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RENAISSANCE 



The Writers' and Artists' Magazine ofWayne Community College 
Goldsboro, North Carolina 
Volume 25, May 2009 



STUDENT AWARDS 



Cover Design Danielle Castillo 

Art Andrew Harper 

Essay Bob Hensley 

Essay Jimmy David Hicks 

Poetry Robert Linley McCoy 



EDITORS 



Kathryn Spicer Jeff Williams 
Rosalyn Lomax, Editor Emerita Marian Westbrook, Editor Emerita 



ACKNOWLEDGMENTS 



Faculty: Margaret Boothe Baddour and Torey Romero 



Staff: Theresa White-Wallace 



Student: Tanisha Eutsey 



Educational Support Technologies Department: Majena Howell 
The Foundation of Wayne Community College 



Student Government Association 



and 



The Artists and Writers 



Margaret Boothe Baddour's poems "No Bloodshed During Snowfall," 
"The Properties Mistress," "The Transit of Venus" 
are published in Scheherazade, St. Andrews Press, 2009. 



No part of this magazine may be reproduced without pcnnission. Copyright 2009 Renaissance 
Views expressed are those of the individual contributors and do not necessarily reflect the views of the editors or this institution. 



TABLE OF CONTENTS 



Falling Hair 1 Robert Linley McCoy, Associate in Science 

Tiny Droplet 1 Robert Linley McCoy, Associate in Science 

Compost 1 Andrew Harper. 

Wayne Early Middle College High School 

Balance 2 Bob Hensley, Associate in Arts 

Drink 3 Jasmine Hickey, Associate in Arts 

Deep 3 Andrew Harper, 

Wayne Early Middle College High School 

How to Seem Smart 4 Jimmy David Hicks, Associate in Arts 

How Many 5 Danielle Castillo, Associate in Arts 

A Song for Sasser 6 Beth Rawleigh, Associate in Arts 

Remembering W. Steele Sasser 7 Theresa White-Wallace, Secretary, 

Language/Communication Department 
Tools 8 Andrew Harper, 

Wayne Early Middle College High School 

Query in Iambic Dimeter 8 Rosalyn F. Lomax, English Instructor 

A Poem is a Regurgitation 8 Zara Rullman, Wayne Early Middle College High School 

Snake Family 9 Michelle Bailey, Associate in Arts 

The King of Diamonds 9 Alison Rawleigh, Associate in Arts 

There They Are 9 Alyssa K. Herring, Associate in Arts 

Queen Rose 10 Roethyll Lunn, English Instructor 

Red Fez 10 Roethyll Lunn, English Instructor 

Mammy Cat 10 Roethyll Lunn, English Instructor 

Jammin ' 11 Breanna Ponzi, Dual Enrollment 

The Properties Mistress 12 Margaret Boothe Badde^ur, Humanities/Creative 

Writing Instructor 

The Transit of Venus 12 Margaret Boothe Baddour, Humanities/Creative 

Writing Instructor 

Wet 12 Ashley Winders, Associate in Arts 

So Much More 13 Kyle Chegwidden, Associate in Science 

And the Earth Wouldn't Orbit 13 Jeff Williams, English Instructor 

Spring 13 Connie Lord, Associate in Arts 

Why Me! 14 Roethyll Lunn, English Instructor 

Gone 1 4 Danielle Castillo, Associate in Arts 

Shifting Sand 15 Brenda Wooldridge, Office Systems Technology 

Missing 16 Laloya Edwards, Associate in Arts 

To the Golden-Haired Girl 16 Preston Sharpe, Associate in Arts 

Changes and Endings 17 Zara Rullman. Wayne Early Middle College High School 

How I'm feelin' 17 Kyle Chegwidden. Associate in Science 

My Music Always There 18 Zara Rullman, Wayne Early Middle College High School 

Happy Black 18 Alison Rawleigh, Associate in Arts 

The Mother Church of Country Music 18 Brent Hood, Webmaster 

Dropped Change 19 Kourtney Willis, 

Wayne Early Middle College High School 

Live Expression 20 Brent Hood, Webmaster 

The Myth of Solitude 20 Jeff Williams, English Instructor 

Not Admitting to Being Jealous 21 Kyle Chegwidden, Associate in Science 

Missing You 21 Kyle Chegwidden, Associate in Science 

My Mimi, Milly Rawleigh 22 Alison Rawleigh, Associate in Arts 

Eye Catcher 22 Gene Smith, Division Chair, Arts and Sciences 

Moon Flower 23 Michelle Bailey, Associate in Arts 



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Christmas Box 24 Ashley Winders, Associate in Arts 

My Chocolate 24 Danielle Castillo, Associate in Arts 

Into the Mistic 25 Diane Joyner, Math Instructor 

The Flood 25 Jeff Williams, English Instructor 

A Cold and Black December Came Early Today. .26 Candace Johnson, Associate in Arts 

Sue Jones 26 Kim Clark, Math Instructor 

Hands 26 Jennifer Parker, 

Associate Director of Admissions/Records 

Ashes to Ashes 27 Rosalyn F. Lomax, English Instructor 

Closet 27 Alyssa K. Herring, Associate in Arts 

A London Alphabet 28 Rosalyn F. Lomax. English Instructor 

Dreaming the Gap 28 Rosalyn F. Lomax, English Instructor 

Looking for Lunch 29 Gene Smith, Division Chair, Arts and Sciences 

Ravenesque 29 Jeff Williams, English Instructor 

A White Mourning 30 Mary Spears, Dual Enrollment 

Metamorphosis 30 Ashley Winders, Associate in Arts 

Excerpt from Capricorn Sol's Autistic Genie 31 J.L. Knoll, Office Systems Technology 

Punk)' 32 April Crow, Associate in Arts 

Brother, please, give up on me 32 Roethyll Lunn, English Instructor 

The Lady Behind the Glass 32 Robert Linley McCoy, Associate in Science 

The "Buffalo" 33 Sabrina Komegay, Associate in Arts 

Goldsboro Spring 34 Rosalyn Lomax, English Instructor 

Schroedinger's parakeet 34 Jeff Williams, English Instructor 

Frog Shade 34 Gene Smith, Division Chair, Arts and Sciences 

Revelation 35 Theresa White- Wallace, Secretary, 

Language/Communication Department 

I Smiled 36 Robert Linley McCoy, Associate in Science 

Ominous 36 Robert Linley McCoy, Associate in Science 

/ Walk The Line 36 Brent Hood, Webmaster 

The Answer 37 Marc Mahan, Forest Management 

Dream Sparrow 39 Alison Rawleigh, Associate in Arts 

Plates 39 Brent Hood, Webmaster 

How to Kill a Balloon Animal 40 Jennifer Lynn Hobbs. Associate in Science 

Paper Bags 41 April Crow, Associate in Arts 

Seconds and Exponents 42 Jon Cronin, Associate in Arts 

My Monster 43 Candace Johnson, Associate in Arts 

The Infamous Him 43 Brittany Evrard, Associate in Arts 

The Alien Flower 43 Preston Sharpe, Associate in Arts 

No Bloodshed During Snowfall 44 Margaret Boothe Baddour, Humanities/Creative 

Writing Instructor 

Azalea 44 Danielle Castillo, Associate in Arts 

Remembering a Royal Woman 45 Rosalyn F. Lomax, English Instructor 



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Falling Hair 



Running my fingers through my hair 
Because I am bored 
Because it is long 
Because it feels good 
Because it reminds me of you 

It reminds me of your gentle touch 
Of how you smelled it and smiled 
Of how you rubbed it like soft fur 
Of how you twirled it round your fingers 
Of how you pulled it when you felt good 

Running my fingers through my hair 

Deep in thought 

First one hair falls 

Then another and yet another 

A reminder that time catches us all 

Robert Linley McCoy 




Compost Andrew Harpi 



Tiny Droplet 

She fights back the emotions 
Enduring the saline sting 
Trying to hold it all inside 
And not let herself be betrayed 
By such a tiny thing. 

A tiny droplet of water 
Nothing more, so it seems 
Slides slowly to the tip of her nose 
Gets to the edge 

And clings tightly readying for the fall. 

Falling off the edge 

The overlooking ledge 

Downward it travels through the air. 

The distance seems forever. 

It is suspended in space and time. 

Finally it impacts the ground 
With a deafening splash 
Breaking the silence. 
The tiny droplet waits for the others 
For it will surely not be the only one. 

Robert Linley McCoy 



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Balance 

Bob Hensley 

Life is a balancing act that requires inputs from several sources in order to find true stabil- 
ity for the soul. What we do for a living doesn't define who we are; it merely puts a label on us. 
It is like one leg of a three-legged stool; it is necessary, but without the other two legs, we are 
always wobbling and never in balance. For more than twenty years, I served my country in the 
United States Air Force. While many call this a noble act, and I was proud to do my part, my fo- 
cus most of that time was putting in my twenty years and retiring to enjoy the fruits of my labors. 
I was so focused on that objective that I was oblivious to many events around me. When I finally 
reached my goal and retired, instead of feeling content and fulfilled, I felt as if I had awakened 
over the rainbow and landed in Oz, a confusing and alien land. Something was missing. I felt as 
if I were adrift on a sea of emptiness with no clue to my purpose. Then, about five years ago, an 
event happened that changed my life forever. 

