif 
an exposition on 3d, 4th, 5th, and 6th yersesof the 34th Psalm, 
Jehorah seemed to fill the i4ace with such a solemn sense of 
his presence as penetrated my inmost sool ; and arrested not 
only the powers of the mind, but of the body : all was 5^, and 
•«2f coniened, God is here. No actings of faith seemed noces- 
nary on my part. For the time faith seemed lost in enjoyment : 
not in ecstatic joy ; but solemn awe and silent love ; both which, 
in a peculiar manner, mark all my interyiews with Jehovah. To- 
ward the close, God the Son, and God the Hoty Ghost, made 
me equally sensible of their psesenee : the undivided Trinity 
seemed to overshadow me ; and I had a clearer v4ew of the per- 
sonality of the Holy Ghost than for some time past. £zc^t 
on these remarkable occasions when he is thus set before me, I 
lun generally led to view him as the divine Agent in man's sal- 
vation; who, from time to time, takes of the things of Christ, 
and shows them unto his peoi^e as his peculiar office. This 
most remarkable mknifestation continued all theday, and thipogh 
mercy to the present moment : only with this, diiSerence, ihkt 
my fellowship is still more with the Father himself. My great 
desire is to^rove tfie transforming influence of these graoioos 
visits ; and i am aware, also, how requisite, how necessary it is 
to double my guard by watching and prayer; lest the arch ad- 
versary gain any advantage ever me, and I should gxteve the 
Holy Ghost. Lord, assist me, and veake me grateful. 

July 10. Still my God continues to do me good, and visits, 
I trust, /or that purpose, alternately with joys and sorrows : the 
former comforts ' and supports ; the latter empties of sidf^ as it 
respects cor^idence and complaeency ; and thereby fits the sool 
for greater discoveries of the love of God, through the go^ 
channel, without the danger of ^iritoal pride ; and leads by a 

irira or LAHv KAXWsix. S81 

Uesdog to the tranbforming ' inilaenoe of tbese mercifiil yisHa- 
tions. iTet, estdttsive of powerfiil renewals of them, how soon 
does a lively sense of the most lively manifestations of olivine love 
die away : how much am I then indebted to a gracioas God for 
fto frequently repeating them. Lord, what can I render to thee ! 

enable me to surrender myself more unreservedly to thy honour, 
and glory, and cause ; apd enlarge my tdmporal borders for thia 
purpose. On Sunday last, my God exerted his power in my be- 
half, out of weakness made me strong, and^ earried me a consi- 
derable way from hereto conunemorate the dying love of Jesus ; 
where and when as mneh of the divine goodness was allowed me 
fts the body would permit. Soon after was visited with bodily 
tffliction, which threatened to be severe ; but the progress en 
the disease was soon checked by Him Who hath all things in 
Ittie natural, moral, and religious world under his eontrd. Though 
iBf pain was great,< and my mind much flattened by it, yet I did 
not lose a sense of what the Lord had bestowed on me on hie 
•own day, neither have I to the present moment. My hearth 
desire is, the sanctified nse of every di^tisation ; with a wiS 
still inore ewallowed up in the divine will. I have to record, to 
'Uie glory of my God, and his condescending goodness, that he 
has done away the unexpected trials mentioned formerly, and 
given me my desire respecting the subjects of them. Truly, 
'**'it is better to trust in the Lord than in princes.^' O my Goa, 

. eontinde and increase thy goodness ; quicken my powers ; give 
vtill stronger evidence of thy purifying love ; more power to live 
thy fidUi : and dordially to embrace all thy will. 


July a, 1785. 
Yout leuera» Rev. sir, aire ijways welcome, but your last I 
^eipeeived with peculiar satisfaction ; feanng, though consciotta ef 
.the parity of my intention, that my last had either offended or 
mmd, I sincerely thank you for taking in a Christian spirit what 
Utook Uie liberty of suggesting. My conscience bears me witnesi^ 

1 have no desire in this painful boainess, but that light may be giv^ 
tO'disoov^ the will of God ; and power and inclination to walk 
in it. The work is his ; and I believe the workers are all his 
also, and aU aim at the same, mark; the glory of their divine 
Master, and the good of precious souls : though their views, as 
to the best method 6f securing these great ends, are different. 
I used lobe pextial to the old. plan, of communicating in the 
«fanz€h ; and l^aght that being no distinct body, but ready to 
assist all parties, was the way the Lord owned, and the most 
likely for extensive usefulness. I believe this was Mr. Wes* 
ley's judgment also ; acd that he ever in any measure departed 
firom it, was, I believe, in consequence of his earigkud desigUy of 


fMawinif the openings of fremdence. And,' could tb» be 
always <uearly knows, and embraced in a spirit of JoTe, all woaki 
be well. Love will prove a etrong eement to unite the whole 
body ; and if, in particular placesf circumatancee make it expe- 
dient to diffisr from the ^neral plan with respect to giving the 
sacrament, &c., still there will be no breach ; all may Une alike, 
though they do not act in every tittle alike. But I forbear, and 
would conclude by saying, through mercy I enjoy sweet inward 
liberty, having no^arty feelings, but earnestly desiring the wifl 
of God, the union of preachers, and great success in the work 
assigned to each, I would trust, by their great Master. 

I pray that you may meet in a spirit of love, continue in it, 
during the discussion of many important points ; and depart in 
it, full of iaith and of the Holy Ghost, 

It was with peculiar satisfaction I received your accounts of 
the prosperity of the work. May it increase with all the ineieaae 
of God ; and a larger share of it be your portion, as a proof te 
all that the Lord is with yon. I shall be uixious, if you can 
■pare a minute, to inform me how i^atters have gone. I trust 
the sound of division Or discord shall not wound my ear. 

