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THE WOMAN WHO DID.
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THE WOMAN WHO DID
BY GRANT ALLEN
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BOSTON : ROBERTS BROS-, 1895
LONDON : JOHN LANE. VIGO ST
Copyright, 18t)5,
By Roberts Broth kks.
Ail rights reserved
John Wjlson and Son, CAMBRincF., U.S.A.
TO MY DEAR WIFE
TO WHOM I HAVE DEDICATED
MY TWENTY HAPPIEST YEARS
I DEDICATE ALSO
THIS BRIEF MEMORIAL
OF A LESS FORTUNATE LOVE
WRITTEN AT PERUGIA
SPRING 1893
FOR THP FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE
WHOLLY AND SOLELY TO SATISFY
MY OWN TASTE
AND MY OWN CONSCIENCE
PREFACE.
" But surely no woman would ever dare to do
SO," said my friend.
" I knew a woman who did," said I ; " and this
is her story."
I
THE WOMAN WHO DID.
I.
Mrs. Dewsbury's lawn was held by those
who knew it the loveliest in Surrey. The
smooth and springy sward that stretched in
front of the house was all composed of a tiny
yellow clover. It gave beneath the foot like
the pile on velvet. One's gaze looked forth
from it upon the endless middle distances of
the oak-clad Weald, with the uncertain blue
line of the South Downs in the background.
Ridge behind ridge, the long, low hills of palu-
dina limestone stood out in successive tiers,
each thrown up against its neighbor by the
misty haze that broods eternally over the
wooded valley; till, roaming across them all,
the eye rested at last on the rearing scarp of
Chanctonbury Ring, faintly pencilled on the
furthest sky-line. Shadowy phantoms of dim
heights framed the verge to east and west.
Alan Merrick drank it in with profound satis-
faction. After those sharp and clear-cut Italian
8 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
outlines, hard as lapis lazuli, the mysterious
vagueness, the pregnant suggestiveness, of our
English scenery strikes the imagination; and
Alan was fresh home from an early summer
tour among the Peruginesque solidities of the
Umbrian Apennines. " How beautiful it all is,
after all," he said, turning to his entertainer.
" In Italy 't is the background the painter dwells
upon ; in England, we look rather at the middle
distance."
Mrs. Dewsbury darted round her the restless
eye of a hostess, to see upon whom she could
socially bestow him. "Oh, come this way,"
she said, sweeping across the lawn towards
a girl in a blue dress at the opposite corner.
** You must know our new-comer. I want to
introduce you to Miss Barton, from Cambridge.
She 's such a nice girl too, — the Dean of
Dunwich's daughter."
Alan Merrick drew back with a vague ges-
ture of distaste. "Oh, thank you," he replied;
"but, do you know, I don't think I like deans„
Mrs. Dewsbury."
Mrs. Dewsbury's smile was recondite and
diplomatic. "Then you '11 exactly suit one an-
other," she answered with gay wisdom. " For, to
tell you the truth, I don't think she does either."
The young man allowed himself to be led
with a passive protest in the direction where
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 9
Mrs. Dewsbury so impulsively hurried him^
He heard that cultivated voice murmuring in
the usual inaudible tone of introduction, " Miss
Barton, Mr. Alan Merrick." Then he raised
his hat. As he did so, he looked down at
Herminia Barton's face with a sudden start of
surprise. Why, this was a girl of most unusual
beauty !
She was tall and dark, with abundant black
hair, richly waved above the ample forehead;
and she wore a curious Oriental-looking navy-
blue robe of some soft woollen stuff, that fell
in natural folds and set off to the utmost the
lissome grace of her rounded figure. It was
a sort of sleeveless sack, embroidered in front
with arabesques in gold thread, and fastened
obliquely two inches below the waist with a
belt of gilt braid, and a clasp of Moorish jewel-
work. Beneath it, a bodice of darker silk
showed at the arms and neck, with loose sleeves
in keeping. The whole costume, though quite
simple in style, a compromise either for after-
noon or evening, was charming in its novelty,
charming too in the way it permitted the utmost
liberty and variety of movement to the lithe
limbs of its wearer. But it was her face par-
ticularly that struck Alan Merrick at first sight.
That face was above all things the face of a free
woman. Something so frank and fearless shone
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lO THE WOMAN WHO DID.
in Herminia's glance, as her eye met his, that
Alan, who respected human freedom above all
other qualities in man or woman, was taken on
the spot by its perfect air of untrammelled
liberty. Yet it was subtle and beautiful too,
undeniably beautiful. Herminia Barton's fea-
tures, I think, were even more striking in their
way in later life, when sorrow had stamped her,
and the mark of her willing martyrdom for
humanity's sake was deeply printed upon them.
But their beauty then was the beauty of holiness,
which not all can appreciate. In her younger
days, as Alan Merrick first saw her, she was
beautiful still with the first flush of health and
strength and womanhood in a free and vigorous
English girl's body. A certain lofty serenity,
not untouched with pathos, seemed to strike
the keynote. But that was not all. Some hint
of every element in the highest loveliness met
in that face and form, — physical, intellectual,
emotional, moral.
"You '11 like him, Herminia," Mrs. Dewsbury
said, nodding. " He 's one of your own kind, as
dreadful as you are; very free and advanced;
a perfect firebrand. In fact, my dear child, I
don't know which of you makes my hair stand
on end most." And with that introductory
hint, she left the pair forthwith to their own
devices.
THE WOMAN WHO DID. II
Mrs. Dewsbury was right. It took those two
but little time to feel quite at home with ont
another. Built of similar mould, each seemed
instinctively to grasp what each was aiming at.
Two or three turns pacing up and down the
lawn, two or three steps along the box-covered
path at the side, and they read one another per-
fectly. For he was true man, and she was real
woman.
" Then you were at Girton ? " Alan asked, as
he paused with one hand on the rustic seat that
looks up towards Leith Hill, and the heather-
clad moorland.
"Yes, at Girton," Herminia answered, sink-
ing easily upon the bench, and letting one arm
rest on the back in a graceful attitude of
unstudied attention. "But I didn't take my
degree,*' she went on hurriedly, as one who is
anxious to disclaim some too great honor thrust
upon her. " I did n't care for the life ; I thought
it cramping. You see^ if we women are ever to
be free in the world, we must have in the end
a freeman's education. But the education at
Girton made only a pretence at freedom. At
heart, our girls were as enslaved to conventions
as any girls elsewhere. The whole object of
the training was to see just how far you could
manage to push a woman's education without
the faintest danger of her emancipation."
12 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
"You are right," Alan answered briskly, for
the point was a pet one with him. " I was an
Oxford man myself, and I know that servitude.
When I go up to Oxford now and see the girls
who are being ground in the mill at Somer-
ville, I 'm heartily sorry for them. It 's worse
for them than for us; they miss the only part
of university life that has educational value.
When we men were undergraduates, we lived
our whole lives, — lived them all round, devel-
oping equally every fibre of our natures. We
read Plato, and Aristotle, and John Stuart Mill,
to be sure, — and I *m not quite certain we got
much good from them ; but then our talk and
thought were not all of books, and of what we
spelt out in them. We rowed on the river, we
played in the cricket-field, we lounged in the
billiard-rooms, we ran up to town for the day,
we had wine in one another's rooms after hall
in the evening, and behaved like young fools,
and threw oranges wildly at one another's
heads, and generally enjoyed ourselves. It was
all very silly and irrational, no doubt, but it
was life, it was reality; while the pretended
earnestness of those pallid Somerville girls is
all an affectation of one-sided culture."
"That 's just it," Herminia answered, leaning
back on the rustic seat like David's Madame
R^camier. "You put your finger on the real
THE WOMAN WHO DID. I3U-
blot when you said those words, developing
equally every fibre of your natures. That 's
what nobody yet wants us women to do.
They *re trying hard enough to develop us
intellectually; but morally and socially they
want to mew us up just as close as ever. And
they won't succeed. The zenana must go.
Sooner or later, I 'm sure, if you begin by edu-
cating women, you must end by emancipating
them. "
"So I think too," Alan answered, growing
every moment more interested. " And for my
part, it *s the emancipation, not the mere edu-
cation, that most appeals to me." ,
"Yes, I 've always felt that," Herminia went
on, letting herself out more freely, for she felt
she was face to face with a sympathetic listener.
"And for that reason, it 's the question of social
and moral emancipation that interests me far
mor% than the mere political one, — woman's
rights as they call it. Of course I *m a mem-
ber of all the woman's franchise leagues and
everything of that sort, — they can't afford to do
without a single friend's name on their lists at
present ; but the vote is a matter that troubles
me little in itself, what I want is to see women
made fit to use it. After all, political life fills
but a small and unimportant part in our total
existence. It 's the perpetual pressure of social
14 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
and ethical restrictions that most weighs down
women. "
Alan paused and looked hard at her. "And
they tell me," he said in a slow voice, "you *re
the Dean of Dunwich*s daughter! "
Herminia laughed lightly, — a ringing girlish
laugh. Alan noticed it with pleasure. He felt
at once that the iron of Girton had not entered
into her soul, as into so many of our modern
young women's. There was vitality enough left
in her for a genuine laugh of innocent amuse-
ment. "Oh yes," she said, merrily; "that's
what I always answer to all possible objectors
to my ways and ideas. I reply with dignity,
* / was brought up in the family of a clergyman
of the Church of England. ' "
"And what does the Dean say to your
views .^" Alan interposed doubtfully.
Herminia laughed again. If her eyes were
profound, two dimples saved her. " I thought
you were with us," she answered with a twinkle;
"now, I begin to doubt it. 'You don't expect a
man of twenty- two to be governed in all things,
especially in the formation of his abstract
ideas, by his father's opinions. Why then a
woman ? "
"Why, indeed?" Alan answered. "There I
quite agree with you. I was thinking not so
much of what is right and reasonable as of what
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 1 5
is practical and usual. For most women, of
course, are — well, more or less dependent upon
their fathers. "
^'But I am not," Herminia answered, with
a faint suspicion of just pride in the undercur-
rent of her tone. "That 's in part why I went
away so soon from Girton. I felt that if women
are ever to be free, they must first of all be
independent. It is the dependence of women
that has allowed men to make laws for them,
socially and ethically. So I wouldn't stop at
Girton, partly because I felt the life was one-
sided, — our girls thought and talked of nothing
else on earth except Herodotus, trigonometry,
and the higher culture, — but partly also be-
cause I wouldn't be dependent on any man,
not even my own father. It left me freer to
act and think as I would. So I threw Girton
overboard, and came up to live in London.*'
"I see," Alan replied. "You wouldn't let
your schooling interfere with your education.
And now you support yourself?" he went on
quite frankly.
Herminia nodded assent.
"Yes, I support myself," she answered; "in
part by teaching at a high school for girls, and
in part by doing a little hack-work for news-
papers. "
"Then you 're just down here for your holi-
l6 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
days, I suppose?" Alan put in, leaning for-
ward.
"Yes, just down here for my holidays. I 've
lodgings on the Holmwood, in such a dear old
thatched cottage; roses peep in at the porch,
and birds sing on the bushes. After a term in
London, it *s a delicious change for one."
" But are you alone .^ " Alan interposed again,
still half hesitating.
Herminia smiled once more; his surprise
amused her. "Yes, quite alone," she answered.
" But if you seem so astonished at that, I shall
believe you and Mrs. Dewsbury have been try-
ing to take me in, and that you 're not really
with us. Why shouldn't a woman come down
alone to pretty lodgings in the country.? "
"Why not, indeed?" Alan echoed in turn.
"It's not at all that I disapprove. Miss Bar-
ton; on the contrary, I admire it; it 's only that
one 's surprised to find a woman, or for the
matter of that anybody, acting up to his or her
convictions. That's what I've always felt;
'tis the Nemesis of reason; if people begin by
thinking rationally, the danger is that they
may end by acting rationally also."
Herminia laughed. "I'm afraid," she an-
swered, " I *ve already reached that pass.
You '11 never find me hesitate to do anything
on earth, once I 'm convinced it 's right, merely
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THE WOMAN WHO DID. 1/
because other people think differently on the
subject.'*
Alan looked at her and mused. She was tall
and stately, but her figure was well developed,
and her form softly moulded. He admired her
immensely. How incongruous an outcome from
a clerical family! "It 's curious," he said, gaz-
ing hard at her, "that you should be a dean's
daughter."
"On the contrary," Herminia answered, with
perfect frankness, " I regard myself as a living
proof of the doctrine of heredity."
" How so ? " Alan inquired.
"Well, my father was a Senior Wrangler,"
Herminia replied, blushing faintly; "and I sup-
pose that implies a certain moderate develop-
ment of the logical faculties. In Ais generation,
people did n't apply the logical faculties to the
grounds of belief; they took those for granted;
but within his own limits, my father is still an
acute reasoner. And then he had always the
ethical and social interests. Those two things
— a love of logic, and a love of right — are
the forces that tend to make us what we call
religious. Worldly people don't care for fun-
damental questions of the universe at all; they
accept passively whatever is told them; they
think they think, and believe they believe it.
But people with an interest in fundamental
1 8 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
truth inquire for themselves into the constitu-
tion of the cosmos; if they are convinced one
way, they become what we call theologians ; if
they are convinced the other way, they become
what we call free-thinkers. Interest in the
problem is common to both ; it 's the nature
of the solution alone that differs in the two
cases."
"That's quite true," Alan assented. "And
have you ever noticed this curious corollary,
that you and I can talk far more sympathetically
with an earnest Catholic, for example, or an
earnest Evangelical, than we can talk with a
mere ordinary worldly person."
"Oh dear, yes," Herminia answered with
conviction. "Thought will always sympathize
with thought. It 's the unthinking mass one
can get no further with."
Alan changed the subject abruptly. This
girl so interested him. She wa,s the girl he
had imagined, the girl he had dreamt of, the
girl he had thought possible, but never yet met
with. "And you're in lodgings on the Holm-
wood here.? " he said, musing. " For how much
longer? "
"For six weeks, I 'm glad to say," Herminia
answered, rising.
" At what cottage ? "
"Mrs. Burke's, — not far from the station."
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 19
" May I come to see you there ? "
Herminia*s clear brown eyes gazed down
at him, all puzzlement. "Why, surely/* she
answered; "I shall be delighted to see you."
She paused for a second. " We agree about so
many things," she went on; "and it *s so rare
to find a man who can sympathize with the
higher longings in women."
"When are you likeliest to be at home.^"
Alan asked.
"In the morning, after breakfast, — that is,
at eight o'clock," Herminia answered, smiling;
or later, after lunch, say two or thereabouts. "
Six weeks," Alan repeated, more to himself
than to her. Those six week were precious.
Not a moment of them must be lost. "Then
I think," he went on quietly, "I shall call to-
morrow. "
A wave of conscious pleasure broke over Her-
minia's cheek, blush rose on white lily; but she
answered nothing. She was glad this kindred
soul should seem in such a hurry to renew her
acquaintance.
20 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
11.
Next afternoon, about two o'clock, Alan called
with a tremulous heart at the cottage. Her-
minia had heard not a little of him meanwhile
from her friend Mrs. Dewsbury. " He *s a
charming young man, my dear," the woman
of the world observed with confidence. " I felt
quite sure you *d attract one another. He 's so
clever and advanced, and everything that 's
dreadful, — just like yourself, Herminia. But
then he 's also very well connected. That 's
always something, especially when one *s an
oddity. You would n't go down one bit your-
self, dear, if you weren't a dean's daughter.
The shadow of a cathedral steeple covers a mul-
titude of sins. Mr. Merrick 's the son of the
famous London gout doctor, — you must know
his name, — all the royal dukes flock to him.
He 's a barrister himself, and in excellent prac-
tice. You might do worse, do you know, than
to go in for Alan Merrick."
Herminia's lip curled an almost impercep-
tible curl as she answered gravely, "I don't
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 21
think you quite understand my plans in life,
Mrs. Dewsbury. It isn't my present intention
to go in for anybody. "
But Mrs. Dewsbury shook her head. She
knew the world she lived in. " Ah, I *ve heard
a great many girls talk like that beforehand,"
she answered at once with her society glibness ;
" but when the right man turned up, they soon
forgot their protestations. It makes a lot of
difference, dear, when a man really asks you! "
Herminia bent her head. "You misunder-
stand me," she replied. "I don*t mean to say
I will never fall in love. I expect to do that.
I look forward to it frankly, — it is a woman's
place in life. I only mean to .say, I don't
think anything will ever induce me to marry, —
that is to say, legally." /
Mrs. Dewsbury gave a start of surprise and
horror. She really did n't know what girls
were coming to nowadays, — which, considering
her first principles, was certainly natural. But
if only she had seen the conscious flush with
which Herminia received her visitor that after-
noon, she would have been confirmed in her-
belief that Herminia, after all, in spite of her
learning, was much like other girls. In which
conclusion Mrs. Dewsbury would not in the end
have been fully justified.
When Alan arrived, Herminia sat at the win-
22 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
dow by the quaintly clipped box-tree, a volume
of verse held half closed in her hand, though
she was a great deal too honest and transparent
to pretend she was reading it. She expected
Alan to call, in accordance with his promise,
for she had seen at Mrs. Dewsbury's how great
an impression she produced upon him; and,
having taught herself that it was every true
woman's duty to avoid the affectations and self-
deceptions which the rule of man has begotten
in women, she did n*t try to conceal from her-
self the fact that she on her side was by no
means without interest in the question how
soon he would pay her his promised visit. As
he appeared at the rustic gate in the privet
hedge, Herminia looked out, and changed color
with pleasure when she saw him push it open.
" Oh, how nice of you to look me up so soon ! "
she cried, jumping from her seat (with just a
glance at the glass) and strolling out bare-
headed into the cottage garden. "Isn't this a
charming place .^ Only look at our hollyhocks!
Consider what an oasis after six months of
London ! "
She seemed even prettier than last night, in
her simple white morning dress, a mere ordi-
nary English gown, without affectation of any
sort, yet touched with some faint reminiscence
of a flowing Greek chiton. Its half-classical
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 2$
drapery Exactly suited the severe regularity of
her pensive features and her graceful figure.
Alan thought as he looked at her he had never
before seen anybody who appeared at all points
so nearly to approach his ideal of womanhood.
She was at once so high in type, so serene, so
tranquil, and yet so purely womanly.
"Yes, it is a lovely place," he answered,
looking around at the clematis that drooped
from the gable-ends. "I'm staying myself
with the Watertons at the Park, but I 'd rather
have this pretty little rose-bowered garden than
all their balustrades and Italian terraces. The
cottagers have chosen the better part. What
gillyflowers and what columbines! And here
you look out so directly on the common. I
love the gorse and the bracken, I love the
stagnant pond, I love the very geese that tug
hard at the silverweed, they make it all seem
so deliciously English."
"Shall we walk to the ridge .^" Herminia
asked with a sudden burst of suggestion. "It 's
too rare a day to waste a minute of it indoors.
I was waiting till you came. We can talk all
the freer for the fresh air on the hill-top."
Nothing could have suited Alan Merrick
better, and he said so at once. Herminia dis-
appeared for a moment to get her hat. Alan
observed almost without observing it that she
24 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
was gone but for a second. She asked none of
that long interval that most women require for
the simplest matter of toilet. She was back
again almost instantly, bright and fresh and
smiling, in the most modest of hats, set so art-
lessly on her head that it became her better
than all art could have made it. Then they
started for a long stroll across the breezy com-
mon, yellow in places with upright spikes of
small summer furze, and pink with wild pea-
blossom. Bees buzzed, broom crackled, the
chirp of the field-cricket rang shrill from the
sand-banks. Herminia's light foot tripped over
the spongy turf. By the top of the furthest
ridge, looking down on North Holmwood
church, they sat side by side for a while on
the close short grass, brocaded with daisies, and
gazed across at the cropped sward of Denbies
and the long line of the North Downs stretching
away towards Reigate. Tender grays and greens
melted into one another on the larches hard by;
Betchworth chalk-pit gleamed dreamy white in
the middle distance. They had been talking
earnestly all the way, like two old friends
together; for they were both of them young,
and they felt at once that nameless bond which
often draws one closer to a new acquaintance
at first sight than years of converse. "How
seriously you look at life," Alan cried at last.
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THE WOMAN WHO DTD. 2$
in answer to one of Herminia's graver thoughts.
"I wonder what makes you take it so much
more earnestly than all other women?"
" It came to me all at once when I was about
sixteen," Herminia answered with quiet com-
posure, like one who remarks upon some objec-
tive fact of exernal nature. " It came to me in
listening to a sermon of my father's, — which I
always look upon as one more instance of the
force of heredity. He was preaching on the
text, * The Truth shall make you Free,' and all
that he said about it seemed to me strangely
alive, to be heard from a pulpit. He said we
ought to seek the Truth before all things, and
never to rest till we felt sure we had found it.
We should not suffer our souls to be beguiled
into believing a falsehood merely because we
wouldn't take the trouble to find out the Truth
for ourselves by searching. We must dig for
it ; we must grope after it. And as he spoke,
I made up my mind, in a flash of resolution,
to find out the Truth ^for myself about every-
thing, and never to be deterred from seeking it,
and embracing it, and ensuing it when found,
by any convention or preconception. Thpn he
went on to say how the Truth would make us
Free, and I felt he was right. It would open
our eyes, and emancipate us from social and
moral slaveries. So I made up my mind, at the
26 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
same time, that whenever I found the Truth
I would not scruple to follow it to its logical
conclusions, but would practise it in my life,
and let it make me Free with perfect freedom.
Then, in search of Truth, I got my father to
send me to Girton; and when I had lighted
on it there half by accident, and it had made me
Free indeed, I went away from Girton again,
because I saw if I stopped there I could never
achieve and guard my freedom. From that
day forth I have aimed at nothing but to know
the Truth, and to act upon it freely; for, as
Tennyson says, —
* To live by law
Acting the law we live by without fear,
And because right is right to follow right,
Were wisdom in the scorn of consequence.' "
She broke off suddenly, and looking up, let
her eye rest for a second on the dark thread of
clambering pines that crest the down just above
Brockham. **This is dreadfully egotistical,"
she cried, with a sharp little start. "I ought
to apologize for talking so much to you about
my own feelings."
Alan gazed at her and smiled. "Why apol-
ogize," he asked, "for managing to be interest-
ing.? You are not egotistical at all. What you
are telling me is history, — the history of a soul,
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which is always the one thing on earth worth
hearing. I take it as a compliment that you
should hold me worthy to hear it. It is a proof
of confidence. Besides," he went on, after a
second's pause, " I am a man; you are a woman.
Under those circumstances, what would other-
wise be egotism becomes common and mutual.
When two people sympathize with one another,
all they can s^y about themselves loses its per-
sonal tinge and merges into pure human and
abstract interest."
Herminia brought back her eyes from infinity
to his face.. "That's true," she said frankly.
"The magic link of sex that severs and unites
us makes all the difference. And, indeed, I
confess I wouldn't so have spoken of my
inmost feelings to another woman."
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III.
From that day forth, Alan and Herminia met
frequently. Alan was given to sketching, and
he sketched a great deal in his idle times on
the common. He translated the cottages from
real estate into poetry. On such occasions,
Herminia*s walks often led her in the same
direction. For Herminia was frank; she liked
the young man, and, the truth having made
her free, she knew no reason why she should
avoid or pretend to avoid his company. She
had no fear of that sordid impersonal goddess
who rules Philistia; it mattered not to her what
"people said," or whether or not they said any-
thing about her. "Aiunt: quid aiunt.^ aiant,"
was her motto. Could she have known to a
certainty that her meetings on the common
with Alan Merrick had excited unfavorable
comment among the old ladies of Holmwood,
the point would have seemed to her unworthy
of an emancipated soul's consideration. She
could estimate at its true worth the value of
all human criticism upon human action.
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So, day after day, she met Alan Merrick, half
by accident, half by design, on the slopes of
the Holmwood. They talked much together,
for Alan liked her and understood her. His
heart went out to her. Compact of like clay,
he knew the meaning of her hopes and aspira-
tions. Often as he sketched he would look up
and wait, expecting to catch the faint sound of
her light step, or see her lithe figure poised
breezy against the sky on the neighboring
ridges. Whenever she drew near, his pulse
thrilled at her coming, — a somewhat unusual
experience with Alan Merrick. For Alan,
though a pure soul in his way, and mixed of
the finer paste, was not quitCxlike those best of
men, who are, so to speak, born married. A
man with an innate genius for loving and being
loved cannot long remain single. He must
marry young ; or at least, if he does not marry,
he must find a companion, a woman to his
heart, a help that is meet for him. What is
commonly called prudence in such concerns is
only another name for vice and cruelty. The
purest and best of men necessarily mate them-
selves before they are twenty. As a rule, it
is the selfish, the mean, the calculating, who
wait, as they say, "till they can afford to
marry." That vile phrase scarcely veils hidden
depths of depravity. A man who is really a
".*
30 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
man, and who has a genius for loving, must
love from the very first, and must feel himself
surrounded by those who love him. 'Tis the
first necessity of life to him ; bread, meat, rai-
ment, a house, an income, rank far second to
that prime want in the good man's economy.
But Alan Merrick, though an excellent fellow
in his way, and of noble fibre, was not quite
one of the first, the picked souls of humanity.
He did not count among the finger-posts who
point the way that mankind will travel. Though
Herminia always thought him so. That was
her true woman's gift of the highest idealizing
power. Indeed, it adds, to my mind, to the
tragedy of Herminia Barton's life that the man
for whom she risked and lost everything was
never quite worthy of her; and that Herminia
to the end not once suspected it. Alan was
over thirty, and was still "looking about him."
That alone, you will admit, is a sufficiently
grave condemnation. That a man should have
arrived at the ripe age of thirty and not yet have
lighted upon the elect lady — the woman with-
out whose companionship life would be to him
unendurable is in itself a strong proof tA much
underlying selfishness, or, what comes to the
same thing, of a calculating disposition. The
right sort of man does n't argue with himself
at all on these matters. He does n't say with
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selfish coldness, "I can't afford a wife;" or,
"If I marry now, I shall ruin my prospects."
He feels and acts. He mates, like the birds,
because he can't help himself. A woman crosses
his path who is to him indispensable, a part of
himself, the needful complement of his own per-
sonality ; and without heed or hesitation he takes,
her to himself, lawfully or unlawfully, because he
has need of her. That is how nature has made
us ; that is how every man worthy of the name
of man has always felt, and thought, and acted.
The worst of all possible and conceivable checks
upon population is the vile one which Malthus
glossed over as "the prudential," and which con-
sists in substituting prostitution for marriage
through the spring-tide of one's manhood.
Alan Merrick, however, was over thirty and
still unmarried. More than that, he was heart-
free, — a very evil record. And, like most other
unmarried men of thirty, he was a trifle fas-
tidious. He was "looking about him." That
means to say, he was waiting to find some
woman who suited him. No man does so at
twenty. He sees and loves. But Alan Mer-
rick, having let slip the golden moment when
nature prompts every growing youth to fling
himself with pure devotion at the feet of the
first good angel who happens to cross his path
and attract his worship, had now outlived the
y
32 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
early flush of pure passion, and was thinking
only of "comfortably settling himself." In one
word, when a man is young, he asks himself
with a thrill what he can do to make happy
this sweet soul he loves ; when he has let that
critical moment flow by him unseized, he asks
only, in cold blood, what woman will most
agreeably make life run smooth for him. The
first stage is pure love; the second, pure
selfishness.
Still, Alan Merrick was now ** getting on in
his profession,'' and, as people said, it was
high time he should be settled. They said it
as they might have said it was high time he
should take a business partner. From that
lowest depth of emotional disgrace Herminia
Barton was to preserve him. It was her task
in life, though she knew it not, to save Alan
Merrick's soul. And nobly she saved it.
Alan, "looking about him," with some fine
qualities of nature underlying in the back-
ground that mean social philosophy of the class
from which he sprang, fell frankly in love
almost at first sight with Herminia. He ad-
mired and respected her. More than that, he
understood her. She had power in her purity
to raise his nature for a time to something
approaching her own high level. True woman
has the real Midas gift: all that she touches
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turns to purest gold. Seeing Herminia much
and talking with her, Alan could not fail to be
impressed with the idea that here was a soul
which could do a great deal more for him than
"make him comfortable," — which could raise
him to moral heights he' had hardly yet dreamt
of, — which could wake in him the best of which
he was capable. And watching her thus, he soon
fell in love with her, as few men of thirty are
able to fall in love for the first time, — as the
young man falls in love, with the unselfish
energy of an unspoilt nature. He asked no
longer whether Herminia was the sort of girl
who could make him comfortable; he asked
only, with that delicious tremor of self-distrust
which belongs to naive youth, whether he dare
offer himself to one so pure and good and
beautiful. And his hesitation was justified;
for our sordid England has not brought forth
many such serene .and single-minded souls as
Herminia Barton.