My father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and was given only a few months to live. I 
immediately went to him, and that visit gave me my second stool leg and a bit more balance. My 
father grew up with the belief that emotions were best kept bottled up, and showing too much af- 
fection, especially with male children, was not proper. Because of this, whether I did something 
that made him proud or did something to disappoint him, our outward relationship always ap- 
peared quite vanilla. Oh, I knew some of his past, that he had grown up on a farm, worked with 
the railroad, and served in the Navy before running a sales division for his company, but details 
of his life prior to my own were very sketchy. When he asked me if I wanted to know anything 
before he died, I told him I wanted to know stories of his childhood to help me understand him 
better. The stories he told me made him more human and three-dimensional in my mind and 
helped me find peace and closure when he passed a few months later. Always having viewed my 
father as proper and straight-laced, I truly enjoyed hearing about some of the hijinks of his time 
on the farm. I also learned details that he had never shared; for example, on a trip to Europe back 
in the 1960's, he got a parking ticket in France, which he never paid, and for the next thirty years 
he hved in fear that if he ever went back he would be arrested on the spot and thrown in jail. 

We talked for hours during that visit. When it was time for me to leave, I gave my father a 
hug and told him I loved him. My father then did something I had never seen him do before; he 
broke down and actually cried. He said he had never known how I felt about him and wished we 
had talked more about emotions in the past. He said he felt a huge weight had been lifted from 
his shoulders and now felt that his life hadn't been spent in vain, that if I felt that way towards 
him, as did my other siblings, then he must have done something right in life. He said how proud 
he was of us all. I could feel the rift that had kept us apart during life disappear and be replaced 
by inner peace. I started feeling as if I were on the path to truly finding my identity and place in 
life. 

I finally realized just how tenuous and fragile life is and that no one can predict how much 
time he or she has on Earth. This realization has caused me to look at life from different perspec- 
tives, to look at the environment that surrounds us and appreciate the beauty and wonder of life. 
This realization is the final leg to our "stool of life" that gives us stability and makes us complete. 
We are a product of our past, our present, and our surroundings. Since then I have made a con- 



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scious effort to examine things around me; I take time to watch a sunset and marvel at its beauty; 
I slop lo watch a spider spin a web, a masterpiece in its creativity; I watch a hawk float upon air 
currents, free of the confines of Earth. 

While my father's passing was probably the worst tragedy of my life, it was also the one 
event that helped me find myself. I will always remember him as the person who helped me find 
my identity and appreciate what a true blessing life is. Enabling me to find stability, spiritual 
peace, and tranquility, his passing has given me the missing legs of my life stool. 




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How to Seem Smart 

Jimmy David Hicks 



Everyone is plagued with the unfortunate circumstance of seeming unintelHgent. The situ- 
ation could be created from something as simple as tripping while riding an escalator or some- 
thing as complex as coming up with an entire argument on why videogames are pure evil and 
then realizing that no actual evidence is in the argument. Another unfortunate circumstance 
develops when people get overly excited and decide to share views on various situations even 
though the evidence used to base their opinions was just picked up from some guy who can't tell 
the difference between a cat and a giraffe. Needless to say, if anyone in a room actually knows 
what he or she is talking about, the overeager person will likely look a bit foolish. Luckily, there 
are ways for people to give the impression that they are very smart even if their knowledge of 
current affairs or perhaps anything in general is less than reputable. 

The first step of seeming smart is to conquer one's appearance. That's right. For some un- 
fathomable reason, people sometimes base an opinion of someone's intelligence on the person's 
appearance. A great way to dazzle the general spectator is to wear a suit and top hat no matter 
what the occasion. People wearing this attire will be assumed to be smart because, obviously, the 
only possible solution to how they got these clothes is that they graduated from fine institutions 
allowing them to get jobs that would make it possible to buy incredible numbers of suits. If this 
attire is out of the question, another handy outfit is a sweater vest, dress pants, and dress shoes. 
This attire is associated only with prodigious students and people with very important interviews 
and is guaranteed to make people look as though they could recite a dictionary. In extreme situa- 
tions, wearing a simple buttoned up collared shirt will work wonders. 

No matter what the cost, it is important not to look like the guy who wears a beanie and 
sandals with socks and insists on sitting next to the only person in the room even though all the 
chairs are open. 

After the clothing is taken care of, the finer details may be focused on. Corrective lenses at 
some point or another seem to have somehow become associated with intelligence. The most 
impressive style of lens seems to be the monocle, which draws attention even in a crowded room. 
Even without corrective lenses, posture is also an important aspect of seeming smart. Sitting up 
straight with folded hands is a great way to seem deep in thought. If at all possible, swinging a 
cane while walking could be of assistance as it is a nice way to seem mildly coordinated. If good 
posture is not desired, it is a possible to save the appearance by making up a reason for poor 
posture, such as a cool sounding medical condition. A final way to appear intelligent is to at least 
pretend to read a complicated-looking book while listening to classical music. 

Unfortunately, it is impossible to get away entirely with simply looking smart. Eventu- 
ally, some stranger won't be able to contain himself or herself, or a long lost cousin will return 
and make ridiculous demands such as having a conversation. This will require sounding smart 
instead of simply telling the other person to go read the owner's manual of an old handheld game 
console that no one ever plays. The first requirement for sounding smart is speaking with an 
English accent, no matter how fake it may sound. The next step is to use long and painful sound- 
ing words and phrases such as "indubitably" and "metabolic metabolism" in situations that don't 
call for them. Also, instead of saying things like "this is terrible," a better replacement is "the 



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current circumstances are in a state of preposterously poor quality." The final rule is to talk about 
complicated events no matter if the material is grossly misinterpreted or if the conversation is un- 
welcome. A good example of this is to mix two current events together and come up with some 
sort of absurd theory to make them relate. 

A debate is likely to start eventually in any situation that involves a discussion longer than 
one minute. A great way to win an argument is never to admit a mistake, no matter how many 
times it is pointed out and beaten. While knowing something about the topic is a great asset in a 
debate, it is possible to at least give the impression that all knowledge on the topic is known by 
yawning and coughing while the other person is talking. If all else fails, a good conclusion to 
an argument is to mumble something and leave. This is rarely, if ever, considered to be a rude 
gesture, and it can make a person seem so smart that others assume the argument is not even at 
his or her level. 

Not being smart is no excuse to have a reputation that indicates as such. With so many op- 
tions to trick people, it is possible for anyone to be considered smart. Some people would say 
that it is best to not draw attention to oneself, but following this advice is not likely to improve 
one's reputation. Causing spectacles to appear smart is a great way to make people think highly 
of whoever is doing it, whether the person causing the spectacle is actually smart or not. Seem- 
ing smart simply depends on how far someone is willing to go to make a lasting impression on 
people he or she may never meet again. 



Danielle Castillo 



How Many 



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A Song for Sasser 

Beth Rawleigh 

I swear time stopped. 

"I have some bad news," Mom said quietly. "You're going to need to pray for Mr. Sasser's 
family because he passed away last night." 

"Mr. Sasser?" I asked, trying to be sure that what I was attempting to fathom was real. She 
said it was. Some people go through stages of acceptance, but I skipped straight to grief. It was 
as if my heart blew up inside my chest. 

Not Sasser. 

Just then, Billy and my grandma pulled up and heard me say Sasser's name as I covered my 
mouth and burst into tears. He walked up, concerned, and put his arm around me as I asked what 
happened and heard the whole sad story. 

"What's wrong?" Grandma asked Billy. 

"I think she's getting some bad news about her teacher," he answered, rubbing my back. 
"Oh," Grandma answered, "Well, she's probably just already shaken up." As if he were just a 
teacher. 

By the time I hung up with Mom. I was sobbing. 
"That's too bad about your teacher," Grandma said. 

We got in the car, and I continued to cry, not speaking. I just couldn't say anything. What 
could I say? All I could think of was Sasser. 

Grandma asked a couple times if I were okay. I said I was, but I wasn't. "What kind of 
teacher was he?" she asked. 

"Our music teacher," I answered. 

"Aww, that's too bad to lose your music teacher. They always make you feel good," she an- 
swered. 

I wanted to scream at her, "He wasn't JUST my teacher!! He was more than that! He was so 
much more than that!" But I couldn't. Grandma just didn't understand, and I couldn't expect her 
to. 

But inside, I knew. We all knew. Me, Alison, Caroline, Mary, Judith, Anthony, Billy, Rachel 
. . . and the list goes on and on. All the hearts were touched by Sasser and the legacy that he left. 
We loved him, truly loved him. 

Steele Sasser was more than just a music teacher. He gave us music. He was music. And 
more than that, he cared about us. He waited patiently while we goofed off and then buckled 
down when things got out of hand. 

I can still see him standing in front of us, waving his hands as we sang. "Make my hair 
move!" he would yell, and we all messed up in the song from laughing. Sasser was bald. 
Somehow when we face the loss of a loved one, things go into perspective. We realize just how 
short life is, just how insignificant our problems are when we face the true tragedies life dishes 
out. 

Sasser was gone. Gone, not ever coming back. 
Life is just too short. 

I'll never forget the night of the dress rehearsal before our concert in Spring 2008. The high- 



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schoolers had upset Sasser, and that combined with the lack of eating dinner had sent him into 
diabetic shock. He never remembered anything that happened during the span of about an hour 
when he was delirious and said a bunch of silly and incoherent things. I was patting his head with 
a damp paper towel while the nurse tried to encourage him. 

"They don't understand," Sasser was saying, almost unintelligibly "Music is everything." 

"I know," the nurse said, and then she pointed to all of us who were gathered around him. 
"They do understand. Look how much they care about you." 

Sasser rolled his head back and looked up at me with a dazed look and just stared for a min- 
ute. "We love you, Mr. Sasser," I said, smiling at him. 

Finally, he smiled, a little lopsided one, and said, "Yeah." 

I hope the angel chorus in heaven can make your hair move. 



Remembering W. Steele Sasser 

Wired rimmed glasses 
Shiny head 

Sitting on the bench outside 
Puffing on a cigarette 

Flip Flops in the summer 
Sweaters in the winter 

"Hey, Girl, what's going on?" 

