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PREACHED AT HA\T:RHILL, Mass.
MRS. HARRIET NEWELL,
XS KEMEMBBAKCE OP
WIFE OF THE
REV. SAMUEL NEWELL,
MISSIOJ^TARY TO IJ^BIA.
WHO DIED AT THE ISLE OF FRANCE, NOV. 30, 1812,
AGED 19 YEARS.
TO WHICH ARE ADDED
ME3I0IRS OF HER LIFE.
BY LEONARD WOODS, D, D.
Abbot Professor of Christian Theology in the Theol. Sem. Andoyer.
BOSTON:
PR7XTED BY SAXUEL T. Aa3rSTnONrx, NO. 50, CORNRILL; SOLD Bi' HIM AXD BT
BOnCE & SAYBE, ITKW-YORK; AJTl) BY W. W. WOOnWARP, PHTLADKWUTA
1814.
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BI&THICT OF MASSACHUSETrs^To toif.
District Cleric's Office.
^ Be it remejibeked, that on the thirty-first day of March, A. D. 1814, and
»n the thirty-eighth year of the independence of the United States of America,
SsAMUEL T. ArmstrOnr, of the said District, has deposited in this office the title
ot a book, the right Avhereof he claims as Proprietor: in the words followine,
"A Sermon, preached at Haverhill, Mass. in remembrance of Mrs. Harriet
NeweU, wife of Mr. Samuel NeweU, Missionary in India, who died at the Isle
of France, Nov. 30, 1812, aged 19 yeai's; to which are added Memoirs of her
We. By Leonard Woods, D. D. Abbot Professor of Christian Theology in the
Theol. Sem. AndoVer." ^
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intitled an act for the Encouragement of Learning, by securing the Copies of
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^ Designing, Engraving, and Etching Historical and other Prints."
WILLIAM S. SHAW,
Clerk of the District of Massachusetts.
.REC.JUN 1881
THEOLOGIGALJ"
SERMON.
MATTHEW xix, 29.
And every one that bath forsaken houses, or brethren, or bistsrs,
OR fatheh, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for mt name's
SAKE, SHALL RECEIVE AN HUNDRED FOLD; AND SHALL INHERIT EVEBLASTINQ
LIFE.
The scripture sums up all that is in the world un-
der three heads; ''the lust of the flesh, the lust of the
eye, and the pride of life." According to this, it has
been common to make a threefold division of natural
men; the sensual, the covetous, and the ambitious.
But our blessed Lord, in the text, exhibits a character
widely different; a character formed on another prin-
ciple; a character altogether superior to any thing,
which can result from man's unrenewed nature.
The devoted Christian is born of the Spirit, All his
moral beauty, his usefulness, and enjoyment are the
work of divine grace.
But where shall we find the singular character ex-
hibited in the text? I answer in every place, and in
every condition of life, where we find true religion.
The poor cottager, far removed from public notice,
and destined to the meanest employment, possesses
this character. He gives himself and all that he has
to the Lord. He loves Christ above his cottage, his
food, and his rest, and is ready to part with them all
for his sake. In the sight of God, that same poor
man forsakes all for Christ. He who can forsake his
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sins, and resist the claims of corrupt passion, performs,
to say the least, as difficult a service, as to forsake
houses, brethren, and lands. The poor man, who has
little to give, and much to bear, frequently shows the
self-denying spirit of religion to the greatest advan-
tage. In his heart often burns as pure a flame of
love and zeal, as in the heart of an apostle. It may
not be visible to the world; but it is visible to Him,
who'seeth in secret. His prayers are animated by
fervent affection for God and man. And when he
contributes his mite for the advancement of the Re
deemer's kingdom, he does it with a heart large
enough to part with millions.
The character here exhibited belongs to the devoted
Christian, who is possessed of opulence. Though he
does not literally forsake houses and lands, he uses
them for the glory of Christ. And as he supremely
regards the divine glory, and uses the things of this
world in subserviency to it, he is ready, when duty
calls, to surrender them for the same object. To use
riches for Christ, and to forsake them for Christ,
evince the same elevation above self interest, and the
same devotedness to the cause of God He, then,
who values his estate for Christ's sake, and uses it for
the advancement of his cause, has the same disposition
and character with those, who for the same object ac-
tually suffer the loss of all things. In heart he gives
his earthly all to Christ; saying with sincerity, — L-re
Lord, I ajn; and here are my possessions. I yield
ihem all to thee. I will either use them, or part 'with
them, for thy sake, as thou wilt. Animated with
such sentiments, he esteems it comparatively loss, to do
any thing with his property, which tends merely to
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secure his private advantage; while he esteems that,
as the best use of his property, which tends most to-
advance the kingdom of Christ. It is for the sake of
that kingdom that he values his earthly possessions.
Take away that kingdom, and his possessions lose
their highest worth.
The character presented in the text clearly belongs
to every piithful minister of the Gospel, even in the
most peaceful days. Whatever may be his earthly
prospects, he cheerfully resigns them for Christ's sake.
The love of Christ bears him on. He declines no la-
bor, no sacrifice, no suffering. He foregoes indulgence
and ease. In private, he gives himself to reading,
meditation, and prayer. In public, he preaches the
word, and is instant in season, and out of season.
Worldly pursuits he totally abandons, and sets his
affections on the kingdom of Christ. "If I forget
thee," he says, "O Jerusalem; let my right hand forget
her cunning."
This character is strikingly exhibited by a devoted
Christian in times of persecution. He feels as Paul
did, when his friends, anxious for his safety, besought
him not to go to Jerusalem. "What mean ye," he said,
'to weep and to break mine heart? For I am ready
not to be bound only, but also to die at Jerusalem for
the name of the Lord Jesus." Times of persecution
and distress have a favorable influence upon Christian
character. In such seasons, as the prospect of earthly
happiness is overcast, the followers of Christ are led
to a more serious contemplation of the heavenly in-
heritance, and naturally form a stronger and more
operative attachment to that kingdom, in which their
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all is contained. They are reduced to the necessity
of feeling that they have no other interest, and no
hope of enjoyment from any other quarter. Ac-
cordingly, they make a more unreserved surrender
of every thing for Christ, and become more consistent
and more decided in their religious character. In the
discharge of difficult duties they have less hesitation.
They are less, ensnared by the friendship of the
v^•orld, and less awed by its frowns. The prospect of
suffering, as it becomes familiar to their minds, ceases
to move them. To give up the interests and pleas-
ures of the world for the sake of Christ, becomeis
habitual and easy. It costs them no struggle, and no
sigh. They are prepared to encounter any trial, even
a violent death, without fear or reluctance. Yea, they
rejoice in their sufferings, and gladly Jill up what is
wanting of the afflictions of Christ in their flesh, for
his body^s sake, which is the Church,
The Christian Missionary, whose motives are as
sublime as his office, forsakes all for Christ in a re-
markable sense. The proof which he gives of devo-
tion to Christ is indeed of the same nature with that,
which other Christians give; but it is higher in degree.
Others forsake the w-orid xn affection, but enjoy it still.
He reuvDunces the enjoyment^ as well as the attachment.
Other Christians esteem Christ above friends and pos-
sessions, and yet retain them far enough for the grati-
fication of their natural affections. The Missionary,
who has a right spirit, counteracts and mortifies nat-
ural affection, by actually abandoning its dearest ob-
jects. The distinction in short is this; other Christians
have a xvillingness to forsake all for Christ; the Mis-
gioilai'v" actually forsakes all. The cause of Christ
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among the heathen possesses attractions above all
other objects. It has the absolute control of liis heart.
He forsakes father and mother, house and land, not
because he is wanting in affection for them, but because
he loves Christ more: He forsakes them, because his
heart burns with the holy desire, that Christ may have
the heathen for his inheritance, and the uttermost parts
of the earth for his possession.
The wife of a Missionary^ when influenced by the
Spirit of Christ, gives still more remarkable evi-
dence of self-denial and devotion; — evidence, I say,
more remarkable; because for her to forsake friends
and country, is an instance of greater self-denial.
The tie, which binds her to her relatives and her
home, is stronger. Her mind is more delicate in its
construction; more sensible to the tenderness of natural
relations, and to the delights of domestic life. When,
therefore, she forsakes all, for the name of Christ, she
makes a higher effort; she offers a more costly sacri-
fice; and thus furnishes a more conspicuous proof, that
her love of Christ transcends all earthly affection.
My friends, have I been entertaining you with vis-
ions and dreams? Or have I been teaching realities?
If you admit the truth of the Bible, you must admit
that men of the character above described, have exisfcd
in all ages of Christianity. Indeed, no other can be
acknowledged, as disciples of Christ. For he himself
has declared, that whosoever for saketh not all that he
hath cannot be his disaple. And again, to teach us
in the most forcible manner, tliat our aftcction for all
other objects must fall below our affection for him, he
says;— j^' itny one come to me, and hate not his father,
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and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren,
and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be
my disciple. However severe and impossible these
conditions of cliscipleship may seem; they have often
been performed. Yea, there are multitudes, who daily
perform them, and to whom the performance appears
xxotonXy just, hut pleasant , Multitudes, now oneaith,
have that supreme love for the Lord Jesus, which
leaves little of the heart for any thing else. When
they enlisted into the service of Christ, they engaged
to follow liim, though at the expense of every eaitt ly
interest. In the very act oi faith, there is an implicit
forsaking of all things for Christ. So that when the
trial comes, and they really forsake all things on his
account, they only do in open act, what they did in
heart before. When they are called to surrender all
things, even life itself, for Christ's sake; they are not
called to perform a new condition, to which they did
not consent in the fust exercise of faith. They made
choice of Christ and his ways, Christ and his cross.
Had they certainly known, when they first received
Christ, that they did it at the expense of every earthly
good, they would not have received him with any the
less cordiality and joy. Paul knew from the first, that
he must sacrifice every thing for Christ;— which, in
his view, was only parting with trifles to purchase a
pearl of great price. "What things were gain to me,
those I counted loss for Christ. Yea, doubtless, and
1 count all things loss for the excellency of the knowl-
edge of Christ Jesus my Lord; for whom I have suf-
fered the loss of all things, and do count them but
dung, that 1 may win Christ." Such was the spirit
and practice of the first Christians. They rejoiced
that they were counted w^orthy to suffer for Christ.
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To honor him, they gladly took the spoiling of their
goods, resigned their dearest friends, and endured per-
secution and death. There are those at the present
day, who possess the same spirit; who willingly give
up their worldly interest, and subject themselves to
the hatred of men, for the sake of their Lord; who
willingly suffer reproach, and expose their name to be
trampled under foot, that Christ may be magnified;
who hold nothing so dear, that they will not cast it
away for Christ's sake.
Do you still ask, where such characters are to be
found? 1 answer again, wherever there are Christians,
You may fix your eye upon ministers of the gospel, —
upon ambassadors of Christ in pagan lands, and upon
good men in the various walks of life, who give, 1 say
not, the same degree, but the same kind of evidence
of devotion to Christ, with that which was given by
the holy Apostles. And he who slights tlie evidence
of supreme love to Cnrist, which these exhibit, would
equally shght the evidence, which should be exhibited
by a new race of Apos tlks and Martyrs.
The reward of Christians is as certain, as their de-
votion to Christ \s sincere. Tliey receive an hundred
fold in this present lije. Great peace have they, who
love God's law. Ihe wicked, from tlie very udture
of their affections, are like the troubled sea when it
cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt. But
cordial devotion to Christ imparts serenity and peace
to the soul. How happy are they, who have Ctist off
the slavery of passion, who have given up the Vdin
cares and pursuits, which distract the minds of world-
lings, and yielded themselves wholly to God, resting
m him as their all in all.
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To them belong the pleasures of benevolence. As
this is their ruling affection, they must be happy in
proportion as its object is promoted. That object,
which is primarily the prosperity and happiness of the
kingdom of Christ, is absolutely secure. Christians
know it to be so, and therefore enjoy a peace, which
no adversity can destroy. In all that they do, and in
all that others do to advance the welfare of the Re-
deemer's kingdom, they partake the purest pleasure.
Let them see the glory of God displayed in the salva-
tion of sinners; let them see the Church look forth as
the morning; let them enjoy communion with Christ;
and they have enough. This is their object, their
treasure, the heritage which they have chosen. The
eternal glory of God and the boundless good of his
kingdom is an object infinitely excellent, and worthy
of supreme regard. The pleasure of those, who are
devoted to this glorious object, and see that it is per-
fectly secure, is a kind of divine pleasure, partaking
of the nature of its divine and infinite object.
I am well aware, that these are unintelligible things
to those, who are destitute of religion. What does a
man, without taste, know of the sweetness of the
honey comb? How can blindness perceive the pleas-
antness of light, or deafness, the charms of music?
But inquire of those, who are entitled to speak on the
subject, — inquire of fervent Christians, what the re-
wards of self denial are. With one voice they answer,
that those, who forsake all for Christ, receive an hun-
dred foldy even in this life.
It is the uniform method of divine grace to give
spiritual- Qomfort to those, who are freed from earthly
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affection. The more the world is excluded from the
hearts of believers, the more they are filled with all the
fulness of God. Blessed exchange! What tongue can
describe the happiness of the saints, when they part with
all that they have for the name of Christ, and He, their
all gracious Savior and Friend, takes up his dwelling in
their hearts! O what peace! What quietness! What
a beginning of heaven! Ask the Apostles, in the midst
of their labors, privations, and sufferings, whether they
are losers on Christ's account? — You hear them speak-
ing of perpetual triumph, of comfort in tribulation, of
joy unspeakable and full of glory. The lonely des-
art, through which, with weary steps, they travel, wit-
nesses their joy. The dungeon, where they are chain-
ed, witnesses their holy transports, and hears their
midnight praises. Perils innumerable by land and sea,
weariness and painfulness, cold and hunger, prisons,
stripes, and tortures cannot deprive them of their joy.
But all the enjoyment of Christians in this life is
only the beginning of their blessedness. The con-
summation of it is the everlasting life, which they
will inherit in the world to come. It will be a life
of perfect holiness, and perfect, endless joy. Tliey
will live in the society of holy Angels, and dwell in
the presence of their blessed Lord, who loved them and
gave himself for them. While they behold his glory,
and enjoy his love, they will perfectly possess the ob-
ject of all their desires. They wish for no higher
happiness, than to enjoy God forever. This is ever-
lasting life. Give them this, and they ask no more.
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I have been led to this train of reflections by an
event, which has lately arrested the attention of the
public, and cagsed sensations of unusual tenderness in
the friends of Zion. You are aware that I refer to
the lamented death of Mrs. Harriet Newell. I
rejoice that, after the most intimate acquaintance with
that excellent woman, I am able to say, that she hap-
pily exemplified the character which I have drawn.
From the uniform tenor of her conduct for several
years, we are fully persuaded, that she was one, who
forsook all for Christ, and who received an hundred
fold in this present life. And on the ground of God's
immutable promise, we are equally persuaded, that she
pow inherits everlasting life in heaven.
But let God our Savior have the glory of all the
moral beauty, which adorned her character. The
temper of mind, which she manifested, was contrary
to every pririciple of human nature, while unrenewed.
If she was indeed what she appeared to be, it was by
the washing of regeneration and the renewing of the
Holy Ghost.
Before she indulged a hope that she was a subject
of spiritual renovation, she had a long season of dis-
tressing conviction, careful selfexamination, and earn-
est prayer. She could not admit the comfortable con-
clusion, that she w^as bofm again, before she was con-
scious, that she had given herself to the Lord, and
yielded sincere obedience to his holy commands.
Long before she thought her own salvation secure,
she began to exercise an enlarged affection for the king-
dom ofGhrist, and to be fervent in her prayers for the
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building up of Zion, and the salvation of the heathen.
This became the prominent feature of her religion,
the supreme object of her pursuit. A considerable
time before a Foreign Mission from this country was
contemplated, the universal diffusion of the christian
religion was the tavorite subject of her meditations
and prayers.
When, in the course of divine providence, one of
those, who had devoted themselves, to the Foreign
Mission, sought her as tae companion of his labors
and sufferings; her great concern was to discover the
will of God. When she became satisfied respecting
her duty, her determination was fixed. — Here you
come to the point where her character began to as-
sume a lustre, which excited the admiration of all who
shared her friendship. Through the grace of God,
she entirely consecrated herself to the establishment
of the kingdom of Christ in pagan lands. To this
great and glorious object all her thoughts and studies,
her desires arid prayers tended. It was with a view
to this, that she considered her talents and acquire-
ments of any special importance. Even her health
and life seemed of little consequence to her, except in
relation to this grand object.
But this entire selfdevotion had no more tendency
to blunt the sensibilities of her heart, or to extinguish
her natural affections, than the supreme love of God
has in any case whatever. Every Christian is the
subject of an affection, which holds an entire superior-
ity over the natural alTections, and makes them sub-
servient to its purposes. Had our natural affections
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been designed; as the highest principles of action, the
Lord Jesus would never have set up another principle
above them ^ Our dear departed friend, did not more
truly rise above the natural principles of action, than
every Christian does, when he seeks the glory of God
in the common business of life. The nature of her
affections was the same with that of Christians gen-
erally. If there was a difference, it consisted in this^
that she was more earnest and undivided in her attach-
ment. It is to this circumstance, that we must frace
her peculiar magnanimity, and elevation of spirit.
As all the powers of her soul were united in one
grand object, she rose to an uncommon pitch ot en-
ergy, and things, seemingly impos?ible to others, be-
came practicable and easy to her.
In acquiring the force and decision of character,
which she finally exhibited, it was of great importance,
that the question of duhj was fully settled in her own
mind. Had not this been done, she must have been
often turned aside from her object by secret misgiv-
ings of conscience Her attachment to the object
must have been weakened; and every step must have
been taken haltingly and tremblingly. But by much
deliberation, and many prayers to God for direction,
the question of duty was at length settled; after which
she proceeded without wavering Devoted, as she
was, to the cause of Christ, and borne on with a strong
desire of advancing it in heathen lands, she was pre-
pared fortrials. The hardships and sufferings, pecul-
iar to the missionary life, became perfectly familiar.
They were so closely associated in her mind with the
glory of God, and the conversion of the heathen, and
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so continually mingled with her purest affections and
joys, that, instead of aversion and dread, they excited
sensations of delight.
Is it possible that a character, so elevated, should
not be universally admired? Is it possible that any
should be found capable of admitting the thought,
that conduct so noble, so Christlike, was owing to a
weak or misguided zeal? Shall I stoop to notice so
unworthy a surmise? If compassion to those who in-
dulge it require, I will. Look, then, upon the apostles
and primitive Christians, who were so united and
consecrated to the Savior, that they were willing to en-
dure the greatest evils for his sake; — whose ardent
love to him rendered every affliction light, and recon-
ciled them to the agonies of a violent death. Will
you urge the charge of misguided zeal against the
holy apostles?
The character of Mrs. Newell, instead of being
exposed to any dishonorable imputation, had an ex-
cellence above the reach of mere human nature-
Behold a tender female, when all the sensibilities of the
heart are most lively, — united to friends and country
by a thousand ties; — a female of refined education,
with delightful prospects in her own country, — behold
her voluntarily resigning so many dear earthly objects,
for a distant pagan land. But this fact becomes still
more remarkable, when we consider the circumstan-
ces attending it. She made these sacrifices calmly:
with a sober deliberation; in the exercise of those sen-
sibilities which would be overwlielming to mankind
in general, and yet with sieady, unyielding firiniiess;
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and all this, not for wealth, or fame, or any earthly
object, but to make known among the heathen the
unsearchable inches of Christ,
I should blush to offer a vindication of a character
so fair and exalted, as that of Harriet INewell.—
a lovely saint, who has finished her course, and gone
to receive an unfading crown. But if there is any one
base enough to envy such excellence, or rash enough
to impute extravagance, and folly; I would refer him
to a case not wholly unlike the present. On a cer-
tain occasion, Mary came to Jesus, as he sat at meat,
having an alabaster box of very precious ointment,
and poured it on his head. Judas, and some others in-
stigated by him, charged her with extravagance and
waste. But Jesus approved her conduct, declaring
that she had wrought digood work, and that it should
be made known for a memorial of her, wherever the
gospel should be preached in the whole world.
Do I still hear it said by some selfish calculator,
that ''she threw herself awayV But do you not ap-
plaud the conduct of a man, who goes to the earth's
end to gratify a worldly passion? And can you think
it reasonable to make greater sacrifices for self interest ,
than for the kingdom of Christ? — ''Threw herself
away? — What? Does a devoted Christian who, lor
the love of Jesus, forsakes all that she has, to receive
an hundred fold here, and life everlasting in heaven,
throw herself away?
Should any ask, what that hundredfold reward was;
our appeal would be to b^i^self, — to her peace, and qui-
ctncss,-a,nd joy in God. For several of the last months
cf Mrs, Harriet Newell. 17
that she spent at home, and from the time of her leav-
ing America till her death, her religious enjoyment
was almost constant, and at times, elevated.
In her last interviews with her heloved friends in
America, and in the scene of final sepai ation, the con-
solations of the Spirit supported her, and produced nofe
only a tender meekness and calmness of mind, but as-
tonishing resolution. Her happy serenity continued
through the dangers of a long voyage, and amid all
the difficulties which befell her, after arriving in India.
Her spiritual enjoyment was not materially interrupt-
ed by the various distresses, which prevented the es-
tablishment of the mission; nor by the sufferings she
was subsequently called to endure; no, not even by the
pangs which rent her heart, over a dear infant child,
wasting away with sickness, and soon committed to a
watery grave. Through all this sorrow and suffering,
the Lord was with her, and gave her rest. During her
last long and perilous voyage — separated by half the
globe from the presence of a mother, whose presence
was more than ever needed, — and without a single fe-
male companion, she could thus write: — 'It is for Je-
sus, who sacrificed the joys of his Father's kingdom
and expired on the cross to redeem a fallen world,
that thus I wander from place to place, and feel no
where at home. How reviving the thought! How
great the consolation it yields to my sinking heart!"
<'Let the severest trials and disappointments fall to my
lot, guilty and weak as 1 am, ytt I think 1 can rejoice
in the Lord and joy in the God of my salvation."
Li her last illness, which was attended with many-
distressing circumstances, she possessed her soul in pa-
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tiencc and peace. God was pleased to manifest him-
self to her, as he does not to the world. ^'During her
whole sickness, she talked in the most familiar man-
ner, and with great delight, of death and the glory
that was to follow." At a certain time, being advised
by a physician to cast off such gloomy thoughts, ''she
replied, that those thoughts were cheering and joyful
beyond what words could express." When it was in-
timajted to her, that she could not live through anoth-
er day; — ^' Oh joyful news! she replied, / lo7ig to de-
part;^^ and added soon after that death appeared to
her truly welcome and glorious^
But the simple narrative of her afflicted husband
shows, better than any thing which I can say, that
amid all the pain and languishment of sickness, and
in the near view of death, she had that enjoyment of
God her Saviour, and that hope of a blessed immortal-
ity, which was an hundred fold better, than all she had
forsaken.
To her widowed Mother, this is an affecting scene.
But in the midst of your sorrows, dear Madam,
"forget not what reason you have to be comfort-
ed. Remember the grace of God, which was man-
ifested to your dear Harriet; which, we trust, effectu-
ally sanctified her heart, and brought her to love
the Lord Jesus Christ in sincerity. While you mourn
for her early death, bless God that you do not mourn
over a child, who lived without God, and died with-
out hope. Call to remembrance her dutiful and pi-
ous temper; her resolved and peaceful mind in .the
parting hour; and the fortitude and resignation,
which slie afterwards exercised; under her various af-
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Mictions, Give thanks to God for the consolations,
which were afforded her, through a languishing sick-
ness. Her amiable and elevated conduct reflected
honor upon the grace of God. Through all her suffer-
ings, especially when her dissolution drew near, she
displayed a character that was ripe for heaven.
It must afford you peculiar satisfaction to contem-
plate the usefulness of her life, "That life is long;
which answers life's great end." This was eminently
the case with your belovecl daughter. Had she lived
m retirement, or moved in a small circle, her influence,
though highly useful, must have been circumscribed.
But now, her character has, by divine providence,
been exhibited upon the most extensive theatre, and
excited the attention and love of Christian nations.
Yea, may we not hope, that her name will be remem-
bered by the millions of Asia, whose salvation she so
ardently desired, and that the savor of her piety will,
through divine grace, be salutary to pagan tribes yet
unborn? — Madam, whatcomforto are these! comforts,
which many mourning parents would gladly purchase
with their lives. Let your sorrow then be mingled
with praise. Render thanks to God, and magnify his
name, that he has given you a daughter, so lovely in
her character, so useful in her life, so resigned in her
sufferings, so tranquil and happy in her death. It is
better to be the parent of such a daughter, than to
have brought forth a child to bear the sceptre of the
earth. Nor is she the less precious, or the less yoursy
because she is absent from the body and present with
the Lord. Dwell upon these cheering thoughts, and
enjoy these comforts — And may all your surviving
rhiidren enjoy them too. In her example, in her di-
20 Sermon in Remembrance
ary and letters, and in her dying counsels, she has left
them a legacy, which cannot be too highly prized.
Let me affectionately entreat you, my beloved friends,
to attend seriously to the weighty counsels, which you
have received from the dying lips of a dear sister. In
her name, in the name of her bereaved husband, by
whose request I now address you, and in the najne
of her God and Savior, 1 do now, from this sacred
place,* repeat that solemn counsel. God Almighty
open your hearts to receive the message. "7'e/Z
them^ she said, tell them from the lips of ■ their
dying sister, that there is nothing but religion worth
living for. Oh exhort them to attend immedi-
ately to the care of their immortal souls; and
7iot to delay repentance. Let my brothers and sis-
iers know that I love them to the end. I hope to
meet them in heaven. But oh, if I should nof^ r-
No wonder that tears bursting from her eyes, and her
sobs of grief at the thought of an eternal separation
from you, prevented her saying more. "May the Spir-
it of truth carry her dying entreaties, and tears, and
sighs to your hearts," and engage you to follow her,
as she followed Christ, This dear departed fiiend
wished you to partake with her the joys of salvation.
She never repented of her undertaking; never rcgret-
ed leaving her native land for the cause of Christ.
And could she return and live on earth again, instead
of retracting her labors and sacrifices for the advance-
ment of the Redeemer's cause, she would repair to him
earlier, give up all for him more cheerfully, and serve
him with greater zeal. Imitate her humility, self de-
nial, and faith, that you may again enjoy her society,
and dwell with her forever, where sorrow and death
shall never enter.
of Mrs ^ Harriet Newell. 21
In the death of Mrs Newell her husband sustains a
loss, which no language can adequately describe, and
no earthly good compensate. God, whose ways are
unsearchable, has taken from him the wife of his
youth; a companion eminently qualified to aid him in
all his labors, to soothe him in all his sorrows, and to
further the great work in which he is engaged. Had
he nothing but earthly good to comfort him, a mind
so quick to feel, would be overwhelmed with grief.
Bit he will not forget the God of all comfort. He
will remember that gracious Redeemer, who took
him out of the horrible pit and miry clay; who shed
upon the darkness, that once enveloped him, a cheer-
ing light; W'ho inspired him with hope, and put it into
his heart to preach salvation to those, who were per-
ishing for lack of vision. This mighty Redeemer will
be the rock of his confidence, and a very present help
in trouble. It must be a subject of delightful recollec-
tion to our aftlicted brother, that he has enjoyed the
privilege of being united, in the dearest of all rela-
tions, with one of so amiable a temper; of an under-
standing so highly improved; of benevolence andpiety
so eminent; and so entirely devoted to the best of
causes. He will also love to remember the favor
which God has conferred upon his beloved partner,
in enabling her to do and suffer so much, and per-
mitting her to die thus early, for the name of Jesus;
in permitting her to be ihc first martyr to the mission-
ary cause from the American world; in removing her
after so short a warfare, from a world of sin and sor-
row, and carrying her so quickly through a course of
discipline, which prepared her for a crown of distin-
guished glory. The God of Jacob bless and comfort
22 Sermon in Remembrance
our dear brother, and give him strength according t!^
his day. And may this severe trial be turned to the
furtherance of the gospel among the heathen*
FRIENDS OF THE MISSIONARY CAUSE,
Let not your hearts be troubled by the adverse cir-
cumstances, which have attended the commencement
of our FOREIGN MISSION. Rccollcct the various hind-
rances, disappointments, and sufferings, encountered
by the apostles, the first missionaries of Christ;
who yet were destined to spread the triumphs of his
cross through the world. The experience of ages
leads us to expect that designs of great moment, es-
pecially those which relate to the advancement of
Christ's kingdom, will be opposed by mighty obsta-
cles. The adverse circumstances, therefore, which
have attended the outset of our Foreign Mission, are
far from presenting any discouragement. They rath-
er afford new evidence, that this Mission is to be num-
bered with all other enterprises, calculated to promote
the honor of God and the welfare of men. These
various trials. Brethren, are doubtless intended not on-
ly to quaXify Missionaries i'ov greater usefulness, but
also to humble and purify all, who are laboring and
praying for the conversion of the heathen. How ef-
fectually do these events teach us, that no human ef-
forts can ensure success; that the best qualifications of
missionaries abroad, with the largest liberality and
most glowing zeal of thousands at home, will be of no
efficacy, without the blessing of God. When, by sal-
utary discipline, he shall have brought his servants to
exercise suitable humility and dependence, and in oth-
er respects prepared the way, no doubt he will give
o/ Mrs. Harriet NeweW. 23
glorious success. The cause is his; and it is vain to
depend for its prosperity on human exertions. The
death of Mrs. Newell, instead of overcasting our
prospects, will certainly turn to the advantage of mis-
sions. It will correct and instruct those, who are la-
boring for the spread of the gospel. The publication of
her virtues will quicken and edify thousands. It will al-
so make it apparent, that the missionary cause has ir-
resistible attractions for the most excellent characters.
Her character will be identified with that holy cause.
Henceforth, every one, who remembers Harriet
Newell, will remember the Foreign Mission
JTROM America. And every one, who reads the his-
tory oU/iis mission, w^ill be sure to read the faithful re-
cord of her exemplary life and triumphant death Thus
all her talents, the advantages of her education, the
beauties of her mind and the amiableness of her man-
ners, her refined taste, her willingness to give up all
that was dear to her in her native land, her fervent
love to Christ, her desires and prayers for the advance-
ment of his kingdom, her patience and fortitude in suf-
fering, and the divine consolations w^iich she enjoy-
ed, will all redound to the honor of that sacred cause,
to which all she had was devoted. Her life, measur-
ed by months and years, was short; but far otherwise,
when measured by what she achieved. She was the
happy instrument of much good to the holy kingdom
of Christ, which deserved all her affections and all her
labors. She died in a glorious cause. Nor did she
pray, and weep, and die, in vain. Other causes may
miscarry; but this will certainly triumph. The Lord
God of Israel has pledged his perfections for its suc-
cess. The time is at hand, when the various tribes of
India, and all th(i nations and kindreds of the eaitli
24 Sermon in Remembrance of Mrs, Harriet NewelL
shall fall down before the King of Zion, and submit
cheerfully to his reign. A glorious work is to be done
among the nations. Christ is to see the travail of his
^ul, and airhis benevolent desires are to be satisfied.
The infinite value of his atoning blood is to be com-
pletely and universally illustrated; and the full orbed
splendor of redeeming love is every w^here to shine forth.
The power of God will soon accomplish a work, which,
seen in distant prospect, has made thousands, now-
sleeping in Jesus, before leap for joy. Blessed are tbey
who are destined to live, when the earth shall be filled
with the glory of the Lord. And blessed are we, who
live so near that day, and even begin to see its bright
and glorious dawn. O Sun of Righteousness, arise.
Shine upon the dark places of the earth; illuminate
all the world. Amen.
ADVERTISEMENT.
THE following Memoirs of Mrs. Newell, are dc^
rived almost entirely from her own wintings* Noth*
ing has been added but what seemed absolutely nec-
essary, to give the reader a general view of her char-
acter, and to explain some particular occurrences, in
which she was concerned. These memoirs contain
only a part of her letters and journal. The whole
would have made a large volume. The labor of the
compiler has been to select, and occasionally, espec-
ially in her earlier writings, to abridge. The letters
and journal of this unambitious, delicate female
would have been kept within the circle of her par-
ticular friends, had not the closing scenes of her Ufe,
and the missionary zeal, which has recently been
kindled in this country, excited in the public mind a
lively interest in her character, and given the cliris-
iian community a kind of property in the productions
of her pen. It was thought best to arrange her writ-
ings according to the order of time; so that, in a con-
nected series of letters, and extracts from her diary,
the reader might be under advantages io observe the
jivogress of her mind, the deveiopemejd of her moral
worth, and some of the mqst important events oj her
life.
MEMOIRS
OF
MRS. HARRIET NEWELL,
1 HE subject of these memoirs was a daughter of Mr. Moses
Atwood, a merchant of Haverhill, Mass. and was born Oct.
10, 1793. She was naturally cheerful and unreserved; posses-
sed a lively imagination and great sensibility; and early dis-
covered a retentive memory and a taste for reading. Long
will she be remembered as a dutiful child and an affectionate
sister.
She manifested no peculiar and lasting seriousness before the
year 1806. In the summer of that year, while at the Academy
in Bradford, a place highly favored of the Lord, she first be-
came the subject of those deep religious impressions, which
laid the foundations of her christian life. With several of her
companions in study, she was roused to attend to the one thing
needful. They turned off their eyes from beholding vanity,
and employed their leisure in searching the Scriptures and list-
ening to the instructions of those, who were able to direct them
in the way of life. A few extracts from letters, which she wrots
to Miss L. K. of Bradford, will, in some measure, show the state
of her mind at that time.
1806.
^'Dear L. I need your kind instructions now as much as ever.
I should be willing to leave every thing for God; willing to be
called by any name which tongue can utter, and to undergo any
sufferings, if it would but make me humble, and be for his glory.
Do advise me what I shall do for his glory. I care not for my-
self. Though he lay ever so much upon me, I would be con-
tent. Oh, could I but rccal this summer! — But it is past, never
to return. I ha\e one constant companion, the Bible, from
which 1 derive the greatest comfort. I'/ii^ I intend for the fu-
ture shall guide me.
28 Religious Exercises.
*< Did you ever read Doddridge's Sermotis to Young Peo-
ple? They are very beautiful sermons. It appears strange to
me, why I am not more interested in the cause of Christ, when
he has done so much for us! But I will form a resolution that I
will give myself up entirely to him. Pray for me, that my heart
may be changed, I long for the happy hour when we shail be
free from all sin, ancj enjoy God in heaven. But if it would be
for his glory, I should be willing to live my threescore years y- d
ten. My heart bleeds for our companions, who are on the brink
of destruction. In what manner shall I speak to them? But
perhaps I am in the same way."
In another letter to the same friend, she says; — <'What did
Paul and Silas say to the jailor? Believe in the Lord Jesus
Christy a7id thou shalt be saved. Let us do the same. Let us
improve the accepted time, and make our peace with God. This
day, my L. I have formed a resolution, that I will devote the
remainder of my life entirely to the service of my God.— Write
to me. Tell me my numerous outward faults;, though you
know not the faults of my heart, yet tell me all you know, that I
may improve. I shall receive it as a token of love."
I'HE FOLLOWING SUMMARY ACCOUNT OF HER RELIGIOUS
EXERCISES WAS FOUND AMONG HER PRIVATE PAPERS.
DIARY.
"A Review of past religious experience I have often found
useiul and encouraging. On this account I have written down
the exercises of my mind, hoping that, by frequently reading
them, 1 may be led to adore the riches of sovereign grace, praise
the Lord for his former kindness to me, and feel encowaged to
persevere in a holy life.
"The first ten years of my life were spent in vanity. I was
entirely ignorant of the depravity of my heart. The summer
that I entered my eleventh year, I attended a dancing school.
