Eruch Jessawala reveals on Febru-
ary 6, 1992 at MeherazadthatMeher
Baba broke his silence
MY SILENCE MUST BREAK.
THERE IS NO ESCAPE FOR IT.
I SHALL NOT LAY DOWN
MY BODY UNTIL I HAVE
GIVEN THE WORD TO THE
"TRUE TO HIS PROMISE, HE
HAS BROKEN HIS SILENCE "
ERUCH B. JESSAWALA
Meher Baba's closest companion and disciple
IT was a few minutes shy of 1 p.m. on Thursday, February 6, 1992
at Meherazad. In answer to a question from a seeker from Yugo-
slavia, Eruch Jessawala, Meher Baba's closest companion and
disciple, had spent the morning describing Meher Baba's last
meeting, which was held on October 13, 1968 to plan for the Great
Darshan of 1969. Then, in answer to another of her questions, he
described the events leading up to Meher Baba's dropping of the
body on January 31, 1969.
Eruch had just concluded the tale, and the lunch bell was
already being wrung, when his brother Merwan, seated near
Baba's chair, said "Tell them about Baba clearing his throat" . I was
sitting next to Eruch at the time, and he actually seemed startled.
Since Eruch is practically Mr. Equanimity itself, I think many of us
sensed that something was afoot. Eruch responded to Merwan in
Gujer ati, and it seemed as if he was trying to talk him out of raising
the matter. He then turned to someone else and might have
succeeded in changing the subject had not another seeker from
Kenya again asked him about it.
So Eruch began to describe how, a few days before Meher
Baba dropped his body, Eruch had been sitting with him when he
was startled to hear Meher Baba make a very dramatic sound. The
following is a transcript of what Eruch said. The tape begins with
Eruch imitating the sound he heard Baba make. In effect, Meher
Baba had covered his mouth with his hand and shouted with great
Eruch: "Mmmmmmm!" And I said, "What's the matter. (At this
point, Baba made a gesture which I read as Baba calming Eruch
and assuring him that everything was allright.) That's all —
finished! That's the thing that I reported over to him (Merwan.)
K: When was it ? When?
Eruch: I didn't want to let this out you see because, well, TRUE TO
HIS PROMISE, HE HAS BROKEN HIS SILENCE.
Eruch talks of his life with Meher
Baba with Western seekers
OF MY OWN I SHALL NOT
BREAK MY SILENCE; UNI-
VERSAL CRISIS WILL MAKE
ME DO SO. WHEN THE CRI-
SIS WILL REACH ITS ABSO-
LUTE CULMINATION, IT
WILL MAKE ME UTTER THE
WORD AT THE MOMENT.
K: How many days before he dropped the body that this hap-
Eruch: (To Merwan) When was that letter? (To all) It is there.
About three days. Three days.
K: You heard that Baba cry?
K: You heard that?
Eruch: That sound.
K: Baba cried.
Eruch: Not cried. It was the sound: " Mmmmmmm " like that. The
Original Word. "Mmmmmmm" is the Original Word. Om.
Q: You'd never heard him make any audible sound before?
Eruch: No. It's just that day.
Q: Never a moment?
Eruch: And I was so stunned and surprised. But immediately it
came, "God!" Is that the Word that he was saying? (Referring to
Merwan) OK, so Baba must have prompted him.
Eruch: No, never. I haven't said this to anybody.
Q: But I've been told that at some point Baba would clear his throat
or make little noises.
Eruch: That was a different noise. (Eruch demonstrates a throat-
clearing sound), like that. Or sneeze, like that. But this was a
different, this was a different (sound).
Q: And this was with his lips sealed?
Eruch: Yeah. He put his hand. I remember that. He put His hand
like that. (Eruch demonstrates) He put his hand and then . . .
Q: What was He doing. I mean, was he lying on the bed at the time
or was he sitting up . . .?
Amartithi 1992: Eruch embraces a
pilgrim atop Meherabad Hill
AS I AM THE PIVOT OF THE
UNIVERSE, THE FULL PRES-
SURE OF THE UNIVERSAL
UPHEAVAL WILL BEAR ON
ME, AND CORRESPOND-
INGLY MY SUFFERING WILL
BE SO INFINITELY OVER-
WHELMING THAT THE
WORD WILL ESCAPE FROM
OUT OF THE SILENCE.