"Come downstairs and have some dessert." 

Wheeling you to your office and car 

Hearing you laugh as I almost 

turn your wheelchair over in the elevator 

Bringing you candy and juice when your 
blood sugar dropped 

Reassuring you as your blood sugar rose to 
normal 



Sewing a button on your pants as 
you walked down the hall in your 
graduation gown 

"I am so proud of my students." 
"Come listen to the chorus." 

How nervous you got before each concert 
How well your students performed 

Hearing you talk about your children 
How proud you were of them 

The day I heard the news 

The night I saw you asleep and knew 

you were singing with the angels 

That's what I remember about you 

Theresa White-Wallace 



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Tools Andrew Harper 



Query in Iambic Dimeter 


A Poem is a Regurgitation 


When everything 


A poem is a regurgitation 


that comes to mind 


That happens in the mind 


becomes a Hne 


After putting in the pain and works 


of poetry. 


Or anything you find 


the monologue 


You fill it with the fury 


within myself 


And hope it doesn't melt 


produces books 


You fill it with the misery 


of single lines. 


You wished you hadn't felt 


What if I took 


You assault it with the ink 


my single lines 


You beguile it with lead 


and printed them 


Add in a piece of broken heart 


in one long poem? 


You know it's been well fed 


Is that auto- 


Then you stab it with the knives 


biography 


And you beat it with the sticks 


or is it just 


You acid scorch it with the tears 


a mystery? 


And hope it didn't miss 



Rosalyn F. Lomax 



Zara Rullman 



Snake Family 

My playful cousin is colorful and bright 
and is always a pet for little boys 
to scare their little sisters with 

My little brother is black as the shadows 
he waits within to catch mice that sneak 
into cupboards and steal away the food 

My big brother is striped and strong 

he catches the members of our family that 

drive people mad with their poison 

I am the little sister who is small and green 
I catch the spiders that hide in the grass 
and wait for an unsuspecting victim 

Michelle Bailey 



The King of Diamonds 

The king of diamonds carries his crest 
on his thin, long, oily back. 
He creeps through the tall grass of our lawn, 
glaring at us with death-black eyes. 

He hides his two daggers, but we know 
they are there, poison-tipped, razor-sharp. 
My father grabs his bush ax and meets him 
in the middle of the field. 

The king slips back but raises his head 

and shakes his beaded tail, 

daring my father with his eyes 

to step closer and meet steely fangs. 

The sun shines brightly as two figures freeze, 
their eyes fixed on each other. 
The king sways as if there were wind. 
My father stands on two firm feet. 

Just as the king pulls out his blades, 
my father swings his ax. 
The diamond-crowned head of the king 
falls to lie twitching in the grass. 

Alison Rawleigh 




Queen Rose 

Young women these days 

don't know how to love a man 

Maybe that's why men ain't bother'n 

to ask for their hand 

A woman used to dress up 

and powder her face 

Then let her slip hang a little 

so they could see her lace 

You can laugh now, 

but that was the style then 

Women acted like ladies 

and men were real men 

I use'tah dress up 

and put on my "Evening in Paris" 

And many a young man asked 

for Queen Rose's hand in marriage 

You can believe or not believe 
what I tellin' ya 
Go on and grow old buying 
what women lib's sellin' ya 
Listen to me! 
Find out all about 
what you been missing 
And you'll see 

no degree holds a candle to kissing 

I'm gonna say this, 
and I ain't taking it back 
Have you ever wondered 
why all the ugh-ly women 
driving Cadillacs? 

Roethyll Lunn 



Red Fez 

When 1 saw you 

in your tribal clothing 

and bruised blood colored fez, 

you were a splendor 

in black and white and red. 

I stood there astounded, 
absconded in my stance, 
begging my Southern born hips 
to do a tribal dance. 

Roethyll Lunn 



Mammy Cat 

This isn't the way 
That I really want to be 
But somehow, over the years, 
It just ended up being me. 

I really fought against it, 
but it seems as if I were bound 
to be one of those women 
that just have to run around. 

I tried, I joined the church 

I wanted to be honorably mentioned 

I stayed there for a year 

But they didn't pay any attention. 

So I went back to my husband, 
and he ran me back to my man 
Now this cat is going to run around 
With all the flair she can. 

Roethyll Lunn 



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Jammin' Breanna Ponzi 



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The Properties Mistress 

At the Salvation Army 

I hunt for 1950s telephones — 

those black boxes with dials 

almost obsolete but not antique — 

a green chenille bathrobe, 

and a blue McGuffey's Reader 

Then, slung among the 10-cents books, 

I find Born Again: Together 

and remember us — stranded 

in a small New England town 

going under in Atlantis 

clinging at the Roman coliseum 

and how we touched in Kyoto, 

saying "Sayonara" before the blade, 

leapt from Middle Passage 

into Caribbean waters 

and how the courage of one kiss 

lasts several lifetimes. 

Now, I am just a Mistress — of Props 

but in the cave backstage where 

the tapestry suitcase seems packed 

the wrapped boxes to hold gifts 

the newspaper to be always today's — 

art turns to life and life to truth. 

Surrounded by properties, I won 

nothing — but memory's jolt 

and the taste of that kiss. 

Margaret Boothe Baddour 



The Transit of Venus 

Desiring your view 
she seduces you 
to look at the sun. 
Her soft layers 
fool you, too. 
She is rock hard 
the shimmering orb 
that hangs so low 
in the evening shy — 
a bass of sulfur 
a core of nickel 
and iron. 

Voluptuous Venus 
who double-crosses 
the mighty sun — 
only a teardrop 
in his indifferent 
eye. 

Margaret Boothe Baddour 




Wet 

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Ashley Winders 



So Much More 



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Connie Lord 



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Why Me! 



Lazy phone! 

Won't ring to give me a job. 
Fat cells! 

Making everybody think I'm a slob 
Slow typewriter! 

Won't bang fast enough to get me hired 
Fast clock! 

Always causing me to get fired 

Disability people! 

Won't ever give me a check 

Bad credit! 

Keep people on my neck 
Silly men! 

Won't ever give me a ring 
Rich men! 

Always marry' n Mai Ling 

Adding machine! 
Always finding me at fault 

Slow car! 

Always causing me to get caught 
Poor me! 

Can't never get a break! 

Poor me! Poor me! 

Never could get the right shake! 

Roethyll Lunn 




Gone Danielle Castillo 



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Shifting Sand 

Brenda Wooldridge 



We finally made it to the beach. My family usually made this trip on Mother's Day. It was a 
tradition since my parents had moved to North Carolina four years earlier. Except for Christmas, 
it was the only time when we could all be together. My sisters and I were busy with our families 
and work, and we all lived hours apart from each other. This year we had to delay coming here 
for a few months but for a very good reason. My third child had chosen to be my Mother's Day 
present. 

Arriving early, we unloaded our cars and steered all of our children toward the boardwalk. 
As I neared the bottom step, the salty smell of ocean assaulted my senses. Its slap teased me 
with the alluring call of the beach. The kids scampered on a little ahead of us, exclaiming nois- 
ily. My sisters and their husbands took off after them. Their eyes sparkled with their own child- 
ish delight as they raced to rein in the giggling brood. The kids were like a school of little fish 
as they darted between the legs of their parents. Finally, the game ended, and their small bodies 
were smothered with sunscreen. 

I stayed back with my parents as everyone else made his or her way to the edge of the water. 
Mom put her things down. Then she too walked down and along the shore. Dad pitched our big, 
blue umbrella and laid out the blankets. Then, with his help, I tenderly placed my precious cai^go 
down in the soft, shady spot he had created. Finally free of the blanket covering her, my baby 
giggled and kicked in satisfaction. There I placed a tiny, red pair of sunglasses on her button 
nose and retied the strings of her bonnet. 

My dad would stay there with her. He usually preferred to sit there contentedly watching 
everything around him. His alert eyes scanned the scene as he took his cigarettes from his shirt 
pocket. He lit one of the unfiltered cigarettes and shifted into a more comfortable position. After 
about thirty minutes, I made my way slowly to a spot just short of the rushing water. Its hungry 
roars were louder now, almost deafening with the break of each wave. I sat there for a while em- 
bracing the warmth of the sand as it squished between my toes. Dreamily, I picked up handfuls 
of it and watched it sift through my fingers before gently blowing away. 

Laughter, loud and shrill, caught my attention. I blissfully watched the animated children 
once again run from the adults. It had become a silly game. The kids tried repeatedly to evade 
their parents before being swept up high into the air away from the water. However, as soon as 
their little feet touched the sand, they were off again. Darting back and forth, they looked for 
an opening, trying to answer the beckoning call of the surf. After a time, the exhausted adults 
finally carried the squealing bodies into the waiting arms of the monster once more. 

Then, tired of sitting, I waded past the edge of the great abyss. The waves slapped each 
other. I could feel the foaming glee of water as it hungrily lapped around my ankles. It only 
stayed a second before it pulled back. As the water returned to the vast expanse of its home, it 
took pieces of the beach with it. For now, it was satisfied to take a small amount at a time. It 
seemed to me as if the ocean were stealing a piece of the beach's soul each time as they kissed in 
a never-ending ritual. 

Eventually, I made my way lazily back to the blanket. My dad had adjusted the umbrella to 
shield the baby from the movement of the sun. I silently continued to move closer to the peace- 



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ful scene. He sensed my approach and opened his eyes. He nodded at the baby, letting me know 
she had fallen asleep. I sat down at the edge of their oasis, trying not to disturb her. 

Ultimately, the wind picked up the shifting sands and smacked us repeatedly before carrying 
the tiny particles away on its endless breath. I grabbed the baby, trying to shelter her from the 
clutches of the wind. Then gathering everyone and our things, we rushed to the cars. We had 
scarcely pulled out of the lot before the rains came. 