My conscience would sometimes tell me, that my time was fool-
ishly spent; and though I had never heard it intimated, that such
amusements were criminal; yet I could not rest, until I had sol-
emnly determined that, when the school closed, 1 would imme-
/
Religious Exercises, gQ
diately berome religious. But these resolutions were not car-
ried into effect Although I attended every day to ^ecret pray-
er, and read the Bible with greater attention than before ; yet
I soon became weary of these exercises, and, by degrees, omit-
ted entirely the duties of the closci. When I entered my thir-
teenth year, I was sent by my parents to the Academy at Brad-
ford. A revival of religion commenced in the neighborhood,
which, in a short time, spread into the school. A large num-
ber of the young ladies were anxiously inquiring what they
should do to inherit eternal life, I began to inquire, what can
these things mean? My attention was solemnly called to the
concerns of my immortal soul. I was a stranger to hope; and I
feared the ridicule of my gay companions. My heart was op-
posed to the character of God; and I felt that, if I continued an
enemy to his government, I must eternally perish. My con-
victions of sin were not so pungent and distressing, as many
have had; but they were of long continuance. It was more than
three months, before I was brought to cast my soul on the Sa-
vior of sinners; and rely on him alone for salvation. The ec-
stacies, which many new-born souls possess, were not mine. But
if I was not lost in raptures on reflecting upon what I had es-
caped; I was filled with a sweet peace, a heavenly calmness,
which I never can describe. The honors, applauses, and titles
of this vain world appeared like trifles ligljt as air. The char-
acter of Jesus appeared infinitely lovely, and I could say with
the Psalmist, whom have I in heaven but thee: and there is
none on earth I desire besides thee. The awful gulf, I had es*
caped, filled me with astonishment. My gay associates were
renounced, and the friends of Jesus became my dear friends.
The destitute, broken state of the church at Haverhill prevent-
ed me from openly professing my faith in Jesus; but it was a
privilege, which I longed to enjoy But alas! these seasons so
precious did not long continue. Soon was I led to exclaim, —
Oh that I were as in months past! My zeal for the cause of re-
ligion almost entirely abated; while this vain world engrossed
my affections, which had been consecrated to my Redeemer.
My Bible, once so lovely, was entirely neglected. Novels and
romances engaged my thoughts, and hour after hour was fool-
ishly and sinfully spent in the perusal of them. The company
of Christians became, by degrees, irksome and unpleasant. I
30 Religious Exercises,
endeavored to shun them. The voice of conscience would fre-
quently whisper; "all is not righi." Many a sleepless night
have I passed a^ter a day of vanity and sin. But such conflicts
did not bring me home to the fold, from which, like a stray
lamb, I had wandered far away. A religion, which was inti-
mately connected with the amusements of the world, and the
friendship of those who are at enmity with God, would have
suited well my depraved heart. But I knew that the religion
of the gospel WIS vastly different. It exalts the Creator, while
it humbles the creature in the dust.
*'Such was my awful situationl I lived only to wound the cause
of my ever blessed Savior. Weep, Oh my soul! when contem-
plating and recording these sins of my youth. Be astonished
at the long suffering of Jehovah! — [low great a God is our GodI
The death of a beloved parent, and uncle had but little effect
on my hard heart. Though these afHictions moved my passions,
they did not lead me to the Fountain of consolation. But God,
who is rich in mercy, did not leave me here! He had prepared
my heart, to receive his grace; and he glorified the riches of
his mercy, by carrying on the work. I was providentially in-
vited to visit a friend in Newburyport. I complied with the in-
vitation. The evening previous to my return home, I heard the
Rev. Mr. MacF. It was the 28th of June 1809. How did the
truths, which he delivered, sink deep into my inmost soul! My
past transgressions rose like great mountains before me. The
most poignant anguish seized my mind; my carnal security fled;
and I felt myself a guilty transgressor, naked before a holy God*
Mr, B. returned with me the next day to Haverhill. Never,
no, never, while memory retains her seat in my breast, shall I
forget the affectionate manner, in which he addressed me. His
conversation had the desired effect. I then made the solemn
resolution, as I trust, in the strength of Jesus, that I would make
a sincere dedication of my all to my Creator, both for time and
eternity. This resolution produced a cairn serenity and com-
posure, to^ which I had long been a stranger. How lovely the
way of salvation then appeared! — Oh how lovely was the char-
acter of the Savior! The duty of professing publicly on which
side I was, now was impressed on my mind. I came forward,
and oflfcred myself to the church; was accepted; received into
communion: and commemorated, for the first time, the dyiii^
Religious ExercisQs, SI
love of the blessed Jesus, August 6th, 1809. This was a pre-
tious season long to be remembered! — Oh the depths of sove-
reign grace! Eternity will be too short to celebrate the perfec-
tions of God.
August 27thj 1809. Harriet Atwood.'*
Se/itA J 1^.06. A large number of my companions, of both sexesj
with whom I have associated this summer, are in deep distress
for their immortal souls. Many, who were formerly gay and
thoughtless, are now in tears, anxiously inquiring, what they
shall do to be saved. Oh how rich is the mercy of Jesus! He
dispenses his favors to whom he pleases, without regard to age
or sex. Surely it is a wonderful display of the sovereignty of
God, to make me a subject of his kingdom, while many of my
companions, far more amiable than I am, are left to grovel in
the dust, or to mourn their wretched condition, without one
gleam of hope.
Se/it. 4. I have just parted with my companions, with whom
I have spent three months at the Academy. I have felt i^ strong
attachment to many of them, particularly to those, who have
been hopefully renewed the summer past. But the idea of
meeting them in heaven, never more to bid them farewell, si-
lenced every painful thought-
Sefit. iO. Been indulged with the privilege of visiting a
clu'istian friend this afternoon. Sweet indeed to my heart is the
society of the friends of Immanuel. I never knew true joy un-
til I found it in the exercise of religion.
Se/it. 18. How great are the changes, which take place in my
irJnd in the course of one short day! I have felt deeply dis-
tressed for the depravity of my heart, and have been ready to
despair of the mercy of God. But the light of divine truth
has this evening irradiated my soul, and I have enjoyed such
composure, as I never knew before.
Se/it, 20. This has been a happy day to mo. When conver-
sing with a Christian friend upon ihc love of Jesus, I was lost
in raptures. My soul rejoiced in the Lord, and joyed in the
God of my salvation. A sermon preached by Mr. M. this ev-
ening has in9reased my happiness. This is tOQ much for me.
32 Religions Exercises,
a sinful worm of the dust, deserving only eternal punishment.-
Lord, it is enough.
Oct, 6. The day on which Christ arose from the dead, has
again returned. * How shall I spend it? Oh, how the recollec-
tion of mispent Sabbaths, embitters every present enjoyment.
With pain do I remember the holy hours, which were sinned
away. Frequently did I repair to novels, to shorten the irk-
some hours as they passed. Why was I not cut off in the
midst of t/iis my wickedness?
Oc/. 10. Oh how much have I enjoyed of God this day!
Such views of bis holy character, such a desire to glorify his.
holy name, I never before experienced. Oh that this frame
inight continue through life.
**jMy willing soul would stay-
in such a frame as this.
And sit and sing herself awaj'.
To ■ everlasting bliss.
This is my birth day. Thirteen years of my short life have
gone forever*
Oct, 25. Permitted by my heavenly P'ather, once more to
hear the- gospel's joyful sound. I have enjoyed greater happi-
ness than tongue can describe. I have indeed been joyful in
the house of prayer. Lord let me dwell in thy presence forever,
JVov. 2. How wonderful is the superabounding grace of
God! Called at an early age to reflect upon my lost condition,
and to accept of the terms of salvation, how great are my obli-
gations to live a holy life.
A^'ov, 4. Examination at the Academy. The young ladies to
be separated, perhaps, for life. Oh, hov,- affecting the scene!
I have bid my companions farewell. Though they are endear-
ed to me by the strongest ties of affection, yet I must be sepa-
rated from them, perhaps never to meet them more, till the res-
urrection. The season has been remarkable for religious im-
pressions. But the harvest is past, the summer is ended, and
there are n^imbers who can say, we are 7iot saved,
jVov. 25. A dear Christian sister called on me this afternoon.
Her pious conver;>ation produced a solemn but pleasing effect
wpon my mind. Shall I ever be so unspeakably happy as to
enjoy the society of holy beings in heaven?
"Oh to grace how gi*eat a debtor!'*
Religious Exercises, 23
jbec. 3. I have had great discoveries of the wickedness of ray
heart these three days past. But this evening, God has graci-
ously revealed himself to me in the beauty and glory of his
character. The Savior provided for fallen man, is just such
an one as I need.- He is tlic one altogether lovely.
Dec. 7. With joy we welcome the morning of another Sab-
bath. Oh let this holy day be consecrated entirely to God-
My Sabbaths on earth will soon be ended; but I look forward
with joy unutterable to that holy day, which will never have an
end.
Dec. 8. This evening has been very pleasantly spent with my
companions, H. and S. B. The attachment which commenced
as it were in infancy has been greatly stiengthened since their
minds have been religiously impressed. How differently are
our evenings spent now, from what they formerly were! How
many evenings have 1 spent with them in thoughtless vanity
and giddy mirth. We have been united in the service of Sutan;
Oh that we might now be united in the service of God.
Dec. 1 1. This morning has been devoted to the work of self-
examination. Though 1 find within me an evil heart of unbe-
lief, prone to depart from the living God, yet I have a hope, a
strong, unwavering hope, which I would not renounce for
worlds. Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, for this blessed assurance
•f eternal life.
Dec. 15. Grace, free grace is still my song. I am lost in
wonder and admiration, when I reflect upon the dealings of
God with ipe. When I meet with my associates, who are in-
volved in nature's darkness, I am constrained to cry with the
poet,
"**Why -was I made to hear thy voice.
And enter >vhile there's room;
While thous^ds make a wretched choice.
And rather starve than come."
Dec. 31. This day has passed away rapidly and happily. Oh,
the real bliss that I have enjoyed; such love to God; such a de-
sire to glorify him, I never possessed before. The hour of sweet
release will shortly come; Oh, what joyful tidings.
1807. Jan. 3. A sweet and abiding sense of divine things,
slill reigns within. Bad health prevented my attending public
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34 Mi's. Ne'welPs Letters.
worship this day. I have enjoyed an unspeakable calmness of
mind and a heart burning ^Tithlove to my exalted Saviour. Oh,
how shall I fin,d words to express the grateful feelings of my
heart. Oh, for an angel's tongue to praise and exalt my Jesus.
Jan. 5. I have had exalted thoughts of the character of God
this day. I have ardently longed to depart and be with Jesus.
Jan. 9. How large a share of peace and joy has been mine
this evening. The society of Christians delights and animates
my heart. Oh how I love those, who love my Redeemer.
March 25. Humility has been the subject of my meditations
this day. I find I have been greatly deficient in this Christian
grace. Oh for that meek and lowly spirit which Jesus exhib-
ited in the days of his flesh.
March 25. Little E.'s birth day. Reading of those children
■who cried hosanna to the Son of David, when he dwelt on earth,
I ardently wished that this dear child might be sanctified. She
is not too young to be made a subject of Immanuel's kingdom.
May 1. Where is the cross which Christians speak of so fre-
quently? All that I do for Jesus is pleasant. Though perhaps
I am ridiculed by the gay and thoughtless for my choice of re-
ligion,'yet the inward comfort which I enjoy, doubly compen-
sates me for all this. I do not wish for the approbation and
love of the world, neither for its splendors or riches. For one^
blesjt hour at God's right hand, I'll give them all away.
Extracts of a letter to her sister M. at Byjield.
Haverhill^ Jug. 26, 1807.
"In what an important station you are placed! The pupils
committed to your care will be either adding to your condem-
nation in the eternal world, or increasing your everlasting hap-
piness. At the awful tribunal of your Judge yt u will meet
them, and there give an account of the manner, in which you
have iwsxructed them* Have you given them that advice,
which they greatly need? Have you instructed them in religion?
Oh my sisterl how earnest, how engaged ought you to be, for
their immortal welfare. Recollect, the hour is drawing near,
when you and the young ladies committed to your cure, must
Mrs, NewelPs Letters. 35
appear before God. If you have invited them to come to the
Saviour, and make their peace with him, how happy will you
then be! But on the other hand, if you have been negligent;
awful will be your situation. May the God of peace be with
you. May we meet on the right hand of God and spend an
eternity in rejoicing in his favors." — . Harbjet Atwood .
When Harriet Atw ood was a member of Bradford Acad-
emy, it was customary for her companions in study, whose
minds were turned to religious subjects, to maintain a familiar
correspondence with each other. A few specimens of the let-
ters or billets, which Harriet wrote to one of her particular
ifriends at that time, will show the nature of the correspondence.^
To Miss F. TV. of Bradford ^Icademi^. '"■'
Bradford Made my ^ Sefit, 1807.
As we are candidates for eternity, how careful ought we to be,
that religion be our principal concern. Perhaps this night
our souls may be required of us — we may end our exist-
ence here, and enter the eternal world. Are we prepared to
meet our Judge? Do we depend upon Christ's righteousness
for acceptance? Are we convinced of our own sinfulness, and
inability to help ourselves? Is Christ's love esteemed more by
us, than the friendship of this world? Do we feel willing to
take up our cross daily and follow Jesus? These quesiions, my
dear Miss W. are important; and if we can answer them, ih
the affirmative, we are prepared for God to require our souls
of us when he pleases.
May the Spirit guide you, and an interest in the Saviour be
given you. Adieu, Harriet.
Wednesday afieinoon, 3 o'clock.
To Miss- F. W, of Bradford AcadcDv:.
Bradford Academy^ Sc/i(. II, 1807.
As heirs of immortality, one would naturally imagine, we
dhouM strive to enter in at the strait gate, and use all our cr.»
36 Mrs. NewelPs' Letters,
fdeavors to be heirs of future happiness. But alas! how ini-
nitely short do we fall of the duty we owe to Go», and to our
own souls! O my friend, could you look into my heart, what
could you there *find, but a sinful stupidity, and rebellion against
God? But yet I dare to hope! O how surprising, how astonish-
ing is the redemption, which Christ has procured, whereby
sinners may be reconciled to him, and through his merits dare
to hope! O may his death animate us to a holy obedience.
H. A.
To Miss F. W. of Bradford Academy,
Bradford Academy^ SefiS. 1807.
How solemn, my dear Miss W. is the idea, that we must soon
part! Solemn as it is, yet what is it, when compared with part-
ing at the bar of God, and being separated through all eternity!
Religion is worth our attention, and every moment of our lives
ought to be devoted to its concerns. Time is short, but eter-
nity is long; and when we have once plunged into that fathom-
less abyss, our situation will never be altered. If we have
jserved God here, and prepared for death, glorious will be our
reward hereafter. But if we have not, and have hardened our
hearts against the Lord; our day of grace will be past, and our
souls irrecoverably lest, Oh then, let us press forward, an4
seek and serve the Lord here, that we may enjoy him hereafter.
Favor me with frequent visits while we are together, and wliCB
"vve part, let epistolary visits be constant. Adieu, yours, &c.
Harriet.
A very frequent and affectionate correspondence was con-
tinued betvv-een Harriet Atwood and the same friend after she
left the Academy and returned to Beverly, her place of resi-
dence.
Tn Miss F. W, of Beverly.
Haverhill, Oct. 12, 180r.
Once more, my dear Miss W. I take my pen and attempt
writing a few lines to yoUo Shall religion be my theme? What
Mrs. NeweWs Letters. 37
ather subject can I choose, that will be of any importance to
our immortal souls? How Utile do we realize that we are pro-
bationers for eternity? We have entered upon an existence
that will never end; and in the future jvorld shall either enjoy
happiness unspeakably great, or suffer misery in the extreme
to all eternity. We have every inducement to awake from the
sleep of death, and to engage in the cause of Christ. In this
time of awful declension, God calls loudly upon us to enlist
under his banners, and promote his glory in u sinful, stupid
world. If we are brought from a state of darkness into God's
inarveilous light, and are turned from Satan to the Re-
deemer, how thankful ought we to be. Thousands of out*
age are at this present period, going on in thoughtless securi-
ty; and why are we not left? It is of God's infinite mercy and
free unbounded grace. Can wc not with our whole hearts
bow before the King of kings, and say, "not unto us, not unto
^s, but ".o thy name be all the glory." Oh my dear Miss W.
■why are our affections placed one moment upon this world,
>vhen the great things of religion are of such vast importance?
Oh that God would rend his heavens and come dpwn, and
awaken our stupid drowsy senses. What great reason have I
to complain of my awfully stubborn will, and mourn my un-
worthy treatment of the Son of God? Thou alone, Dear Jesus,
canst soften the heart of stone, and bow the will to thy holy
sceptre. Display thy power in our hearts and make us fit
subjects for thy Kingdom above.
How happy did I feel when I i-ead your affectionate epistle;
and that happiness was doubly increased, when you observed
that you should, on the sabbath succeedijig, be engaged in the
solemn transaction of giving yourself to God, publicly in an
everlasting covenant. My sincere desire and earnest prayer at
the throne of grace shall ever be, that you may adorn the pro-
fession which you have made, and become an advocate for the
religion of Jesus.
Let us obey the solemn admonitions we daily receive, and
prepare to meet our God. May the glorious and blessed Re-
deemer who can reconcile rebellious mortals to himself, make
us both holy, that we may be happy. Write soon and oflcn-
I am vours affectionately, ITarrif.t Ai^yooT*.
38 Mrs. NeweWs Letters,
To Miss F, W. (jf Beverly,
Haverhill, Bee. 2, \ SOT.
Most sincerely .do I thank you, my dear Miss W. for your
liind and affectionate epistle, which you last favored me with.
Is religion and the concerns of futurity still the object of your
attention? New scenes daily open to us, and there is the great-
est reason to fear that some of us will fall short at last of an
interest in J'.sus Christ- A few more rising and setting suns,
and we shall be called to give an account to our final Judge,
of the manner in which we have improved our probationary
state; then, then, the religion which we profess, — will it st.and
the test? Oh! let us v/ith the greatest care, examine ourselves,
and see if our religion will cover us'from the storms of divine
wrath;-- -whether our chief desire is to glorify God, to honor his
cause, and to become entirely devoted to him. What a word
is ErERNitr! Let us reflect upon it; although we cannot pene-
trate into its unsearchable depths, yet perhaps it may have an
impressive weight upon our minds, and lead us to a constant
preparation for that hour, when we shall enter the confines of
that state, and be either happy or miserable through an endless
duration.'
Last evening I attended a conference at Mr. H*s. Mr. B.
addressed us from;s^these words, "I pray thee have me excused."
•His design was to shew what excuses the unconverted person
will make for not attending to the calls of religion. It was the
most solemn coiifercnce I ever heard. Oh! my friend, of what
infinite importance is it, that we be faithful in the cause of our
Master, and use all our endeavors to glorify him, the short space
of time we have to live on earth. Oli! may we so live, that
when we are called to enter the eternal world, we may with sat-
isfaction give up our accounts, and go where we can behold the
King in his glory. We have every thing to engage us in the
concerns of our immortal souls. If we will but accept of Christ
Jesus as he is freely offered to us in the gospel, committing
ourselves unreservedly into his hands, all will be ours, life and
death, things present and things to come^ We should desire
to be holy as God is holy. And in some degree we must be
holy, even as he is, or we can never enter that holy habitation
where Jesus dv^tells.
Mrs, Neu-eWs Letters. 39
Oh! my dear Miss W. I cannot but hope that you are now en-
gaged for Christ, and are determined not to let iliis world any
longer engross your attention. Be constant in prayer. Pray
that your friend Harriet may no longer be so stuj)id and inat-
tentive to the great concerns of religion. Pray that she may be
aroused from this lethargic state and attend to Christ's call.
With reluctance I bid you adieu, my dear Miss W. Do favor
me with a long epistle; tell me your feelings; how you view
the character of God in the atonement for sinners. May we
liave a part in that purchase. Remember your friend, Haruiet.
To Miss F. W. of Beverly.
Haverhill^ Feb 13, 180B.
Accept, my dear MissW. my sincere thanks for your epistle.
Your ideas of the necessity of religion in the last extremity of
expiring nature, perfectly coincide with mine. Yes, although
we may reject the Saviour, and become engaged in the concerns
of this vain and wicked world, although while in youth and
health, we may live as though this world were our home, yet
when the hour of dissolution shall draw near, when eternity-
shall be unfolded to our view, what, at that trying moment^,
will be our consolation, but an assurance of pardoned guilt, and
an interest in the merits of Christ the Redeemer? We are now
probationers for a never-ending state of existence, and are form-
ing characters, upon which our future happiness or misery de-
pends. Ohj if we could only have a sense of these all import-
ant considerations! — How criminally stupid are we, when we
know that these are eternal realities! Why are we not alive to
God and our duty, and dead to sin? This world is a state of tri-
als, a vale of tears; it is not our home. But an eternity of
happiness or woe hangs on this inch of time. Soon will. our
state be unalterably fixed. Oh let this solemn consideration
have its proper weight on our minds, and let us now be wise
for eternity.
How little are we engaged to promote the interest of religion.
At this day, when the love of many waxcth cold and iniquity
increaseth. how o\ight every faculty of our souls to be alive te
God.
40 Mrs. NeweWs Letters. ^
Do write often, and perhaps, the blessing of an all-wise God
may attend your epistles. In your earnest supplications at the
throne of almighty grace, remember your affectionate, tl)ough
unworthy friend* Harriet.
P. S. I long to see you and unfold to you the inmost recesses
of my heart. Do make it convenient to visit H. this spring, and
although it may be unpleasing to you to hear the wickedness
of your friend Harriet*s heart, yet perhaps you, my dear Miss
W. can say something which will now make me resolve in
carnQst, that, let others serve whom they will, I will serve the
Lord.
To the same^ dated H. AfirU 20, 1808.
This morning, my beloved Miss W. your kind epistle was
handed me, in which you express a wish, that it might find me
engaged in the cause of God. Oh that your wish could be grat-
ifiedl But let me tell you, I am still the same careless, inat-
tentive creature — What in this world can we find capable of
satisfying the desires of our immortal souls? Not one of the en-
dowments, which are derived from any thing short of God, will
avail us in the solemn and important hour of death. All the
vanities, which the world terms accomplishments, will then ap-
pear of little value. Yes, my beloved companion, in that mo-
jnent we shall find that nothing will suffice to hide the real na-
kedness of the natural mind, but the furnished robe, in which
the child of God shines with purest lustre, the Saviour's righte-
•ousness. Oh! that we might, by the assistance of God, deck
our souls with the all perfect rule. Our souls are of infinite
importance, and an eternity of misery, "where the worm dieth
not and the fire is not quenched,'* awaits us, if we do not attend to
th^ir concerns. I should be happy, my amiable friend, in vis-
iting you this spring But with reluctance I must decline your
generous offer. A dear and oeloved parent is in a declining
state of health, and we fear, if indulgent Heaven do not inter-
pose, and stop the course of his sickness, death will deprive us
of his society and the grave open to receive him Oh! that his
life might be spared, and his health once more established, to
cheer his family and friends. But in ail th ese afflictive dispen-
sations of God's providence may it ever be my prayer, "not
mv will, O Lord! but tliinc be done."
Mrs, NewelVs Letters. 41
I do not expect to attend B. academy this summer. We shall
have a school in H. which, with my pai'cnts' consent, I expect to
attend. Do visit me this spring, my dear Miss W. Your let-
ters are always received with pleasure. My best wishes for
your present and eternal happiness attend you.
I am yours, Sec. Harriet.
To Mis.s C. F. of jYewburijfiort.
Dear C. Haverhill, Feb, 16, 1808.
Since you left us, death has entered our family, and deprived
us of an affectionate uncle. After lingering two days after you
returned to your fiiends, he fell asleep, as we trust, in Jesus.
Oh, C- could you but have witnessed his dying struggles! Dis-
tress and anguish were his constant companions, till about ten
minutes before his spirit winged its way to the eternal world;
then he was deprived of speech; he looked upon us, closed his
eyes, and expired. He would often say, 'Oh how I long for the
happy hour's approach, when I shall find a sweet release; but
"not my will, but thine, O God, be done." * When we stood
•weeping around his dying bed, he looked upon us and said,
"Mourn not for me, my friends, but mourn for yourselves."
Oh my C. let us now be persuaded to lay hold on Jesus, as the
only Saviour. If we trust in him for protection, he will preserve
us in all the trying scenes of life, and when the hour of disso-
lution shall come, we shall be enabled to give ourselves to
him. and consign our bodies to the tomb with pleasure.
*What a world is this: Full of anxiety and troublel My dear
father is very fteble; a bad cough attends him, which we fear
will prove fatal. What a blessing my friend, are parents! Let
us attend to their instructions and reproofs, while we possess
them, that, when death shall separate us, we may have no cause
for regret that we were undutiful. While we do every thing
we can to make iliem happy, let us remember that it is God
alone can compensate ilicm for their labors of love. Far dis-
tant be the hour when either of us shall be called to mourn the
loss of our dear parents.
Do, ray dear C. wriie to me; tell me if this world does not
appear more and moic trifling to you. May the sweet influ-
ences of the Floly Spirit, be shed abvoad in your heart. Ob,
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42 Mrs, NetceWs Letters.
may happiness attend you in this vale of tears, and may you be
conducted to the haven of eternal rest. Accept the wish of
your ever aftectionate Hauriet.
To Miss C. F. of Menvburyfiort,
Haverhill, J/iril 24, 1808.
Accept, my dear C. my kindest acknowledgments, for your last
affectionate epistle, in the perusal of which, I had the most
pleasing- sensations You observed, your contemplations had-^
frequently dwelt on those hours, we spent in each others* soci-
ety, while at Bradford Academy; and that you regretted the
misimprovement of them Ahis! how many houis have we
spent in trifling conversation, which will avail us nothing. Let
our imaginations often wing their way back to those hours^
which can never be recalled.
"'Tis greatly mIsc, to talk with our past hours,
"And ask thenj what report they've borue to heaven,
*'And how they might have borne more welcome news.'*
Will the recollection of the moments that are now speeding
their flighty afford satisfaction at the last? Oh, that we. might
improve our time and talents to the glory of God, that the re-
view of them may be pleasing.
You ask me to write to you, and to write something that will
awaken you from stupidity. I would, my dear C. but I am still
m the same careless state.
.My father still remains in a critical situation. Permit me to
request an interest in your prayers for him; bin be assured,
there is none they will be more serviceable to, than your dear
friend, Harriet.
To Miss F. W. of Beverly,
AFTER THE DEATH OF HER FATHER*
Haverhill, May 2i, \^0S.
In the late tryjng and afflictive scenes of God's providence,
which I have been called to pass through, I have flattered my«
self, that the tcnderest sympathy has been awakened in the
Religious Exercisesj, 43
heart of my beloved F. Oh my companion; this is a scene
peculiarly trying to me. How much do my circumstances re-
quire every divine consolation and direction, to make this death
a salutary warning to me. The guardian of my tender years, he,
who, under God has been made an instrument in givinj^ me
existence, my father, my nearest earthly friend, where is he?
The cold clods of the valley cover him, and the worms feed
upon his cold and lifeless body. Can it be, that I am left fath-
erless? Heart-rending reflection! Oh my dear, dear Miss W.
may you never be left to mourn the loss, which I now experi-
ence. Oh, tliat your parents may be spared to you, and you
ever honor them, and be a blessing to them, even in their
declining years.
Glance a thought on n'me fatherless childreji, and a widowed
and afflicted mother? But if we are fatherless, Oh, may we never
be friendless. May He who has promised to be the father of
the fatherless, and the widow's God, enable us to rely upon
him, and receive grace to help in this time of need; and although
the present affliction is not joyous, but grievous, Oh that it niiy
be instrumental in working out a far more exceeding and
eternal weight of glory.
Do come and see me — I long once more to embrace my
friend, and to tell her what I owe her for all her favors. Adieu,
my beloved Miss W. receive this as a token of renewed affection
from your, Harriet.
Respects to your parents and love to sister N.
From some passages in the foregoing papers, and also from
what follows, it appears, that during the year 1808, she was in a
state of religious declension and darkness. According to the
statement of one, who was competent to testify; "She appeared
gradually to lose her fondness for retirement, and her delight
in the Scriptures, and associated more freely with her former
gay companions. But nothing was manifested, which afforded
any just ground for suspecting her sincerity." What views she
entertaitied of that state of declension, and by what means she
was recovered to duty and comfort, will appear from some of
the f9!lowing ktters and diary.
44 Religious Exercises.
To Miss C. P, ofjYeivburyfiort.
Haverhill, Feb. ^^7,1^^}.
My dear C.
What have you been reading this winter? I presume you have
had sufficient time to improve your mind in the study of history,
&c. For my part I know not what to say. A constant round of
worldly engagements and occupations hav'e I fear engrossed far
loo much of my time.
I have of iate been quite interested in reading Miss Helen
Maria Williams's Letters on the French Revolution, and am
now reading Rollin's Ancient History. In the morning of life
■when no perplexing cares interrupt or vex our minds, we should
spend every moment of our time in improving our mmds, by
reading, or attending to conversation that is beneficial. Our
time is short! Perhaps we may be cut off in the morning of our
days. Oh that we might improve each moment of our lives,
"And make each day a critic on the last."
Adieu, I am, 8cc. Harriet.
1809.
July 1. God has been pleased in infinite mercy, again
tb call up my attention to eternal realities. After spending
more than a year, in the vanities of the world — thoughtless and
unconcerned respecting my eternal welfare, he has, as I hum-
bly trust, showed me my awful backslidings from hira, and my
dependance upon his grace for every blessing.
I do now, in tlie strength of Jesus, resolve^ that I will no
longer sacrifice my immortal soul for what I have hithe'^tQ
deemed my temporal happiness. Oh that I might be enabled
to come out from the- world, and to profess Christ as my Re-
deemer before multitudes. I now see, that I have enjoyed no
happiness in my pursuit of worldly pleasure. Not in the play-
room— not in the vain and idle conversation of my companions,
not in the bustle of a crowded life, have 1 found happiness.
This heaven-born guest is found only in the bosom of the child
of Jesus. How awfully aggravated will be my condemijalion,
if I do not, after this second call, awaken all my drowsy faculties
and become earnestly engaged for God,
Religious Exercises. 45
Juhj 10. How foolislily, how wickedly have I spent this
d'ay! What have I clone ior God? Notliint^ I fear. Oh how
many mispent days shall I have to answer for, at the tribunal of
an holy Judgel Then how does it become me, to set a watch
upon my behavior; as one that must shortly give an account to
God. Oh thou blessed Jesus, grant thy assistance, that I may
live as I ought.
July IG. Sabbath morn. Solemnly impressed with a sense of
my duty to God, I entered his holy courts this morning. What
am /, that I should be blessed with the gospel's joyful sound,
while so many are now perishing in heathen darkness for lack
of the knowledge of Christ.
Sabbath eve, I have now oiTercd nvyself to the Church of
God, and have been assisted by him. Perhaps they will not re-
ceive me; but Oh God, wilt thou accept me through a Mediator.
I have now let my companions see, I am not ashamed of Je-
sus. Oh that I might not dishonor the cause, I am about pro-
fessing. In Christ atoJie^ will I put my trust, and rely entirely
on his righteousness for the pardon of my aggravated transgres-
sions.
July \7 . Have spent the day at home. I think I have enjoy-
ed something of God's presence. Fck a disposition, frequently
to call upon him by prayer and supplication.
July 18. At this late hour, when no one beholdcth me but
God, how solemnly — how sincerely ought I to be engaged for
him?
The family are retired to rest. The darkness and silence of
the night, and the reflection, that the night of death will soon
overtake me, conspire to solemnize my mind. What have
I done this day for God? Have I lived as a stranger and pilgrim
on the earth; as one that must soon leave this world and "go the
way from whence no traveller returns?"
Oh that I were more engaged for Godr— more engaged to
promote his cause, in the midst of a perverse generation.
July 20. This evening, I had a most solemn meeting with one
c>f my dear and most intimate companions. I warned her in
the most expressive language of my heart, to repent. She ap-
peared afiected. 1 left her; and after returning home, I trust, I
was enabled to commend her to the God of infinite mercy, anU
to W/Kcstle with him for her conviction and conversion.
46 Religious Exercises.
July 22. Was informed that appeared serious a'lid un?
usually affected. Oh that God might work a work of grace in
his heart) and enable him to resign all earthly vanities, for an
interest in the great Redeemer. He has talents, which if abus-
ed,'will only add to his everlasting condemnation. Oh thou
God of infinite mercy, — thou who hast had pity on me, show him
mercy, and awaken him to a sense of his situation, before the
things that concern hi* peace, are hid, forever, from his eyes.
July 30. Sabbath day Arose this morning, butUttle impressed
witli a sense of the duties before me, upon this holy day. My
health obliged me to decline going to the house of God, in the
morning. But I think I could say, it was pjood for me to be
afflicted. God was graciously pleased to assist me in calling
upon his name, and permitted me to wrestle with him in prayer
for the prospeiity of Zion and for the conversion of sinners. 1
felt a desire that every one of my friends might be brought to
a knowledge of the truth. This afternoon, I have attended
meeting, and heard a most excellent sermon preached by Mr.
W. from Matt, xxvi, 6 — 13. He passed the Sabbath with us,
and gave us excellent instructions. But of what use is advice
and religious conversation to me, if I do not improve them as I
ought? These instructions will rise up in judgment against me
and condemn me, if I am not, indeed, a child of God. Oh for ^
heart to love God more, and live more to his glory. How can
I hope to enter that heavenly rest, prepared for the people of
Jesus, when I so often transgress his laws.
Aug. 6. Lord's day morniiig. Upon this sacred morning. Oh
that tlie Holy Spirit of God would enliven and animate my cold
and stupid affections. Oh that I might this day epter his earthly
courts, w,orship him in an acceptable manner, profess his name
before a scoffing world, sit down at his table, and partake, iu
faith, of tlie body and "blood of Jesus.
Sabbath eve^ And now I have entered into the most solemn
engagement to be the Lord's. I have confessed Christ before
Uie world— I. have renoUTiCed my wicked companions — I have
solemnly promised, that denying ungodliness and every worldly
lust, I will live soberly, righteously and godly, in this present
•world. If I should, after taking these solemn vr)vvs and cove-
nant engagements upon mc, dishonor the cause of my Redeem-
er— ii\l should give the enemies of religion reason to say, there
h nothing in religion — if 1 should again return to my former
Mrs. iSfe'weirs Letters. in
c^ourses, Oh how dreadfully aggravated will be my condemna-
tion! What excuse could 1 render at the tribunal of a just
Judge? My mouth would be stopped, and 1 should plead guilty
before him. How then does it become me to watch and pray,
lest the devices of Satan, the world, or my own remaining cor-
Tupiions should lead me into temptation.
In thee Oh God, do I put my trust, from thee do I hope to
obtain mercy in the day of retribution.
Aug. 10. How stupid, how cold I grow! Where is that fer-
vor— that zeal — that animation, I ought to have, after professing
to know and receive Jesus, as my R» deemer? How alluring arc
the vanities of time? How prone my heart to wander from Godi
How ready to engage in the trifles of this wicked world? De-
scend, thou holy Spirit: Breathe into my soul a flame of ardent
love; let not my affections wander from the owe, and only thing
Uiat is tjeedful.
To Miss F. W, of Beverly.
Haverhill-, August^ ■ 809 — Sabbath morn,
A FEW moments this sacred morning shall be devoted to my
beloved Miss W. After discontinuing for so long a time our
correspondence, I again address you. By the endearing title
ofa friend, I again attempt to lay open my heart before you.
But what shall I say? Shall I tell you, that since I last saw you,
I have made great progress in divine grare? To you, my ever
dear friend, will I unbosom my heart; to you will I describe my
feelings. Yes; I will tell you what God has done for my soul.
About six weeks since he was pleased, in infinite mercy, again
to call up my attention to the concerns of my soul; again to show
me the evil of my ways. I have now publicly confessed m)
faith in him. I have taken the vows of the covenant upon me,
and solemnly surrendered myself to him, eternally. Oh, Miss
W.I should I now be left to dishonor this holy cause, what would
be my eternal condemnation? Oh! pray for mc. Entreat God
to have mercy upon me, and keep mc from falling. After I»
left you at the Academy, I by degrees grew more and more
neglectful of serious and eternal realities. When I review the
past year of my life; when I reflect upon the wound I have
brought upon the blessed religion of Jesus, I am constrained i^
48 Mrs. NewelVs Letter's.
cry, why has God extended his mercy to the vilest of the I'acc
of Adam? Why has he again showed favor to me, after I have
so wickedly abused his precious invitations and grieved his ho-
ly Spirit? It is a God, who is rich in mercy, abundant in good-
ness, and of great compassion, that has done these great things,
as I trust, for me. How can I be too much engaged for him,
too much conformed to his holy will, after these abundant mani-
festations of his love and mercy. Oh, that I could spend my
few remaining days .as I ouglit, even entirely devoted to the de-
ligh*tful service of the dear Redeemer.
