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RENAISSANCE 


The  Writers'  and  Artists'  Magazine  ofWayne  Community  College 
Goldsboro,  North  Carolina 
Volume  25,  May  2009 


STUDENT  AWARDS 


Cover  Design  Danielle  Castillo 

Art  Andrew  Harper 

Essay  Bob  Hensley 

Essay  Jimmy  David  Hicks 

Poetry  Robert  Linley  McCoy 


EDITORS 


Kathryn  Spicer    Jeff  Williams 
Rosalyn  Lomax,  Editor  Emerita     Marian  Westbrook,  Editor  Emerita 


ACKNOWLEDGMENTS 


Faculty:  Margaret  Boothe  Baddour  and  Torey  Romero 


Staff:  Theresa  White-Wallace 


Student:  Tanisha  Eutsey 


Educational  Support  Technologies  Department:  Majena  Howell 
The  Foundation  of  Wayne  Community  College 


Student  Government  Association 


and 


The  Artists  and  Writers 


Margaret  Boothe  Baddour's  poems  "No  Bloodshed  During  Snowfall," 
"The  Properties  Mistress,"  "The  Transit  of  Venus" 
are  published  in  Scheherazade,  St.  Andrews  Press,  2009. 


No  part  of  this  magazine  may  be  reproduced  without  pcnnission.  Copyright  2009  Renaissance 
Views  expressed  are  those  of  the  individual  contributors  and  do  not  necessarily  reflect  the  views  of  the  editors  or  this  institution. 


TABLE  OF  CONTENTS 


Falling  Hair  1  Robert  Linley  McCoy,  Associate  in  Science 

Tiny  Droplet  1  Robert  Linley  McCoy,  Associate  in  Science 

Compost  1  Andrew  Harper. 

Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

Balance  2  Bob  Hensley,  Associate  in  Arts 

Drink  3  Jasmine  Hickey,  Associate  in  Arts 

Deep  3  Andrew  Harper, 

Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

How  to  Seem  Smart  4  Jimmy  David  Hicks,  Associate  in  Arts 

How  Many  5  Danielle  Castillo,  Associate  in  Arts 

A  Song  for  Sasser  6  Beth  Rawleigh,  Associate  in  Arts 

Remembering  W.  Steele  Sasser  7  Theresa  White-Wallace,  Secretary, 

Language/Communication  Department 
Tools  8  Andrew  Harper, 

Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

Query  in  Iambic  Dimeter  8  Rosalyn  F.  Lomax,  English  Instructor 

A  Poem  is  a  Regurgitation  8  Zara  Rullman,  Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

Snake  Family  9  Michelle  Bailey,  Associate  in  Arts 

The  King  of  Diamonds  9  Alison  Rawleigh,  Associate  in  Arts 

There  They  Are  9  Alyssa  K.  Herring,  Associate  in  Arts 

Queen  Rose  10  Roethyll  Lunn,  English  Instructor 

Red  Fez  10  Roethyll  Lunn,  English  Instructor 

Mammy  Cat  10  Roethyll  Lunn,  English  Instructor 

Jammin '  11  Breanna  Ponzi,  Dual  Enrollment 

The  Properties  Mistress  12  Margaret  Boothe  Badde^ur,  Humanities/Creative 

Writing  Instructor 

The  Transit  of  Venus  12  Margaret  Boothe  Baddour,  Humanities/Creative 

Writing  Instructor 

Wet  12  Ashley  Winders,  Associate  in  Arts 

So  Much  More  13  Kyle  Chegwidden,  Associate  in  Science 

And  the  Earth  Wouldn't  Orbit  13  Jeff  Williams,  English  Instructor 

Spring  13  Connie  Lord,  Associate  in  Arts 

Why  Me!  14  Roethyll  Lunn,  English  Instructor 

Gone  1 4  Danielle  Castillo,  Associate  in  Arts 

Shifting  Sand  15  Brenda  Wooldridge,  Office  Systems  Technology 

Missing  16  Laloya  Edwards,  Associate  in  Arts 

To  the  Golden-Haired  Girl  16  Preston  Sharpe,  Associate  in  Arts 

Changes  and  Endings  17  Zara  Rullman.  Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

How  I'm  feelin'  17  Kyle  Chegwidden.  Associate  in  Science 

My  Music  Always  There  18  Zara  Rullman,  Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

Happy  Black  18  Alison  Rawleigh,  Associate  in  Arts 

The  Mother  Church  of  Country  Music  18  Brent  Hood,  Webmaster 

Dropped  Change  19  Kourtney  Willis, 

Wayne  Early  Middle  College  High  School 

Live  Expression  20  Brent  Hood,  Webmaster 

The  Myth  of  Solitude  20  Jeff  Williams,  English  Instructor 

Not  Admitting  to  Being  Jealous  21   Kyle  Chegwidden,  Associate  in  Science 

Missing  You  21   Kyle  Chegwidden,  Associate  in  Science 

My  Mimi,  Milly  Rawleigh  22  Alison  Rawleigh,  Associate  in  Arts 

Eye  Catcher  22  Gene  Smith,  Division  Chair,  Arts  and  Sciences 

Moon  Flower  23  Michelle  Bailey,  Associate  in  Arts 


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Christmas  Box  24  Ashley  Winders,  Associate  in  Arts 

My  Chocolate  24  Danielle  Castillo,  Associate  in  Arts 

Into  the  Mistic  25  Diane  Joyner,  Math  Instructor 

The  Flood  25  Jeff  Williams,  English  Instructor 

A  Cold  and  Black  December  Came  Early  Today. .26  Candace  Johnson,  Associate  in  Arts 

Sue  Jones  26  Kim  Clark,  Math  Instructor 

Hands  26  Jennifer  Parker, 

Associate  Director  of  Admissions/Records 

Ashes  to  Ashes  27  Rosalyn  F.  Lomax,  English  Instructor 

Closet  27  Alyssa  K.  Herring,  Associate  in  Arts 

A  London  Alphabet  28  Rosalyn  F.  Lomax.  English  Instructor 

Dreaming  the  Gap  28  Rosalyn  F.  Lomax,  English  Instructor 

Looking  for  Lunch  29  Gene  Smith,  Division  Chair,  Arts  and  Sciences 

Ravenesque  29  Jeff  Williams,  English  Instructor 

A  White  Mourning  30  Mary  Spears,  Dual  Enrollment 

Metamorphosis  30  Ashley  Winders,  Associate  in  Arts 

Excerpt  from  Capricorn  Sol's  Autistic  Genie  31  J.L.  Knoll,  Office  Systems  Technology 

Punk)'  32  April  Crow,  Associate  in  Arts 

Brother,  please,  give  up  on  me  32  Roethyll  Lunn,  English  Instructor 

The  Lady  Behind  the  Glass  32  Robert  Linley  McCoy,  Associate  in  Science 

The  "Buffalo"  33  Sabrina  Komegay,  Associate  in  Arts 

Goldsboro  Spring  34  Rosalyn  Lomax,  English  Instructor 

Schroedinger's  parakeet  34  Jeff  Williams,  English  Instructor 

Frog  Shade  34  Gene  Smith,  Division  Chair,  Arts  and  Sciences 

Revelation  35   Theresa  White- Wallace,  Secretary, 

Language/Communication  Department 

I  Smiled  36  Robert  Linley  McCoy,  Associate  in  Science 

Ominous  36  Robert  Linley  McCoy,  Associate  in  Science 

/  Walk  The  Line  36  Brent  Hood,  Webmaster 

The  Answer  37  Marc  Mahan,  Forest  Management 

Dream  Sparrow  39  Alison  Rawleigh,  Associate  in  Arts 

Plates  39  Brent  Hood,  Webmaster 

How  to  Kill  a  Balloon  Animal  40  Jennifer  Lynn  Hobbs.  Associate  in  Science 

Paper  Bags  41  April  Crow,  Associate  in  Arts 

Seconds  and  Exponents  42  Jon  Cronin,  Associate  in  Arts 

My  Monster  43  Candace  Johnson,  Associate  in  Arts 

The  Infamous  Him  43  Brittany  Evrard,  Associate  in  Arts 

The  Alien  Flower  43  Preston  Sharpe,  Associate  in  Arts 

No  Bloodshed  During  Snowfall  44  Margaret  Boothe  Baddour,  Humanities/Creative 

Writing  Instructor 

Azalea  44  Danielle  Castillo,  Associate  in  Arts 

Remembering  a  Royal  Woman  45  Rosalyn  F.  Lomax,  English  Instructor 


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Falling  Hair 


Running  my  fingers  through  my  hair 
Because  I  am  bored 
Because  it  is  long 
Because  it  feels  good 
Because  it  reminds  me  of  you 

It  reminds  me  of  your  gentle  touch 
Of  how  you  smelled  it  and  smiled 
Of  how  you  rubbed  it  like  soft  fur 
Of  how  you  twirled  it  round  your  fingers 
Of  how  you  pulled  it  when  you  felt  good 

Running  my  fingers  through  my  hair 

Deep  in  thought 

First  one  hair  falls 

Then  another  and  yet  another 

A  reminder  that  time  catches  us  all 

Robert  Linley  McCoy 


Compost  Andrew  Harpi 


Tiny  Droplet 

She  fights  back  the  emotions 
Enduring  the  saline  sting 
Trying  to  hold  it  all  inside 
And  not  let  herself  be  betrayed 
By  such  a  tiny  thing. 

A  tiny  droplet  of  water 
Nothing  more,  so  it  seems 
Slides  slowly  to  the  tip  of  her  nose 
Gets  to  the  edge 

And  clings  tightly  readying  for  the  fall. 

Falling  off  the  edge 

The  overlooking  ledge 

Downward  it  travels  through  the  air. 

The  distance  seems  forever. 

It  is  suspended  in  space  and  time. 

Finally  it  impacts  the  ground 
With  a  deafening  splash 
Breaking  the  silence. 
The  tiny  droplet  waits  for  the  others 
For  it  will  surely  not  be  the  only  one. 

Robert  Linley  McCoy 


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Balance 

Bob  Hensley 

Life  is  a  balancing  act  that  requires  inputs  from  several  sources  in  order  to  find  true  stabil- 
ity for  the  soul.  What  we  do  for  a  living  doesn't  define  who  we  are;  it  merely  puts  a  label  on  us. 
It  is  like  one  leg  of  a  three-legged  stool;  it  is  necessary,  but  without  the  other  two  legs,  we  are 
always  wobbling  and  never  in  balance.  For  more  than  twenty  years,  I  served  my  country  in  the 
United  States  Air  Force.  While  many  call  this  a  noble  act,  and  I  was  proud  to  do  my  part,  my  fo- 
cus most  of  that  time  was  putting  in  my  twenty  years  and  retiring  to  enjoy  the  fruits  of  my  labors. 
I  was  so  focused  on  that  objective  that  I  was  oblivious  to  many  events  around  me.  When  I  finally 
reached  my  goal  and  retired,  instead  of  feeling  content  and  fulfilled,  I  felt  as  if  I  had  awakened 
over  the  rainbow  and  landed  in  Oz,  a  confusing  and  alien  land.  Something  was  missing.  I  felt  as 
if  I  were  adrift  on  a  sea  of  emptiness  with  no  clue  to  my  purpose.  Then,  about  five  years  ago,  an 
event  happened  that  changed  my  life  forever. 

My  father  was  diagnosed  with  pancreatic  cancer  and  was  given  only  a  few  months  to  live.  I 
immediately  went  to  him,  and  that  visit  gave  me  my  second  stool  leg  and  a  bit  more  balance.  My 
father  grew  up  with  the  belief  that  emotions  were  best  kept  bottled  up,  and  showing  too  much  af- 
fection, especially  with  male  children,  was  not  proper.  Because  of  this,  whether  I  did  something 
that  made  him  proud  or  did  something  to  disappoint  him,  our  outward  relationship  always  ap- 
peared quite  vanilla.  Oh,  I  knew  some  of  his  past,  that  he  had  grown  up  on  a  farm,  worked  with 
the  railroad,  and  served  in  the  Navy  before  running  a  sales  division  for  his  company,  but  details 
of  his  life  prior  to  my  own  were  very  sketchy.  When  he  asked  me  if  I  wanted  to  know  anything 
before  he  died,  I  told  him  I  wanted  to  know  stories  of  his  childhood  to  help  me  understand  him 
better.  The  stories  he  told  me  made  him  more  human  and  three-dimensional  in  my  mind  and 
helped  me  find  peace  and  closure  when  he  passed  a  few  months  later.  Always  having  viewed  my 
father  as  proper  and  straight-laced,  I  truly  enjoyed  hearing  about  some  of  the  hijinks  of  his  time 
on  the  farm.  I  also  learned  details  that  he  had  never  shared;  for  example,  on  a  trip  to  Europe  back 
in  the  1960's,  he  got  a  parking  ticket  in  France,  which  he  never  paid,  and  for  the  next  thirty  years 
he  hved  in  fear  that  if  he  ever  went  back  he  would  be  arrested  on  the  spot  and  thrown  in  jail. 

We  talked  for  hours  during  that  visit.  When  it  was  time  for  me  to  leave,  I  gave  my  father  a 
hug  and  told  him  I  loved  him.  My  father  then  did  something  I  had  never  seen  him  do  before;  he 
broke  down  and  actually  cried.  He  said  he  had  never  known  how  I  felt  about  him  and  wished  we 
had  talked  more  about  emotions  in  the  past.  He  said  he  felt  a  huge  weight  had  been  lifted  from 
his  shoulders  and  now  felt  that  his  life  hadn't  been  spent  in  vain,  that  if  I  felt  that  way  towards 
him,  as  did  my  other  siblings,  then  he  must  have  done  something  right  in  life.  He  said  how  proud 
he  was  of  us  all.  I  could  feel  the  rift  that  had  kept  us  apart  during  life  disappear  and  be  replaced 
by  inner  peace.  I  started  feeling  as  if  I  were  on  the  path  to  truly  finding  my  identity  and  place  in 
life. 