That trip had been the last time we all went to the beach together. It would also be the last 
time my father saw the ocean. The coal miner's disease had stolen his last breath with its cold, 
black obsidian hands. My sisters were busy watching their own little families grow up. We had 
each been pulled into life's undercurrents. It would be nine years before I would visit that beach 
again. On that day. there was no sign of an impending storm. My children had grown, but their 
sun-kissed faces still lit up with intense joy and excitement as they splashed in the ocean. To me, 
the beach looked virtually the same. The tides still raced to feed upon the sands, scooping it into 
its vast body. The blinding sand was calm as it waited for the next kiss from its lover. We would 
make new memories on that day as we played in the shifting sand and pounding surf. 



To the Golden-Haired Girl 




When the air was still 

And the wind blew 

We held each other's hands 

And they fit hke puzzle pieces. 



When the rain poured 

On your mother's porch 

We stood there in an embrace 

And we made our own umbrellas. 



When the storm disturbed the world 
And that fury had drenched the earth 
All we could see were beach days 
And our molding the sand with our toes 



When the leaves plucked themselves 

From the dead trees 

Your hand slipped from mine 

And autumn winds carried you away. 



Missing 



Latoya Edwards 



When I gaze at the skies 
While I'm lying in the grass 
I envision sapphire eyes beaming 
And the rippling of golden hair. 



Preston Sharpe 

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Changes and Endings 



I want to run away from the world 
Before it says goodbye 
I want to be the one dropped dead 
Then left alone to cry 

I couldn't fathom wishing 
That any sunset comes 
To see a happy afternoon 
End with the downing of the sun 

And when I see the moon 
I think: Why must you go away? 
Likewise when the flower blooms 
I wish at such state it would stay 

I held onto my childhood things 
And thought: "you'll always be the 
same" 

But I awoke and realized 
I was the one that changed 

Zflra Rullman 



How I'm feelin' 

Like a waterfall in the desert 
and a firefly in the dark 
something about you is different 
that just sets you apart 

Beyond what I can imagine 
and all I can understand 
how all the world disappears 
when you hold my hand 

You walk into a room 
and everyone stops and looks 
You remind me of a princess 
from a fairy tale book 

You continue to capture my heart 
and appear in all my dreams 
I couldn't stop this if I tried 
as crazy as it seems 

So I'll go along with feeling 
and I want everyone to know 
I'm holding on to you forever 
because I'm not going to let go 

Kyle Chegwidden 



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My Music Always There 



Happy Black 



Suddenly no signal; nothing was aloud 
As if the sky had opened up 
And bagged away the sound 

The wind hid behind the mountains 
The crickets wouldn't play 
The water stilled in fountains 
And the robins refused say 

The moment was so swift 
As if it was not at all 
Like a crack in the sky 
Caused the music to fall 

My ears opened up 
Like wings onto the air 
That moment it occurred to me 
That it was always there 

Zara Rullman 



Black is the cold night in winter 
the pin-pricked canopy above 
the man in the black leather jacket 
sipping his coffee without cream. 

Black is the man from New Orleans 
who plays his shiny baby grand 
striking his favorite black keys 
reading the inky notes from the sheet 
music. 

Black is the movie theater 
during a mystery's midnight showing 
a couple cuddled in the darkest corner 
while the film's credits scroll. 

Black is the hair of the mother 
who sings to her baby at night 
by the red-edged coals in the fireplace 
drowning in soft soot. 



Alison Rawleigh 




The Mother Church of Country Music 



Brent Hood 



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Dropped Change 

Kourtney Willis 



Scuffing my sneaker clad feet on the hnoleum floor, I leaned against the cash register. I was 
supposed to be doing something. We were always supposed to be busy. I thought about the 
repetitiveness of it all and how it must be life's way of telling me, "you're almost there, soon the 
transformation will be complete. You'll be a mindless working drone without an original thought 
in your head." But work was work I argued with my pessimistic side, and I would just have to 
make the best of it. It was 10:55; the stored closed in a few minutes. I was fully prepared to 
stand there for all five of them lost in my thoughts. Crossing my arms with a huff, I gave the 
plastic light up keys of the register a mean glare. After a few seconds, I let out my breath and let 
my arms swing loose. I couldn't help but think, "That's great, Kourtney. Fm sure the register is 
really intimidated." The sound of footsteps at the end of the counter stopped my personal tirade. 

Coming up the aisle through my line was a woman holding a baby in one hand and in the 
other juggling a quart of milk and a small loaf of bread. I say "woman," but she couldn't have 
been more than twenty. Her hair was loose around her shoulders, and her thin shirt and jeans 
were on the dirty side. She set her stuff on the belt and didn't look at me; instead, she stared at 
the floor as though she were ashamed. She was thin like she hadn't been eating, and she could 
barely look over the top of my head despite being at least three years older than me. The baby 
she held in her arms was asleep in a soft blue onesie and looked clean and well cared for. Soft 
blonde curls covered his head, and he had his thumb stuck in his little pink mouth. 

"Hi... how are you?" I asked, motionless, really meaning it. 

Slowly, she looked up at me, her exhausted brown eyes looking into my probing blue ones. 
"Tired," she offered quietly looking away again. Picking up the quart of milk, I ran it over the 
scanner and put it on the other side of the register and then turned back around to get the bread. 
The total came to about $6.00. I put her things in bags while she got the money together. Look- 
ing up at her through my hair, I saw tears in her eyes as she dug through her bag with one hand 
and held onto her baby with the other. Putting her bags on the end of the counter, I straightened 
and saw what she held in her hand. Three crumpled ones that she quickly gave to me and went 
back to looking in her bag. I could see her struggling to keep the hot tears from sliding down her 
face. Looking from her to the sleeping baby and back, I felt in my back pocket and pulled out a 
five, the only money I had. It was supposed to be for my lunch but... I quickly dropped it so she 
wouldn't see me. "Hey, you must have dropped this," I said picking it up off the counter. Look- 
ing from the money in my hand to me, she looked incredulous. She knew she hadn't dropped 
it. I knew she hadn't dropped it. Pride is a delicate thing. I tapped the buttons on the register. 
When the drawer popped out, I put the money inside. Not looking up, I handed her the receipt 
and told her to have a nice night. Standing there, bags in hand, she looked at me, not at the floor, 
not at the door. She looked up at me. She didn't thank me, and her mouth didn't smile, but her 
eyes did. When she walked to the door, she turned and nodded before heading out into the dark. 



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i^e Expression 



Brent Hood 



The Myth of Solitude 

A poet in isolation is a poet dodging the draft — 
They myth of the lonely riverside garret 
The 4AM bottles of too warm rose 
The skin so pale as to defy the sun — 
Lies, lies, damned hes, and statistics! 

The accoutrements are mere way stations. 
Vesuvius is a hunk of angry stone without 
Its Pompeii to destroy, the Mississippi 
A long lined snake without New Orleans. 
A poet in isolation is a poet chiseling the muse. 

Poe fell alone on a Baltimore street, body 
In mud and muck. His gravekeeper's vigil 
Is so misplaced! He was a poet alone — 
His body a wasteland, his mind 
Post- Apocalyptic, destroyed. 

Jeff Williams 



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Not Admitting to Being Jealous 



You know I'll only fall apart 
Knowing I can't have your heart 
That "we" will never be 
Even though you're everything to me 

To watch you give your heart away 
And just to heai^ you say 
You're loving someone new 
And I'm falling for you 

What is it I'm feeling here 
As I want to disappear 
Tirelessly trying to understand 
Watching you hold his hand 

I don't want to think of you and him 

Or what'll go down when lights are dimmed 

God, I don't even want to care 

But I'm dying when I see you there 

Why do you have to look so great? 
It's just so hard to concentrate 
When I know he's holding you 
Like I always wanted to 

How come I'm just the friend 
And I'm always having to pretend 
That I'm all right with things this way 
And I always have to say 

Things I don't really mean 
And lie about eveiything 
Truth is. he's in my place 
If only you'd see it that way 



Missing You 

I don't know where you are 

or where you have been 

All I know is I'm here 

dying to see you again 

I've held on for years 

waiting for your return 

The meaning of empty 

is just one thing I've learned 

Like the hammock outside 

where you used to swing 

and where you'd tell everything 

It's still there tied to the tree 

where you whispered you loved me 

I still have the albums 

we slow danced to 

and all of the feelings 

that you never knew 

I remember when we talked 

There used to be such a rush 

I wonder if it would still be there 

if we kept in touch 

So, I'll stay a little longer 

and come what will 

because after all this while 

I want you still 

Kyle Chegwidden 



Kyle Chegwidden 



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My Mimi, Milly Rawleigh 



My Mimi, Milly Rawleigh 
Salt and pepper, silver streaks 
In coconut cream cake batter 
Sappy sweet syrup 
Fluffy feather down bed 
Sinky, squishy soft pillows 
Proper paper planning pages 
Dates, deadlines, due-by-when 
Gentle gestures, gingerbread 
Comfy quick cat-nap couch 
Fumbling fingers fondly find 
Plucky piano progressions 
Silly salicylic acid in a 
Slippery, drippy, soapy dish 
A dozen muffins from the oven 
With crispy, crusty, puffy crowns 
With Mimi, Milly Rawleigh 

Alison Rawleigh 




Eye Catcher Gene Smith 



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Moon Flower 

Michelle Bailey 

In the bouquet of flowers are yellow carinas lilies, small little bursts of white cluster roses, 
then a large white flower, called a Moon Flower, with paper thin petals that spread out to be as 
large as a hand with outstretched fingers. That flower does not seem to fit in the bouquet, but it is 
the one that is the most special. 