I must add (as I always write freely to ^u) my obligations to 
redeeming love increase : my fellowship with the Father, of late, 
is particularly deep and sweet: and from time to time I am 
frivoured with remarkable manifestations of divine love. Do let me 
know how to improve them to the utmost ; how to grow up into 
Christ my living Head more rapidly. The more I live by simple 
faith, the clearer is the witness for purity of heart. At present, 
I feel becahned in the ocean of redeeming love. Jjately, I have 
been much tried, tempted, and variously exercised, fiut even 
then, O how graciously nigh was my God ; making even my 
enemies at neace with me. His goodness beggars all expression. 

But lest 1 be tedious, as your time is much .occupied, I will 
eondude. No remarkable increase here. Mr. B. is nseiul to 
individuals, and much liked. Messrs. C. and E., if removed, 
will, I hope, be succeeded by those united to the pkce. Wish- 
ing Mr. Mather an increase of ever^ purchased and promised 
blessing, I remain hif well wisher m Jesus, 

D. MAXwnj..* 


October 19,1705. 
I have long wished to hear from Mrs. Johnson, and at times, 
when in secret, before the Lord, have been led to think she vraa 

* The abo^e letter shows the solicitude felt by Lady Maxwell for the 
welfare of that body of Christians to which she was united, at a time 
when the discussion of certain points of discipline threatened, for a short 
season, to distnxb the peace ana unity of the eoaaeetiiiD. 


qoder the rod. His Spirit has eotiried me to p ead for her, as 
thus situated ; and by recent aeeoanta from Mrs. C, I find my 
appreheneioBS vrere just. Your God, as fonnerly, I doubt not . 
has been with you in the fomaee ; to sapport, to eomfort, and to 
make yon sing for mercy, as well as judgment. /Perhaps you 
will not thank me for saying that I hope the Lord will keep yon 
% little longer in this vale of tears, and give yon to see yet more 
of the fruit of your labours, for his name^s sake. By your last, 
M»me months ago, it appeared he was enlarging your sphere of 
usefulness; I hope it is still the case. 

Much praise is due to the Father of mereies for the peace 
and union he fal^s restored to our Zion ; it is his own doing, and 
may well be marTellons in our eyes. O that the happy fruits 
of it may more and more a|>pear. During the long and painful 
agitation, my mind was kept in peace, free from prejudice and 
undue warmth^, end^ayouring to commit both parties to him, 
that both might be led into his holy will. And O, how gra- 
ciously hath he dealt with both : surely he heareth prayer. De^ 
and sweet has been my fellowship with the saered Three since 
I last wrote, but more especially with Gpd the Father ; rich and 
frequent the discoveries of bis love, Aw perfect love. The teach- 
ings of his Spirit, and bumbling views of sel/t have been very 
clear ; and he seemed to empty, in order to fill. I prove these 
stripping times very favourable to a life of simple faiths Eter- 
nity will not be too long wherein to praise my God, for the 
lessons he hath taught me, respecting this great duty and pri- 
vilege of living by faith. Great are its effects ; but I am slow 
in learning the lessons of his grace, though he condescends to 
give line upon line and precept upon precept. Sweet ^has been 
my enjoyment, and many, my advantages, in being taught to put 
in practice the lessons he has given me of tr%tsting in him^ in . 
every situation ; but% especially in difiicult cases. He has^ and 
does point out my way, giving me to hear, as it were, a voice, 
(though no articulate sound,) '* This i^ the way, walk ye in it :" 
so strong has been the notice upon my mind, of the path of 
duty. He is indeed a soul-satisfying portion ; he is my God 
and my alL But though thus blessed at times, I have seasons 
of close trial ; the combined powers of darkness seem engaged 
against me, while there appears no |Jower in me to combat such 

Powerful foes, such an army of aliens : yet simply looking to 
esus by faith, endeavouring to trust in'tbe Lord my God, ab- 
stracted from creature, lookuig above them, I am supported. I 
am delivered so evidently by 4he arm, not of flesh, but of Jeho' 
vah himselfj that nothing is left me wherein to glory. I am 
sweetly constrained to give the glory where alone it is due. I 
have admired the goodness of noiy God of late; that^ even in the 
heat of battle, he hath made my evidences of his pwe love 
strong, even to meridian brightoess ; mueh most «d than when 

3M Lws or uu>v ]iJLMna.£^' 

ibva v»8 peioe is all my borders. This aptwared tltft more 
remarkable to me, becaaae I always seemed to be sensiUe of a 
.dttficiency on such oecaaions. 

For a week or two past, I have, felt a degree of lieaviness 
through manifold temptations; but by quietly trusting in the Lord, 
and avoiding all hasty conclasions, he has given me clearly to 
see that his work is going on in my soul. To him I would leaTs"- 
the way and manner. My soul unifonnly desires the prosperity 
of Zion ; it seems my meat and drink to promote it : and he, ift' 
his adorable providence, still opens many unexpected v^ays, and 
shmes on my feeble attempts. 

But I hate been particularly tried lately by the Ibss of a young 
nan, who has been of great use to me. He taught my week-day 
school, consisting of fifteen children; and superintended xpy 
Simday school, in which these are at present upward of sixty 
young men, remarkably alive to God ; and many young women, 
truly desirous to flee from the wrath to come. Many hundreds 
also flocked to hear him on the Lord*s day evening, to whom he 
appeared greatly blessed. But he and many otliers thought the 
light shone clear for his going to Sierra Leone as a missionary. 
Ik> pray for aauccessor according to God^s own heart ; and that 
nqr poor labours may be increaeed, and my^wn soul greatly 

Remember me kindly to Miss Ritchie. I h^ve Icng expected 
to hear from her. Wishing you a still deeper acquaintance with 
the sacred Three ; still more power to glorify Him who liveth 
forever ; and an interest in your prayers that I may wax stronger 
and stronger, ** sink deeper and rise higher ;" and with many 
pnnrers for the prosperity of your society, and Christian respecte 
to Mrs. Cole and Atmore, I am dear Mrs. Johnson^s friend im 
Jesus, D. Maxwsll. 