Sabbath eve, I have just returned from, the house of God,
where I have heard two excellent sermons preached by our belov-
ed pastor. What unspeakable privileges we enjoy! Th'e Gospel
trump is sounding in our ears, Jesus is proclaimed as <'ready
and willing to save all those that come unto God by him." And
Avhy, my dear Miss W. are not these privileges taken from us,
and given to the heathen, who have never heard of a Saviour and
are perishing for lack of knowledge? God is indulging us with
them for wise and holy ends. And if we, do not estimate them
/ according to their real value, and improve under the calls and
invitations of the Gospel, there will remain for us "no more
sacrifice, but a fearful looking for of judgment and fiery in-
dignation." When sitting beneath the Gospel's joyful sound, I
think I can never again be careless or inattentive to religious
concerns. , But how^ soon does the world intervene between God
and my soul — how sboij do the trifling vanities of time engross
my affections. Oh, my dear friend, did you know the tempta-
tions, with which I am surrounded, I am confident you would
pity me, and intercede for me at the throne of grace. But-I
have this consolation; Jesus w^as tempted while on earth; ho
piiics his tempted saints, and will surely enable them to perse-
vere unto the endv
"He knows what sore temptations meanj
"For he has felt the same."
1 long, dear Miss W. to see you. I long to converse with you
on the great importance of being really children of God. I long
for your assistance while wandering in this wilderness. I think,
if I know my heart, I^can say, I do love God, and his children.
If I do not love Him, if I do not love his image whenever I see
itj I kn.Ow not what I Icve. Though Providence sees fit to sep-
ReUgioiis Exercises, 40
urate us, yet let us be active in our endeavors to assist each oth*
er in our journey to the heavenly Canaan by our letters and our
prayers.
I have now opened to you my heart. Do write to me; do in-
struct me in the important doctrines of the Gospel May your
journey in this vale of tears be sweetened by the presence of
the blessed Jesus. May you go on from strength to strength,
and when you are released from this burden of clay, appear in
the heavenly Jerusalem before God, and sj)end an eternity at his
right hand, where is fulness of joy. Adieu.
I am, yours, 8cc. Harriet Atwood.
1B09.
jiug, 13. Again have I enjoyed sabbath and sanctuary privi-
leges. But my heart — alas! how can I live in such dread-
ful stupidity! Awaken, O God, my drowsy powers; ajiimate and
warm these cold and languid affections. Why are not my pri-
vileges taken from me and given to the heathen?
^ug. 18 I have been this day in the company of some of my
young and gay companions. Oh, why did I neglect, faithfully,
to warn them of their danger, and entreat them to repent? How
foolish, how trifling is the conversation of the children of this
world! Give me but my Bible — and my retirement; and I
would willingly surrender every thing else on earth.
Aug. 26. How fleeting, are the days appointed to mortals!
Another week has glided away. It becomes me to ask myself;
have I lived to the glory of God? What have I done in the ser-
vice of Him, who has done so much for me, even laid down his
precious life, to redeem my soul? What answer does conscience
make? Oh, that I could be enabled to come to that founiain
which is open for Judah and Jerusalem to wash in; and cleanse
my soul from all pollution. The time, which ought to have been
spent in the service of a holy God, has been trifled away in the
vanities of a wicked world.
Aug. 27'. Have again been indulged with sabbath and sanctu-
ary privileges. The gospel trump has again sounded in my
ears. Christians have been called to be more engaged in the
cause of Jesus; and sinners have been afi'cctionalely urged td
attend to the concerns of their ncver«dying souls.
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Mr. D. addressed us, from these words; "Wickedness pro-
ceedeth from the wicked " Afternoon, "As we have therefore
opportunity, let us do good unto all men " He explained the
Various duties, incumbent on christians, whereby they might do
good unto their fellow mortals. Let me examine my own heart.
Have I done good, according to the ability, with which God has
blessed me, to the souls of my friends and acquaintance? How
much reason have 1 to complain of my unfruitfulness — of my
little engagedness in'prayer? Awaken in me, O thou that hearest
prayiBr, a disposition to cry, in earnest, for the salvation of souls.
Oh, that T might realize the greatness of the privilege, with
which the blessed Jehovah has indulged me, in giving me a
4hrone of grace throuiih the mediation of Jesus.
^ug. 28. I awoke last night, and spent a most delightfuj hour
in contemplating divine truth. The words of David flowed
sweetly through my mind, "In the multitude of my thoughts
within me, thy comforts delight my soul." Most willingly
would I resi5J:n all earthly pleasures for one such hour in com-
munion with my God.
Se/it. 29. Mr. T preached our preparatory lecture, this af-
ternoon. Text, "Jesus answered and said, my kingdom is not
of this world" Examined myself strictly by this question; Am
I indeed a real member of Christ's kingdom? I' I am, why are
my affections so languid — my heart so cold — my desires so few,
for the enlarg.ement of Christ's kingdom? Why is my heart so
prone to leave God? Why am I so interested in the concerns of
time and sense, — and why are the important concerns of my
soul so little regarded? Decide, dearest Jesus, the doubtful case.
If I never yet have tasted and seen, that thou art gracious, Oh,
let me now, before it be forever too late.
Attended our conference, this evening. I think I enjoyed
what the world could neither give, nor take away.
Sefit. 30. How inestimable, the blessing of a sincere, a pious
friend! Drank tea with Mrs. M. In the most friendly manner,
she spoke of my former conduct, and tenderly reproved me, for
an incident which occurred the past day. I acknowledged my
fault — confessed my obligations to her for her advice, and sen-
sibly felt the importance of watchfulness and prayer, that I
might be kept from entering into temptation. May ihe review
of my .former life, serve to humble me in the dust before God.,
*pd make me more active than ever in his blessed service.
Letter to a Friend, 51-
Oct, 1, The vanities of time have engaged too great a share
•f nay affections. The concerns of my soul have been too much
neglected. Oh, for the invigorating mfluences of the holy Spir-
it, to animate my drowsy faculties. Time is short — this month,
perhaps, may be my last. Have agaii) been permitted to sit
down at the table of the Lo^'d. Oh, ho v unworthy am T of these
precious privileges. Why am I suffered to enjoy them?
Have this day heard a most solemn discourse preached by
Mr. D. from these words, "'Unto you, Oh men I call, and my
voice is unto the sons of men.** He mentioned the dying ex-
ercises of a Mr« 13. whose remains were committed to the tomb
the Saturday preceding His resignation to the Divine will was
remarkable. In his dying moments, he warned his young
companions of their danger, while out of Christ. May this sol-
emn stroke of Providence be sanctified to the young people in
this place- Oh that God, in infinite mercy, would be pleased
to bring it near my heart, and make it the means of weaning me
from this world, and preparing me for the enjoyment of his
celestial kingdom.
Oct. 7. Another week has rolled away, and my probationary
existence is still lengthened out. But to what purpose do I live?
Why am I supported in this world of hofie^ when I am daily
transgressing the laws of a holy God, and grieving his blessed
Spirit? Astonishing grace! Wonderful compassion, that still
prolongs my days, after such rebellion! Spare me. Oh my God,
spare me, yet a little longer, and by thy grace enable me, to do
8ome little work in thy vineyard.
Oct, 12. Attended another of our conferences. But how stu-
pid have I felt this evening! It is perfectly just that I should
not have enjoyed the light of God's countenance; for I had no
heart to ask him, to make the evening profitable to my own soul,
or to the souls of others.
Prayer is the breath of the christian: when that is omitted,
farewell enjoyment.
To Miss F, IV, of Beverly.
Haverhill, Oct. 12, 1809.
The pleasing sensations, dear Miss W. which your letter ex-
cited, can better be conceived, than described. Your affection"^
ate advice I sincerely thank you for. And Oh! that I might be
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enabled to follow it. But what shall I write you? Shall I telS
you I glow in grace and in conformity to God? Jlas! I still have
reason to lament my awful stupidity, my distance from God,
and in the language of the publican, to cry, "God be merciful to
rne a sinner." "Laden with guilt, a heavy load;" oppressed \\\\\k
the temptations of a subtle adversary, the world ever ready to
call my affections,, how can I be supported? But here, my friend,
I find there is a way provided whereby God can be just and yet
justify even me. In the redemption a Saviour has purchased
there, is an infinite fulness, sufficient to supply all our wants.
On the precious mount of Calvary hangs all my hope. In his
atoning blood, who sufft red and died, my sins can be washed
away, and however vile and loathsome in myself, in him I can
find cleansing What wondei ful compassion is displayed in the
plan of Solvation' That the Maker and Preserver of the Uni-
verse having all things under his control, should not spare even
his own son, but deliver'hini up to die on the accursed tree, for
mortals who bad transgressed his law, and deserved eternal mis-
ery! Tins mystery of mysteries the angels desire to look into.
Tiiat \\\^ juaf. should endure the agonies of a painful and igno-
minious death, for the unjuat^ is what we cannot comprehend-
But my friend, what must be our situation to all Eternity, if
after such wonderful compassion, we should fall short of an in-
terest in the death of Jesus? How awful must be the sentence
'that will be passed upon us who sit under the Gospel's joyful
sound, if we slight the offers of salvation? Oh may this never be
our situation! Rut by unfeigned repentance and cordial subniis=
sicn to the blessed Redeemer, and by lives spent in his service,
Oh, may we be prepared to join the society of the Redeemed
above.
Yesterday afternoon I attended a Lecture in the Academy at
Bradford. Tlic emotions which vibrated in my mind, while
sittiiig in this Seminary of learning, I cannot describe. Imag-
ination recalled those scenes which 1 had witnessed in that
place. That season was a precious one to man^v souls, when
the Spirit o'f God moved among us, and compelled sinners to
tremble and earnestly inquire what they should do to inherit
eternal life. But those days are past. No more do I hear my
Companions exciaim.ing, "Who can dwell with devouring fire?
"VV'ao can inherit everlasting burnings?" No more do.I heaT
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^uls, who for years have been under the bondage of sin, e:j-
claim, "Come, and I will tell you what God hath done for me."
He has, I hope, delivfcred me from the horrible pit and miry
clay, has established my goings, and put a new song into my
mouth, even praise to his name." But under these general de-
clensions from the truth of the Gospel, still the "Lord doeth all
things well." He will revive his work in his own time. He
will repair the waste places of Zion, and sinners will again flock
unto him as clouds and as doves to their windows. And bles-
sed be his name he makes his children the honored instruments
in building up his kingdom. Let us then, ray dear Miss W.
exert all our faculties to promote his cause. Let us warn sin-
ners of their danger, and walk worthy of the vocation where-
with we are called. Wishing you the light of God's couute-
nance, 1 bid you adieu. Harriet.
1809.
Oct. 19. Drank tea with mama, at Mrs. C.*s. A confer-
ence there in the eveninr^. Mr. D. paraphrased the Lord's
prayer; and was enabled to wrestle fervently with his divine
Master, for the revival of religion in this place. As for my-
self— I felt stupid, — could easily trace the cause of my feelings:
Had no opportunity, this day, of pouring out my soul to God in
prayer. My mother insisted on my accompanying her, to Mrs.
C.*s; I did; though with as great reluctance, as 1 ever obeyed a
command of hers.
I know by experience, that no opportunities for improvement
do me any good, unless the divine blessing is previously re-
quested.
"Restraining prayer, we cease to fight,
Prayer makes the christian's armor bright:
And Satan trembles, when he sees,
The weakest saiut upon his knees."
Octr2\. This day, God, in infinite mercy, has seen fit to grant
me near access to his mercy seat. I have been enabled to call
upon his name, and to plead with him; ior his spiritual Jerusa-
lem. Oh that he would hear and accept my feeble petitions,
and answer them for his own name's sake.
Oci. '■23. Have just returned from our reading society; and
feci condemned lor my gaity and light conduct, before my com-
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panions. Have found nothing this evening to satisfy the desires
of my soul. Greatly fear, that I have brought a wound upon the
cause of the blessed Immanuel. Oh that I might be enabled to
glorify God, by my future devotedness to him.
Oct, 27. Two servants of Jesus Christ, called upon us this
afternoon; Mr. W. and Mr. E. Their conversation was very
interesting and instructive. Mr. W informed us of the serious
attention, that appeared to be commencing in A. Oh that Je-
hovah would pour down his Spirit there. Oh that he would
ride from conquering to conquer, and make, not only A- a place
of his power, but Haverhill also. Arise, blessed Jesus! plead
thine own cause, and have mercy upon Zion. Now when men
are making void thy law, arise; build up thy spiritual Jerusa-
lem) and let her no longer mourn, ^'because so few come to her
solemn feasts."
Oct. 30, Have just returned from our reading society. Have
nothing to complain of this evening, but my gaity and lightness.
Ramsay*s History of Washington w'as introduced. The meet-
ing very regular and orderly. Sincerely wish, it might be the
means of improving our minds in the knowledge of our ow«,
and orA(?r countries. And Oh, that from a knowledge of the
world which God has made, our minds might be led to the
Creator.
Oct, 31. Have spent this day prayerless and stupid. Oh that
I were, ''as in months past," when I felt a spirit of prayer, for
the interest of Zion — .for the salvation of immortal souls.
JVdtu. 6. Our reading society met this evening. Have just re-
turned home; — find little or no satisfaction in the review.
Although the company were light and gay, I pitied them; and
in my heart, commended them to God. But I fear, 1 counte-
nanced them, and gave them reason to say of me, "what do you,
niore than others?"
Possessed naturally, with such a rude and ungovernable dispo-
sition, I sometimes, find it diflicult to keep within proper bounds.
Often c^oes my heart condemn me for my trifling conduct; — .
conscience 'reproaches; and frequently, I am led to the conclu-
sion that I will no more leave the residence of my mother- —
have no more to do with the world, but seclude myself) and
spend my few remaining days, entirely devoted to the Best of
Beings, But this will not be following the example of the blesr
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sed Jesus. No, while I am in the world, let it be my constant
endeavor, to do all the g;ood I can to my fellow mortals — to rise
above its frowns and flatteries, and give no occasion for any re-
proach to be brought upon the cause of religion.
JVov. 8. My dear friend, and as I humbly trust my spirjtui 1
father, Mr. B. called upon us, a few moments. He expects to
preach for Mr. D. next Sabbath. On seeing him, I could not
but recal the many different scenes, that passed while under his
instructions. But those scenes, remain in remembrance only.
No more, I hear my companions exclainning, "What shall I do
to inherit eternal life." No more, I hear them telling to all
around them, what the Redeemer has done for their souls.
That was indeed a precious season to many, and will be remem-
bered with joy to all eternity. But to some the privileges of that
season, will, I fear, be the means of sinking them lower in eter-
nal torments!! Dreadful thought!
JVov. 12, This has indeed been a blessed day to my «ow/,
though I have been afflicted with a severe pain in my head.
Attended public worship — heard two solemn sermons from our
dear friend Mr. B. "What a striking instance is it, of the awful
hardness of the heart, that when the terrors of the Almighty are
set before mortals — and they are told by God's faithful ser-
vants, their awful situation, while unreconciled to the divine
Gliaracter, that it has so little effect upon them.
JVov. 13. A severe head-ache still attends me; but I desire to
be submissive to the will of God, and bear without murmuring,
whatever he sees fit to lay upon me. His ways are best: and he
has graciously promised, *Hhat all things shall work together for
good to those that love him." But do I love him? Have I tha(t
love to him, that will enable me to keep all his commandments?
Do I love him with all my heart, having no rival in my affections?
"Search me. Oh God, and know me," try me by thy Spirit, and
lead me in tlie way of eternal life.
JVov. 16, Have just returned from singing school. Sur-
rounded by my gay companions, I have found, that I could place
no dependance on my oivn strength; without the assistance of
Jesus, I shall fall into temptation, and wound his cause.
\
.^'6 Mrs, NeweWs Letiers,
To Miss C. F, of Boston.
Haverhill, JSTot dated.
Pardon, dearest C. the long silence of your friend Harriet^
Although I have omitted answering your affectionate epistle,
my heart has been often with you. Yes, C. often have I fancied
seeing you, engaged to promote the cause of the blessed Im-
manuel, solemnly renouncing the vanities of an alluring world,
and taking the decided | art of a child of God. Oh, may you be
enabled to follow on to know the Lord, and constantly live as a
disciple of the meek and lowly Jesus. I sincerely and ardently
wish you the aids of the Holy Spirit, and a heart habitually con-
formed to the holy character of God. Great and precious are
the promises, an infinitely merciful Jehovah has made in his
word, to those who persevere in well doing. But how great the
guilt, and how aggravated must be the condemnation of those,
who are represented as being often reproved, and yet harden
their hearts against-God?
While we hear the denunciations of God's wrath to the final-
ly impenitent, let us, my friend, be active to secure an interest
in his favor. Then, let what will befal us in this life, our souls
will rest safe on the Rock of ages; Jesus will be our guide and
friend through earth's tedious pilgrimage; he will be our sup-
port through the valley of the shadow of death; and when re-
leased from this clayey tenement, will admit us to the new and
heavenly Jerusalem.
Upon reviewing the scenes of the past, I find but little or no
satisfaction. A hard, impenitent heart, an engagedness in the
concerns of time and sense, and an awful stupidity respecting
eternity, I have this day felt. Oh, C. I am astonished, when I
view the feelings of my heart. But still more am I astonished,
when I reflect upon the forbearance of God. who still supports
fiie in existence, still indulges me with the day and means of
grace.
Thursday morning. Yesterday I attended a fast at the west
parish. Heard one most excellent sermon, and a number of
interesting addresses. The exercises were very solemn and
instructive. I long to have you with us. Since I last saw you
we have been highly favored by God. Oh, that he would hasten
that happy period, when the whole earth shall be brought to a
knowledge of the truth as it is in Jesus. Let us frequently anr)
Mrs, NeweWs Letters. 57
earnestly intercede at the throne of grace, for the commence-
ment of the Millennium,
Wishing you the light of God's countenance, and a heart to
labor aright in his vineyard, I bid you, my friend, an affectionate
farewell. Yours, Sec. Harriet.
To Miss F. W. of Beverly,
Haverhill^ Sabhath eve — .N'ov, 26, 180?.
I HAVE this moment received, dear Miss W. your inestimable
letter; in which you affectionately congratulate me on the hap-
piness of "tasting, that the Lord is gracious."
Assailed by temptations; surrounded with the gay and thought-
less; and with but few of the humble followers of the Lamb to
guide me in the path of duty, or to instruct me in the great
things of the kingdom, what feelings do'I experience, when re-
ceiving from my beloved friend, a letter, filled not only with as-
surances of continued affection, but with encomiums upon the
character of the dear Immanuel, as being '*the chief among ten
thousands and altogether lovely." Often does my heart glow
with gratitude to the Parent of mercies, for bestowing on me
such a favor, as one friend, to whom I can disclose the secret
recesses of my heart, and w^ith whom I can converse upon the
important doctrines of the gospel, and an eternal state of felicity
prepared for those, whose "robes have been washed and made
white in the blood of the Lamb."
Have you not, my friend, often felt, when conversing upon
these great truths, a flame of divine love kindle in your heart;
and have you not solemnly resolved, that you would live nearer
to the blessed Jehovah?
I' have this day been permitted to worship God in his earthly
courts. How unspeakably great arc the privileges with which
we are indulged, in this land of gospel lightl The Sabbath be-
fore last, Mr. B. exchanged with Mr. D. Oh, my beloved Miss
W. could you have heard the important truths he preached, —
the impressive manner in which he held forth the terrors of
God to the impenitent, and the necessity of immediate repent-
ance, surely, it must to you, have been a blessed season. But
it had no visible effect upon the minds of the people here. A
dreadful inattention to religion sliil prevails. The youth are
very thoughtless, and gay; — "iniquity abounds, and the love of
manv waxes cold." But there are, as I humbly trust, a pious
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58 Mrs, NewelVs Letters^
few, who are daily malting intercession at the throne of gi'acc^
for the prosperity of Zion.
What encouragement have we, my dear friend, to wrestle at
the throne of m'ercy, for renewing, and sanctifying grace, for
ourselves, and the whole Israel ot God; even in times of the
greatest declension. Jehovah hath promised, that he will hear
the prayers of his children; and that if offered up in sincerity
of heart, he will, in his own time, send gracious answers.
Next Friday evening, it being the evening after Thanksgiv-
ing,^ ball is appointed in this place. I think it probable that
E. whom you once saw anxiously inquiring, what she should do
to inherit eternal life, will attend. Ob, my beloved friend, you
cannot know my feelings. It is dreadful to see mortals bound
to eternity, spending their lives with no apparent concern about
their never dying souls. But it is, if possible, more dreadful to
see those, who have "put their hands to the plough, look back,
or being often reproved, harden their hearis against God."
How unsearchable are the ways of Jehovah! When I look
around me, and see so many of my friends and companions, who
are by nature endowed with much greater talents than I am,
and who would, if partakers of the grace of God, be made the
instruments of doing so much more good in the world, left in
a state of sin, I am constrained to say,
<*Why was / made to hear thy voice.
And enter while there's I'pom;
When thousands make a wretched choice,
And rather starve than come?"
i could, my dear Miss W. write you all night: But a violent
head-ach has attended me this day, and wearied nature re-*
quires repose,
I sincerely thank you, for the affectionate invitation you have
^'iven me to visit you. I wish it were possible for me to com-
ply with your request; perhaps I may, this winter; but I shall
not place much dependance upon it, as every thing is so uncer-
tain. Do, my friend, visit Haverhill — I long to see you: But
if Providence has determined we shall never meet again in this
world, Oh, may we meet in our heavenly Father's kingdom^
and never more endure a separation. In baste.
I am, 5(fc. yours. Harriet.^
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1809.
Dec. I. This evening, a ball is appointed at My dear
will probably attend. 1 have resolved to devote some
part of the evening, in praying particularly for them. Oh, that
God would stop them in the midst ©f their sinful career, and
let them no longer spend ihe'ir fire cious moments in following
the pleasures of this vain world.
Dec, 31. I have now come to the close of another year How-
various have been the scenes, which I have been called to pass
through this year? But what have I done for God? what for the
interest of religion? and what for my own soul? I have passed
through one of the most solemn scenes of my life — I have taken
the sacramental covenant upon me — I have solemnly joined
myself to the Church of the blessed Jesus,
Oh, that I might now, as in the presence of the great Jehovah,
and his holy angels, with penitential sorrow, confess my past
ingratitude, and in hamb!e reliance on the strength of Jesus,
resolve to devote the ensuing year, and the remaining part of
Biy days to his service.
1810.
Feb, 10. What great reason, have I, for thankfulness to God,
that I am still in the land of the living, and have another op-
portunity of recording with my pen, his tender mercy and lov-
ing kindness? I have been, for almost five weeks, unable to
write; and for a week confined to my bed. But Jesus has un-
dertaken to be my Physician; he has graciously restored me to
health; and when greatly distressed with pain, he has afforded
me the sweet consolations of his Spirit, and brought me, wil-
lingly, to resign my soul into his arms, and wait the eVent of his
Providence, whether life or death.
Oh, that this sickness might be for my eternal j^ood! may it
be made the means of weaning me from all terrestrial enjoy-
ments, and of fixing my hope and trust in the merits of Jesus.
Then should I have cause to bless God, for his chastening rod,
and through eternity, count all these afflictive dispensations, as
gr&at mercies.
Feb. 18. How easily can God disconcert the plans formed by
short sighted mortals? I had fondly flattered myself, that be-
fore this, I should have met with the assembly of the saints,
an<l have sitten tinder the droppifigs of the sanctuaJ7;— -that I
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should have johied my Christian friends, in their social confer-
ence, and heard the truths of the gospel explained by our dear
Pastor. But Jehovah determined otherwise. He has again
laid his chastising rod upon me, by afflicting me with sickness
and pain. But, "I will bear the indignation of the Lord, be-
cause I have sinned against him." I have a renewed opportu-
nity of examining my submission to God. And do now, as in
his presence, renewedly resolve to devote myself, a living sacri-
fice, to hirh. I think I can say, that afflictions are good for me.
In times of the greatest distress, I have been brought to cry
within myself; "It is the Lord, let him do what seemeth him
good." I think I am ivilling to bear whatever God sees fit to
lay upon me. Let my dear heavenly Father inflict the keenest
anguish, I will submit; for he is infinitely excellent, and can do
nothing wrong.
Feb, 25. With the light of this holy morning, I desire to of-
fer to the kind Shepherd of Israel, who never slumbers nor
sleeps, a mcJrning tribute of thanksgiving and praise. Oh that
my whole soul might be drawn out in love to God; and may all
my faculties unite with the inhabitants of the New Jerusalem,
in praising the immortal King, for what he has done, and still
is doing for rebellious man. But I fall infinitely short of the
honor due to his glorious name. When shall I arrive at the
destined port of rest, and with the blood-washed millions, praise
the Lamb of God for redeeming love? Hasten, blessed Im-
manuel, that glorious period, when all thy exile children,
shall arrive at their eternal home. Oh for a tongue to sound
aloud the honors of the dear Jesus.
March 2. Have, this afternoon, been solemnly admonished,
by seeing the remains of Mr. E. carried by the house. And
can it be, that /, who am now so actively engaged in the affairs
of this world, shall shortly be conveyed, on a bier, to the cold
grave? Yes, the righteous Judge has declared to the race of
Adam; "dust thou art, and unto dust shall thou return." Soon
this sentence will be executed upon me. Prepare, Oh my
soul, to meet thy God.
March 6. What unspeakable consolation does it afford the
children of God, to reflect; that the ^reat Jehovah is carrying
on his work of grace; that earth and hell combined^ cannot hin-
der, what he has designed to accomplish.
Letter to a Friend, . 61
.March 10. How awfully depraved is the natural heari! Kv-
ery day I can see more and more of inij own apostasy from God.
Break, compassionate Immanuel, OK, break this stony heart of
mine, and comfiel me to live as an obedient child.
March 13. How engaged am I in the concerns of this worldl
I cannot but ask myself the question, have 1 any reason to im-
agine, that I am interested in the covenant of life? If so, why
am I thus? Why this awful distance from God? "Search me, Oh
God, and know my heart; try me and know my thoughts, and see
if there be any wicked way in me, and lead rr.e in the way ever-
lasting.'*
March 22, Have again been permitted to attend a religious
conference. Mr. T. preached from these words; "'Do thyself
no harm.'* How astonibhing, that I can be so negligent in du-
ty, when there are so many immortal souls around me, that
are doing themselves c'trwa/ harm! Why do I not /ff/ their
awful condition, and solemnly warn them, both by precept and
example, "to flee from the wrath to come?'*
To Miss F. IV. of Sever it/.
Ha verh Hi, March 3\, 1810.
Favored by Divine Providence with an opportunity of expres-
sing my gratitude to my beloved Miss W. for all the testimo-
»ies of friendship which she has shewn me, I cordially era-
brace it. Your last friendly letter was this day received. To
assure you how much happiness your letters confer on me
would be but what I have already told you. The one I receiv-
ed when on abed of sickness was a real treasure. My fctble
health alone prevented my answering it before. I have lately
been led to dwell much on the Doctrine of the Divine Decrees.
I should like to have your ideas on the subject. Although God
is under no obligations to save oyie of the apostate race of Adam,
and it would not derogate from his justice, were he to send all
to eternal torments; yet to display the riches of his grace he de-
termines to save a few. Why should we say, what doestthou?
The chikb'cn of God are, or ought to be, lights in the world. But
I fear that I shall be a stumbling-block to others. I have ofteft
thought myself one of those, who are "tossed to and fro and car-
ried about by every wind of doctrine." When I hear arguments
on one side I think I am convinced. When on the other I think
the same. But I leave thi» subject for the present.
6£ Eeligious Exercises,
Let me tell you that I fondly indulge the hope of seeing you
before long. M. H. and myself have thought considerably of
a ride to Beverly. Should not our wishes be frustrated, I shall
probably see you in four or five weeHs; if not, then I shall relin-
quish the idea, as I shall commence attending school in May.
When I see you, I will relate to you my exercises in my past
illness.
Have we not abundant reason to rejoice in the government of
God? Hei& carrying on his work^ converting sinners, and mak-
ing the wrath of man to praise him. Oh that Haverhill and
Beverly might experiei^ce the influence of the Holy Spirit. God
can work here as easily, as in Salem and Manchester. Let us
be ardent and constant at the throne of mercy, that the blessed
Immanucl would revive his work, and pour out his Spirit on
the Churches and people, with which we are connected Oh
why, my friend, are we so cold and stupid? I earnestly request
an interest in your prayers.
Yours sincerely, Harriet.
1810.
J/iril 6. This evening, had some interesting conversation
with a friend, upon the past scenes of my life. Oh how is my
life filled up with folly and sir,! Surely, if I am ever pardoned
and accepted by the blessed Redeemer, I must ascribe it wholly
lo the mercy of God.
j^/iril 29. A sudden death, this week. Mrs. C. was in health
and prosperity 07ie hour, and the 7iext — in the cold embraces
of the universal conqueror! May this solemn event, be sancti-
fied to surviving friends. And may it lead me to place my af-
fections on the things of eternity.
May 4. Just returned from the house of God. Had a most
interesting sermon, preached by Mr. A — Text; "Ye are the
salt of the earth; but if the salt have lost its savor, wherewith
shall it be salted."
Mr. E. called upon us a few moments, and informed us,
there was a great revival of religion in his society and town.
Oh how did it rejoice my heart! However cold and stupid, I
can insincerity say, that I love to hear of the conversion of sin-
ners. -Must Haverhill be left destitute cf the work of the Spir-
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'yti Oh l&t me be ardent and constant at the throne of grace,
for the outpouring of the Spirit; and a revival of religion
amongst us.
Jilay 11, Called upon a friend this morning, who, to human
appearance^ is on the brink of the grave. She was speechless^
though not senseless. Her very counteiiance declared the im-
portance of religion. Never shall I forget, the affectionate man-
ner, in which she pressed my hand to her bosom, and lifted her
eyes to heaven, as if calling down a blessing upon me. Oh
that I could rightly improve this affecting dispensation of
Providence.
May 24. I have been where heaven and hell, the soul and
eternity, appear important subjects! The people in B. are
awake. Attended two evening lectures — the meeting-house
thronged with solemn and attentive hearers.
May 29. Attended singing school this evening. Though
meetings for this purpose be ever so pleasant, yet so great have
been my temptations the winter past, that I could not feel sor-
ry that the meetings were concluded. Hope I have not brought
dishonor upon the cause of Jesus, by my careless behavior, be-
fore my companions.
May 30. Election day. This day recalls many painful events,
which occurred last year, at this time. How was I then labor-
ing for "the meat, that perisheth,"— .following the leadings of a
trifling heart. It was infinite mercy, that snatched me from
the abyss, and, as I humbly trust, made me a monument of re-
deeming love. "Praise the Lord, Oh my soul.'*
June 2. Have had some interesting conversation with Miss
W. upon the situation of my dear E. Who knows, thought I,
but what she might now have been earnestly engaged in the
cause of the Redeemer, if it were not for my unchristian con-
duct. How can I think of being an enemy to the souls of my
dear friends?
June 5. Solemn indeed have been the transactions of this
day. Oh that they might be remembered with joy through
eternity. Had some humblii>g views of my past ingratitude.
The aggravated transgressions of my life, the last six months,
in particular, have been laid open before me. Have again sol-
emnly resolved to live to God. If I should again become stu-
ilid but no, — I cannot — I ivili surrender myself to Jesus.
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He will keep mc from falling, and present me faultless before
his Father's throne.
June 4. Have^been solemnly impressed with the worth of im-
mortal souls this day. The welfare of my school companions,
lies near my heart. In what way can I be serviceable to them?
^They have souh, as valuable as mine. Oh then, let me use my
best endeavors to bring them to the knowledge of the truth,
and save them from that awful punishment, which awaits the
finally impenitent.
JiUne 8. Afflicted with a severe pain in my head. A cele-
brated author observes, that every pain we feel, is a warning to
us, to be prepared for death. Oh that it may have this effect
upon me.
June 20. How unsatisfying and unstable are all the enjoy-
ments of time, I am daily more convinced that nothing short
of the unchangeable Jehovah, c^n afford real happiness. To
day, we may imagine ourselves possessed of a friend, who will
not forsake us; to-morrow, that same person may prove a de-
ceiver. May I learn wisdom from the news I have this evening
heard. Oh that 6wcA things might have a happy tendency to
wean me from this world, and prepare me for another.
June 50. Called on my dear friend E- She has lately expe-
rienced affliction. She told me that she was resigned to divine
Providence, and could rejoice, even in the hour of distress.
Happy composure! What joys. Oh ye deluded followers of un-
righteousness, have you to boast, compared with that experi-
enced by a humble follower of Jesus?
July I. Hail sacred morning! Once ushered in with the most
interesting events, ever registered in the records of time. On
this holy morning, the Saviour rose from the grave. Expect this
day to commemorate the sufferings of the Lamb of God. Grant
me, gracious God, sweet communion with thee. Let me not
Cat and drink judgment to myself.
July 7. How have I spent this day? "VVhat a dreadful sink of
■wickedness is my heart. Must I resign the idea of ever feel-
ing the jionver of religion? Surely if I am a child of God, I
could not live so stupid.
July 19. Favored with the privilege of attending a lecture
this afternoon. Our dear minister preached from these words^
*']lo\\? long iialt ye between two opinions;'* a most solemn dis-
cijurse. In the evening, a meeting at Mr. D.'s for religious
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conversation. A small number of young people appear unusu-
ally solemn. Has not God already begun to show the riches of
his grace? Will he not arise, and have mercy on Haverhill, and
make it a place, where he will delight to dwell?
Jug-. 6. How soon are my resolutions, to live wholly to"
God, broken! My conscience daily reproaches me, for my un-
faithfulness to my companions, to myself and to my God. If
any one should have told me, when light first shone on my
mind, that I should feel such indifference to the salvation of
sinners, and so litile love lo God, as I now feel, I should have
exclaimed, imfiossible!
Oct. 10. This day entered upon my eighteenth year. Seven-
teen years have rolled, almost insensibly, away. I still remain
a pilgrim in this barren land. Merciful Jesus, on the com-
mencement of this year, may thy supporting hand be under-
neath me, and if my life is prolonged, may it be more faithfully
devoted to thee, and to thy blessed cause.
Oct. 20. A female friend called upon us this morning. She
informed me of her determination, to quit her native land, to
endure the sufferings of a Christian amor^gst heathen nations—
to spend her days in India's sultry clime. How did this news
affect my heart! Is she willing to do all this for God; and shall
I refuse to lend my little aid, in a land where divine revelation
has shed its clearest rays? I have /<?/^ moie, for the salvation
of the heathen, this day, than 1 recollect to have felt, through
my whole past life.
How dreadful their situation! What heart but would bleed at
the idea of the sufferings they endure, to obtain the joys of Par-
adise? What can / do, that the light of the gospel may shine
upon them? They arc perishing for lack of knowledge, while
I enjoy the glorious privileges of a Christian land. Great God
direct me! Oh make me in some way beneficial to their immor-
tal souls!
Oct, 21. Had a joyful meeting, this day, in the house of God.
*'When I am weak, then am I strong." Have experienced the
truth of this declaration, this day. Went to meeting in the
morning, afflicted with bodily pain, yet joyful in the God of my
salvation. Reflecting on the melancholy state of our church,
was distressed, lest the deserved judgments of the Alnughiy,
should be poured out upon us. But the words of the dear Re-
deemer, '"fear not little flock, for it is your Father's good pleas-
0
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tire to give you the kingdom," sweetly refreshed and animated
my desponding spirit. I desire ever to bless the Lord, for the
manifestations^ of his love, this day. He has taught me, that
neither Paul, nor ApoUos, is any thing, without his grace.
Ministers may faithfully preach; but the word will not prove
successful, if God does not touch the heart.
I have seen the glory of God in his sanctuary. "I had rather-
be a door-keeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the
tents of wickedness.** The Lord is good; may it be my delight-
ful* employment on earth, to praise him; and in heaven, may I
join the enraptured millions, in a song that shall never end.
Oct, 23. Mr. M. introduced Mr. N. to our family. He ap-
p'ears to be an engaged Christian. Expects to spend his life,
in preaching a Saviour to the benighted pagans.
Oct. SI. Mr. N. called on us this morning. He gave me
some account of the dealings of God with his soul. If such a
iTian, who has devoted himself to the service of the gospel,
has determined to labor in the most difficult part of the vine-^
yard, and is willing to renounce his earthly happiness for the in-
terest of religion; if /le doubts his possessing love to God;— .
what £(haH / say of myself?
JVo'o. 4. Have once more commemorated the dying, love of
Jesus. Have entertained some faint views of the character of
God; and mourned for the evil of sin. How condescending is
God, to permit hell-deserving rebels to commune with him at
his table! What, on eanhi can equal the love of Jehovahl He
treats those who are by nature, his enemies, like children.
J\''ov, 6. Sleep has fled from me, and my soul is enveloped in
a dark cloud of troubles! Oh that God would direct me; Oh
that he would plainly mark out the path of duty, and let me not
depart from it.