Months before this flower had ever even blossomed, it was just a picture on a computer 
screen. The flower was bought for Sandy, my mom's best friend. It was bought by Sandy's hus- 
band Mike Miller, my dad's best friend. He thought she would like it because it only bloomed on 
the night of the last full moon of the summer. Only for one night would the flower be seen, and 
because of that, it made it even more beautiful. So he bought it knowing she would love the sus- 
pense of waiting for it to blossom. The day it arrived in the mail, Mike planted it in the garden. 
He made sure she did not see the picture of the flower on the box. He wanted the blossom to be 
a surprise. His wife was excited when he told her what he had done. She always loved surprises, 
especially ones she had to wait for. She loved the wanting to know but not being able to find out. 

A month before the Moon Flower was meant to bloom, Sandy died in a car crash. That day 
was two days before their second wedding anniversary. They had found each other late in life 
but felt as if they had been high school sweethearts. Mike was completely devastated. He did 
not think of anything except how much he missed her. Most of all, he missed their evening in 
the garden. They would tend the flowers and pick their vegetables every evening before dinner. 
Each night a fresh vase of flowers would be on the table. When the funeral was over and he was 
able to work and start living a life without her, he realized the moon flower was due to bloom the 
next night. 

The same night the flower was supposed to bloom, my parents were going to be renewing 
their vows for their 25th wedding anniversary. My parents had known Mike and Sandy for over 
fifteen years. They might as well have been family. We were going to have a small party at our 
house with family and close friends. My parents wanted Mike to read a passage from the Bible 
before they spoke their vows to each other. 

Before Mike left for the party, he noticed the moon flower had blossomed. He went over to 
the small bush with one beautifully pale flower. It looked so fragile that if he touched it, it would 
fall apart. He knelt on the ground before it and wept for his wife. She would have loved see- 
ing the moon flower. They would have sat together on the porch swing and stared at it for hours 
talking about how beautiful it was. If only she were here. He did the only thing he thought he 
should do. He picked the flower and put it in a vase to take to his wife's best friend, my mom. 

When he got to the party, he sought out my mom. She wore a white dress and had a beauti- 
ful bouquet of flowers. Mike then told her the story behind the pale flower. She cried for Sandy. 
Then came the time for Mike to read the passage and for my parents to renew their vows. In the 
bouquet, my mom had stuck in the moon flower. It did not seem to match the rest. It was beauti- 
ful. 



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Christmas Box 



Ashley Winders 




Into the Mistic 



Diane Joyner 



The Flood 

In this land there is absence, in this river there is nothing 

on this tree there are no leaves, only dry twigs and shriveled berries 

so the dreams of all fall like dirt upon the hard pan 

the salt flats and cracked parquet of the desert floor 

in this absence there is no sorrow, no joy, no sense of belonging 

only the silence like an empty chair or naked bed springs. 

And you chant "Bring on the rain! Bring on the water! 

Bring on the flood! Cleanse this wounded land! Let the winds blow 

life and seeds onto newly fertile soils! Let the peace that is belonging 

flow like streams born of ocean tides and cold fronts! 

Bring on the rain! Bring on the water! Bring on the flood!" 

But all you hear is silence, only silence, silence of an empty chair. 

Jeff Williams 



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A Cold and Black December Came Early Today 



Sue Jones 



I'm not all well 
I'm not all here 
I'm just drifting 



My eyes are blank 
I can't see the future 
I can't remember the past 
All dressed in black 



I can't focus 



Watch the sky 
Count from ten 
I feel nothing 
Only cold 



Restless energy, hands a flutter, 
creative juices flowed. 
Wellspring of love, reaching others, 
lover of those unloved. 
Happy of heart, spreading joy, 
laughter in every story. 
Follower of God, lover of Christ 
showing the path to glory. 
Gentle doe eyes, sharing a smile, 
crown of soft brown curls. 
Sweet life-spirit, wife mother child, 
a void left in our world. 



I love you. Mama 



Candace Johnson 



Kim Clark 



Hands 

Hand of contrast 

With the holding of two hands 

Hold together 

Lives of different worlds. 

Smooth is the hand of the young girl 
Unaware of what lies ahead. 
Aged is the hand of the older woman 
Two generations removed. 

One remembers a life gone by 
Time that just won't slow down. 
The other looks beyond the days 
To a future not yet found. 

Yesterday and tomorrow 
Joined in the moment. 
Time stopped briefly 
With the holding of two hands. 

Jennifer Parker 



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Ashes to Ashes 



I turn the compost heap 
and add to wet dark leaves 
my kitchen leavings of the day. 
Nearby I see the cross 
that marks our beagle's grave 

and in my heart I feel 
the absence of my mother-in-law, 
dead now a week, her leavings 
in the Quaker cemetery under trees 
alive before the Revolution. 



Her death compounds 
the major leavings of my life- 
parents, Greenwood Cemetery; 
brother, silver box of ashes 
on my mantel; close friends, 



too many — 

I turn my grief and add new leavings 
to the compost heap that is my heart. 



Rosalyn F. Lomax 




Closet Alyssa K. Herring 

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A London Alphabet 

All Hallows and St. Mary Abbots Church, 

Albert with Victoria, and Westminster Abbey. 

Bridges and Big Ben and Buckingham Palace, 

Billy Elliot, Beowulf, the Barbican, 

Bobbies and Beefeaters, Beatles and Bach. 

Castles, cathedrals, chapels. Coronation Chair, 

Covent Garden and Cotswolds, 

Christ Church and Canterbury Cathedral. 

Downing Street, Diana's Walk, red double-decker bus. 

Elizabeth twice and the London Eye. 

Fanny Bumey and Fal staff. 

The Globe and many galleries, Gutenberg Bible, 

Gardens of old and St. Giles' Church, 

Several King Georges, and Mind the Gap! 

Hampton Court and several King Henrys, 

Handel and Herrick, Harrods and Horse Guards. 

The Interval (or intermission) and many an ancient inn, 

Sir Isaac Newton as the Thinker at the British Libraiy 

(and his pew at St. Mary Abbott). 

Johns and Jameses and Jewels in the Crown. 

King Lear at the Globe and Keats and all the Kings 

and High Street Kensington. 

Leeds Casde, British Library, Lear at the Globe, 

New London Symphony, 

And Longfellow (first American at Abbey). 

British Museum, Millennium Bridge, 

John Milton's resting place, 

A concert at St. Martin-in-the-Fields, 

St. Margaret's Church, and Mind the Gap! 

National Gallery and Admiral Nelson. 

Wilfred Owen and a jaunt to Oxford. 

Parliament, P)'gmalion, Poet's Comer, St. Paul's. 

Queens and quires, and ever>'one queues up. 

Rosetta Stone, Regina, Rex, and Royal Albert Hall. 

Shakespeare and a Stratford jaunt, the Sutton Hoo, 

And cigarette pack warnings, SMOKING KILLS! 

Tower of London, Trafalgar Square, 

Tottenham Court Road, Tate Modem, 

Take-Away (our take-out), the Tube (the Underground). 

Victoria Palace and Old Vic, Victoria with Albert, 

Vivaldi's Gloria in concert at St. Martin's. 

Wordsworth at Westminster Abbey, 

Meny Wives of Windsor at the Globe, 

William with Mary, and Underground signs for "Way Out." 

X is in Exeter where I really must go next time! 

Yellow is the Circle Line on the Underground. 

"Whoreson zed" is Kent's insult defending old King Lear! 

Never too long is the alphabet 

For Lomax's London. Love! 



Dreaming the Gap 

At every stop 

on the London tube 

a pleasant voice calls out 

to "Mind the gap!" 

The gap between 
platform and train 
is not a threat until 
the nightmares come 

and then all night 
the "Mind the gap!" resounds 
each time the gap grows wide 
and wider till my size 

diminishes to Alice, 
whose tumble was inspired 
by Christ Church College stair, 
the Oxford guide reminds, 

but no kind voice warns how 

Millennium Bridge 

aquiver over Thames 

will lure me toward the Globe — 

I blithely cross that gap 
until my eyes grow wide 
when I see where I am 
and lose my breath 

and in the night 
the gap grows wide 
and deepens with each call 
of "Mind the gap!" 

Rosalyn F. Lomax 



Rosalyn F. Lomax 



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Looking for Lunch 



Gene Smith 



Ravenesque 

So a dark bird has perched on the plaster bust, 
turning green from rain and algae, sitting lonely 
on the blue wooden boards of a neglected porch. 

At times such as these, certain questions must be 
broached. For instance, are you simply asleep, 
suffering from quaffing of strange, strong liquors? 

Or did a friend, finding you gone, leave a plate 
of combread for you, only you came in the back, 
leaving a feast for any old avian friend to find? 

Perhaps you merely forgot, in the rush of morn, 
to take your hthium, and now a price must be 
paid, a hallucination squatting on cheap bric-a-brac. 

While asking these questions, though, remember 
heat and air conditioning cost money, and startled 
birds are unpredictable. To wit: shut fast the door! 



Jeff Williams 



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A White Mourning 

Mary Spears 



I awaken lo fierce bangs on the door of my small sanctuary. An euphoric brother yells the 
joyous news through the painted wood. It has snowed! Finally, it has snowed! He loudly invites 
me to come, come see the glorious thing which hast now befallen us, this picturesque symbol of 
December that evaded our town. Yet, I do not heed his call, for it is very warm beneath three lay- 
ers of wool and fabric and much too early in the day for snow wars. Uncaring, I return to sleep 
and vague half-dreams. 