Eruch: No, he was sitting.
Q: He had a spasm?
Eruch: He was sitting on the bed
Q: But was it connected with any, like, spasm, or nothing, just on
Eruch: Nothing. On its own. I was stunned, you see. I turned my
back, "What's the matter?" I thought that something had hap-
pened to him, but he just (gestured), and then ... I didn't have the
guts to ask what happened. I didn't, he didn't tell me anything.
Nothing was there.
Q: He didn't explain anything?
Eruch: That's the worst part of us, you see, that we just take it for
granted, when we lived with him. (Eruch laughs) Anything and
everything is just natural, you see.
Q: So he had to cover his mouth? Or he covered his mouth and then
Eruch: (Eruch demonstrates) This is what he did. What I saw was
this. When I turned my back, his hand was on his mouth. And the
noise was there. That's all. I even wrote in that letter (To Merwan)
What was that? Do you remember? . . . that it seemed that he has
broken his Silence.
Merwan: It was like he was clearing his throat as if to prepare to
break his Silence . . .
Eruch: Break his Silence. Break his Silence.
Merwan: You felt like that.
Q: You said the thought came to you at the time that this was that?
Eruch: It was that, yeah.
Q: There is one more time I think all of us wanna hear the sound.
Eruch: How can I produce that sound?
Q: Repeat that.
Eruch: All what I heard was just that . . . He did like that . . . (Eruch
demonstrates, with his hand covering his mouth, a loud, startling
Q: Like "om". It's the same as like "om".
Eruch: Mmm ... that's right . . . OK, now enough now go ! (All break
On the next 'Meherazad Day", Saturday, February 8, at
around 2 p.m., I asked Eruch why he had kept this "news" quiet
for so long.
Eruch: I had never wanted to mention (it). But somehow or other
my brother interjected. Because I had written to my family, be-
cause Baba always wanted me to report to them. And then M., who
knew Gujerati, took that hint and said, "What was that? What did
he say?" And then I said, "OK" it seemed that Baba has brought
about this time so I let it out. That's all.
ONLY IN COMPLETE INTER-
NAL SILENCE IS TRUTH
FOUND. WHEN THE SUR-
FACE OF THE LAKE IS STILL
IT REFLECTS THE STARS; SO
WHEN THE MIND IS TRAN-
QUIL, IT REFLECTS THE NA-
TURE OF THE SELF.
Tony: But why did you wish not to?
Eruch: Just because of this. (You're not the first one to ask about
this.) As soon as she entered, she said, "You know, D. has said that
she wants to have a tape record of how, what noise it made." Then
somebody else told me that. Somebody else said, "What did . . .
how . . . did he break his Silence?" I said, "Forget about it" Thaf s
the reason, you see.
Tony: Ah, ah, ah .
Eruch: Yeah. What have we to do with this sort of thing, you see.
And why I reported (it to Merwan) was that when Baba called me
to him, he said to them — my parents and my brother and sisters
— that "Eruch will be sending reports, as if you were present over
there." So I had to give the details of what was happening, day-by-
day, day-by-day, to make them feel that they were not absent.
Because Baba had called all of us to leave the world and to be
with him, and we were all together. And after awhile, Baba put
them at a different place, because of the education of my brother,
education of my sisters, like that. That's how it was. And he told
my brother to look after the parents, because the eldest son, myself,
was here. "He will look after me and you look after the parents,
because he cannot look after them. He'll look after me, you look
after them" That was the order given to my brother. That's how it
I subsequently learned that the subject had come up again in
Mandali Hall after I returned home, at which time Eruch revealed
that Francis Brabazon had also been present at the time of Baba's
What was the meaning of it all? Even as Eruch spoke, my
thoughts had turned immediately to the following brief discourse
given by Meher Baba, which appears in Francis Brabazon's epic
poem, Stay With God. In it, Meher Baba explains the meaning of his
God in the Beyond-Beyond state is likened to a soundless,
The "Whim" of God for knowledge of Himself ("Who am I?")
manifested as Sound.
This Oceanic Sound is of God and is God and contains, and is,
His experience of Power, Knowledge, Bliss.
The emergence of this Sound through what is called the "Om-
Point" or Its Creative Utterance produced the worlds of Mind,
Energy and Matter.