At last one afternoon they had climbed
together the steep red face of the sandy slope
that rises abruptly from the Holmwood towards
Leith Hill, by the Robin Gate entrance. Near
the top, they had seated themselves on a carpet
of sheep-sorrel, looking out across the impertur-
bable expanse of the Weald, and the broad pas-
tures of Sussex. A solemn blue haze brooded
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34 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
soft over the land. The sun was sinking low ;
oblique afternoon lights flooded the distant
South Downs. Their combes came out aslant
in saucer-shaped shadows. Alan turned and
gazed at Herminia; she was hot with climbing,
and her calm face was flushed. A town-bred
girl would have looked red and blowsy ; but the
color and the exertion just suited Herminia.
On that healthy brown cheek it seemed natural
to discern the visrble marks of effort. Alan
gazed at her with a sudden rush of untram-
melled feeling. The elusive outline of her
grave sweet face, the wistful eyes, the ripe red
mouth enticed him. "Oh, Herminia," he cried,
calling' her for the first time by her Christian
name alone, " how glad I am I happened to go
that afternoon to Mrs. Dewsbury*s. For other-
wise perhaps I might never have known you."
Herminia's heart gave a delicious bound.
She was a woman, and therefore she was g^ad
he should speak so. She was a woman, and
therefore she shrank from acknowledging it.
But she looked him back in the face tranquilly,
none the less on that account, and answered
with sweet candor, "Thank you so much, Mr.
Merrick."
" /said * Herminia, * " the young man corrected,
smiling, yet aghast at his own audacity.
"And I thanked you for it," Herminia an-
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swered, casting down those dark lashes, and
feeling the heart throb violently under her neat
bodice.
Alan drew a deep breath. " And it was that
you thanked me for," he ejaculated, tingling.
"Yes, it was that I thanked you for," Her-
minia answered, with a still deeper rose spread-
ing down to her bare throat. " I like you very
much, and it pleases me to hear you call me
Herminia. Why should I shrink from admit-
ting W. *T is the Truth, you know; and the
Truth shall make us Free. I 'm not afraid of
my freedom."
Alan paused for a second, irresolute. " Her-
minia," he said at last, leaning forward till his
face was very close to hers, and he could feel
the warm breath that came and went so quickly;
"that *s very, very kind of you. I needn't tell
you I 've been thinking a great deal about you
these last three weeks or so. You have filled
my mind; filled it to the brim, and I think you
know it."
Philosopher as she was, Herminia plucked a
blade of grass, and drew it quivering through
her tremulous fingers. It caught and hesitated.
"I guessed as much, I think," she answered,
low but frankly.
The young man's heart gave a bound. "And
you^ Herminia.^ " he asked, in an eager ecstasy.
36 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
Herminia was true to the Truth. "I've
thought a great deal about you too, Mr. Mer-
rick," she answered, looking down, but with a
great gladness thrilling her.
" I said * Herminia, ' " the young man repeated,
with a marked stress on the Christian name.
Herminia hesitated a second. Then two
crimson spots flared forth on her speaking face,
as she answered with an effort, "About you
too, Alan."
The young man drew back and gazed at her.
She was very, very beautiful. "Dare I ask
you, Herminia.^" he cried. "Have I a right
to ask you.? Am I worthy of you, I mean.?
Ought I to retire as not your peer, and leave
you to some man who could rise more easily
to the height of your dignity.?"
"I've thought about that too," Herminia
answered, still firm to her principles. " I 've
thought it all over. I 've said to myself. Shall
I do right in monopolizing him, when he is so
great, and sweet, and true, and generous .? Not
monopolizing, of course, for that would be wrong
and selfish ; but making you my own more than
any other woman's. And I answered my own
heart. Yes, yes, I shall do right to accept him,
if he asks me; for I love him, that is enough.
The thrill within me tells me so. Nature put
that thrill in our souls to cry out to us with a
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clear voice when we had met the soul she then
and there intended for us. "
Alan's face flushed like her own. "Then
you love me," he cried, all on fire. "And you
deign to tell me so; Oh, Herminia, how sweet
you are. What have I done to deserve it ? "
He folded her in his arms. Her bosom
throbbed on his. Their lips met for a second.
Herminia took his kiss with sweet submission,
and made no faint pretence of fighting against
it. Her heart was full. She quickened to the
finger-tips.
There was silence 'for a minute or two, — the
silence when soul speaks direct to soul through
the vehicle of touch, the mother-tongue of the
affections. Then Alan leaned back once more,
and hanging over her in a rapture murmured
in soft low tones, " So Herminia, you will be
mine! You say beforehand you will take me."
"Not wz// be yours," Herminia corrected in
that silvery voice of hers. " Am yours already,
Alan. I somehow feel as if I had always been
yours. I am yours this moment. You may do
what you would with me."
She said it so simply, so purely, so naturally,
with all the supreme faith of the good woman,
enamoured, who can yield herself up without
blame to the man who loves her, that it hardly
even occurred to Alan's mind to wonder at her
38 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
self-surrender. Yet he drew back all the same
in a sudden little crisis of doubt and uncer-
tainty. He scarcely realized what she meant.
"Then, dearest," he cried tentatively, "how
soon may we be married ? "
At sound of those unexpected words from
such lips as his, a flush of shame and horror
overspread Herminia's cheek. "Never!" she
cried firmly, drawing away. "Oh, Alan, what
can you mean by it.^ Don't tell me, after all
I 've tried to make you feel and understand,
you thought I could possibly consent to marry
you } "
The man gazed at her in surprise. Though
he was prepared for much, he was scarcely pre-
pared for such devotion to principle. "Oh,
Herminia," he cried, "you can't mean it. You
can't have thought of what it entails. Surely,
surely, you won't carry your ideas of freedom
to such an extreme, such a dangerous conclu-
sion ! "
Herminia looked up at him, half hurt.
"Can't have thought of what it entails!" she
repeated. Her dimples deepened. "Why,
Alan, haven't I had my whole lifetime to think
of it.^ What else have I thought about in any
serious way, save this one great question of a
woman's duty to herself, and her sex, and her
unborn children? It's been my sole study.
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How could you fancy I spoke hastily, or with-
out due consideration on such a subject?
Would you have me like the blind girls who
go unknowing to the altar, as sheep go to the
shambles ? Could you suspect m« of such care-
lessness ? — such culpable thoughtlessness ? —
you, to whom I have spoken of all this so
freely?"
Alan stared at her, disconcerted, hardly
knowing how to answer. "But what alterna-
tive do you propose, then ? " he asked in his
amazement.
"Propose?" Herminia repeated, taken aback
in her turn. It all seemed to her so plain, and
transparent, and natural. "Why, simply that
we should be friends, like any others, very dear,
dear friends, with the only kind of friendship
that nature makes possible between men and
women."
She said it so softly, with some womanly
gentleness, yet with such lofty candor, that
Alan could n't help admiring her more than
ever before for her translucent simplicity, and
directness of purpose. Yet her suggestion
frightened him. It was so much more novel
to him than to her. Herminia had reasoned
it all out with herself, as she truly said, for
years, and knew exactly how she felt and
thought about it. To Alan, on the contrary.
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it came with the shock of a sudden surprise,
and he could hardly tell on the spur of the
moment how to deal with it. He paused and
reflected. "But do you mean to say, Herminia,"
he asked, still holding that soft brown hand
unresisted in his, "you've made up your mind
never to marry any one.^ made up your mind to
brave the whole mad world, that can't possibly
understand the motives of your conduct, and live
with some friend, as you put it, unmarried.? "
"Yes, I've made up my mind," Herminia
answered, with a faint tremor in her maidenly
voice, but with hardly a trace now of a trait-
orous blush, where no blush was needed. " I *ve
made up my mind, Alan; and from all we had
said and talked over together, I thought you
at least would sympathize in my resolve."
She spoke with a gentle tinge of regret, nay
almost of disillusion. The bare suggestion of
that regret stung Alan to the quick. He felt
it was shame to him that he could not rise at
once to the height of her splendid self-renuncia-
tion. " You mistake me, dearest," he answered,
petting her hand in his own (and she allowed
him to pet it). "It wasn't for myself, or for
the world I hesitated. My thought was for
you. You are very young yet. You say you
have counted the cost. I wonder if you have.
I wonder if you realize it."
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"Only too well,'* Herminia replied, in a very
earnest mood. " I have wrought it all out in
my mind beforehand, — covenanted with my
soul that for women's sake I would be a free
woman. Alan, whoever would be free must
himself strike the blow. I know what you
will say, — what every man would say to the
woman he loved under similar circumstances,
— * Why should you be the victim } Why
should you be the martyr.^ Bask in the sun
yourself; leave this doom to some other.' But,
Alan, I can't. I feel / must face it. Unless
one woman begins, there will be no begin-
ning." She lifted his hand in her own, and
fondled it in her turn with caressing tender-
ness. "Think how easy it would be for me, dear
friend," she cried, with a catch in her voice,
" to do as other women do ; to accept the hon-
arable marriage you offer me, as other women
would call it; to be false to my sex, a traitor
to my convictions; to sell my kind for a mess
of pottage, a name and a home, or even for
thirty pieces of silver, to be some rich man's
wife, as other women have sold it. But, Alan,
I can't. My conscience won't let me. I know
what marriage is, from what vile slavery it has
sprung; on what unseen horrors for my sister
women it is reared and buttressed; by what
unholy sacrifices it is sustained, and made pos-
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sible. I know it has a history. I know its
past, I know its present, and I can't embrace
it; I can't be untrue to my most sacred beliefs.
I can't pander to the malignant thing, just
because a man who loves me would be pleased
by my giving way and would kiss me, and
fondle me for it. And I love you to fondle
me. But I must keep my proper place, the
freedom which I have gained for myself by
such arduous efforts. I have said to you al-
ready, * So far as my will goes, I am yours;
take me, and do as you choose with me. ' That
much I can yield, as every good woman should
yield it, to the man she loves, to the man who
loves her. But more than that, no. It would
be treason to my sex; not my life, not my
future, not my individuality, not my freedom."
"I wouldn't ask you for those," Alan an-
swered, carried away by the torrent flood of
her passionate speech. " I would wish you to
guard them. But, Herminia, just as a matter
of form, — to prevent the world from saying
the cruel things the world is sure to say, — and
as an act of justice to you, and your children !
A mere ceremony of marriage; what more does
it mean now-a-days than that we two agree to
live together on the ordinary terms of civilized
society ? "
Still Herminia shook her head. "No, no,"
,'ni
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she cried vehemently. " I deny and decline
those terms; they are part and parcel of a sys-
tem of slavery. I have learnt that the righteous
soul should avoid all appearance of evil. I will
not palter and parley with the unholy thing.
Even though you go to a registry-office and
get rid as far as you can of every relic of the
sacerdotal and sacramental idea, yet the mar-
riage itself is still an assertion of man's supre-
macy over woman. It ties her to him for life,
it ignores her individuality, it compels her to
promise what no human heart can be sure of
performing; for you can contract to do or not
to do, easily enough, but contract to feel or
not to feel, — what transparent absurdity! It
is full of all evils, and I decline to consider it.
If I love a man at all, I must love him on terms
of perfect freedom. I can't bind myself down
to live with him to my shame one day longer
than I love him; or to love him at all if I find
him unworthy of my purest love, or unable to
retain it ; or if I discover some other more fit to
be loved by me. You admitted the other day
that all this was abstractly true; why should you
wish this morning to draw back from following
it out to its end in practice.? "
Alan was only an Englishman, and shared,
of course, the inability of his countrymen to
carry any principle to its logical conclusion.
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He was all for admitting that though things
must really be so, yet it were prudent in life
to pretend they were otherwise. This is the
well-known English virtue of moderation and
compromise; it* has made England what she
is, the shabbiest, sordidest, worst-organized of
nations. So he paused for a second and tem-
porized. "It's for your sake, Herminia," he
said again; " I can't bear to think of your mak-
ing yourself a martyr. And I don't see how,
if you act as you propose, you could escape
martyrdom."
Herminia looked up at him' with pleading
eyes. Tears just trembled on the edge of
those glistening lashes. "It never occurred
to me to think," she said gently but bravely,
"my life could ever end in anything else but
martyrdom. It viust needs be so with all true
lives, and all good ones. For whoever sees the
tfuth, whoever strives earnestly with all his
soul to be good, must be raised many planes
above the common mass of men around him ; he
must be a moral pioneer, and the moral pioneer
is always a martyr. People won't allow others
to be wiser and better than themselves, unpun-
ished. They can forgive anything except moral
superiority. We have each to choose between
acquiescence in the wrong, with a life of ease,
and struggle for the right, crowned at last by
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inevitable failure. To succeed is to fail, and
failure is the only success worth aiming at.
Every great and good life can but end in a
Calvary."
"And I want to save you from that," Alan
cried, leaning over her with real tenderness,
for she was already very dear to him. " I want
to save you from yourself ; I want to make you
think twice before you rush headlong into such
a danger. "
^^ Not to save me from myself, but to save
me from my own higher and better nature,"
Herminia answered with passionate serious-
ness. "Alan, I don't want any man to save
me from that ; I want you rather to help me,
to strengthen me, to sympathize with me. I
want you to love me, not for my face and form
alone, not for what I share with every other
woman, but for all that is holiest and deepest
within me. If you can't love me for that, I
don't ask you to love me; I want to be loved
for what I am in myself, for the yearnings I
possess that are most of all peculiar to me. I
know you are attracted to me by those yearn-
ings above everything; why wish me untrue
to them } It was because I saw you could sym-
pathize with me in these impulses that I said
to myself. Here, at last, is the man who can go
through life as an aid and a spur to me. Don't
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tell me I was mistaken; don't belie my belief.
Be what I thought you were, what I know you
are. Work with me, and help me. Lift me!
raise me! exalt me! Take me on the sole
terms on which I can give myself up to you.'*
She stretched her arms out, pleading; she
turned those subtle eyes to him, appealingly.
She was a beautiful woman. Alan Merrick was
human. The man in him gave way; he seized
her in his clasp, and pressed her close to his
bosom. It heaved tumultuously. " I could do
anything for you, Herminia,*' he cried, "and
indeed, I do sympathize with you. But give
me, at least, till to-morrow to think this
thing over. It is a momentous question; don't
let us be precipitate."
Herminia drew a long breath. His embrace
thrilled through her. "As you will," she
answered with a woman's meekness. "But
remember, Alan, what I say I mean; on these
terms it shall be, and upon none others. Brave
women before me have tried for awhile to act
on their own responsibility, for the good of
their sex; but never of their own free will
from the very beginning. They have avoided
marriage, not because they thought it a shame
and a surrender, a treason to their sex, a base
yielding to the unjust pretensions of men, but
because there existed at the time some obstacle
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in their way in the shape of the vested interest
of some other woman. When Mary Godwin
chose to mate herself with Shelley, she took
her good name in her hands; but still there
was Harriet. As soon as Harriet was dead,
Mary showed she had no deep principle of
action involved, by marrying Shelley. When
George Eliot chose to pass her life with Lewes
on terms of equal freedom, she defied the man-
made law; but still, there was his wife to pre-
vent the possibility of a legalized union. As
soon as Lewes was dead, George Eliot showed
she had no principle involved, by marrying
another man. Now, / have the rare chance of
acting otherwise; I can show the world from
the very first that I act from principle, and
from principle only. I can say to it in effect,
* See, here is the man of my choice, the man
I love, truly, and purely, the man any one of
you would willingly have seen offering himself
in lawful marriage to your own daughters. If
I would, I might go the beaten way you pre-
scribe, and marry him legally. But of my own
free will I disdain that degradation; I choose
rather to be free. No fear of your scorn, no
dread of your bigotry, no shrinking at your
cruelty, shall prevent me from following the
thorny path I know to be the right one. I
seek no temporal end. I will not prove false
48 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
to the future of my kind in order to protect
myself from your hateful indignities. I know
on what vile foundations your temple of wed-
lock is based and built, what pitiable victims
languish and die in its sickening vaults; and I
will not consent to enter it. Here, of my own
free will, I take my stand for the right, and
refuse your sanctions ! No woman that I know
of has ever yet done that. Other women have
fallen, as men choose to put it in their odious
dialect; no other has voluntarily risen as I pro-
pose to do. ' " She paused a moment for breath.
"Now you know how I feel," she continued,
looking straight into his eyes. "Say no more
at present ; it is wisest so. But go home and
think it out, and talk it over with me to-
morrow. "
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IV.
That night Alan slept little. Even at dinner
his hostess, Mrs. Waterton, noticed his preoc-
cupation; and, on the pretext of a headache,
he retired early to his own bedroom. His
mind was full of Herminia and these strange
ideas of hers; how could he listen with a be-
coming show of interest to Ethel Waterton's
aspirations on the grand piano after a gipsy
life, — oh, a gipsy life for her! — when in point
of fact she was a most insipid blonde from the
cover of a chocolate box.^ So he went to bed
betimes, and there lay long awake, deep won-
dering to himself how to act about Herminia.
He was really in love with her. That much
he acknowledged frankly. More profoundly in
love than he had ever conceived it possible he
could find himself with any one. Hitherto, he
had "considered" this girl or that, mostly on
his mother's or sister's recommendation; and
after observing her critically for a day or two,
as he might have observed a horse or any other
intended purchase, he had come to the conclu-
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sion "she wouldn't do," and had ceased to
entertain her. But with Herminia, he was in
love. The potent god had come upon him.
That imperious inner monitor which cries aloud
to a man, "You must have this girl, because
you can't do without her; you must strive to
make her happy, because her happiness is more
to you now ten thousand fold than your own,"
that imperious inner monitor had spoken out
at last in no uncertain tone to Alan Merrick.
He knew for the first time what it is to be in
love ; in love with a true and beautiful woman,
not with his own future convenience and com-
fort. The keen fresh sense it quickened within
him raised him for the moment some levels
above himself. For Herminia's sake, he felt,
he could do or dare anything.
Nay, more; as Herminia herself had said to
him, it was her better, her inner self he was
in love with, not the mere statuesque face, the
full and faultless figure. He saw how pure,
how pellucid, how noble the woman was; tread-
ing her own ideal world of high seraphic har-
monies. He was in love with her stainless
soul; he could not have loved her so well,
could not have admired her so profoundly, had
she been other than she was, had she shared
the common prejudices and preconceptions of
women. It was just because she was Herminia
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that he felt so irresistibly attracted towards
her. She drew him like a magnet. What he
loved and admired was not so much the fair,
frank face itself, as the lofty Cornelia-like
spirit behind it.
And yet, — he hesitated.
Could he accept the sacrifice this white soul
wished to make for him.** Coujd he aid and
abet her in raising up for herself so much unde-
served obloquy } Could he help her to become
Anathema niaranatha among her sister women }
Even if she felt brave enough to try the experi-
ment herself for humanity's sake, was it not
his duty as a man to protect her from her own
sublime and generous impulses.? Is it not for
that in part that nature makes us virile.? We
must shield the weaker vessel. He was flattered
not a little that this leader among women
should have picked him out for herself among
the ranks of men as her predestined companion
in her chosen task of emancipating her sex.
And he was thoroughly sympathetic (as every
good man must needs be) with her aims and
her method. Yet, still he hesitated. Never
before could he have conceived such a problem
of the soul, such a moral dilemma possible.' It
rent heart and brain at once asunder. Instinc-
tively he felt to himself he would be doing
wrong should he try in any way to check these
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splendid and unselfish impulses which led
Herminia to offer herself willingly up as a
living sacrifice on behalf of her enslaved sis-
ters everywhere. Yet the innate feeling of
the man, that 't is his place to protect and
guard the woman, even from her own higher
and purer self, intervened to distract him. He
couldn't bear to feel he might be instrumental
in bringing upon his pure Herminia the tor-
tures that must be in store for her; he could n't
bear to think his name might be coupled with
hers in shameful ways, too base for any man to
contemplate.
And then, intermixed with these higher
motives, came others that he hardly liked to
confess to himself where Herminia was con-
cerned, but which nevertheless would obtrude
themselves, will he, nill he, upon him. What
would other people say about such an innocent
union as Herminia contemplated ? Not indeed,
'* What effect would it have upon his position
and prospects?" Alan Merrick's place as a
barrister was fairly well assured; and the Bar
is luckily one of the few professions in lie-
loving England where a man need not grovel
at the mercy of the moral judgment of the
meanest and grossest among his fellow-crea-
tures, as is the case with the Church, with
medicine, with the politician, and with the
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schoolmaster. But Alan could not help think-
ing all the same how people would misinter-
pret and misunderstand his relations with the
woman he loved, if he modelled them strictly
upon Herminia's wishes. It was hateful, it
was horrible to have to con the thing over,
where that faultless soul was concerned, in the
vile and vulgar terms other people would apply
to it; but for Herminia's sake, con it over so
he must ; and though he shrank from the efifort
with a deadly shrinking, he nevertheless faced
it. Men at the clubs would say he had seduced
Herminia. Men at the clubs would lay the
whole blame of the episode upon him; and he
could n*t bear to be so blamed for the sake of
a woman, to save whom from the faintest
shadow of disgrace or shame he would willingly
have died a thousand times over. For since
Herminia had confessed her love to him yes-
terday, he had begun to feel how much she was
to him. His admiration and appreciation of
her had risen inexpressibly. And was he now
to be condemned for having dragged down to
the dust that angel whose white wings he felt
himself unworthy to touch with the hem of his
garment ?
And yet, once more, when he respected her
so much for the sacrifice she was willing to
make for humanity, would it be right for him
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to stand in her way, to deter her from realizing
her own highest nature? She was Herminia
just because she lived in that world of high
hopes, just because she had the courage and
the nobility to dare this great thing. Would
it be right of him to bring her down from that
pedestal whereon she stood so austere, and
urge upon her that she should debase herself
to be as any other woman, — even as Ethel
Waterton? For the Watertons had brought
him there to propose to Ethel.
For hours he tossed and turned and revolved
these problems. Rain beat on the leaded panes
of the Waterton dormers. Day dawned, but no
light came with it to his troubled spirit. The
more he thought of this dilemma, the more pro-
foundly he shrank from the idea of allowing
himself to be made into the instrument for
what the world would call, after its kind, Her-
minia's shame and degradation. For even if
the world could be made to admit that Her-
minia had done what she did from chaste and
noble motives, — which considering what we
all know of the world, was improbable, — yet
at any rate it could never allow that he himself
had acted from any but the vilest and most
unworthy reasons. Base souls would see in
the sacrifice he made to Herminia's ideals, only
the common story of a trustful woman cruelly
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betrayed by the man who pretended to love
her, and would proceed to treat him with the
coldness and contempt with which such a man
deserves to be treated!
As the morning wore on, this view of the
matter obtruded itself more and more forcibly
every mortient on Alan. Over and over again
he said to himself, let come what come might,
he must never aid and abet that innocent soul
in rushing blindfold over a cliff to her own
destruction. It is so easy at twenty-two to
ruin yourself for life; so difficult at thirty to
climb slowly back again. No, no, holy as Her-
minia's impulses were, he must save her from
herself; he must save her from her own purity;
he must refuse to be led astray by her romantic
aspirations. He must keep her to the beaten
path trod by all petty souls, and preserve her
from the painful crown of martyrdom she her-
self designed as her eternal diadem.
Full of these manful resolutions, he rose up
early in the morning. He would be his Her-
minia's guardian angel. He would use her
love for him, — for he knew she loved him, —
as a lever to egg her aside from these slippery
moral precipices.
He mistook the solid rock of ethical resolu-
tion he was trying to disturb with so frail an
engine. The fulcrum itself would yield far
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sooner to the pressure than the weight of Her-
minia's uncompromising rectitude. Passionate
as she was, — and with that opulent form sKe
could hardly be otherwise, — principle was still
deeper and more imperious with her than
passion.
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V.
He met her by appointment on the first ridge
of Bore Hill. A suimy summer morning smiled
fresh after the rain. Bumble-bees bustled busily
about the closed lips of the red-rattle, and ripe
gorse pods burst with little elastic explosions
in the basking sunlight.
When Alan reached the trysting-place, under
a broad-armed oak, in a glade of the woodland,
Herminia was there before him; a good woman
always is, *t is the prerogative of her affection.
She was simply dressed in her dainty print
gown, a single tea-rosebud peeped out from
her bodice; she looked more lily-like, so Alan
thought in his heart, than he had ever yet
seen her. She held out her hand to him with
parted lips and a conscious blush. Alan took
it, but bent forward at the same time, and with
a hasty glance around, just touched her rich
mouth. Herminia allowed him without a
struggle; she was too stately of mien ever to
grant a favor without granting it of pure grace,
and with queenly munificence.
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Alan led her to a grassy bank where thyme
and basil grew matted, and the hum of myriad
wings stirred the sultry air; Herminia let him
lead her. She was woman enough by nature to
like being led; only, it must be the right man
who led her, and he must lead her along the
path that her conscience approved of. Alan
seated himself by her side, and took her hand
in his; Herminia let him hold it. This love-
making was pure honey. Dappled spots of
light and shade flecked the ground beneath
the trees like a jaguar's skin. Wood-pigeons
crooned, unseen, from the leafy covert. She
sat there long without uttering a word. Once
Alan essayed to speak, but Herminia cut him '
short. "Oh, no, not yet," she cried half petu-
lantly; "this silence is so delicious. I love
best just to sit and hold your hand like this.
Why spoil it with language.?*'
So they sat for some minutes, Herminia with
her eyes half closed, drinking in to the full the
delight of first love. She could feel her heart
beating. At last Alan interposed, and began
to speak to her. The girl drew a long breath;
then she sighed for a second, as she opened her
eyes again. Every curve of her bosom heaved
and swayed mysteriously. It seemed such a
pity to let articulate words disturb that reverie.
Still, if Alan wished it. For a woman is
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a woman, let Girton do^ its worst; and Her-
minia not less but rather more than the rest
of them.
Then Alan began. With her hand clasped
in his, and fondling it while he spoke, he urged
all he could urge to turn her from her purpose.
He pointed out to her how unwise, how irre-
trievable her position would be, if she once
assumed it. On such a road as that there is no
turning back. The die once cast, she must for-
ever abide by it. He used all arts to persuade
and dissuade; all eloquence to save her from
herself and her salvation. If he loved her less,
he said with truth, he might have spoken less
earnestly. It was for her own sake he spoke,
because he so loved her. He waxed hot in his
eager desire to prevent her from taking this
fatal step. He drew his breath hard, and
paused. Emotion and anxiety overcame him
visibly.
But as for Herminia, though she listened
with affection afnd with a faint thrill of pleasure
to much that he said, seeing how deeply he
loved her, she leaned back from time to time,
half weary with his eagerness, and his conse-
quent iteration. ^ "Dear Alan," she said at last,
soothing his hand with her own. as a sister
might have soothed it, "you talk about all this
as though it were to me some new resolve,
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some new idea of my making. You forget it
is the outcome of my ^ life's philosophy. I
have grown up to it slowly. I have thought
of all this, and of hardly anything else, ever
since I was old enough to think for myself
about anything. Root and branch, it is to me
a foregone conclusion. I love you. You love
me. So far as I am concerned, there ends the
question. One way there is, and one way
alone, in which I can give myself up to you.
Make me yours if you will; but if not, then
leave me. Only, remember, by leaving me,
you won't any the more turn me aside from
my purpose. You won't save me from myself,
as you call it; you will only hand me over to
some one less fit for me by far than you are."