JVov. 10. Have this day commenced reading Law's Serious
Call to a holy life. How infinitely short, do I fall, of this ho-
ly conformity to my Maker, which he describes, as the proper-
ty of a Christian! I am as much obligated to yield myself a
willing soldier to Christ, to fight his battles, and glorify him,
jn every action of my life, as he who ministers at the altar, and
performs the office of a preacher. Why then, am I not employ-
ed in his service? Why stand I here idle^ all the day?
Mrs, NeweWs Letters. 67
Extract of a letter to her sister M. at Chariest own,
JVov. 18, 1810.
^<How gracious, my deur sister, has God been to us. Uninteij*
rupted health, food and raiment are ours. But when 1 enumefi
rate our many piercies it is with deep humility, that I look back
bn my past life, and discover so little gratitude, and so ?nuch
unworthiness. How much has sovereign grace done for me.
Though I have solemnly professed to find consolation in Rejig,
ion, to derive my hopes of happiness only from God; yet how of-
ten have I roved in quest of pleasure, and^ dishonored the best
of Masters, by an unholy life. How ungrateful have 1 been for
the common mercies of life, and for the still more precious
blessings of the Holy Spirit. May every temporal blessing
which your heart can wish, be yours. But whatever be the
trials, through which you are called to pass, Oh may that heaven
born-religion attend you, which can sweeten the bitter cup of
life, afford you joy in this vale of tears, support you in nature's
last extremity, and conduct you to the Heavenly Canaan, where
undisturbed happiness will ever reign. Life is but a vapor.
Whether we spend it in tranquillity and ease, or in pain and suf-
fering, time will soon land us on the shores of Eternity, our des-
tined home. These things, my dear sister, my heart tells me,
are solemn realities. They are not fictions. Though the lan-
guage of my past life has been, "there is no future state;** yet I
now feel there is an Eternity, where I shall meet my earthly
friends, and stand accountable at the great tribunal for my con-
duct towards them. I regret the loss of those hours I have lost
in vanity, and in wounding the cause of that dear Redeemer,
whom I think, if I am not greatly deceived, I can now call mi?ie.
I think I can say with the Psalmist, «*whom have I in Heaven
but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desird beside
thee." — His religion comforts and supports my drooping spirits^;
his promises encourage, and his glories warm my heart. But
where am I. The striking clock reminds me of the lateness of
the hour. These delightful, these heart consoling subjects have
almost made me forget that tired nature requires repose.**
To Miss S. H. Andover,
Haverhill, Xov. 20, 18 10.
Will it afford my dear Miss H. the best satisfaction to hear oi
the health and happiness of her friends at Haverhill? Let me as-
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sure you of our perfect health, and of our united wishes for
your happiness, both temporal and eternal. While many of our
friends are languishin,^ on beds of sickness, sighing for the re-
turn of health,^— while many have gone the '*vvay of all the
earth," "have heard their sentence and received their doom;"
•we are still enjoying the blessings of health, and are not out of
the reach of pardoning mercy. Ought not a review of these
daily blessings to cxciie in us the liveliest gratitude? How
should our whole lives be a constant series of grateful acknowl-
edgement to the Parent of mercies for bestowing such great,
such unmerited favors on rebels doomed to die.-— Is m.y friend,
Miss H. rejoicing in God? Does she find joy and peace in be-
lieving? This 1 sincerely hope is your happy situation. I have
infinite reason to confess my obligation to God, for the faint dis-
coi'eries I have lately entertained of his glorious character.
Yes, my dear Miss H, I still find the promises precious, and
Jesus unchangeable. Though I am worthless and undeserving,
yet the blessed Immanuel is lovely and worthy of the united
praises of saints and angels. Though I am often led to doubt
my interest in this dear Saviour, yet sometimes I can rejoice in
his perfections and exclaim with Thomas, "my Lord and my
God."'
You have undoubtedly heard of the departure of Mrs. S. Her
•faith and patience endured to the end. What a happy exchange
has she made! Who \YOuld not wish to die the deaih of the
righteous, who would not wish their last end to be like her's.
Mrs. M. appears to enjoy religion — she v/ishes much to see
vou. A general stupidity to the one thing needful still prevails.
When will the showers of divine grace be poured out upon this
place? Will not this church, this vine of God's planting, rejoice
to see the work of the Lord prosperhig? Yoiir earnest prayers
'are requested lor a revival of pure and uiidefiled religion in
Haverhill. Mr Newell preached a lecture here last evening. Do
we not need si:ch faithful preachers here as much as the be-
nighted pagans in India? Is not the situation of gospel sinners
much mofe desperate, than that of those, who have never heard
of a Saviour? But still we have reason to rejoice that God has
inclined a faithful few to preach Jesus to the heathen O.h may
their labors be blessed. May they see the inhabitants of the
wildecness, embracing the offers of mercy. We siiall expect
to See you with Mr, W. on Saturday. Do not disappoint u£-
Accept this from Harriet.
Mrs, Nett'elVs Letters. 60
• To Miss M, T, ofJ^ewbu'ry.
Boston, Feb. 18, 1811.
What, nay dear friend, (if I may enjoy the privilege of corics-
ponding with you,) shall be the subject of our letters? Shall the
common occurrences of life, and the flattering compliments of
the tiolite ivorld fill our sheets; or that religion, which is the
glory of the bright intelligences of heaven, and the consolation
of trembling believers on earth? I think I can confidently affirm
that the latter will be your choice. As for myself^ 1 can say
that if I never felt the power oi this religion, yet it is a theme
upon which I love to converse, write and reflect. It is a duty
incumbent on the children of God to reprove, encourage and
animate each other on their journey to the upper world. Every
christian has difficulties to overcome, temptations to encpuntcr,
and a warfare to accomplish, which the world are strangers to.
If pilgrims in the same country can in the least console each
other, and sweeten the thorny journey, by familiar intercourse,
they ought not to neglect it. We, my dear M, arc professedly
interested in the same cause. Our home is professedly iii
heaven; we have temptations, difficulties, trials and doubts,
"which, if we are believers, are in unison. I feel that / need the
prayers and the advice of all the followers of the Lamb. 1 have
*'an evil heart of unbelief," prone to "depart from the living
.God." Will M. pray for me? Will she bear me in remem-
brance when supplicating mercy for othei- sinners? You shall
not be forgotten by H. No. If the Friend of sinners will lend
a listening ear to my feeble cries, M. shall be strengthened and
blessed. By these united cries we may draw down Irom heav-
en lavors never to be forgotten. Painful recollection often re-
curs to those weeks that I spent at Bradford. I say fiainjul, be-
cause \ fear that my conduct brought a wound on that religion,
which I BhoQld wish to honor. While I lament with humility
the loss of many precious hours, and the stupidity which I
then experienced, I have reason to adore the mercy of Jehovah,
that has since granted me refreshing showers of grace. Yes,.
M. my mind has been greatly exercised since I last saw you.
Never before did the promises of the gospel appear so piccious,
the character of God so lovely, and immortal souls of so much
worth. I tremble at the idea of being again involved in the
vanities of a world which can afford no pleasure, and of feeling
indifferent about the kingdom of Jcbus. But I am a depcndun'
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creature; if forsaken of God I shall perish. My hope is on his
grace. What, my friend, is the state of you?' mind? Are you
enjoying the light of a Saviour's countenance? Are you fast pro-
gressingf heavenward; and are you possessing joy that is un-
speakable and full of glory? This I hope is your situation. "A
soul redeemed demands a life of praise." Let our future lives
evince our gratitude, and every thought be brought into subjec-
tion to the Father of spirits. It is now about three weeks since
I left H. Last Sabbath I enjoyed the pleasure of hearing the
good Dr. G. preach. This pleasure I hope often to be favored
with while I continue with my sister M. I have been these two
days with our friends, the Misses F.'s. My time has passed
very pleasantly with them.
1 have more things to tell you than I have time to write,
A number of interesting occurrences have happened since I saw
you. Should I again be indulged v/iih an interview with you, I
fear I shall tire your patience with a history of my troubles and
pleasures. But I must leave you, my M May you enjoy the
influences of the Holy Spirit in life, consolation in death, and a
scat in the mansions of blessedness. Harriet.
1811.
Feb. 24: For four weeks past, have been visiting my sistet*
atC. The first week, I was remarkably favored with the pres-
ence of Immanuel. Never before did I gain such access to the
mercy-seat, and entertain such glorious views of the character
of God, and such humiiiatii^ig ideas of my own as a sinner. But
I have since experienced a sad reverse. My God, why hast
thou forsaken mc? Oh for that invigorating grace, which the
Saviour dispenses to his followers! But can I hope myself his
follower?
Last Sabbath, went with Mr. H. and sister M. to hear Dr.
G. His language, his very features spoke the emotion of his
soul.' His text was in Corinthian?, "When I was a child, I
spake as a, child," Sec.
As we entered the meeting-house, they were singing my fa-
vorite hymn, "Lord, what a wretched land is this," Sec. in a mel-
ancholy air. Such were my sensations, that I could hardly re-
frain from weeping. How lovely are thy tabernacles, O Lord
of hosts, where the gospel of Jesus is proclaimed!
Feb. 25. After spending the day in trifling conversation, I
was permitted to enjoy the privileges of attending a Christian
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epnference, where the evenintj was spent in praying, singing,
and conversing upon the things of religion.
Feb. 26. Mr. H. and sister M. informed me, that my dear
mama wished me to engage in a scoool, the ensuing sum-
mer. Can I think of such a responsible situation as that of in-
structing little immortals? I know that I ought not to consult
my own ease; the question should be, how can I be most useful
in the world? I hope I shall be directed by Heaven! Oh that
God would use me as an instrument of promoting his glory;
whether it be in the domestic circle, or in the arduous employ-
ment, of "teaching young ideas how to shoot."
Feb. 27. I have spent the greatest part of the day in reading.
I find that I am indeed ignorant — long to have time to dcfote
myself ivholly to the improvement of my mind. While endeav-
oring to obtain useful knowledge. Oh may I never forget, that
if at last found a hypocrite, I shall be capable of greater suffer-
ihgs, than if totally ignorant.
Feb, 28. Afflicted with a violent pain in my head. Experi-
ence daily evinces, that afflictions will do me no good, unless
sanctified. Have had some sense of the presence of Jehovah,
and some longing desires to be wholly conformed to him. When
shall this vain world lose its power to charm, and the religion of
the gospel influence my heart and life? Oh when shall I die —
when shall I live forever? How many times this day, have I rc-
]ieated that Hymn of Dr. Watts'; **Lord, what a wretched land
is this."
March I. Father of lights, it is the office of thy Spirit, to
create holy exercises in the hearts of thy creatures. Oh may
I enter upon this month with renewed resolutions to devote my-
self exclusively to *hee; that at the close of it, I may not sigh
ever mispent hours.
March 3. Heard an admirable sermon this morning from Dr.
G. Have likewise communed with God at his table. Oh, this
cold, stupid heart! I long for wings to fly away from this clod of
earth, and participate the holiness and pleasures of the saints
within the vail.
March 4. Have this day visited at — . The entertainment of the
evening was splendid afid extravagant. Query. Is it consist-
ent with the humble religion of the gospel, for professors, who
ought to deny themselves and take up their cross daily, to ex-
pend that roonev, which is God's, and is only lent them for pi-
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ous uses, in providing dainties to please the palate, and ia
clothes, to ornajtient their bodies?
Where is the^vast difference between the children of God
and the children of this world? As far as I have examined the
subject, it is my candid opinion, that if Christians would appro-
priate more of their property to charitable purposes, instead of
making such extravagant provision for the flesh, — would men
imitate the example of the meek and lowly Jesus, — feel indif-
ferent to the smiles and frowns of the world; religion would
floufish, the kingdom of God would be built up, and happy ef-
fects would be visible through the world.
Alarch 9. This is a delightful evening! Not a cloud is in the
heavens to intercept the bright rays of the moon. All nature,
both animate and inanimate, appear^rcombined in the blessed
employment of praising God. The moon shining in her glory,
and the planets and stars are monitors, that speak loud — more
lovely to me, than ten thousand human voicus. Awake my
slothful soul; nothing in creation, has half thy work to per-
form; and Oh, let it not be sai<], that notlxing is half so dull.
March 25, God has no: left himself without witness in the
earth. ' No; he is still manifesting the riches of his grace, in
bringing home his chosen ones. A you- g lady of my ac-
quaintance, formerly gay and a stranger to piety, has hopefully
, become a follower of the Lamb: And has my dear M. chos-
en Jesus for her friend and portion? 1 cannot but stand amazed,
tcrsee the salvation of God.
March 30. Have found much encouragement and satisfac-
tion of late in reading some of Newton's works. They are in^
f/e-ff/ a treasure. He penetrates my heart; and while he expos-
es my depravity, he points me to the Laml^of God, who taketh
,away the sin of the world.
J/iril 1. This is an interesting public day. Oh that the su-
preme Ruler of all events, would incline every citizen, to vote
for that man who is most worthy of the office of a governor.
The aspept of the times is dark; but God can bring good out of
evil, and continue to us our national blessings. I often find
this reflection a sweet solace in the hour of darkness, that no
■ event, hovv-ever small, can take place without the permission and
direction of the great Jehovah.
Ajirii 7. This is a day, on which God usually manifests the
glories of his character to his dear children. Hov/ exactly cal-
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culated are all the means and ordinances of the gospel, for the
comfort and improvement of the saints. What an act of love
and wisdom was it in God, to select one day from the week, to
be appropriated to his worship. Were it not for this glorious
day, I should be in danger of losing all sense of eternal things,
J/iril 9. What shall a stupid Christian do? Stupid Christian
did I say! Can a Christian ever feel stupid? It is an inconsist-
ent title. But notwithstanding all my death-like stupidity, I
cannot renounce the hope of being a child of the Most High.
What shall I do, a dependant, guilty creature, to gain access to
the mercy seat, and derive a supply of grace from the fountain
of life. Draw me, thou Saviour of sinners, and I will run after
thee. Oh lead me beside the still waters, and refresh my soul
with heavenly food.
ApriL 17. How shall I record the events of this day! How-
can I tranquillize my disturbed mind enough to engage in the
once delightful employment of writing? Returned from Boston
in the evening, after spending three days very agreeably with
my friends, C. and N. M. handed me a letter with an appear-
ance which indicated that something unusual was contained in
it. 1 broke the seal, and what were my emotions, when I read
the name of . This was not a long wished for letter, — no; it
was a long dreaded one; which I was conscious would involve
me in tloubt, anxiety, and distress. Nor were the contents
such, as I might answer at ^distant period; — they required an
immediate answer. And now what sliall I say? — How shall I
decide \.)[\\% imfiortantyi\\i?>interesti7ig question? Shall I con-
sent to leave forever the Parent of my youth; — the friends of
my life; — the dear scenes of my childhood, and my native coun-
try; and go to a land of strangers, "not knowing the things,
which shall befal me thcre?"--Oh, for direction from heaveni
Oh for "that wisdom which is profitable to directl" — I will go
to God, and with an unprejudiced mind, seek his guiduncc. I
will cast this heavy burden on him, humbly trusting that he will
sustain me, and direct me in the path of duty.
J/iril \9, 'VhG iw/iortant decision is not yec made, I am
still wavering. I long to see and converse with my dear moth-
er! So delicate is my situation, that I dare not unbosom my
heart to a single person. What shall I do? Could tears direct
me in the path of duty, surely I should be directed. — My heart
10
74 Mrs, NewelPs Letters,
Acbs; — I know not %v/mi to clol— "Guide me, O thou great Je-
hovah.*'
Jfiril2\. Have now retired to my chamber, once more, to
vent in silence, my unavailing sighs, and with an almost burst'
ing heart, implore divine relief and direction.
I shall go home on Tuesday. — Never did I so greatly long to
visit the dear native dwelling.
Jfiril 22. Perhaps, my dear Mother will iminediatehj say;
Harriet shall never go. Well if this should be the case, my du-
ty would he filain. I cannot act contrary to the advice and ex-
press commands of a fiious mother.
The fact was, that her mother made no objection to her ac-
cepting the offer of Mr. Newell, but cheerfully lelt her to act
according to her convit;tion of duty.
To Miss F, W. of Beverly,
Haverhill, Af'iril 29, 1811.
It has not been for want of inclination, or from forgetfulness,
that I have thus long neglected writing to my dear friend, Miss
W.; but every day has brought with it various and new occupa-
tions; and though my friends have not been forgotten, yet I
confess I have not been so punctual as I ought. I need not as-
sure you, that your letter produced many pleasing sensations.
I hope this will find you enjoying the presence of our covenant
Saviour; and engaged in the promotion of his glorious cause.
Christians are greatly criminal for not living in the constant en-
joyment of God. He is ever ready and willing to manifest the
glories of his character to their souls; and nothing but their na-
tive opposition to holiness, and their love of evil, ever prevents.
Are not believers inconsistent creatures? They can speak of a
Saviour's love, — the happiness resulting from an acquaintance
with God, and point out the road to impenitent sinners, which
alone will lead to substantial bliss; and yet often wander in for-
"Indden paths — lose all relish for spiritual enjoyments, and rest
contented with the low pleasures of sense.
If I am a child of Jesus, this inconsistency has often been
mine. And yet I long for a greater sense of my dependance,
and more entire conformity to Him who died for me. If any
thing here deserves the name of happiness, it dt)es not spring;
Mrs. Newelt^s Letters. 75
from earth. No! it is of heavenly birth, and conies from the
regions of purity. The vast and boundkss desires implanted
in the human heart, cannot be satisfied with any thing short of
God. Nothing in heaven or earth is capable of affording real
bliss, vi^ithout him.
I have spent three months this last winter with my sister at
C. My religious privileges have been more extensive than
usual. I have been favored with frequent opportunities of hear-
ing Dr. G. preach, and have likewise attended many serious
meetings. But. I still wanted an heart to improve under the
cultivation of Jehovah's hand. Neither afflictions nor enjoy-
ments will do us good, unless sanctified by divine grace.
Since my return to H. I have sometimes enjoyed much con-
solation in committing myself and all my concerns into the hands
of God. Some circumstances, which at some future time I may
communicate to you, I hope will have a tendency to wean me
from this world, and fasten my heart to Heaven. I do, my dear
friend, find this, "a desert world, replete with sin and sorrow.'*
I often long to leave it, and find a sweet release from every woe.
I visited Miss F. at Boston often. H. returned from H. about
three weeks since; she observed, she intended writing to your
sister N.
I have not read the book, mentioned in your last, but confide
in your judgment, — think it must be entertaining.
I hope to have the pleasure of a visit from you this summer —
I wish much to see you and your sister — hope you are both
enjoying the light of the Sun of righteousness. Persevere, my
friend, in the Christian \i(e, and pray for your friend Harriet.
Our pilgrimage will shortly be ended, and all the trials of
life will be over. Oh, may we meet in heaven; and join with
the angelic host around the throne, in adoring the matchless
perfections of Immanuel, through the ages of eternity. I am,
my dear Miss W. affectionately yours. H^nniET.
To Miss M. S. of Boston.
Haverhill, Sabbath eve — May, 181 i.
While agitated with doubts and conflicts, with the gay world
in opposition, it has aiforded me much consolation to think 1
have a friend in M. who can feel my sorrows, and sympathize
^vith mc in gritf. I have passed through nianv intr-rnsting and
W Mrs. NewelVs Letters.
golcmn scenes, since I last saw you. Returning to Haverhill,
I found my dear mama Calm and composed. So completely
%vas she filled with a sense of the shortness of time, the uncer-
tainty of life, and the duty of giving up our dearest comforts
to the I^ord, that she never raised one objection, but wished me
to act according as my conscience directed. I felt an unspeak^
able consolation in committing the disposal of this event to God.
I thought I could willingly renounce my own opinion, and sit-
ting at the feet of Jesus, be guided entirely by him. Mr, N.
has visited us frequently. He wishes not to influence me; he
would not if he could.
And now, my dear M. what will you say to me, when I tell
you, that I do think, seriously think, of quitting my native land
forever, and of going to a far distant country, "not knowing the
things which shall beful me there.'* Should I refuse to make
this sacrifice, refuse to lend my little aid in the promulgation
of the Gospel amongst the heathen, how could I ever expect to
enjoy the blessing of God, and peace of conscience, though
surrounded with every temporal mercy? It would be pleasant
to spend the remaining part of my life with'my friends, and to
have them surround my dying bed. But no! I must relinquish
their society, and follow God to a land of strangers, where mil-
lions of my fellow sinners are perishing for lack of vision. I
have professed, my friend, for these two years past to derive
comfort only from God. Here then is a consoling reflection;
the ever blessed Jesus is able to support and comfort'me, as
%vell in tJie sultry climes of India, as m my dear native land.
I trust that he will make his promise good, that as my day is,
30 shall my strength be. The wintry stornis of life will soon
be over; and if I have committed my immortal interest into the
'hands of God, I shall shortly find a sweet release from every
woe. So visibly haye I beheld the hand of Providence in re-
moving some obstacles which once 1 thought almost insur-
mountable, that I dare not object. All my friends with whom I
have conversed since my return to Haverhill, advise me to go.
Some Christians who were formerly opposed, after obtaining
a more extensive knowledge of the subject, think females, would
be useful. The people of this world probably view this subject
as they do otheis. Those who have never felt the worth of
their own souls, acccunt it superstition and hypccritic zeal, for
Christians to sacrifice their cartlily pleasures, lor the sake of
' Mrs, NetsselVs Letters. 7J
telling the heathen world of a Saviour. But all the ridicule that
the gay and thoughtless sinner can invent, will not essentially
injure me. If I am actuated by love to the Saviour and his
cause, nothing in earth or hell can hurt me. I must.ask your
prayers for me. We have prayed together; Oh, let us now,
though separated in perton, unite at the throne of grace. Per-
haps my views of this subject may be altered; and God may y«t
prepare a way for me to continue in America. Oh, that I might
be submissive and humbly wait on God. He can direct me, at
this eventful crisis, and glorify himself. Affectionately yours.
Harriet.
To Miss S. H — . J^envbury.
Haverhill^ June 12, 1811.
How shall I sufficiently thank my dear Miss H. for the kind
token of affectionate remembrance, which she was kind enough
to send me? Your letter really exhilarated my languid spirits.
I had spent the evening in private conversation with our dear
Mr. N. The usual subject of the contemplated Mission was
renewedly talked over, and consequently the dangers, the cross-
es, the manifold trials of such an important undertaking, were
themes which engrossed our thoughts. Depressed with anxious
apprehensions, and in doubt respecting duty, Mrs. G. handed
me a letter, and the well known hand of the writer I soon re-
cognised. The contents dispelled many a heart rending sigh.
This eve, mama received a letter from dear brother J.; I had
previously written to him. Dear boy! he is mich distressed for
Harriet. He thinks she is doing wrong, and causing her friends
needless anxiety. Would to heaven I could prevent distress
from ever entering the heart of a widowed, beloved parent, an(J
the dearest brothers and sisters. Oh, Miss H. could these dear
friends but go with me to distant India — but alas! that is a fruit-
less wish; — but were it possible that this could be the case,
1 think I could quit America without reluctance, and even re-
joice to spend my life among the benighted heathen. Some-
times, I can reflect on this subject with coniposure, and even
long to be on missionary ground, where superstition and idol-
atry usurp the sway; think I can bid my dear friends a last fare-
well with calmness, and follow with delight the leadiugs of
Providence. But at other times, I fear that this is not the situ-
.78 Mrs. NewelVs Letters,
ation God lias designed forme; and if it is not, I can never lay
claim to the promises of the gospel, or expect the support of
an Almighty arm, when dangers stand thick around me. My
greatest fear is, that I shall lose all courage and perseverance
should I set out to go, and not only be unhappy myself, but
make those wretched who are with me. But are not these
thoughts criminal, when carried to excess? Ought I not to
praise the Lord for what I have received, and trust Him for a
suppjy of grace? Ought I not to examine the subject prayerful-
ly, and if on examination I am convinced that Jesus calls me to
make these great sacrifices, ought I not to do it voluntarily, and
leave the event with the Ruler of the universe?
I find, my dear Miss H. that I am now in great danger of be-
ing actuated by a strong attachment. Oh, could I but give the
ever blessed God the first place in my aflections, I should not be
in danger of being misled by earthly objects. Often have I
adopted the words of the pious Mr. Newton:
*'The dcai'cst idol I have known,
"Whate'er that idol he;
"Help me to tear it from thy throne,
' *'And worship only thee."
When shall \vc hope for a visit from you? Do write me often;
your letters will always be acceptable. Although tired and fa-
■tigued with the employments of the day, I have improved this
lute hour in writing.
Do you not admire Mr. Hail? I heard him preach a prepara-
tory sermon at Bradford last v;eek; which was clear, distin-
guishing and very excellent. He called here one morning, but
I had gone to walk. Mr. Nott likewise called on us last week;
we were in the meeting house and did not see him. Our friend
N. is still in Salem; I long to see her.
Can I ask the favor of being remembered in your interces-
sions at the throne of grace? Oh, that Christians would pray for
me. Farewell, my dear Miss H. May the clioicest blessings
of Heaven be yours. 1 am affectionately your Harriet.
I had forgotten to tell you that our dear Mr. W. called here
vi;.;ai{i, and I did not sec him. Do you think I ever shall?
1811.
Jun£ 22. I have this day taken my leave of Mr. N, not ex-
•p.euing to see hini again for nine monib.s. I can hardly feci
Mrs. NeweWs Letters. 79
reconciled to his departure; but the will of the Lord be done.
Taking every circumstance into consideration, I am fully per-
suaded, it will be most for his interest to spend tbc summer and
%vinter in Philadelphia. Why then should I object?
June 27. It is now almost five years since my mind became
seriously impressed with eternal realiiies. What have I learnt
in these five years, of myself? and what of God? Weep, Oh
my soul, for past transgression, and present unfi uitfulncss.
To liliss C. /''. of Boston^
Haverhill, June 29, 1311.
I THANK you, dear C for your affectionate letter. My engage-
ments have been such, that I could not conveniently answer it
before; hope you will pardon the neglect. The kind interest
you have of late taken in my happiness has greatly endeared
you to my heart. May you never want a friend to sympathize
with you when "adverse fortune frowns," or to rejoice with you,
when "life's vale is strew'd with flowerets fresh." If the rc-
ijiuining days of my short pilgrimage are to be spent in sorrow,
Oh that Heaven would grant C. peace and happiness, and a
sure pledge of joys to come. Wliere my future lot may be
Oast, time only can determine. If I can but maintain a firm and
unshaken confidence in God, a humble reliance on his blessed
promises, I shall be safe, though temporal comforts languish and
die. I am now calculating upon a life of trials arid hardsliips;
but the grace of Jesus is sufficient forme. The friend of sin-
ners is able and willing to support me amid scenes of danger
and distress.
W^hen I bade you a parting adieu, my mind was in a state of
agitation which I can never express. Dejected and weary I ar-
rived at the dear mansion, where I have sj)ent so many pleasant
h.ours. My dear mama met m.e at the door, with a counte-
nance that bespoke the tranquillity of Xv^v mind. The storm
of opposition, as she observed, had blown over, and she was
brought to 6ay from the heart, "thy will be done.'* Yes C. she
had committed her child to God's parental care; and tliough her
affection was not lessened, yet with tears in her eyes, she said,
"If a conviction of duty and love to the souls of the perishing
heathen lead you to India, as much as I love you, Harriet, I can
only say. Go'* Here I was left to decide the all important
question. Many were the corflicf? within my breast. Uut, at
go Religious Exercises, *
length from a firm persuasion of duty, and a willingness to cowi-
ply, after much examination and prayer, I answered in the
affirmative.
I wish to tell you all the motives tlmt have actuated me to
come to this determination; likewise, how all the difficulties,
which applied to me particularly, have been removed. But this
I cannot do until I see you. Why cannot you make it conve-
nient to spend three or four weeks with me this summer. To
assure you that it would afford me happiness, would be but
what you already know. Write to me C. next week if possi-
ble. Let me know when I may expect you, and I will be at
home. Perhaps we may gjo and spend a day or two with our
friends in N. I am very lonely. N. H. has been visiting at S.
ever since I returned from C. Mr. Newell has gone to Phila-
delphia, where he expects to continue until a short time before
he quits his native country. He is engaged in the study of
physic, together with Mr. Hall. How has your mind been ex-
ercised of late? Are you living in the enjoyment of religion?
C. we must live nearer to God; we must be more engaged
in his cause. We are under the most solemn obligations to
be active in the Redeemer's service. Let us not calculate up-
on a life of idleness and ease; this is not the portion of the fol-
lowers of the Lamb. They must expect tribulations and crosses
in their way to the kingdom of heaven. But let us ever remem-
ber, that if we are the believing children of God, a rest awaits
us in heaven, which will doubly compensate us for all the
troubles of this life.
When interceding at the mercy seat, Oh forget not C. to
pray for the salvation of the benighted heathen, whose souls
are as precious as our own. With them remember your friend
Hariuet.
181L
June 30. Mr. D. preached from this text, <*and as he drew
nigh to the city, he wept over it, saying,'* 8cc. My whole soul
was melted into compassion for impenitent sinners. Can I
ever again feel regardless and unconcerned for their immortal
souls?
Did Christ for sinners Aveep,
And shall our cheeks be dry?
Let floo<ls of penitential grief.
Burst forth fttWM ijyeir^jpye.
Lttttr io her Sister. 81
Did Jesus say to sinners, "Oh that thou hadst known in this thy
day, the things that bclonij to thy peace," Sec. and shall I smile
upon them, while in the road to ruin?
Juhj 15. The \ov\^ expected letter lias at length arrived.
How can I wish for a iVicnd, more worthy of mv love, more de-
serving of my heart? But my heart is already his. A friend,
how rich the treasure! If an earthly friend is thus near to ujy
heart, how strong should be my attachment to a holy God,
whose friendship to his children is lasting as eternityl How
can I love him sufficiently? How can I lake too much delight
in honoring him before the world, and in promoting his cause?
July 23. 1 have just read a little passage in Thomson's Sea-
sons, whicii I thought I could adopt as my own language,
**Should fate command to the farthest verge
Of the green earth, to distant barb'rous cliniea.
Rivers unknown to song; uhere Urst the sua
Gilds Indian mountains, or his setting beann
Flames on tiie Atlantic Isles; 'tis nought to me.
Since God is ever present — ever just.
In the void waste, as in the city full
And where he vital breathes, there must be joy."
Extracts of a letter to her Sister M.aC C/iarlesionvn.
Jugust 1, 1811.
-"Should I tell you there is a prospect of my spending
the remaining part of this short life in a land of strangers; s'.iould
I tell you I do seriously think of leaving my native dwelling,
my friends and companions forever; would you upbraid me?
Could you attribute it to want of attachment to the friends of
my youth, or to entire ignorance of this great undertaking? —
You would not, ycu could noty did you know the gonilict which
almost rends my heart. Never before did my dear mama, broth-
ers and sisters appear so dear to me. But God commands mc!
In his holy providence he now offers me an opportunity of vis-
iting the heathen. While many of my female friends who
are far more adequate to the important employment are per-
mitted to enjoy the society of their earthly relatives through
life, I am called to quit the scenes of my childhood, and go to
a far distant country. How can I ever pray for the promotion
of the gospel among the heathen, if I am unwilling to offer my
little aid when such an opportynity is given? I know what to
expect from a gay and thoughtless world. But ! have this con-
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82 Religious Exercises,
solalion, that ridicule cannot injuve my soul. In the efernil
\vorld, how trifling ^viil it appearl That some professing Chris-
tians oppose it uill cause me many unhappy feelings. But
I must think that were they to view the subject impartially?
divesting themselves of the love of worldly ease, they would
favor it. With my present feelings I would not oppose it for
all this earth can afford; lest I should be found fighting against
God, discouraging missions, and preventing the gospel's being-
spread among the heathen.
I •have liiis consolation, if the motives by which I am actuated
are sincere and good, God will accept the inclination to glorify
him, even though I should not be made useful. But my dear
sister, this is a trying season! It is from God alone that I de-
rive the least sensible comfort. This world has lost its pow-
er to charm and all its applause is a trifle light as air. My com-
panions are perhaps accusing me of superstition and the love
of novelty. But God alone knows the motives by which I am
actuated, and he alone will be my final Judge. Let me but
form such a decision as he will approve, and I ask do more.
WillingJy will I let go my eager grasp of the things of time
and sense, and flee to Jesus. Oh that he would prepare me for
the future events of life, and glorify himself in the disposal oi
my concerns."
1811.
j^ug, 7. I have just laid down Home on Missions. How did
his pious heart gclow with benevolence to his fellow creatures!
How ardently did he wish for the promulgation of the gospel,
among the benighted heathen! I think, for a moment, I partake
of his ardor, and long to hear that the standard of the cross is set
up in the distant nations of the earth.
*'Yes, christian heroes! go — proclaim
Salvation through Iramanuel's name:
To India's clime the tidings bear.
And plant the rose of Sharon there."
Willingly would I sacrifice the dearest earthly friend to engage
in this blessed service. Oh ,that I had a thousand pious rela-
tives, well calculated for the important station of Missionaries;
the tenderest ties, that bind me to them, should be rent. I would
say tothem,— »go — and let the destitute millions of Asia and
Africa know, there is co7n/ia99ion in the hearts of christians; tell
Mrs, NeweWs Letters, 83
tliem of the love of Jesus, and the road to bliss on high. Prov-
idence now gives me an opportunity to go myself to the heath-
<n. Shall I refuse the ofler — shall I love the glittering toys of
this dying world so well, that I cannot relinquish them for God?
Forbid it, Heaven! Yes, I will go, — However weak, and un-
qualified I am, there is an all-sufficient Saviour, ready to sup-
port me. In God alone is my hope. I will trust his promiscst
and'consider it one of the highest privileges that would be con-
ferred upon me, to be permitted to engage in his glorious ser-
vice, among the wretched inhabitants of Hindostan.
j^ug". 1 1. How reviving to my disconsoiaie mind, has been the
word of life, this day! Oh, this adorable plan of salvation! Have
I the least inclination to alter one single part ofit^ if I could?. Oh
no; I nuouldnot be less holy — I would not wish God to exact leas
fierfect obedience from his creatures.
Mr. R. drank tea with us. I felt the same backwardness in
conversing upon the things of the kingdom, that I usually do-
Whence this criminal diffidence. Oh when will divine grace
so absorb my heart, that my stammering tongue shall be loosed,
and Jesus and his salvation be my theme! If I cannot unite in
conversing with believers^ in a land where religion flourishes,
how can I speak to the benighted heathen of India, whose minds
are involved in pagan darkness?
To Miss M. S, of Boston.
Haverhill, Sabbath, Aug. 11, 1811.
How great, my dear M. would be the pleasure, could I retreat
with you to some lonely corner, far from the busy haunts of this
vain world, and unbosom to you the secrets of my heart, instead
of writing to you. But this dear privilege is denied me. I
must be content with expressing a few unconnected thoughts on
paper for the present, and will anticipate a happy meeting with
you on earth, and a still happier one in those regions, where the
friends of Immanuel will never more be separated. What if
our intercourse on earth should cease? If we are the followers
of the Lamb, our prayers will unitedly ascend to the same bles-
ed throne while we live, and when our pilgrimage is ended, our
friendship will exist and flourish forever. M. we are pilgrims,
we are strangers in a barren land. This world is not our por-
tion; it is incapable of satisfying ouv desires. The glittering
Lovs of life arc not calctila'rd tn aHord real en;- vmcnt. There
S4 Mrs. NetieWs Letters.
is nothing in lieaven or earth, but God» that can delight our
hearts, and ease us of the heavy load of sin. Let us not be sat-
isfied with the "low and grovelling pursuits of time; but let us
look to the unchangeable Jehovah, for a supply of hi§ soul-re*
freshing grace. How mucli has God done for us individually?
He has, as we humbly trust, made us partakers of his grace, and
redeemed us from eternal death. What shall we render to
him for this abundant mercy? Oh let our future lives evince our
gratitude, and let our praises unceasingly flow to his throne.
Dear M. 1 feel as though I had done nothing for God. Where
are the last five years of my wretched life? Can they witness to
my exertions in the cause of the Lord? ''1 think of the days of
other years, and my soul is sad," All is a barren waste. A few
heartless duties and cold formalities will never carry me to
heaven.
