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C#m A
Inside my friends are joking with me,
C#m A
outside the Sun is starving to death.
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Climbing in kitchens and filling with fear,
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losing my memory, losing my breath.

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Outside she stands, alone, under threat.
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Inside I watch her murder unfold.
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Stabbed by a woman consumed by fear,
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her life's story forever untold.

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I crouch and curl up and cower in terror—
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the hands of the Empire reach into my dream
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and make me a hypnagogue, trapped 'twixt realities—
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the truth I must face is not what it seems.

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(Even in dreams, I am not secure;
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the safety of sleep offers me no cure
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or refuge for my broken head.
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Perhaps devils lurk within my bed.)

C#m Bm
The murderess pins me down to the table
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as flesh enters flesh and I can't move away
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from the NOTHING inside me, realer than real,
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that breaks me, transfixes me, seizes my day.

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I move to escape but I'm held back harder.
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Darkness increases, brutality swells.
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I'm supposed to be safe and snug in my bed,
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but I'm gone in my head, plunged into Hell.

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I say to myself, "Well, just lie back and enjoy it,
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you're not getting out of this anytime soon."
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And I couldn't move, and it just hurt so much,
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reality itself seemed to be out of tune.

C#m A
And then I awoke, and I felt like shit—
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At home in my body for the very first time.
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This kind of suffering can shape who you are,
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but it's without reason, it just has no rhyme.