A quiet moisture glistened in her eyes, and
she gazed at him pensively. " How wonderful
it is," she went on, musing. "Three weeks
ago, I didn't know there was such a man in
the world at all as you; and now — why, Alan,
I feel as if the world would be nothing to me
without you. Your name seems to sing in my
ears all day long with the song of the birds,
and to thrill through and through me as I lie
awake on my pillow with the cry of the night-
jar. Yet, if you won't take me on my own
terms, I know well what will happen. I shall
go away, and grieve over you, of course, and
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feel bereaved for months, as if I could never
possibly again love any man. At present it
seems to me I never could love him. But
though my heart tells me that, my reason tells
me I should some day find some other soul I
might perhaps fall back upon. But it would
only be falling back. For the sake of my prin-
ciples alone, and of the example I wish to set
the world, could I ever fall back upon any
other. Yet fall back I would. And what good
would you have done me then by refusing me.^
You would merely have cast me off from the
man I love best, the man who I know by imme-
diate instinct, which is the voice of nature and
of God within us, was intended from all time
for me. The moment I saw you my heart beat
quicker; my heart's evidence told me you were
the one love meant for me. Why force me to
decline upon some other less meet for me? *'
Alan gazed at her, irresolute. "But if you
love me so much,'* he said, "surely, surely, it
is a small thing to trust your future to me."
The tenderness of woman let her hand glide
over his cheek. She was not ash'amed of her
love. "O Alan," she cried, "if it were only
for myself, I could trust you with my life'; I
could trust you with anything. But I haven't
only myself to think of. I have to think of
right and wrong; I have to think of the world;
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I have to think of the cause which almost
wholly hangs upon me. Not for nothing are
these impulses implanted in my breast. They
are the voice of the soul' of all women within
me. If I were to neglect them for the sake of
gratifying your wishes, — if I were to turn
traitor to my sex for the sake of the man I
love, as so many women have turned before me,
I should hate and despise myself. I could n't
love you, Alan, quite so much, loved I not
honor more, and the battle imposed upon me."
Alan wavered as she spoke. He felt what
she said was true; even if he refused to take
her on the only terms she could accept, he
would not thereby save her. She would turn
in time and bestow herself upon some man
who would perhaps be less worthy of her, —
nay *even on some man who might forsake her
in the sequel with unspeakable treachery. Of
conduct like that, Alan knew himself incapable.
He knew that if he took Herminia once to his
heart, he would treat her with such tenderness,
such constancy, such devotion as never yet was
shown to living woman. (Love always thinks
so.) But still, he shrank from the idea of being
himself the man to take advantage of her;
for so in his unregenerate mind he phrased to
himself their union. And still he temporized.
"Even so, Herminia," he cried, bending for-
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ward and gazing hard at her, ** I could n't endure
to have it said it was I who misled you."
Herminia lifted her eyes to his with just a
tinge of lofty scorn, tempered only by the
womanliness of those melting lashes. "And
you can think of tkatf she murmured, gazing
across at him half in tears. "O Alan, for my
part I can think of nothing now but the truths
of life and the magnitude of the issues. Our
hearts against the world, — love and duty against
convention."
Then Alan began again and talked all he
knew. He urged, he prayed, he bent forward,
he spoke soft and low, he played on her ten-
derest chords as a loving woman. Herminia
was moved, for her heart went forth to him,
and she knew why he tried so hard to save her
from her own higher and truer nature. But
she never yielded an inch. She stood firm to
her colors. She shook her head to the last,
and murmured over and over again, "There is
only one right way, and no persuasion on earth
will ever avail' to turn me aside from it."
The Truth had made her Free, and she was
very confident of it.
At last, all other means failing, Alan fell
back on the final resort of delay. He saw
much merit in procrastination. There was no
hurry, he said. They need n't make up their
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minds, one way or the other, immediately.
They could take their time to think. Perhaps,
with a week or two to decide in, Herminia
might persuade him; or he might persuade her.
Why rush on fate so suddenly?
But at that, to his immense surprise, Her-
minia demurred. "No, no," she said, shaking
her head, "that *s not at all what I want. We
must decide to-day one way or the other. Now
is the accepted time; now is the day of salva-
tion. I couldn't let you wait, and slip by de-
grees into some vague arrangement we hardly
contemplated definitely. To do that would be
to sin against my ideas of decorum. Whatever
we do we must do, as the apostle says, decently
and in order, with a full sense of the obliga-
tions it imposes upon us. We must say to one
another in so many words, * I am yours; you
are mine;* or we must part forever. I have
told you my whole soul; I have bared my heart
before you. You may take it or leave it ; but
for my dignity's sake, I put it to you now,
choose one way or the other."
Alan looked at her hard. Her face was crim-
son by this with maidenly shame; but she made
no effort to hide or avert it. For the good of
humanity, this question must be settled once
for all ; and no womanish reserve should make
her shrink from settling it. Happier maidens
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in ages to come, when society had reconstructed
itself on the broad basis of freedom, would never
have to go through what she was going through
that moment. They would be spared the quiv-
ering shame, the tingling regret, the struggle
with which she braced up her maiden modesty
to that supreme effort. But she would go
through with it all the same. For eternal
woman's sake she had long contemplated that
day; now it had come at last, she would not
weakly draw back from it.
Alan's eyes were all admiration. He stood
near enough to her level to understand her to
the core. "Herminia," he cried, bending over
her, "you drive me to bay. You press me very
hard. I feel myself yielding. I am a man;
and when you speak to me like that, I know it.
You enlist on your side all that is virile within
me. Yet how can I accept the terms you offer ?
For the very love I bear you, how do you this
injustice.^ If I loved you less, I might per-
haps say j/es; because I love you so well, I feel
compelled to say no to you. "
Herminia looked at him hard in return. Her
cheeks were glowing now with something like
the shame of the woman who feels her love is
lightly rejected. "Is that final .^" she asked,
drawing herself up as she sat, and facing him
proudly.
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"No, no, it 's not final," Alan answered, feel-
ing the woman's influence course through body
and blood to his quivering finger-tips. Magi-
cal touches stirred him. " How can iX be final,
Herminia, when you look at me like that?
How can it be final, when you 're so gracious,
so graceful, so beautiful? Oh, my child, I am
a man; don't play too hard on those fiercest
chords in my nature."
Herminia gazed at him fixedly; the dimples
disappeared. Her voice was more serious now,
and had nothing in it of pleading. "It isn't
like that that I wknt to draw you, Alan," she
answered gravely. "It isn't those chords I
want to play upon. I want to convince your
brain, your intellect, your reason. You agree
with me in principle. Why then, should you
wish to draw back in practice?"
"Yes, I agree with you in principle," Alan
answered. "It isn't there that I hesitate.
Even before I met you, I had arrived at pretty
much the same ideas myself, as a matter of
abstract reasoning. I saw that the one way of
freedom for the woman is to cast off, root and
branch, the evil growth of man's supremacy.
I saw that the honorableness of marriage, the
disgrace of free union, were just so many
ignoble masculine devices to keep up man's
lordship; vile results of his determination to
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taboo to himself beforehand and monopolize
for life some particular woman. I know all
that; I acknowledge all that. I see as plainly
as you do that sooner or later there must come
a revolution. But, Herminia, the women who
devote, themselves to carrying out that revolu-
tion, will take their souls in their hands, and
will march in line to the freeing of their sex
through shame and caluAiny and hardships
innumerable. I shrink from letting you, the
woman that I love, bring that fate upon your-
self; I shrink still more from being the man to
aid and abet you in doing it.'*
Herminia fixed her piercing eyes upon his
face once more. Tears stood in them now.
The tenderness of woman was awakened within
her. "Dear Alan," she said gently, "don't I
tell you I have thought long since of all that ?
I am prepared to face it. It is only a question
of with whom I shall do so. Shall it be with
thq man I have instinctively loved from the
first moment I saw him, better than all others
on earth, or shall it be with some lesser.^ If
my heart is willing, why should yours demur
to it.?"
"Because I love you too well," Alan answered
doggedly.
Herminia rose and faced him. Her hands
dropped by her side. She was splendid when
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she stood so with her panting bosom. "Then
you decide to say good-bye? " she cried, with a
lingering cadence.
Alan seized her by both wrists, and drew
her down to his side. "No, no, darling," he
answered low, laying his lips against hers. " I
can never say good-bye. You have confessed
you love me. When a woman says that, what
can a man refuse her.^ From such a woman
as you, I am so proud, so proud, so proud of
such a confession; how could I ever cease to
feel you were mine, — mine, mine, wholly mine
for a lifetime.?"
"Then you consent.?" Herminia cried, all
aglow, half nestling to his bosom.
"I consent," Alan answered, with profound
misgivings. " What else do you leave open to
me.?"
Herminia made no direct answer; she only
laid her head with perfect trust upon the man's
broad shoulder. "O Alan," she murmured
low, letting her heart have its way, "you are
mine, then; you are mine. You have made
me so happy, so supremely happy."
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VL
Thus, half against his will, Alan Merrick was
drawn into this irregular compact.
Next came that more difficult matter, the dis-
cussion of ways and means, the more practical
details. Alan hardly knew at first on what pre-
cise terms it was Herminia's wish that they
two should pass their lives together. His ideas
were all naturally framed on the old model of
marriage; in that matter, Herminia' said, he
was still in the gall of bitterness, and the bond
of iniquity. He took it for granted that of
course they must dwell under one roof with
one another. But that simple ancestral notion,
derived from man's lordship in his own house,
was wholly adverse to Herminia's views of the
reasonable and natural. She had debated these
problems at full in her own mind for years, and
had arrived at definite and consistent solutions
for every knotty point in them. Why should
this friendship differ at all, she asked, in
respect of time and place, from any other
friendship.? The notion of necessarily keeping
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house together, the cramping idea of the family
tie, belonged entirely to the regime of the man-
made patriarchate, where the woman and the
children were the slaves and chattels of the
lord and master. In a free society, was it not
obvious that each woman would live her own
life apart, would preserve her independence,
and would receive the visits of the man for
whom she cared, — the father of her children ?
Then only could she be free. Any other
method meant the economic and social superi-
ority of the man, and was irreconcilable with
the perfect individuality of the woman.
So Herminia reasoned. She rejected at once,
therefore, the idea of any change in her exist-
ing mode of life. To her, the friendship she
proposed with Alan Merrick was no social rev-
olution; it was but the due fulfilment of her
natural functions. To make of it an occasion
for ostentatious change in her way of living
seemed to her as unnatural as is the practice
of the barbarians in our midst who use a wed-
ding — that most sacred and private event in a
young girl's life — as an opportunity for display
of the coarsest and crudest character. To rivet
the attention of friends on bride and bride-
groom is to offend against the most delicate
susceptibilities of modesty. From all such
hateful practices, Herminia's pure mind re-
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volted by instinct. She felt that here at least
was the one moment in a woman's history when
she would shrink with timid reserve from every
eye save one man's, — when publicity of any
sort was most odious and horrible.
Only the blinding effect of custom, indeed,
could ever have shut good women's eyes to the
shameful indecorousness of wedding ceremonial.
We drag a young girl before the prying gaze
of all the world at the very crisis in her life,
when natural modesty would most lead her to
conceal herself from her dearest acquaintance.
And our women themselves have grown so
blunted by use to the hatefulness of the ordeal
that many of them face it now with inhuman
effrontery. Familiarity with marriage has al-
most killed out in the maidens of our race the
last lingering relics of native modesty.
Herminia, however, could dispense with all
that show. She had a little cottage of her
own, she told Alan, — a tiny little cottage, in
a street near her school-work; she rented it
for a small sum, in quite a poor quarter, all
inhabited by work-people. There she lived by
herself; for she kept no servants. There she
should continue to live; why need this purely
personal compact between them two make any
difference in her daily habits.^ She would go
on with her school-work for the present, as
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usual. Oh, no, she certainly did n't intend to
notify the head-mistress of the school or any
one else, of her altered position. It was no
alteration of position at all, so far as she was
concerned; merely the addition to life of a
new and very dear and natural friendship.
Herminia took her own point of view so in-
stinctively indeed, — lived so wrapped in an
ideal world of her own and the future's, — that
Alan was often quite alarmed in his soul when
he thought of the rude awakening that no doubt
awaited her. Yet whenever he hinted it to her
with all possible delicacy, she seemed so per-
fectly prepared for the worst the world could
do, so fixed and resolved in her intention of
martyrdom, that he had no argument left, and
could only sigh over her.
It was not, she explained to him further, tliat
she wished to conceal anything. The least
tinge of concealment was wholly alien to that
frank fresh nature. If her head-mistress asked
her a point-blank question, she would not
attempt to parry it, but would reply at once
with a point blank answer. Still, her very
views on the subject made it impossible for
her to volunteer information unasked to any
one. Here was a personal matter of the utmost
privacy; a matter which concerned nobody on
earth, save herself and Alan ; a matter on which
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it was the grossest impertinence for any one
else to make any inquiry or hold any opinion.
They two chose to be friends; and there, so
far as the rest of the world was concerned, the
whole thing ended. What else took place
between them was wholly a subject for their
own consideration. But if ever circumstances
should arise which made it necessary for her to
avow to the world that she must soon be a
mother, then it was for the world to take the
first step, if it would act upon its own hateful
and cruel initiative. She would never deny,
but she would never go out of her way to confess.
She stood upon her individuality as a human being.
As to other practical matters, about which
Alan ventured delicately to throw out a pass-
ing question or two, Herminia was perfectly
frank, with the perfect frankness of one who
thinks and does nothing to be ashamed of.
She had always been self-supporting, she said,
and she would be self-supporting still. To her
mind, that was an essential step towards the
emancipation of women. Their friendship im-
plied for her no change of existence, merely an
addition to the fulness of her living. He was
the complement of her being. Every woman
should naturally wish to live her whole life, to
fulfil her whole functions; and that she could do
only by becoming a mother, accepting the orbit
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for which nature designed her. In the end, no
doubt, complete independence would be secured
for each woman by the civilized state, or in
other words by the whole body of men, who do
the hard work of the world, and who would col-
lectively guarantee every necessary and luxury
to every woman of the community equally. In
that way alone could perfect liberty of choice
and action be secured for women; and she held
it just that women should so be provided for,
because the mothers of the community fulfil in
the state as important and necessary a function
as the men themselves do. It would be well,
too, that the mothers should be free to perform
that function without preoccupation of any sort.
So a free world would order things. But in
our present barbaric state of industrial slavery,
capitalism, monopoly, — in other words under
the organized rule of selfishness, — such a
course was impossible. Perhaps, as. an inter-
mediate condition, it might happen in time
that the women of certain classes would for the
most part be made independent at maturity
each by her own father; which would produce
for them in the end pretty much the same gen-
eral effect of freedom. She saw as a first step
the endowment of the daughter. But mean-
while there was nothing for it save that as
many women as could should aim for them-
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selves at economic liberty, in other words at
self-support. That was an evil in itself, because
obviously the prospective mothers of a com-
munity should be relieved as far as possible
from the stress and strain of earning a liveli-
hood; should be set free to build up their
nervous systems to the highest attainable level
against the calls of maternity. But above all
things we must be practical; and in the prac-
tical world here and now around us, no other
way existed for women to be free save the
wasteful way of each earning her own liveli-
hood. Therefore she would continue her school-
work with her pupils as long as the school
would allow her; and when that became impos-
sible, would fall back upon literature.
One other question Alan ventured gently to
raise. — the question of children. Fools always
put that question, and think it a crushing one.
Alan was no fool, yet it puzzled him strangely.
He did not see for himself how easy is the so-
lution; how absolutely Herminia's plan leaves
the position unaltered. But Herminia herself
was as modestly frank on the subject as on
every other. It was a moral and social point
of the deepest importance; and it would be
wrong of them to rush into it without due con-
sideration. She had duly considered it. She
would give her children, should any come, the
unique and glorious birthright of being the
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only human beings ever born into this world
as the deliberate result of a free union, con-
tracted on philosophical and ethical principles.
Alan hinted certain doubts as to their up-bring-
ing and education. There, too, Herminia was
perfectly frank. They would be half hers, half
his; the pleasant burden of their support, the
joy of their education, would naturally fall upon
both parents equally. But why discuss these
matters like the squalid rich, who make their
marriages a questioo of settlements and dow-
ries and business arrangements.^ They two
were friends and lovers; in love, such base
doubts could never arise. Not for worlds
would she import into their mutual relations
any sordid stain of money, any vile tinge of
bargaining. They could trust one another;
that alone sufficed for them.
So Alan gave way bit by bit all along the
line, overborne by Herminia's more perfect
and logical conception of her own principles.
She knew exactly what she felt, and wanted;
while he knew only in a vague and formless
way that his reason agreed with her.
A week later, he knocked timidly one evening
at the door of a modest little workman-looking
cottage, down a small side street in the back-
wastes of Chelsea. *Twas a most unpretending
street; Bower Lane by name, full of brown
brick houses, all as like as peas, and with
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nothing of any sort to redeem their plain fronts
from the common blight of the London jerry-
builder. Only a soft serge curtain and a pot of
mignonette on the ledge of the window, dis-
tinguished the cottage at which Alan Merrick
knocked from the others beside it. Externally
that is to say; for within it was a« dainty as
Morris wall-papers and merino hangings and
a delicate feminine taste in form and color
could make it. Keats and Shelley lined the
shelves; Rossetti's wan maidens gazed un-
earthly from the over-mantel. The door was
opened for him by Herminia in person; for she
kept no servant, — that was one of her prin-
ciples. She was dressed from head to foot in
a simple white gown, as pure and sweet as the
soul it covered. A white rose nestled in her
glossy hair; three sprays of white lily decked
a vase on the mantel-piece. Some dim sur-
vival of ancestral ideas made Herminia Barton
so array herself in the white garb of affiance
for her bridal .evening. Her cheek was aglow
with virginal shrinking as she opened the door,
and welcomed Alan in. But she held out her
hand just as frankly as ever to the man of her
free choice as he advanced to greet her. Alan
caught her in his arms and kissed her forehead
tenderly. And thus was Herminia Barton's
espousal consummated.
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VII.
The next six months were the happiest time of
her life, for Herminia. All day long she worked
hard with her classes; and often in the even-
ings Alan Merrick dropped in for sweet con-
verse and companionship. Too free from any
taint of sin or' shame herself ever to suspect
that others could misinterpret her actions,
Herminia was hardly aware how the gossip of
Bower Lane made free in time with the name
of the young lady who had taken a cottage in
the row, and whose relations with the tall
gentleman that called so much in the evenings
were beginning to attract the attention of the
neighborhood. The poor slaves of washer-
women and working men's wives all around,
with whom contented slavery to a drunken hus-
band was the only " respectable " condition, —
couldn't understand for the life of them how
the pretty young lady could make her name so
cheap; "and her that pretends to be so chari-
table and that, and goes about in the parish
like a district visitor!" Though to be sure it
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had already struck the minds of Bower Lane
that Herminia never went "to church nor
chapel;" and when people cut themselves
adrift from church and chapel, why, what
sort of morality can you reasonably expect of
them? Nevertheless, Herminia's manners were
so sweet and engaging, to rich and poor alike,
that Bower Lane seriously regretted what it
took to be her lapse from grace. Poor purblind
Bower Lane ! A life-time would have failed it
to discern for itself how infinitely higher than
its slavish "respectability" was Herminia's
freedom. In which respect, indeed, Bower Lane
was no doubt on a dead level with Belgravia, or,
for the matter of that, with Lambeth Palace.
But Herminia, for her part, never discovered
she was talked about. To the pure all things
are pure; and Herminia was dowered with that
perfect purity. And though Bower Lane lay
but some few hundred yards off from the
Carlyle Place Girl's School, the social gulf
between them yet yawned so wide that good
old Miss Smith-Waters from Cambridge, the
head-mistress of the school, never caught a
single echo of the washerwomen's gossip.
Herminia's life through those six months was
one unclouded honeymoon. On Sundays, she
and Alan would go out of town together, and
stroll across the breezy summit of Leith Hill,
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or among the brown heather and garrulous
pine-woods that perfume the radiating spurs of
Hind Head with their aromatic resins. Her
love for Alan was profound and absorbing;
while as for Alan, the more he gazed into the
calm depths of that crystal soul, the more
deeply did he admire it. Gradually she was
raising him to her own level. It is impossible
to mix with a lofty nature and not acquire in
time some tincture of its nobler and more gen-
erous sentiments. Herminia was weaning Alan
by degrees from the world ; she was teaching
him to see that moral purity and moral earnest-
ness are worth more, after all, than to dwell with
purple hangings in all the tents of iniquity.
She was making him understand and sympathize
with the motives which led her stoutly on to
her final martyrdom, which made her submit
without a murmur of discontent to her great
renunciation.
As yet, however, there was no' hint or fore-
cast of actual martyrdom. On the contrary,
her life flowed in all the halo of a honeymoon.
It was a honeymoon, too, undisturbed by the
petty jars and discomforts of domestic life;
she saw Alan too seldom for either ever to lose
the keen sense of fresh delight in the other's
presence. When she met him, she thrilled to
the delicate finger-tips. Herminia had planned
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it SO of set purpose. In her reasoned philos-
ophy of life, she had early decided that 't is
the wear and tear of too close daily intercourse
which turns unawares the lover into the hus-
band; and she had determined that in her own
converse with the man she loved that cause of
disillusion should never intrude itself. They
conserved their romance through all their
plighted and united life. Herminia had after-
wards no recollections of Alan to look back
upon save ideally happy ones.
So six months wore away. On the memory
of those six months Herminia was to subsist
for half a lifetime. At the end of that time,
Alan began to fear that if she did not soon
withdraw from the Carlyle Place School, Miss
Smith-Waters might begin to ask inconvenient
questions. Herminia, ever true to her prin-
ciples, was for stopping on till the bitter end,
and compelling Miss Smith-Waters to dismiss
her from her situation. But Alan, more worldly
wise, foresaw that such a course must inevitably
result in needless annoyance and humiliation
for Herminia; and Herminia was now begin-
ning to be so far influenced by Alan's person-
ality that she yielded the point with reluctance
to his masculine judgment'. It must be always
so. The man must needs retain for many years
to come the personal hegemony he has usurped
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over the woman ; and the woman who once ac-
cepts him as lover or as husband must give
way in the end, even in matters of principle,
to his virile self-assertion. She would be less
a woman, and he less a man, were any other
result possible. Deep down in the very roots
of the idea of sex we come on that prime
antithesis, — the male, active and aggressive;
the female, sedentary, passive, and receptive.
And even on the broader question, experience
shows one it is always so in the world we live
in. No man or woman can go through life in
consistent obedience to any high principle, —
not even the willing and deliberate martyrs.
We must bow to circumstances. Herminia had
made up her mind beforehand for the crown
of martyrdom, the one possible guerdon this
planet can bestow upon really noble and disin-
terested action. And she never shrank from
any necessary pang, incidental to the prophet's
and martyr's existence. Yet even so,* in a
society almost wholly composed of mean and
petty souls, incapable of comprehending or
appreciating any exalted moral standpoint, it
is practically impossible to live from day to
day in accordance with a higher or purer
standard. The martyr who should try so to walk
without deviation of any sort, turning neither
to the right nor to the left in the smallest par-
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ticular, must accomplish his martyrdom pre-
maturely on the pettiest side-issues, and would
never live at all to assert at the stake the great
truth which is the lodestar and goal of his
existence.
So Herminia gave way. Sadly against her
will she gave way. One morning in early
March, she absented herself from her place in
the class-room without even taking leave of
her beloved schoolgirls, whom she had tried
so hard unobtrusively to train up towards a
rational understanding of the universe around
them, and sat down to write a final letter of
farewell to poor straight-laced kind-hearted
Miss Smith -Waters. She sat down to it with
a sigh; for Miss Smith-Waters, though her out-
look upon the cosmos was through one narrow
chink, was a good soul up to her lights, and
had been really fond and proud of Herminia.
She had rather shown her off, indeed, as a
social trump card to the hesitating parent, —
"This is our second mistress. Miss Barton; you
know her father, perhaps; such an excellent
man, the Dean of Dunwich. " And now, Her-
minia sat down with a heavy heart, thinking to
herself what a stab of pain the avowal she had
to make would send throbbing through that
gentle old breast, and how absolutely incapable
dear Miss Smith-Waters could be of ever appre-
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ciating the conscientious reasons which had
led her, Iphigenia like, to her self-imposed
sacrifice.
But, for all that, she wrote her letter through,
delicately, sweetly, with feminine tact and fem-
inine reticence. She told Miss Smith-Waters
frankly enough all it was necessary Miss Smith-
Waters should know ; but she said it with such
daintiness that even that conventionalized and
hide-bound old maid couldn't help feeling and
recognizing the purity and nobility of her mis-
guided action. Poor child. Miss Smith-Waters
thought; she was mistaken, of course, sadly and
grievously mistaken; but, then, 'twas her heart
that misled her, no doubt; and Miss Smith-
Waters, having dim recollections of a far-away
time when she herself too possessed some rudi-
mentary fragment of such a central vascular
organ, fairly cried over the poor girl's letter
with sympathetic shame, and remorse, and vex-
ation. Miss Smith-Waters could hardly be
expected to understand that if Herminia had
thought her conduct in the faintest degree
wrong, or indeed anything but the highest and
best for humanity, she could never conceivably
have allowed even that loving heart of hers to
hurry her into it. For Herminia's devotion to
principle was not less but far greater than
Miss Smith-Waters's own; only, as it happened,
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the principles themselves were diametrically
opposite.
Herminia wrote her note with not a few tears
for poor Miss Smith-Waters 's disappointment.
That is the worst of living a life morally ahead
of your contemporaries ; what you do with pro-
foundest conviction of its eternal rightness can-
not fail to arouse hostile and painful feelings
even in the souls of the most right-minded of
your friends who still live in bondage to the
conventional lies and the conventional injus-
tices. It is the good, indeed, who are most
against you. Still, Herminia steeled her heart
to tell the simple truth, — how, for the right's
sake and humanity's she had made up her mind
to eschew the accursed thing, and to strike
one bold blow for the freedom and unfettered
individuality of women. She knew in what
obloquy her action would involve her, she said ;
but she knew too, that' to do right for right's
sake was a duty imposed by nature upon every
one of us; and that the clearer we could see
ahead, and the farther in front we could look,
the more profoundly did that duty shine forth
for us. For her own part, she had never shrunk
from doing what she knew to be right for man-
kind in the end, though she felt sure it must
lead her to personal misery. Yet unless one
woman were prepared to lead the way, no free-
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dom was possible. She had found a man with
whom she could spend her life in sympathy and
united usefulness; and with him she had elected
to spend it in the way pointed out to us by
nature. Acting on his advice, though some-
what against her own judgment, she meant to
leave England for the present, only returning
again when she could return with the dear life
they had both been instrumental in bringing
into the world, and to which henceforth her
main attention must be directed. She signed it,
"Your ever grateful and devoted Herminia."
Poor Miss Smith-Waters laid down that as-
tonishing, that incredible letter in a perfect
whirl of amazement and stupefaction. She
did n't know what to make of it. It seemed
to run counter to all her preconceived ideas of
moral action. That a young girl should ven-
ture to think for herself at all about right and
wrong was passing strange; that she should
arrive at original notions upon those abstruse
subjects, which were not the notions of con-
stituted authority and of the universal slave-
drivers and obscurantists generally, — notions
full of luminousness upon the real relations
and duties of our race, — was to poor, cramped
Miss Smith-Waters well-nigh inconceivable.
That a young girl should prefer freedom to
slavery; should deem it more moral to retain
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her divinely-conferred individuality in spite of
the world than to yield it up to a man for life
in return for the price of her board and lodg-
ing; should refuse to sell her own body for a
comfortable home and the shelter of a name, —
these things seemed to Miss Smith-Waters,
with her smaller-catechism standards of right
and wrong, scarcely short of sheer madness.
Yet Herminia had so endeared herself to the
old lady's soul that on receipt of her letter
Miss Smith-Waters went upstairs to her own
room with a neuralgic headache, and never
again in her life referred to her late second
mistress in any other terms than as "my poor
dear sweet' misguided Herminia."
But when it became known next morning in
Bower Lane that the queenly-looking school-
mistress who used to go round among "our
girls " with tickets for concerts and lectures
and that, had disappeared suddenly with the
nice-looking young man who used to come
a-courting her on Sundays and evenings, the
amazement and surprise of respectable Bower
Lane was simply unbounded. " Who would have
thought," the red-faced matrons of the cottages
remarked, over their quart of bitter, " the pore
thing had it in her! But there, it's these
demure ones as is always the slyest ! " For
Bower Lane could only judge that austere soul
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88 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
by its own vulgar standard (as did also Bel-
gravia). Most low minds, indeed, imagine abso-
lute hypocrisy must be involved in any striving
after goodness and abstract right -doing on the
part of any who happen to disbelieve in their
own blood-thirsty deities, or their own vile
woman-degrading and prostituting morality. In
the topsy-turvy philosophy of Bower Lane and
of Belgravia, what is usual is right; while any
conscious striving to be better and nobler than
the mass around one is regarded at once as
either insane or criminal.