Later, I am awakened by a different noise, the absolute absence of sound. It seeps through 
well-built brick and presses against me, harsh and unnerving. From between the thin slats of 
window shades, soft rays pour, and the sharp gleam of winter reflects off the walls of my bed- 
room. I slip out of bed and dress hastily in the chilling air. Leaving my comfortable lair, I creep 
through our suburban castle. The house feels like the coldest of stone chapels as I walk through 
it, hoping the heating will be fixed some time before Wednesday. Shivering shadows are all 
around, for the lamps are off, and I dare not flip a switch to turn them on. In this darkened mau- 
soleum, any light would be sacrilege. 

The front door sticks as I try to open it, barring me maliciously for its own trite purposes. 
The knob is an iron ice cube, and my fingers recoil from it violently, reminding me that I have 
forgotten a pair of gloves atop the cluttered dresser of my room. I forsake them and go out any- 
way. 

My first impression of the surroundings is one of quiet peace. There is such serenity, such 
calmness in the atmosphere. I inhale deeply and exhale, watching my breath gambol and gavotte 
around my face before it disappears. A cool, cheerful feeling stirs within me. 

Then, I truly notice the emptiness. The silence that first assailed me earlier now crushes 
with its full force. There is no sign nor sound of any living thing. All that was green, yellow, 
or brown is now buried under a blotting white blanket. Even the sky is not blue or gray but a 
strange, sickening cottony color. Everything is shrouded and still. 

It is strong and cruel, this magnificent, blinding white, which now brings to mind bleached 
bones and marble tombstones. A beautiful death nevertheless! The horrible perfection of it is 
terrifying, and I search the landscape in desperation for some ugly mark, some mis-formed lump, 
some overlooked weakness! 

But there is naught. I gaze downwards in disappointment. Then, I see a muddy boot print 
clearly outlined on the ground, marring the frozen powder's false innocence. Beyond it lie 
others, a wide trail of them, stretching off into a hazy distance. Their obnoxious imperfection 
comforts me. I call out my brother's name and run wildly into the freezing air, staining the snow 
with my own honest dirt. 




Excerpt from Capricorn Sol's Autistic Genie 

J. L. Knoll 



I looked out the window hoping to meet Emmy that very same day. But I knew that my visit 
could not last long at her house. I sighed and got dressed for school. School had stai'ted only a 
couple of months ago, and I already knew that Emmy would not be there at school, for she was 
going to go to another school in New York. It was a feeling of loss and deprivation at the big 
move for Emmy, who was my best friend since kindergarten. She had been there thi^ough my 
tough times and my good times. And when Emmy was not around, I still had Danny to take care 
of me. But in my heart, I wished that Danny and Dad would get along hke they used to back 
when I was younger. 

I shed some tears as I walked toward my locker. I wiped them away impatiently because 
I did not want anyone to see my crying. When I got there, I opened up my locker and found 
something that I had not seen before. It was a pink pearl that shimmered with the brightest pink, 
and it was caged and put on a pretty chain that swirled with great craftsmanship. I looked around 
to make sure that no one was looking, and I put on the chain. The pink pearl glowed around my 
neck as though it was meant to be there. I knew that someone would try to steal a pink pearl 
away from me, so I tucked the chain inside my shirt. 

I grabbed my proper books, and I rushed to class. There, Mr. Horne, the science teacher, 
called the roll, and when he got to Emmy's name, I told him that Emmy would be moving veiy 
soon. He checked off Emmy's name, and he said, "Well, I would like you all to take a look at 
our pictures of science." 

When the bell rang ending school, I went home on the bus, hoping that Emmy had not moved 
away yet. I went over to Emmy's house to say one last goodbye to her before her big move, but 
somehow, the pain of sadness that I was feeling deeply inside began to swell up. 

Emmy was helping with her packing, and she saw me and said, "I'm sorry that I have to 
move away." 

"I know," I replied sadly. "I hope you can come and visit me sometime on your summer 
vacation." 

"My parents would probably be too busy by that time," said Emmy, patting me on the back. 
"Maybe when they have the time, I can come and visit you during one of my vacations." 

I nodded, and then, I realized that I was crying. I brushed away the tears, but it seemed like 
they were flooding out of my eyes. Emmy must have noticed my sadness, and then she said, "I 
really will miss you. I know how hard it is for you to make new friends when I am gone." 

"I know. I will miss you too." 

Emmy hugged me, and it was the last hug she gave me before she left in the morning. 



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Punky 



April Crow 



Brother, please, give up on me 

Can a man of your complexion 
walk in my direction? 
Brother, please. 
Give up on me! 

Don't even try to get my detection 
without a BMW and a PH.D! 

Roethyll Lunn 



The Lady Behind the Glass 

A lonely little man 
In a lonely little world 
Stares up at a window 
At a lonely little girl 

His thoughts begin to wonder 
About the lady behind the glass 
Tempting him to toss a pebble 
For an opportunity to ask 

Robert Linley McCoy 



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The "Buffalo" 

Sahrina Kornegay 



The story begins with a woman gazing out of a window into a field of buffalo. The old buffalo 
farthest away is frail from age and years of stress on her body. Another buffalo still fights to be 
strong but knows deep down she too will soon suffer the same fate as the older buffalo. Finally, 
the youngest of the buffalo stands closest to the window, halfway down a path that forks two ways 
at the end. One side of the forked path leads to the other two buffalo. The other is a long and 
winding road of something too far away to make out, a road of uncertainty and unknown. The 
road is full of hills and rocks and many other obstacles that appear only as hardships and chal- 
lenges. The woman stares more closely out the window. She stares so closely and for so long 
that she can make out every detail of the buffalo. She can see every strand of reddish brown fur 
around its face and each small puff of warm air that blows from its snout, almost fogging the mir- 
ror with each of its breaths. The most intriguing obsen'ation is that of the left eye of this buffalo. 
The top eyelid pulsates and twitches involimtarily back and forth. 

Just then, her concentration is broken by the annoyance that puts her in front of the mirror in 
the first place. She watches as her upper left eyelid dances to an unknown beat. She closes her 
eye and applies pressure, hoping to gain the control she must have, wondering how long, how 
much more she can take, how long before she ends up as deathly ill as those before her, those 
with this same personality. This personality motivates her and drives her to do things most indi- 
viduals would not in their right minds attempt. This personality forces her to aim for perfection, 
to never settle, to know that she can do it all. This personality taunts her when she settles for 
something. This personality was finally given a title in her PSY 150 class . . . Buffalo. 

Yes, I am a buffalo. I must be great at all that I do, all that I know I can do. Even when 
grades are not important, all that matters is that I at least make a C; I can not settle. I must push 
to the limit, past the limit when possible. The difference between an A and a B, an A and an 
A+ is haunting. Shouldn't a B be okay, though? I'm a mom of two toddlers, work, take car of 
the home and money, and go to school full time. Isn't it okay to make a B or C? No, I have no 
excuses. There is no point in trying to reason with myself. I am always right. 

My mom, too, is always right. Her mom is right as well. Even when we all disagree, each 
of us is right. They too are that of the buffalo personality. My grandmother's personality has 
clashed with everyone else's. Married and divorced four times, she is perfect, and all of these 
men are not. Nothing is wrong with her, and now she drinks away the pain of perfections each 
night, alone. 

My mom too could do it all — single mom of three working three jobs — but we knew when 
school started again we would always get new clothes and one pair of name brand shoes. How 
could any mom turn a few dollars into everything we needed and a lot of what we wanted? 
Nothing could stop her! She was perfect and stronger than the world until she was in the hospi- 
tal, 90 pounds and stressed beyond repair. She, too, has been married numerous times. She, too, 
is alone. 

I am just as strong as they are, stronger even. The stress can not take me; it will not. I keep 
pushing and building my tolerance and endurance. I'm stronger. I have to be. The twitch will 
go away; it may come back, but I will learn to control it. I will conquer it like every other chal- 
lenge I have faced. It will not defeat me! 

So, now, I stand like the buffalo at a fork in the road. How can I win? 

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Goldsboro Spring 

Mulberry, Walnut, Evergreen, 

all streets fit for a bride, 

where dogwoods white and dogwoods pink 

proclaim the Eastertide. 

Their arching hues go on for blocks, 
a feast for hungry eyes, 
and in the arch a heav'nly blue 
backdrop of April skies. 



Schroedinger's parakeet 

sits in his cage, grooming yellow 
feathers, eating seeds, twittering 
nervously. How will his world 
be different? After the appointed 
moment, will he finally be free 
of his nemesis, free to fearlessly 
flap his wings, or will his feline 
foe stare back at him, thinking 
as it watches the cage, will this 
or will this not be the day. 



Rosalyn F. Lomax 



Jeff Williams 




Frog Shade Gene Smith 



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Revelation 

Theresa White-Wallace 



I was fifteen years old and was running as fast as I could down the winding hallway. Not 
far behind was a crowd of people who were also running to safety. Finally, I came to this enor- 
mous rectangle shaped room. The ceiling was high, and the floor was made of white marble. 
The longest part of the wall was made of glass. I knew I would be safe once I was on the other 
side of the glass wall. I also knew what lived beneath the staircase on the other side. I would be 
okay, but the people behind me would be hurt. The crowd was getting closer as I ran toward the 
double glass doors. I had to make it to the doors before the crowd got too close. I was tired and 
out of breath. The crowd ascended on the doors as soon as I closed them. I could hear bodies 
slam against the glass. From left to right, people were crawling over each other. The glass wall 
was now a sea of people. The crowd would eventually make it through the doors, but there was 
nothing I could do for them once they made their way to the other side. They would be hurt. 

