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GLOW INTERNATIONAL 




Eruch Jessawala reveals on Febru- 
ary 6, 1992 at MeherazadthatMeher 
Baba broke his silence 



MY SILENCE MUST BREAK. 
THERE IS NO ESCAPE FOR IT. 

I SHALL NOT LAY DOWN 
MY BODY UNTIL I HAVE 
GIVEN THE WORD TO THE 
WORLD. 

Meher Baba 



"TRUE TO HIS PROMISE, HE 
HAS BROKEN HIS SILENCE " 

ERUCH B. JESSAWALA 

Meher Baba's closest companion and disciple 



IT was a few minutes shy of 1 p.m. on Thursday, February 6, 1992 
at Meherazad. In answer to a question from a seeker from Yugo- 
slavia, Eruch Jessawala, Meher Baba's closest companion and 
disciple, had spent the morning describing Meher Baba's last 
meeting, which was held on October 13, 1968 to plan for the Great 
Darshan of 1969. Then, in answer to another of her questions, he 
described the events leading up to Meher Baba's dropping of the 
body on January 31, 1969. 

Eruch had just concluded the tale, and the lunch bell was 
already being wrung, when his brother Merwan, seated near 
Baba's chair, said "Tell them about Baba clearing his throat" . I was 
sitting next to Eruch at the time, and he actually seemed startled. 
Since Eruch is practically Mr. Equanimity itself, I think many of us 
sensed that something was afoot. Eruch responded to Merwan in 
Gujer ati, and it seemed as if he was trying to talk him out of raising 
the matter. He then turned to someone else and might have 
succeeded in changing the subject had not another seeker from 
Kenya again asked him about it. 

So Eruch began to describe how, a few days before Meher 
Baba dropped his body, Eruch had been sitting with him when he 
was startled to hear Meher Baba make a very dramatic sound. The 
following is a transcript of what Eruch said. The tape begins with 
Eruch imitating the sound he heard Baba make. In effect, Meher 
Baba had covered his mouth with his hand and shouted with great 
intensity: 

Eruch: "Mmmmmmm!" And I said, "What's the matter. (At this 
point, Baba made a gesture which I read as Baba calming Eruch 
and assuring him that everything was allright.) That's all — 
finished! That's the thing that I reported over to him (Merwan.) 
K: When was it ? When? 

Eruch: I didn't want to let this out you see because, well, TRUE TO 
HIS PROMISE, HE HAS BROKEN HIS SILENCE. 



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Eruch talks of his life with Meher 
Baba with Western seekers 



OF MY OWN I SHALL NOT 
BREAK MY SILENCE; UNI- 
VERSAL CRISIS WILL MAKE 
ME DO SO. WHEN THE CRI- 
SIS WILL REACH ITS ABSO- 
LUTE CULMINATION, IT 
WILL MAKE ME UTTER THE 
WORD AT THE MOMENT. 
Meher Baba 




K: How many days before he dropped the body that this hap- 
pened. 

Eruch: (To Merwan) When was that letter? (To all) It is there. 
About three days. Three days. 
K: You heard that Baba cry? 
Eruch: Yeah. 
K: You heard that? 
Eruch: That sound. 
K: Baba cried. 

Eruch: Not cried. It was the sound: " Mmmmmmm " like that. The 
Original Word. "Mmmmmmm" is the Original Word. Om. 
Q: You'd never heard him make any audible sound before? 
Eruch: No. It's just that day. 
Q: Never a moment? 

Eruch: And I was so stunned and surprised. But immediately it 
came, "God!" Is that the Word that he was saying? (Referring to 
Merwan) OK, so Baba must have prompted him. 
Q: (unintelligible) 

Eruch: No, never. I haven't said this to anybody. 
Q: But I've been told that at some point Baba would clear his throat 
or make little noises. 

Eruch: That was a different noise. (Eruch demonstrates a throat- 
clearing sound), like that. Or sneeze, like that. But this was a 
different, this was a different (sound). 
Q: And this was with his lips sealed? 

Eruch: Yeah. He put his hand. I remember that. He put His hand 
like that. (Eruch demonstrates) He put his hand and then . . . 
Q: What was He doing. I mean, was he lying on the bed at the time 
or was he sitting up . . .? 



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Amartithi 1992: Eruch embraces a 
pilgrim atop Meherabad Hill 



AS I AM THE PIVOT OF THE 
UNIVERSE, THE FULL PRES- 
SURE OF THE UNIVERSAL 
UPHEAVAL WILL BEAR ON 
ME, AND CORRESPOND- 
INGLY MY SUFFERING WILL 
BE SO INFINITELY OVER- 
WHELMING THAT THE 
WORD WILL ESCAPE FROM 
OUT OF THE SILENCE. 