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VIII.
They were bound for Italy; so Alan had de-
cided. Turning over in his mind the pros and
cons of the situation, he had wisely determined
that Herminia's confinement had better take
place somewhere else than in England. The
difficulties and inconveniences which block the
way in English lodgings would have been well-
nigh insufferable; in Italy, people would only
know that an English signora and her husband
had taken apartments for a month or two in
some solemn old palazzo. To Herminia, in-
deed, this expatriation at such a moment was
in many ways to the last degree distasteful ; for
her own part, she hated the merest appearance
of concealment, and would rather have flaunted
the open expression of her supreme moral faith
before the eyes of all London. But Alan
pointed out to her the many practical difficul-
ties, amounting almost to impossibilities, which
beset such a course; and Herminia, though it
was hateful to her thus to yield to the immoral
prejudices of a false social system, gave way
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at last to Alan's repeated expression of the
necessity for prudent and practical action. She
would go with him to Italy, she said, as a proof
of her affection and her confidence in his judg-
ment, though she still thought the right thing
was to stand by her guns fearlessly, and fight it
out to the bitter end undismayed in England.
On the morning of their departure, Alan
called to see his father, and explain the situa-
tion. He felt some explanation was by this
time necessary. As yet no one in London
knew anything oflficially as to his relations with
Herminia; and for Herminia's sake, Alan had
hitherto kept them perfectly private. But now,
further reticence was both useless and undesir-
able; he determined to make a clean breast of
the whole story to his father. It was early for
a barrister to be leaving town for the Easter
vacation; and though Alan had chambers of
his own in Lincoln's Inn, where he lived by
himself, he was so often in and out of the house
in Harley Street that his absence from Lon-
don would at once have attracted the parental
attention.
Dr. Merrick was a model of the close-shaven
clear-cut London consultant. His shirt-front
was as impeccable as his moral character was
spotless — in the way that Belgravia and Har-
ley Street still understood spotlessness. He
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was tall and straight, and unbent by age; the
professional poker which he had swallowed in
early life seemed to stand him in good stead
after sixty years, though his hair had whitened
fast, and his brow was furrowed with most
deliberative wrinkles. So unapproachable he
looked, that not even his own sons dared* speak
frankly before him. His very smile was re-
strained; he hardly permitted himself for a
moment that weak human relaxation.
Alan called at Harley Street immediately
after breakfast, just a quarter of an hour before
the time allotted to his father's first patient.
Dr. Merrick received him in the consulting-
room with an interrogative raising of those
straight, thin eyebrows. The mere look on his
face disconcerted Alan. With an effort the son
began and explained his errand. His father
settled himself down into his ample and digni-
fied professional chair — old oak round-backed,
— and with head half turned, and hands folded
in front of him, seemed to diagnose with rapt
attention this singular form of psychological
malady. When Alan paused for a second be-
tween his halting sentences and floundered
about in search of a more delicate way of glid-
ing over the thin ice, his father eyed him
closely with those keen, gray orbs, and after a
moment's hesitation put in a "Well, continue,"
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without the faintest sign of any human emotion.
Alan, thus driven to it, admitted awkwardly bit
by bit that he was leaving London before the
end of term because he had managed to get
himself into delicate relations with a lady.
Dr. Merrick twirled his thumbs, and in a
colorless voice enquired, without relaxing a
muscle of his set face,
" What sort of lady, please ? A lady of the
ballet.?"
"Oh, no!" Alan cried, giving a little start of
horror. "Quite different from that. A real
lady. "
"They always are real ladies, — for the most
part brought down by untoward circumstances,"
his father responded coldly. " As a rule, indeed,
I observe, they 're clergyman's daughters."
"This one is," Alan answered, growing hot.
" In point of fact, to prevent your saying any-
thing you might afterwards regret, I think I *d
better mention the lady's name. It 's Miss
Herminia Barton, the Dean of Dunwich's
daughter."
His father drew a long breath. The corners
of the clear-cut mouth dropped down for a
second, and the straight, thin eyebrows were
momentarily elevated. But he gave no other
overt sign of dismay or astonishment.
"That makes a great difference, of course,"
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he answered, after a long pause. "She is a
lady, I admit. And she 's been to Girton.'*
"She has," the son replied, scarcely knowing
how to continue.
Dr. Merrick twirled his thumbs once more,
with outward calm, for a minute or two. This
was most inconvenient in a professional family.
"And I understand you to say,'* he went on in
a pitiless voice, "Miss Barton's state of health
is such that you think it advisable to remove
her at once — for her confinement, to Italy.? **
"Exactly so," Alan answered, gulping down
his discomfort.
The father gazed at him long and steadily.
"Well, I always knew you were a fool," he
said at last with paternal candor; "but I never
yet knew you were quite such a fool as this
business shows you. You '11 have to marry the
girl now in the end. Why the devil could n't
you marry her outright at first, instead of se-
ducing her.?"
" I did not seduce her," Alan answered stoutly.
" No man on earth could ever succeed in seduc-
ing that stainless woman. "
Dr. Merrick stared hard at him without
changing his attitude on his old oak chair.
Was the boy going mad, or what the dickens
did he mean by it.?
"You have seduced her," he said slowly.
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"And she is not stainless if she has allowed
you to do so."
" It is the innocence which survives experience
that I value, not the innocence which dies with
it," Alan answered gravely.
"I don't understand these delicate distinc-
tions," Dr. Merrick interposed with a polite
sneer. " I gather from what you said just now
that the lady is shortly expecting her confine-
ment; and as she isn't married, you tell me, I
naturally infer that somebody must have seduced
her — either you, or some other man. "
It was Alan's turn now to draw himself up
very stiffly.
"I beg your pardon," he answered; "you
have no right to speak in such a tone about a
lady in Miss Barton's position. Miss Barton
has conscientious scruples about the marriage-
tie, which in theory I share with her; she was
unwilling to enter into any relations with me
except on terms of perfect freedom."
"I see," the old man went on with provoking
calmness. " She preferred, in fact, to be, not
your wife, but your mistress."
Alan rose indignantly. "Father," he said,
with just wrath, " if you insist upon discussing
this matter with me in such a spirit, I must
refuse to stay here. I came to tell you the
difficulty in which I find myself, and to explain
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to you my position. If you won't let me tell
you in my own way, I must leave the house
without having laid the facts before you.*'
The father spread his two palms in front of
him with demonstrative openness. " As you
will," he answered. " My time is much engaged.
I expect a patient at a quarter past ten. You
must be brief, please."
Alan made one more effort. In a very
earnest voice, he began to expound to his
father Herminia's point of view. Dr. Merrick
listened for a second or two in calm impatience.
Then he consulted his watch. " Excuse me," he
said. " I have just three minutes. Let us get
at once to the practical part — the therapeutics
of the case, omitting its aetiology. You 're go-
ing to take the young lady to Italy. When she
gets there, will she marry you? And do you
expect me to help in providing for you both
after this insane adventure?"
Alan's face was red as fire. "She will not
marry me when she gets to Italy," he answered
decisively. "And I don't want you to do any-
thing to provide for either of us."
The father looked at him with the face he
was wont to assume in scanning the appearance
of a confirmed monomaniac. "She will not
marry you," he answered slowly; "and you
intend to go on living with her in open con-
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cubinaj^e! A lady of birth and position! Is
that your meaning?"
"Father,** Alan cried despairingly, " Her-
minia would not consent to live with me on
any other terms. To her it would be disgraceful,
shameful, a sin, a reproach, a dereliction of
prineiple. She could nt go back upon her
whole past life. She lives for nothing else
but the emancipation of women.**
" And you will aid and abet her in her folly .? "
the father asked, looking up sharply at him.
** Vou will persist in this evil course.^ You
will face the world and openly defy morality.? "
"I will not counsel the woman I most love
and admire to purchase her own ease by prov-
ing false to her convictions," Alan answered
stoutly.
Dr. Merrick gazed at the watch on his table
once more. Then he rose and rang the bell.
"Patient here?*' he asked curtly. "Show him
in then at once. And, Nappcr, if Mr. Alan
Merrick ever calls again, will you tell him I *m
out? — and your mistress as well, and all the
young ladies." He turned coldly to Alan. "I
must guard your mother and sisters at least,"
he said in a chilly voice, "from the contamina-
tion of this woman's opinions."
Alan bowed without a word, and left the room.
He never again saw the face of his father.
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IX.
Alan Merrick strode from his father's door
that day stung with a burning sense of wrong
and injustice. More than ever before in his life
he realized to himself the abject hollowness of
that conventional code which masquerades in
our midst as a system of morals. If he had
continued to "live single " as we hypocritically
phrase it, and so helped by one unit to spread
the festering social canker of prostitution, on
which as basis, like some mediaeval castle on
its foul dungeon vaults, the entire superstruc-
ture of our outwardly decent modern society is
reared, his father no doubt would have shrugged
his shoulders and blinked his cold eyes, and
commended the wise young man for abstaining
from marriage till his means could permit him
to keep a wife of his own class in the way she
was accustomed to. The wretched victims of
that vile system might die unseen and unpitied
in some hideous back slum, without touching one
chord of remorse or regret in Dr. Merrick's
nature. He was steeled against their suffering.
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Or again, if Alan had sold his virility for gold
to some rich heiress of his set, like Ethel Water-
ton — had bartered his freedom to be her wedded
paramour in a loveless marriage, his father would
not only have gladly acquiesced, but would
have congratulated his son on his luck and his
prudence. Yet, because Alan had chosen rather
to form a blameless union of pure affection
with a woman who was in every way his moral
and mental superior, but in despite of the con-
ventional ban of society, Dr. Merrick had cast
him off as an open reprobate. And why.^
Simply because that union was unsanctioned
by the exponents of a law they despised, and
unblessed by the priests of a creed they rejected.
Alan saw at once it is not the intrinsic moral
value of an act such people think about, but
the light in which it is regarded by a selfish
society.
Unchastity, it has been well said, is union
without love ; and Alan would have none of it
He went back to Herminia more than ever
convinced of that spotless woman's moral supe%
riority to every one else he had ever met with.
She sat, a lonely soul, enthroned amid the halo
of her own perfect purity. To Alan, she seemed
like one of those early Italian Madonnas, lost
in a glory of light that surrounds and half hides
them. He reverenced her far too much to tell
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her all that had happened. How could he
wound those sweet ears with his father's coarse
epithets ?
They took the club train that afternoon to
Paris, There they slept the night in a fusty
hotel near the Gare du Nord, and went on in
the morning by the daylight express to Switzer-
land. At Lucerne and Milan they broke the
journey once more. Herminia had never yet
gone further afield from England than Paris;
and this first glimpse of a wider world was
intensely interesting to her. Who can help
being pleased, indeed, with that wonderful St.
Gothard — the crystal green Reuss shattering
itself in white spray into emerald pools by the
side of the .railway; Wasen church perched
high upon its. solitary hilltop; the Biaschina
ravine, the cleft rocks of Faido, the serpen-
tine twists and turns of the ramping line as
it mounts or descends its spiral zigzags.?
Dewy AJpine pasture, tossed masses of land-
slip, white narcissus on the banks, snowy peaks
in the background — all alike were fresh visions
of delight to Herminia; and she drank it all in
with the pure childish joy of a poetic nature.
It was the Switzerland of her dreams, reinforced
and complemented by unsuspected detail.
One trouble alone disturbed her peace of
mind upon that delightful journey. Alan
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entered their names at all the hotels where
they stopped as " Mr. and Mrs. Alan Merrick
of London.** That deception, as Herminia held
it, cost her many qualms of conscience; but
Alan, with masculine common-sense, was firm
upon the point that no other description was
practically possible; and Herminia yielded with
a sigh to his greater worldly wisdom. She had
yet to learn the lesson which sooner or later
comes home to all the small minority who care
a pin about righteousness, that in a world like
our own, it is impossible for the righteous
always to act consistently up to their most
sacred convictions.
At Milan, they stopped long enough to snatch
a glimpse of the cathedral, and to take a hasty
walk through the pictured glories 'of the Brera.
A vague suspicion began to cross Herminia's
mind, as she gazed at the girlish Madonna of
the Sposalizio, that perhaps she was n't quite as
well adapted to love Italy as Switzerland. Na-
ture she understood ; was art yet a closed book
to her.? If so, she would be sorry; for Alan, in
whom the artistic sense was largely developed,
loved his Italy dearly; and it would be a real
cause of regret to her if she fell short in any
way of Alan's expectations. Moreover, at table
cThote that evening, a slight episode occurred
which roused to the full once more poor Her-
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minia's tender conscience. Talk had somehow
turned on Shelley's Italian wanderings; and a
benevolent -looking clergyman opposite, with
that vacantly well-meaning smile, peculiar to
a certain type of country rector, was apologiz-
ing in what he took to be a broad and generous
spirit of divine toleration for the great moral
teacher's supposed lapses from the normal rule
of right Jiving. Much, the benevolent-looking
gentleman opined, with beaming spectacles, must
be forgiven to men of genius. Their tempta-
tions no doubt are far keener than with most of
us. An eager imagination — a vivid sense of
beauty — quick readiness to be moved by the
sight of physical or moral loveliness — these
were palliations, the old clergyman held, of
much that seemed wrong and contradictory to
our eyes in the lives of so many great men and
women.
At sound of such immoral and unworthy
teaching, Herminia's ardent soul rose up in
revolt within her. " Oh, no," she cried eagerly,
leaning across the table as she spoke. " I can't
allow that plea. It 's degrading to Shelley,
and to all true appreciation of the duties of
genius. Not less but more than most of us is
the genius bound to act up with all his might
to the highest moral law, to be the prophet and
interpreter of the highest moral excellence.
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To whom much is given, of him much shall be
required. JUst because the man or woman of
genius stands raised on a pedestal so far above
the mass have we the right to expect that he or
she should point us the way, should go before
us as pioneer, should be more careful of the
truth, more disdainful of the wrong, down to
the smallest particular, than the ordinary per-
son. There are poor souls born into this world
so petty and narrow and wanting in originality
that one can only expect them to tread the
beaten track, be it ever so cruel and wicked and
mistaken. But from a Shelley or a George Eliot,
we expect greater things, and we have a right to
expect them. That *s why I can never quite for-
give George Eliot — who knew the truth, and
found freedom for herself, and practised it in
her life — for upholding in her books the con-
ventional lies, the conventional prejudices; and
that 's why I can never admire Shelley enough,
who, in an age of slavery, refused to abjure or
to deny his freedom, but acted unto death to
the full height of his principles.'*
The benevolent-looking clergyman gazed
aghast at Herminia. Then he turned slowly
to Alan. "Your wife," he said in a mild and
terrified voice, "is a very advanced lady."
Herminia longed to blurt out the whole
simple truth. " I am not his wife. I am not.
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and could never be wife or slave to any man.
This is a very dear friend, and he and I are
travelling as friends together.** But a warning
glance from Alan made her hold her peace with
difficulty and acquiesce as best she might in
the virtual deception. Still, the incident went
to her heart, and made her more anxious than
ever to declare her convictions and her practi-
cal obedience to them openly before the world.
She remembered, oh, so well one of her father's
sermons that had vividly impressed her in the
dear old days at Dunwich Cathedral. It was
preached upon the text, " Come ye out and be
ye separate."
From Milan they went on direct to Florence.
Alan had decided to take rooms for the summer
at Perugia, and there to see Herminia safely
through her maternal troubles. He loved Peru-
gia, he said; it was cool and high-perched; and
then, too, it was such a capital place for sketch-
ing. Besides, he was anxious to complete his
studies of the early Umbrian painters. But
they must have just one week at Florence
together before they went up among the hills.
Florence was the place for a beginner to find
out what Italian art was aiming at. You got
it there in. its full logical development — every
phase, step by step, in organic unity; while
elsewhere you saw but stages and jumps and
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results, interrupted here and there by disturb-
ing lacunae. So at Florence they stopped for
a week en route^ and Herminia first learnt what
Florentine art proposed to itself.
Ah, that week in Florence! What a dream
of delight! *Twas pure gold to Herminia.
How could it well be otherwise ? It seemed to
her afterwards like the last flicker of joy in a
doomed life, before its light went out and left
her forever in utter darkness. To be sure, a
week is a terribly cramped and hurried time in
which to view Florence, the beloved city, whose
ineffable glories need at least one whole winter
adequately to grasp them. But failing a win-
ter, a week with the gods made Herminia
happy. She carried away but a confused phan-
tasmagoria, it is true, of the soaring tower of
the Palazzo Vecchio, pointing straight with its
slender shaft to heaven ; of the swelling dome and
huge ribs of the cathedral, seen vast from the
terrace in front of San Miniato; of the endless
Madonnas and the deathless saints niched in
golden tabernacles at the Uffizi and the Pitti; of
the tender grace of Fra Angelico at San Marco ;
of the infinite wealth and astounding variety
of Donatello's marble in the spacious courts of
the cool Bargello. But her window at the
hotel looked straight as it could look down the
humming Calzaioli to the pierced and encrusted
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front of Giotto's campanile, with the cupola of
San Lorenzo in the middle distance, and the
fagade of Fiesole standing out deep-blue against
the dull red glare of evening in the back-
ground. If that were not enough to sate and
enchant Herminia, she would indeed have
been difficult. And with Alan by her side,
every joy was doubled.
She had never before known what it was to
have her lover continuously with her. And
his aid in those long corridors, where bambinos
smiled down at her with childish lips, helped
her wondrously to understand in so short a time
what they sought to convey to her. Alan was
steeped in Italy ; he knew and entered into the
spirit of Tuscan art ; and now for the first time
Herminia found herself face to face with a
thoroughly new subject in which Alan could be
her teacher from the very beginning, as most
men are teachers to the women who depend
upon them. This sense of support and restful-
ness and clinging was fresh and delightful to
her. It is a woman's ancestral part to look up
to the man; she is happiest in doing it, and
must long remain so; and Herminia was not
sorry to find herself in this so much a woman.
She thought it delicious to roam through the
long halls of some great gallery with Alan, and
let him point out to her the pictures he loved
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best, explain their peculiar merits, and show
the subtle relation in which they stood to
the pictures that went before them and the
pictures that came after them, as well as to the
other work of the same master or his contempo-
raries. It was even no small joy to her to find
that he knew so much more about art and its
message than she did; that she could look up
to his judgment, confide in his opinion, see the
truth of his criticism, profit much by his in-
struction. So well did she use those seven
short days, indeed, that she came to Florence
with Fra Angelico, Filippo Lippi, Botticelli,
mere names; and she went away from it feel-
ing that she had made them real friends and
possessions for a life-time.
So the hours whirled fast in those enchanted
halls, and Herminia's soul was enriched by
new tastes and new interests. O towers of
fretted stone! O jasper and porphyry! Her
very state of health made her more susceptible
than usual to fresh impressions, and drew Alan
at the same time every day into closer union
with her. For was not the young life now
quickening within her half his and half hers,
and did it not seem to make the father by reflex
nearer and* dearer to her.'* Surely the child
that was nurtured, unborn, on those marble
colonnades and those placid Saint Catherines
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must draw in with each pulse of its antenatal
nutriment some tincture of beauty, of freedom,
of culture! So Herminia thought to herself as
she lay awake at night and looked out of the
window from the curtains of her bed at the
boundless dome and the tall campanile gleam-
ing white in the moonlight. So we have each
of us thought — especially the mothers in Israel
among us — about the unborn babe that hastens
along to its birth with such a radiant halo of
the possible future ever gilding and glorifying
its unseen forehead.
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X.
All happy times must end, and the happier the
sooner. At one short week's close they hurried
on to Perugia.
And how full Alan had been of Perugia
beforehand ! He loved every stone of the town,
every shadow of the hillsides, he told Herminia
at Florence; and Herminia started on her way
accordingly well prepared to fall quite as madly
in love with the Umbrian capital as Alan him-
self had done.
The railway journey, indeed, seemed ex-
tremely pretty. What a march of sweet pic-
tures ! They mounted with creaking wheels the
slow ascent up the picturesque glen where the
Arno runs deep, to the white towers of Arezzo;
then Cortona throned in state on its lonely
hill-top> and girt by its gigantic Etruscan walls;
next the low bank, the lucid green water, the
olive-clad slopes of reedy Thrasymene; last of
all, the sere hills and city-capped heights of
their goal, Perugia.
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For its name's sake alone, Herminia Was pre-
pared to admire the antique Umbrian capital.
And Alan loved it so much, and was so deter-
mined she ought to love it too, that she was
ready to be pleased with everything in it.
Until she arrived there — and then, oh, poor
heart, what a grievous disappointment ! It was
late April weather when they reached the sta-
tion at the foot of that high hill where Augusta
Perusia sits lording it on her throne over the
wedded vstlleys of the Tiber and the Clitumnus.
Tramontana was blowing. No rain had fallen
for weeks; the slopes of the lower Apennines,
ever dry and dusty, shone still drier and dustier
than Alan had yet beheld them. Herminia
glanced up at 'the long white road, thick in
deep gray powder, that led by endless zigzags
along the dreary slope to the long white town
on the shadeless hill-top. At first sight alone,
Perugia was a startling disillusion to Herminia.
She didn *t yet know how bitterly she was doomed
hereafter to hate every dreary dirty street in it.
But she knew at the first blush that the Perugia
she had imagined and pictured to herself didn't
really exist and had never existed.
She had figured in her own mind a beautiful
breezy town, high set on a peaked hill, ia fresh
and mossy country. She had envisaged the
mountains to her soul as clad with shady woods,
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and strewn with huge boulders under whose
umbrageous shelter bloomed waving masses of
the pretty pale blue Apennine anemones she
saw sold in big bunches at the street corners
in Florence. She had imagined, in short, that
Umbria was a wilder Italian Wales, as fresh,
as green, as sweet-scented, as fountain-fed. And
she knew pretty well whence she had derived
that strange and utterly false conception. She
had fancied Perugia as one of those mountain
villages described by Macaulay,the sort of hill-
top stronghold
" That, hid by beech and pine,
like an eagle's nest hangs on the crest
Of purple Apennine.'*
Instead of that, what manner of land did she
see actually before her.^ Dry and shadeless
hill-sides, tilled with obtrusive tilth to their
topmost summit; ploughed fields and hoary
olive-groves silvering to the wind, in intermin-
able terraces; long suburbs, unlovely in their
gaunt, bare squalor, stretching like huge arms
of some colossal cuttlefish over the spurs and
shoulders of that desecrated mountain. No
woods, no moss, no coolness, no greenery; all
nature toned down to one monotonous grayness.
And this dreary desert was indeed the place
where her baby must be born, the baby pre-
destined to regenerate humanity!
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Oh, why did they ever leave that enchanted
Florence !
Meanwhile Alan had got together the lug-
gage, and engaged a ramshackle Perugian cab;
for the public vehicles of Perugia are per-
haps, as a class, the most precarious and inco-
herent known to science. However, the luggage
was bundled on to the top by Our Lady's grace,
without dissolution of continuity; the lean-
limbed horses were induced by explosive vol-
leys of sound Tuscan oaths to make a feeble and
spasmodic effort; and bit by bit the sad little
cavalcade began slowly to ascend the inter-
minable hill that rises by long loops to the
platform of the Prefettura.
That drive was the gloomiest Herminia had
ever yet taken. Was it the natural fastidious-
ness of her condition, she wondered, or was it
really the dirt and foul smells of the place that
made her sicken at first sight of the wind-swept
purlieus.^ Perhaps a little of both; for in dusty
weather Perugia is the most endless town to
get out of in Italy; and its capacity for the
production of unpleasant odors is unequalled
no doubt from the Alps to Calabria. As
they reached the bare white platform at the
entry to the upper town, where Pope Paul's
grim fortress once frowned to overawe the auda-
cious souls of the liberty-loving Umbrians, she
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turned mute eyes to Alan for sympathy. And
then for the first time the terrible truth broke
over her that Alan was n't in the least disap-
pointed or disgusted; he knew it all before; he
was accustomed to it and liked it! As for
Alan, he misinterpreted her glance, indeed,
and answered with that sort of proprietary
pride we all of us assume towards a place we
love, and are showing off to a newcomer : " Yes,
I thought you'd like this view, dearest; isn't
it wonderful, wonderful? That's Assisi over
yonder, that strange white town that clings by
its eyelashes to the sloping hill-side; and those
are the snowclad heights of the Gran Sasso
beyond; and that's Montefalco to the extreme
right, where the sunset gleam just catches the
hill-top."
His words struck dumb horror into Her-
minia's soul. Poor child, how she shrank at
it ! It was clear, then, instead of being shocked
and disgusted, Alan positively admired this
human Sahara. With an effort she gulped
down her tears and her sighs, and pretended
to look with interest in the directions he
pointed. She could see nothing in it all but
dry hill-sides, crowned with still drier towns;
unimagined stretches of sultry suburb ; devour-
ing wastes of rubbish and foul immemorial
kitchen-middens. And the very fact that for
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Alan's sake she couldn't bear to say so — see-
ing how pleased and proud he was of Perugia,
as if it had been built from his own design —
made the bitterness of her disappointment more
difficult to endure. She would have given any-
thing at that moment for an ounce of human
sympathy.
She had to learn in time to do without it.
They spent that night at the comfortable
hotel, perhaps the best in Italy. Next morn-
ing, they were to go hunting for apartments
in the town, where Alan knew of a suite that
would exactly suit them. After dinner, in the
twilight, filled with his artistic joy at being
back in Perugia, his beloved Perugia, he took
Herminia out for a stroll, with a light wrap
round her head, on the terrace of the Prefettura.
The air blew fresh and cool now with a certain
mountain sharpness; for, as Alan assured her
with pride, they stood seventeen hundred feet
above the level of the Mediterranean. The
moon had risen; the sunset glow had not yet
died off the slopes of the Assisi hill-sides. It
streamed through the perforated belfry of San
Domenico ; it steeped in rose-color the slender
and turreted shaft of San Pietro, "Perugia's
Pennon," the Arrowhead of Umbria. It gilded
the gaunt houses that jut out upon the spine
of the Borgo hill into the valley of the Tiber.
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Beyond, rose shadowy Apennines, on whose
aerial flanks towns and villages shone out clear
in the mellow moonlight. Far away on their
peaks faint specks of twinkling fire marked
indistinguishable sites of high hill-top castles.
Alan turned to her proudly. " Well, what do
you think of that ? " he asked with truly personal
interest.
Herminia could only gasp out in a half reluc-
tant way, "It's a beautiful view, Alan. Beau-
tiful; beautiful; beautiful!"
But she felt conscious to herself it owed its
beauty in the main to the fact that the twilight
obscured so much of it. To-morrow morning,
the bare hills would stand out once more in all
their pristine bareness ; the white roads would
shine forth as white and dusty as ever; the
obtrusive rubbish heaps would press themselves
at every turn upon eye and nostril. She hated
the place, to say the truth; it was a terror to
her to think she had to stop so long in it.
Most famous towns, in fact, need to be twice
seen: the first time briefly to face the inev-
itable disappointment to our expectations; the
second time, at leisure, to reconstruct and ap-
praise the surviving reality. Imagination so
easily beggars performance. Rome, Cairo, the
Nile, are obvious examples; the grand excep-
tions are Venice and Florence, — in a lesser
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degree, Bruges, Munich, Pisa. As for Umbria,
'tis a poor thing; our own Devon snaps her
fingers at it.
Moreover, to say the truth, Herminia was
too fresh to Italy to appreciate the smaller or
second-rate towns at their real value. Even
northerners love Florence and Venice at first
sight; those take their hearts by storm; but
Perugia, Siena, Orvieto, are an acquired taste,
like olives and caviare, and it takes time to
acquire it. Alan had not made due allowance
for this psychological truth of the northern
natures. A Celt in essence, thoroughly Italian-
ate himself, and with a deep love for the pic-
turesque, which often makes men insensible to
dirt and discomfort, he expected to Italianize
Herminia too rapidly. Herminia, on the other
hand, belonged more strictly to the intellectual
and somewhat inartistic English type. The pic-
turesque alone did not suffice for her. Clean-
liness and fresh air were far dearer to her soul
than the quaintest street corners, the oddest
old archways; she pined in Perugia for a green
English hillside.