I  finally  realized  just  how  tenuous  and  fragile  life  is  and  that  no  one  can  predict  how  much 
time  he  or  she  has  on  Earth.  This  realization  has  caused  me  to  look  at  life  from  different  perspec- 
tives, to  look  at  the  environment  that  surrounds  us  and  appreciate  the  beauty  and  wonder  of  life. 
This  realization  is  the  final  leg  to  our  "stool  of  life"  that  gives  us  stability  and  makes  us  complete. 
We  are  a  product  of  our  past,  our  present,  and  our  surroundings.  Since  then  I  have  made  a  con- 


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scious  effort  to  examine  things  around  me;  I  take  time  to  watch  a  sunset  and  marvel  at  its  beauty; 
I  slop  lo  watch  a  spider  spin  a  web,  a  masterpiece  in  its  creativity;  I  watch  a  hawk  float  upon  air 
currents,  free  of  the  confines  of  Earth. 

While  my  father's  passing  was  probably  the  worst  tragedy  of  my  life,  it  was  also  the  one 
event  that  helped  me  find  myself.  I  will  always  remember  him  as  the  person  who  helped  me  find 
my  identity  and  appreciate  what  a  true  blessing  life  is.  Enabling  me  to  find  stability,  spiritual 
peace,  and  tranquility,  his  passing  has  given  me  the  missing  legs  of  my  life  stool. 


Drink  Jasmine  Hickey 


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Deep  Andrew  Harper 


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How  to  Seem  Smart 

Jimmy  David  Hicks 


Everyone  is  plagued  with  the  unfortunate  circumstance  of  seeming  unintelHgent.  The  situ- 
ation could  be  created  from  something  as  simple  as  tripping  while  riding  an  escalator  or  some- 
thing as  complex  as  coming  up  with  an  entire  argument  on  why  videogames  are  pure  evil  and 
then  realizing  that  no  actual  evidence  is  in  the  argument.  Another  unfortunate  circumstance 
develops  when  people  get  overly  excited  and  decide  to  share  views  on  various  situations  even 
though  the  evidence  used  to  base  their  opinions  was  just  picked  up  from  some  guy  who  can't  tell 
the  difference  between  a  cat  and  a  giraffe.  Needless  to  say,  if  anyone  in  a  room  actually  knows 
what  he  or  she  is  talking  about,  the  overeager  person  will  likely  look  a  bit  foolish.  Luckily,  there 
are  ways  for  people  to  give  the  impression  that  they  are  very  smart  even  if  their  knowledge  of 
current  affairs  or  perhaps  anything  in  general  is  less  than  reputable. 

The  first  step  of  seeming  smart  is  to  conquer  one's  appearance.  That's  right.  For  some  un- 
fathomable reason,  people  sometimes  base  an  opinion  of  someone's  intelligence  on  the  person's 
appearance.  A  great  way  to  dazzle  the  general  spectator  is  to  wear  a  suit  and  top  hat  no  matter 
what  the  occasion.  People  wearing  this  attire  will  be  assumed  to  be  smart  because,  obviously,  the 
only  possible  solution  to  how  they  got  these  clothes  is  that  they  graduated  from  fine  institutions 
allowing  them  to  get  jobs  that  would  make  it  possible  to  buy  incredible  numbers  of  suits.  If  this 
attire  is  out  of  the  question,  another  handy  outfit  is  a  sweater  vest,  dress  pants,  and  dress  shoes. 
This  attire  is  associated  only  with  prodigious  students  and  people  with  very  important  interviews 
and  is  guaranteed  to  make  people  look  as  though  they  could  recite  a  dictionary.  In  extreme  situa- 
tions, wearing  a  simple  buttoned  up  collared  shirt  will  work  wonders. 

No  matter  what  the  cost,  it  is  important  not  to  look  like  the  guy  who  wears  a  beanie  and 
sandals  with  socks  and  insists  on  sitting  next  to  the  only  person  in  the  room  even  though  all  the 
chairs  are  open. 

After  the  clothing  is  taken  care  of,  the  finer  details  may  be  focused  on.  Corrective  lenses  at 
some  point  or  another  seem  to  have  somehow  become  associated  with  intelligence.  The  most 
impressive  style  of  lens  seems  to  be  the  monocle,  which  draws  attention  even  in  a  crowded  room. 
Even  without  corrective  lenses,  posture  is  also  an  important  aspect  of  seeming  smart.  Sitting  up 
straight  with  folded  hands  is  a  great  way  to  seem  deep  in  thought.  If  at  all  possible,  swinging  a 
cane  while  walking  could  be  of  assistance  as  it  is  a  nice  way  to  seem  mildly  coordinated.  If  good 
posture  is  not  desired,  it  is  a  possible  to  save  the  appearance  by  making  up  a  reason  for  poor 
posture,  such  as  a  cool  sounding  medical  condition.  A  final  way  to  appear  intelligent  is  to  at  least 
pretend  to  read  a  complicated-looking  book  while  listening  to  classical  music. 

Unfortunately,  it  is  impossible  to  get  away  entirely  with  simply  looking  smart.  Eventu- 
ally, some  stranger  won't  be  able  to  contain  himself  or  herself,  or  a  long  lost  cousin  will  return 
and  make  ridiculous  demands  such  as  having  a  conversation.  This  will  require  sounding  smart 
instead  of  simply  telling  the  other  person  to  go  read  the  owner's  manual  of  an  old  handheld  game 
console  that  no  one  ever  plays.  The  first  requirement  for  sounding  smart  is  speaking  with  an 
English  accent,  no  matter  how  fake  it  may  sound.  The  next  step  is  to  use  long  and  painful  sound- 
ing words  and  phrases  such  as  "indubitably"  and  "metabolic  metabolism"  in  situations  that  don't 
call  for  them.  Also,  instead  of  saying  things  like  "this  is  terrible,"  a  better  replacement  is  "the 


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current  circumstances  are  in  a  state  of  preposterously  poor  quality."  The  final  rule  is  to  talk  about 
complicated  events  no  matter  if  the  material  is  grossly  misinterpreted  or  if  the  conversation  is  un- 
welcome. A  good  example  of  this  is  to  mix  two  current  events  together  and  come  up  with  some 
sort  of  absurd  theory  to  make  them  relate. 

A  debate  is  likely  to  start  eventually  in  any  situation  that  involves  a  discussion  longer  than 
one  minute.  A  great  way  to  win  an  argument  is  never  to  admit  a  mistake,  no  matter  how  many 
times  it  is  pointed  out  and  beaten.  While  knowing  something  about  the  topic  is  a  great  asset  in  a 
debate,  it  is  possible  to  at  least  give  the  impression  that  all  knowledge  on  the  topic  is  known  by 
yawning  and  coughing  while  the  other  person  is  talking.  If  all  else  fails,  a  good  conclusion  to 
an  argument  is  to  mumble  something  and  leave.  This  is  rarely,  if  ever,  considered  to  be  a  rude 
gesture,  and  it  can  make  a  person  seem  so  smart  that  others  assume  the  argument  is  not  even  at 
his  or  her  level. 

Not  being  smart  is  no  excuse  to  have  a  reputation  that  indicates  as  such.  With  so  many  op- 
tions to  trick  people,  it  is  possible  for  anyone  to  be  considered  smart.  Some  people  would  say 
that  it  is  best  to  not  draw  attention  to  oneself,  but  following  this  advice  is  not  likely  to  improve 
one's  reputation.  Causing  spectacles  to  appear  smart  is  a  great  way  to  make  people  think  highly 
of  whoever  is  doing  it,  whether  the  person  causing  the  spectacle  is  actually  smart  or  not.  Seem- 
ing smart  simply  depends  on  how  far  someone  is  willing  to  go  to  make  a  lasting  impression  on 
people  he  or  she  may  never  meet  again. 


Danielle  Castillo 


How  Many 


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A  Song  for  Sasser 

Beth  Rawleigh 

I  swear  time  stopped. 

"I  have  some  bad  news,"  Mom  said  quietly.  "You're  going  to  need  to  pray  for  Mr.  Sasser's 
family  because  he  passed  away  last  night." 

"Mr.  Sasser?"  I  asked,  trying  to  be  sure  that  what  I  was  attempting  to  fathom  was  real.  She 
said  it  was.  Some  people  go  through  stages  of  acceptance,  but  I  skipped  straight  to  grief.  It  was 
as  if  my  heart  blew  up  inside  my  chest. 

Not  Sasser. 

Just  then,  Billy  and  my  grandma  pulled  up  and  heard  me  say  Sasser's  name  as  I  covered  my 
mouth  and  burst  into  tears.  He  walked  up,  concerned,  and  put  his  arm  around  me  as  I  asked  what 
happened  and  heard  the  whole  sad  story. 

"What's  wrong?"  Grandma  asked  Billy. 

"I  think  she's  getting  some  bad  news  about  her  teacher,"  he  answered,  rubbing  my  back. 
"Oh,"  Grandma  answered,  "Well,  she's  probably  just  already  shaken  up."  As  if  he  were  just  a 
teacher. 

By  the  time  I  hung  up  with  Mom.  I  was  sobbing. 
"That's  too  bad  about  your  teacher,"  Grandma  said. 

We  got  in  the  car,  and  I  continued  to  cry,  not  speaking.  I  just  couldn't  say  anything.  What 
could  I  say?  All  I  could  think  of  was  Sasser. 

Grandma  asked  a  couple  times  if  I  were  okay.  I  said  I  was,  but  I  wasn't.  "What  kind  of 
teacher  was  he?"  she  asked. 

"Our  music  teacher,"  I  answered. 

"Aww,  that's  too  bad  to  lose  your  music  teacher.  They  always  make  you  feel  good,"  she  an- 
swered. 

I  wanted  to  scream  at  her,  "He  wasn't  JUST  my  teacher!!  He  was  more  than  that!  He  was  so 
much  more  than  that!"  But  I  couldn't.  Grandma  just  didn't  understand,  and  I  couldn't  expect  her 
to. 

But  inside,  I  knew.  We  all  knew.  Me,  Alison,  Caroline,  Mary,  Judith,  Anthony,  Billy,  Rachel 
.  .  .  and  the  list  goes  on  and  on.  All  the  hearts  were  touched  by  Sasser  and  the  legacy  that  he  left. 
We  loved  him,  truly  loved  him. 

Steele  Sasser  was  more  than  just  a  music  teacher.  He  gave  us  music.  He  was  music.  And 
more  than  that,  he  cared  about  us.  He  waited  patiently  while  we  goofed  off  and  then  buckled 
down  when  things  got  out  of  hand. 

I  can  still  see  him  standing  in  front  of  us,  waving  his  hands  as  we  sang.  "Make  my  hair 
move!"  he  would  yell,  and  we  all  messed  up  in  the  song  from  laughing.  Sasser  was  bald. 
Somehow  when  we  face  the  loss  of  a  loved  one,  things  go  into  perspective.  We  realize  just  how 
short  life  is,  just  how  insignificant  our  problems  are  when  we  face  the  true  tragedies  life  dishes 
out. 

Sasser  was  gone.  Gone,  not  ever  coming  back. 
Life  is  just  too  short. 

I'll  never  forget  the  night  of  the  dress  rehearsal  before  our  concert  in  Spring  2008.  The  high- 


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schoolers  had  upset  Sasser,  and  that  combined  with  the  lack  of  eating  dinner  had  sent  him  into 
diabetic  shock.  He  never  remembered  anything  that  happened  during  the  span  of  about  an  hour 
when  he  was  delirious  and  said  a  bunch  of  silly  and  incoherent  things.  I  was  patting  his  head  with 
a  damp  paper  towel  while  the  nurse  tried  to  encourage  him. 

"They  don't  understand,"  Sasser  was  saying,  almost  unintelligibly  "Music  is  everything." 

"I  know,"  the  nurse  said,  and  then  she  pointed  to  all  of  us  who  were  gathered  around  him. 
"They  do  understand.  Look  how  much  they  care  about  you." 

Sasser  rolled  his  head  back  and  looked  up  at  me  with  a  dazed  look  and  just  stared  for  a  min- 
ute. "We  love  you,  Mr.  Sasser,"  I  said,  smiling  at  him. 

Finally,  he  smiled,  a  little  lopsided  one,  and  said,  "Yeah." 

I  hope  the  angel  chorus  in  heaven  can  make  your  hair  move. 


Remembering  W.  Steele  Sasser 

Wired  rimmed  glasses 
Shiny  head 

Sitting  on  the  bench  outside 
Puffing  on  a  cigarette 

Flip  Flops  in  the  summer 
Sweaters  in  the  winter 

"Hey,  Girl,  what's  going  on?" 

"Come  downstairs  and  have  some  dessert." 

Wheeling  you  to  your  office  and  car 

Hearing  you  laugh  as  I  almost 

turn  your  wheelchair  over  in  the  elevator 

Bringing  you  candy  and  juice  when  your 
blood  sugar  dropped 

Reassuring  you  as  your  blood  sugar  rose  to 
normal 


Sewing  a  button  on  your  pants  as 
you  walked  down  the  hall  in  your 
graduation  gown 

"I  am  so  proud  of  my  students." 
"Come  listen  to  the  chorus." 

How  nervous  you  got  before  each  concert 
How  well  your  students  performed 

Hearing  you  talk  about  your  children 
How  proud  you  were  of  them 

The  day  I  heard  the  news 

The  night  I  saw  you  asleep  and  knew 

you  were  singing  with  the  angels 

That's  what  I  remember  about  you 

Theresa  White-Wallace 


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 i_  

Tools  Andrew  Harper 


Query  in  Iambic  Dimeter 

A  Poem  is  a  Regurgitation 

When  everything 

A  poem  is  a  regurgitation 

that  comes  to  mind 

That  happens  in  the  mind 

becomes  a  Hne 

After  putting  in  the  pain  and  works 

of  poetry. 