CHAPTER XXXI.— 179fl, 

Diary and correspondence continued. 

January 6. (Friday.') Still I find cause to make mention of the 
loving kmdness of the Lord. Since last Friday my God faasj 
in various ways, i^hown me his goodness. On Sunday last, I was 
permitted to show forth the death of Jesus, when he spoke to 
my heart by his servant. He has allowed some sweet seasons 
in secret prayer, with much of the communion of sainta. Yes- 
terday, as he'often does Cn that day, he was remarkably gracious 
when with a few of his children in social prater. Jesus drew 
sweetly and most sensibly nigh : O how glonous did he appear 
totheeyeofiaiih! how altogeOier lovely! How irtededUly 

ittfMtm his loTe! Throqgb him, I had w6oem to JehoTftii» 
vAum» -dirine presence I as sensaUy felt ; but it was all in ^w^ 
dignity of QoA the Father, which solemmxed ray mind, and filled' 
with atiCXvA awe, so that I rejoiced with deep rerereBce. Tl^: 
distinctioa, in the manifestatien of dirine loYe proceeding raore^ 
inmediateiy from Jehoyah himself, ant^Drody marks all the inter- 
cenrae I am privileged to enjoy with him. I pant for power to 
impvore it more, by earnest prayer. I feel as if hitherto I had 
as^d nothing, while the Lord seems to say, " Ask, and receiyof 
that your joy may be full." Through mercy, I am still kept aa 
in the dast. My views of self are truly humbling ; and I am still 
desirous of lying lower, as preparatory to larger attaiioments in 
the divine life. My evidences of sanctification have not been sa 
clear. I have been resting too much in present enjoyment ; but 
the Lord calls on me to prew forward. I get more extensive 
views of entire devotion of heart and life. Help me, holy Father, ■ 
to attain. I am drawn to a greater and more constant resizing 
of the divine presence, and to an endnring as seeing Him who im. 

Masch 2$. (Friday.) I have nothing to say for myself, if it. 
is- not to confess and mourn, over my shortcomings. I feel it 

Sdnfcd'to have this so often to repeat : but so it is. O my- 
pd, shall I ever live at this poor dying rate: forbid it, gracious; 
Lord. Let a stroke of omnipotence set me freej from this iB&> 
biUty to live up to my privileges. I would, with th^ servant of 
old, be able to say, though *' of myself I can do nothing, tbroogh 
Christ strengthening me I can do all things." Hasten, h(3y 
Father, the happy time. 

Had again another Of^ortunity of renewing my engagement to. 
be the Lcnrd's, at his own table, on Sunday last, wl^re he wia. 
gracious. When joining the congregation, in that delightful part 
of pttbUc worship, singing the praise of God, the great Master 
of the goispel feast came djoi^n m the power of bis Spirit. Jeans 
felt nigh* and very precious, during a sermon from the 5th and- 
6th verses of the 53d chapter of Isaiah. Qod the Faiher akof 
oondiooended to visit with a sweet sense of hispresence. My' 
inmost sonl felt pierced with deep astonishment at the height and 
depth of redeeming love. It seemed a niyBtery, my limited under-' 
standing could not eompreh<fend, and, indeed, how should jfimte. 
minds ftilly nnderstand the doings of an m^ntto Being. I bieaif - 
the Lord, who has given me to brieve and' taste of redeeming 
love, which is more necessary ; and daily to thirst after an 
increase. On the whc4e, it was a most solemn time, and, I hope, 
profitable. On Monday had a sweet visit from the adorable Sosi 
of God, when at a throne of grace. In the evening, a ^irit of 
prayer seemed to rest on me while Joining with a few living 
souls ; some of whom were wrestling with the Lord, in all ths 
power of prayer, in behldf of all preseat^of the.wcrk of God» 


and for Ihe best intaresto of mankmd in general* Jehovak i 
down ; my whole soal confessed a present God. O why do not 
these precious manifestations, so oftei^repeated, prove of a more 
transforming nature. O my €rod, remove the cause, that I may 
praise thee. The Lord has granted another of my requests, 
since last date, and one more seems in a good train. Surely 
h» heareth the cries of his children. O my God, remem- 
ber especially one of these still unanswered ; it is well known 
to thee, with the necessity of it. Let me have cause to praise 
thee for a favourable answer to it before I again take up my pen; 

April 8. (Friday.) Again I take up my pen, and though I 
have mercy to record, sfill I feel cause to mourn. For some 
we^s, I seem to have been brought into straits, that I might 
see a display and breaking, forth of the ^ory of my God afr^. 
For this I have waited, and looked, and prayed ; but still hk 
chariot wheels delay. At times I must own there has been 
something of this kind ; but it was not lasting. Yesterday, for 
a few minutes, I prayed to him as cireumstances would permit, 
and of a truth he quickly answered ; prayer brought him down ; 
in a^ moment he was nigh ; and I felt thsft *' where the Spirit of the 
Lord is, there is liberty.'^ A song of praise was put in my 
mouth : it seemed as if I were on holy ground. A reverential 
»we, sweetly tempered with love, rested upon me. The second 
person in the iadorable Trinity also visited me, and brought with 
him a heaven of love. I felt as if Deity was present, and passing 
quickly by me ; yet leaving the divine impress behind. My mouth 
was opened ; I was saved Srom sterility of , thought, and banrenness 
of expression ; and I made mention of the loving kindness of the 
Lord : when he is nigh, every mountain flows down, and streams 
break out in the desert. On Sabbath morning last, also, in 
puUic, I felt, a lively, deep^ solemn sense of the presence of 
Jehovah ; it seemed to arrest all the powers of my mind ; but it 
IB sometlnng still- greater, and permanent, that I look and long 
for. Strongly impressed with the necessity of constant i«ayer, 
I would be pouring out my heart continually ; yet often when I 
bow my knee all my kindling ardours die. away, and at night 
have the mortification to find another day gone, and little gained : 
I feel bowed down on these accounts. Shall my deeures alwavc 
so far outstrip my attainments ! O my Father, let it not be. la 
temporal concerns, desire is termed the hectic of the fool ; but 
not so surely in i^iritual matters. Convince me, O thou Hearer 
of prayer, that it is not. 