The time, too, was unfortunate, after no rain
for weeks; for rainlessness, besides doubling
the native stock of dust, brings out to the full
the ancestral Etruscan odors of Perugia. So,
when next morning Herminia found herself
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installed in a dingy flat, in a morose palazzo,
in the main street of the city, she was glad
that Alan insisted on going out alone to make
needful purchases of groceries and provisions,
because it^ gave her a chance of flinging herself
on her bed in a perfect agony of distress and
disappointment, and having a good cry, all
alone, at the aspect of the home where she
was to pass so many eventful weeks of her
existence.
Dusty, gusty Perugia! O baby, to be born
for the freeing of woman, was it here, was it
here you must draw your first breath, in an air
polluted by the vices of centuries !
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XI.
Somewhat later in the day, they went out for a
slroll through the town together. To Herminia's
great relief, Alan never even noticed she had
been crying. Man-like, he was absorbed in his
own delight. She would have felt herself a
traitor if Alan had discovered it.
"Which way shall we go?'' she asked list-
lessly, with a glance to right and left, as they
passed beneath the sombre Tuscan gate of their
palazzo.
And Alan answered, smiling, "Why, what
does it matter.^ Which way you like. Every
way is a picture. "
And so it was, Herminia herself was fain to
admit, in a pure painter's sense that didn't
at all attract her. Lines grouped themselves
against the sky in infinite diversity. Which-
ever way they turned quaint old walls met their
eyes, and tumble-down churches, and moulder-
ing towers, and mediaeval palazzi with carved
doorways or rich loggias. But whichever way
they turned dusty roads too confronted them.
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illimitable stretches of gloomy suburb, unwhole-
some airs, sickening sights and sounds and per-
fumes. Narrow streets swept, darkling, under
pointed archways, that framed distant vistas of
spire or campanile, silhouetted against the solid
blue sky of Italy. The crystal hardness of that
sapphire firmament repelled Herminia. They
passed beneath the triumphal arch of Augustus
with its Etruscan mason-work, its Roman deco-
rations, and round the antique walls, aglow with
tufted gillyflowers, to the bare Piazza d* Armi.
A cattle fair was going on there; and Alan
pointed with pleasure to the curious fact that
the oxen were all cream-colored, — the famous
white steers of Clitumnus. Herminia knew her
Virgil as well as Alan himself, and murmured
half aloud the sonorous hexameter, "Romanos
ad templa deum duxere triumphos." But some-
how, the knowledge that these were indeed the
milk-white bullocks of Clitumnus failed amid
so much dust to arouse her enthusiasm. She
would have been better pleased just then with
a yellow English primrose.
They clambered down the terraced ravines
sometimes, a day or two later, to arid banks
by a dry torrent's bed where Italian primroses
really grew, interspersed with tall grape -hya-
cinths, and scented violets, and glossy cleft
leaves of winter aconite. But even the prim-
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roses were not the same thing to Herminia as
those she used to gather on the dewy slopes
of the Redlands; they were so dry and dust-
grimed, and the path by the torrent's side was
so distasteful and unsavory. Bare white boughs
of twisted fig-trees depressed her. Besides,
these hills were steep, and Herminia felt the
climbing. Nothing in city or suburbs attracted
her soul. Etruscan Volumnii, each lolling in
white travertine on the sculptured lid of his
own sarcophagus urn, and all duly ranged in
the twilight of their tomb at their spectral ban-
quet, stirred her heart but feebly. St. Francis,
Santa Chiara, fell flat on her English fancy.
But as for Alan, he revelled all day long in his
native element. He sketched every morning,
among the huddled, strangled lanes; sketched
churches and monasteries, and portals of pa-
lazzi; sketched mountains clear-cut in that
pellucid air; till Herminia wondered how he
could sit so long in the broiling sun or keen
wind on those bare hillsides, or on broken brick
parapets in those noisome byways. But your
born sketcher is oblivious of all on earth save his
chosen art; and Alan was essentially a painter
in fibre, diverted by pure circumstance into a
Chancery practice.
The very pictures in the gallery failed to
interest Herminia, she knew not why. Alan
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could n*t rouse her to enthusiasm over his
beloved Buonfigli. Those naTve flaxen-haired
angels, with sweetly parted lips, and baskets of
red roses in their delicate hands, own sisters
though they were to the girlish Lippis she had
so admired at Florence, moved her heart but
faintly. Try as she might to like them, she
responded to nothing Perugian in any way.
At the end of a week or two, however, Alan
began to complain of constant headache. He
was looking very well, but grew uneasy and
restless. Herminia advised him to give up
sketching for a while, those small streets were
so close; and he promised to yield to her wishes
in the matter. Yet he grew worse next day,
so that Herminia, much alarmed, called in an
Italian doctor. Perugia boasted no English
one. The Italian felt his pulse, and listened to
his symptoms. "The signore came here from
Florence ? " he asked.
"From Florence," Herminia assented, with a
sudden sinking.
The doctor protruded his lower lip. "This
is typhoid fever," he said after a pause. "A
very bad type. It has been assuming such a
form this winter at Florence."
He spoke the plain truth. Twenty-one days
before in his bedroom at the hotel in Florence,
Alan had drunk a single glass of water from the
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polluted springs that supply in part the Tuscan
metropolis. For twentj-one days those victo-
rious microbes had brooded in silence in his poi-
soned arteries. At the end of that time, they
swarmed and declared themselves. He was ill
with an aggravated form of the most deadly
disease that still stalks unchecked through
unsanitated Europe.
Herminia's alarm was painful. Alan grew
rapidly worse. In two days he was so ill that
she thought it her duty to telegraph at once to
Dr. Merrick, in London : "Alan's life in danger.
Serious attack of Florentine typhoid. Italian
doctor despairs of his life. May not last till
to-morrow. — Herminia Barton."
Later on in the day came a telegram in reply;
it was addressed to Alan : " Am on my way out
by through train to attend you. But as a mat-
ter of duty, marry the girl at once, and legiti-
matize your child while the chance remains to
you."
It was kindly meant in its way. It was a
message of love, of forgiveness, of generosity,
such as Herminia would hardly have expected
from so stem a man as Alan had always repre-
sented his father to be to her. But at moments
of unexpected danger angry feelings between
father and son are often forgotten, and blood
unexpectedly proves itself thicker than water.
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Yet even so Herminia couldn't bear to show
the telegram to Alan. She feared lest in this
extremity, his mind weakened by disease, he
might wish to take his father's advice, and
prove untrue to their common principles. In
that case, woman that she was, she hardly knew
how she could resist what might be only too
probably his dying wishes. Still, she nerved
herself for this trial of faith, and went through
with it bravely. Alan, though sinking, was still
conscious at moments; in one such interval,
with an effort to be calm, she showed him his
. father's telegram. Tears rose into his eyes.
"I didn't expect him to come," he said.
"This is all very good of him." Then, after a
moment, he added, "Would you wish me in this
extremity, Hermy, to do as he advises?"
Herminia bent over him with fierce tears on
her eyelids. "O Alan darling," she cried,
"you mustn't die! You mustn't leave me*
What could I do without you ? oh, my darling,
my darling! But don't think of me now.
Don't think of the dear baby. I couldn't bear
to disturb you even by showing you the tele-
gram. For your sake, Alan, I '11 be calm, —
I '11 be calm. But oh, not for worlds, — not for
worlds, — even so, would I turn my back on the
principles we would both risk our lives for! "
Alan smiled a faint smile. "Hermy," he
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said slowly, "I love you all the more for it.
You *re as brave as a lion. Oh, how much I
have learned from you ! "
All that night and next day Herminia
watched by his bedside. Now and again he
was conscious. But for the most part he lay
still, in a comatose condition, with eyes half
closed, the whites showing through the lids,
neither moving nor speaking. All the time he
grew worse steadily. As she sat by his bed-
side, Herminia began to realize the utter loneli-
ness of her position. That Alan might die was
the one element in the situation she had never
even dreamt of. No wife could love her hus-
band with more perfect devotion than Herminia
loved Alan. She hung upon every breath with
unspeakable suspense and unutterable affection.
But the Italian doctor held out little hope of a
rally. Herminia sat there, fixed to the spot, a
white marble statue.
Late next evening Dr. Merrick reached
Perugia. He drove straight from the station
to the dingy flat in the morose palazzo. At the
door of his son's room, Herminia met him,
clad from head to foot in white, as she had sat
by the bedside. Tears blinded her eyes; her
face was wan; her mien terribly haggard.
"And my son.^" the Doctor asked, with a
hushed breath of terror.
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" He died half an hour ago," Herminia gasped
out with an effort.
"But he married you before he died?" the
father cried, in a tone of profound emotion.
"He did justice to his child.? — he repaired his
evil ? "
"He did not," Herminia answered, in a
scarcely audible voice. "He was stanch to
the end to his lifelong principles."
"Why not.?" the father asked, staggering.
Did he see my telegram ? "
Yes," Herminia answered, numb with grief,
yet too proud to prevaricate. "But I advised
him to stand firm; and he abode by my
decision."
The father waved her aside with his hands
imperiously. "Then I have done with you,"
he exclaimed. "I am sorry to seem harsh to
you at such a moment. But it is your own
doing. You leave me no choice. You have
no right any longer in my son's apartments."
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XII.
No position in life is more terrible to face than
that of the widowed mother left alone in the
world with her unborn baby. When the child
is her first one, — when, besides the natural
horror and agony of the situation, she has also
to confront the unknown dangers of that new
and dreaded experience, — her plight is still
more pitiable. But when the widowed mother
is one who has never been a wife, — when in addi-
tion to all these pangs of bereavement and fear,
she has further to face the contempt and hos-
tility of a sneering world, as Herminia had to
face it, — then, indeed, her lot becomes well-
nigh insupportable; it is almost more than hu-
man nature can bear up against. So Herminia
found it. She might have died of grief and
loneliness then and there, had it not been for the
sudden and unexpected rousing of her spirit of
opposition by Dr. Merrick's words. That cruel
speech gave her the will and the power to live.
It saved her from madness. She drew herself
up at once with an injured woman's pride, and.
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facing her dead Alan's father with a quick
access of energy, —
"You are wrong," she said, stilling her heart
with one hand. "These rooms are mine, — my
own, not dear Alan's. I engaged them myself,
for my own use, and in my own name, as
Herminia Barton. You can stay here if you
wish. I will not imitate your cruelty by re-
fusing you access to them; but if you remain
here, you must treat me at least with the re-
spect that belongs to my great sorrow, and
with the courtesy due to an English lady,"
Her words half cowed him. He subsided at
once. In silence he stepped over to his dead
son's bedside. Mechanically, almost uncon-
sciously, Herminia went on with the needful prep-
arations for Alan's funeral. Her grief was so in-
tense that she bore up as if stunned ; she did what
was expected of her without thinking or feeling
it. Dr. Merrick stopped on at Perugia till his
son was buried. He was frigidly polite mean-
while to Herminia. Deeply as he differed from
her, the dignity and pride with Which she had
answered his first insult impressed him with a
certain sense of respect for her character, and
made him feel at least he could not be rude
to her with impunity. He remained at the
hotel, and superintended the arrangements for
his son's funeral. As soon as that was over,
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and Herminia had seen the coffin lowered into
the grave of all her hopes, save one, she re-
turned to her rooms alone, — more utterly alone
than she had ever imagined any human being
could feel in a cityful of fellow-creatures.
She must shape her path now for herself
without Alan's aid, without Alan's advice.
And her bitterest enemies in life, she felt sure,
would henceforth be those of Alan's house-
hold.
Yet, lonely as she was, she determined from
the first moment no course was left open for
her save to remain at Perugia. She couldn't
go away so soon from the spot where Alan was
laid, — from all that remained to her now of
Alan. Except his unborn baby, — the baby
that was half his, half hers, — the baby predes-
tined to regenerate humanity. Oh, how she
longed to fondle it! Every arrangement had
been made in Perugia for the baby's advent;
she would stand by those arrangements still, in
her shuttered room, partly because she could n't
tear herself away from Alan's grave; partly
because she had no heart left to make the
necessary arrangements elsewhere; but partly
also because she wished Alan's baby to be born
near Alan's side, where she could present it
after birth at its father's last resting-place. It
was a fanciful wish, she knew, based upon
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ideas she had long since discarded; but these
ancestral sentiments echo long in our hearts;
they die hard with us all, and most hard with
women.
She would stop on at Perugia, and die in
giving birth to Alan's baby; or else live to be
father and mother in one to it.
So she stopped and waited ; waited in tremu-
lous fear, half longing for death, half eager not
to leave that sacred baby an orphan. It would
be Alan's Ijaby, and might grow in time to be
the world's true savior. For, now that Alan
was dead, no hope on earth seemed too great to
cherish for Alan's child within her.
And oh, that it might be a girl, to take up
the task she herself had failed in!
The day after the funeral. Dr. Merrick called
in for the last time at her lodgings. He brought
in his hand a legal-looking paper, which he had
found in searching among Alan's effects, for
he had carried them off to his hotel, leaving
not even a memento of her ill-starred love to
Herminia. "This may interest you,*' he said
dryly. "You will see at once it is in my son's
handwriting."
Herminia glanced over it with a burning face.
It was a will in her favor, leaving absolutely
everything of which he died possessed "to my
beloved friend, Herminia Barton."
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Herminia had hardly the means to keep her-
self alive till her baby was born ; but in those
first fierce hours of ineffable bereavement what
question of money could interest her in any
way? She stared at it, stupefied. It only
pleased her to think Alan had not forgotten her.
"The sordid moneyed class of England will
haggle over bequests and settlements and dow-
ries on their bridal eve, or by the coffins of
their dead. Herminia had no such ignoble
possibilities. How could he speak of it in her
presence at a moment like this.^ How obtrude
such themes on her august sorrow ?
"This was drawn up,'* Dr. Merrick went on
in his austere voice, "the very day before my
late son left London. But, of course, you will
have observed it was never executed.*'
And in point of fact Herminia now listlessly
noted that it lacked Alan's signature.
"That makes it, I need hardly say, of no
legal value," the father went on, with frigid
calm. " I bring it round merely to show you
that my son intended to act honorably towards
you. As things stand, of course, he has died
intestate, and his property, such as it is, will
follow the ordinary law of succession. For
your sake, I am sorry it should be so; I could
have wished it otherwise. However, I need hot
remind you" — he picked his phrases carefully
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with icy precision — "that under circumstances
like these neither you nor your child have any
claim whatsoever upon my son's estate. Nor
have I any right over it. Still " — he paused
for a second, and that incisive mouth strove to
grow gentle, while Herminia hot with shame,
confronted him helplessly — ** I sympathize
with your position, and do not forget it was
Alan who brought you here. Therefore, as
an act of courtesy to a lady in whom he was
personally interested . . . if a slight gift of fifty
pounds would be of immediate service to you
in your present situation, why, I think, with
the approbation of his brothers and sisters, who
of course inherit — **
Herminia turned upon him like a wounded
creature. She thanked the blind caprice which
governs the universe that it gave her strength
at that moment to bear up under his insult.
With one angry hand she waved dead Alan's
father inexorably to the door. "Go," she said
simply. " How dare you ? how dare you ? Leave
my rooms this instant."
Dr. Merrick still irresolute, and anxious in
his way to do what he thought was just, drew
a roll of Italian bank notes from his waistcoat
pocket, and laid them on the table. " You may
find these useful," he said, as he retreated
awkwardly.
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Herminia turned upon him with tl^e just
wrath of a great nature outraged. " Take them
up!" she cried fiercely. "Don't pollute my
table ! " Then, as often happens to all of us in
moments of deep emotion, a Scripture phrase,
long hallowed by childish familiarity, rose
spontaneous to her lips. "Take them up!"
she cried again. "Thy money perish with
thee ! "
Dr. Merrick took them up, and slank noise-
lessly from the room, murmuring as he went
some inarticulate words to the effect that he
had only desired to serve her. As soon as he
was gone, Herminia's nerve gave way. She
flung herself into a chair, and sobbed long and
violently.
It was no time for her, of course, to think
about money. Sore pressed as she was, she
had just enough left to see her safely through
her confinement. Alan had given her a few
pounds for housekeeping when they first got
into the rooms, and those she kept ; they were
hers; she had not the slightest impulse to
restore them to his family. All he left was
hers too, by natural justice; and she knew it.
He had drawn up his will, attestation clause
and all, with even the very date inserted in
pencil, the day before they quitted London
together; but finding no friends at the club to
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witness it, he had put off executing it; and so
had left Herminia entirely to her own resources.
In the delirium of his fever, the subject never
occurred to him. But no doubt existed as to
the nature of his last wishes; and if Herminia
herself had been placed in a similar position
to that of the Merrick family, she would have
scorned to take so mean an advantage of the
mere legal omission. ^
By this time, of course, the story of her fate
had got across to England, and was being read
and retold by each man or woman after his or
her own fashion. The papers mentioned it, as
seen through the optic lens of ^the society jour-
nalist, with what strange refraction. Most of
them descried in poor Herminia's tragedy noth-
ing but material for a smile, a sneer, or an
innuendo. The Dean himself wrote to her, a
piteous, paternal note, which bowed her down
more than ever in her abyss of sorrow. He
wrote as a dean must, — gray hairs brought
down with sorrow to the grave; infinite mercy
of Heaven; still room for repentance; but oh,
to keep away from her pure young sisters 1 Her-
minia answered with dignity, but with profound
emotion. She knew her father too well not to
sympathize greatly with his natural view of so
fatal an episode.
So she stopped on alone for her dark hour
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in Perugia. She stopped on, untended by any
save unknown Italians whose tongue she hardly
spoke, and uncheered by a friendly voice at the
deepest moment of trouble in a woman's his-
tory. Often for hours together she sat alone
in the cathedral, gazing up at a certain mild-
featured Madonna, enshrined above an altar.
The unwedded widow seemed to gain some com-
fort from the pitying face of the maiden mother.
Every day, while still she could, she walked
out along the shadeless suburban road to Alan's
grave in the parched and crowded cemetery.
Women trudging along with crammed creels on
their backs turned round to stare at her. When
she could no longer walk, she sat at her window
towards San Luca and gazed at it. There lay
the only friend she possessed in Perugia, per-
haps in the universe.
The dreaded day arrived at last, and her
strong constitution enabled Herminia to live
through it. Her baby was born, a beautiful
little girl, soft, delicate, wonderful, with Alan's
blue eyes, and its mother's complexion. Those
rosy feet saved Herminia. As she clasped
them in her hands — tiny feet, tender feet —
she felt she had now something left to live
for, — her baby, Alan's baby, the baby with a
future, the baby that was destined to regenerate
humanity.
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So warm! So small! Alan's soul and her
own, mysteriously blended.
Still, even so, she couldn't find it in her
heart to give any joyous name to dead Alan's
child. Dolores she called it, at Alan's grave.
In sorrow had she borne it; its true name was
Dolores.
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XIII.
It was a changed London to which Herminia
returned. She was homeless, penniless, friend-
less. Above all she was d^classh. The world
that had known her now knew her no more.
Women who had smothered her with their
Judas kisses passed her by in their victorias
with a stony stare. Even men pretended to be
looking the other way, or crossed the street to
avoid the necessity for recognizing her. " So
awkward to be mixed up with such a scandal! "
She hardly knew as yet herself how much her
world was changed indeed; for had she not
come back to it, the mother of an illegitimate
daughter? But she began to suspect it the very
first day when she arrived at Charing Cross,
clad in a plain black dress, with her baby at
her bosom. Her first task was to find rooms;
her next to find a livelihood. Even the first
involved no small relapse from the purity of
her principles. After long hours of vain hunt-
ing, she found at last she could only get lodg-
136 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
ings for herself and Alan's child by telling a
virtual lie, against which her soul revolted.
She was forced to describe herself as Mrs.
Barton; she must allow her landlady to sup-
pose she was really a widow. Woe unto you,
scribes and hypocrites! in all Christian Lon-
don Miss Barton and her baby could never
have found a "respectable" room in which to
lay their heads. So she yielded to the inev-
itable, and took two tiny attics in a small
street oflE the Edgware Road at a moderate
rental. To live alone in a cottage as of yore
would have been impossible now she had a
baby of her own to tend, besides earning her
livelihood; she fell back regretfully on the
lesser evil of lodgings.
To earn her livelihood was a hard task, though
Herminia's indomitable energy rode down all
obstacles. Teaching, of course, was now quite
out of the question; no English parent could
intrust the education of his daughters to the
hands of a woman who has dared and suffered
much, for conscience* sake, in the cause of
freedom for herself and her sisters. But even
before Herminia went away to Perugia, she had
acquired some small journalistic connection;
and now, in her hour of need, she found not
a few of the journalistic leaders by no means
unwilling to sympathize and fraternize with
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her. To be sure, they did n't ask the free wo-
man to their homes, nor invite her to meet their
own women: — even an enlightened journalist
must draw a line somewhere in the matter of
society; but they understood and appreciated
the sincerity of her motives, and did what they
could to find employment and salary for her.
Herminia was an honest and conscientious
worker; she knew much about many things;
and nature had gifted her with the instinctive
power of writing clearly and unaffectedly the
English language. So she got on with editors.
Who could resist, indeed, the pathetic charm of
that girlish figure, simply clad in unobtrusive
black, and sanctified in every feature of the
shrinking face by the beauty of sorrow ? Not the
men who stand at the head of the one English
profession which more than all others has es-
caped the leprous taint of that national moral
blight that calls itself "respectability."
In a slow and tentative way, then, Herminia
crept back into unrecognized recognition. It
was all she needed. Companionship she liked;
she hated society. That mart was odious to
her where women barter their bodies for a title,
a carriage, a place at the head of some rich
man's table. Bohemia sufficed her. Her ter-
rible widowhood, too, was rendered less terrible
to her by the care of her little one. Babbling
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lips, pattering feet, made heaven in her attic.
Every good woman is by nature a mother, and
finds best in maternity her social and moral
salvation. . She shall be saved in child-bearing.
Herminia was far removed indeed from that blat-
ant and decadent sect of " advanced women '* who
talk as though motherhood were a disgrace and
a burden, instead of being, as it is, the full
realization of woman's faculties, the natural
outlet for woman's wealth of emotion. She
knew that to 'be a mother is the best privilege
of her sex, a privilege of which unholy man-
made institutions now conspire to deprive half
the finest and noblest women in our civilized com-
munities. Widowed as she was, she still pitied
the unhappy beings doomed to the cramped life
and dwarfed heart of the old maid ; pitied them as
sincerely as she despised those unhealthy souls
who would make of celibacy, wedded or un-
wedded, a sort of anti-natural religion for women.
Alan's death, however, had left Herminia's ship
rudderless. Her mission had failed. That she
acknowledged herself. She lived now for
Dolores. The child to whom she had given
the noble birthright of liberty was destined
from her cradle to the apostolate of women.
Alone of her sex, she would start in life eman-
cipated. While others must say, "With a great
sum obtained I this freedom," Dolores could
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answer with Paul, " But I was free born. " That
was no mean heritage.
Gradually Herminia got work to her mind;
work enough to support her in the modest way
that sufficed her small wants for herself and her
baby. In London, given time enough, you can
live down anything, perhaps even the unspeak-
able sin of having struck a righteous blow in
the 'interest of women. And day by day, as
months and years went on, Herminia felt she
was living down the disgrace of having obeyed
an enlightened conscience. She even found
friends. Dear old Miss Smith-Waters used to
creep round by night, like Nicodemus — respect-
ability would not have allowed her to perform
that Christian act in open daylight, — and sit
for an hour or two with her dear misguided
Herminia. Miss Smith-Waters prayed nightly
for Herminia's "conversion," yet not without
an uncomfortable suspicion, after all, that Her-
minia had very little indeed to be "converted"
from. Other people also got to know her by
degrees; an editor's wife; a kind literary host-
ess; some socialistic ladies who liked to be
"advanced;" a friendly family or two of the
Bohemian literary or artistic pattern. Among
them Herminia learned to be as happy in time
as she could ever again be, now she had lost her
Alan. She was Mrs. Barton to them all ; that
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lie she found it practically impossible to fight
against. Even the Bohemians refused to let
their children ask after Miss Barton's baby.
So wrapt in vile falsehoods and conventions
are we. So far have we travelled from the
pristine realities of truth and purity. We lie
to our children — in the interests of morality.
After a time, in the intervals between doing
her journalistic work and nursing Alan's baby,
Herminia found leisure to write a novel. It
was seriously meant, of course, but still it was
a novel. That is every woman's native idea of
literature. It reflects the relatively larger part
which the social life plays in the existence of
women. If a man tells you he wants to write a
book, nine times out of ten he means a treatise
or argument on some subject that interests
him. Even the men who take in the end to
writing novels have generally begun with other
aims and other aspirations, and have only fallen
back upon the art of fiction in the last resort
as a means of livelihood. But when a woman
tells you she wants to write a book, nine times
out of ten she means she wants to write a novel.
For that task nature has most often endowed
her richly. Her quicker intuitions, her keener
interest in social life, her deeper insight into
the passing play of emotions and of motives,
enable her to paint well the complex interrela-
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tions of every-day existence. So Herminia,
like the rest, wrote her own pet novel.
By the time her baby was eighteen months
old, she had finished it. It was blankly pessi-
mistic, of course. Blank pessimism is the one
creed possible for all save fools. To hold any
other is to curl yourself up selfishly in your
own easy chair, and say to your soul, "O
soul, eat and drink; O soul, make merry.
Carouse thy fill. Ignore the maimed lives, the
stricken heads and seared hearts, the reddened
fangs and ravening claws of nature all round
thee." Pessimism is sympathy. Optimism is
selfishness. The optimist folds his smug hands
on his ample knees, and murmurs contentedly,
"The Lord has willed it;" "There must always
be rich and poor;" "Nature has, after all, her
great law of compensation." The pessimist
knows well self-deception like that is either a
fraud or a blind, and recognizing the seething
mass of misery at his doors gives what he can,
— his pity, or, where possible, his faint aid, in
redressing the crying inequalities and injustices
of man or nature.
All honest art is therefore of necessity pes-
simistic. Hemiinia's romance was something-
more than that. It was the despairing heart-
cry of a soul in revolt. It embodied the experi-
ences and beliefs and sentiments of a martyred
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woman. It enclosed a lofty ethical purpose.
She wrote it with fiery energy, for her baby*s
sake, on waste scraps of paper, at stray moments
snatched from endless other engagements. And
as soon as it was finished, she sent it in fear
and trembling to a publisher.
She had chosen her man well. He was a
thinker himself, and he sympathized with
thinkers. Though doubtful as to the venture,
he took all the risk himself with that gener-
osity one so often sees in the best-abused of
professions. In three or four weeks* time "A
Woman's World '* came out, and Herminia
waited in breathless anxiety for the verdict of
the reviewers.
For nearly a month she waited in vain.
Then, one Friday, as she was returning by
underground railway from the Strand to Edge-
ware Road, with Dolores in her arms, her eye
fell as she passed upon the display-bill of the
"Spectator.** Sixpence was a great deal of
money to Herminia; but bang it went reck-
lessly when she saw among the contents an
article headed, "A Very Advanced Woman's
Novel." She felt sure it must be hers, and she
was not mistaken. Breathlessly she ran over
that first estimate of her work. It was with no
little elation that she laid down the number.
Not that the critique was by any means at
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all favorable. How could Herminia expect it
in such a quarter ? But the " Spectator " is at
least conspicuously fair, though it remains in
other ways an interesting and ivy-clad mediaeval
relic. "Let us begin by admitting," said the
Spectatorial scribe, "that Miss Montague's
book " (she had published it under a pseu-
donym) "is a work of genius. Much as we
dislike its whole tone, and still more its con-
clusions, the gleam of pure genius shines forth
undeniable on every page of it. Whoever takes
it up .must read on against his will till he has
finished the last line of this terrible tragedy; a
hateful fascination seems to hold and compel
him. Its very purity makes it dangerous. The
book is mistaken; the book is poisonous; the
book is morbid; the book is calculated to do
irremediable mischief; but in spite of all that,
the book is a book of undeniable and sadly mis-
placed genius. "
If he had said no more, Herminia would have
been amply satisfied. To be called morbid by
the " Spectator " is a sufficient proof that you
have hit at least the right tack in morals. And
to be accused of genius as well was indeed a
triumph. No wonder Herminia went home to
her lonely attic that night justifiably elated.