Or  anything  you  find 

the  monologue 

You  fill  it  with  the  fury 

within  myself 

And  hope  it  doesn't  melt 

produces  books 

You  fill  it  with  the  misery 

of  single  lines. 

You  wished  you  hadn't  felt 

What  if  I  took 

You  assault  it  with  the  ink 

my  single  lines 

You  beguile  it  with  lead 

and  printed  them 

Add  in  a  piece  of  broken  heart 

in  one  long  poem? 

You  know  it's  been  well  fed 

Is  that  auto- 

Then you  stab  it  with  the  knives 

biography 

And  you  beat  it  with  the  sticks 

or  is  it  just 

You  acid  scorch  it  with  the  tears 

a  mystery? 

And  hope  it  didn't  miss 

Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


Zara  Rullman 


Snake  Family 

My  playful  cousin  is  colorful  and  bright 
and  is  always  a  pet  for  little  boys 
to  scare  their  little  sisters  with 

My  little  brother  is  black  as  the  shadows 
he  waits  within  to  catch  mice  that  sneak 
into  cupboards  and  steal  away  the  food 

My  big  brother  is  striped  and  strong 

he  catches  the  members  of  our  family  that 

drive  people  mad  with  their  poison 

I  am  the  little  sister  who  is  small  and  green 
I  catch  the  spiders  that  hide  in  the  grass 
and  wait  for  an  unsuspecting  victim 

Michelle  Bailey 


The  King  of  Diamonds 

The  king  of  diamonds  carries  his  crest 
on  his  thin,  long,  oily  back. 
He  creeps  through  the  tall  grass  of  our  lawn, 
glaring  at  us  with  death-black  eyes. 

He  hides  his  two  daggers,  but  we  know 
they  are  there,  poison-tipped,  razor-sharp. 
My  father  grabs  his  bush  ax  and  meets  him 
in  the  middle  of  the  field. 

The  king  slips  back  but  raises  his  head 

and  shakes  his  beaded  tail, 

daring  my  father  with  his  eyes 

to  step  closer  and  meet  steely  fangs. 

The  sun  shines  brightly  as  two  figures  freeze, 
their  eyes  fixed  on  each  other. 
The  king  sways  as  if  there  were  wind. 
My  father  stands  on  two  firm  feet. 

Just  as  the  king  pulls  out  his  blades, 
my  father  swings  his  ax. 
The  diamond-crowned  head  of  the  king 
falls  to  lie  twitching  in  the  grass. 

Alison  Rawleigh 


Queen  Rose 

Young  women  these  days 

don't  know  how  to  love  a  man 

Maybe  that's  why  men  ain't  bother'n 

to  ask  for  their  hand 

A  woman  used  to  dress  up 

and  powder  her  face 

Then  let  her  slip  hang  a  little 

so  they  could  see  her  lace 

You  can  laugh  now, 

but  that  was  the  style  then 

Women  acted  like  ladies 

and  men  were  real  men 

I  use'tah  dress  up 

and  put  on  my  "Evening  in  Paris" 

And  many  a  young  man  asked 

for  Queen  Rose's  hand  in  marriage 

You  can  believe  or  not  believe 
what  I  tellin'  ya 
Go  on  and  grow  old  buying 
what  women  lib's  sellin'  ya 
Listen  to  me! 
Find  out  all  about 
what  you  been  missing 
And  you'll  see 

no  degree  holds  a  candle  to  kissing 

I'm  gonna  say  this, 
and  I  ain't  taking  it  back 
Have  you  ever  wondered 
why  all  the  ugh-ly  women 
driving  Cadillacs? 

Roethyll  Lunn 


Red  Fez 

When  1  saw  you 

in  your  tribal  clothing 

and  bruised  blood  colored  fez, 

you  were  a  splendor 

in  black  and  white  and  red. 

I  stood  there  astounded, 
absconded  in  my  stance, 
begging  my  Southern  born  hips 
to  do  a  tribal  dance. 

Roethyll  Lunn 


Mammy  Cat 

This  isn't  the  way 
That  I  really  want  to  be 
But  somehow,  over  the  years, 
It  just  ended  up  being  me. 

I  really  fought  against  it, 
but  it  seems  as  if  I  were  bound 
to  be  one  of  those  women 
that  just  have  to  run  around. 

I  tried,  I  joined  the  church 

I  wanted  to  be  honorably  mentioned 

I  stayed  there  for  a  year 

But  they  didn't  pay  any  attention. 

So  I  went  back  to  my  husband, 
and  he  ran  me  back  to  my  man 
Now  this  cat  is  going  to  run  around 
With  all  the  flair  she  can. 

Roethyll  Lunn 


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Jammin'  Breanna  Ponzi 


11 


The  Properties  Mistress 

At  the  Salvation  Army 

I  hunt  for  1950s  telephones — 

those  black  boxes  with  dials 

almost  obsolete  but  not  antique — 

a  green  chenille  bathrobe, 

and  a  blue  McGuffey's  Reader 

Then,  slung  among  the  10-cents  books, 

I  find  Born  Again:  Together 

and  remember  us — stranded 

in  a  small  New  England  town 

going  under  in  Atlantis 

clinging  at  the  Roman  coliseum 

and  how  we  touched  in  Kyoto, 

saying  "Sayonara"  before  the  blade, 

leapt  from  Middle  Passage 

into  Caribbean  waters 

and  how  the  courage  of  one  kiss 

lasts  several  lifetimes. 

Now,  I  am  just  a  Mistress — of  Props 

but  in  the  cave  backstage  where 

the  tapestry  suitcase  seems  packed 

the  wrapped  boxes  to  hold  gifts 

the  newspaper  to  be  always  today's — 

art  turns  to  life  and  life  to  truth. 

Surrounded  by  properties,  I  won 

nothing — but  memory's  jolt 

and  the  taste  of  that  kiss. 

Margaret  Boothe  Baddour 


The  Transit  of  Venus 

Desiring  your  view 
she  seduces  you 
to  look  at  the  sun. 
Her  soft  layers 
fool  you,  too. 
She  is  rock  hard 
the  shimmering  orb 
that  hangs  so  low 
in  the  evening  shy — 
a  bass  of  sulfur 
a  core  of  nickel 
and  iron. 

Voluptuous  Venus 
who  double-crosses 
the  mighty  sun — 
only  a  teardrop 
in  his  indifferent 
eye. 

Margaret  Boothe  Baddour 


Wet 

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Ashley  Winders 


So  Much  More 


And  the  Earth  Wouldn't  Orbit 


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Thp  r^ppi^Ti  Hr\pcn^t  lo\7P  mp 
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lllu.li   Wllul  1  Llt^t^l 

TThp  Qiin  Hnpcn't  p^irp 

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but  beino^  without  vou 

KA.  1           W  J.  1.  l^i^      V  V  ALII        KA  %.      J  Vy  \A 

The  wind  doesn  t  stir 

always  seems  to  hurt 

Through  my  brown  hair 

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L  lie  iiivjvjii  uueoii  L  oiiiiie 

You  are  all  I've  got 

In  my  brown  eyes 

IVJU  u.1  C  oVJ  lllUdl  IIIVJIC 

T'hp  ctrp5^mQ  c\c\  not  flow/ 
1  lie  oLieuiiio  \X\j  iivjL  injw 

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llluil  1  UVJUIU.  CVCl  ollUW 

Ttip  cV\/'c  np\/PT'  t^liip 
1  lie  ^ivy  ^>  iievei  uiue 

How  inurh  T  lovp  vou 

Xhp  stars  do  not  blink" 

you'll  just  never  know 

Unless  I  see  you 

Ynii  nrp  Qn  niiiph  mnrp 

1  W14  die           lllLl^ll  lllV^lk^ 

Jpff       1  in  in  f 

than  the  fire  inside  of  me 

Tt  <;tflrtprl  with  a  "snarV 

Now  I'm  burning  endlessly 

You  are  so  much  more 

than  my  smile  everyday 

Sprmg 

You're  there  to  remind  me 

that  everything's  ok 

Snnn<J  is  coming'  the  skies  are  blue 

1  ue  uu u.ie  eiuipiug  iiajjjjiiy 

You  are  so  much  more 

siiimg  nign  m  me  iree 

than  people  can  see 

The  green  meadows 

All  they  overlook 

wun  wiiQ  iiowers 

shines  brightly  to  me 

springing  up  from 

here  to  there 

You  are  so  much  more 

All  around  us  I  see  the  beauty 

than  I  could  explain 

that  can  be  found 

How  it  seems  like  all  smile 

Just  by  looking  out  my  window 

when  they  hear  your  name 

At  the  clouds  going  by 

Kyle  Chegwidden 

Connie  Lord 

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Why  Me! 


Lazy  phone! 

Won't  ring  to  give  me  a  job. 
Fat  cells! 

Making  everybody  think  I'm  a  slob 
Slow  typewriter! 

Won't  bang  fast  enough  to  get  me  hired 
Fast  clock! 

Always  causing  me  to  get  fired 

Disability  people! 

Won't  ever  give  me  a  check 

Bad  credit! 

Keep  people  on  my  neck 
Silly  men! 

Won't  ever  give  me  a  ring 
Rich  men! 

Always  marry' n  Mai  Ling 

Adding  machine! 
Always  finding  me  at  fault 

Slow  car! 

Always  causing  me  to  get  caught 
Poor  me! 

Can't  never  get  a  break! 

Poor  me!  Poor  me! 

Never  could  get  the  right  shake! 

Roethyll  Lunn 


Gone  Danielle  Castillo 


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Shifting  Sand 

Brenda  Wooldridge 


We  finally  made  it  to  the  beach.  My  family  usually  made  this  trip  on  Mother's  Day.  It  was  a 
tradition  since  my  parents  had  moved  to  North  Carolina  four  years  earlier.  Except  for  Christmas, 
it  was  the  only  time  when  we  could  all  be  together.  My  sisters  and  I  were  busy  with  our  families 
and  work,  and  we  all  lived  hours  apart  from  each  other.  This  year  we  had  to  delay  coming  here 
for  a  few  months  but  for  a  very  good  reason.  My  third  child  had  chosen  to  be  my  Mother's  Day 
present. 

Arriving  early,  we  unloaded  our  cars  and  steered  all  of  our  children  toward  the  boardwalk. 
As  I  neared  the  bottom  step,  the  salty  smell  of  ocean  assaulted  my  senses.  Its  slap  teased  me 
with  the  alluring  call  of  the  beach.  The  kids  scampered  on  a  little  ahead  of  us,  exclaiming  nois- 
ily. My  sisters  and  their  husbands  took  off  after  them.  Their  eyes  sparkled  with  their  own  child- 
ish delight  as  they  raced  to  rein  in  the  giggling  brood.  The  kids  were  like  a  school  of  little  fish 
as  they  darted  between  the  legs  of  their  parents.  Finally,  the  game  ended,  and  their  small  bodies 
were  smothered  with  sunscreen. 

I  stayed  back  with  my  parents  as  everyone  else  made  his  or  her  way  to  the  edge  of  the  water. 
Mom  put  her  things  down.  Then  she  too  walked  down  and  along  the  shore.  Dad  pitched  our  big, 
blue  umbrella  and  laid  out  the  blankets.  Then,  with  his  help,  I  tenderly  placed  my  precious  cai^go 
down  in  the  soft,  shady  spot  he  had  created.  Finally  free  of  the  blanket  covering  her,  my  baby 
giggled  and  kicked  in  satisfaction.  There  I  placed  a  tiny,  red  pair  of  sunglasses  on  her  button 
nose  and  retied  the  strings  of  her  bonnet. 

My  dad  would  stay  there  with  her.  He  usually  preferred  to  sit  there  contentedly  watching 
everything  around  him.  His  alert  eyes  scanned  the  scene  as  he  took  his  cigarettes  from  his  shirt 
pocket.  He  lit  one  of  the  unfiltered  cigarettes  and  shifted  into  a  more  comfortable  position.  After 
about  thirty  minutes,  I  made  my  way  slowly  to  a  spot  just  short  of  the  rushing  water.  Its  hungry 
roars  were  louder  now,  almost  deafening  with  the  break  of  each  wave.  I  sat  there  for  a  while  em- 
bracing the  warmth  of  the  sand  as  it  squished  between  my  toes.  Dreamily,  I  picked  up  handfuls 
of  it  and  watched  it  sift  through  my  fingers  before  gently  blowing  away. 

Laughter,  loud  and  shrill,  caught  my  attention.  I  blissfully  watched  the  animated  children 
once  again  run  from  the  adults.  It  had  become  a  silly  game.  The  kids  tried  repeatedly  to  evade 
their  parents  before  being  swept  up  high  into  the  air  away  from  the  water.  However,  as  soon  as 
their  little  feet  touched  the  sand,  they  were  off  again.  Darting  back  and  forth,  they  looked  for 
an  opening,  trying  to  answer  the  beckoning  call  of  the  surf.  After  a  time,  the  exhausted  adults 
finally  carried  the  squealing  bodies  into  the  waiting  arms  of  the  monster  once  more. 

Then,  tired  of  sitting,  I  waded  past  the  edge  of  the  great  abyss.  The  waves  slapped  each 
other.  I  could  feel  the  foaming  glee  of  water  as  it  hungrily  lapped  around  my  ankles.  It  only 
stayed  a  second  before  it  pulled  back.  As  the  water  returned  to  the  vast  expanse  of  its  home,  it 
took  pieces  of  the  beach  with  it.  For  now,  it  was  satisfied  to  take  a  small  amount  at  a  time.  It 
seemed  to  me  as  if  the  ocean  were  stealing  a  piece  of  the  beach's  soul  each  time  as  they  kissed  in 
a  never-ending  ritual. 

Eventually,  I  made  my  way  lazily  back  to  the  blanket.  My  dad  had  adjusted  the  umbrella  to 
shield  the  baby  from  the  movement  of  the  sun.  I  silently  continued  to  move  closer  to  the  peace- 


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ful  scene.  He  sensed  my  approach  and  opened  his  eyes.  He  nodded  at  the  baby,  letting  me  know 
she  had  fallen  asleep.  I  sat  down  at  the  edge  of  their  oasis,  trying  not  to  disturb  her. 