September 30. (Friday.) Since my last, my joys and com- 
forts have run in a low channel. At times, when calling to 
remembrance the goodness of my God, immediate comfort has 
sprung up in my heart ; but it has not long continued. Tempt- 
ations have not been wanting,, to call in question what was 
qpolmn from on hi^h. It: hu been asked, ** Has the Lord indeed 


said soT^ Thl? hath been the manner of the grand adversary at 
God^s people from the beginning.' Lord, counteract all his mali- 
cious designs against me, and enable me to rise superior to them 
all. , Upon the whqle, since Saturday last, I have felt much lan- 
guor of spirit, which grieves me ; yet my God hath given me 
victory, sensible victory in some cases, and I look for more, I 
have felt much the want of a wrestling spirit in secret prayer ; 
yet have j>roved it good to )^ait on the Loi^ in that exercise. I 
have been in heaviness through manifold temptations and some 
perplexities. I fee| we are come to. a most: eventful period. 
Gfreat events seem in the womb of providence ; prospects are 
dark as to some tilings, akid cheer iiig as to others : judgment 
seems at hand. A,nd yet the right hand of the Loid is in ap- 
peajance made bare in the conversion of sinners in many places ; 
in a growing spirit of prayer poured on multitudes; and the 
hearts of thousands are stirred up to seek the conversion of 
heathen nations ; while a spirit of mquiry seems resting on many 
of God's ancient people; with other appearances that would lead 
to hope the time for their returning is ctrawing nigh. Lord, thou 
knowest all things, and sittest at the helm of affairs, with the 
reins of providential government in thy hands : this is matter of. 
sdid comfort to thy people. shine itSore fully on the soul of 
thy handmaid, and enable her in every situation so to trust in 
thee as to be kept in perfect peace. Have mercy on our sinful 
island, seemingly ripe for judgments. Help^ Lord, ftwr the glory 
ofthyname. " ^ 

Ociober 28, (!)? riday.) ' My God has been graeious since last 
date. On Sabbath last, the word preached in the morning,- from 
Rev. XX, 12, he made a word of consolation, of quickening, of 
instruction : Deity felt very nigh. By faith,l had such a real- 
izing view of the triumpliant entry of the Lord Jesus into heaven 
upon his ascension, after having finished his great work ia tha 
redemption of mankind, as astonished-me^ Lord, make it pro- 
fitable, bn Monday eveningji in my way to the house of the 
tiord, God the feather so manifested himself to me fis I can no- 
wise express. For a moment, I started back^ fearing it might 
prove a prelude to great sufferings, hut soon recovered' ; and still, 
when I look up to him, he feels at hand. How is it, Lord, that 
I do not make greater progress 1 Thou art good, and my soul 
pants after the full possession of every new-covenant blessing. 
O Lord, transform me more fully into the divine image ; and let 
thy Spirit witness with mine that T do love thee with all my 
heart. O fill nke with the finiit of the Spirit, and make me much 
more useful to thy church and p.eople. Thou knowest I esteem 
this my highest honour and richest privilege. I fear living a 
useless life : forbid it, Lord. I deeply fe^l my shortcomings, let 
me not always make my moan : put a song in my mouth, and 
enaJble me every moxnen': to live by faith upon thy Son. Withovt 

33& tm OF tADT MAXWELL. 

him, I can do nothing. The tide of satanical temptation has net 
run 80 high these last eight days. May patience ha v« its perfect 
Work in every trying time. 

Dec. 80. In the course of providence, I am brought now 
Tery near the close of another year. O that every revolving sea- 
son* may find me imprtiyed tmd advanced in the divine li^. I 
would hope, in some de^ee, they meet me most sincerely aim- 
ing at this ; and that, though slowly, they find ' me in motion. 
Greatly quicken it, gracious Lord. Yesterday my God gave me 
a token for good. In the midst of hurry, he drew utte}q)ectedly 
near, and spread a heavenly tranquillity through my mind ; and 
just afler opened my mouth remarkably in conversation with one 
of his own ministering saints upon the rich privileges of the 
Christian even in this life. Soon after, when with three of his 
ministering servants, in the course of prayer, praise, and Chris- 
tian coAference, he renewed the view of the sacred Trinity given 
me last week, and we all found it gox>d to wait on God. After 
dinner, I found much liberty of speech on the peculiar enjoy- 
ments of the Lord's people who live up to their privileges ; those 
of them that are taught from on hi^h to live by simple faith on 
the Son of God. Lord, teach me this important lesson more 
folly. Still I am kept in constant pursuit of higher attainments 
in the divine life. Do, holy Father, give them, and cause me 
also to sink lower in my own eyes,>nd to rise higher and get 
nearer to thee. In general, th^ great object of entire devotion i^ 
set before me every morning, and strongly thirsted after : but O, 
how slowly do I move, and through what a crowd of hinder- 
ances. Through the day was kept in the midst of trial, and 
made thankful for it. Evermore, Lord, make majiifest thy 
strength in my weakness. 