She fancied after this her book must make a
hit. It might be blamed and reviled, but at
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any rate it was now safe from the ignominy of
oblivion.
Alas, how little she knew of the mysteries of
the book-market! As little as all the rest of
us. Day after day, from that afternoon forth,
she watched in vain for succeeding notices.
Not a single other paper in England reviewed
her. At the libraries, her romance was never
so much as asked for. And the reason for
these phenomena is not far to seek by those
who know the ways of the British public. For
her novel was earnestly and sincerely written ;
it breathed a moral air, therefore it was voted
dull ; therefore nobody cared for it. The " Spec-
tator" had noticed it because of its manifest
earnestness and sincerity ; for though the " Spec-
tator" is always on the side of the lie and the
wrong, it is earnest and sincere, and has a gen-
uine sympathy for earnestness and sincerity,
even on the side of truth and righteousness.
Nobody else even looked at it. People said to
themselves, "This book seems to be a book with
a teaching not thoroughly banal, like the novels-
with-a-purpose after which we flock; so we'll
give it a wide berth."
And they shunned it accordingly.
That was the end of Herminia Barton's lit-
erary aspirations. She had given the people of
her best, and the people rejected it. Now she
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gave them of her most mediocre; the nearest
to their own level of thought and feeling to
which her hand could reduce itself. And the
people accepted it. The rest of her life was
hack-work; by that, she could at least earn a
living for Dolores. Her "Antigone, for the
Use of Ladies' Schools " still holds its own at
Girton and Somerville.
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XIV.
I DO not propose to dwell at any length upon
the next ten or twelve years of Herminia Bar-
ton's life. An episode or two must suffice; and
those few told briefly.
She saw nothing of her family. Relations
had long been strained between them ; now they
were ruptured. To the rest of the Bartons, she
was even as one dead; the sister and daughter's
name was never pronounced among them. But
once, when little Dolores was about five years
old, Herminia happened to pass a church door
in Marylebone, where a red-lettered placard
announced in bold type that the Very Reverend
the Dean of Dunwich would preach there on
Sunday. It flashed across her mind that this
was Sunday morning. An overpowering desire
to look on her father's face once more — she
had never seen her mother's — impelled Her-
minia to enter those unwonted portals. The
Dean was in the pulpit. He looked stately and
dignified in his long white hair, a noticeable
man, tall and erect to the last, like a storm-
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beaten pine ; in spite of his threescore years and
ten, his clear-cut face shone thoughtful, and
striking, and earnest as ever. . He was preach-
ing from the text, "I press toward the mark
for the prize of the high calling." And he
preached, as he always did, eloquently. His
river of speech flowed high between banks out
of sight of the multitude. There was such
perfect sincerity, such moral elevation in all
he said, that Herminia felt acutely, as she had
often felt before, the close likeness of fibre
which united her to him, in spite of extreme
superficial differences of belief and action.
She felt it so much that when the sermon was
over she waited at the vestry door for her
father to emerge. She couldn't let him go
away without making at least an effort to speak
with him.
When the Dean came out, a gentle smile still
playing upon his intellectual face, — for he waar
one of the few parsons who manage in their old
age to look neither sordid nor inane, — he saw
standing by the vestry door a woman in a plain
black dress, like a widow of the people. She
held by the hand a curly-haired little girl of
singularly calm and innocent expression. The
woman's dark hair waved gracefully on her high
forehead, and caught his attention. Her eyes
were subtly sweet, her mouth full of pathos.
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She pressed forward to speak to him ; the Dean,
all benignity, bent his head to listen.
"Father!" H,erminia cried, looking up at
him.
The Dean started back. The woman who
thus addressed him was barely twenty-eight,
she might well have been forty; grief and hard
life had made her old before her time. Her
face was haggard. Beautiful as she still was,
it was the beauty of a broken heart, of a Mater
Dolorosa, not the roundfaced beauty of the
fresh young girl who had gone forth rejoicing
some ten years earlier from the Deanery at
Dunwich to the lecture-rooms at Girton. For
a moment the Dean stared hard at her. Then
with a burst of recognition he uttered aghast
the one word " Herminia! "
"Father," Herminia answered, in a tremu-
lous voice, " I have fought a good fight ; I have
pressed toward the mark for the prize of a high
calling. And when I heard you preach, I felt
just this once, let come what come might, I
must step forth to tell you so."
The Dean gazed at her with melting eyes.
Love and pity beamed strong in them. " Have
you come to repent, my child .^" he asked, with
solemn insistence.
"Father," Herminia made answer, lingering
lovingly on the word, " I have nothing to repent
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of. I have striven hard to do well, and have
earned scant praise for it. But I come to ask
to-day for one grasp of your hand, one word of
your blessing. Father, father, kiss me ! '*
The old man drew himself up to his full
height, with his silvery hair round his face.
Tears started to his eyes; his voice faltered.
But he repressed himself sternly, "No, no,
my child,*' he answered. "My poor old heart
bleeds for you. But not till you come with full
proofs of penitence in your hands can I ever
receive you. I have prayed for you without
ceasing. God grant you may repent. Till
then, I command you, keep far away from me,
and from your untainted sisters."
The child felt her mother's hand tremble
quivering in her own, as she led her from the
church; but never a word did Herminia say,
lest her heart should break with it. As soon
as she was outside, little Dolly looked up at
her. (It had dwindled from Dolores to Dolly
in real life by this time; years bring these
mitigations of our first fierce outbursts.) "Who
was that grand old gentleman.?" the child
asked, in an awe-struck voice.
And Herminia, clasping her daughter to her
breast, answered with a stifled sob, " That was
your grandpa, Dolly; that was my father, my
father."
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The child put no more questions just then as
is the wont of children ; but she treasured up
the incident for long in her heart, wondering
much to herself why, if her grandpa was so
grand an old gentleman, she and her mamma
should have to live by themselves in such
scrubby little lodgings. Also, why her grand-
pa, who looked so kind, should refuse so severely
to kiss her mammy.
It was the beginning of many doubts and
questionings to Dolores. A year later, the
Dean died suddenly. People said he might
have risen to be a bishop in his time, if it
had n't been for that unfortunate episode about
his daughter and young Merrick. Herminia
was only once mentioned in his will; and even
then merely to implore the divine forgiveness
for her. She wept over that sadly. She did n't
want the girls' money, she was better able to
take care of herself than Elsie and Ermyntrude;
but it cut her to the quick that her father
should have quitted the world at last without
one word of reconciliation.
However, she went on working placidly at her
hack-work, and living for little Dolly. Her
one wish now was to make Dolly press toward
the mark for the prize of the high calling she
herself by mere accident had missed so nar-
rowly. .Her own life was done; Alan's death
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had made her task impossible; but if Dolly
could fill her place for the sake of humanity,
she would not regret it. Enough for her to
have martyred herself ; she asked no mercenary
palm and crown of martyrdom.
And she was happy in her life; as far as a
certain tranquil sense of duty done could make
her, she was passively happy. Her kind of
journalism was so commonplace and so anony-
mous that she was spared that worst insult of
seeing her hack-work publicly criticised as
though it afforded some adequate reflection of
the mind that produced it, instead of being
merely an index of taste in the minds of those
for whose use it was intended. So she lived for
years, a machine for the production of articles
and reviews; and a devoted mother to little
developing Dolly.
On Dolly the hopes of half the world now
centred
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XV.
Not that Herminia had not at times hard
struggles and sore temptations. One of the
hardest and sorest came when Dolly was about
six years old. And this was the manner of it.
One day the child who was to reform the
world was returning from some errand on which
her mother had sent her, when her attention
was attracted by a very fine carriage, stopping
at a door not far from their lodgings. Now
Dolly had always a particular weakness for
everything "grand; " and so grand a turn-out as
this one was rare in their neighborhood. She
paused and stared hard at it. "Whose is it,
Mrs. Biggs ? " she asked awe-struck of the
friendly charwoman, who happened to pass at
the moment, — the charwoman who frequently
came in to do a day's cleaning at her mother's
lodging-house. Mrs. Biggs knew it well;
"It's Sir Anthony Merrick's," she answered
in that peculiarly hushed voice with which
the English poor always utter the names of the
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titled classes. And so in fact it was; for the
famous gout doctor had lately been knighted
for his eminent services in saving a royal duke
from the worst effects of his own self-indul-
gence. Dolly put one fat finger to her lip,
and elevated her eyebrows, and looked grave
at once. Sir Anthony Merrick ! What a very
grand gentleman he must be indeed, and how
nice it must seem to be able to drive in so dis-
tinguished a vehicle with a liveried footman.
As she paused and looked, lost in enjoyment
of that beatific vision, Sir Anthony himself
emerged from the porch. Dolly took a good
stare at him. He was handsome, austere, close-
shaven, implacable. His profile was clear-cut,
like Trajan's on an aureus. Dolly thought that
was just how so grand a gentleman oiight to
look; and, so thinking, she glanced up at him,
and with a flash of her white teeth, smiled her
childish approval. The austere old gentleman,
unwonted ly softened by that cherub face, — for
indeed she was as winsome as a baby angel
of Raphael's, — stooped down and patted the
bright curly head that turned up to him so
trustfully. " What 's your name, little woman ? "
he asked, with a sudden wave of gentleness.
And Dolly, all agog at having arrested so
grand an old gentleman's attention, spoke up
in her clear treble, "Dolores Barton."
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Sir Anthony started. Was this a trap to
entangle him? He was born suspicious, and
he feared that woman. But he looked into
Dolly's blue eyes of wonder, and all doubt fled
from him. Was it blood .^ was it instinct.? was
it unconscious nature.? At any rate, the child
seemed to melt the grandfather's heart as if by
magic. Long years after, when the due time
came, Dolly remembered that melting. To
the profound amazement of the footman, who
stood with the carriage-door ready open in his
hand, the old man bent down and kissed the
child's red lips. "God bless you, my dear!"
he murmured, with unwonted tenderness to his
son's daughter. Then he took out his purse,
and drew from it a whole gold sovereign.
"That's for you, my child," he said, fondling
the pretty golden curls. " Take it home, and
tell your mammy an old man in the street gave
it to you."
But the coachman observed to the footman,
as they drove on together to the next noble
patient's, "You may take your oath on it, Mr.
Wells, that little 'un there was Mr. Alan's
love-child!"
Dolly had never held so much money in her
hand before; she ran home, clutching it tight,
and burst in upon Herminia with the startling
news that Sir Anthony Merrick, a very grand
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gentleman in a very fine carriage, had given a •
gold piece to her.
Gold pieces were rare in the calm little attic,
but Herminia caught her child up with a cry
of terror; and that very same evening, she
changed the tainted sovereign with Dolly for
another one, and -sent Sir Anthony's back in
an envelope without a word to Harley Street.
The child who was born to free half the human
race from aeons of slavery must be kept from
all contagion of man's gold and man's bribery.
Yet Dolly never forgot the grand gentleman's
name, though she hadn't the least idea why he
gave that yellow coin to her.
Out of this small episode, however, grew
Herminia's great temptation.
For Sir Anthony, being a man tenacious of
his purpose, went home that day full of re-
lenting thoughts about that girl Dolores. Her
golden hair had sunk deep into his heart. She
was Alan's own child, after all; she had Alan's
blue eyes ; and in a world where your daughters
go off and marry men you don't like, while your
sons turn out badly, and don't marry at all to
vex you, it 's something to have some fresh
young life of your blood to break in upon your
chilly old age and cheer you. So the great
ioctor called a few days later at Herminia's
odgings, and having first ascertained that Her-
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minia herself was out, had five minutes* conver-
sation alone with her landlady.
There were times, no doubt, when Mrs. Bar-
ton was ill.? The landlady with the caution
of her class, admitted that might be so. And
times no doubt when Mrs. Barton was for the
moment in arrears with her rent? The land-
lady, good loyal soul, demurred to that sugges-
tion ; she knit her brows and hesitated. Sir
Anthony hastened to set her mind at rest. His
intentions were most friendly. He wished to
keep a watch, — a quiet, well-meaning, unsus-
pected watch, — over Mrs. Barton's necessities^
He desired, in point of fact, if need were, to
relieve them. Mrs. Barton was distantly con-
nected with relations of his own ; and his notion
was that without seeming to help her in obtru-
sive ways, he would like to make sure Mrs.
Barton got into no serious difficulties. Would
the landlady be so good — a half sovereign
glided into that subservient palm — as to let
Sir Anthony know if she ever had reason to
suspect a very serious strain was being put on
Mrs. Barton's resources.?
The landlady, dropping the modern apology for
a courtesy, promised with effusion under pres-
sure of hard cash, to accede to Sir Anthony's
benevolent wishes. The more so as she 'd do
anything to serve dear Mrs. Barton, who was
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always in everything a perfect lady, most in-
dependent, in fact; one of the kind as wouldn't
be beholden to anybody for a farthing.
Some months passed away before the land-
lady had cause to report to Sir Anthony. But
during the worst depths of the next London
winter, when gray fog gathered thick in the
purlieus of Marylebone, and shivering gusts
groaned at the street corners, poor little Dolly
caught whooping-cough badly. On top of the
whooping-cough came an attack of bronchitis;
and on top of the bronchitis a serious throat
trouble. Herminia sat up night after night,
nursing her child, and neglecting the work on
which both depended for subsistence. Week
by week things grew worse and worse ; and Sir
Anthony, kept duly informed by the landlady,
waited and watched, and bided his time in
silence. At last the case became desperate.
Herminia had no money left to pay her bill
or buy food; and one string to her bow after
another broke down in journalism. Her place
as the weekly lady's-letter writer to an illus-
trated paper passed on to a substitute; blank
poverty stared her in the face, inevitable. When
it came to pawning the type-writer, as the land-
lady reported. Sir Anthony smiled a grim smile
to himself. The moment for action had now
arrived. He would put on pressure to get away
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poor Alan's illegitimate child from that dreadful
woman.
Next day he called. Dolly was dangerously
ill, — so ill that Herminia could n*t find it in her
heart to dismiss the great doctor from her door
without letting him see her. And Sir Anthony
saw her. The child recognized him at once
and rallied, and smiled at him. She stretched
her little arms. She must surely get well if a -
gentleman who drove in so fine a carriage, and
scattered sovereigns like ha'pennies, came in to
prescribe for her. Sir Anthony was flattered
at her friendly reception. Those thin small
arms touched the grandfather's heart. "She
will recover," he said; "but she needs good
treatment, delicacies, refinements." Then he
slipped out of the room, and spoke seriously to
Herminia. "Let her come to me," he urged.
" I '11 adopt her, and give her her father's name.
It will be better for herself; better for her
future. She shall be treated as my grand-
daughter, well -taught, well-kept.; and you may
see her every six months for a fortnight's visiL
If you consent, I will allow you a hundred a
year for yourself. Let bygones be bygones.
For the child's sake, say yes! She needs so
much that you can never give her ! "
Poor Herminia was sore tried. As for the
hundred a year, she could n't dream of accept-
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ing it; but like a flash it went through her
brain how many advantages Dolly could enjoy
in that wealthy household that the hard-work-
ing journalist could not possibly afford her.
She thought of the unpaid bills, the empty
cupboard, the wolf at the door, the blank out-
look for the future. For a second, she half
hesitated. "Come, come!" Sir Anthony said;
"for the child's own sake; you won't be so
selfish as to stand in her way, will you? "
Those words roused Herminia to a true sense
of her duty. "Sir Anthony Merrick," she said
holding her breath, "that child is my child, and
my dear dead Alan's. I owe it to Alan, — I
owe it to her, —to bring her up in the way that
Alan would approve of. I brought her into the
world ; and my duty is to do what I can to dis-
charge the responsibilities I then undertook to
her. I must train her up to be a useful citizen.
Not for thousands would I resign the delight
and honor of teaching my child to those who
would teach her what Alan and I believed to
be pernicious ; who would teach her to despise
her mother's life, and to reject the holy memory
of her father. As I said to you before, that day
at Perugia, so I say to you now, * Thy money
perish with thee. ' You need never again come
here to bribe me. "
"Is that final.?" Sir Anthony asked. And
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Herminia answered with a bow, "Yes, final;
quite final/'
Sir Anthony bent his head and left. Her-
minia stood face to face with abject poverty.
Spurred by want, by indignation, by terror, by a
sense of the absolute necessity for action, she
carried her writing materials then and there into
Dolly's sick-room, and sitting by her child's
cot, she began to write, she hardly knew what,
as the words themselves came to her. In a
fever of excitement she wrote and wrote and
wrote. She wrote as one writes in the silence
of midnight. It was late before she finished.
When her manuscript was complete, she slipped
out and posted it to a weekly paper. It appeared
that same Saturday, and was the beginning of
Herminia's most valuable connection.
But even after she had posted it the dis-
tracted mother could not pause or rest. Dolly
tossed and turned in her sleep, and Herminia
sat watching her. She pined for sympathy.
Vague ancestral yearnings, gathering head with-
in her, made her long to pray, — if only there
had been anybody or anything to pray to. She
clasped her bloodless hands in an agony of
solitude. Oh, for a friend to comfort ! At last
her overwrought feelings found vent in verse.
She seized a pencil from her desk, and sitting
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by Dolly's side, wrote down her heart-felt
prayer, as it came to her that moment, —
A crowned Caprice is god of the world :
On his stony breast are his white wings furled.
No ear to hearken, no eye to see,
No heart to feel for a man hath he.
But his pitiless hands are swift to smite,
And his mute lips utter one word of might
In the clash of gentler souls and rougher —
* Wrong must thou do, or wrong must suffer,'
Then grant, O dumb, blind god, at least that we
Rather the sufferers than the doers be.
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XVI.
A CHANGE came at last, when Dolly was ten
years old. Among the men of whom Herminia
saw most in these later days, were the little
group of advanced London socialists who call
themselves the Fabians. And among her Fabian
friends one of the most active, the most eager,
the most individual, was Harvey Kynaston.
He was a younger man by many years than
poor Alan had been; about Herminia's own
age; a brilliant economi'st with a future before
him. He aimed at the Cabinet. When first
he met Herminia he was charmed at one glance
by her chastened beauty, her breadth and depth
of soul, her transparent sincerity of purpose
and action. Those wistful eyes captured him.
Before many days passed he had fallen in love
with her. But he knew her history; and, tak-
ing it for granted she must still be immersed in
regret for Alan's loss, he hardly even reckoned
the chances of her caring for him.
*T is a common case. Have you ever noticed
that if you meet a woman, famous for her con-
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nection with some absorbing grief, some his-
toric tragedy, you are half appalled at first sight
to find that at times she can laugh, and make
merry, and look gay with the rest of us. Her
callous glee shocks you. You mentally expect
her to be forever engaged in the tearful con-
templation of her own tragic fate; wrapt up in
those she has lost, like the mourners in a
Pieti. Whenever you have thought of her, you
have connected her in your mind with that
one fact in her history, which perhaps may
have happened a great many years ago. But
to you, it is as yesterday. You forget that
since then many things have occurred to her.
She has lived her life; she haS learned to smile;
human nature itself cannot feed for years on the
continuous comtemplation of its own deepest
sorrows. It even jars you to find that the widow
of a patriotic martyr, a murdered missionary,
has her moments of enjoyment, and must wither
away without them.
So, just at first, Harvey Kynaston was afraid
to let Herminia see how sincerely he admired
her. He thought of her rather as one whose
life is spent, who can bring to the banquet but
the cold dead ashes of a past existence. Grad-
ually, however, as he saw more and more of
her, it began to strike him that Herminia was
still in all essentials a woman. His own
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throbbing heart told him so as he sat and
talked with her. He thrilled at her approach.
Bit by bit the idea rose up in his mind that
this lonely soul might still be won. He set to
work in earnest to woo and win her.
As for Herminia, many men had paid her
attentions already in her unwedded widowhood.
Some of them, after the fashion of men, having
heard garbled versions of her tragic story, and
seeking to gain some base advantage for them-
selves from their knowledge of her past, strove
to assail her crudely. Them, with unerring
womanly instinct, she early discerned, and
with unerring feminine tact, undeceived and
humbled. Others, genuinely attracted by her
beauty and her patience, paid real court to
her heart; but all these fell far short of her
ideal standard. With Harvey Kynaston it was
different. She admired him as a thinker; she
liked him as a man ; and she felt from the first
moment that no friend, since Alan died, had
stirred her pulse so deeply as he did.
For some months they met often at the Fabian
meetings and elsewhere; till at last it became
a habit with them to spend their Sunday mornings
on some breezy wold in the country together.
Herminia was still as free as ever from any
shrinking terror as to what "people might
say;" as of old, she lived her life for herself
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and her conscience, not for the opinion of a
blind and superstitious majority. On one such
August morning, they had taken the train from
London to Haslemere, with Dolly of course by
their side, and then had strolled up Hind Head
by the beautiful footpath which mounts at first
through a chestnut copse, and then between
heather-clad hills to the summit. At the lone-
liest turn of the track, where two purple glens
divide, Harvey Kynaston seated himself on the
soft bed of ling; Herminia sank by his side;
and Dolly, after awhile, not understanding their
conversation, wandered off by herself a little
way afield in search of harebells and spotted
orchises. Dolly found her mother's friends
were apt to bore her ; she preferred the society
of the landlady's daughters.
It was a delicious day. Hard by, a slow-
worm sunned himself on the basking sand.
Blue dragon-flies flashed on gauze wings in the
hollows. Harvey Kynaston looked on Her-
minia* s face and saw that she was fair. With
an effort he made up his mind to speak at last.
In plain and simple words he asked her rever-
ently the same question that Alan had asked
her so long ago on the Holmwood.
Herminia' s throat flushed a rosy red, and an
unwonted sense of pleasure stole over that hard-
worked frame as she listened to his words; for
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indeed she was fond of him. But she answered
him at once without a moment's hesitation.
"Harvey, I *m glad you ask me, for I like and
admire you. But I feel sure beforehand my
answer must be no. For I think what you mean
is to ask, will I marry you.^ '*
The man gazed at her hard. He spoke low
and deferentially. "Yes, Herminia," he re-
plied. "I do mean, will you marry me.? I
know, of course, how you feel about this matter;
I know what you have sacrificed, how deeply
you have suffered, for the sake of your prin-
ciples. And that *s just why I plead with you
now to ignore them. You have given proof
long ago of your devotion to the right. You
may surely fall back this second time upon the
easier way of ordinary humanity. In theory,
Herminia, I accept your point of view; I approve
the equal liberty of men and women, politically,
socially, personally, ethically. But in practice,
I don't want to bring unnecessary trouble on
the head of a woman I love; and to live
together otherwise than as the law directs does
bring unnecessary trouble, as you know too
profoundly. That is the only reason why I ask
you to marry me. And Herminia, Herminia,"
he leant forward appealingly, "for the love's
sake I bear you, I hope you will consent to it."
His voice was low and tender. Herminia,
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sick at heart with that long fierce struggle
against overwhelming odds, could almost have
said yes to hipi. Her own nature prompted
her; she was very, very fond of him. But she
paused for a second. Then she answered him
gravely.
"Harvey," she said, looking deep into his
honest brown eyes, "as we grow middle-aged,
and find how impossible it must ever be to
achieve any good in a world like this, how sad
a fate it is to be born a civilized being in a
barbaric community, I 'm afraid moral impulse
half dies down within us. The passionate aim
grows cold ; the ardent glow fades and flickers
into apathy. I *m ashamed to tell you the
truth, it seems such weakness; yet as you ask
me this, I think I will tell you. Once upon a
time, if you had made such a proposal to me,
if you had urged me to be false to my dearest
principles, to sin against the light, to deny the
truth, I would have flashed forth a no upon you
without one moment's hesitation. And now, in
my disillusioned middle age what do I feel?
Do you know, I alipost feel tempted to give
way to this Martinmas summer of love, to stul-
tify my past by unsaying and undoing every-
thing. For I love you, Harvey. If I were to
give way now, as George Eliot gave way, as
almost every woman who once tried to live a
k
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free life for her sisters' sake, has given way in
the end, I should counteract any little good my
example has ever done or may ever do in the
world ; and Harvey, strange as it sounds, I feel
more than half inclined to do it. But I will
not, I will xiol\ and I'll tell you why. It's
not so much principle that prevents me now. I
admit that freely. The torpor of middle age
is creeping over my conscience. It 's simple
regard for personal consistency, and for Dolly's
position. How can I go back upon the faith
for which I have martyred myself.? How can I
say to Dolly, * I would n't marry your father in
my youth, for honor's sake; but I have con-
sented in middle life to sell my sisters' cause
for a man I love, and for the consideration of
society; to rehabilitate myself too late with a
world I despise by becoming one man's slave,
as I swore I never would be.* No, no, dear
Harvey; I can't do that. Some sense of per-
sonal continuity restrains me still. It is the
Nemesis of our youth; we can't go back in our
later life on the holier and purer ideals of our
girlhood. "
"Then you say no definitely?" Harvey
Kynaston asked.
Herminia's voice quivered. "I say no
definitely," she answered; "unless you can
consent to live with me on the terms on which
I lived with Dolly's father."
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The man hesitated a moment. Then he began
to plead hard for reconsideration. But Her-
minia's mind was made up. She couldn't belie
her past; she couldn't be false to the principles
for whose sake she had staked and lost every-
thing. "No, no," she said firmly, over and
over again. " You must take me my own way,
or you must go without me. "
And Harvey Kynaston could n't consent to
take her her own way. His faith was too weak,
his ambitions were too earthly. "Herminia,"
he said, before they parted that afternoon, " we
may still be friends; still dear friends as ever?
This episode need make no difference to a very
close companionship? "
"It need make no difference," Herminia an-
swered, with a light touch of her hand. " Har-
vey, I have far too few friends in the world
willingly to give up one of them. Come again
and go down with Dolly and me to Hind Head
as usual next Sunday."
"Thank you," the man answered. "Her-
minia, I wish it could have been otherwise.
But since I must never have you, I can promise
you one thing; I will never marry any other
woman. "
Herminia started at the words. "Oh, no,"
she cried quickly. " How can you speak like
that? How can you say anything so wrong, so
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untrue, so foolish? To be celibate is a very
great misfortune even for a woman ; for a man
it is impossible, it is cruel, it is wicked. I
endure it myself, for my child's sake, and be-
cause I find it hard to discover the help meet
for me ; or because, when discovered, he refuses
to accept me in the only way in which I can
bestow myself. But for a man to pretend to
live celibate is to cloak hateful wrong under a
guise of respectability. I should be unhappy
if I thought any man was doing such a vicious
thing out of desire to please me. Take some
other woman on free terms if you can ; but if
you cannot, it is better you should marry than
be a party to still deeper and more loathsome
slavery. "
And from that day forth they were Icyal
friends, no more, one to the other.
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XVII.
And yet our Herminia was a woman after all.
Some three years later, when Harvey Kynaston
came to visit her one day, and told her he was
really going to be married, — what sudden thrill
was this that passed through and through her.
Her heart stood still. She was aware that she
regretted the comparative loss of a very near
and dear acquaintance.
She knew she was quite wrong. It was the
leaven of slavery. But these monopolist in-
stincts, which have wrought more harm in the
world we live in than fire or sword or pesti-
lence or tempest, hardly die at all as yet in a
few good men, and die, fighting hard for life,
even in the noblest women.
She reasoned with herself against so hateful
a feeling. Though she knew the truth, she
found it hard to follow. No man indeed is
truly civilized till he can say in all sincerity
to every woman of all the women he loves, to
every woman of all the women who love him.
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"Give me what you can of your love and of
yourself; but never strive for my sake to deny
any love, to strangle any impulse that pants for
breath within you. Give me what you can,
while you can, without grudging, but the
moment you feel you love me no more, don't
pollute your- own body by yielding it up to a
man you have ceased to desire; don't do injus-
tice to your own prospective children by giving
them a father whom you no longer respect, or
admire, or yearn for. Guard your chastity well.
Be mine as much as you will, as long as you
will, to such extent as you will, but before all
things be your own ; embrace and follow every
instinct of pure love that nature, our mother,
has imparted within you. " No woman, in turn,
is truly civilized till she can say to every man
of all the men she loves, of all the men who
love her, " Give me what you can of your love,
and of yourself; but don't think I am so vile,
and so selfish, and so poor as to desire to
monopolize you. Respect me enough never to
give me your body without giving me your
heart ; never to make me the mother of child-
ren whom you desire not and love not." When
men and women can say that alike, the world
.will be civilized. Until they can say it truly,
the world will be as now a jarring battlefield
for the monopolist instincts.