Sabbath eve. This day, my dear M. I have been highly priv-
ileged. I have heard three sermons preached by the excellent
Mr. R. How sweet is the gospel to the heart of the believerl
How does the pure word of truth animate the desponding sinner?
and encourage him to apply to the Lamb of God for pardon
and sanctificationi Rut this glorious gospel, which reveals to
mortals the way of salvation, the far greater part of the inhabi-
tants of the earth arc deprived of. "Where there is no vision
the people perish." Thousands of immortal souls are entering
eternity^, and peopling the dark realms of woe. If our souls
arc or greater importance than this world with all its boasted
treasures, how can we calculate the worth of those millions of
souls, which are equally as precious as our own? We have had
•he Bible in our hands from our childhood; we are instructed
regularly from this precious volume, every sabbath. We have
believing- friends to associate with; we enjoy the stated ordinan-
ces of the gospel. But the dear heathen have no such privi-
leges. They are destitute of Bibles, Sabbaths and churches.-
The inhabitants of Hindostan, to atone for their sins, will sub-
mit to the most cruel tortures imaginable. Widows consent
to be burned with their deceased husbands; parents sacrifice
ilieir infant offspring to appease the anger of their idol gods; tiiey
cast them into the river Ganges, where they perish. But this
dreadful superstition vanishes before the benignant rays of the
r^ospel, as the morning new before the rising sun. We enjoy its
Mrs. Neweirs Lciicrs. 85
ir.eridian splendoi's. Have we any benevolence? Arc we suscep-
tible of feeling for the distresses of our fcilow creatures? As we
value the salvation which a Saviour offers; as we value his tears,
his labors, and his death, let us now seriously ask what we shall
do for the salvation of the benighted heathen? If we arc not per-
inittcd to visit them ourselves, and declare to them the efiicr ry
of a Saviour's blood; yet we can ardently pray for them. And
not only pray for them, but by our vigorous exertions wc can
awaken a missionary spirit in others, and excite iliem also to
feel for those who are perishing in pagan darkness. Tvl.
the subject is copious indeed. I might easily write till the ris-
ing sun, and then not give you a perfect delineation of tlie
wretchedness of many of our fellow creatures. But I must
leave these forlorn wretches. Suffice it to say, that when the
whole universe shall stand collected at the bar of God, we shall
meet them, and there render a solemn account for the manner
which we have conducted towards them in this world. I hope
my dear M. you are living near to God, and enjoying times of
refreshing from his presence. Oh pray often and remember
me in your prayers. Should stormy oceans roll between us,
yet I shall ever continue to love you.
Farewell, my dear M.
Your affectionate, IIauriet.
Extracts of a letter to her Sister J\T. ct Charlestoiv?!,
Aug. 1811.
'*A FEW moments this morning, sliall be spent in \vriting
to my dear sister. Accept my hearty congratulations for your
returning health. I often think of you and imagine you possess-
ed of every comfort, which can render life desirable. I have bcca
contrasting your present delightful situation with the trying one
that is probably to be mine. Although I could shed floods of
tears at the idea of bidding a final farewell to the dear associ-
atcs of my youth, and the guardian and instructor of my early
years; yet a consciousness that tiiis is the path marked out for
me by my Heavenly Fatlicr, and an assurance that the cause I
liave engaged in is a blessed one, impart at times an indescrib-
able pleasure, ir. some unforeseen occurrence should prevent
my going to the Fast Indies, I sliall stil! enjoy the satisfaction of
'.hinkincr that this also is ordered !>v G" \. Should I never go.
86 Rerigious Exercises,
Oh may I never forget the wretched inhabitants of Hindostani
nor cease to p.ray that they may enjoy the blessings of the
Gospel. Harriet Atwood.
1811,
^dug. 13. How consoling has been the belovcti promise, when
sinking under the contemplated difficulties of a missionary
lifel "my grace i§ sufficient for thee." Have I any thing-
but'an unfaithful, depraved heart, to discourage me, in this great
undertaking? Here the Almighty God, the Maker of all worlds^
the infinite Disposer of ail events, has pledged his ivord for the
safety of his believing children. Sooner will the universe sink
into nothing, than God fail of performing his promises, — -The
cause is good — ^the foundation is sure. If the Saviour has *
promised a sufficiency of his grace, what have I to fear? Oh
that I had a stronger confidence in God — a heart to rely on him
for grace to help in every time of need! When I reach my
journey's end, how trifling will eartldy sorrows appcarl
Aug. \A. This is indeed a wretched world. How few the
joys! How many and various, the sorrows of life! Well; if this
world is unsatisfying— "if cares and woes, promiscuous grow;'*
how great the consolation, that I shall soon leave it!
"Loose, then, fi-om earth, the grasp of fond lie sire,
**Weigh anclior, and the happier dimes explore."
f
In the Paradise of God, every rising wish, that swells the
heart of the celestial inhabitant, is immediately gratified. Oh
for a dismission from this clayey tabernacle— Oh for an en-
trance into those lovely mansions: My soul pants for the full
enjoyment of God. I cannot bear this /zf^/e spirituality — this
'absurd indifference; I long to be swallowed up in endless frui-
tion!
Aug. 15. A letter from my friend, Mr. Newell. He appears
much impressed with eternal concerns. May he enjoy the light
of Immanuers countenance! Have just heard of Mr. J.*s arri-
val,— and that he expects soon to set out for India. This un-
expected news solemnized my rrand. A consciousness of
my unprcparedness for this arduous undertaking makes me
tremble, liut I will give myself to Gocl; "tis all that I can do.'*
Aug. 19. Conscious that the riches and honors of this world
"ill not be mine, my deceitful heart often promises happiness
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Iti the society of a dear fnend. But how vain this hope! Oh
let me from this hour cease from anticipating creature hapi)i-
hess. — Oh that I could look to God alone for permanent satis-
faction.
"Dear Saviour, let lliy htauties be
ISly soul's etornal food;
And grace comiiiaud my heart away
FroiH all created good."
^u^. 20. How Strong is Christian friendsliip. He who en-
joined it upon his followers, to love God, has likewise com-
manded them to love one another. If I ani a stranger to the
joys of pardoning mercy; if I am an enemy to holiness; whence
arises this union with Christians? What has produced this
love to those, who resemble GoJ.? Formerly^ I preferred the
friendship and society of those, whose hearts were at enmity
>vith God; v\^o disliked the sublime and humbling doctrines of
the gospel; but now I can say with Ruth, "thy people shall be
my people.*' My soul is cemented to them; and if T am not
greatly deceived, my affection is the strongest for those, who
live nearest to God, and are most concerned for his glory. I
love the most abject creature in existence, however despised by
the wise men of this world, who bears the mo^'f of the lowly
Jesus. Yes; how could I rejoice to give the endearing appella-
tion of brother or sister, to one of the tawny natives of the East,
whom grace had subdued.
^iuS' 22. Sweet is the name of Immanuel to believers. That
name speaks peace and consolation to their troubled minds*
Ift. him they find a balm for every woe.
"Jesus to multitudes unknown.
Oh name divinely sweet!
Jesus in thee, in ihee alone.
Wealth, honor, pleasure meet.
Should both the Indies, nt my ca'.l.
Their boasted stores resign;
With joy, I would renounce them ull,
For leave to cj^I thee mi.ie.
Should earth's vain trensiu-cs all depart;
Of lliis dear gift possess'xJ,
I'd clasp it to my joyful heart,
And be forever bless'd."
Is this the language of my heart? Am / willing to relinquish
the pleasures, the honors, the riches and the applause of the
33 Ldier to a Fntnd.
^vorlcl, for leave to call Iwmanud mine? If so, I may ei^joy ex-
ulted happiness, in a land of strangers.
To Miss H. B. of Salem,
Haverhill, August 23, 1811.
Induced by the repeated solicitations of your sister S. I have
r-ii-ed to my chamber, determining to devote a leisure hour, in
venev/ing a correspondence, which has for a long lime bcenen-
tirelv relinquished. The attachments v.hich I formed m the
earl'er part of my life, have of late been greatly strengthened.
Those companions in whose society, '*the longest summer days
seemed too much in haste," have become excecdmgly <}ear to
luy heart. You, my H. were one of the choicest and most lovea
n/embers of the dear familiar circle. Did pensive melancholy
for a moment assume the place of mirth and gaiety in my mmci;
you were immediately acquainted with the cause. Did my youth-
ful heart beat with joy; if you were a partner, joy was heighten-
ed B^n particularly dear did the appellation of friend appear,
when we were unitedly depressed with a sense of the divmo
c i.pleasure, and when our souls, as we then thought were irra-
c'. r,'d with the light of truth, and washed in the peace speaking
hC^od of Immanuei. Should our lives he spared, very diHerent
v'^i p'-obably be our future destinies. Blest with those belovec.
iriends, whose sympathy alleviates every grief, whose society
contributes so i.rgely to your happiness, and indulged, not on-.
ly xvith a competency, but with afiluence and ease, you may glide
alouo- through this world, almost a stranger to the ills attendant
o-i mortals. But, these joys remain not for me. Destmed to
a far distant land, my affectionate friends, my pleasant home, my
much loved country I must leave forever. Instead ot the soft
delic-hts and elegancies of life, self-denials, hardships, priva-
tions, and sorrows will be mine. Instead of the improved and
polished society of Haverhill associates, will be substituted the
Liety of the uncivilized Hindoos. Instead of being enlivened
by the <:heering voice of a believing friend,! shall behold thou-
sands prostrating themselves before dumb idols, while the air
>vill ring with the horrid sounds of idol music. No churches
^iil be found for the refreshment of weary pilgrims; Iio joytul
assemblies, where saints can resort to unite in the revivmg ex«
crcises of social worship. All will bo dark, every thing will
be drcarv, and not a hope of worldly happiness will be foiv^'^
Letter to a Friend. ^
moment indulged. The prince of life will be spent in an u;,.
healthy country, a burning region, amongst a people of stran.e
language, at a returnless distance from my n.tive land, where I
shall never more behold the friends of my youth. Amid these
d.scojn.gen.ents, I often find my sinking heart desponding.
But this is.,ot all. Even while blest with an habitation in my
own country, I hear some of those -friends, whom I fondly lore>
accusing me of the love of novelty, of an invincible attachment
to a fel ow creature, of superstition and of wanting a great
name Wretched indeed, wilPbe my future lot, if these mo-
tives bear sway in nr.y determination. Surrounded by so many
discouragements, I find consolation only in God! ' None of
these thmgs move me, neither count I my life dear unto me.»
A consciousness that this is the path, which my Heavenly Fa-
ther hath selected for me, and an ardent desire for the salvation
of the benighted Heathen, constrains me to cry, Here am I
Lord, send me where thou wilt. Daily experience convinces
me that the glittering toys of life arc not capable of conferring
real happiness. With my prosent feelings, I may enjoy as
much happiness in India, as in America. But ray great conso-
lation IS that life is short. However great may be my trials,
they will be soon over. H. I feel that t/us is a wretched world.
It IS nearly six years since, I humbly trust, I .committed my a/l
to God, willing that he should dispose of me, as he saw best.
He has given me friends; he has given' me many earthly com-
forts: but he is now appointing me trials, greater than I yet
have known. But I think I can say, ^/^'^ wr//." Give me but
humble resignation to thy will, Oh my God, and I ask no. more.
The presence of Immanuel will make a mud-walled cottage, a
foreign land, and savage associates desirable. What but the
light of the Redeemer's countenance can make me happy here?
and what but that can delight my soul, in a far distant country?
"For nie remains noi- time, nor space.
My country is in ewry [ilacc;
I can be calm and free iVom care
On any shore, syicc Cod is there."
It seems a long time £i' ce v.e had the pleasure of seeing-;
you at Haveriiill. Your time undoubtedly passes away veiy
pleasantly in Salem. ]May your happiness^be const^uilly increas-
ing, at the return of each buccccdiiig year. May you have ih.«i
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peace of mind, that heartfelt joy, which is known only by the
decided follower of Jesus. This is pleasure that knows no
alloy, and which death can never deprive you of. May I
meet you with' all my dear friends, in that world, where a
wide sea can never separate us. I hope to spend many happy
liours with you before I bid you a final farewell. I am affec-
tionately yours. Harriet^
181L
Jiig, 25. With the light of this holy morning I desire to make
a solemn surrender of myself to God, humbly requesting him^
to accept the worthless offering. I think I can say with Mr..
Newton,
"Day of all the week the best,
"Emblem of eternal rest."
Jug. 26. What word can be more impressive and weighty
than Eternity? How replete with events, that deeply interest
every intelligent creature! How full of ideas, too big for utter-
ance! And can Eternity be mine? If the word of Jehovah
I5'e true, I shall surely inhabit Eternity, when this short life is
ended. ' Yes; I feel that 1 have an immortal part, which will
continue the same, when time and nature fail. And shall it ex-
ist in glory? Oh, let me fly to Jesus, and make his arms my
resting place. Then shall I rest securely, when the heavens
are rolled together as a scroll, and the elements melt with fervent,
heat.
Sefit. 1. Again have I been favored with the blessed privilege
of communing with God, at his table. How sweetly calculated are
these gospel ordinances to enliven the cold hearts of believers,
and to prepare them forthe marriage supper of the Lamb. I
have renewedly given myself away to God, in the presence of
the holy angels, of the assembly which convened at the house of
prayer, and of that Reing, who^e presence fills immensity: whose
smile gives hope, whose frown, despair, How solemn the trans-
action!— Far from the happy land, where salvation is proclaim-
ed, my thoughts have wandered over stormy seas, to regions,
whose inhabitants are sitting in the shaclow of death. No light
of divine revelation beams on them. No sanctuaries — no com-
munion tables— no bread and wine to remind them, that a Sa-
viour shed his blood on Calvary ibr ihem!— Weep, Oh my soub
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for the forlorn heathen. — Be astonished at the stupidity of Chris-
tians— be astonished at tAine own. Oh, thou blessed Redeemer,
thou who didst commission thy disciples of old to preach the
gospel to every creature; wilt thou send forth laborers; make
the wilderness a fruitful field, and cause the desert to Wossom
Hke the rose.
Sept. 3. "I'm but a stranger and a pilgrim here,
"In these wild regions, wandering and forlqrii,
"Restless and sighing for my native home,
*'Longing to reach my weaiy space of life,
"And to fulfil my task."
Yes; my Redeemer, I know by experience, that this life is ^
tiresome round of vanities hourly repeated. — All is empty.
My thirsty soul longs for the enjoyment of God in heaven,
where the weary and heavy laden find rest. How long. Oh my
Father, shall I wander in this dreary land? When shall I bid
a final adieu to these scenes of guilt!
*'0h, haste the hour of joy, and sweet repose.**
How refreshing will heavenly rest be to my soul, after a life of
toil and hardship!
Se/it, 7. "Bless the Lord, Oh, my soul, and forget not
all his benefits." Yes; I will bless and praise thy name,
my God, my King, my everlasting all. I will bless tkee
for temporal; I will bless thee for spiritual favors. Thou
hast ever been loading me with thy benefits. "The Lord is
my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear: The Lord is
the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Lord, by
thy favor thou hast made my mountain to stand strong. I will
extol thee, for thou hast lifted me up; and hast not made my
foes to rejoice over me. Thou hast brought up my soul from
the grave, — thou hast kept me alive, that I should not go down
to the pit. Sing unto the Lord, Oh, ye saints of his; and give
thanks at the remembrance of his holiness; for his anger en-
durethbut for a moment; his favor is life; weeping may endure
for a night; but joy cometh in the morning.*'
Sefic. 10. Depressed with guilt, and tired with the vanities
of this world, I have retired to my chamber, to seek pleasure
within. When blest with a sense of Immanuel's love, I find
satisfaction in writing, conversing, and thinking on divine things;
but when Jesus frowns, all is midnight darkness. No duties
— no domestic employments, — no earthly pleasures can charm
or delight my mind.
^^ Letter to a Friend.
Sept. 12. The time is short, I soon shall rise.
And bid farcMell to weeping eyes.
And reach the heavenly shore.
I have attempted this morning, to bring India, with the parting
scenes between, near at hand. Surely, nothing'but the sovereign
power of God could have led me to contemplate, with serenity
and composure, the painful scenes of a missionary life; and noth-
ing but his grace will support me, when farewells are sounding
around me. Oh, how can I think of that hourI--,But it is a glo-
rious work, for which, I am making these great sacrificesr—it is
liothing less than to assist in spreading the triumphs of the cross,
in foreign lands. Oh, could I become the instrument of bring-
mg one degraded female to Jesus, how should I be repaid for
every tear, and eycvy nam! To make a female Indian acquaint-
ed with the way of life, Oh what a biessingl— my soul exults at
the thoughtl
Scfit. 17. How sweet is this text, "Be careful for nothing, but
m every thing, by prayer and supplication let your requests be
made known unto God." When the difficuliit^s of my future
Hfe depress me, how often am I insensibly relieved, and com-
^forted by this, and similar invitaiions. How precious, how ex-
* ceedingly valuable is the word of GodI
Sept, 20. Life like an empty vapor flies.— Soon will my mor-
tal state be ended.— The objects, which now occupy so large a
portion of my thoughts, will shortly lose their importance, and
vanish as though I saw them not. Vanity is stamped on every
earthly enjoyment. But pleasure without the least alloy will
be found in heaven.
To a Friend.
Haverhill, Sefit. 1811.
Forgive, my dear M. the liberty I take in addressing you in
this manner. From my first acquaintance with you, I have felt
deeply interesied for your happiness. Nothing but an affec-
tionate regard for you would induce me to write to you. on a sub-
ject, which the world will undoubtedly ridicule, but which en-
gages the attention and constitutes the felicity of the holy inhab-
itants of heaven. This subject is the religion of the gospel—
a subject which is infinitely interesting to us both. Vou have
of lute witnessed a scene, trying indeed, and solemn as eternity^
iou have watched the sick-bed, you have heard the expiring
^^roans of your beloved sister. You fondly hope that she was in-
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tcrested in the covenlht of redemption, and is now perfectly
happy in the enjoyment of her God in heaven. When standing-
by the dying bed of this dettr sister, say, my friend, did you not
ardently wish for piety similar to hers, — for t/mt faitfi^ which
could triumph over the horrors of a dying hour? Was the hope
then cherished that you should meet her in yonder world, when
the trials of this short life are over? and did this hope support
your sinking spirits in tiie trying hour of separation? She has
gone forever; but ive are still prisoners of hope. Could we now
draw back the covering of the tomb, and listen to her language,
how earnestly would she beseech us to become reconciled to
God, and devote our lives wholly to his service. My dear M.
these are not idle dreams. If we reflect for a moment, we feel
conscious that there is an immortal principle witl»in, which will
exist when lime and nature dies. This principle is corruj^ed
by sin, and without the sanctifying grace of God, we should be
unhappy even though admitted to Heaven. Do but examine
the feelings of your heart one hour, and you cannot for a mo-
ment doubt the truth of this assertion. How important then
that we should have this work of grace begun in our hearts, be-
fore it is too late. "Now is the accepted time, now is tjie day
of salvation." Tomorrow our probation may be closed, and wc
may be irrecoverably lost. M. my heart is full. What induce-
ments can I offer you to receive Jesus into your heart, and wil-
lingly sacrifice your all for him? Oh think of the worth of the
soul, the price made to redeem it, the love of Immanucl, your
obligations to live to him,the joys prepared for the riglitcous; —
and Oh, think of the torments in reserve for the finally impeni-
tent and be induced to flee from the wrath to come. If noth-
ing in Providence prevents, before the return of another Au-
tumn, Harriet will be a stranger in a strange land. I go, my
friend, where heathens dwell, far from the companions of my
playful years, far from the dear land of my nativity. My con-
templated residence will be — not among the refined and culti-
vated, but among females degraded and uncivihzed, who have
never heard of the religion of Jesus. How would it gkulclcn my
sad htuart, in the trying hour of my departure, could I but leave
a dear circle of females of my own age, engaged for God, and
eminent for their usefulness in Haverhill. Well; I hope to find
a circle of Hindoo sisters in India, interested in that religion
which many of my companions reject, though blest with inuu-
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jnerable privileges. But my friend M.%ill not treat with in-
difference t/iis religion. Oh no: I will cherish the fond hope, that
she will renounce the world, become a follower of Imiiianuel,
and be unwearied in her exertions to spread the triumphs of the
cross through the world. I must leave you my dear M. with
God. May you become a living witness for him. When oui^
journey through this barren wilderness is ended, may we meet
in heaven. Harriet.
1811.
Oct, 10. I have this day entered upon my nineteenth year.
Oh how great the goodness of God which has followed me,
through the last twelve months! And shall I be wholly desti-
tute of gratitude? Oh no; let me this year, if my life should be
spifed, become a living witness for the truth, as it is in Jesus.
How great a change has the last year made in my views and
prospects for life! Another year will probably affect, not mere-
ly my firosjiects^ but my situation. Should my expectations be
realized, my dwelling will be far from the dear land of my na-
tivity; and from beloved friends, whose society rendered the
mornii^g of my life cheerful and serene. In distant India-—
every earthly prospect will be dreary.
"But even i/iere,- content can spread a chai*ni,
**Redress tjie clime, and all its rage disarm."
Oct. 13. How important is it, that I should be in a peculiar
•manner devoted to God, and dead to the world. I shall need a
large supply of the graces of the gospel, and of the consolations
of religion, to support me amid the numberless trials of a mis-
sionary life. When dangers stand thick around, and the world
is utterly incapable of affording me the least solid comfort —
what will sustain me, but entire confidence in God, as my shield,
my only sure defence? Oh my Father, let a sense of thy love
to my soul, influence me to yield implicit obedience to thy com-
mands;— and while this love is constraining me to walk in the
path which thou hast selected for me, may thy grace be sufficient
for me--.as my day is, so may my strength be.
Oct, 20. ''Soon 1 hope — I feel, and am assured,
"That I shall lay my head — my weary, aching head^
"On its last rest; and on my lowly bed,
'The grass green s^d will iiourislx sweetly." •-'
Letter to a Friend, 95
The perusal of the life, letters and poems of Henry Kirke
White, has been productive of much satisfaction. While I
have respected him for his learning, and superior talents, I have
ardently wished for a share of that pieiy, which shone so con-
spicuously in his life, and which rendered his character so in-
teresting and lovely. His ^'weary aching head,'* is now resting
in the silent tomb. Henry sleeps, to wake no more: But his
spirit, unconfined. is exploring the unseen world! O that his
example may affect my heart.
To Miss S. H. Aiidover.
Haverhill, Oct. 20, 18U.
Will my dear Miss H. pardon this seeming neglect, when
I assure her it has not been intentional? Did you but know how
numerous have been my engagements since I left Andover, I
feel confident that you would not indulge one hard thought. I
have thoug^ht much of you, and have often longed to see you.
The kindness you showed me while with you greatly endeared
you to my heart. I hope I shall ever recollect with gratitude
the unmerited favors, which you, Mr. and Mrs. W. and my oth-
er friends conferred upon me while in Andover.
This day has been spent in melancholy dejection and sorrow
of heart. The trials of a missionary life, united with my entire
unfitness for the undertaking, and the fear of being under the
influence of improper motives, have produced distress. But
the return of evening has dissipated the gloom, and I have been
led to rejoice in God, and willingly to surrender my eternal
all to him. Oh my friend, is there not a balm in Gilead? is there
not an all powerful physician there? Who can doubt of the abil-
ity and willingness of Jesus, to lead his dear children along the
green pastures and beside the still waleis? His sacred presence
will cause the sinking heart to rejoice, and diffuse gladness
around. Rightly is he styled Immanuel. Let us fly immedi-
ately to this hiding place — this covert from the storm and tem-
pest. In Jesus we are safe; though earth and hell combine
against us. What are the trials, what the agonica attendant on
this pilgrimage ^taic. In Jesus there is a fulness sufficient to
supply our every want, heuliujj for every wound, and a cordial
for every fear.
With the deepest interest I have lately read Buchanan's Re-
searches, You have probably read it. Has it not inspired you
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with an ardent missionary spirit? Can it be possible, that chris*
tians, after perusing^ this invaluable book, can help feeling a deep
concern for the salvation of the heathen, and a strong desire for
the promnlg^ion of the gospel throughout the world? How pre-
cious, how exceedingly valuable is the word of God. How con-
solatory to the believer to hear those, who were once prostrating
themselves before dumb idols, now exclaim with eagerness, "we
want not bread, we. want not money, we want the word of God."
A FAMINE FOR BIBLES — how swcct, and yet how painful the
expression. Surely this will lead us to estimate our glorious
privileges, in this christian land. Possessed of every means of
learning the character of God, and the way of salvation by a Re-
deemer, how can we complain? If ever the religion of the cross
has excited within us holy desires, oh let us not forget the des-
titute millions of Asia. God will be inquired of by his people to
do great things for the heathen world. How importunate then
should we be at the throne of grace, and none ever cried
imto God in vain.
Dear Miss H. I couW write an hour longer, but other engage-
ments prevent. We long to &ee you— long to hear from yoii
again. Do write us often. Mama sends much love — intends
writing you soon — thanks you for your last letter. Remember
me affectionately to dear Mr. and Mrs. W. — likewise to Mr. L.
and Mr. M.
I am dear Miss H. your affectionate Harriet. .
1811.
Oct. 25. How strong are the ties of natural affection! Will
distance or time ever conquer the attachment, which now unites
my heart so closely to my mother, the dear guardian of my
youth — and to my beloved brothers and sisters? Oh noj —
though confined to a foreign country, where a parent's voice
will no more gladden my melancholy heart, still shall that love
which is stronger than death, dwell within, and often waft a sin-
cere prayer to heaven for blessings unnumbered upon her.
Long shall remembrance dwell on scenes, past in the dear cir-
cle of Haverhill friends.
A^ov. 4. 'Tis midnight. My wavering mind would fain dwell
pn bome mournful subject. I weep — then sing some mc'an-
cho'ly air^ to pass av/ay the lingering moments. What would
Mrs, NeweWs Letter^. 97
my dear mother say, to see her Harriet thus involved in gloom?
But why do I indulge these painful feelings? Is it because my
iJ'a/'//*^ is unkind, and will not hear a suppliant's cries? Is he not
yvilling to direct my wandering steps — to guide my feet in the
paths of peace? Oh yes; his ear is ever open to the prayer of
the fatherless. Let me then go to him— tell him my all griefs,
and ask of him a calm and clear conviction of duty.
"Why sinks my weak desponding raiud,
Why heaves my soul, this heavy sigh?
Can sovereign goodness be unkind,
Am I not sate, if Gud be nigh?"
J\i''ov, 10. The rising sun witnesses for my heavenly Father,
that he is good. Oh yes; his character is infinitely lovely—
his attributes are perfect. I behold his goodness in the works
of creation and providence. But the beauty of his character
shines most conspicuously in the plan of salvation. In the Re-
deemer, beauty and worth are combined; And shall my heart
remain unaffected, amidst such an endless variety of witnesses
of the glory of God? Shall / be silent, for whom the Son of God,
on Calvary, bled and died?
Here the diary, from which the foregoing extracts have been
made, closes. But amid the various engagements, which occu-
pied the time of Mrs. Newell, and the many interesting sub-
jects of her contemplation, she continued a frequent correspon-
dence with her friends. The number of letters which she
wrote, from the age oi thirteai to her death was remarkable.
To Miss R. F. of Ando-ver.
Haverhill, Xov. 10, 1811.
How shall! sufficiently thank my dear Miss F. for her affcc-
tionate communication, received a short time since by Mr. Jud-
son? This was a favor which I had long wished for, but which
I had ever considered an unmerited one.
I have this day visited the sanctuary of the Most lligl). While
listening to the joyful sound of the gospel, my thoughts were
insensibly led to the forlorn and destitute state of the lualhen,
who ars? unacquainted with Bibka^ churches and , ^'abb.u/is. I
tJiought of the gloiious privileges, which tl.e inhabitants of
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this my christian country enjoy; and the thought afforded inde-
scribable pleasure. I reflected on the many millions of Asia
and Africa, and the reflection was full of anguish and sympathy.
Oh my fi'iend", when will the day dawn, and the day star arise in
pagan lands, where Moloch reigns, "besmeared with blood of
human sacrifice, and parent's tears." Oh when will the relig-
ion of Jesus, which has irradiated our benighted souls, be pro-
mulgated throughout the world? When will Christians feel
more concerned for the salvation of the heathen; and when will
the heralds of the gospel feel willing to sacrifice the soft de-
lights and elegancies of life, and visit the far distant shores,
ivhere heathen strangers dwell? Oh, when will those who have
an interest at the mercy seat, intercede for the wretched
heathen?
But my dear Miss F. though I sometimes feel deeply ai d
tenderly interested for the heathen, and even feel willing to
eontribute my little aid in the work of a mission; yet the trials
of such a life often produce a melancholy dejection, which noth-
ing but divine grace can remove. Often does my imugination
paint in glowing colors Uie last sad scerie of my departure from
the land of my nativity. A widowed mother's heart with anguish
wrung, the tears of sorrow flowing from the eyes of brothers and
sisters dear, while the last farewell is pronounced—this is a
scene affecting indeed. But this is only the commencement of
a life replete with trials. Should my life be protracted, my fu-
ture residence will be far distant from my native country, in a
land of strangers, who are unacquainted with the feelings of
friendship and humanity.
But I will no longer dwell on these sad subjects. I will look
to God; from him is all my aid. He can support his children
in the darkest hour, and cause their sinking hearts to rejoice.
He has pledged his word, that his grace shall be sufficient for
them, and that as their day is, so shall their strength be. How
consoling the reflection, that we are in the hands of God! He
can do nothing wrong with us: but if we are members of his
family,'all things will continually work for our good. Trials
will wean us from this alluring world, and prepare us for that
rest which is reserved for the righteous. And how sweet will
that rest be, after a life of toil and suffering. Oh how does the
anticipation of future bliss sweeten the bitter cup of life. My
friend, there h a world, beyond these rolling spheres, where
Mrs. NewelVs Letters. 99
adieus and farewells are unknown. There I hope to meet you
with all the ransomed of Israel, and never more experience a
painful separation.
The thoughts of such amazing bliss.
Should constant joys create. —
H. A.
To Miss F. W, of Beverly.
Haver /till, Dec. 13, 1811.
I HAVE long been wishing for a favorable opportunity to retura
my thanks to my dear Miss W. for her affectionate letter receiv-
ed last June. A multiplicity of avocations, which could not possi'-
bly be dispensed with, have deprived me of this pleasure till
now. But though my friends have been neglected, they have
not been forgotten. Oh no! dear to my heart, are the friends of
Immanuel; particularly those with whom I have walked to the
house of God in company, and with whom, I have taken sweet
counsel about things which immediately concern Zion, the city
of our God, These dear Christian friends will retain a lasting
and affectionate remembrance in my heart, even though stormy
oceans should separate me from them. There is a world my
sister, beyond this mortal state, where souls cemented in one
common union, will dwell together, and never more be separ-
ated. Does not your heart burn within you, when in humble
anticipation of future blessedness, you engage in the delightful
service of your covenant Redeemer? When your spirit sinks
within you, and all terrestrial objects lose their power topleaso,
can you not say,
My journey here.
Though it be darksome, joyless and forlorn,
Is yet but short; and soon my weai-} feet,
Shall greet the peaceful iiin of lasting rest;
The toils of this short life will soon be over.
Yes, my friend, we soon shall bid an eternal farev/ell to this
passing world, and if interested in the covenant, we shall find
the rest, which remaineth for the people of God. I thank yoa
sincerely for the affectionate interest you have taken in my fu-
ture prospect in life. I feel encouraged to hope that not only
your good wishes, but fervent prayers will attend my contem-
plated undertaking. I know that the earnest supplications of
the faithful will avail with God: Plead then, my friend, with
IQO Mrs. NewelVs Letters,
Jesus on my behalf. The path of duty is the only way to hap-
piness. I love to tread the path which my father points out for
me, though it is replete with ptivations and hardships. Who,
my dear Miss W. that has feit the love of Jesus, the worth of
souls, and the value of the gospel, would refuse to lend their
little aid in propagating the religion of the cross among the
wretched heathen, when presented with a favorable opportuni-
ty? However great the discouragements attending a missionary
life, yet Jesus has, promised to be with those who enter upon it
with a rigjit disposition, even to the end of the world. When
will the day dawn and the day star arise in heathen lands? Oh
when will the standard of the cross be erected, and all nations
hear of the glad tidings of salvaiion? When will the millennial
state commence, and the lands which have long lain in dark-
ness, be irradiated by the calm sunshine of the gospel? When
will the populous regions of Asia and Africa, unite with this
our Christian country in one general song of praise to GodI
Though darkness and error now prevail, faith looks over these
mountains, and beholds with transport, the dawning of the sun
of righteousness, the reign of peace and love.
The clock strikes twelve, I must leave you my friend, for
tired natu-re requires repose. Pray often for me. Write me
immediately upon receiving this hasty letter.
Affectionately yours, Harriet.
To Mhs H. I". And over.
Haverhill, D€c^29, 1811.
An hour this sacred evening, the commencement of another
Sabbath, shall be cordially devoted to my dear Miss F. Alone
and pensive, how can the moments glide more pleasantly away,
than in writing t© a friend whose name excites many endearing
sensations, and whom, from my first introduction to her, I have
sincerely loved. Similarity of sentiment will produce an indis-
fioluble union of hearts. How strong are the ties which unite
the members, of Christ's family? Wiiile dwelling in this the
house of their pilgrimage, they are subject to the same trials
and privations; and the same hope encourages them to look
forward to tlie happy hour of their release, when their weary
souls shall rest sweetly in the bosom of their God. Such I
. would fondly hope, is the nature of that union v»'hich so strong-
Mrs. NewdVs Letters. 101
ly cements my heart to Miss F. Oh that when "the long Sab-
bath of the tomb is past," our united souls may be safely anchor-
ed in the fair haven of eternal security, where friendship will
be perfected.
I have thought much of you since the reception of your kind
letter, I hope that divine grace has dissipated your doubts, and
that you are now enjoying all holy consolation. May you be
made eminently holy and useful, live near to God, and be favor-
ed with those rich communications of his love, which he often
bestows upon his children.
I have been reading this afternoon, some account of the su-
perstitions of the wretched inhabitants of Asia. How void of
compassion must be that heart which feels not for the woes of
its fellow mortals. When, my friend, will the day dawn and the
day-star arise in those lands, where the prince of darkness has so
Jong dwelt.
The hour is hastening, when I must bid an eternal farewell
to all that is dear in the land of my nativity, cross the boisterous
ocean, and become an exile in a foreign land. I must relin-
quish forever the friends of my bosom, whose society has ren-
dered pleas'^nt the morning of life, and select for my compan-
ions the uncivilized heathen of Hindostan. I shall shortly en-
ter upon a life of privations and hardships. "All the sad variety
of grief*' will probably be mine to share. Perhaps no cordial,
sympatlfising friend will stand near my dying bed, to admii ister
consolation to my departing spirit, to wipe the falling tear — the
cold sweat away, to close my eyes, or to shed a tear upon my
worthless ashes. But shall the contemplation of these adverse
scenes, tempt me to leave the path selected by my Heavenly
Father? Oh no? '4 can do all things through Clirist, who
strengtheneth me.'* This consideration, exhilarates my sink-
ing soul, and diffuses an ardor within, which I would not relin-
quish for all the splendors of this world.
You, my dear Miss F. will not forget to intercede with Jesus
in my behalf. You will pray for the wretched heathen of India;
this will lead your thoughts to those who have devoted their
lives to the >\ork of si)reading the gospel among them. \ou
will feel interested in their exertions; aiid as often as the suu
rises in the east, you will invoke for them the blessing and pro-
tection of the universal Parent.
10£ Mrs. NewelVs Letters,
When shall I be favored with another interview with
you? Will you not visit me this winter? I need not assure you
that it would be a source of the highest gratification. Prepa-
rations for a long voyage, together with visiting friends, has
prevented my answering your letter before. Do write me again
st)on — recollect that I have a special claim on your indulgence.
Affectionately yours. Harriet.
To Miss M. T. Gf .Vewbiiry,
• ' Boston^ Jan. 24i^ \^\2.
Neither distance nor time has been able to efface from my
3iiind the recollection of that affection, which I once so sincere-
ly professed to feel for you, my beloved M. My pen would
not thus long have lain inactive, had inclination been consulted.
No, be assured, that nothing less than important, indispensable
engagements has prevented me from acknowledging the re-
ceipt of your kind letter, which afforded me much pleasure. I
hear from my friend N. that you have been indisposed of late.