Ultimately,  the  wind  picked  up  the  shifting  sands  and  smacked  us  repeatedly  before  carrying 
the  tiny  particles  away  on  its  endless  breath.  I  grabbed  the  baby,  trying  to  shelter  her  from  the 
clutches  of  the  wind.  Then  gathering  everyone  and  our  things,  we  rushed  to  the  cars.  We  had 
scarcely  pulled  out  of  the  lot  before  the  rains  came. 

That  trip  had  been  the  last  time  we  all  went  to  the  beach  together.  It  would  also  be  the  last 
time  my  father  saw  the  ocean.  The  coal  miner's  disease  had  stolen  his  last  breath  with  its  cold, 
black  obsidian  hands.  My  sisters  were  busy  watching  their  own  little  families  grow  up.  We  had 
each  been  pulled  into  life's  undercurrents.  It  would  be  nine  years  before  I  would  visit  that  beach 
again.  On  that  day.  there  was  no  sign  of  an  impending  storm.  My  children  had  grown,  but  their 
sun-kissed  faces  still  lit  up  with  intense  joy  and  excitement  as  they  splashed  in  the  ocean.  To  me, 
the  beach  looked  virtually  the  same.  The  tides  still  raced  to  feed  upon  the  sands,  scooping  it  into 
its  vast  body.  The  blinding  sand  was  calm  as  it  waited  for  the  next  kiss  from  its  lover.  We  would 
make  new  memories  on  that  day  as  we  played  in  the  shifting  sand  and  pounding  surf. 


To  the  Golden-Haired  Girl 


When  the  air  was  still 

And  the  wind  blew 

We  held  each  other's  hands 

And  they  fit  hke  puzzle  pieces. 


When  the  rain  poured 

On  your  mother's  porch 

We  stood  there  in  an  embrace 

And  we  made  our  own  umbrellas. 


When  the  storm  disturbed  the  world 
And  that  fury  had  drenched  the  earth 
All  we  could  see  were  beach  days 
And  our  molding  the  sand  with  our  toes 


When  the  leaves  plucked  themselves 

From  the  dead  trees 

Your  hand  slipped  from  mine 

And  autumn  winds  carried  you  away. 


Missing 


Latoya  Edwards 


When  I  gaze  at  the  skies 
While  I'm  lying  in  the  grass 
I  envision  sapphire  eyes  beaming 
And  the  rippling  of  golden  hair. 


Preston  Sharpe 

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Changes  and  Endings 


I  want  to  run  away  from  the  world 
Before  it  says  goodbye 
I  want  to  be  the  one  dropped  dead 
Then  left  alone  to  cry 

I  couldn't  fathom  wishing 
That  any  sunset  comes 
To  see  a  happy  afternoon 
End  with  the  downing  of  the  sun 

And  when  I  see  the  moon 
I  think:  Why  must  you  go  away? 
Likewise  when  the  flower  blooms 
I  wish  at  such  state  it  would  stay 

I  held  onto  my  childhood  things 
And  thought:  "you'll  always  be  the 
same" 

But  I  awoke  and  realized 
I  was  the  one  that  changed 

Zflra  Rullman 


How  I'm  feelin' 

Like  a  waterfall  in  the  desert 
and  a  firefly  in  the  dark 
something  about  you  is  different 
that  just  sets  you  apart 

Beyond  what  I  can  imagine 
and  all  I  can  understand 
how  all  the  world  disappears 
when  you  hold  my  hand 

You  walk  into  a  room 
and  everyone  stops  and  looks 
You  remind  me  of  a  princess 
from  a  fairy  tale  book 

You  continue  to  capture  my  heart 
and  appear  in  all  my  dreams 
I  couldn't  stop  this  if  I  tried 
as  crazy  as  it  seems 

So  I'll  go  along  with  feeling 
and  I  want  everyone  to  know 
I'm  holding  on  to  you  forever 
because  I'm  not  going  to  let  go 

Kyle  Chegwidden 


17 


My  Music  Always  There 


Happy  Black 


Suddenly  no  signal;  nothing  was  aloud 
As  if  the  sky  had  opened  up 
And  bagged  away  the  sound 

The  wind  hid  behind  the  mountains 
The  crickets  wouldn't  play 
The  water  stilled  in  fountains 
And  the  robins  refused  say 

The  moment  was  so  swift 
As  if  it  was  not  at  all 
Like  a  crack  in  the  sky 
Caused  the  music  to  fall 

My  ears  opened  up 
Like  wings  onto  the  air 
That  moment  it  occurred  to  me 
That  it  was  always  there 

Zara  Rullman 


Black  is  the  cold  night  in  winter 
the  pin-pricked  canopy  above 
the  man  in  the  black  leather  jacket 
sipping  his  coffee  without  cream. 

Black  is  the  man  from  New  Orleans 
who  plays  his  shiny  baby  grand 
striking  his  favorite  black  keys 
reading  the  inky  notes  from  the  sheet 
music. 

Black  is  the  movie  theater 
during  a  mystery's  midnight  showing 
a  couple  cuddled  in  the  darkest  corner 
while  the  film's  credits  scroll. 

Black  is  the  hair  of  the  mother 
who  sings  to  her  baby  at  night 
by  the  red-edged  coals  in  the  fireplace 
drowning  in  soft  soot. 


Alison  Rawleigh 


The  Mother  Church  of  Country  Music 


Brent  Hood 


18 


Dropped  Change 

Kourtney  Willis 


Scuffing  my  sneaker  clad  feet  on  the  hnoleum  floor,  I  leaned  against  the  cash  register.  I  was 
supposed  to  be  doing  something.  We  were  always  supposed  to  be  busy.  I  thought  about  the 
repetitiveness  of  it  all  and  how  it  must  be  life's  way  of  telling  me,  "you're  almost  there,  soon  the 
transformation  will  be  complete.  You'll  be  a  mindless  working  drone  without  an  original  thought 
in  your  head."  But  work  was  work  I  argued  with  my  pessimistic  side,  and  I  would  just  have  to 
make  the  best  of  it.  It  was  10:55;  the  stored  closed  in  a  few  minutes.  I  was  fully  prepared  to 
stand  there  for  all  five  of  them  lost  in  my  thoughts.  Crossing  my  arms  with  a  huff,  I  gave  the 
plastic  light  up  keys  of  the  register  a  mean  glare.  After  a  few  seconds,  I  let  out  my  breath  and  let 
my  arms  swing  loose.  I  couldn't  help  but  think,  "That's  great,  Kourtney.  Fm  sure  the  register  is 
really  intimidated."  The  sound  of  footsteps  at  the  end  of  the  counter  stopped  my  personal  tirade. 

Coming  up  the  aisle  through  my  line  was  a  woman  holding  a  baby  in  one  hand  and  in  the 
other  juggling  a  quart  of  milk  and  a  small  loaf  of  bread.  I  say  "woman,"  but  she  couldn't  have 
been  more  than  twenty.  Her  hair  was  loose  around  her  shoulders,  and  her  thin  shirt  and  jeans 
were  on  the  dirty  side.  She  set  her  stuff  on  the  belt  and  didn't  look  at  me;  instead,  she  stared  at 
the  floor  as  though  she  were  ashamed.  She  was  thin  like  she  hadn't  been  eating,  and  she  could 
barely  look  over  the  top  of  my  head  despite  being  at  least  three  years  older  than  me.  The  baby 
she  held  in  her  arms  was  asleep  in  a  soft  blue  onesie  and  looked  clean  and  well  cared  for.  Soft 
blonde  curls  covered  his  head,  and  he  had  his  thumb  stuck  in  his  little  pink  mouth. 

"Hi... how  are  you?"  I  asked,  motionless,  really  meaning  it. 

Slowly,  she  looked  up  at  me,  her  exhausted  brown  eyes  looking  into  my  probing  blue  ones. 
"Tired,"  she  offered  quietly  looking  away  again.  Picking  up  the  quart  of  milk,  I  ran  it  over  the 
scanner  and  put  it  on  the  other  side  of  the  register  and  then  turned  back  around  to  get  the  bread. 
The  total  came  to  about  $6.00.  I  put  her  things  in  bags  while  she  got  the  money  together.  Look- 
ing up  at  her  through  my  hair,  I  saw  tears  in  her  eyes  as  she  dug  through  her  bag  with  one  hand 
and  held  onto  her  baby  with  the  other.  Putting  her  bags  on  the  end  of  the  counter,  I  straightened 
and  saw  what  she  held  in  her  hand.  Three  crumpled  ones  that  she  quickly  gave  to  me  and  went 
back  to  looking  in  her  bag.  I  could  see  her  struggling  to  keep  the  hot  tears  from  sliding  down  her 
face.  Looking  from  her  to  the  sleeping  baby  and  back,  I  felt  in  my  back  pocket  and  pulled  out  a 
five,  the  only  money  I  had.  It  was  supposed  to  be  for  my  lunch  but... I  quickly  dropped  it  so  she 
wouldn't  see  me.  "Hey,  you  must  have  dropped  this,"  I  said  picking  it  up  off  the  counter.  Look- 
ing from  the  money  in  my  hand  to  me,  she  looked  incredulous.  She  knew  she  hadn't  dropped 
it.  I  knew  she  hadn't  dropped  it.  Pride  is  a  delicate  thing.  I  tapped  the  buttons  on  the  register. 
When  the  drawer  popped  out,  I  put  the  money  inside.  Not  looking  up,  I  handed  her  the  receipt 
and  told  her  to  have  a  nice  night.  Standing  there,  bags  in  hand,  she  looked  at  me,  not  at  the  floor, 
not  at  the  door.  She  looked  up  at  me.  She  didn't  thank  me,  and  her  mouth  didn't  smile,  but  her 
eyes  did.  When  she  walked  to  the  door,  she  turned  and  nodded  before  heading  out  into  the  dark. 


19 


i^e  Expression 


Brent  Hood 


The  Myth  of  Solitude 

A  poet  in  isolation  is  a  poet  dodging  the  draft — 
They  myth  of  the  lonely  riverside  garret 
The  4AM  bottles  of  too  warm  rose 
The  skin  so  pale  as  to  defy  the  sun — 
Lies,  lies,  damned  hes,  and  statistics! 

The  accoutrements  are  mere  way  stations. 
Vesuvius  is  a  hunk  of  angry  stone  without 
Its  Pompeii  to  destroy,  the  Mississippi 
A  long  lined  snake  without  New  Orleans. 
A  poet  in  isolation  is  a  poet  chiseling  the  muse. 

Poe  fell  alone  on  a  Baltimore  street,  body 
In  mud  and  muck.  His  gravekeeper's  vigil 
Is  so  misplaced!  He  was  a  poet  alone — 
His  body  a  wasteland,  his  mind 
Post- Apocalyptic,  destroyed. 

Jeff  Williams 


20 


Not  Admitting  to  Being  Jealous 


You  know  I'll  only  fall  apart 
Knowing  I  can't  have  your  heart 
That  "we"  will  never  be 
Even  though  you're  everything  to  me 

To  watch  you  give  your  heart  away 
And  just  to  heai^  you  say 
You're  loving  someone  new 
And  I'm  falling  for  you 

What  is  it  I'm  feeling  here 
As  I  want  to  disappear 
Tirelessly  trying  to  understand 
Watching  you  hold  his  hand 

I  don't  want  to  think  of  you  and  him 

Or  what'll  go  down  when  lights  are  dimmed 

God,  I  don't  even  want  to  care 

But  I'm  dying  when  I  see  you  there 

Why  do  you  have  to  look  so  great? 
It's  just  so  hard  to  concentrate 
When  I  know  he's  holding  you 
Like  I  always  wanted  to 

How  come  I'm  just  the  friend 
And  I'm  always  having  to  pretend 
That  I'm  all  right  with  things  this  way 
And  I  always  have  to  say 

Things  I  don't  really  mean 
And  lie  about  eveiything 
Truth  is.  he's  in  my  place 
If  only  you'd  see  it  that  way 


Missing  You 

I  don't  know  where  you  are 

or  where  you  have  been 

All  I  know  is  I'm  here 

dying  to  see  you  again 

I've  held  on  for  years 

waiting  for  your  return 

The  meaning  of  empty 

is  just  one  thing  I've  learned 

Like  the  hammock  outside 

where  you  used  to  swing 

and  where  you'd  tell  everything 

It's  still  there  tied  to  the  tree 

where  you  whispered  you  loved  me 

I  still  have  the  albums 

we  slow  danced  to 

and  all  of  the  feelings 

that  you  never  knew 

I  remember  when  we  talked 

There  used  to  be  such  a  rush 

I  wonder  if  it  would  still  be  there 

if  we  kept  in  touch 

So,  I'll  stay  a  little  longer 

and  come  what  will 

because  after  all  this  while 

I  want  you  still 

Kyle  Chegwidden 


Kyle  Chegwidden 


21 


My  Mimi,  Milly  Rawleigh 


My  Mimi,  Milly  Rawleigh 
Salt  and  pepper,  silver  streaks 
In  coconut  cream  cake  batter 
Sappy  sweet  syrup 
Fluffy  feather  down  bed 
Sinky,  squishy  soft  pillows 
Proper  paper  planning  pages 
Dates,  deadlines,  due-by-when 
Gentle  gestures,  gingerbread 
Comfy  quick  cat-nap  couch 
Fumbling  fingers  fondly  find 
Plucky  piano  progressions 
Silly  salicylic  acid  in  a 
Slippery,  drippy,  soapy  dish 
A  dozen  muffins  from  the  oven 
With  crispy,  crusty,  puffy  crowns 
With  Mimi,  Milly  Rawleigh 

Alison  Rawleigh 


Eye  Catcher  Gene  Smith 


22 


Moon  Flower 

Michelle  Bailey 

In  the  bouquet  of  flowers  are  yellow  carinas  lilies,  small  little  bursts  of  white  cluster  roses, 
then  a  large  white  flower,  called  a  Moon  Flower,  with  paper  thin  petals  that  spread  out  to  be  as 
large  as  a  hand  with  outstretched  fingers.  That  flower  does  not  seem  to  fit  in  the  bouquet,  but  it  is 
the  one  that  is  the  most  special. 