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Those jealous and odious instincts have been
the bane of humanity. They have given us the
stiletto, the Morgue, the bowie-knife. Our
race must inevitably in the end outlive them.
The test of man's plane in the scale of being
is how far he has outlived them. They are
surviving relics of the ape and tiger. But we
must let the ape and tiger die. We must cease
to be Calibans. We must begin to be human.
Patriotism is the one of these lowest vices
which most often masquerades in false garb as
a virtue. But what after all is patriotism.?
" My country, right or wrong, and just because
it is my country ! " This is clearly nothing
more than collective selfishness. Often enough,
indeed, it is not even collective. It means
merely, *^ My business- interests against the
business-interests of other people, and let the
taxes of my fellow-citizens pay to support
them." At other times it means pure pride of
race, and pure lust of conquest; *^my country
against other countries; my army and navy
against other fighters; my right to annex un-
occupied territory against the equal right of
all other peoples; my power to oppress all
weaker nationalities, all inferior races." It
never vcitzxis or can mean anything good or true.
For if a cause be just, like Ireland's, or once
Italy's, then 't is a good man's duty to espouse
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it with warmth, be it his own or another's.
And if a cause be bad, then 't is a good man's
duty to oppose it, tooth and nail, irrespective
of your patriotism. True, a good man will
feel more sensitively anxious that strict justice
should be done by the particular community of
which chance has made him a component mem-
ber than by any others; but then, people who
feel acutely this joint responsibility of all the
citizens to uphold the moral right are not
praised as patriots but reviled as unpatriotic.
To urge that our own country should strive
with all its might to be better, higher, purer,
nobler, more generous than other countries,
— the only kind of patriotism worth a moment's
thought in a righteous man's eyes, is accounted
by most men both wicked and foolish.
Then comes the monopolist instinct of prop-
erty. That, on the face of it, is a baser and
more sordid one. For patriotism at least can
lay claim to some sort of delusive expansive-
ness beyond mere individual interest; whereas
property stops short at the narrowest limits of
personality. It is no longer "Us against the
world ! " but ** Me against my fellow-citizens ! "
It is the last word of the intercivic war in its
most hideous avatar. Look how it scars the
fair face of our common country with its anti-
social notice-boards, " Trespassers will be pros-
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ecuted." It says in effect, "This is my land.
As I believe, God made it; but I have acquired
it, and tabooed it to myself, for my own enjoy-
ment. The grass on the wold grows green;
but only for me. The mountains rise glorious
in the morning sun; no foot of man, save mine
and my gillies* shall tread them. The water-
falls leap white from the ledge in the glen;
avaunt there, non -possessors; your eye shall
never see them. For you the muddy street;
for me, miles of upland. All this is my own.
And I choose to monopolize it.'*
Or is it the capitalist.^ "I will add field to
field," he cries aloud, despite his own Scripture;
"I will join railway to railway. I will juggle
into mv own hands all the instruments for the
production of wealth that my cunning can lay
hold of; and I will use them for my own purposes
against producer and consumer alike with impar-
tial egoism. Corn and coal shall lie in the hol-
low of my hand. I will enrich myself bv making
dear by craft the necessaries of life; the poor
shall lack, that I may roll down fair streets in
needless luxury. Let them starve, and feed
me!*' That temper, too, humanity must out-
live. And those who are incapable of outliving
it of themselves must be taught by stern les-
sons, as in the splendid uprising of the spirit of
man in France, that their race has outstripped
them.
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Next comes the monopoly of human life, the
hideous wrong erf slavery. That, thank good-
ness, is now gone. 'Twas the vilest of them
all —the nakedest assertion of the monopolist
platform: — "You live, not for yourself, but
wholly and solely for me. I disregard your
claims to your own body and soul, and use you
as my chattel." That worst form has died.
It withered away before the moral indignation
even of existing humanity. We have the satis-
faction of seeing one dragon slain, of knowing
that one monopolist instinct at least is now
fairly bred out of us.
Last, and hardest of all to eradicate in our
midst, comes the monopoly of the human heart,
which is known as marriage. Based upon the
primitive habit of felling the woman with a blow,
stunning her by repeated strokes of the club
or spear, and dragging her off by the hair of
her head as a slave to her captor's hut or rock-
shelter, this ugly and barbaric form of serfdom
has come in our own time by some strange
caprice to be regarded as of positively divine
origin. The Man says now to himself, "This
woman is mine. Law and the Church have
bestowed her on me. Mine for better, for
worse; mine, drunk or sober. If she ventures
to have a heart or a will of her own, woe betide
her! I have tabooed her for life: let any other
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man touch her, let her so much as cast eyes on
any other man to admire or desire him — and,
knife, dagger, or law-court, they shall both of
them answer for it." There you have in all its
native deformity another monopolist instinct —
the deepest-seated of all, the grimmest, the
most vindictive. "She is not yours," says the
moral philosopher of the new dispensation;
"she is her own; release her! The Turk hales
his offending slave, sews her up in a sack, and
casts her quick into the eddying Bosphorus.
The Christian Englishman, with more linger-
ing torture, sets spies on her life, drags what
he thinks her shame before a prying court, and
divorces her with contumely. All this is mo-
nopoly, and essentially slavery. Mankind must
outlive it on its way up to civilization."
And then the Woman, thus taught by her
lords, has begun to retort in these latter days
by endeavoring to enslave the Man in return.
Unable to conceive the bare idea of freedom for
both sexes alike, she seeks equality in an equal
slavery. That she will never achieve. The
future is to the free. We have transcended
serfdom. Women shall henceforth be the
equals of men, not by levelling down, but by
levelling up; not by fettering the man, but
by elevating, emancipating, unshackling the
woman.
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All this Herminia knew well. All these things
she turned over in her mind by herself on the
evening of the day when Harvey Kynaston came
to tell her of his approaching marriage. Why,
then, did she feel it to some extent a disap-
pointment.^ Why so flat at his happiness?
Partly, she said to herself, because it is diffi-
cult to live down in a single generation the jeal-
ousies and distrusts engendered in our hearts by
so many ages of harem life. But more still,
she honestly believed, because it is hard to be
a free soul in an enslaved community. No unit
can wholly sever itself from the social organism
of which it is a corpuscle. If all the world
were like herself, her lot would have been dif-
ferent. Affection would have been free; her
yearnings for sympathy would have been filled
to the full by Harvey Kynaston or some other.
As it was, she had but that one little fraction
of a man friend to solace her; to resign him
altogether to another woman, leaving herself
bankrupt of love, was indeed a bitter trial to
her.
Yet for her principles* sake and Dolly's, she
never let Harvey Kynaston or his wife suspect
it; as long as she lived, she was a true and
earnest friend at all times to both of them.
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XVIII.
Meanwhile, Dolores was growing up to woman's
estate. And she was growing into a tall, a
graceful, an exquisitely beautiful woman.
Yet in some ways Herminia had reason to be
dissatisfied with her daughter's development.
Day by day she watched for signs of the ex-
pected apostolate. Was Dolores pressing for-
ward to the mark for the prize of her high
calling? Her mother half doubted it. Slowly
and regretfully, as the growing girl approached
the years when she might be expected to think
for herself, Herminia began to perceive that
the child of so many hopes, of so many aspi-
rations, the child pre-destined to regenerate
humanity, was thinking for herself — in a retro-
grade direction. Incredible as it seemed to
Herminia, in the daughter of such a father and
such a mother, Dolores' ideas — nay, worse her
ideals — were essentially commonplace. Not
that she had much opportunity of imbibing
commonplace opinions from any outside source;
she redeveloped them from within by a pure
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effort of atavism. She had reverted to lower
types. She had thrown back to the Philistine.
Heredity of mental and moral qualities is a
precarious matter. These things lie, as it were,
on the topmost plane of character; they smack
of the individual, and are therefore far less
likely to persist in offspring than the deeper-
seated and better-established peculiarities of
the family, the clan, the race, or the species.
They are idiosyncratic. Indeed, when we re-
member how greatly the mental and moral
faculties differ from brother to brother, the
product of the same two parental factors, can
we wonder that they differ much more from
father to son, the product of one like factor
alone, diluted by the addition of a relatively
unknown quality, the maternal influence ? How-
ever this may be, at any rate, Dolores early
began to strike out for herself all the most
ordinary and stereotyped opinions of British
respectability. It seemed as if they sprang up
in her by unmitigated reversion. She had
never heard in the society of her mother's lodg-
ings any but the freest and most rational ideas;
yet she herself seemed to hark back, of internal
congruity, to the lower andvulgarer moral plane
of her remoter ancestry. She showed her indi-
viduality only by evolving for herself all the
threadbare platitudes of ordinary convention.
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Moreover, it is not parents who have most to
do with moulding the sentiments and opinions
of their children. From the beginning, Dolly
thought better of the landlady's views and
ideas than of her mother's. When she went to
school, she considered the moral standpoint of
the other girls a great deal more sensible
than the moral standpoint of Herminia's attic.
She accepted the beliefs and opinions of her
schoolfellows because they were natural and
congenial to her character. In short, she had
what the world calls common-sense: she re-
volted from the unpractical Utopianism of her
mother.
From a very early age, indeed, this false note
in Dolly had begun to make itself heard.
While she was yet quite a child, Herminia
noticed with a certain tender but shrinking
regret that Dolly seemed to attach undue im-
portance to the mere upholsteries and equi-
pages of life, — to rank, wealth, title, servants,
carriages, jewelry. At first, to be sure, Her-
minia hoped this might prove but the passing
foolishness of childhood: as Dolly grew up,
however, it became clearer each day that the
defect was in the grain — that Dolly's whole
mind was incurably and congenitally aristo-
cratic or snobbish. She had that mean admira-
tion for birth, position, adventitious advantages,
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which is the mark of the beast in the essentially
aristocratic or snobbish nature. She admired
people because they were rich, because they
were high-placed, because they were courted,
because they were respected; not because they
were good, because they were wise, because
they were noble-natured, because they were
respect-worthy.
But even that was not all. In time, Herminia
began to perceive with still profounder sorrow
that Dolly had no spontaneous care or regard
for righteousness. Right and wrong meant to
her only what was usual and the opposite. She
seemed incapable of considering the intrinsic
nature of any act in itself apart from the praise
or blame meted out to it by society. In short,
she was sunk in the same ineffable slough of
moral darkness as the ordinary inhabitant of
the morass of London.
To Herminia this slow discovery, as it
dawned bit by bit upon her, put the final thorn
in her crown of martyrdom. The child on
whose education she had spent so much pains,
the child whose success in the deep things
of life was to atone for her own failure, the
child who was born to be the apostle of free-
dom to her sisters in darkness, had turned out
in the most earnest essentials of character a
complete disappointment, and had ruined the
last hope that bound her to existence.
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Bitterer trials remained. Herminia hj
through life to a great extent with the id\.f ..
consciously present to her mind that she must
answer to Dolly for every act and every feeling.
She had done all she did with a deep sense of
responsibility. Now it loomed by degrees upon
her aching heart that Dolly's verdict would in
almost every case be a hostile one. The daugh-
ter was growing old enough to question and
criticise her mother's proceedings; she was
beginning to understand that some mysterious
difference marked off her own uncertain posi-
tion in life from the solid position of the
children who surrounded her — the children
born under those special circumstances which
alone the man-made law chooses to stamp with
the seal of its recognition. Dolly's curiosity
was shyly aroused as to her dead father's
family. Herminia had done her best to pre-
pare betimes for this inevitable result by set-
ting before her child, as soon as she could
understand it, the true moral doctrine as to
the duties of parenthood. But Dolly's own
development rendered all such steps futile.
There is no more silly and persistent error
than the belief of parents that they can influ-
ence to any appreciable extent the moral ideas
and impulses of their children. These things
have their springs in the bases of character:
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they are the flower of individuality; and they
cannot be altered or affected after birth by the
foolishness of preaching. Train up a child in
the way he should go, and when he is old, you
will find soon enough he will choose his own
course for himself and depart from it.
Already when Dolly was a toddling little
mite and met her mother's father m the church
in Marylebone, it had struck her as odd that
while they themselves were so poor and ill-clad,
her grandpapa should be such a grand old gentle-
man of such a dignified aspect. As she grew
older and older, and began- to understand a
little more the world she lived in, she won-
dered yet more profoundly how it could happen,
if her grandpapa was indeed the Very Rev-
erend, the Dean of Dunwich, that her mamma
should be an outcast from her father's church,
and scarcely well seen in the best carriage com-
pany. She had learnt that deans are rather
grand people — almost as much so as admirals;
that they wear shovel-hats to distinguish them
from the common ruck of rectors; that they
lived in fine houses in a cathedral close; and
that they drive in a victoria with a coachman
in livery. So much essential knowledge of
the church of Christ she had gained for herself
by personal observation; for facts like these
were what interested Dolly. She could n't
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understand, then, why she and her mother
should live precariously in a very small attic;
should never be visited by her mother's brothers,
one of whom she knew to be a Prebendary of
Old Sarum, while the other she saw gazetted as
a Colonel of Artillery; and should be totally
ignored by her mother's sister, Ermyntrude,
who lolled in a landau down the sunny side of
Bond Street.
At first, indeed, it only occurred to Dolly that
her mother's extreme and advanced opinions had
induced a social breach between herself and the
orthodox members of her family. Even that
Dolly resented ; why should mamma hold ideas
of her own which shut her daughter out from
the worldly advantages enjoyed to the full by
the rest of her kindred? Dolly had no partic-
ular religious ideas; the subject didn't interest
her; and besides, she thought the New Testa-
ment talked about rich and poor in much the
same unpractical nebulous way that mamma
herself did — in fact, she regarded it with some
veiled contempt as a rather sentimental radical
publication. But, she considered, for all that,
that it was probably true enough as far as the
facts and the theology went ; and she could n't
understand why a person like mamma should
cut herself off contumaciously from the rest of
the world by presuming to disbelieve a body of
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doctrine which so many rich and well-gaitered
bishops held worthy of credence. All stylish
society accepted the tenets of the Church of
England. But in time it began to occur to
her that there might be some deeper and, as
she herself would have said, more disgraceful
reason for her mother's alienation from so
respectable a family. For to Dolly, that was
disgraceful which the world held to be so.
Things in themselves, apart from the world's
word, had for her no existence. Step by step,
as she grew up to blushing womanhood, it
began to strike her with surprise that her grand-
father's name had been, like her own, Barton.
"Did you marry your cousin, mamma .^" she
asked Herminia one day quite suddenly.
And Herminia, flushing scarlet at the unex-
pected question, the first with which Dolly had
yet ventured to approach that dangerous quick-
sand, replied with a deadly thrill, "No, my dar-
ling. Why do you ask me.^ "
"Because," Dolly answered abashed, "I just
wanted to know why your name should be
Barton, the same as poor grandpapa's."
Herminia did n't dare to say too much just
then. "Your dear father," she answered low,
"was not related to me in any way."
Dolly accepted the tone as closing the dis-
cussion for the present; but the episode only
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strengthened her underlying sense of a mystery
somewhere in the matter to unravel.
In time, Herminia sent her child to' a day-
school. Though she had always taught Dolly
herself as well as she was able, she felt it a
matter of duty, as her daughter grew up, to give
her something more than the stray ends of time
in a busy journalist's moments of leisure. At
the school, where Dolly was received without
question, on Miss Smith-Water's recommenda-
tion, she found herself thrown much into the
society of other girls, drawn for the most part
from the narrowly Mammon-worshipping ranks
of London professional society. Here, her
native tendencies towards the real religion of
England, the united worship of Success and
Respectability, were encouraged to the utmost.
But she noticed at times with a shy shrinking
that some few of the girls had heard vague
rumors about her mother as a most equivocal
person, who didn't accept all the current super-
stitions, and were curious to ask her questions
as to her family and antecedents. Crimson
with shame, Dolly parried such enquiries as
best she could; but she longed all the more
herself to pierce this dim mystery. Was it a
runaway match ? — with the groom, perhaps, or
the footman ? Only the natural shamefacedness
of a budding girl in prying into her mother's
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most domestic secrets prevented Dolores from
asking Herminia some day point-blank all about
it.
But she was gradually becoming aware that
some strange atmosphere of doubt surrounded
her birth and her mother's history. It filled
her with sensitive fears and self-conscious hes-
itations.
And if the truth must be told, Dolly never
really returned her mother's profound aflfec-
tion. It is often so. The love which parents
lavish upon their children, the children repay,
not to parents themselves, but to the next
generation. Only when we become fathers
or mothers in our turn do we learn what our
fathers and mothers have done for us. Thus
it was with Dolly. When once the first period
of childish dependence was over, she regarded
Herminia with a smouldering distrust and a
secret dislike that concealed itself^ beneath a
mask of unfelt caresses. In her heart of hearts,
she owed her mother a grudge for not having
put her in a position in life where she could
drive in a carriage with a snarling pug and a
clipped French poodle, like Aunt Ermyntrude's
children. She grew up, smarting under a sullen
sense of injustice, all the deeper because she
was compelled to stifle it in the profoundest
recesses of her own heart.
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XIX.
When Dolly was seventeen, a pink wild rose
just unrolling its petals, a very great event
occurred in her history. She received an invi-
tation to go and stop with some friends in the
country.
The poor child's life had been in a sense so
uneventful that the bare prospect of this visit
filled her soul beforehand with tremulous antic-
ipation. To be sure, Dolly Barton had always
lived in the midmost centre of the Movement
in London; she had known authors, artists,
socialists, the cream of our race; she had been
brought up in close intercourse with the men
and women who are engaged in revolutionizing
and remodelling humanity. But this very fact
that she had always lived in the Thick of Things
made a change to the Thin of Things only by so
much the more delicious and enchanting. Not
that Dolores had not seen a great deal, too, of
the country. Poor as they were, her mother
had taken her to cheap little seaside nooks for
a week or two of each summer; she had made
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pilgrimages almost every Sunday in spring or
autumn to Leith Hill or Mapledurham ; she
had even strained her scanty resources to the
utmost to afford Dolly an occasional outing in
the Ardennes or in Normandy. But what gave
supreme importance to this coming visit was
the special fact that Dolly was now for the first
time in her life to find herself " in society. "
Among the friends she had picked up at her
Marylebone day-school were two west-country
girls, private boarders of the head-mistress's,
who came from the neighborhood of Combe
Neville in Dorset. Their name was Compson,
and their father was rector of their native vil-
lage, Upcombe. Dolly liked them very much,
and was proud of their acquaintance, because
they were reckoned about the most distinguished
pupils in the school, their mother being the
niece of a local viscount. Among girls in
middle-class London sets, even so remote a
connection with the title-bearing classes is
counted for a distinction. So when Winnie
Compson asked Dolly to go and stop with her
at her father's rectory during three whole weeks
of the summer holidays, Dolly felt that now
at last by pure force of native worth she was
rising to her natural position in society. It
flattered her that Winnie should select her for
such an honor.
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The preparations for that visit cost Dolly
some weeks of thought and effort. The occa-
sion demanded it. She Was afraid she had no
frocks good enough for such a grand house as
the Compsons'. "Grand" was indeed a fav-
orite epithet of Dolly's; she applied it impar-
tially to everything which had to do, as she
conceived, with the life of the propertied and
privileged classes. It was a word at once of
cherished and revered meaning — the shibboleth
of her religion. It implied to her mind some-
thing remote and unapproachable, yet to be
earnestly striven after with all the forces at her
disposal. Even Herminia herself stretched a
point in favor of an occasion which she could
plainly see Dolly regarded as so important ; she
managed to indulge her darling in a couple of
dainty new afternoon dresses, which touched for
her soul the very utmost verge of allowable lux-
ury. The materials were oriental ; the cut was
the dressmaker's — not home-built, as usual.
Dolly looked so brave in them, with her rich
chestnut hair and her creamy complexion, — a
touch, Herminia thought, of her Italian birth-
place, — that the mother's fiill heart leapt up to
look at her. It almost made Herminia wish she
was rich — and anti-social, like the rich people
— in order that she might be able to do ample
justice to the exquisite grace of Dolly's unfold-
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ing figure. Tall, lissome, supple, clear of limb
and light of footstep, she was indeed a girl any
mother might have been proud of.
On the day she left London, Herminia
thought to herself she had never seen her child
look so absolutely lovely. The unwonted union
of blue eyes with that olive-gray skin gave a
tinge of wayward shyness to her girlish beauty.
The golden locks had ripened to nut-brown, but
still caught stray gleams of nestling sunlight.
'T was with a foreboding regret that Herminia
kissed Dolly on both peach-bloom cheeks at
parting. She almost fancied her child must be
slipping from her motherly grasp when she
went off so blithely to visit these unknown
friends, away down in Dorsetshire. Yet Dolly
had so few amusements of the sort young girls
require that Herminia was overjoyed this
opportunity should have come to her. She
reproached herself not a little in her sensitive
heart for even feeling sad at Dolly's joyous
departure. Yet to Dolly it was a delight to
escape from the atmosphere of Herminia's
lodgings. Those calm heights chilled her.
The Compsons* house was quite as "grand** in
the reality as Dolly had imagined it. There
was a man-servant in a white tie to wait at
table, and the family dressed every evening for
dinner. Yet, much to her surprise, Dolly found
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from the first the grandeur did not in the least
incommode her. On the contrary, she enjoyed
it. She felt forthwith she was to the manner
born. This was clearly the life she was intended
by nature to live, and might actually have been
living — she, the granddaughter of so grand a
man as the late Dean of Dunwich — had it
not been for poor Mamma's ridiculous fancies.
Mamma was so faddy ! Before Dolly had spent
three whole days at the rectory, she talked just
as the Compsons did; she picked up by pure
instinct the territorial slan^ of the county
families. One would have thought, to hear
her discourse, she had dressed for dinner every
night of her life, and passed her days in th*
society of the beneficed clergy.
But even that did not exhaust the charm of
Upcombe for Dolly. For the first time in her
life, she saw'something of men, — real men, with
horses and dogs and guns, — men who went out
partridge shooting in the season and rode to
hounds across country, not the pale abstractions
of cultured humanity who attended the Fabian
Society meetings or wrote things called articles
in the London papers. Her mother's friends
wore soft felt hats and limp woollen collars;
these real men were richly clad in tweed suits
and fine linen. Dolly was charmed with them
all, but especially with one handsome and manly
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young fellow named Walter Brydges, the step-
son and ward of a neighboring parson. "How
you talked with him at tennis to-day! " Winnie
Compson said to her friend, as they sat on the
edge of Dolly's bed one evening. "He seemed
quite taken with you."
A pink spot of pleasure glowed on Dolly's
round cheek to think that a real young man, in
good society, whom she met at so grand a house
as the Compsons', should seem to be quite taken
with her.
" Who is he, Winnie ? " she asked, trying to
look less self-conscious. " He *s extremely
good-looking."
"Oh, he's Mr. Hawkshaw's stepson, over at
Combe Mary," Winnie answered with a nod.
"Mr. Hawkshaw *s the vicar there till Mamma's
nephew is ready to take the living — what they
call a warming-pan. But Walter Brydges is
Mrs. Hawkshaw 's son by her first husband.
Old Mr. Brydges was the squire of Combe
Mary, and Walter 's his only child. He 's very
well off. You might do worse, dear. He 's
considered quite a catch down in this part of
the country."
"How old is he.^" Dolly asked, innocently
enough, standing up by the bedside in her
dainty white nightgown. But Winnie caught
at her meaning with the preternatural sharpness
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of the girl brought up in immediate contact with
the landed interest. "Oh, he's of age," she
answered quickly, with a knowing nod. " He *s
come into the property ; he has nobody on earth
but himself to consult about his domestic
arrangements."
Dolly was young; Dolly was pretty; Dolly's
smile won the world; Dolly was still at the
sweetest and most susceptible of ages. Walter
Brydges was well off; Walter Brydges was
handsome; Walter Brydges had all the glamour
of a landed estate, and an Oxford education.
He was a young Greek god in a Norfolk shoot-
ing-jacket. Moreover, he was a really good and
pleasant young fellow. What wonder, there-
fore, if before a week was out, Dolly was very
really and seriously in love with him? And
what wonder if Walter Brydges in turn, caught
by that maiden glance, was in love with Dolly .^
He had every excuse, for she was lithe, and
beautiful, and a joyous companion; besides
being, as the lady's maid justly remarked, a
perfect lady.
One day, after Dolly had been a fortnight at
Upcombe, the Compsons gave a picnic in the
wild Combe undercliff. *Tis a broken wall of
chalk, tumbled picturesquely about in huge
shattered masses, and deliciously overgrown
with ferns and blackthorn and golden clusters
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of close-creeping rock-rose. Mazy paths thread
tangled labyrinths of fallen rock, or wind round
tall clumps of holly-bush and bramble. They
lighted their fire under the lee of one such
buttress of broken cliff, whose summit was fes-
tooned with long sprays of clematis, or "old
man's beard," as the common west-country
name expressively phrases it. Thistledown
hovered on the basking air. There they sat
and drank their tea, couched on beds of fern
or propped firm against the rock; and when
tea was over, they wandered off, two and two,
ostensibly for nothing, but really for the true
business of the picnic — to afford the young
men and maidens of the group some chance of
enjoying, unspied, one another's society.
Dolly and Walter Brydges strolled off by
themselves toward the rocky shore. There
Walter showed her where a brook bubbled
clear from the fountain-head ; by its brink, blue
veronicas grew, and tall yellow loosestrife, and
tasselled purple heads of great English eupatory.
Bending down to the stream he picked a little
bunch of forget-me-nots, and handed them to
her. Dolly pretended unconsciously to pull the
dainty blossoms to pieces, as she sat on the
clay bank hard by and talked with him. " Is
that how you treat my poor flowers ? " Walter
asked, looking askance at her.
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Dolly glanced down, and drew back suddenly.
"Oh, poor little things!" she cried, with a
quick droop of her long lashes. " I was n't
thinking what I did." And she darted a shy
glance at him. " If I *d remembered they were
forget-me-nots, I don't think I could have done,
it. "
She looked so sweet and pure in her budding
innocence, like a half-blown water-lily, that the
young man, already more than two-thirds in
love, was instantly captivated. "Because they
were forget-me-nots, or because they were mine^
Miss Barton?" he asked softly, all timorous-
ness.
"Perhaps a little of both," the girl answered,
gazing down, and blushing at each word a still
deeper crimson.
The blush showed sweet on that translucent
skin. Walter turned to her with a sudden
impulse. " And what are you going to do with
them now?'' he enquired, holding his breath for
joy and half-suppressed eagerness.
Dolly hesitated a moment with genuine
modesty. Then her liking for the well-knit
young man overcame her. With a frightened
smile her hand stole to her bodice; she fixed
them in her bosom. "Will that do.?" she
asked timidly.
" Yes, that will do," the young man answered,
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bending forward and seizing her soft fingers in
his own. "That will do very well. And, Miss
Barton — Dolores — I take it as a sign you
don't wholly dislike me.**
"I like you very much,** Dolly answered in a
low voice, pulling a rock-rose from a cleft and
tearing it nervously to pieces.
"Do you love me, Dolly.?** the young man
insisted.
Dolly turned her glance to him tenderly, then
withdrew it in haste. "I think I mighty in
time,** she answered very slowly.
"Then you will be mine, mine, mine?"
Walter cried in an ecstasy.
Dolly bent her pretty head in reluctant
assent, with a torrent of inner joy. The sun
flashed in her chestnut hair. The triumph of
that moment was to her inexpressible.
But as for Walter Brydges, he seized the
blushing face boldly in his two brown hands,
and imprinted upon it at once three respectful
kisses. Then he drew back, half-terrified at
his own temerity.
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XX.
From that day forth it was understood at
Upcombe that Dolly Barton was informally
engaged to Walter Brydges. Their betrothal
would be announced in the " Morning Post *' —
"We learn that a marriage has been arranged,"
and so forth — as soon as the chosen bride had
returned to town, and communicated the great
news in person to her mother. For reasons of
her own, Dolly preferred this delay; she did n't
wish to write on the subject to Herminia.
Would mamma go and spoil it all? she won-
dered. It would be just like her.