Everything became dark as I turned my back to the crowd. I could barely see the open 
staircase that ran the width of the wall. The creature that lived under the staircase would not hurt 
me, but the people on the other side of the wall would not be as lucky. I could feel the heat from 
the creature on the back of my legs as I made my way down the long staircase. When I got to the 
bottom of the staircase, I saw two blonde haired children around four years of age. I recognized 
the children because I had encountered them before. I knew danger was around the corner as it 
always was when the children were involved. At that moment, I wished that I had not seen them. 
I had protected them in the past, but I was afraid that I would not be able to do that this time. 

Not far from the staircase was a wooden door that led to daylight on the other side. It was 
so dark that the children and I could barely see as we made our way toward the door. I began to 
hear screams as I closed the door behind us. The crowd had broken through the glass doors. The 
creature was waiting for them. I picked up the little girl and took the hand of the little boy. I told 
them that we were going to walk up the path that led to the road above. I also told them that we 
would be safe, but whatever they heard, they were not to look back or they would be hurt. The 
screams seemed to get louder as we made our way up the path. Once there, I put the little girl 
down and took her hand. As we stood, the first of the wounded began to make their way up the 
path. I couldn't believe my eyes. Everyone's clothes were singed from the heat. Most had red 
burn mai^ks, and everyone had orange size, red, round, open wounds. The scorpion that lived 
under the staircase had burned and stung the people. Only a few survived and managed to make 
it through the wooden door. The children and I stood still as the last of the survivors passed. 
Everything was now quiet. The screaming below had stopped. 

I turned to the children and said, "Let's go." The paved road, green trees, and mountains 
disappeared. Ahead, the land was flat. As far as the eye could see was sand. Lying on the side 
of the road was a skull of a cow. As I looked at the skull, I noticed something unusual about one 
of the eye sockets. Inside the socket I saw darkness and one little star. The star twinkled. I woke 
up. What a dream! 



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I Smiled 



I awakened to loud raining 
and I smiled 

I walked outside and saw dark clouds 
and I smiled 

The sky was black and overcast 
and I smiled 

The crisp air was bitingly cold 
and I smiled 

The wind had stayed at bay today 
and I smiled 

I waltzed through the steady downpour 
and I smiled 

Robert Linley McCoy 



Ominous 

The soft, cool spring breeze 

Dances through the trees 

Tickling slumbering humans 

As they lie nestled in roped berths 

Or on hard wooden planks of porches. 

Everything is in serenity. 

Twilight marches before dusk 
Broadcasting his approach. 
All becomes silent 
Deathly silent. 

Robert Linley McCoy 




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The Answer 

Marc Mahan 



Ruthie was born on June 25, 1966. One day when Rulhie was five years old, she asked 
her mom and dad a very important question. Not sure of the answer, they put the question off 
onto someone else. "That's a question best suited for God. One day, maybe, He will tell you the 
answer." 

Ruthie promptly wrote to God asking him the question. Ruthie, it should be noted, 
believed that God was a wizened old man who lived in the clouds. On a scrap of paper, Ruthie 
jotted down what she most needed to know. She also included her address in case God didn't 
know where to send the answer. Ruthie knew of only one way the question could reach God. 
She fastened the note to the end of the string of a helium balloon and let it float away. 

The wind currents carried the balloon across the Atlantic Ocean, all the way to North 
Africa where it eventually lost its lift and was discovered by the talented musician Philippe. Un- 
fortunately, because the note was written in English, Philippe didn't not understand the question. 
He went to see his American friend Melissa who he hoped might translate it for him. 

"Could you tell me what this says?" 

Melissa studied the paper with a furrowed brow. "It's a question and damned if I know 
the answer. Perhaps my boyfriend Roger would know — his nose is always in a book learning 
about one thing or another." That evening she handed Roger the question. 

"Do you know the answer to this?" 

Roger took the note and carefully read over the question that was written in crayon. 
"Most curious. What are the chances of this note making its way to me?" 
"Why, does the question hold some significance for you?" 

"Indeed it does. If there's one thing in this world that I'm sure of, it's the answer to this 
question." He slipped on his pants and began hunting for his shoes. 
"What are you doing?" 

"What does it look like? I'm leaving for America." 
"Roger, this is ridiculous; it's just a silly little question." 

"Melissa, somewhere out there," he said gesturing to the world at large, "there is a child 
who needs an answer. I have to go." He stood up with purpose. 
"Don't be crazy! You could always respond by post." 

"You and I both know that the African mail system cannot be trusted. I must go." He 
placed his hands on her shoulders and moved her aside. 

"If you leave, I won't be here when you get back." 
"Then, I guess, this is farewell." 

Roger, mad with determination, swam into the ocean. After nearly drowning, he washed 
up on the beach. Realizing that swimming was not an option, he decided to fly instead. He 
bought a plane ticket with the last of his money, leaving him penniless. Once in the air, Roger 
remembered why he'd left America in the first place. He"d fled to Africa to dodge the Vietnam 
War draft, but nothing was going to stop him from delivering the answer 

Upon landing, he was immediately arrested and thrown into prison for draft evasion. 
Roger served two hard years of backbreaking labor and social reform. Through it all, the dream 
of delivering the answer kept him from becoming bitter. 

After being released from jail, Roger was broke. He knew he had to make some traveling 

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money. The only job Roger could lind was as a garbage man. Day after day, he slung trash, and 
by night, he slept in a halfway house. Soon he had saved enough money to buy a bus ticket to 
the town in which the girl lived. 

Roger boarded the bus with the hope that his journey was nearing its end. His fellow pas- 
sengers stared at Roger in disgust and gave him a wide berth. By this time, the stench and grime 
of his recent profession had overtaken him. It was no matter to Roger what people thought about 
him because he knew the answer. From where the bus deposited him, he still had thirty-two 
miles of ground to cover. Had he known this, he would have worked the extra day needed to earn 
money to buy new walking shoes. 

Ten hours, and one heat stroke later, Roger arrived at his destination. Weak with dehydra- 
tion and covered with cracked bleeding sunburned skin, he stumbled onto the street where Ruthie 
lived. An alarmed neighbor promptly called the police to report a vagrant and possible deviant 
who had wandered into their lives. 

Roger stopped at a mailbox, took out the well-worn scrap of paper, and confirmed 
Ruthie's address. His heart swelled — he had made it. He knocked on the door with considered 
restraint. Now that he was here, he wanted to shout the answer at the top of his lungs. An older 
woman, Ruthie's mother Roger assumed, opened the door. "Yes..." was all she managed before 
her eyes widened in terror, and the color vanished from her face. 

"Ruthie," Roger croaked. "I need to see Ruthie." 

This was all Ruthie's mother needed to hear to know that his man was trouble. She tried 
to shut the door but Roger, ever determined, stepped forward into the house. "Ruthie!" her 
mother screamed. "Run to your room and lock the door!" 

"But I have something for Ruthie," Roger tried to explain. 

Roger attempted to get pass Ruthie's mother, but she blocked him with her body. She 
was willing to fight him. That's when the police arrived. 

Roger refused to give up and went down swinging. He pleaded with the cops that he 
alone had the answer that Ruthie needed if only he could see her. To the cop's ears, this sounded 
very bad. In the struggle with the police, he had lost the one thing that would support and defend 
his mad claim — the scrap of paper on which Ruthie's question was written. 

The police finally managed to handcuff Roger and placed him into the back of a squad 

car. 

Ruthie, now that the bad man had been captured, left the safety of her room. She spotted 
the piece of paper on the floor and recognized it immediately. Nearly two years had passed since 
she'd written her question, but it had never, not even once, left her mind. Picking up the paper, 
she ran outside to the street to where everyone had gathered to watch the crazed lunatic be hauled 
away by the police. Roger, from the back seat of the squad car, notice a young girl emerge from 
the crowd with a familiar scrap of paper in hand. He met her eyes and saw understanding there. 
In that instant, she perceived that this wild man had traveled years and miles and suffered count- 
less ordeals so that he could give her the answer. 

The sirens started up, indicating departure. 

"The answer! What is it?" Ruthie frantically yelled. 

Tears of joy spilled down Roger's sun burned and bruised face. Finally, he was going to 
be able to give her the answer after all. As the police car began to pull away, Roger put his head 
against the window and shouted to Ruthie. "Yes! The answer is Yes." 

A smile leapt onto Ruthie's face. She heard his muffled answer and knew it to be true. 

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Dream Sparrow 

For the sea is a black-scaled monster 
who hides between the mountains 
we live on, waiting for someone 
to set foot on him so he can 
drag them down into his folds. 

But my father was smarter 
than the sea and sent us by air 
toward our goal. . .all of us 
except our cunning sparrow, 
who chirped that he'd rather walk. 

So unmeasured time passed 

before we would see my bird again, 

and while I feared he would die, 

he fought puddles, rivers, and waterfalls 

until he was stronger than us all. 

Yet the sea seemed undaunted 
as our brave sparrow approached, 
feathers ruffled, ready to kill, 
with his sharp beak aimed true 
to the sea-monster's scaled belly. 

And the scales burst from the creature, 
turning into raindrops as they fell, 
and the monster lost its form and swirled 
back 

into itself, its dying cry a loud wave 
that swept over out mountain. 

So now we sail over the monster's grave 
in our little ski towards the land 
we were told of years ago, the place 
that will be worth all our travels, 
a new place to call home. 

Alison Rawleigh 




Plates Brent Hood 



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How to Kill a Balloon Animal 

Jennifer Lynn tiohhs 

Balloon animals are perhaps the most evil creatures on this planet. Sure, they are cute, 
and children enjoy playing with them, but something is beneath the surface that not many people 
know. They wait for children to fall in love with them; then, they die. They deliberately break 
children's hearts! Balloon animals must be stopped! We must destroy all of them before they 
hurt somebody else. Killing them is simple. Bob will demonstrate how it is done. 