Such, my sister, is the lot of rebel man. Our world is doom-
ed to agonize in pain and sickness, the just desert of sin. Pil-
grims^ and strangers in a dry and thirsty land, where no living
waters flow, we, though so young, feel the heavy effects of the
iirst transgression. A composed and tranquil mind, a heart dis-
posed cheerlully to acquiesce in the dispensations of Heaven,
however trying, is desirable indeed. But this divine resigna-
tion is a gift of the Spirit. Miiy you be favored with a dispo-
sition to rejoice in God, not only when the calm sunshine of
prosperity illumines your dwelling; but also, when the dreary
tempests of afllictioD beat upon you. The night of sorrow,
though dark, is yet but short, if we are the children of the Most
High. As Kirke White beautifully expresses the sentiment,
'•Our weary feet shall ere long greet the peaceful inn of last-
ing rest.'* How sweet will be the rest enjoyed in that peace-
ful inn, after a life of repeated toil and sufferings for ChristI
Let this idea stimulate us to a life of exemplary piety.
If ever wc are favored with intimate communion with God,
and feel the value of that gospel which bringcth life and salva-
tion, let us compassionate the forlorn heathen. Let our souls
v.ecp for those, who are unacquaiiUtjd with the glad tidings?
wlio -spend their wretched lives in worshipping dumb idols;
V'^'iose lips have never bLcn vocal with redeeming love. Ohj
Mrs. Newell^s Letters, I0^>
vhen will the radiant star in the cast direct them to Keihlchcni!
Oh when will the high praises of InimanueJ, resound from the
lips of the Hindoo in Asia, the Hottentot of Africa, and the in-
hospitable Indian of our dear native America!
The glorious morn of the Millennium hastens. With an
eye of faith we pass the mountains, tlvat now obstruct the uni-
versal spread of the gospel, and behold with joy unspeakable,
the beginning of a cloudless day, the "rtign of peace and love.**
Shall we, my ever dear M. who fondly hope tliat we are the
lambs of Jesus' flock, be content to live indolent, inactive lives,
and not assist in the great revolution about to be effected in this
world of sin? Oh no; we will not let it be said, at the great
day, that one soul for whom the Son of God became incarnate,
for whom he groaned away a dying life, has perished through
our neglect. Let worldly ease be sacrificed; let a life of self-
denial and hardships be welcome to us, if the cause of God
may thereby be most promoted, and siii^^irs most likely to be
saved from destruciian.
Notwithstanding all the encouragements which the scriptures
afford to those who leave all things for God, and devote their
lives to his service, still, my heart often recoils at tlie evils ot
a missionary life. The idea of taking a last faix;\veil of f- lends,
and country, and all that is dear on earth (a few friends only ex-
cepted,) is exceedingly trying. \es, my friend, Hairict vill
shortly be an exile in a foreigp country, a stranger in a strange
land. But it is for God that I sacrifice all the comforts of u
civilized life. This comforts me; this is my hope, this my on-
ly consolation. Will M. think of me, will she pray for me,
when stormy oceans separate us? Will imagination ever waft
her to the floating prison or the Indian hut, where she, who was
once honored with the endearing appelKition of friend, resides?
May we meet in heavt-n, where fiiends will no more be called
to endure a painful separatior.. IVlny peace and happiness long
be inmates of M.'s breast. May she increase in the enjoyment
cf her God, as days and years increase. How can I wish her
more substantial bliss? Shall I not be favored with one more^
undisturbed interview with you? Shall I not give you a parting
kiss? Sliall I not say, Fareivell? Why mav 1 not spend the
little remnant of my days with you? Must 1 be separated? But
enough— my heart is full,— gladly would 1 fill my sheet with
Rrdent expressions of lasting friendship.^
104 3Irs. NeweWs Letters.
"But, hush, my fond heai't, hush,
^'There is a shore of better promise;
"And I hope at last, we two shall meet
"In Christ to part no more."
A few more letters will probably close our correspondence
forever. Wiii you write me immediately? M. will gratify me
if she loves me. Will you not visit Haverhill this winter? I
long to see you. I . cannot tell you how much I regretted the
loss of your society last summer. I have since been favored
with an introduction to your dear Miss G. A lovely girl.
Affectionately yours, Harriet*
To Miss S^ H. Andover,
Haverhill, Feb 3, IS 12.
The long expected hour has at length arrived, and I am called
to bid an eternal adieu to the dear land of my nativity, and en-
ter upon a life replete with crosses, privations, and hardships.
The conflicting emotions, which rend my heart, imagination
will point out to my dear Miss H. better than my pen can de-
scribe, them. But still peace reigns many an hour within.
Consolations are mine, more valuable, than ten thousand worlds.
My Saviour, my Sanctifier, my Redeemer is still lovely; his
comforts loill delight my soul. Think of Harriet, when cross-
ing the stormy ocean — think of her when wandering over Hin-
dostan's sultry plains. Farewell, my friend — a last — a long
. fare Vv ell V
May ive meet in yonder world, "where adieus and farewells
are a sound unknown."
Give dear Mrs. W. a parting kiss from Harriet.
Write to, and pray often for Harriet.
To Miss S. B. of Haverhill..
Haverhill, Feb. 1812.
AccFPT, my ever dear Sarah, the last tribute of heart-felt affec-
tion from your affectionate Harriet, which you will ever receive.
The hour of my departure hastens; when another rising sun
illumines the eastern horizon, I shall bid a last farewell to a
btloved widowed mother, brothers and sisters dear, and the
circle of Haverhill friends. With a scene so replete with
sorrow just at hand, how can I be otherwise than solemn as
Mrs. NewelVs Letters. 105
Eternity! The motives which first induceil mc to determine
upon devotmg my life to the service of Cioo in distant Indian
now console my sinking spirits. Oh, how valuable — how ex-
ceedingly precious — are the promises of the gospel.
Eighteen years of my life have been spent in tranquillity and
peace. But those scenes so full of happiness, are departed.
They are gone '-with the years beyond the flood'* — no more to
return. A painful succession of joyless days will succeed; —
trials, numberless and severe, will be mine to share. Home,
that dearest, szvcetest s/iot^ — friends, whose society has render-
ed the morn of life pleasant, must be left — foreverl The stormy
ocean must be crossed; and an Indian cottage in a sultry clime,
must shortly contain all that is Harriet. Perhaps no sympa-
thizing fiieiid will stand near my dying bed, to wipe the falling
tear, to administer consolation, or to entomb my worthless ash-
es when my immortal spirit quits this earthly tabernacle.
But why indulge these melancholy sensations? Is it not for
Jesus that I make these sacrifices — and will He not support
me by his grace? Oh, yes, my heart replies, he will.
"TUe sultry climes of India tlieu I'll choose;
There willl toil, and sinner's bonds unloose; ,
There \v ill I live, and diaw my latest breath;
And, ill my Jesus' service, meet a stingless death.'*
My Friend, there is a rest for the weary pilgrim in yonder
world. — Shall we meet Mere, — "when the long Sabbath of the
tomb is past?'*
Sarah — my much loved friend — farewell. Farewell — per-
haps forever. Though trackless forests separate — though
oceans roll between — Oh, forget not Harriet.
These were the last letters written by Mrs. Newell, before
her departure from America. On the 6th of Feb. 1812, wheij
the Missionaries were ordained, at Salem, Mrs. New^ell was
present. On that interesting occasion, she manifested remarka-
ble tranquillity and resolution. Feb. 19, 1312, with Mr. New-
ell, and Mr. and Mrs. Judson, she sailed fiom Salens, and
took leave, forever, of her native land, amidst lie prayers and
benedictions of multitudes.
The following diary, written on her passage to India, and
addressed to her mother, was lately, received.
14
106 Diary on her Passage to India,
1812.
March 9. To you, my beloved mother, shall these pages be
cheerfully dedicated If they afford you amusement, in a sol-
itary hour — if they are instrumental in dissipating one anx-
ious sensation from your heart, I shall be doubly rc>yarded
for writing. Whatever will gratify a mother so valuable as
mine, shall here be recorded, however uninteresting it might
be to a stranger. The first week after our embarkation I was
eenfined to my bed with sea sickness. This was a gloomy
week. But my spirits were not so much depressed as I once
expected they would be.. The attendants were obliging, and I
had eve'y convenience which I could wish on board a vessel*
Feb. 24, the vessel sprung a leak. We were in the greatest
danger of sinking during the night. The men labored almost
eonstantly at the pump. Capt. H. thought it best to alter the
eourse of the Caravan, and make directly for St. Jago. The
wind changed in the morning. In a day or two the leak was
providentially discovered and prevented from doing any fur-
ther injury. Though much fatigued, sleep departed from me.
It was indeed an interesting night. Though a sudden exit
from life appeared more solemn than ever before, yet I felt a
sweet composure in confiding in God, and in leaving the dis-
posal of my life wilh him.
We have no family worship, which we consider a great afflic-
tion. Sabbath forenoon Mr N. or brother J. read a sermon
and perform the other exercises of worship in the cabin.
The captain and officers favor us with their attendance. I have
found much enjoyment at these seasons, I often think on my
American friends, who are blessed with the privilege of at-
tending statedly on the means of grace. My thoughts were
particularly fixed on my brethren and sisters the first sabbath
in March. I thought that our dear pastor would not forget to
intercede with God for an absent sister, while sitting at the
communion table where I have often had a seat. I shall de-
vote much of my time to reading while on the water. There
is but a little variety in a sea life. I have noticed with pleasure
that many little articles, which I accidentally brought \yith me,
have contributed much to my comfort.
The vessel is very damp, and the cabin collects some clh^i,
Avh.ich renders it necessary ihat I should frequently change my
Dianj on her Passage to India. lOT
clothes in order to appear decent. I think I shall have clothes
enough for the voyage, by taViug a Ultle cure. We have hud
contrary winds and calms for ten days past, which will make
our voyage longer. How can it be that I wish for ihose winds
that waft me farther from my dear mother and all that I have
in my much loved native country. Surely this wish does not
originate from want of affection for my friends.
JViarch 10. We have prayers regularly, every evening in
brother J.'s room, which is larger and more convenient than
ours W^e have met another brig, bound to America, as we
imagine, but on account of contrary winds, which renders it
difficult to come near enough to speak with her, she has pro-
ceeded on her passage. This is the second vessel which we ^
have seen at a distance, going direct to America; but I have
not been favored with the privilege of sending letters to you.
Oh, how ardently do I long to tell you, just how I am at present
situated, and that I am happy and contented. We find there
is great danger of speaking with any vessel, lest it should
prove to be a French privateer. It is very difficult writing
to-day, on account of the constant motion of the vessel. The
Avind is favorable,— we go nearly seven miles an hour.
March 12. A heavy sea to-day;— the waves have repeatedly
broken on deck, and rushed with violence down the gang-way
into the cabin. Our room has not yet been wet.
March 14. I have been on deck, and seen the sailors take a
turtle They went out in a boat two or three miles, and took
it by surprise, with their hands. It weighs about twenty
130unds. We have learned how to make yeast. We have oc-
casionally flour bread-nuts-apple puddings-apple pics, See.
We have baked and stewed beans, twice a week, which you
know arc favorite dishes of n»ine,-also fowls, ham, Sec. A\ e
ilk tamarind water,-porter-,cider, S<c. I have been agr<.e.
ably disappointed respecting our manner of living at sea,
though we are not free from h.convenicnccs, by any mean..
Jarch 16. Yesterday morning, religious exeicis^s were per-
formed, as usual in th. cabin. Several pages in Law s be nous
Cll, read. My thoughts dwell on home, and n^y much lo ed
country, more intensely on the Sabbath, than on any other dz^y.
The sun liscs much earlier here than in Haveihill. At one I
,i,ink y.>u are going to Church. Dined on turtle soup ycsterdav.
108 Diary on her Passage to India.
do not like it. Saw a flying fish to-day — breakfasted upon it. Sev-
eral gales of wind last evening. I do not know why it is, that
I do not suffer more from fear, than I do. Cousin J. will tell
you, how dreary every thing appears, in a dark evening, when
the wind blows hard and the vessel seems to be on the point
of turning over. But we have been highly favored, the weath-
er has generally been remarkably pleasant.
March 17. I have just seen a third vessel, bound, as we have
every reason to think, to dear America. We came so near her
as to see the men walking on deck; But Capt. H. received par-
ticular orders to speak with no vessel on the passage. I have
a great desire, to send you, my dear mother, some communi-
cation. But this gratification, I must give up. Five weeks
yesterday, since I bid you adieu. Oh that you may never, for
one moment regret that you gave me up, to assist in so great,
so glorious a work. I w^nt more faith, more spirituality,
more engagedness in so good a cause. Possessed of these
blessings, I shall be happy, while crossing the tempestuous
ocean, and when I become an inhabitant of pagan Asia.
March 18. I am sometimes almost sick, for the want of ex-
ercise: I walk fast on the deck three times a day, which is the
only exercise I take. We have seen a number of flying fishes,
to-day, which look very pretty. We are now more than 3,000
miles from home. I shall ever find a melancholy pleasure in
calling my mother's house in Haverhill, 7nij hofne, though the
Atlantic floods roll between. Long may the best of Heaven's
blessings rest upon the dwelling, where I have spent my play-
ful years in peace, and where in riper age I have known what
tranquillity is, by happy experience; Long may my beloved
mother, and dear brothers and sisters, enjoy the blessing of
,iny ticavenly Faiher, and be strangers to uflliction and woe.
March 19. It is excessively warm to-day. We are now in
the torrid Zone; while my dear mother, brothers and sisters
are probably shivering over a large fire, I am sitting with the
window apd door open, covered with sweat. Brother and sis-
ter Judson are. asleep on one bed, Mr. N. lounging on another,
while I am writing. You know not how much I think of you
all — how ardently I desire to hear from you and see you. My
time passes more pleasantly, than ever I anticipated. I read,
aiKl sew, and converse at intervals; — rise early in the morning
Diary on her Passage to India. 109
—retire early at night. I find Mr. Newell to be every thing I
could wish for. He not only acts the part of a kind, affection-
ate friend, but likewise that of a careful, tender fi/iysician.
March 20. I have been into a bath of salt water this evening,
which ha^ refreshed me much. I think I shall bathe regularly
every other day. I often think of many ways in which I could
have contributed to your comfort and happiness, and that of my
other dear friends,while with you My mother, my dear another,
can you, will you forgive me for causing you so much pain, as I
surely have done in the course of my life, and for making you
so few returns for the unwearied care and kindness you havo
ever shown me. I think that if your heart is fixed, trusting in
God, you will find consolation, when thinking of my present
situation. You will be unspeakably happy in commending me to
God and the word of his grace, and praying for my welfare
in heathen lands.
March 21. A large porpoise was taken yesterday — Cousin J.
will describe this curious fish to you. — I have had a return of
my old complaint — ihe nervous head-ach. It has attended me for
two or three days very severely. I think it is in some measure,
owing to the confined air of our lodging room. This is one of
the greatest inconveniences to which we are subjected. When I
awake these extremely hot mornings, I often think of our large
cool chambers. The heat is not all. It is also attended with a dis-
agreeable smell occasioned by the bilgQ water which is pump-
ed out of the ship. But this is a light trial.
March 22. I have spent a quarter part of this holy day on
deck, reading, singing, conversing, Sec. I hope this has been a
profitable and joyful sabbath to my dear mother.
Oh how ardently do I long again to frequent the courts of
my God, and hear from his ambassadors the joyful sound of the
glorious gospel. But though in a humbler manner, yet I trust
we find his grace displayed towards us while meeting for his
worship— The weather is hot in the extreme— we are within a
few days sail of the line. I have not found a stove necessary
more than once or twice since I left the harbor. The weather
has been much warmer than I anticipated. But we keep pretty
comfortable in the air.
March 23. I cannot yet drink coffee or tea without milk.
We have water porridge night and morning, and sometimes
chocolate, which is very good. We have every necessary
110 Dmry on her Passage io India*
which is possible on the ocean. I am thankful, I feel no dis-
position to complain. I have for the roost part of the time
since we sailed, enjoyed a great degree of real happiness. The
everlasting God is my refuge.
March 24. Mr. Newell often regrets that he had no more
time to spend with you previous to our departure. He ofteft
says, Harriet, "ho\y I do long to see your dear mother.'* We
often look the way where Captain H. tells us Haverhill lies.
But alas, a vast ocean and the blue sky is all we can see. But
there is a land, my dear mother, where stormy seas cannot di-
vide the friends of Jesus. There I hope to meet you and all
my beloved friends, to whom on earth I have bid adieu. Oh that,
when the followers of the Lamb are collected from the East
and West, from the North and South, Harriet, an exiles in a dis.
tant land, with her j-nother, father, brothers and sisters, may be
united in the family of the Most High in heaven.
March 25. The weather is about as warm as the extreme
hot weather in America, last summer. Mama may possibly be
called to fit out another daughter for India. If so, I think some
improvement might be made upon her plan. We all feel the
"want of more thin clothes. We are told we shall not be likely
to suffer more from the heat in Bengal, than we do now. We
do not go more than a mile an hour. Are within 160 miles of
the Equator. This is dear little Emily's birth day. Sweet
child — will she ever forget her absent sister Harriet, whom
once she loved? Oh no; — I will not for one moment indulge
the thought. I cannot bear to think, of losing a place in the
remembrance of dear friends.
March 26. My attachment to the world has greatly lessened
since I left my country, and with it all the honors, pleasures,
' and riches of li^e. Yes, mama, I feel this morning like a pil-
grim and a traveller in a dry and thirsty land, where uo water
is. Heaven is my home — there I trust, my weary soul will
sweetly rest, after a tempestuous voyage across the ocean of
life. I love to think of what I shall shortly be, when I have fin-
ished my Heavenly Father's work on earth. How sweet the
4:houghts of glory, while I wander here in this waste wilder-
ness. I still contemplate the path into which I have entered
with pleasure, although replete with trials, under which, noth-
ing bur sovereign grace can support me. I have at times tlie
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most ardent desires to see you, and my other dear friends.
These desires, for a njomcnt, are almost insuppoi table. But
when I think seriously of the object of my undertaking-, and the
motives which first induced me, to give up all, and enter upon
it, I enjoy a sweet serenity of mind; a satisfaction, v.hich the
heaviest trials cannot destroy. The sacrifices which I have
made are great indeed; but the light of Immanucl's countenance
can enliven every dreary scene, and make tlie path of duty
pleasant. Should I at some future period be destitute of one
sympathizing friend, in a foreign sickly clime, I shall have
nothing to fear. When earthly friends forsake me, then "the
Lord will take me up." No anticipated trials ought to make
me anxious; for I know that I can do and suffer all things,
*'through Christ who strengtheneth me.'* In his hands I leaVe
the direction of every event, knowing that he who is infinitely-
wise and good, can do no wiong.
March 29. We crossed the Equator last night. The weath-
er still contioiies excessively hot. Heavy gales of wind, and
repeated showers of rain rendering it necessary for tiie captain
and officers to be on deck, we had no religious exercises in the
cabin.
March 31. It is six weeks, this evening, since we came on
board the Caravan. How rapidly have the weeks glided away.
Thus my dear mama, will this short life pass. Why then do
our thoughts dwell so much upon a short separation, when
there is a worId,where the friends of Jesus will never part more.
ji/2ril 1. Three sharks caught to-day. In their frightful ap-
peavance they far exceeded the description I have often heard
given of them.
ji/irii 7. The weather grows colder, as we draw nearer the
Cape Some Cape birds are seen flying on the water, called
Albatrosses — We have had a little piece of the gangway taken
into our room, which renders it much more pleasant and cool.
We can now sit together and read. — "SU. J. and N.'s room is.
large and convenient.
May 1. Again, my ever dear mother, I devote a few leisure
moments to you, and my beloved brothers and sisters. The
winds and tJjc waves aie bearing us rapidly away from America.
I care not how soon we reach Calcutta, and arc placed in a still
room, with a bowl of milk and a loaf of Indian bread. I can
hardly thiyk of this simple fare without exclaiming, oh, what ?.
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luxury. — I have been so weary of ibe excessive rocking' of the
vessel, and the almost intolerable smell after the rain, that I
have done lijLtle more, than lounge on the bed for several
days. But I have been blest with excellent spirits, and to-day
have been running about the deck, and dancing in our room
for exercise, as well as ever. What do some females do, who
have unkind husbands in sickness? Among the many signal
favors, I am daily receiving from God, one of the greatest is
a most affectionate partner. With him my days pass cheerful-
ly away — happy in the consciousness of loving and of being be-
loved. With him contented I would live, and contented I
would die. This nay mother, is the language of your Harriet's
heart.
We are in the latitude of the Cape. The weather is cold,
and will probably be so for a month — The last winter we shall
have — Ten weeks since we leit Salem — I often think and
often dream of you — Is mama happy? Ohl yes — blest with
the rich consolations of the gospel, she cannot be unhappy.
But mama, the heathen are wretched^ For their sake shall
not some Christians leave friends and country, cross the Atlan-
tic, and submit to many hardships, to carry them the word of life.
I do not repent, nor have I ever repented of my undertaking.
My health is as good as I could reasonably expect. When I
get to Calcutta, I will tell you more of that.
When in the exercise of right feelings, I rejoice that I. am
made capable of adding lo the happiness of one of Christ's dear
niissionaries. This is the sphere, in which I expect to be use-
ful, \yhile life is prolonged. This is what you calculated upom
and I am now happy in seeing this wish daily accomplished. In
heaven I hope shortly to recount to you the many toils of my
pilgrimage. My dear mother, and my dear brothers and sisters
iarewell for the present, — Lest I should forget, I 'mention it
now — request brother E. W. and all, who are interested enough
to inquire for me, to write me long letters. Oh! how accepta-
ble will American letters be. You unit think of it.
May 8. My dear Mr. N. has been ill this week past with
the dysentery — so ill that he has kept his bed the greater part
of the time. Should he fall a victim to this painful disease and
leave me alone in a strange land — But I will rot distrust the
care of my heavenly Fathc^r. I know he will never leave nor
forsake me, though a widowed stranger in a strange country.
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"The weather is rainy, the sea runs high, and our room is of-
ten overflowed with water. My heaUh has been remarkably-
good since Mr. N's sickness, and I have been able to attend up-
on him a little. But think mama, how painful it must be to
the feeling heart to stand by the sick bed of a beloved friend-
see him in want of many necessaries, which you cannot provide.
Four years to-day since my father's death. You, my dear
mother, have probably thought of it, and the recollection is
painful. Dear cousin C. has probably bi fire this time entered
the world of spirits; and perhaps more of my dear Haverhill
friends.
*'Tliis life's a dream, an empty show."
We find, that we. have taken passage in an old leaky vessel,
which perhaps will not stand the force of the wind and waves,
until we get to Calcutta. But if God has any thing for us to do
in heathen Asia we shall g( t there and accomplish it. Why
then do we fear? It is God,
**Who rides upon the stormy winds,
*'And manages the seas."
And is not this God our God?
May 10. Mr. MewelTs health is much improved. "I will bless
the Lord because he hath heard the voice of my supplications."
The weather is still cold and unpleasant. We are tossing about
on the stormy waves, and are subjected to the numerous incon-
veniences of a sea-faring life. We go at the rate of 160 miles
in 24 hours. We hope to reach our destined haven in six or
seven weeks.
Scarcely a night passes, but I dream of my dear mother,
brothers and sisters. My sleeping hours are pleasant. Doubt-
less mama sometimes dreams of Haniet. Does she not?
May II, I have been reading what I have written, and fear
that mama will conclude frofti some sentences, that I am not so
happy in my present situation, as siie could wish. It has never
been ray .intention to leave this impression on your mind. Be-
lieve me, my mother, in the sincerity of my heart I can say, that,
with a very few exceptions, I am happy all the day long. Though
I am deeply sensible of my want of many qualifications, which
would render a female highly useful among those of her own
sex in Asia, yet I delight in the thought, that weak and un-
qualified as I am, a sovereign God may see fit to make me the
inslrument of doing some good to the heathen, cither direcilv
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or indirectly. Recollect, mama, that happiness is not confined
to any particular situation.
The humble cottager may enjoy as much happiness, as the
king; on his throne. Blest with a competency, what more do
we want? T/iis God has hitherto granted me; and more than
this, he has often given me the enjoyment of himself, which you
know by happy experience is of greater value, than all this
earth can afford:
."Give -what thou wilt, without thee we are poor,
**And with thee ricli, take tvhat thou tvilt a-way?^
I think I never enjoyed so much solid peace of mind — never was
so free from discontent and melancholy, as since I have been
here; though I still retain a sinful heart, and often am led to
doubt the reality of my being personally interested in the cove-
nant.
May 14. You will not doubt but what my health is excellent,
when I tell you, that I eat meat three times a day with a very
good relish. I generally drink water-gruel morning and even-
ing, instead of coffee and tea. The gingerbread, which the ladies
in Salem made for us, is still good. But we find, that the crack-
ers, which capt. Pearson put up for us, have been, and still are,
more acceptable than any thing else, which we have. The pre-
serves, which I brought from home, v/ere almost useless. For
in a week or two after we sailed they grew mouldy, and I gave
them to the sailors. Those which Mrs. B. gave me kept very
w^ll. Mr. N. relished them much in his sickness. 1 wish to
thank her.
J\Iay 17. — Sabbath eve. This has been a pleasaiat day. We
assembled in the c \bin as usual, and joined in the worship of
God. I have enjoyed as much this day as I ever did in an
American churcli. Tlie presence of Jesus is not confined to a
temple made with hands. Many liundreds flock to his house
every Sabbath. The word preached does not profit them.
They go and return without a blessing; while the believing
two or three, who are gathered together in his name are favor-
ed with his presence. This thought often gives me great en-
couragement, when lamenting my long absence from the courts
of the Lord. "1 have loved the place where thine honor dwelleth."
Two albatrosses caught to-day. They are very pretty birds,
about the size of a goose. We shall have what we call a sea
pie made of ihcm. We all long to sse land again.
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May 20. This is probably a delightful month with you. ''The
winter is past, and the time of the singing of birds is come."
May health, peace and joy reside in my dear-loved native dwel-
ling. Oh! may my mother dear and all her children be favored
with those joys, which the gospel of Jesus aflbrds. Pray that
Harriet may possess them too, though far away from friends and
home.
May 21. How does our dear Church flourish? Is the little
flock which our dear pastor is attempting to direct to glory, in-
creasing in strength, piety, and numbers? And how is it with
the pious few, whom I left walking closely with God, like pil-
grims and strangers, and daily expectants of rest? O that I were
■with them, to speak a word to our dear sisters, and exhort them
to be faithful unto the end. But no — Mama, do not regard the
opposition of the world, or Satan; but Oh, be active, b»j engaged
in promoting piety around you. Oh, that I had done more for
Jesus, when with you — Oh that those evenings which were
spent in vanity, had been sacred to prayer! Tell cousin J. to ex-
ert every faculty of his soul for God.
May 22. How does dear little A. do? I should love to see
the sweet child. May he long live to comfoi t his parents, and
do good in the world! Our dear Mr. W. is probably now at
Haverhill. It would have been pleasant to see him once more.
Do give my love to him. Will he write me one letter? M. I
hope, has become very good, and is affording you much assist-
ance and comfort. C. likewise, and little E. I hope are gr6at
blessings to their dear mother. Do kiss all the children for me.
I shall expect letters from every one. I shall not ask for them;
for mama knows what I want- I cannot yet give up the idea cf
having a visit from you, when I get settled in my liltle Indian
hut. Perhaps E. S. or C. may accompany some Missionary to
Asia. If the mission-ship should be sent — but let mc stop. I
have thought more than ever, since I left home, that I shall re-
turn to America again, if deprived by death of my dear, dear
Mr. N. Oh that such an event mii^ht never hapi>cn. But life
is uncertain, particularly in burning India. I am trying to fa-
miliarize my mind to every aflliction. We often converse of a
separation. It is his wish, that I should return to you imme-
diately, should such an event take place; unices I am positive
of being more extensively useful among the hcatlicn.
May 24r. Hope my Haverhill friends have enjoyed as much
comfoi I as I have, this holy sabbath.
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May 29, Do you not think, mama, I have acquired a little
courage since I iefi nome? I have had two ttttti exiracted to°
day; ihey caiiie very n^rd; but I think I shall have all my de-
fective ones taken out.
May 31. We have, this evening, been reading some account
of Birmah. Never before did 1 so much ("eei my dependance
on God. We are going amoni^- a savage people without the
protection of a religious government. We may possibly, one
day, die martyrs to the cause, which we have espoused. But
trusting m God, we may yet be happy, inJinitcLy more happy,
than all the riches and honors of this world can make us, I
hope you will never indulge an anxious thought about us.
Pray often, and pray eacnesily for us. Oh how does the nope of
heaven reconcile me to a life of trials. VVhen my friends in
America' hear of n\y departure from this vale of tears, iei the
thought, that i am at rest in Jesus, influence them lo rejoice
rather than to v^cep.
June 7. The v.e^.tner grows warmer, and the beat will proba-
bly contiiiue to increase, until we reach Calcutta. But we have
fine winds, which render the weather comjortabie. Worship as
usual in the cabin to day. We have commenced and ended this
sabbath nearly at the same time with the Christians in India. If
mama and our other friends were now to look on the map, they
would see us in the torrid zone, passing near the fertile island
of Ceylon. The idea of being within some hundred miles of
]and is really pleasant. We have had sti'oug gales of wind, and
heavy rains, attended with thunder and lightning of Kue; — which
might terrify a heart, more susceptible of fseiiug than mine. I
know not how it is; but 1 hear the thunder roil^ — ^see tlie light-
ning flash; — and the wav.?s threatening to swallow up the vessel;
. — and yet remuiij unmoved.
June 9. We are now looking forward in exp xtation of short-
ly seeing the shores of Calcutta. The idea oi ai^uin waiking on
the earth, and conversing with iis inhubitc;:i s, is pleasing.
Though, as we often remark to each otiier, ., .6' may be the
pleasantest part of our lives. We do not calc ;.ate upon a life
of ease.
June 16. We have been packing some of cur things to-day.
Hope to reach port Sabbatii-day, if the winds prove favorable.
June 11. Some visitors from land to-day,— two birds and a
butterfiy. We suppose, tliat we are about one hundred miles
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from land. The weather unpleasant and rainy last night and to-
day. I dread rainy weather very much at sea. How docs dear
E. do? Is she a very good child? Do, dear mother, talk olicn
to the children about their sister Harriet. Do not let them for-
get me. I think much of dear sister E. How happy should I
feel, if she were with me. Dear girl! with what sensations do
I recal the scenes of other yearsl I hope that E. is happy Per-
haps ere this, she has given herself to God, and commenced a
serious and devout life. If this is the case, my heart congratu-
lates her. M> mother, shall so much loveliness be lost?
June 12. Rejoice with us, my dear, dear inother^ in the
goodness of our covenant God. After seeing nothing but sky
and water for one hundred and fourteen days^ we this mornintj
heard the joyful exclamation of '-Hand^ land!^* It is the coast of
Orissa, about twenty miles from us. Should the wind be favor-
able, we shall not lose sight of land again until we get to Cal*
cutta. We hope to see the pagoda which contains the Idol Jug-
gernaut, before sunset. The view of the Orissa coast, though
at a distance, excites within me a variety of sensations unknown
before. For it is the land of pagan darkness, which 13uc/ianan
so feelingly describes.
June 13. A calm. — Passed the temple of Juggernaut, and the
Black Pagoda — but the weather being hazy, we could not see
ihem. In the afternoon for the first time spoke a vessel. An
American ship from the Cape of Good Hope. It seemed good
to hear the voice of a human being not belonging to our num-
ber. Agreed to keep company during the night.
June ;4 No public worship ro-day. — I'he last night, a cleefi-
lessy — tedious one. — Sounded every huif hour all night. — TIic
water shallow, and of a dirty light green. — Suirounded by
shoals, — in perpetual danger of running upon ihejn. Many
vessels have been shipwrecked here, and in the Hoogly river.
May that God, who has hitherto been oui protector, biill stand
by us. — Anxiously looking for a pilot, but no vessel in sight — .
The ship and brig close by us. — Pleasant having company.
Spoke with the brig to-day — Owned by some one in Calcutta,
and manned by BtnguUees. I could see them distinctly- with a
spy glass. — Lost sight of land. — No sun fur three day*.
June 15. We anchored last night. — Dangerous sailing in this
place in the dark — providentially discovered a pilot's schooner
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this morning. Vessels are sometimes kept waiting ten days ov
more for a pilot. The pilot, an English lad, called the leads-
man, and thQ pilot's Hindoo servant, came on board, bag and
baggage. I should like to describe this Hindoo to you. He is
small in stature, about twenty years of age, of a dark copper
color. His countenance is mild, and indicates the most perfect
apathy and indolence. He is dressed in calico trowsers and a
white cotton short gown^ He is a Mahometan. I should not
imagine. that he had force enough to engage in any employment.
*June 16. Last night by sunset the anchor was thrown again.
A heavy sea; the vessel rocked violently all the evening. The
water, rushing in at the cabin windows, overflowed our rooms.
The birth is our only place of refuge at such times.
About eleven the cable broke, and we were dashed about all
night in continual danger of running upon some shoal. The
anchor was lost, yet we were miraculously preserved from a
sudden and awful death, by that God who rules the seas, and
whom the winds obey. I slept the greater part of the night
sweetly; though the dead lights were in, which made our room
excessively hot, and much confusion was on deck; all hands
hard 'at work the most of the night.^ — What a blessing, Oh my
mother, is health. Were I on land, I think no one would be so
free from complaints, as I. Even here, notwithstanding all the
fatigue to which I am unavoidably subjected, I get along sur-
prisingly.— Siiugor Island about two miles from us. This is the
island where so many innocent children have been sacrificed by
their parents, to sharks and alligators. Cruel, cruel! While I
am now writing, we arc fast entering the river Hoogly. — For
several days past, we have had frequent showers of rain. This
is the time at which the rainy season commences in Bengal. It
is the most unliealthy part of the year. The weather is not un-
comfortably warm.
12 o'clock. A boat filled with Hindoos from Cudjeree, has
just left our vessel. It is called a port-boat. They have taken
letters,'which will be sent post haste before us, to Calcutta.
These Hindoos were nakcd^ except a piece of cotton cloth wrap-
ped about their middle. They are of a daik copper color, and
with much more interesting countenances, than the Hindoo we
have now on board. They appeared active, talkative, and as
though they were capable of acquiring a knowledge of the Chris-
tian religion, if instructed. Their hair is black—some had it shav-
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ed off the fore part of the head, and tied in a bunch behind; that
of the otliers, was all turned back. 1 long to become acquainted
"with the Hindoo language.
1 o'clock. We are now so near land as to see the green
bushes and trees on the banks of the river. The smell of the
land air is reviving. We hear the birds singing sweetly in
the bushes.
5 o'clock. I wish my ever dear mother could be a partaker
of our pleasures. Were it in my power, how gladly would I
describe to you, the beauties of the scenery around us. After
passing hundreds of the Hindoo cottages, which resemble hay-
stacks in their form and color, in the midst of cocoa-nut, banana
and date trees, a large English stone house will appear to vary
the scene. Here will be seen a large white Pagoda through
the trees, the place where the idol gods are worshipped;
t/iere a large ancient building in ruins. Some Hindoos are seen
bathing in the water of the Ganges; others fishing; others sit-
ting at their ease on its banks; others driving home their cattle;
which are very numerous; and others, walking with fruit and
umbrellas in their hands, with the little tawny children around
them. The boats frequently come to our vessel, and the Hin-
doos chatter^ but it is thought best to take no notice of them.
This is the most delightful triaiy I ever had. We anchor in
the river to night, twenty-five miles from Calcutta. Farewell.
June 17. After a tedious voyage, we have, my dear mother,
arrived at Calcutta. We reached here yesterday, at three
o'clock in the afternoon. Mr. N. and brother J, went on shore
immediately, and returned in the evening. Tiiey called at toif
Police office, entered their names, called upon Dr Carey at
his dwelling-house at Calcutta, were cordially received, and by
him invited to go immediately to Serampore. They likewise
saw Mr. Marshman and Mr. Ward. I cannot say that our fu-
ture prospects are at present flattering, but hope before I send
you this, they will wear a different aspect.
Mr. N. and J. will go on shore again this morning; we hope
to be permitted to land and reside here for a sfaio/z, but know
not how it will be.
The English Eastlndia Company are violently opposed to mis-
sions; but 1 will tell you mere at some future time. Oh that their
hearts might be opened to receive tlie blessings of the gospel.
Oh my mother, my heart is pained within me at what I have al-
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ready seen of these wretched Pagans. Here we are, surrounded
by hundreds of them, whose only object is to get their rice, eatj
drink, and slegp. One of the writer cast, dressed in a muslin
Cuprah and white turban (which is the common habit of that
cast) who can talk Kriglish, has just left the cabin. His name
is Ram-Joy-Gos. Your pious heart, my dear mother, would
melt with compassion to hear him talk. Oh the superstition
that prevails through this countryl I am sure, if we gain ad*
mittance.into Asia, I shall plead harder with American Chris-
tians to send missionaries to these Bengal heathen, than ever a
.missionary did before.