The remaining week of her stay at the rec-
tory was a golden dream of delight to Dolly.
Beyond even the natural ecstasy of first love,
the natural triumph of a brilliant engagement,
what visions of untold splendor danced hourly,
day and night, before her dazzled eyes ! What
masques of magnificence! county balls, garden
parties! It was heaven to Dolly. She was
going to be grander than her grandest day-
dream.
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Walter took her across one afternoon to Combe
Mary, and introduced her in due form to his
mother and his step-father, who found the pink-
and-white girl "so very young," but saw no
other grave fault in her. He even escorted her
over the ancestral home of the masters of Combe
Mary, in which they were both to live, and
which the young squire had left vacant of set
purpose till he found a wife to his mind to fill
it. 'T was the ideal crystallized. Rooks cawed
from the high elms ; ivy clambered to the gables ;
the tower of the village church closed the vista
through the avenue. The cup of Dolly's happi-
ness was full to the brim. She was to dwell in
a manor-house with livery servants of her own,
and to dress for dinner every night of her
existence.
On the very last evening of her stay in Dorset-
shire, Walter came round to see her. Mrs.
Compson and the girls managed to keep dis-
creetly out of the young people's way; the rec-
tor was in his study preparing his Sunday
sermon, which arduous intellectual effort was
supposed to engage his close attention for five
hours or so weekly. Not a mouse interrupted.
So Dolly and her lover had the field to them-
selves from eight to ten in the rectory drawing-
room.
From the first moment of Walter's entry,
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Dolly was dimly aware, womanlike, of some-
thing amiss, something altered in his manner.
Not, indeed, that her lover was less affectionate
or less tender than usual, — if anything he
seemed rather more so; but his talk was embar-
rassed, pre-occupied, spasmodic. He spoke by
fits and starts, and seemed to hold back some-
thing. Dolly taxed him with it at last. Walter
tried to put it off upon her approaching depart-
ure. But he was an honest young man, and so
bad an actor that Dolly, with her keen feminine
intuitions, at once detected him. " It 's more
than that," she said, all regret, leaning forward
with a quick-gathering moisture in her eye, for
she really loved him. "It's more than that,
^Walter. You *ve heard something somewhere
that you don't want to tell me."
Walter's color changed at once. He was a
man, and therefore but a poor dissembler.
"Well, nothing very much," he admitted, awk-
wardly.
Dolly drew back like one stung; her heart
beat fast. " What have you heard ? " she cried
trembling ; " Walter, Walter, I love you ! You
must keep nothing back. Tell me fww what it
is. I can bear to hear it. "
The young man hesitated. " Only something
my step-father heard from a friend last night,"
he replied, floundering deeper and deeper.
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"Nothing at all about you, darling. Only —
well — about your family."
Dolly's face was red as fire. A lump rose in
her throat; she started in horror. Then he had
found out the Truth. He had probed the
Mystery.
"Something that makes you sorry you prom-
ised to marry me ? '* she cried aloud in her
despair. Heaven faded before her eyes. What
evil trick could mamma have played her.?
As she stood there that moment — proud,
crimson, breathless — Walter Brydges would
have married her if her father had been a tinker
and her mother a gipsy girl. He drew her tow-
ard him tenderly. "No, darling," he cried,
kissing her, for he was a chivalrous young man,
as he understood chivalry; and to him it was
indeed a most cruel blow to learn that his future
wife was born out of lawful wedlock. " I *m
proud of you; I love you. I worship the very
ground your sweet feet tread on. Nothing on
earth could make me anything but grateful and
thankful for the gift of your love you 're gracious
enough to bestow on me."
But Dolly drew back in alarm. Not on such
terms as those. She, too, had her pride; she, too,
had her chivalry. "No, no," she cried, shrink-
ing. "I don't know what it is. I don't know
what it means. But till I *ve gone home to
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London and asked about it from mother, — oh,
Walter, we two are no longer engaged. You
are free from your promise."
She said it proudly ; she said it bravely. She
said it with womanly grace and dignity. Some-
thing of Herminia shone out in her that moment.
No man should ever take her — to the grandest
home — unless he took her at her full worth,
pleased and proud to win her.
Walter soothed and coaxed; but Dolores
stood firm. Like a rock in the sea, no assault
could move her. As things stood at present,
she cried, they were no longer engaged. After
she had seen her mother and talked it all over,
she would write to him once more, and tell him
what she thought of it.
And, crimson to the finger-tips with shame
and modesty, she rushed from his presence up to
her own dark bed-room.
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XXI.
Next morning early, Dolly left Combe Neville
on her way to London. When she reached the
station, Walter was on the platform with a
bunch of white roses. He handed them to her
deferentially as she took her seat in the third-
class carriage ; and so sobered was Dolly by this
great misfortune that she forgot even to feel a
passing pang of shame that Walter should see
her travel in that humble fashion. "Remem-
ber," he whispered in her ear, as the train
steamed out, "we are still engaged; I hold you
to your promise. '*
And Dolly, blushing maidenly shame and dis-
tress, shook her head decisively. "Not now,"
she answered. "I must wait till I know the
truth. It has always been kept from me. And
now I wz// know it."
She had not slept that night. All the way
up to London, she kept turning her doubt over.
The more she thought of it, the deeper it galled
her. Her wrath waxed bitter against Herminia
for thij^ evil turn she had wrought. The
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smouldering anger of years blazed forth at
last. Had she blighted her daughter's life, and
spoiled so fair a future by obstinate adherence
to those preposterous ideas of hers?
Never in her life had Dolly loved her mother.
At best, she had felt towards her that contempt-
uous toleration which inferior minds often ex-
tend to higher ones. And now — why, she
hated her.
In London, as it happened, th^t very morn-
ing, Herminia, walking across Regent's Park,
had fallen in with Harvey Kynaston, and their
talk had turned upon this self-same problem.
"What will you do when she asks you about
it, as she must, sooner or later.?" the man
inquired.
And Herminia, smiling that serene sweet
smile of hers, made answer at once without a
second's hesitation, "I shall confess the whole
truth to her."
"But it might be so bad for her," Harvey
Kynaston went on. And then he proceeded to
bring up in detail casuistic objections on the
score of a young girl's modesty; all of which
fell flat on Herminia's more honest and consis-
tent temperament.
"I believe in the truth," she said simply;
"and I 'm never afraid of it. I don't think a
lie, or even a suppression, can ever be good in
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the end for any one. The Truth shall make you
Free. That one principle in life can guide one
through everything."
In the evening, when Dolly came home, her
mother ran out proudly and affectionately to kiss
her. But Dolly drew back her face with a gest-
ure of displeasure, nay, almost of shrinking.
" Not now, mother ! " she cried. " I have some-
thing to ask you about Till I know the truth,
I can never kiss you."
Herminia's face turned deadly white; she
knew it had come at last. But still she never
flinched. "You shall hear the truth from me,
darling," she said, with a gentle touch. "You
have always heard it."
They passed under the doorway and up the
stairs in silence. As soon as they were in the
sitting-room, Dolly fronted Herminia fiercely.
"Mother," she cried, with the air of a wild
creature at bay, "were you married to my
father.?"
Herminia's cheek blanched, and her pale lips
quivered as she nerved herself to answer; but
she answered bravely, "No, darling, I was not.
It has always been contrary to my principles to
marry. "
" Your principles ! " Dolores echoed in a tone
of ineffable scorn. " Your principles! Your
principles! All my life has been sacrificed to
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you and your principles ! " Then she turned
on her madly once more. "And who was my
father? " she burst out in her agony.
Herminia never paused. She must tell her
the truth. "Your father's name was Alan
Merrick," she answered, steadying herself with
one hand on the table. "He died at Perugia
before you were born there. He was a son of
Sir Anthony Merrick, the great doctor in
Harley Street."
The worst was out. Dolly stood still and
gasped. Hot horror flooded her burning cheeks.
Illegitimate ! illegitimate ! Dishonored from her
birth! A mark for every cruel tongue to aim
at! Born in shame and disgrace! And then,
to think what she might have been, but for her
mother's madness! The granddaughter of two
such great men in their way as the Dean of
Dunwich and Sir Anthony Merrick.
She drew back, all aghast. Shame and agony
held her. Something of maiden modesty burned
bright in her cheek and down her very neck.
Red waves coursed through her. How on earth
after this could she face Walter Brydges }
"Mother, mother!" she broke out, sobbing,
after a moment's pause, "oh, what have you
done.^ What have you done.? A cruel, cruel
mother you have been to me. How can I ever
forgive you } "
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Herminia gazed at her, appalled. It was a
natural tragedy. There was no way out of it.
She could n't help seizing the thing at once, in
a lightning flash of sympathy, from Dolly's point
of view, too. Quick womanly instinct made her
heart bleed for her daughter's manifest shame
and horror.
"Dolly, Dolly," the agonized mother cried,
flinging herself upon her child's mercy, as it
were; "Don't be hard on me; don't be hard on
me! My darling, how could I ever guess you
would look at it like this ? How could I ever
guess my daughter and his would see things
for herself in so different a light from the light
we saw them in ? "
" You had no right to bring me into the world
at all," Dolly cried, growing fiercer as her
mother grew more unhappy. "If you did, you
should have put me on an equality with other
people."
"Dolly," Herminia moaned, wringing her
hands in her despair, "my child, my darling,
how I have loved you ! how I have watched over
you ! Your life has been for years the one thing
I had to live for. I dreamed you .would be just
such another one as myself. Egual with other
people ! Why, I thought I was giving you the
noblest heritage living woman ever yet gave the
child of her bosom. I thought you would be
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proud of it, as I myself would have been proud.
I thought you would accept it as a glorious
birthright, a supreme privilege. How could I
foresee you would turn aside from your mother's
creed? How could I anticipate you would be
ashamed of being the first free-born woman ever
begotten in England ? 'T was a blessing I meant
to give you, and you have made a curse of
it."
" You have made a curse of it! ** Dolores an-
swered, rising and glaring at her. " You have
blighted my life for me. A good man and true
was going to make me his wife. After this,
how can I dare to palm myself off upon him ? "
She swept from the room. Though broken
with sorrow, her step was resolute. Herminia
followed her to her bed-room. There Dolly sat
long on the edge of the bed, crying silently,
silently, and rocking herself up and down like
one mad with agony. At last, in one fierce
burst, she relieved her burdened soul by pour-
ing out to her mother the whole tale of her
meeting with Walter Brydges. Though she
hated her, she must tell her. Herminia lis-
tened with deep shame. It brought the color
back into her own pale cheek to think any man
should deem he was performing an act of chival-
rous self-devotion in marrying Herminia Barton's
unlawful daughter. Alan Merrick's child ! The
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child of SO many hopes! The baby that was
born to regenerate humanity!
At last, in a dogged way, Dolly rose once
more. She put on her hat and jacket.
"Where are you going?" her mother asked,
terrified.
^I am going out," Dolores answered, "to the
post, to telegraph to him. "
She worded her telegram briefly but proudly :
u
My mother has told me all. I understand your
feeling. Our arrangement is annulled. Good-by.
You have been kind to me."
An hour or two later, a return telegram
came : —
"Our engagement remains exactly as it was.
Nothing is changed. I hold you to your promise.
All tenderest messages. Letter follows."
That answer calmed Dolly's mind a little.
She began to think after all, — if Walter still
wanted her, — she loved him very much ; she
could hardly dismiss him.
When she rose to go to bed, Herminia, very
wistful, held out her white face to be kissed as
usual. She held it out tentatively. Worlds
trembled in the balance ; but Dolly drew herself
back with a look of oflFended dignity. " Never ! "
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she answered in a firm voice. "Never again
while I live. You are not fit to receive a pure
girl's kisses."
And two women lay awake all that ensuing
night sobbing low on their pillows in the Mary-
lebone lodging-house.
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XXII.
It was half-past nine o'clock next morning
when the man-servant at Sir Anthony Merrick's
in Harley Street brought up to his master's
room a plain hand-written card on which he
.read the name, "Dolores Barton.**
"Does the girl want to blackmail me .? " Sir
Anthony thought testily.
The great doctor's old age was a lonely and
a sordid one. He was close on eighty now, but
still to this day he received his patients from ten
to one, and closed his shrivelled hand with a
clutch on their guineas. For whom, nobody
knew. Lady Merrick was long dead. His
daughters were well married, and he had quar-
relled with their husbands. Of his two younger
sons, one had gone into the Fusiliers and been
speared at Suakim; the other had broken his
neck on a hunting-field in Warwickshire. The
old man lived alone, and hugged his money-
bags. They were the one thing left for which
he seemed to retain any human affection.
So, when he read Dolly's card, being by
nature suspicious, he felt sure the child had
called to see what she could get out of him.
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But when he descended to the consulting-
room with stern set face, and saw a beautiful
girl of seventeen awaiting him, — a tall sunny-
haired girl, with Alan's own smile and Alan's
own eyes, — he grew suddenly aware of an unex-
pected interest. The sun went back on the
dial of his life for thirty years or thereabouts,
and Alan himself seemed to stand before him.
Alan, as he used to burst in for his holidays
from Winchester ! After all, this pink rosebud
was his eldest son's only daughter.
Chestnut hair, pearly teeth, she was Alan all
over.
Sir Anthony bowed his most respectful bow,
with old-fashioned courtesy.
"And what can I do for you, young lady.^"
he asked in his best professional manner.
"Grandfather," the girl broke out, blushing
red to the ears, but saying it out none the less ;
"Grandfather, I 'm your granddaughter, Dolores
Barton."
The old man bowed once more, a most defer-
ential bow. Strange to say, when he saw her,
this claim of blood pleased him.
"So I see, my child," he answered. "And
what do you want with me? "
"I only knew it last night," Dolly went on,
casting down those blue eyes in her shamefaced
embarrassment. "And this morning . . . I *ve
come to implore your protection."
214 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
"That •s prompt," the old man replied, with a
curious smile, half suspicious, half satisfied.
" From whom, my little one ? " And his hand
caressed her shoulder.
"From my mother," Dolly answered, blushing
still deeper crimson. "From the mother who
put this injustice upon me. From the mother
who, by her own confession, might have given me
an honorable birthright, like any one else's, and
who cruelly refused to. "
The old man eyed her with a searching glance.
"Then she hasn't brought you up in her
own wild ideas .^ " he said. " She has n't dinged
them into you ! "
"She has tried to," Dolly answered. "But I
will have nothing to do with them. I hate her
ideas, and her friends, and her faction."
Sir Anthony drew her forward and gave her a
sudden kiss. Her spirit pleased him.
"That's well, my child," he answered.
"That's well — for a beginning."
Then Dolly, emboldened by his kindness, — for
in a moment, somehow, she had taken her grand-
father's heart by assault, — began to tell him how
it had all come about ; how she had received an
offer from a most excellent young man at Combe
Mary in Dorsetshire, — very well connected, the
squire of his parish; how she had accepted him
with joy; how she loved him dearly; how this
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 215
shadow intervened ; how thereupon, for the first
time, she had asked for and learned the horrid
truth about her parentage ; how she was stunned
and appalled by it; how she could never again
live under one roof with such a woman; and
how she came to him for advice, for encourage-
ment, for assistance. She flung herself on his
mercy. Every word she spoke impressed Sir
Anthony. This was no mere acting; the girl
really meant it. Brought up in those hateful sur-
roundings, innate purity of mind had preserved
her innocent heart from the contagion of example.
She spokelike a sensible, modest, healthy English
maiden. She was indeed a granddaughter any
man might be proud of. *T was clear as the
sun in the London sky to Sir Anthony that she
recoiled with horror from her mother's position.
He sympathized with her and pitied her.
Dolores, all blushes, lifted her eyelids and
looked at him. Her grandfather drew her tow-
ards him with a smile of real tenderness, and,
unbending as none had seen him unbend before
since Alan's death, told her all the sad history
as he himself envisaged it. Dolores listened
and shuddered. The old man was vanquished.
He would have taken her once to himself, he
said, if Herminia had permitted it; he would
take her to himself now, if Dolores would come
to him.
2l6 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
As for Dolly, she lay sobbing and crying in
Sir Anthony's arms, as though she had always
known him. After all, he was her grandfather.
Nearer to her in heart and soul than her mother.
And the butler could hardly conceal his surprise
and amazement when three minutes later Sir
Anthony rang the bell, and being discovered
alone with a strange young lady in tears, made
the unprecedented announcement that he would
see no patients at all that morning, and was at
home to nobody.
But before Dolly left her new-found relation's
house, it was all arranged between them. She
was to come there at once as his adopted daugh-
ter; was to take and use the name of Merrick;
was to see nothing more of that wicked woman,
her mother; and was to be married in due time
from Sir Anthony's house, and under Sir
Anthony's auspices, to Walter Brydges.
She wrote to Walter then and there, from
her grandfather's consulting-room. Numb with
shame as she was, she nerved her hand to write
to him. In what most delicate language she
could find, she let him plainly know who Sir
Anthony was, and all else that had happened.
But she added at the end one significant clause:
" While my mother lives, dear Walter, I feel I
can never marry you."
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 2\^
XXIII.
When she returned from Sir Anthony's to her
mother's lodgings, she found Herminia, very
"pale, in the sitting-room, waiting for her. Her
eyes were fixed on a cherished autotype of a
Pinturicchio at Perugia, — Alan's favorite pict-
ure. Out of her penury she had bought it. It
represented the Madonna bending in worship
over her divine child, and bore the inscription :
"Quem genuit adoravit. " Herminia loved that
grdup. To her it was no mere emblem of a
dying creed, but a type of the eternal religion
of maternity. The Mother adoring the Child!
'T was herself and Dolly.
"Well.?" Herminia said interrogatively, as
her daughter entered, for she half feared the
worst.
"Well," Dolores answered in a defiant tone,
blurting it out in sudden jerks, the rebellion of
a lifetime finding vent at last. " I 've been to
my grandfather, my father's father; and I 've
told him everything; and it 's all arranged: and
I 'm to take his name; and I 'm to go and live
with him."
2l8 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
" Dolly ! " the mother cried, and fell forward
on the table with her face in her hands.
My child, my child, are you going to leave
n
met
16
?»»
It 's quite time," Dolly answered, in a sullen,
stolid voice. "I can't stop here, of course, now
I *m almost grown up and engaged to be married,
associating any longer with such a woman as
you have been. No right-minded girl who
respected herself could do it."
Herminia rose and faced her. Her white lips
grew livid. She had counted on every element
of her martyrdom, — save one ; and this, the
blackest and fiercest of all, had never even oc-
curred to her. "Dolly," she cried, "oh, my
daughter, you don't know what you do ! You
don't know how I 've loved you ! I 've given
up my life for you. I thought when you came
to woman's estate, and learned what was right
and what wrong, you would indeed rise up and
call me blessed. And now, — oh, Dolly, this
last blow is too terrible. It will kill me, my
darling. I can't go on out-living it."
" You will," Dolly answered. " You 're strong
enough and wiry enough to outlive anything.
. . . But I wrote to Walter from Sir Anthony's
this morning, and told him I would wait for
him if I waited forever. For, of course, while
you live, I could n't think of marrying him. I
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 219
could n't think of burdening an honest man with
such a mother-in-law as you are ! *'
Herminia could only utter the one word,
" Dolly ! " It was a heart-broken cry, the last
despairing cry of a wounded and stricken
creature.
220 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
XXIV.
That night, Herminia Barton went up sadly
to her own bed- room. It was the very last
night that Dolores was to sleep under the same
roof with her mother. On the morrow, she
meant to remove to Sir Anthony Merrick's.
As soon as Herminia had closed the door,
she sat down to her writing-table and began
to write. Her pen moved of itself. And this
was her letter : —
" My Darling Daughter, — By the time you read
these words, I shall be no longer in the way, to inter-
fere with your perfect freedom of action. I had but
one task left in life — to make you happy. Now I find
I only stand in the way of that object, no reason re-
mains why I should endure any longer the misfortune
of living.
" My child, my child, you must see, when you come
to think it over at leisure, that all I ever did was done,
up to my lights, to serve and bless you. I thought, by
giving you the father and the birth I did, I was giving
you the best any mother on earth had ever yet given
her dearest daughter. I believe it still ; but I see I
should never succeed in making you feel it. Accept
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 221
this reparation. For all the wrong I may have done,
all the mistakes I may have made, I sincerely and ear-
nestly implore your forgiveness. I could not have had
it while I lived ; I beseech and pray you to grant me
dead what you would never have been able to grant me
living.
" My darling, I thought you would grow up to feel as
I did ; I thought you would thank me for leading you
to see such things as the blind world is incapable of
seeing. There I made a mistake ; and sorely am I
punished for it. Don't visit it upon my head in your
recollections when I can no longer defend myself.
" I set out in life with the earnest determination to
be a martyr to the cause of truth and righteousness, as
I myself understood them. But I didn't foresee this
last pang of martyrdom. No soul .can tell beforehand
to what particular cross the blind chances of the uni-
verse will finally nail it. But I am ready to be offered,
and the time of my departure is close at hand. I have
fought a good fight ; I have finished my course ; I have
kept the faith I started in life with. Nothing now re-
mains for me but the crown of martyrdom. My dar-
ling, it is indeed a very bitter cup to me that you should
wish me dead ; but 't is a small thing to die, above all
for the sake of those we love. I die for you gladly,
knowing that by doing so I can easily relieve my o^^ti
dear little girl of one trouble in life, and make her
course lie henceforth through smoother waters. Be
happy ! be happy ! Good-by, my Dolly ! Your
mother's love go forever through life with you I
222 THE WOMAN WHO DID.
" Burn this blurred note the moment you have read
it. I inclose a more formal one, giving reasons for my
act on other grounds, to be put in, if need be, at the
coroner's inquest. Good-night, my heart's darling.
Your truly devoted and affectionate
Mother.
"Oh, Dolly, my Dolly, you never will know with
what love I loved you."
When she had finished that note, and folded
it reverently with kisses and tears, she wrote
the second one in a firm hand for the formal
evidence. Then she put on a fresh white dress,
as pure as her own soul, like the one she had
worn on the night of her self-made bridal with
Alan Merrick. In her bosom she fastened two
innocent white roses from Walter Brydges's
bouquet, arranging them with studious care very
daintily before her mirror. She was always a
woman. "Perhaps," she thought to herself,
"for her lover's sake, my Dolly will kiss them.
When she finds them lying on her dead mother's
breast, my Dolly may kiss them." Then she
cried a few minutes very softly to herself; for
no one can die without some little regret, some
consciousness of the unique solemnity of the
occasion.
At last she rose and moved over to her desk.
Out of it she took a small glass-stoppered phial,
THE WOMAN WHO DID. 223
that a scientific friend had given her long ago
for use in case of extreme emergency. It con-
tained prussic acid. She poured the contents
into a glass and drank it off. Then she lay
upon her bed and waited for the only friend she
had left in the world, with hands folded on her
breast, like some saint of the middle ages.
Not for nothing does blind fate vouchsafe such
martyrs to humanity. From their graves shall
spring glorious the church of the future.
When Dolores came in next morning to say
good-by, she found her mother* s body cold and
stiff upon the bed, in a pure white dress, with
two crushed white roses just peeping from her
bodice.
Herminia Barton's stainless soul had ceased
to exist forever.
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tabooed subjects, they evidence power and thought — Public Opinion,
Indeed, we do not hesitate to say that " Keynotes" is the strongest volume
of short stories that the year has produced. Further, we would wager a good
deal, were it necessary, that George Egerton is a nom-de-plume, and of a woman,
too. Why is it that so many women hide beneath a man^s name when they enter
the field of authorship? And in this case it seems doubly foolish, the work is so
intensely strong. . . .
The chief characters of these stories are women, and women drawn as only a
woman can draw word-pictures of her own sex. The subtlety .of analysis is
wonderful, direct in its effectiveness, unerring in its truth, and stirring in its reveal-
ing power. Truly, no one but a woman could thus throw the light of revelation
upon her own sex. Man does not understand woman as does the author of
" Keynotes."
The vitality of the stories, too, is remarkable. Life, very real life, is pictured ;
life full of joys and sorrows, happinesses and heartbreaks, courage and self-sacrifice ;
of self-abnegation, of struggle, of victory. The characters are intense, yet not
overdrawn ; the experiences are dramatic, in one sense or another, and yet are
never hyper-emotional. And all is told with a power of concentration that is
simply astonishing. A sentence does duty for a chapter, a paragraph for a picture
of years of experience.
Indeed, for vigor, originality, forcefulness of expression, and completeness of
character presentation,. '* Keynotes" surpasses any recent volume of short fiction
that we can recall. — TimeSf Boston.
It brings a new quality and a striking new force into the literature of the
hour. — The Speaker.
The mind that conceived " Keynotes " is so strong and original that one will
look with deep interest for the successors of this first bbok, at once powerful and
appeal ingly feminine. — Irish Independent.
Sold by all booksellers. Mailed^ post-paid^ on receipt
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ROBERT LODIS STEVENSON'S WORKS.
TRAVELS WITH A DONKEY IN THE CEVENNES.
With a Frontispiece Illustration by Walter Crane. (Paper
cover, 50 cents.) i6mo. jj^i.oo.
Mr. Stevenson's journey in the C^vennes gage.^ He was deplorably ignorant, neither
is a bright and amusing book for summer knowing how to pack his load nor drive his
reading. The author set out alone, on donkey; and his early experience forms a
foot, for a twelve days' journey over the ridiculous record of disaster. — Providence
mountains, with a donkey to carry his lug- Journal.
AN INLAND VOYAGE. i6mo. $1.00.
Unlike Captain Macgregor, of " Rob that furnishes some of the pleasantest pas-
Roy " fame, Mr. Stevenson does not make sa^es of the book. ... In a modest and
canoeing itself his main theme, but de- quiet way, Mr. Stevenson's book is one of
lights in charming bits of description that, the very best of the year for summer read-
in their close attention to picturesque ing. Ihe volume has a very neat desien
detail, remind one of the work of a skilled for the cover, with a fanciful picture of the
"genre" painter. Nor does he hesitate, "Arethusa" and "Cigarette," the canoes
from time to time, to diverge altogether of the author and his companion. — Good
from his immediate subject, and to indulge Literature.
in a strain of gently humorous reflection
THE SILVERADO SQUATTERS. With a Frontispiece
by Walter Crane. i6mo. ;|ii.oo.
Mr. Stevenson is an invalid, and in graphic style and keen observation of the
search of health he went to Mount Saint author. He has the power of describing
Helena, in Californiai and hi^h up ia its places and characters with such vividness
sides took possession of a mmer's cabin that you seem to have made personal
fast falling to ruin, — one of the few rem- acquamtance with both . . . Mr. Steven-
nants of the abandoned mining village of son's racy narrative brings many phases of
Silverado. There, with his wife and a life upon the western coast before one uith
single servant, considerable time was spent, striking power and captivating grace. —
The interest of the book centred in the New York World.
TREASURE ISLAND. A Story of Pirates and the Spanish
Main. With 28 Illustrations. i2mo. (Paper covers, 50 cents.)
$1.25. Cheaper edition. i6mo. $1.00.
At a time when the books of Mayne details the stirring adventures of an Eng-
Reid, Ballantyne, and Kingston are taking lish crew in their search for the immense
their places on the shelves to which well- treasure secreted by a pirate captain, and
thumbed volumes are relegated, it will be it certainly has not a dull page in it- Yet
with especial delight that boy readers wel- the author has contrived to keep the sym*
come a new writer in the literature of ad- pathy on the side of virtue and honestj*,
venture. In "Treasure Island," Robert and throw upon the pirates that odium and
Louis Stevenson takes a new departure, detestation which their nefarious courses
and writes one of the jolliest, most read- deserve ; and the book is one heartily to
able, wide-awake tales of sea life that have be commended to any sturdy, wholesome
set the blood tingling in the veins of the lad who is fond of the smell of the brine
boys of at least the present generation. ^ It and the tang of sailor speech in his read-
is decidedly of the exciting order of stories, ing. — Boston Courier.
yet not of the unhealthily sensational. It
PRINCE OTTO. A Romance. i6mo. ;?i.oo.
Whatever Mr. Stevenson writes is sure is so charming in every page this author
to be interesting and even absorbing ; and has published, and so unhackneyed that
to this ** Prince Otto" is no exception. It one knows not what to expect from any
is a graceful and unusual romance, full of one paragraph to the next. — Boston
surprises, full of that individuality which Courier.
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