Months  before  this  flower  had  ever  even  blossomed,  it  was  just  a  picture  on  a  computer 
screen.  The  flower  was  bought  for  Sandy,  my  mom's  best  friend.  It  was  bought  by  Sandy's  hus- 
band Mike  Miller,  my  dad's  best  friend.  He  thought  she  would  like  it  because  it  only  bloomed  on 
the  night  of  the  last  full  moon  of  the  summer.  Only  for  one  night  would  the  flower  be  seen,  and 
because  of  that,  it  made  it  even  more  beautiful.  So  he  bought  it  knowing  she  would  love  the  sus- 
pense of  waiting  for  it  to  blossom.  The  day  it  arrived  in  the  mail,  Mike  planted  it  in  the  garden. 
He  made  sure  she  did  not  see  the  picture  of  the  flower  on  the  box.  He  wanted  the  blossom  to  be 
a  surprise.  His  wife  was  excited  when  he  told  her  what  he  had  done.  She  always  loved  surprises, 
especially  ones  she  had  to  wait  for.  She  loved  the  wanting  to  know  but  not  being  able  to  find  out. 

A  month  before  the  Moon  Flower  was  meant  to  bloom,  Sandy  died  in  a  car  crash.  That  day 
was  two  days  before  their  second  wedding  anniversary.  They  had  found  each  other  late  in  life 
but  felt  as  if  they  had  been  high  school  sweethearts.  Mike  was  completely  devastated.  He  did 
not  think  of  anything  except  how  much  he  missed  her.  Most  of  all,  he  missed  their  evening  in 
the  garden.  They  would  tend  the  flowers  and  pick  their  vegetables  every  evening  before  dinner. 
Each  night  a  fresh  vase  of  flowers  would  be  on  the  table.  When  the  funeral  was  over  and  he  was 
able  to  work  and  start  living  a  life  without  her,  he  realized  the  moon  flower  was  due  to  bloom  the 
next  night. 

The  same  night  the  flower  was  supposed  to  bloom,  my  parents  were  going  to  be  renewing 
their  vows  for  their  25th  wedding  anniversary.  My  parents  had  known  Mike  and  Sandy  for  over 
fifteen  years.  They  might  as  well  have  been  family.  We  were  going  to  have  a  small  party  at  our 
house  with  family  and  close  friends.  My  parents  wanted  Mike  to  read  a  passage  from  the  Bible 
before  they  spoke  their  vows  to  each  other. 

Before  Mike  left  for  the  party,  he  noticed  the  moon  flower  had  blossomed.  He  went  over  to 
the  small  bush  with  one  beautifully  pale  flower.  It  looked  so  fragile  that  if  he  touched  it,  it  would 
fall  apart.  He  knelt  on  the  ground  before  it  and  wept  for  his  wife.  She  would  have  loved  see- 
ing the  moon  flower.  They  would  have  sat  together  on  the  porch  swing  and  stared  at  it  for  hours 
talking  about  how  beautiful  it  was.  If  only  she  were  here.  He  did  the  only  thing  he  thought  he 
should  do.  He  picked  the  flower  and  put  it  in  a  vase  to  take  to  his  wife's  best  friend,  my  mom. 

When  he  got  to  the  party,  he  sought  out  my  mom.  She  wore  a  white  dress  and  had  a  beauti- 
ful bouquet  of  flowers.  Mike  then  told  her  the  story  behind  the  pale  flower.  She  cried  for  Sandy. 
Then  came  the  time  for  Mike  to  read  the  passage  and  for  my  parents  to  renew  their  vows.  In  the 
bouquet,  my  mom  had  stuck  in  the  moon  flower.  It  did  not  seem  to  match  the  rest.  It  was  beauti- 
ful. 


23 


Christmas  Box 


Ashley  Winders 


Into  the  Mistic 


Diane  Joyner 


The  Flood 

In  this  land  there  is  absence,  in  this  river  there  is  nothing 

on  this  tree  there  are  no  leaves,  only  dry  twigs  and  shriveled  berries 

so  the  dreams  of  all  fall  like  dirt  upon  the  hard  pan 

the  salt  flats  and  cracked  parquet  of  the  desert  floor 

in  this  absence  there  is  no  sorrow,  no  joy,  no  sense  of  belonging 

only  the  silence  like  an  empty  chair  or  naked  bed  springs. 

And  you  chant  "Bring  on  the  rain!  Bring  on  the  water! 

Bring  on  the  flood!  Cleanse  this  wounded  land!  Let  the  winds  blow 

life  and  seeds  onto  newly  fertile  soils!  Let  the  peace  that  is  belonging 

flow  like  streams  born  of  ocean  tides  and  cold  fronts! 

Bring  on  the  rain!  Bring  on  the  water!  Bring  on  the  flood!" 

But  all  you  hear  is  silence,  only  silence,  silence  of  an  empty  chair. 

Jeff  Williams 


25 


A  Cold  and  Black  December  Came  Early  Today 


Sue  Jones 


I'm  not  all  well 
I'm  not  all  here 
I'm  just  drifting 


My  eyes  are  blank 
I  can't  see  the  future 
I  can't  remember  the  past 
All  dressed  in  black 


I  can't  focus 


Watch  the  sky 
Count  from  ten 
I  feel  nothing 
Only  cold 


Restless  energy,  hands  a  flutter, 
creative  juices  flowed. 
Wellspring  of  love,  reaching  others, 
lover  of  those  unloved. 
Happy  of  heart,  spreading  joy, 
laughter  in  every  story. 
Follower  of  God,  lover  of  Christ 
showing  the  path  to  glory. 
Gentle  doe  eyes,  sharing  a  smile, 
crown  of  soft  brown  curls. 
Sweet  life-spirit,  wife  mother  child, 
a  void  left  in  our  world. 


I  love  you.  Mama 


Candace  Johnson 


Kim  Clark 


Hands 

Hand  of  contrast 

With  the  holding  of  two  hands 

Hold  together 

Lives  of  different  worlds. 

Smooth  is  the  hand  of  the  young  girl 
Unaware  of  what  lies  ahead. 
Aged  is  the  hand  of  the  older  woman 
Two  generations  removed. 

One  remembers  a  life  gone  by 
Time  that  just  won't  slow  down. 
The  other  looks  beyond  the  days 
To  a  future  not  yet  found. 

Yesterday  and  tomorrow 
Joined  in  the  moment. 
Time  stopped  briefly 
With  the  holding  of  two  hands. 

Jennifer  Parker 


26 


Ashes  to  Ashes 


I  turn  the  compost  heap 
and  add  to  wet  dark  leaves 
my  kitchen  leavings  of  the  day. 
Nearby  I  see  the  cross 
that  marks  our  beagle's  grave 

and  in  my  heart  I  feel 
the  absence  of  my  mother-in-law, 
dead  now  a  week,  her  leavings 
in  the  Quaker  cemetery  under  trees 
alive  before  the  Revolution. 


Her  death  compounds 
the  major  leavings  of  my  life- 
parents,  Greenwood  Cemetery; 
brother,  silver  box  of  ashes 
on  my  mantel;  close  friends, 


too  many — 

I  turn  my  grief  and  add  new  leavings 
to  the  compost  heap  that  is  my  heart. 


Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


Closet  Alyssa  K.  Herring 

27 


A  London  Alphabet 

All  Hallows  and  St.  Mary  Abbots  Church, 

Albert  with  Victoria,  and  Westminster  Abbey. 

Bridges  and  Big  Ben  and  Buckingham  Palace, 

Billy  Elliot,  Beowulf,  the  Barbican, 

Bobbies  and  Beefeaters,  Beatles  and  Bach. 

Castles,  cathedrals,  chapels.  Coronation  Chair, 

Covent  Garden  and  Cotswolds, 

Christ  Church  and  Canterbury  Cathedral. 

Downing  Street,  Diana's  Walk,  red  double-decker  bus. 

Elizabeth  twice  and  the  London  Eye. 

Fanny  Bumey  and  Fal staff. 

The  Globe  and  many  galleries,  Gutenberg  Bible, 

Gardens  of  old  and  St.  Giles'  Church, 

Several  King  Georges,  and  Mind  the  Gap! 

Hampton  Court  and  several  King  Henrys, 

Handel  and  Herrick,  Harrods  and  Horse  Guards. 

The  Interval  (or  intermission)  and  many  an  ancient  inn, 

Sir  Isaac  Newton  as  the  Thinker  at  the  British  Libraiy 

(and  his  pew  at  St.  Mary  Abbott). 

Johns  and  Jameses  and  Jewels  in  the  Crown. 

King  Lear  at  the  Globe  and  Keats  and  all  the  Kings 

and  High  Street  Kensington. 

Leeds  Casde,  British  Library,  Lear  at  the  Globe, 

New  London  Symphony, 

And  Longfellow  (first  American  at  Abbey). 

British  Museum,  Millennium  Bridge, 

John  Milton's  resting  place, 

A  concert  at  St.  Martin-in-the-Fields, 

St.  Margaret's  Church,  and  Mind  the  Gap! 

National  Gallery  and  Admiral  Nelson. 

Wilfred  Owen  and  a  jaunt  to  Oxford. 

Parliament,  P)'gmalion,  Poet's  Comer,  St.  Paul's. 

Queens  and  quires,  and  ever>'one  queues  up. 

Rosetta  Stone,  Regina,  Rex,  and  Royal  Albert  Hall. 

Shakespeare  and  a  Stratford  jaunt,  the  Sutton  Hoo, 

And  cigarette  pack  warnings,  SMOKING  KILLS! 

Tower  of  London,  Trafalgar  Square, 

Tottenham  Court  Road,  Tate  Modem, 

Take-Away  (our  take-out),  the  Tube  (the  Underground). 

Victoria  Palace  and  Old  Vic,  Victoria  with  Albert, 

Vivaldi's  Gloria  in  concert  at  St.  Martin's. 

Wordsworth  at  Westminster  Abbey, 

Meny  Wives  of  Windsor  at  the  Globe, 

William  with  Mary,  and  Underground  signs  for  "Way  Out." 

X  is  in  Exeter  where  I  really  must  go  next  time! 

Yellow  is  the  Circle  Line  on  the  Underground. 

"Whoreson  zed"  is  Kent's  insult  defending  old  King  Lear! 

Never  too  long  is  the  alphabet 

For  Lomax's  London.  Love! 


Dreaming  the  Gap 

At  every  stop 

on  the  London  tube 

a  pleasant  voice  calls  out 

to  "Mind  the  gap!" 

The  gap  between 
platform  and  train 
is  not  a  threat  until 
the  nightmares  come 

and  then  all  night 
the  "Mind  the  gap!"  resounds 
each  time  the  gap  grows  wide 
and  wider  till  my  size 

diminishes  to  Alice, 
whose  tumble  was  inspired 
by  Christ  Church  College  stair, 
the  Oxford  guide  reminds, 

but  no  kind  voice  warns  how 

Millennium  Bridge 

aquiver  over  Thames 

will  lure  me  toward  the  Globe — 

I  blithely  cross  that  gap 
until  my  eyes  grow  wide 
when  I  see  where  I  am 
and  lose  my  breath 

and  in  the  night 
the  gap  grows  wide 
and  deepens  with  each  call 
of  "Mind  the  gap!" 

Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


28 


Looking  for  Lunch 


Gene  Smith 


Ravenesque 

So  a  dark  bird  has  perched  on  the  plaster  bust, 
turning  green  from  rain  and  algae,  sitting  lonely 
on  the  blue  wooden  boards  of  a  neglected  porch. 

At  times  such  as  these,  certain  questions  must  be 
broached.  For  instance,  are  you  simply  asleep, 
suffering  from  quaffing  of  strange,  strong  liquors? 

Or  did  a  friend,  finding  you  gone,  leave  a  plate 
of  combread  for  you,  only  you  came  in  the  back, 
leaving  a  feast  for  any  old  avian  friend  to  find? 

Perhaps  you  merely  forgot,  in  the  rush  of  morn, 
to  take  your  hthium,  and  now  a  price  must  be 
paid,  a  hallucination  squatting  on  cheap  bric-a-brac. 

While  asking  these  questions,  though,  remember 
heat  and  air  conditioning  cost  money,  and  startled 
birds  are  unpredictable.  To  wit:  shut  fast  the  door! 


Jeff  Williams 


29 


A  White  Mourning 

Mary  Spears 


I  awaken  lo  fierce  bangs  on  the  door  of  my  small  sanctuary.  An  euphoric  brother  yells  the 
joyous  news  through  the  painted  wood.  It  has  snowed!  Finally,  it  has  snowed!  He  loudly  invites 
me  to  come,  come  see  the  glorious  thing  which  hast  now  befallen  us,  this  picturesque  symbol  of 
December  that  evaded  our  town.  Yet,  I  do  not  heed  his  call,  for  it  is  very  warm  beneath  three  lay- 
ers of  wool  and  fabric  and  much  too  early  in  the  day  for  snow  wars.  Uncaring,  I  return  to  sleep 
and  vague  half-dreams. 

Later,  I  am  awakened  by  a  different  noise,  the  absolute  absence  of  sound.  It  seeps  through 
well-built  brick  and  presses  against  me,  harsh  and  unnerving.  From  between  the  thin  slats  of 
window  shades,  soft  rays  pour,  and  the  sharp  gleam  of  winter  reflects  off  the  walls  of  my  bed- 
room. I  slip  out  of  bed  and  dress  hastily  in  the  chilling  air.  Leaving  my  comfortable  lair,  I  creep 
through  our  suburban  castle.  The  house  feels  like  the  coldest  of  stone  chapels  as  I  walk  through 
it,  hoping  the  heating  will  be  fixed  some  time  before  Wednesday.  Shivering  shadows  are  all 
around,  for  the  lamps  are  off,  and  I  dare  not  flip  a  switch  to  turn  them  on.  In  this  darkened  mau- 
soleum, any  light  would  be  sacrilege. 