June 28, 179^ 
After a long interval, I had the satisfaction to receive dear 
Miss Ritchie's letter the end of April. I had no design to drop 
the correspondence, and am pleased that an opportunity now 
opens for renewing it, though my situation does not always ad- 
mit of those regular returns I could wish. Since I wrote last, 
my obligations to redeeming love have been greatly increased. 
In vain would I attempt to enumerate them ; they are, indeed, 
more than the hairs of my head. Time would fail to tell of the 
numberless manifestations of divine love and power. I have, 
though deeply unworthy, been favoured with such wonderfiiHet-. 
tings into Deity as no language can describe or explain ; but the 
whole soul dilates itself in the exquisite ^enjoyment ; so refined, 
so pure, so tempered with sacred awe, so guarded by heavenly 
solenmit^, as effectually to prevent all irregiilarlty of desires ; 
these, with every j>ower of th^ mind, bow in holy subjection 


fjBforeJeboTah. Surelj the feelings of the soul, on these inemo<» 
rable occasions, are nearly similar to those enjoyed by the 
beavenly inhabitants. 1 have it still to remark, that all my inter- 
course with &od the Father is strongly marked with that superior 
4io1emnity 9^i awe which lay and keej^ the soal in the dust, yet 
raise itto that holy di^i\y which flows from a consciousness of 
union with Deity : and lore matured makes it the willing servant 
of all for Christ's sake. ' * 

My full heart &6uld say much on this delightful subject, but 
necessary calls to various chitiiis oblige me to abridge my viewi 
aiid experience of these deep ^ings of God . What follows must 
be a short abstract. In the course of a few years past, I have 
made sensible progress in self-knowledge ; leoined net only the 
depth of the fall, b»t the universality of its effects upon every 
power of the human mipd. These have been humbling, but pro« 
fitable lessons, (ind hftve proved preparatory to Iftrger measures 
of grace — ^more especially to that near and dear fellowship with 
Jehovah* \yhich he has condescended to allow me for some 
iQonsiderable thne. During' this pjeripd he has also steeped 
to teach me larg'efy of the natufe.of simple fiuth;Jiow n^ces* 
sary to stability |q the ways of God; how recjuisite for un-, 
ihten-upted communion with hearen i how pleasing to Jehovah ; 
how effectual in counteracting the malicious designs and subtle 
devices of the ^eat -adversary of man ; how {)Owerfol to support 
the soul when called to combaj with the combined powers of 
■darkness, in the absence of heavenly joys, which otherwise 
would have sunk it into the mire of evil reasoning: Too much 
cannot be said of this wonderTWorking principle^^ Yet I am 
well aware that it has no intrinsic value of itself, but only as it 
sfands connected with its great object, the Lord Jesus Ghrist. 
The farther I go in the divine life, the more enlarged are my 
views of the Christian's privileges, se.that I am constrained te 
forget the things that are behind. I herein see the wisdom and 
goodness of my God, who thus prevents the danger of sinking 
too deep into present enjoyment. My whole soul says he doth 
all things well. It i^ almost impossible to say how far I find my* 
s'elf behind, both in Christian experience and also in activity ia 
the ways and cause of God : though my heart' heats high tor a 
more enlightened sj^Bere of usefulness, and much mate fidelity in 
the one in which I now move.- 

The Lord, I see, is^ still dealing very graciously with Miss 
Ritchie. How profitable are trials! She proves this, and also 
enjoys the peculiar comforts that are allowed under the cross, 
while both are improved for the elory of God and the profit of her 
fellow creatures. There is a wide field for this in Bristol and its 
environs. I hope the conciliatihg measures and manners of Mrs; 
J. and yourself wiH, bf the blessing of the Most High, greatly 
promote Christian love and union among the Lord's people. 


Flease give Christian love and bestm^es to Mrs. J. with 
Christian respects to Mrs. Cole and Atmore. I wish also to be 
x«nembered to Mr. and Mrs. P., and the many precious souls I 
Ind the |nrivilege 4^ beipg acquaiq^ed with at Bristol. . I should 
be bappt to hear, that evei^ dispute wa^ lost in love, and the 
work or the Lord prospering greatly : then they would willingly 
mnt me the aid of their warmest addresses at a throne of grace 
las my nqiid progress in the ways o( God. I nersir esteemed 
•a interest in the prayers of the Xo^'s people so highly as now. 

MaoT intenap^ons ,haTe caused numbeness inaccuraeles in 
this tedious epistle ; all which, I doubt not, will be overlooked 
by Misa Ritchie, w^ose friend I subscribe inyself, with Christian 
love, 1). Maxwill. 


July 11,1796. 

I meant, long before nowy to have told yon that it was witk 
aiislaction I perceived yon had |aken up your pen in defence 
of ^ that important btynch of doctrine and experience so little 
known by many Christians, and experienced by fewer, efUire 
sanet^Uwtieii. is the small manuscript treatise upon that sub- 
ject, a sight of which you ^vonred me with some years ago, 
never to see the light \ I wish ydu would go forward in the 
strength of the Lord, and fumi^ us. with a little volume ; com* 
plete, both as to doctrine and experience. It would, at least, be 
strei^hening to those whose minds have been so far enlightened 
as to believe the former, and enjoy the latter, in a small measure. 
It might, also, by the blessing of the Lord, be very useful in re- 
moving prejudices from the minds of honest, thoi^h ignorant 
inquirers ; and make the precious truth more extensively known. 
Hitheifto its boundaries ace within the line of Methodism : and, 
alas! how partially received even there. But there is reason to 
believe the time hastens on when this Une shall be stretched over 
the Christian world. Hail, auspicious day ! Let me entreat 
you, dear sir, to exert all yqor powers to embalm this predmu 
truth. Perhaps there are not many preachers in the connection 
ao mueh master of the subject. It will be rendering an essential 
service to the Christian world m general, and to the Methodist 
connection in particular. But I forbear : in this and all other 
matters, may you be taught of God himself. 