Meher Baba 



Eruch: No, he was sitting. 
Q: He had a spasm? 
Eruch: He was sitting on the bed 

Q: But was it connected with any, like, spasm, or nothing, just on 
its own. 

Eruch: Nothing. On its own. I was stunned, you see. I turned my 
back, "What's the matter?" I thought that something had hap- 
pened to him, but he just (gestured), and then ... I didn't have the 
guts to ask what happened. I didn't, he didn't tell me anything. 
Nothing was there. 
Q: He didn't explain anything? 

Eruch: That's the worst part of us, you see, that we just take it for 
granted, when we lived with him. (Eruch laughs) Anything and 
everything is just natural, you see. 

Q: So he had to cover his mouth? Or he covered his mouth and then 
did it? 

Eruch: (Eruch demonstrates) This is what he did. What I saw was 
this. When I turned my back, his hand was on his mouth. And the 
noise was there. That's all. I even wrote in that letter (To Merwan) 
What was that? Do you remember? . . . that it seemed that he has 
broken his Silence. 

Merwan: It was like he was clearing his throat as if to prepare to 
break his Silence . . . 

Eruch: Break his Silence. Break his Silence. 
Merwan: You felt like that. 

Q: You said the thought came to you at the time that this was that? 
Eruch: It was that, yeah. 

Q: There is one more time I think all of us wanna hear the sound. 
Eruch: How can I produce that sound? 
Q: Repeat that. 

Eruch: All what I heard was just that . . . He did like that . . . (Eruch 
demonstrates, with his hand covering his mouth, a loud, startling 
shout). 

Q: Like "om". It's the same as like "om". 

Eruch: Mmm ... that's right . . . OK, now enough now go ! (All break 
for lunch) 

On the next 'Meherazad Day", Saturday, February 8, at 
around 2 p.m., I asked Eruch why he had kept this "news" quiet 
for so long. 

Eruch: I had never wanted to mention (it). But somehow or other 
my brother interjected. Because I had written to my family, be- 
cause Baba always wanted me to report to them. And then M., who 
knew Gujerati, took that hint and said, "What was that? What did 
he say?" And then I said, "OK" it seemed that Baba has brought 
about this time so I let it out. That's all. 



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ONLY IN COMPLETE INTER- 
NAL SILENCE IS TRUTH 
FOUND. WHEN THE SUR- 
FACE OF THE LAKE IS STILL 
IT REFLECTS THE STARS; SO 
WHEN THE MIND IS TRAN- 
QUIL, IT REFLECTS THE NA- 
TURE OF THE SELF. 

Meher Baba 



Tony: But why did you wish not to? 

Eruch: Just because of this. (You're not the first one to ask about 
this.) As soon as she entered, she said, "You know, D. has said that 
she wants to have a tape record of how, what noise it made." Then 
somebody else told me that. Somebody else said, "What did . . . 
how . . . did he break his Silence?" I said, "Forget about it" Thaf s 
the reason, you see. 
Tony: Ah, ah, ah . 

Eruch: Yeah. What have we to do with this sort of thing, you see. 
And why I reported (it to Merwan) was that when Baba called me 
to him, he said to them — my parents and my brother and sisters 
— that "Eruch will be sending reports, as if you were present over 
there." So I had to give the details of what was happening, day-by- 
day, day-by-day, to make them feel that they were not absent. 

Because Baba had called all of us to leave the world and to be 
with him, and we were all together. And after awhile, Baba put 
them at a different place, because of the education of my brother, 
education of my sisters, like that. That's how it was. And he told 
my brother to look after the parents, because the eldest son, myself, 
was here. "He will look after me and you look after the parents, 
because he cannot look after them. He'll look after me, you look 
after them" That was the order given to my brother. That's how it 
was. 

I subsequently learned that the subject had come up again in 
Mandali Hall after I returned home, at which time Eruch revealed 
that Francis Brabazon had also been present at the time of Baba's 
dramatic sound. 

What was the meaning of it all? Even as Eruch spoke, my 
thoughts had turned immediately to the following brief discourse 
given by Meher Baba, which appears in Francis Brabazon's epic 
poem, Stay With God. In it, Meher Baba explains the meaning of his 
Silence-breaking: 

God in the Beyond-Beyond state is likened to a soundless, 
shoreless Ocean. 

The "Whim" of God for knowledge of Himself ("Who am I?") 
manifested as Sound. 

This Oceanic Sound is of God and is God and contains, and is, 
His experience of Power, Knowledge, Bliss. 

The emergence of this Sound through what is called the "Om- 
Point" or Its Creative Utterance produced the worlds of Mind, 
Energy and Matter. 