Before Bob begins, he will need a few items. The first of these items is a non-see-through 
bag such as a purse or possibly a book bag. The second set of items he will need is tea and cook- 
ies. He will also need candy, preferably Twizzlers and Gummy Bears, but any kind will work. 
All of these items can be purchased at a local grocery store for a minimal price. Bob will also 
need a basic sewing needle and escargot (which is optional and will be left up to Bob on whether 
or not he wants to use it). 

The first step in killing these creatures is finding them. Bob has to hunt down a clown. 
Clowns are easily recognizable, though. They are usually surrounded by lots of children and 
wear brightly colored clothes. If that is not enough, just look for a big red nose. Now Bob has 
found the creator of these horrific animals. He will have to find a hiding place close to the clown 
and the balloon animal. Bob must wait for the clown to leave the animal alone (a diversion may 
have to be planned for this). After the clown has left, Bob will sneak closer to the animal, being 
careful and making sure that no one sees him. 

After he has chosen his method. Bob will have to get the balloon animal to come to him. 
This part can be tricky unless he knows what to do. Bob can always try to call it to him. He will 
call it just like he would a cute dog. Bob will get down on his knees, hold his hand out, and call 
out to it. If that does not work, there is always bribery. Balloon animals love candy. Their favor- 
ites are Twizzlers and Gummy Bears, but any type of candy will work. 

It is now time for Bob to make his move. He will have to be quick on this part and make 
absolutely sure that he is not seen. The target is now in his range. Bob must leap from his spot 
and grab the unsuspecting victim. He will quickly throw it into the bag that he purchased earlier. 

The balloon animal will probably be extremely scared at his time, which takes the fun out 
of it. Once he gets home, Bob will try to get it to relax and feel as comfortable as possible. He 
will try having a friendly chat over Twizzlers and Gummy Bears, and he will ask it about its fam- 
ily and how life has been. Bob will also apologize for scaring and kidnapping it. 

The animal is now relaxed and a little more trusting of Bob. The time is right for him to 
carry out his plan: 1. sticking it with a needle or 2. sitting on it. If he chooses to stab it, he will 
casually excuse himself from the room. He will pull out a basic sewing needle and quietly walk 
up to the back of the chair in which the animal is sitting. He will reach around and quickly prick 
the balloon with the needle. It will make a loud popping sound as it explodes. 

'Accidentally" sitting on it might be a bit easier. It requires no materials and can be dis- 
missed with a simple "Oops." All Bob has to do is just come into the room with more Gummies 
making sure that his back is to the chair that the animal occupies. Bob will calmly sit down, pre- 
tending that he does not know that the balloon is there. He will wait until he hears the popping 
sound and then jump up and cover his mouth as he says his escape clause. "Oops" takes care of 
everything. 



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The deed is now done. Bob has done his part in ridding this world of the evil creatures 
known as balloon animals. Now, for the last step on his journey. It is time to dispose of the 
evidence. Bob will gather all the pieces that are left of the balloon. He can throw them in a fire. 
This method is effective, but the scent is not the best in the world. Of course, there is always 
Plan B. It is more costly, but it's worth it in the end. Bob can have a few friends over for a 
formal get together and scatter the remaining pieces of his kill into a plate of escargot. He will 
then serve the dish to his guests and watch as the evidence disappears. No one will ever suspect 
a thing because everyone knows that snails taste like balloons. 




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Seconds and Exponents 

Jon Cronin 

Everyone does something stupid at some point in life. The trick is to learn from that 
stupid something and move forward. Then again, the problem with the word "trick" is that tricks 
need to be learned. Some people learn quickly — others? Not so much. When it really comes 
down to business, it does not matter what happened, why it happened, where it happened, or 
whose fault it was. I have come to believe that life is nothing more than a series of interesting 
choices. Through hands-on encounters, I have also learned that those choices come with conse- 
quences. Life is fragile, and the smallest of things — one second in our lives — can have a huge 
impact. 

Scientists estimate that the time the brain spends on making a decision — a choice — is 
equal to about one second. Although people may dwell on something for several hours or even 
days, most people tend to have their minds already set on one decision or the other long before 
they finish "thinking." In fact, according to one study, mostly the only thing done during that 
"thinking" phase is a battle with that crazy little thing called conscience. Parents teach their chil- 
dren that choices have consequences. That lesson is one that people often learn the hard way a 
couple of times. Interestingly enough, it turns out that this essential life lesson can be explained 
with math. It is time to break out a calculator and let math illustrate just how fragile life really is. 

The first thing to figure is how many minutes are in 100 seconds. The calculator says that 
100 seconds is equal to 1.66 minutes. So, applying the rules of exponents, it stands to reason 
that 1000 seconds is the same as 16 minutes and 40 seconds. Now, this is where it gets gritty. 
One million seconds rounded to the nearest minute is about one week, four days, thirteen hours, 
and 37 minutes. One billion seconds rounded to the nearest day is the same as 31 years and 285 
days. 

Now for a break. Looking at the difference between one million seconds and one billion 
seconds shows the fragility of life. If a person lived to be ninety, he would hit the million second 
mark some 3,000 times, but he would hit the billion second mark only three times. It is a simple 
rule of powers and exponents, but is remarkable when illustrated in the manner of time. Next, 
the calculator says that one trillion seconds is equal to 3,178 years. Mankind has not even hit the 
one trillion second mark since the beginning of A.D. calendar, and over 2000 yeai s have passed. 
Last, how long would it take to reach 100 trillion seconds? The answer there is 31 7,808 years. 
Well, that is longer than the human race has been in existence. 

Now, does one second seem to make a difference in a period of over 317,000 years? 
Well, how could it? It seems to be way too short a time. Yet, a terminal disease such as cancer 
starts with merely one bad cell. One bad cell can lead to a person's death. Life is fragile, and the 
smallest of things — one second in a person's life — can have a huge impact. 



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My Monster 

I don't know how this happened 
In 2000 

I wanted a web site 

The monster was born 

It was cute and Uttle at first 

But then 

I wanted more 

I was told that I couldn't do it 

It would be too big 

But I didn't listen 

I fought to get the password 

Today 

I have a monster on my hands 
Now bigger than the sky 
And still growing 

Candace Johnson 



The Infamous Him 

Walking down the hallway 
Palms sweating 
Heartbeat racing 
Look around to see 
If he is there 

Who you ask 
Him 

The infamous him 

The one I need 

The one I hear say I love you 

He tells me I am great 

He cherishes me in all I do 

I stop 

I turn around and see him 
The infamous him 
My prince charming 

Brittany Evrard 



The Alien Flower 

In an entangled swamp of green, 
There lies the strangest of earthly plants, 
A monster that awaits 
And devours flies, spiders, and ants. 

The deceptive flora stands 
Among the normal flowers. 
But the naked eye can see 
It isn't really one of ours. 

Who's ever heard of a rose 
That ate the meat of the living? 
The thorns on this jagged flower 
Are not quite so forgiving. 

The imposter has no muscles 
And no stomach for its food. 
And it never bares a conscience 
For the lives it freshly chewed. 

So, beware the monster flower, 
For it is not as it seems. 
As you gaze at its fanged-mouth, 
You know not what it schemes. 

Preston Sharpe 



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No Bloodshed During Snowfall 



The snow' dusted neighborhoods Shiite and Sunni alike, faintly 
falling, as James Joyc e wrote, like the decent of their last end, the 
living and the dead... A flurry is a swift and passing Joy. 

— Associated Press, January 12, 2008 

The long-haired Filipino kid with dolorous eyes 

sits up front with me. Two more and a small Chinese Girl, 

Suk Li, called Shirley, ride in back 

We have feasted 
On Lebanese food at Neo Monde — kibi, tabooly, laban — 
and studied together for hours at the Museum of Art: 
Roman torsos, Egyptian heads, African masks, 
Melanesian pipes, a Wyeth house, an O'Keeffe church, 
a modern college of gun, funnel, barbed wire and rocks, 
early American portraits. "Those men—" Shirley pointed 
to three be-wigged people on the wall "look like — 
your Founding Fathers?" The black security guard 
has taken our laughing picture before a mobile with flowers 
and butterflies shaped like a fighter plane. 

Now the radio says 
that is has snowed in Baghdad after eighty years. We pass 
a row of crabapple trees blooming deep pink in January. 
A flurry is a swift and passing joy. 

Margaret Boothe Baddour 




Azalea Danielle Castillo 

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Remembering a Royal Woman 



Royal, the perfect name for her, 
slender, elegant, gliding 
down our halls and through our lives, 
never losing her life's balance 
or her brilliant smile 
despite recurring obstacles. 
Practical, efficient, effective, serious, 
gentle, smiling, giggling, excited. 

She loved good students, good papers, 
good books, good coffee, good clothes, 
good shopping, and good friends. 
She created beauty in her needlework 
and in her home, but her greatest joy 
was her family, beginning 
with her childhood sweetheart. 



Medical events she arranged 

at the convenience of her classes. 

Illness never stopped her kindnesses 

or her calls to her sick friends. 

Her pew at St. Stephen's — rarely empty. 

Royal, the perfect name for Sharon, 

Queen of the Writing Center, 

Queen of English 1 1 3 and Virginia Woolf, 

Queen of American literature, 

a queen in many hearts at WCC, 

reigning still in her legacy 

of good teaching. 

Rosalyn F. Lomax 



She shed a tear as the fall semester 
kept her from her grandchild 
until evening. She flashed a smile 
sharing news of one daughter's 
theater work or enjoying a dinner 
for women educators 
with her other daughter. 
She reveled in the story as her husband 
told how their grandchild had said, 
"B is for the Beatles." 



In memoiy of 
Sharon Royal, 1947 -2008 



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