The  front  door  sticks  as  I  try  to  open  it,  barring  me  maliciously  for  its  own  trite  purposes. 
The  knob  is  an  iron  ice  cube,  and  my  fingers  recoil  from  it  violently,  reminding  me  that  I  have 
forgotten  a  pair  of  gloves  atop  the  cluttered  dresser  of  my  room.  I  forsake  them  and  go  out  any- 
way. 

My  first  impression  of  the  surroundings  is  one  of  quiet  peace.  There  is  such  serenity,  such 
calmness  in  the  atmosphere.  I  inhale  deeply  and  exhale,  watching  my  breath  gambol  and  gavotte 
around  my  face  before  it  disappears.  A  cool,  cheerful  feeling  stirs  within  me. 

Then,  I  truly  notice  the  emptiness.  The  silence  that  first  assailed  me  earlier  now  crushes 
with  its  full  force.  There  is  no  sign  nor  sound  of  any  living  thing.  All  that  was  green,  yellow, 
or  brown  is  now  buried  under  a  blotting  white  blanket.  Even  the  sky  is  not  blue  or  gray  but  a 
strange,  sickening  cottony  color.  Everything  is  shrouded  and  still. 

It  is  strong  and  cruel,  this  magnificent,  blinding  white,  which  now  brings  to  mind  bleached 
bones  and  marble  tombstones.  A  beautiful  death  nevertheless!  The  horrible  perfection  of  it  is 
terrifying,  and  I  search  the  landscape  in  desperation  for  some  ugly  mark,  some  mis-formed  lump, 
some  overlooked  weakness! 

But  there  is  naught.  I  gaze  downwards  in  disappointment.  Then,  I  see  a  muddy  boot  print 
clearly  outlined  on  the  ground,  marring  the  frozen  powder's  false  innocence.  Beyond  it  lie 
others,  a  wide  trail  of  them,  stretching  off  into  a  hazy  distance.  Their  obnoxious  imperfection 
comforts  me.  I  call  out  my  brother's  name  and  run  wildly  into  the  freezing  air,  staining  the  snow 
with  my  own  honest  dirt. 


Excerpt  from  Capricorn  Sol's  Autistic  Genie 

J.  L.  Knoll 


I  looked  out  the  window  hoping  to  meet  Emmy  that  very  same  day.  But  I  knew  that  my  visit 
could  not  last  long  at  her  house.  I  sighed  and  got  dressed  for  school.  School  had  stai'ted  only  a 
couple  of  months  ago,  and  I  already  knew  that  Emmy  would  not  be  there  at  school,  for  she  was 
going  to  go  to  another  school  in  New  York.  It  was  a  feeling  of  loss  and  deprivation  at  the  big 
move  for  Emmy,  who  was  my  best  friend  since  kindergarten.  She  had  been  there  thi^ough  my 
tough  times  and  my  good  times.  And  when  Emmy  was  not  around,  I  still  had  Danny  to  take  care 
of  me.  But  in  my  heart,  I  wished  that  Danny  and  Dad  would  get  along  hke  they  used  to  back 
when  I  was  younger. 

I  shed  some  tears  as  I  walked  toward  my  locker.  I  wiped  them  away  impatiently  because 
I  did  not  want  anyone  to  see  my  crying.  When  I  got  there,  I  opened  up  my  locker  and  found 
something  that  I  had  not  seen  before.  It  was  a  pink  pearl  that  shimmered  with  the  brightest  pink, 
and  it  was  caged  and  put  on  a  pretty  chain  that  swirled  with  great  craftsmanship.  I  looked  around 
to  make  sure  that  no  one  was  looking,  and  I  put  on  the  chain.  The  pink  pearl  glowed  around  my 
neck  as  though  it  was  meant  to  be  there.  I  knew  that  someone  would  try  to  steal  a  pink  pearl 
away  from  me,  so  I  tucked  the  chain  inside  my  shirt. 

I  grabbed  my  proper  books,  and  I  rushed  to  class.  There,  Mr.  Horne,  the  science  teacher, 
called  the  roll,  and  when  he  got  to  Emmy's  name,  I  told  him  that  Emmy  would  be  moving  veiy 
soon.  He  checked  off  Emmy's  name,  and  he  said,  "Well,  I  would  like  you  all  to  take  a  look  at 
our  pictures  of  science." 

When  the  bell  rang  ending  school,  I  went  home  on  the  bus,  hoping  that  Emmy  had  not  moved 
away  yet.  I  went  over  to  Emmy's  house  to  say  one  last  goodbye  to  her  before  her  big  move,  but 
somehow,  the  pain  of  sadness  that  I  was  feeling  deeply  inside  began  to  swell  up. 

Emmy  was  helping  with  her  packing,  and  she  saw  me  and  said,  "I'm  sorry  that  I  have  to 
move  away." 

"I  know,"  I  replied  sadly.  "I  hope  you  can  come  and  visit  me  sometime  on  your  summer 
vacation." 

"My  parents  would  probably  be  too  busy  by  that  time,"  said  Emmy,  patting  me  on  the  back. 
"Maybe  when  they  have  the  time,  I  can  come  and  visit  you  during  one  of  my  vacations." 

I  nodded,  and  then,  I  realized  that  I  was  crying.  I  brushed  away  the  tears,  but  it  seemed  like 
they  were  flooding  out  of  my  eyes.  Emmy  must  have  noticed  my  sadness,  and  then  she  said,  "I 
really  will  miss  you.  I  know  how  hard  it  is  for  you  to  make  new  friends  when  I  am  gone." 

"I  know.  I  will  miss  you  too." 

Emmy  hugged  me,  and  it  was  the  last  hug  she  gave  me  before  she  left  in  the  morning. 


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Punky 


April  Crow 


Brother,  please,  give  up  on  me 

Can  a  man  of  your  complexion 
walk  in  my  direction? 
Brother,  please. 
Give  up  on  me! 

Don't  even  try  to  get  my  detection 
without  a  BMW  and  a  PH.D! 

Roethyll  Lunn 


The  Lady  Behind  the  Glass 

A  lonely  little  man 
In  a  lonely  little  world 
Stares  up  at  a  window 
At  a  lonely  little  girl 

His  thoughts  begin  to  wonder 
About  the  lady  behind  the  glass 
Tempting  him  to  toss  a  pebble 
For  an  opportunity  to  ask 

Robert  Linley  McCoy 


32 


The  "Buffalo" 

Sahrina  Kornegay 


The  story  begins  with  a  woman  gazing  out  of  a  window  into  a  field  of  buffalo.  The  old  buffalo 
farthest  away  is  frail  from  age  and  years  of  stress  on  her  body.  Another  buffalo  still  fights  to  be 
strong  but  knows  deep  down  she  too  will  soon  suffer  the  same  fate  as  the  older  buffalo.  Finally, 
the  youngest  of  the  buffalo  stands  closest  to  the  window,  halfway  down  a  path  that  forks  two  ways 
at  the  end.  One  side  of  the  forked  path  leads  to  the  other  two  buffalo.  The  other  is  a  long  and 
winding  road  of  something  too  far  away  to  make  out,  a  road  of  uncertainty  and  unknown.  The 
road  is  full  of  hills  and  rocks  and  many  other  obstacles  that  appear  only  as  hardships  and  chal- 
lenges. The  woman  stares  more  closely  out  the  window.  She  stares  so  closely  and  for  so  long 
that  she  can  make  out  every  detail  of  the  buffalo.  She  can  see  every  strand  of  reddish  brown  fur 
around  its  face  and  each  small  puff  of  warm  air  that  blows  from  its  snout,  almost  fogging  the  mir- 
ror with  each  of  its  breaths.  The  most  intriguing  obsen'ation  is  that  of  the  left  eye  of  this  buffalo. 
The  top  eyelid  pulsates  and  twitches  involimtarily  back  and  forth. 

Just  then,  her  concentration  is  broken  by  the  annoyance  that  puts  her  in  front  of  the  mirror  in 
the  first  place.  She  watches  as  her  upper  left  eyelid  dances  to  an  unknown  beat.  She  closes  her 
eye  and  applies  pressure,  hoping  to  gain  the  control  she  must  have,  wondering  how  long,  how 
much  more  she  can  take,  how  long  before  she  ends  up  as  deathly  ill  as  those  before  her,  those 
with  this  same  personality.  This  personality  motivates  her  and  drives  her  to  do  things  most  indi- 
viduals would  not  in  their  right  minds  attempt.  This  personality  forces  her  to  aim  for  perfection, 
to  never  settle,  to  know  that  she  can  do  it  all.  This  personality  taunts  her  when  she  settles  for 
something.  This  personality  was  finally  given  a  title  in  her  PSY  150  class  .  .  .  Buffalo. 

Yes,  I  am  a  buffalo.  I  must  be  great  at  all  that  I  do,  all  that  I  know  I  can  do.  Even  when 
grades  are  not  important,  all  that  matters  is  that  I  at  least  make  a  C;  I  can  not  settle.  I  must  push 
to  the  limit,  past  the  limit  when  possible.  The  difference  between  an  A  and  a  B,  an  A  and  an 
A+  is  haunting.  Shouldn't  a  B  be  okay,  though?  I'm  a  mom  of  two  toddlers,  work,  take  car  of 
the  home  and  money,  and  go  to  school  full  time.  Isn't  it  okay  to  make  a  B  or  C?  No,  I  have  no 
excuses.  There  is  no  point  in  trying  to  reason  with  myself.  I  am  always  right. 

My  mom,  too,  is  always  right.  Her  mom  is  right  as  well.  Even  when  we  all  disagree,  each 
of  us  is  right.  They  too  are  that  of  the  buffalo  personality.  My  grandmother's  personality  has 
clashed  with  everyone  else's.  Married  and  divorced  four  times,  she  is  perfect,  and  all  of  these 
men  are  not.  Nothing  is  wrong  with  her,  and  now  she  drinks  away  the  pain  of  perfections  each 
night,  alone. 

My  mom  too  could  do  it  all — single  mom  of  three  working  three  jobs — but  we  knew  when 
school  started  again  we  would  always  get  new  clothes  and  one  pair  of  name  brand  shoes.  How 
could  any  mom  turn  a  few  dollars  into  everything  we  needed  and  a  lot  of  what  we  wanted? 
Nothing  could  stop  her!  She  was  perfect  and  stronger  than  the  world  until  she  was  in  the  hospi- 
tal, 90  pounds  and  stressed  beyond  repair.  She,  too,  has  been  married  numerous  times.  She,  too, 
is  alone. 

I  am  just  as  strong  as  they  are,  stronger  even.  The  stress  can  not  take  me;  it  will  not.  I  keep 
pushing  and  building  my  tolerance  and  endurance.  I'm  stronger.  I  have  to  be.  The  twitch  will 
go  away;  it  may  come  back,  but  I  will  learn  to  control  it.  I  will  conquer  it  like  every  other  chal- 
lenge I  have  faced.  It  will  not  defeat  me! 

So,  now,  I  stand  like  the  buffalo  at  a  fork  in  the  road.  How  can  I  win? 

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Goldsboro  Spring 

Mulberry,  Walnut,  Evergreen, 

all  streets  fit  for  a  bride, 

where  dogwoods  white  and  dogwoods  pink 

proclaim  the  Eastertide. 

Their  arching  hues  go  on  for  blocks, 
a  feast  for  hungry  eyes, 
and  in  the  arch  a  heav'nly  blue 
backdrop  of  April  skies. 


Schroedinger's  parakeet 

sits  in  his  cage,  grooming  yellow 
feathers,  eating  seeds,  twittering 
nervously.  How  will  his  world 
be  different?  After  the  appointed 
moment,  will  he  finally  be  free 
of  his  nemesis,  free  to  fearlessly 
flap  his  wings,  or  will  his  feline 
foe  stare  back  at  him,  thinking 
as  it  watches  the  cage,  will  this 
or  will  this  not  be  the  day. 


Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


Jeff  Williams 


Frog  Shade  Gene  Smith 


34 


Revelation 

Theresa  White-Wallace 


I  was  fifteen  years  old  and  was  running  as  fast  as  I  could  down  the  winding  hallway.  Not 
far  behind  was  a  crowd  of  people  who  were  also  running  to  safety.  Finally,  I  came  to  this  enor- 
mous rectangle  shaped  room.  The  ceiling  was  high,  and  the  floor  was  made  of  white  marble. 
The  longest  part  of  the  wall  was  made  of  glass.  I  knew  I  would  be  safe  once  I  was  on  the  other 
side  of  the  glass  wall.  I  also  knew  what  lived  beneath  the  staircase  on  the  other  side.  I  would  be 
okay,  but  the  people  behind  me  would  be  hurt.  The  crowd  was  getting  closer  as  I  ran  toward  the 
double  glass  doors.  I  had  to  make  it  to  the  doors  before  the  crowd  got  too  close.  I  was  tired  and 
out  of  breath.  The  crowd  ascended  on  the  doors  as  soon  as  I  closed  them.  I  could  hear  bodies 
slam  against  the  glass.  From  left  to  right,  people  were  crawling  over  each  other.  The  glass  wall 
was  now  a  sea  of  people.  The  crowd  would  eventually  make  it  through  the  doors,  but  there  was 
nothing  I  could  do  for  them  once  they  made  their  way  to  the  other  side.  They  would  be  hurt. 