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Eruch at Meherazad, photographed 
by John Gunn 



I AMNE VERSILENT. I SPEAK 
ETERNALLY. THE VOICE 
THAT IS HEARD DEEP 
WITHIN THE SOUL IS MY 
VOICE. 

Meher Baba 



This Primal Oceanic Sound is the Root of all forms and creatures 
and men and they are continuously connected with It and derive 
their life from It. 

When one closes one's lips and expresses sound a "m-m-m" is 
produced. 

This "m-m-m" is the foundation or ground of all spoken words 
and contains when it expresses pain and anguish or joy and 
happiness, or all though when expressed during thought and is 
capable of containing the whole of a question and its answer. 

This "m-m-m" is a "drop" of faint sound of the Oceanic Sound, 
the "M-m-m" or "Word" of God separated from the Ocean by 
seven shadows of separation. 

If the whole physical universe was a huge bell, the sound of it in 
comparison with Sound of the Oceanic Sound would be as the 
furthermost point of audibility of an ordinary bell. 

This sound-drop is not different from the Oceanic Sound — it is 
that Ocean and can never be anything but Ocean — but it 
experiences itself as a drop because of separation. 

This separation is not a separation by division, but a separation 
through impression. (As words are expressions of this drop "m- 
m-m" separated from the Oceanic "M-m-m", so are sense actions 
expressions and experiences removes from Oceanic Experience: 
seeing and seen from Oceanic Sight, hearing and heard from 
Oceanic Hearing, smelling and scent, tasting and flavour, touch- 
ing and touch from corresponding Oceanic Faculties.) 

This Original Oceanic "M-m-m" is called Brahm-Nad (Sound or 
"Word" of God) or Unhud-Nad (Limitless Sound or "Word"). 

It is continuous and is the eternal Root and continuous Cause of 
all causes and effects. 

It experiences All-power, All-knowledge and All-bliss; but the 
drop "m-m-m", although of the same "substance" and not in any 
way different from the Oceanic "M-m-m", and although con- 
tinuously connected with It, feels, because of its separation 
through seven shadows of separation, most weak, most ignorant 
and most unhappy — even though at times it asserts strength, 
knowledge and happiness. 



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v. 




Francis Brabazon was with Eruch 
whenMeher Bababrokehis silence. 
On his return to Australia after a 
long stay with Meher Baba in India, 
Francis told those who wished to 
know," On one and the same breath 
I praise his Silence and his Word — 
for they are the same thing: his Word 
is the movement of his Silence and 
his Silence is the stillness of his 
Word." 



Endure. Endure till the Word of 
Creation 
breaks the seal on its long 

Silence, 

and I sing the new Song to the 
Word. 

THE WIND OF THE WORD 

Francis Brabazon 



In this present age when words, through accumulation and 
accretion, have become meaningless and all My previous words 
in the form of Precepts are neglected and distorted, I maintain 
Silence. 

WHEN I BREAK MY SILENCE AND SPEAK, IT WILL BE THIS 
PRIMAL OCEANIC "M-M-M" WHICH I WILL UTTER 
THROUGH MY HUMAN MOUTH, (emphasis added) 

And because all forms and words are from this Primal Sound or 
Original Word and are continuously connected with It and have 
their life from It, when It is uttered by Me It will reverberate in 
all people and creatures and all will know that I have broken My 
silence and have uttered that Sound or Word. 

The effective force of this Word in individuals and their reaction 
to It will be in accordance with the magnitude and receptivity of 
each individual mind. 

And the reaction will be as instantaneous and as various as the 
reaction of people in a room through which a cobra suddenly 
and swiftly passes, when some would nervously laugh, some 
lose control of their bowels and some feel great courage or 
reasonless hope and joy. 

It is likely that differences of opinion may continue for some 
time on this matter to which Meher Baba attached so much 
importance. Of course, Baba said that all were free to have their 
own interpretation of his words. Yet for those who would question 
whether Meher Baba has, or shall, break his Silence, I would call 
attention to part of a message given by him on June 30, 1960, "to 
all of you who love Me and obey Me, a? well as to all those who 
would do so": 

I want you toknow that I will definitely break My Silence; and I want you 
to cling to My "daaman" till the very end, irrespective of whether I 
speak or not. (emphasis added) I am the Highest of the High, and want 
you to love Me not for any spiritual or material gain, nor for the 
impending breaking of My Silence and My manifestation, but 1 want you 
to love Me for Myself, as being God in human form. 

This is a verbatim record ofEruch Jessawala's revelations, marginally edited by Tony 
Patemiti. Undoubtedly, readers will have different interpretation of these revelations. 
Please RUSH your views to the Editor and we will publish your letters in the August 
issue. 

Photographs by Naosherwan Anzar, John Gunn, Ralph Jackson and Charles McCoy. 

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