With rcayect to mvself, I am still enabled to testify of the 
goodness of the Lord. My fellowship with Jehovah is most 
sensibly increased of late.. At times, I am favoured with such 
lettings into Deity as far exceed my barren powers of expres- 
sion. I do not feel sterility of thought so much, for the Lord 
condescends to give soch glorious views of the Christianas privi- 
leges, and hy the light of a luminous faith enables me so to 


teiliz^ibtiffe waA waeeu things as I Bometimet think is surely 
akin to the beatific vision. what heights and depths I see 
before me ! What, as jet unezperienceS, degrees of nearness 
to, and close walking with, and rich enjoyment of, the sacred 
Three ! but more especially with Jehovah, I feel such a sink- 
ing into him, such a conscious union widi hitn, as lays me in the 
dust before him, and keeps me there. I never had, till of late, 
such piercii^g qonvictions of my nothingness, I^^uage fails to 
express what I, fed of this ; and I auppose it must increase as I 
set nearer to the Fountainhead : tilt I am^ swallowed up and 
K>st in the ocean of pure love. In the meantime, s]l my powers 
seem gatherlsd up. and centred in God, who allows me a holy^ 
fiuniliarity with himself that stamps a conscious dignity upon the 
soul, and seems to fit me for presmfU duty, however above mf 
natural abilities. This assistance is afforded im a way that 
proves its divine origin ; keeps me little in my own eyes 4 dis* 
{Ktsed to^ give the glory where alone it ia^due. .1 dp reap stifi 
much benefit from livmg by simple faith; it, indeed, brings 
•• deep peace and present power." 

I have to remark now, more than ever, the fulness of the 
divine presence in our Util^ class meeting here ; and something 
still more remarkable, (as there is often onl^. myself, and some- 
times two or three preachers,) there, is for the time an uncom- 
mon power given me to express my own experience. I seem 
carried above my own words, thoughts, and above my whole self, 
upon the subject of entire devotion, in my little way, on these 
occasions, my experience is much upon that subject. I have 
thought this must be for otherst If I can throw in even a mite 
into the divine freasuiy> I shall esteem it a peculiar privilege. 
I pray that you may all meet in the spirit of love and forbear* 
ance at the conference, and that the Ahnighty fiatmxy sanction 
¥0ur every determination : then all will be just as it should be. 
Wishing you much more than ever of the divine presence, and 
a still fuller testimony of the destruction of the bitter root, Hfith 
the sealing of the ^irit unto redempdoii^s day ; I am, Rev. sir, 
in Christian bonds^ 

Tour faithful, humble servant, D. Maxwell. 

CHAPTER XXXII.— 1797. . 

Diaiy and conrespondence^ continued. 

February 34. (Friday.) Still Hive, because my God is good. 
In the course of these eight days, I have at times been rather de« 
pressed on account of unfruitfulness. I would be all for God— 
every n«nre strung with holy afdour of desire to promote his 

84^ zm OF LAirr xaxwexa. 

'*au8e upon earth ; and yet I sfeem to do nothing. Lonf, ifit ik 
thy will, enlarge my sphere, and make me more faithful in the 
present narrow one io which I move. Thoii knowest every par- 
ticular in my present situation, and what my hinderances are» 
%Dd can easily rentove them. The periloo* situatioo of our land 
occupies many of my thoughts- and Words, both to God and man. 
Matters seem now to draw to a painfUl crisis. Blessed God, 
interpose ! undertake our cause : and, if not contrary to tl>y will, 
and derogatory to thy gTory, yet snare; and let the bitter cup 
pass from us, at least for a seasea. O hear the unceasing pr^yei^ 
El) I supplications that are ascending from every quarter; in. pub- 
lic, private, and secret. Thou hast^often, in former days, ap- 
j^ared remarkably for our sinful i^and. .Thott changest not. If 
our cup of iniquity be not already full, giacious Lord^ yet a&> 
ftiM us in bur extremity I )f it be, O J»pare thy own people ;--^ 
cover their heads — bide them ii> the heUow af thy band ! Speak^ 
Lord, for the glory of tlnr name. 

March 3. (Friday.) I hare some reason toti^iete tlMt th^ 
Lord has heard, and answered, since last date. Hie has put 
'Work in my hand I did not expect, and owned me in itf after 
eonvincing me deeply oftinfruitfulness. Last week I had a parr 
ticular call in providence, not only to arise myself, and pray for 
out guilty land, but to urge othets to ioiti me in the importaiit 
work of intercession. l%is call the Lord has so owned as to 
lOare not a shadow of doubt thai it came from himself He 
has inclined masy to unite in the sacred wmrk ; favoured with 
touch liberty fit a throne of grace; great comfort has been 
Experienced by some; together with soch a strong stimulus 
to prayer as has not often been found on former occasions ^ 
all which gives encouragement 'to believe solid good will be the 
testklt. Grant it, gracioas Lord, for thy name'ssake : and, though 
the beginning is small^ let it greatly increase. • 

— 10. (Friday.) 6ince the 3d instant, the Lord of heat^h 
knd earth, whom winds and waves obey ; who giveth victory or 
defeat) by sea or land, as he sees meet; hath appeared sig- 
nally in our behalf, guilty as we are. O how blind are those who 
do not see that the band of God, and not superior seamanship, 
is the grand cause that fifteen sail of British ships should overcome 
the Spanish fleet, consisting of twenty-seven. Not only cap- 
turing two fir^-rates of one hundred and twelve guns each, and 
two others, one of eighty and one of seventy guns, but also great- 
ly damaging several Others ; and thereby preventing their junc- 
tion with the French and Dutch fleets, who avowe^ owned 
their design of invading our little iriand. O Lord, it is thy do^ 
t«^, and may well be wondrous in our eyes : therefore t» thee 
be all the glory, to whom alone it is doe.* ^ Sorely prayer has 