Everything  became  dark  as  I  turned  my  back  to  the  crowd.  I  could  barely  see  the  open 
staircase  that  ran  the  width  of  the  wall.  The  creature  that  lived  under  the  staircase  would  not  hurt 
me,  but  the  people  on  the  other  side  of  the  wall  would  not  be  as  lucky.  I  could  feel  the  heat  from 
the  creature  on  the  back  of  my  legs  as  I  made  my  way  down  the  long  staircase.  When  I  got  to  the 
bottom  of  the  staircase,  I  saw  two  blonde  haired  children  around  four  years  of  age.  I  recognized 
the  children  because  I  had  encountered  them  before.  I  knew  danger  was  around  the  corner  as  it 
always  was  when  the  children  were  involved.  At  that  moment,  I  wished  that  I  had  not  seen  them. 
I  had  protected  them  in  the  past,  but  I  was  afraid  that  I  would  not  be  able  to  do  that  this  time. 

Not  far  from  the  staircase  was  a  wooden  door  that  led  to  daylight  on  the  other  side.  It  was 
so  dark  that  the  children  and  I  could  barely  see  as  we  made  our  way  toward  the  door.  I  began  to 
hear  screams  as  I  closed  the  door  behind  us.  The  crowd  had  broken  through  the  glass  doors.  The 
creature  was  waiting  for  them.  I  picked  up  the  little  girl  and  took  the  hand  of  the  little  boy.  I  told 
them  that  we  were  going  to  walk  up  the  path  that  led  to  the  road  above.  I  also  told  them  that  we 
would  be  safe,  but  whatever  they  heard,  they  were  not  to  look  back  or  they  would  be  hurt.  The 
screams  seemed  to  get  louder  as  we  made  our  way  up  the  path.  Once  there,  I  put  the  little  girl 
down  and  took  her  hand.  As  we  stood,  the  first  of  the  wounded  began  to  make  their  way  up  the 
path.  I  couldn't  believe  my  eyes.  Everyone's  clothes  were  singed  from  the  heat.  Most  had  red 
burn  mai^ks,  and  everyone  had  orange  size,  red,  round,  open  wounds.  The  scorpion  that  lived 
under  the  staircase  had  burned  and  stung  the  people.  Only  a  few  survived  and  managed  to  make 
it  through  the  wooden  door.  The  children  and  I  stood  still  as  the  last  of  the  survivors  passed. 
Everything  was  now  quiet.  The  screaming  below  had  stopped. 

I  turned  to  the  children  and  said,  "Let's  go."  The  paved  road,  green  trees,  and  mountains 
disappeared.  Ahead,  the  land  was  flat.  As  far  as  the  eye  could  see  was  sand.  Lying  on  the  side 
of  the  road  was  a  skull  of  a  cow.  As  I  looked  at  the  skull,  I  noticed  something  unusual  about  one 
of  the  eye  sockets.  Inside  the  socket  I  saw  darkness  and  one  little  star.  The  star  twinkled.  I  woke 
up.  What  a  dream! 


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I  Smiled 


I  awakened  to  loud  raining 
and  I  smiled 

I  walked  outside  and  saw  dark  clouds 
and  I  smiled 

The  sky  was  black  and  overcast 
and  I  smiled 

The  crisp  air  was  bitingly  cold 
and  I  smiled 

The  wind  had  stayed  at  bay  today 
and  I  smiled 

I  waltzed  through  the  steady  downpour 
and  I  smiled 

Robert  Linley  McCoy 


Ominous 

The  soft,  cool  spring  breeze 

Dances  through  the  trees 

Tickling  slumbering  humans 

As  they  lie  nestled  in  roped  berths 

Or  on  hard  wooden  planks  of  porches. 

Everything  is  in  serenity. 

Twilight  marches  before  dusk 
Broadcasting  his  approach. 
All  becomes  silent 
Deathly  silent. 

Robert  Linley  McCoy 


36 


The  Answer 

Marc  Mahan 


Ruthie  was  born  on  June  25,  1966.  One  day  when  Rulhie  was  five  years  old,  she  asked 
her  mom  and  dad  a  very  important  question.  Not  sure  of  the  answer,  they  put  the  question  off 
onto  someone  else.  "That's  a  question  best  suited  for  God.  One  day,  maybe,  He  will  tell  you  the 
answer." 

Ruthie  promptly  wrote  to  God  asking  him  the  question.  Ruthie,  it  should  be  noted, 
believed  that  God  was  a  wizened  old  man  who  lived  in  the  clouds.  On  a  scrap  of  paper,  Ruthie 
jotted  down  what  she  most  needed  to  know.  She  also  included  her  address  in  case  God  didn't 
know  where  to  send  the  answer.  Ruthie  knew  of  only  one  way  the  question  could  reach  God. 
She  fastened  the  note  to  the  end  of  the  string  of  a  helium  balloon  and  let  it  float  away. 

The  wind  currents  carried  the  balloon  across  the  Atlantic  Ocean,  all  the  way  to  North 
Africa  where  it  eventually  lost  its  lift  and  was  discovered  by  the  talented  musician  Philippe.  Un- 
fortunately, because  the  note  was  written  in  English,  Philippe  didn't  not  understand  the  question. 
He  went  to  see  his  American  friend  Melissa  who  he  hoped  might  translate  it  for  him. 

"Could  you  tell  me  what  this  says?" 

Melissa  studied  the  paper  with  a  furrowed  brow.  "It's  a  question  and  damned  if  I  know 
the  answer.  Perhaps  my  boyfriend  Roger  would  know — his  nose  is  always  in  a  book  learning 
about  one  thing  or  another."  That  evening  she  handed  Roger  the  question. 

"Do  you  know  the  answer  to  this?" 

Roger  took  the  note  and  carefully  read  over  the  question  that  was  written  in  crayon. 
"Most  curious.  What  are  the  chances  of  this  note  making  its  way  to  me?" 
"Why,  does  the  question  hold  some  significance  for  you?" 

"Indeed  it  does.  If  there's  one  thing  in  this  world  that  I'm  sure  of,  it's  the  answer  to  this 
question."  He  slipped  on  his  pants  and  began  hunting  for  his  shoes. 
"What  are  you  doing?" 

"What  does  it  look  like?  I'm  leaving  for  America." 
"Roger,  this  is  ridiculous;  it's  just  a  silly  little  question." 

"Melissa,  somewhere  out  there,"  he  said  gesturing  to  the  world  at  large,  "there  is  a  child 
who  needs  an  answer.  I  have  to  go."  He  stood  up  with  purpose. 
"Don't  be  crazy!  You  could  always  respond  by  post." 

"You  and  I  both  know  that  the  African  mail  system  cannot  be  trusted.  I  must  go."  He 
placed  his  hands  on  her  shoulders  and  moved  her  aside. 

"If  you  leave,  I  won't  be  here  when  you  get  back." 
"Then,  I  guess,  this  is  farewell." 

Roger,  mad  with  determination,  swam  into  the  ocean.  After  nearly  drowning,  he  washed 
up  on  the  beach.  Realizing  that  swimming  was  not  an  option,  he  decided  to  fly  instead.  He 
bought  a  plane  ticket  with  the  last  of  his  money,  leaving  him  penniless.  Once  in  the  air,  Roger 
remembered  why  he'd  left  America  in  the  first  place.  He"d  fled  to  Africa  to  dodge  the  Vietnam 
War  draft,  but  nothing  was  going  to  stop  him  from  delivering  the  answer 

Upon  landing,  he  was  immediately  arrested  and  thrown  into  prison  for  draft  evasion. 
Roger  served  two  hard  years  of  backbreaking  labor  and  social  reform.  Through  it  all,  the  dream 
of  delivering  the  answer  kept  him  from  becoming  bitter. 

After  being  released  from  jail,  Roger  was  broke.  He  knew  he  had  to  make  some  traveling 

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money.  The  only  job  Roger  could  lind  was  as  a  garbage  man.  Day  after  day,  he  slung  trash,  and 
by  night,  he  slept  in  a  halfway  house.  Soon  he  had  saved  enough  money  to  buy  a  bus  ticket  to 
the  town  in  which  the  girl  lived. 

Roger  boarded  the  bus  with  the  hope  that  his  journey  was  nearing  its  end.  His  fellow  pas- 
sengers stared  at  Roger  in  disgust  and  gave  him  a  wide  berth.  By  this  time,  the  stench  and  grime 
of  his  recent  profession  had  overtaken  him.  It  was  no  matter  to  Roger  what  people  thought  about 
him  because  he  knew  the  answer.  From  where  the  bus  deposited  him,  he  still  had  thirty-two 
miles  of  ground  to  cover.  Had  he  known  this,  he  would  have  worked  the  extra  day  needed  to  earn 
money  to  buy  new  walking  shoes. 

Ten  hours,  and  one  heat  stroke  later,  Roger  arrived  at  his  destination.  Weak  with  dehydra- 
tion and  covered  with  cracked  bleeding  sunburned  skin,  he  stumbled  onto  the  street  where  Ruthie 
lived.  An  alarmed  neighbor  promptly  called  the  police  to  report  a  vagrant  and  possible  deviant 
who  had  wandered  into  their  lives. 

Roger  stopped  at  a  mailbox,  took  out  the  well-worn  scrap  of  paper,  and  confirmed 
Ruthie's  address.  His  heart  swelled — he  had  made  it.  He  knocked  on  the  door  with  considered 
restraint.  Now  that  he  was  here,  he  wanted  to  shout  the  answer  at  the  top  of  his  lungs.  An  older 
woman,  Ruthie's  mother  Roger  assumed,  opened  the  door.  "Yes..."  was  all  she  managed  before 
her  eyes  widened  in  terror,  and  the  color  vanished  from  her  face. 

"Ruthie,"  Roger  croaked.  "I  need  to  see  Ruthie." 

This  was  all  Ruthie's  mother  needed  to  hear  to  know  that  his  man  was  trouble.  She  tried 
to  shut  the  door  but  Roger,  ever  determined,  stepped  forward  into  the  house.  "Ruthie!"  her 
mother  screamed.  "Run  to  your  room  and  lock  the  door!" 

"But  I  have  something  for  Ruthie,"  Roger  tried  to  explain. 

Roger  attempted  to  get  pass  Ruthie's  mother,  but  she  blocked  him  with  her  body.  She 
was  willing  to  fight  him.  That's  when  the  police  arrived. 

Roger  refused  to  give  up  and  went  down  swinging.  He  pleaded  with  the  cops  that  he 
alone  had  the  answer  that  Ruthie  needed  if  only  he  could  see  her.  To  the  cop's  ears,  this  sounded 
very  bad.  In  the  struggle  with  the  police,  he  had  lost  the  one  thing  that  would  support  and  defend 
his  mad  claim — the  scrap  of  paper  on  which  Ruthie's  question  was  written. 

The  police  finally  managed  to  handcuff  Roger  and  placed  him  into  the  back  of  a  squad 

car. 

Ruthie,  now  that  the  bad  man  had  been  captured,  left  the  safety  of  her  room.  She  spotted 
the  piece  of  paper  on  the  floor  and  recognized  it  immediately.  Nearly  two  years  had  passed  since 
she'd  written  her  question,  but  it  had  never,  not  even  once,  left  her  mind.  Picking  up  the  paper, 
she  ran  outside  to  the  street  to  where  everyone  had  gathered  to  watch  the  crazed  lunatic  be  hauled 
away  by  the  police.  Roger,  from  the  back  seat  of  the  squad  car,  notice  a  young  girl  emerge  from 
the  crowd  with  a  familiar  scrap  of  paper  in  hand.  He  met  her  eyes  and  saw  understanding  there. 
In  that  instant,  she  perceived  that  this  wild  man  had  traveled  years  and  miles  and  suffered  count- 
less ordeals  so  that  he  could  give  her  the  answer. 

The  sirens  started  up,  indicating  departure. 

"The  answer!  What  is  it?"  Ruthie  frantically  yelled. 

Tears  of  joy  spilled  down  Roger's  sun  burned  and  bruised  face.  Finally,  he  was  going  to 
be  able  to  give  her  the  answer  after  all.  As  the  police  car  began  to  pull  away,  Roger  put  his  head 
against  the  window  and  shouted  to  Ruthie.  "Yes!  The  answer  is  Yes." 

A  smile  leapt  onto  Ruthie's  face.  She  heard  his  muffled  answer  and  knew  it  to  be  true. 

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Dream  Sparrow 

For  the  sea  is  a  black-scaled  monster 
who  hides  between  the  mountains 
we  live  on,  waiting  for  someone 
to  set  foot  on  him  so  he  can 
drag  them  down  into  his  folds. 

But  my  father  was  smarter 
than  the  sea  and  sent  us  by  air 
toward  our  goal. .  .all  of  us 
except  our  cunning  sparrow, 
who  chirped  that  he'd  rather  walk. 

So  unmeasured  time  passed 

before  we  would  see  my  bird  again, 

and  while  I  feared  he  would  die, 

he  fought  puddles,  rivers,  and  waterfalls 

until  he  was  stronger  than  us  all. 

Yet  the  sea  seemed  undaunted 
as  our  brave  sparrow  approached, 
feathers  ruffled,  ready  to  kill, 
with  his  sharp  beak  aimed  true 
to  the  sea-monster's  scaled  belly. 

And  the  scales  burst  from  the  creature, 
turning  into  raindrops  as  they  fell, 
and  the  monster  lost  its  form  and  swirled 
back 

into  itself,  its  dying  cry  a  loud  wave 
that  swept  over  out  mountain. 

So  now  we  sail  over  the  monster's  grave 
in  our  little  ski  towards  the  land 
we  were  told  of  years  ago,  the  place 
that  will  be  worth  all  our  travels, 
a  new  place  to  call  home. 

Alison  Rawleigh 


Plates  Brent  Hood 


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How  to  Kill  a  Balloon  Animal 

Jennifer  Lynn  tiohhs 

Balloon  animals  are  perhaps  the  most  evil  creatures  on  this  planet.  Sure,  they  are  cute, 
and  children  enjoy  playing  with  them,  but  something  is  beneath  the  surface  that  not  many  people 
know.  They  wait  for  children  to  fall  in  love  with  them;  then,  they  die.  They  deliberately  break 
children's  hearts!  Balloon  animals  must  be  stopped!  We  must  destroy  all  of  them  before  they 
hurt  somebody  else.  Killing  them  is  simple.  Bob  will  demonstrate  how  it  is  done. 