Three miles from Calcutta, a nat;ive came with a basket of
plne-applesj plantains, (which taste like a rich pear,) a pot of
fresh butter, and several loaves of good bread—a present from
oneofCapt. H.'s friends. At night, I made di delicious mtdX
on bread and milk. The milk, though thin, was a luxury.
Yesterday and last night we were not uncomfortably warm, as
the day was cloudy, attended with a little rain. But to-day it is
excessively hot. I dare not go on deck, for I burned my face
so yesterday, that it is almost ready to blister; owing to my go-
ing on deck without a bonnet. You have heard of the natives
dying by being sun-struck.
I think 1 can say, I never felt better in America, than I do
here. Calcutta harbor is a delightful place. But we are
quite tired of the noise. The natives are as thick as bees; they
keep a continual chattering. I like the sound of the Bengalee
much.
June 18. Yesterday afternoon we left the vessel and were
conveyed \n a Palanquin through crowds of Hindoos to Dr.
Carey's.
No English lady is here seen walking the streets. This I do
not now wonder at. The natives are so numerous and noisy,
that a walk would be extremely unpleasant. Calcutta houses are
built almost entirely of stone. They are very large and airy.
Dr. C.'s house appeared like a palace'- to us, after residing so
Jong in our little room. He keeps a large number of Hindoo
servants. Mrs. Carey is very ill at Serampore. The Doctor
is a imall man and very pleasant. He received us very cor-
dially. This morning we saw some of the native Christians.
Ram' Mo Lund was one. They cannot talk English, A son of
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Br. C — 's is studying law at Calcutta. He is an amiable young
man. An invitation to go to Scrampore to-tnorrow.
June 20. At Serampore. We came here last evening by
water. The dear missionaries received us with the same cor-
diality, as they would, if we had been own brothers and sisters.
This is the most delightful place I ever saw. Here the mis-
sionaries enjoy all the comforts of life, and arc actively enj^at^ed
in the Redeemer's service. After a tedious voyage of lour
months at sea, think, my dear mother, how grateful to us is thia
retired and delightful spot. The mission house consists of four
large, commodious stone buildings. Dr. Carey's, Dr. Marsh-
man's, Mr. Ward's, and the common house. In the last we ar«
accommodated, with two large spacious rooms, wjth every con-
venience we could wish. It has eight rooms on the floor, no
chambers; viz. the two rooms above mentiohed, with two other
lodging rooms, the Dining Hall, where a hundred or more eat,
a large elegant chapel, and two large Libraries. The buildings
stand close to the river. The view of the other side is de-
lightful.
The garden is larger and much more elegant, than any I
ever saw in America. A few months since the printing ofRce
was destroyed by fire. This was a heavy stroke; but the print-
ing is now carried on very extensively. There is a large num-
ber of out buildings also; the cook house, one for making paper,
&c. &c.
Jun€2\. Mr. N. preached this morning in the mission chapel.
Mr. W. in the afternoon in the Bengalee language to .tbout
fifty Hindoos and Mussulmen. This afternoon, I shall ever
recollect with peculiar sensations. The appearance of the
Christian Hindoos when listening to the ward of life, would
have reproved many an American Christicin. Had you been
present I am sure you could not have refrained from weeping.
Had an opposer of missions been present, his objections must
have vanished. He would have exclaimed, v.hat hath God
wrought! To hear the praises of Jesus sung by a people of
strange language; to see them kneel before the throne of grace;
to behold them eagerly catching every word which proceeded
from the mouth of their minister, was a joyful, afreciing bccnc.
Rejoice, my mother; the standard of the blessed Immanutl is
erected in this distant pagan land; and here the j^^ospel will un-
doubtedly continue, till the commencement of the bright ir.il-
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lennial day. In the evening Brother J. preached. HowpTecious
the privileges I now enjoy.
June 22. I have every thing here which heart could wish,
but American friends. We are treated with the greatest pos-
sible kindness. Every thing tends to make us happy and excite
our gratitude. You would love these dear missionaries, could
you see them.
June 24. I have just returned from a scene, calculated to
awaken every compassionate feeling. At nine in the morning
we'took a budgerow^ and went three or four miles up the river
to see the worship of Juggernaut. The log of wood was taken
from his pagoda and bathed in the sacred waters of the Ganges,
The assembled worshippers followed the example; and thous-
ands flocked to the river, where with prayers and many super-
stitious rites, they bathed. Miserable wretches! Oh that Amer-
ican Christians would but form an adequate idea of the gross
darkness which covers this people.
July 14. A letter from Calcutta informs us that the Frances
"vvill sail for America in a day or two. With this information I
must be expeditious in writing. As the Caravan will sail in a
short 'time, I shall neglect writing now to many of my dear
fr lends, iovihowi \ shall then be very particular. I hope the
contents of this little book will be gratifying to my dear mother.
She will remember that they were written while the events
were passing, and that they were the feelings of the moment.
You will therefore feel disposed to pass over all errors, and
think it like the private conversation of one of your daughters.
I am sure I love my dcar<t dear mother^ and my beloved broth-
ers and sisters; and all my dear American friends , as well now,
as I did on the morning when I took my last farewell of liome*
I long to hear from .you all. Whenever you think of me, think,
I am happy and contented; that I do not regret coming here.
But life \^uncertain especially in this country Should God in
judgment, remove far from me lover, and the best o'i friends^
and leave your Harriet a lonely widow in this land of strangers^
say /rty mother, ever dear, shall I be a v^eicoHie child in your
house? 1 know not what would be my feelings, should such un-
known trials be mine. Perhaps I might feel thut here I ought
to stay. But I Avant to feel, that a mother's house and a motiier's
arrnsy^vc open to receive me, should my all be removed before
xne into the land of darkness. Assurance of this gives me joy.
Mrs. NewelPs Letters from India. 12^3
^y dear mother, unite with me in praising God, for one of
the best of husbands. Oh what would have been my wretched-
uess^ad I found Mr. N. a cold inattentive partner. But he is
all that I could wish him to be. Do give much love to all my
friends in Haverhill. I cannot stop to particularize them.
They are all dear to me, and 1 shall write to many of them by
the Caravan, Bear mother^ if I suppose you had one anxious
thought about me, I should not feel happy. I think I see you
surrounded by your dear family, taking comfort in their society,
and blessing God for one child lo consecrate to the work of a mis-
sion. Oh that you might find the grace of Jesus sufficient for
you. As your day is so may your strength be. Trust in God;
he will support you under every trial. 1 hope to meet my dear
mother and brothers and sisters in heaven, where we shall never
be separated.
Farewell my dear^ dear mother. May you enjoy as large a
^hare of earthly bliss, as your God shall see best to give you;
and Oh that the joys of that g^afiely of which the heathen are ig-
norant, may be yours in life, and in the solemn hour of dissolu-
tion.—i^arewt//. — A letter lo our dear Miss H. almost finished,
lies by me; — will be sent by the Caravan. One to Mr. Dodge
likewise. Love to both. Harriet Newell.
The first of the following letters was begun at sea, and finisU,-
ed after her arriral in India.
Jfiril 14, 1812.
On board the Caravan — at Sea.
My dear Mrs. K.
Most sensibly do I feel the loss of the society of my Christian
friends in Haverhill, with whom I often took sweet counsef.
How repeatedly have I commemorated tlie ^leath of the blessed
Jesus at his table with my sister and friend, my ever dear Mrs.
K. The ties are still strong which attacii my heart to her; and
though I no more anticipate another meeting with her on earth,
yet I hope to sit with her at the gospel feast in Heaven, wlicre
all parting tears will be wiped away. Two months this day since
I left my native shores and became a resident of this floating
prison. The change has been great indeed which the last
months have effected in my situation. Many have been the in-
conveniences and privations, lo which I have been subjected.
124 Letier io Mrs K.
I have relinquished a life of ease and tranquillity in the bosonr
of my relatives and friends, for the hardships of a voyage across
the Atlantic, /ind a habitation in an unhealthy clime among
heathens. But I am far from being unhappy. I have found
many valuable sources of enjoyment, and believe I can say in
the sincerity of my heart, that notwithstanding my separation
from every object which once I loved, yet I never was happier
or more contented in my life. In one bosom friend 1 find the
endearing qualities of a parent, a brother, and a husband, all
united. This sympathy alleviates every sorrow — his prayers dif-
fuse joy and consolation through my heart; and while he les«
sens my earihiy giiefs, he points me to that world, where the
weary are at rest.
June 9, lat. lOMong. 36o.
We are rapidly advancing to the place of our destination. A
few days more will probably land us on the shores of Asia. I
feel, my dear Mrs. K. a mixture of pleasing and melancholy sen-
sations, as I approach nearer Calcutta. Melancholy, because I
can see none of my friends there, and it is an unhealthy, sultry
region, which the gospel has never illuminated; — pleasing, be-
cause- a hope is indulged that ere long the darkness of pagan-
ism will be scattered, and the news of salvation be diffused far
and wide.
My health has been remarkably good, since we crossed the
equator the last time. This I consider a very great blessing,
and some encouragement, that I shall enjoy the same favor in
India. The weather is excessively hot; the nights are very un-
comfortable, owing to the confined air of our rooms. But wha-t
is this compared with India? The recollection of departed
pleasures often casts a gloom over my present enjoyments. "I
think of the daysof.other years, and my soul is sad." How does
dear Haverhill, my much loved native town, appear. How are
its dear inhabitants? How is the little flock of Jesus, of which
you are a member? How flourishes that dear society of praying
females^ How is our dear pastor? Are the weekly conferences
continued? Are there many who attend them? Are ther^ many
inquiring the way to Zion? Are there any new converts to the
power of truth? Are there numbers daily added to the* Church
of such as shall be saved? Were I with my dear Mrs. K. how
• gladly would I particularize. But I must stop. In one or two
^^ears, I may have an answer to these questions. Oh that it
Letier to her Brother, 125
might be such an answer, as will gladden my heart, and cause
our little Mission band to rejoice. 1 hope that it will not be
long before glad tidings from the East, will give you joy.
Oh that this infant Mission might ever live before God. May
that quarter of the globe, where so many wonderful transactions
have been performed, be filled with the glory'of God. Oh that
the standard of Immanuel's cross were already erected in Heath-
en Asia, and that Mahometans and pagans were prostrated before
it. I cannot but hope that the labors of our missionary breth-
ren will be abundantly successful in winning souls to Christ*
and that we shall afford them some comfort and assistance in
the arduous, but glorious work.
June 16.
My dear Mrs. K. I think will congratulate us on again seeing
land. I have been walking on deck, and have seen a boat filled
with Hindoos approach our vessel. I like their appearance
much, and feel more reconciled to the idea of living among
them than ever before. My heart burns within me while I
write. O my friend, will these degraded pagans ever be brought
to Jesus?
Serampore^ Julij 14.
I have not time to review what I wrote you my dear Mrs.
«K.. on board the Caravan, but send it you full of errors, with a
promise to write you shortly again by vessels which will soon
go to America, Do let me hear from you, I long to have let-
ters from Haverhill. You will be kind enough to visit my dear
mother often, and console her with your pious conversation. I
think much of her. Oh that Jesus would support her under all
her trials. Dear woman! — Mrs. K- do not forget me, though I
am far away. Let me have your prayers, and the prayers of all
my Christian friends in America. A short farewell. Affec-
tionately yours, Harriet.
Respects and love to your dear mother and sister, and all
other dear friends.
To her Brother J. member of Yale College.
Mission House ^ Seramfiore^ June 27, 1812.
I HAVE just received the welcome intelligence that a vessel,
bound to America, will sail in a few days. With sensations oi
pleasure unknown before, I have taken my pen to address a
'•rotber, who, though far distant, is ur.speakal.ly dear to my heart.
126 Letter to her Brother*.
I cannot tell you how I long to see you; nor how much joy at
letter from you would give me. Neither distance, nor a long
absence, has in, the least diminished my affection for you. No;
tny brother, although the pathless ocean rolls between, and I no
more anticipate another interview with you on earth; yet I love
you, ardently and sincerely love you. Your happiness will ever
make me happy. I sometimes indulge the fond hope that AJ-
mighty grace iviil incline your heart to visit this distant heathen
clime, and here proclaim the joyful news of salvation to multi-
tud'es of jdying Pagans, immersed in superstition and wretched-
ness. But if this laborious part of the vineyard should not be
assigned you; Oh that your days might be spent in winning
souls to Jesus, in happy America, where you can enjoy ease and
security, in the bosom of your friends. — I feel assured that my
dear brother will be gratified by a recital of the various scenes
through which I have passed, since I bid a last farewell to our
dear maternal abode, and left my country. I suffered all the
horrors of sea-sickness the first week after 1 left Salem harbor.
At the c.onclusion of the week we were, one dark and stormy
night, alarmed by the intelligence, that our vessel had sprung a
leak, and that, unless Providence interposed, we should sink in
twenty-four hours. In this trying hour I thought of death, and
the thought was sweet. Nothing, but anticipating the long-con-*
tinued anxiety and distress of my dear American friends, made
such a sudden exit from life, in s7ich an awful manner, melan-
choly and painful. Biit God, who is rich in mercy, interposed
in our behalf the following day, by sending a favorable wind,
which enabled the mariners to repair the vessel, when their
strength was nearly exhausted by long pumping. We proceed-
ed on our passage with pleasant weather— favorable winds — few
heavy gales, — until -we reached the Cape of Good Hope. The
weather was then cold and boisterous — the sea rough, and our
room was repeatedly overflowed with water. The newly dis-
covered shoals round the Cape rendered this part of the voyage
extremely dangerous. The first land we saw was the Orissa
coast, 114 days after sailing. The sight of the adjacent country,
after we entered the river Hoogly, was beautiful beyond de-
scription. Leaving America in the winter, and for a length of
time seeing nothing but sky and water, think what must have
been our delight to gaze upon th^ trees, the green grass, the little
thatched cottages of the Hindoos resembling a stack of hay, the
Letter to her Brother. 127
elegant buildings of the English, the animals feeding, and the
Hindoos themselves rambling near the shore. My friend Nancy
and I were detained two days on board the Caravan, after our
arrival at Calcutta. This was a time of great confusion. The
Hindoos, of every class, flocked around our vessel like bees
round a hive. We were carried in Palanquins to the house of
Dr. Carey, Professor at the College at Fort William of ihc Ori-
ental Languages. ^ No white female is seen walking in the
streets, and but few gentlemen. English coaches, chaises,
chairs, and palanquins are numerous. Every street is thronged
with the natives. If you ride in a chaise, it is necessary for a
Hindoo to run before to clear the way. The houses in Calcutta,
and indeed all the buildings, the Hindoo huts excepted, arc
built with stone, or brick, whitewashed. These are lofty, and
have an ancient appearance. Some of them are very elegant.
There are many half English children in Calcutta. There is a
charity school close by Dr. Carey's, supported by subscription,
managed by the Baptist Missionaries, consisting of about 100
Portuguese children. Here they enjoy the benefit of religious
instruction. We attended the English Church one evening.
This is an elegant building. The Friday after our arrival, we
took a boat and came to S^rampore — 15 miles from Calcutta.
This is a delightful place, situated on the river Ganges. It is
inhabited chiefly by Danes. This retired spot is best calculated
to prepare us for our future trials, and our arduous work.
There are five large buildings belonging to the Mission; viz.
the printing office, the common house, Dr. Carey's, Dr. Marsh-
man's, and Mr. Ward's dwelling houses, besides several conve-
nient outhouses; one for making paper, one for cooking, Sec.
Sec. There is one of the most delightful gardens here I ever
saw. It contains a large number of fruit trees, plants, flowers,
Ice. The fruit is not as good as ours. Mangoes, plantains>
pine apples, cocoa nuts, are very plentiful now. Dr. Carey
spends most of his time at Calcutta. Mr. and Mrs. Marshman
have large schools of Englisli and half English children — about
eighty in both schools. The boys are instructed in Chinese and
other languages. These children all eat with us in the hall,
and attend prayers morning and evening in the mission chiipcl.
l^lany of them are sweet singers. Mr. Ward superintends the
V printing. Here a large number llf Hindoos are employed. Mr.
W^rd has the care of providing foi' the whole Mission family.
128 ; Letter to her Brother.
Servants are numerous. This is necessary, for their religion
will not permit them to do but one kind of work: For instance^
one servant wilj sweep a room; but no persuasion will be suffi-
cient to make him dust the things. The church of Christian na-
tives is large. It is a delightful sight to see them meet together for
the worship of God. The missionaries preach to them in Ben-
galee. They sing charmingly in their language. We went
in a budgerow (a boat with a little room in it» cushions on each
side, and Venetian blinds,) the 24th of this month, to see the
worship of the Hindoo god, Juggerr aut) a few miles from Se-
rampore. They took the idol, a frightful object, out of the pa»
goda, and bathed him in the water of the Ganges, which they
consider sacred. They bathed themselves in the river-— repeat-
ed long forms of prayer— .counted their fingers — poured muddy
water down their children's throats, and such like foolish, super-
stitious ceremonies, in honor of their god. Thousands on thou-
sands were assembled to perform these idolatrous rites. In wit-^
nessing these scenes, I felt more than ever the blessedness —
the superior excellence of the Christian religion. The Hindoos
are very well formed, — -straight black hair, — small, — near a
copper color. Their dress is cool and becoming. It consists
of white muslin, or cotton cloth wrapped about them. Some
wear white muslin turbans. I shall write you again, my dear
brother, by the Caravan, and other vessels which will shortly
sail to America. I can then give you a more correct history of
the Hindoos, the manners and customs of this country, &c.
You will wish to know whether I regret coming to this distant
land. I do not; but feel an increasing satisfaction, in thinking
of my arduous undertaking'. Since I have been an eye witness
of the idolatry, and wretchedness of the Asiatics; and find it con-
firmed by the long experience of the Baptist missionaries,
whose names will be remembered with honor, by the latest gen-
erations, that females greatly promote the happiness and useful-
ness of missionaries, I am inclined to bless God for bringing me
here. I have not as yet bad sufficient trials to shake my faith,
providence has smiled upon us, and we know but little of the
hardships of a mission. But we shall shortly leave these abodes
of peace and security, and enter upon that self-denying life,
among a savage people, upon which wc calculated when we left
our' native country. It is not determined where our future \oi
will be oast. With respect to my connexion with^Mr. Neweilv
Letter to her Brother. 129
)ct me tell you that I am, and ever have been, perfectly satisfied
with my choice. He is all that I could wish; — affectionate,
obliging, attentive; and in one word, every way deserving of my
strongest attachment. It shall be my study through life, to ren-
der him happy and useful in the fatiguing path which he has
selected. Oh, that God would grant me the accomplishment of
my wishes, in this, respect. I have enjoyed far better health
than I expected, when I left home. I have been miraculously
supported through the fatigues of our tedious voyage. Tliis is
the rainy, hot season, and the most unhealthy in the year; but
I think I never felt better in America; though many around us
are suddenly dropping into eternity. There have been ten
deaths, in the mission family the last year. This is a sickly,
dying clime. You are probably still at New Haven, I hope
making great proficiency in your studies, and preparing for em-
inent usefulness in the world. Oh my brother, shall we meet
in heaven — or shall we be separated forever? Let us be soli-
citojus to obtain an interest in Jesus, whatever else we lose.
When the glad tidings reach this distant land, that a brother of
mine, dear to my heart, has been redeemed from eternal woe,
and become a disciple oi the blessed Immanuel; Oh how will
this delightful intelligence make me rejoice! how will it glad-
den the days of separation! I long to see our dear mother. Do
your utmost, my dear John, to make her happy. The thought
of meeting her, in a world where there will be no parting, is
sweet. All my beloved brothers and sisters will ever be dear
to me. I cannot tell you, how much I think of you all. I feel
much happier than ever I expected to feel, m this heathen land.
I am glad I came here; I am glad that our dear mama was so
willing to part with me, and that no opposition prevailed with
me to relinquish the undertaking. Let me hear from you, my
dear, by every vessel bound to Asia. You know not how large
a part of my happiness will consist in receiving letters from my
American fi'iends. Every particular will be interesting. For
the present, I must bid you farewell. May pu be distinguished
for your attachment to the cause of Jesus, and be made an emi-
nent blessing to your dear friends, and to the world. Oh that by
sanctifying grace you might shine as a star of the first magni-
tude in heaven, when dismissed from this life of toil and pam-
Farewell, my dear, ever dear brother, a short farewell. While
I live I shall ever find pleasure, in subscribing myself youi'
affectionate sister, Harriet Newp.ll.
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130 Letters from India,
Extracts of a letter to her Sister M. at Charlestown,
Seramfiore^ June^ 1812.
*'I HAVE found,* my dear sister, that the trifling afflictions I
have already had, have been more sanctified to me, than all the
prosperity of my former life. They have taught me that this is
a state of discipline, that permanent bliss must proceed from
God alone, and that heaven is the only rest that remains for the
children of God.
"While I write, I hear the dear christian natives singing on&
ofZion's songs in the mission chapel. The sounds are melodi-
ous they remind me of that glorious day, when the children of
Jesus, collected from christian and heathen lands, will sing the
song of Moses and the Lamb, on the blest plains of the new Je-
rusalem."
Letter to Mrs, C. of Boston,
Calcutta^ June, 1812.
The last request of my dear Mrs. C. (wheiT quitting the belov-
ed land of my nativity,) and the sincere affection which I feel
for her, are my principal inducements for rankin^T her among
the number gf my American correspondents,
"I have witnessed scenes this morning calculated f9 excite
the most lively sensations of compassion in the feeling' ^i"^*
My heart though so often a stranger to pity has been j^ained
within me. Weep, O my soul, over the forlorn state of the be-
nighted heathen; and, O that the friends of Immanuel iny^f
Christian country would shake ofF their criminal slothfulnci^s,
and arise for the help of the Lord against the mighty, in land^
where the prince of darkness has long been adored. The wor*
ship of the great god of the Hindoos has this day been cele-^
brated. We were apprised yesterday at sunset of its near com-
mencement, by the universal rejoicing of the natives; which
lasted through the night. This morning we went in a bud-
gerow* to see the worship. Between fifteen and twenty
thousand Vvorshippers were assembled. The idol Juggernaut
^vas taken from his pagoda, or temple, and bathed in some wa-
ter taken from the river Ganges, and then replaced in his for-
mer situation with shouts of joy and praise. This I did not see,
the crowd was so great. After this, the people repaired to tlie;.
* A kind of boat-
Letters from India, 131
river side, where they bathed in the sccr^rf waters, said their
prayers, counted their fingers, poured the muddy water down
their infants' throats, and performed many other super-
stitious ceremonies with the utmost solemnity, and with coun-
tenances indicative of the sincerity of their hearts. Many of
the females were decked with garlands of flowers, nose jewels,
large rings round their wrists, 8cc. Some deformed wretches
and cripples attracted our attention, and excited our compas-
sion. One man bent almost to the ground was supported by
two of his companions, to the holy Ganges. There he doubt-
less hoped to wash away the pollution of hi^ heart, ignorant of
the blood of Jesus which does indeed cleanse from all sin. O
that an abler pen than mine would delineate to my dear Mrs.
C this idol worship. Surely her pious heart would be filled
with tender sympathy for these benighted Asiatics, and her
prayeFs would become more constant, more fervent, for the in-
troduction and spread of the blessed gospel among them.
Gladly would American believers leave the healthy civilized
land of their birth, and spend their lives in preaching Jesus to
the natives of India, did they but know how wretched, how ig-
norant, they are, and how greatly they need the gospel. Do
Christians feci the value of that gospel which bringeth salva-
tion.
"Let us leave the melanchcrly subject, and turn to one calcu-
lated to fill our minds with holy joy and devout thanksgivings
to God? In this land of darkness, where the enemy of souls
reigns triumphant. I see the blessedness of the Christian
religion. Yes, my friend, there is in heathen Asia a favored
spot, where the darkness of heathenism is scattered, and the
benign influences of the Holy Spirit are felt; Here Jesus has a
people formed for his praise, redeemed by his precious blood
from eternal woe, and made heirs of bliss everlasting. Bleas
the Lord, O our souls* and ail that is within its, bless and
praise his holy name. Last Sabbath afternoon I shall ever re-
member with peculiar emotions. Mr. Ward a missionary
blessed and beloved of our God, preached in Bengalee to a
large collection of Hindoos and Mahometans. The dear con-
verted natives appeared to enjoy the precious season greatly.
To hear them join in singing one of Zion's songsj — to see them
Kneel before the throne of almighty grace, — and listen with ea-
gerness to the word of life, was sufficient to draw tears of joy
132 Letters from India,
from eyes which never wept before. After service each dear
Christian Hindoo of both sexes came to us with looks expres-
sive of their joy to see new missionaries; and, offering us their
hands, they seemed to bid us a hearty welcome. I said to my-
self, such a sight as this would eternally silence the scru-
ples, and the criminal opposition to missions, of every real be-
liever. While such persons would intercede for the success of
Missionaries, and praise the Lord for what he has already done
for these once degraded wretches, they would weep and repent
in dust and ashes for their former criminality. O that every
American might be prevented by sovereign grace from oppos-
ing or discouraging those who feel willing to engage in this
work, lest the blood of the heathen, at the last day, should be
required at their guilty hands.
"Last evening, while thousands were preparing for the im-
pure and idolatrous worship of Juggernaut, the native Chris-
tians assembled at the missionary chapel for prayer. Their
cngagedness in prayer, though I could not understand a word
fhey said, made a deep impression on my mind.
To Miss S. H, of Andover»
SeramfioreiJune'27^\S\%,
I HAVE taken my pen with an intention of writing my dear Miss
H. a very long letter. I know she will not expect the ivifeoi si.
missionary to study correctness of style, or to make her hand
writing appear beautiful; the easy, unreserved, unstudied style
of a friend will better suit her. "They that cross the ocean
change their clitnate^ but not their minds.** This is confirmed
by my own experience. In this distant heathen land, far from
the dear spot of my birih, my attachment to my American
friends is as strong as ever. Those whom 1 once loved, I now
sincerely, strongly love, though the anticipation of meeting
them ag^in in this world is totally relinquished. But would you
infer from this^ that a separation from the friends I love so
dearly renders me unhappy? Far otherwise, my dear Mis^H-
Let me assure you (and do you remember it for the encourage-
ment of those females who anticipate walking in the same path,)
that 1. never enjoyed more solid happiness,— never was so free,
from discontent and anxiety, as since I left my native country.
It is true I have suffered 7nany privations and inconveniences?
Leit&i^s frojn India. 133
£iid some hardships. But I have likewise had many blessings
and found valuable sources of pleasure, which I did not expect.
Since I have been in India, every wish of my heart, as it re-
spects temporal things, has been gratified. The voyage was
tedious, but remarkably short. We were blest with a com-
mander, who treated us with uniform respect, kindness, and
attention. Our accommodations were good, and we spent many
happy hours in bur little rooms. The sight of land was very
pleasant as you will imagine. Sailing up the river Hoogly, we
were delighted with the variegated, charming scenes around
us. When we reached Calcutta, we were surrounded by the
tawny natives, and half stunned with their perpetual chattering.
We had some interesting conversation with the Circars, who
could talk English on board the vessel. While our astonish-
ment was excited at hearing their superstitions, how could
our hearts remain unaffected about their wretched stale! We
were affectionately received by the good Dr. Carey, at his man-
sion at Calcutta, and treated with the greatest hospitality. Im-
agine to yourself a large stone house, with six lofty, spacious
keeping and lodging rooms, with the same number of unim-
proved rooms below;— such is the building. Imagine a small
bald-headed man, of sixty; such is the one whose name will be
remembered to the latest generation. He is now advanced to
a state of honor, with six thousand dollars a year. We accepted
his invitation, to visit the mission family at Serampore — took a
boat, and, at eleven the next evening reached the happy dwel-
ling of these friends of Immanuel. Here peace and pi. nty
dwell, and we almost forget that we are in a land of pagan dark-
ness. Dr. Carey's wife is ill — he has only one son residing
with him, who has lately commenced preaching — aged sixteen
Felix is stationed at Rangoon where he has lately married a
native, William is at Cutwa Jabes is studying law at Calcutta.
Mr. Ward superintends the printing. Mrs. Ward has the care
of providing for the whole mission family. Dr. and Mrs.
Marshman are engaged in schools. Mrs. Marshman, has had
iwelve children — six are dead. She has now thirteen^ sir. of
her own, and seven adopted ones. These schools are produc-
tive of much good.
We attended the worship of the great god of the Hindoos a
fortnight since. The idol was taken from his temple, and bathed
134 Letter to her Sister,
in the sacred waters of the Ganges. Here were thousatids of
our fellow creatures, washing in the river, expecting to wash
away their sin§. A sight which will not admit of description.
My heart, if insensible as steel before, was pained within me,
when witnessing such a scene. Oh the beauty of the gospel
of Jesusl Shall a Christian be found in America, who is oppos-
ed to missions! Forbid it heaven! To day the great Juggernaut
is removed from his temple, placed on his car, and drawn in
trivmiph through the assembled mass of worshippers. Some
will probably sacrifice their lives, and this only three miles dis-
tant from Serampore. While writing, I hear the drum, and the
instruments of idol music.
July 31.1 have only time to tell my dear Miss H. that I shall
this day leave Calcutta for the Isle of France. I have not time
to read the above, but send it full of errors. Do write me— do
let me hear soon from all my American friends.
In the greatest haste, yours H. Newell.
Love to dear Mr. and Mrs. W.
To her Sister E.
Mission house^ Seramfiore^ July 14j 1812,
How is my dear, ever dear Elizabeth? Happy, I would hope, in
the possession of every temporal blessing heart can wish, and
in the still richer blessings of the Gospel. To tell you that I
long ardently to see you, would be only saying what you already
know. Though at a great distance from you, the ties are still
strong which unite me to you. Never shall I cease to love
you. I have given our dear mother many particulars respect-
ing my past and present situation and prospects. Such is our
imsettled state at present, that I can say little or nothing to any
one. The Harmony has not yet arrived, we are daily expect-
ing her. No determination can be made without the other
brethren. The East India company have ordered us to return
to America. We have relinquished the idea of stationing a
Mission at Burmah entirely. Several other places have been
tfhought of, but it is still uncertain where we shall go. You
will perhaps hardly credit me, when I tell you, that it is fully as
expensive living here, as in America. I am disappointed
greatly in tliis respect. Some things are cheap; others very
dear. As soon as we fix upon a station, I am positive I shall
"vrite vou to send me a box of necessaries from America. Tell
Letter to her Sister,
oo
inama that my bed-quilt I shall value very highly. India calico
bears the same price here as in America. English calicoes, an
enormous price. Common English stockings between 3 and 4
rupees. The country stockings one rupee, and they are not
■worth half that. Some articles of provision are very high, and
likewise house rent; and yet we are told that no where in Asia
can we live so cheap as here. We have excellent accommoda-
tions at the Mission-house; — indeed we have every thing at
present to make us happy. We shall remove to some rooms in
the Garden, when the HarmcJriy arrives, where all our brethren
will be invited to stay till we leave Bengal. I love these dear
Missionaries very much. I never expected so many kindness-
es from them. Mrs. Marshman has a lovely school of English
young ladies, where they are instructed in embroidery, working
tnuslin, and various other things. Miss Susan Marshman of 14,
is studying Latin, Greek, and Hebrew. Mrs. Ward is a moth-
erly woman, very active and kind. Miss Hobson, a niece of
Dr. C. from England, is here, a very pretty girl. Col. Mox-
en from the Mahratta country is likewise at the Mission House.
Mr, Carapeit Aratoon, the Armenian, and wife are residing here.
These with Drs. Carey, Marshman and Ward's families and all
the scholars make the Mission Family immensely large. Se-
rampore is a charming place. We frequently walk out to ad-
mire its beauty. About a week since I v/ent to Gundle Parry,
-with Mrs. Ward and family to visit Mrs. Kemp, a charming
woman, much like our dear Mrs. B. There I saw something
of Eastern luxury so much celebrated. We spent the day, re-
turned home in the evening in the budgcrow, saw two dead
bodies burning on the shore, and a Bengalee wedding. Yes-
terday we crossed the river at Barry-pore, and walked over the
Governor General's park; saw the wild beasts, variety of birds,
&c. One of the most delightful places I ever saw. Artificial
hills and dales supplied the want of real ones.
This is the rainy season, but very pleasant. It is sometimes
cxcessiveJy hot; but a shower of rain cools the air. The jackalls
make a tremendous yell every night under our windows; tijc
noise is like a young child in great distress. I find the musque-
toes very troublesome, though not so large and numerous as I
expected. I have not seen one snake yet. 1 bathe every day,
which is very refreshing. I have not yet suffered half so much
from the heat as I calculated. I can sew or read all day, except
136 Leilers from India.
an hour or two at noon, very comfortably. 1 have often thought,
that you \vould like the climate of Bengal. I think I shall en-
joy at least sfs* good health here, as in America. When I first
came here, I disliked all the fruit of the country, but pine-ap-
ples, and those made me ill. The mangoes, plaintains, guaves,
Sec were all alike disagreeable. But I love them all now.
We were obliged to submit to a great many inconveniences
on our passage, and were exposed to many dangers. But on
the whole, I think no missionaries ever had a pleasanter voyage
to the East Indies. I used to think when on the water, that 1
never should return to America again, let my circumstances in
Asia be as bad as they could be. But I'think now, that the long
tedious voyage would not prevent my returning, if nothing else
■prevented,
Mr. Robinson, one of the Baptist missionaries, married a lady
from Calcutta about 15 years of age, and set s^l for Java. They
slept in the open air for a fortnight on deck; were out in a vio-
lent storm, and returned to Calcutta again. How different this
from, our comfortable passage. Oh that we might be ever
grateful to God for past favors, and learn to trust Him for the
time to come. Surely we, above most others, have reason to
say, "Hitherto' hath the Lord helped us."
I regret that time obliges me to be so short. But you shall
have letters by the Caravan sufficiently long to make up for this
short one. I will begin a journal on the morrow, and write i\\
it every day, till I can send it you. I will not be so negligent
again. I have many letters partly written to friends, but must
leave them now. My time has been so much occupied since
our arrival, that I have scarcely found leisure to write a line.
1 hope soon to be more at liberty.
Do give love to Sarah, Caroline, Moses, Charles, and Emily.
1 shall write them all by the Caravan, and shall expect letters
from every one of them. Kiss them all for me. Dear, dear
Elizabeth, must I leave you? But I shall talk with you again in
a wee'k or two. Till then, and ever, I shall love to call you my
dear sister, and subscribe myself your Harriet.
To a Female Friend.
"Many have been the changes through which I have passed,
sinc« I left my beioved country. I have found many precious
Diary while in India. 137
sources of enjoyment, and have had some lig/iC afflictions. Our
voyage was com/iaraccveiy short, but very tedious.
"But one week after we left the haibor, the vessel sprung a
leak, and we were for some time under the apprehension of
perishing. Many gales of wind threatened our vessel with in-
stant destruction; but our gracious God preserved us fiom ev-
ery danger, and brought us in safety to these sultry shores,
where hundreds of missionaries are needed.'*
"Though a mission among the heathen is attended with many
difficulties and discouragements, yet I do not feel sorry that I
have joined the little company engaged in one. Since I have
been here, I have been more decidedly positive than ever before,
that a pious ftS^aale, deeply interested for the heathen, can
greatly increase the usefulness of a missionary and promote
the good of the mission. Let me give you one instance of this
truth. Mrs Marshman has had twelve children; (6 arc' dead,
and 7 adopted ones fill their places.) With this numerous
family, she has been engaged in a school for 1 3 years, consist-
ing of 20, 30, 40, and sometimes 50 children. These children
are mostly half-cast, i e. their fathers are Europeans, their
mothers natives. The good done in this school is incalculable.
The children are not only instructed in all the branches of ed-
ucation taught in our American academies; but are particular-
ly instructed in the religion of the blessed Gospel. I drank
tea with her and her little family a day or two since, under a
large tree."
Extracts from her Diary.
"I feel more and more willing to be any thing, or to do any
thing, that the ciiuse of Jesus might be prospered. I am not
discouraged by th.e trials of a missionary life.'*
Jnhj 15. Spent the greater part of this day in my room alone.