* Tlus brilliant victory was obtained under th3 ooDunand of Sir John 
Jervis, oflf Cape St. Vincent, on the 14th of the preceding month; and 


been heard. O may we all be thankfal apd humble ! and d« 
thou, O Lord, grant thy blessing, and hear the prayfers offered 
up. Regard our late attempts to humble' ourselves by confes- 
sion on th« last day set apart as a national fast of Scotland ; and 
own a neighbouring nation, this day employed in the like solemn 
exercises. If possible, yet save us for thy name^ sake. Great 
was also the goodness of our God in defeating the^ attempt of a 
descent upon Irela.nd some months ago ; even after part of the 
enemy's forces were landed. He caused the wind to blow that 
scattered their fleet, and obliged them to return to port greatly 
damaged.* How wonderful is his jgoodness to his unworthy 
creatures ! O let it prove salvatiop to us ! Neither would we 
forget his recent appearance for us in Wales, when he caused 
twelve hundred troops, who had made good a knding on that 
coast, to lay down their arms, and surrender themselves as pri- 
soners of war, when only opposed by the militia and the coun-* 
try people, rising in a mass against thehi. How easily, if not 
"prevented 1^ the God of battles, might the enemy have over- 
come. \ Lord, may these memorable instances 'of thy goodness 
to us be written in indelible characters upon our hearts ; and ap- 
pear in our lives by universal obedience to thy commands. With- 
out this thorough reformation, by the faith of the gospel, though 
the fatal blow may be suspended for a season, it must take place ; 
and We may fear, with double severity, after having rendered 
ourselves doubly guilty by resisting every efibrt made fbr our 
April 14. Sabbath last, I was glad to go to the house of God 

acquired, for the British admiral the aj^propriate title of Earl of St. Yineent. 
Baint^s History of the Wart b. ii, ch. i, p. 181. 

* This CTacious interposition of Providence deserves to be farther no- 
ticed. " The republican government of ("ranee, perceiving a crisis in the 
situation of Ireland mote favoarable to the sacceas of an invasion than any 
«r^ich had occurred since the French revolution, seized that occasion to 
atrike a blow of no common importance. Fifteen thousand chosen troops, 
under the command of Hoche, were embarked at Brest, on the 15th De- 
cember, 1796 ; intended to act on their arrival with a body of the disaffected 
Irish, who ^*ere known lo be considerable in jnambers, and OTganiied for 
insurrection by chiefs of talents and intrepidity. Every thing being pie- 
pared, Admiral Vilkret Joyeuse ^et sail froni Brest with eighteen sail of 
the line, beside frigates and transports, while the general embarked with 
his staff on board the frigate La Fraternity. The wind at first was favoura- 
ble ; but scarcely had the expedition left the duter harbour, i^hen a storm 
arose which dispersed the^fleet, and separating the frigate which carried 
Hoche> obliged him to escan^ into the harbour of Rochelle, after weather- 
ing a dangerous cruise, ana being chased by two British vessels., Of the 
whole fleet, only eight two-deckers reached the coast of Ireland, under Ad- 
miral Bouvet, who appeared off Bantry Bay, but was forced from thai situa 
tion in a few days by tempestuoua weather, and obliged to return to France 
without effecting a landbg. ^ In this disastrous expediticm the French lost 
not less than three ships of the line and three frigates from the adverse 
elements." — Baitu^a History of the War, b.i, ch; xzii p. 167. 


in the morning, thoaglvmy ei^pectations were not fully answeriBd. 
On coming Lome soon after; I went to prayer with a Christian 
friend, without any enlarged expectations. Vet my gracious God 
and Father hroke into my soul in a wonderful manner ; and so 
clearly appeared to' the eye of faith, as sealed on a throne of 
grace, willing to hear and help, as astonished me ; and, if I may 
Bo express it, held out the sceptre of mercy, as a token of love 
and gracious acceptance, as King Ahasuerua did of old to Es- 
ther. This passage of Scripture immediately occurred to my 
mind ; but O, how different the condescension : the latter was 
but an earthly monarchy though he reigned over twenty-seveii 
provinces; the fonner, the King eternal, immortal, invisible, 
the only wise God.. A solemn, deep, yet sWeet sense of the 
divine presence penetrated my whole soul ; and, through mercy 
I have never siiice lost the glorious view. O that it may prore 
transforming, and that I may be enabled to walk more humbly 
and closely with God than ever. 

May 12. God, how good, how strong art thou. On Thurp* 
day had a svi^eet season in secret prayer. Soon afVer, my soul 
was much blessed with the penisai of a Christian friend*s letter, 
highly favoured of the Lord. Jehovah drew nigh, and mv soul 
felt 88 if set on fire ; not only in point of strong desire, but of 
enjoyment. It was a precious season. Soon after, when joining 
a few Christian friends in prayer, praise, and Christian conver- 
satiooy I found the place rendered sacred by the divine presence ; 
while my God set clearly before me that inward life the Chris- 
tian is called to live by faith in Jesus, and gave me a rich taste 
of it. I felt sinking into Deity, losing myself in the ocean of 
diving love; while Jehovah seemed to fill all space. In the 
evening, when in secret before God, he again repeated his 
wonderful goodness; felt so near, so manifested his divine 
presence, as I can nowise express or explain. O Lord, grant 
great and permanent effects ; let it not pass away unimproved, 
as too many of these wonderful aiid gracious manifestations have 
done ; at least, not so much improved as thev might have been, 
had I been more faithful. O Lord, I have daily cause of humi- 
liation before thee ; yet this does not prevent thy flow, of mercy 
to me. . How wonderful thy goodness, for Christ's sake, to thy 
poor dust and ashes. I would lie low before thee, and lament 
my unworthiness and unfaithfulness. 

June 30. (Friday.) I have reason to bless the Lord for a 
sweet sense of his love shed abroad in my heairt, with a deep, 
very deep consciousness of his goodness, both with respect to 
public and private affairs* Truly my meditations upon these 
doings of the Lord have been very comfortable. With respect 
to the former, I seem to have a sweet notice .from on high, that 
public calamities have been retarded, our tranquillity lengthened, 
and many remarkable interpositions in behalf of our country 


obtained, by the unceasing porayer that has ibr maay montbs 
been ascending in the name of Jesus, in various places, and ^y 
eyery denomination of Christians. And it appears tp me that 
while this spirit of prayer is contiiiued, national judgments will 
be suspended. I feel, therefore, a diread, lest any of us should 
be less frequent or fervent at a throne of grace now, when pub- 
lic affairs wear a more pleasing aspect : may a gracious God 
prevent it. I believe also it is particularly pleasing to him that 
80 many in different places, and ia various situations in life, are 
stirring themselves up to spread the knowledge of the tnitli as 
it is ia Jesus, both at home and abroad. that this keen edge 
may nevet wear off, and that the Lord may countenance every 
attempt made agreeably to his will, for the epnversion of sinnerSf 
and the building up of his saints. 