Before  Bob  begins,  he  will  need  a  few  items.  The  first  of  these  items  is  a  non-see-through 
bag  such  as  a  purse  or  possibly  a  book  bag.  The  second  set  of  items  he  will  need  is  tea  and  cook- 
ies. He  will  also  need  candy,  preferably  Twizzlers  and  Gummy  Bears,  but  any  kind  will  work. 
All  of  these  items  can  be  purchased  at  a  local  grocery  store  for  a  minimal  price.  Bob  will  also 
need  a  basic  sewing  needle  and  escargot  (which  is  optional  and  will  be  left  up  to  Bob  on  whether 
or  not  he  wants  to  use  it). 

The  first  step  in  killing  these  creatures  is  finding  them.  Bob  has  to  hunt  down  a  clown. 
Clowns  are  easily  recognizable,  though.  They  are  usually  surrounded  by  lots  of  children  and 
wear  brightly  colored  clothes.  If  that  is  not  enough,  just  look  for  a  big  red  nose.  Now  Bob  has 
found  the  creator  of  these  horrific  animals.  He  will  have  to  find  a  hiding  place  close  to  the  clown 
and  the  balloon  animal.  Bob  must  wait  for  the  clown  to  leave  the  animal  alone  (a  diversion  may 
have  to  be  planned  for  this).  After  the  clown  has  left,  Bob  will  sneak  closer  to  the  animal,  being 
careful  and  making  sure  that  no  one  sees  him. 

After  he  has  chosen  his  method.  Bob  will  have  to  get  the  balloon  animal  to  come  to  him. 
This  part  can  be  tricky  unless  he  knows  what  to  do.  Bob  can  always  try  to  call  it  to  him.  He  will 
call  it  just  like  he  would  a  cute  dog.  Bob  will  get  down  on  his  knees,  hold  his  hand  out,  and  call 
out  to  it.  If  that  does  not  work,  there  is  always  bribery.  Balloon  animals  love  candy.  Their  favor- 
ites are  Twizzlers  and  Gummy  Bears,  but  any  type  of  candy  will  work. 

It  is  now  time  for  Bob  to  make  his  move.  He  will  have  to  be  quick  on  this  part  and  make 
absolutely  sure  that  he  is  not  seen.  The  target  is  now  in  his  range.  Bob  must  leap  from  his  spot 
and  grab  the  unsuspecting  victim.  He  will  quickly  throw  it  into  the  bag  that  he  purchased  earlier. 

The  balloon  animal  will  probably  be  extremely  scared  at  his  time,  which  takes  the  fun  out 
of  it.  Once  he  gets  home,  Bob  will  try  to  get  it  to  relax  and  feel  as  comfortable  as  possible.  He 
will  try  having  a  friendly  chat  over  Twizzlers  and  Gummy  Bears,  and  he  will  ask  it  about  its  fam- 
ily and  how  life  has  been.  Bob  will  also  apologize  for  scaring  and  kidnapping  it. 

The  animal  is  now  relaxed  and  a  little  more  trusting  of  Bob.  The  time  is  right  for  him  to 
carry  out  his  plan:  1.  sticking  it  with  a  needle  or  2.  sitting  on  it.  If  he  chooses  to  stab  it,  he  will 
casually  excuse  himself  from  the  room.  He  will  pull  out  a  basic  sewing  needle  and  quietly  walk 
up  to  the  back  of  the  chair  in  which  the  animal  is  sitting.  He  will  reach  around  and  quickly  prick 
the  balloon  with  the  needle.  It  will  make  a  loud  popping  sound  as  it  explodes. 

'Accidentally"  sitting  on  it  might  be  a  bit  easier.  It  requires  no  materials  and  can  be  dis- 
missed with  a  simple  "Oops."  All  Bob  has  to  do  is  just  come  into  the  room  with  more  Gummies 
making  sure  that  his  back  is  to  the  chair  that  the  animal  occupies.  Bob  will  calmly  sit  down,  pre- 
tending that  he  does  not  know  that  the  balloon  is  there.  He  will  wait  until  he  hears  the  popping 
sound  and  then  jump  up  and  cover  his  mouth  as  he  says  his  escape  clause.  "Oops"  takes  care  of 
everything. 


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The  deed  is  now  done.  Bob  has  done  his  part  in  ridding  this  world  of  the  evil  creatures 
known  as  balloon  animals.  Now,  for  the  last  step  on  his  journey.  It  is  time  to  dispose  of  the 
evidence.  Bob  will  gather  all  the  pieces  that  are  left  of  the  balloon.  He  can  throw  them  in  a  fire. 
This  method  is  effective,  but  the  scent  is  not  the  best  in  the  world.  Of  course,  there  is  always 
Plan  B.  It  is  more  costly,  but  it's  worth  it  in  the  end.  Bob  can  have  a  few  friends  over  for  a 
formal  get  together  and  scatter  the  remaining  pieces  of  his  kill  into  a  plate  of  escargot.  He  will 
then  serve  the  dish  to  his  guests  and  watch  as  the  evidence  disappears.  No  one  will  ever  suspect 
a  thing  because  everyone  knows  that  snails  taste  like  balloons. 


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Seconds  and  Exponents 

Jon  Cronin 

Everyone  does  something  stupid  at  some  point  in  life.  The  trick  is  to  learn  from  that 
stupid  something  and  move  forward.  Then  again,  the  problem  with  the  word  "trick"  is  that  tricks 
need  to  be  learned.  Some  people  learn  quickly — others?  Not  so  much.  When  it  really  comes 
down  to  business,  it  does  not  matter  what  happened,  why  it  happened,  where  it  happened,  or 
whose  fault  it  was.  I  have  come  to  believe  that  life  is  nothing  more  than  a  series  of  interesting 
choices.  Through  hands-on  encounters,  I  have  also  learned  that  those  choices  come  with  conse- 
quences. Life  is  fragile,  and  the  smallest  of  things — one  second  in  our  lives — can  have  a  huge 
impact. 

Scientists  estimate  that  the  time  the  brain  spends  on  making  a  decision — a  choice — is 
equal  to  about  one  second.  Although  people  may  dwell  on  something  for  several  hours  or  even 
days,  most  people  tend  to  have  their  minds  already  set  on  one  decision  or  the  other  long  before 
they  finish  "thinking."  In  fact,  according  to  one  study,  mostly  the  only  thing  done  during  that 
"thinking"  phase  is  a  battle  with  that  crazy  little  thing  called  conscience.  Parents  teach  their  chil- 
dren that  choices  have  consequences.  That  lesson  is  one  that  people  often  learn  the  hard  way  a 
couple  of  times.  Interestingly  enough,  it  turns  out  that  this  essential  life  lesson  can  be  explained 
with  math.  It  is  time  to  break  out  a  calculator  and  let  math  illustrate  just  how  fragile  life  really  is. 

The  first  thing  to  figure  is  how  many  minutes  are  in  100  seconds.  The  calculator  says  that 
100  seconds  is  equal  to  1.66  minutes.  So,  applying  the  rules  of  exponents,  it  stands  to  reason 
that  1000  seconds  is  the  same  as  16  minutes  and  40  seconds.  Now,  this  is  where  it  gets  gritty. 
One  million  seconds  rounded  to  the  nearest  minute  is  about  one  week,  four  days,  thirteen  hours, 
and  37  minutes.  One  billion  seconds  rounded  to  the  nearest  day  is  the  same  as  31  years  and  285 
days. 

Now  for  a  break.  Looking  at  the  difference  between  one  million  seconds  and  one  billion 
seconds  shows  the  fragility  of  life.  If  a  person  lived  to  be  ninety,  he  would  hit  the  million  second 
mark  some  3,000  times,  but  he  would  hit  the  billion  second  mark  only  three  times.  It  is  a  simple 
rule  of  powers  and  exponents,  but  is  remarkable  when  illustrated  in  the  manner  of  time.  Next, 
the  calculator  says  that  one  trillion  seconds  is  equal  to  3,178  years.  Mankind  has  not  even  hit  the 
one  trillion  second  mark  since  the  beginning  of  A.D.  calendar,  and  over  2000  yeai  s  have  passed. 
Last,  how  long  would  it  take  to  reach  100  trillion  seconds?  The  answer  there  is  31 7,808  years. 
Well,  that  is  longer  than  the  human  race  has  been  in  existence. 

Now,  does  one  second  seem  to  make  a  difference  in  a  period  of  over  317,000  years? 
Well,  how  could  it?  It  seems  to  be  way  too  short  a  time.  Yet,  a  terminal  disease  such  as  cancer 
starts  with  merely  one  bad  cell.  One  bad  cell  can  lead  to  a  person's  death.  Life  is  fragile,  and  the 
smallest  of  things — one  second  in  a  person's  life — can  have  a  huge  impact. 


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My  Monster 

I  don't  know  how  this  happened 
In  2000 

I  wanted  a  web  site 

The  monster  was  born 

It  was  cute  and  Uttle  at  first 

But  then 

I  wanted  more 

I  was  told  that  I  couldn't  do  it 

It  would  be  too  big 

But  I  didn't  listen 

I  fought  to  get  the  password 

Today 

I  have  a  monster  on  my  hands 
Now  bigger  than  the  sky 
And  still  growing 

Candace  Johnson 


The  Infamous  Him 

Walking  down  the  hallway 
Palms  sweating 
Heartbeat  racing 
Look  around  to  see 
If  he  is  there 

Who  you  ask 
Him 

The  infamous  him 

The  one  I  need 

The  one  I  hear  say  I  love  you 

He  tells  me  I  am  great 

He  cherishes  me  in  all  I  do 

I  stop 

I  turn  around  and  see  him 
The  infamous  him 
My  prince  charming 

Brittany  Evrard 


The  Alien  Flower 

In  an  entangled  swamp  of  green, 
There  lies  the  strangest  of  earthly  plants, 
A  monster  that  awaits 
And  devours  flies,  spiders,  and  ants. 

The  deceptive  flora  stands 
Among  the  normal  flowers. 
But  the  naked  eye  can  see 
It  isn't  really  one  of  ours. 

Who's  ever  heard  of  a  rose 
That  ate  the  meat  of  the  living? 
The  thorns  on  this  jagged  flower 
Are  not  quite  so  forgiving. 

The  imposter  has  no  muscles 
And  no  stomach  for  its  food. 
And  it  never  bares  a  conscience 
For  the  lives  it  freshly  chewed. 

So,  beware  the  monster  flower, 
For  it  is  not  as  it  seems. 
As  you  gaze  at  its  fanged-mouth, 
You  know  not  what  it  schemes. 

Preston  Sharpe 


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No  Bloodshed  During  Snowfall 


The  snow'  dusted  neighborhoods  Shiite  and  Sunni  alike,  faintly 
falling,  as  James  Joyc  e  wrote,  like  the  decent  of  their  last  end,  the 
living  and  the  dead...  A  flurry  is  a  swift  and  passing  Joy. 

—  Associated  Press,  January  12,  2008 

The  long-haired  Filipino  kid  with  dolorous  eyes 

sits  up  front  with  me.  Two  more  and  a  small  Chinese  Girl, 

Suk  Li,  called  Shirley,  ride  in  back 

We  have  feasted 
On  Lebanese  food  at  Neo  Monde — kibi,  tabooly,  laban — 
and  studied  together  for  hours  at  the  Museum  of  Art: 
Roman  torsos,  Egyptian  heads,  African  masks, 
Melanesian  pipes,  a  Wyeth  house,  an  O'Keeffe  church, 
a  modern  college  of  gun,  funnel,  barbed  wire  and  rocks, 
early  American  portraits.  "Those  men—"  Shirley  pointed 
to  three  be-wigged  people  on  the  wall  "look  like — 
your  Founding  Fathers?"  The  black  security  guard 
has  taken  our  laughing  picture  before  a  mobile  with  flowers 
and  butterflies  shaped  like  a  fighter  plane. 

Now  the  radio  says 
that  is  has  snowed  in  Baghdad  after  eighty  years.  We  pass 
a  row  of  crabapple  trees  blooming  deep  pink  in  January. 
A  flurry  is  a  swift  and  passing  joy. 

Margaret  Boothe  Baddour 


Azalea  Danielle  Castillo 

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Remembering  a  Royal  Woman 


Royal,  the  perfect  name  for  her, 
slender,  elegant,  gliding 
down  our  halls  and  through  our  lives, 
never  losing  her  life's  balance 
or  her  brilliant  smile 
despite  recurring  obstacles. 
Practical,  efficient,  effective,  serious, 
gentle,  smiling,  giggling,  excited. 

She  loved  good  students,  good  papers, 
good  books,  good  coffee,  good  clothes, 
good  shopping,  and  good  friends. 
She  created  beauty  in  her  needlework 
and  in  her  home,  but  her  greatest  joy 
was  her  family,  beginning 
with  her  childhood  sweetheart. 


Medical  events  she  arranged 

at  the  convenience  of  her  classes. 

Illness  never  stopped  her  kindnesses 

or  her  calls  to  her  sick  friends. 

Her  pew  at  St.  Stephen's — rarely  empty. 

Royal,  the  perfect  name  for  Sharon, 

Queen  of  the  Writing  Center, 

Queen  of  English  1 1 3  and  Virginia  Woolf, 

Queen  of  American  literature, 

a  queen  in  many  hearts  at  WCC, 

reigning  still  in  her  legacy 

of  good  teaching. 

Rosalyn  F.  Lomax 


She  shed  a  tear  as  the  fall  semester 
kept  her  from  her  grandchild 
until  evening.  She  flashed  a  smile 
sharing  news  of  one  daughter's 
theater  work  or  enjoying  a  dinner 
for  women  educators 
with  her  other  daughter. 
She  reveled  in  the  story  as  her  husband 
told  how  their  grandchild  had  said, 
"B  is  for  the  Beatles." 


In  memoiy  of 
Sharon  Royal,  1947  -2008 


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