Mr. N. went to Calcutta this morning to carry letters to the
captain of the ship Francis— Went %\ith Mrs. Ward to one of
the mission buildings in the garden, to see the rooms intended
ior us. There are four convenient pretty rooms with l: Uhmg
apartments, which they have kindly offered us and our mission,
ary company. In the afternoon call-jd upon Mrs. M'— The
* Mrs. Marshman, wo protuno"
1 w
138 Diary while in India,
good woman as usuaK busily engaged in her school. How firm
a constitution, must she have to occupy a station attended with
-so many cares.* At four P. M. another message from govern-
ment was received. Mr. N. and Mr. J. ordered to appear before
the police again, to receive further commands, Mr. J. immedi-
ately took the Buggy [chaisej and set out for Calcutta. In the
evening, went with Nancy,* and Mrs. W.'s T mily, to the car of
Juggernaut, which stands in the road. A huge building five
stories high — images painted all over it—two large horses with
a charioteer made of wood in front — with many wheels drawn
by the natives with large cables. From the car we walked
through the Bazar [market] to the temple, where the great god
of the Hindoos is now residing — A liorrid object indeed! — Not
allowed to enter the temple; but could see him plainly— a log
of wood painted red with large hideous eyes — Little images
were kept for sale in the Bazar. We walked- through an im-
mense crowd of Hindoos home. Was confused with the noise
and bustle of the place, and excessively wearied with my long^
walk.
July 16. Called with Mrs. W. upon Mrs. Carapeit, the Ar-
menian. Mr. Carapeit, has gone with brother Kristno on a
mission to Jessore — will be absent four weeks. Mrs. C. very
ill — can only talk Hindostanee. Brother J. returned about sun-
set— A letter from Mr. Newell. He states that a collection
has been made for us among the friends of missions in Calcut-
ta. Mr. Thomason presented 500 rupees already collected.
How dark and intricate are the ways of Providence. We are
ordered by government to leave the British territories, and re-
turn to America immediately. Captain H. will be ready to sail
in three weeks. He has requested a clearance, but it has been
absolutely refused him, unless we engage to leave India with
him. Thus is our way hedged up — thus are all our prospects
blasted. We cannot feel that we are called in Providence to
goto Birmah. Every account we have from that savage, bar-
barous nation confirms us in our opinion, that the way is not
prepared for the spread of the go: pel there. The viceroy
would not hesitate to take away our lives for the smallest of^'*''
fence. The situatiovi of a female is peculiarly hazardous.
But where else can we go? Must we leave these heathen
shores? Must we be the instruments of discouraging all the
'^ Mrs. Judson.
Diary while in India. 139
attempts of American Christians to give these natrona the word
of life? My spirit faints within me. These are trials great and
unexpected.
9 o'clock. Just returned from family worship in the chapal.
My depressed spirits are a little revived. The good Dr.
Marshman felt deeply interested for us, and has been inter-
ceding in our behalf— Not mine, O Lord, but thy will be done.
I know that the gracious Redeemer will take care of his own
cause, and provide for the wants of his little flock. How con-
soling this — I will trust him and doubt no more.
Julij 17. I find that writing has become quite pleasant, now
I am alone. My natural cheerfulness has returned, and I hope
I shall never again make myself unlkippy by anticipating fu-
ture evils, and distrusting the care of my heavenly Father. I
have been taking a solitary walk in the mission garden — .a
charming retreat from the bustle of the world. How happy
would a walk with my dear absent mother, or dear brothers and
sisters, make me: and yet as much as I long for their society, I
am not willing to return to them. Yes, I am positively unwil-
ling to go to America, unless I am confident that God has no
work for me to do here. How far preferable to me would be
an obscure c6rner of this pagan land, where the wretched idol-
aters would listen to the gospel of Jesus, to all the glittering
splendor of a civilized land.
July 18. My dear Mr. N. returned last evening fatigued in
body and depressed in mind. There is now no alternative left
but a return to America, or a settlement amon^ some savage
tribe, where our lives would be in constant danger Lord wc
are oppressed; graciously undertake for us. We know not
which way to direct our steps. O that the Harmony would ar-
rive. Insurmountable obstacles attend us on every side. Pity
us, O ye friends of Immanucl; pity our perplexed situation,
and intercede with the prayer hearing Redeemer for direction
in the path of duty
A prayer-meeting in the mission chapel on our account —
the dear Baptist brethren deeply interested for us. Fervent
were their prayers that God would direct our siepsi Four
prayers oiTcied — three hymns sung — one chapter read. The
exercises were all calculated to comfort our hearts.
I hear the distant sound of heathen voices. Tiicsc misera-
ble wretches arc probably engaged i\i some act of idol worship;
140 Diary while in India.
perhaps in conveying the logof wood,which they call Juggernaut,
to his former place of residence. — A conference in the chapel
this evening. The bell calls us to breakfast at 8 in the morning.
Immediately after we have worship in the chapel. At half
past one we dine — at 7 drink tea — .go directly to the chapel
again. Sabbath morning and evening service in English — af-
ternoon in Bengalee. Monthly prayer meeting, Monday morn-
ing. Weekly prayer-meeting, Tuesday evening. A lecture
for the children, Wednesday evening. A conference, Saturday,
evening.
With respect to the climate, manners of the people, Scc.we
have selected from Mrs. NewelTs journal the foilo^ying partic-
ulars.
^^Juiy 18. Excessively warm weather; but not so hot as the
last July in America. The Bengal houses are made so as to
admit all the air stirring. In the room where I now keep there
are four larrje windows, the size of American doors, with Veni-
tian blinds, and three folding doors. There are no glass win-
dows. A bathing house is commonly connected with each
lodging room, and verandas to walk in, in the cool of the day.
The floors of the houses are made of stone; the partitions and
walls whitewashed.
"20. From nine to eleven last evening I spent in walking
in the garden with Mr. Newell. 1 do not suffer the least in-
convenience from the evening air in this country. When on
the ocean we were very cautious of the least exposure. But
here physicians, and every one else, advise walking in the even-
ing. The jackalls are all that 1 am afraid of here.
Mr. Judson preached yesterday morning; Mr. Ward in
Bengalee, afternoon; Mr. Newell in the evening. Some good
people fronii Calcutta present at worship — a large collec-
tion of hearerS" — all very attentive. Dr. Marshman returned
to day from Calcutta — Brought us sonte intelligence which has
revived our spirits a Hi tie. Has had some conversation with
Mr. Ric^kets, the secretary, about us. He said the Caravan
should have leave to depart, if we would engage to leave the
British territories, and that possibly we might have letve to go to
the Isle of France or Madagascar. So, then we shall not go to
America in the Caravan, but wait the arrival of our dear breth-
ren in the Harmony, and then conclude which way to direct our
s^tcps, The Lord is merciful and full of compassion.
Diary while in India, 141
«'<21. Intend going; to Calcutta tomorrow, should the weath-
er permit. I like the climate of Bengal much. 1 do not long
for a seat by an American fire -side, nor for pleasant winter ev-
enings, as I once thought I should; but feel perfectly contented
and satisfied with this hot, sultry weather. I ain obliged to
guard against heating my blood by walking in the sun, or by us-
ing too violent exercise. Fevers, and the prickly heat, are
in coi'sequence of this imprudence. Rosy checks are never
seen in India, except where a lady uses paint.
^'24. Went early on Wednesday morning in the mission bud-
gerowto Calcutta, in company with brother and sister Judson,
Col.Moxen,MissHobson,and Mr. Newell. Spenithcday and night
at Dr. Carey's house. Theairof this confined place docs not agree
with me— a severe head-ach kept me all day within doors— Wed-
nesday morning, breakfasted with Capt. Heard at his house. I
hope my dear mother and other friends will have an opportunity
of seeing and thanking him on his return for his kindness to us.
Heard of Mr. Thomason*s death of Madras. He had received
positive orders from government to return to England, charge-
able with no other crime than that of preaching the gospel. He
has now gone to his everlasting home, and will trouble his op-
posers no more. Tired of the confusion and noise of Calcutta,
I reached Serampore last evening — Found friends to welcome
our return. Why these great favors? Mr. and Mrs. Robinson,
Mr. and Mrs. More and family at the mission house. Mrs. R.
the second wife of Mr. R is about 15 ye;irs of age, country
born; i. e. has an English father and native mother. Mr. and
Mrs. M.a charming couple, are stationed at Patna — have come
hither on account of their health.
*'25th. I have become a little familiarized to tlie sound of
the Bengalee language. It has become quite natural to say
cheneiov sugar, tony for water, £cc. Sec. One servant's name
is Bozu^ another JLo/, another Golove, another Hcnn Cone. Ram
is the name of one of their gods, and is therefore often added to
their own name.
*'26. I am happy in finding, that the expectations of my
American friends respecting my hrulih in India will not be dis-
appointed. I think I can say, that I never felt so strong in the
summer season, nor ever had suc!i an excellent appetite, ai
since I have been here. The weather is sometinjcs excessive"
ly hot and sultry, but to mc not uncornforf^ble."
143 Diary while in India,
July 27. Moved last Friday to a retired, pretty room in the
garden — Letters from the brethren at the Isle of France— Re-
joiced to hear-of their safe arrival there — Long to see them
—They will undoubtedly be here in a few days — How welcome
will their arrival be to us. Mr. Newell, Mr Judson and Nan-
cy [Mrs. Judson] went to Calcutta this morning. Another or-
der from government received last Saturday — and now our fate
will be decided. I long to know the result — I do not intend to
have one anxious feeling about our future destiny. I know
that the cause of Zion is precious to the blessed Jesus, and that
He will provide graciously for those who trust in him. I have
spent the day alone.
July 28. I love dear Mrs. Ward more and more every day.
She is remarkably obliging and kii.d to us. I go constantly to
her for advice. Mr, Newell returned this afternoon from Cal-
cutta. We have obtained liberty from the East India Compa-'
ny to go to the Isle of France. A vessel will sail for that place
next Saturday commanded by Captain Chimminant, a serious
man. But he cannot accommodate us with a passage. No
other vessel is expected to sail at present. We hear that the
English governor favors missions — that a large field for useful-
jiess is there opened— .18,000 inhabitants ignorant of Jesus. Is
not this the station that Providence has designed for us? A door
is open wide — -shall we not enter and begin the glorious work^
This must be a subject for fervent prayer.
July 29. A world of changes this! Early this morning
brother Judson called at our room, unexpectedly from Calcut-
ta. Captain Chimminant has agreed to carry two of us, in his
vessel, to the Isle of France, for 600 rupees — Sail next Satur-
day. How can such a favorable opportunity be neglected-'*
Halted long between two opinions— If we go we shall relinquish
the pleasure of meeting the dear brethren, and sister Roxana
TMrs. Nott.] Perhaps we shall never see them more. They
may conclude to labor in some distant part of the Lord's vine-
yard, anrd we be separated from them through life. I shall go
far away without o«e siV/g-Ze female acquaintance— the dangers
of a long voyage must be hazarded at a critical period — But
here let me stop, and review all the way in which God has led
ine, since I left my mother's house, and the land of my birth,
flow huvc I been surrounded with merciesl What precious
favors have I receivedl And shall I doubt? Oh, no; my hear^
Leiter to her Sister. 14S
gladdens at the thought of commencing with my ever dear
companion the missionaiy work, and of entering upon mission-
ary trials and arduous engagements. So plain have been the
leadings of Providence thus far, that I cannot doubt its intima-
tions. I will go leaning on the Lord, and depending on him
for direction, support and happiness. We shall leave the dear
mission family at Serampore, when another rising sun dispels
the darkness of the night — Hav,e packed all our things to-day
—fatigued much and very sleepy — The wanderer and the
stranger will ere long repose sweetly on the bosom of Jesus.
It is sweet to be a stranger and a wanderer for such a friend as
this — A valuable present from my dQ|ir Mrs, Marshman. Thus
are all my wants supplied. O for more thankfulness. When
will this heartof adamant be susceptible of stronger emotions
of gratitude. Bless the Lord, O my dear American friends,
for his kindness to me a stranger in a strange land. O, pray
that these abundant mercies may melt me into deep contri-
tion.
July SO. I have this morning taken my leave of my dear Se-
rampore friends. After a visit of six weeks I regret parting
with them exceedingly. But such are the changes of this
changing world. Friends must be separated; the parting tear
will often flow. How consoling the hope, thai there is a world
where separation will be forever unknown. — A pleasant time in
going from Serampore to Calcutta in the budge row with broth-
er Judson and Mr. Newell — Went on board the ship — Much
pleased with the accommodations — Our birth is on deck — a
eool pretty place — Dined at Dr. Carey's — Spent the afternoon
at Mr. Myers's — a charming family willing to assist us in eve-
ry thing — Mr. and Mrs. More now residing with them — Drank
tea with Mrs. Thomason, one of the kindest, best of women —
More money collected for us. Mrs. T. has provided me with
many necessaries — Went to church with Mr. and Mrs. T. in the
evening — a most elegant church — Heard Mr. T. preach.
To her Histcr C.
Seraw/iore, Juit/i IS 12.
My ever dear sister C.
I CANNOT forget you among the numerous friends I have iu
America, but must say a few words to you, though in great,
haste. Can it be possible that I shall never see you aguin in this
144 Extracts of a letter to her Mother,
world? Have we then parted to meet no more this side eternity?
We probably have. But what is this short separation? Nothing"
when compared to eternal separation, which will take place at
the last day, between the friends and enemies of J»:"sus. My
dear C. listen I entreat you, to a sister who loves you, who ar-
dently wishes for your everlasting happiness. Make the friend
of sinners your friend, now while an opportunity is presented.
Ob, let not the adversary of souls cheat you out of an interest in
the. Saviour. Gladden the heart of your dear widowed mother, of
saints and angels, by becoming a devout and holy follower of Jesus.
Mama has no chiid now to go with her to the sacramental sup-
per; will not our dear C. renounce the world and all its vanities,
embrace religion, and in the morning of her life openly conse-
crate hersell to God? Think how much good you might do among
your dear brothers and sisters. Perhaps you might, be made the
instrument of rescuing them from endless death It may pos-
sibly be that I may never write you again; will you not then, my
dear girl, seriously think of these things? I liope we shall
meet in heaven after death, no more to part. But we never
shall, unless our hearts are renewed, and we are made the friends
of Immanuel in the present life.
Farewell my dear girl — comfort the heart of your mother, and
make her declining -days as happy as possible. Do write me.
From your sister Harriet.
F.xtracts of a letter to her Mother,
CaicuttUy July 21^1812.
'•Dear Mother,
With a week's employment before me this day, I take my
pen to write you a few lines. By reading my enclosed journal
you will become acquainted with our reasons for leaving Ben-
gal and going to the Isle of France. We sa^arly to-morrow
morning — have furniture and a thousand lime necessaries to
get to-day. '^
"I go without one female companion; — ^but I go with renew-
ed courage, rejoicing that the Lord has opened us a way to
work for him. I have received favors unmerited, unexpected,
an d_ great.
*'My health is really excellent — I never felt so well in Ameri-
ca.''
Mr. NewelVs leffer to Mrs. Mwood. 145
After stating, that the inhabitants of the Isle of France are
diiefly French, she observes, -I long to engage in the great
object for which I left my home. I shall begin to study the
French language Nvith Mr. N. on the passage. Capt. Chim-
minant talks French.
"Oh for more ardent piety."
The following letter from Mr. Newell to Mrs. Atwood, com-
pletes the affecting history of Mrs. Newell.
^' Port Louis i (Isle of France) Dec. 10, 1812.
"My dear mother,
On account of the unhappy war between us and England, it is
probable I shall have no opportunity for a long time of sending
directly to America 1 enclose this letter to Joseph Hardcastle,
Esq. of London, depending on his benevolence to pay the pos-
tage at the general Post Office there, without which it would not
be forwarded. I beg your particular attention to this circum-
stance, because it is the reason why my letter is not longer, and
also the reason why I do not write to my othe,- friends. You
will oblige me by informing my friends of iliis; particularly Drs.
Woods, Griffin, and Worcester.
"When I sit down to address you, my dear mother, from tliis
distant land, to me a land of strangers and a place of exiie, a
thousand tender thoughts arise in my mind, and naturally sug-
gest such inquiries us these. How is it now with that dear
woman to whom I am indebted for my greatest earthly bles-
sing—the mother of my dear Harriet? And mine too; for I must
claim the privilege of considering you as my owi; d. i mother)
Does the candle of the Lord still shine on her i.Jk i luicle, and
is the voice of joy and praise yer heard in her dwelling? Or,
what is not improbable in this vorld of disappointment, has
some new affliction, the death perhaps of a dear child, or of
some other beloved friend, caused her heart again to bleed and
her tears lo flow? Ah! my mother, thou-h we may live many
years and see good in them all, yet let us remember the days of
darkness, for they too will be many. It ^ decreed by Infinite
Wisdom alone, that tiirougii much tribulation we must enter
into the kingdom of heaven. You, my dear mother, have had
your share of adversity, — and 1 too have had mine. But we
will not complain. Sanctified afflictions arc liie choices: favors*
If)
146 Mr. NewelVs letter to Mrs. Atwood.
of heaven. They cure us of our vain and foolish expectations
from the world, and teach our thoughts and affections to ascend
and fix on joys .that never die. I never longed so much to see
you as I have these several days past. What would I now give
to sit, one hour, by that dear fire-side, where I have tasted the
most unalloyed pleasure that earth affords, and recount to you,
and the dear children, the perils, the toils, and the sufferings,
through which I have passed since I left my native land. In
this happy circle I should for a moment forget
"Yes, my dear friends, I would tell you how God has disap-
pointed our favorite schemes, and blasted our hopes of preach-
ing Christ in India, and has sent us all away from that exten-
sive field of usefulness, with an intimation that He has nothing
for us to do there, while He has suffered others to enter in and
reap the harvest. I would tell you how He has visited us all
with sickness, and how He has afHicted me in particular by ta-
king away the dear little babe which He gave us, the child of
our prayers, of our hopes, of our tears. I would tell you — but
O, shall I tell it or forbear —
"Have courage, my mother, God will support you under this
trial; though it may for a time cause your very heart to bleed.
Come, then; let us mingle our griefs and weep together; for
she was dear to us both; and she too is gone. Yes, Harriet,
your lovely daughter is gone, and you will see her face no
more! Harriet, my own dear Harriet, the wife of my youth
and the desire of my eyes, has bid me a last farewell, and left
me to mourn and weep! Yes, she is gone. I wiped the cold
sweat of death from her pale, emaciated face, v/hile we travel-
led together down to the entrance of the dark valley. There
she took her upward flight and I saw her ascend to the man-
sions of the blessed! Oh Harriet, Harriet, for thou wast very-
dear to me. Thy last sigh tore my heart asunder and dissolved
the charm which tied me to earth.
"But I must hasten to give you a more particular account of
the repeated afilictions with which God has visited me.
"Harriet enjoyed good health from the time wc left you, until
we embarked on our voyage from Calcutta to the Isle of
France; (excepting those slight complaints which are common
to females in her situation.) During the week previous to
our 'sailing for this place, she went through much fatigue in
making numerous culls on those dear friends in Calcutta, who
Mr. NeweWs letter io Mrs, Atwood. 147
were anxious to see her, and who kindly furnished her with a
large supply of those little things which she was soon expect-
ed to want, and which on account of her succeeding illness, sue
would not have been able to prepare on the voyage. The fa-
tigue of riding in a palanquin, in tliat unhealthy place, threw
her into a fever, which commenced the day after we were on
board. She was confined about a week to her couch, but after-
ward recovered and enjoyed pretty good health. We left Cal-
cutta on the 4th of August, but on account of contrary winds
and bad weather, we were driven about in the Bay of Bengal
without making much progress during the whole of that month.
On or about the 27th it was discovered that the vessel had
sprung a leak; and, on the 30th the leak had increased to such
an alarming degree, as to render our situation extremely peril*
ous A consultation of the officers was called, and it was de-
termined to put about immediately, and make the nearest porf,
which was Coringa, a small town on the Coromandel coast,
about 60 miles south of Vizigapatam. We got safe into port
on Saturday, Sept. 5th. The vessel was found to be in a very
bad case."
["Four days before the arrival of the vessel in port, Mrs. New-
ell was seized with severe pain in the stomach and bowels, the
ilisease of the country; but in three days after going on shore
she was so far recovered as to write thus in her journal: "Have
been able to sit up most of the day. Begin to look around me
a little — find myself again surrounded with Hindoo cottages,
and the tawny natives as thick as bees." On the 19th of Sep-
tember they re-embarked, and Mrs. N. enjoyed comfortable
health till nearly three weeks after leaving Coringa, and about
three weeks before reaching the Isle of France, when she be-
came the joyful mother of a fine healthy daughter. Four days
after, in consequence of a severe storm of wind and rain, ^],^
child took cold, and died on the evening of the next day,,jj^^.,.
having been devoted to God in baptism. b,uly
On the 14th of October, Mr. N. Ai^ites thus in his jc u\Ve
** About 8 o'clock last evening our dear little Harriet cXq^i^j
in her mother's arms. A sweet child. Though she had I
but five days with us, it was painful, inexpressibly painful, ,„
pccially to the mother, to part with her. To-day, with mai.
tears, wc committed her to a watery grave. "So fades the love,
148 Mr, NeweIVs letter to Mrs. Jtwood.
ly blooming flower,*' &c. May God sanctify this bereavement
to us, and Oh may he spare my dear wile "
About a week after Mrs. N.'s confinement, the symptoms of
a consumption appeared. Though Mr. N. feared the worst, he
did not consider her case as fatal, till the last fortnight of her
life, which com.menced about ten days after their ariival at the
Isle of France. Mr. N. immediately on their ariival called in
the aid of Dr. Burke, the chief surgeon of the British army in
that island, and of Dr. Wailuz, a Danish physicicsn, a friend
with whom they had become acquainted at Serampore, \\ho
had lately buried his wife in Bengal, and had come to the Isle of
France for his health. There was but little alteration in Mrs.
N.'s health, (excepting that she gradually lost strength,) till
about a fortnight before her death, when she declined more rap-
idly and all hope of her recovery was extinguished. About 4
o'clock, P. M. on Monday, the 30th of November, her eye-sight
failed her, soon after which she calmly, and with apparent ease,
expired, seven weeks and four days after her confinement.
These events, with all the attending circumstances, are related
by Mn N. With great tenderness and particularity. He then
proceeds as follows:]
"There,, vTiy dear mother, I have finished the story of Harri-
et's sufferings. Let us turn from the tale of woe to a brigi'ter
scene; one that will gladden your heart as I am sure it does
mine. During this long series of sufferings, the bare recital of
which must affect every feeling heart, she meekly yielded to
the will of her Heavenly Father, without one murmurmg word.
*'My wicked heart," she writes, ^'is inclined to think it hard,
that I should suffer buch fatigue and hardship. I sinfully envy
those whose lot it is to live in tranquillity on land. Happy peo-
ple! Ye know not the toils and trials of voyagers across the
^'^ugh and stormy deep. Oh, for a little Indian hut on land —
tlie c^^^'"* '^y warring passions, it is for Jesus who sacrificed
"Bi'y^ of his Father's kingdom, and expired on a cross to re-
the re^ fallen world, that thus 1 wander from place to place and
«j^.io where at honje.* How reviving the thoughil How
^yg .. the consolation it yields to my sinking hearti I will cher-
pj,j,it, and )et be happy."
^^"In view of those sufferings which she afterwards experien-
ced,-she writes thus: '»! hope to reach the place of our desti-
jvAtion in good health. But I feel no anxiety about that. I
Mr, NewelVs letter to Mrs. At*wood, 149
know that God orders every thing in the best possible manner.
If He so orders events, that 1 shall svlffer pain and sickness
on the stormy ocean, without a female friend, exposed to the
greatest inconveniences, shall I repine, and think he deals hard-
ly with me? Oil, no. Let the severent trials and diaa/i/ioint-
mcnts fall to my lot, guilty and weak as I am, yet I think I
can rejoice in the Lord, and joy in the God of my salvation.
"In the first part of the sickness, which succeeded the birth
of our babe, she had some doubts, which occasionally interrupt-
ed hei' spiritual comfort; but they were soon removed, and her
mind was filled with that peace of God which passeth all under-
standing. When I asked her, a few days before she died, if she
had any remaining doubts respecting her spiritual state, she an-
swered with an emphasis, that she had none. During the whole
of her sickness she talked in the most familiar manner, and with
great delight, of death and the glory that was to f How. When
Dr, Burke one day told her, those were gloomy thoughts, she
had better get rid of them, she replied, that on the contrary they
were to her cheering and joyful beyond what she could express.
When I attempted to persuade her that she would recover
(which I fondly hoped,) it seemed to strike her like a disappoint-
ment. She would say, '^You ought rather to pray that I may
depart, that I may be perfectly free from sin, and be where
God is."
"Her mind was from day to day filled with the most comfort-
ing and delightful views of the character of God and Christ.
She often requested me to talk to her on these interesting sub-
jects. She told me that her thoughts were so much confused,
and her mind so much weakened, by the distress of body she
had sutl"';red, that she found it difficult steadily to pursue a train
of thought on divine things, but that she continually looked to
God and passively rested on him. She often spoke of meeiinj;
her friends in heaven. "Perhaps," said she, 'miy dear mother
has gone before me to heaven, and as soon as 1 leave this body
I shall find myself with her." At another time she said, "We
often talk of meeting our friends in heaven; but what would
heaven be with all our friends, if God were not therer"
"She longed exceedingly for the brethren to arrive from
India, that we might form ourselves into a church, and cele-
brate the dying love of Jesus once more before she died. Her
desires to enjoy the benefit of this ordinance were so stror^
150 Mr. Newell' $ letter to Mrs. Atwood.
and our situation so peculiar, that I thought a deviation from
the usage of our churches in this instance would be justifiable,
and accordingly on the last Sabbath in November, the day before
she died, I gave her the synnbols of the body and blood of our
Lordj and I trust it was a comfortable season to us both.
"A few davs before she died, after one of those distressing
turns of coughing and raising phlegm, which so rapidly wasted
her strength, she called me to come and sit on the bed beside
her, and receive her dying message to her friends. She ob-
served, that her strength was quite exhausted, and she could
say only a few words; but feared she should not have another
opportunity. "Tell my dear mother," said she, "how much
Harriet loved her. Tell her to look to God and keep near to
Him, und He will support and comfort her in all her trials. I
shall meet her in heaven, for surely she is one of the dear chil-
dren of God." She then turned to her brothers and sisters.
"Tell themi" said she, *'from the lips of their dying sister, that
there is nothing but religion worth living for. Oh, exhort them
to attend immediately to the care of their precious, immortal
souls. Tell them not to delay repentance. The eldest of therai
will be anxious to know how I now feel with respect to mis-
sions. Tell tbem, and also my dear mother, that I have never
pegretted leaving my native land for the cause of Christ. Let
my dear brothers and sisters know, that I love them to the last;;
I hope to meet them in heaven; but Oh, if I should not" — Here
the tears burst from her eyes, and her sobs of grief at the
thought of an eternal separation expressed the feelings that
were too big for utterance. After she had recovered a little
from the shock, which these strong emotions had given to her
whole frame, she attempted to speak of several other friends,
' but was obliged to sum up all she had to say in "Love and an
affectionate farewell to them all.** Within a day or two of her
death, such conversation as the following passed between us.
"Should you not be wiUing to recover, and live a while longer
here?" '
"On some accounts it would be desirable. I wish to do some-
thing for God before I die. But the experience I have had of
the dcceiifulncss of my heart leads me to expect, that if t should
reco^rer, my future life would be much the same as my past has
, been, and I long to be perfectly free from sin. God has called
.ni'e' awav bcfci-e v/c have entered on the work of the mission.'
Mt\ NeweWs Idler to Mrs. Aiwood, 151
but the case of David affords me comfort; I have had ii In my
beart to do what I can for the heathen, and I hope God will ac-
cept me.**
"But what shall I do, when you are gone? How can I bear
the separation?'*
"Jesus will be your best friend, and our separation will he
short. We shall soon, very soon, meet in a better world; if I
thought we should not, it would be painful indeed to part with
you.*'
"How docs your past life appear to you now?**
"Bad enough; but that only makes the grace of Christ appear
the more glorious.
"Jesus, thy Uood and righteousness
My beauty are, my heavenly dress;
JV'Udst flaming worlds in th«se array'd.
With joy shall 1 lift up my head."
"When I told her that she could not live through the next
day, she replied, "Oh, joyful news; I long to depart.'* Some-
time after, I asked her, "How does death appear to you now?"
She replied; "Glorious; truly welcome." During sabbath
night she seemed to be a little wandering; but the next morn-
ing she had her recollection perfectly. As I stood by her, I
asked if she knew me. At first she made no answer. 1 suid to
her again; "My dear Harriet, do you know who I am" "My
dear Mr. Newell, my husband," was her reply; but in broken
accents and a voice faltering in death."
"The last words which I remember, ar.d which, I think were
the last she uttered relative to her departure, were these — ^'The.
pains, the groans, the dying strife." "How long, O Lord, how
long?"
*'But I must stop; for I have already exceeded the bounds of
a letter, though I have come far short of doing justice to tiie
dying deportment of this dear friend. Oh, may my last end be
like hers. I would now proceed to discharge the duty, whicli
Harriet's dying request imposed on mc, of administering conso-
lation to you, and of beseeching the Jcar children to make a
right improvement of this afflicting dispensation; but I hope the
God of all consolation will himself wipe away your tears, and
fill your heart with comfort, and that Harriet's dying intrcatic-,
and tears, and sighs, may be carried by the Spirit of truth to the
hearts of the children, and of her other young friends, and may
fasten conviction on their mintls, and engage them to ioMow
152 Mr. NeweWs letter to Mrs. Atwood.
her, so far as she followed Christ. With these hopes I must at
present bid them all an affectionate farewell.
^'Harriet offered to give me her property by will, but I de-
clined accepting it. She then proposed bequeathing a part of
it to the Board of Commissioners, but my time was so com-
pletely taken up in attending on her, that I had no opportunity
of having a will duly executed till it was too late."
"The brethren in Bengal have written to me. The Harmony
arrived in Calcutta a few days after I left there— .The brethren
all 6rdered away, as we were. They are coming hither, and I
daily expect them. Madagascar is the probable seat of the
mission; but this is not certain. Brother and sister Judson have
become Baptists, have been immersed at Calcutta, and of
course will not come with the rest* They have all been sick.
*'Perhaps you may censure me, my dear mother, for leaving
Scrampore before Harriet's confinement. 1 wish I had time to
answer you fully on this head; but I can only say that she did
not expect to be confined short of three or four months from
the time of our departure; that the usual length of a voyage to
the Isle of France is not half that period; that Bengal is the
most sickly place in all India, and this the most healthy spot in
the eastern world; and that it was the unanimous advice of all
cur friends that we should go ^ Brother Judson would then have
embraced the opportunity had I declined it."
"I have now one request to make, and then I will close. Dr.
Woods and Dr. Griffin will both see thfs letter. I wish one of
them to preach a sermon on this occasion, — that it be publish-
ed,— and that an engraving, prepared from Harriet's miniature,
be prefixed, and a short account of her sickness and death be
added. Do let my request be granted. It will do good It
,may be the means of convening many uf Harriet's dear young
friends, and it will, I hope, some time or other reach me.
"I thank Dr. Woods a thousand tim.es for his sermon on the
death of Mrs. Church, as well as for his Missionary sermon,
, -which last 1 received by way of Calcutta My dear, dear mother,
1 must bid you farewell. God Almighty bless you, and reward
you a hundred fold for all your kindness to me. Do rot forget
me; I shall never for;<et you. Write whenever you have op-
portunity. I send my love to all my acquaintance, and to all
Harriet's friends, for her sake. My ever dear mother, I reniain
your'b affectionately, Samuel Newell.
Mrs. M. Atv.ood,
Mr. NeiceWs letter to Mr. Uardij. 153
Mr. Newell encloKcd a fragment, (from which the following
sentences are taken) in Mrs. N.'s own hand. It is the com-
mencement of a letter which she began to write to her
mother, but which she was never able to resume. During the
former part of her voyage from Calcutta to the Isle of France
she wrote occasionally in her Diary, ai appears by exuacts made
from it in the foregoing letter.
'■^Port Louis., hie of France^ .Yov. 3, 1812.
*^AIy ever dear Mot/ier^
SiNct I wrote you last I have been called by God to rejoice and
weep; for afflictions and mercies have both alternately fallen to
my lot. I address you now from a bed of great weakness •
perhaps for the last time. Yes, my dear mama, I feel this mud-
walled cottage shake, and expect ere long to become an inhabi-
tant of the world of spirits. Eternity, I feel, is jubt at hand.
But let me give you some account of God's dealings with me,
Which I shall do at intervals, as strength will admit."
[After mentioning the birih of a daughter, with fond antici„
pations of happiness, she adds the following sentences, which
are the last she wrote.]
"On the cabin floor, with no other attendant but my dear Mr*
Newell, we could weep for joy — and call ourselves the happi-
est of the happy. But, alasl on the evening of the fifth day the
dear object of our love was snatched from us by death, and oa
the day following committed to its watery grave. Heart-rend-
ing stroke to a parental heart! Mine almost bled with deep
anguish'*
Mr. Newell, apprehending that the foregoing letter might
not reach America, wrote a letter to Mr. A. Hai*dy, with a view
to repeat the substance of what he had before written. I'.xtracts
from this letter arc here added.
For: Loiiia, (Isle of France) Feb. 23, 1313.
My dear Brother,
I WROTE to our dear mother, Mrs. Atwood, in December, by
way of London. As that may fail, I shall briefly recapitulate some
things which in that I stated at length — We were all ordered
away from India by Government. I embarked with Harriet for
this place, in August. We had a most disastrous voyage. On
the 8th of October H. was delivered of a daughter, three weeks
20
154 Mr. Ne'weirs letter to Mr. Hardy.
before we arrived here. Our dear babe took cold and died
suddenly on the ISth, five days old. Harriet took cold at the
same time, being'exposed to a violent storm cf wind and rain.
The cold settled on her lungs, and terminated in a consumption.
She rapidly wasted away, and on the SOth of November ended
her days in this place. Two physicians beside myself attended
her during her sickness. It would be gratifying here to re-
late the exercises of her mind during her illness, and at the
hour Qf death; but I have time only to say, that she died rejoic"
ing in the sure firospect of eternal life through the blood and
-iighteousness of Jesus Christ, — Thus, my dear brother, I have
been called to lay my beloved Harriet in her lowly bed, within
the short period of ten months from the day of our marriage.
I have buried both my parents, and several near relatives; but
I never knew the bitterness of grief till I saw my dear wife ex-
pire. It is now about three months sinco; she died; and I feel
iTiy loss more deeply than when I followed her to the gravCj
I trust that this very afflicting stroke of Providence has been
sanctified. to me. I feel more like a pilgrim and stranger on
earth, and I long to finish my work and be away. But I must
not spend tim,e in describing my feelings on this mournful oc-
casion— you can easi% imagine all that I would say.
I have one request to make of you— com/or? our dear mother.
Tell her that her dear Harriet never repented of any sacrifice
she had made for Christ; that on her dying bed "she Was com-
forted with the'thought of having had it in her heart to do some-
thing for the Heathen, though God had seen fit to take her away
before we entered on our work.** Tell that dear woman, that
HARRlEf^s bones have taken ficssession of the firomised land,
and rest in glorious hope of the final and universal triumph of
Jesus o-oer the gods of this world.
Give my love to all our friends. How glad should I be to see
you all! Tell little Aaron about my dear babe — we called her
Harriet Atnuood in her baptism. Poor thing, she found a watery
grave. Mary, my dear sister, do not grieve too much for Har-
riet; she is well now. O may we be counted worthy to meet
her in the mansions of the blessed. Dear creature, she com-
forted me with this hope on her dying bed; — and this blissful
hope i-s worth more to me than all the wealth of India.
Farewell — Samuel Newell..
THE END.
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Sarah Judson,
Abii^ail Capron, 2
(Jlive Willard,
SusasHiah Adams,
-.uiiit-e Chapin,
dai'uiida Foster,
S\lv a Willard,
Margaret S. Taft,
Vbigaii Taft,
Chloe Taft,
Sarah Jaquith,
Abigail Taft,
Abigail L. Jennison,
\VKENTUAM.
Preston Pond,
Bernard Pond,
AmasaDunbar^
Eunas Smith,
Elisha Ware,
Theodore Gerould,
Benjamin Howes,
Nancy Felt,
Daniel Cooke,
Enoch Pond,
Sylva Fales,
Daniel Ware,
Samuel Ware, Ware.
WEST CAMBRIDOE,
Ruthy Butterfield,
Eliza Bradshavv,
Amos Whittemore, 2
Miles Gardner,
Anna C. Whittemore,
Francis Gates,
Rebecca Whittemore, £
Harriet Weare,
Nancy Nason,
Rebekah Whittemore,
Rebecca Whittemore,
WORCESTEK.
Thomas R. Wheeler,
Austin R. Putman,
H. G. Henshaw, 3
R. Burke, Windsor, fVt. J
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