July dl. (Friday^ These last eight days I have been much 
/avoured with intense breathings aAer all the life of God ; and 
tried with a keen sense of my weakness and inability to walk up 
to the light given. My heart almost breaketh for longings after 
what I do not attain. Help, Lord — ^how long ; O let it suffice. 
The time is short. Give me all I desire : all, all, that is in thee ; 
dZ/ that, as a creature, I can receive. The way is made plain ; 
the promises are ou my side ; also the faithfulness of God. I 
>njoy many sweet and powerful manifestations of the love of the 
Father and the Son ; but these cannot suffice. My God, under- 
take for me, level every mountain. I have long felt my own 
weakness ;, now let ntse prove thy mighty power made manifest 
in it, and thine shall be the gl9ry. Since last date, I have ha4 
a kind of jreneral notice on my minid, as if the Lord had more 
work for me, while my heart feels surdently desirous of being 
employed by him. I long for more active service, and plead 
and wish that he would raise up some to Join me in it. Lord, 
let this light sliine clearer, and, make the impression deeper, if 
from thee. • / 

August 11. (Friday.) Surely I am called to declare that 
God is love. Much of his goodness has passed before mer since 
last date. Had, last Sabbath, an opportunity of remembering 
the dying love of Jesus, with power to make known all my wants 
at his table ; though not such a rich enjoyment of divine things. 
On Monday the eternal world and its blessed inhabitants seemed 
nigh. I felt as if mingling with kindred spirits that had escaped 
from a land of misery to the abodes of bliss. ' In tho evening 
found it good to meet with a select few, and join in prayert 
praise, and Christian conference. Many a^ my opportunities : 
O that my progress bore any proportion. One evenings after the 
fatigue of much business, while in secret prayer, the Lord Jesus 
drew unexpectedly nigh ; quick as lightning he touched my heart 
with the me of his Iovcl. I very soon found it was preparatory 
to trials, from which I suffered keenly for aome time. Icxiea 

S4^ K'tlta Ot LADY HAXVEL£« 

to my God to Iielp, and lead into his will, whfcli in mercy Tie 
Boon did ; pointed oot my way, and gave power to walk in it, 
trueting in himself; lising above nature's false feelings, and vic- 
tory quickly followed. A song of gratefnl praise was pat into 
my mouth, and into the hearts of others particularly concerned 
in the final issue of the affair. O Gdd, who is a God like unto 
thee ! How often have I proved thee, in various kinds of straits, 
n present aid. Bless the Lord,^ O my sonl. O that every instance 
of thy goodness may bring me nearer to thyself, and increase 
my conformity to the divine image. / 

October 20. (Friday.) My comforts have not been so'stronjg 
these some days past, though still a measnre of the divine mani- 
festation, with which I was favoured sodie weeks ago, remains ; 
with a small renewal of it at tinies. My soul has moame<} after 
greater nearness to my God. I felt as if I could not live with- 
out it. My feelings were something similar to what the poet 
expresses of " tears that delight, and sighs that wafl to heaven,*' 
for I experienced an increase of divine love while thus exercised. 
But, alas ! it is but a drop, compared with that fulness promised 
by a faithful God. O Lord, remove every hhiderance, and let 
me prove this fulness for thy name's sake. Teach me how to 
improve thy goodness ;. yea, thy every cDspensation, both of grace 
and providence. Yesterday was a time of trial in the morning, 
but soon after my God wonderfully turned my captivity : heard 
prayer, and came down to my help ; we all felt his blessed pre- 
sence, and made mention of his loving kindness. I felt astonished 
at his goodness and power. O how soon can he lum mourning' 
into joy. 

Words fail to say what nty feelings have been these days 
past, on account of the wonderful interposition tfC a God of love 
as to public affairs • just when vre seemed on the brink of destruc- 
tion as an island. O how dark the political horizon appeared, 
from the recent events, that had taken place in Paris ; and from 
the sailing of the Dutch fleet (so long blocked^ up in their har- 
bour, by the vigilance of Admiral Duncan) to join the formidable 
armament at Brest. It was believed a determined design to in- 
vade Great Britain or Ireland, and most likely both. At thie 
critical moment our almighty Preserver appeared in our behalf, 
and delivered into our hands, after a desperate engagement, nine 
or ten of the Dutch ships, ificluding two flag ships, with both 
admirals. Lord, how great is thy rtiercy ! How great is thy 
power, for it is thy doings; therefore to thee be all the glory. 
O write it deep on every British heart, ** it is the doing of the 
Lord ;" and teach all of us to render the thanks and praise that 
are due. that thy goodness would lead ns as a people to repent- 
ance. O Godj give thy blessing with this signal deliverance, 
that we may yet l^ preserved, and made a holy and a happy 
•ftedplA. I hev» fatt more jJsalous for the glory of my CM thkh 

on this signal occasion, lest we shouM not see, and ttiat eminently, 
his hand in this great business ; lest we should give that praise 
to men (who are but his instruments) which is due to the Lord 
alone. Surely he is the Hearer of prayer. None, O Lord, cry 
to thee in vain that cry aright. . Blessed God, maintain what 
thov hast wrought for us.* 

Kovember 3* (Friday.) The tide of spriritual temptation 
has run high these eight days. -My conflicts with the powers of 
darkness strong ; yet have fell Support and, at times, comfort : 
a struggling into God ; a wrestling spirit for every purchased 
blessing : especially sanctification, with the secU of the Holy 
Spirit. . W