Eruch at Meherazad, photographed
by John Gunn
I AMNE VERSILENT. I SPEAK
ETERNALLY. THE VOICE
THAT IS HEARD DEEP
WITHIN THE SOUL IS MY
This Primal Oceanic Sound is the Root of all forms and creatures
and men and they are continuously connected with It and derive
their life from It.
When one closes one's lips and expresses sound a "m-m-m" is
This "m-m-m" is the foundation or ground of all spoken words
and contains when it expresses pain and anguish or joy and
happiness, or all though when expressed during thought and is
capable of containing the whole of a question and its answer.
This "m-m-m" is a "drop" of faint sound of the Oceanic Sound,
the "M-m-m" or "Word" of God separated from the Ocean by
seven shadows of separation.
If the whole physical universe was a huge bell, the sound of it in
comparison with Sound of the Oceanic Sound would be as the
furthermost point of audibility of an ordinary bell.
This sound-drop is not different from the Oceanic Sound — it is
that Ocean and can never be anything but Ocean — but it
experiences itself as a drop because of separation.
This separation is not a separation by division, but a separation
through impression. (As words are expressions of this drop "m-
m-m" separated from the Oceanic "M-m-m", so are sense actions
expressions and experiences removes from Oceanic Experience:
seeing and seen from Oceanic Sight, hearing and heard from
Oceanic Hearing, smelling and scent, tasting and flavour, touch-
ing and touch from corresponding Oceanic Faculties.)
This Original Oceanic "M-m-m" is called Brahm-Nad (Sound or
"Word" of God) or Unhud-Nad (Limitless Sound or "Word").
It is continuous and is the eternal Root and continuous Cause of
all causes and effects.
It experiences All-power, All-knowledge and All-bliss; but the
drop "m-m-m", although of the same "substance" and not in any
way different from the Oceanic "M-m-m", and although con-
tinuously connected with It, feels, because of its separation
through seven shadows of separation, most weak, most ignorant
and most unhappy — even though at times it asserts strength,
knowledge and happiness.
Francis Brabazon was with Eruch
whenMeher Bababrokehis silence.
On his return to Australia after a
long stay with Meher Baba in India,
Francis told those who wished to
know," On one and the same breath
I praise his Silence and his Word —
for they are the same thing: his Word
is the movement of his Silence and
his Silence is the stillness of his
Endure. Endure till the Word of
breaks the seal on its long
and I sing the new Song to the
THE WIND OF THE WORD
In this present age when words, through accumulation and
accretion, have become meaningless and all My previous words
in the form of Precepts are neglected and distorted, I maintain
WHEN I BREAK MY SILENCE AND SPEAK, IT WILL BE THIS
PRIMAL OCEANIC "M-M-M" WHICH I WILL UTTER
THROUGH MY HUMAN MOUTH, (emphasis added)
And because all forms and words are from this Primal Sound or
Original Word and are continuously connected with It and have
their life from It, when It is uttered by Me It will reverberate in
all people and creatures and all will know that I have broken My
silence and have uttered that Sound or Word.
The effective force of this Word in individuals and their reaction
to It will be in accordance with the magnitude and receptivity of
each individual mind.
And the reaction will be as instantaneous and as various as the
reaction of people in a room through which a cobra suddenly
and swiftly passes, when some would nervously laugh, some
lose control of their bowels and some feel great courage or
reasonless hope and joy.
It is likely that differences of opinion may continue for some
time on this matter to which Meher Baba attached so much
importance. Of course, Baba said that all were free to have their
own interpretation of his words. Yet for those who would question
whether Meher Baba has, or shall, break his Silence, I would call
attention to part of a message given by him on June 30, 1960, "to
all of you who love Me and obey Me, a? well as to all those who
would do so":
I want you toknow that I will definitely break My Silence; and I want you
to cling to My "daaman" till the very end, irrespective of whether I
speak or not. (emphasis added) I am the Highest of the High, and want
you to love Me not for any spiritual or material gain, nor for the
impending breaking of My Silence and My manifestation, but 1 want you
to love Me for Myself, as being God in human form.
This is a verbatim record ofEruch Jessawala's revelations, marginally edited by Tony
Patemiti. Undoubtedly, readers will have different interpretation of these revelations.
Please RUSH your views to the Editor and we will publish your letters in the August
Photographs by Naosherwan Anzar, John Gunn, Ralph Jackson and Charles McCoy.